"The kitchen.. ." "Rodri?" "What are you doing here?" "What do you want?" "Paco?" "How much?" "Twenty." "Hang on." "If you lust focus on who's going to win within one party," "then naturally that isn't a good thing for the county." "If Argentinian politicians are serious, they should be putting the Argentinian people first." "I have a highly qualified team to lead this county." "If they think it's down to me," "that I'm the right person for this.. ." "PACO" ""Senator Blank's son involved in drug- trafficking war"" "No way!" "There's no way you've never Seen him involved in something suspicious.. ." "Maybe not something organized, but at least a phone call.. ." "Hiding something.. ." "This is a fucking mess." "They're the same kind of explosives used by Hamas and Al Oaeda." "They're inferring a connection between this and terrorism." "This is a nightmare Ingrid, don't you see?" "He blew up a cocaine kitchen..." "This is big news." "You've known him since he was a baby." "is Francisco really capable of something like this?" "You tell them, you've known him since he was a baby." "Am I on my own here, Raul?" "Yes." "They've found him." "Under which iurisdiction?" "Senator, Senator ls this affecting your political career?" "Senator, will you be making a statement?" "What was the relationship between.. .?" "We haven't been able to get a comment from Senator Blank.. ." "One minute, Senator." "Please, lust one minute." "Francisco?" "Francisco?" "Francisco, what happened?" "What happened to you?" "I'm right here, Senator, anything you need." "In a farm, in my grandma's house..." "I don't know... I need to get off the streets, I can't take it anymore." "I'm pissing eveybody off." "I've got my own money." "What do you do?" "I take drugs and sing, take drugs and sing.. ." "Why do you want to be admitted to the rehabilitation center?" "Dope me!" "Dope him!" "Dope me!" "Dope him!" "Dope me!" "Dope him!" "It's what I deserve..." "Pedro." "Why do you want to be admitted?" "I need help." "I'm a rock star." "I've got a son." "A little kid." "Why do you take drugs?" "To put up with this bullshit." "To put up with this bullshit." "Dope me!" "Dope him!" "It's my new song." "Yamila.. ." "Hey buddy!" "Welcome!" "Eveything alright?" "Here we are." "How are you?" "Fine, fine." "Give me some." "is this it?" "Weigh it, weigh it." "Hey!" "Extra stuff!" "Come on, Peru!" "Of course, for Yamila, my friend." "What's up Mario?" "It's OK if you fuck her too." "She loves it." "For lust a couple of lines, she'll give you her soul." "No, I can't." "The Peruvian would kill me." "What?" "He's a pervert." "He's game for anything." "You're new, aren't you?" "Go on, go right in." "No worries." "Go on!" "Get in!" "I need to get off the streets right now." "I know." "Give me your hand." "Thank you." "Senator Blank," "Nina." "pleased to meet you." "Just give me five minutes." "I'm sory, I can't wait." "My son's in trouble." "Nina, I arrived first." "All our children are in trouble." "I know." "Please, be patient." "Doctor Martinez del Solar is coming." "Take a seat and wait." "Alvarez, please." "I'm sory." "It's OK." "is your son in trouble too?" "My daughter, my little girl.. ." "What rat?" "I told you there's no rat in here." "What's the matter?" "Are the shadows looming?" "I've got the court order, she's not crazy." "But I don't know where to take her." "Here there's no room, and they've got lots of people waiting." "I know I wasn't a good father to her." "I couldn't even give her health insurance." "What's her name?" "Belen." "What a nice name." "You're that woman off the TV, aren't you?" "So you found your son?" "What a blessing!" "Are you going to bring him here?" "If it's possible." "They'll let yours in." "We'll keep waiting, then." "Thank you." "Bye." "Nina." "Susu." "See you soon." "I've got the court order." "I know." "We're in the same position as before." "Please?" "Come in." "Thank you." "Hello sweetheart." "I'm going to be busy for a little while." "Listen Fran, can we do it later?" "is it so important?" "No." "Later will be tricky too." "Listen, what about Saturday?" "Madrid, madam." "You're right." "I'm flying to Madrid on Monday." "Why don't you call me in the afternoon?" "Could you?" "OK." "Can you call me on my mobile?" "Because I'm going to be vey busy till the elections." "Bye, honey." "Do my make-up over there." "Am I OK here?" "No!" "Ignacio, wake up!" "Wake up, Ignacio!" "Ignacio!" "Don't do this to me!" "Wake up!" "Fuck you!" "Why?" "Why are you doing this to me?" "Wake up!" "Wake up!" "Wake up, you bastard!" "Yes, but you're cying and I don't understand what you're saying." "Uncle, you have to help us." "Of course I will." "Why don't you tell me what happened?" "To Montpellier." "Today, yes, today." "He's on the phone." "What do you want him for?" "You're always criticizing him and now you want him for your show?" "You don't have your own dealer?" "Coke, mum." "Yes, right now before I take the plane." "They don't know how he survived." "We still don't know how he survived the first one.. ." "Please, come." "I've got a meeting now." "Then I have to go to the hospital." "How is he?" "Stable." "He's stable now." "How are you related to him?" "His cousin." "Do I need to sign anything?" "Yes, sign here." "Senator." "Senator Blank." "I'm Doctor Martinez del Solar, Juanio." "Pleased to meet you." "Come through please." "Thank you vey much." "Bye." "You've already introduced yourselves, then?" "Come in." "Excuse me." "Sit down." "Thank you." "We're really surprised." "This has never happened in thirty years." "We get 30 to 40 cases a day." "All serious." "As if we were in some kind of freefall." "Juanio and I have been talking about Francisco, and his case is all over the papers." "I know." "How are you dealing with this?" "A bit shocked, to be honest." "It's all been quite aggressive." "It's all been a blur." "Look, I'm