"You want Wassenfelder, you have to deal." "Previously, on Defying Gravity:" "Ten of you will accept our sincere thanks, and go home tomorrow." "I think they're making a big mistake." "Goodbye, Maddux Donner." "This is gonna be my marker." "An eagle." "It's a good omen." "There's some weird physiological changes happening to you guys that I'm not supposed to talk about." "We don't want anyone to see the Gamma object." "We've been working on a 50/50 plan." "This will be the real images, and this will be the cover recordings of Zoe picking up the rocks." "Mintz wants me to examine every moment of my miracle with Hector." "Miracles are reality with parts missing." "Here we go!" "Donner, you have got to get it close." "He's going to miss" " Contact" "How far from the object?" "286 meters." " That's too far." "We got 20 minutes to get off that planet." "Did she just say a baby?" "Zoe, what are you doing?" "I can get it, Donner." "S01E13:" ""The Kiss"" "Transcript by: anreith [DarkSide]" "My father used to say that if whiskey was courage in a bottle, there'd be a national monument in his name." "His point, other than he drank too much was that courage isn't something you can buy." "It's something you find." " Are you hearing it, Donner?" "No, I'm not hearing anything, Zoe, turn around and come back to the lander," "Do you copy?" "Zoe, turn around and come back to the lander." "Not without the baby." " There isn't a baby." "You're on Venus." "Have we muted their comm?" "Right after the mislanding." "That exchange was clear." "And the recorded EVA?" "Up and running." " Go to it." "Uhm..." "Paula, we need a live shot of you on the flight deck to make the transition." "Paula?" "Yes." "Copy that." "Wass?" " Yeah, I'm on it." "I'm ready." "You may have noticed that Zoe has very little mobility in her preassure suit." "It's obviously an hallucination." "Was she hearing the baby on the ship?" "She said it was guilt related." "Did she tell you the reason?" "No." "She never told me." "Why would she be hallucinating a baby?" "She aborted one in her first year of training." "And I wasn't told?" "There are certain personal decisions that I think should remain personal." "speciallydesignedboots, to pick up dirt instead of repelling it." "All Zoe has to do is walk around a little." "Cut to the recording." "And then step on the sled towed behind her." "And deposit any of the samples her boots collected." "You aren't bothered by the black boulder that just appeared 100 meters out in the fake footage?" "11 o'clock." "It's small, can we edit it on the fly?" "From this point on." "Let's see what they can do." "I think I'm getting some pretty good samples here." "Although my mother wouldn't approve of my dirty feet." "Can you pull up the helmet cam?" "Donner, I need for you to get her back on the lander now," "That suit is only good for 20 minutes." "Ted, she's hearing a baby, she's not listening to me." "Zoe." "There's no baby." "Repeat." "There is no baby." "Get back to the lander." "I can hear it." "I can get it." "You're hallucinating." "Is this the same thing that you were hearing on the ship?" "It's not on the ship anymore." "It's here." "5 years earlier." "Zoe!" " Oh, crap." "Listen." "What the hell are you doing?" "She's getting a tattoo, Donner." "A big tattoo." " A big tattoo of what?" "An eagle." "The omen eagle?" " You know about the eagle?" "Isn't that the reason she's leaving?" "No, that's not the reason I'm leaving," "I was asked to leave, I got kicked out." "Not by me!" " No, not by you, Donner, this isn't about you, it's about me, it's about where I'm going." "Lady, you need to sit still." "This eagle on my back, marks a turning point." "There's pre-eagle and there is post-eagle." "You, Donner, are pre-eagle." " Well, actually, I'm here right now, so that makes me mid-eagle too." "I really can't do this right now." "Guys, can you take Donner home?" "I'm not going, I'm seeing her to the station." "Okay, so meet her at the train station." "I was just there!" " So go back." "She doesn't want you here, alright?" "We'll be there in a couple of hours, you can say goodbye then." "Rollie, please?" "Uhmm, I'm your ride." " Right." "Ajay, please?" "Sure." "Donner, I guess we should go." "Huh?" "Don't say anything..." "I would never say anything." " Well you might." "You could." "Destiny, a mans right to know, whatever." "Don't." " I won't" "Thank you." "After you." "Ajay." "How long has she been out?" "Seven minutes." "All systems on her suit are nominal." "She's 150 meters from the lander." "Still outbound." "She's got three minutes to turn around." "Or she's not making it back." "Okay, Zoe, you gotta listen to me now." "This Gamma object has got you hearing things." "I know what I'm hearing, Donner." "You don't know what you're hearing because there is no baby on Venus." "Turn around, or you're not gonna make it back." "I need you