"fear for my life makes me win" "Conformist!" "You are stupid." " Why is that?" "Nothing." "I say to you already for a long time, nothing more." "That pleases you, black and red?" "They are not big colours" "Blue and Green were good . - each color is good." "But it is as I say." "The blacks line up." "But no color stands for me." "Don't you feel old?" "My age times five, and I am dying. without doing anything." "I thought, you are glad for that." "Nevertheless I would like to go out. - shall I look for you !" "When, I cannot ?" "of course!" " no thank you." "You wanted to take me along." " I promised nothing,ok?" "You said it however!" "I promised you nothing!" "You're getting on my nerves!" " I want to go to the disco too!" "Shit quiet!" "I am already wearing headphones for radio!" "All day long shouting." "You get on my spirit, you two" "Do you see this weather?" " Yes." "Wait , I help you." "Do you want something?" " Yes." "Can Lili come along this evening?" "She is still too young to go out with you in the evening." " What is "too young "?" "She will be always with me." "And also..." "That is for your father to decide." "Come, be nice..." "That was hard work." "Next time mummy will be already accustomed to it:" " Shut up!" "So that I suffocate!" "Quick away, I cannot stand him there!" "That cannot be done!" "At least it does not rain any longer." "One must the best make." "do you go out?" " Into the Disco. - into the Disco?" " Yes." "Isn't she still too young for it?" " my daughter would not be allowed to do that." "Can't you stop?" " You are crazy!" "A Rolls, that was." "Watch you get hurt banging your head!" "Rolls Royce!" "And they will pick you up!" "The main thing is to somehow attract attention!" "I do not want to ride in these farmer trucks." "I would rather take the bus. - you should not hitchhike!" "As if I have a choice." "I've been everywhere already, in fine cars." "That will hit you !" " Stop, you ruin my hair-style!" "Shit!" "The chap I know - not as well as I.." "At least you are punctual." "Well beautiful, I'll get in the rear." "Maurice... we know each other from the bowling..." "Jean-Pierre.." "JP!" "Hallo!" "We know each other before?" "we know each other." "Where?" " no matter, just get away from this Kaff!" "Can't you watch out?" "Shit!" "I am not in yet really!" " finish now!" "Now finally, you stop asshole!" "One day you will kill me!" "He almost broke my arm. - almost both!" "You did, as if you would come into JPs." "You think, you me wrong did?" " at the end I trusted you !" "Now finish quiet!" " Stop!" "I do not understand your words any longer!" " Damn hussy!" "So where?" " to the "Paras"?" " Into the Disco." "Still too early." " I want to go there!" "Halt the flap" "Around 10 are there only farmers. - and what are you?" "Where are you going?" " we drive to Bayonne." "There is a diversion." "I know the area like my shirt pocket." "I do not want to go to Bayonne." " Get out then!" "Who asked the Nutter?" " Really a treasure, the small one!" "The Porsche has gone, what?" "You had a Porsche?" " Yes." "But I always need new things." "A car is like a woman, you must like it fast." "And seek to change it at any price." "One recognizes errors only later. - pull over, we drive to the "Paras"!" "You talking constantly of it." "Stop!" " Remain here !" "You crazy nevertheless!" "What got into you?" "You do well without me clearly." "What is with you?" "I didn't give you enough attention?" "Leave her be!" " Stop already, women must play themselves." "You will learn that still." "You get in now?" "What doesn't please you?" " the atmosphere." "Oh yes, and leave you alone to stand here, would you like that?" "Do we meet again?" " old Casanova.." "Hurt me now however." "Around midnight in the "Opium", okay?" " and if I come there truly?" "You have a date with me" " Well." "I intend really still that." "On to the "Paras"." "Shit !" "Hey, you asshole!" "Stop !" "You have not told me your name." "Such an idiot!" "Hello, Anne Marie!" "Both need a combat suit." "She was nearly Miss France." "Tell him that you were ' 56 Kronprinzessin." "Here!" "That makes 150 francs for each suit." "Try it on elsewhere." "Still times the same." "Didn't you hear?" "I do not want to see you any longer." "Thanks." "Never