"You must be astonished to receive this letter after so many years." "But don't be alarmed." "I faced a lot of difficulty trying to figure out how to com pose this letter." "For years I've been waiting to communicate to you." "I'm glad that I'm finally gathered this stranger to write to you." "I've been waiting for this moment for so long." "How are you Ruth?" "I am your father." "Goodness!" "It feels so strange even to mention this but I know you don't want to see me." "It hurts a lot to think that" "I am so far away from you and for so long." "During all these years that I've spent without you," "I've been tricking myself to believing that one day" "I'll have the opportunity to meet and talk to my little girl." "Excuse me?" "Yes." "Where do I pick up my passport?" "Next table." "Excuse me." "Is this where I pick up my passport?" "Wait in the line." "Thanks." "Photos?" "That's there too." "You speak Hindi?" "Yes, a little bit." "Marathi ?" "No." "Speak English, Original Passport?" "Where do I go Sir?" "Next counter." "Next!" "So, you want to renew your VISA?" "Yes, Sir." "Why?" "I really like India." "You also speak Hindi?" "Yes." "You know you can't work on a tourist visa, right?" "I know, Sir." "You know it." "You like India?" "Absolutely" "And, how about Indians?" "Hey England girl." "Come." "Where all will you travel?" "Only to Pune, Sir." "You tell us when you leave the city" "Sure." "But why you come so late to renew VISA?" "Sorry Sir, forgot about it." "Don't forget again." "I won't." "So, where else have you visited in the past year'?" "Just Pondicherry." "Pondicherry" "There is that place there no... for foreigners?" "Auroville." "What did you do there?" "Massage training." "Massage." "Yeah. like Swedish..." "Thai... massage." "And now back to Pondicherry?" "No sir." "Take this to your local police station." "Get the signature and bring it back here." "Thank you very much Sir." "Kal badevi ." "You're a Scorpio, no?" "I've read-up about Cancerians." "Not happening at all between us," "Linda Goodman also says the same thing." "The Sun signs woman..." "Love signs..." "Ruth..." "Swedish for the gentleman." "I'm telling you..." "there's no chance between us..." "Please take off your clothes and lie down." "Here is the towel." "Iran you through F.L.A.M.E. S, you know..." "If you put a double O in your name, it turns out to be E" " E for enemies." "And when you put a U, then it's S. Of all things," "Dream on..." "E it's not fuck, it's friendship." "Idiot!" "Your name is Ruth?" "Yes." "I am Lynn." "Hi Lynn." "Turn around please." "You want a handshake?" "What?" "Handshake..." "Handjob." "Thousand rupees." "Yeah." "Can I make a small donation to the Police Force?" "I mean... towards deceased Officers' widows?" "Umm... or anything else..." "We could help each other out...?" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Without wisdom, how will you cross over?" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Without wisdom, how will you cross over?" "You found a stone, made an idol to worship." "If that god had power, wouldn't it destroy you?" "You get coconuts to worship your god." "Two little pieces you give as an offering, the coconut you swallow whole!" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Without wisdom how will you cross over?" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "If you ask too many questions around here, people get suspicious." "These people are very insecure about how the world perceives them." "They've gone as far as registering their Lord's name." "People have even started selling Jeanswear in their Lord's name." "Let me quietly find out what I can do." "Let's keep in touch." "Whenever I find out something, I'll mail you." "You pray for a son, pledge a lamb in return." "Your father alive, was hungry, uncared for." "Hear me, says Kabir," "Hear me, says Kabir, seek and you shall find." "Hear me, says Kabir, seek and you shall find." "In this world tangled in delusion, the self cannot be seen." "Sir." "Come on Monday" "In this world tangled in delusion, the self cannot be seen." "The self cannot be seen." "You' re Maya?" "Yeah." "I'm Diwakar." "You helped her, thank you." "She's a nice girl." "Your turn, sing with an 'N'..." "Enough." "You'll break them." "Your muscles are getting along too." "How did it go in Pune?" "Nothing much." "They've gone as far as registering their Lord's name." "Turn." "It will take time." "It took me 8 months in" "Pondicherry... to know that Arjun Patel was in Goa." "Then what happened?" "Then it took me another 5 months to find out he'd left Goa for this Pune Ashram." "I have no clue how much time it will take here." "It was a good decision to come work here." "Surprise!" "Fuck." "I told you..." "Check out the clarity." "Yeah." "Who