"at the US-Mexico border" "I remember we went to a time America were sent, one size and me." "We had a job." "Abduct someone." "We had to abduct him and hold at this motel." "We were in this room." "He spent three days trapped there." "All this time we tortured him." "When we were called by the boss." "We had to deliver him somewhere." "Of course he had not been pleasant." "So he had to refurbish, showering, dressing." "Then we would deliver him with two sizes of us." "They'd take him over the border bring to Mexico." "The time he was here, we only had to hold him." "We do not know what happened after that." "Even though they pay their debt ... even though they solve it off, usually they die." "For the drug mafia there are no boundaries." "Not in Mexico, America, Colombia, Costa Rica and El Salvador." "They can bribe anyone." "The police, customs, immigration ..." "They smuggle tons of drugs the border about." "Then a man not a breeze?" "I will over the past 20 years Telling my life." "20 years of my life in service drug trafficking, the drug cartel." "I've served with these hands, people who have been tortured ... and murdered." "A  sicario  has the task ... someone straight out of the way." "He shoots him dead ... puts him down ... or strikes him dead." "So accurate that he died instantly." "How does he do that?" "In a car ..." "A professional  sicario ...  addresses the very different than an amateur." "This is the car." "The target is behind the wheel." "He must be dead." "An amateur does the following:" "He gives the whole car broadside." "A  sicario  is as follows:" "His target is behind the wheel." "This is the target." "There are two simple ways." "You draw a circle ... to the lock." "Or on the side window, around the head of the target." "So goes a  sicario  to work." "Those others are amateurs." "A  sicario  let his victim not suffer." "Because that person already suffering when he finds himself being followed." "A  sicario  will never preach what he does." "It is common among people." "He has friends and family." "In his spare time he goes in the park baseballs with his children." "He can go to a meeting ... to a meeting the council." "He can deal with people, dresses well ..." "He knows how to behave, He is civilized." "He is trained from childhood by the drug mafia and is paid by them." "It is paid, so that people everywhere ... that jobs can done." "In high school We were invited by someone." "He invited us to a party." "He showed how good life could be." "We could drink, have fun ..." "We could have money, and even a car." "I asked:" "How?" "What should I do?" "Nothing." "Go into this car to your school." "Your morning makes him to me, when you come home from school." "And you do in El Paso." "Then you get another car of mine." "Which may be used throughout the week." "I make sure the tank is full." "On weekends I get it back from you." "You drive to El Paso." "I'll lend you another car and you get paid." "Is that all?" " No." "I also have a home for you." "With girls who help you and available to you." "You will be having a good time." "You can live there if you want." "We were then four of us." "Boys." "We had been eagerly awaiting." "My mother missed me." "I was not home." "I could not drive." "They taught me in a day." "I had no license." "That was settled in half an hour." "I did not what kind of drugs I carried." "I knew that when I put the car transferred, there were drugs." "I did not know how many drugs and where they were hidden." "When she told me of the tank, I assumed that they were there." "That went on for three years." "Those other three boys and I, We were four of us lived it." "And so we arrived at our convenience through high school." "It was a good time." "I was no longer dependent on my father." "What could I miss it, I gave it to them." "I bought clothes." "Converse sneakers." "Even from Reebok." "They were 80 dollars." "I was the only one at school with those sneakers." "I bought them at JCPenney." "They kicked me all on my sneakers." ""So they last longer."" "I was furious." "Mothers have a special sense." "They know what their kids are up to." "Maybe they do not say anything, but they feel it." "She saw that I was the black sheep was of the family." "She was so much worry that my eldest sister, the whole family was gathered ... wanted to talk to me." "We sat down around the table." "A large family." "More than 13 people." "I had to sit here." "My brothers and sisters went down." "Really everybody blamed me." "Because of you is sick mom." "You're never home." "Mommy is sick because of your behavior." "They know you're drinking and drug use." "Mom knows you're doing it." "My eldest sister was the last the word." "You're going to behave or go to the army." "I laughed my ass off. "I, the army?" "You had imagined." "It's all good." "Do not worry." "I will improve my life. "" "Within