"Voyage to the End of The World" "This movie was structured based on two chapters of" "'The Epitaph of a Small Winner', by Machado de Assis called 'The Delirium' and 'Otherwise of the book'." "The character played by Jofre Soares was inspired by the short history called "The Flight", by Carlos Augusto Goés." "The character played by Tallulah Campos was born from meditation and some books by Simone Weil, and it's a tribute to her memory." "The monk is frankly mertonian." "The interviews about advertising were given by Silvio Bering and Hélio Pelegrino and published in 'Fatos  Fotos' magazine." "The initial quotation is by Chesterton, and the final poem is by T.S. Eliot" "The magagazines mentioned are 'Manchete' and 'Fatos  Fotos'" "The archive material was granted by Amplavisão, Primo Carbonari to whom we appreciate" ""It is one thing to describe an interview with a gorgon or a griffin a creature who does not exist" "It is another thing to discover that the rhinoceros does exist and then take pleasure in the fact that he looks as if he didn't." ""One searches for truth but it may be that one pursues instinctively the more extraordinary truths"" ""And I offer this book with the heartiest sentiments to all the jolly people who hate what I write and regard it" "(very justly, for all I know) as a piece of poor clowning" "or a single tiresome joke."" "For if this book is a joke it is a joke against me." "I am the man who with the utmost daring discovered what had been discovered before."" ""If there is an element of farce in what follows the farce is at my own expense;" "for this book explains how I fancied I was the first to set foot in Brighton and then found I was the last." "It recounts my elephantine adventures in pursuit of the obvious." "No one can think my case more ludicrous than I think it myself;" "no reader can accuse me here of trying to make a fool of him:" "I am the fool of this story, and no rebel shall hurl me from my throne"" ""I freely confess all the idiotic ambitions of the end of the nineteenth century" "I did, like all other solemn little boys, try to be in advance of the age." "Like them I tried to be some ten minutes in advance of the truth." "And I found that I was eighteen hundred years behind it." "I did strain my voice with a painfully juvenile exaggeration in uttering my truths." "And I was punished in the fittest and funniest way for I have kept my truths:" "but I have discovered, not that they were not truths but simply that they were not mine." "When I fancied that I stood alone" "I was really in the ridiculous position of being backed up by all Christendom." "It may be, Heaven forgive me that I did try to be original;" "but I only succeeded in inventing all by myself an inferior copy of the existing traditions of civilized religion."" ""I did try to found a heresy of my own;" "and when I had put the last touches to it" "I discovered that it was orthodoxy."" ""It may be that somebody will be entertained by the account of this happy fiasco" "It might amuse a friend or an enemy to read how I gradually learnt from the truth of some stray legend or from the falsehood of some dominant philosophy things that I might have learnt from my catechism, if I had ever learnt it."" ""There may or may not be ome entertainment in reading how I found at last in an anarchist club" "or a Babylonian temple what I might have found in the nearest parish church." "If any one is entertained by learning how the flowers of the field or the phrases in an omnibus, the accidents of politics or the pains of youth came together in a certain order to produce a certain conviction of Christian orthodoxy," "he may possibly 'see this movie'"" "But there is in everything a reasonable division of labour." "I have written the book, and nothing on earth would induce me to read it." "I should have bought the bus pass as soon as I arrived" "Of course, at the time I wouldn't even have found one on Friday" "What the hell Was I doing in Rio?" "The boss should have picked someone else yeah, now you say it at that time you thought 'terrific'" "You thought there were a lot of girls in bikini waiting for you on Copacabana Beach" "Blondes, brunettes for you to choose from" "You deserve a flight crash to stop being stupid" "Look pals, Sarno wrote a book against sport managers" "Wow!" "Sarno is brave" "Sooner or later someone would tell the truths about player's lives" "Does he speak about DOPS?" "(Dictatorship agency for Repression)" "He tells everything, even the story of Oberdan who was barred in Pq." "Antártica stadium, after playing for thirty years in the team" "Players are like Gilette" "Used once, twice then discarded" "You know nothing" "Gilettes now are endless" "Ingratituted" "Nothing else" "They have everything" "If they get a disease" "The club, immediately provides a full time doctor" "toothache?" "a dentist even gold teeth" "The club has put in player's mouth" "They're privileged and what do they do with the earned money?" "Even with that we help the boys" "Imagine what would they do without the