"He'scoming." "Look atme, Paul." "Stand taller..." "Be brittle, edgy..." "Amatador relates to death, to anxiety..." "So be edgy..." "Clara, look down, be a bit submissive..." "Not too much!" "Abit submissive to the man..." "At three, you look atme..." "It's all in your look..." "At three, raise yourself on your toes and look atme." "One..." "Two..." "Three!" "Excellent!" "Youthink I don't suffer, too?" "Youthink I enjoy seeingyou unhappy?" "I toldyou, I'm always like this." "With other girls itlasted a week, then for 6 monthswe did nothing." "Really?" "With you, it's lasted 3 months." "It's allwe've done, night and day..." "Don't exaggerate." "We never did it all night." "Come on..." "We'd make love twice in a row." "l don't think so." "In fact... I thinkitnever happened." "Anyway, now... I can cheat on you." "Butyou can't." "No getting a hard-on for another girl, if you don't for me." "Have you cheated on me?" "No." "You're lucky." "Youwon'tmake me give up sex." "I haven't cheated on you, but I should have." "What does thatmean?" "Lookme in the eyes!" "Have you ever?" "Absolutely not!" "Itmeans I'm too dumb!" "You don't deserve my faithfulness." "Know why you drink?" "So you can collapse in bed like a log." "You only love me when there's a table between us." "Since we met, we've been together every night." "I've eaten opposite you." "I'm never bored." "Right!" "You like me when there's a table between us." "It's insane:" "I sleep over with a guy who doesn't touch me!" "You haven'tin ages!" "We discussedthat." "You swore you'd do something!" "Wait!" "For the end of the world?" "You have to wait!" "Maybe 3 more months!" "There's more to life than that!" "What are doing?" "You splitting?" "No." "lt's not that serious..." ""Yes, itis."" ""An invisible cage, heavy, leaden, descends on me," "a tacitinterdiction..."" "Take off your T-shirt." "I don't want to sleep with a cotton bag, I hate cotton." "No." "Getundressed and come to bed." "Why won'tyoutake it off?" "You know I can't stand it, I feel it againstme." "l'lltake it off, butnotmy shorts." "They keep my ballswarm." "It's nothingto do with you." "I never thought we'd be together every night." "Anyway, that's howitis." "It's my fault too." "I thoughtyou'd have... others things to do than see me every night." "We'd notmeet for 2weeks, a month..." "You'd letme disappear." "No." "Not without staying in touch..." "Notif you're in Pariswhen I am." "You don't trustme." "l'll leave... lf youwant, I'll leave." "You'll never see me again." "See how you are?" "We can't even talk." "Getinto bed." "Take that off." "l said it's nothing to do with you." "I've always sleptlike this." "itis to do with me!" "It's because you hate me." "Stop it." "I toldyou never to try that." "You're justpostponingthings." "Butyou're hard." "Stop, or it's all over between us." "ltmeans you can." "Doesn'tinterestme." "Be nice, why won'tyou?" "If you couldn't getitup, I'd understand." "You've decidedto stop making love, just when I..." "Watch out!" "I'llwant to kill myself!" "I've never done thiswith a guy." "I never touchedthem!" "Never!" "ltmustbe importantyou, since you harp on it." "Even if you don't want to, if you can't, I don't getit." "Then caress me. lf you can't get any pleasure, give me some!" "Women come a lotmore than men." "lf l didthat, I'd despise you." "I couldn'tlove you any more." "You despise me because I'm a woman." "You don'tlove me one bit!" "I disgustyou, I appallyou." "Youthink I'm the lowest..." "Stop it." "Come to bed." ""Why can I only love him or hate him?" "Why can't I feel indifferent?" "Yetmy head is clear." "Amanwho can'tlove me physically is a pit of misfortune, a gulf of suffering." "They say that a manwho screws a woman, honors her." "The expression isworth noting:" "it's true." "Paul dishonors me."" "Do you mind?" "On the contrary." "Just came for a nightcap?" "ljust got out of bed." "It's true, ljust got dressed." "I can't stand sleeping, so I gotup." "I don't give a damn about time, I'm never tired." "I hate people who feign fatigue, who have endless pretexts." "You agree?" "It's because they lackpassion." "You live alone?" "No, I have a husband." ""l told him I had a husband..." "So he'd know I'm not free." "Because I'm not free." "He'll have to realize