" I'm 28." "Yesterday, I was 15." "The day before that, I was 30." "The day before that, I was 8." "One day, recently, i was past 90." "Every day, I wake up at a different age in a different year on a different day of my life, and it's scaring the hell out of me." "I want it to stop." "I need help." "I been awake for the last 48 hours trying to get someone like you to talk to me because I don't know where I'm gonna be once I fall asleep." "Can you help me?" "Have you ever heard of this before?" "Anywhere?" " Let me get this straight." "You're reliving days from your past and living days from your future?" "Is that what you think?" " You're assuming that this is the present." "I..." "I don't know that." "This is just where I am today." "I remember nothing before all of this started." "These days, they are all new to me." "They're all I know about myself, except..." "I know who I am." "I know who people are." "Things look and feel familiar." "I know what I think and feel." "Like, right now, I'd really love to ask you to lean forward a bit." " Excuse me?" " If I could just..." " Sorry." "Sorry." "Just bugging me." "Looks better that way." " Do you use any substances aside from caffeine?" " None..." "That I know of." " When did this start?" " I don't know." "Time's kind of relative right now." " Well, what's the first thing you remember?" "The first thing you remember is being 90?" " 92, actually." " How did you know your age so specifically?" " I don't know." "I just knew." " You didn't stay awake very long." " I was 92." "Give me a break." " Where were you next?" "♪ ♪" "This is recently, then?" " This hasn't happened yet, actually." "This is two years from now when I'm 30." "♪ ♪" "Uh... okay." "Okay." "Sorry about that." "Okay." "Oh, you look so nice." " You have no memory of the first part of this wedding?" " None." " Any memory at this point of having photographed other weddings?" " Nope." " So how did you know what you were supposed to do?" "How did you know you were even the photographer?" " I don't know." "I just knew." "Felt familiar." "I knew how to pose." "I knew their names." "Alison, can you lean forward just a..." "Knew how to use the light meter, and the camera felt like an old friend." "Ah, happy couple." "Nice." " That's the second time you fell asleep today." "Get it together, dude." "♪ ♪" " Just darling, aren't they?" "You got any kids, honey?" " No." " And you knew that because..." " I just knew." " Well, don't lose heart, my little friend, because some day soon, you're gonna meet a great girl, and you'll have a whole mess of kids." "You look like a fertile fella to me." " I don't..." "Want kids." " Shit." " Why did you say that?" " I just know that I don't." " And then?" "Of all the things you could have done, why did you pick up the camera?" " I just wanted to." " I'm sorry." "It's okay." "He's friendly." "Howard, come here." " No, no!" "Wait, wait, wait!" " What?" " Oh, that's super cool." "Can you just keep him there for one second?" "No, no!" "You're still in the shot." "No, lower." " I can't go any farther and still hold him." "Did you know that there are 116 different breeds of dogs?" " No." " Howard's a beagle." "Howard, sit." "Stay." "What's your name?" " Lovell Milo." " And you just knew your name somehow." " Now you're getting it." " Milo?" " No, lovell." "Milo's my last name." " Sounded like you were saying your last name first, like they do at school." "I'm grace." "Want to take a picture of me?" " No." " And then?" " Hello?" " What are you still doing home?" " How old are you here?" "21." "Uh, who is this?" " It's grace, dummy!" "Are you still asleep?" "Oh, what... do you know what time it is?" " I think the power is out." "Why?" " Are you drunk?" " I don't think so." " You have the biggest meeting of your life today with your hero, Steven Roberts." "He saw your work." "He's near town." "He asked you to coffee." "None of this rings a bell?" "You're supposed to be there in an hour, and it takes an hour to get there." "So I was a little freaked out when I saw your car still out front." "Oh, gosh." "I'm outside." "I'm coming in." " Uh..." " And you just knew you had taken all the pictures on the wall?" " Yeah." " You'd been busy since you were eight years old." " Hi." "Come on." "We're gonna drive you." "Nice underwear." "Howard, sit." "Sit." "Stay." "Go." "You, go." "Boy..." "So I had a date last night." " Oh, yeah?" " Yeah, with that really, really hot guy that was hitting on me at that gallery thing we went