"previously on saved... you've gotta help me." "My wife,she's an rn.She works in there." "She's pregnant--8 months." "What's her name?" "Jill neuwirtH." "Angela!" "?" "My leg." "You gotta promise." "You're gonna be fine." "Not me,the baby." "I promise." "I lost her pulse.Start cpr." "She's gone." "We have 6 minutes to get the baby out." "I need to talk to a surgeon than can do a c-section now." "What do I get out of doing my job?" "I'll tell ya." "A deep, spiritual satisfaction." "See,the thing about E.R.Docs, they just hand it off to a specialist." "But we're out in the world.I mean, we...we gotta do it all." "This party's,like,incredible." "I wasn't even invited." "I just kind of came with someone." "Can I get your autograph?" "What you want me to sign?" "Me." "Thanks." "You're welcome." "People talk about stress like it's a bad thing." "You need tension on the string, or there's no way to make music." "This is my art." "I'm good at it, and I take it very seriously." "So,talkin' to disturbed people, how's that workin' out for you?" "Satisfying?" "Everything you hoped it'd be?" "Do you think that you and the other people at the portland west bombing are disturbed?" "Not as much as the guy who blew it up." "No,I'm just curious about this rom your point of view." "Company drops you in to make sure that we're not all...hangin' by a mental thread." "You gotta have some expectations when you walk in the door,don't you?" "Well,I keep an open mind,and I never judge." "Never?" "Never,ever?" "This is incredible.I wasn't even invited." "I just kind of came with someone, but could I get your autograph?" "Ok,first thing,you check each vertebrae, walking your fingers along the spine." "Now,the head's the heaviest part of the body, and evolution put it up on top of this celery stalk where it can get into all sorts of trouble." "You ever have any problems with patient transference,displaced attraction?" "I could see where that might become an issue for you." "Your mother's a therapist,isn't she?" "Is she?" "Did she teach you to answer every question with a question?" "What do you think?" "Long day?" "yes." "You know,the head's the heaviest art of the body, and evolution put it up on this celery stalk, where it can get into all sorts of trouble." "Really?" "I didn't know you came up here." "Whenever I get a chance." "I have a hard time leaving at night." "Feel like if I go, he won't be here when I come back." "It's gonna be ok." "Guess everybody says that to you, don't they?" "Sorry." "I know what they mean." "How you holdin' up?" "He's doin' better every day." "He's getting stronger." "I asked how you were doing,nick." "I'm..." "I'm all right,I guess.I..." "you do what you have to do,right?" "Right." "This has gotta be a joke." "Far from it." "The company has discretion about handling critical incident stress management after something like the bombing." "This is how we're gonna do it." "Listen,I don't want to talk to a therapist." "I don't need to talk to a therapist." "I'm not gonna talk to a therapist." "It's compulsory." "Come on.Even wyatt's agreed to talk to ms.Thorpe, and he's arguably the loosest cannon on the premises." "He's right.She helps me get in touch with my feelings." "Yeah,about her legs." "Compulsory.Like they care." "Man,they are just trying to cover their ass in case somebody cracks up later." "Hey,nobody's crackin' up." "Don't get toasted over this.It's a game." "I ought to know because my growing up was one long therapy session." "You just go in,and you use the right buzzwords like "processing the experience." "If you tell her that you are in the process, you will have her eating out of your hand." "Hey,dad." "It's damian." "Look at you." "You look great,man.You look all handsome." "Yeah,I do." "He wanted to show you the new uniform right away." "Thanks." "You made it happen." "You all right?" "Get the camera,mom." "More pictures?" "Yeah.Us in our uniforms." "Us in our uniforms,all right." "Take it right here in front of the rig." "It wasn't until I got home that night that I realized what I had done." "I saved somebody's life." "I mean,I've helped before, but I've never done that by myself." "Must have been a very powerful feeling." "It was like..." "it was like I was transparent." "It was like you could see through me into something else,something bigger." "Oh,it was amazing.It was amazing." "It's smart taking' half shifts for a while." "Full shifts.Twice as smart." "Thought you were gonna ease back into it." "I am." "This is me easing." "Well,it's