"This is the story of a Spanish boy who wants to live..." "and who begins to..." "Nine Letters to Berta ...Berta was also born after the war, but not in Spain." "When Lorenzo returned from England, having met her there, everything was still the same in the city." "In the city, the young student had his parents, friends, a girlfriend." "...making him come." "Idiots." "When you leave the country..." "It just annoys me not having spent a few more days with you." "Even if I had to work as a dishwasher." "I put too much value on this food, this sun, and these friends." "Thinking back on it, I didn't believe you." "When I got on the train I realized it." "I wanted to come, but I was annoyed that you were still there, with your friends." "Come on, man, bring me a beer." "Don't just stand there." "You look like the pillar of salt in the Bible." "[inaudible]" "I'm not saying it for your sake." "[inaudible]" "I told you last year." "if he doesn't leave now, he'll disappear [inaudible]" "Karl Schmidt maintains in "Die geistesgeschichtliche Lage des heutigen Parlamentarisumus"" "that the metaphysical foundations of liberalism, that is to say, a type of universal rationality, distributed among..." "I don't know if I told you that I really liked the sandwich and chocolate you put in my bag." "I had just enough to arrive." "Just enough for a couple of cups of coffee." " I won't say any more." "If you don't want to come see us..." " Look, it's not that I don't want to..." " It's just that with classes and... you know." " He's such a rogue." "If we hadn't run into you..." "we wouldn't know you had returned." "And that you had become, well, more grown up, more serious." "Right?" "We'll have to learn the "comment allez vu" to talk to him when he comes to town for vacation." "Look how the globetrotter has gotten himself all painted up." "But look, for now it seems reasonable." "At least it seems like it to me." "It looks to me like you've gotten a bit thinner, don't you think?" "It's fine that he left." "He's at that age, you know." "Well sure, but..." "What he needed was to learn to take more care." "No, no, I'm not worried about that right now." "He looks healthier." " It wouldn't be for Trini, would it?" " For Trini?" "At this time?" "Oh, sure." " All the better..." " If that's how he has his fun." "Well, I'm going to head on now." "I still haven't seen her." "...if it would be better to leave so much preaching, so much music and foolishness." "And also, this annoying habit of comparing everything from there with Spain." "It's as if everything here didn't make sense any more." "As if you were the only one who existed." "If it's not one thing, it's something else." "You always have to be so..." "There always has to be some problem." "I put too much value on this sun, and these friends, this tranquility." "In any case, call me if you can't come." "What goes on here, I already know." "Bye." "I also want to give you a hug." "I'm ashamed that you had to learn about my hang ups." "But I owe it to you that we talk openly about everything, without fear, or embarrassment, with complete trust." "Nothing would bother me as much as if you called me a hypocrite again." "Truly, Berta, I'm no Don Juan, or even a good Spanish boy." "I'm in a daze, just like you said." "I'm still not even sure that you truly think of me." "Don't be afraid." "If you just took me as a fling." "If it's true when you say that you miss me." "What did you need to tell me?" "Do you remember me?" "Do you truly love me?" "It's fine, I don't feel like going out tonight." "Just show up before they close." "Or if the most important thing for you was to have someone to talk to about this." "[Reciting the rosary]" "Good evening." "Now and in the hour of our death, amen." "[Reciting the rosary]" "[Reciting the rosary]" "Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners." "Now and in the hour of our death, amen." "God save you Mary, full of grace the Lord be with you... 2.- the family rosary" "I don't want you to be dishonest with me." "After all, you barely know who I am." "And I think the same thing happened to your father." "I'm afraid that when you really get to know me, at least as well as all of your friends there, that you'll change your mind." "That's why I want you to know everything, absolutely everything." "Like I want to know everything about you." "When you invited me to the party at your house, I acted stupidly." "But it was because we didn't know each other well." "In any case, it was a very different environment for me." "Those guys, your father's weird friends, who looked at me like some strange creature." "Their absent-mindedness, their awkward questions, absolutely convinced that this isn't how things really are." "And you just left me there, complicit in making me look like a fool." "But I tolerated it and didn't leave." "And I'm telling you now, without any bitterness, so that nothing upsets us, so that we can be completely honest." " Lorenzo, your aunt is here." " Dear, where are you?" "Cut off from everyone." "How handsome." "And if I don't come here to find you... it's that you're, you're..." "Yes, yes, this is fine." "Come on, talk to your aunt." "Let's see if you can at least tell her something." "Because it means so much for us." " Some kind of secretary you'll make me." " Oh, don't you believe it, you wouldn't even fill one page." "God knows..." "And you could fill a book." "And not just a book for mass." " Really?" "Come on, talk to me." "Let's sit down." " He's here, your little bookworm." "Oh, you're all the same." "And she so cute and lovely, like he knows very well." "Over all, you have to understand my father." "Him more than anything." "I'm not trying to say I'll be a writer too." "But at the same time he's not a simple bank worker." "Not that that's bad either." "He didn't stop being a journalist just because." "He couldn't be a doctor due to the war." "And I know that he didn't take advantage of others like some did." "Even though he and my mother were struggling." " Is this the Osasuna?" " The Osasuna?" " This isn't the Sunday chronicle?" " Sure it's the Osasuna." "Who says it's not?" " My God, man, this guy comes saying it's Spanish." "This piece by your son's not bad." "You would have to have lived with him forever to understand him." "He gives me freedom and forgives me everything but thinking." "Thinking out loud." "Yes, don't laugh." "He's obsessed with the idea that now we're all just materialists and cowards." "They're things you have to understand about him." "He says he doesn't want to know anything that's not about the bank." "That's why he just wants to write about sports." "But in his free time, he carries one of those magazines no one reads." "It's a way of feeling important." "He wishes I had studied in a better high school