"Front door!" "I can't let it in unless I see it." "I know what the rules are." "I'm just asking if you can make an exception." "There are no exceptions." "That's why we have rules." "I know what a rule is." "I'm just telling you..." "You don't have an X-ray machine back there?" "You don't have an X-ray machine?" "No." "I've got to see it." "I bet you're not going to miss that drive." "Or the ambiance." "I would've gone a lot further." "You know, they gave me a brochure on reintegrating." "Yeah?" "Yeah." "A social worker came by." "What did he say?" "Go slow." "We can go slow." " Hey." " Hey." "I just wanted to remind you that I won't be coming in tomorrow." "That's right." "It's the big day!" "You must be thrilled..." "Yeah." "...and excited and nervous and..." "And I wanted to thank you, just for everything." "You've been so understanding." "Oh, I'm sure there's more to it than what's on the news, so..." "I know, but to a lot of people you say "insider trading,"" "and it may as well be murder." "You just stop existing." "So, thank you for everything." "I wasn't sure what I should wear." "I tried to find something new to buy, but I couldn't find anything that looked good." "Honey, you look beautiful." "And I can only imagine how you're gonna look to him." "Oh!" "Oh, Mama." "Oh." "Come on." "Let's get out of here before they change their mind." "I'm sorry." "Babe, you remember that hedge fund manager I met inside?" "Marshall Hellman?" "The Stanford guy?" "Yeah." "Super smart." "He was in for some tax thing, but he'll be out soon." "He's got money in Dubai and a lot of connections." "I can get us back to where we were, Em." "I promise." "I can make that happen." "Okay, baby." "Thank you." "I don't understand what you're saying!" "Just relax!" "Hello." "I'm Dr. Banks." "This guy's on something, okay?" "Listen, just relax!" "Officer." "This guy's on something." "He came swinging at me." "Stand back and let me talk to him." "He was trying to hold up a taxi." "You understand?" "He came at me!" "Augustin?" "Augustin." "He's fine." "What is it?" "What's going on?" "He saw his dead father driving the taxi." "What?" "He saw the ghost of his father." "He was a cabbie." "So I was right." "He's nuts." "No." "It's grief." "Just grief painting pictures in his brain." "He sees ghosts." "He's Haitian." "It's not unusual for Haitians to see their loved ones shortly after they die." "Weird for me and you, but it's perfectly normal for him." "Right, what do you have next?" "MVA in bed eight, with minor head trauma, in need of a consult." "Double shift today?" "Better living through chemistry." "Miss Taylor." "Yeah?" "I'm Dr. Banks." "Oh, they said I might have a concussion, but I don't have to stay here for that, right?" "Uh, we have to wait for the CT scan results to know that." "I have a couple of questions for you." "How's your head?" "It hurts." "How was it before you hit the wall?" "What do you mean?" "How have things been going with you?" "Generally speaking." "Why are you here?" "I'm a psychiatrist, Miss Taylor." "Normally, when people hit things with their car, there are skid marks on the pavement." "A brick Wall's a pretty good reason to use the brakes, turn the wheel." "You didn't do that." "You went straight in." "It says here the attendant told the police you were pretty upset before you got in the car." "Now, the insurance company are gonna check the brakes, but I prefer to just ask you." "Did you try to hurt yourself this morning?" "Do you still want to try and hurt yourself?" "Emily." "How do you feel about staying here for a few days?" "Here?" "Mmm." "No, I can't stay here." "Martin just got home and I have to be there for him." "Is that your husband, Martin?" "Yes, and he just got out of prison." "I have to be there, and I have a job." "I have to go into work." "He doesn't make any money yet." "Are you married?" "Yes." "Okay, what if you got out of jail or you were away for a long time and you come home and your wife is in the mental hospital?" "We waited for four years." "I can't stay here." "I think you may have tried to hurt yourself this morning, and..." "It was a mistake." "I lost it for a minute." "I promise, that's not going to happen again." "Do you have an office?" "Mmm." "Well, I could come see you at your office." "I could come as often as you want." "I could come two or three times a week." "I was in therapy once before, and I remember that structure really helps with hopelessness." "I promise." "I just really want to go home." "Okay." "So we'll release her to you, um, but I want to see her in my office this week." "That's the deal we made." "I just had no idea this was still going on." "Oh, honey, I think she must have been putting on a brave face." "She was afraid to tell you." "She was afraid to tell me." "I want to start her on this." "It's called an SSRI." "It affects the neurotransmitter in the brain called serotonin." "What does that do exactly?" "Basically, it helps stop the brain from telling you you're sad." "In a few weeks, she should start to feel better." "No, of course." "Of course." "It was soft." "Absolutely, it was soft in that first..." "But we are going to tighten it up." "Sure, that's what we do." "Yeah." "I think it'll be interesting to regroup after the Dallas groups." "Emily?" "Are you okay?" "Emily?" "Aww!" "What happened?" "Oh!" "These made me sick, too." "I had better luck with Celexa." "I used to draw when I was a kid." "Mostly people, though." "Teachers and kids from my class." "Boys that I liked." "Sometimes cats." "I used to try and get their faces perfect." "That's why I came to New York, I wanted to get into graphic design." "I was taking classes when I met Martin." "How did that happen?" "I was working at this, uh, bar downtown to help pay for school, and he kept coming in after work." "And he would just order the most complicated drinks." "Things that I had no idea how to make." "One night, he climbed over the bar and offered to teach me how to make them." "And he ended up staying until we closed." "Then he asked me out." "And you went." "I didn't know who he was or what he did." "He was just..." "He was just this guy in a suit." "And watched me while I made drinks, and that made me really nervous." "Then he stared at me like I was a painting." "He had this beautiful sailboat, and he took me out on it." "Taught me how to ski." "He swept me off my feet." "Proposed to me in Maui that winter and we were married by spring." "How old were you?" "That was five years ago, so I was 23." "Time goes by so fast." "Is this ever going to go away?" "You said you felt depressed before." "Did you see anyone about it last time?" "Yeah." "In Greenwich, Connecticut." "Victoria Siebert." "I had to stop seeing her when they took our house away and I had to move back to the city." "Do you mind if I contact Dr. Siebert about your history?" "No, of course not." " I saw her four years ago." " Mmm." "For a little over nine months." "She didn't just have the rug pulled from under her, she had