"SHAME" "Want to know something?" "I had a real strange dream." "Do you know what I dreamed?" "I dreamed we were back in the orchestra, sitting side by side, rehearsing the 4th Brandenburg Concerto, the slow movement," "and that everything we have now we had behind us." "We only remembered it like a nightmare." "I woke up crying." "I started to cry when we were playing." "It was the slow movement, you know..." "Aren't you going to shave today?" "Well, if you insist." " Why are you so angry?" " I'm not angry." "You look angry." "You're always angry these days." "You better get dressed so we don't miss the ferry." "We have to be at the mayor's house before 9:00." "It isn't my fault." "I didn't start this damn war." "If there is any money left, we could buy a bottle of wine." "What do you think, Eva?" "You're awful." "Go and dress now." "I think I'm getting a wisdom tooth." " Do you think the dentist is in town?" " We'll find out." " We'll find out." "It's awful with wisdom teeth." "Once I had one over here on the right side." "The dentist had to take it out piece by piece." "He went on for a whole day, without anesthesia." "I had a fever for weeks afterward." "I hope this one isn't that bad." "Can you see anything?" "No, nothing." "Touch here." "It's swollen, like a lump." "We better hurry up." "Did you pay the telephone bill?" "Damn, I forgot." "It's not right paying for something you don't have." "The phone never works." "Either they'll have to repair it or I shouldn't have to pay." "We need a phone, you know that." "Of course." "Naturally." "But we don't get a lot of orders." "We need a phone, or we'll lose the whole business." "They can just as well call the Olssons." "We can pay them every time someone calls." "Do you hear the church bells?" "Is it some kind of a holiday today?" "No, it's an ordinary Friday, isn't it?" " What do you suppose that means?" " Nothing." "Hurry up." "We're already late." "It frightens me when the bells ring on an ordinary weekday." " What time is it?" " Five past 6:00." "I think it's going to rain." "Why don't you get your leather jacket?" "Jan !" "What is it now?" "You can't be so sensitive." "I can't stand it." "Pull yourself together." "I do." "Can't you ever shut up?" "I'm sorry." "I forgot my jacket anyway." "There have been a lot of convoys lately." "I didn't mean to be so nasty to you." " I just lost my temper." " I can defend myself." "Yes, tomorrow is exactly four years since we moved to the island." "The day before yesterday was a year since Grandfather died." "We shouldn't forget to put flowers on his grave." "What did you talk about?" "He was listening to the radio about an hour ago." "Enemy troops might invade." "Our damned radio is always broken!" "Our damned car is always broken." "If only you wouldn't try and repair it so often." "It's better not to know anything." "I'm so fed up with your escapism." "No, I'm not going to argue with you." "We're going to have fish for dinner." "Sounds good!" "When you stood there talking to Filip, I felt really in love with you." "You were so beautiful." "From a distance, right?" "We were just on our way to see you." "It's so nice to see you." " We brought the lingonberries." " Really?" "We have lingonberries for you." " Good morning." " Good morning, Mrs. Rosenberg." "My wife and I just went out to look after our little summer house." "I told the mayor we were on our way with your lingonberries." " We're going to see our son." " We'll bring them there for you." " Sure it won't be any trouble for you?" " Oh, no." " Of course not." " Will someone be there?" "Miss Almberg is home." "Knock on the door." "This was nice." "Why don't you come over some evening?" "We'll eat, then make music, like in the old days." " That would be wonderful." " Great." "I miss our musical gatherings." " We both do." " Yes, we do." "We haven't played any music since conductor Kreisler was drafted." "Can I ask you something?" "These military convoys..." "what do they mean?" "The situation has worsened a bit lately." "They say so much on the radio, you don't know what to believe." "And our radio is always broken." "I believe in living in hope." "You never know what will happen." "I got a letter from my sister, who has been evacuated." "She's in a refugee camp now, where they bomb almost every day." " That's awful." " We're almost there now." "We have to say good-bye, but let's meet some evening, okay?" " Yes, just call us." " Yes, we'll give you a call." " Good-bye." " Our best regards to your son!" " Can we use the main entrance?" " Of course." "Okay, let's go in." "I got ten kronors more than I asked for." "Let's go to Fredrik's and buy some wine." "No, he's not home." "He's never out" "There you are." "So you've been drafted, too?" "Yes, look how they've dressed me up." "I haven't handled a gun in over 20 years." " Please have a seat." " Thank you." "And I have nobody