"Whoa yeah, yeah * * another day *" "We're addison and sam." "Addisam." "We're a couple." "He talks to me about feelings," "He's amazing in bed, he cooks for me--food." "Yeah, he's perfect." "I'm perfect with him." "Addisam." "She's freaking out." "Ignore her." "Addisam." "I can't just ignore-- say something shrinky then." "Uh, being a-a happy couple is a healthy thing." "What's wrong with him?" "He has no flaws." "Well, he knows you." "You know him." "There is love." "You have a good foundation." "Is that a metaphor," "Like, uh, floorboards and a basement?" "No, like he knows how to commit," "Like pete knows how to commit." "It's a good thing." "Really?" "Because in my" "Of course it's a good-- shut up, bitches." "I need to get laid." "I need to get laid really bad." "So bad, I am gonna run naked through the streets" "And grind a cop if something doesn't happen soon." "Would one of you just lie on top of me" "And rub around for, like, ten minutes?" "I thought you and mark sloan-- that was weeks ago," "Which in sex years is like a decade ago." "Where are all the men in this city?" "sheldon is single." "Do you hate me or something?" "Sheldon is smart," "Thoughtful, charming..." "And great in bed." "* t-t-talkin' about it, I can't complain about it *" "Really?" "Really?" "oh, morning, ladies." "*" "What?" "Nothing, nothing, I was just coming to find you." "Ready to go?" "Security at the prison" "Can--can..." "Be a-a bit of a pain." "*..." "Some voodoo on it * * okay, okay * * ladies and gentlemen, the funkiest horn section... *" "All right, look, I know it's not sex," "But come watch me deliver a baby." "Mm." "Miracle of life, always reaffirming," "Always puts me in a good mood." "Sheldon?" "really?" "It's always the quiet ones." "* ooh * * ooh *" "* oh!" "*" "What do you think about starting a family?" "Now?" "Not now, but..." "Soon." "We're engaged." "These are the kinds of things that engaged people discuss." "How can you be thinking about babies" "When we're doing this?" "You do know that this is how babies get made, right?" "Not the way I do it." "Oh, okay." "I'm serious." "We..." "We do want to have kids of our own, right?" "Can we talk about this later?" "babies are a wonderful gift." "They're god's little creatures..." "We should totally discuss this later." "okay, so I'm seeing five inmates," "You're seeing two." "And remember, you're just there to assess the inmates," "Give your recommendation to the parole board." "Okay?" "You're not there to make nice." "So no flirting with the inmates?" "You're making light, but these are hard-core criminals, violet." "They're persuasive, and charming," "And good at getting you to think" "That they're not criminals, okay?" "So just stay on your side of the table, be professional." "Right, don't accept anything from a prisoner..." "Don't offer to do anything for a prisoner.Oors)" "Relax." "I read the file." "I got it." "All right." "I'm fine." "I'm a big girl." "Love you, tracy." "You're doing a great job." "I love you, too." "How are we doing, dr." "Montgomery?" "Looking good." "Baby's starting to crown." "I can see her head." "Oh, you hear that, honey?" "Uh-huh." "You can see kyla's head." "She's gonna be beautiful," "Just like you." "Honey, could you-- could you not put the camera..." "Please don't film my..." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "Okay, you guys are the nicest people I have ever seen" "In a delivery." "All right, we're almost there, tracy." "Just one more push." "Ready?" "Mm-hmm." "Push." "Good." "Almost there." "Here comes kyla." "Oh." "I'll get oxygen and an intubation tray." "I'll set up the ultrasound." "She's not crying." "Why--why isn't she crying?" "Is--is something wrong?" "She's just having some trouble breathing." "I just wanted to get her over here..." "And take a look." "tell me it's not as bad as I think." "How can someone this small have a tumor this big?" "Okay, mr." "Cartwright," "You have completed 40 years of a 50-year sentence" "For murder and armed robbery." "Well, I guess we both know what's in here, right?" "Why don't we just talk instead?" "Tell me about