":" "Two victims: female, 35, GSW." "Victim is pregnant..." " My wife's here." " Name?" " My baby!" " Your wife was home." "A burglar came in." " He shot Nathalie?" " A priest, too." "You visit so seldom." "Good thing I've got him." "Know who the priest was?" "The one who visited my mom, who did what I couldn't, because everything else took precedence." " I operated on your wife." " And?" " Your child is alive." " What kind of a doctor are you?" "!" "You let pregnant women die?" "!" "I'd rather die than live with you!" "Freakin' moron!" " Relax!" " Where does it hurt?" " My life." "My life's hurting." " /'m keeping her overnight." "Let's say... paroxystic menopause?" " Shouldn't we call her mom?" " Why?" " She just talked about suicide." " Manipulation." "Hi, Caroline, uh..." "I'm done in 10 minutes." "I thought... / could stop by your place for a coffee, or something... /'ll call you back." " Caro?" "!" " need help" "FAITH AND NOTHINGNESS" "You okay, Mathieu?" "Yeah, yeah...." "I..." "I was dreaming." "I dreamed I was falling off a balcony." "Caroline?" "!" "Stay with us!" "Caro!" "Caro, stay with me!" "Let's go." "It's okay, Caro." "Swallow." "Swallow!" "Stay with us." "Did you operate on me?" "Did I..." "lose my eye?" "Yes, the optical nerve's damaged." "Still, you were lucky." "Okay." "I'll live with it." "God willing." "Who saw you before I did?" "No one." "Nobody was here when you woke up?" "I was alone." "Except for the nurse." " You were on duty?" " Uh, yes." "And you didn't monitor my patient?" " Didn't think it was necessary." " Get out." " What?" " Get out of here!" " What'd I do?" "!" " I said, get out!" "Found her in the changing room." "What happened?" "Want my honest opinion?" "Of course." "She graduated by the skin of her teeth." "She's very bright, but not a studier." "Yeah, but that's no cause for suicide." "If you say so." "Go on, I'm listening." "You bosses want us to be good doctors, to be tough, able to face any stressful situation." " That's normal." " Wanna know why she did it, or not?" "She can't stand you loving her." "She's a beautiful girl - smart, sweet, funny." "That's what appeals to you." "But her weaknesses don't concern you." "That's what she can't handle." "Nurse!" "I want to see my doctor." " His name?" "Can't remember." "He's... a very attractive man." "Not a lot of hair, warm voice..." "You're here to visit someone?" "No, I'm a client." "Well, a patient." "Passed on the butt-revealing blue gown." " Did you ask at the nurses' station?" "Bet staff wasn't as rude when nurses were nuns." "You're here - answer me." "I'm a surgeon." "I didn't..." "Stress... nerves, you know..." "I hate hospitals." "They smell of death." "Might your doctor be Antoine Légaré?" "That's it!" "He's an ER doctor..." "Well, a doctor." "He's a psychiatrist." "Psychiatrist?" "Weird." "I saw him in the ER." "Can / help you?" "Yeah, my watch was stolen." " Here?" " It's a gold watch:" "$18,000." "Find the thief, or the hospital pays." "Dr. Légaré will take care of it." "I'll send for him." "Menopause or not, her husband's a very generous donor." "Humour her." "Let her stay - he's paid the room 10 times over." "She agreed to stay one night only because she managed to attract attention." "About Caroline?" "What's your plan?" "Don't know yet." "Hate to admit it, but  after everything said about Sophie, I'm almost happy it's someone else." "My daughter's ultimately tougher than she looks." "Sure... no doubt." "Take her out of the program." "Caroline?" "If we don't promote the best doctors, who will?" "Sorry about yesterday." "We're never ready to lose our loved ones." "Even more so when you're expecting a child." "Did you do everything you could?" "Swear?" "There was too much bleeding." "It was too much for her." "She couldn't hold out." "Do you believe in God?" "What difference would it make?" "Do you?" "I wonder, but have no answers." "Wrong answer?" "I used to believe." "Not anymore." "She gave you this?" "Keep it." "Gifts from those who've left us are like  pieces of life that stop time." "Got it?" "But I've got this!" "Why would your little brother take your keychain?" "I know it's him!" "You're too messy." "He took my keychain!" "Why do you let him come into my room?" "!" "Stop acting like a baby." "You're 10, he's one." "Even if he played with it, what does it matter?" "Mom gave it to me!" "I'll buy you a new one." "I don't want another one!" "I want the one Mom gave me!" "Want to upset Suzanne?" "Do you?" "Doing it on purpose?" "Want Suzanne to think you don't love your little brother?" "Learn to share." "Dad!" "Mom gave it to me!" "A keychain's... an object." "Human beings are more important, Julie." "Stop crying." "Your mom's in heaven, watching over you." "If you're not a good girl  she'll know." "Sit." "Caroline's doing okay, resting." "Congratulations." "I'm no hero." "Stomach-pumping's a second-year nursing job." "How's everything with you?" "You were becoming good friends with Caroline, so, of course, I'm a little worried that she" "She's her..." "I'm me." "Actually, I'm surprised she didn't do it sooner." "You knew she wasn't doing well?" "I sensed it, yes." "When others feel bad, I do too." "Sometimes it scares me." "Like, now, I feel