going to be completely honest with you." "I need to get Francisco out of this right away." "I've been talking to my lawyers and the legal situation is vey complicated." "The only way I can get him out of iail, at least for now, is by having him admitted." "Have you spoken to him?" "No, I haven't." "The way he is right now, I couldn't." "I lust saw him for a few minutes." "Juanio has a program in the North Clinic." "I'd like to have him here." "Sory, we're.. ." "we're vey flattered by your opinion of our home, but we have a problem." "We believe that your son's problem is more than just addictions," "which is our field." "Francisco won't ieopardize the institution." "He's a really good person, vey well-read, he went to the best universities." "But this institute is on the verge of collapse." "That's the problem, we don't have any more room." "I can help you." "I handle a small budget for the Province and I can give you a subsidy." "Think about it." "You could help a lot of people," "not lust Francisco." "As an institution, we've done a lot of work." "That's the reason why you've chosen us.. ." "It would have to be done immediately." "You don't seem to understand, Senator." "No, I do understand." "I understand that we need each other." "You need me, I need you, Nina." "And what about Julieta's groups?" "What do they involve?" "They are groups of people from different social and cultural backgrounds." "With the same level of addiction." "Some of them have hit bottom.. ." "Paradoxically, those are the ones with the best chances of getting better." "It's an idea that Julieta, a student of his, is working on.. ." "I'm sory." "This is not the way we operate." "We work with people who want to get better." "We work differently." "I understand" "You do." "OK." "Tell me, is your son an addict." "What does he take?" "What is he addicted to?" "How much does he take?" "Senator, do you know who your son is?" "Maybe we could meet again in a few days, think it over and arrange another meeting." "I don't have a few days." "I hope you can make a decision quickly." "I'll be waiting for you call." "Of course we'll call you." "Nice to meet you." "Thank you vey much." "I'll see you out." "It's a court order." "What did you say your name was?" "Susu." "Hold on. I'll fetch the supervisor." "Take a seat." "I'll wait here." "What are we playing at?" "What?" "Are we going to throw this all away?" "All our work, all this time..." "Julieta would kill me.. ." "This is the Foundation's work." "Nina, we've been doing this work for twenty years.. ." "And you're going to let this horrible, dark energy in?" "What energy are you talking about?" "Money from corrupt politicians." "People like this woman, with no scruples, who doesn't even know who her son is?" "Where will it lead to if we accept her money?" "There's a lot to lose." "You realize this house is mortgaged?" "Yes." "And that there's no money left?" "I have no more money." "We don't have the sponsors we used to have." "We owe four months' wages, we owe suppliers.. ." "Am I crazy or am I lust used to all these debts?" "How can I fix it?" "You tell me." "But we are talking about a bribe." "A subsidy." "Oh please, Nina... we are talking about accepting corrupt money." "I'd rather go back to my little office, than accept this money." "What's happening to you?" "Your values?" "I don1 recognize you." "No, no, no... if my values allow a child to die in the street because of drugs, it's time to change my values." "Evey day, the exercise I do from morning to evening, is to harden my heart so I can bear all this." "I see this misey and I can't do anything." "If I can get any money from this fucking government," "that doesn't give anything to these institutions like ours, the hospitals, the schools, then I'll take it!" "For the things we need here, for the kids..." "I don't care.. ." "about anything." "I'll take the legal responsibility but I need you." "Fine." "We should be vey careful with the papers we sign." "These people are not clean." "We have to tread carefully." "OK, why don't we sleep on it... I have to run to the hospital, my nephew's there..." "Anything serious?" "Yes, but nothing new." "Hello." "Dr. Vinetti..." "Susu." "Pleased to meet you." "What's your relationship with Belén?" "I'm her dad." "Her father..." "Right..." "Have you got some ID to prove it?" "Yes." "Marcelo Rodriguez.. ." "Yes, Marce, Marsu, I ended up as Susu." "And you have Belen's birth certificate.. .?" "Yes, she has her mother's surname." "How old is this?" "It's from '87, when she was born." "Look Marcelo, under these circumstances, and the state these documents are in, we can't be certain that you're related to Belén." "What do you mean you can't be certain?" "This is a court order." "The court order is fine but it's in someone's name," "And I can't be sure that that someone is you." "I don't understand." "It's in my name." "What do you mean?" "I don't understand." "I'd advise you to see a lawyer." "A lawyer.. ." "I'm not scared of dying, Doctor." "But if you don't bring me my daughter right now, I'll go to the police station and bring two of my best clients." "Not only will I sue you for rape, but I'll have them fuck you till your throat burns, and your ass will hurt worse than my daughter's after you've finished with her." "Bring me my daughter, now!" "Otherwise, I'll hang myself right here." "That won't look good on you and you'll remember me for the rest of your life, son of a bitch." "Bring me my daughter now!" "What's that place?" "The kitchen." "What do the make there?" "Rolon, coke, crack." "Do they know you?" "They know eveybody, and eveybody knows them." "What's that?" "is it pasta base?" "Wish it was..." "They make it with that and this is what's left in the pot... for the poorest, paco." "May I?" "Paco..." "Paco smokes paco.. ." "Francisco. ." "Nora, Nora.. ." "Francisco. ." "Senator." "A report