"The court found Toomas Sinijärv guilty under Penal Code Article 121 and sentenced him to 18 months in prison." "How much has changed after that in your fe?" " Don"t know" "Most y the vantage point." "Now everyone is looking down on me found guilty also under PC article 120, as a cumu ative punishment to sentence him 18 months in prison." "Do you feel now that it s you who is bullied?" " I don t think, at least I don't fee have changed" "Yet wou dn t let to be bullied." "Don't think wou d be bullied" "How much do you regret what you have done?" "Thinking back now, "ve lately given much thought about it, when you"re n this situation, it seems like a joke to you, or you don"t th nk or feel as much as the other person wou d." "Believe it has been pretty tough t me for the two of them." "So you regret it?" " Yes." "Of course." "Under PC article 74 section 1 to rule the suspended sentence not to be fufilled and decree the probation three years" "You'll spend fe n a wheelchair, is that punishment for you?" "THE CLASS L FE AFTER" "PROBAT ON" "So good" "Well." "Let"s see how we're going to get you into the van." "Do you...?" "Maybe I'll lift the egs" "Could you take the chair..." "Are you comfortable?" " I'm OK." "Mom." "What's that new secretive job you've got?" "We decided that your mom is not going to go to work any more." "Why?" " Why what?" " Why is she going to stay at home?" "You need help, at first" " I'll manage." "Well, let s see" " I was just thinking when get myself my own apartment have to get by myself." " By that time you"ve got a wfe." "Oh Christ." "What's so heavy you"ve got here." "Some weights?" " Let it be, I can take them later" "Very good." "He o." " Hello" "The m rror s so down ow?" "Where are the frames?" " I have not had time to f nish it." "T goes through quite eas y." "You've got a new theme here." "Where did you put my door?" "This s not some temporary thing." "Saara." "Listen, doesn't it seem to you that he s a bit weird?" "What kind of question s that?" "Mean, in too good mood." "Sort of pos tive" "He s happy to be home" "That's not what I mean." " Then what?" "Think he doesn't show us what s rea y going on." "Don"t know about these things, Ants Toomas will know" "So you did notice it, right?" " Have you got anyth ng to iron?" "Huh?" "No... there"s no need." "That's some nifty gadget, cou d use it every day." "Yes, but talk to your parents f rst, it does cost something" "Do have to pay for this?" "Oh." "We"d have wanted to ask." "And I hope t's understandable, that you wou dn t talk about his past to anybody at a." "We"d then have to tell it to all the teachers." "Do you think that others don"t already know it?" "Your guess is as good as m ne." "For our sake we could try it." " We"d really apprecate it." "Oh." "Sorry" "All of you need to come to the graffiti place." "He o!" "We"re short of staff at fie d." "C"mon." "It s today." "Get over it, there s no problem." " Be coo." "Have you seen the design of our class?" "T was quite cool." "Getter, I talked with one of them and he's eager to join." "But need someone to come and help speak to them with me." "Now who hasn t gone out yet?" "Sille, Kristiina." "Anybody?" "Getter shou d go." "She's the best at it." "This s not my private project." " All could contribute equally." "Boys never feel like doing anything." " What?" "We just fin shed the song and will soon complete the f m." "One of you has to go and talk to the sixth graders, because they don t listen to women." "The schedu e." "Where's Kairi?" "Alright, Rob n and I will go." "Where to?" " To talk to the fucking sixers." "Hey, what a vocab, jerk." "You are to pay f ne 10 kroons" "He o." " H." "Are you Toomas?" "L"m Getter." " Hello..." "There s been a shooting threat in some Tartu school" " What?" "Would someone google this!" "Yesterday evening Southern police prefecture received an anonymous tip about unnamed person p anning to go on shooting spree this morn ng in Tartu Commercia Gymnas um" "Police take..." " Hello!" "Not that would ke to obtrude my modest person on you but we do have a class here." "No doubt, it"s important news and we"II get back to it ater, but there's another news item." "As some of you may see, and few have perhaps noticed, we have a new pupil in class." "His name is Toomas." "He o!" "Would you be k nd to come here, te us a bit about yourself." "Toomas Sinijärv, 17 years" "don't know." "What e se?" "Well, don't know anything about your past life." "Do you live in Ta nn?" " Yes" "Have you been n a wheelchair for the whole life?" " Martin..." "Some five months." "What schoo d d you go to before?" " Some four-story build ng." "What happened?" " Car crash." "Have you got yourself a girfriend?" "Toomas, p ease return to your seat now" "With your kind permission we re moving on to our common favourite subject." " Don't tell us it s physics" "Tomorrow, be prepared." "Nobody will be harassed, everyone will get a say" "Pages 20-22, and make sure..." "What part of town you live