"OUR LOVE SO TALL HAS JUMPED THE WALL..." "What makes me suffer... is feeling something that would make any woman happy... which is being loved by you." "You're so generous, so good, so loving." "And you say such lovely things." "It all upsets me and makes me feel quite desperate." "The more I think about giving myself to you... the more scared I become about what would happen to me..." "If ever your love were to die." "LOVE ME FOREVER OR NEVER" "You'll come through the door I left ajar." "I've thought of nothing else for an hour." "You walking under the light from the garden." "Before you arrive... you're here." "I hear your heart beat in the street." "Beating..." "Beating because you are coming to see me." "I know I make you nervous." "I know you've got dressed up to see me." "I know you know, I know what you were." "Your only treasure is what I no longer know." "You called me up." "Two years together and two months since I've seen you." "When I hear your voice the world quietens." "Your voice sounds calm over the phone" "I feel protected by the false security of your voice." "I run to you in panic and know you'll take me in." "You'll gradually prove you are the sanctuary and I the shipwreck." "I know..." "But I put up with the humiliation to look into your eyes and think:" ""My man!" "my man!"" "My lost man but always, eternally, my man." "But I'll weaken you yet..." "By the end of the evening you'll be flat on your back." "I'll touch up my lipstick." "I'll put on my high heels and leave, thinking... sleep well, my little man." "Go to sleep, my baby." "That's my boy." "And I'll go back to a world where everything spins... like a harlequin carnival." "And I'll be unhappy..." "a nothing." "You'll arrive and you'll come in." "You'll break realism." "When you arrive, everything changes." "I don't love this man anymore." "Or do I?" "Or don't I?" "Yes or no?" "Do I love him?" "When she arrives, everything changes." "The chairs will move..." "The tables will spin round and round..." "I'll lose control of my loneliness." "I can cope with myself alone." "But when you come..." "I flip..." "You know every trick to throw me into the abyss." "You are a question mark." "A window open to the air." "Hello!" "Ok?" "Say something." "Say what?" "I don't know..." "Words." " You look different." " So do you." "Turn this way." "Funny." "I'd forgotten what your hair looked like like that." "It's strange, isn't it?" "3 months is a long time without seeing each other." "Yes, it is." "You look calmer..." "Of course." "Not so much tension." "Breaking up is hard." "Me too." "I'm..." "I'm a lot calmer now, but..." "Less responsibilities, less... routine." "I feel freer, more... calm." "Right." "I caused you a lot of worry." "No." "It's not that." "You were great." "You are great." "It's got nothing to do with the person." "It's more..." "The structure of the relationship." "The situation..." "The very structure was tense." " It was very tense." " Rigth." "But we're fine now." " Rigth." "We're fine!" " Great!" "Have we broken up yet?" "Where does that leave me?" "Have we broken up yet?" "Where am I?" "Look..." "The two innocents." "Turn it off." "I don't know..." "I think we did the right thing by breaking up." "And we are still friends." "We broke up because we had to." "It was fundamental." "Right." "One thing I'm sure of is I know it was good for you..." "I tortured you with pathological kindness." "Let me explain." "My conscience is clear." "I never wished you any harm." "I saw you as the object of my love." "It used to worry me:" ""That woman's being tortured by my kindness."" ""I'm preventing her from seeing the rough side of life."" ""I can't go on being a mother to her."" "In fact, I want you to forgive me for one thing." "I want you forgive one thing..." "Forgive me for being... good." "He's trying to drive me out of my mind." "His mind's like some crazy Coney Island." "He's putting me on his mental Roller Coaster." "He's sticking me on a spider's web... a circus..." "He makes me laugh and stabs me in the back." "He defends the harmony of the world and I'm the plague." "You son of a bitch!" "You say you were good?" "You want forgiveness for being good?" "You're crazy!" "So, when you were "good" to me you were being bad." "So when you were bad you were being good." "In other words..." "By being sorry for being good, since goodness is evil, you end up being perfect, don't you?" "Well, I won't forgive you." "I think you were always a bastard." "Always." "A bastard when you were good, and when you are bad." "You were always bad." "Tell me." "Tell me the truth for once in your life." "Didn't you screw around when you were married to me?" "Tell me." "I'm not your wife anymore, so you can tell me." "Who were you fucking all that time?" "Well..." "I screwed a Canadian tourist in São Paulo." "She spoke English but came in French." "Then there was someone with the amazing name of Marineide." "She picked me up at the traffic lights and took me to a motel." "The motel was called the Pink Panther." "Then there were a couple of late night affairs." "A transvestite..." "A transvestite?" "Yes." "I only figured it out in the bedroom." "Then..." "Who?" "Your cousin Jacira when she was drunk, standing up... in the bathroom at Miriam's on Christmas Eve." "Well that's very nice!" " And then?" " Then?" "Well..." "Then about 27 others..." "more or less." " How many?" " 27." "Perfect!" "And there I was, tortured with guilt." " No one you know." " Thank you very much!" "Well, no need to look at me likr that." "Thank you very much!" "Look, I'm only telling you the truth for once." "Thank you very much!" "I'm going." "Don't know why I bothered to come here." "Every time we see each other someone gets hurt." "I get fucked up every time I go near you." "I felt guilty for months." "And you... 27 women." "I'm