"Spanish To English By Google Translate" "Do not go." "Not yet." "I have to leave tomorrow, or rather, today." "But I keep thinking, what if this it?" "What if everything we have?" ""STUCK BETWEEN STATIONS"" "fidos_nf GT" "has a new message." "Hi, Rebecca." "Talk Vronofsky Sheila, director of the Department of Comparative Literature." "Well, you know who I am." "I would like to talk to you ASAP." "I know you've enjoyed be the teaching assistant of Professor Turner and talked with members of your committee, enthusiastic about promising work, but information has emerged on which we need to talk." "In short, I think you and I should reconsider your plans on your thesis and, well, frankly, your future in the department..." "Considering that you do not seem to control yourself to the husband of another woman." "Again, please call me as soon as possible ." "You have reached the office of Professor David Turner ." "Please leave a message after the tone ." "David, I am." "I just received a disturbing call from your wife and not find my backup disk and my key to your office, that's where my computer." "I need you to call me back ..." "Immediately." " What?" "Is the other guy?" " No, the first." "And then Brent says, "He that is." "I fight with any of you."" "But I answer "How about both?"" "Brent says:" ""As you wish"." "And then threw his bottle of beer and..." "Pum!" "Two punches." "He gave the two in the face." " No way!" " Yes Yes, really." "Do you remember that, Becky?" "Remember when Brent hit those guys at the state fair?" "I gave throughout his mother." ""FIRST AVENUE"" "Put ?" "me down!" "Let me down, damn." "Hi." "How are you?" "Hi." "What?" "Do you want me to try to charge me?" "What do you mean?" "What the fuck..." "Brent, that's enough." "Hello!" "Hello, how are you?" "Talk Casper." "Did I wake you?" "Yes No, I'm here." "I came to Minneapolis for the funeral." "No." "Thank you." "Yes, thank you, friend." "What is going to do, right?" "What are you seeing?" "Oh, really?" "What?" "I do not like the travel through time." "No, I like where something to do or where you have to figure things , as Data or something." "O in which Worf everything becomes a gangster." "Hey, you know who I found?" "No." "A Fine Becky." "Yes sac suede leather with fringes." "But even recognized because it was a couple of idiots." "Hey... hey, I'll call you later..." "Or tomorrow or something." "What?" "Seems to need help." "No." "No." "No, I'm..." "Do not you been waiting for." "I meant." "Just wanted to know if you're okay." "I'm fine." "Why?" "I'm fine." "I've been through worse." "Really?" "Seemed that you break your face." "Yes, they broke my face." "Perfect." "Thanks for keeping track." "I appreciate it." "I was not doing that." "You know what I regret totally of having fought for you." "Write that in your book." "What book?" "What..." "None." "It's Dances with Wolves." "Kevin Costner sitting before the fire with the other, throws a fart and says, "Write that in your book."" " Kevin Costner throws a fart?" " No, the other." "Costner is writing in his diary or whatever." "I do not know, is a punch line." "Sometimes I say." "Good." "'m Glad you clarified." "What was it that you fought for me?" "¿Were trying to impress me or something?" "No." "Only made me angry, that's all." "Type that is constantly held you and I noticed you did not want to do so." "Then when you made the shot for you loaded band and scream you down." "So you approached him and gave him an unexpected blow." "Did you think it unexpected?" "I took a second to see what would hit." "In addition, a punch in the face is not a low blow." "First, they were my friends." "In addition, this is an insane way to handle things ." "Well, did not know." "It is." "It's insane." "I did not know were your friends." "Shit!" "May need to go to ask for an apology." "No." "That is a terrible idea." "Why?" "I say, do not know, but I do not have to explain why very bad idea return to the bar and try to clear things up with the idiots drunk you got a beating and now are congratulating and telling the beating." "First of all, yes I know..." "I know you or..." "And second, what happened there was not a beating." "They piled on me, that's all." "How do I know?" "You Fine Becky." "Grew up on 28th Street" "In the blue house near the 33." "Whenever you wore a fur coat before fringed smelling grass and cigar and had patches of flowers back in your jeans." "In third grade you take your gerbil to school escaped and no one ever found." "Wow!" "That's..." "Right?" "Yes" "I told you to know." "I was gonna say "weirdo"." "No." "No." "I know." "I'm Casper Philips." "We went to elementary