in?" " Nõmme." "Already wanting to v sit him!" " No, was th nking s it far." "Hey, you sure look familiar, have we met before?" "How d d this happen to you?" "Un ess, of course." "You want to talk about it." "Crashed my dad s car into a tree." "How do you use a bathroom?" " Mart n!" "Rather t's whether you feel okay to move around here." "F there are any prob ems we will all help." " Yes, we will." "School violence is bad" "Hi." "Here, our project against school violence." "Didn"t you get seasick?" " I feel qu te sick..." "What are you doing on Friday?" " Friday, wait..." "Not much." "Was thinking throw ng a party at my p ace Care to come?" "Think so" "Toomas!" " She s from my cass." "What are you doing here?" "Gosh, you ook so good." "Are they from your cass?" " Yes." "What"s SVIB?" "Some campaign against school violence" " What?" "Was visiting you in hospita few times." "A long time ago." "How long do you have to be in a whee chair?" "My whole life" " Good heavens!" "Listen." "None of them know "m from the class where the shooting took p ace." "Ask you not to ta k about t" "What?" " Whatever..." "Hey, Toomas." "There"s a party at Kairi's p ace on Frday." "No, I"m also doing f ne, thanks for asking." "There s a curb stone!" "Are you alright?" "Did you get hurt?" " I don"t know." "Good you didn"t ram the road." " Knee abrasion." "Call ambu ance." "There s no need, just lift me back in the chair." "Come help." "How fast did you go?" " Not fast enough, should try again." "Be careful, boys." "Honestly." "We didn"t want to kill you." "Wou dn t be too sure prom se you are going to graduate from this school alive." "Ouch!" "Just k dd ng don't feel anything." "Here, some more from this edge." "Don"t worry, t's okay." "Don't want to hurt you." " Give it to me." "I clean it." "T should be cleaned now." " Are you look ng at the scar?" "Go ahead." "You can touch it." "Mom." "Late y you don"t smile at all, you used to be a barrel of laughs, it"s sad th s way." "Please give me some t me" "Thomas Mann, "Death In Venice"" "Toomas!" "Oh." "Sod." "Are you still awake?" "Saw your light on." "Would you g ve me a shelter?" " What do you mean?" "Fell out with dad b g t me don't want to go home" "Can I stay?" " I guess so." "What"s the issue with your dad?" "He s a control freak, wants to know word-by-word what I told to th s probation off cer, plus I ve got this community work." "You do?" " Yeah." "Well, me." "Thea and all who were at the beach." "Could make tea?" " When folks hear steps." "They"II freak out" ""II just take water." " Go quiet y."" "Haven t been to schoo like a month..." "Shh!" "Quiet." "Was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress d sorder." "What?" " Tell you." "Be qu et, they"re sleep ng upstairs." "N fact, t's not big deal, you just slam PTSD papers on table and nobody will say a word to you." "Didn't know you had things so fucked up." " They aren t so bad." "Sorry drove you away, wou d have wanted..." " Don"t worry" "Where do I sleep then?" " I've got a spare blanket down there" "Take t and get next to me." " Okay." "L sten, thanks" "Sorry." "Hey." "Good n ght then" "He o!" "See you!" "Good bye!" "Hope I don't have to stay in here for the rest of my life" "What did the doctors say?" "Then that"s how things are." "Perhaps we'd call t a day?" "Or you"II hurt yourself." " No." "Okay." "Come now." " N any case won t get any results." "Come on, everyone will" " I've worked two months for nothing." "Damn it!" " What are you butting here." "Want to box, huh?" "Cou d bring gloves." "Fight man-to-man." "Ms Männ k's no match for you." "Excuse me." "Yes, what is it?" "Was thinking... won t get anywhere if I m allowed to do so ttle." "Right, like a snail hitting brakes in a curve." "This bloody obstac e course is some piece of work." "Don"t worry." "You did quite good for the f rst day." "Te me, how long have you used the walk ng robot?" "Three months." " Any progress?" " Sure, at first I was like you." "You may master the apparatuses, but it won"t help you in life." "Read there were some guys who worked out a ot and succeeded." "There was this coach with b rth trauma, but started walk ng." "Was thinking, med cal science and stuff develop so fast and I'll def nitely be on my feet after a while." " Whatever" "Smoke?" " No thanks." "Haven t learnt that." "And there s no need to." "You"re destined for an early grave" "Wait, were you in Afghanistan?" " I am. "m st there." "Something just stays behind, someth ng remains unf nished" "You just need to go back there." "T"s good still have fingers." "What f someone had to hold your stub for you, that d suck." "How long were you over there?" " Long enough." "Make sure you won"t overdo with the exercses or it get you." "What, too snobbish?" "Markus Lehestik Human won t obtrude on to be your friend." "But when you feel it gets too sh tty, you may call me." ""M a good listener."" "Oh." "Monday even ngs at six we play f oorball n the gym." "So f you want to take a whack at real men, you may