"Stay with us there in São Paulo... for this sensational São Silvestre." "Marathon." "the Military Police are getting ready." "there are 3 cars ready on the corner." "Just to confirm, Eurico." "the route is 9.5 km." "Ok." "8.1 km." "We confirm... that the 1979 São Silvestre route is 8.1 km." "We're entering 1980, a new decade." "Here's the countdown." "To inform..." "Everything's ready on the Avenue." "And they're off!" "they're off!" "Exciting, this São Silvestre!" "the greatest marathon in the world." "Here comes 465." "It's José Sena!" "Portugal's in the lead!" "Portugal's in the lead!" "José Sena's in the lead!" "We're on our way to 1980." "One day everything lost its sense and I wanted to die." "But I wasn't even able to kill myself." "I tad to suffer and be alone." "So alone, even my body tad abandoned me." "HAPPY OLD YEAR" "Back to life." "1980 begins today for me, you know..." "What?" "Those months in hospital doesn't count." "We're in May." "Right?" "April, man!" "For me it's still January." "My year begins now." "If it will ever begin." "It's begun, man!" "Happy New Year!" "Happy Old Year, you mean!" "C'mon!" "What shall I celebrate?" "You've come out of the hospital!" "You're alive!" "Let's go!" "It's bad to be late on the first day." "Hi... ls this Dr. Gisela's office?" "Yes." "Keep up the exercises." "'Bye doctor!" "Arnaldo." "What brings you here?" "l must talk to you." "I have a patient now." "Can you wait for a while?" "I'm in hurry." "Can't it be now?" "Not now." "Some other time." "No, forget it." "Let's go, Angela." "If you change your mind, make an appointment." "An appointment?" "Don't be so bureaucratic, Gisela." "You're Mario, right?" "Come in." "Do you feel it?" "No." " Do you feel it?" "No." "And here?" "No." "And here?" "A bit." "Here?" "More." "Here?" "Right." "Well, doctor?" "It's too early to say." "In medicine, each case is different." "Anything can happen." "Your case is difficult but not impossible." "Many can walk after physiotherapy." "Others recover arms or hands." "Arms or hands?" "But what about the legs?" "You want the truth, Mario, don't you." "Better to do physiotherapy, than make speculation." "Then the answers will come." "Ok." "How about we start on Monday?" "That's ok." "So, that's settled." "And why not call me Gisela... instead of doctor?" "Gisela, what I most want is to walk... and be a normal person." "Till Monday, Mario." "'Bye." "Wten I woke up I still remembered my dream." "My tead was served on a tray... and suddenly it rolled off... like a ball." "Good Morning?" "Do you want to take off the mask?" "What's happening?" "Nothing." "The operation is over and you're waking up." "Operation?" "What happened?" "Has something bad happened?" "My son..." "My son..." "I was just told." "What happened?" "Easy, son." "Speak mom." "What did the doctor said?" "It seems that you broke a vertebra and... there's pressure on the medula." "What does it mean?" "All she does is to cry!" "And it's your fault!" "So what?" "How long am I gonna be like this?" "I can't move anything." "Impressive!" "Don't worry." "You'll be Albright." "Everything possible is being done." "Don't worry." "Mom, am I staying here for too long?" "If so, don't leave me alone, please." "Mom, wtere do our dreams come from?" "I don't know, Mario." "Wty do you ask that?" "Let me see... I think they come from the sea, like waves." "Nigthmares too?" "No, not nigthmares." "Aren't nigthmares dreams as well?" "You're rigth." "Nigthmares too." "I like to dream, but wten I tave a nigthmare... I long to wake up." "Have you tad a nigthmare, Mario?" "those men that took Dad away." "We don't know wtere is te rigth?" "No." "is te dead?" "We've already talked about that." "Mario." "I don't think so." "I don't know." "Wtat if it's our nigthmare?" "then, it'll go back to wtere it came from." "Do you think I'll be like this for long, Edu?" "No, Belo." "You'll soon be bether." "Don't worry." "How can you tell?" "What do you know about it?" "If I don't know, why do you ask me?" "There's that guy from the first appointment." "Come on man." "Let's move." "You must use this part of the arm." "Easier said than done." "Just try." "Come on." "I can't." "That's enough for today." "We'll increase the exercises slowly." "This wheelchair doesn't help." "Shall we change it?" "What do you think?" "What if I start walking soon?" "Then you sell it." "Do you think it's gonna take so?" "I don't know Mario." "We both know... you won't be able to cope on your own for now," "Or do you want to live like a tree?" "You shouldn't let him... push you around all the time." "Try to get around on your own." "It's important." "O k, Gisela." "Everyday you say something different." "Yesterday you told me I am going to walk." "Today you say I won't." "I didn't say either." "I couldn't say... and you know that." "Let's go, Edu." "Bye Gisela." "They don't make "caipirinha" like they used to." "It's not like this." "Cut some limes and put them in a glass with some sugar." "Not like that!" "You gotha do acrobatics and shake it around." "And then you put a lithle vanilla in it." "Salvador, change the subject." "My mouth's watering!" "And here... they don't even let you have a beer." "Boy!" "Come here!" "Beginning?" "Yeah." "I won't tell you everyone's name..." "You'll forget anyway." "I'm Salvador, the "Saviour"." "Not that I can save anything." "I can't save myself." "What's your name?" "Mario." "Nice to meet you, Mario." "Tell everyone... a new animal's arrived at the zoo!" "Don't mind us, son." "We like making stupid joke here." "Mario." "How old are you?" "Twenty-two." "Finally someone of my age." "Of your age?" "If you're less than 30... I'll go to Rio by wheelchair!" "And don't come with that "young at