"I keep sneaking into the lab, checking on the embryo." "Checking for what?" "I don't know." "I guess..." "Just standing watch?" "That sounds ridiculous, right?" "It doesn't sound ridiculous." "It sounds maternal." "♪ ooh ♪" "♪ you're pissing me off ♪" "♪ ooh, but your hair is so luxurious ♪" "Hey." "Hey, uh, where do you think you're going?" "I gotta go into work and write up some consults." "Hey, have you seen my cell?" "I can't find it." "Uh..." "Uh, you were sitting on Amelia's deck..." " Oh, yeah." " Where you had it last night." "Yeah, I'll swing by and get it before I go in." " And don't forget..." " Mm." "We have Violet's thing this morning." "Mm-hmm." "Okay." "Mm." "Mm." "Mm." "♪ Well, your looks had me putty in your hand now ♪" "Okay, I can't do this." "I can't do this." " Mm." "Come on." "Come on." "Come on." " No." "No, no, no." "I got some condoms." "I promise I'll stay far away from your injection site." " We can" " That's... very chivalrous of you, but, um, I can't, because, uh, I can't have sex for two days before I get..." "Impregnated." "Well, technically, it's implanted, but yes." "And that's tomorrow?" "Yeah." "Okay." "All right." "I understand." "Okay." "♪ Yeah ♪" "Mm." "♪ Everybody tells me ♪" "♪ ooh ♪" "♪ I need to let go ♪" "♪ I know ♪" "♪ but your cocoa butter skin now ♪" "Hello." "Hi." "I could get used to this view." "Mm." "I'm Addison." "And you?" "Ryan, uh, Amelia's friend." "How do you do?" "Morning, Addie." "Good morning." "Ahem." "I see you met Ryan." "Yes." "So no surgeries this morning?" "♪ Please, baby ♪" "Surgeries?" "I thought we were going back to bed." "Yeah, I'll-- I'll be there in a sec." "♪ Yeah, you can walk your cold heart, baby ♪" "♪ right out of my life ♪" "♪ so long ♪" "Taking the day off." "Really?" "Well, look at him." "If I canceled work every time I met a hot guy..." "I'll call you later, okay?" "♪ Keep on walkin' now ♪" "♪ so long, you did me wrong ♪" "♪ leave me alone ♪" "Mm." ""Welcome back iolet"?" "There was no sign, no "do not touch" or "these are for the party."" "The sign is on the cupcakes, Sheldon." "Hey." "Sam has rounds." "Where's everyone else?" "Oh, Pete's covering a shift in the E.R." "What about Amelia?" "I called her this morning." "I never heard back." "Well, she's at home." "Sick?" "No, she's, uh, shacked up with this very handsome guy." "What guy?" "His name is Ryan." "So she's playing hooky with this Ryan guy, and-- and you're just letting her?" "I'm not her mother, Sheldon." "I'm sure she'll be back tomorrow." "I'm not so sure." "What do you mean?" "Well, she quit." "What?" "We had a disagreement about punctuality and her lack of it, and she elected to resign from the hospital." "Violet." "Violet." "Violet." "Surprise!" "Surprise!" "Thanks, you guys." " Oh!" " We missed you around here." "(Sheldon) I know your patients will be thrilled." " Oh, not as thrilled as I am." "Mm." " Hi." "I gotta go to the E.R. Welcome home." "Thank you." ""Welcome back olet"?" "What?" "We already yelled "surprise."" "Set the vent on FIO2 of 100, rate of 26." "What happened?" "Shannon Iverson." "She's one of my patients." "Motor vehicle accident." "Severe blunt head trauma." "Absent corneal reflex." "She's carrying a 16-week-old fetus." "Mom have any brain activity?" "None." "And she's not breathing without the ventilator." "Okay, fetal heart rate looks strong." "Looks like she's still carrying a healthy baby boy." "Hey." "Thanks for calling." "Is this Shannon?" "You know her?" "She's an organ donor, Jake." "Yeah, my patient needs her heart." "I worked with Shannon and her husband for four years, multiple rounds of I.V.F. This baby is their miracle." "A 16-week-old miracle who's not yet viable." "My patient has cardiomyopathy" "Status 1A, desperately needs a new heart." "So you do a risky transplant on your patient." "If she's lucky, she gets what, ten years?" "This baby can have a full life." "If it even survives." "The mother's brain-dead." "Can the baby make it?" "It's a long shot." "But it is possible?" "It's possible, yes, but it doesn't justify turning the mother into a human incubator." "So what, you'd rather just pull the plug on this woman?" "Would I rather?" "No." "But the reality is, she probably won't survive long enough to bring the baby to viability, and even if she does, the placental blood flow and fetal oxygenation might be compromised, both of which are critically