good to have you back." "Seriously." "Put together some I.V.Setups." "Absolutely." "Hey!" "Hey!" "Come on!" "Come on!" "Open up!" "License and registration!" "Where the hell'd you learn to drive?" "And you kids,you shut up,or I'll give you somethin' to cry about,ok?" "Hey,hey,take it easy,clarabell." "The name's custard,you moron, and she caused this accident,ok?" "Ask the kids in the back." "They saw the whole thing." "Tell the truth,children." "Tell the truth,or the cops'll take your mom away to jail!" "You're scarin' the kids.Relax." "What did that accomplish?" "Shut up!" "You rammed right into her,conrad." "She stopped short,ok?" "There's nothing I could do!" "That clown's insane." "Yeah,no doubt." "Are you ok?" "I think so." "My kids." "Sure." "Just don't turn your head,all right?" "they look fine." "Hey,guys,you see what I'm doin' here?" "How is this my fault?" "What?" "You think I'm blind?" "You think I didn't see you comin' on to that guy right in front of my face!" "?" "You're disgusting." "Calm down,both of you,all right?" "Trying to make sure everybody's ok." "Are you ok?" "Yeah,I'm fine.I've never felt better." "Well,great." "God,where the hell's my nose now?" "What are you worried about your nose for,sir?" "You just got in a car accident." "Think you can just go and buy one of these,like in a store?" "Ok,yeah,whatever.Just the two of you in the car?" "What?" "Was it just the two of you in the car?" "Oh!" "'Cause it's a "clown car." "That's funny.Funny joke." "Either one of you feeling any pain?" "I think I bit my tongue." "Your tongue?" "Please,bite it off!" "God,can she bite it off?" "Shut up,conrad!" "Don't you tell me to shut up,you cheap little" "Hey,hey.Didn't I tell you to stay put?" "Hey,take it easy there,chuckles." "It'S...it's custard!" "Can we get that right?" "Custard!" "Ok,chuckles." "Listen,ignoramus, we were in this wreck,too,ok?" "How about lookin' after us as well?" "We're tryin' to give everybody some attention." "Do you know what day of the week it is?" "What?" "He doesn't know." "He's disoriented." "I am not disoriented." "And combative." "I'm not being-- you--you--you..." "What is that?" "Something that's gonna make everybody feel a little bit better." "Been dying to do that since I was,like,8." "Send in the clowns?" "Don't worry,they're here." "So,uh,you been up to the nicu lately?" "Don't tell me you already forgot." "The neuwirth baby?" "No,I just don't get up there much." "That's not really my turf." "I heard they took him off oxygen, trying him on room air." "He's still the neuwirth baby?" "His dad hasn't named him yet?" "Maybe he's waiting." "For what?" "I don't know." "I guess he's just waiting." "Right.It's my dad." "Take it.I have to get back to work." "No,that's ok." "Thanks giving's in a couple of months." "I'll catch up with him then." "Incoming." "I'm sick of it,man-- the fame, the adulation,the women." "How's my hair?" "It's good." "Wyatt,sack,you guys got a second?" "Always got a second for you,art." "Just want to get a reaction." "Ok.It's our job.It's what we do." "That's fine,but that's not what I want to ask you about." "Ok,ask away." "Nick neuwirth filed suit today, naming your company,this hospital, and several individuals, including the two of you." "What's your first response?" "He did what?" "The father of the baby you saved is suing you." "He claims you disregarded standards of care." "The baby's fine." "It's not about the baby." "It's about his wife." "He's holding you responsible for the death of jill neuwirth." "Care to comment?" "Dr.Lanier will join us when he's out of surgery." "Go ahead,gail." "Well,for what it's worth,the hospital and lifeshield aren't in this alone." "Mr.Neuwirth is also suing the county, the owner of the building, the clinic where the explosion took place, and the man who placed the bomb." "He's not only searching for the responsible party, he's shopping for the deepest pocket." "This is a nightmare." "I agree." "What is he claiming?" "That mrs.Neuwirth could have been saved, and that the decision to deliver her baby by cesarean section precipitated her death." "She was dead when the baby was born." "If she was dead,why did you continue to bag her and deliver cpr?" "To keep the baby oxygenated." "Did you check the maternal pulse fter you delivered the baby?" "No." "Why not?" "Because we had exactly no time to get the baby out of the building." "What kind of...what-- what kind of question is that?" "The sort of question his lawyers are going to ask." "Delivering