to last week." " Yeah?" "How was that?" " Fantastic." "Until he said, "yeah, I'm not really that big into dogs."" "And I said, "huh." "Well, check please."" "Whoo!" "Okay!" "Two minutes early!" "I'll come back for you in two hours." " All right." " Good luck, good luck, good luck!" " Hi, I'm here to meet, uh, Steven Roberts?" " Um, no one's here right now." "Did you want..." "I can get you a table." "You can wait." " I'll just wait right here." " Okay." " Hey." "How'd it go?" " Hi, folks." "My name's Brian." "I'm the manager." "How is everything this evening?" " It's good." " Okay." " Is there anything i can get for you?" " Uh, yeah, actually, i have a question." "These, uh..." "All this artwork on your walls, is it by local artists?" " Some local, some I just find really interesting." " Oh." "How about th ese?" "Would you be interested in buying any of these?" "They're by my very modest friend here." "Um..." "I like this one." "It might be really good for your restaurant." "But..." "I love... wait." "I like that one." " This is some really great work, man." "How much do you want for this one?" " Whoo!" " That's the first photo you've ever sold, isn't it?" " Oh, wow." "Yeah." " Be, like, your own..." "Your own artwork." " Yeah." "I think it is, but..." "Yeah." " There's gonna be a lot more where that came from, mister." "You're gonna be huge someday." "Are you tired now?" "Lovell?" " Oh, I'm falling..." "I'm falling..." "I'm falling..." "Doc, you got to give me something here, okay?" "You got any medications?" " Oh, uh..." " Oh, I need medication or something here, doc, so I can make it stop, okay?" " Lovell, drink this." "Drink this." "Stay with me." " God damn it." " Uh, we're trying to do the bouquet toss." "Is that okay with you?" "Or, uh, you need a longer nap?" " Hi." " Did you come see me about two years ago?" " For me, it was yesterday." " Milo lovell?" " It's lovell Milo." " Sounded like you were saying your last name first." " Please, god, let this work." " Dummy!" "Pay attention." " Oh, this is never gonna stop." " By the powers invested in me by the wonderful state of California," "I now pronounce you Mr. and Mrs. McNabb." "Pete, you may kiss your bride." " Make this stop." "Help me." "Please." "I won't tell anyone if you don't." "You can just put it down." " I hope they like the present we got 'em." " I am sure they'll love it." " You don't even know what it is." " Ah, it doesn't matter." "People love presents." " You don't." " What do you mean, I don't?" " You don't like your present." " Well, I didn't get a present." " Yeah, you did, but you don't like it." " I'm sorry, sweetie," "I don't know what you're talking about." " You said you wanted it to stop." " What?" " Somebody gave you a present, dummy, but you said you wanted it to stop." " Do you know what's happening to me?" "And you're saying what's happening to me is a present?" " Mm-hmm." " What kind of sick, twisted present is that?" "From who?" "Why?" " It's the only way you're gonna learn." " Learn?" "Learn what?" " Someone's in trouble, and you're the only one who can save them." " Wha..." "Who am I supposed to save?" " Honey, stop bothering this nice man and come back and finish your dinner." "Sorry." "She's a little outgoing." " Just pay attention." "Thanks for not telling on me." " Mental journal entry number one." "It's time to pay attention, to everything." "But since there's no use writing things down because I certainly can't take it with me," "I'm just gonna have to remember everything." "So here I am, talking to myself." "Okay, all right, what do I notice?" "First, I seem to wake up an awful lot when I'm 30 or just before." "And about that time, I've noticed this..." " Did you just fall asleep on me?" "Oh, my god." "Oh, my god." " Um..." " You did not just fall asleep on me!" "Do you realize how humiliating that is?" " I seem to fall asleep really easily at this point in my life." " Narcolepsy is an inherited sleep disorder, an abnormal tendency to pass directly from wakefulness into dreaming sleep, also characterized by a loss of muscle control when experiencing intense emotion." " I find I tend to fall asleep easiest when something's not stimulating." " I used to do my makeup in my car on the way to work." "Now I just..." "I meditate." "That's one down." "Got a bizarre sleep disorder." "I also notice that I feel exhausted all of the time." "The thought of doing even the smallest things like taking out the trash, doing the laundry, brushing my