"[Chris garneau's castle-time]" "*" "* men doing men-thing times * chewing candy and tobacco lines *" "* I was looking for exit signs" "* I was looking for lucky nines * * am I talking in boring rhymes * * oh, face it * we're living in war time" "*" "* yeah * yeah * yeah * yeah * yeah" ""But that was all still to come in Maggie's den." ""The silence on the phone" ""It was the silence I still hear," ""Always in the middle of the night" ""When I'm walking down" ""An empty highway," ""Or holed up in the last darkened amtrak car," ""Looking out the window" ""At the distant, twinkling lights." ""Some call it longing," ""But I call it silence." ""That night, though, on the phone," ""I heard my brother's voice." ""'Hello?" "Hello?" ""'Anthony." "Hello?" "'"" "Thank you." "[Light applause]" "Thanks for coming." "From my brother, Sean." "It was great." "Oh, thank you." "Thanks." "Watch this." "Lubbock, amarillo, fort worth..." "What time you getting off?" "Thanks, doll." "Thank you." "Where to next, capitan?" "Hobbes." "Hobbes." "Same city, different name." "There's a college there." "[Whistles]" "No." "College?" "Yeah, it's coed there." "Pussy." "Sweet." "How far?" "Like seven hours." "So we have time to get a hotel tonight." "Motel." "Yeah." "Can I see that pie?" "Here, Sean." "I actually ordered it for you." "You mean 'cause it looks gross" "And you don't want to eat it." "What's that?" "What?" "What is this?" "It's a souvenir." "Wildcat?" "Oh, that's great." "It's a souvenir." ""He held her," ""Taking her nervous, fragile," ""And unsteady hand," ""Putting it onto his bustling chest." ""Looking deep into her chocolate eyes," ""Marco said, 'you're shaking esmeralda." ""'My love, don't be nervous." "I will be careful." "I will be tender.'"" "I will fuck you in the butt." "Sean." "How much is the room gonna be?" "$35." "These are free, right?" "Yeah, no, go ahead." "Thank you." "203?" "Yeah." "You got it." "Thank you." "Upstairs to the right." "[Lock beeps]" "Come on, I got to piss." "Killing me, Sean." "[Sean urinating, groans]" "Yeah." "Ooh." "[Cell phone rings]" "What the fuck?" "[Phone beeps]" "What?" "Well, call her back." "Uh, can I get the key?" "You want anything, or...?" "No, I'm good." "All right." "[Distant moan]" "Shit." "[Exhales]" "[Laughter on TV]" "Oh, that's very funny." "Oh, bunny has won $17,303!" "[Applause]" "[Continues indistinct]" "[Coughing]" "That new, mystery challenger." "[Applause]" "[Basketball commentator speaking indistinctly]" "[Telephone rings]" "Hello?" "Hey there." "Hi." "What are you doing?" "I think you have the wrong number." "Hmm." "I think I got the right number." "Sean, this is stupid." "I'm hanging up." "Who's Sean?" "Tell me what you're doing." "I'm watching TV." "Who are you?" "I'm Nicole." "Hi, Nicole." "What's your name?" "Hmm." "I like that name." "Davy." "Yeah, um, it's a good name." "Listen..." "Where are you calling from?" "I'm in your motel room." "I don't think so." "What are you wearing?" "Um, clothes, I guess." "Seriously." "Tell me." "I'm wearing blue basketball shorts" "And a gray sweatshirt." "It's, uh, it's turned inside out." "It's my favorite sweater." "Let me ask you a question." "Yeah?" "What are you wearing?" "Nothing." "Okay." "Is that okay?" "That I have no clothes on?" "Yeah, it's okay, i..." "What is this, exactly?" "I'm horny, Davy." "Listen, this is weird." "I... i don't understand this." "I want to tell you what I would do" "If I had you here with me right now." "Listen, i... i don't think I can do this." "If you don't want it," "All you have to do is hang up." "Well?" "I'm lying on my sofa," "And I'm holding the phone with my right hand." "I'm moving my other hand very slowly" "Down my body." "Mm." "I feel so smooth." "My fingers are reaching my pussy now." "Mm." "I'm touching myself." "Just around the edge." "I like teasing myself a little bit." "Yeah?" "Mm-hmm." "Davy, what are you doing?" "Are you there?" "Yeah." "Talk to me." "Tell me what you're doing." "I'm, um..." "I'm touching my privates." "Are you hard?" "Yeah." "Good." "Can you do something for me, Davy?" "Can you pull down your basketball shorts?" "Pull your dick out." "What?" "Come on, Davy." "Take them off..." "Now." "Are they off?" "Yeah." "Mm." "Tell me what you want me to do now." "Okay, um..." "I want you..." "I want you to put your fingers" "Inside of yourself." "[Moans]" "Okay." "Mm." "Keep going." "And I want you to..." "Put your fingers inside of yourself" "And... and push them in and out." "And take your other hand..." "Uh-huh." "And... and start rubbing" "On... on your clit." "Oh, yeah?" "Oh, God, Davy." "Okay." " Oh, God." " Do it faster now." "I am." " Oh." " [Moaning]" "I want to..." "I want to hear you." "Oh, God, okay." "Oh, I'm sucking so hard." "Oh, God, it feels so good in my mouth." "I'm rubbing your dick with my tongue now." "Mm, pushing it down my throat." "Oh, my God." "I want you to do something." "Okay." "Okay." "Talk to me." "Tell me how it feels." "Oh, God." "[Moans]" "Mm, come on, Davy." "I'm..." "I'm..." "I'm fucking your mouth right now." "Uh-huh." "And... and it feels warm," "And you're, um..." "My... my cock is hitting the back of your