"[ traffic moving ] [ mid-tempo electronic music playing ] [ singers vocalizing ]" "Iguessit wasabout 2 1/2 years ago." "I was walking around the city, 2 1/2 years ago." "I was walking around the city, and I started seeing these crazy" "I was walking around the city, and I started seeing these crazy fliers up on poles everywhere." "And I started seeing these crazy fliers up on poles everywhere." "The first flier I think I kind" "Fliers up on poles everywhere." "The first flier I think I kind of half-read, and it just seemed" "The first flier I think I kind of half-read, and it just seemed to be marketing for some sort of" "Of half-read, and it just seemed to be marketing for some sort of invention." "To be marketing for some sort of invention." "I think it was the vital-orbit" "Invention." "I think it was the vital-orbit was the first one I saw." "I think it was the vital-orbit was the first one I saw." "Didn't even pull one of the" "Was the first one I saw." "Didn't even pull one of the little fliers yet." "It wasn't until I walked around more and more and started" "More and more and started seeing some of the other fliers" "Seeing some of the other fliers that I really started wondering" "That I really started wondering what the heck this thing even" "What the heck this thing even was." "I started grabbing some of the little tags and calling the numbers and hearing the" "Little tags and calling the numbers and hearing the messages." "Numbers and hearing the messages." "thankyouforcalling" "Messages." "thankyouforcalling the jejune institute, thankyouforcalling the jejune institute, san francisco headquarters." "The jejune institute, san francisco headquarters." "We would like to invite you to" "San francisco headquarters." "We would like to invite you to a special orientation session." "We would like to invite you to a special orientation session." "We are located at" "A special orientation session." "We are located at 580 california street," "We are located at 580 california street, suite 1067." "580 california street, suite 1067." "For those dark horses with the" "Suite 1067." "For those dark horses with the spirit to look up and see, a" "For those dark horses with the spirit to look up and see, a recondite family awaits." "Spirit to look up and see, a recondite family awaits." "Ikindof didn'tknowwhat to" "Recondite family awaits." "Ikindof didn'tknowwhat to think." "Ikindof didn'tknowwhat to think." "I at first thought, "okay," "Think." "I at first thought, "okay, someone's making these crazy" "I at first thought, "okay, someone's making these crazy advertisements for something" "Someone's making these crazy advertisements for something that's almost too impossible to" "Advertisements for something that's almost too impossible to even exist." "That's almost too impossible to even exist." "And they seem to be urging me to" "Even exist." "And they seem to be urging me to visit this physical place."" "And they seem to be urging me to visit this physical place." once I got to" "Visit this physical place." once I got to 580 california street, I was" "Once I got to 580 california street, I was kind of intimidated a bit by 580 california street, I was kind of intimidated a bit by both the locale and the" "Kind of intimidated a bit by both the locale and the building." "Both the locale and the building." "I realized this is downtown" "Building." "I realized this is downtown financial district." "I realized this is downtown financial district." "This is a high-rent district." "Financial district." "This is a high-rent district." "This is a place where you have" "This is a high-rent district." "This is a place where you have bank of america." "This is a place where you have bank of america." "I walked in and asked for the" "Bank of america." "I walked in and asked for the jejune institute." "I walked in and asked for the jejune institute." "The security guard seemed to" "Jejune institute." "The security guard seemed to know what the place was." "The security guard seemed to know what the place was." "Asked for my I.D., had me sign" "Know what the place was." "Asked for my I.D., had me sign in, gave me a visitor badge, and" "Asked for my I.D., had me sign in, gave me a visitor badge, and at that point directed me to the" "In, gave me a visitor badge, and at that point directed me to the elevators." "At that point directed me to the elevators." "I get out and see this very" "Elevators." "I get out and see this very normal-looking lobby." "I get out and see this very normal-looking lobby." "And I see the receptionist" "Normal-looking lobby." "And I see the receptionist there, who didn't really seem at" "And I see the receptionist there, who didn't really seem at at all like anybody from the" "There, who didn't really seem at at all like anybody from the website." "At all like anybody from the website." "You know, I wasn't really seeing" "Website." "You know, I wasn't really seeing the name of this company I was" "You know, I wasn't really seeing the name of this company I was looking for." "The name of this company I was looking for." "And the receptionist asked me if" "Looking for." "And the receptionist asked me if she could help me." "And the receptionist asked me if she could help me." "I said, "yeah, I'm here for the" "She could help me." "I said, "yeah, I'm here for the jejune institute."" "I said, "yeah, I'm here for the jejune institute." and she handed me a key." "Jejune institute." and she handed me a key." "And that seemed to be that." "And she handed me a key." "And that seemed to be that." "On one side's a map." "And that seemed to be that." "On one side's a map." "On the other side, there's" "On one side's a map." "On the other side, there's instructions guiding me through" "On the other side, there's instructions guiding me through the floor I'm on to some" "Instructions guiding me through the floor I'm on to some location." "The floor I'm on to some location." "So, I navigated the floor based" "Location." "So, I navigated the floor based on the map and the instructions" "So, I navigated the floor based on the map and the instructions and ended up at a room." "On the map and the instructions and ended up at a room." "greetings." "And ended up at a room." "greetings." "Welcome to greetings." "Welcome to the jejune institute," "Welcome to the jejune institute, san francisco induction center." "The jejune institute, san francisco induction center." "Please enter the room and close" "San francisco induction center." "Please enter the room and close the door behind you." "Please enter the room and close the door behind you." "Now have a seat in the lounge" "The door behind you." "Now have a seat in the lounge chair provided for you." "Now have a seat in the lounge chair provided for you." "In a moment, our orientation" "Chair provided for you." "In a moment, our orientation program will begin." "In a moment, our orientation program will begin." "5...4...3...2..." "And 1." "younowsitina satellite induction office of the jejune institute, located" "Induction office of the jejune institute, located in the deep forests of" "The jejune institute, located in the deep forests of san francisco." "In the deep forests of san francisco." "The room in which you are" "San francisco." "The room in which you are currently located rests exactly" "The room in which you are currently located rests exactly six floors beneath our global" "Currently located rests exactly six floors beneath our global headquarters." "Six floors beneath our global headquarters." "The california center is one of" "Headquarters." "The california center is one of many such stations spread" "The california center is one of many such stations spread around the globe, in locations" "Many such stations spread around the globe, in locations such as oslo, seville, algiers," "Around the globe, in locations such as oslo, seville, algiers, bombay, quebec, and santiago." "Such as oslo, seville, algiers, bombay, quebec, and santiago." "But the origins of" "Bombay, quebec, and santiago." "But the origins of the jejune institute are right" "But the origins of the jejune institute are right here." "The jejune institute are right here." "It all began in 1962, when a" "Here." "It all began in 1962, when a small group of academics came" "It all began in 1962, when a small group of academics came together around a common" "Small group of academics came together around a common interest in the advancement of" "Together around a common interest in the advancement of socio-reengineering." "Interest in the advancement of socio-reengineering." "During the '60s, the society" "Socio-reengineering." "During the '60s, the society was a closely knit forum for" "During the '60s, the society was a closely knit forum for experimental research" "Was a closely knit forum for experimental research techniques, utilized to expand" "Experimental research techniques, utilized to expand interpersonal trust among" "Techniques, utilized to expand interpersonal trust among fellow human subjects." "During the 1970s, under the leadership of luminary metaphysicist" "Leadership of luminary metaphysicist octavio coleman, esquire, the" "Metaphysicist octavio coleman, esquire, the institute gained a wide" "Octavio coleman, esquire, the institute gained a wide influence and prestige for" "Institute gained a wide influence and prestige for which it is now known." "Along with contemporaries werner erhard and stewart emery, coleman helped" "Werner erhard and stewart emery, coleman helped spearhead the still-nascent" "Stewart emery, coleman helped spearhead the still-nascent movement of personal growth and" "Spearhead the still-nascent movement of personal growth and self-help." "Movement of personal growth and self-help." "The work they did" "Self-help." "The work they did collaboratively, amid the" "The work they did collaboratively, amid the breeding grounds of est," "Collaboratively, amid the breeding grounds of est, echelon, and dianetics helped" "Breeding grounds of est, echelon, and dianetics helped to spawn a thousand like-minded" "Echelon, and dianetics helped to spawn a thousand like-minded prophets of pop psychology." "To spawn a thousand like-minded prophets of pop psychology." "But what the jejune institute" "Prophets of pop psychology." "But what the jejune institute is most celebrated for today" "But what the jejune institute is most celebrated for today are the many advanced" "Is most celebrated for today are the many advanced technological products and" "Are the many advanced technological products and services they have brought to" "Technological products and services they have brought to the international marketplace." "Services they have brought to the international marketplace." "These developments include" "The international marketplace." "These developments include poliwater, a more condensed" "These developments include poliwater, a more condensed form of water, with a higher" "Poliwater, a more condensed form of water, with a higher boiling point, a lower freezing" "Form of water, with a higher boiling point, a lower freezing point, and astounding" "Boiling point, a lower freezing point, and astounding regenerative properties upon" "Point, and astounding regenerative properties upon all organic compounds..." "The vital-orbit human forcefield -- a hydrodynamic conductor based upon the" "Forcefield -- a hydrodynamic conductor based upon the tesla core, which acts as an" "Conductor based upon the tesla core, which acts as an external ambassador to your" "Tesla core, which acts as an external ambassador to your body..." "External ambassador to your body..." "And our foremost project, which" "Body..." "And our foremost project, which will utterly revolutionize the" "And our foremost project, which will utterly revolutionize the way that human beings interact" "Will utterly revolutionize the way that human beings interact both interpersonally and" "Way that human beings interact both interpersonally and socio-politically, jejune's" "Both interpersonally and socio-politically, jejune's algorithm -- a small, mobile" "Socio-politically, jejune's algorithm -- a small, mobile device encasing a complex" "Algorithm -- a small, mobile device encasing a complex mathematical code that will" "Device encasing a complex mathematical code that will instantly and permanently" "Mathematical code that will instantly and permanently reduce all human conflict," "Instantly and permanently reduce all human conflict, violence, and heartbreak." "Reduce all human conflict, violence, and heartbreak." "Patent pending." "Violence, and heartbreak." "Patent pending." "Iwilladmitthatthis wasa" "Patent pending." "Iwilladmitthatthis wasa  rather bizarre experience, and I" "Iwilladmitthatthis wasa  rather bizarre experience, and I had no real clue that when I" "Rather bizarre experience, and I had no real clue that when I went down there, this would be" "Had no real clue that when I went down there, this would be what would be there." "Went down there, this would be what would be there." "And then, on the tv appears this" "What would be there." "And then, on the tv appears this rather strange-looking old man," "And then, on the tv appears this rather strange-looking old man, who's calling himself" "Rather strange-looking old man, who's calling himself octavio coleman, esquire." "youwillbegintonoticethe divine occurring all around you in a thousand miniscule ways" "Divine occurring all around you in a thousand miniscule ways constantly, all the time." "In a thousand miniscule ways constantly, all the time." "So, we will begin the induction" "Constantly, all the time." "So, we will begin the induction process." "So, we will begin the induction process." "atonepoint,hemakes" "Process." "atonepoint,hemakes mention of the desk sitting next atonepoint,hemakes mention of the desk sitting next to the chair that I'm in and how" "Mention of the desk sitting next to the chair that I'm in and how I really shouldn't open the" "To the chair that I'm in and how I really shouldn't open the drawer that's there and take" "I really shouldn't open the drawer that's there and take what's inside." "Drawer that's there and take what's inside." "And then, at that point, of" "What's inside." "And then, at that point, of course, I had to open it and" "And then, at that point, of course, I had to open it and look in the drawer." "Course, I had to open it and look in the drawer." "And that's when I, for the very" "Look in the drawer." "And that's when I, for the very first time, saw what would later" "And that's when I, for the very first time, saw what would later be referred to as the" "First time, saw what would later be referred to as the induction card." "Be referred to as the induction card." "And it looked like a crazy" "Induction card." "And it looked like a crazy person designed it." "And it looked like a crazy person designed it." "I started realizing it was" "Person designed it." "I started realizing it was telling me how to navigate" "I started realizing it was telling me how to navigate myself out of this building and" "Telling me how to navigate myself out of this building and to do so in a way that evaded" "Myself out of this building and to do so in a way that evaded the security of the building." "To do so in a way that evaded the security of the building." "So, I thought I'd give it a" "The security of the building." "So, I thought I'd give it a shot." "So, I thought I'd give it a shot." "youmaysuddenlybeginto" "Shot." "youmaysuddenlybeginto notice small things around you youmaysuddenlybeginto notice small things around you you had never before noticed." "Notice small things around you you had never before noticed." "And those minute details will" "You had never before noticed." "And those minute details will lead to other, more significant" "And those minute details will lead to other, more significant observations and so on," "Lead to other, more significant observations and so on, ad infinitum, until your entire" "Observations and so on, ad infinitum, until your entire universe is transformed" "Ad infinitum, until your entire universe is transformed forever." "whathappenednextisin following the card, I end up going on this very eccentric," "Following the card, I end up going on this very eccentric, hour-long " " I guess you would" "Going on this very eccentric, hour-long " " I guess you would say like a scavenger-hunt sort" "Hour-long " " I guess you would say like a scavenger-hunt sort of adventure." "Say like a scavenger-hunt sort of adventure." "There were lots of unanswered" "Of adventure." "There were lots of unanswered questions -- who's behind this?" "There were lots of unanswered questions -- who's behind this?" "Where is it leading?" "Questions -- who's behind this?" "Where is it leading?" "What's the point?" "Where is it leading?" "What's the point?" "And as it started to unfold," "What's the point?" "And as it started to unfold, more and more things kind of" "And as it started to unfold, more and more things kind of came to light, especially things" "More and more things kind of came to light, especially things like new terminology." "Came to light, especially things like new terminology." "The word "nonchalance" was maybe" "Like new terminology." "The word "nonchalance" was maybe being used in ways that I hadn't" "The word "nonchalance" was maybe being used in ways that I hadn't really seen it used before." "Being used in ways that I hadn't really seen it used before." "I guess I was afraid that at" "Really seen it used before." "I guess I was afraid that at some point I would be marketed" "I guess I was afraid that at some point I would be marketed to." "Some point I would be marketed to." "It'd be like, "well, thank you" "To." "It'd be like, "well, thank you for going through this thing." "It'd be like, "well, thank you for going through this thing." "Buy reese's peanut butter cups"" "For going through this thing." "Buy reese's peanut butter cups" or something like that, you" "Buy reese's peanut butter cups" or something like that, you know?" "Or something like that, you know?" "But that never seemed to happen." "Know?" "But that never seemed to happen." "In fact, the more I pull on" "But that never seemed to happen." "In fact, the more I pull on threads, the more the lines were" "In fact, the more I pull on threads, the more the lines were really blurred between what I" "Threads, the more the lines were really blurred between what I viewed as the insanity I was" "Really blurred between what I viewed as the insanity I was kind of experiencing and the" "Viewed as the insanity I was kind of experiencing and the insanity of the real world." "Kind of experiencing and the insanity of the real world." "In fact, I would say that a lot" "Insanity of the real world." "In fact, I would say that a lot of insanity you run into?" "In fact, I would say that a lot of insanity you run into?" "It's insanity, and you can set" "Of insanity you run into?" "It's insanity, and you can set it over here." "It's insanity, and you can set it over here." "But the insanity that I was" "It over here." "But the insanity that I was getting exposed to so much" "But the insanity that I was getting exposed to so much blurred the lines between real" "Getting exposed to so much blurred the lines between real insanity and perhaps fake" "Blurred the lines between real insanity and perhaps fake insanity that there was really" "Insanity and perhaps fake insanity that there was really no distinction." "Insanity that there was really no distinction." "I think my eyes really were" "No distinction." "I think my eyes really were opening up and seeing the world" "I think my eyes really were opening up and seeing the world in a different way." "Opening up and seeing the world in a different way." "IfeltlikeIfelt before" "In a different way." "IfeltlikeIfelt before when I was watching a movie, and" "IfeltlikeIfelt before when I was watching a movie, and the movie ended, and I left the" "When I was watching a movie, and the movie ended, and I left the movie theater." "And everything outside seems better than it did before that." "Better than it did before that." "Like, the colors are brighter," "Like, the colors are brighter, or the world looks like a" "Or the world looks like a different place." "And I wanted to keep feeling that way, instead of just walking around going, "well, I'm" "That way, instead of just walking around going, "well, I'm going to my job." "Walking around going, "well, I'm going to my job." "Well, I have to go do laundry."" "Going to my job." "Well, I have to go do laundry." instead, I was walking around" "Well, I have to go do laundry." instead, I was walking around and looking at stuff with a" "Instead, I was walking around and looking at stuff with a different purpose." "And looking at stuff with a different purpose." "Instead of just trying to get" "Different purpose." "Instead of just trying to get from point "a" to point "b," I" "Instead of just trying to get from point "a" to point "b," I was looking for clues." "From point "a" to point "b," I was looking for clues." "Towards the end of the" "Was looking for clues." "Towards the end of the induction, on the card, you're" "Towards the end of the induction, on the card, you're instructed to call the" "Induction, on the card, you're instructed to call the detective." "Instructed to call the detective." "And when you call the detective," "Detective." "And when you call the detective, he drops a clue about" "And when you call the detective, he drops a clue about cooper alley." "He drops a clue about cooper alley." "It turns out there's a shrine to" "Cooper alley." "It turns out there's a shrine to someone named eva." "It turns out there's a shrine to someone named eva." "Says, "we miss you, eva."" "Someone named eva." "Says, "we miss you, eva." then, at that point, you're" "Says, "we miss you, eva." then, at that point, you're instructed to go back to the" "Then, at that point, you're instructed to go back to the building, and you're given a key" "Instructed to go back to the building, and you're given a key to this wall of lockers." "Building, and you're given a key to this wall of lockers." "There's a tiny, little peephole," "To this wall of lockers." "There's a tiny, little peephole, and inside there are these sort" "There's a tiny, little peephole, and inside there are these sort of partial letters and numbers" "And inside there are these sort of partial letters and numbers and things like that." "Of partial letters and numbers and things like