"NARRA TOR:" "Previously on Nip / Tuck..." "EDEN:" "Hi, Julia." "I made some fruitcake as sort of a peace offering." "(EXHALES heavily)" "What's the matter?" "Are you all right?" "I'm Rachel Ben Natan, your burn rehabilitation counselor." "How did it happen?" "I sat down across the table from a very handsome boy, when he blew himself up." "You guys are screwing each other." "We love each other, Sean." "I see some kind of calcification." "Well, Rachel's not a complainer, Dad." "She's been through enough surgeries that if she says the pain's bad..." "Okay, let's see." "How does this... (SCREAMS)" "We call that "exquisite tenderness."" "The pain's so bad it's been causing me nightmares." "I've been waking up all edgy and hopeless." "The fact that the pain is shooting indicates to me that it's a neuroma." "Which means that the calcification has severed the nerve, and the two ends are trying to fuse, but they've turned in on themselves and become a ball." "Can you repair it enough to stop the pain?" "Absolutely." "We would reset the neuroma, harvest a section of nerve from your leg, which we would then use to bridge that gap between the two nerve endings." "You need to remove a nerve from my leg?" "Dad's one of the top cranial/maxillofacial guys in the country." "(CLEARS THROAT)" "Interesting." "So you do want surgery, you just prefer Daddy Number One over Daddy Number Two?" "That's cool, I get it." "I'm not here for facial reconstruction, Dr. Troy." "We're fine here, Christian." "I have it covered." "Okey-dokey." "So how you doing, Matty?" "Oh, getting better every day, with Rachel's encouragement." "Well, that's good." "What's this?" "I said we're good here." "Okay." "Looks like a tooth to me, big guy." "Jesus, how did I miss that?" "Based on the architecture of the shape, I'd say it's a central incisor." "Well, it must be one of yours, dislodged from the blast or something." "No." "I lost eight teeth in the bombing, but no incisors." "No wonder I'm having nightmares." "My bomber is alive and well, living inside of me." "SEAN: 15-blade." "Her BP is 180 over 60 and dropping." "Dr." "Casey, I need that toe now." "SEAN:" "Bone cutter." "BP, 190 over 50." "Cut the toe, Doctor!" "Which one do you want?" "We are rebuilding this woman's clitoris, Doctor." "There was a terrible car accident." "The vaginal canal was severed by a gearshift." "I'd say, the big one." "I want this woman coming hard." "Cut!" "Cut!" "(BELL ringing)" "Cut, cut, cut." "Damn it, he needs more class, you know?" "Think Clooney." "I think you should give the lines to Sean." "Dawn, darling, I am the director." "I say cut." "If you have a problem, you wait until after the take, and then we can discuss it..." "Yeah, well, you know what?" "Time is money, Nigel." "My money." "(sighs)" "I agreed to pay for all the overages on this show, which are considerable, in exchange for a producer credit." "If I want your opinion, the topic'll be bad teeth." "And you." "You know, this story already strains credibility." "Can you try some freaking reality?" "I don't understand." "How'd they let this beast on the lot?" "Okay?" "I mean, they don't let animals in here." "Dawn, Dawn..." "Director, why don't you do something?" "Excuse me." "Dawn, this is a medically accurate story." "Christian and I operated on a woman who suffered a female castration..." "Yeah." "...in her native village." "Did you see that?" "That is the way you play a leading man." "He has the courage of his convictions, yet he is classy." "He is always classy." "AlDAN:" "I believe everything I say." "I trained..." "FREDDY:" "Gather round, everybody." "I have some good news." "AlDAN:" "I have some bad news here, Freddy." "Glad you showed up, okay?" "Because your twin over here is trying to mess up all of my magic sauce." "Time out!" "I really just..." "I wanna share my victory." "As of today, we have officially become a cultural phenomenon." "I just got off the phone with the grand marshal of the West Hollywood Gay Pride Parade, asking us if we would like to ride on our own float!" "Why would you wanna ride in that parade, Freddy?" "Um." "Butterbean, it's not easy to grasp." "When you get embraced by the gays, you officially become a card-carrying member of the Zeitgeist club." "Hmm." "No man of mine is riding in a fruit float, Freddy." "Hey, don't you call homosexuals fruits." "Don't you dare, woman." "I am loved by the homosexual community." "And I for one..." "Freddy might..." "I'm gonna..." "I won't stand for it." "You know, sweetie, your publicist got you a cover of Out." "You know why?" "They passed at People and Us." "Big shit, okay?" "Listen, I'm straight out of the park, but I'm no bigot." "AlDAN:" "Bigots