"The Astonished Heart" "Subtitles by Seglora" "Can I speak to Mrs Vail please" "Mrs Faber," "Mrs Vail is still asleep now" "I don't like to disturb her,she's never called before nine o'clock" "I must be quick one,it's urgent, will you please go and call her" "Very well,will you hold the line" "Leonora,I'm sorry to disturb you but something has happened" "Chris.." "I don't want talk about him,Barbara,please" "Very well,what is it?" "What?" "Of course I'll come,if you want me to" "It'll take me half an hour,I'm afraid" "All right,I'll be as quick as I can" "Is there anything I can do,Madam?" "No thank you,Ernest" "Is there any news?" "Not yet" "She is not in there,Miss Birch" "Where is she then?" "She is in the consulting room" "She is terribly upset,Miss" "We all are" "Yes,of course" "Susan" "Don't take your things off just yet" "My dear" "I came as quickly as I could" "Yes I know I didn't expect you so soon" "Can I do anything?" "You could help me by going to Paddington" "Paddington?" "I just been looking in Chris engagements, he was due to meet Tim there at 930am then" "Lecture in Birmingham" "I'll phone him then" "No,I've tried that,he's already gone to station" "All right,leave it to me" "How is he?" "Just the same" "I've been feeling numb inside ever since you telephoned" "Does she know?" "I talked to her a few minutes ago" "I hope she is satisfied" "It's awful for her too,you know" "She'll get over it" "So shall we,I suppose in time" "It doesn't matter to her" "Not really,not like it matters to us" "She'll cry a lot and the beautiful heartbroken" "Don't be unkind" "I hate her" "You might as well hate a bit of note paper because somebody has written something cruel on it" "I'll be back as quickly as I can" "You sent for her?" "Yes,she is coming" "Good" "How much time is it?" "It's hard to say,maybe an hour,perhaps two" "Is he conscious?" "Only for a brief moment every now and then" "And he still asks for her in those brief moments?" "Yes" "I'll send her in as soon as she comes" "Do my dear,meanwhile I suggest you try and get a little rest" "I can't rest" "Try" "Tim!" "Hello,Miss Birch" "What's that?" "Barbara sent me" "Where is Chris,isn't he coming?" "No" "Susan,what happened?" "He's (nonaudible)" "It's raining quite hard now" "That is not what anyone expect it this time of the year,isn't it" "Yes" "Perhaps,extreme slower than usual, I suppose it is just my imagination" "Don't you think you ought to come away from the window now" "Don't worry,I'm all right" "She answered the telephone herself didn't she?" "Yes" "She ought to be here by now" "Yes" "Yes,sure" "What is it?" "I thought perhaps I'll go into the office" "No,don't go,stay with us" "It's no use" "It's only crying make a fool of myself" "I'd rather much you cried in her than all by yourself in the office" "I'm sorry I'm being so stupid" "I'm all right now" "Don't make too much effort" "I'd cry if I could" "Tears are little relief then at the grief I'd a bit envy them" "You won't be able to see her from there you know" "Extra ordinary" "What?" "I'd just remembered" "It was exactly like this the day I met her again" "And it was exactly a year ago" "I was looking out of the window into the rain" "And it wasn't this window" "It was Darlington, Fulham Road" "I'd been doing some shopping" "And I was waiting for my change staring out of the window into the rain" "And suddenly" "There was Leonora" "Leonora" "It is Leonora,ah,is it?" "Barbara Forbes,I don't believe it after all these years" "Do come in" "I'm in an awful rain" "My dear,I mustn't stay,once I get inside these place I'll buy everything" "This is extraordinary" "Let's go and have some tea,shall we?" "Yes,lovely" "There is a place just over there" "Thank you,you'll send the things this week,won't you?" "Certainly,Madam" "All right,gracious,we'll try to make a bash for it" "Right" "Just get this thing up for me" "My dear,oh" "You are soaked" "Absolutely" "There are some tables?" "Yes,over there" "You know,it's really the oddest thing meeting after all this time" "You haven't changed a bit" "Oh,it's better" "I can't say you haven't changed more than anybody I've ever seen" "And might we not wearing one of those school hats" "Tea,please" "Anything to eat?" "No thank you" "Biscuits,please" "No biscuit,Madam" "Then just the tea" "Dear Barbara,how pleasant this is,how long ago is it?" "Seventeen,no eighteen years" "I'm thirty-four now I left school ages before you did" "I remember missing you dreadfully" "You went to America,didn't you?" "Yes, father left Brazil in 1930 soon after that we went to Washington" "I heard you were married" "Did you?" "That was much later" "You do that with tremendous authority" "I was loose in my head and put the milk in first or afterwards or whatever it ought to be,which is it?" "There were several schools of thoughts,personally" "I always leave it to the inspiration at the moment" "I wish I had the same indecision over dry Martinis" "Sugar?" "No thank you" "You were dreadfully sophisticated at school" "Myrtle Read said you were fast and would come to a bad end" "She was the large sporty one,wasn't she?" "With the overdeveloped kneecaps" "She was the captain of the hockey team, dear,and you were very,very proud of her" "What's your name now?" "Faber,my husband is Christian Faber" "What does he do?" "He is only one of the famous psychiatrist in the world" "How impressive,is he terribly old?" "Terribly" "What's your name" "Vail" "Leonora Vail,very euphonious" "What does your husband do?" "Drinks like a fish" "Oh,dear" "I haven't seen him for years" "I'll tell you the whole sordid story another time,this atmosphere is too gentile" "Cigarette?" "No" "I've just taken a sweet little house, you must come and see it" "I'd love to" "And your husband of course" "I know he'd like but you can't count on him,his work comes first I'm afraid" "I'd should be jealous of you" "Jealous?" "With your better balance than I am, less emotional,you always were" "It would be rather tiresome go on being emotional after twelve years of marriage" "I suppose so" "I'm longing to see him" "Why not come tomorrow?" "All right,where?" "70 Chester House,it's a big block by the park,you can't miss it 70 Chester House" "Mrs Vail,Madam" "My dear isn't that lift rather bad for your husband's patients it shoots up like a rocket" "We have the most serious cases carried up on stretchers" "This is Susan Birch,Chris's right hand" "How do you do" "Tim Verney,Chris's left hand or perhaps the other way around" "How do you do" "Leonora Vail,Ames it was" "Leonora Ames terrible at games,do you remember" "Yes,of course" "I think Barbara wrote that beastly little rhyme herself" "Was it true?" "Absolutely" "Cocktail?" "Thank you" "The nastiest girl in the school" "And the best King Lear" "I've forgotten that" "I foresee a flood of reminiscences" "So do I,come along Susan,we'd better go" "No,don't go Tim you can bear it you'll probably discover a lot