"Summer, 2004, Guangzhou" "I'm with him" "He's not moving." "Not breathing." "Nonsense." "I just saw him moving." "No more money." "He's not moving." "Not breathing." "Look at my "blood bank"." "Look, I'm bleeding." "I've bled a lot." "Could you give me 10 more yuan, uncle?" "He'll die." "He's not moving." "That's enough for get one." "25 yuan." "Thanks, uncle." "I am from Guangzhou." "His son Liu..." "He's about to die in Guangzhou." "In Guangzhou." "He won't last long." "I mean you should come and see him." "That's what I meant." "You understand?" "Huh?" "Why?" "Hello?" "He's sick." "Maybe... maybe lately..." "It won't hurt for me to tell you" "Right now his body is very weak." "which is, is already..." "Call me when you arrive." "How do I put this?" "Even seeing him For the last time would help." "It would help to come and see him for once" "Because your family already know he has AIDS." "Why?" "Aiyo!" "I am not sure about his relationship with his family." "But, I can't help with anything else." "That's the only thing I can help with, you understand?" "You, you..." "Brother Long" "Caution!" "High Voltage!" "A Long" "This unfinished building was soon taken over by the police." "All of a sudden, the people in it vanished from the city overnight." "A Long's phone was no longer reachable" "I believed that I would never see him again." "Sorry, the number you have dialled is not in service." "Half a year later, he got in touch with me..." "I wouldn't sell it to you even if you offered 10,000 yuan." "Once there was a guy, who didn't take heroin," "And he gave him 20 yuan." "Then, he said," "Why do you want it if you don't take it?" "He said, I've tried some, it rocks." "He just kicked the boy right away," "Kicked him to the ground." "Useless." "Nowadays it's useless to be a good person." "Really." "I really had no idea" "That I would end up like this." "I truly didn't intend to." "From the bottom of my heart." "But there was no other way." "See, last time" "When Zhou Hao came..." "And gave me 200 yuan when I was in trouble." "In my heart..." "I told my wife that night" "How much money he makes a month," "Yet he gave me 200 yuan." "He even brought some fruit." "No matter if everyone is using each other In some way or another" "He didn't have to give that money, did he?" "He only had 200 something yuan in total," "And he kept a bit for transportation." "I was deeply moved, really I was." "Between us there was no..." "Even though now everyone's cautious around each other," "I still feel that we're friends." "Every time I eat, including when I eat with Zhou Hao," "I pack up all the leftovers" "And take it back to those..." "Put this and that together ...Those who have nothing to eat." "That sauce, seal it up with tape and give it to me." "I give it all to those who have nothing." "It's not like it was before." "Now it's Zhou Hao who treats me to dinner." "In the past, we had a deal:" "You pay today, and I'll pay tomorrow." "When I take you there later," "Don't take your camera out." "Do you have a hidden camera?" "No? Huh?" "Take two." "I'll give it to you tonight." "Tonight." "Recently the goods haven't been good enough" "Huh?" "Sister," "Today's stuff is just fine." "Recently the stuff's been bad." "Speaking right now, I'm going to quit tomorrow." "You can follow me tomorrow, huh?" "OK." "I'm quitting tomorrow." "You can record the process of me quitting." "Alright?" "Alright." "But when we go there don't make a big show of it." ""I am a reporter" blah blah blah." "It's a hostel." "Wash it up, quickly." "When you're done, I'll give you two yuan to get something to eat." "Come on, use some water." "You have to wash with water." "Fill this one first." "It's filled already." "Look over there." "Thanks." "Don't thank me." "I have no money, damn it." "I'm just like a beggar." "You think it's like it was before?" "It's either "dry stew" or "fast food"." "It was those wolves from the northwest" "They kept us awake all night." "Ai ya..." "Pay attention next time." "I thought you were asleep." "Who was asleep?" "Choo, choo, choo, Just like a microphone blowing beside your ear." "When she coughed I knew she wasn't asleep." "I was awake all night." "I saw your eyes were all closed And I thought you were all asleep." "How could I sleep?" ""Chirp chirp"." "He kept his voice low." "That woman, "koo, koo"." "It's been two days as far as I can see." "As if you two were the only ones in this room." "Don't do it next time, don't..." "Argh, I was drunk." "Shit, I was drunk and didn't know nothing." "What does it mean to be without a goal?" "Today, I really thought of dying." "If I had a hammer, or a knife," "I'd have it done it in a moment." "Today I went to the train depot," "I went there to score." "When getting the stuff, damn it, I don't know how," "But the dealer got caught." "Then he gave up the buyers." "After he gave us up, I'd just got the goods" "Then some plain-clothes cops came over" "And seized me right away." "At the moment of being caught, I swallowed the goods." "I thought if I swallowed it," "They'd just release me." "But they didn't," "They kept me in a car instead." "I was the first to get caught." "It was around 11 in the morning." "I was just waiting in car." "10 minutes later they brought someone else over." "Then by 2 or 3 o'clock they'd got six or seven." "And then the dealer was taken, too." "At 5 or 6 PM, we were sent to Addiction Treatment." "When they interrogated us," "They interrogated us one by one." "And when it was my turn," "I said I had a situation, that I was sick," "I said I couldn't take it." "I said you caught me last time." "What was the situation back then?" "And then, the officer who was interrogating me," "One of his colleagues happened to be leaving." "And after he went out, I saw a lighter on his desk." "And I immediately swallowed the lighter." "He rushed over to grab it," "He squeezed my neck." "He thought I'd be unable to swallow it with my neck squeezed." "But unexpectedly, during the struggle," "I managed to swallow it." "They were worried there might be problem, that I might die" "So they just released me." "Everyone's used this trick!" "So many people have done it before." "That it seemed a little out-dated." "Swallow anything, iron sheets, razor blades." "Then usually Addiction Treatment don't dare keep you." "You can see them in ultrasound." "We used to swallow stuff all the time." " You won't feel a