"Previously on "Crash"..." "Ain't I enough for you anymore?" "What, are you jealous?" "Have you ever found anyone dead in your house?" "No." "You should have said something." "You attract damaged souls." "I am the Grim Reaper." "You're fired." "Now give me the keys." "Thanks for bailing us out there, nephew." "Where's my son?" " Are you all right?" " Yeah, I'm fine." "Hey, Ben." "Earlier I was at your house and I almost robbed you." " But you didn't." " No." "Then what are you crying about?" "We're out of here, Officer." "We're out of here." "We're invisible now." "Who's in there?" "I've got a fucking gun." "You're dead." "I know." "You killed me." "No." "No, I didn't do it." "Yes, you did." "Stop that." "Murderer." "Does that remind you of anything?" "Murderer!" "Don't let me near this... or anything that's inside it." "I don't care if I'm chewing my fucking arm off." "Then why are we bringing it?" "It's better to know they're close than knowing I'm out." "Remember, not even a taste, all right?" "You going like that?" "Yeah." "I'm going like this." "Oh, no no no." "We forgot two vessels inside the house." "Y-you get them." "Vessels?" "Yeah, one holds the water of life and the other the ruins of death." "No." "Ben, all due respect," "I don't want to hear no riddles, man." "It's 6:00 AM." "I'm tired, all right?" "I just want to get this done." "So you just tell me what you need and where to get it." "Okay." "The scotch is in the kitchen on the counter and the urn is in the upstairs bathroom." " Hold up." "The doctor?" " Yeah." "No no." "Ain't no way." "You want him, you got to go get him yourself." "I-I-I can't go back inside that house." "Not until this is done." "I don't understand." "Till what's done?" "There's unfinished business here." "Well, what is... look, I'll do this, but there better be some sense behind this, 'cause you're wearing me out." "I appreciate your honesty." "When you bring the doctor back, you keep him in front next to you." "And you make sure that he's strapped in." "Frankie, I need your help." "If you don't hear from me again" "I'll be there very soon." "This scotch is too yellow." "Why is this scotch so fucking yellow?" "Fuck." "Panic, roll us a joint." "Now?" "I'm driving." "You telling me that you've never text messaged your homeboys while you were at cruising speed?" "You're practically ambidextrous when you're dealing with that, so I'm sure you can deal with rolling a fucking joint." "Where we going anyway?" "To see Frankie Navajo." " Who?" " My shaman." "He's the one that I need to help me get things right." "You know, listen, I've been treating my sickness for years." "I met the pope, I kissed his hand," "I got his blessing." "I chanted with the monks in Bhutan for a year." "But Frankie," "Frankie's the only one who can really understand my psyche." "I should have been soliciting his guidance these past few years." "But I've been using the doctor and his pharmacy as a kind of band-aid." "So where we going anyway?" "You just keep heading east." "I'll tell you when to get off." "There's nothing but open road out here." "Oh, shit." "I already hit a buck 20, son." "Yeah, all right." "I'm gonna spank it on all fours, smash on this motherfucker." "Just pow pow pow pow, know what I'm saying?" "Man, you're supposed to be in charge of the music, dawg;" "help navigate, offer refreshments, shit like that." "What's up?" "Oh, okay." "Okay, shit." "I feel you." "Some shit is definitely out of your control." "It's your fault though." "You dropped the ball." "Admit it," "all that talk about taking your place... no warning either." "That's some cold shit right there." "Some cold shit." "IÁndale, ándale!" "How you all doing?" "Put in an order of eggs, bacon, scrambled, a cup of coffee." "We'll be waiting right over there in that booth." "You know, these people are either staring at us because I'm famous... or because you're black." "You ever hit the open road before?" "I've never been out of the state before." "My older brother Sean..." "he's the one that got out." "All the way to Japan, as a matter of fact, for college." "You know, out of all the shit he saw in Japan, the thing he was most excited about was their toilets." "Let's move off bathrooms and toilets because that's where the doctor first started stalking me." "Oh my God, no." "Yo... just the way you like 'em." "No!" "Oh God, no!" "Get the fuck away from me, Sebastian!" "Is there anything else I can get you?" "No no no no." "No." "Is he gone?" " Is he gone?" " The doc is dead." "He's strapped in the front seat, man." "Oh." "What's wrong with you?" "No, he's right there." "Okay, yeah." "We got to get you back in the car." "No, that's the fucking doctor." "Don't bring him back over here." " That's the waitress." " No." "Here, man, take the keys and just go outside." "I'll follow you." "I'll pay the bill." " Okay, I'm out of here." " Just go." "Hell no." "Put it down." " No, put it down." " I need to do this." " I need to do this." " Put it down." "Ben, look..." "Ben, I know you're feeling it, man," "But give me the box, man." "I can't let you do it." "No, I need to do this." "I need to do it." "I need to." "Ben!" "Ben, put the pills down, man, come on." "Ha!" "I'm the one that's in control, Sebastian." "I'm in fucking control here." "No more fucking games from you." "You understand?" "You hear me?" "I'm in fucking