"Is it on?" "Julia." "Uh, hold on..." "My name is Julia De Groot." "I have a husband, two children, my own house." "I'm heathy." "I've got it all." "Yet sometimes I imagine drowning my husband in our pond." "Paul's first thought would be for the harm done to the water quality." "Where are my jeans?" "What?" " My jeans." "You're wearing jeans, sweetie." " The nice ones." "You were going to wash them for my talk at school." "Isabel." "Stable, down-to-earth, wise." "Presentation is everything, Mum." " Sorry, sweetie, I..." "Hey, guys, who used up all the toilet paper?" "And Tom." "We thought he had ADHD." "But he turned out to be just a boy." "Hello?" "Tom, watch what you are doing!" "Thank you." "Can you write down toilet paper?" "Thanks, darling." "Tidy up, clear away, wash up, unblock, disinfect." "There's a railing there, Tom." "Come on, this way." "That's it." "RUBBISH" "Hey!" "And finally, once a week, at 10.15 p.m. on the dot, there is marriage maintenance." "It came free with a subscription." "To what?" " To the newspaper." "Hey, darling." "Yet it wasn't always like that." "Once upon a time I was a graph with peaks and troughs." "Not a flat line." "But that was before Jimmy died." "Before I made a pact with him that would bind us to each other forever." "THE ESCAPE" "DE GROOT  DAUGHTER" "Good morning." " Hi." "Dad, this is an office, not an art museum." "Oh, Julia." "Could you..." "Sandra is the best student from her year." "We have to hold on to young talent." "I'm still sorting out the last of Sandra's mess." "Great." "Then I'll send her to see you tomorrow." "I assume you'll be seeing your mother this afternoon?" "Yes." "Could you take her some flowers from me?" "You look tired, by the way." "Thank you." "Columbines." "The symbol of foolishness." "From your father, I presume?" "Conny was here this afternoon." " Conny?" "The two of us talked to him." " Oh, one of those Connys." "He is doing fine, you know." "He sends you lots of love." "He is very busy these days." "He gives all the young people that arrive a guided tour." "Just the job for Jimmy." "Tea?" "Paul and the children are fine." "Isabel got a nine for her talk in class yesterday." "It's just me..." "Maybe it's because it's 20 years ago." "Now he has been dead longer than he was alive." "You've lost him." "We should get on with life." "Remember?" " You don't hear him calling you." "But he's there for you." "A day will come when you are ready." "And then you will see that he has never left us." "Our little sunshine." "Hi, Tom." "Mum, look, I'm Takaka." " Hi, darling." "How was your day?" "Have we got a lemon grater?" "Tom." "Can you please calm down a bit?" "Is that a good idea?" " Just one glass." "Oh God." "Tom, what did I tell you?" "Go and stand on the timeout mat." "It was an accident." "Mum, Mum, where are the sweets?" "SWEETS!" "I've got an idea." "Tom." "Tom." "Come here." "Come here, come on." "Get under the table." "Hurry up." "They mustn't see us." "Dad, Dad." "Come here." "Quickly." "We're pretending we're not here." "Come on." "No, we're... we're not going to pretend we're not here." "We're going to sit down and eat." "Then Mum'll go to the supermarket to buy some sweets." "Won't you, Julia?" "Yeah, Julia will sort it." " I asked you expressly." "And I said I'd sort it." "I realize you've had a very difficult day but can we go back to normal for a moment?" "Normal?" "This is normal?" "You turning our life into a coloured diagram." "You know very well that it's for your own good." "You still wipe Tom's bottom!" " I'm a very good father." "OK." "Maybe I should go and stand on the timeout mat?" "Goddammit." "I don't feel anything anymore." "I've had enough of pretending." "I'm completely empty, Paul." "What if we were to make more time for each other?" "How about if we go to the sauna Friday?" "I'll ask Saida if she can collect Isabel from sports club." "I'm also going to write down:" "Make an appointment with