"A JOURNEY HOME" "I've lost many things in this life." "My job is one of them." "At this age?" "The timing couldn't be worse." "I'm sorry but... you're way past our employers' age limit." "But I have plenty of experience, see?" "Experience." "That's great!" "Try applying to other agencies." "You might get lucky." "Next!" "Has experience lost its value?" "Come to think of it, I sometimes wish I could forget the past." "My boss in Taiwan said that it was the crisis that cost me my job." "That there were many others like me, and that it wasn't my fault." "I must look for a job." "Driver." "Construction worker." "Caregiver." "All around." "Obituary EVANGELINE SIMBULAN" ""Evangeline Simbulan."" "Vangie?" ""She is survived by her loving children..." "Raffy..." "Gayle..." "Kristine..."" "I have lost many things in this life." "What happened between Vangie and myself, that was all my fault." "Excuse me." " Thank you." " You're welcome." "Your mom was a very good friend of mine." "And a very strong lady." "Imagine, she raised you on her own?" "What happened?" "Please take a seat." "It's in the papers." "Kristine?" "Take over for a while." "How are you feeling?" "You haven't slept for almost three days." "You should rest a while." "It's just a headache." "I just need a Paracetamol." "You keep taking medicine." "Mama wouldn't like that." "Raff, just leave it alone." "We didn't talk about this." "Who knows who might show up." "Raff, he deserves to know." "Baby, what are you doing over here?" "I broke Jake's guitar." "I'm afraid he'll get mad." "Well, just say sorry." " But" " Just say sorry." " Are you okay?" " Daddy..." "I'm sleepy." "Is that so?" "Let's go sleep in the back." "Come, baby." " How much is this?" " That's 1000." "One thousand?" " This?" " Four hundred." " Can you give it to me for 220?" " Three-fifty." " Two-twenty?" " Three twenty." " Two-twenty?" " Three twenty." " Two-twenty?" " Three twenty." "Come on, will 220 do?" "Mister, if you want flowers for free, just go pick some from your neighbor's garden." "Please, just give them to me for 220, I just lost someone." "Sir, all my customers are bereaved." "How about this?" "How much?" "One-fifty." "Last bid." "It's tough to bargain, to be pardoned." "How about my children?" "Can they forgive me for what I have done?" "Do they still remember me?" " Good morning." " Kristine?" "No, I'm Gayle." "Dad?" "I'm glad you could make it." "I read it in the paper." "I hope my presence doesn't bother you." "This is my last chance to see your Mama to say goodbye and ask forgiveness." "This is Gayle." "I'm Raffy's wife." "Raff is over there." "Thanks for coming." "Raff..." "Son." "Raffy..." " It's been so long" " Kidney failure." "It was late detection." "The doctors couldn't do anything." "Raffy." "Big-shot, huh?" "My kids are here." "Jake and Tinka." "Jake." "So you play guitar." "Yeah, I do." "I'll go back to my friends now." "Okay." "My youngest is at the back, resting." "She got tired from playing." "I didn't know I already have grandchildren." "Dad..." "If you are ready to see mom..." "Hi, Vangie." "Is it too late for me to ask forgiveness from our children." "And from you." "Where have you been?" "Three years, I worked in Japan." "Two years in Hongkong." "Nine years in Taiwan." "Here, I got you something to eat." " Thanks a lot." " Have a snack first." "What are you doing nowadays?" "Looking for a job again." "Really?" "You should live with us for a while." "There's an employment agency near our house, and I know somebody who can help you." "Gayle, are you sure that's a good idea?" "You don't have to, I don't want to trouble you." "I've already applied to many agencies, I'm sure someone will call." "Dad." "Later, I'll introduce you to my husband." "He's into sales." "That's why he's always on the phone." "I think he's nice." "I'm sure he's lucky to have you." "So are you coming to live with us?" "Let us pray." "Lord God, we are gathered here today to give thanks that you have blessed us with the life of Evangeline Simbulan." "Lord, we are grateful for her love and her company, which touched us here on earth." "Lord, we know that her passing has brought sadness to her loved ones." "We are praying for Raffy, Kristine, Gayle and their other loved ones that despite this loss, Lord God, you will be their source of comfort." "What should I do, Vangie?" "When I was abroad, I kept thinking of coming home." "But what if my family won't accept me?" "And may our good memories of Evangeline Simbulan will never be forgotten." "I was gone for 20 years." "I abandoned them for 20 years." "For all these, we give you thanks in the name of Jesus Christ." "Amen." "My brothers and sisters, I want to thank all of you for expressing your sympathy with the relatives of our dearly-departed Evangeline Simbulan." "Pastor, thank you so much for all your support." "Pastor, thanks for the support." "Thank you very much." "Don't mention it." "We're like family." "But I've noticed that you haven't been coming to church, Raffy." "Are you attending this Sunday?" " We'll see." " Okay, Raffy." " Thanks again." " No problem." "Raffy..." "Thanks again for allowing me to be at your Mama's funeral." "I'll be going now." "Wait, Dad, aren't you coming home with us?" "I need to go back." "They're waiting