"If you're watching this right now it's because you've forgotten why you've locked yourself in your apartment." "You've given yourself 30 days to figure out why you're so messed up." "Your phone's been turned off." "You don't have shit." "You don't have friends." "You don't have a job." "This is your last chance." "'Cause I swear to God, if things don't change in these next 30 days I will kill myself." "[Click]" "[Low's "Laser Beam" plays]" "+ I don't need a laser beam +" "+ I don't need the time +" "+ Leave me in the car tonight +" "+ Rest your drunken mind +" "[Siren walls]" "+ I need your grace +" "+ Alone +" "[Electricity crackling]" "[Doors creak]" "ELIZABETH:" "Madison." "Madison, wake up." "[Monitor beeping]" "Madison, can you hear me?" "I'm Dr. Barnes." "Can I have some water?" "Can you tell me your full name?" "Madison Walker." "Do you know what month it is?" "June?" "July?" "Have you ever been treated for any type for of mental illness?" "I take medication." "And what do you take medication for?" "I don't know." "You don't know what you take medication for, or you were never told what the medication was for?" "I don't understand the question." "When can I go home?" "Are you having any suicidal thoughts now?" "No." "Can you tell me what happened last night?" "I don't remember." "Well, if you don't remember, then how do you know that you didn't try to take your life?" "Because I know I wouldn't do that." "Have you ever spent any time in a psychiatric hospital?" "No." "Would you ever consider checking yourself in to one?" "No." "I have that book." "Excuse me?" "I'm gonna give you my number, and, uh, I want you to call me if you need anything." "My mom burned them all." "Burned what?" "My notebooks." "But I hid one so she couldn't find it." "Why did you hide that one and not the others?" "Because I needed you to find it." "[Bell clanging]" "[Bell clanging]" "[Door unlocking]" "[Door creaks]" "[Keys thud]" "Uh, I was sitting up front in his station wagon, and he had these, um, red plastic seat covers." "It made a noise when he moved." "And there was, like, um, a plastic..." "Jesus figurine on the dashboard." "Why were you alone in the car with him?" "Uh, well, it was like, um..." "like a field trip to the... to the zoo, and, uh... and the bus was all filled up, so, um, I rode with him in the car." "What happened... in the car?" "It's okay." "You can tell me." "It's okay." "Um..." "He kissed me." "Did he try to... touch you, or..." "Why didn't you tell your parents what happened?" "Um..." "I told my mom." "And what did she say?" "Um..." "She didn't believe me." "How could she not believe you?" "She said that, uh, a man of God would never do something like that." "What do you mean, "a man of God"?" "Um, he was our priest." "[Siren walls in distance]" "[Indistinct conversations]" "[Jazz music playing]" "[Horse whinnies, hooves clopping]" "[Saxophone plays]" "[Bell clanging]" "WOMAN:" "Okay, so, I guess you just fell on that razor." "Uh-huh." "You know what your problem is?" "You're too fucking white." "You see, Black people..." "we don't let shit get to us." "I mean, seriously, that's why you don't see Black girls up in the loony bin." "Because we don't let shit bother us." "We don't give a fuck." "What are you waving at with that tired-ass..." " I'm not interested." " I'm not selling." "Glad we got that straight." "You know, tell me something, beautiful." "I bet you like to get fucked really hard, hmm?" "Tell Daddy what you like." "Uh, since when do you smoke?" "What... what the hell is your problem?" "Hello?" "Mm." "Where were we?" "[Breathing heavily]" "Put your hands around my throat." "What?" "Oh." "Harder." "[Moans]" "Yeah." "Yeah, you like that?" "Choke me." "Choke me." "Choke me." "[Crying]" "Please stop." "You like getting fucked." "Please stop." "Please." "[Moaning]" "[Both breathing heavily]" "I know what you want me to say." "What do you think I want you to say?" "That they took advantage of me because I was only 13." "Well, do you think they took advantage of you?" "No." "They got you drunk with the intention of having sex with you." "Look, they've been married for, like, 100 years." "They needed something to spice it up." "Did you have any feelings for..." "either one of them?" "I liked him better." "And where is he now?" "He killed himself." "[Pounding on door]" "[Door unlocking]" "What do you want?" "Your rent." "You're like a week late." "It's due on the 1st." "Today