"Here... we are... still... alone." "It is all... so slow... so heavy... so sad..." "Soon..." "I... will be... old... and... it will... at last... be over..." "I came to say I'm leaving you" "Your tears won't change my mind" "You remember happy days gone by" "Henri." "Don't say that." "so I did." "I have Pimpernel with me." "We're driving to the mountains." "Don't say that." "Don't!" "Henri." "It's Maité." "so I did." "I took Pimpernel and the car." "We're going to the mountains." "One more thing:" "I've got all your poems and crappy paintings." "You know where I'm going to dump them all?" "Henri." "In the river." "Don't hang up." "Listen to this." "Pimpernel!" "All the lights went out." "What's the date?" "1983." "It's 10:20." "Thomas!" "Hi." "Terrible heat." "I like it here." "the highway..." "Right." "She's a great girl." "Yes." "you know how it happened." "You know the story." "She's deaf in one ear..." "the left one." "She was sleeping on her good ear." "You're a love." "she turned to me... and asked me how I knew." "I played along..." "That's how I found out." "I would have anyway." "Florence is a lousy liar." "She thought I'd said..." "You've got a lover." "I figured it out fast." "I was relieved that I knew him." "Even if he was my best and only friend." "And now she's gone." "I never thought it'd get to that." "It's not like me at all." "That's crazy." "Florence's favorite colors." "the bitch." "Where are you going?" "Out." "Why won't you talk to me?" "Mireille... but I can't talk about it here and now." "So go talk about it elsewhere." "I forgot my keys." "Leave them in the box if you go out." "I'm not going out." "You don't love me anymore." "What did you say?" "Bernard." "Mireille." "Why do you say that?" "I know it's not easy." "but that's not indifferent to me." "but my head's a mess." "It took us a while to love each other equally." "I watched your love catch up with mine." "And when it did... a tune started going round in my head." "You know I love it when we kiss." "But then the tune went..." "What's she doing here?" "Who's that monster?" "How dare she touch me with her mouth?" "She must think I like it!" "Her breath stinks." I know you smell good... but I've convinced myself that you stink." "it's not your beauty I see... lying down." "the tune goes..." "I don't want this girl anymore." "I don't want anyone else to have you... yet I don't want to be loved." "I don't take you seriously." "but I'm watching you." "to hurt myself." "Then I feel pity for you... and myself." "So I hate us." "who could ever love us?" "We're gluey together." "I want it to be like before..." "To stop all the spying... to stop all the sabotage... angel." "I won't be home late." "My name is Bouriana." "The problem with loners is that they're never alone." "What'll it be?" "A small lemonade." "No small drinks after 10 p.m." "How about a large?" "Well?" "A glass of milk." "I'll hold on." "Give me a beer." "How much?" "That'll be seven francs." "I'm holding on." "Excuse me." "Can I buy you a coffee?" "Thank you." "That's right." "I'm Bouriana." "This gentleman's paying for my coffee." "Bouriana." ""B" as in Bouriana..." ""U" as in Uriana..." ""l" as in lana..." "N" as in Na... and "A" as in Alfred." "Alfred Bouriana!" "We're having a real heat wave..." "Your emotional blackmail... it's like making love in the shit house..." "You can't fool me!" "It's too late for your love!" "I won't fall for that!" "1970-1976:" "High school." "F cheats on me. 3/26/83." "1st shoplifting: 1968." "1st lie to F: 3/13/81." "My bank." "Luxembourg Park" " Readings:" "1977-1979." "Born:" "Cochin Hospital - 1960." "1/2/81." "Hospital" " April '80" " Hernia." "1st kiss F - 12/22/80." "I meet F: 6/2/80." "1st murder attempt: 5/25/83." "The air is so still." "Let's put on a fresh shirt!" "Now you're mad!" "How can you want to make love... when the world's such a mess?" "!" "Are you blind?" "You act so cute... but you're just an animal!" "You feed on rotten meat... laced with tenderness." "You like it?" "Not me." "Can't you smell it?" "You must have a cold!" "Or else you'd puke!" "You ask me what's come between us?" "that's what!" "Isn't that enough for you?" "I'm gonna hit!" "Watch out!" "Here it comes!" "You gotta hit!" "Hit!" "I'm gonna hit!" "I'm hitting!" "Anna." "We live together." "and four." "Alex?" "It's your father." "Hi." "How are you?" "Fine." "What time is it?" "6:39." "The telephone startled me..." "It was a sort of déjà vu... like a memory of the present..." "That's why..." "I'm in a daze." "I'm..." "I