"Production support by Korean Film Council, KOFIC" "Catsfilm production" "A Blind River" "You'll have a scar from the operation" "If someone asks, say that you removed an ovarian tumor" "There won't be much to worry about" "Take off all your clothes, and change into this" "At $1,800..." "You're getting a good deal at $2,000" "It's the same as a delivery" "How about $1,900?" "Just go with what I've offered" "Lie down here." "Lucas." "I'm ok." "We have the same records as the ones you know.." "Born on September 2nd, 1978." "Joo Seong-Chan found in Daegu Chil-sung Market on September 7th" "Brought to a nearby police station by some passer-by and entered Daesung Orphanage in September 8th." "On October 31st, '81 you are adopted to Australia through adoption agency." "Is his name and birthday correct?" "For abandoned kids like him, how much they have grown or the day they entered the orphanage determines their birthdays." "For names, the orphanage director usually gives it to them." "Hey, Marie, w.hat does itsay?" "Park Byung-hoon." "It's the name ofthe president ofyour adoption agency, your legal guardian" "What's this document about?" "This one is about adoption agreement" "Why isn 't it w.ritten in Korean?" "We used a lot of chinese long time ago." "We have no english version." "What's this?" "it looks like somebody's name." "It's your name," "JOO Seong-chan, your name in chinese." " My name?" " Yes" "How. about this one?" "It's the name of adoptive parents in Australia." "So, basically, there 's nothing about my parents at all?" "I'm afraid I have to say 'No '" "Since the termination ofparental rights w.as filed by the orphanage, even if there is, w.e are legally prohibited from disclosing confidential information to others." "Hey, w.e 're talking about my personal records, right?" "I have a right to know." "w.ho my parents w.ere." "Don 't you think so?" "We have an obligation to protect your birth mother." "It w.as not you but your birth mother w.ho came to us, that's w.hy w.e have to protect her rights first." "Could you at least find out whether his parents are alive or not?" "They probably remarried and have a new family." "And in Korea if this gets found out their family can break apart." "It is not good to disturb them w.ith problems from the past." "This is Korean society and you must try to understand." "Problems?" "You're saying I'm one of those problems?" "You know." "w.hat the real problem is?" "Look, look, take a look closer!" "this is w.hat a called problems." "One person 's life on one single paper." "you guys w.ere so proud to export me 30years ago and now." "I'm a disgrace in this society?" "I'm supposed to be a secret?" "Is that w.hat you're saying?" "Please calm dow.n, Mr Fedora." "We are only w.orking for w.omen and their children in need of support." "hey, w.hat about their future?" "I mean those children..." "Have you ever thought about them?" "They're like trees that roots been torn apart!" "No matter how. much w.ater you give them they're gonna dry out." "I'm sorry I w.as not able to help you, but please feel free call or e-mail our office any time ifyou have any further questions." "ZIA" "PARK Sang-hoon" "KIM Ye-ri" "LEE Hw.a-shi PARKJi-yeon" "Lucas." "Let's start all over again." "I w.ish w.e could... start a family and have a baby..." "Hey." "Can you remember anything back from w.hen you w.ere three?" "I got no memories about the first 3years of my life." "And you know. that it's a big difference between not being able to remember and having nothing to remember" "family..." "Well, I'm not ready yet." "Can't you think of me more?" "Why are you so anxious?" "Look at me!" "I've been fighting for 30 years!" "Every single second of my life," "I tried so hard not to fail my parents" "I w.on't be abandoned again!" "And I've been searching for this missing part of my life cos'I thought it w.ould... answ.er all my questions..." "That's why we need each other." "So that I can help you..." "Please..." "Help me to help you." "We need some time aw.ay from each other" "right now...." "I need to get some sleep." "Here I go, three!" " Yeah!" " Come here." "Are you okay?" "You always lose." "Hurry up!" "Here I go, two!" "You're in a black hole." "One, two, three." "It's my turn." "Here I go." "Four!" "Hi, may I help you?" "Is there an orphanage in Daegu City called Daesungwon?" "Daesung Orphanage?" "Yes." "Just a moment." "Hi." "Hello." " Are you the one who called?" " Yes." "This way please." " You've found yourway." " Yes." "Please go on in." " Hello." " Hello." "It's so hot." "Have a seat overthere." "What happened to today's event?" "We plan to go rollerblading." "Are the preparations going well?" "Give us tea." " Something cool." " Yes." "It's hot." "Daegu is usually hot." "And summer's already over." "Ah, business card?" " Here's my card." " This is mine." "Are you a photographer?" "Yes." "I'm