come." "That is un ess you wanted some line-danc ng in next door gym." "Oh." "The cowboy-stuff." "Right?" "No, I don"t th nk t's for me." "There will be a ot more g rls." "Anyways, what happened to you?" "Jumped into unknown waters?" "No, I was shot." "Don"t speed!" "The other day almost got pushed under a car." "Don't want you to be late." "Probation officer will put you immediately in jail." "They're rea something." "Honestly." "You can"t even cross the road with red light, nor speed" "Then don"t." "What a perfect timing." " Isn t this great?" "Kat, why did you k ss me the day before yesterday?" "Oh." "That?" "Well, cause..." "Sorry for self-pitying." "Too" " No big dea." ""M happy I saw you"" "The rest sucks, big time." "Feel good being with you." "All others are quite point ess." "My best frend is dead, there"s not much e se eft." "You're like the on y person can norma y talk to." "There s someth ng need to te you." ""M work ng on another girl" " No prob em"" "You behave now, will you?" " Peace out, gir scout." "Hi!" "Can you make it?" "Let"s go." "You've gained some weight." "Violence is the last step of stupidity it's violence at school." "Did the improvements here." "Dad also helped a bit." "May I try it?" " Sure." "S there any way I could he p?" " Know what..." "Wow!" "It s so soft" " Of course." "Need to sit there more than 10 minutes every day." "When was a k d I wanted a wheelchair for my birthday." "No you didn"t." " True." "What s it?" " You re so cute right now." "I could eat you" "Wait a moment." "Do you want to drink?" " No I don t" "Are we going to play the game ... my hands are a so crippled"?" "But they ain't... cou dn t imagine" ""d have to sit the who e day in a wheelcha r Sorry." "Nothing of it." "Late y, "ve often been told you"re so lucky to get to sit in there a whole day." "What are you laughing at?" "Just remembered someth ng funny." " Like what?" "You... actually no, most people th nk if you re sitt ng in that wheelcha r you"ve got to have some menta d sability, whether deaf or something." "The other day some old ady came:" "Can I get through?" "Like that you re okay and do not shut me." "It s mportant." "Te us, how was the party?" " Alright." "Who were you with?" " Some people from my class." "You know you"re on probat on?" " Yeah." "I know." "Yeah, know will not suffice t"s most serious matter" "Make sure you won"t come that ate again." "Does that mean you"II never trust me?" "Can t talk to him a one, you have to help me out here." "Support me" "How am I supposed to ta k a one the same subject?" "We need to ta k" " Must we now?" "Ha f a brain is still asleep t can't wait, we need to talk." " What about?" "Why do we always need to talk, some things are obv ous one way or another." "Something is very wrong." " Oh, rea y?" "And haven t noticed?" "Just kept thinking what does th s wheelchair lie around?" "Don"t you be iron c rght now!" "Dad, what is it we need to talk about?" "You have to comprehend none of us is having good times now." "So what am suppose to te?" " What's going on here?" "T's very d ff cult to get used to it all I feel so gu ty." "Mom?" " Every morning ask myself why, why us." "Why?" "Saara." "We agreed, d dn't we?" "Yes, we haven't talked about anything else in ha f a year that nobody is guilty, we can't b ame ourselves f you'd have seen us at that time." "We would come home every evening, sit on a couch." "Take each other's hands and t began a over again" "But your theory doesn't hold and sn't of any help." "So now we're smoking, right?" " We?" "You mean you as well?" "You're being ironic?" "Good." "Actua y, I wanted to te..." "There's a psychologist seeing parents in the chamber for disabled." "Let's just send all this to hell." "Let's go some place, just the three of us." "We can't right now." "You've got a job, Toomas goes to rehab." "These exercses can also be done elsewhere." "There are those lake spas, or a so here." "In Narva-Jõesuu." "We could also do fun stuff, life can be nice, right Saara?" "This s our life Saara, for ever." "Getting used to it is possible." "Oh." "Hi!" "Today we've got one more guy." "Toomas." " He o!" "We go through exercises for about 10 minutes and then p ay" "We' form teams, come in, here." "This one's for you" "Try how it is to ride that." "T's your f rst day on those wheels, isn't t?" " Yes." "Try it." "Tom's in my team." "What are you doing here?" " Same old..." "What was your time?" "Are you going to compete?" " Not really." "Why?" " I won't press, we compete da y." "Hey, were you in the shooters' class?" "How are you involved?" "Hey, ca m now." " You think you are bloody normal to ask this?" "Please don't quarrel." " What if told you I was in that class?" "What have you got to say me then?" " Noth ng." "'m go ng home, are you com ng with me?" "See." "Listen." "Need to go" "Toomas, wait up!" "Why d d you run away?" " Run away my ass..." "Why aren't you talk ng to me?" "Why d d you get angry?" "You make commun cat ng with you so difficult when..." "Do