"Are we going to our spot, Mum?" "I've already booked it, sweet pea." "Anyone else sitting there will have to skedaddle." "We'll say, 'Excuse me, this is our spot." "Me and Janey's." "So, you've got to move or we're calling the police!" "'" "Will we bring Baby here too, Mum?" "Would you like to?" "No." "Really?" "Cos I'm sure Baby would like it here." "Daddy can bring it." "But you could be in charge." "Show them all the special things we do." "Paddling and picking flowers and collecting tadpoles." "Can I use my net now?" "Course." "Go on." "Hello, Anne." "Hello." "This is our spot." "Mummy?" "Mummy?" "Mummy?" "All right, everyone." "Start to clear up a little bit for me, please." "Sorry, we're in a bit of a rush." "Hey, sweet pea." "Put the book away." "Has she been OK?" "Yeah, always." "Thanks." "We'll see you tomorrow." "Bye, Janey." "OK." "Go on." "Bye, Annie." "Bye!" "Bye." "Why are we in a rush, Mum?" "Cos, lucky you, you're having a special treat." "You're going to Granddad's for the night." "Why am I having a special treat?" "Cos you are." "Cos you're gorgeous and cos I love you." "M-wah!" "Are you and Daddy going to drink wine and do hard kissing?" "Crap." "Language!" "Can you stop playing with those things at the table?" "Hi, all!" "Oh, Annie." "Hello, Annie-Bananie!" "Hi, Dad." "I'm saving it just for you." "Don't be long." "Hey, Pam." "Oh, hi, Jane." "How are you?" "Are you well?" "Yeah, good." "Thanks for having Annie." "She loves spending time with you and her granddad." "We love spending time with our granddaughter." "Hey, Ells." "How are you?" "Doing anything exciting?" "Er, no, just felt Rob needed a bit of spoiling." "I'll take these up." "OK." "I'm now officially worried." "What did I miss?" "Our first date?" "Our first snog?" "Come on, you gotta help me out here." "Cheers." "Cheers." "Oh, my God." "You're pregnant." "Yes." "Oh, my God." "Rob, stop saying, 'Oh, my God,' and tell me you're happy." "Hey, of course I'm happy." "I'm just a bit surprised as well." "I didn't even know we were trying so..." "Neither did I!" "I must have missed a few days of my pill and..." "I know it wasn't planned and I know it's a shock and we haven't got any money but..." "Now that it has happened, for me it just... feels so right." "I just wanna know it does for you too." "Hey, how could it not feel right to have another child with you?" "I was so nervous about telling you." "Hey, when did you find out?" "I did a test this morning." "How many weeks?" "I've got an appointment at the hospital tomorrow morning." "About five or six, I reckon." "Wow." "Wow." "You know... my mum was carrying a boy when she died." "Yeah, yeah." "I think I did know that." "It would be lovely for Annie, wouldn't it?" "To have a little brother I never did?" "Well, as long as it's got two arms and two legs." "Yeah, but a brother would just feel so right, wouldn't it?" "Hey." "As long as it's healthy." "Hm?" "This is about the future, Janey." "It's all about the future." "We're gonna have another baby, Mum." "Arse!" "Sorry." "Sorry." "Sorry." "Is it safe to carry on taking my medication?" "There's no need to stop taking your antidepressants." "It's just I've read a lot about foetal abnormalities." "Not with your prescription." "And even if you did want to stop, you'd need to stop slowly." "There are some very unpleasant side effects if you just stop outright." "Like?" "Have you just stopped?" "No." "Like what?" "Anxiety, confusion, impaired cognitive abilities, dizziness." "The list is long." "Baby needs you to be happy and well, Jane." "Keep taking your antidepressants, please." "OK." "Thank you." "Are you all right?" "Jane?" "Oh, God." "Rob." "What is it?" "What's happened?" "What is it, love?" "Is it the baby?" "I saw him." "You saw him?" "You saw who?" "At the hospital." "I saw him." "You saw who, Jane?" "The man who killed my mum." "It's all right." "It's OK." "It's OK." "So... what are we gonna do?" "What do you mean what are we gonna do?" "Are we going to go to the police?" "Rob." "I've just seen the man that murdered my mother." "Absolutely." "I understand that." "I'm just saying..." "What are you saying?" "Love..." "It was 23 years ago." "You were seven years old." "and you saw him for a few seconds." "How can you be sure it was him?" "Because the last time I saw him, he was ten feet away from me holding a rock." "He..." "I was close enough to smell the blood on his hands." "My mother's blood." "It was him." "It was the same man I saw this morning." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "What about the other times, Jane?" "The other times you'd swore you'd seen him." "What other times?" "It was years ago." "What other times?" "Oh, God." "I was a child, for Christ sake." "You were 18 the last time." "That's not a child." "And you were as convinced then as you are now." "I said I'd seen him before." "Once when I was nine and once when I was a confused and disturbed teenager." "And you caused the man you accused a week from hell." "Before I accepted I got it wrong." "Before I did that independently." "Which was followed by your complete breakdown." "Which WE, Pam and I, had to help you get slowly back out of." "Which I'd do again a billion times over, of course I would, because you are my daughter." "But, Janey, when I see you doing something that I know can end up hurting you... isn't it my job as your dad to try and stop you?" "We can't change what happened... but, truly, we do have to learn to accept it." "And let Mum go." "It was him, Rob." "It's not like the other times." "It was him." "I need you to believe me." "It was him." "Let's go." "OK." "I'll..." "I'll..." "I'll call you, Pete." "Yeah?" "Yeah, yeah." "You think he works there?" "Yeah." "His name's Andrew Rawlins." "We looked him up on the hospital website when we first got back." "So, he's admin or..." "He's a consultant oncologist." "OK, Jane." "What you've told us today is obviously going to kick off quite a process." "So... before we press ahead..." "I do need to know that you're sure." "100% certain this was the man." "I am. 100%." "The good news is this is not the end of anything." "I have delivered this very difficult news to many hundreds of people over the last 25 years." "The vast majority of whom still send me Christmas cards." "Sorry." "I'm with a patient." "Mr Rawlins?" "Yes." "Detective Sergeant Mark Renwick." "I'm sorry, Rob." "Eh." "You've had to deal with so much crap with me and my past and all you've probably ever wanted is a normal life." "Janey..." "So have I." "Because it's hard to describe..." "what it does to you." "Waking up every day knowing the man who crushed the life out of my lovely mum is..." "He's out there." "Well..." "Happy." "He's unpunished." "Hey, come here." "It's all right." "Sorry." "It's all right." "It's OK." "Well, I'm not quite sure what you want me to say." "I mean... do I even need to say it wasn't me?" "It might be a good place to start." "Well, it wasn't." "Of course." "I mean, she's mistaken." "Well, you'll understand this is a very serious allegation, Mr Rawlins." "One which we take very seriously." "So, we'll need to interview you formally, under caution, as soon as possible." "What?" "Now?" "Is that a problem?" "Well..." "It's my son's 18th birthday party and we've got 50 people arriving in just over an hour." "I can do it any other time." "First thing in the morning, if you like, but..." "I'm not going anywhere." "Nine o'clock tomorrow morning, then." "Don't be late." "Smile" "# And I tell you it don't mean jack" "* No, it don't mean jack * No, it don't mean jack *" "So, come on, what's up?" "What do you mean, 'What's up?" "' Nothing's up." "Dad, normally by this stage of the evening you'd start flirting with Max's girlfriends." "Seriously, what is it?" "Something very upsetting happened at work today." "So, in conclusion, I'm sure everybody here tonight would like to join with me in wishing you a very happy retirement." "And we sincerely hope that you and Dave..." "That YOU enjoy some well earned rest and finally manage to put your feet up for a little bit, as you embark on the next phase of your life." "So, ladies and gentlemen, please raise your glasses to DI Allison Hall." "DI Allison Hall." "Thank you." "# For she's a jolly good fellow" "Oh." "# For she's a jolly good fell-ow" "# And so say all of us Thank you." "# And so say all of us" "# And so say all of us" "* For she's a jolly good fellow, for she's a jolly good... *" "Have you told Beth?" "I didn't want to spoil this evening." "I'll tell her in the morning." "Well, I don't quite know what to say." "If I couldn't see how upset you were, I'd laugh." "It's absurd." "What time are you in at the police station tomorrow?" "Nine." "OK." "I can shift some things and I can come with you." "No, that's sweet of you." "I phoned Dave Russell." "I'll cancel David." "I'm doing it." "You're mine." "Are lawyers even allowed to represent their fathers?" "You're not gonna need representation." "No sane person is ever going to believe that my kind, lovely, fabulous dad is actually some kind of monster." "In at nine. 50 quid we'll be done and dusted by 9:30." "They're about to do the cake." "Yeah, we're just coming." "Come on." "I love you, darling." "I'm very, very proud of you." "Two Princes" "Sorry about Maurice." "It's fine." "I still do it myself sometimes." "Set the table for two, book two cinema tickets." "19 years is a long time." "Have you heard