" Previously on Everwood:" " What exactly is going on between you and Colin?" "I mean why are you being all buddy-buddy with him?" "You're the only person in this school who doesn't expect me to remember them or expect me to be this guy that I don't even know who he was." " You two friends now?" " Kind of." " Turns out we have some stuff in common." " You mean Amy?" "Surprisingly it has nothing to do with Amy." "Of all the famous stories of faith overcoming adversity  you've never seen turned into movies  you'll never see one made about Job." "Who would want to watch someone you've come to care about suffer that much?" "Anyone who cares about their 8 bucks' worth  would throw popcorn at the screen right after the boils set in  telling the guy to give it up already." "Enough is enough." "Sorry." "After all, how far do you have to go to prove your faith?" "I like hanging out with your brother." "He doesn't have a lot of facial hair so I can kiss him a long time without breaking out." " Yeah I saw." " Well it was a really long movie." "I hope that wasn't weird for you or anything because it looks like you and Colin haven't even kissed since his whole..." " Hey guys!" " Here we go ladies Ralph's finest." " Oh thank you." " Please about to eat." " You don't like garlic." " I guess we'll soon find out." "It does smell good." "I hate it when they reheat the pizza." "When you take a reheat it's like saying:" ""Yes I want you to burn the top of my mouth off."" "I'm flicking skin off the roof of my mouth for the next three days." "Colin you okay?" " I've been here before." " Of course you used to come all the time." "No I mean I remember this place." "I remember coming here." "We had just won a basketball game." "It was division championship." " Yeah we did." " Yeah and you and I we came here after we won the game and then I went and played pinball over there." "And you were here." "You..." "Yeah I remember you were with us." "No no." "That wasn't me." "No you were sitting right over there on that table." "You had your red jacket on." "That wasn't me." "That was Laynie." "No I..." "Are you sure?" "That's okay." "Of course you'd remember your sister first." "Dude you're remembering." "That is awesome." "Yeah." "So how did the movie end anyway?" "No don't tell me." "You waiting for Dr. Brown?" " Are those patient files?" " Not very interesting ones." " You're not supposed to look at them." " Dr. Brown shouldn't keep people waiting unattended." " I think that's why they have magazines." " So I see you've met my sister." " Yeah I guess." "She didn't really say much." "Yeah that's sort of her thing." "I've only known her for the last three weeks when she came back from boarding school but she seems pretty cool so far." " I think she starts County next week." " Lucky her." " Colin we'll meet you in the car." " Okay." "You know that Catholic Church youth-group ski thing?" "Are you going to that?" "I hadn't really given it much thought." "I don't ski and I'm not Catholic." "Yeah right." "Yeah I can't ski either." "Your dad's got this blanket rule about avoiding head trauma but Amy wants me to go and I need somebody to hang out on the slopes with me." "I don't suppose you'd believe I had huge weekend plans." "Well think about it." "But remember you're abandoning me to suffer alone." "Of course Colin's excited about the ski trip." " I mean come on aren't you?" " Sure." "Jemma's going and I go where the booty goes." "Later in life when I'm in therapy you can take most of the credit." "All I'm saying is you can't expect it to be like last year." " Colin's remembering a lot sure but..." " More than a lot." "He's not walking around with Post-its anymore he's making jokes again." "He asked me to be his girlfriend there." "Going back can fill in the pieces." " Going where?" "Knife inside Bright." " The church ski trip." " You're not going on that again." " What?" "No no." "Those church trips are nothing of the kind." "They're supervised about as well as a stampede." " Is your mother making haddock?" " Why not?" "I have to go Dad." "It's a church thing." "It's to cleanse my soul." "Oh please." "I delivered the baby that was the product of last year's bacchanal." "Just an excuse for your friends to drink and exchange hickeys." "Do more damage to the Catholic Church's reputation than the Crusades." " I don't think so." " You make a good point Dad." " Do I?" " Definitely." "The ski trip should be fun but it should also have structure." "What