thing." " We used to swallow them after emptying the gas." "You've done it?" "I have." "I've swallowed seven tooth brushes," "Seven tooth brushes?" "Before being detained?" "No, right during the capture." "Just the moment I went in." "Did it work?" "No." "That was in '82." "In '82, a provision on wound and disability had come down." "But they never implemented it." "This year is okay." "They started implementing it this year." "In the past, they wouldn't release you even if you had AIDS" "Those with tuberculosis, liver cancer, and others had no chance to get released." "It's just this year." "The policy seems to have changed somehow" "I'm on drug treatment pills right now." "Do you feel bad?" "Are you not even puking up saliva?" "No yawning?" "When you feel the addiction coming on, you take the pills." "No snot, no tears?" "It's impossible to not suffer at all." "You just suffer a bit." "What about diarrhoea?" "No." "Can you eat?" "Yeah." "You're even able to eat?" "Wow, those are good pills." "I'm telling you, most people don't know about these pills." "There's only this doctor that discovered them," "I'll telling you." " How much for one bottle?" " Huh?" " 60 yuan a bottle?" " Yeah." " 100 pills in a bottle?" " Yeah." "That's good, shit." "Daze, you should quit too." "I'm really quitting." "Tomorrow I'll find some money and buy a few bottles and just quit." "Now there's another shipment coming in." "Now six of my friends have all come, those motherfuckers." "It won't take a day or two" "For the Xinjiang boss at Yaotai to be raided and cleared." "It's useless." "They won't capture him even if they raided it." "Why not?" "Will they take in Xinjiang people?" "Won't they?" "Haiyin Detention Center won't receive Xinjiang people?" " No." " Says who?" "I told you they don't so they don't." "If they did they would have done it already." "The officer said just today," "They're targeting the big timers." "Big timers?" "They took us, too." "They're going for the big timers" "Because Haiyin is a state-controlled department, you know?" "If you're caught with one kilo or ten kilos You can bargain with them." "Haiyin exists to make money." "It runs commercially." "Hello, I'll have four bottles of pills." "These ones?" "Pills, pills, pills." "It'll flare up tonight if I don't use it now." "It's just temporary." "The good ones can last 8 or 9 hours," "The lower-quality ones for 3 or 5 hours." "I can't inject in the arm now, only this vein." "You're not quitting tomorrow?" "I definitely will quit tomorrow." "If I don't quit I'll have to live every day like this." "Ah, it hurts a lot." "I ran out of cigarettes, too." "Go get some cigarettes." "It won't work without cigarettes." "Who is it?" "A Long, are you using drugs again?" "No." "Open the door!" "I'm taking a shit." "Open the Door!" "I'm taking a shit." "Really!" "I don't believe you." "I really am." "Do you even need to watch me shit?" "I'll watch you." "Pull down your pants and show me." "What?" "Pull down your pants, Let me see if there's a needle." "No needles." "Let me see." "There's nothing." "Stand up!" "No needles!" "Get up and let me see!" "No needles." "Take them off and stand up and let me see." "I said there's no needles!" "Did she just go to buy drugs for you?" "No, she was withdrawing money." "You can just ask her." "She went to withdraw money." "A Jun!" "What did you just go out for?" "What?" "What did you go out for just now?" "What's up?" "He's shooting up right now." "I'm not." "No?" "Then stand up." "Aiya, really, I..." "Then I'll just leave tonight, and pay no attention to you." "Aiyo..." "What do you say, A Jun?" "What did you go out for just now, to buy drugs?" "No." "Why did you withdraw money?" "When we went out just now you didn't get money but now you need to get money?" "I owed someone from this morning." "I told him, but he wouldn't believe me." "He just spent a load of money on treatment pills." "What's the point if he continues to shoot up?" "You can follow me 24/7." "You're making me..." "I know that it's for my own good." "I totally understand." "Listen, A Long," "You two agreed to turn off your cell phones." "But you've both still got them turned on." "Right, locked in my drawer." "There won't be any problem if you don't answer phone calls." "Give me your wallets." "I don't care how much you beg, but starting from tomorrow," "I will absolutely not let you have them." "Wallets, phones." "I've got it." "Whoa!" "Don't you have eyes?" "!" "Turning off!" "Don't turn it off!" " You see?" "Set it to flight mode." "Your friends are going to think something might have happened to you if it's turned off." "Don't act like this." "It was nothing." " Then, then, then, in the evening..." " Enough." "Don't talk to me anymore." "Don't talk to him," "Pain in the ass." "I don't wanna be near you." "Enough, enough." "I have to, right?" "Is there no tolerance between you two?" "In which life did my family owe yours a debt?" "Is there no tolerance between you two?" "You tolerate him a little, and he does the same to you." "When I was in ER, I was hanging by a thread," "He never said he'd come to see me." "What were you doing?" "Where were you when the baby was aborted?" "I have no tolerance?" "Things wouldn't have become like this if you had tolerance." "You have tolerance?" "Only you were allowed to go out and have fun." "If you hadn't had fun, You wouldn't have lost your son." "I came back to you when you had nothing." "What else do you want?" "What was I doing this for?" "Were you a millionaire?" "Say something, A Long." "First you said Zhou Hao took you to take an AIDS test," "Now Zhou Hao's here, I asked him." "He said it never happened." "Then you blamed Chen Hai, the man who said you had AIDS." "He took you to take AIDS tests." "I've met with Chen Hai!" "Get me all the tools and knives from up there." "Do it yourself." "Don't you have hands?" "Don't confuse things between us and external stuff" "Yet there you are, consistently doing it." "Here, these oranges are delicious." "Have some fruit and cool down." " I have some here." " Very sweet." "I have some here." "Get the money!" "I said some things, but it seems like I wasn't in the right." "Jiazhong Logistics Co., Guangzhou, patrol security guard, Cui Heng." "Fucking hell!" "What are you up to?" "Kneel!" "Who's the one who should kneel?" "Don't mess around." "That's enough." "That's just about enough, I say." "A few kicks and punches