your rehabilitation." "What do you want to know?" "Do you feel changed for the better?" "I'm definitely a different man." "And I think about what I didou feel sorry forevery day.Did?" "So you feel ready for the outside," "Ready to rejoin society?" "Can I say something, ma'am?" "Dr. Turner." "Violet turner." "Dr. Turner, I've been up for parole twice," "And each time, a therapist just like you" "Asked me the same list of questions," "And I end up saying what I need to say" "To get the result I need to get." "But you seem like a nice lady." "I'm not gonna waste your time." "I'm gonna be honest with you." "I'm a model prisoner." "I've never had a major write-up." "I've worked in the mail room 30 years." "I've co-led classes in anger management" "And taug young prisoners how to read." "I'm proud of that." "But I know none of that's gonna mean anything" "Once I get outside these walls." "I've lived more of my life locked up than free." "I'm old." "And if released..." "I'll get swallowed up out there," "And I know that." "But here in prison, I feel at home." "It's where my friends are, my life is." "So I'm asking you..." "To lie to the parole board," "Tell 'em that I'm dangerous, unremorseful," "And get me denied." "Do whatever you have to do," "But please..." "Help me stay in prison." "It's remarkable..." "And so intricate." "In just ten weeks, it has partially compressed the lung" "And attached to the major vessels." "Don't sound so gleeful." "Well, I'm sorry." "It's just..." "It's a beautiful tumor." "Sam?" "It's a pleuropulmonary blastoma." "It's putting pressure on the heart." "What are you guys gonna do?" "It's a 12-hour surgery, and I need some help" "Separating it from the cardiac vessels." "Are you in?" "Yeah, sure." "We should probably get charlotte on the horn," "Start gathering the best team, an ongist" "Daniel and tracy were so excited." "They're the perfect couple." "I just..." "Hate to shatter their world." "Well, that's the thing about perfect." "It doesn't exist." "(clears throat hey." "How was convict day?" "Convict day?" "Talking to prisoners about their parole, you know, with sheldon." "The state gives us a bundle." "Do you even listen to me" "When I talk to you in the morning?" "I do." "I listen closely." "You never said anything about working with convicts." "Oh, well, I don't know." "Maybe I forgot." "Anyway, the point is that my prisoner" "Wants me to..." "Lie to the parole board" "And have him denied." "He wants to stay in prison." "Why?" "He's old." "It's home." "Good." "Done." "Case closed." "No, not--not done, not closed." "How can I just leave a man in prison, just let him" "Stay in the system when he clearly doesn't belong there?" "Doesn't this strike you as so, so sad?" "Not really." "Why is everyone here so callous?" "Everyone's not so-- we gave betsey away." "Dell's child, our dead friend's child" "We put her in the system, too." "This isn't about betsey." "I know." "So--so what is your problem?" "Your my wife, the mother of my child," "You were brutally attacked by someone" "Who is now in the system." "So forgive me if I feel a little..." "Callous." "Forgive me for caring." "You should feel like crap." "Oh, shut up." "What do you think about me and charlotte having kids?" "Is charlotte pregnant?" "No." "uh, but you know, she will be one day," "And we'd have cute kids, right?" "So now you want a child?" "This really isn't about betsey." "Okay, fine." "Well, uh, does charlotte" "Feel like she's ready to be a mother?" "We're, um..." "Still talking." "Good." "That's good." "Yeah." "Wow." "Charlotte with kids." "I never thought, um..." "Well, it's good..." "That you're talking." "Isn't she too young for surgery?" "The surgery is risky." "Every surgery is." "But we've got the best surgical team assembd," "And I'm confident about their abilities." "Uh, dr." "Rodriguez, meet dr." "Addison montgomery..." "How do you do?" "And daniel and tracy woods." "Dr. Rodriguez is the oncologist." "He'll be the a part of the team working to treat kyla." "I know this is a rough time for you," "But we're going to do everything in our power to save