"When I was young, my dad told me not to look at the washer." "I was too little to have paid him any mind." "Years later, I noticed he'd been right:" "Children can't look at the washer and think this won't bring problems in the future." "My mother was more condescending." "When my dad left, she put colorful clothes in the wash and some panties so that underwear of 6 brothers wouldn't change my sexual habits." "One of my brothers, the trouble-maker, mixed colors in a load of whites to remind me" ""People only want to fuck with you, and that's no enough for them."" "Another brother, the "neurotic", could pull up a stool and spend the day with me." "He'd start talking about chaos, disorganization and make me see how a pair of corduroys spinning together with two flannel shirts would separate for no reason." "I know they were all right, but next to the washer I felt security." "I never knew why." "I never relived such calm moments as those Sunday afternoons sitting in front of the washer" "and watching a good spin cycle." "You've started the washer and the drier?" "I wanted my black t-shirt for today." "So you did a wash for one shirt." "Well mine and 5 more." "But you did an entire wash for 6 t-shirts." "All 6 were dirty." "Should I save you some lunch?" " I'm not coming for lunch." "Have a good Sunday, Ok?" "A whole load for a few shirts." "Oh, my God." "I will save lunch for later in case" "I really love driving Sundays" "Sundays people laze around so it seems the street is mine." "My Sundays never were overly fun." "I'd meet some friends, go see football, nothing much." "For me it was just giving life to a dull day." "Hey." " What's up?" "How's it going?" " Good." "Been here long?" " No, a few minutes." "What road did you come by, Diagonal?" " Yeh." "You Numancia, right?" " Yeh." "There wasn't a soul." "Surfed a wave of green lights." "Took me 6 minutes, 20 seconds." "Great." "Here, what about Ignacio?" " Late, as always." "Look, the oldest is 97." "97 years old isn't bad, is it?" "Damn!" "That dude had to live through all the wars." "How can you read the obituaries?" " I like to be informed." "That's what old folks do." " Hey, the youngest is 23." "Then there's a ton in their 40's." "Interesting stats." "Damn!" "Look, Albert Castillo." "Died in Barcelona at 23." "His family notifies his friends and acquaintances." "The ceremony of the eternal rest of his soul is today at the chapel in Les Corts." "Who?" "Do you know him?" "Fuck, he went to school with us." "Who?" "Our Castillo?" "The "Tillo"?" " His name was Albert." "No, the "Tillo"'s name was Jordi." "No, that was his older brother." "You think?" "It's true." "Good footballer, made you work." "I played against him once." " Yeh, he scored on you." "No way!" "I saved them all, even the final penalty." "That was my great moment in school." "My goal took us to the championship." "Really?" "I didn't know that either." "Yeh." "The "Tillo" was playing, too." "The dead one." "Fuck, Francisco, don't say that." "It might not be him." "Do you think?" "I don't know." "I would say so." "He came to my father's funeral." "That doesn't count." "We all had to go for school." "What!" " Yeh." "Don't tell me you didn't know." " I didn't know." "Well, yes." "The teacher called and said we had to go." "He called you all?" " Yeah, of course." "One by one?" "Well, one at a time but we were all there, right?" "Maza didn't." "Maza was out." "He didn't know." "Hey!" " Dude!" "Sorry I'm late but traffic was heavy." "Traffic?" "Are you sure?" "Well, there was traffic, then I had to go back to the studio to finish a design at the last minute." "Yeh, yeh." "And then?" "Then the cops stopped me." "Right, the cops." "Did you guys get here on time?" " Yes, of course." "Look, seems a class-mate has died." "Really?" "How?" " They don't say, do they?" "No way." "Have you ever read an obit?" "He was from your priests' school?" " It wasn't priests, it was monks." "Is this him, Albert Castillo?" " Yeh, the "Tillo"." "The "Tillo"?" " Yeh, Castillo "Tillo"." "No, that's not it." "It was because he had ears like that rat on TV," "The Rat Giggio - from Rat Giggio to "Riggio"" "to "Tiggio" and finally "Tillo"." "Right?" "Fuck, how cruel and complicated you were at your school." "Well, at school they called me" "Damn, what ass-holes." "What?" "Huh?" "No, nothing." "Let's get going to the restaurant?" " Yeh, let's go." "Come here." " What'd they call you?" "Ok, but don't laugh, ok?" "Little Pistol." "Why?" "Cause you've got a little one?" "No, I went to Carnival dress as a cowboy 3 years in a row." "Hey, the design of this obit is good." "I like it." "Yeh, yeh." "Very good." "Dani says we should go to the funeral." "But was he a friend of yours?" "Yeh, I won a championship with him." "So now we have to go to a funeral." "I'm sure there's a line for the champions." "Hey, man, one day we also went..." "We were champions." "Yeh, "one day"?" " One day nothing!" "Nothing." "When it begins like that "One day", what?" "I'm not into it." "We have to go." "Yeh." "Where are you going, Francisco?" "Stop it." "One day we went to a friend's house, ok?" "And?" "And we