"Things in the hospital, could not be better." "Finally the Red Bracelets, were a group as God intended." "There was the leader, the handsome one, the smart one, the essential one, that was me." "The second leader, that would be leader if there was no leader, and the girl." "I vote in favour." "Me too." "I was sure that together, we'd live through great adventures." "One, two... and three!" "Help!" "Can someone hear me?" "What are you doing?" "Happy moments, and also some surprises." "Ignasi, look at me, look at me." "Please stay here, we'll keep you informed." "How can such a young child have heart attacks?" "But it's clear, that not all the surprises would be negative." "Hello." "How can you talk without opening your mouth?" "Yes..." "You have a really cool voice." "What was cool, was being able to speak with Toni, athough sometimes he was a little direct." "Are you afraid that your brother will die?" "When you have the envelope, give it to your doctor, and don't look at it before, because I know you!" "What does it have to say in yours?" "That the lung tumor hasn't grown, that way I don't have to go back on chemo." "Shit, I don't have that ventricles thing." "And you?" "It looks like I'll be going back on chemo." "When it rains a lot outside, life in the hospital, gets a bit difficult." "It's as if the storm was inside, like those days of summer where you don't want to return to your other life." "And you can get mad at your friends, this one, will be a difficult night in the hospital." "It's hard coming to hospital when you're ill." "But it's even harder having to go when you're well." "Lleó, I've been looking at the results of the CT and... you'll return to chemo tomorrow morning." "But didn't you tell me that I'd be 3 weeks without chemo?" "Look, the sooner you start the batches, the earlier you'll finish them." "But you said I probably wouldn't need it." "Did you or didn't you say that?" "Yes..." "I told you that, but the spot on the lung has grown faster than we thought, either we do chemo or..." "Is the spot on the lung, the tumor?" "Yes." "Well, call it a tumor, I already know I have it." "Lleó, I know you're angry, but we have to do 6 batches of chemo." "It's just too soon, please, leave me three more weeks." "Look, I'll tell the MIR to come and talk to you." "Do you want the nurse to give you a sedative?" "No." "What time is your sister coming tomorrow?" "I don't know." "When she comes, ask her to sign the transfer papers." "Come on... cheer up." "I don't mind you listening to me, but if you do, then do it." "What?" "You heard, I don't like you spying on me, dammit!" "Don't get mad..." "Alright, tell us Lleó, what happened?" "Nothing." "Nothing..." "and so angry like this, you haven't come just for the chocolate milk, eh?" "Is it about the leg you can't afford?" "No, because I'm sick of being lied to." "Who's lied to you?" "Doctors, first they tell you one thing, and then they say the opposite to you." "Explain, I don't understand." "Look, they want to put me back on chemo tomorrow." "You already knew this would happen," "You told me you'd probably have to do more batches." "Look, I've reconsidered it, now I don't want to do it, I've already done 23 fucking batches." "Yeah... but you still have it in the lung." "Well so what?" "I also had it in the leg, And they had to amputate." "What use was the chemo?" "eh?" "Cut directly into the lungs." "Lleó... they're the doctors, they know what they're doing." "Benito, I want you to support me in this decision." "How?" "My dad's back home in Canet, and one day he asked you to be my legal guardian." "Don't you remember?" "Yes, but as your sister comes here so..." "My father believes that Gavina is too young to take these decisions." "He trusts you." "I want you to sign the papers as guardian at the hospital, please... and support my wish to quit chemo." "I'd love to be your legal guardian." "Really?" "But I won't give you my support to stop the chemo..." "Thanks, eh!" "Thanks for nothing, dammit," "I am fed up, I don't want to do it." "But listen." "Not with your support nor without it, don't try to convince me." "I came here hoping you'd understand me, but you're just like them, dammit!" "Lleó, please, where are you going?" "Wait." "Grandpa... why are these walls so ugly?" "They're like old women, and gray." "Sleep..." "Toni sleep, it's late." "It's just that they're very ugly..." "Why aren't they like those at home?" "Blue or red..." "Yes yes, of course..." "you're right Toni, you're right." "We could paint them, right?" "Ahh... we'll paint them, paint them." "Grandpa..." "Do you give me