"The falcon is a one-of-a-kind hunter." "When it flies by before your eyes" "Like that." "You don't see it, but you hear it." "This son of a bitch..., it's designed like a missile." "It's got a round head, doesn't it?" "and it has modified nostrils because, at the speeds it reaches, when the air enters suddenly it could explode it from the inside." "When it's hunting the falcon goes up 400 meters and when it's up there" "it sees its prey it folds up its wings" "Like that." "At more than 300 kilometers an hour and when it's at the right altitude" "Look, see this claw here," "This one, shaped like a hook, ...when it reaches the right height, it goes..." "And it's ready." "But the most important thing for the falcon... are its eyes." "It couldn't hunt without its powerful vision." "Ha, it was shat on." "You'll see it now." "What are you waiting for?" "Send it up." "I need to clean its eyes, sir." "Let him go, now." "It's going to escape." "It won't get away, sir." "Look, look!" "Yeah!" "¡Aaaah!" "Where could I see more of your paintings?" "At my house." "Can I see your house?" "Ha, ha..." "My name is Justine." "I'm Ana." "This is my dad." "Hi." "Hi." "He's German." "My God!" "You're natives." "Can I?" "Ha ha ha..." "Ha ha ha..." "Ana, are you in school?" "Yeah." "Aside from your life." "Have you gone to school?" "I have taught her everything that I know." "... and more..." "Everything that I've learned ...for her." "Not for me..." "Mathematics, literature, philosophy history." "I can't handle history." "It's too tough for me." "But history is what unites us." "Each one of us is also a history." "We carry it inside, in the deepest part of our memory." "Yes, I like history." "To know." "And also to protect myself from it." "The history of man is a chain of atrocities cruelty, and injustice." "I often feel ashamed of the human race." "Nobody is totally innocent." "But here we feel less guilty." "We don't hurt anybody." "Yeah, this cave protects you." "In today's world, living like this is a poetic act." "Ha!" "We're not putting on a show for anybody." "Of course." "Ana I want to propose something to you..." "I'd like to invite you to live at my residency in Madrid for the next 2 or 3 years." "There are other exceptional young people there that I have chosen personally." "I'm a patron." "You don't have to worry about anything..." "My residency will cover the cost of living and materials." "It's just like I dreamed it." "Almost exactly" "Almost too much the same, almost the same woman" "But in my dream, you ended up falling into the sea." "By yourself, I didn't push you." "You're a brute of a father." "A total pain in the ass." "My father in the caves." "You're a total monster of a father." "I'll write you." "Dear "Pain in the Ass"." "Here in Madrid, I look like a native gone off the reservation." "Well, yes, I get a lot of looks." "I'm laughing." "You know how." "I'm not afraid." "Of anything." "I feel free, and I like that." "But I still feel your hands, holding me tight." "And I like that." "Thank you, my monster." "Justine's residency is like a deserted palace." "And we look like a bunch of squatters." "There's nobody watching over us in the house not even Justine who lives in a house outside of Madrid." "Every morning we have classes..." "painting, music, video." "Everybody does whatever he has chosen." "But they're obligatory." "If we're absent, they throw us out." "The guys are a drag." "A bunch of walking pricks." "They're only motivated by sex." "Deep down, they're all rapists." "Some of them control themselves a bit." "But that invasive instict is with them until they die." "And we girls, what are we?" "Us?" "Well, a bunch of whores." "Come on." "See?" "We're always trying to get them horny." "Turn them on, always from a distance." "And then we pick." "We're just selfish whores." "Us whores and them rapists." "Forever." "And them, what are they" "They rape each other, but they're whores like us." "And the ones who charge money?" "The ones who charge?" "They're the working whores." "And you, are you a dyke?" "No, but I'd love to be." "You're the one from Ibiza?" "Yeah, I'm Ana." "I'm Linda." "My favorite eye." "Because what I see with these eyes..." "There's so much tyrrany in the world that sometimes I hate living." "But that world is mysterious." "And there, not even God controls me." "I barely do." "You know something, Linda?" "Your name fits you better and better as time passes." "Whatever, nothing