"Winter medication October, half moon" "There will be a quick inspection." "Please show me your ID." "Can I see your ID?" "Also the form that shows proof that you're a monk." "Please stop smoking." "Hey!" "HEY!" "HEY!" "What is it?" "Please show me your ID." "Hmph." "This should be enough." "What do you mean you want more proof." "You..." "Get off!" "What are you doing?" "I told you to get off!" "One of the passengers didn't get in." "Are you just going to take off?" "!" "He'll probably take the next bus." "Please stop." "You're right, these are all distractions." "One can only be free once these material objects and the body are gone." "Yep, it seems like you're a monk." "I'm sorry." "Because I'm not a good monk, I don't have the monk ID." "Because I'm not a resident, I don't have a residence ID." "I couldn't even register myself, so what do you expect from me?" "What gives you the right to talk like that?" "You're a fake, aren't you?" "I can give you my word that he's a monk." "Who are you to say that you can give me your word?" "I've seen him at the temple and I've seen that he is a Buddhist monk." "Really?" "You..." "Why are you laughing?" "Instead of laughing, why don't you chant?" "My late grandmother was Buddhist." "When I listen, I'll know if you're a fake or not!" "Ok, let's listen." "Where are you going?" "I'm just wandering*." "(*Wandering with medication)" "I don't know you." "Where have you seen me before?" "To be honest, I've never seen you before." "I felt bad that you were being ridiculed while wearing a monk's robe." "Don't you think that due to bumbling monks like me, the monks' reputation went down?" "When I listened to you chanting, I could have mistaken the place as a temple." "I was moved." "Are bodhisattva only in temples?" "Either way, since I haven't chanted in a long time, my throat is itchy." "I should go somewhere to have some soju. (= Korean liquor)" "If we're fated to meet again, we'll see each other." "Bring me some booze, BOOZE!" "There's no booze?" "!" "Tell the head monk to come over here!" "Hurry up and bring him here!" "He's the no-good monk that came here a few days ago." "We can't even consider him a monk." "Just recently his certification has been taken away." "Because he studied with the head monk, we're tolerating him." "I'm a guest." "Greetings." "What a mess." "Humans are a mess." "Hey!" "You're the monk that rescued me." "Nice to see you again!" "Here, have a drink!" "Stop." "What are you doing?" "I guess you don't like the sight of a monk drinking!" "Since I'm a drinker, just let me drink." "We're just mediators." "You're far from it." "Does one medicate just to show someone?" "Who cares!" "One goes down their own path." "Don't be immature and don't imitate great monks." "Either way, nice to see you again." "I may be a bumbling monk, but I know* a lot." "(*He references a mountain when saying this)" "There's a mountain." "How do you know a mountain." "So you know life?" "The mountain is a secret, an eternal secret." "Maybe because the mountain is a secret, I don't know if I'm living in it." "That thought boggles my mind." "I'm Bub-Oon. (IMDb romanized it as Pobun)" "Bub-Oon?" "It's a good name." "People should have names that suit their faces." "Look at me." "Is this a human's face?" "My face is one soaked of booze." "Gwan seh oom boh sal (chant)" "Oh, there is another guest." "Yes." "I was wandering and now a guest." "Please to meet you." "No need for formal greetings." "So, where are you from?" "I stayed at Geh-am-sah Temple." "Are you a student?" "I'm from Sun-bang." "(This line may be wrong)" "Oh, so you're a meditator." "So, where are you going?" "I'm just wandering." "Wandering?" "!" "That's good." "Put the thoughts that you can't get rid of into your backpack." "Like water, like a cloud, just wander." "There are people who like to wander so they become a monk." "I'm envious of mediators." "We're people who take care of the temple." "Even if we want to leave, we can't just leave." "So we help other meditating students and build up our karma." "Head monk, aren't you going to give me any food?" "Jisan, please don't be like this." "Because of you, I'm on the verge of being thrown out." "The other monks are going crazy." "Get kicked out?" "Good for you." "Then let's go immediately." "I'll lead the way." "Because we meditated together and because you fed me and gave me alcohol, I'll show you the way." "Jisan, you should watch out for your health." "Just how many days have you been drinking?" "!" "If you care for my health, buy me beef or buy me herbal medicine." " Look at how this person is speaking!" " Just bring me the booze!" "Alright." "Here." "Just keep drinking without causing a ruckus." "There is a guest." "If you still want to be enlightened, come follow me." "Although you're the head monk, you're just student's