two days it was arranged." "I was already in the fourth semester the university ... when this was happening." "Within two days I had arranged through family and friends ... me to the police academy was admitted." "In order ..." "To be admitted, you must to a number of requirements." "First, you must be an adult." "Second, you must have met you. conscription" "Thirdly, ... you need to actually be married." "Fourth, a drug test." "You may not use drugs." "Fifth, You must be medically examined." "I was not yet of age. hence I had not been in service." "I failed the drug test." "I only succeeded for the medical examination." "When I had the conversation with the director of the academy ..." "He said:" "You can, for two reasons ... not be allowed." "But because you have good references, this need not be a problem." "But do me a favor." "Do not use drugs anymore." "If you are not married, is not a problem." "You have no proof that you have served." "Go to the barracks and talk with such and such." "Then you get there." "As a student at the academy ... you got half the salary of an ordinary agent." "So that was a pittance." "But I received each month from El Paso a lot of money." "I had enough money." "They sent us money ... drugs ... and sometimes women." "How we grabbed it?" "At night there are guards walking around ... at the academy." "There are halls, sports fields, shooting ranges ..." "Here's a wall." "Cars, parking and security guards." "We bought these guards with $ 100 and one gram of cocaine." "Then they let us out." "We went at seven o'clock in the evening away ... and we came at half past six in the morning again." "Why at half past five?" "At a quarter to six ..." "At a quarter to six ... went the whistle and you had to get up." "At ten to six, we were prepared and we hoisted the flag." "I've never caught, because I kept strictly ... to the grid. you had showering at a certain time ... eating, going to classes, sports ..." "Again showering, eating, lesson ..." "We also got target practice, how you arrest someone ... how to follow a suspect ... detects drugs ... tracks down stolen cars ... and criminology." "But what would be the point, if I was on the payroll of the drug mafia?" "They paid people ... which sooner or later would be. recruited by them" "Nowhere else could we ever so much deserve." "We were trained." "Unfortunately, all academies ..." "Mexico ... for all units ... the so-called special police ... the detective, the military police ... and the army ... used by the drug mafia ... and training for their members." "This brings the ... that someone who is an academy has been ... so by the drug mafia is recruited." "He already knows how to deal with weapons ... how to drive a car, how to follow someone ... how to read license plates ... how to recognize faces and how he will never forget them ... and how do you know if you follow someone and you lose him ... where to turn or what other cars have to take over." "At the end of the police academy you graduate." "On the day of the graduation ceremony There is a selection site." "Are studying two hundred off." "Of the two hundred ..." "Chihuahua is a great state." "It's a big state." "Juárez, Villomada, Chihuahua ..." "Parral, Camargo, Delicias ..." "Ojinaga ..." "We are adjacent to Sonora and Durango." "Of which there are two hundred fifty on the payroll of the drug mafia." "So which one hundred fifty divided all cities ... in the state." "But of those fifty remain twenty-five in Juárez." "Five go to Chihuahua ... five to Parral and another five to Ojinaga." "They are so divided ... that when they are commissioned to smuggle drugs from Durango ..." "Sonora and Coahuila ... there is always a member of staff at the border who works for the drug mafia." "In this way the drugs in easily." "Really often police cars are used ... to transport drugs." "Sometimes we only had accompany the trucks." "Then we said, These drugs are protected." "They just go across the border." "When the load Marijuana is made from ..." "Transporting them in such a brutal way." "This is a low-loader ... and pick this one up ... with towing." "In this trailer are boxes." "In those boxes is marijuana." "They drive it through the city ... if she boxes seat with an ordinary content." "This does not concern to one, two, three or four boxes." "It is about thirty, forty, fifty tons ... stored and monitored must be." "Of the recruited boys at the police academy ..." "Of those fifty elements, so to say ... not everyone has the same task." "Some have safe houses guard." "Others have ... guards keep a watchful eye." "Others abduct people ... who owe money or to another gang are defected." "Whether they are engaged ... by diverting people." "And still others are concerned burying people." "This is the President." "And these are the states." "In Mexico, each state a governor." "I can say with certainty ..." "I can not say with certainty that the president interferes with everything." "But he does have control about the people directly under him." "And they're bribed by the drug mafia." "So you have safe houses ... throughout Mexico." "Everywhere." "And along the border, Nogales, Tijuana, Juarez ... even in small places like Ojinaga ... there are houses ..." ", both of which the federal judiciary ... as the governors ... and even the Ministry Interior ... the right of the President of the republic ... know that people are buried." "Not one, two, three or four ..." "More than three hundred, four hundred people." "I can not say Who exactly are." "That is difficult." "You do not know anyone." "But given our work and our environment you know ... that day forty, fifty place a hundred kidnappings." "I can say that of those hundred only five or six will survive." "The rest disappears without a trace." "And they know all that safe houses down." "I can tell you that in those houses ... where about 38 corpses, 80 appear are buried ..." "Here keep police cars this street in the holes." "In this street you also have police cars." "They are bribed, so that they seem not be taken away." "In some places in cities does seem to have been removed." "That's because the DEA or the FBI press have done ... the Government of Mexico." "Actually, it's because they know that there are informants of them." "Here and there worked their informants." "And they have remained there." "I'll tell you something important." "You'll informants of the DEA better not bury ... because they carry a chip." "Previously, they did not." "Using that today, All DEA informants in Mexico there." "And even if they are buried, they are then rapidly localized ... with the aid of a GPS satellite." "And that is a global system." "This is a park." "This is an auditorium." "The person who is going to be kidnapped ... is first three to four days observed." "Do that a few people which are called "eyes"." "For three or four days, if that person lives here ... stand them here or there." "They watch what time he leaves the house, home ... with whom he eats, where he's going." "And almost a week." "They watch what he does, every day, where he's going too ..." "These "eyes" do so, and sometimes they are helped ... by two other cars." "These are no ordinary cars." "They are police cars." "When an ordinary citizen ... go somewhere ... and he sees that he is followed by a patrol car ... with flashing lights and police logos ... then it will not occur to him he will be kidnapped." "Because the police should and protect the population." "The police is not involved kidnappings." "That man really has no idea ... them since the police academy working for the drug mafia ... and have a certain task." "On the day of the kidnapping the police will be alerted." "First: "Get out of this whole area All police cars away ... driving around there. " That is the first." "That is not against the agents in which patrol cars said ... but at the head of the police." "Or:" "Call your staff together 10:00 am ... 10h45 for a meeting." "The message is:" "No police on the street." "We take action." "That person leaves home." "One or two of the same car." "Same patrol cars." "They are not the police, but they are same and do what they need to do." "They follow the target and keep him." "Sometimes the target refuses to quit." "If it's a bummer ... who knows he owes money, he will not quit." "The police car stops him." "He does not stop then those other cars there." "Those cars are so arranged:" "one, two, three, four, five." "The 'eyes' ride back." "Of all those cars will be only one that person kill or abduct." "If the police car can not stop him, is he barred the way." "Even though they have pop against him." "It depends on what the boss wants." "He wants him dead or alive?" "If he wants him dead, it's a cinch." "The 'eyes' and the second car drive there." "The patrol car stays here." "This blocking his path." "You should always watch out for crossfire." "You stand next to him and makes him cold." "Everyone drives away." "In just three minutes, are those five cars ... six, seven blocks away, in safe houses." "He was completely naked." "You put a blanket over him." "Pour gasoline or alcohol." "And light it with a match." "When he's on fire, you give a tug on the blanket." "There will be three layers of skin with it." "Without those three layers of skin his back is completely open." "Then you pour a liter of alcohol." "That does agony." "That interrogation methods that everyone beyond conception." "No problem." "There is enough light." "I told my sizes:" "Good." "Bring him inside." "It's safe." "They came inside." "We opened the door." "They kick his ass." "I said quiet." "Stop it." "Turn off the light." "I turned off the light." "I said to him on your knees." "Forward." "Kneeling." "I said to him: "Listen." When