"NARRATOR:" "Previously on Everwood:" "JAKE:" "I talked to a buddy of mine from Carbondale." "He runs the rehab up there." "He's willing to help me get something started here." "You wanna start a support group for recovering addicts here in Everwood?" "I know she doesn't want me to do it, so save your breath." "I'm not changing my mind." "Good." "I think it's a great idea." "Really?" "Yeah." "But my office isn't big enough." "Mine is." "KYLE:" "I know what you think I am, but I'm not." "I don't have to be if I don't wanna be, and I don't." "There's nothing wrong with being..." "Don't." "...gay." "We might be in a rut." "Hannah told you about the other night." "It's the same thing she does with keggers." "What are you talking about?" "AMY:" "She hates going to those things." "You keep taking her, she keeps hating it, the cycle continues." "bright:" "Okay, if I knew she hated those parties, I wouldn't keep taking her." "AMY:" "Well, so now you know." "How's it going down here?" "These are all the chairs we have." "Nina's got more in her garage." "ls that the program?" "Yes." ""Symphony of Destruction."" "Who is that, Stravinsky?" "Megadeth." "Don't ask." "What are you playing?" "The teacher closes the recital, right?" "Uh, I'm not." "It's about the students, not me." "Parents wanna know what they pay for." "They sign the checks." "Well, that's too bad for them." "That reminds me, I need a check for $2500." "Refreshments?" "Uh, tuition deposit for next year." "Make it out to AM." "Gonna grab those chairs." "Whoa, hold on." "You're transferring?" "Have we talked about this?" "Uh, well, I can't stay at ECC another year." "I think I've actually gotten dumber." "So I put a call in to Chris Templeman, the one that recruited me last year." "We're gonna talk." "Amy says they have a great Liberal Arts Department." "She going back next year?" "Maybe, I don't know." "Mm." "Still circling the airport, huh?" "Like you're one to talk." "It's not all because of Amy." "I like it here." "I can keep my friends, my students, my apartment." "I get all the free food I want here." "I have to see your sorry face once in a while, but no plan's perfect." "Well, if you're happy, I'm happy." "I'll go get my checkbook." "KYLE:" "Anybody home?" "EPHRAM:" "Nice knock." "KYLE:" "The door was open." "Hi, Dr. Brown." "Hey, Kyle." "Just finished the lineup." "You're last, "Rhapsody in Blue."" "Sorry, but I have another gig." "Yeah, right." "In New York." "You got the Juilliard audition?" "Yeah." "Mom and I are flying out tomorrow." "That's terrific." "Congratulations." "That's" " I can't believe that." "It seemed like yesterday we sent your tape." "Stay and have dinner with us." "We can celebrate with some T-bones." "Been saving them for a special occasion." "Thanks, but my mom's waiting outside." "We gotta go home and pack." "Any last words, teach?" "Yeah." "Don't suck." "You mean like you did?" "I didn't suck, I, uh...." "Don't rush through the adagio." "It's not a race." "Good luck." "Thanks, Ephram." "Bye, Dr. Brown." "See you." "That is pretty incredible, huh?" "Yeah." "I mean, I got a kid an audition at Juilliard." "I guess that means I can charge more for lessons." "I'm gonna go get those chairs." "[JAKE sighs]" "You fall down a few times and then a little voice inside you says, "No more."" "And as soon as you stop fighting yourself, you find your balance." "[GROUP APPLAUDlNG]" "Okay." "Call sheets." "Remember, everyone in this room is a strand in a net." "If you think you're gonna fall, call." "We all have each other." "And hey." "Be careful out there." "[CHUCKLES]" "Sorry, I've always wanted to say that." "Okay, thank you all." "MAN:" "Thanks, Jake." "Take care of yourself." "Nina." "nina:" "Mary." "Hey, how are you?" "Getting better every day." "I swear, I don't know what I'd do without that man of yours." "He's saving my life." "Yeah, mine too." "Hold on to him." "He's a keeper." "Excuse me." "Hi, my name is Phil." "Sure you don't need a pillow?" "It might feel better if you prop it up." "Hannah, really, I'm fine." "Please." "Oh, what about ibuprofen?" "How often do you have to take it?" "Every four or six hours?" "Well, I've been taking them about every 20 minutes." "What?" "Hannah, I'm kidding." "Look, it's a broken hand, all right?" "These things happen, and it's gonna heal." "Thank you." "Still don't understand why you were trying to karate-chop a board in half." "It would've been really cool." "I'd have won 20 bucks." "You don't have to yell at me." "I wasn't, I didn't yell." "Yes, you