"I've never felt so low, since I've been cloistered in this swamp." "I've only been to town once and that was to operate on the resident." "I see no one but the natives, and I drink each night." "If I stay here another two years, and if I don't go completely mad." "I will be able to repay you completely." "This money has saved my from dishonor and without doubt prison." "And all that for a woman!" "Finally, I have been cured of love." "That's the main thing." " Thanks." "You will find enclosed all my savings of the last six months." "All that I didn't spend on whiskey..." " Fancy a game of dice?" " A game of dice?" "With who, Doctor?" "With me?" "Not possible." "I thought you'd rather die in the night than keep such low company as mine." "Are we playing or not?" "Otherwise I'm going." "Going?" "Where?" "My turn." "I win." "My turn." "I win." " That's it." "No more play." " You'll play." " Have you any more money?" " Money?" "Here." "Amok!" " Is this it?" "Are you sure?" " Yes Ma'am." "I'm getting out." "The "sleeping water"" "The knives now." "Hurry." "Heart." "Swab." "Injection." " The heart now." " He's getting weaker and weaker." "Is he dead?" "He's dead." "Take him away." "What is it?" "That?" "It's Amok." "Isn't it a legend." "Amok?" " I didn't think..." " No." "It exists." "It's a madness." "A plague of the tropics." "It is merciless." "No it's not a legend." "This land, dank and stifling." "which weighs on the nerves, like a storm." "And sometimes the machine blows." "It can happen to anyone of us." "Excuse me." "Are you Doctor Holk?" "My car broke down nearby and I came to ask..." "But you're standing out here." "I'm not used to visitors." "I live like a savage." "Please do me the honor of entering." "Make yourself at home, please." "I'm not disturbing you?" "You don't know what it means to me..." "The presence of a white woman, here in my office." " I wouldn't dare say." " I've heard so much about you doctor." "I'm ashamed to receive you in this state." "I've just operated." "If you could wait." "A moment." "I'm..." "I'm so happy to see you here." "I know you aren't here by choice but..." "I'm delighted all the same." "I surprise you." "You must understand." "I've spent a sleepless night." "Played dice, at first." "This tragedy, this death." "For a doctor, death is inevitable." "Almost an insult." "And then..." " You." " Why do you never come to town?" "You must get very bored here, Doctor..." "For five years I've lived in this shack." "I've never seen... a white woman." "A real woman." "That's why, just now, your presence in the doorway..." "so surprised me." "Like an apparition." "You have a good library." "Coming here, I had big plans." "Work, study." "And then this." "It seems that you can do miracles." "Me?" "The Resident." "He's playing golf again." "He's always playing." "I must come and consult you one day." "But I'll return when you are less busy." "My time is your time." "What does it concern?" "Oh, nothing serious, I think." "Weariness..." "Nausea... fainting." "Frequent, these ailments?" "Yes..." "No." "Fairly, for quite some time." "Can I.. ask you freely a few questions?" "Certainly Doctor." "Have you had... children?" "Yes." "A daughter." "And... when you were expecting..." "Did you experience similar problems?" "Yes." "Well, it would be best... if I could examine you thoroughly." "No." "It's pointless." "I am perfectly sure of my condition." "In that case, why have you come here?" "And firstly, I beg, lift your veil." "One doesn't come veiled to a doctor." "Who are you?" " Are you married?" " Yes." "Where do you live?" "You don't want to answer?" "These are the questions a doctor has a right to ask." " No?" " Yes." "But I hope you'll excuse me for not answering." "Fine." "But who gave you the idea to come here and see me out in the sticks?" "Why me and not another?" " You don't know me." " Better than you think." "I've already said." "In town your merits are very well known." "And one knows very well who you are." "But then, if you are so knowledgeable, why all this