really fits me." "It's just that my name isn't mine." "Oh no?" "Whose is it?" "My father's boat's, "El Linda"." "You have the name of your father's boat?" "The boat's not called that anymore." "He was a loner sailor." "He fell in love with my mother, 15 years younger than him." "He sold the boat and bought a flat." "And when you were born, he named you after his boat, Linda?" "That sounds good, doesn't it?" "On the outside." "But inside, it's total shit." "My father is an egoist." "He doesn't know how to love anybody." "And my old lady is gullible and will believe anything." "Every day she becomes smaller." "She's about to disappear." "One day the wind will carry her away." "My mother left us when I was little." "I haven't seen her since." "That sucks." "And the boat?" "Was it a sailboat?" "Yeah." "Well, that's good." "But I'm from land, girl." "Solid land." "I need to be careful and catch myself every once in a while." "You're very pretty." "Ana, daughter of Klaus he's quite a man, a monster." "Like you've never seen." "My dear monster." "Here I am open to collaboration in everyting." "I'm liking performance art more and more." "It's impermanent." "Sir, how long will death prevail?" "As long as women keep having kids... until the two sexes become as one the male like the female." "Neither male nor female." "God's adversary will move forward." "And you?" "Aren't you maybe a real man?" "I came to destroy the work of the female." "You came to destroy my work?" "You, female are lust." "You are what delays the arrival of perfection." "That's a sexist thing to say." "Well, I'm the son of a god, but not a goddess." "We jews turned our goddesses into witches." "And since then, the heavens have been a patriarchy." "I thought you were a socialist." "That too." "The rich can't enter the Kingdom of Heaven." "And women?" "Can we enter or not?" "Don't tempt me, female." "That's why I'm here isn't it?" "You know, brute." "Here we're very free." "And we owe that to our French mother superior." "He's Saharan." "But his mother was a Berber." "The Berber people, the amazigh, is matriarchal women transmit their cultural essence." "Furthermore, they are monogamous." "They can even divorce." "Surely that's why so many Arab countries hate them." "They've always been marginalized." "The amazigh women educate their children very well." "They know how to raise good men." "I like that." "Yeah, but the video is missing something, like it's not finished." "That's Said." "He lives on the 3rd floor." "He lives in his own world." "He's a painter, like you." "And he's studying five majors." "He has special permission from the government." "Said is a genius." "A prime male specimen." "Completely unique." "Does he turn you on?" "Yeah." "Well, no." "This one's not for anybody." "How are you doing here?" "It's the best place I could be." "As if it were waiting for me..." "Ana I think you should learn to paint with oils." "The crayons give your work a naive feeling." "You should free your subconscious." "Paint with more depth." "I paint to forget myself, to get outside of myself." "I don't want depth." "What's wrong?" "I don't know." "Let's get out of here." "Do you want to come sleep next to me?" "Next to you?" "Yeah." "I sleep poorly." "I suffer." "I sleep really well." "I never dream." "Really?" "Sometimes I daydream, but never when I'm sleeping." "I must have some door closed." "I'd like that, to close the door." "Well, let's stay inside." "I have another closed door maybe it's the same one, but I'd like to open it." "I've never fallen in love." "A house in the heavens." "Una casa en el cielo." "A garden in the sea." "A lark in your chest." "A new beginning." "A desire for stars." "The wing beat of a sparrow." "An island in your bed." "A sunset." "Time and silence." "Cries and songs." "Heavens and kisses." "Voice and breaking." "To be born in your smile." "To grow in your cry." "To live on your back." "To die in your arms." "Time and silence." "Cries and songs." "Heavens and kisses." "Voice and breaking." "What's wrong?" "I'm sorry I didn't want to wake you." "It's my nocturnal anguish." "We were going to sleep together because I was going to help you." "You can't." "Yes, but right now everything seems dark to you." "No, I don't live in the darkness." "I live in total light." "Sometimes I see the end that's when I don't see anything." "Because there isn't anything!" "Yes there is." "But living is useless." "It's a