"He had a nightmare again?" "I can't sleep either" "He is so little." "It is horrible to live with them" "Can't we hide him at the neighbour's place?" "Don't be silly, mom" "Your son will go crazy" "He will pull down our house" "Let him drink more milk tomorrow morning then" "There will be nothing over there" "I don't like to sleep" "sleeping takes time off life" "And I will have nightmares like that" "So I always fake sleeping" "Then I heard adults talk about topics I shouldn't know" "Like my uncles say..." "These two generations are the most unfortunate" "After one hundred years or so" "Computers can save human memories" "Then inject into a new born baby" "people won't die then" "I think that is possible" "When I think about such a major issue, I can hardly sleep" "Grandma took me to a fortune-teIIer, who said I will only survive for thirty years" "Not sure if enough for me to finish university, get married and have a baby" "She cries every time they talk about this" "She is a tough woman" "single handedly raised seven kids" "They say when I was born..." "Mom, come to see your grandchild" "Boy or girl?" "girl, of course" "Let me finish washing clothes first" "Mom, I am just kidding." "It is a boy!" "What?" "!" "Why are you here?" "people may swap our baby" "My parents are so generous" "Grandma likes me, so they gave me to her" "until my younger brother is born" "They get me back as a baby-sitter and servant" "Saying it is time to train me up" "The first grandchild of Wan family is weak" "Get all kinds of disease" "measles, asthma, whooping cough" "Makes everybody busy, especially grandma" "The earliest memory of my Iife is like this..." "They said I am a clever kid" "But even if I am a dumb" "I can tell who love me the most in this world" "Grandma, when I grow up, I will carry you to see the doctor" "When you grow up, grandma can die with peace" "Why do you want to die?" "I don't want to, but everybody has to" "will I die too?" "You are still young, have a Iong way to live" "only old people die?" "Grandma, where will you be after death?" "I will go to hell" "Maybe to meet your grandpa" "I have never seen grandpa" "Is he dead?" "I am not sure." "I haven't seen him for a Iong time" "Grandma, if you go to see grandpa..." "I can't see you any more" "Grandma, why can't you live forever?" "Good boy, don't cry" "I don't want to leave you either" "How about this..." "grandma can teach you a way" "So that we can see each other after death, okay?" "Grandma, I go to find granny Erhu" "You should play with her more often" "I am afraid of darkness, but we live at the 4th floor attic" "The stairs are dark even in the daytime" "Every step is different" "But I memorize them all" "Rushing down with my eyes closed." "Then I will not be so scared" "I can't let the adults laugh at me" "One catty of White Rabbit candy" "alright" "Granny Erhu is great." "She can neither hear nor speak" "But she is here everyday, playing wonderful music" "Granny Erhu is a beggar." "Grandma tells me not to give her money" "Buy her food instead and she will be more joyful" "Ivan, Iet's go to play" "Then, one day..." "I never ask grandma again, because I already understand" "One day she will leave me too" "Amid the fear of grandma's mortality" "We, my brother and I, have grown up" "And it is time to leave grandma" "Moving to Hong Kong with parents" "I can't bear to part, but I am excited about the new life" "I also feel stronger" "No longer afraid to be bullied by my barbaric parents" "Can't you just fold the quilt after you get up?" "We got to unfold it again when we go to bed, so why the trouble?" "Isn't it better to be neat and tidy?" "You can fold your quilt if you Iike, we don't need that" "I wonder how you can go to bed without taking a bath, I just can't" "Perhaps you are dirtier than us" "How can you speak to your mom this way?" "You are a bad model" "Just like the damn old rogue, always walk away when scolded" "Even the old rogue couldn't stand her" "He told me a secret when he left" "That my brother may not be his son" "Let's go to Victoria Park." "I want to swing" "He really doesn't resemble me at all" "Learn swimming first." "Is your swimming trunk on?" "No" "Anyway, what is the difference?" "I don't feel I am his son either" "Our mighty and everlasting lord" "affiliate with the humanity of dead appear on us, your one and only son" "Revive us with his immortal new light" "Our mighty and everlasting lord" "Make where the death occur, also where the life revive" "Our