just an idiot!" "And you look at me as if I broke up our matrimony." "I never accused you of that." "I'm free." "Drunk... free." "I'll tell him I'm leaving... that love is over." ""Look... it's all over."" "And you... 27 women." "Who are these 27 women?" "There aren't 27 women in the whole of Rio." "Listen!" "I never stopped loving you for one minute." "I was jut exercising my freedom." "That's all." "When you fell in love with another guy... lightning struck." "An electric ray." "Midnight lightning..." "I felt imprisoned in hate." "It was killing me." "The only thing I could do was save myself from you." " From me?" " Yes." "Save myself from me." "That night when I got home, you were... naked in bed." "I'd been round all the bars looking for you." "I felt like a woman and you were the bad guy." "You lay there and opened your legs and said," ""I'm in love with another guy."" "You looked huge, like a woman on a billboard." "I remember..." "I remember that... from between your legs there came a mystery..." "I imagined the other guy's sperm coming out like a river, a lake which I would drown in." "I scuttled off like a mouse." "So, when I screwed those women..." "It was a triumph for me." "Do you understand?" "Slowly the mouse got bigger." "I was getting my soul back." "My soul had gone like water down the drain." "You were... a giant." "I was swallowed up." "So I was a dwarf." "So..." "I'm trying to explain that I was trying to save myself." "I was trying to save myself..." "from being a mouse." "And saving you." "I saved you." "I saved you from being the evil giant." "So everything I do is evil and you only do good?" "I don't know if it's good or bad..." "Stop talking about good and bad." "That doesn't exist." "The giant and the mouse don't exist either." "I'm just a poor woman and you're a poor man," "I know that now." "Something happened, and our souls got mixed up." "We can't stay together or we'll die." "Life, everything dies." "Only we remain." "I left you because..." "I loved you too much." "Say that again." "I don't believe it" "I left you because I loved you too much." " Loved or love?" " Loved, love, I don't know." "When I'm away from you things go back to normal." "The world seems democratic." "Close to you the dream, the gel starts." "When you look into my eyes... everything disintegrates and I become a mouse again..." "A mouse that squeaks away down the hole..." "You frighten me." "Those women saved me from you." "Shut up!" "That's enough!" " Can I...?" " Shut up!" "...say something?" " No." "Just one word." "Ok." "We have a disease we must cure." "We've both caught a slimy, extra-terrestrial disease." "It sticks us together." "We become a gel, a third person." "We have to save ourselves from each other." "For God's sake, save me from you and I'll save you from me." "Are you through?" " Save ourselves from each other." " What?" "We must kill this love." "Shut up!" "Could it be I'll never forget you?" "Could it be I'll never..." "look into a mirror... without seeing your reflection?" "Could it be I'll never see rain... without seeing it wet your face?" "Ok." "Let's go on..." "Tell me:" "Why did you call me here?" "Why?" "I don't know." "I just wanted..." "Sometimes I feel... we don't really know why we broke up." "What do you mean?" "For Christ's sake, please just listen to me." "It's not possible... that one human being cannot listen to another sometimes." "I sometimes feel you've never understood me." "I've never got over what I feel about you." "It's crazy, I know." "I'd like to say a word and convey its full meaning... and be understood." "Do you understand?" "No." "It's like this..." "There must be a word that, once spoken, can change the world." "There seems to be a river between us." "I'd like to say the truth and the river would disappear." "I want to tell you the truth." "If only you'd listen..." "Do I have to kill you to make you hear me?" "Do I have to hurt you to make you hear me?" "For God's sake, don't love me that much." "For me your love just glorifies you, makes you beautiful." "And what about me?" "I am your pride." "I'm your fashion parade in the streets." "I'm you in a dress." "I want you to understand me so much." "Be quiet." "Listen to my madness." "One must listen to each other sometimes." "There must be a word that can change the world." "Listen." "So." "I won't have to kill you in order to live." "I want to say everything!" "I want my soul to come out through my mouth... and I'll lie down dead like I've been run over." "Naked... entirely visible to you." " We loved each other so much!" " But what should we say?" "Say what we don't say about what we feel." "But now we've been separated for 3 months?" "Now you're going out with Rita and I'm having an affair with..." "With whom?" "With..." "Think of a name, you idiot." "Who?" "The guy at the Stock Exchange." "What was his name?" "Or how about Silverstein, the erotic dentist?" "Who?" "With nobody." "I'm not having an affair yet..." "But I will soon, don't worry." "I want love..." "I want to love..." "I want a man who treats me well." "One who lets me sit on his lap and be weak." "I want a man who lets me be a woman." "You didn't let me love you." "I want a man who buys me jewelry." "That won't be easy." "Yes, it will." "There are thousands after me." "I just haven't found the right one." "I want to love." "I want to be happy!" "Happy!" "Why this crazy for happiness?" " No one's happy." " I want to have a date," "A date?" "That's not much use." "You'll never speak." "You'll never give yourself." "You don't say what you feel." "Say what, for fuck's sake?" "That I was mad about you?" "That the day you kissed me the paving stones shone like stars?" "Is that it?" "What an absurd comparison!" "The cobblestones were blue stars." "I looked at you, my love, and you were my love." "You