club" "I myself made several investments for them" "You are mom and dad for them" "And what do we want in exchange?" "almost nothing a good play win the matches" "win the game" "There are doctors controlled feeding airline tickets resting places" "Anyway, are you sure he sold himself?" "You never know exactly" "Who could prove it?" "The fact is that he played poorly when he should've played well" "Why succumb in a game?" "For money?" "Ask the club." "The club would give him money, of course" "Look this guy had a home a farm, a Volkswagen he just does not have a Mercedez, like Pelé" "Because it's hard to import nowadays" "Taxes, customs" "So, that's why you're going to sell him?" "he no longer fits in our plans he failed" "Now we'll try to recover the money on his sale" "Just between us" "I've lost 5 million in bets at that game" "Is he married?" "A family?" "Does it matter?" "No" "In the sale, I take it from him" "Big cash." "He's married." "Boring woman" "Complains about training camps" "She wants, to love hibernated" "So, that's how it is!" "On top of that the other women" " Other women?" "For godsake, how lucky they are!" "This guy has a lot of women" "You should have seen it in Sweden" "Oh, Sweden..." "Sweden..." "Full of women..." ""So far as I know, no one yet has related his own delirium." "I shall do it, and science will be grateful to me."" ""If the reader has no taste for the contemplation of psychological phenomena he may skip the chapter;" "let him go straight to the story part of the book."" ""But, however lacking he may be in curiosity, I should like him to know that what ocurred in my head during this period of twenty or thirty minutes."" ""I saw a Hippopotamus approach." "He carried me off."" ""I remained silent and did not resist, whether through fear or because of confidence"" ""but within a short time, we were proceding at such dizzy speed that I ventured to speak to him, and tactfully remarked that the trip seemed to me to have no preconceived destination."" ""You are Mistaken"" ""We are going to the beginning of ages."" ""I insinuated that it must be very far off;" "but the hippopotamus did not hear me or did understand me." "unless he was merely feigning one or the other."" ""As he apparently could talk, I asked him whether he was a descendant of Achilles' horse or of Balaam's ass and he replied with a gesture common to quadrupeds of both species"" ""For my part, I closed my eyes and abandoned myself to fate."" ""I am not ashamed to confess that I felt a certain itch of curiosity to know just where the beginning of ages was"" ""As I kept my eyes closed, I did not see the road."" "I remembered only that the feeling of cold continually increased in intensity and that after a time it seemed to me that we were entering the region of eternal glaciers."" ""Where are we?"" ""We have gone beyond the Garden of Eden"" ""I see." "Let's stop at the tent of Abraham."" ""How can we if we are travelling towards the past!"" ""I became annoyed and a little dizzy."" ""The journey began to seem tiresome and absurd, the cold uncomfortable, the method of transportation violent, and the result uncertain."" ""The silence of this region was like that of the tomb:" ""one might have said that the life in things had become stupefied in the presence of man."" ""They call me Nature or Pandora." "I am your mother and your enemy."" ""Stupefied, I said nothing," "I did not even cry out"" "but, after a short time" "I asked who she was and what she was called"" ""They call me Nature or Pandora."" ""Do not be afraid, my enmity does not kill;" "it is through life that it affirms itself."" """ " Am I alive?" "You are alive:" "I wish you no other calamity."" ""Yes, worm, you are alive." "You have not yet lost that tattered cloak of which you are so proud;" "you will taste for a few hours more the bread of pain and the wine of misery."" "You are alive, even though you have gone mad, you are alive and, if your consciousness regains a moment of lucidity, you will say that you want to live."" ""Do you understand me?"" ""No, nor do I wish to understand you." "You are an absurdity, a fable." "I am surely dreaming or, if in truth I have gone mad, you are nothing but a alienated's figment a vain and empty thing, which reason, being absent, cannot govern."" ""You, Nature?" "The Nature that I know is mother only and not enemy." "She does not make of life a scourge nor does she wear such a face, indifferent as the tomb."" ""And why Pandora?"" ""Because I carry in my bag all good things and all evils, and the most remarkable of all, hope, man's consolation." ""Why do you want to live longer?" "To continue to devour and be devoured?" "Are you not sated with the show and the struggle?" "You have experienced again and again the least vile and least painful the brightness of morning, the gentle melancholy of dusk, the quietness of night, the face of the earth, and, last of all, sleep, my greatest gift to man." "Poor idiot, what more do you wish?"" "Open your eyes and look!" "at what is insidious and will be living in