the church could use is a good chaperon." "Last year the parents went to bed and let the kids do what they wanted." "But if they had someone more capable more respectable more conscientious..." "Would that they should be so lucky." "Then again maybe it would be useful for these permissive boomer-generation non-parents to see how it's done." "I'll call the youth center now." "As you know, the Avalanche and Red Wings have a history..." " So tell me about this date of yours." " My date?" "She was cute for a crazy person." "Started off a completely normal date then she started talking." "First it was the evils of men as exemplified by her ex-boyfriend or ex-husband." "Both maybe." "Then it was an hour on her trip to Cancún with her sister and how I quote "It was too hot to do anything but get a rash."" " That sounds sexy." " Oh very." "Finally she asks about me and when she finds out I'm a reverend she starts confessing about the one-night stand she had with the hotel concierge." " Did you mention you're not a priest?" " Yeah repeatedly." "But she kept crying until I gave her a couple of Hail Marys." "I gotta tell you I'm impressed." "One disaster after another and you're still out there." "You're either secure or a glutton for punishment." "Yeah." "What can I say?" "Job is my hero." "Yes!" "Yes!" "Did I not call it?" "I am now 5 bucks richer." "They've eyes but can't see and hands but can't defend!" "Hand it over." "This is ridiculous." "Hey this isn't Vegas." "You got something smaller?" "Sorry." "They get a little blurry when I read too long." "I had a fight with Kierkegaard this afternoon." " You need new glasses?" " No I just had eye drops." "I need to refill." "Let me save you a trip to the eye doctor." "Come by I'll write you a new prescription." "That's very nice of you but I'm still telling everyone you bet against the Avs." " Thanks." " Ephram hey." "I just got dinner for my family." "I don't want it to get cold." "Dude tell your dad it's my fault man." "Come on sit down." "Come on." "If you go on the trip would you bring comics?" "Apparently there's a long bus ride involved." " What you're thinking about coming now?" " I was thinking about it." "From what Amy said man it's like a nonstop party." "Oh well that was before my dad decided to be the official wet blanket." " Thank you." " Wait." "I'm gonna get this." "You don't have to go because Colin asked." " Is there a problem?" " Don't you think it'd be weird?" " Not any more than usual." " It's one thing when the three of us have lunch together at school but three days in the mountains?" "Gives him time to figure out..." "Figure out what?" "That there was something between us?" "All we have together is honors chemistry." " We're pushing it." " You want me to bow out?" "It's not like you even wanted to go." "That was great man." "I got us a coma-boy discount." "I just gave him a blank face and he felt bad so he gave us the fries for free." "I was thinking about it." "Maybe I should come this weekend." " It's not like there's anything going on here." " Cool." "Maybe you can score it so your dad can get Ephram and I to room together." "Sure." "I'll ask him." " All right." "Well I'm out of here." " See you later." "We gotta get going." "Bus leaves the church at 6." "Which is exactly why I'm not Catholic." "Since when do you ski anyway?" "Since I bought my Gore-Tex gloves yesterday." " So why you going?" " It's a power move." "Oh right." "What?" "Amy doesn't want me to go." "If I don't go it's all about her." "Worse she'll know it's all about her." "If I do go it's about me too." "So we're even again." "Or at least close." " I think I followed that." " You weren't supposed to." "I should ask questions before coffee more often." " Let's go." " Load them up, move them out!" "Let's go!" "Let's line up for the bus!" "And I see when I say "line" I am overestimating your geometry grades." "A line!" "Now rest assured there will be neither hanky nor panky on this excursion so all shenanigans can go here in the trash bin." "Beer cans too." "You there." "Yes you the shifty one in the silly hat." "Step forward." "Random search." "Open up the knapsack." "This is totally unconstitutional." "I'll be sure to mention that to your parole officer." "Well now isn't this a rather large bottle of shampoo for one weekend?" " Whatever might this contain?" " Hey doesn't that guy have your stash?" "Not anymore." "Your dad's like a cop." "Hardly any vermouth in there huh?" "No fair you