"In memory of Aude Monnin Dedicated to Jean-CIaude Guiguet" "LOVE SONGS" "Part One:" "The Departure" "One for Pardonnez-moi. please." "Excuse me." "I was just after him." "It's me." "I'm seeing a movie." "What are you seeing?" "SeriousIy. what are you seeing?" "I'm sick of movies alone." "julie." "I'II be offended if you see that movie." "Do you love me or not?" "That's a dumb question." "You're not alone." "Is alice there?" "Not at all." "No." "IsmaeI." "I just thought of something - you piss me off!" " Caught you napping?" " What?" " Is it love or what?" " You knock me out." "IsmaeI." "You can read me like an open book." "I'II take back that question!" "No. don't say anything. please." "Yes." "I'm napping." "undeniably proving I'm in love." "Therefore. you deduce I'm in love with you and I resort to daydreams to avoid expressing it..." "I can't hear you clearly." "Get to work!" "I want to go home." " julie yelled at you?" " Shut up!" " You scare me." " julie annoyed you?" "julie asked questions?" "I know!" "She didn't disagree when you moaned you were the world's worst fuck?" "I'II cut your tongue out." "It'II make life easier." "You'II thank me Iater. sweetie." "You're not even circumcised!" " Why say that?" " You're a mini-Jew. in fact." "Kiss my mini-Jew yarmuIke and get to work!" "Excuse me. have you got a light?" "Your barrage of questions" "On the wherefore and why" "Of my heart's reasons" "simply finds no reply" "I can't deny" "I have reasons to love you" "I don't see why" "I should let you know" "The reasons why I Iove you" "So the answer's no" "Is it your pretty bum" "could it be fear of loneliness" "Sheer luck or am I humdrum" "Or is it just laziness" "I can't deny" "So tell me now" "I have reasons to love you" "I don't see why" "I should let you know" "The reasons why you love me so" "So the answer's no" "My angel sweet" "Wants me to sing praises at her feet" "gloria" "My holy dove" "Demands to hear my song of love" "HaIIeIujah" "Is it your scent when you're near" "The way you curl under the covers" "Maybe it's even your sister dear" "Your money or even worse" "I can't deny" "So tell me now" "I have reasons to love you" "One lost promise Two careless words" "Three pairs of panties Left on the floor" "Your lips are sour Your smile sweet" "Four pubes in the shower I'm under your feet" "Your mistakes" "My professions" "My curses" "Your transgressions" "And then?" "After. you dream of before" "Everything fades. it's an open book" "Just tell me how we look" "When we weigh up all we took" "Just tell me how we look" "Just tell me how we look" "Five minutes flat Not our best" "Six pics if that Of a sex or a breast" "Seven calls from your mum Every hour today" "You should answer some She won't go away" "I'd make it better" "If I couId" "Too much hurt" "For the good" "When you add it all up" "Love. you love me how much" "Everything fades. it's an open book" "Just tell me how we look" "When we weigh up all we took" "Just tell me how we look" "Just tell me how we look" "Eight years of love One Thursday" "In my school pack Your sole letter that day" "Nine. will I make it I can't lie" "I know you're mine But can love die" "What memories" "Do you have of me" "Maybe we'd better" "Leave it at that" "Come on. tell me" "We were too noisy?" "It's alice." "I've got my pyjamas." "Perfect Happiness" "voluptuous pleasures" "politics" "I'm not sure we're in the right order." "Excuse me." "IsmaeI." "You agree." "julie?" "Lights out?" " Did I take my pill?" " You took it." " Which one is it?" " Diane 35." "Did I take it?" " It suits you?" " Yes..." " The pill makes me depressed." " It does?" "You're on it?" "I was but I've bought this thing." "it's like..." "It's like a coil." "It replaces the piII. see." " Why are you on the pill?" " It's not the pill!" "Whatever." "You don't sleep with guys." "I'II check anyway." " What sex are you into?" " Me?" "What sex?" "I'm into non-sex. you know that." "That's the sex I'm into." " Thanks a Iot!" " You're different." "You're like my sister." "It's not really sex..." "This is sick." ""Why are people so against egoism?" "Egoism can be moral."" "That's really sick!" "You should be guiding me." "We were supposed to sIeep. remember." "I really think you're very pretty." "I'm not sure you really thinking that reassures me." "You think you could?" " What?" " tell me you love me a little." "Do you love me?" "Are you in love with me?" "No." "I don't love you." "You don't love me?" "Of course I Iove you!" " Except that I..." " Screw you!" "That's pathetic." "It's pitiful." "By staying with you. am I supporting something that sickens me?" "This soppiness..." "You started. with your non-sex." "Non-sex isn't an open door to such idyllic romanticism!" "I'm anything but romantic." "You're anything but what you say." "Anything