"angel..." "angelica." "We have gathered here to remember someone who touched us, heart and soul." "Living close to angelica was..." "It was like being on a stormy sea." "The straight and narrow..." "didn't suit her." "That's not what she wanted." "For her, it was all or nothing." "When she was angry, she was furious." "When she was happy, she was ecstatic." "But when she was sad..." "she was heartbroken." "desperately inconsoIabIe." "Dear Richard, I'm sorry but this is the only way I can tell you this." "The last thing on earth I want to do is hurt you." "I can't take this anymore." "You've always wanted us to live our dream, but now that dream has turned into a nightmare." "You are the only man I have ever loved, but I can't go on." "Forgive me." "Yours, Angelica" " will you stay for dinner?" " No thanks, not today." "please?" "It might cheer angelica up." " Is she still having a rough time?" " Ever since we started recording..." "You're the only person she wants to see." "Christ, look at me...!" "I Iook terrible." "Come on..." "Too much..." "Better." "hello..." "angelica, look who I brought home..." " Like a drink?" " No spirit, though." "A beer won't kill you, will it?" ""Dear Richard..."" ""The last thing I want to do is hurt you."" ""But I can't take this anymore."" "Oh, my God!" "We all believed..." "that angel's zest for life would help her overcome any obstacle." "That ultimately, she would out-Iive us all." "But now she's gone." "And I don't think I will ever be completely happy again." "angel, you were my angel." "Go on in..." "That was a beautiful eulogy, Jess." "Not much of a crowd, though." "Lots of people would have liked to pay their respects." "Rick didn't want a circus." " Where were the guys in the band?" " They weren't invited." "I don't like them." "I never have." "Thanks." "It was a moving speech." "Times like these show you who your real friends are." " Cheers." " To angel." "To angelica." "I bet she's laughing now, after a decade with hardly any record sales..." "What time is it?" " Five to..." " Let's see what they have to say." "A memorial service was held today for Angelica Holst, better known as Angel, at a chapel on the outskirts of Stockholm." "The service, held three months after her disappearance attended by her family and close friends..." "Angel had chart-topping hits in the UK and in the US, and she was equally famous for her wild private life..." "still alive and kicking?" "Guess what I did today?" "We had a memorial service for you." " What?" " A memorial service." "How can you have a service if there's no body?" " Why didn't you tell me?" " What do you mean?" "That sort of thing takes planning..." "Where was it held?" " At the chapel." " Which one?" " Yours." " That's going too far, Richard." "My parents are buried there..." "Are you out of your mind?" "Where else?" "Of course it had to be that chapel." "Everyone thinks you're with them." "You should have heard Jess..." "His speech was so moving, I almost thought you were gone for good." "You seem to be enjoying my death." "I mean, you're laughing." "That's insane!" "You've gone too far, Rick." "I spend my days waiting for you to call." "And now you tell me you've buried me!" "I'm doing my best." "I'm working my ass off trying to make this work." "Setting the stage for you." "If Jess made a speech, everyone will hate me!" "Jess and the others will laugh." "I'm going to ask everyone over for dinner, and you'II walk in and we'II party." "This isn't funny, Rick." "It's terrible." "It's cynical." "You've gone too far." "I'm doing this for you." "When you come back, you'II see that I was right." "What have I done...?" " That was my cue, right?" " Right." "Can I help you out in any way?" " Is there anything you need?" " No..." "Then let's try it again." "It's so fucking hot in here..." "And I've got a cold, too." " Who laid down the guitar track?" " I did." " I can tell." " Thanks." "Want me to mute it?" "would it be easier if you didn't hear it?" " well, you're the boss..." " Mute the guitar." "What's wrong?" " It's so bloody uninspiring." " Uninspiring?" " The intro is... wooden." " It's heavy, that's the whole point." "Heavy doesn't have to be like a ton of bricks." " Come on, angelica." " Oh, yeah..." "Christ, this is fun!" "The clock's ticking." "Give it all you've got." "Rick, please..." "I know when I'm supposed to sing." " Don't cue me in like that." " I'm only..." " I'm not a choir girl!" " You're acting like one." "should we try another track instead?" " I'II go talk to her." " Why?" "Why you?" " She's mad at you." " Then I should talk to her." " Who's married to her?" " You'II just make things worse." "I sent them home." "Good." "Do