"Bye." "I..." "I want to be alone... with my wife." "I'm a selfish S.O.B." "I..." "I never got you to rio." "There was always... one more problem at the stores." "You deserve better than that." "I love you." "I always have." " I'm ready." " It's okay." "I know..." "Somebody..." "Help her!" "Help her! 54-year-old woman with acute respiratory failure." "or tracheal lesions." "Tox screen was clean for coke and amphetamines." "one for each pound that caused the apnea which enflamed the epiglottis." "Why is our rainbow coalition missing brown and bi?" "and kutner's dog's sick." "He should be in by lunch." "No apnea because no sleeping problems when she's sleeping." "She spent the last six months caring for her husband who's dying of heart failure." "Reason 31--whatever whacked the husband's heart is also whacking her airway." "good." "I thought maybe kutner was home nursing the rib you broke when you elbowed your way in for credit on the last patient." "I contributed." "And the patient's illness wasn't caused by her husband unless lung cancer's contagious." "Interesting." "Not about the patient." "That was kinda dull. except you're doing it out of guilt instead of love." "just before her husband got sick." "Could've picked up melioidosis from one of the islands." "Would have jumped to the husband and finished off him and his lame immune system." "no bacteria." "Leaves viral-- varicella zoster." "Start her on iv fluids and acyclovir." "Can'T." "She's demanding to be released so she can get home to her husband." "How sweet." "They can die together." "40 years apart." "She claims he got stronger as soon as she stopped br" "The mind can heal the body." "Seeing his wife in distress might have actually slowed down his death." "Or he just had an adrenaline surge when he saw his chance to hit the singles' market." " Send her home." " We don't need to." "I had an idea... all by myself." " Eddie?" " Found him loitering in the lobby." "You're still with me." "Where the hell else am I gonna go?" "we'd like to try to make you better." "The pageant starts in an hour." "You have to do something." "There's something wrong inside her head." "It's like she has no idea what's going on around her." "I thought she was just flirting with me." "but it's gonna cost you... $3.75." "I'm not just gonna give you my coffee." "Think of it as costa rican sober juice." "She's drunk?" "That little minty scent hiding beneath the rose petal perfume and the cherry blossom moisturizer and the morning dew hair spray." "You sneak into mommy's bathroom and gulp some of her mouthwash?" "Gotta be perfect." "You spit it out?" "Mommy doesn'T." "Treatment worked." "Charlotte's breathing's back to normal." "She's being discharged." "She can resume her vigil over her husband who started fading again." "lose some." "win some." "Look at the time." "It's half past "taub was lying about kutner." "spent the night at some wonder woman's lair." " I'm sure he'll" " Find out what or who he's doing." "cuddy's gonna want me to write it under "reason for termination." " That kutner?" " Charlotte." "02 sat and s-t are normal." "It's not her airway." " You're okay." " Don't worry about me." "She's in pain." "Pulse is rabid and regular." " No fluid in her lungs." " What's happening?" "I don't know." "Kutner." "It's foreman and thirteen." "Where are you going?" "House didn't ask us to find out where he wasn'T." "If you wanna climb a fifth floor fire escape..." "This might be faster." "Kutner." "Man/boy heaven." "Surprised he ever leaves." "There's nothing on his calendar." "His pager's still here." "god." "apartmen5c." "28-year-old male." "Single gunshot wound to the right temple." "No pulse!" "Alert princeton plainsboro." "Have a trauma unit ready." "His pupils dilated." "His head's swollen." "kutner!" " Let me try." "He's cold." "Eric!" "He didn't say anything... to any of you." "Family problems... financial pressures?" "His parents were shot right in front of him." "Parents are ancient history." "Not to someonewho actually cares." "He didn't slit his wrists and... peacefully drift away--he shot himself." "He didn't leave a note." "That means panic." "Which could have been preempted if the idiots who worked alongside him for 80 hours a week had seen this coming." "You're blaming us?" "Just trying to figure it out." "We would have helped himif he had reached out to us." "He didn'T." "We should have picked up on something." "This isn't our fault!" "Something like 25% of suicidal people show no outward signs of depression." "No." "25% of suicidal people have friends who didn't notice anything and