"The fire started in the middle of the night." "They were trapped inside?" "Carson's been on pins, and..." "Jd's beside himself." "You figure you're gonna tell us." "What we should feel about some people we don't even know!" "I've been getting ivf treatments." "I want the donor to be somebody I know." "You really want a kid that bad?" "Shae reese." "We need her to testify against her pimp." "When's the trial gonna be?" "Maybe nine months." "We will get you into a shelter." "How 'bout you come work on the farm, get paid?" "You need beer..." "I got that." "You want other stuff..." "I seen you going soft." "For that fool you brought to the farm." "I'm not soft." "There's a right time to labor." "The book of lamentations 3:27 tells us," ""it is good for a man that he bear the yoke in his youth."" "If your time is spent well," "Then you should be building a better future for yourself." "But too many people just waste their time." "They do shameful things." "They throw away their money," "And they have nothing left when they get old." "Stop wasting your life." "Life is not about going to parties and sinful clubs." "That don't help you grow as a person." "Remember, it is god who works the hardest." "And the most in this world," "And he will work for you." "And in you and through you." "If you leave this world without laying a good foundation," "Your children will curse you." "God be with you." "And with you." "What the hell is going on?" "You need to look at the..." "I've looked at them." "You have put them in front of my face every day for a week." "Then what are you going to do about it?" "What am I supposed to be doing?" "Well, those people are our responsibility." "How are they our..." "But you don't want to acknowledge it?" "There's nothing to..." "They weren't on our property." "But you... you knew how they were living," "And you know..." "You know how they died..." "Trapped in..." "In those... those..." "Hello?" "Why do you do this to yourself?" "I-I don't know why you do this." "I'm..." "I'm gonna go." "I'll see you tonight." "Okay." "Isaac!" "Yeah?" "What are you doing with that white boy?" "We... we just talking." "That's it." "Talking about what?" "Um, I mean, just how he's doing, and that's it." "You over there running your mouth," "And he ain't picking nothing." "He's a little thug." "You know that." "Sneaking around the farm this morning." "No, see, I-i told him to come early and aerate the soil." "Aerate the soil?" "Yeah." "I pay..." "I pay him extra." "You're paying him?" "Who says you can pay him?" "He works." "Who says you can pay him?" "He just trying to earn extra money." "That's it." "You're soft." "You know that?" "He's a punk, and you..." "You're throwing him money." "So he can stay high?" "So he can take his white-trash pills and stay lit up?" "Wait, y-you tell me to make him work," "And I make him work." "And then... then you tell me that he's not working enough." "I mean, w-what do you want?" "I want you to think!" "You... you let a druggie on the farm." "You don't know what he's gonna do." "You trust people, man." "You can't do that." "Go." "Go do some work." "All right." "Hey!" "No." "I want you to know." "That I talked to laurie ann and jd." "I called them right after I talked to you," "And they said that they are gonna do a policy review?" "And they are gonna look at subcontractor standards," "And they're..." "They're gonna review those." "So things are getting done, so..." "Can I help?" "God!" "Jeanette..." "No, I just want to..." "They are gonna do a policy review." "They are going to... no, it's..." "Yeah, yeah." "No, it's not just about the accident." "You asked me why I feel the way I feel." "Your father, his health..." "You all are doing more, more, and I-i sit around." "That's what I do all day." "I sit around." "I sit here with these things that are happening to you." "So, here's... here's something I could get involved with," "Something I could do." "That's all I'm asking." "I'm..." "I'm asking if I could do something." "Jeanette..." "I will call jd." "If you want to help, you can help." "I just..." "I don't want all of this." "To come between us." "Oye..." "Luis, this is manuel." "The first time you die, it's kind of scary." "No, it is... it is scary, you know, 'cause you know what's happening." "You shoot up, or you take your pills or whatever," "And... and you drop down, you know?" "You drop down, same as always." "You go into your... into your hole, into your space." "And..." "And when you die, you just keep dropping." "And you know you're dying, and you try and fight it." "You try and climb back up, but you can't." "And you're scared." "You know, you're scared as hell." "And, um, dying scared is..." "Well, what's that like?" "What?" "Dying scared?" "It's dying scared." "That's what it is." "You're... you're alone," "And... and you got nothing but fear." "And then the paramedics showed up, right, with narcan..." "And give you a shot right up the nose." "Right?" "Just like that, I'm all right." "So what..." "What we'd start doing is," "We'd start shooting up right around the firehouses, right?" "You o.D.?" "They're right there." "Things get hectic, they're right