"Zoom in." "Even more." "Keep going." "Pan to the right a bit." "There." "That's it." "Quiet, please!" "Rolling!" "Camera!" "Action!" "[ Exhalation Echoing]" "[ Birds Calling]" "[ Footsteps ]" " [ Car Door Shuts ] - [ Engine Starts ]" "[ Liv Ullmann ] I have so many memories of an island." "Almost 50 years of memories." "I acted there." "I directed there." "My best friendships were grounded there." "And for a time, it' was my home as Well." "It has been such an incredible part of my life." "And I met Ingmar there." "He changed my life." "The first time I met Ingmar... as shy as I was and as afraid as I was..." "I just also felt this familiarity." "And he was so much older than me." "You know, I was 25 then... and he was 46." "He wasn't only this incredible... incredible creative person." "But I remember each morning when he came..." "I just started to cry because I was so overwhelmed... and suddenly I wasn't overwhelmed anymore." "I was" "I was so much in - in love." "♪♪' [ Music Box]" "The first summer was pure happiness." "We were making Persona on the island." "It was hot." "♪♪ [ Humming ]" "I was experiencing another human being." "He was experiencing me." "And we didn't need to talk about it." "I was barefoot in the sand so fine... it felt as if it breathed beneath my feet." "I never wondered what might come of our relationship." "It was as if I were living within soft walls... of sunlight and desire... and happiness." "No summer since... has ever been like that." "Not like that." "I was always reading a book in between takes... and once I looked up, and they were still doing... a lot with the camera... and I looked up, and " "and Sven Nykvist, the cinematographer... he was doing things with the camera... and then there, doing nothing, was Ingmar... and he was just..." "looking at me." "And I knew he felt something for me... and it was almost unusual that someone would feel something for me... and that it was Ingmar." "And when I saw him sitting there by the camera... and looking at me, I knew he had recognized me... and deep down, I thought..." ""lf I'm really recognized..." "I'm worth..." "loving."" "[ Man's Voice] My dear Liv... you are everywhere - in the light against' a window... in the bathroom door... on the bed, in the chair." "It hurts like hell to see you on the other side of the glass wall." "I pray you bond with me." "My heart misses you as if I no longer had... any skin on my body." "That you would embrace me and obtain me... in what is you... in your femininity and tenderness." "This is a little like hell." "Almost romantic." "[Sighing, Echoing ]" "[ No Audible Dialogue]" "[ Liv] In the evenings, Ingmar and Sven Nykvist... and Bibi Andersson and I, we would sit at the table... and we would do this card game... where the ghosts or something... lead your hand." "And all the time, it would say..." ""lngmar, beware"... or "Liv, beware"... and "lngmar sees you."" "I thought, "This is incredible." "A ghost is kind of seeing this!"" "And I was a little naive." "I never understood, although Bibi told me each evening..." ""lt's Ingmar doing it." "Don't believe it's a ghost." "Ingmar is doing this."" "We were like children here, you know?" "We used to go on walks... and we would bury money, you know?" "Just in case we were poor, we would bury money... somewhere here - not big money, but some money." "We were childish." "We were so childish." "And we " "I was very, very happy for a long time." "Very much in the beginning, when we understood, "It's us"..." "I got scared, because I was 25... he was 46, 47, and I escaped." "I escaped back to Norway." "I didn't want this." ""This is too heavy." it's not like looking at the man... and he sees you and falls a little in love." "This was too heavy." "I was really, really scared." "But he came and got me!" "You know, he's crazy." "He traveled to Norway... and he went to people close to me... and he said, "She has to be with me."" "And those people - and, strangely, very close people - came back with him to my flat and said..." ""Yeah, you'd better go with him."" "And" " And - And so I went with him." "I sought the absolute security... protection, a great need to belong." "He sought a mother... arms that would open to him... warm and without complications." "Perhaps our love originated in the loneliness... we both had known before." "His hunger for togetherness... was insatiable." "That hunger became a vital necessity for me." "In a way, each seeded a revolution in the other." "We opened to each other so completely - not only physically, not only sexually... but like human beings related... in a secret way." "We bound ourselves together." "I told my husband immediately what had happened." "I can't talk for Ingmar and his wife." "I cannot talk because I don't know." "I only know what Ingmar told me." "I don't know." "But..." "I..." "I was almost more afraid... to tell his mother, my husband's mother... because she had four sons, and she really cared for me... as a daughter." "And when I went back to Sweden... and, you know, I wrote