put your tail three times into the same Tussi." "Better you thump a goat, it still knows you at least." "Piece of muck!" "Is your Sister also like that?" " no notion." "Anyhow she comes on to one completely beautifully." "Do you know, what saves her?" "Her age.." "Are we to make place for you Darling?" " Scram!" "You probably hold yourself for other !" "The ticks are not correct!" "At your age, hitchhiking at night?" " Yes!" "Like the mosquitoes, the only help is poison." "nevertheless are you really 16?" "No, I am only 14. already nearly 16." "Do not pull such a face!" "Get out, disappear!" "Strike off, you stupid Pute!" "Geh!" "For my daughter Mireille, she already has Johnny in her collection." "For Jacques and Micheline." "Monsieur Golovine, please!" "I ask myself, what do you want." "Anyhow no autograph." "I ask myself, why you do that." "They are pleased about it." "Ah what would that only prove." "Drink something?" "I only want to talk with you. - you don't have to drink." "Did you know that you would come out so large?" " I was sure of it..." "Your parents did not discourage you?" "That is to say that they did not believe in success." "But after that was my best one." "I write a novel and their idle talk is wrong." "They love you" "Really, they say it to me constantly." "How old are you?" "14." "14 years..." "On holidays here?" "Yes." "I live in Paris." "The "Grand Paris", on the outskirts of a town." "My father runs a Bistro." "You still go to school?" " into the 9th class." "are you bored there?" " and how!" "Perhaps I am mistaken..." "You have a timid manner, and timid people are haughty:" " Yes." "They are surely very difficult. - that becomes me." "in the school detention, on the part of the teachers." "They never are happy with me." "There is no-one, who is content with you?" "My piano teacher. - the piano teacher?" "And... there is a boy that you love?" "No, I am already twice separated" "First a Frenchman." "and then an Englishman." "But why?" "The first was simply still too young..." "The other one was a playboy, a mechanic and I would like to see him again" "Two weeks ago ago he returned to France:" " Two weeks?" "And then nothing more" "He promised to write me, but." "he forgot me fast" "Was he. as I can say?" ".. good looking?" "Oh yes!" "He looked like..." "Peter Gabriel and John Skin." "A handsome chap..." " I do not like ugly." "If he looks good, he confirms, that you are pretty:" " No!" "He did found me "very nice ", I was not..." "Your mother worries herself about you?" "She wrings her hands and now constantly runs in the church." "And your father?" " only Football every player, in all France, he must know." "In us, he is interested little." "But are you at war with the whole world" "Well that depends" "No moments of happiness?" "I can count those on one hand there I had, in the last year, a few lucky days..." "And what were they, these "lucky days"?" "With the Englishman?" " no, the Frenchman." "He was too young, you said." "He was scared of me" "Unbelievably!" " and what made him fear?" "I do not know..." "In school I was very forward even the teachers called me arrogant." "I wanted to only impress him thereby." "But he did not understand that, the idiot, he understood nothing at all." "There are nevertheless moments... -.. where I am sad." "Sometimes I look at my vein .." "and ask myself, why not cut through it." "I had never the courage ..." "I am too cowardly." "But for what cut the vein?" "One must always say to oneself... that, whatever happens, there is still another way out." "One believes oneself in the vice, but it is not like that." "The world is immense" "The world is a large feather mattress." "One jumps... and comes down elsewhere again." "When you are obviously blocked," "You believe the world will fall on your head" "But that is not true." "One must only land elsewhere." "You are by nature very strong," "You have a lot. - it is not that easy." "I wrote this today." ""Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday," "Thursday,Friday," "Saturday,Sunday" "I loved you one week long:"" "That is not particularly nice. - it is nice enough." "True love lasts longer than one week!" "Good evening!" " I arranged to meet someone at midnight my brother is inside." "You were