"♪" "♪" "♪ Henry used to ♪ talk of people" "♪ talk of people ♪ how society would never" "♪ how society would never ♪ learn to live without" "♪ learn to live without ♪ the love" "♪ the love ♪ and he used to say" "♪ and he used to say ♪ that we could be a family" "♪ that we could be a family ♪ but not without the love" "♪ but not without the love ♪ the love" "♪ the love ♪ then he went" "♪ then he went to nowhere I know ♪" "♪ The picture-perfect ♪ memories" "♪ memories ♪ they don't mean nothing" "♪ they don't mean nothing ♪ till you die" "♪ I pick up the phone ♪ but nobody's home" "♪ but nobody's home ♪ still I try" "♪ still I try ♪ and, honey," "♪ and, honey, ♪ I can't pay the bills..." "Ohh." "Hey. (Laughs)" "Here you go." "Why do I have to do it?" "It's called comparative." "It's called comparative advantage, b.B." "Advantage, b.B. We each do we each do what we're good at, what we're good at, and everyone's happy." "And everyone's happy." "You're good at school;" "You're good at school;" "I'm good at taking care of you." "I'm good at taking care of you." "Who beat the crap who beat the crap out of the kid who out of the kid who peed on your shoes?" "Peed on your shoes?" "That was in that was in the third grade." "The third grade." "Who made it okay who made it okay for you to eat for you to eat nothing but bread nothing but bread when we go out?" "When we go out?" "Come on, come on, we're a team." "We're a team." "What are you doing?" "What are you doing?" "Writing." "Writing." "Can I read it?" "Can I read it?" "No." "No." "Sure." "If aliens abduct me." "Sure." "If aliens abduct me." "( Cell phone ringing )" "Hey." "I'm around the corner." "I'm around the corner." "What should I tell what should I tell the 'rents?" "The 'rents?" "Kaplan." "Kaplan." "Every Jewish parent's." "Every Jewish parent's idea of paradise." "Idea of paradise." "Kaplan's over." "Kaplan's over." "Waytorubitin, waytorubitin,Mr.Ivy." "Mr. Ivy." "No wonder your parents." "No wonder your parents think you're perfect." "Think you're perfect." "I'm not?" "I'm not?" "I wish I were retarded." "I wish I were retarded." "Hold on." "Hold on." "What, Nick?" "What, Nick?" "I wish I was retarded." "I wish I was retarded." "Then I wouldn't have to." "Then I wouldn't have to do your stupid schoolwork." "Do your stupid schoolwork." "You mean, you mean, you wish you were." "You wish you were mentally challenged." "Mentally challenged." "So challenge yourself." "I'm going to study group." "Okay." "Chaz!" "Where are you going?" "Study group." "Study group." "I'm not an idiot." "I'm not an idiot." "It's a usual." "It's a usual Friday night thing." "Friday night thing." "Just gonna hang out." "Just gonna hang out with some friends, with some friends, play video games." "Play video games." "Can I come?" "Can I come?" "Sorry, buddy." "Got to sorry, buddy." "Got to have social skills." "Have social skills. ( Stutters )" "( Stutters ) I'll join you guys later." "I'll join you guys later." "Sorry." "Sorry." "Be a man, Nick, come on." "Be a man, Nick, come on." "( Starts engine )" "You could've gone." "I've got something" "I've got something better to do." "Better to do." "Come on, let's go." "Come on, let's go." "Come on." "( Indistinct chatter ) ♪" "♪ come on, come on, that's all you got?" "That's all you got?" "Your music your music is distracting me." "Is distracting me." "Oh, you have no taste." "Oh, you have no taste." "This music is dope." "This music is dope." "Come on." "Here, boy." "That's all right." "You almost made it." "And he shoots." "And... whoo!" "( Laughs )" "I gotta go." "When... when do I get to come?" "Get to come?" "One day." "I promise." "♪ So for your good ♪ you'd better go" "♪ you'd better go ♪ some things never change" "( shouting ) Try and stay try and stay in the Lane!" "In the Lane!" "Hey, that's much better!" "Hey, that's much better!" "( Laughter )" "♪" "( Telephone rings ) Wait, wait!" "Wait, wait!" "I'll go out and get the car." "I'll go out and get the car." "Please, just wait." "Please, just wait." "No, come on!" "No, come on!" "What did they say?" "What did they say?" "They didn't say anything." "They didn't say anything." "He's in the hospital." "He's in the hospital." "Let's just go, come on." "Let's just go, come on." "( Door slams )" "( Tires screech )" "Man:" "And though it is impossible." "It is impossible not to feel distraught, not to feel distraught, even angry, even angry, at this seemingly." "At this seemingly senseless loss, senseless loss, God has also given." "God has also given a healing gift." "A healing gift to those of us." "To those of us who are believers..." "Who are believers..." "The knowledge that." "The knowledge that what others call death." "What others call death is not actually." "Is not actually an ending, an ending, but a new beginning." "But a new beginning." "This young man, this young man, who we all loved so much." "Who we all loved so much whom we will all miss." "Whom we will all miss so terribly..." "So terribly..." "Chaz has begun." "Chaz has begun the next stage." "The next stage in his amazing journey." "In his amazing journey with a new life." "With a new life and a new flesh..." "And a new flesh..." "More perfect than anything." "More perfect than anything we can even imagine." "We can even imagine." "Let us be inspired." "Let us be inspired by the life of Chaz young, by the life of Chaz young, to make our own lives." "To make our own lives a testament to your glory." "A testament to your glory." "He was with us." "He was with us." "We enjoyed his company, we enjoyed his company, basked in his spirit." "Basked in his spirit." "And now he's gone from us." "And now he's gone from us in the flesh, in the flesh, but his memory will remain." "But his memory will remain with us forever." "With us forever." "Let us all strive." "Let us all strive to live up to that memory, to live up to that memory, to live up to the gift." "To live up to the gift which you have given us." "Which you have given us by letting us know." "By letting us know this remarkable young man." "This remarkable young man." "In Jesus' name, we pray." "In Jesus' name, we pray." "Amen." "( Sobbing )" "( Engine starts )" "Well, I know Chaz would never want us." "Would never want us to sit around." "To sit around and be boring." "And be boring." "You know, he'd want us." "You know, he'd want us to have fun." "To have fun." "Like old times, man." "Hey, man, you want a ride or something?" "A ride or something?" "Poor kid." "He wanted to come with us." "To come with us." "If he wants to come, if he wants to come, he can ask." "All right, man, see you." "( Laughing )" "( Sighs )" "Maria?" "Maria?" "Maria?" "!" "I need your help!" "♪" "Mom." "Oh, b.B., you're home." "Oh, b.B., you're home." "Where's his stuff?" "Where's his stuff?" "I threw it out." "I threw it out." "( Breathing heavily )" "( Breathing heavily ) B.B..." "Shh." "B.B.!" "B.B..." "Shh." "B.B.!" "Oh!" "B.B.!" "Oh!" "( Grunting ) ( Shouts indistinctly )" "( Shouts indistinctly ) Come on!" "Come on!" "Nick!" "Nick!" "Come on!" "( Grunting ) B.B." "B.B. B.B., please stop." "Nick: ( Whispering ) Tick-tock, tick-tock, tick-tock," "tick-tock, tick-tock, tick-tock, tick-tock..." "Three sessions so far, and the clock's still ticking." "And the clock's still ticking." "We used to talk, remember?" "Don't skip the epigraph..." "It's my favourite part." ""Verily, verily, I say unto you," "I say unto you, "except a corn of wheat." ""Except a corn of wheat "fall into the ground and die," ""fall into the ground and die, "it abideth alone:" ""It abideth alone:" ""But if it die," ""but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit."" "It bringeth forth much fruit." Gospel according." "Gospel according to St. John, 12:24." "To St. John, 12:24." "It's about rebirth." "It's about rebirth." "Take it home." "Take it home." "We can talk about." "We can talk about the book next week." "Irene." "Irene?" "Honey." "You fell asleep, huh?" "( Sighs )" "( Sighs ) It's all right." "It's all right." "Let's go to bed." "Let's go to bed. ( Moans )" "( Moans ) It's okay." "It's okay." "I got you." "I got you. ( Moans, sobs )" "Woman:" "Hello, this is the young residence." "This is the young residence." "We're not at home right now." "We're not at home right now." "Please leave a message." "Please leave a message. ( Beep )" "See you in a bit." "All right." "See you after practice." "See you after practice." "Okay, bye." "Hey, Nick!" "What are you still doing here, man?" "Doing here, man?" "Need a ride home?" "♪ I am not ashamed ♪ of the gospel of Christ" "♪ of the gospel of Christ ♪ I believe his name" "♪ I believe his name ♪ brings healing in life" "♪ brings healing in life ♪ these are the words of" "♪ these are the words of ♪ dear mother... ♪ Dear mother..." "Oh." "Oh." "Hey, Mrs. young." "Hey, Mrs. young." "I was going to have" "I was going to have his father pick him up." "His father pick him up." "No, it's okay." "No, it's okay." "Okay, thanks." "Okay, thanks." "No problem." "No problem." "See you, Nick." "♪ Your meaning and worth ♪ these are the words of" "♪ these are the words of ♪ my father" "♪ my father ♪ now gone" "( no audio ) What?" "Wait!" "I'll see you