"There are times in my life when going to jail would not be totally out of the realm of possibility." "I think, I'm a pretty good judge of character." "I think, I'm gonna keep to myself, learn the lay of the land and then see who it's safe to interact with." "I hate this." "It's like high school all over." "There's somebody claiming that they're a Blood that nobody recognizes." "It's just a respect thing." "You aint tough, man." "I had more pieces." "I don't give a." "All right then, stop talking about it." "I'm talking about it then." "Mentally, man, I feel drained, man." "You got concerns about your safety or anything, just put your hands behind your neck, and I would indicate that they need to come talk to me." "I can't wait to get the heck out of here." "That kid almost pushed me to the edge," "I just can't let that happen." "I'm not going to catch real charges in here 'cause of some kid thinking hard." "Rico, he's my cellmate, and I think he's a standup guy." "I respect the heck out of him." "Bottom row, come around, come get a tray, stand by your door." "He's like, "Yo if you ever get into it in here"," ""I'm your cellmate." "I got your back."" "You know what I'm saying?" ""I'm not gonna let nothing happen to you here."" "You know what I'm saying?" "I was like man I'm ready to go home man, I have to admit." "They better come get me up outta her, for real." "Yo, yo, yo!" "I was gonna sit right in front of that camera like this, yo!" "Wish I had more channels up in here man, for real." "I was gonna be real loud too." "But I thought about it, I kind of rationalized to myself." "And just thought about it for a second, and you know what?" "And then I'm like I gotta get through this and I stick it out." "I am just intrigued with the criminal mind, so I don't know where that will land me in the criminal justice field but I know that's where I belong." "That's where my passion is." "Today, ladies, we're gonna make sure the pod is clean, your rooms are clean and your bed has to be made like the book." "This getting on my nerves, dang!" "If it's not done correctly, the TV will not come on today." "If I catch a bed not made, you will go in." "That is the rules of Fulton County Jail." "So, go back in, ladies, when we pop you out, it need to be cleaned up tidy." "I'm doing this for a reason." "But, I guess this is a lot different than I thought it would be." "I thought it would be hard, but I didn't think it would be this hard." "It's dirty, it's gross, it's mold, it's peeling paint." "Your bathroom's like the sink and the toilet, they're attached." "The mirror, you can't really see yourself." "Like, it smells gross." "It's just crazy, it's crazy." "We can't clean because we don't have any trash cans." "We don't have any trash." "Trash, I know she said." "We're supposed to get our trashes?" "I wanted to do this, to make a change in the criminal justice system." "But living here in this place like animals," "I'm just worried about, like, my health, my mental health and my physical health." "We gonna ride on you homeless!" "You not gonna get no fade,." "Too Tall was yelling at somebody and he was like," ""You ain't part of this." "You ain't part of that."" "It's getting kind of rowdy in the dorm, the tensions kind of building and I'm like, man, they about to fight." "Know who I am, fool?" "You know who I am?" "You know who I am?" "You a bitch ass." "You a ho." "We just beat his bitch ass bro." "Know who I am?" "It's hard for me to watch six guys gang up on one." "Too Tall is basically a worthless individual." "He's picking on the weak just because he's got some other kids behind him that are backing him up." "I'll make sure I'm not looking as I feel, 'cause of course I'm nervous." "When he fell on the ground they started stomping him while he was on the ground." "They should have just left it at that." "I was just like, I knew somebody from tower was looking." "I was like, man, somebody gonna be here any minute." "And I'm just like, nobody's coming." "Damn brah." "So, you should be prepared what comes with your actions." "If the guards did see blood, maybe that's part of the system, you know." "You don't want people coming to jail thinking that it's awesome." "I'm not gonna pop no pill to satisfy them." "I'm not gonna drink no hooch to satisfy them." "I don't pop pills in the real world." "It's like peer pressure in here." "I know I'm not perfect but the things that they do," "I don't do." "So, I feel like I don't want to be a part of that." "I wanna know what she did." "I went back up to my room." "Everybody stop talking was looking at me." "That's like a dead giveaway." "When I was a CO, inmates talked about me but at that point, I had my coworkers behind me." "In here, I'm by myself." "I don't have a walkie talkie or radio." "I don't have mace, I just have me." "I did not think it would be this hard." "I thought it would just kind of be like, whatever." "The other day, I'm gonna rest, I'm gonna chill," "I'm not gonna do anything, but it's not like that." "Ladies in I-Pod, if you take medication, come on down." "Y'all ready?" "You ready to go?" "Sydney's 20, she's just so sweet but then there's like the dark side of Sydney." "I'm in for credit card fraud." "I did it 'cause of drugs." "The drugs I was doing, like, were depressants mainly and like makes you way worse off and it made life a lot harder." "We have about 200 female inmates in our facility." "Our main concern is how they're misusing the prescription meds that we give them." "People that take that don't want to take it, like Tiny." "She sells it and so she does it for like two items of commissary." "Having