"Previously on "Being Erica":" "I just--I'm so happy to finally meet someone who's going through the same thing." "You know, someone to just to talk about this all with." "Another person that has been there." "Erica." "Don't take this the wrong way, but that's not gonna be me." "What?" "Tickets to London?" "We're going to London?" "They want to make me Senior VP at the UK office." "You want to move there?" "Look, we've only been together for a few weeks and..." "and you're acting like..." "I'm ready to get married?" "I--I feel really weird." "Ohh..." "Oh, my God!" "That ain't pee." "Who's the cutest dude ever?" "I'm more like the wacky Aunt Erica, right?" "Yeah, you lead this incredible fun life and... you're gonna be the best wacky aunt ever." "Yes." "Friends." "They're the people who get you, support you, understand you in ways that others just don't." "They're the people you share your life with." "But what happens when your life starts to change?" "Oh, hey." "Whoa, hey." "Come on, one piece." "I've got a 6-hour drive ahead of me." "That bacon is for Judith." "Please?" "I am starving." "Oh, ho ho, don't guilt me out." "You're the one who's abandoning me for the weekend." "It's my cousin's stag." "Fine, one piece." "But don't eat it all, 'cause Judith loves bacon and scones." "Wow, you're really going all out." "Yeah." "I'm kind of anxious." "Brunch with your best friend makes you anxious?" "Well, I can't even remember the last time we hung out." "I mean, we used to see each other all the time, talk every day... but now it's like... she kind of has a newborn." "I know, but I swear, every time we make plans, she cancels." "Well, when Michael had kids, we went from drinking buddies to playground patrol." "But you stayed friends." "Sure, with a few adjustments." "Oh." "Why is she calling from home?" "Hello." "Explain to me why we're not born with teeth." "I'm gonna go out on a limb here and say breast-feeding." "3 hours of sleep, Erica." "Oh, Jude." "So, I guess that means we're not..." "No, no, I promised myself I wouldn't cancel, but... can we meet up a little later, like at 2:00?" "I've got baby yoga this afternoon near that goblins place you like." "Not a problem at all." "I will see you then." "Hey, you all right?" "For your trip to Montreal," "I give you 5 scones and a pound of bacon." "Mmm." "Hi." "Hey!" "Ooh, it's the incredible growing baby!" "Hi." "Ohh!" "When have we ever gone this long without hanging out?" "I know!" "That vanilla latte is for you, and I want to hear everything." "How's Ethan?" "Ethan's good." "He's good." "We kind of had this weird thing happen at Sam's birthday." "But it's..." "I mean" "Oh, sorry." "Sorry." "It's that time again." "It's always that time." "Yes." "Yes." "So now he's in Montreal for a stag, and of course, his ex-wife is there." "So, I'm thinking..." "So, no, you keep obsessing over things that aren't actually happening." "Well, I guess you could put it that way." "Judith--Jude!" "Hi, guys!" "Erica, right?" "You mind if we join you?" "Chaz is out cold, and we're like insanely early for yoga." "Of course." "Mm-hmm." "Oops." "Ok there?" "Oh, wow, his feet are freezing." "Oh, I've got a blanket." "Thanks." "Great." "I don't think that I'm obsessing." "Oh, sorry if that came off harsh." "I'm just a little out of practice." "No, it's fine, I mean, I want your opinion." "No." "No!" "No!" "Oh..." "Do not bite mommy." "When you bite mommy, it hurts." "See, what I don't understand is why people are just not born with teeth?" "Exactly!" "Isn't that what I said?" "Oh, my God, I just talked about this." "It's like gnawing away." "Is he still biting you?" "Yeah." "Wow, you poor thing." "Yeah." "Are you pacifying?" "Marie's mother is completely pro-pacifier." "Ah, so that makes her a pacifist." "Look, it's a personal decision." "I just believe babies need an opportunity to practice self-soothing." "You know?" "Pacifiers are unhygienic," "Disgusting pieces of plastic." "See, I told you." "I don't know about that." "Now, we've been having this discussion all week." "Really?" "Yeah." "I'm on board with you." "Vegan nanaimo bar?" "Mm, just a water." "Just an excuse, actually." "Tired?" "Yup." "Just got back from 92 the other day." "The air was cleaner there." "It's a real adjustment." "Wow, you really don't want to talk about the therapy, do you?" "Let's talk about your friend, the one who's ignoring you." "Yeah, that's my best friend." "And