"(Addison) I'll never forget the first time" "I introduced myself as Dr. Addison Montgomery." "I was a resident in New York, and I got paged to the ER" "I was prepared for anything" "Emergency C-section, breech baby, ectopic pregnancy" "But it was just a routine delivery." "Woman's third kid." "She pushed, she screamed, she held her daughter." "But... something changed in me when I heard that woman call me "Dr. Montgomery."" "I felt like a superhero who had taken on another identity." "Honestly, I never thought I'd feel that way again..." "Until today." "I was sitting on the beach in front of the house, and this little girl named June came over to see what was inside the basket." "I told her his name was Henry." "And then she asked who I was." "And I said, "I am Henry's mom."" "(Laughs)" "Are you ready?" "I guess so." "Okay." "Just relax." "We're gonna see something in a second." "Do you wanna know if it's a boy or a girl?" "I need to know everything." "Okay." "(Ultrasound whooshing)" "Oh, my God." "There it is." "There..." "He is." "(Laughs)" "Oh. (Laughs)" "Oh, he's beautiful." "Addison?" "Addison?" "Addison." "Addison?" "!" "_ your migraines are the result of vascular spasm." "You should get some relief with the sumatriptan." "So there's no way it's a tumor?" "You're sure?" "I'm sure." "(Sighs and laughs) Oh, thank you." "And I'm sorry for being so self-involved." "When are you due?" "A few months." "Oh, it must be so exciting." "(Laughs) I can't wait to have one of my own." "You're carrying high." "I think that means you're having a boy." "Do you know?" "I have another patient." "Oh, sure." "Good luck." "You doin' all right?" "(Elevator bell dings)" "I'm great." "(Henry fusses)" "(Gasps)" "(Laughs)" "(Violet) Hello, Mr. Henry. (Laughs)" "I have an appointment with Cooper." "Give me that baby." "(Laughs)" "(Charlotte) Hello." "I've gotta admit, that little rug rat's" " pretty cute." " Right?" "I swear, it is impossible to feel bad about anything when I'm around him." "I just wish I could share it with Amelia, but" "Hey." "Welcome back, Addison." "Thank you." "I-I'm not "back" back." "I'm just visiting." "Hey, there's the little man." "You, uh, you mind if I hold him?" "Sure." "Oh, oh, oh, oh." "Did you, uh, get the basket I sent?" "Yes, thank you." "I would've come over sooner, but, you know," " we doctors are carriers of all sorts of viruses, right?" " Oh, no." " Of course." "(Deepened voice)" " Come here, you." " Uh, is this..." " Breast milk." "Okay." "From?" "From the milk bank, Sam." "It's not like I was trolling the streets looking for lactating" "Just-- Just don't touch it, okay?" "Okay." "Don't worry about it." "So Amelia fired me as her OB, and she's not speaking to me." "Is she talking to anybody?" "You know what?" "We've all tried." "But I think she needs her space right now." "When she's ready, she'll reach out." "(Baby-talk voice) Now I have to go back to work." "But you come see auntie Vi before you go, okay?" "(Laughs)" "Is she getting any prenatal care?" "You know, I tried to bring that up, but she basically told me to back off." "I don't want to sound insensitive, but are there any signs that she's using again?" "Mnh-mnh." "I've been watching." "She seems clean." "Yeah, she's living in my home." "I think I would know if she were." "Well, it's too bad Sheldon's not around." "Maybe she'd talk to him." "Has anybody heard from Sheldon?" "Oh, we got a postcard from him." "He's in Aruba." " Aruba?" "(Laughs)" " Aruba?" "What's he doing there?" "(Charlotte) Apparently his ex-wife left a guy at the altar, but the honeymoon was paid for." "So he is her plus one." "(Sam laughs) Oh." "It's nice to have a plus one." "(Knocks on doorjamb)" "So, uh, Mason..." "Wet our bed this morning." "Please no lectures." "I'm not ready to force him to sleep in his own room yet." "When do you think you will be?" "I don't know, but he won't even speak." "So the idea of exiling him to his own room" "Well, don't think of it as exiling." "Think of it as not giving him special treatment for unwanted behavior." "It's like I said when he first stopped speaking, y-you can't force him to talk, but he has to ask for what he wants." "You know, treat him with respect." "Don't indulge him." "He may be a kid, but