" Then we're staying too." " No, you're not." "You're getting in that wagon and getting the lads to the docks." "We can't just bugger off and leave you, sarge." "I'm not asking you, I'm telling you." "Get in the fuckin' APC and get the lads to the docks!" "We're all going home, sarge." "We'll save your berth for you, yeah?" "Thanks." " Omar?" " Just keep going." "We're nearly there." "This stuff weighs a ton." "Is it guns?" "The borders are sealed." "Everyone who uses these tunnels brings something in, so the journey isn't wasted." "Let's go." "Is she your girlfriend?" "No." "She didn't like me very much." "She and I are Fatah." "N this part of Gaza, Hamas is strong." "It's dangerous for me here." "She was worried, that's all." "OK?" "Come on." "What's going on?" "Wait here." "Is this the family?" "No, it's another cousin." "But he offers us his hospitality." "He says he will take us to his brother's house tomorrow." "Shukran." "It might not be such a good idea to stay here tonight." "Why?" "What's wrong?" "The Israeli army usually destroys the homes of martyrs within 48 hours of an attack." "Sorry, what do you mean?" "His eldest daughter martyred herself in Tel Aviv on Tuesday." "This is her funeral." "You mean the suicide bombing?" "This is the family of the bomber?" "Yes, didn't you see the poster?" "Erin, wait." "We can't leave yet." "It's disrespectful." "Disrespectful?" "!" "I don't want to respect his daughter - she murdered three people." "I've been blown up by a suicide bomber, OK?" "I know what I'm talking about." "What?" "This is your room?" "Wow." "Sorry, I don't understand what you're saying." "Brush your hair?" "OK?" "Yeah?" "You OK?" "You did this for your sister?" "Come here, come here." "Shh..." "Shh." "Shh." "It's OK." "Shh." "Quick, up you get." "Come on." "Samira!" "What's going on?" " I'm sorry, we have to go." " No way." "Why?" "Because the son is Hamas and he won't have me here." "He says it's his job to protect the family, not mine." "But they're taking me to see his brother in the morning." "Erin, we can't argue about this." "It's not safe." "And I can't get caught here by the Israelis." "They'll send me back to prison." "OK, fine." "Totally, you should go, but I'm not leaving, OK?" "Hey, what are you doing?" "Stay here." "Don't move." "Passport." "Are you ISM?" "Sorry?" "Write down there your name and address in Israel." "Erin?" "That's right." "And what are you doing here, Erin?" "Staying with friends." "Can I have my passport back, please?" "And this is where you live?" "Yeah." "What the fuck are you doing here?" "I have to get you out of here now or my parents are going to kill me." "I'm not going anywhere." "You're living in the house of a suicide bomber, Erin." "This isn't one of your moronic fucking adventures." " You're going to get your self killed." " No, I'm not." "Anyway, what are you doing here?" "They dragged me out here to bring you back, as a favour to my dad." "It's only because the commander knows him that you haven't been arrested already." "This whole place is going to be flattened in the morning." "Why?" "What's the point in that?" "There are little children in here." "Whatever the daughter did, that's wrong, you know it is." "Please!" "Spare me your crocodile tears for the family of a fucking terrorist!" "These are exactly the same as the people that tried to kill you and Paul, Erin!" "Got a ciggy?" "I thought you'd given up." "What the fuck are you doing in Gaza anyway?" "Gaza, for fuck's sake!" "I'm looking for my grandad's Palestinian family." "I told you." "Thanks." "Where did you get the gun?" "I'm not going back." "I'm staying here to fight." "I gave your father my word I'd bring you to the docks." "I promised him I'd protect you." "Then join us." "I can't." "Not like this." "There's a better way." "This way, this way." "Come on!" "Come on." "Stay." "What if I stay to fight in your place?" "Would you go then?" "Come on." "Don't make a liar out of me, Hassan." "Stay here." "I was aiming to miss when I saw it was you." "The MPs have orders to shoot you on sight." "You'd better get going." "What about you?" "You're a deserter too, aren't you?" "Leave it!" "And if I see you again, I won't be stopping for a chat." "Pull him back, pull him back!" "Follow me." "Let's go." "Come on." "Go on, go on!" "Rifle." "Give me the rifle, rifle." "Take this." "Wait here." "Come with me." "Why are you taking us this way?" "The Jews are moving away from the sea, not towards it." "You know why." "Because the docks are this way." "You'll stay and fight?" "Sure." " Thank you." " Never mind thank you." "Keep your head down and don't look back, all right?" "Go on." "You were a good teacher." "Go on." "Go!" "Go!" "No!" "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," "I'm sorry, 'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." "Give this back... to my father." "Promise me." "No, no, no, no!" "No, no, no!" "No!" "Fuck!" "I'm sorry." "Come on, let's move it." "Let's go." "Mind your step." "Mohammed!" "Sergeant Leonard Matthews, you're under arrest for desertion..." "Oi, come here!" "Handcuff him, hold him." "Hold it, get back." "Let's go, come on." "Let's go, come on." "Can't you just give me a couple of minutes?" "There's something I've gotta give someone, then you can do what you like with me." "Yeah, why not We'll