in Madrid, that I would get some great degree." "That's what he thinks about most." "And he has to resign himself to a small pension the sons of the bank workers get." "Thanks partly to my grades, which aren't bad, but also to how the manager feels about him." "When I was little I loved him madly." "I was fascinated by the bullet that raced by his head up in Le—n, and his cap still has the hole to recall the miracle." "You'll see it some day." "When he told me of the dreams he had for me," "I admit I cried all night in my bed, uncontrollably." "I thought that, thanks to him, I began living, and that I owed him everything." "And at the same time, it made me suffer, I don't know why, thinking of him, like I did, as the greatest man in the world." "My mother is different, in some form." "She must have been very pretty and happy when she was young." "I want you to understand her also." "She deals with her nerves." "The worst thing is the constant fear that makes her struggle." "I just want you to be a bit happier than she is." "More honest... a bit less trapped." "More independent, I don't know how to say it, more free." "If she's just realize that things were different, and boys and girls work together." " Carvajal, Sr. Carvajal." " Yes, yes, go on in please." "I won't be long getting to the bank." "Well, in reality, we're here to ask about your boy." " Lorenzo, come on out." " Oh, yes, of course, we'd also like to say hello to your parents." "Come in, have a seat Come in, please." " Be so kind as to wait." "My wife is coming out." " Oh, Lord, don't go to any trouble." "Tell them it will be quick." "We just want to say hello." "How embarrassing, I had to come to the house to see you." "Are you sure you didn't stop by to see him." "And the boy?" " Young man, hello!" " Run, go look out the front window." " Have a seat, Jer—nimo." " Let's see this calamity, who when the wind blows..." " Hi, dad." " Hey, the big man." "Attention!" "One moment!" "Quiet!" "The godmother of this famous university will now speak to us." "Godmother of the students, and of the university!" "Well, in reality I didn't continue my studies after high school, and as I will be getting married soon..." "It's just that..." "Not taking care of your own affairs..." "I brought it with me to see what you think." "They're just a couple of poets of resistance, but listen..." ""A Spaniard you come into the world, God watches over you, one of these two Spains will freeze your heart." ÐAntonio Machado." ""With my greatest friendship and hope." ÐJosŽ Caballeira." " Hey, do you know that name?" " Machado?" " No, that's the poet." "The other one." " Caballeira?" " Yeah, JosŽ Caballeira." "Caballeira?" "Caballeira?" "Wow." "We've all gone crazy." "You're getting there." "Sister!" "Sister!" "Open for me!" " What do I do now?" " It's ok, I'm opening it." "I'm going crazy." "Go away, go away." "It had to be you, my God, always the last one." "And they complain that mother doesn't have the patience of a saint." "3.- under the shadow of golden stones" "They're going to leave me a camera, and I want to take the photos myself so that, even if they're defective you can get a sense of how it is here." "And one day you can experience it yourself." "You're going to see what it's like to wander through the old streets, in the streets of my neighborhood." "Walking slowly among convents and houses from the 16th century," "...and the goats who wander thorugh." " The worst are these disrespectful kids." "I was tight as a drum in the cathedral." "Sure, grandmother..." "Good afternoon." "It's nice to imagine yourself living centuries earlier, just like your father describes in his book." "Feeling proud that everything goes on." "Well, I don't know." "I see you coming with your evil smile." "And your cold-hearted reason that barely knows what it's like to feel the sun and to hear church bells." "Benito!" "Benito!" "PENSION CASTILLO Come up." "Don't be silly, come down, it's nice out." "Why didn't you go to class yesterday?" "No..." "I've started to take my studies seriously." "Come on, man, come down and we'll take a walk around town." "Don't insist, it'll end up something else." "It's what always happens." "And also they want to kick us out." "And I have a cold." "Are they there?" "But, what do you want me to do, Berta?" "I get worried that I don't worry about anything," "I don't do anything." "I'm not able to do anything but dream and think about us." " Hi." " Been waiting long?" " Oh, just a little bit." "Did you got to mass?" " I'm going tonight." "Have your parents come?" " I think they're coming after they eat." "What should we do?" " I don't know." "Whatever you want." " I'm not sure, you tell me." "Whatever, it makes no difference to me." " Well..." "let's go somewhere." " Where?" "I'm not sure." "It's that at this time..." "How should I know?" "Well, think about it." "We're not going to just wander around like a couple of fools." "I brought the camera." "Are you really going to mass tonight?" "I want you to see the river between the poplar trees, with the nice light." "It's a great place for lovers." "Convince yourself that, outside of books, this really exists." "That in this very place of the Celestina and Lazarillo de Tormes, and Cervantes and Fray Luis, those characters who fascinated me when I was young and wanted to be a writer." "I've been reading your father's essay about the Golden Age." "From here it's clearer." "There's no need to mentally reconstruct the scenes." "There's still the cross where the Inquisition judged the Jews and heretics." "And where I came so many times to play." "But it does me no good, I have to go see it myself." "Completely alone, Berta, my Berta." "With you so far away." " A bad cold." " A compress, Sor Virginia." " Congested." " A compress, Sor Virginia" "And all of a sudden it comes on like a depression, like disgust, like a need to leave here..." "to wherever." "There's nothing that fulfills me." "I don't desire anything." "I don't know what I'll be in the future, if I'll be worth anything." "What's the point of getting used to living here, the daily routine, with no incentive, like in the corner of a stalled planet." "Conforming to the old, foreign rules that won't help us live better." "Keeping and respecting customs that I don't participate in, and don't help me." "At the very least I need someone who could understand me." "That I could talk to about you, to explain what you're like." "How it's incredible that you haven't even visited your homeland." "4." " The Night" "And so, more or less, we see the idea of humanism, and its ultimate considerations." "Come here, we'll introduce you to the professor." "To say that the others haven't realized that it was a very bad day." "The things that occur to you." "For me it's a pleasure." "Believe