watched a porno and had a circle jerk." "You wanked each other?" " Fuck no." "Each to his own." "You had a wank with Albert." "So we have to go to the funeral." "You almost had a relationship." " Very funny!" "But isn't it strange?" "I wanked with this guy, now he's dead." "Well, it's not strange, it's a consequence." "Let's go to the service." " What?" " Seriously, Dani?" "Yeh, let's go." " No!" "Yes." "Let's go to the chapel." " No." "That's final." "No." " Don't be a drag, man." "Hey, let's go to the beach." "I'm not going!" "No!" "We don't care." " A funeral, I really can't believe it." "We're going to a funeral." "I keep thinking this is a terrible idea." "On top of that we weren't invited." "You know what I mean." "I don't know." "Hey, wait." "Are you going this way?" " Yeh." "If you'd taken Les Corts and then Numancia it'd be quicker." "He would know how to go, right?" "It's his car." "Sometimes the driver gets lost." " It's his car." "A 2nd opinion's good." " A 2nd opinion." "A 2nd opinion's always good." "He's not terminally ill, he's just driving." "I think you make him nervous." " I think you do." " Me?" "If you don't want to go, what's it to you if we're early?" "We're there." "Look, it's" "It's number 3." "Fuck man." "It's quiet as a crypt." "Seriously, this silence would kill you." "Jesus, let's not go too far." "What do we do if it's not him?" "Then we pay our regrets and split." "More regret than less." "More or less." "Seriously." "Do you know his parents?" "Would you recognize them?" "Once I met his mom." "I went to his house and had to pull a loose tooth." "Sure we'll recognize:" "Mother Dentist." "Did you get off?" " I was 8." "Truth is I was scared of her." "Dani?" " Carmen!" "Hello!" " Hi!" "It's been so long!" " Let's see, at least 2 years?" "Three." "What are you doing here?" "Somebody we know died." "Same for us." "What's the 1st letter?" " What?" "The 1st letter of his name." " Family name?" "No, 1st name." " It's "A"." "Albert Castillo?" " Yeh, Albert Castillo." "No way!" "He was my boyfriend." "I started seeing him when you left me." "Shit!" "How do you know him?" "He went to school with me." " Seriously?" "Heavy." "I don't believe it." "Your friends knew him too?" "Yeh, my friend and Albert had a a a" "A what?" "A championship team." "I'm Francisco." "Dani's friend, and Albert's." "I'm Carmen, Albert's ex-girlfriend." "Well, and Dani's." "I'm Ignacio, a friend of these two, and lots of other people." "But I never knew Albert." " No?" "Hello." "Well, he was a wonderful person." "Have you seen him?" " No." "They say he looks good." " Ah, excellent!" "Are you going out with anyone?" "No." "Did you get my letter?" "Yes." "Very beautiful." "I didn't get yours." "It's just I didn't write one." "Well, it doesn't matter." "Hey Dani, I really liked seeing you." "I have to go." "Ok." "Me, too." "See you later." " Bye." "You went out with her?" "Hey she's really intense." " Yeh, pretty intense." "He stuck his where you stuck yours intense." "This beats your circle-jerk." "What a pig." "Maybe it's not the "Tillo", too coincidental." "Before you were sure, now?" "Jesus." "No, it's scary." "There are 3 Ignacios." " There are a lot of Ignacios." "And 4 Franciscos." " What?" "Don't fuck around." "The day my father died there was someone else with the same name." "That was rough they screw up all the time." "People said: he looks good, he never looked so good." "Sure, how couldn't he look good if they had made a mistake?" "Could those guys be any more thick-headed?" "How could they get that wrong?" "You'd have to be pretty stupid." "Let's go." " I think it'd be best." "I guess so." "#WE LOVE YOU, ALBERT#" "#YOU ARE MY SUN." "ANA.#" "You coming, Dani?" "Something held me back." "I don't know whether it was the morbidity or curiosity or simply because I couldn't stop staring." "The design of these memoriam cards is good." "You're obsessed." "Can you stop thinking of work?" "It's hard to mix an "Our Father" and a crucifix." "You need taste, funerary chic." "Monday I'll bring it to work." " It'll be the bomb." "I hope so." "It clears up nothing for us." "On my father's memoriam it had the names of family." "Once we made a memoriam for a kid named Rubén, and we wrote it "Ben Ur"." "Does anyone look familiar?" "I don't know." "That kid in green could be the one who repeated a year." "Castejón?" "Strange if the only one here was the kid who repeated a year." "Why?" "'Cause he wasn't bright enough to find out?" "No, I just find it strange." " But you find it strange." "We pray to you, Lord." "We pray to you, hear us." "Now we're here, why don't we join in?" "Give us brotherly love." "May peace be with you." " Giving peace is cool." "I like to give peace." "Maybe it's not him." "I'm hungry." " Excuse me, are you friends from school?" "What?" "I'm Cristina, Albert's sister." "Carmen told me you're friends from school." "No, well," " Yes, school." "Yes, well, school." "We didn't have time to notify anyone, but my mother's very happy you came." "Well, I'm sorry for your loss." "Thanks." " I'm sorry for your loss." "I'm sorry." " Thanks." "Are you coming to the