"Previously on side order of life." "nothing,after cancer,will ever be this hard." "Now I'm losing my hair." "We got to figure out a way to get used to this." "Vivy's what's important right now." "I just -- I miss you." "Becca and ian are seeing each other." "Uh,seriously seeing each other?" "Like,they're s-sleeping together?" "Obviously,she heard we called off our wedding." "That's why she came down here.It wasn't for you." "Just 'cause you and jenny broke up doesn't mean we have to." "You don't want to sell it,do you?" "No,no way." "I'm worried about you." "I worry that you might be a little lonely." "Hi!" " Hey!" " Hey!" "This is so embarrassing." "We're dildo shopping for vivy." "Okay,okay,to usa public radio and their foresight in giving you your own segment." "Who knew all those years of making pledges were actually bribes?" "Oh,please,you earned thishing fair and square." "Couple minutes of you on the air once a month talking about women and their fear of finances -- it's a winner." " To new beginnings." " New beginnings." "Okay,but tomorrow night is the real celebration,so can you handle the guest list?" "Please,I can have dinner with ian and becca." " As a couple?" " Yeah." "Single or as a couple.Whatever.Live and let live." "I'm -- I'm fine." "Fine,but just in case,I invited rick for a little comic relief." "Be back in a jiffy." "miss anything?" "Uh,yeah,I'm ready to go." "Ready to go?" "We just got here." "Yeah,I know.I'm looking for a-a change of atmosphere.Okay?" "Let's go to that new bistro on third." "Didn't I suggest that in the first place?" "I know.It's crazy.You're always right." "Tell me something I don't know." "Hey!" "There's a face I wanted to see." "Only without the dark circles." "What time did you roll in last night?" "Are you yelling?" "I feel like you're yelling." "We,uh,overcelebrated." "So rumor has it you're coming to vivy's tonight,despite the fact that ian and a certain someone are gonna be there." "That's very brave of you." "Thank you." "You also brave enough to handle a new story?" "I can sum it up in one word -- debutantes." "Wait.Hear me out." "There seems to be a resurgence of interest of young women becoming debutantes." "Seriously?" "I mean,it's such a throwback." "Since it happens to be deb season on the west coast,do you want to cover the it girl for the season?" "Dylan graham,18,of pasadena?" "Number one on the party circuit." "And get this -- her father's matthew graham,the hedge-fund king." "And currently spending a fortune running for governor?" "Yeah,and he's spending his own money." "Dylan is throwing a private little party for her closest friends tonight before the big ball next week." "Okay,so I want you to do a pre-interview with her." "I know who this girl is." "I know she's part of the next wave of socialite wannabes." "Can't you give this story to teddy?" "Just the kind of story he would love." "All right.Okay." "If you want to risk passing on a potentially very big story,I'm not gonna beg." "It's not my style." "I mean,I suppose it could make for an interesting trend piece if I approached it like an anthropologist." "Dylan already said she'd talk to you this afternoon, and she's put you on the list for the little shindig." "You can go after vivy'S." " I-I didn't " " I got to go." "It's great.Thanks." "Rick?" "It's definitely an honor being invited to be a deb." "And the money from the big final deb ball at the cotillion goes to a good cause." "So,h-how does it feel to be presented to society in this way?" "Okay,I guess." "You know,originally,back in the early 20th century, the point of the whole deb thing was that a girl's parents were saying she was ready to get married." "It was all about merging family fortunes and producing an heir." "You a history major,hannah?" "She is." "At stanford." "I'm at ucla." "And are you a deb,too?" " God,no." " God,no." "So,uh,so,dylan,why participate in something as antiquated as this?" "It's so retro that it's fun." "It's all the hair extensions." "They're drilling them so hard into her head,she can't think straight." "Look,it makes my dad happy,and that's important." "Does it make you happy?" "Well,um,there are the dance classes,the etiquette training -- which one's the fish fork and all that." "And each deb has to curtsy in a special way when she's presented." "That doesn't really answer my question." "Yeah,it's fun." "Tonight's my very own exclusive soiree." "And then I get to have the big coming-out ball th at the biltmore downtown next week." "Ask her about the escort stuff." "Escort?" "Is that,uh,deb speak for your boyfriend?" "No,just