"But if you reduced hours, I mean we've already heard that in a special school there were only two days a week of speech therapy ...and the case load was enormous." "Do not let your hearts be troubled." "Believe in God, believe also in me." "In my Father's house, there are many dwelling places." "If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you?" "Yeah." "Yeah, I'll call you later, vicar's talking." "Old man's funeral." " Old man's funeral?" " That's what he said, Jenny." " That poor father being buried." " What a son." " They couldn't wait to get out of there." " Thomas would never say that." "Sometimes, this job would break your heart." "He's much too good a boy, our brother." " And you're just being Lizzie." " Yeah, Lizzie, you're being Lizzie." "Mum, Jenny's being Mum." " I'm your mum, I say stop." " It's not fair, you're all against me 'cos I got bigger feet." "But your feet, they're dazzling madam, quite dazzling!" " What is she on about?" " Mum and Jenny were shopping..." "We took so long to buy anything ...that the assistant thought we were going to nick something and then mum said, in her best vicarage voice," ""This blouse, would it suit my daughter?" "Does it match her eyes which we think are dazzling?"" "Dear." ""Dazzling Madam, as you say..." "quite dazzling."" "Stop mocking your poor mother!" ""Dazzling, absolutely dazzling!"" "What a rowdy lot this family is." "Roll on Anglesey." "Lovely holiday, lovely Wales." " Lucky you, mum." " Lucky me, wish you were coming." "Well, I'm a hard-working woman stuck in London." "In fact I better go, it's nearly time for the train." " Is James going to meet you at Reading?" " Yes, he will." "I'll ring you tomorrow." "We'll come to the station with you, wave you off." " Great." "I'm on." " Bye, mum." "Ready, dad?" " Yup, ready." " Bye." " Bye darling." " Love you." " See you mum." " Bye..." "Drive carefully." " Bye mum." "We're still on holiday." "Are you awake Julie?" "Yes, uncle Jimmie." " Do you want your cuppa?" " Yes, please." "It's going to be a lovely day." "I'll get up in a minute and make breakfast." "You're waking up to BBC radio Berkshire." "Get up James." "Thank you for joining us." "It's Maggie and Jim with you through until 9 o'clock this morning..." "What time is it?" "It's time to get up and go to work." "I don't wanna go to work." "I know you don't but if you don't get up now then how are you going to win the Nobel Prize?" "I don't wanna win a Nobel Prize, I wanna stay in bed." "James, get up." " I'm off." " Ok." "I'll see you this evening." "Get up." "See you James." "Get up!" " Eggs." " Do you think they're gonna want eggs as well?" "Somebody might." "How much toast should I do?" "One each to start with?" " Or maybe two for the blokes." " Ok." "No bacon for me, there's more for the men." "Dad, uncle, breakfast nearly ready." " Coming." " Coming." "Well, we should make use of the good weather." "A trip in the car would be lovely." " What about a picnic, Julie?" " Lovely." " Where, dad?" " You decide." "Will we fit in?" "We can squeeze, none of us are that fat." "I'm working on it." " Lizzie?" " Mummy, you watching television?" "No, I'm cooking breakfast, why?" "Mum, have you talked to Jenny?" "I can't reach her, would she have her mobile?" "Well, she'll be busy at work, It's 10 past 9." "You don't know, do you?" "They've-err... there've been explosions in London, explosions, it's all on television." "Turn it on." " I can't reach Jenny." " Lizzy, she'll be busy at work." "Stop being dramatic." "I'm not, I'm worried." "Turn on the television." "Indeed, and of course we have been hearing all morning that it was a power surge that caused the problems right across the London Underground." "But we still don't know what caused that power surge." "I'll ring her and I'll call you back as soon as I've spoken to her." "...trains which may have collided at Edgware Road and British Transport Police are trying to investigate whether passengers are..." "What's wrong?" "...still there on board and trapped there." "London's entire Underground network has been closed." "Police are describing it as a major incident." "Jenny, it's mum, are you ok?" "Can you call me as soon as you can?" "Major termini, including King's Cross and Liverpool Street have been evacuated." "Auntie Karina, are we having this picnic or not?" "I'm boiling eggs for the sandwiches." "...the G8 summit." "We can talk to our correspondent Russell Hayes" " who is at the police station in Edgware..." " Did you get hold of your mum, Lizzie?" "She said as soon as Jenny realises what's happened, she'll call." "She'll keep ringing." "But this way's still alive with activity, there is police tape fluttering along every entrance to Edgware