"[coin clatters] [theme song playing]" "♪ Keep your head ♪" "♪ Everyone still ♪" "♪Youcanmakemefallapart But I won't blink ♪" "♪Keepyourhead♪" "♪Everyonestill♪" "♪ You can make me fall apart But I won't blink ♪" "♪Andyouwon 'tspeak♪" "♪ And we won't blow away ♪" "♪Ifyoucouldplaceyourhandsonme♪" "♪Thenwe 'lldance♪" "[typing]" "[video chat chimes] -[woman] Hey, guys!" "What's goin' on out there?" "Hello." "How are you today?" "Hi, it's going good." "What's up?" "Mmm, I'd love to. [chuckles]" "My name is Alice Frost." "Hi." "I am a camgirl." "Mmm, nice to meet you." "I'm Alice." "I'm 25." "I love my work." "[gasps] Really?" "Aw, you're dirty." "[chuckles]" "You are a bad boy. [chuckles]" "I will log on, and I will start streaming my video." "I guess we can keep it our secret." "[laughs]" "And then, you can choose to take me private." "And at that point I would, you know, ask you..." ""Hey, what can I do for you today?"" "You know, "What do you want?"" "Mmm, hi." "All right." "Let me get these clothes off for you." "Mmm." "Once we enter the private chat, it's $3.69 a minute." "[chuckles]" "You can request whatever you want me to do pretty much." "If other people decide to pop into the show, which is a possibility, they don't really get a right to suggest anything until the first guy's done." "[kisses] See you next time." "Exclusive chat, it is $8.69 a minute, and there is nobody else in the room." "Mmm, you should take me private." "Oh, we can have some fun, I'm sure." "It's me trying to entice the guys." "That's what I'm there for." "[video chat chimes]" "Thank you." "I practice often. [chuckles]" "Yes, it's fantastic to make money, but, overall, it's just enjoying the work." "I just enjoy having fun and, you know, having fun in a sexual way. [chuckles]" "As soon as I get online... it's a world of people." "In my feeling, you know, I'm kind of performing a service." "You know, some guys have come to me for very kinky things and things that maybe they're not comfortable talking to anybody else about." "But I feel so honored that they're willing to open up to me and talk to me about things." "And I'm always willing to give advice." "I pretty much am a psychiatrist." "[laughs]" "Yes, I might be doing it naked, but I'm making a difference, you know?" "I seem to change people's lives in a positive way." "I wouldn't keep doing this if I felt that it was causing any negative issues." "...will be back later this week." "[video chat chimes] [mouse clicks]" "[indistinct announcement on PA] [indistinct chatter]" "[Tom] Hi." "How's it going?" "There's a different love of the really nerdy stuff for me." "The science fiction, the fantasy, the superheroes, that sort of thing." "Definitely." "Excellent." "My name is Tom." "I'm a pretty average nerd, yes. [laughs]" "In 2011, when I got a new job, it was the first time in a long time that I had a disposable income." "And so..." "I started partaking of, uh... more luxuries." "And so with that, um..." "I discovered, uh, camming sites." "Camgirls." "Cam models." "And so, yeah." "[woman] Hi, guys." "We're seeing this young lady here in her swimsuit." "Jiggling her bottom. [chuckles]" "Right now, she can't see or hear me." "You could pay extra, and then they'd perform for you." "This young lady likes to twerk a lot." "From camming I get a kind of relationship that's..." "I... that I have trouble with in real life." "And safely and anonymously." "I'll log in with my screen name, Approximate." "So you can see performers in their own separate rooms." "You're presented with loads and loads and loads and loads of options." "You've got categories like, babes, BBW, blonde, brunette, coeds, couples, curvy, feet fetish, non-nude... and white girls." "It's a smorgasbord." "It's a shopping list." "That sounds gross. [chuckles]" "And it is a little bit." "[camgirl] Can I get a massage today, Ryan?" "[Tom] But on the other side of that coin is... you start to develop relationships with the performers." "You get to know them." "They get to know a bit about you." "Nowadays, I get that from my relationship with Alice." "[typing]" "[Skype ringing]" "[Frost] Hello?" "[Tom] Hello!" "Hi!" "Hey." "Hi. [laughs] [laughs]" "Happy cammiversary!" "[laughs]" "Happy cammiversary!" "That's..." "Four years now." "Four years?" "[gasps] I can't believe it's been that long." "[laughs]" "That you put up with me?" "Oh, that you've put up with me." "It's the other way around. [laughs]" "Kidding me?" "I'm crazy, obviously." "[both laughing]" "Well, Civil War is gonna be out, so that could be cool." "It came out yesterday here." "It comes out May 6th here!" "We get things early." "We don't always get, like, the