"Sometimes I'm afraid." "Afraid of what?" "Of nothing." "Of being nothing." "That I'll never be anything." "Just like you." "RELIANCE" "Emelie?" "Okay, Selinda!" "It's your turn." "Come on." "Don't be such a bore." "All right, just once." "Where are you?" "Last week there was this couple I was selling for and we were about to sign." "And then all of a sudden, their ad was lying on the table and the husband sees it and looks at his wife and says:" ""Sweetheart, this house looks so nice, I think we better keep it."" "So that was it." "No sale." "And no commission." "Paul, could you...?" "Thanks." "Nicke?" "What are you doing?" "I don't feel like playing anymore." "You're such a bore." "Paul?" "We're about to leave." "Oh, well ..." "Thanks for coming." "Thank you." "Bye." "But that's not really what's bothering me..." "Karin is just..." "We're not really connecting." "And when I sold my share of the company, I thought that..." "Now I can do whatever I want with my life." "We'll move back home and I don't have to worry about supporting my family anymore." "And now I don't know what I want." "Have you given the course at the institute in Zurich any more thought?" "A little." "It would be a dream." "Becoming a psychoanalyst." "Maybe when the kids are older, who knows?" "You want to be there for them now?" "Finally I can." "In London I was working all the time." "You know what?" "You can tell everything about a person by their hands." "So what does my hand say?" "I don't know." "What's your problem?" "!" "Telephone!" "So your dad's home?" "Always." "Have you seen Selinda?" "Come on, Emelie!" "It's really fun!" "Sorry!" " I believe in the Holy Spirit..." "Paul!" "...the holy Christian church, the communion of the saints..." "Don't bite your hair, Selinda." " Forgiveness for our trespasses..." " And the life everlasting." "Sjöbergs had a break-in." "Hey, could you give Markus a ride later?" "I've got a meeting." "Turn the TV off." "We're eating now." "Turn off the TV!" "What's the problem?" "Selinda!" "Give it back!" "Come and get it!" "Give it..." "Hi..." "Trouble sleeping?" "Are you nervous about tomorrow?" "I don't know." "Is there anything to be nervous about?" "How do you feel about it?" "I'm not sure I believe in all that stuff about the Holy Spirit and the forgiveness of trespasses..." "I mean, do you?" "No, maybe not that part." "I feel like it's mostly for mom's sake." "What do you believe in?" "Well ..." "Humanity." "I believe in humanity." "And that your mother isn't right all the time." "What's that you're reading?" "It's an old legend that was part of the Bible once, probably." "The Legend of The Watchers." "Or The Fallen Angels." "The Fallen Angels?" "Did they do something bad?" "Some think so." "They fell from Paradise to Earth and fraternized with humans." "That sounds exciting." "It is exciting." "But...a little dark." "Because it's all about having the courage to confront and accept the dark and undesirable sides of ourselves." "And the world." "What a psychologist named Jung called the Shadow." "The Shadow?" "Why don't you write something about that?" "Yeah well, maybe I should?" "Why are you looking at me like that?" "What do you mean?" "Like all the time." "You sit there staring at me." "No, I don't." "You look at me like I'm weird, don't you?" "I just care about you, that's all." "Goodnight, sweetheart." "Goodnight, mom." "So daddy..." "Astrid said that I have to start doing karate with her but then I said no, I don't have to and I won't do it." "And you won the debate?" "Of course." "Why "of course"?" "Because I always do." "Goodnight, my poppet." "Goodnight, dad." "Door open or closed?" "Closed." "Wake up." "Wake up." "Look over here." "Can you see this knife?" "If you say one word, I'll cut your throat." "What is it, sweetheart?" "What happened?" "Why are you crying?" "A man..." "What are you saying?" "A man..." "What?" "A man?" "What do you mean?" "Where?" "In your room?" "Hush, hush, darling..." "Hush, hush..." "In the window..." "In the window?" "I wouldn't mind a house like this." "On a policeman's salary?" "Get a few shots of the Mercedes." "It's so..." "Hey, boy!" "Hey, hey..." "Does she have to be examined?" "I don't know yet." "Did he adjust his mask at all?" "Did you see anything of his face?" "And he was dressed all in black?" "He..." "He said...if I told anyone he'd come back and kill my mom and dad." "But he never touched you?" "He never touched...me." "He just stood there outside the window and...spoke." "Daddy..." "I just have to ask you..." "Is there anyone in the neighborhood that you have the slightest suspicion about?" "Sören Tillström." "He and his grandmother run the local grocery store, Tillströms Livs." "He's...odd." "I hope you know that you're invaluable" "That you're important here and now" "This is the truth and it's infallible" "Cause you are loved for who you are" "There may be many people telling you" "That you must act