her and said it was over... and that I was expecting... a child with another man... this old-fashioned lady, she wrote me, she said..." ""When you married my son, I got a daughter." "She's going to have a child." "I look very much forward to it."" "So I've been so fortunate in life." "I've done bad things... like, I left my husband, but good things happened from that... because people were so good." "[ Man's Voice] Now there is only one demand... and that is to be alive." "Dare to give life." "Dare to receive life." "And dare to let it hurt." "And dare to let it feel good." "To dare, my love." "[ Liv] Once, we wandered far away from the others... discovered a small ridge of gray stones... with barren, unfertile earth beyond." "We sat and looked at the sea... which for once lay completely still in the sunlight." "He took my hand in his and said..." ""I had a dream last night... that you and I are painfully connected."" "On the spot where we were sitting... he built his house... and that changed his life... and mine." "We entered underneath the thin scaffolding... into the skeleton of our home." "Someone had brought champagne." "I broke the bottle." "We made speeches and christened the house." "We walked on the beach, which was nothing but rocks... and took pictures of each other." "I look happy in all of them." "But I know what I was thinking " ""This is a dream." "I am taking pan' in someone else's dream."" "[ Ship's Horn Sounding]" "[ Wind Gusting]" "It started to be someone else's dream, living here... because it was restricted." "He didn't want me to have visitors." "The first - next summer... he built a big wall of stone around... so if people somehow came around here... they could never look in at the house." "And it started to be someone else's dream... someone who really wanted complete isolation... with me and him." "And he didn't want me... to leave either and go home." "We made two movies... when I was living with him... and my one free day was the Wednesdays... when I could go to the place... where everybody else in the crew was living... to wash my hair." "And that was my big, wonderful day, you know?" "I went there, and I had whiskey... and had fun with the others and laughed and did... what any 28-year-olds do." "And then it was going back... and I had an exact time to come back... and he would stand by the " "There were a lot of fences on this road so that sheep would not go... and he would stand by one of the fences... and wait for me and look at the time." "But yes, it became a prison... and everything was unfamiliar." "In the winter, it was cold and it was black... and these trees had no color, and " "and he sat in his room... and he wrote these masterpieces... and listened to his music, and I would, you know" "I knew that Ingmar had found his island... and I tried to love it the way he did." "What is it?" "Nothing." "I just thought of something from my childhood." "It was some sort of punishment." "They threw me into a closet and shut the door." "It was quiet and dark." "I was scared out of my mind, and I pounded the door, because they'd told me a little person lived in that closet." "[ Liv] On the nights when he couldn't sleep..." "I would lie silent beside him... afraid of what he was thinking." "Perhaps that I was not a pan' of the island. .." "That I disturbed the harmony he tried to create within himself... in the nature and the stillness that meant so much to him." "My security became living the way he wished... for only then was he secure." "[ Man's Voice ] I can reach my hands towards you and say..." ""Don't be afraid, Liv." "I will not do you any harm." "I love you."" "The demons have left' me for now... but it was terrible while it lasted." "IS YOUR HAND IN MINE?" "[Liv] At night - and I'm not talking sexually now - lying in that bed... listening to the ocean... and the way he... held around me... and there was nothing... unquestioned." "[ Baby Gurgling]" "We had a child together." "How can I explain... the enormous feeling of security... in knowing that now she was with me in the world?" "Soon her bed would stand next to mine." "We would fall asleep hand in hand." "We would listen to music and look at beautiful pictures together." "We would discuss everything in life... and find the answers in long, confidential conversations." "My daughter and I would help each other be real people." "I felt even then that it would be only the two of us... that my daughter's father had to live his own life - near us, but never with us." "I lay in my bed the first night... after she was born... and twisted the ring he had given me... put on the light to admire it... read the letter he had written to his daughter and me." "No danger in the world could reach me that night." "JV' [ Music Box]" "Dreams seldom become reality." "What are you doing today?" "What are you doing?" "I don't know." "But I asked you." "[ Liv] In the loneliness on the island..." "I was often nervous and a short-tempered mother." "There were days with guilt feelings... when I became the doormat for