"What would you do if you knew that you have one days, or one weeks, or one months to live." "I am afraid I'm not great news." "We have cancer in your blood, liver and lymph nodes detected." "You need treatment immediately." "How bad is it?" "Stage four." "How many stages are there?" "Four." "Here are the first three unfiltered thoughts, by Ben's head shots." "He would cancel the wedding." "Relief, because he could use this excuse, to check under the six keys to get English." "How many people would at a funeral." "The fourth idea, he spoke aloud." "Is this an error?" "I feel fine." "We know for sure." "What exactly would you say?" "You have an extremely aggressive form of cancer." "You need an aggressive treatment." "What are my chances?" "On a scale of one to ten." "The survival rate is approximately 10%." "Am I dead?" "For individuals, we are not talking about predictions." "Among the published cases, a complete cure is still unknown." "And if the treatment fails, how long do I have?" "A couple of years." "At the very least?" "What is the minimum?" " Use it." "Okay, boy?" " Yes, thank you" "Drive you too?" " No, not the past years." "I never thought I 'm would sell." "But my eyes have become ill." "My license was not renewed." "You would never believe you have old bones." "Yet even and you're back in diapers." "Would you try it here?" "No, thank you, I'm not looking for a motor." "Of course not ..." "You might conclude, the option to buy an engine, so soon after Ben's disastrous news, was a divine intervention." "That would be ironic." "Actually, Ben wanted for some time buy a motorcycle, but before we go, here's some background." "Gerald Benjamin Tyler was born on January 14, 1979 in Toronto, Canada." "The temperature was an incredible Arctic -19 degrees Celsius." "It happened 12 years after the Leafs," "The last time the Stanley Cup win." "So, what were the turning points in Ben's life?" "Today I want to see some activity." "Keep your eyes on the ball." "If you are not every two minutes your finger in your nose stops, you could probably catch the ball once." "I would never again be caught, that in public sat picking at his nose." "And he would never again be caught on daydreaming." "These two cases seemed to go hand in hand." "Or finger in nose, so to speak." "The second great event." "Ben's parents had brainwashed him, with the idea that he had the voice of an angel." "That dream died, at the audition for school performance of H.M.S. Pinafore." "He is an Englishman ..." " Enough." "Stop, for my ears bleed." "That was terrible." "I never sang in public." "Anyway, mrs." "Bell's contemptuous remarks, were intended as an act of revenge." "The third event." "Ben's first novel." "A poorly camouflaged autobiography, which no publisher was found." "He had created an orphan." "What else could have run for Ben, if he had gone with nose picking and daydreaming." "Would he have believed all prayers, if he had heard?" "And if he against all hope, would have decided his manuscript to Harper Collins to send." "Because they had just a young editor adopted open would have been the literary work, that Ben had produced." "Even five minutes everyone." "I taught the same books, which he had learned." "And that his father had taught." "And which, probably, Shakespeare's father also taught her." "It is not entirely untrue, to say, that teaching, Ben's passion was not." "But in rare moments, he did his best." "Though much is taken, much obedience and although we are not now, what power in the ancient times moved heaven and earth, that we are not, we are." "A moment of heroic hearts, made weak by time and faith, but strong in will power, to strive, to seek, to find and not to give up." "I would marry Samantha Pierce." "The wedding was planned over three months." "Is yours?" "I thought that he would never ask." " All of us." "You did the right thing." "I'm proud of you." "I know what you think." "I took pleasure in his career and now took pleasure in a woman." "But before you go too far with that theory, you know, that Ben worships five cases of Samantha." "Her left hip." "Not that there's something wrong with the right, but the left is perfection." "Playlists." "Samantha was the perfect DJ from the soundtrack of Ben's life." "Her parents, Mary Jo and Tom, were the nicest people, but you could meet." "Its understated power to