"The wish to see." "One." "Even if I can't see, even if I don't know the good and the bad sides of human life in my dreaming and wishing soul" "I can see, I can feel them." "Repetition." "I wish to see." "It is a dream of my heart." "Two." "Even if I can't see, even if I don't know the lovely face of my darling." "In my soul and in my happiness" "I can see, I can feel it." "Living on the shore" "Of Lake Ghangha" "I keep your house" "Warm and neat" "Listen !" "Geese honk" "On the lake" "Full of envy" "For my good fortune" "Nothing there ?" "The wealth of the earth is our daily bread." "When an outsider sees this, it's just a stone to him." "But when I look at it, as we say in Nalaikh, I see black gold." "Before, when I worked in the mine, I liked my job." "I liked mine." "It's such a pity that they closed the mine, because they said there were no coal reserves anymore." "When I see these ruins and, at the same time, I see all these bags of coal," "I don't understand what this market economy is all about." "Because they said there were no reserves anymore." "All these things make me feel very sad." "It's really tragic." "Since my son's death I think a lot about the miners, and about the problems of the mine." "My eldest son died in a coal-pit, and twenty miners suffocated in a shaft over there." "And when he tried to bring cables to the surface, another young man was electrocuted over there." "And when I think about all these things," "I feel really sad." "And I say to myself, all these unfortunate things happened due to a lack of safety." "I believe there is an eternal cycle." "Everybody dies." "It's a never-ending cycle." "Nobody lives forever." "It's man's destiny." "When a soul leaves, another one comes." "We are born like this." ""If you are born under a good sign," ""you have to try to die as pure as you were born."" "Kazakh writer Abay said that once." "I am a Kazakh, a free man" "Who loves running stallions" "More than anything in the world" "Who also Loves to sing" "At the great festivities" "Who are the Kazakhs" "And what is their mystery ?" "I will tell you, they are brave people" "Who know how to respect and to love" "The traditions of their ancestors" "I think everyone who lives far from his fatherland misses it." "I'm not an exception." "I miss it too." "I miss my mountains, my parents, and my friends." "Therefore, when I'm alone, I play Mongolian music or I sing a song." "I think it would be very sad to live without music." "I think every Mongolian likes music and poetry." "We are sentimental people." "Music supports me." "I sing when I'm sad, I sing when I'm happy." "Music gives me a lot of strength." "I was born in Nalaikh in 1972." "I lived there until I was eight." "I was born blind." "My parents are from Nalaikh, and my father worked as a driver for the emergency team of the mine." "How are you ?" " How are you ?" "How are you passing the winter ?" " I'm fine." "How is your business ?" " It's going well." "What about your coal-pit ?" " It's fine." "I've heard the ground was very hard." "How is it now ?" "We're still digging through a hard layer." "So right now, I can't buy coal, but in a few days, when things are better, and when you will have enough coal to be transported by truck, then we will discuss the contract." "So I'll come back to see you in a few days." "All right." "Goodbye." " Goodbye." "My name is Baasandorj." "My job is to buy coal in the mines of Nalaikh and sell it to the power station." "I'm someone who brings the miner's coal and the power station's chimney together." "For example, there is the coal that I bought." "This is my second year in this job." "But in reality, I'm a mathematician." "The only school for the blind is located in Ulan Bator." "I spent 10 years at that school as a boarding student." "But I would spend weekends with my parents in Nalaikh." "Because of the market economy I was unable to continue my work as a scientist." "My salary proved insufficient to support my family." "That's why I'm in this coal business now." "But I believe that one day everything will find its right place." "I have two kids." "My husband is a driver." "He adores poetry." "Since my childhood I like songs and melodies." "As a small child, I learned to play the mandolin." "The very first song I ever wrote, was The Wish to See." "I've got three kids." "The two oldest ones are boys, and one girl." "The boys are going into their fourth year in maths." "I think it's because I'm a mathematician." "My daughter ?" "Who is she ?" "I'd like her to become a harmonious person." "She's studying French, and she plays the piano." "Such is my life." "My wife works in the bank." "I first visited Belgium in 1992, when Mongolians were allowed to travel freely around the world." "It was when democracy replaced the old communist system." "Because of the changes everybody had a hard time." "It was the end of an era." "Many workers and employees had lost their jobs." "My husband is Belgian." "Our relationship is a bit different because we come from different cultures." "We can't always be satisfied." "We always need something." "I never thought I would work at a school." "I'm really an engineer." "But because of circumstances I do something different." "My parents are very important to me