"THE PORTUGUESE NUN" "AWOMAN ALONE" "Julie de Hauranne." "Your passport, please." "Miss de Hauranne, are you with the film?" "Yes, I'm an actress." "French people rarely speak Portuguese." "My mother was Portuguese." "My father is French Basque." "So you know Lisbon?" "No." "When I was little, we went to Porto." "Then my mother died." "I'll be discovering Lisbon." "One of your colleagues is already here." "Yes." "The director." "When do the other actors arrive?" "There's only one." "The day after tomorrow, I think." "Only two actors?" "I recorded the sound already, alone." "We're just filming images here." "You two don't speak to each other?" "No." "And I'm never seen speaking." "So what did you record?" "A 17th century French text, that we only hear." "I never see French films." "They're for intellectuals." "Our films are popular in Portugal." "Only in Lisbon, where there are many intellectuals." "No city is perfect." "I'll show you your room." "Thank you." "If you need something, dial 9." "I suppose this is your ball." "Yes, Madam." "Here you are." "Thanks, Madam." "Are you looking for someone?" "I don't think so." "Are you alone?" "Yes." "Me too." "What's your name?" "Vasco." "I'm Julie." "How do you say it?" "Ju-lie." "Madam Ju-lie." "Madam is very beautiful." "Good afternoon, Vasco." "Good afternoon, Madam." "If I'm alone I don't want to be" "If I'm not alone I want to be" "It seems I always want to be" "What I am not" "Happiness is being someone else" "But that someone else is not happy" "Because he follows his own mind" "And not my designs" "People do as they please" "With what is only nothing" "But regret if they don't do it" "It lies abandoned on the road" "Oh, Denis!" "Yes, I'm here." "I'm out walking around." "Have dinner without me," "I want to explore." "A drink around midnight, perfect." "At the hotel bar, ok." "See you then." "If I loved you as much as I've told you a thousand times, wouldn't I be dead by now?" "I've deceived you, it is you who should be offended," "Miss?" "Do you speak Portuguese?" "Yes." "Isn't this square beautiful at night?" "Yes." "It's beautiful in the daytime too, but not the same." "I'll find out tomorrow." "Lisbon never shows us the same face twice." "I haven't had a chance to see that yet." "Where are you from?" "Paris." " Are you on holiday?" " No, I'm working." "Goodnight." "Here's my card." "My name is Enrique." "If I can do anything for you, don't hesitate to ask." "Thank you." "Good evening, Denis." "Excuse me." "For what?" "I'm late." "Barely." "Did you enjoy your evening?" "Yes." "Do you have friends in Lisbon?" "Yes." "So you weren't alone tonight?" "No." "Good." "When we recorded the text in Paris, you didn't seem well." "I'd just separated from my boyfriend." "The one I knew?" "You've known a few." "The actor?" "Actors are my specialty." "The latest one, tall and dark." "He was short and blond." "Alexandre." "I knew him, too." "He was nice." "Yes, he was nice." "I'm happy to be here to play the Portuguese nun." "Do you think you'd be happier if," "like her, you'd had only one love in your life?" "I wonder whether, in any life, there is ever more than one love." "THE COUNT OF VlSEU" "There's sound, but just a guide track." "Quiet on the set." "We're about to shoot." "Quiet, please." "Camera." "Roll sound." "Rolling." "Scene three, shot one, take one." "Action!" "Cut." "Hello," "Good evening." "May I speak to Mr. Cunha Melho de Lencastre, please?" "Speaking," "This is Julie de Hauranne." "I don't believe I gave you my name." "We met at the restaurant last night." "I was just thinking ofyou," "Last night you were alone." "If you're alone tonight, perhaps we could get acquainted." "I just made an appointment," "But I'd be happy to cancel it," "You mustn't do that." "It can wait," "Where are you?" "At the Hotel Senhora Do Monte, in Graça." "I'll be there in thirty minutes," "I spent my earliest years in a quinta, surrounded by olive trees, with my parents and little sister." "Dad was gone a lot." "Those are the happiest memories of my life." "I was five when the Revolution began." "That Revolution always seemed abstract to me." "For me it was very real." "It was surely necessary for the country, but I'd rather have lived in ignorance of that necessity." "What did the Revolution do to you?" "My father, the Count of Viseu, held important positions under Salazar and