"6 weeks" "6 people" "6 aspects of reality" "Per Fly's PERFORMANCES" "My name is Eva Josefsson and I am an actress." "How long have you been living in Stockholm?" "For ten years." "No, I exaggerate; eight years." "Because I spent a couple of years in London." " Is the new medicine all right?" " Fine." "I think it's fine." "Nausea?" "Vomiting?" " No, nothing too bad." " Any pain?" " No ... only occasionally." " It hurts when you eat." " Yes, but no more than usual." " But you should tell the doctor." " Some mornings ..." " We'll see what we can do." "I need a bigger prescription." "I'm off to Copenhagen." "Oh?" "What for?" " I'm going to be in a play." " You will be careful, won't you?" "I have cancer of the stomach." "I had surgery ten months ago." "Afterwards they told me there wasn't much they could do." "I have drugs to keep it stable   and to allow me to live normally." "You shouldn't go to Copenhagen." "What business have you there?" "I don't get it." "You are ill." "It's no good." "I want to work." "It's the only thing I want." "I'll go mad if I laze around here." "I feel fine." "The drugs I am on   are working very well." "I am not in pain, though I do get tired." "But I can live a normal life when I am not receiving treatment." " Are you going to tell Marko?" " No." "I've decided not to." "It'll be better that way." "Are you afraid of dying?" "I am not going to die." "I don't think of it in those terms." "I've been waiting here for half an hour." "I'm sorry, Eva." "I got it all mixed up." "You're looking great." "Where is Katrin?" " She's getting her exhibition ready." " Her what?" "An exhibition?" "Yes, of some of her photographic work." " You hadn't heard?" " No." " No!" " Oh, yes, indeed!" "It opens on Saturday." "So she is pretty busy." "I've booked a room for Eva Josefsson." "Hi, darling, it's mummy." "I am in Copenhagen." "Are you coming over?" "No, quite, I understand ;" "daddy told me about your exhibition." "How exciting!" "Let's have brunch." "Can you make it?" "Baby, I'll see you tomorrow then." "Her voice sounded funny." "How is she?" "Katrin?" "She's all right." "I have a daughter, Katrin." "She is seventeen." "And she lives with Marko?" "When we split up   it seemed natural that as I was the one to leave   it was natural for her to stay with her daddy." "It's been very good for her." "And we are very close." "Hello, darling." "How lovely to see you." " Have you been waiting long?" " No." "How are you doing?" "My little pet, what would you like?" " I'm not hungry." " Have some chocolate tart." "It's really good." "Or you don't want that?" " A cup of coffee?" " Nothing." " You don't want anything?" " No, thanks, I'm not hungry." "A cappuccino, please." "Daddy tells me you've got an exhibition." "It's only a beginner's project." "It isn't anything special." "Darling, how exciting that you are a photographer!" "You remember Bertil, the man I'm living with?" "He's a photographer." "He goes around the world   doing photo stories and stuff like that." "He's coming to Copenhagen soon." "We can have dinner together." "His pictures are fantastic." "How are things at home?" "Now Tanja's gone?" "Stop it, mum." "Sorry." "It's tough." "That's also partly why I've come." "To have a chance to ..." "What's done is done." "I have neglected my daughter." "I know that." "But I think there's a chance we can start a new relationship." "Do you think she needs you?" "I think so; but she has learned to cope without me." "But any child needs its mother." "Do you remember this dress?" "Daddy brought it for me in America." "He bought one just like it for you." "I took it away from you." "You were such a plump little girl, Eva." "Nothing fitted you properly." "You were such a terribly ugly child." "Do you remember?" "Stop it, mummy." "I am tired." "Won't you just leave me in peace?" "Won't you just leave me in peace?" "!" "I can't take it." "We made it!" "You look fantastic." "This is Jakob; he's playing Adonis." "I feel really privileged to to be able to act with you." "And of course you're in your old dressing room." " Just look at that!" " And you've a personal assistant." "And whom do I see?" "Hi, darling." "It is so lovely to see you." "Hi, Tanja." "Shall we get started?" "Venus and Adonis is about love." "It's about having the