"It's a what?" "A face bra." "Next to aging and sun exposure..." "... joggingisaleadingcause of wrinkles." "The motion breaks down the skin's elasticity." "This holds the face in place." "You look like Hannibal Lecter." "I may look silly, but this thing is a gold mine." "We can get a patent, do an infomercial." "This is my best invention yet." "Even if we do get rich off of this..." "... Icouldn'ttellpeople how we made our money." "There's no embarrassing way to make money." "What's with the jockstrap?" "Somebody lay a trap?" "It's a face bra." "I invented it." "I plan to get a patent." "Run, don't walk." "I need to talk to you in private." "Remember Professor Dawson?" "Why?" "What are you saying?" "Well, evidence!" "Crim pro." "You know." "Of course I remember him." "Why?" "He died Monday." "What?" "Heart attack." "Jogging, just dropped." "Ironic, really." "Decides to take up running and just drops dead." "He died?" "I know you two were pretty tight." "Why do you say that?" "You researched a lot of his publishings, I assumed so." "Oh." "Oh, yeah." "Anyway, evidently you were his favorite student." "Me?" "Yeah." "Really?" "That's what his wife says." "His wife?" "His wife said that?" "She asked if you could be a pallbearer." "Ally?" "Ally?" "Seemed important to her." "Yes?" "Okay." "Great." "VONDA SINGS:" "I've been down this road" "The Affair" "Walking the line That's painted by pride" "And I have made mistakes in my life" "That ljust can 't hide" "Oh, I believe I am ready" "For what love has to bring" "I got myself together" "Now I'm ready to sing" "I've been searching my soul tonight" "I know there's so much more to life" "Now I know I can shine a light" "To find my way back home" "Oh, baby, yeah" "Oh, yeah" "We could drive up to Maine." "The foliage is peaking." "And this friend has this great place in Camden." "That sounds great." "Good." "It's a crystal ball." "It's beautiful." "I figured you'd like it." "Ally, are you okay?" "What?" "Well... ." "She has to bury a dead mentor." "Hard enough to grieve without the added pressure of lifting the coffin." "Could you guys both excuse me for a minute?" "I have to go check on something and I'll be right back." "Maine sounds nice." "I like pretty leaves and... ." "Bye." "Are you into venture capital?" "What's up?" "Not Professor Dawson." "He's dead." "Oh, I heard." "I didn't really know him too well." "I did." "Oh, I'm sorry, Ally." "His wife wants me to be a pallbearer." "I guess you were close." "I slept with him." "What was that again?" "I had an affair with him 3rd year of law school." "You had an affair with Professor Dawson?" "Didn't you know he was--?" "Married?" "You obviously knew this." "Well, you said the marriage was over!" "Of course I knew he was married." "I just didn't want to face it." "I couldn't think of myself as a home-wrecker." "And the idea of him being in the same bed as... ." "So then what?" "I broke it off immediately, about five months later." "Ally." "Kids?" "Of course not." "Only two... ." "Littleones." "I was in a monogamous relationship." "I wasn't betraying anybody." "You let me talk because you know hearing my words is punishment enough." "I know what you're doing." "How am I going to be a pallbearer?" "They want me to carry his body..." "... whichbringsup my whole..." "... deathphobia, and I'll have to deal with that too." "I got to carry something dead." "In a box." "I got to deal with two sure things in life: death and adultery!" "Stop letting me talk." "When you jog, the face goes up and down." "I don't really invest in infomercials." "Is she okay?" "She's fine." "She's always a little tickled by drama." "In time, she'll look back at this day and want to relive it." "Hi." "Elaine." "Hi." "It's not a good time, Georgia." "Ally's in there having an upset." "What now?" "A dead professor." "Excuse me." "I'm looking for Ally McBeal." "I see." "And you would be?" "The dead professor's wife." "Oh." "Forgive my bluntness." "It's a device I