mystery?" "What reason for this game of the last quarter hour?" "Why did you let me confide..." "my troubles, my emotions" "Why didn't you tell me straight away..." "that you were only a patient." "Well, I'm listening Madame." "Be frank with me, please." "What's this about?" "Since they've spoken of me." "Since you know... who..." "I... am." "No more games." "What do you want?" "Haven't you understood yet?" "Let's admit that I haven't." "No more mystery, I beg you." "If I ask of you..." "If I was forced to ask of you... would you be ready to render me the service under a guarantee of secrecy?" "Ah, but you are no longer asking?" "No." "But I need to know if you would accept." "Would you bring me the authorization of your husband?" " No." " But..." " But you know the law forbids me." " Yes." "But I'll give you 20,000 florins." "A cheque." "Payable to a European bank." "20,000 florins?" "A cheque?" "Payable in Europe?" "But..." "I would perhaps have to leave this country." "Yes." "You've anticipated everything." "You want to buy me because, they've said I'm for sale." "You treat me like scum because Dr. Holk is a tarnished man who will shrink from nothing." "I loved a woman as dangerous as you." "I was ravaged by passion." "Honor, reason." "She took it all." "But Dr. Holk isn't a thief." "I've paid, am paying still for my sins." "That's why I'm never in town." "Why I hide away in this wilderness." "Your life story doesn't interest me." "This won't get you my consent." " Then you won't accept?" " Not for money?" "What else could you want?" "Firstly, don't talk to me as to a servant... but to a man." "I am human." "Me too." "You have suffered." "Me too." "You are proud." "Me too!" "When one needs help, one doesn't throw around orders." "One doesn't fling cheques at people." "You must beg me for help." "I am not only a doctor." "I don't only keep office hours." "There are other hours, for me too," "You have perhaps arrived at such an hour," "If I begged..." "would you accept?" "Perhaps." "But you must firstly beg." "First you must beseech me." "Then, I will answer." "No!" "Never." "20,000 florins?" "Keep your money!" "when a woman like you wants to buy a man like me, it's not money she should offer." "A man like you..." "How did you choose them?" "Those that sent you to the doctor?" "Listen, Madame." "Let me explain." "You mustn't leave." "I was crazy just now." "Understand." "Mummy." "Mummy, Mummy, where are you?" "Look, Mummy." "Listen." "What have you done, Lily?" "Don't you think these little chicks would be happier with their mother?" " Well, my sweet?" " They're so cute." "But you shouldn't have brought them here." "Why didn't you leave them where they were?" "Ah, Mother Hen!" " See how cross she is." " Yes." " She's looking for her babies." " Yes." "Aminda!" " They're beautiful." " Yes but look what you've done." "Look, look." "Take these creatures away." "And you, take that." "Lily, leave it." "Lily." "Lily will you leave it." "Mummy, there's one under here." "Lily, come out of there." "No, darling." "Leave it." "What a little devil." "You're not a little English girl, you're a little savage." " Enter." " A telegram, Madame." "Is it Daddy?" "ARRIVED YESTERDAY BATAVIA STOP GREAT JOY TO SHORTEN" "STAY HERE STOP LEAVE THIS EVENING ON YACHT STOP" "HOPE TO BE WITH YOU DAY AFTER TOMORROW" "A THOUSAND KISSES = HENRI" "Yes." "Your daddy home in two days." "My Daddy's home in two days." "My Daddy's home in two days." "My Daddy's home in two days." "Chan, guess who's coming in two days." "My Daddy." "Hey!" "You there." "I would like to talk..." "I want to talk to Mrs. Haviland." "Tell her it's Dr. Holk." "Holk!" " My Daddy's home in two days." " Your Daddy?" " Has he been away long?" " Oh yes." "About a year." "Madame regrets she is unable to receive the doctor." "She can't." "Mrs. Haviland can't receive me?" "Tell her it's impossible." "Tell her that I must, absolutely must speak to her." "Madame regrets greatly that she cannot receive you." "Hello, hello, yes it's me Hélène." "Jean, hurry up!" "Of course I'm