"For as long as I can remember, I've never been happy" "It's nobody's fault" "I just don't like the world that's surrounded me" "I'm so unhappy to be alive that I can no longer fall asleep" "I've tried to put up my misery" "I've moved to a foreign country" "But nothing has changed" "Each new day is worse than the previous" "Today, I've decided to die" "Why today ?" "I don't know" "I've chosen to throw myself beneath a subway train" "It's not the way that appealed to me the most." "But it's the most effective" "I feel a little bad imagining my crushed body" "I feel bad for the onlookers" "Everything's finally over" "Now !" "I wake up in a garbage dump" "I recognize it for being situated in my neighborhood" "I don't know what I'm doing here" "I don't know what's going on" "The only thing I know is that I'm still alive" "I don't care how I ended up in this dump" "What I want is to die" "The pain is unbearable" "A flood of pain freezing my whole body, little by little" "Slowly, very slowly, I can feel myself slipping toward death" "A peaceful feeling overwhelms me and everything finally makes sense" "I'm about to leave this life and enter the void" "And it feels wonderful" "Daylight burns my eyes" "My body feels numb, as if I've been asleep for several days without waking up" "But it's only the next day" "I can't help wondering if I've gone crazy" "No, I'm not crazy" "I want to feel the moment of passing over as much as I can" "If I can't die, I've decided to relive this moment" "Over and over" "PRECUT GIRL" "Little by little, routine replaces excitement" "I kill myself and come back" "Without ever having felt the intensity of that first time in my bathroom" "I need help" "We've been talking for fifteen minutes but I still haven't asked you your name" "What's your name ?" "Nami" "Your name is Nami" "I've met Max" "I went to a café and just picked a man out of the crowd" "And so you're Japanese" "I chose the one I disliked the least" "He seems fragile" "Easy to manipulate" "I hope I chose right" "I think you're pretty" "Stab me" "But I don't want to" "Stab me !" "What are you, crazy ?" "Seeing him panic amuses me" "It makes my approaching death a lot more delightful" "Give me those keys !" "Stab me" "I don't want to stab you !" "I try to make the pleasure of the situation last" "Before impaling myself on the table" "No, that wasn' me" "That wasn' me" "What have I done ?" "Please give me your keys" "Please" "Fear" "Fear of being imprisoned by a situation you don't understand" "I tell him the whole story" "The places I wake up, and how long after I die" "It disturbs him" "I know he likes me" "If he helps me, I promise him that we'll always be together" "Stab me" "Here" "Where the scars are" "Go on" "It's easy" "Come on !" "Is that it ?" "I can't" "You only know how to beg" "Stab me !" "Scum !" "You're such a scum !" "Come on !" "You fill me with nothing but disgust !" "I told you to stab me !" "I can't" "Maybe seeing me come back to life would help him conquer his fear" "But I'm wasting my time" "He stabbed me so hard that I die too fast" "I didn't have time to reach what I call "the moment"" "I let him hold me provided he doesn't make the same mistake twice" "Here" "Come on !" "Fool" "Damn fool" "That won't kill me" "I'll agonise for days before I die" "I need to be stabbed again" "I try to do it myself" "But my arm is numb with pain" "I don't have the strength to pierce my flesh" "I hurt" "I hurt so much" "Why is he waiting for me ?" "I thought he couldn't take it any longer" "I'll give him a little time" "Maybe those moments will bring us closer together" "Maybe he'll understand what I want from him" "Once again, I was wrong" "Maybe I was always wrong" "Perhaps "the moment" doesn't exist for someone like me" "As soon as I reach it, it pulls away" "I realize now that I'll never know this moment myself" "That makes me sad" "I can't just abandon the idea of knowing what is when we enter the void" "It wasn't hard to convince him to come back to my place" "I asked him to forgive me for everything that I put him through" "Except he knows that I don't mean it" "His submission is very touching" "Today is his birthday" "Happy birthday, Max" "What do you see ?" "Nothing..." "Nothing, Nami..." "What do you see ?" "What do you see ?" "I knew he was dead when I felt him come inside me" "Why didn't he see anything ?" "I got a glimpse of something as I approached the passage" "Is what I call "the moment" nothing but a silly fantasy that I blindly pursue ?" "Maybe my life is just one giant failure ?" "Failure made of suffering" "Time has passed" "Months" "Time in which I have stopped killing myself" "As time goes by, I've come to think that "the moment" wasn't linked to my death" "But to the process of my rebirth" "I realized that if I wanted to explore death, I had to explore life" "I'll soon give birth to Max's child" "An innocent outlook upon the absurdities of life" "I'll keep searching for "the moment" while feeding on its distress born of this painful world" "And when he asks me to help him understand, I'll tell him that there's no use trying" "Because whatever he does, nothing will ever make sense" "Subtitles by Innominabilis"