"Previously on "Felicity"..." "Then why did you get married in the first place?" " It was a very difficult time..." " I you really wanted to finish college... and that's how you felt..." "I just..." "I don't understand." "You're you pregnant?" "There are so many reasons why we got married." "Oh, my God." "I'm late." "What?" "And I'm never late." "Oh." "My God." "What?" "This has got to be the worst graphic of all time with this woman sitting on the toilet." "I mean, who designed this thing?" "So I just pee on this thing and... and we know?" "Uh, "place over tip..." ""5 seconds on a smooth surface "and after 2 minute..."" "Wow!" "It only takes 2 minutes." "Does it say anything about how many days late you have to be 'cause maybe it's too early." "No." "Any day after you're late." "Um, "blue is no, and pink is..."" "Well, pink is not no." "What if this is a waste of time?" "What if I'm just tense?" "Just maybe my cycle's just screwed up because of stress." "Yeah, maybe." "That happens to a lot of people, right?" " Yeah." " Yeah." "So... so we don't have to do this right now." "I mean, if you don't want to." "Maybe we don't need to." "I mean, I have been feeling tense lately." "I told you I blew that Czarist Costumes quiz..." "Which is a stressful thing." "And, um, I have been breaking out and... feeling kind of crampy and..." "Oh, cramps are fantastic." "You know, I mean..." "We don't have to do this right now." "We... we can just..." "we'll hold onto this... and if we need to use it later... we can." "OK." "OK." " You two are lucky." " How are we lucky?" "Because!" "Dean Alison." "I'm surprised he didn't make a bigger example of you." "Breaking into the pool?" "You mean because we're not getting expelled?" " Expelled?" "Come on." "It was swimming." " No, it was drinking." "It was swimming while drunk." "I mean, you were there." "Do you remember that?" "Or were you too drunk?" "No, I..." "I remember." "Community service." "That's your punishment." "It will be 50 hours each to be completed by semester's end." " 50 hours?" " That's nuts!" "How are we supposed to go to school and do 50 hours of community service?" "Ergo punishment." " Come on." "That's stupid." " Ben." "I'm just saying nobody got hurt." "What kind of community service?" "You got a list to choose from." "Let me know which ones you want to do." "The Humane Society one isn't available anymore." "You still got to keep your regular appointments with me." "So we got to do community service and we got to come here." "You know what?" "I would change your tone with me right about now." "I'm the one who came up with that number 50." "And it can get higher if I want it to." "I want you to choose your community service by the end of the week." "Hi." "I'm Julie Emrick." "Eric's told me so much about you and your company and..." "I can't believe I'm talking to myself." "OK." "I..." "Hi, I'm Julie." "Oh, yeah, it's really great to meet you, too." "Yeah." "Oh, you liked it?" "Oh, good!" "That's so good." "Thank y..." "What?" " Uh, you don't see someone else in that mirror?" " Right?" " No." "Good." "Eric and I are going to meet..." "the head guy from Pop Rocks." "I was..." "I was practicing." "Oh!" "Hey, you know what?" "Practice on me." " What?" " Yeah, go ahead." "Just pretend I'm him." " Sean." " Come on." "It'll help." "Trust me." "OK." "Hi, I'm Julie." "You're signed." "Yeah, I want you." "Uh, Betty, get me those contracts!" " Sean." " I'm serious." "That's what I would do." " I'd just sign you." " Come on!" " What time is your meeting?" " 4:00." "OK, it's only noon." "4:00 tomorrow." "Phew." "OK, you got big problems." "Yeah." "I know." "OK." "Hi." "I'm Julie Emrick." "Hi." "Javier said you just left work." " Yeah." " You hear that?" "I said Javier." "I said it right, right?" "Yeah, that was good." "It was good." "Yeah, I'm meeting my dad for dinner." "Oh, yeah?" "How's your dad doing?" " Um... he's all right, I guess." " Yeah?" "I don't know." "It's weird." "I..." "I can barely look him in the eyes anymore." " It's just..." "I don't know." "It's uncomfortable." " Yeah." "Did that happen to you when your parents split up?" "Yeah." "It's weird for a while seeing them alone... and seeing them as these separate people." "It's strange." "Yeah." "So Pavone said that you're gonna do the health center." "Well, yeah, you know." "She said make the most of the situation... and I kinda always wanted to volunteer there when I was premed, so..." "How 'bout you?" "What'd you pick?" "Yeah, actually, the health center." "You what?" "Yeah, it's the same thing as you." "I've always wanted to do it..." "What?" "What is that... what do you mean?" "What is that reaction?" " I don't know." " What?" "!" " I guess I just can't imagine you..." " You can't imagine me helping people?" "No, no!" "I