"THE BLINDFOLDED EYES" "To my son Antonio" "All of us present are making a call" "To save those who still live in prisons around the world" "To save all those who are tortured in hand of their executioners" "We don't want to hear tomorrow that we neglected the existence of these crimes" "We want to prevent these scenes from repeating" "Those scenes that shocked the world after the Second World War" "When millions of innocent people, true living corpses..." "Left the concentration camps with weak steps" "Faced with this horrible reality..." "Many said they never knew the existence of these extermination camps" "This comission has proof that today freedom is stolen" "And that people are assassinated with complete impunity" "In countries that presume to be civilized" "This comission has proof that condemns the governmental systems" "That tolerate and even protect this systems of repression" "This comission has the duty to warn" "That there's an increase of terror and violence in the world" "And that the process could get worse in a near future" "But the declarations of the witnesses will speak better than my words" "What they have to say has been verified as true by this comission" "The declarations work on our favor" "Let's call Ines" "Well it was around 3am..." "When they rang my doorbell insistently" "So I looked thru the balcony and saw 4 or 5 guys" "Dressed as civilians, with pistols and machine guns" "And they told me to open the door, so I told my parents I was going out" "I went down, opened the door, and they pushed me..." "They asked who lived there, I told them my parents and me" "And they came in, I'll always remember..." "It was July 9, two days before my birthday..." "So they came in my house and pointed me with a gun" "They told me not to scream, they asked my name." "I told them." "My parents were horrified." "They told them not to get involved, that it wasn't about them" "I was worried for my mom who has a heart disease..." "Luis... come" " I'm gonna scold you." " Why?" "I've told you to call me when you're coming, I don't want you to wait out there" " How are you?" " Fine, peaceful" " Sit down there." " Yes." " I'm drinking cognac, want some?" " No, later." "How are you?" "How do I look?" "Very good" "But, don't you notice something..." "No" "Well, you're a little fatter..." "Well, come close" "Look at my face" "What is it?" "The eyes..." "I've operated" "The wrinkles" "Yes" "Its fine, its very fine" " You're very beautiful..." " But you didn't notice..." " Notice..." " Well..." "Now let's be practical" "It's been a long time since I wanted to tell you something" "But since we never see each other" "And I don't want you to say no" "But how can I say no if I don't know what you're asking" "Do you think I could be an actress?" "Do you really mean it?" "Yes, I really mean it" "I've thought about it a lot" "I don't care if it's only a small role, but I want to be an actress" "You can never be sure, but..." " But if you want, come by my studio..." " Well, look who's here." " Hello, Manuel." " Hello, Luis, you finally came." " Last time we called you at your studio, but you didn't answer." " It's true." " I was downstairs." " It was about Emilia's classes, did she tell you?" "Yes, she just told me." "Well, if she likes it, great!" " Well, if it amuses her." " It doesn't amuse me, it is my vocation." "But recognize it is a late vocation" " You see how bad he is." " But he right..." "Don't be angry." "Come, to work." "The torture." "Good-bye" " So I'll pass by your studio." " Yes, really, whenever." "How do I look?" "Fine, fine." "Sorry" " So, how are things latey." " Fine." "I lead a very peaceful life, I give classes..." "Nothing in particular" "Well, about theater..." "I don't know." "I would assist more, if there was any good theater, of course..." "Does it hurt?" " Open." " Sorry." "And here, does it hurt?" "Your mouth is a mess." "Why haven't you taken care..." " But it can be fixed?" " Sure, everything can be fixed, except death." " We're still in time, but you should take it seriously." " Ok." "We're not used to go to the dentist, and that's a mistake." "Yes..." "What I don't understand is why haven't you invented another instrument of torture" "What an