always say that." "Bigots..." "Bigots always say that." "DAWN:" "No, listen." "No, this is not personal." "It's not." "I know a lot of gay people, my hairdresser." "Oh, really?" "My stylist." "She does." "She does." "Good for you!" "How about Father Fabrizzi from St. Simon's?" "Oh, Father!" "How is he doing?" "He gave me my first Holy Communion and it was a fantastic event, just for your information." "But you have to remember, darling, we have our fan base." "What about the God-fearing part of our fan base, Freddy?" "Huh?" "Start thinking like a producer, sweetheart." "This parade could really hurt your program." "I am going back to my office, where there are no buzz killers." "Freddy." "Freddy?" "What?" "What?" "Maybe all your girl needs is an invitation to sit up there next to you on the float." "ls that it, petal?" "Well." "Is that all it is?" "Because, honey..." "No, no." "Because it's our first year, they just give us a little tiny float." "It's a tiny, little float and there's only room at the top for me and Aidy." "Okay?" "Mmm." "Back to work, everybody." "Yeah, what the hell are you looking at, huh?" "Chop, chop, people." "We got a clit to build." "(MOANlNG)" "Oh, my God!" "What?" "What?" "Oh, Jesus!" "Jesus!" "What..." "What, did I knock you or something?" "No, it's my third one in two days." "Jesus." "Maybe you need a humidifier in your room at the Chateau, or something." "No, I don't think it's the dryness." "You know, sometimes..." "Nosebleeds are a sign of elevated blood pressure." "Do you have a cuff or something?" "Come on, we've been to an internist, a neurologist, a gastroenterologist." "Nobody thinks you're sick!" "It's becoming pretty obvious." "I'm sorry, what is becoming obvious?" "You're avoiding something!" "You're hiding behind these symptoms, all right?" "I think you're scared to tell Olivia, because you're scared of us." "You finally get what you want, and you can't handle it." "It's more than just..." "You're such a bully." "No, I am the only person who tells you the truth." "Look, you're a grown woman, and you're acting like a neurotic teenager." "And, you know, quite frankly, I'm getting pissed off!" "Yeah, well, you have certainly pissed me off." "(sighs)" "Jesus." "Look, I'm just frustrated, you know?" "I just feel like I've waited so long." "You know?" "I just..." "I just want it to be us, you know?" "Can you please forgive me?" "Please?" "Would you like your messages, Dr. Troy?" "And you are?" "I'm Betina, your new receptionist." "(sighs)" "Oh!" "They're great, right?" "(CLEARS THROAT)" "They're not bad." "Who did them?" "Dr." "Sax." "He's known for preserving full sensitivity in the nipple area." "You need to fire the new receptionist, today." "Why?" "She's bright, well-educated, and she's got a great attitude." "You didn't hire her because of her MBA, you hired her because you knew those tits would be like catnip to me." "You're trying to sabotage me." "You know I'll fall into my old patterns, cheat on Julia, our relationship will blow up, and you'll come swooping in," "like some kind of knight in shining armor." "I don't have to lift a finger to blow up your relationship." "You'll detonate it all by yourself." "Don't be a petty bitch." "Just fire her." "Do it yourself." "I already tripped over those tits on my way in, okay?" "She'll file for some kind of harassment suit or something." "Sucks to be you, doesn't it?" "SEAN:" "I've been reading about suicide bombers." "They say most of them are educated, hold down jobs, and have no criminal history." "They make it sound like almost anyone could be a suicide bomber, under the right circumstances." "Well, most of them are raised in a misogynist society and live in cells with other men." "Imagine the thwarted testosterone, totally devoid of love and affection and tenderness." "All that repression and bitterness." "Kind of like life at the Malibu Compound, huh?" "That is my tooth." "You know, we're all smiling the second before we blow ourselves up." "We need to clean this area." "God knows what filth the bomber had in his mouth." "SAAED:" "I looked around me, at all the students eating their lunch." "So arrogant, so sure that this cafeteria belonged to them." "This cafeteria, built on land that belonged to me, was a source of happiness to them." "I looked at her, smiling at me, no cares at all, except for her own selfish desire." "Just before I push the detonator, I ask Allah to purify my spirit and bless my mission, so that I can take out as many students as possible with me." "And then, all in an instant, an exquisite and majestic instant, all earthly pain exploded into a million pieces." "The door to heaven opened, and I was free." "(echoing) And