"Archer and I were terrible sailors." "(Laughs) It broke the Captain's heart." "Every time we'd tack..." "That's when you turn the sailboat across the wind..." "The captain would yell out, "ready about!"" "And archer and I would go and get ready." "And then "hard alee!"" "That's when you push the tiller hard to the Lee side." "Anyway..." "If you do it right, you pick up good wind and everything's fine." "But if you do it wrong, as we often did, you'd wind up in irons." "What's "in irons"?" "(Chuckles) It's when you're pointing straight at the wind." "I mean, you can try and fight, but you are stuck." "(I'm from Barcelona) ♪ I can feel it in my head ♪" "♪ I can feel it in my legs ♪" "Thank you for staying over." "This was fun." "Well, I thought so." "I mean, I know that staying up all night talking and not..." "Doing it." "Well, yeah." "(Laughs) It's fine." "It's not." "It is fine." "It's not fine." "I know you wanted to do it." "I just..." "I'm not sure if I'm ready, you know?" "I just..." "I just got separated and..." "You know, you are..." "You are very..." "What?" "♪♪♪" "Young?" "♪ Sometimes my heart ♪" "♪ is skipping a... ♪" "Violet, this is your issue." "It's not mine." "You're right." "You're right." "You're right." "You're right." "You're right." "♪ Ticking in me ♪" "Do you want to stay a little longer and eat some breakfast?" "♪♪♪" "Mm-hmm." "♪ I can feel it in my head ♪" "♪ I can feel it in my back ♪" "♪ and in my bone ♪" "♪ I can see it in your eyes ♪" "♪ I can see it in the way you look at me ♪" "You excited?" "I..." "Hey." "Am cautiously optimistic." "Is today the day you meet surrogate candidates?" "So I'm told." "I've narrowed it down to a couple of women who I think would be a good fit for her." "Oh, no." "It's like when a guy buys you a sweater for Christmas." "It's fluffy, tight, and low-cut." "What women want and what men think they want are..." "No, look, there are certain criteria they have to meet." "They have to have given birth to their own child whom they are raising." "You really want a car with all that mileage on it?" "We have to make sure that she's gone through a healthy pregnancy devoid of all major complications." "Exactly." "It's also essential that the surrogate knows how she's gonna feel being pregnant and giving birth." "Makes sense." "You don't want her to run away with the baby or anything." "Thank you." "(Chuckles)" "Thank you, Amelia." "Now I can worry about that." "Look, Addison, we're going through an agency." "Everything's above board." "There'll be a contract." "You'll be fine." "You're right." "Yeah." "Because so far getting pregnant, I.V.F., adoption..." "It's all gone so swimmingly." "I've been a smashing success on all fronts. (Laughs)" "♪ Skipping a beat ♪" "Thanks." "Morning." "♪ Ticking in me ♪" "Violet?" "(Inhales deeply) Good morning." "Why are you grinning at me like that?" "I'm happy to see you." "Well, you've never said that to me before." "Well, maybe I should change that." "Mm." "Someone rung your bell last night." "Charlotte, nobody..." "Nobody rang anything." "Oh, I'm not asking for details, I'm just saying, whoever he is and whatever he's doing, keep him around." "It's a nice version of you." "(Elevator bell dings)" "(Laughs)" "(Crying) Violet." "Joanna." "Help me." "I need some help here!" "Stay with me." "Stay with me." "Oh!" "I need an I.V. Setup and a Gurney, please." "Right away." "Can you hear me?" "Oh." "Pale and diaphoretic." "Joanna, c... can you tell us what happened?" "My baby. (Sobs) My baby..." "Are you pregnant, Joanna?" "It's okay." "Shh." "Joanna..." "Stay with me." "It's okay." "Joanna." "Hey." "Joanna." "Joanna!" "I never would've met Mason if Erica wasn't sick." "If something had happened to her," "I never would've known I had this amazing son out there." "But you do know, so now we need to focus on what we need to focus on." "She went to two specialists, both of whom said there was nothing they could do." "If she doesn't want to fight..." "So you're just gonna let her give up?" "Amelia is a world-class neurosurgeon." "And Erica knows that, and she said no." "I can't kidnap her and force her into an M.R.I." "One of the most annoying things about you, coop, is that you don't give up." "I don't know what to do here." "(Cell phone rings)" "This is Dr. King." "Yeah, I'll be right there." "I gotta go." "What am I supposed to do?" "Think of something." "37-year-old female, unconscious, with blunt trauma to the face and abdomen." "(Pete) Wide-bore I.V. Times two, cross and hold four units." "She's