important to the fetus." "She signed the donor card so she could save a lot of people with her organs." "And I know this woman wants this baby more than anything." "Well, she's not gonna be around to raise it." "But her husband can." "Well, where is he?" "They're taking some time apart." "Actually, it's been about a year." "The stress of the fertility treatments was really hard on them, so Doug took off, and Shannon's been trying on her own." "Okay." "So the husband's not in the picture, and she's-- she's brain-dead." "Why are you fighting this?" "The point is moot." "Without a family member to make an affirmative decision, the hospital has to rely on the intent of the donor card." "In 24 hours, we'll do a repeat EEG, certify brain death, and Shannon becomes a donor." "What if I find Doug?" "You better do it fast." "Hey." "Hey." "Is everything all right?" "Well, I drove Mason to school this morning, only we get there, and no school." "There was no school?" "Well, there's a school." "Open it is not." "She talks like Yoda when she's stressed." "Someone, who shall rename nameless, forgot to mention it's teacher planning day." "So hang out with Mason today I must." "I will pick him up around 6:30." "At my place." "But it'll just be you hanging out with him, right?" "No Charlotte?" "Right." "Right." "Okay." "You ever built a fort made out of tongue depressors?" "No." "Mm-hmm." "I brought you the "O"." "Thanks." "I'm still digesting the "V" and the "I."" "Uh..." "How's it feel, being back?" "Oh, it's a relief." "I really missed being here." "And I had enough of being at home." "Do you want to talk about that?" "No." "I-I just want to get back to work." "Okay." "So, uh, one of the requirements for, uh, reinstating my license is to have a period of practice supervision." "Well, I'd" " I'd be honored." "I mean, if-- if you're asking me." "I am." "You know, I've supervised a few therapists before." "Just so you understand, it's more of a formality." "Just dotting the I's, crossing the T's." "Actually, it's, uh, a little bit more than that." "You know, it can be a valuable experience for therapists who want to shake the rust off, provided both parties take it seriously, of course." "Of course." "It's gonna be fun." "Should we have the, uh, carnitas or the al pastor?" "Both." "Then you can have me again." "Hey, Amelia." "Hi." "Uh..." "What are you doing here?" "We're getting tacos." "Uh, this is Mason." "Mason, this is Dr. Shepherd." "Nice to meet you." "Hey." "Mason's my son." "How you doing, man?" "We just washed our hands." "Whatever." "You doing okay?" "Why wouldn't I be?" "No, I just heard that you quit your job and you're hanging out with some guy." "His name is Ryan and he's great." "And did Ryan quit his job, too?" "Okay, don't start getting all judgmental." "You knocked up some random chick in a bar parking lot." "Hey." "Really, Amelia?" "Sorry." "Enjoy your tacos." "Yeah." "She doesn't really seem like a doctor." "Yeah, I know." "Sam, you, uh, you paged me?" "Yeah, just wanted you to meet the Schaeffers." "Dr. Reilly, this is Mike." "He's a med student." "Studies way more than I ever did." "And here we have JJ." "He's gonna be a nurse." "Shut up." "And this..." "I'm Lee Ann." "It's nice to meet you, Dr. Reilly." "Same here." "Are you on the transplant team, too?" "Do-- do you think we'll get the heart today?" "I can't wait to go back to taking care of my kids again." "Instead of the other way around." "Listen, great meeting you guys." "Um, if you'll excuse me," "I have to have a word with Dr. Bennett outside for a minute." "What the hell was that?" "Well, I just thought it was important for you to meet them." "Or maybe you just thought you could guilt me into changing my mind." "Jake, if Lee Ann doesn't get that heart in the next day or two, it's not just her life that's destroyed." "Those kids" " They need her." "You know, I'm not a first-year intern, Sam." "I'm your colleague and your friend." "And that?" "That was not cool." "Gentlemen, meet my son Mason." "Pleased to meet you." "Clearly, he has his mother's manners." "Hey, I'm Pete." "I'm Sheldon." "Why are you all smiling at me?" "Well, you're such a..." "Mini Cooper." "Yeah, I know." "New hire?" "Hi." "I'm Mason." "Cooper's my dad." "Hello." "I'm Addison." "We went for tacos." "You want one?" "Uh, yes, that would be lovely." "Thank you." "Oh, yeah, and we bumped