that." "And then, at the very end of the" "And things like that." "And then, at the very end of the cycle, it comes together, and" "And then, at the very end of the cycle, it comes together, and it's the same face that was in" "Cycle, it comes together, and it's the same face that was in the alley." "It's the same face that was in the alley." "About the same time, I got a" "The alley." "About the same time, I got a text message saying, "tune in to" "About the same time, I got a text message saying, "tune in to radio nonchalance in" "Text message saying, "tune in to radio nonchalance in upper dolores park."" "Radio nonchalance in upper dolores park." I actually drove up here in my" "Upper dolores park." I actually drove up here in my car because I didn't have a" "I actually drove up here in my car because I didn't have a radio." "Car because I didn't have a radio." "And I sat in my car for about a" "Radio." "And I sat in my car for about a half an hour listening to this" "And I sat in my car for about a half an hour listening to this station." "overthecourseofanhour,  there strange news factoids." "There was an interview with the" "There strange news factoids." "There was an interview with the proprietor of the world's" "There was an interview with the proprietor of the world's smallest postal service." "There was talk of strange conspiracy." "There was a rant against" "Conspiracy." "There was a rant against octavio coleman." "There was a rant against octavio coleman." "There was all sorts of fun" "Octavio coleman." "There was all sorts of fun stuff." "There was all sorts of fun stuff." "It felt very much like listening" "Stuff." "It felt very much like listening to someone like art bell on the" "It felt very much like listening to someone like art bell on the radio." "To someone like art bell on the radio." "You can't tell if he's for real" "Radio." "You can't tell if he's for real or not." "You can't tell if he's for real or not." "andnowcrypticradiobrins" "Or not." "andnowcrypticradiobrins you the secret of nonchalance." "andnowcrypticradiobrins you the secret of nonchalance." "What is nonchalance?" "You the secret of nonchalance." "What is nonchalance?" "And who are its hidden" "What is nonchalance?" "And who are its hidden followers?" "And who are its hidden followers?" "This is your announcer," "Followers?" "This is your announcer, commander 14, broadcasting for" "This is your announcer, commander 14, broadcasting for a limited time on this special" "Commander 14, broadcasting for a limited time on this special frequency." "A limited time on this special frequency." "Keep tuned for vital" "Frequency." "Keep tuned for vital information." "Keep tuned for vital information." "Follow along as we disclose a" "Information." "Follow along as we disclose a world whose secret presence may" "Follow along as we disclose a world whose secret presence may mean the difference between" "World whose secret presence may mean the difference between enlightenment and total" "Mean the difference between enlightenment and total incomprehension." "Enlightenment and total incomprehension." "And just what do we mean by" "Incomprehension." "And just what do we mean by nonchalance, anyway?" "And just what do we mean by nonchalance, anyway?" "A casual way of sauntering down" "Nonchalance, anyway?" "A casual way of sauntering down the street?" "A casual way of sauntering down the street?" "A kind of cool, perhaps?" "The street?" "A kind of cool, perhaps?" "You like cartoons, don't you?" "A kind of cool, perhaps?" "You like cartoons, don't you?" "Of course you do." "You like cartoons, don't you?" "Of course you do." "Everyone likes cartoons." "Of course you do." "Everyone likes cartoons." "Observe as our animated" "Everyone likes cartoons." "Observe as our animated protagonist stumbles blindly" "Observe as our animated protagonist stumbles blindly out of bed, down the stairs," "Protagonist stumbles blindly out of bed, down the stairs, and out the front door, onto a" "Out of bed, down the stairs, and out the front door, onto a busy street." "And out the front door, onto a busy street." "He easily but narrowly dodges" "Busy street." "He easily but narrowly dodges impending danger, seemingly" "He easily but narrowly dodges impending danger, seemingly without effort or awareness." "Impending danger, seemingly without effort or awareness." "Bricks from a construction site" "Without effort or awareness." "Bricks from a construction site almost but do not fall on him." "Bricks from a construction site almost but do not fall on him." "At the last minute, as he's" "Almost but do not fall on him." "At the last minute, as he's about to step into an open" "At the last minute, as he's about to step into an open manhole in the street, he's" "About to step into an open manhole in the street, he's miraculously spared the fall." "Manhole in the street, he's miraculously spared the fall." "And after numerous similar" "Miraculously spared the fall." "And after numerous similar close calls, his unconscious" "And after numerous similar close calls, his unconscious path is turned around in a" "Close calls, his unconscious path is turned around in a revolving door." "Path is turned around in a revolving door." "And in his own building, by" "Revolving door." "And in his own building, by fortunate coincide, he's" "And in his own building, by fortunate coincide, he's somehow returned to bed," "Fortunate coincide, he's somehow returned to bed, unharmed by the end of the" "Somehow returned to bed, unharmed by the end of the cartoon." "Unharmed by the end of the cartoon." "This ability, to be supported" "Cartoon." "This ability, to be supported and guarded by extraordinary" "This ability, to be supported and guarded by extraordinary good luck, is called" "And guarded by extraordinary good luck, is called "divine nonchalance."" "Good luck, is called "divine nonchalance." by definition, the nonchalant" ""divine nonchalance." by definition, the nonchalant is wonderfully scattered and" "By definition, the nonchalant is wonderfully scattered and lacking in all external" "Is wonderfully scattered and lacking in all external direction." "Lacking in all external direction." "The ride is fantastic, but the" "Direction." "The ride is fantastic, but the destination remains uncertain." "The ride is fantastic, but the destination remains uncertain." "youarelisteningto" "Destination remains uncertain." "youarelisteningto radio nonchalance, dispatches youarelisteningto radio nonchalance, dispatches from elsewhere." "Radio nonchalance, dispatches from elsewhere." "Support for this program has" "From elsewhere." "Support for this program has been provided by the" "Support for this program has been provided by the elsewhere public works agency." "Been provided by the elsewhere public works agency." "Now back to our program." "Elsewhere public works agency." "Now back to our program." "well,theepwa'spositionon" "Now back to our program." "well,theepwa'spositionon the jejune institute is that well,theepwa'spositionon the jejune institute is that they were selling false" "The jejune institute is that they were selling false nonchalance." "They were selling false nonchalance." "And what they meant by that, as" "Nonchalance." "And what they meant by that, as best as I can tell, is that" "And what they meant by that, as best as I can tell, is that that creative spark which drives" "Best as I can tell, is that that creative spark which drives humanity cannot be marketed," "That creative spark which drives humanity cannot be marketed, cannot be sold, cannot be given" "Humanity cannot be marketed, cannot be sold, cannot be given to you in a bottle." "Cannot be sold, cannot be given to you in a bottle." "You either have those moments," "To you in a bottle." "You either have those moments, or you don't, and you can't" "You either have those moments, or you don't, and you can't control it." "Or you don't, and you can't control it." "So, anybody who tells you" "Control it." "So, anybody who tells you otherwise is selling you" "So, anybody who tells you otherwise is selling you something." "Otherwise is selling you something." "attention!" "Something." "attention!" "This is commander 14 of attention!" "This is commander 14 of cryptic radio." "This is commander 14 of cryptic radio." "Nonchalance is all around you." "Cryptic radio." "Nonchalance is all around you." "Wake up!" "Nonchalance is all around you." "Wake up!" "It's later than you think." "Wake up!" "It's later than you think." "The false prophets are even now" "It's later than you think." "The false prophets are even now consolidating their forces, as" "The false prophets are even now consolidating their forces, as they draw up their plans" "Consolidating their forces, as they draw up their plans against us." "They draw up their plans against us." "Beware especially the one the" "Against us." "Beware especially the one the world calls" "Beware especially the one the world calls "octavio coleman, esquire," for" "World calls "octavio coleman, esquire," for he is in the present era the" ""octavio coleman, esquire," for he is in the present era the main opponent of nonchalance" "He is in the present era the main opponent of nonchalance and a cynical and fiendishly" "Main opponent of nonchalance and a cynical and fiendishly inspired devisor of false" "And a cynical and fiendishly inspired devisor of false nonchalance." "Founder of the jejune institute, chief funder of the algorithm, main" "Jejune institute, chief funder of the algorithm, main perpetrator of false" "Of the algorithm, main perpetrator of false nonchalance, cia operative and" "Perpetrator of false nonchalance, cia operative and information, saboteur and" "Nonchalance, cia operative and information, saboteur and provocateur" "Information, saboteur and provocateur octavio coleman, esquire, is" "Provocateur octavio coleman, esquire, is the man who is behind all of" "Octavio coleman, esquire, is the man who is behind all of the monitoring, subversion, and" "The monitoring, subversion, and suppression of nonchalance." "During the 1980s, colemane." "Illegally obtained protected" "Illegally obtained protected patents and legal control over" "Patents and legal control over a series of innovative" "A series of innovative products." "Products." "Taking personal credit for" "Taking personal credit for these discoveries, coleman at" "These discoveries, coleman at this time consolidated the" "This time consolidated the jejune institute as a" "Jejune institute as a limited liability corporation." "Today, the institute commands an unheard-of freedom from governmental regulation or, for" "An unheard-of freedom from governmental regulation or, for that matter, any superior" "Governmental regulation or, for that matter, any superior authority." "That matter, any superior authority." "This might have dire" "Authority." "This might have dire consequences for all operating" "This might have dire consequences for all operating nonchalance in this area." "basically,whathadhappened is I'd gone to the institute, and I had gone through the first" "Is I'd gone to the institute, and I had gone through the first phase and was amazed by it," "And I had gone through the first phase and was amazed by it, obviously, just like you should" "Phase and was amazed by it, obviously, just like you should be -- amazed and confused." "And one day, about a week later, I was on my lunch break from work, and I walked down the" "I was on my lunch break from work, and I walked down the street to pick up a slice of" "Work, and I walked down the street to pick up a slice of pizza." "Street to pick up a slice of pizza." "And when I came back, there were" "Pizza." "And when I came back, there were the jejune institute posters all" "And when I came back, there were the jejune institute posters all over the street where I just" "The jejune institute posters all over the street where I just was and on every sign and on" "Over the street where I just was and on every sign and on every window." "Was and on every sign and on every window." "And so, there had obviously been" "Every window." "And so, there had obviously been multiple agents in the area," "And so, there had obviously been multiple agents in the area, flier-ing everything." "Multiple agents in the area, flier-ing everything." "And so, I got on my skateboard." "Flier-ing everything." "And so, I got on my skateboard." "I started skateboarding around" "And so, I got on my skateboard." "I started skateboarding around and trying to find who was" "I started skateboarding around and trying to find who was putting up these posters." "And trying to find who was putting up these posters." "And then I did see someone, and" "Putting up these posters." "And then I did see someone, and I kind of approached him, and I" "And then I did see someone, and I kind of approached him, and I said " " I asked him if he was" "I kind of approached him, and I said " " I asked him if he was following his nonchalance." "Said " " I asked him if he was following his nonchalance." "So, he knew that obviously I" "Following his nonchalance." "So, he knew that obviously I knew, and we started to talk." "So, he knew that obviously I knew, and we started to talk." "And he told me to give him his" "Knew, and we started to talk." "And he told me to give him his e-mail address, and then he" "And he told me to give him his e-mail address, and then he left." "E-mail address, and then he left." "They scheduled me to come down" "Left." "They scheduled me to come down and have an appointment with" "They scheduled me to come down and have an appointment with them in the offices, and I" "And have an appointment with them in the offices, and I didn't know exactly what to" "Them in the offices, and I didn't know exactly what to expect." "Didn't know exactly what to expect." "And they told me to dress" "Expect." "And they told me to dress "nicely," which obviously for me" "And they told me to dress "nicely," which obviously for me can mean all sorts of different" ""nicely," which obviously for me can mean all sorts of different things." "Can mean all sorts of different things." "They told me to show up early," "Things." "They told me to show up early, and I knew what was going to" "They told me to show up early, and I knew what was going to happen, that there was going to" "And I knew what was going to happen, that there was going to be a protest, that I would lead" "Happen, that there was going to be a protest, that I would lead it, and that it would end at the" "Be a protest, that I would lead it, and that it would end at the lipo lounge." "It, and that it would end at the lipo lounge." "And they gave me a couple of" "Lipo lounge." "And they gave me a couple of these armbands." "And they gave me a couple of these armbands." "I put some on." "These armbands." "I put some on." "They hand me a bullhorn and told" "I put some on." "They hand me a bullhorn and told me, like, that they'd hoped I" "They hand me a bullhorn and told me, like, that they'd hoped I memorized all the chants." "Me, like, that they'd hoped I memorized all the chants." "And I'd never -- there was no" "Memorized all the chants." "And I'd never -- there was no chance." "And I'd never -- there was no chance." "So, I said, "yes, absolutely." "Chance." "So, I said, "yes, absolutely." "I know every chant." "So, I said, "yes, absolutely." "I know every chant." "All the chants I know." "I know every chant." "All the chants I know." "I know every single chant."" "All the chants I know." "I know every single chant." and they said, "let's go."" "Hello!" "hi!" "Niceto meetyou ." "hello!" "hi!" "Niceto meetyou ." "hello!" "Hold the signs up high in the hello!" "Hold the signs up high in the air." "Hold the signs up high in the air." "I want to see them." "Air." "I want to see them." "There's so much energy just" "I want to see them." "There's so much energy just coming right through here." "There's so much energy just coming right through here." "there'sa lotof energy." "Coming right through here." "there'sa lotof energy." "youcanfeelit." "there'sa lotof energy." "youcanfeelit." "You can feel it." "youcanfeelit." "You can feel it." "Feel the energy." "You can feel it." "Feel the energy." "Oh, my god, it feels so good!" "Feel the energy." "Oh, my god, it feels so good!" "Get up here!" "Oh, my god, it feels so good!" "Get up here!" "Get up here, you guys." "Keep rocking and keep trucking!" "I didn't know -- when they said, like, "oh, yeah, you'll lead" "I didn't know -- when they said, like, "oh, yeah, you'll lead it," I didn't know, like, I was" "Like, "oh, yeah, you'll lead it," I didn't know, like, I was physically going to be like," "It," I didn't know, like, I was physically going to be like, "oh, we're going this way now."" "Physically going to be like, "oh, we're going this way now." so, I didn't know exactly where" ""oh, we're going this way now." so, I didn't know exactly where we were going." "So, I didn't know exactly where we were going." "There was no route assignment" "We were going." "There was no route assignment given to me, and I don't live in" "There was no route assignment given to me, and I don't live in chinatown." "Given to me, and I don't live in chinatown." "So, I don't know the best way" "Chinatown." "So, I don't know the best way there." "So, I don't know the best way there." "So, we took the long route, and," "There." "So, we took the long route, and, of course, if you were there," "So, we took the long route, and, of course, if you were there, you know what happened." "Of course, if you were there, you know what happened." "I led us right past the" "You know what happened." "I led us right past the jejune institute, and obviously" "I led us right past the jejune institute, and obviously octavio was waiting there for" "Jejune institute, and obviously octavio was waiting there for us." "Octavio was waiting there for us." "[ all screaming ]" "Us." "[ all screaming ] [ bells clanging ] [ crowd booing ] [ crowd cheering ]" "And then they gave me a handshake, and then I never talked to any of them again" "Handshake, and then I never talked to any of them again after that." "youknow,everyday Iwould go to this children's amusement park." "Go to this children's amusement park." "It was like literally a rabbit" "Park." "It was like literally a rabbit hole that you could fall down" "It was like literally a rabbit hole that you could fall down into that led you to these" "Hole that you could fall down into that led you to these dioramas or the magic key that" "Into that led you to these dioramas or the magic key that you could put into a story box," "Dioramas or the magic key that you could put into a story box, and then it suddenly would be" "You could put into a story box, and then it suddenly would be telling you a fairy tale." "It was filled with wonder and filled with discovery, and I" "Filled with discovery, and I wanted to know why is it" "Wanted to know why is it contained inside the gates of" "Contained inside the gates of this little park?" "This little park?" "And then you go out onto the" "And then you go out onto the street, and all you see is" "Street, and all you see is walk/don't walk, no dogs, or" "Walk/don't walk, no dogs, or this way or do not enter and all" "This way or do not enter and all these rules and lines and" "These rules and lines and restrictions." "And I wanted to crack it, and I wanted to open it up." "And I think it was this very" "Wanted to open it up." "And I think it was this very subconscious influence for me" "And I think it was this very subconscious influence for me that there should be this kind" "Subconscious influence for me that there should be this kind of play infused into the" "That there should be this kind of play infused into the architecture of our real world." "Of play infused into the architecture of our real world." "People would totally willingly" "Architecture of our real world." "People would totally willingly accept that there was a" "People would totally willingly accept that there was a coca-cola or a mcdonald's or a" "Accept that there was a coca-cola or a mcdonald's or a kool cigarette billboard right" "Coca-cola or a mcdonald's or a kool cigarette billboard right outside their home or their" "Kool cigarette billboard right outside their home or their schools, but they would be upset" "Outside their home or their schools, but they would be upset by the fact that somebody did a" "Schools, but they would be upset by the fact that somebody did a piece of street art there." "By the fact that somebody did a piece of street art there." "And that seemed really" "Piece of street art there." "And that seemed really backwards, and I was writing" "And that seemed really backwards, and I was writing essays about this theory that I" "Backwards, and I was writing essays about this theory that I called "threads," in which all" "Essays about this theory that I called "threads," in which all kinds of media could intertwine" "Called "threads," in which all kinds of media could intertwine with each other to tell us a" "Kinds of media could intertwine with each other to tell us a story." "With each other to tell us a story." "And that's really the beginning" "Story." "And that's really the beginning of what developed into" "And that's really the beginning of what developed into nonchalance." "Ijustgraduatedschoolwith  my degree in sound arts, and I" "My degree in sound arts, and I was doing work with oaklandish," "Was doing work with oaklandish, both doing sound for some of" "Both doing sound for some of their events and just selling" "Their events and just selling clothes to make ends meet." "Clothes to make ends meet." "Iknewof jeff." "Iknewof jeff." "I don't think that we had met in a way that either of us would" "I don't think that we had met in a way that either of us would remember, but he's been very" "A way that either of us would remember, but he's been very influential in kind of the" "Remember, but he's been very influential in kind of the grassroots arts community in" "Influential in kind of the grassroots arts community in oakland for quite some time." "So, I knew of him, but it really started " " I saw a post on craigslist." "Started " " I saw a post on craigslist." "throughsomeoneat" "Craigslist." "throughsomeoneat  oaklandish, I heard that they throughsomeoneat  oaklandish, I heard that they were building an automated room." "Oaklandish, I heard that they were building an automated room." "I did not know what the point of" "Were building an automated