he's a very smart kid." "Well, it feels like he's not a kid anymore." "It feels like the moment his mother died, his childhood was over." "It was done." "He cries in his sleep every night." "My son is in a kind of pain that I've never experienced, and there's nothing I can do about it." "Well, you're in mourning, too, Cooper" "For Erica, for the loss of Mason's innocence, for the toll that it's taken on you and Charlotte." "Just..." "Don't let Mason's regression deepen, because once kids start disappearing into themselves..." "Okay." "I won't push him on speaking." "And I will..." "Dehydrate him every night before he goes to sleep?" "(Laughs) You're gonna get those waterproof mattress covers and you're gonna put it on the bed." "And you're gonna put him in that bed, wearing those pajamas that ring a little alarm when the kid pees to wake him up." "And then he'll start speaking again?" "Hang in there, Coop." "It's gonna get better." "Look at those fingers." "Oh." " Hey." "(Sam)" " Hey, man." "Hey, yourself." "I was" " I was gonna head down to the promenade and grab a coffee." "You wanna" " You wanna take Henry for a-a walk?" "Oh, no, thanks." "No." "We are just perfect right where we are." "Huh?" "(Laughs)" " See you later." " Oh." " All right, man." " Hi, little boy." "(Man) What first attracted you to each other?" " I" " Oh, that's a great question." "Yeah, if we discuss what first drew us to each other, that'll reinforce our connection." "Violet, you-- you are obviously a very..." "Talented therapist." "But in this room, you're a patient." "(Laughs) You're right." "Right." "You're right." "I'm" " I'm sorry." "So..." "Pete?" "Well..." "Violet is a fighter." "The way she fights for her patients, how passionate she is, it was" " It was hot." "(Laughs)" "It was hot?" "No, I mean, it still is." "It" " But..." "We had a lot of fun at the beginning." "(Laughs) We did." "And now?" "Uh..." "We're here to..." "Put our family back together, to-- to get our relationship back to the way it was at the beginning." "I mean, we're aware that we can't go back, but..." "Pete." "Yeah." "You look upset." "I'm not upset." "When Violet..." "Corrected you just now, you looked upset." "I-I didn't correct him, did I?" "Did I correct you?" "I didn't notice." "You know, for two people considering divorce, this has been a-an awfully polite session." "Yeah, we're not considering divorce so much as we're considering reconciliation." "A-and since when is being polite a bad thing?" "(Violet) Well, we tried Dr. Perkins, but you said he was too intense." "Then we went with your choice, who wasn't even really a doctor." "Osteopathic medicine is real medicine." "He was a real psychiatrist, Violet." "We agreed on Whitehouse." "Can we please just give him a shot?" "(Man) Dr. Wilder!" "What do you got?" "Drea Spencer, 9-year-old female found with multiple stab wounds." "She's hypotensive." "Okay, let's get her into bay one." "Crossmatch her times four." "Trauma panel-- Chest and abdomen." "That's my sister!" "You have to save her!" " What's your name, sweetie?" " Missy." "Missy, you should not be in here." "No, no, no, I need to see my sister." "All right, I got a page about a stab victim." "Yeah, we gotta get a handle on this bleeding." "All right, I'll get the central line started." "I told her I just needed an extra half-hour to finish my algebra and then we were gonna make cupcakes, but when I went in to get her, she wasn't in her room." "And I kept yelling her name and looking for her." "And then I-I heard the sirens and-- and then the cars came and stopped at the house." "Missy, we should wait outside." "I didn't know she left the house!" "(Monitor beeping erratically)" "(Pete)" " We lost her pulse." " Help her, please!" "I need a thoracotomy tray." "Oh!" "Oh, my baby." "Oh, my God." "What happened?" "Your daughter is suffering from multiple stab wounds, including one to the heart." "We need to get her to surgery to repair it right now." "We need to stem the blood flow." "She's about to bleed out." "Okay, just do what you have to do." "(Woman) Please, you gotta help her." " Violet." " Please." "Everybody out." "Now." "It's okay." "All right." "Let's go." "(Rib spreader clicking) Missy." "(Beeping continues)" "Missy." "Come