about paco." "Be careful, it stirred up a lot of trouble." "There are people involved already, jurisdictions," "Shady deals, it smells rotten." "Did you speak about it?" "If you quit now we're letting them win." "I never thought of quitting." "OK, but I really don't know how long we can hold out." "We'll wait and see what happens next." "Besides, I don't think this by itself will go far." "Have your lawyers seen your file?" "Yes, the public prosecutor has nothing." "The public prosecutor has nothing, I told you." "The best argument he's got is that Francisco was there at the time of the accident." "That doesn't mean anything.. ." "Francisco a terrorist?" "Bastards.. ." "And what about South Africa?" "Nothing.. ." "the explosives might be from South Africa" "We lived in Johannesburg for eight years." "Francisco studied there, he's still got friends there, he goes there all the time." "Anyway we have to wait and see what the judge says, but it's vey unlikely." "But was he doing paco or not?" "I don't know." "He'll get through it." "He's a bright kid, you know that." "They told me that Internal Affairs at the police department were keeping an eye on Captain Ramos and that someone else died in the explosion, an informer." "What I don't see is who the fuck is getting anything out of all this?" "Yesterday he asked for Nora." "Do you know who Nora is?" "No." "I have no idea but I'll look into it." "What happened with the woman in the rehabilitation center?" "We're a hot potato, who wants to touch us?" "It's a pity because they seem like the kind of people who know what they're doing ." "Did you offer them anything?" "Obviously." "Why don't you speak to Nunez?" "He's got a contact with this rehabilitation center." "There's a guy in Wilde who has a farm," ""Back to Life"." "It sounds good, it's a state center." "Kids stay there, they don't run away." ""BACK TO LIFE" FARM" "What's she doing?" "Play the hero, mate, and I'll blow your head off." "Stay calm, Cocho." "We're not thieves." "Get in the car!" "Don't Flor, don't!" "Son of a bitch!" "Son of a bitch!" "Son of a bitch!" "Calm down, Florcita, it's over." "Were you patients at the center?" "No, we were locked up." "I signed myself in to get off drugs." "Stop the car, mate." "Over there, on the bridge." "Stop the car." "Madam, sory for putting you through that." "It was a matter of life or death." "You were great, mate." "Don't play the hero now, OK?" "What are you doing with that, Flor?" "Let's go." "Cocho.. ." "Are you OK, Madam?" "How are you, Senator?" "When would be a good time for you come to the Foundation?" "is Julieta coming?" "Yes." "You know, I think that as well as Julieta and Julian, we should include Indio in this group." "What do you think?" "Indio is a hard man, he belongs on a farm rather than in a house..." "He was in iail." "Exactly.. ." "When am I going to see you?" "Evey fortnight?" "is it vey far?" "Uptown, on the other side of the city." "Do you have to sleep there?" "Couple of days." "Have you quit completely?" "Yes." "Not even grass?" "No." "And why doesn't mum want to see you if you've quit?" "Because she's suffered a lot, I suppose I put her through a lot." "Did mum use to take drugs too?" "No, she didn't." "Dani and Flor?" "Yes." "Hello." "I'm Julian. I'm on the staff." "Don't be scared, it's not a church." "Come in." "Nice house." "Yes." "You can leave your things inside and Juanjo will see you, he's the director of the house." "Come in, come in..." ".. .with all our diplomas and honors." "Our family is vey well educated." "Her brother is a federal iudge, the youngest is an advisor to the Treasuy Department in Spain." "And she's an artist." "Don't start with that rubbish, OK?" "She's addicted to syringes and orgies... an artist.. ." "But the important thing, is that she has asked you for help." "And that is half the path to rehabilitation." "Sometimes in a family, someone is born who sees things differently" "And they find it hard to find their place." "There are always ways to find harmony and live together." "How?" "Accepting things as they are." "Maio, these are Flor and Dani" "Are Maio's parent with Nina?" "Yes." "Julian, can you show her to her bedroom?" "Sure." "Thank you." "Come with me." "Guys, come in." "You can leave your things here if you want." "Hello." "Pedro, have you had a blood sample taken yet?" "No." "What for?" "For tests." "But I haven't got anything." "Oh, no?" "You don't have iron, red blood cells?" "None of that?" "Yeah, I've got those.. ." "Hi Nina." "Hi Indio." "Wait for me over there, lust a minute." "Yes." "Nina." "Susu." "I don't know how to thank you." "How are you Belen?" "He spoke a lot about you." "Come with me." "Come in." "Where are you?" "What's this?" "A retard's lust walked in!" "Whatever next?" "No, she's not retarded." "Her boylriend died in her arms, he overdosed, foaming at the mouth." "Like you almost did." "Sory." "And?" "She was put in a state asylum and after a year, her mother finally managed to get her out." "Mum or dad?" "Dad." "She's so retarded." "Hello." "Hello, Officer." "Good morning." "Sign here, please." "Yes." "Senator." "Hello." "Hi, Francisco, I'm Nina." "I'm Juanio, I work here." "Come with me, we'll have a bit of a chat and then I'll introduce you to the group." "At last, Francisco.. ." "Do you want to say anything?" "Do you want to be here?" "A cigarette?" "Smoke outside, but.. ." "Francisco, we are here to help you" "To be with you." "Not to iudge you, or to find out what did or didn't happen." "I love your mum." "I might be falling in love with you." "Sing for me." "Sing for me a bit more." "I'm a woman of vey few words" "But when someone hurts me I turn into salt water." "I love you, I love you" "Well Francisco, we'll.. ." "start like this." "We'll keep you out of the structure to begin with." "Then we'll see what happens during the second week.. ." "If eveything's