there." "Just..." "It just got to be regular." "I must have..." "I must have died at least five times, for real." "Not just... not just o.D.'d." "Like, I must have died for real like five times." "Wow." "You... you proud of yourself for that?" "That you figured a way to get yourself messed up?" "Just, - just telling you how it is." "When they was running crack in the city," "They didn't have any narcan." "They let the mexicans die." "They let the blacks die." "Heroin comes into the suburbs," "And all of a sudden, they got magic powder." "See, dying means something." "And you act like you can take it back." "Dying's easy to you." "It's not easy." "That's why you ain't never gonna be nothing." "What I deal with is not easy." "'Cause the one thing that matters the most..." "The one thing that matters..." "It means nothing to you." "I work hard at getting myself right every day." "It's work to be regular." "It's work to be clean." "Think that's easy?" "What do you deal with that's so hard?" "You know, there's a lot of..." "Going on in this farm," "And I don't..." "I don't see you dealing with any of it." "He was nice." "Nicer than most." "I went to the bathroom and did everything that he wanted." "He liked it." "I could tell." "And then when we were done," "He grabbed me by the throat and started strangling me." "I was so high that I didn't know what was going on." "He bashed my head into the tile floor over and over." "And everything just went black." "When I woke up the next day, I was in the hospital." "Someone had found me and called the cops." "I can't even believe that I'm still alive." "You know, the weirdest part is," "He left the cash in my pocket..." "Like he wanted me to find it." "Thank you, rafi." "You are incredibly brave." "I'm so glad that you're here and that you're safe." "Please." "Go ahead." "I'm shae." "You know, my deal's the same." "Not the same, but..." "Same kind." "Before this, I was living with my guy." "He took care of me," "Promised that I'd never have to go back to my home." "Or my dad..." "Or his girlfriend, who made me have an abortion 'cause she thought the only reason I was having a baby." "Was 'cause I wanted the attention." "Billy promised he would keep me off the street, and he did." "I know billy's done some stuff that's messed up," "But he's the only one who ever gave me anything." "I miss that." "I miss him." "I'm pregnant again." "It's not billy's." "And I'm not gonna keep it." "But think about if me and him had a baby," "If he wasn't locked up..." "The three of us could be together." "Try and make a little family or something." "A little family would be good." "Thank you, shae, for your honesty." "I think about it, and I see there's a lot of good." "That comes from having a baby with you." "Now, you're gonna have to put your stuff in a tube." "Because that's the closest we're gonna get to..." "Some good that comes with it." "But I really thought about it, kimara." "I can't be your sperm donor." "Denise doesn't want you to..." "No, she's fine." "Mnh-mnh." "She gets it." "So, what's holding you back?" "I can't have a baby with someone I care about." "And not be in your life, in his or her life." "Well, then be in our lives." "We can work it out." "How?" "How?" "What... what..." "What, like a part-time dad?" "However you want to be involved." "I would be splitting my time." "Between my children and your kid." "Jason is..." "He's on his way off to college." "And you don't have to be involved." "We can sign a contract..." "No financial responsibility." "What, you mean abandon my child?" "I..." "You don't have to..." "To disclose your identity." "I'm asking just for..." "For a lifetime commitment." "A good man." "Look, you're struggling." "I'm ready." "Look, you're getting by the best that you can." "I'm ready for this baby." "I don't believe you can raise this kid without my help." "I..." "What, you don't think I'm capable?" "Kimara, how you gonna pay for daycare?" "What if you get one of your calls?" "Someone needs your help, and you've got to just take off." "Then what?" "You leave the baby behind?" "Is this about my job?" "You forget why we broke up in the first place." "You were never there." "You see the way jason smiles at you?" "No one..." "No one else will ever love you like that..." "Ever." "I want to know what that feels like, reggie." "I want to be able to hold that kind of love in my arms." "I want to..." "I want to..." "I want to look in my child's eyes," "And I want to see someone I care for." "I'm sorry." "I can't be the donor, kimara." "I'm sorry." "I..." "I can help with the loan for the procedure, but..." "You're not supposed to have any electronics at the shelter." "It's not mine." "It was found hidden in your belongings." "I stole it." "Stole it from where?" "One of the group-counseling sessions." "You don't have to be here." "Laura..." "You don't have to be at this shelter." "There's a database of women." "Who desperately need to escape their circumstances." "An actual database." "That's how hard rooms are to come by." "And you treat this as if..." "Can you just let us have a minute to talk?" "Just a minute." "Shae, what were you thinking?" "Do you know how hard it