"[GRUNTING]" "All right." "Here's, uh, Owen's schedule." "Could somebody open this, please?" "He's got the, uh, pediatrician and gymboree tomorrow and" "Jule, are you listening?" "Pediatrician, gymboree." "I-I got it." "Try a towel on that." "And when you pick him up at daycare, you can't pull up to the curb anymore." "You got-- You gotta go inside." "Yeah." "You told me." "Owen, you got syrup on Vonda Shepard." ""Up on the Roof"?" "Hm, who could that be for?" "Shut up." "BOTH:" "You shut up." "Everybody shut up." "Now, this is my flight information with Gene and Ellie's number." "So if you need to reach me" "Think they're gonna let you stay with them?" "They haven't returned your call." "I kind of doubt Ellie's baking you a cake." "Well, I'll let you know where I'm staying, and I'll call you as soon as I know when I'm coming back." "Owen, give me a hug." "Wait a minute." "As soon as you know?" "I-I thought you said-- I said a few days." "It all depends on how well it goes." "Well, yeah." "But you can't just disappear for God knows how long and expect me to take care of everything." "I mean, Bay is, like, gone, and I've got stuff to do" "Hey, is it too much to ask for this one thing, Jule?" "I mean, you might start to appreciate my life around here a little bit." "Wait, Charlie, um..." "This is" " This is for Kirsten." "It's got some pictures of my recital." "I'll give it to her." "Now, I gotta go." "Have a nice trip." "Well, you know what I mean." "[SIGHS]" "[THE BODEANS' "CLOSER TO FIVE" PLAYING]" "* Everybody wants to live *" "* Like they wanna live *" "* And everybody wants to love *" "* Like they wanna love *" "* Everybody wants to be *" "* Closer to free-ee-ee-ee *" "* Closer to free *" "I know you hate these overalls, but I'm not the one who spilled syrup all over my pants." "So you're just gonna have to deal with it." "Okay?" "SAM:" "Morning." "JULIA:" "Oh, hey, Sam." "Oh, um, for you." ""Up the Ladder to the Roof," "Rain on the Roof."" "Cute." "Number one." "What?" "Number one." "No." "Hurry up." "So I was, um, thinking that we should maybe do something...together." "Julia, do-- Do I feel warm to you?" "Um, not now, Claudia." "Uh, sure." "Absolutely." "Like what?" "Um, do you ski?" "Ski?" "Um, me?" "Of course." "'Cause I was gonna go Saturday." "Julia, you're supposed to be taking care of us." "In a" " A minute, Claudia." "Saturday, I don't know." "I mean, Charlie..." "Sure." "Great." "Well, I should-- Um, Jule..." "What?" "What is with you?" "I can't believe you interrupted me like that." "Making me look like a stupid baby-sitter in front of Sam." "I really don't feel good." "I'm thinking maybe I should just stay home." "Nice try, Claudia." "You wanna skip school because Charlie's not here." "So forget it." "No, really." "I'm not" "So, I'll, uh" "I-I'll pick you up around 8?" "Perfect." "Julia." "In the car now." "Kids..." "OWEN:" "Uh-oh." "My pants." "Yeah." "[TOILET FLUSHING]" "[WHISTLE BLOWS]" "Seven." "Again." "Good match." "You work on that bridge, Andy." "Hold up, Bailey." "All right, men." "You see this?" "You see this?" "Salinger's been on the team three weeks, three weeks and look it him." "This is what a little dedication will do for you." "And do you know how many Salingers they got over at City?" "Every man on the team, that's how many." "Sit down, Bailey." "All right, here's the deal." "For the next 72 hours, you drink water only, and not much of that." "No alcohol." "You're gonna stick to your diets." "You're gonna work out." "Let Salinger here be your example." "Hit the showers." "Hey." "[DOORBELL RINGING]" "Hello, Ellie." "Charlie, you shouldn't have come." "I called four times." "I left messages." "If you didn't want me to be here..." "Look, this-- This is not a good time." "Gene's away for a few days." "I don't know how to handle this." "There's nothing to handle." "I just wanna see Kirsten." "Okay?" "She's not here." "Where is she?" "Did something happen?" "No." "No, no." "She's just gone out." "Look, Charlie, I'm sorry that you've come all this way, but" "[HORN HONKING]" "Charlie." "Hey." "Oh, my" " Oh, my God." "Look at you." "You look" " Wow." "I" " I can't believe this is" "This is such a surprise." "I" "Mom?" "Did you know