"Flight 939 arriving from Boston, please pick up luggage at Carousel 4." "Okay, I got it." "Orange bag." "Okay." "Oh, just tell me which way to the exit." "I can get there myself." "But I'm supposed to stay with you until they meet you." "It's okay." "I can get there myself." "Fine, whatever." "Straight ahead and to the left." "Okay." "Thank you." "Yeah, you're welcome." "Sofia!" "Sofia." "Sofia." "I thought you were gonna pick me up outside." "I wanted to help you with your bag." "I would've been fine on my own." "I thought maybe this time you might want help." "Yeah." "Here." "Who found her?" "Alexa." "The poor girl." "Did she leave a note?" "No, there's no note." "That doesn't make sense." "Have they looked?" "Of course they looked." "I know Eva, Papa." "She would have left a note." "A long, really long note, full of drama." "She would have." "Sofia, she didn't." "Smells new." "Oh, I just bought it last month." "Business has been going so well, I hired a new full-time gardening crew." "Don't talk business, Papi." "Not now." "Oh, I don't need to go home first." "Straight to Eva's." "Are you sure?" "Yes." "Straight to Eva's." "Sofia's here." "Sofia." "Tía Marisol." "Come here." "Come here." "I can't believe it." "I don't understand." "Neither do I." "It's like a bad joke, a nightmare." "Sofia." "Tío Rafa." "I'm so glad you came." "The family seems to work better when you're around." "Alexa?" "Look, your cousin's here." "I see her." "I'm not blind." "Stop it or I'll send you to your room." "Abby, remember my brother, Hector?" "My niece, Sofia." "She just flew in from Boston." "She's getting her degree in mathematics at MIT." "Sofia, this must be such a shock for you." "You were so close to Eva." "Like sisters." "She was my sister, not hers." "That's Eva's phone." "How do you turn it...?" "No, no." "Wait." "It could be someone that doesn't know yet." "Hello?" "No, this is, um, Eva's mother." "No, um..." "I'm sorry." "Eva has... passed away." "No, this is not one of Eva's tricks." "What a horrible thing to say." "It should have been me who found her, not Alexa." "But Alexa's piano lesson was canceled so she came home earlier." "And she didn't see a note?" "I don't need a note to know why Eva did it." "You know why?" "Yes." "To punish me." "Stop it, Tía." "Why would she punish you?" "She was angry at me." "She was always trying to punish me, but..." "I don't know." "Marisol, stop." "No, I can't." "You should be taking it easy." "No, no." "I can't." "Tomorrow, the house is gonna be filled with people from the university." "I can't afford to have Rafa embarrassed more than he is." "Nobody is gonna care about a few crumbs." "Sit down." "No." "Come on, go sit down." "Leave me alone, please!" "You wanna help, go keep Rafa company, okay?" "Please." "Okay." "He's going crazy with his blood sugar." "Oh, here's Sofia with your plate." "Yes, an angel bearing gifts." "Marisol says I have to sit with you, make sure you eat." "I'm supposed to get a shot first." "Where are you?" "Right here." "Right here, darling." "Sit." "How's MIT?" "How do you like Boston?" "Oh, I ask her every week." "She still doesn't know yet." "I like it." "Especially the smells from the restaurant next door to the apartment you found for me." "My friend, Brian, is he keeping an eye on you?" "Is he the one I feel watches me when I walk through the science building?" "Very funny." "Ha, ha." "You should stop by his office and say hi." "He's a good man." "Not the greatest teacher, but he's a good man." "Lettuce." "Green." "Remember?" "Yeah." "Lettuce, green." "Um, what's that supposed to mean?" "Eva found a way to teach me the color green." "She got Marisol to buy lettuce and a bunch of green vegetables." "She made me taste each one so I would know what green was like." "And for dessert, she'd make me go outside and pick grass." "And you ate it." "Ha, ha, ha." "What's so funny?" "Hey, sweetheart." "I'm supposed to practice my piano piece today, but Mom says I can't." "I said that you can practice in the morning." "But I'm supposed to practice every day." "You can skip today." "I think we should go." "Rafa, I hope you sleep better tonight." "We'll see you tomorrow." "You're not taking Sofia, are you?" "We thought she'd stay." "I don't want to impose." "What are talking about?" "This is home for her as much as your place is." "Yeah, it's true." "I want to stay." "Okay." "Um..." "I'll just go get your bag." "Okay." "Papi, why are you being weird about me staying here?" "When Marisol called me, and she was crying and she was saying, "She's dead, she's dead, she..."" "I thought she was talking about you." "Big baby." "All done." "Over with." "It's okay." "It's okay." "Who's there?" "I know