cemetery?" "Actually we were thinking" "Not really thinking" " No, well, but we" "What?" " We're not sure." "We're hungry and we thought we'd go for paella." "Sorry it's just" "No, really, we're sorry." "We supposed only family would go to the cemetery." "More intimate, right?" " Yes." "Though I don't know if I really want to go." "I'd prefer going with you guys for paella." "It must seem strange to you." "No, no way." "No, really." "I remember when my father died, that afternoon my mother took us shopping." "I got a t-shirt like nothing had happened." "How old were you?" "Twelve." "How did he die?" "Old age." "He was really old when I was born." "He died of old age." "And Albert?" "How did he die?" "Youth." "He committed suicide." "I suppose he died of being young." "Cris." "Your mother needs you." "Bye." "The design of this menu's really good." "The squid is fighting with the cuttlefish." "It looks more like the cuttlefish is vomiting." "All the better." "Some have genius." "A cuttlefish vomiting a squid." "You need imagination." "Dani, don't worry." "It wasn't him." " I know it wasn't." "Our Albert would never commit suicide." "Why?" "You don't know that." "Yes I do." "The "Tillo" was a vital kid." "He liked football, basketball." "You knew him as a kid, when the whole world's vital." "Can you believe at 12, I played 6 sports?" "Now I fall asleep watching TV." "Once I thought of suicide." "Hey." "Leave it." "Haven't we had enough for today?" "Why?" "Why not talk about death?" "Why is it so scary?" "Everyone wants to talk about work and vacation." "Then they don't travel or get a job." " That happens to me." "But death." "That happens to everyone." "I don't know why people freak out about death." "Know what I remember?" "The day I went back to class after my father's death" "A week had passed." "Only you approached me." "Know what you said?" ""You owe me 100 pesetas."" "His father died and you asked for money?" "I tried to give him normality." " No fucking way!" "Yeh, but I wanted to talk about my dad, not normality." "Now it's the same with this suicide." "Ok, fine." "Why did you think about suicide?" " I don't know." "It was like a logical conclusion, right?" "Know what I mean?" " No." "Yeh, yeh." " So you've thought about it, too?" "You're really defensive." "A ton of people think about it." "Think the world's shit and one fine day they kill themselves." "When I thought of suicide I didn't think the world was shit." "No." "Hey, isn't this paella taking forever?" "That's normal and you know that when you order paella." "Excuse me, when you can..." "Seems that he can't." "The day my father died I did think life was shit." "That day yes." "My jacket bound me, my tie choked me." "All the people overwhelmed me with their kisses and hugs." "I didn't want that." "Hey, Dani." "Could you say good-bye to your father?" "I'm going to the bathroom." " Ok." "Why'd you have to ask him that?" "He's spent all day talking about his dad." "Now I offend him." "Fuck, Ignacio, not offend" "But there are things you don't need to ask." "That question was stupid." "At least I didn't ask him for money he owed me." "Anyway, they ask those questions, right?" "Yeh, man." "But not so long after." "After so many years." "How tactless." "I'll apologize." " When he comes back." "Now?" "It wouldn't be too hasty?" "Better a message surprise some other day." "And where's the fucking paella?" "My father died when I was 12 and I couldn't say goodbye." "I remember we were angry that day and hardly spoke." "It didn't matter to me, we'd fix it at dinner." "That day he left at 12am and never came back for dinner." "More than saying goodbye" "I'd have liked him to be proud of me." "Only once did I have that feeling." "The day I spent 2 hours in goal and didn't let in one shot." "My great day at school." "I saved all sorts of shots, and even a penalty." "I remember he smiled at me and called me champ." ""You're the best."" "The day he died there were sales at the mall." "My mom took us out to shop so no-one would remember him." "As it turns out whenever I go to a mall I remember him." "It's like reliving that day." "The sun shines through my window and my heart is sad watching the city." "Why are you leaving?" "Because when love doesn't die it kills." "Because love that kills never dies" "All my promises of love will leave with you" "You'll forget me, You'll forget me." "And die with you if you kill yourself" "And kill myself with you if you die." "Hey, I'm surprised." "Me, too." "What are you doing here?" "I remembered what you said and I came out for a walk." "How did it go?" " Good." "They placed the tombstone, the bricks, and the people cried." "I guess it went well, as expected." "Good, you're lucky." "With my dad it took them so long to place the bricks that people stopped crying and started to leave." "What music do you like?" "Everything I guess." "Pop, rock, ballads." "And you?" " I like everything, too." "Rock, pop, ballads." " For example?" "Well, Freddie Mercury, Kurt Kobain, and above all Jim Morrison." "They're all dead." "Yeh, that's true." "I suppose that's money I save on