school and high school together." "And had gone to Sanford, but my mom got me into the secondary Minnehaha Academy." "Our third grade teacher was Ms. Beal ." "Yes Yes, yes, yes." "I remember you." "Were crying all the time, right?" "Well, maybe I cried a few times..." "Knew that was not much." "No, I remember you cried all the time in that class and your mom had to pick at noon." " I do not remember that." " Once I lent my draft smelling of strawberry trying to make you feel better." "The next day I asked you and you said:" ""No." "I need it."" "Did I say that?" "Yes, and I was very sad because it was my comp favorite." "It made my box of pencils smelled rich, but I did not ask you because I was afraid you started to mourn again." "I do not remember that at all," " but..." " That's what happened." "... I feel robbed me your draft, Becky." "Do not worry." "Becky, what the fuck..." "What the fuck are you doing?" "Take it easy, Brent." "Damn traitor." "What about..." "I can not believe you're talking to this asshole !" "Seriously." "Hey, hey, hey." "Sit down, you bastard." "Not tell you that you could stop." "Put ?" "the stick back in the box , asshole." "Did you see my shirt, motherfucker?" " See what you did?" " Sensational." " What?" " No, no." "It is a stunning shirt." "Son of his..." "This fucking stupid" " wants you to break your face." " Brent!" "I do not think you've seen this." "Huh?" "Did you see?" "Marines, asshole." " Always faithful!" " Now calm down, Brent." "No." "Fuck that." "this stupidity again." "I challenge you." "I challenge you to tell me to my face." "What?" "What is sensational your shirt?" "It is." "It is a stunning shirt." " Brent..." " No, let me go, let go." "I've had enough already, fucking asshole." "Let." "It gave him a beating." " Let me give you!" " Go!" "Let's go." " You got lucky today, asshole." " Let's go." "I'll see you again, huh?" "Come on, Becky." "Paisley Come to the park." "I came with them." "Hey, Becky." "Becky!" "I forgot something." "Go away." "What the fuck..." "What you do now?" "Maybe going to play Big Buck Hunter." "Ah, Buck Hunter." "That sounds super good." "What you do now?" "Probably continue having fun, right?" "Why hang out with those guys?" "I really do not." "But are your friends." "No, not really." "You said you are." "Yes, but that was before discovered that we knew." "Go out with them sometimes, right?" "Yeah, right." "Do not take frozen yogurt together or anything." "Frozen Yogurt." "That's nice." "This defines true friendship." "You can say yes." "And how had you not..." "Seen in ten years?" "I just came for a couple of days." "My dad died." " I'm sorry." " "FAR..."" "Thank you, do not worry." "Was suddenly?" "Yes, I suppose." "Do you got along well?" "Not really." "Are you okay?" "No." "Should I call an ambulance?" "No." "a while I just want to go to the bar." "If you want to come, all right." "What is that?" "Fine Becky type A joke?" "No." "I say, would be good." "I want you to come." "Hey Casper... eh..." " Just going to be friends tonight." "We will not kiss or anything." "Who says even want to kiss?" "Wow." "Fine Becky." "Begins." "Only one, one only." "Give me the gun." "I'll show you how." " You do it." " I just won this game." "I killed all those deer." "No, do not." "Nothing happens when you do that." "We will take if you keep doing." "Wow, you're good for this game." "Came yesterday and I got two deer to moose." "¿Moose?" "That's nice." "Fuck!" "No Thanks." "Hi." "What?" "Hi." "Do you remember me, Rebecca Fine, of Ave 33, with the bag that smelled of pot whose gerbil died of a tube of the heat?" "Yes, I remember." "We are friends." "Ah." "What about friends growl at each other every 15 minutes?" "I just try to be friends." "You're right, sorry." "I did this was rare." "I'm leaving." "Take another drink." "Nice to meet you, Casper." "Or rather, re-meet you." "Wait, wait." "Come on." "Do you want to go to a party?" "I mean, I" "Was going to play Buck Hunter, so..." "¿Were trying to impress me with your terrible destination?" "The truth is that video game weapons are crap." "Give me a ACOG and I take pubic hair to your friend Brent to 500 meters." "What is an ACOG?" "An advanced combat optical sight." "How do you know both arms?" "Because I am from USA." "States." "By the way, very attractive talk about guns." "If I had known you wanted romance, it would be eating us spaghetti a trash can lid at this time." " I'm starting to know you." " Oh, really?" "Pretend that nothing will give a damn, but do not think so." "For if my father had just died," "I would be undone ." "People die, what do you want me to do?" "Please." "No, I..." "Just