I was free." "Come out to the beach, I'll take a look." "The spots inflamed?" "Any pus?" "Well, I'll tell you what." "Why don't you let Olivia apply the goddamn Calamine lotion?" "Morning." "Would you like your messages?" "Yes." "In my office." "(SlGHlNG DEEPLY)" "Who else called?" "Your hair stylist." "She said it's time for a trim, but it looks good to me." "And?" "Your health club called." "God, you're in great shape." "(PHONE ringing)" "(SHUSHlNG)" "Dr. Troy's office, can you hold, please?" "(MOANlNG)" "Julie called." "She's not feeling good." "(MOANlNG)" "(PANTlNG)" "Oh, Doctor." "Oh, Doctor." "It's Julia." "Yeah." "Not Julie." "How can you even call yourself a receptionist when you can't say people's names right?" "You're stupid." "What?" "Be out of here by lunch." "You're fired." "Mr. Seidel?" "Dr. McNamara." "Pleasure to meet you." "Why don't you come back to my office..." "I need to talk to you." "Rachel, I have an appointment." "Just..." "He's still inside me, he can't stay inside me." "I'm gonna ask Nurse Linda to give you a sedative." "You can wait comfortably in Recovery." "I'll get to you within the hour." "No!" "Think if a pill could do the trick, I'd be here?" "I haven't slept in four days." "She survived the blast, but I can still ruin her life." "That's okay, Doctor." "I can wait." "Thank you." "I don't know who I am." "I never raise my voice." "I'm the one who makes jokes to get my way." "Something's going on I can't control." "Did you ever feel like your anger was a physical presence inside you?" "Like you're possessed?" "Okay, okay." "Take a breath." "Sit down." "Tell me what's going on." "After the explosion, there was a lot of detritus left inside me, you know, fragments." "The doctors said we didn't need to remove them, that the metal shavings would work their way out naturally over time." "So many great things happened to me." "I came here." "I found my work." "I made a certain peace with my new face." "I actually had hope." "Rachel, you're a survivor." "You have a powerful spirit." "Nothing can change that." "SAAED:" "And the clichés just keep on coming." "There are some wounds that do not heal, you know." "You're not listening to me!" "After I found out about his tooth inside me, I did a body scan." "I was suddenly showed the fragments inside me were not just metal." "I was right." "I'm riddled with him, his human shrapnel." "Saaed Hotary's bones and tissue are inside me." "His anger and his hatred are destroying me." "(SOBBlNG) Please, take him out of me." "What are you doing here?" "You're being ridiculous." "Why keep her under for twice as long, when I can assist and cut the surgery in half?" "This should be treated as medical waste." "Technically, those are the remains of a dead person." "I think we should notify somebody." "SAAED:" "My mother would like those." "Maybe she will put them in an urn in the living room, and they'll inspire my little brother to follow me." "Sure." "Send the boy's bones home to his nice family." "They may be terrorists, but, hey, they're only human." "Didn't I fire you earlier?" "She's still here, because apparently you made an inappropriate sexual overture." "Rather than deal with a lawsuit, I asked her back." "Could you excuse us for a moment, please?" "You need to deal with your resentment and anger." "What can I do to move this along?" "Maybe try to avoid my sightlines, definitely my surgeries." "Do we need some kind of mediator?" "No." "You're right." "I'll work something out with Betina, some kind of payout." "And I'll find a suitable replacement." "Good." "Oh, sorry to interrupt, but Dawn Budge and her fiancé are in your office." "They're in my office." "She's my friend." "DAWN:" "I'm out for blood." "That lame lezzie is gonna regret getting out of bed and getting on her Harley." "Let me tell you." "I feel like this is all my fault." "This happened at the gay pride parade?" "Can you believe it?" "Something so terrible, on such a beautiful day." "Everybody was bursting with joy, creativity, freedom to..." "To be themselves." "(music PLA ying)" "(PEOPLE cheering)" "I guess I just got caught up with the fans." "You certainly did get caught up." "The Hearts 'N Scalpels float was next to last." "I was behind the protesters." "You were protesting?" "Dawn, why would you do that?" "I said I was behind the protestors, Dr. Troy, not a protestor." "Go to hell." "I also wanted to be close by, just in case, you know, he got dosed and taken advantage of." "Dosed?" "Yeah." "Roofies, or some shit." "Dawny, I was never in any danger of being drugged by the gays." "I just wanted to make sure that a violation did not occur on my watch." "(CHEERlNG)" "Freddy!" "I was so