"Picture this:" "you've spent the past five years of your residency training to become a surgeon." "But those five years suddenly don't matter the only thing that matters the only thing between you and the rest of your career is a test in a random hotel in a random city with a random examiner asking you random questions." "Nervous?" "You should be." "We should be gone by now." "The flight's not for three hours." "You're fine." "I-I'd be fine if people showed up on time." "No one is going to be late." "San Francisco is a short flight away." "There's no reason to be nervous, okay?" "Oh." "Not again." "I'm sorry." "It's just that my parents called me this morning to wish me luck, and they told me that their church is praying for me, and what-what-what if I don't pass?" "One in five people don't pass." "Kepner, stop." "You're a trauma surgeon." "We're soldiers." "We fight battles harder than this test every single day, and we win, okay?" "So dry your tears." "I want you to repeat after me." "I am a soldier." "I'm a s-soldier." "No, no." "I want to hear you mean it." "Repeat." "I am a soldier." "I am a soldier." " Now get on the bus." " Okay." "Karev?" "Now have salmon for dinner." "And tell room service to make sure it's not frozen." "You lose omega-3s if it's frozen." "Avery, are you listening to me?" "I'm trying not to." "All right, how are you on cash?" "I figured you needed some." "Uh..." "Okay, don't overthink it." "They want standard protocol, not cutting edge." "I mean, this is a test in proficiency, and well, y-you're proficient in your sleep." "So just make sure that you get a lot of sleep." "You want me to be relaxed, right?" "Exactly." "This isn't helping." " You're right." " Bye!" " Go!" " Bye." "Kick ass." "Ahh." "Hee!" "It's exciting, huh?" "They started off with so little promise," "I feel like I'm witnessing a miracle." "Where the hell is Karev?" "Oh, he'll be here." "I trained him right." "Oh." "Okay." "Coming!" "Don't leave without me." "Miracle." "Where is Meredith Grey?" "They called ten minutes ago." "She started throwing up right after I dropped her off." "She's really warm." "Maybe I should stay." "No, babies get sick." "It sucks, but it's the disgusting circle of life." "We have trained too hard." "I have personally put in hours of my life that I will never get back, so you are not failing just because your mommy hormones are all "Code orange."" "Go to the airport." "Pass your boards." "My baby is sick." "Well, lucky for her, her father's a doctor." "Takes a village." "And Zola's village is chock-full of doctors." "Okay?" "She will be fine." "Just go." "Make me proud." "All right." "Mama loves you, Zo." "You're my Zozo." "I love you." " I'll be home soon." " Yeah, shh." "Hey, Torres, thank you very much." "Do you mind looking after her for a minute?" "I gotta make some calls." "Yeah, no." "No." "Sofia had that bug last week, so..." "I'm not getting anywhere near that." "What happened to, "We're a village"?" "It's a metaphor, Shepherd." "Good luck." "What's the deal with Tommy's platelet count?" "Did you know it dropped?" "He's not your patient anymore, remember?" "His crit's been decreasing, and his sats are low." "We might want to..." "We've been getting along just fine without you these past few weeks." "I don't need you butting in now." "Karev, outside." "Now." "Tommy's deteriorating." "What did his X-rays show?" "Just... shh." "Okay..." "Look your examiner in the eye, but don't stare." "And don't... and don't rush your answers." "You know, it's okay to take a second to just compose yourself." "But don't... don't take too long." "Yeah, I got this." "Okay, I hope you do." "What?" "I mean, I know you do." "23 minutes late?" "Not okay!" "Is it too late to request a van without you on it?" "I need you, Lex." "Hi." "Uh, uh, what?" "I need you." "I'm doing a skin graft, and I'm stuck with an intern who thinks that debriding the necrotic tissue is the title of a nine inch nails album." " Are you sure it's not?" " It might be." "I'm not familiar with their