the rug, the home, the husband." "Her entire life, gone." "Even her health insurance." "She moved into the city to find work and I never heard from her again." "I'm glad she's seeing a man this time." "I think that will help." "Why is that?" "Never felt seen by her father." "Then her husband ends up in jail and she's abandoned again." "I'd be happy to see her have a different kind of experience." "She says you tried her on medication." "Oh, yes." "Wellbutrin." "Prozac." "Effexor." "Really struggled." "Mmm." "I remember she had problems with sleep and nausea." "Chills..." "I'm putting her on Zoloft, see if she can tolerate that." "Oh." "Well, maybe she's a candidate for one of these newer meds." "Sometimes the newest thing gives them confidence." "They see the ads on TV, they believe." "I have a patient with some similar issues." "I put her on Ablixa." "Welcome, everyone!" "Thank you for coming." "We'll be starting the presentations soon, so if everyone can come in and take a seat." "You know, I may have some samples here." "Let me see." "No." "I must have given them all away." "Here!" "Have an Ablixa pen." "Had it been available back then," "I would have prescribed it for Emily after she miscarried." "Miscarried?" "Hmm." "After he went to jail." "She, uh, hasn't mentioned that." "No?" "No." "Has he been released yet?" "A week ago." "Oh!" "Well, maybe that will help turn things around." "Hmm." "Look, don't mention anything to Carl or Kayla about Hellman." "It'll just make things easier." "I still think Carl's the one who went to the Feds." "He probably gave us these tickets because he feels shitty about everything." "I hope these things work." "Hey." "Look, if you don't feel up to this, I can go by myself." "I understand if you don't want to see those people." "All right?" "But I got to get back out there at some point." "If I just sit here by myself, I'm just gonna feel worse." "I have to at least try." "Dr. Banks would want me to try." "Carl?" "Martin!" "Welcome back." "How are you, sir?" "Hi!" "Emily, good to see you." "Hi." "Good to see you." "Kayla, you remember this beautiful lady here." "Hi." "Thank you so much for having us." "Oh, my, your dress is beautiful!" "I love it." "It's gorgeous." "Thank you." "We're so glad you guys could come." "It's our pleasure." "Thanks again." "I'm going to go to the bar and get a drink." "Does anyone want anything?" "Is that such a good idea?" "Yeah, it's fine." "I'll be right back." "She looks amazing!" "She's doing well." "But going away is hard, and so is coming back, for everyone." "Martin, I just want to say I wish I had done a better job of reaching out." "I really do." "No." "That's fine." "It's the culture." "It's over now." "Good evening, ma'am." "Can I get you something?" "Yes, a vodka seltzer, please." "There you go." "Enjoy!" "Thank you." "Em." "So, Martin was just telling..." "Honey, what's wrong?" "I can't do this." "You know, I went through a very bad time last year." "I found a lump." "I just fell apart." "I was so depressed, and, uh, my doctor prescribed something called Effexor." "It really helped." "Can you get Martin for me?" "Yeah." "Hey." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry!" "I can't, I'm sorry." "It's okay, it's okay." "Come here." "Not so close, ma'am!" "Thank you." "Oh, the advantages of having a husband who can write prescriptions." "What are they called again?" "It's a beta blocker." "Hmm." "Is it bad that I'm doing this?" "Everyone takes them." "Lawyers, musicians." "People going to interviews for big jobs." "It doesn't make you anything you're not." "It just makes it easier for you to be who you are." "It's between me and two other people." "A woman from Merrill and a guy from Citicorp." "But Hazlitt says I have the inside track." "Sorry, D. I've got to return this." "It's an emergency." "This girl is really struggling." "Dr. Banks, I really need to talk to you." "Emily." "Yeah." "I just got your message." "I'm with my wife." "I went to your office, but you weren't there." "So I came here." "Could we just go talk?" "If it's an emergency, I can admit you." "No." "I just, um..." "I was getting on the subway and..." "And I was like when I was in the car." "I have to go to work." "I just need five minutes." "You're going to go to work after?" "Okay, five minutes." "Okay." "I'm sorry." "Call me after the interview." "Emily, I know this is hard." "But the hopelessness you're feeling is a symptom." "We have to leave that in the past." "A psychologist once said," ""Depression is an inability to construct a future."" "But you have a future." "At home with Martin." "He's trying to start a new business." "With this guy Hellman that he met in jail." "How does that make you feel?" "I don't know." "I mean, he's trying." "He's really trying to make things better and I'm just not helping at all." "I mean, I'm trying, too." "I went..." "I went shopping to try and make things more exciting for him." "You are trying." "I can't take the Zoloft anymore." "I can't." "I'm dizzy." "I can't sleep." "I have no sex drive." "I understand that." "This woman I work with, Julia, she..." "She said she's on this other, new medication, and it's really helping her." "I thought maybe I could try that." "Taylor!" "Have you taken Ablixa before?" "No." "Some of the side effects may include nausea, muscle weakness, insomnia, change in appetite, dry mouth, irritation." "Do you want to pay cash?" "There were court seats at Knicks games, fishing trips to Cape Cod." "It was crazy." "One year, Warner-Lambert took us to Hawaii." "I gave a talk for five minutes and played 36 holes." "What did Pfizer have to pay to make their whole thing go away?" "Two billion?" "Lilly paid over a billion to settle the Zyprexa thing." "Do we have to talk about this?" "You're ruining my lunch." "A certain rep, who will remain nameless, gave me tickets to the World Series." "Got my son an autographed ball!" "Hmm." "If only I'd known you liked baseball." "Where was I for all this?" "Some British boarding school, probably." "Well, it's not a violation of the pharma code to buy you doctors lunch as long as we talk about business for at least five minutes." "Ready?" "Go!" "We're starting a trial for our new anti-anxiety drug, Delatrex." "We're looking for a couple of docs to consult." "It's probably going to run for about a year." "Any interest?" "I'm out." "I'm doing something for the competition." "Signed an NDA." "You should cancel her filet for that." "I'm teaching next semester and feeling a little overextended." "How about you, Dr. Banks?" "Too busy?" "Not as busy as my partners." "What do you need?" "Getting warmer, but, no." "Uh..." "Thirty thousand?" "Ah!" "Fifty thousand." "Really?" "Wow." "Yes." "Really." "What do you have to do?" "Go to a few meetings, recruit some patients, track some data." "So you'll be even busier." "Yes." "But the flip side is that if, for instance, the buttons on this shirt suddenly fell off," "I would be able to buy a new one." "Oh, I see." "Mom?" "Mmm." "Yes, honey!" "In