the baby would have relieved pressure from the uterus on the mother's vena cava." "It could have improved her hemodynamic status." "It's rare,but it does happen." "You didn't check her pulse?" "No,I didn'T." "That's right...because under those circumstances,no one would." "Well,as counsel for lifeshield, harley agrees with me that there's a chance of settlement." "I don't want to settle if it's going to leave a cloud of doubt over this hospital." "You'd be going up against a grieving widower with a newborn baby." "A baby he wouldn't have if it weren't for the actions of the men in this room." "I make 25 grand a year.What do they think they're gonna get from me?" "Suing you isn't about the money, mr.Hallon." "It's about suffering.He just wants you to be as miserable as he is." "Well,he succeeded." "As a rule,when someone says that it is not about the money, it's always about the money." "Somebody got to this guy, nd they convinced him to do this." "I just talked to him." "Well,don't talk to him anymore." "I'll talk to whoever I want." "Wyatt?" "This is not just about you." "There are other people involved." "Well,that's about the end of our scheduled time,so if you'd like to leave." "Great,thanks.I feel a lot better." "Next time,here's what we do." "We get everyone to sign a waiver before we touch 'em." ""Sorry,sir,I know you lost a lot of blood,"but press harder." "You're making 3 copies." "Do not call neuwirth." "What makes you think I'm calling him?" "Just don'T." "Medic 712,man down.1414 huggenaut, cross tanner." "Called 911 on cell,we lost the signal." "Dispatch,we got it." "You need somethin',fellas?" "You called us." "Nobody here called you.Everything's fine." "You sure?" "Yeah." "You must have the wrong address." "I'll let dispatch know." "Where you goin'?" "This is the right address." "Come on.You saw the look on the guy's face." "Man says we go,we go." "Come on,wyatt.It's none of our business." "Look,I'm not gonna let some lawyer scare me into just goin' through the motions." "We can do our jobs,or we can just look like we're doing our jobs." "Is this where you make the soylent green?" "What the hell are you doing here?" "I told you not to call." "Listen,you don't care about sammy,but we do." "You got a man in there?" "We got this under control." "How cold is it in that thing?" "Minus 40 degrees." "Shut up." "Hey,man,I think you can probably open it from the inside latch." "The latch is corroded on both sides." "I told you to shut up.We'll get him out." "We don't need you or osha or anybody." "Dude,better let us get him out, or osha's gonna be the least" "Give it a little tug.Loosen it." "Forget it,eddie.We'll call the freezer company." "What the hell you think you're doin'?" "Get down off of there!" "Think you used enough dynamite" "Some paramedics think that it's all about the algorithms." "If it's "a," do "B.If it's c," do "D." "Like a trail of breadcrumbs through the nasty,dark forest." "That's cookbook medicine." "What they teach only gets you so far." "You have to improvise." "Gotta play some jazz if you want to save lives." "Is that what it was like t the bomb site?" "Jazz?" "Hey,sammy,how you doin'?" "Cold." "I'm cold." "Bulletin!" "Sammy's cold!" "Let's go,sammy.Here we go,nice and slow." "You know what that freezer door costs?" "You'll be hearin' from my lawyer." "A lawyer?" "Tell him to take a number." "We don't have all day." "Sorry." "Ange!" "Hey." "Harp,push the lady's stretcher,man." "Don't make her do all the work." "He's too slow." "Strip it,clean it,load it, and you're driving." "I saw the insurance doctor's report." "That's why I was surprised to see you back so soon." "I heal fast,always have." "You were trapped under a collapsed ceiling?" "Not really trapped.The ceiling fell on us." "They did suggest physical therapy." "Work's the best therapy.Helps you focus." "You focus you mind, you stay in control of your body." "Why is it so important to stay in control?" "Why is it so important to breathe?" "Jeez.Why are your hands so cold?" "I brought you 25 pounds of frozen shrimp." "Nobody's ever given me the gift of shrimp before." "I heard about the lawsuit." "How's daniel takin' it?" "he doesn't show much.But I don't think he's sorry about what happened." "He feels like you all did the right thing." "We did.Too bad the world doesn't think so." "We had to shut the phone off." "Reporters calling all day long." "The press'll get bored,you know?" "And move on to the next thing." "I wish it was just the press." "What do you