say it's something that happens in life, or whatever." "What can any of us about it?" "What?" "I'm impressed." "What?" "You went from Lady and the Tramp" ""all die" in 30 seconds." "Do not talk about it on the first date, right?" "The good news is that this is not a date." "Try not to get drunk unexpectedly and hit my friends." "Eh?" "I can not promise anything." "J!" "Jesse, what's up?" "Damn, you said you were not coming." "What's New?" "Nothing, man." "Nothing." "How are you?" "I'm fine, you know." "Good." "Hi." "I'm Rebecca." "Hi." "I, Jesse." " How are you?" " Very good." "What is known?" "We went to school together." "And the primary." "And the primary." "So even you were a failure who never spoke?" "Definitely." " You look good now." " Oh, thank you." "Do you bring something to drink?" "Yes, what do you have?" "Premium I have and cherry juice flavor gin." "Gin juice is fine." "Bring me a beer." "All of them were to our school?" "Yes, almost everyone." "So, what's up?" "I can not believe you came." "I did not think you would see again." "Yes Here I am." "And I see that as a whole." "Stop it." "Which of you will dance with me?" "Is it going to be unemployed looking like a pair of perverts?" "Then I'll dance alone." "What the fuck..." "Becky Fine?" "Come into the kitchen." "Do you have grass?" "Is that what you wanted to talk?" "Excuse me?" "I have not seen in..." "What?" "Three years?" "From school..." "Show my stupid party with that shit on your shirt and want to know if I have grass." "Yes Have?" " Hey..." " Look, sorry." "I can not recall the bad times." " Yes, I have grass." " Perfect." "But I explain what wave or do not give you anything." "How wonderful, right?" "What happened?" "I was on First Avenue and started talking." " Is that all?" " That's all." "Can not be!" "Did you try to touch the buttocks?" "Yes, right?" "Was it an accident?" "Do you came near him as if you were going ?" ""Oh, sorry, it was your butt?" "Heaven!"" "Come on, man." "What then?" "¿20?" "Security." "I suppose so." "Yes" "are $ 20." "I thought you were going to give me." "Why would you believe that?" "I do not know, because it is friendly." "Old, live in Iraq." "I do not live in Iraq." "Not even know if you come home." "Good." "Thank you." "Wow, I feel like I just pregnant." "Really?" "Who is going to smoke that?" "Do you have $ 10?" "Lit comp." "Comparative Literature." "¿A book compare with others?" "Hey... something." "Why choose someone do that?" "I do not know, I find it interesting." "There is a teacher here, David Turner doing very interesting work." "It is .." "It was my counselor." "I'm supposed something as his protege, so..." "But what happened?" "Exactly." "Casper the ghost son of a bitch!" "Paddy, what's up?" "How are you?" "I did not think to see your ass Republican here in a while." "Yes To hell with that." "This does not even vote." "What do you do with this fascist?" "Seems almost know what time it is." "Knew it was not fascist." "Do you see?" "That's how you get caught." "What do you do?" "You still bombing villages with my taxes?" "Not pay taxes, so..." "Do not wanna be part of the problem." "What are you doing?" "Slacking off in the parking lot smoking as usual, right?" "You wish." "No, let's go to the circus tonight." "What the hell have you been doing ?" "Nothing, really." "His friends gave me a beating, that's all." " Really?" " Not my friends." "What are ." "Acquaintances" "I got a good beat, I guess." "Do you want to go after them?" "No." "No." "Okay." "But what's up with the circus?" "Do you want to come?" "Climb." "Well, let's go." "Do you do this a lot?" "What?" "Do carry girls in the back of your BMX?" "That worked great when I was 13." "Oh, my God!" "Do not let me hit anything!" "Been to the Nest since you came back?" "You could not pay me." "They do not pay you, does it?" "What was the Nest?" "Do not know Turkey's Nest?" "A shitty bar where he and I worked" " behind the university." " The best job I ever had." "And you managed to get you fired." " Why you were fired?" " For bullshit." "They saw him using drugs at work." "No." "False." "I never saw getting high at work" "I showed up stoned once." "That was it." "But you were at work, so..." "Yes, but those are two different things." "Actually, no." "How do you not know?" "I do not know." "Do not go out much." "But know this asshole." " We went to school together" " We met today." "Course." "I want to see it up close." "Right?" "Why never explained to the head drogaste you not there, but you were already high?" "Maybe you could have kept your job ." "No, I have principles." "I want no part of that shit, unlike some