then It's all over." "You just need to know how to spell the word "wrong"." "Where is the syringe I asked you to change?" "You asked me to?" "Weren't you going to when I asked you to?" "Isn't it humiliating that I just do what you ask?" "What do you want?" "Give me my phone." "I need to look for a number." "See?" "I have no reaction to this drug at all" "I just feel thirsty, and always want to drink water." "Where are you?" "Huh?" "Oh." "What time?" "What..." "So normally you won't come back" "Alright, forget it." "Hello?" "Who is it?" "Who is speaking?" "A De?" "Which A De?" "The one from Guangzhou?" "Which one?" "Huh?" "This is A Long." "What is it?" "Say it." "How much money is it that makes you look everywhere for him?" "I can help you find him." "I'll call you when I find him..." "Because I feel insecure about him right now." "Because he has been irresponsible in this relationship more than once or twice." "My ex-boyfriend had his career and social position" "He wasn't at the top" "But he could get to the middle" "A bit higher than the middle." "In the end I chose him." "Every time we went out for tea," "He'd say, "A Jun, I worry about you."" "I was unable to understand him then," "I thought what are you worried about?" "So I asked him." "He just shook his head." "He'd asked me, now that you've come to this point" "Are you able to go back?" "I'd said I still couldn't." "He'd say, "what kind of man is A Long?"" ""Will I be able to meet him?"" ""Just meet him as a friend."" "I didn't answer him." "I've been thinking, why has reality been so cruel to me?" "So between me and him," "There won't be any conclusion." "I don't have much faith in him." "That includes him quitting this time." "But I sometimes think" "That I'll keep him company and wait till he quits completely," "And then I'll walk away." "In the end it's not the same colour when it comes out." "Luckily it wasn't like this." "If it was it wouldn't have come out." "It was good that it came down like this." "It took a long time." "There's even a little gas left in it." "A bag of the stuff came out too." "With only the tape left." "The goods inside were gone." "The tape came out but there were no drugs left." "Aiyo." "Let's go." "Open the door." "Everyone who comes here registers?" "80% of them would." "Daze came on 3rd of July." "Is that right?" "Tang Xiaoyan." "Because normally everyone needs to register here." "Every customer needs to register." "He had no ID card." "So he used someone else's to register." "He's never short with the rent" "He has been." "Sometimes he borrows money, too." "But his credit's good." "He'll pay back in a few days." "How does he make money out there?" "Um, stealing." "A meal before work, huh." "Need to charge the batteries before work." "Then you can have electricity in the evening during work." "Damn, if I had swallowed this A few days ago" "The goods wouldn't have dissolved." "That day I swallowed something Worth tens of yuan." "Pointless in the end." "What a waste." "It wouldn't have dissolved if I'd swallowed this." "That day, I just used tape." "When you're quitting you have no appetite." "You don't want to eat anything." "Probably the 4th or 5th day is the hardest." "This stuff isn't bad." "Had two bags and it's not bad." "Taking one bag did nothing." "I took two and I still feel numb." "Even my nose is numb." "It numbs my nose." "This stuff is good." "This stuff?" "Normally it numbs your chest, palms and feet." "Today it's made my nose numb." "It went numb as soon as I shot up." "Goods vary." "These goods are good." "It really makes me feel like I'm in heaven." "Everything is resolved once I hit it." "Everything is done." "Nothing feels bad." "Sell shoes." "Sell, sell, sell." "I stole a some shoes." "Thirty pairs, women's." "I figured, 30 pairs, sell 'em at least 10 yuan each." "But I had had no idea that they wouldn't want to pay ten yuan." "Eight yuan a pair." "So many women." "Fuck, there were dozens." "And more kept crowding." "She takes one pair, you take that pair." "Six pairs were stolen just like that." "In the end, I figured I only got 194 yuan." "At eight yuan a pair, I should have made 240 yuan." "Then I looked and saw that there were six pairs left." "Why weren't those six pairs taken by anybody?" "The boxes were all empty!" "Shoes gone." "Empty boxes left." "This little fish brings me daily peace and safety." "I'll change the water later." "When you feed fish, ypu you feed it till it's full." "Then it will protect me and bless me with more work." "This one will remain effective till tonight." "No more injections today." "Once more before going to bed." "Liar." "It's true." "Why would I lie?" " I did two bags." " You rot in hell!" "Do something good." "It's a living thing, after all." "Where's the fish food?" "You sleep after shooting up?" "You don't have any bad feelings after shooting up." "I just had some pills, and shot up to smooth things out." "No bad feelings at all." "Later little boss will go and buy some stuff." "I'm finished with injecting." "My mother doesn't know If I'm alive or dead." "One day I called home, but I didn't know what to say." "Then A Jun took that little thing And sold it." "Sent 200 yuan to my mother." "I told my little sister." "Then she cried." ""Brother, can't you come back for a while?" I said I couldn't." "I didn't even see my dad as my dad." "The only one I cared about was my mother." "My mum is a good mother." "Once I broke my leg" "And couldn't move." "I called my mum," "And she transferred money to me right away." "She did it secretly." "She couldn't let my dad find out." "How is it going?" "Didn't you find them?" "Where are you now?" "I'm in E'zhangtan." "Huh?" "They went to Zhuhai?" "You couldn't find a single one?" "What's the plan?" "He said he just got back from Zhuhai." "He's lying." "What?" "Go and see for yousekf." "See who's telling the truth, and who isn't." "Nei Meng, let's go later." "Go where?" "To E'zhangtan." "This punk, this stupid cunt." "Fuck." "What's this got to do with you?" "How can it not be my business?" "I introduced them." "I need to intervene in these things as an middleman." "Pointless!" "A Jun." "What?" "I told you to go there." "Did you hear me?" "Just call him" "A fight is about to break out." "Do you understand?" "I am definitely have to make an appearance." "When the time comes, how do you tell "Fu Shun"?" "You lie about everything." "How are you going to