"Icannotexplain." "Icannotexplainmyself." "Icannotlie." "EverythingI sayis true, EvenifIdontspeak." "There should always be a first death." "Otherwise, nothing happens." "Otherwise it's never a problem." "Otherwise, everything is always on." "No." "There must always be someone dying first." "Based on true events" "And then everyone suddenly reacts." "But too late." "So there were deaths." "Every morning I  game  From5.45pm to 6.33pm." "Always." "Ihavereachedlevel80." "Ifyouneverheardofit  That'sjust...high." "Thismeansthatyou are strong." "Respectedintheworld." "Hundredsofthousandsofpeopleonline." "ButIveplayedfor morethan ayear Onlytogetherwithher ." "Scarlite says:" "Thx, my hero" "Ben X says:" "Hero must go, my princess" "Scarlite says: do not forget Princess can also be a man" "Ben X says:" "You are you" "Ben X says:" "I log off, See you tonight" "Im glad that you also are you XXX Scarlite" "Ingamesyouare  Whomandwhatyou want." "Hereyouareonlyoneperson." "That  dick you see in the mirror." "Theoneihavetoteach everything." "Teachhimto laugh,for example." "That people finds  nice." "Andsmile."" "That means   Thatthereis reallynothingtolaugh about ." "Socreateyourown avatar." "Twentysecondsformyhands." "And fifteen  for my hair." "Youareas strongas Weaponsandyourtools." "Myheartrate,for example." "To Myheartto keep,asthey say." "For  if I am getting nervous." "NotthatIamless nervous buti canalwaystell exactly hownervousiam." "Good morning, Ben." "Peoplealwayssaythat." "Nomatter." "ifitis agoodmorningornot ." "Good morning, mama." "Did you sleep well, boy?" "'Very good sleep, mama." "Fine glad you asked." "Thank you. '" "Have you already seen my troll, Ben?" "MybrotherJonas." "Heisstillsmall." "AndI tryto be hisbig brother." "The Trolls have no horses." "ButI neverknowexactly Howthisworks." "Quietly, Ben." "Quietly." "Quiet, yes." "We can not allow it to your heart." "'Yes, mama. "" " Yes, mama." "Do not let my heart." "In your heart, boy." "Sure You may leave things in your heart." "Just think carefully And quiet." "Give me 'a kiss." "Till later." "But  better." "Betternoise." "Ithink." "Andespeciallythinking." "Equipped , everything before." "Everything is  planning,  Allisstrategy." "I can not say I was totally surprised ..." "But it proved just ..." "That everything had happened so far, That really could not." "Before you do something, Must surely al .." "To me that was just 't proof that ..." "Now it's just too much." "It is too much." "Peoplearestrange." "Theyjusttalkand talkandtalk." "Andtheydrinksalivafrom each other." "Icanonlylook." "Observe,asyousay ." "Imitate.." "AllI willneverlearn." "Becausetherewasalwayssomethingwithme." "Somethingwithme andmyhand ." "Pass." "What is with you on the hand, We will never know, eh." "Mis." " What's wrong with you?" "Iamtheman wheresomethingwrong withit." "Butnoonewho couldtell me..." "HowI coulddo reallyright." "Hi, queers." "Pat has a new girlfriend." "A good thing." "Go and sit, dear." "Not wrong, eh?" "From a old barn Which is on fire, jumping off sparks." "You know how to feel your hand if you put it in her trousers?" "I usually will not know." "Once it's a horse A sugarcube?" "BogaertandDesmet." "Iamtheirbestfriend." "Thats  what they say anyway." "Hi, there is Benny." "Our best friend." " From Pluto." "The living proof that man descends from the clam." "The clam?" "Hi, Benny Boy." "The Marsman." "Hello." "Whitney Houston for Benny Boy." "Come in, Benny Boy." "Over." "Over, Benny Boy." "Do you read me?" "Hi, Benny Boy." "Youve become deaf from masturbation." " What is it all for you?" "Extinguish..." "Whyaretheydoingthis ?" "If I  calmly played on a Saturday, they thought  Thatmyearscouldnothear." "ThedoctorsaidthatIhad a verygoodhearing  butI couldnotlisten." "He does not listen." "Whentheysaidthatperhapssomething isshieldingmy eyes." "Do you see any letters there?" " Yes." "Can you tell me what letters?" " Yes." "It is the intention that you will tell me which letters there." "C-H-O-Z-T-S-Z-N-D-C-K-V-C ..." "When he was a baby he was always looking away ..." "He never looked at me." "He always looked through me." "You have to see if a computer Which is configured completely different." "They see it