"June 16th, R has returned." "Maybe it was 15th or 17th." "A flight half-way-around-the-world probably made him confused." "But, it's not that important." "Because the time has already been given to him in a way." "Oh, my!" "What's so heavy?" "Computer and printer stuff." "And some books." "You stay here tonight, right?" "Well..." "I guess I have to." "Aren't you tired?" "Yeah... very." "I couldn't sleep a wink on the plane." "Because of the headache." "I don't know why." "Why don't you take some rest?" "And you'll be recovered in a couple of days." "I should get going soon." "why?" "You don't know how much I've missed you." "Please, don't." "Not here." "I... should go." "You'd better think about what you're going to do." "OK." "Then, go before it gets late." "But, it's 9 o'clock." "I'm fine." "Aren't you tired?" "Yes." "I am going to take a rest." "You can go." "Well, I'd better go then." "You don't have to come down to say bye." "You bitch!" "A whore like you should die!" "Come here!" "None of your business!" "Leave me alone!" "Shut up!" "Get the fuck off, you bastard!" "You damn bitch!" "This hotel is a strange place." "They were shouting and fighting all night..." "So, where shall we go?" "Well..." "How about going into town?" "At this hour?" "No way." "The road must be jammed by cars." "When are you going to Dae-gu?" "Today, right?" "Yeah..." "I guess." "Let's head over to the bus station." "OK." "Last night," "I woke up at 2 a. m. because I thought I heard something." "And then I couldn't go back to sleep." "Actually I was expecting your call." "Gosh!" "I got cut up again!" "Jesus, just right in front of me!" "The traffic's getting worse than ever." "Don't you see it?" "Supposedly, the average speed in Seoul in 1999 will be only 7km per hour." "Shall we just keep going to Dae-jeon?" "To Dae-jeon?" "Well... yeah." "Let's take the Joongbu Expressway." "Instead of the Gyungbu, which is probably full of traffic." "Since when has there been one called Joongbu?" "Fairly recently." "It's a new one and I've heard it's not busy." "Shoot." "I could have taken a shortcut If you'd told me earlier." "Is it that difficult to get onto the highway?" "Yes!" "I should be driving on that one right over there." "But I can't find the way onto it." "So, no strikes at your father's factory?" "No, none." "He's very good to the workers." "Only big companies have such problems, not small ones like my dad's." "OK." "Now where do we go?" "Let's go to Yu-seong." "Why?" "It's a hot-spring town." "You don't know?" "Yeah, I know it." "But what are we going to do there?" "We'll take a bath first... and then..." "Then what?" "Well, I say let's go." "What are we going to do there?" "What we are going to do is..." "First, we'll take a bath in the hot spring," "I'll kiss your breasts," "I'll play with your nipples," "I'll thrust my crotch into yours, and we'll become one as we used to." "And then I'll run my fingers through your hair." "Since you left," "I've missed every bit of your body." "Well, I couldn't do that when I was busy though." "I really don't like hotel rooms." "Come on." "Where can we do then?" "We had an apartment in France, but we don't have one in here." "And I can't wait to have sex with you any longer." "But we're in Korea." "Things are different." "Do we really have to go there?" "It's the right thing for us." "But..." "Come on." "Don't." "Please." "Get off." "Ow, don't." "Don't!" "Ow, it hurts!" "No!" "What's the matter?" "You're getting me angry." "It's torture." "You're torturing me!" "Mr. R." "You stay here tonight." "I'd better go." "I didn't come here to stay alone." "I am a busy person, too." "What am I supposed to do then?" "I got it." "You don't need me anymore." "You're the dirtiest whore I've ever seen." "What was I thinking when I rushed into you from the moment I got back to the country?" "Let me ask you one thing." "Have you been seeing someone else?" "Then, what's the problem?" "What is your ideology of being like this?" "This is your stuff because you bought them." "I'm only taking this one." "Is this Jaya's house?" "Yes?" "Can I ask whom am I speaking to?" "This is her sister." "Then you must be..." "Young-nam's mother?" "Yes." "This is R." "He's just got back to Korea." "It's been 5 years." "He came back without any notice." "No, he looks fine." "Neither thin nor old." "Just same as he was." "OK, yeah..." "OK, bye." "I heard Myung-ja was going to get married soon." "Just like you always said..." "You get married when your brother's back." "You must be very happy, Myung-ja" "It's been 10 years that you've been working at factories, since you were kid..." "You must be tired of working at factories." "So, Soon-ja's working at an electronics shop?" "Isn't it tough?" "It's fine." "I'm just taking care of accounts." "So, Young-hwa's mother opened a flower shop?" "She's nice to us." "Since last April?" "You shouldn't have sent her that letter!" "She cried for days after she got that letter." "But, now she's so lovely to us." "Hello, I'm here." "Young-hwa, here's your father." "Come in." "Why are you just standing there?" "Hi." "How have you been?" "Come on, what kind of a couple meets like this?" "It's your father." "Greet him." "How do you do dad?" "Not like that, honey." "Bow to him." "Go on." "Young-hwa, you're not going to greet your father?" "How do you feel to see your kids now?" "I don't know..." "Yong-taek, that is your father." "He takes after his dad." "Well, I don't know..." "Young-hwa, do you recognise your father?" "She says no..." "Yong-taek, how do you feel to see your dad?" "He's a bore." "Hello." "Oh, come in." "I thought you were dead." "Let's see." "You came here by bus at this hour?" "No, by taxi." "There's no room to sit here." "Let's move to another room." "Shall we start drinking?" "You stay here, mother." "Let me shake hands with a doctor." "Studying abroad, that must've been tough." "It was OK." " You look good." " Sit, sit." "This is the doctoral dissertation!" "Take a look!" "I'll never understand." "He explained to me that it's written 'dedicated to my father.'" " Am I right?" " Yes, you are." "Shall I turn off the light?" "If you want." "You don't know where she's gone?" "Oh, she's here." "OK, bye." "How are your parents?" "They've aged over the years." "I heard my mother was really ill one time." "Stay, they'll bring water if we order it." "Excuse me." "Can I have some water?" "Did Young-hwa know her dad's face?" "Hey..." "There seems to be more workers here in Korea." "There's even a people like the ladies serving water around the tables." "They could have put a water jug somewhere here." "How's Youngtaek doing?" "Does he look like you?" "I don't know." "He called me a 'bore'." "What?" "A