"I didn't go to my older brothers funeral, young man." "I wasn't there, when he was waiting to die." "I didn't hold his hand." "I didn't give him my blessing." "But he forgave me." "Not because he was my older brother... but because he had conscience." "If you have conscience... you are scared to kill the ones you love while they are still alive." "You know that to forgive... has something to do with conscience as much as asking for forgiveness." "How is your mom?" "Is she alright?" "Give me a break, will you?" "Get up!" "Prepare breakfast for your husband..." "Fuck off!" "Whoever you fucked last night should prepare your breakfast." "Melik!" "Close it man!" "I'm trying to sleep here!" "You came back empty handed last night, didn't you?" "Inept!" "Plenty of ugliness around of course so you drank yourself to death fuck off, will you?" "I'm off, butthead!" "Good luck to you." "I almost forgot." "You were gonna get me Moby Dick." "The exams are getting closer." "You lost your momentum or what?" "I have to visit some bookshops for that." "I'm gone." "Thanks" "Is that all?" "Are you feeling a bit tense today?" "It looks better but let the boss see it tomorrow." "Where are you going?" "I'm off." "Boss will find a mistake anyways." "I'll come tomorrow." "Put the book back." "The Salesman is watching you." "You rule man." "Thank you." "Beer!" "Secil, the girl from last night she is at the corner alone but there are a lot of applicants." "Everyone gets whatever is in his fortune." "Still didn't get it?" "What happened?" "Nothing, it just seemed strange, our situation." "What do you mean?" "When you left yesterday morning so early I thought we'd never see each other again." "You left early." "You could have written your phone number." "Why did you come to me this evening?" "I didn't say I don't want you." "There must be more than just getting laid." "I know that you like me." "Don't just stand there." "Please come near me." "Don't be so resentful." "Ok if you don't want to talk, we can leave it for later." "C'mon." "Good Morning." "Where are you going?" "To work." "What work?" "I'm a lawyer..." "If I'm not at the company in 30 minutes I'll be an unemployed one." "What company?" "What a curiosity for the morning?" "Cemil!" "Get up and prepare breakfast." "C'mon, your husband is waiting for breakfast." "Three, two, one..." "Are you fucking insane?" "Can I not get laid in my own house comfortably?" "Time for breakfast..." "are you not hungry?" "I'm going to bed, there's the kitchen... go have your breakfast." "The whole neighbourhood is watching you" "At least you could have taken off the condom." "Fuck!" "Has she passed yet?" "Soon she'll show up." "Who will pass?" "Never mind." "Shilan, get in the car." "Hurry up!" "Get in." "Soon we'll leave you at the door of a passage." "Go in." "Ask the guy at the tea shop... what floor Besir is at." "Then follow him." "Do you understand?" "Is it ready?" "It is ready if you ask me but I don't know what the boss would say." "It is good." "The boss shouldn't be a problem." "What is it?" "Please don't lose it this time or don't you get it stolen or dont lie and tell me you gave it to a friend as a present and actually sell it." "And don't tell me that your battery died cause once you charge this, it goes for a week." "I heard about dad's death three months after he died." "Uncle was in bed the whole time for the last two months." "Death was his redemption." "He thought I was dead." "Everyone thinks you are dead." "Newspapers published your photos, reported you got killed." "When uncle heard about your death..." "We were in front." "They stayed behind." "It was like hell." "Three of my comrades died." "Anyway let's change the subject..." "Why are you in Istanbul?" "Are you mad?" "Don't ask." "Don't ask anything." "Serif sends his greetings." "That's why I brought you here." "He wants you to cross the border and go to Iraq." "Is my brother in the field?" "No he is not." "I will take you to Northern Iraq." "Smart, educated, skilled people like you are needed there." "Some things started to change." "We have to walk a different path now." "I don't know what but something is going to happen." "Are we going today?" "No." "I'll let you know." "Say goodbye to everybody but don't tell anything about Serif