"For my father, Norberto Habegger, missing, kidnapped by the Argentine Military in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil... on August of 1978 We still don't know his where abouts For him, wherever he may be." "On March 24th, 1974, the Argentine military staged a coup d'état starting... the self proclaimed "process of national reorganization."" "Since then, it started a brutal social, political and cultural persecution against those who opposed... the military dictatorship The main methodology used by the military was the compelling disappearance of people." "The dictatorship was over thrown in 1988 thus leaving a total of 80,000 missing persons Mostly, their where abouts are still unknown." "This is the story of six children of people who disappeared during that period." "I'm a graphic designer." "I'm working at a publishing company... and trying to find more time to paint." "I stopped painting for some time... and I'm trying to pull myself together again." "The ideal thing would be to start working less... just like every body wants, right?" "And dedicate myself to what I really like." "Now, I'm working at the library of Lanús University." "I've been working there for a year." "Before that, I worked in the area of the deputy dean." "I thought it'd be more interesting for me to work in a library... because it's nice to be among books... because students create a nice environment... because I was more in touch with people." "I work in Página 12 newspaper and I'm studying sociology." "I'll graduate soon." "I began working in Página 12 not long ago." "I do politics and many things related to human rights." "I began to feel more interested in acting and singing." "I felt that with puppets, even if the puppet is acting and not me... the puppeteer plays an interpretative role." "that I felt was very weak." "I began with that Then, I took to acting." "May be because I'm self centered and I like to show off." "That's acting You, on the stage, alone with your own soul." "EVERYDAY HISTORIES" "TRACES" "Look." "I'm going to show you a few things." "This is my mother." "She's Silvia." "This is one of her last pictures." "Here I have some family pictures." "Here's the family together, except for my grandfather." "My grandmother, my mother, my two uncles and aunt." "Those three are missing." "This is my father, this is my brother and this is myself when we were..." "I think my brother was 3 and I was 4." "That's in..." "Bristol Beach in Mar del Plata." "And this one here is..." "This is my brother and me... in the balcony of the house where we lived... four blocks away from here." "We were 6 or 7 years old." "If I'm not mistaken, there are several pictures from that day." "I think that in one of them, I peed in my pants." "My pants were wet with pee." "These pictures are not so old." "Here, I was a young kid." "But these others were taken one year... before my father disappeared." "Going in was very difficult." "He left when I was in 4th grade." "I started when the group was already formed." "They had been together for many years." "That difference caused a strong impact on me." "I remember the interview between my grandma... the headmistress and me." "My grandma told her my father and my mother had traveled." "She said she was in charge of me." "She made up a whole story." "I listened to that story once and I started repeating it... to my schoolmates, my teachers, an yone who asked me." "That was my speech:" ""My parents are traveling and I'm here"." "School authorities knew." "Not because I told them... but because my mother went to tell them about the problem." "Above all, when I was in 3rd grade, the year my father disappeared, it was a difficult year." "Since my father disappeared, I didn't do well at school." "My mother went to explain the situation." "The teachers and the headmistress knew about my situation." "Some of my schoolmates knew and others, didn't." "In general, I didn't say much to any body about that... except to one or two close friends whose parents were friends with mine." "So, they kind of backed me up." "My mother asked me not to talk about that." ""You'd better not talk about it," she said." "Then, I was badly scarred by an incident." "I was with my grandmother... and one of the babysitters who had taken care of me... when was living with my mother came to see me." "She found me, she got happy and we had a very nice meeting." "Then, she asked me to walk her to the bus stop... because she wanted to tell me about a few things." "She said, "Look, Ursula, I want to tell you something." "I want you to know that your mother most probably is dead." "So, don't wait for her any more."" "My parents had disappeared recently... and I was standing on a chair in kindergarten." "I started telling the kids that my parents had been taken away." "That my house had been