"When I was young" "I met this beautiful girl by a lake." "S-Switzerland?" "Oh, Suisse, yeah." "Yeah." "You got it." "Switzerland." "La-bas." "Hi." "Oh, you're American?" "So are you!" "Yeah." "Keep going that way till you smell money or till you step in chocolate." "Okay." "Thank you." "Ho, watch your head." "You okay?" "I'm fine." "Can I sit here?" "Actually, no." "Two years ago, I reserved this specific area." "What if I say please?" "That's the one exception." "Oh..." "Careful there." "You find Switzerland?" "Ahm..." "I did." "And claimed it for Missouri." "Planted my little flag... and sold beads to the natives." "They had sandwiches there." "I brought you some." "I'm Ann." "Collins. |" "Oh, sure, the lady who discovered Switzerland." "In all the papers." "I'm Chris Nielsen." "How did you know I'd be here?" "Ahm..." "I didn't." "Come here, trader." "Oh no, not in the back!" "Aah!" "Let's make it." "Oh." "I tell you, mom." "You've gotta eat something. |" "No, I don't." "I can get something at school." "Yeah, and I know what you'll get!" "|" "Oh, Mom, I got a carb up," "I got a game." "And a math test." "Yeah, yeah, I'm ready." "I'm cool." "Mom, if you pick me up, I won't have to wait|a million hours at his incredibly boring game." "I'm sorry, Mary, I have a meeting." "And Angie's get us by and is gonna pick you up...|before she gets your brother." "I'll let her take the van." "And I'll see your chorus thing tomorrow. |" "I thought you couldn't." "Don't worry, I'll get out, I don't wanna miss it." "We're late guys." "I'll put out the van." "Hey, ace it, okay?" "Yeah." "I love you." "Do you...you want his breakfast?" "Mmh." "Your mother puts healthy stuff in there." "So don't trade-|-trade it for chips and cookies, I know." "It was the last time Annie and I saw them alive." "When death claims the life of our children we are left with" "too many questions." "How do we make sense of the feelings we're left with?" "The Gospel according to Luke, even the First Corinthians, tell us of the extraordinary paradise that awaits us." "Okay." "The lucky winner is" "Jacobs!" "Stacy Jacobs." "Hello, Stacy, I'm doctor Nielsen." "Hi." "Ah, too late." "Oh, nice stream." "I bet he's feeling better. |" "He's been waited to do that for ten years." "Stacy Jacobs!" "What in the world were you thinking?" "|" "It's all right." "My kid used to say,|" "What's the difference, you weren't looking anyway?" "Do you like rabbits?" "Yes?" "Then go like this." "Good." "Ready." "Whooo." "We've given her MRIs and..." "Whoa!" "Wild rabbit." "Watch out." "Oh, oh." "And also a CAT scan, I believe." "Look at that. |" "Stacy, you have more pictures than a supermodel." "Do you ever wear glasses?" "|" "No, she doesn't need glasses." "Does your head hurt a lot?" "|" "All the time." "Will you do something for me?" "I want you to cup your hand, and cover your nose |and mouth like this and just breathe in and out." "Mrs. Nielsen on four." "Oh, that's my wife." "Let's see, if you can do it longer than she can talk, that would be a real achievement." "Christy, I've got a meltdown." "Okay, take a breath." "The eight pieces from Germany never arrived." "I've gotta choose replacements the night before the opening." "And get them down here, re-hang them and re-light them and I" "Okay, focus, okay." "Focus." "It's out double D-anniversary and I'm ruining it." "Double D, yeah." "I'm sorry, Christy, I can't leave here." "I'm sorry." "Okay, uhm, I'll tell you what, how about this uh." "How about the Hudson Rivers?" "Okay?" "That gives us three." "And the, uh, Hollenbeck... nd the, uh, Hennik 16, 19 and, uh, 23... and the bridge. |" "But they're all in Fairfield and I don't have anybody to send." "Well, I'll drop by after work and |take 'em up and take 'em over to the gallery, huh." "You'd do that for me?" "Only if you're incredibly grateful." "Hey, that gives us a chance to show yours. |" "You've gotta hang it, it's very sexy." "Okay, weirdo..." "I'll be home late, but I'll be home." "I love you, Bella." "I love you too." "Bye." "Yeah." "Stacy, do you like art?" "My wife fixes paintings and she also makes some of her owns." "Now, to me, paintings are the most |important interesting things in the world next to your brain." "You feel better, don't you?" "Mmh, migraines...he." "I said, I love you, Bella."" "I'll always remember that." "At least I got to say it." "Huh." "Huh." "Are you all right?" "!" "|" "Yeah, I think so." "I'm a doctor." "Get me out of here!" "Don't move." "Chris?" "Hmm?" "Do you know what's happened?" "Yeah, I had a bad piece of fish before bed, Ha." "Who are you?" "A doc?" "Are you operating on me?" "Who are you?" "Why can't I see you?" "Ginger." "Ginger, you see me?" "She does." "Dogs are different." "Can you