it's adultery."" "He's asleep, sleeping doesn'tbother him at all!" "He has to getup early tomorrow." "He has a business appointment in Deauville atnoon." "Do you have a girlfriend?" "She died in a car accident." "I haven'tmade love in 4 months." "Maybe all men are like that." "My husband's nice, buthe's notinterested in sex." ""The firstmoves are what I like best." "It's delicious... I can never stop myself from yielding." "It surprises me each time:" "I watch myself giving in as if it wasn'tme." "Frankly... I wanted another taste of thatmiracle:" "a stranger making love to you." "It's a childish desire... a pure desire..."" "Give me a blowjob." "Notnow." "This evening or tomorrow." "Give me your phone number?" "You don't feel like it?" "To blow you?" "Notreally." "It's notmy specialty." "I don'tlike to start with that, I'd rather resume that way, if you see what I mean." "But goingto a hotel, I'm dyingto do that." "Now I have to split, in factright away." "Don't want to go to a hotel?" "l have to go to work!" "And I have to return the car." "It's notmine." "Willyou call me?" "Sorry I'm late." "Doesn'tmatter." "I took attendance." "Take outyour grammar notebooks, andwrite today's date." "Last weekwe did the present tense of the verb "to be"." ""l am, you are, he is," ""we are, you are, they are."" "Today, we'll do: "to have"." ""To have" isn'tlike "to be"." "One can "be" without"having"." "One can "have" without"being"." ""l've been had." "I've really been had..."" "l wish youwere pregnant..." "Fat chance of that!" "Why?" "It could happen." "How?" "By the Holy Ghost?" "You dreaming?" "There's no way, ever since I stoppedthe pill." "You hate details, but there are dates." "If you hardly ever do it, and can't on the right days, it'll never happen." "That'swhat depresses me." "That's different." "If you say it's chore time, I'll do it." "Really?" "Yes." "That'd change everyhing." "If we had a child, it'd make sense to be together." "lt's because you've lost faith." "It'll come back." "It's like the Circean myth." "Youwant to knowthe future, andthe past..." "You even mess with the present..." "Youforce it..." "You've lost faith, so everyhing collapses." "Whatif I left?" "And didn'tphone for 2weeks or a month?" "Or 6 months...?" "Wouldwe be through?" "Depends." "If you go to the North pole, or to a desert, maybe..." "Butif every time you see a phone you say:" ""l won't callthat dumb girl", and hang outing every bar in my neighborhood, I'd say we've broken up." "l talk of freedom, youtalk of bars." "lt's statistics." "A guy needs to remake the world with his pals in a bar, or he dies." "You know I don't cheat on you." "Maybe I'd rather you did, and also screwed me." "Anyway, I can cheat on you, butyou can't on me." "You already done it?" "Youtalk aboutit a lot." "No." "Butyou deserve to think I have." "OK." "Tomorrownight, I'm diningwithAshley." "You can come, butyou know what I'd prefer." "That I didn't come." ""l know I should lethim live." "But I needto clingto him like a leech." "Because I'm madly in love with him." "Whathe calls breathing, suffocates me." "I never askedto be free." "And I don't wanthim to be, either." "I'm a real stickler for absolutes." "And I think I'm right." "But when I apply it to life, itreally makes me go schizo."" ""He dances because he wants to seduce." "He wants to seduce because he wants to conquer." "He wants to conquer because he's a man."" "Now whatis it?" "You make a scene cause I dance with a girl?" "Not a girl, some bimbo!" "Who gives a fuck abouther?" "Then don't give a fuck!" ""l won'thave a kid with anyone else."" "You insist I wear one?" "... I haven't screwed in 6 months, I don'thave aids." "You're getting better." "You seem to enjoy it." "You're almost triumphant." "Youwantme to watch you slip on your condom." "At firstyou hid..." "Think so?" "l do... I didn't dare look:" "I don'tlike looking at a cock." "Once they've been used, they're revolting." "Notvery pretty..." "They are rather disgusting... lt's like a tampax: to screw, youtake it out discreetly, hide itunder the bed, so the guy's not turned off." "Guys are easily disgusted." "Later, you have to retrieve it." "I quite like disgustingthings." "Know why most guys can'tuse a condom?" "Their cocks aren'thard