is the old man?" "Can you see the difference or not?" "You wait for a month and" "I'll install a Home Theatre here." "And blueray too." "Your home will become a private Cinemax." "Red Lounge." "What?" "Thanks." "Is this how you thank me?" "Come here, sit with me." "You smell good." "What is it?" "Nothing." "You have worn something." "Nothing, really." "I'll have to make sure." "Today..." "I'm not going to spare you today." "Did you notice my tie?" "Jim Nlorrisson..." "Wore it especially for you." "What's ihat?" "Condom" "What's with you?" "You know I can't do it." "How will you know you can't do it unless you try it." "Trust me baby.." "we will take it slow." "No." "Do you trust me or not?" "No..." "Don't worry, nothing's going to go wrong." "No..." "Baby, lust relax." "Leave me... get off me." "I said no." "What the fuck is your problem?" "What do you want me to do?" "And then you complain that you don't see me enough." "Sex all the time!" "I mean...why...why does it always have to be about sex?" "Always?" "It should be about it for once." "No!" "No!" "Babyl am so frustrated." "What the fuck you want me to do?" "You want meto go fuck somebody else?" "No." "What is it that you want?" "You lust want me to sit and stare at your face all day.." "What do I do?" "Prashant." "Whatis it?" "Take off your pants and lie down." "And?" "You don't have to stay frustrated." "You're going to give me your massage." "Like your clients?" "Please." "Give me some time." "I feel like it too..." "But... my mind is preoccupied with my father..." "Slowly, we will do..." "Can you not talk?" "Yeah, yes... baby..." "Phone..." "Just be quiet." "Yeah...tell me..." "What?" "But it's Chittliapa's stash." "What if we get caught?" "No... do whatever stupid shit you guys want to" "I'll just wait in the car." "Yeah..." "I'll be there." "Baby, I've got to go." "Let's go." "Minging" "Mingin'" "Mingin'" "Minging" "Minging" "Mingin'" "Bloomin'" "Bloomin'" "Wanker" "Wanker" "Wanker" "Eh, where are you going?" "Isn't Bandra that way?" "No no Madam... we'll..." "uh... we'll take the right ahead." "Don't make a cunt out of me because I'm a foreigner." "What was that?" "Say that again." "Don't make a cunt out of me because I'm a foreigner." "Hello Madam." "How are you?" "Have you got your VISA?" "No." "No Visa yer:" "You know Madam , I was wondering... a week's holiday will do me good..." "Goa, Manali, Pondicherry..." "Only I wish the flights were cheaper." "How much is the ticket?" "Ten thousand?" "Oh... wow..." "You've kept it ready for me." "How about a ticket to New York?" "You might as well settle there." "Nice Madam." "Thank you." "New York" "Shot glasses and all..." "those..." "I had 6 of those..." "So I was like cool man he's into me and all." "And we're close to kissing and then you know what he says?" "He says, you know, you are very bootiful... and everytime I meet amazing women it takes time for me to tell them..." "And am like yeah yeah yeah, like whaa whaa whaa..." "He says, and he says - am gay." "Can you imagine it?" "Then I discovered he was bisexual." "And then I was like yeah, bitch, like what the fuck... after all that." "Hey Ruth, phone's been ringing for you non stop since morning." "Yeah." "Every one of them has been asking for you." "They want to know if Ruth Madam's free." "I want to take an hour off this afternoon." "No way!" "You say an hour and it becomes three." "I have to meet that Embassy guy." "Did you find anything out?" "No." "They must know something but they're not giving me any informaiion." "I can't believe you don't have a photograph." "A single photograph of your own father." "My mother hates him ." "Ruth Here comes your Wrangler boy." "Please come." "You have a nice smile." "Thanks." "I like your teeth." "Thanks." "It's sort of like Bugs Bunny meets Julia Roberts." "I like bugs bunny." "So, where do you stay?" "I really don't see what that's got to do with anything." "Oh..." "Look love, you want me to find your dad, don't you?" "Yes I do." "Well, I can get your address from your papers..." "Of course you can." "Look, am sorry.." "I lust get a bit paranoid, you know... being a young white girl in Bombay." "They ask a lot of dodgy questions." "Excuse me." "How's your mom?" "Fine." "Where is she?" "She lives in Brighton." "Oh..." "Brighton?" "Nice." "Very nice." "Any siblings?" "No." "My sister died years ago." "Oh..." "I'm sorry." "It's alright." "Years ago?" "How old was she?" "15..." "She killed herself." "That's when my dad left." "I don't think he could deal with her death, he loved her so much." "And mom lust went quiet on me after that, she refused to talk about him..." "I don't think she ever forgave him for leaving her." "She tore off all his memories." "Have a look at this..." "That's