"Previously on Doubt..." "Every two years," "I go before the same parole board and tell them how sorry I am." "Obviously, you are not doing it right." "Isaiah is my lawyer, not you." "Mother, do you think that I killed Amy?" "Yes, but you're my son and it doesn't matter." "I'm sorry I doubted you." "Can we start fresh?" "Clean slate." "I met with the D.A." "They have a new witness." "Do you know her?" "She's my sister." "Told you I'd be grateful if you went out for bagels." "Well, I can't wait to go out again." "Isaiah's calling me." "What could he possibly want on a Sunday?" "I don't know, typically, I would answer the phone and find out." "Well, there's nothing typical going on here." "You're right." "It's Sunday, it's a day of rest." "Yeah, except, let's not rest." "You're very..." " Singleminded?" " Yeah." "I know, it's my best quality." "But, maybe I should call him back, 'cause he may have some information about your sister." "My sister?" "The case?" "Could you come up with a better mood killer?" "Yeah." "It's bothering me, though." "Why would they fly her all the way here from Korea?" "I mean, what's she gonna say?" "I don't know, Sadie, it's been 25 years since I've seen Molly." "No letters, no phone calls, nothing." "It's like the adoption didn't even happen." "She was Amy's friend, though, right?" "If they try to sneak hearsay evidence in... no." "It'll be character stuff, but we'll head that off." "We were gonna give ourselves a day." "A whole day, just us." "This is us." "The case, your sister, Isaiah calling me, it's all us." "One of the first things you learn when you become a surgeon is how to compartmentalize." "Like, if you were in surgery and you were thinking about your tax returns, a kid might die." "Okay, but to be fair, keeping you out of prison?" "It's not the same as tax returns." "Okay, how about this:" "If so much as a button is undone or a sock is off, then we don't talk about the case." "It doesn't exist." "We are alone on a deserted island." "No lawyer, no defendant." "Just two people." "Okay." "We're on a deserted island where there is no cell reception." "Buttons are coming undone." "Hey, good morning." "Peter, what are you doing here?" "At my apartment that I didn't give you the address to." "I come bearing gifts, news:" "Kevin Sokas is in the hospital, recovering from stab wounds." "Who, the baseball player?" "Pride of New York." "Center fielder." "Some woman stabbed him outside the front of a bar last night." "A big noisy case, lots of publicity." "Thought you might like it." "We can't chase clients, you know that." "You're right, bad idea." "I hear she reached out to the Sylvia Rivera Law Project." " They'll hook her up." " Wait, SRLP?" "Is this woman trans?" "Yeah, I guess she is." "Does that make a difference?" "No." "Maybe." "Yes." "They know me at SRLP, I got to get down there." "Hey, nice place." "Thanks." "Got to go." "Um, that was..." "I was going to leave, you were in the doorway." "Reflex." "It's like when you're on a business call and you go to hang up and accidentally say" ""love you" instead of "goodbye."" "Absolutely." "Remind me to call you later." "My son, Eddie, lost his battle to drug addiction." "19 years old." "My wife and I, we tried for years to save him, but we failed." "Maybe there is such a thing as tough love." "But one thing I do know:" "There is tough guilt." "Hi, I'm, um, Tiffany Simon." "I'm relatively new to the congregation." "Eddie was so great when I first moved here." "He helped me install my TV, and he did it for free." "Well, not for free." "He ate all of my cookies." "I'm so sorry for your loss." "Thank you." "I lost a cousin to addiction and..." "I'm sorry." "Anyway, um, it was a really beautiful eulogy." "Thank you." "They said it wasn't an overdose." "They're saying it was suicide." " Connie." " He would never do that." "Who said it was suicide?" "The rehab we sent him to." "He OD'd at the rehab facility?" "But where did he get the drugs?" "The rehab pharmacy." "They had a legal obligation to keep it locked at all times." "He broke in." "Of course he did, he's an addict." "They should have had better protection in place." "And by saying it's suicide, they're making it his decision, but this is their responsibility." "They are taking responsibility." " They're settling." " $5,000." "$5,000?" "Yes." "YYou need to fight this." "Wow, you weren't kidding when you said you'd be right here." "I was playing basketball." "You said it was important." "You look cute in your little basketball shorts." "I just left a game that I was dominating because you said you had something big and needed my help." "Please tell me you weren't lying." "Her name's Delilah Johnson." "Kevin Sokas attacked her this morning and she stabbed him." "Okay." "You weren't lying." "That's big." "He's at St. Daniel's." "Injuries don't appear to be lifethreatening." "And