enough." "As they say, the rubber... rubs them out!" "l wouldn'tknow, I don't sleep with guys." "lt's true:" "they go limp allthe time." "Because... they're notreally horny." "It's like in porn flicks..." "girls... stuff limp cocks in their mouths." "They have to give blowjobs because they're notreally wanted." "A guy shouldtake you without a word... buthe shouldn't... bugyouwith his inadequacy..." "Sometimes a blowjob is fine." "lt's OK... when the guy could screw you, but won't." "That's the Tantalus torture... ltmakes you admit... you can do that... or evenworse... as long as he ends up screwingyou." "Most guys have cocks that are short, thin and pointed." "Pointed?" "Like a dog's cock... I hate that." "Length isn't everyhing." "There's the base..." "A thin cockisn'tnoble." "Shall I stickitin your ass?" "Notyet." "Screwme some more, I haven'thad enough." "My boyfriend doesn't screwme." "How can you love a guy who doesn't screw you?" "l don'tlike the guys who screwme. I hate them." ""l don't want to see the menwho screwme..." "Or look at them... I want to be a hole, a pit..." "The more gaping, the more obscene itis, the more it's me, my intimacy," "the more I surrender... lt's metaphysical:" "I disappear in proportion to the cocktaking me." "I hollowmyself." "That's my purity."" "You like your back beingtickled?" "No, I don'tlike tenderness." "Or to be kissed on the mouth." "I couldn't standthat." "I don't care who stuffs my cunt." "But I can'tkiss someone I don'tlove, it's too intimate." ""But I kissed Paolo, I feltlike it." "When I kissed him, I stoppedthinking about Paul." "So I decidedto stop seeing him." "It was a question of integrity."" "What are you doing?" "Nothing. I have a class." "You like my cock?" "l like its smell." "You're disgusting." "No, it smells good." "I like it that it's not too large." "It fits in my hand andfits in my mouth." "Why do you like it?" "lt's mine... I don'tknow... lt's like a bird." "Feels like I have a bird in my hand." "You see when you move like that, it's as if it wantedto fly away." "Butit doesn't." "That's touching." "You mindthat we don't go allthe way?" "What I mind is youwon't letme caress you." "I really resent that." "l do letyou caress me." "Butnot allthe way." "Don't worry, I don't come either!" "Dictation." ""Winter Months"" ""Everyone had..." ""settledfor..." ""a life that was dull" ""and orderly."" "Period." ""Then" ""suddenly,"" "Comma." ""light..." ""burst forth" ""once again."" "Period." ""Spring..." ""had come!"" "Exclamation point." "I know, my spelling is awful." "How did I pass my teaching exams?" "Or getmy driver's license." "I can'tparallel park." "That's less serious." "You're notbehind me when I'm double parked!" "l think I'm dis..." "lex... dis..." "lexic..." "Like with math, my reasoningwas fine, but I couldn'tlearn multiplication tables." "That's a problem." "Nice place." "Surprises you, eh?" "... lt's small, butithas everyhing." "Girlswant to see what they've seen on TV." "Sliding Japanese screens are in, so that'swhat I have." "Jacuzzis are in, so I've got one." "For a small place, ithas everyhing: it's a theater." "It's like a stage where l can rehearse." "I'm a high class bum who's nothandsome, yet I've had over 10,000women." "Why me?" "Because you have to talkto them." "Nobody bothers to talk to women anymore." "I talk, they listen, they're in the palm of my hand." "Then I putmy hand in the rightplace... without asking..." "So it goes..." "Somebody has to get things going." "The only way to be loved by women... is via rape..." "Women yieldto a stranger, butplay hardto get with a wretchwho loves them, who'd die for them, and swears he respects them." "So it goes..." "Thankyou." "But do they want to be respected?" "In a sense, yes." "Butrespectis in the nature of things:" "since they're up for grabs, they want to be taken." "I've had 10,000women, I don'tremember them all, but I kept their names, their age andthe circumstances." "Their cunts..." "No two are alike, they're as memorable as faces." "But take ten men, cut off their cocks, put them in a basket: no one can tell his own!" "I did a radio show." "They wanted proof of my statistics." "Yes, indeed." "They countedthem." ""Dr. Weil, a psychiatrist and sexologist, knows a true