exaggeration" "You'll see, it's nothing" "Mouth wide open" "Easy, easy..." "Help!" "You're a son of a bitch" "It's over" "You should find a small river where to fish peacefully..." "It's ready" "Wash your mouth" "Thanks" "I couldn't sleep, so I started to think about the most important moments of my life" "Those moments which have marked you forever" "I thought about women" "With the ones I had sex" "I tried to remember their faces" "Their bodies" "And I felt a chill" "The chill of a disaster" "And for the first time in my life..." "I had the terrible sensation..." "Of having lived in vain" "Like..." "Like if I had just slightly touched the surface of things" "Without realizing" "Of why and for what I did those things" "I had just walked half the way" "It's possible to slide thru life," "like that, with impunity?" "We don't like what you are preparing, leave it before it's too late." "That's it." "Move your hips." "Feel your hips." "Let's see how the articulations are working." "The connections." "We shall imagine that the hips are an empty box" "Joint to the mouth by an elastic tube." "It's a humid box, resonant." "Try slowly, very slowly, to produce sounds..." "Very soft vibrations, slow." "More timid." "Sounds that resonate in our body, that run thru the tube to the mouth" "If you already did it, just go over it again and again" "And slowly try to interact with an imaginary antagonist, slowly..." "Let's see if the sounds can mix..." "Into an incomprehensible dialogue that comes from your hips" "That's it... slow... slowly." "Slowly..." "Let's talk to the antagonist in our body" "That's it, right" "That's it, slow, slow" "That's it, slowly" "Now imagine there's someone sleeping beside you so you can't talk at that volume" "Continue... yes, that's it" "What do you think?" " I didn't expect this." " Why?" " It's a bit crazy." " Yes..." " But I like it." " You like it?" " Yes." " Do you dare?" " Not now, I've come..." "Take off your shoes" "My god, what do I do?" "Just let go." "Let your body participate." "Go." "And now imagine there's no limits, and you can abandon your body..." "Go on..." "And slowly form a circle, keep talking..." "And when I clap, stop and relax" "And now reflexes, come Laura, follow your reflexes" "Come, Emilia, relax" "And now, slowly, let's walk, feel the weight..." "Let's search for a space, let's feel the body's weight" "Now find a fixed space" "Let the weight lead you, feel your head fall" "And feel your back bend, every vertebra, let it go" "Let's feel the body's weight, let's not precipitate" "Our knees bend, we feel tired" "And we let our bodies relax completely" "We separate a little, we don't touch anyone" "Nobody should interfere in our concentration" "Eyes open, relaxed forehead" "We are here and now..." "And now we go inside ourselves" "Let's start looking inside" "And we see our body as a long tunnel" "Dark, soft, damp, with shining colors" "And we look at the heart..." "We can see the red organ" "Warm, elastic" "We feel how it releases warm waves of blood" "Is it possible?" "For this fucking pain to come back..." "And now precisely..." "Well, let's see if it goes away" "No, please..." "What am I doing here?" "Alone..." "With a little luck I'll be fine" "I don't want to be seen like this" "If I die, I want to die alone, like a dog, fuck" "Oh, dear mother... what a pain!" "I think something is wrong" "I don't know why we are always getting into trouble" "Is something wrong?" "It's of no importance" " Can we help?" " Its a colic" "It happens to me sometimes" " Does it still hurt?" " No." "I'm still asleep, I feel the warmth, the blankets" "There's no noise in the street" "I feel the door of my room open" "It is my mother coming in" "I feel her stand" "I feel her watching me" "And then she sits in my bed, and it screeches" "And she caresses my head with her hand, softly" "I remember her hand, red, with wrinkles, working hands" "Red, sweet" "Anyway..." "This could be an excercise of emotional memory." "Naturally, the process should be more detailed." "And more pacient" "I've only walking a path, that I know but haven't visited" "If you have a question, make it" "And then we'll try an excercise" "Should we try to express theatrically?" "No, I believe we