"Once upon a time, in a faraway land," "Queen Meaud and King Yves brought into the world" "Princess Emilie and Prince Florian." "But very quickly the King and Queen fell out of love" "After a few years," "Queen Meaud fell for young King Frédéric, whom she later married" "Their union resulted in the births of Princess Anais, Prince Guillaume and Princess Pauline" "OH LA LA PAULINE" "With" "Pauline the heroine" "Fred the father" "Guillaume the brother" "Ana's the sister" "Meaud the mother" "Directed by Emilie Brisavoine the half-sister" "At the start of his 13th year," "Guillaume left his parents' castle to live with his fairy godmother, Florence in a faraway kingdom, leaving Princesses Anais and Pauline behind in the castle" "Have you ever read Maupassant?" "Yes" "Because I'm totally fucked" "I have to do this language thing and I don't get it all it sucks, I fucking hate it" " What are you wearing?" " Is there a problem?" "No, there isn't!" "Can I have my jeans back?" "Now'?" "Fine, I'll go naked No worries, Pauline." "My jeans." " Pardon'?" " My "means." "Why are you in such a hurry?" " Give me two seconds!" " One, two." "Ok get out, this is my room." "Thanks" " Go to your room, Pauline." " No, I'm getting food." " Is that allowed?" " Don't be like that" "I didn't do anything" "I make an effort and you still yell at me." "Gently!" "Do it yourself if you don't like it" " That's not my job." " Whose job is it then?" "The person who made the mess" "You want a place to put your stuff'?" "Yes, because I'd like to work but I can't!" "Here." "Want this?" "Where's my desk?" "Why didn't you keep yours?" "It's not a desk, it's a computer thingy!" "Why can't you use that?" "Look at all that!" "I can't put anything on it!" "Fuck you!" "I've had enough!" "I need to work but I have no desk!" "She's such a bitch!" "Delicious." "Too bad you didn't film the arrival" "It was nice" "Tell me about it" "Well, you come in.." "You hear your dad saying..." "Something like.." ""I don't know why I want to live."" "It's always nice to hear your dad say that" "And your parents are always arguing" "It pisses me off." "And she doesn't say a word." "I'm working, I don't want to talk to her." "Fun times." "Want something to eat, Emilie?" "No, I'm good, thanks." "Can you imagine me dancing like this at a club?" "I'd get thrown out." "I love it!" "God, I'm tired!" "Pauline, could you out this out?" "Wait, I'm being filmed!" "You may be being filmed, but your sister needs to work and your music's bothering her." "So when she asks, you do something." "But when I ask you do nothing" "What, are you working right now?" "No, I finished all my work Friday night." "I don't wait until 9 o'clock on Sunday." "Come on, you work every night til..." "And since when do you enter my room without knocking?" " Just turn it down please." "Alright!" "You can still knock." "A little respect doesn't hurt!" "The law says you have to knock on a kid's door" "I can't believe it!" "I was doing something and he just Waltzes into my room" "The sound's awful" "I don't believe it" "Asshole" "I don't just wander into people's rooms and say." "Dirty!" "Fuck, she's in your friends, I knew it!" "Her ass is dirty!" "Dirty!" "Cueron's so proud of living in that dump of his." "Nah, he's taking the piss" " He's in your friends..." " He added me!" " He looks like a tranny!" " No" "One day when venturing out of the castle" "Pauline's heart missed a beat to the tune of a young, handsome minstrel named Abe!" "The thing is, there are signs that we're a couple." "The number three." "We started dating July 3rd" "We've each had 3 serious relationships." " Real ones!" " Not just two week flings." "Or three" "Pauline and Abel share three letters." " No." " Yes" "A, L and E." "And that makes 3 signs." " Hi, Dad?" " Yes, Pauline." " How are you?" " Stop messing about!" " I'm not." " I'll call you back" " That burst my bubble." " That got off to a good start!" " Why did he say that?" " Don't know He's like that" "My entire family has a stick up their ass." "Or a firework." "But he sounded angry about something." "He's calling" " Hello." " Yes, Pauline." " You OK?" " Yes, I'm fine" "Anais called asking if you could sleep at Abel's tonight." "Are you taking the piss?" "No." "You're using Anais to see if it'll be better accepted!" "You've got k all wrong, Pauline" " So I can't?" " Of course you can?" "!" "That way you could argue with Mum all night without me around for once." "That's nice." "We can argue without you around for once!" "I don't always argue with your mum!" "And we often argue about you." "So if I'm not there, you won't argue about me" "That's not a reason!" "Please!" "We said 830 so youâ€œ be back at 8130!" "Then I'll go out again" "No you won T, Pauline" "I hate them, it's the fucking weekend!" "He asked if he could stay over!" "Does he really think he's