"Sometimes you go around the city,or walk on the road" "You'll see someone in the corner." "He just stands there,but as if he's like to do something." "At the bus stop,there are always some normal persons waiting." "What is this man thinking about?" "What is he looking for?" "Maybe he's looking for the past." "At 6 o'clock on Sept. 20th,1998" "I noticed another guy." "But this time is not the same" "Because this guy is me" "A dumb,unresponsible,craven wanderer." "At that moment,I thought my growing-up days." "In the 80's,my second girlfriend was doing cleanning." "She asked me," "Do you love me?" "I said, Yes." "But actually I didn't know" "Several years later,my future girlfriend asked me," "Where were you in 1989?" "I was in Berlin at that time,on the wall of Brandenburger Tor" "Actually" "That was me watching videotape with a woman in the bed." "Sometimes my life is not bad." "Sometimes.....it's unlucky really unlucky" "Sometimes I look into the mirror thinking about the life of the passed several years" "I'm in my early 30's now,life is going on." "I want you to make a decision." "Don't worry." "Of course" "I love my girlfriend" "I wasn't thinking about other stuff,just didn't want her to leave" "I even want a baby" "Why did I hesitate?" "I don't know." "But I suddenly want to do one thing" "I've to go out for some days." "Go where?" "Berlin." "I'm going to Berlin." "Berlin?" "You are a dumb,unresponsible,craven wanderer." "I think so." "Really" "Learning to Lie" "Ok." "I haven't told anybody yet." "The whole story began in 1982." "I was 18 years old,watching my father dancing alone." "Here it is." "I'll put it down here" "Helmut." "Hi,Uncle Bertram" "Sit down." "I want to talk to you." "Talk to me?" "What about?" "you are going to move out from this house." "Go out to the society,live independently." "Some young men can not handle it." "Do you have some democracy activities at school?" "No." "Oh, you don't believe it." "And,are you dating any girl?" "It's very simple." "Not yet,but I'm trying." "Dear Students," "We are here discussing on public responsibility..." "Thanks." "It's worthy for me to come here this time." "...we will have two sides here..." "Everybody is here." "Let's begin." "Please." "Dear Students," "Today,human culture is being damaged." "We'll know after studying on it." "Atomic weapon is overrunning." "Very little impolicy can bring wrack and ruin." "We return to the past." "We can have clean air." "Though we will lose a lot of energy." "But the mistake at the beginning can't be settled till now." "It'll go on until the future is lost in the end." "That's the so-called future." "My standpoint is that,everyone's responsibility every problem correlative with it,can not be solved by oneself." "You know,make some changes they should be made by yourselves." "What is it?" "My collection." "It's the first,there are ten tracks in all" "What's playing?" "It's La Paz." "So beautiful." "He scared all the girls away just when he came." "When will it be played?" "Not now." "Let's talk about it after arriving." "Where do you get these things from?" "Without names." "This is the music that Schafer used" "I think it's ok,especially when the birthday of the old man." "Maybe we can play it when arriving in Berlin." "Berlin Fisher special performance." "That's right." "It really can not be." "Hello." "We meet again." "Where?" "Very soon." "I saw it outside the window just now." "No." "Just say hello to you." "Thanks" "So does my friend today." "Hi" "Hi" "Have you seen me somewhere before?" "No." "Wish you a happy day." "Seems there won't be any to us." "What do they think they are doing?" "You like her?" "No." "Maybe we can find them again." "Not at all." "We are in Berlin now." "Let's listen to the music." "Hi" "Please put your hair back." "Goodbye" "Hi" "It looks strange here." "Is it?" "Yes." "Everybody listen." "It's 1 quarter pass 3 now." "You can take a walk in the city alone." "We'll meet at 18 o'clock in the railway station." "It ends here." "Do you want to have a drink?" "Helmut." "Where are you going?" "We are going to have a drink." "See you then." "It's not bad here." "Outside." "What will you