Emily, mom, me..." "That's my dad's hand." "That's a Rolex." "What?" "The watch. it's a Rolex." "My God..." "What..." "It must be costing 30 Lakhs.." "My God!" "It's a Rolex." "Hey." "Your dad's an Indian." "Yeah." "But he had a" "British passport which is why I called you." "He's bound to be listed in your records somewhere." "You know, there are lots of guys with British passports..." "Lots..." "A lot of them are affiliated to the Ashram." "But love, there isn't any Arjun Patel amongst them ." "Hi Lynn" "Hi" "Have you seen it in a car?" "What?" "Wheelie in a car?" "Like this, from the side?" "2 wheels hanging..." "Check out the salute..." "Awesome stuff!" "Who the hell are you lot?" "What are you doing in my house?" "Come sit down." "Sit down." "Sit sit sit..." "Fucker, which road in Bangalore is this?" "Indranagar." "Koramangala" " Indranagar." "The Ring road." "Is this Jaggesh?" "...Yeah yeah, it is." "Is this Jaggesh?" "No man, it's not Jaggesh." "It's somebody who looks like him." "Who are you?" "Ah..." "Chittiappa Siddanna Gowda." "Take it dear..." "Coffee coffee..." "Take take." "Very nice coffee." "People in Bombay have no clue about making coffee." "Sorry, I off the Sorry, sorry." "That's the AC remote..." "I know." "I on the A/C." "It's hot, no?" "Back there." "Where?" "You want the A/C set to Bangalore weather." "That's for the DVD player." "I know dear." "I know." "DVD player." "I get up to off the TV, I off the TV." "Please on it." "Good." "Up there, elder bro." "I know,I know." "This's the one." "Not offing only." "Hmm... puzzle." "Like Upendra picture." "Okay." "Not offing... not offing." "Beats the shit out of us." "A labyrinth." "Aah..." "Off!" "You girlfriend?" "Yes." "Where is boyfriend?" "He is not here." "I know." "I know he is not here." "I checked already Not here." "Where he is?" "I don't know." "You know." "You not telling." "I know you know." "But you not tell." "She's a dude." "Smart chicklet." "That is my money." "We already taken your money" "57,000." "In English please." "57,000" "Sit down... sit down, sit down." "I want it back." "That is my money I want it back." "Give it to me." "That is my hard earned money." "It's not that drug peddler's..." "You want?" "You want?" "Hey..." "Sit down." "Give it to us." "Look, look..." "Hey, hey." "Look, look." "Very hard money..." "I know." "Hey." "Very hard." "1000 rupees shake hand." "I know." "What do you want?" "I want you to say your name..." "Please." "Please say your name." "Ruth." "What?" "Ruth" "Nice." "I'm Chutiyapa." "Chutiyapa Gowda." "So Chuth..." "We already taken... 57,000" "Your boyfriend giving to me..." "One eighty minus fifty seven... 1 lakh 23 thousand." "Means, 123 shake hands." "I'm kind, no?" "So you pay in kind." "When you come?" "When do you want me to come?" "If you come today, it's too early..." "If you com e tomorrow, it's too late." "You pick the time." "Tick, tick, tick, tick... tick, tick, tick, tick... tick, tick, tick, tick..." "Sorry I can't take your call right now." "Please leave your message after the beep." "Thank you." "Prashant, it's Ruth." "Call me back." "You've seen 'Sadma' right?" "That's our story." "See I'm Sridevi and you are Kamal Hasan." "I must've been mad to have gone for dinner with you the other day..." "But now the tables have turned - you're the one who's running behind the train... fuckface, you've basically missed the train that I'm on..." "Excuse me." "Miss Sridevi..." "When will Ruth be here?" "She must be on her way..." "So..." "You don't get it, do you?" "Sorry sorry sorry.." "So terribly sorry to have kept you waiting." "Wow!" "I wish I could speak English the way you do." ""So sorry to have kept you waiting"." "You know what I would say?" "Sorry for delay." "Sorry for delay." "No problem" "I Know the traffic with this metrcr-shetro," "Skylab, sky walk, sky train coming up." "Firstly people in Bombay have no clue about driving..." "They honk the hell out of us..." "In this madness they also seem to forget how to drive." "The whole city turns into a huge driving school." "Yes." "And there's so much digging too." "Don't get me started about the digging." "God works in mysterious ways and so does the Municipality." "Digging here, digging there." "Where they haven't dug up today, they certainly will tomorrow." "God knows what Temple of Doom they're excavating!" "You know what I think?" "I sometimes think this must be some big" "Government conspiracy to fool us into believing that they are toiling for the people." "So that everybody thinks..." "what progress!" "India shining." "Have you ever passed by the Lucky signal?" "It's turned into a Bermuda Triangle." "What?" "Lucky signal." "The Bermuda Triangle, haven't you heard of it?" "There was a book on it." "In my days there