"[PATRICE PITMAN QUINN AND LOCKBOX'S "BROTHA" PLAYING]" "♪ My mother told me ♪" "♪ "Don't worry, baby" ♪" "[BELCHES]" "♪ Mother told me ♪" "Drop another one." "♪ But I can't hear ♪" "[GRUNTING]" "♪ Because I'm... ♪" "♪ I'm in clover ♪" "[COCKS GUN]" "♪ Brother ♪" "[SHOUTING]" "♪ Till it's over ♪" "♪ Till it's over ♪" "♪ Try ♪" "♪ Try ♪" "♪ Try ♪" "♪ It's an easy game to play ♪" "[MAN GRUNTS]" "♪ It's an easy line... ♪" "[SIRENS WAILING]" "♪ To say ♪" "♪ 'Cause I'm... ♪" "♪ I'm in clover ♪" "[SCREAMING]" "♪ Brother..." "Brother, till it's over... ♪" "♪ Till it's over ♪" "♪ Try... ♪" "♪ Try... ♪" "♪ Try... ♪" "♪ Try... ♪" "Here." "Here." "Here." "Is this what you want?" "[GRUNTING]" "[GROANS]" "♪ Try... ♪" "♪ Try again ♪" "♪ Try... ♪" "[DOG BARKING SAVAGELY]" "♪ Try, try, try, try again ♪" "♪ Try... ♪" "♪ Try, try ♪" "♪ I'm... ♪" "♪ I'm in clover ♪" "♪ I'm in clover, I'm in clover ♪" "♪ Mm... ♪" "♪ Oh, oh, oh, mm ♪" "♪ I don't know how I don't know why ♪" "♪ Over and over and over ♪" "♪ I don't know how I don't know why ♪" "♪ Over and over ♪" "Fuck!" "♪ Over and over ♪" "♪ Over again ♪" "♪ I don't know how I don't know why ♪" "♪ Over and over ♪" "♪ And over and over again ♪" "♪ Over and over ♪" "♪ Over and over again ♪" "♪ No, no, no, no ♪" "What the fuck are you doing?" "Hey!" "What the fuck are you doing?" "There you go." "Hey!" "Hey!" "No!" "Wait!" "Fuck!" "What are you doing?" "Night, night." "♪ Over and over ♪" "♪ I don't know why... ♪" "I am a grateful recovering addict named William." "GROUP:" "Hi, William." "I need to tell y'all right now that I am coming from life on the real." "More importantly," "I am with several newcomers who are struggling." "FRANKY:" "Open the fucking door!" "STEVE:" "Hey!" "Hey!" "Could you keep it down, man?" "I'm trying to get some sleep!" "CESAR:" "Joe!" "[MAN CHUCKLES]" "Good morning, brothers!" "FRANKY:" "This is a sober house, and this fucking duck is loaded!" "And he's got to get the hell out!" "I'm not fucking getting fucking loaded!" "[POUNDING ON DOOR]" "FRANKY:" "Henry, open the goddamn door!" "I repeat," "I am not..." "STEVE:" "Would you let William in?" "getting fucking loaded!" "He's the manager." "Fuck William, and fuck you!" "I ain't going back to no fucking cardboard box!" "I'll kill you, and I'll kill this fucking weasel first!" "Steve, my man, you're always talking about your hookers and money, man!" "You should just forget this AA shit!" "Hey, hey, you know what?" "Hey." "You're all trash." "You're all fucking trash!" "You got too much class, bro!" "Fuck you!" "Fuck off, you cocksuckers!" "I swear to God, I'll call the cops, you fucking bastards!" "HENRY:" "You suck, Franky!" "Henry, open the goddamn door!" "You unstable fucking junkie!" "You wannabe jarhead motherfucker!" "Hey, Franky!" "What's happening, motherfucker?" "You want some coffee?" "This fucking duck is loaded right now, Joe." "Right fucking now!" "He's totally unsat!" "Motherfucker!" "Oh, I'm so unsat!" "Na, na, na, na!" "Fuck off." "Get the fuck out here, Henry!" "JOE:" "Get your punk ass out here, bitch!" "HENRY:" "Fuck you too, Joe!" "You fucking black nigger fucker!" "Yeah, you know what?" "My parents, oh, they marched with King!" "Well, they should have kept their ass home!" "Repeal civil rights!" "Repeal civil rights!" "Blacks and wannabe fucking Marines fucking suck!" "Fuckers." "Fuck." "Hey!" "Police!" "Police!" "[HENRY MOANING]" "Fuck you, motherfucker!" "[MOANING]" "Get the fuck out!" "Guys, don't kill him." "He's just a junkie!" "[ALL SHOUTING]" "Just a..." "HENRY:" "What are you doing?" "You can't kick me out!" "Later, dude." "[GRUNTS]" "You guys" "Dude..." "Oh, you want a cigarette?" "[TELEPHONE RINGING]" "Oh!" "I hope this is a girl!" "Any girl!" "FRANKY:" "Even if it's Jean?" "[LAUGHING] Fuck you, dude." "MAN:" "Hi, you've reached 3rd Street House, which only means it's a house on 3rd Street." "No one's in." "Leave a message." "[BEEPS]" "JEAN:" "Morning guys, it's Jean." "[ALL LAUGHING]" "This is a message for Franky and Cesar." "Listen, there's a new guy over here, a musician." "I'd like you to meet him, so come over as soon as you get this message." "Bye." "I know you're standing right over the machine listening to me, Cesar, so leave now, okay?" "[LAUGHING]" "Yeah." "Ha ha!" "It's white guy." "You got to go." "Dude..." "Fuck this shit!" "[GLASS SHATTERS]" "[♪]" "Yeah!" "Yeah!" "Fuck this shit!" "That's what I'm talking about." "Watch out!" "Yeah!" "[GRUNTS]" "[SHATTERING] Yeah!" "Okay, I got to get in and out of here before Brandon sees me." "That guy just shakes his head at me like he sees my fucking doom approaching." "Did Jean say who this guy was?" "[LAUGHING] Oh, fuck!" "Not another superstar!" "Hi!" "Hey!" "Hi!" "Woo-hoo-hoo!" "WOMAN:" "Excuse me" "CESAR:" "Whoa, where are you going baby!" "WOMAN:" "Gentlemen, help me out here." "And tie her down." "Cesar." "What?" "He's in Room 327." "Who?" "Soren, the guy you're here to see." "Soren fucking Dresjac?" "Yeah." "Sonny..." "CESAR:" "I hope Gwen Stefani's there." "Dude!" "[BOTH LAUGHING]" "What are you doing, man?" "[SOFT GROANING]" "[COUGHS]" "FRANKY:" "Jesus, he's shredded." "What day is it?" "CESAR:" "It's Thursday, man." "Thursday." "Fuck." "Who brought you here?" "[SLAVIC ACCENT] Fucking cops." "My band, right?" "Those dirty bastards." "Every single one of these fucking assholes shoots dope." "Shit, the whole label's fucking drunk." "And my bitch wife, the whore, she fucks my drummer and then throws me out of the house." "So I check in at the...motel, and they make me pay one month in advance, and then call the gossip papers." "So, naturally, my dealer refuses to come back anymore, because they were taking pictures of him, so I broke one, maybe three chairs." "and then the filthy manager called the cops, and then they all spent up all of my fucking money." "[CLEARS THROAT]" "Oh, hey, man." "Uh, this is Franky." "He lives in the house." "3rd Street?" "I lived there once." "Jean sent you already?" "Hey, man." "Franky Atkins." "I feel like you've been reading my mind with your music for years." "If there's anything at all" "I can do to help, consider it done." "I don't suppose you could get me a speedball?" "No, man, I can't do that." "I got to catch Jean, Cesar." "I'll wait for you outside." "All right." "[DOOR CLOSES]" "Serious guy, that Franky, yeah?" "Yeah, man." "So... they want us to talk to you, Soren." "[LIGHTER CLICKING]" "Um..." "Any-Anyway, man, um..." "Shit, the house is kind of a dump" "Franky strangled a guy today-- but it's better than County." "Well, brother, as soon as I'm