"Evening silence everywhere" "Alone at the river's edge, the nightingale" "Gently sings his sad melody" "In the valley" "Pet-a-cake, pet-a-cake" "I'll fuck you, Miss" "Pet-a-cake, pet-a-cake" "It's your hole" "I dunno, all the cold between damp sheets." "And the sheets are always damp." "Only Oscar could dry them." "Oscar worked wonders, but he lied to me." "A healthy lie's like dew on Judgement Day." "What would truth be without lies?" "Lies themselves!" "Sorry, I'm in a hurry." "My nerves!" "You understand... my boss... the rich Jew, most of you know him already..." "You should have a head like this." "He wants, and in half an hour," "Is there some method in this madness?" "one with big breast, ... none of your tits, he said" "As if it is a mother, that he hits in the face in his thoughts ... and licks those big boobs." "When you have money, madness is not long in coming" "That's what I always say to console myself." "Excuse me will you?" "We'll carry on our chat another time." "When no one sings, silence reigns." "Except when you gabble." "Don't start arguing." "It always makes me so sad." "The world will unveil itself for your sake." "But you are right." "What's the use?" "Plenty of use!" "That guy can't spoil my appetite at least." "Unless hunger devours itself like thoughts do." "It's dark." "And my head's in a whirl." "Hear the one about the laughing Chinese?" "No!" "Neither have I." "But it's bound to exist." "I'm sure." "Everything exists." "The world is small." "And thoughts, the numberless ones we think, almost make ... it lose its balance." "One fine day... it's suddenly going to start trembling and will collapse." "And those thoughts, lovely ones and ugly ones.." "will be nothing." "They'll be nothing at all." "As senseless as they are now." "You are nasty, Lily." "You mock me and deep within you you triumph over me." "You want to conquer." "And your victory gives you the warmth you need... while your almighty power freezes me." "Do not think." "Thoughts kill pleasure." "I am afraid." "I've always been afraid of women." "I don't think I'll ever touch one." "Then the searing ray cannot scorch me." "But this thought indicts itself as a lie... for... in my dreams, death... will come if no woman touches me." "These two thoughts fight it out." "Both lead to death." "I choose death through woman..." "this is what passed through my mind... and so I decided to sacrifice myself to the executioner... to woman." "I'll take the red head, the blonde is like glass, she's brittle... and I'll cut myself." "And I can't stand blood." "It is cold." "And Raoul needs money." "Love?" "Love?" "Not love!" "Five marks, ten?" "Hate!" "Hate, good!" "Better than love." "Love not good." "Much love, much disease." "Fuck off, bastard, stinking dog... slimy cur, pox-ridden get, you fucking man" "Well?" "Don't beat me up!" "Who's beating you?" "Beating means love." "So who's going to beat you?" "You love me, so..." "So I beat you if I love you." "But I can't love you all day and all night." "How much?" "I see!" "Still nothing." "The third time this week." "It was cold, Raoul." "I practically walked my legs off." "I did exercises, I practised deep breathing.." "I ended up praying." "For hours." "Not a soul came." "What now?" "What's it make me look like?" "In front of the other guys who are successes?" "Can I have a beer with a clear conscience?" "The others will guess:" "Here's a guy who's a born failure." "I'm awfully sorry." "What's you being sorry to me?" "It's awful, dying like this in humbleness." "Give me liberty, Lily, and liberty means money." "It's Saturday and the banks are shut." "The bookies are waiting." "I gotta do what I gotta do." "On the job fast!" "Get results!" "Get moving!" "It's cold, Raoul." "My knees are trembling." "I've been coughing for days." "The cough makes me afraid." "I wanted to see the doctor, but I had no money." "I won't have any haggling." "I'll wait two hours, then I'll come after you." "I could ask Miss Violet or Fatty." "But in this cold!" "You understand?" "Borrowed money's unlucky, as you well know." "You chatter while time flies, your time's running out" "You're right." "You are good... and you don't beat me too much And you forgive my sins." "But the cold... it goes right through me" "I'll have to pawn my gold teeth." "Who can I turn for help?" "The despise you, you're too skinny." "You should eat, you're paid by weight." "You hear?" "I hear you." "When you speak, I listen." "Even when you sleep I try to fathom your breathing." "You know me so little?" "I know you." "The parts I know don't frighten me." "But those dark thoughts, the unknown feelings... how