Michelle being able to observe, she's part of the environment now." "So, if she's watching and cataloging this mentally, it is very valuable to us." "Is the go to." "That with mixed is really good." "It's like their brain is conditioned." "Jail, jail, jail, that's what they're used to." "Why would you take that risk, like why?" "I don't get it." "I need to observe and I need to find out." "And if I don't, I'm gonna feel like I failed." "With snorting you get the whole pill and it's straight to the head so that's way quicker." "Working on it well." "I got a 20." "Like it, I got two on like." "Roll bitch roll, roll bitch roll." "Yeah, I'm saying three, man." "They're gonna let you out, they're gonna have to extend you to pay off your case." "One of the advantages of being a Marine is that I have experiences dealing with people in confined, stressful environments." "I'll talk to anybody." "I think I get that from the military." "Just trying to make the time go by." "Conversation is one of those things that make that happen." "Rob and I were definitely comrades in this situation." "When you meet somebody that was in the Marine Corps, regardless of what time it was, whether it was Korea," "Vietnam, you're brothers, always that's the way it is." "That's the way the Marine Corps is, always faithful." "My name is Rob, I'm 28 years old." "There's a lot of us that go through the military and get out and we have a rough time transitioning." "This is my 10th time being arrested." "I didn't get no treatment in the military for PTSD and a brain injury." "It's sad and its really pathetic." "My brother has PTSD." "It's a really tragic situation." "I feel for those kids that came back from the war like that." "It's ridiculous." "Yeah." "Talking to Rob and knowing that he had the posttraumatic stress, and talking about his experiences." "Rob is high strung." "He's got a little bit of impulse control." "I'm worried he'll do things that could potentially be dangerous to him." "If something happened with him," "I'd have to hop in and help him out." "Marine Corps, that's a brotherhood that never goes away." "Girl, you don't even smoke weed." "Actually..." "I asked one of the girls." "I was like, is there tension in the room?" "You know, cause I'm one of the type of people, if there's a problem let's just solve it and move on with it and she's was like," ""No, no there's no problem."" "So I was like, okay, cool." "Nobody here's your friend, you don't make friends." "A lot of people prey on what you say and they'll use it against you." "You have some people that's like," ""Who this hoe?" "What she doin' in here?"" "People are just trying to create drama because they think somebody said something about them." "I was bullied in high school really bad." "They made me feel like I would never be anybody or nobody would ever wanna be my friend." "I hate this, it's like high school all over." "Just come right in here." "It's our special room." "Most of my room like don't nobody like me in there because they feel like I feel like I'm better than them because last night I didn't want none of the liquor or none of the whippet 'cause they had like Seroquel" "and all types of pills in there and I don't, you know," "I'm not gonna indulge in all that." "So, they been all talking about me behind my back when I walk in, people stare at me." "When I'm sitting there, they just staring at me." "This gonna be a long 60 days." "I mean, this is, you're here." "You're strong, right?" "Yeah, this the first time" "I've been able to just let it out." "Like I couldn't hold it no more." "That's why I did the signal 'cause I couldn't keep holding it in." "I feel uncomfortable, scared, irritated, and I just really just wanna go home." "That's all I keep thinking about." "Like I'm counting down days 'til when I can go home, but I gotta keep remembering that I'm here for a reason." "I'm here to be a better social worker." "I'm gonna try to stick it out." "I'm not a quitter and I don't want to quit and I'm not gonna quit." "Growing up in school, girls bullied me all the way up to high school to the point to where I had to leave." "Pull." "I'm not gonna give in like I did in high school and let them win." "Rob's a friend for sure, but we were friends before we met because of the Marine Corps, you know, that's how it works." "He's got some things about him that he can't necessarily control." "Open up the door 500." "All right gentlemen." "Y'all get on the wall, please." "In Rob's mind he did combat, he was in the Marine Corps." "These guards are nobody." "They're just the people right now that are telling him what to do that he doesn't wanna do." "Robert is struggling." "I know so many people that have gone through what he is going through." "It's sad." "Bitch!" "He has no problem telling one of these Bloods," ""Go yourself."" "And that'll cause a problem for me because I can't watch him get beat down by six dudes." "One of my main goals since I've been in here is to really understand the routine of the Pod." "I also wanna make sure that I'm aware of the power shifts as inmates move in and out." "A new inmate came in today." "His name is Jason, he's kind of weird dude." "I mean, he's a weird dude." "I'm held over 33 days, I am officially CIA." "CIA legacy illuminati heir." "I looked at my man." "I'm seeing him slide down the pole." "He like, "whoo"." "You know what I mean?" "Like, what the hell, like it's a stripper pole or something." "I don't know what the hell is going on." "I don't know what that was all about or why he was doing it but it definitely garnered attention." "Walking into the pod it's pretty