"stainless steel." "this is a vast improvement over the first scalpel, which was pretty much a sharp stick." "medicine is constantly reinventing itself." "that means surgeons have to keep reinventing themselves, too." "I can't believe we're doing this." "(owen and derek) it's valentine's day." "(meredith and cristina) we don't do valentine's day." "There's more to life than the hospital." "no, there isn't." "It's romantic." "No, it isn't." "(siren wailing) there's constant pressure to adapt to changes." "Ambulance!" "it can be a painful process." "eyes front, ladies." "but without it... (sirens wailing, horns honking)" "Okay, that seemed big." "If it's big, they'll page us." "(pagers beeping)" "It's big." "Yes!" "(laughs) you'll find yourself moving backwards instead of forwards." "Hey, what's going on?" "grandinetti's roof collapsed." "We'll be getting more than a dozen." "All scheduled procedures are pushed." "ugh. on valentine's day?" "God, grandinetti's must have been packed." "Well, tonight's out." "i told you this would happen." "Well, that's why we went to dinner at 4:00" "And exchanged gifts." "look. (laughs)" "Just special." "original. magical." "Squeals of joy." "wow. scrooge." "Scrooge is christmas." "that's a holiday." "(ben) dr. bailey." "our hemicolectomy's pushed." "That's a shame. i was--i was really looking forward to that." "Well, as... you know...." "Well, maybe we could make up for it." "Dinner tomorrow?" "no." "Um... (stammers) just..." "I'm... busy." "I have surgeries most nights." "I always have surgery." "Right. well, um, maybe see you in the o.r., then." "(elevator bell dings)" "(laughs)" "(exhales deeply)" "(clears throat)" "Oh, my god." "she likes him." "(floor indicator bell dings)" "Ooh, you like him?" "oh, my god." "you should totally go out with him." "You have to say yes." "oh, no. it's valentine's day. you have to." "Okay, see, that-- this right here," "What's happening, the giggling... (ding) the girl talk, the o.m.g.s-- okay, it has to stop." "(giggles) i am busy." "(laughs) (elevator bell dings)" "(mark) hey, torres." "Do you know anything about putting together cribs?" "You bought a crib?" "Well, sloan's coming home tonight," "And i got it put together, but it wobbles." "And it can't wobble." "Now will you take a look at it?" "(laughs) you're like a sweet, nerdy dad now." "I don't even recognize you." "Well..." "who's the blonde?" "I don't know." "I may be a dad, but i am a single dad." "Excuse me." "(chuckles) okay." "now--now i recognize you." "It must, uh," "Suck to work on valentine's day." "I don't believe we've met." "Aah!" "what'd you do to your hair?" "!" "I changed it." "i-i colored it." "I just..." "Wait. you thought i was someone else." "You didn't know it was me and you were hitting on me?" "no, no." "I pretty much thought you were, you know, just some blonde." "You are pathetic and hypocritical" "And slutty." "and you are no blonde." "You can't pull that off." "(scoffs)" "Blondes are either badass or fun." "And you're..." "you're a brunette." "(siren wailing)" "Damn." "Shut up!" "Quit staring. i'm probably gonna change it back anyway. no, i-i get it." "You get dumped by your boyfriend," "And you go for the extreme makeover." "Chicks always do that." "i didn't get dumped. okay?" "And i did not do this for mark. i just..." "It's valentine's day, and i wanted to change something." "And--and i could change" "I-i wanted to do something for me, okay?" "This was for me." "how is that different than what i just said?" "I'm changing it back." "(indistinct shouting)" "(man) trauma 2's available." "this is medic 16..." "Restaurant roof collapse." "ooh." "Yeah, so far--a penetrating abdominal injury," "A sucking chest wound and a massive head wound." "Also, there's an open fracture on the way. do you want me-- dr. shepherd." "Oh, you're still here?" "if you're here, i'm here." "There's an osha investigator waiting in the lobby," "And there's also two tv crews who are asking for a statement." "I told 'em to wait for you. they're setting up outside. we cleared the o.r. board," "Also, i paged bailey, nelson, altman, hagan and sloan." "as soon as i have all of the numbers, i'll" "Do you want to get anybody else?" "stop. who do i see first?" "Skull fracture, trauma 1." "the osha guy." "Chart, please. (owen) try to get as many people as possible" "Off the backboards." "Clear c-spines clinically," "But if you're not sure, wait for x-ray" "No matter how backed up they are." "hey, hold the elevator." "(woman) i got it!" "(man) trauma 