"Jim Thompson, 52 years, a wife, two kids, that barely even look at me anymore." "I've lived the same morning for 20 years..." "For them." "It feels more like a dream." "An endless nightmare that you can't awake from." "And the thing is..." "I really can't." "This is my life." "Fifty-two years." "Life has a way of really hitting you." "This is it." "Fifty-two years." "This is my life." "It never ends." "Same life..." "Day after day." "Go to school, get a job, get married, have kids, now you have a life." "This is my life." "I've been at my job for 20 years." "So has she." "All this time..." "Morning, Jim." "She never looked up at me." "Puts this whole life into perspective." "I wonder how she always knew it was me." "This is it, people." "Crunch week." "My favorite time of the year." "Christmas time for us big, big fucking predators." "Tell me!" "How big is your dick?" "Mine's touching the floor." "I wish I could hear my footsteps." "You all can't be as blessed as me." "Have I bought a new pair of shoes in 20 years?" "The bottoms are still there." "Wouldn't they wear out?" "They'd have to." "I'd be walking on pavement by now." "Everyone knows..." "I'm the fucking man." "Hell yeah, man." "Jim..." "Jimmy!" "Yeah." "You alive over there?" "Yeah, I'm breathing." "Yeah, we can smell you, man." "This is it, Jimmy." "The whole year boils down to this week." "You look tired." "Is anyone in this room fucking tired?" "No, no, man." "A lot of young, hungry kids out there, Jimmy." "How about you?" "I'm fine, all right?" "You don't have to worry about me." "Yeah." "Is that them?" "Richie DeMarco, ready to grab this mother by the balls and squeeze." "I like you." "Jim, why don't you let these two sit in?" "I'm gonna talk after, okay?" "About ten years ago, a young, confident, hungry employee walked in, and he wasn't like the one you were thinking." "He was nervous, and quiet, and I helped him get to where he is today." "Tommy decarlo." " Look, Jim..." " All grown up." "The company's changing..." "New direction, new attitude." "We're still selling the same stuff." "We're going in a younger direction." "Guys with more energy." "Clients, they..." "I just don't see you as valuable anymore." "Tommy, what are you trying to tell me?" "I've been working for this company for over 20 years." "I'm too young to cash in my 401k." "Come on, man, you know my wife just left me." "Who's that handsome man over there?" "There she is." "Hey, baby." "Hi, baby." "Listen, sweetheart, I came up with an idea for the weekend." "We're going to Atlantic city, and you're gonna get me a facial, a massage, and a brand new dress." "What do you say?" "Anything for you, baby." "I..." "Who's he?" "Why is he here, looking at me?" "I work here." "You know Jim." "Oh, yeah, I know Jim." "The loser you were supposed to fire last week, but you didn't, he's still here." "You're Tommy c." "Pull the trigger, and let this guy go." "I'm not getting caught in traffic with this guy." "Tommy, please." "I'm gonna have to let you go, Jim." "Fifty-two years..." "My life." "The noise was constant, loud..." "In my brain." "My only companion..." "Gone." "An endless cycle." "Time passed me by." "The days dragged..." "Endless." "A rock up a slow hill." "I sit alone... with nothing." "No one... but despair." "A longing for my past..." "Family." "Only on weekends." "We used to be a family." "Daddy!" "Daddy!" "She was gone." "My little girl's grown up." "She used to look up at me..." "And now I only look for her." "We all exist for someone else's amusement..." "Who gets to be lucky one and play god." "I wonder if they think I'm a god." "Or does one exist?" "Only men crave such power." "Why bother?" "My parents used to live in this apartment." "I grew up in this apartment." "Cream cheese and bread." "Nothing much has changed." "Yeah, you went far in 52 years." "Tastes as bad as it did then." "It was my weekend with the kids." "I couldn't wait." "I couldn't stand the idea." "Wash away the pain." "A new beginning." "To a day that will end the same." "I hope they're happy to see me." "I never am." "At least anymore." "Broken." "Empty." "Would it all wash away?" "Slowly." "This city was filled with people, but to me it seemed empty." "I was alone." "Great analogy for life." "My car was blocks away from my apartment..." "Up one of the only hills in New York City." "Just my luck." "I used to have the green grass, big house, white picket fence, kids, my wife got it all." "I got the car." "And the dog." "Dog died." "The city was a mirror of itself." "When you lived here, it all looked the same." "Grass is green here." "Now I have cement." "My wife got the kids, the house, and the green grass." "I thought my wife was a good woman when I met her..." "Who knows, maybe I was different then." "Maybe again, she was." "Get married, they told me." "In over 25 years of marriage," "I can only remember two distinct times we had sex." "And now I have two teenage liabilities that can't