"* home, is this my home?" "* * been starting over * * bathe in the water *" "* home, is this my home?" "* * been starting over * * bathe in the water *" "* home, is this my home?" "* * been starting over * * bathe in the water. *" "Mr. Tomasson, are there or are there not" "Statutes on the books outlawing polygamy?" "I believe there are, sir." "And yet the attorney general has appointed you" "To manage what?" "To manage the assets of the u." "E.B.'s trust." "To manage assets for a polygamist sect." "The u.E.B. Is just a front for organized crime-- a racket." "Those assets should be seized or remitted to the state" "To compensate for welfare fraud and tax evasion." "Representative colburn, the law doesn't permit me" "To seize any assets, so what exactly would you have me do?" "Bulldoze the compounds;" "prosecute all polygamists." "Isn't this just common sense?" "Am I the only one who cares about this issue?" "Their ranks are growing." "They're here in salt lake city," "In the suburbs, living under the noses of law enforcement," "Violating the most basic precepts" "Of decency and morality," "Exploiting the system while authorities turn a blind eye." "When do we finally say enough is enough?" "* don't you hear the bells a'ringin'?" "* * can't you hear * * the angels singin'?" "*" "The hearse is outside to take him to the viewing." "The crowds are amassing." "Oh." "I'm so happy he's waiting for me in heaven." "He leaves such huge boots to fill." "There's no one, no one." "I don't sense papa's spirit has yet left this earthly plane." "I very much feel he remains here with us," "And that he may need me to give voice to his wishes." "Are you still gonna try to kill me?" "Take the coffin out the back." "If you need more security, call for it immediately." "Woman on tv:" "An object of devotion to thousands," "Roman grant died alone, a fugitive in mexico." "His frozen body was driven back by refrigerated truck" "Here to his juniper creek compound," "A final return that one of this followers compared" "To lincoln's final journey home to springfield." "Coming from satellite compounds in kansas, montana," " Mexico and canada." " Look, it's lettie and ruth." "And who will be the next prophet, sheila?" "No one knows." "Grant died without a named successor" "And the internal workings of the sect are secretive and unknown." "I just need a list of her vaccinations, j.J." "Come right back down." "Oh, you're home." "I did not say that, you did." "i" " J.J. Again." " How dare you suggest that I am being impertinent?" "Don't go there." "Don't even start!" "They have some things to work out, bill." " Hey, where'd this come from?" " Barb said someone delivered it." " Lunch is ready." " This is unbelievable." "I don't have time for this." "Can you just send the vaccinations?" "We thank you for the gift of guidance" "To grow in wisdom." "Bless this food for our use and help us put our faith" "In you into action." " Margie:" "Bill?" " Amen." "Amen." "Honey, could you pass the potato salad?" " They're coming after us." " Who is?" "I was at a hearing this morning with the new trustee." "Roy colburn, the representative from west jordan," "Was haranguing him, deriding polygamy and the compound," " Calling for its destruction." " Who does he think he is?" "He's running for bob hayes's seat in the state senate." " Everyone says he's a shoe-in." " He can't do anything to us." "He's using the publicity surrounding roman's death" "As an opportunity to demonize us all." "He's talking about enforcement, prosecutions, witch hunts." "He hasn't won the election yet." "Who's running against him?" "I think I might have to do it myself." "Wayne, what did I tell you?" "Be careful about leaving your pool toys around for everyone to trip on." "Bill?" "Don't you see?" "He's just starting with the compounds," "Then he's coming after all of us." "He'll tear families apart, throw people in jail." "Running for office?" "You're not serious." "Honey, believe me, I'm as surprised as you are." "And I'm struggling with this," "But someone has to defend the principle." "Someone has to fight back." "Dad, you're a polygamist." "Yes, I'm aware of that, sweetheart." "You can't run." "You'd be exposed." "We all would." "Maybe that's a chance we all need to take." "No, bill." "I mean, we'll be exposed" "Before you even make it out of the starting gate." "We gotta take a close look at that and test it." "I believe I've received a revelation" "From heavenly father to serve." "Well, it makes sense to me." "What?" "It's clear that bill has a calling." "I'm sure of it." "Just maybe the wires got a little crossed." "Maybe you're meant to be the next prophet of juniper creek." "Good gravy, nicki!" "I think that's what this revelation is really about." " No, I don't think so." " Let's all just take a deep breath." "This is-- this is an awful lot to think about." "No, barb, it isn't." "It's nuts." "We just opened a