for me at my house in Pampanga." "The roaches, the lizards, the plants and the other insects." "I'll visit you or we give each other a call." "Okay, we'll be going ahead." "Jake, let's go." "Dad, I'm sorry about Raffy." "He still finds it hard to accept what has happened." "That's okay, I understand." "We'll go ahead." "Take care." "Thank you so much, Gayle." "Where's Raffy?" "I thought you're going with them." "Is he my daughter's husband?" "You can stay with us." "I'll just visit you." "Wait." "Wow, you have an impressive phone!" "Not really." "This is just cheap in Taiwan." " I'll get your number." " Sure." "My phone may be pretty, but I don't have anyone to text with." "There you go." "Give me a call so I can get your number." "We'll text each other, okay?" "Dad, let's see each other again." "I don't want to just text." "Of course." "Tinka, please sit properly." "Raff, don't you want to go back for Dad?" "What for?" "This is your chance." " It's been 20 years." " Exactly." "He'd been gone for 20 years." "That's why I'm perfectly happy" "Sure, Dad." "We can all see that." "No work, no family." "What else do I have to live for?" "Vangie, what if I just follow you to your grave?" "Raff, I'm just worried about you." "You're always angry." "You've also stopped going to church." "Maybe if you resolved your issues with your dad" "That's enough." "That's enough." "I don't want him in my house and that's final." "Dad." "Dad, what now?" "Come on, Tinka." "Please come in." "Feel at home." "If you need anything, don't hesitate to ask." "This is embarrassing." "I don't want to be any trouble." "Don't be like that, Dad." "Have a seat." "Dad, we're happy to do this." "We're the ones that should be ashamed." "Luckily, these are just minor injuries." "Raffy, do you still play the piano?" "Raffy?" "He doesn't know how to play." "Are you sure?" "He said that?" "Yes." "Nobody in this family knows how to play." "It's just part of the decor." "I don't even know if it's still in tune." "Really?" "What a waste." "Dad, maybe you want to rest awhile?" "You can relax better in Tinka's room." "I'll take you there." "Come on." " Be careful." " Thanks a lot." "Hi, Dad." "Hello." "Dad, you can stay here in Tinka's room." "Tinka will sleep in our room." "I can sleep in the sofa." "Dad, that won't do." "Tinka will keep you company for a while." "Tinka, show Grandpa your toys, huh?" "Okay." " I'll go ahead." " Thanks a lot." "Raff, come here." "Lend Dad some of your clothes, okay?" "Just get him a pair of pajamas." "I'll drive him to Pampanga tomorrow." "His wounds will take some time to heal." "And in a couple of days, I'll be bringing him to the employment agency so he can find a job." "That's okay with you, right?" "Here." "Raff, just please give it" "How can you be sure that work is the only thing he's looking for?" "What if he wants to stay with us for good?" "You take care of that." "Hold on." "Why are you blaming this on me?" "Who caused the accident?" "You did." "Grandpa, will you die too?" "Why do you ask?" "Because I had another grandpa who died, and then my grandma died." "If I'm going to die, I hope it's not soon." "Because I've just met you." "And I want to be with you for a long time." "Okay, I'll pray to Jesus so that you won't die soon." "Make sure to speak loud enough for Jesus to hear." "It's not the volume of the voice that counts." "Mommy said Jesus has a plan for all of us." "If Jesus wills it, he'll give you what you want." "Tinka." "Let's go, time to brush your teeth." "Say goodnight to Granpa." "Goodnight." "Goodnight." "Goodnight." "Oh, careful." "Just kidding." "Goodnight." "Let's brush your teeth." "Clothes." "Thanks." "Raffy wait, I just want to tell you something." "Brief." "Could you lend me a pair of briefs?" "Thanks for coming to Grandma's wake." "I like..." "It's Anna." "It's Anna." "Hello?" "Hello, Anna?" "You have a party?" "Birthday?" "It's your birthday?" "Happy birthday." "Okay." "My band can play at your party." "Okay, I'll practice right now." "Goodnight." "Jake." "How will you get a girlfriend if you behave like this?" "Jake..." ""Could you lend me a pair of briefs?"" "What kind of apology is that?" "Oh my goodness." "I have a message." ""How are you, Dad?" "Hope you are fine."" "Okay, let's go." "Oh, wait, baby, come here." "What did Mommy say?" "Finish your snack and be a good girl in school, okay?" "Kiss Mommy." " Bye-bye, Grandpa." " Tinka let's go, we're going to be late." "Be careful." "Drive safely." " Bye, Mom." " See you." "Bye." "Dad, let's go." "We have a lot to do." "Which of these clothes can dad use." "I wonder if this'll do." "Blue." "Dad, try these on." "They're Raffy's shirts." "These look expensive." "What are they for?" "We're going somewhere." "Somewhere?" "Okay, thanks a lot." "Come on." "Even my son's clothes doesn't like me." "I feel like I'm just squeezing myself into this." "What are you looking at?" "What are you looking at?" "Dad, come on." "Game." "I'm ready." "Let's go." "That shirt is a bit tight, isn't it?" "A bit." "Dad." "Excuse me, is Auntie Nenita here?" "Ma'am, please take a seat while I call her." " Thank you." " Okay." "Dad, have a seat." "You have nothing to worry about." "Auntie Nenita is really nice." "She's the one in this placement agency who'II direct