permission?" "Great..." "I'm going to speak with the Bracelets, and tell them that we'll give another colour to all this." "whenever it rains very much, the day finishes earlier in the hospital." "People don't come to visit, and if they come, they leave earlier." "They all want gray days like this to end." "Who are you?" "Rodri, and you?" "Toni." "I'm a friend of Roc and Ignasi." "What are you doing here so late?" "It's not so late!" "It's nine o'clock," "I came here for a couple of hours, but Ignasi was already asleep." "I hope he wakes up, it's getting late." "And why didn't you wake him up?" "With the bad temper he has, he'd get angry, I prefer to wait, by the way, are you a friend of Ignasi's?" "Yes... well, as a mate, he's a bit of a strange guy." "I go to school with him" "Oh, yes?" "Yes, at school he was a bit hard on me, but now he and I are... well, not yet, but I hope we'll become friends." "What do you mean he was a little hard on you?" "He was insulting to me sometimes." "It doesn't seem that he was very kind." "And well, another time he hit me." "But I believe it was without bad intent." "How does one hit without bad intent?" "I mean, you could tell he didn't want to hurt me," "It was just for a laugh." "If you say so..." "I don't quite understand it." "But, well..." "What have you come to do here?" "I'm bringing him class notes and a couple of games for the PSP." "That's nice..." "I wish I had an enemy like you." "You know what?" "What?" "I'll wake him up." "Toni... what the hell are you doing here, man?" "Him or me?" "Him?" "Who, man?" "Hello." "What the hell are you doing here!" "I brought..." "Didn't I tell you the other day that I didn't want anything more to do with you?" "Yes, but, I've brought you..." "He's brought you games!" "Games?" "Haven't you brought me notes?" "Yes, also notes." "Lets see the games... now!" "I don't like the way you treat him..." "I think that we'll have to take the bracelet away from you." "These games are shit, I already have them." "Sorry..." "I can bring you two that you don't have tomorrow." "Have you got the lastest "Medal" and the "pro"?" "Look... you can come back..." "but only, if you get them." "I'll return tomorrow, good-bye..." "if I get them, can we be friends?" "Just bring them, dammit, you're such a pain!" "It's awful the way you treat this boy, neither Roc nor I like it, do we Roc?" "Toni, he's a half-wit this kid, know what I mean." "Yeah, sure... half-wit..." "No, I didn't want..." "well, what did you want Toni?" "From you?" "nothing, I came to talk to Roc." "With Him?" "Yes." "He has a more interesting conversation than yours and I like him better than you." "Dammit, I'm fed up," "I can't take any more Toni, I want to get out of here!" "Yeah, yeah Roc, somewhat of a problematic guy, eh?" "I don't think he'll ever become a true Bracelet." "By the way Roc, what colour shall we paint the rooms?" "Lleó, we didn't know where to find you, How long have you been here?" "I don't know," "But when the boss comes out I'll tell her I won't do the chemo." "Chemo sucks, but..." "How much chemo have you done?" "Three batches." "I've done 23." "When you've done more than 10, you can speak to me about chemo." "Look Lleó, I've never had chemo, but you're a little out of control." "You've got Mr. Benito really worried." "You're like the weather, totally out of control." "I'm not out of control, I don't want to go to oncology, when she comes out I'll tell her, it doesn't matter how late it gets." "You know she won't listen to you, you're a minor like me." "Your parents will force you, like me, to be here." "So what'll they do?" "Do it to me by force?" "The nurse told me that they've been 8 hours, it's a complicated transplant." "You won't make me change my mind." "No, I don't even want to try," "I'm just saying go to the room, play with something and return later, but staying here is a drag." "Besides, it's cold and I'm hungry." "Yes, you're right, but you haven't convinced me, in a few hours I'll return to tell her what's happening." "Sure." "Man, if I'd known being a Red Bracelet, meant living like hippies," "I wouldn't have joined." "We've decided it, red and blue." "What do you mean, Toni?" "He wants to paint his room, says that his grandpa has given him permission." "He'll lose his hair." "Since I like, red and blue I'm with you, to fight against the system." "Shit man, we can't paint Toni's room either blue or red." "Why not?" "Here the rooms are really sad, everything's very sad, we need to have happiness, we should vote on doing it here." "I also think the same, let's do it." "Ok, let's vote." "We won't vote, you're