able to move," "I am out of here." "[CHUCKLES]" "FRANKY:" "He's no different than the ducks at the fucking house, man!" "And he's in there, and he's all, "My wife this,"" "and, "My band that,"" "and, "Boo-hoo for fucking me"" "Well, maybe you just take him out back and shoot him in the head." "Just kill him, maybe... because, dude, hey, he's much worse than you think." "He's been through 22 rehabs." "He's a completely unwilling, violent dope fiend, who would pick my pocket for a fix, even though he's rich." "There's almost no chance in hell he's going to stay clean." "If he's lucky, he'll die quickly and soon, before he can really hurt somebody, instead of slowly and painfully." "Guys, we ain't trying to save him." "We're saving us." "Maybe he gets lucky in the process..." "WOMAN:" "Fucking men!" "But we do this for ourselves." "Compassion for others, Franky." "It's the one rush that works." "You should try it." "Goddamn fucking losers!" "Fuck you too, Brandon!" "Cara, calm down." "You can't act like this in here." "Bullshit." "Now if you got a problem, go to your room." "I'll be there" "Don't you come near my room, you goddamn nigger!" "Cara, what's the problem--?" "You and this plaice are full of shit!" "Cara." "Cara." "Fucking--!" "Motherfucker!" "Dude, you're hurting me!" "Ow!" "Get off!" "Sonny." "Sonny, let her go." "She's okay." "She's okay." "[SOBBING]" "Cara..." "What is it?" "Are you in pain?" "Yes, I already told the fucking bitch!" "Okay, we can deal with that." "We can deal with that." "Can you hang out in your room for five minutes?" "I'm going to tell Dr. Hughes." "Can you do that?" "I can't fucking take this shit." "BRANDON:" "Okay, we're going to deal" "CARA:" "I'm sick!" "We'll take care of it." "Do that for me." "I need you to go." "[SOBBING] I can't take this." "Okay?" "Let her walk." "It's been a wild day around here." "What?" "What?" "What'd I do?" "What?" "[CHUCKLES]" "Go to a meeting." "[PLAYING LOUD HARD ROCK]" "[LAUGHING]" "♪ How do you make A witch pregnant?" "♪" "You fuck her." "[LAUGHS]" "[BOTH LAUGHING]" "[PATCH CORD BUZZES LOUDLY]" "SINGER:" "I can never remember the lyrics to this thing, man." "Yeah, that's real fucking funny, man." "Why don't you assholes call me when you really want to rehearse?" "[DOOR SLAMS]" "Okay, sober boy." "Large coffee!" "And a toasted bagel." "And a bagel." "BRANDON:" "Compassion for others, Franky." "It's the one rush that works." "You should try it." "Hey, Joe, I've been thinking about something, man." "This might make you mad, but just listen to me." "I think the next guys that move in here, we should try to help them out, man, even if they're ducks." "What?" "Oh, fuck." "Here we go." "Fuck you, man." "Dude, I'm just talking about giving them back some of the cigarettes we steal from them." "Fuck no." "Why?" "Because we want to stay sober, and that's what we're supposed to do." "I'm staying clean." "Fuck them." "I start listening to all their fucking bullshit and their denial about..." "[MAKES WHINY QUACKING NOISE]" "I'm..." "I'm right back in the closet, and I'm peaking out at the fucking tree police." "I'm just talking about showing them how to use the stupid washing machine!" "The compassion, man, it's, like, for us, not them!" "What the fuck are you talking about?" "Henry?" "He shot dope his first night here!" "Fuck, I know that, man!" "Every fucker went through that unit has gone the fuck out." "You think I don't fucking know that, man?" "I'm just talking about..." "Maybe we could, like, try and talk to them or something, Joe." "I'm sick of being angry all the fucking time around here!" "I feel like I'm at war!" "Talking to fucking who?" "The only way those motherfuckers stay clean is cut their fucking throats as soon as they walk in the door!" "Fine!" "Fuck, we'll try that next!" "And the white ones too!" "Especially the white ones!" "Them first!" "No." "You tell me what the fucking catch is." "Somebody's parents paying you?" "Fuck, Joe..." "Draw a card, let them decide." "No, man." "Tell me what's in it for me, because we get to know these motherfuckers, and then they just relapse and we never see them again." "Or worse, we really fucking just like them, and then we go right the fuck out with them!" "All right." "[AGGRESSIVE METAL THEME PLAYING]" "JOE:" "Fuck!" "What?" "Deer." "Gentleness." "Tell Cesar in the morning?" "No!" "No!" "No!" "No!" "Fucking no!" "Fuck this program shit!" ""They'll keep their cigarettes, show them the washing machine, blah, blah, blah-blah!"" "What for, man?" "Fuck!" "Goddamn, Franky!" "We're being a service by sending them out!" "It's like teamwork, man!" "[METAL THEME NOW PLAYING OVER SPEAKERS]" "I don't..." "I don't want to..." "I don't want to be happy, man!" "This is not a happy place!" "I'm not happy!" "I'm not happy!" "Smile!" "[LAUGHING]" "[PANTING]" "[PANTING]" "Come on!" "[SCREAMS]" "[SCREAMS]" "[LAUGHS]" "Whoo!" "Yeah." "Whoo." "[SINGING IN SPANISH]" "Fuck!" "Whoo!" "Yeah!" "Come on, baby, bring it on!" "I..." "I don't want to hear any of the shit." "I've heard enough!" "[CLOSES DOOR]" "No, no shit, man, but, uh..." "You know, the doors aren't locked, man." "You're going to hurt yourself." "Check out at the nurse's station, that way you can get your money and credit cards before you leave." "All right, yeah." "I'm sick of everybody else having my money." "I want to be up-front with you, dude." "The minute you leave here, I got to call your P.O., and report that you left against medical advice." "I got to call your lawyer too." "Fine!" "Fine!" "More money?" "Fine!" "Fine!" "I'll take that parole bastard a dozen Air Jordans and send the fucking judge a hundred shiny robes with colorful little fucking alligators!" "Fine!" "[CLATTERING] Fine!" "Fuck!" "[BREATHING HEAVILY]" "All right, this is ridiculous." "I'm leaving." "The" " The judge will send me to prison unless I go to IMPACT, and I'm not going to fucking IMPACT again!" "No!" "No!" "Fine!" "Soren..." "I've watched you go through this for a while now." "About eight years." "It's getting a little old for me too, partner." "Look, man, why don't you just hang here tonight?" "You know the drill-- fake the meetings, have visitors, get your completion letter from Jean for your court file." "It's cake, dude." "Brandon, I..." "I want out of here." "You really want to be back out there, or are you having cravings?" "I cannot deal with my brain." "I..." "I just want my brain quiet." "[SIGHS]" "Okay." "I'm going to have the nurse give you something to get through the night, and we'll talk some more tomorrow." "Just hang here