having a photo exhibition on adoptees and their birth mothers." "And I heard that this is a centerthat cares for potential adoptees." "You can't take pictures here." "Right, of course." "Don't worry." "Since potential adoptees are generally underthree years old, temporary child-protection centers" "like this have been promoted." "Long ago, orphanages used to just send them away but now things are stricter." "Actually, one of my friends went through here." "What's his name?" "His name..." "Joo Seong-chan." "Even the adoption agency had no documents on his parents." "Yes, there are far less deserted children lately." "But when times were hard long ago, kids were deserted in front of rich homes, or at parks full of people." "But those were conscientious cases." "A few days ago, a child was found in a garbage can." "He was wrapped with vinyl with his umbilical cord." " Director!" " Yes?" "This room is for kids underthree years old." "That room is for kids under seven." "They've all gathered to watch TV today." "The back room is for newborn babies." "Can I go in and see?" "Well, there's a sick child." "It'll be for a moment." "Okay, you can go in, but do it quietly." "Thank you." " Leave your camera here." " Yes." "Hi, may I help you?" " A room..." " Yes?" "Where's the TMO?" "Go to the left and you'll find it." "Okay." "Vacancy?" "What kind of room are you looking for?" "The cheapest." "If you go right from East Daegu station, there are a lot of new motels." "No matter how cheap they are, the prices aren't that different." "A hospital near..." "Hospital?" "What kind of hospital?" "Pediatrics, internal medicine..." "Fatima Hospital has them all, including obstetrics and gynecology." "It takes 15 minutes by foot." "Fatima Hospital..." "Just a moment." "Motel" "Once a man had a spasm in his leg and I thought he came back alive." "I was so frightened." "A guilty conscience needs no accuser." "It wasn't him, but my hand that had a muscle spasm." "He couldn't wake up." "Since he slept like a corpse for at least 10 hours." "A cruel person like me who tried to poison someone gets scared over no big deal..." "I wonder if I'm myself or not during those times." "I feel very down today." "Since a foreigner crawled in here..." "Don't torture yourself too much." "Since life is cruelerthan us." "Hello," "hello!" "Somebodythere?" "They said the baby is big and healthy." "The heartbeat is strong." "Yeah, it swelled a lot." "The doctor said it weighs 2.7 kg, so I need to eat a lot." "Joo So-yeun!" "Joo So-yeun!" "The baby's hands and feet wriggle." "The nose looks firm like mine." "It's so cute." "Ga-yeun, dance for us." " Let's go, Ga-yeun." " Ga-yeun, it's daddy." "Let's go take a picture." "Let go of me!" "Kill me instead!" "You bastards!" "You made me into a cripple!" "How could you take my money?" "You thieves!" "You rotten bastards..." "Hello." "I'd like a room." "A room?" "Are you a foreigner?" "Yes..." "No!" "No, no..." "Korean..." "I'm Korean..." "What is your name?" "Lucas Fedora." "Lu..." "Lucas." " Lucas?" " Yes." "How long are you going to stay?" "Don't know yet." "In fact, I can stay here." "Yes, for some reason, but..." "I can stay here." "But, if my hope..." "I can't understand anything you're saying." "I'm sorry but could you speak english?" "Mister!" "It is too quiet here." "Quiet place here?" "Do you need some help?" "Your Korean is very bad." "I left Korea when I was a baby." "Korean is not so good." "I didn't know any Koreans." "Are you frustrated?" "Lonely?" "Feel it?" "Feel it?" "You feel it?" "Sometimes!" "It's none of your business." "I don't care." "It's ok" "Because..." "I can meet my friends." "And family?" "I can talk to my family." "Don't worry." "No problem." "Did you register the guest book?" "We have a customer." "You must've come forthe casino." "He's a foreigner." "He doesn't know Korean well." "No, no." "I am Australian, but I am a Korean." "This motel..." "How old is it?" "I'm going to stay here for about 10 days." "What's your purpose of visit?" "I'll stay for about 10 days." "Do you have a room?" "This place is more like a boarding house than a motel." "You have stay for at least a month." "I will." "Would you like a room with a window or not?" "A room... with a window." "And a mattress?" "Yes." "No smoking in the room." "No drinking." "No entering other rooms." "No visitors." "Set your cell phone at vibration mode or mute." "There's a 10,000 won fine for lost keys." "Cooking on the roof..." "Damn it." "Damn it." "Look at this." "I'll do it." "Take good care of the garbage." "Yes." "Call me if you're out for a long time." "Yes, thank you." "Excuse me, sir." "I'll change the towels and water." "Did you change the room?" "Would you like me to change your room?" "No, no..." "Did you fix up the room again?" "I repaired it." "Almost new." "There was a fire, you see." "The waterfacilities and