of useful little psychological echoes from my childhood" "I must go anyway,all these have to be dealt with" "And I shall have to see if Chris needs rescuing from Soames" "Yes,his time is nearly up" "Good Night,Mrs Vail" "Good Night" "Does he work all day long your husband?" "Yes and most of the nights too,sometimes" "What's he like?" "Thorough" "I envy you,mine was such a darling that the manager let him blasted eighteen months" "Good Bye,we shall probably meet again,very soon" "I hope so" "Ask us to come in a second if he can when he got his visitation" "All right" "What a nice man" "Tim is a darling,very clever too, Chris thinks the worth of him" "I've a feeling I shall be rather frightened of Chris" "Oh no,he is one of the least frightening" "Yet a bit obstructive now and then when he is working too hard" "I see" "And yours?" "Is he really such a darling?" "It was all horrid,he was years older than I was very rich,fortunately,that's all there was to it,I'm afraid" "And you never wanted to marry again?" "I wanted it once but it wasn't possible,everything went wrong" "I am so sorry" "So I minded horribly at the time,of course travel that didn't gone over it, it's a long time ago anyway" "Another drink?" "Thank you" "What does your husband do exactly?" "I know you told me he was a psychiatrist but is he one of the kind that sublimates one of the kind that determines" "I haven't the slightest idea" "Chris says he is a plain straight forward alienist" "I always thought an alienist was some of of Immigration Official" "You'd better not mention that to Chris he once had the most terrible scene with an Immigration Official" "Thank you" "Next Thursday then" "Good Bye,Mr Soames" "Good Bye" "Miss Harper,please" "Miss Harper" "Good Afternoon,Dr Faber" "Isn't she lovely?" "Who?" "Miss Harper" "No,don't be so silly,Mrs Vail" "Very smooth and shiny" "Didn't you like her?" "Yes I suppose so,I only thought for a moment" "I thought she looked durable pretty thoroughly" "Rubbish" "It's all right,I'm here to protect you" "Thanks" "I suppose he'll know all about me in a minute,wouldn't he?" "The first second he sat eyes on me" "Certainly" "How terrifying" "Don't pretend I'm perfectly certain you are not terrified of anyone" "Do his patients fall in love with him?" "Practically always" "You should hate that" "You are funny,Leonora" "I might nice slip on your master if I.." "Charmingly funny" "How very nice" "Except for one thing" "What's that?" "No photographs of Chris" "What do you mind?" "Of course I mind,dreadfully, I must know what he is like" "I don't even know whether he has moustache or not,has he?" "No" "Beard" "No,beard" "Tall or short?" "Short" "Fat?" "Well" "Not exactly fat might say a little podgy" "Oh Barbara" "He has very little chance of getting any exercises,you see" "Still he does as his best with those things in the bathroom" "What things?" "You know they are attached to the wall and you gasp and strain and then they snap back again" "He has a rowing machine too" "Is this the bathroom?" "Mmm" "What a dreadful liar you are, Barbara" "Because he is eight feet high and absolutely bewitched" "If you care for long black moustaches" "I've made up my mind for him on site" "He's quite used to that" "You're positively smug about him,Barbara" "Tell me seriously,do you adore him?" "I love him very much" "How marvellous and does he really love you?" "No not that.." "I know mind you behaving badly,do forgive" "Oh,Chris,at last" "Chris,this is Leonora Vail,one of my oldest friends,we were at school together" "How do you do" "How do you do" "Do you want a drink?" "No,just gets morphia dip" "I think it is only fair you should know that until Barbara disillusioned me" "I thought you were an Immigration Official" "Did you really?" "We are dining with Merritt,don't we?" "You'll better go about me tell her I come in for coffee" "Yes,already darling,she told me so on the telephone last night" "Mary is the most intelligent woman I'd met" "I also thought you had a long moustache" "Moustache,darling,Leonora thought you had a moustache" "No,I haven't a moustache" "I really wish he were an Immigration Official" "Never mind" "He didn't even see me, I do think it is a shame" "He saw you,all right" "I was going to ask him to my house warming next week,now I'm not so sure" "Do you mean you want me to come alone?" "No" "No bring rather a young man with you,Tim whatever his name was,I liked him much better,thank you" "Next Wednesday" "That'll be lovely" "That's settled then" "I really must go" "Are you sure you would not like to stand and have your passport examined or anything" "No,I've given up the whole idea" "What whole idea?" "About falling madly in love with your husband,him with me you and I having a lovely old friends together seat" "If one behaving beautifully" "What's your the telephone number, you're not going to put me off,are you?" "Don't be silly,of course not" "Mayfair 0 6 9 8" "Mayfair 0 6 9 8" "I expect you next Wednesday about seven" "Are you sure you want me to ask Tim?" "Yes,of course,he's an angel" "Bring your old alienist too,if you'll come" "I'll try and persuade him" "Good Bye" "Good Bye" "I say Barbara is there a bible in the house?" "I think so,who want one?" "Chris" "It should be one somewhere" "Ernest?" "Yes,Madam" "Is there a bible in the house?" "I think cook has one,Madam" "Ask her to get it to me for a moment would you please" "Yes,Madam" "I'm sure there isn't one there" "Got your bible handy,Alice?" "Looks like it,doesn't it?" "Mrs wants one" "What ever for?" "How should I know" "Bible,Madam" "Thank you,Ernest" "Moses go to Deuteronomy 28 I think" "It starts with the Lord's shall smite" "It's for his lecture on the inferior function" "That is" "The LORD shall smite thee with madness, and blindness, and astonishment of heart" "That's the one" "We got exactly half an hour" "I'd better get the car out" "I'll be down about five minutes" "Good Night" "Good Night,Barbara" "Good Night Tim" "You are tired,darling?" "No,just wishing I needn't go" "You always say that before a lecture" "It's nerves,I expect like a great primadonna trembling before the overture" "I should be a great deal more nervous than this if I thought I was to boom my way through Tristan and Isolde" "So should I" "I should be nervous about it if I thought you were going to sing one of the lesser Indian love lyrics" "Don't you care for my singing voice?" "No,dear you?" "You used to love it,when I was trilling away in the bathroom you used to stand outside in the passage for hours" "We only had one bathroom,my love and just occasionally I wanted to use it myself" "You'll be sorry" "When you give your next musical evening and ask me to sing trees and I refuse" "Chris,wouldn't it be awful if I really did have a next musical evening" "Absolutely possible,I must go,Tim will be waiting" "Are you sure you don't want me to come with you?" "Quite sure,I can't be pompous and important