servants.You don't have a rank." "Oh woe, I should just give up." "Tsk tsk tsk." "Aren't you going to chant?" "What's the point of chanting?" "Is Buddha going to be at the place you're going?" "How does this shot glass look to you?" "You're drunk." "This may look like a shot glass to you." "But to me, it looks like Buddha." "This is the difference between a plain person and Buddha." "The Buddha you are looking for is at the place you are going." "The Buddha I am looking for is in this room, in this shot glass." "Nah moo* soju** (*Chant // **Korean alcoholic drink)" "I've become thin." "What right do I have to gain weight?" "Monks can't gain weight." "If one really wants to be a monk, one cannot gain weight." "Don't be embarrassed." "Your body isn't any better than mine." "I want to know the reason for your drinking." "The reason why a monk would drink!" "You're more closed minded than I thought." "There is no reason." "In this world, there isn't anything that has meaning." "The only thing is, I exist." "Solely existing." "That is the thought of others." "But there is meaning." "Even if I tell you, would you understand?" "You have a huge ego." "In my own way, I have tried hard." "For six years..." "SIX YEARS!" "Six years are a long time." "Siddhartha became Buddha within six years." "So what have YOU done in six years?" "First, do not kill anything living." "If you do, future generations (your future lives?" ") will have short lives and all you have killed will bother you your entire life and even after death." "Will you follow this rule or not?" "We will follow it." "Second, do not steal." "If you steal, your karma will go down and you will be born again in a lower state ." " Will you follow this rule or not?" " We will follow it." "Third, do not commit adultery." " Will you follow this rule or not?" " We will follow it." "Buddha was the first one to reach enlightenment and followed those rules and lived by them." "The bodhisattvas afterwards did the same." "The entrance may be small, but there is a bottle where it gets bigger as one goes in." "In this bottle, one put a small bird and kept it." "The bird must come out now but it's grown so big that it can't come out." "So... how can one take out this bird?" "Six years is a long time." "Siddartha became Buddha after meditating for six years." "So what have you got after meditating for six years?" "!" "What happened to the bird in the bottle?" "Are you still crying on the floor?" "You don't waste time." "The head monk said that if you don't work one day, you don't eat one day." "What are you doing?" "I'm making a statue of Buddha." "Do you want to take a look?" "It's almost finished." "Why does Buddha's face look like this?" "The Buddhas in our country's temple are all the same." "They're all round, have plain faces, and are calmly smiling." "But they don't speak." "For 1000 years." "That's what people say." "People say that when they see Buddha's smile, they feel as if they are in awe and in wonder." "Even just looking at it gets rid of all existential angst." "Would it really be like that?" "But Buddha is human, not a god, so how can Buddha always look so calm and not do anything?" "Even at this time, many people are hungry, have diseases, are in jail, and are oppressed by people who are in power." "How could Buddha just be smiling?" "But even Siddhartha is human." "If he came to Earth for the sake of humans, he would have longings, be sad, and have wrath." "That is why the 84000 thoughts plague us, so shouldn't there be a Buddha that reflects that?" "I want to make that kind of face." "That is why I am carving a block of wood like this." "The reason I am making this is because I have rotten blood, have bad thoughts, and I am carving off rotten pieces of my flesh and the worries should be changed into Enlightenment, wait no, it is a work of mediation." "So did you take out the bird that Jiam teacher told you about?" "What about you?" "Could you take it out?" "Me?" "I don't need such things." "I just shattered the bottle." "Shatter the bottle?" "Of course." "If the bird was a heart (mind), the bottle that the bird has is the present, desire, and the rule." "I completely got rid of that." "Hmph, so is that why you started drinking and decided to not be a monk?" "Is the mind separate?" "The body is the mind and the mind is the body." "If I stay with you, I'll also start to drink." "Please give me a bottle of soju." "Why are you doing that?" "Are you going to leave?" "Yes, that's how it's been decided." "What a shame." "What is this?" "This is cyanide that illegal animal catchers use to capture birds." "What?" "No need to be shocked." "If I just take it, I'll quickly reach Nirvana to meet Buddha." "I am always keeping death by my side." "Moment to moment I am a person beside death." "Isn't it cool?" "Just watch, when