tonight, okay?" "Okay." "Hey, Franky!" "You think Cesar will even show up?" "Not without a date." "Hey, I'm taking my son to see Star Wars tomorrow." "You ought to come, man." "Man, fuck Star Wars." "Zoroastrian fucking fairy tale." "[DOOR OPENS]" "[LAUGHING]" "CESAR:" "Hey, guys." "Uh, this is Dana and Stacy." "This is Franky and Joe." "Hey." "Hi." "Hey." "Sit down." "Cesar..." "Yeah?" "Can I, uh, show you something?" "Okay." "I'll be right back." "All right." "[LAUGHS UNCOMFORTABLY]" "Are you ladies roommates?" "Um..." "[LAUGHS]" "I just completed IMPACT, and we live in the Gentle Mary House." "We're Gentle Marys." "[BOTH LAUGHING]" "Dana saved me from the nuns." "I would have relapsed if" "CESAR:" "Hey, Stacy," "I'm sorry." "Can we all hang out maybe tomorrow night?" "I totally forgot we have new guys coming tonight, and Brandon's bringing them, so..." "Oh, we don't want to be around that." "Yeah." "Okay." "DANA:" "Movie." "Bye, Franky." "Joe." "Um, you really need to quiet down, you know?" "STACY:" "Bye, Franky." "[GIGGLING] Bye, chatterbox." "[ALL LAUGHING]" "Goddamn it, man!" "What the fuck did you say to her sober, Cesar?" "I couldn't think of a fucking thing to say to Dana's beautiful black ass." "What the hell was there to talk about, besides, "Would you just please" ""take off your panties?" ""Just take off your panties, please." ""Could I take off your panties, please?" ""I'm not trying to be rude, but..." ""please!" ""Could I just see your fucking beautiful pussy" ""right now?" "Please."" "He's so charming." "[ALL LAUGHING]" "You should have just said," ""Show me your tits!"" "When was the last time you talked to a woman sober, Franky?" "Because I was fucking 12." "Hey, we got to go out, dude." "Oh, cool, you guys are here." "Hey, Brandon, um... where the fuck's William been, man?" "He hasn't been around?" "No, hell no." "Where is he?" "Tell him I want to talk to him." "Yeah, I'll page him." "You guys, uh, you know Chris and Clarence, right?" "Look, uh, why don't you show them the room?" "I got to get back to my wife." "Cesar..." "What?" "I saw your girl Stacy tipping off, man." "Oh, here, have a cigarette." "You got one." "Yes." "Speaking of cigarettes, I'm a chemist, and Chris here used to be in sales." "[DUCKS QUACKING]" "[QUACKING] ...Cigarette." "[CHUCKLES] Hey, uh" "Gentlemen, follow me." "You gentlemen, bunk here." "Step this way for a moment." "All of these items were abandoned by individuals who finished that 28-day treatment program, like yourselves, came here, and then promptly relapsed." "Take a look, gentlemen." "As you can see, there's a lot of shit." "Damn." "CHRIS:" "Hey, no need to worry about me, because I'm absolutely done with crack, man." "I'm, you know," "I'm going to get my life back on track" "Yeah, that's great, okay?" "I mean," "I'm sorry to interrupt you like that." "Uh, we've got a tradition here at the 3rd Street House, where all the new recruits..." "New guys, uh... get medicine card readings from Joe here." "Yeah, tradition." "Who's first?" "Come on, man!" "Wh-what are medicine cards?" "A reading." "JOE:" "Clarence." "These are animal spirit cards." "What you got to do is shuffle the deck seven times and ask them for guidance, thinking only about your life." "Why seven times?" "Just do it." "JOE:" "Fuck!" "Ugh." "Uh, okay." "No." "No, this is good." "[SLURPS]" "It's real clear." "Yeah, no mixed messages there, man." "[LAUGHING] Shit." "I thought the crow and the raven were the same bird." "No, man, they're not." "Look, this is the thing, Clarence." "Um, in the east, upside-down Crow means you're spiritually rebelling." "and you're basically telling the universe to fuck off." "You got better ideas." "The west card, upside down Weasel, means that you are a sneaky, thieving junkie, and that's why things are like they are currently in your life." "And the north card is upside-down Fox, and that means you're trying to hide your thoughts and outfox" " Clarence." "You're trying to outfox others." "But you're only fooling yourself." "The card in the center, upside down Raven, is you now." "You need the professional help of a trained shaman or you're gonna die." "Uh, the-the key here is Bat in your south position." "See, Bat offers a rebirth, a chance for... your innocence, man, and your-your faith." "You need to let it work." "I got an idea." "[LAUGHS]" "[SHOUTING AND LAUGHING]" "[FUNK MUSIC BLARING]" "Show me your moneymaker!" "Chris, man, the savior bat, not the funky chicken." "I can't spit on this, okay?" "Oh, shit." "[SHOUTING, LAUGHING, MUSIC BLARING]" "[WOMAN MOANING SUGGESTIVELY ON TV]" "[MOANING GROWS LOUDER]" "Clarence, what's up, brother?" "[TURNS VOLUME DOWN]" "I don't want to die." "CESAR:" "Those treatments will work." "Look at Magic Johnson." "He tested positive 10 years ago, he looks great." "I'm not afraid to die." "Really, I'm not." "It's pain and sickness and..." "[INHALES SHAKILY] needing help... because..." "I destroyed my family." "I'm alone." "That's why the picture..." "Me too." "But it's going to be all right," "Clarence, old buddy." "Hey, man, when-- when we leave here, we'll put our nickels together, get us a little place and take care of our old, sick asses till come what may." "And that's the stone truth, man." "Like we used to say." "Yeah." "Clarence, thank you for telling us about your situation." "I wish life wasn't like that for you." "Chris, I don't know what we could do to help you, man." "Um, you know, if fucking William was here, man, he, like..." "You know, we need, like, guidance, or-or-or-or" "[DOOR OPENS]" "STEVE:" "Hey, Joe, shut your ass up." "I'm trying to sleep, you inconsiderate bastard!" "Steve, shut the fuck up!" "I'll kill you" "That ain't necessary." "We'll call it a night." "Sorry." "Don't worry about me, Joe." "I'll be all right." "[WEEPING QUIETLY]" "I hope to fuck I am." "[♪]" "CESAR:" "Because Joe's all fucking paranoid about women." "[CHUCKLES]" "Man, f" "[LAUGHING] Fuck band practice." "It's goddamn Conrad." "Who needs keyboards anyway, right?" "As long as I just stay in this fucking chair," "I can't be in county jail, baby." "Because you can't be in two places at once." "Hey, you want to come over and watch a movie or something?" "[LAUGHS]" "Yeah." "CESAR:" "Don't worry about it." "Joe and Franky will be cool." "Oh, yeah, they're on this saint trip anyways, man." "Yeah, they're like rabbis or something." "Hey, Franky!" "[LAUGHS]" "Hey, man." "I got some good news and I got some bad news." "Which one do you want to hear first?" "Give me the bad news." "All right, so I was at this meeting