looked like a TV star." "There was a screen of light around you." "You looked like Marlon Brando." "Then, I remember... the sea behind you came alive as if to spill onto the beach." "The pink light filtered in from the ice-cream parlor neon." "And you covered my eyes like this." "And you kissed me on the mouth." "When you took your hand away," "I opened my eyes... and the world had changed." "Everything looked different." "In the pink light that came in through the hotel window." "You are not a woman." "You don't know... what it's like to have your first man." "To know... you have fallen in love." "I opened my legs for you." "I remember exactly." "When you came into me..." "I thought, "My God!" "It's Christmas!"" "It's Carnival." "It's St. John's Eve." "Daddy's come home from town." "I must tell daddy." "My God!" "What will become of me?" "The man of my life has arrived." "What will become of me?" "What will become of me?" "What will become of me?" "Suddenly she... spoke." "My God!" "It's true." "How's it going to end?" " At her..." " Kiss me feet." " Bite me." "Kiss..." "I think..." "I'm in love." "I love... her." "I love her." "No one move." "No one speak." "I bet he won't stand the silence." "No... she expressed herself well." "She is a... black hole." "I won't... kiss her." "Even though I love her." "She's suggesting she loved me more than I loved her." "She wants to prove she's superior in love." "I don't know, up yours!" " Up yours!" " What?" "What's yours?" "I mean, how about a drink?" "Drink?" "What is he playing at?" "It's unbelievable how he can't stand being loved." "Now I've said what I feel and showed some emotion... all he can say is "have a drink."" ""Have a drink", my ass!" "Are you a bartender or something?" "Only if it's a gin'n'tonic'n'tears!" "Look at me." "That's enough." "Do you hear?" "I'm leaving." ""Have a drink" is a symbol... of everything that's happened over the last few years." "You don't know what love is." "Well, ok." "I don't blame you." "Do you hear?" "I understand." "You can't love." "It's your symptom." "What can I do?" "What has one woman got that the others haven't?" "Who is she?" "Could I turn into a woman one day?" "Will I turn into her?" "Might she kill me one day?" "Who's this beautiful man coming toward me," "looking and smiling at me as if he knew me?" "But he doesn't know me." "I don't know him." "Even so, I've seen him before... when I thought I wanted to see someone I didn't know, but who would be as beautiful as him coming toward me," "looking and smiling at me as if he knew me." "You don't even know the first time I saw you at a party." "You don't know I was there." "It's funny." "I saw your hair before I saw you." "Then you turned round, laughing at somebody else." "You didn't see me." "I saw your face." "I couldn't take my eyes off you." "Almost as if I saw everything that was going to happen." "That's it!" "As if I was remembering everything that would happen." "Listen..." "When I penetrated you for the first time, it was like penetrating a forest." "A rain forest." "I thought I heard applause." "And I thought..." ""My God!" "I'll never stop coming!"" "And I didn't stop and I heard applause." "I thought..." ""My God!" "I've scored a goal!"" "I've scored a goal for Brazil!" "There were skyrockets!" "A feeling of victory..." "the World Cup." "I thought, "This girl giving me everything, all this pleasure Where's her father?" "Is no one taking care of her?" "Will her parents... let her drive me crazy with passion?" "Won't anybody do anything about it?" "How can I live without you?" "A man's truth is diferent from a woman's." "I did everything for you, godammit!" "God, I really tried to make it work." "I made sacrifices, I cried..." "How good I am." "You should kneel down and thank me." "On your knees." "I'm good and you're bad." "Bad!" "I was about to leave." "You're bad!" "You're a bastard!" "Great!" "If that's all we have to prove... then everything's settled." "Now we can shut up." "It's taken 2 years to come to that conclusion." "Two years to find out she's a tramp!" "If you answer the question you win 20 boxes of washing powder." "Which one washes whiter?" "Have you done the 30-day test?" ""Yes, indeed." And so?" ""I concluded my husband is a dirty pig."" "What about you, ma'am?" ""I'm pure as the driven snow." "I wash whiter."" "Two years to reach that conclusion." "Two whole years." "Anyway, forget it!" "I can't stand this conversation anymore." "Brazil owes 100 billion dollars." "The masses are howling at our doors." "And we just go blabbering on like a married couple." "It's not of the slightest importance for human life." "The end is night, history goes on and we in this mediocrity..." "Fuck history!" "Fuck international politics!" "Only one thing interests me in my life." "Proving I'm a bastard and you're Ok." "Right?" "You got it!" "Ok." "Ok." "So now we just shut up." "Right?" "You have nothing else objective to say, have you?" "No." "Then you might as well go." "I was about to leave." "Go then." "I am going." "You go and I'll..." "stay here." " Look." " What?" "You... you..." "I'm sorry for coming here and attacking you." "That's Ok." "Didn't I ask you round?" "So..." "So... off you go, then." "If you'll excuse me I'll go upstairs." "Why are you crying?" "Don't cry, honey." "Don't cry." "This isn't the time or the place." "Don't cry, yourself." "You think it's easy?" "I took one of your pajamas..." "in my case." "I did." "It's become a secret addiction." "I go and look at them at night." "I look at your pajamas." "They're so cute." "It's like you'd died, or something." "You think it's easy?" "You think it's easy for me?" "When I see a girl in the street, I see you." "I look at a sign and I see your name." "The other day I burst into tears at a sign that said," ""Pipers and Mufflers."" "I don't know why