"God damnit." "Fake." "I just wanted to say to you that I will never forget that moment." "What moment?" "The moment you just greeted me and weren't ignoring me like all the others." "As far as love is concerned, he lets things come as they come." "Every couple of months the girls change that sit on his sagged couch... after which explains the working of Sextant time after time." "Look through this." "Move your hooks." "Hold it like that." " Yes." "After his final examinations in medicine Anton specializes in anaesthetics." "In 1960 he spends the Easter Days in Londen." "That's right." "What's right?" "I'm a stewardess." "But now I'm here to pick up my father." "He has an appointment with old acquaintances." "A kind of reunion." "A reunion?" "In London?" " Yes." "Something from the war." "He never talks about it much." "I must hurry." "I'm too late." "Oh Lord, they're already waiting." "See you soon?" "Yes, see you soon." " Bye." "Can I call you?" " Yes, of course." "A year later they got married." "Their daughter was named Sandra." "In Vietnam, war rages." "1966." "The Netherlands has its own share of problems." "A small group of young people, the provo's... is putting authorities to great inconvenience by making a fool of them." "It's a year of demonstrations and riots." "In the summer of that year Anton, Saskia en Sandra attend... the funeral of a friend of Saskia's father." "Who are they, daddy?" "They fought against the Germans during the war." "What exactly is war, dad?" " A big fight." "When two groups of people cut off each others heads." "Hey, easy on it." " You think?" "Is that man in there now?" "Look, there's grandfather." "Grandfather." "Lien, children, friends." "In the long, frightening years... of our deepest setbacks and highest triumphs... we all lived a thousand lives." "And with every fiber of those lives we were... no, we are united with Henk." "Friendship never dies, loyalty never dies." "The body will be buried, but his voice remains audible... in the words that he had written down himself only a short while ago." "'When I will die, I already died a thousand deaths... and when I fall, I will fall into a line that started out ages ago." "And over me others will fall who still offered resistance." "Justice." "O, heart of the better country... love, that I will drink as fresh wine... come sink into the dark of the graves... awaken me, and I will rise... and shine in the light that I passionately desired.'" "That is the way we ought to know him." "Hey." "It's like a reunion." " Half of the resistance is here." "I hope they won't notice." " Who?" "The Germans, of course." " Stop it." "As far as I'm concerned that Vietnamese Liberation Front... can be equated to the nazi's." " You're becoming an old prick." "To you the Americans are still the same." "Forget about that." "Jaap, you're forgetting one thing." " The Russians also liberated us." "And they are on the right side again." " Dirty communists." "Fine fellas." " My ass." "From '44 you fought against those fine fellas." "After all you don't exchange one dictatorship for the other?" "Prick." " This will be a great conversation." "Do you know those lines of Sjoerd?" "'A nation that yields to tyrants, loses more than just body and good." "Then the light turns off.' Tomorrow." "Do you know why he joined the resistance?" "For the little princesses." "What's better than a party at Soestdijk?" "Men in dress uniform, ladies in long dresses with sparkling jewels..." "The glittering of chandeliers... and the tinkling of crystal glasses of champagne." "And the hope for a glimpse of Her Majesty herself." "And far behind the fences in the drizzle... guarded by the military police, the gazing masses." "Beautiful." "He's serious about it too, god damnit." " If I would think like that, I would feel ashamed." "Fierce afternoon." "The masses throw smoke bombs at that Royal Family of yours as well." "Smoke bombs?" "At first I shot him in his back." "And while I was cycling past him in his shoulder and his stomach." "Was that shooting in Haarlem?" "What do you know about that?" " Was is about Ploeg?" "Fake Ploeg?" "Who are you?" "How old are you?" "It happened in front of our house." "Almost." " In front of your..." "Oh, oh." "This is not good." "I'm Cor Takes." "And you are Steenwijk?" " Anton Steenwijk." "They call me Gijs." "Look, a wreath from the Queen." "Why?" "It's not my problem anymore." "What happened, happened." "It's more