"That looks way cool, man." "Number!" "Number!" "Number!" "One." "Two." "Three." "Four." "Five, six, seven, eight, nine." "Cipião." "Mendes." "Cardoso." "Leave your backpacks and proceed to reconnoitre." "Cardoso!" "I think we've already lost him." "Are you sure it's this way?" "I think so." "It must have been the wind..." "It's been ages since the wolves vanished." "How cold it is outside!" "Let's resume, Paulinha." "Hey, they're two blokes!" "Must be girlfriends of your father's..." "Don't you know them?" "My father's dead!" "Like I said, I'd prefer an organic intervention." "You get to make use of everything, only the testicles go." "TO DIE LIKE A MAN" "Certain techniques are nothing short of amputation." "What I suggested to your friend Irene is this:" "We make a cut in the penis, just as you do with sausages." "You open it up and stretch the skin." "You fold it over." "Sew it up." "Turn it inside out." "Nothing is discarded, everything is made into something else." "Your vagina begins to take shape." "The foreskin, the clitoris." "This part here can be used to make the small labia... the ante-chamber of the vulva..." "We use the scrotum for the large labia." "The foreskin, which is more sensitive, will be right here at the entrance." "It's the closest we can get to a clitoris..." "So you can feel pleasure." "I feel like I'm planning a crime." "It's all so violent; it affects so much of what I am inside." "Only you can decide." "I know, Irene, but do you really trust the doctor?" "How long have you been seeing him?" "I've been seeing Dr. Francisco for a year." "He's always been most kind." "He calls a spade a spade." "How awful!" "He's so direct it's frightening." "He spoke of a sex-change as if he were filleting steak." "May God forgive him." "Irene, you're my best friend." "But I'm not to be cut and drawn on a butcher's block." "Tonia, you sound like you're against these operations." "But you've done far worse things." "Remember the crazy woman's silicone injections?" "You nearly died." " Remember the pain and suffering?" " I don't want to talk about it." "The more I know, the more scared I get." "Sure, but at the time you were absolutely certain." "This is the way God made me." "I've done so many things..." "I don't know, Irene." "Are you going to live your life with your eyes closed?" "But it would make my Rosário so happy..." "Who cares about Rosário!" "You're doing this op for yourself, not him." "It's for Rosário, too." "That kid's old enough to be your son." "Do you really love him that much?" "I do." "I love him as my boyfriend and as if he was my son." "Can't you see he's got nobody else in Lisbon?" "Is it because he's alone here or because you're tired of being on your own?" "How about this one?" "It would look pretty in the garden." "No, not this one." "It's the sort that dies within the week." "How about this one?" "Or this pretty speckled one?" " They're made in labs." " Right, they don't last long." "But for your living room..." "Irene, I can't cope with flowers right now." "Let's go." "Where's the dog?" "Agustina!" "Agustina, where have you got to?" "You naughty dog, what're you doing there?" "I think he'll like it, don't you?" "Rosário's not really into this sort of thing." " It's a very nice birthday present." " Course it is!" "This toy is in top-notch condition." "I even touched up the paintwork." "So how about you, do you like it?" "It's a rocket, this machine!" "Get a move on, Tonia, go and get Rosário!" "The TV..." "He's stolen everything!" "Foolish me, he's up to his old tricks." "Son of a bitch!" "So, isn't he coming?" "He said he was at home." "Switched off..." "Weird." "Don't bother waiting." "He must have gone to the café and hung around chatting." "Go on, hurry up." " Right then, ciao." " Don't miss the train." "My gold rosary..." "Did he take that too, the heretic?" "Saint Anthony, steep hills did you climb to encounter the Good Lord and ask of Him that what was lost be found and given back." "Oh my miracle-working Saint, give me back what I have lost." "It's a very heavy cross for a woman to bear." "Forgive me, Lord." "I'm not even a woman." "Today was such a difficult day." "I'm so tired." "I think about him all the time, but who thinks about me?" "Why did you let him run off, Lord?" "Why didn't I leave you here to stand guard?" "You're old, Agustina." "You're like me." "You're no use to anyone anymore." "He does whatever he wants." "It's punishment for me being so vain." "God forgive me." "Eating!" "That you don't forget." "Are you hungry?" "You're not getting any more out of me today." "You're getting no food, neither am I. That'll teach us." "That