you to a job opening." "She's the one in this placement agency who'II direct you to a job opening." "I hope so." "Dad, don't fret." "You can do this." "This is you we're talking about." "You are all so brilliant." "You make me so proud." "You are all so brilliant." "You make me so proud." "Okay." "So..." "You're the next one?" " Auntie." " Hi." " Auntie." " Hi." "Hello, Gayle." " Auntie." " Come in." "Come in." "Hello." "Thank you for your time." " Thanks, thanks." " He's the one I was talking to you about." "He's Raffy's Dad, Daddy Dante." " Dad, have a seat." " Hi, ma'am." "Just call me Nenita." " Hi, Nenita." " Sit, sit." "I told you Auntie Nenita's real nice." "So you're Dante." "You know, I'm a widow." "My husband died." "He's now with God in heaven." "What's your story?" "Tell me something about yourself." "Like, for example, what type of work do you prefer?" " I can do anything, ma'am." " Ma'am?" "We're the same age, you know." "I'm sorry, ma'am." "What I meant was sorry." "What I meant was sorry." "You even look younger than I am." "Oh, you're so witty." "I'm really a musician by heart." "My father and I used to sell pianos." "When I was 7, someone borrowed money from my dad and offered a piano as collateral." "The owner never got his piano back." "So I learned to play the piano." "The owner never got his piano back." "So I learned to play the piano." "How nice." "Dad, you haven't told us that." "You know, Jake is musically inclined too." "He loves to play with his band." "But Raffy hates music." " Emmy?" " Yes, Sir Raffy?" "Can you take notes at the meeting?" "Okay, no problem." " Let's begin." " Raffy, we're in trouble." "Mr. Lopez's lawyers are hounding us again." "Mr. Lopez's lawyers are hounding us again." "Our loan is long overdue." "If we can't pay" "Then we lose our company." "Everything." "All these." "I can think of only one solution." "We need to be aggressive in our collection." "We need to be aggressive in our collection." "Give them an ultimatum." "They have to meet our deadlines." "After this meeting, call all of our clients." " Okay, Sir Raffy." " Okay." "What about loan restructuring?" "Let us waive the interests so they can pay us their loans." "Let us waive the interests so they can pay us their loans." "In turn, we can use these collections to pay Mr. Lopez." "No, they have to pay interest." "Obligations must be met." "This is what we will do, Dante." "I will search our files for a good opening that best fits your background, okay?" "Thank you." "Thank you." "Here it is." "Fill-up this form." "Okay." "Then, get an appointment for a medical exam." "Dad, that's perfect." "There's a hospital near the house." " I'll take you there." " Thanks a lot." " I'll take you there." " Thanks a lot." "So I am not over-aged?" "Dad, you're still strong." "You can do it, Dad." "Of course, especially with that muscular body of yours." "Oh, stop joking." "Age?" "That's nothing." "It's just a number." "If ever we encounter a slight problem, the Lord will take care of it." "He will find the right job for you." "Thank you very much, really." "Gayle, my son is so lucky to have you." "You are just pulling my leg, Dad." "Who says I'm joking?" "You're not just pretty, you are also very caring." "You're not just pretty, you are also very caring." "This is so embarrassing, you're too kind." "It's nothing." "Maybe it's because I miss my dad." "He died two years ago." "It seems like he was a good father." "You know, Dad, I believe that there was a time when you were also a good father to Raffy and Kristine." "I don't think they can remember any of the good things I've done." "I owe my family so much." "I owe my family so much." "I want to make up for my shortcomings but I don't know where to start." "Sometimes, I ask myself, "Why should I bother?"" "I'll probably end up failing all over again." "Dad, don't give up." "Dad, don't give up." "I'll help you." "Our meeting with the employment agency was a success." "Auntie Nenita was impressed." "She said she's confident that she can give Dad a placement." "That's good." "That probably means that your visitor will leave this house soon." "That probably means that your visitor will leave this house soon." "Dad, we have a gig on Friday." " It's Anna's birthday." " Gig?" "You have a band?" "I also had a band in my day." "Jake..." "We've talked about this." "No gigs until you improve your grades." "By the way, how are your grades?" "By the way, how are your grades?" "Jake!" "Where do you think you're going?" "What?" "Do you want me to encourage this kind of behavior?" "I want my children to grow up to be responsible adults." "I'm finished." "I was looking for you." "I needed some air." " Did you drink medicine again?" " It's only Paracetamol." "Raff, you can't stop me from worrying about you." "Your headache seems to be getting worse." "It's been toxic at the office." "Is that the real reason?" "Is that the real reason?" "You're already living with your dad under the same roof." "Why can't you bring yourself to talk to him?" "He wants to ask for forgiveness, but you're not giving him a chance." "Gayle, this is between me and my dad." "Gayle, this is between me and my dad." "So, this is not your concern." "How is it not my concern, Raffy?" "Until you can let go of