"Searching for me?" "i'm so sorry, Zippy." "i had to wait till mama fell asleep." "Where's Zam, darling?" "Got you." "Zippy?" "So, i'm ostracised?" " No, Zippy, no." "Why's he angry with me tonight?" "i'm not going to talk to you." "Cutting me out?" "So, be it." "Zam, is he my friend or mama's broker?" "i don't want to go there." "You're with me for 15 years, but still.." "Don't talk nonsense." "She'ii never meet me." "Not even in the studio." "Just shut up, Zam." "But you know, guys.." "Zippy, listen." "i've made up my mind." "Tonight.." "The three of us will get out of here." "i'ii work in a call centre." "We'ii lead a normal life." "Away from this nightmare." "Very, very far from Mama." "You're late again." "i'd almost given up hope." "Even losing hope, where would you go?" "You had to return to me." "Why are you late?" "Being late is not deliberate." "it just happens." "Who has a grip on time?" "What is your name?" "i am tired of this game." "Okay, as you wish." "i won't disobey you." "Never." "Ever." "Your name, what is it?" "Jerry Da Cunha." "No." "Your real name, boy." "Jerry Gabriei Da Cunha." "The name everyone knew you by.." "i want that name now." "No one knows me." "Everyone knew you." "They'ii know you again." "i don't want anyone to know me." "Don't you want to know me?" "When you spread your wings.." "Oniy then will you reveal the nymph within you." "Why are you doing this to me?" "i wish i had wings." "i wish i could fly with you." "Do you want reality or escape?" "Don't you want to be a hero?" "Don't you want to be a dream?" "Burn yourself." "Burn your soul." "Burn yourself." "Burn your soul." "Burn with every breath you take." "Burn with every breath you take." "Burn yourself." "Burn your soul." "Burn.." "You burnt like fire." "You doused the fire." "You learnt to betray the eye." "Spreading your wings in the wind.." "You learnt to fly." "You learnt to fall." "Burn yourself." "Burn your soul." "Burn yourself." "Burn your soul." "Burn with every breath you take." "Burn with every breath you take." "Where, at this hour?" " An audition." "Why take him?" "Don't be stupid, Peter." "Not mine." " His." "Meaning?" "You can't get work, you strumpet, so you.." "i won't allow you to take him, Mary." "You ruined my chances." "Never did anything for me nor let me do anything." "Made me pregnant so i had to abandon the stage." "i was such a diva." "You spoilt it all." "i won't let you do that to him." "Understand?" "Just shut up, you lousy woman." " You shut up." "Just shut up." "This has to be that idiot Johar's idea." "i won't allow you to take him." "Who the hell are you to stop me?" "But he's a boy?" "Don't worry, sir." "i'ii turn him into a girl." "He's already worked in four films." "Acting, singing, dancing.." "He knows it all." "You'ii transform a boy into a girl?" "i'm game for this audition." "What are you doing here?" "Amen." "Just what you see.." "Praying for the departed." "Whose grave is this?" "i don't know." "You're not a Christian." "What are you doing here?" "i don't know." "Your eyes seek me everywhere." "is that why?" "You know very well why i agreed to this audition." "Why?" " To meet you." "You'ii come, won't you?" "But you're not going to the studio only to meet me." "Do not lie to yourself at ieast." "You know that i.." "i hate acting." "You're going just to show off how good an actor you are, boy." "i don't want to play a girl." " it's acting.. just acting." "You're not a girl." "i don't want a wig." " You look so cute." "Oh, no." "What the hell are you doing to him?" "None of your business." "its certainly my business." "it is." "He's my son." "Jerry, come here." "Come here." "What are you doing?" "What are you doing?" " Shut up, you lousy woman." "What are you up to?" "i've told you hundred times not to." "You've not shaved as yet?" "We'ii be late for sure." "i don't feel like going." " You off your head?" "i got up, went early." "Went to Mrs. Braganza's house.." "..to complete her work and get the afternoon off." "What are you doing?" "it will take ages to get there." "Piease.." "Get ready fast." "Fast, please." " No way." "You can't do this." "Piease." "Piease, this is so important for us, Jai." "Jai?" "Where did that come from?" "After Jeevan Darpan you never called me by that name." "Today onwards, i'ii call you only Jai." "Remember you were once Master Jai?" "Today onwards, no longer Master." "Oniy Jai." "i'm Jerry and will remain so." "With that name you'ii never make it as a hero in films." "Today onwards, you're Jai." "My Jai.. my hero." "Jai, my superstar." "Our Father who art in Heaven." "Haiiowed be thy name." "Thy Kingdom come." "Thy will be done, on earth.." "..as it is in heaven." "Give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses." "As we forgive those who trespass against us." "And lead us not into temptation.." "..but deliver us from evil." "Amen." "Come on." "Cry, Jerry. idiot, Jerry." " Go." "Wiii the transvestite play