here, sweetie." "Just unpacking." "I was having a bad dream." "Oh, love." "Oh!" "Honey, you're in luck." "Jon is very good with dreams." "Yes, I am." "So, he's gonna help you." "Back to bed, sweetie." "Do I have to dream when I sleep?" "Yeah, I'm pretty much sure we all do." "They don't all have to be bad." "Albert Einstein, remember him?" "Yeah." "He figured out relativity in a dream." "And Paul McCartney wrote entire songs." "And I dreamt of your mom before I even met her." "So what are you going to dream about?" "Whoever makes this drug is going to be fucking rich." "Em!" "Em!" "It's the middle of the night." "Turn down the music!" "Em?" "Are we expecting someone?" "Em, can you hear me?" "What are you doing?" "Can't she stop taking drugs?" "Isn't there an alternative approach..." "No!" "God, no." "I can finally sleep." "I have some energy." "We had sex." "It was like we were actually together." "Maybe something else would do the same thing." "Absolutely." "There are still other SSRI's, SNRI's." "No." "I've tried everything else." "You don't know, Martin." "You've never had this." "You don't know what it's like." "Okay?" "Every afternoon it's like..." "It's like there's this poisonous fog bank rolling in on my mind, and I'm paralyzed." "If I have to start over, I think I should see a different doctor." "I'm sorry you feel that way." "I understand your frustration." "What do we do?" "There are things we can do to make this work." "Other medications we add to the Ablixa, one is designed to deal with sleepwalking while the Ablixa helps you get a handle on your depression." "I'm going to Otisville today." "They finally approved me to see Hellman." "He's thinking we might want to set up shop in Houston." "He's got a lot of connections down there." "I thought we were going to move back to Greenwich." "I'm sure that we can find great people in Houston, too." "I want to be totally clear that I am being paid to participate in this study." "If you don't want to take part, I totally understand." "There are other meds besides Delatrex I can prescribe." "So, my medication is free." "I don't have to report it to my insurance company or anything?" "For as long as you choose to be a part of the study, your meds are free." "Oh, that's great." "We'll start today." "Emily, I don't understand." "It's almost 4:00." "What happened?" "I got on the train, and I just forgot to get off." "Martin is thinking about moving us, and I'm just" "really..." "Go home, Emily." "But you have to know this can't happen again." "It's not working for me." "Hey." "Hey." "Hey." "What's happening?" "They gave it to the guy from Citicorp." "Oh, I'm sorry, D." "It's fucking hopeless." "Emily?" "Hellman says you are going to love Houston." "What'd you get me?" "Em?" "Em?" "God damn it." "Em?" "These fucking pills." "Em." "You sleeping again?" "Stop!" "Ahh!" "Em, call somebody." "Help me." "Call somebody." "Help me." "Did he hit you?" "Did he threaten you?" "Was anyone else here?" "Who else was coming for dinner?" "What?" "I was asleep and I..." "I woke up and I saw him." "He wasn't..." "He wasn't moving." "And that's all..." "That's all I remember." "Dr. Siebert." "Hello, there." "I'm sorry to bother you." "It's Jon Banks." "It's about Emily." "Uh, there's been an incident." "No sign of forced entry, nobody else on the building security camera." "The prints on the knife are hers." "Where is her lawyer?" "She doesn't have one." "Just kept talking about you." "No sign of struggle on either one of them." "She made the 911 call herself." "We had an appointment last night that she didn't show up for." "When was the last time you saw her?" "Four days ago." "And what was she like?" "Any idea why the dinner table was set for three, Dr. Banks?" "She doesn't remember anything about a guest." "Kids?" "No, she didn't have children." "She was taking these." "For depression, right?" "I've seen the ads." "She ever talk to you about something like this?" "I'd like to speak to her, if that's possible." "You can talk to her at Rikers." "It's possible, you see, that she was asleep." "What?" "She walks in her sleep." "That's maybe why she doesn't remember anything." "It's a side effect of this medication." "She's had other episodes." "She kills people in her sleep, too." "Stand up, please." "And turn around." "She ever tell you anything to make you believe she could be violent, or that he was?" "And before you answer that or tell me about some kind of patient-doctor confidentiality thing, let's just think about the future here." "The future?" "Well, this goes one of two ways, doesn't it?" "See, either she's a murderer or she's a victim of her medical treatment." "In which case, you're the target of a big civil suit." "Either way, someone gets punished." "Her or you." "The state's enjoyed working with you in the past, Dr. Banks." "I'd like to see you consulting with us on this one." "This is different." "Is it?" "I never want to see another pill again." "They want me to take something else." "Another pill to help me sleep." "I don't understand why this is happening." "Is there any way that somebody else did it, and made it look like me?" "I don't think so." "That's not what the police are saying." "I killed the wrong person." "I don't know what else I could have done." "She wanted to stay on it." "Jon." "You can't follow them around taking things out of their hands they might use to hurt themselves." "We see them for an hour a day, maybe a couple of times a week." "I think they're going to charge her." "With what?" "You said she has no memory." "No criminal intent." "They can't do that." "A man in Arizona." "He killed his wife, threw her in the pool, took off his bloody clothes, put them in the trunk of his car." "Woke up the next morning, no memory of it." "Didn't even know she was dead until they charged him with the crime." "Neighbors even saw him throw the body into the pool." "He was acquitted last year." "A woman bludgeoned her husband while on vacation in Sanibel Island." "They were both asleep at the time." "Another acquittal." "I have to tell you, I have been approached by the state to consult for them as well." "I assumed as much." "I am in a rather difficult spot here." "I hope you appreciate that." "I know you are, but if she goes away, this does not look good for you." "It just makes the whole system look bad." "She ever talk about killing her husband?" "No." "If she had, I would have reported it." "You spoke to any of the family?" "Martin's mother." "She's the one who hired me." "We need your help." "You want to talk about it?" "A patient of mine was arrested." "For something bad?" "Yeah." "Pretty bad." "Did the person do it?" "Are they guilty?" "In this case, those are two very different things." "I was afraid you would never want to see me again." "I hope you know that if I could trade places with Martin, I would." "I would give anything if there were someone who could make that deal." "I just don't understand how it happened." "How?" "I don't