"There's this giant pile of trash in the middle of the ocean" "The Pacific Trash Vortex" "Twice the size of Texas." "Water bottles, candy wrappers, wreckage from boats" "Every kind of junk you can imagine just..." "Stuck together, floating 1,000 miles from anything." "A giant pile of trash, just drifting, and no one seems to care." "I'm Amelia." "I'm an addict." "Hi, Amelia." "I should've come to pick this up a couple months ago." "I, uh..." "I have more than six months sober." "It's... more than eight months now." "I know that because that's how long I've been pregnant." "I just didn't get to meetings for a while there, but, um, thanks." "It's remarkable" "The miracles that open our eyes to sobriety." "♪ hey ♪" "Hi." "Okay." "I'll see you later, buddy." "Hey." "All right." "So, Pete, I, uh," "I-I think I'm gonna put the house up for sale." "Okay." "There must be a market for a murder house, right?" "I mean, some nice, calm couple who wants to settle down and have seances." "I want TV." "I mean, I know it's gonna be a-a big adjustment for Lucas, but there's not a good school within 10 Miles, and I'm ready for a change." "New walls, a backyard, a neighborhood with kids" "They still make those, right?" "Sure." "That's it?" "Really?" "It's your house, Violet." "You do what you want with it." " I gotta get to the ER." " Again?" "Yeah, I'm working another double." "Okay." "Well, maybe I'll look for a place near the hospital." "Then Lucas could see his father every once in a while." "Ah." "Early morning feedings, huh?" "I remember those." "It's the only thing that'll put him to sleep." "We've been up since..." "Oh, my gosh." "I don't even know." "Oh, no." "He didn't keep you awake, too, did he?" "I mean, I was hoping that the crashing of the waves would drown his howls." "No, no, no." "I can sleep through anything." "That's right." "I remember." "I hate you for that." "Huh?" "You want more?" "Hey, you don't think" "I mean, all the books say that you should adhere to a very strict feeding schedule." "You shouldn't use food to induce sleep and blah, blah, blah." "But I mean, sometimes, you have to just go with what works, right?" "Yeah." "Oh, yeah." "Sure." "You're not just humoring me, right?" "I mean, you'd tell me if I was doing something stupid, right?" "All you have to concern yourself with is enjoying that little boy." "Huh?" "What's happening, partner?" "All right." "You be good to your mom." "All right." "Well, two weeks in Aruba, and we just decided to keep going, you know, Buenos Aires, Rome." "How do you even pack for a trip like that?" "And where are my cheesy souvenirs?" "Yeah, I wasn't in a shopping mode." "Or a correspondence mode." "I must have sent you a half a dozen e-mails." "Yeah, I decided to go completely unplugged." "You know, if I gave you my tango dancer ashtray that I swiped from the hotel bar," " would-- would you forgive me?" " Okay, you know what?" "I have a family coming in later." "The parents want to be seen separately from the daughter." "You take the parents." "We'll call it even." "Deal." "I didn't even know you had an ex-wife." "Seriously, Sheldon, no one in this office can keep a secret for more than two seconds, and you managed to hide the fact that you were married?" "Yeah, I want to know how you wangled an invitation to your ex-wife's honeymoon." "I want to know how to wangle an invitation to the next one." "Oh, she left her fiance at the altar." "But the trip was already paid for..." "So how was it to see her?" "Well, it was, um, nice." "Sheldon." "Amelia." "Jeez, you-- You look fantastic." "How are you feeling?" "You don't know about the baby?" "Troy Davis, 38-year-old male, history of heart failure." "Now in florid pulmonary edema." " Roger..." " No, no, don't try to talk." "Don't try to talk." "I'm right here." "120 of lasix and hang a nitro drop." "I need a cardiac panel, EKG, portable chest in here now." "All right, what's going on?" "Dr. Bennett, I don't know what happened." "Troy just-- He started gasping." "And I tried to give him O2, but it didn't work, and then he was gagging" "Okay, okay, slow down." "Slow down, Roger." "I knew his cardiomyopathy would eventually..." "But this..." "This can't be it." "All right." "We're gonna do everything we can." "Troy." "Hang in there, Troy." "How's his oxygenation?" " What's happening?" " You gotta get outta here, Roger." " Sats are down to 82 on high-flow O2." " Troy." " Pressure's at 72 palp." " Troy?" "Nonresponsive." "Time to intubate him." " What?" "Why?" " Because he's not responding to meds." "We