something's off with you." "Yet I'm fine." "Still talk to your father?" "We never did discuss how he died." "I don't care anymore either." "You'd agree it was a shock." "Not for you?" "For everyone." "Except I don't see him everywhere." "Me neither." "I've asked Antoine to get rid of Caroline." "She can't stay on." "I don't want to argue." "That's really nasty." "Really gross." "You face death every day." "Required to conquer death." "Dealing with the emotions of patients' loved ones." "Every time you see a patient, give family bad news, your own death is played out." "You're talking about yourselves." "Well, forgive my bluntness, but you're depressing." "And how exactly do you deal with death, Mr. Future Fellow?" "Don't think about it." "And not thinking about it makes it go away?" "Thinking about it constantly would drive us crazy." "Last night, one of your colleagues tried to kill herself." "Who?" "Who do you think?" "Fortunately, another colleague of yours was there to save her life." "To become truly good doctors  you'll have to learn to live with your own death, with the idea of the end." "Whether you believe in God or not." "Dr. Darveau isn't here?" "He came and went." "He saw Mr. Dufresne?" "But I don't know where he is." "Should I call him?" "You must be Julie." "I just saw Mathieu." "I operated on Nathalie." "She didn't make it." "But we saved her baby." "The burglar didn't know we were inside." "He panicked and fired." "Some poor guy looking for money to  buy dope, probably." "The orphaned baby's father doesn't have much sympathy for his wife's killer." " You can tell me." " What?" "I get the impression..." "Mathieu doesn't like me." "He saved your life." "I'll be grateful till the day I die, but..." "His mom confided in me a lot." "I think he feels a little guilty." "And unfortunately  he sees me as a rival." "But can you be honest?" "Yes or no?" "!" "Nothing I'd like better." "Well, last night  I knew one of my colleagues was gonna attempt suicide." "But not Caro." "It's no secret you're special." " Why are you talking about me?" " 'Cause you like it." "She's right." "You act strange because you like the attention." " Want me to kill myself, just say so." " Enough bitching!" "Subject's " Faith and Nothingness." This isn't Oprah" "Realize it upsets you?" "Not me." "Does me good." "You're braver than I'll never be, Sophie." "You're true to yourself;" "not me." "We're getting off-course." "Caroline's suicide attempt is raising many questions." "It's making you vulnerable." " On the contrary." "I'm gay." "Now you know." "I'm gay." "I know what you're thinking." "But it's okay." "I get it." "Indeed." "Twice today people have read my thoughts." "I must be an open book." "There's no problem." "I'd decided to  switch specialties anyway." "That's too bad." "I don't really care." "I talked to Dr. Lemieux." "Get some rest." "You're on duty this weekend." "Feel free to leave." "But I certainly won't flunk you for a moment of despair." "Otherwise, who'd be left?" "Hi, kids/ How are you?" "Please excuse me..." "We're going out for an hour." "With him?" "His name is Charles." " I'm not coming?" " No." "You're babysitting." "You can do it." "You're old enough." "Can you do that?" "Where was it?" "Outside." "Must've lost it while playing." "I never lose it." "You're not perfect." "You can be wrong." "Not about my keychain." "The important thing is, we found it." "He took it." "I don't wanna babysit." "Give it to me!" "I'll be gone an hour." "If everything goes well, it's yours." "If not, you'll never see it again." "Dad!" "You've got Sylvie and Catherine." " Okay." " Three girls are off sick." "Even worse in ICU." " Fair-weather slackers?" " It's not their style." "Just trying to get a laugh." "Guess I'm not too good at it." "You okay?" "You couldn't do anything for Mrs. Rioux." "Her time had come." "I was sure the aorta was the only problem." "Nothing you could do." "Mind if I take the baby to its father?" "Unless you want to do it yourself?" "You do it." "You're better at these things." "Appendectomy." "For a change." "You can do it blindfolded." "It's always routine until something goes wrong." "I need justification to keep you another day." "I don't have any." "You seem fine." "Only because I'm here." "People rarely want to stay at the hospital." "I lied to Dr. Lemieux earlier." "I told her my watch was stolen, but I threw it away." "Why?" "To liven things up." "Nothing ever happens to me." "My life's a total drag." "And accusing the staff amuses you?" "Didn't think of the staff then." "The harm it might do." "It felt risky, exciting." "I envy you, living on the edge." "My..." "life is all too comfortable." "I'll die a healthy woman for sure." "So... what do we tell your husband?" "We could tell him I died." "You found me in my bed." "You must have an unclaimed corpse that could stand in for me?" "I'll run away!" "Start over somewhere else, alone, with nothing." "Think I'm crazy, huh?" "Admit it." "Know what nothingness is, Doctor?" "When your husband - a generous hospital donor - takes you to the ER rather than in his arms." "That's nothingness." "I can't fake your death, but  how long would you like to stay?" "Martine will do it." "Not working in