"Loose Canons" "Teresa!" " Teresa!" " Here I am." " Is the room ready?" " Not yet." "Did you put on his favorite blue sheets?" "Did you take down the curtains from Luciana's room?" "I haven't had time yet." "Change the towels and polish the best silver." "And do a good job." "Use the polish." "I don't want to see these things in Vincenzo's room." "Stefania..." "Whose suitcases are those?" " What should I do with these?" " Ssh!" "Travellers returning from far away lands..." " what gifts do you bring?" " My lady..." "I bring you the most fragrant flowers from the garden, the... most precious fabrics from the East, and a suitcase full of happiness!" " Tommaso!" " Ciao, grandmomma!" "Tommaso, mother's darling!" "Let me look at you!" " Darling!" " Hello, mother." " Auntie!" " How beautiful you are, Tommaso!" "Traveller, take the suitcases upstairs because here  happiness weighs nothing." " Exactly!" "So, you take them!" "We wanted to take her to the hospital... but Loredana said, "It's nothing, she's just a cry-baby."" "Luciana, that's your fourth glass." "I don't count yours." "How are the new boxes?" "As soon as they're ready I'll show them to you." "Nicola always said:" ""Quality is most important..." ""but the pasta must be beautiful."" "Uncle Nicola was always right." "Especially now, with all the competition!" "With our brand to be competitive..." "Elena, you want to lecture us on how to manage a company?" " Good!" " No!" " No, what?" "Let them eat." "Look how beautiful they are!" "If I'm not careful, the girls will eat me, too." "They're the picture of health!" " You were the same at their age." " Thanks, momma." " They're getting fat." " Last year they were half this size." " They'll slim down as they get older." " These two won't slim down." " They're fat!" " Have you taken the diabetes pills?" "Uncle Nicola always said that people fatten themselves up..." " just to show they have money!" " Papa, don't worry..." "A little belly never hurt anyone." "Stop calling me papa, Salvatore!" "I don't like it, and you're not my son!" "The fifth...." "Pour me some wine, auntie." "What did you do last night?" "Tell the truth..." "Yes, yes!" "I believe you!" "Watch it!" "Stupid bitch !" "No, I didn't mean you." "Some broad almost ran me over." "I'll call you back." "I didn't mean you." "Honest! Are you looking forward to leaving again?" "Wait at least until we've signed the papers at the lawyer's office." " Besides, this dinner with Brunetti means a lot to papa." " I know." "He wants to introduce us to the new partners." "Exactly." "I want to make an announcement at dinner to everyone." "There are three things you don't know about me." "Three?" "That's all?" "Do them one at the time." "First, I never studied economics and commerce in Rome." " I graduated in literature last year." " And?" "The second is, I want to be a writer." " You a writer?" " Why not?" "Is that so hard to believe?" "I've already written a novel... and I'm waiting to hear from a publisher." "But, that's not the important thing." "The important thing is, Antonio..." "I'm gay." "You say nothing?" "What do you want me to say?" "Remember my buddy Sasha from elementary school?" "I've been gay since then." "We never played with the toy cars." "You never thought of it?" "You never suspected?" "No." "I never even considered it." "But, do you absolutely need to tell them?" "I mean, you know how they are." "Why not just return to Rome and get on with your life in peace..." "Write......" " and nobody controls you." " And the signature at the notary?" "Dad wants us to be partners" " Just sign, what do you care?" " I don't want the responsibility." "You know what I'll do?" "Thursday at dinner...." "I'll come out in front of everyone... including this... what's his name?" "Brunetti, as well!" "Brunetti?" "He's a big mouth, that one!" "Why do you need to tell them in front of everyone?" "When I speak out in front of everyone, papa will send me away." "I'll pack my suitcases and my shares will go to you..." "And I'll be free." "I have no choice." " And if papa doesn't send you away?" " Then I'll introduce them to Marco." "Pass the ball!" " And if they also accept Marco?" " I'll write a new novel." "Science fiction this time!" "Science fiction!" "Stop!" "Thief!" "Help!" "A thief!" " A thief!" " Antonio." "A thief!" " What?" " Did you hear?" " Don't worry." " Did the thief come back?" "This is a new one." "He's not the one from three years ago..." "Go back to sleep." "The thief is back!" "This is the third time this month." "If it were up to her, he'd come back every night." "What do you mean?" "Not every night!" "She'd let him stay day AND night!" "Good morning." "Could I have a coffee?" "I shouldn't sleep with the window open." "Fifty thousand tears would not be enough because the music is as sad as you are inside of me" "You do not know my father." "As soon as he finds out I'm gay... all hell will break loose." "But, for me it doesn't matter, I've already packed my bags." "Why do you care?" "Your life is here, with me." "You're right." "Marco, can I tell you something?" " You make me feel lucky." " Lucky?" "Yes." "Think of what would have become of my life if I hadn't met you" " If you hadn't come to that brunch." " I think the same... but I can't say it the way you do." " Call me later?" " Sure." " I want to know." "It would be even better if I left tonight... then I'd arrive before you wake... and I'll sit on the bed and watch silently while you sleep." " Then I'll make you coffee." " Okay." "If I don't leave, I'll call you later tonight." "Ciao." "The policeman says: "I'm not the one who doesn't know how to drive."" ""My colleague, who is a poof, took the gearbox