"I'll tell you the story of my journey." "Where I went, how I got there, and what I saw along the way." "I thought I was going to change the world." "But, of course, it was the world that changed me." "We need a doctor!" "Please help!" " You can't be in here." " Please!" " We need help." " Here." "This way." "This way." " They can't be in here!" " It's all right." " What happened to him?" " Drill bit broke loose." " Hang on, Sam." " Hold on." "You're gonna be all right." " You'll be all right, Sam." " Help me, please." " They don't belong here." " What are you doing?" " He's bleeding to death." " He can't be in here!" "Help me!" " What is going on?" " Doctor, he has a deep puncture." "This man is in the wrong hospital." "He doesn't have time for the right one." " Get him out of here." "Quickly!" " He's bleeding to death!" " He's bleeding!" " This isn't right!" "Move it!" "Move it!" "Get him out!" " What is wrong with you?" " Take him down the back stairs." "This way." "It gives me great pleasure to introduce our speaker and friend," "Dr Jude Gresham." "Thank you." "Eastern Anatolia is a rugged country." "Its people are poor but hard-working." "For them, modern medicine is a revolutionary concept." "You might have changed out of that uniform." " Sorry." "I didn't have time." " Shh!" "That is why the work of the American Mission Hospital in Van is so vitally important." "For many people in the region, our hospital offers the only medical care available." "People come from hundreds of miles around." "And the only reason we are able to provide for them is because of generous donations from open-hearted Christians like yourselves." "There are impediments, of course." "Eastern Anatolia can be a place of unspeakable violence and transgression." "But it is also a place of fierce spirit." "And the people who have survived there..." "When I first came to Van as a newly graduated doctor, my plan was to stay a year, do my service, and then come back to the States and open a prosperous practice." "Well, that was eight years ago." "I didn't intend for it to happen, but once I got to know these people and live among them," "I knew I would never leave." "Thank you." " Sounds like a whirlwind." " It has been a whirlwind." "I've been visiting hospitals in various cities, catching up on the latest advancements in modern medicine." "It's true." "Medical science has been making amazing advances." "If only we could advance the thinking of the doctors." " Lillie..." " How do you mean, miss?" "Yesterday, a man was turned away from the hospital where I work because his skin was the wrong colour." "Dr Gresham, I have to apologise for our daughter." "I assure you, Miss Rowe, no one has ever been turned away from our hospital due to the colour of their skin or their religious beliefs." "That would be against everything we believe in." "Dr Gresham, I'd like to show you something." "Isn't it beautiful?" " It's very handsome." " It was my brother's." "He was training to be a doctor when he died." " I'm sorry, Miss Rowe." " I want to donate it to your mission." " Hm..." " You can use a truck, can't you?" "Of course." "And I appreciate the offer." "But there's no way to get this to our hospital." "Why not?" "Well, for one thing, the railroad only goes a third of the way and the roads are just rough trails cut through the mountains." "Goat paths, really." "I'll find a way to get it there." "I want it to serve a purpose." "Are you sure it isn't you that wants to serve a purpose, Miss Rowe?" "I suppose I'm looking for something, some way to contribute." "Well, whatever that is, I'm sure you'll find it." "I hope we meet again one day." "I hope so too." "Europe's on the verge of war." "There's no guarantee that the truck or the medical supplies would ever reach Dr Gresham's hospital." "What if I took them myself?" "What do you mean?" "Sail to Istanbul and make sure they get the rest of the way." " What, deliver them in person?" " Yes." "Lillie, your heart's in the right place, but this journey, it's far too dangerous." "Oh, it's unimaginable." "Out of the question." "A young woman on her own in that part of the world." "No." "I've already made the arrangements." " You did what?" " I've already booked the passage for myself and the supplies." "I used my inheritance from Grandmother." " Lillie, it's not a matter of money." " You're 23 years old." "All your friends are married and raising families." "Now, up until now, we've indulged your whims." " Whims?" " Nursing school." "Your