your baby." "You're actually right on time." "We were just discussing the surgery." "Surgery?" "Have you discussed chemo as an alternative to surgery?" "Yes, but I believe surgery will be more effective." "Only if she survives." "Wait." "Chemo's better than surgery?" "In my opinion, yes." "Based on the c.T., kyla has a type ii p.P.B. Tumor." "Chemo is the treatment of choice." "It's less invasive and risky." "I disagree." "I've seen the c.T., too," "And I believe that kyla has a classic type I tumor." "Surgically removing the tumor will cure her." "I can tell you about the advantages of chemo." "Excuse me" "Maybe we should step outside, doctors." "If you two want to gunsling, do it out here," "Not in front of the family." "Chemo is the standard, proven method of treatment." "Of course you'd say that." "You're a cancer doc." "Chemo is all you do." "Of course you go against it." "You're a surgeon." "Cutting is all you do." "I think the goal here is to figure out" "What makes sense, not argue." "In no way is it necessary" "To do the surgery now, when there's another viable," "Safer option." "Okay, it's safer to put a baby" "Through months and months of chemo and watch it suffer?" "That's safer?" "If we can reduce the mass and shrink the cancer cells," "It will make doing the surgery later easier." "Yeah, but there's no guarantee" "That the chemo is gonna remove the tumor." "And you can guarantee that with surgery?" "Yes, I can, or I wouldn't be standing here." "Montgomery, we don't make guarantees." "One surgery cures this baby..." "Yes, I can, ldn't be standing here." "And she never has to see a hospital again.Rantees." "And you get to be the hero." "Yes, dr." "Rodriguez, that's usually how it goes." "You're the chief." "It's your call." "The parents have obviously put their trust" "In dr." "Montgomery's judgment, and so have I." "We're doing the surgery. help!" "We need help in here." "Something's wrong with tracy." "She's hemorrhaging." "I need two large-bore I.V. S and an l.R. Wide open." "I'll get them." "Pulse is racing." "She's hyponsnsive." "Type and cross two units, and I need an o.R. Now." "It was a postpartum hemorrhage." "It happens." "I was able to ctrtrol the bleeding." "She'll wake up soon." "We just have to give her time." "You know, you date, you get married." "You never even think that something bad might happen." "We've never had any kind of problems," "And now..." "Now my entire family's in danger," "And they're depending on me." "What am I supposed to do?" "You sit down and you wait for your wife to wake up," "Because she will, and then you let me take care of kyla." "what a y you gonna do?" "I don't know." "Olet, y-you can't" "I owowi know." "Itit jusus.." "Lewis hahas be locked up for r ur d dadeses" "D doe't't he e any mily. ." "He doesn't have any support system." "He's got no one." "This isn't about betsey." "I know." "Why does everyone keep..." "I know." "Do you?" "H-how is he gonna make a new life for himself" "After being locked up for so long?" "I mean, he went to prison in 1970." "Nixon was president." "There were no computers or cell phones" "Or freakin' microwaves." "Prisoners reenter society every day." "They don't all fail." "You know, he could make it." "But how are people gonna treat him?" "You tell someone that you've done time in prison," "And I don't care how liberal they are," "They're walking the other way." "Well, this is a man, a man who made a mistake," "But he owes it to himself to get out there and make a life." "He deserves a chance to do that, even if he doesn't want to." "I have to get back to the prison." "I gotta talk to the parole board." "Violet, I'm gonna say the same thing to you" "I said about betsey." "Don't lose all your objectivity." "Don't get attached." "Just..." "Do what you know is right." "Is she awake yet?" "Not yet, but daniel still wants to go ahead with kyla's surgery," "So we're gonna do it." "Oh, daniel, I was just coming to talk to you." "Uh, this is dr." "Sam bennett." "He's gonna be assisting me" "With the surgery." "Well, actually, that won't be necessa a anymore." "See, I-I spoke with