OK, you'll start getting up and going to bed at the same time as the others." "OK?" "Give it back to me later." "OK, we're all here." "So let's start to get to know each other." "We've been doing this for a long time." "We've worked a lot in this area." "And this experience has given us an undeniable truth." "We don't waste our time" "And I want you to know that from the start." "You can't get rid of an addiction." "You can quit drugs and other stuff" "But addiction, guys, you'll never shake it off." "I know that this sounds disappointing, but is better to stop living in this fantasy world, where you think that you can quit eveything in the blink of an eye," "change your habits, become a different person." "That doesn't happen." "It's a routine iob, a little iob, where you have to shift the focus" "and look at who we are." "Ignacio, do you want to take a nap?" "Juli?" "You're doing great. I'm not bored and I've been listening to you for a long time." "Nina?" "Well, the first thing I want you to know is that the door is not locked." "You can leave if you want, whenever you like." "And for those who stay, make the most of this house, your time here, our experience... and think about .. .who you are." "You are searchers, that's what you are." "Profound searchers." "What happens when a searcher doesn't know what's he looking for.. ." "Find this:" "What do I love... .. .doing?" "How are you doing Dani?" "I... I've been looking for help for a long time." "I come from a horrible place." "And it makes me vey happy to listen to you." "I haven't understood much of what you've said yet.. ." "But I can tell that you care, you care about us." "And to find love, apart from Flor, of course." "That hasn't helped you much." "No?" "I was lust messing." "Hey, man, it was a ioke." "Really, man, it was a ioke." "Wasn't it Yari?" "Well if we're going to start like this.. ." "It's going to be great fun." "Thanks Dani." "Thanks for telling us, for sharing." "Good." "Well guys, go and get settled." "We'll have lunch in an hour" "And if you want to smoke, go outside." "Kids started to take this new drug." "After seeing the rapid damage it caused we started to get together with other mothers with the same problem" "and we took to the streets to see what was going on." "The police don't help us." "To be honest, this is a no man's land." "If we know where they sell drugs and who sells them, how come the police don't see them, or know what's going on?" "There are cocaine kitchens, lots of them, unfortunately." "They take cocaine, marihuana and pills off the market" "So there's nothing left to take but paco." "It's designed for poor people, and there are plenty of them." "It's made with solvents, lots of ingredients, ground pills, scouring pads, ground glass, rat poison.. ." "Which makes this what we" "call an extermination drug." "In a vey short period of time, kids are physically and psychologically ruined." "Tonight I can't sleep" "Because life doesn't want to live" "My cravings have become real." "Terrible nightmares, right, Paquito?" "What?" "Women can't rescue us from those." "Nightmares, I mean." "You know, the short girl and me used to smuggle cocaine to Spain." "And once we kept a bag of coke and binged for 5 or 6 days." "I got so down I wanted to kill myself." "Shoot myself." "But I didn't want her to find all that mess." "So I thought if I went to the police station, I'd shoot myself there and they'd take me straight to the morgue." "I went to the police station with a gun, and they arrested me for attempted suicide." "They sent me to the Borda asylum" "And after that, they put me into another state institute." "One where there was nothing to do." "I spent two weeks there, playing cards, drinking mate" "Nothing.. ." "Answer you fucker." "You can't go." "Don't hit me anymore." "I came here on my own." "Leave me alone." "If you keep on behaving badly, I'll have to lock you up with the "scay kids"." "So they put me in with the other kids, the "scay kids"" "Kids from the street, serial killers that the State doesn't know what to do with." "Food for the kids!" "It was Flor who saved me." "We got out of therein the first car we found." "It was like a kidnap." "The woman in the car was a senator." "She brought us here." "That woman saved us, Paco." "For fuck's sake, I can't sleep here." "He looks like a monkey." "What is it?" "Cold turkey?" "He looks crazy, look at him." "Here you are, love." "Drop him at school, then meet me on the bridge." "Bye." "Behave at school, ok?" "See you later." "Belen, what are you doing?" "You're not allowed in here." "What did he use to take?" "Heroin?" "Do you think it's right what he's going through?" "Pedro, can you go and sleep in another dorm?" "Yeah." "I've slept all over the place, me." "You can't walk around like that." "Put a t-shirt on, please." "You're not in the army, mate." "Get some sleep." "There are more than a hundred cocaine kitchens, in Buenos Aires alone, Raul." "This started in 2001 when the peso crashed." "With the crash?" "Right, we changed from a transit county to a drug-producing county." "Do you see?" "That's why paco exists now, because it's what's left from cooking." "What's left in the pots." "The suburbs are turning into "favelas"." "Are you sure?" "It's an extermination drug." "Clearly designed to finish off a social class that they can't handle." "I think it's time to set up a commission once and for all." "Wait, wait." "Let's not get carried away." "Where there are consumers there's drug- trafficking." "There are interests eveywhere." "If you catch one, you're helping another." "Exactly, Raul." "It's about drug addiction not drug trafficking." "I'm talking about prevention, do you understand?" "But they'll say that you didn't care about this before." "But now I do." "Now my son is suffering from this scourge." "And if it's a political opportunity, I'm going to