gotta get him on a ventilator to help him breathe." "No, no, no, no." "No machines." "Troy and I talked about this." "He does not want to suffer anymore." "Troy... you are everything to me." "I want you to stay with me, but if you have to go," "I love you, baby." "I love you so much." "What's going on?" "Troy?" "I'm sorry." "Who are you?" "Troy's father." "What-- what's wrong with him?" "Troy is in end-stage congestive heart failure." "I'm afraid he doesn't have much time left." "Look, I know this is overwhelming." " If there's something we can do to help you" " There is." "Tell that man to stay the hell away from my son." " You have no right" " He's my son." " You haven't seen him in five years!" " That's your fault!" "You started" " That's enough." " Hey, easy, easy." "Yelling will not help Troy." "Now let's just discuss this calmly." "I know this is an emotional time for your family, but" " We're not a family." " I'm his partner." "Roger's his roommate." "Nothing more." "I'm sorry, sir." "How can you say that when they've been" "Okay, with-- with all due respect, Mr. Davis," "I've watched your son struggle with this disease for about three years, and Roger has been by his side the entire way." "I want you to do everything you can to keep my son alive." "If that means putting him on a ventilator, do it." "No, that is not what Troy wants." "I don't care!" "This man has no legal right to be here or anywhere near my son." "Does Troy have an advanced directive or a living will naming you as his proxy?" "We kept meaning to, but we thought we had more time." "I want him gone." "It might be better for Troy" " if Roger were to stay" " No." "I'm sorry, but you have to leave." "Oh, come on, Charlotte." "They can't do this, right?" "Come on." "We'll get this sorted out." "All right?" "I promise." "We'll figure this out." "I don't know when it started." "Things were just different." "Could you be more specific?" "Suddenly, he wanted sex all the time." "Well, it's not uncommon for people to have fluctuations in their sex drive." "This wasn't a fluctuation, Dr. Wallace." "I couldn't" " I can't control myself." "It was very uncomfortable for me." "And I worry about my daughter." "He used..." "To be different." "He was my favorite person to do stuff with." "He wasn't so..." "It's okay." "He looks at me weird." "And he comes in when I ask him not to." "Comes in where?" "Into the bathroom..." "When I'm showering." "I'm sorry." "I don't want to lie." "I have sexual feelings about my daughter." "And I'm afraid" "I can't control them." "Has he ever touched you, Whitney?" "No." "But now..." "I'm scared." "The things you try to do to me, you want to do to... her?" "No." "I want you out of the house." "Lori, please." "Please what?" "He's a monster." "Rich?" "Are you okay?" "Get the nurse." "Hurry." "Roger should be making these decisions, not Troy's estranged father." "They're in a committed relationship." "I'm not disagreeing, but until the law changes, he's not technically family." "So we're just gonna let that bigot call the shots?" "Look, it's taking every ounce of restraint for me not to punch Troy's father in the face." "I've seen Roger and Troy together, and they're a family." "But if something were to happen to Maya, as her father, I would want to be heard." "Yeah, but you would also want to honor her wishes." "Troy told Roger that he never wanted to be hooked up to a ventilator." "Look, I spoke to the hospital lawyers." "It doesn't matter how we feel about it." "The law is clear." "Without a living will or directive," "Troy's medical decisions are made by next of kin, that is his father." "You need to get Troy on a ventilator right now." "All right." "All right." "Hey." "I wanted to come by sooner, but I had a patient, and, uh," "I just, uh..." "I'm so sorry." "Don't say you're sorry." "I'm sick of everyone saying they're sorry." "Anything else?" "My patient, he" "He seized during the session" "Leave the file." "I called you." "I was halfway across the world" " So you didn't get my message?" " I got it." "I didn't realize how, uh..." "I didn't know what you were going through." "I'm" " I'm sorry." " There's that word again." " Amelia" "It's weird, right?" "That same word can apply to so many things." "Sorry I was late." "Sorry I didn't call you." "Sorry your baby doesn't have a brain." "I was going through something, and I" "Go away." "I'm busy growing a brainless baby." "You know, I'm" " It takes most of the energy" "I would otherwise waste talking to people like you." "If Whitney is frightened