or Iraq." "No one is supposed to know." "When its time, I'll let you know." "Do you know where I live?" "Should I leave?" "No stay there." "If you leave that'd be suspicious." "I repeat:" "Not a single word." "Don't tell your mom or your brother about our meeting." "The moment you exit this door you forget." "Be prepared as we'd leave any minute." "OK." "I'm tired." "Where to?" "Toilet..." "wanna come?" "We'll start a campaign in a few days." "I'm waiting for the confirmation of the budget." "I want you to be on this job as well." "Now I know why you bought me a mobile." "Don't do it because I won't be a full timer." "Who wants you to be a full timer?" "I just want you to make more money." "For a more comfortable life." "You stay at your friends..." "You don't save up." "You live for the day." "You are a talented man." "I know." "People like me have a house, wife, car, kids, money in the bank a penthouse, a mistress right?" "You forgot stock exchange, they also play..." "I'm not here to stay." "Same story always..." ""I'm not here to stay"" "you keep going to places." "That shows that I am consistent, no?" "Yes very consistent." "Where to this time?" "England?" "America?" "Welcome Shilan." " Who is it?" " It's me." " Welcome" " Thanks" " How is the newspaper going?" " Same, brother." " OK." "Praise be." "You're so skinny." "No mom I'm the same I swear." "How are you?" "Do you still have back pain?" "Your brother doesn't take me home." "If I'd stay in the village a few months, I'd be well." "What village mom?" "Is there a village to take you to?" "Who's gonna look after you?" "I'll look after myself." "Yeah?" "We can't properly look after you here..." "I don't understand what you're saying." "When he is mad at me he speaks Turkish." "Do you have clothes to be washed?" "Your sister in law could wash for you." "No thanks mom." "I'll wash them." "Do you get along well with your flatmate?" "They are all nice girls mama." "They send greetings to you." "Thank you." "Get along well with each other." "Come more often." "It's difficult to be apart from you." "I will Mama." "Do you need anything?" "What would I need." "She takes care of everything." "You don't get any news from anyone?" "No news." "Mom's health went worse." "She always complains about the same things." "As long as she can stand on her own two feet." "One day she won't." "How is Ismet?" "Fine." "You should come sometime." "How can I?" "I hardly manage to go to bed in the evenings." "Send Ismet my regards and if I have an opportunity, I promise I'll come." "Take it." "You may need it." "I don't need money." "Thank you brother but you..." "Did I ask you?" "Get up!" "Prepare breakfast for your husband." "He's gonna go to uni." "Get up!" "Do you have any money?" "Why are you stalking me?" "No reason." "I'm not stalking..." "Are you a cop?" "If you are, do your job!" "Arrest me!" "At least I can find out my offence." "No." "I'm not a cop." "Stop coming after me then." "This is the stuff done by the previous agency." "They are tired of this image." ""Feel like home, we are a family" crap." "They want to make the customer hear the sound of money." "And you'll do the newspaper designs." "How long will this campaign last?" ""How long will this campaign last?"" "Maybe you didn't quite get it." "We became their agency." "They'll work with us as long as they are happy with us." "Anyway, make a decision by tomorrow noon or I'll find someone else." "I'm aware of it." "The guy who was shot in Adana as militia and his wife." "There are two witnesses." "One who got killed is the brother of this woman." "She doesn't speak to any TV or newspaper." "You speak Kurdish Shilan." "Go talk to her." "She might speak to you." "If you go tomorrow, we can have the report by Sunday." "What's wrong?" "My mom is sick." "I can't leave her." "Is she not with your brother?" "Can't they manage?" "I would love to go." "But I can't leave her nowadays." "I can't force you to go." "I'll let you get away with it this time." "But don't whine next time." "Hello, Nazan?" "Fine, you?" "Yes I did." "When do we start?" "Ok, I'll be there." "You got lost in the dark, young man?" "The light went off." "I was looking for the..." "We are all looking for something." "Come in, don't hesitate." "I made tea." "Come in