"Can I see the sign-in sheet, please?" "Thank you." "M'am you need to sign it right here." " Can I use the phone?" " Sure, go ahead" "Hello?" "I'm gonna do this alone aren't I?" " How could you not be here?" " I don't need to be there" "I don't need to watch" "But..." "I packed all his things for you." "What?" " Why would you do that Ana?" "I don't..." " I can't just throw them away." "Nothings gonna change" "Nothings gonna change This isn't gonna bring him back" "None of this will bring him back, Ana You know it's..." "I'm hanging up now okay?" "Ana?" " Noun" " Electricity" " Color" " Black" "Adverb." "Mom, do I have to go again?" "Yeah we do." "Why?" "Remember when we used to go to the zoo together?" " Yeah." "We're going to the zoo now?" " No, Honey" "You know, the uh..." "Remember those big gorillas how they'd play behind the glass and make faces at us?" "And make us laugh?" " Remember that?" " That was fun." "But they had to stay in the cage right?" "These people might forget, they might think... oh, you know:" "He's okay, he's a nice animal." "He just wants to play" "And they would let 'im out and terrible things would happen" "Really?" "They're meant an animal, Jesse." "To make sure people won't forget that." "He's a monster and I have to make sure people won't forget" "Okay." "Can we stop this time?" "Please can we stop?" "Yeah, absolutely" "I think I'm gonna stay here" "Okay fine, I'm gonna get out" "Lock-It-Up mini-storage" "Yeah, it's him." "No." "No, after thirty days you gotta pay in cash" "Hear that?" "That's your customer." " What's going on?" " Take a guess." "I thought, I might need another week." "Okay?" "Look, let me make it real simple for you." "If you don't pay you can't play" "You have until tonight's game to pay up." "Then it's over" " What's that supposed to mean?" " Use your imagination!" "Over." "Chuck, come on man." "What if I...?" "Hang on, hang on." "All right, have fun" "Remember you can look, can't touch Place a bid, place a bid on everything" "Start at 50 bucks -55 -60 70 - 75" "80 - 85 85." "All right, you're the winner Fill out at the top, please." "Okay, here it is" " That's all of it?" " That's it." "250 250?" " Yeah." " Come on, I need more than that." " I'm sure you do." "250" "You know what, take it." "Girls, stay in the car." "Harry..." "Well this certainly explains a few things" "Yeah, it was just uh, bunch of stuff that would've been auctioned anyways." "Bunch of junk." "So you're not stealing from our customers, really." "Just from me." "Look, I uh..." " I'll pay you back... all right?" "all of it I promise" " Your word on that right?" "There's no such thing as selective honesty, Saul" "I want you out by morning." "I don't care where you go." "But I want you out before opening, tomorrow morning." "Or I'll report you." "Aight." "Aight." "I'm very sorry." "A bit crazy this morning." "To the point, then." "Mrs. Nichols, we've decided to recommend Jesse to special education." " What?" " Harrison has a very effective program" "We feel they're better equipped to deal with your son than we are." "What are you talking about "better equipped"?" "He's a child!" "His maturity level is equal to a five year old's." "The rest of the class..." "As is yours Mrs. Bachanas." "I'm still dealing with you." "No, I've seen those classes." "He does not belong in a special ed class." "He's not special ed!" "You know what that'll do to him?" "Putting him in that class?" "We simply don't have the resources to make this work here." "I know it's not a perfect fit, but it's all the district has left." "He'll be able to understand instructions." "He can succeed!" "You know what he needs?" "He needs a teacher who's willing to see him as an individual with individual needs." "Individual ways of processing information." "You know!" "You know that!" "He understands!" "He just gets distracted, he gets a little bored..." "He's not interested in regurgitated facts." "Just let him think for himself, please!" "He doesn't listen!" "He distracts himself and the entire class!" "He does listen." "He hears every word you say." "Nonetheless Mrs. Nichols, this is the decision." "Friday will be his last day here." "I can't afford private school." "Then starting Monday, Jesse will have to attend the classes at Harrison." "I