into" "Amelia and..." "Ryan." "What's he like?" "Handsome but shiftless." "Mason." "I don't even know what it means." "You said it in the car." "Well, I shouldn't have." "So Amelia's skipping work, she's hanging out with this guy." "You think she's, um..." "Eating tacos again?" "Eating tacos?" "You know, she has a history." "With tacos-- She doesn't digest them well." "Oh, right, right." "Yeah, uh, well, um, I don't know, but I suspect that she is..." "Drinking soda again." "Soda or margaritas?" "Because I think we can say "margaritas."" "Okay, well, fine." "She's drinking margaritas." "Are you sure?" "Have you seen it?" "Well, she looked pretty hungover this morning." "But you didn't see any taco usage?" "Margaritas are bad enough, but if it's tacos, she could be in big trouble." "I think tacos are good." "But, mm, that doctor kinda looked like a druggie to me." "So your boyfriend just blindsided me." "What are you talking about?" "Paged me to his patient's room so I could meet the woman who needs a heart, listen to her two boys thank me for helping her." "Okay, that doesn't sound like Sam." "Yeah, it surprised me, too." "Well, maybe you misunderstood his intentions?" "Oh, I doubt that." "Look, he wants Shannon's heart." "He's gonna do anything he can to get it." "Addison." "I'm sorry." "I don't have time to talk about this right now." "I've got something to do." "Two years I worked on that case." "Two years of nights and weekends and "sorry, I can't make it to dinner" excuses to my family..." "Then that bastard screws me out of the trial because suddenly it seemed winnable." "How'd that make you feel?" "Pissed." "I was frustrated." "Well, it must have been very painful to have something you worked so hard on get taken away." "And he took credit for all of my work." "You know, I had that happen to me once." "It was, uh, a paper that I'd written, and my supervisor..." "W-when I find myself in a situation where my professional space is not being respected, it's important for me to re" "Deep-breathing exercises are an effective way of handling unexpected stress." "Let's try one now, shall we?" "Deep breath." "Ready?" "Bring it." "Oh, my God." "Amelia." "Hey, you're back." "You wanna join?" "No." "Your loss." "We need to talk." "Now." "I'll just..." "Go get some more limes." "You don't want to talk." "You want to lecture, and honestly, I'm not in the mood." "It's a beautiful day, most of which I have spent having mind-blowing sex with a guy who looks like he walked off a Calvin billboard." "I think you're in trouble, Amelia." "Well, if this is trouble, you should try it." "I'm worried about you and I love you, and we are family, and family looks out for each other." "We stopped being family when you started sleeping with my brother's best friend while you were still married." "I'm not the enemy." "I'm just trying to help you." "Well, consider yourself off the hook." "Ryan, we're leaving." "Okay, what's happening?" "She dropped her sats." "Couldn't ventilate her." "All right, delayed breath sounds on the right side." " I'm gonna put in a chest tube." " No offense, Dr. Reilly, but when was the last time you did that?" " It's been a while." " We're just delaying the inevitable here." "I spoke to her husband." "He's flying in from London." "What we need to do is keep her alive until he gets here." "Tube's ready." "Wait." "Wait." "Wait." "This is insane." " Sam." " What's insane is you ambushing me with Lee Ann and her family." "Just wanted you to see what the other side of this" " looks like." " What about Shannon's husband's side, hmm?" "What about his?" "Okay." "This woman is gone, Jake." "My patient is at the top of the UNOS list, waiting for her heart, and you're just worried about her husband's feelings." "All it's gonna do is cost my patient her life." "Her husband doesn't have that right, and neither do you." "So what kind of doctor are you?" "I'm a neurosurgeon." "Seriously?" "I could cut into your brain right now for kicks." "In this hotel room?" "Wow." "What about you?" "What's your story?" "Me?" "Okay." "I'm overprivileged, overfunded, undermotivated." "Kind of the opposite of a doctor." "You're saying, you're unemployed but you got bank." "I'm saying, I'm the family disappointment, but yeah, you could put it that way, too." "I was the family disappointment once upon a time." "Actually..." "I think this week, I probably am again." "I