"ILLUMINATION" "What is the "illumination"?" ""Illumination" is a term and outlook of Saint Augustine's." "Both the term and the outlook survived for a long time, the whole of medieval philosophy." "According to it, we gain knowledge through enlightenment of the mind." "Then in such a moment of enlightenment, the mind goes directly to find truth, in the same way that eyes see the real world, finding it directly without the need of thinking." "Illumination is thus not a state of ecstasy, it is not thoughtless ecstasy or entrancement." "It is the intensification of thought." "All that is necessary is the achieving of that state of purity of heart, a purity of heart, that is more important than the mechanisms of the mind." " Christian Name?" " Franciszek" " Surname?" " Retman" " Year of birth?" " 1944." "Height: 176 centimeters" "Weight: 76,200" "This is short sight which will mean the constant use of corrective glasses." "Blood pressure is within the norm:" "Tendency to curvature of the spine clear." "Very improper silhouette." "Please press the red button at the light signal, and the green button at the sound signal." "The pencil should be led in such a way that it doesn't touch the edge of the aperture." "Please try to make the indicator stand vertically in the apparatus." "A little..." "Little it's not there yet, a little more, please a tiny bit..." "Please build up a figure out of the bricks such as in the diagram." "The performed tests have shown multi-directional talents, a high intelligence level as well as ontological leaning and inclination towards reflection." "Well I think it's all right..." "All right, thank you." "Would you please sit down here." "You did quite well, didn't you." "That's a very good matriculation." "Why did you chose physics as a university subject?" "These document shows you're good in everything." "Well, physics seemed to be the nearest..." "Is there any branch of physics that you particularly are interested in?" "Is there any detailed that interested you if we talk of various branches of physics?" "I think so, except that I'd prefer to answer that question..." "I'm sorry we're setting you all these questions, but we are always interested what candidates are thinking when..." "Unpolluted minds..." "What did you expect to your choice of physics as a subject?" " Am I to give a serious answer?" " Of course!" "I wouldn't like to say anything silly... but it seemed to me that I'd like to know certain things." "Well, you can say the same about any branch of university learning, that you'd find out new things." "But I thought that physics give you concrete knowledge, that means..." "Please remain seated..." "Well?" "Do you think they'll land before we finish here?" "I don't think they'll make it by 65..." "Arms forward!" "That's not a straight line." "In step!" "Atom in front, keep your weapons under you, eyes closed!" "But I don't feel any responsibility for the atom bomb, since it was discovered long time ago, with no participation on my part at all..." "Physicist discovered the atom bomb." "It wasn't them who used it." "The times when physics had any say at all, have passed." "Today, if we want to find an answer to the question whether a physicist decided about the fate of the world, total annihilation, than we can tell:" "No, those times have passed." "Today a biologist or a man doing something with genes has a power..." "If we're to discuss whether today's physicist is responsible for any thing, so we can close down this collage and say:" "No." "If the theory of the scientist's responsibility interests us, then let's leave off ourselves, stop being megalomaniacs, and look at these things..." "Physics have stopped being the first, leading branch of science... they've become simple everyday work." "The responsibility that was there 30 years ago is all gone." "Moved into the shoulders of the others sciences, who's threatening potential, such as molecular biology or experiments on genes, frighten me quite a lot." "Human embryo from test tube." "Artificial mouse embryo" "Electrical simulated growth." "Virus genes in human chromosome." "First step to remote heredity." "Inborn genetic error." "I make a division into two:" "Pure science, which should move forward, and if someone... get into it through simple curiosity, which is very noble..." "Pure science, pure poetry, don't exist." "Well, pure poetry does exist." "But really, none of us working in physics is no absorbed in the world, we're just interested in our own individual careers, make enough money to buy our very own houses, cars." "Of course to be able to have the company of people you'll enjoy, to have friends who have the right influence, to count for some thing among the people you know:" "These are all the quite natural aims of anybody." "In that case physicists who get their diplomas here would grab the first chance they get to emigrate to some country where physics gives