"Previously on side order of life..." "Tell him how you really feel." "How am i supposed to tell a total stranger " "I don't even know his name,i've never seen him,all we do is talk on the phone -- that i love him?" "I don't know where she works,where she lives." " it's him." " who?" "Cellphone man." "Are you,um..." "Him?" " you're the girl..." " on the phone." "Will you..." "Marry me?" "Yes!" "Red velvet cake." "I love your choices." "You already picked them out with jenny." "We're having the same wedding." "Trish: abandonment issues,turn left." "If i'm having this conversation,i'm clearly going out of my mind." "You said it,not me." "Dr.ra has got me on these progressive cancer meds," "And i'm worried i can't afford them." "So i am headed for south of the border." "I'm coming with you." "Where are you?" "Side Order Of Life Season01 Episode12" "It says here perfectly cooked pasta is called al dente," "Which in italian means to the tooth." "Throwing pasta against the wall to check for doneness..." " is a myth." " okay." "Well,then,we better throw it." "Sounds like an invitation to me." "Not so much." "So,um..." "So you really cook?" "Oh,yeah." "My mom made sure my brothers and i knew how to cook,clean,and do laundry." "Well,well,well." "Here." "Thank you." "For what?" "For finally coming into my life." "Hey,i have a question for you." "That first time,when i dialed the wrong number,you picked up the phone." "Yeah?" "What went through your mind?" "Well,what i remember most is when you hung up." "I had this overwhelming feeling of regret for not having asked your name." "Why?" "I must have sounded insane." "No." "You just sounded like you needed someone." "So i sounded needy?" "No." "No,that came out wrong." "Scared is a better word." "Freaked out." "That's what i was feeling." "That pasta must be done by now." "Ooh,the beach!" "Wait,i can't believe we haven't talked about doing it someplace like malibu." "Yeah,beach is good." "Wait,listen to this." "Ian,are you listening?" "Hey,hey,hey!" "Torture!" "Torture!" "Wait,is this your up-to-date guest list?" "Yeah." "Why,too many?" "No." "No,it seems right." "Oliver bicks?" "I thought you hated bat guy." "Yeah,well,i had to." "I want to invite rob hendricks." "They're the guys who have offices on either side of mine." "Okay." "Aunt karen." "Good." "And her boyfriend,that's good." "Jenny?" "You're inviting jenny?" "Is that a bad idea?" "You think?" "She's in our circle of friends,becca." "Vivy's gonna be your maid of honor." "I mean,if we don't invite jenny,that would be an incredible insult." "But what about the insult to me?" "She's your ex-fiancéE." "Yeah,she's my ex." "As in excised,as in exit." "Look..." "There is one way to avoid being uncomfortable in all this." "What's that?" "It's actually something i've been thinking about all week." "What?" "In one word..." "Vegas." "Look..." "I plan on being married to you for the rest of my life." "Let's make it happen right now." "I mean today." "Are you serious?" "Yeah." "I am." "We could be husband and wife by midnight." "We'll throw a big party later." "This is a great idea." "Oh,my god." "You want to elope?" "But won't people think that we got married because we had to," "Like i'm pregnant or something?" "No,no,no." "That's an old-fashioned thing." "It's romantic this way." "People will think that we were carried away with being in love," "Which is true,and it will answer the jenny question and about a hundred others." "What do you say?" "Well,i've never been to vegas before." "All the more reason." "Oh,you're gonna love it." "This is awesome!" "All right*****" "And you get a suitcase." "Okay." "Have you..." "Slept with him?" "No." "I can't,um..." "I can't shake the feeling that something is off." "Omyou know,a disconnect with the sudden reality of the whole thing." "I..." "Can't put my finger on it." "Well,i think you just did." "I mean,it's completely different now that" "You're dealing with a real flesh-and-blood man and not some guy on a phone." "I mean,he's bound not to live up to your fantasy." "I don't think any man could." "Okay,so make me feel better." "Tell me eduardo has,like,a single flaw." "It's funny you should mention that." "This last time -- for whatever reason,i didn't notice the first time around -- uh..." "He has this enormous..." "Yes?" "Big toe." "Hence the name -- big toe." "I'm talking eye-catching relative to the rest of his toes." "I mean,it's a little disconcerting." "I mean,we're in the middle,you know,and i'm trying to keep my wig on my head." "And i've got this picture