stand me." "Come on, come on!" "Oh, yeah!" "Of course, later I would understand that lack of sex drive." "Oh, hey, jimbo." "Jim, could you get the hell out of here?" "Jesus Christ, can I have some privacy in my own house please?" "This is my house." "Nice place, Jimmy." "Goodbye, Jim." "I'm here to pick up the kids for the weekend." "They're not home yet." "Thank god." "Wait downstairs." "You got some real nice kids, jimbo." "Ma, we're home." "Hey, mom." "Hey, guys." "Oh." "Hi, dad." "What are you doing here?" "What's he doing here?" "I have no idea." "Hey..." "Doesn't anyone want to sit over next to daddy?" "Daddy?" "Nah, I got noobs to school right now." "Triple kill." "Kill frenzy." "Killing spree." "Ew, could you not do that?" "Do what?" "That." "Why, you don't want mom to kiss us, dad?" "Well, not after that." "After what?" "Yes, Jim." "After what?" "Never mind." "Are you guys ready to go?" "No, they're not going with you this weekend." "Come on, I got the whole weekend planned." "Dude, you don't even have Xbox." "No, no, we're gonna spend some real quality time together." "Whoo!" "That was one hell of a workout." "Uncle c!" "You look exhausted, uncle c." "You could say that again." "You know what hits the spot after a good workout like that?" "Do you, jimbo?" "A nice cold one." "Cheers." "Cheers, baby." "All right, guys, time to go, get your stuff." "Mom." "Come on." "Jim, they don't want to go to your house anymore." "It's disgusting, mom." "They're my kids." "I get to see my children." "They're busy, Jim." "That's right, we got the baseball game tonight." "The kids are getting older, they don't want to see you anymore." "Easy there, jimbo." "After 25 years, she finally fucked me for the third time..." "Hard." "I'll have another." "Same thing?" "Double." "You know, it may not be my place to say so..." "But you should take better care of yourself." "Why bother?" "You seem like a nice enough kind of guy." "It's my..." "Jim, I'm the bartender." "Let it out, that's what I'm here for." "It's everything." "My ex-wife..." "The place I'm staying..." "The kids..." "I wish my kids would hate me... something." "What do you mean?" "They act like I don't exist." "I walk around there oblivious to me." "And my job, I've been at my job 25 years..." "Ah, you're a pussy, that's what the problem is." "Excuse me." "Yeah, I said you were a pussy." "That's not necessarily a bad thing." "I once was a pussy, too." "Everybody's a pussy." "Except me, Louie, this guy over here, that guy, you see Sherry there?" "She got a big old giant one." "Shove it, Mike." "Yeah, you'd like that." "I'm gonna give you some advice, pal." "You are what you let them perceive you to be." "You follow?" "Think about it, I gotta take a leak." "Louie, put my drink on this guy's chair." "It's okay." "Don't let that little shit bother you." "Oh, he doesn't." "Oh, no?" "What can I get for $25, Sherry?" "My fist up your ass." "All right." "I knew you'd like that." "Yeah, all right, you see that?" "You gotta be aggressive with people." "You see this guy?" "He says a lot of bullshit." "But that, I gotta agree with." "Hey, Louie, get her a drink." "Are you buying me a drink?" "Yeah." "Thank you." "I'm..." "Sherry." "You know my name?" "Yeah, of course." "You know, I don't think I've ever seen you talk." "I try not to." "You know, you don't belong here, none of us do." "Here?" "Well, not at this place." "The place that our mind is at," "you live here?" "Why, you don't like it?" "I pictured you a guy who had a big house, 2.5 kids and all of that." "I was, uh, my wife took it all." "And now my kids say that..." "You got anything to drink?" "Yeah." "You know, that's yesterday's paper." "I know that." "Then why are you reading it?" "I like yesterday." "Well, a few yesterdays ago." "Me too." "I can remember when my kids were small." "I used to just..." "Are you gonna do me or not?" "Would you like to dance?" "What the hell do you think this is?" "I just thought we had a connection." "I have a connection with everyone, buddy." "I ain't got all night, are we gonna do this or what?" "Stay with me, we can work on something together." "With us." "Time is up." "No, wait." "Fifty bucks." "What?" "Gimme me my fifty bucks, you think I was gonna come all the way over here with you for free?" "Loser." "Again I was left..." "Alone." "The pain returned." "I thought we'd be together." "A new life." "Time passed again." "Slowly." "I sat alone..." "Tortured." "Slowly trapping my mind." "Imprisoning my sanity." "I started to feel angry." "Angry at the people I watched." "Why could they have what I didn't?" "As my anger grew, I wanted to take away their happiness." "I couldn't bear to use my parent's old bedroom." "The simple things are what you miss the most." "I was trapped." "A prisoner." "My old block..." "Now twisted with pain." "Daddy!" "Daddy!" "As a child I played in this park, it was closed now." "A murder took place inside." "The innocence gone, twisted." "I