know." "I don't know." "It doesn't fit for me." "It's like..." "It's like it never happened." "But I don't understand it." "You watch the commercials on TV, people are getting better!" "I was getting better." "Dr. Banks was really helping me." "But, he just got out and now he's gone." "I know." "Can I give you something?" "What?" "I want to make a statement." "People need to know what can happen." "For Martin's sake." ""We go to doctors with our sadness and our faith in the hope they will guide us toward health."" ""But instead I have gone down a path toward a misery" "I never could have imagined."" ""And I have taken my loved ones with me."" ""My only hope is that no one else follows me to this place."" "And again, this is a note from your daughter-in-law." "Yes." "Who may face murder charges." "Yes." "For what a drug made her do." "We invited a representative from Sadler-Benelux, the makers of Ablixa, to come here this morning and discuss this very tragic story, but they declined." "However, our Dr. Peter Joubert, in fact, a Manhattan psychiatrist who specializes in anti-depression drugs like Ablixa, is here to discuss the dangers of these side effects." "Peter, if nothing else, this seems a very troubling gray area." "Josh, it is." "And that is why the FDA, in 2004, asked that anti-depressants come with a black box warning..." "Which one, zucchini or asparagus?" "...because their use was associated with an increased risk of suicidality in children and adolescents." "Zucchini or asparagus?" "I don't know." "Both." "That warning was expanded to include young adults in their 20s." "Peter, where's the doctor in all this?" "What's his or her responsibility?" "I'm sure people have a lot of questions for him." "What about the permission slip for the field trip?" "Do you have that?" "Did you remember?" "Are you excited?" "What?" " There he is!" "Dr. Banks!" " Did someone famous..." "How long have you been seeing Emily Taylor?" "Seeing who?" "Did you know that your husband was treating Emily Taylor?" "Take him out of here." "What is happening?" "Go that way!" "What about this picture?" "Have you seen the front page of the Post today?" "You have no comment about any of this?" "No, not at the moment." "Do you have any comment at all about this?" "I have no comment." "She's my patient." "That's all I can say." "What's your relationship?" "I saw some press people downstairs." "I think they had cameras." "Is that for you?" "There's a back stairway, if you'd be more comfortable leaving that way." "My wife never liked me coming here." "I'm worried she's going to see something." "It's going to be a "thing."" "Was she the one with the blonde hair?" "I think I saw her in the elevator." "She seemed totally normal." "I'd really like to focus more on what's going on with you." "What was she taking?" "It's not what I'm taking, is it?" "No." "You're taking something else." "You'd..." "You'd tell me, right?" "As part of the Office's medical conduct review, we'll need to have access to your charts and records." "Current and past patients." "Absolutely." "Whatever you need." "You went to school in the UK, at Durham." "Mmm." "What made you decide to practice here in the States?" "Where I come from, if anyone goes to see a psychiatrist or takes medication, the assumption is they're sick." "Here, the assumption is they're getting better." "I see." "You first came in contact with Miss Taylor after a suicide attempt." "She drove her car into a wall." "You decided not to hospitalize her?" "She described her suicide attempt as a mistake." "And expressed a desire to get better." "Her husband wanted her home as well." "In addition, she had no history of violent behavior." "Driving a car into a wall isn't violent?" "I didn't think she posed a risk to others." "I saw her regularly, here in my office, and consulted with her previous doctor as well." "Dr. Siebert." "Hmm." "I've spoken to her." "You also do work at the hospital, a number of shifts." "Sometimes nights." "And you said you're doing pharmaceutical consulting." "That's a pretty large workload." "My wife lost her job." "And we have a boy, my stepson, in private school." "I bought a new place downtown, too." "So, longer hours, higher volume of patients, more stress." "Anything else?" "I'll need to ask your partners some questions." "Of course." "They can't come after you for any of this, right?" "No, that's not going to happen." "They don't blame me." "I'm just an expert witness." "Like I was on that case with the kid from Uganda who couldn't stop stealing stuff." "They just need me to explain things to the jury." "That's all." "So after the trial, it's over." "Absolutely." "She was sad." "Very sad." "Every day." "Did she say why?" "No." "It is just how she was." "Some people slip." "Some jump." "We keep an eye out." "I remember her." "Right on the edge." "She worried me." "What makes us human?" "What differentiates us from, let's say, insects, is that we have consciousness." "An awareness of what we're thinking and what we're doing." "If, for example, I'm hungry, lam consciously aware of that." "And so, I go to the fridge and I make myself a sandwich." "So you intend to make a sandwich." "Yes." "So, what you are saying is that to have intent, we must also have consciousness." "Objection, Your Honor." "The question calls for a legal conclusion, not a medical one." "Overruled." "You may continue." "Consciousness provides a context, or meaning, for our actions." "If that part of you doesn't exist, then, basically, we are functioning much like an insect, where you just respond instinctively without a thought to what your actions mean." "And that part..." "That part that provides meaning to action, does that exist when we're asleep?" "No." "No." "So, without consciousness, how do we prove intent?" "I don't believe you can." "I think she'll take it." "But she does not walk out of the hospital next week, or next month." "She goes away for a while." "That's part of the deal." "She'll have to agree to that." "You think that'll work?" "I can get Dr. Banks to help explain it to her." "Here's what we're prepared to live with." "State agrees to an NGRI." "We make a side agreement about how long she's institutionalized before there's any sort of hearing on her release." "So I'm not guilty, but I'm still going away?" "NGRI means Not Guilty for Reasons of Insanity." "You're not guilty of murder." "You'll be moved to the Wards Island Forensic Psychiatry Center for a period of time." "But I can't leave." "No, not for a while." "You'll be under observation." "I'm not crazy." "You know I'm not crazy." "In my opinion, you are a victim of circumstance and biology." "Isn't your opinion the one that counts?" "No, I'm just one doctor." "It may help to have you examined by another psychiatrist." "We should get Dr. Siebert." "She's known me for a lot longer, and she could testify." "Dr. Siebert's records have already been submitted to the D.A." "And you weren't in her care at the time of the murder." "But if I'm just