of his very odd big toe in my head." "You know what?" "Frankly,it threw me." "Okay,please." "A weird set of big toes is a very small price to pay for an otherwise perfect package." "You know,it's not about the flaws." "It's about the realities,jenny." "You've built up prince charming so much that" "You've probably imagined every move he'd make,right?" "And then a real guy shows up in his place." "Delayed for mechanical difficulties." "Can't be a good sign." "I'm sure we'll be taking off any minute." "You are gonna have an amazing time,honey." "Vegas is wild." "They even have slot machines in the ladies room." "We could get married by an elvis impersonator." "Not that we'd want to." "But we could if we wanted to." "That's what makes it fun!" "This is gonna be fun and different." "Sounds classy." "Hey,so,can we specifically request fat elvis," "Or is everything there based on chance?" "Oh,there are hundreds of wedding chapels." "You'll see." "And some of them are cute." "They're just like real chapels,only miniature." "We'll find one of those,and we'll make it really romantic." "Miniature,huh?" "Hey,maybe we could get midget elvis to marry us." "Is something the matter,honey?" "Passengers on flight 626 bound for las vegas," "There will be a further delay of one hour." "Hey!" "Yeah,just keep 'em coming." "I am so pleased with your test results." "It's exactly the direction we want to be moving in." " did you hear me,vivy?" " yes." "Of course." "That's great news." "I see you looking at me." "I'm not looking." "Okay,sue me." "I'm concerned about you." "Do you remember what i said about looking your worst" "When the treatment's doing its job to eradicate the cancer?" "Oh,well,then you must be doing great,because you look terrible." "You know,you're the only one of my patients who has the nerve to say that to me." "I want the truth." "The truth is that i'm undergoing therapy that is" "Both aggressive and extremely cutting-edge." "It's experimental,and i'm here to tell you that it's working..." "For the moment." "For the moment?" "Vivy,the moment is all we have." "And as far as i'm concerned,that's more than enough." "Okay." "To the moment,then." "To the moment." "And the moment is right -- here -- to give you this." "Dr,lawrence hamburg,oncologist." "No,i already told you -- you are my doctor." "I don't want anybody else." "If you don't want to think about it as getting another doctor," "Think of it as keeping a flashlight by the bed or having fresh batteries around for the smoke detector." "You have a way of making what sounds horrible sound kind of promising." "'Cause life is good,vivy." "Remember that." "The woman just blows me away -- how she stays positive in the face of what she's fighting." "Well,that's how we feel about you." "No,i mean,but she knows what she's dealing with better than anyone." "I don't know what god she prays to,but she is my god," "I'll tell you that right now." "Beware of idols with feet of clay." "No,she is the real deal,rick." "You should meet her." "You should." "In fact,maybe there's a story there." "Her kind of bravery in the face of cancer " "We have the heroes issue coming up." "Maybe we should include dr.misty rain." "Yes." "It's possible." "It's very possible." "What's up with that name?" "Is she also a lap dancer?" "Okay,that aside,don't you think it's a great idea?" "Sure." "No,we already have scientists,teachers,firemen in the heroes issue." "A cancer doctor with cancer is certainly more unique." "That's good." "Can jenny write it?" "Who's responsible for handing out assignments?" "Oh,wait." "That's me." "It's all yours." "Thank you." "Flight 626 bound for las vegas has been cancelled due to mechanical difficulties." "Passengers will be traveling instead on 893." "We apologize for the inconvenience." "Great." "Yeah,i apologize for your inconvenience,as well." "Where's my pineapple spear?" "Oh,here it is." "It was hiding." "Do you know that mai tai is tahitian for good?" "Honey,you're getting a little loud." "I'll tell you what's not good,though " "The broken-plane situation." "That is a ba-a-a-d,bad sign." "Here you go." "What?" "No,what?" "What?" "We should stay." "We should get one more drink.we have time." "Okay,coffee's a good idea." "Coffee." " bartender." " no." "I have a better idea." "There's got to be a priest or a rabbi or an air marshal" "Or something in this whole sucky airport." "Why don't we just get married here at " "At dickey's brew pub?" "Right?" "I mean,we've got witnesses." "We've got cocktails for the reception." "I bet you we could even