mighty and everlasting lord, rescue us from eternal death" "Resurrected from the dead, bestows us eternal life" "Our mighty and everlasting lord" "We praise you all times" "naturally" "Somehow, I have joined a mission school" "I have special feelings towards this topic" "To me, that is the most useful knowledge we learn in school" "The others, after examinations," "I don't think they are of much use in the rest of my Iife" "Speaking of the rest of my Iife, my time may be less than others" "Are you fifteen?" "Sixteen, just passed the birthday" "Less than a half is left" "I suddenly started writing a diary" "Somebody might reconstruct my memories, someday after my death" "Then I can reborn" "Hey boy, that is enough for your whole life" "Five dollars each" "Here, sixty dollars" "Though the chance is close to zero" "unless I have great achievements in my Iife" "And become a celebrity to be remembered" "Come on Ivan, we are leaving" "I got to finish my work." "I will join the night snack" "You have to pay your share then" "That's fine" "Hey Ivan, later" "Hey don't stay so late man, you are killing my image" "Take care and good-night" "My deadline is approaching." "I must work to my best" "Let my parents regret despising me and not letting me go to university" "Let grandma be proud of me" "That kid is workahoIic" "Yeah, he works on weekends too" "See he doesn't have much time for a girlfriend" "Oh maybe he is targeting Miss Universe" "Isn't your daughter graduating from LA sometime soon?" "finally I have got my own premises" "Nobody would order me to be neat and tidy here" "I can get naked anytime anywhere" "I admit that I have a bit of narcissism and exhibitionism" "I enjoy freedom, can't stand fetter" "I am no Ionger afraid of loneliness and darkness" "I am afraid of nothing, and that feels great" "But..." "Can I be not afraid of death?" "welcome to "Go for IT" again, I am Neng Chan" "We have got two IT x-gens here" "would you guys introduce yourselves?" "I am Ivan, from Times digital" "I'm Josh Aviv, magical Software, from israel" "Oh, now we will go bilingual" "Can you tell us how long you've been in the industry?" "5 years 15 years" "Wow, you look younger than that" "I didn't go to university" "And started working when I was still in secondary school" "It's like bill Gates" "well, except that he had a rich father to support him" "The young men get on well, and I will translate later" "Go on guys, I don't exist" "Are you gay?" "Excuse me?" "Ivan, you heard me." "Are you gay?" "I...is this relevant..." "relevant to our topic?" "Sure, I mean, people like us find it very hard to keep girlfriends" "Cos' they don't understand our passion with computers" "So are you gay?" "Hey, that's my question" "Yeah, right" "well, I don't think so" "Think?" "No, I mean, no..." "I have never had sex with a man, okay?" "Okay" "But I do have friends who are gay" "And have no problem with them whatsoever" "well, well, well..." "That's a standard answer from the celebrities, right?" "Two handsome guys aren't an item yet, but stay tuned" "We will be back after a brief commercial" "Sometimes I go to gym six days a week" "Boxing is my second hobby" "Since I have not been dating, people begin to think I couId be gay" "So I must look more masculine" "I can't accept being sissy" "I don't understand why they have markets" "For guys who love a sissy, shall we call them gay or straight?" "Thanks" "I have promised to come, I told you" "I have to work, I have no choice" "Ivan" "Windson" "Hey Vincent" "Ivan?" "I haven't seen you before." "Are you a new member?" "Yes" "You must have exercised for long?" "Looking so fit" "You are not bad either" "Which level of tae kwon do?" "black belt, level one only" "You are a boxer too?" "Yes." "I usually play boxing and Thai boxing" "I plan to Iearn them" "We should learn from each other some day" "How about now?" "Do you have any appointment?" "I have a date tonight." "Let's do it next time." "deal" "Nice to meet you" "We work in the same field" "Oh really?" "Software or hardware?" "Oh, you are from Times." "We can cooperate then" "Combining hard and soft, Iike fighting with two swords" "I...parked my car here." "shall I give you a ride?" "No, thanks." "Bus stop is over there." "Bye" "You didn't ask me where we are going?" "Your choice" "Have faith in me?" "Sure." "Why not?" "At least, I have faith in the car" "Are you a car fan?" "Men love this kind of car" "We can go farther then" "When we arrive at Sai Kung, I will let you