"{\bord0\fs28\cHFFFFFF}Monday.12PM.Yadin" "{\cHFFFFFF\bord0}Betipul Season 1 Episode 02 translated By Mataku" "Yadin Yerushalmi." "Reuven Dagan." "Come in." "Are there any..." "What do you call it..." "Rules?" "I mean." "you decide how to start." "I'm the costumer?" "we have a saying:" ""The costumer is always wrong." "it's a psychologists' joke." "I... do you recognize me?" "Am I suppose to?" "Of course!" "They told me you were the best." "the best" is a personal opinion." "I did my research." "a current one." "And one family member." "Distant relative." "You mean to say you've asked all those people about me?" "Yes." "Does that make you nervous?" "A little." "The fact that you've talked to a relative of mine... that makes me a little nervous." "You have nothing to worry about. everybody says you're the bomb. "THE BEST" "Is it important to you to know I'm the best?" "it's nothing personal." "I... when I go to a mechanic." "you pay heavily" "Okay." "And what do you think is "the best" in a psychologist?" "Let's see." "Do you recognize me?" "No." "I don't think so." "Let me help you..." "The tonne pilot" means something to you?" "Tonne"?" "No." "Try harder." "It was a little while ago." "Six weeks." "Ramallah." "A tonne sized bomb." "kids." "One wanted man lightly injured." "war crime." "The commander sleeps well at night?" "Remember?" "yhea." "I think I remember that." "So that's me." ""The tonne pilot"." "huh?" "because last week my picture showed up in a Dutch anarchist website." "Not very up to date." "from a trip to Holland... billions of Arabs are downloading my picture as their screen saver." "huh?" "Would you like to tell me why you came to me?" "I'm about to surprise you a little with that..." "But we'll get there." "I imagine that there's..." "Somthing intriguing... and think... and in the morning turned on CNN and saw all of those children's' bodies." "You're probably asking yourself what went through my head." "let me tell you that it's irrelevant." "Because after a bombing like that I don't watch TV and I don't watch CNN." "I go to bed." "I'm exhausted." "right?" "Okay." "How do you sleep at night?" "I sleep great." "Under the assumption that I did everything I'm supposed to." "The best that I could." "the best"?" "meaning that I hit the right building." "and with the system." "But if you did hit... then it's not a problem." "I sleep like a baby." "but..." "It doesn't sit on my conscience." "And..." "When you've heard about the result of your bombing?" "When was it?" "the day after." "What..." "What did you hear?" "Do remember the moment?" "I was in the middle of a tennis game with a childhood friend." "He's... from a different world..." "He's gay." "and he know enough not to bug me with it." "He just let me win that day." "Was it important to you to win in that moment?" "No." "But that's what he thought." "What did help is that I had a lot of errands." "Nine days worth of errands." "you know." "talks with the navy." "Preparations for the next operation." "the guy whose name was on the bomb those kids got." "There's..." "There were a lot of errands." "when my mom died." "a lot of errands." "A year he handled errands. her garden." "Errends so he'll finally break down." "He would just say "it never ends"." "she didn't know she was going to die married her like it was nothing." "You know?" "Went through it without grieving." "And you didn't like that?" "It surprised me." "Still... nothing." "it's interesting." "The parallelism you do between your mother's death and this bombing." "but there's no comparison." "my mother's death was the most traumatic thing in my life "so far"." "And that bombing in Ramallah was just..." "Just another day in the long history of Yadin Yerushalmi." "There's no comparison." "I'm telling you." "because I was due back in the navy the next day." "On the tenth day I went to play tennis again with my gay friend." "this friend?" "Daniel." "Daniel the homo." "This time he didn't let me win." "Beat me." "But in a tie breaker." "and died." "Let's say it was an attack  The type they dream about reenacting in medical schools." "Lethal." "by any diagnosis." "[a bunch of medical stuff]..." "I Should've been dead." "I should've been dead." "I died." "Died?" "in the clinical way." "no temperature." "Just brain activity." "Complete clinical death." "And here I'm sorry to disappoint you." "You're not going to ask how I'm suppose to disappoint you?" "Let me help you." "The light?" "And the tunnel?" "right?" "I'll ask it." "It's not important to me at all." "For everybody else it is." "Everybody and that story." "All that crap about the tunnel." "my father." "Everybody with that tunnel." "What nonsense." "And you've felt like you didn't deliver?" "That you disappointed them by not having that story?" "I don't get it." "But you know what?" "nobody really knows what really went through my head in that moment of dying." "that wasn't even interesting." "And you?" "Did it interest you?" "Do YOU know what happened back then?" "I had a pretty long time to figure it out." "You know it's an attack..." "You start fearing that this is the end." "until I passed out... maybe half a minute...." "I tried to figure out if I