"Part Five" "you seem to have appropriated me." "You keep me under lock." "I mean to see whom I like and go anywhere I choose." "Without the finest doubt." "And what visitor did you turn away about an hour ago?" "It was the general." "I've a great respect for that man." "He is a great man. - for you not to receive him." " Why?" "Too hospitable." "Hospitable?" "He assured that all his life ever since he was an ensign up to the 11th of June last year he had never sat down to dinner with less than 200 people at his table." "they never got up." "So they had dinner and supper and tea for 15 out of 24 hours." "For thirty years without a break." "Scarcely had the time to change the tablecloths." "another would come." "On holidays there would be as many as three hundred." "And on the 1000th anniversary of Russia he counted 700 people." "Won't a man like that be too hospitable for you and me?" "But you was in excellent terms with him?" "Yes." "He is intending to live with me." "We are connected by marriage." "He is a brother-in-law." "You are a second cousin of his too on the mother's side." "Yes. then you and I must be related too." "We are like brothers and I take it as a joke." "Let us be brothers-in-law." "It's an honor." "Even through the 700 people and the thousand anniversary of Russia" "I can see he is a very remarkable man." "I mean it sincerely." "why are you standing on tiptoe?" "And why do you always approach me as though you wanted to whisper a secret in my ear?" "I'm abject." "I feel it." "And there is a secret." "A person you know of has just sent word she would like to have an appointment with you in secret." "Why in secret?" "I'll go and see her myself today." "Not at all." "It's not what you suppose she is afraid of." "the monster asks every day after your health." "Did you know it?" "You call him "monster" so often." "Lebedeff." "You can feel no sort of suspicious. but of something very different." "of what?" "That's the secret." "Whose secret?" "Your." "illustrious prince." "She's afraid of Aglaya Ivanovna." "I'll give up your villa." "And where are the Gavrila Ardalionovitch and Ptitsins?" " Ptitsins?" " You've enticed them away too?" "No." "They are coming." "And even general after them." "I'll call all daughters too." "at once." "prince." "Nikolai Ardalionovitch." "Lizabetha Prokofievna and her daughters to you." " Shall I admit the Ptitsins?" " Of course." " Gavrila Ardalionovitch?" " Of course." "let anyone come who likes." "I have no reason at all for hiding and concealing myself." "prince." "I'm in a good health." "prince." " Thank you." " Glad to see you too." " Pleased to see you." "I expected to find you on deathbed." "I told you the prince is almost well again." "But it was more interesting to imagine him on his deathbed." "Be silent." " Hello." " Good afternoon." "welcome." "Aglaya." "I expected to find you almost a bad." "I exaggerated things so in my fright." "Introduce." "The prince Scherbatov." " Very glad." " Good day." "Have you come to us for long?" "The whole summer." "And perhaps longer." "You are alone?" "Not married?" "Alone." "Not married." "It seems you are looking Aglaya Ivanovna?" "I've the honor to introduce myself." "General Ivolgin." "I used to carry you in my arms." "as usual." "You have never carried her in your arms." "at Tver." "I was six years old then." "He made me an arrow and bow." "And a helmet and a wooden sword for me." " I remember." " Me too." "Remember." "I remember it all." "I was a staff-captain." "You were such a pretty little mite." "I used to be a guest in your house." "And see what you've come now." "So you haven't drunk away all your better feeling." "Have a cry." "Remember your innocence in the past." "What comes of speaking the truth for once." "It reduced him to tears." "Was that Gavrila who went out?" "He's very much changed." " And greatly for the better." " He has been very ill." "How has he changed for the better?" "What improvement do you see?" "There is nothing better than the "poor knight"." "There is nothing better." "Don't understand." "What poor knight?" "there is a strange Russian poem." "We were trying to find a subject for Adelaida next picture." "Then we hit on the "poor knight"." " Who first had the idea?" " Aglaya Ivanovna." "Because that poem describes a man who is capable of an ideal." "Who having sat an ideal before him has faith in it." "And having faith in it gives up his life blindly for it." "This does not happen always in our day." "But there is some obscure device of which we are not told in full." "The letters M.F.B. inscribed on his shield." " A.N.D." " But I want to say M.F.B." "That poor knight did not care what his lady was or what she did." "If she became a thief afterwards he would still be bound to believe in her and be