with you watching like a sharp critical links waiting for me to split an infinitive" "Good" "You are very important to me whether I am there or not" "I just wanted to suddenly mention it" "It's very sweet of you" "To kindly say so" "Good Night,love" "Bye,Bye" "First to attempt to understand the motives and impulses underlying our everyday behaviour we must look behind the familiar mask of personality and probe into the strange depths of our subconscious" "For instance when a young man sees a young woman for the first time and their eyes meet for the sudden recognition across the space that sign has device them" "In that split second they may occur a cataclysmic crisis in their two lives" "Professor Jung has called this other unfamiliar side of the personality the inferior function" "He says" "He says the very essence of the inferior function is characterized by its autonomy" "It entangles in such wise that we cease to be masters of our souls and become incapable of fair judgement between ourselves and others" "To quote the Bible" "Wee are smitten with madness, and blindness, and astonishment of heart" "Any tea left?" "Massive,Susan tea hand outs but it's incredibly hot" "I feel rather battered" "Difficult case?" "No,not really,just heartbreaking" "Not poor Mrs Frazer" "No,poor Mrs Frazer is humbug, all she wants to talk about is herself and how fascinating she is and how everyone adores her and in spite of that she feels somehow lonely and could I explain why" "Did you?" "Yes,I told her to stop the liver and send her to a fortune teller" "How beastly of you" "What's this case?" "Burton,know he is dying." "He is a bank clerk,gentle little man with a nice wife and two grown up daughters,Leslie sent him to me" "What the matter with him?" "Tried to commit suicide" "Love affair?" "His wife knows and that coupled with a sense of guilt and a bizarre respectability plus this obsession with the other woman tearing him to pieces" "Is she being good about it him or you suppose nagging at him?" "I don't quite know yet,I suspect she's being fairly self-righteous" "Poor thing,she's probable miserable" "What about the other woman,does she love him?" "No,I shouldn't think so" "Poor wretched man" "What a cruel story" "The world I deal with is full of cruel stories" "We needn't stay long" "I can't see a sign of Leonora" "Confuse me now" "How lovely to see you" "And Tim,I never can remember people's surname" "Verney" "You have to write it down for me some day" "Come along,Barbara you must have a drink both of you" "Oh lovely" "I think it is Martini Tim" "Fine,thank you" "That's better" "Chris was frightfully sorry he couldn't come but a case come up at the last moment" "I suppose now he's digging into somebody's refreshments and all that sort of things" "That sort of thing" "How exciting" "More interesting than exciting" "You have a superior look in your eyes,resenting" "I think your husband has been invited" "I can't imagine how you found him, tell me,how are you?" "I'm absolutely fine" "It must be a fascinating woman,unearthing everybody rattling little skeletons and fitting them together, like Faber,what about himself?" "How do you mean?" "Does he know all about himself?" "In the beginning is everything cut and dry and accounted for?" "I expect so" "And you?" "Has he chart of you hanging up over his desk" "He doesn't need a chart,Leonora" "Oh dear,something tells me I've gone too far,don't be cross" "Have a biscuit" "I am not at all cross ,what about you Tim" "No thank you" "Coming up with Hilda Whatlow" "The painter?" "Mind you,how clever of you to know she is the only lioness here,very abstract of course,never uttering.." "You look harassed,is anything wrong?" "Mother just telephoned ,it's Florence again" "She's fallen down" "As a thankful companion for an elderly gentlewoman" "Florence leaves a great deal to be desired,she is so seldom upright" "Mother is devoted to her even she is unsteady on her pins" "I shall have to get down for a few days there is no one else in the house but old Mrs Jones" "Isn't it a little unreasonable to expect you to go hurtling of to Gloucestershire every time Florence falls down?" "This time she's cracked something in her knee,poor her,can't move" "I recognized that beautiful glint in you eyes" "Is it really necessary for you to go?" "I am afraid so,just for a little while" "Mother is in a state,I can tell it on her voice" "All right,darling,do as you think best,if you stay away too long I shall fall down" "There is a train 1030 I think I can make it,Good Bye,darling" "Look after yourself" "You leave me no choice" "Same time next month,Miss Harper" "No Miss Birch,Doctor Faber has now finished" "You must be very pleased?" "I don't know I shall miss my visits" "You get used to them after six months" "Doesn't seem as long as that" "As a matter of fact I thinking of coming to some of the doctor's lectures" "I got really interested in psychology and,anyone who has helped me as much as Dr Faber has,is a real saviour of mankind" "I can't,there is no use asking me to,I can't" "Try" "You don't understand" "It's only a word,a short ordinary word" "Say it" "No" "That's the word,isn't it?" "I won't look at it,I won't" "Please,Mr Bowman,this is more important than you realize" "Turn your head at once and look at this piece of paper" "There is nothing there" "Cigarette?" "Why did you do that?" "Why did you force me to look at a blank piece of paper?" "Why are you so afraid of one word?" "It isn't that I was afraid I was.." "Twenty years is a long time" "All you've told me,all the sadness and maudlin holler was over and done with twenty years ago" "And it need no more pain in this field, which is an old tired story" "Your mother won't be angry with you,Mr Bowman" "She won't scold you" "She died twenty years ago" "I'm a middle aged woman" "This boy is younger than my own son,situation is grotesque,insane but I can't help myself" "I can't get him out of my mind" "Out of my heart" "The situation is neither grotesque nor idiotic nor has it anything to do with insanity" "I let three side steps back shall we, go back to our first meeting" "He was in the Navy with your son,wasn't he?" "Yes" "They were close friends,your son brought him into your house for lunch" "Yes" "He resembled your son in certain ways,doesn't he?" "Yes" "Nothing else you want before I go,Sir" "No,practically finished" "By the way have you heard from Barbara?" "Yes I heard this morning" "She hopes to be back in a day or two" "Good, place doesn't seem to be the same without her" "Very thoughtful of you to remind me" "That's obvious to me" "Good Night" "Hello,yes" "It's you,darling?" "Yeah" "Tim was just asking me if you ever coming back" "There is nothing serious but I just remembered" "I've got a date to go with Leonora to theatre tonight can you possibly get Tim to take her I know she likes him" "I have to have them he may be gone" "Anyway I'll find someone where are the