"Drug enforcement agent, as stated in the afternoon news last Monday, people using drugs closed down a street in the center of São Paulo." "Around 300 crack addicts who live on Helvetia Street and Dino Bueno Avenue, took over the Julio Prestes square." "The surrounding commerce hasshut their doors, the streets are deserted, and the stench of trash and rotten food has taken over the region." "I started to rob my parents." "Actually, I had been robbing them for years but then I started to lock my mom in the bathroom," "I had been robbing the entire apartment, except those possibilities dried up." "There was no other way, so I decided to live on the streets." "Crack is the worst part of cocaine, it's the residue." "It's the part that can't even be taken advantage of by the dependent." "What are it's effects on the human organism?" "It enters the body and it reaches the lungs, bursting alveoli, reaches the brain, bursting neurons." "And it's not through the military police, not through shootings, bombs or beatings, that will solve the problem of chemical dependence." "If it were possible, the world would have already resolved all of this." "It's the biggest Crackland there is." "It's the biggest assemblage of crack addicts in the whole world." "And why has the penetration of crack in society been growing, in youth and even in children?" "It's a very attractive drug because it's a drug that does what it promises, right?" "It gives instant, immediate pleasure, lasting very little time, about one to two minutes at most, but the person feels as if he's riding on a roller coaster, the highest and most fantastic in the world." "What was really hard was when he would disappear, without any contact for two, three days and we would grow worried that he might be dead." "Do you believe that this crack epidemic, if we can call it that, is really out of control?" "Statistics show that the use of crack appeared in 2009 and today 60% of our patients are crack users." "There's something else about this drug." "It doesn't discriminate social classes." "In reality, it addicts all of them." "And when someone hits rock bottom, with no where left to go, he doesn't have anything to lose." "How will they have the conviction that they need to be treated?" "It's sad." "Children who are already addicted, who don't have a mom or dad, no education, no school." "It's pure abandonment." "It's a big pleasure, but the cost is very high; and each time around it destroys the lungs, it destroys neurons." "The brain, and also the body, are compromised." "I'm trying to say that it's the tip of the iceberg." "The real thing must be a lot worse." "I don't even know where to start." "I remember clearly the moment that everything changed." "I remember that I ran." "I remember that my legs began to burn with pain, you know?" "It wasn't fear." "It was something much stronger than fear." "Metanoia Mothers on their knees, children on their feet" "1." "Change in one's thinking or in one's emotions." "2." "Repentance or penitence." "Eduardo, good morning." "Eduardo, wake up, son!" "Good morning, Mom." "Good morning." "What's up?" "How come you didn't go to work?" "I came home early today." "Why?" "I left the job." "Did you resign?" "No, workforce reduction." "Gosh, what the heck, huh?" "They always find someone to work for less than us." "Right, sorry." "I didn't even introduce myself." "My name is" "Eduardo." "I grew up in Angela Garden, which, if you don't already know, is on the outskirts of São Paulo." "My mom, Miss Solange, always took really good care of me." "Eduardo!" "Lunch is on the table at noon." "Don't be late." "Ok, Mom." "Goal!" "My mom had to run the house alone." "She was strong enough to keep me far from trouble as I grew up." "I made two goals today, mom." "Oh, how lovely!" "You should've seen me in the second." "In the second, Pedro passed to me, and I was in the box, and they knocked me down." "It was a penalty!" "But you should've seen the goal that made against Kininho." "But I don't want carrots." "Dudu, eat your carrots, they're good for, my son." "No, I don't want to." "Eduardo, if you don't eat your carrots there will be no video games." "Hm Not again!" "Stop, go away!" "Stop!" "Stop!" "Stop, stop!" "Go away!" "Dudu, I went to the market." "When I come back" "I want to see the bathroom clean." "Kisses, Mom." "I remember one time that I didn't do what my mom told me to do." "Fifty!" "It was because of this disobedience that I discovered the strength my mom had." "One, two, three, Kininho!" "Here's Eduardo!" "Behind the wall." "Shut up, Rogério, you always ruin the fun." "Watch your mouth, brat." "Who do you think you talking to?" "Huh?" "Cat's got your tongue?" "Answer me!" "I didn't want to fight, not a bit." "But Rogério was really cocky, and he had already pushed me around a ton." "Cry!" "I got thirteen stitches." "Dude, my mom didn't lecture me, didn't cry, just total silence." "Yeah, that was always her way." "This was one of the first times that I realized how much I depended on her, and she on me." "But you, you're gonna find a job soon, right Mom?" "You've never been without one." "Yeah, God help us, right son?" "I need one." "Last week I went to find some work, and walked my butt off." "Hope everything works out, yeah?" "The guys said they'd call." "Hope so, yeah?" "Kininho!" "Kininho!" "Oh Kininho!" "Hey Dudu, come on up, man." "I never had a brother, but Kininho was the closest thing to it." "What's up?" "What's up?" "You cool, man?" "Yeah, cool." "My mom, dude, she was fired from work, man." "Ten