your anger towards your dad, your family will continue to suffer." "Why can't you just let it go?" "You're the only one who keeps insisting that I have to change." "You're the only one who keeps insisting that I have to change." "If you don't want us to fight, just leave me alone." "Please?" "He doesn't understand." "My dad hates music." "I'm so glad my parents are abroad." "I can do whatever I want." "Anything?" "Anything and everything." " So have you had a boyfriend before?" " What do you think?" "Wait a sec." "There's somebody at the door." "Wait a sec." "There's somebody at the door." "Open the door." "Text you later, bye." " Grandpa?" " Jake, mind if I borrow your guitar?" "Sure." "Come in, Grandpa." "Okay." "Thanks." "Grandpa..." "Looks like it's out of tune." "Looks like it's out of tune." "It is." "It fell and hit the corner." "I don't know how to fix it." "So that's the way to fix it." "It's okay now." "Isn't it, Grandpa?" "There, it's fixed." "There, it's fixed." " Thanks." " No problem." "I'll give it a go." "Come here, Jake." "Listen to this." "I think it's broken." "Really?" "Let's see." "Raffy and I were so close before." "If I didn't make those mistakes in the past, we'd still be like this today." "If I didn't make those mistakes in the past, we'd still be like this today." "Grandpa, you're good at this." "Is it okay?" "Some keys are off, it's a bit old." "It's good that you like music." "Daddy doesn't." "That's why he doesn't want me to be in a band." "That's why he doesn't want me to be in a band." "You know, your daddy has a secret." "It's late, Jake." "You should go to bed." "I'll go ahead, Grandpa." "Raffy, do you still know how?" "I made myself forget." "He turned his back on music because I turned my back on him." "If I leave, would he finally be happy?" "If I leave, would he finally be happy?" "Will he be at peace?" "Will he be at peace?" "I'll miss you." "Take care of my granddaughter." ""If today you hear the voice of God, harden not your hearts." ""If today you hear the voice of God, harden not your hearts." "Good p.m."" "Why is there a stain on your shirt?" "That iPod again." " Raffy, take care." " Bye, Mommy." "Bye-bye." "Dad, where are you off to?" "I'm going back to the province." "I'm going back to the province." "It's embarrassing because I've overstayed my welcome." "If only I don't eat so much." "See how my belly has grown?" "Dad, have you told your grandchildren?" "And Raffy?" "I was hoping you'd be the one to tell them." "Dad, the kids will be sad if you don't say your goodbyes." "And didn't we have a deal about Raffy?" "Dad, wait." "Okay, how about this...?" "I'll take you to your medical exam and when we come back, we can talk about your going home to Pampanga." "Is that okay?" "Later, I'll be saying goodbye to my grandchildren." "I don't want to stay if Raffy doesn't want me there." "What is taking so long?" "I have to pee." " Urine sample please." " Perfect." "Where did I come from?" "Right?" "Or left?" "Right?" "Left?" "Right?" "Left?" "Left." "My daughter's husband..." "With another woman." "There." "Slow down in front of that man." "Go straight, driver." "I knew it." "I knew there's something weird going on with that boy." "I wanted to send him straight to the morgue." "Driver, take a right here." "Dad, are you okay?" "Yeah." "How...?" "How will I tell this to Kristine?" "I don't want her family to be like ours." "Dad, we're too late." "It looks like she already knows." "What on earth can I say to make her feel better?" "I'm sorry." "All men are alike." "We refuse to be content with one woman." "We're despicable." "God, what right do I have to talk now?" "He called me a while ago." "He said it's better if I heard it from him." "This is not the first time." "He said he'd stop but..." "What do you plan to do?" "I don't know." "I feel like somebody kicked me in the gut." "I never thought Henry would do this, and with my friend, no less." "Kristine, I think, maybe you should talk it over before making decisions you might regret in the end." "I don't think I can talk to him." "I'm really sorry." "I'm sorry." "It's been a while since I prayed." "If I ask for another chance, will God hear me in heaven?" "Where do I get the nerve to ask him for anything?" "After all I've done." "You're Gayle's father-in-law, am I right?" " Mr. Dante?" " That's me." " Do you know how to play?" " It used to be my hobby." "You're just in time." "A new choral piece just came in for next month." "Maybe you can play for us?" "I'm too embarrassed." "I haven't had practice in a long time." "And I'm getting old, my fingers are becoming stiff." "The piece is simple." "Try it." "What do you want to hear first, Sir Raff?" " Good news or bad news?" " Your choice." "Well, according to my computation, we can pay 40 percent of our loan this month." "Good work, Emmy." "Good work." "Sir Raff?" "Sorry." "I'm just so happy." " But there's a problem." " What?" "Our collection agents said that our clients are deep in debt." "They were also affected by the recession so their businesses are down." "That's not any of our concern, Emmy." "There's some ways to" "They are aware of their obligations to our company." "We can't save them from their commitments." "Emmy, I can't go soft now." "There's just too much at