you need my help because..." "Delilah's trans." "If I represent her, that's one too many trans people at the table." "If it comes to trial, the jury may not trust you." "Like maybe you've got an axe to grind." "I do." "My axe is men shouldn't beat up women." "That'll be my axe, too." "Good." "She's in central booking, downtown." "I want to be there when you interview her," " so she knows she's with family." " Let's go." "Maybe we should stop by your place first so you can shower?" "Hey." " What are you doing here?" " Albert, I own the firm." " I meant on a Sunday." " Work." "Where's Sadie?" "Probably home, it's Sun..." "Sunday, that's already been established." "She's not answering her phone." "You going to interview Delilah Johnson?" "Yeah, we caught the case." "How'd you know?" "When are you gonna learn that I know everything?" "Delilah?" "Cameron Wirth," "Isaiah Roth and Associates, this is Albert Cobb." "You're my lawyer?" " Actually..." " I'm your lawyer, Ms. Johnson." "But you'll have our firm's full resources on your case." "So you're just here to make me feel good?" "We happen to think it's important that you feel good." "That you trust us." "You a Kevin Sokas fan?" "I was." "Why can't you defend me?" "This'll be a big case." "It wouldn't be long before I became part of the story." "A distraction." "Why don't you tell us what happened?" "I was coming home." "Picked up a few things from the drugstore." "It was 4:00 a.m., when the bars close." "This guy, he's drunk." "And I pass him by and he says something." ""Freak," I think." "So I answer back." "And then he comes at me." "And he's a big guy." ""Says he's gonna see if I'm "really a woman."" "And then he grabs at my breast." "I try to walk away and then he comes at me and get..." "Gets me in a choke hold." "After that, it's all a blur." "Like, I just remember coming to and there's blood everywhere." "And my knife's in my hand." " You had a knife?" " I always have a knife." "You got him in his side." "Nicked his liver." " But it's not life threatening." " Is that what you care about?" "I care about the jury and how they'd feel if you ruined their chances at a pennant." "Are you being kept with the other women?" "In with the hookers, where else?" "Have your injuries been photographed?" "Make sure they show tomorrow at arraignment." "All right, Isaiah, what is so important?" "I got your 87 texts and 23 missed calls." "Where have you been?" "My ringer was off." "What's the big news?" "You haven't seen the papers?" "No, but I heard about Kevin Sokas." "Have you heard about Jacob Ward?" "He made parole last Thursday." "The board was unanimous." "The RLF member who actually held up the bank teller at gunpoint gets paroled, while my mother, who only drove the van, is still in prison?" "There have been changes on the parole board." "I'm celebrating and so should you." "I never thought this day would come." "I kind of gave up hope." "Well, grab it back, and hang onto it." "We got a fight on our hands, but this time, I'm gonna make sure she comes home." "I understand there's a new development." "You haven't told her?" "Molly's here." "She's a witness for the prosecution." "Have you seen her?" "I have, briefly." "Just to get the chronology straight, you adopted Molly in 1979, when she was... four?" "Yes, a year younger than Billy." "They were always close." "He was very good with her." "It was a period in my life when I needed a new purpose." "My husband was in the newspapers a lot..." "His friendships with his young female campaign workers." "I got involved with a Korean charity and toured an orphanage over there." "And there she was." "I couldn't leave without her." "Was she even here when Amy was killed?" "She went back to Korea the same year, didn't she?" "Her biological mother showed up at the orphanage, demanding to see Molly." "I wanted to fight, but the senator... didn't think it would play well in the press." "There was all the chaos over Amy's murder." "I began to think that maybe" "Molly would be better away from it." "So I gave in." "I should have fought harder." "I don't know that you would have won, Maggie." "Do you have any idea, either of you, of why they brought Molly here to testify?" "No idea, there's nothing." "Molly has already refused to talk to me." "I can try again, but they've got her tucked away somewhere." "I'll refile a discovery motion to compel them to tell us what they have." "But that'll take a few days." "Let us know if you think of anything that could be of help." " Now I need to get to court." " Yeah, me too." "Billy?" "Can we talk?" "I'm meeting a friend Uptown." "I understand the parties have agreed to settle." "Actually, your Honor, the Hollanders have changed their mind and would like to pursue a wrongful death claim against" " the New Testament Rehab." " They can't." "This court has no jurisdiction." "Your