"The 8 o'clock news, good morning." "It's 12 July." "Orangemen in Belfast and across Northern Ireland   are preparing to march." "They're celebrating the Battle of the Boyne in 1690   when the Protestant king defeated the Catholic King James." "In the city centre crowds are gathering to line the route." "The latest on the contentious parade past Ardoyne:" "The police warn that any attempt to interfere with the parade   will be met with appropriate force." "Tensions are high in the area." "In the flashpoint Ardoyne area of North Belfast,   security forces are erecting barriers   to separate the marchers and resident protesters." "The situation is tense following a night of unrest in many areas." "Early this morning loyalist youths clashed with nationalist residents." "The weather; " "A bright and sunny day   with a high of 21 degrees." "Winds will be moderate." "I have this scar here and funnily enough it was from rioting." "I was about thirteen; but it was one of my own ones that did it." "Everybody goes up to the riot." "You have to be at a riot to understand what it's like." "It's not a good thing." "Although the adrenalin and all running through your body, it's mad." "One of the best experiences like." "I was standing up at the front." "A fellow behind me was throwing a bottle,   and he shouted:" "Everybody heads!" "But simple me, " " I turned around and said what?" "And the bottle struck my face." "So I had to go to the hospital and get stitches." "My daddy was going to kill me;" "the blood was squirting all over him." "I'm Mair,ad McIlkenny and I've lived in Ardoyne for most of my life." "There is good points and bad points to that." "There is a peacewall there, and there's another one just behind,   where the chapel is in the next street." "There are two peacewalls and Ardoyne in the middle of it." "Over the peacewall, that's all the Protestants." "Ardoyne is its own wee world of its own." "During the Troubles that's where Ardoyne people were stuck." "Because we are in the middle and they are all around us." "It's "this is the way it's always been, so just stick to your own"." "And if I go over there I don't know what they are like." "Will they like me?" "Or will I get killed?" "Please don't do that." "Louise, don't do that to her!" "My name is Christine   and I live with my mummy and my daddy,   my three sisters and my daughter Kasey   and I live in Bloomfield avenue, a Protestant area." "You never see Catholics in this area." "They are not very welcome in East Belfast." "And us Protestants wouldn't be very welcome in the Falls road." " Christine you owe me a fiver still!" " Just give me a packet of wipes." "Christine, can I just take it out of your purse?" "No, Louise you don't go into other people's purses." "I'll tell mummy. "I want my fiver and she won't give me it."" " Stop fighting!" " Will you tell her to stop?" "She gives in to Christine because Christine is her dearest daughter." "I fell pregnant when I was sixteen and it was awful." "I took a pregnancy test and I didn't believe it." "Went to the family planning and they told me I was pregnant." "It was more of what my mummy would say than my daddy." "My daddy was so supportive compared to my mummy." "But she came around after a while." "I got a job in the Hilton Hotel in Belfast,   and it would be morning starts." "You don't get a chance to sit down." "Then when I come home I just go to bed." "I'm just tired constantly." "My life is really about sleeping, eating and going to work." "And having a fag now and then, if I get the chance." " Are you watching TV?" " No." " Just half an hour?" " No." " I'm not even tired." " So I am." " I'd have let you." " No, you wouldn't." "I'm going to be up half the night now." "I'll wait till you're asleep." " I'll get up and turn it off." " You'll be sleeping." "You're not watching." "You have to get up early." "You are the wee sister." " I have more sense." " It doesn't mean that I can't watch." " Go!" " No!" "Just stop it and get to sleep." "At least we're scrapping." "No Mair,ad, I'm too tired!" " Wise up!" " No." "Next time you want to watch, don't ask me." " Night night, love you." " Don't love you." "Love you too." "I'm having my prayer time." "It has helped me in my everyday life." "I was moody and depressed and on antidepressants and ..." "You can talk to a psychiatrist,   but if you read the bible you have the holy spirit in you." "Instead of having the