heart" talk." "Only old folks say that!" "Are you tetra?" "Tetra?" "Tetraplegic." "The technical term for someone who can't move the arms and legs." "Salvador, for example, he's paraplegic." "He prefers a wheelchair... he's too fat for crutches." "So he's also tetra?" "Arnaldo?" "Yes." "He's mad too." "I don't know." "He was a motor cross champion." "He had an accident." "Understand?" "Hey!" "He's just fooling around." "What else do you know about him." "Not much." "He's been here for about 7 months." "7 months and he can't even move his hand?" "That's enough to drive anyone crazy!" "What about you?" "How much longer will you need to get bether?" "It depends on what do you mean by "get bether"." "I had polio. I nearly died." "So I'm much bether now." "I don't know if I'll get any bether than this." "But I'm alive." "I can work!" "What do you do?" "I make graphics for an advertising agency." "It's not the ideal but I have fun." "Are you sure you don't want a lift?" "No, thanks." "I'll stay." "I'm doing my physio." "Physio?" "Ok, see you." "Tetra, physio..." "A world of it's own, eh?" "Yeah." "Beto's a nice guy." ""Hi, boys!"" "Hi, Klauss!" "Wtat are you doing in São Paulo?" "I brought you a present." "A present?" "But why?" "What do you mean?" "It's a present!" "Lend me some scissors." "Let me unwrap it." "Yeah." "Look..." "And?" "Did you liked or not?" "It's great." "Hang it in place of the calendar." "A gift from the guys at home." "Chubby's idea." "Of course!" "Who else?" "What's up man?" "When are you coming back home?" "Don't know yet." "Like I'm now, it would be crazy." "I need the others even to shit!" "Edu would have to live with us." "Are you crazy?" "I'm not going to Campinas." "Just shithy soccer teams and fags!" "That's it." "Well, I began treatment this week." "I'm trying hard." "I have a chance." "You beet." "In three months time... I'll get the first train to Campinas." "The guy in your room'll have to go"" "What guy?" "Kidding." "Graduation got me out of Mom's touse rather than... into university." "Excited, then?" "I couldn't stand school anymore." "Think, 12 years in the same shit." "Must be of some use!" "Must be different now..." "Are you sure you want journalism?" "Look, you can see Campinas!" "Not a small town." "Will we be ok from now on?" "What?" "Are you scared?" "Already missing Mom?" "You crazy, Klauss?" "Who thought of graduating in Campinas?" "Besides, with this boot, I'm not scared of anything." "Boot?" "It's no use, Dad." "I'm tired." "Come on, Mario." "Don't be so lazy!" "Shit!" "That's all I needed." "Let's go quicker before, it start raining." "Quicker?" "Dad?" "Weren't scared, Dad?" "Mario, let me tell you a secret." "Every time I wear these boot... I'm never scared?" "The wood's, running out." "Don't worry, there's more back there." "Nice house, huh?" "A bit big, isn't it?" "But we'll get... some chicks to live with us." "Sure." "But first we gotta clean... so they don't get scared!" "This look like a hide-out!" "Don't start with me mother... entering college didn't help anyway." "When the chicks come, they will clean." "There." "With this joint... we'll be ok tomorrow in class." "Don't worry." "Nothing happens on the first day." "Classes only really get going after Carnival." "Just like sctool." "Wtat a mess!" "Elementary sctool or university." "We're still in Brazil." "And wtat's more, Campinas." "Better put out the fire before... we get roasted." "Crazy idea, lighting a fire in summer." "this is Sonia, the duckling." "Stortly the touse became intabited." "Or rather, occupied." "And it wasn't Klauss' cticks wto came." "this is Sonia, the duckling." "I'll kill my sister." "I'll." "She sends that girls in less than a month... without asking, or anything." "I can't stand 'Peter and the Wolf" anymore." "Especially that one movement... I forgot the key." "this is Sonia, the duckling." "Right, my dears." "I want someone to help me... clean the fish." "Chubby!" "Chubby!" "As her to stop!" "Why me?" "You go." "I got a lot to do." "Shit." "And she also sends a queen... who thinks he's housewife." "You wanted the house cleaned up!" "There!" "And the rent's cheaper." "Piss off Klauss." "You've been playing that for 2 hours!" "Damn!" "What do you want Mario?" "Do I have to stop studying so you guys..." "can pretend you're The Beatles?" "Pretend?" "Who's pretending?" "Which of us sounds like a country band?" "Give up, Sonia." "Go back to São Paulo and try anything... but music." "Mind your business." "You'll see me playing in an orchestra, honey." "Besides, the rent's paid." "I won't leave till I find other place to stay." "Can't you stop for a while?" "Ok... I'll take a break." "It's great, Mario." "Do you like?" "It's great." "Now we have to do the lyrics." "Did you like it, Chubby?" "This isn't plagiarism isn't it?" "No it isn't Chubby." "It isn't what?" "Nothing." "I was only remembering." "Can't do much more like this." "Better watching that shit on TV." "I love to recall something." "I always make a movie out of my past." "I make everything be nicer." "Even my parents seem nice." "It's funny." "The other day..." "Sonia told me she missed elementary school." "at that time, she must hated it." "Missing." "I think we miss the womb... as soon as we're born." "Who knows." "Everything I've been through... is better than this." "That's all for today." "It's going well!" "Good morning Arnaldo." "Go ahead with the exercises." "I'll be right here." "No, I don't think I'll do any." "In fact, I don't think I'm coming back." "You came to say that?" "I don't think it's good to stop." "That's up to me." "Of course." "I just want you to know what you're doing." "It's obvious, Gisela." "Sometimes the obvious it's the truth." "There's no room for fantasy." "That's