Honor, may I approach?" "The standard admission form to New Testament Rehab." "Signed by the plaintiffs." "We don't have a copy of that form." ""All disputes between parties"" ""are to be solved by religious arbitration as set forth in the attached document."" ""Religious arbitration."" "Your Honor, we respectfully request that the case be dismissed for want of jurisdiction." " Did you guys sign this?" " That is our signatures, but I didn't realize what it was we were signing." "It was his second DUI." "They said it was either this or prison." "They were obviously under duress." "We ask that the court declare this contract null and void." "Religious arbitration." "A couple of ministers judging questions of fact and law." "How is that even legal?" "If we leave in an hour, gets us up to Bedford by 4:00?" "Yeah, fine." "Hey, easy with that cheese." "She's upset that our clients signed a religious arbitration clause and the judge upheld it." "It's absurd!" "What about the establishment clause?" "The separation of church and state?" "Goes both ways, Sadie." "If two parties willingly agree to settle their dispute within the confines of their chosen religion, the government has no right to interfere." "Looks like I'm gonna be cramming all night." "Black coffee and the Bible." "Fun." ""I will strengthen thee;" "Yea," ""I will help thee;" "Yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."" "Isaiah 41:10." "Different Isaiah." "Similar, though." " I didn't know you were religious." " Now you do." "Look at that." "Problem solved." "We'll have to prepare quickly, arbitration's tomorrow." "In Allentown, Pennsylvania." "My God, you guys." "Road trip!" "Road trip!" " Road trip!" "Road Trip!" " Road trip..." "Don't chant." "Don't ever chant." "Round one goes to us." "You made bail." "Security's coming to escort us out." "So what happens next?" "We claim this was selfdefense and put pressure on the D.A." " to drop the charges." " Okay." "But in the meantime, go home." "And don't turn on the TV." "The press is gonna dig up every jackass who ever have had a bad word to say about you." "You're freaking me out." "I'm trying to." "You ever play that game, who do I want in my lifeboat?" "You need your lifeboat right now." "And only the people you trust get in." "I'm in the lifeboat, Delilah." "I'm gonna help you through this." "No." "You wanted to tell me Jacob got paroled, I already knew." "Can't beat the prison grapevine." "Unanimous, threeperson decision." "Can't believe how goodlooking he used to be." "He thought he could sing." "We used to hide the guitar." "He pled guilty, named names, renounced the Movement." "That's why the victim's family dropped their opposition to his release." "Well, we're not gonna do anything like that." "WeWe've already been through this, Isaiah." "Absolutely." "We have a strategy." "No, no, listen, I get not naming names, but you have to renounce." "No one is asking you to renounce." "I am." "I'm asking." "It's just words, say the damn words and you can come home." "Don't you want to come home?" "Of course she does." "But we can't ask her to lie." "We target these new board members, tailor our arguments to their biases." "No!" "She says what he said, and she's out." "Sadie's right." "We have to do something differently, Isaiah." "You're going to renounce the Movement?" "I don't know what I'm going to do, but I think I'm going to need... new counsel." " You're firing me?" " Well..." "Hold on, Mom, I'm not suggesting that you fire Isaiah, he knows how this works much better than I do." "I'm just saying you guys need to be open to new ideas." "You're fired, too." "I'm sorry, what?" "You're right." "This year feels different." "Like we really have a shot." "You guys are too close." "I can't take that chance." "Find me a new lawyer." "Just be my family." " The D.A. requested this meeting?" " Yep." "Probably something to do with the online petition with 100,000 signatures demanding the charges be dropped." "Yeah, that old interview where Sokas' exwife talks about his violent temper, I'm sure that didn't hurt." "Thank you for dropping by." "I know it's late, but, well... this is important." "Classy doing it in person." "Most people would have dropped the charges over the phone." "We're not dropping charges." "Surveillance video from a store near the scene of the crime." "On a 24hour erase schedule, they got it just in time." "It's very dark." "No sound." "Let me give you a playbyplay." "There's our victim, Mr. Sokas." "Some yelling back and forth, impossible to say who started it." "There's a little mixup." "And... there." "Mr. Sokas withdraws, walks away, conflict over." "And there." "She comes back and attacks him." "One wound, two." "Two stabbings." "After the initial incident is over." "How's that selfdefense strategy looking now, guys?" "Needless to say, they won't be dropping the