he was already on his knees." "We do nothing." "We captivate you, do a gag in your mouth and blindfold you." "It's for your own good and ours." "Hands behind your back." "He worked I handcuffed him." "We can do nothing." "You just need to give back the money you have spent." "It's not yours." "And are you going to do anyway." "For now, we are waiting for instructions and you do what we say." "Got that?" "Stand up." "It cost him an effort, So we helped him." "We took him to the bathroom." "He thought that he could go good down, but he had to sit in the tub." "You stay there." "When we hear noise or the slightest sound ... then you will suffer for it." "You know what that means." "Sit quietly. we wait for further instructions." "Got that?" "He nodded." "He could not talk." "We closed the door and I said to the boys:" ""Turn on the TV." "Put the music loud." "If he makes noise, we hear nothing." "Take beer. "I remember they went out and brought beer." "After about fifteen minutes The phone rang." "Hello?" "Yeah, we got him." "Should he call his family?" "Properly." "Get the car phone." "That is safe." "Then he can call." "Let's go talk to him." ""Get up." "Come on. " We put it there." "You're going to call your family." "Then you say ..." "Telling them that they are called ... and then they hear where they have to hand over the money." "And tell them to take it seriously, otherwise the worse for you." "If you pay off your debt, you have nothing to fear." "Tell them it's okay." "Good?" "I'll make you loose." "I handcuffed in front, turned him the number and handed him the phone." "He says nothing but smiles." "I hang up." "I say to the boys:" "He does not get it." "He thinks it's funny." "Oh yeah?" "So this is what you want?" "We fill the tub halfway with water." "He must be 'treated'." "Come here." "Are you going to talk?" "Well?" "Are you going to talk?" " No." "Then you stay here." "The other boys were tired and smote him." "So he chose eggs for money." "He wanted to talk to them." "I brought him here." "He was limping." "I let it sit for a while." "When the mirror." "He was fascinated." "Have they delivered the money?" " I think so." "So you let me go." " If we have the money, let you go." "You should not spend that money." "You tried to bend the boss take." "That no one gets in his head." "I pay everything back." "Hopefully your family that and they do not go to the police." "mind you that the boss really is behind everything." "When they go to the police, you're dead." "They keep their mouth shut." "They know what can happen to me." "Would you like to lie in bed?" " Is that possible?" "I brought him there and laid him on the bed." "He slept two or three hours, on this side." "We continued partying." "Your family is trying to outsmart us off." "They have only half of the money delivered." "we know that your bank accounts are empty." "But you possess a few ranches and homes." "Tell your family that they name to put someone else." "The name of a broker." "He will sell homes and ranches." "We have not all the money." "Do you understand?" "This is no joke." "Why is not repaid all if you have it?" "It was 7:45 pm, 7:50 pm." "Just before eight o'clock in the morning." "The phone rings." "It's the boss." ""What do you want us to do?"" "Yes ..." "No, he's here." "He is quiet." "It goes well with him." "Everything is okay." "Where should he go?" "Will do." "That was close." "The bridge is not far from us." "I told my buddies:" "We put him away." "He may shower, dress up, so he looks tiptop." "We need him across the border delivery." "We put him there." "He showered quickly." "One size took some pants, a sweater, sneakers, a razor ..." "He snapped up, shaved ..." "He was happy." "He was beaten black and blue." "That immersion was nothing." "He was not beaten hard. "We're going."" "He felt safe." "What did we do?" "We put him in the back." "I sat on his right." "He is in the middle." "Someone else was left of him, yet another reed." "We crossed the bridge and gave him a couple of sizes." "Then he disappeared from view." "It does not interest me what happened ... with the "packages" that we afleverden." "That was not my job." "Which was accomplished once the 'package' was delivered." "That was my job." "You do not often lots of people need ... to abduct someone or to make cold." "You need someone those brave and experienced ... and steel nerves." "Because if you go through a police is haunted ... you should not always think you're there." "That man who was here, worked three days." "Then he was delivered with someone else, in Juárez." "Our job was done." "This shows that there is the drug mafia are no limits." "If they want something, they have the money and the power ... to anyone anywhere around send." "They buy everyone." "Just as in Mexico The police here corrupt." "I can assure you that in America ... people within the police working for the drug mafia." "For years I have 24 hours a day ... 