work with the poor." "Lillie, it's time to settle down, not run away to the other side of the world." "I'm sorry, dear." "We cannot possibly allow this." "Absolutely not." "I love you both." "But this is something I have to do." "Lillie?" "Lillie?" " Miss Rowe?" " Hm-hm?" " Your goods will be unloaded shortly." " Thank you, Thomas." "Sir?" "Sir?" "Excuse me?" "Ignore him." "Keep moving." "I'm sorry?" "Special "welcome to Istanbul" greeting." "He drops the brush, you pick it up, and suddenly you're getting the most expensive shoeshine in the world." "I'm sorry, sir." "I'm all right, thank you." " Thank you." " You're welcome." " Are you American?" " Yes." "I..." "I wanted to see the mosque." "Could you tell me how to get there?" "Well, I could." "It might be easier if I just show you." "Come on." "You don't want to miss the most beautiful mosque in Istanbul, do you?" "Come on!" "Take off your shoes and cover your hair." "It's like being inside God's thoughts." "It appears our time inside God's thoughts has come to an end." "Goodbye." "Thank you, Mr...?" "Lieutenant Ismail Veli of the Ottoman Imperial Army." "When I'm not playing tour guide to young American ladies." "Lillian Rowe." "Well..." "I hope your visit to my country is a pleasant one, Miss Rowe." "Pleasant but brief." "There's a war coming." "I'm sorry, Miss Rowe, but I can no longer guarantee delivery." "The Ottoman Empire may be entering a state of war any day now." "Goods intended for the American missions are being detained." "Your only choice is to return home." "I didn't come this far just to turn around now." "There may be one way in which you can obtain permission." "Yes?" "You would need to find a military escort." "Uncle, this is ridiculous." "The American girl requested you by name." "Think of it as an opportunity." "An opportunity?" "This hospital is in the middle of nowhere." "Once this war begins, Russia will try to expand its borders into Anatolia." "The question is whether the Armenians in the region will stand with the empire or join the Russians against us." "Ah." "So you want me to be a spy?" "Let us be honest with each other." "Your name and your charm have carried you this far." "But now it's time for you to prove yourself." "All right." "I just don't know when I'll be back." "We'll see." "Lieutenant Veli." "I can't thank you enough for your help." "Actually, Miss Rowe, it's I who should be thanking you." "This is a great opportunity to put aside my military career and help you drag your boxes and your ridiculous truck to the edge of nowhere." "Lieutenant Veli." "I am sorry if this trip interferes with your grand plans for yourself, but given that your countrymen are in desperate need of medical help, you might think about their needs instead of your own." "Erm..." "You can't be here." "Miss Rowe!" "Miss Rowe!" "There are customs here." "You need to observe them if you're going to get along." "Thank you, Lieutenant, for pointing that..." " You shouldn't wander off." " I'm perfectly fine." "Is that Mount Ararat where Noah landed?" "Yes." "We call it Agri Dagi." "Agri Dagi." "Noah and the Great Flood." "Adam and Eve." "You know, it's also part of the Islamic culture." " Really?" " Hm-hm." " Adam and Eve?" " Hm-hm." "Only in the Islamic telling, they weren't driven out of the garden." "They were placed in different parts of the world, so they had to search to find each other." "Please stay close." "Wake up." "Wake up." "Whatever happens, don't show yourself." "Hide!" "We're bringing medical supplies to the American Mission Hospital." "It's just medicine and bandages and supplies for people in need." "Your boots." "Your boots are army." "They're just boots." "Drop the rifle, Turk." "I know who you are, soldier." "The question is, am I going to kill you?" "Or will my Christian conscience prevent me?" "Hey!" "Shall we kill this Turkish dog?" "Get in!" "Go, go, go!" "Let's go!" "Let's go!" "Yah!" "Yah!" "Get him!" "I can't control it!" "Come on!" "Miss Rowe, we are lucky." " Lucky?" " Yes." "I lost the medical supplies." "I lost the truck." "My brother's truck." "They would have taken those things anyway." " One more thing they would have taken." " And what's that?" "Our lives." " You can use this as a pillow." " Thank you." "There." " Thank you, Lieutenant." " Apologies for the arrangement." "I hope you'll be able to get some sleep." "Hello!" "Hello!" "How do you say "hello" in Turkish?" "Merhaba." "Merhaba." "Is that the mission?" "No." "That's the garrison where I've