in her own home, that's reason enough to suspect abuse, and we have to report Rich to DCFS." " You didn't see how torn up he was." " Uh, no, that's because" "I was talking down a 12 year old whose father had violated her privacy." "The EEG showed a lesion on his temporal lobe, which is causing subclinical seizures, which manifest as hypersexuality and an inability to control his impulses." "You're making excuses for a pedophile?" "He's not a pedophile." "Rich never laid a hand on Whitney." "And there's been no prior history of this kind of behavior." "But now, right now," "Rich admits to having sexual feelings for Whitney." "Okay, a guy like that, he doesn't get to be her dad, Sheldon." "Sudden behavioral changes, scarring on the temporal lobe, this is a textbook case of Kluver-Bucy Syndrome." "You gonna report him?" "We'd be accusing him of child molestation and potentially ruining his life." "What about Whitney's life?" "What, are we supposed to just wait until Rich takes the next step?" "He won't because I can fix him by removing the lesion." "Can you guarantee that?" "Okay, even if she could stop his sexual urges, how's this guy expect to ever win back his daughter's trust?" "Is accusing him of being a sex offender a better way to rebuild that trust?" "All right, forget all that." "Whitney's safety has to be the top priority." "Then let me help this family." "I can do it." "Sarah called and left a message asking if you were okay." "She also reminded me that All My Sons is coming to town next week and that we should buy tickets." " One day you" " Roger." "You know you're not supposed to be here, right?" "Troy's dad went home." "And I snuck past the nurses' station, so..." "Are you gonna turn me in?" "No." "Troy would hate this." "All this fighting?" "We met at a fight." "Well, it was supposed to be a wedding, but two of the girls from the bridal party got into it." "I mean, hip checks, elbows-- I thought it was funny." "But Troy" "Mortified." "He..." "He blushed." "And I fell for him, right there." "Is there any way you can talk to Carl to change his mind?" "Troy's mom died when he was really young, and so he was really close with his dad, but he was afraid to come out to him until we got together, and then he just didn't want to hide me, so..." "And his dad can't accept it." "He cut him off." "Still, Troy kept trying." "He wanted his dad to understand that he was the same boy, the same man that he once loved." "I mean, I called Carl because I know that Troy still loves his dad." "And Carl, I mean, he..." "He has to love Troy, too, right?" "Maybe that's why he can't let Troy go." "Yeah, well, now it's too late." "And Troy..." "This isn't what he wanted." "Hey, you know, I'm worried." "Amelia?" "Yeah, Amelia." "Join the club." "No, we have to do something." "I've tried talking to her." "She shut you down, too?" "Repeatedly." "That's not good." "She has to talk to someone." "I mean, this pregnancy is rife with" " It's tragic, and given her past, I" "Well, she's not talking to us, but Jake is helping her." "With what?" "He's her OB." "That's it?" "What do you want me to say?" "Well, if it's not me, it should be you." "I mean, c" " Who's Jake?" "Jake is who she chose." "The baby's fetal heart rate is strong." "That's" "That's good news." "Are you planning a slip?" "My wife used to play with one of those when she was planning a slip." "You don't plan a slip." "That's... that's why they call it a slip." "It's just..." "You fall." "Sometimes." "Sometimes you fall." "My wife used to plan 'em." "I didn't know you had a wife." "Are you..." "Planning a slip?" "You still married?" "No." "Are you planning a slip?" "Divorced?" "If you use drugs, your baby can't be a donor." "What happened with your wife?" "Did you hear me?" "What happened with your wife?" "Your baby's heart rate is strong." "Let's keep it that way." "Hey." "Hey." "You busy?" "Yeah, I have a laceration I have to repair." " Can it wait?" " I really need some answers about the house." "Violet, whatever you want is fine." "Pete, this is crazy." "We have to find some time to talk." "I'm in the middle of a double shift." "Tomorrow." "I'm working then, too." "Are you the only ER doctor in LA?" "Come on." "There-- there has to be some time for us to have a meal." "Meet me for breakfast." "We can eat in that damn cafeteria here if you want" "Why?" "What would that accomplish?" "We're separated, Violet." "Clearly, what I think doesn't matter." "I pay half the mortgage on that house, but I'm not allowed to sleep in it." "I say, "Let's get