"*" "* show me your tenderness * * give me your kindness * * show me your courage * * but I just realized * that sometimes courageous means * * being too blind to see * * all along * ain't no doubt about that *" "* if I gotta shut it, no * * ain't nothin' * * better than this" "* I would give everything to be * * half the man created just for you * * to see everything around me * * is incomplete * as we go through these changes * * through these love changes *" "* oh... ( Radio stations switch )" "Dj:" "Yo, yo, it's your boy e-boogie here." "It's homecoming weekend." "W-h-a-y, Haywood university radio." "( Song starts ) * take you there * take me there, I'll take you there * * you'll be swearin' * * take me there, I'll take you there *" "* I'll take you to the world beyond * * take you there, you'll take me there *" "* I'll take you there... * babe?" "I'm in here." "That Mr. schumaker called again." "We're not interested." "You know, I came up with this amazing idea-- hil, could you please not lay your sweaty body all over our clean bed?" "Sorry." "You know, it's just that with Ashley away at school," "I really wanna focus on my writing again, you know?" "Pick up where I left off in college." "You remember professor harrington." "He told me that my writing as so good that he thought one day I could actually win the MacArthur genius award." "MacArthur genius award." "Well, maybe I still can." "There's no age limit." "Speaking of Ashley, did you transfer the money online like I told you?" "Shit." "Hil, I told you that she needed to buy two textbooks and there's no money in her account." "Okay, okay." "I'll transfer it online." "And could you please take a shower before everyone gets here?" "You're funky." "That's not funk, baby." "That's pheromones." "Hey, big les." "Hey, deena!" "You look so good." "Wow." "( Chuckles )" "You're here early." "I thought you weren't getting in from L.A. till tonight." "Oh, I had to take a red eye and get the fuck outta dodge." "( Laughs ) I forgot how cold it was out there." "Feel my hands." "Feels like I been jerking' off a snowman." "You're so crazy." "( Laughs )" "Oh, is Barrett here yet?" "No, not yet." "Oh, good." "That means I can get myself together." "What, rough flight?" "Honey." "This woman sitting on the plane next to me recognized me from Oprah's legends ball, and after getting my autograph for her entire family, proceeded to interrogate me for the next five hours." ""Oh, my gosh, what's gonna happen on the season finale of vamps?" ""Is selene gonna get exposed to sunlight and die to save lillith from getting bit by countess Eleanor moonbeam?"" "Ha ha." "I wanted to be like, "bitch, I don't know!" "I haven't written it yet!" ( Laughs )" "Is that deena Scott's mouth I hear down here?" "Oh, look at him soldiering' around in his boxer shorts." "Did I interrupt something?" "No." "Is this what you married people do?" "No." "Oh, my god, can you believe this whole Robert thing?" "Yeah, I know." "I didn't see much." "Do you know exactly what happened?" "No, she didn't get into any specifics with me." "Well, let me take your coat and put some clean sheets on your bed." "( Slaps ) And you, put some pants on." "It's good to see you, baby." "You, too." "B.T.W., I love what you have done with Eleanor." "It looks like you guys dropped a pottery bomb in this bitch." "Well, it took a whole lot of febreze to get the stank of chicken wings and mumbo sauce outta here." "( Chuckles ) See ya." "Oh... ( Sighs ) So, what's up, Hollywood?" "How's the glamorous life?" "Oh, not so glamorous." "Apparently, men in L.A. don't like normal-sized women." "Anything over a size two is considered fat." "Well, you know, Ashley's nuts about your show." "She makes us dvr the whole season while she's away at school." "Oh, actually, i can do you one better." "I have the advanced DVD of season one for you." "Oh, that's what's up." "( Chuckles )" "She's gonna like this." "And where is she, again?" "Brown." "Oh, yes, you have an Ivy leaguer." "Heh." "Not too shabby." "Not too cheap, either." "I mean, she could've went to hayward for free since I'm a professor there." "Honey, please, she does not want daddy all up in her business." "( Knocking on door )" "Aw, shit, Mr. Barrett wallingford in the hiz-house!" "That's Dr. Barrett wallingford to you." "Psychiatrists ain't real doctors." "Yeah, that's not what you said when you asked me to get you that Viagra." "Shut up." "What?" "( All laugh )" "( Both ) Psy-fi-a!" "( Laughs ) Oh..." "Brother, this weekend's gonna be off the chain." "That's what's up." "Hey, miss deedee." "Hey." "What happened to you coming to visit me?" "I know, I just couldn't get away." "Aw, your German girl still got you on lockdown?" "What's her name?" "Helga?" "Helena." "And she's Swedish, and no, actually, we broke up." "Oh." "I'm sorry." "No, I'm not." "( Snickers )" "That's what you get." "For dating a white girl?" "Oh, please." "I don't demonize white women." "Oh, right, you just write a show about four white female vampires who suck the blood out of every man they have sex with." "Textbook sublimation of your repressed hatred." "That is not what I meant." "What I meant was, that's what you get for dating an infant." "What is she, eleventeen?" "Ho-ho!" "20." "Damn, that's only two years older than Ashley, you cradle-snatcher." "And see, look what happened." "She left your old black ass." "For your information, i left her." "Oh, what happened?" "She wouldn't make you breakfast till spongebob was over?" "Ha ha ha ha." "No, she wanted to get married." "Oh." "Oh, really?" "She wanted to get married." "Her student visa was up, so she wanted to get married to stay in the country and I didn't wanna do it." "Yeah." "If it didn't work out, she'd be tryin' to take half your money." "It wasn't that." "I guess I just wasn't in love with her." "Guess I'm just a romantic." "( Scoffs ) Please!" "Nigger, you are the least romantic person that I know." "You know what he used to do?" "He used to "make" all of the cards that he gave me." "It takes more effort to make a card than going to the store and buying one." "That's if you make it from scratch." "One time I got a card with Santa claus on the front with "merry Christmas" crossed out and "happy Valentine's day" written above it in black magic marker." "Honey, you didn't even have the good sense of mind to cross out "from uncle Leon and aunt Carol."" "Hey, brother was on a budget." "I thought I heard your voice down here." "Beautiful as ever." "Well, it takes one to know one." "Hey, Barrett." "Did you hear anything about this whole-- Robert thing?" "Yeah." "No, not really." "Like the man himself, even his death is shrouded in secrecy." "Guess we'll just have to wait till Abby gets here." "When she does get here, don't you all bombard her with a bunch of questions, okay?" "I'm sure she wants to enjoy homecoming weekend and just relax." "Hey, big les." "What you got to drink up in this piece?" "I have a Pinot-- Oregon Pinot." "And I have a New Zealand sauvignon blanc." "Mm, I'll take the Pinot." "Me, too." "Uh-- me three." "The Pinot." "Hilliard:" "You know, the last time I saw Robert was our graduation." "Mm, the last time i saw Robert," "I was working at 40 acres and a mule, and I ran into he and Abby down on dekalb Avenue." "And he was clean." "He had on this nice suit." "Oh, and he had just gotten that internship down at..." "Oh, gosh, was it lehman brothers?" "Bear stearns." "Right." "And Abby was working down at mashud on fulton street." "( Laughs ) You know Abby, right?" "Anyway, a year later, i heard that he got locked up for selling drugs to the traders or something, right?" "Yep." "Last time I saw him, i was a resident, and I was rooming with this white cat whose parents had this awesome apartment on park Avenue-- like with a doorman and shit." "So, yeah, the doorman