both of them   he who sat in his study..." " [ Door Slams ]" " and Wanted to own me alone..." " [ Baby Crying ] and she who could barely walk... and cried for me from the other end of the house." "[ Crying Continues]" "I rushed from one to the other... always with a bad conscience... never able to completely give... what I yearned to receive." "I was lonely, but that loneliness belonged to me." "It was nothing he created." "Nobody creates your loneliness." "Nobody creates that darkness you have in your tummy... because we all have that." "It's how we deal with it." "That's... what makes the difference." "[ No Audible Dialogue]" "[ Woman Laughing]" "No, you're strangling me." "[ Man's Voice] My belief is still... that there exists an evil which cannot be explained " "a virulent, seductive evil... which, among all beasts, exists only for man." "An irrational evil... not subject to any laws." "Cosmic." "Without reason." "There is nothing man fears more than this incomprehensible... inexplicable evil." " [ Rattling] - [ Man Breathing Heavily]" "Poor Anna." "You were so happy before we met." "I had happy memories of my husband and our love." "And now you don't?" "I lived in truth." " Really?" " You destroyed it with your damned lies." " Stop it." " I'll say what I want!" "Stop shouting." " You can't order me around!" " Stop shouting at me." "You can go to hell!" "[ Liv ] After a short time, I was confronted with his jealousy - violent and without bounds." "Now all doors were closed." "Friends and family, even memories, became a threat... to our relationship." " [ Footsteps] - [ Clock Ticking Loudly]" "Terrified, I felt I only had him." "And when his jealousy had placed limits on my freedom..." "I entered into his territory... in order to create the same limits there for him..." " [ Knock At Door] - ...experienced my own security... only as far as I could control his life." "[ Knocking Continues]" "Our needs were impossible to satisfy." "That became our hell, our drama." " I said shut up!" " Are you crazy?" "[Crying Out]" "If that's how you want it!" "I could kill you!" "I could kill you!" "I have a lot of anger in me, but I don't always let it out." "But I'm so lucky I have a profession... where I can really let it out." "And of course in every other movie I did with Ingmar... she is so angry, and people are hitting her... and doing whatever bad things to her... and she comes right back... and she is furious." "I got it all out... in my movies." "Also my enormous anger that I had at times." "There you are." "What are you doing?" " I'm praying for Johan." "You're praying for yourself." "Go away." "Leave me alone." "Go away." "Goddamn lousy acting." "Goddamn acting." "[ Liv ] His jealousy was violent " "I mean, more psychologically... than using force, physical force." "Because he knew how to say things that would stay with you... forever." "I was to stand and watch a fire... and he must have been angry, because he said, "Liv, go closer!"" "And I went as close as I could." ""Liv, I told you to go closer. "" "And I went closer." "You know, I would almost have gone into the fire... because you do what your director says, especially if it's Ingmar Bergman." "But afterwards, I knew that anger in his voice... was not directing." "That anger in the voice was Ingmar to Liv." "Oh, we would quarrel so much." "Really quarrel." "And we would run here " "I was first, because I was scared of him when he was angry - and he'd run after me... and finally I went into the bathroom... and closed the door and thought it would work... and he was so furious, and he stood outside... and he took his leg... and he smashed it through the door." "So the feet came, and the slipper fell into the bathroom." "But that was also so fun." "So we became friends on that." "[ Man's Voice] Dear Liv..." "I think that Ingmar Bergman is unbearable sometimes... and I have to apologize on his behalf." "I have spoken to him, and he has promised... that he will be glorious at 2:30 p.m." "[ Liv] The fear diminished... and the loneliness was easier to bear... when I saw his insecurity." "I'd become filled with tenderness... and look beyond his violence... and his injustice." ""I cannot and will not live with you anymore." "I don't believe in trying again, as neither you nor I seriously want to change." "But I won't give in, because that will only lead to new complications, which in turn will bring on terrible mental disturbances, physical and psychological violence."" "[ Anti-aircraft Fire ]" "[Airplane Passing Overhead]" "[ Bombs Exploding]" "[Airplane Passing Overhead]" "[ Gunfire Continues]" "[Airplane Passing Overhead]" "♪♪ [ Music Box]" "I don't understand." "I don't understand anything." "I don't understand you." "I'm just afraid." "You think I want to stay here and risk being killed?" "Think I enjoy watching you running after that woman and talking to your phantoms?" "Having to watch my back every moment?" "But I stay." "[ Liv] When I cried, stormed against him... when he shut himself in his study... when he left me for a day... while