"At the hospital, any day can be a bad day." "But if you're a Red Bracelet," "Bracelets for ever!" "you always have a friendly hand, which helps you to keep going." "especially that of Lleó, our leader." "Deep breaths, come on, man." "Calm down, nothing will happen to you, besides, what would happen to our group without the second leader?" "Is he always in such a good mood?" "Yes, Lleó is Lleó." "Lleó was Lleó, but even he had a weak point." "The chemo is a shit, but..." "How much chemo have you had?" "3 batches." "When you've done more than 10, then you can talk to me about chemo." "Dammit, now we're a group, and I'm off to another hospital building, I don't like it at all." "For one fucking time I'm fine, I feel good." "If you don't do it you know that you'll die, don't you?" "I know." "Aren't you afraid?" "No, I have many friends who've died." "Anything else?" "We Bracelets wanted to help our leader, and it occurred to me, that we could paint the chemo room, to make him feel more at home." "Good idea, Roc!" "It's no use Roc, it won't affect me." "Within 2 minutes of chemo you go from feeling fine to complete agony." "The cancer doesn't seem like the enemy to me, it's this shit they treat me with." "One of us can come every day to be with you." "Yes, and stay with you while they do the chemo." "Would you do it?" "If you want I'll come with you tomorrow." "Any idea what we should paint?" "Yes, I have one." "(A bright sun.)" "(Houses, oceans.)" "Take two." "(It's algae are marine.)" "(We close our eyes.)" "(We imagine darkness...) (And total silence.)" "What a cheat!" "(Open space, even the sky.)" "(They are endless beaches...)" "20... 28." "Chemo tomorrow, what a shit!" "I'll come with you." "If you want I'll go." "No, it's my turn tomorrow." "I'm certainly not, I think they're gonna let me out for the weekend." "At best they'll let you out for one day, eh?" "Only one day?" "How come?" "Obviously because you're new, man." "besides, what the hell do you expect to find outside?" "Well..." "life." "Life?" "Life?" "I meant..." "What an idiot you are, man." "Tonight, we didn't know what tomorrow might bring." "But I noticed, that there was something in the atmosphere, which indicated that it would be a tough day for all the Bracelets." "Even for me." "(My loneliness is always my desert.)" "An arteriogram is a easy procedure." "What do you expect to find?" " We don't know yet, Ignasi." "We think that it might be related to the aorta." "But what's the aorta?" "The aorta is a vein of the heart." "First ventricles, now the aorta, are you trying as if it was the lottery?" "Ignasi, let the doctor speak" "See here Ignasi, we believe it's the aorta but until we see it, we don't know." "And when will they do it to me?" "We don't know yet." "Then I can get the weekend off." "Leave for the weekend, no, I want you here." "If you want you can go out until tonight." "Damn Lleó, he's always right." "It's only a few hours!" "It's as if one asked to go to the moon." "What a shit!" "I'm going to see if they'll give me a few hours more." "Can you pack a bag, eh?" "He'll grow out of it." "He never was very good-natured." "Being here changes them a little." "Roc's also different, I mean it." "Some days I notice he's more nervous, sometimes happier, it depends." "I sometimes don't know how to communicate with Ignasi." "Neither do I know how to talk with Roc." "You know?" "His father didn't take too well to him being admitted." "He spends the day working, rather than coming to see him." "I mean, he's always with me." "It's not that he doesn't loves me, he does, but..." "I'm not his mother." "At home all that was difficult, but... in hospital sometimes it becomes unbearable." "I know, my husband left me because of it." "I didn't know." "No worries, it's his loss." "I tell you the truth, eh?" "It's his loss, Here the two of us are growing." "People think that one only grows in confidence outside," "But here, one grows in confidence much more, and faster." "And all this his father is missing." "I've come to wash Roc." "If it's ok with you, I'll wash him, do you mind?" "Can I help you?" "I'll help her." "Oh, thank you." "I think I'm the cleanest child in the whole hospital." "And that's because my mother loves to wash me." "I know she needs to do something for me, knowing what to do, is important in hospital." "Like... to accompany a friend when he needs it most." "Are you sure you want to stay?" "We have more or less eight hours, it'll be boring." "I don't think so, besides, I've brought everything:" "cards, ludo, books and even the DS." "I thought that you'd take a turn later on to accompany me." "I want to know what it is, this chemo." "You won't like it, nobody likes it." "Let's go, Lleó." "What terrible veins you have, Lleó." "They hide 'cos they know what awaits them, they aren't bad, they're smart." "Don't say that, we almost always find them the first time." "Once they needed 23 attempts to get the vein." "Explain it properly, Lleó:" "She was a girl who just started, and it was her first day as