bore?" "You, a doctor?" "Why is she so slow?" "Have this." "I haven't touched it." "I walk too much whenever I'm with you." "This is a stroll." "When you came to visit me in France last summer you said you were dying for a stroll." "Yes, I said a stroll, not a hard work like this." "It leaves at 6:50." "J" "You know what?" "I badly want you." "Next time." "Next time you'll have me." "What's the matter with you?" "What is my ideology of being like this?" "I have to be careful in Korea." "Do you know anything about this country?" "Shall I turn off the light?" "Yeah." "Now you are a doctor." "No matter what to do, buy a house, a big one." "It always gets crowded when we have parties here." "I'm not sorry for you, brother but I feel a little sorry for you." "That's alright." "For God's sake." "How come he hates you so much?" "One of the biggest reasons is that I studied at the university." "And I've become a doctor while he hasn't..." "And... right." "He said like this when he was drunk the other night," "'I know you are smart." "But you are too arrogant.'" "He yelled." "Unbelievable." "Oh, he's just a weak loser." "Gosh," "What on earth has brought him to think that you are smart?" "Good point." "I'm not smart at all." "And that's why I'm always being pushed around by you, Mr. R." "Anyway..." "Haven't you applied to any other places?" "As a matter of fact, last summer, there was an ad for a professor." "So, I sent in my application." "Did you?" "I didn't make it, of course." "I was told later that schools had already picked someone when they put an ad in the newspaper." "But, I guess the dean of the school really liked me." "He said that he would love to work with me when a seat is available." "So I sent him a book later which was carrying my article." "After all those incidents they put a premium on me." "That's inspiring." "What was your article about?" "Oh..." "Well..." "It's just an article." "I'll tell you later." "Damn..." "You are always like that." "What is so great that you keep it a secret?" "Where are you going to stay?" "Damn..." "It feels like we do nothing but eating when we are together." "What am I supposed to do then?" "You think this is easy for me?" "Good afternoon, sir?" "Does she even know where I live?" "Even If I die from an illness you wouldn't visit me!" "Wake up, you idiot!" " I didn't raise you that way!" " Keep quiet please!" "I can't keep saying this over and over." "You go on your own way, and I'll never see you again!" "Go now!" "What a scene!" "Good afternoon, madam." "Sorry I'm late." "Ever since I got back to Korea" "I've had to waste my time for nothing." "If I can't have your naked body in my arms my body will rot away." "I'm that tired." "I don't want to go to Dae-gu today." "What are you going to do then?" "OK, I got it." "So..." "What do you want from me?" "What do I want from you?" "As I clearly wrote you on the letter," "I want to get divorced." "Sorry." "What are you sorry for?" "For the fact that I had someone before the marriage." "Oh." "You think it's the reason?" "What?" "You're wrong." "It's the reason." "Then tell me what it is!" "Of course, it's not been a pleasure to live with you knowing that you were not a virgin." "But what can we do about the thing that already happened?" "It's not the reason why I want to get divorced." "Then what?" "OK." "Speaking of this, you can never be a woman who can make me bigger." "You would throw away my books but not your stupid vanity table." "Am I wrong?" "By the way..." "Something happend to your sister who got married." "What happened?" "She is afraid that you would know about this." "Is she?" "Then don't tell me." "She said I shouldn't tell you..." "She had a man before she got married." "So?" "One day, she came to me crying and asked what she should do." "The guy dumped her and went aboard a fishing vessel." "I think she'd been pregnant." "Even my father knows the full story." "So what?" "Why are you yelling at me?" "So what?" "So what do you want to say from it?" "Why are you telling me that?" "I am convinced again that I can't live with you." "Is father feeling unwell?" "I don't think we can do farm work anymore." "He used to go like that whenever he came out to work." "Why don't you stop farming now?" "It's hard and not lucrative." "The land owner's making a fortune doing nothing because the price went up high." "Let's go now." "Let's go where?" "Well, how about going in there one more time?" "We've just came out of there." "And you would say 'let's get out.'" "So, why do we spend money on it?" "Shall we have another ice cream?" "More ice cream?" "My goodness." "Tonight," "I'll definitely play with your nipples and I'll thrust my crotch into yours." "It will help me regain my feelings and confidence to live in this difficult country." "I say no." "Your divorce hasn't been finalized yet." "Are you angry?" "OK, what shall we do?" "Where do you want me to drive you?" "Wherever." "Do I ever have any place to go?" "Then I'll drive you to the hotel where you stayed last night." "Is this really Korea?" "Is this really Seoul that has own rich history?" "Crosses are everywhere..." "I feel like I am at a big cemetery somewhere in Europe." "Don't go too negative." "Do I go negative?" "Maybe." "But honestly, when it gets dark," "Seoul becomes a huge grave yard with tons of crosses." "Young-hwa, come in." "I need to talk to you." "Talk what?" "I'm busy." "Just come in." "I don't want you to work in the kitchen." "So..." "Have you thought about it?" "Thought about what?" "You don't know?" "Why are you asking me a divorce, all of sudden?" "All of sudden?" "It's not all of sudden at all." "I've asked it for ages." "But you are still hesitating about making a decision." "OK." "You told me you would think about it." "Then you should tell me what you've thought about." "Don't you think so?" "I have to think about it more." "For how long?" "It's been 8 years that I put it out." "Why does it that much matter to you while your sister's affair doesn't at all?" "What are you talking about?" "Why, am I wrong?" "Your sister's affair is just fine by you," "But mine's not?" "Is that you?" "Come in." "Where are the children?" "They went out for fresh air." "Do you want me to say it for you?" "OK." " What would you like to order?" " Coffee." "You're seeing a guy, aren't you?" "Yes." "I knew you were." "Good, congratulations." "So..." "You want me to get out of your life because you're seeing someone." "Am I right?" "OK." "Are you going to get married with him?" "Yes." "Great." "If I'd known this earlier, I wouldn't have bother you." "I've been such an idiot." "No." "You haven't." "I got engaged very lately." "Although..." "It's been going since I got back