"Nina." "Nina." "Dain is dead." "BEFORE SOMEWHERE ELSE" "Come quick, Nina!" "Hurry!" "Hurry!" "Come!" "Nina." "Hurry." "Come here." "Quick." "Hurry." "Hurry." "Hurry." "Captain Lingard?" "So?" "Not yet." "It's getting dangerous." "Especially the jungle." "There are rebels." "So, Chen, still angry?" "You'll get overit." "But I'll make it." "Soon, you'll be rich." "We can't leave Nina in this dump." "You came to take Nina from me." "I'll give herback to you, Gaspard." "You'll take herto Europe as a rich man." "No one will think ofhermixed blood then." "In the meantime, we have to give her an education." "Awhite girl's education." "Your so-called adopted daughter, this Malaysian, you gave her a white education too!" "Wasn't it forthe best?" " She forgot it all." "Rejected it all with rage." "Nina is the only one I love and who loves me." "Yes, she loves me." "I hoped you'd become a man when I made you marry Zahira." "I hoped you'd both be happy." "I didn't want her." "And I was right." "Maybe." " I was right." "When I told you about the goldmines that you'd have if you married her, you didn't hesitate." "You married her." "You married the Malaysian, as you called her." "You couldn't even rememberhername but you married her." "That's true." "You don't know how to love." " I tried." "You could've been happy." "With that woman!" "That Zahira!" "That's right, with that Zahira!" "She scares me." "She disturbes me." "Yes, she does." "She keeps staring at me." "Her... her eyes have something..." "Her eyes are deep and beautiful." "No, they're fixed and black." "And they say nothing." "Herfixed gaze, it's like death." "Gives me chills down my spine." "Chills!" "You're the one who's cold!" "Captain... when I thought of a woman alone in my bed at night," "when I felt desire, a desire that tormented me in my lonely nights," "I saw a gentle woman, with hairpulled back," "a big forehead, calm and smooth," "and I caressed her and screamed my love to her." "And I exploded." "You screamed and you exploded!" "You screamed alone and you exploded alone." "Yes, I screamed." "I neverfelt like a man with her." "Except when I forced her so that her eyes would finally express something, any feeling, even pain." "And what did you think about when you screamed alone?" "Huh, what, who?" "And without forcing herlike a brute." "About a white woman, like yourmother, with cleartransparent eyes." "You traded your dream oflove formoney." "Well, I have to take Zahira away from you." "From your dead body." "I'm going on a new expedition and you'll have what I promised." "And you'll leave with your daughter." "You've been saying that foryears." "And there is still no gold." "I'm the only white in the area." "No one wants to do business with me." "As if I didn't exist..." "And I'm here with this woman." "We don't speak." "Ever." "Or else we fight." "Only Nina gives me joy." "You want to take her." "I won't survive it." "You won't get Nina." " I'm taking her..." "She'll go to boarding school." "She'll learn languages, life." "She can't live here like a savage." "When she comes back, she'll know more than you." "And you'll go to Europe." " She'll learn about life..." "What life?" "You'll go to the theatre, the opera, whereveryou want." "To the "Cafê de la Paix" in Paris, it's next door." "Yes, to Europe." "Paris..." "London, if you wish." "Paris..." "London..." "Call her!" "Nina..." "Nina." "Zahira." "Nina..." "Nina." "Zahira must've heard the boat." "She knew, one day, I'd come for Nina." "These fucking palm trees." "Half-rotten." "This humidity." "I can't stand them anymore." "This riverthat burns and shines..." "It burns the eyes, this endless river." "At the end, the sea!" "She won't leave." "She's my daughter." "This green river." "Yellowish." "I neverliked green." "And the shadows of trees that lie upon it and move." "If only they'd stop moving..." "I neverliked this yellow green." "This mud." "You made me leave the city." "You told me... it's fucked!" "One can't escape war." "On the first day, I puked on the bridge, and you told me, you'll get used to it." "Get used to it, you said." "Sure, I got used to it." "Rich, rich, you'll be rich." "You'll have it all, you'll do what you want." "Rich." "And I said yes." "I still said yes." "Move!" "And these mosquitoes!" "I've got malaria now!" "I am a European, a Frenchman," "I feel alone, like a dog." "You messed with my head." "I didn't want this Malaysian." "But you described a world forme..." "full ofrichness." "Where everything was possible, where everything was lost." "Except money." "Move!" "They're going to get away!" "You