rang the buzzer and said some guy named Bobby was looking for me." "I had no idea who it was." "Then I realized it had to be Robert." "This place I was living in had a lot of nice shit in it, so I was like, "I'll come down." ( Chuckles )" "So, I got downstairs to the lobby, and" "I mean, the doorman was looking at me like, "what's up with your friend?"" "Like, Robert looked totally thugged out." "Like, he had that jail look, you know?" "That jail muscle." "Had a big-ass scar on his neck." "I mean, he just looked hard, you know what I mean?" "Oh, thanks, babe." "Anyway, he had gotten Abby pregnant, had no job, and needed to borrow some money." "So, we walked to an atm," "I gave him $200, $300-- whatever the Max was i could withdraw." "Never saw him again." "I mean, the whole thing was sad, really." "We all had the same education." "How does this even happen?" "Are you really that surprised?" "The guy was a walking pharmacy." "I used to get my birth control pills from him." "Yeah, but he had it a lot worse than we did." "He was raised by a single mother." "Had to pay his own way through school." "That's why he sold the drugs in the first place." "Oh, please, I don't buy that as justification for a life of crime." "There are plenty of successful black men that came from single-parent households." "Uh-- look at our president." "And a lot of people work their way through school-- like me." "And me, so let's just face it" "Robert was a shysty individual." "Mmm, kudos on the wine, by the way." "Who's the producer?" "Brick house." "Like the song?" "Yeah." "( Chuckles ) Oh, I gotta get me a case." "Come on." "Robert was a good guy." "Maybe a little misguided, but he was a good friend to us all." "Would you like some more wine, deedee?" "Ooh, yes, please." "Robert used to be the man in college." "Yeah, he was." "Ah-ah." "There you go." "Oh, thank you." "All right, anybody else?" "No, thanks." "Hil, would you please go put some pants on?" "Really." "( Chuckles )" "Deena, what about you?" "You seeing anyone?" "Me?" "No." "I seem to have a problem attracting men in L.A." "My ass is too big." "Your ass isn't too big." "Your bank account is." "Men want to be the breadwinner, and you have your own bakery." "And all the dough that comes with it." "So, really, you don't think my ass is too big?" "It's perfect." "That's why I love the east coast." "( Laughs )" "Pants." "You happy?" "Oh, my god!" "Oh, no!" "You do not have on your old hammer pants." "Damn skippy." "I thought we burned all the evidence." "Well, let me tell you what." "If you had the type of junk I got, you would need a pair of these bad boys, too." "It's hammertime, baby." "* oh, oh, oh, oh * hey, hey!" "( All ) Abby!" "So, how is everyone?" "The place looks great." "Old Eleanor, still standin'." "So, professor, what's goin' on for the weekend?" "Parties, football game?" "Hilliard:" "Well, we got the parade tomorrow morning, and that rolls down Georgia ave, so we can just roll outta bed." "And we have the fashion show, the step show, and the yardfest concert." "And then the bovine game's on Sunday, so we have a full weekend." "So, Abby..." "What exactly..." "Why would you--?" "Let her relax for a minute." "It's all right, Leslie." "You have every right to know what happened." "Problem is, I don't really know myself-- not exactly, anyway." "I'm sure you all know that Robert was incarcerated." "This was after the wall street thing, right?" "That was the first time." "When he got out, everything was cool." "We picked up where we left off, he moved in with me in Brooklyn, and I got pregnant." "Oh, how is Jamal?" "He's fine." "He just started the sixth grade." "No!" "Already?" "So, go on." "So, finally, he got a job working construction with this prison friend of his, and there was some sorta trailer or something with all these expensive power tools and stuff, and he and his friend decided to steal 'em." "So, the place was supposed to be empty at night, but it turns out there was a night watchman, and long story short, the watchman got shot." "What?" "Mm-hmm." "So, needless to say, they got caught, and the other guy copped a plea to the attempted burglary so Robert got charged with the shooting and got ten years." "Ten years?" "Damn." "Yeah, so, the prison was all the way upstate, and I couldn't visit a lot because I had the baby to look after and I was working full time." "And whenever I did go to see him, we would just argue about it, so eventually I just stopped going." "But he would call when he could to speak to Jay, and..." "So this year, on Jay's birthday, he didn't call." "( Heart beat sounds ) And Jay was really upset." "So, I called the prison, and..." "They told me that Robert had died." "And they..." "And they couldn't tell me how, because we weren't married." "I am so sorry, honey." "Abby:" "Yeah, well, now that I've thoroughly depressed everyone..." "No, no, no." "Yeah, well, it's depressing." "Barrett:" "Yeah, it is." "Abby:" "You know, Robert would always reminisce, though, about when we all lived here." "He said that was the best time of his life." "Yeah, do you remember he used to make that "doo-doo dip"?" "Oh, yeah." "( Laughs )" "Oh, that brings back so many memories of halitosis." "Doo-doo breath for days." "Barrett:" "What was in that stuff, anyway?" "I mean, it actually looked like doo-doo." "Like, it was brown and it had chunks in it" "I guess we'll never know." "Chocolate pudding and onion soup mix." "Oh!" "Aww!" "Now, how you gonna give away the recipe?" "I remember he swore you to secrecy." "It's been almost 20 years, hil." "I think the statute of limitations is up on that." "That's some nasty shit." "Okay, on that note, is anybody hungry?" "I'm gonna fix dinner." "I could eat." "I could eat." "Let me give you a hand." "Did I give you the tomato?" "No." "All right." "Do you have everything you need?" "Actually, there was-- oh, duh, the salad bowl." "( Scoffs ) Here you go." "Thanks." "So, how does Ashley like college?" "Oh, she loves it." "I'm not thrilled about her being way in Rhode Island, but..." "I cannot believe she's in college already." "I mean, that is crazy." "It seems like only yesterday that you were pregnant with her and we were graduating from college." "Your stomach was so big, you barely fit in that graduation gown." "You had to be eight or nine months pregnant...?" "I was-- i was nine months pregnant." "I swore you were gonna have the baby that day right there on the upper quad." "Yeah, well, that makes two of us." "You know we had a bet goin'." "Uh-huh?" "Barrett said you'd have the baby before and miss graduation." "Deena said you'd have it after." "I said on graduation day." "And Robert said that you'd" "Abby, by the way..." "Before I forget, i just wanted you to know that with Ashley away, I have plenty of time, so if you ever need to relax, or take a break or something, honey, I'd be more than happy to come up" "and stay with Jamal for the weekend." "So, don't hesitate to ask-- for anything." "Well..." "Seriously, if you need anything, Abby." "Okay." "Thank you, Leslie." "You're welcome." "Why don't you go finish catching up with the guys in there?" "I'll finish up in here." "( Sighs )" "( Laughs )" "I make it do what it do, baby." "( Laughs ) We can step outside right now." "( Laughing ) Oh, you wanna do that?" "Wanna take it outside?" "We can take care of this." "Yes, come on, let's go." "This looks righteous." "Hil:" "Look at these black people eating chicken with a fork." "( Laughing )" "Hey, what time's that step show tomorrow?" "I wanna see what them youngbloods got." "4:00." "Oh, you know what?" "When it came to steppin', the coolest brother of 'em all was Robert." "Mm-mm-mm.?" "That brother came up with the dopest routine for our chapters." "Nobody could touch us!" "* can't touch this, mm-mm-mm-mm *" "( all laughing ) * can't touch