"A film by Lena Einhorn" "NINA'S JOURNEY" "The first time I remember my mother hugging me was on our journey by horse and cart from Lodz till Warsaw." "It was extremely cold." "She hugged me, I assume both to comfort me and to keep me warm." "It took three days to travel the hundred kilometres  from Lodz to Warsaw." "We slept on floors at farms along the route." "...as told by Nina Einhorn" "Director of photography Dan Myhrman, fsf" "Producer Kaska Krosny" "Written and directed by Lena Einhorn" "Nineczka..." "Ninka!" "Hurry up!" "Stas has already got our things into the carriage." "Ninka..." "Buck up!" "Or you'll have to swim across the ocean." "Ninus, we must hurry, or Mama will be storming in like a thunder cloud." "The sparrow scratched the stork So tired he couldn't walk" "Then they changed..." "Changed." "Ninus, not many people get to go on a journey like yours." " Perhaps not." " Yours and Mama's." "I've already been given a nickname at school - 'The American'." "July 1937" " Mama..." " Yes?" "Why didn't you go with your family to America?" "You were so young then." "I don't know." "Don't know?" "How could you stay behind, all on your own in Europe?" "I was to study medicine in Belgium." "Not all poor Jewish girls from Russia got a chance like that." "But you coulïve studied in America." "At last my mother was able to visit her family, in 1937." "When we arrived in New York  there was a sea of people waiting for Mama and me." "They waved and shouted: "Faygele!"" "That is what she was called as a little girl in Bialystok." "We went to America in July 1937." "We were to stay for three months." "But, during that time, my grandfather fell ill." "When he fell ill  my mother, Fanny, felt she should stay there." "And so I went to school for almost a year, in New York." "Fanny was a very strong personality." "She seldom gave vent to her feelings." "Yet, to me, she was a rock  and the most important person in my childhood, beyond any doubt." "Faygele, I have never understood why you stayed behind." "Especially when he had died." "Fanny had a photograph album  in which there was a picture of a very handsome young man." "When I asked her who it was, I noticed there was something special about him." "She just said that his name was Szymon." "That was all." "I heard, at third hand, not from my mother, but from my aunt  that she was in love with a man who was to study in Liege  and she decided to go to Liege too, to study medicine there." "That young man was from a very well-to-do Bialystok family  something Mama was not." "According to Aunt Mary, he was called to Bialystok  when his mother became ill." "When he got there  he had to promise his mother that he would never marry Fanny." "He did promise;" "then he committed suicide." "Mama met my father, Artur  who was studying at Liege at that time." "She went back with Artur to Poland, to Lodz, and they got married." "Rudek was born in 1914  and Mama never completed her degree." "I don't think my mother was bitter." "I think she adapted very well  to the circumstances of her life." " Two, please." "No, one." " Going to fleece us again, Fania?" " But Micia, we're playing for matches!" " Matches cost money too." "Three, please." "I loved my life in Poland, my childhood was very happy." "There was such a feeling of community among those people." "They were all Jews  all good friends or cousins, or related in some way." "Artur... what do you think?" "That corporal is a real nutcase." " Strange." "People of such culture..." " Really?" "You mean that, Jasiek?" "I don't know..." "It seems to be mostly straight-arm and goose-marching." "It's good you shaved your moustache off, Rudek." "My son - the lawyer-to-be - should not resemble that Austrian corporal." "Should he, Tereska?" "Rudek always looks splendid, with or without moustache." "Nina!" "Celinka!" "Yes, Grandmama?" "There are tartlets for the children, and my homemade lemonade." "Rysio, you just can't wait, naturally." "Take these, Ninka..." "And this, Celinka." "Rysio go and help them eat up the tartlets." "Rysio, would you like one?" "I was very fond of Rysio, very, very fond of him." "Lunch is served, everybody!" "Nina?" "I don't want to, I don't want to, I don't want to!" "My dear Fanny, we