been posted." "Your mission hospital is over there." "Come." "Well, you made it." "Goodbye, Miss Rowe." "I hope we'll be able to see each other..." "Miss Rowe?" "What are you doing here?" " Really?" " Dr Gresham, it's a long story." " Are you all right?" " I'm..." "I'm fine, actually." "And this is my escort, Lieutenant Veli." " Lieutenant, this is Dr Gresham." " Doctor." "Lieutenant." "Thank you for bringing her safely to us." "My pleasure." "Let's get you out of the sun, shall we?" "Thank you, Lieutenant." "So what happened to you?" "I was..." "I was bringing your medical supplies" " in my brother's truck, as I promised." " You brought the truck?" "Unfortunately it was stolen in the mountains by bandits along with all the supplies." "I'm so sorry." "You're here." "You're alive." "That's what counts." "Come on." "Since I can't deliver the supplies, I..." " I'd like to volunteer my services." " You want to be a nurse here?" " Well, you need nurses, don't you?" " Badly." " That's Dr Woodruff, our founder." " Could I meet him?" "Of course." "Garrett." " What is it?" "Who's this?" " Her name is Lillian Rowe." "She's come from Philadelphia to bring us valuable medical supplies." "I'm afraid there was a problem with the supplies, but I'd like to stay..." "Stay?" "You can't stay." "What is she talking about, Gresham?" "She's a trained nurse, Garrett." "And she's volunteered her services." "We can't afford to..." "Miss Rowe?" "Go home." "Go home immediately." "Is everyone one around here losing their mind but me?" "This is no place for a woman." "I apologise." "Dr Woodruff can be a little blunt." " Would you like to see the main ward?" " Yes." "As you can see, we have 24 beds active." " Doctor." " Two in..." " Doctor." " Excuse me." "Hello." "What's your name?" "I'm Lillie." "And you are?" "Aghavni." "That's a lovely name." "Aghavni." "What's that?" "A..." "A bird?" "Aghavni means "bird"?" "Dove." "Aghavni means "dove"." "Oh, oh, oh..." "Is that malaria?" "Malaria?" "Pay attention to the symptoms." "The deep bronchial cough." "Body completely covered in bright red rash." "Hm?" "It's typhus." "Not malaria." "You can't even recognise typhus." "Where did you get your training?" "Dr Gresham!" "Doctor!" "He does not breathe." "He does not breathe." " Take care of him, Zoya." " He does not breathe." " No respiration." "No heartbeat." " His pupils aren't contracted." "He's still alive." "Pleural abscess upper right quadrant." "It's crushing his heart and lungs." "Scalpel." "Gauze." "Gauze." "Forceps." "Gauze." "I'm gonna catch you, you little doll!" "Caught you!" "Caught you!" "Zoya, can you keep an eye on her?" "How did this happen?" "Lillie." "Lillie." "Let us deal with this." "Nurse Rowe, I believe you already know our friend, Christapor." "Friend?" "He's come here to sell us this fine equipment, which we need very badly." "You expect to be paid for what you've already stolen?" "I came across these things in the mountains." "That's a lie." "He's a thief." "He's a bandit." "Young woman!" "Control yourself." "We're trying to conduct business here." "Very fine equipment." "But it doesn't matter." "We can't meet your price." " My price is very reasonable." " Your price is too high." " I won't be extorted." " Garrett, let me work something out." "We need this equipment." "Take Miss Rowe inside." "Let me deal with it." "Christapor." "Is there anything else we could do for you?" "I hope that's not a letter of resignation." "No, it's my parents." "I thought you'd be pleased." "Your brother's truck has finally arrived." "I don't understand making deals with thieves." "In the Armenian community, Christapor and his men are considered heroes." "They're making a stand for Christianity against the Turkish Muslims." "I thought we were supposed to be neutral." "This war in Europe... is going to split Anatolia down the middle." "The Armenians on one side and the Turks on the other." "It's going to be bloody." "A lot of people are going to die." "We're going to need your supplies to help everyone." "Now do you understand why I had to do it?" "I'm beginning to." "Good night." "# We are climbing Jacob's ladder" "# Soldiers of the cross" "# Every rung goes higher, higher" "# Soldiers of the cross" "# We are climbing higher, higher" "# We are climbing higher, higher" "# Soldiers of the cross" "# Sinners, do you love my Jesus?" "# Soldiers of the cross" "Hey!" "My parents died when I was young." "I was attached to no one." "But you have a family." "My brother Frank was the