on." "It's okay." "It's okay." "(Beeping continues)" "Hey, um..." "I actually think we don't have time for this now so I" "Mm." "Okay, maybe we do." "(Laughs)" "(Sighs)" "What did Violet say about Mason and the peeing?" "Your pillow talk needs a little help." "(Laughs) I'm serious." "I wanna be..." "Helpful, and if being in bed with us is comforting," "I am all for it, but I just don't want to do the wrong thing." "She said that Mason needs a little more tough love." "Mm." "So what do we do?" "Uh, we don't do anything." "Not yet." "Wait." "What do you mean?" "I mean, Violet's not wrong, but I know Mason." "What he needs is time and comfort." "He doesn't need another challenge right now." "Is that really what he needs or is that all you're capable of giving him?" "Okay, I have a patient in 15 minutes." "We can either spend that time discussing regressive bed-wetting or we can get our ya-yas out." "Up to you." "Take your pants off." "(Both pant)" "(People speaking indistinctly)" "I'm going home." "Hey, there's a, uh, beauty pageant on tonight." "You want to come over and make mean jokes during the talent portion?" "No, thanks." "(People continue speaking indistinctly)" "Look, are you taking an iron supplement?" "You look pale." "You don't want gestational anemia." "Amelia..." "I mean, there are no words to describe how awful and... unfair this is to you." "And I get that, but..." "I miss you." "I want you in my life." "I want you in Henry's life." "I-I want" "I understand what you want, Addison." "I just don't care." "(Man) Somebody stabbed my baby." "How could that happen?" "There's no logic to it." "You can't even begin to-- to rationalize it." "I can see what this is doing to your wife." "How do you think Missy is holding up?" "What?" "H-how do you think she's doing with all of this?" "Why does that matter?" "Uh, well, there's, um..." "Several very good doctors looking after Drea and this is a very traumatic event, so I was thinking if you'd like me to, I can speak to Missy" "No." "Okay." "Can I ask you why?" "I just..." "Look, I don't need another person telling me she's careless and has bad judgment and-- and is heading in the wrong direction, okay?" "That's not what I was gonna talk to her about" "My baby girl is fighting for her life, and how Missy feels really isn't my primary concern." "I don't need a referendum on my parenting." "I'm so sorry." "I can see how this is upsetting you." "Please just leave us the hell alone." "(Elevator bell dings)" "How's the family holding up?" "Mom's destroyed, dad's furious." "And Missy?" "Uh, I don't know." "He won't let me talk to her." "She's probably still in shock." "Maybe." "Violet?" "Well, her-- her affect seemed a little off." "What do you mean?" "She was upset." "Well, until she wasn't, you know?" "She was crying and then she stopped." "It was like a-a performance that she turned off." "What I saw was a little girl who was traumatized by seeing her sister near death." "Everybody reacts differently to something like that." "I realize that, Pete, but my instincts are telling me that something else is going on." "I..." "(Sighs)" "I'm a shrink." "I do this for a living." "Yeah, and you do it at home and the grocery store, the dry cleaners." "Violet, you insert yourself into people's lives." "You think you know them better than they know themselves." "Can't you just turn it off?" "No, I can't." "And ignoring a problem doesn't mean that it's gonna go away." "And I think there's a big problem here." "Sometimes I think I'm living with two 9 year olds." "(Chuckles)" "Mason at least is an actual kid." "But Cooper, ahh..." "(Pours liquid)" "He is just pitching a fit because he doesn't want to do what Violet thinks he should do for Mason, not to mention what I think he should do." "(Exhales) I could use a meeting." "You want to come?" "(People speaking indistinctly)" "And listen to you share about how difficult it is to raise a child?" "Sorry." "I didn't mean it like that." "And what you're going through, I know it must be" "No, you don't know." "You just don't." "Have you been going to meetings?" "You need to keep working the steps" "Skip the Bill W. crap." "I am not gonna use." "So you and Addison and Violet can all check me off your to-do