the opposite." "It's your prearranged date." "No boyfriends allowed." "The tradition is that each deb brings at least one escort to the ball." "My mom arranged for mine." "It's her friend's son from the club -- andrew." "She invited him to my party tonight so we can get used to each other beforehand." "They pick a guy for you." "Is it too late for me to be a deb?" "All right,to vivy -- who never ceases to amaze me." "and who's about to make the world a richer place with her new radio show." " To vivy." " Thank you." "I don't have a glass.Sorry.Thank you.Cheers." "Here,let me feed you." "Ooh,I have to stir the rice." "What's the deal with this rumor I heard about you going to india?" "Well,I had about three years' worth of vacations on the books,so I figured it was about time." "I'm gonna take a backpack and go." "Wow,it's hard to imagine you taking a vacation without A plan." "Well,I figured it was time to maybe dial back the type-a thing a little bit." "Can't hurt to try,right?" "Play it by ear -- it's much more exciting." "I'm trying something special tonight,so I hope you guys are hungry." "Yeah,oh,yeah." "By special you don't mean anything,like,too weird?" "No!" "By special I mean that I have modeled everything after that fabulous thai-restaurant menu that ian loves." "Oh,yeah,village thai on larchmont?" "Oh,yeah,the food there is great." "Actually,um,no,king thai." "Remember?" "Uh,we ordered out from there last week,ian?" "Oh,yeah,yeah.The food there is good." "King thai's good." "Yeah." "Well,becca has been at it for hours in that kitchen." "Regular little rachael ray,except without all the annoying catch phrases." "It's going to be one hell of a meal." "Listen,guys,don't be offended,but I got a reservation at 11:00 at koi -- this pretty hot pharmaceutical rep." "Making restaurant food yourself is a challenge,cbut that's what makes it fun!" "So everything's okay?" "I hope I'm not too ambitious." "No,you're being very ambitious,but that's what makes it so impressive." "Thank you." "Oh,my chili sauce!" "*********" "Have another drink." "Contrary to what becca says,I do believe she needs a little help in the kitchen." "I am so impressed.Now,just relax." "Really?" "You think everything's going okay?" " Honey,yes,of course." " Okay." "Because,you know,I mean,vivy,really,she's jenny.You know." "She's so beautiful." "How can I compete with that?" "She just had her hands around his heart for so long." "They have all that history." "You and ian are making your own history,and some extremely sexy ones,I might add." "So you have nothing to worry about." "You're right,you're right,you're totally right." "Right." "It's,like Really smoky." "So,whose idea was this?" "Uh,well,you know,becca wanted to,you know,celebrate vivy getting her own radio show." "You know,and we can all hang out together." "You know,now that becca and I are." "beautifully articulated." "What can we do?" "She's okay.It's the peppers." "It's just really strong." "Is it me,or is something burning?" "Oh,my rice!" "My rice!" "What are you doing?" "Ordering in." "Now,you're a responsible girl, so I know I don't have to worry about things getting out of control around here tonight." "Of course not,dad." "Go meet with your fundraising committee." "We won't get out of control." "I'm so pleased with the way you've immersed yourself into all of this,sweetheart." "When you socialize with the right people,it can only reflect well on our family." "Well,the party's beautiful,daddy." "Everything is." "as it should be." "We're team graham,am I right?" "Straight to the top." "Now,be nice to that boy,andrew,remember?" "There's more shrimp coming out any minute now.Promise." "This is so impressive compared to jessica perry's brunch yesterday." "Glad you like it." "Are we really gonna be in in person magazine?" "Oh,yeah,we're the latest trend." "Us and purple lip gloss." "All right,girls,get together." "There we go.Let me just get one more." "Great." "Dylan,dylan." "Andrew,hey." "Uh,so,you feel like dancing,maybe?" "Sure,sure." "But how about we wait till it's not the middle of the song?" "Oh,right,yeah.That would be intelligent,huh?" "It's okay." "The next one should be starting soon." "Okay." "He's cute.and tall." "Yeah." "He's really nice." "Truthfully,my feet are killing me in these shoes." "Well,lose them.Give them to me." "I'll stow them while you go dance." "Where's dylan graham?" "She here?" "Over there,officer.in the red dress." "You dylan graham?" "Yes,sir." "We have a warrant for your arrest." "What's this about?" "The sasha kendall store on rodeo has video of