bum!" "Junkie!" "By now he's probably already sold it." "Has he shown up?" "No, I haven't seen him yet." "Sergio, help me zip up this dress." "My shoes?" "Where are my shoes?" "Not those, the higher heels." "My plumes?" "Go and have a look." "He's not here yet." "And the wind has changed And he's not back" "Isn't Rosário going to blow out the candles?" "Mind your own business, you witch!" "Please slow down." "Stop here." "Why're you threatening me, Rosário?" "I'm gonna cut you!" "Don't you recognise me?" "Drop the blade." "It's me." "You're barefoot." "What have you done with your shoes?" "And the earrings?" " And the chain I bought you?" " Don't know, lost them." "You lost them?" "You sold them!" "Come on, let's catch a taxi and go home." "You're wearing the dress I made for you." "You look so pretty, Tonia." "It's been raining." "Only I know I am a weed" "Difficult to mould" "Clay and cement and builder's sand..." "This way." "See that door?" "Can you see it?" "It's carrying a cross." "It's calling us." "Come on, it's a longer walk but you get there all the same." "But we will get there, won't we?" "Only I know I am stone" "I'm stone that's hard to sculpt..." "A target for stones" "A pebble you can't mount" "Only I know I am clay" "Difficult to mould" "Clay and cement and builder's sand" "And no one knows how to mould it" "In pre-made moulds I don't know how to create myself" "In ready-made forms I can't be broken" "And I don't know If I want to shape myself" "Because I don't know" "Because I don't know If I want to polish myself" "I don't know either If I want to burnish myself" "I don't know either If I want to run away" "From this beast" "This beast" "I don't know either If I want to polish myself" "I don't know either If I want to burnish myself" "I don't know either If I want to run away" "From this beast" "I am searching for" "Happy birthday." "It's your birthday present." "I'm sorry, Tonia." "I've lost my driver's licence." "You've lost it?" "How much did they give you for it?" "And your mobile, you lost that too?" "And the TV?" "What about all my gold?" "And everything you've stolen from me?" "Some birthday party..." "You're never going to change, are you?" "And you?" "Are you going to stay like this for ever?" "Neither one thing nor the other." "Neither fish nor flesh, nothing." "You're a man with boobs." "A cowardly old woman." "You're such an idiot." "I wouldn't leave you out in the street in this cold." "You'd go and catch a cold." "Soon as you're well, we'll take the car for a long outing." "Me, you and Agustina." "What do you think?" "We'll leave Lisbon and go and see your brother." "I so want to meet your nephews and nieces." "We'll get away for a while." "Have a change of scenery." "You'll see, it'll be good." "And you'll enjoy it too, right, Agustina?" "Remember when we met?" "How happy we were?" "It'll be like it was before." "Rosário, calm down!" "It's my wig." "Tonia, have you lost it?" "You ripped Jenny's wig off!" "The wig's mine!" "Nobody messes with my stuff." "I won't stand for effrontery!" "The wig belongs to the club." "The fuck it does." "The wig's mine." "This show only has one blonde and that's me." "The cheek of stealing the club star's props!" "You can take the wig away, Tonia." "But nobody can take the applause away from me." "Just look at you!" "The Black Stain wants to shine..." "Only last summer you were hooking." "You're ungrateful!" "Who brought you here?" "I taught you everything." "Is this the thanks I get?" "You'll be needing me for the eclipse to be total." "Is that a threat, you witch?" "Are you going to do voodoo?" "I don't need to, darling." "I have an audience." "I have to go and thank them." "Tonia, stop creating problems." "You've got plenty on your plate, don't you think?" "How's Rosário?" "Is he holding up?" "Not really." "He's going through withdrawal again." "Do you want the week off to look after him?" "Already trying to get rid of me?" "I'm only trying to help." "Forget it." "Teixeira, you're my friend, but I'm not blind." "There's a lot of venom around." "I'm still in charge here, don't worry." "The audience still wants you." "And you, do you?" "Tonia!" "Open the door!" "I need to get out of here!" "I won't do it again, I promise!" "Tonia, get me out of here!" "Please, open the door!" "Tonia, is that you?" "Tonia, open the door!" "Let me out!" "Agustina, my little one." "My precious." "Rosário, is that you?" "It's me, Zé Maria." "Don't be afraid." "My son." "You have long hair." " God, what happened to you?" " Stop!" "Calm down, Zé Maria." "I need your help." "Didn't you hear?" "Help me!" "Alright, I'll help you, but calm down." " Lower