this * you remember that last routine he did?" "Damn skippy!" ""We are the psycho brothers of Sci-Fi Alpha..."" "Incorporated!" "Incorporated!" "Leslie:" "Guys, come on, we're still eating." ""We were founded on a psycho Tuesday," "September 9th, 19..."" "( All ) "...06!"" "Hilliard:" ""At hayward university in Washington D.C."" "Oh, you better watch yourself." "You gonna break your back in them hammer pants." "( Both ) That's psy-Cho, b." "It goes..." "Psy... fi... a... * we are the psycho brothers from psy-fi-a * * and we'll be workin' what we're workin' * * when we workin' today * * it's like psy-fi, baby, 'cause we outta control *" "* it's like psy-fi, baby, with the blue and the gold * * it's like psy-fi-a * * psy-fi-a, baby" "( girls laugh ) Leslie:" "All right." "( Laughing )" "Barret:" "Oh, come on, what's up?" "We still got it?" "Y'all still got it." "( Men laugh )" "Robert would be very proud." "So, guys, listen-- there's something that I wanna talk to y'all about." "Um, you know that Robert was buried in a prison cemetery in an unmarked grave." "Well, I got his moms to sign papers so that I could give him a proper burial-- you know, with a headstone and everything, so Jamal can have some closure." "The problem is money." "The whole thing is kind of expensive, so I thought that if it's not too much to ask, maybe y'all could help chip in for it." "Barrett:" "How much do you need?" "$10,000." "I know it's a lot, but why don't you guys think about it, okay, over the weekend, and let me know." "( Leslie clears throat )" "Hilliard:" "$10,000." "That's steep." "Not if we split it four ways." "I'm in." "Yeah, me, too." "What about you guys?" "Yeah, sure." "Uh, hil, I think we should talk about this..." "Privately." "I'm gonna go help out." "Deena:" "You know what?" "I'm gonna help you." "Yes." "Leslie, what is there to talk about?" "He was our friend." "Are you forgetting Ashley's tuition is almost $50,000 a year with room and board?" "But our half would only be $5,000." "And that's another thing." "Why are we paying half?" "Um, we-- we're living off one income." "And Barrett and deena both make five times more money than we do." "Neither one of them has kids." "So what are we-- what are-- no-- what am I supposed to tell everyone, huh?" "We can't do it." "Okay." "Sorry to spring that on you guys." "Is everything cool?" "Everything's fine." "What's going on?" "Deena..." "Leslie told hil they needed to "talk about it."" "See, I knew this was gonna happen." "Leslie never..." "How'd things go out there?" "She has a legitimate concern, and we have a daughter in college, and one salary." "I didn't even think of that." "Maybe we could split it three ways." "Right now, she doesn't want us to go in at all." "You know what?" "Fine." "I'll just pay for the whole damn thing, okay?" "No, no, no." "It's not a problem." "No, it's fine." "I wanna do this." "Robert was my friend, too." "Look, let me just talk to her." "Do you have any more wine left?" "No, you winos drank all four bottles." "But I do have something for those who want to kick it old school." "Bam!" "( Chuckles )" "Oh, lord." "O.E." "Ten-foot taste." "Here you go." "Oh!" "Can I at least get a glass?" "No." "It's in the glass." "That's the eight-ball, baby." "( Both ) "You got to drink it straight out the eight!"" "( Chuckles )" "* I'm back on my jam *" "* I'm just trying to lay low *" "( laughs )" "Deena:" "I remember when I first moved in here." "I had just graduated from an all-girls school in Maryland, and so I thought-- when I saw that this house was called "Eleanor Roosevelt house"-- naturally," "I thought it was an all-girls dorm." "The first thing that i see when I walk through that door are hil, Robert, and Barrett-- painting the living room walls with no shirts on." "( Laughs ) And I says to myself," "I said, "so..." ""Aren't you glad you did not go to spelman?" ( Laughs )" "It's so great that you guys bought this place." "So many memories." "How'd you guys wind up gettin' it, anyway?" "After hil got his masters at Georgetown." "And I got the job at hayward." "The university was selling off a bunch of old buildings, and I convinced 'em to let us buy this one." "This is a great investment." "Yeah." "Leslie wants to sell it." "Oh, no, honey, no." "The market is terrible right now." "Yeah, well, with Ashley away at school, we don't need this big house." "Not to mention we could really use that money." "We just found out it's the-- uh-- an old James mcgill house, and it's on the national registry of historic places." "It's worth five times what we paid for it." "Wow." "Yeah." "Leslie, it's only going to go up if you hold onto it." "Especially if you put some more work into the place." "No, with these historic houses, you have to get permission from the D.C. fine art commission to do anything, and hil failed to mention that there is somebody interested in buying the house at the full appraisal value." "He just-- he just don't wanna let go of the past." "Or the fact that i can walk to campus each day." "Mm, how's that going?" "I mean, how's teaching going?" "What's the next generation of hayward students like?" "Oh, man, they're all preoccupied with how much money they're gonna make when they graduate." "Oh, come on." "We were the same way." "Oh, but at least we had a conscious desire to define ourselves as African-Americans." "I feel like that whole movement just disappeared." "Oh, especially in the arts." "You know, i always thought that my audience would be the people that liked love Jones, not Bridget Jones." "It's nearly impossible to get a black film made these days." "What about Tyler Perry?" "Now..." "( Leslie laughs )" "Now, now, I am all for a brother getting paid." "I am!" "But I cannot take another black man dressing' up as a big black woman." "I mean, how many madeas and big mommas can we take?" "Preach." "Honey, we need to cut that crap out." "I think it's a lack of leadership in the communities." "I mean, in the '90s, we had reverend al and Jesse." "Yeah, but now we have Obama and Oprah." "There's no lack of leadership." "I mean, we have to stop polarizing ourselves from the rest of the country and adopt a broader perspective." "Sure, it's important to define ourselves as a race, but the best way to accomplish that is by defining ourselves as individuals." "No offense, but y'all can talk all you want about the state of black America, and de-facto media segregation, and how to define ourselves all you want, like we're on some fuckin' CNN panel with soledad o'brien, okay," "but the fact is, in the black America i live in, there's an economic crisis, so I think these children are right to be concerned about their futures." "Did she just call us bourgy?" "( Laughs ) No." "I never said that." "However..." "If it walks like a duck... ( Both ) And it quacks like a duck..." "Then it probably ain't a chicken!" "( All laughing )" "Well, I'm goin' to bed." "Oh..." "Hil?" "You're in the attic." "( All laugh )" "Yeah, that's-- that's what i expected." "( Laughing ) Definitely." "You're in the attic." "I got an air mattress for you two in Ashley's room." "Okay." "One of you sleep on the bed, and the other one..." "( Laughs )" "The other one, just take Ashley's bed." "Bye, y'all." "Go to bed." "Oh, goodnight." "Goodnight." "Goodnight." "Night, Leslie." "( Laughs )" "Night, baby." "Ah ha ha!" "Is she-- she all right?" "She's fine." "She never drinks." "She's just tired and drunk." "Yeah, and my jetlag is setting in." "Honey, do you want the bed or the air mattress?" "I'll take whatever." "All right." "Well, goodnight, gentlemen." "Goodnight." "Goodnight, y'all." "Goodnight." "( Sighs )" "So, what's up with you and deena?" "Looks like she's still got a thing for you." "Yeah, well, that's in the past." "You can't go back, you know what I'm saying?" "I don't know." "Hey." "You