later work." "You're just sad because Jackson is off to take his boards." "He and I work well together." "We understand each other." "Like you and I used to, you know?" "So I need you." "I can't." "Uh, I-I-I am way behind on all of this, um, research for Shepherd." "You know, I was gonna pull an all-nighter to finish, so..." "All right." "Thought it would be fun, working together again." "But if you're busy..." "Mark, wait." "You should check out the latest nine inch nails album." "It is pretty... fresh." "Okay." "I said fresh." "16-year-old male driver, car versus streetlight." "Arrested once before they freed him in the car and once in the rig." "B.P. 80 systolic, tachycardic." "Contusions and lacerations over chest and abdomen." " Where's Altman?" " Abdomen is rigid" "So there's probably a lot of blood in the belly." "It took over an hour to get him out." "Uh, kid arrested twice in the field." "Add an E.K.G. to the trauma labs and get X-ray in here, stat." " Right away." " Oh, god." "Ricky." "Oh, excuse me." "What was he even doing in his car?" "He's supposed to be at basketball practice." " Okay, is he allergic to anything?" " No." "Does he have heart problems?" "No." "Probably driving too fast." "We sore that if he got even one ticket, we would take that car away from him." "Hang a unit of O neg and make sure the C.T. is ready." "Rick!" "What is happening?" "Why are they doing..." " Let's step out." "Let's step out." " What's going on?" "Oh, sorry." "Ow!" "That's... oh, case western reserve." "Uh, do you know Ted Stevenson, head of trauma?" "I do, yeah." "He just offered me a job." "I might be an attending there." "April Kepner, Seattle." "Kevin Banks." "I'm the guy whose job you took." "I was waiting to hear, but I guess I just heard." "Thanks a lot." "Well, he hates me." "How do you do that?" "You've been here, like, two minutes." "My examiner is gonna hate me, too, instantly." "Don't psych yourself out." "One in five people fail the boards." "Fine." "Psych yourself out." "It's just a test." "We've all dealt with worse." "No one's bleeding out on your table." "We will be fine." "Cristina." "What?" "Zola has the stomach flu." "So?" "Kids get sick." "Derek's with her." "Zola has the stomach flu." "Oh, no." "No, Mer, you can't be sick." "Mm." "You cannot be sick." "Okay." "You're just freaking out." "Okay." "J-just take deep breaths, okay?" "Just take deep breaths." "So do you guys wanna go register and then go get some lunch?" "Oh." "Wh... uh, what just happened?" "Stomach flu." "Zola has the stomach flu and you didn't say anything?" "How could you?" "Are..." "are you trying to sabotage us all?" "It's not like it's the black plague." "You are supposed to be our friend." "Oh, April, calm down." "Oh..." "Y-you stay right where you are, typhoid Mary." "Come on." "Let's go register." "Mer, just sit." "And I'll get your registration package." "Next in line." "Hey, Dr. Robbins, it's Alex." "Uh, listen, I was thinking about Tommy." "Uh, have you tried liquid ventilation?" "It's just an idea." "Let me know." "Dude, is that your mom?" "Baby." "Oh, no." "I know." "I know you don't want to see your mother before the boards." "But they are wearing this old girl out." "Got me examining three sessions tomorrow, and I might not see you, so I had to say good luck." "Okay." " Mwah." " Thank you, mom." "Oh, and I brought it." "Mnh-mnh." "No, no, that's fine." "You don't..." " It's in here somewhere." " That's fine." "That's okay." "That's what you always say," " but you always want it in the end." " Okay, all right." "Mom, I'm good." "I am." "I'm in room 809 when you change your mind." "All right." "All right." "Excuse me." "Mommy bring you your binky?" "It's my lucky pencil." "She brought my lucky pencil." "You know this is an oral test, right?" "Yes, I know, okay?" "It's just, I used it for my S.A.T.S, and my M.C.A.T.S, and my intern exam." "So it's your binky." "It's... sort of like my binky, yeah." "Okay." "Fill this out." "There must be, what, like a hundred people in this room?" "Okay, if