her earlier today." "Got her hands on over $3,000 worth of merchandise." "Shirt,belt,hat." "Shoplifting -- there's got to be some kind of mistake." "She's looking at grand theft and burglary charges -- both felonies." "Dylan,dylan,is it -- is it true?" "Did you do this?" "Take my picture." "Over here,dylan." "Doug's here." "Easy,ladies." "Don't dent the material." "Okay,doug,we're rolling." "This is turning into a very embarrassing moment for candidate matthew graham and his campaign for governor." "He mentions his daughter,dylan,as his greatest success." "The most important job you can have is that of being a parent." "If you fail your child,nothing else matters." "An interesting quote in light of events occurring at this moment." "Jenny,how's my favorite little shutterbug?" "Happy birthday,dad." "Hey,thank you for being so patient and rescheduling with me today." "Work's been crazy." "Duty calls." "All right,open your present." "All right,all right." "Jen." "Jen,this is fantastic!" " Yeah?" " Oh,thank you,sweetie." "You're welcome." "So what are you gonna shoot first?" "Well,I'm thinking of heading out to the grand canyon." "Have you never been there?" "Actually,it's not the kind of place your mother thought of as a very cool vacation." "They'd have to put a four seasons near the rim for that to happen." "So,what about you and mom?" "Oh,honey." "that conversation would take weeks." "I think this is going to be a great year for you and for me." "So,what's this story you're working on?" "Oh,it's,uh Matthew graham's daughter." "You now,it's amazing to me." "There used to be a time when there were just bad boys." "Now there's this whole g eration of overprivileged bad girls." "No,she is not one of them." "She's definitely more complicated than that." "Well,glad I didn't have to worry about you in that way." "Other ways,yes.But not that way." "What ways?" "Oh,jen,being a father to a daughter -- there's something primal about it." "When I first saw you -- you're lying there -- you looked like this little plucked chicken." "But at that very moment,I knew there was nothing I wouldn't do to protect you." "Back then,I would have slayed a dragon for you." "Well,I'm all grown up now." "I'd still slay a dragon for you." "Well,thank you." "No,thank you,sweetie." "I'll tell ya,watching you live,it's teaching me how to live." "What?" "Well,look at you." "I mean,you're taking life head-on,you're taking risks,you're putting yourself out there." "I'll tell you something -- you might just be my new role model." "Yes." "Dylan did something last night I-I cannot get out of my mind." "What's that?" "While she wa being arrested,she asked me to take a picture of her." "It was...unnerving." "What was going on with her?" "That's the thing " " I have no idea." "We had this pre-interview.She seemed like a calm,well-adjusted teenager." "And that wasn't your first clue that she was strange?" "Yeah?" "Are you kidding?" "No,no,no,no,no.Do it now." "Patch her through." "It's for you." "On the bat phone?" "It's dylan graham calling from jail." "Hello?" "Dylan,yeah,are -- are you okay?" "Uh,o-okay." "Tomorrow.Yeah." "I'll " " I'll be there." "Okay,I look forward to it." "Bye." "Hello,we're all waiting." "Uh She has visiting hours tomorrow, and I'm the only person she wants to see." "Are you saying dylan graham is giving you an exclusive?" "Yes!" "And she wants to be on the record." "This is good,this is good,but it's still just another celebutant in handcuffs." "Is there some way we could come up with a fresh angle on this?" "No,listen to me." "Dylan is not just another paris." "I don't know what it is,but there is something that's making her act out like this." "Well,get some answers." "I'll do my best." "Do better." "Jenny,she wants one visitor." "Not her mom,not her dad -- she wants you." "So,did you have fun at dinner last night?" "Fun.Uh,well,I mean, my goal was to make everyone else comfortable with the fact that I'M.... comfortable." "I'm happily single." "Ian and becca are a happy couple.Everybody's happy." "Right?" "Is any of that remotely true?" "No." "It's hard,viv." "I mean,it's hard to see him fall in love with her." "He seems more confident,more fulfilled." "Oh,I know where this is headed." "You do?" "It's like the time I sold my old honda,and a few weeks later I saw it on a lot." "It had all the dings taken out and had been beautifully detailed." "And I thought,I can't believe I gave this thing up." "It is looking pretty good right now." "At least had the new-car smell." "Are you saying becca gave ian new-car smell?" "At the very least got the