know, it just so happens" "I brought some pharmaceutical-grade weed with me." "Oh, really?" "Mm-hmm." "Ooh, let's go out back and spark that bitch up." "Mm." "Goodnight." "Abby:" "Goodnight." "( Whirrs ) * follow me through the darkness *" "* follow me through the stone * * see, I know the road * can sometimes get a little heavy, baby * * follow me and lead on... * sometimes I wish i could go back..." "( Coughs, chuckles )" "To the past, I mean." "Don't get me wrong-- i love my family, but sometimes I wonder what my life would've been like if I hadn't gotten married and had a child so young." "Yeah, i feel you, man." "You know, Leslie used to be this interesting, bright and energetic sister with these amazing ideas about who she wanted to be." "And we used to talk all the time about movies and books..." "And art." "You know, when the baby was born..." "All that just sort of evaporated." "All the conversations turned into conversations about the baby." "I mean" " I mean, that's important and all, but we stopped having conversations about us and our plans as people." "When Ashley went off to school, I thought maybe we could reconnect, but she and I literally have nothing to talk about." "I'm sure that's not true." "Yeah..." "But it's more than that." "And you know what makes it really hard is that I'm surrounded by beautiful, gregarious, interesting women all day." "And I can talk to them and they find me interesting." "Ever think about cheating?" "Yes." "Yeah, but it's not a sexual thing." "Oh, come on." "It's-- it's more cerebral, you know?" "You know I'm attracted to nerdy girls." "And maybe I'll get caught up in a great conversation with a t.A. Or a student, and I'll fantasize a little." "And sometimes they'll ask me if I wanna grab a drink or something, but I'm like, "no, no, no, i gotta get home."" "But when I get home, Leslie will just be sittin' there in front of the TV." "And I'll try to have a conversation with her, but she'll be so fixated on Oprah or Dr. oz or some reality bullshit, you know?" "Barely paying attention." "What it is..." "Is that we've grown at a different rate." "So, looking back..." "Why do you think you decided to get married and have a baby so young?" "I don't know." "In college, senior year, after summer break," "Leslie and I hadn't seen each other for, like, two months." "And we were eager to make up for lost time..." "And we got a little sloppy with contraception, and she got pregnant." "We talked about it and we decided to have the baby." "Actually, she said, "I'm having the baby."" "( Chuckles )" "I remember when i told Robert." "He told me that she probably got pregnant to put me on lockdown before we graduated and went our separate ways." "Really?" "Yeah." "Part of me always wondered..." "Whether there was any truth to that." "*" "morning." "( Russian accent ) Doctor..." "It looks like our patient has a real case of dickerswellanemia, huh?" "Hey!" "( Chuckles )" "Morning." "Nice to know I can still get a rise out of you." "* does anyone understand * * how it's lonely for men * * singing ooh, ooh, ooh * * ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh *" "* (Bop) No, we never wanna sound alarms *" "* (Bop) Made of proof our hearts... * yo." "Yo." "I know y'all negroes was smokin' cheeba last night-- and you ain't hook a sister up?" "That shit is scandalous." "It's upstairs in my bag." "And don't smoke it all." "It's gotta last the whole weekend." "Listen, everything is straight with the money." "I'm gonna get with Barrett and deena tonight and have your check by tomorrow." "Oh, hil, thank you so much." "No problem." "Yeah." "Morning." "Morning." "Thank you." "Oh, my head." "Give me that, Barrett." "You can't hang like you used to." "You're old." "Who you callin' old?" "I ain't old." "Do you grunt every time you bend down to pick something up?" "Yeah, so?" "Do you have gray pubic hairs?" "That's none of your damn business." "Does he?" "I'm staying out of this one." "I'll take that as a yes-- which means you're old." "Hmph." "So, I don't mean to get all up in your business, but-- but you're going to, anyway, huh?" "Yes." "( Chuckles )" "Is everything okay?" "Mm-hmm." "( Clears throat )" "Is everything okay with you and hil?" "Yes." "What you gettin' at, deena?" "What's up with you and this whole Robert thing?" "Deena, it's simple." "We don't have the money." "Look, I told hil last night that if it's just about the money," "I'll take care of the whole thing." "Go ahead, then." "See, this-- this doesn't seem like you." "Look, Robert wasn't my favorite person either, but Abby is our friend." "Why are you-- why are you being so petty?" "Excuse me?" "You think I'm being petty?" "Yes, I do." "Abby has been struggling to take care of her and Robert's child and not once has she asked anybody for anything." "Why are you doggin' her out like this?" "You know, deena, this isn't another one of your TV shows, so spare me the drama, please." "Fine." "But this isn't the Leslie that i know." "Well, I guess you don't know me as well as you thought you did." "Guess not." "Yo!" "Yo." "Yo." "This bagel is the bomb!" "( Laughs )" "That was my breakfast." "Hey, Leslie." "Oh, hi." "By the way, thank you." "For what?" "Well, hil told me that you guys were gonna put in for Robert's funeral, and I know money must be tight with Ashley in college right now, so..." "I appreciate it, that's all." "Have you seen some of the people from our graduating class?" "They look like they could've been our professors." "Yeah, time has not been kind to some of them." "Now, you, on the other hand-- you look great." "You been workin' out?" "Yeah, well, you know." "I do a little something in the gym." "Um..." "Barrett..." "Do you think that maybe we could, um, you know-- spend some time talking?" "Just you and I?" "I mean, it's been such a long time since we've seen each other." "Might be nice to just chat." "About what?" "You know..." "About us." "Hey." "Did you tell Abby that we were giving her the money?" "Yeah." "Hil, I thought we talked about this already." "No." "I listened to what you had to say, and I decided to give her the money." "Oh, you decided." "I thought we made decisions together when it comes to our finances." "Leslie, what do you want me to tell you?" "Robert was my frat brother and our friend." "We can't let him go out like that, so unless you can come up with a better reason than money, we're doing this." "I'm going home." "Go ahead, then." "I'm cool if you wanna talk about our lives and what we've been doin', but I really don't want to talk about what happened in our relationship." "That was more than a decade ago and I'm over it, so there's really nothin' to talk about." "( Phone rings ) Excuse me." "Dr. wallingford." "Yes." "Thank you." "That was my service." "One of my patients is having a rough time." "I'm gonna have to split and give him a call." "Hil, can I grab your keys?" "Hi, can I have your autograph?" "Sure." "Did, uh, you and Leslie just have" "( all ) Hi, professor Hadley." "Morning, ladies." "Did you guys just have an argument about the whole money thing?" "Yeah." "She's tripping." "Look, I don't wanna cause problems between you and Leslie." "If you guys can't do it, you can't do it." "It's not the end of the world." "Abby." "I'm a grown-ass man." "I don't need my wife's permission to do what i want to do." "So don't worry about it." "Well, be that as it may," "I don't feel right about taking the money if Leslie has a problem with it." "( Sniffs )" "( Door opens )" "Barrett:" "Hey, Richard, it's Dr. wallingford." "I'm sorry my service is bad." "I'm out of town." "You want to tell me what's happening?" "All right, look-- just try to relax, okay?" "Go to the gym." "Take in a movie." "Have you been reading the ( Inaudible ) Book?" "Well, I really think you're gonna find it useful-- particularly the section