money, because here, in this country, we can't earn a lot from our work, it's more working for love" "of it generally that's the way we approach our work." "But here in Poland, a man doesn't only want money, but also to make a career:" "That includes the company of people, the right people of course." "You had your coat..." "You'll freeze." "It's cold." "All right, go now." "Once upon a time a huge mass made up the cosmos, the solar systems, we ourselves, was collected in something that we call the primary state of concentration." "That mean a point which did not exist in time, that we understand, it couldn't be measured, and about ten milliard years ago, at least that point exploded." "From this time the whole universe is in a state of explosion as galaxies as well." "We can experimentally observe that the galaxies are going further away, in other words, the material in which we live, is tearing apart," " and in fact there will come..." " Ever since that explosion, right?" "What sign of the zodiac are you?" "Why do you ask?" "You don't like yourself, you'll lie down to sleep but you've many various thoughts in your heart, and in your life you've lived a lot and you'll live a lot now and in the future..." "To dance!" "Oh, stop hitting me!" "What are you hitting me for, eh?" "Stop following me about please stop following me everywhere, well, get out... get out!" "Rasutec, Rasutec, you high mountain..." "Quiet, quiet!" "And that Helpa, that's a beautiful city, and in Helpa, there's two hundred young men..." "Wlodek, you were there yesterday, right?" "On a secluded islet, the juniper turns red..." "Excuse me a moment, will you." "Just a second." "We've got to go to bed..." "If it's too hard on you, then go hitch-hiking." "It's all right..." "Then you're going to fall three exams, you know, and you won't get through..." "Franio!" "You getting up?" "Don't do it!" " All right..." " Don't, don't." " Then get up!" " All right, I'm getting up." "Then get your things together, we're going." "I'll catch you up..." "Excuse me..." "Specialization choosing for students." "I heard you're jumping up a bit lately." "What happened?" "No, you know I'm not trying to change anything," "I gave up that long time ago, only..." "I don't know, why I've got to choose, they are demanding." "I choose, but I don't want to do it." "I don't know myself best, that we know nothing, you've taught us physics from twenty years ago, but we haven't had a clue what're really happening in modern physics." "It's a whole chasm..." "I don't know where in physics is that place where I should go, eh." "I don't know what I can be good." " You want to be good, eh?" " Don't You?" "You know I don't mean to be "good" in that sense, only to find myself in such a position where I can gather everything together, to be able to synthesis." "Well, you've the chance." "Einstein and a couple of others could, too." "I'll give you about a one in a ten thousand chance." "I don't want to be Einstein, I don't want to choose at this moment," "I don't want to rush into a narrow specialization." "The choice is always difficult, and not only in physics, you'll have the same problem in life, that with every choice you concentrate on what you're losing but not what you're doing..." "But in physics you must decide early, if you want to achieve anything before you're thirty alone." "At age 34 was become a professor." "At age 42 was honored a Nobel Prize at age 22 was become a professor." "At age 60 was honored a Nobel Prize at age 26 was become a professor." "At age 31 was honored a Nobel Prize" "Correlation between scientific efficiency and age." "The most important difference between the dimensions of time and space depends on the fact that while in space we can move in various direction consciously and purposely, the passing of time in our consciousness it were, automatic, that mean we cannot control it." "The passing of time in our minds can be equated to mobile lighting." "Now and the past, which exist in our memories, ale lit, while the future drowns in darkness." "Perhaps exists a method to light up the future, to widen the scope of this lighting." "Or maybe exist those who can find the vague outlines of that which will be tomorrow even in the darkness." "From physicist such attitudes might sound astounding but modern science does not exclude the fact that the future exists in the present in away similar to our pasts existing in our memories." " Excuse me..." " What're you doing, Franek..." "Not a straight start, everybody hits hard and at the same time place feet on the ground." "Attention!" "Slower, take it slower!" "Lift those legs!" "Your hands work up to your belts and then go back as far as possible." "You on the right wing, lift that leg higher!" "It's so hot... you know" "I came especially to tell you something..." "I can even guess what." "Yes, but... you see all I want is that you... that you'll help me a bit, you know?" "I