stake here." "Okay?" "This is your business." "I'll do whatever you decide." "Loan restructuring is out of the question." "They have to pay us what they owe." "You can do it." "Good, good." "Will you be busy today, Mr. Dante?" "Why do you ask, pastor?" "Our pianist is sick." "Would you like to play during rehearsals?" "If this were any other place, I would say yes without a second thought, but here, I don't think so." "I just can't do it." " Why is that?" " This song is for him, right?" "Yes, it's for the Lord." "But why do you hesitate?" "The doors of this church are open to all." "You just say that, pastor, because you don't know what I've been doing my entire life." "But the Lord knows." "He may even have sent you here to be able to feel his presence." "There are many things left unresolved inside me." "I don't know how I could face him." "If not now, when?" "When will you be able to say that you've changed enough to have the courage to face him?" "Pastor, all I know is that I need more time." "My dad, he can still play very well." "Dante is really good." " Excuse me." " Okay." "What about you, can you still sing?" "Fly a kite, catch a dragonfly" "Count the stars at nighttime" "Draw an image" "From a dream" "Play with colors in the sunrise" "Lolo is really good with the piano, Mom." "Especially when the keys are working." "But you play guitar better." "You're so good, that even the choir took you in." "Mom, you should see him play." "I wouldn't miss it." "Yeah." "Mommy, lets go," "Daddy will come too." "Of course." "I'll go there after work." "Are we expecting someone?" "I'll take care of it." "Eat." "Where's Kristine?" "She's inside, eating cake." "Really?" "What flavor?" "Son, let's go for a walk." "It's rare that the weather is this nice." "Where?" "There." "I told you we should get this fixed." "You see, all this food wasted." "I still can't believe that Henry..." "Henry's having an affair." "How did you find out?" "Dad saw him with another woman while taking his medical exam." "A thief caught by another thief." " Raff." " She should stay here." "Why don't you let them talk it over?" "Maybe they can still fix things." "Do you want my sister to become a martyr?" "That's not what I meant." "Didn't I tell you we should just buy a new fridge?" "That's the problem with you." "Just because it's broken, it doesn't mean it cannot be fixed." "Throw the spoiled food away." "Henry, how long have you been married to my daughter?" "We will have been married for three years by November." "But we've known each other for seven years." "That's practically close to what they call the seven-year itch." "Are you familiar with a film starring, I think, it was Marilyn Monroe." " Marilyn Monroe?" " Yes, that's the one." "I remember doing some rotten things in my day." "It was like the bolts in my head had turned loose, and I couldn't control myself." "I looked at other women besides my wife." "Ashamed as I am to admit it, I had affairs with a few." "That's why you left your family, isn't it?" "Kristine wasn't even in high school when I left." "My affair with the other woman didn't even last a year." "And I've been paying for what I've done ever since." "What are you implying?" "I'm not like you." "We're different." "I will never leave Kristine." "Kristine, let's go home." "Dad, we're going." "Who am I to lecture my son-in-law?" "What he has done was nothing compared to what I did." "I have nothing to brag about." "Pastor..." "I acted like I was better than him." "But, really, I've been so spineless." "It took me 20 years to face my family." "The important thing is that you came back." "And your family can start to heal." "If only it's as simple as that." "I'm here, asking for my children's forgiveness while I can't even forgive myself." "I've done everything, pastor." "I turned away from my vices." "I turned away from my life." "It's still not enough." "I can't erase all the mistakes in my life." "Like you're running after something you can never reach?" "You want to be saved from your sins, but whatever you do, you cannot attain peace of mind?" "I'm dreadfully tired, pastor." "It is tiring." "You keep on relying on your own strength to reach salvation." "We've made so many mistakes." "How can we atone for all of them?" "Impossible." "The Lord knows this." "That's why he descended to the earth to claim punishment for the sins we brought upon the world." "If we put our trust in his act of sacrifice on the cross, only then can genuine change begin." "The Bible says, "If anyone who is in Christ, is a new creation, and the old is gone, and the new has come."" "I want to feel it, pastor." "Teach me how." "I can guide you with a prayer." "Let us pray." " Lord..." " Lord..." "I confess that I have sinned." "I confess that I have sinned." "That's why I find it hard to come to your presence." "That's why I find it hard to come to your presence." " I am thankful" " I am thankful" " because Christ died on the cross - because Christ died on the cross" " to pay for my sins." " to pay for my sins." " I want to accept you, in my life" " I want to accept you, in my life" " as savior - as savior" " and Lord." " and Lord." " Help me change my life's course." " Help me change my life's course." "Like him who rose from the dead, I want to