"He jumped out of bed... still high on last night's drinks." "Clattering with water, shattering the plates." "It's going to cost Carl a packet, today." "That shithead." "The rain felt posh and refined." "The clouds seemed extremely low." "No îear in: a sudden change 'm me weather." "He stepped into his tired shoes, still wet." "He could not possibly corne at Carl's before 9 o'clock." "That successful bore." "It would take a lot for him to achieve the same." "There he went, step by step." "That way it would take 15 min. longer." "The chosen path had to be followed, a mission to be accomplished." "What's the time?" "Much of what is hidden will corne to light." "Unexpected talents will alter the appearance of things." "Gond momïng}." "'fume the doormam presume'?" "My dear friend, could you tell me when it's a quarter to nine?" "Self-knowledge is a first requirement!" "Îhe courage tu face the week spots 'm onés character." "Do they pay you enough?" "L have a feeling they are abusing your human position." "A powerful protest to the management wouldn't be misplaced." "This is a suggestion." "L know I don't have to repeat this to you." "Do you want to see someone?" "My wife should be here any minute." "She knows them all." "Not me." "I'm only in charge ofthe central heating." "It's 20 to nine, Sir." "Thank you." "Pdght on 'âme." "In the best position and well balanced." "Not the moment to feel insecure." "That bitter taste of financial dependence... pamcxflatw oî Cafl ms 'âme." "Thank god they don't wave goodbye, those nice modem people." "Carl, my fine friend." "You look splendid, as usual." "Look at those smart cuffs and that gorgeous jacket." "All those stripes, stripes everywhere." "Are you crazy?" "In this weather?" "You could have realized that." "Don't misunderstand me, I promised Walijne." "You know how much she is looking fowvard to such things." "If it gets any worse I can always give her a lemonade." "You have to realize Carl that I'm doing it for you." "L didn't walk all this way for fun." "Did you walk?" "So, if you really love Walijne that much... and if you want her to have a pleasant day... just pull out your wallet and count your banknotes... because money, my dear, is the last thing I can give you." "Akhough the gates ci heaven are dosed, gond deeds are rewarded." "Good-bye, 'fine' fellow." "Oh no..." "Bernd, don't." "Medusa, you look awful, even in the morning." "Your hair, and that shabby dressing-gown." "Carl spends too much on his own clothes." "She's punished, she's not allowed to leave her room." "It's nonsense to fetch Walijne in this weather." "A bright day is ahead of us." "'(ou are mad." "You can't stay here when I leave." "Carl doesn't like that!" "Ijust want to know if you will leave Walijne alone." "It's none of your business." "L know your kind..." "Pimps, bums... parasites." "You all hate Carl... but at least he achieves something." "He is worth more in his little finger than all of you." "You realize Medusa... we've gotten along for years." "Although I still get sick... when I recall us drawing lots who was going... to visit you in the maternity ward... tu avoïd the appearance 0E îatherhood... but still bringing you fruit and magazines." "10 days long, that's real fidelity." "What do you know about Carl and me?" "L loved Carl and he was kind to Walijne." "L don't blame you for choosing... a successflù persan, Medusa." "Who would have wanted to marry you, even if he'd had the money." "You are Carl's ideal." "Among all those fine woman he knew... you were a new sensation to him... I still recall you driving away... with Walijne tucked away like a piece of baggage on the backseat." "Sorry Bernd." "L couldn't help it." "I'm rather nervous lately." "You should take Walijne along." "Getüng up earw had been toc much." "Thousands have each other, I only have my drinking." "He heard Walijne's voice." "She moved fast and loud over the floorboards." "Hear this, friends and family." "The darling causes a lot of noise." "Hello Uncle Bernard, Have you corne to fetch me?" "That was it." "No wonder a clumsy visitor... remarked Walijne looked exactly like him." "A beautiful girl." "Hadn't she any trousers to cover that brace?" "Get out." "Uncle Bernd, you've been drinking, haven't you?" "L smelled it but I didn't tell Mummy." "L didn't drink anything." "L don't want you to pay any attention to it even if I did." "I'm not taking you for a walk to be reminded of sick people." "Are you also scared that it's going to crash?" "Hello Walijne, going for a nice walk?" "With madam's lover, yes Sir?" "And hands off... you could be carrying a contagious disease." "Is she still looking at us?" "She is, uncle Bernard." "It was nice walking with Walijne." "To talk to her, even if she couldn't hear him." "It lessened the futility of his talking into the void." "Evew flme he kaoked at het he fie" me. compassion." "How would she do without him... and more so - how could he do without her?" "On 'me booze hey, and not pawng'.!" "Sorry Louis, ljust have to bring this girl to the