broken into..." "I don't remember exactly what I said... but I know it ca used a stir among the other parents... who then went to ask about what had happened." "It looks different, right?" "Yes, I had never seen it." "This road... it seems crazy that this little road still exists." "I was told when I was 10 due to a tribute paid to my father." "I saw the pamphlet, I asked... and that's when I was told what had happened to him." "Until that moment, the story I had been told was... that my father had gotten killed in an accident." "Being just a kid, it was difficult to ask me not to say anything... or to tell how my father had died." "It was also very dangerous for me to talk about it." "You bear the title of "missing."" "And to build on that when you're a kid... and talk about it with your schoolmates... and tell them, "He is somewhere but I don't know where"... is something very strange." "And people came and said, "you have to understand her... after everything she went through."" "It caused something inside and I said, who's gonna understand me?" "With the burden I had to carry being just a kid... to prop up something like that, and live with that is terrible." "Anyway, it was very difficult, very difficult." "And there was no way out it was just like that." "Since I learned about it, it drew my attention." "I never thought I could be the son of missing parents." "I can't find an explanation to it." "if this incident hadn't mattered to me... or I didn't know what had happened or I didn't care..." "Or I never related it to that..." "But I knew what had happened since I began to be aware of it." "Or because I began to get information about it." "I knew about the dictatorship, about the missing people... about the kids that had been taken..." "But it never occurred to me and I don't know why." "I remember I became a close friend with Norma, a school mate... for whom I felt something so special... that I decided, for the first time, to tell her my real story." "Afterwards, I learned her father was a policeman." "It was terrible I told my grandma" ""Look what happened to me"." "She censored me!" "She said, "Why did you talk about it?" "You know you don't have to talk!"" ""But I needed to trust somebody," I said." "I was 10." "I just wanted to trust somebody." "I wanted to be myself." "I had to explain that my document number is 30,000,000... when that of people of my age was 26,000,000." ""Why your number is 30 million?", I was asked." "Since I was adopted, they delayed in giving me a document." "They gave me the document of a 15 year old guy." "It didn't fit that of the guys I hang out with." "When we were asked which was our document number... everybody said "24," "24" I was the only one who had 30." ""Why do you have 30," they said." ""Just because," I said." ""I got it recently"." "In high school, I really saw what had happened." "In elementary school, you live and try to put together the pieces... of that missing family with psychologists and all that." "But in high school, you feel the need to see what had happened" "And to face the feelings all that cause inside you." "I felt rage and raised hell in high school." "I felt isolated, very lonely." "When I was a teenager I thought, "Why didn't they think about me?"" "But they really did think about me." "From time to time I wondered why I had been adopted." "Why didn't I had parents?" "I used to imagine they had died and nobody could look after me." "That they had died and I was left there alone." "Or that they couldn't have me and they abandoned me." "I remembered what I had been told since I was just one year old." "They told me that my father had gone to work at the pet store." "He was a vet." "He stayed there the whole morning." "At midday, he called my mother and told her... he thought somebody was after him and asked her to leave right away." "He went back to the pet store and at 5 p.m." "they closed the street and he was kidnapped." "He was held prisoner for 3 months at El Vesubio and on May 25th, 1977... his corpse and other 15 appeared in Monte Grande cemetery." "In a job interview it was very difficult for me... to say I was the daughter of missing mother... that my family was missing I didn't talk about it." "What did you say?" "That she was dead" "It's a mystery He's missing." "He has no identity." "He doesn't exist He's not alive." "He's missing." "I'd have to look..." "HIJOS" "My grandmother used to tell me things about when they were kids." "When he went to school, he was always the best student." "They were very young when they disappeared." "They had just finished high school." "Those are the memories." "My father was 28 and my mother, 21" "I'd love to look like them One day I'll know." "My grandmother says I look like them." "She says I talk just like him, I feel just like him... but I'd like them to tell me that." "Here