welcome after last weekend's behaviour'?" "Abe!" "really doesn't seem to get d'!" "Your Mum's spoken to Abel's dad, so Abel's going home tonight." "Tell Mum to take the stick out of her ass!" "She calls Abel's dad for everything." "Tell her to buy herself a shrink too." "We don?" "need a shrink, but you do!" " Shut the fuck up!" " Hey, come on." "Why does she always call my dad?" "At least when they drink, you get them drunk, they fall asleep, you go out, comeback, see?" "You can hang out with your friends." "But they don't even drink." "All my mum does is smoke" "Are we all having dinner together tonight?" "LOL" "He doesn't even know what LOL means" "Do you know what it means?" "LOL" "I'm chatting to one, two..." "five people on Facebook." "Life's hard." "One's telling me about his break-up." "Another, his life story." "It's always the same" ""You ok?" "Yeah." "You?" "Yeah What's new?" ""Nothing." "You?" "Nothing." "Bye."" "Pointless, totally pointless" "I'm not answering the other one" "Thelma tells me about life with her parents." "It sucks for her too" "Dinnertime!" "Anais also left her parents' castle to live win her grandmother in a neighbouring kingdom" " What have you done so far?" " The introduction" "Have you got much let to do?" "All that." "It won't take long." "You've been saying that all morning." "It's complicated!" "I've got three pages to do!" "Are you listening to music?" "AI It's not music, you know that." "AI No I don't, I can't hear it." "Only Princess Pauline remains at (he castle" "And the last sentence..." "I feel all alone now" "When Mum and Dad argue about me," "I feel even lonelier, it sucks." "I don't like mornings." "Anais used to take an hour in the bathroom" "I'd complain" "But now I can't because the bathroom's empty." "She was always up before me." "That's over now" "Nothing happens in the morning." "Mum sleeps in till I don't know when" "Dad's the same now he's no longer working." "He gets up when he likes." "Even if sometimes Mum does get up to see if I've gone to class." "She gets up at seven to check on me" "She brings me breakfast" "You have to connect with someone" "For Anais, it's Grandma" "For me, it's Mum" "But that doesn't work, so I try my mates and my boyfriend." "Three minutes" "Hang on." "It's here" "That's the Batofar It's written on it" "And here are The Dead Lips!" "Batofar, are you ready?" "Stop looking at me, all full of yourself!" " I'm not full of myself." " Take that look off your face!" "Good God gin, you're pathetic!" "Keep your mouth shut!" "You little shit!" "A little education wouldn't do him any harm." "Her language is awful, she comes home late!" "You need to buck up your ideas" " You little 15 year old shit!" " Ok!" "Shut your mouth!" "No." "Yes!" "You will if I say so!" " We had enough of you!" " Ok, fine!" "You shut the fuck up, now!" "I don't want to be all smiley anymore, after everything you've put us through, you bitch!" "What a statement!" "Your sister's lucky she can film you." "I'm so ashamed of you:" "I couldn't do it!" "Show off, why don't you?" "You'll see what'll happen." "You know what?" "I'm gonna get out of here," "I've had enough." "I've just realized We got a really shit life." "I feel like I'm stuck here:" "like a virus." "I can't really leave because I'm still attached" "A mix of guilt, family love, I don't know how to call it." "Fear too" "With a family like mine," "I can't ever imagine having a family of my own." "But that's still my dream, to have a family of my own." "But I can't imagine taking my kids to visit them." "What a mess!" "I can't imagine telling my son" ""Wanna go ride your bike with Grandpa?"" "I can't imagine saying that." "I'd never say:" ""Go ride your bike with Grandpa in the park."" "I used to love doing that with Grandpa and Grandma." "It was cool." "I miss doing that, going out with them." "Grandma always had a snack, and plasters." "Guillaume would hold Grandpa's hand," "I'd hold Grandma's..." "It's a different world" "They're too nice." "They're too normal." "I just can't do that" "Honestly, I can't explain it" "I need an argument, I need to hear them argue, complain..." "They're too nice." "You'd never hear Grandpa say to Grandma:" ""You unfuckable pig, I'm gonna suck a few cocks" ""then come back."" "You'd never hear anything like that." "You hear: "Frankie dear, will you have some soup?"" "Dad!" "We forgot to put something on the cake!" "The cakes fine." "Yes, go on, piglets!" "So?" "You can follow me if you like!" "You're the weak link so goodbye." "Being the bitch that I am I wrecked the bathroom!" "Damn it!" "Brigitte Bardot doesn't say damn it, she says fuck it." "So I say fuck it!" "Fuck the pigeon scarers!" "My turn!" "My turn!" "I want to say something." "Happy Birthday, Florian." "It's Pauline, your little sister who adores you!" "Liar." "Happy Birthday!" "When you see