little bit at the end of the credits, because they save that for, like, the US release." "[laughing] Such an asshole move." "[chuckles]" "All of us girls, we have our select few guys that you grow to just care about." "And you grow to have a friendship with, and... you know, Approximate is my Australian soul mate. [laughs]" "We'll definitely do some booty shaking to commemorate our four years." "I think you'll enjoy that." "[chuckles] No!" "Yes." "[both laughing]" "What drew me to Alice was just her personality." "Her silliness, her funness." "[Frost laughs] All right." "I feel like, you know, in life you meet people that you're just destined to be friends with, and your souls just click." "[both laugh]" "I've never had a guy like Approximate." "And I don't know..." "I don't think I'll ever have it again." "Come on, I'm making dreams come true here, left and right." "[laughs]" "Maybe if you add in four spanks." "Four spanks?" "One for every single year?" "Yeah." "All right." "Yeah." "[Frost spanking herself]" "[Frost laughing]" "The fact that it comes with the financial benefits is just, you know..." "It's even better." "[squeals]" "He helped pay for my cable bill, Internet bill, rent." "Like, he sent me thousands of dollars over the past four years." "It sounds weird, but it's like having a rich uncle that just sends you money randomly." "But, you know, a friend, not a weird uncle. [laughing]" "Happy cammiversary." "Have a good day." "And maybe I'll see you a little bit later on cam randomly." "So bye. [kisses]" "[Frost chuckles]" "[Frost] We are happy, and we are happy with our relationship, and nobody can bring us down from that because we are us." "Let's see what's goin' on in my Snapchat world." "Hey, Approximate." "Just saying hi." "Mmm." "[chuckles]" "Hey, Approximate." "Just wondering if you can still cam at all tonight." "Hit me up in the next, like, 30, 40 minutes and I'll still be awake for you." "Just let me know." "Just one more." "Love you." "Let's try to send him one more message." "Love you if I don't see you." "Hold on, Approximate." "[laughs]" "Gun turret." "I love Approximate." "I do." "I love him." "He means so much to me." "[blows kiss] Bye." "But my husband's always gonna be the one that I come home to." "[man] I love this wall." "Where can you sit?" "Sit on the end right here." "Well, do you want that off?" "Sit on the corner." "Yeah, yeah." "[shrieks] Well, somebody's getting flashed right now." "For sure." "Oh, my God. [laughs] [exclaiming] Yup, Marilyn Monroe-ing it." "[man] That looks hot." "[Frost] Mmm." "My husband's name is Chad Diamond." "He's a photographer." "Nice." "[Diamond] That looks awesome." "[gasping and laughing]" "[Frost] We'll be married two years in September." "All right." "We're good." "[chuckles]" "It was a just a feeling." "And he had it, too." "And it was just one of those, like, you look at them and you're just like," ""Wow, I'm gonna marry this person."" "I don't know why." "I couldn't tell you how." "It makes me wanna cry." "I just wish we had a dog." "[blows raspberry]" "Can we rent one?" "[Frost laughs]" "[Diamond] She's adorable." "Ridiculously cute and I can't not smile when I look at her." "We can't leave each other's sides." "I think it's only been two or three weeks in the entire time we've been married or been together that we've been apart." "[Diamond] That's awesome." "[Frost laughing]" "[Frost] We both work hard." "You know, you gotta have both pieces coming together." "We need each other." "Give me my Worm." "Hi, Worm." "[Diamond] Give high-five." "Come on." "We all find ourselves with kindred spirits." "High-five." ""I can't stand up on your legs, Daddy."" "[Diamond] There you go." "That's a high-five." "[Diamond] Good boy." "[Frost] That's a high-ten." "That's a high-ten." "There you go." "I found my perfect other half." "[thunder rumbling]" "[Tom] I work in an office building." "[woman on PA] Now arriving at Thomastown." "[Tom] I'm there overnight." "And I make sure everything's locked up and in order." "[woman on PA] Now arriving at Lalor." "[Tom sighs]" "[Tom] I don't feel my life is currently complete." "But I've never been brave enough to do anything about it." "I was bullied a lot as a youth, as a kid in school." "It was a nightmare." "I was alone." "I just got a Snapchat from Alice." "I haven't had a girlfriend before." "I felt that it was impossible to have a relationship." "I felt unlovable." "Done with this, so... yeah." "Alice... she is super important to me." "I have no idea what place I'd be in if I'd never known her." "I finally decided I'd do what was necessary to get her here." "You know, a lot of saving, a lot of financial