electricity are a mess." "Sometimes the electricity suddenly goes out, so press the bell when it does." "There are candles downstairs." "There are a lot of mosquitoes here." "Some people asked for a refund later." "A lot of people felt unpleasant." "But I didn't get upset about it." "In fact, we hesitated about whether we should accept guests." "Not long ago, we were thinking about closing down." "Closing down?" "The two of us have gotten sick of this place." "I'm fed up." "It was in the middle of the night." "The cry of a newborn baby echoed from the stable." "By the angel's words..." "Neh..." "Neh..." "You know.back inAustralia" "I alw.ays getthisstrange feeling cos'I looked different from my cousins, myfriends even myfamily." "I'd look in the mirror like 100 times a day" "I w.as so confused because I w.as w.hite" "just same as rest of my family." "So first time w.hen I came to Korea... actually came back to Korea," "I spent most of the time just looking at people on the street." "And again I get this strange feeling again." "But this time I don 't look different." "In fact I feel like one of them." "And that also made me to look in the mirror like 100 times a day." "It's funny. isnt it?" "w.hy are you locked up in this kind ofplace?" "You're probably hungry." "I'll go cook dinner for you." "There was once a mother who was submerged in sorrow" "Her grieving heart moved closer to the tears of the cross... to the tears of the cross" "Her grieving heart moved closer to the tears of the cross" "A knife pierced her painful heart Chan!" "A knife pierced her painful heart" "There was once a mother who was submerged in sorrow" "This scarred blessed soul The Mother of Christ" "Yes?" "Who is it?" "Please open the door." "Just a moment." "Are you pregnant?" "Pardon?" "You better go to a maternity hospital." "Try to understand things from our perspective." "What will people say?" "If people say this place is for single mothers, nobody will come." "Please leave before you have the baby." "Are you all right?" "What happened?" "I think you misunderstood this" "He's exercising a little by himself." "Yes, right." "Okay, thanks for the favor." " A nursing home..." " I came for some medicine." "One moment please." "About what I said before, thanks forthe favor." "Okay, bye." "Give me sleeping pills." "Why?" "Can't sleep?" "How much do you need?" "One bottle." "Do you have a prescription?" "No." "I can't dispense it without a prescription." "Please give it to me." "Can't you just give it to me?" "Go." "Please give me the pills." "You think I'm crazy?" "Want me to go to jail for giving sleeping pills to a pregnant woman?" "Go." "Get out of here." "Why are you crying here and causing a scene?" "Am I your mother?" "Baby." "Don't be scared." "I'll go with you till the end." "Lucas" "Lucas" "I brought a cup of tea." "Lucas" "Lucas, Lucas Fedora." "Lucas Fedora." "You know. my name, right?" "Can you say itproperly?" "say it, Lucas Fedora" "Yes." "I'll remember it, sir." "Why?" "!" "Why did you do this to me, w.hy?" "Why did you put me into this misery again?" "Have a good trip, sir." "No, w.ait!" "No, please!" "No..." "I didn't mean to." "Don't leave me like this." "I'm so scared." "I feel like losing myself." "I'm so lost in." "Your smell." "Can't you feel it?" "I can feel it." "It's so familiar." "I've been looking for this all the time." "Please, please!" "Don 't you leave me like this." "please!" "Don 't you leave me like this." "please!" "please!" "I'm begging you." "Don 't you leave me like this." "please!" "please!" "I'm begging you." "Please!" "Don 't you leave me like this." "please!" "Is this the end?" "Did you drink the tea?" "Yes." "It was good." "I'll take the tea cup for you." "Only if you hadn't drank it..." "I had a pleasant stay." "I'm leaving tonight." "It must've been painful." "He's still alive." "We can still save him." "We'll die if he lives." "Mother, you're too emotional." "How can you live in this filthy world with such a mind?" "You gave me birth, and then bred up seed from the one you brought into the w.orld." "Quickly, hide me somew.here outside Thebes, kill me," "throw. me into the sea w.here you w.ill never see me again." "Would've been easier if we had used the cart." "The cart can't go that far up there." "They sell small one-wheel carts at the market." "Come on!" "Wait." "Get up!" "Mother." "Mom." "Don't fall asleep." "I'm hungry." "It's all over now." "If you fall asleep, you'll catch a cold." "Mom." "Mom." "Shall we cross the sea and live in a warm country?" "We can't communicate." "It's no different from here." "I want to rest." "Mom." "Mom." "Don't fall asleep and wait here." "I'll be back soon, okay?" "Lord, it's your child so take care of him." "Mother." "Mother." "Mother!" "Mother!" "Hey, how old are you?" "Let me see." "Let me see." "Let me see!" "How old are you, babe?" "Let me touch your