you know what time it is?" "It's a bit early for wine." "So, are we supposed to get drunk, clear the air, and start over again." "Bring me a glass and a bottle, please." " What's wrong?" " I don't like the songs." "I'm doing material that has already been done by better artists than me." "It's a cover album." "Cover..." "Don't you get it?" "Why on earth would anyone buy this, when they don't even buy my own stuff?" " I would." " You're the only one." "You live in some kind of a dream world, Rick." "I wish you would wake up and realize that it's over." "I'm 40." "I can't write songs anymore." "Nobody buys my records." "And now this desperate move, cutting an album of covers." "My name tops the "Out" list." "A list some 1 8-year-oId dreams up." "So who topped the "In" list?" "AII you do is talk..." "You live in this dream world." "I refuse to make a fool of myself." " Aren't you happy up there?" " Not anymore." " You're on fire..." " Shut up!" "What's wrong with you?" "I'm not on fire anymore." "I drink wine to get in the mood." "You're stuck in the past." "I'm finished." "Accept it, for God's sake..." "It's over." "I don't have a life." "Our relationship is crap." "Don't touch me!" "We don't have kids, I don't have a family..." "Christ, I'd be better off dead." "I'm going to the studio." "I guess you won't be coming in..." "AII right, then I'II do some mixing." "Listen, angelica..." "I've been up all night thinking about what you said." "You're right." " About being washed up?" " No..." "About being better off dead." "Not for real." "people should think you're dead." "What happened when presley died?" "Kurt Cobain, Hendrix, Janis joplin, Eva Cassidy, Nick Drake that T. Rex guy, Marc BoIan..." "They became bigger than ever." "The media calls them geniuses." "countless collections are released..." ""Greatest Hits:" "angel"" ""The essential angel"" ""angel, The Tracks From Heaven"" "There's a hell of a difference between me and elvis." "exactly, you can come back." "only one guy's ever pulled that off:" "Jesus Christ." "Rick..." " Are you serious?" " It's a brilliant idea." "It's insane..." "How would we do it?" "We have to finish the album first." "Then we have to kill you." "people have to believe you're dead." "You'II have to disappear for six months." "Or three or four..." "until the wheels are set in motion and the album's been released." "How should I die?" "No one would be surprised if you got drunk and jumped into the sea." " I haven't been drunk in ages." " But it gave us headlines." "What did they call you?" ""The dolphin"..." "Stop it!" "Suicide, it's the best way to go." "It's unbeatable." "If you kill yourself, you're back." "A mystery for the press:" ""Why did angel kill herself?"" ""angel's death wish"" ""Missing angel"" "You can't lie like that." "Sure you can." "It's bloody effective." "Take clinton, for instance..." ""I did not have sex with that woman."" "Three months later, it was: "Sorry"." "And no one gave a damn." "Keith Richard:" ""I snorted my father's ashes."" "Two weeks later: "I was only joking." Perfect timing for the world tour." "Who cares about the truth?" "The truth is boring." "people love a good story." "And that's what this is." ""angel commits suicide", good story." ""angel comes back", even better." "The press sell papers, people get the gossip they love, the record company sells records, and angel flies again." "And I fly with with you." "What if I want to fly solo." "What happens if you crash?" "When are the guys coming in to the studio?" " I cancelled." " tell them it's on again." " Peking." "Shanghai." " No." "Tokyo, Singapore, Bangkok?" " What other cities are there in Asia?" " There are millions." "And I've never had a gig in Asia." " You've never had a gig in Asia." " No..." "That's what makes it so perfect." "Why wasn't I ever a hit in Japan?" "Meja, a Swedish blonde, has sold zillions of records." " But I've sold zip..." " Forget about Meja, and the past." "Focus on the future." "Asia is perfect." "No one will recognise you." "Aren't you coming in?" " Don't tell me this isn't paradise." " This is paradise." "It's perfect." "There's nobody around." " Just imagine the off season." " This is the off season." "It will be even more off season by the time you return." "AII alone." "For three whole months." "Write a song, about me for once." "Hi, Eva." " How are things?" " Crap." "This place sucks." "The Caribbean is better." " So, how's our jelly holding up?" " She won't leave the room." "AII she does is lie in bed watching Thai TV." " How do you cope with her?" " Maybe you should just come home?" " I can't rebook our tickets." " Give her my love..." " And take good care of