"BROTHERS" "This is the guy I have to live with." "Look!" "You're not looking." "Look!" "Hey..." "Say something!" "Make some instant coffee." "Where were you last night?" "At the studio." "With whom?" "With Pinja and then alone." "Why?" "I'm asking you what this is all about." "I was at the studio, had a few beers and took a cab home." "Why are you lying?" "What?" "Whatever." "What do you mean?" "Why are you lying to me?" "I'm not lying!" "We both know you're lying." "Don't go!" "Cut the bullshit." "Don't you ever miss anyone?" "Yeah." "I mean really." "Like, how?" "Like love." "What?" "Like falling in love." "What does it mean?" "You're so fucking..." "What?" "Nothing." "What's the problem?" "There is no problem." "You're just all messed up." "You look like a hedgehog." "Your grandma was a fucking hedgehog." "Is that love?" "Good..." "It's fine." "Since you're here, would you get some makeup - and cover up the mole above the pantyline." "Red Neutralisor." "It's on the table." "This is not exactly in my job description." "Just a little..." "That's enough, thanks." "You're welcome." "Could I come tonight?" "Yeah..." "Nine o'clock tomorrow?" "Fine." "Bye." "Hi." "Hi." "What the fuck happened to you?" "What?" "Your hair." "I have no hair, I shaved my head." "Are you ok?" "Yeah." "Sure?" "Yeah." "You fucking scared me." "Goddam idiot." "What's up?" "Nothing." "Just came back from Estonia." "Did you bring my camera?" "Yeah." "And the films." "How was Estonia?" "I quit my job." "What?" "Were you fired?" "No." "You just quit?" "Yeah." "You're unemployed again." "Yeah." "Where did you get this?" "It's from our cottage." "Is it Dad's?" "Yeah." "Don't tell me you believe in this too?" "Not on the pictures." "Want the backpack?" "I won't need it anymore." "No?" "Is this ok?" "Yes." "Did you shoot all these?" "Yeah, I guess." "Where are they from?" "They're all from Estonia." "I shot churches and ruins." "In Haapsalu, I shot the old airfield." "There are cows and..." "Most of them are of me." "I shot myself." "I see." "Did you make notes?" "No." "What do these numbers mean?" "Nothing." "Sure..." "You can't just drift around." "You've gotta do something sensible in life." "What the fuck are you sneering at?" "I mean it." "Move here." "I'm in love." "I see..." "Who's the broad?" "Rimma." "Who?" "Rimma." "Sounds like a horse." "Is she a horse?" "Is she?" "Honest, you must do something in life." "Is she gonna support you?" "You fucking scared me." "My love to the horse." "What did you wanna talk about?" "It's hard to explain." "Why did you come to the studio?" "I realized it's not that complicated." "What?" "This, between us." "Are you going somewhere?" "I'm meeting Ceci for drinks and I'll sleep at her place." "Honest..." "I'm going now." "I'll call you tomorrow." "When are you coming back?" "I don't know." "I'll call you." "Won't you come here tomorrow?" "No." "I don't know when I'll come." "I'll give you a call." "Sami." "Hello." "Yes?" "I don't really know where he is right now." "I know he's in Pärnu." "Would it be better if I..." "Could we meet?" "Where are you?" "Which clinic?" "Yes..." "I'll come there." "Petra Cantell?" "She's in the next room." "She's busy right now." "You've gotta wait." "Hey!" "Hello." "Hi." "Hi." "It's okay." "Do you have his address?" "No, he's in Estonia." "I don't know where he is." "I see." "Is this what I think it is?" "I can't say anything about his situation." "I just wanted to..." "But we've met before." "Yes, I remember that well." "Tell me, how sick is Joni?" "I can't talk about his health, I can't..." "Has he been here?" "I can't tell you anything at all." "Where did you get my number?" "It was in his records." "For the control visits..." "Why?" "You were named as next-of-kin." "Okay, if I'm next-of-kin, then tell me." "You were the only one we got hold of." "If I'm next-of-kin, then tell me." "No." "He's an adult now so..." "But I've been here before!" "He