"Welcome to Seattle International Airport." " Hey, man." "I like the car." "You mind if I?" "My name's Scott." "What's yours?" " Jonathan." " K." "So your place cool or we could go around the corner and touch your thing." " No my place is fine." " Safety first." "It's okay." "Don't be nervous." " Look." "Stop it." " What is it?" " I want you to do something for me." "You see the cologne over there?" "I want you to wear that for me." " Is there something wrong with the way I smell?" " No." "I want you to do what I say." "Now wear it." "For me please." " Okay." " No, take your shirt off first." "Not too much." "Not so fast." "You ever do role play?" " What?" "Keep your eyes shut." " Who am I suppose to be?" " You're a young guy, lost, little rough around the edges." "Very temperamental." " Not a problem." " Put this on." "No, god damn it." " What?" "What?" "Hey man I didn't do any weird thing." "We could go get some G or." " I think you should leave." "Come on." " Now." " Fuckin' weirdo." "You're a fuckin' weirdo." " Hey." " Hey." " I like your jacket." " Thank you." "It's not mine." " It looks nice on you." " The old man's got a broken dick, it's a waste of time, don't even try it." " Scotty fuck off." " I'm just trying to help." " Fuck off." " Good luck, asshole." " Thank you." "It's not my first time." " He'll make you dress up like his mother!" " Your first time in San Francisco?" " No." " Strong, silent type." "I like it." "There we go." "Is that a little smile?" "You're a little different then the other guys we usually see out there." " How so?" " I feel like you require something more intricate." "So what's your thing?" "Edging?" "Massages?" "Bondage?" "What do you like?" " Role play." " I should've guessed." "There's that smile again." "Hmm?" "Okay so what's my character?" "Am I your student?" "Your slave, your?" " You're a young guy, you're, lost." "Little rough around the edges but you're very temperamental." " I like that." "What's your name?" " Jonathan." "What's my name?" " Brandon." " It's a pleasure to meet you, Jonathan." "I'm Brandon." " You see the, the cologne on the dresser?" " Yes." " Would you put that on for me, please?" "Not too much now." "Hey." " Wow." "Wasn't expecting that." "So when do we begin?" " It already started." " No wait." "I'm rough around the edges, alright?" "What was the word you used?" " Temperamental." " Okay." "Yeah." "Oh, fuck." " Yeah." "Now come here." " Oh yeah." "Oh yeah." " Just give me a second." " Yeah." "Fuck me." "Fuck me." "Yeah." "Yeah." "That was good." "Fuck." "I'm sorry, this thing just" " No it's okay." "I'm gonna go anyway." " I didn't mean to wake you up." " Thanks for the coffee." " What are your plans the next few days?" " Why?" " Thought I might keep you around for awhile." " Definitely more than blow jobs and ass play, that's like talking and shit, personal stuff." " I'll double your nightly rate, give you 500 extra at the end." " Why don't you give me double my nightly rate plus 1,000?" "How's that sound?" " Alright." " Well I'm gonna have to see you know, half of that upfront, like a deposit." "I'm sure you're good for it." " Don't run off with that." " Relax." "So where we headed anyway?" " The Grand Canyon." "Have you ever been?" " No." " Me neither, this will be great." " We're not flying are we?" "I get air sick." " No we're driving." " Good." "So what's in the Grand Canyon, why are we going?" " We should set some ground rules." "Okay." " Rule number one." "Don't ask any personal questions." " Are you kidding me?" "It's a three day trip, I can't ask you any questions?" " Personal questions, you can ask anything you like, but I reserve the right not to answer." " Okay, rule number two." " We stick with the role play, you're Brandon." "Always, I'm not gonna refer to you as anything else." "Got it." " And rule number three, if I ask you to do something, do it." " Okay but you're not gonna ask me to like, wear a diaper, clean your house?" "Not that I'm saying I wouldn't." "Just, like to know first." "Can we stop by my place?" "Grab some clothes before we leave?" " That won't be