doctor." "We're waiting for the tram." "She is walking with leg irons as you can see." "That's all Louis." "I'll pay you next month." "L hope you'll give me some money for the tram fare." "Next week I have money again and I'll buy the drinks." "He recovered." "Walijne was a dear." "She put wet grass on his head... as if it were uncommonly powerful herbs." "He felt more like hugging her and crying." "Îhe msew oî ms wofld... has not been revealed to the godless, Walijne." "Do you notice it, Walijne?" "No, it has almost gone." "How are you?" "Did you get back alright?" "Don't you remember me, Mr. Lelieveld?" "They could rob me in a broad daylight... and people will just watch." "God in heaven... let me take Walijne with me on my flight if I may choose." "L promise Thee not to go to distant countries." "L just want to settle on the moors or in the marshes." "Stay inside the limits." "Let your will be done." "You'll get dirty if you play in the sand." "Iwill be careful." "Ijust bend over." "Do you want chips or meatball?" "My father won't let me eat chips." "He says I always make a mess." "That's nothing to do with me." "I'll look after your education." "Defit ever mention mm mess. vou have tu." "Don't ever call him father in my presence, he's a substitute." "You were part of the deal, along with your mother." "You're pinching me." "L haven't been naughty." "Don't talk to me like that." "He bought a big shell for Walijne... and let her listen to the rush of her blood... which she recognized as me sound 0E me sea." "Can you hear Walijne... how royal choral singing fills the air and enlightens our journey?" "Have a light for me, please?" "Thank you." "This is what I like!" "Slow moving and rheumatic among the furrowed men... standing on the breakwaters... by the su" and... bemg battered by 'me vfmd." "With the back turned against the happy day-trippers... as they admire the small flounders in the net... lying into the massive greyness of winter unresisting... until the November storms were weeping inside him... as in an empty, worthless barrel." "Old bore!" "Suddenly, in sharp focus... he saw them walking." "A child hopping along full of confidence in him... but aheady damaged befime her "fie had stamed." "And he 'm hïs îaded scat... surrounded by an aura of contempt... and totally empty loneliness." "Nobody knows how I see myself lost and useless, he thought." "An empty day ahead of them." "What can I do for you?" "L want to order something." "Are you 'me wfltress'?" "In that case you don't have any sense of decorum." "Go 'même, put on a 5km and an apmn and take o"... your sunglasses, they're totally superfluous in this weather." "I'm not the waitress I am the daughter of the owner." "Why don't you get your mother, you could be telling me anything." "I'm leading a dangerous life and don't take any risks." "Are you managing, Babs?" "Any problems, Sir?" "Not in the least, madam." "Corne and join me, please." "Get me another home oî beer, phase." "Warm it up under your armpit... or in another intimate spot." "What do you mean?" "An old custom, honoured by the people I belong to, Madam." "How peculiar, are you Jewish perhaps?" "An unexpected compliment." "80m;" "Madam, do you want a friand or an enemy'?" "Wasn't I right?" "Always joking." "I know all about it." "They don't call this place the Jewish corner for nothing." "All old customers coming here when the weather is nice." "They seem to smell it." "No wonder they like coming here." "I'll tell you something." "'Ne had '25 oî them at the îarm 'm me war." "All youngsters who would have been sent to work in Germany." "They helped us a lot." "It was lonely for them of course, but my father allowed them... in turns to have family-visitors from town." "My father was a good organiser." "He was very shrewd." "Nobody suspected the "Oflskommandatufl tu be perîectw 'mîormed." "Y ou navet knew at first what Kmd oi paume vou were getïmg." "The ladies discovered my weakness... and instead of containing it they took advantage of it." "The day has become enjoyable after all." "Keep out of here!" "This is a bad place!" "I'm sorry Madam but I can't help having the feeling... that you and your daughter are in "the business"." "L don't know yet if I'll inform the police." "How much is it?" "40 guilders and 25 cents." "Is that all-in?" "With service." "You know very well you're not allowed to charge service-money." "You're not even allowed to serve." "You're breaking the law." "You will understand that under these circumstances." "L am no longer obliged to pay." "He asked Walijne:" ""do you like being with me?"" "Suddenly she stopped." "L forgot my shell." "She was very upset." "Only the sound of sea and wind." "Iwant a shell like that as well." "Corne in sir, and take your pick." "L just took the them out the oven." "They are still warm." "Maybe we can du something for each omet." "Your solid build and light tread... suggest a paradise." "You've got each other, haven't you?" "Give me that shell." "The darling..." "So naïve." "Hey you fag, do you sell beer?" "But