it was all very painful..." "I knew that it did help me develop." "I had always followed others because I was insecure." "I was accustomed to reach for the hands of others... for help and understanding." "But now, when I was more afraid and more alone than ever..." "I achieved for the first time a sense of security... with myself." "And I longed for the man who sat writing in his study." "I wanted to share with him this new knowledge... but I couldn't." "[ Woman] Jan." "What will it be like if we can never talk to each other?" "The boat's here." "[ Liv] In Shame, when we are out in the lifeboat... it was so cold - thirty-minus degrees - and look how he is dressed." "I mean, a coat upon a coat upon a coat... and like this, and everything... and we had to lie out in a boat... and we didn't get ashore either... you know, when there was a break." ""Throw some sandwiches down to them."" "And I just had this thin coat on... and I wasn't even allowed to have things under... because it should really look like, you know... thin and freezing and " "Because he was angry at me that day." "He was really angry at me that day." "And poor Max von Sydow." "He didn't understand why we had to stay in the boat all the time... in this freezing " "And look at him here, Ingmar." "Look at that." "He is so..." "[Chuckling ]" "Dressed up in this thing." "Yeah, you asked if he was ever cruel to me." "This time he was really cruel." "I hated him so much... and I was planning, "I'm going to leave him." "I'm going to leave him."" "'Cause how can you do like that to your woman?" "And he probably never knew my anger... because I came up afterwards... and he said, "Oh, beautiful scene." "Everything is good," and I smiled... and we went back here in the evening... and... it was never mentioned." "I was no longer blind... to his faults and weaknesses... as I had been in the beginning... but my understanding and respect for him grew." "The adoration disappeared." "I noticed that his hair was gray." "He was much older than I." "He was wise and stimulating." "He was vain and egoistical." "And I discovered to my surprise... that this was love." "With sadness, I realized that it would soon be over... that I had come to him when he was already... on his way somewhere else." "I looked at our child and realized... that I would soon have the responsibility alone." "During the last year, I fought for our relationship... even though I knew it was hopeless... and not right for either of us." "[ Sighs ]" "I have to leave now to avoid traffic." "Good-bye, Marianne." "Take care." " Good-bye." " I might be back in a week." " If only you were!" "We'd make a fresh start." "We'd throw out our stale old routines." "We'd talk about the past." "Figure out where we went wrong." "You'd hear no accusations from me." "Johan"." "This all seems so unreal." "I don't know what to do." "Johan, you're shutting me out." "Any solution would be better than this." "Couldn't you promise to come back?" "That would tide me over." "Then you wouldn't be leaving me without hope." "Even if you have no intention of returning, you could say you do." "I have to go now." "Marianne!" "[ Door Shuts ]" "You know, there is pain in the world, big pain... that you and I so far have not felt... of hunger and destruction and many things like that... but there is one pain... which is enormous too... and that is to be left." "That is a very lonely... and deep and... hurtful... pain" "When the final separation came, we didn't talk about it." "We pretended that it had no meaning when I packed all my clothes." "Just a sh on' visit to Norway." "My daughter's things were left behind." "Those I didn't dare touch." "It would have been too obvious... too final." "I wanted to open my arms and embrace it all... but because my fear that it would never be mine was so great... it never became mine." "I lived there for a brief period of my life... and what I brought away with me was not the stones... and the trees and the beauty." "I left with loneliness in my baggage... and the feeling that something inside of me... had changed forever." "INGMAR BERGMAN TODAY:" "LIFE WITHOUT LIV" "What is there to tell about the actual departure?" "The publicity around the private grief?" "The newspapers that pushed into our lives... stomped on what was painful?" "Magazines with cover pictures from our first time together... smiling and happy faces with black captions " ""His new life without Liv." "Read the end of the story."" "In our misery, we were on an intimate footing... with half of Scandinavia." "It was terrible, and I cried and cried." "And then on the airplane, you know... a colleague of mine was there... and I wrote letters to him how terrible this was... and he had to help me, and my letters were so bad... that later I asked him, "What did you do with the letters?"" "I said, on the airplane." "He said, "I ate them because I didn't want anyone to see them."" "So he ate my letters." "And then we landed, and then in the airport... was a group of people with signs... and I thought, "This