her." " I will." "Catch you later." "A penny for your thoughts." "Have we forgotten anything?" "We've gone over everything." "I Iike this place." "I'II spend my days with yoga, swimming, reading..." "I can do this for three months." " Don't call me, I'II call you." " Does it really matter?" "It's important that only the two of us know." "Everyone else will think you're dead, and dead people don't talk." "Pamper yourself." "Yoga, fruit juice..." "Keep away from anything else." " I've been sober for seven years now." " And don't read the papers." "Once we set this in motion, we won't be able to stop it." " There will be a Iot of talk." " well, isn't that the point?" " Is there anybody I don't know about?" " What do you mean?" "I don't want to hear:" ""I had sex with angel in a lift in berlin."" "I did have sex in a lift in berlin..." "But that was before I met you." "It's you and me." " Are you ready?" " Yes." "Dear Richard..." "I'm sorry, but this is the only way I can tell you this." "The last thing on earth I want to do is hurt you." "But I can't go on." "You've always wanted us to live our dream, but now that dream has turned into a nightmare." "You are the only man I have ever loved, but I can't go on." ""Forgive me." "Yours, angelica."" " My God!" " Am I good, or am I good?" " Okay." "Just one thing..." "How can you be so sure that you're the only man I ever loved?" "Because you just wrote it down." " So?" " It was okay..." " It's great." " It's good." "There's one last thing we need to do:" " Stage a scandal." " Like, go out with someone else?" "That's not a scandal, that's what everyone wants." "I've booked an interview tomorrow, with Frank." "You want Frank to interview me?" "No, I want you to puke on him." "Or punch him." "Do whatever you want, as long as we make the front page." "Your new record, what's it like?" "absolutely fabulous." " What's the material like?" " dylan crap." "The kind of crap you Iike." " Isn't that right, Rick?" "My new record is full of shit." "I don't mean that dylan is crap, and I'm not doing any dylan songs, but there's a bunch of shitty songs I can't sing." " A pile of shit, that's what it is." " It's rubbish." " What kind of fucking interview..." " Take it easy, angelica." "He's supposed to be interviewing me, for fuck's sake!" "Leave me alone!" "What the hell are you looking at?" "Let go of me!" "Fuck you!" " Where's my bag, Eva?" "!" " I want you out of here!" " Let go!" " pull yourself together." "please, I'd Iike to pay the bill." "I'm so sorry about..." "She's obviously unbalanced." "pull yourself together!" " What the hell...!" " could you call us a taxi?" " There was a photographer in there." " Great, that'II make the headlines." " I can't board in stockholm." " No, you'II board in Frankfurt." "Frankfurt?" "Why Frankfurt?" "Because it's the messiest airport in Europe." "How do I get there?" "Hitchhike?" "By train?" " When?" " Not yet..." " Don't look." " Why not?" " Don't look!" " I've got to keep my eye on the road." "That's smart..." "Stop it!" "I'm the one doing this, you know." "It's for real." "If someone recognises me on the train they'II call the papers..." "well, if you're going to wear that stupid wig, what do you expect?" "Show it to me again." "Christ, look at me!" "I Iook terrible." "A train from stockholm to MaImA¶." "Then on to Copenhagen, Hamburg and Frankfurt." "Buy your plane ticket there, pay cash." "fly Thai Air, not SAS." " Use the name angelica Horst." " Horst?" "only one letter is different, and no one can trace you." "For the Iast time, where do you put the note?" "On the piano." "And then?" "I go to the shore, making sure I leave footprints." "Then I swim over to the ladder..." "I don't know why I have to swim, the footprints should be enough..." " Then you take the train to..." " Copenhagen." "Then Frankfurt." " And what name do you use?" " Horst." "angelica Horst." "Look at me..." "The most important thing:" "Don't call me, I'II call you." "Don't shake it!" "A gentleman." " will you miss me?" " I already do." "Give my regards to elvis, John Lennon, Hendrix." "Give Janis a hug from me." "Life with angelica meant a Iot of ups and downs." "lately, mostly downs." "We were wrapping up her latest album, and we were hoping it wouId be a come-back..." "And..." "You see, she..." "We had to cancel a day in the studio, and then there's been all that bad press..." ""angel's recording and who cares." And she topped the "Out" list..." " The "Out" list?" " Like in the papers." "It was a blow." "And she actually said..." "that she might as well be dead." "She's had unstable periods..." "It's not the first time she's threatened to commit suicide." "It isn't..." "could