in a few." "Got cheerleading practice?" "Got cheerleading practice?" "Debate team." "Debate team." "Okay." "How boring." "Okay." "How boring. ( Laughs )" "Mmm." "All right, I gotta go." "Fine!" "Fine!" "Fine." "Fine." "I'll miss you." "I'll miss you." "I'll miss you, too, baby." "I'll miss you, too, baby." "Bye." "What's up, Nick?" "You want to hang out." "You want to hang out with us tonight?" "With us tonight?" "That's what Chaz did." "That's what Chaz did every Friday." "Every Friday." "I can clear it." "I can clear it by your mom, by your mom, if you want to go, if you want to go, drop you off." "Drop you off afterwards, too." "Afterwards, too." "I used to give Chaz." "I used to give Chaz rides all the time." "Rides all the time." "Just wish I had given." "Just wish I had given him a ride that day." "Him a ride that day instead of, um..." "Instead of, um... never mind." "Never mind." "Here, I'll call." "Here, I'll call your mom." "Your mom." "( Dialing, line ringing )" "( Dialing, line ringing ) Hello?" "Hello?" "Hey,Mrs.young." "Hey, Mrs. young." "It's Doug." "It's Doug." "Is it okay." "Is it okay if I bring Nick." "If I bring Nick to Randy's tonight?" "To Randy's tonight?" "Um, I'm not sure..." "Um, I'm not sure..." "Everything's gonna be fine." "Everything's gonna be fine." "It's just a bunch of us..." "It's just a bunch of us..." "All of Chaz's best friends." "All of Chaz's best friends." "It makes us feel better." "It makes us feel better." "It's kind of like..." "It's kind of like..." "Like peer counseling." "♪" "Pretty cool, huh?" "♪" "Hey, guys, this is Nick, Chaz's brother." "Chaz's brother." "Nick, this is ajit," "Nick, this is ajit, Cameron," "Cameron, and you know Randy." "And you know Randy." "What do you think what do you think you're doing?" "You're doing?" "Love your neighbour." "Love your neighbour." "Yeah, but, see, yeah, but, see, that's the problem." "That's the problem." "We're not here to babysit." "We're not here to babysit." "Nothing personal." "Nothing personal." "It doesn't matter it doesn't matter what you think, what you think, 'cause it's Randy's house." "'Cause it's Randy's house." "Come on, dude, come on, dude, it's not some random kid." "It's not some random kid." "It's your best friend's." "It's your best friend's little brother." "Little brother." "Look, either you get it." "Look, either you get it or you don't." "Or you don't." "Nick, this isn't" "Nick, this isn't the place for you." "The place for you." "He's not a baby." "He's not a baby." "Nick, are you okay." "Nick, are you okay with this scene?" "With this scene?" "You said it..." "You said it..." "It's Randy's house." "It's Randy's house." "Who cares whose house it is?" "Who cares whose house it is?" "That's not the point." "That's not the point." "I mean, the kid's." "I mean, the kid's got lots of..." "Got lots of..." "He's a ninth-grader." "He's a ninth-grader." "Well, if it's not a matter well, if it's not a matter of whose house it is, of whose house it is, let's put it to a vote." "Let's put it to a vote." "Abstain." "Abstain." "Those in favour those in favour of Nick staying?" "Of Nick staying?" "Nick, raise your hand." "Nick, raise your hand." "No, he can't vote, man." "No, he can't vote, man." "He's not one of us." "He's not one of us." "Are you crazy?" "Are you crazy?" "Were you good friends were you good friends with your brother?" "With your brother?" "Any friend of Chaz's." "Any friend of Chaz's is a friend of mine." "Is a friend of mine." "I'll call." "I'll call." "What are we supposed to do?" "What are we supposed to do?" "Just play, and you two watch?" "Just play, and you two watch?" "Why don't you show Nick what why don't you show Nick what Friday really meant to Chaz?" "( Pop music playing )" "Boys, the party has arrived!" "Rule number one, kid..." "Never interrupt a hand." "Yeah, and rule number two..." "Ignore this man." "Ignore this man." "I call." "I call." "Read 'em and weep." "Read 'em and weep." "Not so fast." "Not so fast." "Shit!" "Shit!" "Mmm, you are so articulate." "Mmm, you are so articulate." "Kid, you sure you want." "Kid, you sure you want to hang out with these losers?" "To hang out with these losers?" "Hey, speak for yourself." "Hey, speak for yourself." "You sure you know you sure you know to how to play?" "To how to play?" "I'll take this." "I'll take this." "Here's your tip, bro." "Here's your tip, bro." "( Chuckles )" "♪" "Going all in, huh?" "I call." "I'm out." "Come to papa." "Damn!" "You're broke, man." "Ready to go home?" "Ready to go home?" "Wait, wait, wait." "Wait, wait, wait." "We can't do this." "We can't do this." "I mean, what were." "I mean, what were we thinking, guys?" "We thinking, guys?" "Just... here, just." "Just... here, just take it all back." "Take it all back." "Hey, hey, hey, look..." "Hey, hey, hey, look..." "Charity ultimately." "Charity ultimately disempowers the recipient..." "Disempowers the recipient..." "This guy." "( Chuckles ) Okay, fine." "Okay, fine." "First lesson's on us, okay?" "First lesson's on us, okay?" "No." "No." "Thanks, but..." "Thanks, but..." "I'll be back next Friday..." "I'll be back next Friday..." "And win it back." "I need some money." "For what?" "Is this for the scholarship in Chaz's name?" "In Chaz's name?" "You don't need to get." "You don't need to get involved with that." "Involved with that." "Have you discussed." "Have you discussed with Dr. king?" "You seem better." "I think the peer counseling." "I think the peer counseling on Friday nights is working." "On Friday nights is working." "Is Randy there?" "Is Randy there?" "He was a bad influence." "He was a bad influence on Chaz." "You should have friends your own age." "Your own age." "Let's invite kids from church." "Let's invite kids from church for your birthday." "( Overlapping chatter ) What's going on?" "What's going on?" "Hey." "Come get a piece." "Do you want a piece?" "No, thank you." "No, thank you." "You guys?" "Cake?" "You guys?" "Cake?" "No, thanks." "No, thanks." "I'll set it right here." "I'll set it right here." "Help yourself." "Help yourself." "Oh, good, Luke." "Oh, good, Luke." "You picked the game?" "You picked the game?" "That's good." "Nick!" "Nick," "Nick, what are you doing?" "What are you doing?" "B.B." "B.B. Whew." "Whew." "Come on." "Come on." "Okay." "Okay." "I'll leave you alone." "I'll leave you alone." "You come out, okay?" "Yeah, I won't bother you." "You just..." "You just... come right out." "Come right out." "You guys." "You guys want more juice?" "Want more juice?" "No, thank you." "No, thank you." "Hey, Nick." "Hey, Nick." "Can we turn the TV on?" "Can we turn the TV on?" "Yeah, that's a great idea." "( Laughing ) ( TV playing )" "( TV playing ) Did you see that?" "( Laughter ) Where's Nick?" "Where's Nick?" "He's under the table." "Nick, come on, mind your manners." "Mind your manners." "( Stuttering )" "( Stuttering ) This is no time." "This is no time for Isaac Newton." "For Isaac Newton." "You can be better." "You can be better." "Come on, bemod." "Come on, bemod." "Bemod, just like." "Bemod, just like Chaz used to do." "Chaz used to do." ""... on the seashore..."" ""... on the seashore..." Irene." "Irene. "..." "And then finding" ""...and then finding a smoother pebble."" "A smoother pebble." Mr. young, can we" "Mr. young, can we go home now?" "Go home now?" "Your parents are gonna your parents are gonna pick you up at 6:00." "Pick you up at 6:00." ""..." "Whilst the great ocean... "" ""...whilst the great ocean... " Nick, come on!" "Nick, come on!" "Didthatreallyjusthappen?" "Don't you dare." "I'm no pushover." "I'm no pushover like your parents." "Are you still getting anxiety attacks?" "Anxiety attacks?" "No..." "No... except when..." "No." "Finish the thought." "Sometimes..." "I forget what." "I forget what he sounded like." "He sounded like." "My mother died, my mother died, and I can still hear her." "And I can still hear her." "( Whining voice )" ""( Whining voice ) " Ohh!" ""Ohh! " You so smart!" ""You so smart!" ""Why you don't become doctor?" ""Why you don't become doctor?" ""Oh, shrink not doctor." ""Oh, shrink not doctor." ""Shrink just somebody you pay." ""Shrink just somebody you pay "so they pretend to like you." ""So they pretend to like you." ""Yeah, you gonna be doctor," ""yeah, you gonna be doctor, "then marry doctor," ""then marry doctor, "then have baby," ""then have baby, someday gonna be doctor." "Someday gonna be doctor." "Or mommy gonna die!"" "Or mommy gonna die!" Was it your fault that..." "Was it your fault that..." "That she died?" "That she died?" "Oh, who knows?" "Oh, who knows?" "Maybe that's why she's." "Maybe that's why she's still on my case." "Still on my case." "Dead people, dead people, they come and go." "They come and go like they own you." "Like they own you. ( Chuckles )" "( Chuckles ) Sometimes I feel like." "Sometimes I feel like taking a restraining." "Taking a restraining order out against her." "Order out against her." ""Ohh, so messy!" ""Ohh, so messy!" ""Oh, you gotta clean sometime!" ""Oh, you gotta clean sometime!" ""You know, every day." ""You know, every day just a little bit." "Just a little bit." ""Little bit by little bit." ""Little bit by