nurse." "Was it you?" "I was just starting out, I told you already." "I thought if she punctured me one more time, they'd give her a set of silverware, seriously." "I was sure there was a prize, otherwise there was no sense in this orgy of pain." "Got it... the first time." "Are you okay, Lleó?" "I was up to a second ago." "I'll help you, grandpa." "Yes, yes, yes, thank you, Toni." "What..." "What does it say here?" "It's a summons to the court." "Is it still about the motorbike?" "Yes, you have to appear on Monday." "Aghh... how awkward they are!" "Never throw away a summons, is the first lesson I'll give you." "I'm a lawyer, if you need help." "Morning Toni, this is Oscar, finally you have a roommate, eh?" "That's great, I was feeling a bit strange being the only one without a roommate." "Although it seems he's missing half his face." "I'd have preferred a roommate with a whole face." "What happened to you, boy?" "You fell down the stairs, isn't that right, Oscar?" "They're asking you a question Oscar, answer them." "Yes, I fell down the stairs." "Well, don't worry, they just have to do a few routine tests on you, if you're ok, you can go home." "Can you accompany me to sign the papers for the tests?" "Sure." "Don't disturb your roommate." "Did you really fall down the stairs?" "Yes." "Hasn't your father given you a beating?" "Toni!" "No." "These things are not asked, eh?" "But grandpa, it looks like they've given him a beating." "I've told you once, haven't I?" "That's enough." "And... what floor did you fall from?" "What?" "If you fell down the stairs, from what floor did you fall?" "I don't remember." "Do you want help with the summons?" "I like to help." "On the street, people, walk by without thinking, that there are people who are sick." "Outside, everything goes more quickly, everything seems to be more important." "when you leave, it's all a bit of a shock..." "Where are you going?" "They're allowing me to go out, drugged up to the eye balls." "What'll you do outside?" "I don't know." "Will you bring us gifts and food?" "No, of course not." "I won't have time, I have to see my friends and..." "What did you want?" "I came to talk with Roc." "Some day you might come to talk to me, eh?" "You're off now, aren't you?" "You look better in blue pajamas." "Come on, tell me about it." "I have a roommate." "And you want him to be a Red Bracelet..." "No, he won't stay long, but..." "I think his father has given him a beating." "Did he tell you that?" "No, he said he fell down for the stairs." "Man, maybe he did fall down the stairs, Toni." "And I'm stupid." "What do you want to do?" "Come on champion, you only have a few hours leave, make use of them." "Toni, I have to go, man." "You can't, the Bracelets have to intervene." "Intervene, in what?" "In discovering if his father beats him." "Come on, we're not in a film show, besides, it's not our business." "Every minute counts, if you want to go." "I'm coming!" "Just a moment!" "Looks like I have to talk to Roc..." "Roc." "I believe I have a roommate whose father has given him a beating." "What can we do, Roc?" "You always have such good ideas, Roc." "Ok kid, look after yourself." "Goodbye" "Goodbye" "Are you okay?" "It's strange to be back on the street." "Where do you want to go?" "To eat some tasty ribs with lots of barbecue sauce." "Really?" "Yes." "Is Dad coming?" "He can't Ignasi, he's working." "The main reason we've allowed Ignasi to go away for few hours, is because...." "It's so that we could be alone." "To tell me...?" "Roc's been a long time in a coma, we believe it would be appropriate to move him." "Transfer him, why?" "In pediatrics, we sometimes have need of this bed." "It would be quieter in another wing of the hospital." "With other people in a coma?" "He'd get the best care." "But Roc likes to be here with his friends." "Mrs Massaguer, Roc is in a coma." "Next time you come it'll be to tell me that we have to disconnect him, yes?" "Do I have any alternative?" "I mean, are you asking me or telling me?" "After three months here, by law, we can move him." "Ahh... move him to a different site, he's a sofa, an ornament." "You know what I mean" "Yeah..." "And meanwhile?" "You can stay here." "But we'd like you to see the other facilities." "We don't want to take him to a worse place," "But to a better one where he'll get much more attention." "Believe me, even Roc would like it." "The problem is we can't ask him." "I don't know..." "Now I'm going to do a performance for the new child in 133." "If you want to later, we can go to see the facilities." "No, it's better we go now, I couldn't make anyone laugh now." "Sometimes, I wish I could shout out what I feel." "Sometimes, I wish I could talk to my mother." "Sometimes I feel lonely." "Sorry, the chemo leaves me knackered." "I have to go, see you later." "This looks good, soon they'll take you to rehabilitation, and you'll be able to start moving the stump." "Really?" "Yes, you can begin already." "See you later." "Have you already finished the chemo?" "That's fast