back together,"" " you say, "No, let's do therapy."" " Okay, you know what?" "If you are mad at me, that's fine, but this concerns Lucas..." " Oh, are you kidding me?" " So you have to deal." "The only thing I care about is Lucas." "I would see him every single day if you would let me, but I have assigned times when I get to be with my child." "And given everything that's going on, do you honestly think I care about that house?" "So sell it." "Don't sell it." "Just leave me out of it." "Hey, is she talking to you?" "What?" "Who?" "Amelia." "Addison said she's talking to you." "She's my patient, and I'll tell you the same thing I told Addison." "I can't disclose" " That's crap." " She's our colleague, okay?" "She's our friend." "And she's my patient." "And we share information at this practice." "Sometimes, when a patient's health requires it." "And I would argue that our patient's health is in danger." " And as a therapist" " Look, Sheldon" "She's an addict, Jake." "Yeah, I was at the intervention." "I'm fully aware of that." "Then do something about it." "She's not talking to her friends, she's shut down, she's practically dissociative, and you have a responsibility to do everything you can to help, and that means helping her stay clean." "And you think helping her means I tell you everything she confides in me?" "I'm a shrink, and I know her, so yes." "That's presumptuous." " Get your ego out of it." " My ego?" "It's not about my ego." "Oh, then let me help you help her." "Sheldon, you're emotional and you're overstepping so just back off." "Amelia." "Amelia." "What?" "If you want, I can talk to Rich and Lori alone, go over the medical options" "Did you somehow complete your neurosurgery residency on your honeymoon?" "You're about to pitch a risky procedure to a desperate couple, okay?" "I'd like to make sure you have your head in the right place." "26." "That's the number of surgeries" "I have completed since you left-- 26 flawless surgeries-- and in each one, I was a recovering addict carrying the brainless baby of her boyfriend who overdosed, so don't even for a second suggest that I can't compartmentalize." "It's the only way I survive." "Pete refused to talk to me." "He'd rather stay in the ER stitching up bloody injuries than spend time talking to me." "Why are you so smiley?" "I just..." "Uh, it used to be you giving me advice about my screwed up life, and..." "It's not a mess anymore." "I mean, I have this amazing wife, this incredible kid." "But I mean, I'm keeping all that to myself because we're talking about you right now." "Uh, so Pete..." "Is hiding out in the ER, right?" "And I get why." "I do." "That's a place where he can be effective, and he's a hero in there, and he can solve problems." "In our relationship, things are messy, there's no right answer, but I'm not really that repellant, am I?" "Am I?" "What?" "No!" "No." "It-- it hurts for me to see you like this, and I'm trying to come up with something to say that's gonna put you and Pete back together." "But I mean, is that really the best thing?" "What do you mean?" "I mean, you and Pete and Lucas are a great family." "But are you and Pete a great couple?" "I saw your patient Stephanie." "Was it a placental abruption?" "Yeah, a minor one." "A few days bed rest, she'll be fine." "I'm sure she's thrilled." "And she'll have her baby in six weeks." "Yeah." "Do you ever wonder about" "I don't know, what happens to all these kids that you give people?" "Well, sometimes the parents bring them by so I can meet them." "I get the holiday cards." "Do you like that?" "Sure." "Gosh." "I mean, to a parent, your baby's the most important thing in the world." "I mean, I think about Henry..." "All the time." "I talk about him all the time, too, until, you know," "I'm sure that people don't want to hear another word." "But I really, I-- Really, I can't help it." "No, listen, it's fine." "You should enjoy him." "What?" "What's so funny?" "Sam was over this morning." "I was asking him for some parenting advice." "And he said the exact same thing. "Just enjoy him."" "Well, that's kind of ironic." "What, the two of you giving the same advice?" "That you're asking it from Sam." "E-ever since Henry's come, you know, I mean, Sam's..." "Yeah, he's been great." "Oh, I'm sure." "Hey, thanks for the patient update." "This scarring is likely causing you to have seizures." "What happened in Dr. Wallace's office," "I-I had never had that before." "But chances are, you'd experienced hundreds of minor seizures prior to that one, and because the