am sorry, but you no longer have a choice in the matter." "No, he's my son!" "We'll always have a choice" " Mrs. Nichols..." " No, don't please." "Come on." "Oh, Jesse, come on!" " But I did a triple knot this time." " Shit." "All right, just take your foot out." "Come on!" "I'm trying." " I know you are." "All right." "Let's go" " What about my shoe?" " We'll get another pair of shoes." "Jesse!" "Jesse!" "No, honey your feet, take them off the coffee table" "Sorry." "Let me get in there." "Are we done?" "Yeah, we're done." " Have you tried the card club?" " I'm not going back there." " It's not that bad you know." " How do you spell "mirror"" " You ever worked there?" "2 'r'-s honey!" " You haven't told him yet?" " No." " How do you spell "faces"?" " With a 'c', you know that one Jess!" "What?" "What should I do?" "You know?" "You have an easy answer?" "There's no easy answer!" "He wouldn't understand!" "What am I gonna do when he asks me "what did I do wrong"?" ""Why can't I hang out with my friends?" "Why am I reading the same book I read 3 years ago?"" " I can't put him in that class" " Well, you can't just not tell him." "I know, I know." "I'm gonna figure something out." " Mom, it's not working!" " I'm coming!" "Mom!" " Yes, honey?" " This isn't working very well" " No?" " The pencil keeps punching..." " All right, let me see." " Like this speeding boat" "It's 'cause it's a soft chair." "I don't like soft chairs" "Look, we'll put a hard book under it..." "What do you think?" ""You can't do it." Plus, plus, plus." "Heart." "Exclamation point." "Smiley face." " Hey dad!" " Bud." "So I figured you'd just give me a lesson plan, and I'll follow it." "You'll make me a list of stuff I gotta buy to get him started." " And you know, just do it!" " I don't know!" "I don't know if you're cut out for home school." "What?" " Well no it isn't, you've just said that I'm not cut out for it" " It's just more complicated than that." " How is it more complicated?" "We can't put him in a special ed program." "Of course not, can we just talk about this tonight?" "Please, I've just got 34 7th graders who need their tests by 5th period" "Oh, I'm sorry." "I don't want to interrupt your students' education." "You know..." " I've called in." " What about your 7th graders?" " I don't want to talk about them" " You really wanna do this?" " No, I don't think we have a choice" "I'll go partime again." "I guess, I'll do nights." "I can get my shift back at the resource center" "Why can't they just teach him?" "'Cause they're idiots." "All teachers are idiots." "Well, we all are." "Thank you." "Hi." "Hi, Saul." "Just a minute." "Is she coming?" "I would imagine so" "They won't let me see her will they?" "There are reasons for that, Saul" "Yeah." "Do you think she hates you?" "And would you, if you were her?" "Maybe." "Probably, yes." "But, I'm not her" "I didn't know you then." "Neither did she" "She just looked at me" "That's it." "She just looked at me." "Do you want her to hate you?" "I pray to God she hates me." "What?" "You're almost out" "Here, take those." "You take 'em!" " Pop?" " What?" " I need to talk to you" " You need to work" "There's no work, pop." "There's no appartment, nothing." "We're done." "What are you talking about?" "We've got everything we need." "You've gotta be kidding me" "Come on" "There's more to your entire life than this one act from your past." "There's more to you than this right here." "Well, if there's something more, you know, it's kinda we're running out of time." " God's plan is something you'll find in yourself." " God's plan?" "Yes." "Yes, God's plan." "He's got a plan for you, Saul." " For you and for me?" " For you, for me, for every living creature on this Earth." "How does that work, exactly, Steven?" "How does God choose, who gets what plan?" "So you've got the plan with a mother - wakes up every morning, makes you breakfast." "Sees you off to a nice day at school." "The one where your father comes home from his modest 9 to 5 job." "Takes the time out of his day to throw the ball around, help you with your homework." "Read you a story before bed." "What happens if I get that white picket fence plan?" "And you sit here." "Across your one and only visitor who happens to be a minister." "Determined