courage to love." "We don't believe in love." "We reject it." "It doesn't fit into the timetable." "Marko is a romantic." "He is a dreamer." "He lives in his work;" "he lives in his fantasy world." " You no longer pine for Marko?" " No." "No, I am through with that." "We can work on professional terms." "It's in the past." "Can you work professionally with Tanja?" "I think so." "I have seen a few things I don't really like that she's done." "But it'll be all right." "Though neither eyes nor ears, to hear nor see," "Yet should I be in love by touching thee." "Say that I could not see, nor hear, nor touch, " "And nothing   but the very smell were left me," "Yet would my love to thee be still as much;" "For from the stillitory of thy face excelling" "Comes breath perfumed that breedeth love by smelling." "That is so beautiful." " It's so difficult." " It was really, really beautiful." "It sounded so beautiful." "I'd like you to enter just as you did just now   then sit down and spend ages just gazing at the audience." "And then I'd like you to lift your dress   to inject some sensuality   and once you've learned your lines   say them while you are showing your loins and love." "Just lift up my dress?" "Yes." "Even higher." "It's such a powerful image." "But she's wearing panties, isn't she?" "Or what?" " Of course." " Yes." " Yes, you bet!" " I mean ..." " Why?" " I didn't mean it like that." " Of course she's wearing them!" " I know, I know." "I am so worried about Katrin." " I think she hates me." " No, she doesn't." " The way I hated my mother." " Eva, don't." " My mother was as cold as ice." " But you aren't." "She never kissed me." "She kissed the air." "But you don't have that problem with Katrin." "You love her." "It's obvious." "You're always hugging her." "My mother never talked to me." "She only talked to her lady friends." "I'd stand at the door to the living room   listening to them talk." "Sometimes I'd imagine   that it was me she was talking to." "I'd stand there and reply to her." "She wasn't around for me." "Just as I haven't been around for Katrin." "Hello, darling." " Congratulations!" " Are those for me?" "It's incredibly good." "It's good." "Really, really good." "Perhaps ..." " A little macabre." " I think they're beautiful." " You think death is beautiful?" " You don't like them." "That's OK." "I do like them." "I said I liked them." "They tell me things about you." "... About the way you feel." " That's how you interpret them." " Of course it is." "And it's not my problem." "Hi, darling." "It'll be so nice having you here." "May I have your attention?" "Katrin, come here." "I've brought my daughter along." "Because our rehearsals are going really, really well." "We want to record the process." "So I've asked Katrin to photograph our rehearsals." "We hope it'll result in a book." " So be nice to her!" " That'll do!" "That's all, darling." " Hi, darling." "What a surprise!" " Hadn't dad mentioned it?" "No." " I did enjoy our brunch yesterday." " Me, too." " Eva?" " Is it time?" "I want you to start alone on stage." "We'll work things out as we go along." "It's a poem, after all." "I don't know where to start." "Never mind." "Get on stage and we'll feel our way." "Or were I deaf, thy outward parts ... sensible ..." "No ..." "Each part in me that were but sensible:" "How does the next verse begin?" "Sorry." "Say, that the sense of ..." "Say, that the sense of ..." "Oh, shit." "Just a moment." "My ears would love That inward beauty and invisible;" " "My love ..."" " Can we take a break?" "It's not working." "I'd like a word, Marko." "OK." "We'll stop here." "That's it for today." "Why didn't you tell me " "Why didn't you tell me   that Katrin was going to be taking photographs?" "Don't you think it's a good idea?" "I don't understand why you didn't ask if I wanted to be in the photos." "What is she meant to think?" "When her mother isn't even consulted?" "You and Tanja are working against me." " I haven't a chance." " I'm doing this for Katrin." ""You" are doing it." "It should be "we"." "I am here as well." "And I am her mother." "You don't think she can do the job." "But how would you know?" "Eva, how do you tackle adversity?" "I don't know." "I think I am very concrete   and that there is always a solution." "I