but it sounded so nostalgic." ""Pipers and Mufflers."" "Suddenly the whole thing seems crazy... us breaking up." "I still keep to my side of the bed." "As if you were coming home late." "It's just as if you'd died." "I feel so lonely I nearly bought a dog the other day." "But I didn't." "I was scared it wouldn't like me." "And that plant at Mom's." "The anthurium." "I'm afraid of it." "It's crazy to be afraid of a plant." "I don't water it to see if it'll die." "I'm frightened it'll seek revenge." "You never know." "It could be carnivorous." "It's amazing, amazing." "I wander around the streets... talking to you as if you were there." "The other day I turned to the cab driver and said," ""What's wrong with you is you're too classy..."" "I said that to the driver." "Can you imagine?" "A big, fat black driver!" "But you're a man." "It's easy for you..." "I'm a woman, honey..." "People won't leave me alone on the street." "I can't even have a drink on my own." "You don't get married just to have a drink!" "It's so depressing." "Let's get it straight!" "You wanted a separation." "Who packed my case and left it outside the door?" "I did." "So?" "Who gave me a deadline to get out?" "I did." "So?" "This whole thing has to have some logic." "Oh my God, I want to die." "Ah, come on, cut it out!" "You're trying to drive me crazy, aren't you?" "Know what I really want deep down?" "A way of getting rid of you." "To get rid of you." "So tell me, for Christ's sake." "I left you... because I didn't love you anymore." "I left you... because I didn't love you anymore." "She was mine a few hours back." "My wife." "Now that I've lost her, she's everything." "She's so far away, so big..." "She's from another planet." "Green lips... black flags." "The smell, the blue rays..." "My God!" "How can a woman be so magical?" "It's a miracle!" "Call me, kill me, woman of light." "Take me in your starry spacecraft... and let me cry... on your lap on the beach of the furthest planet." "You look at me and don't feel anymore..." "No more emotion." "Isn't that so?" "That's right." "I look you and I don't feel anything anymore." "And I always thought life would be paradise..." "My future was going to be sheer bliss!" "What don't you feel?" "What?" "Oh, I can't remember." "What don't you feel for you?" "What don't I feel for you?" "Nothing." "I don't feel anything for you." "Not even hate..." "Nor resentment..." "Nothing." "Nor love?" "Not even love." "Nothing." "See?" "That's why we can't cry... like 2 separated idiots, or life becomes illogical." "Because logic, mathematical, symbolic logic is necessary." "If you are separated, you don't love." "Cause and effect." "It's a law of Nature." "The apple falls off the tree onto the ground." "So we shouldn't see each other." " Who asked me round?" " I did." "But I shouldn't have." "And you?" "Do you still love me?" "Say you don't love me anymore." "Who, me?" "Well, I..." "I respect you." "I feel tremendous friendship, an association." "2 years in the same bed." "An exchange of nervous stimuli." "Even if considered under the conditioned reflex theory." "There is a relationship between stimulus and response." "A natural phenomenon from the scientific angle," " But..." " But what?" "I don't..." "Why do I want women to leave me?" "I don't love you... anymore." "You're telling the truth, are you?" "The truth?" "I haven't the slightest idea what truth is." "Fuck truth." "Truth is shitty." "Truth is philosophical shit invented by medieval monks... beating their meat in monasteries." "Truth is a load of balls!" "Only objectivity matters." "If we've broken up, let's get on with it." "And to hell with the crap called truth." "But if you want "truth"... then Ok." "I'm telling..." "the truth." "Lie to me, then." "Say something nice to me." "Say what?" "I don't know." "Just lie." "Say you love me." "I love you!" "I adore you!" "Say you can't live without me." "I... can't live without you." "Say you'll die if I don't come back to you." "I'll die... if you don't come back." "That's what I wanted to hear." "You liar!" "You're a dirty liar." "You only know to tell lies, you liar!" "Love is over." "Love is over." "Love is over." "I'm going crazy." "I want a miracle!" "I'm going crazy." "I want a miracle!" "I'm going crazy." "I want a miracle!" "A crime... poison..." "Good-bye, love." "I'm leaving." "I'm turning to crime, to the gutter." "I want the light of the gutter." "Truth... truth..." "and what is truth?" "Is it loving someone?" "Sure!" "Is it being normal?" "Is it being crazy?" "Is it loving everybody?" "Is it loving nobody?" "I don't know what love is." "I only know men and women go crazy in their homes." "When I was married to you..." "I'd pick up a woman off the streets." "and later go back to you, all clean and perfumed." "That's the ideal husband." "The perfect family man." "Once..." "I met a woman in the street." "She was beautiful, blonde." "Just like Marilyn Monroe." "I took her straight to a motel." "When I got there I realized she was a transvestite." "Beautiful... blonde..." "I had her fuck me." "I was fucked by Marilyn Monroe." "When I looked in the mirror I saw Marilyn Monroe kissing my back." "Me, a respectable family man." "Thank God!" "I gave my body to Marilyn Monroe!" "I killed the bad guy in me." "A macho bastard died in me." "I was dying." "I was dying." "Thank God!" "Then I was a starlet." "By day I was a husband." "At night... my real name was Cristina." "And I solicited around Brazil." "I fell in love with that transvestite." "I looked for her every night." "He was there, like a statue of light on the black asphalt." "How beautiful and courageous he was!" "I dreamed about him waiting under the lamp-post." "Then I'd go home and..." "I'd love you better." "I loved you better." "I loved you and him at the same time." "You were mine... my