a match with us?" "Get going from here." "i feel alive again." "The aroma of this place is something else, right?" "The place stinks of urine." "Why can't people use loos?" "Reaiiy, you always say dirty things." "Just like your idiotic father." "You lousy woman, you do that to my son, i promise you.." "i will kill you." "You can't do anything." "if you try, i'ii kill you" "My Baby is going to be a superstar after this film." "What a mother you are, you hag." "What a mother!" "Don't you know that the boy doesn't like it?" "i decide what he likes." "i decide." "Understand?" "And he wants to be a superstar." "He likes it." "So, just shut up." "Do you understand?" "This is why i married him." "if nothing else, the fool at ieast gave you his looks." "Were he alive today, Kusum, we would never be famous." "Not Kusum." "Not Kusum." "Jai.." "Jai." "Wow, that's what i want." "Waik with that swagger and the role's surely yours." "i was a superstar, and you.." "..a failed actress." "Aiways remember that." "Who said i was a failed actress?" "i just didn't want side roles." "if your face was not appealing and had i not groomed you.." "..you'd never have become a superstar." "Understand?" "But let's forget all that." "Today, we'ii not fight." "Not today, please." "Today is our day." "Not ours.." "Today is my day, Mary." "Wait and watch what i do today." "This place is in ruins." "it was so stunning in the oid days." "You're taking me through this hell again, Mama." "Cinema is all about illusions." "The maestro." "Remember?" "My God." "Scene number 30." "Shot number siz." "Camera on the crane." "Smita is walking towards the camera." "Crane up.. up." "Cut it." "Okay." "Maestro.." "Do you recognise me?" "These days, i can't recognise myself." "i'm Mary.." "Kusum's mother." "We did three films with you." "it's with Jeevan Darpan that Kusum became a star." "You're Kusum's mummy, Mary?" "My best film to date." "How's your daughter?" "You did not recognise Jai?" "There he is.." "Kusum has a beard." "God." "What's this world coming to!" "My sweet princess, why are you cross with me?" "My favourite.." "Come near me." "Jai.." " What are you doing?" "How does it feel to tease?" "Why are you here when you have no work?" "idiot." "Jai, Jai, Jai.." "There's a limit to impudence." "That poor oid man.." "He's an idiot." "Mind your language, Jai." "i'm not Jai, i'm Jerry." " You are what i call you." "Or else, what will you do?" "Siap me?" "Stop it, stop it." "You always fuss." "That's all you can do." "Nothing more." "Ask him to stretch properly." "The fool can't manage a cartwheel." "idiots, all of them" "Teach these idiots something?" "What happened?" "Did you recognise him, Mama?" "Oniy then do they understand" " Who?" "There." "This is the way you kick." "He's the guy who would tease you." "The canteen idier." "He was my only friend, Mama." "Friend indeed." "He would harass you and you sat and cried." "Such a bully." "But he also made up for it." "During shooting, he would feed me egg-gravy, omelette, double fry.." "He's the one who taught me the ecstasy of eggs." "No.." "Not today, Jai." "Today.." "Today, you must achieve a lot more." "You go meet uncle Johar." "i'ii say hi and be back." "Mama.." "i can take care of myself." "Come fast." "Yesterday Master intervened again." "Had he not.." "..i'd have thrashed this guy and made mincemeat of him." "i perform his stunts and that idiot gets the credit." "He's the hero, right?" "idiot." "Fooi." "Let it go." "Why the tension?" "The fight-master always warns us." "We're like the frontline soldiers.." "..who take bullets head-on and fight, while medals go to officers." "i say the system is messed up, so why give way to tension?" "Maybe you're right, Brother." "What do you want?" "You're smiling like a sissy?" "Scoot." "Dariing, always eat eggs." "Dariing, always come on Sundays." "Dariing, always eat eggs." "Dariing, always come on Sundays." "What's up?" "This Sunday song.." "..was the one i would sing." "You've not recognised me, Saiim?" "Who the hell are you?" "You made such tall promises." "i'ii become a big producer." "Saiim Cinemawaiia." "i'ii get you the big break, Kusum." "Kusum." "Where is she?" "Standing in front of you." "You must be her brother." "The same eyes, the same smile." "But how did you know.." "..our idea of making a film?" "i am the same.. the Kusum you wanted to make a film with." "i don't have any brothers or sisters." "Don't mess with my mind." "You've mucked up the flashback." "Kusum was my dream girl." "i've missed her so much." "Now, you're pulling a fast one." "Teii me, where's she?" "Jerry's grown up, Saiim." "Kusum is now.." "..your past dream." "is the word fool etched on my forehead?" "Kusum was never a dream." "She was here, at the studio." "The truth changed with time." "The truth today is Jerry, standing before you." "You tell me you're Kusum." "But you're a boy." "You smoke, you idiot." "i do it all." "Cigarette, drink, the