room." "I did not know what the point of the automated room was, beyond" "I did not know what the point of the automated room was, beyond create an interesting" "The automated room was, beyond create an interesting environment for players or" "Create an interesting environment for players or participants to engage in on" "Environment for players or participants to engage in on some level." "Participants to engage in on some level." "Imean,initiallyIwashired" "Some level." "Imean,initiallyIwashired  on, contract for a small part of" "Imean,initiallyIwashired  on, contract for a small part of the job, and then, when jeff" "On, contract for a small part of the job, and then, when jeff asked me to come on full-time as" "The job, and then, when jeff asked me to come on full-time as the lead producer, I started" "Asked me to come on full-time as the lead producer, I started asking a couple more questions" "The lead producer, I started asking a couple more questions and being a little nervous." "Asking a couple more questions and being a little nervous." "IguessyoucouldsayI" "And being a little nervous." "IguessyoucouldsayI  learned about the project in the" "IguessyoucouldsayI  learned about the project in the way a lot of players learned" "Learned about the project in the way a lot of players learned about the project, as the more I" "Way a lot of players learned about the project, as the more I became involved, the more" "About the project, as the more I became involved, the more questions I asked." "Became involved, the more questions I asked." "And when those questions got" "Questions I asked." "And when those questions got answered, a story started to" "And when those questions got answered, a story started to emerge." "Answered, a story started to emerge." "wordslike"urbanplayground" "Emerge." "wordslike"urbanplayground movement" and "alternate-reality wordslike"urbanplayground movement" and "alternate-reality game," and it was very opaque." "Movement" and "alternate-reality game," and it was very opaque." "Iwoulddescribeitas..." "Game," and it was very opaque." "Iwoulddescribeitas..." "A game that you play by going" "Iwoulddescribeitas..." "A game that you play by going out into the city and doing" "A game that you play by going out into the city and doing things." "Out into the city and doing things." "And as you do that, you become" "Things." "And as you do that, you become part of a story that's" "And as you do that, you become part of a story that's unfolding in the city, in the" "Part of a story that's unfolding in the city, in the real world." "Unfolding in the city, in the real world." "whatwe'redoingwith" "Real world." "whatwe'redoingwith nonchalance is giving people a whatwe'redoingwith nonchalance is giving people a mission and giving people" "Nonchalance is giving people a mission and giving people permission to become an agent" "Mission and giving people permission to become an agent and to explore the space in a" "Permission to become an agent and to explore the space in a different way, to go in and out" "And to explore the space in a different way, to go in and out from public and private spaces" "Different way, to go in and out from public and private spaces and to explore and just to" "From public and private spaces and to explore and just to discover hidden things in their" "And to explore and just to discover hidden things in their environment." "Discover hidden things in their environment." "And to play -- ultimately, to" "Environment." "And to play -- ultimately, to bring spontaneity and play into" "And to play -- ultimately, to bring spontaneity and play into our civic spaces." "Bring spontaneity and play into our civic spaces." "Some people thought it was an" "Our civic spaces." "Some people thought it was an actual cult, and they were" "Some people thought it was an actual cult, and they were afraid to go to the induction" "Actual cult, and they were afraid to go to the induction center." "Afraid to go to the induction center." "They thought, "oh, these guys" "Center." "They thought, "oh, these guys are like scientologists."" "They thought, "oh, these guys are like scientologists." and for me the signals were out" "Are like scientologists." and for me the signals were out there that this was some kind of" "And for me the signals were out there that this was some kind of a game." "There that this was some kind of a game." "But I definitely, in the" "A game." "But I definitely, in the beginning, had the intention of" "But I definitely, in the beginning, had the intention of people going, "what the fuck?" "!" "Beginning, had the intention of people going, "what the fuck?" "!" "Really?"" "People going, "what the fuck?" "!" "Really?" or to give the notion that this" "Really?" or to give the notion that this was totally, like, marginal" "Or to give the notion that this was totally, like, marginal lunatic-fringe people putting up" "Was totally, like, marginal lunatic-fringe people putting up these fliers." "Lunatic-fringe people putting up these fliers." "And so, of course, it attracted" "These fliers." "And so, of course, it attracted some of those types of people," "And so, of course, it attracted some of those types of people, and we definitely got some" "Some of those types of people, and we definitely got some voice mails that were chilling." "And we definitely got some voice mails that were chilling." "Ilivedin sanfranciscofor" "Voice mails that were chilling." "Ilivedin sanfranciscofor 11 years and had to leave" "Ilivedin sanfranciscofor 11 years and had to leave because of gang-stalking 11 years and had to leave because of gang-stalking activities and being" "Because of gang-stalking activities and being surveillanced and monitored and" "Activities and being surveillanced and monitored and all the frequency manipulation," "Surveillanced and monitored and all the frequency manipulation, and it's a really serious thing" "All the frequency manipulation, and it's a really serious thing to have done to somebody." "And it's a really serious thing to have done to somebody." "And if you seriously want to go" "To have done to somebody." "And if you seriously want to go up against them, you need to get" "And if you seriously want to go up against them, you need to get it better together than kind of" "Up against them, you need to get it better together than kind of these silly ramblings that" "It better together than kind of these silly ramblings that honestly don't really make any" "These silly ramblings that honestly don't really make any sense." "Honestly don't really make any sense." "[ tape rewinding ]" "Sense." "[ tape rewinding ] wow!" "[ tape rewinding ] wow!" "Like..." "Like..." "Like, literally, wow!" "Like..." "Like..." "Like, literally, I listen to these messages and" "Like..." "Like..." "Like, literally, I listen to these messages and go cold because these people" "I listen to these messages and go cold because these people were engaging with this." "Go cold because these people were engaging with this." "This was their reality to them." "Were engaging with this." "This was their reality to them." "And for me it was this huge" "This was their reality to them." "And for me it was this huge fantasy." "And for me it was this huge fantasy." "And so there was this blurring" "Fantasy." "And so there was this blurring of the lines between a real" "And so there was this blurring of the lines between a real flier and real voice mails and" "Of the lines between a real flier and real voice mails and then the content, which to me" "Flier and real voice mails and then the content, which to me was absurd but to other people" "Then the content, which to me was absurd but to other people maybe wasn't so absurd." "Was absurd but to other people maybe wasn't so absurd." "And organeil's a great example" "Maybe wasn't so absurd." "And organeil's a great example of that." "Isawaway toplay that was entirely new, that would bring together strangers under joyful" "Entirely new, that would bring together strangers under joyful and hilarious circumstances." "I had realized that a place that had previously been mundane and sort of enemy territory " " I.E.," "Had previously been mundane and sort of enemy territory " " I.E., the financial district -- had" "Sort of enemy territory " " I.E., the financial district -- had been "magicalized."" "The financial district -- had been "magicalized." and so, my hope was to help a" "Been "magicalized." and so, my hope was to help a few people see that something" "And so, my hope was to help a few people see that something really magical and unexpected" "Few people see that something really magical and unexpected could come out of this," "Really magical and unexpected could come out of this, something really beautiful and," "Could come out of this, something really beautiful and, you know, life-changing." "Something really beautiful and, you know, life-changing." "I created a web page about the" "You know, life-changing." "I created a web page about the jejune institute and hid it" "I created a web page about the jejune institute and hid it inside the organeil material." "Jejune institute and hid it inside the organeil material." "I saw people start showing up" "Inside the organeil material." "I saw people start showing up suddenly, like, two or three of" "I saw people start showing up suddenly, like, two or three of them, which doesn't happen." "Suddenly, like, two or three of them, which doesn't happen." "And these people were talking" "Them, which doesn't happen." "And these people were talking about things that didn't make" "And these people were talking about things that didn't make any sense to me, that I didn't" "About things that didn't make any sense to me, that I didn't understand." "Any sense to me, that I didn't understand." "They were clearly familiar with" "Understand." "They were clearly familiar with this idea of an "arg."" "They were clearly familiar with this idea of an "arg." and them treating it like a game" "This idea of an "arg." and them treating it like a game offended me." "And them treating it like a game offended me." "hedefinitelywassodeep" "Offended me." "hedefinitelywassodeep  into the experience that he hedefinitelywassodeep  into the experience that he often spoke of it in such a way" "Into the experience that he often spoke of it in such a way that a person wasn't really" "Often spoke of it in such a way that a person wasn't really quite sure where they stood with" "That a person wasn't really quite sure where they stood with him, as far as where he drew the" "Quite sure where they stood with him, as far as where he drew the line." "Him, as far as where he drew the line." "peoplewouldsay," "Line." "peoplewouldsay, "something-something game," and peoplewouldsay, "something-something game," and organeil would say, "you don't" ""something-something game," and organeil would say, "you don't understand." "Organeil would say, "you don't understand." "This is not a game!" "Understand." "This is not a game!" "You're not taking this" "This is not a game!" "You're not taking this seriously." "You're not taking this seriously." "You clearly don't have the" "Seriously." "You clearly don't have the vision." "You clearly don't have the vision." "This is not a game."" "Vision." "This is not a game." heinsistedthattherewas" "This is not a game." heinsistedthattherewas more going on that just some heinsistedthattherewas more going on that just some sort of game." "More going on that just some sort of game." "Whether or not " " I don't know" "Sort of game." "Whether or not " " I don't know what he suspected, but I think" "Whether or not " " I don't know what he suspected, but I think we just disagreed on that point." "What he suspected, but I think we just disagreed on that point." "hethoughtthatmaybethis" "We just disagreed on that point." "hethoughtthatmaybethis  was going to change the world or hethoughtthatmaybethis  was going to change the world or be an opportunity for people to" "Was going to change the world or be an opportunity for people to really come together as an" "Be an opportunity for people to really come together as an organization that could uplift" "Really come together as an organization that could uplift the planet in some way." "Organization that could uplift the planet in some way." "And, you know, I don't think" "The planet in some way." "And, you know, I don't think there's any limits on the amount" "And, you know, I don't think there's any limits on the amount of things you could do with this" "There's any limits on the amount of things you could do with this kind of artwork." "Of things you could do with this kind of artwork." "But it was certainly beyond our" "Kind of artwork." "But it was certainly beyond our scope." "But it was certainly beyond our scope." "There was a certain point when I" "Scope." "There was a certain point when I was surprised to receive an" "There was a certain point when I was surprised to receive an e-mail from him saying, "I am no" "Was surprised to receive an e-mail from him saying, "I am no longer gonna have anything to do" "E-mail from him saying, "I am no longer gonna have anything to do with this and please erase any" "Longer gonna have anything to do with this and please erase any evidence of my participation" "With this and please erase any evidence of my participation with this." "Evidence of my participation with this." "And in my heart and mind, this" "With this." "And in my heart and mind, this is already done."" "And in my heart and mind, this is already done." Iwasactuallyinjuredona" "Is already done." Iwasactuallyinjuredona couple of jejune errands, twice." "Iwasactuallyinjuredona couple of jejune errands, twice." "Unfortunately, the second time" "Couple of jejune errands, twice." "Unfortunately, the second time was the last time I was outside." "Unfortunately, the second time was the last time I was outside." "That was in July of 2009." "Was the last time I was outside." "That was in July of 2009." "And I was so badly hurt that it" "That was in July of 2009." "And I was so badly hurt that it wasn't safe to transport me." "And I was so badly hurt that it wasn't safe to transport me." "Jiggling would cause muscles in" "Wasn't safe to transport me." "Jiggling would cause muscles in my abdomen to tear." "Jiggling would cause muscles in my abdomen to tear." "Ihadneverheardofanything" "My abdomen to tear." "Ihadneverheardofanything like that happening to any one" "Ihadneverheardofanything like that happening to any one of our players and knew of no" "Like that happening to any one of our players and knew of no situation or event in which" "Of our players and knew of no situation or event in which anything accidental had happened" "Situation or event in which anything accidental had happened at all." "Anything accidental had happened at all." "And I kind of came to the" "At all." "And I kind of came to the conclusion this was all" "And I kind of came to the conclusion this was all something that he had kind of" "Conclusion this was all something that he had kind of concocted in his mind." "Something that he had kind of concocted in his mind." "Ihadno assistance" "Concocted in his mind." "Ihadno assistance whatsoever." "Ihadno assistance whatsoever." "I was kind of trapped here in my" "Whatsoever." "I was kind of trapped here in my house." "I was kind of trapped here in my house." "And I began to become really" "House." "And I began to become really concerned that, uh..." "And I began to become really concerned that, uh..." "[ chuckles ]" "Concerned that, uh..." "[ chuckles ] well, to be quite frank and [ chuckles ] well, to be quite frank and terribly honest, in those" "Well, to be quite frank and terribly honest, in those circumstances, I was somewhat" "Terribly honest, in those circumstances, I was somewhat paranoid." "Circumstances, I was somewhat paranoid." "And I felt that with some" "Paranoid." "And I felt that with some reason that my interaction with" "And I felt that with some reason that my interaction with the jejune institute was" "Reason that my interaction with the jejune institute was possibly spiritually harmful in" "The jejune institute was possibly spiritually harmful in some sense." "Possibly spiritually harmful in some sense." "At first, you go in, and you're" "Some sense." "At first, you go in, and you're kind of starry-eyed, and you" "At first, you go in, and you're kind of starry-eyed, and you have the experience." "Kind of starry-eyed, and you have the experience." "But once you start understanding" "Have the experience." "But once you start understanding a little bit more of the "plot,"" "But once you start understanding a little bit more of the "plot," you realize that the" "A little bit more of the "plot," you realize that the jejune institute is the bad" "You realize that the jejune institute is the bad guys." "Jejune institute is the bad guys." "And so, you've given your" "Guys." "And so, you've given your personal information to the bad" "And so, you've given your personal information to the bad guys!" "Personal information to the bad guys!" "And not knowing who's really" "Guys!" "And not knowing who's really behind it or what really their" "And not knowing who's really behind it or what really their goals are, you know?" "Behind it or what really their goals are, you know?" "From the sinister nature of the" "Goals are, you know?" "From the sinister nature of the jejune institute, it is not" "From the sinister nature of the jejune institute, it is not clear that you're involved with" "Jejune institute, it is not clear that you're involved with something as beautiful as" "Clear that you're involved with something as beautiful as elsewhere." "Something as beautiful as elsewhere." "And so I wanted to distance" "Elsewhere." "And so I wanted to distance myself from it at that point." "[ radio static crackles ] commander14calling eva lucien." "commander14calling eva lucien." "Evalyn, we need you to come in." "Eva lucien." "Evalyn, we need you to come in." "Repeat -- we need you to come" "Evalyn, we need you to come in." "Repeat -- we need you to come in." "Repeat -- we need you to come in." "We have a chance of decoding" "In." "We have a chance of decoding the encryption of the first six" "We have a chance of decoding the encryption of the first six phases of the algorithm." "The encryption of the first six phases of the algorithm." "But don't go to the safe house." "Phases of the algorithm." "But don't go to the safe house." "It's been compromised." "But don't go to the safe house." "It's been compromised." "Coleman's got his goons there" "It's been compromised." "Coleman's got his goons there now." "Coleman's got his goons there now." "Use your key and follow the" "Now." "Use your key and follow the signs." "Use your key and follow the signs." "We need you to come in." "Signs." "We need you to come in." "youarelisteningto" "We need you to come in." "youarelisteningto radio nonchalance -- dispatches youarelisteningto radio nonchalance -- dispatches from elsewhere." "Radio nonchalance -- dispatches from elsewhere." "Support for this program has" "From elsewhere." "Support for this program has been provided by the" "Support for this program has been provided by the elsewhere public works agency." "Been provided by the elsewhere public works agency." "Now back to our program." "Elsewhere public works agency." "Now back to our program." "Monday,I gotto work,and I" "Now back to our program." "Monday,I gotto work,and I had an e-mail sent to an e-mail" "Monday,I gotto work,and I had an e-mail sent to an e-mail address I don't use a whole lot." "Had an e-mail sent to an e-mail address I don't use a whole lot." "And it was from the" "Address I don't use a whole lot." "And it was from the elsewhere public works agency" "And it was from the elsewhere public works agency asking me to be at a certain" "Elsewhere public works agency asking me to be at a certain intersection by the pay" "Asking me to be at a certain intersection by the pay phones -- it was 24th and" "Intersection by the pay phones -- it was 24th and mission -- at noon." "Phones -- it was 24th and mission -- at noon." "So, eventually, I got a call on" "Mission -- at noon." "So, eventually, I got a call on my cellphone from commander 14," "So, eventually, I got a call on my cellphone from commander 14, checking and saying that the" "My cellphone from commander 14, checking and saying that the jejune institute was moving in" "Checking and saying that the jejune institute was moving in or something about the" "Jejune institute was moving in or something about the green energy arcans." "Or something about the green energy arcans." "I don't remember what he said." "Green energy arcans." "I don't remember what he said." "[ laughs ]" "I don't remember what he said." "[ laughs ] theclosureof atemporal [ laughs ] theclosureof atemporal vacuole is imminent." "theclosureof atemporal vacuole is imminent." "Repeat -- imminent." "Vacuole is imminent." "Repeat -- imminent." "Without physical jamming to" "Repeat -- imminent." "Without physical jamming to offset transneural" "Without physical jamming to offset transneural interference, a negative" "Offset transneural interference, a negative group-cascade sequence could be" "Interference, a negative group-cascade sequence could be initiated." "Group-cascade sequence could be initiated." "Do you see 24th street?" "Initiated." "Do you see 24th street?" "yeah." "Do you see 24th street?" "yeah." "crossmissionandcontinue yeah." "crossmissionandcontinue down 24th." "crossmissionandcontinue down 24th." "I will be making contact at" "Down 24th." "I will be making contact at that location in five minutes'" "I will be making contact at that location in five minutes' time." "That location in five minutes' time." "When I say, "ornithopter," you" "Time." "When I say, "ornithopter," you say, "jump suit."" "When I say, "ornithopter," you say, "jump suit." ornithopter." "Say, "jump suit." ornithopter." "jumpsuit." "Ornithopter." "jumpsuit." "ornithopter." "jumpsuit." "ornithopter." "jumpsuit." "ornithopter." "jumpsuit." "okay." "Nowgo ." "Hurry!" "jumpsuit." "okay." "Nowgo ." "Hurry!" "[ telephone clicks ] [ telephone rings ] ornithopter." "jumpsuit." "ornithopter." "jumpsuit." "ornithopter." "jumpsuit." "ornithopter." "jumpsuit." "ornithopter." "jumpsuit." "nowwecanget this jumpsuit." "nowwecanget this transaction rolling." "nowwecanget this transaction rolling." "The time is nigh." "Transaction rolling." "The time is nigh." "Now listen quickly." "The time is