is the 9th, sweetheart." "I'll have it tomorrow." "No, you..." "Tomorrow's too late, sweetheart." "Open the door." "Tomorrow's too late." "But, now, if you wanted to do some trading like we did back in March..." "I'll work with you." "I don't know what you're talking about." "[Sighs]" "You have my money by tomorrow morning or you're out of here." "[Footsteps depart]" "[Door creaks]" "ELIZABETH:" "Margaret, we can't keep doing this." "[Scoffs]" "I can." "Why do you want to?" "'Cause." "'Cause why?" "Because I'd rather slit my wrist or be fucking hung upside down and beaten to a pulp than have to talk to you." "You're angry." "[Sighs]" "No." "Don't start that psychological shit." "You really don't like me, do you?" "Beth, I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "It's not that..." "that I don't like you." "I fucking hate you." "[Chuckles]" "Why?" ""Why?" "Why?"" "Because people that are scared make me sick." "You think that I'm scared?" "I don't know, Beth." "Are you scared?" "Hmm?" "What happened to you?" "Tell me." "You gonna say any-fucking-thing?" "No?" "No, I can play that game, too." "[Chuckles]" "Cool." "I'll go back to bed." "[Clears throat]" "[Sighs]" "+ Before each other's face +" "+ Look into my eyes +" "[Bell clanging]" "+ Is it still there?" "+" "+ All that time +" "[Bell clanging]" "[Bottles clinking]" "[Insects chirping]" "[Sighs]" "Maddie?" "Hi, Dad." "[Clears throat]" "A friend of yours, Greg Hicks, got married last week." "Did you hear?" "No." "Yeah." "They had the wedding over at the Episcopal church on, uh, Fitz Morris street." "Hurricane knocked down everything on that street except that church." "[Chuckles]" "Is everything all right with you?" "Yeah, same as usual." "That's good." "That's good." "You need money?" "Dad, I didn't come here to ask you for money." "Well, I know you didn't." "I just... but it's okay if you..." "if you need it." "I don't know how much I can give, 'cause your mother's insurance got pulled again." "DOLLY:" "Who's there, Steven?" "[Gasps]" "Tell me I'm not dreaming." "Hi, Mom." "My angel's come home!" "[Gasps]" "Look at you!" "Look how long your hair is!" "Steven, why didn't you come and tell me my little angel was here?" "Well, I thought you were sleeping." "Sleep?" "Who has time for sleep?" "[Laughs]" "Steven, did you get her some food?" "Well, I..." "I didn't think that she wanted any." "Yeah, no, I'm..." "I'm not hungry." "Oh, nonsense." "You sit right here, and daddy will get you some food." "You are skinny as a scarecrow!" "[Both laugh]" "Daddy said you're doing some telemarketing." "How is that going?" "Uh, it's fine." "Oh, Maddie, please tell me you're not still living in that awful French Quarter." "I am still living in that awful French Quarter." "Someone like you should not be living in a place like that." "It's enough to tempt anyone." " Is that meat?" " Uh-huh." "I don't feel like red meat." "My blood is thick today." "It needs poultry." "Want me to make you some chicken?" "It's not very attractive being so skinny, Maddie." "It makes your face sink in." "A woman should be soft and round, the way God made her." "Mmm!" "Mmm, mmm, mmm." "[Chuckles]" "Mmm." "Meat, yes." "DOLLY:" "Tell him everyone that you love." "Dear God, I love my mama, my daddy, my uncle Pete." "Tell God you love His only son, our Lord Jesus Christ." "Dear God, I love your only son, Jesus Christ." "Our Lord Jesus Christ." "Our Lord Jesus Christ." "Tell Him to forgive you for the sins you have committed." "What sins, Mama?" "Tell Him your sins." "But I haven't sinned." "In the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost." "Watch over my daughter, and cleanse her of her wrong doings." "Put your hand on the Bible and swear your life over to Jesus Christ." " I don't want to." " Do it." "I swear my life over to Jesus Christ." "I would have put fresh sheets on the bed had I known you were coming." "[Sighs]" "It's okay." "I'm not staying." "Why not?" "Because I have my own place." "You're being tempted living in that awful French Quarter." "Oh, God, Mother, don't start." "You want to spend your days in eternal hell?" "[Chuckles]" "As long as you're not there." "Listen to the filth coming out of your mouth." "What has happened to you?" "I wonder." "You're a heathen!" "Look at you!" "I can see it in your eyes." "He's robbed your soul!" "Dolly, come to bed now." "I can see it in her eyes, Steven!" "She's got him crawling all over