little woman at home." "He was my blond warrior of the night." "That's truth." "It's much more... than "I love you", or "I don't love you."" "I loved you and him at the same time" "One day he disappeared." "I looked everywhere for him." "Marilyn... never again." "Good-bye, Marilyn." "I loved you and him at the same time." "Think I know what love is?" "Just imagine!" "Now listen to the music of our love." "I loved you and him at the same time." "I feel in love with Marilyn Monroe." "I want to open like a watch, like I opened dolls as a kid." "I want to see inside my vagina." "I want men to go in." "Men, fish, fingers, hands..." "Tongues, lips, mouths..." "all inside." "I want to go in a white dress and get all mucky." "Dirty, dirty, dirty..." "Everybody is quiet." "Everyone's feeling good." "Wives waiting for their husbands." "Happy families." "And me here." "Good evening." "What's your name?" "My name is..." "Paquito, senör." "Where are you from?" "What are you doing here?" "I am na ex-human being, a humble chamber-pot salesman." "Then one day, I went crazy." "I met a woman who drove me to ruin." "A robot, a clone called Carmen." "She was an egg-beater that evolved into a ball-buster." "Shut up!" "Tell me your serial number..." "over." "My serial number is 2307." "I was made in 1947... by Thomas Edison X. My name is Daisy." "Would you like to hear a song?" "Crazy!" "He wandered through the streets." "And the poor man was crying." "He turned into a bum." "Hail Mary, full of grace." "The Lord is with Thee." "Blessed art Thou, and blessed is the fruit of Thy womb, Jesus." "Holy Mary take me to Heaven." "Take me to Heaven... no." "How does the Hail Mary go?" "My God!" "I've even forgotten how to pray!" "What is that idiot doing in there?" "I'd really like to go home." "Get my purse..." "Walk along the beach..." "When I fell in love..." "Meeting Tom Jobim, the composer, would be too much!" "Then I'd tell this asshole, "Listen..." "Tom's in love with me."" ""And as you are lower down in the hierarchy of mankind... than Tom Jobim, I'll stay with him."" "You stay there." "You moron!" "I'm going crazy." "I must go." "Mom's afraid of muggers." "Revolver for the muggers." "Mace..." "Straight in the mugger's face." "The guy turns into a statue." "Baby..." "Could I use the phone?" "Sure." "Want me to leave?" "Of course not." "Stay." "Hello!" "It's me." "Everything Ok?" "Alright." "When?" "..." "Yeah, ok." "No." "At night's better." "What?" "A bubble bath?" "Sounds great!" "What?" "What boot?" "The black boots with the high heels?" "I don't mind." "No." "I've got used to it." ""The strawberries have cream on them." "Ok?"" "Waiting for spring." "You didn't understand?" "Then I'll explain." "The strawberries have cream on them." "Ok?" "The walls have ears." "A big kiss, then." "So I'll see you tomorrow, same bat time, same bat channel." "Right." "Kiss, kiss." "So, I'm off." "Off you go, then" "I'll be leaving now." "Go, for God's sake!" "I'll be leaving, then." "Every bird to his own nest." "Right." "Right." "See you, then." "Push off, then!" "I'm leaving everything behind." "purse, shoes, blazer..." "There are some dresses of mine there too." "I'll take them." "YOU WANT MORE?" "Right." "Fine." "Bye!" "Go... go..." "Go, you asshole daughter of a bitch." "I don't give a fuck!" "Off you go, sweetie!" "Go off to other arms." "But you don't see... the Coke truck coming, and... wham!" "You're wiped off the map." "One less cruel-eater." "If only you knew how cruel you were." "I wish you knew the raw truth." "I just don't tell you who you are because I feel sorry for you." "It's a pity you're not here." "I won't tell her who she is straight to her face." "She'd kill herself in desperation." "Otherwise I'd tell her." "I would." "Well, that's enough." "That's enough, Princess." "Now you're gonna hear the truth:" "The whole truth about you." "Know who you are?" "Just imagine you're in front of me." "In an alley with no one watching." "I'm gonna disappear." "But first you're gonna know who you are." "You... are the tube." "A little tube." "The food goes in at the top, through the stomach and out." "This is the first humbleness we should have." ""I am a tube." "I am a shit processor."" "Think she knows this?" "That one day she'll go down the hole?" "She thinks she's different from all the other tubes." ""No..." "I'm a simple, sweet person."" ""My trouble is I'm too sweet."" ""One day I'll unleash my aggressiveness."" ""But I'm sweet." Sweet as a fucking lemon, honey!" "The sourest lime is sweet compared to your cruelty." "Never, never trust sweet fragility." "One day you left me at home and went to see a new lover." "I knew you had a lover." "Your silence told me, "I have a lover."" "You said it through your coldness." ""I have a lover."" "Your cool smile said it." ""I have a lover."" "And I showered you with affection, begged you not to kill me." "I could feel the guillotine was ready to fall." "I could see the blade up in the dark, rainy sky." "The blade that would cut off my head." "And I shook and shook with fear." "When she put on a dress, I could see on the silk..." ""I have a lover."" "When she combed her hair or put on lipstick: "I have a lover."" "I shall revel in your pain." "And your lipstick mouth would smile coldly." "Undulating in my fever." "I... have... a lover." "And what about me?" "What about me?" ""What about me?" Thought I." ""What about me?" Me thought." "What about me?" "I thought." "What's to become of me?" "Will I be thrown onto the road like an empty bottle?" "Now I know, for when someone gets angelical on "moi"." "I'd realized she didn't love me anymore." "She stopped yesterday, or the day before." "When did she stop?" "She stopped suddenly like a cuckoo clock stops!" "She's stopped loving me!" "She's stopped loving me!" "All women are cows!" "They're worse than