nigh." "Now listen quickly." "Dance." "Now listen quickly." "Dance." "You heard me." "Dance." "Dance." "You heard me." "Dance." "I say dance!" "You heard me." "Dance." "I say dance!" "dance?" "Okay." "I say dance!" "dance?" "Okay." "itisimperativethatyounow dance?" "Okay." "itisimperativethatyounow dance." "itisimperativethatyounow dance." "I hope you dance." "Dance." "I hope you dance." "This interacting cannot happen" "I hope you dance." "This interacting cannot happen without vigorous physical" "This interacting cannot happen without vigorous physical jamming." "Without vigorous physical jamming." "Now get off this phone and" "Jamming." "Now get off this phone and dance, motherfucker!" "Now get off this phone and dance, motherfucker!" "weneededto stopthe energy" "Dance, motherfucker!" "weneededto stopthe energy attack by "rigorous physical weneededto stopthe energy attack by "rigorous physical jamming," which is what we did." "Attack by "rigorous physical jamming," which is what we did." "So, I started dancing, and then" "Jamming," which is what we did." "So, I started dancing, and then I started hearing music." "So, I started dancing, and then I started hearing music." "And this guy showed up with a" "I started hearing music." "And this guy showed up with a boom box." "And this guy showed up with a boom box." "And he started dancing with me." "Boom box." "And he started dancing with me." "And then a sasquatch showed up," "And he started dancing with me." "And then a sasquatch showed up, and started dancing with us." "And then a sasquatch showed up, and started dancing with us." "[ up-tempo dance music plays ] â™ªfreestylekickin' in the house tonight â™ª â™ª move your body" "In the house tonight â™ª â™ª move your body from left to right â™ª â™ª move your body from left to right â™ª â™ª to all you freaks," "From left to right â™ª â™ª to all you freaks, don't stop the rock â™ª â™ª to all you freaks, don't stop the rock â™ª â™ª freestyle kickin'" "Don't stop the rock â™ª â™ª freestyle kickin' in the house tonight â™ª â™ª freestyle kickin' in the house tonight â™ª â™ª move your body" "In the house tonight â™ª â™ª move your body from left to right â™ª â™ª move your body from left to right â™ª â™ª to all you freaks," "From left to right â™ª â™ª to all you freaks, don't stop the rock â™ª â™ª to all you freaks, don't stop the rock â™ª andtherewasamomentthat" "Don't stop the rock â™ª andtherewasamomentthat the song ended, and we heard andtherewasamomentthat the song ended, and we heard what sounded like angels" "The song ended, and we heard what sounded like angels singing, and the sasquatch gave" "What sounded like angels singing, and the sasquatch gave me the transcript, which that's" "Singing, and the sasquatch gave me the transcript, which that's a very weird thing to say." "Me the transcript, which that's a very weird thing to say." "But that happened." "A very weird thing to say." "But that happened." "[ laughs ] â™ª something's got a hold on me â™ª so,withthemap therewasa" "On me â™ª so,withthemap therewasa  cd of cult music that had a lot so,withthemap therewasa  cd of cult music that had a lot of weird stuff from, like," "Cd of cult music that had a lot of weird stuff from, like, jonestown and this group called" "Of weird stuff from, like, jonestown and this group called yahawa, from the '70s and on." "Jonestown and this group called yahawa, from the '70s and on." "But it also had a hidden track" "Yahawa, from the '70s and on." "But it also had a hidden track on it, which had a little girl" "But it also had a hidden track on it, which had a little girl named eva and her mother taking" "On it, which had a little girl named eva and her mother taking a walk toward the" "Named eva and her mother taking a walk toward the mission district." "â™ªsomething's â™ªsomething's â™ªgotahold â™ªsomething's â™ªgotahold â™ªgotahold â™ªgotahold â™ªgotahold â™ªonme" "â™ªgotahold â™ªonme  thisisarchivalbinaural â™ªonme  thisisarchivalbinaural field recording, designation thisisarchivalbinaural field recording, designation 16-62-tc13." "Field recording, designation 16-62-tc13." "Tape was engaged at 16-62-tc13." "Tape was engaged at chula lane and abbey street" "Tape was engaged at chula lane and abbey street facing southwest." "Chula lane and abbey street facing southwest." "Headphones or other stereo" "Facing southwest." "Headphones or other stereo personal-listening device should" "Headphones or other stereo personal-listening device should be used during playback." "hi,eva!" "hi,mom!" "[laughs] hi,mom!" "[laughs] [ footsteps approaching ] [laughs] [ footsteps approaching ] well, good day to you, eva, my [ footsteps approaching ] well, good day to you, eva, my dear." "Well, good day to you, eva, my dear." "anda pleasantafternoonto" "Dear." "anda pleasantafternoonto you, madam." "anda pleasantafternoonto you, madam." "howwasschooltoday?" "You, madam." "howwasschooltoday?" "tedious,butIlostanother howwasschooltoday?" "tedious,butIlostanother tooth at recess." "tedious,butIlostanother tooth at recess." "really?" "Tooth at recess." "really?" "Shall we save it for the really?" "Shall we save it for the tooth fairy?" "Shall we save it for the tooth fairy?" "no!" "He'sscary!" "Tooth fairy?" "no!" "He'sscary!" "you'veseenthetoothfairy?" "no!" "He'sscary!" "you'veseenthetoothfairy?" "ofcourse." "you'veseenthetoothfairy?" "ofcourse." "andhe'saman ?" "ofcourse." "andhe'saman ?" "yes." "andhe'saman ?" "yes." "so,doyouhavetime fora  yes." "so,doyouhavetime fora  little walkabout today?" "so,doyouhavetime fora  little walkabout today?" "uh-huh." "Little walkabout today?" "uh-huh." "whereshallwe go ,then?" "uh-huh." "whereshallwe go ,then?" "elsewhere!" "whereshallwe go ,then?" "elsewhere!" "again?" "elsewhere!" "again?" "yes." "again?" "yes." "okay." "yes." "okay." "let'sstartwalkingnortheast okay." "let'sstartwalkingnortheast on chula lane." "let'sstartwalkingnortheast on chula lane." "okay." "On chula lane." "okay." "youcanseethe old cemetery okay." "youcanseethe old cemetery on our left." "youcanseethe old cemetery on our left." "Thousands of indians who died of" "On our left." "Thousands of indians who died of spanish diseases were buried" "Thousands of indians who died of spanish diseases were buried right here." "Spanish diseases were buried right here." "They're underneath us right now." "Right here." "They're underneath us right now." "oh." "They're underneath us right now." "oh." "sometimes,ifyoulisten,you oh." "sometimes,ifyoulisten,you can hear them." "sometimes,ifyoulisten,you can hear them." "oh." "Can hear them." "oh." "nowgoleft,and wewalk  oh." "nowgoleft,and wewalk  along dolores." "nowgoleft,and wewalk  along dolores." "[chuckles]" "Along dolores." "[chuckles] youcanseethe mission [chuckles] youcanseethe mission san francisco de asis, founded youcanseethe mission san francisco de asis, founded on October 9, 1776, by" "San francisco de asis, founded on October 9, 1776, by father francisco paulo." "On October 9, 1776, by father francisco paulo." "That's really the beginning of" "Father francisco paulo." "That's really the beginning of the whole city." "That's really the beginning of the whole city." "Let's cross over to the median." "The whole city." "Let's cross over to the median." "oh,youmeanbythepalm" "Let's cross over to the median." "oh,youmeanbythepalm trees?" "oh,youmeanbythepalm trees?" "yeah." "Trees?" "yeah." "okay." "yeah." "okay." "Iwantto showyou something." "okay." "Iwantto showyou something." "We used to feed the fairies." "Iwantto showyou something." "We used to feed the fairies." "well,whatwouldyou feed" "We used to feed the fairies." "well,whatwouldyou feed them?" "well,whatwouldyou feed them?" "berries,ofcourse." "Them?" "berries,ofcourse." "[laughs] berries,ofcourse." "[laughs] and are the fairies still there?" "[laughs] and are the fairies still there?" "theycomeandgoasthey" "And are the fairies still there?" "theycomeandgoasthey please, elsewhere and that." "theycomeandgoasthey please, elsewhere and that." "I always get headaches when I" "Please, elsewhere and that." "I always get headaches when I walk by these green boxes." "I always get headaches when I walk by these green boxes." "Iknow." "Me too." "Walk by these green boxes." "Iknow." "Me too." "Let's walk faster." "Iknow." "Me too." "Let's walk faster." "andherewe areat" "Let's walk faster." "andherewe areat commander 14's house." "andherewe areat commander 14's house." "This is where he does the radio" "Commander 14's house." "This is where he does the radio show with kai epsilon." "This is where he does the radio show with kai epsilon." "Dad helps them out with the" "Show with kai epsilon." "Dad helps them out with the transmitter." "Dad helps them out with the transmitter." "And right next door is our" "Transmitter." "And right next door is our house." "And right next door is our house." "mm-hmm." "House." "mm-hmm." "let'splayhopscotch." "mm-hmm." "let'splayhopscotch." "thatisaverypeculiar let'splayhopscotch." "thatisaverypeculiar board." "thatisaverypeculiar board." "thisisagameof" "Board." "thisisagameof interdimensional hopscotch." "thisisagameof interdimensional hopscotch." "It helps you practice how to get" "Interdimensional hopscotch." "It helps you practice how to get to elsewhere." "It helps you practice how to get to elsewhere." "let'sturnrightonalbionso" "To elsewhere." "let'sturnrightonalbionso we can say hi to mr." "Books." "let'sturnrightonalbionso we can say hi to mr." "Books." "And here we are, our second" "We can say hi to mr." "Books." "And here we are, our second home, adobe books." "And here we are, our second home, adobe books." "After you." "Home, adobe books." "After you." "[ typewriter clacking ]" "After you." "[ typewriter clacking ] youneedto lookontheshelf  [ typewriter clacking ] youneedto lookontheshelf  for the book on interdimensional youneedto lookontheshelf  for the book on interdimensional hopscotch." "For the book on interdimensional hopscotch." "It will tell you what you need" "Hopscotch." "It will tell you what you need to do." "It will tell you what you need to do." "See you in elsewhere." "To do." "See you in elsewhere." "Bye!" "See you in elsewhere." "Bye!" "[ clacking continues ] mynameis kelvinwilliams, and I guess I came into adobe books." "And I guess I came into adobe books." "I had met the owner before." "Adobe books." "I had met the owner before." "You know, I'm a book person, a" "I had met the owner before." "You know, I'm a book person, a librarian." "You know, I'm a book person, a librarian." "We all kind of move in the same" "Librarian." "We all kind of move in the same circles." "We all kind of move in the same circles." "So, I was interested that this" "Circles." "So, I was interested that this book on interdimensional" "So, I was interested that this book on interdimensional hopscotch should be there, of" "Book on interdimensional hopscotch should be there, of all places." "I struck up a conversation with the owner, who happened to be there, and I just asked her." "The owner, who happened to be there, and I just asked her." ""this is kind of odd that you" "There, and I just asked her." ""this is kind of odd that you have this here." ""this is kind of odd that you have this here." "I didn't know that you had these" "Have this here." "I didn't know that you had these kind of esoteric interests." "I didn't know that you had these kind of esoteric interests." "As one acquaintance to another," "Kind of esoteric interests." "As one acquaintance to another, do you have any materials that" "As one acquaintance to another, do you have any materials that might be connected to this?" "Do you have any materials that might be connected to this?" "Do you have any..." "Might be connected to this?" "Do you have any..." "Can you point me any further?"" "Do you have any..." "Can you point me any further?" and she said, "well, kelvin," "Can you point me any further?" and she said, "well, kelvin, I've got a box of materials that" "And she said, "well, kelvin, I've got a box of materials that would probably interest you in" "I've got a box of materials that would probably interest you in the back of the store." "Would probably interest you in the back of the store." "Some ephemera -- handbills," "The back of the store." "Some ephemera -- handbills, posters, and so on."" "Some ephemera -- handbills, posters, and so on." but down in the bottom of the" "Posters, and so on." but down in the bottom of the box was this book, which turned" "But down in the bottom of the box was this book, which turned out to be the diary of" "Box was this book, which turned out to be the diary of eva lucien, who was, it seemed" "Out to be the diary of eva lucien, who was, it seemed to me, a really extraordinary" "Eva lucien, who was, it seemed to me, a really extraordinary person." "To me, a really extraordinary person." "You know, she embodied a kind of" "Person." "You know, she embodied a kind of transcendence and ephemerality" "You know, she embodied a kind of transcendence and ephemerality of youth at the same time, and" "Transcendence and ephemerality of youth at the same time, and that was really what caught me" "Of youth at the same time, and that was really what caught me about her." "That was really what caught me about her." "I had noticed in eva's diaries," "About her." "I had noticed in eva's diaries, there was references to the" "I had noticed in eva's diaries, there was references to the s.F. Savants, which was a b-boy" "There was references to the s.F. Savants, which was a b-boy crew that I had maybe heard of" "S.F. Savants, which was a b-boy crew that I had maybe heard of years and years ago." "Crew that I had maybe heard of years and years ago." "But it turns out they still had" "Years and years ago." "But it turns out they still had a myspace page." "But it turns out they still had a myspace page." "These people are relatively" "A myspace page." "These people are relatively accessible, and I was fortunate" "These people are relatively accessible, and I was fortunate enough to get in touch with" "Accessible, and I was fortunate enough to get in touch with delsqui, who suggested -- he" "Enough to get in touch with delsqui, who suggested -- he didn't want to talk about it." "Delsqui, who suggested -- he didn't want to talk about it." "But he suggested I get in touch" "Didn't want to talk about it." "But he suggested I get in touch with beth and gave me an e-mail" "But he suggested I get in touch with beth and gave me an e-mail address." "With beth and gave me an e-mail address." "And so, she and I corresponded" "Address." "And so, she and I corresponded by e-mail a little bit." "And so, she and I corresponded by e-mail a little bit." "I think she could see that I" "By e-mail a little bit." "I think she could see that I understand eva as someone more" "I think she could see that I understand eva as someone more than just another teenager who" "Understand eva as someone more than just another teenager who disappears or another hip figure" "Than just another teenager who disappears or another hip figure of the san francisco scene of a" "Disappears or another hip figure of the san francisco scene of a certain moment, but, rather, as" "Of the san francisco scene of a certain moment, but, rather, as someone who had something more" "Certain moment, but, rather, as someone who had something more to say." "Someone who had something more to say." "And so, I eventually wore her" "To say." "And so, I eventually wore her down." "And so, I eventually wore her down." "I kept asking her, "do you have" "Down." "I kept asking her, "do you have documents?" "I kept asking her, "do you have documents?" "Do you have information?" "Documents?" "Do you have information?" "Do you have more about this" "Do you have information?" "Do you have more about this person?"" "Do you have more about this person?" and it turns out she had." "eva?" "yeah?" "[gasps] what are you..." "Your -- your hair!" "What are you..." "Your -- your hair!" "Oh, no!" "Your -- your hair!" "Oh, no!" "No-o, you -- oh, my god!" "Oh, no!" "No-o, you -- oh, my god!" "it'sokay." "No-o, you -- oh, my god!" "it'sokay." "areyousure?" "it'sokay." "areyousure?" "yeah,it'stimetogo." "areyousure?" "yeah,it'stimetogo." "I feel like I'm losing my mind." "yeah,it'stimetogo." "I feel like I'm losing my mind." "Look at these fucking pages." "I feel like I'm losing my mind." "Look at these fucking pages." "justreadone." "Look at these fucking pages." "justreadone." "Idon'tknow." "justreadone." "Idon'tknow." "It freaks me out to reflect on" "Idon'tknow." "It freaks me out to reflect on it." "It freaks me out to reflect on it." "Makes me feel like I sound" "It." "Makes me feel like I sound crazy." "Makes me feel like I sound crazy." "no." "No,no ." "Crazy." "no." "No,no ." "youthinkI'mgoingcrazy?" "no." "No,no ." "youthinkI'mgoingcrazy?" "no." "youthinkI'mgoingcrazy?" "no." ""uplate,whenIshouldbe no." ""uplate,whenIshouldbe sleeping, consumed with the" ""uplate,whenIshouldbe sleeping, consumed with the thought that the world is not as" "Sleeping, consumed with the thought that the world is not as it should be." "Thought that the world is not as it should be." "When I was younger, I believed" "It should be." "When I was younger, I believed in a goodness, a kindness." "When I was younger, I believed in a goodness, a kindness." "Yeah, it sounds sappy, but," "In a goodness, a kindness." "Yeah, it sounds sappy, but, really, I feel like things were" "Yeah, it sounds sappy, but, really, I feel like things were a certain way, and now there's a" "Really, I feel like things were a certain way, and now there's a deep sadness of pain." "A certain way, and now there's a deep sadness of pain." "Was it always there, and I" "Deep sadness of pain." "Was it always there, and I couldn't access it?" "Was it always there, and I couldn't access it?" "Is this just a symptom of" "Couldn't access it?" "Is this just a symptom of growing older?" "Is this just a symptom of growing older?" "One becomes more aware of hurt?" "Growing older?" "One becomes more aware of hurt?" "Were my parents simply that good" "One becomes more aware of hurt?" "Were my parents simply that good at sheltering me?" "Were my parents simply that good at sheltering me?" "Dad worked hard to raise me but" "At sheltering me?" "Dad worked hard to raise me but how he saw fit." "Dad worked hard to raise me but how he saw fit." "I admired him sometimes, but it" "How he saw fit." "I admired him sometimes, but it pissed me off, too." "I admired him sometimes, but it pissed me off, too." "He told me the world was safe," "Pissed me off, too." "He told me the world was safe, or at least I thought I had a" "He told me the world was safe, or at least I thought I had a safe place in it." "Or at least I thought I had a safe place in it." "It's difficult to compute when" "Safe place in it." "It's difficult to compute when people just vanish." "It's difficult to compute when people just vanish." "How am I to maintain faith and" "People just vanish." "How am I to maintain faith and expectations when my mother's" "How am I to maintain faith and expectations when my mother's fucking gone?"" "Expectations when my mother's fucking gone?" Ithinkevainherself" "Fucking gone?" Ithinkevainherself embodied a certain way of being" "Ithinkevainherself embodied a certain way of being that suggested the potential for" "Embodied a certain way of being that suggested the potential for the world to be transformed." "That suggested the potential for the world to be transformed." "She was flirting on the edge of" "The world to be transformed." "She was flirting on the edge of some insights into how reality" "She was flirting on the edge of some insights into how reality works." "Some insights into how reality works." "You know, she had got it, and" "Works." "You know, she had got it, and that became either an" "You know, she had got it, and that became either an inspiration or a threat," "That became either an inspiration or a threat, depending on how you understand" "Inspiration or a threat, depending on how you understand it, to the institute and the" "Depending on how you understand it, to the institute and the agency." "It, to the institute and the agency." "wow." "Howmanyare there?" "Agency." "wow." "Howmanyare there?" "enough." "wow." "Howmanyare there?" "enough." "[ laughter ] enough." "[ laughter ] youguyswanttotake them  [ laughter ] youguyswanttotake them  tonight?" "youguyswanttotake them  tonight?" "Iwasgonnasavethem ." "Tonight?" "Iwasgonnasavethem ." "savethemforwhat?" "Iwasgonnasavethem ." "savethemforwhat?" "theweekend?" "savethemforwhat?" "theweekend?" "why?" "theweekend?" "why?" "youwantto dropout ?" "why?" "youwantto dropout ?" "You don't have school tomorrow." "youwantto dropout ?" "You don't have school tomorrow." "hey,whaty'alltalkingabout" "You don't have school tomorrow." "hey,whaty'alltalkingabout over here?" "hey,whaty'alltalkingabout over here?" "nothing." "Over here?" "nothing." "oh,y 'alltrippingagain?" "nothing." "oh,y 'alltrippingagain?" "no!" "oh,y 'alltrippingagain?" "no!" "eva,aren'tyouonprobation?" "no!" "eva,aren'tyouonprobation?" "it'snotlikewe'refucking eva,aren'tyouonprobation?" "it'snotlikewe'refucking doing acid." "it'snotlikewe'refucking doing acid." "It's not even really fair." "Doing acid." "It's not even really fair." "whatshit?" "It's not even really fair." "whatshit?" "nothing." "whatshit?" "nothing." "[ up-tempo dance music plays ] nothing." "[ up-tempo dance music plays ] â™ªfreestylekickin' [ up-tempo dance music plays ] â™ªfreestylekickin' in the house tonight â™ª â™ªfreestylekickin' in the house tonight â™ª â™ª move your body" "In the house tonight â™ª â™ª move your body from left to right â™ª â™ª move your body from left to right â™ª â™ª to all you freaks," "From left to right â™ª â™ª to all you freaks, don't stop the rock â™ª â™ª to all you freaks, don't stop the rock â™ª whoo!" "Don't stop the rock â™ª whoo!" "yes!" "whoo!" "yes!" "â™ªfreestylekickin' yes!" "â™ªfreestylekickin' in the house tonight â™ª â™ªfreestylekickin' in the house tonight â™ª â™ª move your body" "In the house tonight â™ª â™ª move your body from left to right â™ª â™ª move your body from left to right â™ª â™ª to all you freaks," "From left to right â™ª â™ª to all you freaks, don't stop the rock â™ª â™ª to all you freaks, don't stop the rock â™ª â™ªyeah" "Don't stop the rock â™ª â™ªyeah chloe..." "Getittogether." "â™ªyeah chloe..." "Getittogether." "[singingcontinues] chloe..." "Getittogether." "[singingcontinues] chloe,howmanybeers... [singingcontinues] chloe,howmanybeers..." "â™ªI