"I remember perfectly the day that Ignasi was brought to hospital." "I just fell down, that's all!" "Getting a new roommate... was one of the most exciting things that could happen to me." "Damn, this guy likes to sleep, doesn't he?" "I liked Ignasi from the first moment." "But he didn't make it easy." "What's your name?" "Hey, I'll pass kid," "I have a full gang of mates, I don't want any more friends." "Where did you get this asshole?" "From a bunch of idiots?" "He tried everything he could to look like a bastard." "But I knew, deep down, Ignasi had a good heart." "A good heart..." "that just didn't work very well." "Ignasi, hey, look at me" "Please stay." "We'll keep you advised." "How can such a young boy have heart attacks?" "Despite this, Ignasi's heart was broken... just like the elevator that caused him to become a Red Bracelet." "You're the girl, right?" "Yes, you're not the smart one, that's for sure." "I'm the handsome one." "We've started well if you're the handsome one." "Despite initial doubts, Ignasi was a great Bracelet." "Off the court." "No, it's our turn in the sun now." "Sunbathing?" "A moron and a bald kid?" "Hey, who do you think you are, kid?" "Who protected the group unconditionally... up to hiding the severity of his problem." "Swear you won't say anything about this operation to the Bracelets." "But why?" "They'd support you." "I don't want them treating me differently," "I want everything to stay the same." "Am I dying, Roc?" "Yes, you're dying." "The Bracelets knew exactly what it was to suffer, but no illness, no matter how bad... causes a pain comparable to that of the death of a friend." "# I have no friends." "# Nor great values." "# Only consolation." "# In this corner." "# There are no horses." "# In this empty stable. #" "It was a complicated operation," "Ignasi knew the severity and the risk entailed." "There was only a 50% chance of success." "He didn't tell you anything because he didn't want you suffering." "He didn't want you to stop doing anything because of him, he didn't want it changing anything." "You know how proud he was." "I know it's difficult for you, it's not easy for anyone to accept death, let alone you, but you must fight, be strong," "Ignasi was right up to the end, I assure you." "I'm really sorry, guys." "Everyone was affected, so affected, they didn't know how to react." "The worst thing, is that you can't leave." "You have to mourn the death of your friend in the same place it happened, and you need different stages to overcome it." "RED BRACELETS Episode 10 [1x10]" "Subtitles by Oliver Sanderson" "They say there are five stages of mourning, when faced with a loss." "Our group was about to begin the first one." "DENIAL" "Hello, guys." "Hello." "Hello." "Are you okay?" "Yes, thank you, Toni." "I was just leaving." "I wish..." "I wish that they'd allow you to go to the funeral." "Joining the Bracelets changed Ignasi." "I never saw him so happy." "And I know that it was thanks to all of you." "I didn't know exactly what to do with the bracelet." "But now I see..." "that it's for you to decide." "Goodbye Bracelets, see you soon." "Is that it?" "Do they tell us that Ignasi's gone away and we just believe it?" "Well I don't believe it, just because they've taken the bracelet doesn't mean it's true." "Lleó..." "He has to be here, in some room, having a test done on him..." "They're kidding, of course, that's what happened." "It's a joke, because of everything we've done in the hospital." "Lleó, Ignasi has..." "No, don't say it." "It's not true, you have no proof." "Lleó, didn't you see how sad his mother was?" "She's must have been lied to as well," "Ignasi's a bastard, he's scamming us all." "I'll go." "Lourdes..." "What is it, Toni." "Ignasi gave me a message for you." "He left a message..." "Before the operation?" "No, when he was in the pool with Roc." "What do you mean?" "He was with Roc during the operation, and I could talk to him, and he wasn't sad at all, he was fine." "He gave me a message for each Bracelet, I haven't told them yet." "Toni..." "You shouldn't make up these things." "You can hurt people." "I never make up anything, he said to me:" ""Say to my father and Lourdes, my mother, that I love them, and though it has come to me a bit soon, I've had a very sweet death"." ""My mother?"" "Yes." "It took some time to memorize, but I'm sure those were the words." "Forget something?" "Just coming." "Thank you, Toni." "You're welcome." "ANGER" "Benito, you must help me." "How are you?" "Good." "What about the others?" "We're all fine, can you listen to me?" "I want to ask you something important." "Sure." "Lleó, can we talk?" "I don't care what you say." "Please." "I'm talking to Beneto, I want him to help me." "With what?" "I need you to go to the morgue and see if it's Ignasi, I don't believe it's him." "Lleó, can you stop this?" "I don't want to stop!" "Well you have to, you won't get anything behaving like a child, you'll hurt his mother more." "I am a child, a child dammit." "Will you do it?" "Do what?" "Will you look if Ignasi really is the one in the