"'If anyone finds this, it means my plan... didn't work... and I'm already dead." " Evan?" " I think he's in here." "But if I can somehow go back to the beginning" " all of this, I might be able" " Evan!" "To save her.'" "Evan!" "Evan!" "We're gonna be late again." "When did you ever care about getting to school on time?" "We're putting up pictures for parents' night." "Don't worry, you'll have plenty of time." "Is Dad gonna come?" "You know the answer to that." "Can't he just come out for one day?" "We've been over this 100 times." "It's too dangerous for him." "But Lenny said his dad's coming, and Tommy and Kayleigh's dad..." "Okay, I get the point." "But I'm not so bad, am I?" "No." "Okay, have a great day." "I love you." "I'll pick you up later." "Gotta go." "Bye." "Bye!" "Mrs Treborn, I need to speak with you." "Can it wait till tonight?" "I'm late for work and..." "I think you really need to see this." "Tommy, leave Lenny alone." "Don't make me send you to Mr Voytek's office." "I was gonna show this to the principal, but I thought I should talk to you first." "What is it?" "Yesterday I had all the children make drawings of what they wanted to be when they grew up." "Most of them made drawings of what their parents did." "But this..." "I don't understand." "Evan did this?" " Can I keep this drawing?" " Oh, of course." "Um, there is one more thing, Mrs Treborn," " I feel bad even mentioning." " What?" "When I asked Evan about the drawing, well, he couldn't remember doing it." "I don't wanna go." "I don't like this place, Mum." "I think it's creepy." "I promise I won't make any bad pictures." "You're gonna be fine, okay?" "He just wants to do a couple tests, that's all." " Oh." " You'll like him." "That's good." "You're doing great." "Just tell me he hasn't inherited his father's illness." "I'm sure the test results will come back negative." "But there's something else you can do to monitor his memory." " Anything." " A journal." "Just have him write down everything that he does." " And what will that do?" " It could help jog his memory." "See if he remembers anything new the next day." "These test results will come back in a few days" " and we'll take it from there." " Okay." "'Today Mummy is taking me to play with Kayleigh and Tommy." "I will meet their father and see what a real dad is like.'" "Great, see you soon." "Evan..." "Evan, what are you doing with that knife?" "What happened?" "Honey... what were you doing with that knife?" "I don't remember." " Hey, Andrea." " George." "Hello, little man." "Watch your step." "Thanks, George." " Not a problem." " Here's my work number in case there are any problems." "And please keep an eye on him 'cause..." "What, are you kidding?" "We're going to have a great time today, right, sport?" "Okay, be good, kiddo." "I love you." " Bye-bye." " Bye, George." "Go long." "Go on." "Right in the backyard." "Here it comes." "Evan, Evan, guess what?" "Dad got a new video camera and we're all going to be in a movie." "That's right, Evan." "And you get to be the star." "I thought I was the star." "Hey, what did I tell you?" "Now, Evan..." "You have to promise your bestest, super-duper promise that this will be our little secret." " You think you can do that?" " Um-hmm." "I'm r..." "Where am I?" "Where did we all go?" "Calm down, kid, stand still." "I was just somewhere else." "How did I get here?" "Quit acting like some damn retard, or I'll call your mother and tell her what a naughty little shit you've been." "Kayleigh..." "Kayleigh... what happened?" "The good news is the results are negative." "I found no evidence of lesions, haemorrhaging, tumours." "But you must have something you can go on." "If I was to guess, I'd say the blackouts are stress related." "But he's seven years old." "What kind of stress can a seven-year-old have?" "Plenty." "Maybe he has severe coping problems about not having a father." "You said the last time the blackouts occurred he was visiting his friend's dad." "Well, he has been pushing me to meet his father" " and I've been putting it off." " It's worth a shot, Andrea." "We can arrange a controlled meeting." "A careful dose of sedatives for Jason, some security," "Evan comes in for a quick visit, and with a little luck, no more missing father complex." "'April 15th." "Today I get to meet my father." "His name is Jason and he's crazy." "I hope he lets me call him Dad.'" "You mean Dad lives here?" "Not in this wing, actually, no." "Now if your dad seems a little sleepy, it's because of the medicine, okay?" "Okay." "It'll just be a moment, okay?" "It's okay." "I won't bite." "You've seen pictures of me, right?" "Uh-huh." "Mum says I have your smile and your hair." "Nooo!" "He has to die!" "It's the only way!" "Jason, stop!" "No!" "It's gonna be okay." "It's gonna be alright." "He's hurt bad." "Get a stretcher." " Come on, let's get him out of here." " I'm so sorry." "In sure and certain hope of the resurrection to eternal life, we commend to almighty God, our brother Jason." "The Lord bless him and keep him, the Lord make his face to shine upon him, and be gracious unto him and give him peace." "Amen." "Come on, where is it?" "Damn, I know it's down here somewhere." "Tommy, I'm bored shitless over here." "What's up already?" "Yeah, what are you looking for, anyway?" "Shut up, lard arse." "And you, hold your fucking horses." "You know, it's here somewhere." "We should go soon." "If dad catches us smoking down here, we're dead." "So let's go." "I knew Dad had a blockbuster down here!" "Let's blow the shit out of something." "Here you go, buddy." "What?" "No freaking way." " I'm not touching this thing." " The hell you aren't." "Any of us does it and you're gonna puss out and nark for sure." "Ain't gonna work this time, buddy." "Look how small this fuse is." " I'll get killed." " Not necessarily." "There you go." "It should buy you two minutes at least." "Gee thanks, friend." "Aw, for Christ's