do after leaving school?" "Me?" "Depends on how's the things going." "Make myself be rich." "What about you?" "I don't know." "Maybe become a politician." "That's what you want." "Thanks very much." "It costs 11.22 mark." "I'll buy this." "Here you are." "Thanks." "Sorry I don'thave enough change." "Then..." "Give me 8 more beers." "As the change." "Cheers." "It's not very right here." "But the ambience will be better during the night." "I can't dance anymore." "I planed so." "Play something else." "I'm going to get some beer." "Play some relaxing ones." "That's all." "It's a nice journey." "Yes." "Right." "I don't wanna go back." "There's the final exams after going back." "What's your plan?" "Studying medicine." "My mother always wants me to." "I don't have other choice." "I wish to be independence" "No matter where I am." "Very simple.Live alone.A small room." "Can I have a drink?" "I still can't drink beers." "I hardly have entertainment." "Really." "Sorry,I've to go." "How is it?" "It's a happy afternoon." "Same here." "I'm thinking about the next time." "Couple days later,Helmut Kohl became the prime minister of Germany." "He promised more jobs,facilitating economy and setting up the Department of Atomic Energy" "His parentage... can not be accepted by the family." "Though his father is very rich..." "You have worked in handicraft industry,haven't you?" "Before." "Can you help me?" "It needs to be done in 2 weeks." "Come to see me." "Help me take a look at it." "See you?" "In your house?" "Yes." "I'll write it down for you." "Hi." "Are you Helmut?" "I'm Helmut." "I'm Jutta ,Britta's mother" "Come in." "Britta is upstairs." "She's waiting for you." "Becareful of the entrance" "Hello" "Hello" "I found this for you." "An interesting book." "It will give you many ideas." "Thanks." "I think your mother is called Jutta." "She's my stepmother" "Is your father here too?" "He's in San Francisco" "Sit there." "The problem I met is, there's nothing useful only a little is useful." "I always confuse there." "The democracy movements in America" "Can you give it to me?" "It looks like propagandize for fascism" "You don't like listening to me." "Yes,I'm listening to you." "It's the setback of democracy." "Like devils..." "Let's put it off." "We'll start here." "I think it's not the time." "Let's talk about it later." "You are so sweet and handsome." "Do you love me?" "Good morning." "What's your option?" "What option?" "Mom." "Have your father told you?" "How can it happed?" "The thing between you and father?" "Kid,you dont' care about it at all." "You can make a call." "Do you always tell me after the last decision?" "Not here." "It can't be saved here." "I can live back in my hometown." "We used to live there." "Mom,I want to finish my school here first." "Helmut." "Kid." "Mother don't know your real plan." "You are grown-up today." "I don't want to have bad luck today." "What?" "It's a so beautiful day." "You look excited." "There should be something." "I'm going." "Goodbye." "Hello." "Hello." "Let's go." "Ok." "Hello" "It's a nice day today." "Same to me." "Are you thinking about why I called you?" "I feel good with you." "Have you forgotten?" "No." "Have you told someone?" "What?" "Last night." "No." "Good." "Let's keep it going like this." "OK." "I think it's good." "It's only between us." "I'm happy when we are together." "Are you?" "Yes." "I'm thinking,that it's raining outside," "We meet and pass by." "But our thoughts are connected." "Do you agree?" "Ok." "Same next week." "We may meet some times in the noon." "Me and Britta" "We met sometimes but didn't say hello to each other." "It feels strange." "She's strange." "Britta and me waited like this until winter." "Are you coming out in Christmas?" "I'll stay at home." "Damn Christmas." "Nothing special." "The atmosphere of festival is not bad." "Can you come to be with your girl?" "Will you come?" "I've to explain it to my parents first." "But no problem." "Merry Christmas." "Merry Christmas." "Everbody is fine." "I'm going out later." "What?" "I'm going out later." "What's so important?" "The party of study group in Christmas." "Today?" "Christmas Eve?" "But