"The news today is dominated by one event - the dramatic discovery of the body of Lauren Parris in a canal in east London," "The international star went missing two weeks ago after visiting a local market," "Earlier today police divers recovered Parris from a canal in east London," "How and why," "Fans around the world had their worst fears confirmed," "The discovery of her," ",vanished after leaving her one-year-old daughter with her mother for the weekend," "Hello there." " So awful." " l know. I can't believe it." ",one-year-old daughter with her mother," ",today had their worst fears confirmed," "First of all, James, what is the latest?" "Well, I'm standing here on the edge of the canal," " Ben?" " Elisa!" "You can open your eyes, Slowly, it's OK, You're in hospital," "Been in hospital for a week," "You were in an accident," "Elisa!" "Elisa..." "Elisa." "Dr Maxwell to Radiology," "Police have confirmed that they're treating the death of Lauren Parris as a murder inquiry, The singer's body was found floating in a canal earlier today," "Detectives are hoping that CCTVfootage of her last known movements may help them find her killer," "James Stevens joins us now from the Hackney canal where divers recovered the body earlier, James, what's happening now?" "Behind me, mourners are beginning to gather," "My wife's dead." "I don't know why I'm seeing you again." " Because I helped you before?" " Have we started?" "That's up to you, don't you think?" "You can draw, if you like." "is it similar to when you lost your parents?" "Don't you get tired of talking about my parents?" "It's all we ever do." "What about your parents?" " My parents are dead." " So are mine." "I know." "No, it's not. lt's not similar to anything." "What do you mean?" "All these...grieving people, they're...they're just... lt makes me feel sick!" "I can't..." "I can't get any space, I can't breathe." "All these tears for someone they don't know." "It must be hard, all these people grieving for Lauren Parris," " like no one cares about your loss." " l don't expect anyone to care." "I haven't heard a thing from her family." "Perhaps they don't have my new number." "It's always been this...thing. I don't know." "They never liked me." "Simple as that." "And now since this..." "Now since the, er... lt's no surprise, really, is it?" "You mean because you were driving?" "I mean because I survived." "Ben!" ",Bad stuff, which no one ought to see, I get scared about these small details, I fear that if I fell asleep I might swallow something poisonous, I fear that some number or fact or word will start to grow in my brain" "until there's no more room in my head, I fear that I may start screaming in the middle of the night and no one will come," "Only an echo behind closed doors, an echo of childhood, when doors were kept shut but sometimes crept ajar, and through the crack in the door the night creeps in, illuminating shadows in the forbidden room," "Entrance to the old morgue." "Just a cellar though, really." "So if you want me to keep anything down here you just let me know." "As long as you trust Alice and Brodie." "The orderlies." "They, er, used to sign the names of... all the people they brought down here." "I'm Roland, by the way." "I'm the caretaker." "And...action!" "Where she went next is still unknown, and that's the mystery this reconstruction could help solve." "Detectives are hoping that someone somewhere will have their memory jogged and come forward with information about Lauren's killer." " Jesus, it's me!" " Tommy." "You OK?" " How you doin'?" " Fine." "You OK?" " What you doing here?" " l just moved back." "Yeah?" "What you fuckin' staring at?" "Go and see your fucking parents!" "Bastards." "Robbed my shop twice this week." "For meths." "To drink - you believe that?" "Actually it tastes quite nice." "I see you've got a thing for beige then?" ""Biscuit brown", whatever the fuck that is." "So, you bringing 'em in?" " l meant to talk to you about that." " No." " No can do." " Not full-time or anything." "Have a look around you." "I'm not exactly raking it in here." "I think it's very nice." "Why not pop next door and ask Brenda to put the tea on?" "Go on." " There's no one here." " Exactly!" "I had to let Brenda go." "So you've moved in up the