the world where you live!" "Look!" " Spring was in paris and hearts were full of hope the world's attention was concentrated in the Palace of Versailles" "The peace treaty of World War II was discussed they wanted to avoid new war outbreaks" "The United States, as President Wilson said would help to reestablish democracy in the whole world" "the guns fell silent, but the fight is not over strikes all over europe a fear of new revolutions the machines stopped but the men couldn't be inactive" "Italy was with the winners but the heroes weren't heroes anymore they were restless without jobs" "they marched over Rome and the king was forced to turn Mussolini into prime minister" "In Paris, rumors of peace" "In Rome, Mussolini declaimed about the glory" "We, in the United States, decided to isolate ourselves" "We were tired of war and we were watching the european politics with distrust" "but we also had our revolution" "We were entering a new era lips painted, cars, and silk stockings weren't taboos anymore" "swimsuits were daring" "higher buildings bigger cities" "Yes, it was a new era" "the era of mass production and consumer lines of credit" "America was searching for big heights" "For Mussolini, Democracy was a product of wasteness and incompetence" "Men should be strong women, mothers of soldiers there must be order, discipline" "While Duce played with war we had alcohol prohibition all the nation played in the search for drink" "12 million of unemployeds" "Riots in New York like a tornado, the great depression overcame the western world" "But no other country was in poorer condition than Germany" "Nobody knew what to do most of all, they were promising peace mothers would not be worried for their children," "He said" "He, too, knew the horrors in the trenches" "after fourteen years of waiting after fourteen years of violence and conspiration the time of nazi horrors had arrived the time of evil domination had arrived the time of Hitler was upon us" "Hitler and Mussolini were bosom friends" "they visited and offered parties to each other and observed, liked good partners the amenities of life" "But, for the rest of the world" "Each visit meant the germ of a new crisis" "even marriages were mass produced, as in a plant" "Hitler had a plan" "In a few months unemployment would disappear" "In only two years, peace become cannon, tanks and airplanes" "Hitler broke The Treaty of Versailles yelling at the world" ""This is for peace!"" "bullshit!" "the world is not divided in east and west anymore in capitalism and socialism but in poor and rich people and the third war, that's already started, will be nothing that you've been shown it will be this!" "I Know!" "It's this!" "You will forget everything you know about shoes" "Just feel it in your feet" "Water, rice, and the delicious chicken soup Knorr" "Cancer is a rebellion of cells against the organism laws" " What have you said?" "Cancer is a rebellion of cells against the organism laws suddenly, it stars a super-development and auto-controls itself creating an independent republic inside the organism" "naturally, the organism tries to police and to dominate the movement of cellular emancipation" "But the process of conscientization once started, is stronger than the continental feeling of body" "In the beginning, surgery is possible an operation of isolating rebel communities" "However, there's always the risk that the cells already have infiltrated agents that will subvert the order of other cells and establish new focus of riot" "we call this Metastasis" " Cuba is a cancer?" "comparing proceeds" " And what about Asia, Africa and Latin America?" "We are not here to talk about politics" "You came here for an interview about cancer a scientific interview" " Scientific your Granny!" "Does the Earth have cancer?" "Maybe, I say neither yes nor no" "You're all exaggerating the importance of things after all, Earth is not all that important" "Earth is just a small planet within a system whose center is the Sun a quite small and insignificant star!" "Star which is just an element in a constellation which is just a constellation inside a galaxy which is just a nebulosa inside an universe" "Which is just..." "Earth!" "Earth!" "Earth is always earth" "Is this your first time on a plane?" "No." "Whenever I have enough money" "I usually take the kids and wife on vacations to see their grandpa." "Do you have children?" "I have two." "Wonderful, which age?" "The boy is four years old and the girl six." "Beautiful." "It's rare to find a girl like you." "How so?" "You know..." "With 'good' skin." "Have we ever seen each other before?" "Maybe, but I don't believe so." "No, I'm quite sure of it." "I've seen you," "The other day, I found myself buying soap with your face on it." "Isn't it funny?" "So you are what they call a poster girl." "What, did I make some faux pas?" "Passenger for her to serve" ""I am beginning to be sorry that I ever undertook to write this book" "Not that it bores me" "I have nothing else to do indeed, it is a welcome distraction from