"Mamaalwaysusedtotell me" "I was gonna be something great." "Don'tworry." "They'llsee,shewouldsay." "It'skindafunny tothinkaboutthatnow." "Say my name, mama." "The tide does seem lower than usual." "Themothersin town liketotellme thatshewasalways alittlecrazy." "Evenbeforeallthe kidsdied ." "Whichisalie ." "Truthisallthe women secretlyresentmy mother." "Andwhywouldn'tthey?" "Allofthemdressedinblack ." "Refusingtohave anymorechildren." "Liketheyallagreed thatthefirstwoman towearcoloragain wastheworstmotherintown." "Well..." "Mymotherwearspink." "Iwaselevenyearsold when I decided to marry soraya." "Andeverydayfor six years" "Iprayedforthe courage totalkto her." "ButI neverdid." "Soshemarriedsomeoneelse ." "Soraya'shusband wastheschoolteacher..." "Andhediedinthewave alongwithmy brothertigo andtherestoftheclass ." "Mybrother'sfavoritething was using the pencil sharpener." "Soifhe wasgoodallweek" "Mr.Diazwouldgivehim anewpenciltosharpen." "SometimesI thinkabout themomentthewavehit." "Ihopeit wasquick." "Thattheyneversaw itcoming." "Ihopetigowas sharpening hisnewpencil." "And the fish that is in the river shall die." "And the river shall stink." "FatherDouglasmovedhere afewyearsbeforethewave..." "Andeverybodylovedhim ." "When he finally realized people hadstoppedhavingchildren..." "Hemadeit hismission tohelpthemmoveon." "Not today, father." "Itwasn'tworking." "Maybe if you give him some communion bread." "Oh no, bigo." "That's impossible." "Hang on a second." "In the name of the father, the son, and the holy spirit." "Thank you." "Thank you, father." "Can I get you anything, father?" "Some water, please." "Rosita." "Good morning." "Father Douglas." "Yes." "How are you today?" "Better." "You look good." "I brought you something." "You remembered." "Yes." "Lord I am not worthy that you should enter under my roof." "Only say that word and I shall be healed." "Rosita." "The body of Christ." "Amen." "Father." "What?" "Do you think I'll see the children?" "Yes I know that you will." "Not yet." "You get some rest now." "Whenmyfriends startedmovingto thecity..." "Iknewit wasonly amatterof time untilmybestfriend Gabrielwenttoo." "Formonthswe didn'ttalk aboutit." "UntilonedayIfinallysaid heshouldgo withthem." "Itwasthefirsttime  Ieversawhim cry ." "What the hell is that?" "This is my survival pack." "Everything I'll ever need is in here." "Help me with it." "You're gonna walk all the way to the city with that?" "Let me show you something." "You pushed this thing all the way over here?" "Nope." "You fixed it?" "You fixed it?" "I thought you said this thing was dead." "I've been working on it for a few weeks now." "This is great, man." "Congratulations." "I thought you might need it." "What?" "I'm giving it to you." "For your trip." "Come on." "This is your dad's bike." "Now it's yours." "No one here uses it." "I want you to have it." "Hi, Gabriel." "Hey, father." "What time you leaving tomorrow?" "I don't know." "When I wake up." "Just make sure you don't leave without saying goodbye." "Yes, father." "Good deal." "Fidelia." "How are you this evening?" "Don't open your eyes for too long or it burns." "May I?" "The body of Christ." "Hey, father." "Hey." "She seems better today." "Does she?" "I think so." "That's good." "You want some coffee?" "No, thanks." "Big day for Gabriel tomorrow." "Yeah." "What about you, Leo?" "Me?" "What are your plans?" "Plans for what?" "Life." "Your future." "Everybody else your age has already left town." "I don't know." "I'm not really sure." "I think you should go with Gabriel tomorrow." "I can talk to soraya about your mother." "She's got a couple of rooms available and I'm she'd be willing to let your mother stay there." "Why don't you go by there in the morning and check it out?" "I really think your mother would like it there." "Then maybe you should ask her." "Well..." "Think about it will you?" "Good night, father." "That's because while you were listening to father Douglas ramble on about Saint Francis or whatever" "I was under the pews looking up the girls' skirts." "I miss girls." "They smell so good." "And ice cream." "When was the last time you had ice cream?" "A long time ago." "A long time, right?" "The