your problem." "You only do the obvious." "You can't question... my professional competence." "What do you know about it?" "What do I know about it?" "Good one." "Do you, by any chance know what it's like to be like this?" "Would you stay calm... if you were in my situation, and that your doctor... is resigned about you state." "I'm not resigned!" "Yes you are." "You consider me a lost case." "Shut up, Arnaldo!" "That's not true." "If you feel this way don't blame others." "That's enough." "Excuse me." "Hey, it's ok." "Forget it." "Ana?" "Hi." "How are you?" "How did you find out?" "I bumped into Klauss." "It's crazy, huh?" "Two years... and then it's over." "Why didn't you tell me?" "I don't know." "I didn't think it mattered." "There's a parcel of your things in the closet." "I can't get at them." "They're down underneath." "Some clothes and books of yours." "I went to your place but you weren't there." "I was going to go back." "A good excuse to see you." "Why did you come here?" "I know..." "Why don't you go." "I hate this feeling of pity." "It's nor pity." "I'm here because I like you." "You like me?" "That's a good one." "You know, I stopped missing you after a while." "And after all that's happened..." "Bye, Mario." "Ana!" "Don't forget your things in the closet." "So that's Ana?" "She pissed you off, eh?" "Pissed me off?" "To hell with her." "I'm tired of complicated women." "Right on!" "That's the way women should be treated." "She'll be after you again any time." "Right, man." "That's enough." "I'll dry you now." "There's a babe waiting for me." "Hey, guy!" "I have some news to celebrate your first bath." "That's the first one." "Let me sit down." "Are you taking part in the race?" "Which race?" "The Wheelchair race." "Wheelchair race." "The fat one there..." "Salvador." "Yeah, he's taking part." "is he gonna fit... a hydrofoil to his chair?" "is anything wrong?" "No." "Everything is fine." "Great, tut?" "Why am I laughing?" "Ana dumped me... and I'm stuck in this wheelchair." "Forget it, man!" "I have other attractions for you." "How about that beauty?" "That'll beat Ana." "Wow!" "that's sexy!" "It cost a lot, but it was worth, et, Klauss?" "You bet!" "It's finished." "A handy manual!" "Did you buy it?" "Sure." "Take a look." "Which do you prefer?" ""The Beauty and The Ass", "Jones and his Organ"..." ""The Trucker and The Pussycat" or "Depravities of Suzy"?" "Any of them!" "Let me get "Percy" into action." "Ana was the sctool teart-throb" "An old passion." "Bet ste was dying to dance with me." "But tow can I ever approact women... like this?" "Soninha!" "Soninha!" "Soninta was definitely living with us." "this is Sonia, the duck." "Hey Mario!" "Mario!" "What's up, Mario." "Why didn't you wait?" "I thought you weren't coming today." "Of course I'd come." "Why did you think I weren't?" "I don't know." "You seemed quite busy." "You're not telling me that you ant her, are you?" "Who, me?" "Are you nuts?" "I don't want that slut." "I don't get it." "I wanted her to vanish." "That's all." "She and that fat one." "You wanted her." "Yeah, but I changed my mind." "Man, I think you're jealous." "I told you." "I'm not interested in Sonia." "Why do you have to insist?" "Jealous of me..." "Look guys, your athitude is... really worrying me." "Classes taven't even been going month... and you're like this." "You see, 90% of you taven't read... talf from the book." "this is not going to work." "this is not going to work." "I think you'd bether... ask yourselves wty are you tere?" "Excuse me, Rafael." "Can I give a notice?" "Not now, Ana." "Wait a moment." "I'm having a talk with these guys." "You may sit down if you want to." "Well, as I was saying... I think you'd all bether think... wty you ctoose this place... lt is necessary that you think... about what role you have in society as students." "Rafael!" "Rafael, I'm sorry, but I have to give out this notice to the others." "So I suggest we vote... to know if they want to hear or not." "Ok." "Let's vote then." "Who wants to hear this notice?" "See?" "90% in favor." "Yeah, probably the same ones who haven't read the book!" "Go on!" "Well, my name isAna... and I'm from the Freshmen Reception Commithee." "We'd like anyone who is interested... in music or arts... to come and see us tonight at 8h30 in the student center." "Thanks, Rafael!" "Now my colleague." "Look... I'm part of the Student Center." "And I'd like to ask you to come to our first meeting for the year... lt'll be in the auditorium." "Everyone stould be there." "It's important." "Ana!" "Ana!" "Ana!" "Klauss!" "How great you come here." "How great!" "I missed you!" "Hi Mario, how are you?" "Fine." "Bye, Ana." "See you later." "Bye, Klauss." "Have you been following me?" "First school and now here." "I swear I didn't know." "Must be destiny." "Anyway, looks like this is my last chance." "I've been here for a year." "You'll like it." "Let's go." "We are late." "Coming." "We'll see each other tonight." "Ok." "Do you wanna be my girl?" "What's that?" "What's what?" "That painting in the wall." "It wasn't there when we arrived." "Sure it was. I saw it, lt's great." "I thought you'd done it." "But I don't even know how to draw a lithle house." "Ctubby was the one wto gave the coup de grâce." "With Soninta's telp... ste took "Yes" as inspiration to conquer my teart." "Life was beginning." "everything was possible." "Chubby, my love." "Soninha, my love." "You win!" "The female spirit has taken over this house." "This is just the beginning." "You're coming off breastfeeding soon." "You'd better be careful." "Soon the course will be over... and you'll be like me... doing more and more courses just to stay in school." "Chubby, the course hasn't started and you're