"You don't have to worry about me working at a homeless shelter..." "'Cause I'd be homeless if I took that job." "It's Abaddonn all the way, baby..." "Even though nobody wants to talk to me there, I mean..." "I don't know why I'm trying so hard." "It's like I've got bubonic plague or something." "Actually, a lot of people are getting sick." "I think a lot of people down there have Asperger's, or..." "Whatever that thing is." "But, I just gotta go, "You know what?"" ""Give in, you know, maybe this is where you're supposed to be, you know what I mean?"" "Are you hungry?" "Mmm-mmm." "Well, this your first weekend back, since your treatment, so..." "Are you gonna go out, or... ♪ Soak and wet ALL (REPEATEDLY):" "Shots!" "♪ She leakin' soak and wet" "♪ Shake it like a salt shaker Shake it like a salt shaker" "♪ Shake it like a salt shaker Shake it like a salt shaker" "(YELLING) (CHEERING)" "(RAP MUSIC CONTINUES)" "♪ Make it work with your wet t-shirt" "♪ Bitch you gotta shake it till your calf muscle hurt" "♪ Say the heels on your feet or the strap around your ankle" "ALL:" "Ugh!" "Ew!" "♪ Call that bitch Bo Jengles ♪ Oh!" "I'm not going out." "Well, you could help me in the garden." "This stuff is fabulous!" "It's magic." "Yeah, I think I'm just gonna meditate." "All weekend?" "Well, when I was at the center, sometimes, like, three times a day, we'd do it." "Why?" "I mean, what for?" "Just to stop the storytelling, Mom." "You know, the compulsive thinking about yourself and your life, just... (SIGHS)" "Well, good luck." "Thanks." "(MEDITATION MUSIC PLAYS)" "(BREATHES DEEPLY)" "AMY:" "Shh." "Slow down." "Breathe." "Relax into my body." "Totally present." "Focusing on one spot." "I see my hand." "I see...wrinkles." "My skin." "I'm 40." "I'm 40." "I'm severely dehydrated." "I need to drink more water." "Relax." "Breathe." "Picturing yourself somewhere calming." "Picture..." "Picture the ocean...water..." "Oh..." "I see a river." "I'm walking along a river." "It's the, it's the canyons of the Kern." "I'm hiking." "I remember this." "Levi's there." "Frankie's there." "I'm pregnant." "It was so beautiful." "I was so happy that day." "God, it all felt so...so right." "But then, oh..." "Then the baby miscarried." "(CRYING)" "(DOG WHINING)" "Then the dog died." "AMY:" "Get the fuck away!" "Levi started partying." " Oh, my day was good, thanks for asking." " And cheating." "Yeah?" "Since, it ends at four o'clock in the fucking morning!" "Then we started hating each other." "Oh, the divorce." "And I fell apart." "Woo!" "(SIGHS)" "(PHONE RINGS CONTINUALLY)" "(SIGHS)" "(PHONE BEEPS ON) Yeah." "You know, what I was thinking would be fun sometime?" "No." "I was thinking we should go back to the Kern." "AMY: (OVER PHONE) You know, just like hiking and camping and like, being by the river, river, or like river-rafting or just like, you know?" " Don't you think that'd be fun?" " Okay, well, bye." "AMY:" "What?" "I'm sleeping, okay?" "Yeah." "Okay." "(PHONE BEEPS OFF) (SIGHS)" "(PHONE RINGING TONE)" "RICK: (ON PHONE):" "Reservations, this is Rick." "AMY:" "Hey!" "You're there!" "I was calling about the kayak camping weekend." "What kind of availability is there?" "RICK:" "Mmm, we actually have an availability for this weekend, we just had a cancellation." "Wh..." "Okay, well, that's really interesting!" "(PHONE RINGS)" "(PHONE BEEPS ON) Yeah?" "AMY (ON PHONE):" "Hey, I made a reservation!" "It's this kayaking, camping expedition." "They had a cancellation." "And so they said that, like, if we filled