don't want to feel guilty." "makes kutner an idiot." "no." "That's what you wanna tell yourself." "two." "one who should be worsening." "You can't be in denial about kutner and the husband." "It's possible eddie's body is willing itself to live." "call the tabloids." "Tell them you just witnessed the miracle of slightly increased kidney function." "Maybe we should pass this file off to another doctor." "And the next one too?" "The one after that?" "How many files till it's okay that kutner's dead?" "Cardiac enzymes means she didn't have a heart attack." "No vision problems means no mitochondrial disease." "acidosis." "Blood ph was normal." "Polyserositis would inflame the membranes near her epiglottis causing the chest pain." "I'm sorry. which I'm sure none of you will take." "But just know it's available." "Polyserositis fits." "Start her on indomethacin." " If you'd rather not deal with this case..." " I'm fine... despite what wilson will say." "He hasn't come to you?" "Pretty sure he has mah-jongg tuesday mornings." "I assume he thinks I will work through this better if I don't have to keep flicking his wings off my shoulder." "You didn't even have an inkling?" "I know his fantasy football team cratered." "Figured he'd gotten over it." "Well... sorry for your loss." "Thanks." "But it's not my loss." "Then I'm sorry you don't think it is." "Patient's membranes aren't gonna heal themselves." "Taub went to run the treatment." "We'd like to go see kutner's parents." "I'll join you." "Polyserositis damages the protective covering around tissue and organs." "but it should fix it." "Just make the pain stop." "Charlotte... close your eyes." "Now... pretend you... finally made it down to rio." "You're on the balcony of A... some fancy hotel." "You never talk like this." "just... shut up and let me do this." "and you're watching the mardi gras." "It's called carnival." "And I don't wanna go without you." "I want you to." "And I want it to be everything you've ever dreamed of." "Sorry to interrupt... but I'd like to run one more test... on you." "This is the first daywe got him." "He was six." "Sweetest little boy you ever met." "Must have been scary... going through a trauma and then being handed off to a new family." "but it was always mr." "And mrs." "Kutner." "we gave him a chemtry set." "Lawrence always loved blowing things up." "dad." "That's who we were from then on." "He was pretty special." "We were lucky to have him." "You spent the most time with him." "He spoke so highly of all of you." "Do you have any idea?" "Wish we did.We all" "It was his name." "didn't know where he fit in." "Being ripped out of his world and stuck into yours." "We encouraged him to hold on to his heritage." "It's hard to still be lawrence choudhary when everyone sees you as lawrence kutner." "It was his idea to take our name." " Then you should have said no." " House." "All his anglo name gave him was the illusion that he was someone he wasn't." "not rational." "You didn't understand him." "you son of a bitch." "You wanted to make him happy by shutting out his pain." "you assumed the pain had gone." "It just got buried deeper... leaving him tormented about who he was until finally he put a bullet" "House!" "Go back to the hospital." "I'm sorry about your son." "Indomethacin had no effect." "She's still in pain." "Rules out polyserositis." "I ran a hormone panel on eddie." "His prolactin's above normal." "Means he's actually improving." "Body chemistry changes for all sorts of reasons-- fear--why not love?" "But maybe he's going into some sort of remission." "You haven't asked if I learned anything relevant from the kutners." "I'm sure you'd have mentioned it." "Or you're just afraid there is something relevant." "Which would mean you could have saved him." "I don't buy that suicide is always a cry for help." "Sometimes you just don't want help." "Good thing you got some... or you'd have tried again and gotten it right." "She doesn't have wegener'S." "Kidney function's normal." "It's not byssinosis." "It's not mitral valve stenosis." "Nothing fits." "If it doesn't fit any diagnosis... it just leaves one diagnosis." "I'm dr." "House." "You have hypertrophic cardiomyopathy." "His heart is too weak." "Yours is too strong." "Good news is it's fixable." "We induce a massive heart attack and kill off the extra muscle." "You wanna give me a heart attack?" "It's only dangerous if your heart is normal size." " But since all the" " Are you serious?" "No. and I'm getting really bored of lying to patients to scare them into telling me the truth." "She's faking." "I'm