on challenging negative thoughts and feelings in part two." "So, as I said, I'm out of town, but I'll be back in my office on Monday, okay?" "All right." "Hey." "Hey." "I didn't know you were here." "Where's everyone else?" "They're still back at the parade." "I had to call a patient so I came back here." "Are you okay?" "Yeah." "Hil and I got into it about this whole..." "Robert thing?" "Well, if you wanna talk about it, I'm all yours." "At least until deena gets back." "Yeah." "She told me I was being petty." "Yeah, well, you know her." "She always has to find the drama in something." "That's exactly what I said." "You must all think I'm being a bitch about this, huh?" "Look, just because someone asks you a favor doesn't mean you're obligated to do it." "I mean, I'm sure you have your reasons, and it's not like it's $400 or $500." "If it were for anyone else, i would do it." "But not for him." "Leslie, did something happen with Robert?" "You didn't come all the way to D.C." "To hear me talk about my problems." "You listen to people talk about theirs all the time." "Leslie, just say what's on your mind." "I can't." "I did take the hippocratic oath, you know." "Whatever you say to me will be strictly between you and I." "Do you-- do you remember the summer before senior year, when you all went away?" "I worked at the bursar office." "Yeah, and Robert stayed, too." "Robert stayed, too." "At first, we barely even saw each other." "I worked all day." "He did whatever at night." "But with hil and Abby away..." "We got lonely." "So, we sorta started havin' these nightly conversations." "Sometimes we'd order food and eat together." "Anyway, one night we were joking about..." "How neither one of us hadn't gotten any in over a month." "And after talking all night," "I was heading to bed, and..." "We sort of kissed each other goodnight." "Nothing else happened." "You know, we said goodnight, and that was that." "And the next day, we talked about it, and I told him-- i told him" " I said," ""this can't happen again." "This shouldn't happen again."" "And everything seemed cool." "Next few days..." "I came home, and he had made dinner." "But it was really nice, Barrett." "I mean, he had the nice bottle of wine, and candles-- like, he did this real nice romantic thing." "* moaning (Yeah, baby) * * and groaning * yeah, give me the signal, just like that * * baby, it feels so good * * when you make sounds of ecstacy *" "( laughs )" "Did you like the dinner?" "Yes, Robert." "Thank you for cooking." "But you gotta let me do the dishes, though." "All right." "( Chuckles )" "How do you like that wine?" "I mean, I know you're into your wines and whatnot, so I told the dude at the store-- i said, "yo..." ""If I bring this girl back some wack-ass wine, she ain't gonna be havin' it, so hook a brother up."" "( Laughs ) You know what I'm saying?" "So, uh, give me your honest opinion-- what do you think?" "Is it all that, or what?" "Mmm, it's all that!" "( Laughs )" "I shouldn't have drunk half the damn bottle, but it's very good." "Ooh, I'm feeling a little woozy." "Here, here." "Dizzy." "Sit down." "Chill." "Thanks." "Yo..." "I ain't even gonna front." "I didn't really used to like you all that much." "I thought you was kinda snotty." "Oh, really?" "Yeah." "You remind me of one of the, uh-- the huxtables." "You're like the cosby kids," "( laughs ) But, uh..." "You all right." "You know?" "You started to grow on a nigga." "( Chuckles )" "I like you." "I like you, too." "Oh, come on, Robert." "I think we should try and keep it on the friend tip." "We both have somebody, and we're both" "Robert, stop..." "Come on, come on." "I ain't gonna tell nobody." "Robert, no." "I'm feeling..." "Feeling..." "Uh... oof!" "Leslie: ( Chuckles ) I'm gonna go to bed." "Oh, Robert..." "I don't feel too good." "My legs..." "You all right." "I just put a little somethin'-somethin' in your wine to help you relax." "It's all good." "What...?" "* all that you want, baby, all that you need *" "* I'm gonna give it to you * * if you feeling the vibe * * and the vibe is well strong * * go ahead and moan * moaning * all that you want, baby, all that you need *" "* I will give it to you * * if you feeling the vibe * * and the vibe is well strong * * go ahead and moan * come on (Moaning) * * all that you want (And groaning) *" "* make all the noise you need * * baby, it feels so good... * you kissed me, you remember that?" "You wanted things to go further." "But you felt guilty..." "'Cause of Abby and hil." "But see, now..." "You are relaxed." "That's nice." "So, you can just let it happen." "( Belt clinks )" "* of ecstasy (Moaning) * * when you make sounds, when you make sounds * * and groaning * when you make sounds, when you make sounds * * baby, it feels so good (When you make sounds) *" "* when you make sounds, when you make sounds * * of ecstacy (Moaning) * * keep it coming (And groaning) * the next day, i woke up on the couch." "Couldn't remember anything." "I asked Robert what happened." "He said I drank too much wine and passed out." "But my panties were on the floor, and my bra was halfway off, and I could see that he had..." "Inside me." "For the next few days..." "I was so terrified." "Locked myself inside the room, pushed a dresser up in front of the door so he couldn't come in." "Then I started thinking..." ""Maybe he got me pregnant or gave me something."" "So, I went to a free clinic to get tested." "And I wasn't pregnant and he didn't give me anything." "But as I was sitting there in the waiting area, there were all these young sisters-- like 15, 16 years old." "Really young." "All with their babies." "They looked so happy." "That's when I knew." "I knew that in order for me to bring joy back to my body, for me to reclaim my body, I had to have a baby, and I had to have a baby with hil." "See, I wanted my body to belong to me, and for me to belong to him." "So, when he got back, that's what I did." "I got pregnant." "And you never told hil about any of this?" "No." "Hey, Ashley, it's me-- dad." "I was just calling to let you know that I transferred some money into your account." "So, when you get a chance, please give me a call, okay?" "Bye." "( Rings )" "Professor Hadley." "Oh, hey, kiddo." "How you doing?" "That's good." "That's cool." "Okay." "* he swallowed a dream * * ooh, we'll never be the same * hey." "Hil still not back?" "No." "I feel terrible." "Like" " I caused this whole thing." "This isn't your fault." "Hey." "There are a bunch of homecoming parties and other things going on, so you guys don't have to stick around here all night." "Abby:" "I'm cool just kickin' it here." "I don't really feel like hanging out with a bunch of people trying to relive their college days, anyway." "Isn't that what we're doing?" "You know what I mean." "Hanging out at some old school party, listening to bell biv devoe's poison with a bunch of women who are wearing skirts that are way too short and way too tight for their middle-aged asses." "Hey!" "( Laughs ) Who's ready to party?" "I think we're just gonna hang out here." "Ain't nobody talkin' to you." "I'm trying to get a girls' night on." "Knock yourself out." "Get dressed." "Come on." "Now, why you gotta be so cold to Barrett?" "Because." "Please!" "He needs to get over himself." "Listen, it is homecoming weekend." "Do you know how many single, eligible, edumacated black men there are gathered in one place?" "Honey, I am trying to get me some!" "Yo, "Dee nice", put your panties back on." "Girl needs some support here." "Yo, hil's not back yet?" "Nope." "Whew!" "Good." "Then I can take these pointy-ass shoes off." "My feet are already hurting'!" "Whoo!" "That's what you get, you flirt." "Oh... oh, hells no!" "What?" "Wha-- girl..." "No wonder you ain't got a man." "Oh!" "Feet lookin' like a runaway slave." "Oh, hey, I'm a