only one who really understood me." " You told me he passed away." " Tuberculosis." "I'm sorry, Lillie." "He was training to be a doctor." "So when he died, I knew exactly what I wanted to do." "Frank would have loved this." "And you?" " Come on!" " What is it?" "I don't understand." "It's begun." "They're killing each other now." "Full-scale war was raging in Europe." "It became known as the First World War." ""The war to end all wars."" "We read news about the horrors and atrocities." "Trench warfare." "No man's land." "Poison gas." "Dogfights in the air." "And often the battles took place weeks or even months before the news reached us." "Though it all seemed so very far away, we knew we wouldn't escape its bloody reach for long." "At ease, Lieutenant." "I believe you are acquainted with Miss Rowe." " Lieutenant Veli." " Miss Rowe." "Miss Rowe will be returning a patient to a village nearby in two days' time." "And I'm assigning you as her official escort." "It'd be a great honour to accompany you." "I'm pleased to hear it." "That'll be all, Lieutenant." "I'll make the proper arrangements." "Aghavni!" "Yaya!" "What happened here?" "Men came." "Many men." "With guns and swords." " Were they dressed like him?" " No." "They were not soldiers." " Have you any wounded?" " Yes." "Your friend, Lieutenant Veli, isn't here to protect you." "He's here to gather information on the outlying villages." "We can't leave Aghavni here." "We don't have a choice, Lillie." "The children are all they have now." "Is everything all right?" "It's all right, but we need to leave soon." "Of course." "You need to report back to your superiors." "You have your mission, Doctor, and I have mine." "My mission is saving lives." "And what?" "Mine is taking them?" "Just because I wear a uniform and carry a gun, that makes me a killer?" "Yes." "This wasn't done by my army." "These people are under your protection." "If you allow things like this to happen, then you are supporting their cause." "What cause?" "Driving all of the Christians out of Anatolia!" " I would never support that." " You already are." "You're a soldier and soldiers take orders, no matter how many innocent people are killed." "You don't know who I am." "I know it's men like you that spill the blood that men like me are expected to clean up." "Please, both of you, stop!" "We're leaving." "Now that you've seen it up close, the way these people live and die," "no one would blame you if you wanted to leave." " You think I want to leave?" " No." "But now you understand why the Armenians have to fight." "Is that why you're hiding guns for them?" "In the chapel?" "You think it's hypocrisy." "I can see you believe it's the right thing to do." "Don't you?" "I'm not sure." "Lillie." "In the short time you've been here," "I have begun to wonder." "Maybe this is a kind of..." "Ah!" "I'm interrupting." " Have you had your supper?" " No, I don't suppose I have." "Well, here, sit down." "I'll get it for you." "You should eat something, Garrett." "I'll take the evening rounds." "He's in love with you." "Would that be wrong?" "I'd hate to see him disappointed." "I told you the first time I saw you." "This is no place for a woman." "I'm not afraid, Dr Woodruff." "No." "You're not afraid." "Neither was she." "I don't know your approach... ..to medicine, Miss Rowe." "Possibly you overflow with the nobility of relieving human suffering." "You know my approach?" "It's a game." "A bloody game." "In which we pit our puny brains and skills against the forces of destruction and disease and lose." "We are drowning in death." "I don't expect you to understand." "But you will." "The shard of glass is close." "He'll lose the eye if we're not precise." "Dr Gresham." "Garrett, let me finish this." "Perhaps, yes." "It's, erm... good training for you." "Hold his head." "Dr Woodruff?" "Don't touch that." "Typhus." "I couldn't save them." " I understand." " You..." "You..." "You don't understand." "You want to believe in a God that's good and just." "He's not just." "He's cruel." "He's cruel beyond imagining." "Let's get you to sleep." "All right." "What was your wife's name?" "Marie." "And you started this hospital with her?" "I did, yes." "Would she want you to punish yourself like this?" " Good." " Good." "How did you find me?" " Erm..." "I saw you from the fortress." " You were watching me?" "I was admiring the beauty of the landscape." " Is that an island?" " Yes." "It's called Ahtamar." "From here, it looks like a mirage." "There's