teeth, shaving, showering, picking out clothes makes me feel like going back to bed." "Wish the day would just end." "Dig the really cool watch, though." "I'm hungry all of the time." "I'm not excited about anything." "Sound of the phone makes my skin crawl." "Don't even get me started on the doorbell." " I'm pregnant." " Do you want money?" "I mean, if you can prove it's mine, fine." "You know, I have..." "I can accept when I've screwed up." " But I'm not gonna be a part of this." "I don't want a kid." " Well, I can't argue with that." " Could you just lean a little..." "In conclusion, I feel like shit." "And then I just want to go back to sleep." " ♪ Hey-ey-ey-ey... ♪" "♪ Ey-ey, ey-ey, ey-ey... ♪" " Oops." "I've also noticed I've been waking up a lot lately around age 24." "And here, I feel fantastic." "I've got more energy than I know what to do with, and I love..." "Stopping time, making a moment live forever." "Can't get enough of it." "I'm working a couple of different jobs, and I am having a great time, and it gives me time to do what I love." "Oh, I don't feel like sleeping." "I'm having way too much fun." "My watch isn't quite as cool, but I don't care." "And one day, i wake up to this..." " Morning, dummy." "Hi." " Hi." " Hi." " You're trying to get me to stay in bed." "Running first, then showering." "I know someone who's up." "Hi, guys!" "Hi, baby." "Let me get my shoe on." "Come here." "Come here." "What are you doing?" "Oh, my gosh." "I just got completely abandoned." " All you." "All you." " Okay." "Um..." "I am an only child, as my folks well know, as is lovell." "As a good friend once told me, one of the advantages of being an only child is that you get to choose your siblings." "And at a very young age, lovell apparently decided to choose me to be his sister." "Which I did not want to be." "No, I..." "I loved him from day one." "But he didn't get it, so for years, i waited and waited for this old dog to learn a new trick." "I tried to forget him." "I went out with a whole parade of other guys, and I am so sorry, dad." " How could I forget?" " But no one else compared." "No one else had a name that sounded like it was being said backward." "No one else saw the world in such a beautiful way, creating these amazing images which have covered the walls of my bedroom my entire life." "No one else got so much joy from their work and then kept going no matter how hard anyone tried to crush his spirit, and no one else loved my dog the way he did." "That's a big one, people." "No one else." "And I thought I lost him..." "But then one day, somehow, he found me." "You have always taken care of me." "And I promise I will always be there to take care of you." "No matter what, you're not alone." "I..." "I just want to see you happy." "I love you, dummy." "Come kiss me right now, please." " I don't think i could feel better." " You have reached a number that has been disconnected or is no longer in service." "If you feel you have reached this recording in error, please check the number and try your..." " Hey, ma, it's me." "Are you there?" "Uh, where, um..." "Where's my wife?" "God damn this thing." "Ma?" "Mom, are you here?" "Enough." "Hey, drew, Kathleen, it's lovell calling." "I'm actually at your place." "I'm on your front lawn." "Just looking for your daughter." " You have reached a number that has been disconnected or is no longer..." " Oh, come on." " Hi, honey." "It's mom." "Strangest thing." "I found your watch here in the house, sitting on one of my tables." "I know how important it is to you since grace gave it to you the day she died and..." "I don't know how it got here, but anyway, it's here, so..." "I love you." "Buh-bye." " Someone's in trouble, and you're the only one who can save 'em." " Who am I supposed to save?" " Just pay attention." " Hi, this is Shelly." "Leave a message." " Ma." "Hey, ma, are you there?" "Mom?" "Mom!" "Mom, are you here?" "♪ ♪" "Oh, goddamned small towns." "Would you just get with the program?" " Thank you for calling the hall of records, town of Riley creek." "No one is available to take your call at th e... ♪ ♪" " Sorry, sir, we're closed." " No, oh, no, no, no, no." "I just need five minutes to locate..." " Our business hours are 10:00 A.M. to 5:00 pm., and it's 5:00 pm." "Why don't you get a good night's sleep, and we'll see you in the morning?" " No, no, no, sir." "That's not an option." "That's not an option for me, sir." "Please, can you just listen to me for one..." "Hey, drew and Kathleen, it's