necessary, everything's taken care of." " Nice ride." " Throw your arms up in the air." "Excited." " Okay." "Like, this?" "Woo!" " Hold that." " Why do you use that old thing?" "Can't you like take pictures on your phone like a normal person?" " Has your hair always been long?" "Kinda." "Why?" " I'm trying to picture it shorter." " I like it long." "Okay so help me out here." "I'm Brandon." "From?" " Kansas City." " Ah." "Great." "Alright fill in more blanks for me here, let me do some research." "What is my favorite movie?" " Breakfast at Tiffany's." " Yeah, love me some Audrey Hepburn." "Are we together?" "Yes, boyfriends." " How long?" " Three years." " Well that's like 20 years in gay time." "Something like that." " Okay, how did we meet?" " We met in a bar." " Scandalous." "What is my favorite book?" "Brave New World." " Yeah I don't know that book." "What if it was, the Shining?" "Or Carrie, fuck I love Carrie, oh my god." "What?" "Okay I take it you're not a Stephen King fan." "Good to know." "Brave New World it is." "What is my favorite thing to do on a" "Sunday morning?" " Cook brunch, naked." " Well is there any other way to cook brunch?" "What do I do for like work and shit?" " That's a tough one." "You've tried everything artistic." "Music, art, poetry." "But whenever something doesn't work out you just, move on to the next." "What am I currently in to?" " Music." " Okay." "Very big question now." "Are we in love?" " Madly." "Yeah what's my favorite non-alcoholic beverage?" "Dr. Pepper." " I'll have a Dr. Pepper." "I don't smoke that brand." " You do now." "Shut your eyes." " Why?" " Come on." " Oh." "Vintage." "Just like you." "It's gorgeous." " Huh?" " The sunset, look at it." "Well would you look?" " Yeah." " Pull over." " What?" " Pull over, pull over, right now." " No I'm already." " Pull the, Jonathan, pull the car over." "Jesus." "Don't look at me." "Look out there." "Look out there, come on sit down, Jonathan sit down." "I'm not gotta side down on the side." " Yes, yes, sit, sit." "Please." "Good." "Do you see that?" " Yeah it's a sunset, it happens every day." " No." "No you don't see it." " I don't understand, what are you saying?" "You want me to get the camera?" " No, no, fuck no, no camera, no." "I'm gonna do something." "I want you to breathe." "Good." "And watch." "Take it in." "There's that smile again." "Let's go." " Sorry." "I know you're in charge." " Kiss me." " Okay." "Yeah." " I'm not buying that." "You don't have to stick your hand on my crotch to make me feel it." "Now kiss me." " Better?" " How is it?" " It's nice and greasy." "How's yours?" " I've had better here." " Have you been here before?" " Rule number one." " Right." "Do not ask you anything." "So why the Grand Canyon?" " What did I just say?" " Well it's the reason for the whole trip," "I just want a clue." " A lot of people go to the Grand Canyon." " Well I would wanna go because it is huge and beautiful." "Mother nature leaving her mark you know, that's why I'd go." " Well I've never been, good reason to go." "Let's talk more about you." " So what about me?" " Where you from?" " Kansas City." "Right?" " Yep." "You ran away from your bible beating parents when you were 16." " That's pretty close actually." " Really?" " Mhm." "What about you?" "Where are you from or do I not get to know that?" " I'm originally from New York, came out to San Francisco, met you." "Here we are." " You just have the whole thing figured out." "So." "We met at a bar, right?" "Can you paint that picture for me." " I was sitting in the corner and you saw me." " And who made the first move?" " Well you sat next to me." " Like." "Like this?" "And what did I say that turned you on to me?" " You said, "You got a light?"" " Oh my god, you are so cheesy." "I think you can do better than that." " I'm paying you, you should show a little more respect." " Okay you're right, okay." "You're right, I'm sorry." "That was stupid, I'm." "I'm gonna piss." "Got a light?" " No, no I don't, I don't smoke." " Oh." "Well that's, that is good." "It's a terrible habit." "The good news is that I in fact." "I