sacrifice." "But it's absolutely worth it, because now... [chuckles] we're gonna meet, and it's all..." "It's all gonna come to a head." "[chuckles]" "[Skype ringing]" "[Skype chimes]" "Hello." "[Tom] Hey." "I can hear you." "Really?" "Yay." "[Frost laughs]" "Hi, Approximate." "[Frost] Chad says hi." "Hi, Chad." "Hi." "[Diamond] I'm eating a sandwich." "[Frost laughs]" "I guess we'll get down to the point here." "We have a couple things to discuss, I think." "You're thinking, like, just a visit to you, right?" "Yeah." "That." "[Frost laughs]" "There's a big-ass ocean in between us, so... we've never had that chance to really see, you know, what it's like in person." "I've never been to Melbourne." "So, like, I need to go to Melbourne." "You gotta" "We've got a really cool zoo." "Better take me to the zoo." "You better buy me, like, churros, or I don't know..." "You guys have churro..." "You guys have churros, right?" "There is one shop that sells churros in Melbourne." "[Frost] Awesome!" "[chuckles] See?" "Winning." "You know, Approximate has earned the right to meet me." "And it sounds so weird to talk about myself like that because, as a cam model, I've become very much paid for my time." "I'm excited." "I got my passport, you know." "I'm all ready to go." "It needs some Australia stamps in it." "[chuckling] It's so lonely." "Approximate has definitely paid his dues." "He actually owns a sixth or, like, a fifth of my boobs." "He gave me about $1,000 over time to help pay for my enhancements here." "[chuckles]" "So he's earned it now, and I think Chad understands that." "And I think we're all..." "all understanding. [chuckles]" "Besides us talking about this, I also wanted to give you some actual, you know, fun stuff." "And I guess I'll take my boobs out." "Oh." "Okay." "[both chuckle]" "[Frost] I hope you'll accompany me in getting off. [laughs]" "Approximate, you know, there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about him." "Oh, yeah, and you better have coconut oil available." "Don't forget to stock up on that before." "He's one person that..." "I've spent some nights alone." "I've brought him up on Skype, and, like, he would stay up with me, like, while I was crying at night and put me to bed." "When I hear his voice, I calm down." "It's just like hearing my husband's voice." "[laughing]" "You're so weird." "Why do you like me so much?" "And, like, we laugh hysterically while we're, like, trying to orgasm." "This is the best thing to ever do." "[both laughing]" "I only wanna be with Alice." "Like, there's not..." "I don't wanna add somebody to that relationship." "During your exercises, your face went really, really pink, and it was adorable." "[laughing] Oh." "[laughs]" "You know, if she leaves, then I don't know what to do." "[Frost] I'll give you one more booty shot." "[Frost spanking herself]" "I love you." "[Frost chuckles]" "Chad knows I love him." "I'm gonna take a shower." "He knows this is the way I live my life." "[Frost and woman laughing]" "[woman] That's awesome, dude." "They're beach boutique. [chuckles]" "[woman] Do mostly the bottom layer." "Just get, like, the ends and stuff like that." "[Frost] It's adorable." "You should walk the runway." "A fluffy dog." "[Frost laughs] [in French accent] You're my little poodle." "My French poodle." "[normal] I have very few friends." "I have maybe two, three friends total." "I've been having somewhat weird dreams." "I think I've been watching too much Walking Dead." "In every dream, it's like zombie escapes." "Like, I'm making it, though." "I'm surviving." "And, like, I'm not too scared." "I'm kind of a badass in my dreams." "[laughs]" "Alice is-- she's a really cool, like, outgoing, fun-spirited person." "Can we just start this zombieness?" "'Cause, like, I'm down." "[chuckles]" "[Frost] Growing up, I never really fit in with anybody." "I was quiet and introverted." "I had very low self-esteem." "When I discovered camming," "I just created a new persona." "I got more attention." "People treated me a little bit different, and honestly... my confidence went through the roof." "Just knowing that they're watching me, makes you feel good." "There you go." "Beautiful. [chuckles]" "Ta-da." "So what site do you wanna do first?" "MFC probably." "[Frost] Okay." "You wanna do it off your account, too?" "[typing]" "[Frost] That's easy." "Okay." "[woman] Here we go." "Yay!" "We're live!" "Hey, guys, how's it goin'?" "You're a sexy woman indeed." "How's it goin', Coolball?" "[Frost] Hi." "What's up?" "What do you guys wanna see today?" "What's the thing you want?" "[Frost chuckles]" "Morning, guys." "Hey, guys." "Hey, Kevin, how are