men because they stop loving!" "A man never stops." "A woman does!" "Women stop!" "Men never do!" "At what time did her Ladyship... stop loving me and start loving whoever he is?" ""Well, I was going shopping one afternoon..."" "then, at about 3:45... in the "pomeriggio", "I'après-midi"," "I suddenly stopped loving you." "I just stopped... and started loving whatever-his-name-is." "I stopped." "She stopped loving me." "She stopped loving me." "At 3:45 "de la tarde", she stopped." "I saw her silent lipstick mouth... undulating in the air, saying..." ""I don't love you anymore."" "And what about me?" "What's going to happen to me?" "What's to become of me?" "What's to become of me?" "What's going to happen to me?" "What's going to happen to me?" "I loved you so much." "I loved you so much." "Why did you stop loving me?" "Why did you stop loving... me?" "Why did you stop loving me?" "Why did you stop loving me?" "Suddenly I realized the only function I've ever had... in my whole life was to be abandoned." "I was..." "I was the past." "I was the dirt that had to be cleaned so her life could go on." "And I was death." "Buried even deeper I discovered I was turning into a womam." "I was her mother who had to be abandoned." "Not her father, not her uncle but her mother." "The mother you leave in a home and no one ever visits." "I was..." "I was..." "I was..." "her mother." "Thus I conclude that the ultimate end of a good man... his ultimate destiny is to be abandoned by his wife." "That's what a good man was made for." "A woman's real mother is a good man!" "She is owner of all." "Mommy..." "Mommy..." "Mommy..." "Mommy..." "Mommy..." "There's no light, my God!" "You are my reason for living." "You are made of love and hope." "Oh, oh, Mommy..." "I have grown along the way." "Call me, kill me, woman of light." "Take me in your starry spacecraft." "Let me cry on your lap on the beach of the farthest planet." "Call me..." "Kill me..." "Throw my body into space... but don't leave me." "Jesus Christ..." "My black devil." "Jesus Christ bleeding on a dirty cross made in hell." "Save me, Our Lady dressed, dragging me... stiletto-heeled wiggling on a pink stage." "Our Father who art in heaven..." "I'll hang upside down with my legs open..." "May I say something?" "Let me say just one small thing." "No!" "You think you know something, don't you?" "Let me tell you, you know nothing!" "Who am I?" "Can you say "l"?" "Can a woman say "I'?" "I can't say"!" "I was nothing!" "I've never been anything!" "I was brought up to be crazy." "And you're on their side." "You married me to carry on the job of my 100 mothers." "20,000 uncles and 80 trillion aunts." "There's no other decent reason why you married me." "I never thought about what I wanted but what they wanted." "The more I obeyed, the heavier my conscience." "It felt as if I had a stone in my head." "What a crime did I commit?" "They know but they won't tell." "I was brought up to be a one-guy girl." "I was brought up to love an American film star." "I convinced myself of it." "I would be somebody's." "I would be yours." "Because I am good," "I obeyed him." "I obeyed everybody, always." "The more I obeyed, the heavier my conscience grew." "Guilty!" "And I feel guilty all day long." "My grandmother..." "I remember my grandmother." "She saw me rubbing myself against the Chinese cushion." "It was embroidered with dragons that scratched my things." "It felt so good." "My grandmother saw me rubbing myself... and locked me in a dark room full of floating pricks." "My grandmother was so bad." "My mother was so white..." "What crime did I commit, my God?" "They know but won't tell me." "I, 15, life and family." "My mother in the living-room talking to a friend..." "I've taken my daughter out of ballet classes." "The atmosphere... ballerinas." "Her father said..." ""Stop her ballet classes or she'll end up a chorus girl."" "They said, "Didn't you know... there are girls there..." "ballerinas who do it..."" "I, thank God, have only had intercourse with my husband." "There were temptations, but I always demanded respect." "One day, in fact, I was in an elevator in Copacabana... as a man got in and pulled out his pecker." "I grabbed hold of it and squeezed it... as hard as I could." "He yelled so hard!" "I screamed for the janitor." "The poor man was howling in pain... because I was squeezing it with all my strength." "We went past the 7th, 8th and on the 9th floor, I let go." "He ran off as fast as he could." "That certainly taught him a lesson." "And I feel guilty." "What did I do?" "I didn't do anything." "I've got to make a crime or I'll go mad." "I've got to make a crime or I'll go mad." "I tried to tell you..." "Do something for us." "Save us... save us." "But you didn't hear." "You started to send me away." "I felt... you do it through your indifference to me." ""Get someone else"." "I felt it in your coldness." "Your trust in me was an insult." "But I, in our marriage," "I was so good to you." "But in our rosy happiness... there was brutality..." "cruelty... which makes me frightened when I think about today" "You prepared me." "You taught me to make you suffer." "Now I understand it all." "I'm a good person who had to be bad to satisfy you." "No... no... no..." "I loved you, for God's sake!" ""Yes, Mommy." "Yes, dear." "Yes, my love."" "I really loved you." "You were my President... yes, everybody... yes, my love..." "Yes, I'll kiss you whenever you say." "At night everybody went to bed." "I'd stay there thinking." ""Who am I?"" "Then I went mad." "I started liking being nothing." "I like being nothing." "I like being nothing." "Nothing..." "I wash, I shave my legs, spread cream on my face." "and on my thighs, and wait for you to come." "I wait for your cock to come." "The cock... comes at night." "He comes nearer and nearer..." "It