a victim of circumstance and biology... it was the Ablixa." "You told me I should stay on the Ablixa." "I would never be here if it weren't for that." "Emily, if you take this plea, as soon as a psychiatrist says you're ready, we'll apply for your release." "What if I say no?" "Then we keep going." "But they have a body, they have your prints on the murder weapon, and they have you at the crime scene." "We can't argue that you didn't do any of that, so, one day, it goes to the jury and maybe they acquit, you walk out of here on your own." "Or maybe it goes the other way." "Well, what do you think?" "I will tell you what I know." "An NGRI defense is only successful 1% of the time, and they are giving you that today." "You're fucking kidding me." "Nobody here has ever had a bad result?" "Nobody here has had a client react to a side effect?" "Your arrogance here is breathtaking." "You take no responsibility?" "For her body's reaction to a medicine?" "It only just came on the market!" "She has come up in a number of my sessions as well." "It's become a part of the environment here." "I have clients who are afraid to take their medications." "We had the state board here." "It's on the nightly news." "Look, I spoke with her lawyer and the D.A. We worked it out." "She's taking an NGRI." "She's going to hospital for observation." "It's behind us." "It's all gonna go away." "Bullshit, Jon!" "It is splashed all over you!" "It's going to follow you around forever." "And us, too, if we're standing next to you." "What does that mean?" "If she's not guilty, why am I?" "Rational people may look at it like that, but we don't see a great many rational people here." "You can see what I'm saying?" "We shouldn't even have to ask." "You should see what's happening." "But that seems hard for you!" "Do you think I screwed up?" "I don't know." "I noticed the Taylor woman in the waiting room." "She was very attractive." "A wounded bird." "Fragile." "Would you have treated her differently if she was a man?" "Gene." "That's not what happened." "Maybe it's time for you to slow down." "Your client load is down." "Get some cheaper space." "Focus on what's going on with you." "Unbelievable." "I received a letter, Jon." "I haven't shared it with anyone, but I think it will likely surface." "What kind of letter?" "It's about Alison Finn." "It was during my residency." "There was a walk-in clinic at the university." "I saw her maybe three times." "She saw other people there as well, called the suicide line every other night." "She was a paranoid schizophrenic and a drug addict." "Very sick girl." "She knew where you lived." "She stalked me." "The letter says you took her to London." "Never." "Why are they writing this?" "Their daughter committed suicide and left a very graphic note, naming me." "It never happened." "Look." "It's not unusual for there to be emotional transference between a patient and a therapist." "Had her perform oral sex in your car?" "Never!" "It was a fantasy!" "Depression can take away your energy." "It can steal away your time." "A number of years ago," "I had a patient who was having an affair." "Came in here every week like he was going to confession." "Cried, repented." "Didn't stop." "Then one day, he comes in and says it's over." "He's finally got a handle on his issues, like some great epiphany." "It was about six or seven months later his wife turns up and says he has a whole other family in another state." "He'd been lying to her." "And he was lying to me." "The kids blamed me." "The wife blamed me." "Even the patient blamed me." "At times, I blamed me." "The point is the cardiologist can see it coming, the heart attack, from the tests." "It's in the blood." "But who can see the lies?" "Or the past, or the sadness?" "You didn't tell me you wrote the article." "We were consulting on a patient, not comparing résumés." "It would have been a little self-involved for me to mention it, don't you think?" "It wasn't about me, it was about Emily." "Why didn't you tell me about the sleepwalking?" "Me tell you?" "She told you about them." "And you kept her on the Ablixa." "It was a decision you made, Jon." "How did you know that?" "Know what?" "That she had more than one episode." "How would you know that?" "Did she have them when she was your patient?" "I know because it's in the news." "That's how I know." "Everyone knows." "Everyone knows everything, Jon." "Like that?" "At that speed?" "No, faster than that." "Oh, faster than that." "Yeah, and she was carrying the seat belt." "She was wearing the seat belt?" "Are you sure?" "Yeah, I saw it!" "One moment, you're living high on the hog, and the next moment, you're visiting your hubby in jail, eating ramen?" "Who wouldn't be depressed?" "And then what happened..." "Oh, God, it's just so tragic." "I've suffered from my own depression, so I understand." "I'm sorry to hear that." ""Every afternoon, around 3:00, like a poisonous fog bank rolling in on my mind, and I'm paralyzed."" ""A poisonous fog"?" "That's not me." "It's William Styron." "Yes." "William Styron." "Darkness Visible." "Darkness Visible." "There are times when I feel I could have written it, but..." "So is she doing any better?" "I'm keeping an eye on her." "Excuse me." "Are you Julia?" "Julia?" "Are you Julia?" "Sorry to disturb you." "Are you Julia?" "No." "Julia?" "Are you Julia?" "No, I'm Joan." "Julia." "Is there a..." "Are you Julia?" "No, I'm Susan." "Is there something else?" "I wanted to speak to her friend, Julia." "Julia?" "I don't think we have a Julia that works here." "Really?" "Hey." "Look at this." "She knew all about airbags and seat belts." "Fucking commercial runs on a loop in the lobby where she works." "Where were you?" "What?" "You forgot me at school." "I was here." "I was doing this." "Honey, go to your room." "Start your homework." "I'll be there in a minute." "I'm sorry." "What is all this?" "The Delatrex thing?" "No, look, I went to her office." "There is no Julia at work who takes Ablixa." "What are you talking about?" "Why did she make up Julia?" "I don't know." "Isn't she sick?" "I thought sick people sometimes make things up." "So you're feeling better." "Yeah, much better." "I've been doing a lot of, um, running on the treadmill here to try and get in shape and stimulate serotonin." "You're not feeling like you're in a "poisonous fog"?" "No." "No, not so much anymore." "That phrase really stuck with me." "How did you come by it?" "I don't know, really." "Um..." "I guess it's just..." "I guess that's how I felt back then." "You know, maybe I heard it or read it somewhere." "Back on the boat with Martin, we used to always see the fog rolling in." "I'm sure a lot of depressed people have felt that way before." "The important thing is that I think the fog is finally lifting." "And I really think I'm going to be ready to get out of here soon." "I have to go, I'm sorry." "I have a meeting in the city." "Do you think maybe, uh, next time you could stay a little longer?" "It's just I