drive" "Great!" "So your name is Windson" "I didn't realize until seeing your name card" "You drive like a lunatic too" "I am the son of wind" "My chinese name is also Wind" "Matching your surname cloud" "The Storm Riders" "You are Wind" "You are cloud" "One more thing we match each other" "Nobody around in midnight, dare to skinny-dip?" "Sure, why not?" "You'd seen my everything in sauna room anyway" "You were showing off" "You were peeping" "It is my turn tonight" "Not bad" "Yours better" "How can you tell?" "By points?" "No, I mean..." "At the sauna, you already knocked me out" "You are absolutely my type..." "Or I wouldn't be so aggressive..." "actually..." "When you began to chat with me, you were so polite" "I thought you were a missionary" "You know, people in HK seldom communicate with others" "You are so nice" "I am flattered" "But I think there is a misunderstanding between us" "Weren't you approached by guys before?" "Maybe..." "But I...wouIdn't sense..." "You have never mentioned your girlfriend, I thought you are single" "She is in mainland China" "Hutchison 369 channel 9799" "Code 9979" "Mr. Lin said, "Ivan, I am sorry" "I am not experienced." "I don't know how to react" "please forgive me" "Take care." "Windson"" "Ivan, I need a partner for Latin dance lesson." "Can you help me?" "Maybe it is because of Windson" "Or curiosity, even vanity" "She is the most proud girl in the company" "And I say yes eventually" "How can I put on such clothes?" "Latin dance is like that." "Move on" "Oh no" "Oh yes" "Sir" "This is Henry." "This is Ivan" "Hi" "Hi" "Ivan, did you learn Latin before?" "No?" "That is perfect" "I will teach you Rumba later, very romantic" "Just a moment" "Your turn" "What?" "Me?" "Of course" "Do you want to be a man or a lady?" "Man" "Dancing is weird" "Strangers become lovers." "Lovers become couples" "couple becomes enemies" "It depends on your objective" "Think it over before you start" "Why don't you drink?" "Cheers, for cooked food" "Yeah, cheers!" "Be quick" "You two really can drink" "Dancing is weird..." "AImodovar" "One moment" "Cooked food..." "Don't you feel hot?" "Hot" "Take off your clothes" "Okay..." "I will do it myself" "Why are you so nervous?" "Let a girl to take the initiative, aren't you a man?" "Wait for me." "I need to use the washroom first" "Wait again?" "For what?" "Wait for me at room" "No" "I will come in soon" "You drink too much as a dancer" "Can you handle this at all?" "handle what?" "Is it necessary to cry like that?" "Just because of no sex..." "What about me then?" "We didn't make it even being drunk like that" "naturally nothing happen afterwards" "But she purposely makes people speculate there is something between us" "Sorry Jasmine, I will get back to you on this" "Ivan, you know this is important" "I do" "What?" "You asked me to do it" "And I did." "See" "Ivan" "Miyoshi" "please take a seat" "I will talk to you later" "until a terrible thing happens... 4/26/1994" "China Air Airbus A300 crashed in Nagoya Airport" "AII 264 passengers on board died" "Sister...why?" "This experience is too profound" "It makes me recognize that life can be so vulnerable" "Is there anything really under our control?" "almost none" "Eva seems to get some inspiration from it too" "After we return to Hong Kong..." "Let's break up" "Have we been together?" "Sorry about that, get you to accompany me for so long" "Anyway, thanks for being my dancing partner" "That is my pleasure" "But, why did you pick me?" "actually, I am a lesbian." "I have girlfriend" "You can understand, right?" "I don't understand" "Why do they all have girlfriends?" "Hey, a straight guy here" "could he be an undercover cop?" "I didn't say that" "I just said I had never had sex with a man" "What about you?" "Cosmo please" "I do have friends who are gay, but..." "I don't have problems with them at all" "How could you tell back then?" "Do I Iook gay?" "Not the gay that they can recognize" "But for us, we've got gaydar" "You know what?" "It is actually my first visit to a gay bar" "really?" "No wonder..." "I've been searching for you for weeks" "Thank god!" "Ain't I lucky?" "Perhaps, I am the lucky one" "Things happen without a sign" "That is life" "I know more about myself after this experience" "And I have got a sincere friend" "We are more than sex partners, but I can't say that is love" "It is something in between, a kind of comfortable relationship" "hello?" "Ivan, this is Windson" "How are you?" "Fine, I am...fine" "What are you doing?" "I..." "I