get you a couple of those little mini wieners that you love so much." "Come on,babe." "It's everything that you've ever wanted." "Hey!" "Is there an elvis in the house?" "Come on,let's just get it over with really fast." "If you didn't want to get married in vegas,why didn't you just say so?" "You're not an impulsive guy." "Why are you rushing our wedding like this?" "Because i'm so sure about us,that's why." "Are you sure because you're scared you're not gonna be sure tomorrow?" "I've dreamt of what my wedding would be like my whole life," "And it's supposed to be a real wedding,not a miniature one." "This isn't right." "I can't do this." "I won't." "You won't marry me in vegas,or you won't marry me at all?" "I need some time to think." "Lunch is here." "That is so sweet." "Best sushi in town." "Hope you brought me chicken teriyaki." "This is the best sushi in town." "You're gonna love it." "I hate sushi." "My friends don't know,'cause it's against the law to hate sushi in l.a." "I hate sushi." "Remember?" "I-i left you that long,embarrassing message on your cell." "Of course." "I'm sorry." "I don't know what's the matter with me lately." "I can't seem to remember anything." "The divorce has got me so scattered." "Come on." "I mean,a quickie vegas wedding?" "What has gotten into him?" "This is normally a very traditional guy." "I know." "Here he and jenny were planning this fabulous event of a lifetime," "But with me,he couldn't wait to get past it." "Old family boozing recipe " "The bananas have electrolytes,and the honey's good for your blood sugar." "Thanks." "I only wish i had the ability to lift the glass." "Come on." "Up,up." "Sweetie,why didn't you just tell him that you hated the idea?" "Oh,god,vivy." "I just love him so much." "I thought that if this is what he really wanted," "For whatever reason,that i would find a way to be fine with it." "But then suddenly i couldn't." "Maybe i was kidding myself about the whole rebound thing." "You can't be minutes away from marrying someone," "Especially someone perfect like jenny,and then just walk away." "Perfect?" "No." "I think you're still hallucinating on the mai tais." "I totally get why he wouldn't be able to let jenny go." "If i was a guy " "You want to know my theory " "Because,let's face it,i'm gonna tell you anyway " "Ian is somebody who needs to save face." "I mean,his pride was shot full of holes when the two of you came together," "And now he's rushing too fast to close the deal." "If he loves you like he says he does," "He needs to start thinking about what's best for both of you." "Oh,man." "I gave up that great job opportunity in seattle for him." "Was i stupid?" "Just drink." "You made the choice that was right for you at the time." "Well,what's my right choice now?" "I'd go with a nap if i were you." "Hey,come here." "Get a load of these." "What do you got?" "It's your old pal." "Oh,is that matt sutcliffe?" "Of matt and mona fame." "Daddy of baby pur?" "What's he doing?" "Rescuing some kid -- not his own." "He dove off his yacht in the bahamas to save this little boy who took a fall into the harbor." "Good for him." "Are these exclusive?" "Yeah,we bought them for a lot of dough." "It looks like sutcliffe is the man of the hour" "Because corporate wants to put him on the cover of our heroes issue." "That should boost circulation." "Who's gonna write it?" "Jey's already got the relationship with sutcliffe." "No,i'm already covering dr.rain for this issue." "In fact,i got to meet her in 20 minutes." "Why don't you let teddy cover it?" "Hey." "Thank you kindly,jen." "Oh,you know what?" "I've actually vacationed in this spot." "The water's as calm as a bath tub and just as about as deep." "Yeah?" "Meaning?" "This wasn't much of a rescue." "Plus,did you notice?" "Kid's wearing water wings." "No worries." "I know how to write it." "And we could always airbrush the water wings out later,if you like." "See,this is what happens when you skip that ethics in journalism class." "Still got an a in it,though." "I got a cancer doctor who gives everything she has to saving others" "While she herself is fighting for her own life," "And i got to give the cover to matt sutcliffe for what amounts to pulling a kid from a bathtub?" "What's this,rick " "Crisis of conscience?" "Frankly,yes." "Yes,okay." "Some days i have to acknowledge that if i'm not part of the solution," "I am part of the problem." "Well,it's not a perfect world." "Yeah,well,if it was a perfect world, Vivy wouldn't be sick,and,uh..." "And what?" "You're gonna be late to see