home!"" " Do you get it, Elena?" "Changing gears?" " Yes, Salvatore." "I understand." "The policeman thought the car didn't have a gearbox!" " Yes, I get it!" " That's a good one!" "Tommaso, come, please..." "Meet Alba Brunetti, daughter of Brigadier Brunetti..." " Our new partner in business." " Hello." " Hello." "My pleasure." "Alba!" "We played together when we were little, remember?" "No, I am sorry." "I don't." "Don't be sorry, I don't remember either." " Let me introduce you to her father." " Anyhow, nice shoes!" " Ah, Raffaele." "My other son, Tommaso." " Hello dear boy, welcome back" "These boys are the future of the company." "Good evening." "What good evening?" "I'm your sister-in-law!" "Glasses, lenses, operation, modern technologies..." "Nothing there, eh?" "You already have another glass in your hand." "Please try." "Would you like a taste?" "Stefania, have you heard the joke Brunetti was telling about the cop ?" " We're still laughing." " No, how did it go?" " Raffaele." " But I have to warn you..." " It is a little gross." " It made me laugh!" " There's a policeman, see, a poof." " Salvatore, let him tell the thing." " Every evening he gets in the car." " He thought the gearbox..." " Salvatore, give him some time." " If you want to tell it, I'll let..." " Yes please, yes please." " Go ahead." " This policeman gets in the car every evening..." " It's always the same car." " Sorry." "Sorry, I wanted..." " Sorry everybody!" " I wanted to say.." "Sorry, Tommaso." "I must tell you a story." " There's no need." " It's about a boy... who has always did what his parents expected him to do... without ever saying what he wanted, without ever saying who he was." "This boy had a problem... a defect, you would say." "This boy..." "liked other boys." "Which story is this?" "You don't know how to be funny." "This boy hid his true nature for years..." "He even dated a few girls in order to pretend being like other boys" "Then one day at the factory where he worked, he found a friend." "A special friend." "Somebody who understood because he was like him, too." "They went out together and they saw each other often." "But then our boy got scared." "He feared people would gossip... that they'd discover what he was trying to hide." "So, our boy had Michele fired from the factory." "Do you remember Michele?" "Labourer assigned to the control of the pasta mixing?" "Antonio, sorry." "But what does this boy matter to any of us?" "I've thrown away thirty years hiding... for fear of what you might think." "Now, finally, I've found the courage to tell you." "I'm gay." "Antonio, you're always so special!" "I'm happy you're laughing." "I couldn't have imagined this." "But, you understood me, right?" "I'm gay, homosexual, bent, a faggot, a fruit." "Cheers, Antonio, you are funny!" "What were we talking about?" "I'm trying to make it clear for you, papa." "You don't want to understand." "I can't hide it anymore." " That's enough now!" "Stop it!" " Sorry mama, this is how it is." "I'm sorry for all of you." " Tommaso, sorry..." " Raffaele, the contract is all prepared but, we can always go... to the notary tomorrow and make any necessary changes." "What will they say in town tomorrow?" "In a few hours, everyone will know." "What will you say when you meet them in the streets?" "Why are you doing this to me?" " Do you know what I would like to do?" " Stop it!" "I'd like to call Michele and ask him to come here, now." "Let him stay with us." "To go out in the town square, take a stroll in front of everyone... do everything in broad daylight." "And, do you know what I would like you to do?" "I'd like you to get up from the table." "Now!" "Get up!" "Go into the next room." "Leave what you have in your pockets on the cupboard... the car keys, the keys to the office, the ones to the house... the company credit cards, the checkbook... all the documents." "Then pack your suitcase and go from this house." "Even better, leave town... because I don't want to see you here again." "Understand?" "You heard what I said?" "Get out!" "Papa." "Stefania..." "I want to talk to him alone." "Tell him to wait for to me in the study." "Yes." "Excuse me." "He's gone." "I read somewhere that half of all Italian men are bisexual." "However, there's greater misfortunes in life." "Diseases, hunger, scarcity... death, right?" "Isn't it true?" "Papa?" " Papa!" " Vincenzo!" "Vincenzo!" "Vincenzo!" "Call for an ambulance!" "Why don't they let us enter?" "I want to know how he is." " I want to see papa." " Stop calling him papa." " But, he's not here." " It annoys me, too." "Okay?" "Tommaso." "Tommaso." "Papa." "Tommaso, come!" "No, here." "Here." " Who's outside?" " Nobody." " Did word get out?" " No, not at all" "Your brother caused my heart attack..." "Papa, it's just a slight one... try to stay calm." "Tommaso!" " Who knows about Antonio?" " No one." " Brunetti said he wouldn't talk." " Yea, Brunetti!" " Tommaso!" " Ahy!" "You're the only one left." "I lost your sister years ago when she married that Neapolitan asshole." "Your brother didn't want to talk to me." "And now, to me it's as if he were dead." "Tommaso, you are my life, my blood, my breath." "You must help me." "You'll help me, won't you?" " I have to go to Rome." " This is your land." "This is your home." " Papa, I..." " Only for a little while..." "Yes?" "Yes?" "Think of how many gay brothers we know:" "Mariano and Fabrizio..." "Roberto and Pino." "The lesbian twins." "What do I care about statistics of gay brothers?" "Come on!" "Look at it on the positive side." "Someone has paved the road for you." " The family now knows the issue." " Too well, it turns out!" "Are you a fool?" "What are you