seizures are occurring in the part of your brain that regulates impulses, that might explain the urges." "Can we do anything about it?" "I can do a partial lobectomy to remove the scarring and stop the seizures." "And Rich would be normal again?" "Well, that's the hope, but we can't tell if this will mean he can control all of his impulses we have Whitney to think about." "Of course, but what she's saying is that maybe this isn't Rich's fault, maybe it's not him." "Well, either way, you need to understand that there are substantial risks to this procedure." "With any brain surgery, there's the possibility of permanent damage or death" "I don't care." "If there is even a chance that this will make me better, I want to do it." "The ventilator is helping Troy oxygenate, uh, but his cardiac output is still down." "What are our options?" "We could put him on an L-vad pump, give him a little extra time, but, uh" "But what?" "We'd just be postponing the inevitable." "Troy is going to die." "Now I understand that the relationship between you and Troy is strained, but if Troy doesn't want to be kept alive by machines, if-- if you don't mind me asking, why are you doing this?" "When Troy was growing up, he was my boy." "I knew him, how he thought, what mattered to him." "Roger turned him around, made him believe things." "How do I even know this is really what Troy wants?" "This is probably gonna be hard for you to hear, but I believe that Roger really loves Troy." "So I don't think he'd ever lie about something like this." "I really don't think he'd be willing to lose him." "Put him on the pump." "Well, this is either gonna be awesome or terrible." "Take your pants off." "Awesome." "Mm." "Oh, what's gotten into you?" " Pete." " Oh." "Ew!" "No, it's just, he's" "Pete's being a royal pain in my ass at the hospital, making me the bad guy, and you know how I hate..." " Come on." " Being the bad guy." " No, this was so promising." " Mm." "Is everything all right with him?" "Every free shift I've got, he's... picking it up, like he's on some kind of a mission." " Okay, he is on a mission." "He's hiding from Violet." " Why?" "Okay, if I answer this, can we..." "Get back to business?" "Yes." "Okay, Violet feels that Pete is avoiding her 'cause he doesn't want to do the necessary work to save the relationship." "You know, first he wanted to go to El Salvador, he's working around the clock in the ER." "It's bad for Violet." "It's worse for Lucas." "She's afraid that Pete's being self-destructive so she's" "Enough." "I've got it." "Now I want you to be the bad guy for a while." "Okay." "Hey there." "Hey." "You finishing up or just starting out?" "Well, starting." "Or hoping to start." "What-- what if Henry wakes up?" "Well, then you pour yourself another glass." "I'm serious." "Addison, you're allowed to have a glass of wine." "You're allowed to have many glasses of wine." "Okay, so he wakes up, and I'm drunk." "You're not gonna be too drunk to take care of him." "Besides... you know, babies are virtually indestructible." "Take that." "Are you gonna make me drink alone?" "Well, somebody's gotta be here for Henry, right?" "Funny." "Let me get some." "Ohh." "I miss this." "What, the quiet?" "No, just sitting with wine, not thinking about anything, just..." "Being." "Yeah." "We used to do this." "Yeah, well, now you have Henry." "Mm." "Mm." "I miss this, too." "I miss you." "Sam" "Go get him." "Yell at me." "You want to yell at me." "Yell at me." "All right?" "I can take it." "I wish I had been here." "I wish I had come back." "Amelia..." "I want to help you." "So please..." "Just let me help you." " No, Amelia" " Don't talk." "Just don't talk, okay?" "You said you want to help." "This is how you can help me." "No, Amelia" "I know I'm not sexy right now." "I don't" " I don't need you to think I'm sexy." "Just... close your eyes and think about someone else." "I don't care what you do, just..." "Sheldon, this is what I need." "Look, Amelia, just stop." "If you want to help me, help me forget." "Please." "Did you take something?" "Are you high?" "If I were high," "I wouldn't need you, Sheldon." "If I were high, I would be able to breathe, to forget." "I'm not high." "An orgasm would help me." "It would help me for a minute." "I need a minute." "If I am gonna keep carrying this baby and give birth to him," "I need an escape, Sheldon." "I need a minute to forget." "Please." "Amelia..." "I'm sorry." "There's that word again." " Hey, buddy." " Hey, man." "You, uh, you feel like grabbing a drink tonight?" " Rain