"To be opened after my death" "Anka, stop it, damn you!" "Please don't" "Stop it, do you hear?" "It's Easter Monday!" "No..." "What do you mean, no?" "Open the door!" "I won't" "Please let me in I'm in a hurry" "No" "Open the door, damn it" "Easter Monday, eh?" "Let me in" "I won't have the time to get dry if I'm to" " Oh!" "Yes, it's me..." "Just a moment" "Would you hang up the receiver, Dad?" "I'll take it from my room" "O.K." "Has he hanged up?" "Yes" "Have you hanged up, Dad?" "Yes" "Well?" "It's all right, false alarm I got the curse in the morning" "Thank God" "Want me to come to the airport?" "What is it?" "My ticket, damn it" "Are you scared?" "You won't believe me anyway if I say no" "Right, I don't like your going away" "It's wet, damn it" "Bye, Dad" "Bye, and take care" "Anka..." "I forgot to pay the rent and the telephone bill" "Where are those bills?" "One of the bureau drawers You'll find them" "Dad!" "To be opened after my death" "Your Christian name, please?" "Anna" "Age?" "Twenty" "Are you a student?" "PWST third year..." "The Theatrical College" "I know" "I wonder..." "My son wants to study there, what exams did you have on admission?" "Literature, prose, poetry, song" "Let me see Elliot's, Herbert's?" "Elliot?" "I see, he hasn't got a chance" "Do you have problems with your sight?" "Yes, yesterday I looked at a plane from a distance" "I ought to have seen it clearly but it was just a blurred shape" "And then I remembered I only notice bus numbers ...from a very close distance" "Here you are" "F-A-T-H-E-R, Father" "You've been guessing At least the last letters" "Yes" "And you speak English" "Yes" "Why have you arranged the letters like this?" "I checked you I.Q., too" "I see, my father was leaving on that plane which I couldn't see yesterday" "To be opened after my death" "Have I done anything wrong?" "Have I?" "No..." "You're not in the centre of everything" "Bad temper?" "I don't like Father to be away" "If you feel sad or scared," "I can stay with you all the time" "For my daughter Anna" "Well, who's next?" "I know it's going to be me..." "And me" "All right, step up to each other" "Good night" "We won't have any more games tonight" "Good night" "What a shrew, you love him, remember" "You love him, you're offended An offended princess, concentrate" "Why should I love him?" "Are you kidding?" "Don't you get the implied meaning?" "It's possible to love just anybody We all have a silly something for which" "All right, but why do I love him?" "I don't know, Think of something" "Let's say... you love him because he stared at you" "All right, sir, if you please" "Now don't get personal Lie down on the table" "Let's imagine such a situation" "Just the text" "Good night" "Good" "We won't have any more games tonight" "May the angel put his blue wings around you..." "Don't be shy" "Good night" "May your eyes that cried so much... have some rest at last" "Let the smile fade, and now get closer to him" "Good night" "Turn your lovely eyes to me..." "Look at me once more" "Turn your cheek to me..." "Good night" "You aren't concentrating, do you want?" "Let me kiss you" "Good night" "Are you leaving like this?" "I will touch your breasts" "They are hiding under your clothes" "With bonds of love" "I will not let you sleep" "See:" "You know how to look at him Now you're concentrating" "Thank you, we'll have a break now" "Break..." "For my daughter Anna" "For my daughter Anna" "Hi" "Sorry I haven't phoned, I just happened to be in the neighborhood" "Michal asked me to collect some drawings" "I'm in a hurry" "Someone's waiting for me downstairs" "I say, Adam..." "Yes?" "You've known Father a long time, haven't you?" "We were students together" "Did you know my mother?" "Yes, not too well, actually" "What was she like?" "You resemble her" "I mean, what did she look like?" "You resemble her that way, too But she also had intuition, like you" "Do you think she could have had a secret?" "I don't know" "Something she might have wanted to let me know" "She'd have told you She was like you" "I was five days old when she died" "Ah, yes" "She'd have wrote you a letter or something" "Sorry, I've got to go" "I'll call in some day after Michal's back, bye" "Thanks" "Hello, why here of all places?" "Well yes, it's quite nice" "Pretty, pale frame" "Is anything wrong?" "No" "At school?" "Then what is it?" "My dear baby daughter..." "Pardon?" "My dear baby daughter" "I don't know what you look like reading