years, man, rough, huh?" "That's rough, man, but Miss Solange'll get a new job soon." "She's a no quitter, right?" "Before you know it, she'll be working anywhere." "Miss Solange's gonna be just fine." "Yeah, I know, man." "She's been crying, she's not herself and all." "But I give her two days to be working again." "Yup, that's right." "But you know what I've been thinking?" "It's about time I start working, right man?" "Should've started sooner, don't you think man?" ""Should've started sooner." Shut up, man." "Who are you, psycho?" "Sitting on this roof, rolling a joint." "Haven't done a single thing all day, man." "Here, light a little one for us to relax, right?" "Oh, of course man." "So we'll get spaced out, write our resumé, add our 2x2 ID photos." "High school grad." "Awesome resumé!" "You'll see, bro." "That's it, man, let's go work in Mariana Villa!" "Absolutely, let's do it, man." "Go to the South Zone in a little suit, you'll see." "Going down the street and all." "So, Kininho let me borrow his motorcycle so that I could work, and he didn't ask for anything back." "Good evening!" "Hey, good evening." "Josy, two hundred and one." "I've been waiting a long time for this pizza, man." "Oops, good evening to you too." "It's cold, man." "Here, man." "C'mon, you're kidding me." "The soda's warm, man." "I shouldn't even pay." "I'm going to call to complain about you." "Good evening!" "Keep the change." "Thanks." "Good night to you too, you moron." "Sir, give me some change?" "Leave me alone, dude." "Just some change so I can eat." "Hey, out of my way, crackhead." "Are you crazy, man?" "This is what you call living?" "That guy in the rain." "Craziness." "Kininho took me to meet some higher class guys, you know?" "I have no idea where he met that group." "But I didn't care." "I only wanted to have fun and enjoy." "Hey, Kininho." "Sup?" "Sup, dude, everything cool?" "You cool, man?" "I thought you weren't coming, bro." "Seriously?" "I wouldn't miss this." "You guys having fun?" "This place is nuts." "It's crazy!" "Hey, remember that guy I told you about?" "Dudu?" "Yeah." "This is him." "Hey, sorry man." "It's all good man?" "It's a pleasure." "Your first time with the gang, there's an initiation ritual." "A welcoming ritual." "Maybe you know." "Here it is, this here is specialty of the house." "Hey dude!" "Ooo!" "Thanks man, really bro." "For you to smoke right now, ok?" "Right?" "Thanks a lot, ok?" "Of course." "Hey, I'm gonna make my rounds, I'll be back." "Excuse me, guys." "Thanks again." "Sweet, huh?" "This is insane, dude." "Different, man." "Wake up" "How long are we going to keep pretending, son?" "You promised me that you wouldn't cry, Mom." "I can't help it anymore." "I want my son back." "I'm dying right along with you." "I can't do anything." "I can't even go visit your uncles." "I can't even leave to go around the block." "And when I do leave, son, I hear your voice in the streets, you know?" "I ask myself, I keep hammering my head: "what did I do wrong?"" ""What did I do wrong?" You didn't do anything," "Mom, nothing." "Understand?" "It's not my uncle, my aunt, my mom, my grandma, not anyone." "No one is guilty." "I wanted this, understand?" "No one's fault." "I should have left this place, son." "I lost that chance." "But I'm okay, don't worry about me." "It's just that sometimes..." "It's fine." "It'll pass." "It's just that it's my dream, you know?" "My dream is to see you well." "Far from all this." "How long?" "Just tell me this: how long?" "How long?" "How long?" "You think I like to stay here?" "How long?" "How long till I'm good, until everything works out." "Do you think it's cool to stay here all day long?" "If I could, I'd leave." "Promise, promise me that you won't let me leave?" "Promise me that you won't let me leave?" "I promise." "Say it louder, Mom." "I promise!" "Hi Mom." "Eduardo!" "Where were you, son?" "I slept at a friend's house." "You don't tell me these things, Eduardo." "You're gorgeous today, huh Miss Solange." "You rock, yeah man." "Yeah, I made myself up to make food for my elusive son." "The guys have their eye on you, talking about you on the street." "If anyone makes a move.... ok Mom?" "If anyone starts hitting on you, they'll have to deal with Daddy here." "Ah, yes, ok." "Don't you think your alone in this." "Oh, stop it." "What's that, Mom?" "What?" "Oh son, it's not ready yet." "After I became friends with Jeff, oh man, I didn't have to go looking for drugs." "The dude was full of dough, always bought the best stuff." "Everyday after work I'd stop by his apartment to smoke one." "C'mon man, give me a joint there, man." "Let's go, dude." "Play a little." "Shut up, bro." "C'mon, c'mon, c'mon!" "Go ahead." "Pass it to daddy, here." "Go on." "Now you're gonna get it, boy!" "watch it, watch it..." "Dude!" "Go on, man." "Go!" "I even dropped the controller." "Watch out man, now I'm gonna win." "Watch out!" "Here I come!" "Look at the finish line there." "That's nuts, man!" "Finish him off, dude." "The guy's crazy." "This game is pretty sick, man!" "You know that moment when you don't see the huge pothole right in front of you?" "I demolished that bike, man." "Demolished!" "The worst part was the friendship I lost." "What's up, man!" "What's up!" "What's up, Eduardo?" "Sup, dude!" "Find your way ok?" "So you kissed the asfalt, huh?" "Dude, I screwed up." "Man, how stupid!" "Road rash?" "Yeah, man." "Dang!" "How stupid!" "How stupid!" "Everyone's laughing at me." "Crazy, man!" "I crashed like a moron!" "Man... ridiculous." "The worst is that Kininho is breathing down