casino." "Which is the thing that would make this all possible." "And barban be up there when I can't be," " As my eyes and ears." " We have so much going on." "And we're just barely back together," "I mean, as a family." "We have to defend our most fundamental beliefs, marge," "Whatever the consequences, whatever the sacrifice." "And by the way, I wasn't looking for an argument." "He wasn't even really asking for our opinion, was he?" "i- - " "Scott!" " I've got lunch." " Great." "I'm starving." "How were things at the house?" "Another day, another revelation." "This time my father's running for political office." "What is in the water over there?" "I know." "Please save me from this madness." "I'd love to." "Let's just do it." "Oh, we were gonna wait until we were married, remember?" "That's exactly what I'm talking about." "Let's get married..." "Now." "Are you kidding?" "Why are we spending weeks looking for a church" "That neither of us believes in anyway?" "I want to be with you," "But I really can't take it much longer." "Let's just" " I mean, we've been super self-disciplined." "Let's just do it with a justice of the peace..." " Downtown." " What about my family?" "We'll tell them after." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Yes." "yes." " Okay." " Yay!" "Well, it takes a day or so to get the license." "I'm so happy." "I looked over the receipts last week from albertsons, nicki," "And costco's has better deals on paper products." "I really think that we should talk about the" "No talking about it, margene." "So do make the extra effort to get toilet paper" " And paper towels at costco's." " I was running late." "It's all the way across town." "This is the biggest decision in the history of this family." "You cannot just stick your head in the sand." "Well, it's a terrible idea, if you ask me." "And I especially don't want to hear the word "prophet" again, nicki." "I want to talk about "profits."" "I want to talk about profits as in cash." "If we're exposed, my business goes kaput." " Nicki:" "Oh!" " Oh, I'm sorry." "Are you forgetting how much you're enjoying" "That new microwave I just bought you, nicki?" " You bought her a microwave?" " Yes, I did." "Well, I don't think we can accept this, margie." "This isn't just about my business." "This is about this family's welfare." "All right, but despite everyone's best efforts" "To get me rattled," "Bill said he is just testing the waters." "The fact is, bill should be prophet." "he is meant for something much larger" "Than some menial desk job." "Why would you want that when you know" "How that would tear this family apart?" "Where does this come from?" "I've always wanted it." "You have never spoken of it, not once." "Maybe I never had the nerve." "This isn't the most hospitable environment" "To share one's innermost dreams." " I think this is our destiny." " Our destiny?" "Yes, marge, something you would know nothing about" "Having grown up in a trailer." "Nicki, if this is displaced grief," "You need to have a long, serious cry for your father." "That's so pat." "Then why?" "Why are you pushing for this?" "Just give me one good reason why bill being prophet" "Of juniper creek makes any sense at all." " Barb" "I just want to put in a word for free enterprise." "This is america, people." "This meeting is adjourned." "The u.E.B. Trust, the whole system roman set up is corrupt." "Colburn was right on that score." "Yes, but reverting to private property" "Would pretty much break up juniper creek altogether." "No, colburn wants to break it up." "I want to see it become what it was meant to be" "A community," "With schools and clinics and services." "I don't think it's our job to foment a revolution down there, bill." "It's a relic from the 19th century." "Roman grant is dead." "Dale, this is a once-in-a-lifetime chance." " - - margie:" "Bill..." "I just have to be careful." "I've become the face of " hearts on a sleeve."" "Not now, margie." "And if you run and we're exposed," "It could destroy everything that I've worked so hard for." "Imagine if you lost home plus." "Heavenly father said that honor was meant to be two." "I'm just saying" "His messages can get a little cloudy, that's all." "Okay, sweetie, enough." "Hey, I wasn't done." "Nicki?" "Do you know how much she's making" "Selling that tv trading post junk to shut-ins?" " Look what I found." " It is none of our business." "Oh, my" "You need to tell bill." "Well, you're assuming she hasn't already." "All right, I will." "Nicki, there is something you should know." "A part of why bill thinks he can do this thing now," "That we won't be so vulnerable to exposure," "Is that ray henry delivered his files to him." " What?" " All the files" "His and the fbi's that they've been keeping on us," "On you." "They never had any real evidence." "Do you understand?" "The persecution's over." "He's leaving town." "So it's, um" "It's really