Caetano." "He was compromised." "When the new regime came in, he lost the quinta." "Fair punishment, surely." "But it deprived me of the one place I'd been happy." "Where did you go?" "We owned a building in Lisbon, near Pr´incipe Real." "We lived on one floor, without much furniture." "After a year, my father died." "The following year I lost my sister." "My mother nearly lost her mind." "To create a connection with the world," "I studied medicine and became a cardiologist." "A noble profession." "Yes." "But I've never practised it." "Since my mother died, I've lived alone in that vast, empty flat, with a maid who only comes during the day." "After dinner, would you accept an invitation to my home?" "Yes." "Why did you call me tonight?" "I was touched by the way you approached me yesterday." "I don't understand it myself." "I told you I had an appointment tonight." "Yes, and you cancelled it." "That touched me too." "But my appointment still awaits me." "In the next room." "I'll introduce you." "Meet my appointment." "It's loaded." "I'd decided to end my story like a Russian novel." "Now you won't?" "No, thanks to you." "What will you do?" "Leave." "Where?" "We kept the servants' quarters at the quinta." "I'll go there tomorrow, to think." "One must never think too much." "I know." "I'll stay only a few days." "Then what will you do?" "Something with meaning." "Perhaps I'll finally find the courage to practise medicine." "I'm glad." "What shall we do now?" "You came to my room." "We could have a love affair." "But that would be derisory in light of the feelings you inspire in me." "When I called," "I wasn't looking for an affair." "Even less so now." "I'll take you home, then." "I wish we could stay here and be still." "Modern life does not allow for immobility." "Either we go to bed, or I take you home." "Let's do as modern life says and take the automobile." "You forgot the candelabra." "You are the light." "I wanted to show you Lisbon from here." "Can you imagine ending a Russian novel tonight, in this city?" "Lisbon is not a Russian city." "I realise that, thanks to you." "The energy Lisbon gives us is life itself." "The chapel is open." "It often is at night." "Let's go in." "Yes." "That nun..." "She often spends the night in the chapel." "I suddenly felt like I had replaced her." "Maybe you had." "What should I do?" "Talk to her." "I can't imagine she talks like we do." "In Lisbon, nuns talk." "And in Lisbon, I will be the Portuguese nun." "I think you already are." "But tonight you must rest." "I suppose so." "I'll take you back to your hotel." "In Lisbon, the weather is always changing." "Yes." "But today there will be no rain." "Good." "Only showers." "Good morning." "I didn't get the call sheet." "Of course not." "This is a chaotic shoot." "What's happening this morning?" "We're filming without actors." "What about me?" "Meet us here at 2 pm." "Here?" "The dressing room is at the hotel." "I'll go for a stroll then." "Enjoy yourself." "Vasco!" "No school today, Vasco?" "I never go to school." "How old are you?" "Six." "At six you don't go to school?" "My cousins go, but not me." "What do your parents say?" "I have no parents." "Who raises you?" "Madalena." "Who's she?" "My aunt." "But not really." "Where do you live?" "In that house, on the second floor." "But I can't invite you over." "Madalena would mind?" "No." "But today she's working, I can't get in." "You can't get into your own home?" "Not when Madalena works." "When will she be back?" "This afternoon." "Around the time my cousins finish school." "Where do you eat?" "At home." "But you can't get in?" "When Madalena works, I eat morning and night." "Come, let's go for a snack." "I'm happyto be with you." "You're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen." "And Madam Julie is a pretty name." "Vasco is nice too." "My mother's name was Isabel." "So you knew your mother?" "No." "My grandmother told me." "Where's your grandmother?" "She's dead." "Could I meet Madalena?" "Tomorrow she's not working." "I'll come tomorrow morning." "Has Martin Dautand arrived?" "Who?" "The other actor." "Yes." "I did his make-up." "He's handsome." "I've never met him, but I've seen him in films." "I don't see how you can make a film with only two actors." "And we only have two scenes together." "We're shooting them today." "What happens the rest of the time?" "The