hard not to notice Sims." "He's the tallest, biggest guy." "He's the pod boss or the father figure." "He gets things a lot from going on and a lot of people don't want to say nothing to him 'cause they don't want no problem." "You know what I'm saying?" "Done, done!" "I am worried about what could happen him." "Anybody could become a target very easily." "His particular situation, he's a much higher risk to be a target." "I cry Allah, Allah, Allah." "I'm not Muslim." "My mother was murdered." "I'm not Muslim." "Where's my home?" "My first instinct is to really jump in and get involved and try to make some sense out of all this." "Even try to pull Sims aside maybe but that's not gonna happen 'cause he's too animated at this point." "Yes Ma'am?" "Okay, either you got to explain to him how that zone's ran." "He ain't listening." "So, I will explain to him how that zone's ran." "I tried to explain to him how it was ran but he got violent." "That's what I'm trying to tell you." "If he can't act like an adult." "Well, he not trying to act like no adult." "That's what I'm trying to get one of y'all to say something to him before I have to say something to him." "I will, I will, stand by, stand by." "I will take him in a room and show him that this is not a baby camp and be ready to suffer the consequences." "By the time the police get in there to break us up," "I'm quite sure four or five of us can make you feel some pain that you don't wanna feel." "I did told the man he better get off the top tier." "Allah." "What the?" "Man, I gotta get up outta here boy!" "Michelle does not seem like she belongs here." "The way her toenails look and she was just stand offish like me and she wasn't rowdy like the other inmates." "Neither you." "It's nerve wracking I was gonna get a cellmate just because you never know who's gonna come in here." "I have no idea who this person is or what they're capable of." "My name's Nate." "Desmond, he's definitely been in the streets." "This is a hard guy." "Like, you know this kid's pretty tough." "Desmond knows the ins and outs." "I feel that his knowledge, his experiences in here." "He definitely could be a very big part of my strategy to find out how any issues are going on in here." "I ultimately decided to befriend him because I felt like it's the right thing to do if it was my son or my friend or family member or anybody that I know that was in that situation," "I would hope that somebody would do the same thing for them." "I'm crazy enough to come to jail for 60 days so I'm crazy enough just to step in and do this too, so." "There is a chance that I could be putting myself in harm." "After talking to him, at least he knows that he's not totally alone and by himself." "When I was first being bullied," "I thought I couldn't handle it, but going through that has actually made me feel stronger." "I had to deal with situations head on." "I just, it just made me stronger." "I can't help it." "I feel like Bri is one of those people that she says what she wants to say no matter how mean it is." "I feel like she needs to really work on that." "From now on, if they start bullying," "I am just gonna speak up." "I gotta keep remembering that I'm here for a reason." "I didn't know that you didn't like me but now that I know, we're cool." "Absolutely!" "When I first got here," "I was feeling bullied and I felt like" "I thought I couldn't stand up for myself." "But now I feel like I have the courage and the strength and I can do that now." "I think more than likely, as far as how Rob looked at in the pod," "I'm pretty sure they probably think he's basically insane." "But, he's a good guy, he's my brother." "I thought long and hard about it and I think I would risk catching charges to stand by him." "Rob, he's got impulse control and he doesn't really respect their authority." "So, it's tough for him to keep his mouth shut." "As far as what I'm getting out of this experience, already a different view on post-traumatic stress in Marines and veterans that are incarcerated in the system." "Maybe necessarily they shouldn't even be incarcerated." "Maybe they should be in therapy." "So, not only is Rob on lockdown but this time the CO's took his bed away also." "They think it's kind of correct his behavior, honestly, it's gonna have the opposite effect." "Do I think the system helps the veterans?" "Not specifically, no." "That's why I'm doing this." "If I can improve the system in any way and make that situation happen more quickly or more effectively, then that's why I'm doing it." "I've been spending time watching Michelle." "The way she keeps to herself, and doesn't interact with the other inmates is peculiar." "I've been suspecting that Michelle could possibly be in the program." "When I was for sure, for sure that I knew she was with us," "I wrote on a piece of paper." "Jessica's admitting to me that she's a part of the program and I really don't know what to do." "They call me white Mike, that's pretty cool." "I mean I do, but I can't say nothing." "I'm just playing along." "Everybody, come out and put you backs to the wall." "They're doing the shake down." "They shaking the dorm down." "Lookin' for knives and stuff we're not supposed to have in the dorm." "It's like rain pouring, the water was like gushing down." "It was really nasty because I knew it came from a toilet." "I don't have to deal with this." "I don't have to be here and endure this living." "I'm over it, I'm over it." "I eat tomorrow." "Food in here is money, so over something so tiny, it can really get you hurt." "If you come across as weak, the rest of your days will be hell."