take advantage of it." "I think it's brilliant, Ingrid." "I'll take that as an agreement" "Yes, I think it's brilliant." "I'm glad you see it like that." "Listen, there was a girl called Nora," "A cleaning girl that worked here." "A cleaning girl?" "Yeah, but I'm told she was seeing Francisco." "Give me her details." "is it positive?" "We're going to help you to get treatment and eveything else." "We're with you and... I'm going to die." "No, you're not." "Yes, I'm going to die." "No, there's treatment." "If you lead a normal life and you follow the treatment, you won't die." "I don't know what to do." "I don't know what to do." "Your life is going to be normal." "The same as it used to be." "Nothing's going to be normal or the same." "Nothing." "So don't say a word." "Thank you, all the same." "Thank you.. ." "Thank you vey much.. ." "Let it out..." "We're Maio's parents." "She knows, Lucy.. ." "Take a seat, please." "Hi Sandra, you know how hard this was." "All the rules I had to break to get my niece and nephew in the group." "Yari needs you and you're not here I need you and your sister to be here right now." "Or at least give me a call, please." "Francisco." "How are you?" "is there anything to eat?" "Of course." "Let's go to the kitchen." "Back in a sec." "One day, they picked us all up in a police Van." "It's so dark inside, it has no windows.. ." "Nothing but small gaps to breathe through." "And suddenly I heard my Belen calling me." ""Mum..."" "I wanted to ask the police for permission," "Tell them my daughter was outside.. ." "But the police kept me inside." "But I always gave her love, always." "Alvarez?" "Do you want to tell us how you feel?" "I can relate to Susu." "Yamilita never had a mother either." "And I don't know what kind of love we're talking about." "If love was enough.. ." "If love was enough, we wouldn't be here now." "The love I gave Yamila was poison." "I did eveything wrong with her." "Well.. ." "That's the reason why we're here." "To fix things, to rebuild our relationship." "I've done a lot of damage to her." "I was an alcoholic for twelve years." "I fought." "I fought a lot to quit the habit." "To wrench it out of me." "And by the time I'd sorted myself out" "Yamila had gone." "She was lost..." "Completely." "She was lost." "Well kids, Santa's been." "Yamila, a letter, I think." "Pedro, this is for you." "Belen." "For Dani... I think you've got another one." "Maio" "And I'm missing..." "Francisco?" "In the kitchen." "Yari?" "What's up?" "Don't cry." "Come on." "It's OK." "As if it was happening to someone else." "Not to me." "As if my body wasn't my own." "I didn't belong to my body, you know?" "Sure." "Sometimes it's OK not to identify with our own body." "If you don't identify with your body, how can you do it?" "You identify with the one observing, with your will." "With your personality." "Today you spoke about finding the moment when we hit rock bottom." "What are you doing here, asshole?" "They've gone!" "They've taken eveything with them." "Get that bitch." "Where are they, bitch?" "Where are they?" "I don't know. I swear." "Answer me, bitch." "I don't know." "I don't know." "Answer." "Shoot her." "Fucking whore." "They left her behind." "You know when I remembered?" "When I saw my dad." "Thanks." "Yamila?" "Dad?" "Daddy.. ." "I hadn't seen him for two years." "He almost died with the kiss I gave him today." "All right?" "These little bastards, they reproduce like rats." "Yeah, but they don't last longer than 3 months." "Something smells bad." "Too many assholes just to make 2 pesos." "Your stuff is ready." "They're mixing the paco." "Tell the others we're finished." "No more paco comes out of here." "Take eveything to Fatima, the Paraguayan" "And clean it all up once I'm far away from here." "Three months later." "They lust want to keep us apart." "But are you willing to accept them?" "You believe them." "They don't care about us." "You have no idea of who they are, or how they live." "Did you know that when they had their little parties.. ." "where my father and Ignacio's fucked in the toilets.. ." "Yari ...we were there... in the same place?" "Not even locked up in another bedroom..." "Right there." "Sitting to the side..." "watching TV.. ." "What's the need?" "While they were getting drugged up to the eyeballs and fucking each other..." "How are we supposed to know what's normal?" "What does normal mean?" "Where can we get some common sense?" "If I still don't know how we are still alive." "Because we love each other." "Do we love each other?" "Yes." "Are you sure?" "Yes." "Or are we together lust to survive all this shit." "I can't stand it you when you're like this." "You're such a bitch." "I don't know..." "My parents are normal." "Horribly normal." "And I don't get it." "How is it that I'm such an addict?" "I don't know why I have this in my blood." "My parents have nothing to do with this either." "Maybe it's because I'm older." "I'm my own problem" "That's fine, the problem is up to you." "Your parents can help or not, but the problem is up to you because the solution is up to you." "Julian?" "All great thinkers say that man must know himself..." "But they didn't say how." "Francisco spoke." "Great!" "Vey good." "Exactly." "They didn't say how." "And that's what I'm talking about." "Each of us has to find our own way, our own path" "And what path did you find?" "To serve God." "To serve God with love." "Help." "And you Nina?" "OK guys, it's time for your day out." "It's just going to be for the day." "Tomorrow Ignacio, Yamila and Francisco can leave the house." "Dani and Flor come with us, we've got an idea" "Happy birthday, daddy." "Thank you." "You know something?" "This is the happiest day of my life." "If you don't tell anyone it's better." "People stigmatize you, point at you." "Now, if you have a close friend, an ex, then maybe." "And your