Road ...ambulances are still arriving here." "We're also getting reports this morning of an explosion in Russell Square." "We have had confirmation of an explosion on the bus." "You can see the emergency services there." "We were just hearing there from an eye witness... who heard this very loud explosion and we understand that this has very badly destroyed the top layer of the bus." "We can see some bystanders there." "That's not a power surge." "These are bombs." "Now, if you're worried about relatives, don't call 999 or any of the hospitals." "Scotland Yard has issued a special telephone number for anyone concerned about friends or relatives." "The number to ring is: 08701566344." "That's: 08701566344" "Well, I'm glad to say that the Metropolitan Police Commissioner" "Sir Ian Blair is in our Westminster studios..." "I wonder if you could start by giving us the facts as you know them at the moment." "I want to say one thing specifically to the world today..." "This was not a terrorist attack against the mighty and the powerful." "It was not aimed at Presidents or Prime Ministers." "It was aimed at ordinary working-class Londoners." "Black and white, Muslim and Christian, Hindu and Jew, young and old." "Indiscriminate attempt to slaughter irrespective of any considerations for age, for cast, for religion, whatever." "The archbishop of Canterbury called for solidarity between..." " It's James." " James...?" " Hi Julie." "Have you heard from Jenny?" "No, I haven't." "Shall I call her office?" "I've been trying." "I can't get through." "I'll try again and as soon as I do, I'll call you, first thing." " All right?" " Ok." "I'll try the office." "Hello, this is Jenny's mother, I'm so glad to get through." "Is she...?" "Could you ask her to call me immediately." "Yes, I'm sure she will." "Has anybody else not arrived?" "They're all there..." "Thank you." "They're all there at work." "She's not." "I'll check all the main hospitals." "Are you staying in Anglesey or are you going home to Bristol?" "I'm not sure, I'm not overly worried." "I'm not sure and..." "No, neither are we." "I was just saying, she might be helping somebody." "She wouldn't walk away." "Maybe you should check the hospitals, she might be sitting around in one." "She might be waiting for news in an AE." "Julie, what do you think you should be doing?" "Going to London to see for myself." "London." "I'm ringing her cousins." " But do you think you should?" " Yes I do." "And I think they will drive her." "Have you got enough money?" "Shall I help you pack for the morning?" "Pack, Julie." "Shall I help you?" "I don't know what to take." "Leave that to us." "It's 6 o'clock on Friday, 8 July." "Good morning, this is today..." " Can I come in?" " Cheryl?" "I'm glad to see you." " What are you doing here?" " Martin, she's decent." "You can come in." "We're driving you to London." "We insist." "We'll meet James there." "You must have got up at some unearthly hour." "It's all right Julie, we're with you." "We're not letting you do this on your own, Julie." " Will we find her?" " We'll bring her home." "God." "What's Greg doing?" "He needs to stay in Bristol with Lizzie and Thomas." " And in case Jenny phones." " Yeah, in case she rings." "James?" "Hi." " Anything?" " No, nothing yet, no." " Hi Cheryl." " How are you?" " Hi Martin." " Morning." "Erm, just through here." "Just give them your name." "Have you travelled far today?" " It's quite stifling in here, isn't it?" " Yes, it is." "Is there anything I can get you?" " No, there isn't, thank you." " Are any of you hungry?" "I don't mean if you'd like my sandwich of course if you want to have it, feel free..." "I'm thinking of coffee and tea." "There's biscuits as well." " I hope you soon have news." " So do we." "Thank you." " I wish he'd just eat the ruddy thing." " Julie." "Mrs Nicholson, I'm Joanne." "A police liaison officer." "We've matched the details you've given to us." "There's a young white woman in intensive care." "She's under 30, unidentified." " Why would she be...?" " We're checking for distinguishing marks." " Is she the only one?" " There are two others." "Another of them matched Jenny's description." "Her hair colour, the photographs this gentleman brought." "Well, might she be in another hospital?" "I've explained to this gentleman..." " James." " There's no point in going anywhere else." "All casualties yet to be identified have been sent here." "So what do we do?" "We wait." "Excuse me." "We're not the first country to experience this kind of terrorist attack." "Julie?" "You bearing up?" " She hasn't phoned here." "Has she..." " ..." "Phoned me?" "I would have told you" "Can I speak to mum?" "I'm putting Lizzie on." "Mum, all the cousins