going to eventually do something that will kill her." "How could she be... the wind pipe thing?" "That was real." "Treatment made her better." "so she made herself bad." "It's all so simple." "the longer you'd hang on." "Charlotte?" "We haven't been this close for years." "I wanted to hang onto that." "please." "People hate reruns." "It's my leg." "I swear this is real!" "or you just plain swear?" "Because" "How can she fake that?" "She can't." "So... what can shred an epiglottis and make muscle disappear?" "Mr. And mrs." "Kutner." "They caused kutner's death." "Why not charlotte's?" "Mourning period's over." "Foreman's sense of irony is back." "I was wrong about the ethnic reason." "Step one--change your name back." "move to bangalore." "kill yourself." "So what now--you gonna insult your way through his rolodex till you find someone with an answer?" "all of whom were useless." "They weren't useless." "They just didn't know anything more than we did." "tomah-to." "compromises nerve conduction." "the one who's still alive." "stick her in an mri." "Confirm M.S." "And you run the echo on eddie that you're planning to do behind my back toee if his heart's improving." "Did you let me hire a pervert?" "it would hypoitical of me not to." "Kutner's police background check from when he started." "He was charged with indecent exposure." "Kutner streaked at the penn-dart mouth football game." "Precisely the kind of thing you'd expect him to do." "It's okay." "You should be upset." "pushed boundaries like you." "If he thought like me... he wouldave known that living in misery sucks marginally less than dying in it." "then we'll get you back to eddie." "30 years with the same man?" "I hope." "You don't think he loves you?" "I think he always loved me in his way." "Just not in the "spend time with me or show emotion or any affection for me"sort of way." "Why did you stay?" "I didn't need him to feel about me the way I did about him." "Love... doesn't..." "Charlotte?" "I've heard stories of cancer patients going into spontaneous remission." "You think this might be that sorof thing?" "but you never know." "If I just had a little more time... try and do better by her." "maybe." "You don't think I mean it." "I think you mean it now." "I think it's much easier to mean it than to do anything about it." "Chamber walls are barely moving." "I'm sorry." "He needs a friend." "I can't... deal with this and house." "You need a friend too." "You couldn't give a crap what I need." "You just want someone to take care of him." "He told kutner's parents it was their fault." "Ruptured spleen." "Means it's not M.S." "What are you doing here?" "Waiting for you to fix her spleen so we can biopsy it for rheumatoid arthritis." "I'll do it." "Go home." "She's not your patient." "And kutner wasn't my friend." "Kutner wanted to die." "Charlotte doesn't." "she wins." "either you're a cold-hearted bastard or you're too miserable to face it." "Go home and cry." "It's not rheumatoid arthritis." "Her liver's scarred." "it's spreading." "I'm uncomfortable violating a dead colleague's dignity." "It's only violating it if you find something." "Good to see you." "What are we looking for?" "He was hiding." "Why?" "Shame?" "Fear?" "Are you okay?" "It's okay not to be okay." "Colonial warrior blaster." "Number one one." "He'd have spent months tracking this down." "He had passions." "He was obviously in pain." "Does it really matter why?" "He hung the bad with the good." "His loss beside a reminder of what he'd gained." "Means he was open about the pain." "he had no reason to hide it." "house." "We're gonna leave here and go to the closest bar and drink and tell stories about the time kutner almost blew up an O.R." "And pass out in our own sick." "Sound like a plan?" "What am I missing?" "You've got that look." "You figured this out." "You're not here because you care about kutner." "You're here because it's a mystery." "You're here for the puzzle." "What if I didn't miss anything... 