works." "Anyway, you refused to recognise me." "But i have." "Aii the same, take care." "Can't hear this line." "These casting agency types are all thieves." "At the end, they leave you hanging." "They've done so now, right?" "No, sir." "Not to worry." "i told you, sir.." "Leave it all to Bapu and rest assured it will be done." "Meaning, it is done." "Within half an hour, i've lined up a dozen artistes." "Siz men and sez females.." "i mean siz females." "Aii of them tutti-frutti, fresh and juicy." "if you field this innings well.." "Then.." "You're sweeping-swabbing days are over." "i'm no cleaning woman. i'm Mrs. Braganza's housekeeper." "Cieaning women in Engiish are called.." "..housekeepers." "Reaiiy?" " And how about you?" "Of course, sir, i've told them." "if they want a role they must cooperate with the writer.." "..with that, conditions apply." "Why in hell are you butting in?" "No, sir, not meant for you." "i'm a make-up artist." " You're just a lousy broker." "The truth is.." "..getting Baby into films was my idea." "And it was i who named him Master Jai." "Peter would rage against you." "He didn't like you one bit." "But i always liked you." "i do, even now." "Stop it now." "Okay, sir." "God help me." "Piease, cast an eye on my daughter as well." "No time for that." "There he comes." " Heiio." "Where were you?" " Johar, where's your award candidate?" "Here he is.." "Jai." " This one?" "And his mother, Mary." "Some tea?" "No." "Step aside." "Your Mother Mary's messiah is short." "How will he work in films?" "Reaiiy, Bapu." "Aamir Khan, Saiman Khan.." "Aii superstars here are short." "He's hero material." "Forget it." "We'ii pad his shoes." "Bapu.." "i've spent ages in this industry." "i can smell talent." "A star has to have the makings of a star." "is that so?" "See that sample.." "Fresh and juicy mango." "An aiphonso." "Have the mango." "And with it, mom too." "She's agreed to a lay." "Just watch." "i know you very well." "Madam." "Come.." " Mother.." "Come." "Wasn't i right?" "You're super-duper lucky." "We have decided.." "..to pair your little girl with this handsome boy." "What's his name?" "Jai." "Good name." "And your calling name.." "Kusum." "Kusum Phadnis." "is your girl dumb?" "The atmosphere's changed here." "Nothing's changed." "Heii never changes its colours." "You won't understand." "You are here everyday." "it's not the same. it was so enthralling once." "Johar, i know the effort needed to become a good actor." "So, you are still tempted by the lure of acting." "Wiii you work in TV serials?" "i am known to these production houses." "is it?" " Yes." "They're not looking for pretty faces." "You could be a good ma-in-iaw." "So what if you didn't become a Smita Patil?" "You'ii do for our family soaps." "Don't talk of useless things." "i just have one ambition." "i want to make him a star again." "Are you the real Kusum or that girl?" "i'm not Kusum. i'm Jerry." "And from today, Jai." "You're the script's mysterious Eiena." "What a role!" "Emerge from the imaginary sounds in your mind." "The trolleys of today are noiseless." "We shoot sync sound with a BL camera." "Saves the trouble of dubbing." "its dubbing that made us try to improve our dialogue delivery." "i would correct all my mistakes then." "Peopie were amazed." "i was a child prodigy, see." " Prodigy, my foot!" "You looked a cartoon.." "A performing monkey with attitude, what's more.." "Seeing your melodrama, i felt like slapping you." "Standing behind the camera, Mama would guide me.." "..catching everyone's eye." "What do you know of acting?" "i won the Nationai Award." "You didn't." "So what?" "Thousands of guys like you fantasised about me." "No one will ever fantasise about a transvestite like you." "i won't let you off you that easily." "Bhau (Brother) has told me that you rule the roost here." "if you tell the director then how will he refuse you?" "Just bless my daughter." "We'ii do whatever it is that will please you." "Who's 'we'?" "Me and my daughter." "it's okay with your girl." "What can you do at this age?" "See, i'ii bring her around." "i've not seen as sweet a mom as you in the film industry." "if you've learnt the lines, shall we rehearse?" "i can't understand anything." "What is this?" "A boy and a girl talking." "Have you been in love?" "You have a boyfriend?" "To play a lunatic must one be mad?" "Was Rani Mukherjee blind in her film Biack?" "No." "Not at all." "Oh, no." "How do i put it?" "if i can ezpiain what i can of the story.." "..will it help?" "Yes." "Bapu's network in this film industry is very strong, sir." "i've gathered the best aspirants, sir." "We're well aware of your greatness." "They refused your commission so you rejected that batch, right?" "No, sir." "Never mind. i've called them back." "However, it would be wise not to misbehave with them." "They're all liars, sir." "Mahatma.." " Sir?" "Aii well with our group?" "i'm totally sad and mad, sir." "i treat Firoze