was a minor back then, so the family was involved." "Fine, but let's assume..." "He's over 18 now." "He's in control now." "How fast should he come?" "I really can't say anything." "But is this what I'm afraid it is?" "You'll know when you talk to your brother." "But I don't know where he is!" "He's in Pärnu and I need to know." "I can't go anywhere just now." "Should I..." "Then you'll have to wait." "But can I wait?" "Tell me." "How long can I wait?" "Well..." "For God's sakes, be human and tell me should I wait or hurry?" "I really can't say anything about his situation." "But I can see that you're distressed, so listen." "Just listen to me." "Fuck my angst!" "As an individual, all I can say is this:" "If you're worried about your brother and curious to..." "This is about my brother, not me." "Just tell me how much time I have." "Yeah, listen." "All I can tell you is to get in touch with your brother fast - and you'll find out fast." "Fine!" "Kasarminkatu 34." "Hi, Sanna." "It's Sami." "I have to go to Pärnu to find Joni." "I'll try to call you later." "Can you afford to go now?" "You'll be working on your show in five days." "Just make the prints we talked about." "Make them and then take..." "I'll try to be back tomorrow." "Thanks." "I just wanted to ask if you've seen this man." "Have you seen him?" "Know him?" "Is it possible that you've seen him?" "Bald, no hair." "A Finnish boy, Joni." "Excuse me." "I'm looking for this man." "Have you seen him?" "No." "Excuse me, I'm looking for my brother." "This guy." "He could be ill." "Have you seen him?" "Sorry." "Joni Moldakoff." "He hasn't been here?" "Is this the only pharmacy here?" "Have you seen this boy?" "His name is Joni?" "No." "I haven't seen him." "Ok, thanks." "Do you speak Finnish?" "No speak Finnish." "Do you speak English?" "No." "Go to hell!" "Vodka." "Straight?" "Yeah." "Hey, I'm sorry..." "I'm sorry, let's forget about this." "What?" "Let's forget about this." "It was a mistake." "Sorry." "I want to get the fuck out of here." "Fuck this!" "This is not working." "This is fucking not working." "I've been all over this goddam place." "Nothing." "Sorry, Sanna, that I've been such a pig." "It has nothing to do with this." "Everything is falling apart." "Nothing." "I'm coming home..." "I'll be home tomorrow." "I've got new friends." "A good electric fence!" "This is fun." "Past me..." "Joni!" "Hi." "Where have you been?" "I went to the store." "What's up?" "What the fuck are you doing?" "They called me from the hospital." "Did you go for your control visit?" "Yes." "Well?" "It was positive." "Did they take a bone marrow sample?" "Well?" "Also positive." "What the fuck are you trying to do?" "I'm fine." "What the fuck is this?" "I've been here two days, trying to find you." "Let's go." "Where?" "Take a guess." "There's a bus to Tallinn in 30 minutes." "We'll catch the night ferry." "I'm not going." "You're going!" "What?" "I don't even have a passport." "Don't be silly!" "Let's go get your passport." "Come on." "I don't have one." "Come on, Joni." "I tossed my passport when I came here." "Tossed your passport?" "I'm not fucking stupid." "Let's get your passport from wherever it is you're staying." "What the fuck are you laughing at?" "Come on." "I don't have a passport." "I'm not going anywhere where I'd need a passport." "I don't need one." "Did you throw out your passport, stupid?" "I don't need it." "How can you be so fucking stupid?" "You can't go anywhere without a passport." "I'm not going anywhere." "Are you a fucking idiot?" "Nobody throws out his passport!" "Are you stupid?" "Are you fucking with me?" "No." "We'll get you a new one, tomorrow." "Let's go to Tallinn." "I'm not going to Finland." "I'm not going to Tallinn either." "Come on, Joni..." "What the fuck are you trying to do?" "What are you trying to do?" "I'm here now." "I'm fine." "I can't believe this..." "Shit." "Are you just gonna sit there?" "Maybe." "This