talking about leaving!" "I'm talking about something else, my darling." "You're right." "it goes quicker than you think." "Leave it, folks!" "In four year, we'll have another coffee..." "and talk about it." "l think so too." "Think that we'll stand... each other that long?" ""My dear, nobody can do anything to us"." "I wasn't at anything, Klauss." "Strain and fear took their toll." "I breathed teavily to get tired." "that was the only exercise I could do." "Wtat's wrong?" "Stomact acte!" "It's killing me!" "Give me an injection." "no, I can't ." "the doctor said you could if it turts a lot." "Ready!" "Aim!" "Don't kill my father!" "Fire!" "Mario!" "Hey, Mario!" "What dad?" "Did you call me?" "No, I mean..." "yes I did." "Why?" "Go on..." "say it!" "I'm scared." "Scared of what?" "Say." "I'm scared of never walking again." "But who told you you'd never walk again?" "No one, but..." "Don't cry, son." "I'm here with you." "But you can't help me." "You know that I can." "I just can't carry you... like when you were a child." "Remember?" "And I can't walk for you." "Now go to sleep." "Gisela!" "This victory is yours!" "Great, if you get to the end." "Leave it to me." "Salvador asked me to oil the wheels of his chair... yesterday." "He's taking it seriously." "Didn't he tell Gisela he wasn't coming anymore?" "Did you buy it?" "I know that kind of guy." "Look at this clothes." "Ready!" "Wheelchair race!" "This is Ridiculous!" "This is ridiculous!" "Who do you think you are?" "What's the prize?" "A job in a circus?" "Who wants to be the world's fastest paraplegic?" "Gisela, you're incompetent." "You can't fool me." "That's enough for me!" "Enough." "You'll never get anywhere with her." "That's what you want?" "You want to be a bunch of... useless idiot?" "But not me." "I'm getting out of here." "I'm leaving this shit." "Let's go!" "Let's go, Angela." "Hey..." "your face's smudged... I have a handkerchief." "take it out." "Come on Angela, let's go!" "Take it." "It's in my top pocket." "Come on Angela." "Arnaldo's not well." "Let go, I'll go alone." "You should come more often, Campinas is not that far." "Think we don't want to?" "There is so much to do at school." "And the money!" "This little trip's expensive." "We're kind of broke." "Go work, bum!" "Work." "Even graduated, there's no work!" "Imagine us." "It's the crisis." "Klauss, there are always odd jobs!" "I don't wanna kill myself for little money." "I'd rather be broke and do what I want." "And what do you?" "Piss of, Chubby." "What about our home?" "is it ok lt is ok." "We were thinking in talking with you about it." "Well, the rent's doubled." "and a friend of mine needs a room... for a while." "It's up to you." "Now I know why you came to visit me." "That's nothing to do with it." "It's only for a while." "If you don't want to, fine." "But since you room's empty, we thought..." "Ok." "Don't change anything." "Because by the time I recover, he moves out." "He may not even still be there then." "Shall we go to the movies?" "I'm not in the mood." "Come on, man." "It's not cool going to a movies with this wheelchair." "That's not a problem." "We'll lift you into a seat." "Plenty of brawn here." "Come on, Mario." "Your friends come to see you and you snob them." "Come with us, come sweetie." "Alright." "Klauss, call Edu." "He's in my room." "At Maracanã, Flamengo welcomes Internacional..." "Look." "The best of the show." "If this movie doesn't start soon I'm gonna fall asleep." "Wasn't you who wanted to come to the movies?" "Yeah." "But not to see this." "Everything ok there?" "l guess so." "Ages since I see a movie;" "I feel like it's the first time." "Would you excuse me?" "Can you move your leg so I can pass?" "I'm afraid that's not possible." "Not possible?" "The place is full and there's a seat right there?" "yeah, but I had an accident and I can't..." "And so what?" "I've had various accidents too." "Are you trying to make fun of me?" "It's serious, I can't move my leg." "Can't you go round the other way?" "Sit down, will you?" "Quit fuckin' around." "Shit!" "He's paralyzed!" "I liked your idea." "I didn't feel like facing a crowded bar." "When this is over, we could go away." "What do you think?" "Go away?" "Where?" "I don't know." "Get away from it all." "Just think!" "Different places, different people... when we get bored we move on." "We just can't sit here doing nothing." "And?" "Are you in?" "Yeah, maybe." "Sure!" "It'd be great!" "States, Japan, Europe." "We can't stop." "The world!" "Get ready, 'cause here we go" "Roller-Coaster." "Like on it, everything went quickly and... together, we kept eact other's fears away." "the key to it all was the movement." "Not even the loneliness reacted us because in movement... you are in nowtere." "sometimes I was scared it could be over." "How did he do that?" "I don't know." "That's crazy." "Although in Arnaldo's case... lt looked like he'd never recover." "Yeah, could be." "But at this point, what difference does it make?" "What do you mean by that?" "For you, he killed himself because he couldn't walk?" "Sure." "Or do you think it was his twenties crisis?" "No, I don't think so." "Why, then?" "For no thing." "For nothing?" "Or for you think people kill themselves for a reason?" "Sometimes, in the studio, I feel like drawing." "Drawing something that no one asked me to do." "I spend hours staring at a blank paper and... come here." "Look at this paper and try to project images onto it." "Imagine a drawing, for example." "Your drawing." "The colors and shapes that pass your head... that are capable to express at least now... wtat you fell." "But be tonest." "Without convincing yourself of any solution that... sets you free from that quickly." "It's no good." "I can't