waste of time!" "We met each other." "Just wait and you'll see that this isn't a waste of time." "Hey, did you know that Justine is keeping 60% of our work?" "What do you think of that?" "It doesn't seem so bad." "In the end, we're here because of her." "Hey what's up?" "Something's not right." "I can smell it on you." "...fear of being in love" "Wow!" "And that smile, is a yes?" "Okay, tell it to the 'eye'." "The prime male specimen." "No, I don't believe you." "No way, girl!" "Well, well..." "How is he?" "Well, he's not a walking dick." "You were right about that." "What a trick." "Already in bed..." "it doesn't get better than that." "It's more than that." "Oh?" "More than that?" "So, what is it?" "Now nobody else can try him?" "Are you keeping him for yourself?" "Yes." "Something happened to me too, with somebody, and he's not a rapist." "Is the video yours?" "Yeah, but it wasn't an assignment." "I don't believe in God." "I believe in Woman, my only goddess." "So you're going to quit being a whore to be a goddess?" "Absolutely." "The truth is that Lucas fits you well." "You think so?" "Yeah." "Where is your "sultan"?" "He's studying." "Studying or resting?" "Pssst!" ""Sahrawi Arab Democratic Republic"." "What's your country like?" "I don't know, I've only seen it on the map." "We Sahrawis can't live in our country." "Why not, because it was a Spanish colony?" "Yeah, but 30 years ago Spain gave us to Morocco, who invaded and pushed us out to the Algerian desert." "And built a wall lined with landmines with the help of the United States." "And you?" "Where are you from?" "I grew up in a refugee camp in Algeria." "In the hamada desert one of the most inhospitable areas on earth." "Winters are freezing." "And in the summer it reaches 60 degrees Celcius." "In my language, when somebody wants to curse another to the worst hell he says "May God send you to the hamada"." "Are these your parents?" "No, look." "That's my mom." "She died with my dad in the war with the Moroccans." "She was a Berber." "My father was a 'Bidant'." "My mother fought at his side out of love." "And is that you?" "Yeah, I'm an orphan of war, like all those there." "And you haven't been in your own country?" "No, and that's approved by the U.N." "Are you involved in politics?" "Everything I do is so, one day I can know how to help my people." "I hope with all of my soul that you will know how to do that." "With your molecular biology, or with whatever you want." "Without our biology, we aren't anything." "Our soul only makes sense with our biology." "We need to discover a way to make our biology last forever dure siempre." "Well, back to your studies." "You want us to live forever?" "You and me?" "Yeah." "Sure!" "How much time do we have left?" "Finally, I found you." "Dear my monster of the caves." "I've finally fallen for a man." "Now I feel like I've always loved him." "It's what I was missing." "My Dear Daughter." "What you wrote is the most wonderful and beautiful." "I repeat it to myself all day." "I celebrate that you have found that love is an ancient treasure." "I don't have maternal instincts." "Why not?" "What do you think?" "Because I love Said just for myself." "I don't need children as a medium." "For me, Lucas awakens my maternal instincts." "Well, you can't tell." "That's live." "Telling stories." "Even more for women." "Lobster for five, and the same wine as always." "Thanks." "That is Jovoskaya, a psychologist who's an expert in hypnosis." "In the United States, he's one of the authorities." "Hello." "I was so interested by your latest book." "Thank you, thank you very much!" "What are you doing in Madrid?" "We just gave this great conference about hypnotic regressions." "I have to go back to Los Angeles tomorrow." "These young people are living in my artist residence." "We are preparing a show for Paris." "Those are my favorites" "My Dark Beast, you never told me about this." "Ana, what's wrong?" "Breathe." "I'm falling, my love." "You look like you're getting smaller and smaller." "I'm with you." "Don't let go of me." "¡No!" "¡Aaaaaah!" "Do you see that I'm not letting you go?" "Where are we?" "This is a dream." "Linda." "I was dreaming." "No way!" "How are you?" "Good." "What are you doing here?" "Last night you flipped out." "Don't you remember?" "The lobsters." "You were really messed up." "You were suffering a ton, like somebody was killing you." "Why isn't Said here?" "He left." "Last night we went to