are having certain problems." "The situation for the Jews in Poland is worsening." "Rudek may no longer sit in the Assizes, nor be a reserve officer." "I wish to speed our departure." "Find out if we can come to America earlier than planned." "I cried and cried; and my relatives couldn't get any sense out of me." "Mama said: "Calm yourself." "They won't be coming tomorrow. "" ""This requires long-term planning. " And she calmed me." "But after that, all Papa's letters were in Russian  so I wouldn't be able to understand." "To the whole German people!" "I declare this the Day of the Great German Reich!" "Raise the flags!" "He died at some point in April, I believe." "When they started campaigning to convince me to stay" " I refused to listen." "I would never even consider remaining there on my own  even if I understood that the whole family was eventually to come over." "The whole thing ended up in May 1938  with our sailing home in the Pilsudski, back to Poland." "I never regretted not staying in the States." "Never." "1 September, 1939" "Forgive me, Ninka." "For what, Mama?" "When we left our home in Lodz  my whole world collapsed." "It did." "Won't we soon be in Warsaw, Stas?" "The Germans were in Lodz within five days." "My parents decided to move us to Warsaw  when the Lodz Ghetto was opened." "Warsaw was General Government territory." "If we moved there, we thought we would avoid ghettos." "Papa and Rudek had already gone to Warsaw in December 1939." "Rudolf had a girlfriend in Warsaw;" "her name was Teresa Goldman." "It was decided  that Papa and Rudolf were to go to the Goldmans, which they did." "We've been so worried!" "I met Stas downstairs." " Rudek!" " Welcome, Mama." "Give me your coat." "Give me your coat, Mama." "Where is Tereska?" "Ninus..." " Tereska is in the USSR." " In Russia?" "Yes." "She managed to get there..." " And you, Rudek?" " I'm fine." "I'll stay here with you." "That was all he said that was all that anyone ever said about his not going with Teresa." "He felt a tremendous sense of duty towards the family." "I remember that period as not being especially eventful  apart from its being sad in some way." "We were very short of money." "But, as for me, I studied." "And Mama, from the very start there, had this firm idea  that I was not to stop going to school." "And things were relatively calm, until the autumn of 1940." "It was in late autumn 1940 that the Ghetto was opened in Warsaw." "All Jews from Warsaw were forced into that Ghetto  400,000 people, forced into a rather small area." "Rudek!" "Rysio?" "Come in!" "Papa's closest family, all of them, had come to Warsaw." "Rysio!" " Celinka!" " Ninka!" "Where are we to sleep?" "Mama and Papa are coming, too..." "We had nowhere else to go." "What do they want from us?" " Who?" " The Germans." "No idea." "The main thing is we're together." " Do you want to play football?" " Pump the ball up first." "I'll play with you when it's round." "Know what?" " I'll be starting school again." " School?" "Wonder what they teach people." " How to guard prisoners like us?" " Don't be silly, Celinka." "Fredzio, come back!" "Celinka, I want to take my university entrance." "I want you to as well." "Me?" "Ninka..." "You know we can't even afford potatoes." "Mama wants me in school;" "that's all important, she feels." "Know something?" "Celinka, it could be our goal together - passing the exams." "I'll ask Mama to talk to Aunt Micia." "Do you mean it?" "You're terrific!" "And Mama said to Micia:" ""Make sure Celina attends the classes. "" "Then Micia said: "She's got to help me here." "I can't manage. "" "So she didn't let her go on with her schooling." "LAW COURTS" "The law courts in Warsaw were in the Ghetto  but intended also for the non-Jewish 'Aryan' part of the city." "My brother became a diamond merchant." "He fetched jewellery from people in the Ghetto  and found buyers on the other side whom he would meet in the courts." "See you again." "His commission on the sales of the gems was what we lived on." "And Papa?" "He helped out at a kitchen." "Joint, a Jewish aid organisation, ran a kitchen." "He was a volunteer there." "The notion that he should help Rudolf and Mama pull strings..." "It was hard work for them, but