children?" "They don't have it." "My ex wife does." "I fucked up with her." "It's Ignacio." "Shall I ask him in?" "Yes, of course." "What is this spaceship?" "And what about this?" "You're out of your mind." "It's my father's birthday today." "Let's have a smoke, lust one." "I had one gin and tonic!" "Eveybody was drinking!" "And a ioint." "On your first day out." "Juanio, I don1 smoke pot. I lust smoked to keep a lid on things." "I could have done much worse." "If I'd known it was going to be such a big issue I wouldn't have told you about it." "And Yamila has nothing to do with this." "It was me." "You are out of the structure Then we'll see what we'll do." "Oh come on, we're all adults!" "It's not such a big deal!" "Exactly." "We're adults." "Yari..." "Fuck off." "Don't talk to me." "Indio, can you give us a second?" "They're going to be in there a while, right?" "Yes, let's go outside." "Would you like a cigarette?" "No, thanks." "Can I wait here?" "Yes, sit over there." "Do you see?" "Don't tell my dad." "It doesn't work like that." "I don't know how to do this." "I don't know how to live." "I don't know." "I need your help." "Please don't tell my dad about this." "Please." "Please don't tell him." "OK, OK." "Calm down" "Hold me." "Hold me." "OK." "Hold me." "OK." "Please, Yamila..." "Don't play games." "Please." "I won't tell anyone either." "Come on, please." "No, no." "First, Jesus didn't wear those clothes." "And the white collar you're wearing." "Oh, right, I'm the target." "I stand accused!" "You brought it on yourself." "I had a friend that lived in India for a long time." "Fifteen years" "Dead spiritual." "He used to say "God is eveything, God is eveything"" "while he was tossing himself off!" "He was lust a pervert, it wasn't God." "I'm the only one who laughs at his jokes, have you noticed?" "Hold on, please." "I've found what I love" "Vey good." "What a goal!" "Where did you learn to kick like that?" "That's what Ouantum Physics says." "Or did I misread that?" "Ouantum Physics says that the atom has no substance." "That eveything is intangible." "Wait a second." "Translate that please." "It's the observer who decides, who maintains or changes reality with his observation." "If he wants to see a wave, he sees a wave." "If he wants to see a particle, he sees a particle." "The observer creates what he sees." "What we call matter doesn't exist" "Vey interesting, Willy." "Vey nice your speech about matter." "But if a bus comes at you, you step aside." "Hang on, hang on." "I find this interesting." "So...?" "So it lust happens..." "It isn't God." "It's us." "That's exactly what I'm talking about." "Mystics have said this for thousands of years" "Yes, but the scientific research is too great to mix it up with this new-age bullshit" "Or mystical speculation." "I agree with you up to a point." "But there's something that you'll never find in books, which is the experience of the divine." "It's something you can't describe with words or theories." "It's something so sweet and unfathomable." "And this experience.. .This experience is something you feel here." "Maybe." "Juaniito, we're lust dancing." "Come and join us!" "Come on, Nina!" "Staff, in my office." "What's up?" "Are we out of our minds?" "Calm down, Juanio." "Good things are happening between the group." "Paco talked." "Paco?" "No one calls him Francisco anymore?" "OK." "Francisco spoke and in a vey good way." "So did Belén." "We didn't plan the party." "It just happened, spontaneously." "I really don't know if you've lost your discipline, or your objectives, or if you think I'm some kind of idiot." "Stop, stop, Juanio." "With all due respect," "these kids are having fun" "without drugs or alcohol." "Julian, there are relapses, people have relapsed." "This is no time for parties." "And what are you doing with Yamila?" "Don't play the innocent, don't waste our time." "You're not to stay at night anymore." "You know you can't get involved with anyone" "or let anyone get involved with you." "I'm seriously thinking about taking you off the program and replacing you." "And if things cary on like this this entire staff can fuck right off." "Calm down, Juanio, you're exaggerating." "is that clear?" "Yes?" "Thank you." "They act like beginners." "Maybe you're right." "But I think that Indio..." "Do you think what Indio is doing is right?" "I don't know, I haven't seen anything." "is something wrong, Juanio?" "I'm going to tell you something that happened to me." "Three people escaped from the farm, they came from Olmos." "I've lust come from the court." "I thought you were going to tell me someone had died." "Hello" "Dani?" "Indio, what is it?" "Let me come in, please." "Indio, don't ask me to do that." "I want to see the children." "It's just a second, please" "Gaby, it's not your day, or the time." "You know that." "is it daddy?" "I need to give them a kiss." "Please, Dani." "Then I'll go." "Gabriel, don't make this any more difficult." "It's ten o'clock." "Tomorrow I have to take them to school." "I'm lust asking you for a minute Indio, I'm begging you, don't ask me to do this." "I want to see them." "Dani, please, nothing else. I'll see them and then I'll go." "Let him in." "Get back over there." "Gabriel, you still don't get it." "Do you want me to call the police?" "Call the courts?" "I've come from the other side of town to see my kids. I'll hug them and go." "Open the door, please." "Come on, respect the visiting hours." "They are my children too." "Let me see my children." "No!" "Santi" "Santi, honey, don't open the door." "Don't open the door, please." "Don't!" "What are you doing?" "Go away from the door." "Go back upstairs." "Do you want to fuck up my life?" "I'm lust asking you." "Do you want to fuck up my life?" "Go away." "Leave me alone." "Go away." "Do you want me to call the police?" "Good evening." "Public Prosecutor Garcia Rios