had a hard-on." "I remembered something that my grandma told me when I was in high school." "when grandpa died.... with an erection like a guided missile." "and she hasn't seen an erection like this on him for maybe 20 years." "It was a very happy visual for her." "She said this was the final gift god gives a man." "A dead man's erection." "remembering that story... please don't" "of course." "and..." "I haven't told you." "For a moment I thought you were telling me something different." "That your fear of an erection has something to do with Daniel's presence over there." "don't you think you're getting ahead of yourself?" "I'm explaining something very simple. a dead man's erection." "What does it have to do with Daniel?" "Listen..." "I feel like I wasn't clear before about "the costumer's always wrong even from himself." "part of our job is to figure out this mislead." "That blind spot you choose to ignore." "So what?" "My blind spot is that I'm afraid of gay people?" "but it was important to me to demonstrate that point." "it's not relevant to the topic." "I want to get to the point." "Go ahead." "so you can relax." "But I really remember the moment I missed my conscience." "Missed?" "Missed my consciousness"." "It's a term my dad uses." "That's an interesting choice of words." "Is it the opposite of "gaining" conscience?" "in a very strict way of..." "Gain and lost." "Is this another wrong for the costumer?" "but it fits the old man." "Everything is a gain or a lost." "Totally fits him." "shall we say..." "Using your father's terminology." "I think we're getting too soon to the whole father-son thing." "I don't think it's suppose to show up this soon." "Am I wrong?" "You feel like it's too soon?" "Forget what I feel." "I know whether it's soon or not." "I want to know your opinion about it." "you want to test me?" "See if I have the right answer?" "no?" "But you know... you've been constantly testing me." "You say you've checked up on me." "That you interrogated my relatives." "You expect me to ask you questions you think I'm dying to ask." "right?" "And what?" "Is this wrong?" "Look..." "I was offered a shrink from the navy." "right?" "be sure that they offered the best there is." "I don't..." "I look into some stuff.... pay you good money... so what do you expect?" "like that?" "Blank?" "Without knowing anything about you?" "Okay." "And what do you expect to find in your test?" "How can tell if I'm the right psychologist for you?" "I'll know." "Opinion about what?" "About the question that I came here to ask." "I'll get there in a moment." "It's about what happened to me after I've returned from the freezing." "By 'freezing' you mean they've stopped you from flying?" "No..." "You don't understand." "Freezing." "Actually frozen." "I was frozen." "and they've put me in a freezing suit." "You were frozen?" "Frozen." "I didn't know they did that." "Now you know." "a Freezing suit." "this type of thing only exists close to the tennis courts where I was at." "you might want to do it over at Natanya beach." "I would rather hear how it relates-- {\cH8000FF}Listen for a moment." "so listen." "I was told you're a good listener." "Look... you lower the pressure on the body." "right?" "maybe 30 degrees C." "very simply constructed." "is prevented." "And how long..." "How long are you frozen?" "It could take up to ... 12 or 24 hours" "And how long did it take for you?" "For me it took 48 hours." "It unprecedented." "There's no case like this." "I probably got very far in that.." "Tunnel." "The tunnel that didn't exist... right?" "no." "And was there something else during those 2 days of freezing?" "or a thought?" "in shreds..." "I mostly remember great fatigue." "I'm guessing that's what they call being dead tired." "but mostly emotionally." "Great fatigue." "And also this..." "This security I felt when I realized I managed to pass through to this part of the world." "you thought it was under your control." "Again you insinuating something?" "I'm not insinuating." "I'm trying to tell you that you're describing a great will to live." "you had a very clear choice to keep on living." "Yhea." "Fine." "I guess you're right." "that powerful will power... everybody's disappointed in you." "people..." "They don't meet someone who's back from the dead every day." "if you don't deliver the goods..." "Are you also disappointed from it?" "answering their question and unable to walk out of there." "od you get it?" "Never." "People who know me don't get it." "Don't get how I got in that situation." "So maybe your anger isn't directed at the people who bugged you about the tunnel." "it's betrayal over you." "This sort of system failure shouldn't have happened." "Not to you." "Listen." "I've got a brother." "kind of stupid." "A realtor." "Whatever.... he's a great soccer player." "And he once explained to me..." "That the strikers of soccer are the essence of the game." "you know?" "There's nothing more than that." "right?" "be sure of it." "That all the best strikers in the history of soccer were also the most beautiful people in the game." "Paulo rossi." "I remember them from my childhood." "The most beautiful people." "Makhness... and you know