already had one." "I just wanted to flirt with you." "I'm Brandon." " Jonathan." " We are gonna fall madly in love." "Jonathan, we are." "I can tell." "Already." " Already, huh?" " Mhm." "Well this is a step down from last night." "Oooh, looky here." "They have a pool." "We should go for a dip right now." "Right now." "¶ Tell me now where you got around to ¶" "¶ Tell me now where you got around to ¶" "¶ When it all comes ¶" "¶ Crashing down on you ¶" "¶ You gotta roll ¶" "¶ You better move ¶" "¶ Cover your tracks on now ¶" "¶ They'll be on you soon ¶" "¶ When it all comes ¶" "¶ Crashing down on you ¶" "¶ When it call comes crashing down on you ¶" "¶ There ain't no love here ¶" "¶ No one to use ¶" "¶ There ain't no love here, girl ¶" "¶ No more excuse ¶" "¶ When it call comes ¶" "¶ Crashing down on you ¶" "¶ When it all comes ¶" "¶ Crashing down on you ¶" " Ah, yeah." " No." "We gotta be somewhere tonight." " You're in charge." " Morning." " Where are my clothes?" " I packed them." "Wear those instead." " These are a little old." "Don't you think?" "Okay." "Will I get my clothes back?" " Of course, they were just dirty." "Move that way just a little bit." "¶ Rain comes in through the cracks in the roof ¶" "¶ And there I am still sitting next to you my love ¶" "¶ This is where I've ended up my love ¶" "¶ This where I've ended up ¶" "That's it." "Move your head towards me." " Hard smile." " No, put that down." " Yes." "Give me the camera." "Stop." "¶ All I have is all for you ¶" "¶ It's not a lot ¶" "¶ But it'll do ¶" "¶ My love this where I've ended my love ¶" "¶ This is where I've ended up ¶" " Jesus." "Christ." "Fuck my feet." "God, okay, alright." "These boots are killing me." "Wish you had a size bigger." "What is it?" "Nothing." " What's wrong?" "I lost you." "You retreated into that head of yours, you do that sometimes, you know that?" "I'm gonna go for a smoke." " Yeah." "Hey." "You wanna hop in?" " No, I'm just dropping my bag." " Okay." "It needs to be cleaned up." "But I." "Hey." "Can't sleep?" " Could ask you the same thing." " This helps." " Does it?" "It's bad for you." " So are a lot of things." "Give it a shot." "Come on." "Well you tried." "I'm too old to pick up smoking." " That's bullshit." "You're never too old to try something new." "We should go to bed." "Dad." "Come on." "Take a step to your right." "Your other right." "That's a little too far." " Who cares?" "Okay." "I'm smiling." "This place looks nice." "Like, table cloth nice." " Hey." " This is fuckin' sexy." "Oh yeah." "It fits great." "Do I get to keep this?" "So many choices." "You decided, gentlemen?" " Yes, I'll have ribeye, medium-rare." "House salad, no dressing." "And you sir?" " He'll have the prime rib medium." "Mash potatoes." "Would also like a bottle of the" "Rosemont Cabernet Sauvignon, please." "I'll put this in for you guys." " Thank you." " I was gonna order the chicken, actually." " Oh you'll love the prime rib." " Sure I will." " Come on, lighten up, Brandon." "Doesn't this place remind you of that dinner we had with Jean and David?" " Who?" "Who, Jean and David?" "I'm sorry, I don't know a Jean or David." " They're friends of ours." " Can you do me a solid and just drop this whole role play thing just for tonight, just for the meal." "That'd be so great." "I'm sorry, sir, you ordered the Rosemont Cabernet Sauvignon?" " Yes." " I'm sorry to say we don't carry that particular wine anymore." "You don't?" "No my manager tells me we haven't carried it in sometime." " I've had it here before, could you check again please?" "I'm sorry we don't have it." "But I can recommend a nice bottle of" " Okay this is ridiculous, is your manager here?" "I wanna talk to your manager." " Yes, let me find her." " No, hey wait." "I like the sound of the other wine." "Let's do that, let's do the other wine, that sounds great to me, thank you." "That's perfect, he'll love that." " What are you doing?" " Dude they don't have it, so you gotta move on." " Don't call me dude, I'm paying you." " You're paying me?" "Oh so that gives you the right to be a fucking asshole?" "Where are you