must avoid the theatrical and histrionic" "What we need is a real contact with our object and memory" "Is the role of imagination important?" "The role of imagination is of recreating" "Because what you remember is partial" "The more you use your imagination for filling in" "The more truthful will the acting be." "Understood?" "Any more questions?" "Ok, then I will now try" "An excercise to approach some persons" "Emilia, how about it?" "Ok" "Let's see" "If I say a word..." "Summer" "What does it suggest?" "The sea" "The beach" "Heat" "Heat, but there must be some detail." "In people's faces..." "The contact with your sweaty clothes" "The contact with the sand" "Heat" "I see a white door" "A path" "A wheat field" "The door, tell me more about it" "Is it old or new?" "How is it painted?" "Is wood or steel?" "I see an old wood door" "White, very white" "And I open the door" "And I see the sea" "Well..." "What I am going to say isn't to criticize" "I didn't want to make an excercise, just an approximation" "Tomorrow we'll excercise, more relaxed" "But I will still tell you a few things" "What you have told us are a some images" "Very utopic, beautiful perhaps" "But you haven't told us" "Of your deep sensations" "That's what we're interested in for this job" "This job requires a detailed reconstruction of the past" "Through the detailed and complete description" "Of objects, odours, sensations, colors, persons..." "Understand?" "That's why a detail that might seem insignificant" "It is a mine" "We must search it" "It's not about making a rational study of one's behavior" "What a critical study does is repress, limit, and classify" "The ashes of a burnt fire" "We don't need to hide anything" "We need to revive the fire" "Let it burn again" "Do you understand?" "And you" "And you, and you, and you..." "Would know more about yourselves" "If you would burn that fire of the past" "Is it clear?" "You haven't done as we said." "Suffer the consequences" "Who is it?" " Who is it?" "!" " Emilia" "What is it?" "I'm sorry to bother you" "Come in." "What is it?" "Who hit you?" "He never acted like this and suddenly..." " Calm down." " He hit me" "He went mad" "He hit me, look" "He really hurt me" "Oh my..." "It's alright now" "Come in, don't worry" "Let's go upstairs cause it's cold here" " He was like a beast, I don't know what happened to him." " Calm down" "He never hit me before" " Never since I know him." " It's alright" " He never hit me before." " Well..." "He wanted to kill me" "It's ok" "Sit down" "Thanks... thanks" "I'll give you a coke" " No." " Ok" "What a beast!" "I'm not coming back to him." "I hate him" "Beast!" " Look Emilia, I don't want to get involved." " I know" " Every marriage is a mess." " A big mess!" "You know that well" "Do you know what happened?" "It was so stupid" "Manuel is jealous of your classes" "So he tells me I'm never home" "He says its a waste of time." "He laughs of your classes and you" "And tonight he started to get jealous" "So I got angry and told him a few words" "And he began to hit me like crazy" "And I told him I was coming to live with you" "But, why did you do that?" "!" "It just came out" "What a mess you made" "Don't worry, I have an hotel reservation" "Well, I'm going..." " Thanks for your help." " Emilia, no, wait..." "My suitcases..." "I already had the reservation..." "Emilia, it's not that..." " Oh my god." " Emilia..." "I don't have anyone to go to" "Come in, please, I'm sorry" " Come in, please." " I don't want to bother you" "Come in again and don't worry, I'm sorry..." " Am I bothering you." " Of course no." " I'm being ridiculous." " No." " Sit down." " Yes, I mean, no..." "Well, don't sit" "I should have taken this decision long time ago" "I'm a stupid" "Oh, yes, I am stupid" "How could I tolerate this imbecile" "For so long..." "Plus, thinking it was my fault" "Do you know why I told myself every day?" "I told myself: "Emilia..." "Please, Emilia, be patient, you'll see how everything works out" "And all this is because I'm irritable!" "Everything is because I am changing" "I want to find myself, and that's what bothers him" "Your classes opened my eyes and that's what he hates" "Also, because I am trying to find myself" "That's what