to look after the store." "But maybe that doesn't matter." "What can I do for you?" "We would like to buy a bottle of wine." "I still have some left." "I want to show you something." "It's the finest thing I have." "It's an antique, right?" "18th-century Meissen." "How did you get it?" "I inherited it from my mother." "I'll never sell it." "Listen to it for a while, and I'll be right back." "Do you listen to the radio?" "No, ours is broken all the time." "I've tried to fix it, but I can't get it to work." "Yesterday, they threatened the most horrible measures." "And this morning they congratulated us on our heading for disaster." "The same song we've heard for years." "We shouldn't listen to them." "Wait a minute." "This is not what we meant." "Just try this." "It's really good." "We were going to buy a bottle." " Cheers." " Cheers." " This wine is so good." " It really is." "What is it?" "Can I have a look." "I have only five bottles left." "Look... '59." " Can we afford this one?" " Oh, yes." "You know, when I am sitting here alone among my things," "I feel so... sad." "I don't know why." "Maybe it's because no one... will miss me if I disappear, not even Mrs. Prins." "Mrs. Prins?" "The one who cleans the house once a week." "She cleans up, and then she makes the coffee and then we make love." "No, Mrs. Prins will probably not miss me very much." "Before you know it, you'll be home again." " How much is the wine?" " You can have it for ten." "You would have gotten it for free, but I need some money to give Mrs. Prins." "She's going to look after my things while I'm gone." "We don't want to miss the ferry." "Yes, you see, I have some pain in my foot." "I wonder if they pay consideration to a foot." "Maybe they can give me an administrative job..." "They didn't want me." " Maybe they'll send you back." " Let's not talk about you." "The most important thing is to show goodwill and not come running with a doctor's certificate." "Absolutely, you have to tell them." "Maybe they'll let you go." "See you again soon." "Bye, and thank you very much." " See you soon." " Good-bye, then." " Thanks again." "I think we should drink a toast for Filip and for his fish." " And my cooking." " And for your cooking." "Eva, did you know the radio works?" "Did you repair it?" " Yes, finally." " You are so smart." " Aren't I?" " When you want to, you are." "I'm always smart." " Do you know what I'm going to do?" " No." " I'm smart, too, you know." " I know that." "I'm going to start learning Italian." " You've talked a lot about it." " Yes, and we can help each other." "Every evening you've got to tell me to study my Italian." "I will time you and quiz you, and I'll be very strict." "You know what else we should do?" "Each morning, after we've fed the chickens, we should play music." "You, up in the morning?" "I want to see that." "We could play for half an hour every day." "We have the instruments and we have lots of music." "We have to keep practicing." "Jan, I want to have babies." "Sometimes I want to have a baby." "Now?" " No, not now." " Why?" " I can't explain why." " Please explain it to me." "It's a kind of feeling..." "I mean..." " Can't you wait..." " No." "...until it calms down?" "No, I think it's important now." "Many of the things that might be bad between us depend on the fact that we have no children, that I as a woman don't have a child." "I mean, I'm 30, and it's time I had a baby." "30 is not old." "You can wait till you're 40." "Women should have children when they're young." "I will have 3 children when I'm 40." "Then we'll be a family." "Listen, I'm serious now." "Next time we go to the village, let's see the doctor." " What for?" " To be examined." "Since I don't have any children yet and..." "I mean, I am healthy." "I know that." " It's just psychological." " Jan, I'm serious." "If we go to the doctor, he can examine you." "Don't take it personally, but when we didn't live together, well... we both know what you were doing then." " I didn't do anything." " That could be important." "It could be the reason we don't have children." "Because you had a lot of women who..." "No, I didn't." "Why talk about this now?" "I've always loved you." "You know that." " What about the opera singer?" "It was nothing." "It only happened once." "I have always loved you Eva, I still love you." "You know, I don't think you know what love is." "Of course I know." "Love of yourself." "You know a lot about that." "No." "I'm not as selfish as you think." "I think you're enormously selfish." "I'm going to be a better person next year, even next week." " Are you?" " I promise." "Yes." "I'm a determinist, you see." " What?" " Determinist" "What is a determinist?" "A determinist is a person..." "...who..." "I don't care if you're a determinist or not, as long as you fix the sink tomorrow." "What are we doing now, then?" " Where are you going?" " To