don't have any other visitors and this is really all I have to look forward to." "What about your friend, Julia?" "Julia?" "Yes." "From the ad agency." "Oh, Julia." "No, I worked with Julia at the bar." "I haven't heard from her since everything happened." "I haven't heard from most people." "Are you okay?" "I know what it's like to have your entire life change out from under you." "The only difference is, you didn't do anything wrong and Martin did." "So, the reason I called." "I mean, with all the attention in the paper on the Taylor case, and with the ethics probe and such," "I wanted to tell you that, um..." "We need to ask you to step off the study." "I'm sure it's all blown out of proportion, but we can't have you on the payroll now." "I could be anonymous." "Still do the work." "I'm real sorry." "I feel horrible about this." "Maybe you can be part of another study when this is over." "All right, then." "The funny thing is, with Sadler-Benelux in the toilet, we're up like 30%." "What?" "The guys down on Wall Street are cashing in because of what happened with Ablixa." "Worked out super well for us." "You can bet on a stock to go down, just like you can bet on it to go up." "A few days before 9/11, there was a huge surge in the purchase of options of airline stock." "No one knows why." "It's a complete mystery." "But United fell 40% after the planes crashed and people made a lot of money." "And it isn't illegal." "Thinking something's going to happen isn't illegal" "Breaking the law to make it happen is a different story." "Jon, I know what insider trading is." "I used to work in finance." "Sure, you do, but, look." "See!" "Hey." "See what happened at Sadler-Benelux right after Martin Taylor died." "Down." "Way down." "AziLyle, on the other hand... up." "Way up." "She did it." "She made it happen, do you see?" "Do you see?" "Ablixa was her idea!" "But you prescribed it." "You did that." "I got a job today." "Huh?" "They offered me full time." "I left you a message this morning." "I didn't hear." "My phone was off 'cause I was at the hospital." "Hopefully with this and the consulting money we can finally get back..." "No, the Delatrex thing is over." "It's gone." "They fired me." "What?" "When?" "Today" "That's why I have to make this thing with Emily work." "I'm not letting another Alison Finn happen, so I'm fucking fighting this time!" "I don't want to hear about Emily or Alison." "But this is starting to make sense now!" "No, it's not making sense!" "It doesn't make sense that you're sitting here doing this all day long!" "The case is over." "The photographers are gone, your partners are gone, the Delatrex thing is now gone." "You're the only one that's still here." "I just want to know what happened." "A woman you were treating killed her husband." "That's what happened." "But I already told the truth." "That's what this test will help to prove." "How does it do that?" "It helps to show your true state of mind." "Sodium amytal gives us a window into someone's psyche." "It lowers inhibitions." "We make a video of the test and we show it to the judge." "It's just you know how I feel about drugs." "Emily, this is the fastest way out of here." "What does it do to me?" "Initially, you'll feel light-headed." "And then you will get a sense of well-being." "Calm." "After a few minutes, you'll probably get drowsy and fall asleep." "What do you do while that's happening?" "I ask questions." "You answer." "You say whatever you feel about what happened." "What motivated you to come and see me in the first place?" "My motivation was to get over my depression and to have a life with my husband." "Then that's what this will show." "What if I say something else?" "What do you mean?" "I just mean, what if I say something that makes my situation worse?" "You say anything you're not happy with, I'll destroy the video." "How old are you, Emily?" "Twenty-eight." "Where are we?" "Wards Island Psychiatric Forensic Center." "What is the capital of New York?" "Albany." "Do you know why you're here?" "Because my husband is dead." "How did he die?" "They said I stabbed him, but I can't remember." "Did you want him dead?" "Did you kill Martin on purpose?" "No." "I wanted us to sail away together on the boat, all three of us." "The three of you?" "Madeleine." "What happened to Madeleine?" "I lost her because I was sad and she didn't want to stay inside a sad person anymore." "He gave me so much and then they took him away." "I wanted to give him a daughter." "But you killed him." "Were you angry with him?" "Did you hate him?" "No." "I never would have hurt him." "I loved everything about him." "The way he smelled, his hands." "Everything about him, I loved." "Did you do it for the money?" "Like he did?" "Emily." "I loved everything about him." "Emily, can you hear me?" "I can't remember." "That's what she said in her statement." "She doesn't remember." "She's lying." "What does her falling asleep prove?" "You have to destroy this." "You're torturing the poor woman." "It's saline." "I gave her saltwater." "What?" "There was no drug." "So, why did she pass out?" "You don't put in a performance like that on saltwater." "Call the hospital." "Order a blood test." "You won't find any amytal in her system." "She's been lying this whole time." "Destroy that." "No." "Call the hospital." "Order a blood test." "Not a chance." "We have her." "Arrest her." "Dr. Banks..." "I want my life back!" "Destroy it before it destroys you." "She knew the safety features of the car..." "You don't want to say that to me or to anyone." "Another thing." "Sadler-Benelux is down." "Stop talking, Dr. Banks." "Stop!" "It's too late!" "Millions of dollars were made!" "No!" "You could have worked with us!" "I asked." "The verdict's in." "It's too fucking late for whatever that circus is that you just showed me." "You see, we can't just start over." "We have double jeopardy laws in this country." "Check her bank account." "We did." "We always do." "Nothing." "No insurance policy, no stock holdings, no inheritance from Martin." "She's not depressed." "And you didn't catch it and someone died." "And I didn't catch it and someone didn't go to jail." "We failed." "See, that's what your little stunt proves." "If it proves anything, it proves we got beat." "And that you lied to a woman who's not guilty about what you were putting in her arm." "Now, I don't know how you feel about that, but I would rather it stay between you and me." "You were never here." "Just come out there and see her once." "Please." "She wasn't depressed." "I actually can prove it." "Why would I examine her now?" "Is that what you wanted to see me about?" "Shit, Jon!" "I solved it finally, on my own." "Just come see her." "You're stuck in some old place, Jon." "I think you need someone to help pull you out." "I can refer someone good." "Are you still seeing her?" "I'm consulting." "I'm her expert on this case." "Well, that has to stop!" "You want to make it go away, you go out to Wards Island and resign