someone's there." "Alexa?" "How'd you know it was me?" "I could smell the toothpaste, the kind in your bathroom." "Heh." "Jeez." "You're more like a bloodhound than a person." "Heh." "You're more like a spy." "So what if I am?" "You don't like me here." "Maybe." "You used to like me." "You used to sit on my lap and try to show me picture books, remember?" "Yeah, that's because I used to think you were faking being blind." "Heh." "Why would you think that?" "Because that's what Eva told me." "She wouldn't say that." "What Alexa saw in that room will haunt her for the rest of her life." "That's one thing I will never forgive Eva for." "Did you know she was depressed?" "Did she say anything to you?" "Uh-uh." "Are you sure?" "You're the one person she'd tell the truth to." "When I talked to her last week, she sounded the same as always." "Talked about her boyfriend, how I had to meet him, come to his apartment for dinner." "That's Ethan." "Eva was always crazy about the boys." "Heh." "She spent more time at his place than she did here." "It drove Rafa crazy." "But I liked him." "So, what about you?" "Hm?" "Are you seeing anyone?" "Do you have any boyfriends in Boston?" "Heh." "Yeah." "I have lots of boyfriends, five or six of them." "More on weekends." "Did I ever tell you about the first time I saw Rafa?" "Uh-uh." "It was his first year at the university." "I was working at this little office on campus, and..." "I was walking down the hallway, Mm-hm." "And I pass by this classroom, and I hear his voice." "And I just stopped." "I had to listen." "He was so powerful, so full of life." "Then he turned around, and he looked at me." "And I..." "Oh, my goodness." "It was like my heart just jumped inside of my chest and it was just..." "It's gonna happen for you." "I promise." "When you least expect it." "I'll get it." "Where do you think she found her gun?" "I can't imagine..." "Ethan." "Hi." "She's lovely in these photographs." "How are you?" "Thank you so much for coming." "Sofia's here." "She'd love to meet you." "Rafa, Ethan came." "Hey, Ethan." "I'm sorry." "L..." "Thank you." "Sofia?" "Mm-hm." "This is Ethan." "Ethan, this is my Sofia." "Nice to meet you." "Very nice to meet you too." "I've heard a lot about you." "Same here." "You two should get to know each other." "Okay?" "Mm-hm." "Okay." "Thank you." "Uh..." "You wanna sit down?" "Yeah, sure." "So you and Eva grew up in this house together, huh?" "Uh-huh." "Marisol and Rafael pretty much adopted me." "My mom died when I was 10 and my dad kind of got lost for a while, so..." "Eva told me you guys were as close as close gets." "We were one month apart in age so we liked to do the same things." "Yeah, she..." "Don't you like to go to the movies a lot?" "Mm-hm." "She'd whisper what was happening even though I could figure it out myself." "Don't you ever wonder if she changed the endings?" "Heh." "Why would she do that?" "Oh." "Uh..." "She wouldn't." "You don't seem very comfortable here." "Oh, I'm not." "The, uh..." "The truth is, we..." "What?" "So you're the boyfriend from in town?" "What?" "I guess." "Here's some beautiful pictures of the two girls." "Abby." "Thanks." "You don't have to look at that." "Actually, um, I've never seen pictures of Eva when she was young." "Really?" "Aren't there pictures of us all over the house?" "So there are." "But I've never been here before." "Okay, so you dated for, what?" "A year?" "And she never brought you here?" "Yeah, I thought it was weird too." "Heh, heh." "Hey, what are these pictures with the pink dresses?" "Heh." "That was my 13th birthday party." "We were crazy about pink that year." "What's with the blood?" "Did you hurt yourself?" "I fell down the stairs." "Wait." "You can tell that from the picture?" "There's blood all over your dress." "No, there wasn't." "Eva." "Eva, come down." "Everyone's waiting to hear us play." "I'm fine." "Eva." "Ugh!" "What happened?" "Sofia!" "Did you get hurt?" "My knee." "It's bleeding." "Is there blood on my dress?" "Is my dress ruined?" "No, it's fine." "No blood." "Your dress is perfect." "There wasn't any blood on my dress." "Could you give it to me?" "Yeah." "Daddy." "Could you take a look at this?" "And tell me, do you see any blood on my dress?" "Does that matter?" "It was so long ago." "Just look." "Do you see a bloodstain on my dress?" "Yes, a little." "But mostly, I see two beautiful little girls." "Hm?" "Rafa." "Hello." "Hello." "Hello, Eva?" "This is Dr. Stone's office." "Hello?" "Hi, I'm here." "You had an appointment." "You never showed and you didn't call to cancel." "I'm sorry, I had a family emergency." "We have an opening tomorrow at 9 a.m." "Do you want the appointment?" "Yeah, I'll take it." "Is