eternity."" ""But the movie is tedious it smells of the tomb it has a rigor mortis about it;" "a serious fault and yet... a relatively small one, for the greatest defect of the book is you 'spectator'"" ""You want to live fast to get to the end and the movie ambles along slowly;"" ""You like straight, solid narrative and a smooth style, but this movie and my style are like a pair of drunks:" "they stagger to the right and to the left they start and they stop they mutter, they roar, they guffaw, they threaten the sky, they slip and fall..."" ""And fall!" "Unhappy leaves of my cypress tree, you had to fall, like everything else that is lovely and beautiful;" "if I had eyes" "I would shed a tear of remembrance for you" "And this is the great advantage of being death that if you have no mouth with which to laugh neither have you eyes with which to cry"" "And you fall..." "It falls, but it gets up again." "And here's reporter José Leal to show us how this happened." "José Leal won the Esso Report Award of 1966" "Won the prize by telling the story of the recovery of his own life." " I am José Leal, reporter" "It's the truth." "I've been drinking for eighteen years." "I started when I was young." "And I arrived at the border of madness and death." "One day, in the summer of 1955, living in Sao Paulo, soaked in alcohol stricken physically, socially, morally and professionally," "I decided to stop drinking in a moment of lucidity and consciousness."" " What happened since then?" "A lot of things happened, especially thoughts" "serious thoughts, very profound thoughts." "I've thought of my friends, people who wished me the best, and also people that wanted... to see me again working in the profession I'd chosen" "around the age of fourteen or fifteen." "I thought of my wife and my son," "four years old." "I've thought of making peace with God whom I was divorced from for a long time." "I'm tired of thinking in myself." "This is a miserable theme." "However, I feel obligated to think." "Nowadays, I've been asking myself about God's Will." "How can one fully comply to it?" "In first place, what absolutely does not depend upon us." "All the facts being realized at this moment in the whole universe." "Everything's realizing itself," "I mean, outside our reaching." "Here, everything produced comes from the Will of God." "One must love everything in its wholeness and in details, including evil, in all of its forms." "Especially, one's own sins from the past," "It belongs to the past, but, despite hating them, their roots are still present." "And what's most difficult is the suffering of other men when you are not allowed to help." "One must feel the reality of God's Presence through all things, without exceptions." "Feeling it as clear as the hand feeling the consistence of paper through a pen or pencil." "In second place:" "what is only in our will, what we can choose and combine through determined finite ways." "In this case, one must fulfill, without languidness, what manifests itself as a duty." "The third place:" "comprehends things outside the Will not related to natural duties." "They aren't, however, completely independent from us." "In this domain we feel the coercion from God." "If we really deserve to feel it in the exact measure we deserve it." "God rewards the soul with attention and love." "And rewards by exerting a rigorous pressure, mathematically proportional to the attention and love he gave us." "If God's Will thinks I should not remain in church, I'd feel" "this desire in its weakest power, which I do not, in the moments God grants me attention and love." "I can't help but ask myself in these moments: why a great parcel of humanity is" "dipped into materialism." "God doesn't want men and women to be with him and, however, he wants them to be outside the church." "Anyway, when I portray myself completely, no other thinking hurts me more, than the separation of this huge and happy mass from those who don't believe." "The departure from living with men can be a special form of loving them." "It will never be rejection of Man and society." "But it can also be rejection, a humble and quiet refusal of myths and fictions which the society can't free itself of, specially in our times." "The desperate illusions that man creates arounds himself doesn't mean the despair of men but something else, it can be a sign of love and hope because, when we love someone, we refuse to tolerate" "What destroys and mutilates his personality." "If we love humanity, we can't be blind to this destruction, and then we say" ""We must do something about this situation"." "But for us whose vocation consists in comprehending that at least we can't help the others openly," "I have the essential necessity and I must say also the vocation of passing between men and different surroundings trying to confuse me with them, taking for me their colors, in the limits of all measures permitted by conscience." "Disappearing between them to let them reveal how they are without masks for me." "I desire to meet men to love them