sir like a father." "And he trusts the guys from casting agencies?" "We're the same age.. what's this father-son relationship?" "Brother Firoze, stop ragging him." "The oid sinner's been with us for a while." "And is party to your escapades." "Anyway, not my problem." "Teii me.." "Which scene have you chosen for the audition?" "For the ages that we have sinned together.." "..that one, where the girl catches the guy red-handed?" "What a way to describe a subtle scene!" "At times, Mr. Varma, i am compelled to think that.." "You, who are in hell, what gives you the right.." "..to sculpt Firdaus' soul?" "This sculptor, from hell itself, is creating a heavenly design." "Words." "Mere words." "Beautifui but meaningless." "Come, let's do some work." "This winter i've a summer-fresh, juicy mango ready." "Go for it." "Did i seek your opinion on this matter, Mahatma?" "You have undone my meaning." "it was just information." "You, Saiim, will be ahead of them all.." "..eziting after doing the wheelie.." "You lot will follow him closely, giving him chase." "Ready, everybody." "You are tense for no reason." "You'ii never understand." "i've always been a doit." "Never understood a thing." "When you felt like it, i warmed you.." "..whether i felt like it or not." "But when i needed some caring, you brushed me off." "Aiways." "But what could i do?" "i love you." "What nonsense is this?" "See what i mean?" "is this the time to talk this way?" "i am under such tension." "You announced the audition and he was not at all happy about it." "Eariier, he wouldn't ever say no to me, Johar." "i kept mum all this while." "He did not go to college." "That did not bother me." "i worked day and night just to ensure that he had money." "Because i was so sure that he would make it again." "i always had such big plans that i would re-iaunch him." "But today, he isn't happy at all." "Why?" "Kusum's grown up." "Not Kusum." " He is Jai." "For Christ's sake not Jai." "Jerry, Jerry." "Get that right." "Why don't you believe what i say?" "Oh dear." " A waste of time." "Why don't you trust me?" "impossible." "Piease, leave me alone." "Then, trust me." "Heavens above.. messed up my inspired dialogue." "Nezt." "Heii." "Why don't you believe me?" "Piease leave me. i said leave me." "Let go of my hand." "Thank you." "Why don't you believe me?" "Piease, leave me alone." "Nezt, please." "Fetch my cigarettes." "Piease.." "Leave me alone." "The innocent belle is trapped in the matriz." "Have you been here before?" "i never wanted to come." "But my mother.." "She dragged me here by force." "if you don't like watching films, how will you learn to act?" "But acting.. i don't want to act." "Don't you want to be the heartthrob of millions?" "Dream girl?" "i want to study Science." "My grandma also wants that." "But my mom.." "She wants me to act." "i watch a film everyday." "i spend all my pocket money on films, drinks and.." "You understand?" "Promise me you won't laugh if i tell you something." "i was a big star." "i had my ezciusive make-up room in this studio." "19 films between four to eight years." "in the first film, i played uncle Jitu's son.." "..who was cared for by aunt Hema." "They fall in love because of me." "in the second film, i played uncle Rajesh in his childhood." "You don't believe all this." "in four films, i played a boy." "After that.." "Jeevan Darpan." "i was the central character in the film." "Jai became Kusum." "From Master Jai, i became Kusum." "You.." "You would act as a girl?" "What could i do?" "Kusum became a hit." "i was caught up in my own Truman Show." "You didn't study?" "The boys would tease me." "As i began growing up.." "..the role of girls stopped coming my way." "i removed the wig.." "..wore trousers and went to school." "You like acting.. so much?" "Now, not at all." "Nobody has any depth." "Long live daily soaps." "Take heart, dear one, take heart." "Le grand illusion." "Break for lunch." "if we're both selected.." "..we'ii shoot on a set like this." "A house that'ii never be a house." "We'ii act there." "Acting." "i'ii never be selected." "i'ii never be able to deliver such lines." "i'ii teach you." "Diaiogues of girls.." "i speak them really well." "No, i will not become any dream girl." "i want to get out of here." "i want to go back home." "You will not go anywhere." "The illusion of cinema has captured you." "Piease, don't scare me." "i'ii be there for you." "You're a good person." "You didn't make fun of me." "Where are you going, Jai?" "Why are you here to disturb me again?" "i didn't, you called me." "i know.. you're not here." "That's why i was there, and am now here." "What's your name?" "i'm tired of this game." "You never tell me your name." "That depends on what you want me to be." "Choose." "And i can be anyone." "i baptise thee.." "Nandini." "i was always Nandini in reality." "You never recognised me." "Nor will you, ever." "Because you can't fly." "As though you really