thinking of you." "You love telephoning me." "I can't hear." "I can't hear a thing." "There's such a racket." "Wait." "Pipe down, will you." "Just a moment." "I'm here darling." " Are they annoying you?" "Just some friends come for me." " Darling I must talk to you." " With pleasure." " Is five o'clock alright?" " Alright." "At five." "I have shamefully offended you." "I know that you will never forgive me." "Know, however that I am tortured, and that I have only one thought:" "To help you." "Enter." "Mrs. Haviland." "Villa Haviland." "Wait for an answer." "I'll wait all day." "Well, d'you understand?" "Scram!" "Hélène!" "Jean, my darling." "We must talk." "We have to separate." "What's that?" "Separate?" "I've had a telegram." "He's coming in a couple of days." "Him." "My husband." "Come." "I don't understand." "What's changed?" " What's changed?" " What's changed if you love me?" "But I'll love you always Jean." "But it's simple if you love me." "Nothing can happen if you love me." "You can't understand." "Think what would happen to us if he was here." "The lies..." "The hiding." "To live in fear." "The humiliation." "I can't and I don't want to." " You don't love me now." " You know I do." " I'd never lie." " But it's simple." "Everything will be alright." "You'll see Hélène, you'll see." "I love you Hélène, I love you darling." "What?" "You're crying." "No, I'm not crying." "Why are you crying?" "Because I said everything would be alright," "I don't know how, but it will." "I'm sure." "Hélène." "I swear!" "I know you're worried." "But we can't stop seeing each other so suddenly." "Whatever must be done, I'll do it." "I'll find a way." "You have faith in me?" "Believe in me?" "You know Jean..." "We're going to have a baby." "A baby?" "It was just a joke." "To find out what you'd say." "Excuse me." "It was silly of me." "Because, you understand, if it was true I'd be... very happy..." "very proud." "You're leaving?" "You're angry?" "Is that why you leave?" "No." "I'm tired." "You won't kiss me?" " You're not leaving Hélène?" " Yes." "I must." "Remember Jean." " You can do nothing for me." " It's not so Hélène, it's not." "Yes." "Come in!" "It's the answer?" "But..." "It's my letter to Mrs. Haviland." "What do you want?" "Clear off!" "No, wait!" "Come in." "Shut the door." " What's your name?" " Maté" "You love you mistress?" "I saw that the other day." "She is in danger." "If she didn't want to see, the only person who could save her, what would you do?" "You'd serve her, even against her wishes?" " Answer." " Maté waits." "Maté thinks the doctor hasn't said everything." "Ah, you're a smart one." "Listen." "She is in danger." "And only I can help her." "I want to help her." "But she doesn't know." "It's to save her that I want to see her." "I beg you to believe me." "Maté you do?" "Tell me what we must do." "I must talk to her." "Mrs. Haviland will go tonight to the ball given by the Resident." " The message was sent Madame." " Thank you." "Prepare the car for 10:30." "You can dismiss the servants for tonight." " We'll go to the Chinese quarter." " The Chinese quarter?" "You know the house of Li Wang?" " The pharmacist." "You know him?" " No." "Maté doesn't know." " You will find her." " Yes Madame." "Li Wang is well known in the Chinese quarter." "Li Wang... bad woman, Madame." "I know." "Madame has forgotten..." "Madame has forgotten the ball at the Resident's." "No." "No, but we'll just call in." "Then we'll go straight to Li Wang." "Maté will do everything that Madame wishes." "I trust you." "Go Maté." "We'll leave in an hour for the ball." " What a pleasure to see you Madame." " Good evening." "You've never looked more beautiful than this evening." " You're too kind." " My compliments to Madame." " Why is that?" " Isn't Mr. Haviland returning shortly?" " Yes." "A year now, he's been away." " We're all anxious to see him." " You're too kind." "May I have the next dance please?" "Thank you, but I won't be dancing tonight." " I'm afraid not." " Then a glass of champagne." "With pleasure." " Shall