the day come when there is no more alcohol, I'll just take it." " I'll keep this." " Hm?" "Drink this and then leave." "Ooh, thank you!" "This is perfect as a farewell gift." "It's noisy outside, isn't it?" "The donators are coming." "So it is." "The donator will be running for Congress and if he wins, he will create a small temple." "That is why for 10 days, they will be praying for him." "Because you are disgusted by that, are you leaving?" "I once told that guy off." ""Instead of going to pray, go to the god of death."" "Anyway, the head monk even gave me money and told me to go elsewhere for awhile." "Instead of leaving, just telling the guy off seems to fit you better." "Ugh, I'm too tired for that." "Here, give me that bottle of medicine (cyanide)." "I am going to leave too." "What are you talking about?" "I don't want to be in a temple that serves such a donator instead of Buddha." "Was alcohol the reason that your monk certification was taken away?" "It's because I sinned by joining belly buttons with a woman and built a second story." "What do you mean by making a second story?" "You don't even know that?" "I mean sex, sex!" "Huh?" "Why?" "Did your affection for me go away?" "Doesn't such a story suit a rotten person like me?" "Now at your age, I was at Sujana's Eun-juk Temple's meditating room during a long summer." "After being discharged, the students left separately but I would throw my whole body into it and concentrate on a logic that I thought I grasped but I didn't." "But in the end, I couldn't understand the logic." "And I was frustrated, frustrated to the point where I thought my heart would burst so I ended up opening the doors of the meditation room." "Didn't Picasso say that love is at first sight." "There isn't a thing that a monk doesn't know." "Anyway, the connection, especially between male and female is strange." "Even though it was just one glance that woman's figure stayed deeply in my heart that was unerasable." "After a few days later, it was when I was outside of the temple." "Oh my goodness!" "Monk!" "How are you?" "I've seen you a couple of times from afar." "Where are you staying?" "I'm lodging at the village down below." "Are you here to recuperate?" "No, but to escape." "I've failed the college entrance exam twice." "I have no right to look at my mother so I left home." "My father passed away when I was young and my mom, by herself, owns a small saloon." "My mom wants me to graduate from a prestigious university and wants me to marry into a good family but I just can't seem to concentrate." "After I walk about and walk, I'll just die when I become exhausted." "But now that I'm out, there's no where to go but suddenly, I remembered a school trip during high school to Eun-juk Temple." "Hm... your name is Jisan, right?" "!" "How did you know..." "My name is Oak-soon!" "Han Oak-soon." "Will you read this?" "It was so fun that I read it in one sitting." "Lonely night." "It's scary when the wind blows against the window." "That's what you call a seduction." "When one clashes against such a thing, one worries and becomes miserable but female monks are afraid thus they avoid it." "One must follow the rules." "I remember that I decided to go against the rule." "I went against my own volition and I fought against my instinct." "It wasn't something to be avoided but to crazily jump over it." "Are you there?" "Oh my, you came!" "Please come in." "Hurry!" "I enjoyed the book." "You should at least dry your clothes and then go." "It's nice that you came because I was bored." "When man and woman touch belly buttons and create a second floor, it's not when the cosmos or existence is separate but like they say in Buddhism, it confirmed for me that we are one." "When the worlds compromise, existence gains the universal knowledge and discord and struggle becomes useless." "That night, I definitely reached orgasm." "That was when the mind wasn't superior to the body." "What I thought was wrong and my beliefs were destroyed by that orgasm." "As a man, I gained and confirmed universality and then orgasmed again." "Could there be another sham such as sex?" "An orgasm is just for a moment and the universe and existence become separate again." "After a few days from that incident, a huge accident occured." "Her friend got raped by some man while in a dying state after taking some poison." "The police arrested him." "Of all places, why did she commit suicide at a temple?" "What could that girl possibly know about the frustrations of life?" "Without having any say, I was mistakenly taken as the perpetrator." "The people who never regarded me highly told the police that it was me." "It was quite a sight." "On newspapers and on broadcast..." ""MONK RAPES FAILED COLLEGE ENTRANCE EXAM STUDENT WHO COMMITED SUICIDE WITH POISON"" ""WOMEN, DO NOT GO TO TEMPLES"" "These