of course!" "Such a charming boy gets all he wants!" "Pipi, have a look at our private stock... while I enjoy myself with this young man." "How much du you want tu take hum me'?" "Îhtee homes and an opener." "Don't pay attention to that ass." "L am ashamed of him, can you believe that?" "He's flouting that delightful love between men." "If you knew how many chances I get here at my old age!" "But that one spoils everything." "And who is paying for that?" "That broad gesture doesn't mean you don't hurt him a lot!" "Each time he meets a nice little boy the most delightful... and promising contacts are ended by your vulgar appearance." "'(ou sflnk... and even the mildest people would wish... to punch you in the face." "So, do change Pipi." "It's easy enough, just think about yourself." "Go to the whores, or lie down in front of a steamroller." "He had the bottles... but where was Walijne?" "He went cold with fear." "You didn't lose a child like an old hankie." "Finally he saw her under the pier... lonely and lost." "You are the dearest uncle in the world." "My robe shines... but onw in: those who want tu see 'u." "Gond aflemoon, yodre onw uämg the une char'?" "Throw those pink birds away." "That's the penalty for your haste." "Onw the su" flses '(or notkÿmg." "Corne on Walijne, we'll sit down later when that man has gone." "Oh yes?" "No way." "You'll have to pay to use that chair in any case." "You sat in it." "Only the sun is free." "Everywhere I meet people I have to argue with... as they want something from me I don't have." "You'll have to pay!" "I must get the money!" "You're sitting there boozing with the child, you rat!" "What do you want '(mm me'?" "Does my lack of character show on my face that clearly?" "You're seeing me." "Give me wisdom and teach me resignation." "Let your remark be forgiven up there, but here I'll smash you." "'(ou see the sand and the traces 0E me vfmd'?" "You will be forgotten as soon as I've killed you." "Friend of all children nobody loves you." "I'll bury you in that pit, next year they'll play with your bones." "Shut up!" "Your humble presence bears a divine mark as well... even though the sun is slowly sinking for you by now." "The democratic system is shaking already." "The decadent capitalistic imperialism is loosing its breath." "With a supreme effort..." "linked with enormous sacrifices, threatening to disjoint... the comfortable existence of farmer and labourer... une managed tu beat back me horde... but a few key-points are still in the hands of barbarians... from which cries are rising... hum raped women and emascmated nokflemen." "God be with me and the throwing of the atomic-grenade be blessed... with which he ends the life of so many people again." "The world is full ofwars... and rumeurs about wars." "Crops are failing... and the doctor is desperate... by the discovery of another incurable disease." "Where is my loyalty, my self-respect... he thought." "It takes experience and knowledge... to contain the effect of alcohol, if possible." "Only this gives deep and longer pleasure." "The explosion has more violence." "Just drop like dead from the bar." "Better that I disappear from Walijne's world." "God sees it." "He is my witness." "L barely manage to keep up appearances for her." "It would be better if I need not do that." "There goes your love." "You can't fight against time." "People will speak badly about me... and you'll end up believing them." "If you could have gone through it all with me from the beginning tot the end... you would be protected against slander." "Don't you understand I am a saint?" "A panoramic view... on wide streams..." "Walijne." "L want to be alone with you... with a hunting rifle... which can be used Ieft-handed as well." "Uncle Bernard, are we going?" "Unless all signals fail, Walijne... this will be another goodbye without paying." "Good to meet you here, Nicholas!" "Hey Bemd, what are you ddmg have'?" "Walking with my girl." "These are your wife and child, I presume?" "You seem rather silly to me." "Snow-white in the glass-coffin." "L won't make jokes about your unpublished poems." "'(Qu'à bette: put on a scafi." "Walijne, shake hands with that little boy." "Tonie, take care of the children and I take care of your husband." "By the way, do you know your husband is more interesting... and writes beautiful poems?" "Actually you are a vain but rather nice fellow." "Someone like you doesn't need a woman." "Y ou sfld se yourse" se beauflîuw 'm une oi your poems." "In which one, do you remember?" " Which one?" "It has been quite some time." "Very beautiful, fresh and sensitive... but so eloquent..." "You can't blame me for not exactly recalling the words." "'(ou are creaflng s0 much." "Nicholas." "Trendy pubs and vague parties." "Nicholas had achieves fame... with so far unpublished poems." "Reluctantly he proposed a walk on the beach." "Nicholas, you have a complex personality." "You don't blame me for not always understanding you?" "The only thing that matters... is the putting into words... ci the authenflc