you?" "[Frost] There's quite a few of you in here." "You guys are all being quiet." "[woman] I know." "[Frost] I don't know." "I just have these awesome dice." "We could use it and, like, do positions." "[woman] Dude, we could." "[Frost] Oh, we have" "You can make it worth our time, and we'll make it worth yours." "[Frost] It's so quiet." "So we're gonna do, like, the first roll free, 'cause..." "Six." "Come on." "Sometimes I'm anxious to get online." "You know, like, "Are people gonna like me today?"" "We're playin' a game." "Hey." "If you guys wanna play." "It's hit-and-miss." "People have money problems the same way that I do, so..." "Especially at the end of the month, it becomes more difficult to maybe, you know, give money to a camgirl." "Like, it's not like I'm food." "It's a luxury." "I'm a luxury." "We're not necessities in anybody's life." "[woman] We'll be back, you guys." "So you come over that side of the rise." "There are four goblins." "It looks like they're all standing around what looks like an unconscious young man." "[woman] Oh." "[Tom] None of 'em get away." "I'll charge the one" "No survivors." "No survivors." "[chuckles]" "I'll charge the one that's making a run for it." "[woman] I've never met anyone like him." "He strikes me as being such an imaginative person." "He gets so far into his characters." "It's brilliant to watch him and the way he reacts." "Club him over the head." "[man 1] Yep, he's down." "[Tom] Nice." "[woman] Down or dead?" "Whatever he's got is as when he's dead." "[laughs] [woman] He's a good friend." "He's a good person." "Here's your book." "[laughing]" "Thank you." "[Tom] Tuesday, next week?" "[man 2] I assume so." "[woman] Yeah." "[Tom chuckles] [woman] So..." "I have to kind of ask." "You met Alice online?" "Yep." "Is it via a Snapchat-type service or website?" "Oh, that I met her?" "Yeah." "Oh, she's a camgirl." "Right." "Obviously, it began as a very straightforward interaction, a very straightforward transaction." "Mm-hmm." "But it's grown to be something more." "[woman] Are you guys dating?" "I guess." "I don't know what the definition of that is." "[woman] Is it, like, a romantic relationship, or..." "Yes." "[woman] Like, are you going to have a sexual relationship with Alice?" "I mean, it is already a sexual relationship." "Okay." "Wow." "Are you in love with her?" "Um... yes, absolutely." "[woman] Do you think that she loves you?" "I think so." "I hope so." "[woman] Hmm." "[sighs]" "How do you feel about that?" "How do you feel?" "What are you thinking?" "Um... you're obviously prepared for a wide gamut of things to happen." "[chuckles] Yes." "Don't be afraid of any of 'em." "And even the bad ones, I guess." "If I'm going to give any advice." "And just..." "Whatever happens, we'll roll with it." "Hmm." "I'm a bit protective of Tom as well, because he's a sweetheart." "I don't want him to get his heart broken." "Tom absolutely deserves to be with somebody, and he deserves someone who's gonna be really good to him as well, because he's so good to everybody and he's a good friend to everyone." "Take care." "Mmm." "Approximate's like my main guy..." "Yeah." "So that's like the only person I really have a relationship with, and I think that's why it's extra special." "But I don't know, man, there's a lot of people with a lot of different personalities." "Yeah." "And..." "Like, I trust him completely." "Like, that is the one thing, like..." "He's not ever gonna do anything bad." "He's a good dude." "He likes kinky stuff, and we like the same stuff, and we've really bonded on that, like... kinda higher level of being so honest with each other to share that." "So that's why I'm not afraid of him at all." "I don't know, maybe it's just me." "People get really intimate really fast." "I just wouldn't wanna start a relationship with somebody based off of that foundation." "You are a different person than me." "Like, you know, you and your boyfriend, that's something special, whereas I am more, I would say, polyamorous, even though I don't, like, regularly actually see people." "I'm more that way, so that's why, like," "Approximate and I have this kind of special relationship." "I think any other camgirl who has a husband or a boyfriend is probably more like you, where you don't get quite as close as, like, I've gotten to him." "You just have to question what you're doing and if it's really right and..." "You question your ability to kind of judge people." "For me, personally, I wouldn't wanna overstep a boundary that I feel, like, just shouldn't be overstepped." "So that's our separate personalities, too, right there." "I met my husband, and I'm very happy." "But, like, Approximate, if this..." "If we had happened to meet first in Australia, then who knows what would..." "would have happened." "So I think we're good. [laughs]" "[Frost] I got a whole list of stuff that I have to pack." "My prized possessions will be right on top." "Yeah, I'm bringing that blue bikini that he bought me... 