unclear, but to produce relevant citations, who always brought a deeper truth." "Samantha was golffan, because they knew that Ben was crazy at that sport." "His fiancee developed even interest, in the highlights of the Asian tour." "If that is not love, what is?" "While Samantha was not demanding, she was determined about one thing." "She hated motorcycles." "If insurance expert, she found motor drive the height of stupidity." "And?" "I take him." " That surprises me." "The price is not negotiable." "Damn, I give him seven for you." "It is not necessary." " No, I insist." "Where you r d'you go?" "I know not." "Because the news about his cancer," "Ben's plan was to go home, to Samantha to talk about his prognosis." "And hopefully desperate love with her business." "All night long." "But first he needed coffee." "Because there are still a trace of him sat a dreamer," "Ben always rolled to the edge, to see if he had won." "TRAVEL WESTWARD, young man" "I decided to wait until they fathers birthday," "Samantha at the news." "It would not be able to keep secret." "I want a toast." " Oh, my God." "Can you us an e-mail?" "I just want to say ..." "No.." "I will admit, despite my increasing maturity," "I have never been so happy." "I ..." "to somehow ... lived a very happy life." "And I would like a toast to release my family." "Thank you all." "Cheers." " Cheers Dad." "We say the marriage off." "Not after all that work, that you have been stopped." "Unless you do not want." " No, marriage does not interest me." "I is madness about me, that you are on holiday." "The longer you wait with the therapy, the worse the chances are." "I'm not on vacation." "Once I step into the hospital, they bombard me such strong medication, it will feel like I eat glass, every time I swallow." "Before I am patient, I do." "What exactly should you do?" " I want an adventure." "If it would get me, I would like any treatment of the world." "I would drink goat urine, as I thought it would help." "I know Sam, but they're only two days." "And when I get back, I undergo the treatment, 100%, I promise." "It is incomprehensible to me, you want to wait ..." "But it is not incomprehensible to me." "What should I ..." "?" "Come." "Come with me." "No, I was angry all the time on yours." "And your family?" "I tell my family, when I'm back." "Ben insisted that the wedding would continue as planned." "MY LIFE?" "Because Ben missed his appointment, nurse could Forrester 12 minutes away from her earlier work." "With a very strong run, she could get the 17:45 train." "If Gayle had made no such rate, she was one of the victims was 13, in the 18:10 train, which derailed just outside Etobicoke." "Ben invented facts, without irony." "He loved the homages the world's largest." "Part of the pleasure, was inventing background, how these creations arose." "And I say, what our city needs, it is something put on the map." "Something with a big 'wow' factor." "the world's largest photo mosaic." "I remembered having read, about a man in Great Britain," "John Rick Brand, in whom cancer pancreatic vasthad made where the forecast was still one years." "He gave everything, where he had to establish the end, which the diagnosis was wrong and that good would come with him." "And as Ben's diagnosis was wrong for once?" "Samantha was right." "He swam in that famous river in Egypt." "He went home." "Hey friend, do you know if this is a Canadian Tire store?" "No, sorry, no idea." "We lose the bet, if we should walk to Sudbury." "What's important to find Canadian Tire?" "Our friend Gurvy has to bet a crate of beer ... per person." " That we" "Terra Nova, to Vancouver could bicycles, in less than six weeks, and less than $ 400 to spend." "Every time something goes bad and that happens more often than you might think, we go to the store and we exchange one for another bike." "Come on, you never succeed, so as to travel all the way west." "Why not?" " You do not even have the right equipment." "Outside the damn wind, we have so far had no problems." "Can one of you I offer a lift, in the city to look?" "Sorry, we can not assume elevator because the bet." "Rule number six." "Fuck, that we agreed with it." "Goodbye." " Good luck." "WIN A DONUT" "Compared to the madness of the country by bicycle headwinds with a crate of beer," "Ben decided, but to travel to the West." "THE SEARCH FOR GRUMPS