were the big stories on newspapers and weeklies." "In the end, men in the neighbourhood of Eun-juk Temple had their semen checked and there was a big ruckus about it, so after this, I was released but..." "Ugh, I don't even want to think about it." "Oh the shame." "I'll never forget it." "The Buddhist temple headquarters took my monk certification away." "But in the end that was alright." "For an ex-monk, the punishment wasn't all that bad." "There were some interesting happenings." "Yes there were." "After I left the police station, I went to Seoul with the girl." "I walked about like a crazy person." "There wasn't a place I didn't go while holding hands with her." "It was the first and last time in my life that I danced with a girl at a gogo club." "So in the end you lost the battle against seduction?" "Endlessly I had to adapt to my instinct's desires that bothered me and had to escape the anxiety that it gave me, but when I went with my instinct, a larger anxiety took a hold of me." "That's how the second floor* is." "(*second story/floor = sex)" "One goes into a stage of rage by thinking about the falsity of it and bangs one's head against the floor but such a feeling goes away and then the thought of the second floor takes over again." "So again there is the falsity." "And then the desire." "That's why people's reincarnations goes on for eternity*. (*kalpa)" "After going to motel rooms and repeating the cowardly cycle reached one week, that day the level of falsity was high thus finally" "I knew that my position (identity) was to be a monk." "Hey." "Excuse me!" "Please give back my slip." "It seems like the whole time I've just been asking you to give." "Was that the end of it?" "The story after is the true melodrama." "From that time on, was it three years after..." "I saw her as a prostitute in a shady alley way in the city." "A prostitute?" "In the end it was my fault." "She couldn't go back home and she had no place to go." "Her mom's business and family went bankrupt." "Because I met her due to my wandering*, (*wandering to reach enlightenment) a useless monk like me that a dog wouldn't even bite gave a woman such pain and hurt." "I should get a huge whooping from the god of death." "That isn't how it should be." "That really isn't how it should have been." "Hold on." "Now that I think about it, where am I going?" "Is there another place that a monk should go outside of the mountains?" "You're right." "There is no other place other than the mountains." "Should we go to He-in Temple?" "Would they let me in there?" "What use is a piece of paper like the monk certification?" "If you truly want to study, who would stop you?" "That's not what I mean." "Could I really go back and fully concentrate and study?" "What's not possible if one does it as if there is no other possibility and only concentrating on that one thing." "No, I would go crazy." "I'm just a useless monk." "Roaming is a way for me to solve a problem." "I want to know the root of why you roam." "Roaming is me being not true to myself." "I don't even have a truth to hold onto." "But even this can't be an exact answer." "I don't know." "I don't even know why I'm roaming around like a crazy dog." "Having no possessions." "Buddha said that the condition for happiness is to have no possesssions." "I only have dirty and torn clothes and a backpack yet why am I so miserable?" "Having nothing means that one threw everything away and wouldn't throwing everything away mean that one wants something greater?" "Is that right?" "Greater." "Is it to gain something great?" "But I can't seem to grasp greatness." "Why is my life so difficult?" "Bub-Oon, go to He-in Temple." "Go there and experience the eleventh hour*." "(*the last [critical] extremity)" "If you become a strong fortress, please show other crazy people, like me, the way." "Let's wander and be guests together." "Before meditating*, let's roam together, ok?" "(*refers to a retreat where monk meditate)" "If you stay with a useless monk like me, you will probably be kicked out too." "If I get kicked out, what's there to do." "Buddha isn't only in a temple." "Wow!" "Pretty!" "So pretty!" "Breathtakingly pretty." "Stop it!" "Someone will hear you." "I'm saying it as a praise towards people." "But how were you able to leave behind such beautiful women and leave Seoul?" "Why are you leaving college?" "You only have one more year to go until you graduate." "I can obtain knowledge on my own." "Professors only teach basic knowledge but they can't give me an answer to the questions I have." "Thus I'm at a standstill nd always depressed." "The professors, the people around me, nor you understand my anguish." "What is this anguish you speak of?" "Tell me the reason for this anguish." "In the end, people die." "I will and so will you." "What are you talking