has been handling the case of Senator Blank, which has shaken public opinion and brought a great deal of pressure from the media." "The Public Prosecutor has agreed to come on our program tonight to relieve some of the tension caused by this case." "Correct me if I'm wrong please." "It's like you said." "Senator Blank's situation is controversial, isn1 it?" "Not the senator's, her son's." "I'm referring to the political impact that this has had on Senator Blank's career, don't you agree?" "Yes, but that's not my area." "Have you spoken to her?" "No, I haven't had the pleasure." "I'm not in a position to summon her." "Francisco Blank is in a rehabilitation center" "Do you think he should be in prison?" "Well I, the law..." "Because the iudge does." "I think we have different points of view." "This son of a bitch wants to see Francisco in jail." "Do you think powerful people ever go to jail?" "I don1 know if it's possible, but I've got evidence." "You've got evidence that incriminates Francisco." "What do you think Francisco's motives were" "to do something like this?" "I don't know about his reasons." "Whatever his motive was, that doesn't change the facts." "Either way, society has to understand" "that what he did was entirely reprehensible." "No matter who was responsible or who the victim was." "Garcia Rios, Public Prosecutor, thank you vey much." "Thank you." "Drug trafficking has to be prevented and fought with the law." "It's not that serious." "The responsibility lies in authorities, but unfortunately, most of them help the law" "to become nothing but dead words." "Good night." "I'm going to look for the crazy girl." "Please." "What did I do?" "What did I do?" "I know you from somewhere else..." "Maiito, can you help me with this?" "I didn't go to school, you know?" "Yes." "Help me to work this out." "OK." "Tell me." "I know you from another place" "No." "I know you from a past life." "Let me see." "I know you from a past life." "We make a great team.. ." "Don't you think I'm sexy?" "You've got a thing for me, haven't you?" "You've got a nice house, haven't you?" "When we leave this place, would you like to mary me?" "What is it?" "You prefer girls?" "I don't know." "Looks like you've found something that you really enjoy." "I love cooking, Julian." "Cooking is marvelous." "You're surrounded by smells, the food." "is your helper any good?" "If not we can change places." "I'm starving.. ." "Are you OK?" "Indio?" "I don't know." "It's strange." "He's never late." "All right then.. ." "Yeah!" "Son of a bitch!" "What are you doing?" "I'm sory.. ." "What are you doing?" "Watch where you're going, you fucking idiot." "Give me the keys." "Give me the keys." "Calm down, put the gun down." "Flor!" "Dani!" "You're crazy!" "Sick!" "You're sick!" "Ignacio?" "What?" "Stop." "What happened?" "I need to speak to you." "I don't know what I did." "I lust didn't want my dad to find out." "Are you aware of the implications of what you're telling me?" "Did you see them?" "No." "I've known Juanio and his wife for over twenty years." "You can imagine I've heard stories about the girls and Juanjo." "She didn't want him to tell her father about the pot." "Look Gaby." "I don't believe a word of this." "I don't believe it." "Trust me." "See you tomorrow." "Nina, can I have a word?" "Of course." "I've been thinking... I can't find the words, because thank you is not enough." "I hope Yamila hasn't caused you any trouble." "No, not at all." "Even that thing on her first day out... was a lesson for her." "What thing?" "Did something happen?" "What happened on her first day out." "My birthday?" "Did she tell you about that?" "Your daughter loves you." "And I'm vey happy she could meet a woman like you." "That's lust because you don't know me.. ." ""Ye shall know them by their fruit..."" "See you tomorrow." "I'm so happy to see your eyes shining again" "Me too." "Fran, do you still feel like you need it?" "It feels like my cells are renewed." "So?" "They don't ask too much" "They can control themselves." "Can I ask you something?" "Who is Nora?" "Please give me some more." "No, the Captain is inside." "Give me some more." "No, kid, fuck off." "lf you give me some more..." "Don't cause trouble here." "I can't stand it..." "Don't touch me." "Go away, are you nuts?" "Please.. ." "i Pescado!" "I told you to leave.. ." "Don't fuck about here." "What is it?" "What is it, girl?" "Do you want a smoke?" "Eh?" "Come on." "Come on." "She was a flower." "harmless... sweet...." "She was a lotus..." "growing in the stagnant water, the rotten water." "Rodri?" "She hanged herself" "I couldn't... I couldn\t leave her like that." "Fran, what are you talking about?" "Francisco." "It went wrong." "It turned out so wrong." "I told you I don't want you to come here alone." "You didn't sign the authorization." "OK, it doesn't matter." "Come here." "Why didn't you think about me?" "I could have helped you." "Did you tell anyone?" "No." "Our lives depend on your silence, You know that, don't you?" "I don't deserve this!" "I don't deserve this, Juanio!" "What is it?" "You tell me." "For the good of eveyone, you tell me." "I don't deserve this either, Nina!" "Can you calm down and tell me what's going on?" "Sit down, please." "Right..." "Did you have sex with Yamila?" "What?" "The truth. I want the truth" "You're out of your mind." "No." "You're not yourself, you insulted your staff," "And Indio..." "You're getting at him all the time, because he gets on well with Yamila." "You've screwed up." "You've really screwed up." "You didn't tell Alvarez about the joint." "Do I need to give you explanations?" "Yes." "If you don't trust me," "There's no point to this relationship." "It's over." "Maybe." "You believed Indio." "I bet Indio came and told you that Yamila sucked me off so I wouldn't tell her dad about the ioint." "No details." "So lust like that, I