use to cope." "Let me go get her for you." "And I am very sorry for your loss." "Thank you." "Door's closed." "They have knobs." "Billy, Georgia's waiting for you." "And, Ally..." "... ProfessorDawson'swifeishere ." "What?" "She'd like to meet with you." "Well, she knows I'm here?" "Yes, I told her I would get you." "Okay." "Tell her I'll be right there." "Absolutely." "What do I do?" "She doesn't know about... ." "No!" "I don't think so." "She knew he had an affair..." "... becausetheysplitupfora while , but she didn't know it was with me..." "... ormaybeshedoes." "That 'swhy she's here, maybe with a weapon." "She asked you to be a pallbearer." "Obviously she doesn't know about you." "Or some sort of sick revenge, making me carry him in a pine box." "Oh, God, she knows." "Ally, go see her." "Easy for you to say." "You didn't do it with her husband!" "Ally, hi!" "She's in your office." "So, about the weekend, I'll just call or... ." "Mrs. Dawson." "Hi." "I'm so sorry about your loss." "Thank you for taking the time to see me." "Don't be silly." "I know you and my husband were close." "He spoke of you so often." "Oh, well, he was a wonderful..." "... professor." "Yeah." "And I know he was close with many of his students but..." "... thewayhe spokeaboutyou...." "ALLY:" "Oh, my God." "May I ask you a question?" "Sure." "Just give me an honest answer." "Okay." "Would you mind speaking at the funeral?" "Excuse me?" "It wouldn't seem right not to hear from a former student." "You seem like the natural choice." "I, well..." "... myvoicedoesn'tcarrygreat in large rooms..." "... andmythroat, I've been feeling a polyp." "It would be important to him." "And to me." "Okay." "Sure." "Thank you." "The wake is tonight, and the funeral service is tomorrow." "Okay." "Thank you." "Sure." "This is Daddy's friend, Ally." "Hi, Cara." "She works with Daddy..." "... andisgoingtothezoo with us today." "BILLY:" "Ally." "You scared me." "What happened?" "She doesn't know." "That's good." "That's good except that she asked me to speak at the funeral." "What?" "As his favorite student." "And I said, "Yes. "" "You're going to eulogize a man" "I pulled some bio stuff on Professor Dawson." "It might help to be intimate for the eulogy." "Thank you, Elaine." "And Ronald Cheanie is on line 3." "Tell him I'll call him back." "His voice is taking on a perturbed quality." "Tell him I'll call him back." "And excuse us, please." "Certainly." "So, I guess if I can be an adulteress..." "... itshouldn'tbe astretchforme to get up and" "You were close to him as a student." "Just talk about that." "I shouldn't work for you anymore." "Why?" "Well, well, lately, it, it..." "... doesn'tseem..." "... itdoesn'talwaysfeellike work ." "I have to think hard to even remember him as a professor." "You never mentioned him before." "Yeah, I couldn't even admit it to myself." "I haven't even told Renee yet, or anybody and" "Oh, God, please, you cannot tell a soul." "I won't." "Okay." "I wouldn't even have told you except I really needed somebody to... ." "Oh, God!" "How am I going to do this?" "The guy is going to be lying there in a casket." "Just breathe deep, don't talk too fast and you'll get through it." "Do you want me to come to this thing?" "Would you?" "I had him for con law." "Guess I could pay my respects." "All set for the big wake?" "Ally, come here." "Tonight, try not to look at it as a negative." "Don't look at it as a negative." "There'll be a lot of his former students, like a class reunion." "Instead of a punch bowl, there's a coffin." "Reunions allow the more successful graduates..." "... toinformthelesssuccessful they're less than." "You and I?" "We're more than." "Especially me." "I've got my own firm." "I could possibly be the most." "My point is, life is all about attitude..." "... andtonight,justfeelgood  about yourself." "That speech was a Fishism." "No doubt." "Hug to get started?" "Do you know how long I've thought about doing that?" "RONALD:" "Ally?" "Ally?" "Do