"5..." "♪ And in time we will all be stars ♪" ""Welcome to lachsa."" "You're more than welcome to follow them if you'd like, and they're going to music 149." "I know." "I'm excited, so scared." "You're fine." "You're gonna be fine." "All right." "If you're early, you're on time." "If you're on time, you're late." "If you're late, you're dead." "Not a joke." "Okay, we're all ninth graders, right?" "Since you guys are little dogs, who are the big dogs?" "The seniors." "The seniors." "Right." "You seniors, this is your year." "Just work." "Just don't stop working." "X equal negative b," "♪ plus or minus square root b-squared and... ♪" "This school is not for everybody, because it's rigorous." "You have to maintain your academics, your arts, work long hours." "These rules are the rules that we have to live by in the professional world." "That's what it is." "It's preparing you it is." "It's preparing you to work professionally." "So you must take what we're giving you here seriously." "The future of what we know about arts in our society rests with you all." "1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7." "Touch." "Yeah, why not?" "So what we're gonna do today is we're going to, uh, audition you guys for combos." "This is one of the biggest classes we've had for the jazz one." "I mean, look at this." "We almost don't have seats for everyone." "So what we're gonna do is mix and match you guys, a bunch of guys up here." "I am 13 years old." "I been" "playing music for about 9 years." "I got kids going for my son's position." "For the piano." "For the jazz piano spot, so we'll see." "Spot, so we'll see." "Good job." "What's your name again?" "It's zak." "Forgive me if I don't know your names, folks." "I may ask you for your names." "It's not because" "I don't like you." "It's probably 'cause I just don't care." "Go." "I was very nervous." "I had a feeling I was gonna wet my pants--heh heh--actually." "I hope they at least considered me." "I mean, if they didn't consider me, I'm like, oh, man," "I guess I gotta work a lot more." "1, 2, 3, 4." "Close the door!" "I think zak should." "I think zak should be in a combo." "He played well." "He played a great audition." "Yeah." "I think zak will be fine once he's--once you're just like" "Let me tell you something." "His problem is his dad is..." "Whose?" "Alex?" "No, zak's dad is a little..." "Zachary is probably one of the best piano players in the." "United States at his age." "I just want him to remain humble and just to do the best he possibly can." "I love him no matter what." "Uh, I think that he has a chance, you know, to be one of the all-time greats and be of the all-time greats and be on the cover of "jazztimes,"" "so we'll see." "Exit." "Yeah." "Lion." "Mouse." "Lion." "And mouse." "Tongue in." "Really small." "Really small." "Real, real, real, real, real, real, real..." "It was like my plan to go it was like my plan to go here since I was 7." "What do you want?" "What do you want?" "Reach for it." "Really reach for it." "Really reach for it." "You need it." "You need it." "You need it." "You need it." "You need it." "You need it." "I was teased a lot during middle school and elementary school for just, like, having an awkward stage." "Shoulders down." "Heel down." "Get on your chest and roll down..." "I didn't have any friends that I could relate to." "I felt very lonely and isolated." "Make us listen to you." "We talked about us being we talked about us being storytellers, yes?" "Yes." "So engage us." "Here we go." "It's just always been such a dream and such a thrill to perform." "This is just the perfect place to turn my entire life into art, so that's kind of my ultimate goal in life." "So yeah." "♪ Whoop and holler and holler and holler, fire ♪" "Fire ♪" "And Whoo!" "Whoo Whoo!" "It's called "the 99-cent show." It's kind of a gay romp." "It's a rule that everything has to be from the 99-cent store." "♪ Wind, wind, wind blow... ♪" "I was born and raised in theater." "My dad's actually a theater producer in L.A." "♪ Wind blows trees ♪" "I've always--like, even when" "I was, like, 3, I've always tried to get on that stage where my dad works at, so I'm my dad works at, so I'm definitely an attention-seeker." "♪ Mighty, mighty wind... ♪" "I actually was in the show." "I love you, frier." "I was in the show, uh, through the first rehearsal, and I was, uh..." "He couldn't do the dances." "...fired." "I was fired after the first rehearsal, actually." "Can't ride on my coattails." "♪ Drops of rain is a delicate delight, is a delicate delight, little drops light on me... ♪" "I think everybody who's an artist wants to reach out in some way." "All art is tied in to, like, a human need for sort of a communal love." "♪ Little drops of rain ♪" "All right, here we go." "Ready?" "All right, here we go." "Ready?" "Embrace the moment." "That's what" "I wanna see." "I wanna see your soul, okay?" "I don't care if your feet are not pointed." "I don't care if you can't get your leg up, way up here." "I want to see you dance from the inside of your heart." "When I came to this school," "I was very shy." "Everything I did was ballet, and I worked really hard, and I--i still do that." "Hard, and I--i still do that." "I was more conservative." "Like, if you talked about having a boyfriend, I would be like, "oh, my god." "Why would you do that?" "You should go to dance class and practice or study."" "Grace, so amazing." "They're like, "hold." Oh, my..." "I have known grace now for almost 4 years." "She's a great technician." "She's been trained in ballet, lot of ballet, very little modern." "She has a tendency to close her doors, and once she opens her doors and--and dances a little bit freer, she's just gonna be a dancer to be looked at." "How is it called?" "Ballet steps." "Walking in, that's boys coming in." "That's boys coming in." "Thank you." "My family, nobody did any" "dancing." "This is--she is first person in our--first one for the--my family kind of try to" "Some dance." "When I first started dancing, my mom was completely against it." "Like all parents, they want their children to have a financially stable career." "My mom had high hopes for me of going to Harvard or Yale or all those Ivy league schools." "In Korea, it's known that if you dance, the reason why you dance dance, the reason why you dance is because you can't--you're not smart enough to do academics, and so it's kind of like" "a disgrace to do dance." "Life is so hard." "That's why they--they don't know." "This dance is very hard, something not easy." "My mom's just really overprotective, and she doesn't want me getting in trouble and stuff, but I think she should trust me more." "But I don't know." "I just don't want to be a disappointing child or" "A disappointing child or" "You know..." "And..." "I've always been ambitious," "I've always been ambitious, a straight-a student." "I've always been determined." "Excuse me." "I love songwriting." "I always end up writing from a personal experience." "♪ I wonder how it will feel... ♪" "♪ I wonder how it will feel... ♪" ""Give me a sign," it's about asking someone if they think that the path that you're going on already is the right one." "♪ You, oh, you're making... ♪" "I'm originally from baraboo," "Wisconsin." "It was a small