but a boss. a Jew..." "Give me a break!" "I never laid claim to being Jewish." "I can't even locate tel Aviv on a map of palestine!" "You start with mad joy." "Concentrate." "tranquillity." "Surprise." "And?" "That's not surprise." "What is it?" " What is it." "julie?" "help us." " No idea." "Amazement!" "Sorrow." "Sorrow. far from moderate." "Despondency." "Dad." "Yes. despondency." "Fear." "More than fear..." " Dread." " No. watch." "Terror?" "Not terror?" "What then?" "It's horror." "well done." "Jasmine." "Despair?" "In other words." "I take him from joy to despair." "Thanks a Iot." "IsmaeI annoys you a little?" "Yeah. he annoys me a Iot." "Have you seen Cedric again?" "I suppose you could say that." "He's married." "He'II never leave her." "I know that." "Maybe when his kid changes schools in two years." "unless the idiot repeats a year." "What's going on." "julie?" "We're involved in a dumb scene and IsmaeI's useless." "So what else is new?" "He's forcing me to break up for him." " You're leaving him?" " Not break up with him..." "We've started this threesome and... the third person's taking root." "Who is it?" "It's a girl." "alice." "Was that IsmaeI's idea?" "No. it was mine." "I'm into threesomes." "Jeanne." "let me help julie." " To do what?" " Let me." "OK." "You're needed in there." "Go and sit down." "No arguing." "Don't let dad drink too much." "What's going on?" "It's really complicated." "A threesome with IsmaeI?" "Why didn't you tell me?" "I don't know." "I didn't need to." "I guess." "How long have you been three?" "A few weeks." "A month." "A month?" "!" " I don't want to pry..." " So don't pry." "I'm surprised in any case." "So is this threesome over or not?" "nearly." "Does this alice have your key?" "Mum..." "You were spying!" "What's it like?" "Sorry." "I shouldn't ask that." "I don't mind." "So what's it like?" "Weird." "OK." "And it's hard to sleep." "AII three of you sleep together?" "And it's hard to sleep?" "Yes." "alice has nightmares." "That can't be easy." "And she's in the middle..." "We shouldn't talk about this." "I agree." "but we are talking about it." " I am quite intrigued." " only natural." "Mum." "I don't get it..." "This alice." "is she for IsmaeI or for you?" "For both of us." "Both of you?" "Not together?" "Yes. sometimes." "But it's tricky." "It takes effort." "Yes. of course." "I can believe that." "Did it come naturally?" "What?" "The sex?" "Yes. the positions..." "I..." "Did you know where to put yourself naturally?" "That's the easy part." " How do you decide?" " On what?" "WeII. do you talk about it first or..." "No. not really." "It just happens." " It's not embarrassing?" " No. not at all." "I thought it'd be complicated." "It's tricky enough for two as it is." " Had you done it with a girl before?" " Me?" "Do you Iike it?" "It's weird." "It's..." "It's funny." "It's different." "But alice likes it!" "I'm not answering that." "We've talked enough." "Yes." "Thank you. sweetheart." "It's good to confide in your mum. baby." "The cake's going to burn!" "I want you to know I'm still in love with IsmaeI." "You do it to make him happy?" "Bring the cups." "IsmaeI's doing his cushion thing." "Not so loud." "He just dropped off." "The jerk does it well." "Let's go and see Jeanne now." "Let's see Auntie Jeanne." "Do a little burp for Auntie Jeanne." "Dirty bugger!" "Are you crazy?" "I Ioved that cushion!" " I'II get it." " Cut the cake first." "You'II only say we cheated after." " Who's going to hide?" " For God's sake." "Dad!" "My little sweetie-pie..." ""Who's this piece for?"" "That's not very funny." "Dad." "She doesn't want to." "Come and give your dad a kiss." "Now close your eyes." " Who's this piece for?" " For Mum." " Make room for me." " Give your old father a cuddle..." " Move up a bit." " There's no room." "You too." " Mum. take a photo." " Not now..." "This is so embarrassing." "I'II get the cushion." "jealous..." "I thought IsmaeI worked Sundays." "He still does." "Every other Sunday." " Why are we doing the dishes?" " The washer's dead." "I mean why are we cleaning up for the men?" "It pisses me off!" "We ate too." "julie." " Doesn't Dad ever do a thing?" " He's revising." "That degree's a joke." "Mum!" "He'II never sit the exams." "I'm not so sure." "He'II do it just to piss me off." "The rain falls without a care" "On the angel of the bastille Square" "The sky is so grey up there" "As the rain's needles pierce the air" "The rain falls without a care" "The grey cIouds. heavy and solemn" "Bring water for Paris so fair" "For the naked angel on its column" "Nothing moves on the street" "Outside the window pane" "Paris seems draped in a sheet" "Bathed in drops of rain" "Against the broken sky" "The angel spreads its wings" "I'd love you till goodbye" "In this rain and all it