"" FALLING INTO PLACE "" "Sous-titres par la Fisher Team :" "Guzo, trauma, WillyOdin, Rico, De$ol@t!" "on, Paqui, FranckblisT, Sylvain" "See, we think we know what we're capable of..." "But maybe there's even more to being human, then, even the scientist you know... right." " I dig science, I dig oceanography the best." " I mean, this acid that we're on right now." "It's made by science." "That's what so fucking mind blowing about it." "It's scientific." " I love you." " I love you too." "Bruno your... your face is all like glowing from underneath." "It's like you're one of those lava lamps." "It's like you're made of human taffee." " I am." " Let me try." "No, come on." "I want to show you something." " Hey Bruno, man!" "Nice party!" " Hey, Cramboon, it's all happening, man!" " The moments." " Yes, the motherfucking moments, man," " they just keep on coming." " Right, right." " Where are we going?" " Higher..." "Come on." " We shouldn't be up here." " No!" "We should always be up here." "See, that's the tragedy of life..." " The fucking tragedy Sandy is that..." " My name is Cindy." "Cin.." "That is a beautiful name too." "There are so many beautiful names, I just want to tear every fucking name out," "I love every name." "And the hearts and blood..." " Let's go back to the party now." " No, I gotta go." " Ho Wahou." " Bruno..." " I'm sorry." " Don't be." " I didn't know where else to go." " It's not a problem." " Where did you get yourself so messed up?" " It just doesn't matter." "Some bar." "When do I get to self destruct." "When do you?" " Claire." " I mean it..." "I'm sick of Nate's bullshit, I hate that he didn't come to our mother's wedding, I'm sick of..." "I'm so sick of everything being so fucking awful all the time." "I'm sorry but I am." " I'll take Maya tonight if you want." " No, it's ok, I'll do it!" "..." "Obviously my thing." " Good night." " Good night." " Sweet dreams." " Thanks." " I feel like I've been eatin' this cake for twelve monthes." " Well, I wasn't going to say anything." " Well, I guess I'd better get going." " You can stay over tonight... if you want." "Here?" "Yes, if you are too drunk to drive or whatever..." " I guess I could do that." " What's wrong with "here" anyway?" " Nothing." " Here is where I grow up." "Nothing's wrong with it." "I just never stayed over your house before." "That's all I meant." "You can if you want:" "that's all I meant." "Look, I'm tired." "Ok?" "My mother just married some guy." "Let me be a little edgy." "You can be whatever you want, I don't give a shit." " So stay over." " Ok" " Jesus." " God." "I have to drive to Santa Barbara to pick up her body..." " To pick up my wife's body." " Go to sleep." "I can't." " It sounds impossible." "It's sounds so fucking impossible..." " Just sleep Nate, it helps." " It's weird." " What?" "It's quieter here than all over town." " Your place?" " Yeah." "Yeah, it's quieter." "It's stranger." "What's so strange?" "Ho, I don't know... the thought that I just got blown in the same bed where my mum used to read me the "Runaway Bunny"." ""The Five Chinese Brothers"." " Oh God!" " What is that?" " Is that Claire?" " No!" "God..." "George!" "Oh that was nice..." "It certainly was." "I'm married again..." " And?" " I think..." "I just never thought I'd be married again." " Are you happy?" " Very." "Me too." "I'm sorry your children couldn't come at the wedding." "Well, they were, very busy." "I get it." "I'd like to meet them though some time..." "Rayan and May?" "Sure." "You know so much about my family and I know so little about yours..." "I'm sure you'll meet them someday." " At my funeral if not before." " George." " If they even bother to come to that..." " George, I'm serious..." "Ok." "You've lived your life one way." "I've lived mine another." "The costs are different." "But I can tell you this." "Everyday, when I wake up," "I'm glad that I'm alive." "And if people don't like the way I've done things, that's their business." "But right now," "I'm so very happy I found you." "And I'm looking forward, not back..." "Ok?" "Do you think we were too loud?" "It's possible that we were too loud, yes." " Nate..." " You don't have to say it." "I know." " Bye." " Bye." "Call me if you need anything." "Yeah, I will." "I waited up until like four, he never showed up." " God, sorry." " Y'know, I couldn't sleep anyway." " Could you believe that?" " I was like completely scandalized." "I never knew the word "George" could sound so obscene." "Good for them." " You want some more coffee?" " Yes, please." "We have all gotta get out of this house if they're gonna keep doing that." "Yeah, out of the state, out ot the universe." "What happened to you?" "Lisa's dead." "Shit." "Her body washed up near Carpinteria a few days ago." " And some kids found her." " Fuck." "Took the lab 'til yesterday to figure out it was her." " Do they know what happened?" " Well, she drowned." " She just... drowned?" " That's