town, and I was kind of at the top of where" "I could go." "She really couldn't go much farther in baraboo, even" "Madison, so we thought, "well, she could finish high school out here and, you know, start kind here and, you know, start kind of, uh, working on her career." "♪ I'm ready for the show, give me a sign, and we'll go ♪" "Who came out from Wisconsin?" "Just Brittany and i." "♪ Been here a thousand times... ♪" "My parents are still very much married, very much in love, so I'm splitting up my family." "It's difficult." "♪ Every time I feel the same... ♪" "It was very hard for all of us, the adjustment." "If we didn't us, the adjustment." "If we didn't have an awesome relationship, you know, I--i don't see this possible, but, uh, we talk every day and sometimes twice a day." "Heh." "We have the unlimited long distance, so..." "Yeah." "That's how supportive my mom was and how supportive my dad was." "It's not a normal" "Normal life, but we don't have a--you know, a normal child." "We need to pull it together, we need to pull it together, folks." "We got a lot of stuff to look at today, so we really need to just pay attention." "So we've got expressed, implied, and inherent, and as we said, we've seen these in a previous chapter, maybe in a little different context." "Show me." "Today is Halloween." "Whoo!" "1, 2..." "Bam!" "Bam!" "Bam!" "Bam!" "Bam!" "Bam!" "Bam!" "Bam!" "Bam!" "Bam!" "Bam!" "Bam!" "The lachsa is freaking crazy." "This is the only holiday this is the only holiday people will--will be really enthused about." "My mom made my wand and my costume, and she made the wings." "These are art students." "This is--this is their bastille day." "Art-school high-school kids and costumes, you never know what's gonna happen." "What's gonna happen." "Hyah." "We got 1, 2." "A 1, 2, 3, 4." "Right." "Okay, come in." "This should--this should be easy." "You wanna try it?" "Just try it." "Come on." "Get in here." "Okay." "Here we go." "Good." "Good." "Very nice." "Very nice." "Oh, rios, you got burned by Lily." "I got burned by her." "Just be prepared, okay?" "This is not just gonna be a jam session." "Most of you in this room, I feel have been accustomed to playing this music without a lot of thought." "Those days are done." "Time to be thinking." "Again, something different. 1, 2..." "Something different. 1, 2..." "These are the cars that my dad wants to own, that we want to own, we want in, like, 3 to 4 years." "This car, the s--Lexus so 430 convertible." "It's bad." "It's awesome." "We want it." "You gotta fight your way up." "You know, it's how bad you want it." "We just keep track of what he's--how many hours a week he practices, where he's gotta be." "And nothing to do with school, and nothing to do with school, only music. 2 hours. 4 hours, plus a lesson. 2 hours. 4 hours, plus a lesson." "Plus he went to the world stage, and he played there for a couple hours." "See, so in this week, he had an off week." "He only practiced 16 hours, so this was a bad week." "And then it just works like that every day." "Hear those bullet shots?" "Hmm?" "You don't hear those bullets?" "You don't hear those bullets?" "Somebody firing a gun outside." "It's not a safe place around here." "They killed some kid over here just down the street in those--those, uh" "Down the street." "It's not safe." "We gotta go." "All we're trying to do is just make our lives better." "That's it." "I can do that." "If you go about into the third page, what are you the third page, what are you going to do to help yourselves move forward towards colleges?" "Why don't we start with." "Ms. Juilliard over there?" "What about you, grace?" "I still think I have a lot of time, but I don't, and it's kind of scary, 'cause you never know what to expect." "Mm-hmm." "For 6 years, my goal has been to go to Juilliard." "That's been my dream school ever since" "I started dancing." "No." "No, you have to." "My dad's like..." "He's like, "what about" "Berkeley and Stanford?" No." "No." "No." "I'm not gonna be happy there, so..." "And they let you do your..." "Finding your dream in the arts, as opposed to an academic world, that is a big obstacle for a lot of students, in terms of the parents wanting them to sort of, like, get a real job, yeah." "Is anybody doing "steal away"?" "Who here is doing" "Yeah." "I said yeah." "Here we go." "Freeze." "Freeze, freeze, freeze freeze." "Freeze, freeze, freeze right there." "So what do we want out of this?" "The sensuality in the movement, yes?" "We're going for the soulfulness of the phrase." "Yes?" "Okay, now 1, 2." "When grace first came into my jazz class, you know, she would stand in class, and she would work very hard, but she would say, "I can't do this." "I can't do this." Especially like moving her hips, and, "I can't do this."" "Boom." "Bop." "And up." "Drop." "Look." "Step..." "Look." "Step..." "We're doing contemporary, like, modernish." "Yeah, that's nice, grace." "Juilliard's looking for somebody that can move with, like, dynamics and, like, accent, which I can't really do." "1, 2, swing, 4, 5, 6." "Okay, let's stop here." "Winding at the action." "I--i thought it was, like, really good, 'cause it's kind of like this weird twist on, like, like this weird twist on, like, this old game that we all played when we were younger." "I think it's all self-indulgent." "I just think it's useless and, like, really eighties." "All of the greats." "Yeah, all the greats." "All the greats." "Meryl streep totally made her way..." "Jack Nicholson." "Jack" "Nicholson, he totally mimed his way to success." "The snowman." "The snowman." "I loved that one." "It was so good." "I love that one." "So good." "I love that one." "I love that one." "Quiet, please." "No talking." "Just write, please." "How are the boys?" "They're cool." "They're way cooler than the guys we used to hang out with after school when" "I went to an all-girls school, so" "♪ What's that I smell in the air?" "The American dream, sweet, like a new millionaire, the American dream, the American dream," "I don't know the words to this verse, but it's the American dream ♪" "He has potential." "Uh, my parents, they're kind of strict about having boyfriends and stuff, but I'm hoping to get one for my senior year." "Maybe I should have auditioned." "What part of this is squash?" "Squash, it's underneath, all of this." "I mean, you could tell that this is friar Laurence and" "Juliet, and the idea of knowing that we could stick this in an oven and come out with a" "A meal for tonight, it's like it's incredible." "I want everybody on the bleachers, please." "On the bleachers, please." "Tests are push-ups, sit-ups, height-weight, and your skin-fold test." "No, no, no, no." "Don't do this." "Why--why you gotta do this?" "Ready?" "Yeah, go." "Boom." "I don't know my skin fold, 'cause I don't wanna know my skin fold." "Would you rather your body be like a guy's, it's just like ruhh?" "No." "You want it be, like," "Whoo." "You want it to be like that." "I want it to be like that." "Ready?" "Go." "No, I can't." "Come on." "If I could do 55, come on." "If I could do 55, you can do one." "You're a dancer." "I'm a musician." "That does not count." "Well, still." "Come on." "I'm good, thank you." "I'll be fine." "Outside of school, I am working on a music