this film of me take a good look at my face!" "Happy Birthday, from a loving face!" "Let's put the cake back over there" "Thanks for the party:" "it was great." "I wasn't expecting it." "Mum was great at keeping it secret loan be silly too "Hi, I'm Pauline!" "My mum doesn't want me to pretend to be a woman, but I love it." "It's because my dad's always pretending to be a woman!" "So I'm not dressed like a whore, but almost." "So, I'm sending you my love I love you Florian!"" "That was Pauline, I love Pauline!" "Cut!" "You're the weak link." "You tell him:" ""My dad dropped off my CV and cover letter." ""I wondered if there was any news."" "Because you've got to reply to other cake shops." "You need to have found a job by the end of June." "Fuck, yeah..." "We have all these forms to fill out for the cake shop" "Forms lead to contracts:" "it's serious stuff!" "What are you guys doing tonight?" "What about you?" "Are you seeing Abel?" " I'd like to sleep at his, but..." " Go ahead" " I can't." " Why not?" "I'm already going tomorrow and the day after." "That's enough then." " Coke?" " Can we go, Dad?" " What do you mean?" " Please" "What about when I say please go to school?" " But this morning.." " Moaning." ""We got my period!" You got your period." "Me too, we all do, honey!" "Everyone gets them one day!" "Look how my nail folds over." "Anything would fold under the weight of your bullshit." "Oh my God, you've got extendable nails, wow!" "It'd be a good idea to take all that shit off it's ugly" "Be an ass!" "I've seen it all before" "Can we go?" "Did you wash your dishes, even though you ate nothing?" "Whoa." " Did you tidy your room?" " Yes" "Let me check Lady Pauline!" "Everyone thinks you're my wife, I love it." "I look younger and younger thanks to you" "Well.." "It's true!" "You don't look 20, Dad!" " Maybe not but 25, 26 easy!" " No way." "You look 35, 40 35, no way" "Thanks" "So can Abel come over?" "The answers no, want it in English?" "Nein!" "So I should understand the opposite." "It's German." "And I said nein" " So that's yes?" " No!" "Nein means no." "It means yes, because before you said yes." " I'm teasing you, so it's no." " So he can come?" "How old were you?" "I must have been 21 years old." "How come you were in the same bar as her?" "We first met at the Scorpion" "She was with a girlfriend She said to her"" ""See that guy over there?" "I'll get him."" "Her friend said: "He's gay, you'll never get him!"" "She said, "I don't care, I know I'll get him."" "After, I went to a café and it just so happened that she was sitting at the next table" " On purpose?" " I don't know" "I ordered a drink and she was next to me" "I could hear her speaking she made me laugh." "Her voice was really hoarse she'd lost it" "Her voice was really masculine and her glasses made her look weird" "We started chatting" "The minute we started talking I felt a kind of" " You felt?" " An osmosis between us" "I couldn't even say:" ""Let's see each other again."" "I took her straight to Grandma's" "She said: "First you bring home gays, now trannies?"" "and I said, "She's not a tranny, she's a woman" ""She has two kids."" "She didn't believe me." "Her voice was so hoarse and she hid her eyes." "So she came across as really severe and intimidating to my mum" "What's that?" "Heads." "I hollowed them out to bake them" " Is one crying?" " Yes" "And a little broken alien." "It was an alien with a baby I stuck its baby here." "But I rubbed it too much and well" "The whole scene was moving." "I don't know where the alien is" "And then it broke." "It was the day I'd done my oral exams." "I went home, tired." "Mum and Dad were asleep." "I thought: "Nice!" "No arguing, I can relax."" "I borrow my dad's laptop" "I decide to watch Desperate Housewives and I go to my room." "I press play, then hear a door slam." "And then I think"" ""it's sure he's going to start yelling"," "I brace myself, knowing what's coming" "He goes in the kitchen, he slams the cutlery around." "He starts yelling as usual." "Then bashes my door open." "He'd already broken my door handle so I keep it shut with a cupboard." "That way, he can't come in, and loan have some privacy" "Then, he knocks the cupboard over and breaks it yelling: "Go wash your glasses, bitch!"" "He starts yelling I was calm" "Then, something snapped." "I decided"" ""OK, if he's gonna yell so am I "" "Maybe he'll understand if we both yell." "I got up and said:" ""Listen up, maybe you'll get it this way."" "I started yelling as loud as him." "But it didn't work." "And now I have no voice" "It's getting better, it's coming back, right?" "It was worse earlier I don't know why." "Maybe because I shut..." "I said talk less." "lam talking less" "It happened just after my oral exams" "I told you to go buy throat pastels from the chemist's." "Look!" "It's Abel, do you see him?" "Do