today, and I met this guy who's got a construction firm, and they need a laborer, so the bad news is I got a job." "Ha!" "Yeah!" "That's great!" "[BOTH LAUGHING]" "Oh, man, congratulations." "Thank you, sir." "So what's the good news?" "[SLIDE WHISTLE PLAYS]" "Hey, guys, it's Brandon." "This is for Franky and Joe." "Steve's moving out today." "He needs to move back in with his wife and focus on his career." "But you guys cool it on whatever's been going on around there." "[BOTH QUACKING]" "No more fucking seances... or prostitutes or whatever." "I ain't bullshitting, Joe." "And tell Chris and Clarence to check in with me tomorrow." "I'll see you at the cookout this weekend." "Bye." "That's great, man!" "What did I tell you?" "Things run way smooth when we take control around here." "Man, I like this program, Franky." "Shit, one duck gone," "Chris and Clarence, I like those guys..." "We got to recon this new kid, Julian, that might move in tomorrow." "Yeah, I got some information on William too." "I can't reveal it right now, but I got that ass." "All right, man, but we got to watch out for Brandon." "That fucker's tricky." "Yeah, man. "Seances."" "How the fuck did he know that?" "Shit." "Day two, 10:14, surveillance of William Ellis's ass at the supposed 3rd Street House." "Fucking" "Goddamn." "Oh..." "Oh, fine-ass female." "Another fucking female?" "What the fuck--?" "What are you doing?" "Oh, shit, here they come." "See, Brandon?" "Look, man." "I'm out here sleeping in my fucking car, because I give a fuck about the house." "William's supposed to be providing leadership to people." "We need him at home, and he's fucking around, pimping." "Fuck him." "And no, I'm not gonna now say to everybody here how awful drugs and alcohol are, and how bad everything was." "Because it was great." "[ALL LAUGHING]" "It was fantastic." "Until it was complete hell." "The unique horror of detesting one more moment in your own skin-- what a gift, especially when it goes on for years." "So I, uh..." "I ended up on the streets in Mexico City." "I can't for the life of me imagine what creatures wanted to have sex with me" "Hey." "It's Jean." "in that condition, but I had lots of sex with somebody..." "[ALL LAUGHING]" "And I'm sure they were charming." "So, finally, I offered this guy 300 pesos to take my knife and stick it in my chest, because I was too afraid to do it myself." "[GASPING]" "[MUFFLED THUMPING]" "[STACY MOANING]" "WINSTON:" "Hey, Cheri, how you doing?" "It's, uh..." "It's Winston calling." "Uh..." "I heard you're the girl everybody wants, you know, baby?" "You want me?" "Hmm?" "For some afternoon delight." "It says "Aft..." "Afternoon delight."" "You know, baby?" "Well, what are you wearing?" "Shit." "Whoa." "That sounds hot." "Well, can-- can we hook up, uh, now?" "You know?" "Come over now, huh?" "We hooking up today, huh?" "Come on, Cheri." "Daddy loves his little Cheri girl, huh?" "[WHISPERING] Daddy loves you Cheri." "[NORMAL VOICE] You tell me you love me, baby." "Tell me you love me." "You tell me you love me, baby." "[GASPING]" "[GRUNTING]" "[SMACK]" "[SCREAMS]" "Yeah!" "Fuck!" "[BOTH MOANING]" "[GROANING]" "[MOANING LOUDLY]" "[LAUGHING] Ow!" "Yeah!" "[BOTH GASPING]" "[CRIES]" "[SOBBING] Oh, God." "AUSTIN:" "Julian... how does that feel to hear your father say you'll put all this behind you?" "I didn't mean that." "I know." "I want Julian to answer." "How does that feel, Julian?" "Well..." "[CLEARS THROAT]" "They just..." "They just love me and they don't understand." "They couldn't." "This doesn't get behind me, Dad." "I mean, I know it seems that way now, but one day, drugs and all this lifestyle that seems so alluring, they're going to be a distant memory." "You know," "I got pretty wild when I was a kid." "I mean, you're not the first one." "You drank beer, Dad." "I don't like beer." "I like crack." "Cocaine." "I'm sorry." "I..." "I'm sorry." "So, welcome back, Soren." "Sylvia... tell Soren what you told me earlier." "[♪]" "Soren... this baby has made me think about so much..." "[SNIFFLES]" "About us and about myself..." "And about how awful we treat ourselves, and I cannot treat this baby as badly as we have treated each other." "A baby wants love." "And a mommy and a daddy who will take care of her, and a daddy who will come home." "A daddy who is not going to die." "And I want to be a good mother." "I really do." "And I don't..." "And I don't think that you can be a good father." "Soren, tell Sylvia how you feel about her being pregnant." "I'm not going to die." "I'm not." "I want to live." "I want to see our child grow up, Sylvia." "I..." "I know I've been shitty." "I have made excuses, but it's bullshit, and I know that." "I give up." "I only want you, Sylvia." "I love you." "If you'll... only give me a chance." "How many times, Soren?" "!" "How many times?" "I don't believe you!" "I believe you love me, yes, but so what?" "What does it mean?" "It doesn't stop you from using." "Nothing does." "I can't help you, Soren." "I don't even want you to touch me." "I know that sounds awful." "[SYLVIA SOBBING]" "[ANGRY METAL THEME PLAYING]" "Come on, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on." "Go!" "Yes, I see your blinker!" "When are you gonna turn?" "Yes, I see it." "Yes." "Yes, baby." "Green." "Let's go." "Everybody fucking move." "Come on." "Why did I come this way?" "Fuck." "Fuck, fuck, fuck." "Fuck." "Stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid." "[CESAR SIGHS]" "Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck..." "[EERIE MYSTICAL THEME PLAYING]" "[PANTING]" "Oh, oh, oh." "Oh, baby, what's up?" "What's going on?" "Let me see it!" "Come on!" "Shit." "Come on!" "Oh, yeah, baby." "Yeah!" "That's what I'm talking about." "Oh, yeah!" "[TIRES SQUEALING]" "Stay where the fuck you are." "Stay right fucking there." "Franky, hi." "Hey, Dawn." "Didn't Melinda get a hold of you?" "No." "Oh, um, something came up, and she wasn't able to bring Kevin by." "I'm so fucking sick of this bullshit!" "I'm really sorry, Dawn." "It's not" "Did you change the account password, you fucking asshole?" "Whoa." "You seem to have fucking forgotten you were partying too, huh?" ""I want to be your woman forever, Soren." "I don't care about the other girls, Soren."" "Who was it that said that, Sylvia, huh?" ""Soren, let's party." "Let's go out." "I want to meet Bob Dylan."" "Now you say it was all pain and misery, and you're going to be the Virgin Mary queen of the goddamn martyrs with my money?" "I thought you didn't want to touch me anymore!" "I don't want to touch you!" "I