"Previously on "Off the Map..."" "Everything makes perfect sense right now... your family grows cocaine!" "They're your family... you're always gonna have their back, you have to." "It's over." "You set up an appointment with the best cardiologist in New York." "You can't fix her." "All you can do is... be there." " I'm a godmother." " I punched a dude today." "Yeah, it..." "Me and Mina..." "we got really wasted" " and kinda slept together." " It was a big mistake." "Levántense!" "Levántense!" " Oh, god." " Okay, okay." " Humiliating." "Fuera de aquí!" "Help!" "Someone!" "No!" "No!" " There's a kid in the water!" " It's okay." "I wasn't strong enough to save him." "Whatever happened today, it wasn't your fault." "♪ I've got a new soul, I've got a new direction ♪" "New York City." "Man, I bet they had a good time." "Restaurants with air conditioning." " Toilets that flush." " Oh." "All right." "What do you say you and me go on a trip, loca?" "so you can get me in a hotel room alone?" "No, thank you." " Jefe!" "Welcome back." " Hey, amiga." "Crocodile Dundee, back from the big city." "What's up?" "Hey, you figure out those escalators all right?" "Yeah." "It's up and down..." " Yeah." "There you go." " Right?" "Yeah, thanks" "More importantly, how's Ryan?" "Uh, she's officially on the transplant list," " but she's pretty low down." " Oh, man." "It could take a year for her to get a heart." "Yeah, and until then, she needs to take it easy." "I've been telling her all week in New York to slow down, but she's sick of hearing it from me, so..." "No, no." "We got your back on this, man." "Thanks." "Hi!" "So what's the plan for today?" "Oh, I've been sitting on my ass for a week in hospitals." "I'm ready to roll." "There's not much going on." "Well... baby checks." " Vaccine clinic." " Yeah." " Mm-hmm." "Yeah." "All right, there's a viral outbreak at the Santa Beatriz prison." "Awesome." "Count me in." "You got my back." "Thanks." "She just looked so sad, you know?" "I knew a prison outbreak would cheer her up." "Oh, shut up." "Brace yourself, doctors." "This prison isn't like anything you'd see in the States." "Santa Beatriz was founded by Conquistadores in the 17th century." "Things haven't changed all that much in the last 400 years." "The Hep-A outbreak has been confined to the men's prison for now, so our first priority is to make sure that the outbreak doesn't spread to the woman's prison." "Wait." "There's a women's prison, too?" "On a remote island..." "Sorry." "Just pretty sure I saw that on cable once..." "And I liked it." "Warden Vargas, this is my team of doctors." "Bienvenidos." "All right." "Listen up." "Keep track of your needles," " and no one gets I.V. fluids unattended." " Why not?" "Because they can use the tubing to strangle each other..." "Or you." "Please remove also your jewelry." "Oh." "Here." "I'll help." " No, it's..." " Let me..." "let me help." " I got it." " I'll give you a hand." "Okay." "There you go." "There." "See?" " Thank you." " Yeah." "Oh, shoot." "Did you drop it?" "God, this thing's a bitch to get off." "Well, that's the point." "It's a med alert." "It's supposed to stay on." "Hey, it's important that a first responder knows about your heart condition." "I'm not going into a prison with a label that says "easy prey."" " I'll get eaten alive." " Ryan." "You're making me feel weak, Keeton." "I need you to make me feel strong." "Happy?" "All right." "This way, people." "Vámonos" "You know, this place isn't that bad." "I'm just saying, if you gotta go to the clink..." "Might as well be in paradise, yeah?" "Or... or not." "Por favor..." "Holy..." "Yeah." "Paradise." "Here you go..." "Oh, Brenner, nice of you to come to work." "Oh, Dr. Keeton said it was okay if I took a few days off." "Oh." "Did he?" "Well, that's easy for him to say when he's up in New York seeing "Wicked,"" "and I'm left to run the clinic by myself." "Keeton saw "Wicked"?" "That's really hard to picture." "Okay." "Simple or complicated?" "Uh, simple." "Yeah." "A simple, easy case is just what I need today." "Happy prognosis." "No one dying would be good." " Hemorrhoids or gout?" " As far as I know, nobody's died of either." " Gout's great." "Love gout." " Perfect." "Thank you." "Oh, and, Brenner?" "It's good to have you back." "Thank you." "Thanks." "Yeah." "You know, it's been..." "I'm fine." "Well, it's never gonna be fine..." "Okay." "Okay." "Wow." "Well, I