think I am a positive person." "All my life I've solved problems by thinking "things will work out"." "Hi, darling." "We have to be at Le Sommelier in an hour." "This is the closest we've got to a regular restaurant." "Marko and Eva and my wife Tine and I came here   when we started the theatre." "Katrin was in a carry cot under the table." "We've put her on a chair tonight." "I hope nobody minds." "And we've got Bertil, who is Swedish,   and is here today because he is Eva's partner." "Welcome to the family!" " And here's to love!" " Yes, here's to love!" "I've thought of studying photography in London." " But I want to experiment a bit." " You'll learn a lot from that." " Show him your photographs." " I didn't bring any." "Not tonight." "Another day." "I travelled for two years doing nothing but take photographs." "Of anything at all." " Anything at all." " Cool." "That's what you ought to do." " Travel." "See stuff." " Don't worry, I will." "Maybe I should take a few photographs that aren't so macabre." "I'm going to the ladies." "Katrin?" "Yes?" " Are you OK?" " I'm fine." " Are you sure you're OK?" " I'm fine." "I just told you." "I'm a bit tired." " I'm going home." " Do you want to take a taxi?" " 500 for a taxi." " A taxi won't cost 500." "Buy something nice with the change, then." "No, thanks." "I don't want your money." " You are making things so difficult." " What?" "Can't you open up just once?" "You are really talented." "Don't destroy yourself to punish me." "I am just trying to bridge the gap I feel between us." "You feel a gap between us?" "What do you expect?" "We haven't seen each other for over a year." "You left us." " Why did you come here at all?" " To be in the play." "Exactly." "So why not just stick to that?" "And leave me in peace." " She hates me." " Oh, stop it." "She hates me; just as I hated my mother, she hates me." "It's a projection." " What do you mean?" " You're looking for an explanation." "For what?" "Not being there?" "For abandoning my own child?" "You think it was wrong of me." " I am not the judge of that." " But it's exactly what you're doing." "I wouldn't have left my children, no." "But I don't know." "You had your reasons." "No, you don't know." "There always has to be an explanation for everything." "I can't live with a guilty conscience." "The projection, the guilt ..." "I don't need an explanation." " "It's a projection"!" " Oh, stop it!" "I don't intent to live with a guilty conscience." "I just need time." "If it hadn't been for the play I would have gone home." "It is very important work." "I know." "You didn't take your vitamins, Eva." "I told you to, and you didn't." "You might get ill." "And you are ill." "To hell with the tablets." "You're dying." "That's what you're doing." "Dying." " Eva?" "Are you all right?" " Yes, I'm OK." "When are you leaving?" "8 in the morning." "I love you." "I love you, too." "Are you going to tell Katrin that you are ill?" "I haven't decided." "We're getting on so badly   that I am not sure if it'd be good to tell her or not." "It might bring us closer together." "I like to think that if you are honest and straightforward   with each other ..." "It might make her more open." "Hi, darling, it's mummy." "I'd like us to meet." "I have something to tell you." "Saturday's fine by me." "At the hotel?" "At 7?" "A candle." " Will there be anything else?" " No, thank you." " I miss cooking in my own kitchen." " I don't remember you cooking." "I was always cooking for you." "Don't you remember?" " No, not really." " I love cooking." "You get so tired of restaurants when you travel a lot." "Katrin, there's something ..." "There is something I have to tell you." "About me." "Ten ... this is hard ..." "Ten months ago I was told   that I'd got cancer." "Of the stomach." "I am fine." "But I don't know how long ..." "What does that mean?" "That you are dying?" "Yes." "Does dad know?" "No." "No." " I'd rather nobody knew." " So why are you telling me?" "Because you are   the only person who really matters to me." "And I think   I think it's important for you   for us to learn to talk to each other." "What were you expecting?" "For us to be friends?" "And then you die and I feel really bad?" "You ... you came here because you needed to." "Because you are