little bit." ""Then one day..." ""Then one day... oh!" "Surprise!" "Oh!" "Surprise!" "All clean!"" "All clean!" ( Chuckling )" "( Knock on door )" "I love you, b.B." "Good night." "( Indistinct chatter )" "Make room for me, Nick." "I'm coming in." "I'm coming in. ( Laughs )" "What are you gonna do, police the kid?" "Police the kid?" "Mm-mm." "No way, man." "Mm-mm." "No way, man." "That's more your speed, that's more your speed, Mr. ayn rand." "Mr. ayn rand." "Have you even read have you even read the fountainhead?" "The fountainhead?" "I figure I get" "I figure I get two cards for free..." "Two cards for free..." "So I ain't paying." "So I ain't paying until I see a pair." "Until I see a pair. ( Laughs )" "( Laughs ) What's so funny?" "What's so funny?" "That's what you do." "That's what you do." "No, I don't." "No, I don't." "But seriously, but seriously, how come you've." "How come you've never played before?" "Never played before?" "I couldn't afford to lose." "I couldn't afford to lose." "And now?" "And now?" "I still got some of" "I still got some of the money Chaz paid me." "The money Chaz paid me." "Nick looks like." "Nick looks like he's having fun." "He's having fun." "But if you guys." "But if you guys don't let me win, don't let me win, my dad will beat." "My dad will beat the shit out of me, the shit out of me, and then I'll have." "And then I'll have to beat the shit." "To beat the shit out of you." "Out of you." "All:" "Ooh!" "All:" "Ooh!" "♪ Pick it up, tab on a date" "♪ pick it up, tab on a date ♪ never wanna be" "♪ never wanna be comin' off cheapskate ♪" "Comin' off cheapskate ♪ ( Lyrics indistinct )" "( Lyrics indistinct ) ♪ checkmate, I am the queen" "♪ checkmate, I am the queen ♪ game of chess" "♪ game of chess ♪ so you won't beat me" "♪ so you won't beat me ♪ sometimes he gonna pretend" "♪ sometimes he gonna pretend ♪ that he gonna be rich... ♪ That he gonna be rich..." "Two and a half." "Two and a half." "Really?" "Really?" "No way." "No way." "That's 201." "That's 201." "He's bluffing." "He's bluffing." "Maybe he caught maybe he caught the flush on the river." "The flush on the river." "Why don't you pay up why don't you pay up and find out?" "And find out?" "Nah, forget it." "Nah, forget it." "Kid's got the perfect kid's got the perfect poker face." "What'd you have?" "Sevens?" "Really?" "I put down my king for that?" "I put down my king for that?" "Well played." "Well played. ( Chuckles )" "( Chuckles ) Bluffing is intense." "Bluffing is intense." "This kid's like a whiz." "This kid's like a whiz." "How do you know that?" "How do you know that?" "I memorized all the odds." "I memorized all the odds." "Nick, don't tell everyone" "Nick, don't tell everyone what you're thinking." "What you're thinking." "That's stupid." "That's stupid." "Play the man, play the man, not the cards." "Not the cards." "Well, tell me about Chaz." "Well, tell me about Chaz." "Your brother was your brother was always jealous of me." "Always jealous of me." "No, go ahead, laugh." "No, go ahead, laugh." "Laugh, guys." "Laugh, guys." "Because seriously, because seriously, I really do feel like." "I really do feel like Chaz felt smothered." "Chaz felt smothered." "Sometimes I even think." "Sometimes I even think that he wishes he was." "That he wishes he was born into a different family." "Born into a different family." "Are you joking?" "Are you joking?" "I'm sorry." "I wasn't thinking." "I'm sorry." "I wasn't thinking." "Chaz said that Friday nights" "Chaz said that Friday nights were video game nights." "Were video game nights." "Why would he lie to me?" "Why would he lie to me?" "Maybe he didn't want maybe he didn't want to corrupt you, to corrupt you, lose your respect." "Lose your respect." "If he always won, if he always won, where did his money go?" "Nick, where... wait up, dude!" "Wait up, dude!" "See you guys later." "See you guys later." "Later." "Later." "Am I the only one am I the only one who thinks this kid." "Who thinks this kid is an absolute weirdo?" "Is an absolute weirdo?" "He's got asperger syndrome." "He's got asperger syndrome." "Like rain man." "Like rain man." "No, no, more like monk." "No, no, more like monk." "Chaz thought the kid" "Chaz thought the kid could be - more normal." "Could be - more normal." "He was working with him, he was working with him, doing bemod." "Doing bemod." "What the hell is bemod?" "What the hell is bemod?" "B-e-m-o-d." "Short for b-e-m-o-d." "Short for behaviour modification." "Behavior modification." "Encourages him." "Encourages him to open up, to open up, discourages him." "Discourages him from shutting down." "Nick, what are you doing?" "I looked everywhere." "Where would you." "Where would you hide your  stuff?" "Hide your  stuff?" "School locker." "School locker." "My dad cleaned it out." "My dad cleaned it out." "Well, remember that time well, remember that time when he screwed up when he screwed up and he had to do and he had to do community service?" "Community service?" "He never stopped going, he never stopped going, even though he didn't even though he didn't have to any more." "Have to any more." "Maybe he has maybe he has a locker there." "A locker there." "Do you know where do you know where that place is?" "That place is?" "Randy would." "Randy would." "He's driven him there." "He's driven him there." "I'll call him." "I'll call him. ♪" "♪ And she said ♪ "what a son of a gun"" "♪ "what a son of a gun" ♪ he loved to lie" "♪ he loved to lie ♪ and lie..." "This is the place." "Happy now?" "Let's go." "happy now?" "Let's go." "No." "I want to know what no." "I want to know what happened to Chaz's money." "Happened to Chaz's money." "All right, so go." "All right, so go." "I got things to do." "I got things to do." "What?" "What?" "If you go, how am I if you go, how am I gonna get home?" "Gonna get home?" "( Kids chattering )" "Girl:" "Randy?" "It's so good to see you here." "To see you here." "I haven't set eyes" "I haven't set eyes on you since..." "On you since..." "This is miss Lee." "This is miss Lee." "She was Chaz's drama teacher." "She was Chaz's drama teacher." "Freshman year." "Freshman year." "And this is Nick... young." "And this is Nick... young." "Nick, I've heard..." "Nick, I've heard..." "Heard so much about you." "Heard so much about you." "Well, welcome well, welcome to the firehouse." "To the firehouse." "You know, your brother you know, your brother suggested the name." "Suggested the name." "Before that, before that, I called it the diversity" "I called it the diversity connection centre." "Connection centre." "Lame, huh?" "Lame, huh?" "Why are you why are you wearing that hat?" "Wearing that hat?" "You've never dreamed you've never dreamed of being a flying nun?" "Of being a flying nun?" "Miss Lee, miss Lee, I'm out of glue." "I'm out of glue." "I like the trucks." "I like the trucks." "Nice touch." "Nice touch." "You didn't like the feathers?" "You didn't like the feathers?" "They kept making me sneeze." "They kept making me sneeze." "We've got our we've got our big show coming up." "Big show coming up." "This doesn't look like this doesn't look like a real community centre place." "A real community centre place." "Well, you know about well, you know about the library incident, right?" "The library incident, right?" "Chaz was gambling online." "Chaz was gambling online." "It was either suspension it was either suspension or 50 hours community service." "Or 50 hours community service." "Even after he finished even after he finished his service, Chaz kept his service, Chaz kept coming back here." "Coming back here." "Did you take his money?" "Did you take his money?" "What he donated." "What he donated." "How much money how much money did you take?" "Did you take?" "He gave over $20,000." "He gave over $20,000." "He just kept gmng he just kept gmng and gmng." "And gmng." "Said that he had to." "Said that he had to." "It was his dream." "It was his dream." "I'm glad you made it here" "I'm glad you made it here by yourself." "By yourself." "Why don't you stick around?" "Why don't you stick around?" "I'll show you..." "I'll show you..." "No, I'm..." "I'm sorry." "No, I'm..." "I'm sorry." "Nick's..." "Nick's..." "Nick's gotta get home." "Chaz called the community service place, "the firehouse"." "Service place, "the firehouse"." "How do you know that?" "How do you know that?" "Randy took me there." "Randy took me there." "If you want to do if you want to do community service, community service, I'll talk to the pastor," "I'll talk to the pastor, but I don't think you but I don't think you should be doing everything should be doing everything your brother did." "Your brother did." "Tell me what it means." "Tell me what it means." "Nick." "The beach." "Honey, I don't think honey, I don't think you have to..." "You have to..." "When you were little boys, when you were little boys, we would take you to we would take you to the beach on Sundays." "The beach on Sundays." "At dusk, homeless people at dusk, homeless people would get ready for sleep would get ready for sleep next to their shopping carts, next to their shopping carts, and Chaz would always ask, and Chaz would always ask, "why can't we"" ""why can't we