the GP." "Those pills." "Sorry, but it's not normal..." "Hey..." "You have to move on, Julia." "I'll be back." "I promise." "When the wall around my heart has gone." "Bye, Mum." "Bye, my big little man." "FROM ACCOUNT:" "DE GROOT AND DAUGHTER" "DESCRIPTION:" "THANK YOU DAD" "I'LL CALL YOU WHEN YOU ARE AWAKE, X" "What about Mum?" "Mum..." "Mum hasn't got a deadline." "But I have." "OK, here it comes." "Julia?" " Hold on, Paul." "Hello?" " Can you hear me?" "Yes, I can hear you." "Where are you?" " You were right." "I need to move on." "Where the hell are you?" " I've gone away." "I need to think." "I can understand you need time to yourself but you've got children." "A family that is relying on you." "Julia, you can't just suddenly..." "I can't hear you, Paul." "I think I'm losing the signal." "PAUL MOBILE:" "WHERE ARE TOM'S SHIN PADS?" "IN THE DR..." "Thank you." "You're not allowed to sleep here." "Try using your left hand." "I'll do it from here." "OK." "Portugal." "The Algarve." "OK." "Look." "Tea and a nice piece of cherry pie for my darling son." "I..." "I'm not really hungry, Mum." "There you are." " Thank you." "Where?" " Here." "The end of the world." "We can be there by tomorrow." "If we put our foot down." "Why couldn't I get hold of you?" "Tom has had a nightmare." "He is awake now and extremely upset." " Can you put him on?" "Hi, big man." "Did you have a horrible dream?" "I want her to come home." "Tom?" "Julia, are you still there?" " I'll come home, Paul." "I'll have a whisky, no ice." " Sorry, I don't work here..." "I do work here." "All of a sudden." "All of a sudden?" "Never mind." "Here you are." "One whisky." "My mother is Dutch." "Really?" "Where are you from?" "That is a typically European question." "Do you know what the rest of the world asks?" "Where are you going?" "That's far more relevant." "And what if you are lost?" "Then you could've done worse than here." "The most beautiful place in Europe." "Where are you going?" "That's a professional secret." "Hello, darling." "Tom has to go the speech therapist and I'm in a bit of a jam." "Where are you now?" "Hello?" "I don't think I'll make it by this evening." "I'm still in Portugal." "In Portugal?" "I'm glad you think it's funny." "What if something happens?" "Have you thought of that?" "Hold on." "Can you stay on the line?" "A customer has just come in." "Have you got him?" " Hi, Mum." "Did you take my little sunshine with you in the car?" "My..." "PAUL MOBILE:" "WHERE ARE MY TENNIS SHOES?" "IN THE CUPBOARD?" "Paul?" " Julia." "Yes." " You said you were on your way home." "Where are you now?" "Africa?" "Yes." "I'm glad you called." "I may be gone a few more days." "What?" "You're not serious." "Listen, Julia." "I'm not very happy about what you're doing." "I think this is what I need for now, Paul." "I won't be gone long." "A week at the most." "A week?" " At the most." "A week." "Fine." "Alright." "If you really do think it's what you need." "Thank you." "I just don't want the children to suffer as a result." "They need to call you four times a day." "In the morning, at lunchtime, after school and before going to bed." "ISABEL MOBILE WE'RE FINE." "WE HAD BROCCOLI." "TOM IS ALREADY IN HIS PYJAMAS." "HAVE A GOOD REST." "X" "Yeah!" "Sluts!" "Did you sleep well?" " Yes." "It's Miss Mieke today, isn't it?" "I think she'll have a lot to tell you again." "I have to go, Mum." "OK, we'll talk later." "Have fun." "Hey!" "Hey!" "Start it up." "That's it." "Take it easy." "OK." "Lights." "Great." "In that case I'm a loser." "We can't all stay 19 forever." "At last." "My mysterious neighbour." "Eddie has told me all about you." "You're that actress, aren't you?" "I'm Lotus, your neighbour." " Hi." "Have you got any plans for this evening?" "Well, in fact I was..." " There's a great beach party on." "It'll be brilliant fun." "And Eddie said you could do with some company." "OK, just one evening then." "OK." "Two." "Is