her!" "Listen to how she speaks to me!" "It's all right." "You just go on to bed." "Go on to bed." "It's all right." "It's all right." "She's sick, honey." "She doesn't mean it." "[Scoffs]" "You're still making excuses for her?" "I'm not making excuses." "You're defending her." "Well, she loves you." "She thinks I'm Satan." "Oh, that's just..." "that's just her sickness talking." "She doesn't really think that." "Well, she needs medication!" "Just look... just..." "Sweetheart, just..." "Hey, keep your voice down." "Dad, why are you still protecting her?" "Well, I'm not protecting her, I..." "[Scoffs]" "Yeah." "Whatever." "Please, sweetheart..." "Just, Maddie, please stay the night." "We never get to see you." "I have work tomorrow." "YOUNG MADISON:" "Mama?" "!" "Mama?" "!" "Mama!" "Please!" "I didn't do anything wrong!" "Please don't leave me in here!" "I didn't do anything wrong!" "Okay, and here, we'll just, once again, use the little crisscross strokes." "That's a nice little gray sky there." "So, tell you what..." "let's take some of that same color..." "[Grace laughs]" "Just the black and the blue." "That's all we need." "Come on." "You know you want it." "[Laughs]" "You can add more of the black." "You can gray it down or leave it brighter." "Dang!" "89!" "[Gasps, laughs]" "Lexy, shut up!" " NURSE:" "Grace Matthews." " ALEXIS:" "Margaret." "Be right back." "Margaret, don't..." "don't give me evil stares." "NURSE:" "Margaret Jones." "ELIZABETH:" "Alexis, Grace, Margaret," "I have a very exciting project I want to talk to you about." "Can you please all come to the meeting area?" "MARGARET:" "Alexis, shut up!" "Just for about 10 minutes." "Um, I was watching that." "Sorry." "Grace, could you please come over here?" "Elizabeth!" "I was watching that." "Alexis!" "Elizabeth, I'm..." "I'm playing a game." "1, 2, 3, 4..." "Alexis!" "Okay." "I have three video cameras." "I want you to use these to express yourselves... any thoughts or feelings that you may have." "Like a..." "like a diary?" "Yes, like a diary." "Could you please cross your legs?" "Thank you." "Here's your camera." "Here you go." "MARGARET:" "I don't have any thoughts." "I don't have any thoughts." "I don't have any memories." "I was watching the fucking TV." "I'm sure you'll think of something." "That is not okay." "That's inappropriate." "Pick that up, Margaret, now." "ALEXIS:" "Margaret, pick it up, 'cause that's very inappropriate." "Pick it up." "Margaret, pick it up." "Pick it up." "Pick it up." "Take the camera, Margaret." "I don't want to do this project with any of you guys!" "All right, that is not okay." "That is not okay." "Sit down!" "It is okay, okay?" "!" "Get out of my seat!" "[Indistinct shouting]" "It's not necessary, really." "She's fine." "Sit down." "GRACE:" "I'll be waiting for you, sweetheart." "Shh." "Shh." "[Alexis whimpering]" "Shh." "It's okay." "It's okay." "Ow." "[Toilet flushes]" "[Sighs] 30 tapes, 30 days." "How long have you been having these blackouts that you keep talking about?" "Since I was 12... or 13." "And what's the longest you've ever blacked out?" "Two months." "Two months?" "[Sighs]" "What happened?" "I... woke up..." "In New York on a subway." "And do you know how you got there?" "No, I don't remember anything." "And how do you know that you were in New York for two months?" "Um, because I found a bus ticket in my bag that said it was from New Orleans to New York." "It must be really scary to not be able to remember." "I can deal with it." "Why do you think you have to deal with everything all by yourself?" "Do you think I'm crazy?" "I think you should check yourself in to the hospital." "[Rain falling]" "[Thunder crashes]" "[Water dripping]" "[Door creaks]" "This is the first time in 13 years... that I haven't taken medication." "I don't know..." "I don't know what's really happening." "Uh..." "I don't know what I'm gonna do." "I know that..." "I know that you can hear me." "I'm in my apartment right now..." "And, uh... and..." "I don't..." "[Voice breaking] I don't really remember... much of, like, where I've... where I've been and what I've been doing, and, uh..." "It's kind of a scary feeling." "The first time I tried to kill myself, I was, uh, 13, and my mom had these crowns of thorns." "Um, and she had this particular one that was really special to her." "And... and so I put that one on my head." "And I cut my wrists and my ankles, and I laid down on the floor so that I