"NAKED UNDER THE MOON" "When our family business failed and our house was taken by the bank we came back to the house that was left by my grandmother... and my mother's twin brother, Uncle Domeng." "That's when my father decided that we should just live a simple life" "For him, it's just enough that we could eat, study and go to church every Sunday." "Lauro." "Lauro, Lerma's gone." " Lerma's gone." " Huh?" "Lerma!" "Lerma!" "Lauro!" "Lauro, come on!" "Alright." "What's the matter, Mom, Dad?" "We'll look for your sister." "Stay here." "Domeng!" "Lerma sleepwalked again!" "Let's look for her." "Lerma, my daughter!" "Lerma, my daughter!" "Lerma!" "Lerma!" "Lerma, wake up!" "Wake up!" "Mom..." "Buy a padlock tomorrow." "Something might happen to her again." "Lauro?" "Don't forget the padlock." "Lauro?" "Are you listening?" "I said, don't you forget the lock." "I'll get them, don't you worry." "You should have woke me up earlier, mom." "I'm sorry, I forgot." "Dress up, hurry." "Agnes, hurry up or you'll be late!" "Coming!" "Your allowance." "Take care." "Lerma, you sleepwalked again last night." "Your father will buy a padlock to be placed on your room when you're sleeping." "We have no choice." "Something bad might happen to you again." "Your breakfast is ready" "Please go to the market after your meal." "Lauro... when will you deliver Narra and Coconut husks?" "They're in demand lately." "Mabuhay's no good anymore." "I'll tell the loggers." "Don't you worry." "Ok, Narra then." "the young ones." "There was a feast yesterday on the other town a lot of people drowned." "9 young people." "Ador, it's Lerma." "I sleepwalked again last night." "Really?" "They said, I walked naked." "Naked?" "And you don't even know it?" "It was dangerous." "Good thing no one touched you." "It's a good thing that's no one's around." "It was dark... they've found me in the woods." "That's dangerous." "They will lock me up again in my room." "Just like when I was young." "And you agreed to it?" "I have no choice." "Do you remember something when you sleepwalk?" "Nothing." "I don't really know." "I was asleep." "I only get to know where I was when I wake up or when somebody wakes me up." "When somebody molests you?" "It only happened once." "When we were young." "When I woke up I'm all soaked in blood." "It's a good thing that he kept you alive." "Who might that be?" "Who?" "The one who raped me." "Why?" "I just want to know." "I still see him in my dreams but just his shadow." "No face." "Are you crazy?" "Forget about it." "I want to kill him." "Let me." "Let's go." "Here..." "They would always find me here." "I always woke up here before." "It's all blood-stained." "Here... there..." "I would have died if not because of the blood transmussion." " Ador" " Why?" "Who might that be?" "Who knows?" "I was only 7 years old." "How could he do that?" "Even infants get raped nowadays, Lerma." "Forget about it." "Why?" "Lerma?" "Walk me home." " See you." " See you, Ador." "Roman dropped by yesterday." "Asking for payment." "I'll drop by his place." " Roman." " Lauro." "My wife said you were at my home yesterday." "Just checking if you're already doing well." "Still nothing." "Business keeps getting worse." "Competition is tough on charcoal." "Customers demand narra and coconut husks." "Have a seat" "A little amount will do." "I'll find a way." "Just give me more time." "When?" "By next week." "Let's go inside." "I have some great coffee there." " No, thanks." " Don't be shy." "Lauro," "When will you run the fishpond and hatchery?" "I don't know yet." "I'll try to get a loan, though." "So I could also start the Piggery." "I just don't know." "What a waste." "It was good." "Just bad luck." "You'll get it back someday." "Just in case... that you'll be having problems regarding Agnes' school fees I'll be supporting it." "I'm his godfather anyway." "Thanks" "Roman, why don't you get married?" "This big house needs to be taken cared of a woman." "You're right." "Susan's coming home." "Her contract in New Zealand will end soon." "You're invited to our wedding, ok?" " When?" " Next month!" "Roman Fanlo will finally be a padre de familia!" "I've waited