"Get out of there!" "I have 12 children." "Three are with me, the rest I gave away to other people." "I had most of my pregnancies here at the mines." "It's had because the belly is heavy and pulls you down." "Many times I was here, starving and thirsty, mostly thirsty." "One died." "The oldest one." "My first-born, she died." "I was young and didn't have anyone to give me advice." "Nobody told me what to do." "My father is very ignorant." "He beat me." "I remember I was very little." "He really hit me bad, beat my back." "He told us we didn't have a mother, - that we shouldn't look for her." "I think it's because she left him." "She wanted a better life for herself." "If I had stayed with my mother, she would have helped me." "She wouldn't have let me give my children away and suffer like this." "I would like to see her and hug her." "Never live to work, but work to live." "Animals are fascinating." "I can spend a long time looking at them." "They always tell me something." "Like dogs." "They love you for what you are and they are faithful." "I have the best family in the world." "When my sister told me she was going to have a baby, " "I got tears in my eyes." "I did." "After my sister got pregnant, " "I have been thinking about whether I could also be a dad." "I can't always do what] really want to, but that's how life is for me." "I was hom 3 months too early." "After that] got brain hemorrhage." "So I am spastic in my legs and little in my right arm." "I have never had a girlfriend." "It would be nice to have one." "If I could change some things I would take away my handicap." "That I would be able to do what normal people are able to do." "They are more trustworthy than people are." "You can sit down and talk to the pigs." "And you can tell them the whole world is not good today." "They don't say anything." "They just look at you and are happy to be with you." "Since they didn't choose to he here themselves, " "I think that by taking care of them I can give them a better day." "I was teased as a child because I was too fat." "I had a brand new pink bicycle - with a basket, flowers and everything." "And when I got to school, someone threw stones at me - and called me loser- because all losers rode pink bikes." "I have never been so sad in my life, - because this bike had made me so happy." "And then I never rode that bike again." "What makes me happy is to wake up every morning - and to know that when I come here, I will have a good day at the work." "Everybody says good morning or gives a little hug." "It's almost like a family." "I think I'm little bit of a dreamer - in my view of the world and how things should be." "My mother taught me to treat others, animals and people, - like you want to be treated yourself." "It's very windy today." "Who's paying for the coffees today'!" " Florentina." "Just wanted to make sure." "Don't pay for Guilhermina." "I'll pay for her." "OK, it's allright." "Here we go." "I've got French fries." "Alfredo!" "Are you laughing at my lunch?" "Come herel" " Today we've got plenty of food." "C'mon Alfredo, move your ass!" "What are you having today?" " Salad and fried sardines." "The young boss always gives us birthday cakes." "But I'm afraid of him." "I respect him." "I can't say the same about Alfredo." "My dream is to stay healthy enough so that I can work." "Then my daughter can go to university." "So one day she can be what I could never be." "I took dirty trousers." "I will have to use these." "Betrayal is the worst thing for me." "I can't handle it." "That's what I learned after coming back from Ireland." "Why didn't she tell me that she wasn't satisfied?" "I could have sent her a vibrator." "That's it" "Of course I'm not innocent myself." "I also had a lover in Ireland." "I will never forget it." "Cheating is painful." "A man can do it, but a woman can't." "David!" "Give me that stuff!" "Fuck!" "Little by little." "You are mine." "Up!" "Now you are mine." "This lying bitch, untruthful woman." "I beat her once." "I beat her twice." "Of course I was drunk when I beat her." "I am tough guy, but sometimes my heart just breaks." "I want all my kids to be adults." "Then I have a great plan, runaway plan." "Just like an arrow from Alcatraz." "When the time comes, the joy will begin." "Oh my, it's kicking." "Are you going to Babasza's place'!" "If you are going, you should fill up my tank." "I only have marking to do now and then I can leave." "Did the girls go to school?" "Good." "My children still remember what I used to be like." "Every other day police intervention, - either I was running away or they were running away." "When I was out of prison, I was drinking and fighting." "I know what alcoholism is." "The kids saved my life." "If they were taken away from me, my life wouldn't have any meaning." "I would give my heart for them." "If somebody hurt my kid, that would he the worst pain for me." "I would kill, but my heart would break if someone hurt my little ﬂowers." "Especially my daughters, both of them." "Since I came from Ireland I've been waking up at 2 or 3 a.m." "I think about the plan over and over." "I am planning my revenge." "Guys don't do things like that to each other." "This man, this brick, this shit." "He knows what it means." "I will catch him and will break his neck." "Or maybe I will cut his balls off with a knife." "There is no forgiveness, never ever in this life." "There were three of