take them home, mommy?"" "Take them home, mommy?" Do you remember, b.B.?" "Years later, we were drmng we were drmng through skid row, through skid row, and Chaz spotted and Chaz spotted an abandoned firehouse, an abandoned firehouse, old and charming, old and charming, squished between tenements." "Squished between tenements." "And he said he'd and he said he'd buy it one day buy it one day and he'd keep it open and he'd keep it open for everyone." "For everyone." "He said everybody he said everybody should have a place should have a place where they feel where they feel safe and..." "Safe and... and protected." "♪" "What's your password?" ""I"." ""O"." ""E"?" "( Beeps )" "I didn't realize we lost so much." "We lost so much." "But nobody could read people but nobody could read people the way Chaz could." "The way Chaz could. $25,000?" "$25,000?" "That's gotta be more that's gotta be more than my entire family has." "Than my entire family has." "My mom cleans two, my mom cleans two, three houses every day three houses every day and the church once a week." "And the church once a week." "You gonna volunteer up there?" "You gonna volunteer up there?" "I'm not sure." "I'm not sure." "I'll go with you" "I'll go with you if you change your mind." "If you change your mind." "Any friend of your brother's any friend of your brother's is a friend of mine." "Is a friend of mine." "I'll be right back." "( Cell phone rings ) Doug:" "Hey, dude," "Doug:" "Hey, dude, where are you?" "Where are you?" "Uh, something's come up." "Uh, something's come up." "Yeah, right." "Yeah, right." "I took care of him yesterday." "I took care of him yesterday." "It's your turn." "It's your turn." "Try and remember try and remember how you felt when you." "How you felt when you turned 15." "Turned 15." "What do I have to offer what do I have to offer some 15-year-old kid?" "Just look further ahead and relax." "And relax. ( Tires screeching )" "( Tires screeching ) Bemod, dude." "Come on." "Bemod, dude." "Come on." "Come on, shake it off." "Come on, shake it off. ( Revs )" "( Revs ) Nick, stop!" "Good job." "Almost hit a lamppost, almost hit a lamppost, but good job." "But good job." "Do you want to do you want to volunteer at the firehouse?" "Volunteer at the firehouse?" "No." "But don't let that no." "But don't let that stop you, buddy." "Stop you, buddy." "Did Chaz have sex did Chaz have sex with that miss Lee, with that miss Lee, or was he in love?" "Or was he in love?" "Wait, what?" "Did he wait, what?" "Did he have sex with who?" "Have sex with who?" "Didn't you see didn't you see the pictures..." "The pictures... of them dancing?" "Of them dancing?" "And?" "And?" "You can tell me." "You can tell me." "Were they in love?" "Were they in love?" "( Laughs )" "( Laughs ) Why are you laughing?" "Why are you laughing?" "'Cause miss Lee's a lesbian." "'Cause miss Lee's a lesbian." "A lesbian?" "A lesbian?" "Yeah." "She came out yeah." "She came out in the school newspaper." "In the school newspaper before she left." "I..." "I can't crack Chaz's password." "Chaz's password." "Huh?" "Huh?" "Chaz said I could" "Chaz said I could read his emails." "Read his emails if he was abducted by aliens." "If he was abducted by aliens." "Nick, Chaz was joking." "Nick, Chaz was joking." "Nobody wants other people." "Nobody wants other people to read their stuff." "To read their stuff." "But I'm his brother." "Come on, let's go again." "Concentrate this time." "Concentrate this time." "Please don't hit a lamppost." "Please don't hit a lamppost." "It's expensive." "It's expensive." "Okay." "Right." "Reverse." "Five, six, seven, eight." "( Rap music playing )" "Glad you made it." "Hey, do either of you dance?" "Hey, do either of you dance?" "Nick can play the piano." "Nick can play the piano." "How'd you know that?" "How'd you know that?" "How do you think?" "How do you think?" "He said, "I'm your dad."" "He said, "I'm your dad." "Look, I brought you a Barbie."" "Look, I brought you a Barbie." "I hope you'll be as pretty." "I hope you'll be as pretty and famous as a Barbie." "And famous as a Barbie when you grow up."" "When you grow up." Then he went to talk." "Then he went to talk with my uncles." "With my uncles." "I never saw him again." "Lucy, I am so proud of you." "Let me know if you." "Let me know if you want this to be in our show." "Want this to be in our show." "Otherwise, no one will see it." "What's in there?" "Video diaries video diaries Chaz was collecting." "Chaz was collecting to show at our." "To show at our fundraising event." "Fundraising event." "Chaz thought this." "Chaz thought this would be a good way for." "Would be a good way for the firehouse kids to." "The firehouse kids to get stuff off their chest." "Get stuff off their chest." "Most of them have." "Most of them have made more than one." "Made more than one." "Did Chaz make one?" "I want to see it." "Sorry, Nick, I don't have it." "Sorry, Nick, I don't have it." "I was gonna ask you." "I was gonna ask you to check his computer." "To check his computer." "His laptop's gone." "His laptop's gone." "Then it's probably gone." "Then it's probably gone." "He said he needed to edit it." "He said he needed to edit it." "What would he talk about?" "What would he talk about?" "Sorry, Nick." "Sorry, Nick." "I never saw it." "Nick, wait..." "You should make one." "♪" "( Groaning )" "( Sobbing )" "When did Chaz lose his virginity?" "Lose his virginity?" "God, you're one-track-minded." "God, you're one-track-minded." ""If I have ever made" ""if I have ever made any valuable discoveries"..." "Any valuable discoveries"..." "Stop." "Stop. ( Laughs )" "What are those?" "Puffins." "Puffins." "Chaz's favourite cereal." "Chaz's favourite cereal." "It was?" "It was?" "Mm." "Pretty good." "You're not the only one you're not the only one who knows stuff about him." "Who knows stuff about him." "I'll take those." "I'll take those. ( Laughs )" "( Laughs ) ( Indistinct chatter )" "Mmm. ( Whistles ) Damn..." "Damn..." "Nick does it again." "Have you ever heard of Jamie gold?" "Of Jamie gold?" "No." "No." "Jamie gold was" "Jamie gold was a Hollywood producer." "A Hollywood producer who won $12 million in." "Who won $12 million in the world poker championship." "The world poker championship." "And..." "I don't know, man..." "And..." "I don't know, man..." "Your brother was good." "Your brother was good." "Chaz was really good." "Chaz was really good." "But you're... better." "But you're... better." "You know?" "Get these cards mixed good." "How do you do it?" "How do you do it?" "I mean, I'll say this..." "I mean, I'll say this..." "If you want to go pro, if you want to go pro, I'll be your financial backer." "I'll be your financial backer and your manager." "And your manager." "Thoughts?" "Thoughts?" "Hmm?" "Hmm?" "Suggestions?" "Suggestions?" "Ideas?" "Ideas?" "Okay." "Let's flop it." "Okay." "Fold, too." "300." "Randy?" "He's bluffing." "He's bluffing, bluffing, he's bluffing, bluffing, bluffing, bluffing." "Bluffing, bluffing." "Can you shut up can you shut up for once in your life?" "For once in your life?" "Ooh, I didn't know it was ooh, I didn't know it was that time of the month." "My bad." "That time of the month." "My bad." "I call." "I call." "Let's see 'em." "Shit." "No way." "No way, dude!" "No way." "No way, dude!" "Thank you very much." "Thank you very much." "Don't mind if I do." "Don't mind if I do." "Yo, I'm sorry, man." "Yo, I'm sorry, man." "I'm wrong." "I'm wrong." "And, you know, and, you know, it happens occasionally." "It happens occasionally." "You know, just occasionally." "Knew it!" "Hey, Nick, come outside with me." "Come outside with me." "Come on." "Good job, bro!" "What were you gonna say next?" "Gonna say next?" "You lied." "You lied." "You're not stupid, you're not stupid, so what are you?" "So what are you?" "Willfully obnoxious." "Willfully obnoxious or just mean?" "Or just mean?" "You threw the game you threw the game on purpose." "On purpose." "What, and you were what, and you were gonna tell everyone?" "Gonna tell everyone?" "Seriously?" "How would that." "Seriously?" "How would that have made Doug feel?" "Have made Doug feel?" "Answer me." "You broke the rules." "Doug's been nothing" "Doug's been nothing but nice to you." "But nice to you." "Since when are the rules." "Since when are the rules in a stupid game." "In a stupid game more important than." "More important than your friend's feelings?" "Your friend's feelings?" "It's never just about." "It's never just about the cards or the money." "The cards or the money." "Tell me you get it." "Tell me you get it." "Tell me you can." "Tell me you can understand if you try." "Chaz?" "Are you hungry?" "B.B.?" "What are you doing?" "Good dental hygiene" "good dental hygiene is very important." "Is very important." "You can't do that." "You can't do that." "That's gross." "That's gross." "Good point." "Chaz was the only one who made me feel normal." "Who made me feel normal." "Now you have to now you have to do that yourself." "Do that yourself." "How can I do that?" "How can I do that?" "By practicing the things by practicing the things that Chaz made you do." "That Chaz made you do." "Without him?" "Without him?" "I..." "I can't." "I..." "I can't." "It's not easy." "It's not easy." "It's not gonna." "It's not gonna happen overnight." "Happen overnight." "But that's what." "But that's what bemod is all about." "You gotta keep trying until you start." "Until you start to feel normal." "That was a really nice thing you did for Doug." "I shouldn't have jumped all over you." "All over you." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "( Bell tolls, people chatter )" "( Bell tolls, people chatter ) Nick?" "Nick?" "Luke wants to play." "Luke wants to play chess with you." "Chess with you." "No." "No." "B.B." "B.B. B.B.?" "B.B.?" "Nick, what did we agree on?" "Nick, what did we agree on?" "No!" "No!" "We'll all have brunch, we'll all have brunch, and then you'll." "And then you'll play chess..." "Play chess..." "We did this last week." "We did this last week." "I gave him." "I gave him the biggest handicap..." "The biggest handicap..." "Queen odds..." "Queen odds..." "And I still beat him." "And I still beat him." "Then give him queen then give him queen and two rooks." "And two rooks." "Okay..." "Okay... for the love of..." "For the love of..." "Why can't you just." "Why can't you just try to act normal?" "Try to act normal?" "I am tired of you." "I am tired of you making me feel." "Making me feel like you're." "Like you're a ticking time bomb!" "A ticking time bomb!" "Try to act normal, try to act normal, or else!" "Or else!" "Oliver!" "Oliver!" "Oh, that's it!" "Oh, that's it!" "Oliver, stop it!" "Oliver, stop it!" "You're making." "You're making such a scene." "I started to wonder if maybe the hospital." "If maybe the hospital had made a mistake and." "Had made a mistake and given us someone else's son." "Given us someone else's son." "Really?" "Really?" "I read about a lot of" "I read about a lot of cases just like that." "Cases just like that on the Internet." "On the Internet." "But what made but what made you think it had." "You think it had happened to you?" "Happened to you?" "No one in my family no one in my family or Irene's family." "Or Irene's family has Nick's problems, has Nick's problems, and as he grew older, and as he grew older, he started to look." "He started to look less like us, less like us, less Chinese, even." "Less Chinese, even." "To me, he looks to me, he looks a lot like Chaz." "A lot like Chaz." "It was stupid." "It was stupid." "I had a d.N.A. Test done." "I had a d.N.A. Test done." "And Irene." "And Irene is like my mother..." "Is like my mother..." "She has a bad habit." "She has a bad habit of opening other." "Of opening other people's mail." "People's mail." "Must've made her very upset." "Must've made her very upset." "Upset." "I know he's my son." "But still, I can't." "But still, I can't help thinking of Nick." "Help thinking of Nick as Chaz's shadow." "As Chaz's shadow." "And now it's like..." "And now it's like..." "Some cruel joke." "Some cruel joke." "Chaz is gone." "That's my punishment." "For what?" "For what?" "Oh, isn't it obvious?" "♪" "What was there?" "B.B., you're back." "Did you go shopping." "Did you go shopping with Randy?" "With Randy?" "Can I see?" "He's spending too much time with Randy." "Time with Randy." "Just stop it." "Just stop it." "It's strange, it's strange, don't you think?" "Don't you think?" "Did you see?" "Did you see?" "He got orange." "He got orange." "Can you get him." "Can you get him to buy orange?" "To buy orange?" "I thought." "I thought you wanted him." "You wanted him to have friends." "To have friends." "I'm the one who's" "I'm the one who's trying to help him." "Trying to help him find friends." "Find friends." "At church, every week." "♪" "Chaz:" "It's okay, Ken." "Don't worry about." "Don't worry about the cameras." "The cameras." "They're just there." "They're just there." "They're just in the corner." "They're just in the corner." "Just talk to me." "Just talk to me like we're friends, like we're friends, 'cause we are friends." "'Cause we are friends." "No one else will see this." "No one else will see this unless you want them to." "Unless you want them to." "Come on, talk to me." "Come on, talk to me." "Ken:" "When my mom." "Ken:" "When my mom signed me up for camp." "Signed me up for camp in Malibu, in Malibu, I was real excited." "I was real excited." "I've never seen." "I've never seen the ocean before." "The ocean before." "But how could we." "But how could we afford it?" "Afford it?" "She said it was." "She said it was a special camp, a special camp, free for kids." "Free for kids affected by aids." "Affected by aids." "So I was, like, "oh..."" "So I was, like, "oh..." "I lie and say I have aids?"" "I lie and say I have aids?" She said, "no, baby..." "She said, "no, baby..." "I have aids."" "Chaz made this video of Ken a while back." "Of Ken a while back." "Ken said it was okay." "Ken said it was okay to give you a copy." "To give you a copy." "Would you like that?" "( Tires screeching )" "( Beeping ) What's that?" "Here, switch spots." "Let me see." "Hey, can you, uh, hand me the manual." "Hand me the manual from the glove compartment?" "I thought Chaz had these." "Are... are you gay?" "Yes." "Did Chaz know?" "Did Chaz know?" "Yes, Nick." "Yes, Nick." "That's against the rules." "That's against the rules." "Nick, listen to me." "Nick, listen to me." "No." "It's not allowed." "No." "It's not allowed." ""A man may imagine." ""A man may imagine things that are false, things that are false, but he only can understand." "But he only can understand things that are true, things that are true, for if it be false, for if it be false, the apprehension of them." "The apprehension of them is not understanding."" "Is not understanding." Nick, I loved your brother," "Nick, I loved your brother, and he loved me." "And he loved me." "No." "No." "Chaz was gonna tell you," "Chaz was gonna tell you, he really was." "He really was." " No!" " Stop it." " No!" " Stop it." "Just stop it!" "You're a bad influence." "My dad was right." "My dad was right." "You're a bad influence!" "You're a bad influence!" "Nick, listen to me." "Nick, listen to me." "You're a liar... and a cheat!" "You're a liar... and a cheat!" "Do you spend time with me." "Do you spend time with me 'cause I look like Chaz?" "'Cause I look like Chaz?" "Do I turn you on." "Do I turn you on or something?" "Or something?" "Nick, stop it!" "Nick, stop it!" "Why didn't he tell me?" "Why didn't he tell me?" "He meant to, but..." "He meant to, but..." "He kept procrastinating." "He kept procrastinating." "Chaz wanted to come out," "Chaz wanted to come out, but he didn't want to." "But he didn't want to hurt your feelings." "Hurt your feelings." "Well, he's right!" "Well, he's right!" "Hypocritical..." "lying..." "Hypocritical..." "lying..." "Disgusting freak!" "Disgusting freak!" "Chaz went out of his way" "Chaz went out of his way to love and protect you." "To love and protect you because you're." "Because you're not normal, either." "Not normal, either." "Well, screw normal, well, screw normal, and screw you!" "And screw you!" "Me - a bad influence?" "Me - a bad influence?" "If you hadn't been." "If you hadn't been so damn needy, so damn needy, Chaz would've ridden." "Chaz would've ridden with me in my car." "With me in my car and he would've still." "And he would've still been alive today." "Been alive today." "I'm gay." "I'm gay." "So what?" "So what?" "That's a crime?" "That's a crime?" "And you know what?" "We never even held hands in public." "Held hands in public." "Why?" "Why?" "Because of people like you." "Because of people like you and your stupid." "And your stupid homophobic family." "Homophobic family." "You think you loved." "You think you loved your brother?" "Your brother?" "No." "No." "I loved your brother." "I loved your brother." "You didn't even know." "You didn't even know who your brother was." "Yo." "Where is everyone?" "You guys hungry?" "You guys hungry?" "I want to order pizza." "I want to order pizza." "I got in!" "I got into Yale!" "I got in!" "I got into Yale!" "What?" "!" "No way, bro!" "Congrats!" "What?" "!" "No way, bro!" "Congrats!" "I'm so excited," "I'm so excited, I can't even think straight." "I can't even think straight." "Has anybody has anybody heard from ajit?" "Heard from ajit?" "No!" "Hope he got in." "No!" "Hope he got in." "I'm sure he got in." "I'm sure he got in." "His grades were his grades were better than mine." "Better than mine." "Whatever, man." "Whatever, man." "Good news or not, good news or not, we're gonna get we're gonna get plastered tonight." "Plastered tonight." "Yeah!" "Congrats, man." "What's up?" "You get in?" "Yeah?" "You?" "Yeah?" "You?" "Wait-listed." "Wait-listed." "Damn." "Damn." "Wait-listed means half-in." "Wait-listed means half-in." "No, man, I haven't even no, man, I haven't even told my parents." "Told my parents." "I don't know what to tell them." "I don't know what to tell them." "I can talk to my dad." "I can talk to my dad." "He's one of the key he's one of the key fundraisers for Yale." "Fundraisers for Yale." "Really?" "Really?" "Yeah, for sure." "Yeah, for sure." "God, I don't even" "God, I don't even know what to say..." "Know what to say..." "Pathetic!" "Pathetic!" "You