she used to be terrified of kids." "Ah, things change, apparently." "Yep." "But, I mean, it's good." "I'm happy for her." "Yeah, right." "What?" "I am." "No, you're not, and I don't blame you." "Kids come along, people forget who they are, their friends." "A lot of marriages don't survive kids." "I bet even more friendships don't." "Oh, really?" "And how would you know?" "You look like you're barely out of high school." "Thanks for the water." "Friendships, like everything else, are not immune to change." "The question is:" "How do you keep a friendship together" "When your lives are pulling you apart?" "?" "Being Erica 2x03 ?" "Mamma Mia Original Air Date on October 6, 2009" "?" "it's clearer inside of me ?" "?" "who I will always be ?" "?" "open me up to my heart ?" "?" "feels like I'm seeing in the dark ?" "?" "waking me up to my heart ?" "?" "to do it all over ?" "?" "again and again ?" "?" "until the end ?" "?" "the sum of my dreams ?" "?" "and everything I ever wanted to be ?" "Oh, sorry if I got sucked into the whole mom vortex back there." "It's ok." "Uh, you were telling me about Ethan?" "Yeah, it's just all the little things that are starting to add up." "Yeah, tell me about it." "Like when I'm trying to remind Anthony to bring the diaper bag every single day." "Uh, I guess." "Oh, just a sec." "Hey." "Ch-ch-ch-ch-ch." "What's up, hon?" "Well, my mom has a cold." "She said she could still make it, though." "No, uh, I don't want her taking care of him if she's sick." "I guess you could stay home." "No, I don't want to stay home." "Um..." "I'll figure it out, ok?" "I'm sorry, all right?" "See you tonight." "What's going on?" "Oh, Anthony's giving a speech at this diversity dinner for the bank in, like, ooh, 4 hours, and I just lost the only baby-sitter that I trust." "Ohh." "Well, why don't I just do it?" "Well... it's sweet of you to offer." "It's just that he's teething and being really difficult." "Jude, I used to baby-sit all the time." "I can handle it." "Unless you don't..." "I mean, unless you don't trust me." "No." "No, it's not that." "I just--I'm really precise about his schedule." "Oh, I know schedules, lady." "I've been taking the bus since 1987." "Can you make it for 6:30?" "I can be early, 'cause I'm that good." "You're awesome." "Thank you." "Really?" "How old is little Max, Erica?" "Why will no one believe that I'm an amazing baby-sitter?" "I used to baby-sit Sam." "She was 8 years old, honey." "Max is a baby." "But I'm sure you'll do fine." "Mm, very convincing, mom." "Listen, sorry about dinner." "You sure it's not a problem?" "Not at all, honey." "I'll call you later." "Ok, bye." "Hey, mom." "Hey!" "Errands day." "Just dropping your tupperware back." "You could've kept those." "Mwah." "Eh." "What are you doing for dinner tonight?" "Josh was gonna barbecue." "Tell him to barbecue tomorrow." "I have an entire lasagna." "But... we kind of have a lot to do at home." "So we take the lasagna to your house and maybe I can help out." "Ok..." "I wasn't gonna say anything yet, but... we're moving--to London." "Head office offered him Senior VP." "Oh." "Oh, Sam." "London, England?" "This is good news, mom." "Of course it is." "It's just such a change." "oh, um..." "Well, what about your work?" "Well, they have hospitals in London, and there are worse things than getting european certification," "And a couple of years of overseas experience-- a couple of years?" "Don't act all judgey and Erica, and just be happy for us." "Listen, if this is what you want, then of course I'm happy for you, sweetheart." "Mmm." "It's what we want." "Ok, breast milk cannot go into the microwave." "It destroys the enzymes." "You waste a drop of that stuff and she'll come after you." "Hi." "I am all over it." "Breast milk goes in warm water until it's body temperature." "That's impressive." "Thank you." "I did research." "I'm prepared." "Ok, bedtime is at 7:00 on the dot." "Otherwise he gets overtired." "Erica, just keep him alive." "Everything else is details, ok?" "I'm not joking, ok?" "If he gets tired, he'll just rub his eyes" "And fuss so much he can't sleep." "No, I know, I got it." "Do you?" "Well, because if you don't, he'll be off for days," "And--this matters because it's just" "Loud and clear, Judith." "There's the cab." "Yup." "Gotta go, babe." "Ok, um..." "Once you put him down, do not pick him up, ok?" "I'm teaching him to self-soothe without any props." "So no