look for him and didn't find a trace." "I'm going to talk to Justine." "She'll know something." "Justine went to Paris." "I'll go to his room to see if he left a note." "Ana I already went." "It's really strange." "He took everything with him." "I've been staying here to tell you." "I was dreaming about Said." "It was my first dream and it left with him." "That's a good sign." "Sure." "Last night, the guy at the table next to us hypnotized you." "First, Jovoskaya, the psychologist came over." "And said that her disciple was the one who could help you the most." "He asked us to leave you alone with him." "He said that he left you in a hypnotic sleep." "Don't leave me like that, please." "I'll never understand it." "Ana the guy who hypnotized you is very interested in you." "He gave me his phone number and that we call him." "Well, call him." "Maybe he knows something about Said." "Hi, this is Linda, Ana's friend." "The one that you hypnotized last night." "She just woke up..." "I'd like to hypnotize her again." "It's fundamental, especially for her." "Please tell her for me." "She says yes." "When?" "Right now, if she can." "The impression is very recent and it would be easier." "Do you know anybody who speaks Arabic?" "Yes, Said." "Ana, don't worry." "You'll understand." "What am I going to understand?" "Why did Said leave?" "He was at your side during the hypnosis, and he helped me." "Do what?" "Even he got scared." "Why?" "Ana, you have memories that aren't from your own life." "Visions of things that you haven't lived." "Do you believe that you lived other lives before this one?" "Before I met Said, never." "Last night you spoke in Arabic with Said." "But he wouldn't translate for me." "Hey, hey!" "I'm going to hypnotize you, if y ou want." "Don't be afraid." "You can choose if you prefer to be conscious during the hypnosis and remember everything, or not be consicous." "No, I want to be unconscious." "Take me where you want to, and then you guys can tell me about it." "I'm only interested in whatever has to do with Said." "With his disappearance." "Ana last night, you and I established a hypnotic relationship." "I told you that whenever you heard me count from 10 to 0 and only when you wanted step by step, you would enter a hypnotic sleep." "Ten nine eight seven six five four three..." "Ana." "Didn't you notice that you were speaking Arabic?" "What do you mean?" "You spoke Arabic beautifully." "In the Hassaniyan dialect." "In Said's language, the language of the Sahwari people." "We saw you die in the desert." "With him?" "You spoke with him while he died in your arms." "And what did I say?" "I couldn't understand." "You were crying a lot." "A lot." "Look at yourself." "And me?" "How did I die?" ""The Birds"." "Ana I want to stay a while next to you to search your subconscious." "I can help you, Ana." "I think there's an abyss inside of you." "My Dear Cavedweller." "It's been a while since I last wrote because a lot has happened to me." "Justine gave the third floor to just Linda and me." "And for a friend of ours." "His name is Anglo." "He's from Los Angeles." "Said left in a blink." "Without telling me." "And left me empty inside." "Now I'm staying in his room." "Who better than me to live in the desert?" "Somebody's knocking at the door." "But I'm not going to open." "Somebody's knocking and Anglo will open it for me." "I trust him." "Do you know anything about my doors?" "My dear Ana, It saddens me to see you like this." "But that's part of the risk of leaving home." "I think that these misfortunes will help you know how to live." "That's what it's about: knowing how to live to know how to die." "And about coming to see me..." "Wait, stay there." "Right now, I can't help you." "Nor should I. You should overcome it yourself." "You don't want me to go?" "Well, fine." "And I don't really understand about your doors." "Explain it to me better in your next letter." "I had never seen snow." "I need to remember to tell you about it." "This is the second tallest mountain in the world, K2." "And this is Ana, a real eightthousander." "A what?" "70 years ago, you climbed this mountain that is more than 8,000 meters tall." "You were the lover of a married man who was always promising to leave his wife for you." "And when you stopped believing him you went to the mountain with four feminists." "So, the problem with guys is always the same there's no need to believe them." "And those with a conscience