"12 million!" " 12.2." "Oh, my God." " That's what I said." "I want a baby, I just think I could have picked my time a bit better." "She's not going anywhere." " You're irreplaceable." "My daughter's ten now." "I'm ready." "Have you felt anything yet?" "Your position here is completely unassailable." "We were thinking about pulling her start date forward a month or so." "Just because you stayed at home for ten years doesn't mean I'm going to." "She wants me out so she can take over!" "I have to report it." "I will probably be suspended." "I finally know what's been going on." "This programme contains some strong language." "Hey, don't overdo it." "Let her." "How did it go?" "Well, I was fantastic." "So much for a natural birth." "Well, you held out a lot longer than I did." "Only because she was waiting for updates from the police." "Have they called?" "No." "'This is the Vodafone voicemail service for 07...'" "So that's it?" "She jumped?" "This is bullshit!" "She would never do that!" "There's no evidence of any crime." "So why would she call me over?" "Have you ever dealt with a jumper?" "They go back and forth." "And when they fall, do they scream?" "Sometimes, yeah." "There's no note." "There's no reason." "Two-thirds of suicides don't leave a note." "So that's..." "You're just going to leave it at that?" "Where WAS Paula?" "With her husband." "Oh, come on!" "That doesn't count." "You don't accuse someone of murder just because you don't get on!" "That doesn't count, either." "Who told you that?" "The office manager." "The boss." "The client." "Is this how you want to spend her first days?" "I'm sorry about Kay - it's awful." "You don't deal with it like this." "It doesn't make any sense!" "Who says it has to make sense?" "It's suicide." "It's a rabbit hole." "You're not her family." "We have a daughter." "I want this to be about us now." "It will be." "It is." "I'm sorry." "What on earth was she doing up there?" "Oh, sorry, Ellen," "I know you probably don't want to talk about it." "You must feel terrible." "I just can't sleep trying to work out why." "Did you see anyone?" "No." "Why did she call you?" "I don't know." "I just can't believe it." "After everything she did for me." "Not just the job " "I mean, she baby-sat for Caris, we had a spa booked..." "Hello!" "I thought we weren't doing visitors." "Erm, Paula..." "this is my sister Rianne." "Paula from work?" "Yeah." "THE Paula?" "Hi, it's really nice to meet you." "And you." "How is she?" "She's sleeping." "Oh" " I promise, I won't breathe." "Look, it's not a great time." "No worries." "Oh, bless you - you've had such a tricky birth." "I mean, just because you missed the first few hours, it doesn't mean anything." "There's so much rubbish talked about bonding when you have a C-section, but you did great." "Anyway, no-one cares how she got here." "Least of all her." "Right, well, it was really lovely to meet you, and call if you need anything." "Thanks very much for the flowers." "That's all right." "Bye." "What is your problem?" "She's lovely." "Oh, my God!" "She is a monster, right?" "Oh, 24-carat." "I love you." "Would a normal mother be able to leave her baby for the first time without a qualm?" "Don't let Paula get to you." "I'm not feeling anything." "No, you will in a minute." "If I was your obstetrician no way would you be out and about." "Is there anything I can do?" "There will be." "I'll let you know." "We don't have to talk about it." "She had no reason to be up there." "Maybe she heard something." "Did she say that?" "No." "But there was something she was upset about." "Do you know what?" "She thought I was having an affair." "I wasn't." "Who were you supposed to be having an affair with?" "Doesn't matter." "We had a fight and that was the last time I saw her." "Hey!" "Did she say anything to you?" "No." "No!" "Listen, this was not about you." "Don't ever think that." "Listen, David, if Ian was having an affair," "I would be devastated but I wouldn't kill myself." "This is something else." "I'd like to believe that." "Maybe there was somebody else on that roof." "Like, someone broke in, or or somebody else that had access." "No, the police have been through all that." "Are you sure?" "Ellen, what do you want me to do?" "David, I'm sor..." "I think I might have just burst my stitches," "I'm just going to go and have a look." "'We're here to remember the life of Kay Gillies." "'A much-loved daughter, sister, wife and friend.'" "This ceremony is an opportunity to celebrate Kay's life, as well as mourn her passing." "The people we love make us more human." "They become part of us... in our memories and hearts." "Who have you lost?" "Kieran." "Our first tribute is given by one of Kay's closest colleagues and personal friends..." "Shit, honey." "...Ellen Rooney." "I know on your programme