don't think Picasso's gonna be choking anyone." "No." "That's just Hugo." "He's one of the good ones." "¿Estás en casa?" ""Are you home?" What does that mean?" "You'd have an imaginary friend, too, if you'd been stuck in here that long." "Hey." "Doctor Cole." "It's been too long." "Hola, amigo." "So what you working on today, Hugo, hmm?" "Sunset?" "Always, doctor." "Haven't the seen the real thing for 30 years now." "Well, you need to request a west-facing window in this 5-star setup." "When I first came here, that's what I missed the most." "Not the criollo cuisine, not the pisco drink." "We find ways to get that in here." "Yeah, I know." "I've seen the state of your liver." "All right, Hugo," "Dr. MInard here is gonna give you Zofran and I.V. fluids, and I'm gonna take a listen to your heart and lungs." "Whoa." "Ascites... caput medusae..." "Liver was already too weak from cirrhosis." "Yeah." "The Hep-A must've pushed" " it over the edge." " I'm afraid you're gonna need a lot more than I.V. fluids, my friend." " Uh-huh." " Uh..." "It's very inflamed." " You must be in a lot of pain." " Oh." "Querida." "I've wrestled a chicken out of the mouth of a caimán." "The day that a bum knee makes me cry is the day they take me outside and shoot me." "Have you been taking aspirin?" "For 25 years and you know what, doctora... it doesn't work." "Now a nice tequila and a hot bath..." "That's where I'd be right now if my son wasn't such a..." "un grano del culo." " A big, fat pain in my ass." " Mm." "Right." "Yeah." ""Mamá, go to the doctor."" "Ay!" "qué Don Angustias, just like his father was." "Okay, well, gout usually responds better to aspirin." "Where were you diagnosed?" "You diagnosed yourself." "I hate hospitals." "Mm." "If you're sick, go die." "If you're not, go live." "Uh, keep it simple." "That is a great philosophy, but I think if you..." "Ay, mira..." "here's the ass pain now." "Dr. Brenner, this is my son Mateo." "We've met." "After Compazine, we'll try oral fluids." "Okay." "I'll move on to the next cell." "I'll be fine." "Didn't say a word." "Albano Hernández." "He killed a guard a few years ago." "He spends 24 hours a day in isolation." "He can't have the virus." "Uh, it might not be Hep-A, but it's something else." "He swallows things to make himself sick." "Then he tries to escape from the Infirmary." "Three times this year." "Yo no me tragué nada..." "me estoy muriendo." "He says he didn't swallow anything." "Sí... and I've never heard a murderer tell a lie." "Can you open the cell?" "I'll do it..." "La posición." "La posición ahora." "Ábrelo." "No te muevas." "No te muevas, cabrón." "Siéntate, cabrón!" "Siéntate." "No te mueves." "Distended stomach with absent bowel sounds." "It's some kind of intestinal obstruction." "Aah!" "Aah!" "Clark!" "I know what you're gonna say... don't." "I'm fine." "I'm fine." "We handled it." "I didn't say a word." " Mateo, please wait." " You told me to see the doctor." "Oh...!" "This is the doctora?" "Well, she's a lot shorter than I thought... nice face, though" "Oh, I-I'm wearing flats." "I told you I would take you to the hospital in San Miguel." " They have a very nice one there." " It's too far." "With you in school, who's gonna" " take care of the farm?" " And how are you gonna work on the farm with a knee the color of a tamarillo?" "Excuse me, doctora." "Like I said, a big, fat grano en mi culo." "I told her not to come here." "I'm sorry." "We won't bother you again." " Hey, wait." "Wait, wait." "What's wrong?" " What's wrong?" "You left me standing in the middle of a dance floor." "You told me it was over." "What do you want, to be friends?" " Because I don't know how to do that." " No, I..." "Look, forget us, but your mom..." "it might be more than gout, and I should really run some tests before..." " Hijo... are you coming or not?" " Sí, mamá." "Espérate." "Mamá!" "Mamá!" " She's seizing!" " What's happening to her?" "I need an Angiocath and Ativan now!" "He has an obstruction in his abdomen right now that could kill him." "We need to bring him back to the clinic." "If we don't operate, he dies." "How will I ever be able to sleep again?" "The man's a killer." "He'd think nothing of doing the same to you." "Label him whatever you want." "He's still a human being who deserves medical care." "He's coming back with us." "Gracias." "Yeah." "She's way more agreeable when you... agree with