BY BEN TYLER" "OUR CHILDREN WILL FIND THE BEAUTIFUL" "THEM IF YOU READ THIS BOOK FOR" "Are you pregnant?" "I mean, are we pregnant?" "Of course not." "Why did you in the note about children?" "Because that would touch your heart." "I prayed, the thought of your unborn child, you would come home." "But you're not pregnant?" "No, and if I was, I would tell you that not in code." "What should we do?" "We must continue to search for Grumps." "So they searched all day, but they were nowhere discover signs of Grumps." "Ben's father, a rather convincing storyteller, his son convinced that existed Grumps." "Mythical figures, so fantastic the refrain, incredible luck would bring." "At what point in his youth, the ratio was superior to the imagination, when Ben concluded, that the world was Grump-free?" "Ben had a great desire, for the chance to embrace and the search for the Grumps to resume." "I need to know, if you're at a church wedding." "Of course not." "And you want to contribute something in the marriage?" "Can I ask you something, Ben?" "Do you have a religion?" "How can you believe in anything?" "We talked about children and on the financial side." "How can it, we have not talked about religion?" "There can not be so upset about his?" "I marry a nihilist." "Because Samantha, did Ben its best to listen to God." "Although, he never succeeded, to the right frequency to find God." "Listen ... when you said you could not believe you got married to a nihilist, when it was played?" "But I have peace with it." "Tell me that you come home." "That is quite a big compromise, or not?" " No, a little compromise." "I've filed on, we do not like thinking about faith." "Where are you?" "Are there more things, which you entered into a compromise?" "Yes, that is part of a relationship." "What then?" "Give me an example." "Why are you talking about here?" "I could not resist your event to Monday." "Perhaps one of the cases, which you entered into a compromise, one of the things that I prefer is." "Nothing important, really." "Great." "Perhaps a small example then." "Well." "I wish you had not sweaty feet." "But ..." "I have no feet." "This is a ridiculous conversation." "Forget it." "It is ridiculous, you say that my feet stink, but they do not stink." "Well, maybe you also have an odor problem." "I've never said, because I knew it was sensitive." "Because it is not there." " Believe me, they smell." "They can pay front." "Actually ..." "I wish you a favor." "Of course." "Can you tell me my shoe or smells?" "Pardon?" " I know it sounds absurd, but it is really important to me." "Please do it this time." "In my professional opinion, everything is okay." "I wondered what was the deeper background, of Samantha's hostility, called on his foot problems." "Importantly," "Samantha asked him why not, he did not like her?" "Is that your Norton?" "Where you going?" "To the west." "For something special in the West?" "Not yet." "So you have a direction, but no ... destination." "Yes, if it is about." "Did you know that marijuana is allowed, for use by cancer patients?" "Are you clairvoyant or something?" "Why are you talking about cancer?" "I was full of them." "Have you had a treatment?" "In fact, it did go away." "Seriously?" "No, I love you kidding man." "I have been treated." "Are you married?" "Engaged." "And you?" "A woman?" "Already 25 years." "And I keep count." " Yeah?" "Are you on your fourth marriage?" "On my seventeenth." "And still in love?" "How did you know it was true?" "If you have to ask ... what is wrong." "And you knew that already" "WHAT WE ARE, WE ARE." "ULUSSES, Tennyson" "Damn!" "This was the furthest to the west, to where Terry was running." "But he remained on dreams, to back on path, towards the Pacific Ocean." "I can only say, that if there is a way," "I make it up." "What are you doing?" "I try to my sisters wedding dress." "What happened to that, you have to make?" "I have concluded, that was a bad decision." "Again?" " Yes, again." "He lift your breasts, honey?" "Perhaps it is the breasts and not the dresses?" "Come home." "Please." "I'm not ready yet, Sam." "I ..." " What are you doing?" "I came here, in order to escape the heat and I ..." "And ... what?" "I thought I had sunstroke." "I did not know, that this was the real Stanley Cup." "That is the real Stanley Cup?" " Yes, of course." "What is he doing