my neck." "Have to pay, have to fix the bike." "He need it to work, right?" "He let me borrow the bike out of generosity." "The guy needs the bike for his job, and still let's me use it, man.... dang!" "That's why I was calling you man, see if you'd help me out." "No, no worries!" "Sorry to bother you, man, but..." "I'm in deep water." "You mean to say that you're all shredded up?" "For no good reason, man." "I'm a freaking moron." "Go ahead." "Laugh." "I was an idiot, I know!" "Wow, what a mess." "Here, Eduardo, I brought that help that you asked me for." "Gosh, bro." "Thanks, I mean it, ok?" "Don't know what to say." "Right, man." "Perfect." "It's all good?" "I'll pay you back, bro." "If you need anything, count on me." "Thanks, man." "Chill out." "You too, we're in this together." "Gotta go, have to get on the freeway..." "You crazy?" "You come all the way to the Garden and you're going back hungry..." "had lunch?" "No, not yet." "Some other time." "No, no!" "My mom made an awesome lunch." "It's only me and her." "Join us!" "No worries, man!" "Sure, man?" "Of course, bro." "You know my mom, my place." "Come on in." "Take no notice of the house, ok man?" "It's a simple place." "Come on in anyway." "Okay then, thanks." "Come on in, man!" "Mom!" "And bless the boys' lives, too." "Thanks for everything." "In Jesus' name, amen!" "Looking good, huh?" "How is it?" "Delicious, ma'am." "Very good!" "These beans are fantastic." "Didn't I tell you that these are the best beans in the world?" "You're just trying to please me." "Eduardo loves my beans." "Very good!" "That's why I've been gaining weight." "What do you do for a living?" "I took a break from college, right?" "My dad wanted me to work in his firm, but you know how it is, working with dad." "I'm looking into an internship with a friend of his." "I'm even seeing if I can get Eduardo a spot too." "Sweet, huh, Mom?" "Wow!" "That's awesome!" "But when you get your internship, do you get a salary, a contract and everything?" "I want so much for Eduardo to get a job with a contract." "It's a guarantee, right?" "That's right, ma'am." "That's an honor for a man." "I always say that to Eduardo, right son?" "Right on, ma'am." "You listening to your mom, Eduardo?" "It's a ton of work..." "Eduardo, are you listening to your mom?" "I'm listening." "Dude!" "Eduardo works hard." "He has the look of a gentleman, doesn't he?" "What the.. (laughs)" "Goodness!" "Why are your fingers so yellow?" "Mom, pass me some chicken." "That's just the paint I was using." "Oh, paint leaves everything stained, doesn't it?" "Sorry, but I'm gonna have seconds of the beans, ok?" "No problem, I'll get it for you." "Thanks very much." "I'll get it." "You want some more." "A little more sauce, a little more sauce..." "Sorry about that, man." "No problem." "If you let her, she'll talk all afternoon." "it's all good." "Hey... what do you say we go for a ride?" "Dude, absolutely!" "No need to stick around." "My mom's cool." "We can eat and run." "Sweet." "Relax." "No worries." "Thanks so much, ma'am." "Plenty of sauce." "Glory be!" "We're going to head out soon, okay?" "When we're done here, we'll go write the résumé." "We'll be a while." "Ah, is he helping you?" "It's because you have a computer, right?" "Yup, we do." "I need a rock, Mom." "Not a chance, son." "I need a rock." "Here." "I brought the cigarette that you asked for." "To calm you down." "I need crack, Mom." "Let go of my arm..." "let me go, son." "Don't play with me." "You don't know what I'm capable of!" "What are you going to do?" "Are you going to hit me?" "Do you want to quit now?" "That's it." "That's what you want." "You want to go back to that life of crap." "To be destroyed, gathering trash." "Is that what you want?" "I won't give up, Eduardo." "This is insane, bro!" "Like it?" "Wow!" "Freedom, dude!" "What the heck." "Insane." "So, let's take off here?" "Get that stuff, then, a joint." "It must be crazy to take off from here, huh dude." "Today I want to introduce you to a different little something." "What's that?" "What?" "That thing there?" "It's a crack pipe, man." "I'm going to smoke a rock." "Are you going to try it or not?" "A rock?" "Ah, I'm cool man." "What's up, Eduardo?" "This is harmless." "Go ahead, man." "But, a crack rock, no thanks." "What?" "What's up, Eduardo?" "That's horrible stuff." "You gonna turn your nose up now?" "No, that's not what it is." "I always smoke this, bro." "It's totally fine." "It's only every once in a while, understand?" "Every once in a while." "Everyone says that's a junkie's drug, man." "A junkie's drug?" "Do I look like a junkie?" "Look at me, man!" "Just have to be in control." "Do you have control over yourself?" "Do you?" "Of course, man!" "So there." "You've even smoked one of these before!" "Are you nuts?" "When?" "In the joint I gave you at that party." "Craziness, man." "Sweet stuff, huh?" "Gave you a high?" "There you go, harmless." "It's only once in a while, understand?" "It's crazy to look on all this and know that it only takes a step, a step forward, or backward." "One of the two can change everything." "Dude, here it is, Eduardo!" "I'm even jealous of you, bro, cuz it's the first time and everything." "I'm not gonna, dude." "Oh stop being such a pansy, Eduardo!" "Trust me, man." "It's fine." "Ok then, let's go, let's go." "Okay then, I'll light it, and you take a strong drag and hold it in, ok?" "Now!" "That's it!" "Go, inhale... yeah... hold it!" "Hold it!" "Hold it!" "Think of a really peaceful place, Eduardo." "Think of peaceful place!" "That's it!" "Talk