her." "We treated 82 Hep-A patients with antiemetics and fluids." "If you keep the sick patients confined to their cells for the next week, no hand to mouth contact, the outbreak should be pretty much contained." "No, wait." "Please." "Dr. Cole, please." "Mi amiga." "I gave him morphine." "It's probably making his delusions worse." "Mi amiga..." "she could be sick, too." "Every day, I give her pictures, food." "What's he talking about?" " He's got an imaginary friend." " Don't we all?" "Are you talking about the girl in the picture on your wall?" "Don't worry, hermano." "I'm pretty sure she won't get sick." "Not... not on." "Through." "Through the wall." "Through the wall?" "Through the wall." "Through the wall." "Oh... stop the boat." "Stop the boat." "Stop the..." " Stop the boat!" " Hey, where are you going?" "Vargas, Vargas, the men and women's prisons..." " do they connect?" " They share one wall." "You may have an outbreak in the women's prison, too." "¡Ábrelo!" "The women's prison is on the other side of the wall, but it is impossible for them to make contact." "Well, what about through uh..." "vents or grates or..." "No vents." "No grates." "The wall is thick stone, doctor." "¿Hola?" "The outbreak's spread to just this floor, so we take the same precautions we did in the men's prison, we can shut this thing down before it even starts." "Are... are you from the embassy?" "No, just a local doctor." "You're American?" "It's been a long time." "I..." "I-I don't know where I'm from anymore." "Whoa." "I-I gotcha." "I gotcha." "I gotcha." "Now you've got Hep-A." "You're severely dehydrated and anemic." "How long you been down here anyway?" "Oh." "Eight years, seven months, 28 days," "12 hours, 5 minutes, 15 seconds." "Now 16." "I'm doing ten." " For what?" " Cute guy came up to me at a bar, said,"how'd you like to make a little money?"" ""Stick this in your bag" " "when you fly back to the States," right?" " Yeah." "What was in it?" "Half a kilo of heroin." "We all make mistakes, you know, so..." "It could've happened to anyone." "At least I have a view." "Poor Hugo doesn't even have a window." "Every night, I describe the sun as it sets, so he can draw." "How is he?" "He's not good." "The virus destroyed his liver." "Ohh." "My first year in, I didn't think I could make it, so I got a bunch of pills from the other inmates." "I was just gonna down 'em, and I hear this voice." ""¿Estás en casa, amiga mía?" "Are you home, my friend?"" "So I..." "I put the pills down, and I go to the... the little hole in the wall, and I say,"yeah, I'm home,"" "and every day since, he's just been there," "on the other side of the wall." "He's my best friend, and he's the only reason I'm alive right now," "and I've never seen his face." "Retractor." " So..." " Retractor!" " Ahem." "There." " No, I meant the..." " What did you..." " That's fine" " What did you..." " I'll just use this." " What did you want?" " Just... bovie, please." " What the hell is wrong with you two?" " Uh..." "You know what?" ", I don't know what's going on, and normally I wouldn't care, but you both have your hands in an open body on my O.R. table," " so you better get it together and figure it out." " Right." "Just not in my garden." "Here." "Lots of ascites." "Suction." "Oh, it doesn't even look like a liver anymore." "Six-centimeter hepatic mass." "The cirrhosis has become malignant." "It's all over his body." "We can't create a shunt." "It'll kill him." "But if we can't stop the bleeding..." "He's not going back to prison." "His liver's gone." "There's no repairing it." "We just closed it back up." "How long does he have?" "Not long." "With the internal bleeding, probably a few hours before he arrests." "All right." "Transfuse two units and keep him stable." "I'm on my way back." "It's not a stroke or a tumor." "How the hell did she have a seizure from a swollen knee?" "That's what I'm trying to figure out, okay?" " Many things cause seizures." " Glad to know you're on top of things." "Hijo, why don't you run into town and get me a cold glass of horchata?" "¿En serio?" "Horchata now?" "And get one for my lovely doctora, too." "Excuse his manners." "That's not how I raised him." "It's okay." "He's worried about you..." "and very angry at me." "Don't worry." "You're not the first girl to disapprove of what we do." "You know, it's not like growing coca was my lifelong dream." "When I was your