concerts, right?" "Look at what I got." "I mean I can't believe it." "You're the worst." "You get a shirt, and what number?" " Well, "L"." "No I mean..." "I had a teacher who always made us write essays of 65 words." "We could only write 65 words." "We would do "The vacation" in 65 words." ""My friends" in 65 words." "Was it too much or too little, 65 words?" "Depends on what you wanted to explain." "Of course, it depends." "Do you have brothers or sisters?" " Brothers?" "Yes, there are 5 brothers and me." "The oldest is 45." "Seriously?" " Yeh." "I don't think they were expecting me, I was my father's last fuck." "Then it was a good fuck." "You're going to make me blush." "You're kidding, right?" " What do you think?" "I don't know." "Will you write me an essay in 65 words?" "Do you want to come to my house tonight?" "I'm meeting with friends to talk about Albert." "A meeting with friends?" " Support group, American style." "He was in Boston for a year and always said how good it was that people there meet after a funeral to talk about the person who died." "Well, I'd like to but" "Come." "I think you'll be the only one from school." "It would be great if you could come." "Yeh, but I'm not the best representative of the school." "Best representative?" "Why?" "Just because, Cristina." "Because your brother and I weren't..." "We weren't in the same class." " It doesn't matter." "You knew him, right?" " Yes." "We were friends but not class-mates." "Good, so come." "Wait here's my address." "See you there." "I have to go prepare things." "At 5 pm, ok?" "Invite your friends if you want." "The design of these towels is great." "Very Dali." "You don't like it?" "Can't you stop analyzing?" " It's just a comment." "Anyway, it looks like they're sun bathing, trying to get a tan." "Can't you shut up for a while?" "Have some silence?" "How was the paella, boys?" " Where were you?" "I went for a stroll." "How was the paella, Ignacio?" "We saved some, but it must be cold." "You brought the left-overs?" " Why throw them?" "It was embarrassing." "Will you eat it or not?" " No." "No big loss." "It was served cold." "That's why I left." "Let's go swim?" " Not till lunch has digested." "That paella was digested when we got it." "Last one in is an ass-hole!" "Last one in is a Little Pistol!" "Tell him." "Dani." "He's sleeping." "Better not." " Hey, Igancio, please." "Dani, Dani." "Before, waiting for the paella," "I said that..." "What did you say?" " That" "About your dad, if you'd said good-bye." "Yeh, and?" "Maybe it wasn't a good moment or the right question to ask." "And I'm sorry." "Brutal." "It was a good moment." " Yeh?" "Yeh, the right question." "You see, a good moment and the right question." "Even if it was a good moment, and the right question, it doesn't mean I always want to talk about it." "You see?" "Yeh, I get it." "It's not the same but" "For me it's hard to talk about a fish I had that died." "When Male died" " His name was Male?" "In the shop they said, "He's male."" "So I called him Male, it's easier." "And what happened to Male?" "Well, he liked to play with me." "I'd put my hand in the tank and he'd play with my fingers." "One day I took a tennis ball can." "Dunlop, I think." "I put some holes in it and put it in the water and he started going through it." "He seemed happy." "Until..." "Until what?" "He did it again and I saw a thread of blood in the water." "Dude, I just finished eating." " I thought I'd cut the ends of the can well." "He died?" "No, no he didn't." "I took him to the vet and they saved him." "But from then on there was hate in his eyes." "He never played with me again." "He was afraid of me." "Must've been hard." " A little, but shit happens." "Worse is when he died a little later." "That day I was playing tennis." "Strange, no?" " Well, yes." "Often I think it was chance, other times that it meant something." "Chance is like that, sometimes it means something more." "Damn man, what a story!" "Want to go to a party?" "Yeh." " But the match starts in 2 hours." "First the party, then the match." "I'm always in for a party." "Right." "But what kind of party?" "A birthday?" "More or less." " A bachelor party?" "With a strip tease." "I even went to one where there was a hooker." "Definitely no hooker, Ignacio." "It's between a bachelor party and a birthday." "But more like the former." "What an ass-hole." "He comes prepared!" "Sneaky!" "Dude is all fresh and ready and us smelling like sweat and salt." "Hey, wait!" "They won't be put off if we bring nothing?" "Well, I have the paella in a doggy-bag." "It might help." "You'd give them the paella?" " Next to chips, paella gets big points." "Right." "You'll be a sensation." "Hi." " I wasn't expecting you." "Wow!" "Cristina invited us." "Is she around?" " In the kitchen." "Come in." "Watch the stairs." "Paella!" "How original." "We're expecting a ton of people, but not you." "Intense!" "Yes, intense!" " Very." "I'm going to explode." "Did you tell anyone else from school?" " There wasn't time." "Too bad." " Yeh." " No problem." "Guys!" "Albert's friends from school." "Hello." " Hi." " Hello." "You're paying