wouldn't have come otherwise." "It's money." "It's just the wrong time..." "All my girlfriends have gone away, there's nobody," "I wanted to ask you to fix everything, O.K.?" "But Malgosia, I..." "I... want to be with you, you can' t take this way." "You know I didn't come here to work on your pity, or anything, I wouldn't..." " I understand!" " But leave..." "It's only a question of the moment, only, and that's what I'm asking for..." "And I'm asking you..." "please..." "Franek... stop fooling about..." " No." " It's nothing." "It's really only the money, otherwise I wouldn't have come." " Eva's gone on holiday..." " How can you talk this way at all?" "No, no, no, no..." "You mustn't think of it, you mustn't even talk like that," "I know it's only worth something only now..." "But why..." "Don't make such faces, you won't trick me that way." " Please..." " Well I don't know... let's not ruin everything..." " No." " Yes." "Good!" "Good!" "Just married are looking for room." "Please, take a lot around." "Just a small look." "Nice..." "What's this?" "The coal has to be brought up from the porăo?" "Sim, do porăo." "And water?" "We'll heat it here, right?" " Yes, the water's here." " Well, that's all right." "O. K... couldn't it be a little cheaper?" "No, out of the question" "Just a little..." "I can't, and I can't help it." "So, it's up to you." "Please stop breathing for a minute." "Do you want to listen to the child?" "Request for vacation." "You see, sir, I tired to fix a half day job, but that doesn't help the situation at all." "At this moment I just can't manage, and I must..." "Right, but do you fully appreciate the tone you've broken off you're studies, it'll be extremely difficult for you to tie yourself to them again." "Yes, I nearly wouldn't be able to think of a case where someone would break their studies and come back to continue them afterwards." "I'd like to return very much, well, and... at this moment..." "I'm completely... well..." "I haven't any other way out, sir." "Wait, take your hand." "They feed them with bread, they throw bread in, they don't know that the fish are ill afterwards." " See them?" " Is this your work?" "Yes!" "Good, ain't it?" "Look, knock on the other side." "Now a second aquarium's to be bought, then we'll put one on top of the other." "These veiled are the nicest, Have you ever seen them before?" "No." "Nice things, they are." "They've got a long trailing veil for a tail, when she swims its goes like that... or the scalars they've got those double tails:" "They call's moon fish." " Hey, lend me a hundred until tomorrow, eh?" "I can't, I've got such a..." "Quiet, I can't any more..." "Calm down!" "Quiet!" "Don't shout like that!" "Quiet Calm down, son!" " You saw it?" " Yes." "What?" "What are you stamping it for?" " Everything's all right, though..." " What do you mean, all right?" "The pressure's going down, that's obvious, so?" "I'm sorry I must have made a mistake." "And what's the bleeding use of being sorry?" "Please don't shout." " So I'm to hit?" " Yes" "Well?" "And is it going to go on a long time?" "No, not so long." "You'll be asleep in a moment." "Exactly." "What'll it be like?" "Am I going to sleep well afterwards?" " I think so, yes." " Yes?" "What does it mean?" "I'm afraid that when I go to work tomorrow" "I'll be sleepy an out of joint..." "I don't think anything like that will happen." "Like what?" "You expect that..." "Electrodes stuck to the skin of the man under observation allow a precise record of the changes in bioelectric activity of the brain." "The subject falls asleep." "Soon, apart from the slow waves of irregular amplitude, short series of waves being to appear with a high frequency, so called "verges of sleep"." "This kind of result means falling into deep sleep." "Sleep showing this kind of electroencephalogram reading depends from the level of the subject's tiredness." "At more or less one and a half hourly intervals changes occur, pointing at the growth in brain activity." "In this phase on can observe the characteristic movements of the eye sockets below the lids." "According to data collected to date, most dreams occur during this part of sleep." "Large brain fatigue influences the lengthening of this phase, know in the literature as the paradoxical phase." "People artificially disallowed this phase of sleep experience disorders in they emotional life, and even audio or visual hallucinations when awake." "People brought into hypnotic sleep can give any electroencephalogram recording the hypnotist will instruct." "Please open your eyes, you've had enough sleep now, it's morning." "Please open your eyes now it's light." "You've woken up, everything's over now." " Yes." " What did you dream?" "Do you remember what you dreamt?" " Yes I do." " What was it?" "I don't know, some kind of..." "of courtyard." "And on it?" "This can't be told... there's no sense in talking about it," " How many