ready to break a spear for her pure beauty." "The poor knight is the same Don Quixote only seriously and not comic." "I didn't understand him at first and laughed." "But now I love the poor knight." "respect his exploits." "He must have been a fool anyway." "He and his exploits." "Whose poem is it?" "Pushkin's." "give me that poem of Pushkin." "Good afternoon." "Suiter of Aglaya Ivanovna." "So the "poor knight" on the scene again?" "Lef Nikolaevitch." "lntroduce prince." "Evgenie Pavlovitch Radomski." "Just in retirement." "I had long meant to gain not only your acquaintance but your friendship." " Very glad to see you." " Where are you?" "there four men come to see you." "scolding." "But father won't let them in to you." " Who they are?" " The son of Pavlicheff." "The son of Pavlicheff." "They are not worth listening to." "illustrious prince." "They are not worth it." "Oh God!" "The son of Pavlicheff." "I owe everything to that man." "I asked Gavrila Ardalionovitch to attend to that." "He told me just now..." "This is very interesting." "Son of Pavlicheff?" "What the son of Pavlicheff can there be?" "prince." "You must defend yourself." "I'm awfully glad for you." "I want this disgusting claim to be stopped at last." "prince." "Don't spare them." "This business." "It's been spoiling my temper." "I'll show them and take away after that." "Go." "gentlemen." " Vladimir Doktorenko." " Vurdalup." "Antip Burdovsky." "Keller." " Where can I sit down?" " Hippolyte." " Hippolyte Terentieff." " Allow." "Gentlemen." "I didn't expect any of you." "I've been ill till today." "I asked Gavrila Ardalionovitch Ivolgin to deal with your business." "I informed you." "gentlemen." "You are mistaken." "I'll do a personal explanation." "You should go with me into another room." "Because my friends are here now." "Friends?" "As much as one likes." "and not have left us waiting two hours in your servant's room." "And of course this is behaving like a prince." "but I'm not your servant." " I..." " This is behaving like a prince." "If it were my personal affair." "I only heard this minute that you are here. to submit Burdovsky's case to the judgment of your friends." "But maybe we don't wish the judgment of your friends." "Anyone can see what it would be." "if you don't wish to speak here let us go into another room." "I repeat." "I heard of you all this very minute." "You have no right." "You have no... read this at once." "This minute." "Read." "It has to do with your business." "Wouldn't it be better not aloud." "I could read it alone afterwards." "Then you had better read it." "Read it aloud." "Read it aloud." "So that every one may hear." "Here is a strange anecdote about a scion of our decaying nobility." "a lieutenant who died while in his trial for a sudden disappearance at cards of all the company's money." "Our orphan was brought up by the charity of a very rich Russian landowner." "We'll call him "P". who spend their idle lives abroad." "and in winter at the Parisian Chateau des Fleurs." "the light-hearted P. brought up the orphan like a prince. whom he brought himself from Paris." "But the last scion of the noble house was an idiot." "The governesses were of no use." "not even Russian. thought the idiot might be taught sense in Switzerland." "Thousands were spent on it." "didn't become sensible." "no great shakes." "Suddenly P. died." "Go and tell her we are together." "Go." "A crowd of friends and acquaintances gathered about our gaitered baron who ran after a notorious beauty of easy virtue." "He even picked up the relations. hungering and thirsting for lawful matrimony." "That." "That passes my comprehension." "Colia." " Read it." "Whatever happens." "we'll quarrel." "Let's." "One morning a well-known lawyer called on our quickly made millionaire." "He was been instructed by a young man." "This young man was neither more nor less though he bore a different name." "The licentious P had seduced a virtuous young girl and remarking the inevitable of the liaison he made haste to get her marriage." "leaving no will." "Meanwhile his son who was adopted by the honorable character though her death was hardly an alleviation to him." "What would have been a just decision for our scion to make? I've all my life enjoyed all the gifts of P. ought to have come to the son of P." "wish a majestic air using his million our scion pulls out a fifty-rouble note and sends to the noble young man by way of insulting charity." "was returned to him at once." "flung back in his face." "What resource have we left us?" "There is no legal claim." "There is no resource but publicity." "What on earth." "As though fifty lackeys had met together and composed it." "How dare you make such insulting suppositions?" "This." "This for an honorable man." "I'm not "your