see me now?" "Is that you, doc?" "Why are you so blurred?" "|" "I'll get clearer when you want me to, Chris." "Are you confused about |how you got home so fast?" "Dreams don't deal in time, doc. |" "Time doesn't count." "You've died, Chris." "You have to be a dream, doc, |if I were dead, would I need you to tell me?" "I guess you do." "Everyone is different." "I wish everybody would go home." "I know." "How can I see everyone, doc?" "Everybody but..." "I know you don't wanna see me." "You don't wanna be dead." "The kids were so young when they died." "I want you to remember is your kids." "When they were still alive." "When she goes to the hospital, I'm going too." "Marie, Katie's not" "Katie's not going there to get better." "Sugar?" "They're gonna give her a shot.|" "And it's not gonna hurt and she's gonna fall asleep.|" "You're going to kill my dog?" "I'm going to help her die, yes." "Honey, she hurts very...very" "badly and nothing can help her." "So, I'm gonna stop that, because I love her.|" "You're going to kill my dog." "You get angry." "Death does that." "What'll happen to her?" "Uhm...she'll go where we all go." "And how can that be bad?" "Come on, dad." "Oh, my leg!" "Oh, oh, aah, stucker!" "Aah." "Oh." "Thanks for not listening to Mom." "About what?" "Well, I don't know, just coming out here." "And this whole day. |" "You know, she didn't want us doing this, because of, because of, I don't know, grades and stuff." "Your mother and I did talk." "And, uh, you know, we always listen to each other." "So, I mean, what'd you talk about?" "About taking you out of Head-Royce." "The school is wrong for you." "While this is a time and" "Where are we now?" "Maybe you don't want to stay, Chris." "This is your funeral." "What am I on?" "You're real, real fuzzy?" "At least you're willing to see yourself.|" "You're losing your fear." "Fear?" "That you disappeared." "You didn't." "You only died." "A woman...who lost her only children just four short years ago." "Every day in the Lord's Prayer." "Celia, oh," "DE REPENTE UM DIA, SABEMOS Q SE SENTE" "UM MOMENTO EM QUE LA FE, LA ESPERANCA" "NOS POE UMA UNICA PROVA" "This one is a present...for me." "It's our double D-anniversary. |" "It's kind of a special day." "It's her version of our place." "Your place?" "Where we first met." "Where we're going to retire, I guess." "Live out our lives." "Be old farts together." "Right there." "That's our dream house." "That one is me, I guess." "The blurry one is Annie." "Looks a little familiar, doc." "The funeral is over, doc." "Why is this going on past the funeral?" "Dear Diary," "I'm writing in your bullshit pages because my shrink is crazier than I am." "He thinks you're therapy." "He figures if two babies can hammer me| into a psycho ward, what'll I do with this?" "He's so stupid." "He's so stupid he thinks he pulled me through the breakdown when it was only Christy." "Always." "Only Chris." "Oh, Jesus..." "I was looking through his postcards." "Paintings were his obsession." "He used arts to love me, to help me." "To keep us always together." "Annie?" "I'm here, babe." "I still exist." "You're thinking of me." "Keep thinking of me." "Come on, with me." "You were always with me." "You know, the people who finished each other's sentences." "Remember us?" "I still exist." "I still exist!" "I still exist." "Just write it down." "Write it down." "This is Chris." "This...is..." "Chris." "I... still... exist." "Oh, yeah." "Read it." "Read it!" "Christ, when does it end?" "There's no rules, Chris.|" "It ends when you want to." "Where were you?" "Someplace else." "Mmh." "What, you think I'm a figment of your imagination?" "It's real." "She's real." "You're real." "It's all real." "That's the point if there's a point." "Reality, it's over when you stop wanting to hurt her." "Forever..." "Don't worry, baby..." "I'm not leaving you alone." "I'm not going anywhere." "Aaah!" "Aaaah!" "Goodbye, babe." "Mh, mh." "Oh, Katie, it's you!" "Ha-ha." "You're young again." "Oh." "Come here, Katie!" "Katie!" "Katie!" "Katie?" "Hey, come on, hey!" "Boy, I screwed up." "I'm in dog heaven." "A place where we all go can't be bad, can it, girl?" "Maybe I'm not in your heaven after all girl!" "Maybe you're in mine!" "Annie!" "Chris?" "What the hell you're doing?" "That's not how you use a stethoscope!" "Albert Lewis?" "Last time you saw me" "I was 63, stretched out on a cardiac ward!" "I bet you thought I was old and decrepit, huh?" "|" "Talking about "Ah, can't go on, can't go on!"" "Who wants to be 63 throughout eternity?" "Look at you on the water there!" "Well hello, somebody!" "Come on...walk along, feel the beat!" "Dancing on water!" "He." "Smooth as ever." "And that was you... just now, when I," "when I died." "I