film is... unconventional." "Boring, you mean." "I hope not." "The story moves me." "What's it about?" "I'm playing a nun, Mariana." "She's in love with a French naval officer, who leaves her." "A nun mustn't love a man." "She's given herself to God." "Perhaps through loving a man, this nun discovers that God has given himself to her." "There, you're beautiful." "You can go to wardrobe now." "No one's told me where the set is." "Right next door, in the Nossa Senhora do Monte chapel." "I'm Julie." "I'm Martin." "I don't speak Portuguese." "But I'm pleased to meet you." "Likewise." "I almost worked with you several times." "But it didn't happen." "Everything happens at the right time." "Perhaps so." "I think they're waiting for us." "Let's go." "This will be a master shot." "Julie, you'll kneel down here, before the camera." "Martin, when Renata gives you the signal, you enter from outside, notice the nun and watch her from the back of the chapel." "Then slowly move up the aisle and stand to her left." "After a short while, Julie, you feel his presence and turn to look at him." "Your eyes meet." "Quiet, please." "We're about to roll." "Whenever you're ready, Denis." "Camera." "Roll sound." "Scene five, shot one, take one." "Action." "Cut." "Excuse me!" "When are you leaving?" "As soon as we clear up, Madam." "Don't daily." "I must prepare the chapel for tonight." "What's happening tonight?" "Every night a saint comes here to spend the night with God." "I'd do something else with my nights." "But it's her choice." "Quiet on the set." "We're about to roll." "Quiet outside." "When you're ready, Denis." "Camera." "Roll sound." "Scene seven, shot one, take one." "Action." "Cut." "All evening the crew is shooting without us." "This is a strange shoot." "It lets the actors get acquainted." "Do you live in Paris?" "Yes." "And yet, we never met." "Not even at a party." "I don't go out much." "I met the love of my life years ago." "We live a quiet life together." "I'd love to be in the same situation." "What's her name?" "Marlène." "You share a common syllable." "It's no longer passionate." "Actually, it never was." "Maybe that's why it works so well." "We hope to have a child soon." "You don't have children?" "No." "I've had only passions." "Unhappy ones." "Everything seems clear and obvious." "Like on a map." "There's our hotel." "Yes, I see." "And yet, nothing is clear at all." "Would you like one last drink?" "The hotel bar has a wonderful view." "What do you see?" "Among other things, this garden." "It'll be like passing through the looking glass." "Yes." "Let's go." "I'm sorry." "Why?" "You surely misunderstood my gesture." "I think I understood it very well." "It was very selfish of me." "Why?" "It's true that Marlène and I are happy together." "That's good." "But maybe for it to continue," "I need an occasional moment of passion outside." "A brief passion?" "Yes." "If something were to happen between us, it would be brief." "That's why I feel selfish." "My passions have all been brief." "If sleeping with me would help you," "I'd feel like I'd be doing a good deed." "So it would be selfish of me, too." "Let's accept our common selfishness." "Shall we go to your room or mine?" "Let's go to mine." "It'll be like playing The Portuguese Nun again." "Come in." "Today I shoot my solo scenes." "Then I'll catch the plane to Paris." "I finish shooting tomorrow, and go home the day after." "Here's my card." "If you ever want to meet for a drink, it would be a pleasure." "I hope you're not sad." "I told you last night..." "I'm happy." "When you said it, we were together." "Now we're parting." "I'm in the habit of separating." "Is there no way to change one's habits?" "I already have." "Usually when I leave someone, I'm sad." "This morning I'm happy." "sister JOANA" "Madam, I didn't know if you'd come." "I always keep my word." "Madalena is at home." "I told her about you." "Come." "This is the French lady." "This is Madalena." "Please come in, Madam." "Do you understand Portuguese?" "Madam speaks Portuguese very well." "May I offer you a coffee?" "You're very kind." "Madam is an actress." "Really?" "Yes." "I'm in Lisbon for a few days." "Where do you live?" "In Paris." "How did you meet Vasco?" "We met outside, in the square." "I was surprised he wasn't in school." "Vasco, go play outside." "See you later." "When Vasco was