breasts!" "Let me grab them!" "What are you talking about?" "I heard there are no records of his mother." "Well, I found them." "According to our records, a nun had brought him here on September 8, 1981." "The nun had written down the baby's birthday, mother's name, and permanent address at the Chartres Covenant." "How can this be?" "Forthe past 30 years he thought he was abandoned on the streets!" "While records move around at different institutes there can be errors." "Unnecessary data can be removed." "The foster parents feel less burdened if the child has no relations." "Is there any other information?" "There is a photo of him when he was a child." "If you come, I'll show it to you." "Sister Lucilla, how are you?" "Hello." "Can you rememberthe children you raised here 30 years ago?" "Yes, I can." "Afterwe ran a nursery 30 years ago, so many came to us when we became a temporary home for abandoned kids." "We couldn't handle them." "At times ten newborn babies would come in within 24 hours." "We also had a limited number of beds." "If ten came in within 24 hours, sixty babies filled up a room within a week." "Since there was no room, we'd lay five kids on the steam heater." "We'd spread blankets on the floor for 10 children to go to sleep." "We laid at least six children down on grown-up beds." "And then..." "Would you rememberthem ifyou heartheir names?" "Ifyou lay down sixty babies, all the newborn babies look alike." "People don't know who is who." "Even at the hospital, they have trouble differentiating the babies." "Kids who are newly-born all look the same." "So if sixty kids are like this and I leave them for a moment, they're all in different places when I come back." "So I touch their heads." "All sixty of the kids had different heads." "So I feel their heads and then put them back in their places." "Do you rememberthis child?" "Isn't that Sung-chan?" "He looks so cute." "Is he really Sung-chan?" "Then I raised him." "He was about a month old, and was malnourished." "I gave him special care." "I fed him grinded rice water mixwith milk." "Days later his face got chubby." "I heard he went to Australia when he was three years old." "I think someone said he came here a month ago to look for his mom." "Yes?" "Did he come here?" "Yes, he did." "He looked at the records and said he was going to find his mother." "He said he was going to Kangwon Province by train." "Where did you get this baby?" "Where did you steal it?" "I didn't steal him." "Were you raped?" "If you don't tell the truth, you can go to jail." "You even know what a baby abandonment crime is?" "I don't know." "Offenders of this crime are sent to jail fortwo years." "If you add injury, it's a maximum 7-year sentence." "If you cause death, it's at least three years of hard labor." "Either report the child at city hall, or I'm forced to inform your parents." "Can't you help me?" "At least until the baby can walk..." "Please." "Send the baby when he doesn't know who the parents are." "I'll help so that you can find him later on." "Write down your name and birthday in detail." "Excuse me." "Who are you?" "Hello, I'm just a traveler." "I came all the way here to look for someone." "This place is very quiet." "Don't worry, stop crying." "Is my baby very hungry?" "Stop crying." "Why isn't any milk coming out of me?" "Are you with your baby?" "The baby is crying forfood, but no milk is coming out." "I'll help you." "Shall I buy some milk?" "Can you?" "I'll be right back." "Wait a moment." "Hello!" "Anybody inside?" "Ma'am!" "Ma'am!" "Anybody inside?" "Please help me!" "Is there anybody?" "Is there anybody?" "Ma'am!" "Ma'am!" "Five this fall, including twins." "Are they boys or girls?" "Boys." "Are twins hereditary?" "I heard twins follow the mother's side." "But lately the trend is having test-tube babies." "Lucas." "How. do you say 'crow.ded'in korean?" "crow.ded?" "Bok-jap-hae come again?" "Bok" " Bok" " Bok" " jap - jap" " hae - hae" "Bok-jap-hae" "Bok-jap-hae, Bok-jap-hae" "Did you make an appointment w.ith the agency?" "Day aftertomorrow.." "I got stomach cramps." "What's w.rong?" "It's the time ofthe month." "I like your belly." "you've got too many questions" "Seal your mouth and save your soul" "These walls of shame squeeze your pain as always it makes you cry like a child where does this blood flow?" "it won't stop until it does" "Rain started to fall on your head pouring down again" "Here comes the light in your eyes makes you blinded" "Inside you're drying out you're dying... you've got too many faces" "no one knows who you really are take off your mask and show yourself your reckless mind needs some rest when will it end boy?" "you won't stop til you die" "Rain started to fall on your head pouring down again" "Here comes the light in your eyes makes you blinded" "Inside you're drying out you're dying..." "Seal your mouth and save your soul"