can someone like me understand them?" "That frightens me a lot." "And without fear you cannot live." "It keeps you warm, fear's what keeps you alive." "When you're not afraid, you act crafty, you're bone idle." "And dead people, Lily, don't cry." "Now go!" "Don't leave the man in the lurch who's there when you need him." "Go and get fucked, my girl." "Remember your French letters and the time I allotted." "And be fair!" "Men are human beings, too." "Well?" "He wouldn't stand for it?" "He asked me to have another try." "He has the right to insist." "That's love, that's the way it is." "Rights and impotence, where you look for them and find them!" "Hello, handsome!" "You can have it bareback, love." "It's juicy, believe me." "The right name for despair would be capital." "Or they break your head or your face." "Things are what they are, most of them say... and it's good that way." "And their despair is cheap." "Goods for sale." "They trade in anything." "In suspenders and the soul that is not their own." "An hour and a half to go, and then he'll beat me... as he loves me." "And I keep thinking if I'd learnt to enjoy pain..." "I'd enjoy the blows and love would be love, which it isn't." "I'll lend you my fur, dearie You're cold." "He asks me:" "Was his cock big or small?" "Was he at it for long... or did he come right away?" "Did he whimper?" "He wants to know, wants their names." "I tell him I've forgotten." "Then everything shatters and the star wobble in the sky." "And I learn to get fucked with a clear mind... with eyes and ears open." "What's he get from it?" "Does he toss off in the toilet and become another man?" "No one's like he is." "Everyone's different." "The town grows larger every day." "Human beings become like little dots." "It's too cold." "Married men stay at home." "They're telling their kids tales... of witches and wicked fairies." "They cleaned out "The Mexican Sun"." "Someone committed an armed robbery on a bank." "It's all cut and dried." "And Gustav?" "I have nothing definite." "Just rumours." "You know the way." "Whispers are going round town, making people scared or trying to." "There are methods of killing." "I can't stop coughing." "I hadn't enough money to see a doctor this week." "I console myself with next week and hope it will not suffice again." "What could he tell me?" "You're in good health... and it's just a waste of money." "And if I have to die, I don't want to know." "People make jokes of things." "That's no good." "Life is too short for jokes." "D'you know the goose that lays the golden eggs?" "There must be some." "Unfortunately, I've never come acreoss one." "It'ss too bad." "I keep on looking and never find one." "It's all so strenuous." "The goose that lays the golden eggs, my father says... that's what capital is." "How to find capital?" "Houses, streets, that's it." "I tell myself." "The result is I just manage to get by." "On Saturdays I buy two women." "One of you stays out in the cold." "That's how it is, and I couldn't care less." "Happiness is not always funny." "That's Lily Brest, boss." "She's always feeling the cold." "Towns are cold places." "It's normal for people to freeze there." "Why build towns like that?" "If he doesn't stop laughing, I'll kick him out." "Stop laughing, you gnome!" "If a Christian laughs, a rich Jew can send him to hell." "I'm not a Jew like all the others." "Anyone who doesn't know..." "The Little Prince, Madam." "I'll leave him all I have if he behaves." "Strictly between us two... the thought of death often makes me smile." "What else can one do?" "Behaving yoursef's no shame." "Of course, behaving yourself is no shame." "And that dwarf, that monster... that gnome..." "I feed him when I'm in a good humour, when business is good." "I can't complain." "Give her a handkerchief to wipe the snot off her gob." "He builds houses, you know, and pulls old ones down." "That makes him rich." "And disturbing." "We mustn't forget that." "However he's not happy, which makes him easier to bear." "What does he know?" "How could he know?" "He knows nothing, boss." "But chatterers do chatter." "Who listens to dwarves?" "Who knows?" "You never know who confides in them." "Luckily there aren't many of them." "There are always too many like you." "He keeps saying so, but never means it." "The fat whore was a flop." "She wasn't worth the money." "But..." "who is?" "He wouldn't even touch her." "That's saying something." "He's potent, he says, yet he wouldn't have any." "She thinks my skull's empty, because I need a whore." "What does it signify?" "A whore needs a man to pay her." "A man needs a whore." "It's