thought you recognized me, because you kept calling me, "Doc"." "Me being your favorite doc of all time." "Could you lend me hand?" "I'm kind of up to my ass in problems again, chief." "Oh, Chris..." "Ah, ah." "Come here." "You are still kinda ugly." "You taught me a lot, chief." "Nice place you got here." "Oh, no, no, no, no, no, nice place you got here." "Me?" "Sure, you're making all of this." "See, we're all pretty insecure at first, so we se ourselves somewhere safe and comforting." "We all paint our surroundings, Chris, but you're the first guy who knows to use real paint!" "There's so much here she didn't paint." "Like that bird." "Annie gave you a start, sort of like holding onto handrails." "Now you're creating an entire world here." "From your imagination, from paintings you love, anything you want." "Why doesn't it move?" "It will move when you want it to." "Oh-hoh!" "You go, boy!" "Can I make it dive?" "You're the painter now!" "It's your world." "Heeeeeaaa-haaa!" "Whoo." "Look at it go!" "How about maybe turquoise wings?" "Turquoise!" "And a little mauve, all right!" "Wow!" "Huh." "I didn't do that." "No, I did." "See, when we're together it's like dual controls." "Can I make elephants fly?" "Hey, didn't Annie paint a house somewhere?" "Yeah, it's our dream house." "Just a stroll across the water." "Let's take the shortcut." "Nice shortcut." "It's easy, Chris, look at me." "I'm gonna drown." "You can't, you're already dead." "Oh." "Am I...am I really here?" "What do you mean by "you" anyway?" "Are you your arm or your leg?" "Partly." "Really?" "If you lost all your limbs, would that still be you?" "That's still be me." "So, what is then "me"?" "My brain, I suppose." "Your brain?" "Your brain is a body part." "Like your fingernail or your heart." "Why would that be the part that's "you"?" "Because" ""I" am sort of a voice in my head.|" "The part of me that thinks, that feels." "That is aware that I exist at all." "So, if you're aware you exist...then you do." "That's why you're still here." "No windows." "What aren't you ready to see, I wonder?" "Drink it." "Just thinks it's coffee and it will be." "Okay." "It's coffee." "Paint!" "Acrylic." "Why is it so hard?" "What?" "Your brain is meat." "It rots and disappears." "You really think that's all there was to you?" "Like, you're in your house right now." "You're IN your house, it doesn't mean you ARE your house." "House falls down, you get out and walk away." "But it looks like I rebuilt, huh?" "|" "You see your body because you like seeing one." "We're seeing what we choose to see." "Let me show you something." "Ha!" "It's real, where is all the paint?" "You don't need it anymore." "This is your world now." "Thought is real." "Physical is the illusion." "Ironic, huh?" "Where's God in all of this?" "He's up there." "Somewhere... shouting down that he loves us." "Wondering why we can't hear him." "You think?" "Yeah." "Drink your coffee." "Needs milk." "Don't push your luck." "What do you think, Christy?" "Right here." "Like this?" "You think?" "They say we live in our minds anyway." "Having you with me, like this, keeps me happy." "Why do I believe you can hear me?" "Why do I think you can see this?" "What's that purple tree?" "I never saw that." "Well, let's take a look.|" "Think you can get there in eight seconds?" "Fffw, eight seconds?" "Over there?" "Yeah, I just need a little incentive." "Yeah, I can fly." "Oh, no, no, no!" "Why not?" "I can do what I want, right?" "Well, I think you'd be more comfortable keeping it real." "Okay." "Think of running real fast, like the roadrunner." "Okay." "Okay?" "Yeah." "I can handle this." "Adios, muchacho." "Ha-ha-ha-ha-ah." "Oh, wait!" "Chris!" "Annie!" "I bet you're thinking "Oh, shit" now!" "Yeah!" "Go, boy!" "Go, Chris go!" "Ah." "Ha-ha-ha." "Ah." "Albert!" "Albert!" "It's completely new." "The canvas was blank when I was alive." "How can I see this drawing after I'm dead?" "Ha, for an expert you look pretty surprised." "You and Annie, a long courtship?" "No actually." "From the very first moment it was like-Soul mates." "It's extremely rare, but it exists." "Sort of like two twin souls." "Tuned in to each other." "Apparently even in death." "You're reaching each other through her painting." "It's|" "It's nothing I've ever seen, Chris." "You can't see it, can you?" "And you never will." "I love you." "Aaah." "Whose footprints are these?" "Don't ask me, you put 'em here." "Annie." "Annie!" "Chris!" "Annie!" "Fantasy is not what you need right now, Chris." "No, you're right," "I need Annie." "That'll change in time, Chris." "Oh, come on, Einstein!" "Time is not on my watch any more!" "Time...does not exist here!" "And wherever it went, it won't make me need Annie any less." "You'll feel differently, Chris, and so will she!" "Man... you don't know us." "Wish I did." "Marie." "Marie!" "Hey, look, it's Tigger!" "It's my daughter's!" "Katie tore it up once and... she's here, right." "Where's she?" "Chris, "here" is big enough for everybody to have their own private universe." "That's not why you haven't seen you kids yet, is it?" "What does that mean, Buddha!" "I wanna see my children, Albert!" "When you do, you will." "Does that hurt?" "Mm-mm." "That?" "Mm-mm." "How about that?" "I'm gonna keep doing this till you tickle." "You've got a fever." "It's going down, though.