"Am I gonna see you this weekend?" "I don't know, mom." "Noah told me he's really excited about coming up." "He is with me." "Shelly, it's been 25 years." "Wow!" "I love this house." "Is this you?" "Mom?" "Uh, let's put it down, guys, your grandparents are still asleep." "Sorry." "So, where are we sleeping'?" "Lauren is sleeping in the guest room, just down the hall on the right." "Thank you." "Sleep well." "You too." "Me?" "Downstairs, front room." " Right." " Hm." "Sleep well." "Jaime!" "Jaime!" "Jaime!" "I'm tired, Shel." "Jaime!" "Jaime!" "Mm, when did you get in?" "Dawn." "Hey, let me help you." "Sure," " oh, thank you, sweetheart." " Is it okay here?" " Careful." " Mm hm." "You can have coffee, right?" "They didn't say I couldn't." "Alright, then you can." "Is there pain at the incision site?" "No pain, just itches a little bit." "Oh." "Who's covering the practice?" "My partner," "I do it for her all the time." "Hm." "How come we never sold this place, mom?" "Your father wanted to." "I never did." "How's dad?" "Himself." "He took a fall yesterday while he was on his run." "Is he okay?" "What time do you think Noah and his girlfriend'll get up?" "Never, unless we wake them up." "You hungry?" "How 'bout some oatmeal, keep the arteries clean?" "I'd rather have pancakes and syrup." "We'll see about that." "Alrighty then." "Daddy look!" "Ooh, nice work." "There's a couple lumps right there, I'd get rid of those guys." "Oh, okay." "Can I do it now?" "You'll ruin it." "How do you ruin batter?" "I'm sorry, sweet pea, let your kid brother have a shot, alright?" "Oh, are those pancakes?" "Noah, these are for your grandmother." "Come on!" "What, here, why don't you bring these to her?" "Uh, sure." "Okay, don't forget to introduce Lauren." "I'd introduce myself if he forgot." "Hey." "Yeah." "I made some pancakes, you want some?" "I'm an oatmeal guy." "Yeah, but the oatmeal's from 2003." "So?" "Is your, um, foot cramping?" "Sorry?" "You have a cramp, is your foot cramping?" "Ah, it happens after I run." "Well, it's probably referral pain, you know, it's probably from somewhere else, maybe your calves are tight." "Maybe my feet are just old." "Uh, mom told me you fell." "Oh, your mother never could keep a secret." "It's not a secret, dad, you have this big bandage, let's see." "It's nothing." "Where's Noah?" "He took mom the pancakes I just made her." "Pancakes?" "She just had heart surgery, Shelly!" "Why can't I be in the stern, daddy?" "Because you need to learn how to steer first." "I know how to steer." "Oh, you know how to steer, huh?" " Mm-hm." " Show me your J stroke." "No, you gotta dig in like this, uh!" "Just like that." "That's what I did!" "Yeah, but this time when you do it, put a little more back into it." "My arms are tired." "We just got out here." "This is stupid, we're not going anywhere." "Show me your sweep, maybe we'll get somewhere." "I'm hungry." "Okay, I give up, let's go in." "What's your sport?" "Lacrosse." "Hm." "She's good." "Well, lacrosse is the way I'm paying for college." "Oh, what do you wanna study?" "Sports medicine." "I'll bet you'll be good at it." "Thank you." "Love this house, the lake and everything." "I've always loved this house." "I would stay here every weekend if I could." "Me too, my mom would never take me." "Noah, did you eat your grandmother's breakfast?" "I had plenty." "Kinda still hungry." "I haven't eaten at all." "We're gonna need some food in this house." "Alright, I'll go get something." "You guys stay and uh, help your grandmother." "Shelly!" "Humor me." "I'll get some new flowers too." "Uh, grandma, sure you're supposed to be doing that?" "Probably not, but it's never stopped me before." "Go find your grandfather, he can't wait to see you." "Alright." "Hey, grandpa!" "Oh, I didn't recognize you there for a moment." "This is my girlfriend, Lauren." " Oh." " Hi." "Pleased to meet you." "You too." "Hey, what happened to that wrist?" "Bah, you should see the other guy." "Are you all right?" "Ah, right as rain." "What's that stuff?" "Stuff?" "This, Noah, is fishing gear." "You ready to fish?" " Uh, sure." " Yeah?" "I guess, yeah." "Well, then, get your fishin' clothes on." "Fish wait for no one." "Wait, you put those blankets away, right?" "Yeah." "Okay." "Oh!" "Come on." "Alright, yeah." "Noah, this is... uh ho, I like that!" "That was pretty nice." "You got the full arm there." "Okay, your turn." "Oh, not so much." "It hit the fence down there." "It hit the tree, and then it hit the fence." "Oh, oh, my gosh!" "That's not funny." "If I go down, you're coming down with me." "It is pretty