me, don Alvaro, you know how much interest I've had in coming." "I really wanted to meet you and talk with you all." "There we lose the perspective." "Because of this, this long trip has been worth it." "And you are all very young, from what I can tell." "In reality, time doesn't pass in vain." "Great, it had to be like this." "They're breaking with manners, that's true." "Look, Lorenzo, look who just showed up." "No?" "In the end, we..." "No, I can't agree, Don Alvaro, it was I who needed your agreeable company." "But no." "The professors today aren't even paid what they used to be." "Look, it's not that we lack, but we also can't complain." "You could say that we earn..." "Ha, ha, ha, of course when..." "Of course if we tear out your tongue you'll tell us more." " But he doesn't want to talk." " Sure, and he'll be tired already." " Or he can't." " A bit of everything, you'll see." "It's nothing, take care." "You should have heard what they say in London, those guys." "Of course they're a special case." "It makes them mad that we're living here." " They're not convinced it's not like they left it." " And after, no one knows you when you go back." "Even if you drive a nice car." "They seem like people in a sci-fi movie." "I'll tell you who remembers in 3 or 4 years." "In Vitigudino or in Pe–a Tesnugues." " And if not, then on time." " Bundle up, with this weather." "Oh, this Castilian cold doesn't kill." "But of course, time doesn't pass for nothing." "It's true, and today is a new day with new realities." "You also have rights, take advantage." "For those of us who left the country, it feels like what happens to the astronauts." "Something similar." "The struggle to always contemplate these higher spheres, we end up disconnected from the real earth, and eyes that don't see..." "Enough of your stories." " All the spirit monumental elegance of the Renaissance." "[Inaudible]" "What you have to do is work." "That's how my father is the entire year." "And you think they don't work?" "Huxley says that when..." "we see our old cathedrals from another dimension, another perspective." "In that last room." "So many hours of talking, hearing his endless speeches, learning of his great curiosity about everything, filling us with suggestions." "That's how he wrote his best books." "It's difficult for you to imagine now..." "He's a strange man." "At his age, something beats him down." "He made us pass a night I'll never forget." "And it was now that I needed him." "I'm worried about my father." "He's been wanting to fight with me for a long time." "Earlier he asked for my opinion about the magazine, and he liked to hear that I liked it." "Now that he doesn't dare, he just leaves it around and sees if I pick it up." "But is it fair that I lie to him, since he's so much older than me?" "The best thing, of course, would be to help him like you do, fixing the errors in his writing and discussing them with him, or agreeing." "What I see now is that I'm going to have a heart attack." "I'm not well." "After all, look at this one." "I'm very sorry, but I can't buy a Packard." "Well, at least a 600." "And thinking that from there they carried out the conquest of the Americas, and that all that came from here was the theologians of the Counterreformation." "Salamanca, like Cervantes said, bewitches you with a desire to return, in all those who have lived there." "You have to realize what it's like to live in this city." "What a beautiful city." "Listen, listen please." "Do you happen to know Caballeira?" "Caballeira?" "Are you referring by any chance to Pepe Caballeira?" "Caballeira, well yes." "It's that he's now in London." "I've been to his house." "I've read his most recent book." "Caballeira." "But how could I not know him." "Look at the fineness of this joint." "Not even Italy has places that compare." "Oh, yes, it's beautiful." "He's a surprising man." "Just a few days ago I wrote a review on his latest book." "It will soon appear in the journals." "You should also meet him." "The best thing of his is a very notable study on the Celestina." "Well, but, wasn't his latest book a manuscript on poetry in exile?" "We lived together in Madrid, in the residence hall." "He's a bit younger, well maybe more than a bit." "I liked him a lot." "He wrote me when he heard they invited him to Harvard." "He's a tireless worker, he takes a lot on, one of those really open people." "You all make me jealous, believe me." "Living in this oasis." "There are few left in the world." "You're correct." "Enjoy it." "If you only knew how much I missed this." "It's been a surprise like you couldn't imagine." "They say when you were young you were ugly, but very sweet." "Good night." "So the professors here go to bed at this hour?" "5.- one sunday afternoon" "Look at the reflections of the water and the smoke of the house." "The same trees, like Rafaela says." "That's enough, leave him alone." "Lorenzo, I don't know if you'll like the soup." "But there was a fresh cod fish, which is Teodoro's favorite." " We'll see how much you forgot." " It's not bad, the painting's not bad." "They took me to the mountains with my uncle for vacation." "They have houses there." "You'll like meeting them." "They're irresistable." "The same words, year after year." "What food they like, about the pigs and the chickens, and how everything is bad for her liver, and how they like seeing the bull fights, or going to the fields to read the newspaper under the oak trees, just the two of them." " You'll be just like your father." " A little daring, eh?" "Why do you all get so involved with Alfonso Paso?" "You'll laugh at us, say I'm old fashioned, but I don't know." "I fear that this one with end up following the same path as that Mateo." "I think you're also worried about Laura." "Do you talk much with your father?" "You don't taste one like this every day." " They sent me this specially from our harvest." " Come on, boy, it's time you saw for the extraordinary ones." "It goes straight down, eh?" "Teo, turn on the tv, it's time for the news." "You've got a lot to tell me about." "Don't be distant, you're worrying your mother." "How could I have found music so late?" "In my house we have an old piano that my mother used to play." "But Felipe..." "My throat is dry." "Bring me something, even just a ginger ale." "You and I will also have a well furnished home." "With a good library, records, even just a quiet, warm corner where we can be comfortable." "And have friends over." "Of course, Benito's situation is the worst, he has to keep changing from room to room." " Cards, how many do you want?" " Three." " Three." " But are Isidro's children so old?" "Like you see, and he can reed pretty well." "But this one will go farther than his father." "Oh sure, but he's one of the older students