that oncologist again," "And I'm going with the chemo." "Daniel, you have every right to change your mind," "But I-I really think that this is a decision" "That you and tracy need to make together." "My wife is unconscious, and my baby has a tumor," "So I'm not into taking any risks right now." "So, no." "I've made the decision for us both." "I think that tracy-- dr." "Montgomery, I really won't be needing your opinion anymore." "Dr. King knows about this." "She's given me herulull support," "So you can just stay out of it for now" "Thk k u.U." "Great." "No messages." "Any of your patients needrarain surgery?" "Nope." "You used to dateheheldon." ""date" is a strong wd.D." "I used to screw sheldon." "And would you..." "Recommend him?" "And he knows what to do with it." "Morning." "Afternoon." "There's plenty of coffee in the kitchen." "You don't have to go downstairs." "We should work together." "I've heard about your skills." "I bet you could teach me something" "You're talking about therapy?" "And other things." "Did you see that?" "What?" "Amelia." "She s s checking me out like a piece of meat." "Amelia's young and hot." "And, uh, that's a lot of woman." "Yeah, well, I can get women, cooper." "I-I-didn't" "I've--I've had women, lots of women." "I'm just saying, I can handle it." "Okay." "Excuse me." "No." "Yeah." "where the hell ishehe coffee?" "Just talk to charlotte." "Maybe she can explain what happened." "Whwhat's with all the noise?" "So from complete faith in me to totally shutting me out?" "What did you do?" "Did you lock the dad in the room" "Thth that jaasass oncologist so he could convince him" "To do the chemo while tracy's unconscious?" "U u done, montgomery?" "'c'cau once e yoststopalking, a" "Who's winning, venunuor serenen (a(afifit, I ion't'tavave expln n ythihingo you." "(a(afifit, I ion't'tavave expln n ythihingo you." "'s's my hospital I do what I want." "Second, my responsibility is to the parents." "And the baby, the actual patient here" "I'm not done talking." "Third, the man's been holding vigil by his wife's bedside" "While his baby lays in an incubator." "He didn't need much convincing, so although you want to beliee" "Big, bad bitch charlotte shut everything down, I didn't." "One parent made a decision," "And I am obligated to enforce it, which means" "The father has spoken, e e surgery is off," "And I am done with this." "Oh, you know what, charlotte?" "I am not done" "Let her go." "Breathe." "Lewis is 70," "But his life is not over." "He is smart." "He is strong." "He can make it." "There is life outside of prison," "And lewis should be a part of it." "I believe he's ready to be a part of it." "Lewis cartwright is not a threat to society." "In fact, if released, I believe he'd be a model citizen." "y)" "What are you doing here?" "I'm here to help." "You've done enough." "Thanks." "Lewis, please." "Hear me out." "Whwho a addonon to be queionin?" "At is shshe, th?" "Don't have to explain ything to o r." "I mean, , la t te I chcheck, my mama lid d in ababama" "What?" "I'm just waiting for you to finish." "Say what's on your mind, cooper?" "You don't fight fair." "You don't listen to the other side, charlotte." "You don't hear people out." "You don't answer questions." "And when you want to get out of something, you--you know-- what are you talking about?" "Well, with addison, you just wk k away," "And with me, you use sex." "You have a problem with that?" "Yes!" "No." "Yes." "We are engaged," "And having a discussion about children is important." "And in my mind, I asked you a pretty simple question" "That you don't seem to want to answer." "I told you we'd discuss it later." "What's the big damn deal?" "Why?" "W l later?" "No!" "See, this is what I'm taining about." "Okay, I'm gonna finish this." "You can't just dig your heels in" "When you don't like the conversation" "And just say "later" or just walk away." "Yeah." "At least I finished." "What happened to just coffee?" "Everything's fancier now" "I haven't had to choose what to eat in 40 years." "You know, if it helps," "I usually narrow it down to two choices," "And then