'cause there's nothing to miss?" "He didn't kill himself." "He was murdered. which is operating at 20% and deteriorating fast." "Autoimmune hepatitis?" "Did you page foreman?" "Took up cuddy's offer of time off." "Normal thyroid means no hepatitis." "tissue" "Her muscles wouldn't have atrophied." "You run the echo on the husband?" "Heart's still failing." "The improvement was only temporary." "house." "So..." "less time proving why hubby isn't dead." "More time proving why kutner is." "Motives for murder." "House... it was a suicide." "The police have already investigated." "not what they didn't saw." "pizza delivery guy." "And draft foreman." " He can make calls through his tears." " No. who apparently called my boss instead of me to say he wasn't coming in?" "'Cause it's really not fair to have that much subtext in one syllable." "We all wanna know why kutner did it." "But we're not gonna waste time chasing ghosts." "You're not remotely curious?" "Only why a man who embraces the rational is suddenly pursuing the irrational." "She could have alpha-1anti-trypsin deficiency." "Run her aat proteins." "I'd like to be with eddie." "It's too soon after your surgery." "right?" "Even if the donor bank turned them down?" "but there are a lot of other factors..." " blood type-- - I've given him blood." " It's not just" " Please." "I want you to give him my heart." "This isn't over yet." "For me." "isn't it?" "Yes." "Remy hadley." "I also answer to thirteen." "I sometimes sleep with you." "I know I should have called." " I just need some time." " Alone?" "I've worked through a lot of bad stuff in my life." "Always done it solo." "So I should go." " I'm sorry." " Okay." "I.T.'S been trying to close out kutner's email account." "someone's still logged onto it." "It wasn't hard to figure out that his password was kutner." "He did what they tell you not to." " He wasn't murdered." " But his parents were." "And the guy who killed them is coming up for parole." "He's coming up for parole." "He's not o on parole." "Kutner testified at every one of his hearings." "The guy wouldn't be the first to see the clock ticking." "He was killed by his own gun." "obviously for self-defense." "In the temple." "Cops found residue." "the murderer would never try to make it look like suicide-- that would be unethical." "You haven't asked about my patient." "You're waiting on aat protein results." "Means you checked up to see that I'm still on it." "but you won't because you think it's the only thing that's holding me together." "Relax." "Either I'm right or I'm wrong." "We'll know soon enough." "Find what's killing your patient... and then I'll find you another patient." "What happened?" "Nurses found her like this." "She broke into the cart and injected whatever she could grab." "Dumb way to look worse for eddie." "She wasn't trying to look worse." "She was trying to kill herself." "but whatever was left of her liver is definitely shot now." "And there's no change in eddie. she's dead in 24 hours if she doesn't get a new ler." "It was selfless." "She loves him." "How does that disagree with what I just said?" "Test was negative for aat deficiency." "but testing takes at least 48 hours." "We should try a partial donation from a live donor." "Damage is too severe." "She needs a whole new liver." "no liver." "no living." "What do you know?" "It is myelofrosis." "Says so right here." "Who wants to tell cuddy?" "How many times have you lied to the transplant committee?" " Just twice." " How many times has it worked?" "I... don't quite see how that's relevant." "Cheese it." "It's the coppers." "We're not just gonna leave them to die while you fixate on kutner." "he's not our patient." "So I'm really only leaving her to die." "We've already explored the usual options." "Shouldn't we at least explore unusual ones?" "Absolutely." "Don't worry." "This is why god gave me two ears." "Kutner would say we should just come clean with cuddy." "If only he were here to say that. the dead guy won't mind if we're wasting" "Need an incurable romantic to talk to incurable romantic." "Kutner wasn't murdered." "You deduce that by removing your sun glasses to the strains of a who song?" "Suicide means you could have helped him." "Murder lets you off the hook." "Needs a liver." "Has a liver." "He can make a partial donation." "the faster she gets to not die." "Partial won't be enough." "She needs a whole liver." "And he'd never survive the procedure." "huh?" "and you give her his whole liver." "he's gonna do this for love." "I thought he should talk to someone who spoke the language." "You want me to die on the table." "We don't want you to." "Your wife needs you to." "My heart?" "Is still dying." "You have a couple days at most." "But this could buy use enough time to save her." "When can I say good-bye?" "You can't." "would she be okay?" "She'll resent me." "She'll be alive." "Nothing else matters." "You can't do the transplant." "Only if he said no." "But your urgent hovering means he said yes." "His fingers have nodules." "I think his doctors misdiagnosed him." "Or you sprinkled too much wishful thinking in your tea." "Obese man with lung cancer-- two easy explanations for