brings" "Shit!" "I'II go." "Rain falls again without a care" "On the angel of the bastille Square" "A pot of tea that we share" "In the camomile Sunday air" "The rain pours down without a care" "Who'd have thought a drop of rain" "would make people flee the square" "Leaving the angel to its disdain" "Nothing moves on the street" "Outside the window pane" "Paris seems draped in a sheet" "Bathed in drops of rain" "Against the broken sky" "The angel spreads its wings" "I'd love you till goodbye" "In this rain and all it brings" "The rain still fails without a care" "On the angel of the bastille Square" "An early night we both share" "In sheets free of wear and tear" "The rain falls without a care" "Over family meals we have to bear" "The angel in the floodlight's glare" "Spreads its wings on the bastille Square" "You bought a new ring?" "I gave it to her." "That's a serious breach of contract." " What contract?" " The gentleman's one." " No rings for my wife." " I'm not your wife!" "I know what you're up to." "You think I can't figure out your plan?" "You'II eliminate me by beguiling me with your kisses..." "What do you mean?" "This is no three-ring circus." " With me as your horse?" " A real gift-horse." "With your heart." "And your teeth." " You're sure?" " Touching her means fucking me." "You're sick!" "Send in the clowns..." "I don't want to go." "We won't stay long." "slowly..." "Watch the cars." "Look out!" "Thank you." "I know your game" "You think you've won" "Your cake and the baker's dame" "Two for the price of one" "little bitch. that's so cheap" "It makes a nasty sound" "Your jealousy won't make me weep" "After aII. you sleep around" "I'm the bridge between your banks" "Running from side to side" "Cross over and give me thanks" "Kiss and let me be your guide" "I Iove no one but you" "I Iove no one but you" "little shit. you think you're so swell" "I smelled your fingers. swine" "Where did they get that odd smell" "It's definitely not mine" "little bitch. go to hell" "You're just as bad as me" "In adultery you dwell" "She touches you." "I see" "I'm the bridge between your banks" "Running from side to side" "climb on top." "I'II say thanks" "Why not give me a ride" "I Iove no one but you" "little shit. make your choice" "We'II be two. no Ionger three" "That's all over." "let's rejoice" "Come on. it's her or me" "little bitch." "I'II make my choice" "You know better than all of us" "Let's hear your pretty voice" "In this circus" "I'm the bridge between your banks" "Your quarrels leave me cold" "trample me and rub my flanks" "I'll stay here and grow old" "I love no one but you..." "Paris is already so far away" "Paris so petty and petit" "We'II be happy every day" "enveloped in the city" "Who cares anyway" "If it's raining at JFK" "I'm scared during landing" "But you hold my hand tight" "Like a kid so understanding" "I wept there in my plight" "Who cares anyway" "As long as with you I stay" "Crossing from the brooklyn side" "Touch my hands." "My love so sweet and mild" "I'II be right back." "Was laughing happiIy. wide-eyed" "Like a happy child" "april brings Manhattan" "Sunshine and blue skies" "Like an eternity in satin" " His name's GwendaI." " I don't care." "Who cares anyway" "I'II get julie." "If the wind carries your scarf away" "As Broadway turns on the heat" "We're dancing on the rooftop" "Of 218 Adam Street" "You're my Liza and I'm your Bob..." "Excuse me." "You're here?" "I don't feel good." "I'm going home." " Stay if you want." " Are you crazy?" "Come on." "Let's go home." "Just a second." "Where did I put the damn stub?" " Got it." " You fetch it." "I'II go on up." "We can't go out." " Stay inside." " That's my girlfriend." "What's going on?" "Stand back." "Good evening." "I called because a lady collapsed." "This is her boyfriend." "Good evening." "julie." "julie Pommeraye." "P-O-doubIe M" "E-R-A-Y-E." "And your relationship to her?" "I'm her boyfriend." " And you are?" " IsmaeI." "BenoIieI." "B-E-N-O" "L-I-E-L." "Were you here when it happened?" "A young woman, 28, heart and respiratory arrest." "GCS 3." "I'm fitting the scope." "Hook up the drip." "The sat rate is 95 for now." "During the concert, she felt faint, she went to the bathroom." "I joined her." "I went to get our things." "When I joined her outside... she was lying on the ground." "Did you consume alcohol?" "Did you use drugs?" " How long were you apart?" " I don't know." "Two minutes." "would you mind waiting in the car. please?" "Take her shoulders." "Watch the gear." "When you're ready." "Head to foot." "shoulders ready." "Prepare to lift." "Lift." "Prepare to lift." "Lift." "200 joules loaded." "Step back." "Watch out for the charge..." "Chargel" "No pulse." "No pulse at all." "She's in total AV block." "No reaction at all?" "Forget the bicarb." "prep a shot of adrenalin. 