dear sir"." "I have no intention of giving you any explanation." "why did you write this article?" "I knew nothing about article." "It's all untrue." " Why it's untrue?" " Allow me prince." "Yourself." " You know that yourselves." " It's all true." "you've done a mean action." "A mean action." "You are wrong!" "it was only through your kindness you received them." "you might turn all these gentlemen out at once." "What?" "What do you permit yourself?" "with a greatest pleasure." "Perfectly right." "enough." "Enough." "excuse me." " With a greatest pleasure." "That's not enough now." "They threaten too turn us into the street." "you can think us such fools as not to understand we have no legal claim whatever we have no right to ask for a single rouble." "We're because we assumed you to be a man of common sense." "That is of honor and conscience." "We put the question to you directly and with dignity." "Do you admit that you were benefited and perhaps saved from death of Pavlicheff? intend even though he does bear the name of Burdovsky." "satisfy us and the matter is finished." "Satisfy us without entreaties and gratitude on our part. but for the sake of justice." "we go away and the case is over. that you are a man of coarse intelligence and low development." "That in the future you dare not call yourself a man with honor and conscience." "I've finished." "if you dare." "But remember all the same that we demand and we don't beg." "we don't beg." "we don't beg." " Gentlemen." "You published that article on the supposition that nothing" " would induce me to satisfy Mr. Burdovsky." " This is insufferable." "But how do you know" "I may have to satisfy Mr. Burdovsky." " Yes." "Now." "I'm here." " Good Lord." "gentlemen." "I'll satisfy." "that's a wise and generous saying from a wise and generous man." "came to see me." " I didn't like him." " You didn't like him too?" " Understand." " Be silent." "he have taught you." " How?" "He had taken advantage of your simplicity." "You've no right." "I'm not simple." "You've no sort of right to make such suppositions." "false and irrelevant." " I agree." " Surely." "gentlemen." "I'm sorry." "I think." "I decided I must help to poor and trustful Ms. Burdovsky." "Trustful?" "I decided to give him ten thousand roubles." "That's all that by my reckoning Pavlicheff could have upon me." "only ten thousand?" "you are not at all good in arithmetic." "Or else you are too good at it." "I won't agree to take ten thousand." "take it." "Take it." "Afterwards we'll see." "Listen to me." "Listen to me." "I've time to see clearly." "I'm convinced that my guess was correct." "prince?" "What." "That Mr. Budovsky is an innocent man." " Of course innocent." " He is a helpless man." " Helpless?" " Therefore I ought to spare him." " Don't say so." " What?" " Don't spare." " Let's here out." "don't worry." " Hear out." "gentlemen." "The chief point it appears now that Mr. Burdovsky is not a son of Pavlicheff at all." "Not the son of Pavlicheff?" "Gavrila Ardalionovitch will explain everything to us." " He has even been to home." " To home?" "who hasn't died at all." "They've made you say in the article." "Please." "Yes?" "I obtained the letters written by the late Mr. Pavlicheff twenty-four years ago to colonel Viazovkin." "These letters prove that Nicolai Andreevitch remained abroad for three years." "Mr. Burdovsky." "has never been out of Russia." "I told you the day before yesterday that perhaps you really weren't Pavlicheff's son." "I've been deceived. but long ago." "I believe you." "I refuse." "I don't agree to ten thousand." "Good-bye." "There's the money." "Those are the 250 roubles you dared to send him as a charity." " The article said fifty." " How dared you." "It's my fault." " But I didn't send it as a charity." " So." "but I didn't mean you." "No." "I was mistaken." "you were afflicted as I am." "But you are not like me." "You support your mother. but I'm to blame." "I ought to have done differently." "And now it can't be done." " Because you despise me." " This is a madhouse." "Of course it's a house of madmen." "gentlemen." "only a hundred." "that there may be no misunderstanding." "Let it be." "prince." "Your "let it be" is an insult to us." "we declare it openly." "it's 100 roubles instead of 250." "it isn't." "Don't interrupt me." "Of course 100 roubles are not 250." "But the principle is what matters." "your excellency." "He throws it in your face." "So it makes no difference whether it's 100 or 250." "That 250 roubles has gone to Tchebaroff for his journey to see the prince." "Burdovsky is poor." "Burdovsky hasn't millions." "And Tchebaroff sent his account after his journey." "We hope to win the case." "Who would not have done the same in his place?" "Who would not?" "I'll go out of