all." "They see each sheet very sharp, But see the tree." "They see the trees literally But not the forest." "Overview." "Thatisthepoint." "Over-sight." "Youhaveto trytosee." "Andmakesuretheydonotseeyou ." "View 's out of your caps." " Debiel." "View 's out of your caps." " Debiel." "'Whitney Houston for Benny Boy." "We have a problem. "" "For Benny Boy." "The Marsman." "Every year you have a few." "Always alone in the school playground." "It is heartbreaking to see." "But yes, what do you then?" "You can hold their hand hard." "And certainly no longer." "I wanted my son To go to a normal school." "My wife, my ex-wife and I had a quarrel." "But he was much smarter than some of those other kids." "Three, five, ten times smarter." "An understandable question:" "Where is God?" "Where is this man With its large, gray beard?" "With all these wars and poverty and injustice ..." "Where is God?" "The interesting thing is that people who question in the time of Jesus also questioned." "Because Jesus hung there 't cross And she said:" "'Jesus, why do you do nothing?" "If your boss is creator of the universe." "If you can rise anyone from the dead?" "Then this is child's play." "Click, clack and you are free. "" "Jesus also suggests that question." "What's in the New Testament?" "On the ninth hour Jesus cried with loud voice:" ""My God, my God, Why have thou forsaken me? "" "Jesus himself takes the time Also that question." "He was humiliated and beaten." "They have destroyed him." "Jesus himself doubts God." "He can go in death." "Actually Jesus committed suicide." "So he rises." "Until the resurrection." "And that means that God ..." "Goddammit, Bogaert!" "Leave Ben alone!" "I dont think this is the first time I have said that." "You get problems with me." "Ben is a bit different than you, Than the deplorable average here." "And if your ask me, boft he says." "Apparently it's difficult to accept that someone is a bit different." "Or do you want to tell us something, Mr. Bogaert?" "Something about a text that you last night have been studied extensively?" "Yes." " I know something." "We are burning of curiosity, Mr. Bogaert." "Does anyone know what Jesus said When he was crusified?" "'Hey, first my feet. "" "That is very cute. 'My God, Why have thou forsaken me? "" "One question that I, believe me, ask myself several times every day." "Hi quietly." "Calm, please." "Ben, do not opnaaien By those guests." "Stay just quiet." "That kind of lazy birds for the cat." "They have no chance." "They have forever a patch stuck on his foot." "The fact that the director had said That it had." "He has run around all day with that patch." "He always had sandwiches with them." "But he has never been able to eat." "But yes, what can you do?" "What we always do." "Too little." "Nothing." "That is our darling." "Hi, Benny Boy?" " Baby Jesus." "Leave him alone." "It will not be easy, Eh, Benny Boy, why so different?" "Quietly." " Better than the average." "You are really our great example, Eh, Ben?" "You are it." "Quietly,quietly." "Juststayquiet." "Plain,ordinary,ordinary." "Smiles." "'Likea laugh',theysaid." "Then  it would 't stop." "Thentheywouldhavetostop." "Filming." "Action." "Queer." "Loser." "Dirty queer." " Loser." "Look at me, boy." "If you 't tell me, I can 't not recommended, Vertriest." "Look." "My favorite customers." "The tenth time is free, eh." " And why is that, do you think?" "I do not know." " You have really no idea?" "Is it a quiz?" "Do you find it funny, Desmet?" "I honestly think this is not at all funny." "You have apparently Vertriest ..." "How will I 't say ..." "Bullied." "A little plagued." "Not bullied." " We do this together." "The difference is that a normal man understands the joke, sir." "We still try to be normal to him." "We still talk with him." "But normally it is quite bad." "We are not those who throw chairs throught the window, sir." "It is also not easy." "Let but, save that theatre for the school." "And you ..." "Now it's time to talk, my friend." "Say it." "Say it." "Tell me what those two clowns did wrong again." "But yes ..." "With hindsight is easy talk, eh." "Well, easy ..." "I mean ..." "You feel like a former combatant After a war that