was a film made on it too." "Yeah." "You know what used to happen there?" "What?" "Everything - huge ships, airplanes, people - everything used to disappear." "Nobody ever found out how." "Total chaos." "Radio transitions were lost, nobody could reach there." "Transmissions" "What at?" "Radio transmissions." "Yeah... the same thing." "You are right." "Turn over." "Your Hindi is getting better by the day." "Yeah." "Now even the vegetable vendors ask the pukka price." "Pukka price?" "it's 'the vegetable vendors ask the right price'." "Right price." "Thank you." "I see you haven't been doing the exercises I taught you." "I live on the 4th floor of a building that has no elevator." "It's quite an exercise climbing up." "Tires me out." "Diwakar..." "You need to take good care of your legs." "I'm banking on you for it." "Okay." "I feel rejuvenated." "You are too good, my dear." "What'll I do without you?" "I'll die for sure." "You're full of drama..." "a drama queen." "Now get going." "Thank you dear." "Bless you." "Hello..." "Girlfriend." "What dear?" "You not come only?" "Listen, going and coming back would take an hour that means one client." "Can you come here instead?" "Negotiations... is it?" "Hey, you son of a gun." "Alright dear..." "You calling I come." "Lynn." "Yes." "Do you ever smoke-up?" "No." "You know, sometimes I get this weird trips like now..." "I feel like I have shrunk." "You know..." "Like Alice in Wonderland." "Except, it's not me that's getting smaller." "It's the world that's getting larger and larger." "I lust can't find the one person I'm looking for." "I know." "I lust can't find him." "I don't mean to be rude, but can we not talk?" "I am in a hurry today" "I'm sorry." "Forgive me." "I am so stoned." "What the fuck!" "Baby.." "Is that you Ruth?" "There's nobody else, no?" "What the fuck have you done?" "I'm a jackass." "I'm such a jerk." "What is this Prashant?" "Where the hell were you?" "How many times have I been calling you..." "I'll do the cleaning." "Let me do it." "You chill, I'll do it." "God!" "Really, what's your problem?" "Are you retarded?" "I mean really, what do you want?" "What!" "What do you want from me?" "I'm talking to you damn it!" "I know." "You know shit!" "Why are you laughing?" "What's so funny Prashant?" "Tell me." "Nothing matters to you, nothing at all." "Where the fuck were you last night?" "Who was that clown, what's his name..." "Chutiyapa?" "Baby... baby..." "I'm sorry" "I'm sorry." "I fucked up." "They're looking for me." "I know." "Your Chutiyapa broke into the house, slapped me, grabbed my money" "and he forced me to have sex with him." "You did it?" "Not that sex." "How much money did he take?" "Fuck off!" "What's all this?" "I don't want to say sorry again." "Help me..." "I want to go clean." "I want to quit everything." "You're mad." "Help me please." "I was waiting in the car." "I'd told them I would only drive the car and not get involved." "After awhile an old man showed up and said come on." "You're wanted." "We'd heard that Chitiappa had gone to Karnataka." "But it turned out the bugger was right there." "He's the one who brought us here." "What did he tell you guys?" "He said there would be nobody there..." "He said there would be nobody there." "That we would score a lot of Hash." "Is that the cookie he gave you?" "And you losers lumped along?" "Take your shirt and pants off." "But Chitiappa took him in his gang." "Jayan agar." "How long have you been here?" "4 years." "Been 4 yrs, bro" "Small-time jobs, bro." "What do you mean small-time jobs?" "Like pussification?" "Writing too." "Son of a gun." "Writer." "A writer?" "You junkie bastard!" "Oh." "What the fuck have you written?" "Fuck that." "Sing a Dr. Rajkumar song." "Please let me go, bro." "Hey, stop. look here." "What's my stash worth?" "2 Lakhs." "2 Lakhs." "My stash you came to steal is worth 2 Lakhs." "Meaning, you'll pay me the 2 Lakhs." "What's my stash worth?" "2 Lakhs." "How much does that make you owe me?" "2 Lakhs." "When will you pay me?" "Where will I get the money from?" "I recovered 8 grams from your pocket." "Which is worth... 