""Life's a show, and we all play our parts."" ""Life's a show, and we all play our parts." Joss Whedon" "So, it's the end?" "I mean, you won't come back to me?" "Maykel, I already told you." "It's him that I love, now." "It's a stab in the back." "You don't care about my feelings!" "Do you remember the day we bought the rings?" "We said it would last forever." " Things change, Maykel." " Not me." "That may be the problem." "Great." "Now it's my fault if you're cheating on me?" "I know, I'm unforgivable." "Johannes, the unforgivable thing is to tell me everyday that you love me, want to live with me, have sex with me, while you were seeing this other guy." "THIS is unforgivable!" " Does he know about me?" " He never asked." "And you never thought he would deserve to know." "I gave you my heart, and you have no scruples to break it." "Listen." "I know it won't help but..." "I'm sorry." "Nothing New" "Episode 1- Alone without you" "Sorry that I had to make you leave your cave." "But you couldn't stay alone forever." " It's kind from you." " Oh, Mister tries to be funny." "It won't be easy." "I'm thinking of him all the time." "At home, and even right now, here." "Wait." "You should talk to a psychoanalyst." "It could help you." "I'm a bit afrait to talk about my sexuality." "You say proudly everywhere that you're gay, but you can't say it to a psychoanalyst?" "Margaret, could you..." "Wow, you're using my full name?" "Seems Serious." "I listen." " Would you come with me?" " To hold your hand?" "Please." " Well, it's ok." " Thank you!" "Why only gay guys hug me?" "We went out for two years!" "It's not a good news for me." "Two years with me, and you turn gay!" "I think I was already gay before." "Nice, now I'm a fag hag." "You should see a psychoanalyst too." "Look for one in the white pages." "This one looks good, his diploma is in bold characters." "Psychologist hypnologist from the Strasbourg University." "I'm sure he can only hypnotize small potatoes." "Look for another one." "We'll find one." "So you have a problem with a break-up." "It happened so fast." "And I still can't accept it." "And what is the hardest thing to accept?" "The hardest thing isn't that I think about him all the time." "No, the hardest thing is every morning, when I wake up to realize I will never see him next to me again." "That I can't take him in my arms, taste his lips, feel the warmth of his skin." "I'm alone." "I listened to his album and watched his favorite film." "I miss him." "I read his letters that were filled with early dreams." "Some of them materialized, others never seen." "The truth is he's not here, and I'm screwed up again." "No matter what, which way I turn, how my feelings slowly bleeding here for him." "I'm spending time with hope and I don't know why it is." "What am I to say?" "What am I to do?" "What am I, alone without him?" "He said that this isn't yet the time." "So give me time, to get him back again." "So, you told him everything?" " I started and couldn't stop." " And now?" "He gave me antidepressants." " You have another problem..." " What?" "No." "Don't lie to me." "I know you, something is wrong." "You see, with Johannes I was safe, in a way." "I had someone." "But time goes by:" "I'm 25!" "And you know, gay guys have an expiry date." "After 30, you can only find someone in the Third World." " You're stupid!" " I only have five years left!" "Esther?" "Finally!" "Maggy, here is Esther." "Esther, this is Margaret." "We were in high school together and I was in love with her." "Great..." "I was too shy to tell her." "Anyway, why are you here?" "I'm reading your blog and I saw that you were down." "So I thought I could help you!" "ENGLISH TRANSLATION Maykel Stone"