very busy woman." "Yeah" " Leslie, you got some nail Polish and a belt sander so I can hook this girl's dogs up?" "Yeah, I got some stuff upstairs." "( Laughs )" "Deena, those feet..." "You know better." "Um, what's going on with you and Barrett?" "Nothing." "And that's the problem." "( Sighs )" "Listen, I..." "I know I fucked up." "I know that I did." "The man asked me to marry him and I said no-- but that was over ten years ago!" "How much longer is he gonna hold it over my head?" "I wasn't ready." "Sue me." "Yeah, well, maybe he's the one who's not ready now." "Leslie, the man wanted me to choose between him and my career." "Do you know how hard it is for a black woman to get a job writing for TV?" "I got a job offer." "I had to take it." "I know." "If I had known that finding a man was gonna be just as hard, maybe I would've made a different decision, but I was 29 years old." "I didn't know that years later I wasn't gonna have any options." "Do you really wanna know how bad it is?" "My own father tried to hook me up with one of his friends." "What happened?" "That old-ass motherfucker stood me up." "( Snickers ) It's pathetic, really." "I just figured that since Barrett is single again, maybe there was a chance that we could start fresh." "I mean, is it really such a ridiculous notion that after seven years of dating and almost getting married that there may still be some feelings there?" "No." "No." "But..." "He just got out of a relationship." "You gotta give him some time." "Honey, I'm damn near 40 years old." "I don't even know if my ovaries work anymore." "Time is something that I do not have to give." "All right, bitch." "Gimme them nasty-ass feet." "Oh!" "Hmm?" "You see?" "What?" "I ain't messin' around, catching' one of them claws in my eye." "( Sighs ) All right, come on." "All right, this one..." "Doesn't even have a nail on it." "Yo, big les, you got some press-ons or something?" "I think I might have to build her ass a bionic toe." "Go on." "Talk to him." "No." "What if he rejects me?" "What if I'm being ridiculous?" "Wouldn't be the first time." "( Chuckles ) Shut up." "Go." "* I didn't expect my day to start like this * * with a dear John letter * signed and sealed with a kiss *" "* I'm anxious but nervous * * to read what it says inside * * says inside, says inside *" "* I should've known, recognized the signs *" "* I looked out my window * * a snow storm in July * * her toothbrush gone * used to be next to mine, next to mine... * bagel for dinner, huh?" "Yep." "Do you remember when you were in med school, and I was in grad school, we were so broke that we used to eat captain- -crunch for dinner." "( Laughs )" "Yeah, i remember." "You used to steal extra creamers from the coffee shop." "We'd have to open each one up individually and pour them on the cereal." "Right." "Those were some rough times." "Yeah, but they were some good times." "Well..." "Money's definitely not an issue for the two of us anymore." "Then what is?" "Deena, I don't have any issues with you." "Why don't i believe that?" "Would you like to call my shrink and ask her?" "She'll tell you I'm completely cured of my emotional dependence on deena Scott." "Ten years of therapy to prove it." "What if I'm not cured of you?" "Well, then, that's too bad." "We had our moment, and that moment's passed." "So, you're saying you don't have any feelings for me anymore?" "Of course I have feelings for you..." "As a friend." "I love you..." "As a friend." "But I will not allow you to draw me back into the dynamics of our failed relationship." "God, why do you do that?" "Do what?" "Talk to me like I'm one of your fuckin' patients, Barrett." "That's not what I'm doing at all." "See, if you were one of my patients," "I would tell you that relationships have three basic dynamics." "Power." "All relationships involve issues of power and control, and you had to have all of it in our relationship." "Me?" "Affect." "In short, we telegraph how we feel about the person we're in a relationship with by sending out signals of warmth and kindness, acceptance-- or coldness, indifference, and hostility." "You chose the latter." "And last-- respect." "Don't fuckin' shrink me, Barrett." "People either demonstrate their respect or disrespect for another person, their ideals, values, and differences." "When you wanted to move to California, after we had dated for almost ten years, and I asked you to stay because I loved you and wanted to marry you and spend the rest of my life with you," "you disrespected our relationship by leaving it." "That's what I would say to you if you were one of my patients." "But you're not." "* in this world" "* I'm so sad * * that she's gone * * nothing in this world" "Abby:" "Listen..." "When hil told me he was gonna give me the money," "I didn't realize that you hadn't agreed to it." "Abby, this whole thing has nothing to do with the way I feel about you." "I" " I'm just not ready to explain my reasons right now." "Okay." "You know..." "Before Robert got a job..." "I told you he was having a hard time with the fact that i was the one bringing home the money." "We would fight about it all the time." "And he would get really angry..." "So angry that he would hit me." "( Sighs ) And I thought that when he finally got a job, it would stop, but it didn't." "And you know, all they do in jail is work out." "And he had gotten really big and strong." "One time he hit me so hard..." "He broke my jaw." "Mm-hmm." "It was almost a month before I could eat solid food." "I told everyone at work that I had gotten in a car accident, because..." "( Scoffs )" "Whatever." "They-- they knew what was up." "I mean, we deal with domestic violence every day." "And I knew I had to make it stop." "So... the night that they decided to rob that construction site," "I made an anonymous phone call to the police." "And that was that." "So, I just-- i want you to know that I know..." "Whatever your reason is for not wanting to help pay for the funeral," "I'm sure it's a good one." "I love you, my sister." "I love you." "I" " I'm gonna get nail Polish all over you." "That's okay." "How'd it go?" "* forever * you cry me * hold me * hold me * hold me..." "I need to go get out of these clothes." "* hold me * hold..." "I should try and call hil, too." "What's up, man?" "What's up?" "Want a mani-pedi?" "Think I'll pass." "The tables sure have turned, huh?" "How so?" "You and deena." "I remember back in the day, boy, you used to sweat that girl so hard." "Now look at you." "You're a doctor and shit." "You ain't gotta sweat nobody now." "Nope." "Barrett is all that." "What are you gettin' at?" "I'm just saying, she had her chance, right?" "Yeah, that's right." "She chose her career over our relationship." "Yes, she did." "But, you know, there's something i always wondered about." "What's that?" "If you were so in love, and you wanted to marry deena so badly, why didn't you just move to California with her?" "Because I couldn't." "Why not?" "Because I'd just passed my board exams." "I'd gotten offered a job." "Oh, okay." "But..." "Isn't that why deena moved to California?" "Because she just got offered a job?" "Yeah, but she could've been a writer anywhere." "Oh, right, they don't have psychiatrists in Los Angeles." "Look, I'm just saying, yo-- it... kinda seems like you both chose your careers over your relationship." "Please!" "We did so!" "In your dreams!" "Let's ask Barrett." "Barrett..." "Do you remember the last time hil and I played spades against you and deena?" "Yeah." "Didn't we beat you with a Boston?" "What?" "You and hil never beat us at spades ever." "Thank you!" "That's exactly what I've been saying." "Yes, we did!" "And if hil was here, he would tell you." "We won all 13 books and spanked your asses." "She's truly going senile!" "Honey..." "I trumped your Ace of spades with