arranged with someone?" " I must go in there." "You are however still not 18." "I am 18!" " You are not!" "You cannot enter, really!" "I fear that she has left me" "She does it." "She has fires inside," "but a computer in the head!" "Do you know if she has done it already or not?" "I don't know but she is ripe for picking." "Yes" "Young girls do not turn me on." "They turn me off." "Really no interest?" " No." "Always the fear that she is a virgin and drops you into the shit..." "No thanks!" "No interest," "So why do I wait here for her?" "Well my sweet one" "Where is your Miss France?" "My Miss France can be procured straight by a paratrooper, an extremely well built chap, madly!" "She knows, what is good." "What stops you from a number in the loo?" "Not tonight ." "I fish myself the straight blond head." "If I kiss him, I do not want bad breath." "That is a floozie!" " no, she is cool." "I had her with a buddy. - together?" "Clearly together." "We did everything with her, everything!" "Up to the climax." "She is no trollop, only , she wants to be absolutely "cool"." "And she is that , a cool chick." "I go alone to sleep now like a dog." "Like all old persons." "For 20 minutes I am standing here!" "He does not believe me about our appointment." "We arranged to meet 2 hours ago" "And now, you are late, bye" "Come back in with me, tell him that I am 18." "See?" "I am 18. - you is still not 18.." "You do not look 18, you are 14!" "Exceptionally, my friend regulates that here." "Exceptionally!" " She is my engaged one, we marry soon." "Why did you say, we are to marry?" "he regarded you as a whore." "Your name, is one word?" "You guess badly - two words..." "Stop!" "I do not want." "You should know, what you want." "With 18 years." "I am not 18!" "I am not a shiny ball" "That you probably already have done the whole evening." "Completely obviously you have been with others, while I waited. - you're really crazy!" "We go now!" " Rubbish!" "The old folks will not say anything" "Do you know, how late it is ?" "At your age!" "At my age I am still green." "That is it until today." "You are still a virgin?" "What do you do for work?" "I drive around the region." "And I work as an agent." "What is that." "I am exclusive importer for a large Japanese EDP company." "So a calm job?" "Nice, your young friend!" "She does not like me!" "But how will Anne Marie look!" "She does not like me really, I'd rather go." "She is a little mad, but a marvelous woman." "Who is Anne Marie?" "Anne Marie.. that is a woman, who is very, very good in bed." "Yes, if you like whores!" "Well well!" "Women who are good in bed do not have to be whores." "Are you married?" " Ah, no, and no children:" "Does not have to be also." "Why?" "I find, this planet is too messed up still for children to be born." "A future world comes - who knows" "Shall we go?" "I do not want to see the crank any longer." "The army!" "But I shall obey." "Loosely, come!" "You are still normal?" "Kiss me!" "But not too much!" "Where that leads, we know." "People regard you as my father." " Yes?" "Yes.The people see us together." "And then they look rather away." "I would like to talk with you." "You?" "That would surprise me." "Why?" "If you come with me to the hotel, must that directly mean, that I want you?" "I do not believe nothing at all." "You know the Hotel du Palais?" "If it happens, you will say, I wanted it in such a way." "People are all the same to you." " Yes." "I am also all the same to you?" " No" "But you do not trust me?" " That is not the problem." "So where is the problem?" " In my head." "We cannot remain the whole night here, I am not 14 anymore." "Old people, as I, need much sleep." "I go to bed." "Salut!" "We remain friends,yes?" "Cheers!" "You have really a room in Hotel du Palais?" " Yes." "Why did you not say that before?" " What does that change?" "It is not the same, if you already live there as the other one." "There it is." "That costs a lot." "Yes." "You do not want it to cost still more?" "You understand, what I want to say thereby." "I pay, I fork out" "You lie down, and I fork out..." "You are not making money?" "I never cost you anything" " I make fun!" "Take it with humour!" "Oh yes, I know, with 14 and Humour..." "I may not touch you any