throat," "And it..." "It feels really nice." "Oh, it does?" "Yeah." "Mm." "Oh, God." "It feels so good." "Please... please tell me you feel good, Nicole." "Oh, God, I feel really good, Davy." "You do?" "Uh-huh, I do." "[Moans]" "Oh, God." "Oh, God." "Are you... are you close?" " Don't stop." " I won't." "I'm gonna come." "Oh, God." "Me too." "Come in my mouth." "Okay." "Oh, me too." "[Both moaning]" "[Both breathing heavily]" "Hey." "That was great." "It was." "You have a nice voice." "I... i do?" "Mm-hmm." "It's really sexy." "[Lock beeps, door opens]" "Okay." "[Telephone rings]" "[Rings]" "Hello?" "Mm." "Miss me?" "Nicole?" "Dude, who the fuck is that?" "It's no one." "Go back to sleep." "Do you know what time it is?" "Sorry, babe." "It was nice, you and me." "Can I call you later?" "Give me your number." "I'll call you." "Okay." "[Kevin drew's safety bricks]" "*" "Almost ready?" "* you can never really start from the start * * the ending begins inside of the heart * * the people, they love to remember your name * * it's a hospital bed but it's all just the same *" "[Indistinct voice speaking]" "All right, now let's, uh," "Let's give a warm new Mexico welcome" "To writer Davy, um, Mitchell." "[Applause]" "Um, hi." "My name's Davy Mitchell," "And I'm gonna be reading, um," "From my collection of short stories" "Called things people do to each other." "Um..." "This is a story called woman in red." ""Before I flip back to begin at page one," ""I fished another tape from the little pile" ""And popped it in." ""'Shitty opera.'" ""But it wasn't shitty at all." "It was beautiful."" ""Then she called him..." ""A liar." "You dirty liar."" "Hi, Davy?" "Hi." "Oh, hey." "Yeah." "I thought it was really great." "You were, tonight." "Thanks." "I'm, uh, I'm Josie." "I'm Davy." "Yeah, I know, dummy." "So, um, I really like how you..." "How you write about yourself." "I don't write about myself." "I know a lot of writers do." "They write about themselves," "But I write about other people," "Okay?" "Yeah." "Mm-hmm." "I'm sorry." "I didn't..." "I'm sorry." "I'm a writer." "I take my writing..." "Maybe too seriously." "No, that's good." "That's..." "And I had, like, five beers anyway, so..." "Oh." "So what is this whole thing?" "Is this, like, what you guys do for a living?" "Oh, no, we're just, uh..." "We're going around, I guess." "So you're just two brothers in a car," "Armed with only your talents," "The dark, lonely, and endless road" "Stretched out in front of you?" "No limits, no limitations," "Just whatever you want," "Whenever you want?" "Yeah, it's just like that," "Only much less exciting." "How about your brother?" "Um, he's, uh, he's just along for the ride." "God." "Um, so, hey, what do you do?" "What do you like?" "I'm an English major." "Hey, me too." "I was an English major." " Oh, yeah?" " Yeah." "It's kind of miserable, huh?" "For me." "It's miserable for me." "Probably, it..." "That's... that's okay." "Yeah." "[Cell phone ringing]" "Hello?" "Hi there." "Hell... hello?" "Hello?" "Hello?" "Nicole?" "Hi." "How are you?" "Good." "And horny." "You?" "The same." "Mm-hmm." "Good luck." "Are you... are you there?" "I'm here." "Good." "And didn't lose my number or anything." "Well, look who's excited." "Yeah." "Where are you?" "I'm, uh, I'm in the alley of a bar." "Yeah?" "Are you all alone?" "Y-yeah." "Good." "I was hoping you would be." "Um, can you speak up?" "I can't really hear you that well." "Uh, I, um, I can't." "My boyfriend's next door." "Oh." "Um..." "Don't worry." "He's not gonna hear us." "I got wet just dialing your number." "Are you touching yourself?" "I am now." "[Door opens, indistinct chatter]" "What about you?" "Nicole, can you give me your number?" "I got to call you back." "You leaving a girl out in the cold?" "No." "No, it's nothing like..." "And I'll call you right back." "I'll call you." " I call shotgun." " Sean." "Yeah, that's right." "I don't call shotgun, 'cause I'm driving." " Sean." "Sean." " What's up, dude?" "No." "I wasn't." "What are you doing?" "I'm hopefully getting laid." "[Laughs]" "Your car's a piece of shit." "Oh, thank you." "[Laughs]" "Come on." "Yeah, no, I got the door." "[Cell phone rings]" "Hello?" "Hi." "Hi." "Davy?" "Yeah?" "I'm ready to fuck." "Okay." "[Both moaning]" "Thanks for that, babe." "Oh, thank you." "Oh, my God." "Really soon." "Wait." "You're all about sex." "Can't we talk a little bit?" "You know, like, cuddle?" "Okay." "Um, what do you want to talk about?" "I don't care." "Anything." "What do you think I look like?" "Um..." "I think you have long hair," "And it's strawberry blonde." "And you have brown eyes" "And big, red lips." "Am I close?" "[Laughs]" "No comment." "Well, what about me?" "What do you think I look like?" "Uh..." "Well, you're white." "Pale, maybe." "Uh-huh." "Short hair." "You could say that." "Blue eyes." "They're green." "But close to blue." "Tall." "You're handsome." "Very strong features." "And nice arms." "All that from my voice?" "Well, am I right?" "No comment." "[Laughs]" "So do you really have a boyfriend?" "We're not that serious." "Don't worry." "Well, it kind of feels like we are." "You could hardly call him my