over, nicki." "Oh, no." "Hi." "I know you did me a favor and closed the file." "And..." "Thank you." "And I wanted to tell you it's been a struggle over these past weeks" "Trying to get my life back together," "And it's meant a lot just knowing you were out there," "Close by." "I was having you investigated." "I know." "You know what?" "Don't ow up all doe-eyed" "Expecting some warm reunion, okay?" "'cause my job is at a dead end and I have to move three states away." " Why?" " "why?"" "Because you ruined my life, thank you very much." "I fell for you so hard." "And blowing the case of the century?" "It's not exactly a great career move." "Don't you understand?" "I believed I had to do whatever my father asked of me." "He was my prophet too." "I was taught to obey his every word." "Well, now you're gonna have to find some new beacon in the night" "Because it's not gonna be me," "Not anymore." "You know, you messed up my life too." "Everything was fine until you came along." "Now nothing makes sense." "Everything that used to be okay isn't," "And I have all these feelings that I've never had before" "And I" " I have no idea what to do with them." "Well, why don't you just stuff them back in the bottle?" "I've tried." "Well, then I feel sorry for you too." "Hi." "Your mom told me you were back from school this weekend." "You didn't return any of my calls," "And I understand why." "Heather, you were right." "I was selfish" "And I abused our friendship." "And I'm sorry." "Okay." "Anyway," "Scott and I are getting married." "When?" "At 4:00, the day after tomorrow at city hall." "Wow." "Congratulations." "Your total is $4.68." "Heather." "It was nic seeing you, sarah." "i- - " "I'm not taking no for an answer." "There are other customers behind you." "Heather, I'm getting married, and I want you to be my witness," "Because I can't imagine going forward in my life" "And you not being a part of it." "I'm unemployed," "So I can sit here all day" "And just wait until you change your mind," "Forgive me and say yes." "Okay." "Okay, what?" "Okay, yes." "i- - - man:" "Come on!" "I thought this was your husband's office." "Uh, well, apparently I've become" "My husband's eyes and ears." "And it might interest you to note," "I am on the board of weber gaming." "If you want to talk to me, just talk to me." "I don't need a memo." "I think it might be better if we reduce our communication" "To the written form." "Don't you have any pills to take?" "You just seem so cheerful today." "Excuse me." "I have work to do." "Me too." "Gotta walk the perimeter," "See if there's any new dead bodies that have shown up lately." "Now wait a minute." "Bill explained that had nothing to do with us." "Hey, hon, which bit do you think is the best for knotty pine?" " This one." " Thanks." "Did you pick up raymond's bike or should I do that later?" "I'll take a casserole." "What are you talking about?" "You saw him again, didn't you?" "Saw who?" "Don't joke around with me." "I'm so sorry." "Nicki, I don't like this one iota." "What is it with the two of you?" "Please please, don't make me explain it." " It is over." " That's not realistic, is it?" " Not with shared custody." " J.J.?" "I've invited him to dinner." "You invited j.J. Here for dinner?" "Yes, j.J.!" "You need to learn to control your emotions" "And be more adult with him." "Bill, I was just trying to get a list of her vaccinations." "I got 'em." "He's bringing them." "Well, it's absolutely impossible!" "He's coming to dinner, nicki," "And you will be there!" "Oh, barb, it's so pretty." "Are you going to work on her?" "I'm certainly going to try." "You tell her if she goes along with one of those other churches," "When those disgusting words wash over her," ""till death do us part, " it'll be the loneliest" "Most horrible moment of her life." "Want me to come with you?" " Knock knock." " Hi." " - - oh my gosh." " I know, I know." " Mom." "Well, it's about 20 years out of date." "After I changed out of my temple clothes," "This is what I wore at the reception" "For the photographs." "I saw them." "It's so beautiful." "Yeah." "I know you and scott haven't decided what you're doing yet," "But maybe this will fit into your plans." "Well, scott and I have decided." "And we've decided that we're not going to get sealed" " In daddy's church." " That's all right." "I thought you'd feel that way." "I know you don't have a testimony for the principle." "But you can still be sealed without accepting the principle." " How?" " By your father." "But I don't know if that's the direction we're going in." "Honey" "Honey, life goes by in the blink of an eye." "Without a sealing, without an eternal marriage..." "This is just all there is." "Maybe that's theoint." "I just can't believe that's true." "Hmm." "Just put the polygamy thing aside for a second." "What are my chances?" "Okay, I'll play along with fantasyland." "Zero." "No way." "No offense, but