from Manchester are arriving." "Katie and Joanne." "That's good, you'll have a full house." "Lizzie, mind Thomas, make sure you mind Thomas." "I will." "Can you put dad back on?" "I'm here Julie." "First news, I'll ring." "She'll be all right." " We'll find her." " We'll find her." "I promise." "You haven't got a spare cigarette, have you?" "What?" "Is something not to your liking?" "What?" "Mrs Nicholson?" "Can you come with me?" "James, you as well, please." " I know you gave these details before but..." " It's all right, it's all right." " I need descriptions." " Of Jenny erm..." "Well she looks like you, your age, your colouring, she doesn't have any fillings." "She was wearing a watch..." " ...her bracelet watch." " Yeah, bracelet watch." "She has scars on her back." "And her bosom, she has a wonderful bosom." "Well, she does." "Sorry, would you excuse me?" "I'm confused, she wouldn't have been at any of those stations or on that bus." "I know her route, I know exactly where she should have been." "It just doesn't make sense." "It doesn't make sense." "Mrs Nicholson, would you consent to having your DNA taken?" "Yes, of course." "Can you open your mouth for me?" "Are you going home now?" "No, we're going to my sister Vanda's house just outside Reading." "Will we hear from you?" "No, you'll be assigned officers from the Reading area." "Probably in the next few hours." "If there's anything I can do please call me." "How many people have you said that to today?" "I know you mean it." " Please, please find my Jenny." " We'll do everything we can." "Spare some change?" "Any change?" "Anything you got?" "Except 20p I don't want." "I don't want 20p, I can't buy anything for 20p." "I mean, what about you..." "got a fag?" "Anything?" " Please, don't you have change?" " Leave us alone, just leave us alone." "It's Steven Gerrard..." "He's tackling the goal keeper!" "He's tackling the goal keeper!" "He's tackling..." "Yeaaah!" " Were the police helpful?" " They did what they could." "Not much they could do." "There was a woman in intensive care we thought might be Jenny but it wasn't." " Julie did the DNA test." " What's that?" "It's just to help the police, when someone goes missing their mum or dad gives a DNA test." "Why?" "So the police will know exactly, scientifically, who they're looking for." "Wouldn't they know Jenny when they see her?" "Of course they will, Ally." "Have they been ringing from Bristol, Lizzie and Thomas?" "Greg did, we want them here." "I'll finish the food." "You must be famished." "Thank you both so much." "I'll give you a hand." "I haven't brought Jenny with me, Vanda." "I promised them that I'd find her." "We will, Julie." "If we have to search the earth for Jenny, we will." "They know that." "Just drink your gin..." "You can join Steven Gerrard out there in a game of football." "It's way past his bedtime, I better bring him in." "Today's attack just came 24 hours after the city was told it had been awarded the Olympic Games for 2012." "The Mayor of London, Ken Livingstone..." "She called me from there all excited." "She saw the red arrows for the first time in all her 24 years." "There's no way she could be travelling through any of those stations." "There's no logic to it." "I know I keep saying that but..." "It says on the news, people are drifting in to churches and they're traumatised." "Completely traumatised, not knowing who they are nor where they're from." "Anything could have happened." "She's just been caught up in this." "She's missing." " For the time being she's missing." " And we will find her." "We will." "Andrew Harding, BBC News, Singapore." "No sleep either." "No." "No." "I remember the first question I ever answered about her." "What was it?" "The midwife said..." ""Mrs Nicholson, your baby is awake and hungry and would you like to feed her?"" "And I could hear the faint cry of a newborn baby." "And my first child was placed in my arms." "And I looked down at her face..." "And the midwife asks:" ""What are you calling her?"" "And I reply, "Jennifer"," "Jennifer Vanda Ann." "And my baby's feeding from my breast." "And I can hear little suckling sounds." "And I vow this to her." "I vow to love her, protect her and keep her from harm." "And I haven't." "It's not looking good Vanda, is it?" "It's not looking good." "Julie, what are you doing?" "What?" "Is my kitchen not clean enough for you?" " Yeah." " So why are you mopping it?" "It's something to do." " Anything to do." " Shouldn't you try to sleep?" "I've got to meet the family liaison officer." "Jenny and James' house." " When?" " This morning." "Do you want me to come into Reading?" "No, James is going to be there and Greg's coming." "Can you get me some credit for