days time are you paying?" " Three" "But I slept on the 17th and 28th, too." "Please clear it up with the lab." "Madam, do you really think I sleep to enjoy myself?" "If I want to do that, then I sleep at home." "But I'll earn more money..." "I thought that I'd really... have to go to work, think about it..." "There's no sense in it." "Well, we've got so many things we have to spend money on, we're not pulling through..." "And what are you going to do with the child, tell me that." "I'll go to the nursery." "But you said so yourself that it shouldn't." "Yes, but there's really no other way out." "But I'll have overtime." "But you know what that means:" "You come home late, then you're away the whole day, then you sit with your books:" "In fact we don't have you at to ourselves." "Modern neurophysiology aims at establishing which structures in the brain are responsible for state and activity of the organism." "Experiments are leading us towards a more complete brain map." "The monkey has had electrodes planted in specified areas of it's brain." "Electric shocks fed through them into the affected areas gives froth immediate symptoms of aggression." "After the impulses are shut off, the creature immediately calms down." "Have such experiments been carried out on people?" "Yes" " Indeed?" " Indeed." "That means electrodes can be planted and made to call up for example, furious attacks, aggressive states, and so on?" "Yes." "You don't ask what I've..." "Because I can guess... you got married, you've got children, I expect you try to be... a very correct father and loyal husband." "You think that's so wrong?" "I also suspect that you've got very beautiful and sublime problems, and that you take yourself terribly seriously." "I think that we shouldn't take ourselves to heart too much." "Really, I don't think we are..." "Are these thoughts that someone is sending?" "I don't know, maybe they're my own, maybe they're someone else's, like now, it's best my thoughts..." "You think." "Are they inside your head?" " They come into inside of my head." " Do they come inside your head?" "So perhaps someone send them there?" "I don't know." "If I lived maybe then it would be that way, that someone, but I don't know anybody can be..." "One moment, please." "The medullar brain fluid samples are taken from the patient for diagnosis reasons." "This fluid is then injected into a spider." "Under the influence of the fluid the spider's web undergoes transfiguration." "This is a normal spider's web." "This is a web from a spider injected with the medullar brain fluid." "According to experiments carried out by the German researcher Peter Witt, clear and characteristic transfigurations take place in those cases where the patient is suffering from Schizophrenia." "Do you know," "Mr. Franek, that I'm wondering these days what is it that people live for?" "They only make trouble for themselves in the process and for others." "And how much money goes down the drain while they do it." " You regret it, do you?" " No, I don't." "But sometimes I wonder if he wasn't onto a good thing, you know." " Who?" " Hitler." "You'd like to see everybody gassed, I expect?" "No, not gassed." "But it could be done in a more humanitarian way:" "By injections or god knows who..." " Do you understand what you're saying?" " What's there to not understand in it?" "You're just a plain monster for me." " Stop here." " Why?" "Just do it, come on!" " Oh, I'm afraid." " It won't be anything." "Listen, tell me, do you think that some kind of criteria exist, some kind of border." "I don't know how to decide:" "Where does a man stop being a man?" "From the point of view of medicine, when the biological processes within him stop functioning." "But that means, people are like plants, that's only vegetating:" "That's only their bodies." "You talk as if the spirit can be separated from the body, as if the spirit can just fly out the body like a pigeon." "All right but if that isn't so, if that oneness does exist somehow, then why do we go in so brutally, why do we interfere so much with the material base of our spirits?" "Electric shocks are an amputation:" "They're not the same people afterwards then before them." "Listen, every act of medicine is an interference with that material basic." "Apart from that there's no evident divisions, we can't separate the spirit from the body, less brutal interference from more brutal interference, quite simply these aren't matters which can be so easily divided." "How are you now?" "Electrode test allows to find pathological adjustments in the brain." " Nothing, all right..." " Nothing's hurting you?" " No." " Are you very tired?" "And do you feel anything not so nice now?" " No." " Nothing?" "And how do you feel generally?" " Not." " Please pay attention now, one moment..." "Yes." "Do you feel anything nasty now?" " Yes..." " What?" "I don't know... but... perhaps it's... it's... necessary