career, being a rock star." "This is how I research doing open mics for Brittany." "You get in--in front of an audience, in--in front of an audience, a big variety of audience at, you know, different places." "We're gonna go to this--this, uh, club and do an open mic, so she was excited about it." "We're going to my very first open mic." "At dipples." "At dipples?" "That's the name of the place?" "Oh, my gosh." "I just called around, and they said that they have a" "Dipples?" "Well, it's the name of the place." "I didn't name it." "Oh, dimples." "Dimples." "Oh, dimples." "Dimples." "Yeah, I said, "dimples."" "Didn't I?" "It's dimples." "Yeah." "I-I'm a personal friend of al, you know." "This is not gonna" "But, um..." "This is not something" "I'm gonna..." "You want to sing?" "Yeah." "Sign my name?" "Yeah, name and, uh, song number." "Song number." "Song number?" "I just--for..." "Are you gonna" "She's gonna do--yeah, she's gonna do, uh, her own--her own music." "They said that it was okay to have her guitar out, her..." "Okay." "One piece, I guess." "All right." "Is that all right?" "Yeah." "Welcome to dimples." "Happy" "Monday." "We are a karaoke bar, first karaoke bar in the nation, established in 1982." "So you want to sit down so you want to sit down at the booth or..." "♪ Start spreading the news," "I'm leaving today," "I want to be... ♪" "I think this is doable." "Yes?" "Yeah." "♪ I wonder how it will feel" "♪ I wonder how it will feel to be all that I have to be, so tell me what you know, tell me who is the one you're looking for?" "I'm ready for the show," "I'm ready for the show, give me a sign, and we'll go ♪" "Whoo!" "Whoo!" "Yeah." "Excellent job there," "Brittany." "The first thing you have to know is, "who am I?" "What do" "I want?" You've got to know how" "I want?" You've got to know how to tell the story about yourself, who you are." "I think that moment of complete freedom and being lost in what's in front of you, you forget about the cares of the world and the problems that the world and the problems that you're having." "I want to be able to share an experience like that with the audience that will come to hopefully see me in the future." "And her blood's flying all over that kitchen, Earl, and I'm still here." "I'm still thinking Earl's gonna step in," "Earl's gonna take the weight," "Earl's gonna let him not do this to my mama." "We can do something that seems so simple, like standing on a stage and saying some lines." "Last time I saw you, Earl." "And it can be the most and it can be the most powerful thing in the world." "Just the--the thrill of performing and the excitement to transform into other people, it's almost magical." "Am I so jaded I can't be uplifted?" "It tells a story." "You can convey so many different emotions." "Different emotions." "I get this overwhelming sense of inspiration and motivation to kind of keep going and keep doing what I'm doing." "Sometimes there's just no other way to express how you're feeling, and sometimes it just" "It's the easiest way to get out what you're feeling, whether it be happiness or joy or sorrows." "Be happiness or joy or sorrows." "You know, at the end of the day, all you're really trying to do is just connect with somebody." "And if anything I said stick in your head, then you will do all right in this life." "We don't clap in the class." "Remember, we clap at the end." "We're working." "We're working." "This is not a performance." "Again." "Check in 1, 2, 3." "Check in 1, 2, 3." "So I auditioned for--i got a final callback for a mark taper production." "Props for that, right?" "It was for a cutter, like she cuts herself." "I got final callback." "Bitching." "See you guys bitching." "See you guys tomorrow night." "See you later." "What are you working on there?" "Slopes." "I can't get the slopes." "Slopes?" "How do you get a negative figure on this calculator?" "See?" "My point exactly." "For instance." "You don't even know how to do that." "How are you budgeting shows?" "Do you know how to do that?" "I--because I don't go negative, okay, number one." "You stay in the red, man." "No, I stay in the black..." "Whatever." "Man." "Whatever." "Whatever." "All right, I--i actually really have to go." "I'm late." "I'm so enjoying it." "I'm loving it." "Have I had dinner?" "No." "The show must go on." "We call it show biz, not show fun, by the way." "That's, you know" "That's around here." "Thanks, dad." "All right." "Bye." "See you later." "Hit the books." "I will." "Oh." "Mom." "Hey, how's Sundance?" "Well, I'll tell you later." "I'm at the vendor park right now." "It's really loud." "I can now." "It's really loud." "I can barely hear you." "You're so--you're so on the go." "Yeah, total." "Yeah, I just wanted to call you--what?" "Yeah, sure." "I'll call you back in a little bit." "Okay." "Bye." "Love you, too." "Bye." "Love you." "Bye." "Bye." "My parents are busy people." "Growing up in theater, I've seen struggling actors all my life." "I sort of understood the sacrifices it took to become the sacrifices it took to become a successful actor." "I am just another struggling actress." "I'm just another kid that wants to be a success." "I just can't handle a plate." "Hi, honey." "Your voice is a good sound." "Your voice is a good sound." "Can't wait till I get down." "I know." "I love you." "Yeah, I love you, too, sweetie." "I know my parents are proud of me no matter what, but there's the added pressure of the sacrifice that my family made." "She loves you, too." "There's a certain urgency to needing to make things work." "It's always been my mom helping me and supporting me and being there for me, and I think before" "I end up completely on my own," "I need to really see what I can do on my own." "And never be shy in your own work about looking for those particulars." "When you're basing it on, "well, I really need to work on my, you know, overall thing, but why is it that I just thing, but why is it that I just keep practicing scales all day?" "I don't know why I just keep working on these little exercises with this one thing."" "Well, work on the one thing until that gets better." "There's not really any classes I'm taking that are helping me with my music career." "Are we gonna be late for choir?" "I don't wanna go." "Me neither." "We should go ditch." "You want to?" "I've never ditched." "Let's do it." "I can't." "I'm sorry." "It's--it's very exciting." "Roseanne." "Roseanne." "How am I supposed to know?" "No, this is..." "No, this is..." "I know." "Would you be happy now?" "Happier now?" "And love isn't important?" "No, it's important." "No, it's important." "Important?" "Why are you talking about this, just" "Because" "You have a boyfriend right now?" "Yes." "I'm not allowed to have a boyfriend." "I can't..." "In our culture, instead of doing what you think is right for yourself, you kind of have to listen to your elders, and I've grown up with that, and my mom's grown up with that and, like," "grown up with that and, like, generations before." "I'm Noah prestwich, and I'm doing "sonnet 42."" "Doing "sonnet 42."" "Sweet flattery;" "My friend and I are one." "Sweet flattery;" "Then she loves but me alone." "All I know is that if I marry" "Noah, Ruby prestwich sounds like a sandwich." "Like a sandwich." "Ohh." "Let me not the marriage of true minds admit impediments." "Love is minds admit impediments." "Love is not love which alters when alteration finds, or bends to." "O no!" "It is an ever-fixed mark that looks on tempests and is never shaken:" "It is the star to every wandering bark, whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken." "For all of you out there, it's really hard to do Shakespeare, especially if you're 13." "It's kind of racy for freshmans." "It's kind of racy for freshmans." "Love is not time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks." "Yeah, I think we need..." "Anything can happen." "It's high school." "Love does not alter within his brief hours and weeks, but bears it out, even to the edge of doom." "If this be error and upon me prove, I never writ, nor no man ever loved." ""Life," huh?" "Yeah." "Strange name for..." "It's in Latin, and then it goes to swing. 