there anyone here you don't know?" " Yes, everyone under 18." "Before you know it you're addicted to the sun." "And then you never want to go home." "I'm afraid I'm just here for a holiday." "Because of your work?" "Yes." "And my husband doesn't like me to be gone for more than two days." "Because of love?" " Mainly because of running the house." "No, no, forget it." "I'll pay." "Thank you." "Thank you." " You're welcome." "It's on the house." "Thank you." " You're welcome." "That's nice of him." "Hey." "Nice to see you." "Julia from the bar." "Oh, sorry." "It's a long time ago." "Julia from the bar." "Romeo." "If that's his girlfriend, I'll eat my bikini." "He's a gigolo, Julia, a very expensive one." "He's flirting with you." "With my purse, you mean." "My purse!" "Does this belong to you?" "Sorry." "I didn't..." "Oh, sorry." "My knowledge of German is very small." "Limited." "Limited." "Limited, I mean." "Two." "You are..." "You are angels." "Would you like a drink?" "Yeah?" "Don't be scared." "Come on." "Never scared again." "Love, love, love." "Hello?" " Listen." "I thought we'd clearly agreed." "You want to have fun on your own." "I'm fine with that." "But the children mustn't suffer as a result." "Christ, Paul." "I just need to get up." " Not so loud." "Is there someone with you?" " Not that I know of." "Time to think..." "Great." "Now I understand." "Christ, surely you don't think I..." "I'm sick of this carry-on." "Just come home today." "End of story." "That isn't what we agreed." "I just want to..." "I. I. I. I. How about talking about me for a change?" "Slut." "What did you say?" "OK, time to go." "The party's over." "That was my husband, he's on his way." "Yeah, yeah, your husband." "We're going for a swim first." " Yeah, bye." "No." "Yeah, throw them all in." " Yeah, all of them." "One, two..." "We can get something better than a fat, old woman with... saggy tits." "What's the matter, Mum?" "I don't know." "I don't know anymore, Julia." "What don't you know anymore, Mum?" " Your dad leaves." "Then Jimmy." "Then you." "What is to become of me?" "Listen. lf Paul has called you..." " Of course Paul has called me." "Who else would he call?" " Mum..." "Off gallivanting with God knows who, while your kids are unhappy at home." "That's not true." " Do you know what the worst thing is?" "Mum!" " It's all my own fault." "Because I always give, give, give without ever asking for anything in return." "And Jimmy was the only one who saw that." "He understood me because he was like that too." "A giving person who would never ask for anything." "Always..." "Beautiful." "Maybe a 48?" "I also tell myself quite strictly that I have to lose five kilos." "It has to be a real wow effect." "I mean, if I can be honest, a hairdresser is fun and great and stuff, but at our age just treating the symptoms is no longer enough." "At my age, you mean." " Is that what you think?" "There's a very good clinic nearby." "Good afternoon, madam." "Will you please be married to me?" "Just for this lunch." "I'm sorry." "I'm so hungry." "It's the only thing I can think of." "My wife means Madrigal Branco." " Of course, sir." "Thank you." "No house wine at my table." "I'd like to thank you for your advice about staying here." "Have you finished losing your way?" " I needed a sort of... sabbatical." "To get away from my hectic life at home." "Your hectic life...?" " As an actress." "Go on then." "Anything I may have seen?" "Yes." "No, no." "I'm mainly in art films." "The coarse-grained circuit." "Such as?" "Excuse me." "Madam would like steak." "One that can't swim." "Thanks for the company." "And tell the kids I'll be late home tonight." "Wait." "I..." "Wait." "I..." "I want to hire you." "You want to what?" "Hire you." "For... you know." "Your job." " I don't know what you are talking about." "I can pay you." "That's not how it works." "I'm very choosy when it comes to clients." "I don't think this is what you