sake, Lenny, you moron, just do it." " Thanks." " You got balls, man." "Shit took you long enough." "What the hell?" "Come on!" "Evan, come on." "Help me get him up!" "Evan, get your arse back here and help me get him up." "What the hell happened?" "Where are we?" "Oh my God." "What did we do?" "Evan, come on." "Help me." "Oh my God, how could we?" " Come on, let's go!" " Shit, Lenny, what happened to you?" "He's fine." "He's gonna be okay." "Everything's gonna be fine." "What's wrong with him?" "Why isn't he speaking?" "He's in shock, ma'am." "What is it?" "What happened?" "We were just in the woods building a fort when Lenny freaked out." "One minute he was okay, and then he just froze up." "Right, guys?" "What happened, Evan?" "The truth." "I don't know." "I don't remember." "Something must have happened." "Something set him off." "I blacked it out." "Don't try to use your blackouts to get out of this one." "You're not making it up?" "Breathe in and breathe out." "And relax." "You are completely asleep." "Relaxed." "I want you to take me to the time you were in the woods with Lenny." "Think of it like a movie." "You can pause, rewind, or slow down any details you wish." "Understand?" "Yes." "Where are you now?" "I'm standing next to Kayleigh." "My hands are over her ears." "Are you hurting her?" "No, I'm protecting her." "Okay." "Now let's move forward in time." "What do you see?" "I see a car." "Yes, Evan, tell me about the car." "Go on." "Nothing can hurt you." "Remember, it's only a movie." "You are completely safe." "I can't..." "The car vanishes and all of a sudden" "I'm on the ground in the woods." "The car doesn't vanish, Evan." "The movie in your head is broken, that's all." "Now tell me about the car." "I can't!" "It's coming..." "Fight it, Evan, hurry." "It's coming!" " Oh my God!" " On the count of 10," " you'll wake up feeling refreshed..." " What are you doing?" "...and remembering everything that we talked about." "What is happening?" "Make it stop!" "One, you're feeling awake." "Two, your eyes are not feeling as heavy." " Five, six." " Wake up!" " Come on, Evan, wake up!" "Nine, 10." " Wake up!" "Oh God." "What happened?" "Did it work?" "Alright, thanks, Mum." "See you later." "Wipe that sad-arse look off your face before you get us busted." "Did you see the way Evan's mum was looking at you?" "Sorry." "Alright, will someone tell me already what the hell happened with the mailbox?" "Don't you ever bring that shit up again." "Not ever!" "Let's go." "Are you okay?" "Holy shit!" "Look at that fat fuck!" "He's got bigger titties than Lenny's mum." " Shhh!" " Shut up, faggot." "No one's talking to you." "I'm sorry, Kayleigh, this was a bad idea." "You really don't remember anything that happened?" "You're so lucky." "Look, everything's gonna be okay." "Lenny'll be fine." "You'll see." "Sorry." "It's not your fault." "Mrs Kagan called Dad and blamed us for what happened to Lenny." "Your dad did that?" " I deserve a lot worse." " What are you talking about?" "What you deserve is a better father and brother." "All they do is make you feel like shit." "You really have no clue how beautiful you are, do you?" "What the fuck are you doing?" "!" "Buying popcorn." "What the fuck are you doing?" " Whoops." " I can't believe you freaking did that." " He's a little punk." " Why are you being such a dick?" "I can't believe what you just did." "Stop it!" "Stop hitting him." "What's wrong with you?" "Somebody, please help us." "Alright, that's it, kid." "You're out of here." "Get him away!" "Get him away!" "Now in another story, the peaceful town of Briarville was rocked this afternoon in the wake of a horrible act of vandalism." "While police officials in upstate New York believe this was a simple act of criminal mischief gone awry, the tragedy has clearly devastated the community." "Now this was the grisly aftermath of a powerful explosion believed to have been caused by an unknown quantity of dynamite." "The police have no leads, no suspects and no motive..." "Good night." "We're moving." "I can't believe Tommy's still pissed at me." "He knows I'm moving away, right?" "He's been acting real strange lately." "He won't even look me in the eyes anymore." "Duck, here they come!" "Did your mum say if Lenny was okay?" "He must be." "I mean, they're letting him out, right?" "Welcome home." "I thought you might like some fresh air for a change." " Is Tommy with you guys?" " No." "It's cool." "So, what'd you do in there?" "It was awful." "You can't sleep because everybody's screaming all night long." "I never want to go back." "Do you see that?" "Yeah, what's up with the smoke?" "Crockett!" "What are you doing with my dog?" "!" " Look what you made me do!" " What the hell's wrong with you?" "!" "Kayleigh." "Oh, God, come on, please wake up." "Wake up, please!" "Wake up!" "Why don't you fucking kiss her, Prince Charming?" "Ow." "How long was I out?" "Kayleigh, what's wrong?" "Oh shit." "I'm sorry." "Aced it." "And time." "Put your pencils down and place your bluebooks on my desk before you leave." "You too, Mr Nelson." "We're all in the same time-zone, here." "So how'd you do, Evan?" "I don't know." "I might have got some of the stories mixed up." "Was it Pavlov that conditioned his dog to lick his nuts?" "Typical psych major, a complete wise-arse." "And how's your project coming?" "Are you still planning to change the way we humble scientists" " view memory assimilation?" " Don't really have a choice." "Oh, jeez, it smells like patchouli and arse in here." "Cricket, this is my well-mannered roommate, Evan." "Yeah... you're the one that fucked up the bell curve on my anthropology final." " Later, Thumper." " Bye." "Fucking dick." " Wow, sweet girl, man." " I found your shirt, bro'." "Oh, you sick fuck." "Alright, man, get dressed." "You're taking me out." "Why, what'd you do, ace another midterm?" "No." "Better than that, seven years, no blackouts." "Fuck yeah, bro', let's