you have lost." "I almost no longer know how often I have been in all these schools." "And always the same story." "At this school ..." "We try to prepare pupils for this hard world." "And they are." "And sometimes not." "About that glass you need . .." "The director said   Thattheybe allowed." "IfI amstill'swouldbeinspected." "Hopefully we can see each other more often." " I hope so too." "And you let us know What the doctor finally decided?" "Or he further at this school ..." " Yes." "Come on, Ben, walk." "Ben, your camera." "You have to look forward." "Really, look forward." "Ben, come." "Ben, this cant go on." "This cant go on no longer." "Questing   in Silancium Waiting for you!" "XXX Scarlite" "Wow o_O You are a star on the Internet!" "Hi, my son." "Is it a bit?" "Is there something?" "Do you want to tell me something?" " No." "You have one message." "From that girl, Scarlite." "When will we see her in real life?" "Or is it not now?" "I will let you ..." "Chat." "Or what you call it." "Sleep tight." "Whytellpeoplethatanyway." "Sleeptight."" "Ifyoudo notrest." "Butthey,theywaited." "For  me." "ForMe,BenX.Bennothing." "They waited  ." "For  me." "Scarlite says:" "Too late" "Never leave a lady waiting" "Ben X says:" "low health That is not good" "Scarlite says:" "Keep your socks on Im going  healing" "Ben says:" "Too late for  healing" "It's nice weather." "Let us got to the hospital again, eh, Ben." "Back to the doctor." "Weathertellmy story." "Dr. Meyvaert will be very glad to see us." "Whatismy story?" "Iwasnotnormal,Iwas ..." "Special." "Thats what  everyone.  said" "Your child is just hypersensitive." "Just sensitive." "A few emotionally dysfunctional." " A mild form of psychosis." "Just a little tense." "Like the mother?" "I will give you this." "We can always do further investigations." "In-vestigate." "Vestigatein what?" "Andthereis alwaysacamera." "Theyseeit ." "Who'scrazyandwho 'snot ." "It is a waste of time." "Pure waste of time." "You have to face it." "This cant go on no longer." "We need someone to help us." " That child has nothing wrong." "Nothing, nothing." "I would not lose my mind." " You will lose nothing but find something." "Youhaveto letgo, theysaid ." "Buttheydontallowmeto go ." "Just follow the new rule." "Andwhentheysuddenly What' tableto be ." "Isimplyhaveafaultybrain ." "It would be 't Asperger syndrome Can be." "The  Asperger syndrome,  Theysaid." "A form of autism." "Autism." "Thisis whatshe discovered." "Ihaveautism." "Of  autism has given me." "Twelve years  they have studied a man." "But not  tought him  tonotpickhis nose." "Madam, it is not easy." "And it will not be easy." "But you should not forget:" "Ben is not stupid." "On the contrary, he is very strong." "He is almost genious." "He  talk and talk and talk." "Themanwhohelpedmefar." "He is strong in his senses." "We actually have to deal with an extraordinary boy." "Those fights every day ..." "As a normal boy By the life." "And now the question:" "Should we thereof help him?" "Of those illusion that he as a habitual Boy by the life could be." "I have heard that his schoolresults is good." "Very good indeed." "So why should we want to help him?" "Because he is bullied to death, for example." "Yes well, that happens." "That happens." "It would not, but could happen." "At a given moment You get a stamp." "Autism." "Snap?" "But that word ..." "For me that was a child Just that child." "For me it was Ben Ben." "Yes, these are volcanoes." "They are walking volcanoes You do not know the strength." "Timebombs actually, They live undercover in our world." "Because the reaction is often much later than the cause." "We will continue." "Thats the best we can do." "We surely do not let us know." "And when  my fingers has  toldhereverything." "Ben X says: game over Time for endgame" "Come on." "She , the princess of the letters,  Ontheothersideofthecountry." "Thatalwaysstandsbesideme As'willlastnolonger." "Thosewhoknowme, withoutthem  noonewouldknowmyname." "Thosewhocouldmeetmerapen ." "They  I could do 'sleep. "" "Theplanof oneword." "'Letmehelpyou ,'she said." "'Inorderto increase...  