you or not?" "He's handsome, huh?" "He's my piece of meat!" "Hi." "Stop it, please." "He's so handsome!" "Give us a hug!" " Can I have a coke?" " No!" " Why not?" " It's for my throat" " Can I have just a little?" " No" " Please" " No" " Come on!" " No way." "You can have some" "Next time you come see me, just say you're here to see the others, ok?" "Don't tell me you're coming to see me.." " You've been unbearable." " Go fuck yourself." " Hey!" " Give me a break!" "Have you heard you and Dad?" "If you come here, it's to see me, not to see the others." "Keep it up and you'll really piss me off." "You know what?" "Go home" " Can I go?" " No" " Can I go?" " No" "You asked me to leave" "To leave the living room" "Pauline, I don't want to get violent, it's not good for me." "So let me go." " Pauline, stop." " No, if you leave..." " Stop this." "It's ridiculous" " It's not ridiculous" "I'll leave through the terrace." "Fucking stop it." "I've had enough of this guy, fuck." "You don't get it, are you really that fucking stupid?" "You know what?" "Go talk in your room" " You need talk about this." " He doesn't want to!" " All he wants is to play guitar" " I asked him to play!" "I don't care!" "You never ask me anything." "I asked him to play because Emilie's filming" " OK, but you never ask me." " Play guitar then!" "No." "You're not interested in me only in him." " I'm not interested in him" " No!" "Yes you are!" "Look, she wants you to pay attention to her" "Just a little." "You've never been interested in me." "All you want to do is leave." "Ok, you never want see me again." " Pauline!" " Leave me alone!" "You were horrible." "I can't now." "I'm disgusted." " I'm leaving." " No!" " Pauline!" " Can I go, please?" "Stop!" "If you leave, I swear, we're not together anymore." "Ok, whatever." "No, you won't get by'" "He hasn't got a fucking clue!" "I'm going back up Alone" " Stop it." " I didn't press it." "Ok, you win, I'm coming back!" "You look beautiful, Princess!" "When do I get to film you?" "I want to film Emilie too, we'll never see you otherwise." "True, but you'll hear me." "That's not the same." "I'm not at ease" "You look like you are" " It's not just that." " But the girls..." "The girls, sure..." "But I feel a bit self-conscious" "I'm less spontaneous" "And it's because there's this thing here, intruding." "What do you feel?" "What's the problem?" "For example, earlier I wanted to kiss you when you arrived." "But you had that thing with you, so I couldn't." "The other day when you were filming, it annoyed me, so I went to bed" "I can't be natural with that thing." "I can't say what I'd normally say" "Fuck, fuck, Donald Duck." " I feel too old now." " Already?" "You're only 50!" "I don't know, Frédéric often asks me" ""What's it like being with a young, good-looking guy?"" " Me, I say good-looking?" " Yes And I feel" "I feel left behind." "I'm no good at pretending." "I could get a face lift, remove this or that..." "You'd be thrilled, you'll see!" "But my hands?" "My neck?" "They'd still look 50!" " So?" " Why do you want to do that?" "It's like a house, if you do up one room, the others look filthy in comparison." "When you redo the painting you have to do everything." "It's tragic." "When your appearance is central to your work:" "When it's about make-up, beauty..." "I understand that..." "My grandmother was 14 years older than my grandfather." "For us it's eight." "But eight is a lot..." "I assure you, I'll get old too I already am." "We'll soon resemble one another, if that's what you're worried about" "The other day, you looked at two women in the street" "And you said" ""I like that kind of ass a nice flat one "" "An ass I might like or not like is of no importance to me." "I'm talking about aesthetics" "It's nothing sexual That's all" "You can line up all the gins you like," "I may find them beautiful, it wouldn't go further." "You're the only one who has an effect on me." " I can't explain it." " It really is a paradox" "I don't want to start my life over with someone younger" "Not at all" "I loved you as you were and I continue to love you as you are." "If you want to stay like that, then stay like that." "Glad to hear it, as you said the other day:" ""Aren't you happy and proud" ""to be with a young, good-looking guy?"" "It's pretty unpleasant when you hear people say" ""Is she your Mum?"" "No, she's not my mum." "She's my wife." "It's already happened twice, and.." "It really pisses me off" "You don't look like my mum, at all!" " I'd have had you at 8." " I wish they'd stop!" "Pauline?" "Is the ham nice?" "Is it?" "Yes?" "September 24th Dad's birthday." "Hi Anais!" "Hi Pauline!" "Pauline!" "Hi Grandpa!" "August 19th." "The beach" "Frédéric is going to give us his opinion." "It reminds me of my life, since my parents were young" "My mum was 11 when she had