age, ohh..." "I was a Flamenco dancer." "Yeah." "I came here to join the Ballet Folklórico." "I like poufy skirts." "Okay, I have to draw fluid from your knee to check for bacteria." "It's gonna hurt." "Why did you come to the jungle, doctora?" "I... came to help people." "It's gonna sound silly, but I guess I came here... to be a hero." "How is that going for you?" "Not so great, actually." "There was an accident last week." "I lost someone." "You do have quite the tolerance for pain." "Well, like I said..." "I've been through worse." "It's good to be back in the O.R... with you, digging through a bowel." "You really are an easy woman to please, Clark." "Okay, I found it." "There's a big mass in the jejunum." "I will say..." " One thing New York has going for it..." " mm?" " Chinatown." " Mm." "Why can't you get good Chinese food around here?" "We had a good time, you and me." "Yeah, we should do it again sometime, Keeton." "You know, when my heart's not exploding." "All right." "Let's see what's causing this guy's misery, shall we?" "Ooh." "You said he didn't swallow anything?" "Yeah." "Well, he lied." "He took antiparasitics..." "a whole bunch of 'em." "Worm pills?" "How can you tell?" "Well, that's why we kill parasites slowly and in stages, because when you kill 'em all at once, they die all at once." " Mm." " Still craving that Chinese food?" "Mm." "Feels good." "Sun on my face." "Fresh air." "Where's the fire, Dr. Cole?" "Slow down." "Well, um..." "there's someone waiting for you." "You mean Hugo?" "He's here?" "Just got out of surgery." "The hell are you waiting for?" "Hurry!" "Is that him?" "Yeah." "He's not waking up from the anesthesia." "He's in a coma." "Wow." "How's your first day back treating you?" "Terrific." "Terrific." "Right now I'm trying to figure out what mystery illness is killing my patient, who happens to be my ex-boyfriend's cocaine-growing mother." "You're treating Mateo's mother?" "That's gotta be a little..." "Uh, awkward." "What's with the checkers?" "I, uh, explained to young Charlie here that Alma broke up with me because I played her favorite board game with..." "Minard, and it really got him in the mood for board games." "But he's beating my ass bad." "Did he beat your ass bad, too?" "I have a patient." "Eat that." "Hey, I probably wouldn't stick my foot in my mouth so much if you would've just been honest about doing it with blondie." "What?" "I'm not 5 years old." "I needed simple today." "This is not helping." "Oh, I know, and I'm sorry." "It's just, I can't look at Mina without picturing her naked, which sounds great." "It really does, but it's not." "It's horrible." "It's so horrible." "We just did an ex lap together." "Ugh." "It was so wrong." " I just kept seeing her boobs." "It was all I..." " Fuller!" " No, I know!" "So wrong." "Should be great." "Is not." " Fuller." "Ohh." "And, look, here's the point." "Me and Mina used to just work together, you know." "It was cool." "And now it's like we're strangers." " It's so... it sucks, tt's..." " Look." "Look... if it makes you feel any better," "I'm sure she's feeling exactly the same thing." "Really?" "So you think, when she looks at me during surgery, she's seeing my..." "Is that what you're s..." "Just eat this." "What is wrong with this sandwich?" "I can't access the vein." "Hey, can we..." "quitarle las esposas?" "Come on, man." "She's dehydrated and sick with fever." "She's not going anywhere." "Bueno." "All these years, I pictured him so different." "What'd you picture?" "Big, strong." "Che Guevara." "Yeah." "That's, uh, that's never been Hugo." "Well, to me, it is." "That's the voice who taught me Spanish and who talked about all the places I'd go and the things I'd do when I got out every night till I fell asleep." "That voice... it's... it's 7 foot tall and strong." "He's not gonna wake up, is he?" "Why don't you try and get some rest, okay?" "You okay there?" "Mm." "Just a long surgery." "Ok, we got a bleeder." "Can you put your finger on the S.M.A.?" "Yeah." "Yeah." "I got it." "I got it." "I..." "Clark!" "Clark!" "Help!" "Hey!" "I need a hand in here!" "Help!" "Somebody!" "Look, I need a hand in here now!" "Anybody!" "Come on!" "Help!" "Hello?" "!" "Yeah, I know you're not a surgeon, but I need you to put some gloves on." " Guantes!" " No." "No." "No." "No sé." "I don't have time to argue." "I need your help, man!" "Now put 'em on!" "Now give me