young man." "There is nothing to be afraid of." "I won't eat you." "Come!" "They've named me Ismet." "Do you have a name?" "I do." "It's really good that you have a name." "Don't tell it to anyone OK?" "I'm sorry." "Melik is my name." "The armchair really suits you, my sultan." "I can give it to you when you leave if you like." "It is a good sign that you didn't come all the way and then leave like you did last time." "If you come to my door next time, don't hesitate to knock." "How do you know that?" "Do you hear young man?" "I don't hear anything." "Peace!" "Not everybody hears it." "You have to be trained." "But you are nervous." "It wouldn't work this way." "You have to enjoy this moment." "The other day, I was coming to the door to welcome you and you were gone." "Can we make one thing clear?" "How do you know I was at the door?" "Why does it matter?" "Maybe it's the devil's work." "But one should know to come and knock the door one is standing in front of." "Otherwise you'd offend the ones inside." "You have a story, right?" "But you have no intention of telling it." "No rush, you can tell it someday." "Mankind is such a creature that if untold it melts inside." "What do you do for a living?" "Stop, stop!" "Let me guess." "You are a professor of physics." "No, too young for that." "OK, you are certainly a painter." "You looked at the paintings in the living room and... you said "how ugly!" , didn't you?" "You are right." "I do it to keep myself occupied." "But my poetry is not like that." "I always wanted to be a poet, but they didn't let me." "Look at me young man." "One day I will show them what poetry is." "I am a graphic designer." "Catalogs, book designs, ads, stuff like that." "That's also painting." "You put your soul in it." "Don't you?" "As much as the computer allows." "Yeah!" "That's it." "You should definitely meet Jisabelle." "The woman who brought you here." "Come for breakfast tomorrow young man." "You'll make it, if you're here about 10 o'clock." "Don't leave yet young man." "We still have things to talk about." "Hello" "Who?" "Mr Ismet, are you OK?" "It's good that you came." "I didn't call Shilan's elder brother." "Is Shilan alright?" "I guess." "They will take her statement, as if it is necessary." "We have to wait for a while." "The lawyers of the newspaper are out of town." " That's why I came alone." " I'm a lawyer." "I think they worked over Shilan a bit." "Did they say why they took her into custody or is there any allegation?" "They don't say anything except they took her on suspicion." "Which room?" "That one." "For about two hours." "I'm going in." "We should go to the hospital to get a report." "Thank you for your help." "We are not going to go to the hospital." "Let a doctor examine you." "You don't look well." "I want to go home." "I'm really fine." "I'll be alright by the morning." "We'll take you home then." "OK." "Ismet!" "Ismet, where are you?" "Ismet!" "Jisabelle" "Don't leave me again Jisabelle." "Don't leave me!" "I didn't go anywhere, see?" "My Jisabelle, my only one" "Did they hurt you?" "It has been a long night." "We should go now." "Is that your lover?" "Melik!" "Don't forget to come for breakfast tomorrow morning." "Bring your friend as well." "Tell her to excuse us for this." "It's been a bad night." "Hand your plate young lady." " I just made the best omelette in the world." " Thank you." " Young man!" " Thank you." "I'll go get Jisabelle, you pour the teas." " How are you?" " Fine" " Lets have breakfast." " I'm too tired." " They're waiting for us." " Have it without me." "No way!" "Not without you." "C'mon!" "C'mon my beautiful." "Pass me my cardigan" "Ismet told me last night." "Thank you." "No problem." "Secil did the real thing." "You should thank her." "Thank you so much." "Sorry for bothering you in the middle of the night." "There is nothing to thank." "You're OK?" "I would like to pay you for what we owe you." "You don't owe me anything." "Let's not talk about this." "You invited me for breakfast and that is more than enough." "You are a graphic designer?" "I thought you were a cop." "Did you know that Ismet is an ex advertiser?" "No he never mentioned." "He doesn't like to talk about his creative writing career." "They used to call him a "Shaman"." "Whatever it