was for me to get you placed here?" "Who were you even trying to call?" "Nobody." "Billy?" "No." "So you just stole a phone to call nobody?" "I don't care about the phone." "I just wanted to use the camera." "What are they images of?" "I don't know." "I just know they're beautiful." "They're just not here." "Y-you stole a phone." "You're gonna have to take it back." "Do you want me to drive you?" "I'm cool." "You sure you don't want me to..." "I'm cool." "They can take me." "How are you?" "Is that all for you today?" "Ooh!" "Um..." "My fault." "No, excuse me." "I'm sorry." "It's fine." "No, no." "Don't worry about it." "Just in case." "Jeanette." "Hi, jd." "Sorry." "Sorry to keep you waiting." "That's all right." "Day gets away from you sometimes." "I know you have a lot to do." "Well..." "So, carson said you were looking for some work." "No." "I mean no." "Not work." "Said you wanted to get out of the house." "Carson told me that you and laurie ann." "Were going, to look at the... the situation." "With the fire, and, um..." "And if there's something I can do," "If there are ways that I could help," "Um, I want to." "I want to help." "Carson said we were looking into..." "Well, I don't..." "I don't know how it works exactly," "But that, you were gonna do some kind of..." "Of review of the people you work with." "And how things can be done better." "And, um, I would like to help with that." "You know, look, laurie ann already looked into things," "And there's not much to it." "You don't believe that." "You're the one who deals with the subcontractors, not her." "Yeah." "But I'd love to find a way." "To get you more involved in the business," "In... in what we're doing." "You don't believe." "That there's nothing to be done." "Look at this." "Did you see?" "Did you see what was left..." "I didn't need to..." "Of that fire?" "I don't need to see it." "I don't want to see it." "Look." "That... it's happened before." "That's happened." "How... how..." "How many times did it..." "I don't know." "A lot." "Did... how many died?" "A whole lot, jeanette." "A lot." "Since I was a boy." "It's always been business as usual." "I should have been running this farm." "Do you think maybe if you got yourself cleaned up," "Laurie ann could trust you more?" "What does..." "What does that have anything to do with it?" "Well, I know about..." "Addiction," "And I-i know what it looks like," "And I know what it does to people." "I want to help." "Let me help." "Hey." "Hide it." "Hide it good." "Bueno." "Sƒ­, me gusta." "¿por quƒ?" "Bueno." "Ven conmigo." "Teo?" "Mira." "No." "Por favor." "Ya itoca luis." "Quiillihqueh quitl motequixpoh teo." "Ya iconeuh." "Ticmati canin iztoc?" "No hizo nada malo." "Shh." "Shh." "Ce tlenhueli quipantihqui teo, melahuac?" "Ax queniuhqui." "Ax queniuhqui tlen paoc." "Zanpampa nicnequi nicmatiz." "Timoyolillih..." "Tictemohtica moconueh," "Tictemohtica mopilconeuh..." "Estaban en el campo." "Se re­a." "Su hijo la hac­a sonre­r." "Pero no es bueno sonre­r en el campo." "Se molest³ el jefe, como que ella no merc­a sonre­s." "Le quer­a quita la sonrisa de la cara." "Huan nopa quenque?" "sabe cmo le llaman al campo?" "El motel verde." "Los jefes piensan que pueden hacer lo que quieren." "Con las mujeres." "A nadie le importa." "Teo la trat de defender." "El jefe se enoj." "Mucho." "Huan quihuicac teo..." "Quitotoxtiyahqui." "Y se llev a teo, arrastr¡ndolo." "Tlen quichihuilih?" "No sabe." "Esa fue la ltima vez que lo vio." "Catlinya tlanahuahtiquetl?" "Queniuhqui itocah?" "Isaac!" "Yeah?" "What did I tell you about this one?" "You two are always messing around, and look at that." "What?" "I mean, it..." "It's... it's full." "That's full?" "That's full to you?" "The abuelitas pick faster than you." "I'm trying." "You're trying?" "He... he's been..." "Hey." "Let's see you try." "Come on." "Let's see you try." "Whoa." "You want to pick up after your bitch now, too?" "Let him do it, okay?" "Do it again." "Come on." "Got to learn to pick, okay?" "It's your fault he doesn't know how to work." "Do it again." "No." "What?" "I'm not doing this." "You want to kick it over, kick it over." "I'm not..." "I'm not doing this." "Hey, hey, hey." "Your fault." "You see this?" "Why you let him do it?" "!" "You can't even stand up to him." "Do something." "Do something!" "You're a..." "Man." "You know, I try." "I try, and you don't do..." "You just let it happen." "You take it, man." "You take it." "It's yours." "You take it." "If I told you the stories." "Of lo que pasa in those fields," "You'd say that we're making it up..." "That it doesn't happen..." "That it can't happen here." "Another country, some other city..." "But not here." "What we're telling you is la verdad." "The food on your table." "Comes with a price that you can't see..." "But that somebody has to pay." "Same with the clothes on your back." "Same with the things in your house." "You have to look at your life and ask," ""what does it cost to live the way I do?" "Can I afford it?"" "Because other people can't." "Now, you can choose to ignore it if you want." "Sometimes we all do." "All of us." "But what you can't do is be ignorant." "Captions by vitac..."