this letter" "You must be a grown-up woman now, and Michal is already dead" "When I'm writing this, you're just a tiny baby, I saw you just once" "They refused to show you to me anymore because I'll be dying soon, I guess" "There's an important thing I've got to tell you" "Michal is not your father" "But it doesn't really matter who your father is" "Just a moment of forgetfulness and the harm was done" "I know Michal will love you like a daughter and you'll be comfortable with him" "I'm thinking about you now..." "wondering what you look like ...when you're reading this letter" "You have dark hair, haven't you?" "And slender hand... and neck..." "I would so much like to..." "Mother..." "Good afternoon, is Jarek home?" "No, he's out" "But he'll be back, come in" "Did he tell you he wanted to marry me?" "I guessed it, anyway" "I can marry him straight away" "What about your father?" "It doesn't matter" "He's not my father, really" "I've been looking for you" "I forgot the keys" "Is this our floor?" "Sorry" "Good evening?" "Are you going down?" "Yes" "You knew it?" "And you first... tell me" "Yes, I guessed" "Oh, I'm sorry It seems I've brought all the way down" "No, we weren't going down" "But this is the basement, Dad" "Never mind, come on!" "Do you recognize your mother?" "Yes, well" "One of them may be your father" "Dad?" "It belonged to your mother" "They gave it back to me in the hospital" "Sin when do you know?" "I've never known for sure" "I only suspected" "You deceived me" "It never mattered to me You've always been my daughter" "You should have told me" "First, I planned to show this letter to you," "When you were ten" "But then it turned out you were still too small" "Next, I decided to wait till you were fifteen" "Then you proved too big" "So I just put it into that yellow envelope" "So damn simple" "I thought things would be the same between you and me" "But you're lying" "Yes, you are" "Look" "I've got two candles" "This one's mine... and the other one - yours" "The person whose candle is the first to die out will ask a question, O.K.?" "O.K." "It's a draft" "Got a cigarette?" "You win" "You can ask, and you'll get a honest answer" "Why I read the letter?" "I read it because you wanted me to" "I first saw it... during the removal, quite accidentally" "Papers fell out of a briefcase of yours" "I was sixteen at that time" "Fifteen and a half" "All right, fifteen and a half" "I put the letter back to the briefcase but I already knew it existed" "It was quite exciting to begin with, to know there was something" "I could only learn after your death" "I noticed you took the letter with you when you went away" "But you didn't take it with you the last time" "You did it on purpose" "Well, so I took it" "I carried it with me three days long" "A week had passed, and I went to sit on the Vistula and opened the letter" "Quite an exhaustive answer" "Have you ever read it?" "No" "It wasn't too exhaustive, really" "Like they tell us at school, think... why you say the things you say, think about the intention or the implied meaning" "Don't you want to learn about the implied meaning?" "The implied meaning is that..." "I sensed, or guessed, the contents of this letter several years ago" "When I had my first boy-friend I knew I was deceiving somebody" "I couldn't understand it" "That somebody was you" "I keep looking for a person" "Another person" "But when somebody touches me I think about your hand" "When I'm close with somebody, I'm not really with him but..." "How shall I call you?" "I don't know" "Anka..." "Ah, so you're back Hello" "Well, how was it?" "Not too bad" "Here are your drawing, I copied and mailed them and they wired they got them" "Oh, gush..." "I've heard there are drafts" "Yes..." "That one?" "Yes" "Exactly the same" "Does it help?" "Just look at Anka" "After just a month of taking it Don't you believe me?" "Just try it" "Oh, you've been drinking together?" "Yes, Anka..." "How are things at school?" "When are you graduating" "In May" "And what about those dreams you had?" "Then I'm..." "No thanks, old boy, I'll be going You haven't even unpacked your things" "Go to him" "He's gone" "I know" "Take a bus and go to him" "Or take a taxi and go no matter where You don't want to talk, do you?" "Anka baby" "I'm not listening" "Leave me alone!" "Who are you afraid of?" "Me or yourself?" "No reason to be afraid" "I'm getting married" "Answer it" "It might be Krystyna or Marta" "Or