"(Waves crashing)" "(Seagulls squawking)" "(Tonal music)" "(Siren)" "(Man) No chance." "Lucy O'Dea, Science in Focus." "Congratulations, Professor." "Any comment on the announcement?" "Will this award help publicise your work on mental health?" "Or might it publicise your enthusiasm for assisted suicide?" "What's your comment on that?" "(English accent) Peter wasn't dying." "He was depressed." "Leave her alone." "Let's talk inside, Rosa." "Write this down." "My son, Peter." "Peter Mendoza." "Rosa, let's go inside." "We can talk about Peter." "He was very sick, in a lot of pain." "Yes." "In here." "And here." "But he wasn't dying." "He was just depressed." "I know you helped him die." "You killed him." "(Man) Professor..." "Professor!" "You 're not meant to smoke in here, but you 're already a hardened criminal." "So what the hell, eh?" "He won't press charges." "I don't want your money!" "He was my son." "He didn't want to die." "Er..." "I've got to go." "Good luck." "(English accent) I like the paint." "Nice touch." " I can't take credit." " That's not stopped you before." " Let's talk." " Let's." "(Siren)" " Let's say they could be interested." " Let's say." "You 've got attitude, but that hardly sets you apart." "The studied blend of bleeding heart and naked ambition - they'll cream themselves for that in New York." "But you 're not the only one in the frame." "Since when?" "This is not some basement cable channel, Kenny." "It's grown up tele." "They want to see you do an interview on camera." "We've got people we've chased, tricky bastards." " You can have one of them." " I can produce one of my own." " Who?" " George Wilkinshaw." "He'll never talk to you now." "You 've got something else on him?" "If you can nail Wilkinshaw, make sure your passport's up to date." "(Indistinct chatter)" "141, 142, 143..." "Liar." "Add that to your list of charms." "What a pleasant surprise, why don't you join us?" "I'm particular about who I drink with." "Me too, we're made for each other." "You 're a bastard." "That poor woman's son's just killed himself." "He didn't kill himself." "He was terminated." "Proof." " What proof d'you have?" " It'll cost you." "Joke." "I'm not laughing." "If I was that woman I'd sue you for unlawful distress." "It's not me she wants to sue." "I didn't kill him." " That's cheap." " No, it's the fuckin' truth." "Three months ago Peter Mendoza joined a Swiss organisation called Afterlife." "They specialise in assisting people to die." "Two months ago he bought a one way ticket to Zurich." "That's definitely not cheap!" "Maybe he wanted to die." "It was his life." "He wasn't terminally ill." "Why the fuck were they assisting him at all?" "What does it matter anyway?" "He was a loony bumming off the state." "Better off dead!" "Drink?" "These organisations have very strict guidelines." "And you know it." "Maybe." "Maybe I'm just concerned." "You must think I'm really fucking stupid!" "You don't give a shit about Peter Mendoza." "All you care about is you." "You 're wrong." "See, Lucy, I've got my very own Peter Mendoza." "And my wee sister wouldn't score very high in this equation either." "I'm sorry." "I didn't know." "(Laughter)" "Oh!" "Oh!" "(Woman) I'm all right." "I wasn't looking." "That's all." "Stupid!" "Bloody stupid!" " Where's your phone?" " (Woman) Don't know." "Here, pull!" "Go gentle." "I don't want my arm broke as well." "(Woman dials a number)" "Husband?" "No." "No, son." "Yours?" "No one important." "That should hold it." "Don't put any weight on it for the next few days." "How am I supposed to get about?" "Fly?" "I wouldn't put it past you." "Right, I'm just going to take some blood." "Will it hurt?" "No." "It's just a wee jag." "It's just routine." "Routine, my arse." "Oh!" "In a minute." "Let me do this first." "I'd get in quick." "There's not that many left!" "(Ringing)" "Haud your horses!" "I'm coming!" " Who got her that?" " Who d'you think?" "It's a good idea." "Just something else to lose." "We won't use it." "You 're using it now." "(Shouting) Ya beauty!" "Hello." "Roberta's phone." "Who's calling?" "Who the hell d'you think's calling?" "He's the only one wi' the bloody number." "Pass it here." "Where the hell have you been?" "I could be dying here." "Don't give me a hard time." "I'm at the airport now." "Americano, large please." "To go." "Americano, large." "I'm just ordering a coffee." "I'm not Superman, Mother." "I have to wait for the plane." "Hang on." "I've got another call." "I have to take this." "I'll be two minutes." "Professor." "I've been expecting your call." "I think you should avoid anymore bad publicity... and I think I can help." "(Tapping)" "That's no problem, Professor." "Just name the day and time." "I can be anywhere." "I'm very... flexible." "(Indistinct chatter)" " Here." " When will Kenny get here?" "Ask me that one more time and I'll scream!" "When will he get here?" " Joke." " Very funny." "Want sauce on your fish fingers?" "Make sure you get it on the plate." "I don't want it all over the place." " Do you