your boyfriend coming with you?" "Uh, I'm not sure." "You need someone to drive you home after the procedure." "Okay." "Okay, see you then." "Who was it?" "Someone else who didn't know." "Hm." "Thanks." "You get parking validated?" "No." "You're such a jerk." "You better help me pay for this." "Eva Reyes?" "Hi, this is Dr. Stone's office." "That's me." "Okay, your appointment, are you gonna come today?" "Hola, Eva." "Donna said you wanted to have a word with me before we get started." "Mm-hm." "You're not Eva." "No." "I'm Sofia, her cousin." "Sofia, how can I help you?" "I'd like to know what Eva's appointment was for." "I can't tell you that." "Doctor-patient confidentiality." "Was it for an abortion?" "If you wanna know about your cousin, you should ask her." "I can't." "She's dead." "When did this happen?" "Three days ago." "Was it an accident?" "No." "She..." "She put a gun in her mouth and shot herself." "So you're not saying it wasn't an abortion?" "How far along was she?" "In her eighth week." "I didn't know." "You didn't know she was pregnant, or you didn't know she planned to have an abortion?" "She was gonna have an abortion?" "I didn't even know she was pregnant." "Look, I swear, I had no idea." "How could you not know she was pregnant?" "The truth is, uh..." "For the past few months, we were having a hard time." "The truth is that Eva broke up with me a month ago." "Why wouldn't you say that before?" "I don't know." "I didn't know how to tell you." "I want him out of here." "Please leave, Ethan." "When I talked to Eva last week, she sounded like she was happy with you." "Yeah." "She even invited me to your place." "Why would she do that if she already ended it?" "Why did Eva do anything she did?" "I think you're lying." "I think you were still together, and there's something you're not telling us." "There's no way I was the father of that baby." "Did you call Dale and Maria?" "I don't want them to think that I forgot them." "No, I left them a message." "And my office manager's looking for another number." "Don't worry." "I hope you're ready." "Here we go." "Okay, can you see?" "No, not a thing." "Eva, are you sure?" "Yes, Sofia." "I trust you." "Two." "Five, seven, eight." "We can stop if you're scared." "Don't you dare." "Eighteen, 19, 21, 22, 23." "This is it." "Am I right?" "Eva." "This is the edge?" "Of course it is." "I told you, Sofia." "You can see anything you wanna see." "You must be missing work." "The company runs itself." "These tamales are really good." "You should eat them." "If you eat something, maybe you'll feel better." "Why do people say the most ridiculous things?" "Food doesn't help." "Neither does sleep." "Not even Valiums." "Excuse me." "She had to pick out a memorial stone." "She picked out a gray one." "It's ugly." "But no one cares what I think." "That's not true." "How about we let you pick out the flowers for the mass?" "She liked lilies." "Maybe she didn't." "I don't know." "What are you doing?" "You scared me." "I thought you were asleep." "Is it homework?" "What else?" "It's a diary." "Why can't you ever let anything go?" "We swore we'd never keep secrets." "I know." "I'm sorry, okay?" "You're right." "I'm a bad person." "I'm disgusting, and you should hate me and never talk to me again." "No, don't say that." "You can have a diary if you want." "I was just being stupid." "You know, I'll read you what I wrote." "No, you don't have to." "No." "I want you to hear." ""Today Sofia and I were the last ones at the pool." "Sofia asked me about Christian." "I've been wanting to tell her for a long time how great it was at camp with him, how sweet he was with me because it was my first time having sex."" "You're not a virgin anymore?" "No." ""But I haven't told her about it because I know how bad she wants someone to like her the way Christian likes me."" "Are you crying?" "No one's ever going to like me, or want to kiss me, or..." "That's not true." "You're so pretty." "You'll find someone." "How?" "How will I know who he is?" "Because I'll tell you." "Sofia, I'll always help you." "You know that, right?" "Here." "You can help me hide it." "And I promise I'll never keep secrets from you again." "Sofia." "Christian, hi." "Hey." "How are you?" "Good." "You doing okay?" "Mostly." "I'm sorry to hear about Eva, especially sorry for you." "Thank you." "What's that?" "There's someone I want you to meet." "Hold on." "Hey, buddy." "Come here, boy." "This is Rodney." "Rodney, Sofia." "Oh, hi." "You had a baby?" "He's 5 months old now." "Wow." "Hey, who's the mother?" "Do I know her?" "No, it's someone from work." "My boss, actually." "Oh." "Oh." "Hi." "Hi, Rodney." "We're all trying to figure out why she did