what they said." "No evidence of anything else, 'bout..." " But she can swim." "Right?" " Yeah," "Just, looks like she drowned." "God." "So I have to..." " go to the coroner up there and get her." " I'll come with you." "Thanks." " Nate, what happened to your face?" " I got into a fight." "Good morning, morning glories..." "I hope we didn't keep any of you folks up last night." "They found Lisa's body." " She's dead." " Oh Lord." " I'm sorry." " So am I." "So am I." "Angelica!" "Sweety, I gotta be at work in like ten minutes, David is going up too with Nate so..." "Wait a minute honey, ok?" " Angelica come on." " Gimme a second." " Why were you so late last night?" " I was at work." "Yeah, and we had these body comings, a young girl... you really don't wanna know..." "Thank you for taking such good care of us." "Angelica, I'm serious." "So Keith?" " So what about him?" " You guys are back together?" "No." " Ha, he was there this morning." " He was a little drunk last night, I let him stay over" "I was being polite." "Polite and horny?" "And horny, yeah, thank you for bringing that up." "I never really thought Lisa and I'd be together forever." "I always knew something would come along and end it." "I just didn't want it to be me." "I don't believe how much time I wasted thinking." ""please don't let it be me that fucks it up"." " And it wasn't." " No!" "Good for me." "You smell terrible." "It's the cavity fluid, sorry." "The smell of it just permeates everything." "You always smell so cold and lonely... and it's also weirdly sweet like an old lady's hair." "It's the Velveton, a moisturizer." "It's to mask the other smell." " I'll take a shower before I come to bed." " When I'll die I don't want any of that stuff in me." " Yeah I don't blame you." " No, I'm serious." "I don't wanna be chemichalized and boxed up." "I just wanna be taken out to some open space, in a forest somewhere, buried right into the ground, ... nothing between me and the earth that made me." " All right you don't wanna end up in a graveyard." " Nate, the whole world's a graveyard." " Anybody home?" " Hello." "It's..." "Joe, I'm across the way, the guy that you didn't go on a date with last night." "Oh..." "Hi..." "Euh yeah..." "Come on in." " Hey." " Hey, what's in the bag?" " Are you... ok?" " Yeah I'm alright I guess..." "What's the matter?" " A friend of mine died." " God..." "I'm sorry." "Yeah." " I can go if you wanna just be alone..." " No, no, stay, stay..." "I've just been sitting here staring in the space all morning  gotta get my shit together at some point." " Chinese food?" " Heu, yeah yeah." "Do you want some?" "I got a little extra just in case of... you're around." "It's not a date thing, just a neighbour thing." "All right." " You eat shrimp?" " Hummmm..." " There is some salt and pepper shrimp in here somewhere." " I eat everything but mushrooms." "I don't like mushrooms either." " They're too much like parts of people, aren't they?" " They just taste dirty to me." " Here." " Thanks" "Hu.." "What's funny?" "I don't think I ever had a neighbour who just stops by before." "So?" "How is it?" "It's interesting!" "I don't wanna go in there." " Ok, I'll handle it." " Thanks." "This is the worst that I've had in a long time." "It's like those whales when they die." " Do you know what happens?" " No!" "The guts turn to cream and explode, all that's left when they wash up on shores are big bags of..." " This is my sister in law." " Oh shit shit shit," "I'm sorry, I thought you were here on business." "I am and this is my sister in law, you shouldn't talk like that about anybody." " Wait, hold on a second." " What?" "It's her jawbone, they used dental work to ID her." "And here is your death certificate." " I can help if you want." " I've got it." " Very sorry man." " You didn't know." " I just need to drive for a while." " That's fine." "Oh God, Jesus..." "Fuck." "Oh God let's get the fuck out of here." " Hey Barb." " Hi." " I miss her so much, it's so screwed up!" " I know." " Where is Maya?" " Nappin'." "You guys have to come up to Santa Cruz, to the farm, she'll have a blast with the kids and Hoyd is so great with the little ones, she'll love him!" "Yeah, we will and I hope it'll be fun!" "And you remember Simon and Sean." " Hi" " Hi" " So, which one of you is which?" " Him!" "A lot of people like ask you that everytime they see you..." "Hum Hum." "Sorry." " How was the flight?" " Very very long." "Flying over those mountains is a little scary to us." "I took a couple of Atavan." " But you found this ok once you got here." " Well good directions, no problem." " And the hotel?" " Everything, those were good... good directions..." "Love that Mapquest." "Oh that's a good site..." "hell of a site, extremely helpfull." " I'm still a little... shaken up." " Of course you are." "My little girl is... dead." " You wanna take a peek at Maya, maybe?" " Yeah, it'd be great" " You are