from the wanker?" "Mm." "He calls when he wants to arrange picking up the next lot of his stuff." "Look, Alli, I want you to know I fought for you tooth and claw against this redundancy." "You know that, don't you?" "I know, guv." "When are you actually off, then?" "18th." "Tell you what, drop into me before you go." "I've got some really good contacts in the security game." "Yeah." "Will do." "Oh, Alli, you were on the Phillips' case, weren't you?" "My first murder." "I spent three years on it." "Why?" "That little girl turned up in a nick in Alderbourne this morning." "What was her name?" "Reckons she saw the killer again." "William, my lad." "How are you, big man?" "Her name was Jane." "I'm going to support you every step of the way in this." "You do know that, don't you?" "But I just..." "I guess I do just need to know, you understand how hard it could be, the next year... or longer." "The press will get involved, probably make your life hell and then a trial." "And that you're sure enough it is him." "To make it worth going through all that." "Rob." "Everyone wants me to say I'm 100% sure." "As if that were the only basis on which I could do this but of course I'm not." "How could anyone be?" "But I'm 99% sure." "And, actually, you know what?" "Even if I were 95 or 80 or maybe even 50, I would still have to do this." "I... couldn't take the chance I could let that man go." "OK." "Good evening." "Good evening, everyone, and welcome." "We're here tonight to celebrate Max's 18th." "I remember when I was 18, I actually thought my father was a bit of an idiot." "And then when I was 21, I came back from college and was astonished to see how much he'd learnt in those three years." "I never know quite what you think of me, Max, but I know for sure what I think of you." "Indeed, I was reminded today at work..." ".. as I often am, of how lucky we are as a family." "We have our health, we're happy and the mortgage is paid off!" "But, most importantly, we have each other and, undoubtedly, the thing that Beth and I are most proud of is that we can think of no-one we'd rather spend time with." "That's a little embarrassing but there it is." "So, to our son, to our friend, we think you're fantastic and we love you very much." "Max." " Hip-hip." " Hooray!" "Hip-hip." "Hooray!" "Hip-hip." "Hooray!" "Hey, puss." "There you go." "But I know the case better than anyone, sir. 'He's interviewing him in the morning. '" "Well, I could share that with DS Renwick and I'll be happy to go up to Alderbourne." "'You finish in two weeks. ' Exactly." "I mean, it's probably all something and nothing anyway so why waste another busy copper's time on it?" "'Why waste yours?" "'" "It was one of those cases, guv." "I mean we never even had a credible suspect, not one." "Please?" "'I'll make a call. '" "Good night, sir, and thanks." "'Good night. '" "Thanks." "'Hello. ' Em, I'm really sorry to wake you, sweetheart. '" "'No." "I was already up. '" "There's something I think you should know before this morning..." "Hello, Allison." "Jane." "How lovely to see you again." "And you." "I suppose it's customary to say you haven't changed but you have." "You're..." "You're all grown up." "On the outside maybe." "Well, first up, thanks for meeting so early." "I've a four-year-old daughter." "This isn't early." "So, you're married or..." "Yeah." "Also four years." "Well, congratulations." "I'm really pleased for you." "Thanks for your call last night." "You said you have to be at the station at nine?" "Yes, then DS Renwick and I will do the interview." "And what are you going to ask him?" "Well, I want to keep it quite general to start." "I wouldn't expect him to be able to provide an alibi for the actual day." "I mean, it was nearly a quarter of a century ago." "But it would be useful to know what he was up to at the time, where he was living and working, for example." "And then?" "And then if DS Renwick and I feel there are grounds for taking things forward, we'll get the original files and take it from there." "Do you know the last time I saw you?" "Well, I was trying to work it out myself." "It must have been mid '90s?" "My tenth birthday." "You bought me a Beanie baby." "20 years ago." "And I picked you out just now without a second glance." "I wanted to write to you all those years ago to tell you why I'd stopped visiting." "Because I wanted to keep seeing you." "It was just that... well, your dad felt it wasn't very helpful." "But I always thought about you, Janey, and I just want you to know... .. I'm on your side." "Thank you." "Allison, thank you so much." "In order to help you as much as I could, I went back over my personal diaries yesterday to see if I could give you as clear a