from the suburbs." "And my wife already knows you, sir." "Don't be so formal with him, he's just a boy." "Are you paying attention to our game?" "Let's see what you can do with two." "Though at a glance, you look..." "Sometimes I think you don't understand me." "But from over here things look so different." "I know you'll say that this isn't what you want." "That we have to aspire to more." "That adapting to this type of life is like living partly dead." "Announcer:" "Tono doesn't yield to Oregui." "Announcer:" "Oregui, who has the ball, has had a marvelous campaign." "Announcer:" "When Ulazia took his place, also Ulazia..." "But in the end, I want this for my father's sake." "If I had to live here forever, why not live like them?" "It must also be nice to just let yourself go, not worry about anything, just get used to the daily coffee and cigar." "But they spend every week watching their money, or knitting, or meeting with everyone until really late." "Or just not mentioning that they are sick of their wives, or something like that." "And things won't be like that for us." "I've gotten sick of pretending to enjoy these stupid rituals, when we could just eat and drink well, like Teodoro and Rafaela." "I don't know, I'm a bit confused." "It's just that... we don't have to want anything different." "And I think in the end..." "well, I'm not sure." "I don't know exactly what I want, when I think about it. [Soccer on television.]" "[Soccer on television.]" "Andrea." "Andrea." " Who's this Caballeira guy?" " What do you mean this Caballeira guy?" "It's not a big deal." "I'm just asking who is Caballeira." "I don't know, some girl I knew there." "I thought you knew." " I don't think that's..." " Ok, enough of this." "I'm asking about him." "Seeing if you know." "Well, he..." "I don't know with your father." "Well, what do you say?" " Is it because he's your father?" " It doesn't matter to you." "Thinking you know more than your parents." "But how wrong you all are over there." " You'll deal with the consequences." " Yeah, consequences." " Lorenzo, Mrs. Encarna is here." " It's fine." "Let's see this young man." "How were things with your aunt and uncle?" "Come on, tell us." "Did she write you?" "Bad news?" "Come on, don't be like this." " Talk to her." " Your mother already told me what you have accomplished." "And be careful around those guys." "It would be funny if my name appeared in the newspapers." "The two Spains..." "They're going to America." "I'm getting ready." "It's just to Puerto Rico." "[Inaudible]" "They've hired her father at the university." " Does your stomach hurt when you drink wine?" " I'm not sure." "When I drink that's how I feel, like my body hurts." " I've started to feel this sharp pain." " Well, me, they just say I make up nonsense." "And I do, really." "And the old man just gets riled up." "He's got a fly buzzing behind his ear." "They should think about it more, because with how he is, it bothers me..." "But wasn't he happy about your article?" "I'm not sure." "He's made me feel like a fool." " That's what he needs." " He just opens his mouth to..." "I don't know what horns have stuck him." "He'd have to be born again." "You're also stubborn." "I just don't know how you deal with it." "How I deal with it?" "Deal with being like a slave to the bank, or writing stupid articles?" "Leave if you don't want to deal with it." "Only because of a sense of faithfulness... and good customs, and service, and discipline, and celestial music." "I'm getting cold." "With Julita, after doing so much, I don't remember seeing you." "So what do you want?" " Do you want some sausage?" " No." "Here you have to put up with things." "Tolerating things is how you survive." "It's what you do." "No gifts or deals." "Didn't I tell you?" "I called her." "It's just, in the end you're luckier if you're a fool." "If I had money..." "If I had money, everything would be different." "All for some and none for most." "I'm not sure why Communism doesn't take over." "When I finish, I'm going to resist, and live." "Why worry, if one's just going to die of starvation their whole life." "Or do you want them to treat Julita like you treat your girl?" "I truly love Julita." "I just do." "She's not just a fling." "That's one thing, but this is different." "It's not that I don't have standards, but I prefer things like they are." "What annoys me most is her mother." "I can't deal with it." "She hangs up the telephone on me." "Is she just a conceited old witch?" "Damn, you too, how terrible!" "It's not strange to me that they're fed up with you." " Come on, let's go wherever." " Don't be a pain." "You don't have anything?" "Anything at all?" "The stamp that I kep to put on the card for my father." " If it's worth enough..." " Get your coat and let's go." " Here you just rot." " Are you crazy?" "Where are we going without money?" "And at this time, and on Sunday." "Going through the plaza, showing off." "We might be better known than Tato." "Let's have a drink." "I have something." "And instead of mailing the card, we could fry up some asparagus." "See if drinking..." "And they know us in the Tropicana." "But what if the stuck up girls are there?" "I'd just rather stay in and study." "Come on, man, don't be a pain." "We're a couple of idiots." "Well, I'm going at least!" "Well, then, it's that..." "And you..." "Don't bother." "We'll she if she finally splits and leaves me alone." "It's strange to me that she put up with this without saying anything." "And later they come telling me stories." " In the congregation they put on one by Marisol." " No one in this country thinks." "Or in any country." "And my name, fine." "Hey, Lorenzo, can we go out now?" "They say it's not bad." "I think the Brazilian is nice." "This just comes to me." "It's silly." " Just being silly." " Is the game over?" "Spain was winning." "6." " The Excursion." "I haven't been able to refuse seeing these shows my cousin organizes, since she knows I ran the movie projector in high school." "They wanted me to dress up in a costume." "And for me to learn some poems by Gabriel y Gal‡n." "Everyone to the school, the function will continue there." "Ladies, please go to the dance, where they will hold an interview." "Oh, this skirt they gave me." "It's terrible." "ÐCome on, let's go." "Attention!" "Attention!" "One moment please!" "All right, go on, it's ok now." " Come now, by God, don't be embarrassed." " Go to school and play til it's light." " The kids can go with you." " Such good children!" " Didn't the teacher say to school?" "Well, to the school." "Ð Customs, popular songs..." "When this comes to light..." "It's been one of those ugly afternoons, just unlucky." "They're going to do some things we know, and that you can suffer through." "Oh, but this is nothing." "Don't