to get me a private comm with her." "You think it will work, hook in with Donner." "No Donner, just me and Zoe," "I need to speak to her privately." "Do it." "Venus lander, this is Antares," "I need you to jump off this comm." "I'm a little busy, Ted." " Jen thinks she can get through to her." "Noone else on the line." "She doesnt want me on the line?" "She doesn't want anyone." "Alright, going to six." "Mission Control, do you copy?" "Let her try privately." "Roger that." "Moving to channel six with Donner." "It's all yours." "Hey, Zoe, it's Jen." "Do you copy?" "Jen, is that you?" " Yeah." "I got us a private comm for some girl talk." "Did you hear what I finally came up with?" "Yeah." "Marking the day with a footprint." "That's nice." "It's really nice." "Footprint is easier than a tattoo." "Yeah." "Well it's not looking so easy right now, Zoe." "I'm gonna make it, Jen." "Only if you turn back right now, Zoe." "That suit is certified for 20 minutes on Venus, not 25, not 30." "I hear the baby." " That's the hallucination." "You know that." " No, this is different." "It's not your baby, Zoe." "I know that you think it is, but it's not." "Your baby is gone." " You're wrong." "It's right up ahead." " No no no" "This isn't you." "Zoe, please, can you hear yourself?" "That thing is making you hear the baby." "It wants to kill you." "I'm gonna get it." "It will be okay." "Where you're going, there is no coming back." "There is no pre-eagle, no post-eagle, just..." "Nothing." "Please don't leave us." "Dont do this." "We need you on this ship." "Please, Zoe, turn back now." "Zoe?" "You did the best you could." "She's gonna die out there, isn't she?" "And if Donner waits for her, so will he." "No, we can't let him do that." "This isn't Mars." "No, it's not but it sure feels that way." "Passing a probe now." "That's the chinese attempt from 2043." "She's now at 200 meters." "Still outbound." "10 minutes on the surface." "No return." "If they want us to retrieve them, why the hell do they keep killing us?" "She's not dead yet, Mike." "In fact, she's our only hope." "Hey, Z, I'm back." " Copy that, Donner." "How's Jen?" "You guys have a nice talk?" "I'm not turning around." "I see that, you just passed your no-return." " Yeah." "My heads-up is flashing." "Choosing to ignore it." "Does Jen have some idea why you're hearing a baby?" "Cause I think if I knew the answer to that," "I could talk you back here." "Yeah, I don't think so, Donner." "I dont get women." "I mean I get women, but I dont "get" women." "I think aside from the obvious ways they are really not that different than you and I." "No, wrong." "They are way different." "What if you were the as.cand who didnt make the cut, would you just hang out and wait for Zoe?" " No, I'm not gonna have the failure rubbed in my face." "Exactly." "You wouldn't wait around." "And neither would I." "Well I wouldn't get a damn tattoo." "Maybe she needed it." "Like a ritual." "A way to say goodbye." " I can think of a lot of ways that are less painful and permanent." "I think the pain and the permanence is the reason she did it." "The last few months, have been really emotional for Zoe." "Well, it's not like I'm responsible." "Are you saying I'm responsible for that?" "How am I responsible for that?" "Another failed probe." "Those were ours she just passed." "Were those ours?" " Yeah." "We sent two." "Where did they launch from?" " Canavral." "Canavral's under water." "I guess they can cover up anything." "Barnes will now drag her sled back to its stalk." "Then go onto the platform that will lift her into the lander." "So far, this has been a textbook mission." "She's twenty meters to target." "Time." "Paul, I need to know her surface time." "Uhm, 16 minutes 37 seconds." "Thermal cooling is coming off nominal, we should see seal failures in five minutes." "The lander?" "Crossbows TCS is also subnominal, internal temperature's 25 C and rising fast." "Donner, you'll need to switch to your suitpacks," "TCS on your lander is starting to fail." "Roger that, it is getting hot in here." "Also start thinking about your launch sequence." "I'll think about it." "We will hold off on that for now." "You'll have to be ready when she goes down, Max." "I heard you the first time, Rollie." "Okay, I get it." "And it's not Mars." "I got that too." "But I'm the guy that missed this landing." "There was a crosswind." "That doesn't matter." "It was my responsability." "And it's my responsability to make sure that she gets every chance possible to get back." "I owe her that much." "Copy that." "We say this isn't Mars, but... it's exactly what happened on Mars." "Then you have to stop him." "Ted, you do." "Talk some sense into him, don't let this happen again." "Donner, listen buddy." "You're really making us nervous up here." "What I need you to do is to get back onto..." "When she goes down, I'll