charges." "But it shows him punching me." "It's not the beginning that worries me, it's after." "See?" "He's walking away." "Makes it tough to argue selfdefense." "Once the attacker disengages, it's no longer selfdefense." "Now you're assaulting him." "I think we have to try to get a plea offer." "Well, I'll have Nick make a list of Sokas' corporate sponsors." "I'll start making calls." " What will that do?" " His corporate sponsors don't want this thing to drag on any longer than we do." "It's bad for business." "I don't remember him walking away." "I got to tell you, Delilah, juries don't love." " "I don't remember."" " It's the truth, though." "When someone comes at me," "I get this surge of adrenaline and I think, "This?"" "I know this, this is bad."" "And after, it's all a blank." "How often has it happened?" "Five, six times." "Fights." "I don't start them." "It turns to hate pretty quick." "When was the first time?" "My dad." "Everything about me was a slap in his face." " And he slapped back?" " He wanted me to be a boy." "A real man like him." "It would always start the same way." "Some ugly thing he'd say out of nowhere." "And then..." "Yeah, my dad beat the hell out of me, if that's your question." "There you are, Margaret." "Glad you called." "Helen sends her love." "She was over the moon with your donation to her charity." "It's such a good cause." "I don't know how we can thank you." "Let's put on our thinking caps, shall we, Judge?" "Please." "My daughter..." "You remember Molly?" "Is being held here, by D.A. Russo." "It's a secret, even from her own mother." "Are you asking me to find her and tell you where she is?" "There are ethical boundaries." "You're right." "It would be like cheating." "Our system of justice could never survive that." "It's not flexible enough." "Not like marriage." "That was a long time ago." "People change." "That's true." "My husband hasn't cheated on me in years." "Mostly because he's dead." "But you're still alive, aren't you?" "How is that attractive chief clerk of yours?" "Maybe I should throw a little dinner party." "Just the four of us:" "You, me, Helen, your chief clerk." "Wouldn't that be fun?" " Hey." " Hi." "You're going to Allentown, Pennsylvania." "You might be gone two whole days." "Needed to say goodbye." "You said goodbye last night." "And then again, this morning." "Yeah, that was some goodbye this morning." "You are taking my clothes off with your eyes." "The rental car's downstairs." "Hi, Cameron Wirth." "We haven't officially met yet." " Billy Brennan." " Good to meet you." "You ready?" "Yeah, I'll be right down, I'm just gonna finish up with Billy." "Okay." "I'm not finished, actually." "You are dirty." "And I have to go." "Her dad beat her." "She got beat up at school, too." "So Kevin Sokas comes at her and she's teed up for a fight." "I think the jury would find that reasonable provocation." "What do you think?" "I think the jury's gonna see that the fight was over." "Why do you keep looking at that?" "It doesn't get any better." "I'm just wondering if this is a fullres copy." "Get down to Carmody's office." "There's a deal on the table." "What is that?" "Wine." "Snacks." "I'm from Iowa." "We are scared of minibars." "Do you know how much a teensyweensy bag of jelly beans costs?" "We did get separate rooms, didn't we?" "Yeah, I did, but they're all connecting!" "And I call the middle." "I just talked to Albert." "He got a deal for Delilah, probation, no jail time." "That's great." "Hey, did you know there was another kid who died at the rehab, a couple of years ago?" "Yeah, I saw that." "Apparently, her parents settled." "And the M.E. report on Eddie is inconclusive." "I got it." "Thanks." "Sorry." "Hey." "Yeah, I'm in the hotel." "Well, motel." "Yeah." "I should, um..." "Um, I should... yeah." "Me, too." "Bye." ""Me, too"? "Me, too" what?" "I miss you?" "I love you?" "What kind of "me too" are we talking about, and can I see his picture?" "Stop." "It was just a friend." "You don't have friends." "You have Albert, and you don't get all "me, too" with him." "My God." "I can't believe you guys are sitting on the bedspread." "Do you have a death wish?" "I hope you didn't touch the telephone 'cause it's basically a toilet with a cord on it." "Here." "I'm going to wipe everything down." "Will there be any jail time?" "No, the sentence is five years probation." "No jail time." "Not unusual in a seconddegree assault charge." "By agreeing to this plea, the defendant has pled guilty to assaulting Mr. Sokas, who's still hospitalized as a result, so naturally, a restraining order will be in effect..." "He's dead." "Sokas is dead." "What's happening?" "I'm not too sure." "Sokas was pronounced dead at St. Daniel's ten minutes ago." "Septi..." "Septicemia." "Blood poisoning." "One of his wounds became infected." "How did you..." "You knew about