to me, man!" "How was it?" "Talk to to me, Eduardo." "Woah, man!" "Jeff talked about that stuff so many times as if it were paradise, but he actually ended up introducing me to hell!" "Look at that!" "Hey!" "Sup, Jeff!" "Everything good, man?" "What's up, Tiny!" "You cool?" "Come here." "Yeah, cool, who's your buddy here?" "This here is Eduardo, man." "I want to introduce you." "Get over here!" "Greet the guy." "You cool, man?" "It's a pleasure, man!" "So, is the shop working out okay?" "Oh, that!" "No trouble!" "24/7!" "Ok then, no trouble, get fifty's worth for us." "Oh, man!" "Grab the money there, man." "Here it is." "Ow!" "There's gonna be a little party, huh?" "We're in this together, ok?" "Together." "We're in this together!" "Here, Eduardo, hold that." "God be with you!" "See ya, bro!" "What's wrong, physcho?" "What's up?" "Wake up, man!" "Dude, wake up!" "Jeff." "Jeff!" "Talk to me, man!" "Sit here, man." "What's going on, dude?" "What is it, man?" "Look at me!" "Look at me!" "Look at me, man!" "Look at me!" "Here, look!" "Look at me!" "What happened, man?" "What happened?" "What happened?" "What happened, man?" "Stop messing with me, stop messing with me." "Tell me what happened!" "Talk to me, Jeff." "Everything's going to be fine, man!" "It's going to be fine." "Wait, man, wait!" "Stop it, bro!" "It's going to be fine!" "Wait, man!" "Stop it bro." "Stop it, stop it." "Stop it bro!" "Here the scriptures say that it's good to eat, drink and have fun." "But these things are fleeting." "As it is written:" "the glory of the herb and the flowers of the field are fading." "In a moment, they will be no more." "Therefore, it's necessary that you and I concern ourselves with eternal things." "That's why the Creator put eternity in our heart." "He also put purpose in our life." "He made us with purposes so that we might live them in eternity." "Losing Jeff for me, man, was like losing a brother." "But you think that I stopped?" "Crack was already in me." "What's up, dude?" "You cool, there?" "It's all good." "Pay up for your own stuff, man!" "In Crackland, we smoke under the sky, right next to downtown." "I saw crimes, robberies, people killing themselves." "Can you imagine a place that has it's own rules?" "The crazy thing is, that's not what freaked me out." "But back then, I just enjoyed my stuff and went home." " What happened, son?" " Nothing." " What do you mean, nothing?" " Ah, leave me alone." "What are you doing, Eduardo?" "Getting the video game here, mom." "I'm going to play at Kininho's house." "That boy's addicted, right?" "Sorry about the noise." "I woke you up, didn't I?" "I'm heading out." "You know how Kininho is, right?" "I'll be playing until dawn." "Don't need to wait for me." "Sleep well, okay?" "Bless you, Mom." "God bless you, son." "Time on the street is really insane." "You even forget that there's someone waiting for you at home." "Look at this." "It works perfectly, controller." "It's from our family." "My mom didn't even imagine the places I went." "Hey there!" "Watch out!" "It's in the backpack." "Dough was getting harder and harder to find." "I hardly ever went home." "I had already sold everything." "I needed more crack!" "I had no remorse." "I thought I could do anything." "I'll be getting there shortly, okay?" "Relax." "What time is it?" "Give me the cell." "Give me the cell." "Give me the cellphone, man." "What do you mean, the cellphone?" "Give me the cellphone, man." "Give me the cell." "Now split." "Go." "Go." "Go." "Go away." "Don't look back." "I'm gonna make sure everything's cool, man." "That's right, man." "Got it, bro." "I'm learning." "Everyday." "I know everybody and all that." " One, two, three rounds, right?" " Sweet." "I'm with ya, man." "Take two, to give you some nerve." "Thanks, man." "The bro's a good guy." "Go ahead, bro." "Sure, man." "Yeah, man." "Cool." "Sure, man." "There you go, man." "Want some protection there, man?" "Hurry up, man." "Want protection?" "Let's do it, man..." "it's cool." "I'll come back." "Go." "Your wasted." "Get out of here." "Look straight at my face." "Look at it." "Don't forget, ok?" "I'm coming back, dude." "We're it." "It's all cool." "You're tripping, man." "Where is everyone?" "Where are the junkies now?" "Where are the junkie's that mess with me?" "Who's going to mess with me now?" "I'm armed." "I'm armed." "Yeah." "Give me the money." "Give me the money." "C'mon!" "Come on and give me the money." "Hurry up." "There's more." "There's more." "There's more." "Give it over." "Don't try to fool me." "C'mon." "There's no more." "Calm down, sir." "Go away, go." "Go ahead and call me a crackhead." "Crackhead." "Who's the crackhead, man?" "You're not going to say anything?" "Why did you come then?" "Sometimes, I think..." "I don't know." "You miss him, don't you?" " Who's him, Mom?" " Your father." "This doesn't have anything to do with my dad." "Then why?" "Why?" "What's the motive?" "You know the worst part?" "There is no motive." "Violence wasn't my cup of tea." "I didn't want to wake up stabbed on the sidewalk, and my mom to have to see the scene to recognize the body." "I returned the gun." "Miss Solange didn't deserve this." "She already suffered enough with my disappearances." "What are you doing with your life, son?" "Answer me." "Eduardo, say something." "I didn't have anything to say." "My mom would never forgive me if she knew what I was doing." "When I thought about my mom far away from me," "I always remember Cadu's story." "I didn't want to get anywhere close to that." "Hey, wanna swap this ring?" "No." "No?" "Hey