just plain, honest business." "Did you ask Madam if she has a short time for a rich Jew?" "I imagined so, even if I'm circumcised." "It's more hygienic." "Tell her, if she doesn't know from experience." "He's repulsive, girlie, but he pays well." "And his virility is legendary." "Nothing to worry about." "Beat it, scum!" "Slide into your beds and flog your foreskins." "Clear the decks!" "Am I a Jew who must take vengeance in little folk?" "That's the way, and it's okay." "And rest, Madam, is exceptionally satisfying." "No need to answer." "Thanks!" "I'm tired of lying talk that wastes time we could both... better employ for ourselves." "What a delightful sight, this town." "engaged in self-destruction!" "Come!" "You won't lose by being consumptive." "Ladybird, ladybird, fly away home" "Daddy's gone to war" "Mammy too, I'll see no more" "Fly away home" "D'you know, sometimes I'm afraid." "How would you know?" "Business is good, too good." "Retribution must come." "But this retribution strikes timid me." "Me alone" "From me, not to me." "No freedom, no desire." "You are beautiful, it seems to me." "No matter!" "Be whatever you like." "For whom was beauty ever enough?" "I buy up old houses." "I demolish them, build new ones that sell well." "The town protects me." "It has to." "Furthermore I am a Jew." "The police chief is my friend, so-called." "The mayor invites me." "And I can count on the municipal councillors." "Nobody's happy closing one eye... to things, but the plans existed before I ever came here." "I have to be callous whether children cry... or whether old folks and sick people suffer." "I remeain deaf to cries of rage." "What can I do?" "The get sick from bad conscience?" "I believe in God... but as for justice within these walls?" "Must my soul take into account... other people's decisions that I carry out, for the profit..." "I need to pay for what I need." "Need, need!" "Strange." "When you repeat a word often it loses even its fortuitous sense." "The town needs... an unscrupulous businessman to allow it to change." "And it must protect him." "Is it fear already... when one wonders whether one is protected... before danger signals appear?" "The fear that the leg dies." "I smoke too much and I read these awful things almost every day." "Sorry, my hour is up... by three minutes." "That'll cost me a pretty penny." "Look!" "..." "Raoul, money!" "You can gamblke now, can mix with the others." "No one's above you." "You're the greatest." "A bagful?" "Is it true?" "A bag, in this cold?" "What did you do for it?" "Open your trap, you whore!" "What did you do for the money." "You're hurting me." "You are breaking my arm." "What did you do for it?" "A bagful in this weather?" "Did you lick his arse, whore?" "Speak, you bitch!" "Tell me to my face before I kill you." "I made love." "Made love to him?" "You're the most sickening whore I know." "What was he?" "A millionaire's son?" "A tennis player?" "I don't want this money." "I spit on it." "He's a Jew." "A fat ugly Jew." "Not one of those people you hate." "He's not a tennis player." "Just a Jew." "A Jew?" "What did he do with you?" "Did he beat you or kick you?" "Or what else was worth so much money?" "Just made love." "Is his cock so big that he pays so much?" "Did he diembowel your cunt?" "Did he widen your hole?" "Did you squeal with pleasure?" "You liked it, did you?" "He has a big prick." "How big?" "Eight inches, maybe more." "Maybe more!" "Filthy whore, what else?" "He's fat, very fat." "How fat?" "Like a beer bottle." "So she gets fucked by a beer bottle!" "Oh these women?" "One like the other!" "What else?" "He can go a long time, a good hour." "I heard you." "I told myself I ought to come in, see if I can help." "Nobody can help me." "But it was nice of you." "I heard someone coughing." "It was you?" "A person must look... after her health." "What are you saying and who to?" "Good God!" "We're always in the shit." "The things they ask of you... for a bit of security." "Sometimes..." "I don't know whose voice it is." "It pours out of me." "You must excuse me." "No needs to apologize." "You mean well." "Though it's maybe the worst thing, people who mean well." "I'm in a bad way." "It's the cold... the pavements." "You can go now." "I don't like prying." "Few like to." "Many are nasty." "But there's usually method in nastiness, isn't there?" "It almost always has an aim." "You won't save yourself this way." "Who wants to be saved?" "Good night." "And what for?" "What person knows anything about himself?" "When teenagers dream" "Of kisses from men" "It's even more thrilling" "Than the greatest novel" "More thrilling