"Dear Gangotri, precious Ganga," "today I look at you... almost the same way I did... when I first arrived here." "Winter is coming... and I may decide to leave." "You have held me despite all odds." "I don't think... I will everfind a place as good as here." "Please show me what I must do." "I seem so undecided and confused." "Fairwinds blowing now" "Just don't wait when a fairgirl comes along" "Just don't wait when a fairgirl comes along" "Don't miss this chance babe" "Just don't wait" "Just don't wait when a fairgirl comes along" "They are all going into the fire." "It's been 8 years." "Totally 8 years now... in a cave." "So you must be quite serious about it, if you want to stay in a cave," "because the outside world always pulls you." "Sooner or later, you know, you get..." "Something is not right... if you're not on the right path, sometimes, there are many dangers on the spiritual path." "Sometimes you get dull, sometimes you feel lonely, sometimes you feel frustrated about certain things, you are not progressing." "You have so many doubts... and so it's a very very difficult journey." "There is a kind of emptiness." "Especially at this moment, I am not totally feeling all right, probably going to the temple might help, or worshiping the gods." "Sadhu is a man... going through shifts of consciousness... between the mundane and what we would call... higher aims of life." ""Sad"means truth... and sadhu is a seekerof truth." "He is a holy man, a renounciant, trying to live a simple life." "Chaste and pure." "He lives on the lap of mother nature... in his reclusive cave, at the very source of the Ganges." "Meanwhile... sadhu his having a battle in his mental field... which quickly tires him," "and he is not able... to maintain the serenity in the Himalayas." "He must find peace." "His human nature is at play continuously... between the mundane and the saint." "If everything could be solved... just by sitting in position... and thinking about remembering god... and getting enlightened, life would be easy, wouldn't it?" "But no!" "There is a lot of gravity in everything." "The unconsciousness, it always pulls you down." "So you know, the mind, the naughty mind has to go out... in search of other things, and that's the most unfortunate thing." "But one always feels that "l didn't get anything", there is something else somewhere else waiting." "The sound of the river is good." "The fire goes on." "Just keep it burning." "Keep it burning, burning, burning," "It was so cold." "This blanket is nothing." "I was cold, so I didn't have a good sleep actually." "So strange." "Most of it I don't need anymore." "8 years." "New Kumbha Mela after 12 years." "More than 70 million sadhus... and pilgrims reunite at Haridwar, where the nectarof immortality fell in the Ganges." "All the sadhus are leaving forthe Maha Kumbha Mela." "Should I also?" "This will be my first pilgrimage." "I don't know what I'm looking for, but I'm ready for a change." "I hope this change will be good for me." "Otherwise, what am I looking for?" "This is a big question mark." "It's only a change." "Probably something better will happen, probably something good will happen, some bright things will happen." "Many sadhus, many people, ordinary people... go on a pilgrimage barefoot, you know," "for once." "Now I want to surrender for a while to the gods." "I'll go barefooted, I'll eat whatever comes on the way, whatever donation I get on the way." "So this is the greatest pilgrimage," "and then you come back, when your mind is quieter." "If you persist in spite of all these things, sometimes you are victorious." "Sometimes all those desires slowly, slowly go away." "There's a man on the other side of the river" "Crying mama" "Man on the other side of the river" "Crying mama" "You hear his voice singing out" "When you're some miles away" "You can here his voice singing out" "When you're some miles away" "There's a man on the other side of the river" "Crying mama" "There's a man on the other side of the river" "Crying mama" "Even when it's snowing, he's out there alone" "Stormy, rainy or sunny" "He's out there alone" "It feels good." "Let's see what unfolds in the next few days... or this one or two month to come, while I am here... I need to get used to the crowd." "For health reasons, please do not smoke." "Victory to god's court!" "Victoire a la cour de dieu!" "Victory to lord Shiva!" "It is a very good experience." "I was very cold in the morning, but then I saw everybody having a bath." "I felt that I'm also... part of the same humanity, and so I also jumped into the water. lt was good." "Bless me, please!" "I have stomach problems and diabetes." "You could be my mother, how can I?" "You are a yogi, god is with you!" "Why did you come here?" "To see the Kumbha Mela, it is my first time." "But