you should stay at home." "Can I go out?" "Good,actually you don't need to ask." "Is anyone there?" "Britta." "You are so wasteful." "Look inside the ring." "To Britta Hull" "Do you like it?" "Of course." "But it's not right." "It must be expensive." "The money is not important." "You are so nice." "I'm going to America" "I will go with you." "NO, I'm not on vacation." "I'm going to my dad's home in San Francisco." "Not for the travel." "But you still have to finish that." "But I will go to school there." "And complete my study in several years." "I may go to visit you sometimes." "Good idea." "Isn't that great?" "Helmut, Several years are a very long time." "You may probably meet someone els." "It can't be." "I maybe meet another one." "Did you know someone else?" "I just want to tell you that serveral years are very long." "I don't want to leave either." "I cannot sleep without you." "I'll write to you." "I love you, Britta." "Bye bye." "Dear Britta." "We haven't been in touch for a long time..." "I might have changed." "The time during which I write five letters a week to you has passed." "Four years later." "West Germany is changing, I'm studying German Society and Politics in university." "I've made some friends here." "Of course I will think of the time to USA." "You stay by your dad and perhaps won't come back to Germany forever." "But I always miss your hands and eyes." "I will never forget the Christmas when you and I sleeped together." "Helmut" "Yes." "Helmut Helms" "It seems that there's nothing changed on you." "I'm willing to meeting you again." "Your Helmut P.S." "I met Gisela yesterday." "She didn't go to Berlin and stayed here." "For medicine." "Medicine is very good and necessary." "Have you contacted with the others?" "Hale came to me once." "I've lots of things to do and talk with you later." "It's a long story." "I haven't reveive your news for a long time." "Inclunding other friends." "How is Schafer?" "You don't know that completely." "No, I can only find Mucke." "Your smile is nice." "I feel a little faint." "I must have drunk too much." "It's still nice." "I just have a little." "You also have beer in Berlin." "That's just a little from your bottle." "How is Schafer?" "He's dead." "What?" "It's a car accident." "About two years ago." "I thought you might have known that." "I knew nothing." "Check out." "Please check out." "What's this music?" "Schafer, once love." "Good evening." "This is Schwanf, this is Barbara, my roommate." "I'm Helmut, nice to meet you." "Do you want some coffee?" "Good night." "OK, good night." "Good night." "Good morning, Schwanf." "She's very happy." "She's gone outside for weeks." "I cook for dinner." "What did you say just now?" "Cook for dinner." "I'm now working in the parking lot." "The wage is not much while the work is simple." "Sit there watching the cars in and out." "Sit for a long time." "This life is goood." "I like her freedom." "We have a happy life and Britta always has her idea." "Not the same with her, Britta" "There's no tough atmosphere." "On the other hand we let everthing be." "I'm very happy to be with you for the Christmas." "4:20 say goodbye to your parents." "And come here at night." "5:20 I take you to my aunt." "You don't want to see her." "We go out untill the second day." "Perhaps this is not the real plan." "My grandpa will be kind." "6:20pm we will stay together." "Before that we must prepare for the night." "I invite some Americans." "You know them too, and may be this." "What's the real safety?" "Gift, music." "People gather here." "Playing my piano." "That will be great." "The piano will be boring." "God, you have a slut girlfriend." "Gisela's friend." "I must go." "Is this Gisela's room?" "No, it's Barbara's." "Her roommate." "She went out on Christmas." "Is she want to avoid and in a strange woman's room." "Barbara is not the stranger." "And we are here." "We are the guests." "Gisela's guest." "Two more cups please." "Wait for me." "Any girls will come here?" "3 5" "The beautiful students can be seen here before." "They passed by outside." "You may know them too." "Gisela" "I want say it's Britta." "Have you seen Britta?" "Several