like you, Amelia." "I don't want to drag you down." "Into your unemployed, overprivileged misery?" "I'm a pillhead." "It's kind of all I do, and I know I'm probably gonna have to do something about it someday soon, but the truth is, I haven't got that much left to lose." "You're a doctor." "You've worked really hard for that." "And you're smart and beautiful." "And I like you enough to tell you that you should probably go to work or something, you know?" "Because if you lose your job, who's gonna write us refills?" "Four pages of notes on one session?" "Really, Sheldon?" "Feedback is an essential part of re-immersion into your practice." "Don't you think you're taking this a little too seriously?" "Maybe you're not taking it seriously enough." "What does that mean?" "Personal anecdotes, talking about your own life" "Patients can do that with their friends, but you're a therapist." "It is effective." "It establishes rapport." "Trust." "Self-disclosure should only be used as a last resort" "I cannot believe you are judging my methodology." "Well, that's what I get for even thinking of asking you to monitor me." "No, that's what you get for thinking I'd be an easy "a."" "There is a process to reinstatement, Violet." "I'm following it." "A little too aggressively." "Hey, you came to me." "I'm not gonna sugarcoat my opinion." "Fine." "I'm not gonna sugarcoat mine." "Because we're friends, I'm going to leave that out of my report" "Ugh!" "I cannot be this bad at this." "Are you cheating?" "Since when do we own that?" "Since... today you're early home from work." "I thought you had a staff meeting at the hospital." "Canceled." "Game, set match." "Charlotte, Mason." "Mason, Charlotte." "I saw your picture in Cooper's office." "You're his wife, right?" "I am indeed." "Prettier in person." "Well, you got your daddy's gift for smooth talk." "That's for sure." "You wanna play?" "Cooper kinda sucks." " Hey!" " You're on." "Oh, nice." "Sorry I'm late." "I got held up at work." "But I really appreciate your..." "Mom." "It's been such a cool day." " Get your backpack." " But, mom" "Get your backpack and just wait for me outside." "I ask one thing" " Keep your wife away from my child." "I didn't know" " It's not his fault." "I came home early." " I wasn't talking to you." "The last time I checked, you were in my house." "Not anymore." "Okay, let's not do this, okay?" "Come" "Thanks for making me the bad guy." " Can I say good-bye to Mason?" " No." "She ever gonna let me off the hook?" "Oh, give her some time." "Let her get to know you." "Does she seem like a woman who wants to get to know me?" "♪" "Didn't you have another bottle?" "It's gone." "What about your stash?" "It's gone." "Concierge." "She'll make a drugstore run." "I forgot to pack my prescription pads." "Oh, well." "The party's over." "It's not over until I say it's over." "You're hot when you're bossy." "Okay, hold that thought." "I'll be right back." "♪ asleep in my arms ♪" "You're the woman of my dreams, Dr. Shepherd!" "Your fertility doctor is out of his mind." "And the other side weighs in." "She has no brain function, she can't breath on her own." "Yes, it's a tragedy, but Jake" " He won't accept it." "Well, you know, he's attached to Shannon the way you're attached to Lee Ann." "You both are just trying to be the best doctors you can." "Whatever." "Let's just-- Let's just go to bed." "You know, I, um..." "I'm gonna sleep down here tonight." "What?" "Don't tell me you're-- Are you mad at me?" " Because" " No." "No, no, no." "Not at all." "I just" " I have that, you know, feeling I get where I can't wait for you to walk through the door, and then now you're angry and for some reason," "I find that ridiculously sexy, and I just don't trust myself." "Trust yourself to do what?" "To go upstairs but not have sex with you." "Oh, I won't complain." "But Jake will." "Well, you know, there are other things we could do and still follow doctor's orders." "Really?" "Yeah." "Like what?" "What do you have in mind?" "Well, I could... ♪ Oh, lover ♪" "♪ lover ♪" "♪ Oh, lover ♪" "Police." "Put your hands in the air." "I'm a doctor." "I work here." "Hands in the air." "Now." "When are you coming to bed?" "When I finish writing notes on my patient charts from today." "Since when do you do that?" "Since Sheldon is reviewing them tomorrow." "He's reviewing your charts now?" "He's driving me