worry." "This little machine doesn't do anything." "Nothing at all will happen." "Let's talk, ma'am." "But what will we talk about?" " I'm a bit nervous." " It's ok, come a bit closer." "Look, don't be nervous." "It's just, we're making a record of provincial romances." " What romances will we recite?" " Well, a lot of them." "The cold isn't good for me, or the wine, I don't know." " What do you think of this?" " One sip." "I feel a weight in my stomach." "I've felt it for a while." " Do they still want to?" " Luisito sometimes does." "Well a bit less, because they're late, as everyone comes and goes." "Oh, you're all wet." "Come have a glass of wine, my treat." " They're coming from the movies." " Yeah." " What's the movie?" "It's with Sarita Montiel." "It just needs some dancers showing off their legs." "What a naughty man." "Two red wines, and some ham, the one you usually have." " We just have sardines and anchovies." " Ok, that's fine." "Hey, call the manager over here!" "And everyone else!" "Let's have something, my throat is dry." " What do you want to drink?" " Red wine." " Two red wines, please." " Right away." " How's the table wine?" "They just came to tell Sr. Lucio... and we hope that the movies will be shown soon." "It's probabaly that the cables got wet from the storm last night." "And now, these nice pictures will entertain us and make us laugh... singing, and telling us funny jokes." "Ok, they can start whenever." "This isn't exactly like England, is it?" "I still can't forget about those friends of yours at your house, Berta." "Or of your great library." "Of the course on Spanish mystic poetry that your father will give in Puerto Rico." "And how much money they'll pay him." " I have a surprise for you." " Don't give it away." "You're all I want, especially after all of this." "The only thing missing is that you love her a little more." " That's what it's about." " But Trini, I didn't know you were a Celestina." "No, stop that nonsense." "I'm being serious." "You don't have any right to treat a girl like that in that way." "Poor thing, right?" "And she has no one that cares for her." "And yet, not being foolish with the other one, which is crazy." " And?" " Well, God knows how to act." "Dont' be crazy." "I'm not old-fashioned, you know I have lots of experience." "I coulnd't care less what you do with the foreign girls." "But when it comes down to it..." "[Singing] Sad and alone, Fonseca is all alone." "[singing] Sad and crying, in the school." " They're here." " Hey!" " Where were you, making us wait?" " Hi, Celia, come in." "There they are." "I thought you weren't coming." "It's been a trek." "I thought we'd flip over on the road." " How's it going?" " Oh, this is so nice." " What do you think of the surprise?" "Didn't I tell you?" "I'm going." "You were worrying me, eh?" "No problems?" "With whatever..." " Why didn't you say you were coming?" " They were coming to find me after dinner." "It true, there isn't much sightseeing to do around here." "Well, if you'd rather stay with them, it's fine with me." "Sure, especially with that Jer—nimo guy, we get along great." "It's been all about your cousin, she's wants so much attention." "And also I don't know when we'll arrive." " I don't know what you'll think of this." " What I'll think?" " She's the one who dragged me into this." " They'll get into some kind of trouble." "I came without permission." "It's that your cousin is..." "Lorenzo!" " Lorenzo!" " Where could they be?" " We're going now." " Quite, my dear." "It's just that it's light out and we'er still waiting." " Pardon me." " But have you seen, Lorenzo?" "From tomorrow, bedtime is at the proper hour." "If not, the electricity will be wasted." "The same as always, Berta." "Now they've started up with the rules when we were young, gettting up at 6 to study." "The things that are proper for young gentlemen, and all that." " Lorenzo, turn out that light." "Or go write under the streetlamps." "At least then we could go to sleep." "Go on, woman, go on." "You be quiet, too." "And since here the dear lady is not responsible..." "He's going now, ma'am." "If I could just talk to him calmly." "And honestly." "Goodbye for now, Berta." "My Berta." "I love you a lot." "I want to give you a kiss." "You're all I have." "7.- imperfect preterite" "No studies tonight." "Tonight is for a celebration." "Jesus, we've arrived." "Father, and what are the nuns going to feed us?" "Yeah, yeah, you're just joking around." "This is all so different." "Very nice." "And if it weren't for me, how would you have come to Madrid?" "It was in ABC." "Welcome, everyone." "Let's see if they put..." "Above and below we have to climb stairs." " Good day, father." "...in any case..." " Hi." " Hello, good day." "Hey, there's G—mez and Pel‡ez..." "First of all, we're going to visit the man of the house, who's waiting for us." "Come on, follow me." "I just feel like I won't hear from you until I come back." "Keep writing to me." "Nowadays, I'd like more than anything to be near you and talk to you." "You can't deny that this type of Christianity must be extraordinary." "The idea of a good and understanding God, without any inquisition, without fear, without vulgarity." "Talking directly to God, without any fancy words." "Asking on behalf of you..." "and that we can communicate through Him." "That nothing bad happens to you, that you won't leave me." "I envy the peace of Benito and of everyone else." "Why am I not scared of Hell and death, like when I was young?" "Looking back, maybe it's from not displeasing this good and tormented man, who I thought so highly of in high school." "Or for thinking that I was closer to you." "A meeting has shown me the filth I found myself in..." "Your way of dealing with those problems shows me that you are sincere and incapable of treating anyone poorly." "I'm happy to hear you talk so excitedly about John XXIII and of the council." "I also don't want to think about it more, and I'm not ready to." "Really, Berta, if I'm a Catholic, it's not just because my parents are, or because I spent so much time in a religious high school, believe me." "If your parents hadn't had to leave and you lived here, we could call each other on the phone." "It wouldn't be long distance." "You're committing some terrible sin." "I'm living it." "Quite, the father is coming." "I'd even see your house from here." "This anxiety keeps pressing against me." "Why would I be dishonest with you, I've slept badly." "This stomach pain has come back, and I don't know why." "It worries me." "Could you rise to a divine grace, purely through reason, or through cold and hollow philosophy?" "And we will draw conclusions clearly and cleanly." "I like things that are not deceitful." "Like they feel about God." "And if not, then Freud can come