you tell me exactly what happened?" "Jess and I walked in." "We..." "He went down to the shore and I grabbed two beers." "We called her mobile and we heard the phone down by the water." "I've already told you all this." "What do you think has happened?" "For God's sake, Rick..." "Don't expect a worst-case scenario." "She'II turn up, she's probably just gone away somewhere for a while." "If you promise to cover this in a fair and balanced way I'II give you the first shot at the information." "If they find her in the water, or if she comes back, you'II be the first to know." " How have things been between you?" " Good..." "I saw her during that interview." "well... we have our ups and downs." "Think it has anything to do with that?" " With the two of you?" " Us?" "What do you mean, that I did something to her?" " Isn't that so?" " That's why I'm here, Frank." "You've always been straight with me." "I need someone to cover this in a fair way." "You know that I'II try to be balanced, and that you can trust me." ""Trust me"..." "hello, darling..." "I only call when I'm alone." "What's the weather like?" " Have you been drinking?" " No, I haven't..." "Listen, have they found my body yet?" "What?" "No, I just keep hearing a Iot of static." "Static..." "What I'm doing?" "I..." "I don't want to be here anymore." "Don't want to..." "I don't want to be here." "I don't..." "You can't come home right now." "No, you can't." "We have to stick to the plan." "please Rick, Iet me come home..." "It won't be for much longer, sweetheart." "It will be fine." "What about your yoga?" "The album's gone platinum." "You've been drinking, I can tell." "Oh, my God!" "We should have said no." " He'II make you cry." " Then I'II cry." "And if you don't, you'II come across like a cold bastard." " I should have stopped this." " Why didn't you?" "Because... you accepted without discussing it with me first." "I mean, what was he a year ago?" "A hockey reporter..." "It's a new situation for him, too." " How much have you had to drink?" " Your job is to be supportive." "Not to be some kind of mother." "It's nice to have you here, Richard." "could you tell me, and our viewers, what's on your mind right now?" "How would you express your thoughts?" "For starters, I feel a bit nervous about being here." "I realise that you'II be wanting to discuss certain events that I, for the past month, have tried to understand." "It might sound strange, but to me, she isn't dead." "She can't be dead." " could you elaborate on that?" " well, I..." "I won't give up until they find... her." "As long as she hasn't been found..." "I won't let go." "What did you say at the memorial service?" "Nothing." "It's an absurd situation..." "Having a memorial service for someone who's missing while still..." "well, not knowing the whole story." "If we go back to the day she went missing, what did you think?" "My first thought was that she had left me." "Then we found the note..." "And it opened the door to dark thoughts..." "That something even worse might have happened." " How did that make you feel?" " Terrified, speechless..." "Like anyone else confronted with a crisis like that." "There I was, in the house we shared, and she was gone..." "It was so unreal." "What was her state of mind before this happened?" "Living with an artist, a performer like angel..." "You live with the artist, but you also live with the woman, angelica." "angelica was preparing for angel's come-back." "And that process was rough on her..." "She doubted herself..." "And it makes me angry and sad that she is isn't here today to see that all her agonizing, that she wasn't good enough, that she was a has-been..." "And when the record was released that wasn't the case at all." "It pisses me off that she missed that." "If angel could see you, up there in heaven..." "If she could hear what we said here tonight." "What would you say to her?" "Come home." "well done." " Thank you for being there." " lovely wine..." "It was great the way you came to her defence like that." "She would have been so... pleased." "What?" "Then why did you come back here with me?" "It's just a journalist." "Say I'm not here." " I know I'm not supposed to call..." " Who is it?" "hello?" "Shit, shit, shit..." "What's the matter?" "What the hell is wrong?" "angelica..." "angelica?" "For God's sake, Eva..." "Some freak saw the show and called." "Dead people don't talk..." "You knew, you bastard!" "Didn't we agree that you weren't supposed to call?" " Did she recognise my voice?" " Yes." " What did she say?" " What do you think?" " I'd better talk to her..." " No!" "I told her it wasn't you." "I think she believed me." "I'm pretty sure she believed