your rifle." "You're in your home." " This isn't my home." "Why are you treating me like this?" "I'm your father." "Help me." "First, lower your rifle." "You're scaring me." "Let's talk." "My darling." "Don't touch me!" " Do you need money?" " I don't want your money." "What then?" "I want you to hide me." "What about the barracks?" "I can't go back." "I went AWOL." "If I go back, I'll be arrested." "Arrested?" "God give me strength." "What've you done?" " Does your mother know?" " I don't want to talk about her." "OK, Zé Maria, but tell me what happened." "It doesn't matter." "What matters is that I've nowhere to go." "I can't go back to the barracks, or home... or anywhere." "You've got to tell me what you've done." "Answer me." "Why are you carrying that rifle?" "Look at me, I'm your father." "Have you killed somebody?" "I have." "I killed a poofter like you who didn't deserve to live." "And you know what else?" "I'd do it again." "I killed him and it's your fault." "Why'd you leave me all alone?" "Am I an animal you can put on a leash?" "It's your fault, all of it." "You take better care of your shitty dog than of me." "My darling." "Why do you do this to me?" "Nothing's ever going to change." "It's always going to be the same." "Stop, please." "I'm getting out here." "Zé Maria!" "You're a coward." "You only hide where you know I'll find you." "I couldn't drive the car." "I was leaving." "I got lost." "I was so scared." "You make things so difficult for me." "Sometimes it seems I'm your mother." "You're not my mother, you're my girlfriend." "The other fish have died." "Agustina?" "Where is Agustina?" "What've you done to her now?" "How awful, Agustina." "You're covered in burns." "Mommy's going to take care of you." "My poor little darling." "There, there now." "Does that hurt, Agustina?" "The aquarium..." "He's much better now, he's even started working again." "Rosário, you're giving it your all today." "That's what he's doing." "That dress is for Jenny." "She's never had any reason to complain." "On stage, she's got to be as well got up as me." "And that's the truth, she's always flawless." "You're very quiet, Rosário." "Are you listening, Rosário?" "Let him be." "He's busy." "Look, you were right." "Being off of drugs changes him." "You and your crazy ideas..." "Extensions on a wig!" "This is no time for fashion." "Haven't you ever heard of recycling?" "Did you have Agustina shorn?" "She looks thinner." "The poor thing's been shedding hair." "You're getting old, aren't you, Agustina?" "My folly..." "Who is it?" "My dalliance..." "Who is it?" "As lonely as ever" "Into a cafe I went" "It was almost a miracle" "Because I found you" "Your distant gaze" "In mine came to a stop" "I became your love" "At first glance" "My love" "Who is it, who is it?" "My secret" "Who is it, who is it?" "My dalliance" "Who is it, who is it?" "My folly" "Who is it, who is it?" "Everybody already knows Only you can't see" "Life has more ebb and flows, you know..." "No hope, no sign" "And you, still so sentimental" "You walk by sadly You notice no-one" "I've got to find the songs for the new show." "Why don't you sing that?" "And why don't you really sing it and stop lip synching?" "You've got such a lovely voice." "No, not that song." "I need something more glamorous." "That's no song for a drag show!" "Besides, that has to be sung by a man." "And what're you?" "A woman?" "Don't start with that, I won't have it." "Tonia, he does have a point." "I may not be a woman, but plenty of people think I'm his mother." "And be quiet." "I pay you to fix my hair." "Don't say I didn't try to help." "It's your call." "Only you know what to do with your life." "Bad dog!" "Don't you play with your owner's things!" "Me, I've got my op booked with Dr. Francisco." "Let me take this one out, it's getting loose." "You'll be green with envy..." "Shut up!" "I don't want to talk about it any more." "Where's the other one got to?" "What happened?" "I can't see the fringe." "What do you mean?" "Have you lost it?" "I don't know." "I had it in my hand." "And now you don't know where it is?" "Are you winding me up?" "Was it you, Agustina?" "There's nothing in her mouth!" "Relax, no need to make a meal of it." "It'll turn up." "Irene, this is no laughing matter." "Real hair costs an arm and a leg." "Tonia, it can't be far." "Are you accusing me of stealing it?" "Stop whining and give it back." "That does it." "After all I've done for you, you're calling me a thief?" "You won't be setting eyes on me again!" "I'm out of here!" "For God's sake!" "I came all this way, for this." "Bitch!" "She takes advantage of me, then plays