coffin?" "No." "Why not?" "Is it that hard for you?" "Lleó, Ignasi has died, it's hard but it's happened." "Do you also believe it?" "It's not a question of believing it, it's what's happened." "It makes no sense, but it's happened." "Shit!" "Shit!" "I thought it wasn't hurting you." "Well it does, yes... very much." "How can anyone even think of hitting himself like this?" "Since I've turned out so well, I'd like to do it even more." "It's hard, isn't it, losing a friend?" "Hey, I'll pass, I'll pass." "What do you mean?" "Cut the psychological babble, just treat my hand and goodbye." "Hey, I just wanted to help, eh?" "I don't want help, even less coming from people who didn't know how to cure him." "Lleó, listen a moment, Dr Andrade did..." "What did she do?" "Nothing." "Ignasi came here with a triviality and they've been complicating everything." "I assure you they did what they could." "Sure, you're one of them, you would say that!" "Hey, I understand you're angry, but what you say makes no sense, you know?" "So much time doing tests for nothing." "Incredible." "Listen Lleó, listen a moment..." "I don't want to talk any more about it, just treat my hand." "Changing the subject, I guess you're happy about Jordi, eh?" "What about Jordi?" "They'll most probably discharge him today." "Didn't you know?" "The scar is fine, it's not completely healed yet, but we'll discharge you right away." "They'll move you to Andorra hospital, and you can continue recovering there, and you'll be able go home on weekends." "Aren't you happy?" "But, when would I have to go?" "If you want, before lunch." "Your parents just have to sign the transfer papers, and you're off." "I'll speak to the doctor in Andorra." "What a surprise, eh, Jordi?" "What about Lleó?" "He still has to stay a few weeks." "He still has to do chemo." "So by 2 o'clock we can leave for Andorra?" "Can he travel?" "Yes, of course he can." "Well, then I think I'll start packing." "Doctor, is this because of Ignasi?" "How do you mean?" "Have you speeded up my transfer... because you don't want me thinking about Ignasi?" "Well, partly yes, and partly because your stump is pretty good." "And if there's a problem, they can resolve it in Andorra." "Or don't you want to go home?" "I'm not going home, I'm going to another hospital." "But at the weekend you can go home, and you can't do that here." "Don't you want to go?" "Yes, I do want to, but I have to say goodbye properly to all my friends." "Couldn't we go in the afternoon?" "But Jordi, we'd arrive late at night." "I don't care, I want to say goodbye properly to my friends." "Going away like that would make them feel even worse." "Sure you can, I'll give you the discharge in the afternoon, then." "Thank you." "Goodbye." "Goodbye." "Hey, where are you going?" "To look for Lleó, I expect he already knows." "Hi." "You already know, right?" "Can you pass me the ball?" "It's not my fault!" "I never said it was." "I've been told my stump is in pretty good shape." "Like hell, I've seen thousands of stumps and I know when they're good or bad." "And this one still needs 3 weeks." "You haven't seen thousands." "Well, about two hundred." "You haven't even seen fifty." "Well, I've seen more than you, and I know if it's ready or not." "What do you mean?" "Tell me." "I mean your condition is bad, and you know it, but as Mom and Dad don't want you any longer at this hospital, they're sending you to Andorra." "Tell me something I don't know." "If you know that why are you leaving?" "What's the point of staying?" "I want to go home, go to the movies with my mates." "Have a normal life, I want to see my real friends." "So who am I, then?" "I didn't mean..." "And the Bracelets?" "Are they a sham?" "You know they're not." "I know you're angry about Ignasi, so am I." "Are you sure?" "Because I'm beginning to think that he didn't matter to you either!" "Don't say that." "And why not, isn't it the truth?" "No, it isn't." "Does Cristina know yet?" "Know what?" "That it's just a hospital romance." "Does she know you have a real girlfriend outside?" "You're an idiot." "And you're a son of a bitch." "At this rate I don't know in what shape you two will end up today." "I'm fine." "Me too." "Okay, now this may hurt a bit." "It doesn't hurt at all." "I warned you, eh?" "Let's see, take that off." "No, that isn't serious, hold this for a while." "I'm going out for a moment." "Guys, don't move from here, and don't break anything." "Maybe, the stage change begins, when you realize that there are people, who are perhaps worse than you, that's when personal anger gives way to another feeling." "Sometimes, you forget the pain of others and only focus on your own." "NEGOTIATION" "Hello." "Hello." "Are you okay?" "What happened?" "Have you been fighting?" "Yes, a little, but it's over now." "I was looking for you because I have to tell you something very important." "He says Ignasi was able to say goodbye before he died." "That can't be, Toni." "Yes, because he was in the pool with Roc." "He gave me a message for each of you, and I promised him I'd tell it to you." "So what