'cause it fits nice." "Yeah, you should take everything he bought you pretty much with you." "[Frost] Um..." "I think our entire house would become empty." "[Diamond] The longest I think we've ever been apart was..." "six days?" "When I went to" "When I went to San Francisco." "Yeah." "I kinda like being attached in that way." "[Skype ringing]" "Yay." "He's calling me." "Oh, he called me for once." "Oh, my God, you called me?" "[sighs]" "Twenty-seven hours until I'm on the plane pretty much." "About 48 hours, probably less, until you're here." "That's pretty crazy." "I'm pretty much all packed, so I'll see you..." "in, like..." "Yeah." "[shrieks] [blows kiss] See you soon." "[music playing]" "[Frost] I'm definitely nervous... but in my mind, I'm like, "There's no reason to be nervous." "You're nervous 'cause your body's getting nervous."" "But other than that, I'm excited." "[laughs] Excited to go meet him." "We just wanna have fun and, you know, see what happens." "And if that in-person spark happens, it's going to bloom, and it's just gonna be its own entity, and..." "I love that." "Kind of this no-pressure relationship." "[PA announcer] Thank you for your cooperation." "Hope you have an exceptional experience." "[whirring]" "[Tom] I'm feeling really nervous... about this, 'cause she's arriving in... [exhales heavily]" "about probably 20 minutes." "And then she's through the... through the customs it'll be..." "an extra hour and a half." "It's all nerves." "It's all just nerves, and... [sighs]" "I don't know." "I don't know what's gonna happen." "[sighs]" "Yeah. [gulps] [sighs]" "God, I'm feeling kind of-- a little sick." "[sighs]" "Every little self-doubt, every little..." "thing I'm, um, self-conscious about, is all coming to the forefront, and I'm, like... [sighs]" "Yeah." "Really terrified." "And I know I shouldn't be, but..." "I am." "[Tom] Hey..." "[Frost] Hello!" "[Tom] Hi!" "[laughs]" "Just a second." "I'm real!" "So hello!" "Oh, my God, come here." "[Frost chuckling]" "Oh, my God." "Oh." "I'm real. [chuckles]" "You're so tall." "I don't know what else to do now." "[laughs] Ah!" "Oh." "Well..." "I'm here, ready to go." "Yeah." "Let's get out of this airport." "I've been in airports for 24 hours." "Oh, yeah." "[both laugh]" "[Frost] All right." "I made it!" "Yes." "Awesome." "Awesome." "Let's go somewhere." "Let's get out of the airport." "[Frost] Yes." "[Tom] You're here." "[laughs]" "I know, I'm real." "[Tom chuckles]" "I'm not just some computer animation." "[Tom laughs]" "I'm excited to see stars." "We don't have those in LA." "[Frost chuckles]" "We have the moon." "That's our star." "You have the moon?" "We've got the moon, too." "[Frost chuckles]" "I remember that was always the thing." "Like, "Oh, look at the moon." "We can share the moon together."" "[Tom] Yeah." "I do actually think that when I look at the moon, going," ""Oh, that's the same moon Alice has." I'm like, "Aw."" "So, yeah, I am a cheesy, cheesy person." "[Frost chuckles]" "I wanna keep looking at you, but I also don't wanna crash and die." "[Frost laughs]" "We're back into the suburbs." "Nice." "Very quaint." "Yeah." "Right in front of the door." "[Frost] Are you sure you wanna bring this person into your house?" "[Tom laughs]" "[Tom] All right." "Did I lock the door?" "[Frost laughs]" "Yes." "[Frost] All right." "[Tom] Settle down." "Take a seat." "[Frost] Hi." "Hey, you." "[Tom] Sometimes she's friendly." "Sometimes she's very not." "[Frost] Hello." "Oh, I miss my kitty." "Yes, hi." "[in child's voice] I like your nose." "Your nose is really cute." "[both laugh] -[Frost] All right." "Well, first things first." "I have a present for you in here obviously." "[Tom] Oh." "Oh, my God." "Oh, but, Alice, you're a present enough." "[laughs]" "[Tom gasps]" "Ta-da!" "Nice." "Yeah, it's really nice." "I was gonna get a Gryffindor one, and then we could be matching," "but then I was like, "Eh, I can't." -[laughing]" "All my collection of things." "I brought some of the bikinis that you got me." "Then I think you got me this, too, right?" "Sounds like the sort of thing I'd do, so I'm gonna take credit for it." "Okay." "[Frost laughing]" "Did we not check that before we left?" "Nope. [chuckles]" "I was, like, that's really light." "That's weird." "[laughing]" "All right." "Come on." "Do you need to sit