365 working days per year." "I could have my radio and my phone never take off." "On the day that you do, you're dead ... or would you want to be. really dead" "If you had no reasonable cause not to take ... they knew you wanted it hoods." "And that was your death sentence." "I had only one goal: to serve." "I have long said:" "For me, in the first place  El patron." "In the second place, ..." "ElPatron." "And in third place ..." "ElPatron." "I lived to a person protect  El Patron ." "I did everything the boss told me to." "All he could think of." "I never said I can not." "It is not." "All he wanted, he got." "All he wanted was his." "I'm talking about cars, women, jewelry ..." "There was plenty of money ... to buy. cars and jewelery Women are usually not for sale." "But if he wanted one, one of us had to persuade her." "Often, thousands have ..." "I've never regretted of what I told them." "'S hear there is someone you want to learn know and want from you." "If you come with us, your stay a week in a luxury seaside hotel." "It is a wonderful week." "If you want money, fine." "But the people you meet, you have forgotten for good." "And you do what is asked of you." "If you are in agreement, all will be well." "Many women jumped at." "She went along and live." "Other women wanted us to outsmart be." "I've never seen again." "I am not saying we killed them." "Even though there were young women murdered." "Usually it was so ... that women who were ambitious." "They wanted to marry the boss." "But that was forty women." "He had in every state women." "He had no longer necessary." "It is very to see become a woman. tortured" "It is terrible to see ..." "It is terrible to see how ..." "They are abused." "Nobody really cares about." "It's different from a man who knows ..." "If you're dealing with a man who knows ... he stole or a debt and who does not regret ... of his deed ... and who wanted to disappear without a trace without solving.'s fault off" "It's different to see a woman suffering and to show mercy." "To see her be raped by not one, but seven men." "And then ... do you let her suffer them become unconscious." "And finally ..." "To strangle them is terrible." "You can shoot them better." "Strangle someone is terrible." "You see how they suffer and lose hope." "You feel how life slipping slowly from them." "You see that friend ... a line has." "When they are about half, they begin to die." "The force with which they resist, begins to decrease." "Their body begins to give." "The" "But then you Slack your grip a little." "That person again." "He comes back to life." "You will ensure that it takes a very long time ... so he slowly suffocates and dies a lot." "In addition, you start to learn ... the drug cartel or drug cartels leave messages ... by means of a corpse." "You get the contract:" "Dump him and make sure he is on his back." "That's a message." "dump him and make sure he's on his belly." "That's a different message." ""Cut a finger off and put it in his mouth. "A message." ""Cut a finger off and put it in his anus. "Message." "Sting his eyes." "Cut out his tongue." "In such situations, and you're not a doctor or physician ..." "You get a job and take him out." "If you have been instructed to strangle someone ..." "Then you can easily a body cut off, because he does not bleed." "The blood is no longer flowing." "I remember ..." "Someone made ?" "a mistake and started a 'patient' store together." "As we call them." "He kicked at his head." "There was a gaping wound." "He was huge on his lazer." "I said:" "But he's going to die anyway." "He may have to kick him right?" "Why is he going to get his ass?" "they gave a very logical explanation." "If you do that he is dead, you have to remove the carpet ... and the bloody mess to clean." "First you kill him." "Then you can cut what you want." "That you do not learn in the police academy." "Not even a military academy." "That you learn in life." "There comes a time that nowhere anymore." "Not because you're such a good person, but because you ... have so much on your mind ... you always drugs and alcohol." "Otherwise you suffer conscience." "Then you drive in your car and you will overtaken by another car." "Is there anything?" "I have something for you?" "I'll shoot you." "He pulls you in and looks at you." "Only reason you shoot him dead." "You do not even." "Know that man" "That kind of incidents took regular ... to someone of a higher rank ... forbade it." "They wanted the number of random keep murders in hand." "I remember that sometimes we commissioned got to abduct someone." "Not to kill him. first had to we abduct him." "Then kill." "We kidnapped him, took him to a safe place ... and we went to murder him." "Fast." "We had him really torture, but killing." "Suddenly the phone rings." ""Wait, it's