first thing I'm gonna do when I get to the city..." "Is have ice cream with a girl that smells good." "I hate this place, man." "You're pissing on me." "Son of a..." "Leo, look at this." "Look at this." "Water." "Get some water!" "Let me help you." "I never told you this, but sometimes I like to go out to the beach and visit your mother." "Sometimes I spend all day listening to peoples problems and I just need someone to listen to me." "Leo you can talk to me if you like." "About what?" "You and your best friend were dead for three hours and then you came back to life." "You don't think that's worth talking about?" "What do you remember from last night?" "What about the three hours?" "Thekidsalldisappeared intotheocean..." "Sotherewasneverreally afuneralafterthe wave." "FatherDouglastoldme itwasn'tmy fault." "ThatI shouldn'tfeelguilty tobealive." "Thatgodhadaspecialpurpose forme." "Iwasn'treallyconvinced." "Doña soraya." "What are you doing?" "The water's out in the house." "Thanks." "Leo." "I'm glad you're ok." "What is that thing in the yard, Leo?" "I don't know." "You don't know?" "Are you saying you didn't build it?" "I know you've been going through a hard time lately." "Everyone knows that." "But I can't help you if I don't know what's going on." "No more!" "That's enough!" "Ayearafterthe kidsdied  fatherDouglassuggested werebuildtheschool." "That night someone threw a rock throughhiswindow." "Andthechurchwas empty fora month." "Heneversuggesteditagain." "Hey." "Is the water still out in your house?" "Hey, bigo." "Is that my mother's lamp?" "Ok, lela." "You're gonna be all right." "You'll see, lela." "Father?" "Yes?" "What is it?" "When we left Leo's house..." "Some of us started talking." "About what?" "Somebody said that..." "That this is a sign from god." "That Leo is the messenger." "Who said that?" "Everybody." "Now listen..." "It can be very dangerous to jump to conclusions." "You know in these times we have to stay focused on god..." "Otherwise we can lose our way." "Yes, father." "I'm sure you're right." "The real message we're all looking for..." "Is right there in the church and it's waiting for us every day." "Father, you know Oscar would never set foot in the church again." "He always says..." "If a man murders a child, we sentence him to death." "But when god kills forty-six children..." "We are told to praise him." "How do you feel about that?" "I don't know." "Sometimes it does feel like god has abandoned this place." "If we only had a sign." "Just the tiniest glimpse that he still cares." "And you think..." "That Leo might be that sign?" "I don't know." "You spoke with Leo." "Could this be a sign from god?" "It's possible." "Yes." "Soraya?" "Do you come here often?" "Sometimes." "My mom used to bring us a lot as kids." "Andbytheway , thankyouforthe books." "Oh,yeah." "Iactuallyreadthrough afewof thembut ..." "Icouldn'tunderstandmuch." "Theyweremy husband's." "Heusedto studyinbed witha stackof books betweenus." "Itusedto drivemeinsane." "Youknow?" "Thatoldpapersmell." "AndnowIcan 'tevensleep withoutthem." "CanI tellyousomething?" "Iusedto go to yourhouse andwatchyou." "Imean..." "Itwasn't ina disrespectfulway." "I just wanted to see you." "Iknew." "Ialwaysknew." "Mama, stop it." "Mama." "Fidelia do you want more rice?" "Fidelia." "She doesn't hear you." "Put it outside the fence where it belongs." "You're right." "I made it too mushy." "The yucca's better." "She's beautiful." "Who?" "Your mother." "There's something very romantic about her." "Okay." "I suppose men don't see their mothers that way." "She's not a mother." "I didn't mean that." "I understand." "It must be difficult seeing her like this." "I just don't know if she would be like this if I would have died instead of tigo." "I don't think that would have made any difference." "One time..." "I was swimming with my brother..." "And we saw this buoy far out from shore." "It had a bell on it." "And we didn't realize how impossible it was so..." "We decided to swim to it." "We got too far out from shoreand..." "We both started panicking and yelling for my mother." "And finally she saw us and jumped in the water and started to swim towards us." "I