lists and leave me alone." "♪" "(Grunts)" "(Man) ♪ I see you're burning at the seams ♪" "♪ there's fire underneath ♪" "(Grunts)" "♪ You don't know what you need ♪" "So that was pretty great, seeing Addison, huh, with the baby?" "She looked happy." "(People speaking indistinctly)" "You okay?" " Yeah." " Okay." "♪ But make me want you ♪" "♪ make me wait ♪" "♪" "♪ girl, you got your sexy ways ♪" "Look, the other day in Addison's office," "I felt like I saw a little something going on between you two." "Come on, Sam." "Jake," "I was with Addison for a long time." "I know her." "There was a vibe going on." "Tell me I'm wrong." "All right, look, we kissed the day she got Henry." "It was" " It was no big deal." "♪ Can't help but make me want you, make me wait ♪" "And you-- you don't" "You don't think there's anything wrong with that?" "Oh, look, man, you weren't interested in her when she wanted to get pregnant." "Now all of a sudden, she's got a baby, and you're mad at me because I kissed her?" "You're being ridiculous." "Come on." "And you're being a son of a bitch." "♪" "All right, Henry, let's talk nannies." "Lisa has a degree in early child development." "Oh, but the way she smacked her gum the entire time she talked with us was a little disconcerting." "(Singsongy) Next." "(Normal voice) Keisha." "Premed, interested in peds." "She engaged you without being condescending." "Definitely worth a second interview." "(Indistinct conversations)" "Jake kissed Addison." "And that bothers you." "Well..." "Addison and I, we-- we kissed that day, too." "So..." "At the same time?" "This isn't funny, man." "(Chuckles) I'm sorry." "I know this isn't what you want to hear, but you and Addison" " Nobody can keep up with you two." "You're on again, off again, kissing, fighting, babies, no babies, I" "So are you defending Jake?" "Is that" "No, I'm just saying, I can see how he would think Addison is fair game." "Look, if you really want to be with Addison, get off your ass and tell Jake to back the hell off." "I put something new in your lunch today." "(Chuckles) Moonpie." "It's pretty delicious." "It is for dessert if you eat... (Closes zipper) Your hole sandwich." "You can toss it if you don't like it, and we'll try something else." "Okay?" "Mase..." "What are we gonna do with you?" "You're not talking to me." "You're not talking to your daddy." "Your teachers say you won't talk to anyone at school." "You don't really want to go through life like this, do you?" "(Sighs) Look... (Sniffles)" "I know you're hurtin' in a way a kid never should." "I lost my daddy as an adult, and it nearly wrecked me." "So this..." "I can't imagine." "I've tried to be the person in your life who always tells you the whole truth, even if it's hard." "And that's what I'm doing now." "You can't not communicate." "It's gonna make it impossible for anyone to help you." "So right here, right now, you can say whatever you want." "But you have to say something." "I'm starting to forget things." "Like what?" "The way my mom packs lunch." "The kind of things we'd talk about." "It makes me sad." "(Inhales and exhales)" "I can see how that would." "We can talk about that." "We can talk about anything." "I don't want to." "I know my mom wanted us to talk about her." "And I know you and my dad want things to be normal." "But I don't feel normal." "And I don't want to talk." "(Clicks)" "(Respirator hissing and clicking)" "(Amelia) No spontaneous breath." "That's consistent with her EEG." "Drea is brain dead." "(Monitor beeping rhythmically)" "(Hissing and clicking continue)" "(Beeping continues)" "Amelia, are you" "I'll be fine." "Why don't you let me tell the parents anyway?" "This has nothing to do with what's happening with me." "Amelia." "(Exhales)" "I'm gonna tell the parents." "(Exhales)" "(Door slides open)" "(Crying) What does that mean, brain dead?" "It means, she's not gonna come out of this coma and she can't breathe on her own." "Brain death is more of a" " Of a clinical determination." "The-- the questions that you're gonna be processing are less medical and more spiritual." "You mean, do we take Drea off the respirator?" "And if so, when?" "(Violet) That's right." "Well, how long can she stay like she is?" "We can keep her breathing