for so long." "Roman thanks for the coffee." "...and for the extension." "Drink up!" "We're doing good this season!" "Yeah" "You know what I'm planning on leaving this place." "Doesn't matter where I'll go, I'm tired of this place." "Nothing happens for me here." "It's the same everyday." "I don't know about you..." "..but I'm happy with the way things are" "How about you?" "I don't know." "I'm not happy." "I'm happy here." "I'm not." "Lerma's been quiet for weeks now." "She's mad that she has to stop studying for a while." "She's been sleepwalking again" "There's a clerical job post at the nunnery, why don't you send her there?" "I bet she'll qualify there, she's already on her 2nd year in college, right?" "She might cause you trouble." "She's too picky with people." "She finds it hard to adjust." "She's scary when she's angry" "One time, she pushed one of her classmates down the stairs it's a good thing she's safe." "Then, she needs to adjust more." "To socialize." "Send her to the nunnery." "I'll reserve the slot for her." "Don't let her stay at home for too long." "Don't forget to tell Clara." "Yes, father." "I'll take care of Sister Louie" "Thank you, father." "Do you have a problem?" "I'm still disturbed." "Lauro, it's been 19 years, and you're still at it?" "I don't know." "Maybe, I just can't accept it..." "Now that's the real problem." "I'm outside the church, yet..." "We all have our own fate...." "I'm sure that I chose to be a priest." "You're already married." "You're not a priest at all." "I don't know what I am anymore." "On what's my purpose." "It seems like I'm useless." "There's a retreat on the other parish." "They've been inviting participants, I'll recommend you." "You might need it." "Ok?" "Your classmate's fine now." "She'll be released in the hospital within this week." "I talked with her family." "They're not mad at you." "Even your classmate's not mad." "And apologized for fooling around." "The dean told me that she'd only accept you next year." "If you want to get transferred just tell me." "Your mother told you about Father Mariano's offer, right?" "Hope you'd accept it." "It would be a good experience for you." "Let's have our dinner." "Lerma, let's go." "Dr. Susan Go's arriving soon." "Roman's fiancé, remember?" "Roman told me that their wedding will be grand." "Have they been together for a long time?" "Yes" "Your mom told me they were childhood friends." "So Mom, you're also friends with Dr. Go?" "Yes" "How about my godfather?" "Your work here is easy, Lerma." "You'll just monitor the donations that we'll be receiving that was intended for depressed areas." "Make regular follow-ups." "You have to coordinate with the leaders, it's important." "Especially on the youth sector." "You also have to check if the distribution of our services are on time." "Every once in a while, I'll bring you with me when I teach catechism." "If you want, you may also teach." "What do you think?" "Let's go." "Hi, everybody!" "This is Lerma Pajaron." "Lerma, you'll be working with them here." "Lerma?" "Lerma!" "Lerma!" "Lerma's here, mom!" "How's your work?" "How's your work?" "Will you please, leave me alone?" "!" "You're annoying!" "I'll be gone for a week." "Please look after Lerma." "I already talked to Domeng." "He'll be staying here for a while." "I am Alfredo Hilario." "I came from a distant place: from Panabo, Davao" "And I am a priest." "I'm Lauro Pajaron." "I was a priest." "...was a priest..." "I'm originally from Negros." "An Ilonggo." "I'm now from Ilocos since my wife's Ilocana." "She brought me here when she took me out of priesthood." "My parents were both caretakers of a Hacienda" "I grew up in a very quiet home." "That's because my parents were very quiet..." "No they were really great people." "Hardworking." "Very loving." "Adoring." "Until tragedy strucked." "My older brother, who were in the seminary died in an accident." "That was a few days before he was ordained." "My parents never recovered from it." "That's why I promised to be a priest for them." "for my brother." "and for myself." "Honestly I still can't accept the fact that I'm not in my vocation anymore." "Lerma" "Please, stop