1, 2, 3, 4." "Okay." "Okay." "You basically" "wrote 4 chords for the whole tune, so now it's" "We're basically vamping." "Bring in a jazz tune." "Okay." "Okay?" "We are doing jazz in this class, okay?" "Okay." "Bring in a jazz tune." "Everyone, everybody out." "Everybody out." "Let's get going." "Everybody out." "Let's get going." "Mr. rios, you have the potential to be as good as you want to be, okay?" "You have all the potential in the world to do that." "I want to make sure that you're not spreading yourself too thin." "And I'm talking to your dad, and he's like--he got you everywhere." "He does." "He's got you all over the place." "He's got you doing" "Latin music here." "Latin music here." "He's got you doing a banquet here." "He's got you doing this here." "He got you everywhere." "Seems like you got a pretty good plan of, like, how to..." "Market?" "Right." "Promote?" "Well, I think music is--i think that's 80% of the business." "We're just being active in making sure that his name is out there." "That his name is out there." "I want you to understand this music." "I know you have the ability to do it." "I just want to make sure that you're not being pulled around too much." "Does that make sense?" "Yeah." "You cool?" "Yeah, I'm cool." "Cool, man." "Cool." "I took it as like getting me better, that that's what he wants to do." "So I'm like, okay, just do what he says." "That's" "That's how I can get a lot better, instead of just keep doing what I'm doing." "Doing what I'm doing." "No parents?" "I'm at the house of blues for my audition for a show for unsigned artists." "Brittany, how old are you?" "I am 17." "I'm gonna be 18 in 3--3 weeks yesterday." "♪ How do I get you back?" "I don't know if want to, really, for sure, really, for sure, how do I save my soul from someone, something so impure?" "How do I let you go?" "Ohh, ohh, ooh, whoa, ohh ♪" "That was the first bridge." "I like that song a lot." "Very good." "The important thing, core to anything, any success in this business is performance has gotta be there, the song has gotta be there, and the image gotta be there, and the image has gotta be there." "Right." "What do you think as far as your image is concerned?" "What do you think that's gonna be?" "I guess I can't give you a straight answer right now what it would be, because I'm still trying to find that." "I think I'm still in a point in my life where I'm trying to figure out who I am..." "Sure." "As a person." "So your music is really universal." "Yeah." "It was--it can sell." "Still some work for you to do..." "Right." "But we can help your body image..." "Right." "If you know what I mean." "In baraboo, I was kind of at the top of the game, so coming the top of the game, so coming here, where everyone else was just like me, but better, was very intimidating." "Merry Christmas." "Heh." "Or happy winter, as I like to say." "You include everyone that way." "♪ And I know it's late, but, oh, please don't make me wait so come on, come on... ♪" "Come on, grace, way out there." "Exaggerate it." "Okay, stop, stop, stop, stop." "I think what I hear in this piece and what I feel in this piece is that--is that there's conflict that--is that there's conflict with different sides of yourself." "Yeah?" "Does anybody feel conflict?" "In the music, it talks about a lover, and you're just--you just want to go away with them, and because, I guess, you're not allowed to, like, love each other, 'cause it's forbidden." "It's that tug of war that you--that you have with yourself in terms of what is right and what is wrong." ""Steal away," well, it kind of relates to me, because I don't think their parents want them to be together, so they're them to be together, so they're gonna steal away into the night." "I kind of want to sometimes, so yeah." "We have another presentation." "Yeah, we have an interpretive dance." "♪ I've got to see you, oh, somehow, not tomorrow, but, but right now, and I know... ♪" "He's really nice, and he's hardworking." "Like, hardworking." "Like," "I feel like I could talk to him, and we relate, in a lot of ways, and, uh, yeah." "And he's cute." "But don't tell him I told you that." "♪ 'Cause I might change my mind, my folks are sleeping, so please not waste any time, and, oh, and I know it's late, but, oh... ♪" "15 minutes to places." "♪ So come on, come on," "♪ so come on, come on, let's steal away, please let's steal away, and I know it's wrong, it's wrong needing you this way, but there's no other way that I can be with you," "if only my folks, if only my folks, they would approve, things like this, this, things like this, this, we wouldn't, we wouldn't have to do, but, oh, oh, and i... ♪" "It was the first girl that I genuinely liked." "It wasn't just like, man, she's a really good dancer or she's just really good at this or really good at that." "It was just like all the way around, you know?" "And that was very attractive to me." "♪ But, oh, don't make me wait, please, please, baby, let's steal away, and, oh, let's steal away, and, oh," "I'm asking you to steal away, and, oh... ♪" "♪ Because I need you," "I need you by my side, you know I need you, baby," "I need you to be my guy," "Whoo, ooh, let's steal away right now ♪" "Okay." "And away we go." "Wait." "Wait." "Oh, good god." "No, it's not." "I don't get in fights." "I really like it." "Are you wearing that?" "I don't know." "No, you're wearing it." "Should I wear it instead?" "No--yes." "Don't wear that." "Wear this." "Oh, my god." "Guess what." "What?" "I'm doing--you haven't found this out yet." "I'm offered an understudy role for a mark taper production." "I'm so..." "Is your mom letting you do it?" "My mom's like, "if you pass this up, you're gonna regret it," and I'm like, "ohh."" "You're so hot." "Yeah, you're--you're hot." "Yeah, you're--you're hot." "And I'd have to sign out of school for, like, 3 weeks, but I get paid $840 a week." "Oh, my god, that's so good." "Excuse me." "I'm famous already." "Child acting is not okay." "What do you think my dad wants me to do?" "For the first month, you were burning like a house, and then all of a sudden, it set in." ""Oh, my goodness, I'm here until" "June." And so you start to slide" "June." And so you start to slide a little bit." "Don't slide so much as to bring your grade down." "The last thing, in closing, keep in mind the very important thing." "It is the production during spring." "You've already started to audition for the roles." "We're already looking at you, who is learning, who's on time, who's paying attention." "We're looking at your entire package." "These are what these auditions are for today, for "miss Saigon."" "I'm just hoping to get in." "I'm just hoping to get in to something." "I mean," "I'm a freshman, so probably not gonna get anything, but I'm gonna go for it." "♪ But now I know I'm caught," "I'll never leave Vietnam ♪" "War isn't over." "♪ Leave your-- ♪ no, I know the words." "I just got caught on the--I'm good." "I'm okay now." "I'm good." "All right." "I'm good." "All right." "♪ Da Da Da, Da Da, Da Da ♪" "Noah." "Nice to meet you at last." "We've never been formally introduced." "I'm sorry." "Uh, what do you..." "Weekend?" "Yeah, probably." "Will you get together with me before it's done?" "Bye." "Bye." "Bye, Ruby." "All right, bye." "Hey, are you going?" "I have to wait for my dad." "Well, I'm gonna run, all right?" "You do that." "So listen." "I wish you luck." "Good luck again." "Good luck again." "Bye." "1, 2. 