devil on your back." "The kids would take it as a joke." "My husband John doesn't like it." "He likes the old Paula who screams and shouts and gets on." "No matter if I'm a Christian now " " I wouldn't want an united Ireland." "I mean, two cultures." "Two different cultures." "Same God, two different cultures." "Impossible to live together until the guns and ammunition is out of it." "My mum means the world to me like." "I would be able to tell her that I love her and all now." "Before I couldn't have because I thought big girls didn't do that." "Because I was awful to my mummy." "I just have this feeling:" "Kasey is going to be so cheeky to me like I was to my mummy." "And I would kill her so I would!" "Put her in hospital or something." "I was really bad to my mummy so I was." "Put her through hell." "But I'm hoping to be Kasey's best mate, 'cause I'm a hip mum." "I'm not an old granny." "Come on, you bring the basket and I'll hang it." "My expectations of you when you were a baby?" "To have a nice wee girl who was just girlie girlie and not  and did what I wanted her to do." "As you grew up if I asked you to do something you didn't want to do it." " I'm all right now." " No you're not." " I am." " Sometimes you are all right." "What kind of dreams would you have for me in the future?" "As long as you were happy and your child was happy and a good career." "So your child doesn't go without the way I had to go without." "That's every mother's dream." "My dream would be to have my own house with Kasey   and maybe a man about to love me and her the same." "My daddy bought me these here." "They just mean a lot to me because they are wee angels." "It symbolizes that he loves me, that he cares about me." "It was just from him to me, like our wee special thing." "A very quiet man, he is a very enclosed person." "He has had a hard life,   because my granddad was in the Birmingham 6." "The bombing in Birmingham that 6 people got the blame of." "They found out 18 years later that it wasn't them." "It affected his life in a big way." "He was in jail for 18 years for something that he didn't do." "My daddy keeps that part of his life separate." "He was in Sinn Fein, and my mummy was as well." "My daddy was lifted for a protest." "They chased all the protesters down the road, the Old Park road." "And they caught my daddy." "They were painting on the wall." "My daddy had the paint all over him." "Because he spilled it all over him." "I can remember feeling scared because the peelers was at the door   and it was not like you see on TV, on The Bill: "You are arrested"." "It was all rough and all." ""What are they doing to my daddy?"" "I was trying to let on to my mummy that I wasn't worrying." "She was trying to let on to me that she wasn't." "They come in and they search everything, all your private things." "You have all your wee dolls, and the clothes was off the dolls." "Like if your daddy was going to hide terrorist things in your doll!" "That's when I really started to understand what all this was about." "Why we didn't like Protestants and why they don't like us." "You never ever expect to meet a Protestant." "Unless you don't even know they are Protestants, in a shop." "Or you are in a bar." "If a fellow is chatting you up,   the first thing you think about is "Is he a Protestant or a Catholic"?" "He's thinking it too." "You ask "Where are you from?"" ""What team do you support?"" "If you are Catholic you are Celtic." "Protestant, Rangers." "And once you find out you make your excuses and go to the toilet." "Whenever me and Brad Pitt get it together   he can buy me that one!" "The thousand pound one." " Where?" " It's sold out." "He has already got me it." "Sorry!" "Catholics and Protestants mix in town." "But different parts of town." " We wouldn't go to their street." " I don't know, you can go anywhere." "But you can tell from the way they dress, and their hair." "Like, girls they would still have their hair loose, " " Protestants still wear their hair in a loose bobble." " Don't you agree?" " I hadn't noticed." " So you get you wages tomorrow?" " Tomorrow." "Nearly 800 pounds." "How many hours do you work a week?" " I'm nearly doing 35 hours." " A week?" "Eight hundred?" " But that's for seven weeks money." " All right." "Listen to this right, I went to bingo today." ""I'll put a pound in and I'll just play the bottom ones."" " And I won 100 pounds." " Did you!" "Today?" " And