it." "She didn't leave a note?" "No, which makes no sense." "I feel like they must not be looking in the right place or..." "I don't know." "Anyway, we found out she was gonna have a baby." "Wow, that's a shock." "Not as big of a shock as finding out she was going to have an abortion." "Wow again." "That doesn't sound like Eva." "She was so full of all that Catholic guilt or whatever." "She didn't have that much guilt, or she wouldn't have gone on birth control when she was with you." "What are you talking about?" "I found the pills in a drawer." "We were in ninth grade." "Wait, wait." "Eva was on birth control back then?" "She must have told you." "No, why do you think she'd tell me that?" "Because she was sleeping with you." "Sofia, if Eva was having sex back then, it wasn't with me." "But you were her boyfriend." "Yes, but we never did it." "So you're telling me you and Eva never had sex?" "Not once." "I know you two were like rabbits." "She told me practically every time you did it." "Then she was telling you stories, because I never got her pants off." "Not that I didn't try." "Eva didn't want sex." "She just wanted to play games." "You're lying." "Why would I lie?" "Eva was a tease." "She'd talk me into getting a motel room, then say she's getting a soda and never come back." "All kinds of stupid stuff." "Finally, I couldn't take it anymore and I broke up with her." "Actually, there was a time that I liked you." "I was gonna ask you to the junior prom." "She said your dad was protective, he'd never let you go out with me." "So I gave up on that." "Sofia." "Sofia." "Sofia, it's locked." "I just wanted to get in for a second." "No, I don't want you going in there." "But it was my room too." "I know." "L..." "Look, I don't want anyone going in there." "Please." "Thank you." "I thought I'd make you some coffee." "I don't like coffee, Tía." "Since when?" "I like yours." "Of course you do." "Come on." "Come on, do the one-two." "I'll get change for the parking meter." "That's good." "Kick it back here." "Heel, Ozzie." "Heel, heel, Ozzie." "Come on, do the one-two." "Come on." "Sofia?" "It's Ethan." "Oh, hi." "Thanks for coming." "The taxi company said it would be an hour, which usually means two." "Yeah." "Oh, it's fine." "I don't mind." "I expected you to hang up on me after the other day." "We kind of ambushed you." "I'm sorry." "I survived." "You need help getting another car?" "I need to ask you a question." "Sure." "What is it?" "Ahem." "It's a strange question." "Well, I dated Eva." "I'm used to strange." "That's what I wanted to talk about, if it was normal between you two." "Like I said, nothing was exactly normal with Eva." "You said that baby wasn't yours." "Was it because you never had sex?" "Please, it's important." "Fine." "Um..." "No, not never had sex." "Just not for the last few months." "Why?" "Because she didn't like it?" "I don't know." "I wish I knew." "I asked her a hundred times:" ""Why do you talk raunchy about sex all the time when you don't want to?"" "I'd really like to take you home now." "Yeah." "I don't wanna talk about it anymore either." "Sure." "I can hold onto you." "Like, where's your hand?" "Like this." "Heh." "You can help me hide it." "And I promise I'll never keep secrets from you again." "Where should we hide it?" "Here, come over to this side." "Put it up inside." "Up through the slot." "No, a little to the right." "Feel it?" "Yeah." "In there." "Who's there?" "Marisol?" "Mom." "Mom." "Mom!" "It's okay." "It's all right." "What are you doing here?" "I told you not to come." "Now she's traumatized all over again." "I'm sorry." "I know, I'm sorry." "Rafa, get her out of here, please." "I can't have her here anymore." "Take her home." "Please, now." "Sofia." "I'm sorry." "I shouldn't have come in." "I'm so..." "No." "We're in no condition to have guests." "I'll take you home." "No, I'm fine." "Thanks." "Good evening, radio listeners, and welcome back to our show," "The Eva and Sofia Show on 97 FM, Que Buena." "And today we have a..." "Good evening, radio listeners." "Welcome back to our show," "The Eva and Sofia Show on 97 FM, Que Buena." "And today we have a caller on the line." "It's a sexy-sounding muchacho." "Heh, heh." "His name is Derek and he's a lifeguard." "Derek, you're on the air." "Hello, my name is Derek, and I have a problem." "I'm crazy about a girl who doesn't know I exist." "Her name is Sofia, hottest chica in the neighborhood." "As if he's ever noticed me." "Heh, heh." "He has, believe me." "You said he's hot and that the girls are all over him." "So what?" "So why would he even look at me?" "I'm defective." "Stop it." "You are not." "You are prettier and smarter than any other girl out