20 mg." "Carry on ventilating." "Keep her on manual." " still no pulse." " One more charge." "Prep another shot." "I'm the doctor." "TN 10. 10 Quebec Foxtrot." "delta Oscar Sierra for 59. rue du Chateau d'Eau." "My final tune just began" "My last song along this road" "A single for a single man" "My terror summed up in a code" "Delta Oscar Sierra" "The police code like a breath" "Delta Oscar Sierra" "The song of approaching death" "It's IsmaeI." "This song of mine's a real must" "But you fall before it passes" "It's all dust to dust" "A mean little mound of ashes" "Delta Oscar Sierra" "The flashing of the ambulance" "Delta Oscar Sierra" "The song of death's dance" "Your father says you're asleep" "Your mother wants to touch your brow" "The wood around you makes us weep" "And tells us now that you're now..." "You dance against the walls" "As death calls" "Do you need help?" "The police code like a breath" "Where did I put it?" "My book..." "The song of approaching death" "The flashing of the ambulance" "The Night Stirs" "Many people have a soul that loves to swim." "They are commonly known as lazy." "Part Two:" "The Absence" "OK?" " Going to my place?" " Of course." " Why didn't you let me know?" " I Ieft a hundred messages." "I know but my phone is... out of order." "I'm going to the paper." "I've taken half a day off work." "Let's do it now." "I can't!" "Give me the keys." "I'II do it." "The place is a mess." " Put them in the mailbox." " I won't snoop." "Of course you will." "The sandwich in the fridge..." "Don't throw it out." "Or eat it." "First insert." "Sarkozy's son's scooter." "Three suspects arrested..." "Are you listening?" ""Arrested" has an "r" missing." "third line." ""DNA". there's an extra space." "Last Iine. after "policeman"." "add an exclamation mark." "You're not the materialistic type." "are you?" "No." "clothes and stuff don't really matter to you." "Is this some twisted way to say I have no dress sense?" "No. it's a ploy." "You won't see stuff left at my place again." " What have you done?" " Nothing." "Jeanne's gathering julie's clothes for a bonfire." " Shit. what a bummer!" " I told you 20 times." " You confiscated my key." " But I spend all day there." " CouIdn't you sort my stuff?" " I open a closet." "I break down." " So sorting things..." " If only you could break down." " Open the closets." "Wide!" " Shut up..." "I can help you." "You can help me too." "Leave me be." "I can see you're bothered but I don't love GwendaI yet." "I don't love you either." "so calm down." "But I need you." "You're surprised?" "Be quiet" "You've said so much nothing surprises me now" "We make" "A silent promise. a speechless vow" "The words" "In excess" "We must" "Be quiet" "Our tongues are weary." "let them rest" "To have" "Tongue to tongue" "A dialogue of the deaf" "Sometimes" "believe me" "We must" "Be quiet" "Keep your saliva as an antidote" "Let it" "trickle like sweet venom down my throat" "The words" "In excess" "We must" "Be quiet" "Our lips are dry and our mouths don't need" "To get" "Caught up in the words" "Of this play we read" "Sometimes" "believe me" "We must" "Be quiet" "At last" "Be quiet" "In the end..." "It's my kid brother's." " He's a clean guy." " Not with the dishes!" "For the remotes..." "You have cable." "TV and DVD." "There are earphones if you want." "For the playstation." "unplug the lead." "Thanks." "Good night." "It's you then?" " What is?" " The draught..." "Sorry." "It's not a problem." "But since we haven't paid the gas bill." "we sleep with the window closed." "You don't like my sleeping bag?" "It's fine. but I can't sleep so I'm not using it." "Yeah." "I know." "I was told." "Whatever you were told." "I can be alone." "It's six o'cIock." "usually." "I get up at seven." "I'II make us some coffee." "Why get up so early?" "To go to school." "Shit..." "The bastards." "It's too early for their crap." "My name's Erwann." "Shit. the bastards." "they're all Bretons." "You said it." "shelves full of AnatoIe Le Braz." "crepes every Monday night and our motto: "Treat a sailor well and he'II shit in your hand."" " Very nice..." " Isn't it?" "Unfortunately, the buds are out." "A lot of maples are opening out." "The Japanese roses are in flower..." "A frost will kill them." "To avoid that, go out to the garden and prune all these tiny branches..." "Morning TV is bad for your mental health." "Use my room." "It's the first on the Ieft." "The sheets are clean." " sleep well." " Thanks!" " OK?" " My day's off to a good start." "How do you experience things before 8am?" "It'II be a glorious day." "Done your english?" "No. but I've read Aragon." "Le Cri Du Butor." "Don't spoil it!" ""It will be a glorious day" ""unnatural weather Like a painterly sky" ""Weather strong as a woman" ""Weather