two visiting us from?" " We are from New York." "What brings you two out here?" " He's a fashion photographer, I'm his assistant, we're shooting nearby." "Oh where?" " The dinosaurs up the way, it's a cover for Vogue." "Terrific, nice little local gem." " Yeah, oh yeah." "Have I seen your work before?" " I don't know." "Coffee table books?" "He's got a bunch of them, there's Cosmo Magazine, so if you read that." " I'd like to apologize again about the wine, sir." " Who the fuck do you think you are?" " You got to lay down your ground rules now it's my turn." " I hired you for" " My rules are that I wanna" " I was very explicit - some fucking fun." " About the fact that I was in charge." " Can you let me have fun for one night?" "Jesus Christ, keep your fuckin' hands to yourself." " Go." "Just go." "The doors behind you, go." "Go." " Okay." "I'm gonna do that 'cause none of your money is worth this weirdness." "Enjoy your wine." " Oh." "Could we get another bottle of wine, please?" "Of course, the same?" " Sure." " Okay." "Here's the deal, I'm gonna finish this meal." "And then you are going to pay me." "And then you'll never have to see me again since this clearly isn't working out for you." "Does that sound like a good idea to you?" " Did you know?" " What?" " Did you know that my favorite shoot we ever did was that one for vanity fair?" "The one in Morocco." " Morocco." "Yeah." "It's gorgeous in the fall, right?" " Very beautiful." " So how is that wine?" "Let's not talk about the wine." " You're still alive." "That's good." "Come here." "Come here." "What?" " Just come here." " What?" "Come on." " Look what's in there." "No." " Yes." " No." " A pool." " Now listen to me listen." "I shouldn't of even driven," "I drank too much." " Well that's why we should, that's why we should jump in." " No." " You know you want to." " I don't." " Okay, just wait." "Wait right here." "Wait, wait right here." " Brandon don't do this." " Wait one second." " Brandon!" "Brandon!" " Okay, okay." "Come on." " No, no, it's late." " Now." " The pool's closed now." " Now, now." "You're too loud." "Come on, you like to swim, come on, come on." "Come on, come on, come on, come on." "Oh the pool's so sparkly." "I'm gonna be the biggest shark you have ever seen." "Alright, okay." " Oh I have an idea." " What?" " Why don't we play" "a game." " I hate games." " You hate everything." "Truth or dare?" "Now." " I'm too old to play truth or dare." " Okay well why don't we play, never have I ever." "You will love it." "There are no questions." " What is it?" " I'm gonna make a statement about something." "And if it's true of you, you have to take an article of clothing off." "So for instance if I said, never have I ever smoked a joint." "Then we'd both have to take clothes off because we have indeed smoked a joint." "And if I say never have I ever listened to NPR," "then you take something off and I do not." "Reversed." " Never have I ever been in a wedding." " What?" "That is very lame but okay." "Never have I ever, driven a Dodge Charger." " Well that's not fair, you know so much about me," "I know very little about you." " I know, that is what makes this game amazing." " What are you doing?" " You have to take your socks off with your shoes, that's part of the rules." " Never have I ever had sex for money." " You dirty bastard." "Never have I ever" "been in love." " Really?" "Yeah." " You're missing out." " You know it's sex and jealously and insanity, just but not love." " Someday you're gonna realize you're wrong about that." " This guy." "Come on." " Never have I ever gone skinny dipping." " Oh well." "That ends tonight." "Never have I ever been to the Grand Canyon." "What?" "You kidding me?" "I thought you were lying about that." " Never have I ever had sex in public." " Okay, all of mine are sexual, that is not fair." " Never have I ever voted." "Woo." " I never pretended to be somebody that I'm not." " Last one." "I never got my heart broken." "Come in, it's warm." "I love it when you're adventurous." " Why'd you come back in the restaurant tonight?" " Why do you think?" " The