|" "Don't you have to go somewhere?" "You wanna play chess?" "I could teach you." "Would you teach me that?" "Excuse me." "Albert has to work." "He asked me to meet with you." "Would that be all right?" "Leona..." "That's a beautiful name." "He said you've been isolated." "Do you wanna see others?" "Perhaps a city?" "I would, but travel makes me nauseous." "Close your eyes." "I didn't mean forever." "What do you think?" "I think I'm a little under-dressed." "You look fine." "Until now you've been painting your world." "This is mine." "In our city across the river we have to have a common vision." "So, there's work" "I like that." "Albert, for example, he's sort of a missionary." "Saving lost souls." "Like me." "Hardly." "They are the ones who can't get here." "You mean, from hell?" "In a way." "It's probably not what you think." "My work on the other hand, is with animals." "Katie is an old friend." "Dearest Christy." "I don't know how this day unravelled." "I was proud of how I held together through this annd this afternoon." "But coming home, I began to lose it." "If I had walked out that night for our double D,|you would have never been in the tunnel doing me a favor." "A whole family lost in car crashes." "Enough to make a person buy a bike." "Where are they going?" "They're going to help others be reborn on earth." "Really?" "Reincarnation." "Albert says to cheer you up." "You have difficulty...to losing my wife, yeah." "And your children?" "They died years ago." "That's why I'm worried about my wife." "They died in a terrible collision." "The nanny was driving." "It wasn't her fault." "And your wife?" "My daughter had asked her to drive." "It was a trucker's fault." "But my wife believed that if she'd been driving the kids, her protective instinct would have..." "Are you okay?" "Come on, Katie!" "Where were you just now?" "Your mind's been wandering all afternoon." "Thinking of someone." "Your wife must have loved her children very much." "Very much." "But you don't have to break in half to love somebody." "Tell me a memory of your own." "Say, with your daughter." "Hey, that's somebody else's art." "What's the difference, you weren't looking anyway." "Your move." "Is this where we go when we die?" "It's a dream, baby." "It's a beautiful one, but you know, dreams-I know, are not real." "Yeah." "It's after midnight." "I haven't won yet." "It's your first time." "No, I like that I haven't won yet." "Means that you're not cheating." "And when I win, I really win." "I just wanna play till I do." "Unless you wanna stop." "No." "Let's play till you win." "She died three months later." "We played every night." "It meant the world to me." "But she never won." "I didn't look like this in the body, you know." "We flew to Singapore once." "And my Daddy smiled at the flight attendant who... looked like this and wore a name tag Leona." "He said Asian women are so... lovely and... graceful and... intelligent." "He didn't mean only" "I know." "It was just something he said." "And what I thought was, when I grow up I wanna be that." "You still play chess?" "I think I waited for my partner." "I swear that California is the strangest place." "They sort of push you into it so you can get it done before your shrink commits you." "Thoughtful legislation there." "Mine is suspicious." "Another week, he might commit me." "For my own safety." "I had the husband lover I was meant to have.|" "Two spectacular children." "Blessings no one would dare expect from anything as our victorious life." "And the truth is, simply... that it's over." "Just this one loose end to ravel up." "I don't get to say goodbye." "You're dead and I blew that." "I don't get to say goodbye." "But I'll tell you what" "across whatever distance there is," "I send you my love." "Hey." "Where were you?" "Far away." "I got called back, when I was working." "There are no words to thank you." "For finding Marie." "Is she okay?" "Marie's fine." "You'll see her again, real soon." "She sends her love" "Especially now." "We're gonna go through something very hard right now." "I'm with you." "You're not alone." "Chris, Annie is dead." "She killed herself." "It's" "It's nothing I'd ever expected." "Like I said, you don't know us." "Is that kind of an occupational hazard of soul mates?" "One is not much without the other?" "He, but she's okay." "You know." "Because her pain is over." "You don't understand." "She won't cling like I did." "You don't understand." "When do I see her?" "Never." "You'll never see her." "She's a suicide, suicides go somewhere else." "What are you punishing her for?" "|" "No, it's not punishment." "She's suffered enough so much pain.