my routine will change this year." "And to go where?" "I will go... elsewhere, I haven't decided yet." "I would probably say... I'm more of a sadhu now than I ever was." "I am calm and serene, my nature is different from all this." "That is not the problem." "No, it's a different story." "At what time do you take your bath in Gangotri?" " My bath?" " At what time?" "At 9 or 10 in the morning, why?" "No!" "You cannot do yoga like that." "Sorry." "My guru, he is the one on the sign, have you seen his photo?" "Look!" "Don't take this the wrong way, but my guru wakes up every day... at 2 in the morning for his ablutions." "Isn't that true, brother?" "The food that you consume in 15 days... is his offering to his fire every morning." "He will come and I'll introduce you." " What's his name?" " Keval Puri." "Just like on the sign." "I've finally met him, my lord." "You've met him?" "Very good, aren't you happy to have met him?" "Yes, yes, of course." "You know, sadhus are always awake." "The night is there to bring you closer to god, not to sleep." "So you must sleep little." "The night belongs to those who stay awake, you know?" "When you are not in peace... you burn more energy." "That's when I need more sleep." "lnconscient!" "For us sadhus, only the inconscious sleep." "Sleep less!" "Observe more." "If you sleep too much, you are an inconscious." "Normal people sleep, not the sadhus." "While they sleep, I stay up." "Do you understand?" "Go and rest now, tomorrow we'll wake up early." "Do you want to take my place?" "No, no, no." "Oh, I see." "Okay, us, we are friends." "But you will never really be able... to belong to our family." " Yes." " That is the problem." "When they see you like this, they will ask questions." "Something is not in harmony in my own system." "Well," "they see your outer appearance... and they judge you by your outer appearance." "You must have a certain way of putting your clothes, sadhu clothes, you must have a certain way of wearing the tilak, to put ash on your body, or to keep dreadlocks." "ou avoir des dreadlocks." "A different system of hierarchy has been created." "There is a place for the great Sadhu, he is given a throne, a high seat, and everybody bows down to him, all the other sadhus bow down to him." "And then there are just the beginners... who nobody bothers about." "I never wanted to get... into this kind of system, it's terrible." "If you see it from the individual's point of view, a sadhu is a sadhu who lives alone." "But to live in a family like this, you know, to have certain codes of conduct, to have certain kinds of rituals to follow," "this is what I could never agree to in my whole life." "Not with any religion, not with any school, not with any systems, not with any joint membership... or anything like that." "To give up house, to give up name and fame, to give up everything and become a sadhu... it's a different thing. lt is the search for God." "Not to seek for... satisfaction in life, fulfilling your desires, but to go and transcend your desires and become... one with the ultimate, the absolute," "the great God, to merge into that great vastness, not to be bothered by food... or little things like this." "To recognize who you are." "I had expected a lot from this Kumbha Mela, but what I see here is just a big circus, a theatre, lots of pretensions everywhere." "Does one even have to pretend to be a sadhu?" "What do I pretend to be?" "We have the trumpets, the elephants, where are the clowns?" "Instead offinding my path here, I am lost." "Now, where?" "I want to go to the source of all creations, the end of all pilgrimages, where all roads end." "To the holy Lakes near Tibet." " Where do you come from?" " From Gangotri." "Gangotri in India?" " What are you doing?" " l am wandering." "We're all wandering." "The holy Lakes..." "There is still a long way to go." "Varanasi." "There is a world out there going crazy." "The surging human civilization... could disable any sensitive soul." "All indicates... that we are missing a great deal in life." "Ja, be here and now... to reassure and appreciate life the way it is." "Hey rasta, oh rasta, living on the road" "Anywhere you go" "Anywhere you live on the road" "Hey rasta, oh rasta, living on the road" "Just as well you know" "You've got to let yourself go on the road" "Feeling good inside is like feeling good outside" "On the road" "Hey rasta, oh rasta, living on the road" "Hey rasta, oh rasta, being on the road" "Hey rasta, oh rasta, living on the road" "Don't you have bigger ones?" "No." "But they will stretch as you walk." "They are size 10." "Thank you very much." "Thank you so much." "Thank you, ladies and gentlemen... for your support." "Once more!" "Once more!" " Last one." " Once more." "Haven't you seen love go by" "Every moment of your