that was never even considered." "He was a nine-to-five person who found it extremely difficult  to adapt to the crises that arose." "Did you meet Czerniakow, Papa?" "No..." "He's a very busy man." "Czerniakow could perhaps arrange work  for Heniek and me at the Jewish Council." "He is, after all, the chairman and we are related." "I have contacts at the Jewish Council." " I think I could arrange something." " Try." "Czerniakow is trying to make sure  that this city is functioning as well as others." "Why have they shut us in here?" "The whole business is utter madness." "Rudek, has the Jewish Council said what they think the intention is?" " Papa, if Czerniakow..." " No "ifs" here!" "It's mere speculation!" "Mama..." "What are you saying, Mama?" "Jasiek!" "Shhh!" "It almost became an obsession." "Every morning going to the window and looking across towards the wall  to see if there were any children's bodies lying there." "There was a gap between the wall and the pavement." "That was the route small boys used, smuggling food into the Ghetto." "One, two, three, four Officers for rent galore" " Ninka!" " Rysio, come here..." " Where did you get it?" " I've joined the Jewish Police." "They need people." "Not bad." "A uniform takes a girl by storm" "Don't be silly, Ninka." "This isn't a theatre." "It could protect our family." " What do you do there?" " Nothing special." "On the beat." " Marek has joined the police too." " Who's Marek?" "Well I never a Jewish policeman." "Up until the summer of 1942  the 400,000 Jews in Warsaw  tried to live some kind of normal life, if you can call life normal  when you are so cut-off from the outside world." "Concerts were given in Warsaw, there was theatre in Warsaw..." "I remember lighter moments." "I remember New Year's Eve 1941 which I spent with my friends." "After all, I was still a teenager." "May I have this dance?" "It's the first time she's danced with a man." "She looks happy..." " Szymon." " Nina." "Nina Rajmic." "Haven't we met before?" "Don't know." "At the Centnerszwer high school perhaps." "Are you studying?" "Not yet" " I shall be when we get out of here." "What about you?" "I study chemistry, and I'm learning to make shoe polish." "The Germans think so, at any rate." "I'm glad we've met." "Shimmy-Shimmy!" "I don't want to live any more!" "She just went to sleep one day..." "Only a month or two later" " Grandpa had a heart attack and died." "We managed to bury him as well under fairly normal circumstances." "Later, we were so very, very thankful  that they had died before the Holocaust started." "On 22 July 1942 posters were put up  stating that all the Warsaw Ghetto Jews were to be moved east  and be given work." "The Jewish Council chairman, Adam Czerniakow, committed suicide  the day after the posters appeared." "Congratulations on passing your entrance exams." "I'll hand you your certificates." "Take them with you, out into the world." "Motek Rozenberg..." "I passed my university entrance exam in the Ghetto  just before the Holocaust started." "Nina Rajmic..." "Fania perhaps we should apply to go east, too." "At least we'd have work." "If they'd wanted to, they'd have given us work in Warsaw." "I don't want us to go now." "We don't need to, since Rudek is in the police." "What do you think?" "Why did Czerniakow kill himself?" "I wouldn't know." "It's not so odd." "Who can live under conditions like these?" "Excuse me..." "Mama..." "I've got to talk to you." "Rudek, how could you?" "Now there's nothing protecting us." " I cannot, Mama..." " What do you mean?" "We were ordered to round people up and force them to the Umschlagplatz." "Doctor Korczak was among them, with all of his children." "Mama, I was ordered to pack them into goods wagons." "Most of them weren't even five." "I was to push them in, one at a time." "It was ghastly." "I don't want to do it!" "Don't be angry." "Please, Mama, don't be angry with me." "I don't want to help them do what they're doing." "I had to hand in my cap." "Then he lay down on the bed and Mama did not say another word." "Aunt Fania!" "The Germans have taken Mama and Fredzio!" "Celinka how do you know?" " Mietek saw them." "I don't know..." "Papa's waiting, I've got to go." " How can you help