than the movies" "She's your daughter, Louise." "Because she didn't turn out to be your son." "People don't kill themselves." "She's alive." "Unfortunately." "I can only repeat: unfortunately." "Look at yourself." "Walking up and down like a caged tiger." "What's to calm me down?" "This house, maybe, where people... keep killing themselves?" "You're exaggerating." "Exaggeration gets you nearer to the truth of things." "You're bluffing." "Okay!" "It's love." "Someone's jilted her." "At her age, you don't get jilted." "13 years old, that's a bit too much." "Eat up!" "With a mad daughter around?" "She is sick." "It's the same thing." "You'd sell yourself to crack a joke" "I already sell myself for less that that." "That's true." "If it's too little for you..." "I won't stand in your way." "But take your daughter." "If you forget her." "I'll pitch her out of the window" "You're a brute, you go from one extreme to the other." "She masturbated when she was two." "That's normal." "God knows, I didn't masturbate at that age." "You developed late." "Long ago..." "I got used to being a laughing stock on this earth." "You ought to incant... those rolling phrases." "Thank God I have my nights." "Don't forget your sandwich." "Lend me your dark lipstick." "I've mislaid mine." "Look after your things better." "We're running short of money." "Good God!" "Who on earth could stand this continual whining?" "Nobody's whining, I'm just talking." "You despise me." "Today I can tell you." "You tell me every day." "And still I don't despise you." "But who jilted her?" "A Yougoslav, I think." "A foreigner at any rate." "Get that!" "A Yugoslav daring to jilt my daughter." "He didn't love her." "It must be that." "Because she doesn't eat, either." "She's too thin." "But it's also your fault for spoiling her." "If it makes things easier, I don't mind taking the blame.." "and asking God's forgiveness." "You're sneering." "That's not becoming in a mother." "Be a good soul and get me a pair of nylons from the bedroom." "The ones with seams." "They're on the left." "Or in the dressing table." "I hid them." "Because I afraid of your daughter." "She steals." "I have to tell you." "Lily doesn't steal, she borrows" "And makes ladders in them." "That's worse, it's... the word escapes me." "No matter what escaped you, the word was wrong, my love." "Thank you." "So what?" "How's that?" "You're gorgeous, honestly." "Same as always." "Really?" "Honestly, sweet!" "You know very well I don't lie." "She asleep?" "Yes, she's asleep." "Can't I have a look?" "No." "Some other time, perhaps." "Life's not that easy." "You lost everything, did you?" "Easy come, easy go, with money." "That's all right then." "The horses wouldn't run the way I forecast." "That's destiny." "That's not destiny." "It's bloody stupid." "You don't understand." "But it doesn't matter." "Thanks!" "Don't you feel well?" "How d'you mean?" "You're so different today." "So... snooty." "Unfortunately." "I'm not angry with you." "I can hardly breathe." "You keep whining." "That's all you can do." "I'm not whining, that's not my way." "I'm stating a fact." "Anyone might think you were someone with sense." "They'd be mistaken, of course." "Come, let me fondle you." "You see how nice that is." "You're a good girl, aren't you?" "Sorry... to disturb you." "You are, but it makes no matter." "We are not in a hurry." "It's about the sugar..." "You promised to lend me some, Lily." "Because it's Saturday, you know." "What perfect timing!" "Come in, Emmy." "I'll get you your sugar." "Does Miss Brest live here?" "I do!" "It says "Brest" on the door." "Well, why ask?" "Yes, it was unnecessary." "Of course." "You know... it's a way I have." "I like expressing myself rather tortuously." "It was eays to learn and the effect is huge." "Besides, my boss, the rich Jew, appreciates these..." "Who?" "The rich Jew." "You must have heard of him." "Get out!" "Don't take it so tragically." "Just a passing fancy!" "Some people can indulge in them." "Is it true his cock... is as long and thick as a bottle." "I couldn't really say." "I've only seen it once... when he was pissing." "What I saw didn't really impress me." "Not really." "But cocks can achieve miracles." "Miss Brest is not in by any chance?" "Not by any chance, but she is here." "I hate to be rude, but I would like to see her." "Does he want more..." "He's rather reclusive." "Even his intimates rarely know what he has in mind." "Rather reclusive." "It's you." "I'm not..." "I'm not ready at all." "That doesn't matter." "He expects you as you are." "Come on!" "I wanted to see Miss Brest and offer her my apologies." "She's