us for this, right?" " A bachelor's party my ass." "I know." "Well, I owe you one now." "There's an explanation." "I'll be in the kitchen." "So he splits." "Jerk!" " And leaves us here alone." "Chips?" " Thanks." "Hi." " Hello." "You came." " Yeh." "I came." "Great." "The shirt suits you." " Thanks." "Can I help?" "I made too much food." "I hope everyone shows up." "I'm sure they will." "Some guy's looking at us." "I'm sure he'll come over." "I see him." "So say something." "Break the silence." "The design of these disposable paper plates is incredible." " What?" "I was thinking the same." "I really like it." "You need taste cause they decorate them so we buy them, right?" "But they can't be so nice that we can't toss them after the party." "I agree, they're" "Sober, but with their own life." "Hi." "I'm Lucas." "I met Albert at University." "You guys know him from school, right?" "What shit." "The paella?" "No, I mean everything, the situation." "Well, let's make introductions." "You smell like the sea." " What?" "Like the sea." "Have you been to the beach?" "For a bit." "I had a dip." "Albert loved the sea, the water." "He'd spend the day swimming." "He always smelled like the sea." "When he was young, my mom always said if you got close to Albert you could hear the sea." "Like a shell." "Like a shell!" "Can I listen to you?" "The guys from the gym are here asking about you." "I'll go say hi." "Did I miss something?" " No." "You two know each other?" " No." "I'm going back to the party." "To the..." "I'm thinking about something." "When we were together everyone said you went to a priests' school." "You said not priests', but monks." "Yeh." "Everyone making mistakes." "It's just, Albert didn't go to a religious school at all." "His school was public." "You didn't know him, did you?" "Yes, I did." "How can you say that, Carmen?" "What color was his hair?" "His eyes?" "Did he laugh at jokes?" "Fine, I didn't know him." "But what do you want?" "I like Cristina." "So what, you'll start a relationship with a lie?" "What are you talking about?" "A relationship?" "I thought I knew him." "He had the same name" " Look, I don't care." "Find an excuse and leave." " I'm not going." "Then you tell her you didn't know him or I will." "Those gym guys eat everything." "They want to see pictures of Albert when he was young." "Good idea." "Can you make sandwiches while I get the pictures?" "Do you want to see Albert's room?" "He lived here?" " Yes, we moved out at the same time." "Come, I'll show you." " No, really." "I don't want to bother you." "You're not." "I want to show you." "And your friends are in good company." "I'm Oscar, a classmate from the Faculty of Law." "Wow." "So many names to remember." "Really." "Yeh." "Hard to remember." "Andrés, right." " No, Pedro." "And you two, what are your names?" "Francisco from" "From school." "And Ignacio, from school, too." "Albert's school." "He never talked about University at school." "Since we hadn't gone yet." "He talked about pre-school." "He said the school years were great." "Always telling stories that got us laughing." "Yeh." "Us, too." "The one about the dog that sneaked onto the balcony was great." "The dog story was classic." "Yeh, was the dog story true?" "The one with the dog?" "Yes, the one with the dog was great, but I wasn't there that day." "I was sick that day." "But Ignacio was there." "Ignacio never got sick." "He should explain it." "Yes, I was very healthy." "The one with the dog?" "It was a good one." "Well, yes, we're talking about the peak, the peak in the school's history." "Nothing was better than that." "Well, I don't know if he told you about the fish and the Dunlop balls." "The fish and the Dunlop balls?" "No, never." "He didn't?" "That's much better than the dog." "He told his friends all the time." "Were you good friends of his?" " Yes, quite." "Ok, I'll tell you." "We had a fish in class called Male." "We all took care of him, we put our hands in the fishbowl and he touched them." "Let's go sit down, don't you think?" "Sit down." "It should be around." "He loved shoving everything under the bed." "He drove mom crazy." "Take a keepsake, if you want to." "He would be happy about that." "No, no, really." "Nice film." "Beautiful." "Let's go." "This is the incredible part." "The day the male fish died," "Albert was playing tennis." "And he was playing with me." "Here are the pictures." "Let's see them." "They are mixed, you know how Albert was." "Yes, it's true." "Look, this one was his favorite." "And this one is for Carnival, as an Indian." "He loved to dress as an Indian," "Do you remember, Dani?" " Yes, yes." "This one is very funny." "My dad wanted us to pose beside the TV sets." "We have a lot of pictures beside a Sony, a Phillips, a Telefunken." "He's with Carmen in this one." "You look great in this picture." "It was in Germany, wasn't it?" "Here he's in front of his favorite cinema, he loved to go to this cinema." "I remember one day I went with him." "The cinema was full, the seats were unnumbered and right in front of us there was an empty row with only a little girl keeping it." "Older