are looking for." "You never find the most important things when you're looking for them." "Eh?" "5,000." "For a week?" " A night." "Casa de Criança." "Tomorrow evening, 9 o'clock." "Hi." "Hi." "Hi." "Hi." " Hi." "Hello." "So..." "What are we doing?" "Going for the longest handshake in history?" "No." "This is for you." "That comes later." "Would you like... a drink?" "Water... or wine?" "Or... something stronger?" " Later maybe." "Let's talk first." "Talk?" " Yes." "About this evening." "OK." " What exactly you expect from me." "Isn't there a sort of standard treatment... package... thingy?" "No." " Something that works for most women." "No." "Can you dance?" "Undo me, please." " No." "Undo me." "Christ." "Go away." "I'm doing what you want." "Why don't you go away?" "Go away." "Are you OK?" "I'll put you to bed." " Bed sounds good." "I want to feel something." "And forget the rest." "Up you go." " One..." "Is no fun." " Be careful." "You've got a lovely house." " Come on." "Two and three don't see." " Be careful." "Five." "My mother tells lies." "Six, seven." "He was ready for heaven." "No one noticed." "I'm sorry." "Hey, how far is it still to Portugal?" "Jim..." "We're not going back." "Can you feel how hot it is here?" "I think I can already smell the sea." "Maybe we can go swimming later." "Or sailing." "Come on then." "LIKES IT ROUGH, ANALLY" " TARZAN TALK ABOUT THE KIDS" ""THE SEA BASS" CASA DE CRIANÇA ALBUFEIRA." "ACTRESS" "Sea bass..." "SAT 28/1 23:00 BIZARRE BALL" " FORTE DO VALE" "Password?" " Plato." "Password?" " Plato." "Why did you follow me?" " I didn't." "I've brought your jacket." "And you followed me." "OK." "So I followed you a bit." "But only because I'm disappointed." "5,000 euros." "And that was all?" "I want a credit note." "Or a discount." "Listen." "This is no place for you." "Go home." "OK." "Right." "Romeo?" "I'm coming." "Look at me." "Look at me." "Yeah?" "Oh, Christ, no, not again." "Was I still owed all this?" "Pain comes of its own accord." "Pleasure is something you have to work at." "That's what Jimmy always said." "Jimmy?" "He's currently giving guided tours to new arrivals at heaven's gate." "Can you switch those birds off?" "I'm the loser." "I drew the shortest straw." "Oh, come on." "It's true." "I will be the one left behind." "Yeah?" "Want to swap?" "I'll have your room too, and your CDs." "Have you already thought which you want?" " Don't be stupid." "There's only one, maybe two months left." "Then it'll all be over." "No more hospitals, no more vomit to clean up." "Of course you think about it." "I'm a burden on you." " That's not true, Jim." "You can't wait." "Can you?" "To put me in the ground." "To carry on as if..." "as if I were never here." "Promise me you'll do something with your life." "That you'll live life for two." "Promise me." "Hey." "Hey." "Come here." "Come here." "I think I'll go and get something to drink." "I'm going to do something fun today." "Maybe go for a drive." "Or a walk." "I'll be fine." " I know." "Go with the movements." "Don't fight them." "Come on." "Lean back." "Let yourself go." "You're beautiful, you know." "When I'm angry?" " When you let go." "OK." "Close your eyes." "We're there." "The end of the world." "The end of the world." "We can be there by tomorrow." "If we put our foot down." "Julia." "Hey..." " I'm sorry." "I didn't..." "Let's go home." "And then?" "Have sex, drink and forget the rest?" "What's the matter?" "Talk to me." "What is it with you and questions?" "Something to drink." "That sounds good." "Four to six is have a drink." "One, two and three are questions." "OK?" "General knowledge questions?" " Personal ones." "Is there nothing you want to know about me?" "How old are you?" "39." " Quite old for a..." "One question at a time, madam." "OK..." "Five, five, five, five, five." "How do you do it?" "How do I do what?" " This." "Your job." "Something beautiful can always be found in someone." "A