know." "That's why..." "Let's drop it." "All right." "You heard about Aunt V.?" "No." "She didn't die." "Why should she?" "They're keeping her alive on a drip-feeder." "A plumber's nightmare!" "It's dreadful!" "That's not new." "I'm counting on you." "If I get senile" " Bang!" "Who wants to be a bedridden vegetable?" "!" "Remember our contract:" "You put a bullet in my brain!" "Promise!" "Alex!" "Swear it!" "I already did." "of course." "you asshole!" "Shit!" "Bernard dear..." "I'm giving a party at my place Friday... to celebrate the tenth anniversary of Stan's death." "Bring Mireille with you." "Faster!" "Faster!" "Your turn now." "Your turn." "Play with me a little." "Then we'll turn over and begin." "Then what?" "What is it?" "I'm lost." "Wasn't it good?" "Not really." "Something's wrong..." "What?" "I don't know." "What's wrong?" "I don't like it so wet." "You salivate too much." "I feel like..." "You're like Alex." "You like it dry so it almost hurts." "It doesn't hurt." "I prefer touching when it's not so wet." "It's nicer with saliva." "For you." "Don't disappoint me yet..." "So soon..." "I thought you liked it that way." "But I was wrong." "Tell me when you don't like what I do so I don't waste my time." "What don't I like?" "When I take you in my mouth and salivate." "I meant when I do it to you." "But I like it when it's wet." "I assumed you'd like what I like." "I was wrong." "No..." "Like putting a finger in..." "I didn't like that with Alex at first..." "Now I do." "But you clench up before I can get it in." "So we get nowhere." "You know why." "I know." "You only let me put my finger in when I suck you." "But I come too fast that way." "Then you complain." "No." "When I want to give you pleasure..." "I don't mind that." "So you say." "I love to hear you moan... even softly." "And if you weren't so passive... like Alex..." "I'd do it more often." "Be right back." "Cheater!" "the child of sacrifices... my insatiable shoes..." "They judge us by our shoes." "His feet were often sore... he'd put ice cubes in his shoes." "I tried it once." "but then it hurt even more." "My feet were growing..." "So was my soul..." "I was becoming sublime in every way!" "I'm Bernard's friend." "He just left." "The poor boy had a stomachache." "Mireille is still here." "Come in." "his girlfriend?" "Do you work nights at the post office with Bernard?" "No." "I'm an...oceanographer." "We've got some very special people here tonight." "That little boy... has the highest IQ for his age in all of Europe." "That little man there is the human time-signal." "It's his voice you hear when you dial 463.84.00." "But it's been downhill for him ever since." "artist and poet." "He's very ill." "He has a bullet lodged in his brain." "There's Mireille over there with Elizabeth." "Josette Lemercier... was Miss Universe in the late '50s." "The handsome guy near the window... is Jerry Bridgeman." "A U.S. astronaut who walked on the moon." "Who are you?" "Alex." "emotions..." "Sorry." "I don't understand." ""Young people are too silent." "You've forgotten how to talk." "Maybe you think people aren't worth talking to." "That's not it." "You're wrong." "Maybe you're afraid." "He wants to know if you like movies." "I was a grip when movies were as silent as I am." "I pushed the first dollies." "Jonas." "He made the whole crew laugh." "Whenever they shot a love scene... the director told the actors... to say tender words to each other before kissing." "so one could see their lips moving." "Jonas... would make daring comments on his partner's breasts... or proposition her during a take." "who was a gentle person... and shy with women in real life... became a lion in front of the camera." "He says..." "When the films were shown... during the love scenes... one or two people in the theater would laugh." "They were deaf people... who could lip-read Jonas' obscenities." "Silent films were better because...because..." "Sylvain." "Excuse me." "I watched you all night." "I composed this for you." "I'll play it for you." "We're too old to change our habits." "Shit!" "They say that broken glass..." "We should pick it up." "What did he say?" "C'est la vie." "That's what life's about." "I was nine when you walked your first steps." "I lived only for outer space." "But don't you think it's hopelessly screwed up now?" "Jenny?" "18." "And you?" "I turned 53...recently." "I'll be 28 on August 22nd." "You know what distresses me?" "That I've accomplished so little in my life." "It's my 37th birthday today." "37 goddamn