with the Jew who pays her." "I already heard the fellow had cast his eye on her." "That's why I'm here I did her an injustice." "I couldn't possibly guess... that she'd be on the gravy train so suddenly." "Gravy train?" "Nothing surer." "This is considered a high-class address in good circles since today." "You don't say" "I'm not very interested in women." "I don't mind admitting it..." "But we do what we can." "You mean you're a queer." "I have free choice." "On the one hand, I do what I like, on the other, I do what I can to avoid gossip." "My father has business connection to the Jew, and the Jew to him." "They both have to jump over their own shadows." "I've never tried." "Jumping?" "No, what turns you on." "You only have to try." "Would you mind... helping me... to try?" "I'm not so choosy." "And life is shorter than it should be." "If you think" "I'm all worn out" "That times are hard" "Do not worry, it'll pass" "That's why I say it takes more" "To kill the world off" "Even if you find it grey" "Tomorrow, you'll see things" "Blue as the sky" "Even when all is upside down" "Even when your head spins" "It's not the end of the world The world is still needed" "Your father, isn't he?" "It was not difficult to find out." "On occasion he was your customer, wasn't he?" "Stay here!" "Remain seated, I'm not prude." "It lends you a certain morbid charm." "You should make money out of it." "You know, I make money out of everything." "Down to a fart!" "Take my advice!" "I walk in this town... as if it weren't chaotic, as desolate as the moon... as if it were loyal... upright." "And I laugh... till my jaws ache." "I'll introduce your father." "Be calm!" "May I introduce..." "Müller..." "Miss Brest Two very nice people." "You were terrific today." "Really?" "Thank you." "Some days one makes an effort." "True enough, true." "And one knows why, doesn't one?" "Yes... one knows why." "That's how it's written." "How's your good wife?" "..." "Still going strong?" "She's still reading Lenin and Marx, same as before." "One could find worse intellectual fare, as you know." "As I know." "One lives and learns." "And new experiences replace the old ones." "Enemies become friends when need be." "Days fritter away and make way for others." "Those that know how to help themselves, help themselves." "And so on." "Am I right?" "As always." "Thank you." "You may go." "And have a drink... on my bill!" "Or two." "That's allowed." "Goodbye." "Goodbye." "Good evening, Madam." "Charming fellow." "One almost forgets his name is Müller." "Instead of enjoying yourself, basking in the sun... you withdraw into your shell and look for what you'll never find." "I'm scared, Lily." "I'm all of a tremble." "What's scaring you?" "What's making you tremble?" "The dimension of things." "You open bank accounts, you buy houses, you smash up cars... without batting an eyelid." "A yare ago we didn't have the money to pay the grocer." "Things are getting too big for me to grasp" "You don't love me any more." "I've stopped loving you." "I loved you in the dirt." "My feelings don't match up to luxury." "That's paradoxical." "Perhaps." "What makes them heap riches on you?" "What have you got that they need?" "You mustn't ask questions.." "the answers might be terrible" "I'll pack my bag and will go into town... which swallows me up like she has done to many others before." "There are rumours..." "There always are." "It seems you've changed." "You're not what you used to be." "What do you think?" "I don't think anything." "I love." "Yes, you love me." "It hurts me, but there's nothing I can do about it." "I give you money." "You shall not have tormented yourself in vain." "I needed you so much." "All I had were you and your blows... that wakened me." "Don't be sad, Lily." "All things come to an end, that's life." "Do you love him?" "Love?" "What do you want me to tell you?" "Never the truth, that's right." "The truth hurts." "Lies help to survive." "I'll never forget you, my girl." "Your skinny arms, your frightened eyes." "But I can't help it." "Then there's this fear of things I can't get into my head." "There's this knocking at my temples." "The roar of blood fills my ears." "You must go..." "I understand." "Who knows the weight of days" "You have borne?" "Who knows the torments of chico?" "Who knows the power of shadows" "In the blue tropical night?" "Who knows the favour and jealousy of stars?" "Play for me once more, Habanero." "Your song is dear to me" "There's bugs" "Swarms of little black bugs" "The town groans, it whines and trembles." "The bugs become a plague." "A plague until the town has learned... to