it says Paula is giving this tribute, but we've decided..." "Am I right?" "...Ellen is the best person to mark this stage of the proceedings." "When I started at university, Kay was the star graduate." "She erm... she came back to mentor some of us." "And then I introduced her to to one of my tutors." "I warned David that Kay was unusual because she only worked 25 hours a day, eight days a week." "She always said she never believed in Sundays." "No such thing as a day of rest." "I think we can all agree" "Kay was a very special woman, who we will all miss dearly." "Take care of her, you." "I'll do my best." "See if you can twist her arm to bring the baby in, we're still waiting for the royal visit." "How's Kieran?" "Yeah, he's fine." "He wanted to come, but Caris is poorly." "We're not going to have trouble bonding, are we?" "No, we're not." "We're going to bond by going on little outings together." "We're going to bond by finding out whether Paula was really with her husband that night, or whether someone's telling porkies." "Ready?" "Shall we have a little break?" "Shall we pretend to phone your daddy?" "Let's do that." "Oh, it's a shame Paula's working." "She popped by, actually, to see Lia, but I was too out of it." "Oh, I'm... sure she can nip out for an hour or so." "Oh, no, no, no - don't bother her." "I can't stay that long, anyway." "I'll swing by again, It's not like I'm busy." "How's she coping?" "Same as everyone else, you know." "Total shock." "But you were right there - you've had it worse." "I don't know." "I'm wondering if it's... harder if you DON'T witness it." "It makes it harder to sink in, maybe." "Where were you?" "When it happened?" "Oh, no, no, no - when you were told." "At home." "Hm." "Yeah, we were at home all evening." "With Caris?" "No, she wasn't." "She was... on a... a sleepover thing." "You should have brought more stuff with you, Mum!" "Hi!" "Hello!" "I thought you might need me a bit longer after the operation." "It's called a cry for help." "Ian!" "Have you been putting the wind up your mother?" "Here you go - here she is." "Oh, hello!" "Hello, you!" "She's not a psychiatrist." "She's a psychotherapist." "Jesus, between the two of them you might as well be in the funny farm." "I know." "What's a funny farm?" "A funny farm is where you go when you do funny things." "Or... people THINK you're being funny but actually you're being completely serious." "When I say that we're managing without you," "I don't want you to think that we're not missing you to bits." "I don't want you to put yourself under any pressure to come back this early just because of..." "Kay." "I want to be here." "Sleep on it - that's all I'm asking." "Well, now that I AM here, can I catch up with a few things or are you literally chucking me out?" "I can use the meeting room." "Use Kay's, and don't make a thing of it." "OK." "Hi." "Kieran said she's gorgeous." "Well, I'm not going to argue with that." "Have you got any photos?" "Only about eleven hundred." "There she is." "Oh!" "Aw!" "She's got your nose." "Yeah." "Caris looks nothing like me." "Oh, I'd love to meet her some time." "Yeah, I'd love that." "Well, why don't I bring Lia over and we can have a family dinner?" "God, listen to me, just inviting myself round!" "No, we-we..." "I'd love that - we should definitely do that." "Well, shoot me some dates." "Great, I will." "OK." "Ssh!" "Hiya." "'Where the fuck ARE you?" "'" "I'm at work." "What's the problem?" "I'll give you a clue." "Sh-sh-sh-sh-sh." "Well, look in the freezer." "I pumped gallons." "She's not interested." "I'll be home in an hour." "Oh, great!" "I'll tell HER that." "Mummy's in the freezer." "Her phone?" "Yeah - did you keep it?" "Wh-Why would you want Kay's phone?" "Because there might be something on it." "You know, I don't know what makes you think that you've got more of a right to be upset about this than I have." "Kay thought you were having an affair." "Was it with Paula?" "Look, I don't think you were having an affair," "I don't believe you even entertained the notion of having an affair - but that she lives in hope, that I can believe." "You mean, I gave her enough encouragement to push my wife off a roof." "If you're so sure there's nothing dodgy, just let me see Kay's phone and if there's nothing on it, I won't bother you again." "That's a deal." "Great, let's do it." "Right." "Password for you, you're sorted..." "Have a good root round and let me know when you're done!" "I know you're doing this because you love her, but will you stop now?" "Can I ask one question?" "Do you know someone called Georgia?" "Someone else I'm screwing?" "I never thought that was the reason." "As long as Paula did it." "What was she doing here before?" "It was the first time she's been over." "That's not true, David." "I saw her lipstick