dr.rain. Go." "I know i said i wasn't interested in moving to seattle,gary." "But that associate-partner position -- is that still open?" "No,no." "I don't know yet." "I'm -- i'm just keeping my options open." "Hi,i'm jenny mcintyre,in person magazine." "I'm here to interview dr.rain." "Dr.rain isn't here." "That's strange." "I arranged this with her personally." "No one is to touch dr.rain's files." "You understand?" "I'll be coming back with more manpower in an hour." "Yes,dr.reynolds." "Uh,i'm sorry,sir,did you say those files belong to dr.rain?" "Why do you ask?" "Do you know her?" "More importantly,do you know where she is?" "No." "I don't." "Are you with the investigative team from the hospital?" "No,no,i'm jenny mcintyre,in person magazine." "Oh,great." "So it's already out on the wire,i presume." "Um,yes." "In fact,would you care to comment for the record?" "We have reason to believe that she's stolen drugs from this very hospital" "That are in the first phase of their clinical trials and she's testing them on herself." "Why would she do that?" "Because,in some misguided way," "She thinks she's helping speed up approval for other cancer patients." "Wait." "Are you with the police?" "No,i'm on the medical board of california." "Dr.jonathan reynolds." "University hospital turned her in to us." "But the federal authorities as well as the d.e.a." "They're gonna be looking at all of this as evidence." "So she could lose her license to practice medicine?" "Well,that's the least of her problems." "With a prognosis as dire as hers," "She's looking to spend the rest of her days in prison." "Essentially she's donating her body to science before she dies instead of after." "Yeah,i suppose you could put it that way." "Now the hospital's firing her,and the university's gonna press charges." "Wow,i guess that bumps the story up a notch." "Talk about heroic -- she's like a kamikaze for cancer." "You know what,jen?" "Let's go all out with this,okay?" "Forget matt sutcliffe." "If we can get an exclusive with dr.rain,let's put her on the cover." "Rick,are you crazy?" "Corporate would never go for that." "It doesn't mean i shouldn't try." "With vivy,i'm seeing cancer in a whole new light." "This is something i can do." "Okay,true." "Does vivy know about dr.rain?" "I told her." "She's devastated." "Yeah?" "Oh,my god." "She's here." "I want to give you my complete side of the story." "So take pictures,ask me anything." "Do you mind?" "Oh,no." "Uh,okay." "The first thing that i just need to know is about vivy." "What about her?" "The drug from mexico that you put her on " "Is it one of the highly experimental ones?" "You want to know if she's in any danger." "She's not." "The drug is dovicin." "It's three weeks away from being on the u.s.market," "And it helps the body use its oxygen more efficiently." "I would ner experiment on my patients." "And with vivy,i didn't see any reason" "Why a little red tape should deprive her of getting a drug she needed as soon as possible." "Okay." "Okay." "That's great." "Thank you." "Thank you." "So..." "My story." "Um,well,plain and simple " "There is a promising new leukemia drug that was turned down internally by my review board." "The side effects were considered too risky to go to phase one of clinical trials," "So i'm priming the pump,so to speak,to see how the body handles the medicine." "I've injected myself to see how high a dose is tolerable and what the toxicity levels are." "But i know in my gut this drug could really work." "Why would you risk your entire practice," "Everything you've accomplished,to experiment on yourself?" "13 million people will be diagnosed with cancer this year." "That's a national epidemic." "Yet funding for cancer research has been cut every year for the past seven years." "Those are some brutal statistics." "What we need to do is create a cocktail of drugs that controls the cancer in each individual " "Kind of like what we do with hiv." "At the rate we're going,that's gonna take another century." "Basically i've taken cancer research and put it in my own hands." "But scientifically,is that the right thing to do?" "Do you think madame curie would have discovered that" "Radiation kills cancer cells if she had been forced to go through clinical trials" "That take a decade at the very least or a controlled study?" "No,we have to think creatively here." "Is that what you believe you're doing?" "You know,all i ever wanted to do as a doctor was save lives." "But what about your own life?" "My life -- what i have left of it " "Is of more value