picture as possible as to where I was when the murder took place." "And erm..." "I'm afraid I can't tell you where I was on that actual day." "OK." "But I can tell you that I was in Cardiff at that time working about 100 miles away at the City General." "I was based there for six years starting in 1988." "OK." "Thank you for that." "And so, to the best of your knowledge, yesterday's encounter with Miss Phillips was the first you'd ever had?" "Actually, no, it wasn't." "I believe I had an encounter with Miss Phillips about 15 minutes before she saw me in the corridor when she nearly crashed her car into mine outside the hospital." "This is a copy of the CCTV from the hospital car park entrance." "You'll find it shows footage of an incident between two cars." "One of which is my father's." "One of which we believe will be shown to be Miss Phillips'." "Right." "Thank you." "And, so, in this earlier encounter, did you speak to her?" "At her, would be more accurate." "I was pretty cross." "But would she have seen your face?" "We stared right at each other." "She actually said, 'Sorry,' to me." "And 15 minutes after this rather bruising encounter, this young lady, who from what I've read online has faced a number of challenges over the years, decides that my father is the man who killed her mother 23 years ago." "My father who has 30 years exemplary service in the NHS and who last year was awarded an OBE for his services to oncology." "Now, Mr Rawlins feels very sad for Miss Phillips and everything she has gone through but she's mistaken in her belief that my father had anything to do with it." "I didn't see his face." "But you do remember the incident?" "Yeah, of course I remember it." "It was yesterday but I didn't see his face." "This has nothing to do with what happened inside the hospital." "Absolutely nothing!" "When I was at the hospital, I also spoke to the antenatal clinic you visited." "Is it true you've stopped taking your antidepressants?" "Seven weeks ago?" "So, before you MISSED taking your pill?" "Jesus." "It's my body, Rob." "And it's our marriage, Jane." "What do you mean?" "We're meant to to decide stuff together." "It seems I don't really matter." "You matter." "Not enough to consult me on whether we have another child." "I'm the same age as her, Rob, when she conceived her second." "It just..." "It was just something I had to do." "And I get that." "The timing." "How important that is to you, of course I do." "But don't you ask yourself about the timing of everything else?" "About the fact that you've seen this man when you're feeling so vulnerable and come off your meds." "And you're maybe not seeing things as straight as you could." "Don't you see that?" "Please, Jane, this is going to affect us all." "Please make sure you're making the right decision." "I can't believe you didn't tell me." "I didn't want to spoil last night." "Oh, love." "I'm so sorry you had to go through that on your own." "It must have been awful." "It's going to be fine, Beth." "I'd imagine they'll have to be seen to jump through a few hoops but if I don't get a call from them by the end of the week saying they're not pursuing this, I'd be very surprised." "Well, if you don't, I'm going to the police station myself." "All right." "Tea." "Will you go in today?" "Well, my patients can't take the day off, can they?" "A couple more days then see where we are." "No-one could be more upset than I am, Andrew, but I'm sure you understand the Trust could be vulnerable to all sorts of issues." "Can I see my list this afternoon?" "We've arranged excellent cover." "Your list will be very well looked after." "And I'm sure it'll only be for a few days." "I should say the board has every confidence in you." "Yep." "Can you take them all up to my office, please?" "Yeah, Profiling, please." "Bloods." "Are we going swimming now, Mummy?" "Not now, sweetheart." "Allison, I think I might have found something." "The letter is to Anne Phillips from her GP, dated April 1991, detailing a visit Anne made during her pregnancy to a walk-in clinic in Leominster for some anti-sickness medication and the name of the doctor who saw her" "is recorded in the GP's letter as a locum called Dr A Rawlins." "Could that have been you?" "Are you seriously asking me if I remember treating one patient for ten minutes 23 years ago?" "No." "What exactly are you asking him then?" "I'm asking if you remember taking locum work at this clinic, something you failed to mention the last time we talked." "Leominster, of course much nearer to where Mrs Phillips lived." "And died." "Well, yes, I do remember it now and I failed to mention it previously because I had just forgotten." "As I recall, it was for about a week and