|" "There are no judges or crimes here." "Everybody is equal." "It's just reality and the way things work!" "And the reality is suicides go to hell?" "|" "No goddamn judgement in that!" "You wanna fight." "You can hide from it or you can understand it." "What you call "Hell" is for those who don't know they're dead." "They can't realise what they've done or what's happened in them." "Too self-absorbed in life that they build this world-Self-absorbed?" "!" "That doesn't apply to Annie, all right?" "No, it doesn't." "Suicides are different." "Suicides don't go to hell because they're immoral or selfish.|" "They're going for a very different reason." "Each of us has an instinct that there's a natural order to our journey." "And Annie has violated that." "She won't face it." "She won't realise, accept what she's done." "And she will spend eternity playing that out." "You're still saying she's in hell." "Everybody's hell is different." "It's not all fire and pain." "The real hell is your life gone wrong." "I'm her soul mate." "I can find her." "You don't understand how-It's not about understanding!" "It's about not giving up." "You said there were no rules." "How about that purple tree, sport." "You were pretty surprised when that one came through of me, huh?" "Hey, if there're no rules, how can you say all suicides are the same?" "I can't." "That's a rule." "I can't." "Okay." "And how can you say that Annie can't realise she's dead." "I can't." "Okay." "We and all the others have seen it." "No one has ever seen a suicide brought back!" "Stick around, chief." "You ain't seen nothing yet." "Okay, look." "You deserve your change." "We'll find us a tracker." "Hey!" "This the guy who doesn't give up?" "Anyone ever tell you too much persistence can get stupid?" "Constantly." "I hear the same thing." "I also hear I read too slow." "I don't need glasses." "My eyes being a figment of my imagination." "You'll hear a lot of smart stuff around here." "It's usually right." "Don't let it screw you up." "I won't." "Your wife love you as strong?" "We'll find her." "But when you find her...nothing will make her recognise you." "Nothing will break her denial." "It's stronger than her love." "In fact, reinforced by her love." "You can say everything you long to say." "Including goodbye." "Even if she can't understand it." "Then you'll have the satisfaction that you didn't give up." "That has to be enough." "You just get me there." "I'll decide what's enough." "When do we leave?" "Close your eyes." "Albert's a sweet kid." "He is that." "There's a tenderness I never knew in life." "I guess it's because I knew him when he was young." "Were you proud of your own kids?" "Of course." "Oh, well, that's an easy bullshit answer." "Put some thought behind it." "I said "Of course"." "I like this sore point." "It's juice, juice is strong." "It connects." "Makes you a better receiver for Annie." "She's sort of the transmitter, sending thoughts of you." "What did you do when you were alive?" "You mean the last time?" "Sure, we can go back and get reborn." "But only if we choose to." "Last trip, I was on the same line of work-You were a shrink!" "Fairly perceptive." "Oh, my God." "You're expecting physical danger?" "What could it do, kill you, huh?" "No, in hell, there's real danger." "Of losing your mind." "Because he's drowning, that's why." "He's thirteen years old." "I know." "He needs to hang out with his friends." "That's what he needs." "He needs to veg out in front of the television, |he needs for once in his life to read a fucking book that he actually likes!" "|" "What you're saying is, he's going though all of this, so he won't let me down?" "|" "No, it's actually worse than that." "He's so into you so deep, he thinks he's letting himself down." "You say something he can't and then him think he's shit. |" "No." "How sick is that?" "How can you take me out of my school?" "How can you just blew me out?" "This is-this is my life!" "Don't you think I can make it?" "I mean, if I-If I really dig in---Yeah, but you gotta show me some more, okay, buddy?" "Come on!" "You're blowing it, Ian!" "I'm not you!" "Shipwrecks..." "What is this place?" "This is the gateway to hell." "How are we doing?" "Picking