"This is professor Thompson." "Please leave a message." "Dr. Thompson, it's Melissa severn again." "It's been 10 minutes." "I don't know what to do." "Please call me back." "It's an emergency." "How long?" "Melissa, how long has she been like this?" "I don't know." "Come on, Sydney." "Come on, Sydney." "Come on." "So what's first on the list?" "Professor Thompson's class." "Is he cute?" "Who?" "Your professor." "I don't know." "He's professory." "I like professory." "Oh, yeah?" "What happened to your hot date last night?" "I hate him." "Typical." "Your dad called." "Nope." "Not even to show up on the first day of classes." "Are you nervous?" "It is my junior year." "I am a pro at this by now." "Thank you for the pep talk." "Who am I to break a start of semester tradition?" "She'd be so proud of you." "I'm not as smart as she was." "Everything in time." "Now go get 'em." "Ok." "Thank you." "Syd." "Some things never change." "Welcome, everyone, to neuro 101." "We'll begin the lecture momentarily." "Try to be on time." "Thank you for joining us." "How is requiring me to take a science course going to help me as a business major?" "You know you could have taken chem instead since you didn't take any of the prerequisites." "I could have taken chem instead, but you're not in chem to give me the answers." "That's right." "How could I forget that?" "Anyone ever hear of deja vu?" "Some neural and cognitive scientists believe that deja vu is really the neural resonance between the same persona and a different temporal universe." "Decisions-- decisions rule our life, right?" "Right?" "Yes." "Make the right one, revel in glory." "But I'm sure you've been told if you make the wrong decision, you have to live with the consequences." "Well what if I told you that could be the greatest lie of them all?" "Some scientists believe that every time you make a decision, there is a split fracture in another universe or dimension that precedes in the alternate timeline as if you made a different decision." "For instance, maybe there's an alternate universe where she realized that no matter who told you otherwise, purple hair just isn't cool." "So she died it red or black." "Point is, somewhere out there, there could be a whole alternate universe where a black-haired girl is sitting in the same class at the exact same time listening to the exact brilliant, magnificent teacher, and has an entirely different life based" "on the choice in hair color." "Yes, Sydney." "How would that incur an episode of deja vu?" "Well let's consider if there are other yous doing the exact same thing at the exact same time." "It seems those scenes would be familiar." "Hence the feeling, all caused by your own neural pathways." "That's if you believe in that sort of thing." "Well I think that's enough for today." "And we'll continue in chapter one on Wednesday." "Thank you for listening." "Was that English, because i didn't understand a word he said." "Maybe if you weren't in your pajamas, you wouldn't feel like you're in bed." "What's next?" "Speaking." "Speaking." "Hard class." "See you for dinner?" "Yeah." "Sydney." "Truth?" "A little much on the first day?" "No." "No, the idea of erasing consequences seemed to perk some interest." "I didn't know that you believed in that stuff." "Oh, no." "Some studies of mine from long ago-- a hobby really, way before my expanding career in academia." "Ah, I see." "Well, thank you." "That was cool." "Oh, and I'll be back after my last class." "You would think two years of being my research assistant would be enough." "Never." "It pays my tuition." "You can do better, you know." "Internship, maybe?" "Consider it." "Ok." "Introduction to speech and communication." "You know, we speak to each other in many ways." "And that's what we're going to cover." "We're going to cover this the entire semester how important this class is to our everyday lives." "We actually speak through actions when we're in the say-- sorry." "For instance, when we're late for class, it's rude." "The number one fear among humans is not death, dismemberment, nor disease." "It's public speaking." "Welcome to the arena, gladiators." "Who's the first victim?" "Late girl, you're up." "I'm sorry." "On what topic?" "You pick." "I have to-- ok." "Well, my topic for question and answer is about the human brain." "Many people argue that we only use a fraction of our brain." "But the truth is, actually, that we use different areas, different parts of it for different things." "So imagine what we could do if we were to coordinate them all simultaneously." "Thank you." "That was interesting." "But I thought we only used 15% of our brain." "I'm sorry." "I don't hear a question." "Why so much of the brain unused?" "It's not a given that it's