explain the origins of man through his complexes." "Frauds, they'll say, and rationalizations, hallucinations." "But they'll explain to us, with their naturalist explanations, what human life is, its pain, its light." "How empty science seems to me... before all greater reality." "And above all, how little it's worth for us to believe, to move our hearts." "If faith doesn't help you, you can go looking for trouble." "Don't just move in circles." "It's a question of believing humbly for goodness, or not believing, of saying yes with your eyes closed, or closing them." ""An intellectual is always at the risk of losing his soul from an excess of desolate knowledge."" "Towers of pride." ""I don't want to know more that what should be known," said Saint Paul." "And I had the absurd idea that I would find you." "I've started walking around stupidly, always among unkonwn people, without any destination but that house where you should have been born and lived." "I wanted to see that it really existed, forgive me for being so naive, paying attention to everything so I can tell you about it later." "And then it turns out that I don't want to tell you anything." "You can tell your father that everything here is the same, but that it's changed entirely, that there's no sign of shrapnel, or any sign that there ever was." "That around here no streetcars pass, that his apartment building has been turned into offices." "And I realize that I don't know how terrible it must have been back then." " Here he is." " Shit, my friend Lorenzo!" " How sharp you look, my friend." " Hi, Jacques, how are you?" "Some day, I told myself, I need to see my friend Lorenzo." "Hey, what's going on with Berta?" "You were into her, right?" "Come, come over here." "I figured you wouldn't get stung, eh?" "Oh hey, I need to show you my study, you'll like it." "And where do you live?" "Well, actually, I'm just visiting." "She's a smart girl, right?" "But you know, for me, the short ones..." "Well, honestly, I thought she was after you." "Isn't that how they say it in Spanish?" "This is great." "Well, it's not those dorms." "And that cold that came in at dawn." "Listen, I had my kidneys, all of this, wow." "[French] Hello Simone." "[French] How are things?" "[French] I'm coming down." "Simone, Mathieu, my dear." "Hey, this is Lorenzo, my Spanish teacher in England." " Pleased to meet you." " She doesn't speak Spanish, but she understands it." "You've really done well." "Before you couldn't say anything but what you hear from tourists, remember?" " You're French too?" " No, Russian." " She's like a real farmer from Kolj—s." " Oh, no." "She just needs the tractor." "Of course it's socialist irrealism." "[French]" "So shy." "Tell her you're shy, she doesn't know you." "If you'd only seen us when he was the bull and I was the bullfighter." "OlŽ!" "But you don't remember that the heifers were better than the bulls." " Germans, Germans,..." " [French]" "Some Riojan chickens, ok." "Isn't that right, Simone?" "Well, fabulous." "With those spices they put inside, like  herbs... well, along with the chicken, some champagne, wine..." " Listen, this is interesting:" "There's a tavern you can go in, but listen, this is good." "When you go up the Barajas highway..." " But all together..." " You like to eat, well there..." " A little beard, that nose, you know him." " And what was his last name?" "Ricardo..." "Yeah, Astudillo, Ricardo Astudillo." "He's incredible, a really great guy." " Oh yeah, Astudillo." "He's a professor." " Yeah, he slept right where we went in." "A really great guy." "He spent all day reading." "No, no." "I think you're wrong." "Let me think." "And also on that side." "Very capable." "In my life I've never seen that." " Bye." " Bye." " Bye, eh?" " Bye, teacher, take care." " Good bye." " See you later." "Of course you know him!" "He knew Granse by heart." " Who?" " Gramsci." "He was reading it in Italian all day since we got up." "Once he read a whole page to an official to convince him that it was a treaty..." "At least I know that I know myself when you're around." "That we speak the same language." "And that you will help me sincerely, and that we're better when we're together." "If you met them, they would say that I'm just a dumb kid, that I don't have their seriousness." "That in the end I'm still just a good kid taught by his parents." "What can I say?" "Maybe they're right, Berta." "Why would I be dishonest with you?" " You're starting with politics again?" "...of the chicken." "It's as if nothing they've taught me is worth anything to me." "Like I have to learn everything all over again." "So pure." "They say I'm so pure." "...that if, that if art..." "Well forgive me, considering when I got up this morning." "Of course, if you need anything, you know what we have here..." "No, no, I know." "Sure." "Don't worry about me." "I know where everything is." "It's that it seems a lie, but today has been a day..." " Good night." " Sweet dreams, Lorenzo." " Good night, Simone." "But I'm happy that I remembered that Jacques is here," "Being able to talk to him about you." " Hey, Lorenzo, does the music bother you?" " No, no." "Not at all, on the contrary." "Don't worry at all about me." " Really, I'll sleep like a log." " Bon, happy dreams." "Since there's not a more comfortable hotel." "I'll be sure not to wake you." "I've reminded myself that you're one of the most intelligent girls I know." "Who is it?" "[French] Bonsoir..." " We have guests, eh?" " [French] Oh, excuse me, Nati, [...] a friend of Jacques." "[French]" "[French]" "[French]" "[French]" "Well... he's a cute guy." "[French]" "Well, give me just a minute to smoke a cigarette, ok?" "[French]" " Who not?" " Come on, chouchou." "[French] Now, let's have it." "Well, my children, I'm sorry but..." " I have to call you tomorrow?" " Oh, I need to leave too." "Hold me tight, I need to be held." "At 7 in the morning." "Rest up." "And something terrible occurs to me that I have to tell you." "They're here at my s ide... apart from being really jealous, I have a feeling of uneasiness." "Viscous, and..." "why shouldn't I tell you?" "Like a sin." "You didn't want antiques?" "I think this is from some old woman who lives around here." "From what I can tell, they're selling everything." "If you want to see good things, I'll take you to a place." "Because, something else no, but this kind of shit." "Come on in." "Let's see if anyone's there." "Hello, who's there?" "Come in, treat it as your own home." "Come on, man, come on." "My father, some friends." "Simone, Jacques." "Pleased to meet you." "Come on in, please, come in." "Come in." "Be so kind." "Good God, just what I needed." " I figured you were out doing something foolish." " But what's going on?" "Look, be quiet, and don't talk inside." "Nothing ever