funny." "Uh ho, I like that!" "That was pretty nice." "You had the full arm there." "Jaime, where are you?" "Jaime!" "What are you doing?" "Hiding." "From who?" "Dad." "Why?" "He wants me to fish." "I hate fishing." "Do you know what lives in the lake?" "Fish!" "No." "Deep down, at the bottom, where it's dark." "Mom says you're not supposed to scare me anymore." "Maybe it's not scary at the bottom." "Maybe it's beautiful." "Jaime!" "Jaime!" "Oh!" "Those flowers are gorgeous." "Oh." "I arranged them all by myself." "Look what I found!" "See, you were meant to be a doctor." "You never could spell." "Look at that," " look at you." " Ohh, look at you, you loved that dress." "Wore it every day." "I used to wash it every night while you were sleeping." "Hmm." "Hey, how 'bout I wash your hair." "Would that feel nice?" "That would be delight." "Okay, let's do that." "Back for this later." "Press, then reel in." "Reel in?" "Yeah." "Okay." "I got one!" "I got one, I got a fish!" "Nice!" "Fish on!" "Get your tip up, get your tip up, higher!" "Let her do it, Shelly." "Okay, okay, reel it in slowly." "Over here, over here." "Okay, pull it back, pull it back." "Shelly!" " He's gone." " Ohh." "Good try, try again." "That's why it's called fishing and not catching, right, dad?" "You shoulda let her do it." "There you go." "That was nice." "Hey, dad!" "Let's go do some casting." "Oh, the sun's too high." "Oh, come on, let's go catch some bluegills, it'll be fun!" "I got a crossword puzzle to do." "Why do you do that?" "Do what?" "Just turn away from me every time I ask you to do something." "Don't make a federal case out of the fact that I don't wanna fish." "Alright, alright." "That's pretty sad, Lauren." "Oh, well." " I'll just stick with lacrosse." " Oh!" "Oh, wait, no!" "Oh, god!" "Hey, let me see it," " let me see it, let me see it." " Aw." "Oh, well, oh, lord, give it, okay." "Come on, look at me." "Why do you listen to this music?" "Why do you listen to the garbage you listen to?" "My music is not garbage." "Well neither is mine." "The lead singer overdosed, you know." "So what?" "Mom and dad are really worried about you." "Dad drives me nuts." "He's worried." "Okay." "I know you're smoking again." "Oh, good for you." "I can smell it on your clothes." "Come one, Jaime, that's how it all started." "No, shell." "That's not when it started." "Shouldn't you be in bed?" "What's a seven-letter word for... asshole." "What?" "Seven-letter word for Robert, a-s-s-h-o-l-e." "So now I'm an asshole." "You mind explaining what that was all about?" "Wasn't it enough to lose one child?" "What kind of a question is that?" "A simple one, answer it!" "You know it almost killed me." "This 25 year old... hey, rob, grab some more beers." "Hey, kid!" "How was your night?" "Sad." "Oh yeah, why was it sad?" "Probably the last time I get to see all my friends before we leave for college." "Mm." "And David's freaking out about me going to Boston." "Well, a little distance never hurt a relationship." "Is mom home?" "Nope, book club." "Is Jaime home?" "Jaime." "How as your night?" "Like every other night." "Hey, wait, look, the uh, the fellas are here." "We're gonna watch the ball game." "Why don't you come join us?" "Game?" "Yeah, baseball game." "Dad, I hate baseball." "Since when do you hate baseball?" "Since like forever." "Rob, get in here, the game's starting." "What are you doing in there?" "This is bullshit." "Dad." "He's disrupting the entire family." "He's not doing it on purpose." "Yeah, then why is he doin' it?" " Yeah, that one was - see that?" "So funny." "Hey, remember, uh the yoga?" "Yoga?" "Yeah, the yoga." "That you've never done before in your life?" "Well, you told me you would teach me." "I'll teach you, you wanna do it right now?" "Yeah." "Alright." "Stand up?" "You have to do what I say." "Okay." "We're gonna do the basics." "Just, go easy." "For sure." "Okay." "Nice and natural, just relax." "Okay." "And then you touch." "That should... and then," "and try not to think about it." " Then next, move on." " Okay, alright, whoop, I'm falling!" "Cute." "Damn." "Yoga's not your thing." "But I do like pushing you in the lake!" "Oh, my god!" "Whoa oh!" "I got you." "Okay." "It's cool, I got you." "Think this is an Agna?" "It's agate." "You need to Polish it up so it'll shine." "I'm gonna throw it back." "So, do you think this is gonna be okay?" "Uh, it's our first time, so." "Oh, no, I mean, what if somebody hears us?" "No, they won't, my mom's out." "And your grandparents?" "They're asleep." "Seems uh, seems good, firm." "Noah." "Are you nervous?" "A