Kepner is right, 20 of them are screwed." " I'm gonna puke." " Relax." "You're not one of them." "No, on you." "So... it's his bowel?" "Again?" "We won't know how bad it is without opening him up." "Okay." "Morgan, we've already removed part of his bowel." "There's a very good chance he won't make it through another surgery." "You've said that before, a lot." "We'll do it." "Do the surgery." "We can't wait for you to prep an E.V.R." "All right." "Well, why don't you open him up, and I'll get him prepped?" "You're gonna fill him full of blood thinners, his organs will bleed out before we get a chance to save them." "He needs damage control." "Opening his chest will cause more damage in the long run than we can control." "She's right." "This gives him his best options for recovery." "This sounds like a good compromise." "Dr. Hunt, sir, no one's told us what we're supposed to be prepping for?" " Laparotomy." " E.V.R." "Both." "Now that's a good plan." "Both." "Prep him head to toe." "All right then." "Okay, page me for the tib-fib fracture when you're done." "Hey, where you going?" "Oh, you want to be in the O.R. with those two?" "They hate each other." "Oh, they're professionals." "They'll be fine." "No, it's awful." "It's tense and it's cold and it's dangerous." "It feels like defusing a bomb in a haunted house that's built on a minefield, and there are bears everywhere, and the bears have knives." "Uh, now I have to be in here with 'em for the next eight hours." "You have to tame them or you will die." "We will all die." "Their hate will destroy the hospital, and then the whole planet." "I am counting on you, Bailey." "We're all counting on you." "Godspeed." "Okay, 56 year old presents with pancreatic ductal obstruction... and dilated main pancreatic duct." "Post-op procedure..." "Yes." "Dude, give it a rest." "If we don't know it by now, we're screwed." "Besides, you've got your magical pencil to see you through." "He's got a magic pencil?" "Oh, say more." "His mommy brought it." "Wait." "How magical is this pencil?" "And can it stop that?" "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "This all just got really, really real." "And man down." "Two men down." "First Grey, now..." "Meredith's not down." "She's fine." "Whoa." "Shut up." " Dr. Robbins." " Karev, why do you keep calling me?" "Well, you don't answer my texts." "I just want to know if" " you got Tommy's X-rays back yet." " Yes." "Okay?" "Yes, and your hunch was correct." "His necrotizing enterocolitis has returned." "Is Morgan, uh, are... are you gonna operate?" "Yeah." "In a few hours." "We're prepping him soon." "Listen, I will text you when I..." "Wait." "Karev?" "I gotta go." "Go where, to eat?" "No, I gotta go back to Seattle." "What?" "Hi." "Yeah, no, just... sorry, I was napping." "I'm just, uh, I-I feel a little tired is all." "How's Zola?" "Her fever's down to 100." "Stop worrying." "I can hear her screaming, Derek." "No, no, she's screaming," ""Go, mama." "Kick butt on the boards."" "Is she really feeling better?" "Yeah, you hear that?" "She stopped crying." "And now she's smiling that cute little smile she does." "Oh, yeah." "I love that smile." " You gonna be all right for tomorrow?" " Tomorrow?" "Yeah." "I feel great." "Listen, I made some calls." "There is an opening at mass general, and we could do this." "And Zola could grow up" " with a Boston accent." " Whoa." "I don't even know if I want the job at the Brigham." " And I haven't passed my test yet." " You will." "Oh, don't touch the buttons." "Zola, I'm talking to your m..." "Wh..." "Nice." "I don't take chances." "My kid just hung up on me." "Yeah, that'll happen again." "W-where did you get an I.V. and fluids?" "I'm a doctor in a hotel full of doctors." "Roll up your sleeve." "You're a nice person." "Ah, don't get all misty." "I'm outta here in 60 seconds." "This room is like a viral cesspool." "Ow." "I take that back." "All right." "Fluoro out." "Okay." "Where were we?" "Clamp, please." "I hope that was worth it." "Hey, just checking