"Hey." "Hey." "That was a hell of a night." "Why do we fight?" "So we can make up." "I want us to try again..." "Try for a baby." "Christina." "Try for a family." "Christina." "Are you gonna wrestle?" "Who are you?" "!" "Michael." "Morning." "Hi." "Camille?" "Uh, this is Michael and Michelle." "Bourdet's kids." "Your surgical fellow?" "Wow." "Okay." "What are you " " What are you doing with his kids?" "Um, they're in town to see daddy." "Isn't that right?" "Right." "Let's go have breakfast." "But they were about to wrestle!" "Dude..." "Ew." "Um, Camille?" "You and I -- We got some talking to do." "Yeah, well, uh, why don't you come have pancakes?" "Did you know about this?" "How about we skip breakfast and wrestle?" "Camille, we had a deal." "Yeah, I know." "I was supposed to tell mom." "Yeah, I filled in the blanks best I could, but she had a lot of questions." "Tom?" "Hey, Camille, don't..." "So, run this by me again." "You got my daughter..." "A job at the hospital." "Yeah." "Assistant O.R. scheduler." "Mm-hmm." "She also happens to be my stepdaughter now." "That's very true." "Very true." "So, considering, um..." "You're okay with her babysitting a grown man's kids." "Oh, come on." "Miles is a great guy, and he needs a little help, and Camille's a great kid, and she's willing to help." "Really?" "That is my story, and I'm sticking to it." "Okay." "All right." "Uh, I'll be right back." "What?" "Whoa, whoa, whoa." "I took the day off." "Where are you going?" "It's a surprise." "Surprise?" "Yes." "Okay." "A surprise." "Mm." "Wait here." "Oh, yes, I will." "Okay." "That must have been bad." "There wasn't even any yelling." "No, she wasn't even angry." "Really?" "Wow." "Uh, thank you." "I, um, better not be late, then." "Whoa." "Where are you going?" "Well, you know, Miles called me to look after the kids, but since mom's okay with everything, then I figured I shouldn't miss a day of training." "No, no." "Camille, seriously, please don't leave me here alone with the kids, okay?" "Oh, you'll do fine." "No " "Bye." "Bye." "Hey!" "Hi, guys!" "We're hungry!" "You're awake!" "Whoo-hoo-hoo." "Okay, since you ask, proud daddy will show you..." "This is the love of my life." "That's Michael -- He's 6 " "And Michelle -- She's 3." "They're gorgeous." "Look at his smile and her eyes." "You see why she wants to be a youth director at our temple." "Why don't you guys have a seat?" "The cat scan has showed that the cancer spread to your other vocal chord." "Your previous doctor took this image six months ago." "All right?" "Now, this is the image we took yesterday." "See this area?" "That's the area that I'm concerned about." "I-I " " Well, how 'bout some good news?" "The good news is that we can save your life, with the right surgery." "I -- i-I don't want the laryngectomy." "With the voice-sparing surgery, there's more than an 80% chance that the tumor will recur." "Even after radiation?" "Lose the tumor." "Keep my voice box right where God put it." "I-I " "I'm sure you notice I stutter..." "Except when I sing." "As a little girl," "I always used to prefer to sing than talk." "God's given me something that " "That not only takes away my embarrassment but that I can use to share him with others." "I can't lose that." "You slipped out early." "You were sleeping so peacefully, I didn't want to wake you." "So, I want-- I " "Sorry." "Go on." "I was just wondering if we could drop our cease-fire and make it a truce." "A truce would be nice." "I realize when your father was here, we never talked about the " "I may have overstepped some bounds." "And I-I was..." "I was out of line when I, um..." "Hey, Bobbie." "Hey, rusty." "Uh, I should finish my quarterly..." "Before the photographer arrives." "Yeah." "How do I look?" "You look great." "Just, um, maybe purse your lips." "Do you want to, uh, grab a coffee, continue this downstairs?" "That'd be great." "Can you give me 10?" "Sure." "Usual two." "You know what?" "I'm gonna need 20." "Yeah." "Okay." "40 would be better." "I'll be back." "Camille knows I'd rather her be in school than work." "Okay." "Deep breath." "And..." "Kids " "What is she doing with these kids?" "I mean, what is that about?" "I know she's almost 20, but..." "Okay." "Shh." "Deep breath." "And Tom." "He's expecting her to tell me everything, so of course that means I'll know nothing." "Okay, I'm not gonna know anything, either, because you keep talking." "I could do some perfunctory exam, but why don't you just go home and enjoy yourself, okay?" "I want to get pregnant." "What's the rush?" "Oh, wait." "That's a ridiculous question." "You only have one speed " " Go." "Rr-rr-rr-rr." "I'm ready." "Okay." "Okay, Kat's on vacation, but I can send you down for some tests." "Sure." "Why don't I send you down for a hysterosalpingogram