we are together." "It's the only picture where I'm with my mother." "This is me." "I must be 2 or 3." "She was very affectionate, terribly affectionate." "She was always kissing me and hugging me." "She was always holding me and caressing me... so much that sometimes I told her, "Stop !" "You're embarrassing me!"" "Sometimes she kissed me and made a lot of noise." "I blushed and said, "Don't kiss me in front of other people!"" "And she said, "I lik e to make a noise when I kiss you!"" "And she kissed me again." "My father liked big projects." "He had a car repair shop but he didn't want it to be small." "He made repairs for a bus line." "He liked big things." "He liked to be a truck driver, a mechanic." "Something different from my grandparents who were formal." "They thought he had to have a university diploma." "I really look like my father." "We really looked al ik e when we were kids." "As I grew up, my features changed... and I had a little bit of both." "They tell me he carried me to the bank on his shoulders... and he laughed." "Even my character resembles his." "It may be the passion people say my father had." "I feel a little bit beaten." "It's information you find little by little." "They can't tell you everything in one day." "Every time you meet somebody who knew my mother or my father... he tells me something new." "Or maybe I ask something and I learn things that way." "I'd love to remember." "I'd love to have some memory... of my father talking or walking... his body, his touch, his hair." "But I don't I just have some pictures." "Every time my mother remembers something about my dad." "she relates it to me." ""You walk just like your dad."" ""You laugh just like your dad."" ""You're quiet just like him."" "He was a vet, he taught a subject at school, he was a father, he was a neighbor." "I wanted a mother who was with me at least a little bit every day." "Sometimes she came late and I didn't see her during the day." "That was a big burden for my heart." "I remember when she came back she brought me some chocolate." "I ran, opened her bag and grabbed it." "And the next morning, when I went to school..." "I kept the wrapper with me all day." "I took out the wrapper, smelled it, and kept it again." "It was a way of having her near." "I really missed her." "My father had a rifle and taught me... how to drag along the floor carrying it like this." "He made me pass below the bed with the rifle in my hands." "Those were things that had happened to him." "For some time I thought it was something very crazy." "Later, I understood it was his way of thinking." "He thought you had to be ready to fight." "My grandfather got started in politics due to his daughters." "And then, the rest of the family got involved." "Even my grandma." "But then they had to go u nderground and take up arms." "That's when my grandmother's situation got divided from the rest of the family's." "The four daughters disappeared, my grandfather... and one of my a unts' husband." "This is the house." "It' s been reformed there in the front." "This is where the bomb was planted." "This is a city tour." "Here." "The entrance looks different." "It's crazy because I have all the pictures." "I have my f ather's pictures." "They took a lot of pictures." "My grandmother kept a special one on top of her chest of drawers." "It was a black and white close-up of my parents." "I grew up with that." "That picture was how my parents kept me company." "There were more but I preferred that one." "One thing that moves me is that soon I'll turn their age." "So, that fantasy I have about my parents..." "I look at the picture and they're my parents." "I'll get to be like them." "What will I have as a fantasy, as a referent later on?" " Again?" " Yes." "Any story with circles?" "Yes, with coming and going." "I think she..." "Where did this survive?" "ln Oangallo St. apartment." "That's where I found a trunk full of things." "When was that?" "Some years ago?" "Yes, I went in 1980." "The other day I was walking down the street thinking... that life is tough." "You have your daily, existential problems." "As I was walking, I started thinking of her and I realized... that at that time, her problems were to solve her own life... think about her daughters, take a decision to be committed to a project she believed in." "Otherwise, she would have never invested so much of herself." "I think those were very difficult times." "I think she was not living in a good balance, in peace." "Those were very turbulent times." "I think that their generation, the 60's generation... teenagers from that time... were very valuable and interesting... in their way of thinking and of putting into action... whatever they thought it was fair, not just what they fought for." "I wouldn't dare to talk about the project as a whole." "About what it all