Jarek, answer it" "Yes?" "I don't know" "No, I haven't been asleep" "Phone tomorrow, O.K.?" "He doesn't know he's going to be carried, does he?" "No, but I told his mother" "Aren't you afraid?" "Want to talk?" "Really?" "You can run away" "Go away, get married..." "But it won't help any" "What I told you before Adam came was true" "I always felt guilty in bed" "Now I know why I was deceiving you" "I didn't feel it" "I say, let's make a deal" "If you lie and I catch you out, you will admit it, O.K.?" "All right" "You lied that you'd never felt it" "Yes" "You did feel it, then?" "Yes" "You live your own life" "You're free to do what you like" "And I pretend it's all right" "Even if you really want to marry that boy Jarek," "I won't tell you not to No matter how much you'd like me to" "I have no right to forbid you anything" "If I forbid you something or force you to do something," "I'll consider myself jealous" "Not the way a father is jealous about his daughter" "That would be ordinary jealousy, like between man and woman" "Do you get my meaning?" "I don't want it to be like that I've never wanted it" "But it's been like that" "I don't know why" "Remember three years ago, when you caught me in bed with Marcin?" "Was it because of that that you went away?" "Yes" "I tried to find an excuse then, too" "No father likes it when his daughter starts sleeping with men" "But I wasn't you daughter" "I don't know" "I often thought your mother could have" "But they say women always know" "But she could have been mistaken" "No, she couldn't" "Women do know" "How do you know that?" "I just know" "Have you ever been pregnant?" "When was it?" "Last year" "Let me tell you something" "I used to go away, to spend night out I left you alone because... because I wanted something to happen" "Something irreversible" "At first I thought it would with your first man, but it didn't" "And then I just dreamed that you should have a baby, I still dream about it" "That's why I had an abortion, I didn't want you to tell me it was all right" "For that same reason, I didn't tell you I was going to have that abortion" "I was afraid you'd say, Ah well, do as you wish, my girl" "It's all right" "Has it never occurred to you at I didn't want anything irreversible to happen" "What do you want my baby for?" "You just want everything to be settled without you once more, just like that letter" "To be opened after my death" "I'm putting it back where it belongs" "It's addressed to you" "I don't want it" "I don't" "I don't want it" "When I was a little girl, you used to caress my back" "Sometime I would cry on purpose ...to make you reach under my pyjamas and caress me" "It gave me a thrill" "You wanted me to stay a little girl, didn't you?" "To be a baby" "You forbade me to wear a proper bathing suit despite the fact I already had breasts" "When I was to have the curse for the first time you took me to the mountains to stop it somehow" "And you never married, Marta or another woman" "I was afraid you might... but there was no reason" "You didn't marry again" "You've been waiting for me, haven't you?" "Haven't you?" "Yes..." "It was bound to happen" "I'm not your daughter," "and I'm a woman" "Do you want to touch me?" "Do you?" "All right" "Then answer just another question" "Just one" "Why did you want me to read that letter?" "I wanted the impossible" "I wanted... the impossible" "That's why I hit you the first time, back at the airport" "That was because you'd read the letter, and because I'd wanted you to read it" "Because of Mother..." "Because she wrote things she never told me" "Because I love you... but you're not my daughter" "Because everything could have shaped quite differently" "And because of the days that won't ever be back" "When you caressed my back whenever I cried..." "Candy King" "Gingerbread Page" "Marzipan Princess" "Dad?" "Dad!" "Daddy!" "I lied to you, Daddy" "I didn't read that letter, I didn't even open it" "Dad, I wrote it myself what you read, what I told you at the airport" "I noticed Mother's handwriting on the envelope and forged that letter" "Dad, What did Mother write?" "I don't know" "Where have you been?" "To fetch some milk for breakfast" "I know what we should do with the letter" "This is the genuine one" "Will you help me?" "Yes" "My darling daughter..." "I'd like to... is it:" "Tell?" "I'd like to tell you something... most important" "Michal..." "Michal is not... the rest of it's been burnt down"