me." "hello?" "angelica?" " What's wrong?" " I can't do this." " I can't take this anymore." " Sweetheart..." "I really need to come home." " What?" " I need to come home." "You can't come home, everybody thinks you're dead." "I will be dead soon." "You and I will have to figure out when you can come back to life." " It can't..." " Why didn't you call today?" " I was on Jihde." " What's that?" " He's that hockey reporter..." " Hockey?" "He has a talk show now." " You were on a hockey show?" " No, he has a talk show now." "I told the whole country how much I Iove you, and miss you." " tell me." " I miss you so damn much." "I don't want to be here anymore." "I want to go home." "That's not possible." "Listen, sweetheart, I'II come to you." " thailand's not exactly next door." " I know..." "It takes ten hours to get there." "I'II be there tomorrow, I promise." "I'II tie up some loose ends here and then we'II spend a few days together." "We'II put our heads together, then we'II go home and face the bastards." "hello..." "What are you doing here?" "I've been trying to get hold of you, Eva..." "About yesterday, I'm so sorry." "Can we talk?" " Eva, please..." " Don't touch me, you bastard!" "Let's calm down and discuss this." "AII right?" "We had to do this." "The whole plan hinged on one thing, that only the two of us knew." "Come on, angel's success has paid your salary..." "You sick bastard!" "Damn you!" "AII those years I fucking wasted on the bloody pair of you!" "It's your word against mine." " Rick?" " Yeah..." " Where are you?" " Over here." "How are you?" "So-so..." "Have a seat." "I'm not sure how to say this..." "But I wanted you to be the first to know." "Brace yourself..." "She's alive." "angelica's alive." "You know what things were like right before she disappeared..." "I guess she bIacked-out, or something." "She went off to spend time alone..." "And now she wants to come home." "You can imagine what a ruckus there will be." "The press will go bananas." "Sam will be on my case." "I mean, the album's sold muIti-pIatinum..." "He's going to push us to go on tour..." " You are such a bastard." " What do you mean?" "angelica called me yesterday." "Her version is different." "Hang on..." "This isn't what you think..." "Look, we need each other right now." "Listen to me..." ""Times like these show you who your real friends are", remember that?" "And now you can prove to me that you are a real friend." "You know what it's been like." "I mean, was it good?" "We're all affected when things don't go well for angel." "This was a way to turn things around." "And you must admit that it worked." "Now this is phase two:" "involving you and the whole band." "We're on a roll!" "I promise you..." "I know I lied, that I acted like a bastard, but the plan was that you, me, Sam and Eva were going to have dinner together, and she would walk in..." "And we would laugh our heads off." "We'd knock back a few drinks and then start rehearsing." "Back on the track, back on the block, for Christ's sake." "Come on, it's rock'n'roII!" "Feed the press a good story, they'II eat it up." "This isn't about the press, or about what spin you can put on it, this is about human beings, about a girl who's an old friend..." "It's about her life." "Do you think I would let angelica down?" "Even if this went straight to hell, I would follow her there." "Who cares about the lies?" "It's just a load of..." "Who cares?" "You know I'm sincere." "Can you look me in the eye and say you don't want to tour with us?" "I would love to do it... for angelica." "Not for you?" "definitely not for you." "well, cancel it." "No, I can't say it over the phone." "I have a flight to catch at 2:30." "I'II be leaving an hour from now." "Sam, I don't have time for this, it's now or never." "Get in your car and drive on over here." "Be here in 30 minutes, or you'II live to regret it." "Fucking loser." " Rick?" " Yeah." "Rick..." "You can't expect me to drop everything and come running." "I have a life." "I spend my days on the phone, for your benefit, by the way." "album sales are rocketing, but the company wants more material." "And all I can say is: "Sorry, dead artists don't record new material."" " unless they come back." " Right, but they don't." "She's alive." " What?" " angel's alive." " How do you know that?" " I've known it the whole time." "We decided to kill her to get the ball rolling again." "Suicide - the papers eat it up." "We always planned to bring her back." "How the hell could you say those things on prime time television?" "For God's sake, Sam, don't be so Swedish." "It worked." "It's rock'n'roII." "As of now, you shoulder the costs." "We'II take 70 % of