about this?" "[BIRD CAWING]" "Half done." "Wanna trade?" "Hm?" "Oh, sure." "[CHATTER]" "[JAZZY MUSIC PLAYING]" "Hm, that's kind of bland." "Yeah." "Part of the diet." "High protein, low fat." "So guess what?" "My parents are trying to get me ready for college, you know, so they gave me separate billing on my charge card." "Cool." "What's it mean?" "Well, it means that they want me to start paying my own bills." "So the statement comes to me now, and if I want to put something on there that I don't want them to know about, that'd be okay." "What would you--?" "Like what?" "Like, um, a hotel room." "I-I told my mom and dad that we were going to that concert tonight, probably wouldn't be in till late." "[SIGHS]" "But I-I don't wanna pressure you." "You know, it's just we had talked about trying again, so." "It's like the perfect opportunity." "So, do you--?" "Do you want to?" "Try again?" "W" " Yeah." "Of course." "Of course I do." "But..." "I can't." "Can't?" "Why not?" "It's coach." "We had this totally lousy practice today, and Coach Petrocelli came down on us really hard." "On me." "And he said, you know, stick to the diet, no alcohol and no... you know..." "He j" " He just said that?" "Drains the stamina." "Well, it" " It made sense the way he said it." "Wow." "Kind of sucks, huh?" "Owen, get away from there." "You're gonna fall." "Oh." "There you are." "I want you to do a favor for me." "No." "Wait." "Will you just wait a minute?" "I want you to watch Owen for me on Saturday." "Why can't you do it?" "Well, because I have a date and that's" "Big whoop." "Julia, my stomach is killing me." "I told you." "So take something, all right?" "Look, I know what you're doing, Claudia, because I used to do it, and it's not gonna work." "You're not gonna screw this up." "Julia, I-- Listen, it's bad enough that I am stuck baby-sitting you guys," "I'm not putting my whole life on hold until Charlie gets back." "So you are just gonna help me, and that's it." "* You can no longer stand *" "* In the refractions *" "Hey, I'm making soup." "Well, heating soup, actually." "Do you want some?" "No." "No, I don't." "Is it too much to ask you to keep your garbage off the table?" "I've gotta study." "Okay." "So, what'd you guys fight about this time?" "What?" "You and Sarah." "The only thing that puts you in this bad a mood is when you guys-- We didn't fight." "Okay?" "And I don't wanna get into this stuff right now." "Not with you." "What's that supposed to mean?" "Look, just-- Just please leave me alone." "Great." "You drank all the beer." "No." "You drank all the beer." "Okay?" "And it was my six pack." "Look, you know, I'm getting a little tired of this, Bailey." "Okay?" "Will you please" "No." "You know, it just seems like every time things get a little rocky with Sarah, you" " You come home and you treat me like crap." "Either that or you want me flat on my back." "And you know what?" "I'm kind of sick of it." "What do you want from me, Callie?" "I don't know, Bailey." "I mean, would it kill you to at least treat me like an actual human being?" "I mean, is that too much to ask?" "You know what?" "Anything is too much to ask right now." "I don't wanna deal with any of this." "That's great, Bailey." "Where do you think you're going?" "Hey, I owe you a six pack." "[SIRENS WAILING]" "Are you sure this is okay?" "Better than upsetting your mom." "Yeah." "Guest room's fine." "These are, uh, for you." "Please don't use the ones hanging in the bathroom." "Uh, there's a plastic squeegee in the shower stall." "Use it to wipe off the door if you don't mind." "It mildews." "No problem." "I called Gene." "He's gonna try and get back here as soon as possible." "You didn't have do that, mom." "Of course I did." "Good night." "You should get some sleep." "[CHUCKLES]" "[CHUCKLES]" "Ugh." "She's making me crazy." "[SIGHS]" "So... you look great." "Like you're better." "Well, the last four weeks have actually been pretty good since I went on this new medication." "I mean, I'm not fetal anymore." "So that's a start." "So you've been doing pretty good for" "For what, like, the last month?" "Well, yeah, pretty good." "So, I mean, why didn't you--?" "You write me and tell me or--?" "Or call me or