tell him?" "Over 10 grand." "You think this is a joke?" "Have you got a chopper, Nei Meng?" "Borrow one from Xiao Wang." "It's not mine." "Why're you in the middle of this?" "What's it to do with you?" "I introduced them." "Who gives a fuck." "Just chopper both sides." "Chopper everyone." "Don't give a fuck." "Shit, grab as much money as possible." "Then leave Guangdong." "Open the door, Xiao Ge." "OK." "Damn it." "It was here." "No?" "Right, here." "What he says doesn't matter" "What else is there to say?" "I spent two and a half years with him." "I gave him money when he had none." "Hey, I'm telling you now," "I don't care what's going on between you." "If big brother will carry goods for you, or whatever." "What ever you two do is fine with me." "There's nothing going on between us." "How could anything happen between us?" "But didn't you say that stuff?" " How could anything..." " Didn't you just say that?" "No, I never did." "I gave you money when you needed it." "I helped you." "How can you say these things?" "He called me, and asked me to come over." "He said that you said all that stuff." "There's no need to say any more." "Alright, A Long." "You're alright." "Carried 300 bags at once." "Over 60 grand." "How could I pay them back?" "This makes me the bad guy in the middle." "Is it sorted out now?" "Yeah, now it's sorted." "He won't let him carry the goods any more." "That big guy won't let him." "Then what's with the chopper?" "To scare people?" "No." "If he admitted that he said that stuff," "I would've cut him!" "Hey!" "Look at this couple." "Quit!" "Quit!" "Quit!" "Quit my ass!" "Yeah?" "What's it to you?" "You go to score all the time." "Did those two shoot up last night?" "One above and one under." "Took them a long time." "Tried many times, here, and here." "Couldn't get through." "Tried many times." "They were trembling." "Rrr....." "Like this." "At midnight, around 2 o'clock," "They woke the boss up." "When he was woken up," "Daze and me, we were all awake." "Around 2 and he woke up." "He was told to get some stuff 100 yuan's worth." "He shot up here." "Took him a long time." "Daze helped him with the injection." "But he couldn't get through." "Then they had the boss help him." "Tried the arm, but failed." "Tried here, and failed again." "It was almost dawn." "If he'd seen you were here," "He wouldn't have gone to "work"." "Once you went out," "He got changed and said you would come back in a minute." "Then he didn't go." "A few days later, A Long changed his number." "The hostel was shut down soon after." "A month later, he called again and said he had something for me" "Okay, it's alright." "Oh, right." "Right here." "Yeah, right." "Okay, turn around." "Yeah, right." "Let go." "Come, get down." "Alright." "Here, here, here." "Let go." "Thank you." "Qi Bing!" "(A mahjong tile on the ground)" "A Long, those shoes are nice." "60 yuan." "Why did you give me a camera?" "Huh?" "For helping me for so long." "Look at this hole." "For so long, you've helped me." "I feel I owe you." "Come on, let's go home." "No more fighting?" "Pointless." "We hadn't spoken for 3 days," "She's come round." "Hey, can you not record this?" "Listen to your story." "I've said it all." "The story's already finished." "I'll tell you something else." "Just go ahead." "Now?" "You're recording." "Do you have more amazing stories?" "No." "A camera for you." "Don't move!" "I bought more pills." "Look, bought 6 more bottles." "I'll lie down totally this time." "This is for you." "Why?" "Huh?" "Friendship." "Memories." "I didn't steal this from someone's home." "I stole it from a shopping mall." "You really don't need to worry." "I absolutely can't take this." "You don't see me as a friend." "Really!" "You think it's about using and being used." "Then from now on..." "How about I sell it to you for 200 yuan?" "I'm telling you, if you don't take it for free," "Then I'm selling to you for 200 yuan." "If you don't accept it, then you don't see me as a friend" "From now on, you just..." "Even if you report me, I'm not afraid" "A friend of his loved it." "Loved the camera very much." "I wouldn't sell it even for 600." "Several people asked me and I refused." "Hey, from now on" "After you walk out of the door," "There's no need for us to stay in contact." "Why?" "One month later..." "Maybe my spine was broken." "My spine, ouch." "Someone kicked him." "This part." "Both my butt cheeks feel numb." "And the shoulder, too." "In the shoulder blade." "Gotta rub it with ointment." "Also in the leg." "It's like it was stabbed by a steel pipe or something." "Spray it with this thing." "Even this is stolen." "And it's actually quite useful." "Zhou Hao is the only friend I've got now." "Didn't you say that I was using you?" "I was acting irrational that day." "I was angry and acting irrational." "I later got some kind of Samsung." "Didn't even call you." "A Jun, do you think I shouln't come again?" "It won't be like this if you come again." "Come again if things get better." "Otherwise don't." "Furthermore, after I was brought into the police station," "It was probably thanks to you..." "Because I've always kept your name card on me" "And they found it," "And said, wow, you know a lot of people." "From the  Southern Weekend and  Book City," "And some kind of designer." "I said I'd always been" "A law-abiding citizen." "I was with her, the two of us." "We went for the cosmetics." "After I got out with one box," "I told her to watch out for me on the road." "And then I rented a van." "I was planning to empty the warehouse." "But unexpectedly, I was discovered by them." "Fists, iron bars, everything." "The head of Sanyuanli Police Station said" "You were lucky not beaten to death." "No way to know whether will be alive or dead tomorrow." "And apartment rent is due today." "We have a few dozen yuan left in total." "Can't afford the rent." "Because I've been staying in these days," "If you're worried that I would spend the money," "I'll ask the landlord to come by and you pay him." "Because, really, if I should lose this place," "I'd have to sleep on the street." "It doesn't matter to me." "The point is her." "It doesn't matter if I sleep by the street alone." "She's a woman." "Her sleeping on the street" "Is really not good." "What do you want me to do?" "I just want you to pay the rent for me." "I won't ask you for..." "All I want is to keep this place." "How much is the