concerned about Freddy's reputation, what with the television camera crews, and all, that I failed to notice the approaching deadly posse of ladies on their hogs, vrooming by me." "Freddy!" "Put your shirt..." "Freddy!" "Hey, wait." "Freddy, you keep your shirt on!" "(MOTORBlKE REVVlNG)" "Get away from me." "(screaming)" "She purposefully ran me over." "MAN 1:" "Back up, people." "Back up." "MAN 2:" "Back up." "Get back." "MAN 1 :" "Give her some air." "DAWN:" "I'm going to take her house." "I'm going to take her power tools." "I'm going to take her K.D. Lang CDs." "But you ran right in front of her, Dawn." "I can't imagine she did it on purpose." "And, sweetheart, she felt terrible." "She was so upset, she was crying." "Who is the injured party here?" "I think Dawn's outrage is perfectly understandable." "She's got a face full of gravel, she's lucky she's not hemorrhaging internally." "Why is the onus on her to forgive?" "(clapping)" "Bravo, Doctor." "It's a start." "Okay, Camille." "If this doesn't make you feel better, then I'm not a doctor." "(JULlA CHUCKLES)" "Sushi, my favorite." "Mmm-hmm." "Oh, just a sip for me." "Just a sip." "Thank you." "Complain away if you need to, I'm all ears." "And I promise, nothing you say is boring." "(chuckling)" "How are you feeling, Julia?" "Oh, I'm fine." "Better." "Christian brought home sushi." "Come on, sit down, buddy." "Have some sake." "Actually, I..." "I want to talk to you guys." "Good." "We should talk." "(SLOW middle EASTERN music PLA ying)" "You two need your space." "I've decided to move out." "There was this sensationally talented young man." "He was all dressed up like Cher, and he was singing If You Could Turn Back Time." "I swear to God, I thought it was her." "It was uncanny." "I wish you'd have been..." "Mom, I've got to call you back." "I love you." "How's my Dawny?" "Oh, she's as good as new." "She's a little groggy." "You want to come see her?" "Of course I do." "You look good." "Freddy, I saw you at the parade." "I was there." "Really?" "Oh, yeah." "You were happy like a pig in shit." "You were feeling the pride, huh?" "Oh, and I do." "I'm so proud of our show." "And the gays, they've just been wonderful the way they've embraced us." "Uh-huh." "Freddy, look into my eyes and tell me that you are not gay." "Oh, you're looking away." "Excuse me, but..." "Aren't you sick of holding it all in?" "Don't you want to blow it sky high, and be who you really are?" "If you could have seen yourself on that float..." "You were beautiful." "You were beautiful." "(PANTlNG)" "Do you have any takeout menus at this clinic?" "Dawny and I have been through such a traumatic event, and we need a snack." "A yummy snack." "The remains of Saaed Hotary." "Saaed Hotary, a suicide bomber." "My mother's still mourning the fact that I don't look like Natalie Portman anymore." "And now your mother's really proud." "I thought it would be easier once he was out of me." "That's why you're returning the remains to his family, isn't it?" "Look, hopefully this could be the last chapter, Rachel." "Forgiveness." "I hope so." "Forgetting is easy." "Forgiveness is really, really hard." "You don't have to do this, you know." "It's not required..." "No, I made a commitment to myself." "I'm in awe of your efforts, Rachel." "I really am." "These are his parents." "Fihad and Reem Hotary." "314 Jerusalem Road, Ramallah, Palestine." ""A hate crime is when a perpetrator targets a victim," ""because of his or her membership" ""in a certain social group," ""which is defined by race, religion..." Thank you." ""...ethnicity, gender identity, or political affiliation."" "Honey, I was targeted by a heterophobic." "Right, Freddy?" "(knocking ON DOOR)" "I mean, think about it, it's right there." "DAWN:" "Oh!" "Speak of the devil." "Look who has the nerve to show up here." "Freddy, it is her." "It is her, the woman who ran over my face and made it look like lunchmeat." "Freddy!" "Well, shame on you, sister." "Dawn and Freddy, you are being ridiculous." "This woman is not Hannibal Lecter." "Her name is Jan Tooney, and she showed up asking if she could speak to you." "You need to listen to what she has to say." "You are taking advantage of my kind and generous nature, Liz." "Fine." "You got three minutes, honey." "And it better be good." "I appreciate your time." "To begin with, I'm very sorry." "See, what happened was, is..." "My bike's a crotch rocket, you know, real fast." "And I told them I was having clutch problems, and that I probably shouldn't be up front, in case something like this happened, which it did." "A bad clutch?" "A lame lie if I ever heard one." "Well, my mistake was letting my pride and my bike cloud my