there." "And the fact that you can't see can help you." "It gives you an excuse to touch him." "Aw!" "Yeah, that's the sweet spot." "There." "Ha, ha, ha." "That's the sweet spot." "Don't be crazy." "I have to pee." "I have to pee." "Okay, fine." "And go for me too." "Hey, turn out the light." "What are you doing?" "Shh." "Sofia." "Sofia just went to the bathroom." "Sofia, mija." "Hey." "Shh." "You can't sneak up on me like that." "You can't." "I'm sorry." "I didn't mean to scare you." "You didn't hear me." "What happened to my tape player?" "Mija, it's busted to pieces." "Why are you using this old thing?" "Don't you have an iPod?" "Yeah, but it doesn't play cassette tapes." "Just give me the player." "Give it to me." "It's unusable now, I'm afraid." "I need a tape player." "Can you get me another one?" "Why?" "What are you listening to?" "Nothing." "Just music." "Then what's the hurry?" "Can you get me another one or not?" "Yes." "Yes, I can get you another tape player." "Is everything okay?" "How did you get here so late anyway?" "Rafa drove me." "Did something happen?" "I went into Eva's room." "They got upset." "Marisol doesn't want anyone in there." "Well, it was my room too." "I had the right to go in." "Maybe." "Maybe not, huh?" "Anyway, I'm glad you're here." "Good night, Sofia." "Good night, Sofia." "Good night." "Call taxi." "This is Sofia Delgado." "I called for a taxi 45 minutes ago." "Okay, thank you." "You'll find someone, Sofia." "I'll help you." "There's Derek over there." "Heh." "Come on." "Hey, guys." "Hey." "Whoa!" "Sorry, Derek." "Um..." "Let's go inside." "We'll help you, uh, clean it up." "You can go in the laundry room to wash it." "We'll bring you stuff to get the stain out." "Okay." "Go in and tell him he has to take his shirt off." "Then rub close to him." "He'll get the idea." "Heh, heh." "Now go." "You're going to like it." "Don't worry." "Are you in here?" "Yeah." "Where's Eva?" "Um, she had to go back outside." "Um..." "You should take your shirt off." "We'll spray it with this." "Okay." "Straight ahead of here?" "Yes, ma'am." "Thank you." "Hello, Ethan." "How'd you know it was me?" "I remember how you smell." "Like incense." "Eva is the one who got me into this." "She used to use it when meditating." "Eva did meditation?" "Yeah, she was big on trying to find inner peace, when she wasn't starting wars with me." "What would you two fight about?" "Mostly things I didn't do right or say right." "You know, she had these rules on how she liked things done." "Like what?" "Uh, like..." "She didn't like me to wear slippers in the apartment." "You mean shoes?" "No." "I could wear shoes, or I could be barefoot, but she didn't like me to wear just slippers." "You loved her." "Yeah, I did." "I came to ask you a favor." "It's Eva's diary." "From when we were young." "I need someone to read it to me." "Why me?" "Because I don't want my family to read it until I know what's in it." "Come on." "You gotta be a little bit curious." ""Whoever reads this is a peeping Tom with a dirty mind, and if he turns this page, he's also a filthy, stinking maniac who I hope stinks his whole life." Heh." "Finally, the Eva I knew." "I'm afraid to turn the page." "I don't wanna stink my whole life." "Look for, um..." "June, when she went to camp." "June, June, June." "June." "All right." "Here we go." ""Why did I come to this horrible camp?" "I thought I'd be happy to be away from home, but last night, Christian tr..." "Christian tried to crawl into my sleeping bag." "I pretended to be asleep." "I kept saying to myself 'Get out of here." "Your nasty breath makes me sick.'" "Finally, he gave up, but I couldn't fall asleep all night."" "Is that it?" "Uh, yeah." "Look for the end of July." "Oh, here we go." "Um..." ""July 29th." "Today at the party, Derek wouldn't stop staring at me, so I sent Sofia into the laundry room with him." "He thought he was getting me, but he got the blind cousin instead."" "You know, I should stop." "No." "Keep going." ""Not that he cared." "Just something else to brag about." "I waited outside and listened." "I heard Sofia crying, telling him to stop, to let her go."" "I really think I should stop." "No." "I said keep going." "Keep going." ""I heard her crying, but I didn't do anything." "I just kept thinking she should feel what it's like." "She wanted love." "There it is, Sofia." "That's love."" "Give me the diary." "I told you we shouldn't..." "I said give it to me." "Stop." "I don't want to." "Help!" "Derek, no!" "Eva!" "Eva!" "Unh!" "Thanks for driving me home again." "I don't mind." "Well, at least one thing Eva told me was true." "You really are nice." "Yeah, well..." "It's too bad that nice guys don't usually get the girl." "I better go." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Okay." "Bye." "Eva." "Eva, where are you?" "Eva, answer me." "Eva, where are you?" "Eva." "Eva!" "Calm down." "I'm right here." "Oh, my God, where were you?" "I thought you drowned." "If I drowned, would you be sorry?" "What a stupid thing to say." "You'd be better off if I was dead." "No, I wouldn't." "I couldn't live without you." "I couldn't." "There you are." "Hey, Papi." "I've been neglecting my own garden." "What do you have there?" "Well, let's see if you remember." "An epidendrum?" "I told Marisol I'd make an arrangement from our garden for Eva's memorial." "What's wrong?" "I'm not going to the memorial." "What do you mean?" "You have to." "I don't care about Eva." "What are you saying?" "I don't understand anything." "I don't know why she did what she did." "I don't know what I ever did to her." "It's all right." "It's normal to be angry." "No, I'm not angry." "I hate her." "Why did you leave me there for all these years?" "Why?" "What do you mean?" "After the first few months, you refused to come home." "You would say, "I can't be without Eva."" "Mmm." "Well, you shouldn't have listened to me." "She was a bitch." "And you know what?" "I wanna go back to Boston." "And you will, next week." "No, I wanna go back tonight." "But the service is tomorrow." "I don't care." "Could you change the ticket?" "Don't think they can change it on such short notice." "Well, then, I'll leave tomorrow night." "Are you serious?" "Yes, I'm serious." "I can't be here anymore." "I can't." "Okay." "I will try to change your ticket." "I got you the new tape player." "Oh, yeah." "That's the sweet spot." "Right there." "I have to pee." "Okay, fine." "And go for me too." "Hey, turn out the light." "What are you doing?" "You shouldn't be in here." "Sofia just went to the bathroom." "I know." "I just wanted to kiss you good night." "Don't." "Just lie still." "I want to show you how much..." "Please don't." "No." "Shh." "Oh, my..." "No one should have to go through this." "That was a selfish thing Eva did." "When I catch her in the afterlife," "I'm gonna give her hell for it." "She might think she's taken herself out of reach, but that's just temporary." "Yeah, well, I'm saving up a few things I have to say to her myself." "Hey, Sofia feels really bad." "I already let it go." "You guys ready to go?" "What's wrong?" "It hurts." "Oh, no." "First Alexa, now you?" "It's your stomach, right?" "Yeah." "Gotten herself upset, she made herself sick." "Mija, you might feel better if you come with us." "These things can't be forced." "She doesn't wanna go, don't make her go." "Let her stay here." "She could keep an eye on Alexa for me." "Yeah." "Time to go." "Are you ready?" "Yeah." "Uh, Sofia's not gonna go." "It's fine." "We'll be fine." "Mija, I'm afraid you're gonna regret not going." "That's not how you play it." "I know." "It's just I haven't played in a long time." "You need four hands for it." "Well, I only have two." "When did Eva teach you her part?" "Just a few months ago." "I think you play better than Eva." "Heh, heh, heh." "Not yet." "But if I keep practicing, I will." "So why didn't you go to the mass?" "I hate being stared at." "Why didn't you go?" "I didn't want to." "Are you angry with her?" "No." "I don't know." "I don't think I've ever been so mad at anyone in my life." "It felt like she meant to hurt us, but she probably didn't." "I think she had a secret that she kept to herself." "Everybody has secrets." "Did she say anything to you?" "When did she ever talk to me?" "Did you hear her fighting with anyone lately?" "With your mom or with your dad?" "Come on, you're such a good spy." "You must have heard something." "You can talk to me, Alexa." "Just tell me what you heard." "Does your father come into your...?" "Shut up!" "I thought there was gonna be more people." "Eva always talked as if she had a lot of friends." "Yeah, but if she was depressed..." "I mean, yeah." "Depressed people, they isolate themselves." "Hmm." "So do people with secrets." "My love, you have not touched your plate." "Your blood sugar." "I'm sorry." "I'm just not hungry." "I just don't feel like eating." "I think I'm gonna go for a swim, clear my head." "Maybe Alexa will come..." "She went to bed." "She's not asleep." "I heard her move." "She said she was tired." "So leave her alone." "Maybe she wants to go for a swim." "I asked you not to go upstairs." "Sofia." "Sofia." "Sofia!" "Sofia." "Please." "I asked you not to go." "Sofia, stop that." "I don't want you to go." "No reason for you to go upstairs." "Sofia, stop it." "Stop it!" "Sofia, you need to stop." "No." "He's the one that needs to stop." "I'm