here?" "The Derek Vicente days and I was there, in Manitoba when Anaheim won the Cup." "Explanatory material;" "Each winning team member Stanley Cup, the 24 hours hold." "Derek was the seventh." "Are you Derek Vicente?" " That's me." "Congratulations, man." "Thank you." "Where is the man from the advertising?" "The man with the white gloves, who protected him with his life." "A few of my friends lead him." "So I have a moment alone with the Cup." "I could not resist." "I had to leave the game halfway with a concussion, so ..." "Yeah, I remember that fight." "Everyone knows it yet, but me." "You definitely want me to go, huh?" "Where fact." "The doctors had found that Cheryl O'Reilly was barren." "On one evening, took Mike Ricci of the Colorado Avalancha the Cup to a party." "Cheryl kissed him and Stanley was born nine months later." "Would you kiss the Cup?" "He often brings happiness." "Maybe it was the Champagne, but a small part of Ben felt, that the spirits of all players ever kissed the Cup, his cancer to oblivion could tackle." "But perhaps karma was also destroyed by it." "Were the hockey and the Stanley Cup not enough for one days?" "Why Ben followed the dubious detour, to the world's largest prairie camel?" "Why now." "Please." "Start shit." "Come on." "Damn" "Not here, not now." "God." "Come on now." "Please." "Do this to me." "Damn." "Why?" "Why do not you start?" "There is a voicemail message for you" "I read the newspaper, by the window, and I just read about Phil and the loss of the Court." "Call me." "As Ben's life could exist, coffee and read newspapers with Samantha, it would be blissful existence." "I do not know how to thank you." "Most people had not called." "They were driven by." "It was nothing." "Sorry about your dog." "You know what it is?" "He no longer slept in my bed, then my two husbands." "Added." "This is the first time in ten years that I cry." "It looks like dirty petrol." "Is it really?" "I will clean it." "That does not last long." "I did not expect, I would separate two times and my son only see once a year, if I'm lucky." "He lives with his dad?" "He has just become 20." "And his father also had left much earlier." "Come on, you have no son of 20." "And a granddaughter of four." "I once saw." "My son works in Fort McMurray." "He deserves it too much to stay here." "And why do not you leave?" "To do anything else." "I have debts." "And if the weather the market and not worse," "I could probably pay off my loans at the end of the harvest." "I would feel a fool, if not every farmer here in the same situation Sat" "Are you by bitter?" "Not really." "The dust itches in your pores." "When I occasionally having sex, I'd feel a lot happier." "Excuse me, but I love men XXL." "And if I once go loose, hear it a few wine coolers and a total lack of subtlety." "Come, let's go riding." "Actually, I ..." "never rode horses." "So then you have never lived." "If I think I am, where I would really like to go to." "Overlooking the hills, wondering whether he in a previous life had been a cowboy, asked Ben wondered why Fran so empowered, on the size of its men." "He'd also like to had a box of wine coolers." "Ben's trip Fran had revived." "This weekend was Fran, instead of repairing fences, on a surprise visit to her son in Fort McMurray." "Unfortunately Brad ran double shifts." "It was positive, Fran that while her time killing, the love of her life she encountered." " Pardon." "Do you know where Dawson street?" "The world's largest teepee, was a big disappointment." "I could not say why." "He had expected more, of the world's largest dinosaur." "It was a three on a scale of ten." "Maybe three and a half ..." "As most probably already know," "The provincial park of dinosaurs houses the largest collection dinosaur bones in the world." "Matched only through the Gobi Desert in China." "Then you feel more or less unimportant, or not?" "If you know that the most powerful species extinct completely." "Reduced to a pile of bones." "You might conclude, that somewhere between the bones of these ancient beasts," "Grumps hidden zatten." "Instead, Ben asked himself, or the Grumps," "Like their prehistoric friends, were extinct." "A true story." "In 1997, Gina Lalapola choked, an Italian stripper, while they waited, to jump out a cake." "The point is that we all living in borrowed time." "One moment you find