took my children here." "Daddy!" "We laughed once." "Daddy!" "The laughters and memory were locked inside, and I was chained out." "Alone." "I could save her from this misery." "And she could save me." "I'll be her white knight, her hero." "No more of this life for us." "White picket fence, lemonade, a new family." "Maybe we'd love us, we would love each other." "Don't worry, Sherry, I'm coming." "Hi, sweetie." "Thank you, dear." "How was your day, darling?" "Oh, Bonnie came over, and you know Bonnie and her gossip." "Oh, that Bonnie." "Life sure has a funny way of hitting you, doesn't it?" "It sure does." "Life sure has a way of hitting you, doesn't it?" "It sure does." "We're home." "Hi, kids." "Hi, kids." "Hi, daddy." "Eat up." "Gee, dad, this is sure swell." "It sure is, daddy, this is great." "What an amazing life." "Now don't forget to get your homework done now." "I don't have any." "Oh, mark." "Oh, mark, you've an amazing daddy." "Oh, mark." "You're the best, daddy." "Would you like to play catch, son?" "Some quality time." "Of course, dad." "You boys..." "There he is." "I hear you're trying to turn a ho into a housewife." "Never works, my man." "Never works." "Have you seen her?" "Of course, I just had her." "She'll be in soon, jimbo." "Thanks." "Sherry..." "Yeah?" "Look, I want to take you out." "I'll pay you whatever." "Sorry, honey, I'm on the clock." "But we had a connection." "No, Jim, we don't." "You want a connection with anyone." "You want your old life back." "You're never gonna get it, ever." "I just..." "I want you to be girl." "I am not your girl." "I'm everyone's girl." "And you're no one's guy, remember that." "I couldn't take it anymore." "Why bother?" "What could I be missing in life?" "This resistance couldn't be what I was meant for." "Millions of people living like me..." "Shells of their former selves..." "Beaten into the ground by life." "Maybe I should jump." "I'm tired." "Nothing for me here." "She was gone..." "Like everyone else." "I decided just to wander." "There was nothing left to do." "The streets seemed dull, empty." "Maybe it was me, but..." "All I had to give was love." "Alone in a crowded world." "A change of scenery might do me good." "Maybe..." "I could just slip, and the tracks would take me." "It couldn't be." "Tommy." "Tommy, please." "I'm gonna have to let you go, Jim." "May I help you, sir?" "Uh... sir?" "Tommy?" "Jim?" "Jimmy, whoa, look at you." "Aw." "Poor baby, you didn't find your next job, did you?" "You ruined my life." "Nah, you did that to yourself long time ago, jimbo." "I mean, look at you." "You look terrible." "Tommy, he's so embarrassing, please, can we get out of here?" "I don't want to be seen with this guy." "I'm at the end of my rope, Tommy." "What, me?" "Me, I'm doing great." "Just had a five-star lovely meal with my beautiful lady over here." "Next, going up to my house in ac for the weekend." "Gonna win big time on that craps table." "Yes, and you..." "You just look like crap." "Zing." "Zing." "Good one, baby." "Zing." "Zing, zing, zing." "You think this is funny?" "Thank you." "You think this is funny?" "What is wrong with you, are you crazy or something?" "Jimmy... calm down, all right?" "Jimmy..." "I was only kidding, Jimmy." "Calm down, all right?" "I'm gonna help you, okay?" "Here." "Hey, Jim, you never know." "That $300 could change your life, my man." "I should have wrung his neck..." "In front of everyone, made him suffer, like he made me suffer." "But I am weak." "Jim Thompson would never do anything a man would." "I needed to change that." "This was a new time." "No more." "No more." "No more." "Wipe away the past, and start anew." "Same thing, Jim?" "I hear you're a man who knows how to get things." "Oh, yeah?" "I want to buy a gun." "Who the hell are you?" "Um, Louie sent me." "Come on." "Where is this mo-fo?" "He's always late." "Sal, where you been man?" "It's your shot." "Vinny, sorry, somebody here wants to talk to you." "I, uh..." "Actually, somebody told me, um..." "Are you gonna talk or what?" "I was told you could fit me for a new suit." "A new suit?" "Speak up, guy." "That's good." "What do you want?" "Tell me." "Come on, man, just tell me what you want to buy, I got it." "Come on." "Hey, you a little nervous or something?" "I think we got a cop here." "No." "No, I'm not a cop." "I'm not a cop." "You better start talking right now, or you're gonna wish you never walked in here, you motherfucker." "Okay." "Okay." "Listen, cop, let me hear what you wanna buy." "A gun, I want to buy a gun." "Why didn't you just say that in the first place?" "Sal, let him go." "What do you think is, the godfather or something?" "You know, I knew you weren't a cop." "I have a sixth sense." "I was just having a little fun with you, man." "Plus, that would be entrapment." "Oh, thanks." "So, what do you have?" "I got anything you need, it just depends on how much you wanna spend." "I got 300 bucks." "Well, that makes it easy." "Here