want me to do it?" " No..." "I can do it." "You 've have to watch." "It comes out fast." "Oh!" "In the name of...!" "That lassie." "She'll be the death of me!" " You 're supposed to rest that foot." " I will." "Now you 're here." " You all right?" " No." "I'm all left!" "Aquamarine." " What you up to?" " Painting." "Here." "Got you something." "Sorry it's not wrapped." "Fandabbydozy, I needed more pens (!" ")" "Night then." "Jesus Christ!" "No wonder I got depressed!" "Shit!" "That's an expensive bed!" "We don't want anymore breakages." "Top drawer's empty." "I'll sort you another one later." "One's enough." "It's bloody dark in here." "I thought you liked it dark." "When I was 15!" "It's normal to want your room black when you 're 15." "So you say." "Come on." "Time to go." "Not today." "We're not going anywhere today." " It's Saturday." " I know, but we're not going today." " Where you goin'?" " (Mother) Bingo, but not today." "Take your coat off." "I'll make you a Pop Tart." " It's Saturday!" " I know, but we're not going today." "We'll go next week." "I can't go anywhere today." "But Kenny can, can't you?" "(Mother) He doesn't know where it is." "I know where it is, Napier Street." " Why can't she go on her own?" " Are you off your head?" " She can miss it then." " It's Saturday!" "It's Saturday." "(Guitar music)" " Oi!" " What?" " Slow down." " Come on." "I'm a member, you 'll have to join." " That's the queue, do you want help?" " No, I'll manage." "All right for money, son?" "What do you think you are, my mother?" "(Rabbit mumbles)" "Hiya." "Awrighty?" "(Indistinct mumble)" "Sorry?" "There's three different types - day, month, life." " Day." " It's cheaper to get life." "I bet it is, but I won't be coming back." "(Bunny) It's your show, don't say I didn't say it was cheaper." "Excuse me." " She can do it herself." " She's causin' a jam." " May always lets her do it." " Well, May's not here." "This is my big brother, Kenny." "He's a writer." " What does he write?" " Words." " (Whispers) Heather." " What?" "He's got a girlfriend." "Thank you." "Why say that?" "I don't want her to be your girlfriend." "She's got a voice like a foghorn." "She won't be." "Not every girl I meet becomes my girlfriend." "I hope not." "(Indistinct)" "My lucky charm." "Where's yours?" "Would you believe it, I left mine at home." "(Whispers) Stupid boy." "There you go, son." "Thanks." "Red, green or pink?" " Red." " You can't have red." " (Kenny) Why?" " It's my favourite colour." "(Kenny) Green, then." "(Woman) Kenny!" "How you doin', son?" "Long time no see." "No mum today?" "That's a change." "She's got a sore leg." "He doesn't know how to play." "Thank God he's sitting with the expert then, eh?" "She'll keep you right." "Nobody gets a look in." "She's a demon!" "Sorry to hear about your mum." "Its just a sprain." "She'll be up shouting the odds in no time." "So she will." "(Organ music plays)" "Here we go." "Best o' luck." "No' that you 'll need it." "(Man) Good afternoon to everyone and welcome to Vogue Bingo." "We'll start on your 14 page book." "The first page is a lime green colour." "We're playing any single line, followed by a full house." "Don't forget if you have a claim, folks - a nice, clear, loud call." "If you 've heard of Foghorn, here is Heather... (Cheering)" "TWO AN D S E VEN, 27." "TH R EE AN D FOU R, 34." "DOWN I NG STR EET, N U M BER 10." "FOU R AN D S IX, 46." "TOP OF TH E HOUS E, 90." " (Woman) Right!" " EIGHT AN D TH R EE... 83." "I told you, didn't I?" " Told me what?" " She's got a voice like a foghorn." "(Car door slams)" "FOU R AN D TWO, 42." "(Shouts) Here!" " You don't have to shout like that!" " I have to, mum said." " They're like sharks in here." " (Bunny) Not you again!" "Checking 42 for a full house." "Orange page, plate number 10431." "C AR D IS COR R ECT." "GOOD FU LL HOUS E." "(Roberta shouts) Ya beauty!" " So, did you just win?" " Of course." "How much?" "(Roberta) Loads." "How do I know?" " Five, ten, which is bigger?" " (Kenny) Ten." "There you go, son." "Put that in your pocket." "Mum and I always do that." "I want you to keep this appointment, May." "I mean it." "Cup of tea?" "(Heather) LE GS ELE VEN, 11." "TH R EE AN D S E VEN, 37." "I'll be back in two minutes." "(Heather) S E VEN AN D N I N E, 79." "Ruby, Ruby, can you hear me now?" "(Whispers) Shit!" "Is that better?" "Good." "Where are you?" "Doesn't sound like that to me, it sounds like a fuckin' party." "I said I was sorry, didn't I?" "Well, something came up." "Some "thing", not some "one"." "I wish I was there too." "Well, I can't." "I'm still in London." "Don't give me a hard time." "Please, be nice to me." "Well, because I've got good news." "I'm going to America." "Roberta, where's your big brother?" "He's on the phone, back in two minutes." " Will I go and get him?" " No, I'll go and get him myself." "(Bang)" "(Boy) Here missus, nae buses come this way." "'Mon play football." "Penalty." "Gis a bit of that egg man, 'mon?" "(Jeering)" "(Whistling)" "(Indistinct)" "I've been looking for