aprreciate these bugs." "I rack my brains, wear out my nerves, I'm dying." "At night..." "I wake up with death before my eyes, my throat strangled." "These are visions, my intelligence says, mere myths... of our father's pre-history." "And it hurts my left side." "Is it my heart, I wonder..." "or my spleen?" "It's the Jew's fault for making us guilty, because he's there." "Once again I rub my hands." "What good fortune nobody knows my name!" "He's always one step ahead... leaving to others the leftovers." "The bad investments that turn out to be loss making." "Your time's up, something within me murmurs." "And for the 100th time I clutch my heart, cursing... this system which makes me sick, wounding wherever it strikes." "Can one run away with real estate in one's luggage?" "They tie you down with siren song, you and your houses... simply to torment and hurt you." "And there's one who laughs up his sleeve... and has already bought you before you even thought of selling." "And the banks and powerful men of this town are on his side." "So you give up the fight... but still cling to the property... that causes you fear." "Doctors lie to you... they're all accomplices." "They keep you alive... till you have suffered enough... and the gods have masturbated their fill at the sight... of your sufferings." "They hate you... and yet they need you for their perverted pleasures." "These gods... are the witches and fairies... of children's nightmares... invented to prepare us for this life... which kills." "The Jew... knows his stuff." "Fear seems unknown to him." "Death cannot frighten him." "Him... who is not alive." "I know, my time is up." "I have transferred your fee." "Thank you very much." "I'm gradually giving up business." "Night imprisons me with its sweet vices... created by the great town." "The metropolis" "Business is slipping from his grasp." "He's even started lying to himself." "He has learnt the art of repartee, that dwarf." "But he's not really convincing." "We give him too much liberty." "He fritters himself away." "Because he's so small" "But he won't grow up." "Müller... at home wherever the town takes refuge in perversion." "Life doesn't leave one much choice." "The town demands its tribute." "Which some people are well content to pay." "I know what I'm talking about." "Come to the little pavilion" "To a secret rendezvous" "That little pavilion" "It will not betray one word" "Oh, no!" "Night enfolds us in its veils" "Take the gifts of love" "Come to the little pavilion" "For a rendezvous so sweet" "Oh, come!" "Men mustn't kiss each other here, my good man!" "Our father which art in heaven Hallowed be Thy name" "Thy kingdome come Thy will be done" "On earth as in heaven" "Forgive us our trespasses And leave us not into temptation" "But deliver us from evil" "For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory for ever and ever Amen" "Sailor have a homeland" "And their homeland is the ocean" "Sailors come to their homeland" "Their homeland is the Reeperbahn" "But when they're with their girl friends" "The great longing seizes them" "For their real homeland" "Remains the ocean and always will be" "Thus the town has recourse to conciliatory gestures." "Everything levels out, returns to order." "It's a game with the rules decided in advance." "The winner's chosen before the game begins." "So what!" "The unexpected cannot draw anyone out of his shell." "We have mis-planned for decades to come." "The one who has the lyrics sings the tune... the silent roles frighten the kids." "The man who wants his wages every Friday builds his houses... with his own hands." "Not worth to be talked about." "Ugly persons despise the sweat on beauty's forehead." "Contempt brings in money and guarantees sound sleep without bad conscience." "It's your role, you learnt it without respecting your cues." "Now you're losing yourself in clap. trap and making no impression." "I am floundering in culture... and ambience." "I start to forget the value of money." "I had a goal." "It has now become relative." "But the show goes on." "I started it off..." "let it roll!" "But don't forget us, the ones who are at your command... to carry out any worthwile ideas." "Your salary." "Madam, we have paid it into your account." "You will be satisfied." "Goodnight." "Through my soul" "Passes a far melody" "Go, spring song" "Enter my soul, sweet sound" "Come to the house" "Surrounded by flowering violets" "If you see a rose" "Greet it from me" "How is he?" "He'll live." "Does he want to?" "Only he who can see into men's souls knows." "Father?" "Yes?" "Why is the Jew using me?" "To fight you?" "He raises