Casanova, a super Don Juan, a prince among seducers..."" "Why does she call me a prince of seducers?" "It's absurd." "I never seduced anyone, any woman." "I know I'm notvery handsome, I may even be revolting," "but the factis, I've had 10,000women, several per day." "I've been a seducer in the sense of"se aductere":" "to drawto one's self." "Se-ducer means that." "Se-aductere:" "to drawto one's self." ""We checked him out:" "he kept a record of his conquests..."" "l've got something that will interestyou." "I boughtit, knowing some day I'd make you read it." "Here itis..." "Read me this sentence." "One shouldn'tlend books:" "women should readto us, so we knowthey've read it." "l hate reading." "Read it!" "Women mustreadto us." ""As the Mother begets the Son, the Son begets the Mother." ""His actis the creative counterpoint of the whole process." ""By begettingthe Mother, he purifies her." ""He purifies her and himself, "uno acto"." ""He turns the Babylonian Whore into a Virgin."" "You're making me shy." "What's come over me?" "Yetyou're the one who..." "l'm fine." "You see?" "l see nothing." "You're posing." "l'm being myself." ""This kind of embarrassment..."" "I'm perfectly natural..." ""...is desire." "It's part of the game... lf we didn'tlackwords when it comes to acts," "we'd instantly tellthem: "Hands off"." "That'swhat this is, a trivial relationship, a very shameful one..." "Why do menwho disgustus understand us better than those who appealto us?"" "There's a hole in your spelling... yetyou're a teacher." "Yes, a hole..." "There..." "You're amazedthat I'm fingeringyour pussy... butit's me doing it." "I'm not arousedyet, butyou are:" "you're amazed it's me." "So it goes..." "Beautifulwomen get taken by ugly men." "That's a well-kept secret." "There has to be action, andthe action isn'tbetween man andwoman, that's too simple... lt's between beauty and ugliness." "Beauty feeds on degradation, communeswith it." "That'swhere I come in, I make the most of it." "So it goes..." "Don'tblame me." "Shall I dominate you?" "Open your eyes." "Shall I gagyou?" "ltimplies goingfurther than it's reasonable for a woman to accept." "She may have to go beyond what she agreedto." "You don'tyearn for whatyou can't accept." "Physical love... is triviality clashing with the divine." "It's strange, obscenity doesn'tbother women." "is it too painful?" "Take it off... I can't stand it..." "l didn'trealize..." "You should've told me." "I thought I could go far with you." "I can tie you up less severely..." "Or we can make love normally." "l'm OK." "It's me..." "My problem is..." "You know..." "Nobody ever tied me up before, I never did it." "Really, you never did?" "l alwayswantedto." "We'll resume." "I won't tie you as tightly." "No." "It's fine." "Ithas to be thisway." "Really?" "Was it goodfor youtoo?" "For me it was very beautiful, truly beautiful... I want to give you pleasure." "When you cry, I panic... I feel I've done somethingwrong." "No, it's fine." "At first... youfeelyour hands going numb... youthinkyou can stand it... then suddenly it's unbearable..." "A form of dying... a galloping death..." "Youthinkyour hands willfall off... you slowly turn into deadflesh... andthen... ithas to stop at once, it can'tlast a second more." "I was afraidyou couldn'thear because of the gag." "It's really freaky." "Butyou likedthe gag?" "l don'tlike having to say things..." ""When I gothome, Paulwasn't there." "Thatmade my worldfall apart." "Ithas nothingto do withwhat I did." "What's done is done." "It's behind me." "My head is very clear." "It's all I can be... in my head." "I feel my body doesn'tbelong me." "It's an anonymous appendix." "In my head, there's Paul." "He could have reconciled me with my body." "Buthe didn't want to do that." "Because I don'tlike my body, I was an easy prey." "I mean, a victim." "Anyway, women are the victims men needfor atonement." "I always masturbate with my legs closed, I rarely part them." "I can offer myself to myself, rape myself... lt's mildly satisfying," "a bitnauseating, butit's proof I don'tneed a man if I have to resort to this." "It was painfulfor me to be on his bed." "Apain you could call:" "feeling like lostluggage." "The more time wentby, the less I could bear it." "I hadto castmyself