control here, Sebastian." "I'm in control here." "Get me to Frankie's now." "Get me to Frankie's now." "Okay, all right." "Oh, please." " Okay." " All right." " Hey, hey." " What?" " I'll get you to Frankie's." " Okay." " All right?" " Yeah, good." "Have a seat." "Get inside." "Sebastian, what are you doing here?" "Leave the boy alone." "No, he needs me." "Don't pretend like this is about somebody else." "Look at you." "You're a drug-addicted music producer who couldn't find a hit in a crack house." "You're wrong." "You'll just abandon him like you've abandoned everybody else in your life." "Ben, you're going to kill Anthony just like you killed me." "It wasn't me." "You killed yourself." "You can't wash this off, Ben." "Is that you, Sebastian?" "I'll blow your fucking head off." "Run those fuckers off the road." "Do it now!" "What the hell just happened?" "I don't need us to catch a murder charge out here in the middle of East Jesus." "Jesus had nothing to do with this." "Those assholes were sent by the doctor." " But of course he fucked up." " What?" "There are four horsemen of the apocalypse, not two." "That's how I knew he sent them." "He was never a numbers guy." "Anthony, you've got to learn to read the signs." "There'll be more." "Fuck." "Ben, I need some direction..." "address, something, man." "We're not even on the fucking map." "I don't know where these dirt roads go." "Man, I got to be the only black man in America out in the middle of the goddamn desert!" "You left quietly without a word, but now you're back, more villainous than flatulence trapped in a crowded elevator." "Motherfucker's talking to a tree." "But your spite will meet my vengeance." "How do you like this, huh, Sebastian?" "How do you like this?" "This is some..." "I should've never came back." "I should have stayed fired." "I should have fucking stayed fired." "That way I'd be at home watching fucking Sportscenter, shooting dice." "I'd be writing music about shit I understand!" "Fuck a record deal, man." "Just get me back to Kansas." "Yo, Ben, let's go." "What are you doing?" "Come on, dawg." "You all right?" "There he is." "There you are." "That's him." " I know that's you." " Oh, no, Ben." "Ben, that ain't the doc." "That is a prehistoric beast." "Whoa whoa whoa." "No no, man." "Don't get close, man." "He's poisonous." "You're already sick, okay?" "We need to kill him." "Oh, shit!" "Why didn't it die?" "Hold up, hold up." "Hold up." "Yeah." "We got it." "Come on." " Whoa." " Oh, shit." "Oh, man." "Get it right there." "Why?" "I did everything I could for you." "I took you in." "I took care of you." "I gave you..." "I gave you a home," "I gave you friendship." "And you shit all over me." "Hey, Ben." "I think we're here." "Come on in." "Well, come on in!" "I've got Ben Cendars in the car." "He really needs some help... now." "Like, he needs a doctor." "Would you like some jerky?" "I dried it myself." "I got to get my boy to a hospital." "Ben died many years ago." "Dude, it's gonna be true if we don't get him some help, like right away." "You do music?" "Oh, please." "Oh, God." "Oh, please." "Oh, please." "Ben." "Frankie." "Frankie." "Oh, Frankie." "You're looking poorly now." "Come on inside." "I'll fix you up." "So, you some kind of Indian priest?" "Not even close." "My father was part Irish and the other part was Polish and Czech, and my mother was a French Canadian." "So..." "Navajo's your stage name?" "Uh, only to Ben." " He gave it to me." " Yeah?" " Yeah." " He gave me one too..." "Panic." "Guess he's got a nickname for everyone." "How long have you been with him, Panic?" "Not that long." "Though he got a way of making it seem like eternity." "Ugh." "We saw one of these on the way up." "Ben thought it was the doctor." "Scorpions embody transformation." "It's really the process of death and rebirth." "Sebastian's a part of that even as much as you are." "In fact, both of you are connected to Ben in that way." "What's that?" "This?" "Imagine you're shoveling a mound of shit and you discover underneath it there's a concrete floor." "But you keep going and pounding and pounding on it until it breaks." "Only then do you remember what the concrete was there for in the first place." "You see, Ben has to confront the doctor before he's gonna find an answer that'll release him from his addiction." "How?" "The doc's dead." "Well... not according to Ben." "How did Sebastian pass?" "Suicide." "I found him." "Here, hold this." "Are you sure it's safe?" "Well, it doesn't always have a happy outcome, but he came here to make a choice." "Sit up, Ben." "I don't know." "It doesn't feel right." "This is a man on the border." "He's got to choose which side he wants to be on." "Give me that." " Here, drink this." " No!" "Drink it, drink it." "Yes yes." "Drink it." "Go ahead, go ahead." "Thattaway." "Thattaway." "Good." "That's a boy." "Okay, good." "No." "No." "No!" "No!" "Los gringos." "Yo, Ben's not looking so good, man." "It's hot and he's getting worse." "Just give him a couple of minutes and that ibogaine will knock him out totally." "What the fuck is that?" "Well, it's a powder from an African root which causes severe hallucinations." "You don't want to operate heavy machinery behind that shit." "It induces cerebellar dysfunction." "And in the dosage I gave him, he's gonna have trouble wiggling his toes." "He'll either