sorry." "It's okay." "Anybody would crack under this strain." "Sofia, what happened?" "What was that about?" "Nothing." "What's going on?" "Let's go." "I'm sorry, Marisol." "I'm sorry." "What happened?" "Sofia, I don't know what's gotten into you, but this is..." "I know why Eva committed suicide." "Why?" "Because of him, because of Rafael." "That doesn't make any sense." "He forced himself on her." "What?" "I'm sure he's starting with Alexa too." "He's just a monster!" "He's just..." "Sofia!" "We are talking about Rafael." "Uh-huh." "A man who gave you a home, a family." "He took you in when I couldn't." "Uh-huh." "She started taking birth control pills when she was 15, Papa." "Mija, that doesn't mean..." "She had boyfriends." "No, no, no." "Rafael..." "Rafael raped her!" "No." "He raped her." "His own daughter, he raped her." "He's..." "He's just disgusting." "He..." "No, mija." "If that were true..." "You were there." "Why didn't you see anything before?" "Because I'm blind!" "Sofia!" "Sofia." "Sofia, stop acting crazy." "Get in the car." "Just go, okay?" "Just go." "Sofia." "Leave me alone." "If I say I'm sorry, will you get...?" "Sofia!" "Fine, Sofia." "Walk faster." "I won't let you fall, I promise." "I don't wanna go swimming." "You don't have to." "Sit by the pool." "Why do you wanna go so late?" "Why ask so many questions?" "Why can't I just wanna get out of the house?" "Hello, Rafa." "Sofia." "What are you doing here?" "I wanted to tell you I'm sorry for how I acted." "Is anyone else here?" "Not a soul." "Then I'm coming in." "It's cold." "I know." "Ha, ha." "It's freezing." "I love this pool." "This is where you taught me and Eva to swim." "You two were like little fish." "Mm-hm." "You started by teaching us how to float." "You'd hold us up." "Uh-huh." "And then you'd let us go." "I'd be so scared, I'd try to hang onto you." "Remember?" "I remember." "Eva would try to pry me off and I'd try to hang onto you by wrapping my legs around you." "You remember?" "Are you playing some kind of game with me?" "Yeah, the truth game." "Tell me the truth about what you did to Eva and you'll get me as a prize." "This isn't funny." "Let me go." "No, it's okay." "It's okay." "I already know what you did to her." "How you'd come into our room, huh?" "That's crazy." "Get off me." "No, why should I?" "Why should I?" "Hm?" "She would ask you to leave her alone and you didn't." "You didn't." "You didn't." "Get off me, you psycho!" "Who's the psycho?" "You raped your own daughter." "You raped her night after night." "You raped her and you got her pregnant." "Get off me!" "What's going on?" "Were you guys fighting?" "Dad." "You should call a doctor." "Your cousin's sick." "Tried to attack me for the second time." "What do you want?" "Why can't you just leave us alone?" "Watch out for him, Alexa." "Don't let him touch you." "Are you all right?" "No." "God, you're all wet." "Let me go get you a towel, okay?" "No." "Stay with me." "Okay." "Hey, hey, hey." "It's okay." "It's okay." "Stay with me." "Oh, my God." "I don't think we should do this." "Yeah." "No, no, no." "You're right." "You're right." "You're smiling." "I can't help it." "I forgot... making love could be nice, and sweet and easy." "It wasn't easy with Eva?" "No." "She always acted like it was a..." "God, I don't know." "A punishment, maybe?" "Something that she had to endure." "I'm sorry." "I shouldn't be talking about her." "No, it's okay." "Yeah?" "She could have had a reason to feel that way." "You're not angry at her anymore?" "For what she wrote in her diary, what she did to you?" "No." "Not anymore." "Heh, heh, heh." "I gotta go." "My dad's probably worrying his head off." "God knows what they told him." "You know, you still never told me what happened." "Why you showed up here wet and shaking." "I shouldn't be surprised." "Eva was right about you showing up at my door." "What did you just say?" "What, Eva?" "Oh, I..." "Last time I saw her, she was talking about you." "I said it was too bad I'd never meet you." "You know, because we'd broken up." "But she said I would meet you anyway." "Someday you'd show up at my door." "When did she say that?" "I don't know." "It was, uh..." "It was a few days before she died." "She came to get a couple things even though I told her that there was nothing left here." "She made me promise to meet you when I talked to her last week." "So then, she was trying to set us up to be together?" "Try to remember." "Okay." "The last thing she said when she was here, from beginning to end, in her exact words." "I can't remember exact..." "Try." "Okay." "Uh..." "Gosh, uh, let's see." "She came over." "And, um, she came in." "I gave her a hug." "She asked if she