are the worst, like Lucas." "He fucks everybody." "I think he's even fucked Justine." "I've seen some glances..." "What are you talking about?" "Not with her." "Why not?" "He's super horny." "He calls us goddesses to get to fuck more." "It's what they all want." "They all end up being a bunch of rapists." "Deep down, yes." "But every day we're less and less whorish." "Well, I'm done with guys and I'm going with you, my friend to the mountain." "You were the first women in history to reach 8,000 meters." "But you didn't come down." "I saw you freeze to death." "Ana, I have it recorded." "But this time, death is sweet." "¡Aaah!" "I think that the horrible images that you see would go away if you saw the videos." "Hi." "Hi, girls." "How's Ana's hypnosis going?" "Well, each time, it gets easier, but Ana doesn't dare look at herself." "Anglo can hypnotize me whenever he wants, but I want to see it less and less." "There's so much suffering." "There has been a lot of the sexist rapist in your life." "Well, in your lives." "One day you'll wan to know everything." "And that will be good for you." "And you'll be able to see it." "The videos that we make during the hypnosis are yours, you know." "¿Can I see the last one?" "Yeah." "I came to the mountain to forget you." "No." "I came to the mountain to get your attention." "To meet up with you." "But you don't come." "I've already abandoned my life." "I came here to see... if you had abandoned yours too." "You, woman." "Your children, for me." "Come!" "I'm cold." "Now I'm alone." "I've seen my friends die." "Nobody will see us." "Calm down, Ana, it's me." "I came to rescue you." "But I'm going." "Pero te veo." "You smile at me..." "It's really hard for me, Anglo." "Thanks for coming!" "I can't handle it." "You're so sweet!" "Ha, ha, ha!" "What are you doing?" "Come on!" "Hey, hey!" "It doesn't surprise me that you're still horny, if you stay faithful to that asshole that left you without an explanation." "Have I ever been a man?" "To this point, you've always been a woman." "A young woman." "That means that I've always died in a tragic way." "Not a natural death, right?" "Yeah." "The less I know, the better." "Anglo, have you ever taken advantage of me during a hypnosis?" "With how many times you've hypnotized me." "I'm talking about sex." "No." "Never, of course not." "I believe you." "But thinking about it, it wouldn't matter to me if you did something." "Since I wouldn't remember it anyway." "If you want to, you have my consent." "I'd rather do it with you awake." "That's what I'd really like to do." "I'll only be yours through hypnosis." "My dear father in the caves, You're right I shouldn't go home until I figure out my problems." "And don't worry about my doors, I'm fine." "Ana this has been the best hypnosis session." "Your lives are getting older and older." "Not my lives, my deaths." "How long have I been here?" "I'm hungry." "A day, but you ate lunch and dinner." "Not a lot, but..." "I'm naked." "Last night I bathed you." "You were covered in sweat." "Two very important people have met you." "Two true masters of hypnosis." "One came from Russia and the other from Mexico." "They showed me some new paths." "Ana, your case is one-of-a-kind." "We found lives in you from more than a thousand years ago." "You hardly say anything about some of them, but others are fascinating stories." "And we know that we can keep going." "I'd say let's keep going until we reach the end." "Or the beginning." "Why is all of this happening to me?" "I don't know, you have been all of those women or maybe just through you, during hypnosis we can make contact with them or with part of their memories." "Sometimes they are only images." "But it's clear that they're part of you." "That's your chaos, Ana." "And who am I?" "If I don't even have my own dreams." "Why don't I dream when I'm alseep like everybody else?" "Because you're scared, Ana." "Privately." "Since through you we can make contact with other lives that were lost in time go back a bit and look at them." "I want to ask you something something different." "I want a conscious hypnosis." "That's a good step." "But right now I only want to return to the Sahara." "To when I lived there with Said." "I want to remember, not death, but the happy times with him." "And I'll record it." "Don't record anything." "I'll record it here." "This is really personal." "Now, while I count from 10 to 7 from 10 to 7, con cada número