do this!" " Oh, yeah!" " Yeah!" "Come and get it." "Be gentle with me!" "Be gentle!" "I'm postcoital." "I'm tender." "Did she cradle the balls and work the shaft?" "Nice." "Look at this fucking guy." "Get the fuck out of my bar." "So, which one of you has the pet worm?" "Worms, plural!" "Ah." "That's so gross." "Talk to him about it." "He's got the fetish." "Watch it." "It's a psych project actually." "It's a study on memory loss." "Better explain before all this excitement gives me a heart attack." "10 bucks says he eats it off the floor." "Well, if I can figure out how the memories in a simple worm function, it should help me to understand the complexities... of the human brain." "Let me get this shot." " What the fuck, weirdo?" "!" " Fuck this..." "Well, I guess that's your game." "Go, you go." "It smells like sex in here." "Yeah, Thumper had a busy afternoon." "You're kidding?" "He's so big." "Yeah." "Well, I guess charisma and eyeliner go a long way." " You want a beer?" " Yeah." "You got any incense or scented candles or something?" "Okay." "Whoa, no." "Let me put this away." "Most guys usually tuck porn under their bed." "All you've got are comp books?" "Yeah, they're my journals." "I've been keeping them since I was seven." "Wow." "Read me something." "I ought to be getting something out of this." "That's all I've got to say." "Here we go." "'It's like my mind refuses to believe what I'm seeing.'" "'..." "Hearing Crockett make those awful screams." "Just writing about it gives me the shivers.'" "Come on." "Go on." "'It was like Tommy was possessed or something." "There was a hate in his eyes that... '" "Are you okay?" "Where am I?" "What the hell's going on?" "I can't get it open!" "Drop it or I'll slit your mother's throat in her sleep." "Uhh!" "I got him, Lenny." "Save Crockett!" "Listen to me, Evan, and you listen to me good." "There's a million other sisters in the world, so why'd you have to fuck with mine?" "It's okay." "It was just a dream." "Uh-huh... it didn't feel like a dream." "Maybe because they never do." "So, Don Juan, you pass out on all your dates?" "Lenny... hey, I've got a surprise for you." "You're never gonna guess who's here." "Hey, it's me..." "Evan." "What are you working on there?" "A model?" "Look, uh..." "I can see that you're busy, so I'll try to make this quick." "Remember, uh... that day at the junkyard when we were kids?" "I was just hoping that you could help me remember." "Like, just any details about it or..." "I couldn't cut the rope." "Yeah... that's good." "Um... anything else?" "'Drop it or I'll slit your mother's throat in her sleep!" "'" "Uh..." "Jesus Christ." "It really happened." "Wow, uh..." "Wow, Lenny, I..." "'Make one peep and I swear it'll be your last, motherfucker.'" "'The last thing I remember before the blackout was holding my hands over Kayleigh's ears." "I think I was more focused on her hands on mine than on the mailbox... across the street.'" "Maybe it went out, should someone check it?" "Yeah, you do that, Lenny." "You make one peep and I swear it'll be your last, motherfucker." "Ugh!" "Fuck!" "What's this?" "Huh?" "What's this?" "Want to get the mail?" "How's my sweet girl?" "How's my sweet girl?" "You need a change, don't you, honey?" "You wanna open it?" "You wanna open it?" " Oh my God!" " Holy shit!" "Run!" "Fuck, Lenny, come on!" "Lenny, come on!" "Come on, Lenny, let's go!" "No, baby." "That's my finger in your arse." "Christ, man." "Fuckin' brutal!" "What the...?" " Hello." " Hello." "Who is this?" "Mrs Kagan, um, it's Evan..." "Treborn." "I hope you know how much you upset Lenny." "Yeah, I'm..." "look, I'm really sorry about that." "It took me over an hour to clean up the mess you made." "Can I just talk to Lenny?" "Don't call here." "Mum." "I can't help it." "I'm just so proud of you." "Hey, did... did Dad..." "Did Jason get good grades?" "Please, he got straight As without ever touching a book." "It was the one area his memory never failed him." "Did he ever say that he, like... figured out a way to recall his lost memories like years after he blacked them out in the first place?" " Why do you ask?" " No, I just figured with him being you know, such a brain and all it's like, you would think that he would figure out a way to remember stuff that he forgot." "Well, when he was your age... almost exactly your age come to think of it, he said he figured out a way to remember his past." "I couldn't tell if they were real memories or just his imagination." "Then, just before it got so bad, he... had to be institutionalised, he said he could..." "What?" "What?" "What... what did he do?" "Forget it." "It's nothing." "He was far too sick by then." "'I never wanted to be in the movie, anyway." "I was cold, so I wanted to wear my clothes." "Mr Miller took my shirt off.'" "What the fuck are you doing?" "Shhh, I need quiet for this." "Are you stupid or what, man?" "Maybe there's a reason you repressed the day some pervert had you in your tighty whities." "I'd think twice about what you're doing." "You could wake up a lot more fucked up than you are now." " More fucked up than I already am?" " No, I..." "You think you know me?" "I don't know me!" "Whoa!" "I'm sorry." "No, it's my fault." "Can we get through one damn day without you breaking something?" "Hey." "Evan." "Oh my God." "It's been a long time." "How you been?" "Same old, same old, you know?" "No, I don't know." "Fill me in." "Uhh, well..." "I'm going to State now." "It's going good." "My Mum's good." " I don't know." " You want a smoke?" " No, not since we were kids." " No?" "I've quit like 100 times." " Are you walking home?" " Uh-huh." " Can I walk you?" " Sure." " Oh my God." " So... how's Tommy?" "Well, they kept him in juvie for a few years, but now he's working over at Dale's Auto Body." "That's good." "Still living with your dad?" "No." "I emancipated myself at 15." "Must've taken a lot of courage." "Not if you remember