Michaela." " I am." " I'm David" " I remember, I met you at the wedding." " I'm sorry about your aunt Lisa." " We're not gonna have to see her, are we?" " No." " That's a relief." "Are you..." " do you think you want something to eat?" " Not me but I bet the rest of them do." "They all love to eat." "I've had this goofy feeling in my ear for like a week now." "I think it started the other day you know, when I took the boys to the beach." " Angelica." " Hum what?" "I was wondering that hum maybe if it wasn't time for you to start looking for a new place..." " Is he making you do this?" "He is, isn't he?" " No." " You know, that's bullshit." " Seriously, don't you think it's time, ... that you get on your own two feet a little." "I've always been there for you Vanessa whenever you needed anything." "And I've been there for you." "Oh well yeah, when it's easy for you when it fits for you you're there for me..." "Shit!" " Watch your mouth in front of my kids." " I'm sorry but this ear thing is driving me crazy." " Angelica..." " No you know what, don't even talk to me Vanessa." "Don't even talk..." "Congratulations." "I'm gonna go pack my things." "Come in." " Can I escape in here for a second?" " Sure." "This house is crawling with people, there's nowhere to hide..." " What are you doing?" " I try to break my eye open." "Ouch." "It's what Olivier called it." "It's learning to see things differently, without all the same tired associations we've made all our sad lives... bla bla bla..." " Well, it's pretty cool." " Yeah that one's cool, they're all really cool..." "fucking Nan Goldin." "Hello!" "..." "So... you're back together with Keith ha?" "I don't know, maybe..." "Do you wanna be?" "Mmh.." "What I want is..." "I think I could be happy going back if I could..." " Break your eye open a little..." " Yeah!" "If we both could..." " Why, is it that hard?" " You tell me." " Yeah the hardest fucking thing in the world..." " Yeah it is..." "What about you, are you seeing anybody?" "You got a thing for anybody?" "You're kidding?" "Err.." "Everyone is an asshole who ultimately fucks you over and I'm totally done with that." "I'm thinking about becoming like a crazy ermite recluse.." " You won't always feel that way." " Yes I will..." " What?" " David!" "Everybody's waiting for you in the kitchen." "Gotta go..." "Thanks for the hide out." "Thanks for listening to me complaining about my cushy alienated life." "Anytime." "Ok here we go, gentlemen." "That's not what Lisa wanted." "With all due respect Nate, you only knew my daughter for a few years." "I think I have a little better idea than you of what she would have really wanted." "She hadn't been so busy throwing everything in my face with your strange ideas." " Mum!" " No Barb!" "She's getting cremated and she is going in the family mausoleum in Coeur D'Alène, that is final." " Peg, in times like these..." " David!" "The Kimmels have always done it this way." "Tell him Ed." "We've got a real nice space set aside for her." "It's almost like a little chapelle onto itself upon the hill, there." "But that's not what she wanted, does that matter to you people at all?" "But did she have a plan or a will or something that we could consult..." " Of course she didn't." " Honey!" " She wanted..." "She didn't want..." " What?" "She didn't want to be embalmed, she didn't wanna be cremated, she just wanted to be... put... back in the earth somewhere no casket, nothing." "That is just the sickest thing I've ever heard." " Mum." " No!" "... want to be eaten?" "By bugs... and worms?" "Yeah, well you should know that a lot of her already has been eaten by sharks and fish and shrimp..." " Nate!" " Stop yelling at me, tell him to stop yelling!" " She just wanted to return to the earth it's how she put it." " Well, ashes to ashes, dust to dust, right?" "It seems pretty clear to me." "I just can't believe that you wouldn't wanna honor your daughter's wishes about this." " Look it seems to me..." " What?" "I think we all need to be a little more aware of each other's grief right now and a little less agressive..." "Well it would be nice to do something that bares some relation to what Lisa would have wanted." "Thank you." " But if that's not possible." " I'm sorry I can't deal with this..." "David, you gotta deal with this!" " Why not..." " Why not what David?" "Let's all start to try thinking in terms of... a middle ground..." "Yeah." "Hey!" "It's me." "Hey!" "What's going on?" "Not much." "A fucking lot I guess," " where are you?" "Can you talk for a second?" " Sure." "Yeah, I was just on my way to grab coffee with these... two absolute idiots who think they're revolutionarists because they just went to their first flash mob, so..." "Later ain't any better!" "Say something, speak!" "Well, you know my sister in law Lisa, she was missing for like a very long time." " They just found her body, she's dead." " Holy fucking shit!" "Claire." " Yeah, it's