disgust you, huh?" "You do disgust me, you whore!" "You junkie fucker!" "SONNY:" "Soren!" "Sylvia!" "You can't do this here." "Sorry, Sonny." "Come on, let's go." "Yeah." "Johnny, thanks for coming." "Sorry about-- Yeah, no problem." "Should I, uh, hang outside--?" "Where are you going?" "One of your girly hooker friends?" "Okay, I'm going to, uh" "No!" "One moment, please." "Let me give you the number to the... goddamn sober living house I'm moving to tonight!" "Okay." "Thank you." "Kim says thank you for the card." "Oh, yeah." "Okay, thank her too, okay?" "How's the baby?" "Fine." "Good." "SOREN:" "Thanks for coming." "I love you." "See you guys." "Take care." "2222, that's the new password" "Wait, come on" "Come on, wait." "Wait, wait, wait." "Wait." "Come on." "How are we doing?" "How's the baby?" "She's kicking and screaming like a rock star." "Can I feel?" "Please?" "My little rock star." "Okay." "[WASHING MACHINE LID CLANGS]" "[DIAL CLICKING IRREGULARLY]" "[GIGGLING]" "Cesar, turn the damn book up, man." "Cesar..." "All right." "You're fucking up." "What are you talking--?" "What, dude?" "Listen, man," "This shit-- we need sponsors, man." "I'm gonna talk to Brandon." "No, man." "Look, what?" "I'll tell you." "What do you want to know?" "What?" "I..." "All right." "I got it, man." "No way." "We..." ""I am a happy, grateful drug addict," ""cleaned by the grace of God" ""in the 12 steps of Narcotics Anonymous." "Life today is fulfilling and there is joy in my heart."" "Where are you going?" "Oh, you fucking pussy, man!" "CESAR:" "Hey, Joe!" "Hey, William stopped by earlier!" "Said to tell you he's not your daddy!" "Leave him the fuck alone!" "Shut up." "[TELEPHONE RINGING]" "Yeah, he got here about three seconds after you left for your meeting!" "We had breakfast, talked program." "[RINGING CONTINUES]" "It was great, man!" "He's pretty cool!" "I mean, you just missed him, because you went to your meeting." "Yeah, I don't think he likes you--!" "Fuck the fuck off!" "This is how it works." "You have to turn this." "CESAR [ON MACHINE]:" "Hi, you've reached the 3rd street house." "We're all here, standing over the machine." "If we like you, we might pick up." "[BEEPS]" "ROSA:" "Hello, guys..." "IMPACT Liquor Store." "Cesar speaking." "CESAR:" "Rosa?" "Rosa who?" "I'm just kidding." "What are you wearing?" "All right." "[WASHING MACHINE RUNNING]" "What?" "That is bullshit." "No" "Then I will go to court and I will get my rights to see my son, because I am sick of your fucking games." "[LINE CLICKS]" "Please... don't-don't do that to the phone, okay?" "You know what, dude?" "I need to leave now." "I'm having a family emergency and I need to leave now." "Maybe you should figure out whether or not you want to work here." "Okay, I will, and now I need to leave." "[♪]" "JOE:" "Still following Christy Love's ass." "Damn." "She got some big titties." "Ah, shit." "I'm going to have to make amends for that." "Black van." "JOE:" "Cadillac's pulling up." "She's bouncing over, all soft, and..." "Evil fucking temptress." "JOE:" "Ah, hell no." "Here we go." "She picked up a trick." "Fuck." "William is pimping." "REPORTER [ON TV]:" "In federal court this morning," "Soren Dresjac pled no contest to charges of possession of illegal narcotics." "His sentence was suspended pending completion of a drug rehabilitation program." "The singer will move into an undisclosed sober living facility, where he will reside for no less than..." ""An undisclosed sober living facility."" "What?" "We sound pretty official." "[CHUCKLES]" "I couldn't fucking believe that one." "WINSTON:" "You ever see this?" "CESAR:" "No." "I always meant to." "I just never got around to it, man." "[TELEPHONE RINGING]" "[RINGING CONTINUES]" "CESAR:" "Hi." "You've reached the 3rd Street House." "We're all here, standing over the machine." "If we like you, we might pick up." "[BEEPS]" "FRANKY:" "Yeah, don't bother, fuckers." "I'm staying at my ex-wife's tonight, so I can be with Kevin, so I'll see you junkies later." "Good, man!" "[TIGER ROARING]" "Whoa!" "Shit!" "Did you see that?" "[SHOUTING AND GUNFIRE]" "Hi." "Stacy." "Yeah, come over." "No." "Fucking St. Francis is gone tonight." "Oh, hold on." "It's the other line." "[RINGS]" "Never get outta the boat!" "Never get outta the boat!" "CESAR:" "We're all here, standing over the machine." "If we like you, we might pick up." "[BEEPS]" "JEAN:" "Hey, guys, it's Jean." "Chris and Clarence turned in dirty urine today, so if they show up there, they need to move out." "I left a message with Brandon, so if they have a problem with this, they can talk to him, okay?" "Thanks." "See, Winston?" "Fucking tigers, all right?" "Never get outta the boat, you hear me?" "Never get outta the boat!" "[MEN SHOUTING]" "[TELEPHONE RINGS]" "Uh, Stacy?" "Sorry." "Uh, yeah, come over." "Yeah" " Oh, yeah, we'll be here." "Me and Winston are never leaving." "Okay, I'll see you in a little bit." "Bye." "[HANGS UP]" "CAPTAIN WILLARD:" ""Never get outta the boat."" "Absolutely goddamn right." "Unless you were going all the way." "[KNOCK ON DOOR]" "Hey." "Hey, Kristen." "Come in." "Come in." "[SNIFFLES]" "Hey, Soren." "Do you remember me?" "I danced for you in New York." "It was, like, a couple of years ago, and, uh, your manager had some girls come up for a private party." "No." "I can't remember that far back." "Y-you know, we fucked, but that probably doesn't help." "Not really." "You know where we can get some drugs?" "Yeah, do you have any drugs?" "I got a little coke." "Yeah, baby!" "You look great." "Look at you." "God, you been working out or what?" "[COUGHS]" "[♪]" "This is a fucking waste." "The very idea of snorting makes me angry." "You got any rigs?" "I never shot up before." "Yeah, but I always wanted to." "You got any heroin?" "I want two grams." "Yeah." "Don't fucking waste it!" "You need to relax, dude." "[CESAR COUGHS]" "Uh, hey." "Hey, it's Kris." "Two grams, remember?" "Get another eight ball of this coke and see if they got anything uncut." "Tell them it's for me." "Okay." "Okay!" "Okay?" "Okay." "[SNIFFS]" "Don't waste it!" "[GASPS]" "Fuck, there's still some on the mirror." "Calm down!" "He fucking says he'll come, but he says that he wants cash now and he says none of that" ""My manager will pay you tomorrow"" "rock star bullshit." "I'll show you bullshit." "I'll show you the fucking bullshit!" "You see this?" "Fucking beautiful bullshit from..." "Prime bullshit from New Zealand!" "Gobs of bullshit." "Plenty of bullshit where it comes from!" "Pile of fucking bullshit!" "Fucking bullshit