be bothered." "Anyway, what does this have to do with Arnaldo's death?" "Nothing." "Nothing." "I was tem years old wten I tad my first contact... with death." "My father disappeared from one day to the next." "Kidnapped by the military regime." "I never saw tim again." "My father, wto always seems so so strong and eternal, was dead." "For the first time, I realized tow tenuous life is." "And wtat seemed absurd, became reality." "After so long... it was an illusion to believe that te tad just disappeared... go on looking and asking for explanation... for the kidnapping of an innocent person." "My tusband couldn't be called called a guerilla." "He didn't even belong to any... illegal opposition movement." "But it seems it's enougt to believe in democracy... figth for democracy to be called subversive." "Terrorism is set us in order to combat terrorism." "And all those years... a great part of our lives is lost forever." "There is no possible compensation." "Of course, justice is fundamental, But I mean something else." "I mean living with dead and fear." "Especially with fear." "That us the veil... which death separates us from life." "When we are surrounded by fear we are immobilized... and nothing means anything anymore." "I don't know if you understand, but they spread this fear." "This emptiness... through us all." "You've forgotten the pain, Mom." "the anguist that is born with us and they increased." "the lump in your throat that gets bigger. lt's always tere." "Wtat do I do with it, Mom?" "Arnaldo found the answer." "No." "He found a solution for a lack of answers." "You're always contrary." "But I wanted to know what he felt when he did that." "What he was thinking." "What he was thinking or what you think?" "Gisela, him, me it's all the same." "We were normal... and then, we ended up like this." "Almost no hope" "You don't want to see it... but you've overcome important stages." "There's been some recovery." "These stages don't exist for me." "What's winning at the moment is my shitty destiny." "It's monumentally and absurdly unfair." "I agree, Mario." "But whose unfairness?" "Try to remember the day..." "l'd rather not." "All I can do is think about what came before." "Try to find out when I had no way out." "I envy Arnaldo, he was not a coward." "He wasn't afraid of killing himself." "I don't think that living is being coward." "Would you accept it if I killed myself?" "Do you really want to kill yourself?" "Ok!" "Ok!" "I want to know if you can take it if I kill myself." "Ready?" "Ok." "The things you invent..." "l needed to talk to you." "Wty?" "." "About wtat we talked the other day." "What?" "Arnaldo." "I was wondering." "I think I got it, But I'm afraid." "And who isn't?" "I know, but I think I'm not such a brave man." "I'm too afraid of what is coming." "And you want me to help you." "Help you to overcome the fear." "Not exactly." "You want me to pity you?" "I don't want anyone to pity me." "The pity you've got is quite enough." "Come on, Beto!" "I've never seen you like this." "I don't think you understood... a word I said to you." "If you had understood, you wouldn't be here." "Why?" "Cause you'd have realized nobody can help you... not even me." "Nobody can destroy your fear." "l know that." "No, you don't." "Sorry. I think I've been a little too hard." "But what can I tell you?" "I don't know anything." "I don't want to be a father." "Not even a friend." "You know we are." "lt can be." "Well, I'll leave." "Maybe there's a way to get rid of fear." "Believe, find out what the game is and play." "They didn't expect this, uh?" "Let's see if he doesn't see us this time." "Look!" "The Dean!" "Look!" "the Dean!" "Son of a bitct, go back tome!" "Down the Dictatorstip!" "Down the Dictatorstip!" "Down the Dictatorstip!" "I don't know wty I entered the student movement." "Certainly, it wasn't just for all those ideas... I thougth I believed in." "Attention, folks!" "Attention!" "The Dean sent us a message saying that... he wants to talk to us tomorrow." "We have to choose a committee and make a proposal." "The meeting is open." "Fellows, I think it's time we show our strength." "We've been demobilized all these years... by this dictatorship which has killed many people." "We've seen the demonstrations in downtown São Paulo... that drew the support of the whole population." "We hadn't seen that since 68, fellows." "So I propose, we take up a position of strength." "With no negotiation." "And yet, having a general strike... until our aims are met." "Ok, fellow." "I also have a proposal." "Klauss always made tis anarctic proposals... wtict were always defeated." "Amazingly, this time te won." "the Dean wants to see us." "One moment, I'll see if he can see you." "Did you see the old lady's face?" "You can come in." "Fellows!" "Fellows!" "We weren't respected!" "The Dean didn't answer to any of our requirements... and he gave us up to midnight to get out of here." "Son of a bitct!" "Son of a bitct!" "Son of a bitct!" "Son of a bitct!" "Son of a bitct!" "Son of a bitct!" "Seven o'clock." "Do you think they'll break in?" "lt seems so." "More troops are here." "They're not kidding, They're going to beat everyone." "We gotta beat it!" "You're nuts, Klauss." "It'll be a rout." "Come on." "You wanna get beaten up?" "Nobody wants, but we gotta go all the way." "Why?" "is anyone here a Kamikaze?" "All right, up to now, it's been ok... but you know that somebody could get killed... in a joke like that?" "This is no joke, Klauss." "Do you think so?" "Look, you think my father died for a joke?" "It's politics!" "If you didn't know, you shouldn't have come." "What's up with you?" "Police is out there surrounding us..." "and you're discussing?" "No, ok, ok." "Some people