about?" "I can't accept the absoluteness of death." "To give up on things I want without doing anything and to accept death the same way, the falsity and sadness of it is the existence of humans, isn't it?" "Unless I solve this, all the knowledge, wealth, and fame in the world is useless." "This is the reason for my anguish." "Fine." "I won't hold you back from solving your problems." "But what about our problems?" "Don't you want to see her?" "It seems like you want to." "The difficult things for us monks are definitely the dark nights and when the wind blows on the windows and the clattering noise wakes us in shock, right?" "The only thing I can hear is the wind and then I wonder why I am alone." "Sometimes I want to meet my mother." "A long time ago she remarried and she probably lives somewhere in Seoul." "By the way things are going, when will I even have a taste of enlightenment?" "That's food too." "Don't take them out; just eat it." "During an age when you're supposed to blossom, your face has age spots and ringworms, and when you stand up, you must be dizzy." "Why did you say you wanted to come to Seoul and who did you want to see?" "Mister, come and play." "Oh my!" "Long time no see!" "Monk!" "The charming monk came again!" "Come over here!" "Oh my goodness, monk!" "Long time no see!" "Oak-soon's neck became like a stork's from waiting for you." "Go inside, I'll call her in." "Sit down." "This is a temple." "Our bodhisattva went to sell her body to people to corrupt people." "You're still paranoid." "You're more of a scaredy cat than you look." "Aren't you scared of anything?" "Of course I do!" "Unless if I'm Buddha." "Every time I breathe, I am afraid." "Then isn't it the same?" "No it isn't." "Everytime you're afraid, all your hard work to reach enlightenment is threatened so you avoid, but me, I face it and try to overcome it." "That's the difference between you and me." "Listen to those noises." "It's a huge temptation." "How important it must have been if Siddhartha said so too." "If there was a tiny bit more of sexual desire in humans than there already is, no one would be able to become monks." "So what do you think?" "Should I get you a girl?" "There's nothing to be angry about." "If one wants to escape sexual desire, one must know a woman." "If you want to escape anguish, you have to swallow it." "If you were a healthy man, you would think of women at least 12 times." "Come face-to-face with it." "If you have no hesitations and regrets, that is the road to enlightenment." "That is the road to enlightenment with no strings attached." "I would rather castrate myself." "What would you do after cutting a hunk of flesh?" "If you want to cut something, it's your mind that you must cut." "Say hello." "This is the monk Bub-Oon." "I met him again coincidentally." "This is our bodhisattva." "How do you do?" "Let's change rooms since we can't sleep together." "Should I get a lady for this monk?" "No, this is a real monk." "Have some." "No, he can't even drink." "Hwaja, I'm going to use your room." "If you have a customer, go upstairs." "Alright." "Where is the restroom?" "To pee?" "Over there." "Hey retard!" "Get out!" "I may be cheap but how could you not even get it up?" "I thought you said you would understand." "Don't kid." "It's because I have bad luck that I get such customers." "It's the economic depression." "These days there isn't anyone who will take me out for a long time." "I have no luck." "Are you trying to be a monk?" "Just from looking at a monk makes you immoble." "That girl..." "Hey mister!" "Come here." "C'mon, I said come here." "Hmph, he ruined my mood." "Oh my god, why is she like this?" "Hey, get up!" "All I have left are my faded monk clothes." "We are people who try to catch fish without a net." "The road that connects everything." "Follow that road." "I've sweated blood for 10 years." "The road is far." "It is morning." "When I look around, aah, I'm at the starting point again." "The Buddha that appeared tonight made my mind go blank and the futility of it all makes me drink." "Makes me drink." "You pig, if you were going to pray, why did you come to a place like this?" "Mom!" "Hey Byung-jin" "Is it true that my mom left for Seoul on a train?" "Well you see..." "While leaving, your mom said to tell you to live with your aunt." "What is bothering you?" "Everything." "And my mind is miserable." "Where is your heart?" "What happened to the bird in the bottle." "6 years has passed." "Give me that bird!" "Look." "In the palm of my hand is your mind." "Take it." "Your bird is right here." "Sukwon." "How long has it been?" "I heard that you were meditating deeply." "Attention all monks." "Either from thinking about the outside world too much or from the ineffective studying, during winter meditation for three months he is not speaking." "If