today!" "And Lleó, are they bringing him later?" "I've left him there." "At the chemo?" "Yes" "Why?" "I couldn't bear it anymore." "Can you go for me?" "But each one has to accompany him one day," "We promised it, they're Bracelet rules." "I can't do it anymore." "But why?" "Can you do it or not?" "You have to go, Cristina!" "Go with him, please, I don't want him to be alone." "If you tell me why, I'll go." "I can't tell you, go." "Cristina!" "Cristina!" "Hello." "Hello." "And Cristina?" "She's not feeling well." "I think I disgusted her." "I don't think that's it." "It's finished!" "Yeah, I like that, you want to help them make me worse." "How are you doing?" "Awful, man, I think every time they give me chemo it gets worse." "I hope I don't have to have any more." "Well, you never know, but I hope so too, eh?" "Any news from our floor?" "They allowed Ignasi to go out for the whole day." "Poor bastard, he was expecting the whole weekend." "I'm an expert at judging these things." "You are." "It's ok if you want to go, eh?" "Today wasn't your turn to come." "Relax, I have a few hours, later I've got my first day of rehab." "And you're going alone?" "Yes, why?" "Because it's hard the first day you see the stump, and today you'll need guts." "I'll get through it." "Shall we play something?" "Okay, I'll throw up, and you listen to me as I do it." "No wonder Cristina went away with these gruesome games you suggest." "And what the hell do you want to play then, man." "Do you know what I played with my mom, when they gave me chemo?" "What?" "Where would I like to be?" "And how do you play that?" "One tries to imagine where you'd like to be instead of here." "Christ, that doesn't make sense, I'm here." "It's cool, really, it's as if you were really going to those places." "Really, just try it." "Dammit, but..." "I'd like to be in so many places." "That's the fun part." "I have it now, Jordi." "Now imagine it." "It's a cool game." "Yeah." "Very surprising, why don't we play again?" "Any time you want, but now I'll think of a place to go." "Don't say with Cristina, eh?" "Why do you say that?" "Because I know that you fancy her." "You fancy her..." "You do." "You do." "Both of you!" "Both of you fancy her!" "But hush now!" "Where I'd like to be is... with Cristina." "What did I tell you?" "I'm watching her eat, that's all." "I like it, I'll also watch her eating." "Come on Cristina, take heart..." "Are you okay?" "They look sad..." "They're very well cared for." "And do they wake up?" "A few." "Don't you want to go and talk to them?" "No, no, I just wanted to see them." "Ignasi, you'll soon be back with them." "Yeah, I know." "Okay, let's eat." "Let's go." "What do you want, Toni?" "I want you to help me discover something." "What?" "Whether a father beats his son." "What?" "Roc has had a good idea." "What do you want to do?" "We'll put a walkie in my room, and you'll have the other, so we'll find out." "Toni, that should be dealt with by..." "I know." "Ignasi told me it's none of our business." "But... he's my roommate, I have to help him." "Okay, but it'll be difficult to get him to confess." "I'll manage it." "All right." "How do we do it?" "We'll put a walkie here, and you take other, and record it on the mobile." "Wouldn't it be easier to record it directly with the phone?" "He'd realize, he looks like a very smart guy." "He won't confess Toni, I don't know why you think he will." "Besides, it's something that we shouldn't get involved in." "My father used to beat me." "What?" "When I was small, there were many things I didn't understand, and still don't understand, and my father beat me." "Not big blows, but small hits to the head." "My grandpa was the only one who believed me." "I didn't know." "It hurts when you're beaten by someone you love." "Yeah, but maybe he doesn't beat your roommate." "Maybe he really has fallen down the stairs." "Do you know what I said when they asked me what had happened?" "What?" "That I'd fallen down the stairs." "Listen, Instead of hiding them, they should be in plain sight." "Good idea" "I have to go, we'll continue later with the operation." "Where are you going?" "Do you have to go?" "Yes, but I've called someone to come and replace me." "Now that's synchronicity." "You all right?" "Yeah." "Goodbye." "Goodbye." "Good luck in rehab." "Thanks." "Hi Toni." "Two more hours, and they'll at last have finished pounding me." "Any news at home?" "In all, Ignasi has been out all day," "They want to move Roc, I've got a new roommate that gets beaten." "And Cristina ate everything that was on her plate." "What?" "Really?" "Yes" "You just need to leave home for everything to happen." "So you have new roommate?" "Yes, only for a day, but he's cool." "And they beat him?" "I think so." "but I'll find out, I have a plan." "Are you feeling ghastly?" "Ghastly doesn't describe it." "What's up?" "I have to pee." "So pee, I won't look." "No, the fact is I can never manage to piss while they giving me chemo." "Really?" "Can I help?" "How?" "My grandpa, when I was