right now?" "Yeah?" "Yep." "You think I'm crazy?" "Uh, no, actually..." "I think it's really good you're..." "Moving ahead, thinking like this." "You know, going for your life." "You ever think about having kids?" "I think all that's passed me by." "Ah!" "You see?" "What's that expression?" "Um, work is the ultimate seduction." "Okay?" "Go get pregnant." "Okay." "Okay, daddy daycare, just text me, and I'll get you whatever you need." "All right, I'll be home soon." "Okay." "Bye." "Good morning, miss Hawthorne." "Good morning." "I was wondering if I could I have a minute of your time?" "I really don't have the time." "I'm sorry." "Hey, listen." "I'll make this real quick." "And I'm a little more than embarrassed that I didn't ask this sooner." "Did you ever solicit detective Renata to kill your attacker?" "Excuse me?" "Did you ever request that he sh" " No!" "Did you even suggest that " "How could I suggest anything?" "I never even identified my attacker." "Well, you make a good point." "Miss Hawthorne," "I don't know why you're protecting this man." "But by the end of the day today, after I question detective Renata, you're gonna feel a whole lot differently." "And smile." "It's a beautiful morning." "It is a beautiful morning!" "I can't open the door." "Coming." "Oh." "Here." "Thanks." "Hope I got everything." "Yeah." "Looks like you did." "Wow!" "Look at this." "We're making a racer!" "We're making a soap car." "A soap-box car." "I used to spend my summers outside of akron with my cousins." "We'd make one every year." "Uh, sorry about this mess." "I promise we'll clean it up when we're done." "Hey!" "Hey, where did you go, by the way?" "I went to see Brenda." "I wanted to..." "Make sure I was healthy enough to have a baby." "And?" "Do you want to have a baby?" "I would love a baby." "No wrestling!" "♪ I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills ♪" "♪ from whence cometh my help ♪" "That's beautiful." "Thank you." "I was just " "Just, uh, praying, but it's more like talking to a wall." "It's one of my wife's better jokes." "Oh, hi." "Hey." "Yes!" "Thank you." "Oh, uh, not until after the surgery." "Ah." "Just a taste?" "I'm sorry." "So sad." "I'm, uh, I'm Camille." "I'm an O.R. scheduler." "If you need anything, if there's anything you want..." "Uh, give me back my frozen yogurt?" "Dr. Bourdet's been great." "Yeah." "He actually -- He told me about your case." "You're risking your life." "Look, I don't mean to be rude, but, um, I recently almost lost my mother, and I lost my baby sister." "So life and God have taken on a new meaning." "I-I believe my life and my voice are gifts from God." "I hope to be a-a youth director in a few years." "We've prayed about this -- A lot " "And gotten counseling." "And, look, I'm not exactly crazy about this, either, but..." "We walk by faith." "Okay, think that's enough?" "I don't know." "Okay." "Let me look around and see if I can find a place to take a few more." "Wow." "You look great." "Are you sure that's the guy?" "Yeah." "Positive." "He's done vanity fair covers, rolling stone." "Why is he taking my photo?" "Well, looking online, it does appear he's hit something of a career bump." "That's why it feels like I've been run over." "It's not just your O.R. nausea." "Dr. Marshall, please!" "Don't whine." "Oh, why are you so mean?" "!" "Okay." "What is your problem?" "What is your problem?" "Oh, okay." "Sorry." "That was too much." "It's just..." "You're one of the smartest people I've ever met." "Sure!" "Don't show that in the hall!" "Which means it's a crime, a sin, for you not to share what you know." "And I want you to teach me..." "Desperately." "It's a responsibility." "That would mean I have some kind of obligation to you, which I do not have and I do not want." "Get it?" "Got it." "I can't -- I can't hear you." "Oh, I was serious." "I couldn't hear you." "I don't like you, Kelly." "You're always happy, and that's not real." "Moreover, it's annoying!" "But..." "If you want me to teach you," "I will give you one more shot this afternoon." "Really?" "And if you think you're gonna lose your lunch and duck out, don't bother showing up." "Because..." "The only thing I hate more than happy people is people who quit." "I will not quit!" "Mm." "We'll see!" "No, I won't." "I promise you I will -- Stay." "Yes!" "Oh!" "Yeah!" "Why don't we start off with a stroll down memory Lane?" "Now, your dad was a drinker." "So when he'd come stumbling home at night, when he'd kick in that front door, what'd you do, Renata?" "Run and hide under a bed with big old tears running down your cheeks while you listened to your mama scream?" "Now, help me out here." "Your older brother -- And this is just a rumor " "But he went to jail for you." "Supposedly, he's the reason you even have a