was beautiful and peaceful, just like Jesus." "And, um... and I thought when she found me, she'd be really happy, because she loves Him so much." "Um, and then she... she came into the room and she saw me lying there." "And, um..." "And she was really mad." "And... and that's when I knew that she'd never... never love me as much as she loves Jesus." "The first time I tried to commit suicide," "I was 16." "I got pregnant and had to have an abortion." "I didn't have any money, and I couldn't tell my parents, so I had to have it done by this guy who said he could do it real cheap." "But he messed up, and now I can't have kids." "So, uh, here, Elizabeth." "Here's a little thought for you." "[Chuckles]" "Every time you walk into the room..." "I want to take your fucking face and smash it against the ground." "Margaret, what are you doing?" " What are you doing?" "That is..." " Ahh!" "This is not funny." "[Groans]" "[Orderly grunts]" "Fucker!" "Why don't you let me do it?" "!" "[Book thuds]" "[Muffled scream]" "I have no... no concept of..." "of time or what time is." "I don't understand it." "I mean, is it even real?" "Because I don't remember..." "I don't remember so many things." "[Birds chirping]" "What's your magical power going to be?" "I don't want one." "But you have to." "Come on, just pick one." "I want to be invisible." "But if you're invisible, then I can't see you." "And if I can't see you, we can't be friends." "We're friends?" "DOLLY:" "Madison!" "Madison, where are you?" "!" "I have to go." "You don't have to go." "We can hide here." "She won't find us." "DOLLY:" "Madison Ann Walker, I'm going to count to three!" "ELIZABETH:" "Madison?" "Huh?" "Where were you just now?" "Madison." "What?" "Come sit down." "Why can't you look at me?" "I don't know." "Well, if you ever feel uncomfortable, you tell me, and we'll fix it." "Why are you being so nice to me?" "Hasn't anyone ever been nice to you?" "We'll just, once again, use the little crisscross strokes." "[Grace laughs]" "You can add more of the black." "You can gray it down or leave it brighter." "It all depends on you." "[Laughs]" "You want to paint my nails for me?" "Is it... is it at all possible that you can not be a skank for one second when I'm watching my show?" "[Chuckles]" "No." "Get off my fucking couch." "Make me." "Yeah?" "NURSE:" "Margaret, come get your meds." "Just, once again, use a little crisscross stroke." " Bitch." " Mm-hmm." "WOMAN:" "Checkmate." "Checkmate." "Checkmate." "Checkmate." "MARGARET:" "[Singing "Jaws" theme]" "Checkmate, checkmate, checkmate!" "Aaaaaah!" "Aah!" "Aaaaaah!" "Checkmate." "[Laughing]" "Psst!" "She can't help you." "Your precious doctor..." "That isn't even a doctor." "She's just gonna make you worse." "And what makes you the expert?" "Well, I've been here the longest." "I can see why." "You're gonna need me." "How's that?" " Leave her alone, Margaret." " Shut up!" "You'll be the first to go." "You don't scare me." "I bet I can." "Aaaaaaaaaahh!" "Aah!" "Stop it, Margaret!" "Leave me alone!" "Please leave me alone!" "Let me go!" "[Alexis screaming]" "No!" "No!" "No!" "Aah!" "Margaret, give it back!" "Margaret, give it back!" "Stop it!" "[Screaming]" "[Record clatters, breaks]" "I don't think anybody knows me anymore." "I'm..." "I'm a stranger..." "I'm a stranger to everyone, and I'm..." "I'm a stranger to myself." "[Margaret whistling]" "[Door creaks]" "Margaret, you're not meant to be in my room." "Go now." "You're not meant to be in here." "You know that she's gonna... watch those tapes and use them to keep you locked in here, right?" "Margaret, can you..." "can you go now?" "What?" "You think she cares?" "Can you please stop this and leave me alone?" "Can you... can you go now, please, Margaret?" "Margaret, please, can you go now?" "Please leave me alone." "Otherwise, I'm gonna tell." "I'll tell." "I will." "You know I will." "If you tell, then..." "Then you're gonna go where all the bad girls go." "No." "No." "Because I'm not bad, Margaret." "You are very bad." "No, I'm not." "I'm not bad." " You're bad." " Shh." "Shh." "You're the one who's bad, Margaret, not me." "I'm not..." "I'm not bad." "I want to talk." "No, please, I'm..." "Just leave me alone, please." "Hey..." "Tell me what that holy man did to you in the car." "Margaret, please leave me alone now." "Did he make you feel good?" " No." "Please." " Come on." "Show me." " No, please." "I don't want to." " Show me what he