the profits and you'II get 30 %." "I guess I ought to say you're a genius..." " Go ahead, say it." " Okay, you're a genius." "By the way, not a word until we get back." "I'II be landing in Bangkok tomorrow, at 6:30 am." "So I'II be in PimaIai with angelica around lunchtime." "I have no idea, that depends on how she's doing." "We haven't seen each other for three months, we need to talk." "Listen, Sam, if you're bringing someone back from the dead, you don't fart around, you drop a bomb." "Let me take care of the resurrection, you can prepare the disciples." "By the way, don't discuss any of this with Eva until I get back." "Keep her out of this." "Because I have things to say to her." "Good..." "Just do as I say and we can retire in comfort." "Love ya'." "She's alive." "angelica isn't dead." " Hang on..." " I talked to her." " Where is she?" " In thailand." "And Rick?" "Doesn't he know?" "He knows everything." "They planned it together." "What are you doing?" "Rick's on a flight to thailand." "He'II be landing around midnight, our time." "Do you realise how big this is?" "God, I've missed you!" "It's been so long I've forgotten what it's like." "almost..." "I missed you." "Every single second." " Who knows that I'm still alive?" " Sam." "And who would he tell?" "Lots of people, I bet." "He promised not to tell." " Can you trust him?" " well, we'II see." "I had to tell him." "Like you had to tell Jess." "I had to tell Jess since Eva knew about it." " He's pissed off." " But not at me." "I'm a bastard." " So you called Eva?" " Yes, but she won't talk to me." "What a fucking mess..." "We'II straighten it out when we get back." "You can't play with death." "Sure you can." "I went to a real funeral." "With real people." "With a real dead body." "A real child who lost her father." "And a woman who lost her husband." " Death is no joke." " That's different." "We're playing the game." "We're in control, and as long as we are, there won't be a problem." "AII I want right now is to go home, with you." "In peace and quiet." " Angel is back." " No one knows why..." "Jesus returned "covered in glory"." "Angel returns covered in a sarong, with paparazzi up her ass." "Fucking idiots..." "Isn't that nice, you still have the boat." "You could at Ieast have done the fucking dishes!" "I was in a hurry to get to you." "It took you two days to get there." "You could have done the fucking dishes!" "And why is that damn boat still here?" ""I sold the boat, darling"..." "The hell you did!" "You never stop lying, why is that?" "!" "AII you do is lie!" "We don't have to sell the boat now." "I hate that fucking boat." "Then we'II sell it." "It's cool..." "Come on..." "It's ugly, it's huge..." " Like me." " Knock it off!" "could we start over?" "welcome home." "could we try to keep our heads here?" "It's gone better than we expected." "talk about a welcome committee..." "What other Swedish artist could have generated that?" "You can keep your sense of humour, you know." "Why don't we have kids?" " You never wanted any." " No, that was you." "It didn't fit in with my image, did it?" "Have I ever said that?" "That it didn't fit in with your image?" "Not in so many words, but..." "How the hell can you..." "please." ""Don't take out that coiI, now's not a good time."" " "It wouldn't suit your image."" " Did I say that?" "Did I actually say that?" "No, you didn't." "I did." "You know, you can touch a cheek like this, too..." "What's with that portrait of me?" " We used it in church." " What?" "The memorial service." "You used that picture of me for the memorial service?" " I can't stand it." " really?" "What the...?" "You know that I hate it." "Why did you have that service?" "You didn't discuss it with me." "Eva is hurt." "I've called her a million times, but she won't take my calls." "She's devastated." "She's one of my best friends." "And how do you think Jess..." ""Jess", that's plain silly, his name is Jesper A–stIund!" "You're Richard, and "Sam" is samuel." "It's all like some fucking stupid game!" "You all walk around in sunglasses, looking like fucking insects!" " Damn you." " For God's sake..." "Damn you!" "DAMN YOU ALL!" " Why is everything my fault?" " You are so fucking greedy!" "You still have that fucking boat!" " Listen to me!" " Don't you hit me!" " There are reporters out there." " Listen to me!" "I'II go out and tell them you hit me." "Then you'II get your headlines, and that's all you care about!" " "angel abused"" " What a great headline." " It's fabulous." " Listen to me." "I'm always wrong!" "I'm greedy." "I do this, that, and the other..." "But have I ever done anything that wasn't for you?" "The boat, maybe." "So sell it or