was supposed to mean!" "See how well she explained my defect?" "And her defect is working at the wrong newspaper." " Ismet." "Let's not discuss it." " OK." "Let's not." "But this is not the first time." "I can't stand that you get arrested and beaten up like this." "What should I do?" "Should I fight the police?" "This war, young man..." "We are the ones to blame for it." "You and I." "Ismet... enough!" "You keep repeating the same thing like a parrot." "Don't be such a snob." "I haven't said anything yet." "What's bothering you?" "You know why we are guilty?" "Because we are all fascists!" "I'm not a fascist." "Speak for yourself." "You are right." "I'm sorry." "You are a journalist." "But law alone does not solve the problem young lady." "We need something else." "Something that'd end this war but no one asks our opinion." "Speak, speak!" "You were born with Turkish from your mom." "You Galatasaray graduate bastard!" "How quickly you gave up being a leftist." "I love her so much when she's like this." "She gets prettier." "Don't love me, I don't want it!" "You know every shit." "Your parents gave you everything you need." "You've been to Europe." "You give advice to everyone while sitting on a pile of money." "Only when your conscience beats your mind, you seclude yourself like this." "Going mad is a class related thing Mr Ismet and you are eligible for it." "That is right!" "I don't want your love or clemency." "Look who's talking!" "Arse lickers of America, unaware of their own actions." " You should go underground someday." " That's going to happen too." "I won't let you go anywhere." "What have you done so far?" "Tell me!" "What have you done except your intellectual nonsense?" "You are my wild flower." "Drop it!" "You think you'll get away with it?" "I love this woman." "She gets beaten up so much and she's still so cool-headed." "OK, I won't be arrested again I promise." "Jisabelle's real name is Shilan." "It means wild flower in Kurdish." "It is a beautiful name too but I think she's a Jisabelle." "The most beautiful of all the Jisabelles." "No one except you call me Jisabelle." "French snob." "It doesn't matter." "That name suits you so well." "Don't you think Ms. Secil?" "It suits her." "You don't speak at all?" "Sometimes" "OK, speak now" "Start with why you were stalking me." "It is very difficult to explain." "You are either not aware of anything or you solved everything and you are not telling us." "What does it mean?" "What is the reason for your following me all the way home?" "To take me to bed?" "Looking for a woman to fuck?" "You won't get anything from me." "Hey, language!" "I have to go." "Thank you for the breakfast." "I'll see you off" "You still have a lot to do young man?" "Little left" " Is this not your book?" " Yes" "Shilan was trying to steal one." "She loves the poetry in it so much..." "I couldn't make her stop." "Every week she steals a few." "She brought all those." "You never talk about it?" "It is a bit..." " Want some tea?" " That'd be healing." "Don't do this!" "Do what?" "Don't watch me." "You're sure?" "I have a valid reason to chase you." "You have no reason." "I love you." "Don't ever try!" "You are an idiot who thinks he loves me." "Don't push it!" "You're asking for something impossible." "I love Ismet." " You love his poetry." " You know shit!" "Do you think I'll lie under you, just because you helped me in the bookstore?" "Why not?" "You're OK?" "I'm OK." "There's nothing to worry." "Come here young man." "Don't sit there like a stranger." "I'm OK here." "Panoramic huh?" "How do we look from there?" "Good?" "You suit each other." "I don't get why we are watching this now." "They have to come up with some shit." "This guy Altan, is her dog." "Everything is decided by that woman" "But whatever she wants to express she makes him speak it out." "He is no one." "All of you remember these films?" "Their dialogues were in everybody 's mouth like song lyrics" "Newspaper ads became cult." "You may ask why we are watching this." "No." "The problem is not the film Mr Altan." "If you want we can watch it again." "If I'm not mistaken we agreed on the concept in our previous meetings about everything from TV ads to billboards." "Now you are going to ask us for a new concept, new text, new