did." "See, you don't even know that you're yelling at me anymore." "That's how mad you still are." "I'm not mad." "Yes, you are, and you have every right to be, okay?" "I should've been honest with you about the party and everything." "I should've told you how I felt instead of talking to Amy." "That's not what it is." "Then what is it?" "It's...." "It's not that you talked to Amy about it." "Like I would care." "I don't know." "It's just like" " I just-- I keep feeling like there's more stuff." "Maybe you don't like that I play video games or maybe, you know, you don't want to make me sandwiches" "No, I don't mind the sandwiches, l" "Well, there's gotta be more stuff." "And we don't wanna say anything about it because we don't wanna upset each other." "We?" "I didn't say "we."" "I said "ye," like pirate-style." "Okay, no, come on." "I wanna really hear this." "Is there something that you haven't been honest with me about?" "Something that I do that you don't like?" "Or something you want me to do that I don't do?" "No." "See, now you're making it all specific and putting it on me." "You were the one who was lying." "I wasn't lying, Bright." "I thought I was compromising, okay?" "You care way more about these parties than I do." "The only reason I pretended was because I love you." "Well, maybe that's our problem right there." "What, that we love each other?" "No, it's just that, you know, you have-- You feel like you have to pretend for me." "Maybe we're more different than we thought." "But because we love each other so much, we've been trying to be more the same and that's probably why something is missing here." "What's missing?" "I don't know." "How do you know it's missing?" "Well, I don't know it, I just" " I feel it." "Hey, Hannah, come on, I'm sorry." "I don't even know what I'm saying." "I don't know what you're saying either." "All I know is that you're making me feel horrible, so goodbye." "I just had no idea how empathetic and perceptive he could be." "He's so happy helping people." "It's like he's found his calling." "I thought you weren't gonna go." "Well, I wasn't." "But then you made me realize that wouldn't be very supportive of me." "I didn't wanna be one of the people I was worried about." "Those people who throw stones at him?" "Yeah." "And it turns out, no stones." "Just a lot of coffee and "Jake's the best guy ever."" "It's really sweet." "Well, glad it all worked out." "Yeah." "The whole experience just made me realize how lucky I am, you know?" "Yep, you are two lucky people." "Does it look like a florist threw up in here to you?" "We are lucky, aren't we?" "It's funny, I never thought I'd find myself here again." "Find yourself where again?" "You know, just imagining stuff, future stuff, you know." "You mean like, uh, weddings, honeymoons, babies kind of stuff?" "Babies." "I wasn't even thinking about babies." "But, yeah, babies." "I mean, we could still have babies." "Yeah, and candles." "Too many flowers and candles." "What am I waiting for, Andy?" "You're right, we're lucky." "We're still young, but let's face it, we're not getting any younger." "If I want another kid, I better get started soon." "Jake and I should get married." "Well, maybe someday you will." "But why wait for someday?" "Why not do it now?" "Well, you have to wait for the proposal first before the engagement or wedding." "There's an order to these things." "Why don't I propose?" "What?" "It's 2006." "Why should I wait for him to ask me?" "You're serious, aren't you?" "Must have been one hell of a speech he gave." "It wasn't just the meeting." "It's everything." "He's been working on himself really hard this past month." "He's dialing back his hours, spends time with Sam he's helping me out at the restaurant." "He's different, Andy." "He's trying to appreciate his life more." "That's great." "But don't you think it's a little soon?" "You and Jake just got back on track." "Well, not just." "I mean, why don't you live with it for a while, enjoy the view?" "I'm just" " I'm so happy, Andy." "It's taken me years to get this happy." "And I know it's a leap of faith, but what marriage isn't?" "Well, I suppose that's true." "So can you think of a real reason why I shouldn't take the leap?" "I'm not helping you pick out a ring." "[LAUGHS]" "[PHONE ringing]" "Bright, will you get that?" "Just passed him and Reid outside." "bright [ON machine]:" "Code red." "Your dad is coming upstairs now." "Code red." "Got it, thanks." "That's quite a system you got there." "So to what do I