20 thousand." "20 thousand." "So the rest... 180." "180." "180." "When will I have it?" "If I don't give him his 1 Lakh 80 thousand he'll kill me." "What do i do?" "Where will I get that much money from?" "Your friends fucked you over." "I made a mistake okay." "I'm sorry." "I was drunk and coked-out." "And they were my friends." "They were cokeheads." "Baby.." "What baby baby baby..." "What can I do about it?" "I can't go home." "So?" "Let me stay here." "That way you can be with me everyday." "In the meanwhile I'll arrange for the money." "Please." "I want a ticket to Pune." "For when?" "The day after." "What is the name?" "Ruth" "H..." "U..." "H..." "U..." "T.." "H..." "G..." "H?" "T.." "H..." "You want a happy ending?" "Happy?" "I don't understand." "Do you want a handshake?" "A handjob?" "This..." "I don't understand." "Forget it." "Hello..." "Yes I know I got your missed calls." "How did you get this number anyway?" "Was his name Peter by any chance?" "No I'm fine..." "I'm lust traveling." "I needed to get out..." "To see things." "No mom. it's not the same everywhere." "Listen to me... yeah?" "You came to India when you were my age, right?" "So..." "Right." "So why can't you understand that I needed to..." "Because Mom you would never have let me go." "You don't let me go clubbing for fuck's sake." "Well you don't need to worry" "I saved up..." "From that summer job." "I was wondering when you were going to mention him." "Yes I know he's not dead." "No." "Not yet." "But I will." "How?" "How can you start on your Jesus crap when you've lied to me all these years'?" "No..." "No, am not listening to this." "No..." "You don't know." "Even better, become a Gigolo." "You'll make a lot of money" "Actually forget it." "Nobody would want your services anyway." "Are you nuts?" "Tell that useless boyfriend of yours to pay up." "He doesn't have that kind of money." "He should take responsibility no?" "It's his screw-up." "Doesn't make much of a difference." "It's an extra hand-job a day." "I know his type." "He won't take more than 2 minutes." "When's he coming?" "11 o' clock." "You know how Chitiyapa's father died?" "No." "As a kid, Chitiyapa..." "He used to live with his father." "The old man was an alcoholic." "Then one fine day, Chitiyapa wanted food, he was hungry." "And... where did he end-up?" "The local bar." "As soon as he entered the bar, a cylinder blast blew the shit out of him and nothing remained of him." "Chitiyapa kept waiting for 3 long days, he didn't have a clue." "Apparently, the stupid fuck observes a fast in the old man's memory on every New Moon." "Please hold..." "Ruth..." "Sir, Tea?" "Like this only..." "You do..." "Are you shy?" "You do no." "What is this?" "Lubricant." "What?" "Lubricant..." "Its soft..." "Comfortable..." "Soft..." "Okay.." "Do, you do." "No look, huh." "You only do." "Where should I look?" "The wall..." "Do." "Hey stop." "What happened dear?" "Sorry." "What happened?" "My father also used to say.." "Stand here and look at the wall." "He wouldn't let me move." "I was made to stare at the wall the whole day." "You no cry, huh.." "You do properly." "Nicely you do." "I used to stay with my father." "He was a drunk." "Drinking through the day." "We ran out of milk one day." "So, he went out to fetch some." "And on the way he started drinking." "He was driving and drinking." "He was drinking and driving." "When.." "He crashed into a Gas cylinder truck which exploded and killed him." "I lust kept waiting for him." "At times,I feel am still expecting him to come back." "What happened?" "Why did you stop me?" "What happened?" "No no." "I'm not into bearded men." "They look like goons." "These guys go around carrying guns only to throw their weight around." "Hmm.." "Imagine, the beard coming in-between every time one's eating.." "Disgusting shit!" "Are we leaving bro?" "Bro, what happened?" "Call for the lift." "It must be stuck upstairs." "I'll check on it, bro." "You go girl, go go please go.." "Sir, are you okay?" "Sir some water.." "Hey.." "Where's it, fucker?" "Sir, can I get you something?" "Sir, come again." "You're a mean one Ruth." "Downstairs." "Hey hey hey.." "What're you doing?" "Sorry." "Sorry ma'am." "It's my house." "I didn't know." "Listen!" "Use the loo inside." "Thank you." "Please com e.." "Right ahead.." "On your left." "Hello." "Who was he?" "Who knows." "He wanted to pee." "What, you don't even know him?" " No." "And you let him in?" "He was aiming for the door." "You should've kicked him on his balls." "And what're you doing?" "I also want to take a leak." " Don't laugh!" " Sorry." "Open.." "Hang on.." "let him finish." "Baby, please unlock it.." "Not like I'm going to join him." "I don't know what you'll do." "Baby please.." "That's not the key." "Baby, where the fuck's the key?" "He's on his way out." "Baby please, tell me where the key is." "Baby please, how am Ito find it in this bag of yours?" " Thank you madam." "Don't do it in front of the house again." "Let me put the bags inside." "Wait a minute.." "I'll get a bucket.." "Here.. here.." "Pee into this." "Fuck off!" "What happened?" "My stomach's gone for a toss." "Try getting some sleep." "I need something.." "Anything." "No." "Even Cough syrup will do." "Do you want some food?" "No." "Where's the key?" "Will you have some Chinese?" "Pork ribs.." "Give me the keys." " Egg fried noodles.." "Street dog with black bean