on the respirator indefinitely." "But she won't wake up, and her body will just continue to deteriorate." "Oh, God." "So there's no decision to make." "Well, sometimes, in situations like this, a family will decide to donate their loved one's organs." "You mean, like, cut her open and take everything out?" "Missy, would you like to take a walk?" "No." "Yeah, you know, actually, that-- That's a good suggestion." "No, I-I don't want to miss any of this." "There's a" " There's a cafeteria downstairs." "No, I want to stay here." "You heard your mother." "(Huffs)" "(Knock on doorjamb)" "Hey, I just, uh, wanted to check in." "Addison send you?" "No, but, uh, I know you two aren't..." "Look, I don't know if you've picked another OB yet or not, but if you wanted to talk about your options..." "What options?" "This is way past the time for termination." "Well, there's still a future to plan for." "My baby has no future." "But you do." "(Scoffs)" "So what, we're gonna hold hands and talk about my feelings?" "(Sighs)" "I'm sick to death of people wanting to discuss my feelings." "That's your business." "Not mine." "Thank you." "But you're a doctor, so you know you need blood and urine tests." "Prenatal care is not just about the baby." "I'm here about your health, Amelia, and..." "I'm here about you, because you do have a future." "Is it..." "The drugs I took..." "Did I do this to my baby?" "Absolutely not." "Listen to me, this..." "This was a bad spin of the genetic wheel." "You didn't do anything wrong." "Hey, this is not your fault." "(Sobs)" "(Sniffles)" "(Crying)" "I know what happens when they take someone off of life support." "A lot of times, they don't die right away." "They gag and struggle, and it gets all messy." "Did what..." "Did what happened to your sister scare you?" "Well, it would scare me." "(People speaking indistinctly)" "You know, I was attacked once and stabbed." "Somebody cut my baby out of me and left me on the floor of my house bleeding to death." "You know, sometimes, I..." "Sometimes, I wonder what the woman who attacked me felt when she was holding that knife..." "Coming toward me." "I mean, well, she probably felt..." "Powerful, like she had all the control." "You know, like she could..." "Hurt you or kill you or..." "Do anything she wanted." "But I could be wrong." "I mean, I-I had no idea that I was walking into what is obviously a totally dysfunctional relationship between two people who have no idea what the hell they want from each other." "Maybe they're in love." "If she wants to be kissing Sam, why is she kissing me?" "Well, when we were going out, it was a little different 'cause" "What?" "You t-- You dated Addison, too?" "You didn't know that?" "Man, is there any guy in this practice she hasn't dated?" "Just the three of us to my knowledge." "All right, so if you were me, what would you do?" "Well, Addison is, um..." "(Chuckles)" "She's beautiful, smart, funny, but she's... complicated." "I couldn't make it work, but if you can, she's worth it." "(People speak indistinctly)" "(Footsteps approach)" "(Cooper) Oh." "I didn't think we were doing this till later, but I like your ambition, Dr. king." "Mason talked." "What?" "That's" " That..." "How'd you get him to do that?" "I told him silence wasn't an option anymore," " that it was causing more problems for all of us" " Charlotte." "Coop, it worked." "Well, because you threatened him." "I didn't threaten him." "You just said that you told him that silence wasn't" "Coop, I thought you'd be happy." "No, what I am is..." "(Inhales) Concerned that Mason is not getting enough time to grieve the way that he needs to." "I mean, all due respect to Violet, and frankly, even less to you," "I don't want anybody making this about us." "It is about Mason and what he needs." "You really think this little of me?" "Again, Charlotte, not about you." "(Pete) That's not a confession." "Well, if you had seen her and heard her..." "Did she actually tell you that she killed her sister?" "No, not in so many words." " Then what are we talking about?" " My gut instinct." "(Chuckles) I know I'm right on this." "Violet, no offense, but you think you're right about everything." "That's not fair." "Uh, listen, okay, I'm sorry." "I apologize." "It's