owe this house call, before my morning cereal, no less?" "I thought I'd finally check out your new digs." "ls that my toaster oven?" "No." "What's up?" "Okay." "I've been thinking about Kyle and his Juilliard audition." "EPHRAM:" "You need hobbies, Dad." "No, bear with me for a minute." "I know you're happy for him, and I love that about you." "But I also know that it messed with your head a little." "I saw it." "Yeah, maybe it did a bit." "You wanna talk about it?" "No." "What's the point?" "I blew my audition." "It's not like I'm gonna get a third chance." "It's safe to say that ship has officially sailed." "So take another ship." "Juilliard's not the only music school." "There's Yale, Peabody in Baltimore, Indiana University in Bloomington." "I already set things in motion with AM." "You haven't set them in stone." "I'd hate to see you lock in because of Amy." "No, it's not just because of Amy, all right?" "Might be mainly because of Amy, but...." "I know, believe me." "But you don't wanna base these decisions on a girl who may or may not be there at the end of the day." "What if you do all this stuff and she winds up with somebody else?" "I mean, how hard would that be, to still be here and have to watch that?" "Yeah, especially if she's my neighbor." "Yeah, especially." "[sighs]" "Okay." "Let's say I did wanna go to a conservatory, which I'm not saying I do." "I've missed auditions this year." "Puts me 12 months behind." "Piano time is like dog years." "Compared to Kyle, I'm already like 70." "Why don't you let me help?" "I still have a few connections left, and you've never let me use them before and I understand that, you wanna earn it." "I still do." "I know." "You're the one who has to close the deal." "I'm just gonna open a couple doors for you." "Okay." "Under one condition." "I keep the toaster." "You would sell your soul for a toaster?" "It's a kick-ass toaster." "You checking the machine again?" "You just checked it five minutes ago." "Hannah and I had a thing." "I left her a message last night to apologize." "She hasn't called me back." "This is the longest we've ever gone without talking to each other." "What happened?" "Nothing, we're just kind of in a bad place right now." "I can't think of a way out without telling the truth, which I can't because she'll know I've been lying, which means I can't be mad at her for lying which I'm not really mad about." "It makes me think about my lying and...." "We're just in a bad place." "Yep." "The sex thing, right?" "Do you have, like, a secret decoder ring in your brain or something?" "Do you think I like going to the gym that much?" "Come on, I haven't had sex in like eight months." "I feel your pain, Bright." "Yeah, okay." "But it's not like you have a girlfriend who'll do other stuff but not the stuff constantly reminding you of the stuff you don't get to do." "Like having ice cream and never getting to finish." "You never got to finish the ice cream." "You guys seem great." "Why is it bumping you now?" "I'm just worried that we're both working so hard to ignore what's not working." "I was completely fine when it was just me pretending." "Now I know she's pretending, it makes me wonder if our whole relationship is false." "If we can't be who we really are, then, I mean, who are we, really?" "Occam's Razor." "Of course, Achmed's razor." "No, it's a scientific law." "It says that the best solution is always the simplest one." "Look, I'm saying just tell her, all right?" "Instead of spinning ideas in your head, getting yourself sick talk to her, see what she says." "I know she's gonna say she doesn't believe in premarital sex." "That is not gonna change." "Neither is the fact that I really want it." "Okay, then you know what?" "You might be screwed." "You might have to break up." "At least you broke up knowing you both knew everything there was to know you know, and you at least tried to have an honest relationship." "It obviously sucks, but if you love her, don't you owe her that much?" "I just can't believe this." "I feel like I'm back on that rock with Ephram." "And my decoder ring just broke." "I'm late for the library." "I am not peeking." "All right." "Okay, chair." "Chair." "Sit in the chair." "Sitting in the chair." "Okay." "Surprise." "It's a laptop." "It's my laptop?" "Look on the screen, boy genius." "Oh." "The Vail Mountain Inn?" "Mm-hm." "I got a cancellation this weekend." "We can go skiing Saturday, then get massages in the room followed by a late dinner in the lodge and an extra-special surprise