insane." "He's using this patient monitoring to pick apart everything I do." "I'm sure that's not what he means." " He's probably just" " Oh, good." "Yeah." "No, that's good." "Take his side." "Did you tell him to back off?" "I would like to tell him that." "I would like to tell him a lot of things." "And all I want to do is be there for my patients and do good work, both of which I thought I was doing when I wrote my book." "Every day since my suspension, I've thought about what I did and how it affected everybody, and I've..." "Punished myself more than the medical board ever could." "And now it is so close to being over, but I still can't get my life back." "We had a life, you know, before?" "And I just..." "I just want it back." "I'm Dr. King." "I'm on call for the practice." "The silent alarm went off." "I forgot to turn it off." "You know that happens all the time." "I told them who I am, but they won't listen." "She didn't have any ID, so we need you to confirm whether she actually works here." "This is Dr. Shepherd." "Just like I said." "I'm sorry for the trouble." "I can take it from here." "Sorry for the misunderstanding." "What'd you steal?" "Spare me the drama, Charlotte." "When I left the other day," "I grabbed my purse, forgot my wallet." "What the hell are you doing?" "Cut the crap and give me your prescription pad." "I know that's what you came here for." "It's mine." "I didn't do anything wrong." "How many prescriptions were you gonna write tonight?" "Screw you, Charlotte." "You're not going anywhere." "What's your plan?" "You gonna call the cops?" "'Cause I'm pretty sure they were just here, and you told them you'd handle it, so handle it." "You don't see what's happening." "You can't." "Please." "Let me help you." "Get out of my way." "Stay out of my life." "It's worse than I thought it was" "Maybe, uh, maybe a lot worse." "She could wind up dead, Charlotte." "I just" " I was trying to protect her." "If Amelia gets arrested, they're gonna take away her license." "You could've called someone." "You should've called me." "Okay, she said she made a mistake." "The question is, what do we do now?" "I don't think there's anything we can do." "Until Amelia wants our help" "She isn't in any position to ask for it, Violet." "It doesn't mean she doesn't need it." "So Amelia has had this problem before?" "She struggled for a long time." "Oh, come on." "Let's just call it what it is." "She's an addict." "Right now she is in a bad place, and she doesn't seem to care." "So make her care." "Suspend her until she gets serious about this." "I'm willing to do whatever it takes," " but first she needs to show up." " Or we go out and find her." "Do you have any idea how?" "I have some friends in the police department" "I can talk to, off the record." "The problem is Amelia doesn't want to be found." "We just have to hope she comes to her senses before something terrible happens." "Yes, if you do hear from her, Juliette, could you call me?" "Yes." "Okay." "Thank you." "I can't just sit around here while Amelia's just" "God knows where" " Do..." "Do you know I called the morgue?" "She might be more than just missing, Pete." "She-- she could be dead." "O-okay, don't get ahead of yourself, Sheldon." "Okay, I'm just gonna" " I'm just gonna keep making calls." "Okay, yeah, of course." "Okay." "But can I-I actually came here to talk to you about Violet." "She was up all night working on her charting, which, as you know, is not her thing." "Yes, well, even though it should be." "Well, I have a hard time believing it's gonna make her a better therapist, but she is doing everything she can to please you, so" "Amelia's dropped off the face of the earth, Pete." "Violet staying up a little late to fulfill what is, after all, her professional responsibility, doesn't seem all that important in comparison." "It's important to me." "I'm surprised to hear you say that, given your attitude of late." "She's my wife, Sheldon, and we are working through... a lot." "I'm allowed to be critical of her, just the way she's allowed to be critical of me." "It's a fair fight." "It might be a stupid fight, but it's a fair one." "But you-- you are just using this position of authority to push her around, and Violet deserves better than that." "Did Violet ask you to come here?" "No." "Defending Violet is a big step for you." "It's nice work." "Hey." "I spit on a