you everywhere!" "I told you not to move, didn't I?" "It was a stupid thing to do!" "(Shouts) How stupid can you get?" "(Shouts) Don't you talk to her like that!" " Thank God Cissie was there." " (Woman) There's no harm done." " The wean's all right." " That's not the point!" "He was supposed to be with her!" "The only time he does something for us, he buggers it up." "I told her not to move." "She knew that I'd come back." "Did she?" "Oh, God!" "Right, that's that over for another year." "1, 2, 3, 14, 12." "Hey, I must have some more somewhere." " Your stomach?" " (May) That's your lot." "(Bin liner rustles)" "(Roberta) Have you got Mr Bun the baker?" "(Louder) Have you got Mr Bun the baker?" "(Louder) Have you got Mr Bun the baker?" "(Shouts) Have you got Mr Bun the baker?" "!" " Tell her to fish, for Christ's sake." " Sorry, I was miles away." "You wish." "Fish." "Don't drink it all." "The milkman's not coming till Tuesday." "I thought you were supposed to be in bed?" "Och, too much to do." "Your foot won't heal unless you rest it." "Thought that was the whole point of me being here." " What's that?" " Papers." "I can see that." " What's the insurance for?" " (May) Protection." " Against what?" " Fire, flood, act of war." "I hate to tell you this but you 're not covered for an act of war." "You can't get much for your money these days." " I've got to go back on Wednesday." " You can't." " I have to, I've got no choice." " I need you here." "I've to go to the hospital on Wednesday." "You 'll need to watch your sister." "I can't." "I've got a meeting, it's important." " Your sister's important!" " I didn't say..." "You 're twisting things." "Why do you always do that?" "Get the X-ray changed and I'll come back Thursday." " I can't, I'll upset Dr Jackson." " You 're a name on a medical card." "Doctors deal in fact and the fact is you must change the appointment." "The fact is I can't." "I might wait months for another and I might not have months." "I've been getting a bit of pain, here." "Just when I cough." "I didn't think it was worth bothering about but it didn't go away." "I was in getting an antibiotic for Roberta's throat and I happened to mention it." "I wish I'd kept my bloody mouth shut." "Sometimes when doctors start fiddling, things get a thousand times worse." "Your dad used to say that about bikes." "Take them in with some wee thing and the whole bloody engine ends up lying on the pavement." "It's in the ovaries." "Dr Jackson's worried it might spread to the bones." "So, you know where they are now." "Just in case war breaks out." " Gis a light." " You shouldn't be smoking." "Last one." "You 'll bugger up your immune system." " You want to get better, don't you?" " What do you think?" " Well, you 've got to stop." " Tomorrow." " I wonder if there's anything in it?" " Anything in what?" "Heaven, Jesus, all that carry-on." "You were the one that always said there was." "It was somewhere to send you on a Sunday morning." "I wasted all that precious football time!" "Who knows?" "We'll find out soon enough." "From now on, I want to talk to the doctors." " (May) What difference will it make?" " You 'll be surprised." " I'm sorry." " What for?" "Keeping you here." "You 're not." "I'm still going." "Don't worry, I'll take her with me." " It's not my brain that's diseased!" " Look, I've got no choice." "I've got a big shot on a major US network." "If I don't meet this guy on Thursday, I'll blow it." " You 'll have other chances." " Not like this one." "It's the biggest thing that's ever happened to me." "I'm sick, Kenny." "That's the biggest thing that's ever happened to you." " Look, she's coming with me." " Over my dead body." " (Kenny) For one night." " No!" "She is not staying out all night." "Jesus!" "We'll fly up and down on Thursday then." "I think your sister might have something to say about that." " (Kenny) Why not?" " I don't like planes." "You 'll only be on it for an hour, you won't know that you 're up there." " Aye, I will." " How?" "Cos when I look out I'll see the ground." " Please?" " Naw." " Shit." " That's a bad word." "Is it?" "Well, shite to that as well!" "(Beads jangle)" " I cannae breathe." " I've got to strap you in." "I don't want you bobbing about like a beached whale." "(Kenny) Right, that's us." "Now, remember what I said." "Ask all the questions on the sheet." "Mu -um!" "Mu -um!" "Mummy." "Mummy." "Mummy, Mummy, Mummy." " What's wrong?" " (Roberta) Don't want tae go." "Here." "It's only one night." "You watch her." "I mean it." "If anything happens to her, I'll kill you." "I believe you." "Bye Kenny, good luck, have a good trip." "Just fuck off, Kenny." "Hey, and don't you start!" " That's the biggest bar ever." " You 'd polish it off in seconds." " Right, I'll be two minutes." " You said that last time." "Well, this time I promise." "OK." " Two minutes, and no phone calls." " Yeah, yeah." "(Car door slams)" "(Heavy breathing)" "Four and a half minutes, shite." "That long!" "Funny, felt like it really dragged that time." "So you 'll be