"CHRISTIANE F. WE CHILDREN FROM ZOO STATION" "Piss and shit all over the place;" "just take a good look at it" "At first sight it looks fine, with its lawns and shopping centres" "But the staircases of the flats stink" "What can kids do, when they're playing outside?" "They'll shit themselves waiting for the lift, so they go in the lobby" "I've lived here since I was six, with my mother, sister and cat" "I've had enough of it" "The posters are all over town" ""Sound." "Europe's latest disco" I want to go to it" "One Saturday I told mother I'd sleep over at Kessi's" "Kessi is top of my class, everyone approves of her" "She's got real tits already;" "I admire her" ""Sound" is her second home;" "she's here every Saturday" "She's taking me for the first time" "Get a move on!" "Is she sixteen?" "Sure, in my class" " Is Atze here?" " When is he never here?" "Put your bag there." "You can't walk around with a plastic bag here" "Wait here" "Cherry juice" "We're in the cinema" "Crazy stuff" " Won't you have some?" " I'm not in the mood yet" " Your first, eh?" " Don't talk crap" "Stop that" "You shouldn't have taken that trip" "Too much for you?" "Are you O.K.?" "This is Axel" "I'm Detlev" "I'm going back" "Coming back in?" "See you" " Pitty, where have you been?" " He's been playing with the kids" " Why weren't you at school?" " I've been packing" "What's that?" "Has the old man won you over?" "You're leaving because of Mum's friend?" "That's Dad; he's waiting for me downstairs" "Mum's slaving for us and you just want to clear off" "Be happy, it leaves more for you" "No, I want you to stay here" "And I want to try it with Dad" " Remember all the trouble he caused?" " He wants to make up for it" "Coming down with me?" "Won't you think it over?" "I don't understand you" "Any message for Dad?" "Don't be cross" "Why no lights?" "Did you see Sabine?" " Now we two are alone" " She'll be back" " You think so?" " She won't stick it out with Dad" "You know what?" "We'll have a nice evening together" "Turn it" " Careful, it's running" " That's what I want" "It's Klaus." "I invited him, so we're not so alone." "Do you mind?" "Can I borrow your shoes tonight?" "You're going out?" "Just to Kessi's" "If you must" "I've something for you" "I hope you like it" "Yes, thanks" "Are we going somewhere?" "Anywhere?" " Coming, too?" " Where?" "I'm too tired" "Sleep when you're dead" "Cops!" "I hope they didn't get Kessi" " Mum thinks I'm sleeping at her place" " And her Mum thinks she's with you?" "Do you often go to Sound?" " Will you be there next week?" " Of course" "This is really high" "I'm feeling dizzy" "Been on a trip again?" "You don't think much of trips?" "Not really" "Want one?" "Did you do that yourself?" " Didn't it hurt?" " Yes, but I was bored" "It's almost dawn" " Are you going home?" " What about you?" "I'm going to my place;" "come with me, if you like" "I'm staying at Axel's" "Are you angry now?" "We thought the cops had got you" "Look, two Martians" "She was that loaded, there was hardly enough room for her in the lift" "The cops" "Come over here" "I think they're still looking for us" "You ought to arrest him;" "he's an addict" "You're coming with me" "Keep away from each other" "No silly ideas for Kessi" "Can you do homework with such a row?" "It's the record Klaus gave me" "Klaus gave me this record" "It doesn't mean it should be so loud" "David Bowie is coming to Berlin" "The guy on the record from Klaus" "You want to go?" "Can Kessi come, too?" "I often sleep at her place" "I might be able to get two tickets through the office" "Have you hurt yourself?" "That's a tattoo" "A what?" "A tattoo." "It's not quite finished" "You'll never get it off" "Well, youh ave to walk around with it" " I've just met a boy" " And he has one like it" "You know, I didn't really think of going to the concert with Kessi" "I get you" " Are you going to the concert, too?" " I can't afford it" "What have you bought? "H"?" "You can swallow three trips at once, or something else to turn you on" "I can get you anything, but leave "H" alone" "Otherwise, I won't see you again" "Axel, Detlev wants to take "H"" "If he fancies it" "Didn't you understand me?" "If he wants to take it, he will" " Can't you talk to him?" " Me, of all people?" "What do you mean?" "I thought you were his friend" "I thought he lived at your place" "Stay cool, kid" "Take something before you flip out" "Look at them." "The cooler they are, the more shots they've had" "What's up?" " You look like a corpse" " Because I'm a blood donor" " Why do you do it?" " Because I need the dough" "I'll see if somebody's got a Valium left for us" "Mandrax." "I couldn't get Valium" " Is he ill?" " He needs a shot" " Apart from me, who doesn't shoot up?" " No one I know" "Got any dough?" "Twenty marks" "I'll get some." "Wait outside" "I've got some." "And I've got my old man's car" "Ciao, thanks for the dough" "Open up" "I want to try it" "No way" "I paid for it" "I want my share" "Let me in" "I don't shoot up, I just sniff" "Just think" " Just for once" " As