know me." "As though you can really fly." "Why the hell do you stay elusive?" "You have no truth in you." "i'm an apparition." "Not what is real." "Are you a boy.. or a girl?" "Are you an actress.. or a dream?" "Are you a transvestite?" "Oh, you're in that conflict again." "Granted that i am a transvestite." "So what?" "Can i not love you?" "Love can fly without wings." "You were laying macho tricks on that girl." "Such a shame." "i don't need to prove myself to anyone." "Least of all, that innocent girl." "Look at her, she's pure." "Something you'ii never be." "You don't even know whether you're a boy or a girl." "Don't worry about me, honey." "Who are you to comment?" "Ask the viewers." "What do they think?" "in this story, i am the hero and the audience." "Jai, you.." "Who were you talking to?" "Give me two minutes. i'ii be back." "Don't worry, you'ii be cast in the film." "Bapu's got special lunch for us." "Others have just a snack." "Mom.." "Eat slowly." "Why?" "The bones will choke you." "i won't choke." "Did Jai act fresh with you?" "i was joking, dear." "Brother Saiim, why are you so pensive?" "Been looking all over for you." "Don't ask. i'm all messed up in the head." "Any trouble brewing?" "Can't figure out the truth." "The guy who came today?" "The sissy-iooking fellow who you met today.." "He says he is my Kusum." "Brother, in your life, the dream of Kusum-dishum.." "Love brewing and not a word to your younger brother?" "That's not right." "Shut up. it's not like that." "This is not about today." "it goes way back." "The best moments of my life." "Forget it." "Sweety, want studio-guided tour?" "Go, girl." "Come.." "Mummy, i don't want to." "Not you, Mummy." "Just her." "i don't want to." "Don't fear, with Bapu here, nothing to fear." "i have a lot of ezperience." "i've led so many girls to the top." "Come." "What i am saying?" "i won't go too far.." "just feel you up." "You have to do this." "it's part of the industry." "This touch-me-not won't do." "You have to keep me happy, the writer happy." "Then everything happy." "Don't go, Jerry." "Don't go there." "if you do, you won't be able to return." "Kusum is hiding there." "Don't go." "i have to meet her." "i need to kill her." "This is my make-up room." "No." "Now, it's my make-up room." "You stars use 'vanity vans.'" "Doesn't the smell of pancake disturb you in your dreams?" "Can i put eyeliner on your eyes?" "My own iove. i'm ready to die." "i'm bowled on your attitude, Kusum." "i knew my Kusum would never change." "You're cooped up in this hole." " Why this lipstick in my hand?" "Saiim." "Oh, no." " Just give me a kiss.." "How did the lipstick come in my hand?" "Lousy woman." "Lousy woman." "Saiim.." " My darling." "Lousy woman." "Saiim, i don't know how it happened." "Life has given this opportunity to us." "Saiim, all this.." "Lets not miss this chance." "Saiim, dont joke." "i'm not Kusum i don't know how.." "Leave me, Saiim." "Stop acting." "You know i'm the one who can satisfy you." "Saiim, i dont know." "Saiim." "Leave me." "Leave me alone, idiot." "You're no sister." "You're my concubine." "Leave me." "Trying to be a super hero." "So much of drama for a peck." "i'ii show you the real drama now." "Come and see the dance of the transvestite." "Saiim.. dont joke." "See the cross-dresser dance." "Leave me, Saiim." "Did you enjoy.." "Saiim.. please dont do this to me. idiot." "i know you." " i don't know you." "it's not your fault." "it's all my fault." "it's all an illusion." "Aren't you Kusum?" " i'm Jerry Gabriei Da Cunha." "i was always a huge fan." "You were such a marvellous actor." "i never knew you were a man." "Don't lie." "You know me." "You know why i came here." "i play the lead in the film that you came to audition for." "They are looking for a new actor." "Are you that character?" "But they needed a boy?" "Catch you later." "Nandini.. will you be there for my audition?" "i'm there whenever you want me." "Caii me when your turn comes." "Where did you disappear?" "i've been searching everywhere." "You've not yet had your lunch?" "What happened?" "Jai?" "i've already had my fill, Mary Da Cunha." "What are you saying?" "Are you okay?" "You are okay, Baby." "i'm here." "You'ii be fine." "You will be fine." "Sir.." "Juicy mango." "How's she?" "Thank you, sir." "Thank you, Nandini." "Action." "i'm so scared." "i've forgotten everything." "You'ii remember it all." "i'ii give you the cue." "i don't remember a thing." "Your first line is Please leave me alone." "That's your only line, don't worry." "God." "They've also forgotten their lines." "Come on, Aiisha." "You don't believe me?" "Why don't you?" "i can't leave you alone." "For us, it's a matter of life and death. i don't want you to.." "Listen, i won't leave you alone." "There's a beauty." "No more.." "Jai, i can't take it anymore." "Piease let me go." "Leave me.." "i want to go from here." "i won't allow you to do this." "You've no right to play with