road?" "Yes, I'm just...you know, trying to make a new start." " Elisa was killed." " Jesus, Ben, I..." " lt was an accident." " l'd have went to the funeral." "I didn't go to the funeral." "No, I was hurt, I was... I was in a coma." " Could they not have waited for you?" " Yes, they could." "I think her sister organised it all." "God, Carrie?" "I can't believe she'd do that." " lt was filmed for me, though." " What?" "I don't know what the minister thought." "You know what she's like." "Everything big." "Gospel choir." "Someone released a cage of doves in the churchyard." "Tell you what, I'll bring you in for the big jobs." "Get 'em done quicker." " How's that?" " Thanks, Tommy." "Let's have a drink." "We'll celebrate." " Hi. I was just gonna..." " You left me the sugar." "Yeah." "You know, for coffee or whatever." "I'm sorry, it's a bit corny." "You don't drink coffee, do you?" "No." "Well, I do but I don't take sugar." " Sorry the place isn't in better shape." " What?" "I'm the sort of landlady." " The "sort of landlady"?" " lt's a terrible word." "Yeah, I look after the place for my dad." "He's into conversions." "I'm Charlotte." " And you're Ben." " Yes, that's right." "Well, I better be going." "I promise not to leave dishes on your doorstep again." "Unless it's really important." "I take sugar in tea." "I can't go on!" "Listen to me, Ben, please," " You don't bloody listen!" " Stop it!" " Because you don't bloody listen!" " Calm down!" "I don't need this!" " You don't bloody listen." " Ben, calm down." " Shut up!" " l am shutting up!" "It's common if you're tired." "Your brain is so used to her being around, it translates things into images of her." "I wasn't even that used to her being around." "She was just going away with work...a lot." "That's all." "It was a good thing." "It was healthy, you know." "But?" "I just..." "I just never really adjusted." "Always felt like I was... missing out, missing the show, you know." "Pathetic." "She needed it." "It was like having a bodyguard between us." " How do you feel about that now?" " Great, yeah, really good." "We argued the day she died." "We argued in the car." "Can't remember what was said but... I really loved her." "How did she feel about you?" "Probably like I wasn't watching the road enough." " Do you think?" " l'm not doing that." "She loved me, I know." "Good." " Want a beer tonight?" " No, not tonight, thanks." "You're getting out though?" "You still got that studio in Rathwell Street?" "No, it's...it's like everything else - being redeveloped." "What about the ants?" "You still doing the ant thing?" "Christ, you been doing that since art school." "You're definitely a tad peculiar." "What?" "I bumped into Carrie yesterday." "Christ." "What...what was that like?" "It was fine, fine." "You know, I just..." "Well, I told her we were working together, you know, I gave her my condolences and... you know, she was just..." "she was, like, weird." "She is weird." "It's like she's in denial." "She didn't want to talk about it, she was really short with me, just..." "Oh, I don't know, weird." "..Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil" "For Thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory" "For ever and ever." "Amen." "Yes, OK, I am being pulled." "I am being pulled here..." "Here I am receiving..." "You." "You, and you, yes, both of you." "I feel an impact. lt was sudden." "I feel a younger energy. lt was your son." "Yes, he wants me to tell you that there was a moment when he had a choice." "He was very athletic, he won medals." "He thought he could do anything he wanted to." "He used to say that he would rather die than be disabled." "Now, in the hospital he was aware, he was aware, everybody around him telling him to fight, to hold on and there was a moment when he had a choice... and he chose to go." "Understand that." "Understand that." "I'll leave his love with you." "I just like going, I don't know why." "Watching the people, the sense of relief they get, I suppose that's it." "It's amazing." "So why'd you invite me?" "Well, I'm really good at sensing things." "Seeing things." "I can sort of see your pain in your aura, and I've also sort of seen your apartment application form." "Took me a long time to tick that box." "Didn't seem right