feelemotion chloe,howmanybeers..." "â™ªI feelemotion chloe,you'redrunk." "â™ªI feelemotion chloe,you'redrunk." "I like it." "chloe,you'redrunk." "I like it." "â™ªwhaa" "I like it." "â™ªwhaa eva,youokay?" "â™ªwhaa eva,youokay?" "What's going on, girl?" "eva,youokay?" "What's going on, girl?" "fuckin'cops!" "What's going on, girl?" "fuckin'cops!" "Dude, the cops are going!" "fuckin'cops!" "Dude, the cops are going!" "Shit!" "Dude, the cops are going!" "Shit!" "let'sgo!" "Shit!" "let'sgo!" "Eva, come on!" "let'sgo!" "Eva, come on!" "[ sirens wailing ]" "Eva, come on!" "[ sirens wailing ] eva!" "[ sirens wailing ] eva!" "youknow,maybetherewas" "Eva!" "youknow,maybetherewas something more to the games of youknow,maybetherewas something more to the games of nonchalance besides simply a fun" "Something more to the games of nonchalance besides simply a fun scavenger hunt." "Nonchalance besides simply a fun scavenger hunt." "Rather, than maybe whoever was" "Scavenger hunt." "Rather, than maybe whoever was behind it was actually trying to" "Rather, than maybe whoever was behind it was actually trying to commemorate eva in some way or" "Behind it was actually trying to commemorate eva in some way or trying to share who she was with" "Commemorate eva in some way or trying to share who she was with people in san francisco and" "Trying to share who she was with people in san francisco and around the world, a kind of, I" "People in san francisco and around the world, a kind of, I don't know, maybe the whole" "Around the world, a kind of, I don't know, maybe the whole project, maybe the whole" "Don't know, maybe the whole project, maybe the whole experience was a kind of elegy" "Project, maybe the whole experience was a kind of elegy to eva and what she represented." "Experience was a kind of elegy to eva and what she represented." "You know, that's where the" "To eva and what she represented." "You know, that's where the "reconstructing eva" project" "You know, that's where the "reconstructing eva" project came out of, because I wanted to" ""reconstructing eva" project came out of, because I wanted to be able to say, "well, look." "Came out of, because I wanted to be able to say, "well, look." "There's these people playing" "Be able to say, "well, look." "There's these people playing these games, and there's a whole" "There's these people playing these games, and there's a whole wealth of information about what" "These games, and there's a whole wealth of information about what they really mean."" "Wealth of information about what they really mean." at the time, I was seeing a man" "They really mean." at the time, I was seeing a man who was a police officer, and he" "At the time, I was seeing a man who was a police officer, and he quickly learned about my" "Who was a police officer, and he quickly learned about my obsession with this particular" "Quickly learned about my obsession with this particular topic." "Obsession with this particular topic." "And I twisted his arm a little" "Topic." "And I twisted his arm a little bit, promised some favors if he" "And I twisted his arm a little bit, promised some favors if he would help out and see if there" "Bit, promised some favors if he would help out and see if there was anything in the police" "Would help out and see if there was anything in the police department -- archives, storage" "Was anything in the police department -- archives, storage rooms, whatever -- that might" "Department -- archives, storage rooms, whatever -- that might shed light on this." "man,youwerethe lastoneo  see eva, and we need to know exactly what happened that day." "On Sunday, the 16th, when and where did you first see eva?" "wealwaysmeetatthegard." "Where did you first see eva?" "wealwaysmeetatthegard." "andthat'stheplaceyou wealwaysmeetatthegard." "andthat'stheplaceyou mentioned before, with the andthat'stheplaceyou mentioned before, with the bench and the parking meter." "Mentioned before, with the bench and the parking meter." "Is this the spot where you said" "Bench and the parking meter." "Is this the spot where you said neil, a local vagrant, was" "Is this the spot where you said neil, a local vagrant, was seen?" "Neil, a local vagrant, was seen?" "uh,yeah." "Seen?" "uh,yeah." "so,didhe evertalktoyo ?" "uh,yeah." "so,didhe evertalktoyo ?" "no,buthe talkedtoeva." "so,didhe evertalktoyo ?" "no,buthe talkedtoeva." "andwhatdidtheysaytoeh no,buthe talkedtoeva." "andwhatdidtheysaytoeh other?" "andwhatdidtheysaytoeh other?" "Ihaveno idea." "Other?" "Ihaveno idea." "wheredidyousee them" "Ihaveno idea." "wheredidyousee them talking?" "wheredidyousee them talking?" "upatneil'slittlespot ." "Talking?" "upatneil'slittlespot ." "We call it the "neil estate."" "upatneil'slittlespot ." "We call it the "neil estate." didyouseeneiltherethe" "We call it the "neil estate." didyouseeneiltherethe night that eva disappeared?" "didyouseeneiltherethe night that eva disappeared?" "no,I didn't." "Night that eva disappeared?" "no,I didn't." "didanyoneelse?" "no,I didn't." "didanyoneelse?" "well,I knowthatthe othes didanyoneelse?" "well,I knowthatthe othes might have seen him that night." "well,I knowthatthe othes might have seen him that night." ""play to" did, I think." "Might have seen him that night." ""play to" did, I think." "playtoit is ,then?" ""play to" did, I think." "playtoit is ,then?" "yeah." "playtoit is ,then?" "yeah." "whatelsecanyou tellme yeah." "whatelsecanyou tellme about this neil character?" "whatelsecanyou tellme about this neil character?" "Did you see him on the evening" "About this neil character?" "Did you see him on the evening in question?" "Did you see him on the evening in question?" "yeah." "In question?" "yeah." "so,I seemto haveheardtt yeah." "so,I seemto haveheardtt you had some interaction with so,I seemto haveheardtt you had some interaction with him on that night yourself." "You had some interaction with him on that night yourself." "Am I right about that?" "Him on that night yourself." "Am I right about that?" "no,I nevertalkedtohim." "Am I right about that?" "no,I nevertalkedtohim." "tellmemoreaboutthat  no,I nevertalkedtohim." "tellmemoreaboutthat  night." "tellmemoreaboutthat  night." "Did you at any point in the" "Night." "Did you at any point in the evening see eva talk to neil?" "Did you at any point in the evening see eva talk to neil?" "Idon'tthinkso." "Evening see eva talk to neil?" "Idon'tthinkso." "butyoudidsee him that" "Idon'tthinkso." "butyoudidsee him that night." "butyoudidsee him that night." "yeah,man." "Night." "yeah,man." "He was hanging out around the yeah,man." "He was hanging out around the stone wall." "He was hanging out around the stone wall." "We seen the dude dipping around" "Stone wall." "We seen the dude dipping around that wall all the time." "We seen the dude dipping around that wall all the time." "dippingaround?" "That wall all the time." "dippingaround?" "yeah,youknow,lookingdo, dippingaround?" "yeah,youknow,lookingdo, poking around the crevices yeah,youknow,lookingdo, poking around the crevices between the rocks, looking back" "Poking around the crevices between the rocks, looking back up again." "Between the rocks, looking back up again." "doingwhat?" "Up again." "doingwhat?" "doingwhathe does." "doingwhat?" "doingwhathe does." "Being a weirdo." "doingwhathe does." "Being a weirdo." "so,itwasjustyourself," "Being a weirdo." "so,itwasjustyourself, eva, and chloe around that so,itwasjustyourself, eva, and chloe around that point." "Eva, and chloe around that point." "Is anybody else there?" "Point." "Is anybody else there?" "No one else, like, for" "Is anybody else there?" "No one else, like, for instance, this neil character?" "No one else, like, for instance, this neil character?" "no." "Instance, this neil character?" "no." "so,whathappenednext?" "no." "so,whathappenednext?" "thepolicewerecomingupe so,whathappenednext?" "thepolicewerecomingupe hill, and we ran." "thepolicewerecomingupe hill, and we ran." "But -- but when I went and" "Hill, and we ran." "But -- but when I went and hid -- when I got there, I was" "But -- but when I went and hid -- when I got there, I was hiding, and she was gone." "Hid -- when I got there, I was hiding, and she was gone." "Chloe just kept running." "Hiding, and she was gone." "Chloe just kept running." "She just kept running." "Chloe just kept running." "She just kept running." "And I thought she went home," "She just kept running." "And I thought she went home, and I was, like, hiding and" "And I thought she went home, and I was, like, hiding and whispering, "eva, eva."" "And I was, like, hiding and whispering, "eva, eva." she didn't answer." "Whispering, "eva, eva." she didn't answer." "I was there forever, but then I" "She didn't answer." "I was there forever, but then I just figured she went home." "I was there forever, but then I just figured she went home." "So, eventually, I went home," "Just figured she went home." "So, eventually, I went home, too." "So, eventually, I went home, too." "didanythingelsehappenon" "Too." "didanythingelsehappenon your way home?" "didanythingelsehappenon your way home?" "Did you see anyone?" "Your way home?" "Did you see anyone?" "Anything unusual?" "Did you see anyone?" "Anything unusual?" "no." "Anything unusual?" "no." "so,theobviousquestionwas,  no." "so,theobviousquestionwas,  "what happened to her, and why so,theobviousquestionwas,  "what happened to her, and why is she the point at which these" ""what happened to her, and why is she the point at which these two organizations kind of" "Is she the point at which these two organizations kind of conflict or meet?"" "Two organizations kind of conflict or meet?" her father, blair lucien, as it" "Conflict or meet?" her father, blair lucien, as it turns out, was a kind of, I" "Her father, blair lucien, as it turns out, was a kind of, I don't know," "Turns out, was a kind of, I don't know, scientist/mysticist/inventor." "And he had created this thing called the algorithm, which he" "Called the algorithm, which he thought was going to be a very" "Thought was going to be a very powerful way of helping humanity" "Powerful way of helping humanity ascend to the next level." "And blair lucien's a real person, and he had a real house, in west berkeley, in the '70s" "Person, and he had a real house, in west berkeley, in the '70s and '80s." "In west berkeley, in the '70s and '80s." "And I did a little snooping" "And '80s." "And I did a little snooping about his property records and" "And I did a little snooping about his property records and just about the construction of" "About his property records and just about the construction of the house and the neighborhood." "Just about the construction of the house and the neighborhood." "And it turns out this particular" "The house and the neighborhood." "And it turns out this particular house has a basement, a real" "And it turns out this particular house has a basement, a real underground basement, which you" "House has a basement, a real underground basement, which you don't really find in the bay" "Underground basement, which you don't really find in the bay area hardly at all." "Don't really find in the bay area hardly at all." "Here I was, spending a lot of" "Area hardly at all." "Here I was, spending a lot of time, trying to figure out who" "Here I was, spending a lot of time, trying to figure out who blair lucien was, what's the" "Time, trying to figure out who blair lucien was, what's the meaning of his special basement?" "Blair lucien was, what's the meaning of his special basement?" "How do you interpret the fact" "Meaning of his special basement?" "How do you interpret the fact that the algorithm is clearly" "How do you interpret the fact that the algorithm is clearly with the jejune institute and" "That the algorithm is clearly with the jejune institute and there's an artifact that makes" "With the jejune institute and there's an artifact that makes it work that is somewhere else?" "There's an artifact that makes it work that is somewhere else?" "That artifact being the crystal" "It work that is somewhere else?" "That artifact being the crystal oscillator." "That artifact being the crystal oscillator." "By this point, I was really at a" "Oscillator." "By this point, I was really at a place where I couldn't tell" "By this point, I was really at a place where I couldn't tell where the game ended and" "Place where I couldn't tell where the game ended and reality began." "Where the game ended and reality began." "I'm not proud of it, but I broke" "Reality began." "I'm not proud of it, but I broke into a family's house, went into" "I'm not proud of it, but I broke into a family's house, went into their basement." "Into a family's house, went into their basement." "And in their basement, as it" "Their basement." "And in their basement, as it turned out, there was this door" "And in their basement, as it turned out, there was this door that kind of led off somewhere." "Turned out, there was this door that kind of led off somewhere." "And I didn't pick the lock." "That kind of led off somewhere." "And I didn't pick the lock." "I actually just kind of smashed" "And I didn't pick the lock." "I actually just kind of smashed the door down." "I actually just kind of smashed the door down." "[ chuckles ]" "The door down." "[ chuckles ] and behind it was this tunnel." "[ chuckles ] and behind it was this tunnel." "There was a drop-off, and then" "And behind it was this tunnel." "There was a drop-off, and then there was a tunnel full of" "There was a drop-off, and then there was a tunnel full of water." "There was a tunnel full of water." "And I went down there, and I" "Water." "And I went down there, and I started following it." "And I went down there, and I started following it." "I didn't really have a" "Started following it." "I didn't really have a flashlight." "I didn't really have a flashlight." "I just used my cellphone light." "Flashlight." "I just used my cellphone light." "And I ended up getting lost." "I just used my cellphone light." "And I ended up getting lost." "I have a kind of sea of memories" "And I ended up getting lost." "I have a kind of sea of memories and sounds and darkness that was" "I have a kind of sea of memories and sounds and darkness that was relieved by the players who" "And sounds and darkness that was relieved by the players who found me, to be honest." "Relieved by the players who found me, to be honest." "Iwasaskedtoparticipatein" "Found me, to be honest." "Iwasaskedtoparticipatein a rescue of kelvin williams." "He had gone missing for a long time, and his website, his blog," "Time, and his website, his blog, was taken over by the" "Was taken over by the elsewhere public works agency." ""yourmissionis to findand  retrieve kelvin williams and, if possible, recover the crystal" "Retrieve kelvin williams and, if possible, recover the crystal oscillator." "Possible, recover the crystal oscillator." "If kelvin williams has it in his" "Oscillator." "If kelvin williams has it in his possession already, he'll know" "If kelvin williams has it in his possession already, he'll know what to do with it." "Possession already, he'll know what to do with it." "But, primarily, you need to" "What to do with it." "But, primarily, you need to help him get out of the" "But, primarily, you need to help him get out of the underground." "Help him get out of the underground." "You're here, and you need to get" "Underground." "You're here, and you need to get over here and then find the" "You're here, and you need to get over here and then find the creek bed and follow it" "Over here and then find the creek bed and follow it downstream into the subterranean" "Creek bed and follow it downstream into the subterranean labyrinth." "Downstream into the subterranean labyrinth." "Be forewarned -- shit gets weird" "Labyrinth." "Be forewarned -- shit gets weird down there." "Be forewarned -- shit gets weird down there." "Go through the second open" "Down there." "Go through the second open portal to your right." "Go through the second open portal to your right." "If you hit 850, you've gone too" "Portal to your right." "If you hit 850, you've gone too far."" "If you hit 850, you've gone too far." down here." "Far." down here." "so,that'samap of" "Down here." "so,that'samap of underground." "so,that'samap of underground." "yeah." "Underground." "yeah." "holyfuck." "yeah." "holyfuck." "[laughs] holyfuck." "[laughs] thatwasterrifying,yeah." "[laughs] thatwasterrifying,yeah." "We were asked to go down into thatwasterrifying,yeah." "We were asked to go down into these storm drains under the" "We were asked to go down into these storm drains under the streets of berkeley to rescue" "These storm drains under the streets of berkeley to rescue kelvin." "Streets of berkeley to rescue kelvin." "And it was very early in the" "Kelvin." "And it was very early in the springtime." "And it was very early in the springtime." "There was still quite a bit of" "Springtime." "There was still quite a bit of winter runoff in the pipes." "There was still quite a bit of winter runoff in the pipes." "In order to get to the tunnels," "Winter runoff in the pipes." "In order to get to the tunnels, you had to go along this park," "In order to get to the tunnels, you had to go along this park, go down into this river." "You had to go along this park, go down into this river." "So, we were this deep in water." "Go down into this river." "So, we were this deep in water." "Soaked all the way through right" "So, we were this deep in water." "Soaked all the way through right from the beginning." "Soaked all the way through right from the beginning." "And then, when we got to the" "From the beginning." "And then, when we got to the tunnels, there was water rushing" "And then, when we got to the tunnels, there was water rushing past us." "Tunnels, there was water rushing past us." "So, several times during the" "Past us." "So, several times during the course of the afternoon, we had" "So, several times during the course of the afternoon, we had to hold onto the sides of the" "Course of the afternoon, we had to hold onto the sides of the tunnel to keep from sliding down" "To hold onto the sides of the tunnel to keep from sliding down into the water, to the runoff." "Tunnel to keep from sliding down into the water, to the runoff." "And it's these old brick tunnels" "Into the water, to the runoff." "And it's these old brick tunnels at some point." "And it's these old brick tunnels at some point." "So, there was weird sounds being" "At some point." "So, there was weird sounds being piped in from all these side" "So, there was weird sounds being piped in from all these side tunnels and strange [chuckles]" "Piped in from all these side tunnels and strange [chuckles] notations written in chalk on" "Tunnels and strange [chuckles] notations written in chalk on all the walls." "Notations written in chalk on all the walls." "And a lot of them said, like," "All the walls." "And a lot of them said, like, "look behind you."" "And a lot of them said, like, "look behind you." so, we were constantly " " I" ""look behind you." so, we were constantly " " I think I was even bringing up the" "So, we were constantly " " I think I was even bringing up the rear most of the time." "Think I was even bringing up the rear most of the time." "So, I was constantly looking" "Rear most of the time." "So, I was constantly looking behind me and trying not to slip" "So, I was constantly looking behind me and trying not to slip and trying not to hit my head," "Behind me and trying not to slip and trying not to hit my head, because the tunnel was 5 foot" "And trying not to hit my head, because the tunnel was 5 foot something or other." "Because the tunnel was 5 foot something or other." "So, I was crouched down the" "Something or other." "So, I was crouched down the whole time, incredibly" "So, I was crouched down the whole time, incredibly comfortable of hearing the" "Whole time, incredibly comfortable of hearing the sounds of hooting of the jejune" "Comfortable of hearing the sounds of hooting of the jejune goons." "Sounds of hooting of the jejune goons." "So, I imagined those black-clad" "Goons." "So, I imagined those black-clad creatures coming up and just" "So, I imagined those black-clad creatures coming up and just grabbing me from behind the" "Creatures coming up and just grabbing me from behind the whole time." "Grabbing me from behind the whole time." "So, it was a game." "Whole time." "So, it was a game." "It's part of a game, but at that" "So, it was a game." "It's part of a game, but at that time, at that moment, it really" "It's part of a game, but at that time, at that moment, it really didn't feel like a game anymore." "Time, at that moment, it really didn't feel like a game anymore." "It was genuinely scary, yeah." "Didn't feel like a game anymore." "It was genuinely scary, yeah." "holyshit." "It was genuinely scary, yeah." "holyshit." "[ panting ] holyshit." "[ panting ] that tunnel wasn't very fun." "[ panting ] that tunnel wasn't very fun." "[laughs]" "That tunnel wasn't very fun." "[laughs] hi." "[laughs] hi." "hi." "hi." "hi." "[ laughter ] hi." "[ laughter ] how did -- how did you find this [ laughter ] how did -- how did you find this place?" "How did -- how did you find this place?" "thehollowshadsentus." "Place?" "thehollowshadsentus." "wheredidthistunnelcome  thehollowshadsentus." "wheredidthistunnelcome  from?" "wheredidthistunnelcome  from?" "I came from the other way." "From?" "I came from the other way." "And there's a chamber and..." "I came from the other way." "And there's a chamber and..." "Get me out of here." "And there's a chamber and..." "Get me out of here." "[ laughter ]" "Get me out of here." "[ laughter ] somewhere back there... [ laughter ] somewhere back there..." "hidden?" "Somewhere back there..." "hidden?" "...Thetunnelsgo theother hidden?" "...Thetunnelsgo theother way, and it was in a chamber." "...Thetunnelsgo theother way, and it was in a chamber." "Want to see it?" "Way, and it was in a chamber." "Want to see it?" "yeah." "Want to see it?" "yeah." "Hey." "yeah." "Hey." "maybeweshouldwaittill we" "Hey." "maybeweshouldwaittill we get out." "maybeweshouldwaittill we get out." "Idon'tknow..." "Get out." "Idon'tknow..." "whoa." "Idon'tknow..." "whoa." "...Whattomakeofit,but whoa." "...Whattomakeofit,but that's it." "...Whattomakeofit,but that's it." "That's what they said." "That's it." "That's what they said." "It's in a crystal." "That's