born, just nearby, his mother was sixteen." "She left home immediately afterwards." "Who is his father?" "Nobody knows." "Are you a relative?" "No." "My mother was a childhood friend of his grandmother, who cared for him after he was born." "His mother never returned?" "No." "When Vasco was two, we learned she'd killed herself, in Porto." "His grandmother died a year ago." "The boy had no one." "My mother considered his grandmother as her sister, so I took him in." "But it's impossible." "We already have three children." "My husband works in Paris, in construction." "Four days a week I clean houses." "I don't want to shut Vasco inside, so I let him play outdoors." "That shocks you." "Why don't you put him school?" "We can't officialise our relationship." "At first I thought I'd adopt him, but we can barely feed our own family." "What will you do?" "This summer I'll have to put him in the orphanage." "Does he know?" "No." "What if I found a family to adopt him?" "Where?" "In France." "That would be a good deed." "I know one couple in particular." "Give me your phone number." "Maybe I'll have some news before I leave." "I often prayfor this child." "What do you ask for?" "The grace of God." "Have you obtained it for him?" "If he receives it, it's not thanks to my prayers." "So why pray?" "To feel the presence of God." "See you soon." "I must go now." "But I'll come say goodbye before I leave." "The scene is simple." "You receive the letter, read it," "let it fall and turn to the sea." "Then you exit the frame." "All right." "Quiet on the set." "We're about to roll." "Whenever you're ready, Denis." "Camera." "Clap." "Scene fourteen, shot one, take one." "Action." "Cut." "You've reached Alice and Thomas," "Leave a message after the beep," "Hello Alice and Thomas, it's Julie." "I'm calling from Lisbon, where I'm doing a film." "I have something important to discuss with you, too complicated for a message." "Try me on my mobile, or I'll call you back." "Speak to you soon." "Good evening." "Good evening." "Are you happy with your day?" "Everything went well." "Has Martin left?" "We took him straight to the airport." "It was close, but he made the plane." "Tonight he'll sleep in Paris." "What are you doing tonight?" "Nothing special." "Let's paint the town of Lisbon." "We're shooting tomorrow." "Exactly." "It'll put you in the mood." "If the director says so." "We'll be very reasonable." "I had the keys to life But I did not open" "The doors behind which happiness lies" "I had the keys to life But I did not live" "My whole life was a saudade" "I had so many illusions And I was betrayed" "All my great hopes for love were dashed" "I don't know why I lament this life" "If I don't even want another" "If this is why I was born" "If this is why I'm here" "If this is all I deserve" "I will not go I will not go" "Let them come with their welcoming lips" "Their fiery eyes It's all over" "The most beautiful love may come" "I will not go I will not go" "I had the keys to life They stole from me" "They killed the poetry inside me" "They left me with only sadness" "And fountains in my eyes" "Which I never wanted" "If this is why I was born" "If this is why I'm here" "If this is all I deserve" "I will not go I will not go" "Let them come with their welcoming lips" "Their fiery eyes" "It's all over" "The most beautiful love may come" "I will not go I will not go" "I have a red shawl" "A memory of you" "An embroidered secret" "I sometimes wear when I go out" "It carries a lifetime in it" "The way life marks a face" "But it gives itself a new youth" "On nights when I wear it" "It's been a shroud and a flag" "Even a boat's sail" "It carries a lifetime in it" "But they say I wear it well" "You may think I lost my way" "On a well-worn path" "To show you I haven't forgotten" "I wear this red shawl" "I have a red shawl" "A memory of you" "Thank you." "Good evening." "Good evening." "Are you alone?" "More or less." "Would you like to dance?" "No." "Then let's have a drink." "In another life, it would be a pleasure." "We have to live here and now." "But here and now, I have to be somewhere else." "So we'll never meet again." "I'm sure we will." "You are a reincarnation of King D. Sebastião." "I doubt that." "King D. Sebastião didn't like women." "I adore them." "You've had four hundred years." "Tastes change." "So..." "If I'm D. Sebastião..." "Next