a decent song on the radio, and the next time ..." "What is the minimum in life?" "So obviously happy that he was still alive," "Ben was one of those movie moments after, which the hero dances with no inhibitions, where he finally token the chains of the rut can bear, through the transforming power of a pop song." "Have not reached it." "He felt a fool, to some type." "Actually, he could not dance." "After six hours unrelenting cold," "Ben decided he had enough of the allure of the open road." "and the lack of direction." "Not saving for retirement, had its advantages." "Mom and Dad have not." "We all have it anymore." "Come back to Toronto and the line." "Ben, your mother." "I need your voice heard." "I love you so much." "Hello son." "Listen, we can handle this." "I Dr.." "Morgan called and he provides you come into contact, with a top cancer specialist in Sunnybrook." "Sorry." "That was the intention." "Can you call your mother, please?" "Thank you." "I will meet you anywhere." "You promised to tell anyone." " I know." "And you had promised, , after two days back." "Are you coming home?" "Not yet." "Then I come to you." "Is that so?" "Where are you?" "In Banff." "I book a flight tomorrow." "Day." "Ben knew that if anyone would go on a trip, finding Grumps craziness would look at." "Within two hours after the escape the presidential suite, he was lost." "If he could reach the Pacific Ocean, and not to the West could, what would he do?" "Oh my God." "Jesus." "Good dog." "Good dog." " Mick, af." "Af." "I'm so sorry." "I was above anyone expected." "No problem." "It scared me, that's all." "Is everything okay?" "Yes, everything is good." "It ..." "I ..." "I feel a little light in my head." "Want some water?" " Yes please, thank you." "You know that song?" "That was quite an understatement." "Ben's mother had the song, "Un Canadien Andante"" "a traditional French folk song, every night for singing, while growing up." "The words were in his DNA." "Tracy that this song from all songs she had chosen to choose, had to mean something." "Well." "The basic rules for the sing along with campfire songs say clearly, that everyone should do." " Honestly, you do not want me going to sing." "Oh yeah?" "I insist." "I had never made a list, of the cases he found unattractive to Samantha." "She had her habits." "Everything had a certain way done." "Derivative that caused this, insomnia and general irritability." "Despite Ben's efforts, Samantha continued to refuse for movies, books and behavior of his family to assess on the scale of one to ten." "That was a big disappointment for Ben, for he reviewed many of the aspects of his life through this filter." "Sorry Ben that their sex lives, something of the past carnal urgency was lost." "Do you mind waiting until tomorrow?" "And the most irritating of all," "Samantha jaw clicked, while she ate." "I was sure, as the years would continue;" "he would not notice." "You have a great voice." "That's nice of you, but I've long lost hope that I can sing." "I have perfect hearing and you can definitely sing." "That was terrible." "My teacher in fourth grade lied to me." "What are you talking about?" "It is not important." "Where is your second book?" " I have not written another novel." "Do you have ideas, or ..." "Oh no, the rejection my creativity is pretty beaten to death." "My grandfather read to me never cease Thomas Edison for a child." "His favorite was;" "Most failures in life occur in people who are unaware, how close they were to succeed, when she returns." "Well, there is persistence and then it only disillusionment." "Someone has the need for disillusionment supplement in the world." "What would you do if you have one weeks to live?" "Maybe what I do what I'm doing." "I do not think about tomorrow, or ..." "Yesterday, about three hours or more, it is now." "What would you do?" "I would love you." "Why?" "I searched for more words." "It was succeeded Samantha, for a flight that night to get instead of the next morning, as planned." "I was extremely happy awake." "Maybe it was, because on the one way or the other succeeded, to escape his demons." "This way was more acceptable, than treatment." "Where you been all night?" "How can you just forgive me?" "Are not you upset?" "Of course I'm upset." "But at least you are not lying." "And you're not good in your skin," "So I love me, that