up any signals?" "Actually, not a ripple." "That's because I was thinking about somebody else." "It's a slap in the face when you walk through a door and you all these kids taking a |test and they're just breezing through it." "And for you it just...kinda goes." "Every day I see, how I'm not as good as you and everyone else." "But that doesn't mean I give up." "Cerberus-the guardian." "How do you feel?" "More than I want you in and out of some school," "I want to know how you feel when you go to bed at night." "Real scared." "I know I believe in you." "If I was going through fucking hell," "I'd only want one person in the goddamn world by my side." "There's man" "Ian never got to know." "The man, he was growing up to be." "He's a good-looking, clear-eyed young fella, about twenty-five." "I could see him." "He's a type of guy that men want to be around." "Because he has integrity, you know?" "He has character." "You can't fake that." "And he's a guy women want to be around, too." "Because there' tenderness in him." "Respect..." "Loyalty..." "Courage..." "And women respond to that." "That's makes him a terrific husband, this guy." "I see him as a father." "That's where he really shines." "See, when he looks in his kids eyes" "and the kid knows that his dad really sees him" "he sees who he is." "Then that child that knows that he's an amazing person." "He's quite a guy...that I'll never get to meet." "I wish I had." "Let's do it!" "Come on, she could be in there!" "No!" "No" "Don't!" "Don't..." "Don't do this!" "|" "Your mother is not in there, Ian!" "Your mom is not in there, son." "There's not another man I'd go through hell with." "Elevator to hell." "Going up." "Come on." "So long." "Wish us luck." "I'm coming with you." "I'm not really giving you a choice." "What are you saying?" "Ever since you suspected Albert was your son, you lost all signals of your wife." "I'll concentrate harder." "You don't know how." "You're all mouth and no chops!" "All you're good for is your wife loves you.|" "And your boy is a devise of distraction." "Damn shrinks!" "You really love shoving people around, don't you!" "We're going up." "This is his last chance." "He's never been in such a place." "Neither have you." "I've got a better chance by watching one than two." "You want him clear?" "Screw him, Ian!" "He doesn't know us!" "He's not family!" "No!" "I'm not leaving him!" "If he never sees her?" "Never says goodbye?" "We do it without him." "We do it together." "Come on, she's your mother, let's go." "Dad!" "No!" "Listen to me." "When you get there, you don't listen to him." "You find her... and you bring her back." "You can do it." "I believe in you." "Do you ever think why I chose to be Albert?" "He was the only guy you ever listened to." "Listen to me now." "Think about mom!" "Think about what happened when we died!" "Think about what you said to her to bring her back!" "Think about mom." "Think about when we died." "I'm teaching myself to smoke." "The doctors call it an affirmation of life." "Well, it beats the statue thing." "You said divorce." "You got my attention." "I think that we're too different, to stay together." "I mean, well, for one thing," "why aren't you in here?" "Why didn't you go crazy?" "Your children died." "I remember." "I remember the silence in the house." "I thought I was supposed to be strong." "For me?" "For me." "For us." "Just on general principles." "I loved them, Annie." "But they're gone." "You've got a choice." "Life either goes on... or not." "And you choose life." "Sometimes, when you win, you lose." "This hasn't been really a good day." "C'mon." "It's our private deck." "shut up, shut all up." "I never took more than thirty percent from any clients." "This must be the place." "Mister!" "I'm here!" "I'm coming!" "Hey, watch where you stepping!" "Oh, sorry, Excuse me!" "Hi," "Anybody got a cure?" "No, man!" "Excuse me." "Sorry." "Welcome, welcome, son." "Papa?" "Son, son." "Papa?" "You're close." "Welcome." "Are you Klaus.|" "Welcome." "No." "Welcome, welcome." "You're not my dad, sorry." "It's all right, all right." "They'll never come." "Don't worry." "It's only a matter of time." "You don't think it looks like a dog?" "Sure, you always take the easy ones." "Well, how about that one?" "|" "That looks like a complete twenty-for-piece dining set." "With a soup tureen." "Yeah, or a bunny rabbit." "A very complex bunny rabbit." "Or a very Rubenesque breast." "Hey." "You always think they're breasts. |" "All different kinds of breasts." "I love them." "Yours." "Oh, oh, we're gonna be late for the dance thing!" "What's the rush?" "I know what you're doing." "This is all just a stall." "Really?" "I know why you don't wanna go." "Busted." "Why don't you try