something?" "[CHUCKLES]" "I don't know." "'Cause I've been really worried, Kirsten." "I wanted to know." "It's just... maybe I didn't really trust it, you know?" "Like, as soon as I wrote you or told you, it wouldn't be true anymore." "But it is true." "It is now." "KIRSTEN:" "So, anyway," ""Chic-ago" was the Indian word for stinking onion, 'cause of all the onion fields." "But the French settlers pronounced it "Shi-cago."" "See?" "And we're walking." "We're walking." "[KIRSTEN GIGGLES]" "Well, you asked." "So come on, I want details." "Tell me everything that's going on." "Well, not much." "Everybody misses ya." "Owen asks about you a lot." "He does?" "Especially when I put him to bed." "He told me he likes your bedtime stories better than mine." "[LAUGHING]" "God, I miss that." "What?" "It's just been such a long time since I've seen you smile." "It's nice to see." "So do you wanna go see the view from the top of the Sears Tower, or there's this great architectural tour." "You'd like that." "How about if we just keep walking for a little bit?" "How about if we do." "Rayich, come on, hit the mats." "Come on." "Hustle." "Hustle." "Hustle." "Shoot." "Shoot." "Excuse me, but the ladies' gym's over at Chapman Hall." "Oh, um, I'm looking for Bailey Salinger, actually." "I thought he had practice." "He does, but he's not here." "And if you find him, you tell him if he misses another practice, he's off the team." "I don't care how good he is." "That's a good move." "Mills, what are you, Gumby?" "Come on, move." "Move." "Shoot." "Shoot." "Owen, come on." "Look, I'm sorry I was late." "But hey, you got extra time in the sandbox, and I got 50 percent off on a really cute ski suit." "I don't care." "Owen." "Give me a break." "[ANSWERING MACHINE BEEPS]" "Claudia." "Claud!" "Oh, hey, Julia, it's Sam." "Sam Brody." "You know, the, uh, roof guy." "Uh, I was just thinking, we kind of need to beat the traffic in the morning." "So how about if I pick you up around 7?" "Call me if you can handle that." "Okay.Bye." "[MACHINE BEEPS]" "WOMAN:" "This is Dr. Eglar's office at County General." "Your sister Claudia was admitted this afternoon with a prettyacute case of appendicitis." "And we needed someone to authorize surgery." "Please contact us as soon as possible." "But how is she?" "I mean, it's nothing serious or anything?" "It's just her appendix?" "All I can tell you is she's out of the surgery." "Other than, you have to wait for her doctor." "Okay." "It's okay." "You sit here." "You sit right here." "Okay?" "Salinger?" "Me." "Uh, that's me." "I'm Julia Salinger, Claudia's sister." "Is she okay?" "She's fine." "We couldn't get in touch with you, so we had to go ahead with the surgery." "We really had no choice." "No." "No, that's okay." "Your office explained it." "Whatever you need me to sign." "But she's okay?" "She's gonna be fine." "Your sister's quite a character." "Can I see her?" "I wanna see her." "Oh, well..." "What?" "What's wrong?" "Nothing." "Just..." "She made it pretty clear..." "She said to tell you she doesn't wanna see you." "Sorry." "Oh." "Is this my exit?" "Hm?" "No." "Um, the toll clause is probably backed up." "Just stay in this lane." "[BREATHES DEEPLY]" "Charlie..." "I think I'm ready to go home." "That's where we're headed." "I meant-- I meant San Francisco." "I can't stop thinking about it." "And I miss it." "And I don't know, it just-- It just feels right." "Like it's been long enough." "Wow." "You think?" "I should" " I should think about getting on with my life." "Figure out what that's gonna be." "And I" " I can't do that with Mom and Dad telling me what to wear and what to eat." "And" " And maybe if I go" "If I go back home with you, I can" "I can get everything back on track." "Okay." "Wow." "That's, um-- We'll make plans." "You can finish up what you have to do here and then" "That's the thing, you know, there's nothing here." "Then we can fly back tomorrow or" "Or whenever." "Whenever you're ready." "I'm ready now." "Let's" " Let's go." "Let's just keep driving and go." "Right." "That's, like, 2,000 miles." "How about we go back and get my bag and your stuff, and then we'll fly back as soon as" "No, I mean it." "If we go back to my house, my