my dad." "Well, couldn't you have just moved in with your mum?" "No, she had a new family." "Wasn't enough room." "Whatever." "Well look, the reason I came back to town was to talk to you." "To me?" "Why?" "Well... remember when we were kids and I used to have those blackouts?" "Yeah, of course." "Well, some of those memories have been coming back to me." "And I just..." "I wanted to talk to you about one of them in particular." "Well, I'll try to remember." "When we were kids, uh... your dad was making a movie about Robin Hood... something." "What do you want to know, Evan?" "!" "Is... did he..." "What happened in the basement?" "Look, it was a long time ago." "I know." "Is that why you came all the way back here?" "To ask a lot of stupid questions about Robin Hood?" "No, I..." "I just think that something really bad might have happened." "Is there a point to any of this?" "Look, whatever happened it wasn't our fault." "We were kids." "I mean, there was nothing that we could do to deserve..." "Just shut up, Evan!" "You're wasting your breath." "You can't hate yourself 'cause your dad's a twisted freak." "Who are you trying to convince, Evan?" "You come all the way back here to stir up my shit just because you have a bad memory?" "What, do you want me to just cry on your shoulder and tell you everything's all better now?" "Well, fuck you, Evan!" "Nothing's all better, okay?" "Nothing ever gets better." "You know, if I was so wonderful, Evan, why didn't you call me?" "Why did you just leave me here to rot?" "When he was your age... almost exactly your age, come to think of it... he said he figured out a way to remember his past." "Some dude left a message for you." "You can smell that all the way to the bathroom." "Hi, Evan, this is Professor Carter." "I just wondered why you didn't hand in your essay this afternoon." "I was a bit concerned." "Call me to schedule a make-up." "What'd you say to my sister, motherfucker?" "Last night she cried on the phone for over an hour to me." "She said you came and saw her last night." "She... she fucking killed herself tonight." "She's dead... and so are you!" "'If the scar on my stomach didn't just come out of nowhere, maybe my father wasn't as crazy as everyone thought." "If I can make scars, do I have the power to heal them?" "What about Kayleigh's scars?" "'" "'I never wanted to be in the movie, anyway." "It was cold, so I wanted to wear my clothes." "But Mr Miller took my shirt off.'" "I've got an idea." "Let's go down to the basement." "It'll look more like a dungeon down there." "A little light here." "Huh?" "Hey, now what did I tell you about keeping that door shut?" "But I wanna see." "You're going to see the back of my fist in about two seconds if you don't do what I tell you." "Now, in this part of the story," "Robin Hood has just married Maid Marian and they have to kiss and stuff, like the grown-ups do." "So, take off your clothes, Kayleigh." "Come on, just like when we take a bath." "Don't make a big deal out of it." "You too, Evan." "Come on, let's go." "Let's go." "We're making a movie here." "Put your hands on your ears." "What time is it?" "It's time for you to do what I tell you to do." "Wrong answer, fuckbag!" "This is the very moment of your reckoning." "In the next 30 seconds, you're going to open up one of two doors." "The first door will forever traumatise your own flesh and blood." "What... what's happening?" "How are you doing this?" "It'll change your daughter from a beautiful child into an empty shell whose only concept of trust was betrayed by her own sick paedophile father!" "Ultimately... it'll lead to her suicide." " Nice work, Daddy." " Who are you?" "Let's just say you're being closely watched, George!" "Your other option is to treat Kayleigh like... say like a loving father treats his daughter." "Sound okay to you, Papa?" "Yes." "Listen close then, fuckbag." "You screw this up again," "I'll flat out castrate you." "What you need to do is discipline your son Tommy, because the kid is one sadistic pup." "One last thing." "Don't ever touch me again!" "L..." "I won't." "Ahhh!" "Faster, faster!" "Crockett!" "Kayleigh, I can't believe you came!" "I think you got one." "Check out our new house." " Forever." " Hell or high water." "Honey, are you alright?" "Oh my god, Evan, you're bleeding." "Kayleigh, you're still..." "You..." "Incredible." "Well, thanks." "Go get cleaned up and come back to bed." "Ohh." "Where are my clothes?" "Those are your clothes, silly." "The bathroom is..." "Hurry up." "I want a quickie before school." "What?" "Unfucking believable." "Alright." "I wish I could get as excited over a nosebleed." "Sorry, uh, I didn't see you there." "What?" "You're the girl that was with those arseholes throwing popcorn at Thumper." "What?" "And your name is Gwen." "I know you." "Seriously, Evan, lay off the blow." " Hi." " Hi." "Hey, um... don't freak out when I ask you this, but... do you remember when your dad got that video camera?" "What's up, man?" "Yeah, um..." "I think he had it like the first day and then he gave it away or something." "Why would that freak me out?" "I don't know." "Just being weird." "You are such a goofus." "So I'll see you tonight." "Okay." " Andrea..." " Evan..." " and Chuck..." " aren't home right now." "You know what to do." "Uh, hey, Mum." "It's me." "And hey, Chuck." "Ah, I'm just calling to say hi, I guess." "Give me a call back." "Hey, Thumper, do you know what time it is, man?" "What's the matter, you lost your Rolex?" "Fuck you, frat boy!" "Remember, everyone, there's only two more weeks until your psych projects are due." "Uh, about that essay I missed last week, we're still okay with the extension, right?" "And you are?" "Evan..." "Treborn." "Well, the answer's no, Mr Treborn." "Now please take your seat." "The exam is about to begin." "Alright, settle down, everyone." "The exam will begin in one minute." "Get off me, arsehole." "You guys started