scripts etc." "If there is something to revise, we are always ready to do it but if you are going to lay aside the whole project..." "Look, I worked with Ismet for 5 years in the same agency." "No one possibly knows the way his mind works better than I do." "Welcome!" "Shilan, what happened?" "They took me into custody last night." "What for?" " What happened?" " Nothing" "I didn't want to fluster you." "They let me go in the morning." " You were alone?" " Yes" "Shilan, I've heard something." "Is it true?" "Cafer is alive?" "He's here." "Have you heard?" "How would I, no." "Shilan, If I've heard of this, then everyone has." "If the police know that, they must be watching." "They took you for that?" "It's not the first time." "They didn't ask anything about Cafer." "You are not hiding anything, are you?" "No, what would I hide from you?" "I don't know." "Enough is enough." "One elder brother is dead." "I don't get any news from the younger one." "If anything happens to you..." "Please be careful" "Watch your back." "I'm your brother." "If they take you again or any news from anyone I'll be the first to know, OK?" "This is not your dad's farm." "Sit properly." "I almost spoiled it." " Can I ask you a favour?" " What?" "Do you want money?" "No." "You haven't even started yet." "I don't want money." "I want the template of the project." "Give me a few days." "Let me revise it." "Don't be silly." "It is not something you can handle." "Hi there young man." "Did I wake you up?" "Never mind, I already slept too much." "We drank a bit last night." "After you left Jisabelle she bit my head off." "Don't stand there come on in." "What are these you brought?" "Beer but you don't seem to drink." "No, I'll be alright in half an hour." "A bitter Turkish coffee after this and I'll be alright" "You're working I suppose." "Actually I was gonna ask for your help." "A new..." "Is it advertisement?" "These people think that the world is on a bull's horns." "Don't laugh." "I am telling the truth." "It's a show put on by schoolchildren." "What do you say?" "Can't we do something?" "It'd work but as I told you I need to sleep to dream." "The script is rubbish, it needs to be rewritten." "Some addition to the newspaper ads and it could work." "Now..." "I may help you, young man but there's one condition" "Just say it." "I'll accept anything." "Don't just accept it like that." "Maybe I'll ask for something you can't do." "I promise." "What ever you ask for" "You won't tell anyone that I'm involved in this" "Especially to Nazan you won't say anything about me." "With Nazan..." "Nazan knows me well." "OK" "Is that it?" "Secondly..." "You'll go see your mom." "Don't look at me like that." "You know exactly what I mean." "You'll visit your mom." "I don't get it." "What does it mean?" "How else can I put this?" "You should make it up to your mother, young man." "You neglected her too much." "She needs you." "What nonsense are you talking about?" "If you want my help you do as I say." "Or just get out of here." "The last one" "You won't hit on Jisabelle." "She has her weaknesses just like any of us." "If you try to abuse this, I'll curse you, young man." "You hear me?" "Shaman's curse is as horrible as his love." "Now promise." "I know you wouldn't go." "Promise?" "Promise." "What are you doing?" "We'll work." "Come, my wild flower." "We are doing business with the young man." "The Shaman is back!" "You come with me." "What for?" "Behave young man." "Jisabelle is angry." "What the fuck do you think you are doing you idiot!" "What happened?" "Why are you so angry?" "You don 't know anything about Ismet." "He's not OK." "He needs to stay on his own ...and you put work in front of him!" "He short circuits, do you understand?" "He can't handle stuff like this." "He is just helping..." "Only I know what I live with him." "Ismet is like a child" "He knows everything, sees everything and ducks at a corner when he is desperate." "I'm sorry but I need his help." "What should I do?" "Look" "We keep an eye on him until this work is finished." "If something happens to him, I'll kill you." "The slogan should change completely if we want some sort of continuity between the film and the newspaper ads." "The customers love it." "They want newspaper ads to evoke the