in." "Almost done?" "Almost, but you should ask Altman." "Uh, she usually disagrees with me." "I need to check the final position of the graft so, yeah, I disagree with Hunt." "Okay then." "I don't want to interrupt the work that you're doing here, fixing the problems that we all want fixed, that we all need fixed." "So, uh, I'll be back." "Uh, you could stay." "There-there's room." "Stay!" "You mind if I join you?" "No." "Uh, please." "I sent my idiot intern to get me lunch." "I told him to get me anything but lentil soup." "You know what he brought me?" "Lentil soup." "The future of medicine." "I don't know." "We're not all hopeless." "I know." "I'm spoiled with Avery." "He's quick, he's thorough, he's funny." " Right, in a very dry kind of way." " Right?" "What the hell happened to you two?" "Why'd you break up?" "Great." "It's dumbo, the flying idiot." "I left him treating a burn." "Now he's probably the one on fire." "To be continued." "O..." "Retract more here." "I need better visualization." "How can I help?" "What the hell are you doing here?" "Look, I can't just stay in that hotel room and not do anything." "There's nothing for you to do." "Come on." "I'm here." "I can scrub in." "No, there's nothing that I can do, Alex." "Take a look yourself." "Almost the entire bowel is necrotic." "There's nothing else to be done." "I'm closing." "We're falling apart." "Meredith's sick and Alex..." " What the hell was he thinking?" " Mnh-mnh." "See, you gotta put all that out of your head." "Okay?" "Concentrate on your own game." "I'm a soldier." "What?" "Nothing." "Hey, but we're still standing, right?" " Hell, yeah, we are." " Yeah." "Me and you." "Me and you." "Who is that?" "Oh, that's the guy who thinks I stole his job." "He hates me." "So what?" "He's a douche." "Ah, and here he comes." "Nah, dude, just don't." " Just sit down..." " No, no, I-I want to apologize." "I was a tool this afternoon." "No hard feelings?" "Sure, yeah." "No problem." "No problem at all." "I'm sorry." "You have nothing to be sorry for." "I mean, best man wins and all that stuff, right?" "Or woman, whatever." "Yeah, he's had a few beers." "You know what?" "And he got bad news today, so we'll just..." "All I'm saying is, obviously, she can offer something that I can't offer." "All right." "Everybody's a little wound up, all right?" "So big day tomorrow, maybe you should, um, go sleep it off." "Are you the boyfriend?" "You know, you should watch out next year, 'cause, uh, Ted Stevenson likes himself a redhead." "All right." "Okay, Kevin." "I think you can leave." "Or maybe you found that out already." "Is that how you got the job?" "Oh!" "Ohh!" "Whoa." "Bitch!" "Hey, look, you need..." "Really?" "You want to go?" "Yeah, bitch!" "I want to go!" " Stop!" " Yeah, you want more of this?" "!" "'cause I got more!" "Shut your big mouth, all right?" " Oh, yeah, it goes with my big brain, dumbass!" " What?" " That's why I got your job next year!" " April!" " Ugh!" " Enough!" "Now if anyone is still here in 30 seconds, you're barred from the test." "Now get!" "That was not our fault, okay?" "These case western reserve guys," " they started the whole..." " What are you doing here?" "!" "What am I doing here?" "What are you doing here?" "We just came down here to get something to eat..." "No, I thought you were here to prove that the considerable amount of money spent training you wasn't wasted, that the dreams you had of becoming surgeons won't vanish in a puff of smoke tomorrow when the examiner asks you a question" "and you can't answer it because instead of getting a good night's sleep, you were engaging in a barroom brawl." " We should probably go." " We should go." " Good night, chief." " Okay, night, chief." "Oh, my god." "Good lord." "So you d... you didn't do anything?" "You just closed him back up?" "There was too much necrosis." "He's not going to survive." "So we'll keep the pressors going, keep him on T.P.N. until he's ready." "There's got to be more that we can do." "Morgan..." "We did it." "You