1, 2, kick." "We're gonna reaudition the kids." "Who's gotten better?" "Who wants to work hard?" "Who wants wants to work hard?" "Who wants to be in what group?" "Who's gonna take charge?" "Let's hear zuey, egizi, rios. 1, 2, 3." "All right, folks, uh," "we'll post a list in about 20 minutes downstairs outside of doc's office." "Good-bye." "See you later." ""John."" ""Tuesday only"?" ""Levon."" "Oh, my god." "Hey, Lily, you got the "a" combo." "The "a" combo." "Dude." "Actually you're in, uh..." "Damn it." "Your name in there." "Yeah, I didn't get in to a combo." "Yeah." "It's like nothing anybody expected." "Yeah." "It's crazy." "My dad is shocked." "Kind of disappointing not getting in to a combo, but, you know, it's okay." "I understand, so..." "You know, you could have a bad day at the office, so he must have had a bad day at the office." "But there's a lot of work in that improv class." "It's gonna really put a dent it's gonna really put a dent in our timing schedule." "Yeah, I have to quit some stuff." "I don't know about quit stuff, but, yeah, you're gonna have to quit playing the g" "The video games." "Dad, when's the last time" "I played video games this week?" "I don't know." "Okay." "Well, you just have to work harder." "That's it." "That's" "I mean, there's nothing to it." "It's just a temporary setback." "Yeah." "That girl Lily, she only learned 2 songs the whole year, and they put her in the combo anyway." "That's the little political nonsense that goes on in that school." "Right?" "They don't--they play that, because the little girl kisses butt." "I did not choose to play music." "It was always, you know, for my pops." "He was a boxer, and some guy just whupped his ass." "Some guy just whupped his ass." "He had broken ribs, broken arms, broken legs, and he didn't make it." "He didn't make it." "And, uh, that was the only thing going for him." "I guess his visions turned into dreams, so I guess he made a different vision for me." "Hi." "Wow." "Everybody's here." "Hello." "Happy birthday, Brittany." "Dara." "Dara." "I'm excited, too." "My first..." "Yeah." "Yay." "It has been a long year." "I have a note that I wrote for me to open when I was 18, all the goals that I had for my--myself before I turned 18." "For music, I thought I would be for music, I thought I would be more established." "♪ I made you wait, Romeo... ♪" "You watch these shows on TV or whatever else." "It kind of makes it seem like they're average" "Joe one day and a superstar the next at 14 or 16 or whatever." "You don't realize that it's a very long process." "♪ Drunk off of the scent of my hair, of my hair," "I hated to wash your pillowcase, love is lost, love is lost, love is lost, love is lost, love is lost, love is lost... ♪" "Where's that supposed to go?" "It's supposed to just go here." "Go here." "♪ I made you wait, Romeo, for my youth and innocence," "I made you wait... ♪" "Mom and dad, we--we very concerned about you." "Actually," "I wanted to be painting artist, but my mom and dad, they don't but my mom and dad, they don't want a kind art--paint artist." "They wanted to study hard and be a something--doctor, some kind of very, you know, good occupation." "♪ On sunny Sundays... ♪" "She had my brother, and then she had me and stuff, so she kind of decided to just stay at home and take care of the kids." "She wasn't given the opportunity to do what she loves." "She wasn't able to become an artist." "♪ Love is lost," "♪ love is lost, love is lost... ♪" "At that moment, I just felt like I could sacrifice everything that I had." "They've made a lot of sacrifices for the well-being of the family, and that's why I don't want to disappoint them." "♪ Want to go out to watch the people stare... ♪" "Guess who it is." "Grace." "Wow." "Guess who it is." "Grace." "Wow." "I did confront my parents, and I was, like, well, there's a boy, though, that I really like." "But my mom's not okay with me going out during high school, so, yeah." "Ah." "Her parents are like, no." "♪ Love is lost, love is lost, love is lost, love is lost, love is lost ♪" "I know." "I know." "I know." "That's okay." "So you got the extra appendix that's separate?" "I do want you to lose the appendix." "I will." "I wouldn't want to lose my appendix." "Yeah, that would hurt," "I think." "I think." "I don't want to talk right now." "I'm really stressed out because of everything, school and" "And the house of blues thing, and everything." "What's going on with house of blues?" "I don't know." "That's the problem." "Quarter grades are due on Wednesday, so I don't know." "Where do you think you are?" "I don't know." "Are these your sats?" "Hey." "Are you gonna open 'em?" "Yeah." "Or should I?" "I'm gonna open 'em." "I think I did worse." "I think I did worse." "You did worse than you did the first time?" "Yeah." "But it doesn't matter, because I'm gonna find out whether I got in to N.Y.U." "Or not, and then I'm done." "Beginning of the year, she's gonna apply to all these schools, but, no, she's only applied to one school." "We have--we have talked about this before, miss Brittany." "Okay." "Miss froot loop." "Okay." "You know, like, I gotta think you know, like, I gotta think in practical terms." "If by some chance you don't get in to N.Y.U., then what do you do?" "For those of you who are new to the class or just for quickly reviewing, we all know the bebop scale." "I'll just write this down." "Bebop." "Bebop scales." "Why do I continuously harp on you about the bebop scale?" "'Cause it's a long day." "It's a-b-c-d-e-f-g, and that's what it is." "Okay." "Nik, that--that's just really--just not acceptable." "I felt like I got demoted." "I am a level ahead of those other people." "Who's up next?" "Good, rios." "You got it." "Thank you." "Of course." "Yeah." "Time to fail." "No!" "Okay, hang on." "Thank you, no!" "Okay, hang on." "Thank you, rios." "You could sit down." "I made my point." "Folks, you see this stuff?" "You should be able to do this, okay?" "Zak just went ahead and just disregarded everything Jason had to offer, and that's what's resulted in him getting a--a "f"" "in his progress report." "We have to, you know, evaluate what we did this year and take a look at