"It's said the flutter of a butterfly's wing can cause a typhoon halfway around the world." "Chaos Theory." "If anyone finds this... ..it means... my plan didn't work and I'm already dead." "Not here !" "But if I can go back to the beginning of this..." "Evan !" "I might... be able to save her." "Evan !" "We'll be late again." "When did you ever care about that ?" " We're preparing for Parents' Night." " Don't worry, you've plenty of time." " ls Dad coming ?" " You know the answer." "Can't he come for one day ?" "We've been over this, it's too dangerous." "Lenny said his dad's coming." " And Tommy and Kayleigh's dad." " Okay, I get the point." "I'm not so bad, am I ?" "Okay, have a great day. I love you." "Pick you up later." "Got to go." "Bye !" " Mrs. Treborn, I need a word." " Can it wait ?" "I'm late." "You really need to see this." "Tommy, leave Lenny alone !" "Or I'll send you to Mr voytek's office." "I wanted to talk to you before the principal." "What is it ?" "I had the children draw what they wanted to be when they grew up." "Most drew what their parents did, but this... I don't understand." "Evan did this ?" " Can I keep this drawing ?" " Of course." "There is one more thing I feel bad even mentioning." "What ?" "When I asked Evan about the drawing, he couldn't remember doing it." "I don't want to go." "I don't like this place." "It's creepy." "I promise I won't make any bad pictures." "It'll be fine." "He just wants to do a couple of tests, that's all." "You'll like him." "You're doing great." "Tell me he hasn't inherited his father's illness." "I'm sure the results will be negative." "But you can monitor his memory." "Anything." "A journal." "Have him write down everything he does." " What will that do ?" " Help jog his memory." "See if he remembers anything new the next day." "The results will come back and we'll take it from there." ""Today Mommy is taking me to play with Kayleigh and Tommy." "I'll meet their father and see what a real dad is like."" "Great, see you soon." "What are you doing with that knife ?" "What happened ?" "Honey..." "What were you doing with that knife ?" "I don't remember." "Hey !" "Hello, little man." "Watch your step." " Thanks, George." " No problem." "Here's my number in case there are any problems." "Keep an eye on him, 'cause..." "You kidding ?" "We'll have a great time." "Right ?" "Be good." "I love you." "Go along. ln the back yard." "Here it comes !" "Dad bought a new video camera, we'll be in a movie." "That's right, Evan." "And you... will be the star." " l thought I was." " Hey, what did I tell you ?" "Now, Evan, you have to promise, your bestest superduper promise, that this will be our little secret." "Can you do that ?" "Where am I ?" "Where do we all go ?" "I was just somewhere else !" "How did I get here ?" "Quit acting like a retard or I'll call your mother and tell her what a naughty little shit you've been." "Kayleigh..." "What happened ?" "Good news is the results are negative." "I found no evidence of lesions or tumors." "You must have something." "I'd say the blackouts are stress related." "But he's 7 years old !" "What kind of stress can a 7-year-old have ?" "Maybe he has coping problems about having no father." "Last time it occurred he was visiting a friend's dad." "He has been pushing me to meet his father and I've been putting it off." "It's worth a shot." "We can arrange a meeting." "A careful dose of sedatives for Jason." "Evan comes in for a quick visit, and hopefully no more missing father complex." "April 15th." "Today I get to meet my father." "His name is Jason and he's crazy." "I hope he lets me call him Dad." " My dad lives here ?" " Not in this wing." "If your dad seems a little sleepy it's because of the medicine." "It'll just be a moment." "It's okay, I won't bite." "You've seen pictures of me, right ?" "Mom says I have your smile, your hair..." "He has to die, it's the only way !" "Jason, stop !" "It's all right." " He's hurt bad." " Get a stretcher." "Let's get him out of here." "..certain hope that the resurrection to eternal life, we commend to Almighty God our brother Jason." "The Lord bless him and keep him." "The Lord make His light shine upon him and be gracious unto him and give him peace." "Amen." "Come on, where is it ?" "I know it's here somewhere." "Tommy, what's up already ?" " What are you looking for ?" " Shut up, lard ass." "And you, hold your horses." "It's here somewhere." "We should go soon." "If Dad catches us, we're dead." "Let's go." "I knew Dad had one." "Let's blow something." "Here you go." "I'm not touching this thing." "You