rent?" "230 yuan." "How much do you spend every day on drugs?" "On that one?" "It costs..." "Haven't bought anything in the last two days." "Spent 120 yuan today." "Due to lack of money." "Thank you." "Well, I shouldn't have handed you the cash." "I understand." "It's for your rent." "Call the landlord again." "Sorry, the phone you have called Is switched off." "Still off." "Anyway, I can't ask too much of you." "Right?" "You rely on yourself." "It's ok once or twice." "But not every time." "Because you clearly know what will become of you in the following days." "With people close to you dying one by one, As I said, if you planned to go back to Dalian," "I'd go with you," "And hand you over to your parents." "At most it would just be A bit humiliating." "At least for the rest of your life" "You'd be able to live a normal life." "Maybe very ordinary." "I won't go back if my father is still alive." "We never spoke to each other." "Not a single word." "It's definitely you who did something wrong." "Who would be this strained with his father?" "Who has to wait for his father to die to go back home?" "Since this beating and the last two," "Work hasn't been so smooth." "Three men." "A young guy." "From your home, Sichuan." "He wanted to learn this skill from me." "Then he went with me." "After breaking in, I collected all the money in the house." "I asked them to stop and get going." "But they were still collecting." "That kid was." "Camera, leather coat, anything." "We heard a sound from the door," "I said "They're back!"" "I panicked and yelled "They're back!"" "We've got nowhere to run." "I have a bad habit when breaking in." "After I get in, I lock the door from the inside." "Latch it if there is one." "In case anyone comes back suddenly." "So why do that?" "For example," "If you can't open your own door," "You'd go out and try to come up with another way in." "Then I could use this time to escape." "I looked through the peep hole." "He was trying to open it, but couldn't." "He turned around and went down." "Who knew he would have me locked in from outside." "I used tools to open the door from the inside." "Then we left." "Unexpectedly while walking..." "We left in such a hurry that we forgot to shut the door." "Then that man came up." "Seeing his door open, he knew that his home had been broken into." "Right away he..." "We walked the stairs and went straight to the parking floor." "This 20 something young guy walked faster." "But he went back to the front gate." "The security at the gate got him and spoke through radio." "At that time a security grabbed me." "I said why are you grabbing me?" "I said we were just done unloading and were about to leave." "I said if there was anything, we could go to the manager's office." "I pretended to be righteous, although in fact" "I had all the tools and money with me." "At the moment, they shouted through radio" ""Got him, got him!"" "He didn't hear it clear how many there were." "He thought all were caught." "On hearing "got him", he just let go of me." "We walked towards the gate and left on a motorbike." "She walked on the other side of the road, and in the end we spoke over the phone." "They got him." "They got "Sichuan"." "But he had nothing with him." "It seems he had a camera." "Would've been better without the camera." "I remember he put that down." "Would've been easier if he had nothing." "But I still haven't heard from him." "He was probably caught." "She was scared to tears." "I've never gone through that in my whole life." "A Jun, had you ever done this with A Long before?" "No, that was the first time." "I seldom make her go out." "How could you do it?" "Even if it was the first time." "You've gotta support your husband." "That moment, my first reaction was" "It's over!" "It's over!" "I'll never go back home." "Would never be able to face people." "How much did you get this time?" "There was 1,000 inside an envelop." "How much did you get from that?" "Over 500." "He gave the rest to The people under the overpass" "Those without money." "Everyone had his share." "Couldn't be more generous." "Every time I go there, as long as I am getting supplies," "I give each of them a bit." "Why do you help them?" "Because I feel like we suffer the same plight." " Have they ever helped you?" " No." "That's bullshit!" "You've got high status in the group." "What's the point?" "But on the other hand, who cares about you when you have nothing?" "Just like now, between you and him." "Now you're helping him out." "Just like this." "One night I got a call from a stranger, who said he'd just got out of the police station." "A man called "A Long" asked him call me and see if I can help him." "He was planning to come tomorrow morning." "He was worried that police might lock you up." "What did you swallow?" "A razor." "Otherwise he wouldn't have let me go." "At least 4 years in jail." "Took all my 2,800 yuan." "Not a penny left." "Those corrupt cunts." "How did you get the razor out?" "Huh?" "How did you get it out?" "Razor?" "Doctor said I needed an operation." "In the end he made me sign a guarantee." "I asked about my money when leaving." "He said it was stolen from others." "I said at least you should give me some for transport." "Then he gave me 5 yuan." "I said fine." "I..." "I screwed up today." "I just told him that." "The policeman might be drunk." "I was worried that, with more words," "He might throw me in again." "I had to endure this." "Take it easy, I said to myself." "When my wife told me that you were coming all the way from Panyu," "I burst into tears." "Really." "I asked her if tomorrow morning was okay." "She said from her experience, it had to be tonight." "So I came here in a hurry." "Really, on hearing her saying," "Zhou Hao is coming from Panyu," "I really couldn't help bursting into tears." "I don't what to say." "According to your experience should you worry about the razor?" "Huh?" "According to your experience what should you do?" "Tonight, I went to Dongfang Hospital." "It's not far from here." "Got an x-ray at Dongfang Hospital." "Doctor said I needed an operation immediately." "When I went back, they were afraid and released me right away." "What are you going to do without an operation?" "How can I afford one?" "She's the most important thing, you know?" "I don't care about myself." "My life is worth nothing." "Where did you get the razor?" "I carry it with me." "I bought two." "One