to sell your soul" ""It will be a glorious day" ""Weather to laugh and run" ""Weather to stay alive To fear the worst"" "Stop it!" "For pity's sake. stop!" ""On the banks of the Seine Young people at midday" ""michel with MadeIeine Pierre with Jeanne and Germaine" ""Who walks with Jean" ""If the sky is full of birds What do you care" ""The fire that burns in hell" ""Where are you going The swallows ask" ""Is april here at last"" "Paparazzi!" "You're the first guy to sleep in my bed." "I am?" "I got you some... some...from the bakery." "Croissants?" "Not croissants. raisin buns." "They're better with tea." " Tea?" "What time is it?" " 5:15pm." "No time to stop off at home." "Is alice here?" "No. there's no one here." " I can lend you clean clothes." " Yes. please." "I smell a bit funky." " What?" " Very Breton." "Give me a break." "Can you lock up?" " Good night." " Good night." "Yvette." "Good night." "alice." "You know." "alice..." "julie's parents have had the autopsy results." "And?" "It was cardiac arrest." "A small blood clot lodged itself in an artery." "Nothing caused it." "It's like a cot death." " Let's have a drink." " I'm tired." "I want to go home." "OK. see you." "If you can't sIeep. call me." "You will?" " You promise?" " Stop freaking me out." " Hi!" " Shit. are you crazy?" " You finish late." " Why are you here?" "This is my neighbourhood too." "Posters for Communist Workers?" "exactly." "What do you want?" "Nothing." "I just came to say hi." "At three in the morning?" "If I'm a pain." "I'II go." "You're not a pain but how did you find me?" "I don't really know." " I'm going." " To your place?" "Can I come?" "No." "should I insist?" "Wait at your office tomorrow?" "I'm sorry." "Erwann." "No." "You have no doubts?" "You don't need anyone?" "Did I ask you anything?" "OK." "I'm splitting." " Why are you here?" " I was worried." "You didn't come home last night." "You're not my mother." "You could have called." "I Ieft messages." "You spoke to my parents?" "You heard about the autopsy?" " You slept here yesterday?" " Yes." "Don't you have a home?" "I thought we could help each other." "Support each other." "Together." "It's just as hard for me." "IsmaeI." "You could make an effort." "An effort how?" "Respect my sorrow." " You respect me. moving in here?" " It was my sister's place too." "What's the dog doing here?" "I was scared here alone so Mum let me borrow her." "Got a light?" "You got the issue finished?" "Sorry." "I can't go on like this." "I just can't." "I'm not interested." "It doesn't help." "Have julie's keys." "I'II take mine and say good night." "No questions." "Give me the door code." "7 A20." "Make yourself at home." " You're working Iate. young man." " I'm not working." "What's a Breton library like?" "The beautiful Room Is Empty" "This isn't on the programme." "Mad About Vincent" "Don't mix them up." "SaIinger though..." "Have you ever loved" "For the sheer sake of it" "Have you ever taken" "A bite of the apple" "For the taste of the fruit" "Its sweetness and its zest" "Have you often lost your way" "Yes." "I've already loved" "For the sheer sake of it" "But the apple was hard" "And I cracked a tooth" "Those unripe passions" "Those indigestibIe loves" "Often made me feel sick" "But a true love that lasts" "Leaves lovers exhausted" "And their overripe kisses" "Rot on our tongues" "But fleeting love affairs" "Know such futile fevers" "And their kisses so green" "Chafe against our lips" "For if you wish to love" "For the sheer sake of it" "The worm in the apple" "Can slip between our teeth" "It eats away at our heart" "Our brain and all the rest" "slowly bleeding us dry" "But when we dare to love" "For the sheer sake of it" "This worm in the apple" "That slips between our teeth" "Can make our heart fragrant" "Our brain too and leave us" "Its perfume inside us" "But fleeting love affairs" "See such futile efforts" "Their passing caresses" "Can wear out our bodies" "But a true love that lasts" "Makes the lovers less fine" "Often the test of time" "Gets the better of us" "Time for bed. you runt." "It's only 4am. it's not late." "Tomorrow morning at seven." "you have mathematics." "chemistry. algebra..." " I can sleep in the lounge." " Make yourself at home." "OK." "I took ScarIett to the Pepiniere Park yesterday." "I hadn't been back since julie died." "It was our park." "You took us there when we were kids." "It's good you were able to go back there." "I think so. yes." "Right..." "shall I make my salad?" " Anyone for cheese?" " No. thanks." "I'II have some salad." "help me make it." "I'm not doing it for one." "Jasmine. no hysterics..." "You're crazy." "IsmaeI. since we're all here." "I want to tell you that MireiIIe and I want you to have julie's money." "There's not much on the current account but there