not." "So you're saying that we do use 100% of our brain?" "No, of course not." "But what I'm saying is that maybe we use more of it in ways that we just don't understand yet." "I don't understand." "Of course you don't." "No, what I don't understand is what it could be used for." "When I decide to ask you a question politely, receptors in my brain send a signal to my motor functions to begin moving my mouth." "Then your diaphragm, your vocal chords kick in, producing the sound that we all know as language." "Right." "Articulating all from that one self-conscious desire to speak." "When I need to speak, I speak." "When I need to walk, I walk." "Your brain receptors create all of your functions as a human." "So what else do i need besides what" "I'm already capable of using?" "Maybe there are other things to consider." "Like what?" "Other concepts that perhaps we're not open to simply because we, as a society-- as individuals-- just simply don't understand yet." "So you're saying that's why we can't use that section of our brain?" "Yes, perhaps we just don't know how to tap into them yet." "You know, the ones we do-- what about when we're interested in someone?" "Interest, like rudeness, can come from a chemical reaction that messes with the brain." "Some causes of this could be a head injury-- or attraction." "You're so beautiful." "That's not fair." "What's your favorite color?" "Purple." "Purple?" "Thank you." "And is there anything else that I can do for you guys?" "No." "Everything was great, Lexi." "Thanks." "You're too nice." "I didn't know someone could be too nice." "We're going to have to do something about that." "What?" "I thought it would look better on that pretty wrist." "This was my mom's." "Syd, I'm so sorry." "It's ok." "That must have been really hard." "Sometimes I feel like she never even existed." "You know?" "Kind of like I made her up or something." "Hey." "You have me now." "And who knows?" "Maybe you'll be Mrs. green soon." "Well, I don't know." "Maybe this girl's poor, catholic, broken home upbringing wouldn't be a great long-term fit?" "Well that financially responsible, morally upright, unconventional upbringing of yours might not be the perfect fit for the overbearing, wealthy," "Jewish family I have." "But hey, I know who you are." "Who am I?" "Besides being a waitress hater?" "I'm not a waitress hater." "You're mine." "You were holding his hand." "I was not holding his hand." "I can't even remember it." "Because you're too drunk." "Look at you." "Wow." "Look at me." "I'm sorry, Mr. your study too much." "You need to drink more and party more." "That's what I'm doing." "No." "You put yourself in bad situations." "You're too nice and it's naive." "What bad situations?" "What?" "What are you talking about?" "I'm sorry." "At least I don't flirt with every girl that crosses my path." "Do you know how that makes me feel?" "I don't flirt." "I'm sorry." "Yeah." "You don't even realize you're doing it." "I don't flirt with my exes, Sydney." "God." "I was talking to Bobby about you." "I am always talking about you." "I'm going to go get you some water." "I don't need water." "Come here." "I'm sorry." "He wasn't even supposed to be here." "I know." "Am I forgiven?" "Yes." "My parents." "They want me move back home for six months after graduation." "Six months?" "And what about New York?" "I mean, you'll never find a job that will defer hiring you that long." "That will have to wait." "That's not fair." "How am I supposed to plan my life with you if you so whimsically change our plans?" "Do you think I want this?" "I don't know." "Syd, you can't plan for everything." "Things come up." "Things come up?" "All that matters is that I love you." "I love you, Sydney." "That's all that matters." "Everything else we can overcome." "I just want to be with you." "The more one fidgets, the slower what we perceive as time passes." "Sorry." "Do you have somewhere more important to be?" "No." "Of course not." "Are these notes from your project research?" "Just from the last five years, from my national institute of health study." "Right." "I'm sorry." "I am nervous." "My boyfriend's parents are actually in town." "I'm sure you have nothing to be concerned about." "I have never met them or even spoken to them in all this time." "A meteor flashed through space, right?" "How it framed its path is decided by gravity." "But as it flies, the only thing that can alter its trajectory is its attraction or repulsion to other objects." "It can smash into things so violently, create explosions." "It can actually lay the foundations of life or destroy them-- much like the one that did on earth, killing off all the dinosaurs." "I'm not sure I like where this is going." "My point is once celestial