meant for that generation." "I could talk about how it was for my parents, basing my self on what I'v e heard." "I sincerely think they were sick of this world... sick of getting up and seeing all the poverty around them... seeing that everything was bad, they broke the traditional models." "They broke with the traditional family." "They didn't build an alternative." "They had no chances of building anything alternative... so that we inherited some good alternative." "I think that's our job." "In fact, the project... from it's most complex aspect to it's most simple one... was to not allow people to starve ...to defend the right of children to have an access to a good education to fight unemployment." "That project is still a project as such." "It fought against injustice, the indignity of human beings." "I think that he, as well as some of his mates, thought that... if they knew how to play hide and seek well... they could twist the arm of a system... that was ready to annihilate them." "As a young girl , the fantasy I had was that they had come... to take my father away with swords and they had killed him with them." "Some guys in uniform..." "For a kid, that idea is very close to reality." "The only difference is that these weren't bad guys that had taken my father on a whim." "It was all part of an organized, orchestrated plan from the power." "It's alright all that about ideals and giving your life for it." "On the other hand, I don't buy that..." "I don't know if it was a good strategy... to take to arms to do all that." "The whole Mahatma Gandhi thing is OK but... it's difficult to implement such a big social change." "I think they thought they were doing the right thing." "We have to understand that within it's historical framework." "Not to evaluate it from our point of view now... but from what happened at that time." "I understand and share it but I can't separate it... from the fact that they're my parents." "I don't feel I'm the continuation of my parents... that I have to follow the duty of..." "Oops!" "That duty..." "Or that mandate." "Sometimes I feel awkward when we get together... and that nostalgia people feel for that failed revolution." "I feel it's ridiculous." "There's another more real moment now." "I don't think we should transfer those times." "I don't think projects are passed on to people." "I think projects go beyond people" "In any case, I think the project is fair... and it has to be upheld and pushed forward." "I think it's the same project that today with 23 years of age, I choose." "I think that from that place and from that time... what they did was very interesting." "Their dreams were very beautiful." "But from today's perspectives, those ideals don't satisfy me." "At one point, I fantasized that..." "I had to keep up my father's ideals." "Then, I thought it was better to have my own ideas... which, in fact, I had and that I had to show what I thought and felt." "I thought it was healthier." "The other thing was nostalgia." "Come here, Bruja." "Come!" "Come!" "Come!" "Let's go." "Having the same age she had when she was kid napped is like... like starting to deviate a fate that... seemed premeditated for myself." "The fact that my mother disappeared at the age I have now gave way to the elaboration of a myth within me... that made me think something should happen to me." "Like a fear that..." "Well, if she died so young, what's going to happen to me?" "Do you think that could be there?" "I think this one was taken here." "Could lit be possible?" "HISTORY" "One night, we were in a pleasant situation for me... because, as I told you, there were not many situations to be together and I remember that some friends were coming over for dinner... and we cooked together some empanadas and talked." "I remember clearly that the record player played..." ""El Último organito" sang by Susana Rinaldi." "We were both enjoying the moment when the phone rang." "My mother's face changed and said, "Ursulita, go get a bag." "Put in some panties, some clothes." "We're leaving"" ""But our friends are coming, "I said "We are leaving,"she said." "It doesn't matter who's coming "We have to leave now."" "She gave no explanation but I knew we were in danger." "So I did what she said and we left I don't remember where." "I remember the taxi going down a street..." "A cobbled street and I was so confused..." "And I remember I asked her, "Why?"" ""Because some men are chasing us" That was her explanation." "I imagined some detectives wearing caps, very Sherlock Holmes-like." "Like some dangerous beings chasing us." "GENERAL VlDELA appointed president Communiqué # 1 of the Military Junta" "We hereby inform the people that as from today... the country is under the operational control of the Military Junta." "It's advised to all the inhabitants..." "My father disappeared the same