pregnant." "I need an ultrasound!" "And I need a brain scan and a trauma panel." "Her husband did this." "I met Joanna six months ago in an airport." "She was afraid to go back to New York because he hit her during an argument." "There's blood in her belly." "Baby looks about 12 weeks old." " We should get the police." " She told you that he hit her again?" "She didn't have to." "Dr. Turner, what's going on?" "I got a call." "Who's that?" "That's the husband." "You should not be here." "Oh, my God." "How did this happen?" "She was beaten badly." "I need to be with her." "Uh, no, that's not gonna happen." "Please." "I don't understand." "We both know you did this." "You don't have to play innocent." "What?" "No." "No, look, when you talked to her at..." "At the airport a-and you made her stay, that was my wake-up call." "I-I got help." "And I... and I've been doing the work..." "Anger management, therapy." "Jo and I are doing so much better." "I swear to you, this is..." "It wasn't me." "I need to be with her." "Hey." "Get your hands off me." "Step back." "Back up." "Hey!" "You don't even know me!" "Take your hands off me!" "Back up!" "Dr. Wilder, that is enough." "(Knock on door)" "Hey." "Hey." "I heard you guys had quite a night out." "Ah." "Sorry you couldn't make it." "Yeah, well..." "I also heard it was, uh..." "Pretty... successful." "Cooper?" "(Laughs) He..." "He was very impressed." "Look, I'm not trying to have everybody know about that." "Oh, of course, of course." "It was a one-time thing." "Oh, are... are you retiring from the league of men sleeping with 20-something super models?" "Because if there's a spot on the roster..." "No, I'm just..." "I'm looking for something real." "You know what I mean." "Yeah, I'm feeling the same way." "Hey, hey, hey, what's going on, fellas?" "What's happening?" "Everything good?" "Yes." "All right." "We were just discussing where to meet smart, beautiful, eligible women to take our minds off the smart, beautiful, unavailable women." "Ah, yes, the million-dollar question." "Mm-hmm." "Well, if you can get beyond the cheese factor," "I've always loved the gym." "Unlike a bar, if... if you don't have any luck, at least you're getting a workout in." "Well, I do enjoy multitasking." "(Indistinct conversations)" "What's going on with Joanna?" "She's unconscious, her blood pressure's down, and she's bleeding into her abdomen." "What does that mean?" "Is the baby okay?" "I'm afraid I couldn't find the baby's heartbeat." "I'm so sorry, but because of the trauma, Joanna lost the baby." "Look, I-I know that this is awful, but we need to make a decision right now." "There's a tear in Joanna's uterine wall." "I might have to do a hysterectomy in order to stabilize her." "Do the hysterectomy." "Well, if I can stop the bleeding," "I might be able to save her uterus and her life." "Might?" "It's riskier, but I think..." "No." "No, do the hysterectomy." "You can't listen to him, Addison." "He's the one that did this." "Lady, shut the hell up." "Hey, watch it." "Please." "No, look, she can live without a uterus." "I can't live without Joanna." "You're a liar." "He's her husband." "It's his decision to make." "Take her uterus out and save her life." "He's the one who beat her, Addison." "You cannot let him decide what's best for Joanna." "It's not up to me." "She's unconscious." "The law says that her husband gets to decide." "And we don't actually know what happened." "She told me." "David hit her." "Once that we know of, six months ago." "Pete." "If he hit her once, he hit her again." "Come on." "What do you think else happened?" "You know, this is as hard for me as it is for anyone else here, but the police will sort it out, hopefully sooner rather than later." "Until that or she regains consciousness, we have to follow the law, and unfortunately, that means listening to David Gibson." "This is not the time to cover your ass, Charlotte." "Really, Pete?" "Addison, Joanna wants kids, okay?" "She told me she does." "And maybe that baby wasn't David's, or maybe it was and he didn't want it, but you cannot go in there and take away her chance for becoming a mother." "That let's him win." "This isn't about any disagreement that Joanna and David had." "It's about saving Joanna, and David isn't wrong." "Removing her uterus might be the safest course." "Well, not to mention the fact that if Addison tries to save her uterus, but Joanna dies, and it turns out David didn't do it, it's not just gonna be my ass that needs covering." "(Mason) "Decidedly,"" ""I