mom" "Well, she-- You know what she'd do." "So" " So let's just do it, Charlie." "Let's just drive back to San Francisco." "[SIGHS]" "Take me home, please." "Okay." "[CHUCKLES]" "Okay." "[GIGGLES]" "[PHONE RINGING]" "Hey, Bailey." "What?" "Bailey, do you want me to get that?" "No." "The machine, uh..." "Bailey, are you drunk?" "Hung over." "What is going on with you?" "You know, you're really starting to scare me." "Not now, Sarah." "God." "No." "I mean," "I looked for you at practice, and you weren't there-- Sarah." "and I know something's going on." "You said you're not supposed to drink, look at you." "I don't-- I can't do this right now." "Okay?" "Please." "Is it me?" "Is it me?" "I mean, did I do something?" "I just wish you'd tell me." "No." "No." "You didn't do anything." "I don't believe you." "Why else would you be treating me this way?" "It's-- it's nothing." "Okay?" "It's nothing." "It has to be something, Bailey." "Because you said that you weren't supposed to drink." "And you said that you weren't supposed to have sex, and if you could do one, then why can't--?" "I did both," "Sarah." "I did both." "What?" "I can't..." "It's not you." "It's not your fault." "I can't lie to you." "Callie." "I" "With Callie." "[SOBBING]" "Oh." "Sarah." "Wow, I'm" "Bailey." "[SOBBING]" "Kirsten, Kirsten, listen to me, honey." "I know." "I know what you want, b-but this is a mistake." "No, honey, you know what your doctors said." "You're not well enough to" "I know you love him, sweetheart." "I know you do." "But my God, I mean" " Kirsten?" "We're south of Chicago in a snowstorm." "But, anyway, I'm using up all the tape here." "Um, we'll see you guys in a couple of days." "Pretty cool, huh?" "So how'd that go?" "Is everything okay?" "What?" "Yeah." "I mean, she's upset, but I think I convinced her." "We should get going." "Okay." "Bailey, hey, wake up, wake up." "Go away." "Bailey, you turned the machine down." "So what?" "Stop talking." "Bailey, your sister's in the hospital." "What?" "Which one?" "County General." "She's" "No." "Which sister?" "Claudia, it's appendicitis." "But she's okay." "Man." "My God." "Bailey, jeez." "I'm okay." "Leave me alone." "I'm okay." "Look, do you want me to drive you?" "Would you mind?" "Hey, where have you been?" "I called the apartment." "I called Sarah." "You called Sarah?" "Yeah." "It's kind of" " I'm sorry." "She's okay, right?" "Yeah, she's okay." "She's" "God, you look like hell." "What happened to you?" "Jus" " Nothing." "Okay?" "[CLAUDIA MOANS]" "Claud?" "Hey." "Hey, how you doing?" "Hey." "Bailey?" "Right here." "I'm right here." "You came all the way over here just for me?" "Of course I did." "You know I did." "I brought this for ya." "Wow." "You're so thoughtful." "I was just dreaming." "I" "I dreamed I called 911, you know, and I was all alone and you showed up in the ambulance, and you took care of me and, it wasn't so scary." "I wish I'd been there, Claud." "My mouth's all full of cotton." "Bailey, would you get me some juice or something?" "Yeah, sure." "I'll be right back." "WOMAN [OVER PA]:" "Dr. Austin to Labor and Delivery." "Hi." "Claudia Salinger's room, please." "327." "Right over there." "Thank you." "What are you doing here?" "Oh, Sarah, I just gave Bailey a ride." "How could you?" "You know, after what you did?" "What?" "He told you." "I tried to help you through that whole rape thing, and what was that?" "Sarah" "Was that just some twisted excuse to get Bailey to spend time with you?" "Is that it?" "Is that how it happened?" "I mean, you made him feel sorry for you?" "I'm gonna go." "Okay?" "I-I should go." "How could you do this?" "Look, maybe you should talk to Bailey." "Sarah." "These are for Claudia." "[SIGHS]" "Hey, Omaha, three miles." "Beef capital of the world." "I'm thinking we should stop for the night." "Have us a roast steak for dinner, pick up a change of clothes." "What's the next town?" "Um, Lincoln." "But that's at least-- I don't" "You know what, I" " I don't" "I'm not ready to stop yet." "Let's just keep going until the next town." "Let's just stop in Lincoln." "Do you want me to drive?" "No, no." "That's, uh" " That's fine." "Your mom let me in." "I was walking." "Just walking." "Trying to