out like a wreck." "In the basic meaning of the word: up for grabs."" ""The only thing I told myself, like a two-bit equation, was thatif I'd cheated on him, and still only loved him, it didn'tmuch matter if he'd cheated on me." "Buthe hadn't." "It wasworse:" "he was thrilledto be alone." "Love between men andwomen, letitbe said again, is a devious conflict." "There... I win if I'm last to gethome." "I knowit, I'll have an edge on him."" "$20, just to eatyou." ""That's my dream." "To knowthat for some guy, I'm just a pussy he wants to stuff, without sentimental bullshit." "Justraw desire." "To be taken by a guy, anyone... a nobody, a bum withwhom youwallow for the joy of wallowing," "for the dishonor, the discredit, that's pleasure to a girl."" "Turn over." "Showme your rosebud." "Pay me!" "You've gotno choice, bitch!" "You like me?" "Slut!" "Whore, bitch!" "I reamedyou good !" "I'm not ashamed, asshole!" ""ls nymphomania destroying yourself because... you choose... a manwho doesn'tlove you?" "I don't want to sleep with men." "I want to be opened up allthe way:" "when you can see that... the mystique is a load of innards, the woman is dead!" "Maybe I really want to meet"Jackthe Ripper"." "He'd certainly dissect a woman like me!"" ""Once again I hung around an hour so I'd be the last to gethome." "That's proof that women are capable of more love than men." "Much more love..." "He'swaitingfor me, too." "When I gethome after him, it's not as easy." "The little guy's edgy."" "ljust gothome." "Me, too." "So I see." "But ljust gothome, too." "Sure..." "Youwouldn't watch the idiotbox for an hour." ""A Love Affair dealswith an older man's obsession for a young prostitute..."" ""So he won't screwme..."" ""Maybe due to his education, women always seemed strange to him." "He preferredthe company of his friends." "Womenwere from another world, somewhat superior..."" ""My cuntis swollen and moist:" "I can hold out forever." "He won'tbeatme down thisway." "When he wants an evening withoutme, I make the most of it." "I get tied up." "It's his fault."" "Shall I dominate you?" "Want to tie me up?" "Today you choose." "l don't want to do anything." "You like beingtied up?" "Yes, butnotmy elbows." "Last time, my handswere numb for 2weeks." "Amonth ago, one elbowstillfelt weird." "That's abnormal." "You've gotbad circulation." "One day in Cannes, I picked up Grace Delly." "If I'd known it was her, I wouldn'thave dared." "But she liked me and made a date to meet atmy place." "She rings, blonde, impeccable hairdo, in a hound's tooth tailleur." "Abitch for a hound dog!" "I screwher, love in the afternoon, she leaves in fine spirits." "Next day I see her, I waswith a friend." "I tell him I screwedthat woman." "He says, you screwed Grace Delly?" "I looked athim, I didn'tknow." "See?" "I'm nothandsome or wealthy or attractive, but I screwed her." "Later I went over to her, we have a drink, and I askher:" "Why..." "Why didn'tyou say youwere Grace Delly?" "She: wouldyou have behaved the same way?" "I guess not." "You don't act the same way with Grace Delly, youwear kid gloves!" "What a pity... that was nice..." "Wait..." "This doesn'thurt..." "Too bad, I don'thave two." "Doesn'tmatter." "I'll do it thisway." "There..." "Raise your ass... I'll liftyour skirt." "Like that." "I'll spreadyour legs, OK?" "I thinkyou like it when I spreadyour legs." "Wait..." "l love it." "There." "That's nice..." "Now I'll put this on..." "Wait...." "Help me." "That's beautiful." "You're lovely like that." "It's beautiful." "Now I'll gagyou." ""l enjoyed it so much, I grewattachedto Robert." "Tying me up without tying me down, was the secret of his ritual." "After these sessions I wasn't gloomy, we giggled." "We partied and overate."" "...the guy was flatbroke..." "So she saidto him..." "Youwantmore caviar?" "More caviar?" "Waiter, please!" "More caviar!" "Andvodka!" "l love to tipple." "But I never get drunk, or what they call drunk." "Canwe have some more vodka, too?" "You seem fine..." "You see your pals." "Me, my girlfriends." "l betyou badmouth us!" "We badmouth you, we do, we don't..." "Help me?" "Caress me." "l can't, you keptit on." "lf that's all it takes..." ""Love is dumb." "It's just a power trip." "A guy you're faithfulto, won't screw