traitors sold I know." "Quiet." " Touched a nerve?" "No." "But at least I got a job." "Son of a bitch, the Nazis had jobs." "Well, all right." "Ahead." "You are a corporate puppet, murderer of babies, which uses combat boots." "A tool of tyranny, polluter of the environment, fossil fuel saver, lover fries." "You're a fucking cookie McDonald's." "Is that all you can say?" "And let me take Halliburton." "Yes, let me take Halliburton." "As long as you know..." " Let's go" " What?" "But we just got." "You can come with us, if you want." "No." "I'm staying." "As you wish." "What?" "how you know her?" "Well, why do not you denied?" "My computer was in your office, so the question is who else has the keys your office?" "You know what?" "Please make me fucking to tell your wife to stop calling ." "Listen." "If you're in my apartment in ten minutes with my computer," "I'll tell everyone you sleep a freshman." "We gotta go." "Can you come with me?" "I'd appreciate it." "Damn, does not." "Rebecca, I need to talk to you." "Where is David?" "She's home." "I could not." ""She's home."" "How strange, because it also is your house, so..." "I'm not ready to face it." "We have not been presented." "I'm David." "Are you his friend?" "Yes, it's my new boyfriend." "We will flee together to join the circus." "Do you think this is a joke?" "A big joke." " Want to calm down and talk?" " A huge joke." "I am calm, David!" "I am calm!" "Do you know?" "I feel sorry for you." "Must be hard when everything goes to hell and you can not have the power dynamics student-teacher relationship." "Rebecca." "Rebecca!" "Damn it!" "Wait here." "Becky!" "Becky!" "I think he's in his room." "Becky, do you have a plan for this?" "Yes, I got it." "I will." "I got it." " Have done, please." " Yes I know." "Excuse me." "Hi, I'm Casper." "You got a gun?" "¿ I can have a moment alone with you?" "Toma." "Give them to the student with whom you sleep." "Rebecca, come here!" "I'll bring your computer." "And if I do, not the end of the world." "For you the end of the world would be if you lost your magic power on idiots like me who believe that because you strip the shirt 're a God's gift to women." "I should have known you were a phony when you spoke that you loved symbionts of eroticism." "You're a fucking hypocrite." "See, this is childish." " Stop." " Let me go, please." "Rebecca I know you're upset and really do not mean it." "Remember that we had something important." "To hell with that." "To hell with that!" "So you slept with me" " just to advance the department" " Enough!" "Everyone knows that your wife got you your fucking job." "Sheila was right." "I cheated, but you're not really more than a fool." "I said enough!" "Casper, drop it!" "This park is the first in which I touched a breast." "Below the blouse." "Or over, I guess." "Odd." "Here someone masturbated for the first time." "Really?" "No." "course." "Where did you learn to do that?" "What?" "Type The key Abu Ghraib prison subdued with which my boyfriend." "That guy is your boyfriend?" "No." "You were in the army or something?" "I still am." "What Afghanistan?" "Yes" "I return tomorrow." "First to Georgia..." "And then to Afghanistan later this month." "Fuck." "Really?" "Yes." "What are you doing there?" "Game long bridge and Rummy 500." "The lone double has become very popular." "Course." "Many people must wonder how ." "Some." "Do you mind?" "Guess I see why they are interested," "I do not know what to say." "You know is a bad situation." "But if you see the news, may know why." "What?" "I've never heard anyone say that." "Say what?" "As if we had some understanding what actually happens there." "Seems that the nature of war is very complicated." "Even the history of the region is very complex since before involucráramos us." "And here we all are, busy buying a bunch of crap made in China." "So, really, 're screwed." "Do not like talking about it, right?" "I hate to be "special" about it." "I do not like people think I'm interesting just because I have been there or whatever." "That shit has not changed me more" "Other things that have happened here." "People do not want to hear it." "So you were doing with your teacher?" "'s My counselor." "What is the difference?" "None." "Exactly." "I think something very risky." "I guess you never think rules apply to you." "Worse" "Things were going great and again" "I had to fuck it all." "What do you mean?" "His wife is head of the department , so..." "No." "You said "again"" "like something you're used to." "I mean, since you know..." "Good tonight, but before too..." "Seems to have the world by the balls ." "Yes, but do not know