tickets?" "They are in the top drawer Susan's desk" "Thank you darling,I'll ring you tomorrow" "Good Bye" "Good Bye,darling" "Tim gone yet?" "Yes,do you want him?" "Barbara just telephoned she wanted him to take Mrs Vail to a play tonight" "Rather late in the day isn't it?" "Barbara has a habit of leaving things for the last minute" "You wouldn't like to go,I suppose?" "I'd love to,but I can't I'm dining with Julian Macey and his new wife its ages since I saw a really good play to" "This may be a real bad one,if it is I hope you sympathize with me" "Are you going?" "I don't see how I can get out of it" "It'll do you good take it out of yourself" "I do not want to be taken out of myself" "I'm not so sure,Good Night" "Are we in the middle of the row?" ""There is a strange look in your eyes"" ""This is a small village,Hamalek, the impulse to wreck and destroy the fabric of people's dreams is as,alas, deeply rooted in the human heart"" ""So even dreams are suspect in this corner of green England"" ""Why did you marry me,Hamalek, you never loved me"" ""Don't Henry,don't I.."" ""Do you think I haven't known,you think I haven't noticed during three months"" "" Your eyes clutching away from me like trapped birds, you are beyond conceivable impatience over little things"" ""Our happiness has been dripping downstream for a long time and now like the tiny plot on a vast ocean, it is in danger of being destroyed utterly"" ""Mrs Rupert Chekling,Aunt Margaret I thought she was in Bristol"" ""I came the moment I was seeing your telegram" "Telegram?"" ""Forgive me,Hamalek""I'm beginning to see it quite,quite clearly""Good Bye,Henry"" "I wonder what Act 2 has in stall" "More of overacting I expect" "We,what's her name,quite good but she is too flamboyant to be a vicar's wife" "She is too flamboyant to be anybody's wife" "The critics said it was strong moving and an experience in the theatre" "I'd rather it was a good play" "You can get your happy ending" "I'm afraid so" "Yes,fosterchild will come back from Cornwall in the last Act making a living all right" "As far as I'm concerned she will have her work cut out" "Whatever happens my voices tell me we shan't be here to see it" "My voices tell me your voices are dead right" "How nice to think we have so much in common" "Here,heads we stay,tails we go" "Heads" "We go" "What do you like to have?" "Stinger,please" "What on earth is a stinger?" "Brandy and crème de menthe mixed" "Two stingers,please" "Yes,Sir" "Sounds lethal" "Is reviving" "Was my dancing as bad as all that?" "Not at all,in matter of fact you danced rather vogue" "Thank you" "Though your approach to the whole business is a trifle austere" "You can hardly expect an ageing psychiatrist to whirl you about like a dervish" "Your stingers" "Let's go and sit down" "Perhaps time if you relaxed a little more" "During the dance I can see it in your eyes" "My dancing days are over" "Nonsense,they are only just beginning" "I might if you think it is a future in it, to take a correspondence course in December" "I could practice in between patients" "Quite unnecessary,I could teach you myself" "My charges for private lessons may be beyond your means but you can come to my public parties on Tuesdays and Fridays" "Have you a large clientel?" "Not large,but varied" "My regulars include two dukes and ex naval officer and a labour minister" "Are they nice dukes?" "A little dim lacking in rhythm but the labour minister is light as a feather" "Lack of responsibility,no doubt" "What about the naval officer" "Charming inclined to be boisterous tramples me about the floor like a wheel barrow" "Susan was quite right" "Susan,your secretary" "She said I needed to be taken out of myself" "I salute her" "Dear Susan" "Let's dance again" "You know you are very gung and very kind" "It's a samba" "Have two stingers ready for us when we come back,please" "Double ones" "If you enjoyed the evening as much as I had it has been a triumphant success" "I've adored it,would you like to come in and have a drink" "I can't guarantee a stinger but I could produce whisky and soda" "Really not I got a long day tomorrow but thank you very much all the same" "Farewell" "Good Night,Chris" "Good Night,Leonora" "Well if you got the tickets I suppose we shall have to go,shan't we" "It is not for the lack of enthusiasm exactly it is just I do not know anything about ballet" "I might be dreadfully unreceptive" "No,no I'll be good,I promise" "I'll keep a stiff upper lip" "Very well I'll be there at quarter to seven sharp" "You are seven and half minutes late" "Oh,dear" "On the whole I think it was justified" "It's new I'm very proud so you said quite the right thing" "I aim to please" "I helped myself to a drink,would you like one?" "No,we haven't time I think the first ballet still playing I don't want to miss it" "It's the one with the swans?" "No, Chopin you know,the one with the depressed white ladies being lifted about by a gentleman with brown legs" "Do you think I shall like that?" "Perhaps not at first,but it may grow on you in time" "I have a dreadful suspicion that you are trying to educate me" "Were you really angry that first day we met?" "Yes,I think I was" "I didn't mean to be rude" "You certainly did" "Yes now I come to think I did" "Why?" "I don't know" "You irritated me" "You were so conscious at of the absolutely beautiful you looked" "I never thought of that" "Your manner demanded attention insistently like a child banging its shoe on the table making it clammer,yelling for more" "How horrid that sounds" "Quite natural" "I expect you've always been spoiled" "No,I haven't" "Have many men been up with you?" "No,not many" "On the few who ever they were" "Did you love them?" "Please don't be quite so clinical" "Forgive me" "I just wanted to know" "I loved somebody once,very much" "Never so much before" "Never so much since" "I see" "I'm tired let's go home now,shall we?" "Very well,as you like" "You must go" "Must I?" "Of course" "You'll make it rather inconsistent" "Yes,I suppose it is" "What's the matter?" "I didn't meant it to be like this" "Don't send me away yet" "I must" "Do you really want me to go?" "Chris,I lied just now when I said that I didn't mean it to be like this" "Does it matter?" "Yes,it matters dreadfully" "No,my dear" "Please say no" "Very well" "I did mean it to be like this" "But not" "Quite like this" "It was all a trick ,I planned it the first day we met you remember when you snubbed me out of your dinner" "I made up my mind then to, make you fall in love with me" "Now I wish I haven't" "I feel cheaper,feel frightened" "I wish for my whole heart that I haven't" "In think it was rather a gay trick" "Don't be upset" "There is nothing to be upset about" "I think I like a drink" "Do you want one?" "No thank you" "Do sit down and relax" "Now you're treating me like a patient" "Then it is because you're behaving like one" "You see" "That's better" "Light a match" "Thank