day the coup d'état took place" "On March 24th , 1976." "He was at home, here downtown... and as I hear, on the radio he heard there was a coup" "That was on the night of the 23rd." "The next day he got up and left for Garín... the area where he worked." "He did social work" "When my father disappeared, my mother was 5 months pregnant." "So, she left." "I don't know much but I know she ended up in San Nicolás." "Before the confrontation where my mother died..." "I know she stayed there for quite some time:" "Then I was born." "I don't know if there or in Buenos Aires." "And then, I stayed with my mother in a rented house... my mother and another couple rented there." "This couple had two kids of 4 and 5 years of age." "Until November 19th, 1976 when the military came to the house where we al I were." "They broke into the house, they surrounded the house, they used tear gas." "So, they got into the house and my mother and the couple died." "The two kids were in the bath room and... the gas suffocated them." "My mother had put me inside a ward robe with pillows." "The gas didn't affect me so much." "The two kids died on the way to the hospital." "I was the only one who survived and got to the hospital alive." "From ti m e to ti me the military published false confrontations... so that they could legitimate that flagrant repression." "Newspapers published it in the form of a confrontation." "They were men and women who had been previously kid napped." "Some, 3 months before, like my dad Others, before that." "All this has been reconstructed thanks to the evidence given... by people who saw how my dad and other people were taken... by other people who were held together with my dad... and these 15 persons who appeared together with him." "I was three months at the hospital nursery." "Then, I was given for adoption." "I was there because neither my grandmother nor my family... knew about the confrontation." "They didn't know my mother had died They didn't even know where they were." "So, I stayed there." "That's when I was separated from my family." "When my mother disappeared I knew she could go... to a hostile place, an inaccessible place but I couldn't figure out what it was." "It was impossible for me to imagine." "It was a mystery." "My mother wasn't there." "My grandmother said she didn't know where they were." "I had no explanation." "They were somewhere." "I imagine it was some dark shed." "Like a house with a very dark shed and sun on the outside." "My father disappeared... on August 25th, 1977." "It was 8:00 a.m." "Yes around 8:00 a.m." "We left home..." "No, my mother's father left first." "He lived next door He left for work." "He was chief of maintenance, I don't remember well... at Velez Sarsfiled Hospital, in Villa del Parque." "He left for work and..." "Two guys got out of a car, looked at his documents... beat him and realized he wasn't my father." "They started to ask him where my father was." "My grandfather didn't want to talk." "That's when my father came out with my brother and me... to take us to school which was... two blocks away from there." "They waited for my father to get to our school, to leave us... and when he crossed the street, they got out of their car... strugg led with my father and they put him into the car..." "And they went back to my house." "This is below that window." "That's right." "The last time I saw my father... we stopped here." "There." "But the park wasn't there before." "We stopped there." "My father, my brother and me crossed." "He left us here, at school." "And I didn't see him any more." "When I went back from school, my mother told me that... some guys had broken in to steal." "She didn't tell me my father had disappeared." "She told me my father had gone to Mar de Ajó... where he had some construction job to do near the beach." "I even sent my dad some letters... believing he was there." "I MISS YOU AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE IN DANGER." "This big secret is only known by me." "When it rains, it rains When there's light, you can see." "Let's see, let's see, let's see." "When the sunrises, his name is José." "A Chinese bird sings in Japanese." "Let's see, let's see, let' s see." "The king and the queen walk down the street." "One is made with crumbs." "The other, with paper." "As a child, it never crossed my mind... that my mother would never come back." "I didn't consider that possibility." "She was temporarily absent." "She was being held somewhere but it couldn't last long." "I saw her everywhere." "I looked for her, waited for her." "And I also got sad because she wan't there." "I lived both situations." "I knew she wasn't there... and I also lived that absence" "But I harbored the hopes that she would come for me." "I didn't have doubts about it." "Consciously knowing that he wouldn't come back..." "I