can't draw back." ""But at least if I am killed," "I shall be killed by a musketeer."" "(Laughs) Good job." "Can we read another chapter?" "No, actually, that's enough for today." "You have a closet to clean." "(Laughs)" "(Kisses)" "All for one!" "And one for all!" "(Laughs)" "(Chuckles)" "Um..." "What's this?" "I spoke to my lawyer, and I got all the paperwork to..." "Make sure that, um, I'll be Mason's legal guardian in the event of, uh..." "In the event of the situation we're actually in." "Um... do we have to deal with this now?" "Well, I know we both want to make sure that there's no custody issues." "Well, come on, Cooper..." "I mean, we don't deal with this, Mason..." "He could end up in the care of the state." "Uh... (Sighs)" "I will sign it later." "Later when?" "Later... (Sighs)" "I don't think that you are preparing, Erica." "(Laughs) I am preparing." "I brought him to see you, didn't I?" "I told you I was sick." "After Charlotte found out." "L-look, come here." "(Exhales deeply)" "If you were really preparing, you would be taking care of details, your will would be done, and we'd be talking about Mason's future." "That's what you do when you've..." "Accepted your fate." "Yeah, but you're not there yet." "Acceptance is not a stage that you have reached, which means..." "You have not given up." "I think you still have hope, Erica." "Don't waste it." "Uh..." "Is, uh..." "What's her name really better than those other doctors?" "(Speaking indistinctly)" "It's better this way." "We doctor, they investigate." "Don't worry." "They'll find out what happened, Violet." "How'd it go?" "She's still sedated, she lost a lot of blood, but she's gonna make it." "(Sighs) Thanks, Addison." "How is she?" "How's Joanna?" "She's gonna be okay." "And I was able to control the bleeding without having to perform a hysterectomy." "(Exhales)" "Really?" "That's great." "Wait." "What?" "I thought you said..." "That's a good thing, Mr. Gibson..." "Just a second." "I specifically told you not to take that risk." "I don't..." "I-I..." "You had no right!" "You're the one that shouldn't have any rights." "All right, everyone, let's calm down." "You know, I don't have to take this from you." "I've done nothing wrong here." "That's only because your wife is still recovering from what you did to her, and she can't tell us what happened." "I don't have to listen to this." "As soon as Joanna's stable," "I'm moving her to a different hospital." "(Laughs) That's ridiculous." "It's gonna take time." "She needs time to... no, not when my lawyer gets involved." "That's not necessary." "No, clearly it is!" "I've been assaulted by a doctor in this hospital," "I'm treated like a criminal here." "Look... (Sighs)" "We will transfer her as soon as possible." "Officer, can you do anything?" "As far as I understand it, you didn't witness the first alleged attack?" "Mrs. Gibson never filed a report or a restraining order." "Mr. Gibson has no history of violence, and there are no witnesses so far to account for what happened." "You cannot allow him to take her." "My department will continue to investigate this." "But without evidence, until the victim wakes up and files a complaint..." "My hands are tied." "I am so sorry." "I had an emergency surgery." "I'm doc..." "I'm Addison." "(Chuckles)" "Donna was just telling me about her husband, who's stationed on an aircraft carrier." "Oh, that's terrific." "He's a navy pilot, and we're proud, but it's challenging." "We have 2 great kids..." "10 and 6." "But they miss their dad, and it's busy for me." "So, uh..." "Being a surrogate would..." "Will help out financially." "Being a surrogate is noble, but it's a business." "You're a professional, Dr. Montgomery." "You must recognize that I have a valuable skill set that I want to put to work for you." "(Sighs) Hello." "Hey." "How'd it go with the surrogate?" "Mm." "She's very..." "Businesslike." "Well, that's good, right?" "Mm." "No, I mean, you want her to carry the child and give it to you, not be the mother." "That'll be your job." "Okay, and your job..." "(Laughs)" "(Laughs) Is to tell me everything's gonna be fine," "I'm gonna know the right surrogate when I meet her." "Well, I don't think it's about finding the right one." "It's just finding a good one." "Maybe." "Hey, um..." "Do you know, um..." "(Laughs)" "Do you know this, um..." "Young, uh, this, uh..." "Paramedic named Scott?" "Hot Scott?" "(Laughs) Yeah." "Violet." "I know." "It's so crazy." "What?" "What's crazy?" "Well, he's... young