a certain way" "But God who loves us all accepts you anyway" "That's good to know, wouldn't you say" "I hope you know that you're invaluable" "That you're important here and now" "This is the truth and it's infallible" "Cause you are loved for who you are" "In God's creation there's a place for you" "And you may choose it, if you will" "To find out what's your part and what you're meant to do" "It's up to you to fulfill" "I hope you know that you're invaluable" "That you're important here and now" "This is the truth and it's infallible" "Selinda..." "May the Holy Spirit be with you forever." "The Body of Christ, given for thee." "The Blood of Christ, shed for thee." "The Blood of Christ, shed for thee." "The Blood of Christ, shed for thee." "Dear friends, you now belong to Jesus Christ." "You have been called upon to join in the great task of making his love and righteousness known in the world." "He will not forsake you." "He is with you always, until the end of time." "They're getting divorced." "They haven't said so yet." "But I know it." "Where the hell am I gonna go?" "You can live with me." "Have you been confirmed?" "What do you think?" "More champagne?" "Yes, please." "Can I top you up?" "Yes, please." "No, thanks." "You have." "Hi, Carl." "How are you?" "Emelie, she..." "He came to her window." "Who did?" "Could you give the catering staff their tip before they leave?" "Good." "Who's that from?" "The Nyströms." "Why aren't they here?" "Carl said that some man tried to climb into Emelie's room last night." "What?" "CRIMINAL RECORD" "Indecent exposure to a minor" "Where did you get this?" "Barbro." "At the police." "If it's him..." "I'll kill him." "For your memories, dreams and reflections." "You are invaluable." "Daddy" "All right, so daddy thinks I'm weird." "That's why he gives me a diary for my confirmation." "I don't even want to write at all." "And if he thinks I'm going to write something secret, he's wrong." "I'm just asking you to keep an eye on him." "What the...?" " Because I've got nothing to say." "He just rode past my window." "So why am I writing?" "Maybe because he's so into Jung or whatever his name is." "But I've got nothing to say." "Because nothing ever happens in my life." "What the hell do you think you're doing, Rebecca?" "Are you out of your mind?" "You could have killed him." "Come." "Sorry!" "Just shut up!" "Are you happy now?" "I go wherever the fuck I want!" "Like hell you do!" "Calm down." "I've got to know where she is." "That's not up to you." "She's just a damn kid!" "Stop shouting!" "I just want a smoke, goddamnit!" "Are you happy now?" "About what?" "The way you behave towards me!" "There's always something!" "Shut up!" "You better damn well watch yourself." "I could tell you to calm down, too." "Are you sleeping with her?" "What?" "Your personal trainer, are you sleeping with her?" "God who treasures children all, keep me safe for I am small." "When I walk the world a stranger, God keeps me away from danger." "Joy may come and joy may go, Loving God joys He'll bestow." "Amen." "Goodnight, sweetheart." "You're room is so high up." "They're asleep." "Hi..." "Come." "Take off your shoes." "Do you realize what you're doing?" "You scared us half to death." "Are you listening to me?" "Why were you sneaking around?" "Like some crazed pervert." "Listen to me." "I just don't think I've done anything wrong." "What's the big deal?" "What did you say?" "What's wrong with sex?" "For God's sake, you're just a child." "There's nothing wrong with making love to someone." "But it's a powerful force." "I know you're a mature girl and you think you know what you want and what you're doing, but..." "Daddy?" "Daddy?" "Maybe you should talk to someone?" "Someone who can sort out your feelings." "I've started writing my diary..." "And your ambitions." "Because in any case it can't go on like this with boyfriends and sneaking around." "We'll find someone to help you gain control." "And balance." "What do you think about that?" "Or maybe you'd rather talk to me." "Maybe I can help you understand?" "But there's nothing to understand." "What is it you don't get?" "Listen to me." "You don't seem to understand what I'm trying to say." "I don't think you should have sex with your boyfriend at all." "Okay?" "Answer me." "But he's not my boyfriend." "He's just a friend." "Does it bother you that she's sexually active?" "She's just a child." "Would you prefer not to know that she's having sex?" "I would prefer that she wasn't having sex at all." "But..." "Actually..." "It's about much more than that." "I don't think she's well." "I realize that she has a sexuality, but..." "She's so young." "And she's mine." "What did you say?" "I don't mean it like that." "It's just that she..." "She was our little girl." "Just a second ago." "So I carry on..." "Smiling, going to school..." "Helping out at home." "Looking after my brother and sister..." "And being