toriseaboveyourself.'" "Quietly, Ben." "Quietly." "What do you have today?" "Got your cell phone?" "Call if you need something?" "Itisnotyourheart." "Give me a kiss." "Juststayquiet." "What exactly happened that day?" "Who will say it?" "I knew only that he ..." "Look, I knew How is my son felt ..." "To the way in which he slammed the door early morning." "It was not even such a bad door." "That, at least I thought." "I , Marsman ." "Ihadto ..." "It." "Ob." "Butwhich?" "BecauseI wasalwaysthere." "Always  al" "I's normal." "Freak." " Mietje." "Have you seen what I shot?" "Did you view?" "I did not know that you believed." "Is it a little, boy?" "You know that you can always tell me if there is something." "Right?" "There is nothing." " Ok." "Goddammit, what is it now?" "Do you think its funny?" "I thought its funny." " And do you see me laughing?" "Perhaps you have no sense of humor, sir." "Since you do not start, eh Bogaert." "You guys do a game with me, eh." "And you play with ..." "Fire." " With fire, yes." "And you play with ..." " Fire, yes." "Cant you take a joke?" "You have to defend yourself, boy." "You have to guard yourself." "Weapons." "Myarms." "Adeathcross." "In  Archlord pay you  350gold." "If we just knew, they say." "Them." "Did we it but conscience." "But what had they done?" "You see them arrive each year." "You see them arrive every time." "Every evening you sit on your bare knees And you prays that it may well just pass." "And that is usually the case." "But yes ..." "This time, we certainly skipped a prayer ." "You know the outcome." "And we know it now." "I know only that the school never again will be the same." "Hi." "Eh ..." "Ben X." "I know you are not real, But I know you very well." "I would only say:" "What counts in a game, also counts here." "You can not  endgame  play Without your  healer , and that's me." "Right?" "I am worried about you." "I take the train tomorrow Arriving at 10.22." "And I know that you will be there." "You have never missed an appointment." "So, until tomorrow." "Hi, Marsman." " Hi, Benny Boy." "How are you?" "You are so tense." "We go a on them." " If you have that in that crazy head." "The  bus." "My bus." "Mybus-all ofwhichdrive away." "So beautiful among the trees." "Here we are on the bench." "Friends among themselves." "You have to relax, said Beard." "And Beard is right." "Hey." "What's that?" " What a watch." "You are spoiled." "Not so aggressive." "Not like last time." "You know what it is." " We are friends." "You know what happens then." " Quiet, Desmet." "We are friends among each other." "Jesus, you are really mad." "Relax." "Gotyourcellphone?" "Call ifthere issomething." "Yes,mama." "Benny, we are friends, eh." "True or not?" "Hey, what is that?" "ET, phone home." " A Nokia 3250." "Damn." "What do you mean?" "You cannot talk, How can you phone?" "What would he do with it?" " SMS to his mother." "SMS?" "Look." "Here, you must look." "An MMS ..." "Who's that?" "Frankenstein has a baby." " Scarlite." "Shes called Scarlite." " Let's see." "He has a girlfriend." "Hey, which looks not bad." " Definitely not." "What counts in a game, also counts here." "You can not  endgame  play Without your  healer ..." "Your  healer?" "ls it your  healer?" "Dealer." " Incredibly." "I take the train tomorrow Arriving 10.22." "Tomorrow at 10.22 hours, At the station on the platform." "We will also, Desmet eh?" "We have to see this." "Our best friend has a date." "We must see this." "True or not?" "Telephone, phone, Benny." "They call him too." "It's Mommy." "Mommy." "Hi, Mommy." "I am in the park with my friends." "Speak your message after the beep." "Hey, Mommy." "Oops, voicemail." "Ben, lets hear everything." "If you do not suffer from that gestalk?" "Do you not boring, Benny Boy?" "Is that not annoying, Always that gezeik your ma?" "Will I keep your phone but, Benny Boy?" "What do you think?" "Ho, ho." "With a crucifix stillet." " You are really crazy." "Hè, Benny and telephone." "It's Mommy." "Shouldnt you pick up?" "It is Mommy, you will recall." "Well?" "Come on, Ben." "Call back." "Benny Boy." "You are a damn marsman." "We can no longer take this." "And then to remember that we Had a gift for you." "That we just Our best friends." "It is a small pill, But 't have a big impact." "That is why