this is not even about us." "Maybe later I get angry." "But now for the important things." "Like why do not you come home." "I just can not." "That's selfish." "It's incomprehensible." "You act like an asshole." "Make this treatment." "You think that there is no hope?" " I would not have been patient." "Not if it was not necessary." " So you still run away, without fighting?" "course was needed." "And if this fight is now?" "If this is the right thing to do?" "I know." "Everything has changed." "But why?" "What happened?" "This can not only get the diagnosis." "Because, Samantha, I stare at a wall, I can not cross." "Because I no longer know what the correct answers." "Be honest." "You know what the first was what shot through my head, when the doctor said I had cancer?" "The first?" "I wanted to cancel the wedding." "I was absolutely sure, I did not want to marry." "And I no longer wanted to work and I wanted nothing more to do." "This is a normal reaction." "I also wanted to cancel the wedding." "Samantha, it's not about the cancer," "This is the life that I've built for myself." "Why am I over insured?" "Why do I feel more responsible?" "Why not me, what equipment is in our kitchen?" "I'm just like my father." "There is nothing wrong with my dad, I love him," "He is a decent man, but was never my ambition in life." "What is the alternative?" "This." "This is the alternative." "You can not drive around forever." "At one point, you will be overtaken by." "In particular you." " I just want time." "If all these days I can change a life this must be a better choice." "But do not be dead." "You know." "You can go against all predictions." "You may do this for us." "This is not about us." "That is the problem, Samantha." "This is about me." "Have you ever loved me?" "Not the way you deserve." "Why you asked me to marry?" "Because a large part of me that wanted." "And since I could think of no reason, not to do." "I did not think that what we had, was something to fall back on." "A safe choice." "Why have I not seen?" "That indecision, that hesitation." "This was always about us." "And not about you." "I'm an idiot." "Dare not to follow me." "Shut up." "Hi Mom." "This is great." "Thank you" " Bon appetit." "Excuse me." "Can you help us for a picture?" "Of course." "Thank you" "Thank you" "Sure." " You're Canadian, eh?" "They say that you are one of the most beautiful countries of the world lives." "I know." "Their love was an illusion." "But as in any marriage, there were a few waves, which could destroy." "In those days of rough seas," "Ben's photo a reminder of what was good." "Nobody can say with certainty how Grumps looks." "Therefore, you can find them too hard." "Anyway, a good rule where his father had believed:" "You recognize them decide, if you see them." "And Ben was quite sure," "Grumps that the universe had been coughing." "There was only one thing to do it." "You smell the sea." "What is the divorce rate?" "36%." "These are not good numbers." "Better than one in ten." "That, I believe that." "If it goes to individuals, you forget the numbers." "You have to." "It would not need to be over?" "I asked the man when I was on ..." ""How do you know you're in love?" "He said: "If you must ask, you're not. "" "You've never have to ask, or not Sam?" "Of course not." "Are you mad?" "But not only there about." "How you look, it sucks." "I'm obsessed by completely selfish thought, everyone will think she is a woman, who left her fiance, because he has cancer." "That will not start thinking." " I would think, if I would hear something." "Sorry, I have involved you in such misery." "You must also." "How do you feel?" "Ancient." "Was it worth your trip?" "Do you have pictures?" "For a long life." "You have those rare moments clarity, which flashes with the universe makes any sense, and you desperately trying to hold." "These are the lifeboats for the difficult times, where the vastness of everything, not contain the equivalent nature of life, entirely theoretical." "So the question is, or had always should be:" "What would you do if you have only one days, or one weeks, or one months to live?" "Where would you hold on?" "What secret would you tell?" "Which band would you like?" "Who would you declare your love?" "What wish would you play?" "Where would you go flights to drink coffee?" "What book would you write?"