innocent." "Stop!" "Stop everything!" "You want to do that for an audience?" "I for one am not taking part in this farce." "We do things properly or we don't do them it at all!" " Is that what you want?" " What now?" "I've already said I'm the only blonde here." "But I'm the one in charge here." "Jenny, put the wig back on." "No, take it off!" "I created this act." "Take it off!" "We'll never get anywhere like this." "I could take of the wig in the middle of the song." "It wouldn't be the first time." "You're a blonde, Tonia." "Why don't you do the act?" "Are you happy now?" "No." "Those sleeves look awful." "That bodice." "Do you think it's pretty?" "You look as if you've swallowed a lamp stand." "Shall I take off the rest?" "What are you looking at, Rosário?" "Never seen a naked man?" "So, given any thought to my proposal?" "You want to pay me like a newcomer." "I have over years experience." "I'd be better off staying at home." "It's your call." "The audience wants to see legs, not your years of experience." "Mind what you say." "Legs are a dime a dozen here." "A real drag show is more than just legs." "Times have changed, Tonia." "What can I do?" "Pay me what I'm due." "I do." "I pay you enough to live a decent life." "Isn't that enough?" "I'm tired of your penny-pinching!" "You'll have to make do." "This isn't Estorils Casino." "The audience comes here to see Tonia." "Not anymore." "Fuck you!" "Pay me what I ask or can forget about me!" "Did Teixeira chicken out?" "I don't want to talk about it." "Jenny's been offered a job elsewhere." "Seems she's going to the Finalmente Club." "If you stretch him, he may give in." "Why don't you go with her?" "You shitty junkie." "Think I haven't seen you drooling?" "Go join her in her village hut." "Limp dick!" "All she has to do is ask." "Slow down, Rosário." "You're scaring me." "Stop!" "Look who's here." "Must be a street dog." "You're hungry, aren't you?" "Are you lost?" "Stay away, Agustina, you'll catch his fleas." "Poor thing." "I'm just going to feed him." " Is he coming in?" " He's lost." "Come on in, you bum." "Come on." "Why are you sending him into the garden?" "It's too cold out." "He's not a greenhouse flower like your dog." "He's a bum." "He won't catch cold." "I can't take it any longer, Rosário." "We've got to get out of here." "Why don't we go and visit your brother?" "Let's go and visit your brother." "Zé Maria!" "Son!" "You can go." "What are you waiting for?" "Tell me about that loneliness" "That has you talking to yourself" "Tell me what you're" "Talking to yourself about" "Tell me what this contempt is" "That makes you not look at anybody" "Or do you think there is nobody" "Who sees you" "What journey is this" "That you travel on in every direction" "You're looking for lost dreams" "There goes the nut" "There goes the lunatic" "There he goes passing by" "That's what they call you All those people" "But you're always absent" "And they can't reach you" "But you're always absent" "And they can't reach you" "Tell me what madness is this" "Which clothes you in fantasy" "Tell me it frees you" "Of the empty life" "Tell me what distance that is" "That you carry in your gaze" "What hunger and what hurry" "That you want to reach" "What journey is it" "That sends you in every direction" "Shut up!" "You're looking for..." "Speak." "Say something." "What d'you want me to say?" "You talk." " Don't you want to know?" " Do you want to tell me?" "Stop that!" "Zé Maria is my son." "Hadn't you realized?" "Was I supposed to?" "I thought it was a secret." "There are no secrets." "Only shame." "Ashamed you're a father?" "Of being everything and being nothing." "You're talking to yourself." "Don't wind me up." "It's because I've got nobody to talk to." "It's because you like the sound of your own voice." "I talk to myself because I'm on my own." "Because I can't trust you." "You don't trust me?" "You don't trust anybody." "And you always have the last word." "Go ahead, get worked up." "You're the one who gets worked up." "I can handle it." "You think you know everything." "I must have taken a wrong turn." "Don't you know the way?" "Don't piss me off, it's ages since I last came here." "Fuck!" "The dam again." "Let's stop here for a while." "You've been driving a long time and it's so beautiful here." "I want to get to my brother's before night falls." "But aren't we already close by?" "We can stop just to stretch our legs." "Agustina, Bum, get out." "Are you staying there?" "It's pretty, isn't it, Agustina?" "Come on, Rosário, let's go." "Bum!" "Bum!" "What're you waiting for?" "Get in." "And what about Bum?" "Get in, Tonia." "The dog's a bum, let