put me here, you told me, wait, you're not made forthe sea." "Here, you'll do business in the meantime." "Me, business!" "I must find my daughter." "I couldn't sleep and yourwords rolled in my head..." "Move!" "And I said yes..." "I was so young, I was tempted." "You will love her, you told me." "Malaysian ornot, you'll love her." "And when she loves, her eyes burn and laugh." "Well, she doesn't laugh with me." "And her eyes are dull." "Her skin, I can't remember." "Move!" "Yeah, I'm moving." "And you won't get her." "Never." "You hear?" "Never!" "She's my daughter." "My daughter." "My daughter!" "My Nina!" "No!" "I don't want." "No!" "It got worse and worse without Nina." "Almayerbarely spoke." "And ifhe spoke, it was to himself, orin a fever." "The silence in that house was terrible." "He got more and more miserable." "Sometimes he wrote to her but didn't send the letter." "Sometimes he'd say "Tomorrow, I'll go see her"." "But he thought that, now that she'd started her studies it would be betterto leave herthere." "It was herlaugh that he missed most in the hostile silence of the house." "One day, I saw Nina behind the boarding school gate." "She wasn't laughing." "Nina, stand straight." "Nina, be quiet." "Nina, walk slower." "Nina!" "We're going to capsize, Dain." "I feel the storm coming." "You'll come with me." "You'll no longerlive in the world of whites." "Yes." "I'm not white." "And I waited foryou..." "You might've never come." "Never entermy father's house." "I promised him we'd look forthe goldmine together." "And you will?" "Yes." "It's yourfather." "I'll do it." "And you, will you never change?" "No." "Never." "Nina!" "We're going to capsize, Dain." "I feel the storm coming." "You'll come with me." " Yes." "You'll no longerlive in theirworld." "I am not white." "You will live with me." "I am not white." "Yes, I waited foryou..." "You might've never come." "Never entermy father's house." "I promised him we'd look forthe gold mine together." "And you will?" "You will never change?" "No." "Never." "I'm going to leave." "Forlong?" " I don't know." "Will you wait forme?" " Yes." "Where are you going?" "What will you do?" "It's betteryou don't know anything." "Nina." "Nina." "We're going to grow mangoes," "I heard it pays well, and God knows when Lingard will be back." "And Lingard?" " He's on an expedition." "That's all I know, Gaspard..." "A letterfrom him." ""All is well, I'm getting there." "I saw Nina, she's becoming a beautiful young girl." "Soon it will be time to bring herback." "One day, men will flock at herfeet."" "Captain!" "Captain!" "Captain!" "Shut up, poor crazy woman." "Do you know where he put her?" "No." "She's not a young girl." "Not yet." "Herteeth haven't grown back yet." "She's still my little girl." "My wife is mad." "I must grow them, I must grow them!" "Mangoes, Ali, mangoes!" "Yes, master." "They'll grow." "And all will be fine." "I'm not dead yet." "We're closed." "I know." "It's for Nina, Nina Almayer." "You're already late." "It won't happen again." "Otherwise, we won't keep her." " It won't happen again." "She must stay here." "Become one of us." "One of us..." "Never." "So, Chen." "Always in my way." "I hit you," "I humiliated you on the boat." "I laughed in front of the others when you puked." "And then I gave you to Gaspard to take care of Zahira and Nina." "You haven't forgotten, Chen." "Me neither." "I'm going to die, right, Chen?" " Yes." "You'll give that to the Captain Tom Lee." " Yes." "Nina was getting more and more miserable." "Nina, the first two measures, I said." "What are you doing here?" "And in what state!" "They kicked me out," "Lingard didn't pay formy board." "He's dead." "Dead." "I thought he was never going to die." "What are you going to do?" "I don't know yet." "Work." "Like everybody else." "No, I won't go back to the boarding school." "Ever." "They spied on me." "At the table." "In my bed." "My accent, my way of walking." "Especially my way of walking." "You had to put the heel down first, then the toes." "Orthe contrary." "I could never get used to it." "They called me Tomboy, even Savage sometimes." "Not a real girl." "Real girls aren't like that." "Smiling, the head slightly tilted." "Not straight, never straight." "And never everlook into the eyes." "And say yes." "Not no." "And the blood, when it happened, you had to hide it, not to talk about it." "But be proud ofit." "Rosa rosa rosam, it was useless." "And yet, I learned, if I'm the best, I'll manage, I told myself." "And I was the best, but forthat too they resented me." "And there was always that beef with carrots." "Beef