from France last summer." "He's asked me to marry him for several times." "But you know that I can't get married." "So I kept saying no." "Then some time ago, I carelessly said yes." "I said no of course at first." "But then he started asking why I kept saying no." "No was not enough for him" "And..." "It started to annoy me." "So, recently I ended it up by saying yes." "Good job." "But why recently?" "Why recently?" "Because of you, of course!" "You know I can't just dump you to marry him?" "But I can't even marry you, either." "Occasionally..." "Yes, not all the time..." "Occasionally I want to get married." "You understand me, don't you?" "I guess I have to." "What would be so important about when you decided it?" "It's all about your emotions." "He..." "loves me." "He should!" "So, did you tell him... that we lived together for 3 and a half years in France?" "I can't tell him that." "If I must, I won't marry him." "You are right." "You'd better not tell him such things." "If you tell him that, he'll get so shocked that he'll have affairs with other women." "And finally your marriage will end up in failure." "Therefore if you keep quiet you'll keep him away from the pain." "Are you following me?" "Yes." "Of course..." "I know well that I can't get married because you are there." " But..." " I know, I know." "But occasionally..." " Not all the time but..." " I said I know." "Yeah, it's good for you." "You used to say in France that men were chasing women in Korea." "I guess you are right." "I see Korean women tend to boast their histories of men." "In Korea, I turned out to be one of them." "It's kind of awkward to think back." "I'm sorry." "Don't mention it." "What can we do about it?" "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "Shall we go for a walk?" "Yes." "I'm sorry." "There's nothing to sorry about." "So, don't say that." "But you're still a married man." "That's it." "It will remain as my weakest point forever." "Although, I've been working hard to get divorced since I came back." "But even if you finally get divorced you are not going to marry me." "And you..." "You don't even love me." "That's true." "I don't think I have to marry you when I get divorced." "I know." "I think I've developed a habit of being with you." "I mean sex with you." "Do I love you?" "I'm not sure." "But I'm sure that I love having sex with you." "I love caressing your breasts," "I love running my fingers through your hair, and I love coming into your womb." "All women have breasts, wombs and hair but as you know, I haven't had many women." "So I don't know about other women and I don't feel any desire toward them." "Eventually I get accustomed to shooting into your womb." "I know." "You know?" "You keep saying that you know, but I see you don't." "I do." "I fully understand what you're saying." "You..." "You see things objectively better than anyone else..." "That's probably why I get cheated by people." "I am sorry." "Where are you going to go?" "Where did you park?" "Over there." "Let's go." "I'll say good bye there." "Good bye." "Take care." "J." "I've got something to tell you." "What is it?" "Everything's OK except one thing which is..." "You might've decided to get married from a series of misunderstanding." "If that is..." "If that is the one which ruined our relationship, it's very sad... and it's a thing to regret." "And it could be a sin." "Maybe." "For example, you must think that I've not done my best getting divorced." "If that's the case, you were wrong." "You can't get divorced, I know that." "Is that what you want?" "No!" "Do you take me for an insane or something?" "You have to get divorced for yourself, not for me!" "Yes, you're right." "That's why I'm doing my best." "And I will get divorced." "And..." "You said that I wouldn't marry you even if I get divorced." "But again, you were wrong." "I admit that I didn't really think about marriage in France." "Cohabitation seemed to be much more appropriate to me." "But since things are different here in Korea," "I think I can marry you." " You don't need to." " And..." "You said I didn't love you, but you were very wrong about that, too." "The reason that I didn't say I love you is because..." "I don't like the word 'love'." "I do love you." "But you never mentioned love or marriage in France!" "That's exactly what I'm saying about the misunderstanding." "I promised nothing in France, and it's true." "But did I really have to promise certain things to you?" "Our life in France, it was a promise itself." "Yes, yes, I know that." "But look!" "Sometimes I want to get married." "Occasionally, not all the time!" "Mr. R," "Whenever I'm with you, it seems like I'm doing nothing but bothering you." "And I hate it!" "And that's why I want to get married with someone else." "You'll be better without me." "It's another misunderstanding." "And it's the biggest one." "You think you always give me a hard time." "Of course you did put me in trouble in France." "I still remember something." "When I was getting irritated from the thesis you yelled at me, 'I'll give you money so stop it!" "'" "You did that." "Your face on that day still makes me sad." "It was so obvious that you were desperate." "After that I couldn't get angry when you went yelling." "But now things are different in Seoul." "I won't waste my time because of you." "I'm not dumb any longer." "I won't abandon myself for you." "So stop thinking that you only bother me." "Frankly speaking you're the one who knows me the best and you're the one who can help me whenever I need." "You know every bit of myself." "One time I fell into unbearable sexual desire." "But at that time, we weren't supposed to have sex." "And you lovely let me come into your mouth." "I thanked you because you knew exactly what I needed." "Whatever it was, you didn't hesitate." "And... even when you were hungry, you knew I wanted a Mont Blanc pen and you bought me one." "After all this, you think you're bothering me." "It's just a misunderstanding." "But the worst thing I regret is that I promised nothing to you in France." "Even though I didn't say into words" "I expected you to know all." "OK then..." "It was a good long conversation to me." "Yes, it was." "Let's do this." "Do what?" "Let's think one more time about our relationship in depth." "It's not just a matter of emotion." "So sleep on it tonight." "And let's meet and talk about it tomorrow." "Alright." "OK." "See you tomorrow." ""There are villains who are tricking us into admiring the communism concealing themselves behind a look of a common civilian." "But we will defend our invaluable liberty... "" "I know well that it's not right for me to think about getting married." "But I..." "I