time we meet, it'll be a sign." "But we're here, just inches from each other." "You must learn patience." "One can't outrun one's destiny." " Stop here." " Your hotel is further down." "No, stop here." "I'm happy." "You speak Portuguese." "Yes." "Easy." "How do you feel?" "A bit dizzy." "But happy." "That's good." "I've come several times to see you." "Are you sure you came for me?" "You are the one I saw." "Do you spend the night here?" "I come in the evening, and return to the convent for Matins." "Where is your convent?" "Down the hill, then up again." "For a bird, it's very near." "When do you sleep?" "Between Matins and Lauds." "So you almost never sleep." "I leave sleep to those who need it." "Like me." "Can we go to the altar?" "What is you name?" "Sister Joana." "I chose the name for Joan of Arc." "Do you plan to end a siege?" "Yes." "You feel well enough to stand?" "Yes, I feel much better." "What siege do you want to end?" "The siege of God." "Where?" "God is besieged in me." "Even in you?" "Does that surprise you?" "Yes." "And yet, we live in the same world." "Yes, but I live in the secular world." "God is not locked in a convent." "I have known a great quantity of profane loves." "There is but one love, without quantity." "It varies only in quality." "I'm an actress." "I try to show the truth through unreal things." "God did the same when He created the world." "In the film, I play a nun carrying on a carnal affair within the walls of her convent." "During the reign of D. Alfonso Vl." "Such things were common in Portugal then." "More than elsewhere?" "Yes." "That's when people stopped believing." "For once, Portugal was avant-garde." "What caused this progress?" "People could no longer believe D. Sebastião would come back, because there was a king on the throne." "On feast days, people were garroted and burnt on the Rossio, but no one considered them to be God's enemies, nor did they consider the executioners his servants." "All that remained was to believe in Reason." "That's when the siege of God began." "Why would Reason be an enemy of God?" "Because He is real and Reason is not." "Reason exists neither in man nor in the world, and even less in God." "I thought I was a strong person." "You seem to be." "But I fainted." "Saint Teresa fainted too." "But she was conjuring the seraph." "Maybe you were too." "I dare not tell you why it happened." "You are free to tell me or not." "I was watching you... and I saw you disappear." "Disappear?" "Where your body had been, there was emptiness." "Perhaps at that moment I ended the siege of God." "And if you did?" "I must have found myself face to face with Him." "When we're face to face with Him, we disappear?" "I don't know how it looks on the outside." "But inside, being face to face with Him means loving with all our being." "How is it different from profane love?" "There is only one love." "I've been searching for it always, but I remain a prisoner of the world." "It can also be found in the world." "I've only loved flesh and blood." "In my prayers, I seek the Word incarnate." "Have you found it?" "At times, I believe so." "How can we receive God's love?" "By loving till we no longer exist." "Is that what you did earlier?" "I have no idea." "At times, I've desired death." "Death is not love." "When we disappear through loving, we cease to be what we are not." "What do we become?" "We become what we are." "And what do we find?" "Life." "Finding life is what I desire above all else." "Finding life is giving life." "Each of us does it in our own way." "I am but a piece of wood carried by the river." "You're wrong." "What have I done?" "You came here." "Will I find life here, in Lisbon?" "If it is here that you learn to love." "To the point of disappearing?" "To the point of giving life." "I carry no child inside me." "All of us, men and women, carry a new life inside us." "Then I am someone else." "We are all many beings." "Here, I am the Portuguese nun." "Like me." "And here, I have loved." "Like me." "Could we be the same woman?" "It's possible." "Then we carry inside us the child of our love." "Yes." "And this is where we will give birth." "Yes." "THE child AND THE hidden ONE" "Did you get home all right?" "Yes." "Did you enjoy your evening?" "Hipness can be pretty depressing." "I should've gone to bed at a reasonable hour, like you." "I don't know