that shit." "Evan, you're hysterical." "Did you study for this?" "Oh, uh... we'll find out." "Me neither." "Holy shit!" "Are these the answers?" "Damn, Evan, keep it on the dl." "Hey, uh..." "I want to do something special for Kayleigh tomorrow night." "Uh, so if I said that I needed some help from you and the brothers..." "I'd say, 'blow me.'" "Get the pledges to do it." " Right, the pledges." " Yeah." "You may begin now." "Oh, that was so good." "Oh my God." "Where'd you learn those new tricks?" "Why?" "It... it wasn't weird, was it?" "Yeah, if you call multiple orgasms weird." "Hello?" " Fuck 'em." " Hello?" "Oh." "What do you think it is about us that makes us so perfect?" "I mean... why did you sneak out to visit me after I moved away?" "'Cause I missed you." "What, do you think my dad could have stopped me from seeing you?" "What's he gonna do?" "Oh, my gosh." "My toes are numb." "Do you think that we'll be together forever?" "That is the plan, isn't it?" "'Hell or high water'?" "Yeah." "Yeah, that's..." "I was just making sure." "Yeah, that's the plan!" "Alright, uh... all you rushes, you know what you have to do for me." "Pledges, uh... we're pledges, sir." "Uh, brother Evan, sir." "Are you kidding me?" "What?" "What did you say to me?" "You know what, give me the Greek alphabet." "Give it to me!" " Uhh-uhh." " Uhh-uhh." " Alpha, beta..." " Alpha, beta, gamma, delta... epsilon, zeta, eta, theta, iota, kappa, lambda, mu, nu, xi, omicron, pi, rho, sigma, tau, upsilon, phi, chi, psi, omega, Sir." "Maybe that's what it is." "Don't fucking look at me, look down." "Uh... alright, um... so, you... you pledges you guys know what you need to do for me." "And you guys take a shower and if anyone gives you any trouble, you tell 'em I said it was okay." "What?" "Shower that, bitch." "I don't understand." "Where are you taking me?" "I'm not telling." "Oh my God!" "Wow, it's beautiful." "Go on, sit down." "Thank you." "!" "You gave us some place to go!" "!" "I never said thank you for that...!" "Why are you doing this for me?" "When I woke up this morning..." "I saw your smile." "That smile." "And I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you." "!" "Now I'll never have a chance!" "!" "May angels lead you in...!" "I've been looking all over for you, man." "Someone trashed your car." "What the..." "Who did this?" "!" "Who did it?" "!" "It was probably those Beta fuckers." "No, no, no." "How did somebody get away with this right in front of the frat house?" " Dude, what is that, a dog collar?" " Tommy." "Don't." "He might be watching." "It's my fault." "I should have told you he was released a few weeks ago." "Yeah, it might have been nice." "God." "Like this is gonna do any good." "Maybe one of the frat guys has got a gun." "Evan, don't even joke!" "He's not going to hurt you, okay?" "He's just trying to scare you away from me." "He killed my dog." " You don't remember that?" " Evan, it's not his fault." "You know how bad he had it when we were kids." "Oh no, don't give me this bad upbringing shit." "You turned out just fine." "My father never laid a hand on me." "It's like that prick saved it all up for Tommy." "Okay." "Alright." "Uh..." "We'll let campus security deal with it." "Okay?" "You know what?" "I think I should sleep alone." "No, you're not staying alone." "I'm staying with you." "Evan, I just..." "I don't want Tommy to see us together right now." "No, I lost you once and I'm not losing you again." "What do you mean you lost me once?" "Evan, you've never lost me." "What are you talking about?" "God, you've been acting so weird lately." "Look, my car just got wrecked, okay?" "I'm kind of freaking out." "I know that, but... your accent's changed." " You don't even walk the same." " What, I walk differently?" "I mean, that dinner tonight, it was so beautiful." "It was gorgeous." "But it just wasn't you." "I can't do something nice for you?" "Wait... isn't that your jacket?" "Tommy!" "You stay away from us, you sick fuck." "Oh, get this 'us' shit." "Like I'd ever lay a hand on my own sister." "You're doing real nice for yourself, Evan." "You've got a nice life, you got nice friends, not to mention you're fucking my sister." "Not a bad piece of arse if I say so myself." " Shut up, Tommy!" " Oh, come on." "That's a compliment." "What are you doing, man?" "What the fuck?" "Oh, it's not good enough that the whole fucking world loves you?" "But you've got to take the only thing on this Earth that doesn't think that I'm a piece of shit?" "You know I love you." "No one thinks that you're a piece of shit, Tom." "What was it you said?" "I think I believe it was, 'sick fuck'!" "Don't!" "Tommy!" "Stop!" "Stop!" "Stop!" "Oh my God!" "Stop!" "Oh my God!" "Oh!" "No, Evan!" "Stop!" "Stop it!" " You're gonna kill him!" " He's a fuckin' maniac!" "Don't do this, I'm begging you!" "You ruined Lenny's life!" "You killed Crockett!" "You killed that woman and her baby!" "Now you're trying to kill me." "Just tryin' to fucking kill me!" "Oh my God!" "Oh my God, what did you do?" "Oh my God!" "You right there, faggot!" "First time?" "Yeah." "You'd better not bitch up, man." "You'll wind up someone's luggage that way." "Can you protect me?" "Jesus himself couldn't make me stand up against the brotherhood." "Look, man... when they come, you go someplace else in your head, man." "Be somewhere else." "Back your arse up." "Yo, gimme that." "I spoke to your lawyer." "And he says he's sure he can get you off on self-defence." "So if you're just patient..." "Mum..." "How long am I gonna be in here?" "I don't know." "These things take time." "What about the journals?" "Did you bring the ones I asked you to bring?" "I found these two." "The others are still in storage." "Mum!" "L..." "I need them all, all of them." "And I'm going to get them to you, but right now, you need to concentrate on the case." "Please." "Alright." "You're right." "What about Kayleigh?" "Is she alright?" "Try