are you onboard with this latest frolic?" "This isn't easy for us." "And of course I worry." "It's a special election." "No primary, just a party caucus." "All I have to worry about is 122 delegates." "All of whom have known each other for 100 years." "And I know a few of them myself from rotary" "Bill, you know that politics in this state is a knife fight," "A tightly-run near-closed shop." "It's gonna take more than a winning personality and a good handshake" "All bill is doing is testing the waters." "Just tell us upfront" "How many people know?" "About?" "About my ex-communication." "Right." "Well, you know the church keeps those matters confidential." "Cindy, please." "Some people-- a small handful who know our family" "Have naturally inquired." "About whether I'd been ex-communicated" " Or the reasons behind it?" " Both." "Your problem is bigger than that." "No one has to dig very deep to find out that" "You're not even a member of any ward." "And you may have nine children, but you can only claim three." "Now people are gonna look at that" "And they're gonna say, "what's wrong with this guy?" "Does he believe in family or not?"" "Will the construction in kansas continue" "Once the dust from the raisettles?" "Oh, absolutely." "We have over 1,000 people there now." "Although we might have to raze the temple" "The a.T.F. Entered it during the raid." "Cara lynn talks so much about you, barbara." "She appreciates how you bring such order and purpose to the household," "Like melinda does for my brood." "Thank you." "Mmm." "Don't forget your iron." "Anemia..." "From chemo." "Well, we love having cara lynn with us." "And your arrest in kansa s- everything cleared up with that?" "Nicki. " "more rice, dear?" "It's delicious coleslaw, nicki." "Yes." "Mmm!" "J.J., you don't care for coleslaw?" "I'm afraid I have a sensitivity" "To certain cruciform vegetables." "I was worried that cara lynn would end up like him," "Throwing up at every little thing." "Could you hand me just one more piece of corn?" "You know we're gonna need to see the books on kansas," "All the expenses, just in accounting." "Mmm, I don't think so." "Kansas has always had its autonomy" "From juniper creek." "Just ask whatever it is you need to know, I'll gladly tell you." "Mmm." "Here." "Just because I miss you." "Thank you, papa." "Look, it's grandpa." "I assume we'll see you a" "At the prophet's memorial service tomorrow." "He wasn't our prophet." "Surely you're going to the funeral after?" "No, as a matter of fact, I'm not." "Nicki?" " Cara lynn, honey, could you take the kids inside" "And get them ready for bed?" "It is getting late." "Oh, excuse me." "Dad, I can't get it to inflate." "Excuse me." "Oh, that poor woman." "Can you imagine cancer on the compound?" "Barb, he has no fingernails." "And that wig." "I mean, there are organizations" "That donate good wigs." " Barb?" " What?" " His nails-- - he bites them?" "No, he doesn't have them." "You seem to be on a very short leash with your new family." "You are a pale imitation of a man, j.J." "It so happens that now I know what love is." "Mmm, this is bill you're talking about." "Do such vicious attacks really make you feel better about yourself?" "Tell your sonny boy to keep his hands off kansas" "If he knows what's good for him." " Tomorrow?" " Yeah, and we want you to come," "Both of you, to be our witnesses." "And mom and dad are okay with this?" " No, they're not coming." " You've asked them?" "I did not, but they'd never approve." "And this is not for them, this is for us." "Heather, how can you support this?" "Well, I" " I don't know that I do, really." " Sarah:" "Heather?" " What?" "I never said that I did, not really." "I do suppit's complicated." "Sarah, it's always complicated with you." "Ben, I mean, you're not even trying." "You can't not invite moand dad to the wedding." " That's just not-- - ben!" "I don't have a choice here." "I don't approve of what they believe in," "And I can't pretend that I do." "And they-- they don't believe in what I believe in." "So I just" " I can't give in on this, ben." "I" " I can't." "Is that wine?" "I gotta go." "Ben, hey." "Come on." "Hey, she needs you." "You say you love her, but what kind of love is this?" "Conditional?" "On your own terms?" "It doesn't amount to much." "Just please be there for her." " What are you doing?" " I'm rotating the mattress." " You're worried about school." " No." "I'll be fine." "No one follows the rules here." "You all talk back to bill." "I don't understand anything." " Honey, just put the sheets down." " No!" "What is wrong with you?" "You didn't tell me the funeral was tomorrow." "I wanted you to be able to concentrate on school." "Here's your dress for the morning." "Why aren't we going?" "Why aren't you mourning him?" "I am mourning him, just in my own way." "This family needs our attention now." "All right, I'm struggling with my beliefs." "That's