what they said." "It's in a crystal." "andwithoutthis,the" "It's in a crystal." "andwithoutthis,the  algorithm's useless." "andwithoutthis,the  algorithm's useless." "Iguess." "Algorithm's useless." "Iguess." "allright." "Iguess." "allright." "Let's form a little bodyguard allright." "Let's form a little bodyguard party around him and the" "Let's form a little bodyguard party around him and the crystal." "Party around him and the crystal." "everyoneunderstandswhat" "Crystal." "everyoneunderstandswhat somewhere is." "everyoneunderstandswhat somewhere is." "If I say "san francisco," most" "Somewhere is." "If I say "san francisco," most people know what I'm referring" "If I say "san francisco," most people know what I'm referring to." "People know what I'm referring to." "Or, at least, they think they" "To." "Or, at least, they think they do." "Or, at least, they think they do." "They have an idea of here and an" "Do." "They have an idea of here and an idea of there." "They have an idea of here and an idea of there." "In other words, "here" is the" "Idea of there." "In other words, "here" is the place we are, and "there" is the" "In other words, "here" is the place we are, and "there" is the place we are not." "Place we are, and "there" is the place we are not." "Elsewhere is a kind of magical" "Place we are not." "Elsewhere is a kind of magical between." "Elsewhere is a kind of magical between." "A human being, someone like eva," "Between." "A human being, someone like eva, with the right understanding," "A human being, someone like eva, with the right understanding, can take the seed within them" "With the right understanding, can take the seed within them and become a doorway to" "Can take the seed within them and become a doorway to elsewhere." "And become a doorway to elsewhere." "I suspected that eva's deep" "Elsewhere." "I suspected that eva's deep capacities to use this seed to" "I suspected that eva's deep capacities to use this seed to transform our reality in ways" "Capacities to use this seed to transform our reality in ways that we were unprepared for was" "Transform our reality in ways that we were unprepared for was the reason why she was pursued" "That we were unprepared for was the reason why she was pursued and also the reason why she" "The reason why she was pursued and also the reason why she disappeared." "And also the reason why she disappeared." "It was my suspicion that" "Disappeared." "It was my suspicion that somebody became aware of this" "It was my suspicion that somebody became aware of this girl's capacity to introduce" "Somebody became aware of this girl's capacity to introduce unexpected novelty into" "Girl's capacity to introduce unexpected novelty into situations that seemed otherwise" "Unexpected novelty into situations that seemed otherwise frozen." "Situations that seemed otherwise frozen." "And I feel they were intent on" "Frozen." "And I feel they were intent on co-opting these abilities for" "And I feel they were intent on co-opting these abilities for the sake of corporate, military," "Co-opting these abilities for the sake of corporate, military, or cultlike goals." "The sake of corporate, military, or cultlike goals." "And thus, she had to arrange to" "Or cultlike goals." "And thus, she had to arrange to put herself in a position where" "And thus, she had to arrange to put herself in a position where she would be inaccessible to" "Put herself in a position where she would be inaccessible to people who she would be" "She would be inaccessible to people who she would be otherwise unable to evade and" "People who she would be otherwise unable to evade and that she remains, I think, in a" "Otherwise unable to evade and that she remains, I think, in a suspension, a kind of suspended" "That she remains, I think, in a suspension, a kind of suspended place, a place of suspended" "Suspension, a kind of suspended place, a place of suspended time, identity, and location, a" "Place, a place of suspended time, identity, and location, a place which we use the term" "Time, identity, and location, a place which we use the term "elsewhere" to refer to." "so,asfor--even beforeit started, I was really excited" "Started, I was really excited for it because it actually took" "For it because it actually took place in oakland instead of" "Place in oakland instead of san francisco, and I live in" "San francisco, and I live in oakland." "Oakland." "And it's kind of like home turf" "And it's kind of like home turf for me." "For me." "And when I found out it was at" "And when I found out it was at the chapel of the chimes, I was" "The chapel of the chimes, I was even more excited, because it's" "Even more excited, because it's this beautiful -- it's like a" "This beautiful -- it's like a mausoleum." "It houses, you know, probably like thousands and thousands of people's ashes." "Like thousands and thousands of people's ashes." "But all the urns are books." "People's ashes." "But all the urns are books." "So, you walk in, and it's like" "But all the urns are books." "So, you walk in, and it's like trees and plants inside." "So, you walk in, and it's like trees and plants inside." "There's, like, little corridors" "Trees and plants inside." "There's, like, little corridors and little alcoves, and they" "There's, like, little corridors and little alcoves, and they each have different names, like," "And little alcoves, and they each have different names, like, "chapel of spirituality."" "Each have different names, like, "chapel of spirituality." they all have these really" ""chapel of spirituality." they all have these really amazing names." "They all have these really amazing names." "And it's also right next to the" "Amazing names." "And it's also right next to the mountain view cemetery, which" "And it's also right next to the mountain view cemetery, which might be one of the oldest" "Mountain view cemetery, which might be one of the oldest cemeteries in oakland, and it's" "Might be one of the oldest cemeteries in oakland, and it's just really beautiful, and I've" "Cemeteries in oakland, and it's just really beautiful, and I've always gone there to just hang" "Just really beautiful, and I've always gone there to just hang out or write or..." "Always gone there to just hang out or write or..." "Be like "emo" or something by" "Out or write or..." "Be like "emo" or something by the graveyard." "Be like "emo" or something by the graveyard." "I don't know." "The graveyard." "I don't know." "We had gotten assigned into" "I don't know." "We had gotten assigned into groups, and each of us got" "We had gotten assigned into groups, and each of us got mailed a postcard." "Groups, and each of us got mailed a postcard." "And the postcard gave us a" "Mailed a postcard." "And the postcard gave us a direction." "And the postcard gave us a direction." "And then they gave us, like, a" "Direction." "And then they gave us, like, a line that we were supposed to" "And then they gave us, like, a line that we were supposed to say at a certain point." "Line that we were supposed to say at a certain point." "But it was all really vague, and" "Say at a certain point." "But it was all really vague, and we weren't sure how it all tied" "But it was all really vague, and we weren't sure how it all tied together." "We weren't sure how it all tied together." "The meeting spot was not at the" "Together." "The meeting spot was not at the chapel of the chimes." "The meeting spot was not at the chapel of the chimes." "It was a couple blocks away." "Chapel of the chimes." "It was a couple blocks away." "And the whole group met up." "It was a couple blocks away." "And the whole group met up." "A lot of us had never met" "And the whole group met up." "A lot of us had never met before, and so, it was really" "A lot of us had never met before, and so, it was really cool to, like, meet other people" "Before, and so, it was really cool to, like, meet other people that had been involved." "Cool to, like, meet other people that had been involved." "Or maybe I'd only, like, seen" "That had been involved." "Or maybe I'd only, like, seen them online." "Or maybe I'd only, like, seen them online." "Like, I had no idea." "Them online." "Like, I had no idea." "There were, like, markings on" "Like, I had no idea." "There were, like, markings on the ground, I think, that we" "There were, like, markings on the ground, I think, that we followed, and eventually we" "The ground, I think, that we followed, and eventually we ended up at the" "Followed, and eventually we ended up at the chapel of the chimes." "Ended up at the chapel of the chimes." "yeah,thereit is -- 4499," "Chapel of the chimes." "yeah,thereit is -- 4499, chapel of the chimes." "let'sjustfindthe compass." "compass,compass,compass." "Oh, found it!" "North -- that way." "All right." "Now what?" ""assemble,thentakenotes" "All right." "Now what?" ""assemble,thentakenotes and embark upon completion." ""assemble,thentakenotes and embark upon completion." "Enter under and thy coming in."" "And embark upon completion." "Enter under and thy coming in." "andthycomingin. "" "Enter under and thy coming in." "andthycomingin. " oh!" "Oh!" "All right." "Now it says one of you has to die." "Now it says one of you has to die." "[ laughs ]" "Die." "[ laughs ] "andfindthepatience."" "[ laughs ] "andfindthepatience." "patiencecourt."" ""andfindthepatience." "patiencecourt." "patiencecourt."" "theword"patience"ison this door." "And then "play."" "This door." "And then "play." play." "And then "play." play." "whatcouldthatmean?" "play." "whatcouldthatmean?" "I don't understand." "whatcouldthatmean?" "I don't understand." "[ chuckles ]" "I don't understand." "[ chuckles ] [ slow-tempo music plays] [ chuckles ] [ slow-tempo music plays] patience... [ slow-tempo music plays] patience..." "Patience... patience..." "Patience..." "Patience." "Patience..." "Patience." "You found me." "Patience." "You found me." "Welcome, my friends." "You found me." "Welcome, my friends." "I know you were concerned about" "Welcome, my friends." "I know you were concerned about me, but isn't it clear now that" "I know you were concerned about me, but isn't it clear now that I've been where I was always" "Me, but isn't it clear now that I've been where I was always meant to be?" "I've been where I was always meant to be?" "And you..." "Meant to be?" "And you..." "You've traveled such a long way" "And you..." "You've traveled such a long way to arrive here today." "You've traveled such a long way to arrive here today." "You came together to make this" "To arrive here today." "You came together to make this happen." "You came together to make this happen." "I am so moved." "Happen." "I am so moved." "I want to take this moment to" "I am so moved." "I want to take this moment to fully take it in, look around," "I want to take this moment to fully take it in, look around, contemplate our surroundings" "Fully take it in, look around, contemplate our surroundings now -- the stone and the tile," "Contemplate our surroundings now -- the stone and the tile, the light through the stained" "Now -- the stone and the tile, the light through the stained glass." "The light through the stained glass." "You've all arrived here for a" "Glass." "You've all arrived here for a reason." "You've all arrived here for a reason." "Each one of us played our part." "Reason." "Each one of us played our part." "Now..." "Each one of us played our part." "Now..." "Are we ready to continue our" "Now..." "Are we ready to continue our voyage?" "Are we ready to continue our voyage?" "Above the door, do you see" "Voyage?" "Above the door, do you see mason?" "Above the door, do you see mason?" "Retrieve the vase that is by" "Mason?" "Retrieve the vase that is by mason above the door." "Retrieve the vase that is by mason above the door." "Pair up with the person not" "Mason above the door." "Pair up with the person not holding a blindfold who is" "Pair up with the person not holding a blindfold who is closest to your height." "Holding a blindfold who is closest to your height." "Now..." "Closest to your height." "Now..." "Blindfold that person." "Now..." "Blindfold that person." "[ laughter ]" "Blindfold that person." "[ laughter ] you've lost one of your senses, [ laughter ] you've lost one of your senses, and you'll need to replace" "You've lost one of your senses, and you'll need to replace that..." "And you'll need to replace that..." "With trust." "That..." "With trust." "Iwasat thefrontofthe" "With trust." "Iwasat thefrontofthe line, and we all had our" "Iwasat thefrontofthe line, and we all had our blindfolds on and had, like, no" "Line, and we all had our blindfolds on and had, like, no idea what to expect." "Blindfolds on and had, like, no idea what to expect." "And suddenly this, like, hand" "Idea what to expect." "And suddenly this, like, hand just reaches out and grabs my" "And suddenly this, like, hand just reaches out and grabs my hand." "Just reaches out and grabs my hand." "And it really just kind of took" "Hand." "And it really just kind of took my breath away." "And it really just kind of took my breath away." "And during the whole, when you" "My breath away." "And during the whole, when you talk about the whole experience," "And during the whole, when you talk about the whole experience, you know, we're trying to find" "Talk about the whole experience, you know, we're trying to find eva and what happened to her, it" "You know, we're trying to find eva and what happened to her, it was, like, physically -- well," "Eva and what happened to her, it was, like, physically -- well, in my mind, it was, like," "Was, like, physically -- well, in my mind, it was, like, physically eva, like, leading" "In my mind, it was, like, physically eva, like, leading me, like, holding my hand." "Physically eva, like, leading me, like, holding my hand." "And that's when I kind of " " I" "Me, like, holding my hand." "And that's when I kind of " " I kind of lost it, and I was," "And that's when I kind of " " I kind of lost it, and I was, like, silently crying, like," "Kind of lost it, and I was, like, silently crying, like, underneath my blindfold." "Like, silently crying, like, underneath my blindfold." "And the whole concept of" "Underneath my blindfold." "And the whole concept of elsewhere has just been really" "And the whole concept of elsewhere has just been really special to me." "Elsewhere has just been really special to me." "I always feel like this world is" "Special to me." "I always feel like this world is missing something, like there's" "I always feel like this world is missing something, like there's some spark that I want it to" "Missing something, like there's some spark that I want it to have." "Some spark that I want it to have." "That's what I feel like I'm" "Have." "That's what I feel like I'm constantly searching for in my" "That's what I feel like I'm constantly searching for in my everyday life, and um..." "Constantly searching for in my everyday life, and um..." "The concept of elsewhere is," "Everyday life, and um..." "The concept of elsewhere is, like, that's -- that's it." "The concept of elsewhere is, like, that's -- that's it." "Like, that's where I want to be." "Like, that's -- that's it." "Like, that's where I want to be." "That's where there's possibility" "Like, that's where I want to be." "That's where there's possibility and imagination." "That's where there's possibility and imagination." "[ laughs ]" "And imagination." "[ laughs ] I'm sorry." "[ laughs ] I'm sorry." "Um..." "I'm sorry." "Um..." "[ laughs ]" "Um..." "[ laughs ] [ sniffles ] [ laughs ] [ sniffles ] well, long story short, I got [ sniffles ] well, long story short, I got "elsewhere" tattooed on myself" "Well, long story short, I got "elsewhere" tattooed on myself as kind of a little memento, but" ""elsewhere" tattooed on myself as kind of a little memento, but I don't know why I'm crying!" "As kind of a little memento, but I don't know why I'm crying!" "[ laughing ] sorry!" "I don't know why I'm crying!" "[ laughing ] sorry!" "Um... [ laughing ] sorry!" "Um..." "Like, meaningless coincidences" "Um..." "Like, meaningless coincidences really mean a lot to me, and I" "Like, meaningless coincidences really mean a lot to me, and I just feel like there's" "Really mean a lot to me, and I just feel like there's something, there's something out" "Just feel like there's something, there's something out there guiding that." "Something, there's something out there guiding that." "The feeling that I had that day" "There guiding that." "The feeling that I had that day just kind of summed up" "The feeling that I had that day just kind of summed up everything that I had done." "Just kind of summed up everything that I had done." "That feeling that you get when" "Everything that I had done." "That feeling that you get when you find a clue or something, or" "That feeling that you get when you find a clue or something, or you make the connection of what" "You find a clue or something, or you make the connection of what you're supposed to do next " "You make the connection of what you're supposed to do next -- that, like, split second of," "You're supposed to do next -- that, like, split second of, like, connection." "That, like, split second of, like, connection." "Like, that's when you're" "Like, connection." "Like, that's when you're elsewhere." "Like, that's when you're elsewhere." "That's what's awesome." "Elsewhere." "That's what's awesome." "basically,a couplemonths" "That's what's awesome." "basically,a couplemonths before the year was out, we had, basically,a couplemonths before the year was out, we had, the company -- jeff -- had come" "Before the year was out, we had, the company -- jeff -- had come to a decision that budget needed" "The company -- jeff -- had come to a decision that budget needed to be severely cut for the new" "To a decision that budget needed to be severely cut for the new year, and that was simply in the" "To be severely cut for the new year, and that was simply in the months to set up an ending to" "Year, and that was simply in the months to set up an ending to it, 'cause there was always an" "Months to set up an ending to it, 'cause there was always an intention to create an ending." "It, 'cause there was always an intention to create an ending." "jeffandItalked,andit" "Intention to create an ending." "jeffandItalked,andit started small, in terms of, jeffandItalked,andit started small, in terms of, "well, we can't afford to." "Started small, in terms of, "well, we can't afford to." "We're gonna have to set an end" ""well, we can't afford to." "We're gonna have to set an end date, because we just can't" "We're gonna have to set an end date, because we just can't afford to keep running it."" "Date, because we just can't afford to keep running it." thewinddownwas beginning" "Afford to keep running it." thewinddownwas beginning in some way, shape, or form." "thewinddownwas beginning in some way, shape, or form." "It became very real that this" "In some way, shape, or form." "It became very real that this was going to have an end date," "It became very real that this was going to have an end date, and that that end date was going" "Was going to have an end date, and that that end date was going to become hard soon." "And that that end date was going to become hard soon." "anditreallywas justacase" "To become hard soon." "anditreallywas justacase of the art was the most anditreallywas justacase of the art was the most important thing, and the" "Of the art was the most important thing, and the business of it got in the way." "Important thing, and the business of it got in the way." "itwasrightatthat time" "Business of it got in the way." "itwasrightatthat time  that I was approached by itwasrightatthat time  that I was approached by geordie aitken, a" "That I was approached by geordie aitken, a leadership-training person for" "Geordie aitken, a leadership-training person for corporate team-building" "Leadership-training person for corporate team-building exercises in canada." "Corporate team-building exercises in canada." "And he wanted to meet, and we" "Exercises in canada." "And he wanted to meet, and we just got along." "And he wanted to meet, and we just got along." "It was, like, fast friends" "Just got along." "It was, like, fast friends instantly." "itwas,whatdothey say, a "bromance" from the beginning" ""bromance" from the beginning and a beautiful one at that." "And a beautiful one at that." "Not 'cause jeff is beautiful" "Not 'cause jeff is beautiful physically." "I mean..." "Not that he's not beautiful physically, for sure, but what" "Not that he's not beautiful physically, for sure, but what I'm trying to say is, it has" "Physically, for sure, but what I'm trying to say is, it has nothing to do with physical" "I'm trying to say is, it has nothing to do with physical beauty." "Nothing to do with physical beauty." "wehadthissharedknowledge" "Beauty." "wehadthissharedknowledge of the history of the self-help wehadthissharedknowledge of the history of the self-help movement, and he had this" "Of the history of the self-help movement, and he had this appreciation for my craft, and I" "Movement, and he had this appreciation for my craft, and I recognized in him this really" "Appreciation for my craft, and I recognized in him this really charismatic, compelling, and" "Recognized in him this really charismatic, compelling, and very skilled and experienced" "Charismatic, compelling, and very skilled and experienced person in this realm." "Very skilled and experienced person in this realm." "Ijustdo whatIdo ." "Person in this realm." "Ijustdo whatIdo ." "I lead groups." "Ijustdo whatIdo ." "I lead groups." "I'm used to resistant people and" "I lead groups." "I'm used to resistant people and cynics, and I'm comfortable" "I'm used to resistant people and cynics, and I'm comfortable moving into fictional roles or" "Cynics, and I'm comfortable moving into fictional roles or different persona in order to" "Moving into fictional roles or different persona in order to facilitate an experience, 'cause" "Different persona in order to facilitate an experience, 'cause sometimes -- for instance, in" "Facilitate an experience, 'cause sometimes -- for instance, in the ninja-training work I do, I" "Sometimes -- for instance, in the ninja-training work I do, I move into this sort of sensei" "The ninja-training work I do, I move into this sort of sensei role, which requires a kind of" "Move into this sort of sensei role, which requires a kind of