dings out,making him highly desirable." "But check out what I soon will be driving." "Look at her!" "It looks just like yours." "It looks even better on me than on amber." " Amber?" " Her." "She looks like an amber.I couldn't help it." "She could use a little lipstick,don't you think?" "Yeah." "You know what?" "I went to this revlon party,got a little swag!" "Share." "Here,what about this?" "Renewist lipstick." "What color?" "Coming up roses.You do the honors." "Let me try." "Gorgeous." "Gorgeous." "You know,I think you were right about becca,and I'm sorry to give you such a hard time about it." "But she's been in love with ian this whole time." "I just never realized how much." "And although I think she came down here to help me," "I do believe she was hoping to move her relationship with ian along." "Thank you." "She needs eyebrows." "Becca?" "Amber." "Oh,I'm so glad we restored this interior instead of replacing it." "Can you believe we even considered keeping the stock seats?" "Now,this -- this is class." "Yeah,and I can't wait till we get the cd player installed." "We're gonna get some sound out of her when we get those speakers we ordered." "Sweet." "Very sweet." "Here you go." "She's yours." "What are you talking about?" "It would make me a happy man." "Richard,come on." "Hey,you take the car." "But we both put so much work into it." "But you have a lot more passion for it than I do." "You're not gonna give me an argument on my birthday,now,are you?" "But why?" "I'm in a place where,you know,I just want to lighten my load a little bit." "You know,and before you can bring in the new,you got to get rid of some of the old." "Well,what's the new?" "I'm not sure yet,but I can't wait to find out." "And neither can my harley!" "I mean,come on!" "I can't wait to get it out on the open road." "It's been cooped up too long." "Okay." "Thanks." "But you get visitation on the weekends." "And we are going to bake our gruyere potato gratin for 30 minutes, or until the top is a nice golden brown -- just like this." "That is so tender." "And with our rack of lamb for two, well,this will really put your man in a romantic mood." "How 'bout if you kiss my ass?" "Hey,you broke up with ian.Don't blame me." "At least becca's trying to learn how to cook." "Hey,let's move to dessert." "Tonight we're gonna do a lovely cherry fr" "Listen,um,I'm worried about your dad." " That's why I - - my dad?" "Yeah,come in." "You still have the tv,I see." "Yeah.Yeah." "You wa it?" "these." "Your dad gave me the mustang today -- out of nowhere." "He's crazy about that car." "I know richard pretty well at this point in time." "But this -- do you have any idea what's up?" "It's hard to tell if something's wrong because he's been so upbeat these days." "I know." "He gave me the mustang." "So we're concerned,um." "because he seems upbeat and generous?" "Yeah." "You think maybe there's something wrong with us?" "Maybe." "If you think he's all right,I'll trust your expert opinion." "I think,uh." "well,I think he's lucky to have you as a friend.ian." "Yeah." "Okay." "Well,uh I guess I better get going." "Well,this is,uh,this is nice that we can,you know,spend time together." "Yeah,yeah." "You know,as." "as friends." "Right,as friends." "Yeah,me -- me,too." "So...it's good." "Didn't I buy this sweater for you?" "Yeah." "That's not why I wore it.or anything." "I mean,it's a nice.sweater." "But,you know,it's -- it's the only thing I have that was." " clean." " Clean." "Detow" "new can smell" "I,um." " ian?" " Yeah?" "Where we heading?" "Down the wrong road." "Come on,jenny,why did dylan pick you?" "Jenny mcintyre of in person magazine has gained access to dylan graham." "Hey,jenny,what do you hope to learn by talking to the girl?" "Don't try to make me the story." "Dylan is the story." "Oh,um,but you can read all about it in the next issue of in person,doug." "Don't give me attitude." "I invented attitude!" "It's not that bad." "I'm in a tiny room with a metal bed,but it's so quiet." "There's no cellphone,no e-mail." "I kind of like it." "That judge did me a favor." "******" "Dylan,is there something else going on you feel like talking about?" "It's a big relief to be somewhere my dad can't get to me." "And no one can,not even my friends -- not even hannah." "I thought hannah was your best friend." "She is." "But she's really mad at me." "About this?" "About everything." "It's just so hypocritical." "I mean,first of all,the whole charity thing." "My dad just does that for publicity to help his career." "I'm just some doll that he can dress up and parade around for