to convince you that even the worst of God's creatures can find a meaning in life?" "Would you feel the same way then?" "You do not have the right to tell me about God's plan." "There is no plan." "I was born alone, and today I'm gonna die alone." "And everything between was my choice." "Do not tell me about God's plan!" "let's see." "Laundry, dusting, mopping..." "That's what I did since I had my son, you know that's what I "had."" " Give me those!" " Why!" "?" " Put 'em down, just put 'em down." " Please, can I have it, Mom?" " Knock it off!" "Mom!" "Okay now, listen." "When I say stay on the chair, I don't mean climb on it " "I don't mean climb on the railings and touch the chair once in a while, I mean stay on the chair!" "I've been there for 5 minutes." "You're not a baby!" "I was always touching the chair!" "I never let go!" "No, you know what I meant." "You know exactly what I meant, Jess." "Okay, just listen." "Listen to me!" " But Mom..." " No Jess!" "I need your help, I can't do this, okay?" "I need you to help me." "Can you do that?" " Do you want the rest of my root beer?" " No I'm good buddy, thanks." "You don't like root beer, do you?" "I like good Pizza." ""If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field,"" ""and to morrow is cast into the oven;"" ""how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith?"" "And the rest?" "The rest?" ""Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof."" "If God is in control..." "Why didn't he stop me?" "We can't know all the reasons, Saul" "Only he sees the big picture." "His omniscence is his alone." "All right, come on man." "Come on man!" "You can't hide behind that!" "It's bullshit!" "Forget about me!" "What about the little boy?" "Was that in God's plan?" "Did he deserve it?" " I don't know." "No one could ever know that." " Why?" " Why don't you tell me, Saul?" " 'Cause you couldn't." " Well, that's bullshit!" " Really?" "2 grand?" "Yeah" "Straight up?" "All at once?" "Pretty much." "I don't know, Saul." "I'm not really into giving second tier loans." "And at the end of the day, I'm betting on your card skills - which seem to be at present, not too performance-oriented." "Tell you what." "Why don't you work for it?" "Minimize my risk, avoid double debt." "It's a win-win." "I appreciate that." "But it's not gonna work for me." "What's not gonna work for you?" "What's your problem, Saul?" "Why don't you take some responsibility for yourself?" "Some accountability?" "If I may be frank, your work ethic is a little questionable." "I don't think you understand." "I don't have the time." "Ok, look man, do me a favor: don't think, it's not your strong suit." "All right?" "I'm not sitting here offering you a full-time position." " Tell you what man, come back next week, maybe we can..." " There's no next week!" "Okay?" "There is no tomorrow." "I need 2000 dollars tonight" "That's it." "All right" "One job, one hour, one payment." "When you're done of course" "I think I know what it is you need Saul ." "And I'm telling you this job will match your needs with my resources." "Synergy, Saul." "Yeah." "Go around!" "What?" " You're serious?" " Absolutely." "I want him to rot in hell." " You make this trek every year?" " Yeah" " Why?" " Because it's what I do" " Really?" "It's my responsibility." "It's the most important thing I do." "It's sort of like your calling?" "I didn't mean it." "I just..." "Wow." "People think justice comes back in the courtroom, when the sentence is said." "But it doesn't." "It's meted out slowly, continually year after year." "Are you gonna watch?" "Wouldn't miss it for the world." "So what weight is your trailer rated for?" "Because I still think it's too heavy." "What?" "I don't look a mechanic." "I don't know." "It's a blowout." "Can you fix a blowout?" "Does the phone work?" "Can I call, please." "Mom!" "Mom!" "Look at these boots!" "They're so cool, aren't they?" " Are they comfortable?" " Yeah!" "They're really comfortable!" " 'Cause you know they gotta be for every day, you gotta be able to wear them for every day, right?" " I know that!" "That's how much I like them!" "I'll wear 'em every day!" " But they look really big, honey." " I'll grow into them." " Let me try 'em on." " I don't think they'll fit you" " You