check?" " Oh, you got plans?" "I was just trying to get home early, relax..." "Head next door, change a few diapers." "Are you for real?" "Hey, I'm not judging." "Judging?" "What's there to judge?" "You, Addison, Henry." "Right, they live next door." "And?" "Sounds convenient." "What do you" " What do you think is going on?" "I don't know." "Is something going on?" "Are you jealous?" "Oh, come on, man." "You know that's not my thing." "Oh, and it's my thing?" "Well, you kept saying it wasn't, so I have to take you at your word, right?" "Well, I think you are jealous." "No." "I'm the man who's going out for a drink tonight." "Dr. Wilder." " Roger." " You have to see this." "What?" ""I could never just linger like that." "Roger would go ballistic." "He'd sit by my bedside, sure I was gonna wake up."" "I don't-- What-- what is this?" "It's from Troy's journal." "He keeps one on his computer." "And I stayed up all night reading it because I wanted to find some proof that this isn't what he wants, and it says so right here." "Roger, that-- uh, it's not a legal document." "I know that you're in pain and you're angry, and I want to help you" "Troy is suspended between here and the other side." "Now I love him and I have to give him the peace that he deserves, but..." "Do you get that?" "Do you understand love?" "When you love somebody, when you really love them, you don't force them to stay, to fight, to hang on." "You let them go the way that they want to go." "How much longer do you think it'll take?" "He goes into surgery in an hour." "You know it's okay to feel scared." "But I don't want to be, and I don't really know why I am." "'Cause this is scary..." "Being in a hospital, knowing your dad is in there, seeing your mom so stressed." "I heard her on the phone last night with my Uncle." "She told him my dad could die from the surgery." "Is that what you're scared of?" "I know that it's confusing and complicated, but it is still okay to love your dad." "I love him." "It's just what he did." "What he did was horrible, and I imagine you've had a lot of bad days since." "But you have to promise me something, Whitney." "Promise me that you're not gonna feel bad about trying to live in the good ones, okay, the good days?" "Because you may not be able to forgive him, you may not feel like you're ever able to..." "To trust him in the same way again, but... but you don't get to choose whether you love him or not." "We just love 'em." "I can't" " I can't-- I mean, he's just" " Whoa." "Breathe." "Breathe." "Breathe." " I mean, it's not only..." "Breathe." "Breathe." "Breathe." "Breathe." "Breathe." "Okay." "Try complete sentences." "I can't give up." "I don't want to let him go." "I don't." "Does that make me pathetic?" "Is that what you were telling me before?" "I mean without telling me." "Wh-when you said that-- that-- that Pete and I were not a good couple, were" "Do you really think I should cut my losses and go?" "Vi, all I meant to say was..." " No, you know what?" "You know what?" "I-I-I don't care." "I don't care what it makes me." "I-I don't care what you think." "I, um..." "I love Pete." "I love my family." "And I just want us to be okay." "And I know we are not one of those storybook couples with stars in our eyes and cartoon hearts floating above our heads." "I mean, we have been tested." "God knows, this relationship has been tested, and we have survived." "So, you know, to hell with easy." "I don't trust easy." "Anything worth having shouldn't be easy, because then you take it for granted." "Pete is worth fighting for." "My family is worth fighting for." "And I am so sick to death of asking him to listen to me." "I'm not gonna ask anymore." "I'm gonna go down to St. Ambrose and I'm gonna haul his immature ass out of that ER, and we are going to figure out what to do, because I want my..." "Stubborn, infuriating..." "Amazing husband back." "Why are you staring at me?" "I don't know whether to be scared or awed." "I think that when there's clearly a right way and a wrong way, you choose the right way, no matter how hard it is." "Well, we don't agree on what the right way is." "I know Troy, and I understand what Troy and Roger have together and the situation they're in." "And it's awful." "It's-- it's unfair-- oh come on, Sam." "You're taking the easy way out." "You're hiding behind the rules just like Charlotte." "First off, I'm not hiding behind anything." "I'm respecting the process, even if I don't like the result" "Who gives a damn about the process?" "Look, it's what we have to