meant..." "Look, I can't imagine myself doing anything but I think it'll be good." "I'm pretty psyched about it." "Well, you don't mind that I'm doing it, do you?" "No!" "No, I think it's great." "Good." "Hi." "What if Elena walks in?" "She's pulling an all-nighter with her sexy new lab partner." "You really should stop referring to him that way." "I know, but she hates it so much..." "Here goes..." "OK." "So just now... now gently lay it down on a smooth surface." " We want blue, right?" " Yes." "Yes." "Blue is good." "Two minutes till blue." "It seems so fast." "How could something like that tell us something so fast?" "Um... well, there's... there's various chemicals and it just... it causes a... reaction." "No, I know how it works." "It's just..." "it's so bizarre how... this little white stick can basically give you the most important news of your life." "Do you see anything?" "No." "Nothing." "Ahem." "Wait... no." "One minute." "Be blue." "Come on, blue." "Be blue." "OK, think of..." "think of blue things." "The sky." "Wild blueberries." "Suede shoes." "Blue." "I can't think of anything blue." "Mold." "Sometimes mold's blue." "Thirty seconds." "Be blue." " Please..." " Is that a color?" "Wait, I think..." "Is that a color?" "Is that..." "Is that sort of a... a blue hue... around the edge?" "No." "All the doctors are volunteers." "Technically." "We're a campus service... but the University gives us nothing so we're completely funded by donations and run by volunteers." "And people doing community service." "Yeah." "To be honest, we try to stay away from the com serves." " The com serves?" " Yeah, you guys." "You pop in, you do your time, you're outta here." "You usually make it more of a mess when you leave than anything." "If it was up to me, I wouldn't have you here... but it's university policy." "Um, actually, we chose this place." " We really want to help." " Yeah." "Well, that's great." "This is the check-in desk." "Nobody gets by here without an appointment." "Records are going on the computer system." "I don't think you're up for that but I can have you answering phones." "It's pretty simple:" ""Student health care center." Try to be as friendly as possible." "Kids who phone in here sometimes are really nervous, OK?" "Yeah." "What do you mean, you won't be up to that?" " What does that mean?" " Computers." "Yeah, it's just data entry but we're using Excel, so it's a fairly complicated process." " Yeah." "I can do that." " You have experience with Excel" "Yeah." "I work summers at my dad's office and we use Excel all the time." "Well, that's great then." "Sounds like you're up to it." "Thanks." "That puts you on phones." "Don't give out any opinions or advice or anything at all." " We don't need to get sued, OK?" " I wouldn't do that." "OK, good." "Got a computer free for you over here." "There's a stack of files next to it." "They need to be entered in, so, uh, get started." "Love that guy!" " You know Excel?" " Yeah." "Sure." "You want something to eat?" "No." "Want coffee, anything?" "Wanna go anywhere?" "Maybe I should keep it." "OK." "OK." "Then I'd ask you what happens next." "Do you quit school?" "Do we both quit school?" "Get married and get jobs?" "You don't have to do anything." "Well, how were you gonna take care of it?" "What, I'm not..." "I'm not smart enough to raise a child?" "Ruby." "That's not what I said at all." "You know that." "I could get a job." "OK." "OK, what kind of job would you get?" "I mean..." "I mean, what kind of job... can an 18-year-old get... that pays enough to support a child?" "I mean, I'm..." "I'm just..." "I'm just asking." "I don't want to be pregnant." "Hi." "Can I help you?" "I had a nose bleed this morning." "OK." "I think I'm a hemophiliac." "Who are you?" "I'm..." "Who are you?" "Lloyd." "I don't know you." "Lloyd, you know you have to be a student to come in here." " I know." " I know you know." "Thank you, Greg." "You're welcome, Lloyd." "What was that all about?" "Lloyd." "He's been coming around here as long as I've been here." "One time his whole leg was wrapped in gauze." "He said it was a shark bite." "Is he looking for drugs or something?" "No." "Just attention." "Do you think you could handle picking up some pamphlets from the printer?" "Com serves." "You're famous for taking forever with errands, so just try to be quick about it, OK?" "Listen..." "What?" "Nothing." "OK." "Good." "I might be a com serve, but I'm not an idiot." "Never said you were an idiot." "No." "You just... keep implying it." "And for future reference, my name is Felicity." "OK." "Felicity." " Hey." " Hey." "I gotta go pick something up." "How's it going over here?" "It's going good." "Hmm." "Ben..." "I know." "I just Excel is like impossible to figure out." "I thought you said you knew