and, you know, I mean, what..." "What the hell am I doing?" "Are you having fun?" "Yes." "Good." "Young is great." "Young is virile." "(Laughs)" "Virile young buck." "Oh, Violet, gosh." "You like him, he likes you." "Don't think about it." "Enjoy." "You deserve it." "Mm." "Sorry, doctors, but Joanna Gibson..." "She's awake." "(Amelia) The gliosarcoma has grown considerably since the last scans." "Because of its size and its proximity to the intracranial blood supply, surgical intervention is unlikely to succeed." "So the sky is blue and tacos taste great." "Tell me something I don't already know." "Is this impossible to treat or just impossible to cure?" "The best we can do is aggressive radiation therapy with combination chemotherapy to slow the tumor's growth." "Maybe that could give Erica six months or so, depending on the efficacy of the chemotherapy." "Six months of what kind of life?" "Honestly?" "Rough." "Anytime you do chemo, there are side effects..." "Fatigue, nausea, infection..." "But the most important thing in cancer treatment is buying time, because there is always progress being made." "There's new trials, new drugs." "Come on, Cooper." "You really think they're gonna have a cure for cancer in six months?" "Look, I came, I listened." "I'm done. (Sighs)" "What did you do with Mason on his last birthday?" "What?" "No, just tell me." "We did go-karts." "He loves driving." "He can't wait to get his license." "And what's he want to do on his next birthday?" "Screw you." "If you don't want to believe in a miracle, that's fine." "But you could give Mason one more birthday together, one more summer vacation, one more Christmas." "I mean, that's not... much." "It's not enough." "But it would mean everything to him." "(Door closes)" "(Nikki  rich) ♪ walk right up to him ♪" "♪ give him a great big kiss, mwah ♪" "♪ oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪" "♪ oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪" "♪ oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪" "♪ oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪" "(Sighs) I feel like we're two sides of a poetic debate." "I mean, which is better..." "To have loved and lost or to have never loved at all?" "At least you don't have to fight the memories." "Well, don't discount the agony of regret." "I mean, if only I had said yes when Amelia was interested." "But... (Sighs)" "The imagination is a powerful tool of self-torture." "Okay." "This isn't working for me." "Me, neither." "Hi." "Hi." "I'm, uh..." "I'm Sam." "Hi, Sam." "Hey." "Are you done with that bike?" "There's a time limit on the cardio equipment." "Oh." "Okay." "Sorry." "♪ Walking down the street ♪" "♪ the street, the street, the street, the street ♪" "David didn't want a baby." "I thought it would..." "Help us start over." "(Sniffles)" "I planned this..." "Special breakfast to tell him..." "Poached eggs and..." "Orange juice from the tree in my mom's... (Cries)" "My mom died." "Oh, I'm so sorry." "It's better." "If she saw this, if she knew..." "If she knew her grandchild was... (Crying)" "I was so..." "Excited to be pregnant." "(Sniffles)" "I just figured, he would be, too." "But he wasn't." "It happened so fast." "I... (Exhales)" "I got up to get him more food." "(Sniffles)" "And when I turned around," "I saw his fist coming at me, but it... it was in slow motion, and I-I couldn't move." "He killed our baby." "Joanna, the police want to build a case against David, but they're gonna need your statement." "No, I can't..." "I..." "I don't want to do that." "Joanna, I..." "I will help you do it." "I will be with you every step of the way." "I know you're scared, but..." "I'm not scared." "I am furious." "And I understand that." "No, Violet, you can't." "He hit me." "He came at me and he punched me in the face." "My husband..." "Punched me in the face, and there was nothing I could do." "David needs to go to jail, Joanna... no." "He beat me... (Voice breaking) And he killed my baby." "No." "No." "No, I want him dead." "I want h..." "I want him to die." "Joanna..." "I want to kill him." "(Cries)" "I'm gonna kill him." "And so she said she wanted to kill David?" "(Violet sighs)" "Who, Joanna?" "I hope that wasn't the statement she gave the police." "She wouldn't talk to them." "She told me." "Did you tell the police or David?" "I mean, confessing a plan to murder someone isn't protected by doctor-patient confidentiality." "And if a therapist hears it, she can be held liable if she doesn't report it." "Yeah, and there's a