my mind here. who bringing forward:" "It was natural that in my client's poverty the idea of murdering six people should have occurred to him." "And whom indeed would it not have occurred in his position?" "Enough." "It's time to end this nonsense." "Let me alone." "Why are you offering me your arm now?" "You hadn't the sense to take me away before. if I were so silly as not to obey you and go." "anyhow." "Wait a bit." "I must still thank the prince." " Maman." " Don't hinder me." "Adelaida. for your entertainment." "I've been staying on to listen to the young people." "It's disgraceful." "It's disgraceful." "It's chaos." "It's infamy." "It's worse than a dream." "Are there many like them?" "So you are asking their forgiveness." "It's my fault for daring to offer you a fortune." "what are you laughing at?" "We refuse to fortune"." "we don't ask"." "As though he didn't know this idiot will trail off tomorrow to them and offer his friendship and his money to them again." "You will?" "Will you or not?" "I will." "You hear?" "So that's what you are reckoning on." "The money is as good as in your pocket." "That's why you boast and try to impress us." "my good man." "I see through you." "You can find other fools." "I see all your game." "Lizabetha Prokofievna." "And this stuttering fellow wouldn't he murder anyone?" "I'm ready to bet he'll murder someone." "Maybe he won't take your money for conscience' sake but he'll come at night and murder you and take the money out of your cash box." "He'll take it for conscience' sake." "it's an outburst of noble indignation." "It's a protest or goodness knows what." "Everything is topsy-turvy." "Everything is upside down." "we don't ask." "And you'll get no gratitude from us because you're acting for the satisfaction of his own conscience." "Queer sort of reasoning." "So if he'll get no gratitude from you the prince may tell you in answer he feels no gratitude to Pavlicheff." "Because to Pavlicheff too did good for the satisfaction of his own conscience." "Lunatics." "They don't believe in God." "They don't believe in Christ." "You'll end by eating up one another." "That's what I prophesy." "What are you laughing at?" "this is shameful." "Aglaya Ivanovna." "Your maman will see she cannot attack a dying man." "I'm ready to explain why I laughed." "yet he must hold firth." "You aren't fit for talking." "You simply ought to go and lie down." "So I will." "I'll die in fortnight." "Dr. Botkin himself told me so a week ago." "I should like to say two words to you at parting." "Are you crazy?" "Nonsense." "Think." "This is the last time I'll be out in the air with people." "And in a fortnight I'll be underground." "So that this will be like a farewell to men and to nature." "I'm glad all this has happened at Pavlovsk." "One can see the trees in leaf anyway." "Good heavens!" "I was positively on the point of striking him." "held your back." "Am I right?" "Let me look at a beautiful woman for the last time." "A chair." "Colia." " Sit down." " Colia." "take him." " And tomorrow I'll certainly..." " And do you know? you meant to take prince back to tea with you." "Stay here and the prince will give us all tea." "Yes." "Excuse my arranging it all." "I know you're good-natured." "The prince too." "You're all ridiculously good-natured people" "Don't get excited." "You've softened my heart." "Prince." "You don't deserve." "I should drink tea with you." "I'll stay." "Though I'm not going to apologies to anyone." " Vera." " Not to any one." "I've learned to hold you in high respect." "I've heard of you very often." "Colia told." "And I hold you in high respect." "He's feeling awkward." "I thought he would." "It's useless." "It's a sure sign now he'll do something out of spite eccentric." "perhaps." " You seem feverish." " What are you saying?" " Yes." "I'm not well." " Prince. corrected the article for this gentleman." "Why don't you speak?" "I see now he did." "I'm a poor creature." " A poor creature." " What do I care." "He thinks he'll get out of it by saying he's a poor creature." "to do with such people." "I really did apply to him and offered him six roubles." "but simply to give me facts." "I only corrected the first half of the article but as we didn't agree in the middle and quarreled over one idea" "I didn't correct the second half." "it's bad grammar so that mustn't be set down to me." "A nice set of people." "I'll keep in mind." "have you put me here to be a laughing-stock?" "God forbid." "What strikes me is your eccentricity." "I led up the conversation to Lebedeff on purpose." "I knew the effect this would have on you only because the prince will forgive it and has probably forgiven it already." "Maybe he has found an excuse in his own mind." "prince." "Isn't it?" "You've said