did it." "You did it all." "I'm sorry." "I really am." "All right." "I am almost finished here." "I think this boy is gonna have to lose his spleen." "You see any way of salvaging it?" "Mnh-mnh." "What..." "B.P.'s crashing?" "What... what happened?" "There's a leak." "The graft is leaking." "Fluoro in." "I knew it." "What-what did you know, that grafts leak?" "It's common." "It happens." "Well, fix it and then get out." "What do you think that I am trying to do?" "All right, the leak is below the diaphragm." "I can try and fix the graft by..." "Here." "The abdomen's already open." "We can try to fix it manually." " Fine." " Try it." "Fluoro out." "Uh, I'm having trouble visualizing with all this blood." "Hunt, a little help, please." "No, Altman can assist." "Altman?" "My head's not in the game." "I shouldn't be here." "So, uh, if you've got this," "I will..." "leave you to it." "Catherine?" "Richard?" "You're an examiner?" "Either that or I'm stalking you." "Well, that's a win-win if I ever heard it." "Give me a hug." " I-I didn't know you'd be here." " Every year." "Making the future of medicine wet its pants." "What are you doing here?" "Archie Katz... he came down with the stomach flu, and they asked me to sub in." "You know, I figured I'd spend the entire day staring at sweaty, anxious residents." "This is a real improvement." "I should hope so." "Coming." "No, don't open the door." "I-I don't want to breathe your air." "I just want to know if you need anything." "Oh, no." "I'm okay." "Did you sleep?" "No, it's worse when I lie down or... whoa." "Uh, um, when I stand up, apparently." "Do you think Zola's gonna hate me?" "Why?" "Because moms should be with their kids when they're sick." "All you want to do is lay on top of your mom when you're sick." "My mother was never around to lay on top of, and now I'm not there for Zola to lay on top of." "I was just wondering if you think she's gonna hate me." "Owen slept with someone." "Yeah." "Did you know?" "Yeah." "Does everyone know?" "No." "He thought you told me so he told me." "Anyway, that's how I know." "Okay." "He's a pig, and you deserve better." "Are you still there?" "Yeah, I'm still here." "Oh, my god." "That was amazing." "You just punched a guy." "I punched a guy." "You were freakin' crazy in there." "Jackson, we are gonna do this." "I-I-I can feel it." "I... this is our last night as residents." "Let's hope." "No, stop that!" "You just stop doubting yourself." "We freakin' kicked that guy's ass in there." "We are gonna kick this test's ass." "How come you're so confident all of a sudden?" "I'm a soldier." "Yeah, I still don't know what that means, but..." "Mm." "April." "Should I not have done that?" "I, um..." "I..." "If you want me to stop, just say so, and I'll stop." "I just... you're..." "The way you're kissing me right now, you just..." "You're a virgin." "You're a virgin." "Yes, because my whole life since I was a kid," "I had this idea of how my life was supposed to be, these rules that I was supposed to follow, but I'm not a kid." "I'm not the same person I was when I started my residency." "I just punched a guy." "And it felt really good." "And if something feels really, really good, it can't be bad, right?" "I, uh..." "Jackson, hey." "It's okay." "Really." "It's okay." "I'm just saying, if Jackson doesn't pass tomorrow," "I'm holding you personally responsible." "Well, don't worry about Jackson." "He kept his head down." "He's in good shape." "And how about you?" "How's Adele?" "Okay, I think." "I haven't seen her in a while." "It confuses her more than anything when I'm there." "How are you with that?" "It's the right thing." "Actually... she's happier." "At our age, you would think we wouldn't have to grow up anymore, huh?" "Hey." "How are we doing in here?" "I am not the problem." "He is." "I mean, he is completely unwilling to collaborate." "He should've been in here fixing that leak." "Oh, but, no." "He is just not willing to even hear me." "I mean, it's obstructing patient care..." "Really?" "You