me" "11?" " Yes" "And my dad was 15." "When did you find out?" "You were adopted, right?" "Yes, I was adopted at age two." "It's hard, but at the same time" "When i found out my mum was 11," "it really moved me and I forgave her." "When I was a kid I really hated her." "When they told me:" "it was hard." "Then realising how young she was," "I tried to put myself in her shoes." "And think:" ""My God, what must she have gone through?"" "Every year, I have my birthday and every year..." "I'm a year older but my mum is nowhere to be seen" "That spring, Pauline and Abe) exchange as many kisses as angry words" "I'm fed up" "I want to jump out the 1st floor window." "But it wouldn't even hurt!" "Not one bit." "Except..." "I'd be handicapped for life, in a wheelchair!" "So no, I'm good It'll be OK" "This is my next weapon" "I put Abel's balls in them..." "They're scissors but not just any old scissors" "They're not the normal kind with one blade" "These ones have one two, three, four... ten!" "Ten blades!" "You pull the skin on his balls!" "No even better, you grab his hairy little willy" "and you do this" "That way his willy gets out into strips." "You put the ball in the thing and go.." "What's that?" "I don't know what you can do with that." "You put your finger and press hard." "Look at you, in a dress." "Lovely!" "Lovely." "Give me a massage, Mum" "A massage?" "No, not a head massage!" "I love my little Pauline!" "A more gentle massage?" "That's it." "Guillaume's way" " When's Guigui coming?" " The 21st" "If he comes!" "There's that." "This is the letter" "There's this too" "And this" "Does he love me?" "Does he love me?" ""I know I messed up and hurt you." ""I really hate myself, it's really not what I want."" "Do you think it's true?" ""I'd do anything to keep you," ""no matter what others think or say." ""You and me, it's for life."" "Asshole!" ""Please believe me."" "It shocks me because he drew little hearts, and guys don't draw hearts, they just write." "He drew a beating heart!" "So cute!" "He drew a cake and wrote"" ""Pauline's cake, when she becomes a cake maker"" "Dad, can I borrow your phone, please?" "Wait, let me put my code in" "You do that" "He'll bring it to you!" "On my my, I'm running, flying!" "What does she want?" "To call Abel?" "YUP" "Here comes another drama!" "Drama, drama, drama..." "Here." "More coming soon!" "I've had enough!" "Do you want me to stop filming?" "I don't care!" "I don't give a shit..." "Because he doesn't care!" "Zero, zero.." "I'm not going to fall apart for a son of a bitch who isn't worth..." "Who isn't worth it" "I'm fed up of being a woman." "I've had it" " Don't cry over that." " Why?" "You shouldn't be a man's slave!" "Just kidding." "Wait, you need the tuner, it's not tuned" "Kurt didn't tune it like that to play "Come as you are"." " How did he tune it then?" " I don't know." "Can you remember the key for "Come as you are"?" "I need a fag first, but I don't have one" "There's one at home." "There's Dad!" "When I grow up, I'll be the Bee Gees" "Ora formula 1 pilot" "Until then, I dress up" "That's the truth Everything looks good on me" "Red, black, the blues hope, black!" "I love a bk of every colour" "That's how k is, what can I do" "You have to decide what you want" "That's how k is, what can I do" "You have to decide what you want" "Whose fault is it?" "I am one and the other" "Playing both sides" "Whose fault is it?" "I am one and the other" "That's how k is, what can I do" "You have to decide what you want" "Let me go !" "Get off!" "Get your hands off me!" "You're stretching my jumper!" "Get the fuck off me!" "The Princess never saw Abe!" "again." "And she fell into a deep sleep..." "On February 14th, it'll be a month since Abel left me" "Super stupid St Valentine's!" "This Valentine's Day will be great!" "And it's a Tuesday" "I'm starting back at work on Valentine's Day, the day Abel left me." "A month apart." "My birthday will fly by." "Our 1 year 8 month anniversary will too." "All week at work, I'll have that on my mind." "So last night, Pauline was a bit drunk" " A bit!" " Just a bit" "It's every week with her at the moment" "Every week, everyday every hour." "It's become the HQ." "The headquarters of getting drunk!" "We drink, we smoke..." "Then we sleep it off" " We listen to music." " And do it all over again!" "It's hard going, physically." "Monday, when I went home.." "You're dead." "And you get bored alone it all blew up this weekend" "What happened?" "I don't want to be here anymore" "Anais is gone, she hasn't been here in three weeks" "I don't want to be alone any more." "So on Friday, I decided to leave" "I came out in short and tights as usual" "Dad vented his anger on me" "He called me a whore, a bitch." "I trashed my room." "Mum insulted me by calling me a drug addict." "They kept saying druggy, whore, alcoholic." "So, I took a