is ridiculous!" "The bus leaves in 20 minutes." "Let's get the fuck out of here." "You can't just sit there." "Get it?" "I'm not going anywhere." "Want me to..?" "Get it?" "What's wrong with you?" "Nothing." "You're acting crazy." "Are you nuts?" "Want me to hit you?" "Fuck." "Okay, we'll wait." "Hi." "Hi." "This is my brother Sami." "Brother?" "Yes, brother." "Sami." "Rimma." "He's Yoko." "Do you speak Finnish?" "A little." "I'll put these in the fridge." "Joni..." "Yeah?" "Is he yours?" "Yoko." "Why didn't you tell me?" "You'd just get mad at me." "Take them with you." "Sami here, hi." "My battery is low." "I found him, here in Pärnu." "He's real messed up, thinks he's well - and refuses to leave." "And guess what?" "He has a child." "He has a child here!" "What the fuck should I do?" "This is fucking insane." "Should I shoot him myself?" "He says he's fine - and he won't leave or anything." "I don't know what to do." "I'm here, at his place." "My battery is almost dead." "Call our Mom in Canada and tell her what's going on." "Tell her to come here as soon as possible." "Nice garden you have here." "Joni?" "Joni?" "Anyone here?" "Hello?" "What?" "Where's Joni?" "In Kuursaal." "Where's that?" "On the shore." "Here?" "Come here..." "It's out there." "Is it far?" "No." "Watch the baby." "Look." "Is it Joni's?" "No." "No?" "Yes or no?" "No?" "You must know." "If yes?" "Then yes." "I'm just asking." "Here it is..." "What about it?" "Good." "It's good." "I'm playing tonight." "What?" "Joni..." "We have a show tonight." "Here?" "What show?" "I should practice now." "What the fuck is this?" "Will this take long?" "Maybe." "Should I..." "I'll get some coffee." "Sami, could you watch Yoko while we go for a swim?" "Don't be long." "Who made these pictures?" "These?" "Rimma." "She was in art school for a couple of years." "I see." "What the fuck should I do?" "What do you think?" "Come see our show tonight." "Please, that's not what I meant." "Still." "What should I do?" "Tell me." "I don't know." "Please, let's sort this out now." "I know what I must do but..." "But I don't!" "Get it?" "I didn't want this to happen to you." "Tell me." "Ask I Ching." "Is this it?" "Have a look." "Is this what this is all about?" "No." "Is this it?" "I make my own decisions." "You're not even a good clown." "Right." "This is all fake." "I'm not buying any of this." "You're fucking nuts." "I don't even know you anymore." "I'm just happy." "You're fucking nuts." "Don't you understand?" "They're taking you for a ride." "This is all fake." "Nobody will buy this." "Nobody can... fuck." "Don't you understand what she's like?" "You don't even understand what she's like, do you?" "I'm telling you I've seen many of them." "A soft goddam fairy." "Soft chocolate on top and..." "Goddammit..." "It's not even your kid." "You don't owe them anything." "No." "No." "You just happened to be around and that's it." "Somebody else fucks her, god knows who - and you walk in and take care of things." "A nice boy like you." "How could you be a dad?" "You're just a kid yourself." "How could you know anything about it?" "You know nothing about it." "You'll parade around here all summer, barefoot - and then what?" "Turn it off." "What did you say in Helsinki?" "That you love her." "Yes?" "What did you mean by it?" "That I love her, of course." "Yeah, but what does it mean?" "I can't explain it." "Try." "I've tried." "I don't have to." "It doesn't go like that, Joni." "I've seen it so many times, been involved..." "All the people I've seen..." "It just comes and goes, starts and dies out." "That's it." "It's all fake." "People say that they're happy and doing good - when they just don't have the guts to break up." "Would that make them happy?" "Why would you be a goddam exception?" "At least they'd be independent, you know." "That's all you have, yourself." "That's all you've got." "Figure out what you want - and what you really