your hand." "Tu mano." " Ok." "Pinch it." "You got it?" " Sí" "Come on, Ryan." "Wake up." "What the hell is going on, amigo?" "Hey." "I heard a conmoción." "So what are you saying, it's louder here than in a South American prison?" "Sí... feels like home." "Yeah, well, uh, hold that thought, Hugo." "Good news." "I mean, she's weak from hypokalemia and dehydration." "She couldn't have gotten far." "Okay, well, the guards are gonna be looking for her, so what am I supposed to tell them?" "Uh, just tell them she had a medical emergency, you know, that, uh, you had to take her to another room for tests..." "X-rays." "What?" "Are you crazy?" " If they think that we helped her, then..." " Yeah, I know." "So where are you going?" "Find her before they do." "Hey." "Hey." "What happened?" "You passed out." "You've got fluid in your lungs." "Oh, God." "I was holding a bleeder." "Is he okay?" "The bleeder's clamped." "He's gonna be fine." "Okay." "I need to..." "Hey." "Easy, easy, easy, easy." "Scoot back." "Sit up." "Can I say something now?" "You're in congestive heart failure." " And you overexerted yourself today." " Keeton..." "I'm not done." "It was unnecessary, okay?" "It was reckless, and what makes it just stupid is I stood by, and I let it happen." "Now you may need me to make you feel strong, but I need you to live, so you're not strong." "You're weak." "I'm gonna re-gown, re-glove, then we close." "What are you doing?" "I'm eating Zee's lunch." "Ballsy." "Well, I'm starving." "I can't eat lunch with him." "I can't operate with him." "And things have gotten so awful and awkward between us, and I..." "He just..." "he keeps staring at me." "What is he staring at?" " Not your boobs." " What?" "Look, I need my roommate back, and you need to eat, so this has to stop, so I don't know." "Just talk to each other, or else... eat alone in corners for the rest of your life." "Hey." "Did you figure out what's wrong with her?" "I'm working on it." "Uh, I'm still narrowing it down." "I'm gonna find her another doctor." "Oh, come on." "This has nothing to do with me being a good doctor, and you know it." "Look, I'm trying to keep things simple and professional," " but you're making it personal and..." " Tú lo hiciste personal (You made it personal)" "Cuando dijiste que mi mamá (When you said my mom) era una narcotraficante (was a drug dealer)" "Y que no querías tener nada (And you did not want to have anything) que ver con mi familia!" "(to do with my family!" ")" "Perdóname si no quiero poner la vida de mi madre (Forgive me if I put my mother's life) en manos de alguien que la (in the hands of someone who) considera una criminal. (considered her a criminal.)" "I didn't get any of that." "I said, it is personal." "That is my mother..." "and she's sick." "And I know you don't like her." "And you don't like what we do." "You think we're no better than common drug dealers, so forgive me if I'm not jumping at the chance to place her life in your hands." "What's wrong?" "B.P.'s down." "Mamá." "What is it?" " Heart sounds are muffled." " What's wrong with her?" "Her heart's getting squeezed." "I think there might be fluid around it." "You think or you know?" "Mamá..." "Mamá!" "I have to get it out before she arrests." "What, are you gonna stick a needle in her heart?" "!" "No..." "Hey, no time!" "No time!" "You just have to trust me." "Is she okay?" "I have to take some blood and run a sed rate." " What?" "Why?" " I think I know what she has." "Going somewhere?" "How'd you find me?" "Well, figured you'd stay off the roads dressed like that, so it was either a mad dash into the jungle, which would be suicide, or, uh, down here to the river." "I guess..." "I'm not so good at going on the lam." "Yeah." "Look, no one knows you're gone yet, but if I found you in 20, they'll find you in 10, and then you'll have a hell of a lot more time left to do than, what, a year?" "A year, four months, two days, 6 hours, 12 minutes and 40 seconds." "This is my shot." "I gotta take it." "He's awake now." "He's only got a few hours left." "I..." "I can't go back there without him." "I mean, he's the only reason that I got this far." "I know." "I know." "I know, and I have no idea what it's like to be where you are, but if you run now, even if you somehow made it, you'll be running for the rest of your life." "Forget the police, all right?" "That's the least of it." "You're gonna be running