years!" "Makes you stop and think." "he had been dead for two years!" "How depressing!" "But there's a way out:" "blowing my brains out!" "May I make a call?" "Come with me." "Axel." "Thomas?" "It's me." "Recovered from your swim?" "Is that Florence I hear?" "There's a letter for both of you under the door." "The records in the bag are for Florence." "That's all." "Ciao." "Nicolas." "Pimpernel." "Mr. Bear?" "Of course." "Mr. Bear?" "Only if you go to bed right now!" "Nicolas and Pimpernel." "Good night to all our little friends." "Time for beddy-bye." "Kiss your parents good night... and we'll be back tomorrow night." "Good night." "See you tomorrow." "You're just like Bernard at a party:" "alone." "I'll get you a glass." "All the glasses are in the living room." "This cup is all that's left." "My private cup." "I'm the only one who's ever drunk from it." "Even my brother Stan would never have used it." "He bought it for me in Italy." "Stan traveled everywhere." "even as children... we would meet through telepathy at night." "At exactly 10 p.m..." "I'd think very hard of Stan... and he'd think very hard of me." "I forgot my telepathic date with him." "on a business trip." "I never saw him again." "He died on a German freeway..." "In his car..." "Totally dead!" "Be very careful with my cup..." "Alexander." "Mireille?" "Your hair..." "Next time you do something like that... please don't do it in my home." "You did it behind Bernard's back." "He'll be furious." "I assure you." "Don't worry." "too!" "Isn't it nice to drink through the chink?" "I'm going to wind up a loser." "Yet I stood a chance." "I wanted to be someone outstanding:" "musician..." "Can't I be reborn?" "I'm going to wind up a loser." "Yet I stood a chance." "I wanted to be someone outstanding:" "musician..." "Can't I be reborn?" "It's our first meeting." "Only first times matter to me." "Then you won't last long." "I'd ignore him once he talked." "I longed to make love." "Then I actually did it." "I mean... it's the opposite." "I never tried to fulfill my best dreams." "Only to re-dream them." "Want some tea?" "Sure." "There's only one cup." "The label's been cut off." "It could be anything." "I saw you in the bathroom earlier." "Quite a scene." "So you're the spy." "I've tried it more often since I came to Paris." "Haven't you ever?" "I'm too happy for that." "Too happy?" "too scared." "Where are you from?" "Blois." "In the Loire Valley." "a Parisian." "but I got nowhere." "I almost got hired by a chocolate firm... but then they saw my tooth... it was a cosmetics firm... but with my wrinkles..." "What wrinkles?" "On my forehead." "I see." "Five of them." "I've had them since childhood." "I make films." "Films or video?" "what I do is dream up titles... for the films I plan to make." "If I were you..." "I have to go into the army tomorrow." "I wouldn't go!" "when we're already veterans?" "It's menopause time." "And I'm in a rush." "Yet I'm all for conquerors." "I had a great line worked out for the army psychiatrists." "I told them I was unfit for service... because I couldn't sleep in a room with other guys." "It didn't work." "They said the army wasn't for sleeping." "So I'm off tomorrow." "Do you fall..." "Do you fall in love often?" "easily." "I thought so." "But a real lover sticks around." "I feel closer to people once I've left." "Love is as old as the hills..." "Lovers are worn out." "Desire isn't easy to come by... and it doesn't come cheap nowadays." "but it gets wasted on details." "neither." "Mireille..." "I'm going now." "OK." "Who are you in love with these days?" "I'm on to a new heartbreak." "I don't want to lose it." "My heart's proud of its pain." "Her name is Florence." "but I toyed with her before that." "Thomas." "Same old story." "I've never cheated on anyone." "Never got the chance." "She's gone." "She left me a note in our toothglass:" "I'm leaving to forget you." "In her deadly prose." "We lived in my room." "We slept in my single bed." "And lived on her unemployment." "Yet she still loved me on Sunday..." "Even Monday...and Tuesday..." "She told me all about her youth." "She had lots of love affairs." "One when she was very young with a boy who died." "His death nearly destroyed her." "I never got along with her... we were on an Aeolian island." "I gave her my first slap." "but I decided not to." "I don't try to change." "She didn't get it... on my weaknesses." "I like to spy on myself as if I were a foreigner... as scientists say." "I'd distort the experiment." "I can see the kind of movies