everything?" "now go to bed you're in a fever." "Good heavens." "Wait." "He's speaking again." "Why do you keep laughing at me?" "Why do you keep laughing at me?" "I notice you're laughing at me." "Mr. Terentieff." "Is it true I've heard you believe you've only to talk to the people for a quarter of an hour and they'll follow you at once?" "It's quite possible I've said so." "I certainly did say so." "What of it?" "Absolutely nothing." "Ad notam." "For remind." "my friend." "Well." "Period." "Goodbye." "Do you think it's easy for me to say you goodbye." "Your excellency." "I've the honor of inviting you to my funeral." "If only you think me worthy of such an honor." "in the wake of the general." "I come here to see the trees." "These here." "isn't it?" "There is nothing ridiculous in it?" "You were laughing at me wanting to talk out of the window for a quarter of an hour." "You know I'm not eighteen?" "A dead man has no age." "When you were saying goodbye I thought." "trees here there will be nothing." "The red red-brick wall will opposite my window." "Opposite this red-brick house." "Well." "Tell the about all that." "Try to tell them." "Try to tell them you are a dead man." "You don't laugh?" "Or will you laugh again?" "You're horrible cruel." "Lizabetha Prokofievna." "Have I right?" "How much I wanted." "Now I want nothing." "I've given a word so then I'm not needed. to discover and proclaim true." "I think I'll talk out of the window for a quarter of an hour and they'll agree with me." "What has come of it?" "You're laughing at me." "nobody is laughing at you here." "Don't worry yourself." "A new doctor will come tomorrow." "The other one was mistaken." "Sit down." "You can hardly stand now." "Well." "Don't cry." "Ivan Fedorovitch?" "Be so good as you break your majestic." "I'll stay the night here myself." "I'll just now. than our emotion." "the prince must be asked and the invalid must have rest at once." "And tomorrow we can show interest in him again." "Your excellency." "If a satisfactory man is wanted for the night" "I'm ready to sacrifice myself for a friend he's such a soul." "your excellency." "of course. your excellency." "are you asleep?" "I'll take him home with us." "he can hardly stand upright himself." "you're ill?" "No." "No." "That's all right." "I'll be very glad if he'll stay." "It's difficult for him to be moved." "that's what." "I was afraid of it." "That was bound to happen." "you were afraid of that." "you say? I hate you all. idiot!" "I hate you more than everything in the world." "when first I heard of you." "You led me on to breaking down." "You drove a dying man to shame." "You are to blame for my abject cowardice." "I would kill you if I remained alive." "I don't want your benevolence." "I won't take anything - do you hear?" " from anyone." "if..." "He's ashamed of his tears." "That was bound to happen." "he saw right through him." "the eccentric friend of our family for the agreeable evening you have given us all." "Thank you for having let us have a clear view at last of what you are." "prince." " Prince." "Papa." "I'll hate you all my life." "prince." "Goodbye." "It happened as I thought it would." "Only I'm sorry you poor fellow have had such a bad time." " Lizabetha Prokofievna." " Enough." "Enough." "is that you?" "I'm glad I've found you at last." "I sent a messenger to you in town." "Two of them." "They've looking of you all day." "I've a news." "Don't worry about Kupfer's IOUs." "I persuaded him." "You can be easy for another three months." "And we'll manage Biskup and all those wretches through friends." "It's a madwoman." "I haven't an idea what she was talking about." "that's all right." "Be cheerful." "Let's go." "See you tomorrow." "Lizabetha Prokofievna." "Ivan Fedorovitch." "tell the truth." "Do you know what it means?" "No." "I know nothing about it." " No?" " No." "And I don't know. you may believe my word of honor." "prince." "No." "I assure you." "No." "No." "my dear Lef Nicolaievitch who that person was who shouted to Evgenie Pavlovitch yesterday from the carriage." "it's a mystery to me." "To me and to others." "I want to ask you if you know anything." "reached you?" "Then they plainly looked on me as a being concerned in the intrigue." "she must have some dreadful object." "What object." "Horrible." "And how's one to stop her?" "There's no possibility of stopping her when she's determined on her object." "She's a mad." "She's a mad." "go for a drive every so often but behaved with extreme propriety." "premeditated and must not to be counted." "People will have to seek in out on purpose or to invent it." "Why did he call yesterday's incident "premeditated"?" "And why they would not be slow to do so?" "I want to leave everything here." "And go to back from which I had