saying?" "My father ended up in the hospital because he has one gay son." "If we tell him both his sons are gay, it'll send him to the graveyard!" "And then, as if that's not enough, Antonio won't answer the phone." "Leave him alone for now." "Only think about how you can get out of this." " Tomorrow, the carpenter's coming." " So." "I can't sign contracts by myself." "Yes, I understand." "I'll have to call you back." "I can't talk right now." "Bye." "What are you doing here?" "Teresa didn't say you were coming." "My father's better." "I know that already." " Let's go." " Where?" "In less than a month, the new line must be launched in the market." "We must decide on the campaign and control the distribution." "We're behind schedule with producing the new campaign." "We need to rethink "the crazy wheel" concept invented by your grandmother." "So, what do I care?" "My God, careful!" "That bastard!" " You need to take Antonio's place." " I know nothing about the business." "You studied economics and commerce." "You must have learned something." "We've invested a lot of money in this business arrangement." "Your brother's gone and your father's in the hospital." "You're the only one left." "Six by 27 is okay, but, we need to use a darken brown." "We don't like this brown." "Right, Tommaso?" "Antonio didn't want the color to be darker." "Antonio is no longer in the picture so now Tommaso and I decide." "It that clear?" "Right, Tommaso?" " Tommaso." " Huh?" "Oh, and we're expecting the new shapes in three days." "Stop!" "Thief!" "Stop the thief!" "Help!" "A thief!" "A thief!" "Giovanna..." "Did you hear the lady?" "Come!" " There's nothing." "There's no evidence." "Nothing of nothing." " What are you are looking for?" " I don't believe your brother is... what he says he is." "I'm his mother, I would've noticed." "I raised him." "I was always close to him." "I never even suspected." "Never." "The only explanation is... he didn't tell us the truth." "Maybe he wanted to run away." "For some other reason." " That's the only explanation." " Maybe you just never noticed." "What do you know?" "Are you a mother?" "No, so what?" "This is it!" "Michele, the boy who worked at the factory." "When you were little." "We often went swimming at the Bay of the Turks, remember?" "One day in August..." "Antonio went into the bushes... and made me a basket with plaited leaves." "Making a basket with leaves is a girly thing." "Mother, it wasn't Antonio." "I made that basket for you." "Oh." " Vincenzo, I found evidence." " What evidence?" "Just at the last minute, I'd almost given up." "Instead, we need to put our minds to rest." "What shame!" "I never imagined it would end like this!" "That we'd become the laughing stock of the entire town!" "Your mother has sworn not to talk... but she IS a loose canon..." "I've told everyone he left for reasons of his own." "He hid it from all of us." "He was good." "All these years together without even letting on." "Remember when we all went to the Bay of the Turks together?" " What trip to the Bay of the Turks?" " Yes, you said something to me." " Antonio made you a basket." " What does it matter now?" "Forget it." " Sorry, but are we late?" " No." "Signora." "She won't tell anyone." "She doesn't even undersand what's happened" "You have a duty to keep quiet or I'll fire you." "Earlier, I saw you talking with Rosetta of the Ferrara's." "We were talking about other things." "Just to pass some time." "Listen to how she responds!" "You don't have time to waste." "You have work to do." "I'm not keeping you here for decoration." " Go and make rice and chicken." " Wait, call Massimo..." " I want to go out." " Where are you going?" "I'm going to see Vincenzo... then, to the factory to see how things are going... now that Antonio's missing" " Mother, Tommaso's at the factory." "He's looking after things." "Vincenzo needs to rest." "I'll take you there tomorrow." "Vincenzo just doesn't get it, huh?" "Listen, Mama." "The less we talk about this, the better." "The doctor says things need to get back to normal as soon as possible." "Normal!" "What ugly word." "To me, he was everything!" "Like one of my arms." "My legs." " He was me!" "Only younger." " I know." "He has to like women." "Like I like them." "Of course." "When I imagine him with another man, the blood goes to my head." " Look, the world is full of them!" "Your son's not..." " Ssh!" "Your son is not unique." " Sometimes in the same family." " Truly?" "A friend of mine knows someone who has a grandson and also the son." " What do I care about your friend?" " They're everywhere." "They pop up like mushrooms." " Madam, five minutes are up." " Only a moment." " Okay." " Thanks." "Many of them also have a wife and children at home." "Those with families live very discretely... without telling anyone." "Now, how will I walk around?" "How can I show my face?" " No one knows anything!" " Sure, no one!" "Now, I have to go." "It's very late." "I'll come to your home soon." "As soon as you're better." "It only takes a little patience." "I'm so lucky to have you and Tommaso." "Tommaso and you." "What would I do without you?" " My boy!" " How do you feel?" "A little better." "Still pretty weak." "It smells like a whore in here." "This looks blocked." "Is it dripping?" "No, no!" "It drips, it drips!" " Is the needle in correctly?" " Yes." " Aah!" " Now it is!" "Now, I'll feed you rice and lean chicken." "I'm not hungry." "Nurse!" "You are angry at Antonio because he didn't talk to you first?" "I'm not angry." "I just didn't expect things to go like this." "Didn't you ever talk to him... about this... thing?" "What thing?" "About.. this thing." "My brother and I haven't