to tell her I'm sorry." "Time's up." "I'm not going to lose you, kiddo." "Promise me you'll hang on." "Shit on my dick or blood on my knife." "They're mine..." "Come on!" "Back the fuck off!" "Show's over, ladies!" "Put this maggot back in his cell." "Move it!" "Come on, let's go!" "We'll be seeing you later on tonight, little sister." "Let's go, let's go, let's go!" "Come on, Reese." "You're religious, Carlos, you believe in that whole bit, the Lord works in mysterious ways?" "Straight up, man." "'Cause I think Jesus sent me to your cell for a reason." "For you to help me." "Shit." "I knew you were crazy, man." "I ain't bullshitting you." "Jesus speaks to me in my dreams." "Oh, yeah?" "That's cool." "Great." "A pack of smokes says I can prove it to you." "When I'm out, I need you to watch my hands and face closely." "You need to see the prison shrink, man." "Just tell me if you see anything just... weird." "Weirder than this?" "It could be marks." "It could be scars." "It could be anything, I don't know." "'On Wednesday, I got in trouble for a drawing I didn't do." "Mummy won't let me see it." "Hey, no monkey business, Evan." "Sit down and finish your drawing." "That's great, everyone." "Just imagine what you want to be." "There's no limits." "Oh, Mrs Boswell." "Sweet Jesus, it's a miracle!" "Look, it's stigmata, man!" "What'd you see?" "What'd it look like?" "The signs of the Lord, man." "They just come out of nowhere." "Man, I thought you were..." "I though you were fucking crazy, man." "So now you believe me." "Straight up, man." "Wanna make a deal?" "Alright, look." "I'm new here, but I think I get how things work." "You either join a gang or you're dead." "Well, I sure as fuck ain't joining up with no spics or niggers." "And I don't want to die." "So... what do I gotta do?" "I'm the new guy." "I've got to work my way up, so... should I... suck your dick now... or..." "Is your blood pure?" "Well, I ain't no fucking kike, if that's what you're asking me." "Well then, let's see what you got, honey." "Watch the fucking teeth or you'll be leaving without 'em." "Yes, Sir." "Come to daddy." "Carlos!" "'We took the woods behind the junkyard just to make sure we wouldn't bump into Tommy!" "We hadn't seen the smoke yet.'" "Hold 'em." "Hold 'em." "'We took the woods behind the junkyard just to make sure we wouldn't bump into Tommy." "We hadn't seen the smoke yet.'" "Rot in hell, you fucking animals!" "Wait, before we... we need something that could open the sack." "I want you to take this, Lenny." "Today's your day of atonement." "I know how guilty you feel about that woman and her baby." "Evan, stop it." "It's not the time." "Now's the only time!" "Today you get a chance to redeem yourself, to start all over with a clean slate." " What are you talking about?" " Evan, you're acting crazy." "Please, if you've ever trusted me before, trust me on this one." "Cut the rope." "Come on." " Listen to me good, Evan." " I'll do whatever you want." "You don't want me to see Kayleigh ever again, fine." "Just let Crockett go." "Besides, if you kill him now, they'll stick you in juvie for sure." "And I know you'd never leave your sister alone with your father." "Lenny, no!" "Oh God." "Oh God, Lenny." "I said cut the rope." "It's all backwards." "Ah!" "Ah!" "Ah!" "Evan..." "What the fuck?" "Lenny, no!" "Want a ride?" "Lenny!" "Somebody call 911!" "Evan!" "Evan!" "Fuck!" "Evan!" "Hey, doc." "What's the damage?" " How much time do I got?" " Cute, Evan." "It's a little complicated." "I haven't seen results like these before." "Not even with my father?" "Well, actually, they didn't have these tests 20 years ago." "So, what did you find?" "We're finding most of the haemorrhaging is coming from here, the outer layer of the cerebral cortex." "That's where the memories are stored." " Thank you, Evan." " Uh-huh." "I've never seen anything like it." "We compared these to the ones taken last year." "We found severe haemorrhaging and massive neural reconstruction." "What does that mean for Evan?" "What he's saying, Mum, is that I've jammed 40 years worth of memories into my head in the last year." "It's overload city." "I've completely reprogrammed my brain." " That about the gist of it, doc?" " Yeah." "Alright, I'm going to go wait in the car." "The light in here is kind of bugging my eyes, so..." "It was good seeing you, doc." "It really was." "It was very... very informative." "But, you know, I got people to see and things to read." "Alright, see ya." "Hey." "It's me..." "Evan." "Can I get you anything?" "What about..." "what about some of those model airplanes you like, huh?" "I bet I can get a shitload of those model airplanes up in here." "Lenny." "You knew the whole time, didn't you?" "When you put that shard in my hand... you knew something big was going to happen." "Didn't you?" "Yeah..." " I knew." " Then you should be where I am." "You should be where I am." "'Today I get to meet my father." "His name is Jason... and he's crazy." "I hope he let's me call him "Dad."'" "You okay?" "'Cause you look like you went somewhere else there for a second." "Look, Jason, I need some fast answers from you if I'm ever gonna fix what I've done." "I was praying this curse would have ended with me." "Yeah, but it didn't." "So now I need information to make things right again and you're the only one that can give it to me." "There is no right." "You can't change who people are without destroying who they were." "Who says you can't make things better?" "You can't play God, son." "It must end with me." "Just by being here you may be killing your mother." "That's bullshit, you know?" "I'll send you a postcard when I made everything perfect again." "Ahh!" "No, no!" "Just get out, did ya?" "Hmm?" "Oh, nothing, just that my brother did a stint in the pen and he used to eat like that." "I come from a big family." "Well, I meant no offence." "None taken." "Hey, uh..." "Does Kayleigh Miller still