you." "So, uh, you got... we got a lot of bullshit." "[VOMITING]" "Hey..." "Hey, I want..." "[MUMBLES]" "Hey..." "I gave you enough." "Hey, give me my belt." "[SURF ROARING]" "Cesar?" "Cesar?" "Cesar?" "Fuck." "Cesar?" "Goddamn, Cesar." "Cesar!" "Cesar!" "Wake up!" "Wake up!" "Come on!" "Goddamn it!" "Call 911!" "Call 911!" "Come on, come on!" "Come on, move!" "No!" "Fuck!" "No!" "I can't!" "What?" "I'm fucking on parole!" "Fuck!" "Come on, man." "Don't do this to me." "[TASER CRACKLING]" "Get him out of here!" "Get out of here!" "Get him out!" "You fucking take him to the hospital!" "You fucking do time for that fucking wetback!" "Fucking bitch!" "Take your shit and get out!" "Get out!" "Get out!" "Get out!" "Out!" "Out!" "Out!" "Fuck you!" "[FOOTSTEPS RECEDING]" "[DOOR CLOSES]" "[CAR DOOR CLOSES]" "MAN [OVER POLICE RADIO]:" "Dispatch, we have a 187..." "[SIREN WAILING]" "You all right?" "We got some real bad news, man... so..." "I'm just going to give it to you straight up." "Cesar ODed last night." "He's dead." "What--?" "What happened?" "What happened?" "Were you fucking with him?" "!" "Stop!" "[GRUNTS]" "Were you fucking with him?" "!" "Were you fucking with him?" "Angel!" "Angel!" "Fucking bitch!" "[YELLS]" "[YELLS]" "[SOBS]" "Fuck!" "[SOBBING]" "Fuck!" "[SOBBING]" "BRANDON:" "You understand?" "So all this passing-the-guilt bullshit-- that ends." "Your enemy isn't in this room." "If you choose sobriety, which I hope all of you do, you will, unfortunately, bury a lot of friends who don't." "If you stay sober, you'll get older, and even your normy friends and family, they start to die." "That's..." "That's how life works, man." "So, our only hope is to love those that are still with us, and that's a hard thing, Jack, because, you know, you got to be... you got to be vulnerable, and that's why we're all so sad now," "because we loved Cesar." "[VOICE CRACKING] You know, he was a lovable guy." "But sex and a sense of humor is not a recovery program." "Only God could have saved Cesar yesterday, and he had let go of God way before yesterday." "You can't hide from life." "Not even in this house." "Life will come in, and it's gonna find you." "It's going to find you." "I loved Cesar." "I'm going to miss him for the rest of my life." "We're all going to miss him." "And I know that right now things are looking pretty fucking grim, you know, like nobody ever stays clean, and you're going to be fighting for survival for the rest of your life, but that shit ain't true either." "Things do get better." "William and me, we had some... we had some pretty tough times using together." "Our lives got better." "Yours can too." "Cesar's death was ruled self-inflicted, and the police have... released his body to his family, but, Soren, there has to be some consequences for your relapse." "You can't stay here anymore." "Joe... we're going to leave what happens to you up to William." "You two need to talk." "Soren, be out by tomorrow." "All right, guys, now..." "I want to emphasize this" "We love you." "Try to stay focused on just getting through." "Don't forget to pray." "Soren, pray us out." "God..." "ALL:" "Grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." "Amen." "[MUFFLED] Keep coming back." "It works if you work it." "You're going to have to move out too." "You cannot fight in this house." "There has to be consequences." "I'm sorry." "[MELANCHOLY GUITAR THEME PLAYING]" "Can I leave these boxes here until" "Absolutely." "Don't put them under the stairs." "No fucking way, man." "[KNOCK ON DOOR]" "Soren just finished talking to his old lady." "She won't let him come home." "I say you guys come back here tonight." "I mean, how often do Brandon and William come by?" "From what I've heard, they don't come around too much." "If Soren leaves, he's going to go to a hotel, go on a run, and fucking die, man, or end up in fucking prison." "You know how he is." "And your plan?" "What's your plan, Joe?" "To sleep in your car?" "My uncle got clean with William and Brandon, and from what he says, it would take 10 cops to get him out of this house." "Shit, they'd be hiding in the washing machine, man." "William and Brandon have to say this bullshit, man." "It's part of their job." "But it don't mean that they mean it, you know what I'm saying?" "You guys come back tonight." "Don't fight and just squash the bullshit, man." "Look, uh..." "I think I know where Winston is." "[LANGUID INDIE ROCK PLAYING]" "[LIGHTER FLICKING]" "[SNIFFS]" "[RAPPING ON WINDOW]" "Who is it?" "[SOUNDGARDEN'S BLOW UP THE OUTSIDE WORLD PLAYING]" "♪ Nothing seems to kill me ♪" "♪ No matter how hard I try ♪" "Soren." "Jesus Christ, dude." "Long time." "Come on in." "Hey, um... weren't you, um... like, on..." "Oprah?" "With that one actor" "Shut up, you stupid bitch!" "Fuck you!" "You shut up, Saturn, you fucking pussy." "This is my fucking house!" "Hi, Soren." "Yeah." "Besides, it's my fucking money you're fucking slamming!" "Fuck you, Daisy!" "It's your fucking dad's house!" "Oh, fuck you!" "Shit." "♪ Nothing seems to break me ♪" "Sorry, Soren." "[CLEARS THROAT]" "Uh..." "You probably don't remember me, but you were" "Yeah, I remember you." "Is, uh, Winston here?" "Uh, Winston?" "My cousin Winston?" "Could we talk to him?" "You know Winston?" "Yeah." "Could we talk to him?" "Yeah." "Um, room all the way at the end, Soren." "Hang out as long as you want." "Hey, what's up brother?" "I'm Saturn." "Okay, bro!" "That's pretty cool!" "♪ I'm givin' Everything I need ♪" "♪ I'd give you Everything I own ♪" "♪ I'd give in if it could at least be ours alone ♪" "♪ I've given everything I could ♪" "♪ To blow it to hell and gone ♪" "♪ Burrow down in ♪" "♪ And block the outside ♪" "♪ Block the outside world ♪" "Franky's an asshole." "Franky's an asshole." "Okay, Winston, so Franky is an asshole." "[GIGGLES]" "SOREN:" "If you stay here, you're gonna die." "Winston..." "He's an asshole." "Winston..." "Cesar's dead." "We relapsed together and he's dead." "I'm not fucking kidding!" "He's fucking dead!" "[WAILS]" "WOMAN:" "Fuck!" "Fuck you, bitch!" "I know you're fucking him!" "No!" "God!" "No!" "[SCREAMS]" "Please!" "Take your fucking--!" "Shut up!" "Shut up!" "Take your fucking Vicodin!" "Here's your fucking Vicodin, all right?" "Here." "Take a fucking Vicodin." "[SNIFFS]" "Shut up!" "[MOANS]" "[SATURN SCREAMS]" "[VOMITING]" "Are there any plastic sheets?" "Laundry room shelf." "Joe, Dana called." "Twice." "Seemed pretty worried." "I think she thinks you're homeless." "She offered you to stay at her parent"" "if you want to, if I saw