talked much in recent years." " Pity." " Pity." "How so?" "Two are always better." "What two?" "What do you mean?" "Just what I said." "Why are you still awake?" "I'm worried." "Why?" "Nothing, nothing." "Did you take your pills?" "Did you see the new machines Antonio ordered?" "Yes, I saw them." "You knew about Antonio." "He told you." "When he used to came back from the factory, he smiled." "He was happy..." "There must had been a reason." "For him." "Yes, he told me." "But, even if he hadn't told me..." "Once we were wrapping the pasta in paper." "I was sitting with the others, wrapping for hours." "And I wondered:" "And so... where will this pasta end up?" "Who will eat it?" "This pasta that I touched, that I helped make." "Have you ever touched the pasta when it comes right out of the machine?" " No." " It's warm, soft" "Nicola touched it from time to time and then he'd laugh to himself." "He knew it very well, that pasta." "We were nursing it along together, me and him." "Tomorrow, I'll go to the factory and touch the pasta myself." "No, don't bother." "Tommaso." "If one always does what others want... life isn't worth living." " Good day, Mr. Cantone." " Good day." "Tommaso, eh?" " Raffaele!" " Vincenzo, how are you?" " Very well." "How do I look to you?" " In perfect shape!" "Tommaso and Alba are doing very well with the company." "They're strong together!" "A miracle of nature." " Have a drink with us?" " Thanks, done already." "I'll call you afterwards, I must speak with you." "Bye!" "Tommaso, come..." "Let's sit here." "Sit down." "Why are you laughing" "What?" "Is something wrong?" "No, nothing." "Only there's a lot of things to do at work..." "Alba's waiting for me." "It's good you care about work." "But, not right now." "Now you're with your father." " How are things going with Alba?" " All right." "A beautiful girl, eh?" "And she's so serious." "She never went out with anyone from town." "A girl like that!" "It looks like she's trying to find the right man." "She's doing all right." "Here you are!" " Good day, Mr. Cantone." " Good day." "Now... what will you have?" " Something light, non-alcoholic." " We'll have a bottle of champagne." "Champagne!" "I get it..." " You want to celebrate!" " Why?" " Do you have something against that?" " No, nothing." " Something wrong?" "When someone orders champagne, it's usual to celebrate." " Right." " Bring us a bottle of champagne." " Any preference?" " Your choice." " Champagne it is." " Go!" "Go!" "Go!" " Papa?" " They know." "They all know." " What are you doing?" " They all know." "They know." " Should I call a doctor?" " Not, it's nothing." "I told you not to go to that bar in full sunlight." "Papa, we'll call a doctor to check your blood pressure." "I told you, there's no need!" "It's only grief." "The grief that Antonio has caused me." "I'm so ashamed." "It's me who's ashamed of you, Vincenzo." "I can't even leave the house anymore." "I must be confined, like a prisoner." "I can't live like this." "Have a rest." "Take a rest." "Yes, papa." "Rest." " Tommaso." " Huh?" " Come here." " Papa..." " Come!" "This can't go on." "It's becoming an obsession!" "You'll see that, over time you'll get used to it." "I can't get used to THAT!" "I'll never get used to it!" "How is it that, in all these years, we didn't notice anything?" "It's not written on anyone's face that he's homosexual." "Homo... what?" "That fairy!" "Don't try and defend him." "Why didn't we notice?" "One recognises them by their speech, by the way they move... by how they walk." "Instead, he didn't send out a single clue." "And, he dressed normally... just to hide it from us." "One doesn't need to dress up like a women to go with men." "And what do you know?" "I know a thing or two." " You knew it, didn't you?" " Oh, if only I had!" "But, I didn't know." "I swear." "But, why?" "We stay home a lot." "Sometimes friends drop by." "Otherwise, we're by ourselves." "I read, or write at the computer." "Marco studies." "Sometimes, when I'm here, I imagine he's with me." "Like this, or in the street." "In Rome, he always walks ahead of me because he walks faster." "Then, sometimes I stop... and watch him from behind." "How he moves his shoulders." "How he glides through the crowd by himself." "As if I weren't there." "I don't know why, but doing this touches me." "Then he stops, turns around and smiles at me." "I stop watching him, take two quick steps... and catch up with him." "It's true that the verbal agreement we made was different... but now there's a little room to renegotiate." " You can't go back on your word." " There's nothing in writing." "We're having second thoughts." "Have you talked with Sergio?" " Elena, you're not saying anything?" " Why?" "Can I speak?" "Why else did I bring you along?" "Dr. Mancini, this isn't a good time to renegotiate." "We have to finish production within two weeks." "We need to sign a contract now so production won't be halted... and later, we'll take into account the new requests." "With all due respect, you have no responsibility in this company." " From now on, she does." " What will you do?" "Work with us here?" " Yes." " Oh... and the children?" "Now, return." "Walk properly!" "One foot in front of the other." "With elegance." "You must cross your legs." "Eh!" "Straight on!" "Keep the neck straight." "The neck!" "High up, the neck!" "Okay." "What are you taking, auntie?" "I have a cough." " What are we playing now?" " You never nap in the afternoon?" "Can we play jam and bread?" "My, you have a tremendous cold." "Let's hear that cough." "That cold is terrible!" "Auntie will give you something to make that cough go away." "This makes everything go