moving in next." "I'll make it up to you, I promise." "Do me a favour, Kenny." "No more promises." " Promise?" " Promise." "Listen, listen, listen." "I want you to meet somebody." "Who?" "Right." "Come on, now." " I told you to stay in the car." " You nearly gave me a heart attack." "Anyway, that was more than two minutes." "Not much." "Trust me." "This is my friend, Ruby." "Hi." "Can we go now?" "I'll say bye bye to her." "Look, she's been a real pain, you know." "Please come, I really need you." "OK?" "(Ruby) That'll be a first." "I can't, Kenny." "I've got a private view tomorrow." "I'm sorry." "(Whispers) Fine." "Fuckin' hell, this is a big deal for me." "A huge deal!" "(Ruby) You didn't tell me!" "God!" "You don't tell me anything, Kenny." "If I'd known... (Kenny) I didn't know myself." "(Ruby) It's not my problem, is it?" "(Kenny) Shite." "I've got to go." "I'll give you a phone." "I'll phone you." "Promise." "What?" "What?" "It's like a litany." "Jesus, what is the point?" "I'm busy, you 're busy." "Don't phone me." "I don't want you to phone me, Kenny." "That's all we ever do." "We talk on the phone." "Or we have sex." "Sometimes we even make love." "It's rubbish." "Hey, I thought you liked sex with me?" "Jesus, I do." "That is not the rubbish bit." "The rubbish bit is everything else." "I mean it." "Don't phone me." "Do you want some music on?" "(# Darius: "Colourblind")" "(Roberta sings along)" "# Nobody told me it'd feel so good" "# Nobody said it would be so, so beautiful" "# Nobody told me about your smile" "# You 're the light, you 're the light" "# When I close my eyes" "# I'm colourblind" "# You make me colourblind... #" "(Switches music off)" "Jez." "Hi, it's me." "Kenny Brogan." "I'm going to have to be quick, my battery's going to..." "Shite!" " (Shouts) I'm hungry!" " Don't worry, we're stopping now." "Yeah." "Well, no." "He's not definite yet, but he will be." "I'm on my way to see him now, so..." "Listen, there's one problem." "He's leaving the country on Friday." "Sorry, could you just hold on two secs?" "Roberta, where are you going?" "Come back here." "Just stay there." "I'll be two minutes and then we'll get chips, OK?" "Sorry about that, Jez." "No, no, no, it's not problem at all." "So, if I could set it up for..." "Jesus Christ!" "Sorry about this." "Don't act it, right." "Just stay here and I'll be finished in two minutes, OK." " Fuck off, Kenny." " Don't you piss about with me." "You can't act it with me, all right." "I'm not your fuckin' mother!" " I want my mum!" "Mum!" "Mum!" " Stop fuckin' acting!" "Just stop fuckin' acting it, OK?" "Fuck off, Kenny." "Fuck off, Kenny." "Fuck off, Kenny..." "What?" "No, no, she's OK, She's..." "She's my sister." "She's always doing this." "We're OK, thanks." "She's just..." "I don't need any help!" "All right?" "Fuck off, Kenny." "Fuck off, Kenny." "Fuck off, Kenny." " (Roberta shouts) Fuck off, Kenny." " Everything's OK." "(Cheering on TV)" "Roberta, turn that down!" "(Loud cheering continues)" "Roberta..." "What time is it?" "My breakfast time." "Shit!" "(Shouts) Shit!" "Fuckin' hell, you should have got me up!" "Jesus Christ!" "Why didn't you get me up?" "Shit!" "Shite!" " That way." " What way?" "Shite!" " There it is!" " There's what?" "The bingo!" "(Kenny sighs heavily)" " (Roberta) There's the bingo again!" " I know, I know!" "There's the bingo again!" "I can see it is the bingo, I'm no' bloody stupid!" "Right." "I have to turn round, you have to get out and see me back." " Me?" " Aye." "I cannae read or write, and don't know my left fae my right." "You are bloody stupid!" "There it is!" "Aah!" "There's the bingo!" "Come on." " Is this a hospital?" " No." " I don't like hospitals." " It's not a hospital." "Come on." " I don't like doctors." " You 're not seeing a doctor, I am." " You 're sick?" " No." "I just have to ask the doctor some questions for my magazine." "Good." "If you were sick, how'd I get home?" " Thanks a bunch!" " You 're welcome!" "Remember, you stay in the foyer, OK?" "Yes, Sir." " Professor Wilkinshaw." " Mr Brogan." "I could have sworn we had an exclusive arrangement." "You knew the deal, and you were late." " This is Miss O'Dea." " We know each other." " You waste no time." " Neither do you, if I recall." " Kenny, I'm hungry." " We'll get something in a minute." "(Roberta) Why can't we have something now?" " (Kenny) We'll go to a restaurant." " We're in a restaurant!" " Food's really good here." " Do they do cheesecake?" " I hope so, I'm banking on it." " Hey, hey!" "(Professor) Not eating, Mr Brogan?" "You may as well." "You 're here now." "Could we have two more glasses, please?" " I'm George." "George Wilkinshaw." " I'm Roberta." "That's my brother." "Kenny." "He's a writer." " Is that your girlfriend?" " Er..." " I think she's a bit young for me." " You 're right." "She is." "Kenny, don't be rude." "Sit down." " Knock, knock." " Who's there?" " Plate." " Plate who?" "Plate." "Glass." "Plate glass!" "Cheers!" "I'd advise you to join us, Kenny." "You might learn something!" "I'd