"Previously on Smash." "You want to direct this show so much?" "..." "Now's your chance." "I quit." "I'm not your Marilyn." "She is." " Ivy, darling!" " Mom?" "So I cast her mother." "Is that really so unforgivable?" "I have let Bombshell go, just not its leading lady." "I'll let you know if I need you again." "New musicals take years to develop." "Derek Wills directing our show." "My show needs your help." " You said you didn't need me." " So you ran off to help Derek?" "I'm moving Hit List to Broadway." "This way, I can take that Tony away from you." "I mean, how much do you really know about this guy?" "The New York Times said that Jimmy Collins isn't even his real name." "All this is 'cause of you." " He's dead because of me." " It was an accident." " To Kyle." " To Kyle." "I need the show to be perfect." " Now he wants a Tony." " Not for me, for Kyle." " How is it going with you guys?" " He barely talks to me." " Give her tomorrow night off." " And put Daisy in?" "She's one of the six dancers who accused Derek of sexual harassment." "I told her if we went to Broadway, she could be an understudy if she really wanted it, and she showed me that she did." "Derek just fired me." "He fired you too." "Is it because you stopped sleeping with him?" "Excuse me?" "The only thing better than getting a Tony will be beating you to get it." "Ivy Lynn, you're pregnant." "♪ Seems I got to have a change of scene ♪" "♪ every night I have the strangest dreams ♪" "♪ imprisoned by the way it could have been and ♪" "♪ left here on my own or so it seems ♪" "♪ I got to leave before I start to scream ♪" "♪ but someone locked the door and took the key ♪" "♪ you feelin' all right ♪ oh, oh" "♪ I'm not feelin' too good myself ♪" "♪ yes, sir, you feelin' all right ♪" "♪ I'm not feelin' that good myself ♪" "Eileen, check it out." "Ten outer critics circle nominations!" "Hit List got 11." "Ivy, it's time for the curtain call." "I'll be right out." "♪ I must keep trying, you're feelin' all right ♪" "♪ I'm not feelin' too good myself ♪" "♪ oh, no you're feelin' all right ♪" "♪ I'm not feelin' too good" "Daisy!" "Daisy!" "She's sensational, Derek." "I don't know how you find them." "Yeah, just really lucky, I guess." "The outer critics circle are a bunch of sadists." "They don't call you to tell you if you've won." "You have to keep refreshing their website to find out." "Yeah, well, checking your phone every 15 seconds isn't gonna help." "Without this win, I might not get a Tony nomination." "Without a Tony nomination," "I might never get to direct again, and if I don't get to direct again, then the whole..." "Tom, we have a real chance here." "Are you ready to go back in?" "There's Tony voters in there." "They need to see we support the competition." "All three acts of it." "All righty." "They who desire me to be dumb on the subject of slavery..." "Unless I will open my mouth in its defense, ask me to give the lie to my professions, degrade my memory, and disdain my soul." "I will not be a liar, a poltroon, or a hypocrite" "Sorry." "To accommodate any party, to gratify any sect, to escape any odium or peril, to save any interest, to preserve any institution, or to promote any object." "Wh... what are you doing?" "My phone, I dropped it." "Excuse me." "I'm sorry." "I just..." "My God, I won." "Are you kidding me?" "Haven't you ever been to a theater before?" "Not only have I been there, I just won a major award for it:" "Best director." "Patrick Dillon?" "It's okay, guys, you can talk about it, it's only one award." "Karen shouldn't have won." "Guess all that trash talking she did about me paid off." "Yeah, but hey, awards are not important, right?" "You're only saying that because you just won one, and for a tiny role." " Ouch." " I'm..." "I'm so sorry." " No, it's..." " I don't know what's gotten into me." "I haven't been feeling well lately." "You just need some food." "No, why don't you guys go ahead without me." " I'ml'm not hungry, I'm sorry." " No..." "She's been like this all week." "She almost missed the curtain call today." "She fell asleep in her dressing room during intermission last night." "Seems like old times?" "Hey, you guys, she wouldn't relapse just 'cause of everything that's going on now." "I don't know." "She Black-Swaned once before, and that was only Boston." "This is Broadway." "Congratulations, Tom." "That was a good win." "Well, I tied with Derek for hit lis but still." "There's hope for us yet." " Did you see who that was?" " Of course." "I've had a crush on him for forever." "Think the rumors are true?" "No one knows, but if you ask me, he's the reason they came up with the term "glass closet."" "I love his movies." "His Long day's journey Into night last season, not so much." "Well, he won a Tony for it, so he's on the nominating committee this year." "Not a good person to piss off." "You're joking, right?" "Bombshell only got two awards." "You for director and Julia for book." "Hit List took the rest." "You better hope he doesn't hold a grudge." "Only winners get to go to the outer critics circle luncheon, but since we practically swept the awards, we have the whole table." "What's this?" "Tony nominations." "They're announced next Tuesday." "These are mock-ups from what we're expecting." "You sure Daisy's photo's big enough?" "It's sufficient, yes." "Why isn't Kyle on here for best book?" "It's not a nomination we're expecting." "He did a great job, but Julia Houston won the OCC." "Everybody knows she's a lock for the Tony." "Our show is basically sung through." "So were rent and passing strange and they won." "Look..." "He's just not getting any traction out there." "But not to worry... we are right in line for best musical." " Yeah?" " This just came for you." "Thanks." "Okay, okay, forget it." "I'll..." "I'll campaign for him myself." "I'll take out an ad." "We got a couple days left." "You two are worrying about the wrong thing." "This could ruin us." "What?" "What is it?" "It's from Ana Vargas's lawyer." "She's filing a wrongful termination suit against Derek Wills and Jerry Rand productions." "What?" "Why?" ""Derek promised the diva role to Daisy Parker if she slept with him."" "Is that true?" "You knew about this." "Thanks for telling me." " Jimmy..." " Great." "Wait, I..." "Hold on a second." "If this girl blows up my show during nomination week," "Derek..." "I'll take care of it." "You better." "Karen." "You need to tell Ana to back off." " No, I don't." " Well, at least tell her that she's gonna destroy her own career as well as mine if