come out of it or he won't." "You a doctor or a shaman or both?" "I'm an auto mechanic... retired." "I do the same kind of work on people, though." "They break down and I get them going again." "I can't breathe." "Help me." "Ben needs to get clean before he can cleanse the soul or heal the spirit." "And in auto terms, that's a complete overhaul." "Whoa." "That looks like it hurt." "What happened?" "What, this here?" "Yeah." "You can see this one." "I've got a lot more." "When I was a young man like yourself... my wife left me." "And I loved her too much." "So one night" "I had some drink in me," "I walked out in front of a car." "There was a young girl driving." "She was just a senior in high school at the time." "And she couldn't avoid me." "She ran me down." "And I found out that she killed herself afterwards." "I've never been sure why, but I always felt responsible." "Anyway, her brother came to visit me." "I was in a bad way, but I told him what really went down... that I walked in front of the car on purpose because I wanted to die." "Well, he took my hand and held it." "And he said we were gonna be friends and he was glad that I was still alive." "Ben?" "Yeah." "I had lost faith in myself until I met Ben, but he showed me the importance of forgiveness," "and I was reborn that day." "Sometimes it's easier to do for others than for yourself." "You ever been reborn?" "I don't know." "I think so." "When I was a kid, this one cat, Curt, just got out of Lancaster." "Every nigga on the block just gave him respect." "I remember wanting that." "So I walked up to this white dude at the 206 stop and just fucked his ass up." "I spent a year in Eastlake for that." "The first day I was there" "I found out that" "I couldn't have visitors that weren't your family." "You know, you..." "I didn't have any friends inside there." "My mom, she came a few times and then she stopped coming." "My brother, he never came." "That really fucked me up." "Since then, Mom passed and me and my brother never been close." "While I was in there I realized that I was killing myself just by how I was thinking." "Just made me want to change my life." "I mean, you know, I still want to..." "I want to show and prove, but not like that." "Yeah, I'm done with that." " Here." " Oh." "Sounds like you were reborn." "Yeah?" "Yeah." "When you get to be older you get on the Ferris wheel and you'll go this way." "That's when you know you're all grown up." "I thought he's supposed to be laid out." "How do I know you?" "Get on, baby." "You can't stay here." "Wait." "Don't leave me." "Don't leave me." "Don't leave me!" "Don't leave me!" "You killed me." "Murderer!" "No." "No." "Why are you doing this?" "Because, Ben, you want to die." "You're in pain." "You haven't felt anything, you haven't lived in decades." "You got nothing." "You got no one." "End the pain, Ben." "Let it go." "Just stop being such a goddamn fucking pussy about it and end the pain!" "No." "Hey, relax." "Just relax." "I got a shot of water for you." " Thank you, Frankie." " Yeah." "Thank you." "Yeah yeah." "Good." "Here." "Thank you." "I'm dry." " How do you feel?" " I feel numb." "You feel numb, huh?" "Take a deep breath." "Close your eyes." "Ow!" "Fuck!" "For Christ's sake, what the hell was that?" "Ow, that hurts." "That's pain." "You're alive." "I'm fucking bleeding." "Can you get up?" " Yeah, I think so." " I'll help you." " There you go." " Whoo, yeah." "Yeah." " Oh, brother." " Come on." "You're a good friend." "A good friend wouldn't charge you." "I have to start coming by more often." "I could always use the money." "Keep an eye on the doctor for me, will you?" "Yes, I will." "I'm glad you made it." "You all right?" "You didn't leave me?" "No, he's been here the whole time." "I need a minute alone with the doctor." "Oh, sure." "He seems good." "Yeah, he won't get the itch for a while." "But don't let anyone wave the dope or pills under his nose." "No doubt." "I'll probably see you next year." "Oh." "Is there anything you want to say?" "No." "We said everything we need to." "I, uh..." "I will need a little help with this however." "All right." "You know what I did before music?" "What's that?" "I was an archeologist." "Straight out of college I go to spend the summer in Pompeii." "We're gonna, like, excavate some wealthy merchant's house." "So now I'm looking for something meaningful, you know, like a piece of art or a medallion with his inscription on it or something like that." "The only thing that I find is a bone plectrum." " You know what that is?" " What?" "A pick." "Some ancient Roman was plucking his lyre with it." "So I pocket the thing." "But I pick up a guitar and with it I write my first hit song that summer, and I'm still getting royalties from it today." "Now people can think that" "I'm out of the game, but you know, all you need is a little inspiration." "Do you feel me?" "Do you feel me?" "Come on." "Yeah, yeah I feel you." "It's a beautiful thing, man." "Whoa!" "Shit!" "Jesus." "Well, welcome to your new home, you crazy fucks." " Whoa." " You see that?" "I think it's about time we opened this bitch up, see what she does." "Yeah, let's play footsie with fate." "Put the pedal to the metal." "You ain't said nothing but a word, man." "Yeah, man." "It's a beautiful thing, man." "I like that." "It's a beautiful thing." "A beautiful thing." "Yeah."