you'll make." "It's easy to get self-obsessed when you're alone." "enough for two lives." "I like to view my life as a biography." "Born in Paris 1960." "Died in Paris 2040." "I won't leave." "Last week I had a dream." "then I was awake... and found a book between the sheet and the blanket... a book I'd never seen before." "I leafed through it." "It was my autobiography." "But it was unfinished." "I'd died while writing it." "Want some?" "I don't drink." "Florence was madly in love with me." "More than I with her." "and I'm out!" "we had a..." "She took all her things." "She wanted to take the letters I wrote her." "I said they were mine." "I wrote them." "They're mine." "I gave in." "She doesn't know I've Xeroxed them." "This scarf is all I have left of her." "But...it's her all over." "Mireille?" "You know my name?" "they should assign you to espionage." "Want one?" "I don't smoke." "I'm going out for a walk." "I'll come with you." "I like walking alone." "So do I." "Then we can go together." "I don't go out much." "I'm scared of getting pushed under the subway... or being blown up or finding out I've got cancer." "I wasn't scared." "Now I'm old enough to be tortured in a war." "I had a nightmare." "Midnight?" "Know this one?" "Here's how many nights and a day" "Here's how long you've been away" "It was to be our last time apart" "The last strain on my shipwrecked heart" "You said you'd be back in spring" "A time for sweetness and whispering" "You said we'd meet in a budding grove" "And through Paris streets we'd rove" "I love you alone and always will" "But if you choose to go your way" "I'll remember our love as a happy day a smile on my face" "I'll go bask in the sun some other place" "Sorrows won't make me give up my life" "I'm not as patient as a sailor's wife" "He got home very late." "I was asleep." "in the dark." "The sound of the key had woken me... but I pretended to be asleep." "I felt his eyes on me." "It was a drag." "It wasn't the first time." "Then... he got into bed... and made love to me trying to be gentle so as not to wake me." "He likes to do it that way." "Sometimes he says to me..." "Let go." "Play dead." "When I met him... right after my father's death... he felt at ease with me." "Now he criticizes me for things." "Things I don't understand." "it all matters:" "and my death..." "I often wonder what my father would've thought of him... and of me today." "I am..." "I'm what I am." "It's very late." "It's today I'm leaving." "Everyone's going." "We're the last." "I'm leaving." "being with you." "Like an unusually deep dream." "Only deep sleep makes you dream like that." "Sitting beside you this way... is like eternity." "The moment I saw you..." "I knew I was destined to love you." "I'll say it once and for all:" "more than anything." "We must fall in love!" "wordlessly..." "It's too late!" "Pretend you didn't hear that..." "Time to shut up." "I will." "silence." "To think that your body will age..." "Mireille... under your ass." "It's all my fault... love..." "Iove without regrets..." "Iove without nasty afterthoughts..." "I'll smile..." "We'll sleep together for as long as you want... form an unbeatable team..." "I'll sign up!" "will join us..." "You and Florence and me..." "I'll be the go-between lover..." "It should be so moving." "Back and forth I go!" "you couldn't jolt me out of my shell... we'll change our habits... maybe even France." "Alex... you'll stop destroying yourself..." "You'll respect the warmth of your blood... your serene presence... your gentle feelings... our melancholy will fade away." "Mireille." "Mental diarrhea!" "Not set my sufferings to music!" "Not bury my lover with words!" "she'll kill herself!" "Kisses won't seal our lips..." "Mireille..." "I weigh a ton!" "I'm a truck!" "Mireille." "Never!" "I'm going to the can." "young man." "You can't relieve yourself until we're moving." "Taken!" "Got any change?" "I'll have one last game." "It's not two francs." "It's three." "The cost of living goes up." "Life doesn't." "Earthling!" "How about this for an answer!" "never again!" "They'll never screw me again!" "It's over." "He's not even tired." "But he's going home to his mistress." "He played badly." "He lost everything." "But he'll play tomorrow." "He's going to sleep in her bed...in her arms." "Good night." "Try again..." "Earthling!" "Mireille..." "I missed my train." "Can I speak to Mireille?" "Bernard." "I'm not here at all." "it's Alex." "help me... to get out of this..." "Bernard!" "Bernard..." "I turn my back to you."