longer?" "You promised it." " What?" "In your room you do not touch me." "We are not in my room." "Here I may touch you." "Well beautiful, I won't rush you." "What'll we make?" "Speeches." "I should not do it, but if I can be safe..." "Not already again!" "What have I bare on me?" "It probably lies in my face..." "What?" "From my view that is not at all funny." "Sit you" "You want a drink?" "Orange juice and... no, a tomato juice" "with celery and a lemon slice some Vodka... oh, and Perrier." "So a "Bloody Mary" with Perrier?" "Your tapes are all the same." "this music i do not know, is it jazz?" "Yes- jazz is muck" "The trumpets give me a headache." "One who is 40, can nevertheless stay with the times." "One who has a shit culture, does not have to be impudent as well." "Is not bad here?" " Shit." "The "Opium" was better." "Well!" "Then go back to "Opium"!" "Go, disappear!" "I know only I am bored." "Explain to me then, why you came." "in order to talk." "Speech from human to human." "Well, I'm listening:" "Speak, talk..." "I thought, I would have desire." "That perhaps what happens, could be." "See you thus in time." "You are too old... repulsive." "I cannot." "But, you can." "Try nevertheless" "It is terrible,to be virgin." "After 50 guys you would please me surely." "Regard me." "No, I do not want to" "You are beautiful" "You are the most beautiful" "Like a real woman." "Your breasts are beautiful" "That is not all true." "Feelings do not measure at the chest extent." "I warn you:" "A rape charge comes expensively to you .." "You want to go?" " No, I do not want to go home." "You want rather to spend the whole night here" "If you knew, how you disgust me" "You only love me because your power does not overcome me" "And it does not go!" "Enough talking" "I knew, you lie" "Everything was lies." "You see, you can howl and strike around you," "Main thing, I know that you also have desire," "and I want it also." "Have no fear" "I said I don't want to." " But, you do want." "No,no,no!" "Sufficient now?" "So!" "There you do not want... and there you demand it." "You want to hurry me?" " Talk no nonsense." "Why should I give way?" " Because you have no more choice!" "I could have killed you" "Even if..." "I would not have given way." "You would like something?" " You know very well, the shop is closed" "You know, how late it is?" "We must find JP." "As if for you he waits!" " Without me he cannot return." "Let's go, hurry!" "My brother is not with you?" " No..." "So, and where do we go now?" ""where do we go now?" I want to go home anyway!" "Let's go, I am in a hurry!" "Your rage is not from annoyance!" "Give gas!" "We had a miserable evening." "It was really shitty!" "I have let Laetitia fly." "She is only jealous and in bed she is like a wet bag:" " Honestly?" "But she holds herself like for a cannon..." "A man to behave in such a way, is inhuman. you do not understand anything" "I despise you." "Your brother has courage" " My father would kill him if he came home without me" "Where were you?" "For two hours I freeze here" "I was doing nothing." "If you want to ejaculate again, I am not the dish." "We will see later." " That you will experience no more." "You never thought, that was it." "40 Years are enough?" "Hurry up!" "So then, ciao!" "I must work, in Paris" "We see you again?" "It can be that I will return today." "Then you will find me this evening in "Opium"" "See you soon" "Salut arsehole!" "you do not come with me anymore!" " Time will see." "So what!" "Everywhere bruise marks." "The police will believe me certainly." " You're crazy" "No !" "The chap would have earned it" " Nevertheless !" "Mama..." "Shut your mouth, then she does not know.." "Take off your shoes." "And couch me not in the ears" " Not now.." "Hopefully they are asleep." " Quiet!" "I was bad out?" " nevertheless nothing matters." "Sweet are you nevertheless." "I will find that idiot." " Have you shit?" "Monsieur Devetter,please." "Who do you want?" " Maurice Devetter,please." "We have an appointment" "Whom I may announce?" " Don't call!" "I am already late." "Under no circumstances!" "I find the way." " You may not do that!" "I am expected" " Your name!" " No!" "I announce you:" " No!" "out" "Get off!" " That is enough, out!" "My brother wants