she doesn't stop this." "Well, maybe some things are more important than a career," " like self-respect." " Yeah, maybe." "Look, Ana is a talented girl." "If she's patient, things will pick up for her." "It's too late, Derek." "It's all coming down on you now." "Yeah." "Derek, I was hoping we could meet." "I-I left you a few messages, but..." "Look, Ivy, not now." " I need to talk to you about..." " Ivy, not now, okay?" "I'm sorry." "I know it's a big decision, but meanwhile," "I want to keep taking your prenatals, just to be safe." "Thanks, Dr. Holland." "You'll let me know what you decide?" "Hit it." "I'm sorry to ****" "My divorce was a horror show." "If you want my lawyer, I'll give her your number." "She's a pit bull." "Eileen, we have lost so much for this show." "Do you ever wonder if it's worth it?" "Every day." "I lost my house, I lost my money," "I lost Nick." "Hello." "I thought you'd like to know," "I fixed the situation with Patrick Dillon." "I found out where he lives and sent over a very nice bottle of wine and a lovely little apology note." "Tom." "You have to cancel that order." "What are you talking about?" "There are strict rules about giving gifts to members of the nominating committee." "Thisthis wasn't a gift." "It was a bottle of wine, a petite syrah, at that." "In some circles, they don't consider that a gift at all." "Let's hope he sees it that way." "He could use it to sanction you or, worse still, disqualify you from the awards." "Well, maybe I can try and cancel the order." "Yes, I hope it's not too late." "You need to leave the show." "Health issue, family emergency, I don't care what." "Bow out now, Ana gets her role back, and this doesn't have to get any uglier." "You feel good about yourself?" "About how you got this job?" " How did you get this job?" " I worked my ass off." "I found the composer, and I created the role, and I didn't sleep with the director and then blackmail him." "No, you did everything but sleep with him." "You played the game too." "Look, Karen, unlike you, I have been trying to get here for ten years." "Ten years of lost roles, endless showcases, teaching pilates, all the while knowing" "I was just as good if not better than everyone around me." "After two years of that, let alone ten, you stop caring about being a good person." "You do what it takes." "You know who else has been here a long time, paying her dues?" "Ana." "And now she's completely screwed." "She can't even get a real audition." "I'm sorry about that." "I am, but that's not my fault, it's Derek's." "All I did was say yes." "And that was your choice." "You can choose another one, the right one." "I won an award today." "I'm not leaving." "Yeah." "K-Karen totally deserved her win today." "We're... we're very lucky to have her." "Leaving Bombshell and taking a risk with your show was a good move, it seems." "Yeah." "Yeah, I'd say so." "I mean, with Bombshell, she was just imitating an icon, and here she actually, you know, created a real character." ""Imitating an icon."" "Is that what you think Ivy Lynn is doing?" "Well, I mean, I'm just saying that a lot of actresses have played Marilyn, and Karen is the first Amanda." "Hey, can we get back to talking about Kyle?" "Karen!" "We were just talking about you." "Hey, hi." "Yeah, and Kyle..." "Kyle..." "I asked you to do this interview so that people would know that Hit List wouldn't exist without him." "What about Julia Houston?" "How does she fit in all this?" "I'm so..." "I'm sorry, what do you mean?" "There's a lot of talk about how close she and Kyle were." "People are assuming she did a lot of work on this show." " Excuse me?" " Let me clear this up, if that's okay." "Hit List is Kyle's vision." "It all started with him." "It's the statement he left to the world." "And Julia's a friend of mine, she's a friend to our show, we love her, but whatever you're hearing, it just... it isn't true." "Off the record, someone should tell her to stop speaking about Kyle so much." "It's giving the wrong impression." " We will." "We..." " Thanks for your time." " Thanks." " Certainly will." "I cannot believe t she is sabotaging our show." "Jimmy, she's not." "You're so wound up." "She loved Kyle, that's why she's talking about him." "Besides, she had her own dramaturge on Bombshell, this guy Peter Gilman." "She's sensitive to keeping a script doctor behind the scenes." "Hello." "What are you doing?" "That's a delivery for Mr. Dillon." "Yes, I'm the one who sent it." "That's... that's my name on the card." "There's been a mistake." "I need to take it back." "He's on his way down right now to get it." "You can explain it to him yourself." "That won't be necessary." " Do I need to call the police?" " No." "Chintzy." "Hey, man, what's going on?" "It's nothing." "Hi again." "I got you this bottle of wine to apologize..." "If I could just..." "Thank you." "Not knowing that was against the rules." "So I was taking it back, and I was hoping that you wouldn't even know about it." "A petite syrah, that's your apology?" "What are you doing?" "Just let me take it back, and we'll forget the whole thing." " No, let go." " No." " You're..." " This is insane." "Please let go of the bottle." "Please let go of..." " You... just..." " You're very strong." " Stop it!" "I know I'm strong." " Please let go of the bottle!" "You don't understand!" "Gimme it!" "My..." "God." "Please tell me those are J. crew." "I don't know what's happened to me." "I'm usually so calm and collected." "I... send me... send me the dry cleaning bill." " I'll pay for it." " Tom!" "No, please." "Please." "Tom, you've done enough." "Now, please, leave me alone." "Enjoy your outer critics circle award, in case it's the only one you get." "You got it?" "Okay, so why are you really here?" "My show lets out before yours, and I wanted to see my friend." "Is there anything wrong with that?" "Ivy!" "Ivy, over here!" "Hi." "I can't believe Hit List won all those awards." "Your show is so much better." " Sorry." " It's okay." "Thank you." "Seriously, Sam, what's up?" "Listen, if you're having problems, you need to talk to me." "Problems?" "What problems?" "Karen should not have beaten you." "Hit List is a wonderful show, and Karen's wonderful in it." "Hi." "Everybody is worried about you." "Worried about me, why?" "Did you hear what Karen and Jimmy" " said about you in The Voice?" " No, what did they say?" " She doesn't need to hear that." " No, no, no, no, no, no." "Your performance is the furthest thing from an imitation." "An imitation?" "Is that