think or feel about things." "That's all you've got." "That's what you've got to live with." "It's just bullshit - the full package they're offering." "And you're not buying?" "No." "And you shouldn't either." "I'm not buying any packages." "Don't bet your entire life on such a card." "No thanks." "Are you my brother?" "Yes." "Prove it." "I'm telling you: there is no secret around the corner." "That's a fact." "You can find peace by denying everything." "Nothing means anything, you have no will or dreams." "But you must know that it's a dangerous road." "You'll share Dad's fate." "What fate?" "He went nuts." "He went crazy from the same stuff." "The same goddam I Ching and other bullshit." "Not true." "Of course it is, ask Mom when she gets here." "Is she coming here?" "Yes." "Did you ask Mom here?" "Of course I did." "Idiot!" "This is not good, not at all..." "I think I figured something out." "Yeah." "I don't really care what happens to us, Sanna." "I went to Spain with a friend of mine." "We had been there for some weeks - and ended up in San Sebastian." "For some reason, I don't remember why " "I decided to spend a day alone and went to the beach." "I'd been there for a while - when I noticed " "Leaning against the fence - a really beautiful Spanish girl." "She was eating an orange without using her fingers." "I can't explain it any better." "Anyhow..." "I started thinking what to do " "and went for the old trick - of asking for a light - although I had some matches in my pocket." "We talked some German and some French - and I felt really good around her." "Then she told me - that a friend of hers was having a birthday party - in some mountain village and invited me there." "She kissed me lightly and left." "I went straight back to where we were staying - and told my friend what had happened." "We started planning the future - and how many kids I would have - and where we'd live and what car we'd drive." "Then we went to buy me a new shirt." "Then the bus comes and it stops." "The doors open and some people get off." "I'm standing there - and I realize that my feet are not moving." "I can't move, I'm just standing there." "Then I take off " "go downtown and get drunk." "Fuck..." "I've thought about it every week ever since." "I still don't know - if this was my chance of a lifetime." "Or is this just some stupid longing " "I can't get rid of." "Perhaps you'll understand what I mean by this." "Bye, Joni." "Do what you used to do when we were kids." "What?" "The thing with your head." "No way!" "No fucking way!" "Start the engine." "No, from here..." "Is that what you meant?" "But check this..." "Your turn." "Thanks." "It's Joni's." "I'm sorry if I messed things up for you here." "Thanks." "This is Sami Moldakoff." "Sorry, I know you're busy but I have a question." "Is it at all possible to recover from this illness - without treatment?" "Is it possible that such a miracle would happen?" "Yeah..." "Joni asked me not to tell you - but I have to tell you before I go back home." "Joni is ill." "He has leukemia and it has returned." "He should be in Helsinki for treatments." "His doctor called me and told me to bring him back." "That's why I'm here." "Understand?" "The doctors say that without treatment - his chances of survival are one in a hundred thousand." "I really don't know what to do." "Hey..." "Joni keeps saying he's fine and refuses to leave." "Why are you sitting here?" "And sulking." "Is Rimma upstairs?" "No." "Where is she then?" "I told her everything." "I don't know where she went." "I had to tell her, dammit!" "Don't you understand?" "Joni!" "Did you find her?" "Yeah." "Well?" "Why are you still here?" "I wanted to see you." "I'm leaving tomorrow morning." "Sami." "Sami!" "Sami!" "I want out of here, now." "What's wrong?" "Joni..." "Are you in pain?" "No." "Sami Moldakoff, we're here to get a passport." "Apply for one, I mean." "Subtitles:" "Jaana Wiik Broadcast Text"