the boss."" "You tell me, boss." "Yes, boss." "Stop." "We had to let him recover ... while he was almost suffocated. we had to wake him back to life." "Make sure he's breathing." ""I can not."" "Boss, we need a doctor." "It does not work." "Us" "He is already as good as dead." "For a drug lord's nothing impossible." "In a few minutes there was a doctor at the door." "No ambulance, but a doctor that the man brought back to life." "He made ?" "sure he was stable." "It may be an hour, two hours or take half a day ... physician continues until the man is stable." "Then we take it again." "That can be five, ten, two weeks, take a month." "No problem." "We need to keep him alive and monitor ... until we are called again." "When that happens ... is a liberation." "Both for us and for him." "Yes, boss." "You name it." "We are waiting for your call." "It goes well with him." "He eats." "Whether he eats well?" "No, really well." "He is better off." "Well, boss." "You name it." "This time our friend had no luck." "Maybe his family had already paid." "Whether he was kept alive for If he had to talk. with his family" "The assignment during that call was:" "Finish him." "He was once saved suffocation." "This time there was no turning back." "There was no phone call. the cord should be fastened tightly." "One time ... was the order that for exactly thirty days ... nobody even a packet of cocaine ... could sell." "A packet of cocaine is enough." "No one was allowed to sell it." "Why?" "There appeared about 3000 pounds to have disappeared. cocaine" "And it so happened ... that the small dealers, which the drug cartel an eyesore were ... that did not care." "They were still unaware the orders of the drug cartel." "What happened?" "These people were identified and they were rerouted." "We are talking about here a mass murder." "About 70 men." "Before ... there had been a problem." "This time with car thieves." "The number of thefts got out of hand." "It was so bad that the police help turned on by the drug cartel ... to roll. gangs of car thieves" "There were about 45 young people eliminated ... who were involved in car theft." "These people were not arrested by a particular group." "You can not say that only  sicarios  were behind it." "The municipal police, state police ... the federal police and drug cartel were involved." "We are talking about a group eight hundred people ... those 70 drug dealers and 45 car thieves cleared out of the way." "Their bodies were buried ... in different neighborhoods and homes in the city." "Not everyone was killed instantly." "Of all the people which were taken ... had some two or three days wait." "Those people had contacts within the drug cartel." "They enjoyed special privileges." "Many of them ..." "I say a lot, because there were 15 to 50, got the chance to stay alive." "Why?" "Because they are in a sense, informants were of the drug cartel." "In return was that informants of the cartel asked ... informants to the police to be designated." "Not only the Mexican police ... but also of informers who went to the USA ... to tell us what happened in Mexico." "Those people ... got ... a very special treatment." "I remember that once vessels with 200 liters of water were heated." "We hung a winch above." "These people were ... hung on their shoulders ... and slowly into the boiling water lowered." "When she fainted, they were removed." "A doctor gave them bijkwamen." "The body parts that burned and were boiled, were cut off." "If they bijkwamen, they were again lowered slowly." "Until they lost their lives." "When you ..." "I tell it like it is, lavidaloca,leads..." "If you ... have money ... drink ... women and sex ... cars ..." "You can relax on a yacht sailing ..." "You have houses, apartments ..." "That are not yours, but you can use them." "That goes through your work." "Then you just do not get addicted to drugs, money, booze and sex." "You simply enjoy immensely." "I was very violent." "Dreams are not something that will never happen." "Your fears ..." "I was afraid to be home ... and sleep. with my family I often slept somewhere else." "often, and most people have that ... react violently at the slightest sound." "If you are in bed and your wife comes in and she touches you ..." "You think about all those atrocities." "Your head seems to burst." "Then you, as in my case ... your wife hurt." "Once the sweat broke out." "I screamed." "She tried to help me." "I had a nightmare." "She tried to wake me up." "I grabbed her by the throat." "I did not respond." "She screamed." "I was my own wife to strangle." "At that moment I realized ... that there was something severely wrong with me." "During the whole period of which I tell ... there is a moment in your life ... you ..." "This is your lifeline." "You live your life, but then you reach your final frontier." "An extreme limit so I at a given moment ... stopped drinking, smoking and drugs." "I said I'm done." "On that day ... was the person who stood above me, enormous fun." "He asked me a line of coke?" "No, thanks." "A drink?" "No, thanks." "A cigarette?" "No, thanks." "He burst out laughing." "What do you have? "I'm done."" "Can you work so well on?" "I'm the one who does the work." "Not cocaine, cigarettes or liquor." "But I knew there was something in my life was, so I changed." "If I influenced of drink and drugs was ..." "I could not think clearly what I really should do." "When I started to put that step ... when they mock me ..." "I began to feel persecuted by my own measurements." "I was demoted, became increasingly lower grade." "I got chores that a  sicario  usually did not." "A  sicario  that 20 years had been refurbished. dirty work for them" "I had to wash cars from them." "That anyone could do." "Before I got a lot less money than I was used to." "It was humiliating." "They showed me that a month, do a half months." "Then I got a new job." "A very simple still." "I had to collect money that someone was guilty." "When the man saw me, He was amazed." "It was not logical that I that little bit of money picked." "He was so surprised that he immediately me about 50 percent reported ... of what he was my boss guilty." "Of those 50 per cent I kept myself 10 percent." "I used again lapse. in my bad habits" "Three to five days I was using drugs again ... and I drank again ..." "It was  la vida loca." "My boss let his people look at me." "I came back." "I did my phone and broke it in contact with them." "They were angry I had taken that money." "Not so much the amount." "Whether one dollar or ten grand was well ..." "They trusted me when they gave me the job." "That confidence was now gone." "It was not about the money, but for the confidence they have in you." "I was ashamed that trust." "She talked to me and even threatened they would abduct my family." "So I just picked up the phone and talked with them." "I asked where they wanted to meet." "It was hard." "I made a decision that I immediately the noose was convicted." "They could kill me. they had lost confidence in me." "I took the bus to town where we agreed." "When I got there, there was nobody." "I called them again with a public telephone." "There were two small cars collide." "I stepped quietly." "They came to me." "If I do not quietly boarded, they would make me." "I stepped quietly to no uproar cause. in that street" "They take me to a safe house." "There they begin to whip me and torture." "Suddenly I'm ..." "Suddenly I get so furious I burst into tears." "They think because of the pain." "Of course not." "I cry because I'm scared I am doing something that five men." "They are not capable of to hold me." "I was not handcuffed or tied." "I could hurt." "I get called by one of the bosses." "He says:" "You have 30 seconds to leave." "We want to see you again." "At that time I was completely naked." "I'm still guarded by a man." "He says:" "I have nothing against you." "Go." "He goes to the bathroom." "I grab my chance and run out the front door." "Poodle Nude." "I keep running until someone helps me and gives me a lift." "So I come home." "Once there, I can not enter. through the front door" "I ask the neighbors behind if I can climb over. these wall" "I knew they were looking for me." "They did not let me free in the sense I was a free man." "They wanted to divert me." "I had worked for them for twenty years." "I know how they work." "After my release I had to disappear without a trace." "I climbed over the wall, called my family together, my wife and my daughter ... and we left." "I only had time to address." "T-shirt and shorts" "That night was looted our house." "They took weapons, uniforms, drugs and money with it." "Our family went out together." "We were not safe anywhere." "My fate was uncertain." "We could not stay together." "I did not want them to me together got to grips with my family." "Then they would all three of us murder." "So we broke up." "We fled from state to state, from city to city." "We never saw." "Together We went our separate ways." "We had no money." "Nothing." "Still, we managed to get us slowly to free from this prison ... which we had been so long." "We could not be together." "I had to return to the only place ... where nobody knew me and nobody could help me." "Since you only had a man ..." "I had been looking for months to abduct." "He was the drug cartel of money." "That man expecting me al" "I called and he could see me." "To my surprise, said his secretary:" "He expects you al Follow me if you want." "I was even more surprised when I saw him in his office." "He was quiet, as if nothing would happen." "He gave me a hand and said, What can I do for you?" "He expected me al Something told him that I would come and that something was bothering me." "He listened for