my dreams." "You have to agree." "Admirabie." "Unbeiievabie. incredible." "is there any need for this, Mr. Brahmanand?" "Seeing is believing i'm overcome by their heart-rending performances." "The two have an amazing chemistry." "They have suffused my characters with a natural artistry." "They have immortalised them." "in this matter.." "are you the one to decide?" "Ezcuse me." "i crossed my limit." "My soul was stirred." "Meaning, i could not contain myself." "The rest is up to you." "You were brilliant." "Sorry, sir." "i'm sorry for the interruption." "Take this.." " This is the first time that she's.." "You were right, indeed." "She truly is ajuicy aiphonso." "You can go with the mother." "She's quite fuisome, too." "is she okay?" "You did so well." "i feel so proud of you today." "Sorry for the interruption." "What do i tell you?" "i like your work." "He's very good." " Thank you." "if they come to know the truth about you.." "..they'ii be surprised." "Do something." "Has my daughter qualified?" "Yes, but she needs to work hard." "She will, sir." "Any time you want her to." "Both of you meet me at my office tomorrow." "Thank you, sir." "Thank you so much." "Now, we'ii meet regularly." "Ezcuse me. i need to say something." "i told you." "Tomorrow." "Jai.." " i need to talk now." "We know you're the best." "Jai, when he's says tomorrow, let it be so." "it's okay." "Teii me what you want to say." "i'm really sorry, sir." "He'ii do ezactiy as you say." "Kusum's passed for sure, hasn't she?" "Of course." "Bapu will ezpiain the rest." "Mr. Brahmanand, your habit of constantly interrupting.." "Can you please correct it?" "Thank you." "What were you saying?" "i want five minutes from you." "Piease." " Yes." "Just you." " Okay." "interesting." "You want everyone else to leave?" "Jai, let's go." "Mama, you too leave now, please." "Now." "Not you. i need you to be here." "Bapu." "Ciear the floor." "Everything seems like a dream." "My daughter a heroine." "Your son a hero." "They'ii be called a hit pair." "Fiim magazines will carry their pictures." "Peopie will say that they are dating each other." "Then we'ii get them married." "Just shut up, you lousy woman." "You're out to sell your daughter." "To top it, all this drama." "Dear God." "Just get lost." "Such a waspish tongue." "Are you comfortable now?" " Yes." "Speak up." "What do you want to say?" "On what basis did you select us?" "i couldn't even perform." "it's okay, son of Diiip Kumar." "Don't confuse us with your banter." "i couldn't understand what you mean." "Piease ezpiain." "That girl spoilt it all and you selected her." "i was busy trying to cover up for her." "Couidn't even connect with my emotions." "i don't know if i should be saying this." "She wasn't even acting." "Couidn't you make that out?" "i told you, Brahmanand." "We'ii have to audition that girl again." "He's just wasting our time through guile and deceit." "Brahmanand, give the kid an opportunity." "Teii us, Jai, what do you want?" "i want to perform again." "Just once." "Okay, go ahead." "Shouid i give you the cue?" "You create the magic for me." "Wish me luck." "So, you don't believe me." "Why don't you believe me?" "For God's sake, Avinash, please leave me alone." "i can't leave you alone." "This is a decisive moment for us." "Listen, i won't leave you alone, okay?" "i can't bear it anymore." "i feel suffocated." "Piease leave me, Avinash." "Just leave me alone." "i won't allow you to do this." "You have no right to play with my dreams." "You have to agree." "i must agree?" "To what?" "That the women who protects you, your nursemaid.." "..who shields a miik-toothed youth like you with her sari.." "Do you think i'm a fool?" "You are indeed a fool" "Otherwise, you would not doubt my relation with ma'am." "Ma'am, my foot!" "As your teacher.." "..should she take you on long drives and to cocktail parties.." "..and lavish ezpensive gifts on you?" "You still reek of the perfume Eiena gave you." "Enough is enough, Avinash." "Just leave me alone." "Go." "Just go." "i want to play Aiisha." " What?" "Avinash is so boring, unidimensionai." "This is no street play, kid." "in Phaike's Harishchandra.." "Saiunke played Satyavati.." "india's first feature film." "Don't talk of ancient times, you iamentabie kid." "Listen." "in this film, yours is the most compiez and demanding role." "A young boy caught between a young girl and an older woman." "You are in the horns of a dilemma." "Do you know who i am?" "i've always ezceiied in the roles of girls" "A transsezuai or a cross dresser?" "i was Kusum, the Nationai Award winner." "Baby Kusum?" "You're Baby Kusum?" "How is it possible?" "She was a girl." "Let me go inside." " No." "Let me go inside." " it'ii not be right." "They're taking such a long time, there must be a reason." "Patience yields its own sweet fruit." "You don't know the antics of that idiot." "in ajiffy, he can turn good into bad." "i am going inside.." "Let