4 is open." "Okay, uh, bring the chart, please." "right away." "Where are they taking my husband?" "uh, he's going into surgery." "His doctors will let us know more soon." "Can you take a deep breath for me, please?" "what do you have, grey?" "Decreased breath sounds on the left side." "Possibly a pneumothorax." "all right, put in a chest tube if you need to." "Evaluate and page me if it's surgical. oh!" "oh!" "Sorry." "i'm sorry." "(sirens wailing, horns honking)" "(man) nonresponsive-- okay, let me see the chart." "Looks like a pretty bad break." "You're gonna have to have that reset." "i wonder if there's any chance" "You could put me in a bed next to that lady?" "(chuckles) yeah, sorry." "it doesn't work like that." "Of course. forgive me." "I've been a head waiter for 25 years." "I know how it works." "(elevator bell dings)" "I'll see what i can do." "It's a depressed skull fracture with a subdural hematoma." "All right?" "let's book an o.r. chief." "Yeah. i need you to reassign some anesthesiologists." "You're being cupid for bailey." "i don't do that." "I did that once, and she yelled at me." "I'll be cupid." "you just be the chief. sign. i am not cupid." "Dr. shepherd, the reporters are waiting for a statement." "I have a surgery. well, actually, dr. nelson said" "He could take your skull fracture." "You've got the trustee's breakfast in the morning," "And when the trustees turn on the 11:00 news," "It's your face they'll want to see. (sighs)" "(indistinct shouting)" "Watch it!" "coming through!" "(jackson) i got the arm." "(owen) what do you got?" "(woman) traumatic amputation through the left distal humerus." "Bleeding controlled through pressure. got 10 of morphine." "Vital signs are stable." "Okay, let's get him in trauma 3, put him on a monitor." "Push two of o-neg." "grey, avery, you're with me." "(april) chief shepherd?" "Can she have some water, please?" "I'm afraid she can't." "My--emile, stop." "My husband and i" "Have been going to grandinetti's for 15 years," "Every friday night." "And sometimes tuesdays." "(chuckles) emile always takes very good care of us." "But now it's time to look after yourself." "I just thought you'd want someone with you" "Until you found out that mr. banks was okay." "Thank you." "My patient's stalking your patient." "He's being a good waiter," "And apparently, we're his busboys." "Dude gave me 50 bucks to put him next to her." "He's got the hots for her." "her husband is in surgery. she's married." "You're just saying that 'cause you think you're married." "His 50 bucks says he makes a move." "You in or out?" "i'm in, and i am married." "(april) mrs. shepherd?" "Huh?" "I'm not mrs. shepherd." "You're not?" "i'm dr. grey." "Right. right." "Um, chief shepherd wanted me to ask you about" "The trustee's breakfast in the morning." "You shepherd's flunky now?" "is that why he hired you back?" "I'm on his service this week, and during this transition," "He needed a little more help on the administrative side." "I'm not his flunky." "So, uh, will you be going with him to the breakfast" "Or meeting him there?" "I, um, am not sure i'm going." "What?" "no. (laughs) (chuckles)" "You have to 'cause you're his wife." "(elevator bell dings)" "(snickers)" "(indistinct conversations)" "Sloan?" "When did you get in?" "does mark know you're here?" "Um, no. my flight got in a little bit early," "And i just took a cab over." "i didn't to bug him or anything." "Somebody said that you guys have a free clinic?" "Do you know where that is?" "is everything okay?" "Oh, yeah. i just want someone to check me out... (cell phone chirps) after the surgery and everything." "Maybe give me an ultrasound or something?" "yeah, the clinic closed an hour ago." "Come on. i have a second." "I'll take a peek for you." "Okay, i need another 4x4." "Okay, dress him. i'm gonna take another look at the arm." "This wound's completely macerated and contaminated." "Why wasn't this guy brought in first?" "He was lying in dirty dishwater for a while" "Before they found him." "they forgot i was back there." "No, i'm" "It's all right." "I'm not..." "I'm not too big on talking to people," "And... nobody talks to me much back there." "They just, you know, bring me the dishes." "I lost my arm." "I don't want to have one arm." "I don't want to be a freak." "I-i don't like people staring at me." "We're gonna do everything that we can." "Please." "Okay, frankie, i'll take you up to surgery now." "We're gonna try and reattach the arm, okay?" "We have an o.r. i'll