judgment." "I should have said no." "See, the thing is..." "I've got a kid." "Her name's Felicity." "What, is she one of those turkey baster babies?" "liz:" "Dawn!" "FREDDY:" "Dawny." "What?" "That's not nice." "No, believe it or not, I was married." "I was a soccer mom in my previous life, and I..." "Anyway, she got accepted early admissions to Yale." "She's a good kid." "She's a good girl, and she worked real hard to get in and..." "So if you sue me, she's the one who gets screwed." "Well, maybe you should have thought about that before you accelerated over my face." "Sweetheart, I think we all know by now, that Ms. Tooney did not accelerate on purpose." "Whose side are you on, Freddy?" "I just..." "This is so unlike you." "I've never seen you like this." "You're simply not yourself." "Is it possible that you are angry at somebody else, and are acting it out on this poor lady?" "Someone like me, for instance?" "Why would I be angry at you, Freddy Christopher Prune?" "Okay, you know what, Jan?" "Let's give them a minute, okay?" "Dawn, I think you're struggling with the subconscious fear that I'm gay that you're sublimating into a vendetta against Jan Tooney." "There, I said it." "Subconscious?" "Honey, I've been dreading this day since the moment I fell in love with you." "And I knew, if you went to that gay parade, that would be the end of us." "I never imagined it would be such a glorious and profound event." "All the dancing and the music and the feathers and all these beautiful souls waving at me and sending me so much love." "And they all just seemed so brave and so unafraid to be who they were." "I felt this profound sense of freedom." "And all of a sudden, my People's Choice Award, it just wasn't the most important thing in my life anymore." "And that's when the light bulb went on." "The gay light bulb." "Oh, honey." "How did you know before I did?" "It's the story of my life, sweetie." "You're not the first one." "I have been falling in love with gay boys since high school, you know?" "They were the only ones who seemed to get me." "They would laugh at all of my jokes, spend time giving me makeovers." "Oh, for hours we would listen to my Streisand records." "I knew you were too good to be true." "Really." "But I was just so lonely." "Dawny, I will always love you." "I don't deserve your love, Freddy." "Oh, yes, you do." "I really don't." "I talk a good game about unconditional love but, you know," "I spend my nights at a church, lighting a candle, praying to God that you don't come out of the closet." "What kind of love is that?" "And I'm not a homophobic person, Freddy, I'm not." "I'm just jealous, you know?" "All you guys, you seem to know where you belong, where you fit, what club you're a member of." "But me?" "I'm not so sure." "Sweetie, I wish I could take your pain away." "That's just what Tony Famigliano said when he left me for the tight end." "Hey, asshole." "(sighs)" "To what shitty twist of fate do I owe this extreme displeasure?" "Sean called." "He offered me the job of receptionist." "Gina fits the job description perfectly, if you recall your mandate." "Oh, you mean someone so hideous that I'd never, even in the pain of death, be tempted to screw them." "That mandate?" "Who wants to screw you, asshole?" "I just got my California real estate license, and I thought, what better place to meet clients than in your lobby?" "Oh, well, why don't you start off by meeting people down at the carwash?" "My Lamborghini needs detailing." "Sure." "Your wish is my command, boss." "You know what they say about holding a grudge?" "It's like taking poison, expecting the other person to die." "I thought Gina was a stroke of genius." "Not only is she not screwable, but you've got built-in childcare." "You and my ex-wife can have more alone time." "Oh, why don't you stop being such a bitchy little cheerleader, all right?" "Let's get it all out right now, huh?" "Just say it to my face." "Come on." "Nothing I want to say." "You're such a passive-aggressive little shit, aren't you?" "You can't even say it, can you?" "You can't even say it, can you?" "You can't say it." "Come on, say it." "I'm done here." "Say it." "You're not done here." "Do not touch me." "I'm sick of your holier-than-thou bullshit." "I'm not going to apologize to you again!" "(GRUNTlNG)" "She's all yours." "Just, both of you, leave me alone!" "You better deal with this, Sean." "You're such an asshole!" "What is going on?" "Stop it!" "What is going on?" "Stop!" "Oh, my God!" "Stop, you idiots!" "Stop." "Stop!" "Get away!" "You want to take any of these?" "No." "They're all from Freddy." "Just makes me sad, really." "You can have whatever you want." "Listen, do