still waited for him." "I dreamt he came and rang the doorbell." "I opened the door, saw him and when I was about to touch him..." "I was already at the front door." "And when I touched him again, he was at the corner." "I could never get hold of him." "It was a recurrent dream I had for many years." "I dreamt it very often." "Not every night... but every two or three nights." "A lousy dream." "Unconsciously, it was an everlasting wait." "The missing people are a very complex phenomenon... for those who suffer it because you can't mourn the missing person." "It's a mysterious loss." "The loss exists... but you don't have an evidence of that loss." "You don't have a body, somebody to say good bye to." "We were invited by Amnesty and in that tribute..." "Amnesty presented a book called "Petition"." "It's a summary of my family's life until they died..." "Every story is illustrated by a different painter." "When I saw the comics and that I was acquainted with the format... and that it was related to me, to see a comic... where my parents are getting killed, was really strong." "Even more so, because I liked comics at that time." "That kind of thing prevented me from getting down to earth." "It's ambiguous I do get down to earth... but I have no certainty and sometimes, I need it." "WHERE AM I?" "MR. MANRIQUE IS DEAD..." "MY WORK MATES ARE DEAD..." "THE MANAGER IS DEAD..." "HE HAD PROMISED TO PROMOTE ME." "ALL MISSING, AS IF THEY HAD NEVER EXISTED." "I remember she asked me to walk her to the bus stop... because she wanted to talk to me." "She said, "Look, Ursula, I want to tell you something..." "I want you to know that your mother most probably is dead..." "So, don't wait for her any more..." "It's not going to do you good."" "Those were her words." "It was a terrible blow to my heart." "It's a moment I'll never forget." "I went back from the bus stop knowing she had told me the truth." "When I knew the truth, it was... a very strange feeling." "I found out I had a family." "They hadn't deserted me." "They were looking for me." "They had been looking for me for 19 years." "My grandmother..." "I had a brother." "I had been an only child and suddenly I had a brother." "I also learned that my parents had been killed." "That was shit." "I learned that they were missing, that my dad had been tortured." "But I also had the joy of meeting my grandmother... of being with her, of going to have dinner at her house... that my mom would meet my grandmother, my brother..." "I would have nieces and nephews..." "That was very strong and nice." "But at the same time, I was learning about very strong things." "They've caused a strong impact on me since I learned about them... and they always will." "It will always hurt me." "So I decided to get out of this terrible depression." "And to go find an unknown person, such as my father... with whom I hadn't had a strong link." "When I was 12, I took a plane and left for Italy." "There, a bearded man with glasses was waiting for me, so serious." "I said, "Oh, my God!" "Where am I?"" ""What's going to happen to me?"" "All those years, we didn't get along very well." "But we learned to love each other." "We got to know each other." "It was good for me get out of here." "In her own way, she did what she could." "She got married long after that... when she went to live to Italy, when I was 21." "I haven't seen her for 8 years." "We talk on the phone... but we don't see each other." "Around the end of this year, she's coming back." "From my point of view, what happened to my mother... was something symptomatic." "She went to live to Italy, not anywhere." "She left Buenos Aires, a city where many things happen... to go to a small village, in the mountains... the village where she was born." "I think that in a way, it was like going to hell." "I waited with all my heart." "I waited..." "Years later, it became a recurrent dream..." "I constantly have." "I haven't dreamt about it for quite sometime." "It's when we meet..." "I dream we meet and the emotion of having her back... is so strong that there's a question that... is never uttered, "Where were you?" "What happened?"" "It's something telepathic." "I ask her and she answers." "As if saying, "OK, I'm here." "No questions." "I came to see you."" ""The past is irrelevant." "The important thing is that I'm here."" "There comes a hug... a very emotional moment." "That dream expresses... that feeling I have, "When she comes, nothing really matters"." "What happened does matter, but if she's alive... the important thing is to be with her." "To have her back with me again." "TODAY" "We have a generational gap of 30,000 people." "Thirty thousand plus all the relatives destroyed." "You can calculate 3 per person killed." "That makes 90,000 people." "You open the gap and there's a lot of people involved." "It's not