did." "Please, can you leave me alone now?" " Did he make you feel good?" " Please, no, leave me alone." " No, no, no." " Yeah, yeah, yeah, he did." "No!" "No!" " Margaret, no!" " Shh!" "[Sobbing]" "Please get rid of her." "She's ruining everything." "Stop freaking out." "She's just crying, all right?" "All right, all right." "I'll go, I'll go." "[Grunting]" "[Alexis sobbing]" "MARGARET:" "Whoo!" "Uh..." "Everything's really blurry." "Time's blurry." "My vision's blurry." "Alexis, you want to play unicorns?" "!" "I'll play unicorns with you!" "Elizabeth!" "The sun turned black from the face of the Lord, and it turned black!" "It turned black, the sun." "How can the sun turn black?" "!" "[Sobs]" "The sun!" "Yes, Mom!" "I never do anything right." "I thought that you liked that." "+ Can anybody hear me?" "+" "Alexis, want to come play now, you stupid ass?" "!" "Come play in here!" "[Buzzer]" "[Growls, barks]" "You really enjoy this circus act, don't you?" "Why don't you just die?" "I asked you not to go into Alexis' room." "And I watched as the sixth seal, and there was a great, big earthquake, and the sun turned to black, like sackcloth made of goat hair." "Is that Revelation?" "Did I ever tell you how my mom used to put me in the closet with the Bible every night and make me memorize verses?" "And you want to know what would happen if I didn't?" "Well?" "This is what you want, right, Elizabeth?" "You want me to tell you all of my problems... so we don't have to talk about what happened in your closet." "You know I know." "And that's why you hate me." "I don't hate you." "[Laughs]" "I don't even remember..." "I don't even remember what I was like on medication." "So, I mean, was I even a person?" "Maybe I wasn't even real." "I mean, if you... if you don't..." "if you're not yourself, right," "I mean, then what..." "what's the point?" "Like, I mean, what..." "If you don't remember, I mean, you're not really real." "[Whispering indistinctly]" "Hey." "Can I come in?" "Do you want a cigarette?" "I don't smoke." "Well, you might as well." "There's nothing else to do around here." "You know, I can get you whatever you want." "What do you think I want?" "Money..." "Sex..." "Fun..." "You want to get high?" "Are you insane?" "[Chuckles]" "You know Mike, Mr. Nurse man?" "See, I blow him..." "And he gives me whatever I want." "[Chuckles]" "Trust me." "I'm on your side." "What?" "I said..." "I'm the one that's on your side." "The others don't give a shit about you." "The others?" "They're the ones that aren't real." "I..." "How do I know you're real?" "I'm here, aren't I?" "[Techno music playing]" "[Indistinct conversations]" "Everything okay?" "It's finished if you want to buy it." "Amazing, isn't it?" "When you start to see yourself in everything?" "Huh?" "I said are you sure you're okay?" "Uh, yeah, I'm okay." "It'll come around for you soon, Madison." "[Horn blares]" "WOMAN:" "Madison." "[Gasps]" "Madison." "[Breathing heavily]" "[Crying]" "Hello?" "Let me go!" "[Breathing heavily]" "[Laughing]" "[Sobbing]" "Please stop." "Please." "Make it stop!" "Please make it stop!" "[Water bubbling]" "DOLLY:" "It's for your own good." "But, Mama, I didn't do anything wrong." "You're talking to people who aren't there." "It's the work of Satan." "But no one's there, Mama." "Come put your hands over the sink." "No, Mama." "Come put your hands over the sink." "Please, Mama." "Put your hands over the sink!" "[Buzzer, door opens]" "What happened?" "ALEXIS:" "It hurts." "What hurts?" " Please, it really burns." " What?" "It hurts." "The water... it's so hot." "There's no water." " There is." "Please make it stop." " No, there's no water." " Please make it stop." " What's wrong?" "I have to burn." "I have to burn because I'm bad." " Who said that?" " I have to burn." " Who said that?" " I'm going to hell." "You're not going to hell." " I am." " No, you're not." "No." "[Crying] I am." "I'm going to hell." "No, you're not going to hell." " I am." " No." "Good people do not go to hell." "Do you know what I do when I have scary thoughts?" "What?" "I close my eyes... and I think of the happiest place I know." "But... but I don't have any happy places." "Everything's crashing on me..." "Like waves." "It's like tidal waves." "I feel like I'm drowning." "Our Father..." "Who art in heaven..." "Hallowed be Thy name." "Thy kingdom come..." "GIRL:" "Madison, Madison, come and play with me." "I can't." "See, you're talking