doing this." "My parents never divorced." "They just fought for 30 years." "Oh,that's intense." "They just now split up." "Oh,i'm sorry." "Well,you know,my wife and i,we weren't too great at being married," "But we were pretty great at being parents." "Yeah?" "I hate to think my kids would suffer from any mistakes on our part." "You know,i feel like i've been in some sort of prison the last couple years." "Trying to sort things out so it works for everybody." "Now i'm finally getting out." "This freedom i feel here with you..." "It's pretty intoxicating." "How'd that go again?" "Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose." "Okay,that gives me some insight into your age." "You're not gonna break into song,are you?" "How does that song go again?" "Freedom's just another word for..." "For nothing left to lose." "Yeah." "What made you think of that song?" "I haven't thought about it in years." "Rick: you've got to pick up on the clues,man." "You got to listen a hell of a lot closer." "Why is it always about the guy listening?" "I listen." "There's listening,and there's comprehension." "Maybe that's where you fall short." "No." "Look." "Everywhere we went in los angeles with the traditional wedding thing," "We were faced with the ghosts of jenny's wedding,and i could see that it was really hurting becca." "So i thought,vegas." "Made perfect sense,right?" "Yeah..." "For spring break,dude." "Okay,listen." "First of all,can we just put the whole ghost of jenny to rest right now." "People lose loves all the time." "Doesn't work for a million reasons,but you move on." "Key question is,are you ready to move on?" "I already have." "I swear." "But you're still talking about the ghost of jenny." "Yeah,which is why vegas made perfect sense." "Change it all up." "Snap decision." "All for the best." "If you say so." "I don't understand what i've don't wrong here." "I love becca,and i want a family and a white picket fence," "And she wants all that,too,and i don't want to lose her." "Here's your problem " "She's so into you that she would get married on a sand dune in iraq." "That doesn't mean that's what she wants." "She would tell you anything you want to hear." "Again,how is that my fault?" "So far,except for her loving you too much,everything is your fault." "Accepting that is the key to a long and happy marriage." "And how do you know that?" "Hey." "Brian." "What are you doing here?" "Well,i just come to pick up some takeout food." "Man's got to eat,you know?" "This is my buddy ian." "Hi." "How do you do?" "Hi." "How you doing?" "Have a good night,guys." "Who was that guy?" "That,my friend,was cellphone man." "Vivy: what is it?" "I think he's not him." "What are you talking about?" "Brian -- i don't think he's cellphone man." "I'm freaked out." "You think he's lying to you,letting you believe he's someone he's not this whole time?" "I'm an idiot." "All of this time i was so wrapped up," "Me i couldn't see the truth right in front of me." "Okay,okay." "How do you know?" "'Cause all these little things,they've added up to one big thing,and it..." "Oh,i'm sorry." "What are you gonna do?" "I'm gonna meet up with him later tonight." "I have to ask him..." "Face-to-face." "What -- what -- what is all this?" "Talk about lies." "You should see what they're saying about dr.rain." "They're filing charges." "Did you read the article in the l.a.tribune today?" "It rakes her over the coals." "It is completely destroying her reputation." "She doesn't care." "But if she's allowed to twist in the wind like this," "Then the court of public opinion is gonna go completely against her." "Then good luck trying to get a fair trial." "Listen,i'm telling you -- if the cancer doesn't kill her,this will." "And all the more reason that she get the cover,right?" "That's still happening,isn't it?" "Well,rick is doing everything in his power." "In fact,he may lose his job over it." "What are you talking about?" "Rick -- he climbed out on a limb over this thing." "Why would he do that?" "'Cause he's in love with you." "Oh,no,he's not." "Vivy." "Yes..." "He is." "I mean,come on." "He goes to your cancer support group with you." "He buys you cookbooks." "He is wearing those ugly orthopedic shoes you two bought together." "Vivy,he is a goner " "Head-over-heels,willing-to-risk-it-all in love with you." "What's her name again?" "Tamona." "Hey." "What's going on?" "Good timing." "Word just came down from the mountain -- matt sutcliffe,hero,gets the cover." "But dr.rain will still make the issue,right?" "Yeah,but the cover was