bothers him the most" "I need to talk to someone who understands me" "I need to give affection" "It's not only about receiving" "Yes." "Not only to receive, to give..." "What do you think about my acting" "You've done great" "Better than before..." "Don't answer" "Relax, we must confront things" "Hello?" "Yes, Manuel, she's here" "Well, that's your problem..." "She can stay here the time she needs" "Look, I don't think its the best time for her to talk" " Tell him no." " Better tomorrow?" "Ok, I'll tell her, wait" "He wants to talk to you, he insists" "I don't want to, tell him" "Manuel, she doesn't want to" "Yes, yes, well..." "But Manuel, why do you think that, no, no" "Manuel, would you let me speak?" "You know what, you're an imbecile!" "What did he say?" "What did he say?" "Tell me" "That both of us go to hell" "Very bad..." "Emilia Spensa" " You saw me." " I'm ashamed" "No, don't be ashamed" "Shall I stay?" "Ok" "All the time I want?" "All the time you want" "Luis..." "We're going to start from zero..." "Let's tell ourselves everything, ok?" "Everything?" " No dirty corners?" " I'm not laughing" "Really, let's start clean, you and me." "Be honest..." "Alright?" "Ok" "But we start tomorrow, ok?" "Tomorrow..." "Why don't you put some music?" "Well, I spent my childhood in Murcia" "That's where I was born, well, you know that already" "And where my mother was born" "I don't know if you want me to tell you..." "Something from those years..." "I can only say my childhood was very normal" "Without up and downs" "I had a dog I loved, he was very ugly" " What was its name?" " His name was Trompo" "And we played in the roof" "We acted out the war and weird scenes" "What I mostly remember is the sun" "The heat of the summer" "The land dry from lack of water" "And the light very bright" "It lighted up everything" "Strange, but the painter who best resembled that luminosity is Van Gogh" "I don't know, its so far away" "So far and with no importance" "My father died very young." "I was a baby." "And I don't remember nothing of him if it wasn't for the photos" "And when father died the family business was lost" "My mother tried to maintain it for a while but it was a disaster" "My mother was a very warm woman" "She was a bit lazy and very pessimistic" "I inherited from her the fear that the sky could fall any moment" "Where was I, I got lost..." "Your mother took the business." "The family told her to send me to Madrid with uncle Andrés" "To work and become a man" "And so I came to Madrid" "And I thought I was going to work on a counter" "Or keeping the books" "And my uncle Andrés who took it very seriously" "Put me to work immediately as a delivery boy" "With the disadvantage of my health and my morals" " Poor little one!" " I can still see myself carrying 20 kg sacks" "And I was only 14 years old then" "Do I look good?" "You're very handsome" "Good morning, Don Andrés" "What do you want?" "Don't you remember me?" "You're Luis." "Luis López (Tierral)" "You've got the same memory as always" "How come your're here, I haven't seen you since..." "It's been 23 years, Don Andrés" "What a barbarity!" "And what do you want?" "Nothing, I was just passing by" " And I couldn't resist the temptation." " Very good" "Come in!" "But just for a moment..." "And only if I'm not interrupting, because for you work is..." "On the contrary, this is over" "What's been of your life?" "Nothing in particular" "You've progressed" "I knew it." "I always thought you were quite awake" "Intelligent" "This work wasn't for you" "That's what I told your mother" "And to *Supriamo*, may he rest in peace" "Do you say it because of this?" "Well, I got into some business" "In the good times, when one could earn money" "But now things are more difficult" "Do you remember I liked to write?" "I had no idea" "What do you mean?" "I will never remember the day... when you surprised me writing a poem" "I was scared thinking I was going to lose my job" "But you told me to read it to you" " Excuse me a minute, I'll be right there." " There's no hurry" "And so I read the poem, and it said..." "He who sighs through life" "Asks himself, what is life?" "Life is a suffering, a torment, that invites us to meditate" "What do you think about