after that." "Super" " Oh, man." "This" " That sounds amazing, baby, but I can't." "I gotta go to Carbondale this weekend." "Really?" "But I checked your book with Edna." "No, I know, it just-- It happened yesterday." "I met this addictions counselor at the meeting the other night this guy Phil Curtis." "But anyway, he heard about what I was doing down here and he thinks my program is perfect for isolated small towns in the area." "Really?" "Yeah, but it gets better than that." "The state counseling convention is this weekend and Phil wants me to make a pitch for funding to open up satellite groups." "And if that works out, we could go national with it." "Jake, that's amazing." "I know, I know." "I was blown away myself." "Wow." "So how would this work?" "Would you be running it?" "Well, I don't really know yet." "So you'd try it a few days a week and see if you like it--?" "Yeah, exactly." "Who knows?" "If I love it, then maybe I'd give up my practice." "This would be a lot more rewarding than Botoxing foreheads every day." "I am so proud of you, babe." "That's...." "Well, okay." "Okay, we'll, uh, cancel Vail." "We'll just" " We'll go another weekend." "Come with me instead." "Huh?" "Up to the convention." "Sam is with his dad all weekend, right?" "Yeah, I don't know, it's...." "What, you're gonna pass up a romantic weekend at the Carbondale Holiday Inn?" "Vending-machine food, bad cable movies." "And if you play your cards right, you might get an in-room massage." "Okay, well, you see, you should've led with that." "They don't call me Magic Fingers for nothing." "And then afterwards, you can give me your surprise." "What do you say?" "I say let's do it." "Good." "Great." "MAN:" "I didn't think we were gonna make it." "bright:" "Keep staring." "I don't think that's gonna fit." "Tony Tiggerello." "I never forget a face." "Ada, hey." "Look at you." "Big man on campus?" "Oh, yeah." "Yep, that's me." "Uh...." "Do you go to ECC too?" "Do I look like a sorority girl to you?" "No." "No." "No, no, I got this table off Craigslist for my new shop." "I'm out of the fake-lD business now." "My yarn store actually sells yarn now." "Oh." "Yeah, that's a bold concept." "Yup, stitching and bitching." "It's the new craze." "But I'm trying to figure out how I can get this thing into my car." "Okay." "Yeah, that's a square peg, and it's a round hole." "Yeah." "Ha, ha." "That never works." "Did you measure it?" "Yeah, right." "No, I'm a girl." "We don't measure." "I don't know, I just figured I could mush it in here but, uh, I think my trunk is too tight." "I think so." "I think you're right." "Your trunk's too tight, you can't...." "No?" "But hey, you know what?" "I got a truck." "Why don't we throw this in the back of my truck and I'll follow you to the store?" "Sure." "Um...." "Okay, this thing is really heavy and it looks like you just have one good hand." "Oh, you have no idea what I can do with just one hand." "[LAUGHS]" "No, no, no, I...." "That sounded...." "Not that." "Ha-ha-ha." "But l" " We can do it, I'm strong and...." "How about if I help you move it." "Yeah, great." "Oh, jeez, ha, ha, it's heavy." "Got it?" "Yep." "Watch out." "What did you think?" "It was great." "The guy's the greatest pianist in America." "See how he played the mazurka?" "Chopin couldn't have played that fast." "I'll take that as, "l liked it."" "Yeah, it was awesome." "I don't see how it's gonna help me decide my future." "Why don't you ask him?" "Hey, Andre." "MAN:" "The driver will be by tonight." "You say, "Hey, Andre," as if you know Andre Harvey." "I operated on his father five years ago." "Nasty astrocytoma." "How do you think we got house seats at the last minute?" "Hey, doc, glad you could make it." "Thanks." "This must be Ephram." "Your dad's told me a lot about you." "Yeah." "Sorry, he, uh, does that." "I'm a big fan." "Then we're even." "I'm a big fan of your dad's." "My father says hello, by the way." "I'm gonna go get a drink and watch the crowds depart." "Meet you back at the car." "Your dad says you play." "Yeah." "I mean, uh, not like you do, but...." "I didn't always play like me either." "You drink coffee?" "Sure." "Come on." "How about another one?" "Yeah, I should probably get going, actually." "But then again, you know, I'm not one to waste good beer, so...." "Thank you." "So Stitch 'n Bitch, what does that mean exactly?" "It's a bunch of women, sit around, drink wine, knit, talk about their boyfriends." "Sounds dangerous." "It helps to get things off your chest sometimes." "Do