is a protest for Vietnam or something." "Do I need that also when I have such sorrow?"" "No, it wasn't that." "It was my girlfriends, my colleagues " "Harriet Andersson, Gunnel Lindblom, Bibi Andersson... everybody I'd worked with... in this time in Sweden." "And I wasn't even Swedish, I was Norwegian... but there they were in the airport with the signs that said..." ""Welcome home, Liv." "You are our Swede." "We love you, Liv."" "And then we all went home to Bibi Andersson's... and we were all lying on the floor drinking red wine... talking about love that was lost and what we had experienced." "It was such a beautiful, beautiful... evening and night." "Now, this is one of the good memories I have of Ingmar... although this was when he had - when he was gone." "And then I went to Norway... and continued acting in the theater... and... that's when Ingmar came back." "But I had been on the floor with these women... and talked about, you know, love... and so there was no way back for me." "Nora stands in the door and says..." ""I don't know what will become of me." "I don't know where I'm going." "I only know that I can no longer bother... about what others say." "I must find my own way."" "To me..." "Helmer and Nora's last scene... is not a bravura number for Nora." "That would be too easy." "This is not how we leave someone we have loved... presumably still love." "It is not with fanfare and the sound of drums... that we walk away from the familiar... and go out into a new and strange world... with so little knowledge." "It is a little girl... who slams the door behind her... a little girl in the process of growing up." "On stage, what I'm acting is reality for me... in the same way that my reality is acting - each a part of the whole." "[ Bell Tolling]" "It's Sunday morning... and my four-year-old is in the living room... talking on the telephone with her father." "She is having a lively discussion with Ingmar." "She wants him to crawl through the telephone... and visit her." "I cry at times." "My child suddenly stands in the doorway." ""Why are you crying, Mama?"" ""Sometimes I feel a bit lonely."" ""You have me."" ""But grown-ups need other grown-ups as well."" ""You have Granny and Aunt Nan."" ""Once in a while you long for a person... who will look after you."" ""Well, you have that one on Fårö."" "[ Man's Voice] Liv... now I can see that this separation... was absolutely necessary." "Otherwise, We would have mosz' definitely... set each other on fire." "And we could have still managed to have... some sort of life together." "By the Way- " "I am in constant physical and emotional pain." "You see, I love you so much... my little beloved friend." "You let go... and that's a good lesson to learn in life." "Let go." "Don't grow into a bitter "And what if?"... and "What if I'd done this?"" "Never, never." "Let go." "Ingmar was no longer in my life as before." "That was a fact, and nothing could alter it." "But I still had myself... contact with my own being." "Everything in me that I wanted to take forward." "I missed Ingmar's daily presence... but I knew I had his friendship... and it was up to me, who at that time needed it most... to find a new point of contact... at which we both could meet." "With all the power I owned..." "I built a bridge between us." "And after that, everything was better." "When we broke up, he was really there." "You know, normally you call a girlfriend and say..." ""You know -" and she will comfort you and whatever." "I called him, who had broken up with me... and he comforted me, and it was really lovely... for a long time." "I called every day... and once I actually called when I'd been drinking a lot... and I think I said very bad things too." "And the next day, I thought I had dreamt that... and so I called him again to say..." ""You'll be really happy I didn't call you yesterday... because I was so angry at you."" "And he said, "Yes, you did call me."" "Yes, so he was a - a witness, and... that was good, and that was lovely." "[ Bell Tolls ]" "The first night of Britannicus." "On stage, I am two people." "One tries to act." "The other stands beside... criticizing every movement, every word." "These two people, who are both me... get tangled up together, make me feel sick... and I seriously consider pretending to faint... so that the curtain can come down." "[ Audience Applauding ]" "In the night, my agent phones and tells me..." "I can become an international star... but not if I intend to sit in Oslo." "A decision slowly forms in the dark." "I feel that change is in the offing." "[ Flashbulbs Popping ]" "[ Flashbulb Pops]" "It was an adventure, and I looked upon it... as a birthday gift... but I never took it... really, really serious... because I was now a little over 30 years... and when I came to Hollywood..." "I had wonderful luggage... because I had worked with Ingmar... on several films." "I was nominated for an Oscar... for The Emigrants..." "Jan Troell's film... and everybody wanted to work with me." "And my agent, who was really very