are." " Then you won't puss out." " Not this time, buddy." "The fuse is small, I'll get killed." "Not necessarily." "Here you go. lt'll buy you two minutes at the least." "Thanks, friend." "For chrissake, just do it." "You got balls, man." "Sure took you long enough." "What the hell ?" "Help me get him up." " Evan, help me." " What happened ?" "Where are we ?" "What did we do ?" "Evan, help me !" " Oh my God !" " Let's go !" " What happened to you ?" " He's fine." "Everything's going to be fine." " Why isn't he speaking ?" " He's in shock." "What is it ?" "What happened ?" "We were in the woods and he freaked out." "He was okay and then he just froze up." "What happened, Evan ?" "The truth." "I don't know, I don't remember." "Something must have happened." "I blacked it out." "Don't use your blackouts to get out of this one." "You're not making it up ?" "Breathe in." "And breathe out." "And relax." "You are completely asleep." "Relaxed." "I want you to take me to when you were in the woods with Lenny." "Think of it like a movie." "You can pause, rewind, or slow down any details you wish." "Understand ?" "Yes." "Where are you now ?" "Standing next to Kayleigh, my hands over her ears." "Are you hurting her ?" "No, I'm protecting her." "Let's move forward in time." "What do you see ?" "I see a car." "Yes, Evan." "Tell me about the car." "Go on." "Nothing can hurt you." "Remember ?" "It's only a movie." "You're completely safe." "I can't !" "The car vanishes and all of a sudden... I'm on the ground." "The car doesn't vanish." "The movie in your head is broken." " Tell me about the car." " l can't !" "It's coming." "Fight it, Evan !" "Hurry, it's coming." " My God !" " On the count of ten..." "You'll wake feeling refreshed." "What are you doing ?" "What's happening ?" "Make it stop !" "One... you're feeling awake." "Two... your eyes are not as heavy." "Five, six..." "Come on, wake up !" "Nine !" "Ten !" "What happened ?" "Did it work ?" "Thanks, Mom." "See you later." "Wipe that look off your face or we'll get busted." "See how Evan's mom looked at you ?" "Sorry." "Will someone tell me what happened with the mailbox ?" "Don't ever bring that shit up again !" "Not ever !" "Let's go." "Are you okay ?" "Holy shit !" "Look at that fat fuck !" "He's got bigger titties than Lenny's mom." "Shut up, faggot !" "No one's talking to you." "Sorry, this was a bad idea." "You really don't remember what happened ?" "You're so lucky." "Look, Lenny will be fine, you'll see." "Sorry." "It's not your fault." "Mrs. Kagan called Dad and blamed us." "Your dad did that ?" " l deserve a lot worse." " What ?" "You deserve a better family." "They make you feel like shit." "You don't know how beautiful you are." "What the fuck are you doing ?" "What the fuck are you doing ?" "I can't believe you did that !" "Why do you have to be such a dick?" "Stop it !" "You're out of here." "of a horrible act of vandalism." "of criminal mischief gone awry," "devastated the community." "of dynamite." "The police have no leads, no suspects and no motive..." "Good night." "We're moving." "Why's Tommy still so pissed at me?" "He knows I'm moving away, right?" "He's been acting real strange lately." "He won't even look me in the eyes." "Here they come." "Did your mom say if Lenny was okay ?" "He must be..." "I mean they let him out." "Welcome home !" "Want some fresh air ?" " ls Tommy with you ?" " No, it's cool." "So what did you do in there ?" "It's awful, you can't sleep because everybody's screaming all night." "I never want to go back." " Do you see that ?" " What's that smoke ?" "Crockett !" "What are you doing to my dog ?" " Look what you made me do !" " What's wrong with you ?" "Come on, please wake up !" "Kiss her, Prince Charming !" "How long was I out ?" "What's wrong ?" "I'm sorry." " Aced it." " And time !" "Put your pencils down and place your books on my desk before you leave." "You too, Mr. Nelson." "Everybody !" " How did you do ?" " l don't know." "I think I got some stories mixed up." "Was it Pavlov that conditioned his dog to lick his nuts ?" "Typical psych major:" "complete wise ass." "How's your project ?" "Still planning to change the way we scientists view memory assimilation ?" "I don't have a choice." "Smells of patchouli and ass in here." "Cricket, this is my well-mannered roommate Evan." "You fucked up the bell curve on my anthropology final." " Later, Thumper." " Bye." "Fucking dick !" " Sweet girl." " l found your shirt." "Sick fuck !" "Hi, man." "Get dressed." " You're taking me out." " You ace another midterm?" "Better than that." "7 years, no