little." "Me too." "You brought one, right?" "Yeah, yeah." "Got it." "Oh, god." "Don't break it!" "It's fine, see?" "I don't know what I'm doing." "Me neither." "Here you go, sweetie." "Oh, thanks." "I swore off email." "I just gave it up." "Oh, yeah?" "There's no, uh, no connection at my parents' house." "Oh, well, maybe that's a good thing, you know?" "I was always waitin' for the message." "What message is that?" "Oh, you know, the one that changes everything?" "Ah, yeah." "So how'd you finally quit?" "Looked up, saw what I was missin'." "You're not from here, right?" "From Dallas, originally." "I moved here last year, shit, left a man for the fourth time, same guy." "I just decided to give myself a fresh start." "Sometimes you just gotta say enough is enough." "I know what you mean." "You do?" "Well that's actually what my husband said to me when he left me." "How long ago?" "Five years." "Anybody since?" "No, I'm not too good with relationships." "Except my son." "Okay, well, so, what do you, what do you, what do you do for fun?" "I deliver babies." "Oh, that's your problem." "I mean you're not gonna meet a eligible guy in the delivery room." "How long has it been?" "What do you mean?" "You know what I mean." "How long's it been since." "Oh, I don't remember, that's how long it's been." "That's not healthy!" "I know!" "What about him?" "I mean, he's got a job, too." "He looks familiar." "Jim Shannon?" "You want me to introduce you?" "No, no, no, no, thanks." "Okay." "Amelia, could we get a plate of nachos over here, please?" "Oh, yeah, sure thing." "What are you doing here?" "Nothing." "Where's Jaime?" "Swingin'." "What's going on?" "Nothing." "What do you mean nothing?" "Who was that guy in the coach house?" "You're high again, aren't you?" "Yes, sir, detective Shelly." "I don't do it for fun." "Then why do you do it?" "You're not gonna get any better if you don't stop." "Well maybe I just won't get better." "Don't say that." "I'm not going back to the hospital." "You don't have to, I can help." "I won't go away to school." "That's crazy." "I can't leave if you're not okay." "Shell..." "I mean it." "So what, are you you're never gonna leave me?" "Like, even after I'm married?" "Shut up." "I know how hard you're trying." "How hard everybody's trying." "We want to help." "You remember the first time we talked?" "At the homecoming game." "No." "In the second grade." "You sat behind me." "You let me borrow your pencil." "The my favorite pony one." "Yeah, that one." "And I've been in love with you ever since." "But what about that Jessie girl in eighth grade?" "Just a ploy to make you jealous." "Don't move." "Why?" "Promise not to scream?" "Maybe." "There's a spider hanging three inches above our heads." "Ha, ha." "No, seriously!" "Daddy?" "Daddy?" "Morning, grandma!" "Oh, you two are up early." "Eh, we just stayed up all night." "Oh, I remember doing things like that." "How you feelin'?" "Almost back to normal." "Good, you hungry?" "Are you cookin'?" "We're making breakfast." "And we found these amazing stones." "Yeah, they're kinda like the ones you have in the family room." "Oh, agates." "The color really pops when you Polish 'em." "Yeah." "Well, we're gonna go make breakfast." "You think this is an Agnat?" "I don't know." "That's what you used to call them when you were little." "I don't remember, mom." "Are you sleeping any better?" "I guess." "Dad said he heard you walking around last night." "I'm sorry, mom." "The light seems lower this summer." "Dad," "why did you walk by my room?" "You were sleeping." "No, I mean the night Jaime died." "I don't remember what I did the night Jaime died." "I do, I remember everything." "Well, what was I supposed to do?" "Come in, tell me that everything would be okay." "I couldn't have done that." "You could have tried." "Would it really have been that hard?" "This is ancient history." "Not to me." "Not to me, it's not." "Well then go talk to your mother." "I'm talking to you!" "For god's sake, Shelly, get back in the house." "You've got no shoes on." "Mom, what are you doing?" "You're supposed to be taking it easy." "I am taking it easy." "How do you stand it?" "I see Jaime everywhere." "Is that such a bad thing?" "How did you get over it?" "You know that survivor group I joined at the church, after you left?" "Mm." "Well that first night I went," "I was walking down the steps to the church basement, feeling like my life was over, and" "there was a woman coming up the steps." "And as we met, she touched my arm and said," ""you never get over it," ""but you do get used to it."" "She was