this." "Come with me." "I didn't want to do this in front of the cameras." "You'd say in court I poisoned the jury pool." "You already have a warrant, don't you?" "You had it filled out when you offered this plea." "And you took this plea, and when you did, your client admitted under oath to causing the wounds that eventually killed him." "Tell me what's happening." "Delilah, I'm sorry." "They hurried up this deal so you'd plead guilty to attacking Sokas before he died." "But the judge said I'm free to go." "Your victim's dead now." "New charges." "You're being arrested for murder." "But..." "Of course you found me." "Everyone owes you something." "You're beautiful, Molly." "Cho Han." "Not that other name." "Can I come in?" "How's your mother?" "She died last year." "I'm sorry." "I came to Korea three times, you know, after you." "I could never find her... or you." "She didn't trust you." "Why are you here?" "To see you." "To hear about your life." "I know nothing about you." "I used to know everything." "Are you married?" "I'm divorced." "Children?" "Two. 13 and eight." "Do you have pictures I..." "They're not your grandchildren." "No, just to see them, that's all." "Do you think I owe you that?" "Do you think I've forgotten how you used photos of me?" "The little Korean girl in the magazines, at the edge of every picture to show the voters what a big heart you had?" "I loved you... and you loved me, whatever you think now." "I'm just glad you have them, a family of your own, a family that looks like you." "It's what you always wanted, I know." "That's Kwan and that's Nari." "They're beautiful." "She's like you, Nari." "You had that look, see?" "You're not my mother, you know." "But I was, wasn't I?" "Can you at least admit that for a while I was your mother?" "And I really loved you, and you loved me." "Yes." "Thank you." "Thank you." "So, Molly..." "Cho." "Why are you doing this to Billy?" "Billy?" "I knew it." "It's always been about Billy!" "No, this is about both my children." "Please, I need to know." "What are you going to tell them?" "I am going to tell them the truth, Mother!" "I'm gonna say what I saw!" "Did you visit Eddie once he was admitted to New Testament?" "There was a parents' weekend, but when we arrived," "Mr. Ensler said we couldn't see him." " He was being punished." " For what?" "He didn't want to attend services." "They treated him like a criminal." "Wasn't he?" "Wasn't he at my client's facility because he committed a crime?" "Or should he have stayed with you, drinking and driving, breaking the law?" "I object." "You don't get to belittle and blame my clients for the death of their son." "An arbitration doesn't have the same set of rules as a trial." "It's informal." "It's a conversation, and we want everyone to be able to share their truth." "The truth is this facility has lost two kids in the last three years." "That's a separate case." "It shows a pattern of inadequate care." "The place is understaffed, unsafe and punitive." "They have their own methods that have worked." "And for those it doesn't work for?" "You just shrug your shoulders, offer the grieving family some hush money and walk away?" "Ms. Ellis." "Connie, earlier, Mr. Rogers quoted Hebrews 12:6, which basically says if you want." "God's love you must accept his punishment, too." "Could I ask you to read this passage?" "First Corinthians 13:4." "I don't need to read it." ""Love is patient." ""Love is kind." ""It does not dishonor others." ""It is not easily angered." ""It keeps no records of wrongs." ""It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."" "Did your son receive that kind of love from New Testament Rehab?" "My son is dead, and they haven't had the decency to say they're sorry." "Does that sound like love to you?" "Murder two is absurd." "A day ago, this was a misdemeanor." "A day ago, the victim was alive." "You're overcharging." "You know this wasn't a premeditated attack." "Where I come from dead is dead, and stabbing someone is murder." "He died from an infection contracted in the hospital." "Where he was staying courtesy of the stab wounds your client admitted under oath to inflicting." "Because you concealed evidence of the victim's condition." "True, but it's permitted under the rules." "And made a low offer to trick us into pleading guilty and admitting that my client attacked Mr. Sokas." "Yes, I did." "Also permitted." "Which means the plea was entered under false pretenses, and this court should vacate it." "Not admirable, Ms. Carmody, but legal." "Mr. Cobb, your motion is denied." "As for bail, it's set at half a million." "Next." "Look at me, Delilah." "Look at me." "I'm gonna figure something out." "Eddie came to me the day before he died." "Said he'd been thinking about... ending his life." "Suicide." "He knew he was a disappointment to his parents." "He wanted it to be