them?" " We'll go with them." "Go with them?" "How do you know where they're going?" "We can at least try and find them at the Umschlagplatz." "It won't help." "You and Papa can stay here with us." "Wait a day or two, and matters will clear." "We can't act in this chaos." "I'm sorry, Aunt Fania..." "Papa's waiting." "Ninka..." "Celinka!" "Celinka..." "Celinka, wait!" "Celinka..." "Say something!" "Ninka!" "Stop following me!" "Leave me alone and go home!" "Then they just vanished." "74 persons" "Each day they were to send people off something like 5,000 people." "We did believe they were going to work camps." "So was there any way one could remain in the Ghetto?" "My brother and Heniek saw to it  that we were given jobs in two factories near each other." "The Germans needed manpower  and we were among those who were retained." "I don't know how." "I just know that, one day, we moved from the flat to Nowolipie Street." "Rudek got work at Toebbens  in a neighbouring street" " Leszno." "Mama and I were to work at Schultz in Nowolipie Street." "Those two streets formed an island in a Ghetto that was now vanishing." "Papa was in a group  that went off each day to a work- place outside the Small Ghetto." "He left, under escort, every morning and returned in the evening." "I wonder what Rysio did..." "I have no clear memory  of what he did during the day when we were in Nowolipie Street." "Unfortunately I don't recall." "I should have told you to stay in America." "Mama, I didn't want to stay there." "We darned the holes in uniforms or vests." "I remember the greenish colour of those military garments." "One for Mama as well, please." "Can I give you a hand?" "And one for me, please." "Nina?" "Yes." "We met at the New Year's Eve party." "Szymon." "Szymon?" "You're still here?" "I'm so glad!" "Mama...!" "My mother contracted hepatitis." "I looked after her  but not being at the factory was a problem." "Mama..." "Please drink a little tea." "Ninka..." "You've got to go to the factory." " Don't think about that." " I'll be all right." "Lie down, Mama..." "Lie down." " Jakub Feffer!" " That's me." "Come with me." "Nina Rajmic." "Nina Rajmic!" "I saw Nina Rajmic going to fetch more garments." "Mama..." "But, when she was through the worst of it  she became completely apathetic and did not want to get up." "And I knew that, if it took too long  it would end up with our losing our jobs at the factory." "Mama..." "What's the matter with you?" "Mama..." "You can't just lie there like that." "We've got to go back to work, don't you understand?" "You've got to go to work!" "Get up!" "Ninka..." "Help me up." "It was the first time I'd ever shouted at my mother and I got her onto her feet." "The whole of Nowolipie Street was inhabited by people  who worked at Schultz and Toebbens." "When you left Nowolipie  you entered streets that were almost ghostly." "No one lived there..." "there was no population." "We didn't know where everyone had gone." "We just knew they were to go east and be given work there." "But that we should avoid travelling east, whatever the cost  that was perfectly clear to us." "Schultz workers!" "My name is Rudolf Neumann." "I am the managing director here." "Listen carefully!" "Tomorrow morning you are all to report at Mila Street, to register." "Once there, you'll be given further instructions." "Before leaving the factory, you'll all get special cards." "Don't lose them!" "When I woke up that morning, when we were to report at Mila Street" " I was very frightened." "And Mama could see that, and she said:" ""Don't be afraid." "Last night I dreamt you were dancing in a pink dress" "at a great ball. "" ""So you will be coming back. "" ""You'll see that everything turns out all right. "" "It was in Mila Street the first time that we heard the word 'Treblinka'." "It was the first time we heard about the gas chambers." "It was the first time anyone said to us  that this was a matter of mass murder." "A man had escaped from Treblinka and got to Mila Street." "I remember so well, when we were told those things  my mother said:" ""It's just not possible. "" ""It's a lie." "Don't believe it. "" "Left..." "Left..." "Left..." "Left..." "Right..." "Right..." "Left..." "Left..." "Stop!" "What's