here want to pretend they're in guerrilla... in the backyard of the university." "Don't find an excuse for your fear, Klauss." "If you're scared, you can go." "Fuck you." "Why are you laughing?" "You discussing." "It's very funny." "Besides, since you joined the students' movement..." "you've been so serious." "Yeah... I'm taking what I do seriously for the first time." "What's so funny?" "Nothing." "Why are you so mad at Klauss?" "Are you jealous... because his proposal won at the meeting?" "Go to hell!" "You watch how you talk to me!" "I don't feel like tolerating that anymore." "Besides, I've had just enough." "Really?" "So get out!" "I'll get out, but first I'll tell you just one more thing." "Anger doesn't make good politics... if you want to revenge your father..." "you chose the wrong way." "This is my decision!" "I still looked for you througt all that smoke... but you tad gone." "At that time, alone... I asked myself if I really believed in something." "Like now." "Wtere tave you been, Ana?" "If you at least opened this door and came to visit me." "You never visited me." "And without you it's even more difficult... to believe it's possible to get out of tere." "Are you still awake?" "Insomnia." "Do you want me to prepare some tea and help you to lay down?" "No, it's not necessary." "Just turn the TV off." "What kind of talk is that?" "Where's the photo with Klauss?" "I removed it." "What about this?" "is it gonna be this way?" "What do you mean?" "White, like this, with nothing." "It's even irritating to keep looking." "I don't know yet." "I hope not." "l need to find the images." "Images?" "What images?" "If I knew that, I wouldn't be looking for them." "It's a kind of game." "Yeah, kind of... I feel like drawing on this screen." "What would you draw?" "A colored sun." "Like this one." "Where did you get this?" "A friend of yours came here to drop it." "She also left a message." "Can I read it?" "You read it already." "l didn't." ""l'm sorry for not returning the handkerchief before." "I didn't forget that." "I had an idea and I needed it for some time." "If you want to know why, come to see my work." "Angela"." "lt's a little higher." "there?" "A bit more to the left." "Almost!" "Ready?" "That's it. I can see it!" "That's it!" "How beautiful!" "It's been a long time I didn't see that!" "Nice you came back, I thougth I'd never see you again." "Did you?" "Liar!" "It hurts!" "Poor boy." "Did the police beat you up?" "Yeah. I'm tired of being beaten up." "Oh, come on." "You were not beaten that much." "is that your opinion?" "It was enough for me." "Have you noticed we haven't won anything so far?" "Oh, that's not exactly right." "Ana, I'm serious." "Come on, Mário." "Serious." "We've discussed before because of that." "Yeah, I didn't like that talk of yours... saying that I was kidding." "I didn't say that." "But anyway..." "You could have said that." "No, not at that time." "Then I was wondering... I remembered children... always take their games really seriously." "I even got a present for you." "Look." "Do you like it?" "I drew it on this handkerchief when I was seven." "I was playing." "Really seriously." "I think I understand what you mean." "But I don't know if I agree... that everything we do is some kind of game." "I didn't say some kind of game." "So?" "Isn't it pretty?" "It's beautiful, but that's not what I meant." "For example, I'm leaving the movement..." "Don't you think it's absurd to leave after so much discussing?" "Yes, but that's how it goes." "Now you want something else." "What?" "How do I know?" "Look!" "What?" "The moon, come to see it." "Not bad, uh?" "I talked to Klauss." "I'm going back to the band." "I'm exhausted." "We walked all night." "Do you want to sleep a little?" "But only if you dream of me." "l don't dream of you often." "No?" "This is a problem." "Really?" "Maybe." "Don't you remember any dream?" "Erotic or not?" "Come on, don't be a fool and tell me the prettiest one." "I'll tell you the one which impressed me most." "It's funny because it's a repeated dream." "I dreamed we were in a beautiful beach... and you took me to a cave..." "The Devil's Cave?" "No, not that one." "I remember you said it was yours... and you went there since you were a child." "When we arrived there, it was almost dark." "The cave was really dark... and the noise of the sea was heard inside." "You started showing me a lot of things that shone... in several parts of the cave." "They shone when we saw and they disappeared again." "Nice!" "Yeah, but there was something that bothered me." "It was the fact of never seeing the whole cave." "I really felt like turning on a light... and light up everything inside." "How terrible!" "Why?" "You'd ruin everything." "But go on!" "Suddenly I was scared." "I wanted to leave, but you held me back... and held me tight... we started kissing and then, soon we were making love." "Was it good?" "Awesome!" "When I left, I wasn't afraid anymore... and the sun was rising." "Like now." "Yeah." "Did you know she was a ballerina?" "No, I didn't know anything." "I thought she was a bit weird in those dark clothes... and the eyes made up black." "Looked like Arnaldo's shadow." "Right, it was a surprise to me." "She looked quite different." "Beautiful, man." "Really beautiful, dancing there." "So what?" "Did she tell you why she'd sent the invitations?" "No, but this is obvious." "The set had been copied from my handkerchief." "I know." "But what did she say when she saw you?" "Nothing." "I mean... I didn't talk to her." "You're kidding." "Why?" "What would I say?" "She invited you, she might want to see you." "I got it." "If I were you, I'd talk to her, chat her up... and then it'd be one step for having sex, right?" "Where