blackouts." "Yeah, let's do this !" "Yeah !" "Be gentle with me !" "I'm post-coital." "Did she cradle your balls ?" "Nice !" "Look at him." "Get him out of my bar." "Which one of you has the pet worm ?" "Worms, plural !" "That's so gross !" "Talk to him about it, it's his fetish." "It's a psych project, to study our memory loss." "Explain it or I'll have a heart attack." "Ten bucks says he eats it off the floor !" "If I can figure out how the memory of a worm functions I should understand the complexities... of the human brain." "Let me get this shot." "What the fuck ?" "Well..." "I guess that's your game." "Smells like sex in here." "Yeah, Thumper had a busy afternoon." "You're kidding ?" "He's so big !" "Yeah." "I guess charisma and eyeliner go a long way." " You want a beer ?" " Yeah." "You any incense or scented candles ?" "No... these are my..." "Most guys usually tuck porn under their bed." " You've got comp books?" " My journals." "I've been keeping them since I was 7." "Read me something." "I should get something out of this." "Here we go." ""lt's like my mind refuses to believe what I'm seeing." "Hearing Crockett make those awful screams." "Just writing about it gives me the shivers."" "Come on..." "Go on." ""lt was like Tommy was possessed or something." "There was a hate in his eyes..." "Are you okay ?" "Where am I ?" "What's the hell's going on ?" "I can't open it !" "Drop it or I'll slit your mother's throat in her sleep." "I got him, save Crockett !" "Listen to me good, Evan." "Why do you have to fuck with my sister ?" "It's okay. lt was just a dream." " lt didn't feel like a dream." " They never do." "So, Don Juan, do you pass out on all your dates ?" "I've a surprise for you, guess who's here ?" "It's me." "Evan." "Are you working on a model ?" "Look, I see you're busy... so... I'll try to make this quick." "Do you remember that day..." "at the junkyard, when we were kids ?" "I was hoping you'd help me remember." "Just any details... I couldn't cut..." "The rope." "Yeah." "That's good." "Anything else ?" ""Drop it or I'll slit your mother's throat in her sleep !"" "Jesus... lt really happened." "Wow, Lenny..." ""Make one peep... and I swear it'll be your last, motherfucker !" ""The last thing I remember are my hands over Kayleigh's ears." "I was more focused on her hands, on mine... than on the mailbox..."" "Maybe it went out." "Shall we check it ?" "Yeah, you do that, Lenny." "Make one peep and it'll be your last one, motherfucker." "How's my sweet girl ?" "Do you want to open it ?" "Lenny, come on !" "Lenny, come on !" "Let's go !" "Christ, man !" "Fucking brutal !" " Hello ?" " Mrs. Kagan, it's Evan." "Treborn." "how much you upset Lenny." "Yeah, I'm really sorry." "to clean up the mess." "Can I talk to Lenny ?" "Don't call here." "Mom... I'm just so proud of you." "Did... did Jason get good grades ?" "He got straight "A"s without touching a book." "It was the one area his memory never failed him." "Did he ever say that he... figured out a way to recall his lost memories, years after he blacked them out ?" " Why do you ask ?" " l just figured with him being such a brain, you'd think he'd figure out a way to remember stuff that he forgot." "When he was your age, almost exactly your age, he said he'd figured out a way to remember his past." "I couldn't tell if they were real or imagined." "Then just before it got so bad, he... had to be institutionalized, he said he could..." "What ?" " What ?" "What did he do ?" " Forget it." "It's nothing." "He was far too sick by then." ""l never wanted to be in the movie." "It was cold, I wanted to wear my clothes." "Mr. Miller took my shirt off."" " What are you doing ?" " l need quiet for this." "Are you stupid or what ?" "There's a reason you repressed the day some pervert had you in your undies." "I'd think twice, you could wake up more fucked up than you are now." "More fucked up than I am ?" "You think you know me ?" "I don't know me !" "Sorry." "It was my fault." "Can we get through a day without you breaking something ?" "My God, it's been a long time !" "How've you been ?" " Same old, you know." " No, I don't know." "Fill me in." "I'm going to State now." "It's going good." "My mom's good." " Want a smoke ?" " Not since we were kids." "I've quit a hundred times." "Are you walking home ?" " Can I walk you ?" " Sure." " My God !" " So..." "How's Tommy ?" "Well, they kept him in juvy for a few years, but..." "Now he's working at Dale's Auto Body." "That's good." " Still living with your dad ?" " No." "I emancipated myself at 15." "Must have taken a lot of courage." "Not if you remember