my phone?" "All right." "No, no, no, no." "Pay me later." "What about the people at your church?" "Well I'm... on holiday so I don't need to worry about services." "The bishop, does he know?" "Yeah he should know..." "...somebody should know." "I'll do it." "Who should I call?" "They'll be somebody at the church in the office." "Somebody, anybody." "How is my mother, the vicar?" "The others are waiting for you." "I've just come to see if you need a hand." "Poor mum." "You must be drained." "It's no everyday that a girl gets ordained." "You must be roasting, this heat is sweltering." " I took precautions." " What?" "Mum?" "Under the cassock I'm still all woman." "Only my mother would be ordained wearing red lacy undies." "Well, maybe they all were, I hope they were." " I'm telling dad." " Tell them all, tell the world." "Thomas!" "Darling." " We'll find her." " I know." " We'll find Jenny." " Lizzie's here." "Is there any more word?" "Nothing yet but maybe when we meet with the family liaison." " Mum!" "Are you all right?" " I'm fine, I'm fine." " Mum, I missed you." " I missed you too." " Thank you." " It's Colin, is it?" "Yes that's right, I'm Pauline." "Everything that you would do yourself to find your daughter we'll do on your behalf." "We'll be in touch regularly in person or on the phone." " So even if there's no news...?" " We'll confirm that there is no news." "I have to ask, has Jenny been abroad recently?" "Er no, we haven't been on holiday." "Did she have religious affiliations?" "Church of England like the rest of the family." "I'm a vicar." "Why are you asking this?" "We have to have clear lines of enquiry." "Let them ask whatever questions they think are helpful." "Have most of the injured been identified?" "Yes, they have." "May I go upstairs and collect a few items belonging to Jenny?" " Should I show you?" " It's ok, you stay here." "Do you have those photographs of Jennifer?" "I'm happy to give a DNA sample, I know my wife already has." "...Anything that helps" " We appreciate that." "It's a simple procedure." " You'll keep them safe." " I only need a few." "She looks different in all of them." "We'll make sure that you get these back." "We'd rather get Jenny back." "We hope that she's still alive." "We'd like the police to explore the possibility of other train or road incidents." "Jen may be in hospital in an accident not connected with the bombings" " That's very unlikely." "Any news will be given to you straight away." "Now I have to ask if you would like information on a need-to-know basis." "Or all details." "I want to know everything." "I want to know everything." "We'll see ourselves out, we'll keep in touch by phone." "If we have any definite news we'll come in person together to see you." "Thank you." "James..." "I really appreciate everybody coming but there are going to be so many." "Are you sure you want to face the multitude?" "I want to be with the people Jenny loves." "How can you be so calm, James, when I know your heart is broken?" "Not completely." "It's not broken, not yet." "It's them." "Were these people linked directly to the core of AI Qaeda, what's left of it in Pakistan and Afghanistan or were they acting on their own?" " Julie?" " Yeah?" "William has something to ask you." " What's wrong William?" " Nothing." "If there was something, would you tell me?" "What is it you want?" "I want everybody to go away and leave my house." "Why are they so many of them in our kitchen?" "Would you like Auntie Julie to tell you about Jenny and what's happening?" "Is Jenny dead?" "We don't know." "We hope not but she might be." "So that's why everybody's here." " So we can all be together to find out." " What's happened to Jenny on the tube." "Is that OK?" "Is there anything else you want to know?" "Did someone put the bombs there?" "Yes William, they did." "I think the bombers are very bad people." "Anxious friends and relatives have been searching for around 20 people who have not been seen since the attacks." "Fergal Keane has been hearing some of their stories." "Laura Webb was 29 and on her way to work..." "Like Anna Brandt, missing on the Piccadilly line." "Jenny Nicholson from Bristol also on her way to work." " Where did they get that photograph?" " I don't know." "Anthony Williams also missing on the bus." "Philip Russell, another bus passenger." "Richard Ellery, missing on the tube." "The most difficult recovery operation is here at King's Cross." "If you go down to the platform..." "I thought it was a rescue operation, why recovery?" "Rescue workers say the scene underground is truly terrible; hell on earth." "Uncle Jimmie, are you ok?" "I know." "I know." "You all right, Julie?" "There's one thing we've forgotten