years ago thinking of going to Berlin." "And now I'm abroad." "very good girl." "Do you see over there?" "It will be there very Christmas, that table." "The girlfriend went away 15 years ago." "She didn't come back." "He lost much." "He cannot expect that what that girl will be like." "And ask God." "Last time 15 years ago these two people meet on Christmas." "It's the god." "If he knew how to quit everything would be fine." "The girl is great." "But she won't come back when she left." "You think it clear." "How about now?" "For friendship." "I'm waiting for you to come." "Damn." "What are you doing with that underdress?" "What underdress?" "You put the underdress of Barbara on your body." "What are you talking about?" "Sorry, I want to have my teeth brushed." "Thanks." "Good morning, Barbara." "YOu are back." "This Christmas is hard." "Drinking, gift, chidren and other people are wasting time." "I go downstairs." "Do you have something to wash?" "Yes." "What are you thinking of?" "I've got drunk." "Do you want to see a movie?" "Hmm." "Are you OK?" "Not bad." "She treats me well." "But we didn't change our mind." "Sometime it is said as mom girls will forget all the past." "But Gisela won't." "I decide to go to find Barbara." "What a luck!" "Barbara." "Go to have some coffee?" "Nice to meet you." "You heard from that..." "I imagine..." "That's really weird." "That's really weird." "Why will it be like this?" "What do you want to know?" "Damm." "Lies and cheat." "Do you have any interest?" "Are you talking with me?" "Whose is it?" "It's mine, thanks." "I want to sleep with you." "And now!" "No, you must wait untill the next week when Gisela is not in." "I have time in the afternoon." "OK." "PLease check out." "Here." "What's the matter?" "Yes, what's the matter?" "You said you had the time." "Now." "OK." "When Gisela is outside..." "I don't know whether this is stimulation or not." "Let him be." "This is the key." "I'm changing the character in making love." "Change the body position." "I feel good." "There's full of energy." "This is the news in West Germany." "Good enevning ladies and Gentlemem." "Prime Minister Helmut Kohl is talking about the election." "The hard fours years..." "Anyone here?" "Helmut, are you here?" "Helmut" "You have seen Helmut?" "When did you begin?" "You must have drunk." "This is very normal." "This is what you want to say." "I don't know what else to say." "Maybe you want to say something to explain..." "Maybe you say that I don't know you will come back." "Since it has happened..." "Do you love her?" "NO." "How about me?" "I don't know." "Except this is there anything else?" "You cannot stay here any more." "I find a room for myself." "Sitting beofore the TV all day..." "The intercourse between Germany has become more and more." "Some people come to the Hanoverian Street." "The Germany of Democracy shows the belief and hope for the future." "Do you have some change?" "Sorry." "I don't have." "Let it be." "You make me save 5 mark." "How about some coffee?" "Just so simply I've done nothing and go out with this incredible woman." "What are you doing for?" "I'm the sports reporter." "Really?" "Let's go to your house, my name is Gloria." "We can do everything." "When we smoke together, we will think of Britta." "Hello, Helmut." "Guess!" "what?" "Where are we going?" "The damn place." "The contradiction in the selfish family." "What's the matter?" "It's my uncle." "Am I going to say anything?" "Of coure not." "What a pitty." "Introduce your girlfriend." "What job?" "I'm the sports reporter." "Oh?" "PLease have some." "What are you doing?" "As usual." "But this is the noon." "Come here." "Tell me what happened." "What?" "what happened?" "How can you stick with this woman?" "I just want her." "You should not treat your parents like this." "You should not treat my girlfriend like this." "Kid...somethime...you cannot make me decide." "You've changed, kid." "I cannot recognize you at all now." "Wait for being interview here?" "what's history?" "The description of the past." "What's history?" "It's different with what you saw in the book." "Do you have some answers?" "History is a subject." "Your