happens to you." "I'm not going out, eh?" "Just leave me alone." " Where are the letters?" " The letters, that's all you think about." "Ridiculous, like a clown." "And still you dare to come here." "And still you want more letters." "These are the tacky ones." "They have to come embarass us at home." "Letting us know that you've gotten away, without telling anyone anything." "Everyone worried that something might have happened to you." "And then you arrive with them." "Without any notice." "And acting so mopey." "But what does it matter to you?" "If you're only thinking about yourself." "Don't bother looking, nothing's there." "Does it seem like a little?" "It's a good thing you father is like he is." "Go on, whatever you need." "You don't expect me to have to entertain her, eh?" " Look, Jacques, do you want to rest a bit?" " No, no." " I'm serious, do you want anthing?" " No, really, I don't." " Anything to drink?" " [French] Oh, no, no, rien." "Je vous [...]" "[French] Merci beaucoup." "If it's no problem, wait just a bit." "Can they stay here just one night?" "But are you crazy?" "Go away, I don't want to see you right now." "Staying inside, in your own home." "Have you lost your senses?" "Where will they stay?" " And so I have to deal with everything." " Don't talk like that, please." " Oh, for God's sake." " Ask him, go on." "I don't want to know anything else." "I'm fed up." "It's over." "So who's in charge around here?" "Look, you'll have to forgive me, but there's not enough room in the house." "If it's no bother." "We can arrange things, maybe in a friend's house." " We'll look around and find a place..." " But it's not a big deal." "Shall we go?" "But Lorenzo's leaving again?" "Where are they going?" "Who are those foreigners?" "8.- time of silence" "You're in such a hurry?" " You don't even want a bit of dessert?" " No, I don't want any." " And where are you going?" " To the library." "This morning all bank scholars were here to congratulate the director." "Well, everyone but you." "Did you just forget?" "Or did you not care?" "And I even reminded you." "But of course, since you're not worried about any consequences." "My God." "...just today, sets of 20 for today..." "Who wants the big one?" "Today, today only." "Come on, sirs, who wants to be rich?" "Today only." "Sets of 20, today." "Just today." "Sets of 20, for today." "Come on, sirs, whpo wants to be rich?" "Today only." "You have to live quietly." "And if I look at things differently, my head is in the clouds," "I'm naive, this isn't what I've been taught." "Hi." "No one's come yet?" "They have exams." "I haven't seen them here for a while." " Just a coffee." " Right away." " Do you have an aspirin or something?" " Sure." "A coffee and an aspirin." "UNIVERSITY LIBRARY" "I'm tired of being thankful, living my life full of thanks." "The education I've received, not paying for my courses, the order." "I don't know why my mother doesn't get thanks for the food she buys every day." "And my brother for playing soccer, and my grandmother who is still alive." "Sorry, let me vent with you so I don't explode, since they take away your letters." " Are you ok, young man?" "What's wrong?" " No I just feel a bit dizzy." " But..." "I think it will pass soon." " It's been days since I've seen you." " I couldn't go to the partial exam." "Sorry." " It's been a semester..." " You don't look good." "Sit on this bench, you'll feel better." "Or would you prefer my office?" " There's a sofa." " No, really, it's all right." "You're sure?" "Wait, I'm going to take this to the dean." "I'll be right back." " They mentioned you to me in Madrid." " Oh yeah?" " I don't know their names." " One who was with you in..." " Do you want anything, Mr. Astudillo?" "You can treat me informally." "Don't make me feel so old." "Let's get a drink at the bar, and see if it clears your head." "And take care of yourself..." "What's up, lots of work today?" "I think you wrote something for a magazine?" "Yeah, well I don't recall much." "It was an obligation." "The "tragedias." What is the "tragedias."" "Since we're always suffering for something." " Right, grandma?" " Yes, my child." "Isidr'n, watch out for your mother." "There goes Pusk‡s!" "He'll be better prepared than the other one, you'll see." "After all, he doesn't like books." "There's some kind of coldness in your stomach." "Here, have some milk before it gets cold." "Here, you'll see how it looks." "In any case, tomorrow we'll go see the doctor." "And if we have to you'll see the specialist." "My goodness, you're shaking in your bones!" "The things we need now..." "the things we need." "What are you dealing with now?" "Fresh air and good food." "That's my motto." "And if you're worried, not even vitamins." "We'll take the Ford out this Holy Week, ...no worries about books or being lazy." "Right!" "It's so far away." "I think that makes sense." "This other one, I'm not sure." "Come, let's eat and feel happy, this isn't a big deal." "He's just dealing with personal struggles, or something like that." "It's how they are." "These personal crises." "Come, don't make me laugh." "A boy like him who doesn't have anything to worry about, who's on track with a career, who has all his material needs met here in this house, at a time when they can have fun with girlfriends..." "And your father will be bothered that you keep acting like this." "It's that... you're suffocating us." "And they're going to kick you out." "They'll take away your scholarship." "Something's wrong in that head of yours." "Talk to me, Lorenzo, son." "Don't be like this." "Tell me, did you really go to mass last Sunday?" "That's enough." "But why aren't you being more open?" "You weren't always like this." "You were so faithful when you were younger." "And the dreams that you had, that your father gave you." "9.