badge." "And your younger brother -- He had to leave the house, 'cause he couldn't stand to watch the abuse anymore." "But you " " You stayed." "Though through all accounts, you couldn't stop your daddy." "So the way I got it figured, you didn't crawl out from that bed where you were hiding." "That'd taken stones." "Your daddy dragged you out of there when you were 11, told you to stand up, be a man, and do something." "Yes, sir." "That's the way it happened." "I was 7." "Can you do it yeah!" "Go all the way?" "Yeah, let's see how far it goes." "Hey!" "Look at this!" "Wow!" "Look at that!" "You guys did a great job!" "Yeah, we did." "Man, you guys must be really hungry." "Who's ready for lunch?" "Jelly sandwich on raisin bread?" "Well, no." "It is chicken salad on wheat." "Ugh!" "No, thank you." "Oh, come on." "I promise you're gonna love it." "I'm never " " And I mean ever -- Gonna love it." "That smell bad." "It smells bad." "Well, you know, food is not necessarily supposed to taste good." "Food is nutrition for the body so it functions well." "So, the body needs protein, protein, protein, and more protein!" "Food's not supposed to taste good?" "What kind of lie is that?" "Hey, you know what?" "Listen." "Fruits and vegetables " "That's what your body needs for it to be nice and strong, okay?" "So I've got grapes." "I've got sandwiches." "Krispie treats!" "Yeah!" "Whoo-hoo-hoo!" "Krispie treats!" "Tom, I threw those away." "Yeah." "I bought more." "And I hid them." "Krispie treats make the stomach happy!" "Yeah!" "Yeah!" "That's good." "Is it?" "Yeah, you're a real natural." "Oh, yeah, I feel like a natural." "I'd say..." "We're..." "Done." "I'll turn in my proofs, and you'll hear back sometime." "Do you know when this article will be published?" "Yeah, maybe the first of never." "These days, with ad sales down, can't take anything for granted." "How was it?" "Waste of time." "I don't know -- Am I just being foolish about all these big plans for James River?" "Should I just try and be the best CNO I can be?" "Well, the job itself is quite a challenge, right?" "But listen." "About our truce." "I've been replaying some stuff in my head, and..." "I realize I've been pretty rough on you." "I see how much you care about this hospital, just as I see the good work you're trying to do with my father's money." "That money allowed me to become a doctor in the first place." "It was just, um, seeing him again was, uh..." "Was difficult." "But I'm sorry for the things I said." "Thank you." "Typical." "After you." "Do you want me to call Ben?" "No, I asked him to run an errand." "I don't want him to see me like this." "I'm pretty freaked." "It's understandable." "Yeah." "And, you know, while I'm confessing my weakness..." "I'm hurt..." "And r-really confused..." "And angry." "Why?" "Why do I have to..." "Choose..." "Between my voice or my life, when all I want is to sing about my faith?" "Postpone the surgery." "No, there's no reason to do that." "And what about how you're feeling?" "I can't go by just feelings " "Not completely, anyway." "And what if you lose your voice?" "I have to trust God." "I can't look at whether or not I'm gonna lose my voice." "I have to believe that I won't." "Even if I'm able to get every bit of the tumor out, most likely, we'll just see her back here in a year." "I don't believe that." "Sarah asked me to be in the O.R. with her." "Is that okay with you?" "Yeah." "It's her decision." "I'm fine with that." "Is that what you were singing earlier?" "One of the psalms -- Prayer put to music." "The words have been preserved, but we don't know the melodies, so I come up with my own." "Forget something?" "I hated photographing you." "Came back here just to say that?" "Uh, no." "Um, in the last year," "I've had some professional setbacks, and I just stopped caring." "Like today, I thought that I was just photographing another pretty face." "I'm late." "Look..." "I read your article..." "About what you're doing here at James River." "And I think everyone should read what you have to say." "Thank you." "And I would like to do anything I can to make that happen." "Hospitals aren't sexy." "Remember?" "No." "And they smell bad, too." "Is there somewhere else we could go, like outside?" "Sure." "Okay." "Let's talk about Christina Hawthorne." "You guys met on a police matter." "Is that a question?" "You see, the case is not what interests me." "What interests me is that you two dated for a little bit out there." "Hell, maybe you even fell in love." "But then miss Hawthorne found out she was pregnant, went back to the doctor, and decided to get married." "Now, that had to sting." "Let me ask you something, detective Renata." "Any chance that baby was yours?" "Can I help?" "Yeah." "Of course." "Okay." "You got a nice stroke on