I just choose one from there." "I'll have eggs and bacon." "So do you have a place to live?" "I got the name of my probation officer," "Who's gonna set me up at a halfway house." "The prison gave me two pair of pants and a shirt," "And a couple hundred bucks." "I'm thinking it's not enough, but it's a start." "I-I made some calls, too," "And I found a job for you." "It's just something part-time" "At a car wash, until you get back on your feet." "What do I owe you?" "N-nothing." "That's not the way it works erere I come from." "Somebody do you a favor, they expect a favor back." "Well, that--that world is behind you now." "You're a free man." "I feel like I've been dropped into some foreign country," "And I should speak the language, but I don't." "It's gonna take a while to-- to adjust, lewis." "But you will." "Come see me." "We can work together..." "To help you to transition." "Okay?" "I can help you make it, lewis." "I'm here to do a repeat blood count." "We start chemo in the morning." "She's all yours." "I know this isn't your choice," "But I relyly think it's going to work." "It doesn't matter what you think." "Daniel and tracy came in thinking they were gonna have" "A healthy baby, and they didn't." "Now everything's a mess." "Oh, I didn't peg you as a pessimist." "What?" "Last month, I had to tell three families about relapses" "And lost my favorite patient." "But then there was this one woman with lymphoma" "Who walked out of those doors." "That's how it happens." "You focus on the good, on the one," "Not on the bad." "Tracy woods--she's awake." "I have two highs" "Cutting into people's brains and sex." "When I can't have one, I search for the other." "And right now, nobody's brain needs cutting into." "You're propositioning me for sex?" "Yeah." "I'll think about it." "Excuse me?" "I'll think about it." "I want to see kyla." "How is she?" "She's doing as well as can be expected." "Tracy, I wanted to talk to you about the surgery." "Did you already do it?" "Daniel didn't tell you?" "Tell me what?" "Honey, I called the family, and..." "What are you doing here?" "She's our doctor." "Daniel decided to go with the chemo." "Chemo?" "But dr." "Montgomery said she could remove the tumor." "Maybe, honey." "Maybe she can remove the whole tumor." "All right, that oncologist," "He td d me that kyla is too weak for surgery." "A-and you agree with this?" "No, I don't." "You can't just make ththis decision without me." "You know what?" "I just don't want our baby to die." "And I do?" "!" "I'm her mother." "Yeah, and I'm her father, damn it." "Okay, the time that you waste arguing" "Is time that kyla is not being treated." "You need to make a decision." "What do you both want to do?" "I told you." "The chemo." "No." "No." "Okay, there's only two ways f t this to end." "Either one of them goes to court" "And gets medical power of attorney" "Or..." "Or..." "We get them on the same page." "Okay." "Well, I can try and talk to daniel." "What?" "Nothing." "Have I told you how beautiful you look in the morning?" "Mm." "Mm." "Okay." "Okay, enough with the lips and the hands." "Okay." "You're freaking out, a-- if you touch me..." "I can't think." "You're too sexy." "Just be ugly or something." "Ugh." "Woman." "Okay." "Look, I know..." "All right, I j just gonna say this, all right?" "And I know that it's gonna make me sound like a crazy woman," "But--but us, you, me, the addisam," "You know, it's just not..." "All right." "Usually..." "In a relationship," "I can see ahead and see how things are gonna go wrong." "You know, I'm uslllly five moves ahead" "Or 15 moves ahead," "And I can see where it's gonna fall apart," "Or where the guy is gonna disappoint me," "Or where he's gonna break my heart, or..." "But you're perfect." "You have no flaws." "A-and--and I can't see ahead and it's making me crazy." "Nothing is going to break us up." "See?" "Don't say that." "That's perfect." "You just said the perfect thing." "Daniel and tracy thought that." "Now they're ripping each other apart erer their baby." "What do you want me to say?" "I don't know." "Just try not to be