"Hey" "A-kun!" "6 years ago" "Let's go play baseball." "Sorry." "My mom promised to make me a hamburger." "Oh really?" "See ya." " Bye bye." " Bye bye." "I'm home." "I'm hungry." "Mom?" "what's wrong?" "Nothing." "Mom." "Come in." "Sorry I'm late." "go play outside." "Eh?" "Yes." "I'm going to the store." "Don't overdo it." "Yeah." "he's coming to pick some up today." "isn't he taking more and more drugs from here?" "Ah." "Oi." "come in." "Sorry to keep you waiting." "You cannot put into words how you really feel." "You cannot put into words how you really feel." "I was not able to convey my precious thoughts." "You cannot put into words how you really feel." "I was not able to convey my precious thoughts." "If both of us had realized what was in each others' hearts..." "Sara!" "right?" "Sorry for getting you back here midway." "Do you want to drink something?" "Mom.." "You're hospitalized and you got into an accident in front of the station?" "How did that happen?" "Did you actually sneak out again?" "What are you thinking?" "!" "Aren't you here to stop your drug addiction?" "Atsushi-kun." "Do you think your mom is weak?" "Atsushi-kun." "I think of drug addiction as a disease." "It's not as easy as just carrying out what you intend to do." "Human beings who are strong and yet still depend on drugs do not exist." "Here." "this might be some distance from where you live." "But entering this rehabilitation center putting her into an ordered environment" "I feel." "Atsushi-kun..." "Good day." "right?" " Good day." "What happened?" "Aren't you on the school trip?" "so I came back." "Your mother?" "She's fine." "It wasn't serious." "I'll take my leave." "Erm.." "Atsushi-kun." "Can I have a minute?" "Yes." "Erm.." "What did you want to ask of me?" "It's a little difficult to say." "Can you please stop seeing Mei?" "Eh?" "Why is that?" "The other day I said I made a mistake about knowing your mother." "But I do actually know her." "Eh?" "Natsumi-san was a friend of my childhood friend." "That person has already passed away." "I had heard many things about Natsumi-san from her." "You said Natsumi-san was hospitalized." "right?" "Yes." "are you in the wrong... but..." "I am concerned for Mei. please stop seeing her." "Sara's parents." " Are you the mother?" " Yes." "This way please." "Mei!" "Mom." "Your teacher called us and told us a little of what happened." "But why did this happen?" "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "I don't understand why you're sorry." "What happened with that girl?" "Is there a reason you're not telling us?" "Dear!" "Don't you know how Mei is feeling now?" "It's alright." "Akai Ito" "Episode 5 The Drugs That Don't Work" "Raw Provider: gryzze Timer: tianj" "Translator: unleashthegeek Editor: grumpy" "Sir" "What happened to Sara in Nagasaki?" "Nakagawa met with an accident." "She's still hospitalized in Nagasaki." "It will be awhile before she gets back here to Tokyo." "Is she alright?" "Everyone must be worried..." "Is it true she jumped off from the rooftop of the hotel?" "Jumped off?" "Everyone quiet! let's just wait for her." "Okay?" "That's the end of it." "have you contacted Mei?" "Only by mail." "Me too." "I see." "Can't believe this happened." "Anyway..." "Taka..." "Why were you with Mei?" "this wouldn't have happened!" "That Mei too." "She said she was following the plan she made with A-kun by herself." "Oi!" "What the hell are you doing!" "Stop!" "What!" "isn't it?" "!" "Who do you think is hurting the most?" "Mei must be blaming herself right now." "Nobody expected something like this to happen." "Mei is the one hurting the most." "Can't you at least realize that much?" "How did it go?" "I see." "Don't worry." "Mei has a strong heart." "after all." "You're right." "I'm going to bed then." "Goodnight." "Goodnight." "Such an unfeeling father I am." "Dear..." "When Mei came back" "Haruna too was worried and the first thing she asked was about Mei and if she was okay." "right there itself like I was cross-examining her." "It was just so sudden" " you were shook-up." " That's not it!" "I wasn't shook-up." "If it hadn't been Mei" " but Haruna instead..." " Stop it!" "Mei and Haruna are the same." "There is no difference between our children." "A-kun." "look." "I'm pasting a picture." "huh?" "Yeah." "Mom..." "Hmm?" "Do you know Takemiya-san?" "Takemiya-san?" "She's