you" "You are a lovely creature" "I maybe all right outside but I am not very pleased with myself inside at the moment" "Pangs of conscience are tiresome, Leonora,also exceedingly bad for you" "I'm feeling better now" "Good.I gather that the trick is on again" "That was unkind" "You're very touchy" "What about Barbara?" "She is quite well,thank you,I had a letter from her this morning" "Are you in love with her?" "What on earth did you say that for?" "Are you in love with her?" "You are behaving like a patient again" "Are you?" "Barbara has nothing to do with this" "You are certainly not in love with me" "You have lovely eyes there is little sadness in them a little disappointment" "I can tell you a fortune by your eyes,shall I?" "I'd rather you didn't" "And your nose" "I'd rather you didn't mention my nose at all" "The most unwise nose I've ever seen" "Do stop" "And then is your mouth" "Please,Chris" "You'll be astounded" "If you knew how desperately I wanted to kiss your mouth again" "Chris" "You are so foolish up on your romantic high horse" "How often have you ridden it wildly and it went lamely at walk home" "Often enough to teach me never to do it again" "That's what made the sadness in your eyes" "You should never have left school,it was a grave mistake" "You win" "Do I" "I knew you would" "Quite early in the evening really" "What's worrying you?" "I feel uneasy" "Must be conscience" "You like me to drive little more slowly" "Be honest now" "Chris,how about are we going to hurt Barbara?" "I don't know" "You have been married twelve years" "How naive you are?" "What a lovely view from here" "Do you love her,Chris,you never answered me before" "Yes" "I love her deeply and truly and forever" "I see" "I don't suppose you do, but it doesn't matter" "It matters a lot" "What do you want?" "Truth or lies?" "Reality or pretence?" "How clever of you to know without looking what you have in your safe" "You must be quarrelsome ,Leonora" "I can't help it,you make me angry I want to heat out at you" "Any other impulse of this particular stage of the proceedings would be abnormal" "You are so superbly sure of yourself,aren't you?" "No" "Oh no,the basis of everything I've ever learned has not been assured" "Not been sure of anything or anyone in the world" "Myself least of all" "Good Afternoon,Madam" "Good Afternoon,Ernest" "Nice to have you back,Madam" "Nice to be back isn't the Doctor in yet" "No madam,were you expecting him?" "I was not quite sure" "Perhaps this will give a clue" "No Ernest I'll just have a tea by the fire" "Very good Madam" "Can you put a light on?" "What for?" "I want to powder my unwise nose" "There" "Thank you" "A little bit of fluff on the left" "I didn't see it" "Allow me" "Chris" "It was not all a trick" "It may have started as a trick but it isn't one now is it?" "Is it?" "Yes,it is" "Liar" "Look at me" "No" "Look at me" "What's my fortune?" "You are going to love me a little" "That's not enough" "Yes it is" "More than enough" "Chris" "Are you sure?" "Quite,quite sure" "My dear" "You finally confessed everything to your wife" "Yes" "Why?" "I couldn't bear the thought of deceiving her any longer" "You resent her efforts to understand don't you" "They irritate you" "Sometimes,yes they do" "This new attraction is far stronger than the other" "Yes" "What have you come to me for really?" "To cure me,of course" "Your desire?" "I suppose so" "You're an intelligent man,a writer" "A creative artist" "I read a great deal of your work" "Struck me all of it as being intensely personal it's whole quality seems to depend on the accuracy of your own observations" "Through the medium of your own experience" "Do you really want to be cured of the instincts and urgencies and impulses that go to form that experience?" "I want peace of mind and the conflict within me is torturing me too much" "I'm afraid of breaking down completely" "These other loves that destroy your piece of mind rob you of sleep threaten to wreck your home?" "They bring you no happiness?" "Nothing but remorse and despair?" "Yes,no not exactly" "I'll do everything in my power to help you Mr Lucas" "But you must give me a little time" "I'd like to see you again in four days from now in the meantime" "I remind you of something that with your intelligence you must know already" "The capacity for loving is stronger and more profound in some people than in others and it's extremely dangerous either to deny it or encourage it for the wrong reason" "Thank you,Dr Faber" "Thank you very much" "I thought I better warn you" "I may not be in for dinner tonight, so you won't wait,will you?" "Of course my darling" "When do you think you will be back?" "I don't know it all depends" "I see" "Hello,Chris" "Darling,I'm terribly sorry to be so late I got hold up with the Grangers" "Look de charong,your eyes are shining your brooches are undone it is all highly suspicious" "Oh dear,it's always doing that I must have it amended" "Thank you darling I hate to lose it" "Why?" "Is there no insurance?" "No,it isn't that it's the sentimental value" "Who gave it to you?" "No one you know" "How can I be sure about it?" "That's the funny with it,you can never be sure with me,can you?" "Yes ..two dry Martinis,please?" "Two dry Martinis for number 3 and another gin fizz for the young man's fancy" "Who is she?" "One over there with the false pearls and the wind swept hairdo" "Is she not expecting more gin fizzes it will be more than her hairdo that's windswept" "I don't understand you" "Why make a secret of it?" "I'm not" "Darling,the brooch and you won't say who gave it to you" "Very well since you are so persisting, it was Ronnie Hughes" "How long ago?" "Long time,during the war" "What did he do?" "He was in the RAF" "Were you fond of him?" "Yes,very" "Do you want to see him now?" "He was shot down in the flames over Cologne on the March 17th 1945 is there anything else you want to know?" "I'm sorry" "Hello darling" "Sorry if I made you jump" "What on earth" "I couldn't sleep" "I see" "Another light,it so glary" "Is that better?" "Would you like a drink?" "No,no thanks" "Don't you think you better to go to bed?" "All right" "A bit chilly in here" "You smoked all those tonight?" "Yes" "It sort of unattractive doesn't it?" "Like after a party" "I'm awfully sorry,darling" "There is no need to be sorry for" "I mean it isn't a scene really, it isn't any,I do want to talk to you" "I wanted it to for a long time" "I know" "Probably a bad moment but the problem with that it's difficult and it never seems to be any time" "I meant it when I said I am sorry" "I am desperately sorry" "I know you are" "I am too" "It's the worst for the whole business, nobody is having a good time" "How is Leonora?" "She is all right" "I just left her" "I don't imagine you have been to a masonic dinner,darling" "No,I didn't think you did" "I hate her quite normally with my feminine instincts" "I am downright quite violent