can't marry anybody." "How can I dare to get married?" "But occasionally..." "I occasionally... want to get married." "It's all about my emotions." "Mr. R." "You know we can't get married." "You understand me." "Don't you?" "Yeah, I know." "How can I leave you?" "He kept asking me to marry him." "How can I marry him?" "So, I said no." "But at last..." "At last..." "Wait." "Wait a second." "Let me ask you a question." "What is it?" "The next day I got back to Korea, we went to Yu-seong." "There I asked you whether you were seeing a guy." "You nodded your head for answer." "But I wonder whether you answered me in French way." "You are accustomed to answering in French way." "You instantly nodded to answer to say yes and I got it as no." "It only explains this situation." "Yes." "That's exactly what I intended." "I nodded to say yes." "Maybe I was." "But when you nodded your head," "I understood that you hadn't been seeing a guy." "But as you said last night it's just all about my emotions." "Isn't it?" "Alright." "I know I can't just dump you." "Whenever it comes to you, it hurts so bad, I mean it." "But sometimes I..." "Not all the time..." "Only occasionally I..." "OK." "It's all about your emotions." "You said it last night." "Didn't you?" "Yes, I did." "But there's one thing that I want you to do." "What is it?" "You should tell your fiancé that you'd lived with me for 3 and a half years in France." "Why, why should I?" "Last night, you said that I shouldn't!" "Now you should." "I won't tell him that." "Why should I?" "I'm saying it as a friend and as a man who shared 3 and a half years of love with you." "You should tell him the whole story." "It seems like he's already sensed about my emotional wound." "Emotional wound?" "Sounds like a title of a movie." "You are disparaging our time metaphoring it as 'emotional wound.'" "I am sorry." "You used to say that word in the beginning of our relationship." "So, you gave me sort of impression that you might have approved a sadistic joy disparaging the profound nerval process of humans." "But oversimplifying things by that kind of word is not right." "Especially for you, a student of literature." "I pointed it out for you in France." "Don't you remember?" "Yes, I do." "You've never said the word again." "But I'm seeing you now saying that word again." "I am sorry." "So..." "What kind of wound did you have from our relationship?" "I am sorry." "But, Mr. R." "You know this?" "I don't have any clue what to say when I'm with you." "I'm not like this with anyone else." "People love to have a conversation with me." "Well, sometimes..." "I copy some words or phrases that I've learned from you." "Yes." "I've learned too many things from you." "Everybody listens to me when I say." "And I amuse them with my words." "But whenever I am with you then I can do nothing." "Is there any doubt about it?" "They should like you, a doctor who studied in France." " J." " Yes." "There's just one thing I want to tell you." "Yes." "The moment you stop trying to identify yourself with me you'll start losing the sense of direction." "You are right." "I can't leave you." "How can I?" "I just can't." "Then you should tell him that we lived together for 3 and a half years in France." "No!" "I'd decide not to marry him." "Why do I have to tell my story to him?" "I'm not going to!" "So did you tell him?" "Yes." "What did he say?" "He seemed very shocked." "Of course." "Does he still want to marry you?" "No." "You see?" "I really hate it." "Why did I have to tell that?" "I hate it." "I fully understand." "But what can you do?" "Just forget everything, and wait for me as a strong woman." "OK." "When Captain Hook saw Peter Pan asleep he put poison into the Peter's medicine." "Is this the poison, Mom?" "Yes, darling." "Don't think you're going to live with me forever." "So your sister can have an affair but I can't?" "Don't you think it's unfair?" "You're saying it again." "When Peter woke up..." "I didn't tell it to anybody for the past 8 years." "For I respect you as a person." "But you want to say Myung-ja's story over and over again." "Fine." "Why should I keep secret your dirty past?" "Wow, you said dirty past?" "Tell me why only your sister is OK." "Alright." "Then I should tell everybody." "Stand up." "I said stand up!" "Come with me." "Come!" "This woman says that" "Myung-ja had a man before she got married." "She keeps saying it over and over." "Is it true?" "By the way, this woman also has a thing she didn't say." "She slept with many men before the marriage." "One of them was my high school mate." "Stop it!" "Idiot!" "Why are you so late?" "Because of the heavy traffic." "Let's find some place to take a rest." "I'm so tired." "So what did he say?" "It's over." "Tell me in details." "He even asked whether I have any kid." "I told him everything." "Shoot." "Why did I have to be so honest to him?" "Wow, you're laughing." "Are you happy now?" "I can't stand it whenever I think..." "Do you regret it?" "No." " But..." " OK!" "I fully understand you." "But that's something you had to do." "Whatever." "You've done everything." "Let's take it as if it never happened." "I'll get it over, too." "Yes." "It's all over." "With you, too." "What are you talking about?" "I mean it." "Today I am here to say that I'm over you, too." "I'll never see you again." "You're not finished with him?" "I surely am." "With you, too." "What the hell is the matter with you?" "Don't get me mad anymore." " I'm so tired of you doing this." " Anyway..." "I won't see you anymore." "So, you take care of yourself." "By the way, J." "you said that you'd sent a book to a school." "What was your article about?" "Oh, my article?" "Didn't I tell you?" "Well, that's..." "It was the one that you wrote for me in France." "Let me see..." "When was it?" "Right, when I came back to Korea I brought it with me." "Yeah, I wrote the article for you." "Yes, you did." "And I realized that" "It's not something to keep or to throw away." "So I added a lot of my opinions and then I sent it in to Professor Lee." "And last summer before I went to France for holidays," "I looked though the article again, made some more corrections, and sent it to a literary magazine." "And then I totally forgot about that." "But to my surprise, when I got back to Korea, a letter was waiting for me that mine was selected." "You should get a room to stay." "No, I'm not going to stay at a hotel tonight." "Oh, you said that you didn't have money." "Here, take it." "Come on, take it." "Come on!" "What..." "What are you doing?" "What's the matter with you?" "You may take me to the police station." "Then..." "You can take a rest at your sweet apartment." "Aren't I worth a bill