rise up from my sins." "I surrender to you my life because I know that only you can help me turn away from everything that the Bible calls sin." "I'm accepting you now as my lord and savior." "I will follow your word from this day on." "In the name of Jesus, this is my prayer." "Amen." "Fly a kite, catch a dragonfly" "Count the stars at nighttime" "This is it, Lord." "From a dream" "Play with colors in the sunrise" "This song will guide you in the future" "In the past, my life was out of tune." "Right here and now, everything feels to be in harmony." "Facing tomorrow with a smile on my lips" "While watching you grow" "I'll be in the car." "Raff." "Raff." "Gayle, please." "Raff, have you any idea how happy Jake was when you said you'd watch?" "Why can't you make an effort?" "Is what I do for you still not enough?" "I went to church for you." "I let that person stay in my house." "I've given you everything." "But you're never satisfied." "Raff, I just want us to be okay." "To take away the anger in your heart." "You may not notice but we are the ones who get hurt in your anger towards your father." "Your family." "It's so easy for you to say, "Forgive, forgive."" "Were you there when he abandoned us?" "When we were broke?" "You don't know anything." "So go back inside your church where all the solutions are too simple to be real." "Raff, have you forgotten that you left me too?" "You broke up with me when I was 17." "When you found out that I was pregnant with Jake." "I almost died." "I gave birth without you by my side." "When did you come back?" "When Jake was already turning a year old?" "Because it was only then that you realized that you're ready to face your responsibility." "Raff, I forgave you." "It hurts so much, but I did." "It's that simple." "By God's grace and God's help," "I was able to accept all the pain you caused." "If God was able to take all my pain away," "I know he can also do the same for you." "Jake?" "Jake." "As they say, no bread stays tough in hot coffee." "How hot does my coffee need to be for Raff to soften up?" "I thought you'd already forgotten." "No matter how deep your anger is towards me, Raffy, you are still my son." " Is this thin enough, Dad?" " Oh, yes." "Will this do?" "Maybe I should do it?" "You might hurt yourself." "No, I'm used to this." " There." " Perfect." " Just half." " Yes." "Dad, it's up to you now." " Yeah, that's okay." " This'll do?" " That's fine." " Okay." "That's just perfect." "Not too hot." "The children will love this." "Vegetables are their favorite." "Wonderful." " I'll get it." " Okay." "Good afternoon." "Santos residence, what can I do for you?" "Dante?" "Dante?" "It's me, Nenita, do you remember?" "But of course." "What's up?" "I called up to give you some good news." "There's an employer in Kuwait who's interested in hiring you." "You're a blessing from heaven." "Your voice is the best thing I've heard this morning." "You're such a joker." "What do I do next?" "I'll schedule you for an interview and then..." "Wait, do you have the results from your medical exam yet?" "I'll get them first thing tomorrow." "Good, good." "So I'll be seeing you, Dante." "Thanks, Nenita." "Doc, are you absolutely sure?" "Yes, Dante." "According to your MRI, the cancer is already in stage four." "It has spread from your kidneys, to your liver and to your lungs." "So your lungs and liver are also affected." "Doc, why don't I feel any symptoms?" "There are types of kidney cancer that do not have any symptoms." "Kidney?" "Kidney?" "Isn't that what killed Vangie?" "How much time do I have left?" "In your case, it can be three months, or it can be six months." "I choose six months." "To be honest, realistically, we're looking at four months." "Six months?" "I don't want to give you false hopes, Dante." "Four months." "Five and a half?" "Four and a half." "Here..." "Five hundred pesos for five months." "Please agree, doc." "Okay, Dante, five months." "Five months?" "I thought I was given another chance." "I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up." "Yes?" " Sir Raffy." " Emmy." "Atty." "Perez-Cruz is here to see you." "Oh, great." "Let her in." " Okay." " You can go in, attorney." " Attorney." " Hello, Mr. Santos." "Hello, please have a seat." "So I guess, Emmy told you, we can pay 40 percent by the end of the month." "Well, actually, Mr. Santos, if you remember correctly, you signed a contract with my client." "Because you weren't able to pay the loan in full by the end of last year, well, we have no choice but to claim all your company's assets." "No, no." "Please don't do that, attorney." "My company will have to close down." "Mr. Santos, we've given you enough time." "But we can pay 40 percent." "I'm afraid that's not enough for my client." "Should I just accept that my life ends here?" "That it's too late?" "I hope you enjoyed that song, especially made for the birthday girl." "Again, we are The Boys." "And Happy birthday, Anna." "Raffy, what's wrong?" "Where are the children?" "Tinka's playing in Jake's room." "And Jake?" "At Anna's birthday party." "He's late." "Why isn't he back yet?" "He acts like he doesn't live in my house." "Raffy, are you drunk?" "It's my business." "I'll handle it." "There's our musician." "Is this how you want my son to