had to kill the trip for everyone just so you could come." "You may go." "Hey hey." "Not so fast there." "Ladies an ounce of your wit for the video yearbook?" " Something to say to posterity?" " Turn that off." " It's early." "Some of us are still puffy." " I got us a spot in the back." "Oh yeah?" "How come?" " So we can make out." " Cool." "Jemma Bright perfect." "I've saved us seats up front." "You can help me decide which show tunes to play." "We were gonna sit with the kids in the back with the Bible." "Never mind them." "What do you think Pippin?" "Or something a little more Sondheim?" "Well it's probably nothing but I do see some deposits on the retina." "I'll take pictures to send to the lab." "They'll call back and tell me I was wasting your time." "The fun part is I get to dilate your pupils." " You know any good restaurants?" " Yeah on the Upper West Side." " Don't tell me you have another date." " Wednesday." "New girl." "Where are you meeting all these women?" "I've been going to these singles mixers in Denver." "You mean "Let's get together everyone who can't get someone" mixers?" "They're not that bad." "I go I make a fool of myself a few times leave depressed but with a few numbers and get pancakes at a place down the block which somehow makes it all better." "The Mile High Diner." "They give a stack the size of your head." "They're famous for it." "Somehow missed it." "You dilated yet?" "Not sure but everything has a rainbow halo around it." " You look like Jesus." " I get that a lot." "Why don't you come with me." "You'd do great." "Even I do okay there and women aren't dying to meet a guy who moralizes for a living." " Thanks." "I'm not ready for that whole thing." "Fine you can come for me." "You can be my wingman." "Just keep me company." "Truth is I could use it." "Divorced men tend to get treated like damaged goods and recently divorced men kind of are." " Backup huh?" " Exactly." "Structure is the enemy of chaos people so keep these itineraries handy." "Presence and participation is required at all post-ski events from FIMO beads to psalm sing-along." "Move quickly." "We will meet back here again in 30 minutes." "I thought the double run of Liza with a "Z" was punishment enough." "Hey when you're done checking in you wanna go for a walk with me?" "Oh we were gonna check out the pool." "It's cool." "Everybody's headed up to the mountain." "It's time I looked into this skiing thing." " Are you sure?" " Yeah." "See you guys later." "Hey." "Perfect timing." "We just got the TV to show scrambled porn." "Lucky me." "Listen brain tumor there's two reasons we're together:" "One I want the big bed." "What big bed?" "Second with any luck I may have to kick you out of here tonight." "I'm sure you had really exciting plans but mine take priority." " Why?" " They're mine and I'm better-looking." "So unless the three of you think you could take me all together..." "That's what I thought." "Thanks for babysitting again." "I'll give you a triple bypass and maybe we'll be even." "You don't realize I'm operating a sweatshop in the basement and Delia's my best sewer." "Okay we can turn these off now." "You're all spiffy." "He's going to a thing." "Where's Sam?" " Eating cookie dough." " Really?" "So "a thing"?" "Oh it's nothing." "It's no thing." "I told Tom Keyes I'd go with him to a singles mixer." " Oh that's..." " That's what?" " That's good." "I'm glad." "He's a good influence on you." "He's not influencing anything." "I'm not really going." "I mean I'm going but I'm not "going" going." " Can I go now?" " "Go" go or just go go?" "Smell." "The cold smells like pine or the pine smells like cold." "Something." " Yeah I like it." " I knew you would." "Last year there was more snow but..." "Look can you do me a favor?" "Can we just not mention last year or last anything?" "I mean I was kind of hoping to take a break and rest my mind this weekend." " Yeah." "Sure." "Definitely." "So where do you think Bright and Jemma are?" "Probably groping each other on a gondola." "Yeah he was pretty bent on trying new territories this weekend." "You think it'll happen?" "I try very hard not to think about my brother's sex life." "Yeah that makes sense." "It's funny though." "We were talking about it and he was so nervous." "It's hard to believe that he has so little experience with sex you know?" "Just goes to show that you never can tell about some people." "Are you trying to ask me something Colin?" "No." "Well I mean