boyfriend, Davy." "We just fuck." "Well then why aren't you with him right now" "Rather than pretending to be with me?" "Because." "I like this better." "So, Davy, why are you phone fucking me" "In the middle of the night?" "And partly?" "Because I like it better too." "I've been on the road for the last couple months." "Oh." "Are you in a band?" "Uh, no." "Not nearly as exciting." "It's, uh, a book tour." "I knew you were an intellectual." "What does that mean?" "It was just..." "In your voice." "I feel like I can hardly" "Consider myself an intellectual." "Jerking off in the back of a station wagon" "In a parking lot in new Mexico" "Doesn't really qualify." "Well, when you put it that way..." "So how old are you?" "I'm 28." "Me too." "Really?" "Where do you work?" "I'm a secretary" "At a funeral home." "Wow." "That must be..." "That sounds like a good job." "It's really sad." "Actually, I have to sort of" "Disconnect myself from it all" "To even deal with it." "Yeah, now that I think about it," "It could be depressing." "Yeah." "My mom, she, um, she died last year." "We were really close." "Oh, I'm..." "I'm very sorry to hear that." "It was hard." "I set the whole funeral up at work." "It was just..." "I should quit." " That's..." " Really, I should." "I should just..." "You know what?" "I think you should." "Yeah." "You know..." "[Sighs]" "I got to get going, though." "That night that you called me?" "Yeah?" "How'd you know I was gonna be there?" "I mean, what made you call me?" "I didn't." "I just needed someone to be with." "I called a random number, and..." "There you were." "Good night, Davy." "Good night, Nicole." "So, Josie, did my brother tell you" "About his girlfriend?" "No." " That's for me." " I don't need that." "For you too." "There you go." "Okay, yeah." "I'll just..." "See you later." "[Seatbelt clicks]" "[Stereo playing softly]" "You been acting like such a fuckin' brat" "Since the minute that we hit the road." "I'm getting sick of it." "Oh, you're getting sick of it?" "What?" "At least I have a girlfriend to cheat on." "You just made a joke of this whole thing." "You're just doing this," "To fuck girls." "What is so wrong with that, dude?" "Oh, I'm sorry!" "I'm not gonna fuck girls anymore." "You know what I'm gonna do?" "And I'm gonna get me a little cardigan," "And I'm gonna walk around" "So that they'll think I'm smart." "Then we can be fuckin' twins, man!" "How does that sound?" "[Cell phone rings]" "Hello?" "Hey." "I missed you." "Let me call you back." "I'll call you." "I'll call you later." "Wait." "What?" "I missed you too." "Good." "Bye, Davy." "All right." "What?" "Yeah." "Sure." "Who's that?" ""Some call it longing." ""I call it silence." ""That night, though, on the phone," ""I heard my brother's voice" ""Clear as a trumpet." ""'Hello?" ""'Hello?" ""'Anthony." "Hello?" "'"" "Thank you." "[Scattered applause]" "I think I'm gonna leave new Mexico soon." "Why?" "Nicole, are you okay?" "You sound upset." "It's just me and my boyfriend." "We..." "[Sighs]" "It's been happening a lot lately." "Well, I'm sorry to hear that." "We argue all the time" "About the stupidest shit." "He's an ass." "You deserve better than that." "Thank you, Davy." "That means a lot." "Hey, that's what I'm here for." "We should meet sometime." "Oh, i... i don't know." "Just to see each other." "Uh, maybe." "I just..." "I think that, um..." "But right now it's just..." "There's something so special about this," "And I just... i don't think" "We should mess with it, okay?" "Hey." "Hold on a sec." "Okay." "Hey." "What you doing?" "Nothing." "Just, uh, sitting by the pool." "Hmm." "Were you on the phone, or...?" "What?" "No, I'm just kind of sick of being inside all the time." "Wanted to..." "[Sighs]" "Get out here and get some fresh air." "Can you get me a couple beers?" "Oh, yeah." "You know, I have, uh, the game on," "And I got a cot for you" "If you want to just take it inside" "And hang out." "Yeah, it's kind of nice out tonight." "Probably sleep in the wagon again." "Yeah." "Gotten used to it." "Hear that." "You sure?" "Yeah." "Oh, Davy." "I want to make you come." "Oh, I'm really close." "Oh, my God." "Your pussy feels so wet." "Mm." "Oh, fuck me, Davy." "[Grizzly bear's on a neck, on a spit]" "*" "* each day spend it with me now * * each day I spend it with me now * * each day I spend it with me now * * all my time spend it with me but *" "[Reading indistinct] * each day I spend it with you now * * each day I spend it with you now * * all my time, spend it with you now * * all my time spend it with you but *" "*" "* each day I spend it with you now * * each day I spend it with you now * * all my time spend it with you now * * all my time spend it with you but * * out here no one can hear me *" "* out here no one can hear me * * out here no one can hear me *" "*" "* but out here no one can hear me *" "All right, enough." "Sean, stop." "Sean, stop." "Oh, my God." "Aah." "Emerge from the shit box." "Do you want anything?" "Um, yeah, I'll take a water." "Is that all you want?" "Do you want something to eat?" "No, just water's cool." "So nothing to eat?" "No beef jerky?" "No, thank you." "Just a