buddy, wanna swap this ring?" "No, no, I don't trade nothing." "Nothing?" "No no, not gonna." "Go away, go away." "Not a chance." "Hey, wanna swap this ring?" "I only came because you promised not to cry." "I won't cry, son." "You have no idea how happy I am to see you." "Aren't you going to give me a hug?" "I'd better not." "You wouldn't like the smell." "I just want to hug you." "Happy birthday!" "One more year of life." "It'd be easier to say one more year of death, huh?" "Don't talk like that, boy." "Sorry, Mom." "I told you not to come." "This here... this is a cemetery, Mom." "There's nothing to talk about except death." "I had to come, son." "Today is your birthday, it's been four years that you've been here and I've celebrated your birthday alone." "Your dad is always working and your siblings only come on the weekends." "I needed to come." "Look," "I brought your favorite kind of cake." "Stop it!" "It's chocolate fudge." "Sorry." "Mom, you know that I love this cake..." "my throat's in a knot, I won't be able to eat one piece." "Look, let's pretend just a little." "Just to be able to enjoy my son again." "Just for five minutes, son." "Do this for your mom." "It doesn't cost you anything." "Look, I'm going to get up, leave, come back, you hug me and we'll sit down here all happy and cut the cake." "Mom, Mom, no, Mom." "Why do this?" "Son, just to remember how good it was to have my son alive." "Okay." "Hi son, so glad that you got here on time." "How was your class?" "It was good." "The teacher made me leave the classroom again." "Where's my hug?" "Happy Birthday." "We have to have a party today." "Only if the cake's chocolate fudge." "Look here, oh!" "Make a wish." "Be strong Mom." "Please, you promised." "Yeah, you need to take a quick shower, because the neighbors are coming to your little party, and you don't want to be all sweaty like this, do you?" "Yeah." "Your the best mom in the world, did you know that?" "You are the best son in the world." "Hope your brothers don't hear us." "I love you so much, my son." "I love you so much, mommy." "I want my son back." "That's impossible, Mom." "Look, look at me." "I'm dead." "The dead don't come home." "I'm dead, Mom." "Crack, crack calls me by name." "It doesn't let me sleep." "There's no going back, Mom, I gave up already." "Why don't you give up too?" "No." "It would be easier." "It's just a matter of time before I die." "Burry me once and for all." "Burry me once and for all, Mom, that way instead of feeling pain, you'll just miss me." "It's better than this pain of trying and never succeeding." "Don't you like to pretend?" "Huh?" "Don't you like to play pretend?" "Yeah..." "Then pretend, Mom." "Pretend that I left home to go to college, but then I was run over and that's that." "I'm going to wait for you at the window," "Everyday." "You can continue eating this pig food, but your favorite meals will always be made." "I'll set your place, I promise, son." "I'll do everything the way you like it." "The rice separate from the beans, plenty of salt in the salad." "I'll put everything on the table, and when you're underneath, gathering crumbs, and decide to look up," "you'll see your food there on the table." "You don't need to explain anything, not you..." "Don't worry because your mother won't ask you anything." "The key will be there in it's hiding place and I'll never lock the gate." "I brought you a present." "You shouldn't have, Mom." "Do you remember this ring?" "It's was Grandpa's." "Your Grandpa's." "He gave it to me before he died." "I put it away." "Do you promise you'll bring it to me when you come home?" "Give me your finger." "Each time you look at it, you'll remember your mom." "It's just a symbol of my love for you, my son." "Do you want to come back home with me now?" "Huh?" "Hey, you wanna swap this ring?" "Do a swap for what, psycho?" "For a pipe?" "This is silver here." "Look here." "If I went to a store, I'd get 500 bucks for this thing here." "You know that silver has the value of smoke here, right?" "Two pipes and some rocks, okay?" "I saw a bunch of people sell their own soul in that place." "There, people lose their humanity, can't love anyone anymore." "I didn't want to, but I ended up worse than Cadu." " Woah, what's going on there, man?" " They killed Xandinho, man." "Oh crap." "Oh crap." "They came there, and stabbed him with a knife." "This is the closest place to hell that earth can get." ""How can you kill someone who's already dead?"" "This was one of the phrases most spoken there." "My fear of death onlylasted until I smoked my next rock." "There, everyone was loose change." "Men, pregnant women, children." "Everyone sold their body for 5 bucks, or in exchange for a crack rock." "Good morning." "You're here again, dude?" "Know what?" "You see me everyday here, right man?" "I'm so hungry." "All you do is find money to buy crack?" "No money to eat?" "No, no." "But it's just a roll." "Just one roll." "That's enough, psycho, go away." "Enough." "Leave." "Go, go, go." "Calm down." "Who are they over there in yellow, man?" "Them there?" "It's food." "Aren't you hungry?" "Hungry?" "Hungry!" "I just ate a huge lasagna with ground beef, yeah, red, you know?" "Cauliflower." "You think I'm hungry, dude?" "You haven't eaten anything, man, let's go." "It's free, let's go." "In Crackland, I discovered that angels wear yellow." "Food, shower, clothing." "Dude, those are good guys." "They talked to us, ya know?" "For us to think about our life." "What's up, my brother?" "You cool?" "Hey thanks, man." " What's your