it?" "Oh how beautiful!" "Very beautiful, yes, beautiful!" " I like it." "What do you want?" " There's no hurry." "Well, Don Andrés, you didn't like it very much" "After that you told me to forget that crap and be practical" "Yes, and I followed your advice and here I am" "And now you've come to see the progress you've made so far" "Something like that" "I never told you..." "How horrible were those years." "Did I told you?" "No" "Did I tell you how I felt with every pore filled with coal" "And that it never fell off, no matter how I washed" "Didn't I tell you?" "And the worst were the cockroaches" "Cockroaches?" "I still have chills when remembering them" "You were good to me, Don Andrés" "Well, that's good" "I need 10 kilos of coal" "Coal for the brazier?" "That belongs to another time" "There's no more of that, not even oak coal" "Oh well, I still need that kind of coal" "How about the coal made of olive's seeds" "I'm very sorry." " You don't have?" " No" " Is he crazy?" " Me?" " No, him." " No." " Well, goodbye" "Well, Don Andrés, I'm leaving" " How happy to see you again." " Thanks" "Well..." " Say, can I take a look down there?" " Of course" " This is your home and you can do what you like." " Thanks" "Although I don't know if you are dressed for the occasion" "Be careful Luis, don't let the cockroaches eat you" "Of course lady, we have that coal" "We don't have any coal for the kitchen..." "I'll send the boy with the coal to your house" "Luis, prepare 20 kilos of coal and 20 of the special coal" "Right away, Don Andrés" "Are you ok, Luis?" "This month you will pay the water" "I'm finishing aunt, almost ready" "Take this towel and dry yourself" "Thanks aunt" "Let me" "You're paying for the water" "What do you expect, I need to wash, right?" "Its that coal..." "I want to be clean, aunt, clean!" "Even if its the last thing I do in this world" "Luis, you're like a kid" "Are you going?" "I don't know" "I'll think about it" "I can't stay here forever, right?" "Don't go, I'll call your uncle right away" "So that he doesn't make you work too much" "You work too much" "Don't go Luis, don't go." "Do it for me" "Without you this house would be different" "It will be empty" "But you don't let me go out at nights, or take a shower" "If I use a lot of water, if it's expensive, plus..." "Leave me alone" "You need a little bit of patience" "Well, it was 3am approximately" "When they rang the doorbell insistently" "And I looked at the balcony and saw 4 or 5 guys" "Dressed as civilians and with machine guns" "Armed with machine guns and pistols" "And they told me to open the door" "So I told my parents they came for me" "I went down, open the door." "They pushed me." "They asked who lived there and I said only my parents and me" "And they came in..." "I will always remember because it was July 9, two days from my birthday" "So, they came in, they pushed me" "They pointed me with a gun" "They told me not to shout" "They asked my name and I told them" "My parents were terrorized" "They told them not to get involved" "I was worried because my mom suffers from the heart, and something could happen" "But, its curious because..." "I have the impression that..." "She is telling it as if it happened long time ago" "Or like it was a dream" "A nightmare" "Almost like a psalm" "Something once happened to me" "A little girl, 9 years old" "She told me a terrible nightmare" "That she had that night" "And I asked her if the stuff she dreamt" "Had the same power as the things she lived" "Yes, sure, because I live it in the dream" "Well..." "Anyway, give me that" "Emilia, it's your turn" "I think we can try it" "We can approach in different ways" "You could treat it as something in the past" "Or like something that's happenning right now" "Or like if it was a dream" "Take it" "And you, Rafa, please read the part of the lawyer" "Yes, that part" "And Emilia, you don't have to follow the text exactly, you can improvise" "What they will say has been proved true by this comission" "According to different declarations that we have heard" "We call Ines" "My parents left the bedroom" "They were surprised and full of fear" "They threatened them also" "And in a bad manner, told them not to get involved" "That it