me, Casper." "Not to sound harsh ." "Is..." "No, you're right." "Did you go?" "No." "What are you doing?" "Do you think you can with this?" "Yes, I think so." "Good." "The defense wins championships." "The defense wins the championship!" " Really?" " Did not you see?" "Is as 100 to 0." "I was not even looking!" "What is that?" "A tattoo." "What?" "I do not know." "I have had it a lot." "Hey, wanna go for your computer?" "Yes, of course." "Seriously." "It seems a bad idea." "Mira." "This is the plan." "You stand in front, screaming, and you take off all your clothes." "I I get the house back take the computer" "And hit in the head with a hammer." "What?" "No, do not do that!" "I'm not doing anything." "Wait here." "Fuck." "Hello?" "David?" "Yes, it's me, honey." "Heaven." "I'll call you." "Casper!" "Casper!" "Pure garbage." "Oh, what's that?" "You're a fucking idiot." " God..." " I do not deny." "I do not even speak." "Rebecca!" "What is it?" " What is that?" " The silver!" "Hello?" " There you go." " What?" "No, not avientes." "I can not loading it down." "Takes!" "Fuck!" "I can not believe we have done that." " I think I saw." " Do not saw." "And if so, what does it matter?" "I'm fucking ." "You'll know it was me, my computer is ." "Was not you, it was me." "I thought that you wanted, recover your computer." "Do not understand, Casper." " There will be ramifications." " What?" "I'll be lucky if I do not complain." "I will be a pariah in the department." "You can not get the houses of others." "Hey, what's wrong?" "This is not a simple prank, is my life." "Do you understand?" "There are consequences." "I know you do not think about it, but the rest we have to." "In fact think about these things all the time." "And I hope that everything goes the worst possible." "Probably why so." "Forgive me for not wanting that everything is always screwed." "Ah, so you sleep married to your teacher, to get things started do well in your life?" "It's over." "I'm going home." "Come." "Patrol That should be looking for us." "Good thing you wore the pot." "Are you hungry?" "A little." "Right here you want to eat?" "Tell me what else is open at 3:00 A. M." "The studs 26." "No." "They close at 2:00." "Durkin's." "I said I was hungry, not wanted to get AIDS." "Mmm..." "But no problem if you get diarrhea ?" "Is that okay?" "Between the two things, yes." "You trust me." "Do my half vegetarian." "Who says I'll give you half?" "Yes I remember you." "I know." "Cried all the time." "No, in high school." "We had geometry together, citizenship..." "And works with Mr. Krueger." "I was not much to that class." "Why not say that I remembered ?" "I do not know." "I did not think would like to be remembered then." "I guess not." "I do not want to remember me then." "Is the high school sucks." "I was disgusting." "Yes" "Ah, do you agree?" "I was a mess?" " No, I mean..." " Okay." "I do not even like to think in the damn fool he was." "Yes" "Do you remember when we put together geometry?" "Yes" "That was fun." "Did Mr. Dingle?" "Deringer..." "Dering..." " Dellinger." " Dellinger." "He came to shut up a couple of times." "That was great." "So why..." "Why what?" "Why did not you call me?" "I gave my number and not called me." "Do not you remember?" "No." "I do not remember that." "Do not remember." "Not believe you." "Seriously, I do not remember that." "Well, we had so much fun in class picked up your backpack or whatever and you said..." ""We should get together one day."" " Yeah?" " Was the bravest thing I ever did." "I wrote down my number in the worksheet and put it in your book." "Wow." "I do not remember that." "So..." "A week later, all returned to normal." "You sat next your friend Tony..." "Hated that guy..." "And I felt that I had ruined everything, that was my fault." "I remember you looked cute." "Really." "Alas!" "Heaven..." "What horror." "Well..." "It sucks total." "No." "It is delicious." "Are you ready to go home?" "Not really, but" "What do we do now?" "I think I can think of one thing." "What the hell is supposed to be that?" "That, friend, public access television ." "Come." "No way." "Wait here a second." " Hamill." " Yes?" " We're leaving." " Ah." "All right, here." " For you." " Good!" " Well, goodbye." " Thank you." "To always remember me." "Course." "You look great as well." "Yes" "Here I stay" "Well, thanks for..." "I say, had a great time." "Yes Me too." "Good." "But I will not enter." "Do not remember inviting you." "You're right." "No, just kidding." "No. .." "I did not speak, but I'm not going to enter." "So what are we doing here?" "Come." " Going to sleep in a tent?" " Yes" "Why?" "I can not go