lovell again." "Um, just call me when you get this." " Hi, this is Shelly." "Leave a message." " Ma..." "Please, you got to be there." "Damn it!" " Hello, lovell." " Hey, Mrs. z." "Is grace here?" " Oh, sure." "She's in her room." " Thanks!" " Oh, you're welcome." " Hey, Howard." "It's good to see you, bud." "Grace." "Grace?" "Grace?" "Boo!" " Were you surprised?" "I'm the queen of surprises." "Howard, you're my baby." "Yes, you are." "Sit." "Stay." "What?" " I think you should go to the doctor." " Why?" " It's always good to get a checkup, just in case something might be wrong." "You never know." " What do you think about Christopher king?" " I think he's a jerk." " I think he's cute." " No, you don't." " I was kind of thinking about asking him to go out." " No, you weren't." " Are you jealous?" " Look!" "I'm serious." "I think you should go to the doctor, just to make sure." " Fine, take me to see him if it's so important to you." " Him?" " There are only, like, four doctors in this town." "Who else would you take me to see?" " Hi, hon." "You here to see your dad?" " Yeah." " He's with a patient right now." "You want to wait in his office?" " How come he doesn't have any pictures of you?" " Give me two weeks to practice up so I can kick your butt on three." " Oh, you just wait, doc." "You're gonna wish you'd made me worse, not better." " Well, the hippocratic oath forbids that, but that don't mean squat on the golf course." " Thanks again, doc." "You're the best." " It's good you can admit that now." "You just keep saying that." "What are you doing in here?" """ " I was just wondering"" " missy, excuse me." "This is not a toy." "I don't come to your room and start going..." "Picking up your valuables, do I?" " No." " No." "You can extend to me the same courtesy." "Now, what do you need?" " I was wondering if you could maybe take a look at grace." "See if she's okay." " What's wrong with you?" " Nothing." " I just thought it would be good if she'd get a checkup." " Um, grace?" "Would you adjourn to the waiting room, please?" "This is not a playground to which you can bring your friends." "All right?" "This is my office." "I don't do parlor tricks here;" "I work here." "And if her parents want her to get a checkup, they'll set it up and pay me." "I'm not a charity service for you to abuse." " I know, but..." " Hey!" "Don't interrupt me." "Do you want to talk, or do you want to learn?" " I want to learn." " You don't bring someone to me without an appointment unless they are dying." "Clear?" " Yes, sir." " Now, what do you have to say to me?" " Sorry, dad." " Okay." " Go home, hmm?" "Do your schoolwork." " What good this is..." "Being ten." "This is useless." " Being ten's not useless, hon." "Pay attention." "You're not here by mistake, dummy." " How does grace die?" " Just pay attention." " Grace?" " Lovell." "You want me to take it away?" " Put the camera down, sweetie." "We're having dinner." " Orson?" " Orson?" "Orson?" "Lovell..." "lovell, no." " Did you just take my picture?" " Why?" " Did you just take my picture?" " What if I did?" " Give me the camera." " Why?" " Lovell, please just do as your father asks." " So..." "You think it's funny to make fun of me?" " No!" "I had pictures of grace on there!" " Lovell, your father asked you not to take pictures at the table." " He didn't have to ruin my film." "Asshole." " Kay." "You will not be seeing this thing again until you are old enough to vote." " No!" "I saved up for that!" "It's mine!" " Lovell!" "Lovell!" " Maybe now you'll spend more time on your homework instead of taking so many stupid pictures." " Lovell, let go." " Let go of me!" " Honey..." " You okay?" "I told you to let go of me." " Come on." "Let me get you a tissue, okay?" " I'm never gonna be like him." "Never." " His pictures aren't stupid." " Excuse me?" " I don't know if you've taken the time to look at his pictures or if you're capable of appreciating them, but he's really good." "He could really be something." " Get out of my house." " Grace." "Come on." "Let's go." "♪ ♪" " Are you Mrs. Milo?" " Tell me, what are you gonna sell me next?" "Things I want?" "One of those..." "Hi, something I can do for you gentlemen?" " Orson Milo?" " I'm Dr. Milo." " I'm Mr. koehler." " I'm Mr. Brazil." "Department of social services." " We had a domestic violence claim filed against you, sir." "Is there a private place we can chat?" " You know it was just an accident, right, lovell?" "Never beat up my son." "That's