had eight hours." "Why is this on me?" "Well, because she'll listen to you." "And because I organized ladies night." "It's your turn." "Jump in and save the day again." "I can't work with him if he is gonna fight me on every single thing." "Okay, he is not fighting you." "He disagreed with you on a course of treatment." "That is something doctors do." "But you don't see him as a doctor." "You only see him as the man you blame for the death of your husband." "And you know and I know, that was not his fault." "But he's accepted that blame because he thinks it makes you feel better." "He's not fighting you." "But you keep fighting him." "He lost you." "He lost his friend, and now he's probably losing his wife." "His world is falling apart." "So I hope blaming him is helping you, 'cause it sure isn't helping him." "I've turned off his pressors so we won't be able to manage his blood pressure anymore, and his T.P.N. and his fluids, so he won't be getting any more nutrition." "You okay?" "I'm gonna turn off his ventilator" "And remove his E.T. tube." "Do you need a minute?" "His breathing will slow down and his heart will eventually stop." "It may take minutes." "It may take hours." "This is the first time" "I've ever really been able to hold him... without the tubes and junk." "It's nice." "Stay." "Please." "Thank you, doctor." "Hey." "Ah, we meet again." "Hey." "Thanks." "Mm-hmm." "Uh, by the way, it wasn't me, was it?" "What?" "That split you two up... the fact that Avery and I are working together, the fact that you have to see me all the time?" "I mean, I don't-I don't make you uncomfortable, do I?" "No." "No, no, no, no." "I..." "No, you don't." "Great, because this is nice." "Talking to you..." "I miss it." "I miss you." "I miss you, too." "And... the reason that Jackson and I broke up, it..." "Oh, you know what?" "We don't have to talk about that." "It's really... it's none of my business so forget I asked." "We can be friends who don't talk about that stuff, ever." "Okay." "Oh, but as your friend, if you're not over him, you should tell him, because seriously, you guys are great together." "Thanks." "Don't stay too late." "And I look just to the left of their head." "It freaks 'em out." "You are terrible." "Oh, come on, now." "You gonna try and tell me you're all warm and maternal?" "I am supportive and I'm encouraging." "Mm-hmm." "I've watched you with your students." "I know your moves." "Oh, do you now?" "I certainly do." "I don't know." "I may have a move or two that you haven't seen." "Would you like some... some coffee?" "No." "More-more dessert?" "No." "Yeah." "You tired?" "Not in the least." "Would you like me to get the check?" "Honey, could you get us the check, please?" "Yes, ma'am." "Okay." "That was really great." "That was really..." "Yeah." "Yes." "Yes." "Yes, that was..." "You were great." "I mean..." "I mean, are you, uh..." "Are you glad we did that?" "Yeah." "Yeah." "So you're okay?" "Yeah, I'm fine." "I'm just... tired." "Yeah." "You should get some sleep." "Yeah, I should get some sleep." "Here or..." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Or... or you could go." "Don't you have to get your pencil?" "It's the middle of the night." "Right." "Yeah." "But you know what?" "I could go if you want." "Yeah." "You know what?" "I'll go." "You can get some sleep." "Okay." "You sure you're okay?" "I'm great." "I'll see you tomorrow." "You can stay with me." "Alex, Jackson, and April moved out." "There's room." "I don't want to come stay with you." "Is he moving out?" "I don't know." "But you're not together." "You broke up." "No, we can't just... break up." " We're married." " I know." "I mean, I think Derek used a pretty good attorney for his divorce." "I don't want an attorney." "Okay." "Well... he cheated on you." "Yeah, this isn't you and Derek." "He didn't fall in love with her." "He screwed someone... one time... when he was drunk." "I mean, does that mean my marriage is over?" "What he did was wrong." "And if it were me..." "Hey, if I screwed