make you a cup of tea but I don't think I can stomach anymore." "I'm up to here with it." "Oh, I'm all right." "I'm just off home for my dinner." " Where's Kenny?" " Some meeting or other." " Down south." " Where's Roberta?" " With him." " Good." "That's good." "Is it?" "The house is like a morgue without her." " I'll come back when Kenny's here." " Why would you need to do that?" "It's spread, hasn't it?" " Marks out of ten?" " 657." "I'd go higher myself." " (Roberta) Kenny." " What?" "I need to..." "I need to go." "Um..." "Just hang on, I don't know where it is, I'll need to..." "I'm going anyway." "I'll show you if you 'd like." "(Roberta) I'll need help with my tights." " Jesus, Roberta!" " It's no problem." "I need help with mine sometimes." " Does she look after herself?" " Who, Lucy?" "I wouldn't know." " What do you think?" " I don't think anything." "I try not to make snap judgements." "You don't like me very much?" "(Kenny) No." "Based purely on a snap judgement." "It's a pity, because you know nothing about me." "That's why I'm giving you the chance to tell me." "I think it's the other way round." "I'm the one giving you the chance." "(Laughter)" "She lives with my mother." "I'm just looking after her for the day." " My mother's not very well." " Oh, I'm sorry to hear that." " Nothing serious, I hope." " Ovarian epithelial cancer." "Stage three." "Possibly stage four." " Oh." "I'm sorry." " So, what would you advise?" "Speaking as a doctor, of course." "Well..." "It depends on the spread." "Normally a hysterectomy followed by combination chemotherapy." "But if she's stage four, then she's probably already had surgery." " Has she?" " I don't know." "You could investigate Tax ol." "It's strong, it could feel worse than the cancer will, but you never know." "You might suggest bone marrow treatment at the same time, it can sometimes alleviate the side effects." "It all really depends on the attitude of the patient, Kenny." "A strong will is an important factor in survival." "There's no problem there then." "The mind's a very powerful tool, Kenny." "It can sometimes amaze and often confound." "What's wrong?" "Surprised?" "You thought I'd offer her a ticket on Swiss Air?" "That never even crossed my mind!" "(Indistinct chatter)" "(Professor) You 've discussed what happens when your mother dies?" "Did you help your wife to die, Professor?" "You 've got your interview, no holds barred." "I've nothing to hide." "I don't want any money, just want a fair hearing." "I'll be back in a month but only for a week." "That's your window of opportunity." "Take it or leave it." "Do you want some music on?" "(# Ronan Keating:" ""Life is a Rollercoaster")" "(Roberta sings)" "# Found Love" "# Don't fight it" "# Life is a rollercoaster" "# Just gotta ride it" "# I need you #" "(Music turned off)" "She had a good time, you know." "There was no problem." "So you say." "You weren't the one left here worried sick." "You worry too much!" "She was absolutely fine." "It didn't have to be like this." "This was the way you wanted it." "(May Whispers) Don't you dare criticise me!" "You don't know the half of it." "24 hours with her and you think you know it all." "You don't!" "(Whispers) You 've held her back." "She's the way she is because of me." "I can take that wean anywhere." " She's my one achievement." " Thanks." "Don't you make the mistake of thinking she can look after herself." "She can't, she'll never be able to!" "That's why I'm always here, watching over her 24 hours a day." "And that's how it has to be when I'm gone, Kenny." "Otherwise she'll just pine away." "Do you understand what I'm saying to you?" "I'm leaving her to you." "(Sobbing)" "(Retches)" "Get me the phone, darling." "It's too late." "If she had gone in for the operation when..." " Why didn't you?" " I couldn't leave Roberta." "Why didn't you ask me then?" "We don't know that it'd have made a difference." "No, we don't, do we?" "The chemo obviously hasn't been as effective as..." " Christ, I could have told you that!" " Kenny, that's enough!" "Start her on Tax ol." "When she's stronger, do the hysterectomy." "(Doctor) Lunderstand that you 're upset..." " I want you to start her on Tax ol!" " It's too aggressive." "It'll make her ill." " The cancer won't?" " (Doctor) She's not strong enough." "The side effects are debilitating." "I don't have to tell you this." "It comes down to quality of life." " I already fuckin' know that!" " Kenny!" "(Kenny) Give her acupuncture then." "Chinese fuckin' herbs, snake venom." "For fuck's sake, just give her something!" "Kenny, that's enough." "Just stop now." "You 're making a show of yourself, and me." "I apologise on behalf of my son." "He's only thinking of me." "(May) I want to ask you a question, Grace, seeing as it's my business, not his." "Will this drug give me more time?" "(Grace) Maybe." "Maybe's good enough." "Put your new jumper on and show her what we're made of." "If she asks you any questions, don't answer, just act stupid." "We don't want her stopping your