don't?" "Do you want to bet?" " I'll bet when you try them on." "That's not a bet, that's a sure thing." "Wow, you look good in them!" "You should buy them too!" " Aren't they really comfortable?" " No, they're" "They're like hell." "Can we just try, these cool kind of shoes, please?" "Why?" "Those aren't cool." "These are really cool!" "They're cowboy boots." "Look, I'll get the right size" "Jess!" "Told you, you can wear it in the rain!" "Don't you at least want to take the tags off?" "No way!" "I'm saving them for school!" "Come on you vile monkey." "Au, that hurt." " Why are you dancing, huh?" " Bread and butter" "Get out of my car!" "Get out of my car!" "I set the payment yesterday." "It's my car!" "It's mine, so leave me alone!" "Gimme that quarter over there" "Just give me one of 'em." "Here, hook 'em up." "That's your customer, why didn't you do what I tell ya, huh?" "Hurry up, you..." "Don't you roll your eyes at me!" "Thank you." "Here you go." " Want anything?" " No, no thanks." " Missed us, huh?" " Oh yeah, horribly." "Got a 6 to 2 shift, you'll be perfect for it." "It's a tougher crowd, I need tougher people" " Monday through Friday?" " Wednesday through Sunday." "Did you hear what you paid me today?" " No." "You wanna tell me?" " 200, buddy. 200!" "Now this is what we need more of around here, Sam." "Don't let this one get away.." "My niece thinks she's ready for the tables now." "For the likes of you." " Tommy, get over here!" " Yes, I'm coming." "It is what it is, sweetheart." "You out of anybody should know that." " Yeah, it's been a while." " That's right, which means Darla's gonna have to train you all over again." "Which means, if we do this, I'm gonna need a 6 month commitment." "Minimum." "Saul." "Saul?" "Yeah?" "I know." "If you're the sole controller of your own destiny... you really believe that God is unavailable in that world?" " Yes I do." " Why, Saul?" "Why are you so determined to resist goodness in your life?" "You can't have it both ways." "You can't be the victim and claim to have peace..." " I'm not the victim." "I've never claimed to be a victim." " Okay, fine." "Then you're not a victim." "But you want peace." "You claim to be powerless to achieve it, and yet you want to be the sole owner of your actions." "Oh for God's sake!" "So you want to claim all the power?" "Fine!" "But do something with it!" "You truly want peace?" "Then allow yourself to believe for a moment, that someone in this world loves you." " Who?" "God?" " Yes." "Yes, God." "God loves you." "And for that alone, your life has value." "If you want peace, why are you so adamant that it's not possible?" "If God doesn't want to bother with you, why is your heart so heavy?" "Where do you think this guilt comes from?" " It's a lot warmer in here!" " Are you driving?" "I still gotta go to the grocery store before dinner." "I've got over a dozen tests to finish." "We'll drop you off and then Jessie and I will come back." "No, you take the car, I can walk back." " I want to go with Dad!" "My Moto-Father" " I'll take him with me if you want." "No sweetie-pie, he's got a lot of work to do before dinner." "Come with your Moto-Mama" "In the back." " Thank you" " I'll see you in a bit." " You all right?" " Yeah, I'm fine." "See you." "Bye!" "Mom?" "Mom!" "We have to go, honey!" "Come on, sweetie." "Hi." "Hi!" "Can I stay here?" "Sweetie, I can't see you from in the store." "You gotta come with me." " Please, I just wanna read." " No, get your coat." "Come on, let's go." " It's so boring in the store, I hate it." " Don't be hatin'!" " Can I bring the comic?" " No, leave the book." "Put your jacket on." "It's not so bad, 10 minutes in the grocery store." "I know, but that's 10 minutes in here, why can't I just..." "That's the point!" "I can just stay..." "It's just 10 minutes in the car." " Boots go on your feet." " I'm saving these for school, remember?" " So, what are we getting?" " Cereal" "What are you going for?" "Really?" "I was kind of hoping for something with a little more sugar." "Sugar is bad for you." "How are we doin' there, buddy?" "Well, we have 4 folders." "You've got spirals in the binder?" "So you're in the middle of the ocean." "It's clear for like 200 feet." "And even before you hear the song of the whale, you