penetrates me and I dissolve in lipstick and cream." "I'm going crazy." "I'm going crazy." "He's coming." "I'll lie down." "I'll open my legs." "I'll kiss him and smile." "I'll pretend I haven't gone crazy." "He'll never notice I've gone crazy." "Until one day... my grandmother died." "Remember?" "You were in São Paulo." "I was getting ready to go to the funeral." "I put on a black dress, black stockings and light lipstick." "Suddenly I started to put on more make-up." "The most scarlet lipstick of them all." "I put black around my eyes and felt unbearably happpy." "I painted my nipples, which were full of milk... because our son had just been born." "I painted an arrow on my thigh and a cross on my chest." "And out I went, all painted in black." "I stopped on a corner." "The cars went by and I thought, "Yes..."" "A car drew up." "A flashy car." "I thought, "Yes, yes..."" "The silver car stopped in front of me... and I thought, "Grandma's dead and me?" "Grandma, and me?"" "I went." "Yes, I went." "The man went crazy in the motel." "He did everything except smash the place up." "We tried all positions about six times." "I could see nothing." "Just mirrors of colored lights." "Sundown and I was flying, flying in the Hawaii Motel..." "I had never been so happy before." "Then, I thought, "My grandmother..."" ""Grandma's dead." "And where's my husband?"" "The man showered me with money, and I took it." "And I saw the smudged make-up in the mirror." "And then I, with a lipstick cross on my breast, let him suck me." "By this time I was out of my head." "I let him suck my holy milk." "He cried and cried, and I let him suck me." "I always gave a lot of milk." "At night, I was still giving him milk." "He worked in a pipeline company." "He said.," ""I'm in pipelines." "I'm in pipelines."" "That was all he said." "When we went out in his car... the motel was glittering like in a dream." "The Hotel was called Hawaii." "It was my first waltz." "I let an executive officer suck me... on the day of my grandmother's funeral." "in a magic neon motel." "Jesus Christ!" "We are the pertect married couple in a ruined country!" "The family man, screwing with Marilyn Monroe... married to the all-executive dairy cow." "You wanted the truth." "Well, now you've got it." "From then on, I didn't stop." "I was happy." "Eventually, I felt no more guilt." "At night I'd kiss you and I'd think, "Free at lest."" "I'm falling into an empty space." "Emptiness..." "Emptiness..." "Emptiness..." "Were there others?" "Yes." "Several." "Who?" "People who went past." "Men who went past." "Boys, men, bank tellers..." "I was doing kind of a social service." "I did a social service for the men of my country." "Could we have made a crime and this is our punishment?" "It must be that." "I feel like I'm dying." "I must go back." "I'm dying at the end of the streets." "Who are these men who pass by me moaning?" "As for me, beds, beds, beds..." "Where is my love?" "There's a light up there." "I must get up there." "Up there, after the sewers." "Further up are the streets..." "I must love again." "But love who?" "That took some time." "It was just like a river." "A river of sperm, and me in it." "I went down the sperm river like a Water Ballet." "Men passing, groaning." "How wonderful it is to be crazy!" "All women should be crazy, and whores." "That was when I loved you the most." "I felt life was worth living." "Helpless." "Today..." "I am like this." "Crazy and helpless." "Ok." "Perfect." "Do you think we could stop this SM session now?" "You go home helpless, because I'm going to get loaded." "I'm going to spend 3 days in a coma." "But I was completely crazy and nobody realized." "I was just a kewpie doll to you." "I'd say to myself, "I love him and he doesn't know me."" "I loved you and you took me for granted." " How?" " You did." "You were the smug, happy husband." "I was just a toy to you." "But I was a heroine." "No one knew of my deeds." "I had swum the sewers and no one knew." "I said to myself, "I must make him as helpless as I am."" "That man has to die and be reborn." "I can't go back." "I'm not his little doll anymore." "I am a Tijuana hooker." "I'm the bitch who gave birth to this son of a bitch." "Suddenly I realized I was obeying you." "Obeying?" "How?" "Obeying." "I did everything an asshole's wife is supposed to do." "But I still wasn't free." "Not yet." "I realized I was part of an invisible game... where you did nothing but controlled everything." "Then I went further..." "And then, yes... yes..." "Then I stopped loving you." "Suddenly..." "Like a clock stops..." "I stopped loving you at 3:45 "de la tarde."" "I stopped loving you... and started loving someone else." "I don't want to know!" "Be quiet!" "I can't bear any more!" " Listen to me, please!" " I'm leaving!" "It's my life, goddammit!" "Listen to me!" "Wait... for God's sake!" "You must listen to me." "You must!" "Just get out." "I can't stand it any more." "You're the most important thing in my life." " Get out of here!" " You must listen!" "I stopped loving you because you didn't move me anymore." "He was uglier and weaker than you." "But he had a delicacy you never had." "God, how I loved him." "I howled in bed." "Life poured through me like water, my arms, my legs..." "He knew what a woman was." "He sure did." "He knew what a woman was." "I spent all my time in bed!" "I'd howl and fuck and fuck..." "I drank." "Sucked." "Spat." "Sweated and got dirty." "I rubbed myself against him." "I licked." "I wallowed in dirt." "I'd urinate in his hands and he'd lick..." "I ate." "Bit." "Drooled..." "You in front of me, skinny." ""My God, how skinny you are, sonny!"" ""You must eat more, son."" "You got smaller." "Right." "Helpless... at last" "I had never been so loved before." "Two men at the same time." "You adored me." "You'd never loved me