angry about something else, the colour doesn't matter to you." "Of course not, ok, all in favour!" "Ok, why not?" "I'm all for a good prank." "Ok, against." "Okay, we won." "Roc hasn't voted yet." "You're right, I'll ask him now." "What do you mean?" "Of course he's in favour." "You never know." "Roc, are you in favour?" "What does he say?" "Wait, he's explaining many things to me." "So?" "He doesn't want to." "But have you explained to him properly?" "Roc man!" "Yeah, yeah, of course I explained it properly," "But he proposes something else." "He believes we want to paint for the sake of change, but he says that it's not so important to change the place where we live, than to change the air that we breathe." "So what does he propose?" "That we clear off from here?" "Yes, more or less." "He thinks that what we need is to have some fun," "And he says that tonight we should go out on an excursion." "He says we'll need some walkies-talkies" "Some walkies?" "Christ, this'll be the most expensive of exchanges, at least 30 oranges and lots of books." "All in favour?" "Come on Ignasi, man..." "I was glad that they listened to me, there are nights in the hospital when you need to move, and this was one of these nights." "We needed a change of scenery, but above all, to help our leader." "(We live for the night.)" "(Looking at the sky.)" "(Searching for Saturn.)" "(Or the Southern Cross.)" "(We live for the night.)" "(Looking at the sky.)" "(Searching for stars...) (While we make love.)" "Have you read the statement of the works council?" "Now it turns out that the maintenance assistants have the same recognition as nurses..." "That was close." "Yeah." "I thought you'd support me." "It was madness to paint the rooms, and you know it." "And what if she doesn't have any walkies-talkies?" "Mrs. Herminia has everything." "One day she even had a microwave and an exercise bike." "Don't make things up." "Perhaps not the bicycle, but she has everything you could want." "Why don't you want to do the chemo?" "It's hard to explain." "If you want I'll tell you why I don't like to eat." "It's not to be fat, isn't it?" "It's more complicated than that." "Is yours for not feeling pain?" "It's more complicated than that." "I thought so." "It's not up to par of what you normally bring me Lleó." "Sorry, it's just that we need something urgently, and I haven't had much time to prepare the material." "There are oranges that are 10 days old, and many books are pocket-sized, what do you want?" "Some walkie talkies." "You won't get them with this..." "But do you have them?" "I have everything, and if not, I can call a contact and have it here at a few hours." "Ok... give me 4 walkies, you know I'll bring you more stuff another day..." "Four besides?" "Not with this you won't" "Perhaps this will resolve it." "Everything has a solution." "Can we pay the rest with money?" "I'll see what I can do." "And add 3 flashlights as well." "Well done, how spirited!" "I like to play the tough girl." "Yeah, I've noticed, you do it well." "Thanks." "You're not rich?" "Not me, my parents a little." "Wouldn't you like to sponsor a cripple?" "I just need to talk to my parents about it." "I hope they've got good coverage, don't mess with us." "I see you brought a good negotiator Lleó." "Yeah, I know." "Okay, take it, and don't say anything about this." "You never got these from me." "What about your roommate?" "I have no roommate, the whole room is mine." "Now you can go, and not a word, or perhaps you'll end up as my roommate!" "Maybe someone else should have gone to look for walkies, what if they get caught?" "You wanted to go with Cristina, don't give me that spiel." "No, really, but I think if they get caught the excursion is finished." "Ok, let's think where we'll go..." "that hurts my arm." "What have you done." "I don't know," "Now they think I've got a blood problem, they have no idea what I have!" "And what have you done today?" "A thing ending in esteneonosequefia or something like that." "That sounds very professional, it shows that you know a lot." "Whose are these notes?" "They're very good." "From a boy that he hates." "I don't hate him, he's the typical school kid that nobody likes." "He's soft." "I was sensitive at my school and it was no fun." "Look, I don't know if you've looked at these notes, but they're incredible," "I don't know why he does it, after the things that I've done to him." "Because he's a nice guy, also, he's the only one I've seen come to see you." "Apart from his mother, who doesn't look like his mom, she's really young." "She's not my mother, she's the woman who