somehow, didn't feel like me, you know..." ""widower"." "I wanted to show you that life goes on." "That there's such a thing as the soul." "Well, I wanted to try anyway." "There were cracks." "I didn't have you down for a... I mean, I wasn't sure if you were an animal lover." "They're interesting." "That's the queen on her eggs, surrounded by guards." "They all have different jobs." "Soldiers, foragers, cleaners." "Nurses." "And their social behaviour's very similar to humans." "They never kill their own." "Sorry. I studied entomology before art school." "I was never interested enough in the science of it, so I quit." "I don't know how you do it." "I mean, ants are one thing but all those other..." " l'm positively allergic to spiders." " No one's allergic to spiders." "I am." "I can prove it to you, if you like." "That sounds like fun." "My aunt was called Charlotte." "So what's all this about?" "You wear this for good health and spirit." "It's very good for a sore throat." " And why's that?" " lt's the colour blue." "People have done it for years." " Has it worked?" " l think so." ",And a lot of people are very upset, very grieved, very depressed," "What does Lauren Parris mean to you?" "Did she touch your life in some way?" "Nick, you were a great fan of Lauren's," "Yeah, she was a star, Respected among the music community, I don't know, we humans are a lot more complicated than you think." "I mean, it's commonly believed that we only use 10% of our brain." "Some of us even less." ",I went for a bit of closure," "Maybe the rest is for a higher form of movement, thoughts, communication, you know?" "That sort of thing." "Think some people can read your mind?" "Oh, yeah, every woman." "Jesus Christ, I think they need plumbers here, not painters." " Want a cup of tea?" " Yeah, thanks." "You know, there's something to that ESP." "Some people know stuff they shouldn't know." "So do you think that's what mediums are using?" "They don't really talk to spirits?" "Well, maybe they can access parts of the brain that we can't." "Communicate on a different level." "Maybe even with the dead." "I'm not saying I believe it, but it's not impossible." "She received the most official condolences for any music star?" "Still." "It must be weird for you because you knew her." "Well, Elisa knew her." "Here you go, mate." " Cheers." " You OK?" "Cheers, mate." "Benjamin Slater?" "DC Jackson." "Can I come in?" " What made you move house?" " What's this about?" " Where were you on March 1 7th?" " You're investigating the insurance?" " l was in an accident." " Your name's come up, since we had the reconstruction of Lauren Parris's murder." "You were also caught on camera at the reconstruction." "Do you know, a lot of criminals go to the reconstructions of their crimes." "A bit like watching a...theatre play you've written, I suppose." "You wouldn't want to miss it." "Of course, there's also a wide variety of nutters, stalkers... obsessives turning up at reconstructions." "So why did you move?" "I mean, to...only a couple of hundred yards from where Lauren Parris was last seen?" "Do you know how she died?" " ln the canal." " That's where she died." "She was beaten to death, strangled...and suffocated." "As if the guy was trying to kill her three times over." " Strange." " l was in a coma from the accident." "So what's your thing, do you love her or hate her?" " l don't have a thing." " Course you don't." " Where's your scrapbook?" " Sorry?" "Your scrapbook!" "Photos, cuttings." "Articles. lt isn't illegal." "Not that alone." "Right... I've got a thousand other punters to deal with." "Police hope the reconstruction of the last movements of Lauren Parris will help them catch her killer, lt's now two weeks since the body of the singer was found floating in a canal," "So far the police have made little progress in their investigation," "Where she went next is still unknown, that's the mystery police believe this reconstruction could help solve," "Police are anxious to trace this man - seen in the market when Lauren disappeared," "He was wearing a beige parka, and witnesses reported he seemed unsettled and agitated, I've got pictures of the murder scene, mate." " Elisa!" " Ben." "Your hand's bleeding." "You OK?" "My hand's bleeding." "Do you want to