my dad." "Couldn't you have moved in with your mom?" "She had a new family, not enough room." "I came back to town to talk to you." "To me ?" "Why ?" "Remember when we were kids and I had those blackouts ?" "Yeah, of course." "Some of those memories have been coming back." "I wanted to talk to you about one in particular." "I'll try to remember." "When we were kids your dad was making a movie, about Robin Hood or..." "What do you want to know ?" "Did he..." "What happened in the basement ?" "Look, it was a long time ago." "is that why you came back here ?" "To ask a lot of stupid questions about Robin Hood ?" "I just think something bad happened." "is there a point to this ?" "Whatever happened, it wasn't our fault, we were kids." "We didn't do anything to deserve..." "Just shut up !" "You're wasting your breath." "You can't hate yourself because your dad's a twisted freak." "Who are you trying to convince ?" "You've come to stir up my shit just because you have a bad memory ?" "Want me to cry on your shoulder and tell you it's all better ?" "Fuck you !" "Nothing's all better, nothing ever gets better." "You know, if I was so wonderful, why didn't you call me ?" "Why did you leave me here to rot ?" "When he was almost your age," "to remember his past." " Some dude left a message for you." " You can smell that miles away." "Hi, this is Professor Carter." "Youdidn'thandinyour essay, I was concerned." "Call me to schedule a makeup." "What did you say to my sister, motherfucker?" "for over an hour." "She said you came and saw her." "She fucking killed herself tonight." "She's dead." "So are you." "didn't come out of nowhere, maybe my father wasn't as crazy as they thought." "If I can make scars, can I heal them ?" "What about Kayleigh's scars ?" ""l never wanted to be in the movie." "It was cold, so I wanted to wear my clothes." "But Mr. Miller... took my shirt off."" "I've got an idea, we'll go to the basement." "It'll look more like a dungeon down there." "A little light here." "I told you to keep the door shut." "I want to see." "You'll see the back of my fist if you don't do what I tell you." "Now, in this part of the story," "Robin Hood has just married Maid Marian." "And they have to kiss and stuff, like the grownups do." "So, take off your clothes, Kayleigh." "Just like when we take a bath." "Don't make a big deal out of it." "You too, Evan." "Come on !" "We're making a movie." "Put your hands on your ears." "What time is it ?" "It's time for you to do what I tell you to do." "Wrong answer, fuckbag !" "This is the moment of your reckoning." "You're going to open up one of two doors, the first door'll forever traumatize your own flesh and blood." "What..." "What's happening ?" "How are you doing this ?" "It'll change your daughter from a beautiful child into an empty shell, whose only concept of trust was betrayed by her pedophile father." "Ultimately..." "It'll lead to her suicide." " Nice work, Daddy." " Who are you ?" "Let's just say you're being closely watched, George." "Your other option is to treat Kayleigh like a loving father treats his daughter." "Sound okay to you, Papa ?" "Yes." "Listen close then, fuckbag !" "You screw this up again, I swear I'll castrate you." "What you need to do is discipline your son Tommy, 'cos he's one sadistic pup." "One last thing..." "Don't ever touch me again !" "I won't." "Honey, are you all right ?" "Oh, my God, Evan, you're bleeding !" "Kayleigh... it's you !" " Incredible !" " Thanks." "Get cleaned up then come back to bed." " Where are my clothes ?" " There, silly." "The bathroom's..." "Hurry up, I want a quickie before school." "What ?" "Unbelievable." "I wish I could get as excited over a nose bleed." "Sorry..." "I didn't see you." "What..." "You're the girl that... was with those assholes throwing the popcorn at Thumper." "What ?" "And your name is Gwen." "I know you." "Seriously, lay off the blow." "Don't freak out when I ask you this..." "Do you remember when your dad got that video camera ?" "Yeah... he had it the first day and then he gave it away." "Why would that freak me out ?" "I dunno." " Just being weird." " You are such a goofus." "So I'll see you tonight." "Good." "Andrea, Evan, Chuck aren't home right now: you know what to do." "Hey, Mom..." "It's me." "Hey, Chuck." "I'm just calling to say hi." "Give me a call back." "Do you know what time it is ?" "Have you lost your Rolex ?" "Fuck you, frat boy !" "Remember there are only two more weeks until your projects are due." "About that essay I missed last week, we're still okay with the extension ?" "And you