shower and got ready." "I went into the kitchen." "And Mum said"" ""You're not going out like that Get back in your room!"" "Friday night and I have to stay home?" "With them?" "No way!" "I had to get out of there." "I didn't go back til Monday." "I bummed off everyone" "I stayed with friends I ate pasta." "I didn't even shower from Saturday to Monday." "Like a big fat pig." "I didn't care" "I had to beg them for money." "They don't give me any" "They've got no money." "The fridge is empty..." "Everything's empty." "But now that you've finished school, you'll have to work" "That's in reality" "The civil code doesn't say:" ""When you finish school you must work."" "And nothing says" ""We are slaves and must work to earn money."" "The dinosaurs didn't work." "That's worth thinking about." "So what are you going to do with your life?" "I'll be a dinosaur" "Like every summer," "Prince Guillaume visits his parents." "15 euros!" "That's all you get nowadays for 15 euros!" " Get the half-price ones." " No way!" "Isn't that what you eat at home?" "Eating the cheap stuff gets boring after a 'while." "Joy of joys!" " What's with her?" " Don't know" "She should be celebrating 2 years with her ex..." "They broke up a while back, didn't they?" "I guess it was at Christmas, not sure." " What do you think of it?" " I couldn't care less" "Things are so good with my girlfriend." " Really?" "HOWS it going?" " Really well." " What's life like over there?" " It's great, really stable." "No way!" "She doesn't want to see me anymore" " That's not true" " It is" "I miss you." "I've had enough." "It pisses me off." "Seriously!" "You're constantly with Ethan," "I'm second best." "I'm gonna kill him." "Let's take a look at the footage of Pauline and Abel." "I wasn't even in the picture!" "I'm sorry about that." "Can you see how I suffered, internally" "Ethan's the one!" "We've decided to get married." "In 6 months." "Guillaume will be the DJ, Pauline will be bridesmaid" "Mum will be the preacher." "No, we said our mums would be the go-go dancers." "We'll bring Pauline loads of guys to choose from." "I'll tell you.." "Where I'll throw my bouquet." "A little to the right." "We'll make sure you get it that way" "I'll tackle all the other girls anyway" "But if you want to go, you should figure out where" "Grandma said you could go to hers" "I can't." "I can't." "You know what Mum said to me?" "She said:" ""If you leave home, I'll die."" "She's right!" "If you're no longer there, Dad'll push her to her limit." "Can you imagine the pressure I'm under?" "I told her to stop saying it!" "It's too much." "Are you gonna spend your whole Me with Mum?" "No, I wanna leave soon" " You need money." " I don't have the guts" "Pretend tea" "April 1st 1998." "The family is having tea." "It keeps starting over" " I don't understand a thing" " Maybe it's normal." "Maybe you recorded over something again." "Pauline!" "Be careful or you'll spill again..." "Why should I get up every day to have a banal life?" "Nothing has been banal since I was a kid" "If you think about it..." "Dad dressing as a woman." "Mum showing her boobs to guys in the street, holding a whip." "She did it a few times and I was ashamed" "Parents who embarrass you at the restaurant" "A mum who pulls your hair..." "Last night on the phone at midnight, Mum said:" ""You hold things against me from when you were little" ""I pulled your hair, I went out at night and left you alone."" "I said: "Of course I hold it against you and it still hurts." ""I can't even talk about it with you.." ""Because it still hurts."" "I've been asking Mum to see a shrink for ages" "She says: "Sure, to reveal our problems all over again."" ""It's the past, just live in the present, and for the future."" "But to live in the present you need some structure" "You can't just suddenly say:" ""Ok, now everything's fine," despite the last 17 years." "You can't be born green then say you're purple tomorrow!" "I'd love to find someone else like me" "Who'd understand me." "Be on the same wavelength." "I always thought I had a twin that had died" "I really did!" "I feel I'm missing something." "Maybe I didn't get enough affection when I needed it." "That must be it" "Because I don't think they had twins and one died" "I think she'd have told me, I would've been devastated" "That may be it." "I'm a parrot and I lost my parrot partner." "It makes me sad" "That's why when I have a guy, I suffocate him." "I missed out on so much love" "It's true I complain a lot but there've been days when they were there" "and everything was fine." "Watch (he bike!" "Ready!" "Steady!" "Go!" "The little gin looks at her "I want chocolate!"" "Her mum says:" ""No feet, nothing sweet!"" "Oh, did you see that?" "Yes, I see everything honey" "Just look at your Mum" "You know your mum..." "Please, Abel!" "Come to Mum!" "I've got