than 20 years ago." "I have a wife, a child and a nice job." "Everything is alright." "Why did you say something then?" "You didn't have to say anything, did you?" "How old were you then?" " Twelve." "Did you know him, that bastard?" " His son was in my class." "Shall I tell you what kind of person that Ploeg was?" "I don't mind if you don't." " I do." "He'd use a whip with a wire to whipe the skin off your face." "He'd push your bare bottom against the hot stove." "He'd put a garden hose in your ass so that you would puke your own shit." "He had to be taken care of." "Yes or yes?" "Yes." "We knew that reprisals would be made." "Mr. Takes..." " Gijs." "You don't have to defend yourself." "I'm not attacking you." "Alright, we knew that reprisals would be made." "House up in flames, hostages against the wall..." "Is that why we had to keep it?" " I don't know." "The answer is no." "Your family would have lived if we would have killed Ploeg somewhere else." "Then I would have been here with someone else." "If this, if that." "Fact is everyone was killed by who killed them." "Ploeg by us, your family by the krauts." "If you think we shouldn't have done it... then you should also think that human nature is bad." "All love and happiness and goodness of our world... wouldn't make up then for the death of just one child." "Your child, for example." "Is that what you think?" "So we killed Ploeg." " Does it make up for that then?" "We knew at least one house would be destroyed." "We picked your street because it was quiet there." "If your parents were living there, would you still have done it then?" "Among those hostages did was my youngest brother." "My mother knew about it." "She agreed with it." "You can still go and ask her." "She's still alive, she's 81." "You look as if it was my fault, damnit." "I was only twelve." "I was reading or something." "That it happened in front of your house, was by mere coincidence." "It didn't happen in front of our house." "It happened at the neighbours' house." "They put him in front of our house." "A good neighbour is better than a distant friend." "What kind of people were they?" "A widower and his daughter." "A seaman." "I thank You." "That can happen too of course, giving coincidence a helping hand." "Should that be allowed?" "Blame them." "No, I'm asking because my brother wanted to put him back." "Or put him further away." "But then the police arrived." "What a fuss." "Moving back and forth a dead body." "What should have happened then?" " Bring him in." "Go figure." "They would have heard shots then, but they wouldn't find a thing." "What about the body?" " You should have buried it." "Or even better:" "Eaten it." "Yes, eaten it." "Bake it with the neighbours and eat it." "It was hungry winter after all?" "Don't you think that never happened in the war." "It all happened." "It's easy for you to say." "You were in a gang of thugs, you thought about such things." "And I think you're still doing that." "But we were reading at the table... and then suddenly we heard the shots." " Then I would have thought of that too." "Anyhow, there wouldn't have been time for that." "Although, first there were some arguments." "I'm gonna put him back." " Peter, you're playing with your life." "Not me, you." "You're all crazy." "Retards, all of you." "So the Beumers lived here, you there, Korteweg there and Aarts here." "Right?" "Right." "But where did that asshole lay first then?" " Here, at Korteweg." "Why, of all places, did that seaman put the body in front of your door... and not there, at Aarts?" " I wondered about that too." "There must have been a reason for that." "Did he hate you?" " Not that I know of." "Rather the other neighbours." "And you never attempted to find the reason why they did it?" "It happened the way it happened and that's the way it is." "Nothing can change what happened." "Understanding it won't help either." "Why do you still want that case clear?" "Can't you live outside of the war?" "Or do you regret it now?" "I'd do it again if I had to." "But in front of your place..." "Back then... something happened." "Looking back, I wish it wouldn't have happened." "Because of my family?" " No..." "I'm sorry to say that to you." "Your family and those hostages weren't the only victims." "There was someone else at the assault." "We were with the two of us." "Me... and let's just say... my girlfriend." "What now?" "How did she die?" "Three weeks before