an old church there." "It's beautiful." "As a Christian, you'd be welcome." "With an official escort, of course." "Of course." "Let's go." "For a few coins, he might let us borrow his boat." "Being on the water always makes the rest of the world go away." "It's like being inside God's thoughts." "It's beautiful here." "Thank you." "It's my land." "Are you glad you came?" " To the island?" " No." "To this." " You're very brave." " I was running away." "Why?" "I couldn't be what other people wanted me to be." "What about you?" "Have you always wanted to be a soldier?" "Well, I had no choice." "It's the family business." "You go too." "Nice." "Wouldn't you like to break free?" "Freedom is an illusion." "We... we all take the role we're given." "I don't believe that." "Do you?" "Less and less, every time I see you." "So much for a homeward breeze." "I don't mind floating for a while." "I've wanted to touch you almost from the moment we met." "But I'm a Muslim and you're a Christian." "We share so little." "Were Adam and Eve Muslim?" " Or were they Christian?" " They were neither." "But they shared the same God." "How do you say "kiss" in Turkish?" "Buse." "Buse, then." "Ha!" "It looks like we have wind." " We were worried about you." " I can assure you I was fine." "I'd like a word with Lieutenant Veli, if I may." "Good afternoon, Miss Rowe." "Lieutenant." "Ah!" "Thank you." "You understand that the young lady is under our care and protection." "Except when she leaves the city, and then she's under mine." "Let's be clear." "Your religion frowns on socialising with Christian women." "Miss Rowe and I are friends." "Or is that something your religion frowns on?" " I don't want her misled." " Misled?" "You know what I'm talking about." "Don't worry, Dr Gresham." "Her honour is intact." "What does that mean?" "This is unacceptable." "I won't have it." "I want this dressing changed twice daily." "And watch him closely for signs of fever." "Jude." "Jude." "You're angry." "Of course I'm angry." "But I can't tell you what to do." "That's up to you and your conscience." "You and I know each other." "We share the same dreams." "The same beliefs." "We could make a life together." "I'm sorry, Jude." "It was no surprise when the Ottoman Empire joined the fight on the side of Germany." "Or when Russia declared war on the empire and began a massive invasion from the east." "Our village, Van, was directly in the path of the Russian army." "For some of the local Armenians, the Russians were their gateway to liberation." "The Ottomans took measures to stamp out the Armenian rebels." "And the rebels fought back." "Armenian rebels have taken over the centre of the city and they plan to hold it until Russian troops can cross the border and join them." "So, your orders are to penetrate their defences and assess their strength." "And, Colonel Khalil, how will we know the difference between the rebels and the ordinary citizens?" "The rebels will be the ones trying to kill you." "Come on." "Go, go!" "Go, go." "Come on!" "And who is this?" "This is a patient." "More specific." "Turkish?" "Armenian?" "A patient recovering from blunt trauma to his left leg." "Dr Woodruff." "I insist the use of these beds be turned over to the Ottoman army." "The flag over this mission is American, not Ottoman." "By international protocol, we have the right to administer as we see fit." "I built this hospital to help those who most need our help." "So, when any of your boys are carried here with a leg missing or their entrails cupped in their hands, we will take care of them." "Search the entire hospital, top to bottom." "See what they're hiding." " You have no authority to do this." " It is wartime, Doctor." "I have every authority." "Let's go in here." "This is an outrage." "You cannot just walk in here." "Lieutenant, this is a sanctified chapel." "Please." "There's nothing to interest you in here." "Please." "Stop." "Go and search the stables." "Thank you." "Lillie." "I have to see you." "My government will hear about this." "The Russians are burning a path from the east and they'll be here soon." "Let's see how you fare with them, Dr Woodruff." "They're savages." "You Americans and Europeans, whether you come here to help or to fight or to make a profit, you'll never be anything but insignificant." "We don't pretend to be anything else." "When your countries were still swamp and forests, culture had already lit up our lands for thousands of years." "And when you're nothing but