we have that glass?" " Certainly, let's go to the terrace." "Come Lieutenant." "Could you introduce me to Mrs. Haviland?" "But we know one another." "Have you already forgotten my visit?" "My car broke down and that brought me to Dr. Holk." "You have had a visit from Mrs. Haviland and yet ask for an introduction." "But I didn't think that..." "Mrs. Haviland would recognize me." "She arrived at an awkward time." "I had just been operating." "A case of Amok in the village." "I didn't think she would have recognized me." " It's of no concern." " But..." " But I am delighted with the..." " I'd really love to dance." "Give me the radio." "Write:" ""In a few hours," ""I will have the pleasure of kissing you both." ""Will cable you hour of arrival." ""With love Henri."" "Hélène, please, my darling." "Let's go into the garden." "No Jean, I don't want to talk." " Not this evening." " But we must Hélène." "I'm not the child I was just now." "I'm a man." "Listen Hélène." "You weren't joking earlier." "I'm sure." "You told the truth." "You're going to have a child." "We're going to have a child." " No Jean." " No?" "Swear that I'm wrong." "I swear you're wrong." "Can you believe me?" "Hélène, I'm ready to leave everything to take you from here." "I would have resigned." "We would have been living in Europe." "In Europe, Hélène." "But my poor darling." "There's not just us two." "There's my little girl." "I too have resolved." "Whatever happens I won't leave my home, my husband, my child." "For no one..." "Never." "But I still love you, Jean." "Infinitely so." "Your distress has touched me." "But we must separate." " We must." " Hélène, my love..." "You'll understand perhaps one day." "Later." "You are so young." "Your life begins." "You can change." "Me no." "Me no, Jean." "Goodbye Jean." "My darling, my friend... my baby." "Goodbye." "Appoint me here in town," "I can't remain at my post." "I must leave immediately." " But that's impossible." " You must." "Think, man." "I can't replace you like that." " Then I'll resign." " I won't accept it." " You can't leave us without a doctor." " It's all the same." "Yes, er..." "We'll talk about it later." " Good evening Hélène." " Good evening." " Will you stay with us." " I'm too tired." "I'm going back in." "Mrs. Haviland." "Of course Doctor." "I was leaving without the name of the medicine for my little girl." "Would you give it me?" "Do I inspire such revulsion?" " Or are you so afraid of me?" " Fear, no." " You are only loathsome." " I want to help you." "I know your husband is returning." "It's of the utmost importance." "Not for me Madame, but for you." "Not for me." "Say something." "I beg you." "Answer." "Goodbye, doctor dear." "Thank you again." "I wait for one Who's far across the sea" "I wait for one Whose memories remain" "A part of me Until the day I die" "I wait for one And he knows how to hold" "Me in the grip of his two muscled arms" "No one but he has shown me how to love" "I wait for one Who's left me, far away" "I wait for one Who never will forget" "It's him I love A day to be recalled" "I wait for one Who will return" "You who roam down all the highways" "You of all the dives And all the ports" "You must have had Him as a shipmate" "Of sailors he's the toughest And most strong" "With his sharp knife He carved upon my door" "The simple words "See you again one day"" "The Rotterdam Took him far away" "Tell me, do you know When he will return?" "I wait for one Who's far across the sea" "I wait for one Whose memories remain" "A part of me Until the day I die" "I wait for one And he knows how to hold" "Me in the grip of his two muscled arms" "No one but he has shown me how to love" "I wait for one Who's left me, far away" "I wait for one Who never will forget" "It's him I love A day to be recalled" "I wait for one Who will return" " Yes, hello, it's me?" " I have letters from your lover." "In your bag." "That you forgot when you called." "If you don't want your husband to read them tomorrow," "Come and get them." "I'm at the night club The Three