him get on with it." "Tonia, where're you off to?" "Look, how beautiful..." "Look at this blue." "I'd never seen flowers like these before." "I wonder what they are?" "Maybe they'll grow in the garden back home." "Look." "Hello!" "Tonia." "My boyfriend, Rosario." "Bakker." "Maria Bakker." "You're travelling through, no doubt?" "And you must have got lost, am I right?" "Only two types of people visit me:" "those who get lost and those who are looking for me." "The grave of the unknown soldier." "Poor thing..." "He fell from the skies." "But do come in, you've arrived just in time for tea." "These shoes are so comfortable..." "They annoy me!" "Come in." "A woman is not complete without aching feet." "Jenny." "It's Jenny." "A magnificent specimen of the Nuba." "A witch." "A gift from an adventurer friend of mine, a treasure hunter." "This is unique." "This is Paula, a fellow inmate." "Sit down." "Bring two more cups, darling." "We have guests." "And cakes too?" "How pretty!" "Bring a vase too, Paula." "You'll be the only one eating cake, as usual." "And it shows." "Right?" "She's a wild berry, my little Paula." "Very shy, very sweet..." "A little gauche." "Paula, darling, the knife." "Bring me the cake knife." "I'm doing my bit for social solidarity." "Her father beat her every day." "He thought he could make a man of her." "She had three brothers, all dead;" "the youngest from pneumonia, the second OD'd." "The oldest got AIDS." "He died a year ago now." "The social worker, a petulant evangelical with a thin voice and untidy hair, nearly finished off the job." "She got to this house just a minute before going mad." "And you, madam, have you been here long?" "My youth has not allowed me to have anything for very long." "Why do you live cut off from world?" "Out of boredom, sheer boredom." "I've crisscrossed the five continents." "My success was total." "So much praise is bothersome." "Dedication is what matters, in the end." "Isn't that right, darling?" "Are you happy among the peasants?" "I am." "But where are the peasants?" "I haven't seen them." " You don't go out often?" " No, I go out a lot." "But the peasants, as you call them, only travel by car and I'm not one to stand at the roadside." "Is your work on stage or on the roadside?" "Do try it!" "You'll be making little Paula happy." "I've done drag for twenty years." "I've reached the end." "I can't afford to and I don't want to, but it has to be." "I don't know what it will be like after." "You'll just be a woman." "Will I really?" "You had twenty years to convince other people." "Time to convince yourself!" "How?" "Not letting yourself be fooled." "Appearances are very important." "I forgot the milk." "Do you still want some?" "No, bring the cigarettes instead." "As for appearances, they're useful to fool other people." "Should we fool ourselves as well?" "There's always someone criticizing us..." "Not when we're on our own." "Or in good company." "The cigarette holder!" "And afterwards, how will I support myself?" "I have someone who depends on me." "That is the real problem." "Do you smoke?" "Excellent." "I don't like the smell of other people's smoke." "Doctor Felgueiras is here!" "My dear friend, I've come to disturb your solitude." "I see I'm too late." "My dear doctor..." "Tonia, Rosário." "Doctor Felgueiras." "My ambassador to the Planet of Men." "Another happy expatriate in this forest." "The usual, Doctor?" "What news do you bring of the barbaric nation?" "Problems, as usual." "I've turned off the TV and stopped reading newspapers." "I'm too old for more worries." "It's unfair, good friend." ""On time's long tables the pitchers of God carouse..."" ""They drink the eyes of the sighted" ""and, then, the eyes of the blind."" "Celan, my dear Celan." "How time flies..." "Night has fallen." " Let's go catch "xnipes"." " Snipes, my friend?" "They died out a long time ago." "They're extinct." "Only when I was a child." "But let's go back, Doctor Felgueiras, back to our childhood." "Paula, go and get the bags." "Let's all go hunt that extinct species." "Tonight we improvise xnipes!" "Snipes!" "Ssss!" "Forget-me-nots, at this time of the year?" "Did you know the name of these Myosotis palustris?" "No?" "Well "forget it not"." "It's a good omen for a night journey." "Are there any wolves in this area?" "Wolves?" "It'll be easier to find snipes." "What was that sound?" "This is scary." "What's that?" "What's wrong now?" " What are you up to, doctor?" " I'm picking mushrooms." "Mushrooms?" "At this hour of the night, what for?" "I may as well, since I've got the bag." "Or do you think I'm going to fill it with snipes?" "That's what I call