what Karen said?" "Yeah, and that Bombshell isn't original." "Listen, the only reason Hit List even made it to Broadway is because Kyle Bishop died." "Ivy." "♪ Are you really here, or am I dreaming?" "♪" "♪ I can't tell dreams from truth ♪" "♪ for it's been so long" "♪ since I have seen you" "♪ I can hardly remember your face anymore ♪" "♪ when I get really lonely" "♪ and the distance causes only silence ♪" "♪ then I think" "♪ of you smiling" "♪ with pride in your eyes" "♪ a lover that sighs" "♪ if you want me" "♪ satisfy me" "♪ if you want me" "♪ satisfy me" " That was beautiful, Ana." " Thank you." "Thank you for coming in so fast." "You have no idea how much I needed this call today." "What's your life like right now?" "Can you go on tour?" "I am wide open." "And I love once." "I'm so honored to be considered." "You were even better than Derek said you were." "Derek Wills?" "He recommended you, pushed pretty hard too." "This is why..." "You've been acting so nuts." "You're pregnant." "So are we sure that it's Derek's?" "Unfortunately, I narrowed it down from a list of one." "When are you telling him?" "You're not telling him." "We're not even together." "We didn't plan it, we didn't even want it to happen." "Hey, Ivy, he has a right to know he's a father." "Right now, he's just a guy I slept with." "I'll decide if he's going to be the father." "Sam, do you think I could be a good mom?" "You are a great friend, and it usually translates." "I'm just such a mess right now." "And of course, right when my career takes off, this has to happen." "Classic Ivy." "Absolutely worst timing ever." "Listen, Ivy, you have got to discuss this with Derek, no matter what you decide to do." "I know he's not always easy, but he cares about you." "Why is Ivy here?" "She's the last person I wanted to see today." "I know." "Thank you." " What can I get you?" " Just water." "I feel like I'm going to be stoned to death." "I know I shouldn't say this, but I thought Hit List was way overrated too." "I mean, you've seen the comments online." "We're not the only ones." "Hey." "What's going on?" "Have you seen this?" "If it isn't my two favorite P.R. disasters." "What are you gonna do for an encore today, burn down table 46?" "I guess I've created a backlash against Hit List." "Should I just leave?" "No, you have to show your face." "You're here to support Julia, Tom, and the show." " Patrick Dillon's here." " Are we not good there?" "You should know that our encounter with the wine did not go well." "Stay away from him, Tom." "You've done enough damage." "Eileen." "Thought you'd be wearing black today." "No, Jerry, I'm saving it for your funeral." " Hey." " Hey." "You're looking uncommonly radiant." "Did you get your hair done, or something?" "Don't try to make me feel better, Derek." "I know everybody hates me." "Well, I don't." "Look, sorry, I was in the middle of something when you called yesterday." "What did you want to say?" "Congratulations." "Really?" "Sounded more urgent than that." "Can we meet up here tonight after my show?" "I just kind of want to talk." "I would love that." "Thank you." "Just six months ago, if you had told me that I would be up here," "I would have called you crazy." "Tom, Eileen, Ivy, thank you for waiting patiently while I fixed something that was nearly broken." "I also wanted to take this opportunity to acknowledge one of my fellow nominees, Kyle Bishop." "I only knew him a short time, but I was certain that he had great things ahead of him." "So I would like to dedicate this award to his memory." "Thank you." "And now, for outstanding direction of a musical," "I'd like to call up our co-winners," "Tom Levitt and Derek Wills." "Thank you." "Okay, this is awkward." "Do you want to go first, kind sir?" "You first." "I'll finish." "That seems familiar." "Do yogo first, yes, it does." "Very well." "A great man once said, "to triumph without risk is to win without glory," and if that's true, then my journey from safe, traditional Broadway to the cutting edge of east 4th street is..." "Probably the greatest triumph of my professional career." "And I owe nearly all of it to this extraordinary company of young artists, so I thank them all, and you." "Thank you." "Besides Eileen Rand, my dear friend Julia Houston, and the amazing Ivy Lynn, the person I most want to thank today is you, Derek." "I wouldn't be standing here if you hadn't made that crazy leap and quit Bombshell." "And even though you and I go together about as well as Lena Dunham and a bra," "I've learned a tremendous amount about the art of directing from you." "Since I probably won't get to make another speech this award season," "I just wanted to acknowledge that debt." "This award shouldn't be half yours." "It's all yours." " Thank you." " Thank you." "The OCC is very proud to award..." "Hey, can I talk to you for a minute?" "To Daisy Parker for Hit List." " What do you want?" " To apologize." "What I said about Kyle and your show was awful." "I wish I could take it back." "Yeah, well, it's all over the place now, so too late." "Play the role of the diva, and to my phenomenal cast for embracing me..." " Is everything okay over here?" " She can't take back anything she said either, now, can she?" " Excuse me?" " You two are completely messing up Kyle's chance to be recognized." "I've been nothing but gracious." "You're so gracious, everyone thinks you wrote the damn show yourself!" "Don't you raise your voice to Julia." "She's..." "No, no, no." "I want to know what he means." "You keep talking about how close you were to Kyle." " People just assume that..." " Who?" "Who, the press?" "They will twist anything for a story." "I have done nothing but support your show, sometimes to the detriment of my own." "I supported Kyle." "You want to know how you can support Kyle?" "You tell people that you did not work on Hit List at all!" "But that's not true." "Well, the truth doesn't really seem to matter, does it, Tom?" "If it did, people would know that" "Julia didn't write Bombshell all by herself either." " What are you talking about?" " Karen said you had a dramaturge too, Peter somebody." "What?" "No, I said everyone has dramaturges." "Well, then Julia won't mind if I start talking about it, now, will she?" " Are you threatening me?" " No, he doesn't mean it." "Jimmy, shut up." "Julia doesn't need a lecture in theatrical ethics from you." "Derek, I don't need your support, not after you ripped apart our "safe, traditional" show." "I did not mean that as an insult." "What is the matter with