objects interact, no one can know why or what's going to happen." "It just happens." "So relax." "Be yourself." "And what's supposed to happen will." "You can't control everything, Sydney." "Hey, Dr. Thompson?" "Yes." "Do you really think I'm celestial?" "I'm so excited to see your parents." "They've canceled like three times." "I can't believe they're here." "Maybe I'll hear some stories of what you were like growing up." "I bet you wore diapers until you were five." "Why are you so excited to meet them?" "Because they're your family." "What's with this female obsession with future in-laws?" "I mean, they all want to have this fictional amazing relationship with them that just doesn't exist." "Excuse me?" "And gay best friends." "I mean, who came up with the idea that every girl should have a gay best friend?" "It's ridiculous." "Well whoever it was was very smart." "No." "Yeah." "No." "It's not fair to girls." "And it's not fair to gays who maybe don't want to be befriended." "Right." "Everything's going to be fine." "Ok?" "Business is good." "Thank you for asking." "That's right." "I forgot for a moment you were here for work and not to see me." "It seems we'll be back soon enough for your graduation." "You are graduating, right?" "I hope so." "Marcus is actually doing really well in his business classes." "We wouldn't expect anything less." "Hey." "Can I have a double Tequila please?" "Sure thing." "Please wait." "You're drinking?" "Syd, please try to understand." "Understand what?" "What I'm supposed to understand?" "Because you didn't look at me the whole time." "You would not even breathe in my direction." "There's some differences between how they view us." "Differences, ok." "What does that mean?" "It means I was raised Jewish, Syd." "You're catholic." "My parents always envisioned me with a traditional Jewish girl." "That's why they want me to move back home for a year." "Wow." "Ok." "I didn't realize that your parents were, what, bigots then?" "That they were judging me without getting to know me based on my religion?" "How archaic, Marcus." "Really." "I'm sorry." "Nobody told me that we were still in the fucking crusades." "Did you just say a year?" "A year?" "They told me on the phone yesterday." "And you didn't think to tell me that?" "I didn't want you to change the way you acted when you met them." "Really?" "Because that really would have changed everything, right?" "Can you please try to see it from my perspective?" "No." "There is no other perspective." "You're a liar." "I didn't lie." "Well you sure as hell didn't tell the truth either, did you?" "Syd, let's just please" "can I please get one of those?" "You got it." "Double Tequila coming right up." "Long time, no see, Syd." "I was just thinking about you." "You ok?" "What?" "Is he giving you a hard time?" "Syd, let's go." "Stop it." "Stop it." "Cheers." "I'm sorry, Syd." "Sorry, Syd." "Damn it, Marcus, wait." "Wait." "You shouldn't have worn that dress." "You love when I wear these kinds of dresses." "I should've bought you that silver one at bloomington's what the fuck does that have to do with anything?" "You're too drunk." "I'm not drunk, ok?" "You're being too dramatic, Syd." "Listen to you." "Do you even realize how much I love you?" "Do you get it?" "Because it seems like you don't fucking care." "I don't care?" "No." "Your parents say jump and you fucking jump." "You're like their little stooge." "Marcus, no." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "You're such a bitch, you know that?" "I don't want to be someone who makes me feel like shit for who or what I am." "We're done." "Hey this is Marcus." "Please leave a message." "Marcus." "What, Syd?" "Are you going to fucking talk to me?" "I made a decision." "Is this about your parents?" "No." "This is about us." "Look, couples fight all the time." "Ok?" "All the time." "We can get past this." "I'm just not happy." "You're not happy?" "Ok." "Look, I'm sorry." "I'm so sorry about what i said the other night." "I did not mean it, i swear to god." "I was just caught up in the moment and i" "Syd, it's not about what you said." "Then what the fuck is it about?" "What?" "Just look at me." "Look at me and tell me you don't love me." "What the fuck are you?" "I don't know." "I don't know." "You know what these are?" "Letters from Dean." "Informing you, I'm sure, that you're failing all your classes." "I would guess so, yeah." "Look, I know you're upset." "But you had plans long before-- long before anything ever happened." "Just get out of here and graduate." "You never have to see him again." "You never have to see any of the places you guys ever went together." "Christ, Syd, it's like you're sitting here having deja vu every single day." "You have