of 10,000 won?" "You've squeezed out fake tears all the time but now you shed real ones from 10,000 won." "10,000 won isn't small money to the poor like us" "What?" "Poor like us?" "Don't be silly!" "I used to be quite impressed when you said like that but not now." "It's me who is poor but not you." "Maybe it's sort of a sugarcoat with which you've used well the poor guys." "I'd better go home." "I don't know what is your family like but I won't let you go home tonight." "Why are you doing this to me?" "What do you want from me?" "Why don't you just take me to the police station?" "It will end this situation." "Why?" "Why can't I go home?" "You want to know why?" "You've alluded that you're living in some sort of sacred shrine so I want to see what will happen" "If I won't let you back to the shrine." "I see your family is nothing but petit-bourgeois." "Korean petit-bourgeois are the best snobs!" "They are lousy and they think they are so above everything!" "When did I think that I was above you?" "The fact that I actually wanted to see you more than anyone." "it was a total shame to me." "I came back to Korea and I was expecting you." "But you weren't." "You weren't even prepared a bit." "I must've been too naive for this." "When you came to see me 4 and a half years ago..." "I didn't go to France to see you." "Whatever you say now, it doesn't change the fact." "By mails and over the phone, you kept asking my permission and asked me to prepare all the necessary papers to come to France." "But I didn't go there to live with you." "You might haven't." "Because you were a sacred virgin at that time." "Should I be surprised that a sacred virgin enjoyed having sex with me?" "After a while I was surprised to find out that you were not smart enough to carry out your study." "Why did you wrote an article for me then?" "God, now you're saying like that." "I couldn't help but doing it because you were crying and shouting all the time." "There is another reason as well." "The most important reason was that" "I wanted to make you happy." "I preferred to see you in a happy mood." "But what is the use of the doctor's degree" " or the title of critic?" " You'd better... shut up and listen." "I shouldn't have helped a bone head like you to be a doctor." "You became a doctor and now look me down." "I feel cheated." "When the hack did I look you down?" "Right, girls like you never know what they're doing." "How impudent and dumb!" "People must've looked you up because you'd achieved all those titles so fast." "I don't need them now." "They are not mine." "They only give me pains!" "But I don't know what to do!" "J." "If you..." "If you lost your time for writing a thesis for me, and was left alone in France, how would you have felt?" "Probably," "I'd have gone mad." "Then, one more question for you." "You finally achieve a doctorate after a year and come back to Korea." "But you see me going out with another woman ignoring you." "How would you feel?" "I guess..." "I'll leave you alone with that shameful thing." "What?" "What did you say?" "I said... that you're ungrateful." "So I'll leave you alone with that shameful one." "Say that again?" "You'll leave me alone with that shameful one?" "Yes." "Leave me alone with that shameful one..." "Leave me alone with that shameful one..." "Right." "What are you doing?" "What are you doing?" "I'm scared." "Are you trying to scare me?" " Are you..." " Don't move." "Please don't move." "Don't do that." "You feel better now?" "Are you OK?" "Oh, please stop." "Stop, stop." "Someone's coming." "Do you still think about him?" "When I think of him, I feel sorry for him." "But you have to forget about him." "I won't talk about this any more, so..." "Let's just let it go and think two of us." "After a rain, soil gets solider." "Tell me why you keep saying no." "You are a kind of neat freak or something." "I guess I am." "That's why I was not all happy of living with you in France." "You are a liar." "You were enjoying sex, like I was." "You think it's easy for me?" "I can't control myself sometimes." "Then why do you stand away from it?" "Let's do it." "No." "Next time." "Next time, you'll have me." "Good afternoon, ma'am." "Wow, you look good in that dress today." "I've always tried to look pretty whenever I came to see you." "But I don't have many clothes." "Did you ever buy me one?" "You keep your words today." "You must sleep with me tonight." "Mr. R, why don't we go to see a fortune teller?" "For what?" "To ask about our marital harmony?" "I feel heavy in my chest, so..." "Why would we need that?" "We do know about each other." "We lived together for 3 and a half years!" "Do you remember the sex we had in a small apartment?" "You insisted on using separate rooms to catch up your study." "So, I had to sleep in the other room for a while." "After a couple of days, when I opened my eyes around 8 in the morning you're standing by my bed." "So, I lifted up the blanket a little bit and then you came in." "That's how we started it." "How long did we do it?" "Well, I'm not sure but" "I think we did it for 4 hours at least." "Because I remember when we finished it" "Mademoiselle Kim rang the bell." "So I looked up the clock and it was almost noon." "Oh God." "We did it almost everyday..." "We were like sex addicts at that time." "When I came back from school you were waiting for me by the window." "The first night we did three times." " Four times!" " Did we?" "The funny thing was that you were better in daytime." "And do you know how many positions we were used to?" "I counted them once and they were more than 10." "What I liked most of you was that you never failed at noticing the position which I want even with a slight movement of my finger." "After so many times of experience..." "My favorite is this one." "I hug you and do you from the rear" "Whenever you did that you broke your words that you wouldn't move." "You didn't response at first, but always couldn't help but starting to move your body right after you were in me." "Doing on the chairs was good, too." "I sometimes got worried because you moved a lot." "Every time, I was like dying." "You screamed really loud at our first sex." "Once I was in you, you started screaming crazy." "Was I that loud?" "Very!" "You screamed for 5 minutes, without stopping." "You finally stopped even after I'd put my hand over your mouth worrying if people could hear you." "I didn't expect that much from the first sex." "It wasn't all nice to me." "It was..." "It was just like... a good-looking streamlined ship's coming inside of me." "That's it." "But from the next one on that same night it did feel very nice to me, I guess." "Yes, I liked a lot from the second time." "When