there." "It is not my home." "Where..." "There's a hose." "Have you ever entered?" "No, I have entered, but not since ..." "Not this trip." "Not even know why I left the house ." " Perhaps because you are his son." " Yes, but not really." "It was different when I was young, but we did not have..." "A real relationship." "Yes, but it's still your father." "When I went to get ready said:" ""No son of mine..."" "Do you understand?" ""I forbid."" "I reacted to that very well." ""Fuck you, Dad."" "I called and left a message respect that I am a man," "I know what is best for me and all that." "Spend a week, and nothing." "Spend another week, and nothing." "Finally, a year later, I got a letter ." "Do not mention the fight, no apologies or tells me I'm wrong." "As if nothing had happened." "What do you write?" "A lot of nonsense about his life." "What was going on." "I was going to get a prize for his photo '70 and how they were growing tomato plants." "Was like a fucking Christmas letter." "Finally, finally, just blah blah blah" "Sports, blah, blah, blah." "And the last line, I swear to God, saying:" ""Try not to get killed." "Love you, Dad."" "Awesome, right?" "But after a while I decided not angry about it." "It's as if I knew, but was not trying to act like that." "Anyway, what a fucking to act with his son, right?" "At least it was sincere." "But then I have to return here" "Home or whatever now and..." "Ven." "Assumed What should I do with that?" "Do you think I was being sarcastic ?" "Who knows, damn it." "Do not believe it." "Imagine how you would if you handle people this." "Yes, especially in this neighborhood." "People probably spat." "What do you think you've had go back and find out like this?" "What is what I'm finding out?" "What are you doing?" "I am looking for a beer." "No." "I took them." " Where you going?" " I want something to drink." "I will not go there with you." "Do not remember inviting you." "Keys." "Toma." "Get changed his shirt." "You bring your own blood." "Where did you get this?" "The room of your dad." " Did you go to your room?" " Yes" "Did you see all the pictures there?" "I do not know, probably." "I saw one of you as a child with a beret." "What was going on there?" "I went on an art film who made friends of my dad." "I do not know." "What did you do?" "It..." "The younger version of the main character in flashback sequences, everywhere chasing a huge red ball and I never catch it." "I do not know, a foreign film type nonsense." "I liked." "Yes seems that your dad was really cool." "It was a time." "What's next?" "Be stopped?" "He had a stroke ten years ago." "I'm sorry." "No, okay." "After that his personality changed..." "Drastically." "I do not really get this." "Hey, look what I found." "There." " "NO JOY IN Mudville"" " I have it since he was 16." "And every time I see it, I think stroke." "No problem." "That day things looked bad for the team Mudville 9." "4 to 6 Iban and there was only one entry." "4 to 6." "This is what my dad always said." "Most say 4 to 2, 4 to 6 but it does sound as your team is losing." "A kid, my dad" "Was super baseball fan and that poem was very important to him." "We read as a story before bedtime." "Remember that I liked how it sounded." ""Somewhere the man laugh" "" And somewhere children shout" ""But there is no joy in Mudville" "" struck out the mighty Casey "." "But what changed for me to lose?" "None." "My dad left a long time." "This is a terrible way of thinking in things." "Maybe." "I do not say:" ""Fuck that guy."" "I will not mourn because I hurt or whatever ." "No." "My dad was really cool." "It's just... do not know." "What did this have to do with me?" "Well, then" "Why not enter the house?" "I would not go, that's all." "Would you have entered a week ago, before he died?" "I guess I do not know." "Can we talk about something else?" "Course." "What do you want to talk?" "I do not know." "Do not you have tattoos depressing?" "No. .." "Only emotional scars." "Good." "¿I can ask you something?" "Why were with me tonight?" "I thought you were the best way to spend my night." "I mean, do you know what seemed amazing to me?" "Yes, I think so." "Because everyone thought that, right?" "No." "Not all, definitely." "I do not know, sure was not easy" "Everyone wanted sleep with you all the time." "But dammit..." "The truth is that never believed any of them." "Seemed that had more to do..." "Do not know..." "With them and that need to" "me or what I really was." "What?" "Katelyn Gustafson Did you know?" "He went to Southwest." "I do not think." "She and I planned a trip nine months backpacks" "South America seven years ago." "At