commercials." "That's why we should show the face of our hero." "Jisabelle is here." "How is it going?" "Not bad I think." "I'm hungry." "I'll eat something." "Do you want?" "Maybe later." "Now I am lecturing the young man about life." "OK." "Have a good one." "Yeah" "You haven't slept yet?" "I wanted to read for a bit." "When I'm in the bed it puts me to sleep right away." "I wish I could be like you." "You are more beautiful like this." "Who made these changes?" "C'mon." "I know you are not that talented or smart." "Tell me." "Don't worry about it." "Tell me if you liked it." "It'd be that well if he had done it." "So it is useful?" "Even the customer will be surprised how we revised it so well in such short time." "I'll take out money for you." "You look very fine today." " Do you have a date with a beautiful lady?" " I'm gonna go to the meeting." "If you brought work again, don't be bothered young man." "If you are here for a cup of tea you're always welcome." "I'm here for tea." "Make yourself comfortable." "What happened?" "For you" "It's not a trap, huh?" "Look what you've done young man." "You embarrassed me." "This is such a nice thing but you don't need to." "It looks expensive." "You wasted your money." "C'mon, it's gonna look great on you." "How do you know my size." "It fits perfectly." "It suits you well." "I didn't know how to thank you." "What's going on?" "Let me!" "Who the hell are you?" "Let me go!" "I'm sorry, mom." "I'm sorry." "Forgive me." "What's up Melik?" " Fine mate." "You?" " Fine." "Three beers" "Your girl is sitting with Cemil in the back." "Did you see?" " Who is my girl?" " Secil" "She doesn't look very happy." "How are you darling?" "Why are you pissed off?" "No reason." "Even if there was I don't think you'd get it." "I have some things to do." "I'm off." "Sit down." "Let it wait." "You don't understand, do you?" "What don't I understand?" "Speak, tell me." "If you could think just a bit, you'd know why I'm pissed off and why I drink alone but there's no such effort in you." "We started a new project and I've been very busy for quite a while." "What's wrong with it?" "I work all day too." "You didn't even call for almost a week." "I don't call you because I don't want to put pressure on you." "But you have a different problem" "What is my problem?" "Certainly not me." "See what I've done?" "That's what you are." "I want to be valued by the one I love." "I want him to be there for me." "It is pointless to keep this stupid relationship." "Secil!" "What!" "?" "Hello" "You didn't keep your promise young man." "A man should keep his word." "Let me speak to Jisabelle, I want to talk to her." "She's not here." "Don't lie to me." "Just let me speak to Jisabelle." "I just want to talk." "I swear she's not here." "We haven't spoken since the last time I saw her in your place." "Wait for me." "I'll be there in a few minutes." "Shilan!" "Shilan, are you alright?" " Where is Ismet?" " I don't know." "He wasn't here when I came." "What have they done to you?" "Slowly" "Shilan, lets go to a hospital." "You are in bad shape." "C'mon." "I need to sleep Melik." "I can't go anywhere." "OK" "Rest a bit." "I'll be inside." "Melik" "Don't go anywhere." "I'm scared." "C'mon pick it up." "Hello?" "Nazan" "I need your help." "What are you doing?" "Checking your wounds" "I'm OK." "Ismet's not back yet?" "I think I know where he is." "Shilan, I'll take you to the clinic of a friend of mine." "They'll examine you." "It might be something important." "Then I'll go and pick Ismet up." "I can't go anywhere in this condition" "How are we going to explain this to the doctor?" "They won't report it." "Don't worry." "I worked it out." "OK" "I need to change my clothes." "What day is it today?" "Friday." "OK." "You wait for me outside." "Is that your friend?" " Get well soon." " Thanks." "We'll go straight to the second floor." "No need to stop by the reception." "C'mon." "Is she to be trusted?" "Don't worry." "She's an old friend of Ismet's." "Murat will be here soon and let us know." "She looks fine anyway." "I don't think there's anything to be worried about." "Is she his lover?" "How could you hide such thing from me?" "I can't believe it." "I can't!" "I actually should cut your head off." "Nazan, where are we going?" "Ismet's