with brown sauce." "Sticky." "The smell." "Made me retch." "De viris Illustribis Urbis Romae." "The wars of Caesar." "The Emperorwho, in the end, got killed by the man he loved." "I had to learn everything by heart." "I didn't want to." "Neitherthe beef, northe salad with vinaigrette, northe coffee with boiled milk." "Rosa rosa rosam." "And our Fatherwho is in Heaven." "My fatherwas not in Heaven." "He no longer existed." "The beef with carrots." "Every Thursday." "Friday fish." "That day I always said I wasn't hungry." "But I was hungry." "I was starving." "I had never enough." "All the time." "And then I stained my dress." "Rosa rosa rosam." "And ou Fatherwho is in Heaven with the broken windows." "How come she came back all of a sudden?" "I don't know." "And, in yourplace, I wouldn't ask." "You know, mixed-race girls don't have it easy." "How come?" "I mean, amidst white people." "It's not always easy." "Do you have news from Lingard?" "You don't know, he's dead." "He was sick, he died." "Lingard, dead..." "My daughter's come back and something awful has happened to her." "I can feel it." "Lingard is dead and so is my business." "What kind oflife will I give her?" "A girl raised in the city." "A girl who has heard me speak of Europe since birth." "I was dreaming." "I should never have dreamed like that." "You dreamed forher." "Forher and foryou." "Europe." "What makes you think you would've been happy there?" "Nobody." "My mother spoke ofit as ifit was paradise." "Someone hurt her." "I'm sure ofit." "Not a smile." "A close face." "Like a stone." "Something's happened to her." "Maybe I never should've sent herto that school." "But she needed an education, right?" "Afathermust educate his daughter." "True, it didn't do hermother any good." "But Nina was luckier, she's half-white, right?" "Orless, maybe." "Less." "And Lingard's dead." "Is he really dead?" "Yes." " Really?" "Yes." "Before he died, he gave me this diary foryou." "He told me you'd understand." "The road to the mines." "I'll find a way." "I'll get my daughter out of this misery." "I love her." "I've neverloved like that." "She is beautiful." "I've never seen anyone so beautiful." "Have you seen herhair, how long and beautiful it is!" "Before, without her, I was dead." "Living dead all these years." "Now she is here." "Now I'll live again." "And I'll find the way." "I'm still young." "Still strong." "Yes, I'm strong." "It's Abdullah, he's celebrating his nephew's return from Mecca." "What a racket." "The music is beautiful." " How can you say that!" "One day, I'll take you to a real concert." "Chopin, Debussy." "Not this racket." "I've forgotten." "I don't know anymore." "It's Abdullah, what does he want from me?" "Abdullah wanted Nlna for his nephew." "Almayer didn't want to give him his daughter." "Abdullah told him he should be happy, a mlxed-race girl with no dowry." "We all know how such girls end up." "No, Almayer did not know." "In the gutter, Abdullah told him." "In the gutter." "Master, this man is dangerous." " No." "Yes." "I can feel it." "I bet he's wanted." "He's an insurgent." "Orhe's smuggling drugs." "No." "He's going to help us." "He promised me." "He has strong men and a good boat with at least 100 horsepower." "Hearthat, it's Chopin." "You are not white." "At least wish me good luck." "And Almayer started waiting for Daln." "Master, come eat." "I'm not hungry." "The storm is close and Dain Maroola won't be able to come back." "He'll come back." "How do you know?" "Dain!" "Dain!" " Yes, I'm here." "Go to the pier." "What's wrong?" "Where's yourboat?" "Has something happened to it?" "And yourmen?" "What about yourmen?" "You're not going to abandon me." "Not now." "Dain!" "It will calm down, it must." "It will calm down." "Dain!" "Dain!" "Dain!" "There's a dead body!" "It's Dain!" "How do you know?" "The head's been ripped off." "It's him, I recognize him." "Look, it's his ring." "Why are you looking at me like that?" "I'm not crazy." "Don't look at me like that." "What is it?" "You know what it's like to look for something... and neverfind it?" "Ever!" "Give me some gin..." "It's all overnow." "I give up." "Dain is dead, no one will everhelp me." "And you, Nina, you don't care." "You have no hopes?" "You have no heart." "Are you happy to live in this dump?" "Say something, Nina." "Say something." "I love you, I love you so much." "It was foryou, foryourhappiness." "Nothing, not even one tenderword." "I don't understand you." "I don't understand anything." "As if you didn't care." "Sometimes, I wonder if you're really my daughter." "But then I wouldn't