the way to set her apart from the rest." "You know,put the heroics of cancer survivors,the patients," "The doctors,the families on the cover where it belongs." "Save your passion for the bigger fights." "As editor,you got to pick your battles wisely." "You know what?" "You know what,teddy?" "You're absolutely right." "I pick this one -- this battle." "I'm taking it to the mat." "If i lose my job over it,so be it." "Rick,d-don't do this now." "If not now,when?" "I've never felt more passionate about a story before in my life." "About a story or about someone?" "Excuse me." " hey." " hey." "Viv,what are you doing here?" "Um,is there someplace we could talk?" "Rick,i want you to know that i love what you're doing for dr.rain," "But i don't want you to screw up your job because of me." "First of all,what makes you think it's because of you?" "Can we be honest with each other,please?" "Sure." "Great." "So..." "What's with you and eduardo?" "Is it serious?" "Eduardo visited twice." "We had some..." "Fun." "Okay,i'm good." "You know what?" "That's enough honesty for today." "But i'm not in love with him." "That's good to know." "That's very good to know." "Because?" "You know what?" "We don't -- we really don't have to do this right now." "There's still a lot to discuss,but..." "Not -- not here." "Look,vivy,wherever our next conversation takes us," "I just want you to know that i will always be there for you." "I never want you to worry about that." "Okay." "Hey." "Hi." "Thanks for meeting me." "Thanks for inviting me." "What's wrong?" "Let's just,um..." "Be honest with each other." "Who exactly are you,brian?" "What kind of question is that?" "Right before you left for china," "You told me you were falling in love with me,you remember that?" "Yeah." "Yeah,of -- of course i do." "No,i don't think you do." "Someone told me,i think i'm falling in love with you," "Whoever you are,for exactly who you are." "And i wish i knew who that someone was," "Because i know it wasn't you." "I'm sorry,jenny." "Jenny." "Jenny." "I tried to tell you i wasn't the guy you thought i was." "But everything i've told you about myself is true." "I'm not a liar." "Just an imposter." "Jenny,when a woman as amazing as you walks up to a guy like me and begins to talk," "It's hard to want that to end." "What,so you just saw an opening and took it?" "Did you expect to get away with that?" "You got to understand -- my life is at a crossroads." "The second you started speaking to me," "It was as though the universe had sent me a sign that things could be good again." "And it was at that very exact second that i wanted to do everything i could to be that guy " "That guy that you wanted me to be so badly." "So,yeah." "Yeah,i went for it." "Whatever brought us together,call it what you want,but it's no more weird than..." "Meeting a guy through a wrong number." "In fact,it's a lot more sane." "Goodbye,brian." "Jenny." "Turn right at le moyne street." "Shut up,trish." "Where were you when i needed you?" "Feeling lost and abandoned,jenny?" "Great." "Great.that's great." "Now you're back." "I suppose you probably could have stopped me from dating that guy,but,no,no " "I haven't had a sign from you in weeks." "Well,i don't know where to turn in my life anymore,okay?" "No." "Oh,no.no,no.no,no.please." "Oh,god." "Just great." "Come on." "Great." "Thanks." "Thanks a hell of a lot." "Oh,god." "Damn it." "That's it?" "She is my sign?" "Where's your spare?" "Spare what?" "Tire." "Your spare tire." " you don't know where your spare tire is?" " no,i don't.okay?" "So sue me." "That's it." "That's it,all right?" "I have had it!" "I give up." "From now on,i'm just gonna let the navigation system take me everywhere in my life,okay?" "Does that make you happy?" "I give up my free will." "I-i relinquish it." "Let's see what we've got in here." "You wanted a spare." "Let's see." "Here." "You want it.you take it." "You take it all." "You take it.okay?" "My instincts have done nothing but fail me thus far,so what's the point?" "There i was..." "Ready to accept brian," "When,deep down,i knew it wasn't him." "They don't even sound alike." "I mean,what kind of denial was i in?" "But that's what i do." "That's what i do when it gets to be too much." "I just grab for,like,things and people and guys." "Mostly -- mostly guys 'cause i can't handle it when i get too lonely,you know?" "Ask vivy." "Ask ian.he knows." "I grabbed for him,but only when it was convenient." "And what about vivy?" "What?" "I mean,what..." "I can't fix her." "I'm crazy to try,but i can't