brother has a house." "We've been there together a few times." "When he gets tired of work that was where he escaped to." "Hope that he is there." "You go." "I'll be here." "You are late young man." "I was expecting you last night." "Come here." "I have a seat reserved here for you." "We'll watch the view together." "Did Nazan not come?" "She is here." "Jisabelle?" "Is she alright?" "She is." "This house used to belong to my elder brother." "I didn't tell you about my brother, did I?" "We were like cats and dogs." "He left home." "He was with the rightists." "He came home to check me sometimes." "He knew I was hanging with leftists in uni." "We had arguments a few times." "He knew who I was with." "He was giving me advice." "And then one day..." "They put me in jail with two friends of mine." "According to my friends it was him who reported us." "At first I didn't believe it." "But it was true." "He reported us." "I thought they'd let us go in a few weeks." "But the week I went in the prison, coup d'etat came." "I was in trial for organization." "I was in for 8 years." "He had a weird sense of protecting me." "He wouldn't let me notice." "When I was in jail he used some of his connections." "They served our cell like we were kings." "When I was out I found out that we were under his protection." "I didn't like it of course." "He found me." "He was speaking like a friend" "but I hated him." "He offered his help to find a job for me." ""Fuck off you fucking fascist!" I said." ""You sent me to jail and now you're trying to make up for it?"" "I kicked him out." "We haven't seen each other for years." "I was unemployed for a long time then a few agencies called me for meetings." "I started working." "I could forget about everything when I worked young man." "I was making good money." "One day, more than ten years after I got out of jail someone knocked on my door." "My elder brother walked in." "At first I couldn't recognize him." "He was so skinny." "No hair on his head." "His eyes looked like two dark holes." "He had cancer." "He sat in front of me" ""I'm dying Ismet I'm here to ask for your blessing."" "That's exactly what he said." "I who find something to love in everything told him..." ""May they shout my name in your ear in hell I have no blessing for you."" ""Don't do it my brother." "I made a mistake I got sick from the heavy conscience it gave me." "Let us make peace and I'll die in peace." He said." "I stood up, opened the door and waited for him to leave." "As he walked out he said:" ""I give you my blessing Ismet even if you don't."" "After a few weeks he died." "I didn't go to his funeral." "I was thinking that I won." "He died, I'm alive." "A small victory." "One day his wife showed up." "She left a package my brother prepared for me without saying anything." "I didn't open it for a long time." "Supposedly I was not interested in what was inside." "I left it on the table." "One night I opened it." "There were 6 or 7 notebooks full of his hand writing." "I read them all till the last page." "He was telling his little sins." ""The worst sin I committed was the one I committed against Ismet." he wrote." "I was taken in with a friend of mine." "He found out that they were torturing us." "Then he tried to protect us inside." "But it was too late." "One of my friends couldn't stand and died." "The other one was crippled." "But still his worst sin was me." "Now I found out that our death warrant was already issued." "My brother thought we'd be safe inside." "But he couldn't foresaw the coup." "The soldiers shit on us." "Which one is worse Melik?" "To be in jail for 8 years or getting shot at in the middle of a street?" "Getting shot at in the middle of a street or dying in torture?" "I kept asking myself these questions." "I never forgave my brother." "I couldn't." "My sin... my sin was worse." "I don't believe in sin, young man." "But I thought that I had conscience." "I don't have it." "I knew you have conscience" "That's why you have to make peace with your mom." "Life..." "Life is very strange, isn't it young man?" "I can't stand it any longer." "I have to pull myself together." "You look fine." "You're trying to make me happy." "Do you have cigarettes young man?" "Let's go when this cigarette finishes." "Do