name?" " Eduardo." " Eduardo." "Eduardo what?" " Teixeira da Silva." "Good afternoon, do you have something for me to eat?" "It's been three days since I've eaten." "Anyway to get a meal to go for me?" "I don't have anything." "I don't want money, I'm just hungry." "It's been three days since I've eaten." "I don't have anything, man." "You don't have anything?" "A coin, anything?" "No I don't." "You will know the truth and the truth will set you free." "John 8:32" "How was your day, son?" "It was awesome." "I went for a ride, had some ice cream, almost went to the mall." "Oh, silly!" "This place is stinky isn't it, son?" "Where have you gotten yourself to?" "You, who were always so neat and tidy, who got angry when I didn't change your sheets every week, right?" "So sensitive to smells." "I don't smell anything, Mom." "I don't smell anything." "I only know I want help, right?" "I just don't know what kind." "I didn't think of my life as good or bad." "Actually, I didn't think about anything." "But the guys of the organization talked to me and convinced me to get some rehab." "Hey!" "Which is free here, man?" "That one there, man." "Sweet." "Cool." "Where are you from?" "Angela Garden." "Have you been there?" "Saint Amaro?" "Take the M Boi Mirim and go on forever." "You know?" "And you?" "North Zone." " Look, the guy's a prep, huh dude?" " You're first time in rehab?" " The first." "You?" " Fifth rehab." "That's what I'm talking about, huh, give me five, man." "Nice to meet you, I'm Eduardo." "Tião." "Pleasure Welcome." "I didn't think "poor me"." "I didn't think I was an addict." "But the people in the clinic there knew exactly what each person brought from the streets and fought for us to get clean." "My name is Tião." "Hi Tião." "It's my fifth time here in rehab for cocaine dependence." "When we do drugs, we don't think much about the future, do we?" "We aren't very worried about that." "But here we think, here we want to get somewhere and I'm dying to get out of here and face life." "I want to leave here, and I know what I have to do, what it is to be a normal person out there, get a job, but there's always that day that it seems impossible and I learned that it's that day that you have to" "break down into stages." "Beginning with waking up, taking care of something, outside, always occupying your mind and trying your best." "But I'm here now trying to find my motivation to go out and be a normal person." "No!" "Leave me alone!" "It was really rare to have a quiet night." "I wasn't any better than anyone there, but there were some that were in a much deeper hole than I was." "Go away!" "Go away!" "Nobody liked to be there, but the good part of the clinic was, I don't know, you feel more protected, you know?" "I felt protected from myself." "Play the right way, man." "Maybe I'm all warmed up." "Whoa, that's it, huh?" "Oops." "That's it." "Ha!" "Soccer, huh?" "Go Eduardo!" "You're done?" "Are there many people here?" "Um, there are about sixty guys, more or less." "The food is good." "There are about 4 sessions a day." "Are there many lectures?" "Yeah, a ton!" "The psychologist is really good." "They're religious too, aren't they?" "That's good isn't it?" "It's not religious the whole day and everything, but to each his own, right?" "But it's good." "I'm good Mom." "I'm walking it out." "Thank God." "And you?" "I'm good too." "I miss you so much, son." "I can't wait till you get out of here." "Take me out of here, Mom." "I'm well." "Super relaxed, it's true, Mom." "I don't feel anything anymore, I don't crave anymore." "Everyone's really impressed here." "Really, that's great!" "Yeah, the guys are impressed." "They said that they're going to have me take care of others and everything." "It's true." "You talk to them." "How about this, you say that you're ready to take me home, right?" "Don't say that I said anything..." "Son, let's do what we agreed." "A little patience for us, ok?" "I'm waiting for you." "Patience." "Let's finish well." "I'm finished here, Mom." "Look at me!" "Patience, my son." " Do you believe me, Mom?" " Always, son." "I'm well." "Believe me?" "Look at me, I'm telling the truth." "I'm not going to fall back, Mom." "I brought your cake." "Come on, let's eat." "Eat." "Try it, son, come on." "Eat." "What's up, guys, my name is Eduardo!" "Hi, Eduardo!" "I want to leave." "I want to leave, but you know what's worst?" "The worst is that I don't want to leave because I want to go to my mom's house." "I want to leave because I want to go back to Crackland." "Should I lie?" "Because that's want I'm really feeling?" "Wanting to go there and smell that smell again, and eat that food, live in the streets lying again." "Are you wasting time with me?" "Am I taking up precious bed space?" "Sleeping in some else's bed, eating some else's food?" "I'm dead, man." "Here you say that you have to clean up what's dirty, right?" "And in my case, what if I'm the dirt?" "That's it." "It has to be that way." "It must be that way." "Thanks!" "God be with you." "Take care of yourself out there, okay?" "Thanks!" "Bye man, thank you!" "You did it, Du, strength!" "That's it." "Thanks!" "God be with you, Du!" "Goodbye." "I spent six months in that place." "I promised my mom that" "I'd be okay, that crack was a thing of the past, but all I thought about was two things:" "how I'd be able to stay clean, and how I'd be able to get ahold of a crack rock." "I'm going to make something for us." "I really missed your spaghetti." "I really missed making it for you, son." "Oh, very, very, very good." "So much