it!" " Why do you always meddling with the things I do?" "!" " We're just thinking of your condition." "Please stop it." "Please." "Please..." "My parents never wanted me to be a priest." "I came from a family of lawyers, so they want me to be one." "There are fiscals, judges, it's hard for me to keep up." "It took a long time before they accepted my chosen vocation." "I really wanted it." "I once returned to that Barrio in Samar." "I joined my flock in their flight." "Military harassments are endless." "We only eat sweet potatoes." "A number of men disappeared." "They escape at night." "Some of them were killed once they're caught." "One of them... was shot in the head... right in front of me." "For almost a year... we were there disconnected from the outside... as captives... of the military." "A lot of children died of sickness." "It is only there that I saw.... ...extreme suffering." "Some of the women are loosing their minds..." "I started questioning God..." "What kind of justice does He have?" "I was challenging Him." ""Show your self to me if you are real", I said to him." "Why are you doing this to us?" "Why?" "Don't touch me." "What do you want from me?" "Why?" "Susan's coming home and you never told me about it." "You never even said your plans to me." "I thought we already talked about it?" "That we'll stop this once she came back." "I never promised you anything." "What about me?" "What about Agnes?" "I'll never forget my obligation to her." "To you." " To all of you." " You beast!" "Let go of me!" "I don't want to..." "I said, I don't want to!" "God never wanted us to be poor." "He wanted us to have a better life." "He wanted us to have shelter." "For us to eat... at least three times a day." "For our kids to study..." "This organization is not only for housing but also for food and other basic need." "Along with it are our spiritual needs." "To know God and his will." "We must live according to his will and goodness." "Do you plan to marry me?" " uhm... of course - when?" "Once I saved enough money." "Getting married is not that simple." "I'll help you save up." "Let's go, I'll drive you home." "I'm coming with you." " Where?" " I'll go fishing with you tonight." " Are you sure?" " yes" "I might get in trouble with your parents." "I'll take care of them." "Let's go." "See you!" "Lerma?" "Agnes." "I'm going to bed now." "Father..." "I can't take it anymore." "It's so hard..." "Tell your sins to God for Him to forgive and guide you." "Speak up, my child." "I've been fooling my husband for years now.." "I've been sleeping with another man." "My youngest child..." "Agnes was never my husband's child." "And he doesn't know it." "And he doesn't know it." "Agnes is not his child." "Help me, father." "It's all so hard for me..." "Clara!" " Thank you." " for what?" "For dropping by." "How are you?" "My chest feels lighter now." "Thanks for the recommendation." "I'll be facing my responsibilities, as a husband... once I get home." "You might get shocked on what I'm gonna say..." "Even I was shocked to myself that I get to open about my life with Clara among the participants." "That during those 19 years that we've been together we've only had sex twice." "First, when she intoxicated me in a convent in Bacolod she's clearly tempting me." "That's when we had Lerma." "Then three years later she intoxicated me again to have sex with me." "That's when we had Agnes." "The acceptance of truth is man's true redemption." "It is only now that I see Clara's sacrifices." "What is it?" "I don't know!" "I saw her go to the coal room." "Mom?" "Mom!" "Mom!" "Mom?" "Mom?" "Dad... let's go home." "Dad, let's go home." "Lerma!" "Lerma!" "Lerma!" "Agnes?" "Uncle Domeng?" "Lerma, let's go home." "Let's go." "Just ignore them." "You know that I don't want people following me around." "I'd rather concentrate on studying than on relationships." " Really?" " so, what now?" " I'll go home now." " Ok, see you!" "Agnes!" "Ninong!" " How are you?" " I'm doing fine." " I'll drive you home." " really?" "thanks!" "Let's go." "I have something important to tell you." "Agnes..." "I have a lot to tell you..." "I don't know