you look at the students studying at the temple these days, they are holding onto dead people's clothes while saying that they have reached enlightenment." "So many people say this even if they don't know anything and this is a sin." "The useless thoughts that go in and out of your head should be thrown out the door and one should listen to the sounds coming from oneself and to search for the Buddha within myself like melting metal to find gold" "thus from the useless thoughts, bring out your true self." "Even during this winter, there are pregnant animals, even on frozen ground, there is a sprout coming out from a seed, so this spring you will become Buddhas." "Even after you lost three fingers, must you burn off another finger to each enlightenment?" "You idiot!" "When did Buddha say that he wants to eat beef?" "After suffering for 6 years, Siddhartha said suffering is useless." "Who are you to imitate?" "Student, if one can burn oneself to become great like Buddha, then everyone would behead oneself, but after beheading oneself, what would you do to be great?" "After you left, I searched for you at every temple." "How could this happen." "Were you this kind of person?" "My name is no longer Byungjin but Bub-Oon." "After I suffered all this time to find you, now I see that you see me as a hurdle." "Before I became a monk, I was just a man, and at that a passionate (blood boiling) young man." "How could I have not missed you?" "You might be the source of my anguish." "But if I left to become a monk because I want to," "I should be able to overcome my feelings for you." "That's a lie." "You're just acting like that and you're pathetically avoiding everything." "Going to the temple is not running away." "It is a place where I can be challenged." "What kind of challenge?" "The root of all problems for humans." "What created all problems for mankind and to find out how to come out of that misery." "So hiding the passions that humans have and avoiding what's going around you and living in a temple is what you consider a utopia for yourself?" "A temple isn't what you think it is." "It isn't a place where you avoid the present and it isn't a place where you just eat and not do anything." "It is a place where you can be reborn and have others be reborn and a place where you can have a goal and a place where you can meditate." "Then lead me to the right path." "Lead a normal person like me, suffering from the pains of love, to the right path." "My family is telling me to hurry up and get married but I can wait if only you can promise to come to me." "I'm not telling you to decide now." "But I at least have to hear a promise from you before I go." "Do you understand?" "If you call this a staff*, then it is." "(*like a walking stick)" "If you say that this isn't a staff, then it isn't." "Ask the people what you would call this." "Do you understand?" "Do you understand?" "You might have seen the staff but the staff hasn't seen you." "When a thought occurs, then the whole body thinks it." "When a thought dies, then the whole body dies." "When a thought lives and dies is like what makes the universe exist and is what makes a life alive or dead." "Do you know what the hardest subject to study is in the world?" "It is meditation." "One may be busy but time passes and the only thing that comes is death." "In this life what we need to study is:" "when will be we reborn as humans again?" "That was a stupid thing to do." "Stupid?" "Do you regret sacrificing your finger?" "I definitely see it as admirable and others are also impressed and in awe." "Buddhism is about making yourself believe." "No, believing isn't the right word either." "No, I have to go beyond myself." "Even though I have to go beyond myself through myself, I used fire instead." "To deal with the pain of burning my finger, I said," ""Buddha, bodhisattva, please help this pathetic sinner because this road is too difficult to go alone."" "Since I pleaded so, this wasn't the right." "What's the difference between me and the parents who give offerings to ask that their children do well?" "To berate yourself now isn't right." "The important thing is believing." "If you believe that strongly, you will reach nirvana." "Perhaps..." "Then when we were meditating, why did you take away the staff?" "Compared to your dedication, I am nothing next to you." "It was nothing." "I was only trying to break the silence and wanted to disobey." "It wasn't because I really understood." "I already knew the answer to what the head monk was going to say." "100, 1000 years ago, the monks said it and the head monk just repeated it." "And at that, he used difficult words that we couldn't understand but there is something that I gained from this meditation." "It is that everyone has different personalities and preferences." "Sitting and