"Jaap..." "Everything is so quiet." "So dark." "It's getting harder to concentrate." "Sometimes I still manage." "I manage to see certain things." "Certain images come back." "Strange." "I don't know why I am remembering this now." "I was Iying next to you in the grass." "An airplane passed high up above." "I remember..." "I was naked." "I was happy." "They say your character is shaped by the things you lose." "By the people who leave you... by a parting of ways... the cracks in your heart..." "Then why have I become such a coward?" "Why have I lost the ability to laugh?" "I don't recognise myself any longer." "It's like porn." "Marketing architecture." "glamorous shit." "Architecture should be much more restrained." "Less visible." "It should create space for people to be who they really are." "I don't understand." "I still don't understand what happened." "It happens more often..." "I am starting to see you more often." "I hear your voice... your Russian music..." "I feel your hands upon my face..." "I miss you." "I remember going out in the boat." "I remember filming each other." "You were acting like a fool." "You made me laugh." "It seemed the weather was always nice." "That it was always sunny." "I remember JP." "Did you know that Eddy Irvine owns seventy four houses?" "You are kidding?" "Yeah." "Did you say that Jay Kay owns seventeen cars?" "Yes, but seventy four houses..." "What does he need them for?" "Where does he get all the money from?" "I don't know." "It says here he is worth a hundred million pounds." "And where did it all go wrong." "I didn't read the rest of the story." "well then you just have to read it now, don't you?" "I will tell you in a minute." "Who are you calling?" "Jaap." "Leave him." "He just want to be alone." "I want to be alone with you." "How sweet." "Do you Iike it?" "Yes." "Watch it." "It is pretty fragile." "I am going over to his place." "Something is wrong." "I can feel it." "What is happening?" "I can feel you need me, but I don't know where you are." "Rose..." "Rose, I am floating." "I am floating above myself." "I am leaving." "I am going after our baby." "I thought you were out chasing desperate housewives." "How are you?" "You look better." "What are you here for?" "What I am doing, I came to steal your fruit." "And to see that gorgeous nurses you were talking about." "Don't you have to work?" "No, I am thinking..." "I am thinking of taking a couple of days off." "Hey Jaap, why don't you join me?" "What do you mean?" "I was thinking..." "Why don't we visit Rose." "You cannot keep running away like this." "I don't know." "well, I do know." "You are coming along." "When do you want to go?" "I am on my way to you." "I am on my way to you." "It feels different from what I had expected." "No relief." "No fear." "Maybe it's the medicine." "But it does not feel like it is really going to happen." "This is where it must have happened." "What were you doing here?" "Where were you going?" "I remember again." "I was driving my car." "Everything was feeling strangely calm." "finally I felt a new life in me." "I regret it..." "I seemed to regret it, but why?" "I did something foolish." "Can you do it now?" "What does it add up to?" "Take the numbers from the third month... and add them to the previous year." "exactly." "Eighty." "Now add everything together..." "Eighty kilometres an hour, damn it" "Hey, where are you?" "France?" "What for?" "I am with Jaap." "We're going to visit Rose." "You can say that again." "Listen..." "We are staying at a nice hotel tonight..." "You feel like joining?" "You don't get it, do you?" "You spend three hours on the phone..." "You invite your girlfriend over for tonight." "Are you trying to avoid conversation with your depressed companion?" "Sounds very plausible to me." "Priorities..." "It's very simple." "Get your priorities straight." "And switch off the damn phone." "Are you happy with Vera?" "Are you happy with Vera?" "Sure." "She is just a bit young, that's all." "How do you mean?" "Her interests are very different from mine." "She doesn't understand why I work so hard." "She thinks she can spend her life doing only stuff she enjoys... and money will follow automatically." "Maybe she's right." "Don't be ridiculous." "If you want to make money, you have to work hard." "It is not always fun." "You know that as well as I do." "I always get this itch in my nose when I eat fries." "Do you have that too?" "Come on then." "will you shut up." "You and your big mouth." "I feel better." "It feels good to be on the road with JP again." "He's got a good heart." "Despite all his bragging and showing off." "Sometimes... on certain moments..." "I manage to open my eyes." "Then I see my mother." "She washes me or talks to me." "I can see she is sad." "Let me tell you a story." "About long ago." "When we were still together." "You were little." "We called you "little bread crump"." "You lay in your baby carriage." "I would take you out for a walk." "Every day." "I told you many stories." "And you listened." "You looked so excited." "You blinked your eyes and looked at me." "You smiled." "You responded to all my questions... as if you had understood." "every word I said." "As if you were taking part in the story." "probably the most beautiful moments of my Iife." "Where are you?" "I miss you very much." "When was the Iast time you cried?" "I don't know." "Perhaps when I was sixteen." "Why are you asking?" "I can no Ionger do it." "I have lost the feeling." "I can no Ionger cry." "She stood all the way up front." "What was her name again?" "She was in this hotel school." "Didn't you