help him." "He might be injured." " They might shoot you." " You're a damned coward!" "Stay here!" "You're not going to help when someone's hurt?" "I have to call an ambulance." "Was it one or two who jumped from the plance?" "We just saw one, didn't we?" "Yes, one." " Did you shoot the pilot?" " Why would I have done that?" "No, I guess it wasn't you." "I advise you to get out of here." "They have dropped paratroopers only a few kilometers from here." "I know what we'll do." "I'll put it in first gear, then you give it a little push." "It is downhill." "What are you doing?" "Hurry up!" "You're the one who shot the pilot, right?" "No, I did not..." "It'll be worse if you lie." "He was dead when we got there." "That's the truth, isn't it?" "Has a patrol been her?" "Yes, half an hour before you came." "They warned us that you were just a few kilometres away." "About a dozen men in 2 jeeps." "They told us to leave as soon as possible." "Ok, ok." "Be calm." "Don't be afraid." "The microphone is ready?" "And the camera?" "You will tell the home public.." "..do not resist," "..do not resist." "You wil tell them what kind of people we have liberated." "Voice of freedom 78." "Name ?" "Speak up!" "Don't be afraid!" "Eva Rosenberg." "Tell us a little about yourself." "I'm 28 years old." "I play the violin in the Pilharmonic Orchestra." "Jan and I have been married for seven years." "We've been living here since the orchestra was broken up." "Continue!" "That's all." "Your political view?" "I have none." "None, really?" "No, it is difficult enough to stay informed and our radio does not work." "Are you saying you are indifferent to the political regime you live under?" "No, the war has been going on for so long... it is so hard..." "Not indifferent then?" "No." "Did you decide?" "Good!" "And you..." "Name?" "I'm not feeling well..." "must I really?" "My medication..." "Keep the camera running!" "Film the fainting." "Quick, lets go." "Please, Jan, help me a little!" "Do you know what I've been thinking?" "How fortunate we don't have any children." "After the war, we will have children." "We shall never have children." "Jan, take your boots and come." "Hurry up!" "Let us go to the ocean." "Yes, but start driving now!" "Hurry up!" "But we haven't had anything to eat..." "And when was I supposed to have made food?" "We'll bring the chicken!" " Who will kill them?" " Not me." "We can shoot them." "Nobody shoots chicken, that's unheard of!" "I won't cut their throat, I'm telling you." "I'll take one, you shoot if you want to." "Don't shoot me!" "Look at it." "Shoot!" "I won't do it!" "Sometimes you really annoy me to death!" "Jan, we must go back." "Back to the house!" "Jan!" "Pull yourself together!" "It sounds like... it sounds like we were at the crossroads." "What nois!" "I can't take it anymore!" "I can't take it anymore!" "Let us go down in the cellar." "It is safer." "I won't be locked up like a rat !" "Did anyone ever tell you who this Pampini was?" "He was a contemporary of Beethoven." "He was an instrument maker in Vienna, educated in the italian school." "At one time he fought with the russian army against Napoleon." "When he lost his leg he started making violins again." "This one was made in 1814." "The year of the Vienna Congress." "Then he died from cholera." "I have forgotten which year." "My hand is hurt." "Do you want to try?" "Do you like me, just a little?" "Yes, I like you, a little." "Do you love me?" "Say you do!" "Yes, I love you." "What is it?" "I have a cramp." "Come here." "Come here, stand in line!" "Get inside!" "My name is Oswald." "We met once,." "At a charity concert." "I am the director." "Or was..." "This looks bad, doesn't it?" "Sometimes this is all like a dream." "But not my dream, somebody elses, which I have to be in." "What is going to happen when the dreamer wakes up, ashamed." "We have reason to believe you have been collaborating with the other side." "The most severe is of course the interview, where you approve of the enemy's politics." "That isn't true." "We have it on film." "Do you want to watch it?" ""We have for too long suffered under oppressive politics."" ""We have longed for liberation like thirsty people in a desert"" ""I want victory for your troops."" "That isn't my voice!" "I never said those words!" "Tell the truth, for the best of your husband and yourself.." "We haven't had any collaboration." "Then why did the paratroopers, who killed all civilians within 4 square kilometres, spare you?" "I don't know." "Take her outside, I want to speak to him, alonel." "Jan, come with me !" "Mrs. Rosenberg !" "Sit down here, Jan." "Please, doctor..." "Can you stand upright?" "Nothing wrong with you." "Both your arms and legs in place." "You don't look well!" "Get up!" "Take him to the hospital." "So, how do you feel ?" "Your shoulder is displaced, we'll put it back in place." "No tennis for