water." "[Cell phone rings]" "What are you doing?" "Restricted number?" "Hello?" "Davy?" "Do you want to leave a message?" "Sean, hey..." "She wants you." "She hung up." "Just out of curiosity," "Who is that?" "Who is it?" "It's a friend of mine." "You don't know her." "What are you doing?" "What are you..." "in gallup?" " Yeah." " That's cool." "No, you don't know her." "So how'd you meet her?" "I haven't actually met her yet." "She could be anybody." "With 1,000 cats," "Sells shit over the phone for a living" "With a little earpiece thing." "You jerk off, like, every time you talk to her, don't you?" "It's not just sex." "We... we talk about things." "We talk about..." "My God." "Are you hungry?" "Not now." "I can't believe" "Davy?" "I wish you were here with me right now." "Yeah." "It'd be so nice if we could sleep" "In the same bed together." "It would be." "Yes, I did." "I, um, told him about us." "You did?" "Yeah." "I wanted him to know." "That's... that's nice." "Davy, um, can I ask you something?" "Yeah, of course." "What is it?" "Why do you want to know that?" "'Cause I'm..." "I'm curious." "Why don't you tell me first?" "This isn't a game." "Fine." "At the same time," "On the count of three." "No, I just want to know more about you, Davy." "That's all." "Okay." "Okay." "Three..." "Two..." "One..." " Three." " 15." "Say something." "It's okay, d..." "It's okay." "Does that include me?" "No, I never..." "I never thought of you as..." "That's all right." "Davy, it's..." "I feel like there is." "[Sniffs]" "Do you want to talk about it?" "Relationships." "What about them?" "Relationships," "They don't always work out so well for me." "You don't have to be that hard on yourself, Davy." "There's all these girls" "That I really want to be with..." "But I just never do anything about." "What do you mean, exactly?" "I don't know." "I guess..." "I just can't live up" "To what they want from me." "You know what?" "I think it's a good thing." "It's sweet." "So many guys sleep around." "You're special that way." "Really?" "Of course you are." "You're a good person, Davy." "I'm lucky to have you." "You're the closest thing to a girlfriend I've ever had." "Wish I could grow a better beard." "You know, like dad's." "Mm." "Her name's Nicole." "Okay." "[Rock Plaza central's when we go how we go]" "*" "[Sighs]" "* when we go * how we go * where we come from * we don't know * still the sun shines down below * * when we go * how we go * inch by inch * and move on go" "* our lights and lands and snow * * when we go * how we go * all our trails * are learned by sorrow * we still smile and say hello *" "*" "I got you." "Got another hand?" "Hey, I'm glad you came." "All right, man." "Don't forget Sarah's party." "Friday." "Okay." "Yeah." "7:00, right?" "Yeah, not this Friday." "Next Friday." "And bring a gift." "All right?" "Yeah." "Get out of here." "[Laughs]" "So, um, must be nice to be home." "Yeah, it's kind of lonely, though." "Be a lot less lonely" "If I could call you when I wanted to." "I... i can't, Davy." "He's been getting suspicious" "Of all this time" "I've been spending with you on the phone." "Well, we could have a code," "Like, ring once and then hang up." "Can't we just fool around some, babe?" "That's all I want right now." "It'll be nice with you in your home," "Just all by yourself, with me." "Just the two of us." "What are you wearing?" "A blood pressure monitor." "Okay, here it is." "This is a pulse monitor," "A blood-pressure machine," "And a thermometer all in one." "[Distant music, people talking]" "[Rings doorbell]" "Davy!" "Happy Birthday." "Oh, thank you." "You look so good." "Come on in." "Hey, Davy's here!" "Hey!" "Everybody, it's cake time!" "Oh, no." "Don't sing Happy Birthday to me, please." "I'm so sorry." "This looks lovely." "Okay, wait..." "I made it for you." "Thank you so much." "Thank you all so much." "[Turns music up] Whoo!" "* you know me so easy * oh oh * you know me so hard * oh oh * your life is like museums * oh oh * my life you judge [Indistinct] * * oh oh * oh, baby, don't caress me" "* oh oh * sometimes we're [Indistinct] *" "Oh, Davy, dance with me." "Oh, no, that's okay." "Oh, please, please, dance with me." "Yeah, I'm just gonna get a beer." "Oh, no, come on." "I'm..." "I'm gonna get a beer." "Oh, okay." "They're in there." "Davy." "Samantha." "Hi." "Davy." "Davy the temp." "The one and only." "Yep." "That was a stupid thing to say." "The one and only." "Who talks like that?" "Don't worry about it." "So have you been here long?" "Just for a few minutes." "It's been a while." "I know." "It's... it's great to see you." "So no dancing, huh?" "Not really my thing." "Uh-huh." "Most people who say that just can't dance." "Not true." "They get in the way of my moves." "That's not terribly convincing." "Why aren't you dancing?" "Um, because I prefer peanut butter and a Martini." "Thank you." "No problem." "So how was the trip with your brother?" "Was it the kerouacian fantasy" "That you both hoped it would be?" "Um, I'm gonna ask you for a favor." "Of course." "Can you not talk about the trip?" "You want some?" "No, thanks." "People use peanut butter to train dogs not