life" "Haven't you seen love go by" "Every moment of your life" "I've seen, watching you go" "Yes I've seen" "Watching you go" "Yes I've seen" "Watching you go" "Yes I see" "Watching you go" "To be religious... I don't know if..." "You know, it is a very..." "At this stage of my life, I come to understand so much, and suddenly, I realize that I can't do anything about it." "It's a very sad thing to think about." "I don't know. I cannot tell you anything." "What's wrong with the sadhu?" "I don't know about what I was talking yesterday." "It was some sort of craziness." "I just became sensitive about certain things, and that is not fair." "It is spoiling the meaning of pilgrimage." "As I told you, no monasteries interest me, no temples interest me anymore." "There's something more concrete I'm looking for." "Probably, there's a change in my life..." "Did you finish your tea?" "Was it nice?" "Salty?" "Why this "if"..." "Why not "l am"." "Am I a sadhu or not?" "Or..." "Am I a sadhu or a human being, or am I this or that?" "So, this journey... is a pilgrimage..." "Pilgrimage, because... lt is really strong, this brew." "I thought it was like water, and now I feel like... boom!" "What do you put in your alcohol?" "Rice and flour mixed." "It's very good for the heart, full of vitamins." "Yeah, I wish I could be... I always imagined myself..." "To tell you frankly, because today... I'm drinking to be in the spirit." "I'lljust say that... I always imagined myself singing in a movie." "In one of these movies with music, and stories, and children..." "With children and stories and all that kind of stuff." "I always imagined myself... that I could be spontaneous with music." "But then I thought, probably..." "And naturally it won't come, it takes a little spirit." "Words don't tell too much" "About yourfeelings" "The meal is ready." "Months to reach the holy Lakes," "and still in the middle of nowhere." "Are we awake?" "Are we bloody awake?" "Why not..." "Why this separation, why this gap, incompleteness?" "Why the crisis?" "Why the struggle to celebrate life?" "Life became totally upside down." "But after all these years of suffering, there is something that has been disbalanced... in my whole thinking, my whole brain, my whole..." "After all, sadhu is a seeker, seeking the essence of life." "Happiness, perfection, what is the essence of life?" "To be a holy man?" "Or simply a good guy?" "It's wonderful." "It's wonderful to be here." "I cannot say those things out" "When I am sober" "And quiet" "God knows... what!" "It's a big question." "Do you prefer cold water?" "Oh no, I already drink that all year." "Baby I love you, I love you, I love you" "Baby I love you, I love you" "Oh God." "God knows..." "Good morning, good morning." "There is water on the moon." "See?" "It's the proof: we are on the moon." "Oh lord, lord, where do I go?" "Although I was living a sadhu life, all that past is gone... in these vast wilderness of a pilgrimage." "Oh lord, do you have any answers at all?" "Although, you know, I already got... I mean, I'm not so old, I'm still young." "What do you say?" "You know, like, one part of me was saying, ok l'll go back to Gangotri, I'll throw everything in the Ganga... I'll just sit quietly, you know, like... I wouldn't care for anything in life." "You know, like I've had already lived my life... I wouldn't want to live anymore." "And there is another part of it... it says: ok l'm going to leave everything," "and probably if this desire is strong enough, I would like to live... caring for and sharing with someone." "And this on and off switches you on and off." "It's kind of, you know, like..." "What do I really want, truly?" "And that question becomes a question... and another question and..." "But it is..." "On this journey, I really felt like, yes, I should let go." "So if you die somewhere, like..." "So, the end of life is almost like let loose, it's like the wind." "And all the passion has been burnt, and therefore the end is totally like... dust in the wind." "It just goes. lt's like that." "Very close to the very place, the very end of our pilgrimage, actually." "Because what would one expect from a pilgrimage, go to the origin of something concrete." "And here we are, so far away, somewhere." "Away away away." "Somewhere lost in the kingdom of the mountains." "Okay, let's go." "Now I think the time has come." "The time has come... so that we can move our own ways." "So long we have been together." "It feels uncomfortable, because there is attachment, and then..." "After being so long together on this pilgrimage, we have to move our own ways." "It feels strange." "Now, I have to stay here, then you go on with your journey." "But I have to be here, so that I can... I can slowly slowly prepare myself... for my last journey." "TlTRA film Geneve"