you." "[VOMITS]" "[COUGHING]" "This's unbelievable." "We ain't even said five words yet." "She likes you." "Why?" "Beats me." "[JANE SIBERRY'S "CALLING ALL ANGELS" PLAYING]" "♪ A man is placed upon the steps ♪" "♪ A baby cried ♪" "♪ And high above the church bells start to ring ♪" "ANGEL:" "Hey, Soren," "Julian fixed you up a bed up in that crawlspace, and you still got your bed, Joe." "I'll sleep in here with them." "♪ The heaviness, Oh, it settles in ♪" "Soren, you going to stay here for a while, or...?" "Uh..." "I don't want to be anywhere else right now." "The principles we have set down are guides to progress." "We claim spiritual progress, rather than spiritual perfection." "FRANKY:" "My creator," "I'm now willing that you should have all of me, good and bad," "I pray that you now remove from me every single defect of character... that stands in the way of my usefulness to you and my fellows." "♪ ...before it's too late?" "♪" "♪ Calling all angels ♪" "Grant me strength," "♪ Calling all angels ♪ as I go out from here to do your bidding." "Amen." "♪ Walk me through this one ♪" "♪ Don't leave me alone ♪" "I guess I think God would be in charge." "♪ Calling all angels ♪" "In charge of what?" "The fucking house." "I guess I think that..." "Dawn's world is a whole lot better than Stacy and all them girls." "Or that Dawn's better." "♪ Every day you gaze upon the sunset ♪" "I guess I wanted to be what my dad wanted me to be and not stuck under a bridge or in that house, surrounded by Mexicans and blacks, and I try to keep them together, but, dude, that fucking Cesar," "he was gonna relapse soon anyway, and now Winston, and... all's he ever did is watch them pornos anyway!" "What's the bottom line, Franky?" "Bottom line, I'm better than them." "I want to be better than them." "I'm fucking supposed to be better than them." "I want to know how you feel when you think about Cesar's death." "That you'll never have coffee again." "That you'll never laugh together." "♪ Ah, but then you'd miss the beauty ♪" "He'll never see his kids grow up." "You'll never hear him play guitar again." "I want to know what that feels like." "Shit!" "Shit!" "Shit!" "Shit!" "Fuck you, Cesar, you fucking wetback bastard!" "[POTS CLATTERING]" "Fuck!" "Sorry." "Shit!" "It's all right." "Fuck you." "Fuck you, Cesar." "[SOBBING]" "♪ Callin' all angels ♪" "It's okay, Franky." "I can't do this, Austin." "I just can't fucking do this." "You know what, man?" "We'll do this together." "How's that?" "That's how we do it around here." "You're not alone." "Joe... do I make you nervous?" "Yes." "Why?" "Because I-I-I can't..." "I can't" "Joe." "Try and" "Joe." "Just say it." "Sober, I can't remember how I get from this part to the part where I'm taking your panties off." "Is that want you want?" "Is that what you want me to do?" "Oh, God." "Fuck." "[CHUCKLING] Oh, God." "No." "What do you want?" "I don't know." "To feel better tonight." "You make me nervous too, Joe." "I'm lonely too." "And you're exciting, and I love excitement." "I don't want you to be like everybody else." "I want you to be different." "I mean, maybe that's stupid, but" "[QUIETLY] No." "[BIRD YORK'S "HAVE NO FEAR" PLAYING]" "♪ Have no fear ♪" "♪ In your heart ♪" "[CHUCKLES SOFTLY]" "♪ Though you feel ♪" "[DOOR OPENS]" "DANA:" "Hey, Franky." "Hey, Dana." "JOE:" "Hey." "♪ Broken and lost ♪" "♪ There's a world Where we will meet up again ♪" "Hey, Angel, this is Tucker." "He's going to be staying here." "What's up man?" "Hey, listen, we've got a couple of guys staying here, and we would appreciate it if you wouldn't say anything, especially anybody connected to Olive Leaf." "They got thrown out for relapsing." "They got no place safe to go, and they want to stay sober." "Oh, no, dude!" "Hell, fuck, no, man." "I won't fucking say shit, man!" "Those Olive Leaf fuckers don't even like me, man." "Was it the dude that snuck out of the kitchen?" "I saw that dude." "I see everything, man!" "I catch everything!" "Hey, if he needs meds, I can call my old dealer." "Fuck!" "No." "No." "I better not." "I could if somebody went with me." "I mean, I shouldn't go cop alone." "Somebody would have to come anyway, because I don't drive." "Let's go." "Who's got a car, man?" "Damn, homes." "[TELEPHONE RINGS]" "ANGEL:" "Hello. 3rd Street House." "[DOOR OPENS]" "No, he don't live here no more." "No, I'm sorry, I don't." "Bye." "[HANGS UP]" "Hey, Joe!" "JOE:" "What?" "Come here, man." "What's up, Joe?" "What's up, man?" "This is Tucker." "What's up, man?" "You're one of the dudes hiding out in back, all secret spy like, huh?" "Shh." "No, really." "No." "I won't say anything, dude." "I won't say anything." "Hey, man, you want to see my brain?" "I got this great idea." "It's not ready yet." "It's not ready yet for a band, but..." "You know Ozzy Osborne?" "He used to throw blood." "Dude, I'm totally going to make a brain, lots of brains, and I'm going to throw brains." "Because all my songs are about, like, you know, wake up in the morning, and fuck society, and-- and-- and kill your parents, and burn all the bibles and the holy-listic bullshit, and dude," "and then I'm gonna throw the Jell-O brains into the audience, and I got this song, this great song." "You want to hear it?" "Check it out." "Check it out." "Check it out." "[MIMICS THRASHING GUITAR RIFF]" "♪ Eat my brains, eat my brains ♪" "♪ Satan fucked my mother And you're all insane ♪" "[JOE LAUGHS]" "[TUCKER MIMICKING GUITAR]" "[LAUGHING]" "Hey, hey, you guys aren't fags, right?" "[LAUGHING]" "Because I had a..." "I had a scout master like that one time." "That's right, Tucker." "We're all fags here, homey." "[JOE LAUGHING]" "Hey!" "Soren Dresjac!" "This is fucking Soren Dresjac!" "Where am I, man?" "Who are you?" "Gay, gay, gay-- that's us, Tucker." "Come on, Tucker." "Come on, Tucker." "Give me some of that ass, Tucker." "Come on, boy!" "Whoa!" "Come on!" "I'm not afraid to bare my soul, pussies!" "[ALL HOOTING AND LAUGHING]" "ANGEL:" "Come on, Tucker!" "I want to get me some of that!" "Tucker!" "Hey, Angel!" "This ain't the penitentiary." "You could get a girlfriend." "Oh, Joe, you pitiful son of a..." "Mm, mm, mm." "Soren." "Mr. Incognito." "Your booty is in the air, son." "Y'all ain't fooling nobody." "Hell, I've been seeing you all for days." "Y'all still don't realize" "I know everything going on up in here." "You rookie-ass ho's can't fade me." "Hell, I'm the fucking gangster from way the fuck back." "I know" "Oh, Lord!" "Oh, Lord." "[JOE LAUGHS]" "I know y'all do the steps now, and y'all are getting all spiritual and shit, but