his heart failure." "somethg curable." "Go back to the E.R." "My thanks to you and your cold feet." "What's going on?" "I'm giving you a shot at a cool result-- a chance to prove other doctors idiotic." "Except you're wrong." "You figure that out by taking f your sunglasses to the strains of a who song?" "The guy who killed kutner's parents died of an aneurism two months ago." "Kutner hid from everyone." "You didn't get a chance to save him--no one did." "Run the tests." "Find out if you have a chance to save eddie." "Bad news." "Love can't save you." "On the other hand... mold can." "Your heart failure was caused by a fungal infection called cardiac blastomycosis." "mistook for cancer." "very curable." "I'm starting you on itraconazole." "But how come I was getting better without the medicine?" "Your emotional state bumped your catecholamines which helped raise your prolactin." "My emotional state?" "chiseled self." "I don't want the treatment." "Do the transplant." "But you'd be trading... the certainty that you'll live for the uncertainty that she'll live." "I was ready to di anyway." "Now you get to be nicer to your next wife." "If you won't do it... release me. you can give her my liver then." "You're basically asking us to commit murder." "I was yesterday too." "There's a difference when he has 20 years to live instead of two days." "Not really." "Not legally." "by saying it's no more immoral?" "The idiot is gonna do this with or without us." "This way we can protect the organ." "We should be protecting him." "wait till his wife dies?" "I'm not doing this." "I will." "We've already had one pointless death." "Eddie... what's going on?" "I don't know." "He just came and got me." "but he wants to die so he can give you his liver." "or would you rather he take the treatment?" "You son of a bitch!" "don't!" " You have to let me do this." "can you hear me?" "She spiked a fever." "Lp shows her white cells through the roof." "She's infected everywhere." "I should fire you." "Just did what you failed to do-- convince eddie to live and let his wife die." "Infection means we have a new clue." "A a full two or three hours to figure it out." "Sarcoidosis hits the spleen and the liver." "She would have lung issues." "Scleroder ma inflames the tissue." "No skin or gi problems." " What is she hiding?" " You don't know" "Either we have all the clues and we're idiots or we don't have all the clues." "places." "Both." "Bad lie." "Did you really think the beaches in hawaii were just like the beaches in rio?" "The disease bearing sand flies are completely different." "She's never been to rio." "Who'd you go with?" "Why are you doing this?" "I don't actually need to know who it was." "I just need to know that you went... so we can know that you have visceral leishmaniasis." "But since lancelot therewas ready to die for you... he might wantthe answer to both." "Last year... it was nobody you knew." "Rio was supposed to be ours." "I got tired of waiting." "I'm so sorry." "Start her on antimony." "And have cuddy find her a liver." "They were ready to die... not love." "You can't feel that much guilt without love." "New york mercy's medevacing the liver." " It should be here..." " Tell 'em to turn around." "Charlotte's treatment isn't taking." "We diagnosed it too late." "Everyone's heading over to kutner's funeral." "You're welcome to ride with me." "I'm gonna stay with charlotte." "She bought you some time to save eddie." "It'll give her death some meaning." "No." "It won'T." "I w wrong about you." "you weren't." " You're in pain." "And you're romanticizing... again." "and you never saw this coming." "No one saw it coming." "But you see everything coming." "This has never been about what you missed." "This is about why you missed it." "losing... who you are." "And I'm terrified of what you'd do then." "Unless you feel there's more to do here to cure me... don't you have a funeral to go to? * I'm taking a ride off to one side * it is a personal thing * where when I can't stand" "* up in this cage I'm not regretting" "* I don't need a better thing" "* I'll settle for less * it's another thing for me" "* I just have to wander through this world * alone" "* stop before you fall * into the hole that I have dug here even as you * are startin' to feel the way I used to" "* I don't need a better thing * just to sound confused" "* don't talk about everyone" "* I am not amused by you * 'cause I'm gonna lose ya" "I'm gonna lose ya * if I'm gonna lose ya" "* 'cause I'm gonna lose ya" "I'm gonna lose ya * if I'm gonna lose ya" "* I'll lose you now for good 0000"