are savings on two other accounts." "I don't know if julie told you... but. after she was hired permanently." "her salary included life insurance." "We've asked for it to be paid to you." "There." "AII in aII. it should amount to 20.000 euros." "No. thank you." "I don't want the money." "Sorry." "No one wants the money." "It should go to the guy who needs it." "I didn't pay for the funeral." "It wasn't up to you to pay." "Haven't you got any revision to do today?" "Is this a new resolution to help your mum with the dishes?" "Xmas is over." "You still have hope?" "Has someone mentioned driving lessons in this family?" "And the old sister here..." "Got anything to say?" "Anything at all?" "A bit jeaIous. is she?" "Were you offered driving lessons at 20?" "Look at me when I speak!" "Look at me when I speak!" "Look at me." "And give me a kiss." "Give me a kiss." "Because I Iove you." "I've loved you for ages." "Disgusting..." "I'm glad you're OK." "It helps us all." "My eyes gaze" "At the sky" "The white clouds against perfect blue" "No sign of God" "In the sky" "slow clouds in the broken blue" "sunlight floods" "The sky" "My winter days are spent forgetting you" "And every second" "Is a fistful of soil" "Every minute" "Is like a sob" "See how hard I fight" "See how much I lose" "In blood and tears." "in blood and tears" "I hurl up" "At the sky" "Those pebbles that you painted green" "But there's no reply" "From the sky" "No rebound on the sea's glassy sheen" "sunlight floods" "The sky" "My days in hell spent burying you" "And every second" "Is a fistful of soil" "Every minute" "Is like a tomb" "See how hard I fight" "See how much I lose" "In blood and tears." "in blood and tears" "I hope" "That in the sky" "sly little devils The angels' wings will bend" "So that you will faII" "From the sky" "To my arms." "like a gift. a true godsend" "But every second" "Is a fistful of soil" "But every second" "Is a fistful of soil" "Every minute" "Is like a tomb" "See how hard I fight" "See how much I lose" "In blood and tears." "in blood and tears" "Maud..." "Can you give me...a shot of vodka?" "With your lamb curry?" "Wake up..." "There's someone here." "Hi." "IsmaeI." "It's past midday." "It's OK." "What are you doing?" "Any coffee left?" " I'm julie's sister." " julie's sister?" " You're alice?" " No..." "Work." "What are you doing?" " I came to see you." "Where are you?" " Behind you." "Don't you have classes." "revision. essays?" "The best thing I can do is wait for you." "That's kind." "You're sweet." "But I'm like a huge mystery for you." " You have no idea." " What does that mean?" "It means you don't know me and shouldn't wait for me." "The mystery of your weary gaze" "A mystery that keeps you in a haze" "The secret of this daze" "Secrets are my true craze" "This barrier between you and me" "This barrier. who holds the key" "Cross the border." "leave your daze" "Stand on your Iand. see my gaze" "You need to advance" "To cover the distance" "Between you and me" "You'II have to be bold" "If you want to hold" "Onto me" "A chill grips your land these days" "What to do in this winter maze" "You're caught up an icy daze" "Everything's frozen" "Start a blaze" "You need to advance" "To cover the distance" "Between you and me" "You'II have to be bold" "If you want to hold" "Onto me" "The mystery of your weary gaze" "A mystery I try to appraise" "The cheap mystery of your daze" "Doesn't need your arms these days" "asshole!" "GwendaI sent his brother?" " What did he say?" " It's not about you." "C'mon." "I'm not stupid." "He sends his brother to lecture me." "He wants to move me." "I dumped him." "badly." "The guy's an emotional psychopath!" "GwendaI's great." "He's already corrupted you!" "I swear. the guy scares me." " GwendaI?" " I don't want to see him again!" "Give the keys to his little brother." "I'd been warned." "Bretons are dangerous." "especially in love!" "Here." " No way..." " He'II send Erwann back." "Give them to him when you see him." "What?" "Nothing." " What's up?" " They just changed the front page." "New trainers?" " Like them?" " No. they're ugly." "WeII. well..." "I gave IsmaeI the keys." "You can keep the stuff I Ieft." "it's OK." "tell your brother sorry from me." "Want a ride home?" " Want a ride home?" " I'm OK." "You're sure?" "See you." "Part Three:" "The Return" "Hey you" "Tell me that you love me" "Even if it's a lie" "And we stand no chance" "Life is so sad" "Tell me that you love me" "Good evening." "I have to sit outside with the dog." "It's so late." "I waited till my husband dozed off." "That's OK." "I only just left work." "You didn't tell IsmaeI you were coming?" "Jeanne searched his things to get your number." "Something to drink?" "No." "I'm OK." "Thank you." "IsmaeI told me about the autopsy results." "Why did