the liberation she was executed in the dunes." "She was buried at the honour cemetery." "Why do you take it to heart?" "Because I know her." "I spoke with her." "I was in a cell with her that night." "Did she say who she was?" " No, but I'm sure of it." "Did she say she committed that assault?" " Neither." "But I'm sure it was her." "Then what did she look like, damnit?" " I don't know." "It was as dark as pitch." "What did she say?" "You should at least remember something?" " I wish I did." "It's such a long time ago." "She was wounded." "Where?" " I don't know." "It must have been her." "When we went around the corner, Ploeg still managed to hit her." "What was her name?" " Coster." "Truus Coster." "There they are, those fools." " Look, there's daddy." "Daddy." "Goodness." "Are you crying here?" "Come, let's eat somewhere." " And no more talk about that war." "We prefer to go to the beach." "Will we eat in Amsterdam?" " I hope not." "With all the provo's of course?" "No, thanks." "This is where our ways part then." "Wait." "Bye, Gijs." "How do you feel now, boy?" " I'm fine, dad." "Gijs was tortured by the Gestapo." "He didn't give away a thing." "Now he's sitting next to you and he's spilling the beans." "It cancels each other out." "What do you mean with that?" " I don't really know that myself either." "Keep a hold of yourself, boy." "That's the main thing." "Maybe it's a good thing that you met Gijs today." "Apparently, sometime it has to come up for all of us, our disease." "You don't look like you have a problem with anything." "You go and have fun at the beach." "It's cold further on." "How do you feel?" "Good... fine." "Let it go now." "I have, really." "What's wrong?" "What's the problem?" " They're cutting up a jellyfish." "You stay here." "We're going to do some shopping at the village for a moment." "See you soon." "Have you read the newspaper?" "100,000's of lives are on his conscience." "Seriously ill." "Just wait till he arrived in Germany." "A lot of people get sick for real when they read messages like that." "But that Roman clique in The Hague doesn't give a damn." "Because 'liebe Willy' has been a Papist for years as well." "A forced reform in prison saved him from the bullet." "Your parents came under him as well." " Not under the present wreck." "Hand me that wreck and I'll cut off his throat here and now." "With a pocketknife." "It's still war." "Right, Takes?" " Certainly, certainly." "It's what I live from." "A benefit from the Foundation '40-'45." "Founded by Mr. A. Hitler." "Cheers, doctor Steenwijk." "I've worked for your branch as well." "We killed traitors at an anatomical institute." "Entire bathtubs full of guts, noses, ears, dicks." "All for education." " What do you want, Takes?" "Initiate me?" "I've had my share." "You know that better than anyone." "I want you to know who you are dealing with." "Come." "Is it her?" "It must be." "What did she say?" "Anything about me?" " I don't remember." "Try to remember, asshole." " I was twelve." "It was dark in the police office." "Which police office?" " Of Heemstede." "Heemstede?" "Jesus, we could have gotten her out of there." "We thought they held her at Haarlem." "I remember she told a long story about something." "You'd prefer to tie me up now and beat it out of me, don't you?" "Were you married?" "I would have abandonded my wife and kids for her without hesitating." "But... she said that I didn't feel love for her." "That it was only feeling the excitement of working for the resistance." "Long stories?" "She was good at that." "One time we discussed about taking hostage the children of Seyss-lnquart." "She was against it." "It was fighting fascism with fascism." "She stayed late that night." "And it was so dark and so foggy... that she got lost." "She sat at the street until it was light again." "I think I dreamt about such thing once." "Compared to her I was a clodhopper, although I was doing mathematics." "She was a philosopher." "Is that her pistol?" " That's her pistol." "Did she shoot Ploeg with that thing?" " And she hit him." "Only I was very stupid that night." "We were riding hand in hand." "Very slowly, like a loving couple." "As far as I'm concerned, we were." "Good morning to you, too." "Watch it." "I always thought that it was the scream of Ploeg." "And then?" "What happened next?" "And then?" "And then and then and then." "Then an elephant came... with a very tall trunk... and it blew out the