just, you can't go to the police with your gut instinct." "Well, that's not the point." "Then what is the point?" "What if she does this again?" "♪" "♪" "(Knock on door)" "I know you don't want to talk to me." "You're right." "So just go." "I will, soon, but I love you and I need you to listen." "You need a plan." "You need to figure out" "Don't you dare stand there and tell me what I need." "Don't you dare." "My life has turned into a horror show, and all I can do is stand back and watch it play out." "My baby has no brain." "No brain." "I am a damn neurosurgeon, and my baby has no brain." "I would say God has a sense of humor, but there is no God." "No God would do this." " I am so, so sorry" " Just stop it." "Just don't look at me with your pity and guilt." "I can't take it anymore." "Every time I look at you, I see that perfect, healthy baby attached to your hip, and he smiles, and you smile, and all of that joy makes me want to scream and claw your eyes out" "and rip that child from your hands." "(Voice breaking) I am so angry at you..." "And jealous of you..." "Of this..." "life, this-- this dream of a life you have." "I wish I could be happy for you, but I can't." "I can't because I hate you, Addison." "I hate you, and I don't have room for that on top of all the bitterness and pain that is burying me every single day." "I don't-- I have no more room." "(Man) ♪ sometimes ♪" "I don't know if I'm gonna make it through this." "But I know I can't do it with you around." "So you need to stay the hell away from me." "Just go away." "♪ A movie star's part ♪" "Leave!" "♪" "(Crying)" "♪ I'm so tired ♪" "♪ of writing of cities ♪" "♪ guess that you've guessed ♪" "♪ which one this is ♪" "♪ sometimes ♪" "Hi." "(Speaks indistinctly)" "Ohh." "Come here." "Henry." "Oh, yes." "Hi, sweetie. (Kisses)" "Come on, Sam." "Addison and I were barely broken up before you made a play for her." "Look, I'm done talking about this." "Body wasn't even cold yet." "Look, you broke up with her." "She wanted a baby, and you ran." "I didn't run." "I left because I didn't want to be a father again." "So why are you back now?" "She's got a baby that isn't going anywhere." "Because I love her." "Listen, Sam, don't take this the wrong way, but if she loved you back, she wouldn't be kissing me." "Hey, she kissed us both on the same day." "(Sighs) You know what?" "We're not the problem." "So why are we arguing about this?" "(Violet) I would never want to do anything to make this worse or more complicate but Missy... (Sighs) She's showing some signs" "Risk taking, fascination with death and taboo behavior" "That are typically associated with juvenile sociopathy." "I think Missy was involved in Drea's stabbing." "That-- (Laughs) That's crazy." "Tell her she's wrong." "Gary?" "Gary." "(Gasping)" "Jasmine, how can you be this blind?" "No, you're-- You're just upset." "Missy may have killed our child." "Missy is our child." "So, uh, night-light is on and we are right down the hall." "Hey, I have a light day tomorrow." "I was thinking I could pick you up after school, we could go the park or something." "Are you really sticking with the no-talking thing?" "Charlotte said you talked to her this morning." "How was that?" "I am frustrated because you were condescending to me." "You completely dismissed my totally justified concerns..." " No, I just didn't agree." " About our patient." " I didn't dismiss it." "I d" " No, dismissing is exactly what you did." "Oh, seriously, Violet?" "Are you totally unaware of how often you tell me what I think, what I feel, why I do what I do?" "I" " She-- she forced me to get in touch with my family." "Which turned out to be a very good thing." "Or" " But-- but it wasn't your call." "Oh, come on, Pete." "I am not Lucas." "I'm a grown man" "Well, and yet our toddler is more in touch with his feelings than you are and-- and better at articulating them." "Okay, now that is a low blow." "Pete, you are so emotionally cut off and so unwilling to communicate that I have no choice but to analyze and ascribe motive." "I don't even know why our marriage is dying." "Honestly, Pete, how did we get here?" "I don't know, but I'm sure we'll discover that it was all my fault!" "(Sighs)" "(Sighs)" "Why do