pacifiers," "No rocking him to sleep or anything like that." "Ok, Judith, research also says that at a certain point, you have to stop being a mom and just go have fun." "Ok." "Ok, Erica." "Thank you." "Thanks." "Ok, have fun." "Crazy Aunt Erica," "She's smarter than your mommy thinks." "Yes, she is." "Hello?" "So I just called to let you know that we made it till bedtime without a single tear." "Wonderful." "And can I just say for the record that snuggling a warm baby, it's hardly the rough job you mothers make it out to be." "Uh-huh." "So, Sam came over and ate your lasagna." "Is that Erica?" "Yes." "Oh, Sam, sweetheart, can you go downstairs to the basement and get some more paper towel?" "Mm-hmm." "Thank you." "They're moving to London." "What?" "!" "Really?" "Sam?" "I mean, she could hardly handle going to camp." "Wow!" "Well, good for her." "It's for Josh, a promotion." "Ah, big surprise." "She's acting excited, but..." "I don't think she's that into it." "Uh, well, then talk to her." "I mean, mom, if you're worried." "Oh, you know how defensive Sam can get." "Do I?" "Shh..." "Ch-ch-ch-ch-ch." "This is the thing-- you are her mother and your real opinion, it matters to her." "If you think this is the wrong decision, then you need to speak up." "Oh, oh, oh..." "Mom, it's Max's bedtime, I gotta go." "Of course, sweetheart." "I'll call you later, ok?" "Ok, bye." "Say, bye." "It's time for bed." "It's time for bed, yes, sir, mister." "Mmm..." "Ohh..." "Ere you go." "Don't tell mom it's 7:10, ok?" "That's between you and I." "Good nightie-night." "Night-night." "No, Erica." "Shh, shh, it's ok." "Oh..." "Max, you're breaking my heart." "Ok?" "Oh-oh-oh-oh." "Ahh!" "Ohh..." "That's better." "Oh, come and hang with auntie Erica a little longer." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Don't tell mom." "I'd like to thank you all for coming and for your continued commitment to promoting diversity in the TD Canada Trust workplace." "Enjoy your evening." "Oh, just some sparkling water, please?" "No, Kellar's a perfect fit." "Thank you so much for recommending me." "Oh, you're working for Kellar Andrews?" "I used to be there." "Oh, really?" "Where are you now?" "Insomnia and droolstein." "It's a... it was a joke." "I'm on mat leave." "Oh." "Great." "Great." "So, uh, how are things with the Stohn Action?" "Oh, they settled that about two months ago." "Do you know about the Crosby lawsuit?" "Crosby?" "Doesn't ring a bell." "Really?" "It's all over the news." "Oh." "Well," "Maybe I should pick up a paper once in a while." "Then find time to read it." "I thought your firm won Crosby at trial." "We did, but then we lost on the appeal." "Who was the judge on that?" "Oh, Kelly." "He was so difficult." "Oh, I know." "Surprising." "Excuse me." "I thought you would've really..." "Oh." "Hello, Judith, everything is fine." "Oh, thank you." "That is such a relief, I cannot tell you." "So, are you rocking it out?" "Oh, yeah, you know it." "Is that Max?" "Uh, yeah, everything's fine." "He just needed a little more tiring out." "It's almost 8:00, Erica." "I told you to put him to bed at 7:00." "I know, jude, but he was crying." "Of course he was crying." "He's a baby." "Why is it always, always so hard for you just to follow through, huh?" "Look, Judith, just calm down." "If you can't even follow a simple rule, I mean, what if something serious would've happened?" "If I'm such a risk to your child, then maybe you should come home." "I'll be there in 20 minutes." "We have to go straight to bed because your mother has clearly lost her mind." "Yeah." "I know, Max." "Ok, cave people raised babies." "So what if her kid's a few minutes late for bed?" "It's not--it's not like he can tell time." "No, but you can." "You were supposed to put him down by 7:00, right?" "Um, whose side are you on?" "Just the side that makes me wonder, is this really about your friend's parenting style, or is this about something more?" "You know, right now is really not the best moment with Max being here, but we do need to talk." "What about?" "Kai." "Kai." "He's a patient, like me." "May I?" "Knock yourself out." "Oh, hello." "Kai is going through what I am." "I finally met someone who's doing the same thing and... he doesn't want to talk about it." "I mean, isn't that weird?" "Erica, I'm not here to gossip with you about other patients." "In here, we talk about you." "That's it." "So, third regret from the