upstairs when I was here before." "Maybe Kay borrowed it." "Women don't do that." "Oh, do they not?" "Do they not give presents, either?" "You used to give Kay shit all the time." "Why the fuck are we even discussing this?" "Just please go home, Ellen." "Just go home." "Hi." "Did she settle?" "I'm afraid he called Lucy, so he knows when you left the office." "Right." "You feel she was pushed?" "It's more than a feeling." "By the woman who replaced you?" "I know." "I have factored that in." "Have you tried talking to her?" "That might work in group, but it's not a good recipe for the office." "You don't have to accuse her of anything - just get to know her." "The more you talk to someone who's disturbed, the more they reveal themselves." "No bonding with Grandma, OK?" "Are you pretending to be asleep?" "I'm pretending to be a parent." "You leave at eight in the morning and you're back at midnight." "You just had a baby - by fucking Caesarian." "Yeah, you don't need to remind me, I'm the one on the painkillers." "Where were you?" "He just lost his wife." "I'm not going to apologise for being there." "Did it never occur to you that Lia might need YOU, not just your milk?" "Hi." "I wanted to say sorry to you for the way I behaved towards you." "Honestly, I totally understand." "I invaded your space, your relationships" " I'd be freaking out." "Well, you kept this place going, so thank you." "Thanks." "Hey!" "Surprise!" "Hi." "Hi!" "I don't think we've been properly introduced." "I saw you outside once, you looked like you were having a bit of a bad day." "Someone gave me a terrible haircut." "Oh, bad hair day." "That is the worst." "It's looking good now, though." "Is this your office?" "No, sweetheart, I'm just minding it." "Did you need something?" "Oh, just these." "Have you been to an architect's office before?" "Do you want a little tour?" "I have to go to the dentist." "I can show you some of the models of the things we're going to build." "It'll only take two seconds." "No." "Work's not as interesting as we think, is it?" "So when are you bringing Lia in?" "Tomorrow." "Well, I should hope so," "I never thought you'd meet mine before I met yours." "Right, come on." "I'll see you in a bit." "Bye." "'Hello?" "'" "Hi, am I speaking to Georgia?" "'Who's this?" "'" "My name's Ellen." "I got your number from a colleague - she said you might be prepared to talk to me about an architectural project." "'Who's your colleague?" "'" "Kay." "'She called up a few weeks ago and never followed up, though.'" "I would love to follow up on her behalf." "Do you have a window in the next couple of days?" "'I've got your number, so I'll check my diary.'" "Fantastic." "Fantastic." "It would be great if you had some time this week." "'What's the project?" "'" "Er, it's... actually a little bit sensitive," "I'd rather talk about it in person if that's OK." "'OK." "And what's your practice again?" "'" "Gillies Warnock Partners." "'OK." "I'll be in touch." "Ellen...'" "Rooney." "Thank you." "Thanks so much." "'No worries." "Bye.' Bye." "If you're taking her in, I'm going to escape till tomorrow night." "Well, I really appreciate your help." "I've had some good chats with Paula, we're getting on much better." "Keep your enemies close wasn't what I meant." "You don't want me be honest - you want me to pretend everything's fine." "Pretend better." "Ian's worried about you." "Because you told him to be." "I haven't said a word of what you discussed with me, much as you might have liked me to." "But he's not stupid, so don't treat him like he is." "So, you any closer to proving Paula did it?" "After you promised me you'd stop." "I never promised anything." "I think you'll find that was all in your head." "I said I wanted this to be about us." "You two are the most important thing in my world, but you are not the whole world." "Any reason why she might have done it?" "She's got a crush on David." "And what's the evidence for that?" "How about if I take the rest of the week off?" "Rest of the week after tomorrow." "Hey, who's this?" "Aww!" "Yeah, this is Mummy's office." "Oh, my God, she's so beautiful." "It's a lot of people, isn't it?" "Aw, let's have a look." "Aw, Lia!" "Can I?" "Come on." "Hello!" "Careful." "Hello." "Oh, that's it, yes!" "Yes, treasure." "What I wouldn't give to start over." "Hello." "Hello..." "Oh!" "Yeah, bring her into the office - won't cause any disruption, no-one'll make a big deal(!" ")" "Are you thirsty?" "You thirsty?" "Yes, yes, you are." "Shall I take her?" "Yes, you are." "There you go." "I've got you." "Yeah, she needs a drink." "Let me have a look at her." "Goodness gracious me." "She's beautiful." "She's like, "What's that up there?"" "Guys, come on." "Sign's up - tits out, it's not rocket science." "Vernon, what are you doing in here?" "You