the way they are." "If I do not love them the way they are" "I don't love them exactly, then my love is not true." "I'm not talking about helping them, afterall, disgracefully, until now, I have been unable of doing that." "They must contribute with a silent witness, a secret and invisible expression of love." "The option for solitude re-examined the acceptance of social fictions." "Isn't the participation into political and demagogic fiction an implicit confession that we expect from man?" "Even from God?" "In a moment like this we are living, some will search for the light in isolation and silence not because they think they are wiser than the others but because they want to get from life a new perspective." "They want to remove themselves from the mess of babel just to listen to the voices of conscience and holy spirit patiently." "With their faithfulness and pray, they will invisibly renew all the churches, and this renewal will communicate with all the others that stay in the world, and will help them to see clearly a more precise and intransigent comprehension of christian religion." "I know that for some humans this separation isn't inconvenient, because they are detached from common men searching for soul purity." "But this is not my case." "I carry inside myself the germ of all crimes." "Or a little bit less." "Crimes horrify me but doesn't surprises me." "I feel the chance of them happen inside myself." "And, for I can feel them, They horrifiy me." "This painful, dangerous and natural disposal implies a vocation which is to stay somehow anonymous and be able to blend with the mass of ordinary humanity." "They gave themselves to apostolic work in a entirely new plan of faithness" "They are able to get rid of ficticious care gestures in exchange for an authentic love based on sacrifice of self." "When a world like ours that seems an immense and idiot fiction" "where the virus of lie penetrates all veins of the social body it would be abnormal and immoral if there were no reactions, even if it is prudent to react in the form of an outspoken protest." "But we shall remember that solitude is a refuge for the rebels." "If there's protest in the solitude vocation, it should be strictly spiritual," "It should be deep, inward, personal." "He shall be a critic of himself foremost." "Otherwise, he will misrepresent himself in fiction worse than all others." "He will become the craziest and self-sufficient liar, the worst of all, cheating himself more than anyone." "Solitude is not for this class of rebels." "Desert is for those that feel a healthy despair in front of ficticious and conventional values." "They reign in mercy and want to be themselves mercifully, since mercy was promised to him." "The loners know the evil in the others because they have felt it in themselves" "Men like these, for piety towards the universe, for loyalty towards humanity, without bitterness or resentment, retreated into the healthy silence of the desert, or poverty, or concealness, not to preach to others, but to heal themselves of the wounds of the entire world," "they speak." "You can't create a myth without the mass desires." "It is useless to force the audience to accept any product, even if it is a success in the field of art," "If they don't feel the necessity of that creation." "The myth perpetuates itself and communicates with the audience only if he can manage to create around itself an image that matches the aspirations of the population." "The myth is par excellence the middle class man personification and the way he finds to get rid of his frustrations." "Everything the common man fails to perform must be done with all the consequences by his idol." "Advertising must follow the changes of public opinion." "The demands varies according the motivations of an epoch." "Likewise, the idols evolve with these variations." "For example:" "little by little, hollywood actresses come undressed with the influence of french cinema." "And, because of competition" " since U.S. producers have been losing ground and french actresses seem confortable with love scenes " "Natalie Wood was seen for the first time naked in a movie." "What until recently would be condemned by the American Society became mandatory to advertising." "And, to not lose to french films full of spicy scenes that would soon conquer all the american movie market, the ads had to change their standards." "Now, in the United States you can show a kiss that shows more than a nip of focused heartthrobes prudish actresses, like we used to see in the beginning of cinema." "This is not a signal of dissolution of manners, nor evidence of the resurrection of practices of the decadent Roman empire, it's only the modification of certain ethical standards, for various reasons." "A man is, in a certain sense, very weak." "A man is a tight network of bones:" "body, blood, nerve, dream." "A man is a beam of humanity that pulsates to the death." "A man knows that he is going to die." "He is the only animal on earth that knows it." "A man knows that everything