prep him, work on the stump." "You debride the arm, tag the vessels," "And get it up to me as soon as you can, okay?" "okay." "(sighs)" "Wow. trauma room barbie." "Okay, irrigation here and suction, please. so..." "Here you go." "Grandinetti's is gone-- a seattle institution." "Hmm. dr. warren, you ever been there?" "Couple times." "good scampi." "Place is so romantic-- perfectly lit, intimate," "Those cozy little booths, you know, in back." "A 3-0 silk tie, please." "It's a little too intense for a first date, though." "Bailey, where would you go on a first date?" "Isn't there a dying child somewhere?" "no. i had some time," "And i wanted to observe one of... one of these." "(scoffs)" "(ultrasound whooshing) aww." "Baby looks perfect." "Awesome." "Um, can i, like, get that in writing?" "Oh, even better." "(printer whirs and clicks)" "Here is a souvenir." "Oh, um... well, don't you have some kind of," "Like, official form" "Or hospital document that you can give me?" "Why do you need an official form?" "Oh, well, that's none of your business." "If you want your official form, it is, sloan." "What's going on?" "It's for the adoption attorney, okay?" "They need, like, a clean bill of health from me or something." "There's this great couple in san francisco," "And they have these two big dogs, and-- an adoption attorney?" "Yeah. i mean, i'm not ready to be a mom." "I'm just-- i'm just not ready yet." "Have you told mark?" "No. and... you're my doctor, right?" "I mean, don't you guys have some kind of rule" "That says you can't say anything?" "Well, i'm not gonna tell him, and neither are you." "(clicks)" "(air hisses)" "(beeps)" "Do you think she needs an extra blanket?" "She gets chilled easily." "She must be one hell of a tipper." "Sorry?" "Well, i can see why she comes in every week." "I bet you take better care of her than her own husband." "(chuckles)" "When she first started coming in, before they met," "We had a little game." "She would try anything we served." "She was adventurous..." "Fearless." "When she'd gone through the menu," "I challenged the chefs to come up with something new." "(chuckles) it became..." "She became..." "my favorite part of the week." "Then one night, she came in with him." "She felt like this was a safe place for a first date." "(chuckles)" "(monitor beeping rhythmically)" "That ring on her finger?" "The night he proposed to her..." "I placed it in the crème brûlée for her to find." "I watched her say yes from the kitchen window." "And they never stopped coming in." "But now he orders for her" "Same thing every time." "For 15 years," "I've watched their conversations grow shorter and shorter," "Until now all they do is eat." "She has no children." "If he dies, she'll be..." "She'll be all alone." "She's so afraid." "i-i can see." "And all i want to do is take her hand in mine" "And tell her she'll be all right." "She'll never have to be alone..." "If she doesn't want to be." "(exhales)" "You'll let me know" "When you have good news about mr. banks, yes?" "Yeah. right." "Of course." "You can't leave without telling him." "Yes, i can. i can do whatever i-- sloan." "Crap." "When did you get here?" "I mean, i thought you were gonna call first." "Look." "oh, my god." "Would you look at that?" "That's the sloan nose." "Can you--can you see it?" "Can you see it?" "It's my dad's." "he has my dad's nose." "That's the sloan nose." "(pager beeps)" "Damn it." "will you wait for me?" "I want to-- i want to take you home." "I got a surprise for you." "oh, could i see this again?" "(sighs) the sloan nose." "You win." "He's been staring at her from his kitchen for 15 years." "He's not gonna tell her now." "he just did. she was awake the whole time." "She heard everything." "she has to say something." "Well, she's not. he-- her husband's in surgery." "so?" "they're clearly miserable." "I mean, did you hear the whole crème brûlée thing?" "50 bucks says she tells him she loves him, too. you're on." "Hi." "I've got your keys." "What?" "dr. shepherd told me you might not make it home" "Before the breakfast, so i should just ask you" "What you need from your closet, and i'll go grab it for you." "you are not going in my closet." "Aren't you supposed to be a surgeon?" "he really needs you by his side" "At that breakfast." "i am a surgeon." "you tell the chief that i will be in surgery." "Uh, so--so i'll just pick something out for you." "So... yang's with hunt," "Grey's with shepherd, torres is with robbins, and you were with sloan until he dumped