bottom." "Oh." "Can we just talk about Kai?" "No." "Tell me about frosh week." "It was my second year, and I just moved in with Ethan to a house with some other students, off campus." "And Judith and I were frosh leaders." "At least, we were supposed to be." "At the end of first year I signed us up, and Judith, she didn't even want to," "But..." "I insisted, and then I bailed." "See, I'd spent the summer reading women's theory, and by the time frosh week came," "I really wanted to commit myself to women's issues, so I whipped off my shirt and marched around campus until I got a major sunburn on... much more dignified than frosh week." "Well, hey, if men can take their shirts off on a hot day... then--I know." "But it seemed to matter at the time, it really did." "And Judith?" "I left Jude to manage a massive group of frosh single-handed." "30 kids away from home for the first time, just drunk on freedom and God knows what else." "But good old Jude, she stuck it out even after I bailed." "And she hated every second of it." "Ever since then, there's been this dynamic between us, where she's the grown-up and I'm the flake." "I can't even be trusted to watch her son for a few hours." "We're supposed to be best friends, Dr. Tom, but I never see her anymore." "Our friendship, it's on life support." "Well, sounds like you should go back and resuscitate it." "This is what you do!" "I didn't know it was possible to be this juvenile!" "I mean, you just follow every whim and every" "No-no-no-no, Judith, Judith, it's ok, just take a deep breath, ok?" "'cause I'm not doing feminist frosh week anymore." "I am staying with you." "What is that?" "]" "Uh..." "Uh..." "Is this some kind of frosh week hazing joke?" "You know, I am not laughing." "Trust me, I am not either." "Why are you baby-sitting some kid?" "I'm baby-sitting." "Yes, I am." "So, Judith, meet little Max." "Isn't he a cutie-pie?" "Hmm." "So you bail on doing frosh week with me, but then one of your girl power buddies needs help and you're all "hey, no problem!"" "No-no-no, I'm not bailing on you, ok, Judith?" "Change of plans-- I am there for you." "And so is Max." "I am steady as a rock." "I just need 5 minutes to go, um... and freshen up." "If you could just... hold him, and then we're so froshing." "You guys are really cute together." "You know I can't stand these things, right?" "Erica!" "Where is your mother?" "You four, sign duty." "Go." "You wash that car over there." "Everybody else just... just grab a sponge and just move on down." "All right, move it, frosh!" "Shh, it's ok, it's ok." "So, uh, here, these buckets need filling and soaping." "Fast." "Oh, hey, Judith, would you just, um, would you mind if just I supervised, 'cause he's kind of cranky." ""I'm here for you, Judith."" "Totally am." "We're totally..." "We're here." "We're here, buddy." "Hey." "I know." "It's ok, it's ok." "Oh, buddy, it's ok." "You're just tired." "Oh." "Oh." "It's ok." "Oh, why don't I sing you a song?" "Ok, baby songs, baby songs..." "Um... ?" "little baby so cute ?" "Oh, baby." "Are you kidding me?" "What the hell?" "!" "They're kids at a carwash, Erica." "Just..." "What reeks?" "I know, I just-- you know, two minutes." "Ok." "Uh..." "It's not so bad." "It's not so bad." "Oh!" "Oh, crap!" "What is that on my car?" "Yeah, I'm really sorry about that." "There's shit on my car." "Uh, sir, I am sorry, my friend has problems." "Judith, I" "Just..." "Just go, ok?" "?" "love me, love me ?" "?" "say that you love me ?" "Ok." "Um..." "I'm sorry." "?" "love me, love me ?" "?" "pretend that you love me ?" "?" "I don't care 'bout anything but you ?" "Miss?" "You do realize that stealing a shopping cart is against the law?" "A, I'm borrowing it." "And B, you're unbelievable and a disgrace to your uniform, you know that?" "Wow." "It's a lot of needs for one small body, huh?" "Look, I came here to show Judith that I'm not a flake." "Instead, I'm a baby-toting flake." "Which, fyi, is so much worse." "I want this child back where he belongs." "I can't do what I came here for." "No, but you can do what I brought you here for." "What did you bring me here for?" ""diaper backward spells repaid." "Think about it."" "Marshall McLuhan." "I don't know." "She's asleep." "She's moving out." "Come on, Michael, she's only got Max for a few days." "Dude, this house smells like baby shit potpourri with a touch of puke." "I can't bring girls back to that." "Whoa, hi." "Hey, you