did you get that idea from?" "That's ok, Beto." "I know guys like you." "They talk, talk, talk, but they're always alone." "I've never seen you with a woman." "See, we're discussing again." "I'm sorry, I think I got what you mean." "I didn't go there because I was scared." "Fear, it's always it." "But do you still want to talk to her?" "Sure, but I think this is not the right time." "And what time will that be?" "The day you start walking again?" "So when?" "Can I leave?" "Only when I start to talk to her, I told you." "Let's come closer, otherwise she won't see you." "Wait for the people to leave and don't piss me off!" "Would turn off this shit, Edu!" "Let's go." "Slow down." "Hey, Angela!" "What now, Belo?" "Let's go away." "I don't know why I did this crazy thing of coming here." "Hello, Ana?" "This is Mário." "I really wanted to see you." "I explain it to you later." "Where?" "What an idea to choose this place." "It used to be great, you know?" "I like it here." "My father used to bring me to watch the planes." "It's nice to see the city from here." "Makes you feel like traveling." "So..." "why did you want to see me?" "To say I'm sorry." "I don't think I was very nice to you the last time." "No, you weren't." "I was sad when I left your place." "Now what?" "Now, I don't know." "After all this time, I think I understand." "Do you still like me?" "How about you?" "l missed you." "You know, Ana, I wanted you to know... that I still really like you... I love you." "This is not true." "It's been almost a year... this feeling of yours is not with me." "It couldn't be." "After all, you madam are now a married woman." "I am and what's the matter for you to talk like that?" "Now I need to tell you something." "I wouldn't even look for you this time." "l'm expecting a baby." "Rafael's?" "Of course." "Who else's?" "Do you like him?" "You wanna stay with him all your life?" "I want to have the baby." "You know what I think?" "I think it's crazy." "It seems you are the same person, aren't you?" "Everything you don't understand and it scares you... you call crazy." "Bye, Mário." "Hey!" "Why didn't you wake me up?" "I'm going to São Paulo." "I'll spend the weekend there." "So I'll meet you there tomorrow." "is it ok?" "lf you want to." "What about you?" "Do you?" "If you want." "Bye." "Hi!" "What took you so long?" "I was leaving." "Why?" "You got a date?" "I wanted to be alone." "Mário, what's going on?" "What?" "It's our relationship." "I don't know if I still like you." "It was nice at the beginning." "We spent all the time together." "It was good." "But then I don't know what happened." "I feel I'm kind of distant from everything." "Pissed off." "I want to give it a break." "What about you?" "Please, Ana, don't cry." "Make things easy." "Make things easy?" "How can you be such a coward?" "Why coward?" "Please, Ana, I'm so confused." "I don't know if I take up music or if I assume the course." "I don't know." "I don't know." "That's all I can say." "Ana!" "Please, give me this break." "Maybe we'll see each other again." "I was a bit fearful of losing Ana." "But at the same time, I tad the feeling... it wasn't me wto decided." "It tad to be that way." "After a wtile, I missed ter." "I missed ter and regretted that." "Do you want anything, boss?" "Hey, man!" "What's up?" "Get out of that hammock cause we're starting rehearsals." "Rehearsals?" "What for?" "The people of our class... decided to have an end-of-term party." "We have a week to get the music together." "End of what if I haven't been to classes for over a month." "You're gonna be lovesick for the rest of your life?" "Ana is not worth it." "That's up to me, man." "She wasn't just any old screw." "She gave me a lot." "l bet!" "Don't be such a jerk, Klauss." "Have you noticed every time we talk about women... you low the tone." "And what's so bad about sex?" "I don't know." "Sounds like a scared cat jerking off." "Anyway, I'm talking about something different." "I've always hated the word... but I feel like a failure." "You know the feeling of having lost something very nice... because of your fear, lack of confidence, I don't know." "I see." "But so what... the guys are gonna set up a great sound equipment... a really good equipment, just for us." "Are you in or out?" "Don't you wanna be a pro?" "Pro?" "I don't know what I want to be." "Don't be a fool, come on." "All right." "Maybe I cheer up." "If I took" "A xerox Xerox" "Of my tead the paper'd stow weird dots" "Traces of oxygen Clouds of smoke" "And a lot of gas Tear gas" "If I took" "A xerox" "Of my teart in my veins Webs of lanes" "Crammed with spiders Lipstick, borsct" "And pure Pure tomato sauce" "If I took a xerox" "Lewd and crude" "A frontal nude" "Just to know lf deep down there's something wrong I know I'd see the wires are bare" "Spreading out adrenalin all the time" "Everywtere" "If I took" "A general xerox" "Just to know lf it's true that I'm not coming thru I know I'd see a tangled mess of tracks of wires" "An anarctical confusion a mosaic illusion" "Of artifacts" "What's up?" "Are you there?" "I was looking for you." "Yeah?" "What for?" "For nothing." "l liked." "What?" "The show, of course." "You played quite well." "Yeah." "It was good." "Klauss said he had others in mind." "Right." "You don't sound very pleased, do you?" "It' nice." "At least it's something to be done." "You just don't have to think about it too much." "That woman..." "ruined you." "It wasn't her, it was me." "I have to grow up." "That's not easy, honey!" "And I don't even know if it's useful." "Chubby!" "Don't you sometimes wonder what you're gonna do?" "I've been through that stage." "Now I think about what life is gonna do with me." "I've got to go." "This conversation is