you want me to go with you?" "No." "No, no, no." "Billy and Richard'll be there, and I'll be fine." "I don't need... ." "Me?" "I know the back-story." "You do?" "Who told?" "You said you and Billy grew up together." "Oh, that back-story." "Well, yeah, Billy had him as a professor and..." "... andI thinkthathecould commiserate, or... ." "You're no longer a couple, but when you're about to hit bottom..." "... he'sstillthebestcushion in town?" "Something like that." "I'm sorry." "That's okay." "It's, you know... ." "But if you and I are gonna, you know..." "... progress..." "... you'regoingto havetoletmein." "I know." "Wakes are so ghoulish." "Tell me about it." "Oh, God!" "It's an open casket." "A party for everybody to come and look at you dead!" "An embalmer does your makeup." "Are you okay?" "Fine." "Breathe through your nose." "Don't talk too fast." "Okay." "I simply loved the man." "The word is so overused these days but... ." "Thank you for coming, Richard." "If not for him, I would not be where I am right now." "I'd be in a lounge smoking a Cohiba." "Hi, Ally." "Hello." "Oh, hello." "Hello." "Thank you for coming." "So many people came." "It's wonderful." "He was wonderful." "It's a wonderful night." "How are you holding up?" "It's all a blur." "I spoke to the minister, and he'll call you up after one of the songs." "Tonight?" "No, no." "Tomorrow, at the funeral." "Right." "Fine." "Good." "Slow." "I feel like I might fall." "You don't have to if" "No, I do." "I do." "I have to stay with my family." "I can't walk out on them." "Yeah, yeah." "This is just a thing, James." "It was a thing, I guess." "No, Ally." "You're the person I've always dreamed of." "All my life." "I just didn't wait long enough." "Whoever I'll end up with..." "... assumingI endup withanybody, I cheated on him too." "How do you cheat on a stranger?" "Easy." "Whoever I marry deserves somebody who values fidelity." "Obviously more than I do." "If you didn't value it, you wouldn't beat yourself up about it." "Hey." "That's too much sex, Georgia." "I'm too old." "Yeah, you felt old." "First, when we go to bed." "Then you wake me up at 3." "And now again." "What's the matter?" "Statistically..." "... mostmarriedcouplesmakelove  3.2 times a month." "I just wanted to get October over with." "No, really." "What's the matter?" "Your libido sometimes goes lock-step with your insecurity." "I am not complaining." "Part of me would like to keep you insecure forever." "But only part of me." "Have you been reading that Venus book again?" "Maybe." "Katherine Dawson is here to discuss the funeral." "Mine?" "She has been waiting since 8:30." "ALLY:" "Okay." "Lie, just lie." "Hi, Katherine." "I'm sorry to intrude, but" "That's okay." "I thought the wake went very well." "Don't you think?" "It was you." "What?" "My husband left me briefly for another woman a few years ago." "I always thought it was a member of the faculty." "But..." "... itwasyou." "Well, what..." "... whatmakesyouthinkthat ?" "My daughter remembers that day at the zoo." "James wasn't a womanizer." "He wouldn't stray..." "... unlessitwasfor  something special." "Well, as, as accusations go, at least that's a flattering one." "ALLY:" "Where the hell is Elaine when I need her?" "You're the kind of woman he'd fall in love with." "The way he used to speak about you." "How could I be so blind?" "It was right there in front of me." "We went on a couple of dates." "It was a little thing." "Small." "Did he love you?" "I never meant to fall in love with you." "I don't know." "Did you love him?" "A little." "She's in there?" "I'm not sure what's going on..." "... butI canfeelit'sgood ." "Should I go in?" "What's up?" "The professor's wife is with Ally..." "... andwhateverthey'retalkingabout, it's not about his makeup." "Maybe it's for the eulogy." "I've actually been hoping I'd meet you." "For a long time." "Oh?" "Why?" "Because I never knew what happened." "For me it was like this big black