married my father." "Ok, let's think where we'll go." "Damn..." "Yes, I like to draw, where do we go?" "To the gym!" "Been there, I know that." "I knew well where we had to go, the important thing was to help Lleó." "And the objective was the chemotherapy room." "Good idea, Roc!" "Apart from not liking the pain that chemo causes." "Besides this, you can become impotent." "I was told some time ago by a friend who was on chemo and, I don't know..." "I wouldn't like to become impotent before I've even used it." "I didn't expect to have to explain this to a girl but," "I don't know, it's just worked out for me this way." "And not only that, Dammit, now we're a group, and I'm off to another hospital building, I don't like it at all." "For one fucking time I'm fine, I feel good," "I don't want to go to another floor and make new friends, and have the fucking pain back," "To sleep in a strange bed." "All this makes me pretty scared." "(Hidden, from so many strange voices...) (With the silences, we fill landscapes.)" "(Beyond this sound so harsh...) (We understand each other without words.)" "I think that hereabouts there's a corridor that joins it." "Are you sure?" "If not, we won't get there." "Roc says yes, there is one." "Let's hope he's not wrong." "Hello!" "It's about time." "How did it go?" "Mission accomplished, care of Mrs. Herminia." "I almost thought she'd kill us." "Bravo!" "All her doing, she negotiates very well." "Nonsense, I did nothing." "So?" "Any problems with the nurses?" "No, not really, they were discussing some silly thing out there, and what about you?" "Do we know where we're going today?" "Yes." "Where?" "Surprise!" "Lleó didn't know where we were going, it was a surprise, the mission was to transform the chemo room." "into a place where he could feel next to us and we close to him." "We only needed to find the paints, and I knew where they were." "I was happy to be able to direct the operations at a distance." "Can you hear me alright?" "Loud and clear, leader." "Thanks co-leader." "Say, can we cut to the interesting stuff?" "What floor are we going to?" "This is the handsome one, go to..." "...where are we going to, Toni?" "Shouldn't we say "over"?" "Like this, "over"?" "If we don't say "over" we don't know when we can speak." "Over." "We understand, smart one." "Over." "Floor 1." "Over." "What's on floor 1?" "Over." "Roc, are you there?" "Yes, he's listening to us." "Come on man, where are we going?" "Not yet, it's not my idea." "And who's is it?" "Just Imagine..." "Roc's." "Do you realize that the bald ones always get the girl?" "Who's bald?" "Are you kidding?" "The bald ones always get the girl." "Wow!" "paints, just what I wanted." "Shhh Toni, not so loud, man." "I have the two games now, I arrived in time at the shop," "I got wet through, but I have them to bring tomorrow." "You don't deserve it." "Hear that, soaked through." "Very much." "Toni..." "When Lleó finds out we're going to the chemo room, he's gonna get really pissed, don't you think?" "Maybe, maybe not, if Roc proposed it, it must be for a reason, right?" "That's it, we can go out now." "What are you doing here?" "Ehmm... we got lost." "Hey, we've passed the security, we can continue with the excursion." "Over." "Lost?" "We've lost the others." "we haven't misled you." "There's no need to tell anyone, we'll return to our rooms," "You'll return?" "You three and the one that's just spoken on the walkie, clear." "Yes." "Where are you?" "Ignasi and I are waiting for you, are you coming or what?" "Over." "This is Doctor Josep, please everyone in the hospital party, come to the door where it says "treatment room"." "Over." "Lleó, the doctor has asked me to speak to you about the chemo." "No, there's nothing to discuss, I don't want it." "Now we'll talk about this." "No, I don't want to talk about anything." "Very well, I'll allow you to go, but on the condition that Lleó stays a moment to talk to me." "This is blackmail, man." "I know it's blackmail." "Don't do It." "Easy, he won't convince me of anything." "Well then you've nothing to lose right?" "Okay, but... only if you allow us to go where we wanted to go." "That's not the deal." "No, it's my deal." "Very well." "Go on..." "Tell me." "Why don't you want to do the chemo?" "Explain to me why I have to do it?" "You're the doctor, convince me." "This they don't teach us in school." "To what?" "To deal with the patient." "For you I'm like a mouse, right?" "What do you mean?" "I don't know, sometimes I have this feeling." "Is it regarding impotence?" "Partly." "You know that doesn't always happen?" "It's a side effect that