did he say to me?" "Don't be offended about the kiss, he just wanted to leave with a good memory, he told me you'd understand." "I assure you that the only person who can know that is Ignasi, we were alone." "Toni doesn't lie." "You're right, Toni never lies." "So what did he say to me?" "That you keep studying, that some day you will be a very important person." "Really?" "And what will I be?" "Don't you realize Jordi?" "Just because he could say goodbye to us, it doesn't mean he's a clairvoyant." "Jealous..." "What about me?" "That he was very glad to have been stuck in the elevator with you." "Oh and... is that all?" "And that you're the best leader we could have." "You see?" "I wish we could go to the funeral, we also have the right to say goodbye to him." "But... he should still be here." "Here, where?" "At the hospital, right?" "And we should go and say goodbye, like he did with us, and give him back the red bracelet, he'd like to have it." "What are you all doing here?" "We just came to see how they were." "I'm ready to go, aren't I, Josep?" "Yeah.." "What about me?" "We haven't finished with you yet, Lleó." "Josep... take a good look, I'm not bleeding, am I?" "What's up?" "I want to talk to you, but not here." "Almost always those who leave, are more prepared than those that remain." "Those that remain suffer, they don't know how to take it." "Those who leave often don't know how to help those left behind." "Everything is complicated in life and death." "And worst of all... is when the person who remains is unaware that the other has to go." "What's the matter, Jordi?" "I don't know how to tell you." "Do you want to break up with me?" "No, it's not that." "Really?" "Definitely." "It all seems like a nightmare." "Yes, it does seem like that." "So, what did you want?" "Nothing, to be with you for a while." "Perhaps, the stage of "Negotiation" was also necessary in the farewells in life." "I, to be honest, will also miss Ignasi a lot." "I felt alone in the room, and also, I couldn't go to see him physically," "I also needed to say goodbye to him." "# In another life I was... # the sail of a sailboat." "# And now only a fragile paper boat." "# I long for the sea." "This farewell of which Lleó talked, meant a lot to the Bracelets." "We had to say a final goodbye to Ignasi... and this way he'd leave with his red bracelet." "It was a most important thing, which we still had left to do." "# Give me more." "# Make better use of me." "# Think of me more. #" "Shall we go?" "Let's go." "Will you help me?" "But you can't tell anyone." "Thanks, man." "You're the girl, right?" "Yes, and you're not the smart one, that's for sure." "Man, I'm the handsome one." "You're a Red Bracelet, now." "What are you doing?" "That's foul play, man." "You do tell some stories." "Cris." "Bracelets for ever!" "I think that without knowing it, we had gone on to the following stage." "SADNESS" "By now they must have already taken him away." "I don't know about you, but I need to be alone." "Me too." "And me." "Not me, but if you all need it..." "Roc wants to tell you something." "He says we should do something happy together, instead of being sad and apart." "Shall we sing?" "It would be like a tribute, right?" "It sounds good to me, but I sing awfully bad, I'm hopeless." "We could sing a song of farewell to him." "Hey guys, I hate to bother you and I know that maybe it's not the time, but... it's time Jordi." "Time for what?" "He's leaving." "Why's he leaving?" "They gave him his discharge." "Is it true that you're discharged?" "They're transferring me to Andorra." "Today?" "Yes, I'm sorry, I didn't know how to tell you." "So the best way was to not tell me, was it?" "Cris..." "Is it true you're leaving us?" "I'm not leaving, I've been discharged, Toni." "I'm sorry." "Losing one Bracelet is hard, but losing two..." "And you?" "What about me?" "Aren't you going to say anything?" "What's the use?" "It's not my fault, you're not going to make me feel guilty." "Let's go, Juanma." "Maybe it wasn't the time to reach the last stage: "Acceptance"." "Maybe the sadness was not over." "You can never hurry the stages, everything takes time in life and death." "How did it go?" "Sad." "I forgot how you looked dressed in street clothes." "Yeah." "You look good." "Soon Jordi'll also be in street clothes." "Yes, I know." "And the Bracelets group will disappear." "No, it doesn't have to," "Jordi's going, but you can keep meeting if he returns to hospital, or outside." "It's not true, nobody returns and you know it." "They never return to see us." "The first thing they do is remove the bracelet and forget the hospital." "No, Jordi won't do that, you know he'll return to see you, he'll e-mail you." "Don't be cruel to him simply because he's better." "One day you too will have to go, won't you do it?" "What about Ignasi?" "Will he also return?" "No, Ignasi won't, but somehow he'll always be with you." "He's dead..." "He'll not come back to us." "Do you know what I decided, when my friends began to die?" "To die of what?" "Accidents, diseases..." "As you get older, you