you to degree to degrade me." "The idea is simple." "Did you hurt him all that much?" "He believes I'm responsible for his parents deaths." "Is it true?" "I never bothered about the individuals that I killed." "I wasn't an individualist I am a technocrat." "But I may well have murdered his parents." "I wish I had." "So I did." "You bear the burden... and you're glad." "Murderimg Jews is no burden when you have my convictions." "Don't humiliations affect you?" "They're not really aimed at me." "What kind of state is this to allow what happens daily?" "Times have changed." "Not really." "Basically all has stayed the same and is in order." "I can only wait." "So I'm waiting for my rights to be vindicated." "You've lots of time, father." "Centuries, Lily." "We will not go under and every pain inflicted on us... makes us stronger and freer." "Fascism will conquer." "Come back home." "It's so silent without you." "I'll come." "This is your daughter." "Remember?" "She's got skinny." "She was always skinny, but she's well." "She is rich." "It makes it easier to hate her." "Why does Mother detest her child?" "Because you're young and lovely and have strong legs." "Hers have given way." "Basically, she hates herself." "You talk, talk and think you know." "You invent images out of touch with reality." "Yet I don't give in, I struggle for our happiness." "We will not be submerged by conditions... made by others to make us suffer." "The town doesn't guarantee equal chances nowadays." "It never did." "But nowadays there are terrible differences." "Should I forgo my chance?" "Who would?" "Any of us." "Nobody would make other women feel inferior the way you do." "I take my chance where I can." "Yes, but what arrogance and grace!" "The grace of contempt!" "I don't despise anyone anymore." "I've even stopped despising men." "That's it." "She no longer despises men." "It's our rule to despise men who pay for love." "Where there is contempt there is no love." "Only where there is contempt does love have rights." "The world would then be full of love Why isn't it?" "Because there's always someone thinking of himself and not of the whole." "What is this "whole"?" "The power within me is my "whole"." "The general "whole" is false." "We're getting bogged down in argument, whereas our mind's made up." "I take nothing away from anybody." "I live for myself and search for a solution in myself." "You rob us of our happy feeling." "You show us limits..." "That we wouldn't even be aware of but for you." "You're working against your sex." "You've become man's brother, the enemy of your sisters." "We no longer have anything in common." "You've joined the other side." "You're now on your own." "Cope with it." "Oh, let me be!" "Oh, let me die!" "This is not a life worth living, Lord!" "You vomit and the you feel better." "But us?" "We hate each other and fight instead of being united." "It is you who wanted all this, Lord?" "Giving Mankind knowledge he is unable to master." "We burn while you warm your athritic fingers before us." "What do I have to bear?" "All the pains and unquenchable desires of many." "What am I?" "Your represantative on earth?" "An object giving life to the city?" "Just an object, not a human being?" "A thing into which is dicharged fruitless semen... and grief and pain?" "And the town turns us into living corpses." "Into monsters with no chamber of horrors." "With B-levels to live in, with streets that poison us." "Where we still can be poisoned." "With pains that make us afraid though we live too well." "At our pleasure there gnaws the tooth of remorse" "Only the murderers escape for their life at least has a meaning." "They have done their best." "I see no sense in bearing what suffocates me... without cutting off all air." "I kiss the dead..." "I inhale the stench of those long since dead" "Corruption becomes my prayer book, loathing my desire." "And if I sang songs defying the abyss..." "I would be a ghoul devouring the brains of living apes." "And if I do not..." "I shall be devoured myself." "We must be as people want us... or all is lost, reduced to nothing." "I no longer want to live this life, Lord!" "I shall sacrifice myself... to the city... which requires victims... to look alive." "And above to save myself from death in life... which makes me like those who have forgotten what life is." "Those who have become... dulled and dumb, who think themselves happy... and forget they really do not exist." "Those who lack teeth to survive in the jungle." "I abdicate, Lord..." "I'm clearing out." "I'll find someone to make me happy." "You're very lonely." "It's not that." "But you