from the knowledge that you let a man who's been locked up in a cage his entire life, who was there for you when no one else was... you just let him die alone." "But, look, if you want to run, hell, I was never here, never saw you." "But don't mix up running with being free." "Oh, and, uh..." "Your boat's backwards." "Pulse Ox is down to 82." "Not much longer." "All we can do is make him comfortable." "Hugo!" "We're, uh, finished with her tests now." "Hugo." "It's Becky." "Look at my eyes." "It's me." "¿Estás en casa?" "Yeah." "I'm home." "Look at that." "What do you think?" "I had forgotten." "I had forgotten." "Inés, you have a disease called Lupus." "It attacks every cell in the body and causes inflammation to your joints, your heart, your brain." "It explains all the symptoms." "Just tell me if Mateo was right to worry." "I hate it when he's right." "Well, he was right about one thing." "Working the farm and doing manual labor with this disease... it's not a good idea." "We used to grow maize." "Did he ever tell you that?" "No." "Maybe he doesn't remember." "He was young." "You know, my husband died, and he left me with two babies to feed and a crop that sold for nothing, you know, a few pesos." "Then one night Mateo was three..." "And he was screaming..." "From hunger." "And I said, "Enough."" "I tilled up the corn, and I planted the coca." "You know, people look at what I do, and they see a drug that destroys families." "I see my children growing up with their bellies full instead of empty." "I didn't choose cocaine." "I chose my children." "I chose me." "I chose to survive." "Comprendo." "I'm a dancer." "I haven't danced in 20 years, but it's who I am." "Do you believe that?" "Of course." "Well, then..." "If I'm a dancer, even though I failed..." "You saved my life today, doctora." "How are you not a hero?" "I ate of lot of meals alone growing up." "I mean, I didn't have any brothers or sisters." "It was just me and my parents, who hated each other, and a series of microwavable pocket sandwiches." "Okay." "So..." "My point is that I don't have to eat alone anymore, because I have a home." "And it's not the house." "It's not the stupid jungle." "It's you." "You and Brenner... you're my home." "And I'm really scared that we screwed that up by..." "Playing board games together." "Yeah." "I mean, it wasn't the right time for board games." "You know, we probably should not have even... brought the board games out." "Yeah." "You know, I think we can, though, stop with the metaphor." "'Cause..." "let's just say sex." "We had sex." "Okay." "So... what do we do about it?" "I don't know." "I mean, don't you keep just kinda... picturing me naked all the time?" "No." "No." "No." "Why?" "Do you?" "No." "No." " I just thought maybe you would..." " No." "'Cause that would be understandable." "There but for the grace of God, huh?" "I mean, the... the way I got when I needed to score, the amounts I used to carry on me..." "That could've been me." "If I got locked up without anyone, without you..." "I don't know how I'd survive." "Yeah, well, what you did today... that could've landed you in prison." "But look what you did." "La verdad es que tú eres (The truth is that you are ... )" "Un hombre honesto, (An honest man,) honorable, y bueno, (honorable, and well,) y te quiero tanto, (and I love you both,) aunque me vuelves loca cada dia." "(but me again crazy every day.)" "What'd you say?" "I said that you are a good and honorable man." "No, no, no, no, no." "I got the Spanish part." "I'm talking about the "te quiero" part." "You know what it means." "Yeah." "I know what it means." "Night, loca." "I'm gonna move her to a long-term care facility in San Miguel." "Good luck." "She won't leave." "You can't do it." "You just can't do it." "What other choice do I have?" "Me." "I'll make house calls." "I'll manage her lupus." "She needs a personal physician now." "You're going to make house calls..." "To our farm where we grow..." "I know what you grow and I'll probably never agree with it," "but I get it." "I get it now, so I would like to be her doctor." "Okay." "Gracias." "De nada. (you're welcome)" "That is not what I meant." "I'm sick." "It's my sentence." "I can't escape it." "I can't... operate." "I can't practice field medicine anymore." "Not now." "So..." "Put it on." "Clark." "Just put it on." "It's okay, it's okay." "I promise you, it's gonna be okay."