you were reaching orgasm, you started to twang and cry in joy." "And then while getting loud, you started to scratch my bag." "Do I... have to go in?" "OK." "I'm going in." "Do I... really have to go in?" "What's the matter now?" "Do you still think of him?" "Then why?" "Why are you torturing me?" "But it's sad." "Can I just not do it?" "You have to do it." "Please, please." "OK, OK." "Hang on a second." "Do I really have to do it?" "Yes, of course." "Why?" "How many times should I have to explain?" "We don't have all night." "Don't insult me any more." "I don't." "Why are you crying?" "For me, or for him?" "Ah, OK, OK." "Don't." "Wait." "Please!" "This wouldn't..." "I'm scared." "Stop!" "Stop it!" "You insulted me." " OK." " I'll have you today." "OK!" "I'll take off the clothes!" "It's getting torn!" "Do I have to take 'em off?" "Yes!" "Why?" "Why can't I just keep my clothes on?" "OK, OK!" "OK, I'll take 'em off!" "Get off." "Get off, I'll take 'em off." "Turn the light off." "Shut the curtain too." "It's shut." "Damn. ." "It's not dark enough!" "Did you take 'em all off now?" "Yes." "You take them off too!" "No..." "I can keep these on." "I played with your breasts for 3 and a half years!" "What the hell is new now?" "Please let me keep these on." "OK, OK, I got it." "I'll take 'em off." "I'll do my self, so get off." "It can get torn!" "I'll do it myself!" "Get off!" "Turn around and don't look back." "You've become a scared virgin." "So, are you done now?" "Not yet." "I told you not yet!" "Don't." "Not yet!" "Stop, stop!" "It hurts!" "Don't." "Don't do that." "No, no." "No." "I am sorry." "Oh, what is it?" " Oh, look what you did..." " What?" "OK, I'll take 'em off." "Let me, please." "My panties were torn..." "Am I a whore or something?" "No you are not." "But you said it before that I was a whore." "I..." "I was just pissed off." "But still, look what you've done." "Mr. R!" "You think I am a whore?" "No, I don't!" "I just said it because I was mad." "I lied." "I'm going to keep my lingerie on." "OK." "I'll do it." "Do we really have to have sex?" "Are you crazy?" "You want to see me die?" "Then give me your tank top." "I'll put it on as I used to." "Mr. R." "You hate me, don't you?" "You said it before." "I don't." " But you do, right?" " Please, shut up." "Why should I hate you?" "Put it away." "It's uncomfortable" "Come on!" "So... one month has past." "What are you going to do?" "You must've decided something!" "It's been a month!" "You promised me so!" "Why do you have to tear my underwear again?" "Why, why, why..." "That's all you ever say." "As if you really don't know." "You're the dirties slut and the best hypocrite in the world." "Do I have to go in?" "Do I really have to go in?" "Why do I have to go in?" "Mr. R, I'm not going in." "You just rest up tonight." "Please." "Do we really have to do this?" "Just stay calm." "Why do we have to do it, even struggling with this kind?" " Can I just not do it?" " It's damn hard." "You can't make it?" "Let me do it." " No, let me do it." " Oh, I can't." " I'll do it." "Put your hands away" " No, wait." "Gosh, I can't." "Hang on." "Something's wrong with this." "Let me do it." "You just don't move." "Can I just not do it?" "Stay calm." "Do we really have to do it even doing this?" "Let's just not do it." "I look like a bandit, topless and only wearing pants." "Now you're torturing me with this kind of robe!" "When did ever I torture you?" "I never meant to torture you." "I spend more than 3 hours undressing you!" "I have to say you're not a normal girl." "Em..." "Well..." "If you can't make it, just burn it off with a match fire or something." "That'll do." "Right, stay here." "Match will do..." "Come here." "Aw, it's hot!" "Oh my..." "Why do you want to do it this badly?" "Because I have to, that's why I'm doing this!" "You want me to call someone to cut this off?" "OK." "Come on." "Am I a whore?" "You want me to say you aren't, don't you?" " No, that's not it." " Ouch!" "Look, we're even using a match fire." "It's kind of sad." "I don't care whether you're a whore or not." "Watch out." "Hot!" "Yes, done!" "No, not like that..." "Stay away." "I'll take them off" "Stay away." "Am I a whore?" "Oh, please, shut up." "Who told you you're a whore?" "You are the girl I cherish the most." "What's wrong?" "You didn't make it this time, either?" "Don't worry." "I'm fine." "You may nothing bigger to worry about." "Gosh." "You burned off my robe." "Am I really a whore?" "I'd better get going." "You have a good night." "J." "Take a seat here." "OK." "I couldn't make it this time, either." "I did feel you in France but not here." "That's alright." "I'm just fine." "This time too," "I felt his presence through you." "Probably that makes me not able to enjoy any sensation." "I'm sorry." "But," "I know quite well that it's all your vanity." "When you're having sex with someone you must picture another guy." "That's why you act like a virgin who's about to get raped." "And it makes you treat me like a rapist." "When did I ever treat you like a rapist?" "When you are with him, you probably would shed tears thinking of me." "Then he would naively go fidgeted by your tears." "And he might consider you as a sensitive poet." "But I'm different." "I'm too old and busy to dance after the tune of your sentiment." "And besides I'm smart." "So I would like to suggest that you should sleep on it." "And you got to choose between me and him." "Then I'll see you tomorrow morning." "Had a good sleep?" "My head is not clear, all messed up." "You'll be fine." "I was very tired, too last night." "So did you sleep on it?" "Sleep on what?" "Me or him?" "Come on." "Don't hesitate." "This must be the best time." "Are you going to choose him?" "Yes." "OK, I got it." "It's all about your emotions," "So I guess I got to stand back." "It's been nice going out with you." "Good luck." "Well, let's get out of here." "Shall we shake hands before say good bye?" "Shall we go for a stroll?" "I just want to insult you for the last time." "How?" "I'm so smart that I can make you happy." "Or I can hurt your pride so bad." "Then, do it." "Not here." "Let's find some private place." "The I'll see your face going miserable." "Fine." "Let's find some place calm." "Yeah, I'm smart!" "With the money, I could leave this country." "What?" "Why should I give that money to you?" "Why should you give me money?" "You want me to explain?" "You know well that I don't have that big money?" "Where the hell could I get such amount of money?" "Don't ask me." "As I don't know how you can afford a car," "I don't know where you can get money and I don't want to know." "I don't even have a job and I can't make that much money!" "I