they call Superman." "Open your mouth." "There is a smiley for people like you who can not laugh." "Pull?" "A little water to flush." "And then you feel just Superman." "So." "And swallow." "The first one is free Because you are our friend." "Next time you pay." "It will be good for you." "Really." "Not so aggressive next time." "Here." "Then you know what time 't as you again Going to click against that thick." "This is not true." "Godammit." "This is not true." "Please, please." "Mama, what is that?" "Nothing, son." "Nothing." "Come on, we are going to find your brother." "Goddammit." "Damn." "Goddammit." "Goddam  mit." "Where are you?" "Ben ..." "Feel it." "Feel it, Ben." "You must learn to feel good You learn to feel good." "What is it, boy?" "What happened?" "Is it?" "Do you see yourself." "Is it?" "What has happened to you?" "It is a good boy, but come." "It is nothing, mama." "People say That always:" "It's nothing." "I am healed." "Really, cured." "Completely healed." "It is good, boy." " Your big brother is Superman." "Calm, Ben." "We go home." "Thats enough." "There is water out of your eyes, mama." "There is really water from your eyes, But I know that is salt and wet." "Salt and wet." "People say that I do not get feelings because I do not get it ..." "But I could." "I know ..." "Do you remember when I was little I always ..." "Back the tears trying to stop." "This was simply because I did not want you sad." "It is, mama." "People say Always thats it, and then ask them:" "Is it?" "And then they say:" "Yes, yes." "Yes, it's good." "It is good." "Its going forward." "Its going forward." "It is good, you say." "Really, it does." "But I am not crazy." " No." "I am just a bit difficult." "Yes, difficult, which I am." "But I am used to train, mama." "Really, I am training." "I am broken." "But I am reborn, As in a video game." "There will also give a new life." " Come on, son." "We'll go home." "Come on." "Andnowit is workedout ..." "Iwas." "Eyesopenagain." "Head  closed again." "What's that, Ben?" "Why did you not tell me that?" "Thencamethetruth." "The  zwaarheid." "The raarheid ." "Who has done this?" "Say, Ben." "Everythingcanbe destroyedsosoon really." "Everythingcanbe destroyedsosoon ." "WhycouldInot alsodestroy?" "Stop, Ben." "Stop." "Jonas, go." "Here." "Jonas ..." "AndwhenIsaw thatdick ,that zero  Thereagain." "AndI wentto tacklehim ." "Ihadalot ofthought." "Thefallof thenight." "Gototheend ofthepain." "What  blood can be nice ." "Andevenlater..." "Was myfather." "Ben, Ben, son." "MyDad." "Heneverknowwhatheshouldsay." "So i usually know how he feels." "Shewasalsocoming." "Sabine,hisgirlfriend, Ashesaid." "Theyalwaysaskedwhetherwith me..." "Went." "Is it?" "For example, which is no more." " No, Sabine." "For example, that no longer exists, no." "Yet it will be." "It will still need, Sabine." "It is not the first time And 't will not be the last." "Come, Sabine." "It is good." "It is good." "Care for him." "Theendgame." "The  end, the end, the end, the end." "Theendgame." "Inlessthanthirteen,Iwillkillyou." "Even  42 down." "Thenyouwillbethere." "Thenyouare ready." "Even  42 down." "Anddeathis life." "Youcannotplayendgame Withoutyourhealer,and that'sme." "Itakethetraintomorrow At10.22hoursatwhichyouarrive ." "AndI knowthatyou willbe... 9.36 pm." "Ihaveto go to thestation." "I have to go to the station." "Quietly,quietly,Ben." "On the road No worries" "Will I  take your phone, Benny Boy?" "Thestation..." "The station." "10.22hoursat thestation." "Soherewe go ,eh ,Desmet?" "Wemustsee." "Theycannot." "Too late." "Andthosewhomightbethere ." "Those whodo not know HowI look,whoIam ." "ThatI amnot." "And theydid." "ButI knew..." "Iwouldfindit." "Iwouldsmellher ." "IfI wasthedog ." "There..." "Shewas ." "She was ." "Genuine." "Inreallife." "She waited  ." "For  me." "And they  sms'ed ." "Probably  to me." "Andtheneverythingwentvery quickly, Astheysay." "Buteverythingalwaysgoestoofastforme." "Shewentaway." "BecauseI wasnotthere." "Themanwhotheydonotsee." "Butwhatmy headcouldnot,  Mylegscoulddo." "Thatisthetrain." "Aspacecraftthatisthat our pickupon abarrenplanet." "Everything is  dare ." "To  do what you can not do." "Hersmellwasenough." "Thescentof