different slant on my normal" "Role, which requires a kind of different slant on my normal personality." "Different slant on my normal personality." "whenpeoplefirstenteredthe" "Personality." "whenpeoplefirstenteredthe induction center, it made them whenpeoplefirstenteredthe induction center, it made them nervous." "Induction center, it made them nervous." "It freaked them out a little" "Nervous." "It freaked them out a little bit because they didn't know" "It freaked them out a little bit because they didn't know where the fiction was and where" "Bit because they didn't know where the fiction was and where the reality was." "Where the fiction was and where the reality was." "And that was the tension that we" "The reality was." "And that was the tension that we thought was really rich, was" "And that was the tension that we thought was really rich, was really compelling." "Thought was really rich, was really compelling." "andbringingaclimactic" "Really compelling." "andbringingaclimactic conclusion to the story through andbringingaclimactic conclusion to the story through opposition seemed almost, to" "Conclusion to the story through opposition seemed almost, to him, trite or too pat or maybe" "Opposition seemed almost, to him, trite or too pat or maybe too easy." "Him, trite or too pat or maybe too easy." "It was just too easy." "Too easy." "It was just too easy." "whathappenswhenyou get all" "It was just too easy." "whathappenswhenyou get all  these people in the room, and whathappenswhenyou get all  these people in the room, and they're expecting it to be this" "These people in the room, and they're expecting it to be this big science-fiction fantasy, and" "They're expecting it to be this big science-fiction fantasy, and you just hold a seminar..." "Big science-fiction fantasy, and you just hold a seminar..." "All day..." "You just hold a seminar..." "All day..." "All day long." "All day..." "All day long." "well,therewassomuch" "All day long." "well,therewassomuch  lead-up to the seminar." "well,therewassomuch  lead-up to the seminar." "We were to run a covert" "Lead-up to the seminar." "We were to run a covert operation at the prescreening," "We were to run a covert operation at the prescreening, at the hotel room." "Operation at the prescreening, at the hotel room." "We were supposed to look for" "At the hotel room." "We were supposed to look for these little bio-force globes." "We were supposed to look for these little bio-force globes." "everyonewastoldtosteal" "These little bio-force globes." "everyonewastoldtosteal-- it was called a bio-force everyonewastoldtosteal-- it was called a bio-force globe -- from a bowl in the" "It was called a bio-force globe -- from a bowl in the room." "And it was supposed to be this thing that operated the" "Thing that operated the vital-orbit forcefield that was" "Vital-orbit forcefield that was going to destroy the" "Going to destroy the jejune institute once and for" "Jejune institute once and for all and bring their "jejunery"" "All and bring their "jejunery" to light." "youknow,bringingthisguy down didn't seem like such an awful thing." "Down didn't seem like such an awful thing." "Like, you know, if we put an end" "Awful thing." "Like, you know, if we put an end to a cult that's potentially" "Like, you know, if we put an end to a cult that's potentially ruining people's lives, you" "To a cult that's potentially ruining people's lives, you know, let's do that." "Ruining people's lives, you know, let's do that." "[ chuckles ]" "Know, let's do that." "[ chuckles ] [ knock on door ] [ chuckles ] [ knock on door ] hello." "[ knock on door ] hello." "hello!" "hello." "hello!" "howmayIhelpyou?" "hello!" "howmayIhelpyou?" "I'mhereforthe  howmayIhelpyou?" "I'mhereforthe  prescreening." "I'mhereforthe  prescreening." "andyourname,please?" "Prescreening." "andyourname,please?" "mark." "andyourname,please?" "mark." "markellis?" "mark." "markellis?" "mm-hmm." "markellis?" "mm-hmm." "plusone?" "mm-hmm." "plusone?" "no." "plusone?" "no." "okay." "no." "okay." "doyouhaveatwin ?" "okay." "doyouhaveatwin ?" "no." "doyouhaveatwin ?" "no." "oh." "no." "oh." "Please have a seat... oh." "Please have a seat..." "[ door closes ]" "Please have a seat..." "[ door closes ] ...On the cushioned chair." "[ door closes ] ...On the cushioned chair." "allright." "...On the cushioned chair." "allright." "now... allright." "now..." "This is a very straightforward now..." "This is a very straightforward process." "This is a very straightforward process." "mm-hmm." "Process." "mm-hmm." "I'mgoingto askyou afew mm-hmm." "I'mgoingto askyou afew questions." "I'mgoingto askyou afew questions." "We're gonna take some readings." "Questions." "We're gonna take some readings." "And then I'm going to show you a" "We're gonna take some readings." "And then I'm going to show you a video." "And then I'm going to show you a video." "How does that sound?" "Video." "How does that sound?" "soundsgood." "How does that sound?" "soundsgood." "allright." "soundsgood." "allright." "The first thing we need to do is allright." "The first thing we need to do is get you wired in." "The first thing we need to do is get you wired in." "allright." "Get you wired in." "allright." "it'sa completelypainless, allright." "it'sa completelypainless, noninvasive procedure." "it'sa completelypainless, noninvasive procedure." "Just lean your head forward." "Noninvasive procedure." "Just lean your head forward." "Thank you." "Just lean your head forward." "Thank you." "Are you left- or right-handed?" "Thank you." "Are you left- or right-handed?" "I'mright-handed." "Are you left- or right-handed?" "I'mright-handed." "Ineedyourleftindex" "I'mright-handed." "Ineedyourleftindex finger, please." "Please put your attention here." "mm-hmm." "what'syourname?" "markellis." "wherewereyouborn,mark ?" "markellis." "wherewereyouborn,mark ?" "inwalnutcreek." "wherewereyouborn,mark ?" "inwalnutcreek." "wheredoyoulivenow?" "inwalnutcreek." "wheredoyoulivenow?" "martinez." "wheredoyoulivenow?" "martinez." "howlonghaveyou been martinez." "howlonghaveyou been participating with the howlonghaveyou been participating with the institute?" "Participating with the institute?" "forabouttwoyears." "Institute?" "forabouttwoyears." "haveyoueverexperienceda forabouttwoyears." "haveyoueverexperienceda lucid dream?" "haveyoueverexperienceda lucid dream?" "yes." "Lucid dream?" "yes." "haveyouexperiencedalucid yes." "haveyouexperiencedalucid dream within the past year?" "haveyouexperiencedalucid dream within the past year?" "Ithinkso ,yeah." "Dream within the past year?" "Ithinkso ,yeah." "withinthepastsix months?" "Ithinkso ,yeah." "withinthepastsix months?" "hmm..." "Maybenot." "withinthepastsix months?" "hmm..." "Maybenot." "areyoudreamingnow ?" "hmm..." "Maybenot." "areyoudreamingnow ?" "Idon'tknow." "areyoudreamingnow ?" "Idon'tknow." "haveyoueverexperienced" "Idon'tknow." "haveyoueverexperienced dÃ©jÃ  vu?" "haveyoueverexperienced dÃ©jÃ  vu?" "yes." "DÃ©jÃ  vu?" "yes." "Have you experienced dÃ©jÃ  vu yes." "Have you experienced dÃ©jÃ  vu within the past year?" "Have you experienced dÃ©jÃ  vu within the past year?" "yes." "Within the past year?" "yes." "withinthepastsix months?" "yes." "withinthepastsix months?" "yes." "withinthepastsix months?" "yes." "pastthreemonths?" "yes." "pastthreemonths?" "maybe." "pastthreemonths?" "maybe." "allright." "maybe." "allright." "I'm going to show you a video." "allright." "I'm going to show you a video." "There's no right or wrong way to" "I'm going to show you a video." "There's no right or wrong way to experience this video." "There's no right or wrong way to experience this video." "However, it is extremely" "Experience this video." "However, it is extremely important that you give the" "However, it is extremely important that you give the video your undivided attention." "Important that you give the video your undivided attention." "Do you understand?" "Video your undivided attention." "Do you understand?" "yes." "Do you understand?" "yes." "[ whirring, heart beats ] [ beeping ]" "Is that it?" "Idon'tknow." "Isthat it?" "Idon'tknow." "Isthat it?" "thatconcludesour prescreening process." "thankyou." "Prescreening process." "thankyou." "enjoyyourday." "thankyou." "enjoyyourday." "Enjoy your weekend." "enjoyyourday." "Enjoy your weekend." "allright." "Enjoy your weekend." "allright." "Thank you very much." "allright." "Thank you very much." "So, I did get one of these." "It looks like a flower bud -- pretty cool, though." "Well, that's it." "Pretty cool, though." "Well, that's it." "I'm done." "Well, that's it." "I'm done." "Hello." "I'm done." "Hello." "hello." "Hello." "hello." "goodtoseeyou ." "hello." "goodtoseeyou ." "yournameagain,please?" "goodtoseeyou ." "yournameagain,please?" "mark." "yournameagain,please?" "mark." "mark." "Yourlastname?" "mark." "mark." "Yourlastname?" "ellis." "mark." "Yourlastname?" "ellis." "markellis?" "ellis." "markellis?" "Did you dream last night?" "markellis?" "Did you dream last night?" "yes." "Did you dream last night?" "yes." "excellent." "yes." "excellent." "Are you ready for today's event?" "excellent." "Are you ready for today's event?" "yes." "Are you ready for today's event?" "yes." "perfect." "yes." "perfect." "welcome,mark." "perfect." "welcome,mark." "thankyou." "welcome,mark." "thankyou." "So, the day of the seminar, a thankyou." "So, the day of the seminar, a lot of us had our bio-force" "So, the day of the seminar, a lot of us had our bio-force globe things." "Lot of us had our bio-force globe things." "theepwawasgoingtogiveus" "Globe things." "theepwawasgoingtogiveus the power to take down the theepwawasgoingtogiveus the power to take down the jejune institute." "The power to take down the jejune institute." "wewouldalldojazz hands," "Jejune institute." "wewouldalldojazz hands, and commander 14 would show up." "wewouldalldojazz hands, and commander 14 would show up." "Maybe even eva would show up." "And commander 14 would show up." "Maybe even eva would show up." "And hooray, we're the triumphant" "Maybe even eva would show up." "And hooray, we're the triumphant ones, you know?" "And hooray, we're the triumphant ones, you know?" "Go get drunk." "I don't know." "[ birds chirping ] Iseeyou." "[ chuckles ]" "Iseeyou." "[ chuckles ] I'm glad you're here." "[ chuckles ] I'm glad you're here." "I'm glad you're all here." "I'm glad you're here." "I'm glad you're all here." "I'm here." "I'm glad you're all here." "I'm here." "We're here." "I'm here." "We're here." "Aren't we?" "We're here." "Aren't we?" "We are here." "Aren't we?" "We are here." "I am antoine, and welcome to" "We are here." "I am antoine, and welcome to socio-reengineering 2011." "I am antoine, and welcome to socio-reengineering 2011." "[ crowd cheers ] welcometo socio-reengineering 2011, brought to you by" "Socio-reengineering 2011, brought to you by the jejune institute, llc." "Brought to you by the jejune institute, llc." "Thirty-two years ago, the very" "The jejune institute, llc." "Thirty-two years ago, the very first socio-reengineering" "Thirty-two years ago, the very first socio-reengineering seminar took place at" "First socio-reengineering seminar took place at slide ranch retreat center on" "Seminar took place at slide ranch retreat center on the dramatic coastline of" "Slide ranch retreat center on the dramatic coastline of marin county." "The dramatic coastline of marin county." "Once a decade, we have" "Marin county." "Once a decade, we have continued on in the tradition" "Once a decade, we have continued on in the tradition established at that first" "Continued on in the tradition established at that first monumental event." "Established at that first monumental event." "Today, you are here to" "Monumental event." "Today, you are here to participate in that legacy." "Of many beautiful things to emerge from that historic weekend, there was a particular" "Emerge from that historic weekend, there was a particular union established." "It was the romantic connection between institute researchers ezra logan and" "Between institute researchers ezra logan and mrs." "Toni hapuis, which" "Ezra logan and mrs." "Toni hapuis, which continues to burn brightly to" "Mrs. Toni hapuis, which continues to burn brightly to this day." "Continues to burn brightly to this day." "From this cosmic spark, a child" "This day." "From this cosmic spark, a child was conceived that weekend by" "From this cosmic spark, a child was conceived that weekend by the name of antoine logan, a" "Was conceived that weekend by the name of antoine logan, a shining light in the movement." "The name of antoine logan, a shining light in the movement." "Antoine became a young" "Shining light in the movement." "Antoine became a young protÃ©gÃ© of octavio coleman," "Antoine became a young protÃ©gÃ© of octavio coleman, esquire." "ProtÃ©gÃ© of octavio coleman, esquire." "Spending his formative years" "Esquire." "Spending his formative years under his close tutelage," "Spending his formative years under his close tutelage, today, we will have the" "Under his close tutelage, today, we will have the singular pleasure of" "Today, we will have the singular pleasure of experiencing antoine logan in" "Singular pleasure of experiencing antoine logan in all of his" "Experiencing antoine logan in all of his vision, strength, and wisdom," "All of his vision, strength, and wisdom, as established through his" "Vision, strength, and wisdom, as established through his careful application of the" "As established through his careful application of the jejune method." "Careful application of the jejune method." "feelyourbody." "Jejune method." "feelyourbody." "Feel the gravity as it pulls you feelyourbody." "Feel the gravity as it pulls you to the ground." "Feel the gravity as it pulls you to the ground." "We are material." "To the ground." "We are material." "We are full of judgments." "We are material." "We are full of judgments." "Fall in love with what's" "We are full of judgments." "Fall in love with what's possible." "Fall in love with what's possible." "Synthesis allows us to plow" "Possible." "Synthesis allows us to plow forward and to do the hard work" "Synthesis allows us to plow forward and to do the hard work of really learning about each" "Forward and to do the hard work of really learning about each other, which moves to a place we" "Of really learning about each other, which moves to a place we call "high performance."" "Other, which moves to a place we call "high performance." the layers of our personality" "Call "high performance." the layers of our personality are predictable." "The layers of our personality are predictable." "We call it armor because when we" "Are predictable." "We call it armor because when we hold on to how we see things," "We call it armor because when we hold on to how we see things, when we hold tight to our" "Hold on to how we see things, when we hold tight to our habitual world view and" "When we hold tight to our habitual world view and opinions, we become quite rigid." "Habitual world view and opinions, we become quite rigid." "Often, our character armor, that" "Opinions, we become quite rigid." "Often, our character armor, that habitual way of seeing and" "Often, our character armor, that habitual way of seeing and operating, gets in the way of" "Habitual way of seeing and operating, gets in the way of becoming who we need to be." "Operating, gets in the way of becoming who we need to be." "The wisdom body speaks in these" "Becoming who we need to be." "The wisdom body speaks in these sorts of games, you know?" "The wisdom body speaks in these sorts of games, you know?" "hehadus do these" "Sorts of games, you know?" "hehadus do these deep-breathing exercises and hehadus do these deep-breathing exercises and going, "mmm."" "Deep-breathing exercises and going, "mmm." and apparently " " I wasn't there" "Going, "mmm." and apparently " " I wasn't there to witness this -- but" "And apparently " " I wasn't there to witness this -- but apparently we took a bathroom" "To witness this -- but apparently we took a bathroom break, and he was standing at" "Apparently we took a bathroom break, and he was standing at one of the urinals going, "mmm."" "Break, and he was standing at one of the urinals going, "mmm." therewasabreak,andafter" "One of the urinals going, "mmm." therewasabreak,andafter  he came back from the break, therewasabreak,andafter  he came back from the break, they were setting out glasses of" "He came back from the break, they were setting out glasses of hot water." "They were setting out glasses of hot water." "And we're like, "oh, my god," "Hot water." "And we're like, "oh, my god, this is like when they're gonna" "And we're like, "oh, my god, this is like when they're gonna make drink the kool-aid." "This is like when they're gonna make drink the kool-aid." "Like, maybe this is -- maybe" "Make drink the kool-aid." "Like, maybe this is -- maybe we've been, like, fooled all" "Like, maybe this is -- maybe we've been, like, fooled all along." "We've been, like, fooled all along." "Maybe this is a cult, and we're" "Along." "Maybe this is a cult, and we're all about to die."" "Maybe this is a cult, and we're all about to die." oh,someof youbrought" "All about to die." oh,someof youbrought something with you." "oh,someof youbrought something with you." "Take it out now." "Something with you." "Take it out now." "Take it out." "Take it out now." "Take it out." "It's okay." "Take it out." "It's okay." "It's okay." "It's okay." "It's okay." "hejustkeptontryingtoget" "It's okay." "hejustkeptontryingtoget  us to put the balls in the hejustkeptontryingtoget  us to put the balls in the water." "Us to put the balls in the water." "He's like, "put them in your" "Water." "He's like, "put them in your cup."" "He's like, "put them in your cup." and we're like, "no!"" "Cup." and we're like, "no!" 'cause inside, we're like," "And we're like, "no!" 'cause inside, we're like, "we're on the epwa side."" "'cause inside, we're like, "we're on the epwa side." like, we can't betray them, you" ""we're on the epwa side." like, we can't betray them, you know?" "Like, we can't betray them, you know?" "But eventually people started" "Know?" "But eventually people started putting the tea in the water." "But eventually people started putting the tea in the water." "I put mine in and immediately" "Putting the tea in the water." "I put mine in and immediately regretted it." "I put mine in and immediately regretted it." "I was like, "god, I let them get" "Regretted it." "I was like, "god, I let them get to me."" "I was like, "god, I let them get to me." thekeyin thatmomentwasI" "To me." thekeyin thatmomentwasI  didn't resist their resistance." "thekeyin thatmomentwasI  didn't resist their resistance." "My unflappability helped seduce" "Didn't resist their resistance." "My unflappability helped seduce some of the weaker ones into" "My unflappability helped seduce some of the weaker ones into putting their orb into the tea." "Some of the weaker ones into putting their orb into the tea." "And it helped provoke the more" "Putting their orb into the tea." "And it helped provoke the more strident participants into" "And it helped provoke the more strident participants into greater and greater levels of" "Strident participants into greater and greater levels of resistance, which became a" "Greater and greater levels of resistance, which became a comedy in itself, to the point" "Resistance, which became a comedy in itself, to the point where someone says, "why should" "Comedy in itself, to the point where someone says, "why should we do it?"" "Where someone says, "why should we do it?" and I say..." "We do it?" and I say..." "Because that's how we make tea." "And I say..." "Because that's how we make tea." "[ laughter ]" "Because that's how we make tea." "[ laughter ] [ applause ] [ laughter ] [ applause ] and everyone got it, because the [ applause ] and everyone got it, because the laughter rippled through the" "And everyone got it, because the laughter rippled through the room." "Laughter rippled through the room." "And in that moment, even despite" "Room." "And in that moment, even despite themselves, everyone got the" "And in that moment, even despite themselves, everyone got the comedy." "Themselves, everyone got the comedy." "I don't know." "Comedy." "I don't know." "The absurdist truth cut through" "I don't know." "The absurdist truth cut through the levels of reality, and" "The absurdist truth cut through the levels of reality, and suddenly the game merged with" "The levels of reality, and suddenly the game merged with the present moment." "Suddenly the game merged with the present moment." "Alter egos merged with real" "The present moment." "Alter egos merged with real identities, and everyone had a" "Alter egos merged with real identities, and everyone had a laugh." "Identities, and everyone had a laugh." "[ slurping ]" "Laugh." "[ slurping ] ahh!" "[ slurping ] ahh!" "Mmm." "Ahh!" "Mmm." "[ up-tempo dance music plays ] â™ªthere'saparty in the house, and we'll be rocking tonight â™ª" "In the house, and we'll be rocking tonight â™ª â™ª so, bring your body" "And we'll be rocking tonight â™ª â™ª so, bring your body with you, baby, â™ª so, bring your body with you, baby, and I'll make you feel right â™ª" "With you, baby, and I'll make you feel right â™ª â™ª it's a freaky celebration" "And I'll make you feel right â™ª â™ª it's a freaky celebration of a natural kind â™ª â™ª it's a freaky celebration of a natural kind â™ª â™ª and the pleasure" "Of a natural kind â™ª â™ª and the pleasure you'll experience â™ª and the pleasure you'll experience will blow your mind â™ª" "You'll experience will blow your mind â™ª Iparticipatedin allofthe" "Will blow your mind â™ª Iparticipatedin allofthe dancing and rolling around on" "Iparticipatedin allofthe dancing and rolling around on the floor and stuff." "Dancing and rolling around on the floor and stuff." "therewasamomentwherewe" "The floor and stuff." "therewasamomentwherewe had a video conference with a therewasamomentwherewe had a video conference with a dolphin, and everyone acted like" "Had a video conference with a dolphin, and everyone acted like they knew what he was saying," "Dolphin, and everyone acted like they knew what he was saying, or at least everybody on the" "They knew what he was saying, or at least everybody on the jejune institute staff." "Or at least everybody on the jejune institute staff." "theseminarendedwithallof" "Jejune institute staff." "theseminarendedwithallof