feel it." "Right in your belly." "Yeah, like this vibration." "It's right here." "You watch 'em, okay?" "Don't let anything happen" "I'll be right here." "So, it should be a while before you really find..." "Right.?" "Can you hold it for a second please?" "Can I help you?" "Yeah," "I need a prescription for my father." "Gregors, last name." " First name?" " Benjamin." "Hi, do you have any employment application forms?" "Make sure he takes these with a meal." "These are your instructions." "20 dollars, please." "Do you have another pen?" "This one isn't working." "Can I help you?" "Yeah, I uh..." "I need 2000 dollars now!" "What are you doing?" "You hear me?" "Just stay there!" "Don't move!" "Just stay there, okay?" "Just stay!" "Just give me the money!" "Go, go, go!" "Come on!" "Put the phone down!" "Now!" "Come on, hurry!" "You!" "Stay there!" "Don't!" "No!" "Just stay there." "Jess!" "No!" "No!" "Please, let him go!" " Honey, it's okay" " Mom!" " Mom!" " Honey, it's okay." "It's alright!" "I'm leaving now, okay?" "Nobody call the cops!" "He's gonna be fine." "Stay!" " Please stay!" " You give him back to me!" "No!" "No!" "10 minutes." " You take me!" " Give me 10 minutes!" "Jesse!" "Look, your mommy's coming, okay?" "Be quiet." "Mom, mommy!" "No!" "Help!" "Get me out of here!" "No, don't call!" "Please, he said not to call!" "Can you wait?" "Please, can you just wait?" "Just 10 minutes." " Let me out!" " We're almost there, okay?" " M'am?" "We need to call!" " He said not to call!" "I don't know what to do." " We need to call the police" " He's my son!" "He's my little boy!" "Please don't call the police!" "I don't know what to do" "You'll be okay." "Get out of the way!" "Hang on!" "I'll let you out in just a minute!" "All right?" "We'll be right there!" "You okay?" "You alright?" ""Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,"" ""I shall fear no evil: for thou art with me;"" ""thy rod and thy staff they comfort me." "Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:"" "6421 returning." ""thou anointest my head with oil;" "my cup runneth over."" ""Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:"" ""and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord for ever."" " All clear?" " Hang on!" "Hang on!" "Just a minute!" "Okay." "I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do." "Come with now!" "Okay, go ahead." "Can I see the sign-in sheet, please?" "Thank you." "M'am you need to sign it right here." " Can I use the phone?" " Sure, go ahead" "Jesse!" "No!" "Let me see him!" "Let me see him, please!" "Jesse, I'm here, honey!" "He is my everything!" "Please do something..." "Please do something!" "No!" "You need something?" "Yeah." "I wanna see him." " Excuse me?" " I wanna talk to the prisoner." "I'm sorry Mrs. Nichols, I don't think that's possible." "No, it's entirely possible." "Call your supervisor." " I don't think he's gonna give you a different answer." " Mr. Runyan, call your supervisor." " Are you in charge?" " I understand you'd like to see the prisoner?" " No, I wanna speak to him." " Well, that's not a good idea." "I just wanna..." "I need to talk to him." "Look, I understand what he did to you, what he did to your son." "And it must be very difficult, but I can't..." "I'm afraid..." "You have no idea." "I pray every night that he suffers the same pain I endure." "Every morning when I wake up, I don't see my son, I don't see my husband." "I see him." "I wanna see him." "Is it illegal for me to speak to him?" "No, it's not illegal." "Stand right here." "I need to search your purse." "Feet shoulder-width apart, hands against the wall." " Ready, M'am?" " Yes." "I'm sorry." "I'm so sorry." "I've tried to imagine what you..." "who you are." "What your day was like before." "I've put together your entire life from a single moment." "I feel like I know you." "I don't know who you are," "Or what I've taken from you." "Even then, I'm so sorry." "I've tried for so long not to give you a face." "It's so much better when you don't have a face." "All these details of you in my mind, in my imagination" "And I think I have pieced together your whole life on the drive here." "I'm sure it's all wrong." "I'm sure it doesn't matter." "I forgive you." "I have to forgive you" "Sorry."