come." "To go away at once." "Without even saying goodbye to anyone." "If I'll remain here even a few days longer" "I would be drawn into this world." "And would be bound up with it forever." "I must think over and decide upon this step." "That step is not one of those that can be thought over." "But one of simply decided upon." "I had lost every vestige of morality that I had become a thief." "Can you fancy that?" "Keller." "If I were you" "I wouldn't confess that without special need. and solely to promote my own development. if only you knew how hard it is to get money nowadays." "allow me to ask you." "The answer is the same:" "bring gold and diamonds." "That's just what I haven't got." "Can you fancy that?" "I lost my temper at last." "After waiting and waiting." "said I." "said he." "said I." "I put on my hat and walked out." "by Jove." "then?" "prince? what a sweet and innocent idea of life you have." "don't despair." "you have given me a full account of everything" "That it's impossible to add anything." "Isn't it?" "Impossible? if I may say so you still interpret human nature." "Can yon really have more to add?" "What did you expect of me?" " Why have you come to me?" " From you?" "What did I expect? It's pleasant to watch your simplicity." "It's nice to sit and talk to you." "And secondly." "Secondly." "Perhaps you wanted to borrow money?" "prince." "seen innocence as was never seen in the Golden Age." "Yet all at once you pierce right through." "Like an arrow with such psychological observation. in the long run my object was to borrow money." "But you ask me about it as if you saw nothing reprehensible in that" "As though it were just as it should be." "Yes." "From you it is just as it should be." " And you're not indignant?" " No..." "Why? we were pulling corks with Lebedeff till three in the morning." "and chiefly." "And here I'll take my oath." "I am speaking my holy truth! to promote my own development." "Would you believe on the word of a man of honor outward tears" "I really was sobbing." "I remember." "A hellish thought occurred to me. borrow money of him after my confession" "150 roubles." "Don't you think that was base?" "It's simply both things came at once." "that often happens." "Keller." "Do you know?" "Just now you might have been telling me about myself." "It's awfully difficult to struggle against these double thoughts." "I don't know how they arise and come." " How they arise?" " I've felt it." "I'm not your judge." "You were acting deceitfully to obtain my money by your tears." "But you swear there was another motive for your confession - an honorable." "you want it for riotous living." "that's feebleness." "But how are you to give up riotous living all in a minute?" "That's impossible." "What's to be done?" "It had better be left to your own conscience." "Don't you think?" "why they call you an idiot after that?" "I don't understand." "You've judged me humanely." "To punish myself and to show that I am touched." "I won't take 150 roubles." "and it will be enough." "That's all I want fortnight." "for a fortnight" "I won't come for money within a fortnight." " No." "Enough." " I did mean to treat Agashka." "But she's not worth it." "God bless you." "The outpourings of the heart?" "he really was genuinely penitent" "What does his penitence amount to." "It's just like me saying yesterday." "I am abject!" "It's only words." "So that was only words?" "I thought you... are all mixed up in me and are perfectly sincere." "Deeds and truth come out in my genuine penitence." "And words and lies in the hellish and always present craving to get the man to make something even out of one's tears of penitence." "by God." "I wouldn't tell another man." "He'd laugh or curse." "judge humanely." "But he is more sincere than you are." "you've turned your penitence into regular trade." "Don't crease up your face." "Lebedeff." "Haven't you something to say to me?" "Tell me the truth straight off at least once." "Did you know about that carriage stopping here yesterday?" "I see you had." "But... only indirectly." "It's the holy truth I'm telling you." "The only part I had in it was letting a certain personage know" "I had such company in my house that certain persons were present." "What intrigue is this?" "not mine." "There are others in it so to speak." "than an intrigue" "But what's the meaning of it?" "Lebedeff?" "It takes of me." "It's blackening Yevgeny Pavlovitch." " Prince." " Yes? you won't allow me to tell the whole truth." "I've tried to already more than once." "You wouldn't allow me to go on." "tell the truth." " Aglaia Ivanovna." " Be silent." "It's impossible." "It's all nonsense." "It's impossible." "You invented all that yourself or some madmen like you." "And let me never hear of it from you again."