you have anything you need to get off your chest?" "Me?" "No, not really." "Yeah." "I do like to karate-chop blocks of wood sometimes." "You know, I'm just taking classes, just figuring out what I want." "What do you wanna do?" "I don't know." "Well, some part of you must know." "It's all very confusing." "Mm." "Sounds like there's a girl involved." "Yeah." "But, you know, things are very weird between the two of us right now, so...." "Problems in the boudoir." "How did you--?" "What would make you think that?" "Well, you know what they say." "If the sex is good, it's only 5 percent of the relationship." "But if the sex is bad  it's 95 percent." "Well, what do they say if there's no sex at all?" "Because of the hand thing?" "No, no." "This is pre-hand." "Well, so you can...?" "You can still do stuff with that big cast?" "I don't know." "I haven't tried anything." "Well that is a shame given you're at your sexual peak and all." "It's kind of like wasting a good beer." "The final was in the Grand Concert Hall in Warsaw." "Eighty of the world's best players." "It's freezing and no one spoke English." "But the crowd knew the music cold and when I nailed the third sonata, they went crazy." "I went from a nobody to a god." "A record deal, world tour." "Not bad for an accountant's kid from Brooklyn, huh?" "Spicy tuna?" "No, no, no, thank you." "So, what's your story?" "Your dad said you missed out on a Juilliard audition." "Yeah, uh, about a year ago." "And now you're wondering if you missed your chance, right?" "You didn't." "I had a goal, I made a plan." "School, practice, competitions." "I stayed with it." "Now I'm living the dream." "That's all it took?" "A plan?" "At a certain level, it isn't about talent, it's about who wants it the most." "I guess that's been my problem." "I've never known what I wanted." "Okay." "When you watched me play tonight, did you see yourself up on that stage?" "Yeah, of course." "Till you started the mazurka, in which case, I came crashing back down to Earth." "Then you have your answer." "A performer wants to play." "You are a performer." "So go for it." "Figure out your plan." "The rest is just work." "[PHONE ringing]" "Girlfriend?" "Manager." "Are you kidding?" "I haven't had a girlfriend since high school." "It's hard to meet people doing what I do." "Well, what about when you travel?" "Schedule's too tight." "Your family must come to your shows." "At least you see them." "They used to come, but I think the thrill is gone." "I don't see them that much anymore." "I try to make it every other Christmas if I can." "They understand." "I guess it's true what they say." "Lonely at the top." "[PHONE ringing]" "Sometimes." "But the view is great." "That is my ride." "Airport's waiting." "Thank you very much for, uh, having me." "Listen, I went to the Yale School of Music." "I'll call them tomorrow, set up an audition next week." "Next week?" "If you don't screw it up, which you won't, you'll start fall semester." "I'll call your dad with the details, all right?" "Good luck." "[PHONE ringing]" "Hello?" "Yeah." "No, no, it's okay." "It's okay, just stay put." "I'll be there in 10." "Okay." "Who was that?" "Oh, it's nothing." "Just go back to sleep." "Are you going out?" "Mary is standing outside the Sportsman's Lodge." "Gotta go talk to her and make sure she doesn't go inside." "It's past midnight." "Yeah, just think of it like being on call for the hospital." "Except you're going to a bar." "I know." "That's where the sick person is." "Don't worry, I'll be okay." "Go back to sleep." "[sighs]" "Hey." "Do you want some?" "Uh, no." "No thanks, I'm good." "Gotta go?" "Uh, yeah, I forgot I have this thing tomorrow." "So, uh...." "It was" " I had fun, and it was nice seeing you again." "You too." "Bye." "See you." "[playing "SYMPHONY OF destruction"]" "[audience APPLAUDS]" "Thank you, Penny." "That was fantastic." "We're gonna take a brief intermission." "Please enjoy the Bundt cake." "We'll be back for the second half in like 15 minutes." "[audience CHATTERlNG]" "That was great." "The ending sucked, didn't it?" "No." "Are you kidding me?" "You made me and Megadeth very proud." "Really?" "Yeah." "Cool." "What are you doing here?" "You're supposed to be in New York." "I came home a day early." "So, what happened?" "You freeze up?" "Because that's normal." "No." "No, the audition went great." "I already got a callback and met with the Financial Aid guy." "They're offering me a scholarship." "They are?" "That's incredible." "What's with the face?" "I