to get over him, Syd." "It's been months." "Good job today, guys." "All right." "Hey, thanks for staying up." "See you Wednesday." "Hi, Dr." "I suppose I should be happy that you showed up at all, although most of my research assistants find the time to attend their assigned classes." "Doctor, I need to know about the neurological research you did about deja vu." "Sydney, my research on deja vu is not going to help you graduate." "You are failing." "I know." "I know." "And I just need to be inspired again." "Sometimes you just need to get on with your life." "I just" " I need to be sure of some things." "You can move on right now if you want to." "Everyone else is." "What better symbolism than graduation?" "Or you need perspective." "And your notes are the only thing that can give me that perspective." "I really need this." "You're not going to find when you're looking for in there." "Please." "Thank you." "There's better Wi-Fi at the Starbucks down the street." "Can I help you?" "Is there anywhere quiet where I could work here?" "Well our basement is empty, but it's rather dark and damp." "I wouldn't recommend it." "It's not quite enough here for you?" "No." "You're watching me." "Does that disturb you?" "Yes." "It messes with my inner peace." "One can sit by the quietest stream in the calmest forest and if there is turmoil within, there will be chaos without." "Is that from the Bible?" "No, I believe it's from lord of the rings." "What are you searching for?" "Maybe another chance, I guess." "Then you're in luck, because god always provides us with another chance." "A soul can be forgiven and healed if it chooses to move forward in life." "What if it chooses to move backwards?" "It's not in the nature of a soul to move backwards." "Like time, it only knows forwards." "How do you know i only have one soul?" "I could have many souls." "Your eternal soul is what is affected by your choices, whether they're right or wrong." "So you-- he-- doesn't believe in fixing mistakes?" "Fixing or forgiving?" "Both." "God can do that, yes." "Maybe I'm god." "I am thrilled to be here today and to recognize our graduates of the class of 2015." "So if you're going to live with me again, it would be nice if you'd remember how to communicate." "I can talk." "Wow she speaks." "No job, no degree, no graduation." "How are you going to pay the rent?" "I can carry you for a month." "I'll figure it out, ok?" "Good plan." "This is amazing." "It's not time travel." "It's not possible." "We actually use the unused sections of our brain every time we consider possible alternatives to our decisions." "It is those considerations that create ripples, fractures in other universes where those decisions, choices, are actually acted out." "And in this method, i can tap into the moment where the different choice was made and live out the alternates as if they're of a completely separate life." "15." "15." "No, I have 32 in my chemical sequence." "15 is the number of credits you need to graduate." "Can we please talk about my hypothesis?" "No." "We need to talk about you letting this go." "You have one semester left." "Finish up." "I'll help you find a job." "Ok?" "You promised you would help me." "I am helping you." "No." "Please, please." "I just need you to, please-- what is it, page 46." "I need you to look at this." "All right." "All right." "When deja vu happens, the reasoning is is that one of the similar yous in a different spatial parallel universe has done something similar to something exactly what you have done right at that moment, creating a simile of a person in its shadow." "But as light is needed for a shadow, deja vu doesn't always happen." "These parallels have to be in sync." "Right." "And what produces the sensation is when the neural pathways interact, correct?" "When the cells are doing the same thing at the exact same time, that sensation is the result." "Normally every self would be doing drastically different things." "But every so often, there's this doubling-- a random, natural coincidence." "And that coincidence specifies the deja vu if I'm able to access these parallel selves through my own brain, then I could see." "I could live out these different outcomes in my own head, right?" "I mean, that's the conclusion that I'm getting to." "If you believe all this stuff." "But Sydney, you would be living out the shadow." "In real life, you'll be a vegetable." "Sydney, this can't be done." "You need to let this go." "Time would move drastically faster in another state depending on how much you put yourself under to access the recesses of your brain." "You could become brain dead." "Let it go." "You want to time the distance between your classes." "Some professors don't allow you to be late." "Especially