money?" " You said I'd love the prime rib." " Brandon we should." " Yes we should." "Hey." "What are you guys getting into?" "Oh sorry, we shouldn't be here." " We won't tell if you don't." " You don't mind if we join you do you?" "No, come on in." " I'm getting out." " No, no stay." "Stay, this'll be fun." "They seem fun." " Oh you guys make a cute couple." " Why thank you." "It's a great night for this isn't it?" " Oh yeah." "Hey babe, come on." "Aw, come on." " I gotta get up early in the morning." "You go ahead." " That's no fun." " Oh come on, stay." "We don't bite." " Yeah." "Well I guess we're turning in." " Well I hope we didn't scare you guys off." " No, no, it's just, it's been a long day so you guys have fun without us." " Oh we will." "Hey babe." " Hey." " Hey." "So sweet to get us coffee." "Thank you." "So we should probably go." "Right?" " There's no need to rush." " Okay." "Well do we have time to maybe fool around a little bit?" "Or at least like, get a picture?" " Yeah, a picture." " Is everything okay?" " Yeah." "Hey." "Hey you don't have to do that." "Hey, hey." " What?" "You're always getting me off." "Time to return the favor." " Sorry." "I'm sorry it can be hard for me to get it." "Okay, yeah." "Stop, stop, stop." "Stop, here." "Here." "Okay let me try." "Okay." "Yeah." "Kiss me." "Stop, stop." "Stop." " Here, I can try." " No, no, no." "Sorry." " It's okay." " Tada!" " Untuck that shirt." "Why?" " You're dressed too nice." " Well can I get a please and thank you?" " Please." "Thank you." "I thought I was a wine guy." " You like anything that will fuck you up." " Cheers to that." " You're too far away, come slide over here." " Better?" " Well excuse me." " Well I'll be god damned." "I thought that was you guys." " Working up the same trail, huh?" " Yeah, where you guys headed?" " Well we're visiting from Europe." " Grand Canyon." "You?" " Driving up over route 66." "It's been of dream James since Scarlet." " So, look, I feel like maybe we intrude on you guys last night." "So let me make it up to you and buy you a drink." " No, yeah, please sit down, come on." "I said, "Do you have a light?"" " That's a great pick up line." " It's so fuckin' cheap." "So cheap." " So wait, wait." "How long have you guys been together?" " Three years now." " Wow." "So do you find the age difference to be a problem or?" " Honey." "What?" " You guys don't have to answer that." " No, they're secure in their relationship, I can tell." "It's a valid question." " It is, no it is, I mean, yeah sure," "I mean we have an age gap." "And we get looks." "But," "I know deep down that I," "I care for this man." "And he's got some scars." "Sure." "But he gets me." "And I get him and love him." "Yeah, I mean it's an odd joy to say I wouldn't be the same person that I am today if it wasn't for him." "You know lack of a better term." "He makes me... shine." " I don't know if shine's the right word." " Fuck off." " But, no, he's right." "He had scars, I've been hurt." "Then he approached me romantically," "I knew it wasn't over yet." "Aww." "You guys are so cute." "And drunk." " No." " Oh come on." "Just one shot." " One shot." " Oh yes, yes, we have to." "Alright." "Be very serious." " Camera's are weird." " K, smile." " Oh that's good." "That's good stuff." " One, two and three." " Nice." "Meanwhile, I'm almost empty here." "Another round?" "No, no, no, no more." " One more round." " No, no, no, no." "No more." " Oh come on." " Yes, yes, no he's right, he's right." "Shots now." " Yeah." " Shots, yes." " Cheers." "¶ I told the truth to offer you my love ¶" "¶ I lied to you ¶" "¶ Jeanie had a whisky last ¶" "¶ Dillion's out there smoking grass ¶" "¶ Sheila's gone and made her glass ¶" "¶ She's sippin' it slow ¶" "¶ Rockstardom lights it's only five o'clock ¶" "¶ Hilary loves me and brings me alcohol ¶" "¶ This is our life ¶" "¶ Oh my my ¶" "¶ We live it up till' the morning lights ¶" "¶ This is our waste ¶" "¶ The wingies done and ¶" "¶ We're having fun here down on the farm ¶" "¶ Killer's on the tailgate ¶" "¶ Six pack on ice ¶" "¶ This is our life on a Friday