it." "No, I don't." "What about your father's office?" "I don't know." "He's so condescending." "He thinks he knows everything." "I just didn't want him to think I didn't know anything." " You know you're gonna get in trouble." " Well, I'm here 'cause I'm in trouble." "Yeah." "I know." "OK." "Uh." "Listen." "Uh..." "I gotta jump back on this conference call in a sec, so here's the point." "I listened to your music, and it was nice." "You did a couple of things that were very nice." "Like that puddle song?" " "Puddle of Grace." - "Puddle of Grace." Yeah." "That was nice." " Thank you." " But overall... it never really kicked in for me." "I don't know." "Eric seems to think there's something there." "I'm just not sure what we can do with it." "I mean" "I'm not sure where nice fits at Pop Rocks." "You know what I'm saying?" "Listen, I really gotta get back on this call..." "Look, Larry, you know..." "I don't waste my time on something if I don't think it's worth it." "But I believe that Julie's worth it... and I think her music can touch a lot of people." "Her songs aren't just good... they're real... they're emotional They make you feel something." "And I'm telling you, I think this one time... you oughta bet against your gut." "Give her, her shot, man." "Give her a chance." "OK." "But this one's on your head." "That's fine." "It was nice to meet you." "Nice to meet you." "So I'll see you guys later at the Crush party?" " You got it." " Bye." "Thanks, Larry." "Oh, my God." "This doesn't mean that anything is going to be released, OK?" "It just means that you're going to make a record." "I'm gonna make a record." "Yes." "That's the first step." "I'm gonna make a record." "Ha ha ha!" "And, um... you're doing this of your own volition?" "I'm sorry, but I have to ask again." "It's policy." "Part of the informed consent form." "Yes." "It's what I want to do." "OK." "And, um... unfortunately, I'll have to have all of those filled out for when you come back for the appointment." "Listen." "I go to school here, too." "You got classes." "You're busy." "The last thing in the world you want to have to deal with... is something like this but people go through it all the time." "And it can be scary as hell." "But you'll be OK." "Do either of you have any questions..." "about anything about tomorrow?" "There's no stupid questions." "Will it hurt?" "The discomfort level is very similar to menstrual cramps." "Some people feel very little." "Others feel more." "We'll be using a local anesthetic so your pain's relieved." "But you're still awake." "This, uh... this might be the world's first stupid question but... the whole procedure, I mean, it's safe, right?" "Yeah." "It's about twice as safe as having your tonsils out." "We'll schedule a follow-up exam... with your doctor 2 or 3 weeks after." "In a lot of ways, the most difficult part of this whole thing is... making the decision." "Being sure." "I'll be right back." " Thanks." " OK." " File that?" " Yeah." "Is he here yet?" "Who?" "Who." "Ben, the Excel expert." "Uh, no." "Not yet." "OK." "All right, look I got a staff meeting upstairs." "When he gets here late, can you tell him that I looked at the work that he did yesterday and he had done no work yesterday." "Yeah, th-the thing is..." "I think the version of that program..." " was a little different from what..." " OK, OK." "I don't have a problem with you, OK?" "I can tell you wanna be here." "But for Ben, this is just a punishment." "It's a hassle." "He doesn't care about helping people." "He just wants to get his hours done and get out." "The problem is having someone like him here... makes it very difficult for us to get our work done." "Why are you telling me this?" "Because officially, I have to take the com serves." "I don't have a choice." "Unofficially, you can ask him." "To leave?" "Can you handle that?" "Yeah, you know," "I can, but I won't." "He's a friend." "And if you have a problem with him you should tell him." "So, I, uh..." "I know what's going on." "What?" "With you and your girlfriend Ruby." "I work at the health center with Felicity, actually." "It's this community service thing." "It's a long story." "You and Felicity?" "Yeah." "I..." "I saw you sitting here." "And I just wanted you to know... that if you want to talk to somebody and I know I'm the last person in the world you want to talk to, I know that, man, I just... I..." "I understand what you're going through." "I really do, I..." "Listen, the same thing happened to me once." "With a girl in high school I was dating." "You know, it's weird." "One moment you know exactly what you're doing, you're in control you know where you're going." "And the next moment, everything changes... and..." "I understand that." "What's going on between me and Ruby is none of your