I..." "Well I don't know about like what you and I..." " I mean did we ever...?" " No." "No we didn't." "You haven't." "But we did an awful lot of kissing." "Were we any good at it?" "Okay I guess." "I mean could some use work but..." "I suppose I could instruct you." "Well maybe we could make that part of my rehab." "That was even better than last year." "It started to snow and you said that if I didn't kiss you you'd never forgive me." "I'm sorry." " I didn't mean it like that." " I asked you to stop." "You're the one who brought it up." "You asked me what we used to do." "That was different." "I was just trying to figure out where we stood." "I'm sorry." "I won't mention it again." "You know you keep expecting me to be this guy you knew." "Colin it doesn't have to be a big deal." "Well won't you get it through your head that he's gone?" "He's dead Amy." "There's only me." "How's my game face?" "Very game-y." "Can we go over this again?" "We go in there'll be people there." " We go straight to the bar." " Exactly." "I talk to a few ladies come back and hang out with you so I'm not the lame guy who doesn't know anyone." " Because that's me." " No." "No not you." "You're just looking." "You're like an anthropologist trying to help me find my one true love." " You ready for this?" " Totally." "No big deal." "Great." "Let's go then." "Andy?" " Hold on." " You okay?" "I just remembered..." " Andy." " I..." " I'm still wearing my ring." " That's okay." "It doesn't matter." " I don't know if I can do this." " You don't have to do this." "I can't." "Don't worry." "Let's get out of here." " Come on." " No no you go in." "I'll stay here." "No." "No come on." "You know what?" "We're gonna cut to the pancakes a little early." "The Mile High is just down the block." "Come on." "It's the biggest stack you'll ever see." "They got whipped cream they got chocolate chips the whole nine yards." " This is what we need." "This will be great." " All right." "Rise and shine." "Rise and shine." "Up and at them gentlemen." "Rise and shine." "It is a beautiful morning for..." " Bright." " What?" "He wanted to sleep there." "Come now gentlemen." "Everybody up." "Full day ahead." "Skiing followed by board games a mini color war which I'm sure you'll enjoy all topped off by an evening geology hike on which for our church sponsors we can debate evolution versus that Genesis nonsense." " So let's seize the day gentlemen!" " Color war?" "Dude we gotta do something about your dad." "This church trip is getting way too wholesome." "Tell me about it." "My whole Jemma plan's out the window." "How am I gonna get her here with a 9:30 bedtime?" "Hold it." "You've got an at bat with Jemma Maxwell?" ""Halter top in January" Jemma Maxwell?" " You want to bring her here?" " What's wrong with here?" "It's a hotel room." "Girls want romance." "They want a view." "They want effort." "You gotta take her someplace special." "Go outside." "Get a fire going." "There's this neat spot up on the mountain." "Totally!" "I'll take care of your dad for you." "All it'll cost you is the bed." "Okay." "Just don't kill him." "Make me proud." "I'm sorry but these can't be the right pictures." "I saw some drusen on the retina but not to the extent..." "No you listen to me." "I ran a fluorescein angiogram on a 41 -year-old in perfect health." "You send back the eyes of Methuselah which means somebody on your end screwed it up so check it out again!" "I'll add a new phone to the supply list." "What's the damage?" "The geniuses at the lab screwed up the test we ran on Reverend Keyes." "They want me to buy a diagnosis of exudative macular degeneration." " You believe that?" " That depends on what the hell it means." "It's the retinas." "They slowly hemorrhage in both eyes eventually detach." "You go blind." "But Tom Keyes he's 20 years too young for that." "There's no way." "Yeah there is boss." "You know that." "You want me to call your old buddies at Mount Sinai?" "They can have their ophthalmology lab confirm or deny in a New York minute." "No." "You want me to call in the reverend?" "I don't know." "Think I'll miss the Olympics this year." "Apparently I was a badass skier in my days." "You were badass everything." "That's what everybody said while you were..." " A big drool machine?" " I was gonna say "recovering" but okay." "You're the only guy I know who's so dark it turns me into an optimist." "Dark huh?" "That's a polite way of putting it." "Yeah I sort of blew up at