difference between a threat and plan." "Joanna didn't tell the police on purpose so she could have a chance to kill him." "Come on, Charlotte." "I mean, she had just heard that her husband killed her baby, a baby he never wanted, and tried to force her to have a hysterectomy." "She is allowed to have an emotional response." "And she needs to feel the safety to express that anger to a therapist." "Which she did, and now you have a legal obligation to deal with it." "Wait a minute." "Violet's not technically her therapist." "Your license was suspended during most of the time you were talking to her." "She's not a formal patient, right?" "I mean, there..." "There's no file..." "Yes, Pete is right." "We're just friends." "Friends do not have a legal obligation, right?" "No, Violet, you can't have it both ways." "(Sheldon) You do have your license back now, and at the moment you heard the threat, you were a therapist." "Not hers." "I'm not sure a court would see it that way." "Look, I'm not gonna second-guess Violet and say this guy isn't a dirtbag and a criminal, but if David's life is really threatened, we have a moral obligation here." "Where is he anyway?" "I sent him home last night before she regained consciousness." "But say that Violet does warn David and then he retaliates against Joanna, what then?" "(Addison) Okay, look, Violet, you know" "I'm on your side with this, but how do we protect everyone?" "You have to go into this with an open mind." "All right." "She's not right." "You haven't even met her yet." "I can feel the warmth emanating from her every pore." "It's nauseating me all the way over here." "Have you secretly been giving yourself hormone shots again?" "Look, I'm gonna go in there, I'm gonna ask..." "June..." "What the best part about being a surrogate is... (Lowered voice) And she's gonna give me some weird, you know, hippy-dippy answer about the magic of the experience..." "You... you have no idea what she's gonna say." "(Normal voice) Okay, fine." "Let's go." "So, June..." "What was the best part of your last experience?" "That's easy." "The parents let me keep the placenta." "And they came over to my house to..." "Help me bury it in the garden." "(Sighs)" "We planted a tree there." "Mm." "(Sam) Okay." "So what about church?" "Mm." "No, that's too much commitment for me." "I know, but the whole point is to meet women who want commitment." "If only there was some kind of computer-based system where eligible people from all over the land could connect." "You guys, online dating is the number-one way to meet women." "We're looking for women of more depth than those cyber hotties you used to meet on those sites." "(Chuckles) I met my wife on one of those sites." "Yeah, but I mean, you..." "You knew her in real life." "And hated her, and she hated me." "But by going online and stripping away all the preconceived notions, we were able to find out that we were actually very compatible." "(Woman speaking indistinctly over P.A.)" "Where the hell is my wife?" "I released her." "I told you, I wanted to take her to another hospital." "It was Joanna's request to leave." "I never got a chance to talk to her." "Not my problem." "This is not over." "Yes, it is." "Now back the hell away from me before I have your ass dragged out of my hospital." "Your solution was to bring Joanna home?" "Well, all she'd be doing in the hospital is recovering, and I can take better care of her here." "What, better than..." "Watch out!" "Yeah." "Better than the nursing staff?" "What if there's a complication or an emergency?" "Then I'll call the ambulance." "There's not gonna be an emergency, and I can change a bandage." "I am a doctor, Pete." "(Lucas speaks indistinctly)" "I just..." "I need you to take Lucas for a few days." "There are shelters where she'd be safe, and you would be, too." "A shelter is not ideal for somebody recovering from surgery." "And this way, I'll be able to talk to her, really talk, you know, find out if the threat is real." "(Lowered voice) Look, she's protected because he doesn't know where she is, he's protected... (Normal voice) Because I'm not leaving her side, and I'm protected because both of them are." "I don't like you putting yourself in the middle of this." "Well..." "There's a lot of decisions I make that you might not like, but you don't really get a say in them anymore." "But what you do get a say in is whether Lucas is in the middle of it, too." "Okay." "This is my truck." "You want to hold it, baby?" "Daddy's gonna take you, okay?" "Okay, pal." "Let's