guys are just like..." "You guys are just like..." "You lose all this money!" "You lose all this money!" "'Cause you know why 'cause you know why you all come here?" "You all come here?" "What the hell?" "What the hell?" "It's to forget that it's to forget that you've got no friends!" "You've got no friends!" "But then you can't but then you can't even get into Yale even get into Yale without your without your parents' money and..." "Parents' money and..." "Without them, you're nothing!" "Without them, you're nothing!" "Shut the hell up!" "Shut the hell up!" "Hey!" "Nick." "Let him go." "How's he gonna get home?" "He's not a baby." "He's not a baby." "There's a bus stop there's a bus stop down the street." "Jesus... what happened what happened between you two?" "He found out that I'm gay." "You're gay?" "Since when?" "You're gay?" "Since when?" "Sorry." "And Chaz was, too." "Whoa." "What is..." "Whoa." "What is..." "What's going on?" "What's going on?" "Hey, Mr. a.P. Math, hey, Mr. a.P. Math, can you not put can you not put 2 and 2 together?" "2 and 2 together?" "Wait, you're saying wait, you're saying that you and Chaz that you and Chaz were lovers?" "What about the... the..." "What about all the babes?" "I wanted to create a friendly environment." "You guys think we can still hang out?" "We can still hang out?" "Heh..." "Heh... as long as you're still as long as you're still buying, man, of course." "Buying, man, of course." "Hell yeah." "Hell yeah." "Yeah, man..." "Yeah, man..." "Any lover of Chaz's..." "Any lover of Chaz's..." "Wait, no, that's not wait, no, that's not gonna come out right." "Gonna come out right." "( Laughter )" "Nick?" "Are you getting ready?" "Your aunt may's gonna your aunt may's gonna be here any moment." "Be here any moment." "Leave me alone." "We're going to your favourite dim sum place." "Favorite dim sum place." "Nick, open the door!" "Nick, open the door!" "Nick, I'm just gonna" "Nick, I'm just gonna get the key." "( Sighs ) You're not dressed?" "Are you sick, b.B.?" "Stop calling me that." "Stop calling me that." "There is no reason there is no reason to get upset, b.B." "To get upset, b.B. I'm not your b.B.," "I'm not your b.B., and I'm not your baby." "And I'm not your baby." "Please, we've got please, we've got to stop fighting." "To stop fighting." "Sooner or later, we've got sooner or later, we've got to get back to normal?" "To get back to normal?" "Normal?" "Normal?" "You mean like you mean like having a brother having a brother who's gay?" "Who's gay?" "What are you talking about?" "What are you talking about?" "Your perfect Chaz your perfect Chaz was gay, and you was gay, and you didn't even know..." "Didn't even know..." "Be quiet!" "Be quiet!" "Stop it, both of you!" "Stop it, both of you!" "You don't like the fact you don't like the fact that he was gay, that he was gay, so you slap me?" "!" "So you slap me?" "!" "You're the one." "You're the one who needs beating." "Who needs beating." "You are grounded." "You are grounded." "If you hadn't if you hadn't grounded Chaz, grounded Chaz, he would've been." "He would've been drmng that day, drmng that day, and not biking." "And not biking." "He would be alive today." "He would be alive today." "It's all your fault!" "It's all your fault!" "That is enough!" "You know he's a gambler?" "And the firehouse..." "And the firehouse..." "The place he volunteers at..." "The place he volunteers at..." "Is filled with illegals, is filled with illegals, and it's run by a lesbian." "He made video diaries there." "Probably telling." "Probably telling everyone about Randy..." "Everyone about Randy..." "His boyfriend." "Nick!" "♪" "( Knock on door )" "Irene:" "Nick?" "Let's get some lunch, huh?" "Let's get some lunch, huh?" "We can talk about." "We can talk about what happened this morning." "What happened this morning." "I'm sure it's all." "I'm sure it's all a horrible misunderstanding." "A horrible misunderstanding." "Nick, open the door, please." "I'll go get the key." "Nick?" "Nick!" "These permits are expired." "( Indistinct chatter ) Irene:" "Miss Lee?" "Mr. and Mrs. young, hi." "What a surprise." "Hi." "What a surprise." "The show doesn't start..." "The show doesn't start..." "Miss Lee, where's Nick?" "Miss Lee, where's Nick?" "He's not here yet." "He's not here yet." "Where is he?" "Where is he?" "Doug, do you know" "Doug, do you know where Nick is?" "Where Nick is?" "No." "No." "Hey, Mr. and Mrs. young." "Hey, Mr. and Mrs. young." "Why?" "What's wrong?" "Why?" "What's wrong?" "Nick..." "Nick..." "I think Nick's." "I think Nick's run away from home." "Run away from home." "What?" "What?" "Should we call the police?" "Should we call the police?" "No, call the other guys no, call the other guys and see if they know." "And see if they know where he is." "Where he is." "And if not, ask them." "And if not, ask them to go look for him." "To go look for him." "All right." "All right." "You should wait in my office." "You should wait in my office." "You mentioned a show." "You mentioned a show." "Yes, I am sure yes, I am sure Nick will be here for this." "Nick will be here for this." "You should stay." "You should stay." "And, in fact, and, in fact, we're playing video diaries, we're playing video diaries, you'll hear Chaz." "You'll hear Chaz on one of them." "On one of them." "Video diaries?" "Video diaries?" "I really think" "I really think you'll be proud of what." "You'll be proud of what your son accomplished." "Your son accomplished." "Nick heard it, and he..." "Nick heard it, and he..." "What's on the diary?" "What's on the diary?" "Oh, it's really about Ken." "Oh, it's really about Ken." "Who is Ken?" "Who is Ken?" "Ken and Chaz made" "Ken and Chaz made some tape together?" "Some tape together?" "A DVD, yeah." "A DVD, yeah." "Saying what?" "Doing what?" "Saying what?" "Doing what?" "Ken talked about aids" "Ken talked about aids and a first kiss, I think." "And a first kiss, I think." "I'm sorry," "I'm sorry, I'm heard so many." "I'm heard so many of the tapes that..." "Of the tapes that..." "Miss Lee?" "Miss Lee?" "Excuse me." "That must be what Nick saw that made." "What Nick saw that made him think Chaz was..." "Him think Chaz was..." "But they're showing it but they're showing it in public." "In public." "This is not their property." "This is not their property." "This is private." "This is private." "( Speed dialing )" "( Speed dialing ) Who are you calling?" "Hi." "May?" "Yeah, it's me." "Yeah, it's me." "We have an emergency." "We have an emergency." "Can you be our attorney?" "Can you be our attorney?" "I doubt Nick's at school," "I doubt Nick's at school, but you never know." "But you never know." "Does Cameron know." "Does Cameron know the way to the cemetery?" "The way to the cemetery?" "No." "Um, and you're not no." "Um, and you're not gonna believe this, gonna believe this, but Chaz's parents are." "But Chaz's parents are trying to shut down." "Trying to shut down the firehouse." "Tell miss Lee I think I know someone who can help." "♪" "May." "Hi, how are you?" "Hi, how are you?" "God, thank you for coming." "God, thank you for coming." "Of course." "Of course." "That's what family." "That's what family is for, right?" "Is for, right?" "Don't worry." "This is." "Don't worry." "This is gonna be easy." "Dad." "Yeah, hi." "Yeah, hi." "I need you to come with me." "I need you to come with me." "Can't right now." "Can't right now." "It's important." "It's important." "I need your help." "You, uh, in a hurry?" "Dad, I need to tell you something." "I'm gay." "Is that it?" "Wait, you knew?" "Wait, you knew?" "Why didn't you tell me?" "Why didn't you tell me?" "I'm supposed to" "I'm supposed to tell you that you're gay?" "Tell you that you're gay?" "I think you're  supposed." "I think you're  supposed to tell me that." "To tell me that." "Well, you could've well, you could've saved me so much agony." "Saved me so much agony." "Agony?" "Agony?" "Discomfort." "Discomfort." "So, uh, what prompted so, uh, what prompted this confession?" "This confession?" "Nick saw pictures" "Nick saw pictures of me and Chaz of me and Chaz taken in a photo booth." "Taken in a photo booth." "Nude?" "Nude?" "Dad!" "Is that it?" "Hmm?" "'Cause if so, 'cause if so, I really should get" "I really should get back to my work." "Back to my work." "No, no, it's about this no, no, it's about this community service centre." "Community service centre." "Chaz's parents want to." "Chaz's parents want to close the place down today, close the place down today, just because of a show just because of a show that they think is that they think is gonna out Chaz." "Gonna out Chaz." "We need your legal help." "We need your legal help." "Oh, friends in need." "Oh, friends in need." "Wind in my hair." "Wind in my hair." "I'm feeling young again." "I'm feeling young again." "Maybe I'll even crash maybe I'll even crash your poker party." "Your poker party." "No, this is not no, this is not about being... homophobic." "About being... homophobic." "You are slandering you are slandering the memory of our son, the memory of our son, who is not here who is not here to defend himself." "To defend himself." "I think you've misunderstood." "I think