hole... ." "All of a sudden, he wasn't there." "JAMES:" "It was a tragedy that I met you." "I maybe had some chance of convincing myself that..." "... Iwashappywithmywife." "But meeting you, it's a tragedy." "What did he say?" "He wouldn't talk about it." "He just said..." "... " I'mback,andithurtstoomuch to talk about why I was gone. "" "I figured someday we would talk about it..." "... andthenhe died." "ALLY:" "Where the hell is Elaine?" "Do you really want to talk about this?" "No." "But I need to." "Look, Ally..." "... forme..." "... theproblemis , the man that I knew, he... ." "But then again, maybe that's my problem." "Did I know him?" "Maybe I never really knew him." "Look, you don't have to tell me anything." "It's just that I'm left here..." "... holdingnothingbutmymemories." "I don't even know if my memories are true." "I'll" " I'll um" "I'll be right back." "She knows." "She does?" "She's waiting back there for me in my office." "Are you okay?" "Yeah." "Yeah." "She's wondering whether she ever even really knew him." "And I could tell her that it was just sex..." "... becausethatwouldlessen the betrayal for her but... ." "But?" "But I think she's clinging on to the idea that he was a good man." "Which he was." "And sex, I mean, a cheap affair, that cheapens him." "I'm not sure she wouldn't rather hear we were just in love..." "... becauseaspainfulasitis ..." "... itdoesn'tdestroyher idea of who she thought he was." "Does this make any sense?" "What's the truth?" "The truth?" "That the biggest tragedy of his life was not spending it with me." "You can't tell her that, Ally." "You cannot tell her that." "And what it does is holds the skin in place." "Next to aging and sun exposure, jogging" "Isn't this fabulous?" "Medical studies do show that jogging causes wrinkles and..." "... peoplerunto preservetheiryouth and it makes them look old." "And if you treat this mask with a moisturizer, it could even be better." "I never thought of that." "Maybe Retin-A." "Elaine, will you excuse us for a minute?" "Certainly." "Retin-A." "I wonder if you could time-release that." "So..." "... wheredidwe leaveoff ?" "You were going to give me a clue as to why my husband betrayed me." "Yes." "That, well... ." "Your husband and, you know... ." "You?" "Me." "Yes." "I wish I could say it was just some midlife crisis." "It was just a midlife crisis." "I wish I could say I was... ." "Being sophomoric one last time." "But it's not that." "That's all it was." "I love you." "He loved you." "If I didn't have any kids... ." "You were all that ever mattered to him." "Ally, I have two children..." "... whoneedme to be there." "He loved you." "Well... ." "I think... ." "God, I... ." "I had hoped there would be some explanation..." "... that'dtakeawaysomeofthe...." "I'm sorry." "Look..." "... underthecircumstances,maybe you shouldn't speak at the funeral." "Maybe I know that he's been cheating" "Maybe I know that he's been untrue" "But what can I do" "Those things are so disgusting." "They also can cause cancer." "Why do you smoke them?" "We look good doing it." "They're expensive and people know it." "Do you think she'll plug the firm?" "Sorry?" "Ally, in the eulogy." "Think she'll plug it?" "Not right off." "Do you think she likes me?" "Not as a man but as a human being?" "How could she not?" "Sometimes I toss jewel Fishisms her way, she just stares back with blanks." "She gets thrown by profundity sometimes." "I'll go change my suit." "Let's meet in half an hour." "We can all go together." "BILLY:" "Good idea." "So..." "... willweevertalkaboutit?" "About what?" "About you being so hot by night and so cold by day." "It's just a little odd..." "... howAllykeepsgoinginto your  office and pouring out..." "... whateveritis she'spouringout." "I know." "She just has stuff going on." "Like what?" "Well, I kind of promised her it'd be confidential." "I'm your wife." "Isn't the theory that husbands and wives tell each other everything?" "Yes, but I