little, told me if I felt the cold floor I was certain to do it" "That won't work, man." "Why not try it?" "Well, I can at least try it." "Well?" "Nothing..." "Wait..." "Sssssss..." "It never fails, the noise and cold feet." "You're a star..." "Are you okay?" "Yes... but it's strange, before there was a leg, and now a stump." "I'm going to get your doctor to take a look at it for you." "Is it the first time you've seen it?" "Yes..." "Hard, isn't it?" "Very." "Do you want to cry?" "You look after Lleó, don't you?" "Yes." "Where are you Toni?" "Your roommate's about to leave with his father." "Over." "I'm in chemo with Lleó." "Over." "They're about to leave." "Over." "Lleó, what do I do?" "Go, go, go." "I'll be there in 5 minutes." "Over." "I don't think you'll get here in time." "Listen..." "Do you beat your son?" "Pardon me?" "It's a very simple question." "Do you beat your son?" "No." "Does he beat you?" "Oscar, does he beat you?" "No." "Aren't you hungry?" "Not much." "There are no children." "They're all at school, Ignasi." "I don't know if I should have left the hospital, eh?" "Why do you say that?" "I don't know." "I feel out of place." "Where do you want to go after lunch?" "Home." "To my room." "Will Dad be there?" "He's still at work." "(I'm falling.)" "(Little by little I go away.)" "(The physics captivates me, and gravity leads me to your feet.)" "(I'm falling.)" "(and while doing it...) (I untie the knots that governed this fragile balance...) (of mine.)" "(Nothing lasts very long.)" "(I drift away, I belong nowhere...) (in this intangible world.)" "(I'll never...) (return to live, ever...) (dragged back by lies, by routine...) (by deception.)" "(I'm falling endlessly...) (where the sky crashes down into the windows of my days.)" "(I'm falling.)" "(I sink into the water...) (The current takes me to my intangible world.)" "(A sudden impulse...) (leads to my leap...) (across the empty spaces.)" "(You come, you go, life falls apart...) (invisible in the sea of years.)" "(A sudden impulse.)" "(I create my song.)" "(I cross the empty spaces.)" "(Life falls apart.)" "(You come, you go...) (invisible in the sea of years.)" "I'm Sorry." "You went away, dammit..." "I didn't know how to react, it's a while since I've seen anyone throw up like me." "It's strange when you see someone else do it." "It's much easier when you do it in the bathroom." "And why do you throw up?" "Because I feel better." "Ah, you feel better bringing up food?" "When I began doing it at school, I started to get slimmer." "People treated me better, they told me I looked better, they made me feel good." "Each time I threw up, I felt better." "We Bracelets don't need you to throw up." "But I do, I'm sorry..." "You know what?" "Today, Toni taught me to pee." "It's one of the most awkward things here." "You want to but can't, it's a bitch." "I'd never have dared ask him that." "But sometimes, you have to ask for help." "In the hospital and in the illness, we're alone." "But the fact that we help each other, makes us feel stronger to fight and continue to go forward." "Look, the kid who goes out." "Hello." "Hello." "How've you been?" "It... it was strange." "Yes, it's always strange when you go out from here." "Guess what?" "I've brought you some stuff from home." "Cheers, man." "No worries." "There's all sorts." "We Bracelets, were coming together as a group." "And being in a group, means thinking about others." "What about you?" "How was your day?" "Strange." "Strange." "Yes, strange." "Well the same also, very strange." "Do you want to play?" "I have to help Roc." "Hello." "Hello." "Are those the papers for Roc's transfer?" "How do you know that?" "I know everything, Roc told me about it." "How?" "He speaks to me." "How does he speak to you?" "He speaks to me, and today he told me that he doesn't want to go to this place." "That's not true." "Right now he's asking you to believe me." "I'm sorry, but I can't believe you." "You know it's a pain this, when you're little no one believes you?" "Listen..." "Don't believe me if you don't want to, but he doesn't want to go." "He told me that, and wants you to know it Merche." "How do you know my name?" "At the end of this long day, we had demonstrated to ourselves, that being together, we'd improve our ability to recover." "It's always food in every conversation, food all the time, I'm fed up!" "Hello!" "It's a joke, right?" "How old are you?" "70?" "80?" "No 90." "He has Alzheimer's." "A little sun... this is the life, man." "Dope head!" "off the court." "Why don't you have a match between you?" "We need you." "As I am now, I couldn't even make a single basket." "Would you like to paint?" "I just thought I'd paint something else." "Is it Cristina?" "Olga will eat up everything that I don't eat." "I've painted this for you, if you want it you can give it to Olga." "From there, ok?" "to here." "...three, Bracelets!" "I want you to accompany me when I weigh myself." "Why?" "It's a bit like your chemo, I'd like you to come with me." "Subtitles by Oliver Sanderson"