to dance just once?" "Other husbands are just as clumsy." "Oh, thank you." "Lets go." "It's just that when everybody's dancing I feel like" "I'm alone in a sea of faces." "Angel Falls...few." "It's a little expensive, yeah." "But it's our first double D. Shouldn't it be incredible?" "I've never seen anything like this." "Well, that's my rule." "To bring adventure to your life." "You...taught me... the only thing I should always remember." "Which is?" "I forgot." "Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah..." "It was, never give up." "Never give up." "Never." "She's here." "You found her." "Impressive." "That jolt of fear for her." "It connected." "My God, is that our house?" "Ah!" "Ah." "It's just like our home." "Don't you ever think that." "It's an illusion." "The whole place...her illusion." "Suicides can go get tortured, committed to punishing themselves." "You don't want to push her that way." "You want to see her." "Tell her what's in your heart." "And then go." "No pressure." "Wait, wait, wait!" "I knew you could get us here." "You're a competitor with a big ego." "How do you know the first thing about me?" "|" "You called your son Albert." "Who is that?" "First doctor I interned under." "He was like a father to me. |" "His words were gold." "A brilliant mind." "Yeah." "You recall what did he practice before turning to pediatrics?" "Child psychia-psychiatry." "And he was always, a slow reader." "But these, used to be rimless." "And the rest of me, used to be black." "You know why we choose to look different?" "Me, the children?" "Package doesn't count?" "One's as good as the-Oh, no." "The old package has roles of authority." "Who's the teacher, who's the father, gets in the way of who we really are...to each other." "And I've been waiting for years for a chance to watch out for you." "And I'm watching out for you now." "But this isn't like the rest of hell, son." "You've got no defence against Annie." "If you're losing yourself or your soul or being swallowed by hell itself, if that could possibly save her, |" "I'd say go for it and I'd be there cheering you on." "You've got your children back now." "And they need you." "Three minutes, any more you could lose your mind." "How can you lose your mind?" "Once her reality becomes yours, there's really no way back." "Think about mom." "About what you said to her to bring her back." "Hello?" "Your door is open." "Sorry," "I didn't mean to scare you." "Who, who are you?" "I'm your neighbour." "I just bought the Gorman's place two months ago." "I just moved in." "I never heard they sold their place." "You're Annie Nielsen, right?" "They told me a lot about you. |" "Like what?" "What did they say?" "That you're a very talented artist and work for a museum, right?" "And, uh, you're a widow." "Mrs. Gorman admires your roses, very much." "They were so handsome." "But now there's no water pressure in the neighbourhood." "There's no electricity and no gas." "And, and, there're other thing missing, too." "You know, like all my clean cloths and books I want to read." "And, uhm, some of my favorite paintings" "I have to work on." "Aaah!" "Aaah!" "What is it?" "They're everywhere now!" "I got it!" "It's gone." "Thank you." "You're welcome." "You say your paintings are missing." "Some of my most precious panels." "The ones that remind me." "Remind me of my husband and my children." "That's why I never leave." "Because they might return?" "I hope that's true with all my heart." "It's not, you know." "When you're dead, you disappear." "My wife committed suicide after our children died." "And After I..." "She was the loveliest person." "Don't you think that's sad?" "Don't you have to leave?" "No." "But if you want me to go-I do." "All right." "The last day I saw my wife it was our anniversary. |" "I thought you said you were gonna leave?" "In a minute." "I was sticking around in case there is another problem." "It wasn't a wedding anniversary. |" "It was a very special kind of day," "no one else knows about." "I need to talk to you." "And you don't have to respond." "This is a one-way ticket...for me." "My hanging around here is not helping you." "And it's killing me." "So, today is kind of a D-day." ""D" for decision, I guess." "About divorce." "That'd be two D's, wouldn't it?" "I stand corrected." "Look what happens when you say anything for a month." "Cindy called." "She said everything is waiting, for you." "All the artists and curators will meet with you when you're better." "And I told her, it was the museum and one of those meetings" "that kept you from driving that day." "And if you went back, it'd mean you weren't sorry, you weren't wrong and you'd betraying your children." "She said you were crazy and I said she was