good." "And well-behaved." "I don't understand why you're not doing anything." "I've told you a thousand times and now we have evidence!" "You can't keep saying that all the time!" "Doing everything a teenager is supposed to do." "I never complain." "Well, yes I do, but only as much as is normal." "It wouldn't be normal never to complain." "But it's easier to pretend." "To keep on smiling." "But sometimes it feels as if my lungs were filled with rocks..." "And I can't breathe." "And then I just want to sleep." "Because sleeping is really the best thing I know." "Even though I dream." "All the time." "Horrible, violent things." "When I remember." "But dreams are real." "Even if we don't remember them." "Grandma, I can do that." "Let me do that." "It's fine." "I'll do it, grandma." "I'll do it." "And they make us do things we don't always want to do." "I'll start with dinner." "I can't be the only one who sees." "So why do they pretend It's not there?" "Am I the only one who sees?" "Dinner is ready." "I'm coming." "Is that...?" "Will you stop it?" "Leave me alone!" "Get out!" "It's not easy being a man in this culture." "Unless you talk about business." "Which I don't mind, actually." "But I don't sail, I don't play golf, I don't hunt..." "You want something more." "I want a friend." "But how do you make friends at my age?" "It's ridiculous." "I'm 48 years old, for Christ's sake." "I'm not 15 anymore." "Hi." "Out for a stroll?" "What does it look like?" "Did you do your homework?" "Shall we walk back together?" "See you tonight!" "Look at the sight of you." "Cut it out." "Hi there!" "Welcome!" "Rebecca!" "My, you've grown." "Can I have a beer?" "What would Christoffer say?" "He doesn't care." "Ooh, corrupting a minor, Paul?" "Here you go." "Thanks." "Emelie?" "Little poppet!" "First he lied about it." "Now he says that she didn't mean anything to him." "He wants us to start over." "But I'll be damned if I'm going to live with him until I die." "Are you sure?" "I don't even like him." "Do you need a realtor?" "For the house?" "It's not mine." "He was fiddling around with his fingers and pulled out snot." "And then he kind of rolled it up in a ball." "Here comes the gross part." "He put it in his mouth." "The guy is disturbed, for Christ's sake!" "The police are not sure yet." "Who else could it be?" "I'm telling you, it's got to be him." "Let's go talk to him." "You're a hunter." "You've got a rifle." "Yes, I've got a rifle." "Great." "He lives just up the street." "There's no proof." "Proof?" "What the hell?" "!" "Does he have to kill a child or what?" "Calle, we're just gonna talk to him." "I have to use the bathroom." "Sure, you go ahead." "Hi." "Did you talk to the von Wrights?" "James just got back from Geneva." "Isn't that where your Jung thing is?" "You should talk to him." "Paul..." "How's it going, Paul?" "Can't you sleep over?" "I have a TV in my room." "Or at my house." "Are you up for it, Selinda?" "Hey, I think I just saw someone." "In the window." "Mom!" "He's gone now, but I saw someone." "You saw a man?" "A shadow or someone moving." "You did not!" "You're lying!" "You're just trying to scare us." "Selinda said she saw someone in the window just to scare us." "How can you joke about this?" "I saw it." "No, you didn't." "I could smack you." "She doesn't understand." "Come on..." "What happened?" "Selinda said she saw someone in the window." "Why did you say that?" "You want me to lie?" "Why do you only touch me at parties or when I'm on the phone?" "Huh?" "Why is that?" "Do you believe in God?" "I believe in you." "Where have you been?" "Is it true that you've been unfaithful?" "That's so fucking shitty." "It's just the wind." "They can go to hell." "All of them." "I can also close my eyes." "I can also shut my ears." "I can also pretend." "I'll bite my tongue off." "I'll never say another word." "I'll turn to stone." "I'll become a tree." "Will anything I've ever done mean anything to anyone?" "Will anyone remember me?" "Shush..." "Wake up Selinda." "Look over here..." "See this knife?" "If you say anything or scream, I'll cut your throat." "And I'll kill your father and mother and your brother, who's sleeping in their bed." "Right?" "You can get up now." "I want you to get dressed." "Put on something dark, please." "Did you have fun at the party?" "It looked like fun." "People were having a good time, right?" "We're going to go outside now." "If you try anything or scream, I'll kill you." "You don't need any shoes." "Come here now." "Come to me." "Do you still fuck your boyfriend after school?" "Come on, Selinda." "I know you're not dead." "That's it..." "That's it..." "Good." "You're awake." "We're going for a walk, you and I." "We're going to a very special place, that I know you like it." "It's not so bad, actually." "And it goes fast." "Come..." "Let me out!" "Let me out!" "Let me out!" "Take it easy, Nicke." "Daddy's here now." "Hey..." "Calm down." "Did