absurd." "That little girl was a guest in our home, and she pulls this?" "You are never to speak to her again-ever." "God, I could kill that kid." " Orson!" "This has gone on long enough." "You have a problem." " Shell, be intelligent about this." "I can't just medicate myself." "Every last bit of pharmaceuticals has to be accounted for." "It's illegal, number one." "Number two, I go to another doctor to get diagnosed;" "people talk." "It'd be all over town that doc Milo's got a problem." " Mental journal entry number two." "I think my father's involved in graces death." "I haven't seen a day past 26 years old in a long time." "And all I've been seeing lately is him..." "Or the lack of him." "So if I'm not here by mistake and this is important..." "Then he's involved." "So be careful and ready for anything." " Happy birthday, dummy." "I have to hit the head." " Grace gave it to you the day she died." " Oh, no fair peeking, mister." "Not until tonight." " 26 years." "Doesn't seem possible." "It seems like just yesterday he was 8." " Actually, that was two days ago." " It seems like just last week, he was born." "I miss having a baby around." " Well, how about it?" "You two got a grandchild in the works for me?" " What?" "You are never going to be more fertile than you are right now." " Orson!" " You know, some people don't find that line of questioning particularly polite or considerate." " Oh, that's right." "You're a pretty tough cookie." "Probably don't want kids to mess with your independence." " Dad, stop it." " You know what?" "You don't know shit." "And it's none of your business." " You think you can talk to me like that in my own home?" " Orson!" " I said years ago she wasn't allowed in this house, but I had to go back on that because you married her." "But I'll be damned if I let her curse at me under my own roof." " Jesus Christ, Orson." "She has endometriosis." "They just tried in vitro, and it failed." "Okay?" "She's devastated." "They probably can't have kids." "Happy now?" " Grace!" "Grace!" "Grace!" " Hi, this is grace." "Surprise me!" " Hi." " Christ!" " Does she belong to you?" " Yes." "God... grace, are you okay?" " Bath room, please." " Yeah, it... it's this way." " I tend bar at Luka's tavern." "I found her in one of my back booths, and this was the address on the driver's license." " Okay." " I got it." "I got... me..." "Yah!" " All right." "Wait, wait, wait." "Come in." "Thank you so much." "You're so nice." "Isn't she, like, the nicest..." " She gonna be okay?" "I mean, how much did she actually drink over there?" " I didn't serve her, so I'm not sure how much she drank." "Keep an eye on her, but I'm sure she's gonna be fine." "I'm a pretty good judge of that kind of thing by now," " yeah." "Ah, listen, thank you again, um..." "What is your name again?" " Linda." " Linda." "I'm lovell, and that's grace." "Grace." " She just, um..." "I don't know why I am..." "I just..." " I should get going." " Yeah." "Thank you again." " Where did you get these?" " Uh, I took 'em." " Get out." "They're fantastic." " Thank you." "Thanks." " Do you sell 'em?" " Not to someone who takes my wife home, but you're more than welcome to have one on the house." "Which one?" " That one." " Luka's tavern, right?" "Top of Hannah road?" " Yup." " I'll drop one off." " Thank you." " Thank you." " Tell grace." " Yes." " Oh, there's a bag out here." "Happy birth day." " Thanks." "Oh!" "Grace?" "Okay, okay." "Now leave mommy alone." "Leave her alone." "Hang on." " Did you see the girl?" "She's really, really nice." " Yeah." " And she's really pretty." " Mm-hmm." "Let me see you." " Messy." "And I bet..." "I bet she can have kids." "Wh... why don't you go marry her?" "Just go... you go make lots and lots of babies with her." "Go ahead and make 'em." " Grace." " 'Cause... 'Cause she's pretty and nice, and she..." "I'm fine with it." "I'm fine with it, 'cause I have baby..." "Where are my babies?" "Grace." " Grace, look at me." "Hey." "Come here." "Look at me." " I love you." "I don't want anyone else, no matter what." " I'm so sorry, dummy." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." " You've got nothing to be sorry about." " Except maybe that." "Hello?" "Hello?" " Lovell?" " Grace?" "Grace, where are you?" "What's going on?" "Thank you." "You're such a good friend, lovell." "All right, baby." "Look at me." "It'll be okay." "Okay, I'm right here." "Shh, baby." " Grace." "Are you ready?" " Right here." "You're not alone, okay?" "I'm right here." "You're not alone." "Oh, my god." "Nobody's in there..." "I wonder what he saw at the end." "I've heard people who've had near-death experiences say that when you're close to death, your life flashes before your eyes." "He was 16." "Oh, that doesn't seem like much." " In dog years, that's, you know, 100-something." "I mean, that's a hell of a life." " Yeah." "I wonder what he saw." " He saw you." "He's lucky." "If I was gonna die," "I can't think of anyone else I'd rather see." " I love you." " I love you too." "I've loved you since i was eight years old." "That's a long time." "You're shaking." " Yeah, I'm so scared." " Me too." "What... what are you..." " Stay right there." "I don't ever want to forget this." " No!" " Yeah, yeah." "Grace, come on." " Gosh, I look..." "Like hell, I'm sure." " Just lean forward a little bit." "Right there." " Did you get it?" "Merry Christmas, dummy!" "Do you like it?" "Santa put it on your wrist while you were sleeping." "Very sneaky." " It's gorgeous." " Well, I am the queen of surprises." "Now, you better get up, mister, 'cause we have a big day today." "You all set?" " Yeah." "Yeah." "I got it." "I got it." " Okay." " I'll drive!" "I'll drive." " Okay." "Why are you driving so slow?" " Well, people drive drunk on holidays." "You got to be careful." " It's a boxful of money." " You totally wrapped this." " Yes, he totally did." " Sorry, sorry, sorry!" "It goes off every hour unless you..." " I wish you'd quit fooling with that thing." " I'm not even supposed to be here right now." " You couldn't get someone else to cover for you at Christmas for a change?" " No, all the other m.D.S are out of town for the holidays." "I'm the only one holding down the fort at the hospital." "I was able to sneak away because it's been dead all day." "But I have a responsibility, and I have to keep an eye on it." "Maybe you don't understand..." " Well, if you're gonna be here," "I'd appreciate it if you kept an eye on us too." " Open... open it!" " Okay, let's see." "It's a... you are clever." " Gotcha!" "A big box." " Oh, I love the colors." "Thank you." "Orson, did you see this?" " You have no interest in what goes on in this family." "You never have!" " You want to talk." "You don't want to learn." " Talk?" "Answer my question!" " I am not going over this shit again." "I am done!" " Ma, we can do those for you." " Oh..." " Mom..." " I'm fine." "Why don't you two just..." "Just go home." " Well..." "Yeah." "Yeah, I need to blow off some steam." "Let's go jogging." "Come on." " Uh, grace." "Why don't we just call it a night?" " Come on, come on!" "Come on!" "Oh, no, you don't!" " Oh!" " Uh-uh." "Hey." "Whoo." "Am I alive?" "Do you know..." "That they used to tell time by the stars?" "It's where they got the calendar." "Hey, guys!" "Boys, sit!" "Sit." "Stay." " Stay." " I bet..." "That you can't catch me." "Come on, boys." "Come on!" "Come on!" "Come!" "Come on, guys!" "Uh-oh." "No, no, no, bosch." "Not in the street." " Oh, my god!" "Oh, no!" "No, no, no, no, no, no!" "Oh, god." "Oh, god." "Oh, god, no." " Oh, god, no." "No, no, no, no." " She was running..." "The middle of the road..." " Grace, grace." "Oh, god, no, no." "No, no." "Come on." "Come here, come here, come here." "You need to call someone." "You need to call someone." "Come on, baby, no." " I'm so sorry." " Please, grace." " Take a look at my finger, sweetheart." "Focus on this, will you?" "Okay." "All right." "Hey, did you get ahold of that doctor yet?" " 26-year-old female jogger." "N.D.A." "Possible severe head trauma." " Mom?" "Mom, where's dad?" " Get ahold of that doctor yet?" " Ma, they can't find dad." " Systolic pressure 60 and dropping." "It's at 50." " She's going into attack." "She's going into v-fib." " Charge the monitor." "We're gonna shock her." " Christ!" "Can we get a doctor in here, please?" " Orson!" " Oh, god, no." " Oh, hi, Shelly." " What's wrong?" " I am so sorry for your loss." " Where were you?" "Where were you?" " Out for a walk." "I didn't get the page." "The goddamned pager must be broken." " Oh, my god." "You son of a bitch!" "Oh, my god." " Lovell." "She was hit by a car, lovell." "She was hit by a car." "She smacked her head into the pavement." "It's doubtful there's anything anybody could have done." " There was a chance!" "There was a chance!" "You fell asleep, and now she's dead." "Oh, my god, dad." "My grace is..." " I did everything I ccu..." " Get off!" " Lovell." "I'm sorry." "I'm so sorry." " Don't ever speak