all by myself" "Funny isn't it after all these years" "I got over wanting to strangle her" "I just wish she'd never been born" "I think I do to" "I don't ever see how quite we can go on like this ,do you?" "I mean it's really too uncomfortable" "That's why I waited up for you" "Person who are loving a new part of it,I can manage that painful as it but everything else as well" "We are all getting in a state,Tim and Susan" "Thinking if you always has been a bit agitated" "You are working under such tremendous pressure and you're getting so terribly tired and strained" "I'm frightened you'd crack up or something" "Don't worry I shan't crack up,not yet" "But I'm frightened too" "Dreadfully frightened" "You see if I didn't know all the processes it would be easier but I do" "I watch myself now all the time when I'm talking to patients in case I make a slip" "Tim and Susan are fine their behaviour is almost too good" "But they usher the patients in wearier than I" "Not at all surely they will be present outside the door too just in case of accidents" "Then there is Leonora,I'm torturing her" "I ask her questions,you see, because I can't stop myself and out of her answers the scenes build themselves can you imagine the foolishness of that" "All the time my brain raising it's eyebrows up at me and sneering" "I'm telling you all this just to let you know that I know that I am not so far gone that I can't see what's happening" "Nobody can be over this but me, I'm doing the best I can" "Please don't let us talk about it anymore just now you said I was tired,I am,so are you" "All right,darling" "Just as you said" "Yes I must be sure of one thing,I want you to promise that you won't worry about me" "I'll try not to" "This is how I see the situation" "It'd be different if I was still in love with you,but I am not" "Anymore than you are with me that was all settled years ago" "Merciless necessary to each other, and I hope we always shall be but I must know,you must tell me how long" "I am in too deep I can't tell" "Very well then you must go away" "Go away?" "How can I" "You must" "I thought of it and I wanted to obliterate,quite impossible" "Even if there were work or anything to prevent me it wouldn't be any use" "Running away never is any use" "I didn't mean it you should go away alone that is too late for that now, I meant go away with her take two months or three months and don't think about me or work or any of the things getting in the way" "I can't Barbara,you know perfectly well I can't" "How do you know anything of the sort?" "It's cold clear sense" "I'm nothing here in any of your happiness" "Thinking of my happiness too and more important still your work you can't be with twisted nerves, strained people with your all twisted nerves strained yourself,you must see that" "It's not only your passion for Leonora that's undermining you it's the fight you are putting up, you're being torn in half" "Darling,you are making me a subject for your shame" "It's idiotic,unreasonable and idiotic,you said you were submerged it's true you are,but you go on do it together unless you try this way" "Will you ask Leonora?" "Very well if you really mean it" "I do it" "I am not arguing darling, I don't mean to be difficult it is just that I just don't understand" "You don't know Barbara" "Why women no woman would suggest that" "Barbara would" "Obviously she doesn't in the least approve of the situation" "And she completely understands what she is doing" "That's her way of loving,she loves with her reason and her mind as well as her heart" "Very admirable character" "Don't sneer at Barbara,Leonora, it's not worthy of you" "I know,I'm sorry,I didn't mean to really but it is difficult for me you do see,don't you?" "Difficult for all of us" "Does she hate me?" "No,no I don't think so" "Perhaps it'd be easier if she did" "You are trying so hard to be wise and well behaved,it's a dreadful strain" "Leonora" "Chris" "I think you are hopelessly wrong to let him go like this and no good will ever come.." "Don't Susan,please don't" "I'm sorry" "Dear Susan" "I'm trying to be sensible" "More sensible than I have ever been in my life,it's rather difficult" "So please help me,all you can, even if you do disapprove" "It's nothing to do with approval or disapproval it's deeper than that" "I know it is" "I thought it over interminably but there isn't anything else to do" "Really there isn't" "Very well" "I shall go away myself too somewhere of course" "Laura is in Paris,I could stay with her" "Or with Mary she has taken the Biddle's house in Kent it's absolutely lovely I should be much happier there than here" "You know best of course" "But it is a mystery to me how you can let him go away like that aren't you jealous?" "Not at her" "But of his work and our happiness" "I'm jealous of the time he is wasting now and will go on wasting till he get her out of his system" "I sense the futility of it all,I must help him" "Help him back(Barbara)" "To you" "No to sanity" "Tim" "I have had all this out with Barbara,you know" "And myself" "I'm sure you have" "You disapprove very strongly,don't you?" "I neither approve,Chris, or disapprove, or anything to do with it" "We'll see" "I'm afraid you don't" "But perhaps some day you will" "I'm sorry ,Tim" "So am I" "You should know I'm deeply fond of you both" "As a matter of the fact" "I believe I also can find it in my heart a little sorry for Leonora Vail" "I thought I heard you come in" "Is that from Chris" "No Barbara" "How is she?" "Sounds cheerfully enough but you could never tell with her she wouldn't say if she was dying" "I suppose not" "As usual the only item of interest is in the PS" "How's that?" "Have we heard from Chris" "But there isn't any answer to that,when is that?" "No,I do wish one didn't feel so utterly helpless so" "Let's hope he has had a good time,that's all" "Nobody else is" "Are you up still working?" "I'm nearly finished" "How was the party?" "Too big really,too noisy" "Poor,darling, you always loses the head at the last minute now there are so many people, It looked lovely,of course she had the whole façade of the Palazzo floodlight the balconies festooned with coloured lights" "You look tired" "I am large parties always exhaust me" "Why go to them then?" "Why?" "Don't very often" "You didn't tonight,did you?" "What on earth are you talking about?" "I spoke to Dolly herself a few minutes ago" "Did you really Chris,how very clever of you" "She said that you've chucked at the last moment because your lawyer had arrived from London was here only for one night,you had to talk business with him" "How is your lawyer,Leonora?" "He is a very old gentleman, called Mr Burleigh" "Did he enjoy his gay evening with you in Venice?" "I don't like this,Chris, I don't like any of it" "Neither do I" "I don't like berate" "But there are worse things being insulted, for instance,and humiliated and spied on" "You dined with David Hartley