live?" "Always coming home in the middle of the night?" "Not caring that his parents are worried about him?" "Raffy..." "You didn't care about us." "That's why you left isn't it?" "Raffy..." "I know I caused you so much pain in the past," " but it's been 20 years" " That's not enough!" "Anything you do now is useless!" "You can't bring back our family." "Look at that..." "You're even eating all our food!" "So it's not enough?" "This is it, Gayle." "I have to go." "Son..." "Grandpa." "Grandpa." "Where are you going?" "We'll text, okay?" " Where is he going?" " Jake..." " Did you fight again?" " Where have you been?" "I was with Anna." "With Anna?" "It's past your curfew." "What have you been doing there?" "Dad, I know you don't trust me." "But don't worry, I can learn from your mistakes." "I won't repeat what you've done to Mommy." "Jake, enough!" "And I will certainly not become a bad father like you." "Raff, that's enough!" "Jake..." "Daddy..." "Tinka!" "Tinka!" "I left my pants." "Lord, Father God, Bro," "Lord, Father God, Bro, you said you'll be good to anyone who puts their trust in you." "Why did this have to happen?" "I've lost many things in this life;" "my job, my wife, my children, wait what else is left?" "Nothing." "Even my body is giving up on me." "Lord why is it like this?" "Why did you give me hope only to take it back from me." "Since I can no longer fix things..." "Why didn't you just get me sooner?" "Five months is too long to spend life alone." "Without hope, life is too long." "It says here;" "It's better to have lived a day by your side, than a thousand in darkness." "Bro, Father God, Lord, I leave it up to you." "Oh, baby, sit." "Mommy, I want cereal." "Yes, it's coming." "It's you're favorite." "Baby, we have a little problem." "You're milk isn't cold, because the fridge is still broken." "That's okay, it'll still taste good." "That's your favorite." "Give Mommy." "Aren't you going to work?" "My business is closing down." "It's too late." "I should've given loan amnesty, and I shouldn't have insisted on collecting interest." "Jake." "Son?" "Come here." "Raff..." "Why don't we try praying as a family?" "I'm sure the lord will hear us out." "What have I done?" "Everything we've worked hard for will be gone." "This is my fault." "I don't know what to do." "Say sorry." "Say sorry, Daddy." "Jake..." "I'm sorry." " Sorry." " Sorry." "Sorry." "Dad, I'm really sorry." "Sorry." "Sorry." "Sorry." "Sorry." " Sorry." " Sorry." "Dad, I'm really sorry." "Sorry." "Mr. Lopez, I'm sorry." "Sorry?" "For what?" "My company has looked into every option possible to pay the loan." "That's why I'm very sorry." "I know you're against loan restructuring scheme" " Raffy" " Sir, please." "I've sacrificed a lot for this business." "My family, my health..." "Please take a look at my proposal." "Raffy..." "I too am a self-made man, that's why I understand you." "And I appreciate the fact that you've come to discuss this with me in person, instead of sending other people to give lame excuses." "I can assure you we can find a way out of this." "You seem shocked." "Mr. Lopez, I didn't expect this." "Well, Raffy, I too have had my share of close calls, and somehow, help always came from the most unexpected sources." "It's high time that I should pay it forward." "After all, we, businessmen should help each other out." "Especially during these times of financial crisis." " Am I right, Raffy?" " Yes, sir." "Thank you, sir." "Gayle!" "Auntie, come in." " Pardon me, my hands are soiled." " You're so hardworking." "Have a seat." "I brought something." "I came to visit Dante." " Oh, Dad." " As a representative of our agency." " But" " How is he?" "He's not here." "Dad went back to the province." "Maybe the fresh air will be good for his condition." "Maybe the doctor advised him to rest a while." "How is he?" "What condition?" "You don't know?" "He is sick." "He has stage four cancer." " Hello?" " Hello, Gayle?" "Guess what?" "We're okay with Mr. Lopez, we're going to be all right." "Really?" "Congrats." "You seem sad." "It's just..." "Dad is sick." "Raffy?" "Hello, Raffy?" "Gayle, call Kristine." "We're going to Pampanga." "Mommy, please answer my question." "How long will we stay in the province?" "We'll find out as soon as we speak with your Grandpa, okay?" "Come, let's go into the car." "It's time to go." "Get inside." "Jake, please get the bag." "Okay." "Get in." "Are you okay?" "Good morning." "Where's Henry?" "We're getting an annulment." "Are you sure?" "Let's go?" "Bro, Father God, Lord, if it's okay with you, I'm still hoping this is not the end that you have planned for me." "I'd like to think that I'm not going to be alone..." "That I'll be with my family again." "Don't you have cell phones?" "Why can't you just send her a text?" "Text?" "Why say it, if you can sing it?" "Bro, can I borrow your guitar?" "Sure." "Thanks." "Want to join me?" "Wait." "Is it recording?" "Yes." "I've already said action a while ago." "Oh, action." "Granny, look at the camera." "Camera, action." "I dedicate this song to my children." "To Raffy, Gayle and Kristine." "To my grandchildren." "Why do we need another stop-over?" " You're nervous, aren't you?" " You would be too, if you're in my shoes." "I've told him so many things I now