history, collapsed into darkness like Rome, like Greece, we'll still be here." " Hello." " Hello." "Lillie, I don't how much time we have." "I have to go on a mission soon." "Are you sure?" "You've been waiting for me?" "Yeah." "Lillie." "Lillie." "You were with him." "Oh, Lillie?" "Yes?" "I'm so sorry." "The Russian invasion was upon us." "Some Armenian rebels joined the Russian forces to fight the Ottoman army and all hell was breaking loose." "Near us, Armenian men were taken from their homes and conscripted to serve in the Ottoman army, while the rounding-up of Armenian women, children and the elderly had begun." "Ismail was sent on what seemed like a suicide mission to destroy weapons in an armoury that the Russians had captured and were heavily guarding." "I am your guide." "You?" "Where are all the others?" "The others were cowards." "They fled when the Russians came." " What's your name?" " My name is Ahmet, Lieutenant." "All right, Ahmet." "When did the Russians take the armoury?" "Three days ago, Lieutenant." "I need to know where the munitions are kept." "That's the door where they keep the guns." " Go back." " I want to help you." "You're too young." "Wait with the horses." " Go!" " Where?" "I have nowhere to go." "You go to the mission hospital and tell the American nurse Lieutenant Veli sent you." "Go!" "You can take her in here to the back, please." "Thank you." "Lillie, the Turks have abandoned the garrison and they left the city." "Russian soldiers are coming." "But you didn't see him?" "You didn't see him die?" "I have to find him." " You can't go." "You'll be killed." " I have to find him." "Lillie, you're going out there to find a dead man." "He's not dead." "Take this." "Thank you, Dr Woodruff." "I hope you won't need it." "God bless you." "I see it more every day." "Villages torn apart." "How this war is destroying lives." "Brothers fighting each other." "Villagers fleeing their homes, not knowing where to go." "Everyone just running away from the war." "Bound only by a common pain." "Lillie." "Lillie." "Lillie." "Ismail!" "I..." "Here." "Have some water." "Mm..." "Thank you." " I'm gonna take care of you." " I'm all right." "I'm all right." "Wait." " Stop!" " What is it?" "Stop the car!" " Oh, God." " Get us down there." "Who's in charge here?" "Huh?" "I am." "I'm your superior." "Salute me!" " What are you doing?" " They're just Armenians." "I'm Lieutenant Ismail Veli, and these people are coming with me." "For what reason?" "By order of Colonel Khalil, for interrogation purposes." " Children, too?" " Yes." "All of them." " I'll take full responsibility." " No." " What?" " No." "They're ours." "This is not a request." "I'm ordering you to release these people." "Release them!" "Go." "Come on." "Go, go!" "Go!" "Go!" "Lillie!" "Lillie!" " Lillie!" " Sh!" "Sh!" "Sh!" "Take her." "Go!" " Get in the truck!" " Wait, Lieutenant!" "When did Colonel Khalil issue this order?" "Early this morning." "Colonel Khalil was killed last night." "Don't try to stop us." "Go!" "It's all right." "Oh..." "It's all right." "It's all right." "There are two bullets." "Internal damage." "You realise the position you put us in by bringing him here?" " You won't deny him help." " I told you." "This hospital turns no one away." "Gauze." "Russians!" "The Russians!" " Out." " Gauze." "Gauze." "This is a hospital!" "This is a hospital!" "If you have wounded, they are welcome!" "We will care for your wounded." "But your men with their weapons must leave." " What are you doing, Ismail?" " No, no, don't come." "If the Russians find me, they'll kill all of you." "My army is on the other side of the lake." "If I just get there..." "All right." "All right." "Cossacks." "Stop." " Stop rowing." " No." "Look, Ismail." "Can't you see?" "We're almost there where you'll be safe." "Stop." "Stop rowing." "But we're so close." "We're so close." "Please, just be with me." "I'm here." "I'm here." "I'm here with you." "I'm here with you." "I'm here with you." "I'm with you." "Look, Ismail." "Inside God's thoughts." "Yes." "I remember." "And I'll never forget." "Lillie..." "Don't be afraid." "Don't be afraid." "Ismail?" "Ismail..." "When I first came here, I had a mission." "I wanted to make a difference." "It took so much from me." "I don't know if I will ever stop thinking about him." "But now I understand more than ever why I need to go on." "I am one of them now." "And, like them, I still believe in a God that is good and just." "And I know that peace will return one day."