live with." "No." "No." "What we have to live with is our conscience." "Look, all right, I understand where you're coming from" " But you don't give a damn." " Oh, come on, man." "No, no, you've made it very clear whose side you're on." "You're not being fair." "No, you're not being fair, Sam." "Okay, Rich, are you ready?" "Just one thing." "What is it?" "If you can't get all the lesion, if you can't fix me, kill me." "Everything went smoothly." "I got it all." "Will I..." "You need time." "Dr. Turner." "So I'm gonna continue seeing Whitney." "And you will continue with Dr. Wallace." " Of course." " You can't go home yet." "Not until both of us agree that it's the best thing to do for your family." "Thank you..." "For giving me a chance." "Think you're ready for a couple of visitors?" "I promise, Whit, I will spend the rest of my days doing everything I can to earn back your trust." "I really hope I can." "Dr. Turner, how's..." "Is she okay?" "She's brave and she's hopeful." "You really think Rich will be okay?" "I have to believe that." "I did everything I could, and you're gonna do everything that you can, and the alternative..." "Is too awful to contemplate." "Well, sometimes things work out, even when you didn't think they could." "Amelia, about last night" "I have to go." "This place baffles me." "It's a bunch of doctors sticking their noses in places where noses don't belong, or at least places I would never think of sticking mine." "I mean, for family, yes, for someone I love, but this is an office." "Yeah, but people around here, w-we are family." "We care about each other." "And you obviously care about Amelia." "Of course I care, but I'm not sure being all up in her business is the best way to help." "Well, then do it your way." "So what are you still doing here anyway?" "Stuff." "Who's watching your baby?" "Sam?" "Shut up." "Don't laugh at me." "Oh, it's not you I'm laughing at." "You're getting everything you wanted, right?" "Well, I didn't..." "Think about it like that." "Well, isn't this what you've been hoping for?" "♪ gone today ♪" "♪ 'cause it's hard to stay when the line ♪" "Thank you." "♪ Is long ♪" "♪ and it's all right ♪" "I will always love you." "Are you ready?" "♪ Like a dark night ♪" "♪ a hard time ♪" "♪ in your dreams ♪" "♪ Try to bring in ♪" "What do I-- What do I do?" "Just be with him." "Let him know you're here." "♪ It's all right ♪" "♪ all right ♪" "Hey." "♪ Though it seems ♪" "I want 40 more years or 50." "I want everything." "I want to do all the things with you that I always put off or that I took for granted." "I want to change that carpet in the living room that you always hated, and..." "I want to watch foreign movies with you and not fall asleep, and..." "I want to make you laugh more." "But what we did have..." "I loved it." "Every minute of it, I really loved it." "And I love you." "And I'll never forget." "I know you always hated me wanting to have the last word." "And I wish more than anything that I didn't have it now." "But this time, I can." "I love you, Troy." "I love you more." "I do." "I'll see you again one day." "I promise." "I love you." "No, it doesn't make sense, Pete, all right?" "He was on the L-vad, perfectly stable, and" "I don't need to be interrogated, Sam." "All right, well, my patient is dead." " And the only other" " You son of a bitch." "You killed my son." " I should kill you!" " Look, hey, hey." "I honored your son's wishes." "He did not want to be kept alive by machines." "You don't get to choose." "You need to let it go." "No!" "Troy is gone." "He's gone." "He's gone." "My boy is..." "He's gone." "Troy's dead." "My God, what did I do?" "Picking your poison?" "They don't keep any of the good stuff here anymore." "Ever since I went off the rails, it's all anti-inflammatories and laxatives." "Nothing that would actually kill any pain." "Yeah, well, you can get drugs." "If you decide to get them, you and I both know that you can" "There's a dealer on the pier." "He hangs out by the photo booth." "He has a kid who's maybe 10." "Kid plays all night, keeps running back for more money, more rides, and the dude just stands there selling drugs with his kid right there." "I don't like to give him my business if I can avoid it." "My wife died." "Overdose." "Her daughter was 11, and I was, uh," "God, I was..." "I was still so in love with her." "And I hoped that..." "No matter how many times I saw the signs, saw her playing with her chip, saw her staring out the window, saw her..." "Start to disappear," "I always hoped that she