you think we can start a new life?" "Why not?" "Why not, no?" "You're still young." "You can start over." "But the credits of my film are close." "Nazan!" "Don't stand there." "Come over here." "I missed you." "How are you?" "I'm fine." "Seeing you is always good for me." "It is so, isn't it?" "Like in the old days" "I love this woman, Melik." "Do you know why?" "She was the only one who always knew what she wants." "You haven't changed a bit." "You're still beautiful." "And seductive." "You have taste." "Jisabelle, is she home?" "Where is Jisabelle?" "Tell me... where is Jisabelle?" "We brought her to the hospital, but she's OK now." "What?" "What have you done to her?" "I haven't done anything." "Someone kidnapped her on her way back home." "She wouldn't say who." "Ismet, what are you doing?" "Are you mad?" "What do you mean someone kidnapped her?" "!" " Now?" " She's fine!" " Nothing to be afraid!" " Nazan, we're going to the hospital." "This way 204." "My love." "Are you OK?" "Ismet, take it easy." "What have they done to you?" "Melik, please leave us alone." "I have to talk to him." "We'll be downstairs." "In case you need something." "Ismet, sit on that chair." "What is there to talk?" "We can go home right now." "I'll make soup for you, OK?" "Ismet, please sit." "Listen to me without saying a word, OK?" "Do you remember the first time I came to your door?" "You didn't open the door." "Neither did you the second day." "Third day I just sat there." "I knew I couldn't leave that door without leaving you." "I was so afraid when I saw you." "You were behind the door but I could see you." "I was afraid to fall in love with you." "And that's what happened." "Two hours in private would be enough for me." "I knew you were gonna take me to a different world." "You know what your poetry means to me, don't you?" "I am in your poetry." "Things about me" "When I walked into a bookstore, I used to look for your book at first" "And I couldn't help it but nick one." "Then I used to open it read it like the first time quietly" "I wasn't able to do anything else." "I always loved you Ismet." "I couldn't put anyone else in your place." "I didn't want to." "I know these." "I know what it means to love a madman like me." "But why are you telling these now?" "Ismet, I am changing." "I am not stealing your books anymore." "I can't put you or me in danger." "I have different responsibilities now." "Responsibilities to who..." "for what?" "You don't owe an explanation to anyone." "I know." "That's why I'm going away, Ismet." "I won't let you go anywhere." "I'm not asking for your permission." "You won't ask where or why I'm going." "You raised me." "You taught me a lot." "If I stay, I'll never forgive myself." "If you go, I'll never forgive you." "You will." "You have no chance." "Please don't." "I'm too old to hear these." "But we have to talk" "I have to have your blessing" "I can't leave just like that" "Please help me." "OK" "OK, I won't complain about the newspaper you work at." "It's over." "I'll never mention it again." "I only ask you for one thing." "You pulled my weight." "Give me your blessing." "If we can't see each other again I want to know that you do and will always love me." "Is it so easy?" "Are you really going?" "Shilan I love you." "Give me your blessing Ismet." "Shilan is leaving." "Drive on!" "Shilan, where are you going?" "I'm busy Melik." "Leave me alone." "Drive the car!" "Is he bothering you, ma'm?" "Keep on driving." "Leave me alone." "I have to go." "I'm coming with you." "I can't leave you like this." " Which way are we going, ma'm?" " You keep driving." "Let me get off here." "I don't have cash." "You pay." " Where is Shilan?" " Shilan, there is no one with that name here." " I want to see Shilan." "Who do you think you are?" "What are you doing here?" "Go away." " Who is it?" " No, stop!" "Walk, get in!" "Get in!" "I'll take care of it." "Walk, walk!" "Don't hit!" "Stop Shilan!" " Should I kill him?" " He doesn't know anything." "I told you to stop." "Step aside." "Shilan, step aside." "Walk Shilan, go!" " Don't!" " Walk!" " Go to the car!" "What have you done Shilan?" "I told him not to come." "Go, go." "Quick!" "Hello..." "Friend!" "We are on our way." "There was someone." "OK, I'll take the long way."