why." "Well, I'm struggling too." "Man alive!" "If I'd known you refused to play nice," "I'd have spent the night snaking the toilet instead." "Do you know what he has done?" "Brainwashed her, repressed her every instinct," "Numbed her feelings and sensation s- dressing her in those sacks?" " Killing her soul." " Where is this coming from?" "The truth, that's where." "And there's only one way to stop it, and that's you." "You have to step up to the plate and become prophet." "That's not happening." " If you don't do it, my crackpot brother will." "It's what our heavenly father wants for you." "Can't you see that?" "You're not meant to be some grubby politician." "You know that." "You knew it even then." "When?" "What are you talking about?" "I was just a little girl, but I remember." "It's like you had this light around you," "Because you were the rightful heir, like the story said" "Driven off by my father because he feared your power." "Nicki, stop!" "I don't want your father's throne." "Well, it's more than that." " my father-- prophet;" "your grandfather-- prophet." "It's why we're together." "I'm not your father." "You're not your mother." "I don't want to be my mother," "But if you're not the prophet," "Then I don't know who we are, what we're doing" "Or what this marriage means anymore." "It all just completely falls apt on me, bill." "Well, if that's the way you feel, it might not mean a thing." "You said it yourself, Whoever put out that story" "That he died in mexico knew it was a lie." "They knew!" "There's work to be done." "I told you:" "It's all about to unfold." "...Three, four, five, six..." " Mom?" " Mama." "Evie." "What are you doing here?" "I heard a rumor you weren't coming to your father's funeral." "I'm sorry." "I can't talk to you about this now." "I said to myself, "well, this is not possible."" "Mama, just drop it, please." "Can we?" "It's" " I don't want to hurt your feelings." "Oh, well, I don't think you care about anybody's feelings," "Certainly not mine." "Please just go." "Take her home, evie." "Don't make me say things I don't want to say." "I'm not leaving this house" "Till you tell me to my face why" "You are shaming me this way." "Why are you so full of hatred?" "Haven't you even a shred of compassion for me?" "Mama, it's not about you." "I don't believe papa was a true prophet." "I don't believe it!" "He was false." "I'm sorry." "Then don't come to mourn the prophet." "Come to mourn your father." "I can't." "I don't have to and I won't." "Are you trying to kill me?" " Evie:" "Nicki." " Evie, stop." "He put me in the joy book." "He married me to j.J." "He didn't love me." "I was just daughter #8, a commodity to be traded." "We all were." "It's how we were brought up." "It's how he was brought up." "If I don't see you there tomorrow, nicolette," "I will never forgive you." "You will die a bitter selfish orphan" "With a heart of stone." "I do not have a heart of stone!" "It so happens I do have feelings, mama." "I am a warm person." "i" " Evie?" "" "Evie!" "Mama's right on this one, nicki." "Want another aspirin?" "No." "Step on it, will you?" "I can't be late for this meeting with barb." "I really appreciate you helping me with my inventory." "How much did you make last month?" "It's not about the money, bill." "I get up at 5:00 a.M. Excited." "I wake up at 2:00 a.M. With ideas." "I take notes in the car while I'm driving." "It's really brought me back to life, you know?" "I know." "How much?" "$9,400." " For the month?" " Yes." "And you weren't wrong, bill," "When you gave me that $10, 000 for seed money." " Margene!" "And I can pay you back the entire amount, if you want, and soon." "Margene, you need to sign over what you're making to the common pot." "It's a little more complicated than that, bill." "My projected gross for this year is $134,000." "I think that we should talk about accountants." "Money managers and lawyers." "Sometimes the temptations are so strong," "And the desire for intimacy" "For a man's touch" "It feels out of my control to resist." "Right, but listen to me:" "We can resist." "Sometimes it might feel like we don't have a choice, chris," "But we do." "It's within our power." "We can change." "I mean, that's why we're here at alignment." "It's impossible that something that would keep us from our eternal destiny" "Is just born into us without any capacity for us to change." "That" "That flies in the face of the plan of salvation," "And the gospel of jesus which says" "That through the love of jesus christ," "We have the strength to do all things." "Look at me." "I know this to be true." "Please." "You followed me here?" "Are you stalking me?" "Or do you want help?" "Yes." "I want help." "Look, we suffered a fall together, okay?" "But I am trying to save my relationship to our father in heaven," "To be worthy of my wife and my sons." "No, what are you doing?" "You can't do that." "I had to