how... or where I should start..." "What's the matter?" "Agnes..." "I'm your real father." "What?" "I'm your real father." "How could..." "Hope you'd forgive me..." "But I think this is the time for you to know..." "Agnes!" "Liar!" "If you want to know the truth, hear me out!" "Lerma?" "Lerma?" "Help me, please." "The doctor said you're pregnant." "Ador..." "It's already late, what are you doing here?" " I'll be sailing now." " I'm pregnant." "What are we going to do?" "I..." "I don't know." "Let's get married." "Lerma, it's not that easy!" "Let's think about it..." "We'll talk once I got back." " ok?" " what would happen to me now?" "Come on..." "It's getting late." "Go on." "So, you're back." "Lerma, I love you so much." "Fuck you!" "You, son of a bitch!" "Agnes?" "You know Lerma's condition, right?" "What's your plan?" "I don't know." "Take responsibility on what you've done!" "It's none of your business!" "Dumbass!" "Coward!" "You've been quiet for a while now, eh?" "Your silence is scary." "I have a problem..." "Just forget about it..." "No, I can't." "Ok, I'll just go home." "Take care of your self, bastard!" "You beast!" "I'm begging you, Ador... if you can't take responsibility on what you've done to my daughter then leave this town!" "I'll kill you for sure the next time I see you." "Lauro!" "Lauro!" "What have you done to your self, Lauro?" "!" "What is happening to you?" "!" "What's the point of living now I can't do anything for my family..." "I can't forgive myself for neglecting Clara and to my children..." "I never took care of them..." "It's all my fault..." "Lauro... ..if you think that it's your fault ask forgiveness from God." "Is there a God, father?" "Even I, Lauro... ..I'm still trying to know him more." " Is He true for you?" " He's true in my heart." "Why did He let this happen to Clara?" "How's she going to be in peace?" "How are we going to be in peace?" "For our own peace of mind I'll forget my vows... for you... for Clara... for me it's also hard for me..." "I need to tell you this." "And you need to accept the whole truth." "Two days before Clara took her life she confessed to me." "She told me that Agnes was not your child." "She's Roman's daughter." "She asked me to talk to you and ask for your forgiveness." "She's already pregnant the night when she drank with you to have sex" "Please forgive her." "Perhaps, her soul might rest in peace." "Domeng please take care of your nieces..." "I'll be leaving for a while." "I'll be leaving for a while." "Take care of them." "I'm Atty." "Dino Evangelista." "Roman Fanlo's lawyer" "Agnes, here are the certificates of your inheritance of some of his lands and of your former house." "He left these before he left to New Zealand." "There's a letter there for you and for your father." "Agnes he's not here, Lerma." "He's not here..." "Thanks anyways" "Good luck!" "No luck." "Somebody saw him at the desert and just the other day somebody saw him at the town proper." "Wandering around like crazy." "Even Father Mariano and Sister Louie are searching for him." "Dad!" "I named him after you, Dad." "Please, try to be good people." "Please do good." "How are you now, Lauro?" "You were gone for over 9 months!" "May I know where you went?" "I went far, father." "What happened?" "I saw man's greatness and goodness." "I've also been through man's wickedness and violence." "though great suffering immeasurable pain..." "I've been in hell, father." "I saw hell." "Dad... ..you want some coffee?" "No, thanks." "Agnes..." "Look at him..." "He smells good..." "Where's dad?" "Wait here, I'll call him." "Dad?" "Dad?" "Dad!" "How are you, Lerma?" "I'm doing good." "How about Agnes?" "She's in school, as of this moment." "How's your child?" "He's been running around..." "It's a good thing you dropped by," "I need to go." "Send my regards to Agnes and your child!" "We're living a quiet life now." "We are beginning to accept those series of hardships." "We try to understand..." "I don't sleepwalk anymore." "But there are still questions that are begging for answers." "I still can't forget the one who molested me when I was young." "I still see him in every man I meet."