work here?" "I'm sorry." "I never heard of her." "God!" "Can't a man get a little goddamned peace in his own house?" "!" "I don't suppose you're here to sell cookies?" "Good guess, fuckbag." "Remember me, huh?" "We had a nice chat once when I was seven." "I got one question for you." "Where can I find your daughter?" "Oh, I thought you were someone else." "Make it fast, I'm expecting someone." "Hey." "It's good to see you." "Can I come in?" "If I knew you were coming," "I would have cleaned the stains off the sheets." "What do you want?" "I just needed to see a friendly face." "Well, time is money, Evan." "Money." "I guess I can spare 10 minutes for an old friend, right?" "So, how's tricks?" "Sorry, occupational humour." "I got it." "You can stop now." "Oh, sorry." "Does my line of work make you uncomfortable, precious?" "No, just that you felt like you had to use it to hurt me." "I've been where you've been." "Ha!" "Where is that?" "You wouldn't believe me if I told you." "I know people always say that, that you wouldn't believe me, but in this case it's not even worth trying, so..." "I knew I needed to find you, so I went over to your dad's and made him tell me where you were." "Then I came here and the rest you know." "You're right, Evan, I don't believe you." "I never thought you would." "That's why I never bothered to tell a soul until now and I never will again." "I'm the only person you've told?" "That's a great line." "Does that make other girls wet?" "Do they actually eat up that bullshit?" "You know, I could give a shit whether you believe me or not." "Frankly, I'm too tired to prove it to you..." "Oh, there's proof now, huh?" "How else would I know you have twin moles on your inner thigh?" "Anyone with 50 bucks could tell you that." "Okay." "Forget that." "How about the fact that you prefer the smell of skunk to flowers?" "Or that you hate cilantro because for some reason unknown to you it reminds you of your stepsister?" "Or that when you have an orgasm, your toes go numb?" "I'm sure all of your clientele are privy to that." "You know?" "Look, I just thought you should know." "Know what?" "That you were happy once... with me." "You know there's one major hole in your story." "There's no fucking way on this planet or any other, I would ever be in some fucking sorority!" "You were happy there." "Oh, you're crying?" "You sure you don't want your wallet?" "No, I don't need it where I'm going." "What, are you off to change everyone else's life again?" "Is that it?" "Maybe next time you'll pop up in some mansion while I end up in Tijuana doing some donkey act." "You know what?" "I'm over it." "Every time I try to help someone everything just goes to shit." "Well, don't give up now, slick." "Hell, you've already done so much for me." "Why don't you go back in time and save Mrs Halpern and her baby?" "And then maybe Lenny wouldn't freak out and ruin my family." "No, go back to when I was seven and fuck me in front of my daddy's video camera." "Straighten me out a bit." "You're on my bed." "Get out!" "Buddy, I thought it would be okay what with you being sick and all." "I'm not going to say it again." "'The last thing I remember before the blackout was holding my hands over Kayleigh's ears." "I think I was more focused on her hands on mine than on the mailbox across the street.'" "Lady, stay back!" "Don't go near the mailbox!" " Idiots!" " I mean it, woman!" "Get the hell back!" "I'll save you, lady!" "God damn it, I thought I told you two to get out." "Oh, sorry, man." "Did we wake you?" "No, it's cool." "Okay." "It's really cool." "What the fuck is this?" " Please save his arm!" " Can you open up my locker?" " Happy Birthday!" " Can I come too?" "Do you want me to hold your popcorn?" "Evan?" "Get a towel!" "Get a towel!" "Evan!" "Oh my God!" "Evan!" "Evan!" "Evan!" "Hey, where you going?" "You ever notice Kayleigh's smile?" "I love her smile." "Lenny's the best." "You guys make a great couple." "You ever think that I'll find someone?" "Evan!" "Where are we going?" "We're taking you to the hospital, Evan." " No, take me back." " Sorry, your mum would kill me." " Oh." " You take me back, Lenny!" "You owe me that much." "What are you geeks looking at?" "It must be nice to be so goddamed perfect, huh?" "Fucking losers!" "Lenny, help me!" "Here, get him over." "Get him over." "Hey, Brian, how's your head feeling, buddy?" "I saw that girl you went home with." "Did she borrow your razor this morning?" "You're so bad." "Hey, there's Tommy." "Hey, Tommy!" "Tommy!" "Hey, what's up, guys?" "Hey, man, I did what you said." "We're pooling our student funds with the Hillel house and we're having an awareness dance." "Oh, awesome." "Maybe I can spin my chair around to a techno remix of 'Hava Nagila' till I puke." "Maybe we should be getting to class now." "What's the point of psych class now?" "Tomorrow I could wake up a dirt farmer in Bangladesh." "Let's go for a stroll." "Bye, babe." " Yippee." " Bye, sis." "What's up with him?" "So Tommy's really into this Jesus freak thing, huh?" "You know how spiritual he's gotten ever since he saved Mrs Halpern and Katie." "He saved Mrs Halpern?" "Please." "The twisted fuck." "Here, why don't we sit right here?" "Want a granola bar?" "Here, just..." "Yeah, I gotta fix these things or something." "Kayleigh... do you ever think about us?" "I mean, do you ever wonder if things might have been different between us?" "Sure, Evan." "You were the first person I really ever cared about." " I was?" " Yeah." "That's why when I was little, I never went to live with my mother." "I don't get it." "When... when my folks split up, they gave me and Tommy a choice of who we wanted to live with." "And I couldn't stand my dad." "But I knew that if I went to move with my mum," "I'd never see you again." "I didn't know that." "So you still think about us... together?" "Well, it's crossed my mind from time to time." "And?" "Well, a lot of things