again to imaginary people." "But, Mama, she's right there." "Madison, come on." "Let's play." "ELIZABETH:" "Will you tell me more about the little girl?" "No." "Why don't you want to talk about her?" "I just..." "I just..." "I, uh... can... can we talk about something else?" "What is it about her that makes you feel so uncomfortable?" "[Sighs]" "I'm not supposed to talk about the little girl." "Why?" "Why aren't you supposed to talk about the little girl?" "'Cause she'll get mad at me." "Who?" "Who's gonna get mad at you?" "Please don't make me talk about it." "Madison." "Madison." "Madison." "My name isn't Madison, you fucking bitch." "You push too hard with your stupid little questions." "[Scoffs]" "You're trying to break her." "I can feel it." "I'm trying to help you." "You're trying to help me?" "I don't need help." "You need help." "Aah!" "Oh, my God." "No, no, no, no." "What's wrong?" "What's going on?" " Stop it." " What?" "I can't talk to you." "Why?" "Because she's gonna get mad at me." "Who's gonna get mad at you?" "She's gonna hurt me if I tell." "Nobody's gonna get mad at you." "Madison, it's all right." "What are you doing?" "What just happened?" "It's okay." "You're gonna be okay." " No, I'm not gonna be okay." " Yes, you are." "This is not okay, because you're making me worse," " And I really don't want to..." " You're gonna be okay." "It's not okay." "You're making me worse." "I know this is really hard." "You know what's fucking hard?" "You know what's hard, Beth?" "Is that I don't know what you're talking about." "That's good." "That's good." "You're getting angry." "That's really good." "When is the last time you remember getting angry?" "You never needed to get angry before because there was somebody else who was always getting angry for you." " What are you saying?" " Somebody was protecting you." " God, I knew this would happen." " What would happen?" "[Chuckles]" "That I would trust you, and you would screw me over." "Madison, look at me." "No, I can help you." "Don't say my name." "Don't say my name." "Look at me!" "Madison!" "Are you deaf, you bitch?" "!" "I said, "Don't say my name."" "[Scoffs]" "Why can't you just leave it alone, Beth?" "What?" "Do you think I'm deaf?" "You think I don't hear what you say about me?" "I'm trying to help you." "[Chuckles]" "Shut up." "You called me, and I came here to help you." "[Scoffs]" "I didn't call you." "I..." "I hate you." "She called you." "She's gonna die." "She is gonna die." "You're gonna die." "Stop." "She isn't real." "She isn't real." "I'm real." "She isn't real." "Real." "It's okay." "Just fucking stop." "Madison, let me be there for you." "Just let me be here." "Come here." "It's okay." "It's okay." "[Crying]" "It's okay." "It's okay." "It's okay." "It's okay." " It's okay." " I don't..." "It's okay." "DOLLY: "What is real?", asked the rabbit." ""Real isn't how you're made," said the skin horse." ""It's a thing that happens to you."" " My turn?" " Go ahead." ""Does it hurt?"" ""Sometimes." "When you are real, you don't mind being hurt."" ""Does it happen all at once?"" ""It doesn't happen all at once." "You become." "It takes a long time." "That's why it doesn't often happen to people who break easily, or who have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept." "Generally..." "By the time you are real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out, and you get loose in the joints and very shabby." "But these things don't matter at all, because once you are real, you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."" " Mama?" " Yes, Maddie?" "Am I real?" "ROSS:" "I get a lot of requests from people wanting to do..." "WOMAN:" "Checkmate." "So I thought today..." "Hey, Madison." "Madison?" "Madison, what's wrong?" "What do you want, Alexis?" "You want to come play with me?" "Nope." "Why?" "What's wrong?" "Nothing's wrong." "You always say nothing's wrong when something is always wrong." "Why don't you come play with me?" "Come on." "Just one game." " Do you see those people right there?" " Yeah." "They look like they're having a lot of fun." "I think you should go play with them." "No, I want to play with you." "Checkmate!" "Okay, okay." "Well, um, uh, we can play..." "Yeah?" " Hide and go seek." " Okay." "All right, so you're gonna go hide." "No, we did that the other day, and you didn't come and find me." "Madison, you didn't come." "I've got a better idea." "Why don't we go play