know what?" "Go back to sleep." "I'll do pub night by myself." "It'll be fine." "Only got six cartons of condoms to hand out." "No, hey-hey-hey-hey-hey, it's not gonna be fine, all right?" "Just hang on." "I..." "I promised myself that I wasn't gonna cancel." "So, Max and I are coming with you and that's that." "Couldn't we just leave him here and put him to bed?" "I mean," "I'm sure Ethan wouldn't mind if he's..." "Well, I'm not sure I feel totally comfortable looking after some stranger's baby." "Yeah." "You know, and Ethan's gotta help me drink 4 garbage cans full of purple jesuses, so... it's Michael's room buddy's annual house party." "See ya." "Have fun." "Look, Jude, it's gonna be fine." "He's just gonna sleep on my shoulder." "We're gonna have a great time." "Hey, you need me." "I..." "I guess." "We're froshin'." "We're froshin'." "All right, ladies!" "Time for the main event" "Best frosh ass!" "I think he wants in." "So we have an amazing line-up of tasty frosh boys." "Just a second." "It's ok." "Forget the baby, get to the butts!" "Ok." "First in the pole position is..." "Scottie "the hottie" butler and his fine shank!" "Can you just hang on for a second?" "Someone call children's aid!" "No, he's fine, he's just... he's just tired." "No kidding." "Shouldn't he be in bed?" "Hey, buddy, you're in the "best ass competition"." "Maybe you shouldn't be passing judgment." "Erica!" "Whoo!" "What are you doing?" "I think that he's teething and he's tired." "I have to take him to bed." "Jude, I'm so sorry." "Look, was it my idea to be frosh leaders?" "No, ok?" "I did this for you." "And despite that, I held the bag all day at the carwash, ok?" "This--told you, this is so stupid" "I know, and I'm sorry, but I..." "I mean, how was I supposed to leave him at home?" "You could've gotten a baby-sitter." "I am the baby-sitter!" "Just take him home to his mom, ok?" "Here, take her some condoms, too, and just be back." "I just don't understand why you're flaking out on me and not on her?" "Jude, I know that that's what this looks like, and I promise it's not, ok?" "I swear to you." "Really, it's not?" "Why don't I believe you, Erica?" "Look, I have a baby that needs to go to bed, and you yelling at me is not making the situation better, and it is definitely not helping him." "Just go, ok?" "Just leave me here with these frosh all by myself." "I'll be fine." "Totally fine." "?" "I've never known a girl like you before ?" "Shh..." "Ok." "I know you're not... you're not hungry, you're tired." "I know." "I know." "Hey, guys!" "Not cool, no." "Please, please, please go to bed, ok?" "I just..." "One minute" "Okay, please." "shh..." "Shh..." "What the hell are you doing?" "What?" "!" "I'm trying to pass out here!" "No-no-no, listen, there's no crying, ok?" "Wha-wha-wha-wha-- please." "Turn it" "You know, Ethan says to me, "oh, I got this great girl, she's gonna be this awesome roommate."" "Shh..." "And I'm thinking, "ok."" "But really, I don't want to live with chicks because chicks' lives are too complicated." "Just stop yelling at me!" "You know, you want to pretend that you're on "Degrassi,"" "where everybody loves the spunky teen mom, then go live someplace else." "Michael, Michael." "Back off her, man." "You know what?" "If the kid isn't gone by tomorrow, then I am." "Because I don't think he pays rent." "shh..." "Oh, Ethan." "Ethan, thank you so much." "Thank you for being there for me." "Uh, Erica, look, I want to help, but I'm so loaded right now, I can barely stand." "Please?" "I can't take care of a baby." "I'm sorry." "Please?" "Shhh." "No-no-no, it's ok." "Shh..." "Shh..." "Vroom!" "Bounce, bounce." "Shh-shh." "Vroom." "Please, Max." "Bounce, bounce." "Do you have any idea what I've been doing all night?" "Shh-shh." "V-vroom." "Bounce, bounce." "Whoa, Erica, stop." "Shh-shh." "Vroom." "What's wrong?" "Is something wrong with Max?" "Vroo-yup." "No-no, if I don't do the "bounce-bounce-shh-shh"" "and pat his bum on every third vroom... if I don't..." "I know." "Whoa, whoa." "You know what?" "Enough, ok?" "You cannot go on like this." "I'm calling a cab." "Cabs don't have baby seats." "That is the least of your problems." "Shh..." "Vroom, vroom, vroom..." "Shh-shh-shh-shh, shush-shush-shush." "Where are we going?" "Your mom's." "She'll know what to do with you." "Frosh week this time last year, we were having so much fun." "Yes, we were." "Do you remember driving