perfect." "Okay. how about this?" "I'm not perfect." "I'm just perfect for you." "See?" "Now I'm gonna have to tear your clothes off" "And have my way with you," "Because that was the ext t perfect thing." "Okay." "Mm." "Mm." "Sheldon turned me down for sex." "I figured he would feel like he won the lotto." "And instead, he looks me straight in the face and says" ""I'll think about it." how did you know?" "Wild guess." "Oh, it's probably not as good" "As I think it's gonna be anyway, so..." "It is." "It's better." "Damn it." "The whole "let me think about it,"" "That's pure sheldon." "That's his game." "And from looking at you, it's working like a charm." "Hey." "Hey." "What you looking for?" "He hasn't called." "Who?" "Lewis." "The parolee." "I-I toi'm worried.Me see me." "He's out there by himself." "Well, I'm sure he has access to people," "Resources who can help." "O-okay, look, I-I know you don't like the idea" "Of me working with a prisoner because of katie." "But I'm good I'm not afraid." "So worry about lewis." "Don't worry about me." "He's a murderer, violet." "And that means?" "He can't be rehabilitated." "How can you even say that?" "My life's work is based" "On the belief that people can change." "I see it every day." "I say this out of concern for you-- don't get involved." "The world's a better place without people like lewis." "Okay, honey, I know you're trying to take care of me," "But this is pissing me off." "We care." "That's our job." "That's who we are." "And this..." "What you're saying right now," "It--it doesn't even sound like you." "this will be kyla one day, right?" "Happy, healthy?" "Yeah, we hope." "My baby's lying in an incubator" "With a big tumor in her body, and we're out here fighting." "If kyla doesn't make it..." "Tracy's not gonna be able to live with that," "And I cannot lose them both." "You don't have to." "That's easy for you to say." "Actually, it's not." "I know why you want to make the safe choice." "No parent wants to see their ilild" "Go behind those operating room doors" "And not come out alive." "The waiting feels like it's gonna kill you." "but there comes a time" "Wh y you need to put your trust in each other" "And make a decision together," "As parents..." "Right or wrong." "You want that?" "Do the surgery." "If I stop, I'll get fired." "I-I hadn't heard from you," "And I just wanted to make sure that you were okay." "I'm making it." "I gave you my card, and I was kind of hoping" "I tossed it." "Hey, look, I'm working here." "Lewis, I'm sorry." "M m not here to harass you." "I just wanted to" "Help?" "You said that." "Look, I don't need a handout." "Well, how about a hand up?" "Look, I..." "I've been through things myself," "And I know how hard it can be, so I just" "I want you to know that I mean it." "And don't come back.T this time." "Leave..." "But" "You don't owow me." "I could do things to you to make you regret you ever met me." "So f y your own good, I would leave" "And stay as far away from me as possible." "Why do you have my child?" "I hijacked him from the nanny." "God, he's growing." "Aah!" "So..." "I think I might have messed up with, uh, lewis." "Who's that, the prison guy?" "Why do you say that?" "He threatened me." "And that is just between you and me, okay?" "Pete saying "okay, but you need is not what I neeto walk away." "You've done enough." "Let the guy make his own way." "I am." "I'm done." "you think I want to save this guy 'cause I couldn't save betsey?" "Do you?" "He's like looking into the sun" "So gorgeous, it hurts." "*..." "A heart like a child *" "Charlotte is acting weird about the baby thing." "What if she never wants kids?" "Well, you can hijack lucas whenever you want." "Preferably Friday nights" "So I can have sex with my hot, cranky husband." "Ugh." "Yuck." "Don't talk about sex in front of the kid, okay?" "He'll end up impotent." "Or I will." "Motherhood is scary." "*..." "A way out *" "She'll come around." "* home is somewhere *" "The tumor is even larger" "And more intertwined than on the c.T." "Maybe you should debulk as best you can" "And get out for now." "No." "I omomised