just a question of 30,000 missing people." "It's a reality, a strong gap." "Besides, it's the people who in general modify things." "I don't mean from the revolutionary point of view." "I mean the people who appear in newspapers, who write... who devote their time to thinking, people in politics." "All those involved in changing the course of events in a country." "So, coming back here to realize that what I had gone through... was a social... political, collective phenomenon, was very important." "That experience changed my perspective." "I stopped being the victim of a situation..." "No, a lot of people have been victims here." "We need justice, we want to claim our rights." "That strength made me take part in those rallies in 1984 or 85." "I remember the first sign I made with all my family." "And I strolled with my sign down the street." "That was the vindication I needed." "While missing, he can't have special considerations." "He's a mystery." "He's missing." "He doesn't exist." "He's not even dead." "He's missing." "Therefore, this court unanimously rules... to sentence Lt. Gen. Jorge Rafael Videla... to life imprisonment, disqualification for life." "court fees according to section 12... to sentence Admiral Massera to life imprisonment..." "At a certain point, during the trials to the military..." "I had the hope that justice could be done." "Then, little by little, I began to feel bad about it... because I realized that wouldn't happen." "I don't think that's going to happen." "In fact, the responsible ones are free." "I don't share that." "It's unfair, shameful." "It doesn't add up to the process of national pacification." "On the contrary, the gap gets wider... because those who expect something from justice are not going to get it." "I think it's al most impossible to acheive legal justice." "That's why we're struggling for the social condemnation." "That's what we're doing with the public repudiation acts." "As we don't trust justice we say." ""Don't sell anything to him, don't let him get on a bus... don't let him get in a taxi, point at him in the street... let this country be their jail."" "BUSSI MURDERER" "We began with increasingly massive activities." "We began with public repudiation acts... which became increasingly massive." "Nowadays, people see us as a group of unruly guys... who struggle just like the Mothers and Grandmothers of Plaza de Mayo... but in another way." "I think that the irreverence of young age allows us to do so." "WE VINDICATE THAT FOR WHICH THE MISSING PEOPLE STRUGGLED" "For many years I had the feeling of going to the rallies... and struggling without a definite identity." "After I joined HIJOS that pain that for so long..." "I had felt on my own became action." "I recognized myself in the eyes of my fellowmen." "I arrived and saw familiar faces I hadn't seen before." "I didn't know their faces I knew the look in their eyes." "It was as if you recognized yourself in somebody's eyes." "It was a meeting..." "Like when I met my grandmother." "Wanting to know what he looked like..." "Looking at him, watching every move he makes... the way he talks." "That's a difficult position." "Shoot it!" "Shoot it!" "Look at that!" "It's awesome!" "I get on very well with my brother." "We understand each other, we enjoy being together." "I think he feels the same about me." "It was funny." "We came across each other several times before." "We had been at the same place several times." "I went to see him playing with his band... without knowing he was my brother." "There were many occasions like that." "Once, he went to a bar where I worked." "I went into his dressing room and I stayed with them... but there were many people so I left." "It was very crazy." "We were near, we were brothers and we didn't know it." "I'm not interested in relating to her figure... to that mother I have somewhere through resentment." "That's no longer for me." "I don't idealize her." "I don't think she was a heroine... who carried out her dreams in the best possible way... because we all make mistakes." "She made mistakes, too." "But I don't judge her saying, "you weren't the mother I wanted." "You didn't try to save your life"" "I think she put her heart into something and... pushed on with such power, such strength..." "That's valuable." "That's beyond resentments or claims." "I won't deny they existed." "I claim her absence many times." "Well, that's over now." "We both need to be at peace." "I think she asked me, deep inside, "OK, let me go." "Do your life." "Go forward." "I belong to the past"" "Here was where they paid tribute to her." "She was taken away from here." "She lived on the 7th floor "A."" "She was taken together with a friend she lived with..." "She was another friend who belonged to the militancy." "They were both taken on November 12th, 1976." "We celebrated