are... ?" "Evan..." "Treborn." "The answer's no." "Please take your seat." "The exam is about to begin." "Settle down, everyone." "The exam will begin in one minute." "Get off me, asshole !" "You guys started that shit !" "Evan, you're hysterical." "Did you study for this ?" "We'll find out." "Me neither." " Are these the answers ?" " Damn, Evan." "Keep it on the DL." "I want to do something special for Kayleigh tomorrow." "So, if I said I needed some help from you and the brothers... I'd say "Blow me"." "Get the pledges to do it." "Right." "You may begin now." "That was so good !" "Oh, my God !" "Where'd you learn those new tricks ?" "What ?" "It wasn't... weird... was it ?" "Yeah, if you call multiple orgasms weird." "Hello ?" "Fuck 'em." "What do you think it is about us that makes us so perfect ?" "I mean..." "Why did you sneak out to visit me ?" " After I moved away." " Because I missed you." "Did you think my dad could have stopped me ?" "What was he going to do ?" "Oh my gosh, my toes are numb." "Think we'll be together for ever ?" "That is the plan, isn't it ?" "Hell or high water." "Yeah." "Yeah, I was just making sure." "Yeah, that's the plan." "All right." "All you rushes, you know what you have to do for me." "Pledges." "We're pledges, sir." "Brother Evan... sir." "Are you kidding me ?" "What did you say to me ?" "Give me the Greek alphabet !" "Give it to me !" "Maybe that's what it is !" "Don't look at me !" "All right..." "So, you pledges... you know what you need to do for me." "Take a shower and if anyone gives any trouble, tell them I said it was okay." "What ?" "Shower up, bitch !" "Where are you taking me ?" "I'm not telling." "My God !" "It's beautiful !" "Sit down." "Thank you." "Why are you doing this for me ?" "When I woke up this morning, I saw your smile." "That smile." "And I knew... that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you." "I've looked all over for you." "Someone trashed your car." "What the..." "Who did this ?" "Who did it ?" "Probably those Beta fuckers." "How can anyone get away with this in front of the frat house ?" "What's that ?" "A dog collar ?" "Don't." "He may be watching." "It's my fault. I should have told you he was released." "It might've been nice." "Like this will do any good." "Maybe one of the frat guys has a gun." "Don't even joke !" "He's not going to hurt you !" " He's just trying to scare you." " He killed my dog." " Don't you remember ?" " lt's not his fault." "You know how bad he had it as a kid." "Don't give me this bad upbringing shit." " You turned outjust fine." " Dad never laid a hand on me." "That prick saved it all for Tommy." "Okay." "We'll let campus security deal with it." "I think I should sleep alone." "No, not alone, I'm staying with you." "I don't want Tommy to see us together right now." "I lost you once, I won't lose you again." "What do you mean ?" "You never lost me." "What are you talking about ?" "You're acting so weird lately." "My carjust got wrecked, I'm freaked out." "Your accent's changed, you don't even walk the same." " l walk differently ?" " That dinner was so beautiful." "But itjust wasn't you." "Can't I do something nice for you ?" "Wait." "Isn't that yourjacket ?" " Stay away from us, you sick fuck !" " Get this "us" shit !" "Like I'd ever hurt my own sister." "You've done real nice for yourself." "You got a nice life." "Nice friends, not to mention you're fucking my sister." "Not a bad piece of ass." " Shut up !" " That's a compliment !" " What are you doing ?" " lsn't the world enough for you ?" "But you took the only thing that doesn't think I'm a piece of shit !" " You know I love you." " No one thinks that." "No?" "What was it you said?" "Sick fuck ?" "Oh, my God !" "Stop it !" "You'll kill him !" "He's a fucking maniac !" "Don't, I beg you !" "You ruined Lenny's life !" "You killed Crockett !" "You killed that woman and her baby !" "Now you want to kill me." "My God, what have you done ?" "Drop the bat !" "Come on !" "First time ?" "Yeah." "Better not bitch out, man." "You'll wind up someone's luggage." "Can you protect me ?" "Jesus Himself couldn't make me stand up against the Brotherhood." "Look, man, when they come, you go someplace else in your head." "Be somewhere else." "Back your ass off." "Hey, you !" "Give me that !" "Ball of shit." "I spoke to your lawyer." "He's sure he can get you off on self-defense." "So if you're just patient..." "Mom..." " How long will I be in here ?" " l don't know." "These things take time." "Did you bring me the journals I asked for ?" "I found these two." "The others are still in storage." "Mom!" "I... I