a few minutes intently at me." "Then he says:" "You have to teach someone know." "Come on, I suggest it to yourself." "He takes me to a huge building." "A church." "Something like that." "A huge building." "Really big." "We go inside." "To my surprise, I see hundreds of ... no, thousands of people." "They were all, and they sang and shouted." "They sang and worshiped ..." "As I walked along the rows, I saw to my surprise men ..." "They were crying and emotional by what they experienced at that time." "I did not understand it." "She screamed." "It looked like a bunch of cousins?" "." "I witnessed of what they experienced." "I was surprised so many people to see." "They shouted, standing on ..." "It was impressive to go where ... that building" "Not ten, twenty or thirty." "Hundreds." "Rows and rows of just people." "It was not about the numbers." "I had seen demonstrations." "Who have often in Mexican cities." "But these people jumped up, guilds with their arms in the air." "And even worse, some layers crying on the floor." "I said it looks like a madhouse." "It looked like a bunch of cousins?" "." "I never thought of thousands of people to see with their arms in the air ... from one leg to the other jumping ... while they sang and wept." "I had never seen anything like it." "I was stunned." "Then it was time to leave." "We were tired." "The next morning he wakes asked me and say, Come." "Where?" " Where we were yesterday." "I say:" "No." "They are a bunch of cousins?" "." "They cry and jump all the time." "He says:" "Let's go." "I give you this opportunity." "You live with me." "Accept him." "And he takes me along." "Once there, We sit in one of the rows." "I turn around and re- I realize how many people there are." "What do all those thousands of people Here?" "I turn back to and see a huge stage." "The music begins. people begin to sing, praise ..." "My friend puts his hand on my shoulder." "A friend of his does too, and they cry for me." "When I heard their prayers, I got a haze before my eyes." "I felt an intense heat." "I knew not what it was." "Suddenly I fell down." "That to me was a crucial moment." "I was just cooking my body, my blood boil." "I can not explain it." "Tears streamed down my face." "None of the tissue was able to dry my tears." "No hanky could that stream tears dry." "It was so ..." "I turned around." "I wanted to get up and control myself." "I could not." "I cried on." "The whole day we were in that church, I did nothing but cry." "I did not what was happening around me." "We were there for eight hours and I did not know what was happening." "I just cried ... as happened at that moment something to me." "Something much heavier gers than what the others felt." "I had that gay and nieces mocked." "Now it happened to me." "I heard in which cousins?" "." "I cried like a child." "I saw myself as a child." "I saw my life pass me." "As a child, adolescent ... my whole life." "Beautiful things ..." "I thought of my parents, to my childhood, to the fine moments." "The circus." "I thought of my mother. to my brothers and sisters." "We had fun." "Everything I had forgotten." "I had left everything behind someone submit that it was not worth it." "My heart was filled with happiness." "I said:" "What is happening?" "This is good." "It does me good." "I liberated myself from that yoke, of the burden I bear." "All these years under the yoke of the drug cartels ..." "Under the yoke of those guys that put me under pressure ... and gave me a job after job." "Of this I freed me." "It was a wonderful experience." "I was overcome with emotion." "I did not know that he was crying." "I just realized that something was happening." "The following day they said" "Come forward if you want to receive the Lord." "It was automatic." "I did not even say:" "I want to." "I stood up and walked forward." "I said a few little prayers, a few sentences." "Yes, I want it." "I love him." "I feel it." "I want to belong to this family, with him." "He gave me something special." "I know how beautiful life is." "How nice it is to be free, to be ... with my brothers and sisters to have a family I no longer had." "Then he called me ... he let me wallow in the mire." "He took me off the last penny I had kept it." "He took me off my clothes my thoughts, all ..." "He shook me off." "And you know what?" "Through him I have nothing ... than my own skin ..." "I'm naked, along with my family." "And so we can begin a life in the Lord." "El Sicario fled Ciudad Juárez end of 2007" "He now lives in freedom as fugitive there is a premium of $ 250,000 on his head" "He's in Mexico or the United States never charged with a crime" "in Juárez since January 1, 2008 more than 5,000 people killed eight to ten thousand soldiers and agents patrol the city" "Juarez is the most violent city world" "Translation:" "Chantal van Leeuwen Broadcast Text International"