entire story." "Gijs, I can't anymore." "Gijs, get out of here." "It's over, I can feel it." "Get out of here." "Gijs, I don't feel my legs anymore." "Gijs, get out of here now." "They will never find us here." "Or else we will shoot us through." "Here." "They are here." "Help, help." "Here, here." "Bitch." "Help." "They are here, here in my garden." "Here, take this." "Don't worry." "I will turn out all right." "Just go, Gijs." "I would have like to talk to that traitress with this." "Good evening, Madam." "How are you?" "And the kids?" "She is a sweet granny too now." "Do you remember the man who sat next to me at the funeral yesterday?" "Of course, that was me." "The man on the other side who I was talking with." "Vaguely." "He said back in '52 when Lages was pardoned..." "'If they will ever release him, I will kill myself.'" "We were laughing." "Back then." "Anton finally found out who, in a cell in January 1945... managed to control his life up to this moment." "Anton and Saskia separated from each other in 1967." "They remained good friends." "Anton remarries to Liesbeth." "She is from after the war." "Her parents were prisoners in a camp in Indonesia for years." "They never talked about it." "Anton and Liesbeth got a son who they named Peter." "In Lucca, Tuscany, he buys a house where they spend their vacations." "In spite of everything he feels depressed and tired." "Nightmares disturb his sleep." "Like an autumn leaf blown off, a shred of desperation flutters inside of him." "A feeling, until now only experienced by him when a patient has died in his hands." "Peter, stay with daddy." "I'm getting a doctor." "I'll be right back." "Anton sleeps for fifteen hours" "When he awakes, there's a prescription which he shreds." "After a while, the attacks didn't come back." "It seemed as if they were intimidated by the shredding of the prescription." "Only his view of Tuscany was never again as wonderful as it was before." "One day, Sandra said she wanted to see where her grandfather and grandmother had died." "This is where the Aartsen lived or so." "And here Korteweg, the nurse." "And that's where Beumers lived, he always read to me." "Then where was that man laying?" "Here." "And where's the monument?" " Oh, it's over there." "Do you know what that Mr. Beumer said once?" "Gherkins are like crocodiles." "Yes, that's true." "These are the people that were shot then." "It must have been a nice sight." "All those little lights at night." "It was always dark back then." " By day I mean." "I like those." "Nice buildings." "Back then it was completely empty." "Look, here are the names of grandpa and grandma." "And of my brother." "I don't know the others." "Only his brother..." "I know him." "He's..." "What are you trying to say, dad?" " No, nothing." "Nothing." "There was the Ortskommandantur." "It used to be an old hotel." "The entire area was closed off by the Germans." "That was the garage." "From there I was brought to Amsterdam." "Come." "At the morning I was with that German Feldwebel eating that delicious sandwich." "While at the same moment in that police cell she may have..." "Wasn't she responsible for what happened to you?" "Who did it, did it." "Not someone else." "Have you ever visited the place where they were buried?" "We will do that now then." "I want to see it all now." "And me too." "Because I love him too... even though he doesn't know that." "He thinks not, but I love him." "Daddy, are you still here?" "What is it?" "All of a sudden I remember something that she said to me back then." "What?" "She said she loved someone." "And I know who." "Is he still alive?" "He's still alive." "Who is he?" "Say, mister." "How long has that building been there?" "It used to be old junk." "It was flattened five years ago." "East and West are still opposed to each other." "For the first time there are mentions of a limited nuclear war." "But for Europe such a war would be unlimited." "If we will be in the Achterhoek at 10.30..." " It's getting worse all the time." "I really can't eat a thing." "You go alone then." "I have to get that molar fixed." "Have you called Gerrit-Jan already?" " Let us stay home then as well." "Gerrit-Jan?" "This is Liesbeth Steenwijk speaking." "Yes." "Alright then, quickly." "Anton is racked with pain." "Oh, no?" "Come on now, old friends." "You have to." "Now?" "Tell him that yourself." "As long as you help him, the pain is killing him." "Thank you, very