need them all !" "All of them !" "I'll get them to you,  you need to concentrate on the case." "Please." "All right." "You're right." "What about Kayleigh ?" "is she all right ?" "Try to tell her I'm sorry." " Time's up !" " l'm not going to lose you." "Promise me you'll hang on." "Shit on my dick or blood on my knife." "Back off !" "Show's over, ladies !" " Get this maggot back to his cell." " Move !" "See you later on tonight, little sister." "Let's go !" "You're religious, Carlos." "Do you believe in that bit about the Lord works in mysterious ways ?" "Straight up, man." "I think Jesus sent me to your cell for a reason." "For you to help me." "Shit !" " l knew you were crazy." " l ain't bullshitting you." " Jesus speaks to me in my dreams." " Oh, yeah ?" "That's cool." "Great." "Pack of smokes says I can prove it." "I need you to watch my hands and face closer." "You need to see the prison shrink." " Tell me if you see anything weird." " Weirder than this ?" "If could be marks, scars, anything." ""Wednesday I got in trouble for a drawing I didn't do." "Mommy won't let me see it."" "No monkey business, Evan." "Finish your drawing." "Great !" "Just imagine what you want to be !" "There's no limits." "Mrs. Boswell !" "Jesus, it's a miracle !" "Look, it's stigmata, man." "What did you see?" "What did it look like?" "The signs of the Lord, they came out of nowhere." "Man, I thought you were fucking crazy." "So now you believe me ?" "Straight up." "Want to make a deal ?" "Right, look, I'm new here but I know how things work." "You eitherjoin the gang or you're dead." "I ain'tjoining up with no spics or niggers." "And I don't want to die." "So..." "What have I gotta do ?" "I'm new, I've got to work my way up." "Should I suck your dick now or... ls your blood pure ?" "Yes, sir." ""We took the woods so we wouldn't see Tommy." "We hadn't seen the smoke."" "Hold them !" ""We took the woods so we wouldn't see Tommy." "We hadn't seen the smoke."" "Rot in hell, you fucking animals." "Wait, before we..." "We need something to cut open the sack." "Take this, today's your day of atonement." "I know how guilty you feel about that woman and baby." " Stop it, it's not the time." " Now's the only time !" "You get a chance to redeem yourself, start all over." " What are you talking about ?" " You're crazy !" "If you ever trusted me before, trust me on this one !" "Cut the rope." "Come on !" " Listen..." " l'll do whatever you want." "I'll stop seeing Kayleigh, but let Crockett go." "If you kill him now, they'll stick you in juvy." "You'd never leave your sister alone with your father." "I said cut the rope." "It's all backwards." "Somebody call 91 1 !" "Doc !" "What's the damage ?" " How much time do I have ?" " Cute, Evan." "It's complicated." "I've never seen results like these." "Not even with my father ?" "They didn't have these tests 20 years ago." "What did you find ?" "The hemorrhaging is coming from here, this part of the cerebral cortex." " Where memories are stored." " Thank you." "Never seen it before." "Compared to the ones taken last year, we found hemorrhaging and massive neural reconstruction." "What does that mean?" "I've jammed 40 years of memories into my head in the last year." "I've reprogrammed my brain." " That's the gist ?" " Yeah." "I'll go wait in the car." "The light is bugging my eyes." "Good to see you, doc." "It was very... informative." "But I've got people to see, things to read." "See you." "It's me." "Can I get you anything ?" "What about some of those model airplanes you like ?" "I bet I can get a shitload of them here." "You knew the whole time, didn't you?" "When you put..." "that shard in my hand... you knew something big would happen." " Didn't you ?" " Yeah." " l knew." " You should be right here." "You should be where l am." ""Today I get to meet my father." "His name is Jason and he's crazy." "I hope he lets me call him Dad." "Are you okay ?" "You look like you went somewhere else there." "Look, Jason, I need you to help me fix what I've done." "I was praying this curse would end with me." "But it didn't." "I need information to make it right." " Only you can give it me." " There is no right." "You can't change people without destroying them." "Who says you can't make things better?" "You can't play God, son !" "It must end with me." "By being here you may be killing your mother." "That's bullshit !" "I'll send you a postcard when I've made everything perfect." "Just get out, did you ?" "My brother did a stint in the pen and he used to eat like that." "I come from a big family." "I meant no offense." "None