go." "You ready?" "Mm-hmm." "For mommy?" "Do you want the truck?" "Yeah." "Here." "My truck." "Here." "I love you." "Be good." "Bye-bye." "Hey, Pete." "If you were me, what would you have done?" "Same thing." "Thank you." "Bye-bye." "(Click)" "Hey." "How's it going?" "Fine." "Are you mad at me?" "Mad?" "No." "Look, I'm not trying to be a pain about the surrogate stuff..." "You don't... you don't have to apologize." "All right?" "But let's stop wasting time, because your... your heart's definitely not into this." "Jake, th..." "You're gonna find a flaw with anyone who comes through these offices and wants to do this for you." "That is not true." "It is, and there is nothing wrong with these surrogates." "They're all fine." "So what, I'm the problem?" "You said it, not me." "Hey." "Um..." "I need to ask you a question and I want you to give me an honest answer." "Um..." "Whatever you say, I won't tell Cooper." "Okay." "Um..." "They give you all these pamphlets on the side effects of chemo." "You know, the hair loss, nausea, vomiting, bleeding..." "Not specific bleeding from where." "I've read 'em all." "(Exhales deeply)" "What I want to ask is, um..." "If you were in my shoes..." "Would you put yourself through this, destroying your quality of life for, um, a chance at maybe a few more painful months, or would you spend every possible healthy moment with the most important person in your life?" "I wouldn't..." "I wouldn't do the treatment." "(Exhales deeply)" "No, no, no, Sam, you... you can't put "hair color... bald."" "Why not?" "I-I shave my head." "No, no, no, you put what color your hair would be if it grew out." "You know, and... and..." "What?" "You put that you're a grandpa in the very first line about yourself?" "Wait." "Are you crazy?" "Well, I'm proud to be a grandpa." "No, listen, you can be forthcoming, but you can still be delicate with the truth, so bald is well-groomed," "(types)" "And grandpa is just..." "A family man." "Okay, the section on physical attributes is depressing in present company, so I'm just gonna move on to "questions of substance."" ""What is your biggest flaw?"" "Too sensitive." "I mean, that's..." "That's gold." "Yeah, well, maybe for you." "What would your answer be, prince charming?" "Too passionate about my work." "Mm." "Okay." "That's... that's good." "No, no, you're... you're good." "I see my sage advice is being heeded." "Okay, Mr. sage, what would be Sam's ideal first date?" "Oh, well..." "Excuse me." "Sure." "I..." "I used to start with, uh, with this." "(Types)" "(Laughs) (Jake and Sam) Oh!" "No, no, no, no." "(Laughs) Please." "Cooper..." "Okay." "This is a family practice." "Please." "Whatever it is, I need to see it." "They're writing up their online dating profiles." "(Laughs)" "What's wrong with that?" "Nothing." "But why is Sam bothering to write anything?" "He should just post a shirtless picture of himself with "Dr. Bennett" above it." "He'll have a thousand dates in an hour." "And Sheldon..." "Well, it's not like he needs the rest of you yahoos to tell him what a girl wants to hear." "Well, maybe loved and lost is better, man." "(Sighs)" "I'm sorry." "The last thing you need is to be taking care of me." "It's fine." "You have Lucas to worry about, plus Pete." "Lucas is doing fine, and Pete and I, you know, we're..." "We're working through it." "It's a lot better." "There's less anger." "So you don't have to worry about it." "Pull your shirt up." "I read your book." "It made me feel like a failure." "(Laughs) Why?" "You went through this terrible thing and you overcame it, but I..." "I-I knew in my heart..." "I mean, hit me once, shame on you." "Hit me twice..." "But I went back to David anyway." "Well... (Sighs)" "That was a mistake." "And you can correct it." "By going to the police?" "I've seen those women on the stand in court..." "The victims." "I am not a victim." "Being a victim does not mean you're powerless." "But I chose to be with him." "I-I let him back in." "It... it's my fault." "You don't understand that, Violet, because what happened to you wasn't your fault." "It... it felt like it was." "It always does." "I have great faith in people's capacity to change... (Rips tape)" "My patients..." "My husband, and... when they don't," "I assume that I did something wrong." "And sometimes I did." "But a lot of times, I didn't." "But I can't tell the difference in my own life." "No one can." "It's understandable that you would think he could change." "Joanna, we need to talk about what you said about