I wasn't even going to play!" " I never play them, I just mark 'em." "Happy days!" " And I got her a headboard." " Very nice." "A soft one,   because the bed has a metal frame." " How much is that?" " 39.99." "But they are closing down I got it for 27 pounds." "So that's brilliant." " I got her the wee tea set." " How many batteries is that?" "I don't know." "You get the wee tiara with it." "Because she ordered her the four poster bed, " " I got her wee Disney princess a four poster bed too." "11 pounds, 10.99." "So I did." "Would you ever have any more kids Christine?" " Probably." " Yeah." "So do I. I would love twins." "To get pregnant again, twins." " I couldn't cope with twins like." " Two sets of twins." "Class!" "Running around with stretchmarks and a pierced belly!" "You'd have to have another section." "Once you have a section, you have another section." "Sometimes." "It depends." "I got pethadin, gas and air, and an epidural." "But I had already had Kasey when it started to kick in." "I was so doped up like, lying in bed." "When everybody came in to see me "Oh I just want to go to sleep!"" "Kasey!" "You are bad so you are!" "You are a bad girl." "Sit there, nobody is talking to you." "You're a bad girl." "Say sorry." "You are a bad girl." " See you later!" " Cheerio, Christine." " Cheerio Lesley-Ann." " 'Bye Kasey..." " We are going home now!" " Bed!" "There are loads of young mothers who find a boyfriend like me." ""I'm going to have my own wee house and family   and if I have a baby he'll stay with me"." "But it's not true, it's all lies." "They just want you and then leave you." "Me and my best friend Sarah,   me and her's bought a house, and it is in Brookfield Place in Ardoyne." "And it's gorgeous." "I can't believe I've done it." "I can't get it in." "The key is stuck!" "Open the door!" "It's probably the biggest thing in my life that I've ever done." "I'm freaked out that I've actually done it." "That's why I've been crying and all." "I have been scared." "I'll probably not see as much of them as I usually do." "I'll probably be over most weeks, once a week to get my Sunday dinner." "I can't miss my Sunday dinner." "Daddy said he was proud of me." "And he bought me my Tigger for moving out,   to cheer me up because he knew I had a very stressful day." "That's me and my sister Caoimhe, my wee sister." "Everybody says we don't look like each other when we are out." "Here in the picture you can see we are all ..." "The same hair, the same makeup on,   which is a good thing about moving." "I'll have more makeup to myself." "I'll miss my all family." "But sure they are only ten minutes away." "This part of the Old Park road, it's actually ..." "This side is Catholics and that is Protestants." "Catholics wouldn't walk down that way   and Protestants wouldn't walk up that way." "It's hard to explain,   if you walked down there you probably wouldn't come back up again." "You know your own people from your own community." "We would know they were Protestant   and they would probably get attacked." "They wouldn't know our faces so they would know we were Catholic." "And they would probably attack us." "I wouldn't walk down there until they started walking up here,   until the reassurance that you are able to, and not get hurt." "But I can't see it happen like." "No." "I don't believe it would happen." "You wouldn't be able to build trust." "You wouldn't." "There's people just walking down there!" "When did this start happening?" "I must be senile or something." "One person can't make a difference." "They always turn against you for trying to make a difference." ""What about your history?"" ""Don't forget your roots!"" "But you can always dream." "If you don't have dreams you have nothing." "Why are you sitting on your own?" "Because." "I don't know what to do." "I'm bored." " What?" " I don't know what to do, I'm bored." "I have to get ready for work soon." " Well, you have to." " It's your day off too." "Bitch!" "The girl I live with, Sarah, she has got herself a new boyfriend." "And he is a Protestant." " Is that your only packet?" " Aye." "It's still sore." " Is your back still sore?" " Why is your back sore?" "I don't know, whatever." "The way I was sleeping." " The way she was last night." " Hey, what's that for?" "!" "Was that it?" " So who is for drinking tonight?" " What night is it?" "Wednesday." " No I'm not drinking tonight." " I might