wasn't about them" "My mother was very sick of the heart" "And I thought she would die of the shock" "They asked me about Raúl, my partner" "And I told them I didn't know where he was" "At that moment it was true" "Because I didn't know where he was" "And that's why I was worried" "It was 2 weeks since I lived with my parents" "And I had not received any news from him" "You're coming with us" "That way you'll tell everything" "They told me" "And once in the street" "One of this guys" "He told me, don't even think about sceaming" "Or you will be sorry" "Help!" "Hel..." " What's wrong?" " Nothing, we are the police" "And once inside" "They put a gun to my head" "They forced me to put my head between the knees of one of them" "The sun was coming up" "That's the last thing I saw clearly" "Because later they put two pieces of cotton over my eyes" "And hold them very tight with tape" "I didn't resist because I was afraid" "They started to ask questions" "I don't remember their questions" "I was afraid" "The only thing I remember" "Is that we travelled" "Very fast" "I found myself in a dead end" "Because I've changed my job for something quite vague" "And it wasn't acting, which was something sacred to me then" "And it isn't now?" "Well, now it's a job like any other" "But a beautiful job sometimes" "Although I'm no actor now, just an spectator" "Things started to get better when my mother sent me some money" "And they accepted me in a theater play." "But they almost fuck my ass" " What?" "!" " Yes *undistinguishable*" "And it wasn't because I was prejudiced" "That wasn't my problem" "The reason was I remember Uncle Pepe" "That one day very serious he said:" "Luisito, never confuse the ass with the pussy" " Don't confuse..." " The ass with the pussy!" " Hey, Luis." " What?" "But, what are you doing?" "!" "Are you dead?" "Are you dead?" "I'm coming, Luisito" "We need to revive you, right?" "What's happening?" "Is something wrong?" "I love you, Emilia" "I love you more than anything in this world" "I was very afraid" "They pushed me..." "Through a narrow hallway" "While I walked..." "I bumped into people..." "That were next to the wall and in the hallway" "They put me in a room" "They made me sit in a chair" "And they surrounded me, because I felt their breath on my neck and face" "Since the cottons they've put in my eyes were wet" "I could see a little now" "Peeping through I could see the boots of my executioners" "Some military boots" "And some black shoes with pointed endings" "And I could hear more loudly now the metallic noise" "That I will never forget" "And that I can still hear some nights" "It was a noise like knives crashing" "No, it sounded like..." "Like knives sharpening" "Mixed with the sound of a tv" "When the show is over" "I've said everything I know, I really don't know anymore" "I've told you everything!" " We just need to know where is your friend?" " That I don't know" " Where is he?" "!" " I don't know!" "You're gonna talk anyway, save yourself the suffering." " Where is your friend." " I don't know." " Where?" "!" " If I knew I'd talked." "Where is he?" "!" "What is it?" "Yes?" "Who is it?" "Who was it?" "Some funny guy..." "This is the third time they call" "I was dreaming something very strange" "I was blindfolded" "I took off the bandage and realized I had lost my memory" "And then..." "When I went out to the beach I realized I had lost my memory" "I couldn't remember anything" "Of who I was..." "Nor where did I live and who were my friends..." "And my relatives" "Where are you going?" "I don't know" "*Indistinguishable*" " What a strange dream!" " Huh?" "I was in the streets..." "How can I explain..." "They looked like photographs" "They seemed to know..." "Surprised in their walking" "The people where there but..." "They looked surprised" "Their usual gestures" "Static" "And the cars and buses too..." "And the bikes too, everything was..." "Like if life..." "Was suspended." "And I started walking" "Through the streets..." "I entered a fashion shop" "It was a very strange place" "It was quite rare, large, huge!" "And there was nobody." "And I walked there..." "It seemed as if I was looking for someone, something... but there was nobody" "And then..." "I looked