your body is getting rigid and heavy." "Ten nine eight seven." "Your body is becoming rigid, heavy, and hard." "But only your body is like that." "Your spirit is weightless." "If you want, you can separate them." "Leave the bed here in the bed." "Now, I'll count from 6 to 4 and you won't feel your body." "Six five four." "You'll have your eyes open during the hypnosis." "The more you see the deeper your hypnosis will be." "Now, I want you to imagine that you're walking next to a mountain." "To one side is the sea." "You're looking for the entrance to a cave." "A particular cave." "You feel the breeze on your face." "And you hear the rumble of the waves." "Soon you discover." "It's your cave, Ana." "You enter." "You're completely alone." "You notice that the walls are full of closed doors." "Your subconscious is going to choose a door." "You're going to stand in front of the chosen door." "Now, you open it carefully." "You're going to enter and when I count from 3 to 0, you will appear in another time and in another space, that you have chosen." "Three, two one, zero." "¿Are you in the life you wanted?" "Yes." "I'm in the Saharan Republic, my country." "How old are you?" "I don't know, I'm a little girl." "And what's your name?" "Saida." "A man on a camel is coming." "It's my father." "I'm lost and he has come to find me." "Good, now we're going to move forward in Saida's life." "I'm going to count again from 3 to 0 and let your unconscious choose an important memory." "Three two one zero." "Now, where are you, Saida?" "How old are you?" "Something's happening to me." "We're at war." "I don't know what I have." "There are people taking care of me." "Are you hurt?" "I've got it now..." "I'm about to give birth." "Is your husband with you?" "No." "I don't see him." "¡Aaah!" "¡Yasir!" "Aaah!" "It hurts a lot!" "I had a child with him." "Congratulations, Saida." "Now, I'm going to count again from 3 to 0." "And let your subconscious take us to another chosen moment." "Please, wait." "A mother was just born too." "I'm the luckiest man." "Thank you, Saida!" "Thank you!" "Yasir!" "This is the happeist day of my life!" "Three two one zero." "Now, where are you, Saida?" "In a prison camp." "Moroccan soldiers are guarding us." "Why don't I have my son with me?" "Now I remember." "A soldier took him away." "It's Yasir." "He's coming to rescue me." "Let's go!" "No!" "Get me out of here, please." "Calm down, you'll be out in a moment." "Three." "You return to the door and enter the cave." "Two." "Leave the cave." "One." "Everything is black." "Zero." "And you're here." "Holy Shit!" "My asshole father left my mother in the fucking street." "He had an 'individualism attack' he sold the apartment and bought a sailboat." "I can't stand men!" "I can't stand them!" "I'm done with it!" "I don't have anything left inside to give to guys." "Not even a little handful." "Ana, you have to fucking give up on the world of men who rot us all from the inside." "It will just be us women, with some conscience." "And fucking forget Said for once." "Worry about yourself a little." "Take seriously what you have inside, because what you have that you don't want to see, must mean something." "I'm making a montage with all of that." "to see if you understand something." "I have news about yourfather." "He's getting evicted." "From the cave?" "Yes." "Who told you?" "Friends of yours." "VaIencians." "The San Juans." "Yourfather is living with them." "I'm going." "My dad can't live out of his cave." "He'II get used to it, you'II see." "Living alone in a cave is no fun." "That's why he didn't want me to visit." "He's fighting with some politician and he didn't want me to worry." "Ana, there's no time to lose." "Yourfather needs you as soon as possible." "I know, he'II never get in a car, not even yours." "Let's go." "Ana..." "Yourfather is ill." "Isn't your local festival this time of year?" "He didn't want you to see him until he felt better." "But he has cancer, Ana." "And now he knows he's dying." "Because I Ieft." "Don't say that." "Fine, I won't say it." "But I'II always think it." "He wants to dance with you, Iike when you were little." "hold me tight, Maria." "hold me tight." "Tonight's the coldest night, and I can't sleep." "hold me tight, Maria." "hold me tight." "I'm scared and I have nowhere to go." "Tomorrow when you wake" "I'II be far away." "It's nothing to worry about," "I've been through worse." "In case I never see you