in the rucksack?" "Right." "Your card?" "Ninka..." "Left..." "Left..." "Left..." "We were granted time, yet again." "We were granted a little more time." "It was mostly fear that everyone felt." "We didn't talk much." "We were terribly frightened, but we didn't talk much." "And then things were calm for four months." "About 360,000 out of 400,000  had been sent away." "About ten percent of us were still there." "He was the only acquaintance I made while I was at Schultz." "All my friends were gone." "But these were not deep feelings." "No, you couldn't say that." "One didn't react like a teenager any longer  not after the Holocaust had started  and our small group had been shut up in one of the factories." "At that point, the rest of my teens vanished." "That was the end of them." "And by then, we had come to understand very clearly  that a miracle was needed, to see us through." "Tired?" "No." "What's the work you're doing?" "Carrying bricks on a building site." "It's not too bad..." "What's being built?" "I don't know." "Poor Papa..." "The sparrow scratched the stork So tired he couldn't walk" "Ninus..." "I think the war will soon be over." "Papa..." "Rudek has said they're planning more transports." "They're going to close the Ghetto and move us all out." "Whatever they think up, we'll manage." "And then we've got to be at the back." "Of course." "It'll be fine." "In January 1943, as the Germans capitulate in Stalingrad  the Warsaw Ghetto is visited by Reichsfuhrer Heinrich Himmler." "To his surprise he discovers  that there are still tens of thousands of Jews in the Ghetto and he orders 8,000 to be deported and killed forthwith." "Everyone out!" "Ninka!" "They're taking us to the trains!" "Run!" "Give them this if they catch you." " But I don't want to leave you..." " You've got to!" "Run!" "If you make it, so shall I!" "No!" "Nina!" "It wasn't like a human..." "more like an animal." "I think he was going to shoot." "And that scream of Mama's stopped him that's what I believe." "When we reached the Umschlagplatz - there were masses of us there " " I suddenly remembered something Rudek had told me." "Mama..." " We need to be at the back." " What does it matter?" " It makes no difference now!" " Mama!" "Rudek said we must be at the back if we're taken to the Umschlagplatz." " These two have been freed." " What?" "Halt!" "These two have been freed." "He stole a police hat, he stole a bicycle." "He was incredibly brave!" "He had no documents." "He had nothing - he just had the police hat, which wasn't his." "We found ourselves in no-man's-land  and we went into an empty building, up to the attic floor." "There we sat, waiting for dark to fall." "This time they only took five hundred from Schultz." "But we don't have much time." "We've got to get out of here." "Things calmed down again, in relative terms..." "In the Main Ghetto weapons were being gathered  but there was very little of that in the Small Ghetto  at Schultz or Toebbens." "We had an acquaintance outside the Ghetto" " Maria." "Rudolf kept in touch with her." "I realised he was trying to find ways  of getting us out of the Ghetto." "But it was no easy matter." "20 April 1943" " Hallo, Szymon." " Hallo, Nina." "Have you heard?" "An uprising started in the Main Ghetto yesterday." "I hadn't heard..." "The Germans are emptying both factories tomorrow." "Everyone from Schultz is being trans- ported to a work camp in Trawniki." "What do we do now?" "If you want to stay in the Ghetto you'll have to hide somewhere." "Immediately." "Ninka look after yourself." "We more or less said farewell to each other." "It was Passover..." "a really sunny, hot day." "And we were in utter despair knowing we'd got to move away from there the next day by some means or other." "Maryla, I beseech you not to leave!" "We can hide here together." " Henio..." "I beseech you, stay here!" "We cannot hide." " It's best to go to Trawniki." " Rudek'll find us somewhere to hide." "I don't believe the talk about work in Trawniki." "I beseech you once again - don't go!" "Maryla, please, please stay here!" "God!" "I forgot to give them the bread." " Ninka!" "Give them the bread!" "Maryla!" "Wait!" "You forgot the bread." "We don't need it, Nineczka." "You need it