better than what the guys made there at the clinic, Mom." "Oh, of course!" "They probably don't know how to make this sauce." "It's wasn't horrible, right, but yeah, no one knew how to make the sauce like you do." "Hey, I got an interview for you." "Awesome, when?" "Thursday." "I put all your information on the paper, there in the drawer of your room." "Sweet, I can't wait to start working." "That's wonderful." "It really is." "Excuse me." "Oh hi." "Just a moment, please." "Please be seated." "Thank you." "You're welcome." "I'm almost done typing up a document here." "Now I'll just send it." "Ok, ready!" " What's your name?" " Eduardo." "Eduardo da Silva." "Did you bring your résumé, Eduardo?" "Yes, it's right here." "Let me take a look." "Here, Mr. Eduardo." "You came from Angela Garden?" "That's right." "You live there?" "Yes, I do." "It's a little far, isn't it?" "Yes, but the bus stop is close to my house, really quick." "I don't even have to catch the subway." "The bus comes straight here." "Ok, high school, ok." "Well, experience as a delivery boy, is that right?" "Yeah, that too." "That too?" "Is there something else?" "I delivered pizza, documentation, everything they asked us to do, I delivered." "Whatever someone needs for anything." "Whatever." "Ok." "Eduardo, tell me something." "Why do you want to change your profession, change your position?" "It's a challenge, right?" "Something new, a new phase in life." "To challenge myself, I can do anything." "Change." "Okay, Eduardo, here's what I'm going to do: we have to continue the selection process, and when we have a result, we'll contact you." "Okay?" "That's all for now." "Okay." "Is my number on there?" "Yes, here's the number." "We'll be in contact." "Okay?" "Okay, thank you!" "Good luck to you." "Thank you, just call." "Whatever you need, ok?" "Thank you." "Look who's alive." "You always show up alive, huh?" "Hey bro, this is my place." "This is my place." "You know what an addict's problem is?" "Actually, it's that the addict's not ready to face life, and isn't ready to hear a "no"." "In the first weakness, you want to turn off." "Why feel pain if you can be numb?" "It was really crazy, that feeling of weakness." "It knocked me down," "I didn't want to think anymore." "But I gave in, man." "I gave into death all at once, man." "What crazy emptiness, what crazy emptiness that" "I was feeling." "But we pretend in front of everybody that we know what we want." "But could it be that I really did know?" "What I wanted..." " What do you want, psyco?" " You know." "I want to go to heaven." " You want to go to heaven?" " I want to go to heaven, dude, sure." " You want to really space out?" " I need to, I need to." "Then go to hell, man, get out of here!" "Go away, go away!" " Hey dude, you're tense, huh?" " Get out of here, man." "Yeah, Jeff was right..." "Fire, please." "Fire, fire." "He had once said something that never left my head." "Pay attention and open your hearts, because this teacher here is going to reveal the myth of the cavern of crack." "The myth of the cavern of crack is about a group of people stuck in a hole, a dark hole." "These people are born there and live there, hearing noises, echos of voices, and seeing figures." "It almost seems like Plato knew about Helvetia Street, under the shadows of Crackland." "Guys, please, a swisher in honor of Plato." "Light up!" "Everyone light up together." "Let's imagine that at the entrance of this cavern there is a wall, a giant wall, enormous, a gigantic wall, separating this cavern from the outside world." "Let's imagine, that in this wall, there's a hole, there's a gap, through which enter a few rays of light that come from outside, from the outside world." "And these rays of light project shadows onto the cavern's far wall." "Shadows." "And these people imprisoned there are seeing these shadows, hearing those noises, and they believe that is reality, that the shadow is reality." "Understand?" "Now if one of these people decides to free himself, leave there, and if he is able to get away little by little, and starts to climb the wall, and if he is able to get to the other side, this person will discover that those" "shadows weren't made by just the human beings like them that were there, around a fire, but by much more, the whole world, all the huge expanse of the world and of nature." "If this person decides to go back into the cavern, to reveal to his old friends and companions that the situation they're living in is absolutely misleading, he will run, according to Plato, serious risks of being ignored." "He could even be imprisoned, or killed by others, who took him for a psychopath, a fanatic, an inventor of lies." "Well, I'm that person!" "I'm going to climb that wall, I'm going to leave this cavern and I'll discover up there, out there, I'll discover a world that's much crazier, much bigger, much wider," "unimaginable." "And when I discover what exists on the other side, I promise to come back and tell all of you about it." "But until I get there, the thing is to live in the now." "Live intensely today and keep hearing voices and seeing figures." "Hi, please, have you seen this boy here?" "This guy here, have you seen him?" "No?" "Do you know him?" "Have yoe" "That kid there, ma'am?" "I'm remembering..." "I just saw that kid over there, under that tent." "Over there, ma'am." "Excuse me, excuse me." "Have you seen this kid here?" "No one's seen him?" "Are you sure?" "Have you seen him?" "Eduardo, Eduardo." "Idiot, moron!" "Let's go home." "(sound of the TV)" "I'll be back, son." " Where