kid once." "I'm sorry." "What?" "This little 6 year old spit on Mason on the playground." "He was only 3, and she was a real..." "She was a bully, and I spit right back at her." "You spit on a 6 year old?" "One of the worst things I've ever done." "And still, I don't regret it." "I was protecting my son." "I was standing up for my son." "I think maybe that's what your wife was thinking when she handed me that check and asked me to leave town." "I think she thought she was standing up for you." "It's messed up." "But, um..." "She doesn't seem like a monster." "She's not." "Okay." "Can I say hi to Mason?" "Yeah." "Uh, excuse me." "I got a call about my wife, Shannon Iverson." "I'm Dr. Bennett." "What happened?" "I mean, I know about the accident, but..." "Shannon's being kept alive on a ventilator, and she..." "I'm afraid there's not a lot of hope for a meaningful recovery." "And the baby?" "She's carrying a fetus that's about 16 weeks old, which means that he can't survive outside the womb." "And to keep him alive" "It's a boy?" "Yes." "I'm sorry." "So, uh..." "What happens next?" "Well, Shannon signed an organ donor card." "And we have a woman here who's a match." "She desperately needs a heart." " Doug." " Now I under" "She didn't tell me she kept going with the I.V.F." "Well, she-- she knew how hard it was on you, and I think she was going to tell you when she was certain it would work." "And it did." "Dr. Bennett told me about the baby." "I also told him that the chances of survival are-- are remote." "I'm not sure "remote" is accurate." "If we can get Shannon to 25 or 26 weeks, then, uh..." "Dr. Bennett told me that Shannon was gonna donate her heart." "Doug, have you had a chance to go in and-- and see Shannon?" "Uh, no." "Not yet." "There's a neonatologist and a neurosurgeon in there who can answer some of your questions, and then we can-- We can talk again, all right?" "Where does it end with you?" "I just told him that his wife was a match for Lee Ann." "You took advantage of the situation." "You would've done the same thing." "I'm advocating for my patient." "The only difference between your patient and mine is that your patient's already dead and mine doesn't have to be." "You know that we can hear you in there." "Good." "Maybe at least you'll get both sides of the story." "Look, I'm not trying to manipulate the man, okay?" "Lee Ann is running out of time." "And that baby needs more time." "You understand that, right?" "Okay, both of you need to understand that you are not going to manipulate me either, okay?" "Because I'm not gonna choose between you." "It doesn't matter what the two of you want or what I want." "It should've been about what Shannon wanted." "Now it's about Doug and what he wants." "That is all that matters." "Hey, look who's awake." "Mm-hmm." "Who are you guys?" "What are you doing here?" "We're here to thank the lady with the 'scrips." "What are you doing, inviting total strangers in here?" "They're not strangers." "They're my friends." "Well, I don't want to them here." "You heard her." " The party's over." " Are you serious?" "No." "The party just started, man." "The party's over." "Get out." "Oh, man." "That was manly." "I know how to clear a room." "I'm sorry." "Sorry." "I'm just" "You're coming down." "What are you doing?" "Taking the edge off." "You ever smoked it?" "No." "Trust me." "This will make you happier than you ever imagined." "After your hopes have been..." "Crushed so many times..." "Something inside you dies." "At least it did with me." "I couldn't hang on to the dream of being a parent anymore." "But Shannon-- She never let it go." "Maybe we should keep her alive." "Having this baby was her dream." "It was." "But the question now is, is it your dream?" "How does it work?" "With her and with the baby?" "Well, if we're..." "If we're fortunate, we can keep Shannon alive until the baby gets to term, but that's unlikely." "What's more likely is that the baby will be born prematurely, maybe traumatically so, which puts him at serious risk for chronic lung problems, developmental issues, blindness." "I'm telling you this because I want you to understand what you'd be agreeing to." "There's a chance the baby would be fine, but..." "There's a greater chance that he and you..." "Would have some serious challenges." "And knowing all of this, if having this baby is still your dream..." "Then