sauce" "Fuck!" "No?" "Sushi-teriyaki-sashami" "What the fuck are you doing?" "Is it hurting a lot?" "Where is the key!" "I'll heat up some soup for you." "I don't want to eat anything." "Where is the key?" "Have some of this." " I don't want it!" "You haven't eaten a morsel since yesterday." "Show me how terrible I am and how kind you are." "What?" "I'll clean up my own shit." "Who the fuck are you, huh?" "Mother Teresa?" "I only want to help you." "You don't understand what I am going through." "I could die." "Yeah and whose fault is that?" "Yeah yeah, you behave as though you're immaculate." "To you I'm trash.." "I stink." "For you and your emotionless, perfectly controlled, rotten life." "You know nothing about my life, so shut your mouth." "Exactly, I know nothing about your feelings." "You're a bastard." "Oh yeah?" "And you know everything right?" "You're God's proudest creation." ""Look at me, I know it all.." "I am so helpless, but really I'm a good girl.." "And I endure so much suffering.." "poor me."" ""Look at my suffering.." "take a close look at it"." ""l gift-wrap it with ribbons and safeguard it under my pillow. "" ""l suffer so much"." ""In spite of it, I have no qualms about bringing relief to frustrated pricks by jerking them off day-in, day-out"." "You were the one who took me there." "Because I know that's what you're good at, and that's what you trip on." "Fuck you!" "Fuck you fuck me.." "Fuck me." "You would be doing me a huge favor." "If only you were to gather all your emotions, and fuck me.." "lust once." "Then maybe I lust might feel that I'm not one of your parlor clients." "Tell me, what am I to you?" "Nothing." "Nothing but a distraction." "Distraction?" "Fuck!" "So enlighten me my Virgin-Mary, is there anything more in your sad life apart from a distraction such as I?" "Yes.." "There is." "You want to know?" "Please tell me.." "What am I doing here?" "Why do you think I am out here?" "Throwing away my dignity everyday catering to.." "To some wrinkled, repressed pricks, in some shit-hole in Bombay?" "I have no clue." " Because I need somebody." "I've always been bloody mother earth.." "I've always bent over backwards for people like you." "Look at my life." "My mother wants me to be a Saint, you just want to fuck, and the rest of the world lust want their Happy Endings." "I want someone in my life, who cares and has no expectations you understand?" "I need someone to love me unconditionally" "This letter is all I have going for me right now." "Somebody cares about me, somebody misses me, somebody loves me and I have to find him." "I have to find him because I can't take it anymore." "I need someone to hold me, and hug me," "Don't cry and love me." "I have to find him." "I want to find him." "I don't remember much," "I was too little." "But.." "I always felt like Dad loved my step-sister Emily more than me." "He'd spent hours with her." "I wished her death." "When I was five she actually killed herself." "She got pregnant but didn't tell anyone." "She used.." "She used to put my hand on her stomach and lust cry." "I feel so scared." "Hi Ruth." "Hi." "This is Divya.." "Divya, Ruth." "Shall we?" "Tell her." "Okay." "Sorry.l feel I'm disturbing you." "But I'm looking for someone." "His name's Arjun Patel.." "He's a Photographer.." "And he's my Dad." "Ben." "His name is Benjamin Patel." "No." "My Dad's name is Arjun Patel." "It used to be." "He took the name Benjamin Patel after he came back from England." "But 1:hen he'd written me a letter, and it was signed Arjun Patel." "That's because you knew him as Arjun Patel." "You knew him?" "Yes." "I knew him.." "I knew him as Ojas." "Ojas?" "Ojas?" "He was Ojas around here." "All of us take an Ashram name while we're here" "His was Ojas." "Benjamin Patel.." "Ojas.." "Why so many names?" "Why're you looking for him?" "Because he's my dad." "So?" "So I want to know him.." "See him.." "Meet him.." "What's he like?" "He was really weird, I swear." "His pass here in the Ashram got canceled." "He hasn't been back ever since." "What do you mean his pass got canceled?" "By canceled I mean darling that he was asked to leave." "Why?" "I don't know." "Nobody knows.." "But you knew him well-enough.." "I was in fact with him when he wrote you that letter." "And..'?" "And.." "What..'