lose people along the way." "Such is life..." "Of my group only 2 of us remain." "At first it was difficult to keep going, we wondered, why him and not me?" "I too, ask myself, why him and not me?" "I've gone many more times than him to the operating room." "I know, Lleó, I too have wondered." "And do you know what?" "In the end we decided something with friends:" "We divided his life between those who were left." "How did you divide it?" "Mathematically, we were all left with a bit of them, and we had to fulfill their dreams, live part of the things they didn't have time to live." "I have to live apart from mine, 3.2 lives more." "3.2?" "It's what I got in the distribution." "And sometimes when I do something that I know would please one of them," "I feel much better." "And that really works?" "I'll feel it inside, and living more lives makes you do more, because you have to live for the others." "but, why split it if you can keep a whole one?" "Because if you divide it, it multiplies." "It'll form a part of all of you, and not only of one." "You'll continue always together, this group will become eternal." "I miss him so much." "I know Lleó, I know." "Why did he have to go?" "It's a bitch..." "Yeah..." "Mom." "I think that I won't leave here yet." "What?" "I know the stump isn't completely healed, and I still haven't done all the exercises to reduce the wound." "Yes, but in Andorra..." "In Andorra..." "I'll be in another hospital, it'll be like being at home... but without my friends, and I need them." "Mom, I know that you and Dad want me to leave here as soon as possible, because of what happened to Ignasi, but I can't leave." "If I leave now, it'll be worse for me and for my friends." "Jordi, are you sure you want to stay?" "I want to stay until it's healed properly." "No longer and no less." "And I won't run away, which is what I feel I'm doing now." "I don't want to run away from the death of a friend who I loved." "Do you understand?" "Yes, I understand." "Thanks, Mom." "I'm sorry about Dad," "I know you're going through hell." "But I'm here, you know that." "# Sharing secrets, # perhaps of another life." "# Past, present, # the same point of departure." "# In front of a mirror... # that invites me to go one more step." "# Awakening impatient." "# Navigating the unconscious. #" "Perhaps, the side effect of having an illness that people know less about, is that it makes you mature." "Jordi, had only been a short time in hospital, but had gained 2 years in maturity." "A maturity that makes you grow very rapidly." "# Connections, thoughts... # in search of a new day." "# Completing the fragments..." "The Bracelets were becoming mature by leaps and bounds." "And they were leaving the sadness, to go on to the acceptance." "# that you've looked for... # your whole life. #" "ACCEPTANCE" "What do you think?" "We divide Ignasi's life?" "To multiply it inside ours." "I like it." "Yes, it sounds good." "Roc's very happy and also likes it." "Then each one's share is about..." "20%" "Exactly." "Each of us takes 20% of Ignasi's life within us." "And they'll have to live through things for him." "Part of a kiss, part of a trip, part of a dream will be for Ignasi, understand?" "As leader of the Polseres, I give 20% of Ignasi's life to each of us." "Give me your hands." "20% for the Roc, 20% for Toni, 20% for Cris," "20% for Jordi, and 20% for me too." "It'll be really cool, and I propose that, as Toni said, the first thing that we could dedicate to him is a song." "Sounds good to me, all in favour?" "1.2 per head, six votes in total." "What shall we sing?" "I know very few myself." "Me too." "And me." "What if we let fate decide it?" "What do you mean?" "We put the radio on that Ignasi's mother left, and the first song we hear will be the one we sing, okay with you?" "Yes." "Agreed." "# Baby, I'm crazy about you." "# I spend the days... # waiting for the night." "# How can I love you... # if you're so far away from me." "# Servile and washed-up." "# Crazy about you." "# I know very well that from this bar..." "# I can't get to where you are." "# But inside my glass I see... # your light reflected in." "# I drink it." "# Servile and washed-up, crazy for you." "Roc, eh, Roc!" "Roc!" "Please, someone come!" "Please help!" "Wow!" "Don't they believe he was singing?" "We have no evidence that it's true," "But the CT can be used to determine if there's any neuronal change." "Did you see that?" "What doesn't he want to tell to us?" "Nothing." "I know a neurologist that may help us." "You are a star!" "Oh, I'm sorry." "Sorry." "I'm sure the CT will clarify everything." "You're a patient like us." "Would you feel happy about us hiding information from you?" "We'll do an emergency operation on him this very day." "Could he die?" "When you leave hospital, you'll have to go to a foster home for 2 months." "And with whom will I go?" "We don't know." "Have you done it?" "What about you?" "Have you?" "Have you?" "Since Ignasi died, I'm realizing there's no time, I have no time, that I'm missing out on many things." "Well it's time you faced that."