about, the dog." "Misty, our neighbours were minding her." "Where should she go?" "Should she stay in Bristol?" "Or come here." "Julie..." "Julie, the dog." "What about the dog?" "I don't care about the dog!" "Julie!" "What's the matter?" "What's the matter?" "My daughter's missing, she might not be coming back." "That's why they've taken her toothbrush, for DNA." "Do you really think they'd be doing that if she was coming back?" "My daughter, your granddaughter has been murdered by terrorists, probably." "And you ask me what the matter is." "And you want to know about the dog." "She's been murdered, hasn't she?" "Hasn't she?" "Hasn't she?" "God." "I can't go back to Bristol until I bring her home." "I have to bring her home." " Maybe she'll sleep." " We'll sort the dog out." "Thank you." " Do you think we should stay?" " No." "It's time to leave them." "Will she sleep?" "Yet today police revealed they are sure of the identities of all four bombers and they are convinced all four were suicide attacks." "Hasib Hussain was of one of four men the Metropolitan Police Commission have said today carried the bombs and were killed in the blasts." "One of Hussain's friends" "Mohammad Sidique Khan planted the bomb at Edgware Road." "Another, Shehzad Tanweer detonated the Aldgate bomb." "And today police sources name the fourth bomber" "Lindsay Germaine a Briton of Jamaican origin." "And this is where he lived." "His Aylesbury home raided by anti-terrorists officers has" "How long will we have to wait for news?" "We don't know." "Maybe she will never be found." "Don't say that." "It will take so much time." "Well..." "The police say that there are a lot of..." "Don't even think that." "Julie..." "How are you mum?" "About the same as you." "You can always talk to us." " You know that mum." " Yeah, I know." " Dad, dad I'm the oldest..." " No, I should be in the middle..." "Please just settle down for a second and just..." " No, I'm in the middle." " No, I should be in the middle." "Do you want to say something?" "Greg you are the photographer." " Just take the picture." " I'm just gonna take it." "I'm just gonna take it." "Woo-ooh!" "♪ I need you!" "♪ more than anyone darlin', You know that I have from the start" "♪ So build me up, build me up Buttercup ♪" "We have bad news for you." "Jennifer Nicholson has been identified by way of dental records as being one of the victims from the Edgware Road site bombings." "A temporary mortuary has been set up." "It probably be 28 days before Jennifer's body can be released." "The DNA test confirms that it is Jennifer." "There is no mistake." "I want to see Jenny's body." "That's not advisable." "We have to wait." "I want to see her as soon as possible." "I am a priest and I will see her." "I want to and I will see her." "I will not wait, I do not care what is advisable." "I am her mother, and I will see my daughter." "You can hold her hand." "She kept her nails short because she played the piano." " I can't remember the words." " I'm sure whatever you say will be perfect." "In your beginning, I anointed you with water, blood, milk" "and in death I anoint you with oil in the name of this mystery that we call God." "By this holy anointing and of His most loving mercy." "Loving..." "It is Jenny." "I can tell by her hands." "Her beautiful hands." "She's dead." "Thank you." "Thank you for being with me." "Now, where am I going?" "You're very upset Julie." "Don't rush things." "Can I not drive you back?" "Are you sure?" "No I need some air, I need to walk, I'll get a taxi." "It's nearly rush hour." "Well, there'll be more taxis out then." "Thank you." "Sorry love, I'm not for hire, I'm going off duty now." "Please." "I need to get to Paddington." "In this traffic, you must be joking." "Please." "Please." "All right, well, if I don't take you to Paddington I have to take you home with me, aren't I?" "Get in." "Well, jump in, I'll take you to Paddington." "You look a bit flustered, you been waiting long?" "Yeah, I'm not from London." "You up sightseeing, are you?" "Doing a bit of shopping?" "I only see one carrier bag, you must be hanging on to your money." "No, not shopping." "What brings you up then?" "I came to see my daughter's body." "She was killed at Edgware Road." "What was her name, if you don't mind me asking?" "Jenny." "She was on her way to work on Shaftesbury Avenue." "Well, you sit back love, I'll soon have you at Paddington." "Thank you." "Thank you for being so kind." "So why don't you stay where you are and let me drive you?" "To Reading?" "I couldn't possibly let you do that." "You gonna stop me, are you?" "No." "I'm not going to stop you." "Don't worry I'll get you there safe and sound." "Thank you." "You rest." "I know the