talk about this landlady?" " How do you know about her?" " You mentioned her earlier." " Did I?" " What's her name?" " Charlotte." " Like your..." "Like my aunt, yeah." "And what do you think about that?" "What do I think about it?" "I'm sorry, I don't think anything about it." "What do you think about that?" "Would you show me what you've been drawing?" " Do you?" " Something's bothering you." "You're bothering me." "So you still think of Charlotte as your aunt?" "I used to think of her as my mum." "She was the closest thing I had after mum died." "And how do you feel about that now?" "I don't feel anything." "She left, that's life, you know?" "She left." "She was homesick." "Does that sound right?" "She was only staying for a year." " You were six, just lost your parents..." " Stop it." " Could I see what you've drawn?" " No." " Are we allowed to be in here?" " l used to work here." "That's not what I asked." "So what's with Roland?" "He's not that bad." "He kind of came with the building." "He was a caretaker when it was a hospital." "He's full of stories." " He loves the morgue, doesn't he?" " l don't go down there." " Because of dead people?" " Because of the spiders." "You might as well look at it now you're here." "OK, I've looked at it." "What was my flat?" "It was just a ward." "This is plastic. lt's plastic." "You have to try to hold it." "It's like your blue crystals - which won't work as well as nicotine patches." "Hold out your hand." "Close your eyes." "Oh, God, I feel ridiculous." "Now you have to pretend this is real." "OK." "Stage one complete." "Aunt Charlotte." "Elisa." "Don't be stupid!" "OK." "OK, now." "Right." "Yes, I am receiving." "Yes. I am receiving. I am being pulled." "I am being drawn." "I am being drawn. I am... I am receiving..." "I am being drawn..." "Yes." "Here." "There's somebody in two minds here." "Grieving, I get grieving." "Strong mother figure." "Very concerned about her son." "Benjy." "Yes." "Yes." "You're not happy about losing your wife." "You were parted not long ago." "So much death in your mind." "So much death." "I'm getting a very clear A. A. E." "E-L." "El..." "Elise?" "Elysse?" " Elisa." " Elisa is your wife?" "Yes." "Ben." "Elisa hasn't passed over." "Elisa's not dead." "No." "Who the fuck do these people...?" "!" "You people!" "This is life you're playing with!" "Who are you?" "And who the fuck is she?" "Ben, please..." "What did you expect?" "Did you think it would help?" "I mean, do you want to get better?" "It's not like I'm ill." "is it?" "I just...just wanna move on." "Then you have to stop looking back." "I helped you when you lost your parents and I'm helping you now." "Trust me." " That means not listening to..." " Anyone else?" "Why don't you tell me more about Charlotte?" "She's nice." "But she's, erm... she's too nice." "Too trusting." " l don't think she's ever lived a normal life." " Have you?" "If only." "Do you think a part of you would like to lead an unreal life like her?" " Don't start with that." " l'm asking if she's an escape from reality." "That's ?" "5.00." "You interested in collecting things?" "What the hell does that mean?" "What the hell does that mean?" "I didn't buy anything." " You have done." " You're desperate." " We are." " l'm interested." "Most people are." "Most people don't want pictures of the murder scene." "Why are you wasting time on me?" "Because we don't know yet whether Lauren Parris was killed before or after your crash." "She went missing two days before you went into your coma." "A detail which you were rather economical with, and, as I'm sure you know, her body was so badly..." " Stop." " You have a history of stalking, haven't you?" "Sorry!" "Where d'you think...?" "'Ere, get back!" "Fuckin'..." "How about an apology?" "Fuck him." " Aren't you missing the point?" " Point?" "She's supposed to be dead, isn't she?" "I thought you'd be interested in that." "I mean, it's illegal, isn't it?" "Fuck." "Look, I don't want her in any trouble, I'm just..." "Just let me talk to her." "Take me to where she's living. I know you know." "is this your wife?" "Yes." "is this your wife, too?" "No, I've no idea who that is." " lt's the woman you were following." " l've no idea who that is." "That old hospital you live in, that's where Lauren