don't go fucking pink on me." "[ALL LAUGHING]" "Bye." "My son's been asking about his daddy." "He's got a stepfather who's got a brother who is two years clean." "Fucking God shots everywhere, man." "I hope it lasts until tomorrow." "My sentence hearing is tomorrow." "Will you guys come with?" "SOREN:" "Sure, man." "Hell, yeah." "SOREN:" "Shit, that's tomorrow?" "What are the charges again?" "Possession of a cocaine-based product with intent to distribute." "Julian, are you sure it's with intent to distribute?" "I think so." "You got one minute." "You can do this time, Julian." "I'm gonna tell you exactly how." "You going to listen to me?" "Yes." "Please, Angel, I" "Scoring and using is way different on the inside, and I know you plan on getting high the first chance you get." "That's a life sentence, brother." "You're going to have to hook up with the Aryans, and do some favors to get tight." "That's the way it is." "My advice to you-- don't let no one see you smoke your cigarettes or talking to the blacks or the Mexicans." "Make no eye contact with nobody, and always watch your back." "And look at me when I'm talking to you, homes." "This is not a fucking game, man." "If something goes down, like a drug transaction, a beating, a stabbing, you look at the floor and walk away real slow." "You see nothing." "You see nobody." "You don't get involved." "Just let them OD." "Let them fucking die." "It doesn't matter, because nobody gives a fuck, man." "You hear what I'm saying?" "You hear what I'm saying, man?" "If somebody approaches you sexually, you fight, man." "You fight like you're fighting for your fucking life." "Scratch, pull his hair, bite his nuts," "I don't give a fuck." "You don't... get trapped in that cycle." "GUARD:" "Time's up." "ANGEL:" "Life is for reals in there, homes." "Try to stay out of its way, huh?" "WILLIAM:" "I am a grateful recovering addict named William." "GROUP:" "Hey, William." "I need to tell y'all right now that I am coming from life on the real." "More importantly," "I am with several newcomers who are struggling." "They're struggling with the recent death of a fellow addict." "They're struggling with that, and also with the fact that they just watched a housemate get sent to the pen to do some..." "Some serious time." "Now, some of you all know me, but..." "They" " They don't know me, and I just wanted to share..." "See, I didn't come here to find God." "MAN:" "Take your time, now." "I didn't come here to find her, uh, you know, to keep her, or because I was beaten... or sexually abused as a child." "See, I came here because what I was using to live... didn't work no more." "It stopped working." "MAN:" "That's right." "And yet I kept using it." "See, I didn't care nothing about no police, and I damn sure didn't care nothing about no prison." "Hell, I was raised in prison." "[MURMURRING, CLAPPING]" "Hell, they... they put me in solitary confinement, and I still got that crack." "And I sat down one day to hit that rock, and nothing happened!" "MAN:" "What's that you say?" "I say nothing happened!" "Whoa, brother." "Oh, hey, I'm here to tell you," "I hit that rock till I could smell my own lips and my fingers burning, and still nothing happened." "And still I couldn't stop!" "Now, I knew I was an addict, and I didn't care if it was illegal." "When that goddamn rock stopped working, now, that shit got my fucking attention." "That's right, that's right." "[APPLAUSE]" "[SOULFUL CONTEMPLATIVE THEME PLAYING]" "And I need to tell you... that I wept." "I wept like a baby, and I fell down on my knees, and then I shouted." "I still don't know where the words came from." "I said, "Please, God," ""if this is not going to work anymore," ""please help me... to stop desiring it so."" "Now, that was October 27th, 1987, and I have not found it necessary to drink alcohol or do any drugs since." "That's right!" "[APPLAUSE]" "Now... if you new, you ain't got to hit bottom like mine." "If you're in this room, you done already hit bottom." "Welcome." "We've been waiting on you." "Now, them youngsters I brought in, they learning right now the hard way." "They learning." "You know what they learning?" "They learning that... that you can walk through life's trials and tribulations by using this fellowship." "[LAUGHS]" "[APPLAUSE]" "You know?" "Hey." "And I may not like all of you." "As a matter of fact," "I don't like all of you." "But I know you." "MAN:" "Yeah, you do." "I know you, because you're just like me." "And I love you." "MAN:" "And we love you." "I love all you crack monsters and dope fiends." "[SCATTERED LAUGHTER AND APPLAUSE]" "But get this-- in loving you..." "I get the gift." "You know, I mean," "God has granted me... a daily reprieve from the obsession of self and drugs and alcohol." "And I am lifted up to a place higher than me." "I am lifted up to a place... called "us"." "[APPLAUSE]" "WILLIAM:" "So... since you're coming, just don't stop." "Just keep coming." "Just stay up in here!" "Why don't you just stay up in here?" "You know?" "And I just want to say this:" "We have never known anyone to diligently work this program and relapse." "I... ..am living proof." "I am a grateful... recovering addict named William Ellis." "[PATRICE PITMAN QUINN, BIRD YORK, AND PATTY MATTSON'S "RISE UP" PLAYING]" "♪ They'll lift you again ♪" "♪ 'Cause we're gonna rise up ♪" "♪ Don't you ever worry ♪" "♪ We're gonna hold on ♪" "♪ Take my hand ♪" "♪ Then we'll be carried Over the river ♪" "♪ Over the river ♪" "♪ Of our fear ♪" "♪ When the darkness is winning ♪" "♪ And you're Running out of hope ♪" "♪ Keep your eye ♪" "♪ Keep your eye On the mountaintop ♪" "♪ And keep your feet Upon the road ♪" "♪ We will walk From these shadows ♪" "♪ Yes, we will ♪" "♪ One step at a time ♪" "♪ 'Cause we're gonna rise up ♪" "♪ Don't you ever worry ♪" "♪ We're gonna hold on ♪" "♪ And I'll be here ♪" "♪ Then we'll be carried Over the river ♪" "♪ Over the river ♪" "♪ Of our fear ♪" "♪ We're gonna rise up ♪" "♪ Don't you ever worry ♪" "♪ We're gonna hold on ♪" "♪ Take my hand ♪" "♪ Take my hand ♪" "♪ And we'll be carried Over the river ♪" "♪ Over the river ♪" "♪ Over the fields ♪" "[ABANDONED POOLS "START OVER" PLAYING]" "♪ What a mess Our life's turned out to be ♪" "♪ It was at its best When you and I were only 3 ♪" "♪ We can start With all the things ♪" "♪ That turn us out ♪" "♪ And we can go Right down the list ♪" "♪ And throw them out ♪" "♪ Can we start, start over?" "♪" "♪ Can we start, start over?" "♪" "♪ It's over ♪" "♪ It's over ♪" "♪ Here you are ♪" "♪ And here's where you want to be... ♪"