leaving the mark of the loss." "I don't know when she died or under what circumstances... or whose hand killed mi mother." "I just know I lost her." "And the moment I lost her was in this place... at a certain hour, on a certain day." "I wanted to remember that again, to leave a mark on my self... and on the rest of the people, stating what had happened." "It was a kind of farewell." "I think I said good-bye to her." "It's a place of acknowledgment." "It's not well kept, now." "But it' s interesting that a park carries his name." "It's as if it supports that myth that is under way." "It helps me to go down to earth." "For me it's like a tombstone." "I think it's good, anyway." "I left this place with all that emotional burden... with an incredible strength." "The last image I had was the poster surrounded by candles." "and the flowers below, and the picture of my mother." "It was so beautiful that it really filled me up." "My feeling was, "my duty is over."" "This is what I had to do?" "Well, I did it." "I'm satisfied." "One day I went to Escobar Cemetery and I talk to a guy... and asked him about the area where those bodies had been found." "He took me there and said, "Over that green area."" "There were 2 or 3 tombs, some green area and more tombs." "They were not one next to the other." "They were all scattered around." "He said, "over that green area are the bodies of the missing."" "It was quite a big place." "BODIES OF MISSING PEOPLE ARE IDENTIFIED" "I was at ease because I knew my father had died." "It wasn't a shock for me." "When one of your own is missing, to find his remains..." "For some people it's not like that." "I knew a case who didn't." "For me, it was a relief to say he's somewhere real." "For my grand mother, it was important to know where he was... what had happened and now she can go whenever she want... to be near him and not having that uncertainty of... not knowing whether he was in the sea." "I dreamt with water." "The face of my dad was in the water." "I think he must be in La Plata River." "That's what I think" "When I feel like going to a place where I think my father is..." "I go to the riverside." "I stay there a while." "Sometimes I take flowers." "I don't go often but sometimes I do." "I leave flowers there." "It was taken from here." "Let me hear that." "Turn it up." "For quite a long time I lived in the past... thinking about a future without enjoying the present." "That's why it took me so long to find my place." "Now, I feel I found it." "Acting is my place." "I like it very much." "I enjoy it a lot." "It causes me great pleasure." "It's important to experience pleasure in your life." "You have to take that into account." "I'm doing it now." "I didn't do that before." "I'm trying to leave her behind." "Sometimes, I succeed in doing so." "But at times, I'm still grabbing on... to the idea that things shouldn't have turned that way." "It could have been different." "But I'm beginning to accept it little by little." "It's easier now." "I felt a lot of love at that time because I wasn't left... with that unresolved idea of needing them." "I do need them because I'd love them to know my son." "I'd love my aunts and my grandfather to be with me... and to talk about all the things I talk about... and I'd love to have all their support." "Only my grandmother and me were left at the table... and we were quite a few." "I think that I had a kid being so young... because I wanted to restart that." "It was a need to have something of my own and have a family." "It's strange." "I think that any person near me could have a story like that." "Nobody is free from that." "Anybody around my age and who was exposed to that." "I think any body belonging to my generation could feel uneasy." "He might think, "Well, it could be me."" "It would be nice if every body could find his own story, right?" "Cristian Czainik, 31 His father, Antonio Czainik disappeared on August 25, 1977." "Úrsula Méndez, 31 Her mother, Silvia Gallina, disappeared on November 12th, 1976." "Two of her uncles and her grandfather are missing, too." "Florencia Gemetro, 24 She is a member of H.I.J.O.S." "Her father, José María Gemetro, was murdered on May 25th, 1977, after being missing for 3 months." "Claudio Novoa (Manuel Goncalves Granada), 24" "His father, Gastón Goncalves, disappeared on march 24th, 1976." "His mother, Ana María Granada, was murdered on November 19, 1976." "The remnants of Gastón Concalves were identified by the EAAF in June 1996." "Martín Mórtola Oesterheld, 26" "His father, Raúl Mórtola, and his mother, Estela Oesterheld were murdered on December 14, 1977." "His 3 aunts and his grandfather are missing." "Victoria Ginzberg, 25" "Her father, Mario Ginzberg, and her mother, Irene Bruschtein, disappeared on March 14th, 1977." "Two of her uncles and her grandfather are missing, too."