he tell you?" "Is that important for him?" "I think so." "It's important to understand." "I'm not so sure." "We expect doctors to clear up every mystery." "to unearth the secrets that explain them..." "I reject that illusion." "Mystery is part of Iife." "And it merely adds to the horror of julie's death." "But that's not why I called." "It may sound silly but I'd Iike you to take care of IsmaeI." "I'd Iike you to watch over him." "I'm asking you that." "I called because I heard you'd moved out." "I'm worried." "He's all alone." "He's not alone." "I see him every day." "And emotionally?" "emotionally what?" "Are you still together?" "That's a really weird question." "I only wish him well." "I believe you." "But I don't think you can help people if they don't want that." " What are you doing here?" " Dad sent me." " He woke up?" " You weren't there so he woke me." "I'm only here..." "I told him you'd taken ScarIett out." "I'm sorry." "Go on." "Thank you so much for coming here." "We're counting on you." "You're one of the family." "Can I give you a kiss?" "Coming?" "I'II give you ten minutes to yell at each other first." "Can I sit down?" "Got a cigarette?" "My exams are stressing me out." "Want to keep the pack?" "No." "I have to sleep." "I mustn't smoke all night." "Don't take this badly." "OK." "Look on it as kindness on my behalf." "I don't think you're one of the family." "Thank you." "I don't think you need to be one of the family to feel grief." "OK." "Are you getting over it?" "No." "objectively." "I'm not getting over it at all." " And you?" " A little." "I think so." "I'II be going." "See you." "Wash" "My soiled memory in its muddy stream" "With your tongue's tip lick me clean" "And remove every single trace" "Of what has been" "Of what binds me" "Of what comes to pass" "alas" "stalk" "Hunt her down for within me she fights" "And when you have her in your sights" "Do not heed her pleas and cries" "You know" "That she has to die" "This is her second demise" "And so" "kill her" "Again" "Weep" "I've done that before. all in vain" "More sobs just wet the pillows again" "Despite my tries." "despite my tries" "I have" "A dried up heart" "And swollen eyes" "I have" "A dried up heart" "And swollen eyes" "So burn" "Burn when you sink into my bed of ice" "It melts when you hug me like a vice" "There's no more sorrow" "No more gravity" "If I have" "Your body like a flow" "Of lava washing over me" "My soiled memory in its muddy stream" "Wash" "Did ScarIett wake you?" "I've brought croissants." "What's going on?" "I don't think I can offer you breakfast." "Shit..." " Can we talk?" " I don't have much to say." "So let's walk." "We're on a street." "No one will criticise us." " I'm not criticising you." " That's not what I meant." "We deal with grief the way we can." "I'm not judging you." "But your way is a bit violent." " You're judging me." " I'm trying to understand." "Understand what?" "What went on between julie and you." "That's a challenge." "A real challenge." "Understand... why you never wanted kids... why you were in a threesome... my sister's life before she died." "And a boy in my bed explains everything. is that it?" "You have the right handbook." "You're lucky." "She must have had reasons to be unhappy." "I won't say anything." " It's for the best. right?" " No. it's not for the best." "No one stops you speaking." "Far from it." "people need to hear you." "My parents especially." "talk to them." " To say what?" " I don't know." "What you feel..." "Give me a break." "I already have parents of my own." "You're so seIf-centred." "You're ungratefuI. selfish..." "Sure." "I'm thoughtless." "I'm idiotic..." "And I'm a faggot on top of it." "It's terrible..." "That's not what I said." "Don't make me look like a dumb bitch!" "The same winter sun" "The same snapping twigs" "Icy fingertips" "Frost on the railings" "The same smell of soil Of earth gone to earth" "It'II all be there" "It'II all be there" "Except for you" "The Pepiniere Park at the week's end" "One more hour. one more hour if that" "One more hour before nightfall" "The same temperature" "Down to freezing point" "melancholy beasts" "At the gates of the zoo" "The same hurried parents." "their children wrapped up warm" "It'II all be there." "it'II all be there" "Except for you" "The Pepiniere Park at the week's end" "One more hour. one more hour if that" "One more hour before nightfall" "Even if I stay" "And walk where we walked" "follow the same paths" "At the same time of day" "Even if I'm the same Even if I'm beautiful" "It'II all be there." "it'II all be there" "Except for you" "The Pepiniere Park at the week's end" "One more hour. one more hour if that" "One more hour before nightfall" "Night will faII" "And then" "Nothing more" "Good luck." "Hi. you're back?" "Your