show." "And that whole phony social life that he wants for me " "I mean,it's not who I am -- not at all." "Just try to tell him that." "You can'T." "Dylan,what's going on?" "What is all this about?" "Is it a need for attention?" "Okay,I didn't ask you here to psychoanalyze me." "I'm already seeing far more qualified professionals who my dad pays good money for." "Dylan,you asked me here." "What is it you want from me?" "I don't know anymore." "Here's what I do know." "I did it." "You did what?" "I called the police." "I had myself arrested." "You turned yourself in?" "Why?" "To prove I'm not who they think I am." "I love you,hannah." "Mm,this one's cute." "Mm,yeah." "Very mia farrow in rosemary's baby." "How short do you want your hair to be?" "Short enough to wear under a wig comfortably." "Why couldn't I be a lesbian?" "Excuse me?" "It would be so much easier." "Easier how?" "Well,I have all these amazing women friends." "such as yourself." "Maybe,you know,two women getting involved -- things don't get so." "tangled up." "Have you considered getting a pet?" "Because they do a lot in the way of physical comfort." "I mean it." "Seriously." "Love is never easy,jenny,and it certainly doesn't get any easier if you're gay." "How do you know that this girl is gay,anyway?" "I can't reveal my sources." "In any event,I think you're doing the right thing for her -- trying to help her be honest with herself." "Vivy,I kissed ian." "You what?" "Well,at first I did it in my mind." "okay,forget that." "Then I did it not in my mind. with him." "Did he kiss you back?" "Yes,but we instantly regretted it." "I mean,okay,maybe not instantly." "But." "soon we regretted it,and all we did was kiss." "And I feel absolutely horrible about it." "Becca's my friend,jenny,just like you're my friend,just like ian's my friend." "What do you want me to say?" "You just put me in the middle of this." "I'm sorry." "What if he never tells her and I'm the only one who knows,except you?" "I wish you had never told me." "Vivy." "no,there are just some things I don't want to hear!" "It's too much responsibility!" "I couldn't wait to get over here,becca." "I suddenly feel like I'm clear about things for the very first time -- clear about you and me." "I feel more." "committed to you than ever." "This is it -- what we've got." "But what made you come to this?" "I thought you'd be happy." "I am. but." "I thought we were close to being there already." "When did you take the step back which made you suddenly want to take a step forward?" "I haven't thought this through." "Us." "or this conversation?" "Oh,god." "It's jenny." "You saw her,didn't you?" "Alone." "Only long enough to be convinced that there is no connection between the two of us anymore." "That door is closed forever." "Love is not that blind." "I know something happened between you." "I've been lying to myself this entire time because I wanted to believe that door was already closed." "Thanks for talking to me." "Well,if it's an official lesbian opinion you want,I'm your lesbian." "Seriously,jenny,what's the problem?" "Uh,well." "this girl I know." "I think she's struggling with being gay." "The pressure of keeping it inside,the weight of it all,is causing her to act out." "Well,in my case,I knew who I was from the time I was a kid." "I loved sitting next to lisa at the movies in middle school because our legs touched." "But lots of girls are confused." "There are women our age who are still keeping this secret from themselves,like you said." "People wake up in their own time." "If this girl's gonna come out,it won't be because she hears some exact right words from you." "There aren't any,so don't worry about that." "It'll be because she feels really safe and completely accepted." "Let's try to be a little logical here." "Logical." "Don't give me logical." "Ian can't be trusted." "And I actually thought that he could." "Idiot,you idiot!" "Okay,fine,then let's try a little honesty." "I am being honest!" "Becca,please,I know this is hard,but you got to face the fact -- you and ian were in a rebound situation." "That stuff always gets messy." "Messy is the nature of the beast." "Jenny is the nature of the beast -- or the." "name of the beast." "Oh,never mind." "It's over,vivy." "And it was so close to being mine." "You have been in love with ian since the day you met him in business school." "He is a great guy." "Can't you just cut him a little slack?" "Hey,you're supposed to be on my side." "I am the hurt person!" "Did I just sound like a big baby?" "Honestly,there are so many sides to this, and every side there