did promise her on this." "Whatever I add up to..." "... I'mnother,amI ?" "Whatever she adds up to, she's not you." "I've never been happier being anything..." "... thanyourhusband." "I know everything's great between us now." "But you got to figure over the course we'll hit a few bumps." "I'm just nervous about Ally being in the next room when that happens." "Do you really doubt how much I love you?" "No." "I know that he's been cheating" "Maybe I know that he's been untrue" "RENEE:" "I can go with you." "It's okay." "We're all going to..." "... meetbackat the...." "You know, Ally..." "... you'renotthefirstwomantohave an affair with a married man." "Somehow that doesn't make me feel better." "What I did was worse than what he did." "He was the one with the family." "Yeah." "He took a risk." "And me, I didn't even think about it." "He had a wife..." "... kids." "I didn't give it a thought." "The marriage was over." "But it wasn't over." "He stayed with her." "It was never really over." "It may have been close, but it..." "... itwasn'toverwhenIgot inthere." "I put pain in that house, Renee." "Anger." "Those kids lost their dad for a while because of me." "And the little girl at the..." "... zoo...." "If a child can't trust her parents to love each other or to be honest... ." "I didn't even give that a thought." "I stayed late on account of the funeral." "I know how things can slip through the cracks during times of wallow." "You're a godsend." "I know how you hate to walk into your office and be surprised." "Who?" "The widow?" "Georgia?" "Cheanie." "You told him I was coming back?" "I did." "Ronny?" "Can we talk about it?" "About what?" "Come on, Ally." "Something's... ." "You go behind closed doors with Billy, it may be innocent..." "... buttogo intoarelationship being confused isn't my favorite way." "Are you two--?" "No!" "Then what?" "I had an affair with the dead professor." "I was conflicted about being the keynote speaker at his funeral and..." "... thewidowneededtoknow  whether it was a sex thing..." "... ora lovething." "And the truth seemed brutal, and I'm not a good liar." "And so I've been going behind closed doors with Billy..." "... toconfessandget his advice." "An affair with your professor?" "I knew you'd get stuck on that." "Did you not hear the rest?" "Why didn't you come to me to confess or for advice?" "I don't know." "I didn't think we were quite ready for that." "Well... ." "I think you're right." "ALLY:" "I know that tone." "Look, I'm still interested." "I still... ." "I'll change "overmatched" to just "over my head. "" "The last few days have hardly been typical." "Oh, but they have." "The next high-wire act comes tomorrow." "We just don't know what it'll be yet." "Even if I was mature enough to handle this Billy thing, I don't want to." "I don't want to be." "I like being jealous, possessive." "Just give me a couple more days." "Can you do that?" "No." "I realize it's probably my loss." "But..." "... therearejustsomevictories..." "... I'mnotequippedtohandle." "We're all going to a funeral." "Join us." "It will be fun." "Rain check." "Is it Ally?" "He just dumped her." "Ally, is it true?" "You and Cheanie?" "I'll try to convince him not to fire the whole firm." "It's been a hard two days." "You lost a professor you were close to." "Katherine told me how close." "That gave me a jump." "One of the keys to life... ." "The fast-forward." "Every movie has its lousy parts." "The trick is to fast-forward through them." "As time passes, you'll look back and say, "Oh, that little adultery thing. "" "You fast-forward to then right now." "And you're over it." "Fast-forward?" "It's the Fish way." "That's your best one yet." "Is it?" "Well... ." "Glory be to the Father" "And to the Son" "And to the Holy Ghost." "As it was in the beginning" "Is now and ever shall be." "World without end." "Amen." "Amen." "We tend to judge people by the last chapter." "Like the defining part of a man's life..." "... iswherehadhecome