brother sent you?" "tell him to stop. it's a real drag." "I'm looking for IsmaeI." " GwendaI didn't send you?" " No." " He didn't tell you we split up?" " No." "But I noticed." " He's seeing someone?" " Yes." "Where's IsmaeI?" "He's got a nerve." "No." "I don't know." "But I'd Iike him to help with the layout." " He's not answering his phone." " I know." " You're not worried?" " should I be?" "I Iike bloc Party too." " What's going on." "Erwann?" " I hoped he'd be here." " Why do you want IsmaeI?" " I won't hurt him." "I'II go." "I have a mock exam tomorrow." "Bye." "tell me something..." "This may sound crazy but I just thought of it." "Are you and IsmaeI together?" "I hope so." "See you." "See you!" "The dirty devil..." "Why have you come so late" "CouIdn't you cope" "I'd decided not to wait" "I'd given up hope" "Why have you come so late" "What brings you here" "What bizarre twist of fate" "What sudden desire or fear" "Why have you come so late" "Didn't your mother say. dear" "You shouldn't arrive late" "For an invitation sincere" "Without fIowers. fine" "But it's only polite" "To arrive on time" "When time is tight" "Why have you come so late" "When it's all over and said" "And your brand new date" "Takes my place in your bed" "Why have you come so late" "You don't have an excuse" "No story to relate" "No way to make a truce" "Why have you come so late" "I can't, try as I might" "The tales you create" "Of a future bright" "Where for now it's not so late" "My angel, it's all so bizarre" "If you could face your fate" "You'd see how much older we are" "BRITTANY" "Hey there, kid, all day long" "I've sung an idiot's song" "You kept us waiting..." "Crawling in the gutter's flow" "From Montparnasse to Chateau d'Eau" "Are you OK?" "One drink after another, God knows where" "I'm melancholy." "Zubrowska, Riesling and Piper" "At a loss, not knowing what to do" "I've come back here to find you" "I run to your arms To get off the streets" "Any noise." "I'II kill you." "The delight of your charms In your soft, warm sheets" "But, alas, instead of that" "I thought I heard "I love you"" "That's his problem, true" "I thought I heard "I love you"" "That's his problem, true" "So what if you do believe" "So what if I can't be naiiive" "However lost I may be" "None of that between you and me" "You want a body. that's OK A pair of arms. why not" "In my bed you can stay Getting the sheets in a knot" "But if you want to have all that" "You need to hear "I Iove you"" "You need to hear "I Iove you"" "I'm oId. a widower and sectarian" "A poor. idiotic vuIgarian" "I'm handsome. young and Breton" "I smell of rain. the ocean and crepes with lemon" "Be quiet now. you little jewel" "Once again you're wrong. you fool" "I'm precious if you save me. see" "OK. but none of that between you and me" "You want a body. that's OK" "To get off the streets" "In my bed you can stay" "In your soft. warm sheets" "But if you want to have all that" "You need to hear..." "Love me less but love me a Iong time." "Your barrage of questions" "On the wherefore and why" "Of my heart's reasons" "simply finds no reply" "I can't deny" "I have reasons to love you" "I don't see why" "I should let you know" "The reasons why I Iove you" "So the answer's no" ".. Is like a tomb" "See how hard I fight" "See how much I lose" "In blood and tears." "in blood and tears" "You start with mad joy." "Concentrate." "tranquillity." "Surprise." "And?" "That's not surprise." "What is it?" " What is it." "julie?" "help us." " No idea." "Amazement!" "Sorrow." "Sorrow. far from moderate." "Despondency." "Dad." "Yes. despondency." "Fear." "More than fear..." " Dread." " No. watch." "Terror?" "Not terror?" "What then?" "It's horror." "well done." "Jasmine." "Despair?" "In other words." "I take him from joy to despair." "Thanks a Iot." "The rain falls without a care" "On the angel of the bastille Square" "The sky is so grey up there" "As the rain's needles pierce the air" "The rain falls without a care..." "What are you doing?" " I came to see you." "Where are you?" " Behind you." "Don't you have classes." "revision. essays?" "The best thing I can do is wait for you." "That's kind." "You're sweet." "But I'm like a huge mystery for you." " You have no idea." " What does that mean?" "It means you don't know me and shouldn't wait for me." "The mystery of your weary gaze" "A mystery that keeps you in a haze" "The secret of this daze" "Secrets are my true craze" "This barrier between you and me" "This barrier. who holds the key" "Cross the border." "leave your daze" "Stand on your Iand. see my gaze" "Take her shoulders." "Watch the gear." "When you're ready." "Head to foot." "shoulders ready." "Prepare to lift." "Lift." "TN 10. 10 Quebec Foxtrot." "delta Oscar Sierra for 59. rue du Chateau d'Eau." "Delta Oscar Sierra"