you look so smug?" "I'm just hopeful for the two of you." "What you're reading as smug, that's-- that's hope." "Were you not listening" "I was listening." "And it-- it was ugly." "But ugly can be honest." "Ugly can give the other person a chance to change." "Ugly gives me hope." "When it was all about being polite, your marriage didn't stand a chance." "I can't imagine your pain, knowing what comes next." "But I do know this, you're not dealing with it." "Charlotte, I'm fine." "That's crap." "Keeping everything you're going through inside, shutting out the people who love you, that's not dealing." "It's hiding." "You and I, we don't have the luxury of ignoring our emotions, hoping they'll just go away." "That bites people like us in the ass." "The only way you're gonna get through this is to let yourself every heartbreaking, gut-wrenching part of it." "You're right." "I just haven't been ready." "You want to go to a meeting?" "Could we maybe sit here for a minute instead?" "Of course." "I'm just numb, Charlotte." "That's a start." "(Exhales deeply)" "Remember when we were talking about the woman who attacked me, and you said she probably did it to feel more powerful?" "At first I thought you were so smart to figure that out, but now I think you're wrong." "I think she was probably jealous." "I was having a baby, and she wasn't." "And she..." "Lashed out." "And I don't think she was thinking about what was gonna happen after, to her or to me." "She was..." "She was just crazy." "Well, maybe" "Come on, Missy." "Why else would you stab someone?" "To know if you could really do it." "Yeah." "I don't think so." "I mean, to actually put a knife into someone else, it's..." "It's really too scary for most sane people." "It's only scary for a minute." "And then you push past that, and you're just..." "You're... in it, and..." "Well, maybe that's the way it seems in movies or-- or books that you've read, but in-- in real life" "No, no, no, no" "I'm talking about in real life." "(Whispering) I was the one who stabbed Drea." "And it..." "It wasn't that scary." "I mean, I knew I wanted to, to see what it was like." "And it was..." "It was the coolest thing I have ever done." "(Normal voice) And I mean, you're totally right," "I didn't think about what comes after." " You have the right to remain silent." " Wait." "Wait." " Anything you say can and will be used against you..." " You" " What?" " In a court of law." "You have the right to have..." " No, no, you said you understood." " An attorney present during questioning." " You need help, Missy." "No, no, no, no." "You said you understood." "Wait." "No." "Wait." "I thought you understood." "(Lowered voice) You okay?" "(Lowered voice) Oh. (Sighs)" "Yeah, he wouldn't go down last night, so..." "Now that he's finally asleep, I didn't want to move him." "He looks so peaceful." "And my spine is actually fused to this chair." "(Laughs)" "So I know that you kissed Jake." " I'm not gonna make a big deal..." " Sam." "Out of it, but" "I'm sorry about that." "Truly, I am." "But... (Sighs)" "Uh, you, me, Jake-- That seems like a lifetime ago." "I am just..." "Just consumed with this little boy." "And now I'm just a sleep-deprived mom.." "In love with her child." "Hmm?" "(Kisses)" "(Respirator hissing and clicking)" "(Monitor beeping rhythmically)" "Oh, sorry." "I'm Dr. Shepherd." "I did your daughter's neuro exam." "My wife couldn't be here anymore." "Maybe that's easier." "Huh." "There's no easy." "There's..." "There's no good." "(Sighs) My family's destroyed, and Missy is responsible for my baby girl being gone." "How do I deal with that?" "How..." "How do I go on?" "(Sniffles)" "(Beeping continues)" "I don't know." "Drea's life should count for more..." "For something." "(Sniffles)" "Uh, Dr. Wilder said something about..." "Donating organs." "(Beeping continues)" "You could do that." "She could do that." "And that would matter." "Right?" "(Beeping continues)" "To a lot of people..." "That would matter a great deal." "(Crying)" "You two got all tangled up in here last session." "I'd like to unpack that so we can understand what you both really want to communicate" "I have something to say." "You both think that if we..." "Sit in our misery, if we unpack it, if