Amy today." "She took me to a great spot on top of the hill there." "I mean you could see everything." "And then I kissed her." "Well that sounds nice." "Yeah it was our first kiss." "Well it was my first kiss." "But then she started talking about the way things used to be and I just lost it." "She missed you." "I mean it's got to be hard for her." "Yeah I know." "You have no idea how frustrating it is." "You know I'm totally grateful to her." "I mean she's been my..." "You know when you're playing tag or capture the flag and there's that certain spot where they can't tag you out?" " It's a..." " Home base." "Yeah." "That's what she's been." "And all she's wanted from me was to pull out one stupid memory to let her know that I didn't lose her." "I did." "I haven't got anything." "I can't even give her that." " Hey." " It's true you don't charge for your services?" "Nasty rumor." " Thanks for coming in." "Have a seat." " Actually I'm glad you called." "I wanted to talk to you." "Listen last night I bullied you into the lion's den before you were ready." " That wasn't the best idea." " Wait a minute wait a minute." "I melt down you practically carried me home and you want to say sorry?" " You're like a saint only annoying." " Well sorry." "You were right to push me." "I need to think about getting out again." "I also need to get a meltdown out of the way first." "Maybe what I need is to think about thinking about it first." "Anyway the point is thank you." " It was the least I could do after all that free poking and prodding you did for me." "Yeah." "Listen about that I got your tests back today and..." "I have to admit I'm out of my league when it comes to eyes." "I wanted to spare you a trip to Denver but I'm gonna send you to a specialist." " Anything I should worry about?" " No." "I just..." "I want someone who can read an eye chart to put a stamp on it." " But do me a favor and go soon okay?" " Yeah." "No problem." " Dr. Abbott?" " Yes person?" "We on the red team were having such a good time during the color war that we wanted to do something for you." "A small thank you for putting together so orderly a trip." "Well I already have my nightly chamomile but it's very kind of you." "So rare to be appreciated as one ought." "My personal motto." "Cheers." "How dumb do they think I am?" "Come on!" "Come on!" "Let's go!" "Nine-thirty." "Time to put the little monsters to bed." "It's unfair how much I'll enjoy this." "I should get to bed soon my..." "The best part is he prescribed you these." "Operation Enduring Freedom is a success!" "Viva la minibar!" " Mind if I join you?" " She speaks." " She sits." " She cracks jokes." "Who knew?" " So how come you're not out partying?" " Happy people depress me." "Drunk happy people make me wanna slit my wrists." "I thought you were part of the who's who the heir to cool." "You go for a few months to boarding school and it's "Out of sight out of clique."" " You didn't want to go?" " St. Margaret's was my parents' doing." "I mean after Colin's accident..." " It's kind of hard to explain." " You don't have to." "You had to parent them right?" "My mom died in a car accident." "It was almost a year ago now." "I had to parent my little sister for a while." "Left my dad to fend for himself." " How did he do?" " Not great." "Better." "Yeah in a way I kind of lost my parents in Colin's accident." "I mean not in the way you did." "But they shattered after Colin crashed." "And after that all their focus was on him getting better." "So sending me away was the best they could do." "They said that it was so I could have a normal life and be surrounded by friends but I get it." " That's harsh." "Don't get me wrong I love my brother to death and I cried like a bunny to find out that I was still in his head somewhere." "But ever since that truck flipped my whole life has been about him." "You know I wasn't aware that bunnies did much crying." " Don't nitpick." " Right." "And I thought you were just quiet." "No." "I just wait until I'm sure somebody's worth talking to first." " And then I don't shut up." " Yeah you're telling me." " What?" " I'm not welcome here?" "Usually you come over here to pick up or drop off a child." "I don't think I have yours." "Do you have mine?" "I'm here for dirt." "How'd it go?" "It was fine." "Was it "fun" fine?" "Did you meet any nice people?" " Do we have to do this?" " Well no not if you don't want to." "I just have this idea that you only talk to me when