again, forget I made you suffer." "If I disappear I don't want anyone to rememberwho I was." "hold me tight, Maria." "hold me tight." "Tonight's the coldest night and I can't sleep." "hold me tight, Anita." "hold me tight." "I'm scared and I have nowhere to go." "You've made me the happiest man in the whole world." "hold me tight." "I'II be back foryou some day, we'II run away together." "hold me tight, Maria." "hold me tight." "I'm scared and I have nowhere to go." "I'm scared and I have nowhere to go." "I'm alone and I'm happy, damn it!" "Free!" "I'm free!" "Linda!" "Linda, is that you?" "Trying to punish me?" "well, you've succeeded." "IsmaeI, you don't know me." "I'm Ana." "What else are you?" "well, I'm your stowaway." "We'II have to make do." "But I can help you." "I don't want a fucking stowaway!" "Sorry, it was me." "I grabbed the rope when I came out." "This is my boat." "You snuck inside me." "I know." "I heard you were going to New York and..." "Linda!" "I'm a friend of Linda's!" "Dear Cave Monster," "Here I am, in the atlantic." "The souls of the dead don't go anywhere, do they?" "AII they can do is fly away to enterthe living." "I don't want to fly away." "My only wish is to stay with you." "You're a friend of Linda's?" "You said that in the water." "Is that why you came back for me?" "No." "Want to know what your daughter thinks of you?" "Don't believe all you hear about me." "I was living with her." "What time is it there?" "I'm only interested in here and now." "Me, too." "From now on." "hold on!" "Don't let go!" "I'd never spent so much time with a man before." "A man who isn't my father." "Tomorrow we arrive at the Port of Manhattan." "I want to dock in New York a few months." "New York, new life." "Then I'II follow the coast south." "Take my time." "To brazil." "I'II rent out the boat for money." "With a crew." "Stay with me and I'II teach you to sail." "I have no idea what I want to do." "play it by ear." "Sorry I'm not your Prince Charming." "well, almost." "You're always close." "How did you find me?" "Linda's father." "I was just with him on his boat." "will you continue the voyage?" "Why are you here?" "I'm sorry, Ana." "I absolutely had to see you." "We've done a Iot of research." "You have?" "Forthe last session," "to reach the origin." "What's the point?" "Look where I am now." "This is New York." "The most open city in the world." "Far away from your life, right?" "But the funny thing is, you've never been cIoserto yourself than you are right now." "Running away brought you back to your beginning." "How will I die this time?" "Ana, look at me." "I couldn't wait to see you." "You're so dearto me." "I'II see him again, won't I?" "We've entered the Indian reservation." "Look, Beast." "It's a cave." "I was anxious to see you again, Ana." "You broke my heart when you left without saying goodbye..." "I understood, but I also felt guilty." "Why are you here now?" "To help you understand, if you let me." "I have to go back even further?" "Yes." "2000 years." "What's wrong?" "It hurts." "Then we'II go outside." "You must feel comfortable above all else." "Something happened to you here and it's still nearthe surface." "She realized as well." "What happened?" "We're not exactly sure." "That's why I've brought you here." "Come." "Mother, Mother, Mother... of Good Men!" "Of Good Men!" "She wants you to pick it up." "Trust her, Ana." "There's nothing mystical about me." "Come on, Ana." "We're on your side." "Ana, do not be afraid." "We're together again." "Now say my name, you know me." "Say it." "Osdad Ciaca." "That was your name." "I got it right the first time." "To your people, the Goddess of Life." "How old was I when I was exterminated?" "22." "How scary." "I'm still 21." "I am alive, inside of you." "Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five..." "We're preparing a surprise foryou from Madrid." "Hi, Ana." "well, first of all," "I miss you a Iot, there's no doubt about that." "What else...?" "Things have changed around here." "My mother sleeps in your bed now." "She said to thank you." "She knows you're with my dad, on his boat, the Linda." "But anyway, she says she's much better off without him, which she didn't know, so good for her." "As for me, you'II laugh but..." "I'm back with Lucas, so... it's back to being a goddess." "Shared, of course, but I'm used to the idea." "As foryou, follow the wind." "They say "a following wind."" "Whatever." "That's it." "Ride