to switch something on?" "Switch what on?" "Why?" "Because of the smell." "What's this smell?" "I don't know." " Is everything O.K. Now?" " Yes." " You feel quite well?" " Quite." "And... have those nasty smells gone away now?" "No, I can't feel anything." "It's..." " You don't feel anything?" " No." "What's happening?" "Take it away!" "I..." " What's happened?" " What?" "What happened to you?" "Nothing" "Nothing?" "Everything's all right?" "Everything." " This operation's ending now." " Yes?" "Are you a musician?" "No." "I get the feeling my finger are getting cramp, and so I'm just mucking about." "I'm a mathematician." "You know, when something goes wrong, then I solder it up." "You aim to go back to studying?" "Yes, of course." "If it will only be possible." "I think that this year it'll possible, despite financial problems and other things." "I'd like to change my subject, that means go over to biology..." "Biology after physics?" "Doesn't that strike you as taking a step backwards?" "At least physics make use of proper mathematical system." "I studied mathematics because it has no relations to reality:" "It reality isn't it's subject." "Maybe it was imagination that physics is just that branch of science which creates a systems of laws and principles which are so general as to be able to describe reality, to encompass the world." "That it is the key to knowledge of our existing reality." "You think that reality is so very important that you have to be so terribly perturbed about it..." "Diagnosis:" "Primary symptoms of symptomatic epilepsy." "On a basis of X rays and arteriography, a protuberance noticeable on the left area of crown." "Mr. Frank!" "Yes?" "I have a favor to ask." "I'd like you to go to my home for me if it's possible." "Of course!" "The reasons quite simple:" "That you return some books which I borrowed from the University Library." "The date of my operation's been fixed, you know?" "That'll be the..." "Larousse de la musique." "You'll have a hard time, these are big books." " Will it all fit in?" " I'll take it separately." "Excuse me, but do you know why my son doesn't want me to come?" "I don't know." "It seems to me, from what I know of the hospital, that patients often have these periods..." "Yes, I understand." "Thank you." "Swab, please" "Can you see me?" "Do you recognize me?" "You can see this piece of the bump well." "You see that dark round fragment?" "This was... in the crown's tissue and pressing on the healthy tissues," "see it well?" "Yes!" "But what would have happened if he hadn't had the operation?" "He'd have had two more months of agony." "Do you want to take a look under the microscope?" "No." "Do you still need this?" "No, it'll go in the archive." " What for?" " That's normal procedure." "No doubt you have come here looking for a way... for yourself." "Yes." "And you've become interested in our way of life, you want to come to know it better..." "I'd like to know what is the sense..." "You see, no human being will sacrifice his life up to complete emptiness, so if the men who are here, and there are young men among them..." "They are alone..." "And they leave behind so many values, because that they find something here, isn't that so?" "Yes, I understand." "So you will see here these hunts in which the hermits live." "We are always living very much inside nature, our hermitages are built into nature." "And here in this hut, you see it, beneath the high pear tree, in this hut lived the oldest of our fathers, who died last year, and who entered the order still in the last century, so he lived more" "than seventy years in this hermitage." "And in one of the huts to the left lives one of our fathers who has cut himself off completely" " For a long time?" " Fourteen years." "We have the privilege that the Vicariate General can allow a man who needs that aloneness very much need not even come to our common prayers and can remain completely alone." "And what if he dies?" "If he dies... we bury him." "The experiencing of states which are commonly termed mystical is tied by many researchers to the limbic system in the brain." "Substances known as neuromediators take part in the regulation of these states." "The speeding up of the changing of these neuromediators can be result of a directed psychological effort on the part of the subject, or can also take place under the influence of pharmaceutics all means:" "E.g. LSD." "What have you come here for?" "I know..." "I'll get you all your things now... we'll be all right..." "We'll be all right, you know?" "This is not a hotel!" "To which you can come to, go away again from..." "Request for continuation study." "When we are very young, then we don't tend to believe in these equations, and we aim at great achievements." "When one is a little mature, then one doesn't think so much about success as about the game that science is, since we know that neither astronomy, not physics, just