me go" "Mary.." "Mary.." "Come." "Come here." "What took you so long?" "Have you gone mad?" "Heii-bent on raping my script?" "The boy has simply lost it." "Fine talent but misdirected." "i feel he's more sinned against than sinning." "is he a transvestite?" "He didn't seem so." "Must be gay." "What have you done, idiot?" "One minute." "Your mother's getting hassled." "You tell me." "He will not lie to his uncle." "Why don't you tell me?" "What went on inside?" "Weren't you selected?" "No." "No?" "Yes." "Don't lie." "Don't lie." "i heard it with my own ears." "You must have messed it up." "One minute." " Let go of him." "i will go and find out." "Controi your anger." "Are you bent on killing the kid?" "i'm going to find out." "i won't allow you to enter the house." "Understood?" "Why in hell.." "Why weren't you selected?" "Teii me, you idiot." "i did what you always taught Kusum to do." "i played the girl's role." "Rot in hell." "Where were you?" "i've looked every inch for you." "Where did you lot disappear?" "Where's Baby?" "He's dead." "Mary.." "Mary.." "Hey, idiot." "You've been hovering around here all day." "However hard you try, you will never be a hero." "But my Baby can surely be a heroine." "Do something." "Bring her to me." "i'ii make her a heroine." "i've just buried Kusum." "Don't talk rot." "My Kusum can't die." "You said this morning that you drink?" "Let me treat you." "Come." "But after that, you will have to give me my Baby's address." "Come on." "Oniy i can give her address." "Wiii you treat me for free?" "Come on." "Not back as yet?" "Where's he rotting?" "Let him come back." "i'ii kick him out." "Doesn't care about my suffering, just like his father, lousy Peter." "No consideration for me." "You drink faster than me." "i usually drink country liquor." "Can't afford whiskey and all." "When you feel like drinking, feel free to give me a call." "You remember.." "..we would fill tea-cups with raindrops." "i would lie on the canteen bench.." "..and remember Kusum all night." "Whom to ask?" "Where to search?" "i couldn't figure out anything." "But now that i've found you.." "You'ii tell me where your sister is." "Kusum's dead." "Once upon a time there was this little girl." "But not now." "She's dead." "And gone." "She died all of a sudden, that girl." "When Jerry would go to school.." "..they all would tease him." "Kusum never went." "She was in her grave." "Then Jerry grew up to be a boy with his manliness." "Kusum never grew up." "She didn't have periods." "She didn't even bleed." "Jerry pleasures himself." "Fantasizes about girls with huge assets." "Bad boy, Jerry." "Makes mama suffer." "Kusum.." "Kusum was my love." "Kusum was a boy." "Whatever she was, she was my life." "Here, you're messing my brain up." "There, she's doing the same." "i don't understand a thing." "Does she really ezist?" "Who?" "The one i know." "She's always after me.." "Nandini." "Aiways chases me." "i know this famous actress." "But why will she be after you?" "You've gone crazy." "Have you an idea?" "Do you know how many heroes chase her?" "Do you know my Nandini?" "Yes. i do." "We did many films together." "i even know where she lives." "Take me to her house, Saiim." "What does he want?" "He wants me.." "..to forever care for Mrs. Braganza's retarded son." "Just clean his lousy mess." "He's forgotten who i was.." "What i stood for." "i played the epic character, Gandhari." "For 200 nights, i played Gandhari." "i am that mother.." "..who is listening to the saga of her 100 sons." "That Gandhari was fortunate." "She never saw her sons with own her eyes." "You wait here." "i'ii meet Nandini and be back." "Hey, wait." "i want to meet Nandini." "Madam doesn't meet anyone at night." "She knows me." "i told you.." "You call her." "Fast." "She knows me." "Sir, i told you she doesn't meet anyone at night." "Why don't you listen?" "She knows me." "Use the phone." "Someone's here to meet you, madam." "At this hour?" "He says he knows you." "And that it's urgent." "Give me the phone." "Who the hell are you?" "it's me, Jerry." "Hey, leave the phone." " its me, Jerry." "Leave the phone." "Guard.." " Get out of here." "it's me.." "Jerry." "How can she not recognise me?" "Dont know where you come from?" "Teii that lousy woman, it's me." "She said she doesnt know you." "Didnt you hear that?" "Now, move from this place." "Hey, let go of me." "Brother, let go of him." "Move back." "Dont lock horns with me." "What are you doing?" "Jerry." "Caim down." "Lousy woman.." "She's a lousy woman." "Says she doesn't know me." "Jerry!" "Caim down!" "i told you how these rich people behave." "She's a lousy woman." "How the hell can she not recognise me?" "Come on." "Lets go there." "Sit here." "Have some more drink." "i warned you not to get caught up with these queen types." "She refused to recognise me." "Come on, move." "Go from here." "Cooi down." "Come, let's drink some more." "Yes, we'ii drink some more." "Come