away." " Good!" " Good, eh?" "How old were you?" "Fourteen when the disease begun." "My father was never at home." "I had to do it all by myself." "Preparing food, taking care of her... studying..." "Everything." "Mother didn't want anyone else near her." "In the end, she was so ill that I hoped... she'd die quickly." "I thought it would be better for her, and for me." "I was wrong, you know?" "When it happened, I was in my last year of school." "I remember coming home... and I didn't know what to do." "I opened the door." "No one was there, waiting for me." "No one I meant anything to." "No one for whom I was important." "I'm tired." "Let's meet again tomorrow." "Yes." " At 9 a.m.?" " At 9." "Good night." "It seems she likes you." "She never even let me inside her house." "Have you ever held onto a person as you'd hold onto your own arm?" "Or leg?" "Otherwise, you can't understand all I've done." "I hold onto Michele as I hold onto this hand." "I know how that is." "I want to get him back, to tell him I've come out of the closet." "I've been too hard on him." "I had him fired from the factory so people wouldn't gossip." "I set him up in a house outside of town... to secretly meet with him." "He had an operation." "He was ill." "And I couldn't even go see him." "He told me it was too late." "That he didn't want to see me anymore." " I'm sorry." " You're sorry?" "How can you say that?" "Is this the kind of bullshit you write in your books?" " It was all your fault." " My fault?" "Yes, yours!" "I stayed here for years hiding on your behalf... because you had to study in Rome." "And all the while you... calmly lived your life, doing whatever you pleased." "Go ahead..." "So, why don't you leave town now." "Go to another city." "Like I did." "Find some friends you can talk about yourself with." "Find someone to love... in the middle of thousands of people, most of whom don't even want you." "You cry, you suffer." "Secretly." "But, if that's what this is about, you could've talked to me... instead of leaving me in this mess" " So what's keeping you here?" "Speak up." "You have to speak up, too." "Don't you want to leave?" "Tell papa that the Cantone family ends here." "That our family name will not continue." " You need to say it to papa." " Don't touch me!" "You've sent him to the hospital." "What should I do?" "Kill him?" "Michele is right." "When he doesn't want you... you have no compassion for anyone." "Not even your own brother." "You deserve to be alone." "Like all those who only think about themselves" "Oh!" "What the fuck are you doing ?" "This family has stripped us of our dignity." "And us?" "We have to steal things, one at the time." "We must fight between ourselves because what is given to one... is taken from the other." "I've earned this moment in life..." "Beautiful or ugly." "Whatever!" "I'm not going back for anyone." "Not even for you." "Good day, Tommaso." "Good day, grandma." "What's up?" "Always remember this:" "Gentleman get up later than peasants... but always before the lazy-bones." " True gentleman are workers." " What time is it?" " Will I be on time today to be a gentleman?" " Yes... but only because I woke you up." "Five minutes more and I'll be up." "You're hiding something from me." "You had dinner with her again, right?" " Papa." " This makes me very happy." "Only at the factory, we're behind schedule." "You're right." "I know it." " With Antonio it was different." " It was, but now he's gone." " He was here yesterday." " Where did you meet him?" "How is he?" " He left this morning." " Mother!" "How did you know?" "What are you up to?" " I'm preparing for an attack." " I don't want to know why he came back." " If he's sorry  tell him, he's much too late!" " What should he regret, papa?" " It's not his fault he's homosexual!" " I don't want to hear that word." "It's a word like any other, It's time you get used to it." "Signora, cake is bad for your blood sugar levels." "Are you still here?" "Get lost!" "Papa, I think Antonio should come back." "Are you nuts?" "He's the same person he was before." "He'll always be your son." "Let me understand this..." "According to you, your brother is the same person as before." "Yes, he's the same person." "You're late for the factory." "You're the one who's late to understand." "It's more difficult to stay quiet than to say what's on your mind." "Do you think I'm not missing him?" "I think about him a lot these days." "The years he needed me." "And when he was sick, I became sick myself." "I won't find that Antonio anymore." "At least he saved himself, thank God." " Elena?" " Yes" "I'm gay." "Homosexual." " Yes, I know." "I got it." " You got it?" " And you just kept quiet?" " What was I supposed to say?" "Uh..." "Antonio likes men, and so do you." "I wondered once if I liked women but... no." "I decided I didn't like them." "I'm not gay." "Okay." " Tommaso?" " Yes" "Are you happy? The "crazy wheel"..." "Nicola and I based our whole lives on that "wheel."" "We wanted to make better pasta than Cavalieri's... but we never managed it." "You never knew Nicholas." "Your brother-in-law?" "Yes, the brother of my husband." "I've spent all my life with him." "He was with me even when he wasn't." "In my head, I slept with him... and I woke with him every morning." "All these years, I never stopped loving him." "It's been a beautiful thing, but also unbearable." "Impossible loves never end." "They always last." "Stefania, if I'm not mistaken, they're all watching us." " Vincenzo was right." " But you can't see well." " Good day, how are you?" " Very well, thanks." " Yes, they're watching." " I know why." "This morning, I found an empty liquor bottle under your bed." " Just