night ¶" "¶ Trey's doing kicks with some pretty girls ¶" "¶ with sprayed on tans sitting in their long chairs ¶" "¶ Out by the fire ¶" "¶ Dillion's skinny dipping all he's wearing is his hat ¶" "¶ Falling from the back ¶" " You okay?" "Fine." "¶ This is our life on a Friday night ¶" "¶ We live it up 'till the morning light ¶" "¶ This is our life on Friday night ¶" "¶ We're getting crazy 'till the morning light ¶" "¶ This is our brace ¶" "¶ Where we get along ¶" "¶ We're having fun here down on the farm ¶" " What got into him?" "¶ This is our life on a Friday night ¶" " Woo!" "Woo!" " All done?" "Partner?" "You did me." " 'Cause I can't get her anyhow." " Hello." "Howdy hey." "Partner." " No." " Yep." "You're doing this with me right now." "Come on, be a man." "What do we have here?" "Yes." "17 dollars." "Alright, see you guys soon." "Alright." "Hey, hi." " Enjoy your trip." " Thank you, we will." "You too." "I think I should drive." " No." " Okay." "You are in charge." " Right." "Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa slow down, slow down." " I'm fine." " Jesus Christ." "No you're not, you're not fine, let me drive, please." " No." " Slow down, slow down, stop." "Stop, stop, stop." "Let's just sit here for a moment." "Jonathan." "I have to ask you something." "And you have to promise you won't get mad, okay?" " I could never be mad at you." " Who is Brandon?" "Why am I wearing his clothes?" "Were you in love with him?" " God, I love this song." "Let's dance." " John, Jonathan, what are you doing?" "¶ Our breaths were wide just to sing it again ¶" "¶ I sing it again 'cause it's true ¶" "¶ This is what I wanna do ¶" "¶ Make goes wide with you ¶" "¶ Don't believe you that it's true ¶" "¶ This is who I wanna be ¶" "¶ Jiffy's will not end free ¶" "¶ Tell me if you think this is love ¶" "¶ Tell me if you think this is love ¶" "¶ Tell me if you think this is love ¶" "¶ Tell me if you think this is love ¶" "¶ Tell me if you think this is love ¶" "¶ Tell me if you think this is love ¶" " Hi there." " Hi." "I like when you're adventurous." "Why are we on this trip?" " Why are we on this trip?" "To fix you." " Yeah?" " God you're a mess." "You're such a mess." "But you're a lovable mess." "You're a mess always cleaned up by me." " What do you love about me?" " Everything, I love everything about you for everything I'm not." "You're passionate, you're fearless, you're too fearless." " Where am I?" " You're right here." "I found you and we can be happy now." "Jonathan, you're not happy." " From the moment I met you, I wanted to marry you." "I did." "I did." "Well that's what I love about you." "So romantic." " I can be impatient though right?" "I was always working to get us happy." "Waiting for that happiness to start." "I always thought there'd be more." "Of it, you know?" "You know what I didn't realize at the time?" "What?" " That back then, those moments, those were the happiest I was ever gonna be." "That was my happiness." "I missed it." "You know?" "I wish there'd been a way to know at the time that that was the time of my life." "I'm so sorry." " You keep pitying me." "I hate that." " No." "I just, I don't think you should hold on to all this stuff." " If I let go of it, what do I got?" "What do I have?" "I need to sleep now." " Okay." "Good morning." " Afternoon, actually." " Shit." "Thank you." "How are you feeling?" " How are you feeling?" " Do you remember anything from last night?" " Not much." "Lots of shots." "And headlights." "Did we dance?" "Yeah." "We did." "Anything else?" " No." "Look we should get a move on." "I wanna make some headway today, we're behind." " Okay." "Can I just sleep for one more minute?" " There's no late checkout." "So no, I really wanna get out of here." "I feel like shit." " You can feel like shit on the road." "One more hour." "Look, I'm paying you." " Are you kidding me?" " You heard me, I'm paying you, by the day, we're a day behind, I gotta pay you more." "Jesus, I feel like you're hustling me." " I'm hustling you?" "You're gonna say that to me after last night?" "Last night after you got me fucked