horses?" "Come on." "We can ride horses, like we always used to ride horses." " We can ride horses." " No, there's no horses here." "What are you talking about?" "We used to always ride horses." "Yeah, well, we're in a hospital right now, and I've never been on a horse in my entire life." "Do you not remember?" "Do you not remember all those times we played horses?" " Please stop." " Why are you being so weird?" " Please stop." "Please stop." " Come on, one game, Madison." "Why are you being so weird?" "You don't remember anything?" "What do you mean you don't remember?" "!" "You do remember!" "We used to always play horses together!" " Please stop." " You do remember!" " Stop it." " You do!" "You do!" "Shut the fuck up, or I'm gonna smash your head against that wall, okay?" "!" " You say the F-word all the time." " Fuck, fuck, fuck!" "Stop saying the F-word the whole time!" "Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!" "Go back to your couch!" "Do... do I see a little bit of personality in you?" "Oh, yeah?" "A little personality right there?" "Yeah, yeah." "Fine." "Come on, tough girl." "Come on, tough girl!" " Shut the fuck up!" " Oh, yeah." "Come on!" "Come on!" "Come on!" "Come on!" "Come on!" "Fuck you!" "[Laughs]" "Good job." "Bitches." "Madison, you did it." "You did it." "Don't tell Margaret." "DOLLY:" "Madison!" "Madison, where are you?" "!" "[Laughter]" "[Crying]" "Madison!" "DOLLY:" "You want to spend your days in eternal hell?" "[Crying]" "MADISON: [Sobbing] Make it stop!" "Make it stop!" "Well, I was sitting in the front in his station wagon, and he had, like, um, these red plastic seat covers." "And it made a noise when he moved." "Um, and there was a plastic Jesus figurine on the dashboard." "I know what you want me to say." "ELIZABETH:" "What is it that you think I want you to say?" "That they took advantage of me because I was only 13." "I would rather slit my wrist... or be fucking hung upside down and beaten to a pulp than have to talk to you." "ELIZABETH:" "Madison." "You are Grace... and you are Margaret... and you are Alexis." "They're all you." "No, because I didn't..." "I didn't say these things." "Um..." "And I know that they're real, because I've..." "I've talked to them and... and I've talked to you about them." "And... you've talked to them..." "Right?" "I've only talked to you." "I've only talked to you." "I don't know what's going on." "Where are you going?" "Can you take me with you?" "Nope." "Why?" "Because you..." "Are gonna stay here." "But I want to be with you." "Well, you know, that's too bad, because you're not coming." "But I want to stay with you." "Alexis, don't cry." "Please, please don't cry." "But... but why can't I come?" "Why?" " Because I said so." " But why?" "Shh!" "Why?" "Because you're not real." "[Bell clanging]" "[Owl calling]" "[Glass shatters]" "[Water dripping]" "If you're watching this right now... it's because you've forgotten why you've locked yourself in your apartment." "You've given yourself 30 days to figure out why you're so messed up." "Your phone's been turned off." "You don't have shit." "You don't have friends." "You don't have a job." "This is your last chance." "'Cause I swear to God, if things don't change in these next 30 days..." "I will kill myself." "[Click]" "[Telephone rings]" "Hello?" "MADISON:" "Dr. Barnes?" "Yes?" "Madison is gonna die tonight." "Who is this?" "Her friend." "Where's Madison?" "[Click, dial tone]" "[Brakes squeal]" "[Gearshift clicks]" "[Engine shuts off]" "[Water dripping]" "YOUNG MADISON:" "Mama?" "!" "Mama?" "!" "Mama!" "Are you Mr. Walker?" "Yeah." "I'm a friend of Madison's." "Please come inside." "[Door creaks]" "[Bottles clinking]" "DOLLY:" "She ain't no doctor." "Can't you see she's got the devil all over her?" "She's got him coming out of her mouth, Steven." "Look at how she's looking at me." "The Lord gives me His eyes, and I see through your wicked games." "Dolly..." "Dolly, go on to your room." "Let me talk to her." "I'll take care of it." "I pray for your soul." "I'm sorry about that." "Some days are worse than others." "Are you sure you don't want anything to eat?" "I'm not hungry." "Well, why don't you have a seat?" "Now..." "What was it that you were saying about Madison?" "Madison checked herself out of the hospital, and, um, I'm really worried that she might hurt herself." "Do you know where she is?" "No, but, uh, you... you..." "I think that you should