try to walk straight." " It's not that." "It's the other thing." "No." "Antoinette." "No." " Good day." " Oh, Mrs. Canton." " How are you?" " Fine, thanks." " How can I help you?" " Were looking for a suitcase." " What color?" " Moss green." "On the wet side." " Another color?" " Raspberry." " Yes." "Mrs. Cantone." "Luciana." "From far away, I thought it was you." " How are you?" " Very well, thanks." "And you?" "What a pleasure to see you." "We hear certain things and instead... here you are, beautiful as ever." "All fresh and smiling." "Thanks, same to you." "Have a good day." "I wanted to tell you, my son Luigi is getting married next month." "And we'll be having a big celebration." "And, I wanted to tell Antonio because they were such good friends at school." "I'm so happy." "When sons marry, it's happiness." "We'll tell him." "Goodbye." "And, have a nice day." "What a surprise, Antonietta." "I hadn't understood." "Luigi's getting married!" "How wonderful." " And to Caterina?" " Yes." " Jesus." "He getting married to "the free beach"." "That's what they called Caterina." "They said all who came by, rammed their "little umbrellas" into her beach." "People say such nasty things." "It's awful." "So right." "How ugly slander is." "Goodbye." " Bitch!" " Whore!" "Ahh..." "You see how much tension this is causing me?" "I'm all stressed out." "Everything's tight here." "Relax, Vincenzo." "Oh, the shame I have to bear." "To come here, I had to take side streets and keep my eyes down." "Now you're over reacting." " Even Tommaso's defending him." " Sorry but, what else can he do?" " He'll always be his brother." " That boy is too good." "I have the impression he puts himself in his brother's shoes." "He's trying to understand him... but how is he managing it?" "Maybe since he studied in Rome, he's probably used to it." "You know how it is... in the big cities." " Who?" "Tommaso?" " Tommaso." "You don't know him." "Before this thing with his brother..." "Tommaso didn't have a clue what it was all about." " What did those jerks want from you?" " Them?" "Nothing." "They told you I'm crazy." " That I was in a clinic." " We didn't talk about you." "They told you that I'm rich, sick and spoiled... that I do strange things." "That here, no one can stand me." "What are you talking about?" "What's got into you?" "They're right." "It's all true, what they say here in Lecce." "You're not aware of how I am, of my craziness." "Alba, you're wrong." "But it's all true." "I am strange." "I don't even try to let anyone get close." "I keep everyone at a distance." "I have lots of emotional problems and fixations." "Good night." "Good night." "You'll be tired after travelling for hours." "Would you like to take a shower?" " No." "I'll tell the maid to call Tommaso." "Teresa." "Tommaso." "Look, what a surprise?" "Your friends from Rome." "They were missing you." "We just wanted to stop by." "Say hi." "We're on our way to the coast..." " and they told us to come in." " How nice of you." " Hello, beautiful." " Hello." "What have you done?" "You're wearing some face." " It's nothing." "I was asleep." " Hello." " Hey, Tommy." " Hello." "I need some water." " So, you are?" " I'm Davide." " I'm Andrea." " Yes, I remember." " And you are?" " Tommaso's aunt..." "Luciana." "Call me Luciana." "Mother, have you ever seen such cute boys?" "Are you from Naples, too?" "When did you go to Rome?" "I lived in Rome once." "Before I got married." "Do you know Gennaro Capece?" " No." " That's not possible." "He owns the most famous club in Rome." "Altras..." "Alias... something like that." " The Alibi?" " That's it!" "Such a small world." " We must have a few friends in common." " I understand." " I'm Massimiliano." " Salvatore." " I'm Elena, the wife." " Pleasure." " Pleasure." "Marco, we need to be on our way." " No." "Not already?" " Stay." "We'll fix a nice supper." " We've got to be going." " We were only passing through." "We wanted to go to the coast, to Gallipoli, for the weekend." "You can got to the coast from here." "It's not that much furthur." "Tommaso, what cute friends you have!" " I already like them." " Teresa!" "Teresa!" "Here I am." "I came running" "Take the meat out of the fridge and grind it finely, twice." "Slice four onions, very thin." "You got that?" "Peel some fresh tomatoes." "Then, I'll take care of the rest." "Ask Renato for eight chickens." "Oh, and if he has mushrooms, get some of them, too." "Wait!" "Then air the cheeses and... make us a big pot of coffee with cream and some nice biscottis." "Is all that clear?" "Clear?" "Giovanna!" "No, no." "They didn't notice a thing." ""What cute friends you have in Rome." They understand nothing." " "You can get to the coast from here." - "It's not that much furthur."" "One night in Naples with the moon and the sea" "I met an angel could no longer fly" "One night in Na..." "I brought you some fresh towels." ""I brought you some fresh towels."" "Today is the feast of Saint Ramiro." "I have an appointment." "I need to go to the factory." " My father's not well yet." " Why is the factory so important?" "Before, all you talked about was writing." "That was all you wanted to do." " Writing was important, not pasta." " It's still important, but..." " Now I need to look after them." " What are you avoiding?" "Nothing." " Are you are scared?" "Ashamed for us?" " I'm not afraid of anything." "And I'm not ashamed." "It's only that my folks don't think the way we think." "We spend entire days talking about my brother..." " and it'll be chaos with you guys here." " And, that's all you can say?" "After all this time we haven't been together?" " You don't know what could happen." " Or what should