remember trying to reach her..." "But when she got to me..." "She just passed me by and saved tigo instead." "She probably knew you could swim better than him." "Yeah." "I know." "But she still had a choice." "And she chose him." ""And now with her eyes she would look full upon his face." "And now again she would fail to know him." "Cruel mother, thou hast an unyielding heart..." "Why dost thou hold aloof from my father?" "Why do you not sit by his side and ask questions?" "No other woman would harden her heart as thou dost..." "And stand aloof from her husband"." "I know it sounds crazy but..." "That's the truth." "Bigo!" "What is going on?" "Father, it's a miracle." "What miracle?" "What are you talking about?" "Leo!" "Come and see!" "You have to believe me." "You see?" "You see?" "You see, father?" "Remember how she was?" "See?" "She's happy now." "Huh, lela?" "Señora guzman." "Someone had to be the first to forget." "Has soraya been sleeping here?" "Who said that?" "People talk." "I don't care what people think." "You hungry?" "Concha!" "Concha!" "Yes?" "Father Douglas and Leo are here for lunch." "Hello, concha." "Excuse me." "Oh no, please, father, don't." "I'm so sorry for the delay." "Something's happening around here." "People are acting different and father Douglas says it's because of me." "Because people think I'm special." "But you know that's not true don't you, mama?" "I want you to know that I forgive you." "For pushing dad away." "For pulling my ear when the cat broke your vase." "For loving tigo more than me." "Mama, stop it." "You're right." "I didn't give you enough corn." "Please, mama." "I know you can hear me!" "Where's Leo?" "Is this some sort of game?" "You're playing to prove how clever you are, Leo?" "All right so now it's a boat." "Congratulations, that's wonderful." "What are you gonna do with it?" "And please don't tell me you don't know." "Will you say something for Christ's sake?" "I want to sail it." "You can't be serious." "Why not?" "Why not?" "What do you think will happen if you put it on the water?" "I don't know." "I do know." "It will sink, Leo." "Immediately." "It might not." "Oh it would I promise you." "And have you given any thought to the effect that would have on the people?" "Have you thought about that, Leo?" "It would be a disaster." "And even if by some miracle it did not sink, what would that prove?" "What the hell would that prove, Leo?" "No." "We'll disassemble it and we'll put everything back the way you found it." "And maybe everything can return to normal." "Whatever the hell that is." "Aftertigodied mydadstarted sleepingonthecouch." "Whenhefinallyleft, hegaveme  hisluckypocketknife." "She'spretending,he said." "Ithrewthatknifeinthesea." "Sorry about that." "It's okay." "All right..." "So, what can I do for you?" "I had a dream last night, father." "It's ok." "Tell him." "I was giving birth, but instead of a child..." "A river of water poured out of me." "It was so much water it ran through the streets and flooded the whole town." "So everyone piled into Leo's boat." "It was bigger in my dream." "And then we all sailed to an island..." "Where the children were laughing and playing." "Then..." "Primo woke me up." "She was laughing in her sleep." "So what do you think this means, father?" "I don't really know." "I think that's for you to decide." "What is it?" "Well..." "We did decide, actually." "Decide what?" "We weren't sure if the timing is right..." "But we want to try and have another baby." "Good for you." "Congratulations." "Congratulations." "Good for you." "Good for you." "Father, son, holy spirit." "Wonderful." "Here, Carmen." "Here's the matching color for that." "Yes that's great." "Put the green edge with the white one." "Yes, pull those together." "They're gonna have to be doubled." "Are you using a strong enough thread on that?" "No wait, i think you should use this." "Remember these are gonna be double edged." "Hi." "Hi, Leo." "Bigo." "I was thinking..." "Maybe I should leave lela here with the cart." "If you have to move anything else." "Ok." "Thanks." "Just remember me when the time comes." "Hey, Leo." "Looking good." "Pretty solid." "What's that?" "It's