beautiful face, soft breasts, a sweet accent." "Or I just think of something else." "And me?" "What do you do with me?" " Your turn." "Your job?" " I've already told you." "I'm an actress." "No lying." "Accountant in my father's firm." "Have you ever been in love with a client?" "Never?" " I don't allow them to get to me." "That doesn't count." " Why did you leave your family?" "That fell off the table." "It doesn't count." "Why did you leave your family, Julia?" " Why did you become a gigolo?" "Her name was Elisa." "She's currently giving guided tours at heaven's gate." "We were married ten years ago." "Who was Jimmy?" "I haven't thrown yet." "He can't go on." "You can see he can't." "It's not up to the doctors to decide." "Mum..." "And that's an end of it." "What happened to him?" "If you feel better, we can go swimming later." "Or have an ice cream." "You know how to order one, don't you?" "I would like..." "I would like a chocolate ice cream." " Jul..." "I can't go on." "Here." "A tasty snack." " Not that." "This... 5 o'clock." "Tomorrow morning, here." "Julia." "I'm stopping." "Don't feel like it anymore." "I'm being honest with you." " I've had enough." "A game of dice." "How old are we?" "Fourteen?" "Do I have to spell it out?" "Gigolo." "You sell fairy tales." "And I pay for them." "That's how it works." "You're 12 minutes early." "How do I look?" " Like you did yesterday." "I'm dying, Julia." " I know." "We're going to answer Mum's prayer." "She has to think God did it." "I'm going back to bed." "I really can't go on, Julia." "Sometimes I see the real Julia behind all the masks and the jokes." "Says the man who lies for a living." "But who can stop just like that if he wants to." "I'm glad you're doing this." "Don't be sad." "I want to see the man behind Romeo." "What's his real name?" "Johnny?" "Wesley?" "Bokito?" " Stop it." "Hey, we can start again." "Together." "We'll buy a restaurant that looks out over the sea." "We'll buy a boat." "This stays between you and me." "Forever." "Do you want a gigolo?" " Yes." "Do you want a gigolo?" "Eh?" " Yes." "Prepare yourself, little bush." "Fairy tales." "Remember?" "Who licks my windows with black flames." "Prepare yourself and be ready." "Because death is tender when it comes." "Please, don't go." "I had to go and see him." "At five in the morning." "I'd checked the alarm clock at least twenty times." "I can't go on, Jimmy." "I can't go on." "You helped him." "You helped him." "You were a young girl." "Who did as her brother asked." "Richard." "My name is Richard." "May I use your phone?" "Sure." "Isabel speaking." " Isabel, it's Mum." "Mum?" "Is that you?" "Tom, it's Mum." "Thank you, Richard." "My name is Julia De Groot." "I had a husband, two children, my own house." "I had it all." "Mum." " But maybe..." "Hi, sweetheart." "Maybe it's not too late." " Hi." "Hi, my big little man." "Has the wall gone?" "What?" " The wall around your heart." "Has it gone?" "Yes." "You did well, Paul." "The house, the children." "I had no choice." "If something had gone wrong, you would have had to live with it." "So that's where all your savings went." "I'm pleased with it." "I'm sure you weren't the only one." "I want to give it another try, Paul." "If we dare to let go of each other a bit more." "If we give each other more space to see who we are." "I can understand you've come back for the kids, but did you come back for me too?" "I still desire you." "I still do." "Which makes it even more painful." "I'm not the one you are looking for." "That doesn't matter." "He'll come along." "All by himself." "You look like a mountain with legs." "Hey, old mountain, come on." "Right, OK." "There's another pillow." "Where are you?" "Can you see that one there?" "Which one?" " That red one." "A red one." "I think it looks like it's on fire." "Wow." "Can you see it as well?" " Yes." "Mum?" "Are you scared at night too?" "No, sweetheart." "Not anymore."