you go, vinny." "I got his bad boy." "It'd put a hole in whoever's head you want and a wall on the other side." "But before you pull the trigger, make sure you want the guy dead." "Thanks." "Hey, listen..." "You wanna make some money with that gun?" "No." "Isn't daddy great, mom?" "The best." "I love you, guys." "He's my dream." "He's all of our dreams." "Would you like to come and play with daddy?" "Daddy?" "Loser!" "They don't want to see you anymore." "Filled another notch in the old belt there, jimbo." "See that?" "You got to be aggressive." "You're no one's guy." "Well, that's what I said." "He's no one's guy." "Nice guys finish last." "Hi, daddy." "It's daddy." "Bye, dad." "The kids don't want to see you anymore." "This is my house." "My life." "You have nothing." "Nothing." "Nothing." "Got to be aggressive." "Who was I kidding?" "I can't pull the trigger." "I was weak." "The thought of him drove me mad." "And that sound, that continuous sound..." "I hear the traffic." "The barreling trains in each direction, and this voice constantly in my head." "I had to stop this madness." "Tell me!" "Pull the trigger." "How big is your dick?" "Mine's touching the floor." "What if I couldn't?" "You all can't be as blessed as me." "I had to be sure." "But who first?" "I can hear her, my wife, throwing it in my face." "The kids are getting older, they don't want to see you anymore." "But my children..." "I couldn't hurt my children." "Why couldn't I?" "My children, who I gave my all to, throwing me away." "Maybe I'm doing them a favor." "I could hear them, all laughing at me." "You can't do it." "You can't do it." "Really becoming overwhelming." "I felt dangerous." "I had to find a target." "I was slipping away." "I needed to be sure." "Who..." "I had to know." "Many have done you wrong." "A random life..." "Anyone has a chance to die." "I could hear them, all laughing at me." "You can't do it." "You can't do it." "He hurt me so much." "I'd let her know..." "What she caused." "There was nothing left." "I lost everything." "Maybe I..." "If only I could see her face one last time." "I waited for hours." "She never showed." "I'm not your girl." "I'm everyone's girl." "And you're no one's guy, remember that." "It all started to blend together." "I get to see my children." "They're busy, Jim." "They're all the same." "They all abandoned me." "Ma..." "Come on." "All of them." "It's disgusting, mom." "They're my kids." "I get to see my children." "They're busy, Jim." "Zing." "Zing." "Good one, baby." "This is it, Jim!" "This is it, Jim!" "This is it, Jimmy!" "This is it, Jim!" "This is it, Jimmy!" "This is it, Jim!" "This is it, Jimmy!" "You're a pussy." "That's what the problem is." "You're a pussy." "You're a pussy." "That's what the problem is." "You're a pussy." "That's what the problem is." "You're a pussy." "That's what the problem is." "You're a pussy." "You're a pussy." "That's what the problem is." "Oh, hey, jimbo." "We got the baseball game tonight." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Yeah." "This is it, Jim." "This is it, Jim." "This is it, Jim." "You're a pussy." "That's what the problem is." "Yeah, I said you're a pussy." "There was a new day." "A clarity now." "There was no more past." "A new beginning." "Fifty-two years to be born again." "I looked at everyone differently." "I wasn't scared anymore." "They all became targets." "Look at the two of them." "But two wasn't enough." "I could take out a whole boat load at once." "A simple bomb..." "Fill the sea with food." "Human souls." "And as I thought of them screaming for their lives, crawling under me, I knew..." "I found my way." "I would size them all up." "Could I do it without a gun?" "With my bare hands?" "Nice, soft hands taking a life." "My calling all alone..." "I began to hunt my prey as I strolled confidently through the night." "They were my new prey, and I wasn't a victim anymore." "I found my calling." "How do you know..." "You could be a great killer..." "If you've never killed?" "So many of us, poor souls, not knowing their true calling." "Missing that calling." "But I found mine." "My world." "I stood tall, knowing I was in control of my own destiny." "And I wrote it." "But even the most real piece..." "A small piece of my past was still left over." "Yeah, seemed like a great day for a drive." "There was one final thing left to do." "Everything comes down to one last chance." "Be careful, I'm coming for you." "Next, going up to my house in ac for the weekend." "Gonna win big time on that craps table." "Across that water," "Tommy." "I waited for him in his condo in the bay." "I could hear the laughter of children." "It drove me mad." "I could take them all out now." "A family wiped away clean." "No, you're not here for them." "You're here for him." "Focus." "Where are you, Tommy?" "Welcome home." "Zing." "Zing." "This is it, Jimmy." "This is it, Jimmy." "This is it, Jimmy." "I wonder if they think I'm god."