business." "I just..." "I just..." "I'm just trying to help." "Ruby having an abortion should not have become a public discussion." "Yeah." "I understand that." "Good." "I'm glad we had this little chat." "I think I drank too much." "That was the loudest party I've ever been to." "I know, but Crush sounded great, though, didn't they?" "I think so, except for..." "I'm deaf now." "Sean?" "Ben?" "Your roommates gone?" "I guess so." "Hold on." " Wait." " No." "Wait." "Wait for what?" "Zach, Zach, get off!" "What are you talking about?" "Get off me!" "I'm off!" "What are you talkin' about?" "Just get outta here." "Hey... are you OK?" "I'm..." "I'm pregnant." "Aren't you glad you asked?" "Did it ever happen to you?" "No." "Did you ever know anyone... it happened to?" "Yeah." "How old were they?" "she was 19." "She got pregnant when she was 19." "What did she do?" "She quit school, and she got married." "Did they work out?" "I mean, are they still together?" "They, uh... actually split up recently." "Yeah, I don't know what's gonna happen with them." "I have an appointment... at the health center tomorrow." "For... you know." "Am I doing the right thing?" "Ruby, I..." "I can't tell you that." "It doesn't matter what I say." "It doesn't matter what anyone says." "This is your decision." "Hey." "Hey." "How you doing?" " Greg wanted me to talk to you." " Oh, yeah?" "What did he want?" "He found out you didn't do any of the work." "Listen, um..." "I think I'm gonna figure this out." "I talked to Sean, and he gave me a couple of pointers." "No, I mean..." "he wants you to leave." "He..." "I don't know... thinks you're, you know, a distraction or something." "I don't know." "So you, you've been here for a day and now you're firing people?" "No." "I said I wouldn't do it." "But I got you this." ""Excel for Dummies." Thank you." "Don't take the "dummies" personally." "It's all they had." "I just think you need to prove to him that you actually want to be here." "No." "No, I'm not gonna prove anything to that guy." "I don't want to be here." "So, why did you choose to work here?" "Ben, just read the book." "I'm not gonna read the dummy book all right?" "I'm not." "Just tell Greg that, yeah, I'm not coming back." " So, what, you're just gonna quit?" " Yes." " Ben, what's your problem?" "My problem is Greg's right." "I don't wanna help anybody." "And when I try to, I can't, OK?" "I'll call you later." "Is it time yet?" "It's, uh... almost." "I keep thinking of all these things to say." "But they all end up sounding so incredibly stupid in my head." "You don't have to say anything." "I wish... there was something I..." "you know." "I know." "Noel." "I'm sorry." "I can't do it." "I'm sorry." "So what's with the face?" "You upset'cause he's leaving?" "No, it's not about Ben." "It's just this..." "friend of mine, Noel... is in this situation with, uh... his girlfriend, one of my advisees." "Situation?" "She's pregnant." "That's a situation." "I saw him sitting in the health center... and I knew Ruby was in with the doctor... and I... I..." "I wanted to help him." "I wanted to walk up and say the right thing and I didn't, so..." "Why not?" "I didn't know what to say." "I don't know." "It's confusing." "I..." "Noel and I used to go out... so... that was part of it." "What's the other part?" "I..." "I was looking at Noel... and I just kept seeing my dad... sitting there... young..." "like when he was..." "a junior in college, and..." "I don't know." "I just thought... maybe my mom shouldn't have quit school." "Maybe they didn't do the right thing." "Yeah, maybe." "What do you want?" "Maybe." "Or maybe they should have done a million things." "But what are you gonna do?" "Are you gonna maybe yourself to death?" "Are you gonna be paralyzed by maybes?" "I just didn't know what to say." "Yeah." "Well." "Empathy is good." "It's guilt that's a problem." "Why don't you just try this?" "Talk to Noel about his life... about his feelings and just leave your own baggage out of it." " He's a friend." "Right?" " Yeah, he's a good friend." "Well, then, friend." "This isn't about you." "This is about him." "That's it for today." "You guys can go, um... 40 minutes early." "Hey." "Hi." "You got a minute?" "I got 40 of 'em." "I haven't seen her since she ran out of the health center." "I called her this morning." "She said she wasn't coming to class." "This is all happening like in a microsecond." "I don't know what she's thinking now." "I'm sorry... that..." "I didn't come and talk to you when I found out." "It was just so..." "I know." "I didn't know what to say." "It was kind of a shock." "I'm really scared." "For the first time in my life I can say that I am actually legitimately terrified." "Of what?" "Of me." "That if Ruby's thinking about having this