up?" " And danced." "And had a great time." " Right, I did." "Look, I'm asking nicely, just get dressed." "I'm gonna check us out." "And don't shower, there's no time, we're leaving in five minutes." "Fucking outifts." "Give me your wallet." "Back off." "Give me the wallet!" "I said back off!" "I'm gonna need you to give it to me right now." "Are you kidding me?" "It's my wallet." "Give it to me!" "What the hell's the matter with you?" "Fuck." " Come on man." " Fuck off." " Give me the wallet!" " Get off of me." " Get the fuck back." "Are you okay?" "Jesus Christ." "You leave for one second and this is what happened?" " He asked me for some money, I gave him a." "I gave him a few dollars, he saw my wallet and he grabbed at it." "God." " You okay?" "Let's just get you inside, come on." "God." " Okay." "Let's see this here." "There you go." "Here, there." "You alright?" " It stings a little bit." " I bet." "Just keep icing it, I've nursed a few of those myself." " You saved me, thank you." " I'm gonna check us out." "You should wait here." " No, no, just." "Just stay here with me." "For a minute, okay?" "Well I think the manager might know that guy and." " Just please." "Just hold me for a minute." "Please?" "I am so sorry for everything." "I know I'm impatient with you and I bark at you and I." "Even after that argument." "You still saved me." "I love you so much." "Now tell me you love me." " What?" "I love you, say it." " I love you." "Hey." "I'm gonna be right back, okay?" "Motherfucker." "What the fuck is wrong?" "Are you going through my things?" " You like how I nailed this one?" "This?" "You did this to yourself, why?" "Why?" "Let me guess, you paid to have that guy hit you, right?" "That's how you get anyone to do anything you want?" "You know I figured it out a few days ago, the motels, the rest stops, the fuckin' pictures." "Who is he?" " He's Brandon, he's you." " Now stop that shit." "I don't wanna hear that, who is he?" "Why do you care?" "You're in this for the money right?" "I give you money, you give me comfort, that's how this works." " Comfort?" "This isn't comfort, this is sick." " I don't owe you an explanation." "You don't get to ask questions, you're a hired fuck." " That's all I am to you after this whole god damn trip, a hired fuck?" " Yes." " You're gonna stand there and you're gonna tell me" "I don't mean anything to you at all?" " Why?" "You're nobody." "You're some young dipshit who doesn't know anything." "You're a different person to every guy you fuck and you wanna be anybody but yourself." "Leave." "No, wait." "Sorry, I forgot to pay you." " Fucking weirdo piece of shit." "Fucking fuck you." " Come here." " Stop, stop, stop, stop." "Stop." " This stupid trip." "We always wanted to go to the Grand Canyon." "It was suppose to fix him, it was suppose to fix us." "It's a god damn hole in the ground." "He told me he'd quit." "He promised." " Look at me." " I should've known, I." "Nothing changes." "Nothing ever changes." "I stood outside that door and I knew what was on the other." "I knew." "I turned my back for 10 minutes." "I should've done something." "I did nothing." " Hey, hey, Jonathan." " Can we just go back to pretending?" " No." " Please." " No we can't do" " You can go back to sleep." " I can't, I can't, Jonathan, Jonathan," "I cannot do that." "Because this isn't role play anymore." "This is morbid, this is morbid." "I thought you were different than the others." " Others?" " Thank you, you can go." "What?" "Are you taking this personally?" "You're a hustler, I'm paying you so you can leave." "Take it." "Fine." " Enjoy the rest of your sad, lonely life." "Hey." " Where are you headed?" " Wherever you're headed." " What's your name?" "I'm sorry was that a difficult question?" "Hey babe." "My guess is you're in the ass end of Denver right now." "I'm at home with nothing to do." "So I'm playing a little music." "I miss you on your work trips." "So I decided to write a song about it." "Enjoy." "¶ Three hours left before you leave ¶" "¶ And already I'm missin' you ¶" "¶ I've gotta write this song right now for my sweet