us getting under three big theseminarendedwithallof us getting under three big parachutes and doing one of" "Us getting under three big parachutes and doing one of those group exercises where you" "Parachutes and doing one of those group exercises where you bring the parachute up and let" "Those group exercises where you bring the parachute up and let it fall down and bring it up and" "Bring the parachute up and let it fall down and bring it up and let it fall down." "It fall down and bring it up and let it fall down." "And then you sort of get into" "Let it fall down." "And then you sort of get into this womblike state, where" "And then you sort of get into this womblike state, where you're laying down." "This womblike state, where you're laying down." "And carolee was right next to" "You're laying down." "And carolee was right next to me." "And carolee was right next to me." "I felt very safe." "Me." "I felt very safe." "And right then, somebody from" "I felt very safe." "And right then, somebody from the jejune institute either" "And right then, somebody from the jejune institute either moved a chair or just got a" "The jejune institute either moved a chair or just got a little bit too close and kicked" "Moved a chair or just got a little bit too close and kicked me in the head, like, really" "Little bit too close and kicked me in the head, like, really hard." "Me in the head, like, really hard." "[ laughs ]" "Hard." "[ laughs ] and that ended up being a pretty [ laughs ] and that ended up being a pretty good way of summing up my entire" "And that ended up being a pretty good way of summing up my entire experience at the" "Good way of summing up my entire experience at the jejune institute." "Experience at the jejune institute." "andallowyourselftostretch" "Jejune institute." "andallowyourselftostretch and to touch each other and to andallowyourselftostretch and to touch each other and to touch the biofiber that's all" "And to touch each other and to touch the biofiber that's all around you and reconnect to life" "Touch the biofiber that's all around you and reconnect to life as you ought to live it!" "Around you and reconnect to life as you ought to live it!" "And breathe deep of the" "As you ought to live it!" "And breathe deep of the succulence of your life, this" "And breathe deep of the succulence of your life, this transformed life, and make your" "Succulence of your life, this transformed life, and make your way beyond the perimeter of the" "Transformed life, and make your way beyond the perimeter of the chute." "Way beyond the perimeter of the chute." "Ahh!" "Chute." "Ahh!" "And join us." "Ahh!" "And join us." "Join our people." "so,dowe stillthinkthat  this is just a game?" "[ chuckles ]" "This is just a game?" "[ chuckles ] let's talk about reality and [ chuckles ] let's talk about reality and illusion." "Let's talk about reality and illusion." "Are you pretending to be here," "Illusion." "Are you pretending to be here, hmm?" "Are you pretending to be here, hmm?" "I am not." "Hmm?" "I am not." "I am present, right here, right" "I am not." "I am present, right here, right now." "I am present, right here, right now." "And I feel your presence, too," "Now." "And I feel your presence, too, all of you." "And I feel your presence, too, all of you." "Perhaps this very moment is us" "All of you." "Perhaps this very moment is us waking from the dream," "Perhaps this very moment is us waking from the dream, collectively awakening." "Waking from the dream, collectively awakening." "Aha!" "Collectively awakening." "Aha!" "That feels good, doesn't it?" "Aha!" "That feels good, doesn't it?" "Remember the day you walked into" "That feels good, doesn't it?" "Remember the day you walked into the induction center?" "Remember the day you walked into the induction center?" "I promised you two things." "The induction center?" "I promised you two things." "One..." "I promised you two things." "One..." "That you'd begin to notice the" "One..." "That you'd begin to notice the divine occurring all around you" "That you'd begin to notice the divine occurring all around you in a thousand miniscule ways." "Divine occurring all around you in a thousand miniscule ways." "And two..." "In a thousand miniscule ways." "And two..." "For those dark horses with the" "And two..." "For those dark horses with the spirit to look up and see, a" "For those dark horses with the spirit to look up and see, a recondite family awaits." "Spirit to look up and see, a recondite family awaits." "Look around you." "Recondite family awaits." "Look around you." "We are that family." "Look around you." "We are that family." "And this?" "We are that family." "And this?" "This is only the beginning." "And this?" "This is only the beginning." "Okay." "This is only the beginning." "Okay." "Lock the doors and release the" "Okay." "Lock the doors and release the poisonous gas, please." "Lock the doors and release the poisonous gas, please." "Huh?" "Poisonous gas, please." "Huh?" "Scared you, didn't I?" "Huh?" "Scared you, didn't I?" "[ chuckles ]" "Scared you, didn't I?" "[ chuckles ] well, guess what?" "[ chuckles ] well, guess what?" "[ laughter ]" "Well, guess what?" "[ laughter ] yes." "Thank you." "[ laughter ] yes." "Thank you." "I get scared, too." "Yes." "Thank you." "I get scared, too." "Even I didn't know what was" "I get scared, too." "Even I didn't know what was going to happen here today." "Even I didn't know what was going to happen here today." "I acknowledge how far you all" "Going to happen here today." "I acknowledge how far you all have come, and I honor you." "I acknowledge how far you all have come, and I honor you." "Eva bless." "Have come, and I honor you." "Eva bless." "Thank you." "caroleeturnsto me ,andshe  says, "we lost." "We did it wrong." "Says, "we lost." "We did it wrong." "We lost." "We lost the game."" "We did it wrong." "We lost." "We lost the game." and I felt so much like" "We lost." "We lost the game." and I felt so much like charlie bucket, that there was" "And I felt so much like charlie bucket, that there was something that we had -- over" "Charlie bucket, that there was something that we had -- over the course of the day, we were" "Something that we had -- over the course of the day, we were supposed to do something with" "The course of the day, we were supposed to do something with the coins maybe that we didn't" "Supposed to do something with the coins maybe that we didn't do." "The coins maybe that we didn't do." "Ijust" " Ifeltlike itwas" "Do." "Ijust" " Ifeltlike itwas stopped short, like this" "Ijust" " Ifeltlike itwas stopped short, like this wonderful arc had just gone" "Stopped short, like this wonderful arc had just gone poof!" "And fallen into the" "Wonderful arc had just gone poof!" "And fallen into the ground." "Poof!" "And fallen into the ground." "I'm kind of ashamed to admit it," "Ground." "I'm kind of ashamed to admit it, but I went into kind of a" "I'm kind of ashamed to admit it, but I went into kind of a monthlong, like, funk" "But I went into kind of a monthlong, like, funk afterwards, because I felt like" "Monthlong, like, funk afterwards, because I felt like I had been duped." "Afterwards, because I felt like I had been duped." "ifwehadtakenaction,it" "I had been duped." "ifwehadtakenaction,it would be very real, very weird ifwehadtakenaction,it would be very real, very weird action." "Would be very real, very weird action." "I don't think anybody wanted to" "Action." "I don't think anybody wanted to do that." "I don't think anybody wanted to do that." "Everybody wanted to be" "Do that." "Everybody wanted to be entertained." "Everybody wanted to be entertained." "So, it just felt like, "man, the" "Entertained." "So, it just felt like, "man, the book was good, but the ending" "So, it just felt like, "man, the book was good, but the ending was weird."" "Book was good, but the ending was weird." you know, that doesn't change" "Was weird." you know, that doesn't change the fact that I really enjoyed" "You know, that doesn't change the fact that I really enjoyed the story." "The fact that I really enjoyed the story." "Ithinkit 'stheorganeil" "The story." "Ithinkit 'stheorganeil factor." "Ithinkit 'stheorganeil factor." "Nobody wanted to -- who wants to" "Factor." "Nobody wanted to -- who wants to attack an old man?" "Nobody wanted to -- who wants to attack an old man?" "You know?" "Attack an old man?" "You know?" "He's an actor, you know?" "You know?" "He's an actor, you know?" "I'm gonna take it that" "He's an actor, you know?" "I'm gonna take it that seriously." "I'm gonna take it that seriously." "Ithinkif youlookedup" "Seriously." "Ithinkif youlookedup "jejune" in the dictionary, you" "Ithinkif youlookedup "jejune" in the dictionary, you would find that it is -- like, a" ""jejune" in the dictionary, you would find that it is -- like, a jejune endeavor is a pointless" "Would find that it is -- like, a jejune endeavor is a pointless endeavor that will never" "Jejune endeavor is a pointless endeavor that will never actually get anywhere." "Endeavor that will never actually get anywhere." "You know?" "Actually get anywhere." "You know?" "I think maybe what they really" "You know?" "I think maybe what they really missed was exactly what was kind" "I think maybe what they really missed was exactly what was kind of fulfilled at the end." "Missed was exactly what was kind of fulfilled at the end." "Imean,there'samomentwhen" "Of fulfilled at the end." "Imean,there'samomentwhen wile coyote runs off that cliff" "Imean,there'samomentwhen wile coyote runs off that cliff and wheels his legs for a minute" "Wile coyote runs off that cliff and wheels his legs for a minute and looks down before he falls" "And wheels his legs for a minute and looks down before he falls and has that pause midair," "And looks down before he falls and has that pause midair, suspended by nothing but his own" "And has that pause midair, suspended by nothing but his own momentum, before he collapses." "Suspended by nothing but his own momentum, before he collapses." "And I'm not sure in this moment" "Momentum, before he collapses." "And I'm not sure in this moment whether I'm referring to jeff or" "And I'm not sure in this moment whether I'm referring to jeff or to the players, but there was" "Whether I'm referring to jeff or to the players, but there was that moment throughout that day." "To the players, but there was that moment throughout that day." "I think maybe if you don't look" "That moment throughout that day." "I think maybe if you don't look down, you'll never fall." "I think maybe if you don't look down, you'll never fall." "therewasthissensethat" "Down, you'll never fall." "therewasthissensethat  people were expecting this final therewasthissensethat  people were expecting this final event to play out in a" "People were expecting this final event to play out in a science-fiction and fantasy" "Event to play out in a science-fiction and fantasy realm in which there were" "Science-fiction and fantasy realm in which there were shootouts and chases and things." "Realm in which there were shootouts and chases and things." "And I think there was an element" "Shootouts and chases and things." "And I think there was an element of wanting to punish those" "And I think there was an element of wanting to punish those players who seemed to be missing" "Of wanting to punish those players who seemed to be missing what the real story was, and" "Players who seemed to be missing what the real story was, and that was about eva." "What the real story was, and that was about eva." "backinthelate1980s,Iwas" "That was about eva." "backinthelate1980s,Iwas a runaway." "backinthelate1980s,Iwas a runaway." "I made my way eventually to" "A runaway." "I made my way eventually to san francisco." "I made my way eventually to san francisco." "And the colt tower seemed to me" "San francisco." "And the colt tower seemed to me like some kind of a spiritual" "And the colt tower seemed to me like some kind of a spiritual lightning rod or something." "Like some kind of a spiritual lightning rod or something." "So, I started hanging around" "Lightning rod or something." "So, I started hanging around there." "So, I started hanging around there." "To occupy myself, I began to" "There." "To occupy myself, I began to make little art projects " "To occupy myself, I began to make little art projects -- animals or mosaics." "Make little art projects -- animals or mosaics." "And eventually I started making" "Animals or mosaics." "And eventually I started making these little scenes in the" "And eventually I started making these little scenes in the crevices in the stone walls." "These little scenes in the crevices in the stone walls." "One of them was this scene with" "Crevices in the stone walls." "One of them was this scene with a camp, kind of a hobo train car" "One of them was this scene with a camp, kind of a hobo train car and some street kids gathering" "A camp, kind of a hobo train car and some street kids gathering together." "And some street kids gathering together." "A few days later, I found that" "Together." "A few days later, I found that someone else had added a new" "A few days later, I found that someone else had added a new scene, which was this beautiful" "Someone else had added a new scene, which was this beautiful scene that was also kind of" "Scene, which was this beautiful scene that was also kind of spooky." "Scene that was also kind of spooky." "There were flowers and a tree" "Spooky." "There were flowers and a tree and a ship in the background" "There were flowers and a tree and a ship in the background with some strange kind of" "And a ship in the background with some strange kind of pilgrims there." "With some strange kind of pilgrims there." "A couple of days after that, I" "Pilgrims there." "A couple of days after that, I was starting a new one, and I" "A couple of days after that, I was starting a new one, and I made this sort of room or stage" "Was starting a new one, and I made this sort of room or stage and left it mostly unfinished." "Made this sort of room or stage and left it mostly unfinished." "The next day, I hid nearby and" "And left it mostly unfinished." "The next day, I hid nearby and watched." "The next day, I hid nearby and watched." "This girl came, and she added a" "Watched." "This girl came, and she added a light and the letters "e" and" "This girl came, and she added a light and the letters "e" and "w" down by the door." "Light and the letters "e" and "w" down by the door." "Then, she put these birds in, as" ""w" down by the door." "Then, she put these birds in, as if the light was lifting them" "Then, she put these birds in, as if the light was lifting them into the sky." "If the light was lifting them into the sky." "I think that's when I felt safe" "Into the sky." "I think that's when I felt safe enough, finally, to approach" "I think that's when I felt safe enough, finally, to approach her." "Enough, finally, to approach her." "And we met that day and became" "Her." "And we met that day and became friends." "And we met that day and became friends." "She asked me if I understood" "Friends." "She asked me if I understood about the light, about those" "She asked me if I understood about the light, about those letters, about a place she" "About the light, about those letters, about a place she called "elsewhere," a way of" "Letters, about a place she called "elsewhere," a way of being and playing in the world" "Called "elsewhere," a way of being and playing in the world that somehow changed everything," "Being and playing in the world that somehow changed everything, a game, sort of, but without any" "That somehow changed everything, a game, sort of, but without any rules, a way of being in the" "A game, sort of, but without any rules, a way of being in the world that was powerful and" "Rules, a way of being in the world that was powerful and enchanted." "World that was powerful and enchanted." "Imetevaafterashowatthe" "Enchanted." "Imetevaafterashowatthe stone on broadway, and she ended" "Imetevaafterashowatthe stone on broadway, and she ended up crashing at my parents' house" "Stone on broadway, and she ended up crashing at my parents' house for about a month in the garage." "Up crashing at my parents' house for about a month in the garage." "And it was during those times" "For about a month in the garage." "And it was during those times that she and I would meditate." "And it was during those times that she and I would meditate." "It was kind of a form of" "That she and I would meditate." "It was kind of a form of meditation, and she would guide" "It was kind of a form of meditation, and she would guide me down these paths towards this" "Meditation, and she would guide me down these paths towards this placed called "elsewhere."" "Me down these paths towards this placed called "elsewhere." and elsewhere was neither here" "Placed called "elsewhere." and elsewhere was neither here nor there, and it was this" "And elsewhere was neither here nor there, and it was this entire universe and this entire" "Nor there, and it was this entire universe and this entire tribe and with this imagined" "Entire universe and this entire tribe and with this imagined history." "Tribe and with this imagined history." "It was very intricate and" "History." "It was very intricate and detailed and went back a long" "It was very intricate and detailed and went back a long way." "Detailed and went back a long way." "I think that, like every bit of" "Way." "I think that, like every bit of art or creativity that I produce" "I think that, like every bit of art or creativity that I produce is in some way inspired by her." "Art or creativity that I produce is in some way inspired by her." "It was during the time that I" "Is in some way inspired by her." "It was during the time that I was in treatment that she went" "It was during the time that I was in treatment that she went missing, and it wasn't totally" "Was in treatment that she went missing, and it wasn't totally unusual, you know, for her to" "Missing, and it wasn't totally unusual, you know, for her to skip out for a little while." "Unusual, you know, for her to skip out for a little while." "But then there began to be these" "Skip out for a little while." "But then there began to be these theories of either an abduction" "But then there began to be these theories of either an abduction or a suicide, and I don't think" "Theories of either an abduction or a suicide, and I don't think it was suicide." "Or a suicide, and I don't think it was suicide." "youknow,there'sthe" "It was suicide." "youknow,there'sthe  algorithm, right, that youknow,there'sthe  algorithm, right, that blair lucien came up with." "Algorithm, right, that blair lucien came up with." "I think we got a glimpse, a" "Blair lucien came up with." "I think we got a glimpse, a little glimpse, of the algorithm" "I think we got a glimpse, a little glimpse, of the algorithm in action in the sense that" "Little glimpse, of the algorithm in action in the sense that there were moments where the" "In action in the sense that there were moments where the ordinary world was transformed" "There were moments where the ordinary world was transformed into something different," "Ordinary world was transformed into something different, something full of potential and" "Into something different, something full of potential and full of mystery in a way that we" "Something full of potential and full of mystery in a way that we don't usually experience." "Full of mystery in a way that we don't usually experience." "Idon'tknowifthereisa" "Don't usually experience." "Idon'tknowifthereisa conclusion." "Idon'tknowifthereisa conclusion." "I don't know how it ended." "Conclusion." "I don't know how it ended." "I never looked up on the message" "I don't know how it ended." "I never looked up on the message boards or anything or really" "I never looked up on the message boards or anything or really necessarily asked anyone." "Boards or anything or really necessarily asked anyone." "So, for me, it could still be" "Necessarily asked anyone." "So, for me, it could still be happening." "So, for me, it could still be happening." "And I know they closed down the" "Happening." "And I know they closed down the building, but as far as I know," "And I know they closed down the building, but as far as I know, the war is still being waged on" "Building, but as far as I know, the war is still being waged on the street." "The war is still being waged on the street." "And that's fun." "The street." "And that's fun." "It's fun that way." "And that's fun." "It's fun that way." "Idomissthe" "It's fun that way." "Idomissthe  jejune institute a lot, and I" "Idomissthe  jejune institute a lot, and I still talk to people about it." "Jejune institute a lot, and I still talk to people about it." "People -- well, I have a dog," "Still talk to people about it." "People -- well, I have a dog, and her name is jejune." "People -- well, I have a dog, and her name is jejune." "yeah,definitelythisis" "And her name is jejune." "yeah,definitelythisis playful." "yeah,definitelythisis playful." "The experience is a lot of fun." "Playful." "The experience is a lot of fun." "But I think the underlying" "The experience is a lot of fun." "But I think the underlying messages are real." "But I think the underlying messages are real." "So, in that respect, is it a" "Messages are real." "So, in that respect, is it a game?" "So, in that respect, is it a game?" "I don't really know." "Game?" "I don't really know." "ifyoudon'thavereligion," "I don't really know." "ifyoudon'thavereligion, you don't have that built-in ifyoudon'thavereligion, you don't have that built-in explanation." "You don't have that built-in explanation." "Finding something that tells you" "Explanation." "Finding something that tells you there is all of this amazing" "Finding something that tells you there is all of this amazing stuff happening, and you just" "There is all of this amazing stuff happening, and you just need to know how to find it " "Stuff happening, and you just need to know how to find it -- it is a little bit like having" "Need to know how to find it -- it is a little bit like having something to believe in." "today,you'veglimpsedinto the elsewhere and felt for a moment what it's like to be" "The elsewhere and felt for a moment what it's like to be here." "Moment what it's like to be here." "And it's only a small taste of" "Here." "And it's only a small taste of what's to come."