would choose me instead." "I found her on the bathroom floor." "I found her there a lot of times before that." "Only this time..." "I did CPR for 40 minutes." "I couldn't stop." "She was cold and blue, but I, uh..." "I couldn't stop." "I wanted to die." "I wanted to die with her..." "But her daughter..." "Our daughter" "I stayed alive." "I chose to stay alive." "And right now you haven't used yet, so you-- you can still make that choice." "You can choose to stay alive." "You can... choose to... carry this baby to term." "And your baby can help save the lives of other babies." "But once you put drugs into your system, you're no longer the one making that choice." "Your addiction gets to choose." "♪ looking for the line ♪" "And your addiction will-- will kill your baby." "And your addiction will sacrifice the lives of those other babies." "And then your addiction will kill you." "And then Sheldon will want to die, and..." "Addison will want to die, and..." "I'll want to die, too... with you." "Everything hurts." "If you don't use, the pain will pass." "♪ ...that started ♪" "I know this tunnel is long and dark." "But if you don't use, the tunnel will end, and the light will come..." "Come back in." "If you use, the tunnel never ends." "♪ Everything has its way ♪" "♪ again ♪" "Do you drink coffee?" "I-I love coffee." "Will you get some coffee with me?" "How old is your daughter now?" "20." "She's, uh..." "She's 20." "How long you been out here this time?" "Um, since, uh, forever." " Ohh, yeah." " Hey." " Hey." " What's happening?" "Henry likes, uh, he likes his bottle on the beach." "I can't blame him." "Could be worse." "Hey." "Hi there." "Yes, it could be." "What's happening?" "Uh-huh." "Sam, don't do this to me, please." "Don't do what?" "Just..." "I don't know, give me hope." "Hope for?" "For what?" "For us being a family." "Exactly what I kept saying I wanted and you kept saying wouldn't work for you, you know?" "This is comfortable, you, me, and Henry, but you can't just come play house whenever you feel like it." "It's not fair." "No, Sam" "Addison, I" "Sam, Sam, it's not fair." "If you want to do this, then you need to be able to deliver on everything, everything we talked about." "Can you do that?" "♪ The weight is in your hands ♪" "♪ there's weight in ♪" "I don't even know why we're having this conversation if you can't answer now." "♪ Take away the glass ♪" "♪ and there's a window ♪" "♪ to the wind ♪" "Hey." "So I don't care what you have to do right now." "You're gonna get up, and we're gonna go downstairs, and I'm gonna shove a doughnut into your face, and you're gonna listen to what I have to say." "You're gonna listen and then you'll respond, 'cause we have some decisions to make about us, about Lucas." "Are you even listening to me right now?" "Do you ever stop talking?" "Tell me I got my facts wrong." "Tell me this did not happen." "Charlotte, can you give us a minute, please?" "Tell me you were nowhere near Troy's room when he died." "I did what was right." "You turned off his ventilator against his father's wishes." "No, Pete, what you did was not right." " What's going on?" " You opened this hospital to a storm of litigations, and as for you, his father" "I don't care." "I did what I had to do, and I would do it again." "And I did what I had to do." "Dr. Wilder." "♪ Again ♪" "♪ and we'll go in ♪" " Yes." " You're under arrest for the murder of Troy Davis." " No, no, Charlotte." "No." " You have the right to remain silent." "Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law." "If you cannot afford an attorney, one will be appointed to you." "Do you understand the rights that I've just read to you?" "♪ The world... ♪" "I get it now." "Get what?" "Every office I've ever worked in," "I've-- I've always found my pack." "People to play hoops with or grab a beer or maybe even have 'em over to dinner." "But they were just colleagues." "The job was our only connection so I didn't have to invest myself emotionally." "And staying detached, it worked for me." "But that doesn't really fly in this place." "I guess..." "I guess what I'm trying to say is that..." "Amelia, this-- this place," "I see that we're all in it together." "And..." "I think I'm good with that." "What if it's more than just soda cans and plastic bottles that are out there?" "Maybe there are messages in those bottles, hopes and dreams that have drifted together, things that people lost that they have no clue that are gone, things that if they found again would make them so... happy." "Do I sound delusional?"