you?" "What is going on here?" "Please, would you get back to your seats?" "We're professionals here." "My God." "It was a long and difficult trip from east 4th street." "What's the matter with him now?" "Derek, he's not been feeling well." "Besides, you won't have to deal with him much longer." "What's that supposed to mean?" "Ana knows how you tried to buy her off with some role." "She's going public." "Congratulations to all our winners, and we hope to see you all here next year." "Thank you, enjoy your day." "Jimmy?" "Are you out here?" "I know, I know, I was too hard on Julia." "Jimmy, you're sick." "You're losing your voice." "No." "Your understudy's going on." "You need to rest." "It's the last night for members of the Tony nominating committee, and they're gonna see me." "What's the matter?" "You afraid they might like him better?" "Come on..." "I'm not leaving this theater, Karen, all right?" "Okay." "Then don't." " What's that?" " A ticket." "You're gonna sit and watch what you and Kyle created." "♪ You can't see the hook ♪" "♪ We can't sell the look ♪" "♪ I hear it every day" "♪ you won't be a star if you're who you are ♪" "♪ so I just fade away" "♪ make me someone new" "♪ tell me what I do" "♪ to rewrite this story" "I gotta get out of here." " Where are you going?" " Out of town." "Tonight?" "What about nominations?" "My life has to be about more than this show." "Hello again." "Our publicist told me you were here, so..." "Well, I'm on the committee." "I had to see the show." "I know I'm breaking probably every rule, but have to ask, what'd you think?" "Well, you know what they say about Tony voting?" "First, you vote for yourself." "No show this year." "Then you vote against your enemies." "You, yesterday." "But then you vote with your heart, which is what I'm doing tonight." "I don't know how much support you have out there, but you have mine." "Thank you for being honest." "Patrick Dillon, you gave me more than a fair shot." "You're very talented, but when I saw how gracious you were to Derek," "I thought, "you deserve it."" " I'm sure I'll see you around." " Okay." "Glass closet, my ass." "That door is wide open." "Thank you." "Thanks for coming." "Thank you." "Thank you." "Hi." "Who can I make it to?" "Jimmy." "Hey, stupid." "What'd you think?" "Well, it was incredible." "You were on fire out there." "It's fun." "I felt Kyle." "It was like..." "I don't know, it was like he was there." "He is." "People know his name, Jimmy." "Awards or not, they'll remember him." " Yeah." " Hi." "Hi." "Am I interrupting something?" " No." " What are you doing here?" "I was thinking about what you said today, and I wanted you to know that I'm not gonna lie." "Not about what I did for Kyle on Hit List, and not about what Peter did for me on Bombshell." "Artists shouldn't feel ashamed about helping each other." "It shouldn't always be a competition." "You're right." "Well, you helped both of us, so I'm sorry." "Good luck with the nominations." "You too." "Thanks." "Karen." " Hey." "Ana, are you okay?" " I need your help." "Okay." "Derek." "God." "Let me guess." "You've come to tell me that I'm gonna pay for what I did." "No, I'm here to tell you that you're gonna get away with it." "I had my lawyer rescind the letter." "I'm gonna take the tour." "Okay." "I'm sorry how everything worked out." "That's the thing, I don't think you are." "Otherwise, you wouldn't keep doing this again and again." "You know, the only way you would have stopped is if I would have exposed you for who you really are, and that's what's really hard for me to live with." "Yeah, well, it's hard for me to live with too." "I'm sure you'll be just fine." "You've had a lot of practice." "Come on, let's go." "Great." "What, are you up next, are you?" "Come on, then." "Start kicking." "I came to tell you something important, but I'm actually glad they got to you first." "What have I done now?" "Ivy, no, wait." "Listen, let me explain." "I've heard enough." "You've never done the right thing, Derek, and you never will." "We did everything possible to blow these nominations." "I take solace in that." "We didn't go halfway, it's true." "It's open!" "Hurry up, it's coming on." "I brought scones." "And scotch, in case things go badly." "I don't even know why I'm watching these." "I'd understand if you didn't." "No, I'm pulling for the show, and for you." "Can you get that?" "Hi." "I was hoping you guys wouldn't mind some company." "No, of course." "Come in." "My God, they're on!" " I'm gonna make it big." " Here." " Hey." " Okay." "And the nominees for best performance by an actress in a featured role in a musical are..." " Leigh Conroy, Bombshell." " Yay!" "Ivy Lynn, Liaisons." "What?" "What, we were open like five minutes!" "My God!" "Anika Noni Rose, Imitation of Life." "Of course, that's her." "She probably wants me to withdraw." "Hi, mom." "Congratulations!" "And Daisy Parker, Hit List." " What?" " Come on!" "Of course." "Just the icing on the cake." "No, this is not over." "I'm getting you that part back." "She's not gonna be here." "She's gonna be on tour." "The nominees for best choreography are..." "Casey Nicholaw, The gathering storm;" "Susan Stroman, Imitation of Life;" "Derek Wills, Bombshell;" "And Derek Wills, Hit List." "And the nominees for best book of a musical are..." "Kyle Bishop..." "My God!" " Hit List." " We did it." "Harvey Fierstein..." " He did it." " The gathering storm." "Julia Houston, Bombshell." "David Lindsay-Abaire," "The last good year." "And Tony fact," "Kyle Bishop is the youngest person ever nominated for this award." " Original score's next." " Boy." "The nominees for best original score, music and/or lyrics written for the theater, are.." "Bombshell, music by Tom Levitt," " Lyrics by Julia Houston." " We're racking 'em up." "Hit List,music and lyrics by Jimmy Collins." "So is Hit List." "Imitation of life, music by Jeanine Tesori..." " What's next?" " Lyrics by Tony Kushner." " Director." " No." "And the nominees for best direction of a musical are..." "Rob Ashford, The gathering storm..." "It's not gonna happen, you know it." "We can't hear if you're talking." "Tom Levitt, Bombshell." "Diane Paulus, Oliver!" "And Derek Wills, Hit List." "And on a historical note, Derek Wills is only the second person in Tony history to be nominated for three awards in the same year." "The first one was Bob Fosse." "That is impressive." "Now, the nominees for best performance by an actress in a leading role in a musical." "Kate Baldwin, Seesaw," "Karen Cartwright, Hit