over." "You control everything at the facility, correct?" "The locks on the doors, access to food, bed time, prayer time, but somehow you let Eddie get into the pharmacy?" "The pharmacy was locked." "He got in despite all our safeguards." "Tell me about all your safeguards." "Did you have a security guard outside the pharmacy?" " No." " So, you must've had" " a... an alarm on the door then?" " No." "Was there at least a lock?" " Yes." "A padlock." " A padlock?" "Six feet away from the entrance to the pharmacy, there's a door that leads to what?" "A room of tools and supplies." "Where there's a crowbar?" "Yes." "You had a room full of drugs, a sixdollar padlock and access to a crowbar, and you still claim you had appropriate safeguards in place?" "It's the position of the New Testament Rehab that Eddie Hollander broke into the pharmacy to take his own life." "It is my position that you put a party platter of drugs under the noses of kids you promised to protect, and basically told them to help themselves." "Fullres version of the surveillance tape." "Here." "Look." "They fight." "Sokas turns and walks away... and then here." "He turns and yells something at Delilah before he keeps walking." "He yelled something." "His mouth is moving." "I think we need to get to Ensler." "Did you see the way he kept looking at his lawyer?" "Yeah, like he's been prepped within an inch of his life." "He's dying to say more..." "like you." "Dying to say more about your guy." "My God, what's wrong with you?" " What are you?" "12?" " Come on." "We're trapped in Allentown in a bad motel with 17 bags of chips." "It's just us." "What's the big deal?" "Trust me... it's a big deal." "Okay." "I'll go first." "I kissed Peter Garrett." " The D.A.?" " It was unintentional, but I think I want to kiss him intentionally, and spare me the lecture about kissing prosecutors." "I know all about you and Ferretti." "My God, is it Ferretti?" " Who?" " Your guy?" "No." "Is it Albert?" "No." "It's... it's complicated." "Great." "I love complicated." "Specialty." "It's Billy Brennan." "Sadie... you can't." "You could be disbarred." "See, this is why I didn't want to tell you." "I'm sorry, I just... this is a big deal." "You don't think I know that?" "Does he make you happy?" "The way that I feel when I'm with him..." "I never thought I'd get to feel this way." "How's the sex?" "I'm not telling you." "Back to work." "No." "You might be used to the fact that you're sleeping with your client, but I need some time... and some wine." "And this transcript, defense exhibit B, is your interpretation, as a forensic lip reader, of what Mr. Sokas is saying in this surveillance video." "Not an interpretation." "This is what he said." "And the transcript is because you're unwilling to say these words out loud in court?" "They are too ugly." "Racist, transphobic." "Words like these, you know, mmuch like the "N" word, can provoke traumatic responses in people who have been" " the targets of hate and harassment." " Objection!" "This evidence explains how her perception of danger is different from that of most people." "No it's shoehorning in psychiatric evidence in a selfdefense case." "They can't have it both ways." "We only want it one way." "Selfdefense." "But we need to be able to explain why Delilah felt her life was in danger, even though Sokas was walking away." "I'll give you a little room, Mr. Cobb, but only a little." "Dr. Hamilton, is it your opinion, as an expert on posttraumatic stress disorder, that Delilah Johnson's response to these words" " is consistent with PTSD?" " Yes." "Can you explain PTSD as defined by the DSM5?" "PTSD is a mental disorder that can develop after someone has been exposed to a traumatic event." "It rewires the nervous system to be in a constant state of alert." "And in Delilah's case?" "Between the childhood beatings by her father and the daily jokes, stares, heckling..." "With all of that, her fightorflight response was" " really messed up." " And how did that messedup fightorflight response manifest itself on the night she encountered Mr. Sokas?" "Hearing those words, her adrenal glands would have flooded her system, so for her, it would have been just like she was being attacked all over again." "Anyone who's been hit, anyone who's been called a name, could decide to kill someone and you would say it was PTSD?" " That's not what I'm saying." " Objection." "Withdrawn." "Just a few questions left over from yesterday, Mr. Ensler." "You're a former minister, aren't you?" " Yes." " I actually had a conversation with my minister when I was younger, very much like the one you described yesterday with Eddie." "I told him I was having thoughts about suicide." "He wouldn't let me leave his study until I swore to him I wouldn't act on those thoughts." "But you didn't do that with Eddie." "Naturally, I counseled him." "I'm going