regret." "I'm sure it's gonna be fine." "How were you able to forgive him?" "He abandoned both of us." "But you can still accept him." "Even now, in my mind, I can't bring myself to call him Dad." "It wasn't easy for me, but I had no choice." "It's in the Bible." "Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another." "Forgive as the Lord forgave you."" "When Daddy came to Mama's wake, that's when I read that verse." "It has never left my mind since." "It's a direct command from God." "How could I say no?" "That's like saying that it's okay for others to hurt us because we're obligated to forgive them, anyway." "The Lord will fight for you." "You need only to be still." "There's more of that in the Bible." "That's why I know there will come a time that the Lord will deal with the people who hurt us." "The Lord will give justice." "You mean Henry?" "I've forgiven him countless times." "Nothing happened." "He didn't change." "I think it's time for me to move on." "The Lord will take care of him." "Is that what I'll say to him?" "Maybe his illness is God's way of punishing him." "I can only say that Daddy is trying his best." "He came to us to ask for forgiveness." "In times like these, I think God wants only one thing from us." "For us to forgive." "Raff, the place seems to be empty." "Perhaps he's not in?" "Are you looking for Dante?" "Oh, yes." "We're visiting from Manila." "He's in the hospital." "You mean, Granpa?" "Which hospital, Granny?" "Raffy, what is it?" "Can you ask them about Daddy?" "Okay." "I want to forgive him, but it's so hard." "Especially when I remember what he did to us." "Raff, can I ask you something?" "Why is it so hard for you to let go of your anger for Daddy?" "Whatever it is that you've been through, for all your suffering when he left..." "Haven't the Lord brought back blessings, one by one?" "Look at you now." "You have your own business." "You have your family behind you." "And all of that is because of God's grace." "Don't you think it's about time you show the same kind of grace to your father?" "Is it really that hard, Raff?" "I don't know..." "I don't know." "Raffy!" " Raffy." " Dad?" "Dad." "How are you?" "Me?" "I'm doing okay." "I brought my neighbor here, his girlfriend broke it off with him, so his stomach started acting up." "Turns out, he only had gas pain." "Why are you here?" "Did you think...?" "So you thought...?" "All songs, no matter how beautiful, must end." "Am I at the end of the song?" "Isn't it funny?" "I was only here to help a friend." "Maybe my system wanted some attention too." "Dad, I know you're sick, so don't try to hide it." "Raffy, I want to ask for" "I'm the one who's sorry because you've tried so many times but I didn't give you a chance." " Raffy, I just want to say that" " Don't say it, Dad." "Just tell me that we're okay." "I want you to live longer." "So you can teach Jake and me how to play the piano and tell each other stories..." "Thanks a lot, Raffy." " I want to tell you" " Dad, you don't have to say anything." "Raffy..." "Dad, you need to rest." "I want to tell you something..." "Dad, please!" "I want to say... when can I take this oxygen thing off?" "It's uncomfortable." "I'll ask the doctor, Dad." "Grandpa?" " Do you know how to swim?" " Yeah, I know how." "Baby, time to swim." "They said it's painful, this illness." "You know my record, I'm afraid of many things." "Dad..." "I feel like I can die tomorrow and be perfectly happy." "Don't talk like that." "The kids'll cry if they hear you." "It's the truth." "Wanna go for a swim?" "I'll be there in a sec." "Bro, Father, God, Lord..." "Look, I have a beautiful family." "Thank you for the time you've let me spend with them." "This is more than what I've ever dreamed." "You're one of a kind, Bro." "If you call me now, it's okay." "I'm ready." "I've lost many things in this life." "My job, my wife, my family..." "I thought I'd never be happy again." "I thought I'd grow old alone." "I thought things will not be better." "Our fridge is working again!" "But I learned that there's still hope." "I dedicate this song to to my children." "To Raffy, Gayle and Kristine." "To my grandchildren." "And most of all, to my Savior." "This is for you." "Fly a kite, catch a dragonfly" "Count the stars at nighttime" "Draw an image from a dream" "Play with colors in the sunrise" "This song will guide you in the future" "Will guide you in building your dreams" "Facing tomorrow with a smile in my lips" "While watching you grow" "My youngest asked me," ""Daddy, why didn't Jesus hear my prayer?" "Why, did Grandap have to die so soon?"" "I told her;" ""I also wish Grandpa didn't have to die so soon, but look..."" "At first, I didn't know what to say, but I realized;" "What if Dad had died sooner?" "His cancer was already in stage four, he could've died anytime." "But God gave us the chance to say sorry to each other." "God used him to save our family." "And it's only now that I've felt the kindness of God." "His grace fell upon us, my family and I were changed." "I know that Dad is happy, because he has found everlasting life." "Thank God, there is always hope." "NOW WE KNOW THAT IF THE EARTHLY TENT WE LIVE IN IS DESTROYED" "WE HAVE A BUILDING FROM GOD." "AN ETERNAL HOUSE IN HEAVEN." "NOT BUILT BY HUMAN HANDS."