is a friend who is giving me an incredible headache." "I know." "Can I get you an aspirin?" "Why did you come here in the first place,becca?" "Because I wanted to help you with being sick." "Besides that." "Was it because of ian?" "Because you knew this was the perfect time to make a move?" "I didn't used to think so,but." "I'm not so sure anymore." "I-I was there for you." "I am here for you." "Ian -- that just." "happened." "Do you believe me?" "I certainly want to." "Too late to go back to logical?" "Thank you for agreeing to see me again." "The show must go on." "My dad worked out a community-service deal with the authorities." "He says we're supposed to continue like nothing happened." "Can we talk completely off the record?" "Believe me." "I know how painful it can be to -- to grow into somebody other than who your parents expected." "And sometimes I think you need to leave their world entirely in order to." "make any sense of your own." "Maybe,but." "I don't know how to do that." "And there's so much pressure on me right now to be perfect." "Yeah." "I mean,it's confusing,especially at your age." "It's a good thing you have hannah -- a good friend and such a different." "perspective." "Yeah." "It's easier for hannah." "She even told her parents she was gay,and they were totally cool with it." "H-hannah's gay?" "Yeah." "They never even judged her." "They were just supportive." "How do you think your parents would respond in a similar situation?" "Are you kidding me?" "My parents would freak out if they thought I was gay." "Dylan." "I don't know how to help you,except to say that the one thing I have learned is there is A." "a truth to all of us -- our true self." "And it may be buried so deep we can't get to it,but we have to try." "We can't just live the lives other people have laid out for us, 'cause we only get this one chance." "Don't waste your chance." "You're a great kid,and no matter what you may think,your parents love you." "But if they're not willing to let you be who you really are, you may have to find the strength to live with that." "Ian told her." "Why?" "She was devastated." "No." "He didn't just,you know,come right out and tell her." "She read between the lines." "That's the one thing I love about the two of you is that you are lousy liars." "Well,it was a mistake." "It is never gonna happen again." "Believe me." "Talking to the wrong person." "I..." "I crossed a line,and -- and I don't want to hurt you." "You and ian have a-a connection,a and it's real." "And,you know,I see it." "Everybody sees it." "I know how important you are to him and you guys shared something very special and I can't compete with that." "I don't want you to -- becca." "Please don't even say that." "I... ian is a better man with you than he ever was with me." "What makes you say that?" "Are you kidding?" "I mean,a vacation for the workaholic?" "I don't care where we go as long as we can relax?" "Ian has planned every moment of his life since -- since the day he got his first calendar." "I couldn't even drag him away for three days on our honeymoon." "But more than that." "the way he looks at you." "He's happier." "He's a really good guy." "Isn't he?" "The best." "Hi." "Thanks for meeting me." "Yeah,I am so sorry." "Don't be." "It was bound to happen." "Listen. no,no,you listen." "This is not your fault." "or my fault." "or jenny's fault." "This is love,and you can't push it or force it into being the way you want it to be, when you want it to be." "You and jenny were together for a very long time." "You both thought that it might be forever, and I have to recognize that and respect that." "I've pulled you,willingly,but I pulled you pretty hard into something that," "I realize now in the hard light of day,I have always wanted." "But that doesn't mean that it's right for you." "I want to pretend like you and jenny never happened,and that's a mistake." "based on my own insecurity." "But here's what I am secure about " " I love you." "From the first day of business school,I have loved you." "And it makes no sense, and just because I love you esn't mean that you have to love me -- at least not in the same way or in the same time." "It's just a fact." "Hi." "Hey." "What's up?" "I'm really glad you're here." "I need to talk to you." "dad,uh,it's me,just checking in." "I left you a couple messages and haven't heard back,and.I don't know." "I felt like we had a lot of loose ends after our last conversation." "So,um." "oh,that's my other line calling in." "So,just call me back,okay?" "I love you." "Side Order Of Life Season01 Episode09"