way to Reading." "I can't tell you how grateful I am." " How much do I owe you?" " No, you don't owe me anything." "I can't let you drive me all this way for nothing." "I wanted to do it." "Look, you must think the world's a pretty bleak place right now." "I just wanted you to know there's still some good people left in it." "Only if you can still believe that." "Yeah, I can sometimes." "Don't let them win." " I'll never do that." " Courage?" " Courage." "I'll try." " Then you've paid me." "Auntie Julie!" "What's up with Steven Gerrard there?" "He's bursting to ask you more questions." "What do you want to ask me Wills?" "I can't, mum will be cross." "Well, then we won't let her hear." "She hears everything." "All right, I know when I'm not wanted." "So, what do you want to know?" " Promise you won't be cross..." " Promise." "Auntie Julie, was Jenny reading a book when the bomb went off?" "Yes, I think she was." " How do you know?" " She was always reading." " Is that what James thinks as well?" " Yeah." "What page was she on when the bomb went off." "About half way through, I expect." "When the bomb went off was Jenny standing like this?" "I hope so, Wills." "When it went off, did Jenny fall like this?" "Or was it like this?" "Probably backwards because of where her body was found." "Ok, I expect Jenny fell like this." "William, stop annoying Auntie Julie." " I'm not." " Yes, you're upsetting her." " No he's not." " See." "Just go and play in the other room." "I dread to think what he was asking you." "He's asking what I need to ask." "What he wants to know, so do I." "It's not that that's upsetting you, is it?" " No, it's not." " What is it then?" "You deciding to go to Edgware Road tube station." "I have to see it." "I have to see where that bomb went off." "To make sure that it happened." " It happened." " Yes, it did." "But I need to know how." "And tonight, I make a start." "How are you going to cope with this?" "Because I have to." "If I don't, I'll die." "Owing to severe delays on the Piccadilly line this morning..." "Every single morning of this week." "This service is getting worse." "Right, better find another route, I'm very late." "Sorry, you all right?" " What was the point of impact?" " Second carriage." "Ten seconds into the tunnel the explosion occurred." "Do you know how many people were in the carriage?" "I'm afraid I don't." "It was still rush hour, it would have been quite full." "Yes, very full." "Jen was travelling in completely the wrong direction for work." "She should have been travelling away from Paddington, not towards it." " Where was your daughter travelling?" " Tottenham Court Road." "There was a fault on the Piccadilly line." "It affected the Bakerloo route all that morning." "She must have been heading back through Paddington to Notting Hill." "She could get the Central line there at Tottenham Court Road." "That exactly is what happened?" "I believe so, yes." "That's why Jenny died." "A fault on the Piccadilly line." "Excuse me." " Should we follow him?" " No, leave him." "Do you have any more questions, Julie?" "This is the place where my daughter's life was snatched from her, Colin." "Do you know what I see when I look into that tunnel?" "The face of a stranger." "Mohammad Sidique Khan..." "He came into our lives he didn't know us, he didn't know who he was killing." "He didn't know how good she was." "How beautiful she was." "She was my Jenny." "James loved my daughter, he truly loved her." "And the stranger didn't care that he was... killing the children that would be born to them." "My grandchildren." "He killed their future." "Mohammad Sidique Khan." "Lizzie gave her these." "I've sorted some things, started to." "Do you wanna take them to Bristol?" "No." "Let's keep everything together for the moment." "Do you think she's watching or... waiting or" " I don't know how to say this..." " Do I think she's passed to another life?" "All the cards people send tell me that." "Do you believe that?" "Not sure anymore." "And if I'm not sure, what am I doing being a priest?" "I'm empty, James." "Empty." " It's great food grandma." " Thank you, Thomas." " Eat up." " No need to tell him that." " I love grandma's cooking." " So do I." " I didn't say you didn't." " Where's dad?" " He's upstairs." " What's he doing?" "Sitting in Jenny's old room." "Fetch him down, Thomas." " I'll go." " Do." "Then come back and eat your dinner." "You've barely touched a mouthful." " How are you?" " I'm ok." "I'm not ok." "I can't imagine going on." "You will." "My life is over." " You have strength, Julie." " Do I, dad?" "You must have strength." "Do you hear me?" "I'll bide my time here 'til it's time to join her." "Jenny..." "I should have gone