is at home, for shaving." "The other is with me." "Happened to be of use today." "My head was hit." "Had no strength at all." "What were you doing?" "Break-in robbery or theft?" "No." "I'd just got in." "Into someone's house?" "No, an office in a hospital." "Where did the 2000 yuan come from?" "That was our own money." "We had money ourselves." "Why did they arrest you today?" "It's like this..." "I swallowed it with the paper wrap." "A small piece is left." "Under my foot." "The total haul" "Came to about 8000 yuan." "I figured it must be 5 years at least." "Even if the trial went well, it would still be 3 years in prison." "You know?" "At least 3 years." "If it was detention for 15 days," "I wouldn't have swallowed the razor." "But, sometimes I think," "I'm sure you're won't want to hear this, and neither will A Jun," "But if you were imprisoned for 2 or 3 years" " It would be a positive thing to you." " No, if it's 15 days..." "Hear me out." "You can quit drugs this way." "And then you can do something else." "You got away this time." "What about next time?" "Will you swallow another razor?" "Keep on swallowing stuff" "And one day you'll really be in trouble." "Those three years' he was locked up for drugs" "I thought it would be positive, too." "I didn't think it was an injustice." "It could save him, and make the future more bright." "It was hard, waiting for him for 3 years." "Still he came out the same as when he went in." "How dangerous is burglary?" "Aren't you afraid?" "You can't always be lucky." "It was 9 or 10 o'clock and he still hadn't returned." "My heart kept beating rapidly." "What now?" "He'll get in trouble eventually." "I've thought about that, too." "Have you ever thought of leaving him?" "Having your heart in your mouth every day." "It had occurred to me." "But then I thought, if he was alone," "Nobody to take care of him with me gone" "No one to care about him if something happens to him." "Although I can't help with much," "At least, I will care about him." "Take care of him if anything happens." "Like today, something happens unexpectedly," "It's better to have someone caring about you than nobody knowing it." "I asked her why she hadn't left you," "With her heart in her mouth from dawn to night." "I'm going downstairs to pay the rent." "How are you?" "Where're the cigarettes?" "Above your head." "Last night, took a pain killer." "After returning," "She went out again, At 1 AM, for chives." "Every time, we two," "When I come back from the police station," "We'll hug each other and cry." "Yesterday I gave her brother a call." "He asked me how A Jun was doing." "I said..." "Don't say she's with me." "I didn't." "I said it's very bad, as bad as it could get." "You can ask herself for detail." "I said that." "I didn't say anything specific." "Did you tell him you were a reporter?" "I did." "I said I met her by chance." "I wasn't sure if I could help her." "Later, she went downstairs and called home." "She cried." "She cried when she came back." "I can't be like this for ever." "Trust me, I can't." "Last time I got out of jail, I had no money, either." "How long had I been out when you first met me?" "Which month was it when we met?" "June or July." "I had just been out a few months." "4 or 5 months." "And we had a hundred or two hundred grand." "You wouldn't let me go with you when you were making money." "Didn't we invite you to dinner every day?" "You wouldn't let me go now." "A hundred grand in over a month or two." "I've still got a chance, you know." "We have everything arranged." "Care to share a bit?" "We said..." "Let me tell you, Zhou Hao." "When A Long talks, You can't tell truth from lies." "Yesterday I told him not to lie to Zhou Hao." "She said yesterday." "When speaking, tell the truth when necessary." "Because I said after all he's a reporter." "There would always be a line between us." "I think even as a reporter," "I've told you that my reason for filming is..." "To show people with all kinds of interests and lifestyles." "I don't want to film your lifestyle exclusively." "I film those rich big shots, too." "What I care about are all kinds of people, the way the live." "Of the people you used to film, few of them are alive now." "When we met in the unfinished building, I never thought... we could become so..." "I think it's some kind of fate." "You might have had an alterior motive back them," "And maybe I had one too." "It's been almost 2 years." "Life just went on like this." "When I lost contact with you, I thought" "I probably wouldn't see this man ever again." "Then later, you called me." "I went to Renhe." "So sometimes I thought it was fate." "To sell supplies in Renhe." "Now those who used to work for me" "Are now all..." "One might have..." "One might be up against a firing squad soon." "Those who used to work for him" "Have difficulty getting by now." "They worked for him and were taken down one by one." "One was trafficking hundreds grams of drugs." "400 grams." "400 grams." "He was caught in the act." "That one was very young." "In one leap, he jumped over." "Look, it's not afraid to go to you." "Get me some tissues." "Coughing blood again." "Lend me 500 yuan." "But don't ask me what for." "I will pay you back sooner or later." "Because I'm short on money." "I've only the money my brother sent me." "I'm still several hundred short." "Are you not willing to say what for?" "No, I can't say." "I'll tell you when it's done." "I don't want to talk now." "This money is borrowed from you." "It's got nothing to do with him." "Only me." "Do you think you've got a better reputation than him?" "No, that's not what I meant." "Just saying, you help me out just this time," "And I'll make sure it work." "I can't live like this any longer." "Well something has to be said upfront." "You've said it all before." "We're not dumb." "Remember this." "And so will I." "You've said it before:" ""Don't treat me like an fucking idiot."" "And I didn't treat you like a fucking idiot." "All along, whenever he asked you," "I've never said anything." "I said to her, I was crying." "I said," "I wasted ten years in Guangzhou." "My only friend was Zhou Hao." "It's still hard to say that I'm your friend." "I said that to her." "You ask her if I told her that." "Didn't you say that we were using each other?" "I did say that to you." "But I knew exactly what I was doing" "How you treated me, over some things, was clear