more than we do." "Goodbye." "That was the last time I saw them." "I have so few memories of Rysio during the Ghetto years." "I don't know why, but my memories of Rysio are extremely faint  and that plagues me, having such faint memories of him." "Rudolf hid us in the crypt of a Catholic church." "We had a bed;" "Mama, Papa and I sat on it." "It was our 'home', that bed." "All Jews, come out and make yourselves known  and you'll be given food and work." "Those disobeying will be killed." "Fania..." "Perhaps we should go outside." "We won't manage here any longer." "Let's ask Ninka." "We stay here." "Papa..." "I'm leaving the Ghetto." "When?" "Immediately." "Immediately?" "I'm to be smuggled out on an ambulance run." "Rudek's friend Marysia will find me a hiding place on the Aryan side." "We shall all meet soon." " Immediately." " Papa..." "We'll all meet again soon." "Ninus..." "Things'll turn out all right." "I didn't bid Rudek or Mama farewell in any particular way." "Rudek said to me:" ""We shall all meet again. "" ""Don't be afraid. "" "That was all we said..." "not really goodbye." "I felt such trust in Rudek's capacity." "I was certain that he'd get Mama and Papa out, somehow or other." "Halt!" " Nina?" " Yes." "It was a small flat it was incredible she was willing to hide me." "Poles hiding Jews did so on pain of death." "Those caught by the Germans, for hiding Jews  were in as much danger as the Jews they were hiding." "You've tried to bleach your hair?" "Yes." "Nina..." "It shows." "Mama said I should bleach it, it was too dark." "All right." "Mrs Pola was very kind." "But she received information  that a partisan group from Lwow needed a refuge." "She offered to take them in and told me  that I'd have to find somewhere else to hide; she couldn't keep me there." "So I contacted Marysia - she had a phone   and told her I had to leave Mrs Pola's flat." "Maria, or 'Marysia' in Polish, was a woman of Rudolf's age  whom he had met when he was trading in gems." "Jewess!" "That frightened me so much  that I didn't dare go out into the streets any more." "Calm down now, Nina." "We'll dye it again." "The first week of May the Warsaw Ghetto burns." "Each day, I expected them to have got out I expected to receive word they were out." "I was absolutely certain Rudek had found some means." "I had an utterly unrealistic belief in his capacity." "Utterly unrealistic." "Excuse me." "You've got a visitor." "How ïyou do." "I'm Marysia." "Marysia?" "How ïyou do." "I'm Nina." "Thank you so much for all you've done for us." "I'm delighted to have been of help." "Have you found me somewhere to hide?" "Yes." "But..." "I have other news, too." "Shall we sit down?" "Two days ago Rudek and your mother got out of the Ghetto smuggled out in a bread cart." " Where are they?" " Hiding on the Aryan side." "And Papa?" "Rudek agreed to meet the bribed German again, an hour later..." "They were to return to the Ghetto with bread for Toebbens and fetch your father, but he didn't turn up." " Who didn't?" " The German soldier." "Rudek waited outside the market-hall, but... the soldier never appeared." "What did Rudek do?" "He waited an hour, then walked alone... towards the entrance." "Your father was deported to Majdanek." "Nina... they've all been deported." "The Ghetto is no more." "It's in flames." "Your mother and Rudek got out at the last minute." "He could never forget he'd failed to get Papa out." "He could never forget." "He mentioned it only a day or two before he died that he could never forget that he had failed to get Papa out." "Who is this family?" "Mr Jakubiak, an acquaintance of Nina's brother's, found them." " Where do they live?" " Not far off, in Praga." "Thank you for everything, for letting me stay here." "I'll never forget it." "She hadn't done it for money." "Some of the population, even if their numbers were limited they did it for the love of humankind, they helped people." "And I think Mrs Pola was one of them." "Mr Jakubiak found a place I could get to  with a railwayman and his family." "To reach them, we had to get a train, at a station." "All three of us were to meet at the station:" "Marysia, Mr Jakubiak and myself." "Miss Marysia!" " Miss Rajmic, I presume?" " How ïyou do." "A