told my mom." "So?" "What do you mean you told your...?" "Oh." "You mean you "told her" told her?" "We were walking through Times Square past all the moving cars and people and lights, and I just blurted it out." "How do you feel?" "Overwhelmed, but good." "She took it well, and she said she kind of knew." "She's gonna move to New York with me and find a new job there." "That's if I get in." "No, when you get in." "We'll see." "I'm proud of you, man." "You did it." "Because of you." "All of it, really." "You changed my whole life and I don't know if I'll ever be able to thank you for that." "You don't have to." "I think I just did." "[CHUCKLES]" "Anyway, uh, you should probably get back in." "You wanna play?" "Depends." "Do I get the finale?" "No, I'm gonna take the finale, but, uh, you can warm them up for me." "So you really can be addicted to love?" "Yeah, along with booze and drugs and sex and gambling, video games, lnternet pornography." "Hey, could you do me a favor and drive so I have a chance to go through abstracts before the seminar?" "I thought you were just giving a presentation." "I wish." "Phil wants me to do the full-court press." "It's like one-stop shopping for the entire addiction community." "Let me ask you a question." "You think I should go with a tie or do the Tony Robbins thing?" "So when do I get to see you?" "[sighs]" "I don't know." "This is turning into a lot more work than I had expected." "Yeah, I can see that." "I'm sorry." "You know, I'm not an expert on this stuff  but, um, do you think maybe there's a pattern here?" "A pattern?" "Like what?" "Well, I mean, you finally cut back on your hours and slowed down a little bit but you're going a hundred miles an hour again, except it's about the support group." "This is who I am." "I work hard, I play hard." "And if I'm channeling all that energy into something that's helping other people or keeping me sober then I don't see that there's a problem with it." "It's no problem." "It's just it seems like it's hard for you to put a relationship first." "No, definitely not." "I can have it all." "I can have my work, I can have my relationship I can have these meetings, and everything can come first." "Well, that might be true right now, but not with kids." "I mean, babies, they trump everything." "Well, I know, but we don't have babies." "We have Sammy and he's pretty much on autopilot until he's driving, so...." "[sighs]" "You wanna have a baby." "Well, eventually." "Hasn't it crossed your mind?" "To be honest?" "No." "Not lately, it hasn't." "[sighs]" "I've got less than two months of sobriety under my belt right now so I've gotta be taking one day at a time." "And...." "I love you." "But I'm just not thinking about the future that way and I thought you understood that." "I guess I jumped the gun." "I'm sorry." "Yeah." "Me too." "[PHONE rings]" "Hello?" "Hey, Hannah, what's up?" "You looking for the man?" "Hold on one sec." "I'm not here." "Seriously?" "Yeah." "[MOUTHlNG WORDS] Hang up the phone." "RElD:" "Hey, Hannah?" "Yeah, you know, I think he just slipped out." "I'll tell him you called though, okay?" "All right." "Why don't you leave that?" "Let's watch the video." "Video?" "Thought we had an agreement." "We did." "I said I wouldn't shoot any, so I gave the camera to Penny's father." "You bribed Penny's father?" "Mm-hm." "But only so we could give the Chopin piece to Andre." "He's gonna help you with the Yale audition." "I'm not going to Yale." "No?" "Too far?" "What about Indiana?" "You could be a Hoosier." "I'm gonna go to Colorado AM." "I talked to Chris Templeman." "He's gonna get me in the Music Ed. program for next fall." "[piano PLAYS ON TV]" "Music Education?" "So you wanna teach?" "Yeah." "Right now I wanna do that more than anything else, so thank you." "I didn't do anything." "You did." "You got me together with Andre." "That helped me figure everything else out." "I would've always wondered what that life would be like if I'm missing out on anything." "What changed your mind?" "I did." "After Mom died, I mean...." "Even before I used music to hide." "I'd lock myself in my room and not deal with anything, including myself." "I don't wanna be that guy anymore." "I'm sick and tired of being the genius-loner piano prodigy." "Music connects me to the world." "I love seeing Penny get better or seeing the light bulb go off as Kyle finally gets a piece." "You know, I can help change these kids." "I can show them who they are or who they could be." "Just like the Army." "Amazing." "You