around him is full of risks." "And knows that all his possibilities can end against an insurmountable wall." "And knows that death, insurmountable wall, represents the radical and definitive ending of all his possibilities." "A man, like a boy, is, in a certain sense, very weak." "He also, like a boy, needs human love." "Love capable to create around him a quiet field where he can walk and stand, wake and sleep, ask and answer." "And they give the field to man, they give earth to plants, and the house to live and the food to eat and the school to learn and music and poetry to dream" "and they give the minimum parcel of comfort that Saint Thomas Aquinas once defined as indispensable to the exercise of virtue." "No." "They don't give it to the little man." "They give him a class society divided by injustice and implacable hate." "To this man they don't give love but sword and violence, contempt, and the man, like the boy, must live, insist, answer." "And to do it the man, like the boy, urges for the role of your deep mythical fantasy." "He escapes by alienating himself, trying to forget himself, and searches for heroes he can identify with." "This is an important phenomenon in the world nowadays." "The crowds tries to evade suffering throught identification with a hero." "This hero will be the symbol of the total alienation claimed by the crowds." "And each man in the crowd, rebelling against life, tries to move away from the pit of his helplessness and worthlessness life." "And if we are in a consumer society where all necessities are fulfilled in industrial scale and if new necessities are also created in industrial scale for the greater glory of industry and nations, all the hunger of the crowds for myths" "will transform the industry and the incredible force of advertising" "into the role of creators of canned myths that the crowd will consume." "The myth, in this case, incarnates not the greatest values of man," "not the meeting of the human with himself and the other, not the chant of the sweetest night, but the trophy of the man on the run." "And then, the myth settles." "Let's pray." "Render tribute to the miraculous Saint watching over our land, taking care of our people." "Let's pray for the virgin of Aparecida!" "Let's pray and give roses!" "Roses, a lot of roses." "Prayers in heaven, roses on earth" "Give your rose," "Give your flower." "Render tribute to the virgin." "She protects our country Brazil." "The Brazil of tomorrow, the country of the future, rely upon the faith we have in the Holy Virgin of Aparecida." "Brothers!" "Faith in god and peace to men." "Hail to Our Saint of Aparecida!" "Let's chant, brothers!" "My God, sometimes, the church frightens me." "Giving it some thought..." "I think that it is merely fear." "What fightens me most is the church as a social thing." "I fear not because of its stains," "but for its social being." "Not that I am an individualist," "I have fear for the contrary reasons." "In me, there's a strong gregarious tendence." "I'm by nature easily influenced, influenced in excess I must say, by collective issues." "I know that if there were german girls doing nazi chants right now, a part of my soul would become instantly Nazi." "I have fear of the patriotism of the church." "I'm scared of the risk of contagion." "Not that I think that church is unworthy to inspire these feelings, but I don't want these feelings for me." "There were Saints that approved the crusades and the Inquisition." "I can't avoid thinking that they made a mistake." "I can't refuse the light of consciousness." "If I think clearer than them about these issues." "Even if I'm beneath them." "I must admit that they were blind about a powerful thing." "And this is: the Church as a social thing." "And if this social thing damaged them." "What would it do to me, much more vulnerable to social things?" "Infinitely more weaker than them?" "Nothing written before has reached so far as the words of the Devil to Christ in Saint Lucas about the reigns of this world:" ""All this power will I give thee and the glory of these reigns:" "for that is delivered unto me and to whomsoever I will I give it."" "From this I conclude that the social is inherently the reign of devil." "The flesh makes you say:" ""Me, and the devil:" "We"" "or, better saying, like the dictators:" ""Me!"" "with a social signification." "I know well that the church is inherently a social thing," "Otherwise, it would not exist." "But as a social thing it belongs to the principle of this world which is an organ of conservation and transmission of the Truth." "This is of extreme danger to people like me, who are extremely influenced by social things." "Teacher Robertinho, why did you choose this name?" "Well, 'Acácio', my real name, is not well suited for a magician." "But Robertini is a pompous name." "Look, If my name was 'Manuel, The Magician' it would not be any fun!" "I could put Robertini, or, for example, Strogonoff!" "What is the secret?" "Well, this is an indiscreet question." "I can't reveal the magics I