everything goes wrong but you save the fun parts for everybody else." "You're like the opposite of a fair-weather friend." "Basically it was a train wreck." "I barely got out of the car before I had a very nice panic attack." "Sorry to disappoint you." " That's terrible." " Yeah it was." "Now I know what all my patients are talking about." "You really feel as though you're gonna die." " What'd you do?" " Me?" "Nothing." "A lot of shaking." "Tom was the one who talked me off the ledge." "He took me for pancakes." "Giant pancakes." " There's a place..." " Mile High Diner." "I've been there every birthday since I was 5." " Little late to the party." " Did it help?" "Well not quite a Xanax but..." "I don't know why it happened." "I was..." "It was just a party." "Well dating's never an easy thing to start again." "And from what I remember it was never an easy period." "I had to give Tom Keyes some very bad news today." " Is he all right?" " Well he's not dying but it's bad." "At first I couldn't handle it myself and then he came into my office and it was my turn to be there for him and I wasn't." "I sent him off to let someone else tell him." " You gave people bad news all the time." " I did." "Doctors like to say it never gets easier but it does." "I told people they were gonna die hundreds of times and it took awhile but I became very good at it." "I'd march in say it gauge whether they were gonna crack now or later." "And if it was later I'd launch into the details and keep it analytical." "If they'd look like they were losing it I'd leave them in my office with tissues and check on another patient for an hour." "The trick was to get up and out before they cracked." "And they always do." "Tom gives so much strength to so many people." "To me." "And he was in my office looking at me and I knew that there was nothing I could do but make him fall apart." "And I couldn't do it." "I thought I was done with the hard parts." "It was the weirdest thing." "I was like "No" because I can't do that." "Can I steal her for a second?" "Why?" "She's just gonna tell me what you say later." "Can I say I'm sorry?" "No." " Well I am." " No I mean you shouldn't be." "You haven't done anything wrong." "Ever since the accident everyone told me not to push so hard." "Guess what I did." "I pushed." "I get you back and everyone says "Don't push Amy."" "And guess what I do." "Colin I'm beginning to think that the best thing I can do for you is to just go away." "Give you some time." "Don't do that Grover." "It's me who..." "I'm the one that blew up." " What did you say?" " I just said that I was sorry..." "No I mean what did you just call me?" "I called you Grover." "That's what you used to call me." "Yeah I know." "I've been remembering things." "About you us." "I mean some things not everything." "I remember "Grover." I even remember how you got that name." "We were like 10 years old and you kicked me because I was trying to kiss you." "Why didn't you tell me?" "I didn't want to disappoint you again." "You kind of expect the world and I can't give you that." " You're not disappointed?" " No." "No I'm..." "What's the opposite of disappointed?" "I don't know." "I don't..." "My vocabulary's not very good right now." "Well whatever it is I'm that." "Good." "Because sometimes I think you forget how lucky we are." "Lucky." "Yeah that's us." "I mean it." "I mean how many couples get to have their first kiss twice?" " It's so beautiful out here." " It's no big deal." "I just wanted to take you somewhere special so you'd know you're special which you are to me." "And I mean in general too but especially to me." " It is special." " Is it special enough?" "For what?" "Oh that." "Yeah." "You know because we haven't really dealt with it really." "Except for that one time for like a second." "That was totally by accident." "Yeah." "I don't know." "It's just so perfect out here." "Do you want to?" "Are you kidding me?" "What do you think I was praying for all that time in mass today?" "You prayed for me to put out?" "That is so sweet!" " Dad?" " Hey where...?" "What are you doing?" " I'm coming!" " But I'm here and I said okay." "I have to go help my dad." "If I die and don't go to heaven I'm gonna be so pissed." " You have a good trip?" " End of the day yes actually." "Oh good." "I'm glad I didn't ruin it for you." "Let's just say we're even." "What for?" "He's off crib sheets Ephram." "He doesn't need you to feed him answers." " What did he tell you?" " He