mean?" "The state's getting involved." "The board of medical examiners and the ems agency." "I had no idea we were all such bad people." "And on the heels of the announced state investigation, people have started to come forward with dditional stories about the two paramedics... wyatt,sack,now!" "Let me tell you something about your so-called heroes,ok?" "They were arrogant,they were insensitive, they didn't care about my poor wife, let alone me,you know?" "The people should know the truth." "These two characters,they simply do not care." "Do you know him?" "I've never seen him before in my life." "We don't know him." "Criminals better than those ambulance guys treated us." "It was all just a big joke to those two,you know, so I'm not surprised that they got into trouble." "Custard.Deep custard." "This is really embarrassing." "What happened,sir?" "I was reachin' for a drawer, and it crashed down on me." "Something snapped when it fell, and it hurts like a bastard!" "Can you wiggle your toes?" "Yeah." "Can I see your arm,sir,please?" "Do you feel any numbness or tingling in your feet?" "No,just pain!" "All right,there's no blood." "Looks like it could be a clean break." "145 palp,pulse 116." "ere's what we're gonna do." "We're gonna lift this thing up, and then we're gonna slide him the rest of the way out." "Ok.Nice corvette." "'61?" "yeah!" "283?" "No,327." "Ready?" "Ready." "1,2,3." "Get him out!" "Get him out!" "Is my 'vette ok?" "Hey,it's the buzz kill news team." "Don't you guys have a train wreck or a nice plane crash you should be covering?" "Gotta go where the heat is." "Any response to the new allegations?" "You so don't want me to respond." "People need to know both sides of the story." "Which story are we talkin' about?" "I'm a little confused." "What happened to the story where we were the good guys?" "Different week,different story." "It's better,more edgy." "Really?" "You want edgy?" "Want some real gonzo journalism?" "Think you came to the right place." "Keep that pointed at your feet." "Is it true you refused a direct order by police to vacate the bomb site?" "I don't remember." "There was a lot goin' on that day." "Well,after you delivered the baby, did you bother to close the incision, or did you leave mrs.Neuwirth lying there?" "Remove your equipment and yourselves." "We have a first amendment right to be here." "You have a first amendment right to be across the street.This is private property." "Ok.But it's just gonna look like you got something to hide." "I got nothin' to hide." "You asked me before if what happened at portland west had any effect on my sleeping." "Would that include dreams?" "Possibly." "Very vivid dreams?" "Well,of course." "Our experience is mysterious." "Dreams can be clues." "I'm walkin' through this aquarium, past this really big tank, and I look inside,and you are in there,in the water." "And you weren't drowning'." "You were just swimming' around, havin' a really good time with the sea turtles and the groupers." "No,you know,scuba gear,no snorkel." "It's like,you can breathe underwater." "So I bang on the glass because,frankly,I'm a little surprised to see you in there,swimming' around." "You look at me,and then you swim away." "That's when I woke up." "When did you have this dream?" "Last night." "What does it mean?" "What do you think it means?" "You like fish?" "You have to believe me when I tell you that clown was completely out of line." "You don't need to explain." "We have another matter to discuss." "Sure,boss." "Sack,I can no longer turn a blind eye to your living here at lifeshield." "Everybody crashes at lifeshield once in a while." "This is beyond crashing.We both know it." "You've got to move your belongings and find a permanent residence, and you've got to do it immediately." "There are simply too many eyes watching everything we do right now." "I'm sorry." "Nick,how are you?" "Me,I've had a interesting couple of days." "We shouldn't be talking." "The lawyers,right." "You got lawyers,we got lawyers." "I thought that if we didn't talk now,we nev will." "There's nothin' to talk about." "Nothin'?" "Could have fooled me." "We have to do this through the lawyers." "No,we don'T." "Look,nick,jill was dead when e delivered the baby." "I don't know that." "Yes,you do!" "You don't know anything about me." "You don't know what this is like." "Nobody does." "I got an idea what you lost, and that nothin' you do is gonna bring her back." "No,that's right,but I have to look after that baby, and that takes money