face the fact that I had led my family astray" "And I had failed as a priesthood holder." "And you, barb?" "I'd" " I'd come to forgive him," "But I'd come to feel a deep spiritual void." "What can we do so that heavenly father might" "Forgive us our transgressions and be found worthy" "To return to his one true church?" "First I have to ask you," "Have you dissolved all other relationships?" "It's hard ending relationships that," "Wrongly or not, have become so deep over time." "Yes." "Yes, we have." "You must attend church meetings on a regular basis." "Since your names are no longer in the church's records," "And you no longer hold the priesthood, bill," "You can't partake of the sacrament," "Hold callings, offer prayers" "Or give talks in the church." "I understand." "And I want to meet with you on a regular basis" "As your home teacher." "We would welcome that." "Good." "Good." "That's about the hardest thing we ever had to do." "Yeah." "Well, I don't know which is worse:" "Groveling to them or lying to their faces." "I hate them for what they've done to us," "But it feels so wrong to do this." "It's just that it feels like we're moving in the wrong direction," "And not just for me-- for the family." "How can standing up and fighting for what you believe in be wrong?" "No." "But to keep hiding and concealing," "Actively lying?" "That's exactly how we've had to live for the last eight years." "No." "No." "Not like this." "And let's-- let's just say you win." "We live like this for four more years?" "I can't even imagine." "I know we used to talk about public service." "It was something we dreamed of," "But, bill, that was three marriages ago." "I don't think that dream has survived." "Of course it hasn't-- we've moved on." "But this is different, for different reasons." "This is to protect what we believe and who we are." " Hello, brother." " Joey." "When did you get back?" "Yesterday." "There's not much left for us in arizona after all." "So this is the new church I've heard about." "It's coming together..." "Slowly." "You look good." "I'm at peace." "Roman's gone." "It's hard to believe, isn't it?" "Joey, I've received a calling" "To do something I didn't think was possible." "I may have dreamed of it for you too, bill." "I'm running for office" " State senate." " What?" "I'm still trying to understand why me." "No no, bill, it's no accident" "That I've come back home now." "There's a reason." "Beyond a shadow of a doubt," "You're meant to be the prophet." "It's grandpa's laws and doctrine" "It's when he received his calling to be prophet." "Take it, bill." "It's yours now." "His calling is yours." "It's not for me." "Our whole way of life is under attack and we need to push back." "We're hanging on by our fingernails on the compound." "At's 10,000 souls who need you!" " Family, loved ones." " I'm not turning my back on them," "But we have got to change things out in the world." "We can't keep holing up and hiding out on compounds." "You say you're not meant to be prophet, but what are you doing here, bill?" "You're building a church!" "Why, when there's already one waiting for you?" "Everything's falling into place" "Things that you have no idea about." "Kathy didn't die for nothing, she died" "Kathy's death was murder, joey." "It was murder," "Plain and simple." "Now you need to find your peace with that." "Heavenly father will deal with murderers in his own time." "Hello, little sister." "Welcome back." "I'm busy, j.J." "You left so suddenly for arizona," "I didn't have a chance to say goodbye." "You know, the night before you left," "I happened to be outside the big house." "I don't believe you." " I was." " What were you doing there?" "I saw your husband leave in such a hurry." "And then roman disappeared." "And the next day, you and joey disappeared." "So I asked myself if you helped roman escape." "But then I thought, why would joey" "A henrickson, after all" "Help roman grant?" "And I had to ponder tt." "And then four days ago," "We discover roman died in mexico." "And right after that, you and joey return." "I talked with people in mexico..." "And they didn't see roman therat all." "And I just don't know" "What all this means." "Don't forget, little sister," "I have something of yours that's very precious..." "And very dear to you." "You just shut up!" "Get out!" "Well, I've." " I've never been a maid of honor before." "So I have the rice in my bag and" "Hello, mrs." "Henrickson." "Mom." "Heather, could you leave us alone for a minute?" "I see you decided not to wear the dress." " Mom, I still-- - where are you doing it?" "Downtown with the justice of the peace." "I see." "And then?" "And then we're married." "Oh, sarah." "Please..." "Just don't cheat yourself." " Please, mom." " But it isn't a real marriage." "This isn't celestial." "It's not even in the church." "It's nothing, sarah." "It's just a contract for the government." "Mom, this