lacking in imagination." "I'm freezing..." "We'd better go back." "Let's leave the snipes be..." "I've caught one!" "I've caught one!" "I don't believe you." "Show it here!" "I've caught one." "Look." "It's glimmering." "Rosário, that's a glow-worm." "Did you think it was a xnipe?" "What's that?" "Can you hear it?" "Hear what?" "It's them." "Who's them?" "Let's go back." "The snipes have retired for the night." "You were already here before entering, and you will remain after you have left." "Did you enjoy our walk, Tonia?" "I thought it was wicked." "Didn't you, Tonia?" "Where's Tonia?" "I haven't heard her in a while." "Tonia, where are you?" "Rosário!" "Agustina!" "Agustina, where's Tonia?" "I've found Bum." "This is way high." "Close the window, it's cold." "It's so peaceful here." "You can't hear a thing." "You left your forget-me-nots downstairs." "Thank you." "I'm very glad you decided to stay the night." ""Long before night-fall," ""someone arrives at your house," ""who has greeted solitude." ""Long before dawn," ""he wakes up" ""and throws, before leaving, a dream," ""a sleeping space which echoes with footsteps." ""You hear him measure the distances" ""and you throw your soul after them."" "Sleep well." "Tomorrow we'll play on the swing." "Good night." "Are you asleep, Rosário?" "I am." "Let's go, Rosário." "This place gives me the creeps." "You're not used to it." "Get into bed and sleep." "We have to wake up early to go to my brother's." "I can't, Rosário." "There's something wrong with this place." "Let's go." "Please, don't fall asleep." "Let's go!" "I no longer want to go to your brother." "I want to go home." "Get out of my way, Bum!" "My gold rosary..." "A bone?" "It was you, you wretched dog." "Are you still there?" "Come on in inside, the rain's coming." "Rosário, come and see, look what I found!" "My knife." " Look." " Was it buried there?" "Agustina's been playing tricks on me all these years." "I thought you were innocent." "Thank you, Lord." "I bought it at Fatima to ask the Blessed Virgin to find me a man." "I had a rosary, she sent me a Rosário." "The cufflinks!" "The ones I gave you to wear at the gala?" "And I thought you had sold them." "Now see what you've done!" "You can't see a thing, you poor thing." "God punished you." "As for you, you just didn't get a chance to." "What about the other cufflink?" "Shut up and dig." "My clog!" "That looks right valuable..." "Well it is, so there!" "It has historical value." "I wore these shoes in a show with Ruth," "I played a Nazarene woman." "I looked wonderful." " A Nazarene, you?" " And what's wrong with that?" "What's that?" "That from that cow, Lidia." "One night, she came in wearing a hood with two other queens." "She scared me so much I wet my pants." "Then she tied me to a chair and started firing." "I didn't talk to her for a week." "We actually did a show with this." "What was it called?" ""War Veterans"." "She was a complete nutcase, that Lidia..." "Bum." "What's that in your mouth?" "The fringe..." "And I stopped talking to Irene because of this." "It's raining, Tonia." "Shall we go back inside?" "Get away." "Zé Maria..." "So little." "How I hunted for this photograph..." "Shall we go back inside?" "This brings back so many memories." "Let's go inside." "Yes, I'm freezing." "What's your name?" "Tonia." "You're very weak, Tonia." "The strength you've got left is rejecting the silicone." "The body knows best." "You've been very brave, Tonia." "I even admire your stamina." "We're going to have to remove your implants." "The whole thing is infected." "That's why you got those boils, which are pouring out the infection, the silicone, everything..." "Weren't you in pain?" "And those blue contacts will also have to come out, unfortunately." "First, the contacts." "Doctor's orders." "That's one." "Don't close your eyes." "I lost it." "See, that was easy." "Be brave, Tonia." "Everything will go well." "Stop it, don't bother." "Can you open that drawer?" "Come on, Irene." "Please humour me." "Open the drawer." "Not that one, the other one underneath your bag." "Can you see a small red box?" "It's for you." "So much work creating Tonia..." "Just one day... and Tonia is over." "Forgive me." "It was Agustina fooling around." "And there I was, thinking it was you." "We learn to mistrust everyone, just not animals." "It's your turn now." "You can do everything differently." "Look at me, Tonia." "What do you see?" "A beautiful woman." "I never had friends, just envy, envy..." "Don't worry," "I don't want your place." "We're all here in passing." "None of this is the end." "The flowers took root, after all." "I have nothing