to flog you" "And so?" "He is right." "Why do you warn me then?" "Shut your mouth!" "Let me in.." "What do you want?" "Money?" " An apology" "Less expensive" " On account of!" "It looks bad for you." "What do you want?" ""Good day" only , I do not have the plague." "Good day." "I have many bruises." "Your luck that I did not show anyone!" "Do you want to see?" "Do what you want." "let's be good." "I only wanted to make you scared." "We go walking?" "You hear?" "I would like to go walking" "I have a customer date 300 km from here and I'm already late." "You do not have dates." "Brush me not off, understood?" "Do what I tell you." "Lili" "You are not really young anymore ,you have a belly also." "I do not have." " But you have folds." "That disturbs you?" " Come!" "My brother is not to see us." " That would not be good." "Hurry." "You Arshole!" "I'll get you still!" "Above all . don't touch me!" "I should have better become a priest." "Not bad, your walk." " Come, I show you." "This is called "the love chamber"" "For a long time lovers have slept here with one another, and they did not notice at all, as the tide came in." "They drowned,while they loved each other." "That will hardly happen to us." "No, it will not probably." "I can never talk with you." "In my head I constantly do that" "Is quiet!" "It is terrible" "I can be carried away by you" "It is terrible" "Faster" "Stop!" "When will we see each other again?" " I do not know..." "I do not have much desire." "It pulls me down." "And I must not have that." "Afterwards I feel bad, wounded!" "That does not please me." "What is it?" "I thought today everything has been said." "Llisten, I must go to Paris today." "Tomorrow..." "Can you arrrange it, to be at 5 o'clock in the cafe?" "5 o'clock?" "Then the devil is with us." "Is that yes or no?" "." "Yes" "You do not want coffee?" "Oh no, I am not thereafter." "There you are finally!" "For one hour we wait for you.You hear?" "I live still." " We made ourselves worried sick!" ""worried sick"!" "That's completely new!" "Where you have you been?" "You floozie, with whom were you?" " That does not concern you." "You mean me?" " Stop you there out!" " You mean me?" " Well clearly!" "You little whore!" " And if I am one!" "That concerns you nothing at all!" "You bastard" "That does not concern me?" " Stop it!" " And whether it does!" "That does not concern me?" " I do, what I want!" " That concerns me which?" "That does not concern me anything?" " I do, what I want!" " That concerns me which?" "It is my life... aua!" "Not yours!" "Shit!" "I have enough!" "It is my life,not yours!" "My life,you hear?" "How I live, I, and not you determine, okay?" "And now let me go!" "I'm fed up to the back teeth!" "Let me go!" "What are you doing?" "You are completely crazy?" "Go now to the physician!" "That's not so!" "What do you want?" "There is nothing good to repair." "Which occurs to you?" "Leave me...!" "Get off dammit, I will not!" "Once I say to you.. -you have fear of slaps?" "Here!" "No, stop it!" " you have fear of slaps?" "There !" "Slaps are not bad!" "You are over-wrought!" " You do not hurt!" "Not at all!" " What you do to me?" "Be still!" "He revs up, do you not see?" "Calm down...." " Why do you howl?" "You understand now only that your man is crazy?" "Plentifully late!" "Stop it,to provoke him:" "Be quiet!" " Why?" "If only I was no more a virgin!" "But I did not sleep with Maurice, because I cannot do it." "Do you hear?" "I can not!" " quiet!" "I cannot sleep with him." "It did not happen..." "I cannot sleep with him." "I cannot!" "Leave me!" "Never mind." "There are the Webers." "But not to them!" " The son is in your age." "He only reads." "Good Day." "Good Day:" " How goes?" " Good and you?" " Also good." "I remain not for a long time, I have no desire today, I'd rather play Gin." "But one makes now vacation at the sea!" "Gin have you the whole year at home ,but not the sea." "Monsieur Henri in addition, not." " Shut your mouth!" "My God!" "The hussy is impudent, the mother plays cards." "and the son.. where is he?" "He never answers" "Why should he?" "In this desert there's not even a telephone!" "You don't have to work, do not have to go to school, what more do you want?" "Where is your son?" " Bertrand?" "He is