to bite." "You put it on your fingers," "And they learn to lick and be gentle." "It's kind of like, um..." "I'm sorry." "I have a tendency to talk..." "No, you know, I never had a dog." "My parents wouldn't let me." "And now my landlord won't let me." "I guess it just wasn't meant to be." "[Sighs]" "Um..." "I don't know if you told me," "Or if I just forgot." "I don't think we talked about it much." "So what's it like?" "Oh, it's hard to say." "I write about people." "Things people do." "Things people do to each other." "I sound like an asshole, don't I?" "A conscious asshole" "Is hardly an asshole." "What does that mean?" "I don't know." "Does it matter?" "I write short stories." "Mostly about my family." "Do you write about yourself?" "Mm, that's true." " Yeah." "What?" " What?" "I..." "You really should try some of this." "[Belches]" "Sorry." "Okay." "It's good, huh?" "Mm-hmm." "How was the party?" "It was okay." "Who is she?" "She's a friend of Sarah's." "Is she one of your three?" "Yeah." "Oh." "What happened with her?" "It was just kind of like a one-night stand, really." "What do you mean by "kind of"?" "I just feel like I should tell you, i..." "I asked her out on a date." "Are you there?" "Are you touching yourself?" "No." "I can change that." "I don't want to." "Oh, come on." "I'm trying to talk to you." "Davy..." "Look, I'm really tired." "Can we, um..." "Yeah." "Sure." "Um..." "If I shut off my phone," "Just call me tomorrow." "Okay." "Bye." "Look, I'm really sorry about the last time." "Huh?" "You know, the last time I saw you, before my trip." "I'm sorry about that, the, uh..." "Oh, stop." "Don't even mention it." "Okay." "Why'd you go?" "What?" "On your trip." "Um, truth is is" "It seemed exciting at first, you know." "The two of us out on the road," "Meeting people, traveling," "Living on peanut butter and jelly sandwiches." "Yeah." "Do you regret going?" "No." "[Cell phone rings]" "Oh, I'm sorry." "Someone important?" "Uh, no." "No, not at all." "Well, I read your book." "You did?" "Yeah, Sarah gave it to me." "I really liked it." "Really?" "Are you sure?" "'Cause you don't have to do that thing." "You know, like pretend i..." "No, I don't do that." "I really enjoyed it." "It was insightful, and, you know, easy to read." "I'm easy to read?" "Yeah, I had you pegged" "Before you walked into that kitchen." "And what was that, exactly?" "So, what?" "Are you gonna get back to writing soon?" "I think I'm..." "Don't say that." "Well, it's..." "I'm okay with it." "Really." "Well, you know what I'm gonna say, don't you?" "Don't give up?" "Don't give up." "[Cell phone rings]" "Hi." "Hey." "How was your date?" "Well, it wasn't a date, really." "Well, you didn't answer when I called." "You seem weird about this whole Samantha thing." "And it's not fair." "All along you've had a boyfriend," "And now I feel guilty, and..." "I'm starting to believe there isn't even a boyfriend." "Why would I make someone up?" "What's his name then?" "Aaron." "I'm driving." "[Sighs]" "I'll call you back..." "Call me back in, like, ten minutes, okay?" "[Phone clicks]" "Hello?" "[Keys jingling, cell phone rings]" "This is fucked up, Nicole." "This isn't right." "The girlfriend I've never seen?" "The girlfriend who won't give me her phone number?" "The girlfriend I can't even prove exists?" "That girlfriend?" "This is silly, Davy." "If this is so silly, Nicole," "Then why don't you get Aaron on the phone" "So I can tell him who you're fucking" "Behind his back every night." "Don't do this." "Do what?" "I need more than this." "Stop, Davy." "And who I can be with." "Stop being..." "[Sighs]" "Being..." "What am I being, Nicole?" "Being what?" "So mean." "Mean?" "You won't even give me your phone number" "For Christ sakes." "How would you feel?" "If you don't want this," "Davy, I'm sorry." "I'm..." "[Phone clatters]" "[Distant phone rings]" "[Cell phone rings loudly]" "Hey, I thought you weren't gonna call." "Look, I'm really sorry about the way I acted." "I..." "Davy?" "Sorry?" "Oh, Samantha." "Hey." "I didn't recognize your number." "It's okay." "It's my work number." "It doesn't show up." "Listen, I'm having your brother" "And Sarah over this weekend." "You should come." "Okay." "Yeah." "I have my own thing I want to do," "Which is solar panel installation," "And I've been saying this forever." "And I don't understand" "It's not a bad idea." "It's not gonna catch on." "It is gonna do well." "It's the future." "Is awesome, but..." "That was a great dinner." "It really was." "Totally getting a chubby." "It was fun." "I like it, but I'm, uh..." "Not that experienced at cooking." "We should do it sometime." "You could be my sous-chef." "That'd be fun." "Chop." "Hey, Sean and Sarah," "That was a wonderful dinner." "I felt so adult eating it." "You almost look like one." "It was great." "Thanks." "So..." "So?" "Okay, a game." "Let's play a game." "Two truths and a lie, right?" "Two truths and a... yeah." "No, let's..." "Let's not play that." "Yes." "Yeah." "It'll be fun." "No, let's play, um..." "Scattergories." "'Cause that's fun." "We're doing it." "Sarah." "Should I?" "All right." "I will." "Um, all right." "Two truths