"June fourtheen... nineteen thirty six" "I'am in a terrible situation" "I'll do all I can to make my husband happy, and stay by his side until he is cured" "But he won't even touch me" "And my body starts to betray me" "Should desire guide my life?" "I had such high moral principles" "I have to finally be honest with myself and understand if I've stood by them" "Everything started on my eighteenth birthday, at University" "My cousine Alice prepared a surprise for me" "Happy birthday to you..." "Thank you" "Eighteen!" "Can you believe it!" "My baby cousine!" "A baby!" "Not anymore!" "She's a woman!" "But I don't feel any different today feels just the same as yesterday!" "Yes but seventeen is the last door to childhood, eighteen is the door of delight" "And now, she's ready to experience all of life's pleasures!" "Tssk." "Justine!" "Always on fire!" "Eh!" "les filles; you don't dare putting to practice what you are dreaming about ever night" "Hey, it's my cousine's birthday, and I think her present is arriving" "What is it?" "Come on!" "Tell me!" "Look, there they are!" "Who is it?" "Oh, come on, you didn't dare!" "Anna, we only invited them for your birthday" "And after all, you haven't dream about them for two weeks" "Alexander is so gorgeous!" "Oh, I prefer Oscar He's got really sexy eyes!" "Oh!" "what about Alexander!" "How could you resist that firm bottom!" "Where did you see his firm bottom?" "Well, I haven't seen it yet, but I will before tonight" "I felt Oscar stood apart from the rest" "I went with him leaving my friends to their games" "I'm glad you came here with me" "Do you think they did it?" "I don't know" "I don't understand these silly games" "So, you wouldn't do something like that" "Certainly not Shall we go for a walk?" "Yes" "And they did it" "Justine rigged a bet with Alexander, who of course fell for it completely" "God, he's a dish!" "Yes, he'll do" "Sex and romance were my friends' only preoccupations at the time" "Anna doesn't know what she's missing" "But I must admit I wasn't much different" "And neither was Oscar" "But Anna, what's the harm in a kiss?" "It's not that." "It's what it leads to" "Men are just like children, you give them one sweet and they want the whole shop" "They have to have it all" "Not all, just a taste of things to come" "I left on summer break the next day," "without having seen Oscar again" "But I remembered my first sexual encounter with guilt" "We had been thought that we had to remain chaste" "I didn't realize that I was in love" "I was ashamed of having myself be carried away with the strength of my pleasure" "A feeling of fear and disgust grew in me over this summer, towards Oscar and towards men in general" "Did you have a good holiday?" "Yes, it was OK" "Well what did you get up to?" "I went down to Brighton To see my dad" "I went to the beach Not very much really" "You did anything special?" "Nothing fun?" "Well we went for a few drives..." "I don't love him anymore" "I just want to be free!" "He is too emotional for me" "He's always there!" "He was so cute you wouldn't believe it You know French boys..." "Although, I prefer Italians" "You prefer Italians?" "Yes I also like Italians" "I promise you, I went to a party every day!" "My God!" "Students!" "Please be quiet!" "Silence I said!" "So, are you happy to see me?" "Of course I am happy to see you" "I thought about you for the whole summer" "I thought about you sometimes too" "Did you get my letters?" "Yes, of course I got your letters" "Did you like them?" "Yes, I liked them Look, let's talk about something else" "You don't look very happy" "You don't look particularly relaxed either" "And why you're being so cold with me?" "I am sorry." "Let's not fight lam really glad to be back here with all of you" "With all of you?" "What do you mean with all of you!" "Well, with all of you, you know, with all of you, my friends" "With all of you my friends!" "Like I am just one of the crowd!" "Like I am nothing special to you" "I mean all that time we spent together, does that not mean anything to you!" "Oscar, leave me alone!" "Anna!" "What's wrong!" "Miss McConnell!" "Where do you think you are going?" "I wandered alone for hours," "I was confused by so many conflicting emotions" "I could not admit to myself that I might be in love with Oscar" "Turn around" "Miss McConnell!" "Late again!" "I am sorry Madam" "Go to the bar!" "Now, let's take the next exercise" "Bend back" "Arms above the head" "Stretch to the toe" "Straighten up." "Bend back" "Arms above the head" "Stretch to the toe" "Up." "And lean back" "Arms above the head" "Stretch to the toe" "Up." "And lean back" "Pssst!" "What happened?" "Nothing!" "Arms above the head Alright girls, you may go" "Cheer up Anna" "I have learned something terribly exciting from my grandmother" "Really?" "Hmm." "And you won't believe it" "What?" "Do tell us!" "A virile man gives off a certain scent" "It oozes from all over his body" "Ooh!" "If he doesn't wash!" "We didn't need your grandmother to tell us that!" "Non no!" "That's not what I meant!" "There's something invisible" "A magic scent" "Something that draws you to a sensual man" "So you instinctively know when he wants you" "Ah, that's what puts you in charge!" "How?" "Well, when you know he wants you," "you can play with him like he's just a puppet on a string" "You better stop playing with puppets and go for the real thing!" "Shut up!" "Oh, she's been in a romantic mood ever since her birthday" "What's wrong Anna, don't you like men?" "Maybe not!" "Let's go" "Oh