to me." "There's stuff I couldn't say to you, but I told her." "A Jun, can you roughly tell me what the money's for?" "No, not now." "Her brother said," "Sister, you're almost 40" "Do you know that or not?" "You have no home." "What are you going to do?" "You have no kids nor a husband." "Waited and waited, waiting for a man like this." "Go down and get a pack of cigarettes." "With what?" "I've always believed that" "Women can be more fearsome than men." "Yes, I am very afraid of her." "I really do, from the bottom of my heart." "I fear her." "Sometimes I am even afraid that in the middle of the night" "She'll just cut me open." "Is the puppy done pooping?" "That's all the money I could carry." "Because I've learned from experience!" "We knew it already." "Right, I'm not stupid." "I..." "What?" "This isn't a battle of wits." "I can't fight you." "We knew it already." "What did you know?" "Tell me!" "I said he would carry 200 yuan at most." "Did he tell you that?" "That's right." "Why should I carry more?" "There wouldn't be anything left if I had more." "Go get some cigarettes." "Are you laughing or crying?" "You two knew all along that Zhou Hao would only carry 200 yuan." "That's right." "She said she wanted to borrow 500." "I said he wouldn't come here with that much." "I said every time he brought" "Maybe 200 yuan." "And hid another 100 or 200 yuan somewhere else." "You're good." "I stir it in my mouth every time, making it easier to swallow." "Don't chew too much." "Better just swallow it." "I'm not chewing at all." "Little baby, you don't feel well when daddy doesn't, right?" "Yes, baby?" "The puppy's just like a kid." "A grown-up can tell you where it hurts." "A kid can't." "What's up, baby?" "Why won't you eat or drink?" "It doesn't eaten anything these days." "Hmm, baby?" "Feed it another pill." "A half." "Over here." "That afternoon, we were in a store." "He said he needed to go out." "I said I'd go along with him." "He said, "You're not going out, wait for me here."" "I sat in the store." "People were playing cards and no one was talking." "I went back to the hostel." "Later I went back to the store to wait for and look for him." "The owner said, "Your husband was looking for you just now."" ""He couldn't find you and left."" "There was no goodbye." "Anyway, everything has been different since he got out of jail." "Everything's changed." "He's become someone else." "And is becoming more and more like a stranger to me." "It's like living with someone else." "Not the person he was before." "Do you know that in Guangzhou" "There's that place, "Mingri Sauna"." "I want to work there." "They won't let you leave for 24 hours." "A whole day." "You'll work as a sauna mistress?" "You go there." "First they train you." "Then after training you work." "You're not allowed to leave for 24 hours." "No matter if you want to work in a sauna, or wherever," "You need connections." "You can't just go in by yourself." "The people we know have nothing to do with this business." "I don't know any sauna owners." "I can only hook you up with a cleaning position." "You wouldn't want to do that." "I don't know people in the sauna business." "I'm not sure what I can do for you." "I just want to ask you for another 100 yuan, is that OK?" "My apartment rent is overdue." "If I continue to give you money, will you still get heroin?" "I don't do that." "Not any more." "Zhou Hao, you must give me this 100 yuan." "Please give it to me." "I've got an inflamed throat." "I have difficulty swallowing." "Try to work yourself out yourself." "Because you need to get by without me." "My only wish is that she quits and recovers." "My greatest wish." "I'm exhausted." "What a day." "When she came, my mum said that her beautiful girl" "Had turned into a mess in your hands." "Your family blamed everything on me." "Everything was my fault." "Because I've lost all my will to fight, you know?" "I used to have strong will to fight." "Then why are you like this now?" "Haven't you asked yourself?" "Of course there's a reason." "If there's a reason then you should sort it out." "I'm a very independent woman, I'll can tell you." "Independent?" "Don't curl your lips here." "If you were independent, you wouldn't have gone to Zhou Hao three times" "I didn't know about it." "Just found out today." "Just like a bridge that used to be sound," " But suddenly collapsed in the middle." " What?" " Broken mirrors..." " How many you want?" " Sometimes it's a paradox." " How much do you offer?" "Hey listen, I don't run a big business." "Why would you make a shield if there were no spears?" "Why can't I be independent?" "It seems you guys will never be satisfied." "Do you know how much each costs?" "You owe me 65 yuan, but I'll cut it down to 50." "He spent 3 years in jail." "But it was like he was out" "The days I spent together with him" "You must pay me 55 if I go over there." "Only add up to a year and a half." "Hello." "The rubbish dump." "At the rubbish dump." "Fine fine." "He's at the dump, for safety reasons." "Who's that?" "You should know him when you see him." "Is he helping you?" "It's not who's helping whom." "We're helping ourselves." "It's the same as helping himself." "He doesn't want to work alone." "Do you make enough money for yourselves?" "Yeah, just enough." "Not much left over." "Enough for food?" "There's enough." "We make a bit, it's not too bad." "How much is your profit?" "In one day?" "Do you make a profit on half a bag?" "I can make 4 or 5 yuan each bag." "How much is a bag?" "15 a bag." "So you make 5 yuan?" "The cost is 9 to 10 yuan." "How much does a bag contain?" "A bag?" "1 gram into 32 bags." "It can go for 470." "I get it for 280." "I can make over 100 yuan." "Sometimes they don't pay enough." "You have to give it to him if he pays 13 yuan." "Have to if you want to make money." "Do you add anything to it?" "I do." "D powder." "I just want to grab this opportunity." "In life, people have many opportunities." "But for me, I have zero." "This could be the only one." "Where did the opportunity come from?" "This one's from a friend of my old friend." "I'd met him a few times when I went to see my friend." "I'd pretended not to see him." "Because we used to have the same status in this scene." "That's why I didn't want to go to him." "Still got no money after coming back." "After thinking it over, I shamelessly went to him." "When I went to him, he saw me like this." "He