taken." " Kayleigh Miller still work here ?" " Sorry, I never heard of her." "Can't a guy get some peace in his own house ?" "Don't suppose you're here to sell cookies." "Good guess, fuckbag." "Remember me ?" "We had a nice chat once when I was 7." "I have a question for you." "Where can I find your daughter ?" "I thought you were someone else." "Make it fast, I'm expecting someone." "It's good to see you." "Can I come in ?" "If I knew you were coming, I'd have cleaned the sheets." "What do you want ?" "I needed to see a friendly face." "Time is money." "I can spare ten minutes for an old friend, right ?" "So ?" "How's tricks ?" "Sorry..." " Occupational humor." " l got it." "You can stop now." "Sorry." "Does my line of work make you uncomfortable ?" "Just that you used it to hurt me." "I've been where you've been." " Where is that ?" " You wouldn't believe me." "I know people always say that... but in this case, it's not even worth trying." "I decided I had to find you." "I went to your dad and got him to tell me." "The rest you know." " You're right, I don't believe you." " l knew it." "That's why I never told a soul and I won't again." "I'm the only person you've told ?" "That's a great line." "Does that make other girls wet ?" "Do they eat up that bullshit ?" "I don't give a shit if you believe me." " And I'm too tired to prove it." " Oh, there's proof now, huh ?" "How would I know you have twin moles on your thigh ?" "Anyone with 50 bucks can tell you that." "Forget that." "How about you prefer the smell of skunk to flowers ?" "That you hate cilantro because for some reason it reminds you of your stepsister?" "And when you have an orgasm, your toes go numb." "I'm sure all your clientele know that." "I just thought you should know." "Know what ?" "That you were happy once... with me." "There's one major hole in your story." "There's no way on this planet I would ever be in some fucking sorority." " You were happy there." " Oh, you're crying." "Sure you don't want your wallet ?" " l won't need it where l'm going." " To change everybody else's life ?" "Maybe next time you'll pop up in some mansion while I end up in Tijuana doing some donkey act." "I'm over it." "Every time I try to help someone, everything goes to shit." "Don't give up now, you've done so much for me !" "Why don't you go back in time and save Mrs. Halpern and her baby ?" "Then maybe Lenny wouldn't freak out and ruin my family." "No, go back to when I'm seven, and fuck me in front of my daddy's video camera." "Straighten me out a bit." "You're on my bed, get out !" "I thought it was okay, with you being sick and all." "I won't say it again." ""The last thing I remember was my hands over Kayleigh's ears." "I was more focused on her hands..." "Stay back, don't go near the mailbox !" "Idiots !" "Get back !" "I'll save you !" "Goddamn it !" "I told you to get out." "Sorry, did we wake you ?" "It's cool." "It's really cool." "What the fuck is this ?" "Please save his arm !" "Get a towel !" "Where are you going ?" "Ever noticed Kayleigh's smile ?" "Lenny's the best." "Youguysmakeagreatcouple." "Think I'll find someone ?" " Where are we going ?" " To hospital." " No, take me back." " Your mom would kill me." "Take me back !" "You owe me that much." "What are you geeks looking at ?" "It must be nice to be perfect !" "Fucking losers !" "Lenny, help me !" "Get him over." "Brian !" "How's your head feeling ?" "I saw the girl you went home with, did she borrow your razor ?" "So bad." "There's Tommy !" "What's up, guys ?" "Hey, man." "We're pooling our student funds with Hillel House for an Awareness Dance." "Awesome, maybe I can spin my chair round to a techno remix until I puke." " Let's go to class." " What's the point of psych class ?" "Tomorrow I could wake up a dirt farmer in Bangladesh." "Let's go for a stroll." "Tommy's really into this Jesus freak thing." "You know how spiritual he is since he saved Mrs. Halpern and Katie." "He saved them ?" "He's a twisted fuck !" "Let's sit here." "Want a granola bar ?" "Here." "I've got to fix these things." "Do you ever think about us ?" "I mean..." "Do you ever wonder if things might have been different between us ?" "Sure, Evan." "You were the first person I ever cared about." " l was ?" " Yeah." "That's why when I was little I never went to live with my mother." "I don't get it." "When my folks split up, they gave us a choice who we wanted to live with." "And I couldn't stand my dad, but I knew if I went with Mom, I'd never see you again." "I didn't know that." "So, you still think about us together ?" "It's crossed my mind from