from the case." "Step off." "I can't do that." "Well, then it's not going to go away." "Okay, you won't come and see her with me?" "No." "Can I ask you something else?" "What?" "Some Adderall." "Just a short term, 20 milligrams." "That's why you called, isn't it?" "I'm struggling to hold focus here, Gene." "That's what it's for, to help people focus." "You want to focus on something, focus on never seeing her again." "D, I've been thinking about what you said." "Look, you're right." "It's time to move on." "I'm heading over to Wards Island right now." "I'm not gonna see her again." "You went to see Emily." "Damn right, I did." "You could have called me first." "She called me." "She was very upset." "It was kind of a dramatic stunt to pull on a woman who's already in a great deal of emotional pain." "I don't understand your thinking." "I'm trying to determine her state of mind so I can chart the best course of treatment." ""Treatment"?" "You gave an amytal interview to a woman who's been declared not guilty." "I hope you learned something." "Oh, I did." "Quite a lot, actually." "I think she requires more observation." "And she'll need more medication as well." "This is Dr. Siebert on Bridge Street." "I'd like an envelope delivered to Manhattan." "Hey." "Where's the little guy?" "Fuck!" "I'm not going to go to the police, or whomever one goes to in this situation." "I'm just going to go away." "What?" "Wait!" "Hey, wait!" "Wait?" "Wait for this to happen again?" "Another Alison or Emily?" "Oh, wow." "See?" "Okay, these prove everything." "She took these." "These were sent by a friend of the husband's." "No, that's not true." "Stay away from us." "Wait!" "Dierdre!" "Dierdre." "Dierdre, wait a minute." "No, Jon." "Wait a minute." "Hello, love." "You have two unheard messages." "First unheard message." "Yes, Dr. Banks?" "This is Jeffrey Childs from the Office of Medical Conduct Review." "I have some questions about Alison Finn." "Can you call me at..." "Deleted." "This is Dr. Siebert." "I'm sure you've received my latest notes concerning the Emily Taylor case by now." "There is, I think you'll agree, a different course of treatment to pursue that is in everyone's best interest." "Maybe we can meet for a coffee?" "Thanks." "Saved." "End of new messages." "Check erased messages." "Press 1-9." "You could get national coverage on this." ""Shrinks fucking patients and manipulating them into killing their spouses."" "Hot stuff." "I would say this would ruin your practice." "But wait." "You don't have a practice anymore or a wife or a kid, I'm betting." "So what else can you lose?" "Martha can certainly use those in a wrongful death suit." "State revoke your license, yet?" "I always tell my patients," ""You know what the best predictor of future behavior is?"" ""Past behavior."" "Well, you don't have any more patients." "The only problem with having a crazy person for a partner" ""is they tend to stay crazy." "You should know how difficult it is to cure a pretty girl with daddy issues." "Nice try, Jon." "I'm not buying it." "Spend the fucking money now." "Because they're coming to take it back." "What are you talking about?" "You could go and ask her." "Only she asked me to keep you from seeing her." "She told me everything." "Everything?" "No, I'll tell you everything." "You wouldn't be here if you had nothing to lose." "She already got a "not guilty" verdict." "You, on the other hand..." "Fuck you!" "You get her out of there right now, you hear me?" "You do that and you won't hear from either one of us again." "Yeah, you can go back to chatting with rich white people about their problems." "She's cured, as of right now, Jon." "You're a fucking genius!" "She's been very agitated lately." "I think it best we restrict her visitors." "And no phone calls, either, without notifying me first." "She's been resisting her medication as well." "Very confrontational with the staff." "She seems to be getting worse." "Mmm." "I was afraid of that." "That's a mouth guard." "It stops her smashing her teeth, biting her tongue off." "The current lasts for about five seconds." "They'll have administered a paralytic agent, but they put a tourniquet on the ankle, you see?" "To make sure she is having a seizure." "Keep your eye on that foot." "It's actually been shown to be remarkably effective for treating severe depression." "None of the side effects you get with pills." "No idea what it might do to a normal person." "I also wanted to give you another test." "A personality inventory." "Just a series of true-or-false questions." "First saved voice message." "This is Dr. Siebert." "I'm sure you've received my latest notes concerning the Emily Taylor case by now." "Not a very subtle tool, but the results will be of interest to the board." "...a different course of treatment to pursue that is in everyone's best interest." "They like hard data to look at." "Wait." "What is she saying?" "Who?" "I don't think you should be my doctor anymore." "I think you should resign my case." "Victoria's paying me way too much for that." "Out of your share, I assume." "The shock treatment was her idea." "It damages the memory." "It's in our best interest that you start forgetting." "Are you ready for your treatment, Ms. Taylor?" "Oh, no, I scheduled it for tomorrow." "I need to use the phone." "You can be next." "I need to call my lawyer now." "Are you going to be long?" "You going to be long?" "I need to use the phone." "Are you going to be long?" "Isn't there a time limit?" "I need to call someone." "My shrink is fucking with me." "Can you get off now?" "I'm sorry, Mrs. Taylor." "You've been restricted." "By who?" "By Dr. Banks?" "He's not my doctor anymore." "He attacked me." "He's sick." "Miss Taylor, you need to step back." "Get off the phone." "Get off the phone!" "Miss Taylor, you need to relax." "Get me Dr. Siebert!" "This is bullshit!" "I shouldn't even be here!" "I'm not sick!" "Get me Dr. Siebert!" "No!" "No!" "Relax!" "Relax!" "No, I don't want it!" "I don't want it!" "Yes." "Dr. Siebert?" "Dr. Banks." "I've been thinking about our last conversation." "Yes." "An idea occurred to me." "Mmm-hmm." "Maybe I am a genius." "Hello there!" "Best we don't talk inside, right?" "Talk about what?" "Uh, she wants to go before the judge this week." "And what is she going to say?" "Well, it depends." "She could tell a long, sordid story about her former shrink." "Suggest the SEC investigate." "The whole story." "That would make national coverage, wouldn't it?" "And what do you get out of it?" "Oh, I don't know." "Peace of mind." "Like I said, it depends." "No." "No, no." "This will be the last time we speak." "Okay?" "You get her released, and we go back to being strangers." "Unless, of course, you want to consult on other patients." "No." "The staff told me you were having a difficult time." "So, I've added medication that will help." "If I tell you the truth, do I have to take the pills?" "I won't be able to tell the truth if I take any more pills." "Imagine