this slot..." "That we'd get half-price, so I just made a quick decision." "The thing is that it's for this weekend." "Hey, Amy, what..." "I..." "I can't fucking go all the way up to the Kern to go kayaking at this short a notice." "I can't do it." "AMY:" "The only thing is..." "We have to get there kind of early and it's a long drive," "So, I'll pick you up about 7:00 a.m. In the morning?" "Yeah." "Okay, so I'm gonna see you at 7:00 a.m." "(PHONES BEEP OFF)" "Levi?" "Hello..." "What?" "Hey." "(SCREAMS)" "(LEVI CLEARS THROAT)" "What are you doing up?" "What do you mean, you told me 7:00 a.m., right?" "It's 7:00 a.m." "Oh, yeah, I didn't think you'd be..." "You told me to be ready at 7:00 a.m., I'm ready at 7:00 a.m. Let's hit it." "And I'm gonna drive, okay?" "Oh, I can drive." "No thanks, I'll drive." "Okay." "(UPBEAT FOLK SONG PLAYS)" "Okay, decaf." " I got us some healthy snacks, too." " Great." "Woo!" "I'm so excited!" " Hi, I'm Amy." " Hey." "Halle, nice to meet you." " How are you, I'm Will." " Will, hey." "Awesome." " Hey, what's up man, I'm Will." " Levi." "(INDISTINCT CHATTERING)" "Well, All right." "Now that you've all become old friends, let's see what we got here." "You two aren't married, are you?" "No." "I didn't think so, the way you're hugging each other." "You two are married, yeah?" "Thirty-one years." "Three kids, one grand baby." "What about you two, you married?" "cards." "Um, well we, uh..." "Yeah...yeah, no." "What about you two, Well, all right." "I've introduced myself to some of you, for the rest of you, I'm Rick." "I used to write for television." "RICK:" "Uh, Rockford Files, Mr. James Garner." "Oh, you love Rockford Files." "RICK:" "Kojak." "BUNNY:" "Oh, great!" "Yeah, they took all my ideas." ""Who loves you baby," that was my line." "I did the whole Hollywood thing." "But, that's a special layer of hell down there..." "I mean, really sick shit." "So, uh, I'm a poet of the river now." "AMY:" "Cool." "What we're gonna do is, today we're gonna be kayaking down for a few hours..." "Mostly level two, level three rapids." "And, tomorrow we're gonna hit a level four, called, "The Pinball."" " Oh my God, George." " A little bit hairy but..." "Hell, you'll all be experts by then." "If we flip and you can only save one of us, save Bunny." "Yeah, 'cause this was his idea." "I'll save you, Bunny." "I promise you, I won't save him." "All right, let's do it!" "Should we do it?" "I'll get you uh..." "Yeah." "Okay." "Got it?" "AMY:" "Yeah." "Oh, look how beautiful." "LEVI:" "Ah." "HALLE:" "Nice." "AMY:" "Woo!" "AMY:" "Rock!" "Woo-hoo!" "LEVI:" "They're ahead of us." "AMY:" "Levi, it's not a race." "LEVI:" "Nope." "Let's pass 'em." "LEVI:" "Excuse us!" "GEORGE:" "Are we racing?" " Woo!" " No one said it was a race." "AMY:" "He is, he is." "GEORGE:" "Oh, you guys." "You two look like Olympians!" "Thank you." "You look great, too!" "Well, take a picture, 'cause soon she's gonna look like a drowned rat." "You promised my hair wouldn't get wet!" "GEORGE:" "I lied." "(YELLS) Nose down straight!" "There you go." "LEVI:" "Left, left." "Oh my god!" " Oh, my God!" "This is insane." " Okay." "Woah!" "LEVI:" "All right, okay." "Oh my God." "Insane." "Good job!" "Great job!" "I was kinda scared." "Yeah." "That was really fun." "My first love, my husband." "My heartbreak, my pain." "It feels so easy now, here." "You're not the cheat and the liar." "I'm not the nag and the shrew." "We're not old, or young." "There's no bitterness or illusions..." "No need for fear, or hope." "We're