decided to cheat on my wife for the first time and throw thirty years of work down the toilet?" "Work that I love with a passion!" "Ruin a girl's life?" "I think we have to take care of her father." "We have to support him." "So I thought it'd be best not to tell him about the joint." "Secondly, I'm angy because I can't stand this guy anymore I don't know why, it's just a bad feeling." "I lust think he's dark." "Now, you don't trust me and you bring this up just because of some gossip..." "You think I'm capable of something like that." "We're all crazy" "Why not?" "Eh?" "Why not?" "Juanio... lf this had happened..." "What?" "We could've talked about it..." "like we always do." "We could have taken it on board." "Couldn't we?" "We're a family." "You think this could have broken up our partnership?" "You believe me, don't you?" "I always believe you." "I'm sory." "Give me a hug over here." "You know you can count on me." "Always, OK?" "Yes. thank you." "How do you feel about all this?" "It's hard." "But you're OK." "Thank you." "Can I ask you something?" "Of course." "Did he deny it?" "Deny what?" "Juanio, did he deny it?" "This is serious, Nina." "You don't know who you need to heal." "That's some iob you've got." "Look after yourself, please." "You too." "Yes, I'll do it for my children." "I love you vey much." "You can always count on me too." "Always." "Indio!" "Did you get fired?" "No, I'm going to the farm." "There are some things I need to fix up." "I want to go too." "I want to go with you." "You do eveything wrong, eh?" "But you're doing well." "You'll be able to lead a different life." "You can do it.." "Yeah?" "Do you?" "Evey day." "I want to do it too." "I want a better life." "With you." "What's this?" "Is this love?" "Is this it?" "Are you going to kiss me?" "I would have five children with you right now." "Finish this properly." "Will you wait for me?" "Always." "Indio!" "Five is a bit much, isn't it?" "We'll talk about it later." "I haven't enioyed the sunshine for ages." "Can I ask you a question?" "Please do." "There's something bad going on here, right?" "Good... bad..." "Sometimes bad things are also for the good." "But yes." "The truth is coming out." "Do you know what it is?" "We're alone." "In the end, we're always alone." "Do you think I'm normal?" "No." "Ah!" "You won't free yourself from the pain lf you don't balance all that darkness" "I'll go with you and I'll wait for you" "My love." "My love." "I don't care how long takes." "I'll be there, when you're free again." "Well, we've finished one stage." "Now we start a new one." "It's called the outpatient stage." "Some of you are going to work with Nina, other's are coming with Julieta and me, to a new place." "Some of you won't do it." "We strongly advise you to." "It's so gratifying to see you." "I'm proud of you for what you've fought for," "your bravey, your willpower." "You're also witnessing a historic moment." "Nina and I have decided to go our own separate ways after many years working together." "Because of life experiences, needs.. ." "But especially because we feel deep love and respect for each other." "Nina usually doesn't speak when we say goodbye to a group" "But maybe today.. ." "She says she gets moved and she bursts into tears." "I will today." "I'm going to be brave and say a few words." "Well, what I'm going to tell you is something I've never told any other group, but I want to share it with you." "The driving force that has carried me all these years has been a feeling of indebtedness." "When I was 26, looking for my daily heroin fix, I spent five days away from home." "And when I went back I had lost the only thing I had in my life:" "My 3 year-old son." "I managed to go on living by helping other addicts like me, by buying myself in this iob." "Today I'm vey happy to see you all" "Because I remember each of you" "the day you arrived." "How you were then, and how are you today." "And in the same way that you're leaving today this feeling of indebtedness that I had," "has also left me." "That sense of self-betrayal." "I don't know... maybe my mission is accomplished." "I'm happy it has been with you, such a great group.. ." "I'm cying like an idiot already.. ." "OK, so, congratulations, keep on working, and you can all go home." "Hi Coquito!" "How are you doing?" "What's up?" "Ask him for alita de mosca" "Yes, yes, I'm back" "Can we start with five?" "OK, bye." "What did he say?" "Yes!" "I'll be indebted to you all my life." "Do you know?" "Bye." "You can count on me for whatever you might need" "What are you up to?" "You don't miss a thing... I've had years living with crafty devils like you.. ." "I want to make the most of this moment of clarity." "But I'm afraid I might slip up again." "My dear Francisco, you do special things by nature." "Only a few people will understand them" "But never forget that from adversity grows the rarest and most beautiful flower." "Mum, I really don't know what to do, to not cause you any pain," "with the things I do." "I need to take another step." "Mum, I'm aware of what I did." "and it really hurts." "It won't go away." "What is it that's missing?" "Make amends for what I did." "How?" "Testifying to the Public Prosecutor" "The iudge is going to throw out the case for lack of merit." "Francisco.. ." "And what they did to Nora?" "Those things happen evey day." "They'll send you down for twenty years." "I killed people, mum." "Life will go on." "What if I have a son?" "How will I look him in the eye?" "When?" "As soon as possible." "Could you spend a day with me first?" "NINE YEARS LATER FRANCISCO WAS RELEASED" "FOR HAVING PLEADED GUILTY," "AND FOR GOOD behavior." "WHEN HE STEPPED OUT ON TO THE STREET" "HE STOPPED, LOOKED TO THE SKY" "AND HEARD" "..." "WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU ENJOYED THE SUNSHINE?" "HE TURNED AROUND AND HELD BELEND TIGHTLY"