aspice thatstillhadtobeinvented." "A continent   Stilltobe discovered..." "ButI couldsmellalready kilometersofoutsidethe coast." "Withherperfectnecktome  Saturdaythey'n landscapedreams." "AndI ..." "Isuggestedtome howI wouldplantmy lips..." "Asa flag." "Theflagof my liberation." "Sojustsithere Inthewarmthofherbody." "Veryeven,suddenlyperfect." "The next station is Brussels." "We arrive within ..." "Hey, how are you?" "Now  time for something." "Justsaysomething." "Butnothingis allIam saying." "Ionlyknowthe lonleyway." "Andshewentaway." "Just  gone." "AndI hadalsojustgone ." "I was really scared." "A mother feels something." "Well hundred times per second, I Thought:" "Please Do not stoms." "If he now please But nothing doms." "I remember well that he 'n once asked:" "How many reasons does a man need to commit suicide?" "I said:" "What?" "Yes, that what he said." "Are those two, five, ten?" "Since he was doing." "To know whether hes had enough." "Theendgame." "My plan." "Theplanof aword." "Murder." "Themurderofmyself." "The train ." "To  nowhere more." "Thereisan advantagetosuicide." "You dont have to seek the victimveryfar .." "Youdonotevenattempttodoit." "Thetrainhaditarranged." "Whatwashismotive?" "Alocomotive." "If you think that it goes quickly ..." "That is really not the case." "Even if you have the good fortune that you are immediately beheaded ..." "Then it still that your head have 13 to 15 seconds of consciousness." "You can imagine that youre not really have nice thoughts." "If you look at the rest of your limbs flying around." "They say You just before you die ..." "The movie of your life passes before your eyes." "And?" "Did it?" "But who has ..." " Who has been pushed?" "I of course." "Who else?" "Sufferd." "You?" "And he has no notable scars Or a birthmark or something?" "Scars?" "That was already destroyed sure?" "And did you notice something odd out?" "I dont get it, Ben." "Really." "Are you the man from the dungeon   Silancium of escaped?" "That alone with me the desert Of Windrill is extended?" "Those who fought with Bailor." "With me by the marshes Of Ondekon is drawn." "Zerdin has reports." "You are 80 level, damn." "And so is your  endgame?" "Simply stupid to jump For the train." "Was that your plan?" "Even a  exit." "A  log out." "'On the road." "No worries. ' Well, it is surely good news?" "That is to say that he is just a road And you do not have to be worried." "My son does not do that, Just go away on Saturday morning." "Hes not even allowed to leave." "And indeed, look, I have found this." "It is a perfect day to throw back your head and kiss it all goodbye 101 ways to kill yourself" "I do not know if you know, Ben ..." "In real life ..." "Dying is quite final." "You can not imagine." "You may be dying." "But not in real life." "So we should not play, Ben." "You, level 80." "Do you want away from this world, Ben?" "Now go away." "But if you want to take revenge, Ben, Revenge yourself then." "Because otherwise you just What they can say." "A loser." "Play to win, Ben." "Everything is planning." "Everything is strategy." "Keep your true of Fanta?" "I am so happy." "That you you are you." "Well, we shall him nationwide As missing." "And this?" "What are you going to do?" "I will contact With social workers." "They know that only too well." "Too bad." ""I wanted the only way," he said." "'But I dared not as good death Because I did not know what that was. "" "Was that your big plan?" "How do we do it?" "Are we poison?" "No." "Imagine that youve taken your poison and and it in your body." "Then you call 911, poison department." ""Hello?" "Baaaarf!"" "The people there always get that kind of calls." "That is really something for stupid people." "You can also hang yourself." "That is really tough." "Then your appearance is like to obtain an enormous erection." "But you yourself has shitted yourself." "That's not so cool to be found this way, eh." "You know, Ben, furthermore ..." "What they found under the fingernails someone who has hung?" "All small bits of rope and sheet." "And do you know why that is?" "That's because they desperately try to get that rope of their neck" "And that succeeds or not." "Because the seat Is too far and