whether we want to come back here." "I'm not gonna guarantee that we'll be back here." "I JU" "You know, we have to look at other schools right now." "I'm gonna come back here, 'cause there's no one else better." "He doesn't know what he wants." "He's only 14 years old." "Wants." "He's only 14 years old." "He's gonna do what I think is best." "The chances of me performing are slim to none." "Heh." "She sits around and does nothing for about 8 hours a day." "The understudy is a backup performer who goes onstage if performer who goes onstage if the lead performer, if they die, if they get sick." "But most of the time, it's just you sitting backstage for every single performance." "What chapter lesson is it?" "I'm on this, lesson 9." "I see." "Lesson 9." "Okay." "As a 14-year-old girl as a 14-year-old girl who just wants to, like, go to parties and kiss boys, it sucked." "Noah prestwich." "Hello, I'm Miya chua." "I will be reciting "sonnet 145."" "Those lips that love's own hand did make breathed forth the sound that said "I hate"..." ""I hate" from hate away she flew, and saved my life, saying "not you."" "I don't want to be there every single night." "I don't." "And" "I know this sounds so horrible, but I honestly, like, don't see a point of doing it if it's, like, ruining my friendship and everything." "Now, now..." "It just doesn't" "And you're being paid to be there." "It's the point." "It's" "It's a gig." "Open nice 2 lines. 2 lines." "Same thing, just better." "And..." "Same thing, just better." "And..." "Together, girls." "All together." "So one portion will take place, but there are still some sections in each court, and then, like, if you're arrested, just it's insurance to be positioning yourself." "But it's--and legally, when they but it's--and legally, when they don't call your parents..." "Oh, gorgeous." "Ohh." "No!" "You don't stop!" "No." "Are you gonna say that in the audition?" "If you go in with that attitude, it's gonna suck." "Attitude, it's gonna suck." "Somehow in the first 16 counts, you're like you're gonna pass out, so you have to rely on your center, and you have to trust yourself." "If you start to get nervous and rigid, it's over." "Just..." "I'm rehearsing for my" "Juilliard auditions, like my solo." "I'm getting ready for the next 4 years of my life." "I mean, of course Juilliard only takes, like--i think they take, like, 20 people in the freshman year, so they take" "10 girls and 10 guys, and it is insa--it is insanely hard." "You don't need to, like, change your body." "You don't need change your body." "You don't need to work on your technique." "It's there." "It's your head." "What is the--i don't understand the problem?" "What are you thinking when you give up?" "My mom told me that if" "I didn't get in to Juilliard, I had to quit dance or something." "Whatever happens, you can not give up." "Here." "This should finish center." "Think center." "Center." "Center." "Think center." "Center." "Like you have to project more out." "Like, you want to project for the wall." "If you come from a beginning and" "I see the first second, like," ""I don't know what I'm doing"" "in your eyes, ruins it." "The movement is getting better." "It's your focus." "I just know it can be so much better." "Can be so much better." "Yes." "Hip." "Now finish." "One." "Stay, stay, stay!" "Okay." "Okay." "Well, I had received okay." "Well, I had received a letter last week encouraging me to apply at my earliest convenience, and, um, so that" "I guess that kind of confused me, since I did apply for early decision already." "I'm not quite sure if that was meant to be sent out." "Okay." "Okay, thank you very much." "Okay." "You're welcome." "Take care." "I did not get accepted into N.Y.U." "I-I'm waiting outside for her right now, so hopefully she'll be out shortly." "I--i really be out shortly." "I--i really believe her priorities got, uh, a bit messed up here." "Ds and fs are not acceptable." "Oh, no." "And she's never done that before, so..." "I know." "If she flunks anything, that will ruin her whole 3 1/2 years out here." "I'm still taking care of everything." "She got a "d" in one class and an "f" in another." "It's and an "f" in another." "It's pretty--pretty unfathomable." "I focused a lot on my music career over school, and that has taken top priority." "I mean, you know, singing is her passion, and I understand that." "I just don't want her not to graduate." "She's obviously no longer putting in the effort necessary to succeed, you know." "Why do we to succeed, you know." "Why do we put in the effort and the sacrifice?" "I--this is not all worth it." "You know, this is not all worth it if--if that's what's happening." "[Harp playing "Mary had [a little lamb"]" "Ll, I just wanted to thank you all for inviting us." "Um, the you all for inviting us." "Um, the girls have been very excited, and they're very honored to play for you." "And, uh, this is their first concert." "Brittany just turned 6 in march." "This is a picture of when my mom, me, and my dad was in the back." "My mom and my dad are divorced, so I didn't think--she doesn't live with us." "It's kinda sad, so..." "Us." "It's kinda sad, so..." "We got divorced, and she winded up having to go to a mental institute." "And now that she's out of the mental institute, she refuses to take her medications, so the judge ruled that she's a risk." "Hi." "Uh, my name is zak." "She's never, ever seen me play piano at all. "I am the most successful young latino American man in the U.S. history." 'Cause man in the U.S. history." 'Cause" "I kinda had, like, depression problems when I was going, like, through--i was staying with my mom and stuff like that, so," "I mean, my dad, like, kinda put little things to cheer me up, so yeah." "I assume that zak is gonna address any kind of issue that he has through his music." "I will be driving out, going" "I will be driving out, going to do the Juilliard audition." "I've always wanted to go far away for a college, just so" "I can experience independence fully, without having, like, my parents always watching over me." "I have worked hard for 6 years, so I guess everything that I've done is leading up to this point, determining the rest of my life." "If you can't pass school and" "stay motivated, man, being an artist is--it'll destroy you." "You won't make it." "What you're going through right now with school and the lack of motivation and sort of the obstacles in front of you are nothing compared to what it takes to be successful as an artist, nothing." "Seriously." "An artist, nothing." "Seriously." "This is only a test to see if you're up to it." "You know what the percentage of people who fail at the artist thing is?" "97 1/2." "Right." "So 21/2% of all people who want to make a living at this do." "Use this experience as a way to understand what you're gonna have to do." "Right?" "Yeah." "This is where it starts." "It's almost devastating." "For me not to graduate would really be saying I came out here for nothing." "My vocal coach said," ""you should check out lipa."" "I definitely realized what" "I wanted to do." "You're here because you want to dance." "Things will get worked out." "They will get worked out one way or the other." "Life will go on." "But what--what you should do is stay the