a dress..." "She's a tranny, escaped from the woods." "How horrible, really." "And the freak keeps on filming!" " I don't want you to cry." " Mum doesn't want you to cry." "All these positive vibes are suffocating me." "When they were biting each other's heads off" "Guillaume would cry." "Anais would separate them" "Let me explain" "I think that's my I was always..." "I've just understood it, it makes sense now!" "Illumination!" "Camera, capture that!" "Every time they argued, goddam it," "I was the one that separated them." "That's why!" "I feel like crying!" "That's why I feel I have this role" "Are you with me?" "Do you get it?" "Anais was always there.." "Oh my God, I just got it illumination!" "When they insulted each other," "Guillaume would burst into tears" "Anais would comfort him, stroke his head, like a real mother" "And then, it was me, me, who had to separate them with all the might of a six year old." "Doors slamming, and Mum in tears: "We had it!"" "and I didn't know what to do" "Aflerwards, Anais would go see Dad." "That's why they've always been close" "It gives me the shivers!" "I understand and it really hurts" " It hurts?" " Yeah" "Now I know why I always felt I needed to protect them." "I was always asked to protect them, but my?" "Because as a kid that's what my role was." "I think that's why I couldn't leave" "That's why I'd never go sleep anywhere else!" "I felt guilty for not being there." "Guilt!" "Now I understand so many things!" "It's shocking." "In my head, I feel like I've done an assault course" "I feel I've found the treasure." "It's great but it's doing my head in." "I don't know how to explain it." "It's as if my head just did a big shit!" "It just let a huge shit out that had been stuck for years." "This was invented for war" "What was?" "MM's." "Invented for war?" "The chocolate was made for people going on the front." "It brightened their days" "So, are you going to war?" "I'm on the front." "On the front." "I'm as hairy as a soldier!" " Are we doing Mother's Day?" " When is it?" "I never know if it's May or June." "It's May, the 25th." "Are you going to invite Grandma Monique?" "She won't come." "I can't believe what you told me last time" "That she wanted to have me adopted?" "Grandma told me It's no big deal." "Sometimes it's better that way." "You can't force someone to want their kid" "Sony, but she had unprotected sex, so at some point you have to stop..." "I can't judge, I don't know what happened." "She refused to explain." "I don't know" "You never talked about it?" "She refused." "It's not my business" "It's not?" "It's your life!" "She doesn't work like that." "You can't force people." "You don't have kids if you don't want them." "In 20 years, you'll think differently, Pauline!" "When I was young, I was like you, I hated her" "It does no good." "It's done We can't take it back" "My grandmother told me she suffered a lot" "She was pointed at, for being a young mother" "In the 60's, pregnant by a guy who's no longer around." "It must have been horrible." "It's not easy being the illegitimate daughter." "There was some story about my step-father." "I found out later that my dad wrote to me, sent me money." "My mother kept the money and hid the letters" "But I found out when I wanted a bike" "There was a red bike in the basement" "Aflerwards, I found out my dad had sent me it" "A red bike in the basement!" "I didn't have a bike." "She refused to give me the bike." "Forbidden!" "Because my step-father was jealous." "I didn't know who'd bought it." "Why there was a bike there and I didn't have one" "I'd like to try talking to your mum." " You can try!" " What would you ask her?" " Why?" " Why don't you love Mum?" "WW?" " It's sad." " It's not easy, no." "The moral of the story is:" "if the base isn't stable:" "it never will be." "In the end." "That's sad" "But it's not that sad." "So long as you can trace it.." "It can't erase the past, but..." "It softens the future" "And that's what's great" "Stop looking at me, all full of yourself!" "I'm not full of myself" "Take that took off your face!" "You 're pathetic!" "Keep your mouth shut!" "You little shit!" "A little education wouldn't do him any harm." "Her language is awful, she comes home late'!" "You need to buck up your ideas." " You {We 15 year old shit!" " 0k!" "Shut your mouth!" "No." "Yes!" "You will if I say so!" " I've had enough of you!" " Ok, fine!" "So shut the fuck up, now!" "I don T want to be ab' smiley anymore, after everything you've put us through you lime bitch!" "What a statement!" "Your sister's lucky she can film you." "I'm so ashamed of you, I couldn't do I!" "Shame the screen's black" "I was just making some adjustments." "It's weird hearing myself yell." "It's weird just hearing your own voice." "Yes, generally, when I hear myself talk," "I've got a girly voice I don't