List." "My God!" "You are nominated for a Tony!" " You are nominated for a Tony!" " I know!" "Sutton Foster, Oliver!" "And Audra McDonald, House of flowers." "It didn't..." "It didn't happen." "Wait, that was four, there's five." " It's alphabetical." " That's it, I didn't get it." "God, I didn't get it." "What?" " Wait." " Whoops, I skipped one." "Ivy Lynn for Bombshell." "Sorry to give you a heart attack, Ivy." " Agnes." " 12 nominations, Eileen, including one for best musical." "We're back in the game." "Wonderful!" "How many for Hit List?" "13, but that doesn't mean anything." "That's just one more than us." "Well, it'll be the only one they get." "Can I call you back?" "Sorry you came all this way, Ms. Rand." " Nick Felder's no longer here." " What do you mean?" "He was released three weeks ago." "He's out?" "Well, I'm gonna go in the other room and..." "Eavesdrop." "Hey, what you did for me last night..." "That's okay." "You already thanked me." "No, no, that's not what I'm trying to do." "I owe you an explanation." "I know that I pushed you away after Kyle died." "I know." "And I think maybe you think that it was because that I was mad about you and Derek, but I wasn't." "I just was afraid to let someone else get close to me." "And so I just thought it better to let you go." "I'm sorry." "You know, seeing the show last night did something else too." "It made me realize it could live on without me." " What do you mean?" " I mean that it was still great even with my understudy, and it would be great without you too." "The show stands for itself." "Mmhmm." "Are you going somewhere?" "No, no, I just..." "Just thinking about the future." "Kind of nice knowing that you're leaving something behind, no matter what." "Thank you so much." "Have a good one." "It's Frank." "Maybe he's come around about mediation." "Hello?" " I can't believe you did this." " Did what?" "Hire Eileen Rand's attorney." "Look, I was angry the other day, but I was still considering my options." "This makes things so much easier." " No, no, Frank, I was just..." " Declaring war?" "You're the one who had the affair." "It happened." "Julia, this isn't a no-fault divorce." "It is your fault, and you are gonna pay for it, and I am gonna take you for everything you're worth!" "Three nominations today." "You are the hottest director on Broadway." "What a year of vindication for you for those allegations last fall." "Anything you want to say?" "Well, as my good friend Ronnie Moore always says, the work is the only thing that matters." "Doesn't matter if it's Broadway or a black box at the Fringe." "If you stick to that rule, you'll probably be okay." "Well, I guess we were all wrong about you." "What is it?" "Actually, you weren't." "I promised Daisy Parker the role of the diva in Hit List if she would sleep with me." "She made good, and so did I." "Ana Vargas was collateral damage." "And wrongfully terminated." "I'm sorry." "♪ Pressure pushing down on me ♪" "♪ pressing down on you no man ask for ♪" "♪ under pressure" "♪ that burns a building down" "♪ splits a family in two" "♪ puts people on streets" "♪ it's the terror of knowing what this world is about ♪" "♪ watching some good friends screaming ♪" "♪ "let me out!"" "♪ Pray tomorrow takes me higher ♪" "♪ pressure on people, people on streets ♪" "♪ chipping' around" "♪ kick my brains 'round the floor ♪" "♪ these are the days it never rains but it pours ♪" "♪ zum a dum ba oh ♪ people on streets" "♪ zum a dum ba oh" "♪ people on streets" "♪ it's the terror of knowing what this world is about ♪" "♪ watching some good friends screaming ♪" "♪ "let me out!"" "♪ Pray tomorrow gets me higher and higher and hi-I-igher ♪" "♪ pressure on people, people on streets ♪" "♪ turned away from it all like a blind man ♪" "♪ sat on a fence, but it don't work ♪" "♪ keep coming up with love but it's so slashed and torn ♪" "♪ why, why" "♪ why-y?" "♪ Insanity laughs, under pressure we're cracking ♪" "♪ can't we give ourselves one more chance?" "♪" "♪ Why can't we give love that one more chance?" "♪" "♪ Why can't we give love" "♪ give love, give love, give love ♪" "♪ give love, give love, give love, give love ♪" "♪ 'cause love's such an old-fashioned word ♪" "♪ and love dares you to care for ♪" "♪ the people on the edge of the night ♪" "♪ and love dares you to change ♪" "♪ our way of caring about ourselves ♪" "♪ this is our last dance" "♪ this is our last dance" "♪ this is ourselves" "♪ under pressure" "♪ pressure" "Tom!" "Ready to work?" "Only 12 hours till the Tonys." "Well, the Tony number is finished, but... just when we thought we were done." "Now, we have to write a speech." "Not any the old speech, an acceptance speech." "Think we have a chance?" "Okay, I brought programs from all the nominated shows." "What do you think?" "Last good year." "Love Pasek and Paul." "Imitation of life." "Pretentious." "I cried like a baby." "Gathering storm, snoozeville." "How would you know?" "Agnes said you very distracted." "My future husband was sitting behind me." "Your future husband isn't even gay." "Tell that to his upper arms-s-s." " Is this something?" " It's from my lawyer." "I was supposed to write a detailed account of my history with Michael Swift to hopefully put an end to Frank's case against me." "And I feel like it just makes his case stronger." "Frank really thinks you were in love with Michael from the time you met him?" "Yes." "You know that I wasn't, right?" " Of course." " Or was I?" "So who should we thank?" "I want to thank Peter stone and Tom wopat, a great, great leading man who I..." "You see how appropriately gracious I was." "So gracious you forgot to thank me." "I thanked you in person, that's better." "If you can tear up a little, they love it." "I don't need any pointers, because I'm not gonna win." "I'm nominated twice." "That always splits the vote." "With me in the running, they're not gonna vote for you for featured." "You'll win lead, as you should." "Is that the dress you're wearing tonight?" "What happened?" "That fit you perfectly last week." "It's fine." "It's just stuck." "I'll get it." "Have you been stress eating again?" "Now's not the time to get fat, my dear." "I remember the day after I won my first one." "My career just skyrocketed." "I had so many offers, I didn't know what to do." "I was thinking about maybe taking some time off." "That's exactly what you can't do." "You have to dive in." "It's all about momentum." "You lose that, you may never get it again." "Take time off!" "What's gotten into you?" "Hi." "Juice, coffee, shaving