people started coming and when they tried to sit the girl defended the row fiercely with a couple jackets she had spread on the 14 seats." "Then the usher arrived and told her she couldn't save the seats." "Albert stood up and supported the girl." "He didn't let them take any of her seats." "It was great." "He's so brave." "He was so brave." "Yes." "Albert was very brave and very honest." "He always said what he thought." "He always did what he thought was best." "We should get going, shouldn't we?" "But you just arrived." " Yes, but we have to go," "I'm sorry." "Thanks for everything." "Thanks for everything." " Thanks for everything." "I'm a coward." "People think he was brave." "I pretend to be brave, but deep down I'm a coward." "And this cowardice has made leave Cristinas house without even telling the truth." "We didn't talk about what happened." "We only headed to Camp Nou" "I'm sure none of us felt like going to the football match," "but we wanted our Sunday back, the normal typical Sunday that made us feel confident." "I think we would have been friends." " What?" "Albert Castillo could have been a good friend of ours." "Why do you say so?" " Because of the information." "What information?" "The information, we know a lot about him." "He liked playing basketball, he was fun, brave." "He left the same girl as you, he loved being an Indian and I loved being a Cowboy." "It's a lot of coincidences." "Do you believe in coincidences?" " Sometimes." "Have you ever fallen in love?" " Many times." "No, Ignacio." "I mean fall in love, for real." "Well, a couple of years ago, when I worked at the toll, remember?" "About two in the afternoon a yellow car used to come, and an unknown hand came out and it was a small hand, moving in a special way." "What did the girl look like?" " I don't know." "I never saw her." "I saw the hand move everyday, it gave me 1 euro and I gave the change." "That moment when the hands touched," "I was completely in love." "But you never saw the face?" "No, I didn't dare looking down." "The best moment was when I opened the toll." "She left and waved her hand." "Like this, and honking." "Not a lot of people said goodbye." "Worst of all I fell most deeply in love with a hand." "Motherfucker!" "Send him off!" "Send him off!" "That guy is an asshole." " He deserves a red card." "Come on, come on." "I fell madly in love with a boy who lived next to my place." "He was a funny guy, he chew his pencils, he ate them completely." "I never said anything to him but sometimes I stole his pencils." "But I never said anything." "Shit!" "And you, have you fallen in love?" "No." " What do you mean?" " No." "And Carmen?" " I never loved her, it was an affair." "It's always been affairs, I've never fallen in love." "You fell in love with the first one." "The first love is true." "Short." " Momentary, but true." "Yes, what was her name?" "Whose?" " The one we met at the disco." "She was your first girlfriend." " Carolina." "I had to dance a lot to get her to kiss me." "She kissed me on the eighth song." " Why don't you call her?" "Yes, ask her if she remembers how in love you were." "Do you want me to call her and say:" ""I'm your first boyfriend, I was really in love with you."" "Goal!" "Goal!" "Fuck, again." " Fuck off." "He should tell us if he goes to the bathroom." "He should tell us." "Hi, mom." "Have you had lunch?" " I'm not hungry." "I knew I had to save you some food." "I don't have the time, really." "I'll wrap it." "What are you looking for?" "Nothing." "Did you get another T-shirt?" "You make a wash for a single T-shirt and then you get a new one." "It's a long story with the T-shirt." "Have you seen my address book?" " What address are you looking for?" "Carolina's." "Remember?" "She was my girlfriend." "She was very nice." "I can't find her number." "Have you seen my address book?" " No, I haven't." "But I have her number, I called her mom once." "Moms do that." "You saved my life, mom." "Why did you take us to the mall?" "Because" "I don't know, you'll think it's silly." "Why did we go, mom?" "I needed to smell him." "I left you all at the music store, went to the perfume shop, bought his perfume, put it on and felt him with me." "They even gave me a T-shirt with it." "Remember I gave it to you?" "Yes, yes, I remember." "Let's go find the number and I'll wrap some food for you." "I'm sure you'll be hungry." "Let's go." "What if he comes back?" " If he does, fuck him." "We can't be waiting for him like two suckers." "5 more minutes." "He'll be back." " He could have told us." "5 more minutes, then we leave." "Have you ever thought of looking for the girl in the yellow car?" "No, no, I haven't." "Did you really never say anything to the pencil boy?" "No, I didn't dare." "What's up, boys?" "We won." "Aren't you leaving?" "We're leaving in five minutes." "The design of the drum is great." "Really, it's not easy." "Carolina worked at the cinema where Albert had been a hero." "It had to be that way." "Dani!" " Hi." "How are you doing?" " How are you?" "Fine." "It's been a long time." " Yes." " Your mom said you'd be here." "I work here on Sundays." "Can