stop myself 'cause it's like,you know," "All i want to do is be the best kind of friend because who " "Who's gonna save vivy?" "I wake up in the morning," "And the minute i open my eyes,i am so scared." "Come in." "Come in." "I wanted to say goodbye." "No." "Vivy,i'm leaving." "I don't want to waste whatever time i have left throwing money away on lawyers or spending my days in courtrooms." "Where will you go?" "Do you remember thelma and louise flying off into the grand canyon to find their freedom?" "Their freedom was in death." "Yeah,but for the first time,their lives were on their own terms." "They owned their choices,and nobody could take that away from them." "I'm leaving tonight to go somewhere spectacular " "Sit by the ocean and drink red wine until i can't anymore." "You can't tell me where?" "No." "No,because i don't want you to ever have to lie for me." "I'll never give up,vivy." "I just want the fight to be on the battlefield of my own choosing." "How can i ever thank you?" "You gave me strength when i had none." "You gave me courage when i was afraid." "You helped begin my healing process when i became sick." "And you told me the truth when i wanted to hear a lie." "Here." "What is this,further instructions for your estate?" "Well,that's a list of my unfinished business." "I want you to have it." "Why?" "Maybe you could pick up where i left off." "Read it." "In no particular order..." "Learn how to play the clarinet." "I don't know about that on plant a tree somewhere it's needed." "Yeah." "Allow yourself to be loved by someone who loves you more." "He's a good man,vivy." "I know." "I'm just saying." "If you let him in,he might surprise you." "Take a photo of yourself naked right now," "Because although i may not like what i see," "In 20 years,i will look back and say,'what was i thinking?" "I was gorgeous!" "' right." "I'm -- i'm gonna miss you,vivy." "I will always remember you." "Ian: all right,forget about vegas." "I screwed up." "Bad." "But you and i love each other,and we want the same things for our future." "So let's just start there,okay?" "I want to believe you." "Then do." "Please." "I really can't lose you,and i'm willing to do anything to make this work." "Ian,you should know that i made a call about the job in seattle,just to see." "It's still open,and i'm thinking about taking it." "You are?" "I'd be a fool not to." "It's a big jump in salary and a very impressive client list." "Is that what you really want?" "Yes." "I think so." "Well..." "Then..." "That's perfect." "It is?" "Yeah." "I'll go with you -- you and me." "We'll go up there together,start over." "Clean slate." "But you didn't want to go before when i asked." "Too much rain,you said." "Yeah,i know i grew up down here in southern california," "But i know how to work an umbrella." "I want to do this,becca -- for us." "Show you how committed i am." "So you still want to get married?" "More than ever." "But i want our wedding to be what you want it to be," "What you've always imagined it to be since you were 10 years old." "The whole nine yards." "Really?" "Okay." "Here's what i would want." "I would want the wedding to be here in l.a." "My friends are here,my folks are here." "And i want to wear the gorgeous amsale dress that i bought " "That you still haven't seen yet,of course." "And i want a church wedding." "Oh,and peach-colored roses." "Not the store-bought kind -- the backyard kind." "Nice,big,fat ones that still have a real smell to them." "Done." "What did you think of that beautiful church in hancock park the other day?" "My dad knows the minister there." "Maybe i could call him and see if he could squeeze us in." " okay,later.i'll call him." " now!" "Do you really think he quit?" "I don't know." "He's m.i.a." "It's not like rick not to answer his cell or blackberry." "I'm kind of worried." "Well,keep me posted." "Vivy!" " vivy!" " i got to go." "Vivy!" "Vivy!" "Will you be quiet?" "Vivy!" "Vivy!" "You are gonna wake the neighbors!" "Remember the last time i did my brando imitation?" "I believe you threw an apple at my head." "That's 'cause you wanted to sleep with me 'cause i had cancer." "Thought i'd make it easy on you." "Vivy,you never make it easy on me." "I know." "Tell me you didn't quit your job." "No way." "I would never quit anything i love that much." "Good." "So..." "Why are you here?" "Just walking around..." "In my new favorite shoes," "Wondering where i'm supposed to be going and what i'm supposed to be doing." "I found myself walking here." "Side Order Of Life Season01 Episode12"