feel it burning inside me." "Yes, I'm going mad." "You're both right." "Go away." "Leave!" "He fell asleep." "Go now." "Go meet Dain by the Bulangi creek." "No, I don't love him." "But he loves you." "And he's in danger." "He's wanted." "The night seems threatening." "Like every othernight." "But tonight he waits foryou." "He waits forme." "So what?" "So, go." "He'll take you somewhere you can live." "I..." "I don't feel well." "Go, Nina, go." "You have to go." "Go..." "He won't leave without you." "And ifhe stays, he'll be killed." "I've lived with a man who didn't love me." "I've been a white man's slave." "You were the only thing bonding us." "Without you, there was nothing." "You're leaving." "I won't see you again." "But you must go." "You must save yourself." "You'll neverwalk through this courtyard again." "You'll never set foot in this cursed house." "Someone's there, listening to us." "You're not white." "You'll neverbe white." "Forget theirwords." "Theirthoughts." "Hurry, leave while the riveris moonless." "There are two paddles in the boat." "Mom, will I see you again?" " No." "And you?" " Don't worry about me." "Master, wake up!" "Master!" "What do you want, what are you saying?" "Nina has disappeared." "And Mrs. Almayertoo." "She won't come back." "She left to join Dain Maroola." "Dain is dead." "No, and your daughteris gone." "She won't come back." "And you won't ever see her again." "Wake up." "Wake up." "They're looking forhim." "And your daughteris with him." "Mrs. Almayerleft without saying goodbye." "Dain is dead." "My daughteris here." "Nina!" "Nina!" "Zahira!" "Don't look at me like that." "Stay here." "Father!" "You want to kill me, Almayer." "Like an animal..." "Awild animal." "Nina, come." "Come here." "Come." "Leave him." "Run away." "Come and we will be together." "We'll forget this nightmare." "And you'll be my little girl again." "The joy and meaning of my life." "Do you know what awaits you with him?" "He's not a man foryou." "He'll mistreat you, he'll cheat on you." "In a few years you won't matterto him." "And he isn't white." "Come with me to Europe and there, I'll find you a man." "A man who will love you." "All his life." "And we'll live together." "It's too late." "Nina is my wife now." "Your daughter gave herself like a woman who loves a man." "Yes, I know." "But she doesn't love you." "She neverwill." "She doesn't love anyone." "Nina, between you and him, there's a barrier." "Aworld." "Nothing can make it disappear." "I see madness in your eyes." "Like people who kill themselves." "Don't smile." "You want to break my heart?" "If I saw you drowning, that's how I'd feel." "Don't say that." "I'm asking you forthe last time." "Come back to yourfather." "Yourfatherwho loves you like no one everwill." "Each day I waited foryou to come and get me." "I didn't know." "You should have." "You ask me why I want to leave?" "Why should I stay?" "Why?" "Yes, why?" "Endless words oflove." "But actions, never." "I couldn't understand." "I didn't want to be among white faces who made me suffer... each day at boarding school." "When you spoke to me, I felt nothing." "And then Dain came along..." "I don't love him, not yet." "Not really." "Maybe I neverwill." "But I want to live." "And I'm going to follow him." "Fornow, anyway." "He loves me and me, my heart is dead." "It died in that prison I was locked up in." "He loves me." "And he looks at me with joy and strength and desire..." "Foryears I was rejected by people like you, who dreamed ofleaving and being amongst each other." "They made fun of Asian quarters, found them filthy, crawling with vermin." "That's all they saw." "And they screamed it at me." "I don't believe you." "It's not true." "When you wake up, you will see." "The police is on its way." "They're going to kill you." "Is that what you want?" "Well, too bad, too bad, too bad." "I can't." "I can't." "I am white." "My daughter!" "I'll neverforgive you, Nina." "I'll try to forget I had a daughter." "I'll try to forget I had a daughter." "I'm going to take you to the sea." "You'll find a boat." "Careful, it's the police." "Now, let's go, paddle!" "I'll neverforgive you." "You broke my heart." "I no longerhave a daughter." "I didn't raise herforthis." "I don't have a daughter." "You'll neverforget me." "If I can't, I'll die." "The boat is coming." "Goodbye." "I neverhad a daughter." "Tomorrow I'd have forgotten." "I'm cold." "The sun is cold." "The sea is black." "Tomorrow I'd have forgotten." "Don't walk barefoot I said." "You're going to hurt yourself." "The snakes will bite you." "Not barefoot." "It's muddy."