can't." "It seems like your high pride has been hurt, just as I thought." "I'd sent you first to get a job here in Korea." "But instead, you've just been busy playing with men." "Well, that's alright." "It's all about your emotions." "It's 30 million won that I wish to have right now." "But I don't have money!" "You don't?" "This is just a little favor." "But if you keep saying no, I'll have to force you." "You must be hoping that I keep good memories of you in the future." "But I don't want to hold the cheap memory of you." "I just want to sell it to you at 30 million won." "With the money," "I'll leave this dirty country without any regret." "For you, it's buying a doctor's degree at that price." "How neat is that?" "What do you expect me to do?" "What would you do, if you were in my position?" "OK, OK!" "It was..." "It was not my real intention." "What do you mean?" "I didn't mean to..." "Oh please..." "Can't you ever talk without tears?" "What would they say, people in this cafe?" "Tell me what your real intention was." "Are you saying that it was not your real intention when you answered me that you would choose him?" "Right." "I don't believe it." "It's true." "It's not my real intention." "I just said like that." "Why did you say yes when I asked you if you'd chosen him?" "I didn't exactly know what to say!" ""A train for Sadang is now approaching."" ""You may wait behind the yellow line."" "Why do you have to live with me?" "You sign on papers!" "Or, I'll suit for it." "Where are you going?" ""I won't divorce you."" ""I can have whatever I want."" ""And I will!"" ""You must be a devil."" ""How cruel you are!" You are doing it again!" "You promised me you wouldn't say it again." "Yes, I did promise." "Yes, I did." "But it wasn't my real intention." "Why do you keep torturing me?" "You want to see me die?" "I'm the one who's dying." "You think it's easy for me?" "You were so in a good mood when we had sex last time." "But you've returned to the starting point just after two weeks." "You're like an addict." "Having sex has nothing to do with this!" "OK." "I don't want a girl who changes her mind every week." "I don't change my mind every week." "Whenever I meet you I feel..." "I don't know how profound your emotions are..." "Just don't try to play with me by your emotions." " My emotions are..." " OK, enough." "I know them well enough to know that I'm going to leave you." "Are you satisfied?" "But no matter what they are, you have to pay me anyway." "The racetrack is 934 steps away toward north of the junction, and 780 steps away toward west, and then 858 steps again toward north." "934 steps from the junction, and 780 steps west..." "Good afternoon." "You have mine." "You said you were hungry." "No, that's yours." "So, you're saying that you don't want to give me the money." "I can't give you the money because I don't have that much." "OK, fine." "Then I have to come up with an alternatives in order to compensate my physical and psychological loses." "I got to meet your parents." "Meet them, if you want." "That will make me feel unburdened as well." "Parents tend to think their kid is always right." "So they wouldn't believe me." "So here is another plan." "I'll sue you." "Do whatever you want." "But even if I sue you..." "I probably lose." "Because I have no material evidence with me." "Only thing you have to do at the court, will be just denying everything." "Then you will win." "Are you following me?" "Then why am I thinking about a lawsuit that I'll never win?" "It's simple." "Because even if I lose I'll achieve my goal anyway." "It'll be an interesting case in Korean society and everybody will be curious about it." "Journalists will be very interested in this story." "Do whatever you want." "What else can I do?" "I have still another plan." "To write a book based on our real story." "You know that I can't make the money!" "Yeah I know it." "Because I met the most useless and doubtful woman in the world and all the stresses I've got ever since I came back to Korea is from that woman." "The only thing you are good at is sticking to your rich parents and looking for a rich guy." "I don't search for a rich guy!" "You don't have to respond like that because I don't care." "Do I really have to meet your parents, sue you, or write a book?" "Do I really have to?" "The answer to this question is yes, I surely have to." "Because I've been insulted so bad." "But..." "I came up with a good idea." "What is it?" "So you're saying you don't have money." "Then instead, you can do this." "Do what?" "You can pay me the money by being my bitch." "I have to get that money by all means." "Well, that's a good idea." "Are you going to do it?" "OK." "Fine." "I guess I have to because I don't have money." "Then I'm going to call you 'putain' from now on." "It's better than calling a 'whore'." "What would people say when they heard calling you a 'whore'?" "So I'm going to call you 'ma putain,' so that people wouldn't understand." "Let's see." "It's 10000 won per each time, 3000 times will do." "I'll count two which we've already had." "It's too cheap." "You don't know prices here." "But it's enough for the girl like you, old and short." "But there is a market rate." "OK." "I'll pay you more." "You know I'm not stingy." "I'll check market prices." "When you are good in service, or when on certain special days, I'll pay you more." "Are you OK with that?" "Alright." "You didn't make it this time, either?" "No." "I got weak in Seoul." "Now, you are reaching orgasm." "Are you OK?" "What's wrong?" "Hey?" "Wake up." "Let's do this way." "Wake up." "Don't give up." "Hang in there." "Good." "That's it." "Better now?" "Here we go." "Are you OK now?" "Thank you." "I thought I was dying." "J." "Let's remove this later when we've got enough money." "You don't like this?" "It's OK." "Have you thought about it?" "What?" "J, this is really important to me." "Yes, I've thought about it for last several days." "And?" "I think it's good idea." "And I think you are right." "What can we do in this country?" "Am I going to have to live hoping to buy an apartment someday?" "Or, hoping my kids to be raised like pet fish in a bowl?" "I don't want to spend my life doing that kind of stuff." "Let's do something abroad while we can afford to." "So are you coming with me?" "But..." "I'll save my answer for a while." "You got to decide it as soon as possible so that I could prepare things." "OK." "I got it." "J, Look." "I can write Hangul with this on my computer." "I'll never find this kind abroad." "I hate computers." "Because sometimes you spend days with them." "I won't do that anymore." "My legs are killing me." "You haven't finished yet?" "I wish I had a