just spirits, drifting through this... perfect earth together." "We can be free of our sad stories." "They float away, until they're like memories of a dream from the night before, shadows under the water." "And what's left is pure life." "Life is the gift." "(INDISTINCT CHATTING)" "Amy, Amy!" "C'mon, we're gonna eat." "We're gonna eat." "Okay." " Good, worked up an appetite." " Good." "Oh, hey, was it cold?" "Freezing." "I heard dinner's ready." " Oh, yeah." "Yeah, I'll be right there." " You're going the wrong way." "HALLE: (LAUGHING)" "HALLE:" "Hey!" "Stop it!" "Hey!" "Hey!" "HALLE:" "No flashing, now seriously." "Wow, the current's stronger than I thought it was." "(WHISPERING) Asshole." " So, you're from Fresno, huh?" " Yeah." "That's a good town." "Yeah, not too bad." "I like it." "Yeah, it's nice." "You ever go down to San Franci..." "I'll talk to you later." "Okay." "How are ya?" "Hey." "I'm gonna go grab a sweatshirt." " Oh, um, I think dinner's ready." " Okay." "I'll head down there." "Do..." "Okay, well here's a..." "Thank you." "Mmm-hmm." "(LEVI UNZIPS BAG)" "Amy!" "Amy!" "Yeah?" "Hey, um..." "I'm just missing some stuff." "What stuff?" "Uh, I dunno." "Just..." "I'm just missing a couple things outta here." "You mean, yourrugs?" "I dumped 'em." "Amy." "Amy." "Are you joking?" "Huh?" "No." " Are you kidding me?" " No." "I dumped them in the river..." " They're gone." " What the fuck?" "In the river..." " Or near the river?" " Well, you shouldn't have brought that shit, here, anyway." "Listen." "You got..." "It's not a disco, gross." "Hey, what..." "You got no fucking right to be going in my bag like that." "What the fuck are you thinking?" "Can you calm down?" "'Cause..." "Calm down?" "How the fuck am I gonna calm down, when you threw the shit, that keeps me calm, into the fucking river?" "Okay..." "Hey!" "What the fuck is your problem?" " What the fuck is your problem?" " Hey, watch it!" " Hey, you watch it!" " Listen, I did this trip as a fucking favor to you." "You know that?" "Yeah!" "A favor?" "You're gonna do me a fucking favor by spending time with me?" "Oh!" "Fuck you!" "God fucking damn you!" "BUNNY:" "Is everything okay?" "What?" "Yeah." "Totally fine, we're just... (WHISPERING) Fuck it." "Ow." " Ready for some grub, there?" " Fucking drug addict." "Listen, Rick, where's the, uh, the highway at?" "It's about a half a mile over that little hill right there." "You all right?" "Oh, I'm great." " Good to meet all of you, I've gotta move on." " You're leaving?" "Yeah." "What's wrong, man?" "Uh, what's wrong is, uh, my ex-wife..." "Just threw my stash, my drugs, into the river." "So I'm fucking leaving." "AMY:" "God!" "Oh my god, I'm sorry." "Levi..." "AMY:" "Uh, please?" "Amy..." "Amy, leave me alone and I'm serious, okay?" "Leave me alone." "I'm sorry, okay?" "Jesus Christ, all right!" "I thought this was gonna be a weekend without all that..." "What about what I want, Amy?" "Do you ever think about that, what I want?" "What about that?" "Well, what do you want, to just get high?" "Yeah." "I do!" "That's exactly what I want to do." "And the great news is, I got a guy in town that's gonna hook me up." "Well, that's just sad." "What are you gonna do, huh?" "Hike a mile to the car?" "I'm gonna call a cab." " Well, I'm coming with you." "Yes." " No, you're not." " I'm coming with you." " No, you know what I'm gonna do in town?" "I'm gonna score, and then I'm gonna get lit." "So if you're okay with that, come along." "I don't care." "Yes, okay, I did this." "Just