you?" "It's a wonder you guys got any work done." "He didn't dump me." "He forgot about me." "He decided that we were going to start a family" "And didn't ask me." "He forgot i was even there." "He--he just..." "left me lying in dirty dishwater." "What?" "Nothing." "I'm pretty." "What?" "In my family, i'm the pretty one." "You know, uh, my eyes and... my smile and my body." "I mean, you should see me without a shirt on." "It's-- it's kind of ridiculous." "But my family is smart, driven," "Crazy overachievers, you know?" "And they look like they're smart." "They don't look like me, which had its perks," "Except that my family treated me like i'm pretty." "They expected nothing from me... ever." "They never pushed me, never thought to." "So i had to push myself..." "Hard." "I didn't even tell 'em i was taking the mcat's" "Till after i had aced 'em." "(sighs)" "My point is that you can't just change your hair." "Okay, you want to be unforgettable?" "You want to not be mousy?" "You can't just change your hair." "You have to actually change." "I'm just saying." "Okay, i'm removing" "The glass... very... slowly." "Okay, take this. bovie." "Nice work, dr. bailey." "Dr. warren, can you believe that dr. bailey" "Almost left general surgery for peds surgery?" "Did you know that?" "i did not." "Yeah. no, she almost said no to general surgery." "But then she thought about it, and she changed her mind." "She wasn't afraid to rethink her decision." "She just needed to be asked again. i see." "(bovie sizzling) clearly." "Do you have my report thing?" "No." "He took you in, he's given you money," "He flew you to l.a. he deserves to know." "So if you're not gonna tell him, i will." "You paged me?" "what's going on?" "You paged him?" "What's the matter?" "Mark, she's" "I'm giving the baby up for adoption." "I'm not a mom." "i'm not ready." "And i want him to have good parents" "And a good home." "No, don't. don't do this." "don't give this baby away. they'll love him." "They'll love him more than i will." "Give him to me." "I'll take him." "i'll adopt him." "I understand. i understand." "you're not ready, but i am." "And i know i-i don't have the best track record," "And i--and i should've been there for you, and i wasn't." "But i will be there for this baby. please." "I want him to have a family." "and, i mean," "You've been really nice to me the past couple of months," "But you're not a family." "you're just a guy." "Sloan, please." "i'll help." "Uh... (chuckles)" "I'm right across the hall." "And we're a family, sort of." "And... we're doctors..." "And we're best friends," "And... and we're good people." "Yeah, we'll..." "We'll take care of the baby, together." "We'll love him..." "Really well." "Just think about it." "Go home." "we'll talk about it." "Can we talk about it?" "Yes. yes, we can." "We can talk about it." "(chuckles)" "Ooh, thank god." "where'd you get those?" "Patient room." "guy's in a coma." "He's not gonna miss 'em." "anything happen?" "He's still asleep," "But she wants to say something." "Oh!" "oh, my god." "i'm starving." "Ew. these are all half-eaten." "Now you can see what they are." "(woman) * fading light *" "What are we doing?" "her boring husband's in surgery." "This dude's been in love with her for 15 years." "but she just found out," "So we're waiting to see if she says something. mm-hmm." "Or if her husband croaks." "but it's okay if he does, because they're miserable." "I mean, is this what marriage turns into," "Running out of things to say and changing who you are?" "Probably." "yeah." "Well, i didn't marry derek to be the chief's arm candy." "I'm a surgeon. yeah, you married him for the great surgeries." "(laughs) i didn't do that either." "Right." "you should've." "Ooh. shh." "she's gonna say something." "She's gonna wake him up." "oh. what did she say?" "(laughs)" "**" "(speaks inaudibly)" "**" "(monitor beeping erratically)" "She can't breathe." "get a crash cart." "She's got a big air leak in her chest tube." "what's happening?" "Let's keep her on 100% o-2 and get a bronchoscopy." "Grey, see if an o.r. is available just in case." "okay. she's having trouble breathing." "We'll let you know more as soon as we do." "(lexie) we saved the arm." "we saved it. we're ready." "It's gonna have to be an amputation." "What?" "there's too much devascularized tissue, too much contamination." "Or we can push antibiotics and let the stump heal," "But by that time-- the arm will be dead." "Page me when he's awake." "i'll tell him." "(owen) i'll have it