Parris was born." "I thought you'd know, all those newspaper articles you keep." "I'd like to take a little peep at your studio." "Rathwell Street, isn't it?" "No, it's being redeveloped." "It's not my studio any more." "Bet you miss it, don't you?" "You have no right to assess me - l'm seeing someone already." " You ask him!" "You understand?" " l don't need to." "What?" "You still don't see yourself as a stalker, do you?" "I don't know how it's possible either." "I don't..." "But if you can't trust your eyes, I mean...what can you trust?" "Sorry?" "I don't know. I don't know." "Do you only believe in what you can see?" "Do you believe in love?" "Just relax." "Close your eyes." "Carrie, can I...can I speak to you, please?" "I know you don't want to." "Give me a minute here." " l'm not sure Elisa's dead." " What are you talking about?" "You're not sure she's dead now?" " l just..." "If there's a chance..." " No, Ben." "Stop it." "You're right, I don't want to see you." "There's no chance." "No chance, OK?" "Now leave us alone and get on with your life." ""Leave us alone."" "That's what Carrie said." "Leave "us" alone." "Leave us alone." "You think she meant Elisa?" "No." "Who then?" "Anyone who's not you?" "I'm not paranoid." "is Charlotte part of "us", do you think?" "What does she get out of all this?" "Don't know." "Don't know." ",Earlier today Lauren's manager made this appeal," "At this stage police investigations are ongoing but really all our thoughts are with her family, and the fans," "What I would say," "whoever you are, you can't hide," "'You're not invisible," "You can't hide," "Hello, Ben." "At first I felt sorry for you, then I thought you was a nuisance." "Then you got worse." "Then you disappeared." "Now..." "I don't feel sorry for you at all." "You need to let people grieve." "Let yourself grieve." "Elisa's dead." "Dead." "Listen, l-l don't have anything to do with Lauren Parris." "Get a grip - you're fucked." "I was right." "Carrie was right." " l don't know why you're here." " To tell you to stop." " For Elisa's sake." " Elisa?" "You made her life a misery." "Get a grip." "Freak!" "Have you got nothing to say?" "Drawing something?" "Anything." "is Elisa dead or alive, do you think?" "What's wrong with me?" " What do you mean?" " Tell me what's wrong with me." "You know, this isn't just in my head." "I may be a little confused but...somebody is playing with me." "Rearranging my...things, rearranging my head!" "Doing it kind of...in here!" "I mean, there's...there's her face on the wall." "OK?" "Covered in black paint!" "That's there, I've seen it." "There's the photo album - burnt." "The ant farm - gone!" "And those are things!" "What the hell is that?" "How the hell am I supposed to..." "accept my grief with that shit going on?" "Do you want to accept your grief?" "What does that mean?" "It was open. I was worried you maybe..." "What?" "I'm afraid I have to go." "The outside aerial's fixed." "I know." "So when's stage two of my spider training?" "Are you around later?" "What are you doing here, Ben?" "Carrie, you have to tell me what you know." " What?" " About Lauren Parris." "I don't know who else to ask." "Ben, please..." "Carrie, I need help." "I need to know what you know." "I don't remember..." "Look, if you start I can call the police." "I think I might've been the one." "What?" "All right, look." "They're in here, look." "Back of the photos - me." "I'm scared that it was me." "I've had the police asking me questions." "You're a lot of things, but you're not that." "I've been living with this obsession - l can't make it out..." "Look at the photo." "You're not facing Lauren Parris." "You're gazing off somewhere." "You were obsessed...with Elisa." "You followed her everywhere." "You couldn't accept that it was over." "It was never over." "You really don't remember?" "They met when she was dancing for Lauren." "I'm sorry, Ben." " Who's Charlotte?" " What?" "When you lost your parents, who became your new mother?" " What?" " Who did you replace her with?" " l don't know." " Who's Charlotte?" "I don't know what you're asking me." " The book you told me about?" " Don't remember!" "It was Charlotte's Web." "Who was the mother figure?" " Charlotte." " You've got them confused." "So who is Charlotte