they all say" "I'm in control of myself" "Take that, and you'll soon be as far gone as me" " You'll be a corpse then" " From giving blood?" "Why don't you join us?" "Something wrong?" "Got a trip for me?" "What doyouw ant with a trip?" " Do you want a drink?" " Cherry juice" "I'll get it;" "I won't be long" " What did Babsie want from you?" " A trip" "Be careful, don't give her one." "She swallows all she can get" " And what do you do?" " It's not the same at all" "Know somewhere I can sleep?" "Your own home" "I don't want to go home, I'm fed up with it" "There's some sexy guys here" "Are you crazy?" " You can talk" " Do you copy everything I do?" "I only wanted to know what you feel like" "Groovy, eh?" "Axel, it's me" "Make yourself at home" "This is for you" "Axel made it for you" "Really?" "Does your mother know where you're sleeping?" "Sure, she isn't stupid" "We see each other only at weekends" "We can meet when I come back from school" "We can't do that" "Why not?" "I go to Zoo Station" "What for?" "Pick-ups" "Bullshit" "Honestly" "Really?" "With the pansies?" "I only jerk them off" "It's nothing, considering what they pay" "Don't you go to bed with them?" "Yes, but even then I don't do more" "What do you feel?" "It's a job." "They mustn't touch me" "I won't let them jerk me off." "It wouldn't be a job then" " So it doesn't excite you" " It's repulsive." "Just for dough" "Don't you like me so much now?" "Good night" "You can get up now." "My mother has left" " Are you fourteen already?" " I'm an adult from today on" "That looks great" "You reckon?" " Have you got anything to wear?" " I didn't come here naked" " You can't wear the same old rags" " Why not?" "Clean things." "You can wear my Bowie jacket" "Here's something to turn you on" "Have you got any "H"?" "Are you crazy?" "Don't touch it" "I only want to try it" "I have myself under control" "As they all say" "When you leave, shut the door properly" "Come again soon" "Sure, I will" "Hey, girl, how much?" "Excuse me, do you fuck?" "I pay a lot" "Muhametto, leave her alone." "Go on, clear off" "Are you catching a train?" "No." "Are you?" "Looking for Detlev, too?" "Has he disappeared?" "There's "Pissnelke"." "He lets me piss on him" " What does he do?" " It's what he wants" "Nonsense" "Ask him yourself" "I stand over him and piss" " I can't do it if I'm watched" " He grabs my prick" "Axel, come here" "Axel can do that." "The punters like him" "Who's that?" ""Stuttering Max"." "He only comes when he's flogged" "Look who's here" "Don't come here." "I won't have my girl friend coming to "Zoo"" "The scum of the earth." "You don't belong here" "Especially not on your birthday" "I wanted to bring cake for you" "And this." "Mother said I was to buy myself something nice" ""Who wants to piss in my mouth?" "I drink anything"" "Axel, there's something for you" " I want to shoot up today, too" " No way" "Whether I shoot or sniff, it makes no difference" " It does." "A shot is like a hammer" " Don't talk shit" "It's a sexual climax" "Shit, it's clogged." "Try and see if you can get one through" " You can ditch that one after" " Don't talk crap" "Can you lend me your kit?" "Keep clear of that, girl" "Please help me" "You've no idea" "How was it?" "I had a different idea of a sexual climax" "Do you want to sleep with me at the weekend?" "If you like" "On one condition" "No "H"" "I love you so" "We must stop shooting up" "You mustn't get hooked" "I don't want you to die" "Mother wonders why I'm not fatter, with all these sandwiches" "Got a shot for me?" "You won't get one from me" "Don't be mean." "Your pupils are pinheads, yet you tellmet o stop" "At leastyouc an stay clean" "You just want to hog it all" "I want to be on the same level as you" "O.K., a small shot" "I'll do the next punter for you." "See him?" "He's crazy about me" "Don't go to him" "Because he has a crush on you" "That'll make him pay well" "Why didn't you show up?" "No time." "I've got a regular guy" "Sunk really low, eh?" "You can talk" "You fuck?" " She fucks hell out of them" " What makes you so sure?" " You let them stick it in anywhere" " Jealous." "You hump with foreigners" " Shall we celebrate our reunion?" " I'm waiting for my dope" "I'll lend you some" " I did seven tricks in an hour" " You blew them all?" "Seven in an hour." "A lot of dough" " With condoms?" " You can do it with them, too" "Without you might catch oral clap" ""At fourteen he was on drugs." "He took an overdose in a fit of desperation"" "One less after the stuff" ""As long as something's left to shoot, I'll never take an overjolt" ""Deeply moving farewell letter of seventeen-year-old Andreas W"" "I know him." "That's Atze" "Be seeing you" "What's up?" " That was my last shot." "Must get some" " What about me?" "I need some for tomorrow morning." "I can't go to school otherwise" "I need some right now, or I'll have the horrors in two hours" "I must go now" "It's O.K." "You know what?" "Maybe I can help you" "Maybe I can get something begging" "I'll be at Kurfürstendamm" "Could you give me a