he seem young or old to you?" "I don't know." "How tall was he?" "Average, I think." "Did you get the feeling that you might have seen him before?" "I don't think so." "I don't know." "Eye color?" "Behind the mask?" "And..." "His penis?" "I couldn't see." "What can you tell me, Selinda?" "He was careful not to come on me." "It was over on the other side of the golf course." "He seemed to have thought out that place beforehand." "Near the stream." "In a glade." "My glade." "I think we'd better take you to the hospital for observation." "Where's mom?" "Thanks." "Children of the heavenly Father" "Safely in His bosom gather" "Nestling bird nor star in Heaven" "Such a refuge" "You know, these never disintegrate." "Nature can't handle them." "There..." "Feel better now?" "But, daddy..." "Where were you?" "Why didn't you help her?" "Please, God..." "How the hell could you let this happen?" "Selinda who's such a good person." "Why her?" "Why not me?" "The movers are coming tomorrow." "I want to be ready before Christoffer comes." "Why are you sitting on the floor?" "Everything will be fine." "I ought to poke my eyes out." "What do you mean?" "She said she saw someone outside the window." "I should have listened." "I should have seen it." "I understand." "No, you don't." "Don't worry." "We'll get through this." "Take care of yourself and Rebecca." "You know what happened to me in college." "If Selinda needs to talk to someone..." "We're going to talk to someone." "All of us together." "For God's sake, do that." "I never did." "Well, you can think of it like there's been an accident." "Selinda has been hurt." "But she's alive." "There's nothing to be ashamed of." "Selinda?" "Please, say something." "I'm here and you're there." "What's the point?" "No one can know what it feels like, right?" "Paul?" "What are we supposed to say if...?" "Go on." "If people ask." "What should we say?" "What do we answer?" "You tell them whatever you feel comfortable with." "I'm just glad he didn't rape me." "He sort of grabbed hold of me and dragged me to a glade." "My glade, that is." "Then he asked me if I knew what a blow job was." "And he told me that I had a choice." "That I could either give him a blow job or else he'd fuck me." "And so I gave him a blow job." "And then he pushed me away and he came." "And he didn't spill one single drop, I guess." "Selinda, what you're describing..." "That is rape." "Selinda?" "It's okay." "Turn it back on!" "No!" "Stop it!" "Stop it!" "When I tell you to do something, you do it!" "Huh?" "!" "It's not fair!" "Shut up, Astrid!" "Paul!" "Dad!" "Dad, what's the "Saltsjöbaden Agreement"?" "Selinda, I'm..." "I'm really sorry I couldn't..." "That I couldn't..." "Sorry, I didn't mean to disturb." "I feel sorry for Christoffer, don't you?" "Is he going to live in that house all by himself?" "I'm sure he'll sell eventually, once the market picks up." "How does that feel?" "Good." "Deer hunting in Skåne, you said?" "Should be nice." "When did you get your license?" "It was a long time ago." "I'm glad you called, Paul." "Do you play golf?" "Maybe we could go for a round sometime?" "Do you have bullets?" "I better get going now." "Paul, there's something you should know." "Sören, the guy from the grocery store..." "He got arrested for indecent exposure a few years back." "Victoria is convinced it's him." "I just wanted to let you know." "Take care, Paul." "Take care of your family." "No, I don't understand." "Explain it to me." "We've analyzed everything." "There's no physical evidence." "Not a single strand of hair, no bodily fluids, nothing." "Nothing from her clothes or from the medical tests on Selinda." "It's almost as if it was imagination." "The person, or persons, who committed these crimes..." "The more we look into it, the more..." "Someone has thought this through down to the smallest detail." "But explain to me what's so goddamn difficult, when you know who it is?" "Sören Tillström is only one possible suspect." "There's no evidence whatsoever." "But go his house and find the evidence then." "The mask is probably there, and the knife." "He's been arrested for exposing himself, he spies on the girls..." "He lives just a few blocks away..." "Do your job, for Christ's sake!" "I can assure you we're doing everything we can." "I can't fucking believe this." "We're just as anxious as you to solve this case." "How could you be?" "And this is not a case." "It's my daughter." "Hey, Emelie..." "If you asked your dad for a horse, would he give you one?" "I don't know." "What about you?" "I don't even want a horse." "So I wouldn't ask my dad." " So now you want my love!" " Let's carry on like before then!" "We can't!" " What happened, happened." " It can happen again!" " We have our friends here." " What friends?" "Hi ..." "Come." " Why did we leave London?" " That has nothing to do with this!" " Oh really?" "!" " We can't do anything!" " We have to!" "Dad is