just stay right here until..." "Until she comes around." "Do you mind if I ask you a-a few questions?" "Please, yes, do." "Did you know what was going on... between Madison and her mother when Madison was young?" "Well, now..." "I don't know what you, uh..." "I don't know what you mean..." "what you mean." "Did you travel a lot when she was young?" "Yeah, I did, I did." "Quite a bit." "And you weren't curious... about all the trips to the hospital... while you were gone?" "[Glass clinks]" "Um..." "[Liquid pours]" "Hospital... hospital trips." "That's, um..." "Well, if you're gonna pretend that you don't know what happened, then it's not gonna help her." "[Voice breaking] And I think that you should... tell her." "What should I say?" "That you're sorry." "YOUNG MADISON:" "Can we read that part again?" "DOLLY:" "Which part?" "The part about being real." ""What is real?", asked the rabbit." ""Real isn't how you're made," said the skin horse." ""It's a thing that happens to you."" " My turn?" " Go ahead." ""Does it hurt?"" ""Sometimes." "When you are real, you don't mind being hurt."" "[Sighs]" "I love my daughter." "I love her very much." "I know." "DOLLY:" "It's not worth playing into her games like that." "STEVEN:" "What about it?" "DOLLY:" "I have enabled her." "We know better." "We know better, Steven." "STEVEN:" "I just... it's just..." "it's so hard for me, okay?" "DOLLY:" "This is a dangerous situation, Steven." "STEVEN:" "I can't talk about it anymore, darling." "I just can't talk about it anymore." "[Footsteps approaching]" "I-I know how difficult this has been for all of us." "And your daughter is... is... is, uh... is..." "Sweetheart, sweetheart..." "You... are... our daughter." "I'm..." "You understand?" " No." " You understand?" "You are." "You are." "Oh." "STEVEN:" "It's a little hard for us to understand... but..." "Maddie, we'd like to help you if we can." "Madison?" "Yeah?" "Hey." "Hey." "[Crying]" "Hey." "You should have told me." "ELIZABETH:" "I should have told you what?" "That you weren't real." "I'm as real as you are." "And the others?" "They real?" "I don't care about the others." "I've only cared about you." "So, what happens now?" "[Voice breaking] We say good-bye." "No." "No good-byes, no good-byes." "Yeah." "It's time." "You're gonna be okay on your own." "You will." "You will." "[Lock disengages]" "[Olivia d'Abo's "Alright" plays]" "+ Wipe those tears +" "+ Away from your eyes +" "+ Just take my hand +" "+ You don't have to cry +" "+ It'll be all right +" "+ Baby +" "+ I'll make it all right +" "+ Don't let the world +" "+ Get you down +" "+ Reach for the love that's all around +" "+ It'll be all right +" "+ Baby +" "+ We'll make it all right +" "+ I'll pick you up when you're feeling down +" "+ I'll put your feet back on solid ground +" "+ I'll pick you up, and I'll make you strong +" "+ I'll make you feel like you still belong +" "+ 'Cause it's all right +" "+ Let me make it all right +" "+ Stay with me tonight +" "+ Stay with me tonight +" "+ Sometimes the words, well, they're just not enough +" "+ Afraid of feeling and in need of love +" "+ To make it all right +" "+ Baby +" "+ I'll make it all right +" "+ Where will you run to, and where will you hide?" "+" "+ I know the pain comes from deep down inside +" "+ But it'll be all right +" "+ Baby +" "+ I'll make it all right +" "+ Let me make it all right +" "+ Make it all right +" "+ Let me make it all right +" "+ Make it all right +" "+ Stay with me tonight +" "+ Stay with me tonight +" "+ It's all right +" "+ Yeah, it's all right +" "+ It's all right +" "+ Yeah, it's all right +" "+ It's all right +" "+ Stay with me tonight +" "+ I'll pick you up when you're feeling down +" "+ I'll put your feet back on solid ground +" "+ I'll pick you up, and I'll make you strong +" "+ Make you feel like you still belong +" "+ And it's all right +" "+ Yeah, it's all right +" "+ Let me make it all right +" "+ Make it all right +" "+ Stay with me tonight +" "+ Stay with me tonight +" "+ Don't let the world +" "+ Get you down +" "+ Reach for the love that's all around +" "+ It's gonna be all right +" "+ Baby +" "+ It's gonna be all right +" "+ Wipe those tears +" "+ Away from your eyes +" "+ Just take my hand +" "+ You don't have to cry +" "+ It's all right +" "+ It's all right +" "+ Yeah, it's all right +" "+ It's all right +" "+ Yeah, it's all right +" "+ Gonna make it all right +" "+ Mm-mm +" "+ Stay with me tonight +"