just nip off for a quick cuppa and you can give us a shout when you're ready, yeah?" "Alec, Alec." "For God's sake, just get 'em to give me five minutes." "Can't do it, sarge." "I told you I'd get you on that boat." "Thanks, lads." "Alec!" "Alec!" "Alec!" "Samira!" "Why are they taking the girl?" "Samira." "They're taking her." "They're gonna occupy the brother's house." "They need a human shield." "Samira!" "Samira!" "Why don't you take me as well?" "She'll be calmer if I go." "This is brave." " You stay here." " Why?" "What are you going to do?" "You sing beautifully." "She's terrified." "Good." "She should be." "Her life is being destroyed." "What's your name?" "Erin." "And this is Samira." "Why are you here?" "I don't know." "I'm from England." "I suppose I'm trying to help." "Mm-hm." "I don't think you're succeeding." "You speak really good English." "How did you learn?" "My father taught me." "How did he learn?" "From you." "He used to work for the British Army when you ruled our country." "That's my grandfather." "That's my father." "And that is me." "Sorry." "It's not very clean, I'm afraid." "Thank you." "This is just a few weeks ago." "I think it's where you used to live." "Then I followed you to Hebron." "These are your cousins." "I know this isn't where you used to live but it's where they live now." "Your old house is just over here." "They told me that your father had moved to Gaza, so I came here, but I never thought I'd find you." "I don't understand." "Why did you follow us?" "I don't know." "My grandad's ill in England and I was reading his diary." "He talks a lot about Mohammed, that's what he called your father... and I thought he might like to know what happened to him." "He died." "Do you remember my grandfather?" "He was called Len." "Of course." "What was he like, as a young man?" "Did you know that my father offered him £3,000 to marry me?" "Which was a lot of money in those days." "No, I didn't." "I don't think the sergeant thought he was serious, but he was." "It was for the British passport, you see." "He never mentioned it in the diary." "May I see?" "I have very happy memories of your grandfather but my father was very angry with him." "Angry for many years." "Why?" "Because of my brother, Hassan." "He ran away when we went for the boats." "The sergeant promised he would bring him to us safely." "But he never did." "My father waited and waited." "But we never saw either of them again." "He tried." "He really did, it's all in here." "He... he deserted from the Army and went to look for him." "They... they fought together on the Arab side in Haifa." "He was just bringing him back to you when Hassan was shot by the Jews." "My grandad tried to save him, but he couldn't." "He died." "I'm sorry." "So..." "But I have something for you." "My grandad was trying to return this to you when he was arrested." "But he really did try and find your dad and give it back to him." "Hassan made him promise, so 'm sure he would have done it if he possibly could." "I know my grandad would want you to have it." "I'm sorry it's taken so long." "What are you doing?" "Right." "OK, come on." "OK, hold." "OK?" "Eliza?" "Eliza!" "If you want to blow up the house, you'll have to blow us up with it." "Don't do this." "It's wrong." "This is the house that I've been searching for." "That old lady's the daughter of my grandad's friend." "He died in this house." "They've been driven out of Haifa and out of Hebron." "Don't drive them out again." "I've got no choice." "Samira!" "Are you OK?" "I found these." "I'm sorry." " What are you doing?" " Searching for weapons." "No!" "Leave it!" "Leave it!" "Give it to me!" "Hi." "Hey, dude." "Sure we can't give you a lift?" "No, really, I'm fine." "I've got a taxi." "Thanks for everything." "I learned a lot." "Let me." "Thanks." "Will you be back?" "Why?" "What's the point?" "Because there's a lot to be done." "It was a very brave thing, Erin, what you did." " Is there anything else can get you?" " No." "Thanks." "I don't know what I feel now." "It's tough to see the British Army crawling away on its belly after winning the World War so bravely." "I suppose I feel embarrassed, and ashamed, like the whole thing was a failure." "We've left the Arabs In the shit." "I know that if I know anything." "But what about the Jews and their bloody state for which they've fought so hard?" "Three years ago I'd have said give 'em whatever they want." "They deserve it after all they've been through." "Now, I'm not so sure." "This precious state of theirs has been born in violence and in cruelty to its neighbours." "I'm not sure how it can hope to thrive." "And for myself?" "For myself, life as I've known it is over." "I feel I've let down everyone who ever trusted me." "I've got nothing to look forward to except a long stay in prison and a dishonourable discharge." "I'd like to think that one day" "I'll be able to find a way to return the key to Mohammed." "I owe him that, at least." "Though I'm not sure how I'd ever have the guts to face him, after what I've done." "Erin." "I'm back." "It's me, Erin." "I've been in Palestine." "I read your diary and I went to look for Mohammed's family." "I found Jawda, his daughter." "She still remembers you." "I gave her the key, Grandad." "I thought you'd want them to have it back." "I hope that's OK."