to me again." " I can't..." "I can't go to work." "When I take one look at her bed..." " I'm never gonna have kids." "Never." "And I'm never gonna be like him." "Mental journal entry number three." "I failed." "She's gone." "All this learning because I was the only one who could save someone was useless." "Maybe I'm crazy." " It's not useless, lovell." "It's not over." "Pay attention, dummy." " Pay attention?" "Up yours." "I am crazy." " Hi, honey, it's mom." "I just thought I'd check and see how you're doing." "Haven't talked to you in a while." "I'm at the office today." "I miss you." "I love you." "Bye." " Just a second, honey." "What are you doing here?" " I don't..." "I don't know, uh..." " You can't just show up." "That's not okay." "He knows who you are." "You said you didn't want any part of this." "So be consistent." "Send the checks and live your life." "That arrangements worked fine." "♪ ♪" " Yo, Kevin." "Kevin!" "Yo, Kevin!" " Oh, hey." "What's up?" " How you doin', bro?" " Good, man." " Good seem' you, man." " Kevin." " Can anybody name me one of the major themes in catcher in the rye?" "Yeah, Kevin?" " Uh, loss of innocence." " Loss of innocence." "That's great." "Can you tell us more about that in terms of the title of the story?" " He views the world of adults as phony, and there's a lot of resistance to growing up." " Yeah, there is." "There is." "So everybody remembers the passage, right?" "Where Holden is actually on the cliff, and..." " Yes?" " Um, hi." "I don't mean to bother you." "This an okay time?" " What can I help you with?" " Well, uh..." "I'm Kevin's father." "He was in the class that just let out." " Oh, yeah?" "I can tell." "You look like him." " Guess I do, don't I?" " He's a good student." " Is he?" " Oh, room for improvement, but who doesn't have that?" "Always says please." ""Yes, please."" "A lot of kids don't do that." "Suppose credit for that goes to you." " Ah, it's more his ma, really." " Props to the better half." "Good man." "What can I do for you?" " Well, I was just wondering, um, from your..." "From your position as his teacher, you know..." "How is he?" "Is he happy?" " Is he happy..." "Well, well, have a seat." "You know, I see him with a few friends." "Not a lot, but the ones he has seem pretty solid." "I haven't seen him with a girlfriend yet." "Think he's still a little awkward around 'em." "Yeah, he lights up when he talks about animals." "That's for sure." "Seems hell-bent on being a vet, as I'm sure you know." "And he is always singing or humming something." "That's a sign of happiness, so they say." "I assume you're going to his concert tonight." "♪ ♪" " Hi." "Um, it's okay." "It's okay." "I'm sorry." "I didn't mean to scare you." "That was great." "It was a really beautiful concert." "Could hear you every once in a while when you really sang out over everyone else." "Got a great voice." "You, uh, play the piano great too." "Really..." "Very talented." "So I guess you know who I am." "It's okay." "I..." "I know I haven't, uh..." "I haven't been around, been a part of your life." "The reason is..." "You might not understand this, but I was just scared to know you." "Afraid to, uh..." "Afraid to fall in love with you, and then what if something were to happen to you?" "Does that make sense?" "It's just easier to..." " What the hell are you doing here?" " Just talking to my son." " Your son?" "Excuse me." "Did I just hear you say your son?" " Come on, honey." " You got to earn the right to say that." " Maybe I can take you to school once in a while, you know, or dinner..." " No." "How dare you?" "How dare you just show up on his big night and blindside him like this?" "I'm sorry, honey." " Maybe you could just think about it, and..." " Don't take a step closer to him, or this is gonna get ugly." " Honey, calm down." " Okay, I'm gonna give him..." " Know what?" "I'm gonna count to three." " Calm down." " One." " Don't touch me." " Two." " Scott, let's just go." " Just leave me alone." " Three." "Stay away from my son, or you're gonna get worse." "Please, whoever you are," "I screwed up." "Just give me another chance." "Oh, please." "Please, just give me another chance." " Hey, dummy." " Sweetheart." "What's happening?" "Right now, you're in the middle of this accident." "You're 30." "This is where it started." "This is where it ends." "See, it's true." "When you're near death, your life flashes before your eyes." "I set this up." "And I've been with you the whole time." " All of