mark?" "I need a mark" "Could you give me a mark for the underground?" "Old jerk!" " Are you crazy?" " Get in" " What's up?" " What do you think?" "I don't do humping" " Why not?" " I'm going steady" " You'll blow, then" " That makes me puke" "That doesn't leave much" "All right, just jerk me off" "For one hundred marks" "First the dough" "I've got some" "So much?" "Where did you get so much?" "Begging didn't work" "I jerked off a guy" "He gave me one hundred" "Are you having me on?" "Honest, I only jerked him off" "One hundred marks for that?" "What should I have done, then?" "I did it for you" "What I told you was true" "I did it for you" "You did it for yourself, because you were scared of going short" "You'd have done it even if I hadn't existed" "This is all because we shoot up" "But we'll make it, we'll start to withdraw some time" "We'll withdraw with Valeron" "And I promise I won't turn tricks with a punter" "We'll make it yet" "Christiane, hurry up" "Why lock the door?" "I must leave, I'll be late" "Why are you taking so long?" "You'll be late for school" "Christiane, do you hear?" "Unlock the door, what's the idea?" "What's the matter?" "Get a face-cloth" "Shall I call a doctor?" "Child, what's the matter?" "My circulation" " What are you doing here?" " Your mother called for me" "At "Zoo"?" "So we can withdraw together" "If two withdraw together, that's the end" "Rubbish, not with us" "I can't stand it any more" "Are you crazy?" "Keep off that" "Let me." "Please, let me" "Just a little sniff against the pain" "Bernd, you're still alive, old boy" " Sure." "And where have you two been?" " Take a good look at us" " You're clean, eh?" " Did you withdraw?" "You bet" "They've withdrawn" "You really did it?" "Yes, we really did it." "It wasn't all that bad" "All you need is lots of Valeron, Valium and suchlike" "I think that's great" "You can do it, too, Axel." "Really" "Shall we do it?" "Really?" "I'll get dough for Valeron" "We can start with it next week" "We'll tell Babsie and Stella, they might join us" "A cool, clean clique." "We'll only smoke grass sometimes" "I could have started today, but I've bought "H" already" "We can still shoot that" "Sure, that's O.K." "We'll be back soon" "That was really something, eh?" "That really was crazy" "On the first day already" "If we keep it under control, be careful not to get addicted to it" "We know now that we can quit" "So we can permit ourselves one shot" "We could ask them if they have a shot for us" "O.K., let's ask" "Axel, don't you know it's Saturday?" "They're letting you starve" "You've no water, either" " We can't just leave him there" " Want to take him with you?" "Hurry up!" "Why did he kill himself?" "He didn't." "Some pig sold him strychnine" "I can't stand this shit any more" "I need a shot!" "I need a shot!" "Where will you live now?" "With my bloke" " The one with a crush on you?" " Who else?" "You're a fine friend" "Have you got a better idea?" "You'd let any pansy shove his prick up your arse" "You think I like foreigners humping you?" "Do you know what you are?" "The lousiest creature I've ever met" "I'm sorry" "I've never let them hump me" "All I ever do is blow" "Me, too" "We must stop with this stuff" "Yes, that's O.K." "But now I need a shot" "Or I won't hold out" " But we haven't any dough" " Shit!" "I'll get some" "O.K. Fifteen marks" "Are you crazy?" "Some are brand new." "This one's still in its wrapper" " Seventeen" " Let's say twenty" " Find someone else" " O.K., seventeen" "Thanks" "Babsie, have you got something for me?" "In a year they'll be where we are" "I'm giving it up" " Why are you still here, then?" " I'll really start tomorrow" "I'll withdraw tomorrow" "I think that's really great" "Either I stop... or I die" "You'll stop, for sure" "And when I've made it, I mean after the therapy... what then?" "You know what?" "I'll give it up, too" "I'll join you in therapy." "We'll withdraw together" " Really?" " You'll see, we'll make it yet" "You bet?" "What's this?" "Come to me" "Stay here" "Look at me" "I need money" "Stay here" "I only jerk them off" "Look" "It doesn't turn you on, eh?" "Just a job" "What can I do, then?" "Tell me" "Have you seen Babsie?" "Have you seen Babsie?" "The little one?" "It's been some time." "She might have kicked the bucket, or be in jail" "Don't talk such crap" "You need a shot, girl" "I don't." "I'm just looking for Babsie" "If you've got one." "You still owe me one, anyway" "Sure, but right now I haven't got one myself" "Tina, got anything for me?" "Find your own stuff" "Have you got the time?" "You old pig, leave me alone" "Berlin's youngest drug victim" "She was only fourteen!" "I survived" "Mum took me to my Gran and Auntie, in a village near Hamburg" "I've been clean for eighteen months" "It frightens me to think of Detlev." "I often think of him" "I'd like to give him some of my strength, and help him" "But first I need the strength myself" "Dedicated to Andreas W, "Atze", Axel W., Babette D, "Babsie"" "And all the others who lacked the strength and luck to survive"