gi..." "Can you just let me get our stuff, a couple seconds?" "Go!" "Hurry!" "AMY:" "Gonna go get some drugs for him..." " It's a good motel?" " Yeah, it's a good motel." "LEVI:" "Okay, man." "Gotcha." "See ya." "AMY:" "Thanks." "AMY:" "Can you..." "Thank you." "AMY:" "I got it..." "LEVI:" "I'll get it." "(ELECTRICITY ZAPS)" "(CAR DOOR OPENS)" "LEVI:" "Right on time." "How's it going?" "Good to see you." "LEVI:" "So, uh..." "Hundred, right?" "Thanks a ton for coming up here, I really appreciate it." "Been on the fucking river all day." "(SNORTING)" "(CLEARS THROAT)" "Ahh." "Ugh." "Feel better?" "Yeah." "Yeah." "You want some?" "Sorry, I'm just trying to be polite, that's all." "Just trying to be polite." "LEVI:" "That was fun, though, up there." "I had a good time up there." "That was fun." "You know?" "It was nice." "It was fun to, like, be out there and like..." "Be in the river, and be in the water, and kinda be out in nature." "It's like..." "I don't do that, I get stuck back in town, and..." "I mean, 'cause remember we had, we had..." "You know, taken that trip back up around there, right?" "(WHISPERS) Yeah." "Remember that?" "And that's the same trip remember like," "Frankie had like gotten that bee caught up in his ear, remember that?" "Like that bug and he kept kinda like walking around doing that." "And we were laughing, 'cause we felt, like, he knew that we were laughing at him." "And we had that jump off that little cliff into the water, remember that?" "Like..." "And it was like, we were scared doing it, but then we got down in the water..." "And we were like looking up at Frankie, and I started trying to talk him into doing it." "And then he came, like, shooting out over the cliff, remember that?" "And we were, like, laughing so hard, 'cause when he was in the air..." "It was, like, he had his front paws, like, down low..." "And his hind legs, like, up in the air and then his ears were like flying up..." "And we started laughing so hard, we thought we were gonna sink." "That was really funny." "He was a great dog." "LEVI:" "Such a good dog." "(WHISPERS) Yeah." "Pound dog, you know, of course." "How old would we have been back then?" "You remember?" "Twenty-seven?" "Twenty-seven, wow, 27?" "Twenty-seven." "Twenty-seven?" "Yeah?" "Man, that was fun." "(SNORTS)" "Hey." "(SWALLOWS) Wanna fuck?" "(AMY SIGHS)" "You're lucky." "You barely have any wrinkles on your hand." "(LAUGHS) Yeah." "I'm very, very lucky." "(INDIE ROCK PLAYING)" "Well, I got you here in one piece." "So, Amy, I need you to do me a favor." "Don't try to save me, okay?" "Why?" "Amy, I can see the way you see me..." "And it." "Fuck..." "And it makes me feel like shit." "It's just..." "It's just the drugs, Levi." "No, it's not." "'Cause when I'm sober..." "It's all so much worse." "And when I'm high, there are times..." "When I..." "I actually don't think." "About any of it." "(SIGHS)" "And I need those times." "Okay?" "(CAR DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES)" "(WHISPERS) Shit." "(CAR STARTS)" "AMY:" "You can try to escape the story of your life..." "But you can't." "It happened." "The baby died." "The dog died." "A heart broke." "I knew you when you were young." "I know your heart broke, too." "I will know you when we are both old." "And maybe wise." "I hope wise." "I know you now." "Your story." "Mine isn't the one I would have chosen in the beginning." "But I'll take it." "It is my story." "It's only mine." "And it's not over." "There's time." "There is time." "There's so much time."