we talk for a minute?" " Of course." "Sit down and I'll be right back." "What are you doing here?" "Did you come to see the film or me?" "The film." " Sure." "How are things?" " Fine." "Are you with someone?" " Not now, and you?" "Yes, I'm with Pablo." "Do you remember him?" "No." " He went to your school." "Fine, he went to my school." "He was a couple years older than you." "And he dances much better than you do." "Stop it with that!" "Do you still dance to get kisses?" "Do you still kiss to get dances?" "What's up?" "What do you want?" "I've had the weirdest day." "In the morning I went to the wrong funeral and then bumped into an ex." "Then I think I fell in love and I was at your place, where we first got together." "It must seem absurd to you." "It does." "It wasn't at my place where we first got together." "What do you mean?" " I swear." "Fuck, where was it?" " Can't you remember?" "Can you remember?" "No, don't say any more." "I won't tell you." " It bothers you I don't remember." "No, does it bother you that I do?" " No." "I have to go or I'll be in trouble." "Can I ask you a question?" "Did you feel I loved you?" "I didn't." " You didn't?" "You were never in love with me." "Yes, I was." " No, I don't think so." "How can you be so sure?" " Because you can tell." "What do you want from me?" " I don't know." "What was the song when we first kissed?" "The Italian one." "How was it?" "Ragazzo." " That's what you called me." "My Ragazzo." "It was in a bathroom, right?" " Yes, Ragazzo." " Yes." "And we did it three times." "No, ragazzo." "In your dreams." "What's wrong, Dani?" "What if I am not able to love?" "What if I'm like the pawn, and my maximum move in love is one step forwards, just one step?" "I'm not like the rook, or the knight, or the bishop, just a pawn." "Then you won't be able to take the queen." "Go ahead, just for once, and see what happens." "Thank you." "All you need to change your life is advice." "Sometimes" "Sometimes it's enough to hear what you're thinking." "And sometimes you think the truth can get you to a higher stage." "I haven't told the truth a lot, that was different for me." "Hi." " Come in." " It was something new." "I was tiding up." "It's late and you've had a tough day, but can I talk to you?" "Sure." "Sit down." "I'll be right there." "A lot of people came in the end." "I didn't expect them." " That's good, I'm glad to hear that." "There were so many people I didn't know it was a surprise party" "and all of a sudden he would come in and we'd say, "Surprise!"." "Would you like something to drink?" " No." "Or to eat?" "There's even paella, someone brought it." "No, thanks." "Look, you can't justify lies." "A friend of Albert's I didn't know brought a CD he had borrowed years ago." "Did he?" " Yes." "Albert thought he had lost it." "And we found it the day we lost him." "Cristina." " I think you'll like it, it's one of the dead singers you like." "Yes, but I came to say something." "Sorry, I can't keep my mouth shut." "What is it?" "It's hard to justify a lie, but sometimes you lie or do stupid things without knowing why." "And sometimes the lie is worse than the truth." "Did you lie to me?" " Let me explain." "What did you lie about?" "I didn't know your brother," "I don't know what he looks like, or what he is like, we didn't attend the same school," "I mistook him for someone else." "At our school there was a boy called Albert Castillo." "We thought it was him, but we saw it wasn't." "Cristina I wish I had met him." "You didn't know Albert?" "No." "It was a misunderstanding." " Give me the T-shirt back." "Go!" "I don't know who you are." "I don't believe your father died." "I had just lost her and I had just fallen in love." "Every time I lose something I realize I need it." "The day I lost my father" "I realized how much I needed him." "He died in his car, it wasn't an accident, he died of old age." "He died of old age." "The car wasn't even running." "Sitting in this seat, behind this steering wheel." "And somehow sitting here, behind this steering wheel, is the only thing of his I have." "Sometimes I still like doing stuff with him, like when we watched the washer together." "I have nothing left of Cristina's." "I lost her and even lost her T-shirt." "I hate losing everything I get." "I hate having something and knowing I'll lose it, or I'll devalue it myself." "Someone's at the door." "Wait, I have an idea." "But I'm cooking you dinner." "You could get the door." "I'm very inspired." " You're really lazy, man." "It's your place." " And don't burn that." "The one who disappeared." "Dani, say something before you leave, we waited for an hour." "Would you like some pasta?" " Where's the T-shirt?" "It's gone." "It was all a coincidence." "It wasn't that nice, the design was simple." "I don't mean the T-shirt." "I mean Cristina, Albert's sister." " What happened?" "I told her the truth and she's upset." "What can I do?" "Forget her." "That's the best." "I adore her." "How can you?" "You just met her." "I just met her but it feels like she really knows me." "I adore her." "Didn't you adore the pencil boy?" "That's