down?" "Do you need to go to the toilet?" "I don't know." "I was thinking maybe I should wash up really quick and just get into a new pair of clothes" "for right now at least." "Okay." "I'll show you to... the shower." "[Frost] Excellent." "All right." "[Tom] Cool." "Cool." "[Tom] Leave you to it." "There's a hot girl using my shower." "So show me around the neighborhood." "[laughs] Take you for a walk." "Yeah." "[Frost] Suburbia." "[Tom] There's kangaroos." "[Frost] Like, real kangaroos?" "Yeah." "Not fake kangaroos?" "Not fake kangaroos." "[Frost laughs] Real kangaroos." "Even, like, all the weeds are pretty." "See, but we have the same dandelions." "Yeah." "[Frost laughs]" "[Tom] It is surreal seeing her in person." "[Frost] Whee!" "[both laughing]" "That was surprisingly enjoyable." "[Tom] Come on." "[Tom sighs] It's all-- it's excitement and giddiness." "[Frost shrieks and giggles]" "And there's swings." "Oh, my God." "Yes, the swings. [laughs] I'm not tired at all." "Oh, my God, she's adorable." "Yeah. [chuckles]" "I'm gonna regret this." "[laughs]" "Oh, bringing back-- oh, don't look down." "[laughs]" "Just look ahead." "I need to have a little place tonight." "Sleep, and then..." "tomorrow I shall conquer the world." "[Tom] Tonight, I'll give her a little space." "to recoup and recharge." "[sighs] All right." "Okay, I'm on the right side now." "There we go." "Yeah." "See, I choose the best places." "Especially for tonight, after traveling and everything, I just..." "I definitely wanna stay in my own room, my own space." "[Tom] I was looking forward to spending the night with her." "Just even a bit of time with her." "But we got the whole weekend and... the plan is this is only for the first night or two." "Then we'll see." "We'll see what happens." "[car engine starting]" "[Frost] Yay!" "We're at the beach." "Here we are." "I don't know if you can see both of us." "I don't know." "Ah!" "Made him take me to Altona Beach today." "I'm wearing my bikini, including my bottoms, too." "And I look kinda crazy." "'Cause everybody else here is bundled up." "[laughing]" "But it's very pretty." "Right?" "All right." "Right." "So we're going to the Queen Victoria Market now." "This should be fun." "[Frost laughs]" "We got a really long day." "It's gonna be really awesome, and I'm happy that we have such a long day." "Here we are." "All right." "We made it." "Yay." "The zoo." "Can we get one to come up?" "Oh, oh, there is one right here." "Hi." "[Tom] Hey." "[Frost cooing] Look at the baby." "I'll take one." "[Tom] Oh, yeah, I'll take the other one." "And they'll get lonely, so we have to meet again." "[Frost] All right." "The real-life relationship, it's..." "it's a little strange, but good." "Cute." "[Frost] When you're on cam, you know, it's a barrier." "And even though everything's going well, it's just a little uncomfortable." "[camera shutter clicking]" "It's gonna take time to get used to this." "[Frost] Ah..." "Hello." "[man] Nice to meet you." "Hi." "Nice to meet you." "Hi." "Emily." "Hi." "Nice to meet you." "So..." "[Emily sighs]" "This is me." "Hi!" "[laughing]" "[man] Hello." "[Tom] There she is." "[Emily] So where are you actually from?" "Like, what region?" "Orange County, near Disneyland." "Hmm." "And now I live in Hollywood." "Oh, wow." "So..." "But I'm here now, which is a pretty insane thing." "This never happens. [chuckles]" "[Emily] Hmm." "[Skype ringing]" "[Skype chimes]" "Hi." "Hey." "Hey." "[Frost chuckles]" "[Tom] Awesome." "So you enjoying' being the third wheel?" "For once?" "[Diamond] No." "Technology makes it like this isn't..." "like, it's not real, so it's, you know..." "Well, like, he's really, really tall." "Yeah." "He's really tall." "He, like, hovers above me." "I was not expecting that." "[Tom chuckles]" "You're watching a terrible movie?" "Every movie I've found is either scary or zombies, and it means I don't wanna watch it 'cause you're not here, so..." "Aw." "Sucks." "Aw, you're so sweet." "I miss the house." "But I'm havin' fun, so..." "[Diamond] I don't know what's to miss here." "[Tom and Alice chuckle]" "[Frost] Uh, well..." "I love you." "Good night." "[Tom] I love you, too." "[laughing]" "I love you." "He's not talkin' to me." "[Frost] Night." "Bye." "Bye." "Bye." "[Skype chimes]" "[Frost] Aw, that was sweet." "[Frost] Hey." "Good morning." "Here I am." "I'm happy that I have my own little space right now." "I'm gonna probably want to extend my stay here and stay here the last couple of nights of my stay as well." "I need some place to kind of be me, not just be the bright, cheery person that I know that he knows me as." "It's still a little weird for me." "Just