if the hour was reasonable." "I attended Matins in a convent." "I barely slept." "Did you go to the convent in reaction to the disco?" "No." "It was a logical progression." "How so?" "In the disco, I met King D. Sebastião." "Feel free to answer." "Friends from Paris..." "I'll call them back." "Cut." "Wonderful." " Shall we do another?" " Yes." " Ready, Raphaël?" " Ready." "Whenever you're ready, Denis." "Camera." "Roll sound." "Rolling." "Scene seventeen, shot two, take two." "Action." "Adieu," "I feel I tell you too often about the unbearable state I'm in," "And yet, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the despair you cause me, and I detest the serenity in which I lived before I knew you," "Adieu, my passion increases with each moment," "Cut." "Cut." "Why didn't you cry?" "It came naturally." "Looking at the sea," "I understood the meaning of what my voice was saying." "You'll see in the editing room, but I think that last take is best." "Good evening, Madam." "I received your message." "I just arrived myself." "Come in." "This is Luca, Pilar and Caterina." "This French lady is a friend of Vasco's." "I need to talk to her." "Please go play outside." "I'd like Vasco to stay with us." "Then only his cousins will leave." "May I offer you something?" "Coffee?" "No, thank you." "Let's sit down." "We spoke about Vasco's future." "Yes." "I said I'd contact some people in France." "Yes." "I tried." "I called them." "And?" "I haven't heard back yet." "But I have another idea." "Yes?" "I propose to take Vasco to France for summer vacation." "And after a certain time, if it suits him... to adopt him myself." "You, Madam?" "Yes." "Do you have a husband?" "No." "But in France many families begin with a mother and a child." "I believe you are a good person." "If Vasco wants to go on vacation with you, I have no objection." "And afterwards?" "If you both desire it, I see no obstacle to you adopting him." "Thank you." "Vasco, did you understand what we said?" "Yes, Madam." "Would you like to come to France with me?" "Yes, Madam." "Are you leaving tomorrow?" "No." "A bit later, so we can get organised." "Would you like to come for a walk?" "Yes." "Where do you live in France?" "Paris." "That's where Madalena's husband lives." "We'll invite him over." "What's Paris like?" "It's even bigger than Lisbon, and very beautiful." "Our house is near a garden called the Luxembourg." "What will I do in Paris?" "Live your childhood." "I'll try to make it a happy one." "I'll teach you French." "When summer's over, you'll begin school." "You see..." "I found you again in the same life." "Destiny wanted you to be quick." "Last night, I never imagined you had a child." "Last night, I didn't have one." "So you were quick too." "You know, what you said last night..." "About what?" "That I was a reincarnation of D. Sebastião..." "Yes?" "I thought it over." "I think you're right." "Good." "I live nearby." "Close to the river." "Yes." "So you won't have to rise too early when you appear on your white horse on the banks of the Tagus." "Yes, I thought of that." "Where do you live?" "Far away." "And I'm going back soon." "With Vasco." "So we shall not meet again." "Who knows?" "Couldn't you give me your card?" "Our meeting today is a sign." "If we meet a third time, without you knowing my name," "I will truly believe it is destiny's will." "Why three times, and not two?" "It's always three times in stories." "What will the next time mean?" "Maybe that you are the great love of my life." "But you're going far, and D. Sebastião must appear in Lisbon." "I think today he can appear somewhere else." "Promise me if we meet a third time, you'll tell me your name." "I promise." "And if I tell you my name," "I will be yours." "I believe you." "I'm a witness." "This beautiful city, Vasco, is yours." "I hope one day, when you return to your city, you will know how to love." "Who will I love?" "Those who are close to you, those who are close to them..." "And finally, all that is not you." "I will love all that is not me?" "Yes." "And then you will find joy." "Who will love me?" "Everything you love will love you." "You say beautiful things, Madam." "You don't need to call me Madam anymore." "All right." "What shall I call you?" "Call me "maman"." "You see!" "That's your first French word." "Subtitles by Sionann O'Neill" "Subtitling TlTRA film Paris"