losing his mind." "I had such a strange dream last night." "I dreamt that I was out in the garden and that there was this big vicious snake there." "Tell me if I scare you." "So this snake is really dangerous and it can bite me at any moment." "And then suddenly I can't see it anymore..." "But I know it's still there." "So in the dream I realize that I have to find a way to deal with this snake." "And live with the fact, that it is always going to be there." "I don't dream." "I don't think." "That's probably smart." "Do you want to ask me something about what happened?" "If you asked your dad for a horse, would he give you one?" "Do you know who I am?" "I've seen you." "Do you realize what you've done?" "!" "Don't wake up grandma." "I'm going into your house now." "You're not allowed." "I'm going to find the knife you used." "And the mask." "You've woken grandma up." "You have to go!" "How did it feel?" "Did it feel good?" "Huh?" "Answer me!" "Answer me!" "What the hell are you doing?" "!" "You fucking idiot!" "Dickhead!" "Sören!" "Go inside and call the police." "He paints a lot of rubbish, that's all." "He's got nothing to do with what they write about in the papers." "And what about exposing himself to an innocent girl?" "You know what he's done!" "I know what you've done, Sören!" "You know what you've done!" "I can't reach her." "I can't help her." "What the hell am I going to do?" "We can't go on like this." "I can't take it anymore." "I'm too old." "You'll have to go and stay with uncle Julius in Copenhagen." "No." "Yes, he'll take care of you." "No, I don't want to." "You have to." "You have to, Sören." "I don't want to." "Stop it!" "That's all I have, grandma!" "Thank you." "You were lucky." "They've withdrawn their allegations." "Wonder why?" "Listen to me..." "You're not going to like what I've got to say." "But I'm serious." "We understand." "We're convinced this is far beyond what Sören Tillström is capable of." "Is it?" "Yes, it is." "Whoever did this, spent a lot of time and effort planning this." "Against both girls." "Tillström simply isn't capable." "Okay." "He's sick, but it's not him." "Who is it then?" "We're still looking." "You'll never find him." "Paul..." "You've got nothing." "You're just waiting for him to strike again." "We're going to get him." "We're not done with this investigation." "You have to trust us." "What do you care?" "Please..." "It's just a job for you." "I had a job, too." "It's useless." "The shadow falls where it falls." "I'm sorry." "He..." "He blames himself for not being able to protect her." "I understand." "Hey..." "Thanks for your help." "We'll have to hurry home and change." "Shall we pass by the bakery and pick up some breakfast?" "Mom, please be quiet." "The summer days of beauty" "In blessedness are come" "The flowers are rejoicing" "To feel the gleaming sun" "In grace arisen brightly" "Over fields of golden grain" "So warm and all restoring" "That nature lives again" "The fragrance of the meadows" "The planting In the vale" "The whispers of the forest" "Through branches green and hale" "These wonders all remind us" "How great the stores of wealth" "Of Him whose hand has made us" "Who gives us life and health" "She looks nice." "Shall we talk to her?" "Suit yourself." "Hi!" "Are you moving in here?" "Yeah." "I'm Astrid, I live over there." "Paul, could you pick up the dry cleaning, please?" "Sure." "Go ahead." "You've probably already read it." "I haven't read your diary, I promise." "Some things are private, you know." "Of course." "I'd never read your diary without your permission." "You might see something you don't want to see." "Is there something you want me to see?" ""BETWEEN HEAVEN AND HELL" BY:" "PAUL KINDLUND" ""The Fallen Angels and the development of human consciousness"" "When the Angels fell from Paradise to Earth they were blinded." "They were intended as a link between God and Man." "Hi, Ringo!" "Look at this!" "The Fallen Angels discovered the way the human mind works." "It is always hiding." "It always moves away from the tender." "From the raw." "Experiencing the Shadow too harshly or too suddenly can be destructive." "It's important to recognize the darkness, but not to drown in it." "Otherwise life can seem meaningless." "And the power of the Shadow can obliterate everything." "But the ability to hope makes a huge difference to the human psyche." "Hope, means, giving oneself a chance." "Emelie!" "Hi!" "The Fallen Angels struggled with their knowledge of darkness and light." "In a world filled with fear and desire, they struggled to hold onto their ideals." "And they understood that the Shadow must be recognized and included otherwise it may take over." "With that insight the Angels discovered there was no going back." "They had entered Time." "They had entered Humanity." "They had entered Compassion." "They were awake." "And holding the World in their hands." "They had given up the starry sky."