packed and dressed." "(mark) frustrating. sorry i couldn't do more." "They--they can't just leave it behind." "We could move it somewhere else, attach it to a healthy zone." "Don't tell me, mouse." "i'm--i'm just saying... (owen) i'm gonna check post-ops and head back to the pit. you know, th-they could" "It's gonna be a long night." "temporary ectopic replantation!" "Well, you have--you have to keep the arm alive" "Until the stump heals." "Yes, but in cases involving the elbow" "It's extreme. he'll lose range of motion, grip failure" "He'll keep his arm." "he deserves extreme measures." "If the arm is still viable, you can't just let it die." "Has that ever been done before, above the elbow?" "I don't know, but it could be done." "You could implant onto the epigastric" "And the, uh, vena commitante." "Give you a few days for the stump to heal." "i've never done one." "Neither have i." "so?" "After today, you can't say that anymore." "Okay, come on. i told him that we would do everything we could." "Do everything that we can." "I'll call shepherd and let him know." "Grey, avery, get ready to scrub in." "We're gonna be a while." "Okay, that?" "Not mousy." "You going into surgery now?" "There's this, uh, breakfast." "I know." "i know about the breakfast" "Because there's some resident that i don't know" "Rooting through my closet right now." "sorry. she's a little overeager." "I-i have a surgery," "And i can't really give up a surgery." "No, i wouldn't want you to." "i mean, just to smile" "And stand at a podium for the suits?" "It's..." "No, you shouldn't come." "I--you know, my patient, she's somebody's wife, too," "And i'm her doctor, and..." "Okay?" "Okay." "Okay." "Hey." "Hey." "I've got a tracheobronchial tear." "Transitory ectopic implantation." "Wow. nice." "yeah." "(water running)" "I rented a house." "it's amazing." "It's right on the water-- a little cottage." "And there are deer-- like "bambi" deer" "And--and singing birds." "It's incredible." "(water continues running)" "I-i found this little secret coffee place" "Down the street from here, and, uh..." "And, oh, i-i was thinking of getting a puppy." "But, you know, i--you have to be home with a puppy," "And i--and i'm-- and i'm always here." "So i-i went down to the pound 'cause i-i..." "I wanted to get it out of my system," "You know, the puppy love." "(turns water off)" "And i-i held all of these incredibly sweet dogs," "And... you would've been really..." "Really proud of me, owen." "I didn't take one home." "I went out and got a fish instead." "Let me see. what else?" "oh, i got a bikini wax." "Yeah, i got a bikini-- an actual wax." "You know, i haven't had one of those since" "You remember when i tried to wax myself-- okay, all right, all right. what--what is your point?" "You were my best friend!" "My best friend who i could tell everything to." "And now you won't even look at me." "Yeah, 'cause you said you love me." "(turns water on)" "You said you loved me, too, and then..." "And then you chose yang." "(turns water off)" "You chose her, too." "you chose her, too." "(plastic crinkling)" "I feel like i'm cheating on her." "When i talk to you, i feel like i'm cheating on her." "So i'm sorry." "(turns water on)" "And i miss my best friend, too." "(water running)" "(thunder rumbles)" "Don't you have something else to do?" "This is the closest i've been to inside an o.r. in a week." "(groans) last week, i would've been paged in to help." "Now i'm paged about..." "Fund-raising brunches." "I'm adopting sloan's baby." "It's the right thing to do." "i think i can." "Mm-hmm." "i certainly want to." "Callie said she'd help." "I'm having a baby." "(laughs) congratulations." "I'm happy for you." "I'm happy for you, too, chief. (chuckles)" "It's what you always wanted, right?" "(exhales) yep." "It's what i've always wanted." "How is he, dr. bailey?" "Looks like you're nearly done," "And it's just in time for dinner" "And maybe even some dancing." "if the patient looks good-- he'll be just fine." "He won't be dancing anytime soon." "But when the time comes and he wants to go out dancing," "He will be perfectly capable" "Of making that determination himself," "Without any help from anyone." "And i don't need any help here." "So if you are through helping me, you can go." "Well, i just thought that-- now." "Mm." "She's nice..." "Chatty-- stop talking." "To be fair, i never said a word about dancing." "Although-- shh. what is all this bleeding?" "(suction gurgling) ah." "Splenic artery's torn." "(monitor