baby boo ¶" "¶ Can't stand to be without your touch ¶" "¶ Or kiss that fuzzy chest ¶" "¶ The strength that you wrap around me ¶" "¶ Oh baby you're the best ¶" "¶ So call me when you find this and don't hesitate just do ¶" "¶ Waiting by the phone for you my sweet sweet baby boo ¶" "¶ Sweet sweet baby boo oh my ¶" "¶ Sweet sweet baby boo ¶" "¶ Just call me when you find this ¶" "¶ Oh my sweet sweet baby boo ¶" "I'll see you when you get home, babe." "Got a light?" " No." " Good." "Trying to quit anyway." " Yeah." " You were right about me." "I don't like being myself." " I didn't mean any of those things." " Yes you did." "I don't know that many happy people." "In my life or in my line of work." "I wouldn't know what a happy person would look like." "So forgive me if I can't picture you happy with Brandon." "One of the things in life I'm good at, is starting over." "You." "You right now, are in the worst of it, this is the hardest part in starting over." " You don't know anything about what I went through." " I was 15 when I got kicked out of the house for being a little cocksucker." "Ever since then starting over is all I've ever done." " Look, I get" " I don't know who I am." "I don't but you know who you are." "You're way ahead of me." "I decided a long time ago to live like there's no tomorrow because there isn't one." "And you have to move on, move forward and start over again and as soon as you figure out what that is for you then you do it." "And you don't look back." "You wanna move on, you wanna, you wanna be happy but you feel like you don't deserve it." "Jonathan." "You deserve it." "Never have I ever." " What?" " I've never given my real name to a client." "I'm gonna go to the bathroom." "And when I come back, I'm gonna come back as me, not as Brandon." "I'm gonna be honest with you about who I am." "And where I'm from and everything." "If you're not comfortable with that then, it's been nice knowing you." "I'm in charge." "¶ Dear champion ¶" "¶ Make you proud this time ¶" "¶ But I lost my way ¶" "¶ Along the way ¶" "¶ She was waiting ¶" "¶ And I never came I was too young to know anything ¶" "¶ That this love goes on and on and on ¶" " Hey." "Do you have a number for a cab company?" "Fuck." " I don't think they let you smoke that in here." "That's a terrible habit." " I know." "That's why I'm trying to quit." " No time like the present." "Another round, guys?" " Whatcha drinking'?" " An old fashion." " Nice." "Two, please." "So, where you from?" " Dayton, Ohio." "You got a family there?" " Yeah." "Where are you from?" " New York." "But I'm in Seattle now." " Couple nomads." "Aren't we?" " Yeah." "I'm Jonathan, by the way." " I'm Adam." "My name's Adam." "Pleasure to meet you Adam from Ohio." "That is a nasty drink." "So New York, that's," "I've always wanted to go to New York." "You've never been to New York?" " Hi." "Hi." "Have a safe trip." "Thank you." "¶ And there he lay ¶" "¶ like the devil was a cropper ¶" "¶ on my family's farming proper ¶" "¶ tiny bones and head of copper in the loam ¶" "¶ shivering to death ¶" "¶ He wasn't moving ¶" "¶ and I knew the antidote ¶" "¶ pity rose up in my throat ¶" "¶ and so I put him in my coat to get him warm ¶" "¶ Carry him back home ¶" "¶ Well why should I oversimplify?" "¶" "¶ It's good to be alive ¶" "¶ So logically all ¶" "¶ living things are good ¶" "¶ If not misunderstood ¶" "¶ and I will not play God, arbitrating ¶" "¶ Arrogantly designating who should live ¶" "¶ Well then it happened ¶" "¶ I bet you already guessed ¶" "¶ when I called the cursed blessed he sank his fangs ¶" "¶ into my chest and through my shirt ¶" "¶ Put his venom in my veins ¶" "¶ As I was dying ¶" "¶ Well I thought it rather fitting ¶" "¶ that my heart produced the pity ¶" "¶ That's the spot the snake bit me and I know ¶" "¶ Nature doesn't want changed ¶" "¶ Well I should have compromised ¶" "¶ I didn't realize ¶" "¶ The demon at my doorstep ¶" "¶ But with one slash of Sheol's knife ¶" "¶ He cut down the tree of life ¶" "¶ And stacked the wood for kindling ¶" "¶ and the laughter that I'm sure will follow after this life ¶¶"