tryin' to..." "to be myself and have some fun." "So... yay. [chuckles]" "[Frost] Melbourne!" "It's where-- It's the street my parents live on." "[Tom] Nice!" "Let's go visit 'em." "[laughing] Right?" "I like the little patio they got goin' up there." "A balcony." "[Frost humming]" "Uh..." "[Tom] There we go." "Gorgeous." "Walkin' around with someone so warm and friendly and so happy, that's just fun." "[woman on PA] Maybe you just need a nice new winter coat or jumper..." "[Tom] Walking around the city with a beautiful girl that's..." "I notice a lot of people paying attention to us." "It's gonna sound bad, but it's a real ego boost, I guess." "Yeah." "So, yeah..." "Ah." "...this is Melbourne Central." "Well, not Melbourne Central." "Melbourne Central is..." "is a specific place, but this is the CBD." "This is downtown Melbourne." "Uh, where's the tram take off from?" "Anywhere on either Flinders Street..." "Flinders Street's probably the best place to jump on..." "Cool." "from here." "And, yeah, it just does the circle around the CBD. [chuckles]" "Perfect." "Nah, that sounds great. [chuckles]" "Sure." "It definitely sounds like something I would, uh, enjoy doing, so..." "Yeah." "It should be fun." "Yeah." "Ah..." "I really, you know..." "I love Tom." "Like, he's such a good guy." "But it's just... it's different." "And I didn't expect that." "I didn't know the computer screen meant that much." "Like, I thought that it would transfer really easily, and it just doesn't." "[Tom] You're a movie star." "[Frost] Of course." "You're from Hollywood." "Ah." "I feel like we are good friends, but I just" " I'm, like, we're" "He's too much into it, and that's where I'm just having a problem, 'cause I'm trying to juggle, like, two parts of me, and I'm just like, "I can't."" "[chuckles] This is getting hard." "It's just hard to realize that I'm kind of not the person he wanted me to be." "And here he's put out all this money." "He's been sacrificing a lot for me." "And I just feel really ungrateful." "And that makes me feel bad." "But..." "I don't know. [laughs]" "Today is harder than it was yesterday." "[sniffles]" "I'm awkward in the most simple of social situations, let alone something this... elaborate, something this complex." "But I think she's enjoying herself." "She seems to be." "Wait, what is this called?" "This whole thing?" "Oh, this is Fitzroy Gardens." "Fitzroy Gardens." "I like the clouds." "They're very pretty." "[Tom] Ooh, yeah." "[Frost] I hope he's having a good experience." "That's all I want." "Even if that means that it's really hard for me. [sniffles]" "Honestly, that's what a camgirl does." "We sacrifice things that we might, you know, be more comfortable with to make somebody else happy." "[Tom] Oh, yeah." "That was good." "Mm-hmm." "Today was fun." "Today was good." "You liked today?" "Yeah." "I had fun, too." "I really enjoy just walkin' around." "Hangin' out." "Yeah." "It's fun." "I'm glad you had fun." "Oh, yeah." "[Frost] But even though he's happy... it's a false happiness." "And that hurts." "This is definitely fun now." "This is always what I like to do." "I'm glad you're having fun." "[Frost] Oh, yeah." "Totally." "[Tom] This is an experience completely and utterly new to both of us, so we're learning about us, how we work." "Without that safety net of a digital screen." "And we're sort of getting to know each other all over again, which is... which is... actually fantastic." "This is just so much more real and genuine and... so much more satisfying than any... dalliance I could have hoped for or built up in my mind... for four years." "Yeah." "I'm gonna take some pictures of the sunset still. [grunts]" "Yeah." "'Cause... [singsong] it's the last one." "[Tom] This thingy would be just about right for there to be kangaroos out here now." "[Frost chuckles]" "[Frost] My last Australian sunset." "[Tom] Mmm." "[Frost] One more." "Okay, let's go inside." "Holy moly." "[Tom] All right." "Yeah." "[shuddering]" "[Tom] Phew." "[Frost sighs]" "So... [stammers] have you enjoyed this trip?" "Yes, I have." "Immensely." "Excellent." "Immensely." "That's good to hear." "I feel like I kind of..." "changed this trip a little bit." "I think for the better." "Okay." "And I think I just, like, realized... some stuff about myself." "I realized how much I enjoy being a fantasy." "Mmm." "And when I'm on cam, or even when we're on Skype, no matter how personal," "I still portray this kind of fantasy girl that I don't think I actually am." "I... [sighs] Obviously, I had maybe..." "different expectations..." "Mm-hmm." "of this going ahead." "And..." "I thought it'd be more like it was on cam." "I could sense