happen?" "They find out your friends are gay, so what?" "This is 2010." "Here, it's not even 2000 yet." "I only wanted to see you." "It's not my fault your family is keeping us here." "If you start complaining this moment counts to me because" "I am asking you to kiss me again." " Oh, stop!" "That's such a gay song." " To you, they're all gay songs." "Get out! Who was that?" "God!" "Where did you go?" "A dish of pastries, two cakes and a few profiteroles." "Tommaso's friends from Rome stopped by and we want to celebrate." " We'll take care of it." " Are these friends of his nice?" "Nice and attractive." " What's wrong with my T-shirt?" "It's perfect." " It's gay." "Take it off!" " It's summery." " Change it!" "Go on." "You're limiting my freedom of expression." "Here, we need to do this and you're our biggest liability." " Quit flapping your arms." "Bind them!" " You're the liability here." "And, if you've taken anything, God knows how the night will end." " Davide, don't make trouble." " Enough with this." "I didn't take anything." "I haven't taken anything since I don't know when." "Real hunks." "Athletic, too." "If I don't tell anyone I'm gay, no one will even notice." "You'd better keep your daughters locked in at home tonight... because if these guys go out, god knows what will happen." "I saw how you looked at Tommaso's brother-in-law." " Are you crazy?" " You nearly jumped him, darling." "And the liability here would be me?" "Don't say you're an airline steward or they'll know you're gay immediately." " There are lots of straight flight attendants." " Yea, the stewardesses." " Thus has the lawyer spoken." " Yes, I'm a lawyer, so what?" "They don't call you Queen of the Bench because you're good in Court!" "Why are you always so serious?" " I'm not serious." "It's only an expression." " Would you like a drink?" " A nice aperitif?" " No, if I drink in the evening... my belly swells and I can't get my swimming suit on." "But, tonight I'll make an exception." "Besides, men with bellies are sexy, no?" " Did you study economics, too?" " Why, who studied economics?" " I studied economics." " Oh, of course." "We all know that." " I studied medicine." " Ah." " Where did you meet?" " "The hole"." " Where?" " Where?" " We have friends in common." " Yea, common friends." " What do you do?" " I look after the marketing at a multi-international." " I'm often in London." " London!" "Oh, how I love London." " I lived there a long time ago..." " Luciana." " for awhile." " Luciana!" " It's so beautiful." " Let's not talk about London." "I work for an airline." "It's great." "I travel a lot." " And you?" " I'm at the factory." "You know, auntie." " No, not you, Salvatore, you." " I'm a lawyer." " I thought maybe a hairdresser or stylist." " Miss Brunetti." "She makes an announcement." "She thinks we're at a ball." "Moron." " Good evening." "Sorry I'm late." "Hello, Tommaso." " Hello." " Thank God, you're here." " Alberta?" " No, Alba." "That dress." "Alberta Ferretti." "Ah, yes." " Magnificent." " Thanks." " My girlfriend has the same one, so..." " Ah." "This is really a beautiful table." "It was really worth it." " Guess I'm really missing Rome." " You can always go back." " I'll even pay for the ticket." " Papa..." "Why don't you stay a few days?" "Now that Tommaso's here..." "And, while Tommaso's at work, you can look around." " There's plenty of beautiful girls." " Well, if there's girls..." " No?" " You must come to our house for dinner." " I'll cook for the occasion, okay?" " Great idea!" "My husband doesn't know how to cook anything." "He just talks a lot, but it doesn't mean anything." "And you, Tommaso?" "How are things with you?" "Tell us." "There's lots to do at the factory." "Sorry, a mosquito." "Tommaso has a lot of responsibilities now." " You know, we have a pasta factory?" " Auntie, more to the right." "It was built over 50 years ago, by my mother and Uncle Nicola." "Oh, God!" "Sorry." "It's been going pretty good." " Except for that flashing sign." " What sign?" "The one you have over your head that says: "fag" "fag" "fag"!" "What are you saying?" "I never betrayed myself." "Try and keep your mouth shut." "You should talk." "You'll end up under the table with that brother-in-law." "Have you seen him ?" "I tried not looking at him but, I can't." " And you with that glass." " You should have let it fall." "I know, I know." "But it wasn't me." "That was the real me." "I'm trying to keep her under control but... she just pops out." "But, it's okay now because I've locked her in the car... and I'm not letting her out again unil we get back to Rome." " Oh, sorry." " Davide!" " You can't sleep ?" " Where's the kitchen?" "I'm thirsty" "It's all here." "Help yourself." " No, thanks." " Come." "Sit with me awhile." "Come." "Thomaso." "Tommaso, it's me, Marco." "Forgive me." "Ah, London." "I love London!" "You can't imagine what it was like 25 years ago." "I run away once and went there." "I liked a boy my folks didn't like." "He wanted to join a rock band, but he didn't make it." "So, I took money, credit cards, my papers." "And ran away with him." "Then one morning, I woke up in some apartment... and he was gone." "He'd run off with the last of my money... and some jewelry I'd brought." "He left me with bills to pay and he'd taken all my papers." "Vincenzo had to come and get me... but I had such a great time!" " Come on." "Have a drink." " No thanks." "You're all such good boys." " A deadly boredom." " I'm not such a good boy." "I just like other things." "Ah." "Things that don't make you fat." "Like what?" "I'm so tired." "Of what?" "Them?" "A bit of all of it." "Why are you so mean to me?" "I want you to get