the mother of a girl from my class." "Mom." "Takemiya-san." "I wonder?" "she said." "Don't know." "I wonder if there's a connection between being good at pasting a picture and drawing one." "Listen to me." "I was told by her not to go near her daughter." "right?" "You really don't know her?" "Mom!" "Tell me honestly!" "Don't shout!" "I said I don't know!" "what's the matter?" "It has been awhile." "I'm Tadakoro Asami." "Eh?" "Mami-chan?" "it's been a long time." "How have you been?" "Are you well?" "Yes." "Umm.." "Is A-kun here?" "do you remember the first time I came here?" "I remember." "Atsushi brought a strange girl here." "Eh?" "Is that his girlfriend?" I thought." "That would have been great." "A-kun and I first met when I followed my father." "My father suddenly stopped going to work." "I wondered where he was going when he went out. he was headed to A-kun's house." "I remember very well the day I came here." "I was afraid and wanted to escape." "But I was frozen with fear and couldn't move." "I wondered if I would be killed." "But A-kun came to my rescue. we came here. dad?" "perhaps he would hear it." "But he can't hear me anymore." "Mami-chan. even if just a little." "I realize." "I still want him alive." "Mami-chan." "Mami-chan." "He was by no means alone." "I think that your father was happy." "I'm home." "welcome back." "what's the matter?" "Surprised?" "She made dinner." "Mami-chan cooked almost everything." "I'm good at cooking." "You will definitely be surprised when you taste it." "did you hear did you hear about Sara?" "I" "Mei." "I'm coming in." "Your friend is here." "What do you want to do?" "Who?" "I didn't ask his name but it's a guy." "Taka-chan." "Hey." "Sara is not in school yet." "She will still be in the Nagasaki hospital for awhile." "But the teacher said her injuries were not that serious." "She's already regained consciousness too." "Thank god." "Sorry." "It's my fault." "this wouldn't have happened." "You know..." "You need to muster a lot of courage but nothing will change if you keep on staying away from school." "It will be even harder if it continues to stay this way." "Besides when Sara comes to school and Mei is not there" "right?" "So come back to school." "Okay?" "Go to school and wait for Sara." "Thank you." "I'm full." "eh?" "Yeah." "A-kun." "How's your mom?" "She's still in hospital." "I see." "How long will it be before she's discharged?" "The doctor-in-charge recommended transferring to a rehabilitation center in another area." "He thinks she wouldn't be able to kick the habit as it is now." "This might be best for mom." "A-kun?" "I don't know." "Don't want to change schools?" "Well..." "I know." "There's a girl you like in school." "Eh?" "I can tell from your face." "You've always been this way." "Really?" "That girl..." "Does she know about your mom?" "No." "of course." "I... to my friends in school." "I said it was due to sickness." "right." "then suicide." "Everyone in school have families who treat them with great care." "They don't realize what happiness that is. don't you think?" "not everyone is like..." "It's impossible for them to understand." "Besides she will definitely be troubled too." "Once she knows of this there's no way you can go out with her the way you have been." "right?" "We live in a different world." "I'll send you back." "Mei you can talk about anything with me." "Don't worry by yourself." "You can talk to me about anything." "Mm." "Atsushi." "You're not going to call him?" "Mm." "That girl is A-kun's childhood friend." "She came to the Culture Festival too." "Why hasn't he been coming to school lately?" "Eh?" " He's been missing school?" " Mm." "He hasn't been to school even once after the school trip." "1992.2.29 ATSUSHI·MEI" "Good morning." "Mei." "Good morning." "okay?" "Mm." "Come sit down quick." "Dad." "Good morning." "Good morning." "Taka-chan." "Hey." " Good morning." " Morning." "let's go." " Mm." "Mei!" "Mei~ We've been waiting!" " You're finally here." " Thank goodness." "Mei must come." "You made it in time for the closing ceremony." "Mei." "You okay?" "Mm." "Great." " Thought you wouldn't come." " Yeah." "Did you see that?" "Mei's face?" "That feeling like 'I got over the shock and attending school again'?" "aren't they?" "Even though they know that it's Mei's fault Sara attempted