on." "Come on, sit behind." "You kept drowning boats in the waves." "You set fire to the beaches." "You crossed the shadows of memories." "You learnt to douse the fire." "You kept setting yourself on fire." "Your soul kept changing routes." "in your dream, hopes kept getting doused." "You went on and on.." "Burn yourself." "Burn your soul." "Burn yourself." "Burn your soul." "Burn every breath you take." "Stop here. i'ii pee and come." "What are you trying to prove?" "i now believe that you are my Kusum." "Who played this con game?" "Can i just kiss you once?" "it doesn't matter to me.." "..whether you're Jerry or Kusum." "if you're a lie, then i am a lie too." "What the hell are you doing?" "Oh, no." "Why did you make the nightmare real?" "Have you gone crazy, trying to kiss me?" "i'm all messed up, Saiim." "Forget Kusum." "She can never be yours." "And Jerry can never be yours." "You were my only friend." "Lord, i'm 500 miles away from home." "You were my only friend." "Lord, i'm one." "Lord, i'm two.." "i'm so sorry, Zippy." "i'm very tired, Zam darling." "i listened to you.." "i did and see what happened." "No, Zippy, no." "Don't cry for me." "it's all my fault." "Had we run away none of this would've happened." "it's my entire fault." "i let reality slip away." "Get the hell out of here." "You don't even know who i am?" "Fooi, that was not me." "Why did you have to go to a real person's house?" "The voice you heard over the phone.." "That was not me." "Are you real?" "And what about you?" "i myself have no idea.." "Then why probe, Jerry?" "Jerry Gabriei Da Cunha?" "Master Jai." " Kusum.." "Among them, who are you?" " i don't know." "Then why know who i am?" "i don't want to know." "Whatever i say is all in your imagination." "i don't ezist without you." "Then why won't you let me to make love to you, lousy woman?" "Because you deserve this." "You're messed up in your head." "That's why you want to make love to me." "Everyone messes up with my mind.." "Mama, you, Saiim.." "Oh, i just want to fly away." "i know you would manage Aiisha's role better any day." "i don't want to act." "That's why i did what i did." "You would have done it better." "There's a girl hidden in you." "Come to terms with that reality." "Try and understand that i hate acting." "Why do i need to prove myself?" "i've killed Kusum." "Truth, truth, nothing but the truth, Oh, Lord." "i won't allow you to touch him." "You'ii never be able to fly." " i'ii prove you wrong." "Mama." "i'm hungry." "Wretch." "Where did you go?" "Mama, i promise i'ii work harder." "Why don't you just die?" "Had i not been a Cathoiic i would have aborted you." "Why don't you die?" "if i die, how will you live?" "We'ii live in our small world, just you and me." "i don't need fame, money and all that jazz." "Nothing, just you and me." "You don't need fame." "You don't need fame." "Mama.." "What are you doing, Mama?" "Mama, what's this?" "You were right." "You were right." " Mama, what are you doing?" "Mama, what are you doing?" "How pretty you are looking.." "Mama, have you gone mad?" " You were right." "Mama, you're choking me." "i was absolutely wrong." "i was wrong." "You were right. i was wrong." "You can be a girl." "You can play Aiisha's role." "You were absolutely right." "i was wrong." "i'ii get you that role." "i will do your make-up." "Then you can be anything you want to be." "How could i forget that my son is a transvestite?" "No." "You have gone mad, Mama." "it's my mistake." "My stupid, stupid mistake." "When you were born, you had this small little member." "But when you became Kusum, it simply vanished." "You have nothing now." "You know nothing." " You have nothing now." "You know nothing, you wretched woman." "For you, they dared do what they did with me all along." "You thought my member vanished." "You always wanted it that way." "But it grew bigger by the day." "Want to see?" "Here's my thick throbbing member." "What else you want to see now?" "Teii me." "Lousy woman, you sold me out there." "You messed up my life forever." "Jerry.." "i was always there for you." "Aiways, my son." "i'm sorry." "i'm sorry i couldn't help you." "i couldn't save you, Jerry." "i couldn't save you." "Papa.." "i always loved you, Papa." "i love you too." "i love you too, Jerry." "i love you too." "Mama." "Wiii you mend my way?" "Mama." "it's the end of the day." "Mama, when the deeds been done.." "Mama, am i still your son?" "Wiii you open your eyes and see?" "Wiii you simply forget and let me be?" "i learnt to walk, i learnt to fall." "i was up against the firewall." "Memories of the day.." "..still hold sway." "There was simply no other way." "How i wish i have my wings.." "To fly away from mere mortal things." "Mama, will you let me try?" "Mama, will you let me try?" "Mama dear, please don't cry." "Jerry." "Jerry." "Jerry, my Baby." "i am what you wanted me to be, Mama." "You couldn't clip my wings." "Mama, i can fly now." "Jerry."