there." "Thank you." "Nice and easy." "You can help me anytime." "I'm planning to." "Thank you." "Christina!" "Christina!" "Christina!" "Christina!" "Hi!" "Hey!" "Oh, look who's up!" "Did you guys have a good nap?" "Yeah." "Did you paint the racer?" "Yes!" "Are we ready to decorate it?" "Yeah." "We don't decorate racers." "Right." "Why not?" "Well, you don't put flowers on a racecar." "Who said anything about flowers?" "Okay, so Michael and Tom will do what they want on that side, and Michelle and Christina will do what we want on this side." "High five." "Oh, really?" "That's what I'm talking about." "Give me a high five." "Yeah!" "So let's do this." "I'll tell you what." "You start, okay?" "Okay." "All right." "Hello?" "Hey, Brenda." "You okay?" "Y-you're not queasy?" "No." "Why?" "Are you?" "Me?" "Not at all." "Kelly." "Sorry." "Sorry." "What's that look like?" "Local invasion." "That doesn't sound good." "The tumor's grown bilaterally into her vocal chords." "That sounds even worse." "Have to cut a lot deeper." "Will she lose her voice?" "It's her voice or her life." "There just isn't much room." "Sats have dropped to 91." "No breath sounds on the right side." "Sats are down to 83." "Dial her oxygen to 100%." "What's going on?" "Her lung's collapsing." "B.P.?" "82 over 40." "She's got JVD." "I can feel the crepitus." "Let's prep this area." "Give me a number-10 blade." "A number-32 chest tube." "B.P.'s 80 over 20." "What's happening now?" "We need to remove the fluid so her lung has room to inflate." "Otherwise both lungs will collapse." "Hang another two units, stat." "Normal breath sounds." "Nicely done." "Thank you." "How is she?" "I was getting worried." "Um, why don't we talk while Camille goes with Sarah to her room?" "That was horrible." "The O.R. can be a horrible place where people bleed out or lose limbs or go into cardiac arrest, and there is not a thing you can do about it." "Is that why you're so unhappy, being around all those things?" "We just saved a life in there, epson!" "A lot of us give up our nights and weekends, even our holidays, because what we do in there is more important than our own happiness!" "You obviously don't get it." "That was your shot." "You blew it." "That's it!" "When the hospital first opened, all these were flowering peach trees." "Eventually the west wing was built, and then the east, then parking structure." "Eventually, all this became overgrown." "The fountain fell into disrepair." "People stopped coming out here." "It's really a shame to lose the grace of the past in pursuit of the future." "You've done an amazing job restoring this." "Article's gonna be pulled, isn't it?" "People need to read about what you're doing here, from this garden to the cancer and research center." "Just need to wrap it in a sexy paper." "Christina!" "Hey." "I thought we'd sit outside." "Such a pretty day -- No, Brenda." "No." "I heard your tone." "Just " " What's going on?" "The hysterosalpingogram shows your fallopian tubes are blocked." "So I've developed endometriosis." "Yeah." "Can I get pregnant?" "There's a high incidence of infertility." "It's gonna be extremely difficult, if not impossible." "I'm so sorry." "Christina!" "Christina!" "Hey!" "You have to do something." "Okay." "What's going on?" "You tell her, Tom." "Well, apparently I can't get the car through the front door." "But we want to drive the car." "But you can't get it through the front door?" "I think I might have the solution for this." "Here we go!" "We don't need to take the car outside!" "We can have fun inside!" "Hi." "Wow!" "You look gorgeous." "The photographer asked for a reshoot." "He said black and white looked better for the camera, so I borrowed one of your shirts." "Suits you." "So, I have a break in a minute." "I don't know if" "Hello?" "Hi." "Yeah, I'll -- Yeah, I'll hold." "Editor and publisher of " "Hello." "Yeah " " Yes, that's me." "Well, thank you very much." "You've seen them already?" "Oh, I'm glad you liked them." "Ah, digital, of course." "Who uses film anymore?" "Dinner." "Tonight?" "I guess so." "8:00 at Chez Philippe?" "Uh, sure." "T-that'd be great." "Hey." "Hey." "I love you." "I love you, too." "Aren't you tired?" "I know all about this parental gig." "I know what it takes." "Pretty cute, huh?" "Very." "When you were taking a nap today with the kids," "I went back to the hospital and I saw Brenda." "And, um..." "She told me I'm not gonna be able to have any more children." "There's too much scar tissue." "I think that you should find..." "A wife..." "That can give you..." "No." "For better or for worse." "That's so noble." "I watched you with these kids all day." "There's no way I can do that to you." "Christina, I made you a promise." "I love you, Christina." "What's today's flavor?" "Vanilla