truth." "Nicholas, lthought that after his 20th year a poet... has to be very talented, unless he wants to make a fool of himself." "Now, while I listen to your monotonous voice... heavy but so dull, modest as you are... you are like a jamming station." "Imperturbable." "You don't really have to listen but you still hear it." "Yes indeed!" "A jamming station." "A good figure of speech." "Iwill remember that one." "Didn't we drink last time!" "A beautiful memory, Nicholas." "But now we have tu go back tu me sea-Eront... or we'll pass some places where l'd rather not show myself." "No beer for me but a gin." "You'll have to go to the Schiedam- Distillery." "They have plenty!" "Ad fundum, Nicholas." "It's time to fetch your wife now." "Poets are must recepflve... and often drive their friends desperate." "Îhey "sten su intensew tu thek 'wmer vokzes... that they mistake a vaine hum outskie... as coming from within them." "To avoid this, Nicholas, I took your watch as... so that no woman can coerce you... which you'll regret later!" "Of course I'll corne back, Bernd!" "Strange, you wanting it back." "Can you hand this to the gentleman when he cornes back?" "This gentleman is just going to get his purse." "This round is on you?" "A matter of speech, Nicholas... to curtail the mutual distrust." "M ed usa?" "Gond youwe at home." "Usten, ms mormng... I wanted to kiss you... very hard on your lips." "Ijust took the girl along." "She wanted to stay there." "Who is it?" "Your niece?" "Where is she now?" "Can't we sit down at a table?" "Those leg irons look awful." "Sir, sir, sir!" "I got my purse!" "It's clear to me... that it's going to be a nice day." "Corne, sit down and relax." "The oak tree and the acorn... where my father's leaves stripped of... is rustling with his branches... and watches the bark of my motherwith pleasure... an ant becomes a cripple because of my fall." "Bitch!" "L might become a giant of the forest... shaking my fist to my father, growing all crooked." "Fantastic figure of speech, fantastic..." "Congratulations with your talents my friend." "Disgusting." "What am I doing here in this sticky atmosphere of communal sense?" "Bitch." "Nicholas, you reached the first and most difficult phase... of total drunkenness." "You are feeling blue... you just want to go to bed and sleep." "There's only one remedy:" "Go on with it." "He'll have to drive." "That's a pity." "You'll probably have to push your car home." "You hear what Tonie says?" "A poet has reached ms sky." "Isn't he used to drinking?" "He's often like that." "Drinking is better..." "Khan expeflmenüng wüh drugs." "Y ou tmnk su'?" "Aï mg home they smuked hetoin someümes." "Nicholas wanted to see what happened." "Like Lou Reed, he said." "Nicholas tries to behave... in a stereotype way... by all means..." "No personality at all." "He will not even become a headmaster this way." "'(ou are se sweet... you've nice ways... you're nice to look at... and your cooking - on what little money he lets you - delicious... but the main thing is... that you're so soft..." "'Ne missed each omet." "Let's make the best of it!" "Stop it." "Only if you promise me I may corne and visit you at home." "That's impossible." "People..." "Julia..." "What are you whispering?" "Not messing around are you?" "!" "Look, Nicholas managed to tear his shirt." "You're wearing wool on the unprotected skin." "It doesn't give you a rash, itching and red spots?" "Dam n it, Tonie!" "Poor Nicholas." "It can't be mended." "Impossible to follow the fine structure of the fabric." "It will always be thicker... at the joints." "If your name were Louis, it could have been a monogram." "Always something wrong with me!" "The highlight of the feast is over." "Tonie, I advise you to pour coffee... down his throat." "Nicholas, be nice and polite to your young wife." "She will warn the innkeeper... and revise your arrogant mind." "Not out of love at first sight... but try to appreciate it nevertheless." "L am bound to have a hangover tomorrow... but the day after I'll corne and have lunch at yours." "You promise you'll really corne, Bernd?" "Try to vomit." "Careful, don't wake up Julia..." "'Nhy dm you stay away such a km9 "me?" "Ifthe sun had been shining... it would have been the end of us." "Uncle Bernard?" "Uncle Bernard." "Uncle Bernard." "What is the time?" "What is the time?" "Don't pay any attention to my stinking breath." "Only when I am falling over I'm really drunk." "L am drinking... because I have great sorrow... but mainly because I'm predisposed to it." "L am not afraid of a hangover." "The British are the heaviest drinkers." "The Americans too... but they are nom anyway, drunhi sober." "But you will not hear the English... and you will not notice anything." "A Campari for me." "L cannot join this gentleman with his whiskey... with a simple gin." "Are you working abroad?" "Yes." "Ghana, Africa." "You must be on leave." "You took your family?" "L am a bachelor." "The negro-girls must have been overworked then!" "Insiders say that the tropical