David." "Oh, Violet, no." "No, please." "I..." "You really think I'm gonna kill David?" "I-I-I was just upset." "I w-was frustrated and hurting." "You can understand that, can't you?" "Yes, yes, yes, of course I can." "But I also know that, you know, if a person is..." "Is pushed past any reasonable limit, y..." "Oh, Joanna." "(Gregory Alan Isakov's "words" playing)" "I j..." "I can't believe that you think that I would do that." "I mean, no matter what happened." "I just... (Sighs)" "I just want to be somewhere where I feel safe and I don't have to be scared and I can start putting my life back together again." "♪♪♪" "You are." "♪ Words mean more at night ♪" "♪ like a song ♪" "Ohh." "♪ And did you ever notice ♪" "How's the rent-a-womb search going?" "They're all wrong." "Jake thinks I'm being unfair and judgmental, but this is a huge decision..." "You know, finding someone to carry my baby." "The first one was like a breeding machine, and the second one looked like she just wandered off a commune." "I don't know." "I could do it." "What?" "I'm the closest thing you have to a sister." "And I can do this." "Amelia..." "Look, I know." "I'm..." "I'm the anti-surrogate." "I'm an addict, and I wouldn't pass the psych eval, and I mean, it's semi-creepy that I'm your ex-sister-in-law." "(Sighs)" "It would be a monumental failure of your brilliant mind to pick me." "But I want to do it." "♪ I'll send you my words ♪" "I want to do this one completely selfless thing." "There are people that we can't help, there are inoperable brain tumors and kids who face too much tragedy and..." "And Ryan." "♪ By the light of day ♪" "Bringing a life into this world, it could be the thing that I can do to make up for..." "I can help you." "I want to help you." "Let me, Addie." "Please." "I love you, Amelia." "And I am honored that you've offered this, but the most important thing that you can do now that you're sober is to figure out who you are." "And who you are can't be my surrogate." "♪ So that I could see you again ♪" "(Knock on door)" "Hi." "Declaration of paternity, application to amend the birth certificate..." "We can go to your lawyer tomorrow to sign these." "That should cover your custody concerns." "This is acceptance." "You won't try the treatment, even for Mason?" "Everything I do is for Mason, every single thing since the moment I found out I was pregnant." "I brought him here to meet you, which is something I wasn't gonna do in a million years." "I did it for him." "And I'm changing the birth certificate for him." "Erica, you have to fight." "I can't win." "I don't want to fight if there's not a chance I can win." "There is a chance." "There's always a chance." "Even I-if at first, it just means buying time..." "Cooper, please." "Stop it." "Now you need to accept it." "Okay?" "♪ I'll send you my words ♪" "♪ from the corners ♪" "He says he wants to see the grand canyon... (Voice breaks) For his next birthday." "♪ And though I write them ♪" "Just so you know." "♪ Day ♪" "♪ please read them by the light of the moon ♪" "(Horn honks)" "♪ Please read them by the light of the moon ♪" "Hey, hey." "Oh, now you're spoiling me." "Oh, please." "You haven't tasted the eggs yet." "You need anything else?" "For you to get back to your life." "I'm fine." "I'm gonna get the paper, and, uh, you can eat, then we'll, uh, plan the day." "Maybe we'll get you up for a... for a walk later." "Where is she?" "(Gasps)" "I want to talk to my wife." "She's not here." "Baby, I love you so much." "I'm so sorry." "I don't want to see you, David!" "Get out of my house!" "I just want to talk to her." "You need to leave." "I'm not leaving without my wife." "No, I'm leaving you, David." "Please don't say that." "Please." "You are a bastard and a bully and a coward." "I don't love you." "I could never love you again." "Shut up!" "Stop saying that!" "You did this." "This is your fault." "David, just leave!" "Leave her alone!" "Oh!" "You killed my baby!" "You shut up!" "I could never love someone who did... shut up!" "You shut up!" "Let go." "(Grunts) Aah!" "(Electronic beep drones)" "(Joanna, distant voice) I hate you!" "I hate you!" "(Crying) You bastard, you killed my baby." "(Voice grows louder) I hate you!" "I... (Normal voice) Hate you." "I hate you." "I hate you!" "Oh, my God." "I hate you!" "Joanna!" "Joanna." "I hate you." "Joanna." "You..." "Joanna, he's dead!" "You have to stop!" "Stop!" "(Cries)" "Stop." "(Cries)" "(Sniffles) I-I had to." "I had to." "He didn't give me a choice." "(Sniffles) I s..." "I