that, and that's-- you know, I felt a little uncomfortable 'cause I could sense that you did want a little bit more." "And, you know, I realized I wanted to try to do that for you." "I really did, you know." "I at least wanted to put on, like, you know, a private, you know, one-on-one show kind of thing." "But it's just" "It's really not who I am." "I can't do that to myself, because I do think I'm an awesome person, and I also think you're an awesome person." "[chuckles]" "And I just think that, you know," "I don't wanna show something that's not me." "Getting to know you, like, the real you... is one thousand times more satisfying." "Well, I'm happy to hear that." "But it's just..." "I didn't realize quite how much you adored me. [chuckles]" "I always, you know..." "I really..." "I really, really care about you." "But, uh..." "I just think you need some in-person love." "And I can't give that to you, so... [sighs]" "I just think that, you know," "I don't want you to be hung up on me as much anymore." "I'm getting teary. [chuckles]" "Let me give you a hug." "I care about you a lot, and... you deserve some real happiness and not just the computer fantasy." "You're not quite as happy as I think you could be." "And I think that part of that is still because of me." "So... you don't have to support me, and you don't have to..." "And you don't have to be my savior, pretty much, 'cause I feel like you have been occasionally, and I..." "I have depended on you." "I feel terrible about that, actually." "Don't." "You deserve better." "I'm so happy that I was able to share something like this with you." "But I'm not gonna hold you back anymore." "[Frost] All right." "[Tom] Let's put it there." "[Frost] Oh, great." "[Tom] All right?" "[Frost] Yeah." "Can't believe I have to leave Australia now." "[Tom] Yeah." "[music playing]" "[Frost] It's like déjà vu in reverse." "And my backpack." "Thank you." "All right." "Let me give you a proper-- and get that off, too. [laughs]" "Give you a proper hug." "♪ But my body won't play along ♪" "♪ I'm thinking this must not be where we ♪" "♪ Belong ♪" "Just be strong." "Mmm." "Mmm." "All right." "Well, have a good day." "Yeah." "♪ Every living soul ♪" "♪ Screaming at the top of their lungs ♪" "♪ Singing this is my word ♪" "♪ But somehow we never get heard ♪" "♪ There's just an echo ♪" "♪ From a lost and lonely world ♪" "♪ That I dare to survive ♪" "♪ Being grown for the rest Of your life ♪" "♪ From adulthood, no one survives ♪" "[sighs]" "[sighs]" "[Tom] So, yeah, this is..." "I guess, the first day after the trip." "[sighs]" "I don't know." "I don't know how I'm feeling." "I guess I'm saying that a lot..." "'cause I don't know how I'm feeling." "I feel maybe she got here and" "and changed her mind about me, I guess." "Which..." "I don't know." "That's my fear." "[sighs]" "And I know that's not how she'd want me to feel." "But I don't know." "[sighs]" "[Frost] I feel terrible that I've been keeping this man trapped for four years." "I just believe that he deserves somebody to truly share every part of him." "I want him to find somebody that he can truly give everything to, and I don't want him to think that it's me, 'cause my heart's here." "[Tom] Hey." "[Emily] How you doing?" "Good." "Hmm." "Come on." "[Emily] Are you okay?" "I'm better than I was." "Okay." "Um..." "I feel like I was pinning a lot on this relationship." "Of my self-worth on... this relationship being something that it might not necessarily have been." "I question whether this whole relationship was ever really... real in any way." "[Emily] I think it's a real relationship." "Yeah?" "You had something." "It might have changed over time." "Yeah." "You obviously have more of expectations of what you both wanted or what you saw it was." "Hmm." "I don't think it's, like... it's a fake relationship." "I just think that it's changed the nature of what you have." "It's about the happiness I got from it." "Yeah." "And that she got from it." "It might not necessarily have been healthiest of setups." "Yeah." "I don't think it was fair to her..." "or myself." "Yeah." "I feel like I..." "I need more." "Oh, that's really good." "Yeah, I'm pleased to hear that." "Actually, that's a lie." "I'm very pleased to hear that." "Just want to give you a big hug." "I think you need it." "[chuckling softly]" "[Emily] Mmm." "Thank you." "I guess this has... given me... hope that, uh... there might be... as cheesy and corny as it sounds, somewhere out-- someone out there for me." "And that it's not impossible... for me to find someone like that." "Someone... yeah, someone special." 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