you." "Cheat on him, and he screws you." "They don't guess you're cheating, they sense you're getting away."" "My fists are closed." "I can't do a thing..." "Now what?" "What's this act?" "Why can'tyou see I only do thiswith you?" "I've never touched anyone's cock." "Thenwhy won'tyou leave me alone?" "Because you do nothing." "Now you be me..." "You be the woman... I'll be your guy, I'll screw you." ""Can you believe it?" "That's howthat selfish bastard gotme pregnant!" "Nobody came, not even him." "He did a Virgin Mary stunt on me, with a drop of seminalfluid."" "Letyour legs fall..." "Relax..." "There..." "The neckis closed, good..." "The uterus is... lt's been 8 weeks..." "Your turn." ""That's how I became a case study for pimply interns." "A slab of meat." "Once you're pregnant, they spreadyour legs and peer allthe way up your vagina." "Then I took a bitter likingto it." "As I'd made a truce with Robert while I was pregnant, nobody else touched me." "My only sexual relationships became my monthly visits." "I'm uneasy on an exam table, I resent spreading my legs." "That'swhy it affects me:" "I'm a bit of an ice-maiden." "I see why the Chinese used an ivory replica to probe your body." "Though even that's distasteful." "Porn movies, too, protectyour libido:" "youwatch a surrogate image." "But whatyou can't tolerate, you can't tolerate in images, either." "An image is just as compromising, since it stands for you."" "Very good." ""Paul is right." "You can'tlove a face if a cunt goeswith it." "A cunt doesn't go with a face." "I fantasize about a brothel, where a head is separated from a body, by a guillotine-like contraption before the blade comes down." "Of course, there's no blade." "I wear a silky red skirt thatbillows up and rustles." "Andthose silly trappings that give men a hard-on." "It's proof a hard-on doesn'tmean they love us." "Paul is right, being a woman has a fatalflaw." "If she gets you hard, youwant to bone her." "Wantingto bone her is to despise her." "Love between men andwomen is impossible." "Men you can't see, you imagine coarse and ape-like."" "Aziz, look atmy cock!" ""As if crudeness is all one can expect."" "There we see the head..." "That was the spine..." "The thigh bone..." "Want to know whatitis?" "It's a boy." "Fabulous." "Youwantme to marry you?" "Yes..." ""Thatnight, Paul made love to me for the first time in ages." "Andfor the last time." "From then on he lugged me around like a ball and chain, a duty he hadto endure." "We went out every evening... with his sister and brother-in-law." "Nowthat I was the mother of his son, I'd methiswhole family..." "You OK?" "Two whiskies!" "You OK?" "Fine." "Want another drink?" "Later." "Please don'tmake a scene." "No scene." "l feltlike dancing, so I grabbed a girl." "I almostkissed her, she was so hot for me." "Then I dumped her where l picked her up." "She never knew whathappened." "So you can't complain." "l didn't." "But secretly you do." "A whisky, please!" "Youtwo quitloving each other?" "You hold her like a deadbeat!" "Sit down." "Not too tired?" "l'm fine." "She's my sister, but I'lltell her." "That a man likes a challenge." "He hates beingfollowed around." "He needs to fear he may lose her." "Then he chases her." "Or chases someone else." "Aman's always chasing." "You agree?" "You andyour chasing's a bore." ""The bastard." "He leaves me alone with my anxiety that soon my vagina will expand and expelthe baby."" "Wake up!" "I'm sick of your boozing!" "You slob, you dumb male model!" "Be right down." "What's going on?" "You'll like it." "Get on the table." "Wait for the contraction to pass." "Breathe deeply." "Breathe." "Once it's over, get on the table." "No, the father can't stay." "Yes, he can!" "Am I getting an epidural?" "lt's too late, your baby's being born." "Ready?" "We're going to push out the baby. inhale." "Inhale, holdyour breath, grab the bar..." "Push hard, again..." "With allyour might, holdyour breath, more..." ""lt's incredible to create life..."" "lnhale!" "Holdyour breath and push." "Go on!" ""They say a woman isn't a woman till she's a mother. lt's true." "Nothingthathappened before really matters."" ""For Christine Pascal"" ""l gave my son his father's name." "If someone up there counts souls, thenwe're even.""