definition is pretty good." "Your turn." "History is . the record not the process." "The process of knowledge." "Are you nervous?" "Do you have anything to say?" "None." "Why none?" "I cannot understand the story in the book." "It seems that they are all the discussion of theory." "Very confused." "Good." "It has been decided." "Other people are dismissed." "Damn." "It slowly turns to late 80s." "No changes could be detected." "I can¡¯t feel anything that is meaningful." "Do you have any interest today?" "What interest?" "You said nothing there for a long time." "I¡¯m tired I¡¯ve keeping busy for a whole week in the university." "Is it?" "Yes." "So what?" "There¡¯s no response." "Then my friend Mucke said to me from Berlin" "That you are going here." "What?" "Then he said" "That I saw Britta" "I saw it in the party, last night." "Did you hear the bad news?" "What?" "You looked pale." "Right." "The Berlin Wall is going to collapse." "I saw it, too." "After that the boundary is open to all the people." "Do you want something to eat?" "OK" "Helmut" "Old pal." "I nearly can¡¯t recognize you." "Come in." "Now you are different." "Do I look casual?" "Your parents divorced as well." "Have a nice meal." "Thanks." "Anything do you want?" "Two pieces, thanks" "What condiments do you like?" "All of these, and pepper" "I don¡¯t like pepper." "Both with pepper." "We are going to celebrate the festival, thanks." "Ok." "Wait a minute." "When did you come Berlin." "A few years ago, and you?" "I¡¯m going back." "And then?" "I haven¡¯t thought of it." "I don¡¯t know." "Come back." "We have work to achieve." "What?" "We could talk about those things before." "Keeping unchanged like before." "Sure." "I¡¯m thinking why I can understand before, but now I can¡¯t." "You are facing problem." "I keep thinking these days." "Thank you." "How about now?" "What are you doing?" "I¡¯m in a car repair workshop." "Just those normal repairing and washing work." "But it feels good." "You said you saw Britta?" "Yes." "She looks different, like another person." "She¡¯s so beautiful." "Do you have her number?" "No." "We just talk for a little while." "But I know where to find her." "Anybody else?" "I don¡¯t recognize." "Ok, I didn¡¯t go there." "Hello, Helmut." "Hello, Britta." "Do you come alone?" "I¡¯m with Mucke." "Is Mucke here too?" "Yes." "I don¡¯t know this place." "Can we go outside?" "Ok." "Are they your friends?" "Not very familiar." "Where have you been after that year?" "I went to sleep." "I found a job in the university." "Assistance of Prof. Mucke." "How about you?" "Where are you these years?" "I¡¯m in Berlin." "Do you have job?" "Are you working now?" "I¡¯m not sure." "Just like this." "I¡¯m thinking of going back and finding Mucke." "Come aboard." "Let me do this." "Is this your room?" "Anything wrong?" "Nothing." "I just want to know." "Are you finding place to live?" "Yes." "Nobody could see the things inside." "Cheers!" "Welcome to Berlin." "Why wines can remain the same" "But people cannot?" "I can find none of those friends." "Can you?" "I¡¯m tired." "Can we talk tomorrow?" "Ok." "Do you still have that ring?" "What ring?" "That one I gave you at a Christmas." "Yes." "Why did you give up?" "How about yesterday?" "No." "But I may go today." "Why didn¡¯t Helmut come to find her?" "I guess not." "We¡¯d better not to mess our life." "Walk at the street just like before." "I don¡¯t know where to go." "What do you want to say?" "Now it¡¯s all different." "I used to see Britta, with various of people." "What are you doing?" "Behaviors before are not very well." "How about now?" "I¡¯m not sure." "Damn it!" "You don¡¯t know it?" "I¡¯ve never heard of it." "I¡¯ve thought thousands of time that I should forget Britta." "And 9 years passed like this." "And no Britta in my life." "After 4 or 5 years I got experiences." "I desired of sex." "For many times I began to think that" "Invite somebody here without making any promise." "I became interested in girl¡¯s personal life," "And I just sit and listen to them." "And then I may meet her occasionally at the street," "But the time didn¡¯t come" "Before I got old enough." "I began to notice