money." " Kenny." " (Kenny) What?" "(May) Not a word about me being ill." "Not one word." "OK?" "Not one word." "(Doorbell)" "Does Roberta still require 24 hour care?" "And the rest." " Is her mobility still restricted?" " Tell me about it." "We don't get out at all." "It takes about 3 and a half hours to walk 100 yards to the shops." "She's very slow." "It's her legs." "They're very short." "(Slippers squeak)" "(Squeak)" " Can I ask you a question?" " Yeah." "It's not for now, you understand, it's for the future." "If we were to ever consider residential care for my sister - for later obviously, not for now but for later what options would we have?" "Short or long term?" "You had no business asking her that!" "What the hell were you thinking of?" "It was only a question, there's no crime in that!" "Yes there is because it's the thought behind it!" "I know exactly what's going on in your mind!" "How could you do that to your own sister?" "I didn't do anything, I asked a question!" "I asked a fuckin' question!" "I'm not angry that you asked, but that you thought the thought!" "I'm angry cos you didn't!" "You never gave a single moment's thought to me!" "All my life you 've been thinking about her, now you 're asking me to do the same." "(Static sounds from the radio)" "(Shouts) I will not do it." "I won't do it!" "If God should strike me down," "I swear on your sister's life, I'll take her with me before letting you put her away." "I swear it." "I swear it!" "Jez?" "Kenny Brogan here." "Yeah, I've set it up." "Yeah, she's well on the mend." "Let's go ahead." "Let's do it." "Did you pack all them?" "I won't need all them, I'm only here for four days." "How long is four days?" "You 'll watch Saturday's Brookside," "Sunday's Eastenders and two Emmerdales, then I'll be back." "Aye, you 're right." "You don't need them all." "Hello, Cissie." "It's Kenny here." "May's Kenny." "She's..." "She's all right." "They've given her something to help her sleep." "It's not going to hit her until tomorrow, they said." "They've warned us." "It's a very strong dose." "Hey!" "Sorry Cissie." "Cissie, the reason I'm phoning is about the party." "Yeah, we want to bring it forward." "(Kenny) You all right?" " Kenny." " What?" "Does it hurt when you die?" "No." "Of course not." "You don't know anything about it." "You just close your eyes and then it's all over." "Does your brain stop thinking about things?" "Is your brain thinking about anything just now?" "Does it think about anything when you 're asleep?" "That's what it's like then." "It's like going for a long sleep." "You close your eyes and your brain stops working, shuts down, and then your heart stops beating." "Then you stop taking in air." "It's very easy." "It's the easiest thing in the world you 'll ever do and it doesn't hurt a bit." "(Roberta) Is it like that?" "(Kenny) Aye." "Exactly like that." "I don't like the dark." "There's nothing to be frightened of." "I promise." "Still don't like it." "You keep the light on then, eh?" "Night." "It's me." "I know I promised, but you know I never keep any of them." "Well, I just wanted to tell you something." "(Breathes deeply)" "I just wanted to tell you I love you." "You 've got ginormous hands." "I didn't know that." "I've never looked at your hands before." "That's a terrible admission for a photographer, and for my lover." "I hadn't got round to it before." "But I have now." "(Camera shutter clicks)" "You can't see everything immediately, you have to keep looking." "And every time you look you 'll see something new." "There's always a bigger picture." "(Ruby) You want to try some?" "What colour is it?" ""Fo xy Lady"." "Cool." "(Clicking)" "That'll be a really good one." " What are you up to?" " Painting." " Did you do this?" " It's on my desk, ain't it?" " Where did you get the idea?" " From the eyes in my head." "Hey, you know what?" "We're exactly the same." "I'm a photographer and you 're an artist." "We both see things in a certain way." " My way's better though." " Not better, just different!" "Do you have anymore?" "(Clicking)" "Lt'll pass." "It'll soon pass, Mum." "Imagine you 're on a bike." "Dad's bike." "And you 're riding fast." "Just the two of you." "And you 're riding fast towards the sun." "Now imagine the sun." "A huge, burning ball of light." "And the closer you get to it, the better you feel." "Because the heat of the sun is burning the cancer away." "Just imagine." "Just imagine it in your head." "Just hold on to Dad." "Hold on to Dad." "The bike's getting faster, and the sun is getting nearer." "And nearer." "And nearer." "You 'd have made a good doctor, Kenny." " Pity you couldn't stick it." " It couldn't stick me." "Their loss." "(May) She's pretty, isn't she?" " She is." " I'm talking about my girl." "So am I." "Don't eat too much." "You 'll be sick." " I won't." "I've had it before." " Not in those quantities." " (Roberta) Kenny." " What?" "I'm having a brilliant time." "There's some fantastic ones of you, Kenny." " You 're so sweet!" " Oh, let me see!" "Sweet." "Who's