to ask you a question, Mr. Ensler." "As the Ephesians 4:25 states, "Wherefore putting away lying," ""speak every man truth with his neighbor:" "For we are members of one another."" "I'm your neighbor today, and so are the Hollanders." "And I'm having trouble believing that you'd let Eddie leave your office if you really thought he was suicidal." "Do you believe Eddie Hollander killed himself?" "This is hard." "This has been really hard." "Mr. Ensler has already testified that the position of the New Testament Rehab..." "No, that's your position." "I talked to Eddie." "We talked for hours." "About his childhood, and his friends, and what he wanted to do when he got out of rehab." "He didn't want to end his life, he wanted to live his life." " Mr. Ensler..." " See, the... thing is, here," "II don't have kids of my own because... these are my kids." "And they come here and they're all screwed up, and mad at their parents and the world, and then you see them start to open up, and let down their guard and share their pain." "And, yeah... some of them commit suicide." "But mostly they OD accidentally." "He didn't kill himself." "He wanted to come home." "Why did you say he killed himself?" "My lawyer told me I'd lose this whole place if I lost this case." "I was just scared." "I am so sorry." "You don't remember Mr. Sokas saying those words to you, do you?" "No." "It's all a blank." "But you've heard those words before?" "All my life." "Why were you on that street at 4:00 a.m.?" "I only shop after midnight." "The laughs and the stares, they wear you out." "Have you ever been assaulted?" "Last spring," "I was flirting with this guy in a bar." "And he was flirting back." "And then he... his face changed." "Like I had done something." "So, he yells over to his friends," ""Check out this..."" "I don't want to say what he said, but slurs, and he's making a show to them." "And then he puts his hands on me, all over me, to see what was there and what wasn't there, but..." "I was there." "A person." "After that, it's all a blank." "I just remember waking up bloody and on the ground, like with Mr. Sokas." "Did you want Mr. Sokas to die, Ms. Johnson?" "No." "He wanted me to die." "And I just wanted him to stop." "Thank you." "That's all." "You don't look happy." "Worried the jury will go our way?" "They're gonna want someone to pay for this." "They'll convict." "And you're right, I overcharged." "Man two, two to six years." "She'll be out in two, three tops." "Take it." "Please." "What do you think I should do?" "We lose on murder two, the minimum is 15 to life." "Take the twoyear deal." "But two years in a male wing..." "I don't know if I can survive that." "I want to roll the dice." "Okay." "I find New Testament Rehab Center responsible for Eddie Hollander's death... and award damages in the amount of $500,000 to the Hollanders." "I'm ordering that the facility be temporarily suspended from treating patients until further review." "Is this acceptable to both parties?" " Yes." " It is." "I forgive you." "In the case of the State of New York v. Delilah Johnson on the charges of murder in the second degree, what is your verdict?" "We find the defendant not guilty." "Thank God." "No." "Thank you." "Hi." "Forgot to give you this." "A little road trip souvenir." "Stolen minishampoos." "You shouldn't have." "Seriously." "Crime." "I haven't told anybody else about..." "I have no memory of anything you said." "Thank you." "So, my mother wants us to find her a new lawyer." " I'm sorry." " I want it to be you." " Are you sure?" " Well, I don't want to get too sappy, but these last few days, you're kind of badass." "Well, I'm flattered." "Is that a yes?" "That's a yes." "As your badass new friend, I just have to say, be careful." "I will." "You called me this time, so I'm not stalking." "That unintentional kiss the other day?" "Well, I think it might have been intentional." "Believe me, it wasn't." "That was intentional." "Yeah... definite difference." "I wonder what it's like not in a doorway?" "No." "You're taking me to dinner and you're going to bore me with your childhood and your stamp collection and your love of incarceration." "What has gotten into you?" "I don't know." "Courage, maybe." "I think I'm gonna need some of that." "Yeah." "You'll need tons." "Margaret." "I saw my daughter." "I've spoken to her." " I know what she's gonna say." " What is she gonna say?" "She's gonna tell them she saw Billy that night." "Standing over Amy's dead body in the park." "But that's not possible." "The DNA..." "Why would she say that, Margaret?" "She hates our family." "This is her way of paying me back by destroying the thing I love most in the world... my son." "We'll fight it, of course." "I..." "I just..." "These are her psychiatric records." "Tapes of her sessions with all the psychiatrists." "Use them." "Save my boy, Sadie."