you've misunderstood." "There is nothing there is nothing on that video diary on that video diary about Chaz being gay." "About Chaz being gay." "But you think he was, but you think he was, don't you?" "Don't you?" "I know he was." "I know he was." "Acknowledging the truth." "Acknowledging the truth is not slander." "Is not slander." "You're just saying that you're just saying that because you are gay." "Because you are gay." "All gay people think all gay people think everyone is gay." "Everyone is gay." "( Laughs ) Come on." "( Laughs ) Come on." "I don't know why" "I don't know why you're laughing, miss Lee." "You're laughing, miss Lee." "You've broken you've broken so many laws, I don't so many laws, I don't know where to begin." "Know where to begin." "Expired permits, expired permits, unlawful assembly, unlawful assembly, rampant zoning violations, rampant zoning violations, contributing to the contributing to the delinquency of a minor, delinquency of a minor, creating a public nuisance," "creating a public nuisance, countless failures countless failures to obtain licenses or permits." "To obtain licenses or permits." "And I'm gonna guess and I'm gonna guess you never got any you never got any consent forms signed consent forms signed by any of the parents, did you?" "So here's the situation." "Either we shut this either we shut this place down completely, place down completely, or you hand over or you hand over anything created by anything created by or pertaining to Chaz young or pertaining to Chaz young to his parents." "To his parents." "Sorry to interrupt." "Sorry to interrupt." "Miss Lee, your attorney, miss Lee, your attorney, Mr. ira Goldman is here." "Mr. ira Goldman is here." "Dad, you remember dad, you remember Mr. and Mrs. young, right?" "Mr. and Mrs. young, right?" "I'm sorry we're not meeting" "I'm sorry we're not meeting under happier circumstances." "Under happier circumstances." "Please, Mr. Goldman, please, Mr. Goldman, don't interfere." "Don't interfere." "All we're doing all we're doing is trying to protect is trying to protect the memory of our son." "The memory of our son." "How do you think how do you think Chaz would feel if he knew" "Chaz would feel if he knew you were trying to you were trying to shut down the firehouse..." "Shut down the firehouse..." "The only place the only place in the world where in the world where he could be himself?" "He could be himself?" "That's not true." "That's not true." "What do you know?" "What do you know?" "A lot more than you think." "A lot more than you think." "You all want the whole world you all want the whole world to think Chaz was abnormal." "To think Chaz was abnormal." "You mean gay?" "You mean gay?" "Like my son?" "Like my son?" "Your family is your business." "Your family is your business." "Our family is ours." "Our family is ours." "Speaking of family, speaking of family, have you located Nick?" "( Line ringing )" "( Line ringing ) Jeez." "( Indistinct chatter )" "I'm Jesus..." "I can help you." "Hey, Edie!" "Edie!" "You want to play angel cards?" "Boy, you pay in for the story?" "Edie, go get us some burgers!" "Eat your burger first." "What's so important" "what's so important in that computer?" "In that computer?" "Chaz said if he was" "Chaz said if he was abducted by aliens, abducted by aliens, I could read" "I could read everything he wrote." "( Beeps )" "Maybe I forced him to lie..." "By the way I am." "By the way I am." "No." "Lying to others no." "Lying to others is okay." "Is okay." "But lying to yourself but lying to yourself is not okay." "Is not okay." "I used to have an" "I used to have an angel card for lies, angel card for lies, and if I didn't want and if I didn't want to tell somebody something, to tell somebody something, I would just kind of..." "I would just kind of... ( Beep )" "( Beep ) I wish I had somebody" "I wish I had somebody that loved me like that." "That loved me like that." "Will you cry for me will you cry for me when I'm gone, Nick?" "Mother of God... "I love Nick"." ""I love Nick"." "What?" "What? "I love Nick"!" ""I love Nick"!" "That's the code!" "That's the code!" "You're... you're crazy." "You're... you're crazy." "No!" "No! "I..." "love..." "Nick"." ""I..." "love..." "Nick". ( Beep )" "( Beep ) That was the." "That was the stupidest password." "Stupidest password." "I mean, the only person" "I mean, the only person who really loved him..." "Chaz!" "Inbox, 48." "Drafts, 11." "Dear Nick..." "Dear Nick..." "I need to tell you something." "I need to tell you something." "But I can't seem to but I can't seem to do it in person, do it in person, so I'm gonna try it so I'm gonna try it the firehouse way." "The firehouse way." "I encourage the kids" "I encourage the kids that I mentor there that I mentor there to tell stories to tell stories in video diary." "In video diary." "The kids, like you, the kids, like you, look up to me." "Look up to me." "But..." "But... what you don't know is..." "Is that I'm a fraud and a coward." "And a coward." "By definition, by definition, I'm a different breed" "I'm a different breed from our parents, from our parents, and so are you, Nick." "And so are you, Nick." "You live in this bubble, you live in this bubble, but you're always the real you." "But you're always the real you." "And..." "And... but you don't pretend." "But you don't pretend." "And I've always been and I've always been jealous of that." "Jealous of that." "They say that aspies they say that aspies can't communicate." "Can't communicate." "Oh, they are wrong." "Oh, they are wrong." "You... you laugh, you sulk, you... you laugh, you sulk, you roll on the floor." "You roll on the floor." "You communicate, you communicate, if not only in words, if not only in words, in moods." "Soon I'm gonna tell the world I'm gay." "The world I'm gay." "And when the shit and when the shit hits the fan, hits the fan, I'm gonna need you" "I'm gonna need you to watch my back." "To watch my back." "I love you, bro." "Chaz needs me." "Wow!" "I should take you to 'nam, man!" "You to 'nam, man!" "They love orange there." "They love orange there." "The sun, the monks' robes, the monks' robes, row houses painted orange." "Row houses painted orange." "Oh, those guys really oh, those guys really celebrated life." "Celebrated life." "Too bad we had to too bad we had to kill so many of 'em." "Kill so many of 'em." "Thanks, Jim." "( Continues indistinctly )" "Grandma said a long time ago that vietnamese people" "that vietnamese people used to eat coconut frogs." "Used to eat coconut frogs." "Oh, yeah." "Oh, yeah." "Coconut and  frogs." "Coconut and  frogs." "They'd take a coconut." "They'd take a coconut and make a small cut and make a small cut and insert a tadpole." "And insert a tadpole." "Then, a few weeks later, then, a few weeks later, they'd open up the coconut they'd open up the coconut to find a blind frog to find a blind frog with white skin." "With white skin." "It had the smoothest skin it had the smoothest skin and the softest and the softest coconut-flavored meat." "Coconut-flavored meat." "For most of my life, for most of my life, I've been one of" "I've been one of those tadpoles." "I can't believe..." "( Whisper ) You're charging us?" "( Whisper ) You're charging us?" "By the hour?" "By the hour?" "What happened to what happened to "that's what family's for"?" ""That's what family's for"?" "I'm gmng you" "I'm gmng you the not-for-profit rate!" "The not-for-profit rate!" "Nick!" "We're so sorry for fighting with you." "For fighting with you." "Whatever you want to say, whatever you want to say, we want to hear it, okay?" "We want to hear it, okay?" "I found it..." "I found it..." "Chaz's video diary." "Chaz's video diary." "That's great, Nick." "That's great, Nick." "We'll watch it we'll watch it together at home." "Together at home." "The lawyers can settle the lawyers can settle this themselves." "This themselves." "Nick, your parents" "Nick, your parents and their attorney and their attorney are gonna sue miss Lee are gonna sue miss Lee if she doesn't close down if she doesn't close down the firehouse." "The firehouse." "You're all acting you're all acting like we're heartless." "Like we're heartless." "We're doing this we're doing this because we love Chaz." "Because we love Chaz." "We're starting we're starting a scholarship in his name." "A scholarship in his name." "He was so smart." "He was so smart." "Everyone liked him." "Everyone liked him." "He had his head on straight." "He had his head on straight." "We'll always remember him we'll always remember him as an ideal son..." "As an ideal son..." "But I knew." "But I knew." "Irene, no, no." "Irene, no, no." "I knew." "I knew." "I tried not to tell myself." "I tried not to tell myself." "I thought" "I thought if I didn't say it, if I didn't say it, it wouldn't be true, it wouldn't be true, or it would just or it would just be a phase." "Be a phase." "You know?" "You know?" "This is not about this is not about outing the dead." "Outing the dead." "This is pure speculation this is pure speculation on all of your parts." "On all of your parts." "Chaz isn't here" "Chaz isn't here to speak for himself." "To speak for himself." "But