could look around." "I said, "Okay." Mm-hm." "Then I went to take the trash downstairs." "And when I came back up... she was sitting on the bed and she said she just talked to her cousin." "Talked to you on the phone." "She was sitting on this bed?" "Yeah, this is the only bed here." "What...?" "What are you doing?" "What...?" "Sofia, what's wrong?" "What is that?" "I think it's from Eva." "It's her suicide note." "Sofia." "Sofia, is that you?" "Ay, Sofia." "Oh, thank God you're all right." "I was about to call the police." "Where have you been, huh?" "I've been out of my mind with worry, especially after Rafael called." "What is this?" "Read it." "It's a letter from Eva." "Her last." "Where did you get this?" "At Ethan's." "Oh." "What, he's been keeping it all this time?" "No." "He didn't know he had it." "Eva hid it where she knew I'd find it." "What, you want me to read it to you?" "Mm..." "No." "I already know what it says." "Oh, my God." "Oh, my God." "Uh..." "Did Rafa...?" "Did he ever do anything to you?" "Because you can tell me, mija." "Did he ever touch you?" "No, no." "No?" "No, no, no." "No, Papi." "Because he could have." "Forgive me." "Sofia, please forgive me for what I'm about to do." "I know you'll find this letter." "You never give up on anything." "I wanna believe my mother doesn't know the truth, but she might know and might try to protect my father." "But I'm done protecting him." "I want everyone to know he's been sneaking into bed with me ever since I was 13 years old." "People think that because of his diabetes, he is weak." "He's not weak, he's strong." "He told me if I didn't give in to him, he would force Alexa to sleep with him." "So these past few months" "I have let him do what he wants with me, when all I wanna do is scream." "I can't take anymore." "I don't think I would have survived this long without you, Sofia." "You are the only one I trust to see the truth, the only one I trust to make sure he stays away from Alexa." "I love you." "Eva." "No, Papi." "Wait here." "Sofia, hi." "Hi." "Hector told me you're flying back to Boston today." "I wanna talk to you." "Okay." "About Eva." "There's something you need to know." "Okay." "Come on in." "Are we alone?" "Uh, yes." "Alexa is at school and Rafa's upstairs resting." "Here you go." "So, um, what is it that I need to know?" "Eva left me a note." "I didn't find it until last night." "Where'd you find it?" "It doesn't matter." "Just read it." "Oh..." "Who else has read this?" "My father." "Anyone else?" "No." "Oh, I can't breathe." "I don't feel so good." "I'm gonna get a glass of water." "Would you like one?" "No." "Okay." "Marisol?" "Marisol, what are you doing?" "Marisol?" "Marisol, what are you doing?" "Marisol?" "Marisol, what are...?" "No, stop it!" "Stop it!" "Stop it!" "Sofia, Sofia, stop." "You're gonna burn yourself!" "That was my letter, addressed to me." "From my daughter!" "You're crazy." "No wonder why she didn't trust you." "Stop it!" "She burned the letter, Papa." "What the hell is wrong with you?" "It's none of your business." "Get out of my house." "Get out of my house!" "Both of you, get out of my house!" "Get out!" "This is my family!" "If you don't call the police, we will." "It's my family!" "Oh, God!" "What did they want?" "I thought I heard yelling." "Yeah, that was Sofia." "You know how emotional she gets... especially since Eva passed." "She loved her very much." "I loved her too." "And Eva loved me." "Didn't she?" "Yes, she did." "Very much." "It's impossible not to love you, Rafa." "It's okay." "It's okay." "Look at me." "It's okay." "I love you." "And I love you." "Know what I love best about swimming?" "What?" "It makes me feel like I'm free." "All floaty and free." "Child, to lose your father so soon after your sister..." "Diabetes is such a cruel disease." "I'm so sorry." "You're lucky to have such a strong mother." "I'm so sorry." "Thank you, Abby." "Thank you for coming." "Hi." "Hi." "Hi, Sofia." "I'm not going to Boston." "I'm gonna stay here and finish my degree." "I wanna stay here for you and Alexa." "Alexa." "Right here." "I'm here." "Hey." "Maybe I can be a big sister for you... like Eva was to me." "I'm so sorry." "Sofia." "Oh, Tía." "I swear I didn't know that was happening." "I'm sorry." "There's Ethan." "Hello, Ethan." "I brought flowers for Eva." "You did?" "Lilies." "Her favorite." "Can I help?" "Yeah, that'd be nice." "Are you ready?" "Ready." "One, two, three." "Five." "Nine, 10, 11." "Nineteen, 20, 21." "Twenty-three." "Is this it?" "Is this the edge?" "Do you really wanna know?" "Not if she lied to me." "One more foot and you're in the ocean." "If you don't believe me, take a step." "I'll hold you." "I believe you."