are you going, Mom?" " I'm going to get some bread." "I'll go for you, Mom." "No, no, son." "You don't have to." "No, no, you keep working here." "I'll put some pants on real quick, ok?" "Lord, I trust you, where Eduardo is now, transformation to happen, I know that everything is falling apart around me but I know that the Lord is my shield and my fortress" "I believe in the miracle is going to happen in my son's life" "Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night, Nor for the arrow that flieth by day;" "For the pestilence that walketh in darkness, Nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday." "A thousand shall fall at thy side," "And ten thousand at thy right hand;" "But it shall not come nigh thee." "There shall no evil befall thee, Neither shall any plague come nigh thy tent." "Holy Spirit touches my son at that time." "Will in his mind and takes all the addiction." "I rebuke all the death." "Lord touches." "There is power in your name." "I was going to smoke again, but I felt something strange." "I felt something screaming inside me, and I simply obeyed." "I remember clearly the moment that everything changed." "I remember that I ran." "I remember that my legs began to burn with pain, you know?" "It wasn't fear." "It was something much stronger than fear." "I don't like to see you locked in there." "Don't say that, Mom." "You don't need to feel guilty." "I wanted this, right?" "Are you sure about this, Eduardo?" "It's better for me, Mom." " But how long will you stay in there?" " As long as it's necessary." "Who is it, man?" "Who's there, man?" "Leave." "Leave." "Leave." "Leave me....alone." "Leave..." "Go away, go." "No, no." "I'm going to stay." "It'll pass." "I'm going to stay here with you." "You don't need to see this." "No, no." "I want to." "You don't need to see this, Mom." "You really don't." "Go." "Go away from here." "Go away from here." "Go away, go." "Go away, go." "Go away." "Go away, go." "Go." "Don't do this." "Be quiet." "Be quiet." "Son, no." "Give me some crack, Mom." "I can't, I can't." "Just a crack rock." "A rock." "I'm fine." "I'm fine." "I'm fine." "I'm fine, Mom." "Just get me out... get me out so I can buy a rock, Mom." "Go ahead and get me out." "I can't." "Get me out, Mom." "Get me out." "Get me out of here, Mom." "Get me out of here, Mom." "Mom!" "I'm fine." "Let me out, Mom." "Let me out, Mom." "Get me out of here!" "Get me out of Here!" "No, son." "Get me out!" "Let me go." "Let me out!" "Let me go." "Let me out, let me out, let me out." "Do it!" "Do it!" "Let me out!" "Get me out of here!" "I want a rock!" "A rock!" "What are you going to do?" "I'm going to kill you." "I'm going to kill you!" "I'm going to kill you." "A rock!" "A rock!" "Get me out!" "Let me go..." "Let me out." "Let me out." "I believe you, son." "I believe you, my God." "Who's there?" "Who's there?" "I'll never forget that moment." "I had the feeling that there was someone at the door of my room." "But I didn't see anyone." "It seems crazy, but I only felt someone." "It was like a kind of wind, you know, was blowing and coming from the four corners of the room" "Come in" "Who are you?" "I'm losing my head." "Where's this going to take me, man?" "Where's this going to end?" "Believe in who?" "How can I believe in someone that was never close to me?" "You will know the truth and the truth will set you free." "John 8:32" "I believe." "I believe." "So, help me." "Help me go back to being a son." "It seems kind of crazy, all of this that I'm telling you, right?" "I know that you might not believe it, but my life changed." "My life changed completely after that day." "It seemed like I got reinforcements, you know?" "The best thing about it was that I felt that I wasn't fighting alone anymore." "I want to say to everyone that's listening, thanks for your patience, for getting to know my whole story." "I want to say that, really, just like God changed my life, God can change your life, absolutely." "Don't stop dreaming." "Don't ever stop, even though you think you have a bunch of reasons to stop dreaming and all." "There's always a light at the end of the tunnel for you to find." "Go ahead and dream, dude, dream!" "Go back to dreaming." "I'm here to prove that miracles exist, because I'm a miracle of God." "That's all." "People have been impacted and touched today." "People who today are going through the same reality as you have once." "But I'm sure that you passed." "They will too." "Thanks." "Thank you." "God bless you." "Amen." "Tomorrow, we'll.." "Sorry, sorry to interrupt, I need to send a message to my mom, who is certainly listening:" "Miss Solange," "I want you to, um, hear me and know that I'm so thankful to God for your life." "Gosh, I don't even have words to thank you for everything that you did for me." "You showed me the simple things in life." "That it's possible to dream again." "Thank you for all the times that you waited for me there at home with some good food, waiting for me at the window and all." "Thank you, Mom!" "Thank you so much, because you showed me what love is, Mom." "Because you showed me that love is true, but this love made me see a much bigger love, love bigger than anything on Earth, which is God's love." "So thank you," "Mom." "Thank you for showing me the way, showing me that you didn't see me as a dog, but you saw me as a dream." "Thanks, Mom!" "I love you, okay?" "I love you so much." "Thank you, Eduardo." "Tomorrow we'll return with more on this program." "God bless you." 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