us." "Our parents were always at work." "My oldest brother took care of me from a very young age." "I was five years old." "Some guys lived next to us and they were stronger." "They always hurt me." "If someone hurt me I started to cry I was such a crybaby." "My brother always told me that I should he stronger." ""You shouldn't cry.'" ""There are two of them and you are alone.'" ""Even if they hit you, never give up.'" "ls our boss in a good mood'!" "Yeah, I guess so." " So far." "You can offer him a mug of ryebread beer." "We used to drink real beer." " Now we only drink the homemade stuff." "We used to drink at work and next morning, nobody remembered." "Nowadays, they don't allow us to drink." "Everything is different now." "There were three policemen in a car and it was driven by the chief officer." "They were totally drunk and ran over the boys." "Two guys got injured, many broken bones - but my brother died." "He loved me a lot." "I remember it." "We have to dream." "To build a house, to give birth to a child and to plant a tree." "Not to hurt other people." "Not to hurt your neighbor, not anybody." "My daughter is the meaning of my life." "I am trying to help her to become wise and as happy as possible." "I feel very comfortable here, I feel at home." "Sometimes at work I feel better than at home." "There are such moments." "Because you put all the soul into the work of the mill." "You worry about getting things done." "When you come to work you wonder - how people have worked the previous 2!" ": hours." "If everything is alright." "When you see that everybody did a good job, it's very pleasant." "But some thoughts come to my mind sometimes." "I don't know if they really need me." "But they have never told me to retire." "I'm preparing myself for that step." "People should value bread and value work." "They should love bread, appreciate it." "Appreciate life." "There is no life without bread." "I remember when my daughter was 17." "She was pretty much grown up." "And it was her birthday." "She said:" ""Dad, I would like that teddy bear.'" "I told her we'll have to see if we have the money." "I bought as many flowers as I could afford - and still have the money for the teddy hear." "When I got home, my daughter was asleep." "I laid the teddy bear and the flowers next to her." "She woke up and said:" ""My teddy bearl'" "And she took it in her arms." "Something touched my soul." "I started to cry." "I knew I had done something good and [was happy." "I believe I have sacrificed over 10 or 15000 animals so far." "The first time I had to kill an animal" "I dreamt about it at night." "I was dreaming about the blood." "I was dreaming about the blood on my apron, on my hands." "And it took me three months to get used to it." "But my heart still cringes." "I hold my breath sometimes and close my eyes." "And pray to God that he forgive me." "Then you think of your family." "Because without this sacrifice, what are you going to put on the table'!" "Nothing." "Did you hear, Victor'!" "My son told me in November that he wants a Lego city." "He saw a commercial on TV, where they show cartoons." "What about his father?" " If we count on him..." "The boy will get nothing." "Why?" " If we leave it to his dad, Santa won't come at all." "Isn't Christmas for children?" "There are children who have nothing." "They don't have enough food, - they don't have clothes, sweets or toys." "Yes, but how come parent don't take care of them?" "We have a family of gypsies in our neighborhood." "They moved recently." "They go out begging, but they don't go to work." "I got pregnant." "I spoke with my boyfriend who was in the army." "And he said: "Well, if you wait for me and if you behave' " ""we might end up together, but I will not acknowledge the child.'" "When his father heard about the child, he said:" ""No, we won't take you in our home.'" ""You are Gypsy, we are Romanians.'" "I was desperate, I didn't know where to go and where to work." "Then my turn came and I still feel like crying when I remember." "I didn't have any money." "And everything takes money here." "My boyfriend came home." "He wasn't working, I wasn't working." "The child was 4 months old." "For two whole winters, we slept in the cold." "We had no heating, we had no warm water." "I took him out, I fed him." "I did everything for him and with him." "My boyfriend went to discos, bars and gambled." "He didn't care, even if the baby was crying." "I was crying because I didn't have diapers for my child." "And the baby was naked." "I asked him again if he is going to acknowledge this boy." "He said no." "And then I was pregnant again and I didn't want to have a second child." "I knew how difficult it had been with the first one." "But I had the money for the abortion." "I was stupid enough to tell him how much money I had in my pocket." "He said: 'Let's go gambling." And I said: "No, this is for abortion."" "He started to beat me in the street." "He kicked me in the stomach and pulled at my hair..." "I went home with the money in spite of him beating me up." "And two days later I went to the hospital." "Honestly speaking, I'm afraid we might separate one day." "My only fear is where am I to go with my child'!" "Where would I go'!" "Maybe you think that I want too much - but my dream is to become a bride." "Let everybody see how beautiful I am in a pretty dress - with my hair done and with nice make-up."