friend of my son's, Zbyszek Pelikan." "I went to visit Mr Jakubiak's son, but he wasn't at home  so I came along with Mr Jakubiak to the station." "I'll just go and buy a ticket for you, Miss Rajmic - and myself, of course." "Excuse me..." "Miss Nina, may we have a word, please?" "Yes..." "I'll come with you." "I just need to say something to Marysia." "Excuse me." "Forgive me, Marysia, but I'm going to go with Mr Zbyszek." "Maria got very upset. "You're not to." "I promised your brother and mother"   "that you'd be taken to Praga, where two other Jewish girls are. "" ""We know of the family." "You've no idea where you're going to end up"   "if you go off with that young man. "" "I said: "I'm going to, anyway;" "I'm going with him. "" "And I did." "A few days later, I heard  that the railwayman and his family and those two Jewish girls they'd been killed by the Germans  the day after I was due to start my stay with them." "Mama!" "We got there and Zbyszek's mother was very surprised." "Mama, Aunt..." "This is Nina..." "Rajkowska." "How ïyou do." "How ïyou do." "Mama, may I have a word?" "He took her to one side, and they spoke." "One should mention that their financial situation was pretty weak." "And it was accepted that, for hiding a Jew, you got paid." "But his mother was not easy to persuade; she was very sceptical." "And she sat down with me, for a talk." "May I speak to you?" "First she asked me where I came from." "From Lodz." ""Oh, from Lodz?" "So am I," she said." "Where did your parents work?" "Papa was an accountant at Scheibler  Grohmann." ""Goodness me!"" ""My father has worked at Scheibler  Grohmann, too!"" "At that was how I came to be allowed to stay there." "And the marvellous thing was, about a week later Rudolf was allowed to come and stay there, too." "I was so, so thankful that they accepted Rudolf." "He was utterly exhausted from all his moving about in Warsaw." "It was a great blessing that we ended up in that household." "Mother was with a family employed at the Mint, in the Old Town." "We asked Mrs Pelikan  if she could consider letting Mother stay in their villa, too." "So Mrs Pelikan asked Mama there one day." "And Mama came, with Maria, and they were given tea and biscuits." "But as soon as the conversation got going round the table" " I realised that Mama would not be allowed to stay there." "It was so obvious that my mother's Russian accent bothered them." "Mrs Lucyna said it would give her away immediately." "So nothing came of it." "Mama had to go back to the family at the Mint  and was unable to be with us." "Good afternoon." "Come in, my dear!" "This is our little cousin, Nina Rajkowska." " Do sit down." "Marta, have some of the cake." "Shall I help you?" "Thank you, my pet." "Oh, delicious!" "You bake wonderfully, Lucyna, no matter how bad the times." "You're far too kind, my dear Marta." "I didn't know you had a cousin." "Our little cousin doesn't come to see us so often." "The family lives a way off in the countryside." "Why haven't we ever been able to meet them?" "My parents seldom come up to Warsaw." "And my brother studies hard..." "reads a lot of books." "Pity." "I'd really like to meet him." "How's the cake?" "Splendid." "Just like the old days." "It's good the damned war will soon be over." "How many times have we said that!" "My dear, the Americans are already in Europe and the Russians at Bug." "The Germans'll soon be out." "Then we can have real coffee..." "if the devil sees to Hitler." "Say what you will about Hitler, one good thing he did..." "He got rid of the Jews." "It's lovely to have our little cousin here." "A pity you can only stay a week." "After that tea party I said to Mrs Pelikan  that I didn't want to take part in any more tea parties." "She wasn't too pleased at that." "But I insisted on staying in my room." "Tuck in, Bolek." "I went to see Mama, while I was staying at the Pelikans two or three times." "It was a tiny flat." "I know, too  that, if someone came to see the woman Mama was saying with" " Mama had to hide in the wardrobe." "Hallo, Mama." "Hallo, Ninka." "Don't worry - everything is fine." "I've got something for you." "I made it for you." "Thank you." "How are things for you and Rudek?" "Everything's fine." "Are