beeping erratically)" "Oh, he's gonna lose this spleen." "okay, lap pads." "Where's my patient?" "(tyler) no idea." "he must have left." "(women speaking indistinctly)" "I need help in here!" "Ah. (sighs) there you are." "I brought your wife's clothes for the breakfast," "And i made note cards for your speech for this morning. good. go home." "You're here, i'm here." "Honestly, i'm happy to help with this stuff." "You are?" "you want to be an executive assistant?" "You should want to do surgery." "that's all i want to do. i'm not sure i can." "I..." "look, i'm grateful that you hired me back." "It's just been easier to help out with this stuff." "It's easier coming back as that" "Rather than coming back as the doctor" "Who made a mistake and killed someone..." "Killed someone's mom." "And i'm not sure i can be that person." "So if you're not sure that you need me," "Then maybe i shouldn't be here." "Dr. shepherd, i have a patient with an epidural bleed." "Come with me." "You couldn't do it?" "Actually, we could." "But, um, you need to prepare yourself." "We needed to take some extraordinary measures." "Your arm needed a blood supply to keep it alive" "Until we could reattach it," "So we had to relocate it" "To where we could get one." "(mutters) is that my arm?" "!" "What did you do?" "why would you do this to me?" "What did you do to me?" "it's--it's only temporary." "Okay, it--it-- just for a few days." "Frankie, this is what you wanted." "You--you wanted your arm." "In the right place!" "I said i didn't want to be a freak." "You shoulda left me like i was!" "(door opens)" "Oh, come on." "Did you even tell him you're leaving?" "Look, i-i just wanted a place to stay" "And some money." "I mean, i didn't know he was gonna care this much." "He bought a crib." "Well, he's a good man," "And he'll be very good to your baby." "You--you could know the baby if mark raised him." "You could come back and visit and-- well, i-i don't want to know where to come back to." "I mean, if i give him to you guys," "It's still my baby," "And i need him to be somebody else's." "I mean, my dad got" "A clean break from me..." "And look at him now." "Don't i deserve that?" "(the swell season) * use the truth * * as a weapon * * to beat up all your friends *" "(clears throat)" "Prenatal vitamins are not a joke. take them." "And do not skip any doctor's appointments." "And... if you..." "Get into any trouble" "Or you have a problem with anything... * ...your name *" "Call us." "(elevator bell dings)" "Just..." "Take care of yourself." "Thanks." "* you were restless * * i was somewhere less secure *" "Mrs. banks." "How's my husband?" "There's been some complications," "But dr. bailey is working very hard." "And i'll let you know more as soon as i do." "I-is emile still here?" "Emile is in surgery." "There's been some bleeding in his brain." "Oh, my god." "Oh, god." "* ...hold you in these arms *" "He never said a word..." "For 15 years." "Did you know?" "(chuckles) why do you think i kept going back there?" "But then i met bob," "And... emile never..." "I made a choice." "But you kept going back." "I did..." "Because bob liked it..." "And i loved bob." "It became our place." "(sighs)" "And, yes, he orders for me," "Because he knows what i like." "And it may seem like we have nothing left to talk about," "But... sometimes it's nice not to have to talk." "(chuckles) 15 years ago..." "I made a choice." "And i keep making it every day." "That's what marriage is." "* maybe i was born... *" "There's a lot of damage to this pancreas." "I can't get this bleeding under control. (suction gurgling)" "Okay, more suction, more." "The middle meningeal artery is completely severed." "What did i miss?" "I've--i've been literally watching this guy all night." "How could i have missed-- you didn't miss anything." "the first c.t. was negative." "There were no neurological symptoms." "It's the kind of bleed you never know about until it's too late. is it too late?" "I don't know yet." "bipolars." "B.p.'s 80 over 60 and falling." "Push another atropine." "damn it." "Come on." "Damn it. come on." "Stay with me now. come on." "stay with me." "Come on. stay with me." "stay with me. come on. come on." "The dude waited on tables" "And watched his life happen without him." "He's probably better off." "(sobs)" "(sighs)" "(sobs) i can't." "I can't do this." "i can't just" "I can't just watch people die." "(sobs) i can't." "I-i shouldn't have come back." "I... i... (sobs)" "Listen..." "I made a mistake last year." "I