first." "Dad... you won't lie down and die." "You have too much spirit for that." "You're not eating, we're worried about you." "Greg, you eat." "Eat to your heart's content." "Stop worrying about me, worry about yourself." " Why can't I worry about you?" " Because I don't want you to." "What do you want?" "My daughter." "My dead daughter." "So do I, Julie." "She was mine too." "Jenny?" "Hiya, setting out for work." "Forgot to tell you I bought the Magician's Nephew on Saturday at £6.99 in Waterstones." "I'll give you feedback as soon as I finish it." "What does your week bring you?" "Jenny." "Jenny." "Jenny..." "Dad?" "What?" "Do you know what scares me?" "Me and Lizzie..." "We've lost our sister." "And I'm starting to think we're going to lose our mum and dad too." " You won't lose me, you'll never lose me." " Well then come in." "Soon." "Why did they do it?" "I don't know, son." "Who would want to kill their own people in their own country?" "She was so good, Jenny." "I hate them for what they did." "Hasib Hussain was one of four men the Metropolitan Police Commission has said today carried the bombs and were killed in the blasts." "One of Hussain's friends Mohammad Sidique Khan planted the bomb at Edgware Road." "Another, Shehzad Tanweer detonated the Aldgate bomb." "Mum, you can't read everything at the funeral." "Can I not?" "Do you want to see what I've designed?" "For the coffin." "Would she like it, Jenny?" "It's exquisite." "Thank you, thank you." "Mum, Thomas is worried." "So am I." "It's the stress we've all been under since the news and..." " the strain of the funeral..." " No, no it's not just the funeral." "It's something else." "You and dad." "We're apart." "We're in pain." "And the pain is keeping us apart." "I'm really sorry if it hurts you to hear me talk about your dad like that." "I'm forgetting how to do things." "How to feel things." "Except anger and hatred." "I don't want to turn into this." "All my life, I've wanted to believe the best." "Most people try and do their best." "Maybe, I'll never be able to believe anything ever again." "I don't believe in God anyway." "I'll tell you what I don't believe..." "I don't believe that fate took your sister's life." "Human Beings did, because they chose to do it." " That must be said." " Something else must be said." "I still love my sister." "I always will and I'll miss her all my life." "Can only men carry coffins?" "Can women do it as well?" "I don't see why not." "Then I'd like to carry Jenny." "So would our cousins, I'm sure." "Then it shall be arranged." "But you should be her bridesmaids not her pallbearers." "We will dress in black and gold." "We will carry her together." "I promise you it will be formidable." "And you know what else..." "you'd make a good teacher." "Why?" "Right bossy bitch." "Like Jane Eyre." "Jenny's heroine." "I am no bird and no net ensnares me." "I am a free human being, with an independent will." "We recovered these:" "A travel pass..." "A book..." "An umbrella..." "Cash to the value of £3 and 82 pence and a watch." "Are you absolutely sure you want to go ahead with this?" "Absolutely sure." "We'll go through the photographs one at a time." "No hurry." "We can take as much time as you need." "I'll start when you're ready." "I'm ready." "The photographs are in chronological order, beginning with the carriage." "The next picture is Jennifer's body without the blanket." "Do you want me to carry on?" "These are my daughter's stations of the cross." "I'm her mother." "I'll be with her till the end." " Would you like some water?" " Yes, please." "Thank you." "I have two boys, two young sons..." "When I left them this morning, they were sleeping, I..." "I just wanted to hug them." "Hold on to them." "These are my two, my girls." "That's Jenny and Lizzie." "A little bit tipsy, giggling and happy, we were happy." "Look at her." "Beautiful." "So beautiful." "I love them." "I won't let hate destroy their love." "That's why I can look at this horror." "Jenny's love let's me." "She didn't hate." "Neither must I." "I couldn't save my daughter but she saved me." "A time to kill and a time to heal." "A time to weep and a time to laugh." "A time to seek and a time to lose." "A time to keep silence and a time to speak." "A time to love and a time to hate." "A time for war and a time for peace." "Except I be by Silvia in the night" "There is no music in the nightingale." "Unless I look on Silvia in the day, There is no day for me to look upon." "She is my essence," "and I leave to be" "If I be not by her fair influence, fostered, illuminated, cherished kept alive." "I fly not death, to fly his deadly doom." "Tarry I here, I but attend on death" "But, fly I hence, I fly away from life."