they friendly towards you?" "Mrs Lucyna is so kind." "She said we can stay on, even if we run out of money I can, at least." "I've got something else for you." "Here you are." " But, Mama, it's..." " I want you to have it." "You need to powder your face." "You've grown up so." "Thank you." "I'm so sorry I have no more to give you." "Mama..." "I just want you to be well and, afterwards, we'll go to America." "Yes..." "Of course we'll go to America." "You're such a big girl now, Ninka!" "We're only going one more stop." "If you're going to Sluzew, wait an hour or so." "The Germans are raiding the place." "A soldier's been killed." "Rudek!" " How did you find out?" " On the tram." "They spoke of a raid." "Then why did you come home?" "You'd never have left the house without me." "Having sat in the field for a few hours, we went back." "Mrs Pelikan told us  that, a minute after we'd run from the villa, the Germans had come." "They had gone through every single room; they were looking for men." "If I hadn't run back, Rudolf woulïve still been there, waiting for me." "This is Radio Poland, Blyskawica." "Soviet troops are a few kilometres from Warsaw." "When the Polish Underground Army started their anti-German uprising  we banked on support from the advancing Russians." "But the Soviet forces have halted  on the east bank of the Vistula River." "Warsaw fights on!" "The house is on fire!" "Rudolf and I, Mrs Pelikan and her sister, and Maria who was visiting  we all hid in the field." "We were out there for three days." "After that, we went back to the house, which was now gutted." "We spent another two days in the garden there." "Then it transpired there were trains, out to the villages outside Warsaw  so we got on one." "I had a very powerful feeling during those years of hiding  that I didn't have the right to exist." "That feeling vanished completely when the Warsaw Uprising started the big uprising with the whole population of Warsaw on the run." "Then you became one among the many, no longer a Jew on the run." "Out in the countryside, I often went mushrooming." "I felt much less frightened in the village than I had been in Warsaw." "Hallo?" "Hallo." "Suddenly I realised I was discussing mushrooms  and that I'd forgotten he was a German." "It was a very strange experience, being with a German  without thinking of him as a German... just as a person." "In that small village we suddenly heard artillery fire." "And then, on 17 January, there were no Germans left." "There was a column of Russian armoured units and artillery  moving through the little village." "And we'd been liberated, Rudek and I." "The only ones left." "When the Russians came, my brother went to see the family at the Mint  and was told Mama had left them a few days after the Uprising had started  and had tried to get across to us." "She only got a few blocks  ending up in a church in the Old Town." "There were four hundred civilians there down in the crypt." "And... that was where my mother was killed." "It was such a painful feeling..." "So painful." "Because I had been hoping that Mama had survived." "When we'd been liberated, the first thing we did was go back to Lodz." "We got to Lodz and went to our old flat, which was empty." "We felt such profound grief." "An indescribably deep grief, going into the flat there was only Rudek and me." "It was a photo of my mother  that had lain there throughout the war." "When the war ended my mother, Nina Rajmic, was 20." "Of almost 400,000 Jews that were in the Warsaw Ghetto  the day the deportations to Treblinka began  only a few hundred survived." "Among them were my mother, Nina, and her brother, Rudek." "Out of the chums and friends  whom I had during my Warsaw period, only one is alive." "The same applies to my classmates in Lodz." "I haven't come across a single one of them since the war not a single one." "Imagine all those people what they could have become, what happy people they might have been  and so many new people they could have brought into the world..." "After the war, Nina starts studying medicine in Lodz  as the only one, perhaps  to have passed her university entrance in the Warsaw Ghetto." "One day at the University of Lodz she bumps into a young Jewish man"