understand." "Why would you do this, Bailey?" "I wish" " I wish I could explain, but I don't know." "And I know that's not even" "I know that's not good enough." "And I know you deserve more than that, but I don't know, Sarah." "I don't know." "Can you go, please." "'Cause I know that you're here to break up with me and" "No." "No." "Look, I love you, Sarah." "I love you." "Don't." "I love you and-- Stop it, please." "Yell at me." "Call me names and-- And" " And throw things, and hit me and tell me you never want to see me again." "I should." "Cause I really hate you for this, Bailey." "And I never thought that was possible." "But there it is." "I hate you so much for this." "I know." "And I wanna hurt you, and tell you to go to hell." "I want to do all those things so bad." "But I can't." "I'm still in love with you." "And that's not just gonna go away." "Because... [***] you're the one that's supposed to hold me." "Sarah." "I can't." "Not yet." "Okay." "We got sweatpants, socks, couple of changes of underwear, and two beautiful Lincoln, Nebraska sweatshirts, gray for you and black for me." "[SIGHS]" "You okay?" "Huh?" "Oh... whatever you wanna do." "Did you have a good shower?" "Lousy." "The water's so soft I couldn't get the shampoo out of my hair." "That and the fact that there's no water pressure, and the towels are nubbly." "Nubbly?" "Yeah, you know, covered with nubs." "I hate that." "Right." "But, other than that, you okay?" "Stop asking me that." "I just hate nubbly towels." "Is that a crime?" "No, of course not." "I'm, uh-- I'm gonna take a shower." "Oh, this is perfect." "What?" "What's the matter?" "Look at this." "Look at this." "What's wrong?" "They look clean." "They're worn out, Charlie, and they're nubbly." "I don't see that-- Right there." "Feel that." "Everything in this place is-- Is nubbly." "All right." "I'll call the front desk and we'll" "That'll take" " I don't wanna wait up half the night" "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "[***]" "Sorry." "I'm just" "I'm just tired." "That's all." "Are you sure?" "Yes." "Yes, um, just... go take your shower." "It's okay." "Kirsten." "I'm okay." "[CHUCKLES]" "I'm okay, Charlie." "I'm fine." "[MOUTHING] Okay." "Kirsten?" "Why don't you come back to bed?" "[CRYING]" "Hey, it's okay." "Shh." "It's okay." "You wanna talk about it?" "It's too soon, Charlie." "I thought I was ready, but it's too soon." "Will you take me home?" "Shh." "[PHONE RINGING]" "Hello?" "Oh." "Hey." "No." "No," "I was just sitting here." "You know." "How was skiing?" "Oh, sorry I missed it." "Huh?" "No." "No." "The nurse told me to go home, but, I don't know," "I couldn't stand the thought of leaving her all alone here." "So I stayed the night." "I've been watching her sleep." "Yeah, yeah." "She's fine." "I'm the one who's feeling lousy." "Sure." "That'd be great." "All right." "Bye." "[CLAUDIA MOANING]" "Don't worry." "I won't stay in here." "I'll be out in the waiting room." "Actually, um... do you think there's any of that orangeade left?" "Sure." "Sure." "* Six o'clock And it's way down low *" "* She looked at me Saying "We gotta go now" *" "* Not the way I feel More the way things sound *" "Do you mind?" "No." "[MUSIC LOWERS]" "Sorry." "It just helps drown everything else so I can think." "This stupid paper." "Hey, look, it's" " It's cool if you need some time." "You know." "I mean, I'm okay with that." "Trust me, I know it sucks to break up with someone." "We didn't." "You're kidding?" "You mean, even after you" "She doesn't want to." "And I kind of don't either." "So this thing between us, whatever it is, it has to stop." "Hm, yeah, seems like you said that once before." "Standing right about there as I recall." "Don't, please." "I'm only telling you this because we're gonna try and work it out." "And you should know that." "What the hell are you doing, Bailey?" "Oh, God, you know" "You know, you're just" "You're not worth it." "[TURNS MUSIC UP]" "* We gotta go *" "* Remember the time *" "* Gotta put away the game *" "Kirsten?" "What's the matter?" "Kirsten?" "I can't do this, Charlie." "I can't do this anymore." "I know." "I'm taking you back." "No." "No." "It's not" "My therapist tried to tell me and I wouldn't