cream." "What?" "I told you I was bringing supplies." "I thought you meant more booze." "Yeah, well, that you seem capable of getting yourself." "They deliver." "So you've been in this room the whole time?" "Just... just gonna stay in here forever?" "It's your third time you've been at this." "I thought after the first time, I'd scared you off." "Yeah, well, I'm worried about you." "Don't be, I deserve it." "Did all the things I said I did." "Remember what you said in Boston?" ""The more you hurt, the better."" "I just said that to get you onstage." "Well, it worked." "And I'm glad I did it." "This will pass, but you have to let it." "Do I really?" "You can see yourself out." "Five, six, seven." "♪ Hate to break it ♪ hate to break you" "♪ hate to break you ♪ I'm not sorry" "What's going on?" "I thought we were doing Voice in a dream for Tonys." "So did I until they called me in." "Jimmy didn't want to perform, so Jerry thought this was a good substitute." "Stop." "Stop." " What is it, Daisy?" " Jodie is a beat behind." "It's bad enough we have to work with her every night." "Now we have to go on national television and help her look good?" "It's disgusting." "Hey, can I make a quick call?" "Yeah." "Five minutes, then you're in." " Hi." " Hey." " Tony rehearsal?" " Yeah." " Let's be bad." " I'm not sorry." "With Daisy Parker?" "Speaking of, is Derek in there?" "No." "He hasn't left his place in weeks." "And I've..." "I've tried to pull him out of it, but I don't have the magic touch, not like you did, anyway." "I'm sure he'll get it together." "Yeah, I'm not so sure." "He's in a pretty dark place." "I've never seen him like this before." "Hey, I forgot to ask, can you remind Jimmy to pick up his tickets for tonight?" "He has until 3:00 or he's gonna lose them." "He hasn't picked up his tickets?" "That's cutting it close." "Can you make your phone call and come back?" "Daisy just corrected Lexi on her one line." "Not pretty in there." "Okay." "Thanks." "I don't know how you can work with that girl." "We have to." "I'm not so sure about that." "You guys outnumber her." "If you don't want to perform with her, you shouldn't have to." "Hey, I hadn't thought about that." "See ya." "Hey." "How's it going over there?" "I'm not gonna lie." "It's a little strange." "We're doing I'm not sorry." "Yeah, Jerry thought that would be a better choice." "Are you getting cold feet about tonight?" "What?" "Well, Marissa said that you didn't want to perform." "So I just..." "I got a weird feeling about it." " I'm fine." " Okay." "Why don't you pick me up tonight?" "We can go together." "I was just gonna go from here, so..." "My place at 6:00." "Don't be late." "Yeah, okay." "Looks good." "Where should I send your deposit?" "Keep it." "Rene, come on." "How'd you find me?" "I knew where you were." "I was gonna leave you alone, since that's what you wanted." "What I wanted was to not complicate your life anymore." "You're the only thing that's clear in my life right now." "What's that?" "Win or lose, I want you next to me tonight." "Jerry, I need to talk to you." "They refuse to do the number." "What, the entire company, you're telling me?" "Karen, Gabe, Lexi, all the dancers." "It's a coup." "Well, they don't want to perform, they don't have to perform." "You just got yourself a solo on the Tonys." "I think Reach for me would be great, don't you?" "I'll make the call." "Nice place." "These all yours?" "Yup." "Except that one." "That was Kyle's." "He left it here." "He spent the night a few times." "I guess I never told you that." "No, you most certainly did not." " I knew." " You did?" "Yeah." "I mean, he really liked you." "I really liked him too." "Tea's ready." "Look, I know what he meant to you, but I really hope that you'll find another partner and keep writing." "Maybe not now, but in the future." "You have a gift." "You can't let that go to waste." "So what's the favor you wanted to ask me?" "If..." "Kyle wins tonight..." "I was just hoping maybe you could accept it for him." "Are you not gonna be there?" "Jimmy, what are you doing?" "Look, this is your moment." "You can't miss it." "Stop sabotaging yourself." "Whatever makes you do that, it's time to face it, once and for all." "It's not too late." " Good luck... good luck tonight." " You too." "You can leave it on the table." "My God." "What..." "What is the point of having a bloody doorman?" "Well, you don't look good." "Yeah, well..." "Look, I know you haven't had a good couple of weeks." "Yeah, you think?" "No, I'm done, all right?" "My agent won't talk to me, not a theater in town will touch me." "The..." "The guys that deliver this, they won't look me in the eye." "So, no, I have not had a good few weeks." "Why did you do it?" "Do you know what I actually do?" "I bluff." "All day long." "What do I know?" "It's pretty lonely." "I always thought you knew that." "I do." "I'm tired, Ivy, all right?" "I'm so tired." "It's not all gone." "Am I gonna see you there tonight?" "Yeah, for sure." "Yeah." "Yeah, spending the evening in a room full of sanctimonious pricks who've got it in for me?" "Yeah, I'll be there." "I don't want to be there without you." "I know I hurt you." "And you hurt me too." "But that doesn't mean I don't love you." "I'll see you there." "And..." "Take a shower." "Smells like a dive bar in here." "Why am I here?" "This is the letter my lawyer asked me to give to you." "I don't understand." "What's going on, Julia?" "I told someone today that this was their moment to face the truth, and if I'm gonna give that kind of advice," "I need to do the same." "I met Michael years before you knew I did." "I didn't sleep with him, but I thought about it, and him, a lot." "And I never really let it go." "For much of our marriage, he was there." "I see." "And it wasn't because I didn't love you." "I just didn't love you the right way." "So I'm not gonna give you this letter." "I think that you should do whatever you want..." "Concerning the settlement." "I won't refute anything." "Julia." "Thank you." "Okay, it is actually not fair how beautiful you look." "What's not fair is you're not going too." "Believe me, I'm gonna cry after you leave." " Is he not here?" " No." "Sorry." "Yeah, I have to stop feeling this way." "Look, forget about him." "You are a Tony nominee." "No matter what happens, no one can take that away from you." "Google "Karen Cartwright," and that's what's gonna come up from now until the end of time." "I know." "I just wish he'd come through, just once." "I'm late." "I noticed." "You