them?" "They were all you?" "But..." "You're dead." " I've been dead for four years, lovell." " But you said that this was so that I would learn." "Someone was in trouble, and I was the only one that could save them." " That's right." "But not me." " Then who?" " You." "I couldn't stand to see what happened to you after I died." "I wanted to remind you who you were and show you where you were headed." "I promised I'd always watch out for you." "I want to see you happy, dummy." "Didn't see this coming, did you?" "I am queen of surprises." " But you're dead." "That's not fair." "Why?" " It's just the way it goes." "We've all just got to do our best." "It's not going to be easy." "Your heart's gonna break again." "It looks like you learned something." "What you do, it's your choice." "I just..." "I wanted to remind you you're not alone." " Stay." "♪ ♪" "Is there something we can do here with June to warm it up a bit?" " You mean... yeah." "You know, we can..." "I can bring the reds up a little." " Can you?" " Yeah." " I think that would do it." "All right, Randy." "Well, we did it again." "Looks even better than the last year." " Great." " Steven, it's great to finally meet you." " Sorry about the meeting." " Ah, it was 15 years ago." "Water under the bridge." "Tony, Hazel." "How are you guys?" "♪ ♪" "Hey, Kevin." "How's bugs today?" " Not hungry." "Don't know what's wrong with him." "Trying to figure it out." " Yeah?" "Well, if anyone can figure it out, it's you." "Hey, when's your mom coming to pick you up?" " Not till tomorrow." " Oh, good." "You can have dinner with us again." " Not if you're having broccoli again." " Hello, Paula." "Hello." "How's my sweet one?" "How have you been treating mom my today, baby?" " She's been exhausting mommy, is what she's been doing." " She has been?" "Whoa." "Hi, mommy." " Hey" "I'm gonna take Paula to gymboree." "We'll be back in a bit." " Okay." "That sounds good." " Wake up, sweetheart." "You know you forgot to take your medication today." " You know, I remembered halfway through the day." " I worry about you driving, honey." "You've already had one accident." " Linda, my dear, you are so right." "I promise I will take it straightaway." "That enough food?" " Dad, you're not supposed to feed fish more than that or else they'll get sick." " I know, buddy." "I was just, uh..." "I was just testing you." " Hey, fishie, fishie." "Come back, fishie." "You think I can get a really huge fish?" " What kind of fish do you want?" " Mm, a whale." "Oh, Christ." "Kevin!" " Kevin's gonna be okay." "He needed some stitches, and he's got a pretty bad bruise, but the doctor was able to stop the bleeding in time, so he's gonna be okay." "We recommend that he stay for at least the next day." " Hey." "How you doing, bud?" " Okay, I guess." "My head hurts." " Yeah." "Yeah, it would, yeah." " Are my fishies okay?" " Mm-hmm." "Mm-hmm." "Linda's taking care of 'em." "She put 'em in a bowl." " They have to be in water." " They are." "They're in a bowl with water." "We're gonna get you a much better tank, tons better than the old one, okay?" " I was worried about my fishies." " Yeah." "Kevin," "I am so, so sorry that i didn't take my medication." "That is not fair to you, and I don't know if you can forgive me, and I'll understand if you don't, but I am truly sorry." " It's okay, dad." "Just don't do it again." " I won't." "Excuse me, ma'am?" "Is there any way I can speak to the doctor that worked on my son?" "I just really want to say thank you." " Absolutely." "Right this way." "He's with a patient right now, but you can just wait by his office." " Great." " Right here." " Thank you." "♪ ♪" "So you met Kevin." " Yeah." "Strong kid." "Brave." " Yeah." "Maybe you could come over some time, talk to him some more..." "Meet my wife, Linda, and your granddaughter," "Paula." " That'd be nice." "Yeah, now your turn." "Huh?" "Yeah, up." " Everybody ready?" " Yeah." " Okay, let me put your... oh!" " Picture, picture!" " Look at the camera!" " Dad, dad, dad, right here." "Everyone look at the camera." "Look at the camera, Paula." " The first thing you remember is being 90?" " 92, actually." " Kevin Zachary Milo." " See?" "It's true." " Oh, my little Paula." " When you're near death, your life flashes before your eyes." " That's a hell of a life." "♪ ♪" "It's okay." "He's friendly." "♪ ♪" "♪ ♪" "♪ ♪" "♪ ♪" "♪ ♪" " ♪ Yeah ♪" "♪ uh-huh ♪" "♪ hey, yeah ♪" "♪ hey, hey, hey ♪" "♪ hey ♪" "♪ ah, ah... ♪" "♪ Uh-huh ♪" "♪ yeah... ♪" "♪ Hey ♪" "♪ ♪"