that?" "(Roberta) My mum." "(Kenny) My dad." " (Ruby) Where are they?" " California." "My dad always wanted to move there." "And did he?" "(Whispers) No." "Your mum looks so different." "Long time ago." "Let's see if I can find a fantastic one of Roberta now." "Find another one of Mum." "Find another fantastic one of Mum." "(Guitar music plays)" "(# Darius: "Colourblind")" "# Feeling green" "# When the jealousy swells and it won't go away in dreams" "# Feeling yellow" "# I'm confused inside a little hazy but mellow" "# When I feel your eyes on me" "# Feeling fine, it's sublime" "# When that smile of yours creeps into my mind" "# Nobody told me it feels so good" "# Nobody said you would be so beautiful" "# Nobody told me about your smile" "# You 're the light, you 're the light" "# When I close my eyes, I'm colourblind #" "Orange juice, please." "Hi." "(Cissie) She's a fighter." "I'll say that for her." "It won't be much longer, son." "She's been waiting for this." "That's all." " You need to talk." " There's nothing to say, Cissie." " It might make it easier for her." " Nothing would make it easier." "She's dying." "And that's the one thing she can't bear to do." "# Nobody said you would be so beautiful" "# Nobody warned me about your smile" "# You 're the light, you 're the light" "# When I close my eyes, I'm colourblind" "# You make me colourblind #" "Roberta!" "Roberta!" "Roberta, that's enough now." "You 'll make yourself dizzy." "OK?" "Come on." "Let's do your cake." "Roberta can do it." "You go and dance with Ruby." " It's OK, come on." " That's it." "Here, will you do it?" "No?" "OK." "I'll do one." "# When I close my eyes, I'm colourblind" "# Colourblind #" "I mean, America's not that far away." "It's the other side of the world." "You could come wi' me." "Why?" "To look after your sister." "That's a terrible thing to say." "Is it?" "So what is happening with Roberta?" "Don't worry about that." "It's all sorted." "Is this a hotel?" "(Whispers) Aye." "I hope they do cheesecake here." "D'you do cheesecake here?" " No." "But we do ice cream." " Shit!" "Roberta, I've got to go now." "You 'll be all right here till I get back." "OK?" "It's just for a two days." "You 'll watch Emmerdale and then you 'll sleep here." "Then you 'll watch the next Emmerdale, then I'll be back." "OK?" "I've got to go, Roberta." "I've no choice." "See you later then." "Just go." " How are you feeling?" " Fantastic!" "I think I will go dancing later." "If it's still on!" "Course it's still on." "The dancing never stops in here." " Do you want to sit up?" " I don't think I can." " Your son phoned." " That's a first!" "Is he attractive?" "He sounds attractive." "He is." "He gets his looks from his dad." "Is my girl all right?" "He wanted to let you know he won't be in today." "He has a cold, didn't want you to get it." "He says to say your girl's fine, he won't let her out of his sight." "And that's a promise." "(Music plays)" "(Indistinct chatter)" "Not going in, Roberta?" "Emmerdale's on in five minutes." "I don't watch Emmerdale." "It's for morons." " Oh, no Roberta today?" " No." "She's staying with friends." "If I can just give you two copies of our contract, Professor." "If you have any questions please feel free to ask." "(Professor) I hope Kenny made very clear the terms of my involvement, Mr Walters." "(Mr Walters) Crystal." "(Professor) Good." "(Mr Walters) I thought we'd start by discussing..." "How's your mother, Kenny?" " Sorry." " Your mother." "How are things?" "She's fine." "She's started on the Tax ol." "(Professor) Let me know how she responds." "Give it time." "The body's a remarkable machine, Kenny." "It can sometimes surprise us." "I'm sorry, I shan't give you any information on Afterlife." "Technically, that'd be breaking the law, Mr Walters." "I have absolutely no intention of doing that." "Anyway, I have no official link with the organisation." " The director is a friend of yours." " I hardly think that proves anything." "And you 're a vocal supporter of assisted suicide." "That is no secret and I'd be delighted to talk about it on camera." "But if you want to know about Afterlife you must talk to them." "Did you help Peter Mendoza contact your friend?" "That information is in the public domain." "And he was a very determined man." "He was also mentally disturbed." "But he was not dying." "He was dying, Kenny." "He had a rare brain cancer." "The diagnosis was indisputable." "Rosa refused to accept it." "He was a perfectly lucid, intelligent young man." "Capable of making his own choices." "And he chose to die." "Unfortunately, it was not his right to do so in the comfort of his home." "He had to travel to a strange city and die in a strange bed." "I'll answer any number of questions on the injustice of that." "There is another question I thought you particularly wanted to ask." "I don't see it on this list." "No." "That's all." "Everything I wanted to know is on the list." "I'll tell you anyway." "The answer's no, Kenny." "But I'll always wish I had." "(Ringing)" "Gone." "Gone where?" "Where?" "Jesus Christ, if anything happens to her..." "What did the police say?" "(Shouting) Well, that's no bloody good." "Phone them again." "I am calm." "I'm very calm." "Do you not get it?" "Do you not get it?" "She's never been outside on her own!" "Americano." "Large, to go please." "Americano, large." "(Indistinct tannoy announcement)" "(Ringing)" "It's the wean's phone." "Maybe she's trying to ring it." "Where is it?" "Where the hell is it?" "(Ringing stops)" "I thought she might answer it." " I'm sorry." " You...!" "Sorry." "Sorry." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." " (Sobbing) I'm sorry." " It's all right, Kenny." " I'm sorry." " It's all right, son." "It's all right." "It's not your fault." "It's not your fault." "It's nobody's fault." " Hiya." " Hiya." " Are you hurt?" " I'm hungry." "Any chocolate?" "I followed the sign, Kenny." "I remembered the sign." "(Ruby) A man found her." "(Kenny) What fuckin' man?" "(Ruby) Kenny, it's OK." "He's a client." "He's OK." "He recognised her." "What do you mean, recognised her?" "(Ruby) It was gonnae be a surprise." "For your birthday." "See." "You 're famous now." "You 're a famous artist, Roberta." "(Sobbing)" "What's wrong?" "Hey, what's wrong?" "I don't like my face." "You 've got the most beautiful face in the whole world." "Don't you ever forget it." " No." "It's different from yours." " It's just a face." "It doesn't tell the whole story." "It's just a face." "It's in here that matters." "OK?" " Do you want me to do it?" " No!" "I can do it myself." " Let's get you home." " Can we get chips?" " Spread them on your thighs!" " (Roberta) Hey!" "Watch it you!" "(Guitar music plays)" "(Shouts) Ya beauty!" "(Engine turns off)" "Never again." "I am never letting you out of my sight again." "I'm never going." "I'm staying here with you." "Aren't I?" "Always." "No, I've made my decision, Jez." "I don't want the job." "Well, tell the Americans I'm not ambitious enough." "Yeah." "I know Lucy." "She's good." "She's better looking than me!" "All right." "Yeah." "Bye." "Are you sure?" "I've never been so unsure about anything in my whole life." "It's a good feeling!" "You 've got tiny hands." "Fuckin' hell, Ruby!" "I love you." "Good." "Don't worry." "I won't drink it all." "It's all right." "The milkman comes tomorrow." "It's all in there." "You know that, don't you?" "You showed me before." "Read the small print." "I don't want them doing you out of a single penny." "You know what they're like." "You can't trust anybody these days." "Except your own." "There's a wee note in there." "Don't worry about it now." "Read it later." "OK?" " Promise." " I'll do my best." "But I've not got a very good track record wi' promises." "You 're a good boy, Kenny." "Make sure you 're happy." "Or I'll come back and haunt you." "(Gasps)" "Remember what your dad always told you about the mountain circuit at the TT." "As you get to Gooseneck, take a deep breath." "You look for the crowd." "The bend's tight." "Then you get your first view of Snaefell." "That's the best bit." "Then you know you 're nearly home." "(May) That's it." "Now, turn the knob to number three." " Here." "I'll do it." " No, I can do it." "So you can." "Here." "I'll do it." ""Dearest Kenny." ""Son, I know you 'll be angry with me, but it won't last." ""You 'll thank me for it." "In the long run." ""I've thought it through, long and hard." ""I've thought about nothing else." ""And I know I've done the right thing for all three of us." ""Maybe I did always put her first, but I didn't mean to, son." "I had to." ""I had to keep her safe." ""You never needed me like that." ""And I still have to keep her safe." ""Do you understand that, Kenny?" ""I have to keep her safe with me."" "That's a good girl." ""Don't get me wrong, son." ""I know you would do your best for her." "I know that." ""But you 've got your own life and I want you to enjoy it." ""Go to America, take Ruby and be happy." ""I thought God was supposed to be good." ""He was supposed to take her first." ""But the old bastard has gone and let us down." ""I can't leave her, Kenny." "I love her too much." ""And you too, son." "I love you too."" "That's better, isn't it?" "Aye, that's better." "It's a lot better." "It's fandabbydozy." "Are you ready?" "Remember what I told you?" "Pass me my mug." "Hey, hey, sip it." "Sip it slowly." "Watch you don't burn your mouth." "Close your eyes now, pet." "Sleep now." "Go for a long sleep." "There's a good girl." "Best girl, you 're my best girl." "Mum!" "No." "Oh, Jesus." "Jesus." "Roberta." "Roberta." "Jesus!" "(Sobbing)" "I was just pretending." "Just pretending to go for a long sleep." "Roberta." "Will she be angry with me?" "No, she'll be pleased with you." " She'll be really pleased." " Did I hurt her?" "No, you didn't hurt her." "She wanted the light out, didn't she, Kenny?" "I kept my eyes closed for a very long time." "You did the right thing." "You did the right thing." "(Guitar music plays)" "(Tonal music plays)" "Roberta!" "Roberta, here."