really fucked up, isn't it?" " Claire, I'm so sorry." "Yeah." "Nate she's their little girl." "If something happened to Maya, don't you think you'd be a nightmare to deal with?" "God David, that's not the fucking point!" "You know it!" " It's their last chance to be her parents!" " Yeah and I'm her husband so the fuck what?" " Should I perhaps leave?" " No!" " Look you know I'm with you on this!" " Well I'm sorry because that's not painfully fucking obvious." "That's because, you asshole, I'm trying to keep everybody happy!" " Well it's working!" " I know it's not working!" "I think I could go realphabetize those unclaimed cremains while you guys..." "Arthur!" "Or I can do that later!" "Also it's good for me too." "You're just honest!" "You tell me, you think it's ok, for that fucking hydra which incidently is what Lisa called her." "Ok?" "Do you think it's ok for her to burn my wife up in a oven and stick her in a drawer." "And all that Lisa wanted was to be outside somewhere under the stars." "No but what you're suggesting is against the law, Nate." "We could lose our licence." "Look, I know you wanna do a good thing for Lisa!" "They do too, so do I..." "We all wanna do a good thing!" "I'm over here!" "What can I do for you?" "I'm looking for someone to." "I wanted to make a confession." " Do I know you?" " Hum, no." "No I didn't wanna go to my own church." "Ok." "Let's have a seat!" " We're not... going in there?" " Well we can if you like but  now there's a lot of people who prefer to do it face to face." "Well!" "Ok." "I say hum..." "I say everything else the same, right?" "Like the official way?" "You can say it however you like." " Ok" " Ok" "Well I'm married and I have two kids but the other night I went to a strip club called The Seventh Veil." " I'm not very familiar with it." " Oh, neither was I, but this, but this guy made me go and I met this girl and and I let her give me a... .. you know." "She... she oraly." "Do you know what the scriptures say about the sanctity of mariage?" "Oh yeah, yeah I'm kinda.. you know!" "I..." "I..." "I know the basic position of the scriptures and and..." " Whatever." "Yeah." " Good." " Do you know the act of contrition?" " Yes sir... yes." "Oh my God, I am heartily sorry for having offended Thee, and I detest all my sins, but most of all because they offend Thee," "My God, Who are all good and deserving of all my love." "I firmly intend to confess my sins, to do penance, and to amend my life." "Amen." "That was fast." " Hello." " Hi!" "It's me." " What's up?" " I just wanted to know when Lisa's funeral is gonna be." " Nate?" " Yeah, I'm here." " It's tomorrow at 10 o'clock." " You want me to come?" " Euh, honestly no." " Ok." "It's just there's a shit lot of people here Brenda." "I mean it's all kinds of Lisa's family from Idaho, it's a mess..." "You don't have to explain." "Is that all right?" "Sure, you do what you gotta do to get through this." "I'm trying." "Thanks." "Ok... bye." "Bye." "My sister Lisa didn't believe in borders." "She didn't see the edges and the lines in between things that most of us think keep life managable." "In this meant, if you were her sister growing up, she would always come into your room without knocking, or she would come into the bathroom and open the shower curtain just to tell you about some article she'd read or some boy she'd met." "And it meant, later on, that she would call me on the phone sometimes very very late at night just to tell me about a new recipe I needed to try." "Or... more recently, some new completely amazing things that Maya had done." "Or about how well things were going with Nate." "It also meant that she looked for ways every day to reach out to the people around her, to extend kindness to strangers when it was unexpected and to push everyone around her to see the things that unifie us with nature," "with each other," "with life itself." "Lisa didn't believe in borders, and that's why I know that wherever Lisa is right now, she's everywhere." "She's everywhere and that means she's home." " So are you ready guys?" " Ya, I guess." "Euh... this was one of aunt Lisa's favourite song." "1, 2, 3, 4..." "You... who are on the road." "Must have a code." "That you can live by." "And so become yourself." "Because the past... it' just a goodbye." " That was an amazing service Nate." " Lisa would have loved it." "So, where is she gonna be burried or scaterred or..." "We're gonna put her ashes in a family mausoleum in Coeur d'Alène." "Oh good, Idaho, good, you see that, I didn't even know she was from Idaho." "We've lost 3 friends in the last month or so..." "Kinda taking' it all." " Your poor thing." " We haven't even forty yet you know?" " What is it gonna be like when we are fifty or sixty?" " There's so much death." "And Maya what does she gonna do, she never gonna know her mother." "I don't know how you deal with it." " Thanks for coming." " Yeah..." "I'm just sorry it's under