a while." "What about him?" "Is he sleeping?" "Take him outside, he can't lie here." "Did you get anything to eat?" "I'm sorry, we're new here, not yet organized." "I'll see to it." "What about you, little lady?" "Nothing?" "So much the better." "Cigarette?" "Have a nice day!" " The one they carried out was he dead?" "Who was he?" "The chief editor." "There was a rumour the invasion had been successful, but it was false." "He put on the front page:" ""Long live the liberators!"" "What about you?" "The let me go as soon as I started screaming." "Almost like they were embarassed." "They just kept on hitting me." "Again and again." "In the head, they're crazy.." "Look..." "The gray-haired one went out saying:" ""Take this for your shitty interview!"" "How are you doing her?" "Oh, three." "I'm bringing one more." "Can I help you?" "No, no." "I'm fine, thank you." "It looks painful." "You feel ill?" "A little." "Not so bad." "Take position in the yard!" "This man has collaborated withour enemies causing us great losses." "On order from the government he is reprieved he is instead sentenced to a lifetime of inprisonment with hard labour." "The rest of you will also receive a milder punishment than you expected." "Some will be released to be transported to your homes." "Those two to my office!" "Can I sit down?" "No way!" "If Jacobi found you sitting down here, he would kill me!" "Whats happening now..?" "Come in." "Sit down." "I've heard of the famous interview." "It was a fake from start to end." "Yet they set an example of you, i could not stop them beating you." "How do you feel now?" "I did not like what was done." "No big injuries?" "I hope they did not hurt you as well." "They behaved almost correctly." "It is late already" "I hope we will meet again soon to talk more." "Where the hell are those drivers?" "I expect you want to get back home as soon as possible." "All will be better on monday." "I'll try to arrange a car for you." "Send me a car, will you please." "See to it that these two get back home as soon as possible." "To hell with this!" "Continue if you want to." "Are you playing the martyr now?" "Working like a slave." "Hypocrite!" "How you hate!" "During the war, we were at least relatively kind to each other!" "I'm going in to listen to the news." "Yes, go so that I don't have to see you!" "Jacobi gave us that radio to listen to the news." "Well go then, if it is so important, don't stand there talking bullshit!" "You said yourself when Jacobi was here the other day:" ""It is good to have a friend."" "I never said that." "You did, but you probably forgot it since you were so drunk." "I will tell Jacobi not to come here anymore." "Filip says we can have problems." "Filip can't choose which friends we can and cannot have!" "If you were not so servile..." " What about you then?" " I'm not servile." "Oh yes you are!" "Say that again and I'll hit you!" "Well : you're fawning." "Fawning!" "When peace comes, we will separate." "How wonderful it will be to get away from you and your childishness!" "It is not only your life that has been ruined!" "There are other people than you." "Wipe that grin of your face, and stop thinking you're the center of this world." "Forgive me." "You can say that, but that is not what is coming out of your mouth." "Can't we be friends?" "What day is it?" "I don't know." "Saturday." "No, yesterday was Saturday.." "It must be Sunday." "What time is it?" "I bet it's that damned Jacobi!" "Am I disturbing you?" "No." "Not at all." "I've been out walking." "I had the idea, and thought I'd go see you, unless of course I'm disturbing you." "No, we're just listening to the radio." "My shoes are wet." "Do you think Jan could borrow me some?" "Put them near the oven." "Jan Rosenberg, where are you?" "I brought you a present." "A very nice one." "Dvorak's trio in S Major." "1st edition." "Inherited from an uncle." "Maybe we can play it someday." "Fantastic!" "Here is a present for you too, Eva." "I hope it is the right size." "It is a family jewel." "You must not give us so much." "Eva, speak to me!" "Eva my dear!" "Who was it?" "A neighbour who gives us fish now and then..." "Just a friend." "He wanted some gasoline." "Remember you gave us a whole barrel." "Thank you, by the way!" "Those men are tremendous idealists." "You're not?" "Eva doesn't like me this evening." "She refused to kiss me because of you." "Do you permit it?" "Ask her yourself." "Will you give me a kiss?" "You're so kind." "You're putting yourelf in an awkward situation by coming here so often." "I see." "You don't want me here." "Don't misinterpret." "She's just saying..." "You know I like both of you." "Otherwise I could send you to a work camp." "Are you afraid?" "Are you an artist or a chimney sweep?" "A chimney sweep, no doubt." "Or an artist..." "The holy freedom of art." "The holy spinelessness of art." "I'll take a piss." "If