you mind if we make a little stop here?" "Just want to show you something." "All right." "Yeah, just open that for me, if you don't mind." "State-of-the-art hog." "Dawn, I know that you feel guilty about your behavior, but I have a news flash for you." "Not all lesbians ride motorcycles." "I never got past my training wheels." "I know I owe you an apology, Liz, but the bike ain't for you." "It's for Jan Tooney." "You got to be kidding." "No, it is." "And it's a nice one, too, so tell her no wheelies, okay, whatsoever." "Go ahead, look at the card." "$30,000?" "$30,000?" "A year's tuition at Yale." "I couldn't put my own kid through college, so..." "What the hell?" "Dawn!" "Listen, Liz, I know I haven't been really gracious with you, so there's something I got to do." "A bad juju will ruin your health, I know that." "I hope that you can forgive me, too." "I really didn't mean those things I said about you." "I should hope not." "It was making me feel very uncomfortable." "It was like I was walking around with a hostile kidney." "(chuckling)" "Come on, listen, I got a new idea I want to tell you about." "All right." "What?" "I'm thinking of putting my considerable wealth and style behind it." "You know PFLAG?" "Yeah." "The parents and friends of the lezzies and the gays?" "Right." "Well, I'm thinking of doing ODFLAG." "ODFLAG?" "ODFLAG." ""Organ Donors" is what the OD is for." "Oh, that is brilliant, Dawn." "Yes, thank you." "Because I think all of us who have given our body parts, our hearts and our soul to you gays, we could all get together." "liz:" "Oh, that is beautiful." "I think we're looking at six or seven surgeries to restore your face." "We'd do a bone graft from your skull to rebuild the nose." "But we'd start by inserting tissue expanders..." "What, Matt?" "Dad, come on." "You look like you just went 10 rounds with Mike Tyson." "You should see the other guy." "Yeah, no." "I talked to Christian." "I know the whole story." "Look, I can't imagine what that must be like for you." "I mean, Christian being with Mom?" "No, it's hard, even for me, but still, you guys have got to deal with this like adults." "I appreciate your concern, Matt, but we're not here to talk about me, we're here to talk about Rachel, so let's talk about the financial end of this." "People in your line of work are famously underpaid." "Yeah, no, I told her you might be willing to do this pro bono." "Matt!" "I can speak for myself..." "Look, Dad." "If ever there was somebody worthy." "I mean, she's become such an inspiration for others, and especially for me." "Matt, I'd like to speak with Rachel alone." "Could you give us a minute?" "Okay." "I'll be outside." "(DOOR OPENS AND CLOSES)" "Rachel, between us, what are your expectations from this series of surgeries?" "Something's shifted in me, since my bomber's gone, Dr. McNamara." "I've begun to think about a real life." "I've actually allowed myself to have fantasies about a life with love in it, you know?" "Are you in love with Matt?" "Is he in love with you?" "We don't discuss things like that." "We're just good friends." "Facial reconstruction is a long, painful road, filled with huge psychological challenges." "You've had so much pain already in your life, so much brutality." "I guess I just want to be certain that your expectations are realistic." "You need to be honest with yourself, whether you're doing this for you, or someone else." "Listen, your son's a great guy, but he's not the only fish in the sea." "As far as pain goes, I'm not afraid." "I've lived through the worst there is." "The pain of being betrayed by someone you love could, in some ways, be worse than physical pain." "That's what your black eye's about, isn't it?" "A betrayal." "Because, I'll tell you, when I sent those remains off to Palestine," "I slept through the night for the first time since the explosion." "The trick is forgiving the unforgivable." "Let me do that." "Remember when we moved into the dorm room, junior year, and we dropped that 400-pound desk on my foot?" "You were such a baby." "Screaming, carrying on." "You were the first person who ever really looked out for me." "My mom could handle only so much when my dad left." "You carried me into that emergency room." "I felt so covered," "like you were the brother I never had." "Then Julia showed up with margaritas camouflaged in coffee cups." "You're a betraying son of a bitch, Christian." "But you still are my brother." "And I know you're just trying to be happy." "I see you have Rachel Ben Natan on the schedule." "It's a big surgery." "Maybe you could use an extra set of hands." "Yes, I could." "(ETHEREAL middle EASTERN music PLA ying)" "English" " SDH"