get a bottle of vodka." " Where did you get that top Mair,ad?" " In a shop." "It's dead heavy." " Can you not take all of them off?" " No, they are different." "I like it." " Because it's different." "They are sewed onto it." " It's roasting." " I know." "I was very wary of him." "Yeah." "Because I had never met a Protestant." "He could have been here spying." "Or doing whatever." "It has happened before." "People has been shot." "Specially with the community we live in as well, Ardoyne." "I was wary of him." "I miss you so much, and you have only been away from this morning." "But you'll be back." "And I'm warning you,   if anybody touch you or look at you in the wrong way, " " I'm fucking going to bust her teeth in, so I will." "I'm being serious, don't even let anyone look at you in the wrong way." "I know." "And you are the only one for me." "I'm not letting you go so you just have to live with it." "I don't mind living with it 'cause I'm happy." "I've met a boy called Terry, and he is cute." "He is really nice." "He treats you like a lady." "Never had a bunch of flowers like that in my life for goodness sake." "But it feels good to say they are mine, you know." "Terry could be the one, because he does get on with Kasey." "It actually gets me all excited 'cause he could be the one, you know." "But the only thing is,   he is a Catholic." "So we just have to wait and see." "I'm cleaning your stinking mirror." "Do you think I will come every so often and clean it for you?" " If you want I can pay you." " If you pay me, no problem." "When are you officially moving in here Kevin?" "I've put in at the bureau for a change of address." "So, whenever pretty much." "Why didn't you get two bottles?" "You could have got Sara a bottle." "You do the foods in that cupboard and I do this, I do the fridge stuff." " Where does all the foodstuff go?" " In the cupboard." " That's me away, see you later!" " See you later!" "That will do, that will do, thank you!" " It's disgusting." " Look, it's only sawdust." "Why did you buy this stupid hamster?" " Can you not take it out...ouch!" " There you go." "It's so uncool, are you wearing that?" "It's a very old cardigan, Christine." "You do the zip like that, it's a wee catch." " I know you are looking for a house." " Yes." " For you and Terry." " Yes." "And you don't know what area to go to." "The complications with a mixed relationship ..." "If you live in a Protestant area and people know your boy is a Catholic   then they would stone your house, petrol bomb your windows,   and on some occasions they would put you out." "I'm sure it's the same in Catholic areas;" "I've seen it on TV." "I just don't see any way round   if Terry doesn't want to live on this side of town, or you on his." " Terry'll not live here anyhow!" " That's what I'm saying." " There's nowhere for us to live." " Not yet anyway." "I don't now where you're going to live   and I don't know if it's ever going to resolve,   your difference with this society that we do live in." "We would like to be able to live in harmony; be friends with everybody." "But that's not just the way." "It's not." "I'm going to go now, because I'm off to a prayer meeting." "Hello, can I have a taxi please?" "... Hilton Hotel." "Savage." "Thank you. 'Bye." "I don't see there is anything wrong with it." "'Cause I am happy and Kasey is happy the way we are." "I wouldn't move up there because I would be more scared to live there." "He would be scared to live over here." "You hear of people of mixed marriages   and their houses are getting broken and all, windows and stuff." "I love him, that's all." "I do love him." "I've met a fellow recently,   and you call him Patrick, Paddy for short." "I've finally fallen in love." "There he is there." "That was taken a couple of weeks ago." "I was really, really tired as you can see." "And he doesn't like looking at the cameras; he's stupid." "Because he thought he knew politics, but he didn't." "He didn't have a clue..." "Like all men, they think they know everything...but he didn't have a clue." "Because before he met me he was just getting drunk every day   and thought that was the only way there was." "And me and him, we have just done other things." "Like went on walks and enjoyed spending time together   instead of going getting blocked." "Because you go and get blocked, the same thing ever day, the same faces." "I can see me and Paddy going..." "But I