baby, that..." "I am in no way capable of handling that." "Not for a second." "Ruby can deal." "She's stronger than she thinks she is." "But I'm..." "I'm the opposite." "Sometimes I think I'm stronger than I am." "I can't imagine what you must be going through." "But." "Look..." "Noel, you know why Ruby can handle this?" "Because she knows you're there." "You are the most... capable and intelligent and resourceful... person that I know." "I..." "I couldn't have made it through last year... or even this first semester without you." "You have no idea how amazing you are." "God, I do not feel amazing." "So, why are you leaving the health center?" "The guy that works there is a total jerk, for one." "And 2, it's not what I wanna do." "What do you wanna do?" "I don't know." "This is Pachelbel." "Everybody likes the "Canon," but I'm kinda partial to the suites." "What do you think?" "It's fine." "No, seriously." "What do you think?" " I'm not gonna tell you what I think." " Why not?" " 'Cause you're gonna make a face." " No, I won't." "Tell me." "You hate it." "Yeah." "It's like elevator music." "This is elevator music?" "You are such a cliche!" "Here." "Take this." "Listen to it a few times... then say it's elevator music." "OK." "Here is the community service list again." "May I make a suggestion?" "Yeah." "This time instead of basing your choice on where Felicity's working... trying basing it on what you want to do." " What does that mean?" " It means quit following the girl all the time." "Who the hell are you?" "If you mean what do I wanna do, I wanna swim." "Yeah, I got that." "You're a fish." "It's not an option anymore." "They cut the program." "So unless you intend to spend the rest of your college career whining..." "I suggest that you refocus your energy." "I looked up your record." "Saw your grades." " They're not bad, but you know what they are?" " What?" "Average." "You're not average." "Maybe I am." "I can't take any more of this self-pity." "You can go." "OK." " Ben." " Yeah." "Everybody has to figure out who they are eventually." "Eric, I don't understand why this has to mean that it's over..." "Why... why... no, why can't we just..." "OK, just listen." "OK, but what ab..." "Hello?" "Hey." "What happened?" "He just... hang up on you?" "Come on." "Julie, what's going on?" "It doesn't matter." "Julie..." "Sometimes things just don't work out." "That's all." "You were right." "He made a move on you?" "It was my fault." "He'd been so helpful and so patient... and I... just..." "I didn't want him to feel rejected." "So I let him kiss me." "And I kissed him." "I mean, I owe him so much, right?" "Everything that he's done for me." "Julie..." "Julie, if he... if he did this... to get close to you, then he's a fraud." "But if this was about your music then this was about your music." "So either way, you don't owe him a thing." "Oh, it's you." "How nineties." " Is, uh, Felicity around?" " What for?" "Hey." "What are you doing here?" "Um... you got a second?" "Yeah." "You wanna come in?" " No." " No." "I just..." "I wanted to apologize... for the other day at the health center... for walking out like I did." "'Cause you were right." "I mean, I wasn't there... because I wanted to be there." "I..." "I was there'cause of you." "What?" "I don't mean it like that." "I..." "I just..." "I just mean that I..." "I see things in you." "I..." "I just..." "I see things in you... that... that I wish that I had." "You've got things." "But running and swimming..." "it doesn't count." "It's just... that's just stuff I do 'cause I can." "Ben, I don't have a clue what I want." "Yeah, but... but you care about things." "Even that health center job." "That's... that's great." "Anyway, I'm not gonna work at the Health Center." "I'm gonna do something else something that I wanna do, you know?" "Maybe... maybe something... that I can care about, you know?" "Yeah." "So Noel told me you talked to him." "That was such a screw-up." " No, it was a nice thing to do." " Yeah, well, he didn't think so." "Anyway, I just wanted to say..." "that I'm sorry for walkin' out." "I'm sorry." "It's OK." "Do you ever listen to Pachelbel?" "Uh... a little." "Yeah, he's good." "Yeah." "My dad has this 3- year cycle theory." "Says that once every 3 years..." "you go through a total crisis." "It's like a roller coaster, and every 3 years, you dip." "And then you come up... and then you dip." "I feel like I've been dipping forever." "I feel exactly the same way now... as I did when I was 15." "That's why I did that whole movie thing." "I thought I'd get a sign... you know, find out what I'm supposed to be doing." "I don't think that's how it works." "Maybe it is." "Because..." "I feel like... now I know." "My purpose." "Noel..." "I think..." "I'm supposed to have this baby."