it." "Ride the wind, my dearfriend." "My dearest friend..." "My bird friend." "Osdad Ciaca." "Stop it, please." "Ana, it was the man you loved who dethroned you." "He killed the goddess and your people fell into a war among brothers." "Show herthe ending." "He's dressed up as a bird." "His brothers will be angry." "Dressed like that, I won't go with you." "Your pride sickens me." "Put down that hatchet right now!" "Don't be a savage!" "Strike me again... and you'II lose me forever." "Ana, now, dying, is when she glows, when she achieves wisdom." "And she speaks to you." "You have to listen to her." "I'm scared." "Then be brave." "But I'm not." "Ana, down deep you are brave, the bravest of all." "Your consciousness of humanity is developed, but through the feminine, which is the life instinct, not the death instinct." "You have to open yourself up and explore it." "I don't have to do anything." "Whateveryou say, princess." "I'm free." "And I never liked mothers." "The tape is yours." "It's up to you." "You must have a purpose in life." "You have to find it." "I have no purpose, period." "AngIo, hypnotize me forthe rest of the trip, please." "Ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one, zero." "You're going to relax because you've had a very rough day." "Empty your mind." "I understand you, my love." "I understand you." "I open in two hours." "And you're way too late." "But I can make you a crepe." "What flavor?" "Sugar." "How did you get here?" "Justine." "She found me and told me where you were." "Is this yours?" "No." "It's a friend's." "How are things?" "Fine, I'm trying to live my Iife." "If they let me live this one." "This is the present." "You're stepping on it, Said." "No." "Stay where you were." "please." "This place is ideal for me." "Yes." "It seems made for me." "What about you?" "How was Guantanamo?" "Guantanamo?" "For all I knew, since you left without saying a word..." "Ana," "I've come to ask yourforgiveness." "Ana, afteryour attack, which we all saw," "I had another, which nobody saw." "And I saw why I couldn't help you, how I would hurt you." "You spoke to me in Arabic." "What did you say?" "How did I answer?" "That night you realized it's not over when biology runs out." "Our souls have another biological sense." "You said that there's nothing in the end." "It's the opposite." "We accumulate." "Death fills, not empties." "Let's go for a walk." "So how did it end up?" "Did you make biology last longer?" "No." "Do you think if we didn't die we'd be capable of loving passionately?" "I don't want to live forever." "I just want to live with you." "That's my wish." "And that's my window." "Don't worry, it's all right." "I'm sorry." "Is there anotherwoman?" "Forgive me," "I shouldn't ask that." "What matters is we found each other." "Let's start a life together right now." "Where should we go?" "To your desert?" "Okay. "May God send us to Hamada."" "Hamada." "Anyway, even if we die again together, devoured by birds..." "You know what happened, don't you?" "What I'm saying is, I'm going with you." "Anywhere you want." "Come on, say yes." "It'II be the happiest day of my Iife." "Ana," "I wasn't Yasir, the Saharan you were in love with." "Why not?" "How do you know?" "I'm Said, his son." "And also the son of Saida." "My parents were prisoners in a Moroccan camp." "A soIdiertook your son away." "My motherwas a weII-known Berber." "She came from way back and possessed energy from otherwise women," "Amazigh women that came before her." "That's why the Moroccans let the birds eat her alive." "They thought her soul would be released into the air." "The only thing of hers returned to my people was this ring." "So I was your mother." "Your grizzly beast of a mother." "Just as well you weren't with us." "I saw him." "It's him, I know it is." "Who?" "The big shot eating in the private room." "It's one of those fuckers who made up the fucking war in Iraq that killed our little Paco." "We're here, Ana." "Don't be afraid." "We'II go together, all together." "We're all behind you." "italian?" "ItaIian-American." "Spain." "Yeah, sweetie." "We know it's all the same to you." "I'II be right back." "Even if you kill me 2000 times..." "I shall be born again." "I will engender an army of children who will become..." "Good Men." "TO MY SISTER ANA WHO LEFT" "TO MY DAUGHTER ANA WHO CAME" "Ana's paintings were painted by Ana Medem between 1989 and 2001." "The adaptations are by Sofia Medem."