dying." "Do you realize how egotistical that is?" "I don't want anything to do with you." "We are who we are and I don't have a mother." "I've never had one and I don't need one." "I think you should go now." "I can't cope with this." "It's too much." "What does her decision not to see you mean to you?" "I don't know what it means." "But at some point I'll give up." "I can't fight any more." "I have done what I can." "I have made mistakes I shouldn't have made." "I didn't mean to." "But what's done is done." "I can't change the past." " Hi." " Hi." "I was thinking ..." "I know you want to be left in peace so I will leave you alone." "From now on   we'll have nothing to do with each other, OK?" "Jette?" "Shall we look at my costume?" "By this, the boy that by her side lay kill'd" "Was melted like a vapour from her sight," "And in his blood that on the ground lay spill'd," "A purple flower sprung up, chequer'd with white" "She bows her head," " That's really good." " The new-sprung flower to smell," "Comparing it to her Adonis' breath," "And says, within her bosom it shall dwell," "She his body loved, his body loved." "Eva?" "Eva?" "Hello." "Where am I?" "In hospital." "They're admitting you now." "Just relax." " I just .." " No, just stay where you are." "Just lie down." "Are you in pain?" "I don't want to ..." " I don't need to lie here ..." " Yes, do you." "Why didn't you tell me you had cancer?" "It's nothing." "Why didn't you tell me?" "As I say, it was nothing." "All I want ..." "All I want is to work." "If I can't work I have no life." "I have got to play that part." "It's the only thing I want." "I don't want anyone to know about this." "It's just over-exertion." "A bit of stress." " Bertil Molander." " Hi, darling." "Thanks for the lovely flowers." "I am looking at them now." "Are you?" "I am OK." "I'm fine." "I'll try to book you a flight home tomorrow." "No, don't do that." "They say it's just over-exertion." "I miss you." " I love you." " Baby." "Good morning." " How are you feeling?" " Fine." " Any pain?" " No." " Nausea?" " No." "Your blood pressure is fine." "Temperature normal." " So I can go back to work?" " Of course." "For as long as you can." "How lovely!" "Lovely!" " It's almost like coming home." " It's good to have you home again." "Will you lie next to me for a bit?" "Yes." "All right." "There." "This is how we used to lie." "After we'd had a fight." "When you came home from the theatre and hated Jens and the cast." "We lay here till it had passed." "This is how we lay that last evening before I went off to New York." "I remember." "What happened?" "Happened?" "To us." "You and me and Katrin?" "I don't know." "Our marriage broke up." "Was it as simple as that?" "Yes, I think so." "We can't exactly change it." "Can't we?" "No." "I don't think so." "Are you sure?" "Marko spent the night here?" "Yes, he did." "I don't know what it means." "But I am really pleased." "Look who's here!" "Hi!" "Thanks for the flowers." "They were lovely." "Thanks." " Are you all right?" " I'm fine." "Fine." "I promise I am fine." "I promise not to faint again." "I don't know about the pony tail." " You'd rather wear it up?" " I don't know." "We're discussing my hair." "What do you think?" "Up or down?" "I don't know ..." "Jette, do you mind giving us a moment on our own?" "Hi!" "What's up?" "I am back together with Tanja." "She may be moving back in soon." " When did this happen?" " We've been together five years." "And you just wanted to make a point?" " And so you used me?" " That wasn't my intention." " What does it mean for you and me?" " Eva, damn it." "We loved each other once." "A great deal." "I still love you in a way." "That is one filthy great lie." "The biggest lie of all." "That you and I could ever love anyone." "It's a lie." "You and I are incapable of love." "... Doth call himself Affection's sentinel;" "... Doth call himself Affection's sentinel;" "Gives false muting ..." "No, sorry." "Gives false alarms, suggesteth mutiny." "OK, it comes before mutiny." "Sorry." "For where Love reigns, disturbing Jealousy" "Doth call himself Affection's sentinel;" "Gives false alarms, suggesteth mutiny," "And in a peaceful hour doth cry "Kill, kill!"" "Distempering   Sorry." "For goodness sake, this will not do." "How bloody