course." "I think at lachsa, every day" "I think at lachsa, every day matters." "You have to work hard all the time." "There really are no shortcuts." "Every day, you have to recommit yourself to the art that you're pursuing." "Puh puh puh puh puh puh." "Juh juh juh juh juh juh." "Kuh kuh kuh kuh kuh kuh." "Puh puh puh puh puh puh." "Juh juh juh juh juh juh." "Kuh kuh kuh kuh kuh kuh." "Every girl gets depressed over some stupid guy and didn't overdose on Tylenol." "You continue to apply yourself to the process, and you will be further along." "When you will be further along." "When you graduate, you'll say, "now I understand why we had to do all those silly exercises."" "You only see the end result." "You know, you don't really see all the beginnings and the middles." "You know, you just kinda see the end." "And it's so much work to spend 24/7 learning about music and breaking it down." "That's it." "Where is your spirit?" "Where is your loyalty?" "Where is your dedication to art?" "Your dedication to art?" "Every day that you come and take class and you do those tondues and plies is in hopes of doing well at the end-of-the-year productions." "You're ready for the next level, which is a first-year project." "I'm excited about it." "Yeah." "I and the other teachers are casting these plays to give everyone an opportunity to do their work." "Their work." "We are doing "Alice in wonderland this year."" "It's the perfect ballet," "I think, and we're gonna combine all the dance forms." "I'll be right there." "Classical ballet, modern, jazz, little hip-hop." "We're gonna have a wide range." "We'd like to see Alice now." "I'd like to be Alice's cat in the beginning." "Yeah, or..." "Or Alice, obviously." "It's like my senior year," "I want to be Alice." "Everyone wants to be Alice." "Alice has to be very much an actress." "It's dance, an actress." "It's dance, but it's theater." "Thank you very much." "Thank you, ladies." "Very, very good job." "You guys have no idea how hard this is." "It's..." "Shh." "There it is." "Thank you." "I do hear that you're at least trying to apply the material." "In the matter of a week, zak memorized 6 songs and basically adjusted to, uh" "To Jason's method." "Can you give us an idea" "Describe what those are?" "Partner, I have no idea." "What's that?" "I have no idea what they are." "I learned." "That's all I can say." "I actually learned something." "A lot of it, I think, something." "A lot of it, I think, had to do with that it was never for me." "Like, one of my friends, he was like, "man, you know, when are you ever--when are you just gonna cut your dad loose, man?" He didn't understand that--the fact that we were a" "team, that we were a team, that we work together." "And we're just--we're just working towards something, and hopefully we get somewhere." "Yeah, baby." "Whoo-hoo!" "Be like, "uhh."" "Whoo!" "But I don't see me." "But I don't see me." "Oh, my god!" "Oh, you're kidding." "I got..." "Oh, my god." "What?" "What?" "Wait." "You're Alice?" "Congratulations." "No, I really know you're totally..." "If anyone would get it..." "If anyone would get it..." "So..." "So that's your..." "That's lovely." "Okay, thank you." "Is it a little bit" "Is that better?" "I know." "When you set your mind to do something, you know, let's do it." "Yeah." "So that's what I say." "Let's just hit the reset button and get it done." "♪ You're such a sweet one," "♪ you're such a sweet one, the kind attractive, and all your talk of retreat, you'll sing to me ♪" "There's 4,500 applicants for 250 spots." "It's like what Yale is to America." "♪ Then you speak to my heart... ♪" "I submitted my application right away, got my audition in Texas." "My dad booked our flights." "My dad booked our flights." "Here's the tickets." "♪ I was afraid of what we would be," "I was afraid what you'd become... ♪" "I'm kind of scared, really excited, but kind of scared." "Heh." "How do you like the song?" "Heh." "Good stuff." "♪ For me, for me, for me ♪" "Wow." "Wow." "Something's happened between the white rabbit and i." "It's the first time we're gonna run the show with all gonna run the show with all the sets and lights." "We are taking it from when the white rabbit enters with his trumpet." "Wait." "Are you lifting me?" "I don't think so." "No." "Okay. 'Cause I don't want you to kill yourself." "We'll just do arabesque, and we'll just" "You wanna try it?" "No." "No." "Nik and I, we grew fond of each other, and, you know, mmm." "I seriously think my mom's not gonna be okay with me having a boyfriend until I'm married." "Shh." "Don't tell my mom." "You are all wounded butterflies." "Wounded!" "Butterflies." "Wounded!" "During the process of doing first-year project, it really bonded our class." "Elliot, you're being a slave to convention." "You must break free of all bonds." "Before, I felt very lonely and isolated, so I think to a certain degree, acting professionally sort of reemphasized that loneliness, which I wanted to run away from." "And suddenly I was at lachsa, and I didn't have to run away and I didn't have to run away from it anymore." "I was totally accepted in a way that I'd never been before." "Remember, we are an organic ensemble." "Wait a minute." "How are we gonna do today?" "Are we gonna fail, or are we gonna pass?" "Good, rios, you got it." "Thank you." "Oh." "Zak, that was the best solo zak, that was the best solo" "you played all year." "Now this gives you no excuse to ever not sound good." "I don't think anyone's even heard you play like that." "See, now, if you like that." "See, now, if you played that way most of the year, there wouldn't be a problem." "Mr. Goldman, thank you." "Sure, man." "I didn't do it for myself, and now I'm starting to do it for myself, which is a really great feeling, and it's just like--man, I feel like I matter." "Okay, a "b" and a c-plus 'cause okay, a "b" and a c-plus 'cause" "I had my test." "Well, you brought it up from a "f," so..." "So everything looks all right." "For the most part." "Heh." "Do not do anything except what I have just told you." "What I have just told you." "Hell week." "Yeah, everything stressful that you can think of just grouped together in one week." "The entire school is in a pandemonium." "Being at rehearsal till 12:00 at night." "Trying at every given break to do your homework." "Everybody has the end-of-the-year shows and the projects and the essays and the finals." "The finals." "Finals." "Finals." "Finals." "C-plus and a "c." So you're at least to that." "Mm-hmm." "It's a big blur." "You have to go here today." "I have to go there today." "Like a very fast blur." "Windshield." "Pshoo." "Sometimes you hold back in a style that you're not most comfortable in, and it's, um, because you don't trust yourself." "Sorry." "I know it's difficult." "I know it's difficult." "Don't regret anything that you've done, but if you don't do anything, you can't regret anything either." "Put yourself out there, and experience everything that you can." "So that's it." "Smack it down!" "Smack it down!" "Do it good!" "Do it good!" "Time to shut this show..." "Down!" "Deep breath in." "And exhale." "This is our moment." "Don't hold back." "Don't hold back." "5 minutes." "♪ It's not how you start," "♪ it's not how you start, it's how you finish ♪" "Breathe." "Keep this in here." "Open all the way, and just remember why you do this." "♪ And it's not where you're from, it's where you're at ♪" "Good luck, baby." "Students, places." "♪ It's not where you are," "♪ it's not where you are, it's where you're going ♪" "And now the Los Angeles county high school for the arts dance department..." "Jazz ensemble..." "Musical theater arts proudly presents "miss Saigon."" ""Alice in wonderland."" "You got this, man." "You got this." "♪ And it's not about the things you've done, it's what you're doing now ♪" "It is not just a place, it is not just a place, that school." "It's a living, breathing, feeling, touching, thinking embodiment of art." "It's theater." "♪ Everybody gets knocked down, everybody gets knocked down, how quick are you gonna get up?" "How quick are you gonna get up?" "Everybody gets knocked down, everybody gets knocked down, everybody gets knocked down, just how are you gonna get up?" "Get up, get up, get up ♪" "You are being a slave to conventions." "You must break free of those bonds of convention." "Remember, we work as an organic ensemble." "An organic ensemble." "♪ It's the greatest comeback since Lazarus, the greatest comeback, back, back, back ♪" "You did all--how do you feel?" "Did you hear me?" "Yes, I heard you." "Oh, thank you." "Oh, thank you." "Yeah, they did." "They did all right." "They did all right?" "They did okay." "They did okay." "He did pretty good for being zak." "Exactly." "Heh heh." "That's my dad." "Great, huh?" "You guys did such a great job, huh?" "We need more black." "Yeah, leave 'em here." "She kicked ass." "I love you." "I love you, too." "Now if she can just pass phys ed." "Yay." "It's not monetary." "It's not monetary." "I can hear him." "Yay." "It's not about wanting a boyfriend." "It's not about wanting to be accepted." "It's about being whole in your yourself, because I do feel whole when I'm performing." "Then the show's done, and then I've gotta find it again somehow." "Okay." "Talk to your parents." "Bye." "I love you." "Bye." "Don't cry, mom." "Don't cry, mom." "I'm not crying." "I love you." "I love you, too." "I got accepted into the diploma program of popular music and sound technology for, uh, liverpool institute for performing arts." "I'm gonna be okay." "Me be okay?" "You're gonna be okay, too." "Were you very proud when you saw that?" "Ah, yes." "I was on 3 Korean newspapers in America and then one in Korea, 'cause apparently I'm the first Korean to get in to the first Korean to get in to the dance program at Juilliard." "We always say there's life after lachsa." "You're gonna go so far, grace." "I was a total bunhead when" "I came, and then I was like," ""what's modern?"" "And you're lucky that you have parents who are gonna let you do this." "Congratulations." "Thank you." "Guys, she made it into Juilliard." "This was like my lifelong dream, so yeah." "I'm going dream, so yeah." "I'm going to Juilliard." "What you know?" "!" "What you know?" "!" "Nothing!" "It's about to be a what?" "A bullfight!" "And we gonna shut this show..." "Down!" "Say, "cheese."" "Oh, my god." "Uhh." "Lion." "Mouse." "Lion." "Mouse." "I can't believe this is happening now." "I think, my senior year, there was a lot of sabotaging myself." "Was a lot of sabotaging myself." "I need to not worry about disappointing other people." "I need to not worry about disappointing myself, because that anxiety is only gonna hold me back." "Life isn't all about just forcing yourself to do what society thinks you should do." "I don't know where I would be without dance." "Without dance." "Mr. kendale winbush." "Brittany Marie Hayes." "Just incredible to see her walk across the stage, 'cause I--you know, you worry about your kids, and--but at that moment, you suddenly think," ""all right, she's ready to go." "She's ready to be on her own."" "She's ready to be on her own."" "I know that my dad was really proud of me." "On their part, it was a sense of accomplishment as well, because they went through a lot." "Lachsa has been a life-changing experience for me." "Grace song." "It's always an internal struggle as an artist, but the sacrifices that we make to chase our dreams, they are worth it." "Our dreams, they are worth it." "Lachsa has definitely been the best 4 years of my life so far." "I want to talk to you about life." "It's just too difficult to life." "It's just too difficult to be alive, isn't it?" "And to try and function." "There are all these people to deal with." "We're scoping out the new freshmen." "I know." "I'm--we're trying to find the distant, uncool kids in the corner like us last year." "Who don't wanna play..." "Who's like, "we're not doing--changing our life."" "That was me last year." "Yeah." "I can't believe it was a year ago today." "I know." "♪ Out of concern," "♪ out of concern, drains me dry, drains me... ♪" "Oh, dude, you got--you gotta smoke that shit." "Like, you got" "You gotta, like, learn your shit, like, now." "Yeah." "And make sure you can go through a fake book, and don't forget to" "What's a fake book?" "Shame." "Shame." "Shame." "What's a fake book?" "♪ You are my editor, sole identifier into insider ♪" "Into insider ♪" "The last thing is the harp." "♪ You are my editor, sole identifier into insider, you can't have what you want, you can't have what you want, and I want more ♪" "I and grace have been talking about her future." "First girl, she wanna be professor in Juilliard, first girl." "What are you talking about?" "I don't wanna be a professor." "Oh." "I wanna dance." "I don't wanna teach." "I don't wanna teach at Juilliard." "You like teaching." "Teaching." "You like teaching." "Teaching." "No, my students are gonna hate me." "I don't wanna teach at juilli--that's not my goal." "That's what you want." "You said that you trust god in whatever he wants me to do, and I think that he doesn't want me to be a Juilliard professor." "No, no, no!" "♪ You are my editor," "sole identifier sole identifier into insider, you can't have what you want, and I want more ♪" "♪ I am closing my eyes and dreaming about the things to come, the things to come, was I unwise to think that I could be someone?" "Well, the rain is in my heart," "I'm waiting for the part when all the dreams will start for me, will start for me, you don't have to be a star you don't have to be anything but what you are, you just have to shine," "you just have to be the best that you can be ♪" "♪ When tomorrow arrives," "♪ when tomorrow arrives, will you be there to comfort me?" "'Cause under this sky, a world of possibilities, and we're standing at the start, the sum of all the parts, the sum of all the parts, and all those days add up to me," "you don't have to be a star, you don't have to be anything but what you are, you just have to shine, you just have to be the best that you can be, you just have to shine," "you just have to shine, you just have to be the best that you can be, and in time, they say we will change, our hearts rearrange, and we will lose our nerve, but the rhymes and the songs" "that we made, their memories won't fade away, their memories won't fade away," "you don't have to be a star, you don't have to be anything but what you are, you just have to shine, you just have to be the best that you can be ♪"