now?" "Last time you couldn't cope with the loss of your mother, now you can't cope with the loss of your wife." "Who's Charlotte?" "Who is she?" "is she your aunt?" "Did you find her in a book?" "So you're saying Charlotte is a replacement for Elisa?" "I created these things?" "She doesn't exist?" "Shit." "Charlotte." "Charlotte, I think it's better we don't see each other again." "It is me." "I'm sorry. I've come to explain." "You've been telling people that I'm dead." "That I was in a car crash." "But I wasn't in that car with you." "You know that." "I did see you that day and I was in the car but we were just fighting." "Lauren was missing, I was frantic." "I wasn't in the mood." "You left me." "Remember?" "You left me in the middle of nowhere in the pouring rain." "If that's the fuckin' way you feel... I had one shoe on." "For fuck's sake!" "I was soaking wet in the road." "I thought you'd come back." "But you just kept moving," "I couldn't believe you'd abandon me." "I came to see you in the hospital." "But you watched report after report on Lauren's murder." "I thought you were dead." "I know. I shouldn't have let you believe it. I'm sorry." "It was just... lt was easier." "You were making my life a misery." "Emery!" "You sent round Emery!" "You sent round Emery!" "No." "I didn't know." " He's hurting." " Oh, God." "He and Carrie thought they were doing the best thing for me." "But it was cruel, and I am sorry." "Really." "So...who's Charlotte?" "is she nice?" "No." "No, she's no one." "Literally." "I should go." "No." "Don't..." "Please, it wasn't always so bad, was it?" "It wasn't all shit, was it?" "Was it?" "You've been doing this your whole life." "Not to this extent but... lt's like..." "It's like telling people you quit art school." "You failed." "That you resigned from your job at the museum?" "You deny it to yourself and then start believing something totally different." "Just don't go now." "Charlotte..." "Charlotte won't come, she's, erm..." "She won't come." "Or if..." "I'll get rid of her." "I will. I'll get rid of her." "Actually I'm all right now." "I know what's real and... I know what's... I'll prove it to you." "You prove it to yourself." "It's a month since the death of Lauren Parris, and as time passes so the pressure mounts on the police to find her killer," "The pain felt will not go away while her killer remains at large," "Detectives say that they've had a good response to the reconstruction but are still lacking the vital information to make a breakthrough," "Sorry I'm late." "Why are you here?" "Stage two." "Come with me." "You knew all along that..." "Elisa was alive, didn't you?" "I mean..." "I mean, you knew like I knew." "You're the side of me which...has always failed." "Do you think if you look hard enough you can see...words?" "Yeah." "God, you look... you look so good." "So beautiful." "So... lt's just a shoe." "Just a shoe." "You trust me?" "I don't know if this is a good idea." "Trust me." "Come on." "You're me." "Close your eyes." "What?" "No, I've got to go." "You OK?" "l-l thought you were coming back to work today?" "Sorry, I just..." "I had to tell you." "I thought you'd wanna know." "I do." "I realised that was it, you know... I...had a choice... didn't have to just let things...happen, I could..." "I could take control." "I knew that I didn't...have to let this be a part of my life any more." "You're right." "You realised you had a choice." "It's OK." "It's OK." "I mean, she's gone. I know that." "Gone." "It's time to move on." "She's dead." "I mean, she's dead." "Elisa's dead." "A man is in police custody today charged with the murder of Lauren Parris," "The arrest of Gareth Cawood follows one of the biggest murder investigations ever mounted in England," "Lauren's body was found in a canal last month after she went missing in Hackney," "Cawood will appear before Thames magistrates tomorrow morning," "At 10,30am this morning Gareth Cawood, 27 years old, of flat three, 42 Princeton Avenue, Hackney was charged with the murder of Lauren Parris," "He'll be appearing before Thames magistrates," "Do you wanna tell me what happened?" "Why?" "You fitted the profile." "No job, loner... obsessive." "I didn't think that made you a killer." "Charlotte, that was her name." "I know."