?" "Before he left he just mentioned one thing, that he is buying an apartment in Versova in Mumbai That's all I know." "No listen to me.." "listen to me." "I clearly remember you saying there was no Arjun Patel.. right?" "But you also said there were two photographers" "One was called Youssuf Patel and one was called Benjamin Patel." "No, you did." "You did.l can go home and check." "The chat line is there." "I mean it's got to be there somewhere, I will email it to you." "No you did." "I swear we were chatting the other day Benjamin Patel, yes." "Yes." "Look, please find out." "Alright." "Okay." "Bye." "Look madam, the records we maintain are that of criminals." "Look madam, the records we maintain are that of criminals." "You know, people who've committed a crime." "Has this Benjamin Patel of yours ever committed a crime?" "No." "You could do one thing.." "Where does he stay.." "Versova?" "You could try the Versova Post office." "Excuse me." "I'm looking for a man in Versova." "Meaning?" "I mean I have his name, I need the address." "You have to talk to the postmaster." "Where?" "Over there." "Hello." "Greetings!" " Greetings!" "Can I have a minute with you?" "Thank you." "I am Ruth Edscer." "From England." "I'm looking for a man in Versova." "I've got his name." "Your Hindi is pretty good." "Can you please help me?" "No." "We don't hand out addresses of people." "And we are very busy with the festivals, elections coming up too." "It's too much." "Yes.." "I.." "You see it's like this.." "I am too busy I can't." "You see it's not England." "Yes." "Yes I would like to make a donation towards your festival." "Or elections." "Please call me when you get any information." "This is my number." "It'll take time.." "His address can only be known if there's any post in his name." "Sure." "Can I have your number please?" "Yes." "Yes, yes.." "Take my mobile number only. 982.." "Hello Madam." "Hello.. once again." "We hear you're working a lot these days." "Let alone a valid Work Permit, you don't even have a VISA." "How can this go on madam?" "Is any of your vacation plan coming up?" "Nothing I can think of." "My body's been behaving strangely today." "Aching pain." "When shall I pay a visit?" "Aspaspa." "Fuck!" "Fuck!" "Baby.." "Where have you been?" "Left me stranded, tied-up to a post." "I am famished." "Where's the key?" "Fucking hell!" "What's going on?" "Hello Sir." "You can take your clothes off and lie down." "Don't worry, he's used to it." "I'll just wash my hands and be right back." "What the hell's all this?" "What could I do, Sir?" "I've been tied-up the last two days." "Had to make do somehow." "Baby.." "What's he doing here?" "I'm stepping out for a while." "Baby, I'm lust stepping out." "Madam !" "Baby, ba.." "Baby Madam!" "I'll come back in a couple of days." "Hello." "Yeah." "What're you doing?" "I'm waiting." "Hey, you know these guys are really excited." "I'll tell you.." "They're like.." "Out to have a good time." "And eager to meet you." "So his name's Benjamin Patel?" "Yeah." "But he goes by other names too." "Well, shouldn't be too difficult to find him." "These guys.." "They have their big diamond trade out of Brussels." "Big Investors." "You make them happy, they make me happy." "Who knows, they might even gift you a big stone or something." "How long do you think it'll be to find him?" "Depends on how soon they sign the Cheque." "Come on." "Let's go." "Hey guys." "Meet my friend Ruth." "Ruth, my friends." "Sit." "Hey Ruth, tell them how old you are." "I'm twenty." "Twenty!" "Ooh.. that's really young, man!" "Shall we?" "We'll move the party someplace interesting." "Hi." "Hi." "Prashant." "Hi!" "Are you off somewhere?" "Yes." "I have to talk to you." "Not now." "It's important." "Any problem?" "No." "Yes, yes there is." "Let go Prashant." "Listen, she does not want to talk to you." "Let her go man." "Let me go." "She is my girlfriend." "Who are you?" "Come on Peter, let's go." "Come on let's go." "Sorry love, see you later." "Peter wait." "I'm sorry baby you shouldn't have hit me." "Fuck off." "I don't like gold." "I don't dig it at all." "Never really complements me." "I am allergic, no?" "Also, a necklace's like a leash around the neck.." "Leaves rashes on me." "Gold on clothes okay though - embroidery, border.." "But.." "Give it a break." "Can you not lust shut-up?" "Constantly blabbering on the phone." "Will you please shut-up?" "Let me get back to you later." "Aren't you ashamed?" "Aren't you ashamed of yourself?" "For a mere thousand rupees?" "I am talking to you." "Listen.." "I am talking to you." "Leave her alone." "What?" "Leave her alone." "It's none of your business." "It is my business." "Anybody I care about is my business." "Stop screaming around here." "Don't create a scene." "Ruth's not talking to you now." "It happens under your supervision." "That means you're in it too." "You're the one who's tutored her into this." "Look, what people do.." "And why is it that they do.." "What's it to you.." "Don't give me this Psychology crap." "She never did it with you, right?" "But our clients have their preferences." "They aren't like you." "Don't justify her." "Do you want your massage or not?" "No, I don't." "Then get out." "You're wasting my time." "Don't give me the eye." "I'll fucking poke them out." "Hello.." "Yes.. yes tell me." "Hang on a minute." "Yes.." "Got it." "Thank you." "Thank you so much." "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Without wisdom, how will you cross over?" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Without wisdom, how will you cross over?" "You found a stone, made an idol to worship." "If that god had power, wouldn't it destroy you?" "You get coconuts to worship your god." "Two little pieces you give as an offering.." "..the coconut you swallow whole!" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Without wisdom, how will you cross over?" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Without wisdom, how will you cross over?" "Hello.." "Yes?" "Is Mr. Benjamin home?" "No, he's not home." "He's out for some work." "He had asked me to come." "In that case he must be on his way." "Do come in." "What would you like" " Water, Tea, Coffee?" "Tea." "Tea.." "Okay." "Aren't there any pictures of Mr. Ben here?" "He's into clicking others' pictures, no?" "Hello girlfriend.." "Happy Diwali.." "I need a Gun." "What.." "What.." "What.." "Say again.." "Ruth.." "Ruth, where were you the whole day?" "I've been trying to reach you." "Prashant's been here thrice already." "He kept repeating like a kid, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry"." "What's going on?" "Can I stay over here tonight?" "You can sleep at my place." "No." "Here.." "Ruth, are you okay?" "Can I sleep over here?" "Yeah." "Hi." "Lynn.." "Yes?" "Why do you come here?" "Don't you have a girlfriend?" "Why.." "Why do you ask?" "You can't handle relationships." "I mean.." "No, not that.." "You're my most loyal customer." "Without fail," "you come here everyday why?" "I love you." "Oh.." "Fuck.." "You knew, you knew it all this time." "What?" "Get up." "Get up." "Get up." "Get up.." "Sit down.." "I wanna talk to you." "Why' did you write me that letter?" "Why did you say you miss me." "Why did you say sorry." "Sorry for what?" "I love you." "That is not an answer." "I love you." "That's not good enough." "Answer the fucking question." "I love you." "What do you want." "Is this what you want?" "Is this what you call love?" "I really love you." "I waited for you for so many years." "I missed you." "I missed you." "Shut up, shut up.." "Answer my questions." "Ls that why Emily killed herself?" "Emily." "Emily." "Ls that why Emily killed herself?" "What do you know about Emily?" "What do you know about Emily?" "I loved Emily." "You got her pregnant." "I loved her." "I used to see her playing in the garden outside.." "I used to talk for hours with her.." "Your mother.." "Your mother fell for me because of my doting on Emily.." "You fucked a 15 year old, don't you see what's wrong with that?" "I loved Emily." "Don't you know how sick that is?" "You married my mother.." "No listen to me.." "Stupid girl, I told her to go for an abortion, but your mother refused to take her to a doctor." "Now tell me who's fault was it?" "Your mother wanted to marry me because.." "You fucked a 15 year old." "That's the fucking problem." "Because I loved her." "Don't you see whats wrong with marrying my mother.." "..and fucking her child?" "I married your mother because I wanted to be with Emily." "I loved Emily I wanted to be with her." "You sick pervert." "You're so sick." "Do you hear yourself?" "You're so sick." "You have to die." "Ruth, talk to me Ruth." "Ruth are you okay?" "I should kill you." "Listen.." "listen to me." "Ruth, talk to me Ruth." "I'd gotten over Emily." "I came to meet you here." "Why did you come here?" "Why didn't your mother tell you everything." "It's all her fault." "And, and then you." "It was you who suggested the hand, hand-job.." "You could've said no N-0." "You could've said no." "You could've said no." "But love you." "I really loved you." "Get out." "Get out, get out." "Please get out of my life." "Get out please, get out." "Can I please sit here for 5 min, with you?" "I wanted to forget Emily.." "..but it was you who brought her memory back for me." "Please, don't go." "Please." "Please stay for 2 min." "Ruth.." "lust don't go.." "We can start again.." "Ruth.. say something.." "Ruth.." "Ruth, please come out." "Ruth, please come out." "Ruth, please come out." "Ruth, please come out." "Ruth, open the door." "He is gone.." "You're safe now.." "Please." "What happened?" "Ruth, lust come out dear." "Ruth!" "What is it?" "Baby!" "Baby what's wrong?" "it's me." "Open up." "Baby,I am sorry." "I didn't mean to hit you the other day." "I was only trying to protect you." "Those guys were taking you for a ride." "OPS" up!" "What's wrong?" "Say something." "What happened?" "That man was her father." "Where'd you get that?"