more." "A man only loves a woman when he loses her." "You loved me so much at home you couldn't go out." "I saw you being born..." "And as you were being born, he started to disappear, without suffering... because he knew I was just passing through..." "Just passing through." "I just want you to know that when I see you fallen like this, you become my superhero again." "Both of us, fucked up, fallen..." "losing our poses." "That's how I want us." "That's how I want us." "Today I'm like anyone else," "Like the hungry, the wretched..." "That's my pledge of love to you." "Like an embryo that came out of the other..." "I come out of you, and you out of me." "I am your mother." "You are my daughter with Marilyn Monroe." "Marilyn Monroe... is your father." "And I..." "I am the bitch that gave birth to us 2 sonofabitch." "I want you to know that now we are really breaking up." "I want you to forgive me." "I want you to forgive me for being so... stupid and rude all these years." "Now that I can see you..." "Forgive me, will you?" "There's nothing to forgive." "You were so good to me." "We didn't know what we were doing." "I feel a tremendous affection for you." "Especially now we know..." "the whole thing's really over." "Now it's over, it's over." "Everything's over." "Now we being to see beauty in each other." "You're more charming when you're weak." "Well, I must be going." "Bye!" "Think I'll ever look in a mirror again?" "Without seeing your reflection?" "What you need is to value yourself." "You're a wonderful woman." "You should be happy." "I think what we went through was vital for our development." "Well, I may have lost a wife, but I've gained a friend." "You mean, we'll never get married again?" "No." "We'll never be lovers again?" "No." "Why not?" "I don't know." "I wish you were Superman." "And I'd be that girl that flies around with him over New York." "Beautiful!" "I'd like to be Superman's girlfriend." "Flying around..." "Don't cry." "You're crying." "Don't." "I'm your friend." "We can be happy as friends." "Life is wonderful." "Life is fertile." "Don't you see?" "There are thousands of wonderful people out there for you." "Fantastic men." "Life is a fantastic show." "Just imagine how great your life will be without me." "Without me?" "Of course, you don't see?" "We haven't lost anything!" "We haven't lost anything!" "We lost love, of course, but... on the other had we've gained something much better." "Know what we've gained?" "We've gained friendship." "Do you think love has always existed?" "No." "It didn't use to exist." "It didn't exist in Crete." "It didn't exist in Greece." "There was no love in Babylon." "No?" "What was there, then?" "I don't know." "Fucking around, I suppose." "Yes, orgies and firm friendships." "Love was invented by American movies to make money." "Really?" "That makes me feel good." "Me too." " Quite a relief." " You're relieved?" "Here, a drink!" "Horrible, huh?" "That sticky, slimy love we had." "Like two toads stuck together." "Not now." "Great!" "Fantastic!" "A new life!" "Much more modern!" "Free... happy!" "You bet!" "I haven't been so happy for ages!" "We must drink a toast." "Know what this is?" "It's being free... of love!" "Love is the worst thing in the world." "Want to see something?" "Miss Belloway, I'm going to Tokyo, but I always loved you." "Are you leaving, Lieutenant Williams?" "Yes, but I'll be back and we'll build a ranch in Tennessee" "I will wait for you until the war is over, my love." "Good-bye, Miss Beloway." "Good-bye, Lieutenant Williams." "From here to eternity." "A couple in love is the most ridiculous thing." "Horrible." "All lovey-dovey." "Terrifying." "Know what modern science says?" "That we are alone." "Totally alone." " Life is shit!" " Of course..." "Love is shit." "You could be 600 men's." "Your body is a sensation lab." "Know what I want to be?" "Neo-punk." "Neo-"New Wave"." "I want to be screwed on a pinball machine table by 10 neo-punks." "Alone in the electronic amusement arcade." "Well, I'm going." "I must go." "I must go home and get changed." "I'm so happy we're friends." "Wow!" "You really are crazy, aren't you?" "Hey, have you seen my purse?" "Purse?" "Hold on..." "How can I live... without you by my side?" "What did you say?" "I, I didn't say anything." "I didn't say anything." "Here's your purse." "Bye!" "How strange!" "Will I ever forget you?" "What did you say?" "I didn't say anything." "I'm scared." "No!" "Don't go, honey." "Stay here with me." "No, please!" "Let me go home." "Can't you see it won't be any good?" "No." "Let's not go back." "Don't ruin everything." " It'll be great." " Please, honey." "Let me go." "Please, let me go." "I want to go." "What we tried today was a victory." "No." "You're not going." " I won't let you go." " I beg you..." "We love each other." "Don't go!" "Stay here with me?" "Let me go!" "I want to go home!" "Let me go!" "Don't you see we've won a victory from the human viewpoint?" "Human?" "Human, my ass!" "How can you be so primitive?" "Well, I am." "I am primitive." "I'm a savage!" "I'm an asshole." "Don't go!" "Don't go!" "Stay there." "Forgive me, honey." "Don't you see how awful it would be afterwards?" "Let's be radical about this." "Let's swear we'll never let our bodies touch again." "Ok?" "We've been talking for hours." "Don't I even get a little award?" "A prize for the best dialog?" "Help!" "Let me go!" "Let me go, or I'll call the police!" "Get out of the way, or I'll do it!" "It's paralyzing gas!" "Oh my God!" "Look!" "What in creation is it?" "The nation!" "Now you remember the nation!" "The Brazilian nation!" "Not "nation", you idiot." "Look, on your foot!" "Mighty is the power of the nation." "There's something on your foot!" "On my foot?" "Octopus!" "My dear octopus!" "Look!" "What a beauty you are, my dear octopus!" "Octopus!"