and-- the lawyers told me this is how it's done." "It's not personal." "It's very personal." "There's a state investigation." "We could lose our jobs." "You're sayin' that we let her die!" "That lawyers said this is how it's done." "You sue everybody.It's not personal." "I" " I'm grateful,really." "I have to look after the baby." "That's all I got now." "You have that baby because we promised jill to do everything in our power to save him,and that's what we did." "We kept our promise." "Now,listen,I don't care about the lawyers or the courts or the reporters." "Do you think that jill would have wanted this?" "Do you really think we were wrong?" "Right,wrong,what difference does that make now?" "We agreed,no contact with this man." "Leave it to the attorneys." "That's how things work." "I don't like the way things work." "You're lucky he didn't call security." "I didn't threaten him." "I just wanted to talk to him." "Well,you did." "And did you get what you wanted out of the conversation, since that's all that matters to you?" "Certainly not the concerns of this hospital or your employer,your co-workers or me." "Did you get the answer to the big question?" "Yes,I did.It turns out it's nothing personal." "You might profit from thatpoint of view." "You don't have to respond to everything they throw at you." "Yes,I do." "Then be prepared for them to go back and challenge every decision in every case you've been involved with." "Maybe you can defend every action you've ever taken." "Someday you must tell me what that's like." "Did he give you his name when he called?" "Just said he was a journalist." "A journalist." "Well,what did he say he wanted?" "He asked if I knew sack hallon,what my relationship was to him, and if I cared to comment on what was going on." "You don't have to talk to the press." "I didn't say anything." "But,apparently,they sent a photographer to westbrook." "The office called." "Their security took care of him." "Son of a bitch." "Same guys who wrote this stuff writing' about us now." "I can take it,but hounding you and cam,that's not right." "I didn't tell you to upset you." "I just--I thought you should know." "I'm not upset." "I'm glad you told me." "It's important that I know what's goin' on." "Do you want some coffee?" "Clare,I should probably go." "Look,bill's away." "Teachers conference." "Stay awhile...unless there's someplace you have to be." "For once,there isn'T." "Hi,dr.Alden.You want to see the media star?" "How's he doin'?" "Spectacular." "Weight's up,no infections." "Good.Great." "Better get that.Would you...?" "Got him?" "Yeah.Thanks." "What did you want from him, the baby's father?" "I don't know.An answer." "You got that." "It wasn't the one that I wanted." "Do you play piano?" "a couple of guitar chords." "Why,you want to start a band?" "Did you know you can't think about playing the piano while you're doing it?" "Because you'll realize that it's too complicated, and you won't be able to control your hands." "We have all sorts of skills that operate on something other than regular consciousness." "And you'll screw that all up by second-guessing yourself,right?" "You talkin' about what happened at the bomb site?" "Reassessing your decision?" "No." "Everything you say here is confidential,wyatt.You know that." "I did what was right." "Fine." "Just seemed like you were implying that-- -no,I wasn't implying anything." "I said what I wanted to say-- that you can't do what we do and second-guess every moment." "When you're out there, it's like..." "I don't know." "Jazz." "Yeah." "So how long's bill been away?" "Conference finished tuesday." "Bill stayed over.He wanted some time." "You know,time." "Things have been all turned upside down lately." "Cam's new school." "We've all needed to make an adjustment." "Maybe it's time we take a couple of those down." "Cam loves those." "If I was bill,I might have a problem with that." "But cam's proud of you.He'S...he's happy." "Now if we can only figure out how we can all be happy at the same time." "I'm sorry." "For what?" "Doing the right thing?" "If I stayed stupid and selfish, maybe life would be right on course." "Don't say that,not even as a joke." "Hey,mom?" "Oh,cam." "Hi,dad." "Hey,buddy." "Were you guys fighting?" "Fighting?" "No,no." "We just had an accident,that's all." "Just--we just dropped something,sweetie." "Dad was just helping." "Ok." "What?" "You came back too soon." "You're not ready." "Really?" "You hate the way I drive,but you let me do it because your hip