don't want to rush it all." "He is at the age for engagement but I'm not." "No, I want to live my life first." "Don't want to be held down with kids and all." "There's plenty of time for that." "Did you have fun with your friend?" "... just be all together." "'Bye...'bye." "Terry was in his cottage, so he was." "Because it's the 12th." " It's not a plat mummy!" " It is a plat!" "It's just doing your hair." "Could you imagine how I used to do them when you were younger then!" "Especially when you were the only one I had!" "Well, you can take it easy!" "When have I ever been easy?" "Mummy is good to me sometimes, when she's not shouting at me." "She is good to Kasey." "Even if she is getting in her old age and is a grump." "I don't really know why they march." "I just know that we celebrate it as a family, the 12th   and it's just been tradition since we were all wee babies." "Mummy and daddy used to walk us into town." "We used to stand around the city centre and watch the bands." "I can hardly remember things like." "I just try to enjoy it now for Kasey." "Hopefully when Kasey is at my age it has all been sorted out  and she can get on with her life, not have to worry about schools,   who she makes friends with and stuff, you know." "What kind of boyfriend she has, he can be black, white, Catholic." "Anything." "As long as she is happy." " Hello!" " Hiya!" "Is there any cloth so that I can do washing?" "I give you a cloth if you want to wash them all!" " Are you going to pay me 4 pounds?" " No..." "In Ardoyne there is no Protestants, and we keep it hush-hush   in case anything was to happen." "You know the way some younger fellows get on and all." "Paddy's friend was going to put him on the barbecue,   because he was a Protestant." "But I says no." "And I threw his friend out for it." "Are you cleaning them with a bit of toilet roll?" "Is that why they are still stinking after you have done them!" "I get all the dirt off and then use newspaper and vinegar..." " To shine them up." " Aye." "Did you go to your wee course this week?" "Or mechanics or what?" "Yeah." "That's what I've wanted to do for ages like, so..." "So if I ever get a car you can fix it for nothing?" "I wouldn't say nothing." "but cheaper." "Then I'm not teaching your kids." "Teaching my kids?" "I wouldn't be sending my kids to no Irish school!" "We won't want your kids anyway, love!" "Ah, Jeeze..." " You missed a bit!" " I've missed loads of bits." "I've cleaned it already and it's stinking again." "See you later." "Your curtain is stuck!" "It will be all right!" "I'm not really as excited any more now." "You'd go and celebrate it with your family;" "I'm more excited for Kasey." "It's the same with Christmas, you have to be excited and all." "No matter what happens in the peace process   they are still going to be marching up our road." "A wee girl who is exactly like me?" "With the hatred that we have for each other?" "The past always catches up with you." "I lost my granddad." "I suppose that has affected the way I think of the other side." "Give us a hug!" " Come here..." "Hard day?" " Yeah." " Do you still love me?" " Yeah." "That's good." "I'm so tired." "I've got James and Victoria already picked out." " What for?" "Names?" " I'm only joking." "If you and me ever have kids, you are not naming them." "That will be me!" "They would get bullied in school if you name them." "I don't know what names I would pick." " An Irish name..." " Fuck that." "A different Irish name but not too different." "Must be trouble up the road." "How are you?" "Are you being a good girl?" "Are you?" "No?" "Me and Terry are planning to move in together after our holiday like." "Start looking even for a house just or..." "Start our own wee family and stuff." "I am brave, yeah." "See you later, Kevin!" "No way." "Are you serious?" "I'm deadly serious." "It's OK." "It's quiet and all." " What if they all come out?" " They won't." "We'll start normal." "Come on." "It's sweet." "Do you know what I mean?" "Are you shiting yourself now?" "Listen, I take responsibility." "We have all the right to walk down here anyway, as much as anyone." "Happy days!" "I want to go down there." "Who can stop us from walking down?" "They're allowed to march up the Crumlin Road..." "But they march in big crowds." " They can kill us in two seconds." " But we live here, honey!" "We have got the right to be around as much as the next person has..."