climate... stimulates the male potency a lot." "Forget it." "Shall we play dice?" "Not me. I always win." "L made a living out of it for a long time." "My name resounds like a whip-lash still... on the slow-moving steamers on the Mississippi." "A stage of great lucidity." "He dances carefree and uninhibited." "He heard the clatter of dice on the bar." "The man from Ghana still played with the barmaid." "The attitude of the people was despicable." "Disloyalty and the inability to talk... was what he saw '(une and agam." "How little notice they took of him." "Undesewed, he was convinced ci that." "Time to blow up the world." "If trade had been more interested in him as a customer... there was no reason left for humanity to survive." "This wasn't working out." "L can just as well shut up." "By now they were all violently against him." "Hey, don't sleep here." "You are mistaken!" "Iwas only bending over... not so much out of exhaustion but rather out of humility... '(or mg stfihng supeflofùy... in this small group of people, dilapidated by life." "They've the wrong impression of me... that's for sure!" "A warning is necessary." "Dofit be fument... by this skull covered with black hair." "The colour is unreal." "Think ofthe negro girls in Ghana." "They all have a more beautiful bosom... in which no calculation is hidden." "You travelled a lot... and îathomed the secrets 0E me sea." "You contemplated the tropical firmament... and sounded the market for the sale of the plantation-products!" "L couldn't bear the sight of you... being shipwrecked in a small bar near home." "It's nail polish flowing where it can't." "Corne on boy, go home." "Such nonsense!" "Only an attempt to join in the conversation." "Most objectionable, I suddenly realize that..." "How stupid of me!" "Although I'm not acting on impulse normally!" "Excuse me, am I not articulating clearly?" "Ordo I make obscene gestures?" "Do I topple off my chair continuously or do I move with jerks?" "Beautm mords are no use tu me." "Pay and go home." "L have no home." "But I feel at ease with you." "Akhough youwe net beauïmfl and vaut dothes nui su decent... your personality is shining with simplicity." "Do as you Iike, the day has only just started for you." "They are fed up with me." "Who belongs to that poor child standing outside?" "Where had you gone?" "It's a shame." " He reeks of alcohol." "Mind your own business!" "Y ou: chfldren can get poisoned at me. vew moment." "We quickly get a taxi and go nicely home." "Y ou' d bettet, îathefl.!" "Are we going home?" "0% course).!" "Hello, my friend." "A member of the family... has 'yust nome home hum a dangerous 'pumev abroad." "His many experiences cannot be summed up in extensor." "The only thing of importance now is that he's totally burnt... by the blazing sun and suffers from malaria." "He is asking me to fetch some gin to ease his pain a Iittle." "Are you une oî mg customers'?" " Sure." "My wife regularly orders my urgently needed crates of beer." "On dockers advïce ci course).!" "I have a serious deficiency of vitamin B complex!" "L don't believe a word of it but I'll help you." "Hide that bottle a bit." "'(ou dom mind me havmg a beer now'?" "Give some lemonade to Walijne... and have a drink yourself." "Îhaïs gond." "Don't forget I'm busy all day." "Attending to the people in the shop, preparing orders... keeping the stock." "But I like to relax in the evening... although there is always work to be done." "The self-employed are always working hardest... and have the worst of it." "Take me." "L have a prosperous greengrocer's shop... but what do I get out of it?" "Okay, I can afford a new car every year." "L never take a vacation of less than three months... but don't forget I am always working till 7 o'clock at night." "That's a long time, especially in the greengrocer's business." "The unreliability of today's workers... grabbing all they want out of the cash-drawer... forces me tu be present as (mm earw mormng." "The bottle is empty but that terrible thirst not quenched." "Nice girl." "One ofthe girls in our family used to walk with leg irons... but it will all be fine!" "Îhat happens someümes, doesm 'fa'?" "He was longing for the cool rain, the simple horizon." "Maybe the message was enclosed... in his total failure." "How do you feel, Walijne?" "Fine, Uncle Bernard." "Are we going home?" "I'm a little tired now." "Isn't this a beautiful shell?" "Walijne, ljust want to go on the beach for a moment." "Y ou want tu do that for me'?" "I'll call Mummy to tell her we're coming a little later." "He had slept on the ground, he didn't know for how long." "Sand clung to his clothes." "Not moving he could think himself sober." "His hand struck something hard." "He moved very carefully." "Only then did he think ofWalijne." "Uncle Bernard." "Walijne, where are you?" "Despetatew he tan." "The beach was empty all around." "Nobody." "A few stoppe-d t0 look a!" "him." "Another eccentric training for the decathlon, cheering himself on." "It occurred ta nobody ta impede this spofismank progress."