Savages." "I'm waiting." "Hello..." "Mrs. Haviland!" "Give me the Villa Haviland." " A room." " At the end, the open door." "What will you take?" "You must order something." "Nothing!" "Leave us in peace!" "Get out!" "Alright." "Forgive me." "It was there." "At my place, the other day." "When you left..." "That the madness began." "Amok." "When I ran after you I didn't know what I wanted." "I could have killed you." "And today..." "I've made you come here." "Here where I am." "But..." "You have come for your letters." "Here they are." "You'll let me leave?" "Go." "You have nothing to fear from me." "I won't betray you." "But, if you have any feeling, you won't leave." "You will hear me out." "You must know what I endure." "I'm not mad." "I want your forgiveness." "And..." "I'm obsessed also by the need to help you all I can." "That is my Amok." "Five years of swamp." "Five years... of degradation." "And the moment when I was at my worst distress," "My nerves stretched to breaking." "You." "A white woman." "You." "I thought, of this chance, I thought, of this breakdown." "You brought me peace." "I felt myself, become again a man." "Then all at once I'm nothing but a scoundrel." "Who would turn his hand to anything if he was paid." "Because you wanted to buy me," "If I offended you," "It was to avenge myself." "I wanted nothing from you." "I wanted to punish you." "Shatter your pride." "Contempt for contempt." "Why didn't you treat me like an equal?" "I had so much need of it." "I didn't know." "I didn't want to hurt you." "You didn't... want to?" "I'm... so sorry." "Understand." "All the doctors in town were forbidden to me." "I came to you... because you were unknown." "Because I wanted it kept secret." "Naturally I hurt you." "Everything was my fault." " Forgive me." " You ask that of me?" "Of me..." "I who have brought you here to this dive." "You who have become... so dear..." "So essential" "You who I love." "You who I love." "Forget it." "Only see in me a doctor." "That's no longer possible." "I will always be to you a friend." "No." "You aren't a friend." "You can't be a friend." "You are just a man." "Promise me at least, that you won't make any decision without calling me." "I don't know." "I don't know." "I don't know what to do." "Madame!" "Madame!" "What is it?" " Talk!" " Come quick..." "Come quick." "She came here?" "But where?" "It's here?" "Why?" "Why?" "Yes." "Yes." "Save me." "Maté, call the hospital at once." "On behalf of Doctor Holk." " A litter immediately." " No." "Not the hospital." "Take me home." "Take me home." "No one..." "No one must know." "No one will know." "Mummy!" "Mummy!" "Open up, Mummy, it's me." "You can't see your mother, my child." "But I do every morning." "Yes, but she's tired, darling." "You mustn't disturb her today." " But tomorrow I can see her?" " Of course you can." "Come Lily." " Is he the doctor." " Yes, he's the doctor." "No one..." "No one must know." " No one." " No one." "I promise you." " And if I die?" " But you will live." "But, if I die?" "No one else..." " must know." " No one." "Ever." "For my child." "Swear to me." "I do swear." "Hello my sweet, how are you." "But where's your mother?" " She's ill here." " What?" "The doctor's been to see her." " What is it?" "Is she ill?" " Yes, Sir." " What is it?" " Something wrong with her heart." "I said that it was something here." "Let's go," "How are you, old chap?" "Have you come for news about Hélène?" "But what is it?" "A heart attack!" "She's never had heart trouble." "I can't believe it, doctor." "However, it's the truth." "And in such a hurry..." "to issue the burial permit." " And who signed it?" " Me." "I am authorized to do so," "It's very strange." "And this haste is even stranger." "Don't you understand why I am so surprised?" "I simply don't believe it." "Doctor." "I must warn you, that I will take my wife's body... to Europe." "And there..." "I'll have an autopsy." "Autopsy, Doctor?" "Don't worry, Maté." "There will be no autopsy." "Subtitles:" "Corvusalbus Transcription: knappen, JM2L"