you want to be with me or not?" "T's not that easy, so black-and-white." "What colour is t then?" "Want to be honest w th you" " Honest?" "Okay, let's hear it." "Knew it all along..." " What did you know?" "That you were the shoot..." "that you were shot" "When you knew it all along, why d d you h de it from me?" "Was thinking you don't want to talk about it." "That it s your secret." "Reckoned you'd tell me when you feel like" "Toomas, can't be your girl" "t's not about you, it's about me Really." "I'm so young, can't take the respons bility" "All of this s too mportant, too big, won't be able to handle th s." "Toomas." "Toomas?" " What happened?" "'m fed up with this fuck ng chair." "Hate it." "Don't want to sit in it any more." "Listen." "Toomas!" " Shut up!" "Whatever happened today it... hate how people stare me down like a freak" "You." "Too, mom!" "Why are you staring?" "Toomas, let me take this." "Toomas, let it all out Cry, don't hold it inside." "Ca m now, everything w be a right." "T' be okay, calm." "Yeah, know how t is." "Still, t'll soon pass." "Listen." "I offer you a cliché:" "You have to change things you can and accept those we can't change and earn to make difference between them" "As s mple as that." " No, it won't pass, not at a." "'ve got this fee ng can't take it any more." "And that will pass, as well." " No, it won't." "Whether it's a wheelchair or not, but once a liar..." "What's going on?" " Nothing." "Did you get home alrght?" "What happened to your arm?" "Listen." "Haven't you seen th s Afghanistan dude?" " Lehestik?" "Why do you ask?" " Cause... n the morn ng rad o said Corporal Lehestik was found dead at h s home." "Did he do t?" "Wh ch one of you isn't a fag?" "!" " Do that fag-thing, you hear me!" "Take Joosep's pants off." "Damn it, I tell you!" "Did you see how it worked?" "What are you doing?" " I was thinking of preparing a dinner." "Have you got some time?" "'ll take behind the ca f..." " Ouch, don't break it." "So who was th s g rl you got here?" "You mean Kati?" "She's from the old class." "So, have you two...?" " What?" "What do you mean?" "Mean something mothers should know about." "You're not think ng of that?" " That what?" "The pastime of the eldery?" " Oh that?" "You mean bang ng?" "Remember... shooting, Toomas..." " What?" "!" "T was like, it happened when they were in the canteen... can't walk, but I'm not deaf!" "Perhaps you'd share honestly what happened there." "What do you want to know about?" "The shooting?" "Yes, just tell us what really happened" " Okay" "Me and my desk mate, who's dead now, we thought we were having just fun, 'm not proud of it at all" "Bas cally, what we did was torture." "At f rst one of them then the other." "One guy fina y had it." "Then they came n the canteen tried to f ee." "Didn't manage" "Two weeks later woke up from coma" "Did you see anybody get hit?" " Was there ots of blood?" "Were there many dead?" " Have you got a scar?" "Want to see?" "Have you got one on your back." "As well?" "Don't th nk I'm going to show it." "T's not for the fa nt-hearted." "Don't harass a man." " You were familiar with his six-pack." "Why d d you torture those boys?" "Don't know." "All this t me we were thinking it was fun." "No reason at all." "Haven't had t me to figure t out." "Late y, 've done a lot of thinking." "Would you cons der ta king about it?" " But I am." "No, I mean publicly." " It does not change... certainly not!" "T s you who is the perfect person to ta k about it." "Is there always a room behind a door?" "Does every room have always doors?" "These questions existed long before New Year's Eve when lead was poured for luck." "So arduously the lead of luck congealed that azure began to hurt." "Toomas Sinijärv will now ta k about school violence." "Don't know what is it where should be starting from... 'm rather surprised I'm ready to share my story with you." "Is there always a room behind a door?" "Does every room have always doors?" "These questions existed long before New Year's Eve when lead was poured for luck." "So arduously the lead of luck congealed that azure began to hurt." "Friends?" " Frends." "We need to hurry to make it ten sharp." "Where to?" " I'm not going to te you that, t's a surprse." "When one denied oneself." "Is it possible without knowing where does it hide to make a right decision in life?" "A moment's like a blooming flax glowing through frail haze." "Under clouds, under heavens, under expectation, under hope." "Between clouds, between heavens, between expectation, between hope." "And when one day I unlock the door." "I'll be listening on the doorstep what does the beat of the bird in my chest tell me, where I'm being waited, whether here or there and then I rise up, rise like a phoenix and once again, once again be me." "Under clouds, under heavens, under expectation, under hope." "Between clouds, between heavens, between expectation, between hope." "Between clouds, between heavens, between expectation, between hope."