into the fountain and then the cops chasing us?" "Yep." "So, how within a year could you dump me for your feminist friends?" "I don't get it." "Jude, I didn't dump you." "Yes, you did, actually." "Whatever." "That seems to be your specialty these days." "Judith" "Look, it is what it is, you know?" "I just wish I could understand why this woman and her baby seem to be more important to you than me." "It's not that." "Yeah, it is!" "It's like..." "I don't even know who you are anymore." "Oh, come on!" "I am still the same person, ok?" "I'm just trying to deal with this situation." "I know, I know, baby, you just need sleep." "What you need, Max, is to go home." "And what I need is some patience and support." "Oh, God, here we go!" "Why does everyone act like taking care of children is the hardest thing ever?" "Because, you know what?" "It is." "And you have no idea what you're talking about." "Wait." "You know what?" "Judith, wait." "Wait until you have a baby." "Yeah, fat chance me having a kid after today." "Hmm." "It's my hair." "I know, honey." "Stephanie says that Josh doesn't get to tell me what to do with my hair and that I should just cut it anyways." "Well, Stephanie isn't Kosh's girlfriend," "You are." "A little lesson about men" "They need to feel important." "Stephanie says" "I don't care what Stephanie says," "Honey, it's just hair." "When you love someone, it's nice to make them happy." "Erica?" "Hey, Sammy, hey, mom." "What are you doing here with a baby?" "I'm just baby-sitting for a friend." "Erica needs help." "She needs some experienced hands." "Well, I have a set of those." "Come here little guy." "Hello, handsome." "Yes." "Shh..." "Sleepy-sleepy-sleep." "You're lucky the Salsbergs are having a baby shower next week." "I just pulled this out of the gift basket and sterilized it, and... let the sleeping begin." "His mom really doesn't want me using those." "I don't think that we should." "Did you turn out ok?" "'cause you were hooked on them." "And I liked my sleep." "Oh, God, so do I." "I had no idea." "I'm going to work." "Promise me you'll call the boy's mother." "Today." "Yeah." "oh God, no." "You want me to go in?" "No, no, it's fine." "He's learning to self-soothe." "Thank you for making me come here." "Well, who would leave a crazy girl with a baby" "Having a meltdown." "See?" "We just need to give Max a few minutes to cool down." "Oh, yeah, you needed to give him a pacifier, like last night." "You know, this is the first time we've been alone together since... probably last spring." "What?" "!" "No, that's not possible." "Yeah." "Think about it." "Back in high school, we used to spend... sometimes days together." "Trust me, 10 years from now, we are still gonna be hanging out, and we're gonna laugh at this time." "You don't know that." "What if you hit 30 and you're, like, some famous author and we don't have anything in common anymore?" "Not gonna happen." "How do you know for sure?" "Because you're one of the most important people in the world to me." "You're my best friend." "Finally." "It's quiet in here." "Yeah, everybody's sleeping." "Judith is crashed out on the couch, and Max is over here." "Come and see." "My mom is getting the biggest" "Mother's day gift ever this year." "Not as easy as it looks, huh?" "The amount of havoc that little person caused" "Unreal." "I had no idea." "Neither did Judith." "She had to give birth on top of it." "To have your life change so radically, it's bewildering." "Everything that she was good at-- litigation, case law, lunching with clients..." "Gone." "And instead, chaos." "Beautiful chaos, but chaos." "So tell me something?" "What did you need the most when you had a baby attached to you every moment?" "For people to understand." "You know, to give Max and I room to figure it out." ""friendship is born at that moment" ""when one person says to another," ""what, you, too?" "I thought I was the only one."" "C.S. Lewis." "Hey, I was wrong, and I am sorry." "This--this-- the whole sleeping thing, it matters a lot." "You were right." "Thank you." "I mean, I didn't try hard enough to understand where you were coming from." "Well, it's really hard if you haven't been there, how babies get when they're overtired." "Oh, I know, 'cause..." "Because I was talking to a friend and she was telling me stories." "The deep knee bends and blow dryers, and the crazy lengths she went through to get her baby to go to