meditating isn't for me." "Then how are you going cultivate your mind?" "Via another person." "Through another person?" "Yes." "I'm not going to search for myself through myself but through others." "If you can't find yourself within yourself then how can you find yourself in others?" "Even if you say that, I should live in a cave like a larvae by myself, not by eating at the food given at the temple." "There is no difference between me and the other." "I am the other and the other is me." "Gua-um-boh-sal said "Others will reach nirvana and then I will."" "This is the Buddha that people talk about." "Honestly, I thought this before the summer meditation retreat." "At that time, at the island down south called Jook-do, I saw a real monk." "What do you mean a real monk?" "At that time on the island, there was a weird contagious disease going around." "Like leprosy, there were bumps everywhere on the body and people couldn't sit or stand." "And on this island with about 1000 people, almost everyone had this disease." "Even the government didn't know what it was." "But it was there that I met the monk." "What kind of a monk was he?" "If you look at it, you can't really call him a monk." "He was a certificate-less bumbling monk." "Every day there were several people dying but he went to every house by himself and prayed for them took the sick people to the ocean and bathed each one of them with salt water and gave food to the ones who didn't have any." "After five months of that, people started getting better and without a word, he left." "Why do you think he did that?" "I don't know." "The island people wanted to find him and build a temple and repay him but no one could find him." "He really is a follower of Buddha." "So what did you do there?" "While the bumbling monk, Jisan, was helping others out," "I set up a tent in the mountains and prayed for the people on the island and chanted." "Did you say the monk was Jisan?" "Why do you say that?" "Do you know him well?" "Where is he now?" "Excuse ma'am?" "Do you have any instant noodles?" "Yes" "Give me 10 of them." "Please wait a little." "Monk!" "Jisan monk!" "Well, now look who it is!" "You're the same!" "It is so nice to meet you, so nice." "How many years has passed?" "I've searched for you everywhere but where were you?" "Me, I never stay in one place for over three days." "I was in a bad state of reincarnation that was in a cruel cycle." "So, why were you searching for a bumbling monk like me?" "To make you the highest monk in a temple." "You would make me the highest monk?" "So, this time, were you able to at least touch the Buddha's underwear?" "I couldn't even see his shadow." "You can't catch a shadow because it doesn't really exist." "How long are you going to live like this?" "Are you always going to live in harsh conditions?" "Let me be." "This is just another way to live." "Is there no hope?" "The amount of hope is endless!" "But for me, it can't be." "Are you saying you're giving up?" "I don't give up!" "Because there is still one more method left." "What is it?" "To overcome anguish via anguish." "So you're speaking like that again?" "It feels like I'm passing through a cemetery." "For people the world of desire-driven beings is a tomb." "Don't be born because it's miserable to die." "Don't die because it's miserable to be born." "Won-hyo head monk* was a nihilist." "*A famous monk" "So what you're said is saying that we need to get out reincarnation?" "It's the same." "Even if we reach nirvana and get out of reincarnation, which most people call emancipation, but even with emancipation, would that be the end?" "No, it's just another cycle of reincarnation." "What you're saying sound like someone who has reached nirvana." "Nirvana is easy but doing it is difficult." "When we first felt despair, we tried to find a way to solve it and the way we did it was by becoming monks, wasn't it?" "So I studied." "So I overcame despair." "But that wasn't it." "I thought I overcame despair but afterwards, there was a bigger despair waiting for me." "There it was waiting again." "There was endless amounts of despair." "In the end, did you become exhausted?" "Are you upset because you became exhausted?" "After solving the problems I created, the one who was sitting at the top was Buddha." "But after becoming Buddha, thinking about handling all my problems makes me afraid." "Will what I said drive me to hell?" "Guan-se-um-bo-sal (chant)" "To believe that there is a higher being and that salvation is its gift and that everything has a purpose was religion, it wouldn't be this hard." "Over there is a small temple." "A shaman built it but the inspectors came and said it was a cult,the shaman was arrested,so it's an empty place." "To be honest, I'm envious of you." "To be honest, I can't be an honest monk nor can I be like you