time to time." "And ?" "A lot of things have crossed my mind." "I could play out the entire movie of our lives." "We fall in love, we get married, we have kids." "Our kids grow old, as do we." "Matching burial plots, the whole thing." "It took longer to tell than to imagine." "Things like that usually do." "Do you think it might have worked ?" "Yeah." "But that's not how things wound up." "I'm with Lenny." "Lenny's your friend." "That's where it ends." "Would it make a difference if I told you no one could love anyone as much as I love you ?" "I'm not saying that..." " Yeah." " l... you know... I'm just saying it like... is it something a girl would want to hear ?" "Hold on, Lenny's calling." "I'll be right back." "You forgot to put the toaster on the ledge." "Lenny likes Pop-Tarts." "You guys are all that matters now." "I know it's hard, but you can't give up." " l can't even fucking kill myself." " Don't talk like that." "I've got to get you out, visiting-hours are almost over." "Mom get transferred again ?" "What?" "She's always been in here." "Lookin'... good kiddo." ""Lung cancer"." "You started chain smoking after my accident." "Sorry, he's acting out of sorts." "Mom..." "You're gonna be okay, I can change it." "I'm going to go down to the chapel." "You're... acting... just..." "like your father." "I'll get you out of here." "You won't hurt anymore, I'll fix it." " Are you sure you packed it ?" " My mom did." "She sent everything I ever owned." " This it ?" " Yeah" " What ?" "I don't get you." " Duly noted." " l have to ask you a last favor." " What ?" "Be quiet now." "I have to concentrate to destroy the blockbuster." " What ?" " lf l hadn't blown off my arms... ..Mom wouldn't have started smoking." "Never mind." "Just open it." "Turn it." "There." ""Today Mommy is taking me to play with Kayleigh and Tommy." "I'll meet their father and see what a real dad is like." "How do I destroy the blockbuster?" "What are you doing with that knife ?" "That didn't work." "Turn it." "Turn it... there." ""l never wanted to be in the movie.... in this part of the story, Robin Hood has just married Maid Marian." "And they have to kiss and stuff, like grownups do." "Wait, I need my belt." "Don't even bother about a belt." "Back off, fuckbag !" "That word never fails to make an impression." "Easy does it." "Don't be bad or I'll tell your mother what a little shit you are." "I'll tell child protective services about your kiddie porn." "Once step and I'll shove this up your ass." "That's dangerous, it could blow off your hands." "Been there, done that." " Sparkler !" " Kayleigh, no !" "Where are my books ?" "We're not supposed to meet for another hour." "Where are my goddamn books?" "Books..." "My journals." "I need them." "So... lf you give them to me, it would help." "It hurts me to go through this again." "There are no journals." "There never were." "It's part of the fantasy world you created to cope with the guilt of killing Kayleigh Miller." "Think, Evan." "You've created a disease that does not exist." "Alternate universes, with colleges, prisons, and paraplegia." "I want my journals, I want them now !" "I know you've got them, give them to me !" "You're not going to hide them from me !" "You remind me of your father." "He screamed for a photo album he never had." "I'm so sorry." "A photo album?" "The damage is irreparable." "I'm surprised he still has use of his motor functions." "Mom... did you remember to bring those home movies ?" "Yeah, they're right here." "Good." "Because I'd really like to watch them." "That's good." "It's best we transfer him to Bellevue tomorrow morning." "If anyone finds this, it means that my plan didn't work." "And I'm already dead." "He's not in his room, search the grounds." "If I can somehow go back to the beginning of all of this." "I might... be able... to save her." "Over here !" " What's your name ?" " Kayleigh." "This is Evan." "Let me in !" "Say hi... go on !" "I hate you. lf you come near me, I'll kill you and your whole family." "What happened ?" "Goodbye." "Sparkler !" "I missed you. I'll never leave you on your own again." "through sacrifice." "our parents made for us." "You all right ?" " Where's Kayleigh ?" " Who's Kayleigh ?" ""Who's Kayleigh ?"" ""Who's Kayleigh ?"" "Shall I take you to the doctor ?" "Everything will be all right this time." "Sure about this ?" "I know who I am." "I don't need stuff to remind me." "I'm running a little late." "Yes, I had to finish with a patient." "Get the soup or something." "All right." "Love you, Mom." "Bye-bye." "Subtitles:" "Laser S. Film s.r.l." " Rome"