do." "I only reveal them to those who buy them in my store." " Do you make your money with just magic?" "Yes, that's why I have my store," ""The House of Magic", where anyone can learn magic like this:" "and, now, the complete disappearance!" "Have you ever done stupid magic?" "Sometimes it happens." "One day I was working at Bahia." "The house was full, and my assistant, by chance, was very sick." "Then I found a fifteen year old boy" "and asked him:" ""C'mon here Davi" "You'll be behind this and when I say 'rise up'!" "you will pull the line slowly and when I say "stop!" you stop, okay?"" "Then I went on saying "rise up rise up", the card going on floating" "But, at the third time, I said "rise up!", "rise!"" "and nothing happened!" "And, as a magician, I said kindly "rise up"" "and then for my surprise I see a boy opening the curtains and, with the head out, shouts "Mr. Robertini, the line is broken"" "You weren't in the boarding room." "How did you appear?" "I'm a continuity error." "How so?" "I only appear in scenes of odd numbers." "In the even scenes, this chair is empty." "Can you do me a favor?" "Which one?" "Call me "The Mate Tea of the Air Bridge"" "Why?" "Because I'm old and sweet." "A friend of mine told me a psychoanalysis story" "He had been doing psychoanalysis for three months." "One day, the doctor said to him:" ""You are basically a homossexual." "This is the harsh reality." "You must reorganize your ways of living." "It's a mistake to fight against this reality." "Look at myself, for example:" "I had retinal detachment and I know that in three months I will be completely blind." "But I fight to adapt completely to this idea." "My friend was very impressed and satisfied with the lucidity of the doctor." "After traveling for one month or two he went back to see the doctor." "Then he discovered that he wasn't working there anymore." "So he asked for his new address, and then discovered that he doesn't have an address anymore." ""But how?", he asked." ""Don't you know?" "After a nervous breakdown he pierced both eyes."" "With deep sadness I see this new habit." "I know that you ladies did not feel anything with this change..." "Since my childhood I can feel the Christian notion of charity to the next." "There are several passages in which the gospel calls it 'justice'." "The duty to accept the will of God whatever it may be imposed itself to my spirit as the most necessary." "Above all, the only one you can't refuse without dishonouring God." "The notion of Purity, with all the meaning this word can have to a christian, seized upon me when I was sixteen, soon after crossing the youth concerns." "This notion came to me when I was staring at the sea and little by little imposed itself overwhelmingly." "A few years later" "I travelled to the Northeast of Brazil with my parents." "My soul and my body were broken into pieces." "This contact with misery must killed have my youth." "Until that moment I'd never seen misery before." "I knew that it existed," "I was obsessed with it, but I wasn't in direct contact with it." "In the Northeast I received the slave mark, like the roman's branding iron mark." "Since then, I always thought of myself as a slave" "There, in miserable conditions," "I've watched the terrifying party." "Christianism is by essence the religion of slaves." "The slaves could not resist to adhere the religion." "And I also include myself between them." "I have travelled to europe once." "Inside the little romanic chapel of XII century Santa Maria degli Angeli, which is an example of incomparable beauty," "where San Francisco prayed constantly," "Something more powerful than me made me kneel down." "One year later, I went to the Monastery of Saint Bento to work in a Church with all my passion." "I met a young poet there, and bad luck," "I would like to stress: bad luck, and not Providence, turned him into a kind of messenger for me because he revealed the existence of a sonnet called "The contrite sinner under the feet of Cross", of Gregório de Matos." "Years later, this sonnet became central in my life." "In one of their declamations" "Christ himself came from the sky and possessed me." "In my meditations about the enigma of God" "I had never expected the possibility of a real encounter, person to person, on earth, between the human being and God." "I've felt only through suffering the presence of a love analogous to the one seen in the eyes of the loved one." "Here I am again thinking silly things." "Nothing will happen, we will arrive safe." "I cannot let these bad thoughts overcome me." "I must control myself." "Take my mind off them." "There she goes, the divorcée is already dating the young boy." "Oh god, what a cow!" "Would she pick me up?" "Do you know her?" "Very beautiful, ahn?" "Excuse me." "How are you?" "I'm fine, and you?" "You are like a bread." "Thank you." "Imagine we're both on an island." "Are you okay?" "I can't sleep when I'm travelling." "Neither can I." "But I'm very tired," "I didn't sleep well last night." "Don't have dirty thoughts." " I'm