sink it!" " What about that motorcycle?" " It's leased." "I don't own it, I lease it." "Yes, there was a memorial service." "It was nothing I planned in advance, but people wanted to have a ceremony in your honour." "Your friends." "So what was so wrong about that?" " Who was there?" " The people closest to us..." " Aunt ellen, was she there?" " Aunt ellen?" " No." " Why wasn't Aunt ellen there?" " Why wasn't she there?" " I forgot about her..." " She's the only relative I have left!" " I... forgot about her." " What about the band?" " They weren't there." "only Jess." " Not those other assholes." " They're my colleagues." "I only wanted our real friends to be there." "They are my friends." "My real friends." "And they weren't invited." "So who was?" "Every journalist in town?" "Jess was there, but no journalists." "I'II do this tour." "For your sake." "If I don't, you'II look like a fool." " How did you manage to get in?" " The place is under siege." "'After three months, she rose again.'" "Amazing." "I'm so, so sorry..." "Did you look like this at the funeral?" " cool, even at a funeral." " Anything for you." "And at breakfast he goes:" ""I want you to wear wings."" "Then he pulls out those black wings I wore back in... 1 992." "Whose idea was it to wear wings?" " Sam and I talked about it..." " Isn't that just like Sam..." "I'm going to make a big enough fool of myself without wings." "You don't have to wear them." "You're only saying that because Jess is here." "See how she treats me?" " Who is it?" " No one." "I'm going to the bathroom." " You can wear the wings." " I fly high enough without them." "Eva?" "hello, angelica." "Why are you hiding?" "hello." "It's been a while." "It has." " How are things going?" " Fine..." "Why haven't you been taking my calls?" " I need you, Eva." " So now you need me..." "Right." " Why?" " If you took my calls, you'd know." "How could you do this to me?" "To me?" "!" "AII my Iife I have helped you, and taken care of all your shit!" "As for that bastard Rick..." "How the hell can you trust him, and not me?" "Do you know what he did?" "That wonderful husband of yours..." "Know what he did when you were playing dead in thailand?" "In your expensive air chair?" "AII right, Janne." "I just needed to get some air." "I'm coming..." "I'II be there when I get there!" "bloody idiot..." "He fucked you." " And that's okay with you?" " I've always sensed this rivalry." "only I never really knew what it was all about." "It's you, Eva... you've been in love with him the whole time." "darling, I can't trust anyone anymore." "If you had bothered to try, you could have trusted me." "I am all alone, do you understand that?" "I will always be alone." "I'm the one who has to go through with this." "Or we'II all be dead for real." "How could you do it?" "How the hell could you do such a thing?" "Don't you see?" "You ruined everything, you sick cow!" "I have taken care of you my whole life." "Ever since we were kids!" "And all you ever do is shit on me!" "You reduced me to nothing." "I don't even exist anymore!" " I have apologised to you..." " How do you think I felt?" "First you go and kill yourself without talking to me." "Then suddenly it's all a joke, and you're in thailand, getting pissed!" "How fucking sick can a person be?" "You're nothing!" "You can't even sing!" " Without me, you're nothing!" " That's what everybody says." "They all say:" "Without me, you would be nothing." "Everybody in the whole damn world says that." "I accept that." "I am nothing on my own." "I know I can't sing." "I'm not stupid enough to think I'm Liza minnelli." "I'm lousy." "I'm useless." "But I'm front-page news, so the show must go on, darling." " Eva was here." " Eva?" "Eva was here?" "What did she say?" "That I can't trust anyone." "There's no one I can trust." "Listen..." "She told me that you..." "Rick?" "Are you planning to sit out here all night?" "I figured you wanted to be alone." "I had nightmares, and I can't go back to sleep." "If you want me to go, I will." "That's not what I want right now, I want you to come to bed." "We need to talk, right?" " I was high..." " On what?" " Just listen to me." " What were you high on?" "I had pulled off the Jihde gig." "Christ..." "What do you mean, "pulled off the Jihde gig"?" "There I was, on national TV, pretending you were dead." "It wasn't easy." "But I pulled it off, and it gave me a rush." "We went out to dinner and had some wine, and we came back here to watch the show." "only..." "I couldn't bring myself to watch it." " We had more wine and it happened." " tell me about it." " Why do you want to know?" " Because it doesn't make sense." "How did it happen?" " It just