is about scott and me." "You made your choices and now I'm making mine." "And I want to begin my life with him." "By turning your back on your family?" "By excluding us and just throwing us away?" "Just don't do this-- not like this." "I'm sorry, I have to." "This is my life" "And I need to find my own way." "I have to go to work." "I have to go to work." "Nicki?" "What is it?" "I'm scared, and I would like us to talk honestly" "About what bill being in office would really mean for us." "Please?" "I'm scared too." "Have you really always wanted bill to be prophet?" "At some level, yes, I have." "Do you still have feelings for bill?" "What do you mean, feelings?" "Of course I have feelings." "What are you saying, margene?" "Do you love him?" " Margie." " Nicki." "Are you in love with him?" "I don't know." "So what do you say, honey?" "Should we start to make our way over?" "Ben, what time is it?" "I have to be back at the dorms by 8:00." "It's very strict if you" "It wasn't supposed to be like this." "Ooh." "I think I screwed everything up." "Take your time, sarah." "Don't let them pressure you." "Ben, nobody's pressuring anybody." "Sarah?" "Hey, it's okay." "You didn't screw anything up." "Let's just stick to the plan." "I love vanilla." "It tastes so fake." "All right." "You ready to go?" "I need some fries." "Yeah?" "I had penny in the ad department do a mock-up." "I have four more for your boys." "Don, thank you. " "It may be a little bit premature, though." "Why?" "Are you having doubts?" "Margie's had them from the beginning" "And now barb." "My daughter, I don't know what she believes in" "Certainly not me." "What does it mean, don, when you're on a path" "That you think is certain," "And everyone you love doesn't want to follow?" "You know a testimony is true" "By the peace it gives you in your soul." "Are you feeling that peace?" "No." "Thanks for this, though." "Yeah." "Sweetheart?" "So I guess mommy told you." "Told me what?" "I was gonna get married today." "You were what?" "She found out." "And I think I really hurt her." "Does that surprise you?" "No." "Why are you telling me now?" "Because I didn't know if I could go through with it." "But I think I found the strength..." "In you." "You took us into polygamy, and I didn't like it," "But you acted out of conviction." "Even though you act from conviction," "You still end up hurting the ones you love." "And it can take a long time" "To heal that breach." "Sometimeyou lose them forever." "I know." "I was wrong." "I tried to hide my wedding" "Because I didn't know how to have my own beliefs." "And I just don't want to have to hide who I am anymore." "I'm gonna go get married now." "I guess I just have to..." "Hope I have your blessing." "Sarah!" "* I'm a-going home * * quiet light, some still day *" "* I'm just going home * * it's not far, just close by * * through an open door * * work all done, care laid by * * going to fear no more * * mother's there expecting me *" "* father's waiting, too *" "Lots of folk gatheredhere * * all the friends I knew *" "* I'm just going home *" "* I'm just going home... *" "I drove as fast as I could." "What's going on?" "It's okay." "Just have a seat." "I wanted you all here for two reasons:" "First, I thought about what you said," "What all of you said about me running." "You changed your mind." "I did." "We're definitely running," "But in a very different way." "Once we win, and we will win," "We're gonna tell the truth about who we are." "We're gonna step out into the light once and for all." "Are you serious?" "No more hiding." "No more lying." "That was roman's principle, but it can't be ours." "Let them prosecute us." "Polygamy is a misdemeanor." "It won't cost me the office." "We serve openly for four years," "Claim our faith and our family" "And put a very different face on the principle." "That's what this has been about." "Between now and the general election," "The next six weeks, we cannot be exposed." "If we can keep our secret just a bit longer," "A whole new life is ours to claim." "What's the second thing?" "Our daughter's getting married." "In as much as scott and sarah have consented" "To be joined in matrimony, before these witnesses... * dear friend, as you know * * your flowers are withering * * your mother's gone insane * * your leaves have drifted away * * but the clouds are clearing up *" "* and I've come reveling * * burning incandescently * * like a bastard on the burning sea * * you're just like your father * * buried deep under the water * * you're resting on your laurels *" "* and stepping on my toes * * you come beating like moth's wings * * spastic and violently * * whipping me into a storm *" "Shaking me down to the core * * you're just like your father * * buried deep under the water * * you're resting on your laurels * * and stepping on my toes * * put down your sword and crown *" "* come lay with me on the ground. *"