above some perches" "And I saw a curtain half open..." "And inside..." "A mirror..." "There was a reflection of..." "A girl..." "Very young and pretty." "A beautiful girl who was trying a skirt on." "She was looking in the mirror..." "And she had a body..." "Incredible, and the skin..." "And then I got near..." "To the counter..." "And there was the girl..." "Looking in the mirror" "And I felt like touching her..." "And I reached with my hand..." "And suddenly..." "I look into the mirror" "And I can't see myself" "And the girl starts moving, normally..." "Finishes trying on the skirt." "And then tries on a blouse" "And she leaves" "And I stay there" "Paralized..." "Looking at myself in the mirror" "She looked like someone, but I don't know who..." "She looked like one of your students" "They are all in love with you, did you knew?" "She looked like one of you students" " You are very attractive." " Are you talking seriously?" "Of course I mean it" "Give me a kiss" "I'm sleepy" "Hi, doll" " How are you?" " Hello" "We start rehersals in the theatre this monday" "Very good" "Yes, its ok" "A little too soon" "We'll have to work harder" "We'll have to rehearse harder" "Emilia" "For me?" "Yes" "Is Manuel, right?" "Yes" "Look what I've advanced today" "Its ok" " It's pretty, right?" " Very pretty." "Do you like it or not?" "Of course I like it" "It just that..." "Maybe you should use your time on something else" "Like in what?" "I don't know, I'm just saying" "If you like it, that's what matters" "It entertains me" "This is the last warning and your last chance" "I'm pissed off... this fuckers..." "Do you wanna read it?" "It's not necessary" "I think of you" "I want you to know what it says" "Emilia, this had to happen for me to understand what I've lost" "I've lost everything, Emilia" "And this house without you is empty and dead" "I can't tolerate your absence" "And I'm going out for a few days" "To think about myself and what will be of my life" "I only ask you to reflect on your decision" "If that's what you really want, tell me" "And I won't bother you any more" "But I want you to know..." "That I can't forget you" "And the more I try" "You are still here with me" "I love you and need you, Manuel" "Tell me something, please" "I don't want secrets between us, Luis" "That the happiness of one person" "Has to be done with the suffering of another" "It's sad" "If you had left" "I would had written a similar letter" "But you won't, right?" "Hey..." "It's because I..." "I couldn't..." "Hey..." "What is that?" "Huh?" "What is this face?" "Hey, fool" "What is that?" "You are a fool, I won't leave" "Fool..." "Luis..." "I won't leave you..." "Never, fool" "Emilia" "I'll never leave you" "Torture breaks the conscience" "Torture takes away information" "But above all, it awakens fear" "Sorry, Gustavo..." "Mount the scenery later and leave us alone" "Good, good" "Don't ennumerate, more fluid..." "And above all, it awakens fear" "That ancestral fear that lies asleep" "That fear we all have" "Fear to suffering" "Fear to darkness" "Fear of losing one's identity" "In a world of tied hands and eyes blindfolded" "We would like the witness to specify" "What kind of torture she suffered" "Without omitting details" "Because we believe its necessary to know" "To what level of cruelty those guys can reach" "They throwed me to the floor" "And once there they kicked me" "In the kidneys" "In the sides and finally in the belly" "Insulting me continually" "I told them everything I knew" "I said everything cause it hurt a lot and I just wanted them to stop" "It's enough of this bullshit, someone said:" "Now you will really tell us all" "I started to scream with all my strength" "Like crazy, I told them I knew nothing else" "Shut up, said someone else" "Pull your pants and underwear down" "I couldn't move with my handcuffs" "They took my clothes by force" "The buzz from before..." "Became much louder" "Oh my god, I thought, they'll use the prod now" "I open my mouth and I think they used the prod now because I try to shout but I can't" "I feel my throat closed" "And the current flows through my whole body" "The electric current shakes me" "The electric current shakes my whole body" "I feel as if they were