even go there." "I know that." "I got really good at justifying and rationalizing, but I wouldn't listen." "What?" "What are you talking about?" "I tried to explain it, how it felt..." "What it was like to be in love with you." "And I tried to defend it because I love you so much." "And all that time" "I was getting better, and I started recognizing myself in the mirror again and that felt" "What?" "What?" "It's you, Charlie." "I can't be with you." "Okay." "Okay." "Obviously, we-- We tried to rush into this." "Obviously, this was too soon to think that we could do this, but that does not mean-- Charlie, I can't." "That's what I'm trying" "I'm just" "I'm doing it again." "I-I'm with you and I" "And I think I'm happy, but" "But it's always there." "When you left me" "The wedding" "That was" "That was just-- Wait a minute." "What?" "This is about the wedding?" "That's not-- That's not fair, Kirsten." "Charlie-- Look at me." "I'm not" " I've-- I've changed, Kirsten." "Look at me since I've been with you." "And look at me." "I know that you've changed, Charlie, but that's just" "The wedding triggered it, this thing." "Something that was already inside of me." "And now you're all tangled up in that somehow, and I can't just get past it." "I" "I tried to make it go away, but it just" " It won't." "I love you." "But every time I look at you, it's" "It's all I see." "And I know it's not fair." "And I know it's not your fault, but it's all I see." "Darling." "[YAWNS]" "You don't have to be here every minute, you know." "Mm." "I'm okay." "I know that." "So guess what?" "Dr. Eglar said I'll be able to wear a bikini without showing a scar." "Hey, that's a plus." "I can help you pick one out." "There's a great indoor pool at the Aquatic Center too." "We should do that." "The two of us, you know." "Swim, check out the guys." "Huh?" "How does that sound?" "Claud?" "SAM:" "Where's my camera when I need it?" "JULIA:" "Hey." "For me?" "Actually, no." "They're for Claudia." "I hope flowers are okay." "I didn't know whether I should do that or candy or stuffed toy something." "I've never been around kids much, so." "JULIA:" "She loves flowers." "It's sweet." "So you haven't dated somebody with kids before, huh?" "Can't say that I have." "'Cause it's not like I have kids, but I sort of do." "And it's just kind of how my life is." "Sometimes I'm gonna have to baby-sit, and sometimes I'm gonna have to cancel at the last minute and" "Sometimes you're gonna be doing homework." "I know." "Whoa." "That's weird." "Hey, you know what?" "You're pretty amazing." "Wow." "Amazing." "Huh." "It's a good word." "Julia." "Hey, I'm right here, Owen." "I'm right here." "Kirsten?" "Kirsten, honey, are you all right?" "I'm fine, mom." "Are you sure?" "Are you?" "I'm glad you came back." "Charlie, I can't believe that-- Mom, don't." "Okay?" "Not now." "You wanna come inside?" "No." "I don't think" "[***]" "Could you just maybe, uh, get my bag for me?" "I'm just gonna" "Sure." "I'll be right back." "Kirsten." "Yeah?" "Nothing." "Just, uh, my shaving kit's in the bathroom." "I'll get it." "Charlie, how dare you." "How dare you come here and put her through this." "What were you thinking?" "What were you possibly thinking?" "You know what, Ellie, I'm not" "Could you just send my bag to me?" "I'll pay for it." "What?" "Look, Kirsten just" "Just send it to me." "Okay?" "I can't-- I can't do this again, and she shouldn't have to either." "* What else can I do?" "*" "* But bring a blanket *" "* For you *" "So pretty lame match, huh?" "Hm?" "I guess so." "Yeah." "I think that one guy must have lied about his weight class." "He was a gorilla." "Yeah." "But you put up a good fight." "Um..." "I'm half done." "You ready to trade?" "Yeah." "* What else can I do *" "* But lend my shoulder *" "* To you?" "*" "* Or to bury your head *" "Hello." "* Let the teardrops roll *" "Anybody home?" "* Hold your head up high *" "Anybody?" "* What else can I do *" "* But lend my shoulder To you?" "*" "* I have tears for you And another two *" "* When you feel like dying *" "* I feel nothing at all *" "* Well, there's nothing left *" "* Lord, we can do *" "* I say *" "* I'll pray *" "* What else can I do *" "[CRYING]" "[***]"