I am." "But I am." "I know." "Hey, guys, I'm sorry, I don't want to interrupt." "I don't want to interrupt." "But, um... people are but, um... people are starting to arrive." "Starting to arrive." "Send them home." "Send them home." "There's not gonna be a show." "There's not gonna be a show." "May, you  go home." "May, you  go home." "How can you..." "How can you..." "You can't just give up..." "You can't just give up..." "She is billing by the hour." "I'm glad Chaz didn't die a virgin." "Nick, love the orange." "That's a nice shirt." "Ajit..." "I didn't mean to say those..." "I didn't mean to say those..." "It's all good, man." "All right, let's get this show going." "This show going. ♪ You know" "♪ you know ♪ how I, I, I, I do" "♪ how I, I, I, I do ♪ don't worry about me" "♪ don't worry about me ♪ I'm, I'm cool" "♪ I'm, I'm cool ♪ all I need is me" "♪ all I need is me ♪ and my, my crew" "♪ and my, my crew ♪ feelin' like I'm brand-new" "♪ feelin' like I'm brand-new ♪ you know" "♪ you know ♪ how I, I, I, I do" "♪ how I, I, I, I do ♪ don't worry about me" "♪ don't worry about me ♪ I'm, I'm cool" "♪ I'm, I'm cool ♪ all I need is me" "♪ all I need is me ♪ and my, my crew" "♪ and my, my crew ♪ feelin' like I'm brand-new" "♪ feelin' like I'm brand-new ♪ I'm brand-new" "♪ I'm brand-new ♪ hey, hey, I'm brand-new" "♪ hey, hey, I'm brand-new ♪ hey, hey, I'm brand-new" "♪ hey, hey, I'm brand-new ♪ hey, hey, I'm brand-new" "♪ hey, hey, I'm brand-new ♪ I'm brand-new" "♪ I'm brand-new ♪ hey, hey, I'm brand-new" "♪ hey, hey, I'm brand-new ♪ hey, hey, there's no way" "♪ hey, hey, there's no way ♪ you can't see" "♪ you can't see ♪ you're lookin'" "♪ you're lookin' at a brand-new me ♪" "At a brand-new me ♪ ♪ check it out, yo" "♪ check it out, yo ♪ here's the game plan... ♪ Here's the game plan..." "( Music fades out )" "Good evening, everybody." "As you know, we recently as you know, we recently lost one of our very own..." "Lost one of our very own..." "Chaz young." "Chaz young." "And I'm happy to introduce and I'm happy to introduce Nick young," "Nick young, who has something who has something very special to share." "Grandma said a long time ago" "a long time ago that vietnamese people that vietnamese people used to eat coconut frogs." "Used to eat coconut frogs." "Oh, yeah." "Oh, yeah." "Coconut and frogs." "Coconut and frogs." "They'd take a coconut." "They'd take a coconut and make a small cut." "And make a small cut and insert a tadpole." "And insert a tadpole." "Then, a few weeks later, then, a few weeks later, they'd open up the coconut." "They'd open up the coconut to find a blind frog." "To find a blind frog with white skin." "With white skin. ( Click )" "Go." "Go on." "After a couple of weeks..." "You open the coconut..." "And you'll see..." "A blind frog with..." "With... with white skin." "And it'll have the smoothest skin." "The smoothest skin and the softest." "And the softest coconut-flavored meat." "♪" "For most of my life..." "I've..." "I've been like..." "One of those tadpoles." "Growing up in this strange world." "This strange world that never seemed right, that never seemed right, but trying my best." "But trying my best to fit in, to fit in, to grow..." "Into a frog." "After spending time at the firehouse," "at the firehouse, it hit me." "Our parents wanted us to be perfect." "To be perfect." "They had an image." "They had an image of what perfect should be." "Of what perfect should be." "But in the end, but in the end, I don't deserve." "I don't deserve to live in a coconut." "To live in a coconut." "No one does." "No one does. ( Crying )" "Chaz was gay, and I have asperger's." "And I have asperger's." "But I agree with Chaz." "But I agree with Chaz." "I am not a white frog." "I am not a white frog." "And I will not be." "And I will not be a white frog, a white frog, even if I'm weird." "Even if I'm weird or different or strange." "Or different or strange." "'Cause you know what?" "Everyone is different." "Whoo!" "Miss Lee:" "Whoo!" "Nick, dude, that was so awesome!" "That was so awesome!" "Oh, I'm so proud." "Oh, I'm so proud of you, buddy!" "You know what Chaz's password was?" "Password was?" "No idea." "No idea. "Randy"." "Chaz would've loved that." "You hate public speaking." "This was important." "This was important. ( Laughs )" "( Laughs ) I could see that." "♪" "♪ I feel like a boat ♪ without a sailor" "♪ without a sailor ♪ I go where the wind blows" "♪ I go where the wind blows ♪ just moving around" "♪ just moving around ♪ like a lonesome stranger" "♪ like a lonesome stranger ♪ I got no home" "♪ I got no home ♪ in search of a treasure" "♪ in search of a treasure ♪ some place I don't know" "♪ some place I don't know ♪ it feels like forever" "♪ it feels like forever ♪ I'm making my way through" "♪ I'm making my way through ♪ the hills and deserts" "♪ the hills and deserts ♪ I thirst for hope" "♪ I thirst for hope ♪ I don't know" "♪ I don't know ♪ what I'm looking for" "♪ what I'm looking for ♪ but I'll know" "♪ but I'll know ♪ when I find it" "♪ when I find it ♪ there's a missing beat" "♪ there's a missing beat ♪ inside of me" "♪ inside of me ♪ the rhythm of my heart" "♪ the rhythm of my heart ♪ hits unevenly" "♪ hits unevenly ♪ there's a missing piece" "♪ there's a missing piece ♪ inside of me" "♪ inside of me ♪ trying to figure it out" "♪ trying to figure it out ♪ but it amounts to nothing" "♪ but it amounts to nothing ♪ I want to realize" "♪ I want to realize ♪ but nothing I find ever" "♪ but nothing I find ever ♪ feels like the real thing" "♪ feels like the real thing ♪ can you empathize?" "♪ Can you empathize?" "♪ I don't know" "♪ I don't know ♪ what I'm looking for" "♪ what I'm looking for ♪ but I'll know" "♪ but I'll know ♪ when I find it" "♪ when I find it ♪ there is a missing beat" "♪ there is a missing beat ♪ inside of me" "♪ inside of me ♪ the rhythm of my heart" "♪ the rhythm of my heart ♪ hits unevenly" "♪ hits unevenly ♪ there's a missing piece" "♪ there's a missing piece ♪ inside of me" "♪ inside of me ♪ I'm lost inside" "♪ I'm lost inside ♪ a cold and bitter world" "♪ a cold and bitter world ♪ I can't understand" "♪ I can't understand ♪ the need" "♪ the need ♪ it makes it" "♪ it makes it ♪ so hard to breathe" "♪ so hard to breathe ( Dance music playing )" "( Dance music playing ) ♪ we say, oh, oh, oh, oh" "♪ we say, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ come on, baby, let's go" "♪ come on, baby, let's go ♪ go, go, go, go" "♪ go, go, go, go ♪ go, go, go, go" "♪ go, go, go, go ♪ we say, hey" "♪ we say, hey ♪ the party's bumpin'" "♪ the party's bumpin' ♪ hey, we got it bangin'" "♪ hey, we got it bangin' ♪ hey, we got it jumpin'" "♪ hey, we got it jumpin' ♪ get your hands up" "♪ get your hands up ♪ people, bump it" "♪ people, bump it ♪ let me take you away" "♪ let me take you away ♪ just you and me" "♪ just you and me ♪ take you away" "♪ take you away ♪ for a good time" "♪ for a good time ♪ take a sip of this drink" "♪ take a sip of this drink ♪ and dance the night away" "♪ and dance the night away ♪ ay, ay, ay" "♪ ay, ay, ay ♪ don't tell me your name" "♪ don't tell me your name ♪ we're just who we are" "♪ we're just who we are ♪ getting down" "♪ getting down ♪like rock stars" "♪like rock stars ♪ put your head on my chest" "♪ put your head on my chest ♪ and let me do the rest" "♪ and let me do the rest ♪ est, est, est" "♪ est, est, est ♪ let the rhythm take you" "♪ let the rhythm take you ♪ up, up, up and away" "♪ up, up, up and away ♪ as the bass kicks in" "♪ as the bass kicks in ♪ we're feelin' okay" "♪ we're feelin' okay ♪ the heat is up, up, up" "♪ the heat is up, up, up ♪ up in the place" "♪ up in the place ♪ let the people rock the club" "♪ let the people rock the club ♪ let's party away" "♪ let's party away ♪ we say, oh, oh, oh, oh" "♪ we say, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ come on, baby, let's go" "♪ come on, baby, let's go ♪ go, go, go, go" "♪ go, go, go, go ♪ go, go, go, go" "♪ go, go, go, go ♪ we say, hey" "♪ we say, hey ♪ the party's bumpin'" "♪ the party's bumpin' ♪ hey, we got it bangin'" "♪ hey, we got it bangin' ♪ hey, we got it jumpin'" "♪ hey, we got it jumpin' ♪ get your hands up" "♪ get your hands up ♪ people, bump it" "♪ people, bump it ♪ we say, oh, oh, oh, oh" "♪ we say, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ come on, baby, let's go" "♪ come on, baby, let's go ♪ go, go, go, go" "♪ go, go, go, go ♪ go, go, go, go" "♪ go, go, go, go ♪ we say, hey" "♪ we say, hey ♪ the party's bumpin'" "♪ the party's bumpin' ♪ hey, we got it bangin'" "♪ hey, we got it bangin' ♪ hey, we got it jumpin'" "♪ hey, we got it jumpin' ♪ get your hands up" "♪ get your hands up ♪ people, bump it" "♪ people, bump it ♪ baby, baby" "♪ baby, baby ♪ tell all your friends" "♪ tell all your friends ♪ that we're runnin' away" "♪ that we're runnin' away ♪ leaving' on the first plane" "♪ leaving' on the first plane ♪ just pack what you need" "♪ just pack what you need ♪ and we'll be on our way" "♪ and we'll be on our way ♪ way, way, way" "♪ way, way, way ♪ let the rhythm take you" "♪ let the rhythm take you ♪ up, up, up and away" "♪ up, up, up and away ♪ as the bass kicks in" "♪ as the bass kicks in ♪ we're feelin' okay"