suicide." "What?" "What do you mean?" "What?" "What?" "let's all have lunch." "let's go to Taka's place." "Taka's giving us a treat." "Don't just say as you please." "The store's closed today." " Apologize properly." " I know." "Taka." "Sorry." "It's okay." "today's Mitsu's treat." "Mei was walking around with Taka-chan." "And she knew that Sara liked Taka." "No way." "That's such a betrayal." "betrayal." "Mei lied to Sara." "So Sara tried to commit suicide." "Unbelievable." "What a thing to do." "That is why... people like are Mei are the most frightening." "Ehh." "Mia." "A-kun hasn't been here?" "Mm." "Mei?" "I haven't contacted him since we came back." "I see." "Wonder what happened." "Have you thought about transferring to the rehabilitation center?" "for me..." "I think I'm used to this hospital." "Doctor." "I feel comfortable. it has already been 6 years." "has anything changed?" "You have been admitted and discharged 4 times already." "You met with an accident trying to sneak out of here." "have you?" "Sorry." "I'm a little tired." "Going back now." "Mom." "how long are you going to avoid the problem right in front of you?" "you refuse to change your way of life." "You are not even able to sever your connections to that drug peddler." "I am a doctor." "A doctor's job is to heal his patients." "However" "I cannot consider someone who has no intentions of healing herself as a patient! it will be the same." "Nishino-san." "It's your choice." "Atsushi." "How rare for you to come by." "Eh?" "You know Murakoshi-san?" "Who's he?" "A classmate." "You need this?" "Since you look so pained." "Don't need it." "Who do you think you're talking to?" "That's enough." "Come here." "We're leaving." "See ya." "What is it?" "mom and I." "So I want you leave mom alone." "You want me to leave her alone." "aren't you mistaken?" "Mistaken?" "Have you ever thought about why your mother isn't able to kick her drug addiction?" "Usually there's a reason for everything." "So it goes for why Natsumi started on drugs." "What do you mean?" "someone died." "The one who died is not the only one whose life has changed." "The ones left behind will be in a mess too." "That's Natsumi's story." "your mom's best friend killed herself." "Natsumi suffered severe pangs of guilt one would not normally be able to live with." "she managed to forget." "The way to forget could also bring happiness." "Burdened by such a deep wound it's not that simple for her to give up drugs." "It's good enough that your mom is still alive now." "My childhood friend was Natsumi-san's best friend." "I said I don't know!" "...suffered severe pangs of guilt one would not normally be able to live with." "she managed to forget." "you can't tell her." "she will definitely be troubled too." "If you are really thinking of Mei please stop seeing her." "Mei" "A-kun" "Mm." "How have you been?" "Mm." "Mei?" "I'm fine." "A-kun." "Same here." "I made biidoro during the school trip." "(Note:" "Biidoro = Glass craft from Nagasaki)" "Yours too." "Thank you." "Sorry I couldn't go." "It's okay." "But..." "I wanted us to make them together." "Mm. wasn't it?" "It was beautiful." "The kakuniman was delicious." "(Note:" "Kakunimanju = Bun stuffed with barbecued pork.)" "It was delicious." "My heart was beating so fast when we sneaked out of the hotel." "wasn't it?" "Mm." "It was fun." "Mm." "Mei?" "Mm?" "Here." "A-kun." "So we meet." "Mm." "I wanted to see you." "Mm." "We had closing ceremony today." "Really?" "It's already summer vacation tomorrow." "That's quick." "Mm." "Ne..." "Let's go somewhere together." "Hm?" "Mm." "A-kun." "Why have you been missing school?" "Mei..." "You know..." "My mom..." "My mom... didn't hurt herself." "She's hospitalized because she's sick." "Sick? is called..." "What she suffers from... it's not important." "But" "She's the only one mother I have so" "I guess." "I want to be together with her." "So that's it." "Sorry for asking such a thing." "It's okay." "I hope your mother gets well soon." "Mm." "A-kun... sorry." "I probably won't mail you. it'll probably be hard to contact each other." "Mm." "I understand." "See you." "Mm." "A-kun!" "right?" "right?" "Mm." "You cannot put into words how you really feel." "I was not able to convey my precious thoughts." "If both of us had realized what was in each others' hearts... is it really on our side?"