happy... said yes to everything." "And so within - within one year..." "I did four Hollywood movies." "And they thought, "This is the new Greta Garbo."" "[ Flashbulbs Popping]" "And I did something that Greta Garbo never managed " "I closed down two studios." "[ Helicopter Blades Whirring]" "Sometimes fantasies are more fun, aren't they?" " You meet a better class of people in your dreams. - [Audience Laughing ]" "Sometimes you do in your dreams than in real life, but you have to deal with that." "That's true." "Well, you are not a disappointment, I can say that." " Isn't that nice?" " Yes." " Are you flirting with me?" " Yes." "In front of all these people?" "I'm really getting a little " "[Audience Laughing, Applauding ]" "Ingmar loved it." "He loved it." "Calling him, you know, and telling him - he just loved it." "I mean, even the fiascos, he - "Oh, she's having fun." "This is great."" "And he never, never put a question mark... on me doing that." "Never a question mark on me going to Broadway." "As a matter of fact, he even traveled to New York... when I did my first one, A Doll's House." "And he came to New York in the afternoon... the next day he saw the matinee... and the next day he went back to Sweden." "I was so moved by that... because it was so... unlike him." "And why did he come, you know?" "L-I still don't understand." "Why did he come for one and a half days... when he hated to be in planes and travel and everything?" "[Audience Applauding, Cheering ]" "I spent some months in Hollywood... and tried to sparkle." "When something inside me protested..." "I reminded myself I would soon be home again." "I was looking forward to making a film... on the island in Sweden." "I was like a figurehead on an old ship... she who is standing seemingly so proud at the bow... and plows through the waves and gazes ahead... while her whole body, at an angle... is pressed close to the ship... to which she belongs." "I tried to recall... who I had been when I came to the island... five years before." "Something had been crushed in me... and something was more alive." "I had undergone a change." "And when bitterness and hate... and despair were gone..." "I was sure I had experienced love... and been enriched." "But I would never be able to talk about it." "I'd seen into another person and was full of... tenderness for what I had found." "For a period of time, we had taken each other's hands... and been painfully connected." "But only when it was all over... did we become true friends." "[ Indistinct Conversation ]" "[ People Shouting, Faint]" "And now I was really over him, really over him." "But I was thinking, you know." "And I was with... my good girlfriends who were in the movie..." "Ingrid Thulin and Harriet Andersson... so it occurred to me I had never really told him... that it's over for me, you know?" "And we were having wine in the evening." "So I said, "I think I'll go and tell him now " "'It's over." "We are over."'" "You know, he already had a new woman and was going to get married... so this was the wine." "The three of us went to the door, and I was outside his door." "He used to lock us in at night because he didn't want us to party... and so he was like that, but we came up." "And so we had the wine... and then we went to his door, and I knocked on the door." "I said, "Ingmar, I need to talk to you." "I need to talk to you."" "And he never opened." "And later he told me that he was so scared... because I had sounded so angry... that he had jumped out of the window on the other side." "And my only reason was to say..." ""You know, Ingmar, it's over." "It's over with us."" "And after that, we continued... to work together always, always." "[ Ship's Horn Sounds]" "I can only speak for myself." "I love you in my own imperfect, selfish way." "And sometimes I think you love me in your own fussy, pestering way." "I think we just love each other in an earthly and imperfect way." "But you're so demanding." "Yes, I am." "But here I am, in the middle of the night, in a dark house, somewhere in the world." "Sitting with my arms around you." "And your arms are around me." "I'm not the most compassionate of men." " No, you're not." " I don't have the imagination for it." "You are rather unimaginative." "I don't know what my love looks like, and I can't describe it." "Most of the time I can't feel it." "You really think I love you too?" "Yes, I do." "But if we harp on it, our love will evaporate." "[ Man's Voice] Both you and I have a lot of intensive presence... and an enormous ability to put ourselves... in other people's emotions - and especially each other's." "We also have an intensive ability to affect other people... and make them experience what we experience." "And we have an ability to affect each other." "We make each other alive." "Does it make a difference if it hurts ?" "I've been traveling the world, and I've done a lot." "I've done a lot, really... without Ingmar... but you know, we always end up talking about Ingmar... and they ask me about that... and sometimes I get very - a little tired." ""Do I always have to talk about lngmar?"" "And then I told him this also on the phone." "You know, I love it." "I'm so proud of it and everything." "But they always, you know " ""How was it to work with Ingmar Bergman?"" "And " "And then he says, "lt has to do with you too... because don't you know, Liv... you are my Stradivarius?"" "And I think that's the best compliment..." "I ever got." "[ Indistinct Conversation ]" "That has to do with our working relationship... and our... friendship." "Can you imagine... being someone's Stradivarius?" "Especially if it's Ingmar?" "I remember, oh, so many years after... when I was going to do..." "Private Confessions... direct the movie... and this was just after his wife died." "And I was sitting at his table... where he used to work, making notes." "And then when that was finished... and I was going back to my hotel, he said, "You know..." "I'll go with you, follow you."" "And we passed the church... where his father used to preach... and he talked about that... in a way he could never have done before." "And then we were walking there... and suddenly he said, "lsn't this wonderful?" "After all these years... here you and I, we are walking... and we are the best of friends." "Isn't this incredible?"" "And he even said, "Do you think people passing us know this?" "Or are they just saying, 'Look, that's Ingmar Bergman." "That's Liv Ullmann'?" "They don't know... that here is walking two friends."" "[Chuckling, Sighing]" "Damn you, Johan." "You damned old fool." "[Liv] Once, when I had been to Norway on a visit. .." "Ingmar fetched me at the airport." ""Mama died today," he said... when we were in the car." "She had had her third heart attack." "The hospital wanted to call him, but she told them..." ""He's so busy." "Leave him alone."" "When a nurse finally called... it was too late." "She was dead when he reached her bedside." ""Now I have no one," he cried... and he was completely defenseless." "I knew that I could never leave him." "And in a way, I never have." "Well, this is maybe what I like most." "It's our diary." "We didn't do it every day and all the time, but... we did it very much." "I know it meant a lot for Ingmar too, because he told me... in all the years after when I left." "Because the sun - the sun is shining on it... so it became " "You could see it less and less, but each spring... he would go here with a pen... and do every sign." "And now he's gone... and now you can already see that the sun... is taking it more and more away... and in a few years, it will be gone." "Like he is, and like..." "I will too." "Can you tell me why you suddenly turned up here?" "I thought you called for me." "I've never called for anyone." "I had the feeling you did." "How strange." "I don't understand." "I understand your not understanding." "How long do you plan to stay?" "I have a case on the 27th." "Of November?" "October." "Good night again." "Good night." "I was in Norway, yes... on the coast, and " "and I woke up that morning, and - and I knew... something was happening with Ingmar... which was different and which maybe was absolute..." " [ Bell Tolling] - in his time here on the - on the earth." "[ Clock Ticking]" "And I hired a plane, which I've never done before... because I knew I had to go now... this morning, this day... and I flew to Gotland... and I took the ferryboat... and I came here in the afternoon... and he was here, and " "And at this time, we couldn't speak with words - or I spoke." "And he was there... and then I pretended that he said to me..." ""Why did you come?"" "And I quoted him... from the film Sarabana'..." "I answered..." ""Because you called for me."" "And then I left, and I'm happy I was here... because that same night... at some time that night - we don't really know when - he continued his voyage." "But now in the universe somewhere, you know?" "And actually, I think he's been here a lot... because the light has changed... the wind comes when you want it... the sun comes when we want it... and even rain." "And I think when I'm saying too-silly things... he let all the little flies come... and kind of ruin the picture for you." "Many, many years ago..." "I wrote him a little note." "And today I " "I found out he had kept it in his teddy bear." "'Kjæresfe Pingmar" " "I used to call him "Pingmar" " ""Dearest Pingmar" - and I'll say it in English " ""Not many people... can experience... what my meeting with you... gave me here in life." "It is 35 years since we sat here -"" "actually here " ""and you said to me..." "'We are painfully connected.'" "Yes... such a connection... is full of grace." "Thank you." "Your Liv." "I am so enormously... fond of you."" "And then a little heart." "You know, sometimes you miss, and you don't even know... how much." "Quiet, please!" " Rolling!" " [ Buzzer Sounding ]" "Camera!" "Action!" " ♪♪ [ Classical Piano ] - ♪♪ [ Woman Vocalizing]" "[ No Audible Dialogue]" "♪♪' [ Continues ]" "[ No Audible Dialogue]" "♪♪ [ Ends ]" "[ Water Lapping]" "[ Birds Twittering]"