everything you ever wanted shows up one day and calls itself your life." "And then, just when you start to believe in it..." "Gone." "And suddenly, it gets very hard to imagine a future." "That's depression, right?" "So I went to see Dr. Siebert." "We talked about my childhood." "About disappointment and Mommy and Daddy." "And I told her about Martin." "And she told me that her marriage with her husband had never been anything but a meeting of minds." "And minds start to wander after a while." "He had traded her in for a younger model, so she was alone and lonely." "It didn't take much." "I think she always liked girls, she just never found one she liked as much as me." "She taught me how to be depressed." "What drugs had which side effects." "What symptoms went with what diagnosis." "And I taught her everything Martin ever told me about derivatives and deals." "The trades were in her name." "So I forgave Martin." "I went to visit on the weekends and told him that I would wait for him." "What do you doctors call faking?" ""Malingering"?" "Such a funny word." "Girls learn to fake things at a very early age." "Probably around the same time that boys are learning to lie." "We needed everyone to see how much I wanted it to work out with us." "How much I loved my husband." "And how terribly depressed I was." "When did you decide to kill him?" "It's not a decision you make just once." "You make it over and over again, every time you look at your life and you see the position you're in and who put you there." "And it all leads back to him." "Each and every fucking problem, every disappointment." "And you think to yourself," ""Maybe if he just goes away, it'll all get better."" "Everything would have worked out perfectly if you had just disappeared after the trial like you were supposed to." "Why me?" "Was it because of Alison Finn?" "That was just a happy coincidence." "A convenient distraction." "It didn't have to be you." "It could have been you or anyone else who walked into my room with a prescription pad." "We didn't go looking for you, we just looked at the world." "I read somewhere that there's a difference between tears of joy and tears of rage." "Is that true?" "It's in the chemistry, but you can't tell by looking they all just look like tears." "Hello?" "Hello, I think I need help!" "I think my..." "My husband's bleeding and I think he's..." "I think he's been stabbed and he's dead." "He's dead, I think he's dead." "I think he's dead!" "You need to send someone!" "Please!" "You never did take the Paxil, did you?" "No." "Or the Zoloft." "No." "Only the Ablixa." "Didn't really do anything for me." "So, when did she start paying you?" "She always knew you'd turn on her someday" "like you did with Martin." "Past behavior is the best predictor of future behavior." "That's what she said about you." "And how long do you two plan on keeping me here?" "Why would we ever let you leave?" "Because maybe there's a better deal." "Over the course of her confinement, I've come to the conclusion with a reasonable degree of medical certainty that Emily Taylor is neither mentally ill or dangerous" "at this time." "I believe with the proper treatment she is not a threat to herself or others." "In my opinion, she's ready to move onto the next phase of rehabilitation with ongoing supervision, as outlined in the outpatient order of conditions." "The risk of relapse back into a dangerous mental state is low." "I've submitted to the court the conditions under which I believe the order of confinement may be rescinded." "And do you, Ms. Taylor, understand that if you violate the terms of your release," "I will have to issue a new order of confinement?" "Yes, Your Honor." "I text her like 20 times a day." "Zach, you're beginning to see a pattern, right?" "Everyone leaves." "It's not a pattern, it's a fact." "And how does this connect to you being adopted?" "I think it started there." "And now I'm making it happen." "You know, I get scared that people will leave and then" "I, uh, end up making them leave." "Excuse me, Dr. Siebert, I think someone wants you." "Uh, I'm sorry, Zach, this is an emergency." "We're gonna have to pick this up next time." "You didn't tell Banks anything, did you?" "Of course not." "How much did you have to pay him to get me out?" "It doesn't matter." "You're out." "It's taken care of." "You didn't leave me much choice." "What did you do with the rest of the money?" "Two accounts." "Mine's in Dubai, yours is in Grand Cayman." "God." "Are you sure you didn't tell him anything else?" "Yes, I'm sure." "Because there are SEC violations." "Conspiracy to commit murder." "I'm exposed here." "Yes, you are." "And I'm vulnerable." "Oh, God, I missed you." "You taught me to be such a sad, sad girl." "Do I look sad now?" "Do you remember the first time?" "Yeah." "Do you remember how wet I made you?" "Oh, yeah." "Do you want to do that again?" "Yeah." "What the fuck is that?" "You didn't leave me much choice." "Oh, my God." "Dr. Siebert, you're under arrest." "You're being charged with conspiracy to commit murder and securities fraud." "...within the next 10 minutes." "I think she's just arrived." "Yeah, she's here." "And thank you." "Here I am." "Cured at last." "You're late." "How long do I have to stay?" "I'm going to put you on some medication." "What?" "This is for Thorazine." "It's a tranquilizer, been around for years." "You know the people shuffling around like zombies with vacant eyes in the prison ward?" "They were on Thorazine." "So this is for Depakote." "It'll settle your mood, but hair loss is a side effect." "What is this?" "As part of our arrangement, I'll also be sending you to the Gramercy for urine tests to make certain you take your meds." "And I'm seeing you again tomorrow, all right?" "Try not to be late." "Angry people are frequently late." "This is bullshit!" "You sound angry." "Have you read the court order?" "You have to obey the terms of your release." "Yeah, I'm here." "Those terms mandate that if I believe you are a danger in any way" "I need to send you back to hospital immediately." "If I don't, I'm in violation of the law." "I got Siebert for you." "I'm a cooperating witness." ""Very noncompliant..." The deal was I testify against her and I get out. "..." "With a history of violence."" "This isn't out, this is fucked!" ""Dangerous."" "I think this needs a new diagnosis." "Based on what?" "What did I do?" "To the question," ""There are objects and creatures all around us only I can see,"" "you answered, "True."" "You filled that out!" "Schizoaffective disorder." "I think I need to send you back." "Mrs. Taylor!" "Emily Taylor!" "Miss Taylor, stop!" "Central, we have a 330-20." "No, he's lying!" "He's lying!" "I'm not sick, I'm not sick!" "I promise I'm not sick!" "He's the sick one!" "He just wants the money!" "No, I'm not sick, I promise!" "Don't bring me back, I don't want to go back!" "I don't want to go back!" "I don't want to go back!" "How are you doing today, Emily?" "Better." "Much better."