toby theend." "And it would be easy to do that here, wouldn't it?" "James Dawson was a successful professor..." "... awonderfullylovingfather and husband." "But don't do that." "Think of James yesterday as well as today." "Think of what he might have been doing, say, 4 years ago." "There's a whole life there." "He didn't just love his family." "He loved others." "It was once said to me..." "... " Onetruemeasureofa personis how much pain he or she causes others. "" "Because it occurs to me..." "... thatonecancausepain , enormous pain..." "... simplybyleaving." "We hurt because he's gone." "Before we continue on to our next hymn..." "... weshallhearfromoneofJames'  former students..." "... Ms.AllyMcBeal." "Ms. McBeal?" "What do I do?" "Go." "How can I go?" "Go." "Ms. McBeal?" "I'm terribly sorry, but Ms. McBeal has been canceled." "They said she was suddenly unavailable." "Oh, it appears she is available." "We'd be delighted." "Plug the firm." "Well..." "... the..." "... thingaboutfunerals..." "... theguestof honorisalwaysdead." "[WHISPERING]" "And..." "... wehearpeopletalk about the deceased and..." "... thenwehearall thesethings we never knew and we think..." "... " Oh,I wishIhad knownthat ." Or, "I wish I had known him better. "" "And we think, "Maybe that person up there is just saying nice things" ..." "... because,ofcourse,you haveto." "You can't be at a funeral..." "... andsaysomethingnot nice." "You have to say something good." "There's that story about the terrible..." "... awfulmanwhodiedandnobodycould say anything nice about him..." "... untilfinallysomebodygot upand said, "His brother was worse. "" "That... ." "That story doesn't apply here, does it?" "And, but what my point is..." "... is,lost,this." "You..." "... hear..." "... allthethingsthatwe'veheard  about James Dawson and..." "... they'realltrue." "Sometimes you think you know a person, and then you're not sure..." "... butwithJames,you reallydid..." "... knowhim." "And he is everything the canned funeral book words say he is." "Sorry." "And he was all the professor..." "... andthegoodsoul and the charitable." "He was everything that we're hearing, but..." "... mostly..." "... mostlyhewasamanhugelydevoted to his family..." "... hisdaughters,hiswife..." "... and..." "... Ithinkin theend that'showhe would have liked it to be said." "He..." "... helovedhiswifeandkids..." "... morethanlifeitself." "And that's something." "A good father and a good husband, a good man and... ." "We don't get to say that very often about people these days." "You thought you really knew him?" "And you did." "Go with Granny and Grandpa." "I'll meet you in the car." "Ally." "Thank you for your kind words." "Oh." "Well, he meant a lot to me." "I mean... ." "I know." "Hey." "Good speech." "Yeah, right." "What are you doing here?" "It's almost midnight." "Just checking on you." "Oh, well, um... ." "Well, I'm fine." "How did you know I was here?" "You usually work through things with work." "And I didn't figure you'd be with Cheanie." "I'm sorry about that." "Oh, hey, for the best." "Really?" "There were so many ways..." "... hejustwasn'tyou ." "Right." "Wasn't right." "Anyway..." "... thanksforcheckingonme." "Sure." "You remember when you thought you flunked Property..." "... andthestereowas broken and we just pretended to hear music..." "... becauseyousaidyou needed to dance?" "Yeah." "What was that?" "That was..." "... aJohnnyMathissong." "The one about the pyramids." "Yeah." "I think you could use one dance." "Yeah, right." "It always made you smile." "My smiling license's been suspended." "One dance." "Goes no further." "Remember the song?" "No." "You do too." "See the pyramids along the sand" "Wall." "It was sand." "Wall." "It was sand." "It was wall." "ALLY AND VONDA:" "See the pyramids along the Nile." "Watch the sunrise on a tropic isle" "Just remember during all the while" "You belong to me" "OLD LADY:" "You stinker!" "Subtitles by SDI Media Group" "[ENGLISH SDH]"