those persons with more sense of security," "Those persons who will not make decision by first sight." "And I found her." "Where were you at 1989?" "I was in Berlin that time." "On the wall of Brandenburger Tor." "You are really a tough guy." "With Tina I began to think that I will be with her forever." "We lived together in the second year" "Until we started to discuss will we have a baby." "What happened you went back this time?" "Nothing, just meet each other." "Many people have their own children." "That jerk." "I¡¯m thinking as well" "That if we should do it too." "Let my mother talk to me." "But you also think so, right?" "Everybody thinks so." "You may say so." "I can be with you." "What can I say, everyone hopes to have a child." "I have never heard you talk about children." "I don¡¯t know when I think of it, and I don¡¯t know when he will come." "It is the responsibility of the two." "We already are." "Your arrival makes us surprised." "Your mother knows other people." "Your father is not important any more." "Your father will stay here, your mother will move away." "Will this kind of thing be funny?" "When?" "Tomorrow." "I¡¯ve never thought my parents will become strangers." "and become a person who live on his own thinking." "But this happened suddenly." "I am scary." "All things have become scary." "Hello." "I almost hit somebody." "I was driving at the streets." "I looked backwards and suddenly there¡¯s a man in front of me." "I almost heard the shouting" "I was at least calm." "Take off the jacket." "I walked out and just saw" "There is not much blood on the road." "I didn¡¯t know what to say." "I don¡¯t want to see no child in the future." "What matter with you." "My parents get divorced." "What?" "It is !" "You must make a decision gradually." "I really don¡¯t want to give up this baby." "I am not afraid." "You are." "I love my girlfriend." "I don¡¯t like anything else, and just hope she leaves." "I even want to have a baby." "Why you are so hesitated?" "I don¡¯t know." "But there is one thing happens to my mind." "It is still in my heart." "Now." "How are you?" "How are you, Britta" "Helmut" "Haven¡¯t seen you for a long time." "Can we meet outside?" "May be tomorrow." "Any places before 9 o¡¯clock." "Sorry, it is closed." "You can come in." "What kind of drink do you want?" "Ok, I want 8 cups of beer." "Have you ever been here?" "Maybe." "8 cups of beer." "Yours." "Thanks." "This is the message." "Britta" "Thank you." "Can you take a photo of us?" "You haven¡¯t changed a lot." "I have booked a seat there." "I am sorry to be late." "But I forgot the place here." "Sometimes I forget how to go home." "It¡¯s silly." "But sometimes you can go everywhere a whole day." "822 1:17:50, 0 -- 1:17:53,959 We did like this before." "Bright sweet red wine." "You are always such hurry." "You have married." "And have baby." "Me?" "No." "But you have a girlfriend, right?" "Yes." "I am not sure if" "I have a baby." "And this one also." "Is it a problem?" "You don¡¯t love her any more?" "No, NO." "It is not this problem." "I don¡¯t know." "How can it be?" "I am leaving." "Oh, she doesn¡¯t love you any more." "She should do so." "I don¡¯t know how you can leave like this." "Do I know?" "No you don¡¯t." "Tina£¬ºÕ¶ûÂü" "She is so independent." "I walked into the rain." "In fact¡­" "In fact it is her¡­ baby." "Sometimes when I think of that." "I want to say to you." "I don¡¯t know what I will lose." "I didn¡¯t know this when I was young." "It¡¯s like a dream before." "You look beautiful when you are laughing." "I miss you all the time." "Really." "But I don¡¯ want." "and it is very good imagination." "What on earth do you think?" "I want to go to the places in the past." "I am thinking that I want to see you." "Outside, when you invited me." "I saw it." "We want to return to the normal life." "I am sorry." "I am so pleased to see you." "You love me?" "Tina" "Tina, I have to tell you the whole thing." "and I am clear." "Absolutely I don¡¯t have others in my heart." "I don¡¯t know whether I am right." "But I have made a decision." "I clearly know." "I love you Tina" "You are such a fearsome swagman, Helmut" "The End"