not." "Up until now, even if I think about it constantly during my prayers," "I've never had the feeling that God wants me inside the Church." "Not even the feeling of uncertainty." "I believe that God doesn't want me inside the church." "I don't have to think about it now." "I believe that he wants me outside of it in the future." "Except when I die, perhaps." "For I am always willing to obey any order I might receive," "I would obey happily the order to go to the center of Hell and stay there eternally." "However, I do not have any preference for this kind of order." "I'm not perverse." "There are so many things outside the church that I don't want to leave." "So many things that God also loves, so he lets them exist." "I know well my debility to suppose that some adversity would be enough to drive my soul into affliction, leaving no room for thoughts like the ones I'm expressing now." "But, it isn't of any importance." "Certainty is not an atribution of mood, certainty is always in perfect security." "There is only one ocassion that I do not know anything about certaintly." "Contact with the suffering of others, from the indifferent, the unknown, and from past centuries." "It is an atrocious contact." "My soul goes astray and the love for God is almost unbearable for a long time." "But the greatest enigma of human life is not the suffering." "It is the disgrace." "it is not astounding that innocents are killed tortured, exiled reduced to misery or slavery, imprisoned in concentration camps." "It is not surprising because there are criminals who can do this." "And it is also not astounding that infirmity imposes long sufferings to life transforming it to an image of death, because nature is subjected to a combination of blind mechanical forces." "But it is astounding that God has given to disgrace the power to possess the Soul and control it as an absolute master, even if the Soul is innocent." "Disgrace makes God absent for a while, more absent than the dead." "More absent than light in a dark dungeon." "A sort of horror fills the Soul." "During this absence, there is nothing to love." "It is terrible that in the darkness nobody can love." "The soul stops loving and the absence of God becomes definitive." "It is necessary that the soul continues by loving the void, or, at least, by desiring to love it." "I tranquilize myself thinking that Christ cried when he had foreseen the horrors of the Siege of Jerusalem." "Are they all dead?" "Where am I?" "This forest..." "God, it looks like a suitcase." "Money!" "My God!" "I am Rich!" "Is there any wild animal here?" "Where am i?" "Distant?" "I need to hide this money." "Hey!" "Stop!" "Stop!" "Give me a lift to the city." "I suffered a disaster." "Woman!" "They knew it!" "Woman!" "I was given up for dead" "Open!" "It is Barbosa!" "Oh, the in-law came to take them." "They must be at his house." "[sounds of a mass]" " I wanna meet you again." " Forget it!" "I'm married." "My husband is waiting for me." " Your phone number at least, I do not even know your name!" " Better this way." "Oh, my husband." "I was getting impatient." " Why?" "At your service." " What is happening with you?" " I do not know!" " How do you feel about getting sold by the team?" "I am sorry I have to leave the team where I've won many trophies." "But, if they want to sell me, all I can do is wait for a good team." "But do you already know that only one club wants to buy you?" "No, I don't know" "And, what do you think about going to play in a inland team?" "I really do not know." "I play in the premier league." "I have played there for five years." "I do not know what it will feel like playing in a smaller team." "It's a pity to lose a great soccer player like Edmilson, but he will be persecuted until the end" " What happened?" " People say the he received money to loose." "No, I'll answer it." "Hello?" "Hi, it's you!" "Today afternoon?" "It is Lucy" "So you better sit down." "I know... what?" ""The eyes are not here" "There are no eyes here In this valley of dying stars" "In this hollow valley This broken jaw of our lost kingdoms" "In this last of meeting places" "We grope together" "And avoid speech Gathered on this beach of the tumid river" "Sightless, unless" "The eyes reappear As the perpetual star Multifoliate rose" "Of death's twilight kingdom" "The hope only Of empty men." "Here we go round the prickly pear" "Prickly pear prickly pear" "Here we go round the prickly pear" "At five o'clock in the morning." "Between the idea And the reality" "Between the motion And the act" "Falls the Shadow" "For Thine is the Kingdom" "Between the conception And the creation" "Between the emotion And the response" "Falls the Shadow" "Life is very long" "Between the desire And the spasm" "Between the potency And the existence" "Between the essence And the descent" "Falls the Shadow" "For Thine is the Kingdom" "For Thine is" "Life is" "For Thine is the" "This is the way the world ends" "This is the way the world ends" "This is the way the world ends" "Not with a bang but a whimper.""