right." "Did dad go?" "He said he'd deal with it in his own way." "I know he blames me." "He blames himself." "That's not how it feels." "I was so hoping that your coming back here would bring the two of your together." "I wanted Jaime to get better so badly." "I shoulda seen that he wasn't." "We all saw what we needed to see." "Who could have imagined." "Jaime did a terrible thing." "Why didn't he love me enough to stay alive?" "Oh, that had nothing to do with it, shell." "Jaime worshipped you." "I wished it was me." "Oh, sweetheart." "Don't say that." "That was Jaime's path, not yours." "Think of all the babies you've delivered." "All the life you've brought into this world." "That's your path." "I still miss him so much, mom." "So much." "Mister, are you okay?" "Hey, mom, made you this." "Oh, my gosh!" "Noah, wow!" "Try some." "I'm so impressed!" "Alright." " Aw, honey." " And?" "Mmm." "Good?" "Is that Parmesan I taste?" "Yes, it is, freshly grated!" "Aw, honey." "Very fancy!" "Mmm." "You okay, mom?" "Well, it's a little harder coming back than I thought." "Everything reminds me of Jaime, but I'll be, I'll be fine." "You don't have to be okay." "You know when dad left?" "Yeah." "You didn't make me feel like" "I had to be okay." "That was such an awful time for you." "You too." "Sorry." "It's okay." "It's okay." "Yeah, I wish I'd known Jaime." "Me too." "What happened to you?" "Nothing." "Don't nothing me, you look like you just had a heart attack!" "Shelly got me all upset." "So it's Shelly again." "Yes, it's Shelly again!" "Bringing up Jaime." "I wish she could just leave well enough alone." "Isn't that what you've been doing for the last 25 years, leaving it alone?" "You know this isn't something I can talk about." "You got over it your way, I got over it my way." "But you're not over it." "And you never will be over it." "You'd better talk or scream or cry or something because this leaving it alone is killing you and me!" "I need to lie down." "Shelly thinks you blame her for what happened." "That's ridiculous." "That's right, that would be ridiculous." " Okay, then go." " Okay?" "Try, go ahead." " Okay." " I'd like to see it." "Oh!" "I made it!" "Alright." " Alright." " Now you show me what's up." "Here we go." "Let's see this lacrosse skill in basketball." "Whoa!" "Come on!" "Oh, whoo, aw, air ball!" "Hey, you and me against Lauren." "Now how is that fair?" " Oh..." " oh, it's way fair," "Noah sucks." "Ha!" "Okay, you're on, let's go." " Alright." " Alright, come on." "Let's go." "Whoop, aww!" "That was holding, did you see that?" " You saw that!" " Yeah." "That's football," " and it was not." " Great," " come on, let me try." " Alright, here we go." "Now you see where I get it." "Thanks." "I saw you last night in the bar." "Jim, Jim Shannon." "Oh, yeah, uh, do we know each other?" "I, I knew your brother." "That night in the coach house?" "Every night in the coach house." "You got my brother high." "I was messed up." "I was a stupid kid, I," "I swear I never thought he'd actually do it." "Why are you telling me this now?" "Jaime was my friend." "You don't have to believe that, but he was." "I'm really sorry for what happened." "You know, Jaime talked about you a lot." "He admired you." "I have a sister, we can't stand each other." "He loved you." "I wanna join a frat." "Which one?" "The one with the best parties." "Okay." "I stayed at the delta townhouse when I went to visit." "The guys seemed pretty cool." "But they also had this like awesome house mom who cooks these amazing meals and does the laundry." "Seemed like way better than living in a dorm." "Are you listening to me?" "Yeah." "You can't make him okay." "Let's talk about something else." "He's messed up." "So now you're the expert?" "I mean everybody knows." "Knows what?" "That your brother's high." "Like all the time!" "That's great, so everyone's just talking about my family." "God, why do you have to get so mad all the time?" "Mad?" "Yeah, why can't we just have fun?" "For once, this summer." "David, you said you were gonna help me, that you were gonna be there for me, and you haven't..." " I'm here for you every day..." " No, you haven't been!" "You're just like so depressing all the time!" "It's just depressing to be around you." "I'm sorry." "I just kinda saw this somehow happening just a little differently." "Yeah, so did I." "You're such a jerk." "You're not wearing your cross." "What are you doing in here?" "Hiding." "From what?" "Everybody." "Including me?" "Joke." "It was just a joke." "I hate the sound of those bugs." "Why?" "It creeps me out." "I wonder