on the camping site." "The small one looks for him?" "She can go to him." "I go now." "It is also better for you" "What are you to be called?" "Passport only up!" "Not in that tone!" "You have the time?" " No, I do not have a watch" "Read you only such rubbish?" " That is not rubbish." "Ah,you have not read it yet, the pages are still stuck together!" "I only open it partially to read and not directly all in advance." "Normal way..." " The book is very good." "What a title!" " Now .." "How you say:"The Idiot"." "All read it, it is very intelligent." "What concerns me" "I write love books." " Do you know "The Plague" by Camus?" "I do not put my nose continuously into books, I am no grinder!" "And "The foreigner"?" "An high-interesting book "The foreigner"." ""The best of all worlds "is also very good." "Reading that was so beautiful!" "at first we found your brother and you smug, but ...if one knows me, I am super:" " Yes ,without baloney." "OK, I have a meeting, I must go." "And you leave me here alone?" "I come back later." "You don't leave me sitting here!" "If you want, accompany me a while." "If you would know my love life then honestly, then you would be shocked" "What you do?" " Why?" "but already everything becomes clear Have you considered the time?" "Hallo, my love!" "Good Day Georgia:- good to see you out- have you waited already for a long time?" "Time enough for a glass." "What are you doing here?" "You do not give me a kiss?" " so" "I do not bite you" "Yet... here, do not sit elsewhere." "What is with you?" " I am stinking." "Why?" " I talk with a bloke one quarter of an hour, then he kisses me." "An ugly bird, like a red giraffe." "I did not want to kiss him,but he did ,as if I were a floozie." "Who imagines that?" " next time, slap him in the face." "I give them to you." "No,no!" "Here.." " Now do not insult me!" "What's given is given" "So give me a kiss" "I must telephone now" "Who is that?" "She looks like, a small Pummel." "But nevertheless completely nice" "Only because of you she runs like that" "You here?" "I thought you were in Paris" "Oh,why do you make such a face!" "I drove the whole night." " You are probably looking for someone?" "No,no" "Now good, still right for a glass" "Then I drive you to your fitting" "You do not know that yet, Maurice" "You are not up to date" "I will marry in two weeks" "Not enough, that you carry on in such a way, you marry it also still" "I don't understand you!" "Say rather nothing,Schatz." "He has earned some respect" "And he is nevertheless pleasant" "You pay, order a bottle Champagne" "Taittinger please" "Do not look in such a way!" "Now it is flat" "At our age it's not about intelligence" "Fresh meat is nevertheless also beautiful" "Oh,that was stupid of me?" " you are going to the beach" "Lili,wait." "I drove around 500 km to see you" "I thought, you were alone." " So now we are." "You will be still a lot more." "Shut up dammit:" " Let go!" "Let me go, dammit!" "Whose are these rings?" " They are mine." "From where did you get those?" " A gift" "Those are dirt!" "They are not for you, they are too vulgar" "I will buy you rings" "Pretty rings for your baby fingers" "Let us go" " But not into your hotel." "I have an idea..." "And so?" "I do not do anything at all, not even the smallest." "Did you come?" "No, you came." "Why not?" "Come!" "But why?" "That is not my fault" "Come there out!" "Come out from under it, I saw you." "Can you think of me, when you came there." "He has done everything before, only in order to jump you." "I know the trickster!" "He thinks that he can still make pressure on me!" "Let's go, out of there" "So then" "You are how old?" " I am 14." "This shithole !" "Do you know, what that is called?" "You are silent." "If I were you" "I would sue him" "Then he would come to court" "And the others would be aware of it." "You must go to your Mother!" "You heard?" "I shit on you!" "bitch!" "I would like to apologize." "You are very angry with me?" "No,no." "Great!" "I thought only of you all day long." "Really?" "Sure." "Why I should lie?" "Stop fiddling about!" "Why do you wait?" "I want you..." "I come!" "It pleased you?" "the first time is never good." "It was the first time?" "Why would I do that?" "You love me nevertheless?" "Idiot!"