have crossed my mind, Ev." "I mean, I could play out the entire movie of our lives in one second." "Boom, we fall in love." "We get married." "We have kids." "Our kids grow old, as do we." "Matching burial plots." "The whole thing." "Plah, it took a lot longer to spit out than to imagine." "Things like that usually do." "So... do you think that it might have worked?" "Yeah." "I mean, but that's not how things wound up." "I'm with Lenny." "Lenny is your friend and... and that's where it ends." "Well... would it make a difference if I told you that no one could possibly ever love anyone as much as I love you?" "I'm not saying that." "I..." " Yeah." " I'm not..." "I'm just saying it like if you were a girl, would that be something that you would want to hear?" "Hold on one second." "Lenny's calling." "I'll be right back, Ev, okay?" "He's a little down..." "I love you." "You forgot to put the toaster on the ledge." "Lenny likes Pop Tarts." "You guys are all that matter now." "Man, I know it's hard, but you can't give up." "I can't even fucking kill myself." "Don't talk like that." "Alright, I've got to get you out of here." "Visiting hours are almost over." "Did Mum get transferred again?" "What are you talking about?" "She's been here the entire time." "Looking... good, kiddo." "Lung cancer?" "You started chain smoking when I blew myself up." "Sorry, Mrs T, he's been acting out of sorts lately." "Mum... you're going to be okay." "I can change it." "Um, maybe..." "I wanna go down to the chapel." "You're... acting... just like your father." "I'm going to get you out of here." "Okay?" "No." "You're not going to hurt anymore." "I'm going to fix it." "No." "No, no." "Are you sure you even packed it?" "My mum packed it." "I think she sent everything I ever owned." " Is this it?" " Yeah." "What do you want it for?" "I don't get you lately." "Duly noted." "Okay, I have to ask you one last favour." " What?" " I need you to be quiet." "I have to concentrate if I wanna destroy the blockbuster." " What?" "What, the blockbuster?" " If I hadn't blown off my arms, my mum would've never started smoking in the first place." "Never mind." "Just open it." "Turn it." "There." "'Today Mummy is taking me to play with Kayleigh and Tommy." "I will meet their father and see what a real dad is like.'" "Now, how do I destroy the blockbuster?" "Evan, what are you doing with that knife?" "Well, that didn't work." "Go on, turn it." "Turn it." "There." "'I never wanted to be in the movie anyway." "It was cold so I wanted to wear my clothes." "But Mr Miller made me take my shirt off.'" "In this part of the story," "Robin Hood has just married Maid Marian." "And they have to kiss and stuff, like grown-ups do." "Wait, I need my belt." "Hey, don't even bother about a belt." " Hey." " Back off, fuckbag." "Amazing that word never fails to make an impression with you." "Easy does it, Evan." "Don't be a bad boy or I'll tell your mother what a naughty little shit you are." "And I'll tell Child Protective Services about your little kiddie porn endeavours." "One step closer and I'll shove this up your arse." "Hey, that's dangerous." "You could blow off your hand." "Been there, done that." "Hey!" " Sparkler." " Kayleigh, no!" "No!" "Kayleigh, no!" "Hey, man." "...good, kiddo." "I've got no choice but to commit you to Sunnyvale Institution..." "You're gonna have to live somewhere else for a while." " A squashed butterfly." " I want my mummy!" "I'm so sick of this!" "I think we should up your medication." "Where are my goddamn books?" "Hey, Evan, we're not supposed to meet for another hour." "Where are my goddamn books?" "Books?" "My journals." "L..." "I need them." "So, if you'd give 'em to me, it'd help a lot." "It really hurts me to go through this again." "There are no journals." "There never were." "It's part of the fantasy world that your mind created to cope with the guilt of killing Kayleigh Miller." "Think, Evan, think." "You've created a disease that does not exist... alternate universes with colleges and prisons and paraplegia." "I want my journals and I want 'em now!" "And I know that you got 'em and you're gonna give 'em to me!" "You're not going to hide them from me." "I want them!" "You're reminding me of your father." "He was always screaming for a photo album even though he never had one." "I'm so sorry." "A photo album?" " Photos." " Evan?" "The damage is irreparable." "Frankly, I'm surprised he still has use of his motor functions." "Mum?" "Um, did you remember to bring those home movies that we used to make?" "Yeah, they're right here." "Good, because I really like to watch them." "So that's good." "I think it's best we transfer him to Bellevue first thing in the morning." "'If anyone finds this, it means that my plan didn't work and I'm already dead.'" "He's not in his room." "Search the grounds." "'If I can somehow go back to the beginning of all of this" "I might be able to save her.'" "Evan!" "Over here!" "Evan!" "I believe he's in here." "Evan!" "What's your name?" "Kayleigh." "This is Evan." "Evan!" "Open up!" "Evan!" "Say hi, go on." "I hate you." "You ever come near me again I'll kill you and" "..your whole damned family." "What happened sweetie?" "What's wrong?" "Goodbye" "Cracker!" "Evan..." "Kayleigh and Tommy!" "I missed you!" "I'll never let you guys out of my sight again." "Happiness can only be achieved through sacrifice, like the sacrifices our parents have made for us to be here today..." "Whoo-hoo!" "Great!" "Tommy!" "Are you alright?" "Where's Kayleigh?" "Who's Kayleigh?" "Who's Kayleigh?" "Who's Kayleigh?" "Do you want me to take you to the doctor?" "No." "No." "I think everything is going to be alright this time." "Sure about this?" "I know who I am, I don't need a bunch of stuff to remind me." "I'm running a little late." "Yeah, I had to finish up with a patient." "Get the soup or something." "Alright, love you Mom." "Bye bye." "Subtitles By CHIBCHAKAN © 2005"