like my voice." "But when I yell, I sound like a man." " It's not easy." " What do you want to say?" "I don't know." "I can't do this anymore" "The looks they give each other." "Upsetting words on both sides." "Everything they do." "When in fact, they could be happy and love each other." "They could but they go about it all wrong." "They tear each other up all the time" "You can do what you like, I no longer give a shit." "We really had enough of your bullshit." "If you can't control yourself, you walk away" "You'll see what you'll be like." "Except that, I've already seen myself." "When I look at the footage it pisses me off because I couldn't control myself." "If you're looking to make us pay..." "When I hear Anais say to me:" ""As far as I'm concerned when Grandma's older," ""she'll have a room at my house." ""But I'll leave you to die in a hospice."" "No problem!" "Why does she say that?" "I don't know my she says that." "You don't know'?" "I find it unfair, that's all" "Why is it so unfair?" "You get sent shit, you reply with shit" "She sent you shit because." "It's a chain of events" "She sent me shit because we sent her shit?" "You don't even realize anymore" "I get the impression you're both suffering but you support each other sometimes" "And your suffering attracted you to one another." " See what I mean?" " Maybe I do, yes." "Everyday, Mum yells: "I love you Popo" when I go to work" "She writes me pages and pages." "She needs us to smother her with all the love she never got." "But I feel the same thing, because." "At one point, I needed it and she wasn't there" "I know." "And I tried to be there" " Yes, but it's not the same" " I know" "The other day, at 3am, you'd been arguing..." "Mum told me her life had been hard" "Grandma Monique neglected her, her step-father hit her." "She'd go hide at her Grandma's" "I can understand why she's like that now, why she tried to commit suicide 7 times, why she became anorexic and why she's now a bit of a fatty, why she eats chocolate at 1am," "why she's on the computer at 5am." "And why she wants to make cakes like that, why she smothers us with love when at onetime, she didn't want to" "She's making up for lost time" "She's trying, but the problem is that I.." "That we.." "We have to adapt to you two" "To how she is" "When she's ok, we have to be OK too, right?" "When she didn't need us, she needed her friends we had to adapt to that Is that it?" "That's what we had to do" "That's the way it was" "Yeah, that's the way it was" "You and Mum are like how I felt with Abel" "You have both always suffered" "Because, when we suffer from a young age, it sticks with us." "But I suffered less than you." "You did, you didn't know your parents, that's hard." "You had your parents you had Grandma, but you don't know what it's like" "It pisses me off." "I'd love to know who it is." "I just don't understand how you can do that to kids" "You can't blame your parents." "I can't blame my mum." "It's more my grandmother's fault." "She did her best to hide where I was born" "For 30 years, I thought I was born in Nanterre when in fact it was Neuilly." " Neuilly?" " Yep." "I really liked your letter that you opened on camera with a heart." "So boys don't draw hearts?" "Why shouldn't boys draw hearts?" "Did you see how fat I was?" "I didn't think you were fat, I thought you were gorgeous." "No, I looked awful" "Maybe, but your face reminds me of your mum" " It's true I look like Mum" " A lot, yes." "I never saw your Mum at that age, because I met her at 28, more or less" "Where are you?" "At home, I'm coming" " Is it him?" " Yep." " So you have a guy?" " Not yet." "It doesn't say "in a couple" on my forehead, if you see what I mean!" "But it says "almost in a couple!"" "But it's all good." "We seem to have a physical osmosis." "Dad said that we were in synch physically." "Apparently Abel was a bit of a shrimp." "It did me good, he's..." "It's nice to see you with a boy taller than you" "Yes, he's taller!" "And he's..." " Have you got a photo?" " I do indeed" "A photo!" "So, you forgot Abel" "No." "No, but he'll make me forget Abel." "Well, I hope so." "He's really fucking good looking!" "I put him as my screensaver cos I like him" "He is good looking, huh?" "Yummy." "He's a change from Abel." "That's so dirty!" "Mum saw him, she said:" ""Oh yes, come give me a kiss!" "Absolutely!"" "Dad ms all turned on!" "Seeing as there's no one around, we can dance like no one's looking!" "I posted a note downstairs saying you're celebrating your 17th birthday." "A note with a little bow tie." "Since we've been at yours, things have been going better" "Yesterday, we were on the couch, we were telling jokes" "We'd never done that before, ever!" "It was crazy." "Mum was laughing, Dad was laughing" "It was the first time since I don't know when" "Are you ready?" "Make a wish!"