only I could sober up." "This was too much." "We must try and get rid of him." "Unpleasant the Filip should come." "Do you know the forest is full of men?" "I wonder what they will do to me." "The thought scares me, I must admit." "They have no real reason to torture me." "I have no secrets." "Maybe they want to ask me anyway?" "I'm just joking." "This part of the island has been passified." "Touch me." "Touch my head." "Do you feel me?" "Touch my eyes." "Put your hand there." "Do you feel me?" "And you?" "Sure I feel you." "I don't understand..." "I've only had the experience of human contact a few times." "All of them were pain." "Is it the same for you?" "No, not for us." "I'm just talking." "Unspeakable." "Nothing to be said." "No excuse, nowhere to hide." "Nothing but great guilt, great pain." "Great fear." "How cold!" "I think you should go home now." "I felt the change in weather in my bad leg." "Eva, come over here." "Come here, I'll give you something." "23 000." "My savings." "I don't want your money." "Don't be stupid." "We can say you inherited me." "Can I talk to you?" "A while back..." "I was with my son." "He has a leave at the moment." "He has a little boy of 19 months." "He was about to be put to bed." "My son was feeding him gruel." "He sat ther looking safe like a little ape-child... against the big body of his father." "He fell asleep right after that." "Can I tell you something more?" "My mother died some years back." "She was old and had a bad heart." "One day the telephone rang, and they said she was severely ill." "I went to see her." "I asked the doctor there :" ""Can I go in and see her?"" "He said:" ""Your mother has left us."" "I sat looking at her for about an hour." "She had a plaster on her finger." "For a moment, I thought she was breathing." "Not much penetrates..." "Do you know why I took this job?" "I had a choice." "I was afraid of frontline duty." "Do you regret it?" "I've never before betrayed Jan." "Sometimes it scares me to think about it." "Therefore I never think about it" "No, not here." "Come." "He is sleeping." "I'll get you your stick." "Cry, if you think it helps" "What money is it?" "There are people outside." "We're going in to talk." "Come in here." "We were discussing." "Filip says I can buy myself out of this, since the organistion is in need of cash." "Therefore, dear Eva, please borrow me the money I gave you." "Jan has the money." "What money?" "You did not take them?" "What money are you talking about?" "Tell him to find the money if he has it." "If you hid the money, you must give it to Filip." "It is not your money." "I have no idea what you are talking about." "Let us search a little." "Where is the money?" "I don't know what money you are talking about" "Coward!" "Where did you hide the money?" "I did not hide them." "So where are they then?" "Why didn't you give him the money?" "They would have shot him anyway." "That isn't true." "Stop it!" "Don't shoot!" "We have no weapons." "Are you hungry?" "We can give you food." "Wait!" "Did you desert?" "Did you hurt your hand?" "A dog bit me." "Can I look at it?" "Sit down, I'll tend to it." "Here is food for you." "Are you not hungry?" "What is your name?" "Did you hide here for long?" "Some weeks." "Do you have some bandage?" "In my pocket." "I'll take it out." "Is this far from Hammars here?" "How so?" "What are you doing there?" "That is none of your business." "Are you tired?" "Do you want to sleep?" "Why didn't you leave?" "There were several of us I don't know where the others are." "Have something to drink." "I have not slept in days!" "Tell us what you are going to do in Hammars?" "Let him sleep." "Leave me be!" "Get up!" "Will you shoot me?" "What did you do to him?" "A fishing boat leaves for Hammars tomorrow morning." "A friend had told him, and paid to come with it." "He was shot the same day." "What did you do to him?" "The shoes can be good to have." "My old ones are worn out." "Tell me what you did to him!" "I'm not coming with you." "That makes it simpler." "Maybe we should have some food before we leave." "How will it be if we can never again talk to each other?" "The boat is in now." "Is there room for me and my wife on the boat?" "That costs money." "Is that enough?" "I had a dream." "I was walking a beautiful street." "On one side were white buildings, with columns." "On the other side, a park." "And under the trees along the street.." "was a dark green band." "Then I came to a high wall, covered completely by roses." "A plane came and set fire to the roses." "It was not such a bad thing, since it was so beautiful." "I looked into the water" "How the roses were burning." "A little child was on my lap." "It was our daughter." "She held me tightly..." "I felt her mouth on my cheek." "All the time I knew there was something i should remember." "something somebody had said... but which I had forgotten."