hurts." "You've been leaning on the stretcher because it hurts you to walk." "And the other day,you almost injured a patient." "You give this little report to kroll?" "I haven't told anything to anybody." "Keep it that way." "Everybody plays hurt." "That's the way the game works." "It's dangerous." "Ok,genius,get this straight." "I don't care if you see my leg fall off, you keep your mouth shut, and maybe you'll learn a little something about what to do with pain." "You do not let it win." "You do not give up and go home like a baby." "You mean,like you're acting right now?" "I'm what?" "You don't care about anybody else." "You only want what you want." "Where I come from,that's being a baby." "Where you come from, people wear magic underwear." "What do you know about pain or struggle?" "You think you've got the market cornered?" "This is not about you." "My father cut sugar cane for a dollar a day." "We lived on nothing but rice and beans for 7 days a week." "What do you know about life, you pampered white boy?" "Ok,all right,you win,angela." "I didn't suffer as much as you did." "You get the first prize in the misery sweepstakes, but that is not what this is about." "Now,you listen to me." "Nothing is gonna keep me from my job." "Not you,not kroll...nada." "Entiendes?" "What would you do if you couldn't do this?" "Astronaut." "I'm serious." "Like,you know,if they say,"hey,you clowns,you can't be paramedics anymore"?" "Don't say "clowns." "I'm good at this,wyatt." "I don't know what'd happen f I couldn't do it." "Did we screw up?" "She said save the baby." "Yeah,she said it, but we're the ones who decided to do it." "Did we screw up?" "I don't know." "Medic 712,male with chest pains, history of heart disease." "Copy." "How you feelin'?" "Not good." "Can you tell me your name?" "Sullivan." "What was that?" "Mr.Sullivan?" "Stop it." "Please." "You have a pacemaker?" "Implanted defibrillator." "How long's it been shocking you like this?" "I don't know.A half hour maybe." "It feels like my heart's coming out of my chest." "80 palp,rapid,weak,and thready." "Mr.Sullivan,we're gonna try to stabilize your heart rate so that it goes below the threshold of your device.Understand?" "So the calmer you can be,the better." "48-year-old male.Chest pains." "Chronically firing lcd,v-tac with pulse is hypotensive," "68 over 40,eta 5 minutes." "Copy." "talk to me." "Still v-tac with pulses." "Hey,I know.One unwelcome shock after another." "That's life." "Tell me about it." "Mr.Sullivan!" "3 minutes out." "Come on." "Five blocks away." "Hi.You're back." "You said you wanted to see me." "No,I wanted to see the cardiologist that handled mr.Sullivan's lcd." "He's my patient.I put the device in there myself." "What happened?" "Could have been a battery malfunction, charge circuit abnormality." "They're complicated little boxes." "He's resting." "Thing's supposed to help him stay alive, not defibrillate him to death." "Not a pleasant experience, having that go off inside you." "We'll adjust it or replace it." "Ever get so bad,somebody asks you to just turn the thing off?" "No." "Well,what if someone asked you to?" "hat would you do?" "Would you...would you let 'em go?" "I might." "If the patient was deteriorating and if he really believed life wasn't worth the occasional shock." "He lost so much,he doesn't know how close he came to losing everything." "Sometimes god blinks." "We get lucky,but we don't know it." "He finally named the baby." "A nurse just told me." "Thomas." "Yeah,that's a good name." "Everybody gettin' a clean bill of health?" "Well,as much as I would love to tell you,I can'T." "Report goes to mr.Isnahee." "But it always surprises me,the amount of pain people can handle." "Yeah.What doesn't kill ya,hurts like hell,but it doesn't kill ya." "You know,I recognized the dream, about the aquarium?" "It's from stein on the manifestation and sublimation of stress." "You changed it a little bit, but not too much." "My mom's a shrink,remember?" "Well,the question is,why?" "Why tell me a dream you didn't have?" "Maybe I wanted to see if you'd recognize it." "Bullshit...which you're very good at,by the way." "You knew I'd recognize it." "I think that you needed something from me." "I think you wanted to get my attention." "did I succeed?" "hey,I'd like to see you again." "You think that's a good idea?" "I don't know." "******************" "Oh,right--improvisation." "Exactly." "ok.See what happens." "you know,I really did have a dream about you." "Saved Season 1 Episode 10"