almost walked away." "If you don't feel the losses..." "If they don't hurt you" "And humble you..." "That's when you know" "You're not cut out for this kind of work." "(cries)" "You can be a good surgeon, kepner." "It's why i brought you back." "(freelance whales' "starring" playing)" "Congratulations. you know, i thought we'd lost him," "But you managed to-- i can't talk to you." "Right. um..." "Look, i'm--i'm sorry." "I thought you and i might get to" "I can't talk to you." "you make me nervous." "I... forget what i..." "And i... say things i don't want to say." "And i can't j-- i just go stupid." "I..." "I like you. that's all." "there." "All right." "And so if you want to go to dinner, fine." "I will show up and try to talk." "how's tomorrow night?" "Fine. i might have surgery." "Well, i-i might join you." "* how many stars you think you possess?" "* * how many in your butterfly net?" "* * build me a star in your forehead *" "You can tell your patient her husband's gonna be okay." "What about emile?" "Shepherd said there was no way to know it was detectable" "Until it was too late." "Here." "I think this means you win." "I know. i don't want it." "Well, i don't want it either." "you would've won anyway." "You think?" "Of course." "that's her husband." "Grey." "you ready to scrub in?" "I have a valve replacement." "You know, i... * this is me starring in... *" "Yang is still here." "can she do it?" "* this is my starring * we have to keep reinventing ourselves... almost every minute... because the world can change in an instant..." "Hello, mrs. banks." "How's emile doing?" "I'm sorry." "We did everything we could," "But the bleeding in his brain was too severe." "I'm very sorry." "Thank you." "(crying)" "(whimpers)" "(crying) and there's no time for looking back." "(crying)" "(doctors speaking indistinctly)" "All those people out there," "They just want to stare at me." "They do." "the doctors want to see you." "They want to ask you questions" "Because you're very rare..." "And special." "And there might be press, and there's a personal injury lawyer" "Floating around somewhere that thinks that restaurant" "Might owe you a lot of money." "How much money?" "Sometimes change is good, right?" "Oh." "(keys jangle)" "(chuckles)" "I don't believe you." "You don't have to do that." "I wanted to, before you got home." "And you don't have to do what you offered to do." "I'm not gonna hold you to that. mark" "But thank you so much for offering." "And, uh..." "It could be kinda great, right?" "sometimes the changes are forced on us... (crib pieces clatter)" "What are you doing?" "(whispers) sit down." "(elevator bell dings) sometimes they happen by accident..." "Oh, get used to it." "i'm keeping it." "You should." "you're moving on." "I mean, i-i didn't mean that was a bad thing." "It's what you should do." "I hate valentine's day." "Me, too." "(the xx's "islands" playing) and we make the most of them." "**" "Hey, owen." "Hey. hi." "uh, d-do you have a minute?" "Oh, i'll--i'll wait in the car." "No, no, stay. it's--it's-- it's fine if you stay." "I said that i-i love you," "And it's out there, and i know that i can't unring the bell." "But i'm--i'm unringing the bell." "i-i take it back. i'm gonna go." "No, no, stay." "I miss my friend, owen." "More than anything, i miss... my friend." "The rest i can deal with." "i can deal with it. it's..." "I have a job that i love" "And an amazing student to teach," "And i've got a-- i've got a cottage with deer" "And a fish and various waxed body parts." "I'm gonna be fine." "* ...found out *" "You and i are gonna be friends." "And you're doing a valve replacement with me in ten." "* that bridge is on fire *" "Really?" "Go prep 22-19." "Okay." "I'll see you at home." "we have to constantly come up with new ways to fix ourselves." "You can't unring the bell." "I know." "But i'm gonna try like hell." "so we change." "we adapt." "* so now i don't ever have to leave *" "(speaking indistinctly)" "Good to see you, chief." "good to see you, too." "Hey." "hi." "Hey. you didn't have to come." "i know i didn't. i chose to." "(laughs)" "Shall we go in?" "Yes." "** we create new versions of ourselves." "Mrs. shepherd?" "!" "i know." "Mrs. shepherd?" "i know." "I don't do brunches," "I don't miss surgeries, and i don't do valentine's day." "we just need to be sure that this one is an improvement over the last." "You're gonna have to make this up to me with a lot of sex." "Yes, dear." "* so now i'll never explore *" "Sync by YYeTs.net"