a soulless bitch!" "And I hung up on her!" "That didn't go very well!" "What's true in our minds is true." "Whether some people know it or not." "That's when I realised I'm part of the problem." "Not because I remind you." "Because I couldn't join you." "So I left you alone." "Don't give up, okay?" "Okay." "Okay." "Okay." "It's okay." "So you reconciled." "That's very romantic." "But she still killed herself." "At the end she gave up." "There's nothing wrong with that." "Her husband didn't think so." "He was a coward!" "Being strong, not giving up, that was just his place to hide. |" "He pushed the pain away so hard, he disconnected himself from the person he loved the most." "Sometimes, when you win, you lose." "When he saw his children again" "I thought you said your children were dead." "You can see the dead." "In your dreams." "If you want to." "I wanna see Christy." "I can show you." "It's not hard." "You know, all you have to do, |it's like painting a picture." "We do it together." "Just close your eyes." "Please." "Don't be afraid." "Remember where you were married?" "Christy!" "Christy." "Who else would you be marrying in you dreams?" "I missed you so." "Annie, this is real." "The man in the garden." "It's me." "No!" "No!" "Whoever you are, whatever you are, |did you think you could take him from me?" "I'm sorry, babe." "There's some things I have to say." "I've only got a few moments left." "I'm sorry for all the things I'll never give you." "I'll never buy you another meatball sub with extra sauce." "And always the big one." "I'll never make you smile." "I just wanted us to be old together." "Just two old farts together laughing |at each other as our bodies fell apart." "Together at the end." "By that lake in your painting." "That was our heaven, see?" "There's a lots of things to miss." "Books...naps...kisses... and fights." "Oh, God, we had some great ones!" "Thank you for those." "Thank you for every kindness." "Thank you for our children." "For the first time I saw them." "Thank you for being someone I was always proud to be with." "For your guts, for your sweetness." "For how you always looked, for how I always wanted to touch you." "God, you were my life." "I apologise for every time I failed you." "Especially this one." "Didn't you think I'd make out there?" "|" "You were in there a while." "Took me a while to realise you were right." "Nothing you can do could help her." "This trip was always just for you." "Yeah." "Did you come close-To losing it?" "Oh, yeah." "Pushed it right to the edge." "That's why I had to come out now." "I, uh, I'm giving up." "Just not the way you think." "Go home, Al." "Will you tell my children I love them?" "And I won't leave their mother." "Thanks." "Where were we headed, baby?" "In one minute I won't know you any better than you'll know me." "But we'll be together." "Where we belong." "Good people end up in hell because they can't forgive themselves." "I know I can't." "But I can forgive you." "For killing my children?" "And my sweet husband?" "No." "For being so wonderful,|a guy would choose hell over heaven, just to hang around with you." "Not because I remind you... but because I couldn't join you." "Sorry I left you alone." "Don't give up, okay?" "Christy?" "Christy." "What happened to this place?" "It's cold." "Christy?" "Oh, God!" "No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no." "Don't give up!" "Don't give up!" "Don't give up!" "Christy!" "Christy." "Don't give up!" "Don't, don't, don't, don't give up!" "Stay with me, don't give up." "Christy." "Hey!" "Remember me?" "Sometimes, when you lose, you win." "How did we get here?" "Travel here is like everything else." "It's in your mind." "All you have to do is close your eyes." "If you know where you're going... looks like we did." "Where you were..." "I" "tried everything." "But nothing worked." "Until... you tried trailing me." "What some folks call impossible, is the stuff they haven't seen before." "Excuse me, lady." "Ready for that surprise?" "Yeah." "Hey." "That's not the surprise." "Mommy?" "I want us to grow old together.|" "Can we do that here?" "Mm-hm." "I want it all." "As long as it's with you." "It will be." "But what about going back?" "Being reborn?" "See, that's the one thing we can't have here." "Finding each other all over again." "Falling in love." "Make different choices." "Try again." "Yeah." "Avoid sharp objects." "Don't worry about the kids." "They'll be here." "They want us to go." "A whole human life is just a heartbeat here in heaven." "And we'll all be together." "Forever." "Yeah." "How will I find you?" "I found you in hell, don't you think I could find you in Jersey." "I love you." "When I was young I met this beautiful girl by a lake."