am shopping with a friend" "Let's come out and have some fun" "What fun?" "Okay" "Ivan, I have thought about it for long" "I don't want to lose a good friend because of misunderstanding" "Good friend?" "We have only met twice" "Ivan, I am not expressive" "Okay." "I will call you later" "Your dream boy, eh?" "The gym boy, the straight guy" "He is dating you out again?" "Sort of, yeah" "So, what are you waiting for?" "Me?" "Oh no." "You know I am going back to tel Aviv next week" "I'II miss you always but you need someone else to hug" "I Iove you." "I will live to see you again" "That's a deal" "Leave it to me." "Go!" "Go!" "Good luck, mate!" "Hey, Iet's fight on the raft" "Okay." "Let's go!" "Let's take a rest" "In my childhood I lived on a roof, watching these stars every night" "Making wishes?" "Never" "Can't depend on God, I rely on myself" "What were you thinking about then?" "I thought..." "Why does the universe have no beginning, no ending and no boundary?" "I thought..." "Why are we born, and die after only decades?" "What is the cause?" "What is the meaning?" "I thought...if we have to die anyway" "How can I make the best out of a limited life?" "I am not as sophisticated as you" "I just do my job, treat my family and friends well" "Then I can die with no regrets" "A young man with lofty ideals" "You mean I am naive?" "I want to be naive too" "simple and worriIess" "I wish I can just freeze this moment" "until the end of my Iife" "You said you never make wishes" "Hey, that is new." "What is it?" "Can you get a towel?" "You are on screen" "He can't see anything" "This guy is hot, who is he?" "Forget it, he is my brother" "See?" "We don't look like brothers at all" "people may think we are a couple" "Oh my god!" "I can't date girls then" "Can't live without girls?" "well...no..." "Hi" "Is this Indian your gay friend?" "What Indian?" "You don't know how to appreciate a man" "Hey, did he say I am ugly?" "No no no, you are as cute as ever" "But we have the opposite appetite in everything" "My brother is so handsome" "His friend must be good looking too" "Cut that." "Take care of your girl" "Enjoy yourself" "He got drunk with his girl last night, and stay over at my place" "You really get on well with straight guys" "How's your luck bending the rod..." "your dream boy?" "Nah, he wouldn't let me touch him" "Otherwise it has been pleasant though" "There is no policeman here" "You are so good at finding such remote locations" "I Iike no man's land" "I enjoy doing something unique" "Have you thought about where we will be after death?" "You love to talk about death" "well, you won't die" "Your name is Windson, pronounces like "eternal life"" "Oh, thank you" "But I don't expect a Iong life" "I just want to be free." "Even in death..." "Be free too?" "Yes" "Sea burial suits me" "AII my friends can swim" "They can visit me anytime" "Somebody's coming!" "You said nobody comes to this beach" "Don't have to be so scared" "I know you don't care, but..." "I do" "Boys, never mind!" "You are so open-minded" "Oh." "You suffer it reluctantly" "Let me call the police" "It is you I am suffering from" "They are so in love." "I admire them" "old freak!" "Crazy woman" "Hey." "You should choose fine sand" "Without the shells" "With the shells?" "Without" "Throw that away" "It is all over the beach." "You do it yourself" "We must choose it anyway" "Be quick." "It is going to rain" "By the way, is it illegal to steal sand?" "I don't care" "You don't care about anything" "Even getting naked in front of an old woman" "Even an old man, I don't care" "Okay." "Fixed" "This sandbag is so heavy" "luckily there is an extra manpower" "What a view!" "The attic is perfect." "We can practice boxing every night" "Let me take a bath first" "What is there to see, man?" "You have got everything yourself" "It is really a nice place" "Can I move in?" "As you see, I Iive alone" "I want to buy an apartment too" "So that I can spare my parents from public housing" "But the price is so high." "And my salary is just..." "I can help you" "Thanks." "But as you said..." "A man should rely on himself" "Now I can only afford an apartment in China" "China?" "Living with your girlfriend?" "I can spare a room for you, then we can drink and practice boxing together" "No way" "I said something wrong again" "Let's try the sandbag" "Good" "It is my job to hand you towel, boss" "Damn it!" "It would be great if I met you earlier" "Then you would Iike men instead of bitches" "will I?" "Why