why? they got the whole package." "and the talents." "That's the way it is." "It's evolutionary." "And how are you at soccer?" "you know?" "Soccer players are the simpletons' version." "We're the Cream De La Cream." "You need to realize that you're talking to a man whose life has been fixed on target." "We pilots were born like this." "who imagine that we chose to be like this." "We didn't choose this." "It's life that chose us." "To be the best." "you don't become a pilot when you're 20." "in the 3rd grade... you'll be a pilot." "And when you're 24 you'll marry the class' beauty." "You're the best." "you're disappointed." "You're angry." "that's not... how much time do we have left?" "We still got time." "I'll let you know when it's time." "because I finally want to get to the point with you." "I came here to consult something with you." "Okay." "I decided to go back there." "The place where it all began." "Do you know what I'm saying?" "I'm listening." "I've decided to go back there." "You mean the place you've bombed?" "and Daniel is a volunteer in "Doctors for human rights"." "They drive every Saturday to the territories and give out medical care." "This Saturday they arrive at..." "Ramallah." "To the street of..." "The building." "And I'm thinking about joining them." "Going to Ramallah?" "It intrigues me." "I want to see how it looks from the ground." "and let me set it straight." "I sleep great at night." "Real great." "Okay." "So why do you still want to go there?" "Donno." "It.." "It intrigues me." "I realized this is where I'm headed." "when he came to visit me in the hospital." "He made fun on how I was breaking them and he was fixing them." "ever since then I've been waiting that the organization gets there." "he thinks I've gone mental." "Daniel... or... so he told me he wouldn't sign me on unless I saw someone first." "something like that." "And you don't find it dangerous?" "that trip?" "nobody knows who I am or what I am." "And what about..." "That photo on the internet?" "you've seen the photo." "Rediculess." "My mother wouldn't recognize me like that." "Not to mention Michaela." "Who's Michaela?" "My wife." "Does your wife know about this plan of yours?" "Are you crazy?" "What's her connection to this?" "You don't feel like she should know about this?" "this whole "What do you feel?" "What do you think?" "I'm asking you something." "I came here with a very clear agenda." "that's all." "Second opinion to who?" "To Daniel." "So I would know that a professional doesn't think I'm psychotic or something." "So you want me to tell if that action of yours  Is what?" "Sane?" "Somthing like that." "You..." "Actually want me to take responsibly over this trip." "don't turn me into an idiot." "What are you saying?" "That I can't take responsibly?" "together with you." "You know how you've said that life chose you to be a pilot?" "That it wasn't your decision?" "and comfortable with because it strips you of responsibly?" "you don't decide." "It's your commander that sent you... the chief of staff sent you..." "Now you're telling me in need you to be my fleet admiral or something?" "Could be." "acceptable." "So will you be my Fleet Admiral for the 400 shekels I'm paying you?" "I'm not sure I'm qualified for that." "But maybe you could be your own fleet admiral?" "I understand I won't get anything from you." "And you're supposed to be the best." "Listen..." "I'm not the best." "Okay?" "And Daniel isn't the best." "And nobody's the best." "You're the best." "the consequences of this trip." "A pilot that goes back the street he had bombed in Ramallah just a month and a half ago..." "During war." "And that information about him was leaked here and there." "I've seen the photo." "I think it's definitely recognizable." "Would you approve of such an act if you were a fleet admiral?" "So what are you saying?" "that you agree with Daniel?" "That I've gone crazy or something?" "Say..." "How long did you guys played there?" "You and Daniel?" "The day you had the attack?" "Donno..." "Something like... 6 hours?" "isn't it?" "usually we just play one game." "Daniel wanted to quit..." "He had this thesis..." "About the ratio between normal pulse and the target work out pulse." "He said it shouldn't be more then 85%." "Meaning that it's dangerous." "too." "wasn't he?" "What..." "What are you trying to say?" "I think it interesting that right before you went back to flying  you insisted on bringing yourself to such an extreme exertion." "isn't it?" "it's like you insisted on not going back to flying." "too." "did you think of the connection between your collapse and what happened before it?" "more dangerous game you're about to enter?" "I think that for someone who has no guilt... aren't you?" "do you have any coffee?" "I need some good coffee." "I think we're out of time." "What do you mean?" "I still have some stuff I need to discuss." "I would love to talk about it on our next session." "you can call me any time." "It seems very important." "I'll take it into account." "I should probably pay you now." "Who knows if I live through the inferno." "I'll mail you the receipt." "Forget it." "You're not going to wish me good luck?" "Good luck."