like the other sciences, does not give absolute knowledge," "only, in a certain form, bring us closer to understanding, and, of course, no one thinks any more that an equation can catches the truth by the tail, any truth that is absolute." "Come on, leave it alone, look how much it costs." "17,50." "I thought we could afford it now." ""Oolong" is also good... we always drink it and there's no discussion." "Today, within the bounds of Warsaw University, incidents occurred which disrupted the institution's working schedule and public order." "Due to the excesses, ORMO groups were called in, to intervene." "It is a very good statement that the elite is that part of society which feels responsible for the rest." "Well, I would say that to a certain extent this statement can be turned about, i.e." "That the... elite wants to be responsible." "Undoubtedly scientists are regarded by society as an elite and they think of themselves as one, which causes the fact that they want to be responsible." "Physicists are used, in their work, to a certain mode of thinking, a certain deductive process which they automatically schematize a little all political and social phenomena." "This is... the aspect of professionalism:" "Do scientists tell of that... which they are authorized to, but in any case at least... from a moral point of view which is a more general attitude... than a simply technological or tactical point of view," "or economical, or political, in other words from that point of view..." "We cannot allow that people tell truths only from the position... of specialists." "They have also the right to state something as people, as citizens, haven't they?" "Scientists, as an elite, feel a responsibility in a certain sense, more or less, often, in any case, many of them feel responsible for more or less the whole of politics, the social systems they live in etc., and not only narrowly" "on a platform of using science for some practical aim or other." "PhD studies in Warsaw University." "I can't keep the job open more than some time and here autumn is an absolutely critical time." "So, that if it lies in your hands somehow at this moment, while I feel personally that I should worn you that this doctorate thesis should be good, and I don't know..." "I doubt if you'll manage it in time, but..." "Permission for PhD studies." "1950 zlotys scholarship was granted." "You want some more, Martin?" "Theoretical curve." "And?" "Tomorrow I'll get the journals and the day after we can get to work." "That will be Sunday." "Does that disturb you?" "On Sunday we've it's that people coming, got to be at home a little..." "Well, you know, we've got Sunday..." "it's peaceful here, we've got conditions here then which we can't ever hope for during the week." "But you know, Sunday's Sunday..." "got to be live at home a little." " What about you?" " Nothing, I thought, you know that we'd catch up a little." "Yes, old man, but we've got to live a little, apart from only Saturday." "You know that the funny thing is that I wake up trembling in fear at night with this drilling pain." "You metabolism changes are not so big, it's a heart neurosis, pure and simple." "Well, that's all right." "I'm glad, because... only a neurosis..." "What do you mean only?" "I was afraid it was going to be something serious." "You've nothing to be glad about." "You're past thirty." " I'm not yet." " There's not much to go." "You've got the first beginnings of changes in your heart." "At your age the road down is just about starting." "It's not going to be better and better and better any more, but worse, your organism will being to malfunction." "All you've been interested in so far also applies to you." "You have a body which keeps you within certain borders." "What do you want me to do?" "I can't tell you, I can't tell you to do anything," "I can only give you advice:" "You must simply live less intensively, that what you planned to do in 3 or 4 years, you must spread out over five six, quite straight forwardly, you have to slow down." "Five or six years?" "Why that's... completely absurd:" "I'm late as it is, I wasted years, you know?" "I don't know that I lived not intensively enough, I only want to start living intensively now... what you propose..." "I don't know, am I to be a psychological invalid a simple half-corpse, or what?" "All right, but how am I to help you?" "I don't know." "I come here to you so you can give me some pills or other, so I can work." "All right, you'll get your pills, only you know as well as I do that they're only half-measures." "I know." "It's my choice, my affair." "In the end I only come to see you and..." "I don't know." "I want to live the way" "I want to live and I don't know..." "I want to die running!" "That's all very nicely said but I think you've got people, you're not alone." "In critical moments you always destroy preparatives." "You might not make jokes at this moment."