and a lie." "One..." "I'm very much in love with my boyfriend." "Aw." "[Laughter]" "That's a lie." "Two..." "Um, I've been to India once." "And, three, I've made out with a girl." "I know this one." "That's not fair." "You're out this round." "Uh, two... two or three?" "Two's the lie." "We go with two." "Really?" "You ready?" "Yeah." "Nope." "I was India when I was seven." "Du-dum." "Is it nice there?" "Really?" "You've never kissed a girl?" "Really?" "No." "Do we want to fix this little problem right now?" "No, I think we're fine." "Okay." "It's your turn." "How about I go last?" "I'll go last." "No." "I'm gonna do you right now." "Nice." "Sick." "That's really sick." "Thank you." "Davy still has his baby blanket." "And he calls it Shirley." "He likes embarrassing me." "Well, now we know." "Okay." "So we're gonna get rid of that." "Ah, uh, ugh, okay." "I'm starting over." "One." "Um..." "You'll like this." "Davy's first word was," "And I quote, "interesting."" "Wait, that's, like, four or five syllables." "I know." "It's four syllables." "Okay, okay." "Once in junior high school." " Sean." " Jesus." "Sean." " A guy?" "Really?" " No, it wasn't a real kiss." "It was a dare, and he was my best friend." "Sean, you know." "You were there." "He was the one daring me." "Yes, it was a fake kiss." "It was a fake kiss." "It was just a prank." "Hey, you embarrassed me." "Are you happy?" "Just let's play a different game." "Well, no, I mean, one more." "One more." " Yeah, it's only fair." " You're doing great." "Number three." "Yeah, royally." "All right, so I'm just gonna give you guys the third truth." "Sorry, dude." "While we were on our road trip," "Um, Davy had this, like, really fucked up" "Phone sex relationship" "With this girl that he never met" "Named Nicole." "You're such a prick." "Oh, no, come on." "Don't be shy." "There's nothing to be embarrassed about." "It's okay." "No, you've got me curious now." "It was..." "It was a stupid thing." "Come on, Davy." "We don't have to..." "Let's uh..." "I don't... i don't want to talk about it, okay?" "It was stupid, and..." "Thanks for that, Sean." "You know what?" "It's my turn now." "I just did you." "No, I want to do you." "I just did you, Davy." "No, I'm gonna do you," "And I get three truths too." "So sit down, Sean." "All right, now it's a game." "Let's do it." "Okay, let..." "let me think here for a second." "Davy, make it good." "Get him." "Okay." "Um..." "Okay, first, um, when we were kids," "We were sleeping over at this friends of ours' house," "And Sean pissed in his sleep." "It gets worse." "And so we had to call our parents" "To come get us in the middle of the night." "And he, um, he pissed so much" "That, uh, they couldn't even clean the couch." "Our family just had to buy a new one for 'em, so..." "Oh." "Okay, number... number two." "The first thing Sean ever jerked..." "He masturbated to," "Was a breast cancer self-exam pamphlet." "I'm not even gonna ask" "That's pretty amazing." "It was really..." "So wrong." "Yeah." "Number three, um," "When we were on our road trip," "One night, Sean, um..." "Well, we were at this bar, and, uh..." "Well, it's not really that embarrassing," "But it's the truth, at least." " No, tell us." " Yeah, yeah." "We were at this bar, and there..." "We were talking to a bunch of college kids," "And there was this really drunk girl," "And we were drinking, of course," "And, um, there..." "Sean was so drunk that he threw up all over," "And I had to carry him out of the bar." "That's really disgusting, Sean." "It wasn't really a good one." "I'm sorry." "Hey." "Uh, well, let's play, uh," "Let's play scattergories or something." "I don't know." "That would be fun." "I'll... okay, I'll go quick." "Okay." "Uh, okay, one," "I..." "Have, um..." "I said I would be quick." "Okay, one..." "[Laughter]" "Um, I have been locked in a public bathroom overnight." "Two, I have had sex in public." "Three..." "Three." "Three, there's someone in this room" "I'd very much like to kiss again tonight." "All right." "Oh, hey, no!" "[Laughter]" "No, stay away from me." "Save me." "Don't let him near me." "Yeah." "He's gonna get it tonight" "When we go home." "I am totally insulted now." "Thank you very much." "That's it." "I'm out." "I'm sure you're lovely." "Thank you guys for coming, though." "A wonderful evening." "This was beautiful." " We'll talk." " Okay." "Oh, I'll walk you out." "Let's get your jackets and stuff." "Bye, Sarah." "Sure you guys don't want to do this?" "Get out of here." "You're awful." "Okay." "It was stupid, really." "Well, do you still talk to her?" "Nah, we don't really talk anymore." "We didn't really talk much to begin with." "Sean likes to make a big deal out of those things." "What about that bathroom story you were starting to tell?" "What happened?" "Uh, it was at work." "Um, it was awful." "So what happened?" "Um, they found me the next morning," "And I was a frantic mess." "I think that I convinced myself" "That I was not gonna be found" "Until I had starved to death," "And, I mean, looking back," "I don't even know why." "I just tricked myself into being completely terrified" "When there was nothing to