date her for a while?" "What was her name again?" "Anita." "That's right." "Anita." "Anita from the hotel school." "She was actually very cool." "I wish you were here." "Here in this car with me." "In this beautiful evening light." "I remember belgium." "I felt very lonely." "I wanted a child so badly." "I lied to you." "could it have been that..." "Where you seeing someone else?" "It's just not a cool thing to say, but it tastes awful." "Then perhaps you are gay." "My sweet little gay boy." "I don't feel like talking about it now." "What a shame." "finally I have you talking about sex... and now you don't feel like talking." "You are such an egoist." "I am just being honest." "You are always honest when it suits you best." "I feel like breaking something." "What is wrong?" "Why are you so nervous?" "Are you seeing someone else in London?" "Of course not." "Are you joining me for a drink?" "Are you coming?" "What happened?" "Who was it?" "Nobody." "Ron's assistant." "They still call you at this hour?" "Why don't you switch off your phone?" "She wanted to set up a conference call." "I will switch it off." "Lara is going to play for us." "cool." "Sometimes I dream about my father." "I dream he is back." "That he is dancing with my mother." "He looks very handsome." "He is holding my mother tight." "How I would Iike to dance again." "To be in your arms." "And laugh with you" "Give me a pillow?" "I still don't know how to do it." "Now that I have you talking about sex..." "What do you think of Lara?" "She is nice." "Nice?" "Man, she is hot." "And she wants you." "I am serious." "Don't be silly." "Didn't you notice?" "She wants you." "Why don't you go upstairs to see her?" "Do you really think, that on the evening before I see Rose..." "I am going to mess around with someone else?" "With Vera everything changed..." "I am not madly in love with her... but everything is so easy going." "Everything went so smoothly." "For the first time I couId overcome my damn curiosity." "The eternal longing for more." "It ruins everything." "I see that." "I couldn't do it." "I couldn't let it go." "What are you trying to say?" "I have been at this hotel before." "I remember..." "I remember everything." "Vera, wake up." "Where do you have your car keys?" "Where do you have your car keys?" "Why?" "I need to borrow your car." "In my bag" "Where?" "What do you need them for?" "Jaap ran off with my car." "What happened?" "I'II tell you in a minute, okay?" "What did you say that made him panic?" "I don't know." "I have no idea." "Wait..." "That's him." "Stop the car." "calm down." "He is not in the car." "Can you be quiet for a second?" "I am going to have a look in the forest." "Can you tell me what is wrong first?" "I'II be back in a second." "I can't find him." "Maybe he doesn't want to be found." "What do you mean?" "You know exactly what I mean." "No, I don't know what you mean." "What are you talking about?" "Honey, what's wrong?" "Stop pretending." "Did you have an affair with Rose?" "How could I not have seen it?" "How could I have totally missed it?" "It was his." "It was his child." "You were with him on the night before your accident." "You should have waited." "We would have succeeded." "The fairies presented their gifts to the princess." "The first fairy wished for her to be the most beautiful woman in the world." "The second fairy gave her the character of an angel." "The third..." "I am dying." "I feel it." "The days are getting shorter." "The nights are getting longer." "The light is slowly fading." "I am so scared." "I am so afraid of leaving on my own." "She predicted the princess would prick her finger on a spindle and die." "Everyone started to cry." "At that moment the youngest fairy appeared behind the curtain." "She spoke with a loud voice so everyone could hear." "Yes, the princess will prick herself." "But no, she will not die." "Instead she will faII asleep for a hundred years." "Then there will be a prince who will awake her." "And that is how it happened." "When the end of the curse had come... the princess woke up and opened her eyes." "She saw the prince standing next to her bed." "She looked at him with love and tenderness." ""Is it you, my prince?", she asked..." ""I have been waiting for you so long."" "Thanks for the ride." "No problem." "I believe the producers... especially George Lucas... that they had a vision." "Or actually..." "He had a dream" "Or I guess you can say a vision." "Because it is not just a movie." "It has a Iot of..." "Psychic... psychological elements." "If I am not mistaken there is also an element of... the Oedipus and electra theory." "These people don't seem to realise... that during these SchIager festivals they make a fool out of themselves." "With their sleazy blond girls." "That is where they are way behind on us." "Sheep, chickens, camels... bears, tigers... monkeys." "especially monkeys, they are cool." "I would Iike to have them from an early age." "And to see to it that they get along with each other." "I think the answer to that is..." "I the answer is love." "You just need to give them enough love." "Then you can achieve a Iot." "Why?" "Why do we always want what we cannot have?" "Why is it so difficult to accept reality?" "Why do we never realise what we have until it is gone?" "please come in." "Is she home?" "Of course." "Come." "Wait." "You are here." "I can feel it." "You are here." "I missed you so much." "calm down." "Be strong." "Be strong for me." "Jaap, wake up." "Leave this place." "Live you life." "I am no Ionger afraid." "Carry me inside you." "I will see the world through your eyes."