but good memories of that trip." "Remember?" ""Forget me not"." "I wish I had met your brother and your nephews." "Never mind that now, let's eat." "Irene was here." "She's had the op." "She's become such a beautiful woman." "Whereas I..." "Don't think about it." "I love you just as you are." "Do you know, she was fixing me up." "Wig and everything." "She wanted me to look pretty again." "But it's not worth it anymore." ""Don't let them bamboozle you", you used to tell me." "You never understood it was my way, mother." "Come on Tonia, you have to eat." "I gave you a grandson." "But that was never enough, was it?" "You left me when I most needed you." "Zé Maria, where are you?" "Open your mouth, Tonia." "Come on, open your mouth." "You need to eat." "Come on, swallow." "That's it." "Nowadays, the disease doesn't kill anyone anymore." "You have to keep the faith." "Don't let your spirits get low." "I've never made things out to be better than they were, but in this case..." "We need you." "You're a star." "I won't be leaving this place, Teixeira." "The money is a big help, but..." "You were always a fighter, Tonia." "You can't give in now." "We're the ones who started it all." "Without you, drag will disappear." "Drag will be over without me?" "I don't know..." "Drag is over for me." "But never mind." "If I wasn't here, waiting to die... where would you be?" "Our conscience is weighing us down." "The bad things that happened..." "But let's not talk about sad things." "Remember when I came up with the name Tonia?" "You liked Tonia Carrero so much." "Tonia's... not coming back." "Because you were the woman" "I never wanted to have" "That's why I love you" "Because you wanted the woman" "Who I can't even be" "That's why I love you" "Because I loved the pain" "The Lord gave us" "That's why I love you" "Because I was so happy" "That's why I never wanted to say" "I love you" "Because it's so fleeting" "To have you, young man" "That's why I love you" "And it's for being lucky enough" "Not to gaze at death" "That I love you" "And it's because of not knowing" "What it means" "That I love you" "What a lovely surprise." "The two so close together." "You're really nuts." "How did you manage to smuggle them in?" "I'm always carrying a lot of stuff, they never even asked me anything." "I'm so glad you came." "I had no news of you." "What is going to become of you?" "Forgive me, son." "I never was a good mother." "And you never wanted to be my father." "I want to ask a favour of you, but it's a secret." "I need a suit." "God didn't make me to go around in skirts." "And to go around in trousers?" "There are no tailors in heaven." "I know what I'm talking about." "It's not me deciding now." "I lived like a woman," "I want to die like a man." "Don't worry, father, I'll sort it." "Turn the light on." "Good evening, Tonia." "So, talking to yourself in the dark?" "Agustina!" "Come here." "Are you scared?" "Whenever the sun shines" "On that beach" "I feel your body quiver inside me" "Your breathing" "Your face, your hair" "Your kisses" "I shake" "Oh how I'd like to live in the plural" "This singular is worse than bad" "Unknown rider in eternity" "Exile in the seas of my yearning" "Ignoring in me the greatest lonelines" "Even on the streets with neither ceiling nor floor" "Tricking the mirror with pictures of me" "Don't be so sure, that's not who I am" "Found in space Forgotten by the world" "I feel no fatigue I'm the deep echo" "I want to be plural Waning, waxing" "Live for a second The eternal moment" "We already knew..." "Without her, he couldn't make it." "It was for the best." "But why is she wearing a suit?" "Another joke she played on us." "She wanted it that way." "She wanted a religious burial." "She wanted to be dressed as she was born." "She used to say she'd have to be strong to bury Rosário, not knowing she would be buried with him." "Being born a larva" "Dying a butterfly" "Caterpillar, chrysalis" "Of a purplish hue" "Being an eagle, moonlight" "With velvet hands" "So many flowers..." "Yearning to be one day complete" "Remembering God's voice in an immense garden" "Poet of the space, the being I'm becoming" "Coming from the east, the bird that will free me" "Taking with me the light in a medal" "Found in space Forgotten by the world" "I feel no fatigue I'm the deep echo" "I want to be plural Waning, waxing" "Live for a second The eternal moment" "Found in space Forgotten by the world" "I feel no fatigue I'm the deep echo" "I want to be plural Waning, waxing" "Live for a second The eternal moment" "Don't be so sure, that's not who I am" "Don't be so sure, that's not who I am" "Legendagem:" "LSV"