hardly ever happens, really." "I know, but christ, I don't want to risk it." "And what else?" "Your friends..." "Lleó... here, I'm the last monkey, you know." "The last monkey that talks to the Lion." "Yes... but if I can arrange that they don't move you?" "Then you only spend the day in the hospital and night in trauma." "They won't allow me to do that." "But if I can arrange it?" "It would only solve a part." "Think about it, eh?" "If you don't do it you know that you'll die, don't you?" "I know." "Aren't you afraid?" "No, I have many friends who've died." "Anything else?" "No." "Did you hear everything all right?" "Yes." "I already know where you're taking me." "You too?" "The idea came from Roc." "It's no use Roc, it won't affect me." "Ignasi?" "Come on, wake up, we need to talk." "I'm going to the bathroom, eh?" "Wake up." "I'd better go now, or else, they'll catch us all." "That's okay Ignasi" "Good luck." "Perhaps it wouldn't help." "Perhaps I had been wrong about sending him to the chemo." "But perhaps, it was the place of his nightmares, because he had never related it to positive things." "Just being here and seeing these walls makes me want to be sick." "I can't handle the chemo." "We'll be with you." "We'll take care of you every day when you return from chemo." "Yeah, but just the fact of coming here again, it scares me." "Within 2 minutes of chemo you go from feeling fine to complete agony." "It's the worst thing you can think of, you're fine, then in 2 fucking seconds," "I want to be sick, you feel so bad and so ill." "And christ, I know I have Gavina, but dammit, I see the pain and sadness in her face, and it doesn't help me, doesn't help me at all." "The cancer doesn't seem like the enemy to me, it's this shit they treat me with." "I'm scared of coming, scared of being here and of leaving." "One of us can come every day to be with you." "Yes, and stay with you while they do the chemo." "Would you do it?" "If you want I'll come with you tomorrow." "Really?" "Yes." "And we can also brighten this up a bit, any idea what we should paint?" "Yes, I have one." "(You fall to the ground, far below, you think you won't get out of this.)" "(But over the months you realize, that you go back to the beginning.)" "(And from so many falls, and getting up again...) (you learn that things don't change, but now you're not who you were before.)" "(Then, I've already been five or six, and I am what I want now.)" "(I don't want to think about what tomorrow will bring.)" "(Dive in, every moment is unique, it won't be repeated.)" "A little more and it's sorted, Roc." "Ignasi?" "Are you awake yet?" "Yes, how is it you've come so late?" "Look..." "Your father didn't want you to know, but I do, and I wanted to tell you." "Ignasi, I think you're old enough, and you should know." "What's up, Lourdes?" "The tests done on you." "They've discovered that you've got an abnormality in the aorta." "We've spoken with other doctors and well, they have to do another test on you, an arteriogram to confirm this." "What do you mean?" "I..." "I was expecting to return to school this week." "That's what I wanted to tell you, if the aorta abnormality is confirmed, it'll be a long time before you return to school." "Sorry Ignasi." "This was our day to day life, it wasn't easy, sometimesitfeltnormal, and sometimes very different." "I don't know if it's a good idea that he's accompanied by another patient." "I believe it is." "And this returning to traumatology." "It'll do him good." "I hope it's not a mistake." "By the way..." "Did you hear about the oncology wall." "No, what's happened?" "Well, it appears Lleó and the other guys, decided to give it a different look, and they've repainted it in an "original" way." "I didn't tell them that... if you think that I..." "No, I don't know whose idea it was, but it's very entertaining." "Now, if they do it in traumatology, you and I will talk." "Thanks, man." "The most important thing, is not to feel alone." "The journey is long in hospital, but sometimes, if you're not alone, it seems much shorter to you." "What the hell do you expect to find outside?" "Life." "Life?" "Life?" "You're an idiot, man." "Are you okay, Lleó?" "I was up to a second ago." "I stopped going." "To the chemo?" "Yes." "But each of us has to go with him a day, they're the Bracelet rules." "Roc's been a long time in a coma, we believe it would be appropriate to move him." "With other people in a coma?" "He'd be well cared for." "Did you really fall down the stairs?" "Yes." "My father used to beat me." "Excuse me." "Do you beat your son?" "Subtitles by Oliver Sanderson"