my big joker." "That's how y'all lost." "That's right." "We didn't even play with jokers." "House rules of Eleanor!" "We always played jokers!" "It's true, Leslie." "That was hil's rule." "Let's just settle this right now." "I don't even need hil." "Abby can be my partner." "Bring it." "I ain't no goddamn rookie." "Been playing this shit for years." "Barrett, are you ready to school this girl?" "Go get the cards." "Come on, Abby!" "I don't really want to play spades." "Abby even knows." "Abby doesn't even wanna mess with us 'cause she knows that we are unstoppable together." "Abby, why you don't wanna play?" "Because..." "( Sighs )" "And don't revoke my black card for this" "I don't know how." "What?" "What can I say?" "I grew up with a white mother." "I never learned." "You never learned how to play any card games?" "We played uno." "( All ) Uno?" "Oh, hell, no." "Y'all gonna judge me now?" "Yes." "I'm not judging', I'm just perplexed." "Can you at least jump double-Dutch?" "No." "Are you sure you're really half-black?" "I've always secretly thought you were puerto rican." "( Laughs ) Black sister that can't play spades?" "( Laughs ) If you're really black, then what's a hog maw?" "You're ridiculous." "Oh, just answer the question, honky." "Oh!" "Oh!" "You did not just call me the h-word!" "All right, y'all really wanna test me?" "Bring it." "A hog maw is a nasty-ass pig stomach." "And?" "Okay." "Well, who wrote the autobiography of Malcolm X?" "Trick question." "Malcolm X..." "Wrong." "No..." "As told to Alex Haley." "Oh!" "What's the best flavor of kool-aid?" "Other trick question." "Red." "Oh, well, i guess you pass." "Ah, not so fast, Mariah." "( Turns up dance music )" "Aw, yeah!" "Cabbage patch." "Oh, what?" "Negro, please!" "I taught you how to cabbage patch!" "Aw, yeah!" "Go, Abby!" "Go, Abby!" "Go, Abby!" "Go, Abby!" "Go, Abby!" "Go, Abby!" "Go, go, go!" "Go, Abby!" "Do smurf!" "Nigga, what?" "Go on, girl!" "Get to it." "Aw, hell, yeah." "Abby, Roger rabbit!" "Oh, that's my specialty, yo!" "Aww!" "Get it, girl." "Get it, get it, get it!" "All right, all right, all right, all right." "( Music fades ) You pass." "( Laughing ) Now..." "By the power vested in me by Patti LaBelle and the dude who played rollo on sanford and son..." "You have retained your status as a member of the tribe." "Whoo, whoo!" "Even though you can't play spades." "( Laughs )" "All right, check it out." "Uh-oh." "Let's see if y'all remember this oldie but goodie..." "* aw, that's right." "It's your song, bitches." "Come on." "* I don't want you to think * all right..." "* that I'm losing faith *" "I wanna see y'all dance like this is 1991." "* we both know true love * go on." "* is hard to find hug up on each other." "( Giggles ) * each time it feels as though * * we've had enough of each other * * we're off to make up * * without even knowing what went wrong *" "* (Hey) If anybody asks you * * if anybody asks you" "* (Mm-hmm) 'Cause if anybody asks you * * if anyone wants to know * * hey..." "Last time i danced like this was with you." "Me too." "* well, tell 'em i do * * well, tell 'em i do * * love you * girl, oh * please show me, baby * * where we both went wrong *" "* I will make it right * just let me love you * * till the early morning light *" "*" "* flippin' through the pages * * of every magazine * readin' horoscopes to see what the future brings * * it's so hard for me to explain * * with the world all around me * * comin' down like rain *" "* let it rain * let it rain all over me *" "* I'm gonna pick up all the pieces * * and put 'em back together * * save me * save me from these demons in my mind * * because the mirror * it just ain't my friend *" "* though I don't want your pity * * for these self-inflicted wounds * * but sometimes it feels so good * * just to stand in the rain * * oh, let it rain * rain, rain" "* let it rain all over me *" "* (Rain) I'm gonna pick up all the pieces * * and put 'em back together * * save me * let it rain, rain, rain * * let it rain all over me *" "* until the stars come out at night * * and save me" "* I'm searching for the answers * * for all that I am * ooh, but I'm so far from home * * it was such a simple place... *" "( birds chirp )" "* somewhere in between * the laughter and the tears * * courage and the fears * * minutes and the years * * somewhere in the midst there are *" "* somewhere in between * * grows love" "hey." "So, uh..." "Last night, huh?" "Yeah." "Listen..." "I'm a big girl, a grown woman, and..." "I just want you to know i don't expect this to go any further, okay?" "And what if I do?" "I mean, you can't just take advantage of me like I'm some kind of tramp." "Seriously." "( Chuckles ) No, I just mean..." "No pressure." "You're in New York." "I'm in L.A." "You..." "Talk too much." "* occasion of azalea * and love * and love * somewhere in between * * the comets and the stars... *" "well, look at what we have here." "Y'all so nasty." "This is all your fault!" "Ooh!" "That was a dirty trick." "You played our song." "Hmm." "So?" "By the way..." "What's up with that check?" "Oh, yeah, I was gonna give that to you last night." "Deena, I didn't want you to pay for the entire thing." "That's why I asked everyone to chip in." "You already help out enough with the checks you send every month." "That's why i didn't ask you." "And that's why I'm giving it to you." "Listen, most of the people that are around me act like they're my true friends, and they're not." "I learned a long time ago that a true friend is not someone on your payroll." "Before the fame, before the money, you were my true friend." "It's something that I can do." "And there's nothing..." "You can do about it." "Mm-hmm... * you're my friend * ( Laughs )" "Oh, baby, thank you." "You're welcome." "I love you." "I love you, too, my sister." "Morning." "There's some coffee over there for both of you." "Morning, Abby." "Good morning." "Um, so, hil's still not back yet?" "Leslie:" "I left a message." "What time do you guys have to leave?" "Oh..." "My flight's at 4:00." "I was gonna catch a 3:00, but I can call my mom and see if she'll stay with Jamal again." "Oh, no, don't do that on my account." "Morning." "Morning, love." "Hey." "Hey." "Barrett." "Yeah?" "You drove, right?" "Mm-hmm." "Would you mind dropping Abby at the bus station and deena at the airport?" "Sure." "Abby, I can give you a ride back to New York if you want." "Okay." "Well, we better get packin', then, huh?" "Mm..." "Yeah." "So, no word from hil yet." "Nope." "But..." "When he does get back..." "Maybe I should talk to him about this." "Yeah." "And there's somebody else I think you should consider talking to." "A therapist." "No" " Robert." "Oh..." "Listen..." "There's this exercise that I do with some of my patients." "It's sort of like a mock funeral." "It's usually done as a symbolic gesture of mourning and grief to give people a chance to heal, bring closure, say things they never got to say to a loved one..." "But I think it would be a good thing for you to do to say all the things you never got to say to Robert." "What would I do, go to a cemetery?" "No, no, you just pick a time when you're alone, and you imagine you're at his funeral." "Then you just talk." "That's all." "I think it might make you feel better." "Barrett..." "You make me feel better." "Such a great friend-- and a doctor." "Thanks, les." "Um, there is something i want to say as far as deena's concerned." "Okay." "I know that there's some painful things in the past, but that's your soulmate, and true love isn't about letting go-- it's about holding on." "Hm." "Think about it." "* * mmm, mmm * mmm, mmm, mmm * mmm, mmm, mmm * can I kick it to you (Can I kick it to you) * * can I kick it to you *" "* oh, oh * there are so many questions *" "* I have for you * like what's your name... * what do you think