be scared of in the first place." "Did you have a panic attack?" "Yeah, like, a very long, 12-hour panic attack." "So, did..." "[Laughs]" "Sorry." "No, it's okay." "Okay." "Are you okay?" "Yeah." "You don't look comfortable." "No, I'm fine." "[Laughs]" "Mm." "Sorry." "I... i have to use the bathroom." "Okay." "Okay, so where... where is that?" "Bathroom?" "It's, uh, down the hall, to the left." "[Door closes]" "[Exhales]" "What's going on?" "Nothing." "I'm..." "I'm good." "What is it?" "I'm just, uh, well," "I'm..." "I'm feeling..." "I just feel tired." "Look, I can't do this." "I thought that I could, you know," "After the first time, I thought I could brush it off," "But I can't." "I'm sorry." "I think you should go." "I'm really sorry." "I just..." "Wait, your coat." "* ghost the gutter * doesn't really matter * ghost in the gutter * doesn't really matter * ghost in the gutter * doesn't really matter * ghost in the gutter * doesn't really matter * the ghost in the gutter" "* doesn't really matter * the ghost in the gutter * doesn't really matter * the ghost in the gutter * doesn't really matter * ghost in the gutter * doesn't really matter * the ghost in the gutter" "* doesn't really matter * ghost in the gutter * doesn't really matter * the ghost in the gutter * doesn't really matter * ghost in the gutter * doesn't really matter" "[Knock at door]" "I'm coming." "[Knock]" "Hey." "Sarah, hi." "Hi." "You okay?" "Here, come in." "Just wanted to bring this over." "It's lasagna." "Thanks." "This... this is great." "I'm sorry." "It's just you haven't" "Oh." "I'm sorry." "I've been busy." "Um, take... take a seat." "Well, are you..." "Are you working?" "Uh, no." "It's kind of a slow season for temps right now." "I meant have you been writing?" "Oh." "No." "Oh." "Um, sit down, or..." "Thank you." "Um, I don't know." "What is it?" "Uh, I mean, we haven't seen you in a month." "We've missed you." "Nothing." "This is embarrassing." "No." "It's not." "And I'm not here to embarrass you." "Hey, what is it?" "Nothing." "Was it what happened with Samantha?" "Oh, God." "[Sighs]" "It... it wasn't Samantha." "Was it the phone girl?" "Yeah." "She stopped calling." "For how long?" "Like six weeks." "Oh, I'm sorry." "It's okay." "It was my fault." "Davy," "I don't want this to sound mean, but..." "This whole thing," "It's just a fantasy that you've created." "I'm fine." "Right, well, I know you," "And you're not fine." "[Upbeat music]" "*" "[Woman crying]" "Fuck you." "Jesus." "[Engine faltering]" "[Horns honking]" "[Cell phone rings]" "Hello?" "Davy." "Hi." "Nicole, it's you." "Been a while." "I know." "I've, uh, I've been thinking about you." "I know." "Um, yeah, I was..." "I want to meet you." "Okay." "When?" "[Julian nation's lost Swedish penpals]" "* * we're in different nations * * and therein lies the point of the * * indifferent conversations that we've carried off * * we were young * and the photos you sent were black and white *" "* I'm sorry I didn't write" "* for our three-page relationship * * well we both had our weaknesses * * mine was broken promises * and yours was broken English" "* I was wrong and you were left * * to wait for * a reply indefinitely" "*" "Hi." "How can I help you?" "I'm checking in." "I have a reservation." "Just for one night?" "For now." "Okay." "[Cell phone rings]" "Hi." "Hi." "How was your trip?" "It was good." "It was really good." "Well, I'm glad you got in safely." "Me too." "How are you doing?" "You sound nervous." " I do?" " Yeah." "No." "I'm not." "I'm not nervous at all." "I..." "I made reservations at this restaurant." "It's called gianni's." "Uh, Davy." "I could either meet you, or, uh..." " Davy, listen." " If..." "Yeah?" "I can't make it tonight." "What?" "I'm sorry." "Something's come up." "Say something." "I don't understand." "I came here to see you." "That's the only reason why I came here." "Could we meet tomorrow?" "Would that be okay?" "I leave tomorrow, Nicole." "Let's meet at 2:00." "That'll give us enough time." "There's this place off the highway." "Um, it's called fairweathers." "Okay." "Okay." "I'll be there." "Bye." "Bye." " Hi." " Hi." "Table for one?" "I'm supposed to meet a friend." "I don't know if she's here yet." "Oh, okay." "Well, it doesn't really look" "Like there's anybody waiting," "But you're welcome to take a look around." "Thank you." "I think I'm gonna have a seat at the bar." "If, um, if anyone comes in asking for Davy Mitchell..." "Mm-hmm." "That's me." "Okay." "Will do." "Thanks." "Nicole?" "No, sorry." "John?" "No." "Yeah." "Are you sure no one's come in and asked for me?" "No, no one's come in." "Davy?" "Hi." "I'm Aaron." "It's nice to finally meet you." "Is it okay if we, um..." "Go and sit down?" "Please?" "Hi." "Hi." "Two?" "Yeah." "Uh, do you mind if we have, like, a corner booth?" "No, of course." "Thank you." "How's this?" "This is fine." "Thank you." "Your waitress should be with you in a moment." "Thank you." "Thanks." "She was nice." "I'm sorry, Davy." "Yesterday, i..." "I just thought a nice place would..." "It's..." "It's not easy being here." "I just..." "This is embarrassing." "D-do you mind if...?" "Do you...?" "I'm