chocolate strawberry." "I hate people who quit." "You fired me." "You quit once." "I fired you once." "We're even." "I accept your apology." "That what you think that was?" "Absolutely!" "I'm gonna teach you everything I know." "You're gonna be the best O.R. scrub nurse in the state of Virginia, even West Virginia." "I can't wait." "But you better not quit on me." "You wish." "Okay." "My goodness." "Thirsty?" "Oh, a failure to communicate with rusty." "You seen my jacket anywhere?" "I was hoping we could grab a moment, but you're leaving right now?" "I'm having dinner with the editor publishing my article." "Mm." "Congratulations." "So, the photos did the trick, then." "What does that mean?" "Hey " "No failure to communicate between you and I." "Thanks." "Will you be awake when I get home later?" "Well, if I'm not, why don't you wake me up this time?" "Hmm?" "Okay." "Hey, can you take a look at those photos on my desktop?" "I'd love to hear what you think." "Sure." "Thanks." "Okay, wish me luck." "I'll see you later." "Good luck." "Hey." "Hey, sweetie." "Dr. Bourdet said that..." "He tried, Sarah." "He really tried." "Oh, honey." "No, no, no." "Stay in bed." "Slowly." "♪ I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills ♪" "♪ from whence cometh my help ♪" "♪ my help cometh from the lord ♪" "♪ which made heaven and earth ♪" "It was, um..." "It was beautiful." "Even after she lost her voice," "Sarah still got down on her knees and prayed." "I want that." "I want to know God." "I want to make that commitment." "Baptize me." "Look " "I know that you -- You saw a lot today, right?" "And I'm sure your emotions are going up and down, but..." "Baptism is something serious to me." "I know that." "Baptism is an " "Is an outward expression of an inward commitment, not to man, but to God." "I know." "And I've made my decision." "I'm not an ordained minister." "We should do this in a church." "John the baptist wasn't an ordained minister, and he baptized Jesus." "Ready." "I'm gonna record this if you don't mind." "You don't mind, do you?" "Hello?" "Hello?" "You're smart, Renata." "I think you're a shrewd detective." "But let me tell you how this all went down." "First off, you got a call from Tom Wakefield." "Innocent enough." "He needed your help." "But when you got to that hospital and you saw what that animal had done to Christina, you flew into a rage." "In short order, you told your partner to head back to the station by himself." "Then you walked across the street and looked at the bank's security tapes, which, by the way, was genius." "You got a plate, cross-referenced it with the registered owner and the patient list -- How am I doing so far?" "Now, I don't think you went to Gerry Brandon's apartment intent on killing him." "But you went and paid him a visit, and your gut told you something." "I mean, you just wanted him to get what he deserved." "Hell, like any man would." "But the thought of Brandon possibly getting away with beating Christina Hawthorne and killing her unborn baby was just too much." "So you asked him to come down with you to the station." "You got in the car, started talking." "He probably said something like," ""you know what?" "That little black lady" ""got what she deserved," ""sticking her nose in my life and ruining my marriage." "I don't care about her baby dying."" "And then, right then, detective Renata, you stopped at a stop light, the police station on the right, murderer on the left." "You chose the left." "You shot him in cold blood." "You took the law into your own hands." "And that is the difference between a good cop and a bad cop." "Is that all you got, little man?" "You want to know what my biggest dilemma is?" "I'm sure you got one." "I can't prove any of this." "But let me tell you something, and you listen to me real good." "Justice is always served." "That gang of thugs Brandon belonged to " "They don't take too kindly to one of their own being killed." "So I'm gonna give you a little warning, my friend." "You watch your back." "But, hell..." "Congratulations." "You just got away with murder." "Now get the hell out." "♪ I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills ♪" "♪ from whence cometh my help ♪" "♪ my help cometh from the lord ♪" "♪ which made heaven and earth ♪" "♪ he will not suffer thy foot to be moved ♪" "♪ he that keepeth thee will not slumber ♪" "♪ behold, he that keepeth Israel ♪" "♪ shall neither slumber nor sleep ♪" "♪ the lord is thy keeper ♪" "♪ the lord is thy shade ♪" "♪ upon thy right hand ♪" "♪ the sun shall not smite thee by day ♪" "♪ nor the moon by night ♪" "♪ the lord shall preserve thee from all evil ♪" "♪ he shall preserve thy soul ♪" "♪ the lord shall preserve thy going out and thy coming in ♪" "♪ from this time forth and even forevermore ♪"