better, madam." "Good morning." "Good morning." "Listen ..." "I wanted to ask you something." "Something in private." "Tommaso said you were close friends." "So, he told you about Antonio." " Yes, he told me." " Exactly." "I wanted to ask you..." "According to you, as a doctor... is this something that can be cured?" " What?" " This thing with Antonio." " Homosexuality?" " Yes, that." "Maybe after some time, it goes away..." " No." " No." "It's not a disease." " It's a characteristic." " A characteristic?" " Yes." "Some people are." "And, some people aren't." "Yes, yes." "Of course." "I know." "But does it ever happen that one becomes normal?" " Normal?" " Yes." "I have dark circles under my eyes." "I look like a Panda." " It doesn't get normal." "It gets more obvious." " Tomorrow, I'm throwing out all my cosmetics!" " Good morning." " Good morning." "Sit, please." "Miss Luciana has thrown out her entire wardrobe!" "She says she wants a change of season." "Last night she didn't sleep a wink." " Sorry, my sister-in-law is not well." " I don't know what's got into her." "She's upset, but not like when she's drunk." "It's much worse." "I didn't give her anything." "I swear." " What if there's no water?" " Then we won't wash." "What if they haven't put up the doors and windows?" "Then, we'll let the wind blow through... and if there's no beds, we'll sleep on the floor." "." " And if there's no..." " If there's no walls..." "I'll take you to a new house, lock the door and never let you out again." "Passive, passive." "I told you." "The world is made up of passives and liars." " But what does that mean?" " Some have wives, and daughters." "Try and get it through that thick skull of yours." "Wait." "I have something for you." "It arrived at home." "Is it from the publisher?" "You read it already?" "Yes." "I wanted to give it to you earlier but..." "I'm sorry." "It doesn't matter." "Bye!" "Ciao!" "Bye!" "What's your book about that they don't want to publish it?" "It's about two people who aren't together anymore." "One suffers and the other doesn't." "But maybe the real story is that... one mustn't be afraid to change... because all that's important never really leaves... even if we don't want it." "And in the end... one doesn't leave anything, or anybody?" "Sure." "Life's one big, beautiful rip-off." " We'll all meet later." " Wait, papa." " I need to tell you something." " I said later." "Tommaso, you don't need to say anything." "I've tried." "I go to the factory every morning..." "I work." "I touch the pasta, like grandma says." "I look at the boxes that go all over the world." "But, I don't care, I don't feel anything." "do you know what I do at night, while you're all asleep?" "I write." "I write what I see, what I think, what I want to say." "It all becomes real." "I succeed in saying what I feel." "But, in real life, I don't succeed." "I don't know what to say." "Ask me what I wanted to say... and I'll go into the next room and write it all down." "Then you can read it and understand." "I'll can explain myself better." "This is what I want to do in life." "I want to write." "A few days ago, a letter arrived for me in Rome." "It says they won't publish the novel I've written." "They didn't like it." "But I don't care." "I'll write another." "Then another." "If they won't publish them, I'll continue writing them for myself." "There, I've told you." "That's it." " Tommaso." " Wait, let's talk." "Talk about what, papa?" "There's nothing left to say." "This is how it is." "I'll see you all tonight." "Teresa!" "Teresa!" "Tell Massimo to get the car." "Where do you want to go?" "I need to ask your permission to go out?" "Good morning, Tommaso." "Good morning, grandmother." "Did I wake up late today, like the lazy-bones?" "No, you woke up at the right time." "You have been brave, resisting." "Keep on like that." "Make your own mistakes." "Is that what gentlemen do?" "Gentlemen don't matter here." "That's what people do." "If they want to be happy." "Good morning, my love." "What's happening?" "Tommaso..." "God only knows if these places will have memories of me?" "If the statues, the facades of the churches... will even remember my name." "I want to walk one last time along these roads... that accepted me so many years ago." "When they all called me the Tuscan." "I want to see the yellow stones." "The light that takes your breath away." "If the streets hold the sound of my footsteps." " My city" " The city of Lecce." "To my grandchildren Antonio, Elena and Tommaso..." "I leave all that I have." "But the land that was Nicola's, I want Antonio to have." "You must come back here, Antonio, because this is where you belong." "You will have the land, the force that lives when we all die." "Dear Luciana." "You have all you need, but you lack courage." "Thieves don't always need to come in through the windows." "This is your home, too." "You two, Vincenzo and Stefania, there's nothing you can do... but love Antonio." "The earth cannot hate the tree." "Tommaso, write about us, our history, our land, our family." "About all the good we've done, but mostly where we were wrong." "What we didn't manage to do because we were too small for this life... this grand life that's so big." "The loose cannon is gone, or so you called me... thinking I didn't hear you." "But loose cannons bring chaos." "They put things in places where no one wanted them to be." "They smash it all... and change plans." "Nicola taught me the most important thing in life." "Smile when you feel bad, when you would rather die inside." "Don't be sad when you don't hear my voice in the house." "Life is never in our rooms." "We die and then we return." "Like everything else."