tonight,didn't you?" "Yes,I did" "Alone?" "Quite alone" "I'd known him for years,he is one of my oldest friends" "Why didn't you tell me that you were going to dine with him?" "Because I knew if I did,you'd make a dreadful scene" "Our love inspires great confidence,apparently" "It's not my fault if you imaging things,torture yourself" "I was under the impression that you loved me" "Darling,don't" "More than anyone or anything in the world" "Please,Chris" "How long ago was it when you said that to me" "I can't bear it,when you go on like this" "You loved me so much that you had to lie to me" "You loved me so much so that you had to play tricks on me" "You twist me and torture me until I'm driven beyond the interim you cry and say I'm cruel" "Don't look at me like that,you are mad" "Answer me one question" "Why didn't you stay the night with him you wanted it,didn't you?" "what was it that held you back?" "Your love for me?" "Or was it fear?" "What's the use" "Do you think I like the situation?" "You are not loving me any more" "Me wanting you so much" "Darling,why do you say that?" "You're working it all up in your imagination" "None of this is true" "Darling,none of it's true" "Don't lie anymore" "I am not" "How do I know?" "You lied before,I caught you out" "Trivial enough,they were,I grant you that,but they were lies just the same" "Little lies or big lies, what's the difference perhaps you forget that charming two episodes in Cairo" "Chris" "All right,all right I know that I'm going it some way over the top but why shouldn't I?" "It's difficult to explain to go back to the beginning" "When is he coming back?" "Soon,quite soon" "You do understand don't you?" "You've been very kind, very patient but you see.." "Of course I understand, please don't say anymore" "I let you know the moment he returns" "Thank you" "Good bye" "Good bye" "Barbara,I'm glad you're back" "Why,anything wrong?" "No" "They came through on the telephone just now asking you to take a call from Venice" "Chris?" "Yes" "I told them you'll take it between eight and nine tonight,is that all right?" "Yes,perfectly,thanks,Mary" "Tea is ready" "All right,I'll just put this away,I won't be a minute" "Yes,this is Maidstone 2 174" "Mrs Faber speaking" "Yes,all right I'll hold on" "Hello" "Hello,is that you Barbara?" "This is me" "It doesn't sound like your voice at all" "Well you sound very far away too(Barbara)" "How are you?" "Better,thank you,had a beastly cold last week but it's gone now" "How are you?" "I am all right(Chris)" "Good" "How's Mary?" "(Chris)" "Mary is fine" "Have you seen Tim?" "Not lately,no(Barbara)" "When you do,tell him I've sent the post of the book back to Chatham" "I don't think I shall see him for a week or two" "Frank and Laura went by him to Scotland for a fortnight so I thought I'd go" "Yes of course will do you good(Chris)" "How's Leonora?" "She is just the same" "Barbara?" "Yes" "There is something I want to ask you" "Something I want to say to you" "You've gone very faint all of a sudden,I can't hear you" "That better?" "Yes" "What were you going to say?" "Nothing, nothing of importance" "Are you coming back soon?" "I don't know it's difficult to tell" "Barbara,there are thousands things I want to say to you now" "I just can't say one of them" "Never mind,Chris,I understand it'll have to wait until you get back" "That means our time nearly up,doesn't it?" "Yeah" "Goodbye then,darling" "Good Bye,Barbara" "Dear Barbara" "Welcome home" "It's good to see you,Tim" "When did you get back?" "About 7 30 in the morning" "You should have let me know" "I hadn't time it was all rather a rush" "You look pretty tired" "I didn't sleep much last night" "It was a bumped flight" "Have you eaten?" "Yes,Ernest playing around splendidly, I had a huge breakfast" "Want to run over the records,OK?" "Not yet,don't rush me" "All right,I'll bring them in later on" "Yes,do" "Shall I get Susan to telephone Barbara,she has her number?" "No,no I don't think I'll do that Tim" "As a matter of fact I'd rather not let her know that I am back just yet" "Not for a few days at any rate" "All right" "I feel I ought to let me get acclimatized first" "A bit more difficult to imagine when one has been away for so long" "Once I sort of down to the normal routine here again I call her myself" "Anything you say" "Good Morning Tim" "Hi" "Have you got a patient in there already?" "No" "I just thought I heard voices" "It's Chris" "Chris?" "Got back early this morning" "He might have let us know" "That's what I told him" "What did he say?" "Something about being too rushed" "What's he like?" "I don't quite know,there is something strange about him" "He's changed,Susan" "He's changed in an intangible sort of way" "I don't like it" "For a time everything seemed different" "We were gay and cheerful" "I expect the climate had something to do with it" "Then we came back to London and after a while,quite a little while really" "You are not listening?" "What?" "I'm trying to be as concise as I can to waste as little of your time as possible" "All right,all right,go on" "I can't" "What do you mean?" "You are not listening" "You haven't been paying any attention at all" "Why do you keep saying that,of course I'm listening" "Perhaps it was my fault,perhaps.." "Please go on with what you were saying" "I can't remember what I was saying" "It's all slipped away" "You shouldn't gone abroad in the first place" "Doesn't do any good go abroad" "To run away" "But it was you who told me to go,months ago" "I was wrong" "Nothing is as easy as that" "Trains,boats,planes, sunshine,geographical distance the things were there all the time,wasn't it?" "There is no escape" "The loveliest moonlight and the clearest sky can be spoiled degraded and made tedious by something quite trivial, a little botch perhaps" "A little botch with garlands on it" "Quite an expensive you understand only treasured for sentimental reasons" "Dr Faber" "How can I help you with this little botch between us" "It was given to Leonora years ago, long before I even met her" "How can I ease your poor mind when a handsome young man is burned to death in a plane" "Here,in the room" "He was the one she loved,you know" "The only one she ever really loved" "He was.." "Please forgive me" "I'm not feeling very well today" "We must send for Barbara at once,he is in a terrible state" "I get through right away" "No,Tim,the telephone is too sudden remember she doesn't even know that he is back" "I'll write now,she'll get it in the first thing in the morning" "I ought to be able to handle this" "I feel so helpless" "So inadequate" "No,nobody could handle this but Barbara" "Do you think she can?" "It's the only chance" "Best go back" ""It's the fast train for Portsmouth the express from Exeter is now arriving at platform 8"" "Susan,how good of you to meet me" "It was the least I could do, I got a taxi waiting" "It isn't a question of that Leonora,if it was so