had heard stories about me before." "From others." "Because in this scene," "Who's succeeding, who's failing, who's depraved, who's..." "Words spread quickly." "He said, "I heard stories about you long ago."" ""Why didn't you come to me earlier?"" "I said, "Everyone needs a reputation."" ""Everyone needs self respect."" "Then he bought me a pack of cigarettes." "I figured then that the fastest path" "For me is to sell this stuff." "The fastest way to get back on my feet." "He asked about my thoughts." "I said I just wanted to sell this." "Now I just want some money." "Because I've got no time." "Others have families and kids." "I don't even have a kid." "Got no successors." "No matter if you're a good or bad person, everyone needs a kid." "I lost contact with A Long again." "He changed his number at least 5 or 6 times since I met him." "He could get to me, but I couldn't get to him." "A Jun still calls me sometimes." "(A Jun):" "On the day before New Year's Day," "We had a fight." "Lasted a whole afternoon." "He came back home in the evening." "I cooked some noodles and there went the New Year's Eve." "Bought half a chicken, and cooked some noodles." "He disappeared on New Year's Day." "When he left, he emptied my wallet." "Not a penny left." "He left me like this." "That day I went to Tancun, the place for supply," "I asked others." "They said he had come over yesterday afternoon." "That should be about time." "You waited for him downstairs." "I was downstairs." "I was thinking about whether wait or not." "And I figured not to." "I turned around and didn't wait." "It's like I've been waiting my whole life." "It's all about this word, "waiting"." "Waiting forever." "Those who were closest to him," "Even his relatives, he broke their hearts throughly." "He told me he had swallowed the razor." "And the next day..." "What are you standing here for?" "How could I tell that he was lying?" "After you came, he used the syringe" "To draw blood from his body and put it in the mouth." "So I doubted what he said." "He was lying." "He told me he did get caught." "And did swallow a razor." "He drew some blood and put it in his mouth?" "Yeah." "But he was talking to me all the time." "Pah, he was good at acting." "Don't you think he's always been good at it?" "He should've been an actor." "A real pity he wasn't." "Do you hate him?" "Doesn't matter now." "Hating him won't make a difference." "He used to do business here." "A few years ago in Guangzhou." "He was divorced in September last year" "He's got two sons." "The elder one is going to college." "I didn't mention those things to him." "He just knows I had a boyfriend." "He said something like this." "He said, "I don't want to know much about your past."" ""I probably can guess most of it."" ""You didn't have it easy."" "Anyway, he said, "I don't have much money right now."" ""But I won't let you suffer that much."" "Once you've left, will you ever come back?" "It's actually quite easy to come back." "If he drives by Guangzhou," "I can go with him." "But I don't want to." "What's your plan back home?" "Back home?" "Picking apples!" "I was defrauded there." "I really was." "I believed it too easily, indeed." "Besides, when he gave me the thing," "He didn't make it clear what was inside." "It wrapped in layers." "Like a satchel any normal guy would have." "Because of the layers, I had absolutely no idea." "Besides, from my buying the satchel to leaving by bus," "It was only 2 or 3 hours." "Within 2 or 3 hours," "If I were to pack, I definitely couldn't..." "That satchel was re-made all over." "Know what I mean?" "Don't talk about the case!" "I know, I know." "Received the indictment already." "Probably go to court in mid-November." "Gonna see the appointed attorney next week." "In my point of view, currently" "It's just between life or death." "Life sentence if not death penalty." "It's lucky that you paid a visit." "This video clip, and those I shot before," "I'm gonna release it." "What's your opinion?" "I have no opinion." "I ended up like this." "You followed me till today." "How to put it?" "Because I'm not the only one on drugs in this society." "Maybe there are a lot more." "Would you be against it if I put it on air?" "I'm okay with it as long as it was broadcast in Guangdong TV." "So long as not in your hometown." "So your parents won't see it, right?" "Yeah." "I've made you a promise." "No matter if I end up well or bad," "Even if I..." "Or if I die, I will give you an answer." "I had thought about texting you about my arrest." "What can I do for you?" "You've already helped me a lot." "The only thing I'm asking you for is" "That you comfort my family." "My dad, my mum, my sister, and such." "As for A Jun," "I was merely a passer-by in her life." "No point reminiscing about that." "Not worth it." "Nothing to be concerned about." "Did you ever loved her?" "I did." "You're 37 years old now, A Long." "You regret anything?" "Me?" "My regret is that in the beginning I shouldn't have left home." "That's my biggest regret." "I wanted a family." "It felt good to have a family." "Very sweet." "Even if in the end I made a mistake trafficking drugs, I don't regret it." "I was forced to." "But, there is a saying" ""You have no freedom in this world"" "In my heart, I'm truly fond of kids." "I've been in the society for decades." "For twenty years I always wanted to start a family." "But often some things..." "Perhaps I'm extremely rebellious." "So I've never had a good opportunity" "To, in the end, start things going." "Probably like people said, I'll die alone." "Perhaps that's society's payback." "In this society, ..." "Enough!" "Enough!" "Time's up..." "I'm taking this path, bye bye!" "Huh?" "Yeah I can jump down" "It'll make a perfect scene for you." "In April 16th, 2006, Ruili, Yunnan Province, A Long was arrested on a bus." "He was carrying a satchel." "In its inside layer," "Police found 680 grams of heroin." "November 30th, 2006, he was tried at the Intermediate People's Court in Dehong." "In the first instance, A Long was sentenced to death for drug trafficking..." "January, 2007, the High People's Court withdrew the authority of approval of the death penalty," "And announced that that death penalty should be reduced and used with caution." "April, 2007, A Long was re-sentenced to death with reprieve." "According to China's current laws, A Long will remain in jail for at least 14 years."