sorry, i..." "I really..." "Really, really am." "It's okay." "You can stop apologizing." "Hi, you two." "I'm Amanda." "Hi, Amanda." " Um, water." " Okay." "Glass of water." "Thank you." "And you?" "I'll have that right up for you." "Could you bring two?" "Sure." "That bad, huh?" "So, uh..." "Am I the first one you talked to?" "As Nicole?" "Why do you do this?" "I don't know." "I was 13." "The first time." "And there was this guy." "I was just starting high school." "And I had a crush on him." "He was the first..." "First guy that I actually felt..." "Something for." "I mean, it was..." "All new and exciting to me," "And I just..." "I... i couldn't do anything about it." "Are y'all ready to order?" "I'm good with drinks for now." " Okay." " Thank you." "Thank you." "Do you mind if i...?" "Oh, no." "Thank you." "S-so..." "I called him one night." "Jesse." "And I, um, put on a girl voice," "And pretended I was one" "Of the cheerleaders from school," "Nicole." "And it worked." "He actually talked to me." "Thinking I was her." "So you just kept it going?" "I just got into the habit of it." "And i... eventually," "I just got really good at the voice." "That's for sure." "How long do they last?" "Well, um..." "Sometimes it's just one call." "Um, other times it's a few days, a few months." "One guy lasted a few years." "Sometimes it's..." "Just sex." "Sometimes it's..." "It's more." "Either way, they mostly ended up" "Flaring out at the end." "So I ended up, um," "Keeping, like, a couple of guys going at once." "You mean you've been cheating on me this whole time?" "[Laughter]" "No." "So how do you keep them going?" "Why do they keep taking your calls?" "Why did you?" "Boredom, mostly." "Oh." "So you come here a lot?" "Hardly ever." "Is this where you meet..." "Guys?" "Nicole guys?" "Yeah, but not many." "I mean, what's happened?" "Well, there was, um, one guy," "He got really, really angry with me," "Outside in the parking lot," "So, um, I got scared," "So I came in and I waited." "And eventually he came in and he sat down with me." "And what happened after that?" "Uh..." "We went to his, um," "Motel room, and..." "We had sex." "What?" "I just... i can't..." "I mean, talking to Nicole, she's..." "You." "Her, i..." "Was the most sexual person that I've ever known." "But you're so shy." "I don't understand it." "I've done a lot of things I'm not proud of." "Like?" "No." "I'm not gonna..." "No, come on, Aaron." "Aaron, you can't do that." "Just tell me one." "Okay." "[Laughter]" "One guy, um..." "Fucked his wife while I listened." "She didn't know." "I don't..." "I don't know why I did it." "I... i think 'cause I thought it was gonna be..." "Exciting?" "And he wanted to leave his wife for Nicole," "And I just decided to stop calling him, so..." "When was that?" "That was, like," "Four years ago." "Around the same time my mom died." "I thought your mom died last year." "Yeah, I lie about that." "I really like talking about her with people," "But I think they would think I was weird" "If they find out it was four years ago" "And I still can't get over it." "Do you really work in a funeral home?" "Unfortunately, that's true." "You see that woman over there?" "The blonde one?" "Mm-hmm." "She was stood up." "That's so sad." "When she first came in," "I thought she was you." "I'm sure that would have been a relief." "Yeah." "What did you..." "You know, think of" "When you saw her?" "I thought we'd be back in my hotel room by now." "Yeah." "What?" "I don't understand why you do this." "I mean, you're a handsome guy." "I would think you would have no trouble" "Finding a guy to be with." "Thing is, I'd like to be in a relationship." "It's just..." "It's just really hard..." "To find something," "Something so serious." "I mean, living here where I do," "It's..." "I just really don't fit in." "Maybe I'm looking in the wrong places." "You know, at bars and at clubs." "You know, that whole thing." "But people just don't seem to get it," "That... that politeness" "That there is between a man and a woman," "You know, the time right before" "They actually sleep together?" "Like if you see a girl," "You know right away if you're gonna," "You know, fuck her or not." "But that doesn't mean you're going to." "I mean, you take her to dinner," "Maybe a couple of times." "To a movie." "But no one..." "That's why it's so much better" "With me on the phone." "It just works." "Earlier when I said" "I kept taking your calls" "'Cause I was bored?" "Yeah." "I was lying." "I like talking..." "To Nicole." "It's... it's okay." "I have to use the bathroom." "I'll be right back." "[Sniffs]" "Aaron." "* I have told * myself I know * a thousand ways * to leave this place * we must tie * our shoes on tight * for the march ahead * through sleepy beds * and we'll get by" "* and we tell ourselves * one more time * we get by * and we brace ourselves * and hold our hands * and fight" "* and we'll get by * and we tell ourselves * one more time * we get by * and we brace ourselves * and we hold our hands * and fight" "* yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah * yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah * yeah, yeah"