not give it a try?" "Don't be silly" "It is late now." "You can stay over tonight" "well" "But there is only one bed, we have to sleep together" "No problem" "There is one thing..." "I sleep naked." "You must do so too" "You are such an erotomania" "Okay, but you promise, not to touch me" "deal" "One, two, three" "Be a passenger" "I let you win" "We do things even some couples can't do" "But we can't do what they must do" "We don't know how far this road will lead us" "But we are happy to keep on" "Isn't life like that too?" "1994, Senna died racing at San Marino talents always die young Maybe they will get bored by living too long 1995, bill Gates becomes the richest man on earth" "This is a beach for gay, lots of people during the day" "I heard that" "Have you heard a straight guy can turn gay?" "I heard that too, but I don't believe it" "actually, gay is outstanding" "Remember the theory of mutation?" "I don't read much." "Don't lie to me" "That's curriculum of secondary school." "Lazy student" "Review that for me then" "Listen" "According to the evolutionism in any large tribe, there is a minority out of ordinary" "They will be repelled and suppressed by the mainstream" "They can survive only if they are more brilliant" "eventually, their merit will spread out and become mainstream" "Then a cycle of evolution is completed" "You mean..." "Gay is a merit and everybody will become gay one day?" "exactly" "By the advancing of science" "We even have test tube babies now" "The vanishing function of heterosexual reproduction could be a sign..." "I suppose you are right" "You are outstanding, but..." "You are still a minority now and should be suppressed by me" "I will beat you up first" "How dare you" "Are you crazy?" "Crazy" "Run?" "I'II catch you" "I am sorry" "No, I am the one who should apologize" "It might be a retribution" "My desire for Windson is becoming unbearable" "And he has been accommodating" "Came?" "Shoot whatever you Iike." "Just don't put it on the net" "He has something in his mind recently and goes to China often" "Sometimes I think he may be avoiding me" "Ivan" "Windson is not home" "I know" "Are you waiting for him?" "He didn't say when he will be back" "No girl has ever waited for him like that" "It would be great if Ivan were a girl" "No way" "Why not?" "I often go to China too, visiting grandma" "Her senile dementia is getting serious and may not recognize people later" "So I hurry to take someone for her to see" "Try to be natural, grandma is very smart" "I try my best" "You are worse than Margaret Thatcher" "uncle" "Ivan" "This is Eva" "hello" "Grandma" "Aren't you dead?" "How do you come back?" "Oh, you died so miserably" "They tortured you so bad..." "But now you have come to grandma" "Nothing to fear anymore" "Grandma owns a street in HK." "You won't be poor" "Can you leave me a house?" "Grandma, this is Eva" "An aunt?" "Which aunt?" "So young" "Aunt hasn't come." "I am Ivan's girlfriend" "Ivan?" "(Cantonese:" "lean to tomb)**" "Ivan is my english name" "Since when have you got such an iII-omened name?" "So this aunt is my granddaughter-in-Iaw?" "This is the happy day I long for" "A wedding gift for you" "Thanks grandma" "You are welcome." "Treat yourself a can of black water" "black water means Coke" "My good grandson, your choice sucks" "Why, grandma?" "She hasn't look into your eyes since she came in" "She doesn't love you" "This woman is a trollop" "You shouldn't marry her" "I give up" "Li Ao has written:" "Love when we have the feelings, and then take a trip" "We are given a chance to a business trip" "So nice, both mountain and seaview" "That is a lake" "There is a saying: "The savant loves the mountain, the wise loves the sea"" "So I heard" "My name contains the sea..." "And yours implies mountain" "well?" "Just the opposite then" "I am not as smart as you, but nicer" "You mean you love me" "Damn it." "You got me again" "Is there a way I can really get you?" "Hey, you have reaction." "You can make it" "No way" "I can feel that" "Maybe it is the same skin" "kelly doesn't have big tits, the feel of touching you is similar" "Nobody is here." "Why don't we try?" "That is a different thing." "Don't force me." "I will do it if I can" "Just the two of us, Iike in a movie, without any extra" "Because it is raining" "Have you watched "lonely Mountain, holy Rain" by King Hu?" "You talk about movies more than computers now" "I have never liked computers" "You only like me" "Be polite!" "people here are weII-behaved"