go." "Until then she gets every chance." "Once inside, Donner will have the hatch sealed, then depreassurize, and cool off the lower compartment." "Zoes suit will depreassurize on the way back to the ship." "We all have to get ready for Zoes and Donners return." "I hope you all are as excited and as happy and proud as we all are." "From Antares, I am Paula Morales, signing off." "We're proud of you." "You did a great job." "That was a fairy tale." "It's the way we wanted it to be." "It's not the way it is." "I need some air." " Paula." "Flight, be advised, she's running a low-grade fever." "Her suit temperature?" " Nominal." "This fever is consistent with Beta hallucinations." "She's approaching the target." "The as.cand eliminations." "How did we do?" "Aside from Wassenfelder, you did pretty good." "Barnes?" " That's a surprise." "I haven't been able to sleep the last couple of nights." "Well, that should probably tell you something." "I have no idea who else I'd get rid of." "Well, I'm sure that can't be easy." "I tell myself maybe she's lucky." "Maybe I gave her a chance to live a normal life." "She would never think that." "Sharon Lewis wouldn't have thought that either." "Buy you dinner?" "Tonight I would like a little normal." "For the record, I think they screwed up not picking you." "Thanks, Rollie." " Just my opinion." "Looks good." " Thanks." "That was sweet." "Odd, but sweet." "Yeah, Rollie is a good man, and he has a huge crush on you." "Yeah but I got this whole Ted mess" "Sex is not a relationship." "Maybe I don't want a relationship." "We all do." " Nadia doesn't." "Nadia's different" " Nadia's smart." "Nadia knows relationships lead to things." "Yeah, like feelings." " And compromise." "And babies." " And pain." "Relationships also lead to pain." "Yes." "Yes they do." "Please tell me we're almost done." "Almost done." "And relationships end." "Honey, they dont have to." "I just wanna know if I'm post-eagle." "I'm gonna be post-eagle, right?" "That't twenty minutes on the surface," "Donner needs to get off." "He will get off when the time is right." "That lander is going to start falling apart, it won't make it back to the ship." "Donner, you need to start your launch sequence." "Nadia." " Donner!" "Stand by, Antares." "Just a few more minutes." "Not a few more minutes." "Now Donner, now!" "Start your launch sequence." "Donner?" "She's stopping." "She's at the site." "I can see it." "Uhm, it's here." "My baby's here." "She's seeing it as a baby." "He's coming to me." "He' floating up to me." "Oh, Zoe." "Zoe, it's amazing." "Zoe, listen, as soon as you have it you need to start back for the lander, you copy?" "Roger that." " 20 minutes on the surface." "Thermal cooling is starting to fail." "Internal temperature in the suit is 40 C." "That's 104 Fahrenheit." " Same thing on the lander." "I have him in my arms." "Alright, go!" "Go for the lander." "Hurry." "She's got it." "She's got Gamma." "Doesn't matter." "She will never make it." "You don't know that." " Come on." "I'm coming, Donner." "Coming with our baby." "Coming with our baby boy." "Our baby?" "Zoes birth cyst, in the first year of training, was a botched abortion." "And Donner was the father?" "Yeah." "Damn." "He'd had a vasectomy after Mars, it somehow reverted." "We discovered it on his last physical." "Do you think he realises?" "Uhm, Control, I'd like a private comm with Ajay." "I've a couple of questions about the lander." "He realises." " Talk to him on six." "He's not gonna leave without her." "i think I get that." "Donner, go to six." "Hey Aje, you there?" " I'm here Donner." "Hey, uhm, do you remember me telling you" "I'd been snipped?" " Claire told us, it reverted." "Yeah, uhm." "This whole deal with Zoe, uh... that cyst thing first year." "Wasn't really a cyst, was it?" "That's correct, Maddux." "It's my baby?" "Yes." "It's my rule." " What is?" "It's the reason Zoe's leaving." "It's my I don't screw astronauts rule." "isn't it?" "I mean, you know." "The part that's about that." "I get it." "I get it." "I get the tattoo, you know." "When I got back from Mars, you know what I did, first thing?" "What?" " I got a vasectomy." "Snipped." "You got a vasectomy?" " Yeah, that's painful." "Permanent." "You know why I did it?" "I did it because I didn't want a wife, I didn't want kids." "I didn't want anybody to have to go through what" "I experienced with losing Sharon." "When we do this thing we do, death's a part of the deal." "So don't screw astronauts." "Don't have kids." "You have one night stands." "That's my life." "You know." "That's my rule." "Okay." "I'm gonna need some help holding this go-cart together, cause there is now way in hell I'm leaving here without her." "Roger that." "Zoe, how are we doing?" "It's getting a little warm out here, but we are doing fine." "Keep on moving." "This bus isn't going anywhere without you two."