they can not." "Ben, you find it exciting, eh?" "Dying." "Dying." "Everything is in one time." "Ben is in one time." "Would you do not have to look one time See if there is a different solution?" "Not even one time around." "You should damn it be a little more creative, Ben." "Obligation and beauty." "You are so beautiful." "Aguildtogether,she said." "AsArchlord." "Itwasheridea." "Therearequests  Whicharetoolargefortwo." "'You must help me,' he said." "And we have helped him." "We knew that everybody would say:" "There is nothing you can do." "But that is more or less what i have done." "You may not smoke, Sabrina." " It is' Sabine '." "You should be thankful That you should not smoke." "Yes, I am incredibly grateful." "Another half-day to live longer." "That does not really believe you." "That does not really go?" "You see it yourself that this is not possible." "I cannot." "Sabine, you have absolutely nothing." "You wanted the necessarily account." "I made no difference." "But if you think its easy for us, youre wrong." "Watch." "The sea." "The end of the world." "And you know what they say, eh Ben?" "Each end is a beginning." "Does someone want something to eat?" "Ben?" "Sabine?" " No, please do not." "Dont you feel good, Sabine?" " Not really, no." "Ben, are you sure?" "Is this what you want?" "Good." "Ben ..." "I would ..." "Ihaveme ..." "Committed." "Everythingisthought." "Andforthinking." "Everythingiswillpower." "Everything is  dare ." "Eventually  still do  Whatyoucannotdo." "Ifyoudieina game , Youarejustgone." "Andyouhavetogive your ownbody Backtosearching." "Theonlythingtheytook from me, Wasa tape." "AndI ..." "Iwas gone." "Theseareparticularlypoignantimages Whoremindus ..." "ThateveryweekayoungFlemish takeshislife." "Accordingtorecentstudies,10percent ofallFlemishyouth..." "Everindicateasuicidethought." "Averyfrighteningfigure." "Sportthen." "At thetournament..." "Dear attendees." "Dear family ..." "Ladies and gentlemen ..." "Ladies and gentlemen, Girls and boys." "We are meeting here this afternoon To say farewell to ..." "Of a very special young man." "Who we miss And very tragically ... ..has died." "Ben has never been easy." "With the condition that he had - It has made his life difficult." "Perhaps we realize now, Too late then ... that he struggled with this disability, We will say." "And that this was worse than we can think." "Because there is never a real contact." "And now even more will be." "We can today only Accept ..." "That some things simply too heavy to bear." "Therefore family ..." "Hello." "Thank you for coming." "I also died, As they say." "dead to myself." "Best to-people and fellows ..." "My fight has stopped." "At the end of your life you see the movie of your life as well, they say." "Here are a few scenes Which you may find interesting." "Ben, come on." "Now." "The endgame ." "Creativedeath,theycalledit." "Suicide  without the murder." "Dying without  a way to go  Orleavewithoutdeath." "Ihaveeverythingtolearn." "But the main   Iwasforgotten." "Learninglie." "Faking." "There was a death first." "Otherwise you were probably not show up." "For a boy Simply bullied." "And at a certain point, you can not Continue to cry out and ask ..." "Mama, as evil." "And even 's questions whether now please Anything can happen." "That finally would stop." "That they would finally stop bullying my son." "And his life as ..." "Sorry, but it was really true." "His life as impossible." "His autism is his problem, But for him it's no problem." "They are the others." "That is the problem." "Others." "They have to learn my small Alone casting." "Ben simply wanted to go." "Now he's gone." "And fortunately he was still alive." "He lives." "In his own world, perhaps, But he still lives." "He still lives." "His life." "Let it happen, Ben." "Do not be afraid." "If you want to feel good, You have to learn to feel good." "Caress him." "Ihaveneverbeenhappy." "ButI haveneverbeenso Happy." "Nice, eh." "Animals do not have to talk." "Are you not allowed to mount?" "Held on socks." "There is always something ..." "People see A horse and want out." "But should we not ask these animals?" "Dont you think?" "Because if you can choose to only ..." "Oh yes ..."