didn't have to." "The Grover story was a little specific not to mention straight off the Ferris wheel." "You might think I've forgotten the time we've spent together but I haven't." " Did you tell him anything else?" " No." "Just Grover." " Look does Colin know that you...?" " No." "No and he won't." "He doesn't need that." "Besides it was kind of sweet in a way although really misguided." "Well that's just me in general right?" "Amy I got us the back row." " Checking out Dr. Abbott?" " God yes." "I see we have some room charges and then we'll be all set." "Eight hundred dollars?" "Would you like me to put the movies on a separate bill?" "Yes please." "If I may have one final moment of your time..." "I would like to congratulate you all on your exemplary behavior this trip." "As a personal thank-you I'd like to introduce you to Sister Mary Constance of the Order of the Blessed Virgin." "Now Sister Mary has graciously offered to lead us all in catechism for the next three hours." "I should point out that this fine idea was inspired by my new friends at the video yearbook club so be sure to thank them for this spirited ending to our time together." "Yeah." "Sister Mary." " I wondered what went under the vestments." " Hanes Beefy-Ts." "I hear judges go commando but we answer to a higher power." " Didn't expect to see you here." " Me neither." " I need to talk to you." "Got a minute?" " I have to shake everyone's hands over bundt cake but sure." "I've got some news." "It's bad news." "I lied to you yesterday about your tests." "I told you to see a specialist but the all specialist will say is you have an irreversible eye disease and that you're going to go blind." "You've got what's called exudative macular degeneration." "Blood vessels are leaking onto both of your retinas which will make them scar and detach and ultimately useless." " Is there anything I can do?" " No." "Blind?" "But how?" "I've been fine except when I'm tired." "Your left eye is compensating for your right." "Your left eye is next." " When?" " Soon." "A few months maybe." "Progression is uncertain but rapid." "I tried to tell you yesterday." "I'm sorry Tom." "How will I...?" "Will I be able to read?" "For a while and then no." "There are people outside." "Everyone's waiting for me on the receiving line." "I was gonna go to Corsica in the fall." "I was gonna finish writing my book." "How can I...?" "How will I even be able to take care of myself?" "You'll learn how." "I don't want to learn." "I've had to learn how to live without a wife." "That was like losing an arm." "I have to lose my eyes too?" "People come to me all the time when they're sick." "They always ask me why." "And I always tell them that God has his reasons and we shouldn't try to decipher them." "I never realized how empty that must sound." "I don't know much about God but I've seen a lot of people get sick and worse." "I don't think God does this." "I don't think he makes people go blind." "I think what God does is gives us what we need to get by." "Can you fix this?" "No." "But I can sit with you." " Need a ride?" " Oh no thanks." "My dad's probably gonna do his usual late anyway." "Thanks again for all that Grover stuff you know." "It made all the difference for Amy." "You know it was just good to see her okay for once." "Home base and all." "Yeah." "Definitely." "So you got to know her pretty well when I was out." "I wouldn't say that." "Well you knew the whole Grover story." "You knew exactly what it'd take to make her happy." "I thought you didn't really know each other." "We hung out a couple of times." "It was no big deal." "She talked about you a lot." "Still you knew each other better than I thought." "Don't worry about it." "It's cool." "Thanks again for all that." "You don't mind back seat do you?" "Tell me again why we had to drive all the way to Denver for this." " Well you had a crappy weekend right?" " "Crappy."" "Crappy would have been great." "I would have gladly taken crappy." "Me too." "Was it that bad?" "Not as bad as some." "And somehow eating 7 pounds of pancakes is gonna make it all better?" "You tell me." " They're bigger than I am." " You'll manage." "You wonder, reading Job, what went through his mind  while everything he loved turned to dust." "I like to think it was memories of things once commonplace:" "Wheat fields and rain and slippers  a broom in the corner, his flock in the yard  his children at the table giving thanks for it all." "[ENGLISH]"