car." "Let's find a cafe." "Again?" "I'm sick and tired of cafe!" "Stop, it hurts." "Are you alright?" "If I'm pregnant again I'll have my baby this time." "This is nonsense!" "We've never had a great sex in Seoul." "Because I wasn't welcome by you." "But a baby?" "What kind of nonsense is that?" "We could have a baby in France conceived during our perfect relationship." "But it was not 'my' choice." "You agreed to abortion, too!" "You should buy some socks." "Why socks?" "Because you don't have many." "When can we ever finish staying in hotel rooms?" "I think we have to for a good while." "Honey, honey." "I've hurt you so bad." "I'll... never hurt you again!" "I should go now." "Do you still have this?" "Yes." "Had a good sleep?" "Yeah." "I had a real good one." "But I'm surprised a little to get your call." "You told me to, last night." "Oh, I did that." "But you already answered last night." "You changed your mind?" "No." "I'll go with you." "What am I going to do alone here?" "You are a liar." "You're leaving because you don't like the kids." "How irresponsible!" "So when is it?" "Tell me when you leave!" "What about the kids?" "They'll always be welcome." "I'm leaving." "I'll push around your sister, I'll see your father die, and I'll finish you off!" "Scumbag." "I'll let you have it!" "J. I'm so tired and I'm so lonely." "Please don't give me a hard time." "Stop it." "Don't call me again." "Oh yeah?" "Please put anyone on the line who can understand me." "No, I won't." "I'll hang up the phone." "Ok, do it if you want." "I'm heading to your sacred shrine." "To meet somebody who can understand me." "Mademoiselle Kim." "Yes?" "Let me ask you again." "May I ask you to leave so that I could talk to J, please?" "Don't go." "He would kill me." "Go ahead." "I know everything." "Everything?" "Then tell me everything that you know." "Ms. J told me everything." "What did she told you?" "She told me that she didn't marry you." "And?" "And that you helped her a little writing the thesis." "A little?" "OK." "You helped me a lot." " But..." " And?" " And..." " And?" "And that you would leave abroad soon." "She said that?" "But I'll not go abroad with you." "Never." "And?" "I don't see you know everything." "How about minding your own business then?" "Would you please leave?" "Stay!" "You can't go." "I heard you and Ms. J had a little problem and she wants me to..." "You can't be a person who can meddle in our relationship." "So, please leave, now!" "You don't understand?" "Oh, my God!" "What's wrong with you?" "What are you doing?" "This is a cafe!" "Please leave here!" "Here." "Lift up your legs, please." "You still don't get that it's happening because of you, mademoiselle Kim?" "What can you do here, mademoiselle Kim?" "It's none of your business." "Please leave, now." "If you don't leave, I could beat her to death." "I'll see you later." "Have some talks." "J." "Let's get out of here." "We can't talk here now." "You know Jeil cafe over there down the overpass?" "Yes." "Let's go there." "OK." "Does it hurt?" "No, I'm fine." "J." "Why are you denying the fact?" "I deserve pain." "I got to be beaten, if I have to." "It's heartbreaking to see you face." "Was it fun to slap me?" "You are the one who I shared my life in France!" "Why should I enjoy beating you?" "Then why did you slap me?" "Why did I slap you?" "Listen." "I'm out to meet you, not mademoiselle Kim." "But why did you bring that women?" "She will be gossiping around what she saw there today." "She's not a gossiper." "Everyone can be a gossiper." "As your pride is high enough to deny the fact that you're hurt mine is high too!" "What have I done to your pride?" "If I hurt it, I'm sorry." "No, it's not hurt because it's strong." "But I was pissed off so I slapped you." "OK, fine." "It's all over because you slapped me!" "Yeah, it's over." "But I want to ask you one thing." "What is it?" "Why did you change your mind while you agreed with me two weeks ago?" "I told you I wouldn't go abroad with you." "Why do I have to go with you?" "That's not what I'm asking you right now." " I just..." " I won't go with you!" "I said I won't!" "I won't!" "Are you crazy?" "I don't want to take a girl like you." "It would be a madness for me to take a strange girl like you." "Fine, then." "Are we done now?" "I read your article on the magazine." "The one about the interview with a writer." "To be honest," "I read the first sentence more than 10 times." "But I ended up without understanding anything." "And your question to the writer at the end of the article." "Do you think your novel will be 'approved' even 10 years later?" "I didn't understand it, either." "'Approve' means to give approval by public statement." "Do we ever have any public statement for novel?" "I know!" "I know what that means!" "Oh, do you?" "Then why did you use it in the article that every one can read?" "I have absolutely no idea." "The best part of your article... which doesn't have any grammatical error was... copied from my thesis." "OK!" "So stop it now." "Every time I have a conversation with you," "I find you as illogical as your bizarre sentences." "I asked why you changed your mind in two weeks." "But you just keep shouting, 'I won't go!" "', 'I won't go!" "'" "You think it's the right answer to my question?" "Then what was I supposed to answer?" "What were you supposed to answer?" "If you didn't want to answer to my question, you could've simply said, 'I don't want to answer.'" "Or you could've just stood mute." "But you kept shouting, 'I won't go!" "', 'I won't go!" "'" "I couldn't help but saying that you're crazy." "You're laughing." "How can you laugh?" "Because I'm crazy." "What happened to you?" "You weren't like this in France." "Is this because of the city?" "It's really heartbreaking." "What the hell do you expect from me?" "J, what happened to you?" "You can't survive with those fakes..." "Later, he visited Seoul one more time." "It was to look for a publisher for his translated thesis." "When he's done with his business, he came to see me." "I was quite surprised by his visit." "I asked him, 'when did you come back from abroad?" "'" "He said he came back on June 16th." "After a short pause, he said it might be 15th or 17th." "Is this Soon-ja?" "It's me." " Where are you?" " Is father getting better?" "He coughed out blood a couple of days ago." "What?" "Doctors said he got TB, and that he should be quarantined in a hospital." "So we went to a university hospital." "But we could only applied for a room because there's no vacancy." "By the way, J's mother came to see you." "She was handing out money." "I didn't know how big it was though." "But father refused it and sent her back." "And bread."