sweet." "See you soon." "You have to hurry, he is about to leave." " As long as he helps me." "Here, a clove." "Hold it against your molar." "They used to do that in Indonesia as well." "What's with you all of a sudden?" "It's only a clove." "Sit down." "Let me see, friend." "Which one is it?" "This one." "Gently move back and forth." "I already see it." "I would appreciate an injection." " Don't be mad, it's nothing." "Right, you can close it now." "It's gone." "How can that be?" " A small overload." "Your molar had come up." "A matter of age." "Just wash for a moment." "We will go then." " Go where?" "Didn't Liesbeth tell you of my condition?" "Condition?" "You will walk in the anti-nuke demonstration." "Me?" "Walk in a demonstration?" "Are you out of your mind?" "That was the deal." "You're such a bastard." "In the past you also tried to force me into fighting the communism." "Each weapon that was ever made, was used as well." "Just like the apple from the Tree of Knowledge." "It hung there and it was eaten." "That's why all the nuke apples have to go." "Come on." "Can I go too, dad?" " Of course." "Say, Ton." "I'm taking the shortest way." "Demonstrating is one thing, walking the right way is another." "And back at the car at six, alright?" "Hey, dad." "I can't believe it." "Great." "I never imagined this." "I was blackmailed." " Hi, Anton." "You're on the right side." "I actually expected you over there:" "Police or National Security Service." "We should take those camera's from them." "Then it will be a fight." " We'll do that by accident of course." "You made my daughter pregnant." " It's that time again." "Bye, dad." "Bye, Peter." "Where's Peter?" "Tonny, do you remember me?" "Let me think." "From the hospital?" " Haarlem." "You know." "Karin Korteweg, from the neighbours." "I recognized you instantly." "You haven't changed at all." " That's what I hear more." "I don't know if it's a good sign." "Are you still in nursing?" " Not for a long time." "I have an allowance." "That was your daughter, right?" "And your son?" " Yes." "What's his name?" " Peter." "Do you have any kids?" " No, I never got married." "Karin, let's get to the point." "You want to tell me something and I want to know it." "I thought he came to kill us for what we had done." "Peter." "Get rid of the pistol." "Soon they will think you..." "Give me that pistol." "We will hide it in the house." "Here, give it." "Shut up." "If they will find us here, they will think that we..." "So he was lucky that Peter was holding you at gunpoint?" "Nuclear weapons get rid of them." "Nuclear weapons get rid of them." "Father and I were taken by the Germans." "We were both interrogated separately." "Peter Steenwijk had nothing to do with it." "He didn't kill Ploeg." " We know that." "It was a woman." "A woman of your age." "What did Peter do with Ploeg's pistol?" "He was furious at us." " Furious?" "Why?" " Because..." "Because Ploeg was really laying in front of our door... and we put him at their place." "Congratulations." "Congratulations." "Karin, we will never talk about this anymore." "Understood?" "Later on I heard that you were moved." "Emigrated, to New Zealand." " My goodness." "He was affraid that you would ever want to avenge yourself." "Me?" "That never even occurred to me." " Well, it did to him." "That's why he wanted to go to the other side of the world." "To New Zealand." "In New Zealand he committed suicide in 1948." "At the end he didn't need you to get killed." "You were inside of him." "It's Ploeg." " Oh, God." "My lizards." "So basically the lizards killed my parents and Peter." "Those creatures were something like eternity and immortality to him." "They were his only hold during the war." "He was so unhappy." "Have you heard?" "The Steenwijks were killed last night." "As soon as we got home, he kicked them all to death." "They were only lizards to him again, only some animals." "One last thing." "You saw Ploeg, you went outside." "Your father grabbed him at the shoulders, you at the feeth." "Why did you put him at our place?" "And not at the other side, at Aarts?" " I wanted to, I wanted to." "Where do you want to put him?" " Near the front door of the Aarts." "No, they have people in hiding." "There are Jews there." "Christ." "I saw those Jews the first time after Liberation Day." "A couple with a baby." "Karin, excuse me." "I wish you..." "The best." "Hey, daddy." "subtitles re-synched for 2 CD's by Tegogolo"