amateur!" "Calm down!" "These boxes ..." "I fell off." "Calm down!" "You are completely ..." "Calm down!" "I am rehearsing." " Give me space!" " A whole hour with no progress." "You've spent weeks just talking and talking." " What?" " We've spent all our time on you." "So you could learn your lines." "Let me tell you one thing." "Shut up while I tell you." " You know what you are?" " No." "What?" "You're jealous." "That's what you are." "Because I was married to Marko." "And because I had Katrin." "You've got in the way of my relationship with my child." "Talk about paranoid!" "I don't believe it." " Help me!" " I'll help you." " Say something!" " Don't you think ..." "Tanja ... we'll have a five-minute break." "Eva, calm down." "No, I don't want a break." "She needs to learn her lines." "Let's rehearse." " Let's take ten minutes ..." " I don't want ten minutes." "I want to work, damn it." "How do you think it's going?" "Is it sad for little Eva?" "You cry-baby!" " Stop it, mummy." " You hate me, you say." "But it's nothing compared to how much I hate you." "You cursed little bitch." ""I'm not going to die", isn't that what you say?" "Repeat after me, repeat after me:" "I am going to die." "I am going to die." " Repeat after me." " No!" " I am not going to die." " Repeat after me." "I am not going to die." "I am not going to die." "I am not ..." "Hi, Eva." " Is Katrin here?" " Yes." "Katrin?" "We have got to talk." "You've got to listen to me." " Alone." " No." "Dad stays." "I want to tell you the truth." "The way things were." "I want to tell my daughter why I left." "I tried to be a good mother to you." "I really did." "But I couldn't." "I hated being a mother." "Hated it." "It isn't anything you tell anyone." "But it's what I thought." "Forbidden thoughts." "But there we were." "You and ..." "I and your father." "And all that mattered to him was the theatre." "It was the only thing that meant anything." "All I wanted was for him to take his share of the responsibility." "Why should I give up everything?" "My life and my work?" "When things were at their bleakest   my agent phoned from London." "Would I do a film test for Woody Allen?" "I got the part." "I saw my chance to work again." "To escape ..." "I was only meant to be away for a few months." "But I knew inside that I would never come back." "But it doesn't mean I don't love you." "I love you." "I've missed you every single day since I left you." "But I suppressed it." "Because I was tormented   by guilt." "But ..." "I want you to know   that   your mother left you." "That she would rather stand in front of the camera and be famous." "That's the truth." "I admit it and I repent of it." "It's not you there's something wrong with." "It's me." "I love you." "Have you finished?" " Yes." " Fine." "In that case please leave." " Katrin, please ..." " Leave!" " Eva ..." " It's all right." "It's OK." "Fasten it tightly." "I don't know what I'd do without you." "Nor me, you." " Excuse me ... am I disturbing you?" " No, I was just going." " A full house?" " Completely." "Sold out." " It'll be a fantastic performance." " I think so, too." " Perhaps the best we've ever done." " You're nervous, I can tell." "Yes." "No need to be." "You are the best." "You always have been." "That's why you're in this production." "I love you and I always will." " Is Katrin coming?" " No." "She's moving out." "She's found a boyfriend." "It will do her good." "The tender spring upon thy tempting lip" "Shows thee unripe;" "yet mayst thou well be tasted :" "Make use of time, let not advantage slip;" "Beauty within itself   should not be wasted:" "Fair flowers that are not gather'd in their prime" "Rot and consume themselves in little time." "Had I no eyes but ears," "My ears would love" "That inward beauty and invisible;" "Or were I deaf, thy outward parts would move" "Each part in me that were but sensible:" "Though neither eyes nor ears, to hear nor see," "Yet should I be in love by touching thee." "Yes?" "The next episode" "You haven't told the theatre staff." "How will they react?" "It's hard not to be nasty." "Marko is acting as crazily as usual   and I am as calm as usual." "Maybe Marko is being a bit crazier." "Now I am not even allowed into rehearsals." "English subtitles:" "Jonathan Sydenham"