we reexamine every fight we've ever had, that that's gonna get us someplace new, is that right?" "No, that's not exactly" "Uh, no, no, no, it's not exact, but that's about right." "And I think the problem that we're having is that I fundamentally disagree." "I-I want to have fun." "Yeah, I want to laugh." "I wanna" " I want us to love each other, because we do love each other." "And I think that is more important than unpacking all the crap that we've been lugging around." "So..." "let's not unpack it." "Let's just" "Let's drop the damn suitcases." "Pete, you can't" "No." "No, no, Violet, don't answer now." "Don't." "I-I know you." "I know you'll get defensive and you'll make this about me saying that what you do doesn't work, and that isn't what I'm saying." "I'm saying that what you do isn't what I do." "And it's not what I want to do." "I just want to love you." "(First Aid Kit's "When I Grow Up" playing)" "I love you, Violet." "♪" "But I'm not gonna do this." "♪ When I grow up ♪" "♪ I want to be a forester ♪" " What did you say to him?" " Mason?" "Yeah, how'd you get him to talk to you?" "Because whatever it was, it's not working now." "And-- and he won't say a word to me." "Come on, Coop." "I've been living through the same thing you have until I finally got him to talk." "Uh-huh." "Look, you're gonna have to trust me." "No, what I have to do is protect him." "I'm his father." "And I'm his mother." "Erica was his mother." "Well, I'm sorry if that hurts your feelings." "But you're not sorry you said it." "(Clears throat)" "♪ When I grow up ♪" "♪ I want to live ♪" "♪ near the sea ♪" "♪ crab claws and bottles of rum ♪" "♪ that's what I'll have ♪" "♪ staring at a seashell ♪" "I need something good to come of this... ♪ To embrace me ♪" "My baby's life." "♪ Oh ♪" "So..." "I want you to help me to stay healthy and make sure that everything's okay." "And then when I deliver," "I want to donate my baby's organs so he can save other babies." "Lots of other babies." "♪ When I grow up ♪" "As many as we can, okay?" "Okay." "♪ I want to live near the sea ♪" "♪ crab claws and bottles of rum ♪" "♪ that's what I'll have ♪" "♪ staring at a seashell ♪" "♪ waiting for it ♪" "♪ to emace me ♪" "♪ oh ♪" "Sheldon, it's me." "I know you're not there." "Maybe you're somewhere without reception." "Anyway, um..." "I hope it's nice and your ex-wife is..." "Whatever you want her to be." "I just... (Sighs)" "♪ It goes way... ♪" "I just wish you were here." "♪ I never liked that sad look ♪" "♪ from someone who wants ♪" "♪ to be loved by you ♪" "♪ oh ♪" "Hmm?" "(Whispers) Oh, you got just the right amount of drool." "(Normal voice) Oh, look over there." "Uncle Sam and Jake." "(Both shouting indistinctly)" "(Knock on door)" "It's open." "Guess who's here." "It's auntie Violet." "Hey." "Hi." "(Singsongy) Hey, Lucas." "How you doing?" "(Normal voice) You okay?" "You sounded a little fried on your message." "Pete walked out on therapy." "Oh, I'm sorry." "It was, um..." "Weirdly romantic." "Yeah, I don't know how to explain it." "Do you want a drink?" "Yeah, I'm not breast-feeding." "Go ahead." "Get a couple glasses." "(Coos)" "(Baby-talk voice) And how are you?" "(Normal voice) I'm great." "Oh, well, Amelia told me that she hates me." "Addison, that sucks." "I know, but I have to believe that she's gonna get through it." "She will." "She totally will." "You just have to give her time." "You know, I waited so long for this, you know?" "When I finally got the call, when it finally happened, it was... a miracle." "You're my little miracle, and I'm not gonna feel bad about that." "I won't feel guilty about it, so..." "That is incredibly evolved." "Yeah?" "Yeah." "Yeah, I guess so." "And you know what else?" "Jake and Sam" "I mean, Sam knows I kissed both him and Jake, and that's okay, too." "They're over there bonding over their shared contempt of me... (Laughs) And you know what?" "I'm okay with that." "I am." "For the first time in, like, oh, I don't know, forever," "I have exactly the man that I want. (Kisses)" "This guy." "Amen." "Cheers." "(Addison) How much time do we have left?" "Uh, still about 20 minutes." "(Laughs) Okay." "I am way too happy to be here." "I'm gonna take my boy home." "Oh..." "(Coos)" "Yes. (Kisses)"