the ER?" "I'm done for the week." " Me, too." " Etienne, you can go." "You've done enough laparoscopies." "No, I'm interested." "In seeing me screw up a routine operation?" "What's so funny?" "Her screwing up?" "A 10-year-old could do it." "Then do it." "That's okay." "It's all hers." "No, I want you to do it." "Retrocecal appendix." "Routine." "A 10-year-old..." "Clamps." "Charles." "Look." "Look at the little bear." "Hi there." "You won't get me." "I refuse..." "What you did  it won't harm your career." "I mean" " I know." "Dr. Légaré told me already." "You want to give a suicidal traumatologist a promotion." "What?" "Is that the new you?" "Was it the first time?" " I've often considered it." " That's not an answer." "First time." "That makes you a suicidal doctor?" "I'm ashamed." "Right, straight-A students aren't allowed to crack." "Everyone cracks in this damn profession at some point." "For some..." "For some, it's alcohol." "Others self-prescribe anti-anxiety medications." "Some go from one bad relationship to another." "Some... become workaholics." "I once knew a top-notch doctor:" "kleptomaniac." "A psychiatrist on a 6-month sabbatical who was then committed for six months for sexual deviancy." "Then there's religion, for those who believe." "We confront death 100 times a day." "It's inhumane." "What about you?" "I drink  because  I blame myself for losing the woman I loved." "She left you?" "She died." "You're not being objective with me." "Know what that means?" "No." "That you love me a little?" "Leave me alone." "Mr. Courchesne?" "Not now." "Later." "Don't want to see him?" "I understand." "I'm not heartless." "I know." "My greatest love is dead and I find myself alone with a newborn" " With half the genes of your greatest love." "What's gone is gone, but  life is living." "Wait." "Is it a nervous breakdown?" "You know, the term breakdown is  a bit of a catch-all." "Let's just say your wife... isn't feeling good about herself." "I'm scared she'll do something crazy." "She even hits me." "I'm scared for her, really." "Have you  talked to her?" "You don't know her!" "I can listen, but she doesn't." "Tearing into me..." "I can't say anything." "I do everything for her;" "I always comply." "If it's come to this, it's really serious." "From your perspective, undoubtedly." "Is that..." "Is that how you see it?" "You disagree?" "But I'm not..." "Actually, here he is." "There's your... wife's doctor." " Mr. Gagnon?" " Yes." "I'll... be going." "I don't have great news." " Is it serious?" " Rather." "Rather how?" "How long... has she been acting this way?" "How long...?" "Not long." "It's been escalating." "That's it." "It's getting worse." "Exactly as I thought." "Say something!" "Don't leave me hanging!" "Work a lot, don't you?" "Constantly." "Marie-Christine's high-maintenance." "You'll have to take time off." "She'll need you." "It's not... brain cancer?" "Worse?" "We're talking two months, maybe three." "Can you take time off?" "Three months?" "Can you?" "I'd do anything for her." "Good." "It's a prescription for her." "Good luck." "Nothing more we can do." "I saw the doctor." "He told me what you needed." "Marie-Christine, I..." "I'm sorry I've made you so unhappy." "When the woman you love prefers living among sick and dead people  we're in serious trouble." "I'm selling." " Selling?" " I'm 55, you're 50." "We won't spend the rest of our lives buying fancy watches and luxury cars." "Huh?" " Denis?" " What?" "Make love to me." "Here?" "My dead friends say it's urgent." "You okay, Dr. Lemieux?" "A little dizzy." "They can manage without me." "Yes, Picotine/ But why?" "Why?" "Because he was very small and could compose as well as play music." "That's why" "So how'd it go?" "Well?" "I knew you could do it." "Babysitting's easy." "I'll check on Charles." "He was crying, so I gave him my keychain." "He calmed down." "It's thanks to Mom." "Marc!" "He's choking!" "Hurry!" "Turn him on his back!" "On his back!" "t's gonna be okay" "Be right back." "You saved my life, but I feel so ashamed." "I wish I could go somewhere far away." "They're simple-minded." "You're nothing like them." "No, they're intimidated." "With your talent, in five years' time, nobody'll be talking about your dad." "I don't want to be like him." "My dad isn't my role model." "Julie Lemieux is." "She's my role model." "I want to be like her." "We all do." "Look at me, Julie." "Look at me." "I can't see you." "Okay, baby." "Touch your nose with your right hand." "Now with your left." "Not that!" "Smile." "Smile at me." "Okay, baby, tell me:" "what's 10 times 10?" " Ten... 10 times 10?" " Yes." "What's 10 times 10?" "Twen... twenty." "Okay, don't move." "Be right back." "Stay here." "Shit." "How big is that?" "Two centimetres?" "One-point-eight... almost two." "What about here?" "Is that blood?" "It's blurry." "She moved a little." "Yeah, it's blood." "Sentinel bleeding?" "I have to operate." "I'd rather not." "No choice." "Trust me?" "The priest." "It's... not your fault  your mom needed him." "You know the risks." "I..." "I know." "When?" "Now." "You'll need authorization from the College of Physicians." "Diane's taking care of it." "Subtitling and Translation:" "CNST, Montreal"