freshman." "And it takes up to 15 minutes to walk across campus." "So if everyone would follow me." "Dr. Thompson, this is Melissa severn again." "Please call me back." "This is an emergency." "Sydney." "Are you trying to kill yourself?" "You cannot do medical experiments on yourself." "Do you hear me?" "I saw him." "He was right in front of me." "What is she talking about?" "It worked." "That's impossible." "I was under for an hour." "It felt like five." "Sydney." "If I can control the distillation," "I can control how long I'm under for." "Listen to me." "Listen." "Sydney, Sydney, Sydney." "My research never amounted to anything." "You can't do this to yourself, do you understand me?" "You were too afraid to test it." "You know what that makes you?" "That makes you a failure." "You're not a scientist." "You are just a teacher." "Goodbye, Sydney." "Help me." "Get her to a hospital." "Sydney, breathe." "This can't be done." "You need to let this go." "Time can move drastically faster in another state depending on how much you put yourself under to access the recesses of your brain." "You could become brain dead." "Well that financial responsible, morally upright family of yours might not be a perfect fit for the overbearing, wealthy Jewish family I have." "But I know who you are." "Oh, I could never remember to forget you." "What?" "Hey." "Hi." "What was I saying?" "I know." "I'm sorry." "Our differences are what makes us stronger." "You really believe that?" "Of course." "Don't you?" "I do." "But maybe-- maybe we can take the time to eliminate some of those differences." "Like what?" "Like your family." "Maybe we need to talk to them more." "Syd, we've talked about this before." "I know we have." "But maybe we need to tell them more about us." "If we're going to be serious, they need to get comfortable with the idea of us, right?" "They don't really get comfortable with things." "Well then what the hell am I supposed to do?" "What are you supposed to do about what?" "Your parents hate me." "They don't hate you." "They've never met you." "They will." "They will not get past the fact that I'm catholic." "Syd, nobody said that." "Not yet." "Where is all this coming from?" "I'm not stupid." "Who said you were stupid?" "Syd." "Syd, look at me." "I love you, Syd." "That's all that matters." "You'd be marrying me, not them." "I'll be waiting in the car when you're done laughing at my life." "Financially responsible, morally upright family of yours might not be a perfect fit for the overbearing, wealthy Jewish family I have." "But I know who you are." "You know that I love you, right?" "I think everybody here knows that." "Would you do anything for me?" "Absolutely." "Can we go visit your parents?" "Where is this coming from?" "I'm just thinking about the future, about us." "I just want everything to be perfect." "We are perfect." "Please." "They weren't exactly there for me." "It's not like how you and I are." "Ok." "But I just need them to take this seriously." "And they will in time." "Right now, they'll just criticize us for being together for less than two years." "Why don't you want me to be involved with your family?" "You are my family." "I'm serious." "Because, Syd, they're everything that's bad in my life." "No feelings." "No sharing." "They're everything we're not." "I'll never understand them." "Fuck off." "Was that really necessary?" "Business is good." "Thank you for asking." "That's right." "I forgot for a moment you're here for work and not to see me." "I'm sure you're able to come see Marcus when it's not just convenient with your work schedule, right?" "Of course." "We wanted to see who he's spending all his time with." "Do they know what you really think of them?" "Sydney, no-- no, I just feel like" "I said, that's enough." "Family is all about honesty and-- and letting people know what you feel." "So I just want to let you guys know that he thinks that you represent everything that's wrong with his life." "I never said that." "I've lost my appetite." "I've never been so disappointed in you." "What are you doing?" "I can't believe you." "Dad." "Let's not go." "Wait." "What?" "Let's not go." "You don't want to go." "You're not happy." "Let's just go home." "I thought you had your heart set on meeting my family." "I have my heart set on being your family." "Ok?" "Why this change all of a sudden?" "I just don't care about anything but us." "You were so worked up on how you wanted things to be, i" "I thought you didn't care about how I felt." "Of course I care." "Why didn't you say anything?" "I tried, Syd." "I tried." "I've tried over 20 years to have my family accept me for who I am." "Every time I would tell myself I have enough, they would just give me a toy, or a car." "Now, I