had to protect myself... (Sniffles) And you." "I..." "I had to." "(Crying)" "You'll tell the police that, right?" "(Continues crying)" "I had to." "Hey." "Hey." "So I was, uh..." "I-I was surprised that you called." "Thank you for coming." "I... here." "Have a seat. (Chuckles)" "(Sighs)" "I just want to tell you, you were right." "About what?" "There is something wrong with me." "Oh, no, Addison, I..." "No, no, it's..." "I didn't to make you feel like..." "No, it's not your fault." "It's just, um..." "I just need a break from... all of it." "You're giving up?" "No, no, I want a baby, and I will have a baby." "I just..." "For right now, I just need to..." "Be for a while." "You know, I need to..." "Focus on something else, on anything else." "Yeah." "Yeah, I-I think that's smart." "So you, uh, you want some company?" "Yeah." "I do." "(Police radio chatter)" "(Camera shutter clicking)" "(Joanna) I understand." "I... we have to go to the station." "I can call a lawyer." "(Man) So when you woke up, he was already dead?" "(Handcuffs click)" "Dr. Turner?" "He was already dead." "So you didn't see what actually happened before she stabbed him?" "Well, it..." "It was self-defense." "He broke into my home." "He attacked both of us." "It was self-defense." "(Footsteps approach)" "Oh, my God." "Oh, my God." "Violet." "Are you all right?" "Are you all right?" "Let me see." "Yeah, I'm okay." "I just gotta move outta this place, but, yeah." "What can I do?" "What do you need?" "Uh..." "Can you just keep taking care of Lucas?" "I'm just gonna clean up." "Of course." "Of course." "(Rosi Golan's "a lot of things" playing)" "I tried to make her go to treatment." "I know you did." "I really tried." "I know." "No, it was... ♪ I knew a man who fell asleep ♪" "♪ but he fell into ♪" "If Erica wasn't sick, I never would've met Mason." "So you keep saying." "No, Charlotte... ♪ So tell me how the heart ♪" "If Erica wasn't sick," "I never would've met Mason." "♪ Why it slows ♪" "And you feel guilty because of how grateful you are that this happened?" "♪ The promised land ♪" "♪ then tell me where ♪" "(Crying)" "♪ When the light hits the water ♪" "♪ like it's reaching for my hand ♪" "♪ and I feel the shivers running ♪" "♪ down my back ♪" "♪ when your words are on my lips ♪" "♪ like I thought of them myself ♪" "♪ there's a lot of things ♪" "Can I come in?" "Yeah." "What happened?" "Did somebody hit you?" "I don't want to talk about it." "Okay." "All right." "Let's, uh..." "Let's sit down." "Let me take a look." "♪ Why it's slow ♪" "♪ and if you find ♪" "♪ the promised land ♪" "♪ then tell me ♪" "♪ where you go ♪" "Let's, um... okay." "♪ When your words are on my lips ♪" "♪ like I thought of them myself ♪" "♪ there's a lot... ♪" "It's not broken, but... man." "Lie down." "Let me get you some ice." "♪ Me how the heart ♪" "Here." "♪ And tell me why it slows ♪" "♪ and if you find ♪" "♪ the promised land ♪" "♪ then tell me ♪" "(Scott) Hey." "I'm here for you." "Whatever it is, whatever you need," "I'm here." "♪ Nothing ♪" "♪ nothing ♪" "♪ nothing seems to go ♪" "♪ exactly how we plan ♪" "♪ nothing ♪" "♪ nothing ♪" "♪ there's a lot of things that I don't... ♪" "Addison." "Yeah." "Could I ask you a question?" "Sure." "Uh... (Chuckles)" "What do you think my biggest flaw is?" "What?" "It's just... just something I'm thinking about." "You mean, other than the fact that you don't want to have a baby?" "Ha." "Um..." "Well, let's see." "You know, I think that you don't recognize how great you truly are." "I'm serious." "You're kind of the perfect man, Sam, but you just judge yourself so harshly." "You kind of hold yourself to this impossibly high standard." "You gotta learn how to just..." "Relax a little." "And for the record, that is not your only flaw." "It's just your biggest." "♪ There's a lot of things ♪" "♪ that I don't understand ♪" "♪ nothing ♪" "♪ nothing ♪" "Addie." "Yes." "(Jake) So I took a chance, and I guessed that you're a..." "Beer- out-of-a-bottle kinda girl." "(Laughs)" "Sam, what were you gonna ask me?" "Uh... hey, man." "Sam, you want a beer?" "No, no." "I am good." "I'll see you guys later." "See ya." "Yeah. (Mouths words)" "♪ There's a lot of things ♪" "♪ that I don't understand ♪" "♪ I knew a man ♪ ♪ nothing ♪" "♪ who fell asleep ♪" "♪ nothing ♪ ♪ but he fell into his death ♪" "Sometimes when we were stuck, we'd stop for a minute to rest, regain our strength and let the waves take us for a while." "Even if we weren't going anywhere, it was still..." "Sailing." "♪ Where you go ♪"