- a happy world" "It was just a fainting spell." "It's called a fainting spell." "They're coming to see your uncle, just like now, and at night it's unclear." "Like that, just like that." "I was keeping it for you, for when you arrived." "I was sure you'd like it." "Yeah?" "You like it?" "The things you liked when you were little." "He looks like John XXIII." "How did I know you'd like that." "Ok, young man, ok." "And your uncle says soon, you'll be a lawyer." " Well, I have three more years." " You're getting worse." "I didn't think it would be so much, like your father said in the letter." "In any case, you were never impatient." "And how was it going so far away?" "Virgin Mary!" "You'll see how nice it will be for your uncle." "Since he doesn't have the help of a coadjutator." " And how's the new bishop?" " Oh, the bishop, just one of those." "If there were things to write, to send, or to ask for, he'd wake up." "It's this or it's that." "And now, with this thing with Germany, and since we're going to be all alone, and since even the smallest boy wants to be someone, as if being a priest was well, it's..." " Quiet, quiet, don't talk like that." " Just like you, you don't want to come here in the summer, as if this was just a place for poor people." "You liked it when you were young." "And we haven't changed at all." "I don't see why you'd have liked it then but not now." " Dominus vobiscum." " Et cum spiritu tuo." "Why am I the one who has to make things work?" "[Singing the "yenka"] 1, 2, 3, left, left, right, right, front, back, 1, 2, 3..." "Let's see, young man, if you have anything today." "Everything comes around in this world." "These days just stretch on." "You didn't know that, huh?" "Here's the "Ya" for your uncle and the monthly "Sal terrae."" "And I don't even know where your life is headed, if you love me... if you write me or not, if it's worth the trouble sending you letters and letters like a fool, filled with my annoyances." "That's enough!" "They'll belive that something's happening." "Enough, it's fine!" "The bell is for when something happens." "Or for the big festivals." "You'll see how they come running to see what's happened." "For the Via crucis, the small clapper is fine." "But you don't remeber." "You don't recall." "But helping your poor uncle, that's good." "And how are they there?" "Your grandmother must be very old." "[Singing] Forgive your people, Lord." "[Singing] Forgive your people, forgive them, Lord." "[Singing] Don't be forever angry." "[Singing] Don't be forever angry, forgive us, Lord." "[Singing] Forgive the thorns that pierced you," "[Singing] the lance in your side, forgive us, Lord." "[Singing] Do not be forever angry." "You'd have so much to tell me if you wrote me, Berta." "You know I sleep in the same bed the bishop uses when he comes to the town?" "You should meet Regina, and my uncle." " It looks like it's continuing." " That's fine." "Go on, they'll be waiting for you." "I'll stay here with my nephew, we'll take a walk." " Ok, I'm not entertaining you." " Come on, let's go, Lorenzo." " Say hi to the family." " Ok, thanks." " Go with God." " Good bye." "And you didn't want to come..." "Look, Lorenzo." "Look at the peace, the tranquility." "This is beautiful." "I would make everyone live for a time in the country." "Especially, do you know who?" "The petty politicians." "Those who misgovern the world." "You'll see." "Because you see how the world is, right?" "What do you think, huh?" "The Communists on one side, the Congo," "Cuba, the Chinese," "Algeria, the blacks, all the same." "Wherever you look." "And that's to say nothing of the others, of the civilized nations." "France, and even Italy." "Oh, we're more and more alone." "Because the Americans do their thing." "Spain and Portugal, like you see." "How he wanted to come to our house." "It's the best thing in the world, a person's house." "You seem much better." " How's my uncle?" " Well." "He's a bit senile and your aunt as always." " And mom?" " She's waiting for you." "What?" "You must be tired of this formality." " A bit, but it's entertaining." "Here they are." "You'll see, you'll see how you're now more ready for the rest of your courses." " And your stomach?" " It's fine." "Sometimes it flares up." " But the German medicine helps." " And the quiet life." " Let me bring you something." " No, look, I have here things from Regina." " Those are oranges." " It's no big deal." "So uncle said..." "The truth is you've come back changed." "It's the mountain air." " Because you left us." " And what's been going on here?" "Nothing." "Really, nothing." "Processions, just like every year." "They've added a new step, Christ the Redeemer." "It was nice." "Your uncle told us you helped him a lot out there." "The processions are very nice." "You've never seen them?" " No." "And now you take things calmly." "[Father and son chatting] Of course, the bank director has been asking about your health." "They couldn't have acted with more deference." "It's not that I'm trying to dissuade you, you know?" "But you'll see that it's you that's not treating them like you should." "It's good to have experience, but you'll see how I've struggled." "Keep to your career, that's the practical thing to do." "Everyone has to keep to their work..." "My father has suggested I keep up with my career." "That's the practical thing to do." "To work honorably." "It's something that's mine." "You know, in the end I'm still the same." "You've got to have ideals, and to be demanding." "You'll see that we were revolutionaries." "And the world is how it is." "But as the years pass, things are seen differently, more calmly." "Look what's happinging in a lot of places, where they're trying to change." "And?" "As much as they try to change, it's also a question of..." "And nothing changes, since it should be preordained." "Good evening." "You see?" "You've noticed." "These things last as long as they have to last." "And you can't spend as much time playing dirty tricks." "It doesn't lead anywhere." "You can't do those things to that girl." "Don't you understand?" " You weren't waiting long, eh?" " They got so heavy in the plaza..." "At my house they bought a television." "Can you imagine the kind of luxury this is for them?" "See what a luxury it is for us." "With a television and everything." " So you can think about it later." " I see that paying it in installments..." "It's like they feel more advanced, more modern." "It's always there on the bench, with the letters." " See who will arrange the papers." " Go ahead, go ahead, grandma." "...with the television and everything." " So that you see, son." "How great, how That's how I like it." " What do you think, Do–a Rosa?" " That he's become a prince, Laura." "This is the little sick boy?" "His health doesn't worry me now." "It's the other things." " What other things?" "You know which." " Ok." "Are you being good?" "I wanted to ask you, what exactly do you understand by "being good"?" "What does that consist of?" "If it's worth the trouble." "Who is it?" " At your service!" " Who are you looking for?" " Ricardo Astudillo, please?" " Yes." " What do you want?" " Is he here?" "Well, I'm not sure." "Wait a moment." "Who should I say is asking?" "Lorenzo Carvajal, but if he's working, don't bother." "I don't think he's here, but I'll check." "Ok, tell him that I wanted..." "to talk to him." "MACHADO HOMAGE IN HIS MEMORY" "But we have to talk seriously." "Recently you seem different." "You seem great." "Your mother must be pleased, right?" "Overall, in some sense they say I'm much better." "A Saint Stanislaus of Kostka." "Everyone's happy, no?" "It gets dark later now." "Look." "At this time in winter..." "Yeah, Spring is almost here." "BASILIO M. PATINO Script and Direction"