someone once when I was drunk... and I could, I know me." "If I did it..." "I wouldn't want Owen to leave me for that." "Everything isn't so perfectly right or perfectly wrong." "Okay." "Say it." "You got married awfully fast." "Be on my side." "I am on your side." "But it, you know, it's like you're defending him." "And I don't know how we're supposed to feel." "Well, he's my husband." "Th-this is a marriage." "Okay." "Oh, I want to leave him." "Okay." "So that means I'm gone." "So you're gonna take the job at Stanford?" "Or Columbia." "Well, you'd be leaving me, too." "Well, you might go to the Brigham." "Probably not." "Maybe." "Yeah, I..." "I'd leave you, too." "There are phones, you know?" " Oh, you hate the phone." " I know I do." "But..." "I mean, I don't have to like it." "Put your hand under the door." "What?" "Just do it." "Oh, god." "Oh." "He stopped breathing." "No." "I'm not ready yet." "I don't-I don't... just please..." "I'm not ready yet." "Oh, god." "Oh, god." "Oh, my sweet Tommy." "Mommy loves you so much." "Oh, mommy loves you so, so much." "How's Morgan doing?" "She just lost her baby." "How do you think she's doing?" "Okay, look, Karev..." "Oh, come on." "It's been a long night." "Whatever you want to nag me about, just... can't it wait?" "No, it can't." "I need you as my peds fellow next year." "I need you to pass your boards, and you can't pass your boards unless you take them." "Look..." "I need to stay here with Morgan..." "Morgan needs to get by without you right now." "You were her baby's doctor." "That's all." "She's gonna be okay." "I will make sure she is." "The test is gonna be, like, in-in three hours." "I have never once seen you give up on a patient, Karev." "Don't give up on this." "I'm never gonna get there in time." "Try." "Are you up?" "How are you feeling?" "Worse." "Get up." "Seriously, Cristina, I don't think I can." "Open the door." "Just go get ready." "I'll be fine." "Open the door, Mer." "Oh." "Easy." "Easy." "Okay, now that's the last time you throw up." "Mind over matter." "You can do this." "Okay?" "Fine, ma." "You were right." "I always feel..." "Oh." "Sorry." "I thought this my mom's room." "Uh, uh, no, no problem." "I thought you were room service." "No problem at all." "Okay." "No." "Good luck, baby." "I..." "Do you think he's traumatized?" "For life." "Well, we did it." "We made it through the night." "You know why, Zola?" "'cause we're survivors, me and you." "And your mom's gonna pass the boards, and hopefully, you don't throw up on me in the next 15 minutes, right?" "Where have you been all night?" "At the hospital." "I was finishing your neuro research." "Why is she in a bumblebee costume?" "Oh, she's throw up on all of her other clothes." "Mark said that, uh... that he misses me." "But I miss him, you know?" "I, uh..." "I really..." "I really miss him." "You know, and he... he thinks that I still love Jackson, but I try to tell him that I don't," "I try to tell him that I still love him... but-but I-I open my mouth... and nothing comes out." "And everything is terrible." "It's gonna be okay." "It's gonna be okay." "What?" "Cristina texted, and she's about to go in." "She's feeling good." "And... and she's ready." "I ju..." "I just thought you'd want to know." "Kindergarten, high school... college, med school... residency..." "It all leads to this moment." "Good luck." "Diana Acardo." "April?" "Come on." "You're not even gonna look at me or..." "No." "No, it's not you, Jackson." "It's... it's Jesus." "I was a virgin because I love Jesus." "And now Jesus hates me." "Some people can crack under the pressure." "April Kepner." "Hi." "Others thrive." "Jackson Avery." "Here." "Oh, sorry." " Either way..." "There's nothing left to do." " Matthew Anderson." " No more studying, no more preparing..." " Nice to meet you." "Cristina..." "Mind over matter." "Cristina Yang." "Pleasure to meet you." "Like it or not, the moment has arrived." "Meredith Grey." "The only thing left for you to do is show up." "Alex Karev." "Alex Karev."