you two little bitches!" "I felt sad and desperate" "I found comfort in Terenzia's arms" "Weeks passed and I held good" "But when I saw Oscar with another Girl, my confidence vanished," "and I realised that I loved him" "He was bold and ambitious" "Any means would be good to get him back" "Anna!" "Oh!" "Just a minute!" "lam coming!" "I have to admit that I used Cynthia" "Was I really conscious of it at the time?" "In any case I liked her and I did enjoy those moments we spent together" "I told Alice how crazy I was about Oscar and she reminded me of my vow to remain a virgin until my wedding day" "In the meantime, the trick had worked" "Oscar had taken the bait and was following me again" "I heard a noise!" "Who's there?" "Oh, it's Oscar!" "Are you sure?" "I want to see him" "Look, you go ahead, I will catch up with you later" "Anna!" "Anna!" "Anna!" "Feel how my heart is beating!" "So it's true that love makes the heart beat faster" "Idiot!" "Anna, why do you hate me?" "I don't hate you you" "lam sorry I said that" "I was upset." "I felt insecure" "I don't want to be tied to anyone" "This modern twaddle about the independence of women and all these ridiculous ideas" "It's just a fashion!" "It has no future" "Anna, the point is you don't trust me" "I don't trust men" "You don't know men yet!" "Anna, I love you" "I would do anything for you" "Anything?" "Yes!" "Anything!" "You just have to ask" "Well Oscar." "I, I have never seen a man's... you know" "I want to see!" "Wait!" "So come on, show me!" "Strange!" "Gross and attractive at the same time!" "No, not here, not now!" "I was still hesitating" "I wanted to be sure about Oscar's intentions" "The thought of him caused me many sleepless nights" "We were all going crazy" "The shower rooms sparked off many passions" "What are you doing?" "I missed you this summer" "But that was just a game So we will play again" "But it's a stupid game if there's no boys around" "Who needs a man?" "I feel as if your eyes were burning through to my very soul" "That's what all the boys say" "And the girls lower their panties!" "If only you were a man!" "Justine, you excite me!" "Oh kiss my breast" "Like that?" "Yes!" "Oscar loved me." "I loved him" "He had asked me to marry him and I had said yes" "He had warned me that he had to first leave for the colonies on a journey of aid and discovery" "I had accepted without hesitation" "What the hell do you think you're doing you stupid old fool!" "Some people call me a stupid old fool," "but some people call me..." "Daddy!" "Uncle!" "Come here my darlings" "Oh, I am so sorry Sir" "My father had sensed that something was cooking and one day paid us a surprise visit and he said" "can I ask you one teasy question before we indulge in hm intercourse!" "He said, can I ask you, do you smoke after intercourse?" "And you know what she said?" "You know?" "I never looked!" "Ah Ah!" "Ah Ah!" "Oh, you don't get it" "Oh well Did you like it my darling?" "Oh, I loved it!" "Well, what I understood" "Oh well Shall we have another one?" "Daddy, I thought you brought that case back from France to give to the ambassador" "So my young chap to satisfy my daughter" "She's a Mcconnell Lady!" "Sir, this is enough!" "I protest!" "Such impetuousness!" "England is saved!" "Sit down young man, sit down" "So my young fellow, lam proud of you" "You must excuse me Sir, I must go to my class" "At last you have opened your mouth!" "Please, please please, sit down, sit down" "You will learn more with me than all the rubbish they teach you here" "I'll tell you another story my indian beauty" "Daddy not again!" "Alright, but before I go it is my duty to warn your friend" "Young man, I heard you were a humanist on his way to save the world" "You are brave enough to fight the typhus," "the malaria, and the African warriors" "But there is something worse!" "What then?" "The African brothels!" "Sir this is not a subject to joke about!" "Yes, you've got a point" "You are certainly going to need some courage" "and I hope you come back to my daughter's side soon" "Can we go for a ride in your car?" "Oh!" "With you, all the way to Venice!" "I love him!" "Now, let me tell you another story:" "There was this Parisian gentleman, and he was in this brothel..." "So, burn the candle at both ends, and make the most of your youth" "Anna, this young fellow is a gentleman You have my blessing" "Now be good girls" "As if we would!" "What are these?" "They are my boarding papers They arrived this morning" "I have been waiting so long for this, I can't miss this opportunity" "Tomorrow I'll be on the boat" "Tomorrow!" "So soon!" "I'm afraid so Anna" "Let me look at you" "I want to remember you like this tonight" "I want to remember you like this always" "Don't say that You're frightening me" "I need something to remember you by" "You have my photograph" "Your Photograph!" "A photograph is just an image," "I want to take a part of you with me" "A photograph does not capture your warmth and your passion" "What else can I give you?" "Something special." "Your love" "Oscar, you know I love you" "Anna, you know I want to marry you when I come back" "I want to be your first man" "I know but..." "I'm not sure I'm ready I'm frightened" "Soaml" "Who knows where I'll be tomorrow?" "But I don't want to force you" "God bless you." "I've got to go" "Oscar!" "Come to me!" "Make love to me" "I was the happiest woman on earth" "My dream had come true" "I was going to wait as long as necessary for Oscar" "Whatever the temptations might be" "Elisabeth!" "Yes!"