I probably just needed the extra cash." "Hm." "It was on and off for... nine weeks." "Well, as you say, it was a very long time ago." "And if you check her medical files," "I'm sure you'll find she engaged with several dozen other medical professionals at the time." "She was, after all, pregnant." "I'm sure you're right." "Is that it?" "Er, just one more thing." "The victim's clothing had minute traces of what we believe to be the attacker's blood on it, in 1991, DNA capture technique was pretty basic." "The blood was mixed with Anne's and it wasn't possible to get a single genotype profile." "Even six years ago, when this evidence was last reviewed, it still wasn't possible to accurately separate them." "But now we can, which, I think is good news for you, Mr Rawlins." "It means that all you have to do to quickly eliminate yourself from our enquiries is to give us a blood sample." "Why the hell should I make it easy for them?" "Because it'll make it easier for you." "It's such a simple way to prove it wasn't you." "I don't need any proof." "I know it wasn't." "I know that, Dad, but " "I don't think anyone has the first idea what this is actually like." "I have people avoiding my eye at work, walking away from me like I was contaminated." "It's just awful." "I get that, Dad, I really do and it is so unfair but the truth is there is absolutely nothing we can do about it and in the end if you refuse to take a test, at some point they could compel you to by arresting you." "So, I think you should do it." "Really, Em?" "I'm beginning to wonder." "Maybe a part of you thinks it could have been me." "That's completely not true." "Really?" "Really?" "Em, how could you think that?" "I don't." "I don't, Dad, please." "Fine." "Let them bloody well arrest me." "See you later." "Bye." "Bye." "Here's your bag." "Leave him alone." "My father is not who you think he is." "Sorry?" "He did not kill your mother." "You made a mistake." "You are ruining his life." "How did you find out where we live?" "Jane." "I'm calling the police." "Just leave him alone." "He's a good man." "Mummy!" "She's all right, darling." "He's not a good man." "Dad!" "He's a good man and he's my father." "Your father is evil." "He is a monster." "Just you leave him alone, you mad bitch." "Come on." "That's all right." "You're all right." "Let's get inside." "All right." "Did you not see how scared Annie was?" "Doesn't that bother you?" "Course it bothers me." "It was a one-off." "Stay there, darling." "Jane?" "Come on." "There's all sorts of weirdos out there who will have an opinion about you once this gets out." "Not to mention the papers." "We can handle it." "Of course we bloody can." "I'm talking about Annie." "What it's going to be like for her to see you put through a wringer of a trial for months on end." "I'm talking about our daughter being exposed to people like that for the next God knows how long." "What exactly do you want me to do?" "Jane, just leave the phone." "It's Allison." "It's Allison." "Leave the phone." "Hi, Allison." "'He's going to do the test. '" "'He just rang me ten minutes ago. '" "Jesus." "When?" "'He's coming down right now. '" "How long before we get a result?" "'End of play, the lab said. '" "'I've asked for it to be fast tracked. '" "OK." "Well, that's great news, obviously." "Thank you." "Call me if you hear anything." "'I will. '" "'Speak later. '" "He's going to do it." "Blood test." "We'll hear end of play today." "In a few hours this is all going to seem like a bad dream." "I want you to know I know that." "A little bee sting." "OK?" "Nearly finished now." "That's it." "Well done." "Thank you." "Got it." "And?" "It wasn't him." "What do you mean it wasn't him?" "It wasn't Andrew Rawlins." "No, but it was." "I'm sorry, Jane." "How sure are you?" "Completely." "Andrew Rawlins blood is not the blood on the dress." "But it... it was him, Rob, I swear..." "No, love, it wasn't." "It was!" "I know it was!" "I want a re-test." "He must have" " Jane, stop this!" "It wasn't him." "You need to let it go." "Mummy?" "You need to let it go and you need to start thinking about your family now." "You made a mistake." "It wasn't him." "Come on, let's get back into bed." "I'm so sorry, Jane, but he's right." "It's time to move on now." "I'll call you tomorrow." "I'm sorry." "I really am." "It was him." "She's dangerous." "She's got an obsession with Dad." "We've got an injunction against her." "I know you know something's wrong." "No, I don't, Jane." "Morning." "We let men get away with shit like that." "We let them get away with it every day of the week." "You killed my mum!" "Bastard!" "Get off me!" "Jane, what is this?" "I don't know what to say to you any more." "Rob..."