a sail." "For you." "A sail?" "Yeah." "The mothers from the community got together and made it for you." "May I sit down a while?" "Listen, I uh..." "I feel badly about the way i spoke to you the other day." "I hope there's no hard feelings." "Okay." "And you know..." "I've been thinking a lot about this boat of yours lately..." "Thinking..." "What it means..." "How it can serve the people..." "And it occured to me..." "That maybe this boat is not meant to sail at all." "That maybe it is meant as a symbol of some kind." "A symbol?" "Yeah." "Would that be such a bad thing?" "And you know what?" "We can move it closer to the church so that it has a more central location." "Everybody could see it all the time day and night." "And it could be a great source of inspiration." "Leo, give it some thought." "Because I think god has given you a great opportunity here." "And we don't want to waste it." "I would offer you coffee, but the water's still out." "Is everything ok?" "Yeah." "How did people act when I died?" "Why do you ask?" "I don't know." "I'm just curious." "Did anyone care?" "I guess it happened so fast." "Well I should get home." "Will I see you tomorrow?" "No." "I can finish everything on my own." "Leo!" "You have to help me." "Leo is here." "It's okay now." "It's okay now, Rosita." "Come on!" "Do something!" "Help her!" "Rosita." "Rosita." "Rosita, stay with me." "Stay with me, Rosita." "Rosita, Rosita." "Don't let go, Rosita." "No, no, Rosita." "No." "Breathe." "Breathe, Rosita." "No, no." "Get out." "Get out." "Get out of here!" "Rosita!" "But I don't understand." "You were both so excited about it." "But I don't see the point in bringing a child into so much sadness." "It's natural to mourn death." "Didn't Jesus himself mourn poor Lazarus?" "We mustn't give up hope." "How is he?" "Not good." "He's been sitting there all night." "Pedro." "Why do you have that machete?" "I thought about killing his mother." "Make him feel what I feel." "He's only a boy, Pedro." "And when did you decide that?" "What are you doing?" "Soraya and I are leaving town." "When?" "Today." "Now." "No, son." "You can't do that." "Not now." "The people need you." "I can't do anything for them." "Now you listen to me son." "The people are confused." "They need something to believe in now." "Yeah well..." "That's your job." "You listen to me!" "I cannot do this alone." "Now you help me get that boat to the church." "And show them you have not given up." "I'll do the rest." "You owe them that much." "Father Douglas?" "Careful!" "Careful!" "Steady!" "Careful!" "Carefully!" "Careful!" "That's it." "That's it." "A little more!" "A little more we got it!" "That's it!" "Careful!" "Woah!" "That'll do it!" "He's there with Leo." "I told you!" "Leo." "We're doing the right thing." "There she is!" "She's helping them!" "Get away from me!" "Get away from me!" "Stop it!" "What the hell are you doing?" "Get out of there!" "Help me!" "Help me, please!" "Don't let it burn!" "Help me!" "What's the matter with you people?" "Help me, please!" "We can't let it burn!" "Help me!" "Help me, please!" "Please, help me for god's sake!" "What are you doing?" "Come on help us!" "Sometimes I think about how different things could be..." "If that wave had just struck in the middle of the night." "All the children safe in bed." "The next day everyone so grateful..." "As they realize they had avoided a tragedy." "Can you imagine it?" "People would talk about it for years." "What a miracle, they'd say." "What a miracle." "Same wave struck the same building..." "Just at a different time." "All my life I've believed in miracles." "Now I think a miracle is..." "Just a tragedy..." "Narrowly avoided by chance." "I'm sorry." "Tigo." "Leo." "Leo!" "Leo!" "Leo!" "Leo!" "Mama." "Leo!" "Leo!" "No!" "One time father Douglas told me we'realllikeraindrops fallingfromthesky ." "Youfeelalonerightnow,  heexplained." "Butsomedayyou'llmelt intotheoceanand realize you'reconnected to every raindrop in the world." "Maybehe'sright." "Maybewe'realljusttrying tomeltbackintoeach other." "Idon'treallyknow." "ButifIeverdoreach  thatocean..." "Idon'tthinkI'llbeafraid." "And I don't feel alone anymore."