about giving the whole long- distance thing a try?" "What exactly would that entail?" "Well, I was thinking we could start by skyping once a week." "Oh." "Maybe wednesdays." "Uh, wednesdays-- mm, no good." "I have production meetings and a table read on wednesdays." "And Thursdays I have an all-day rehearsal with our cast." "What about Fridays?" "No, weekends are bad for me." "Friday nights i work with two other doctors on this article we're trying to get published," "Saturday I play soccer-- usually hang out with the guys afterwards." "Sunday, I go over the patient notes for my sessions." "How are mondays for you?" "Oh, no good." "I have blocking rehearsals on Monday." "Tuesday's show day." "Well..." "When's the next time you got a vacation?" "Maybe I can come out and visit." "March." "Five months?" "We're in mid-season." "Prognosis isn't looking too good, is it, doctor?" "No, I can't say it does." "You know, I was gonna wait until you got to the airport to give you this, but, um... shazam!" "( Laughs )" "You did not make me a card." "Yep-- and I made it from scratch this time." "( Chuckles ) And from the captain crunch box, nonetheless." "How romantic." "( Chuckles )" ""When we're 3,000 miles apart, I'll miss you with all my heart." "Love, Barrett."" "Look, whatever it takes, we'll make it work, okay?" "Would you guys get a room already?" "Very funny." "Ha ha ha." "Not." "You know, that's not a bad idea." "We could get a room tonight." "My first patient is not till 1:00." "Oh, and there's a 6:00 am flight tomorrow that gets me into lax at 9:00 am." "Time for my first meeting." "I'll book us a room." "Wait, hold on, hold on." "You promised Abby a ride back to New York, remember?" "Oh, yeah." "Don't worry about me." "If I'm lucky, maybe I'll get a seat next to the bathroom this time." "Oh..." "( Laughs )" "It's fine." "Just drop me at the bus stop." "Have I told you how much I love you today?" "Not today." "Thanks, Abby." "Hey, you sure you're gonna be okay?" "Yeah." "Hey, I guess homecoming weekend didn't turn out the way any of us expected, huh?" "Nope." "But then again, nothing about any of our lives turned out the way we expected, so why should this weekend be any different, right?" "Girl, you are right about that." "Listen, I know we always say we will, but let's stay in better touch this time, okay?" "Okay." "You ready?" "Yep." "Big les..." "Deedee." "Oh..." "Oh, and tell your husband, the next time I see him-- tell him I'm gonna kick his ass." "( Laughs ) You're so bad." "Goodbye, my dear friend." "You take care, Leslie." "Oh." "Think about trying that exercise i told you about." "I will." "Bye, Barrett." "Let's hit the road, bitches!" "( Engine starts )" "*" "* call me * disconsolate * where * you land, please * * come to * the mercy seed * fervently * need * oh, here * bring your * wounded heart * here * tell your * anguish" "* earth * have no sorrow * that heaven * cannot * cure" "( thuds )" "So..." "How does this work?" "I guess I should..." "Tell you all the ways what you did affected my life." "That 20 years later I'm still feeling the repercussions of what you did." "Should I tell you how much it hurt when hil wanted to buy this house, and I could see how happy he was, but I couldn't share his joy..." "Because of what you did to me here." "Should I..." "Tell you about..." "About what you did to my trust?" "The world was a safe place." "Safe place." "But how..." "How I will never be the person I was before you did what you did to me." "Or how I've put up indestructible walls to protect myself from my feelings and how those walls have become more like a prison than protection-- but, see" "I didn't come here to talk about those things." "I want to talk about..." "When my daughter got accepted to brown." "And how proud she was." "And how I couldn't..." "Allow myself to feel..." "Pride." "I wanted to, but I couldn't." "Because I was crippled with fear-- fear of the possibility that if I let her go away to school and let her out of my sight that what happened to me might happen to her." "So, I did the one thing i promised myself I would never do." "I told her what you did to me." "I had to..." "So she would be prepared..." "And the same thing would never happen to her." "Do you wanna know what happened?" "Do you wanna know what my little girl did?" "She held me." "As I was sobbing into her arms..." "She comforted me." "For a moment..." "It was like she was the mother and i was the child." "( Chuckles )" "And then she told me not to worry about her going away to school because she had something i never had." "A mother like me." "As I was there, looking into her eyes..." "I realized the person that I used to be-- young me, brave me, intelligent me, strong me..." "She hadn't gone anywhere." "She was right here, alive as ever." "And now that you're dead..." "You can't ever hurt her again." "Hey." "Hey." "Has everyone gone?" "Yep." "Everyone left a while ago." "Do you mind telling me where you were all night?" "After you left..." "Abby told me she wasn't taking the money, and I got angry and I stormed off." "I went around campus to blow off some steam." "Then I remembered that i" "I didn't transfer that money into Ashley's account." "So I went to my office to use the computer." "After I made the transaction," "I called Ashley to tell her." "We talked a while..." "And I told her about Robert's funeral, and how you were being so unreasonable, and I couldn't figure out why." "So she told me why." "She told me everything." "I was so angry and so ashamed," "I couldn't come back here last night." "I just stayed in my office and thought about all the wrong things I did in the past 20 years." "Hell, maybe I could've seen something was wrong with you if I wasn't so busy thinking about my damn self." "Baby, I'm so sorry." "Hey..." "Hey." "It wasn't your fault." "And it wasn't my fault." "And there's nothing we can do about it now." "But I'm glad-- i am so glad that you finally know." "'Cause I've felt like i was living a lie every day, and it was a constant reminder of what happened to me in the past." "( Sniffs ) Oh..." "But you know what?" "You know what?" "The past doesn't matter anymore." "All that matters is right now." "I only wanna live in the present." "Will you live in the present with me?" "Yes, baby." "Yes?" "I'll live anywhere with you." "Yes." "I love you." "I love you, too." "( Whispers ) I know." "Yeah?" "Yeah." "Yeah." "( Sighs )" "( Phone rings )" "Man:" "Hello?" "Mr. schumaker?" "Hil Hadley." "Were you still interested in buying our house?" "* mmm, mmm * mmm, mmm, yeah" "* sunrise is upon us * it's the dawn of a new day, yeah * * yeah, it's funny how life goes by and changes * * oh, you see, it's strange that way *" "* but listen, one thing I must tell you * * before you go on your way, yeah * * one thing I must say to you * * little home * there's nothing that I'd dare to say *" "* but this, so listen *" "* I'll always love you * * no matter what you say *" "* I'll always love you * * until my dying day * doesn't matter who was right * * or wrong about it, baby * * no, no" "* I'll always love you * * till my dying day * hey, hey * hey, yeah" "* all the dreams * that we shared, oh * well, they all come true * * yeah, on the other side * * of the mountain, baby * * it'll be, oh, just us two *" "* but one thing i must tell you * * before you go on your way, yeah * * one thing I must say to you * * little home * there's nothin' left to say here *" "* but this, so listen here *" "* I'll always love you * * no matter what you say *" "* I'll always love you *" "* I'm typical that way * * you and me * we made history together, yes we did *" "* I'll always love you * * till my dying day * yeah, yeah * oh, oh, oh, oh * yeah * you and me * we made history together, yes we did *" "* I'll always love you * * till my dying * day"