because they gave me life." "Every time I go to Mongolia, I take my children with me." "I like to show them my native country." "I want them to understand me better." "Are you leaving ?" "I'm busy." "Can you wait for me ?" "Can you come here ?" "Okay." "In 1985 I graduated from Darkhan's Polytechnic University." "I'm a heating technician and I was sent here by the Ministry." "I started as a simple machinist and now I'm in charge of the team." "It's really tough for a woman." "The conditions are very harsh." "It's very dusty." "We do very hard physical labour." "Now it's not so difficult anymore because I'm used to it." "Everyone follows his destiny." "Even my job is my destiny." "Because my dream was to become an actress." "And I was only one step away from my dream." "So I think I just follow my destiny as a woman." "This power plant provides hot water and electricity for this community." "We have four heating engines." "How do they work ?" "There is a conveyer belt which brings the coal inside the plant." "First, the coal is cleaned." "Then another conveyer belt brings the coal into the oven, where the coal is burned." "And now I'd like to show you the water circulation and filtering." "I think it was Buddha who told me:" ""You won't be an actress." ""Go work in the power plant, life will be fine there."" "I think this is my destiny in life." "If I could start my life all over again, I would live it differently." "Maybe one day I will leave this place." "I can't imagine spending my entire life here." "What's the function of this conveyer ?" "A tractor throws the coal on a grid, and the coal falls onto a conveyer belt." "Then a second conveyer fills the carriages, which transport the coal to a big container." "Once the container is filled, it produces energy for 24 hours." "Now I would like to show what we do with the ashes." "I like to sit on my own on the riverbank, listening to the waves." "I try to live my life as good and honest as possible." "Here on these panels you can see the water temperature and all the working conditions of the power plant." "Here, for example, you can see the situation in the electric boiler." "What a peaceful evening" "Like the soft touch of snowdrop petals" "Who are you ?" "Whose son are you ?" "The man I Love so deeply" "That's a playful wind" "It gently pats my silky hair" "That's human fate" "That I am in Love so suddenly" "I know someday you will notice me" "I am eagerly waiting for that" "Because it's my destiny to have" "A happy Life together with you" "I was born in a herdsman's abode where cattle dung smoke used to whirl." "So I imagine my virgin land as my own childhood cradle." "In general you are happy when your parents are still alive, when your children are healthy, and when your husband is always by your side." "But we always need something more." "So I'm not fully satisfied with my life." "I never thought I would leave my country and my family." "I think it's destiny." "Both my kids speak Mongolian." "They must know their mother tongue." "I do my best to make sure that my children don't forget this language." "When you visit your native country, it doesn't mean to visit your family and friends, but it means to replenish yourself," "to find strength again for the future." "Could you hold my guitar, please ?" "Please knock on the door." "Switch the engine off." "Look, my daughter is singing." "In my opinion happiness means to enjoy all your capacities." "But though I'm blind, I'm happy to live this life." "We've been alone since our last child left us last year." "When our children are with us, it's such fun." "The house is full of sounds." "And when they leave, there is this strange silence." "We try to watch TV, to read newspapers." "It's only with our children here that the house is full of life and joy." "We record every performance our daughter gives on TV." "We keep every article about her." "When she goes somewhere to give a concert, her children ask" "if they can watch the tapes." "Her children are grown up now and they can give their mother guidance." "I hope that after we are gone these children will be fine in their lives." "Life is not easy." "We had some very difficult times." "But now I don't worry so much anymore." "Autumn rain is falling" "What is real beauty ?" "I wander here and there" "My Love is bewildered" "Heavy rain is falling" "What is real beauty ?" "I meet you in my dream" "My Love is bewildered" "Night rain is falling" "What is real beauty ?" "I am happy in my dream" "My Love is bewildered" "I am happy in my dream" "My Love is bewildered" "This song I began the day before yesterday." "This song I sang merrily again yesterday." "This song I sing more lustily today." "And still I couldn't see its end clearly." "This song I will sing again tomorrow." "This song I will continue the day after tomorrow." "This song I will sing for ever and ever." "This song was begun by my grandpa." "This song was continued by my father." "This song I have now inherited myself." "This song I will pass on." "And this song will be sung by my son." "This song will be sung by my grandchildren." "This song will be sung forever." "Because this song is praise to my motherland." "So this song will never come to an end." "Come inside." "It's time to eat now."