such totaly crappy circumstances." " Hum." " But it's so good to see you." " What have you been up to?" " Not much." "Making bad art, saying stupid things, continuing implementation of my master plan to... be completely forgotten when I'm gone and totally forgetable while I'm here?" " You" " Not much." "I got an abortion." "When?" "Like right after we broke up." "It's ok." "Give me a minute, did you just tell me that... we got pregnant?" "... that you had an abortion?" "And it was mine?" "Ours, yeah." "And you didn't call me?" "Even think you should at least tell me?" "I'm telling you now." "Why are you telling me now when there's nothing I can do about it?" "Because I'm lonely... because I need somebody to talk to about this." "Claire, I could have been there, I could have done something." "Russel, believe me, there was nothing to do." " What have been if I had been there?" " Like what?" "I wasn't gone to have it." "I know..." " I could have comforted you." " With what?" "Flowers?" "Balloons?" " Believe me you'd already done enough." " Jesus." " Look, I'm sorry... that I didn't." " Please, gimme a second." "Ok?" "Please!" "Just give me a second to get used to the idea of living with this for the rest of my life." " Are you fucking kidding me?" " No!" "I'm not!" "I'm not kidding you Claire!" "It's fucking sad!" "It's fucking sad and it's fucked up!" "I mean did you cry?" "Did you?" "I cried more than you have ever cried in your whole life." "Then give me a fucking second to feel bad about this." "Ok?" "Just a mother fucking second." " Is everything alright in here?" " Yes George, we're fine thank you." "Ok." "Sorry." " Do you need me to come with you to the crematorium?" " No thanks." "It could be good to have some time alone..." "I could... run by in the morning and get the ashes, y'know, it's on my way, Nate, it's cool!" "No thanks, Rico." "I told 'em Lisa's folks have to leave first thing tomorrow." "They'll do it when I get down, I'll bring her right back." "Allright." "I'm really, really sorry Nate." "Thanks." "Well I'm gonna go straight home." "Ok." " Say hi to Vanessa and the kids for me." " I will." " So I see you in about an hour?" " Ya." " Hey." " Hi." " Nate's gone?" " Yeah" " I hope this whole thing helps him... move on." " It probably will." "If I lost you Keith I don't know what I'd do." "You'd find somebody else." "I don't want anybody else." " I really don't." " Neither do I." " Then why do we..." " Keep fucking it up?" " Yeah." "Because we're human." "Ah, If there was a way to start over." "If there was actually a way to start over, I'd do it, I really would." "And is there?" "Even?" "Really a way to start over?" "Really?" " Just even in general." " I don't know." "You know, I was talking to Claire and she's trying to see in this new way, you know, for her art." "I don't know how it happens, I don't know where the new comes from, you know, the genuinely new." " God I don't." " So, stay with me." "Maybe we'll find out together." " Things would really have to be different though Keith." " I think so too." "I mean it." "I can't..." " I mean I don't want to sit for anymore therapy." " I don't either." "But, we have to look for ways to bring the good things we feel about each other more into the way that we... get through each day." "Yes, see." "That sounds a little like therapy to me." " Yeah." "Well, it's cheaper." " Yeah." "Ya." "And this is true I know." "I gotta quit my job." "That's the one thing I gotta do." "I think you should." "I mean it this time." "Everybody in the security is a fucking asshole." " Then quit!" " I'm gonna." "So did we just..." "What did we just do?" "Did we just get married?" "No!" " Seems kinda like we did." " Yeah well don't over think it." "Come here." " What were you just watching when I came in?" " I have no fucking idea." "Well, put it back on." "Whatever it was, just something." " Hey." " Hey." "You must go through a lot of money feeding all these cats." "Actually, I think it's saving money in the long run." "See, this way I gotta walk by all the homeless people and I think to myself:" ""Yeah, I'd love to help you out, but..." " ..." "I take care of cats"." " You don't do that." "Yeah I do." "That was nice the way you dropped by the other day." "No that was selfish." "I just wanted to see you." " Well, I appreciated it." " Anytime." " Like tonight?" " I could be free." "It's ok." "Come here!" "So what do you want to do?" "I'm so sorry." "Thanks for everything you've done for us." "Thank you Nate." " I'm sorry things got so complicated." " I am too." "Well these things just have a way of doing that though, don't they?" "They do." "Bye." "Take care." " I'm glad you're in my family." " I'm glad you're in mine." "Come on guys." "Watch your steps there." " So you're gonna go?" " Yeah." "There's still some stuff to clean up down in the basement, though." "I'll take care of it." "Thanks." "Cremains of Bruno Baskerville Walsh"