texted me to come in." "No, I said use MY office, this is Ellen's space now." "Sorry, Vernon." "Sorry, Ellen." "Sorry, Vernon - that's not usually how I greet a client after a three-month break." "How are you?" "Me and Vernon had a bet." "He was September, I was mid-October." "Well - here I am in June, so I win." "She's actually had plenty." "I was nearly finished anyway, I'm about to head to a meeting." "SHE tells you when she's finished, doesn't she?" "Trust a man to tell us how to do babies." "She has to learn how to self-soothe." "What, at four weeks?" "She'll settle in a minute." "Project looks like it's in really good shape." "She sounds like my investors." "So - how do you feel about... a promotion?" "I need someone to look at the bigger picture and I can't do it on my own." "You want me to take over from Kay?" "Well, that's not quite how I'D put it, but... yeah." "What about the library?" "Paula's handling it." "Vernon has got used to her, that's all." "The library means something to me." "Me too." "Sorry." "So we're fine." "I've got a meeting - can I go?" "Who with?" "Jarman McCreadie." "I'm late." "Have I told you I love you today?" "Mm?" "Sweet girl." "Hi." "Did Ellen say where she was going for lunch?" "I need her to sign something." "Someone out of Jarman McCreadie." "I thought they'd closed." "Must be someone looking for a job." "Do you know them?" "I did a bit of work a couple of years ago for them." "It's fine." "I'll see if I can catch her." "OK." "Georgia!" "Georgia!" "Wait!" "Hey!" "Can you not harass me, please?" "I just want to ask you a couple of questions." "You said you wanted to talk about a project." "Did Paula just call and warn you off?" "If you try this again," "I will contact your employer." "I cannot talk to you." "I just want to know what you were going to tell Kay." "I don't KNOW any Kay and I don't know you." "Please don't contact me again." "Oh, God, I'm sorry..." "I'm sorry." "I'm so sorry." "I'm terribly sorry!" "I'll sort you out of this." "Ssh..." "Hey." "Congratulations." "I think I've probably got you to thank." "Kay would be really proud of you." "Well, shall we celebrate?" "Yeah." "Your place?" "My place?" "Probably easier to do it at yours." "I wouldn't mind a night out, actually." "Forgotten what it feels like!" "I'd love to meet Caris properly." "Yeah, great." "So..." "Friday?" "Great." "Snoring." "You left her in a locked car." "Oh, God..." "I did, I know." "It was for one minute, though." "I know that's too long..." "Ten." "..but I swear it..." "What?" "It was ten minutes." "That's..." "Where are you getting that from?" "That's a lie." "That is a lie." "I would NEVER do that." "Maybe it just felt like a couple of minutes." "Who took this?" "Police wouldn't say." "It's Paula." "What - again?" "And did she make you leave our one-month-old baby in a locked car?" "It was for one minute, Ian - it wasn't ten!" "This is her word against mine now, they can't just prosecute me on her say-so." "We've got history." "No, Ellen, you've got history." "False accusations." "Mental health history." "Don't go there." "We now have to figure out how to play social services." "Yeah." "And if you contradict them, you'll make it worse." "No!" "No, I am not going to admit to something that I didn't do." "There are two witnesses." "It's Georgia!" "They know each other!" "Just listen to me!" "You left her in a locked car." "Whether it was one minute, or five minutes, or 20 minutes, just... take responsibility." "If you come out with any of this..." "conspiracy talk in front of them you mi... you might as well just hand our daughter over." "Are you hearing me?" "Yeah." "Now, we have to work together on this." "Just tell me what to say, I'll say anything." "I'll give you some talking points." "You need to be careful, they know I'm a psychiatrist, and they weren't born yesterday." "OK." "Yeah?" "Yeah." "Why do you think you left Lia crying inside a locked car for ten minutes?" "Yeah, I understand what you're saying." "I think I've been trying to blame everyone except myself, but actually it's it's about me, and my relationship with Lia my relationship with myself." "After my mother died, I got depressed." "I had some therapy." "That's how I met my husband, and he helped me understand some things about my family dynamic." "Erm..." "Some of those issues resurfaced after the baby was born, and... the death of my mentor figure at work." "I've just been projecting my own fears." "But I think that now I'm able to talk about it and... and name it, I feel really sure it won't ever happen again." "Let's talk some more about what was on your mind when you left her in the car." "So what happens next?" "They'll put together a support package." "Random checks." "You can't afford to make any more mistakes." "You're on probation." "With you