bed." "Well, I've been there." "I bet." "Is he sleeping?" "Oh, I miss him." "Whenever I'm away from him, I just start thinking," "Ohh..." "Is that a pacifier?" "I know, but he's sleeping." "And he needed to sleep, Jude." "You said that yourself." "I mean, it's just-- it's one pacifier." ""put him to bed at 7:00."" ""don't give him a pacifier."" "These are not hard rules to follow." "But this, tonight, is like, you know, it's like our whole friendship on repeat for years." "Yeah, and for years, I've been the screwed-up sidekick and you're perfect, Judith Winters." "Jude, people change." "I'm not the same person that I was, and neither are you." "I am not a screw-up, and you most definitely are not perfect." "Thank you." "Keep the change." "Care to sit?" "Well, Kai was right." "About what?" "Once your friends have kids, you're on the way to friend divorce." "Oh, well, that would be a shame." "You and Judith share a lot of history." "I tried to see where she was coming from, to understand her point of view and... but it wasn't enough." "And that's the trouble with friendships." "Each one is a two-way street." "What more can I do?" "You can wait." "For what?" "Hello?" "Uh, hey, um..." "Can we meet up?" "Now?" "Yeah." "Goblins in 20 minutes?" "Please?" "Sure." "I'll see you there." "Um, thank you." "Thanks for dinner, mom." "You're welcome, sweetie." "Sam, wait." "I've been where you are." "In the foyer with lasagna?" "I lived your father's life, and then I lived for you and for Leo and for Erica," "Never for myself." "What are you talking about, mom?" "Do you really want to move to London?" "It's an amazing opportunity." "For Josh." "But what about you?" "Sam, look at me." "I'm just trying to tell you I know what you're doing... and it's a mistake." "I need to go." "I needed to speak up, Sam," "And now you need to, too." "Thank you for dinner." "Sam." "Ohh... ?" "I want to know ?" "?" "just how you feel ?" "?" "I want to know... ?" "Thanks for coming here." "Mm-hmm." "I know it's late, I just..." "After you left, I started thinking about what you said." "How I acted and..." "I don't know what's wrong with me." "Jude, u have a 4-month-old, and you're tired and anxious, and the learning curve, it must be insane." "This is harder than law school." "I--I can imagine." "And, you know," "I'm trying to be supportive, but I miss you." "I missed you, too." "Every day, there's so many things that I want to tell you." "And I want to hear them." "I do." "And I know I got distracted today," "I do." "But I just..." "It's hard trying to... figure out how to pay attention to a million things at once." "Oh, God, I know." "You were telling me about Ethan." "Oh, Ethan, he's great." "I'm happy." "Confused and trying to figure it all out, of course," "But..." "basically I'm happy." "And work?" "Um..." "Julianne and Friedken are sleeping together." "And I got the biggest title of the year." "No!" "I know, I know!" "It's crazy, right?" "Oh, my God!" "Yeah." "Wow." "Things really have changed, haven't they?" "Yeah, they really have." "For both of us." "Can you handle some brutal honesty right now?" "I never expect anything less from you, Jude." "I don't feel like I'm really good at this whole mother thing." "I'm just..." "I'm not used to feeling like I suck at something." "I know." "And sometimes I really miss being at work, you know?" "Everybody tells me I should just love being at home on mat leave, that it's..." "I can't tell Aly and Marie how I'm feeling." "I can't even tell Anthony." "The only person I feel like I can tell is you." "Do you remember those crazy sex dreams" "I used to have about Professor Lozar?" "Mm-hmm." "Well, sometimes I still have them." "Really?" "And I would never tell anyone." "I can't tell Ethan." "But..." "I tell you because we tell each other everything." "Yeah." "Erica, I am gonna-- I'm gonna try harder, ok?" "Ok." "And I want to make time for you." "I mean, I'm gonna make time for you." "I just... things get so crazy sometimes..." "Jude, I get it." "And I'm not gonna get angry or resentful when you can't or you have to cancel." "I promise." "Ok." "Thank you." "I ordered wine." "Ok." "When life pulls you apart, you have to work to stay close together" "By putting yourself in each other's shoes, by reminding each other of who you were and who you are becoming." "By remembering that despite all the changes that come, there are some things that will always remain the same."