I could get it." "Metz." "* hell has... *" "Whoa." "Tumor invaded the artery." "It perfed." "Satinsky." "I need to clamp the vessel." "I can't get it." "She's hypovolemic." "We lost her pulse." "* don't run away * * don't run away * * don't run away now *" "We got the wholeumumor." "It's gone?" "Yes." "Uh, her lung is fine, and so is her arart." "Would you like to see kyla now?" "yes, please." "* oh * * oh, oh, oh * * oh, oh, oh *" "In and out." "That was my plan." "I was just gonna go in the store," "Hit the register, get some cash." "I never expected anything to go wrong." "But when she saw my gun," "She started screaming and screaming." "I knew she'd remember my face," "So I shot her, twice in the stomach." "I didn't even wait for her body to drop." "I just ran." "She waa a college girl on her way home from school." "Just stopped for gas." "Stephanie was her name." "And I wonder all t t time..." "What would she be doing with her life right now?" "Would she be married, have kids," "A nice job?" "And..." "Because she died..." "You don't feel like you..." "Deserve to live your life." "I didn't mean to scare you." "I'm sorry I did that." "It's just that I don't deserve anyone's help." "Everybody deserves help, lewis." "I killed someone." "And you feel like you can't forgive yourself." "And I can never repay it either." "40 years in prison-- that's enough." "Is it?" "It has to be." "If I enjoy a cup of coffee, I feel guilty now." "If I just sit on a park bench" "And watch the trees blow..." "I feel guilty about that, too." "And now that I'm free," "If I lose myself in a good moment," "I feel bad." "But think aboualall the good things that you've done," "All e e ways that you've tried to make amends," "And you've done this, all the while knowing" "That you can never really pay for what you did." "You helped other prisoners." "You never caused trouble for anyone else." "You got an education." "You didn't just sit there and do time." "You made something of it." "It's okay to live, lewis." "Live." "Hey." "Lewis was here." "We had therapy, and he had a breakthrough." "I believe he thinks he can make it now." "That's great, violet." "But be careful." "Everybody doesn't respond to therapy." "Great." "First pete, and now you." "Pete?" "Oh, he has some issue with me working in the prison." "Oh." "Violet." "I can come back later." "What was that?" "Psychology and brain surgery are symbiotic disciplines," "And we were thkiking about." "Psychookay, I'm not a good liar." "Are symbiotiplines," "Amelia propositioned me for sex," "And I haven't been able to give her an answer." "Mm." "What do you think's holding you back?" "amelia and I have said eight words to each other" "Since she joined the practice." "Why me?" "Nice, violet." "Real nice." "You've been sharing stories wi t the class." "oh, come on." "For most men, this would be like-- like a badge of honor." "She made it." "She made it." "Congratulations." "Thank you." "Can I buy you dinner..." "And tell you how right you were" "Over and over?" "I can't." "But--but thank you." "Oh." "You--y-you probably don't need to know this," "But I have had a string of unsuccessful relationships," "And now I have this amazing guy in my life" "Who does amazing things for me, and..." "You..." "Well, l-let's just say that I am focusing on the good," "On the one." "m m not the mommy type." "I don't like kids, and I don't want kids." "And I'm a pediatrician." "I love kids." "I've always wanted kids." "I need to have kids." "They'll like you more than they'll like me." "I'm not..." "Warm." "They will love you." "What if I end up like my mother, drunk at noon," "Hating the rug rats I'm supposed to love," "Screwing up our ki, mamaging them?" "See?" "Now you're gonna leave me." "This is why I didn'tanant to talk about this." "Charlotte, I'm-- I'm not leaving you." "We're having the conversation, and you didn't walk out," "And you didn't shut down," "And you didn't try to confuse me with sex." "We're having the conversation." "And we can keep having it." "We don't have to decide right now?" "We don't have to decide right now." "What