didn't think I'd show." "Well, you don't have a very good track record." "Why aren't you dressed?" "What are you talking about?" "Well, I mean, this is Kyle's ticket." "You didn't think he'd want us to go without you, did you?" "Really?" " Yeah." " My God!" " Okay, I need 15 minutes." " Go!" "All right, I'm sorry!" "Thank you!" "Stay just a second and help her with her hair." "Hey, I think I have something in the closet." "Hey." "Thanks." "Hello?" "Yes, yes, I will be there before midnight." "Thank you." "Thank you so much for giving me the night." "Have you worn the red one before?" "Welcome to the 67th annual Tony awards, coming to you live from New York City." " What's gotten into you?" " Nothing." "Just feel great, that's all." "Well, you should." "It's your night." "Lillias White." "Have you practiced?" "My speech?" "No." "I'm not winning." "No, your losing face when I win." "Here, try this one." "The nominees for best performance of an actress in a musical in a featured role are..." "Leigh Conroy, Bombshell." "Ivy Lynn, Liaisons." "Anika Noni Rose, Imitation of life." "And Daisy Parker, Hit List." "And the Tony goes to..." "Daisy Parker, Hit List." "This is Hit List's fifth award of the evening." "Good thing you got to practice that face?" "I can' believe it." "And now, Tony award winner, Ron Rifkin." "It's so loud in here, I can hardly hear the crazy thoughts in my head." "You got it in the bag." "The nominees for best book of a musical are..." "Is it possible I want Kyle to win instead of me?" "I mean, could I actually be that selfless?" "Historically, no, but people change." "Kyle Bishop, Hit List." "Julia Houston, Bombshell." "This is taking forever." "Why... why is it..." "Talk faster, come on!" "You sound like Kyle." "The last good year." "And the Tony goes to..." "Kyle Bishop, Hit List." "He did it." "Accepting for Kyle Bishop is Jimmy Collins." " You okay?" " Yeah." "But it turns out that I actually did want it." "God, he would've loved this." "He would've loved it because he loved Broadway." "He... he even used to keep this collection of Playbills from... from shows that flopped, and he would carry them around with him everywhere that he went." "He pulled extra shifts for two weeks just to save up enough money to buy a train ticket to Boston to see this one." "And I-I remember, when he came back." "Well, he said the show needed some work..." "But... but that it was magical." "And that there was this girl in it." "This girl that could make you smile, and..." "Break your heart in the same second." "She signed this for him a month later at the bar, and that is the only reason that I am standing here tonight, so thank you." "Thank you all for giving Kyle something..." "To love... his whole life, and... well, you were right, Julia." "It's never too late." "Thanks." "Now, I am happy to present the Tony award for the best original score, music and/or lyrics written for the theater." "The nominees..." "Bombshell, music by Tom Levitt, lyrics by Julia Houston." "Hit List, music and lyrics by Jimmy Collins." "Big night for Hit List." "I'm starting to feel like they deserve it." "They spent the last year fighting like high schoolers." " Now they're a team." " We were them once." "You saying we aren't anymore?" "I'm saying Jimmy deserves original score, and we deserve cocktails with olives in them." "Several." "I want a drink in a coconut." "Where can we get that?" "The winner is..." "Bombshell." "Is there still a trader vic's in New York?" "Like in that midtown hotel?" "Julia." "My goodness!" "This is Bombshell's second award of the night, having won earlier for best costume design." "We wrote a speech, but completely forgot it." " Is true, so all we can say is thank you." " Thank you so much." "It's okay." "I got the one I wanted." "And now, Tony winner Kathleen Marshall." "The nominees for best choreography are..." "Casey Nicholaw for The gathering storm." "Susan Stroman for Imitation of life." "I can't believe Derek didn't come." " How can he not be here?" " Maybe because he didn't want to experience this." "Derek Wills for Bombshell." "Maybe it's for the best." "And Derek Wills for Hit List." "Yeah." "Definitely good he's not here." "And the Tony goes to..." "If we don't win this one, we're dead." "We're going to win." "We're going to win." "We're going to win." "Derek Wills..." "For Hit List." "This is bad." "We now lost six." "It's over." "Stop saying that." "It's not over." "Apparently, Derek isn't here." "Yeah, he is." "Hey." "Okay, firstly," "I would like to thank the Tony voters for judging the work..." "And not the man." "And I'd like to dedicate this award to someone who I love very much." "Ivy Lynn." "She convinced me to come here tonight." "I owe her everything." "My..." "God." "And now, please welcome the cast of Bombshell, performing Let's be bad." "I can't believe it." " Hey." " Hey." "Where's Daisy?" "Didn't you hear?" "She won." "Listen, about what you said..." "Hey..." "Can we talk about that later?" "Okay." "Darling, come with me." "Karen as well, just..." "Let's go." "Quickly, let's go." "What are we doing?" "Making it right." "There's been a change of plan." "What are you doing?" "Something I should have done a long time ago..." "Taking you out." "You can't do that." "Weren't you listening?" "Everyone out there hates me, so I can do pretty much anything I feel like." "Coming back from commercial..." "Let's see what Jerry has to say about it." "Hey." "Well, that's that taken care of." " You ready?" " Absolutely." "And now, Tony award winner, Daisy Parker performing Reach for me from Hit List." "Well, it looks like someone forgot to tell the announcer." "♪ I'm high above the city ♪" "♪ I'm standing on the ledge" "♪ the view from here is pretty" "♪ and I'm step off the edge" "♪ and now I'm fallin', baby" "♪ through the sky through the sky ♪" "♪ I'm fallin', baby, through the sky ♪" "♪ it's my callin', baby, don't you cry, don't you cry ♪" "♪ I'm fallin' down through the sky ♪" "♪ Oh, Broadway, here I come" "♪ Broadway, here I co-ome" "♪ the pressure, it increases" "♪ the closer that I get" "♪ I could almost go to pieces ♪" "♪ but I'm not quite there yet" " ♪ drowning' out my cries - ♪ Ooh, ooh" " ♪ I pull myself together - ♪ Ooh, ooh" "♪ I'm focused on the prize" " ♪ I'm - ♪ Fallin', baby" "♪ through the sky through the sky ♪" "♪ I'm fallin', baby, through the sky ♪" "♪ it's my callin', baby, don't you cry, don't you cry ♪" "♪ I'm falling down through the sky ♪" "♪ and I refuse to go numb" " ♪ Broadway, here I come - ♪ Broadway, here I come" "♪ Broadway, here I come" " ♪ Broadway, here I co-ome - ♪ Oh, oh, oh" "I love you too." "After all that..." "It ends here?" "I have a confession." "Hey, guys, I wanted to offer you both my congratulations before everyone got to you." "I'm on the last flight back to L.A." "Thank you, Patrick." "That's very kind of you." "Look, this might seem like it's coming out of left field, but have you two ever considered writing a movie?" "I got the rights to this really great story that's just begging to be a movie musical, and I can't find the right team to write it." "You are still a team, aren't you?" "We are." "Well, I'd love to talk with you both about it." "I'll have my assistant set it up." "And congratulations." "I voted for you." " Go after him." " What?" "Go after him!" "Go, now." "Go." " I don't..." " Go, go get him." "Patrick!" "Patrick, wait up a sec." "I might be crazy right now, egotistically emboldened by my recent and well-deserved win..." "But I couldn't let you go without asking..." "Any chance when you're back, we could maybe..." "Grab a bite to eat, outside of a meeting?" "Tom, I'm flattered, but I'm not..." "Gay." "Nope, yup." "That's... that's how all my straight friends kiss me." "Coming up, awards for best actress in a musical..." " Great." " And best musical." "Welcome three-time Tony nominee, Marin Mazzie." "Thank you." "The nominees for best performance by an actress in a leading role in a musical are..." "Kate Baldwin for Seesaw." "Karen Cartwright for Hit List." "Sutton Foster for Oliver!" "Ivy Lynn for Bombshell." "And Audra McDonald for House of flowers." "And the Tony award goes to..." "Ivy Lynn, Bombshell.." " Go on, go on." " Okay, okay." "Okay." "I-I honestly didn't think I would win." "Tom, Julia, Eileen, thank you so much for the chance of a lifetime." "I'd like to thank my mother, Leigh Conroy, the magnificent Leigh Conroy for giving me the greatest gift, and that is a life in the theater." "I can only hope that one day," "I can give that gift to my children." "For me, there is nothing more magical than that moment right as the lights go down and the crowd is waiting in silence with anticipation for the show to begin." "It's a moment full of hope and full of possibilities." "So I'd like to thank the audience for coming, and for believing, as I do, that there is nothing more important or special as live theater." "Thank you so much." " Karen." " Eileen." "What are you doing out here?" "Your category's up next." "I wanted to talk to you." "I know how you must be feeling right now, but let me tell you, as somebody who lost a great many times before I ever won, time's on your side." "Don't lose heart." "Ms. Rand, it's time." "Thanks." "Good luck." "Thanks." "Here to present the award for best musical," "Rosie O'Donnell." "And now, the award we've all been waiting for, best musical." "The nominees are Bombshell..." "The gathering storm," "Hit List, limitation of life." "Let it be us." "Let it be us." "And the Tony award goes to..." "Bombshell." "Derek!" "Don't worry, they'll get over it." "All they need is another show." "I'm game if you are." "Come on, everyone." "Best musical, best actress, best score." "How does it feel?" "It spins." " Hey." " Hey." " Do you want to go talk?" " Yeah." "There he is." "Congratulations." "This one means a lot to me." "Sorry." "I'm kidding." "It's fine, congrats." "Hey, you want to come outside with me for a second?" "Okay." "Hey." "Of course." "Thank you." "What are you doing?" "Just... sit." "What is this?" "You're making me nervous." "I know that I have been shady with my past, and I've only ever told you anything when you've pushed and not even then." "So... five years ago," "I was at this party with a girl that I hardly even knew, and I had some stuff with me." "We used it, and she..." "Did too much." "I don't think I want to hear this right now." "Karen, she was just lying there, not moving, and instead of telling anyone, I ran." "I mean, I went off the grid, I hid with Adam, Kyle," "I eventually changed my name." "I've been looking over my shoulder for so long," "I couldn't even see my future anymore." "Why are you telling me this right now?" "Because this has haunted me every day..." "Until today." "What did you do?" "I turned myself in." " God, Jimmy." " Hey, hey, here's the thing." "She's okay." "She's not dead, she didn't die." "They told me she's fine." "So you're okay?" "Distribution of a controlled substance." "Most likely 6 to 18 months, but... but the cops commended me for doing the right thing." "I posted bail right before I came to you." "But I gotta go back tonight." "Hey." "I told you..." "I would do whatever I had to to be the person you saw in me, and I can be that person now." "Mr. Levin." "Thank you." " What's going on?" " Well, we were still in the back when they did our song." " I didn't get to see it." " Okay." " Hi, Karen Cartwright." " Hi, Ivy Lynn." "Are you ready to give the people what they want?" "Always." "♪ I stumbled around a bit" "♪ while looking for my big break ♪" "♪ some gentlemen opened doors ♪" "♪ but once inside, they were all on the make ♪" "♪ to sparkle, I lit a match ♪" "♪ and I admit some bridges were burned ♪" "♪ oh, but we won't flop on our way to the top ♪" "♪ 'cause there's one damn thing we've learned ♪" "♪ uh, give 'em that big finish" "♪ and they'll forget what came before ♪" "♪ just give 'em that big finish ♪" "♪ but always keep one eye on the door ♪" "♪ so I give this lesson to you, my friend ♪" "♪ they'll forgive and forget if you're good in the end ♪" "♪ just give 'em that big finish ♪" "♪ and leave them wanting more" "♪ you struggle from step to step ♪" "♪ just praying you find the one ♪" "♪ the love that you want disappears ♪" "♪ as the love that you need settles in for a run ♪" "♪ you think that you're down for the count ♪" "♪ but then just like a Phoenix you rise ♪" "♪ and with some help from above ♪" " ♪ be it Tonys - ♪ Or love" "♪ you'll be leaving tonight with the prize ♪" "♪ life gives you that big finish ♪" "♪ you just forget what came before ♪" "♪ just give 'em that big finish ♪" "♪ and who knows what next year has in store?" "♪" "♪ Though the story is finished ♪" "♪ we'll keep dreaming on" "♪ and though we're sure to miss ♪" "♪ our song" "♪ when it's go-one" "♪ let's give 'em that big finish ♪" "♪ and leave them wanting more" "♪ hear the angels shout "encore!" ♪" "♪ yeah, we'll leave 'em" "♪ leave the people wanting" "♪ Moore" "♪ mo-ore" " Come on, Karen Cartwright." " Where are we going?" "Show's over."