I will stop any doctor coming through that door who wants to pull the plug." "But if you don't want this..." "Shannon would have been an amazing mum." "She can still do something amazing." "Either way..." "It's up to you." "So I finished all these files, and y" "You okay?" "I've called everyone and everywhere I can think of, but there's no Amelia." "I left her so many messages that her mailbox is full." "I'm sorry." "J" " I'm just" "I'm" " I'm sorry." "I may have been a bit hard on you about your casework." "And you know how worried I am about Amelia." "And..." "The truth is, I was annoyed about how you micromanaged my overseeing of your patients while you were on suspension, and it's possible that I was using the peer review process to-- to be petty and vengeful," "which, if true, would be wrong." "And you just came to this realization all by yourself?" "As a fellow therapist, I think you can appreciate that sometimes our most important insights about ourselves can come from someone else." "Anyway, I sent in my report to the medical board." "Oh, yeah?" "And what did you say?" "That you're an excellent therapist and you deserve to be back at work." "Let her go." "Okay." "Are you okay?" "Fine." "Why am I not convinced?" "I'm just getting everything in order." "All right, before you do this, let's talk about what happened with Shannon." "We don't have to." "It's not like I think you're gonna miss." "It's just-- It would be nice..." "I just want some good juju in here." "All right." "Shannon's lungs went to a young dad who got cancer even though he never smoked." "Her liver's being partitioned between a woman here and a soldier in Fresno." "I get it." "It..." "That's all good news, but, uh..." "It still isn't easy." "I know." "It used to be easier, for me, anyway, you know, it was save the mom." "You just... save the mom." "And now when I think about babies, it's not clear or easy anymore." "And I don't know if that's better or worse." "It's just the way it is." "What we do" " It's..." "It's personal." "It can't be anything else." "So long as it doesn't carry over." "Look, Sam fought." "I fought." "At the end of the day," "Doug had all of the information." "It was..." "It was his call to make." "So yes..." "It won't carry over." "Okay." "Look, don't worry." "There's good juju flowing." "Hey." "Hi." "Sheldon apologized." "Well, that's good." "He doesn't usually do that." "Or at least it takes him longer." "Thank you." "Thank you." "Hey, do you wanna..." "Um..." "I think "American Bake Off" is on." "You don't like "American Bake Off."" "No, but you do." "♪ I'm tired ♪" "♪ of good times ♪" "♪ they move much too fast ♪" "♪ to be there is beautiful ♪" "♪ but the colors don't last ♪" "♪ I'm tired of good times ♪" "♪ I've shined all my shoes ♪" "Hey, Charlotte." "Hi, Mason." "Hey, you guys." "Come in." "Come in." "I'll take that." "You made good time, huh?" "Yeah." "Um, he's gonna try to get out of flossing," " so make sure he does it." " Okay." "And, uh, I packed Jersey sheets." "That's all he'll sleep on." "And don't give him chocolate." "He's allergic." "Tennis, anyone?" "♪ I've shut up the shutters ♪" "Thank you." "Take care of him." "Are you kidding me?" "♪ I've had it with moonlight ♪" "Have fun with your dad and, uh, Charlotte." "♪ ..." "For dawn ♪" "♪ when I turn off the radio ♪" "I got winner, which means, Coop, you'll be ordering pizza." "♪ Ba, da, da, da, da-da-da ♪" "♪ Ba, da, da, da, da, da ♪" "♪ ba, da, da, da, da, da, da ♪" "♪ ba, da, da, da, da, da ♪" "♪ back here in my bedroom ♪" "♪ I've turned off the lights ♪" "This egg" "This little tiny fertilized egg" "If all thousand things go right, it becomes a person, a whole person, not just a baby" "A toddler, a teenager, a whole person with this whole life." "It's a lot of responsibility." "Yes." "It's-- it's not just responsibility." "It's thrilling and-- and terrifying." "♪ Da, da, da ♪" "♪ ba, da, da, da, da, da ♪" "You know, I imagine this baby kicking inside of me and then riding a bike, going to prom." "♪ ..." "The light ♪" "♪ I've shut up the shutters ♪" "♪ I'm saying ♪" "Heartbreak, weddings, births" "I imagine all of these moments in this person's life, all this possibility." "♪ I never wanted to stray ♪" "♪ I know where the keys are ♪" "And I hope..." "I hope we get to have them." "So... ♪ But I don't think I'll stay ♪" "I'm keeping watch." "♪ Oh ♪" "♪ oh ♪" "♪ oh ♪"