and be a bumbling monk, nor am I black or white." "nor am I a monk or a normal person." "I feel like I'm someone that can't be anything." "To be honest, I don't know what's what." "Buddha tried to help people and explained 84000 laws but none of them go in my head." "Pathetic." "Why was Buddha born to make us suffer so." "Monks, are you there?" "Are you there?" "Where are you from?" "I built a temple and today is the celebration day to draw Buddha's eyes." "Is that so?" "Please draw the eyes on our statue." "Not anyone can do the ceremony and a highly ranked monk must do it or else the person will be punished." "What are you talking about?" "When I first saw you I knew it:" "you are full of Buddha's sayings so please make our statue able to look clearly into people." "A sinless young monk like you must do it." "I'll pay you well for doing the ceremony." "Where did you get your statue?" "Oh yes, I got it from Jongro in Seoul." "I bought a statue and a mountain protecting spirit but as we accumulate more money, we'll buy a bigger statue." "Yes, we'll do it." "Thank you very much masters." "Please wait a moment." "It's perfect since we just ran out of food." ""Drawing the eyes" means drawing the eyes on the statue." "Drawing the dots mean that a spirit is being put into the statue." "Thus a statue made of rock or wood has a spirit, and thus becomes Buddha statue." "Therefore only a monk with much experience can do this ceremony." "I don't have much experience and just a lower class monk but I drew the eyes." "On a piece of rock bought with money, this bumbling monk drew the eyes so does that mean that this statue will become Buddha?" "If this statue wasn't made of rock but of poop, how would you feel about that?" "The important thing isn't the statue itself but your heart." "If your heart is passionate, then a rock, or wood, or even a poop will become Buddha." "That is when you will receive Buddha's love." "This is the original meaning and the goal of religion." "The important thing isn't drawing the eyes on a statue but one must draw the eyes on oneself and must become a bright light." "Praying for luck isn't the point of Buddhism." "To wake up and becoming Buddha is Buddhism." "Goddammit." "Who will draw my eyes?" "You go up first." "I think this is the last snow fall." "How can I not drink on a day like this?" "Welcome monk." "Just what are you going to do?" "You drink, sleep with women, and you chant, is that how you want to live your life?" "Do you want to run away from despair?" "From doing so, how and what will you realize from it?" "Oh that person." "He made a ruckus about wanting to sleep here." "The owner was finally able to kick him out." "Around what time?" "I said that he left after 1 in the morning." "Where did he say he was going?" "How should I know?" "Jisan monk, where are you going?" "After you accepted this miserable world of desire-driven beings, where did you go?" "Did you go to gu-sul-chun?" "Or did you go to hell?" "The four elements that follow fate came." "Followed fate and disappeared." "Didn't have anything," "Where did you come from and where are you going now?" "Living is one fact and death is one fact." "Mountain,river,earth,day,night,stars, spirit,and everything else are all Buddha." "Mountain and water are both bodies and grass and flowers are minds is what Buddha said." "So what are you now?" "This resembles him." "Do you think he reached nirvana?" "Jisan probably went to the place where we wants to go." "All I have left are my faded monk clothes." "We are people who try to catch fish without a net." "The road that connects everything." "Follow that road." "I've sweated blood for 10 years." "The road is far." "It is morning." "When I look around, aah, I'm at the starting point again." "The Buddha that appeared tonight made my mind go blank and the futility of it all makes me drink." "Makes me drink." "Is this the Cheong-gae factory?" "Yes, who are you looking for?" "Please let me talk to the lady there." "Please wait a moment." "Hello." "I picked up the phone." "This is Byungjin." "Who?" "Byungjin." "Kim Byungjin." "Where are you now?" "Around Namdaemoon." "I'll go out in a moment." "If you look across Namdaemoon, you'll see a bakery called Shil-la-dang." "Can you find it?" "Ok." "Byungjin..." "Please sit down." "From your aunt in the country, I heard that you went into the temple." "I can see the resemblance between you and your young self." "It must be heavy so why don't you take it off?" "It's not heavy." "It is karma that is heavy." "I have nothing to say." "Because I'm a sinful woman..." "It was a hot-blooded thing to do. * (*I was young)" "Do you still hate me?" "They say Mong-yeon-jun-ja went to hell seven times to save his mother, isn't it?" "Put this sinful woman on the right path." "I'll leave now that I met you." "Be well."