just let it go." "But now, I'm not going to let it go." "I tried so hard to-- to balance it out." "I just" " I just want to make you happy, Syd." "You just did." "Home?" "What is-- what is that?" "I don't understand what you're saying." "Wait." "Wait." "Who is it?" "Hang on a sec." "Hey, dad." "I'm sorry." "I couldn't make it." "No." "I said, I'm sorry i couldn't make it." "I'm not arguing with you." "Dad-- dad, I'm not arguing" "I never said that." "What?" "No." "No, no, no, no." "I'm six months from gradu" "what's wrong?" "My dad." "He stopped paying my tuition." "He's on his way here to pick up all my stuff." "What?" "He said I've never blown him off before." "How the fuck does this happen?" "All of my life, I've been at his disposal, being picked up and put down like a doll." "Now, this happens?" "This is what I wanted to keep you from." "Now, he's sending me to his property in London." "God." "Why?" "It must be nice." "What?" "Be able to dress like that for work." "If I did, I'd get fired." "Well, I am pretty lucky." "You know, I've never heard of your company." "It's a startup." "Pay must be tight." "It works." "Speaking of which, can I count on you for rent this month?" "What time is it?" "I didn't wear it today." "You always wear your mom's watch." "If you're in trouble-- no." "I'm good." "Dr. Thompson came to check on you." "Could you not talk to him anymore about me?" "It's been six months." "I really got to go." "Have a great day, ok?" "I'll see you later." "He was holding your hand." "I'm sorry." "I never even should have been talking to him." "It's my fault." "It's my fault." "I just know he has feelings for you and I'm just jealous." "I'm not with him." "I'm with you." "Let's leave." "Like, for the night?" "No, for good." "For good." "We don't need school anymore." "Syd, we're a-- a year from graduating." "I know we are." "But we don't need to graduate." "What happened to little miss studious?" "Look, I just" " I care more about you than graduating." "And who says we can't do both?" "I came here looking for my future." "I thought my life was going to be dedicated to science, because it's all based on fact and logic and that made sense to me." "Being with you makes no sense to me." "But you make me happier than i-- than I ever thought that I could be." "Ok?" "So the purpose of my life is not to find truth through science anymore." "It's to find truth with you." "So if you do this for me, we can-- we can build our lives together." "We can find jobs." "And everything can be perfect." "And it can be you and me." "Please." "My parents would kill me." "No." "Your parents, they don't matter." "It doesn't matter if they stop paying your tuition." "Wow." "I-- it's like you're inside my head." "That's the first thing that they threatened me with." "It's the first thing I'm releasing you from." "Just say yes." "Yes." "Let's go." "Ok." "All I find every day is you sleeping." "So I come home to an empty house." "And that's not what it was supposed to be, Marcus." "It was supposed to be about you and me." "And we left to build a life together." "And this is not it." "And this is good enough for you?" "This is good enough for you?" "Anything with you is good enough for me." "Well, it's not for me." "Where are you going?" "Out." "Jesus, Syd." "What the fuck?" "Where have you been?" "I haven't seen you for days." "Away." "Fuck it." "I give up." "Did you just say days?" "Yes, days." "Three days." "Three days." "Three days." "Want a drink?" "Yeah, but how about-- um-- a conversation first this time?" "Yeah." "Of course." "What's on your mind?" "Um, us." "That makes us both." "You're serious about me, right?" "Yeah." "Yeah." "I am." "Have you thought about plans after graduation yet?" "Whoa." "Slow down there." "We're-- we're just juniors." "I know." "I'm just" " I'm just thinking." "What else is new?" "What's that supposed to mean?" "You and thinking go hand in hand, babe." "I just want to be where you are." "Ok." "Well, then, why don't we both agree to that?" "Ok." "And I was also just thinking." "Maybe I could find a job near where you're from." "Syd" " I'll be right back." "Ok." "We're sorry." "You have reached a number that has been disconnected, or is no longer in service." "You scared me." "Sydney, where is she?" "I-- she's in danger, Melissa." "Honestly, she said she had a job, but-- job?" "She doesn't have a job, not a real one anyway." "She needs help." "He was holding your hand." "You're right." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry, that-- for anything that I've ever done to upset you, any moment that you have been unhappy or sad." "I take full responsibility for making you upset or making you angry." "I am so sorry." "Let me go get you some water." "Ok, baby." "Thank you." "Thank you." "I would love some water." "Listen, let's not blow this out of proportion, ok?" "You're so right." "Whatever you want, that's what'll make me happy." "Ok?" "Salad?" "Yeah, sure." "Let me get-- just let me get the tomato." "I got the tomato." "I got the tomatoes." "Thank you." "Thank you." "Sydney." "Sydney." "I'm sorry." "How could you?" "How could you do that to us?" "There hasn't been an us." "What are you talking about?" "That's not what you were saying when you were fucking me yesterday." "Sydney, you're somebody else." "What happened to the Sydney I knew?" "The dreams, the desires, the motivations?" "What happened?" "You're like a walking robot." "Feed me." "Love me." "Please, please." "Oh, you're perfect." "You're perfect." "Marcus, do this." "Do that." "Do you know what i have done to get here?" "No, I don't." "Because I don't know who you are anymore." "And if I'm the one making you feel this way, or act this way, then I'm not healthy for you." "I'm sorry." "Hi." "Could I have a-- a double Tequila, please?" "Sure thing." "Sydney, please, wait." "You're drinking?" "Really?" "No." "No." "I never wanted to drink that anyway." "Just wanted something to hurt me more than my feelings." "I'm so sorry, Sydney." "I didn't think it would go like that with my parents." "But you sort of knew it would, didn't you?" "I was afraid it would." "Yeah." "Why didn't you just tell me that?" "Because you already knew." "I don't want to fight anymore." "I'm so tired." "I'm exhausted." "I'm so angry at everything." "Hey, let's go." "Syd, stop." "Syd, stop." "Stop it." "Sydney, Sydney." "What's wrong?" "I can do it differently, another position." "No, no, no, no, no." "This." "This isn't right anymore." "We've changed." "We-- we're not the same as when we met." "People don't just change." "Syd, this is college." "People change everyday." "Majors, feelings, aspirations." "You can't know tomorrow today." "Syd, I know you want to control everything." "But you can't." "We can't." "You can't cage love." "It has to be free." "Were you ever serious about us?" "Of course I was, Syd." "And I did it because it felt real, because I wanted to." "But this doesn't feel real." "It's living a lie." "But I'd rather be unhappy everyday and live with the truth." "Has there ever been even a second of doubt in your mind about us?" "No." "There was." "There hasn't been an us, Sydney." "I'm sure the space would be adequate." "There's quite a lot of storage." "Suffering from a bit of neglect, but if you want to come by," "Thursday perhaps?" "Hey." "Hey hey, hey, hey." "You're going to be ok." "You're going to be ok." "I'm going to get you some help." "Dr. Thompson." "Sydney." "Sydney." "You need some water." "There you go." "Drink, drink, drink, drink." "Ok." "Good girl." "It'll be fine." "How?" "Hey, don't speak." "Save your strength." "Ambulance is on its way." "I'm sorry." "Do you want to know why i did all that research?" "Because of the national institute of health," "I remember." "Sure, they funded it." "But it wasn't really for them." "You see, well, i lost someone too." "Two people, actually, to a drunk driver." "My wife and my son." "I didn't know that." "No one did." "But it changed me, Sydney." "It made me turn my back on myself, my life, and pretty much everything I believed in." "Something profound happened to me that day." "What happened?" "I found myself." "But you were looking for your wife and child." "That's the funny thing about life." "We all go on journeys searching for something specific." "But how often have you actually found the thing that you set out to look for in the first place?" "I did all this research looking for my lost family, and found myself." "But by finding myself, I found peace." "That's why I gave you my notes in the first place." "I mean, I thought by the end I assumed you would come to the same conclusion." "But you didn't, did you?" "You broke all the barriers." "I'm so sorry, Sydney." "I never thought that you would take it this far." "So sorry." "Your final exam is next week." "For all those of you graduating, we cannot wait to see what you'll accomplish outside this little bubble we like to call college." "The real world beckons." "Just remember, that the real is only what you perceive it to be." "Everything could be real, or nothing at all." "My point is simple, no matter how you view the world, or what you do, remember every person and thing you come in contact with, you leave a mark behind." "Every action has a consequence." "And only by following our consequences do we discover meaning." "Life is meaning." "Well, that's it for the day, everyone." "Good luck." "And all of you tuning me out, wake up." "Class is over." "Congratulations." "Bye, guys."