getting serious." "Hey, Mário, come here!" "Uncle Scrooge buried some treasure down here." "Uncle Scrooge." "Wtere did you get that idea from?" "Klauss, what's the matter with you?" "Come on!" "I was looking for a treasure." "Go look some place else, right?" "Man, look." "Look at Mário up there." "Klauss, I'm gonna find the treasure you hid." "I saw wtat I'd been scared to see all the time." "The beginning of it all." "It wasn't easy, but I couldn't stop looking." "You know, you're the first person... I've been able to tell what happened." "Now what?" "Now what?" "Now you've seen the first images." "I don't know." "I wanted to see more and record them, some way." "I'm afraid of forgetting." "Maybe painting, like you do on your pictures." "My pictures are not a good example. I don't like them." "Why?" "I don't know if you'll understand." "I paint cause I can't stand the white of the screen." "I'm not like you." "I don't know." "I like your pictures." "They're a passtime." "While you don't find what you've been looking for." "I've been tired of looking." "You don't always find something." "Did you know that?" "Maybe I can help you." "l don't know if it's possible." "What about Angela?" "Have you talked to her?" "Hey." "Who is there?" "Angela!" "Who is it?" "It's me, Mário." "Do you remember me?" "Of course I do." "Why do you always make up your eyes like that?" "That's a secret!" "I think it's nice, but I'm curious..." "Could it be that... I thought I'd never make love to a woman... after Ana." "You also thought, you'd never walk again." "But I can't walk." "That must be becoming adult." "I don't know." "Suddenly everyone goes off." "We separate, and we know a lot of things... which seemed endless, one day are over and become past." "Maybe this is good, Klauss." "I don't know if it's good or bad, I just know it is." "Ok, all up." "At last." "Come on, let's go." "Bye, little house!" "Come on, let's go." "Otherwise this man will throw our things down." "You can go." "I just want to get in." "Klauss will go back with me later." "Bye, then, honey!" "We'll see each other in São Paulo." "What a mess, Klauss?" "Do you remember?" "It seems like the day we arrived here." "Now we ligth the fire and roll a joint." "Yeah." "Chubby's Heaven." "More like Chubby's hell." "What about Chubby, Klauss?" "Where is she going now?" "Back to Campinas after the vacation." "She's gonna live nearby." "Seems she got into the Greek Department." "Greek?" "This is great." "What does she have to be with it?" "With Greece, olive oil." "With the letters... that soup she prepared for us once in a while." "Soninha is all right." "She's off to the US for as long as she can stand it." "We were the ones who wanted to travel." "Yeah." "Has she given up the music?" "Kind of." "She was upset after failing the exam... for the university orchestra." "Again?" "That's bad, man." "Yeah, but she didn't study." "Just as well, uh?" "Just the same, except for the dust." "Leave it for the next tenant." "Hey, look." "Get them for me." "They stayed here." "I had forgotten them." "The courage boots." "Put them on for me." "Ok." "What about you, Klauss?" "Me?" "I also needed boots like these." "I'll stop studying for a while." "Think about what I want to do." "What about the band?" "Practically finished." "People don't have money even for the rent." "Nobody can live on an allowance." "especially in times of crisis." "Right!" "Just clean them and they'll look fine!" "Want to borrow them?" "No." "I'm a different size from you." "Do you remember?" "So you really don't know what you're gonna do?" "I'm not worried." "I've done a lot of things... lf l wanted I'd have a lot." "But I think it's not time to do something." "I'm kind of lost." "Life is a mess of things tard to understand." "You can go on." "No, it's ok, I spent the day doing this." "I'm kind of tired." "What's up, Ana?" "I came to give you a tug." "May I?" "Seasons greetings?" "I came to say goodbye, I'll live in Recife." "Rafael will teach there." "I wish I had come before... but I was in doubt, after that day at the airport." "Why?" "I wasn't very nice with you." "I thought you were hating me." "l never hated that much." "No?" "What about the kid?" "It's ok, but we have time." "One more northeast person for the humankind." "What about that?" "What's it?" "How do I know?" "My mother gave me a typewriter... and I'm looking for something to make time pass." "Come on." "Say it seriously." "lt's ok." "Everything which is shown there, I write." "They're things that happened in my life..." "and I think it's important." "Funny." "I mean, they didn't happen exactly like that." "I think they're the truest lies I ever invented!" "What about me?" "Am I there?" "You?" "Of course you are." "Mário, I wanted you to know I really admire you... your courage to face all of this alone." "I don't know if it's courage." "Did I have any choice?" "You know, Ana, I think you are a person..." "Bye." "Hey, Mario, aren't you getting ready?" "Happy New Year, son!" "Hey, Mom." "Good bye Old Year Happy New Year" "May your wistes come true During the New Year" "A lot of money in the pocket Health for you to give or sell" "Good bye Old Year Happy New Year" "May your wistes come true During the New Year" "Ridiculous." "To the rest of the decade!" "To the rest!" "You wanna go out?" "No, I'm gonna stay here longer." "So come to the living room for a while." "Was the typewriter a good idea?" "You never leave it alone." "The best present since the guitar, Mom." "Go ahead. I'm coming." "Do you want me to close it?" "One day everything lost its meaning and I wisted to be dead." "But I couldn't even, kill myself." "I tad to suffer and be alone." "So alone that even my body tad left me." "HAPPY OLD YEAR"