are." "Yes, I am lonely." "You see, we all are." "Kill me!" "I have no reason to kill." "There are plenty of reasons." "Maybe." "But I'm an entertainer." "That's strenuous enough." "That's all." "Please stay." "I'm in a hurry." "We all are." "What do you want?" "To die." "My time's too precious for such luxury." "Goodbye!" "You are possessed by yourself." "Wanting death is so much easier than mastering life." "You won't prevent me." "Who could?" "I love your husband." "That's your business." "Don't you despise us?" "I haven't had the strength to despise anyone for ages." "You have done me good." "I felt you needed me." "Here I am." "I'm a failure." "Don't say a word." "I renounce my role." "It isn't satisfying." "You're played out." "You've already fulfilled your function." "I know." "I have forgiven you." "You have no right to forgive me." "I know my rights." "I have no right to forgive, no right to demand." "I have no rights at all." "That is my chance, powerlessness." "It's my chance." "We never listened to music together" "Do you remember?" "I know." "Music might have created illusions." "And who needs illusions?" "All of us." "We need songs that sing of love." "You are desperate." "But that despair isn't worth anything." "But nobody deals in that sort of despair." "I'm not in it for business." "You cannot hurt me." "You know best." "I could forgive you if I wanted to." "Yes... but I can do without it." "You can't help me." "Are you so sure?" "No." "Maybe you're right and I need you just once more." "Anything definite in mind?" "I want to die." "It's the best way out." "I agree with you." "But I haven't the strength." "How could you?" "Got any plans?" "No, I'm on my own." "And how should this head still make plans?" "That's true!" "Well?" "Will you do it for me?" "You might even get satisfation from it..." "Besides..." "It won't take you long." "What would you suggest as a reason for doing so?" "I know too much." "But that..." "wouldn't be enough for you" "No, it wouldn't be enough." "I'll do it for you." "Thank you." "I am tired and now I go to rest." "We both know that it is little." "But it's the only thing." "It's practically longing." "Who gets his longing satisfied?" "Don't keep me waiting." "Thank God, he's killed her." "He's disqualified himself." "He loved her." "He who loves loses all right." "In any case she lived longer than expected." "That's right." "Thus does the city devour its children." "Yes... wherever it finds them." "Any evidence?" "Plenty..." "But is it worthwhile?" "Exactly." "Let's close the case." "That's it." "Too bad." "More or less, eh?" "More or less, that's true." "Who is it too bad about?" "The victim?" "Surely not!" "You see, we're soon agreed." "Yes, you're right." "This case will peter out." ""Out" is where it belongs." "Am I right?" "Of course, you're right" "It is my duty." "That's everyone's personal decision." "That's right." "And I've decided." "Well, that's just fine." "Yes." "I know the murderer." "What murderer?" "Are we after a murderer?" "Not that I know." "We're not after any murderer." "You may not be looking for one." "But you'll find him whether you like it or not." "Leave the dead in peace!" "Do they deserve to be made such a fuss about?" "So their ears will ring in hell?" "I'm talking about the living... and in this case about me." "I'm taking over the business." "If people will listen..." "I'll soon find people to listen to me." "He sounds determined, eh?" "Yes, rather determined." "Strange, strange!" "Someone who doesn't know the city laws yet." "What'll we do?" "It's very annoying." "The rich Jew killed her." "You'll arrest him... and put him behind bars." "It's very sad." "Why does someone reply that we haven't questioned?" "Man's will is his own idea of paradise." "It's just too bad." "The things you have to do sometimes." "They make you feel fed up." "Chief of Police speaking." "There's a fellow just jumped out of the window." "Have a look, will you?" "I was damn lucky." "Feller almost fell on top of me." "Yes... somebody who was fed up with life." "Too bad!" "He was one of the keen types." "He was too keen." "That's what." "He knew things that weren't his business." "I can imagine." "What do these towns do to us?" "By the way, that monstruous dwarf can tell you where I was... when the murder took place." "A nasty business!" "We were in the West... on business at any relevant time." "That's fine, my lad." "He's a good little lad." "You've no choice when you're small." "You have to be good." "Right?" "Quite right." "This is the murderer we need... to put things right." "That's alright, my boy." "We'll fix things."