unimportant why didn't you tell me the truth about it in the first place" "I see" "In that case there is nothing more to be said,is there?" "Susan,tell me about Chris" "Your letter sounded so cryptic I thought I had better come back at once" "I'd hope you would" "You see when I told you he was back" "I didn't say he'd been home for the past ten days" "Has he?" "Yes" "I thought it would only worry you beside he said he'd let you know himself the moment he felt really settled in" "He didn't" "No,we guessed that" "How is he,Susan?" "He's changed,he's quite unaccountable" "Tim and I don't seem to able to deal with him so we thought we ought to send for you" "I'm glad you did" "He can't concentrate and I'm afraid it's affecting his work" "Even people who don't know him as well as we do are beginning to notice it.." "Don't worry,he'll be all right now that you're back" "I do hope so" "Good Evening,Madme,welcome home" "Thank you,Ernest" "Did you have a good journey?" "Yes,not bad but I'm a bit tired" "Shall I get you anything?" "No,thank you,is the doctor in?" "No he went out earlier this evening and he didn't say when he'd be back" "I see,all right,thanks" "Very good,Madam" "Please,please" "Don't come near me" "Forgive me,you must forgive me" "It isn't forgiving,I can't bear it anymore, I do mean to start up really calm" "I should like to know what you propose to do then" "I'm going away for good" "I see(Chris)" "I'll go tomorrow" "You can't,you can't possibly" "Please,please I must,I got to go away I told you,I really can't bear it anymore" "You can't bear it anymore,what about me?" "It's not my fault that you create these fearful scenes make our life a dreary misery" "Tell me one thing,tell me one thing without lying" "You are hurting me" "Tell me one thing,honest" "What is it?" "Do you still love me?" "Oh Chris" "Do you!" "Yes" "As much as you did in the beginning?" "What are you thinking?" "Of course things have changed yes compared with the beginning" "That's an evasion" "It's the truth" "Nothing stays the same" "You wanted me in the beginning didn't you?" "Whenever I came here,whenever I touched you it was more important than anything in the world wasn't it?" "Wasn't it?" "Yes,yes it was" "And now it isn't anymore" "Oh,Chris what's the use" "Answer me" "Do you still love me as much as you did in the beginning?" "No" "At last" "That was what you wanted isn't it?" "The truth,well that's the truth" "Then you've been lying for weeks,for months probably" "Yes,yes I have" "When did it die?" "When did it die this poor shabby love of yours" "A long time ago" "You killed it yourself with your insane jealous and cruelties" "I can't even go back into my own memory now without finding you there jeering on every threshold" "Walking with me through the empty rooms making them tawdry shutting them off from me forever I hate you for that bitterly" "Sentiment for the dead at the expense of the living" "Very interesting" "Quite magnificent" "The dead have at least proper sense to be quiet" "Long live the dead" "You're one of them now" "Did you mean that?" "Yes" "I think I did" "Yes" "I'm so sorry to ring up at this horrible late hour but I'm worried" "Chris ran out earlier this evening and nobody seems to know where he is" "If he is with you it will relieve my mind a bit,is he?" "Yes.Do you want to talk to him?" "(Leonora)" "No" "No,I was frightened something had happened to him please don't say I rang up will you?" "Not if you don't want it(Leonora)" "He would only think I was checking up on him,and I'd hate that" "I won't just as you like it, is there anything else(Leonora)" "No" "No,nothing else" "Good Night" "Good Night(Leonora)" "I know it's all over now" "I won't make any more scenes" "I promise" "Good Bye,Chris" "Is it dead?" "Quite dead" "Don't,Chris,please" "All passions spent everything tided up and put back in the box" "Yes let me go" "Those appeals to be so desirable to be wanted so much, tell me please,I want to know" "I want to know what's your heart doing now,your loving female heart" "How enviable to be able to walk away into the future free of love free of longing new life before you and the dead behind you" "Not quite the dead let's say the dying,the dying aren't quite as sensible quiet as the dead" "They can't hear crying little you must walk swiftly out of their earshot and don't I implore you look back" "This little charm in dying it's only clinically interesting, but your viewpoint is far from clinical,my dear" "You are a sane thrilling animal without complications and the fact that my life has been wrecked on your loveliness" "isn't your fault" "Isn't your fault" "You are in a grand tragedy" "The best tragedy of all and the best joke" "The inevitable triumphant defeat of mind by matter" "Just for the minute I seeing it all quite clearly" "Myself and you and the world around us" "You see I had a life to live and work to do and people to love and now I haven't anymore" "Nobody could help me those people I love,and who love me" "I can see them still strained in getting me but they can't reach me anymore" "It's too late" "It's too late" "There is no point in waiting any longer,he is sure to be in soon" "It's nearly 3" "You must go home I'm perfectly all right" "Very well,have it your own way" "Have another drink before you go" "No,thank you I got to get up in the morning" "If you want anything early I can easily see to it" "No,I'll be here,thanks,all the same" "Good Night Susan" "Good Night" "How extraordinary" "What?" "I just remembered,it was exactly like this the day I first met her again" "And it's exactly a year ago" "I was looking out of the window at the rains and it wasn't this window" "It was Darlington,Fulham Road" "I'd been doing some shopping and I was waiting for my change and staring out of the window at the rain" "Then suddenly,there was Leonora" "Mrs Vail,Madam" "Leonora,at last" "I'd would have been here sooner but I got held up with the traffic it was awful" "Never mind,you are here now" "I suppose there is no use saying I'm sorry,is it?" "I hope you know how much I hate myself" "I think you better go in right away,he's been asking for you" "Yes" "Tim,would you take her?" "Of course" "More coffee Barbara?" "No" "Susan" "No,thank you" "Do sit down,my dear" "I'm all right I like wandering" "I believe it stopped raining" "It's too much coincidences really" "An awful feeling I'm making it all much worse for you" "Don't be so foolish" "I wonder" "I don't want anything it's better not" "Don't snap at Susan,Tim,it's beastly of you" "I'm sorry,Susan,I didn't mean it" "I didn't even hear" "I wish she come out now, I wish to God she come out" "She will be in a minute" "A minute?" "She's been in there nearly an hour" "It's no use I must hear what's happening" "Is he.." "Yes" "He didn't know me" "He thought it was you" "He said" "Barbara I'm not submerged anymore" "Then he said Barbara again" "Then he died" "Subtitles by Seglora"