now?" "Now you can confuse me with sex." "Yeah?" "Yes, please." "Take your clothes off." "Mm." "I know your game." "You perform like a triathlete in the bedroom" "To get women in elevators all gossiping about you," "You play the insecure, shy, indesive therapist bit," "And in the end, you're the guy who ends up with all the girls" "That nobody ever saw cominin" "You're horrible at taking rejection." "I am not." "Horrible." "You're the baby of the family, right?" "That's a little easy." "You know what?" "I take it back." "This whole offer, I-I" "Let me tell you how this would go." "Uh..." "We'd sleep together." "And at first, it would be just for kicks," "But enentually, I'd fall f y you, hard." "And then you would do wh women like you--the bad girls," "The ones who like it dirty," "And nasty, and a-a little bit kinky" "You know, the ones withererious daddy issues do," "You'd run." "You'd avoid me." "You'd be intentionally mean to me." "My savior complex uid kick in," "So I'd chase you, keep calling you, let you use me for sex" "On the nights when you were drunk or bored." "But you're too damaged to appreciate the fact" "That I'm a good guy and I could actually care." "And then one day," "I'd show up at your apartment with flowers or something" "Trying to woo you, only to find you on your couch" "Screwing somguguy ten years younger than me." "Am I wrong?" "I don't need it, amelia." "I'm a grown man looking for a grown woman." "So when you grow up, come find me..." "Because I am as good as they say." "* you feel it come apart, it's ripping at the seams * * spilling out... *" "Addisam, huh?" "*..." "To tear you away * * you're coming so close *" "Yeah." "* to get back up agai* * but that's how you manage to pretend * * it'll be okay *" "I will not hurt you." "* yeah, you made it through *" "The reason you're always trying to see five steps ahead" "Is because you expect to get hurt." "*..." "Black  blue starts to set in *" "Those other men, they hurt you." "So you're always looking ahead..." "Trying to protect yourself." "* but sooner or lat, life will pass you by *" "There's no protection." "There's no looking ahead." "You're gonna have to trust me." "*..." "Sets in, we'll find a way *" "I will not hurt you, okay?" "* and we get by *" "I will not hurt you." "Say it." "* yeah, we're getting by *" "You will not..." "Hurt me." "* you see the sunrise, it's just around the bend * * you've made it through the darkness until the end * * you've been through hell and back again * * to find your way home *" "I will not hurt yo * you wear with pride * * you never cover up or keep 'em all inside * * 'cause that's how you know you're still alive * * that you've grown *" "* yeah, you made it through *" "Hey." "Hi." "So lewis called me." "He got a job." "I mean, I went down there to see, and it's not washing cars." "It's good." "It's a good job." "It's at a coffee shop." "He's making coffee." "The owner said he trusted lewis' smile," "Which is..." "Yeah, he's gonna be a barista." "Last week, he'd never heard of a latte," "D d now he's a barista." "I mean, isn't that just..." "Weird, and great," "And somehow hopeful for the world?" "Like--like no babies in africa are gonna starve or" "So instead of being home with your son," "You're out at 9:00 at night," "Hanging with your buddy, the murderer?" "No, you di--did you j" "You did not just say that, pete." "* oh, and giving in means there's nothing left *" "Okay, pete, I'm gonna ask you what's going on," "And you're gonna tell me." "Nothing." "There's nothing." "This is not about me being out late." "What's going on?" "I don't want to talk about it." "Well, you're, uh, maieied to t therapist, pete." "I can wait here all night." "* to push it alasaside *" "I've done the prison thing, okay?" "My family..." "My mother's in jail," "And my brother's" "Well, I don't really know where he is," "But he's probably in jail by now, too, so..." "Oh, pete." ". ." "I'm--I don't want to go there, violet." "I'm not sharing." "I don't want to talk about it." "They d't't matter." "Theye e your family." "No." "No." "You and lucas are my family now."