what it would be like to be a cicada." "Why would you wanna be a bug?" "Life would be simple." "Listen, if you get your grades up and finish high school, you can go to a state school." "College?" "Come on, shell." "You sound like dad." "And then if you wanted, you can transfer to where I am." "You're so smart, Jaime, you can do it." "I can't concentrate." "You just got offtrack." "I wouldn't make it in college, shell." "'Cause you're high all the time." "Yeah 'cause my brain is on fire." "Well, those pills I gave you help, right?" "I hate taking them, they just make me sleepy." "The doctor said it would take time." "They say a lot of things, shell." "Hey, you can't give up." "I'm tired, shell." "Aw, it's awful." "Okay, sweetie, we're going to the Vance's so we'll be back soon." "Yeah, don't let him sleep all day, okay?" "Time to get up." "Why?" "The lake is beautiful right now." "Come swimming." "Shell." "Come on, I don't want dad to come home and find you in bed." "Crap, David." "You're wearing that to Brad's?" "My parents are at the neighbors," "I need to stay with Jaime." "You're gonna miss the last party?" "I can come later." "Yeah, you're brother's 16 years old, you can't leave him alone." "He's sick!" "He's a loser drug addict." "Shut up, asshole!" "If he was my brother, my father would kick him out." "Well good for you and your perfect family." "Why do you have to be this way?" " You're the one who's acting like a jerk." " This is, don't go!" "You blame me for everything!" " Stop, I'm sorry!" " You didn't have fun this summer, that's my fault!" " Shell." " My, my brother is sick, that's my fault!" "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said anything." "I'm just so sick of everything being my fault." "I'm sorry." "I did, I wasn't there for you this summer, and I'm sorry." "Just come back." "I miss you so much." "I miss you." "I just wanted to have one night with you." "I promise as soon as my parents get back, I'll come over." "Alright." "I'm so sorry." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "I'll be waiting, okay?" "Bye." "Bye." "Time to get up." "Jaime?" "Jaime?" "Where are you?" "Jaime!" "Jaime?" "Jaime?" "Jaime!" "No!" "Jaime!" "Jaime, no!" "Jaime?" "Jaime?" "Jaime!" "Jaime!" "Where are you?" "Jaime!" "Somebody help me!" "Help me please!" "Help me please!" "Jaime!" "Help me, please!" "I was watching a baseball game when my son killed himself." "I was sitting next to you." "If I'd been there... what?" "What would you have done?" "Saved him!" "I could have saved him." "Maybe that day." "But there would have been another." "I just wanted him to be better." "I wanted the old Jaime back." "Yeah." "We all did." "Why have you stayed with me for all these years?" "I have been no help to you at all." "I love you." "But to be honest," "I've had all the lost I can take." "Well I've ruined it with Shelly." "Oh, no, no you haven't." "Oh, geez." "Wanna do some casting?" "I don't know, I'm kinda rusty, dad." "I don't even know how to tie this knot anymore." "It's like riding a bike." "Oh, you make it look so easy." "Hm." "Nice." "Rusty." "You wanna spoil over there?" "There?" "Yes!" "Yes!" "Remember when I was a kid and I got that huge one off the neighbors' dock?" "You were nine." "That fish was bigger than you were." "Yeah." "Can't remember if I landed that one or what?" "Well, the ones that got away, they make the best stories." "Hm." "I used this rapala." "This one, it's the one you gave me." "Oh, yeah." "Looks just like a minnow." "Fish can't resist it." "You know, you got a real nice son." "I've been meaning to tell you that." "Yeah, he's great." "Boy, did I get lucky." "It's not luck, not easy bein' a parent." "You've been a great one." "I haven't been a very good father to you." "Jaime's death nearly killed me, and" "I couldn't help you or your mother." "I had nothing left." "I let you down." "I let the whole family down." "Especially Jaime." "I thought you blamed me." "Oh, that's ridiculous." "I'm his father." "I let him slip through my fingers." "God, I miss him, Shelly girl." "And I miss him so much." "Mm hm." "Hey, you remember those jokes he used to tell?" "Why do bicycles fall over?" "'Cause they're two-tired." "Oh, Jaime." "Hah." "You two checking out how old I've gotten?" "I love all these pictures." "Oh, I love photographs." "I could look at them over and over again." "Oh, would you mind asking your grandfather to start the grill?" "Mmm." "Mom, grandpa, grandma says it's time to grill out!" "Well," "I really can't say that he's thrilled." "Dinner first though." "Dinner first." "Let's go."