different." " Because you let him go." "You should have talked to him." "Find him, look at him in the eye and tell him you adored him." "You can't miss that opportunity." "I adored you." "What?" " I adored you." "Me?" "Fuck." "You stole the pencils I chewed?" "I think I'd better go." "Hey, I adored him, but not any more." "Why did you stop adoring me?" "I don't know, I guess you changed." "What do you mean?" "I didn't change." "I put on some weight." "Or is it my hair?" "No, that's not it." "Love fluctuates." "Yes, but I wasn't a whim, you said you adored me." "Yes, but I don't know." "In a relationship there's a peak." "There's a highest moment and you can feel it." "When I was at that peak, I liked keeping your pencils because it was you who chewed them." "If I adored someone" "I would like to watch the washer with her." "What?" " You're really crazy." "Go see her, or call her, and tell her about your feelings." "And if I can't think of what to say?" "Then, write it." "There was only one place to inspire me." "Now the chapel seemed different." "It looked bursting with life." "With the pencil from Ignacio to a foto of Albert Castillo." "I spent the whole night writing." "Looking for words that could express what I was feeling." "It was my first writing, I wanted, wished it to be special." "Are you the tow-truck?" " Yes, yes." "You left your lights on, right?" " Yes." "It's common." "Don't worry, it'll be ready in a minute." "Unless it's completely run down." "You're Dani, aren't you?" "Dani Martí?" "Yes." "Do I know you?" "We went to school together, do you remember me?" "Albert Castillo." "Tillo!" "Nobody has called me that in ages." "I can't believe it." "Tillo." " Tillo." "Are you doing OK?" " Yes." "Your car isn't doing so well." "Your battery is dead." "I can go get a new one." "No, I'm in a hurry, can you take me somewhere?" "Of course." " I'm really happy to see you." "My brother died, do you remember him?" "You played with him." "A car crash, these things happen." "And now I like my job," "I feel useful starting dead cars." "My mom will be happy when I tell her I saw you, she remembers the tooth she wanted to take out." "I didn't talk, just listened." "In the 12 minutes we were driving, I got to know him more than in 12 years at school." "It's here." "We should go out for dinner." " Great, thanks." "See you." "Why do I love you, in 65 words." "I love you because you understand how I am." "I love you because I can tell you what I can't tell anyone else," "because my life beside you will be meaningful and full." "Because you asked what was my age when my father died and nobody had ever asked before." "I love you because I'd like to..." "What would you like?" "I couldn't write it," "I run out of words." "65 is too few." "Yes, it's not many." "Why did Albert commit suicide?" "I wanted to ask you since I saw you at the chapel, but" "I wanted to act normal." "Albert killed himself for a lost love." "He was in love with a girl," "she was with him for a while and then left him." "He couldn't stand not being her ragazzo anymore." "Her what?" "She called him ragazzo." "And he didn't want to stop being her ragazzo." "She was my girlfriend." " Who?" "The girl who called him ragazzo." "It could be someone else." "It's her, I know." "Your brother and I were similar." "Carmen was my girlfriend too." "I knew." "You did?" "She told me." "You know what the worst part of Albert's death was?" "Not being able to say goodbye?" "Yes, not being able to say goodbye." "It was the same with my father." "You might think it's weird, but meeting you today has been like being able to say goodbye." "You're very much like Albert." "If I hadn't met you today" "I would have crumbled instantly." "Do you know what I would like?" "What I couldn't write." "I'd like to watch the washing with you." "Yes." "I swear I never saw it with a girl," "because I never loved anyone the way I love you." "You want to watch the washer with me?" "Do you want to?" "Yes, I do." " Do you have one?" " I do." "Upstairs." "Have you ever felt so happy, so, so happy," "you thought you'd never be happier?" "For the 65 minutes it took to wash the T-shirt, we said 59 words." "Cristina said the last 5." "I can hear the sea." "I have felt so happy." "For the 65 minutes I saw the dawn with Cristina it spun and it smelled like soap." "Have you ever felt so happy so, so happy" "it was not worth going on?" "He's really late." "There was hardly any traffic the way he usually comes." "No." "Maybe the police stopped him." "It's normal." "It happened to me last week." "Don't lie." "It didn't happen to you." "Fuck, there's a 103 year old guy." "They die older and older." "I've been thinking about the pencils." "About what?" " The pencils." "Here." "For your collection." "I chewed it conscientiously today." "Thanks." "Shit, look." "Daniel Martí." "Died in Barcelona at the age of 23." "His family" "Will be held today at Les Corts." "Fuck." "Shit." "It can't be our Dani, can it?" "No, no, it's But what a coincidence." "Yes, yes." "I'm sure he'll be here in a minute and he'll laugh." "He will die laughing." "#YOUR LIFE IN 65 WORDS#"