happened." " How?" "Did you kiss her?" " Or did she kiss you?" " I don't remember." " I tried to kiss her." " And she...?" "She kissed you back and told you how much she'd wanted this." " No, we didn't talk." " What?" " We undressed and..." " That's disgusting!" "Be quiet!" "You know what, if you had told me you had slept with Jess I would be less surprised." "If I had slept with Jess?" "It wouldn't have surprised you if I had slept with Jess?" "I have a suggestion..." "We won't do a concert gig, we'II have a showcase instead." " And invite the press." " Kick off the tour with a showcase?" "Like REM had at the Winter Gardens." "To establish..." "And then that's taken care of." " establish what?" " We need good press." " We need press?" " Right, and they will..." "please, this just doesn't make sense to me." "We need press?" "Don't we have enough press?" "Let me put it like this:" "If people think you did this just for fun..." "If they feel tricked..." "If they think you did this just to make money." " To sell records..." " It was." "well, maybe it's not a good idea to broadcast that." "What do you think?" "Everybody's dying to..." "they want to see you." "We'II do a one-hour set and treat them to some good food, followed by a 30-minute press conference." " And you'II perform a few songs live." " It's perfect." " What am I supposed to say?" " We'II figure that out." " You mean it's your call?" " No, that's not what I'm saying." "Just give it some careful thought." "You can tell them elvis says hi." "I can tell them I'm pregnant." "Pregnant?" " And I'm the dad?" " How should I know?" "You've got to fuck the right person, haven't you?" "To get the right person pregnant." "I don't have time for games." "Are you pregnant?" "I'm not saying I am pregnant..." "But I couId say: "Here I am, and I'd Iike to have kids."" " At the press conference?" " Why not?" "Is it all right with you if we that we do this showcase?" " It's perfect." " Good." "We'II discuss the details later." "Don't worry, Sam it's only rock'n'roII, and I Iike it." "How could you betray me like that?" "You know, I..." "I've done a Iot of bad things in my Iife." " But I don't regret them." " Not at all?" "But if I couId undo this..." "I would give anything to erase those ten minutes." "I've told you I'm sorry, I've tried to explain how much I Iove you..." "I'm here for you no matter what you decide to do." "But please don't punish me in front of other people." "What was that?" "Spit on me, hit me, tell me to go to hell, only don't do it in front of nobodies like Sam." "Are you pregnant?" " What do you think?" " I have no idea." "I only said that to make him understand that I'm real." "It's only been a few days, I have no idea if I'm pregnant or not." "But he has to understand that I'm a real person." "What difference does it make if he understands that?" "It makes a big fat difference." " How much time do we have?" " None." "Photo call in 1 5 minutes." "Photo call, seven songs and a press conference." "We agreed on that." " You don't have to do it." " Of course we should do it." "It's better than having photographers swarming on stage." " You've done a great job, Sam." " Thank you." " Did you put this here?" " Someone else has been thoughtful." "Cheers." "Are you nervous?" "Yes, I am nervous." "That isn't so strange, considering." "I've been waiting here a while, and I was about to call the police..." "shall we go for a walk, Sam?" " Was I too bitchy?" " I'm sure he deserved it." " Sorry..." " Take it easy." "How do we look?" "We may be old, but we look good!" "You are..." " I'm going." " I'II be right out." "You'II do just fine." " What a fucking attitude..." " You talk too much, Sam." "This is what we wanted." "And I'II be the fool if it all goes to hell." "Of course she's nervous." "Why did you even mention it?" "I'm trying to figure her out." "She won't look me in the eye." " will she be able to pull this off?" " She'II knock them dead." " It'II be dynamite." " I'm worried about what she'II say." "She can say anything..." "No matter what she says, they get a great story." "She's starting to look old." "Worn out." "Maybe she should do something." "The lady just came back from the dead..." "I'm serious, maybe she should do something." " She's my wife." " And she's beautiful, but..." " Do you mean..." " Her body's fine." "But everyone over 40 in the business has had work done." "So I get to squeeze saline bags?" "Hi!" " More flowers." " Thank you." " Who are they from?" " I don't know." "This is the first day of the rest of our lives." " I Iove you." " I Iove you more than anything in the world." "Trust me." "I really mean it." "Let's do it." "Knock 'em dead!"