six months, were camping in Patagonia and we had hitchhiking to the next town, so we picked two types, very males." "We seemed suspicious, but many people seem to be and nothing ever happens." "Total that we got in the car and started to move ." "No one spoke, but we moved , so everything seemed fine." "Then" "I... the driver" "Car aside the road." "Is low, goes next to Katelyn, opens the door and says:" ""Time to pay for the ride."" "She began to mourn and the other guy, not the driver pulls out a knife." "Katelyn starts to get crazy." "I thought it was going to give a fucking heart attack." "Then" "I realized..." "What had to happen." "So I took off my belt and safety I got off the car." "I went with the driver and said:" ""You can fuck my friend... but they can to fuck me."" "And I said "Let's enter the field." "" Both can have sex with me..." ""Then return here" "" and take us to the next town. "" "And we enter the field... and back, and then..." "Kate returned home the following week." "Wow." "I just remember thinking..." "I could choose terribly traumatized... or not be." "And I chose door number two." "You must have loved much to Katelyn." "I only saw her at the time and I knew that... if that happened," "would be fucking the rest of his life." "And I knew that I would not be ." "I do not know." "But do it by someone else..." "I say, that's... that's horrible, damn." "I saw my friend explode." "I was so far me like that bush." "We were on patrol." "It was about three years ago." "We were in a firefight." "Well, not exactly a shootout." "There was a sniper shooting at ." "Three of us were detained in front of a store and three across the street in a house, whores are put through windows." "We shoot at a building, because it seemed that there could be the sniper , and a boy, Swanson..." "Tall, thin, Scandinavian-type, crossed the street to go with us because it was an advantageous position." "He ran across the street and suddenly collapsed." "He was shot in the neck" "And blood dripped like a tap tap or something..." "And another boy, Gino, went for it." "But the street was full of explosives, it reached halfway and then..." "Just disappeared." "I do not remember hearing anything." "I was just there and then was gone." "I fell back elbow hit me on a counter that was behind me and the sensitive part of my elbow it hurt like hell." "So I could not take my gun and was stumbling, banging into things." "Meanwhile, all other were crazy, shooting and shouting, acting as soldiers." "But a few seconds Humvees arrive, collect what was left of Gino, carried Swanson... who lived, indeed, but was quite fucking time..." "And 30 minutes later," "I'm back on my bunk watching two types play Super Smash Bros." "Perhaps that day was not what affected me , horrible things because we saw all the time, but... damn, that day was awful." "And they are all in a fucking in many others, ordinary types, not." "So I keep thinking about this:" "Why me?" "Why me, of the five, which is totally clean" "While others are covered in shit?" "Do you feel guilty?" "What?" "Do you shoot people?" "Do you kill them?" "Do want to do?" "I do not know." "Does not help my friends?" "Of course I feel guilty of it." "Yes, but I meant more a if you feel guilty for not having gone mad like the rest of your unit." "No." "O, well, maybe..." "I do not know, I think that's life." "Some go deeply hurt while others only hit in the elbow" "I do not think that case has really worry about it, because it is life." "I..." "It's a terrible story." "And sorry you've lived all that shit," "But if you feel did not quit so hurt like the others, probably did something to happen." "You're not giving credit." "Should I be proud of myself?" "You have to be something." "Not know what... do not know what that is." "I just know I'm fine." "What's so wonderful be okay?" "Maybe sometimes things are better than good ." "Yes" "Sometimes." "Do not go." " I have to go." " No." "What can I do?" "I do not know." "Fleeing..." "To Canada, Mexico, wherever ." "Swing for sex, say you are gay ." "Do you come with me?" "Then I'll go back." "I choose to go back." "I mean, how much I need, another year?" "I can manage." "What then?" "One more thing." "Something better, I hope." "What time do you think it is?" "Maybe I should go." "Wait." "Expected." "I know it's stupid..." "But do not go." "I have to leave tomorrow, or rather, today." "And I keep thinking... what if this it?" "What if this is all we can have?" "Back..." "Call me." "Say it." "I'll call you." ""When I come back."" "When you return, 'll call you." "Good night, Casper." "Good night, Rebecca." "fidos_nf GT"