tearing my arms, legs, everything" " I can't..." " Wait" "Yes, I forgot..." "They gave me... go on..." "They hit me on the breasts, on my genitals..." "I can't say it, it's too horrible" "Try, Emilia, try, try, come on" "I felt the shocks as shattering" "As if they were tearing my arms, legs, every body part" "I couldn't breathe" "I was choking, all my body was trembling" "My organism was convulsing like with an epileptic attack" "Good" "Okay, Emilia..." "Let's see..." "Andrew Wyeth, he is an american painter" "This is Christina" "It was a neighbor of his" "She was a paralytic, look..." "The arms" "I dreamt lot of times with this scenery" "Can I see the book" "With my tears the rocks turn soft and break down" "The trees seem to bend" "The birds that hear me, when singing, show condolence and my death with their singing they guess." "The beasts, that lean their tired bodies, leave their dreams to hear my sad mourning." "You, alone, turned harsh towards me" "Your eyes not even returning to what you made." "Go, tears..." "What is it?" "Emilia, why don't you tell me what is it?" "I don't know what it is" "I don't know..." "I don't know where I'm going, I know nothing" "I can't go on like this..." "Can I help you in some way?" "No" "Please, Emilia, we once made a deal..." "That you don't even respect" "You have your life..." "You have your work that fulfills your life" "I need something else, I don't know what" "I need something else" "Yes, sure" "Emilia..." "The only thing I ask" "Is that..." "If you are with me is because you want to" "If not it is not worth it" "Why fool ourselves?" "What's your answer?" "Luis?" ""Son of a bitch"" "Luis?" "Oh my god..." "Luis?" "!" "Luis, what have they done to you?" "Can you walk?" "What have they done?" "Oh, Luis..." " What have they done." " Nothing" "Hold on a little longer!" "Sit down" "My god..." "What shall I do?" " Emilia." " Rest." "It's not answering" "Emilia..." "Yes, Manuel!" "Yes, it's Emilia" "They've hurt Luis very badly" "You must come immediately, please" "Yes, it's quite serious" "Emilia, no..." "Yes, hurry up please, I don't know what to do..." "Emilia... no..." "I don't want him to see me like this" "If I die I want to die like this, fuck" "You won't die" "Oh mother, my pain!" "Fuck, such bad luck" "One day, or one night, I don't really know" "They changed me to another room" "And they brought a woman, I knew from her screams next door" "I could hear everything perfectly" "They insulted her and..." "I don't know what they did to her, but she screamed a lot" "I don't know how long it lasted because I felt asleep" "Well, only half asleep because..." "I dreamt I heard the voice of a soprano" "And in reality it was the woman screaming like crazy" "And she asked, "please not with the needle"" ""Not with the needle" she screamed" "I don't know if I felt asleep or not" "Because I have a blank in my mind" "What I do remember are the screams" "The metallic noise, the beatings..." "Someone who beat a sand bag to the floor" "I mix up things..." "I don't even know if what I'm telling now has really happenned..." "Or if I am imagining it" "That is my confusion..." "I think they interrogated me again" "I saw some lights that shined..." "And I remember..." "Some nice guys who offered me a cigarette" "And that spoke to me softly" "I heard the sound of a typewriter" "I didn't mind anything, I even felt good" "I don't remember if they made me sign or not..." "And that is something that makes me very anxious nowadays" "When I woke up I was lying in the floor" "I was very cold and was trembling" "I had the eyes blindfolded but my hands free" "I took off the bandages and found I was in a field." "There was a house, or farm, something like that" "It was a beautiful sunrise" "The light, the life..." "I stayed in the ground, contemplating that scenery" "I felt the fresh air in the lungs" "And I suddenly began crying from happiness" "The next day I began my forced return to Spain, with my sons" "Of my partner Raul I haven't had any news" "And I can't say anything more" "I hope this testimony is useful to alert the public" "So they can condemn the military, authoritarian, and repressive regimes" "So acts like this won't happen again." "Subtitles by Raul Q"