too?" "You did well." "Do you still love me?" "Yes!" "Do we still have to go to Paula's?" "It's going to look terrible if we don't now, isn't it?" "I've just made a big show of how I'm over it." "Let's do it." "Let's just do it." "Yeah, it's pretty much how we bought it." "We had lots of plans, but life gets in the way." "Wow - it's an amazing space, though." "Oh, thank you." "Where's Caris this evening?" "Oh, she's at a sleepover." "Oh, that's a shame." "Hello, how you doing?" "Nice to see you." "How you doing, Kieran?" "Hey, man." "I'm sorry about Kay." "Well, we won't talk about that just now, eh?" "We're celebrating a promotion." "I've got an idea, let's ban all work talk - how about that?" "100%." "OK." "No work, no babies." "Oh, that's not fair!" "So is Caris going to be an architect when SHE grows up?" "No." "No?" "What is she into, then?" "Sports, mainly." "Oh, cool - which ones?" "You said no babies - this was your rule." "Oh - who's Georgia?" "She called the office the other day, I think it was Georgia." "I think she used to work for Jarman McCreadie - you did a little stint there, didn't you?" "Yeah." "Two or three years ago." "What did she want?" "Oh, I don't know." "I was just in your office and I picked up." "We said no work." "YOU said." "This is social." "Sorry, I forgot to pass the message on." "It's fine." "I'm sure I've got her number." "She said you did, yep." "They shut down, didn't they?" "Ian, do you get bored of people asking you for medical advice at dinner parties?" "No, it's all right." "Try me." "Well, it's not me, it's... someone I know." "Right." "Yeah, he's happily married except she's got these I guess you'd call them mental health issues." "But they won't see anyone, so how do you persuade someone that they need help?" "Well, "mental health issues" er... covers a pretty broad spectrum." "Well, someone who has a problem accepting reality." "Well, what's so great about reality?" "As long as they're not hurting anyone." "Well, she's hurting HERSELF." "I'm sure she's the best judge of that." "I actually know exactly what you mean." "I've had it up to here with people telling me the reality of being a mother." "Well, I'd love to help, but erm... alcohol and mental health issues, they don't really mix." "Are we done here?" "Something's off, don't tell me you can't feel it." "They're hiding her." "Let's just get out of here." "I'm..." "I'm sorry, Paula, I think we're going to have to go." "I've just got a text, and Lia's playing up." "I'm really sorry." "Don't be silly." "Just go." "You go." "I'll..." "I'll stay." "I've had three-quarters of a bottle of wine." "It's fine" " Kieran'll take you." "This is ridiculous." "It's fine." "Just go." "I don't think we should leave these two alone." "No." "If it's not now, it'll just be some other time." "Yeah." "May as well be now." "Just go." "Why won't you just leave me alone?" "Says the woman that reported me to social services." "If you're not even going to admit that, what's there to talk about?" "Why would I kill her?" "David." "I'm not the one in love with him." "OK - sooner or later, I'm going to get to Georgia, and I'm going to find out what you're hiding." "Ellen..." "I'm asking you, from one mother to another leave it alone." "If she won't talk to me, Paula, someone will." "Maybe your Kieran." "He had a bit of a wobble tonight, didn't he?" "Or shall I just get someone to ask Caris straight out whether you were here the night that Kay died?" "She knows something." "Where is she?" "If motherhood is the highlight of your life, why aren't you the proud parent showing her off?" "Do you remember when I touched you, and I felt your baby?" "Yeah." "You didn't like it, did you?" "No." "Because you felt violated." "Yeah." "Because it's not public property." "What's your point?" "What you're doing to me is exactly the same." "It's none of your business." "I have no idea..." "I am just asking you where your daughter is." "Fine." "You win." "You think she was involved in Kay's death?" "Was she with you the night that it happened?" "I thought this was about Kay." "But now it's something that you have to do for him?" "Do you believe that Kay knew this and didn't tell you?" "That's between me and my dead wife." "You need to have a think about who should be at the centre of your life." "Not Kay, not me and not you!" "Stay away from her." "I would." "If she would stay away from me." "You and Kay, you're just the same - selfish." "Is that why you killed her?" "You show me a photograph of my dead wife, in front of her memorial." "Is that supposed to convince me that you haven't lost it?" "When you accept you've got a problem and start addressing it," "THEN we can have a conversation about Lia." "All I want is to see her!" "I have to see her." "I'm going to lose my mind." "She needs a mother, Ellen."