have figured out more before your 21st birthday than I have in my 52 years on this planet." "I guess you are a prodigy." "I don't think so." "I spent all this year coming to terms with last year." "If anything, I'm slow, but at least I finally feel like I can put it all behind me." "You know, like it's finally done." "Except for one thing." "What's that?" "Madison." "Ah." "I was a real jerk to her." "I'm sure she understands." "Still, I wish there was some way I could make it right." "Go back to the coffee shop and handle it better." "That's it?" "Oh, that's simple." "Really?" "You know how to travel through time?" "Sure, you just pick up the phone and call her." "I wish it was that easy." "Oh, I didn't say it was easy." "I said that it works." "[CROWD CHATTERlNG]" "[POP music playing OVER SPEAKERS]" "Aren't you supposed to be in a hot tub in Vail right about now?" "Uh, yeah, that's not happening." "Jake had a sobriety thingy in Carbondale." "So you didn't...?" "No." "You okay?" "Yeah." "I guess I got a little carried away, and I'm sorry I did it in front of you." "It's a little embarrassing." "Yeah." "Because I've never done anything stupid in front of you." "Wanna play the shame game?" "You have got miles to go to catch me." "[laughing]" "Oh, I just don't know what I'm doing anymore." "Well, you're trying to stay happy, which is harder than it looks." "Sam still gone?" "Yup, till Monday, it's just me." "So have dinner with Delia and me." "Got awesome leftovers from the recital." "Thank you, but I got a ton of paperwork to catch up on." "See, now, that is a bad instinct." "If you feel like crap, don't be alone." "Come be an honorary Brown for the night." "Okay." "Thank you." "I'll see you later, Andy." "madison [ON voicemail]:" "It's Madison." "Leave me a message and I'll call you back." "Hey." "Uh, sorry, I wasn't totally expecting this number to work." "It's me." "Well, it's not me." "I mean, it's Ephram." "You probably have another "it's me" by now." "Uh...." "You know, I was just thinking about you today." "Um...." "Well, I mean, actually I was thinking about everything a lot lately and...." "I mean, you were a big part of my everything, so...." "Uh, mainly, I was...." "Well, I just wanted to, um, apologize for the way I acted in the coffee shop that day." "I realize now how incredibly painful that must have been for you." "I mean, not the me-leaving part, but the you-telling-the-truth part." "And, you know, I didn't handle it very well." "I wish I could've done better." "A year late but...." "Anyway, um, I hope that you're well and that you're happy." "At least as happy as we can be, right?" "And, really, this message is getting very long and I'm gonna hang up very shortly, but...." "I just wanted to say sorry and to thank you for everything." "[KNOCKlNG ON DOOR]" "Bright, are you there?" "It's me." "Look, I know you're in there." "Your truck is parked outside." "[KNOCKlNG ON DOOR]" "Hi." "Okay." "Hey." "Last two days, all I've been doing is thinking, like nonstop thinking." "First, my head is killing me." "Hannah" "Hang on, let me finish." "The thing that all the thinking made me realize is that you were right." "No." "No, I wasn't." "Yeah." "Yeah, you were just being honest and trying to figure it out, and I wasn't." "See, I thought that my pretending to like parties or whatever was like a compromise." "Like, I had the whole thing rationalized in my brain." "Compromises make relationships." "Blah, blah, blah." "But that's not what I was doing." "lt wasn't?" "No." "The truth is, I just didn't want you to think I was that same dorky girl you became friends with last year." "I thought if you thought that, we never would've gotten this far so I deliberately changed who I was to be someone I thought you wanted until I couldn't remember which was me which is so ironic since the only thing you've ever wanted is for me to be myself." "Hey, look, Hannah, I made a mistake" "No, me too, and instead of dealing, I just freaked out and left and then when you called, I didn't call back because I wanted to punish you." "And I'm so sorry for that, Bright because the only thing I know for sure in my life is that I love you and I don't ever wanna lose you." "I don't want that either." "Then we can make this work." "I know we can, we just" "We have to promise to be totally honest with each other from now on about everything, okay?" "Not talking was the worst two days of my life." "All I wanna do is pretend it never happened." "Oh, me too." "Me too." "[english" " US" " SDH]"