"[music] # l sawyou meeting at the newworld order #" "#You looked vey modern with your narrow shoulders #" "# You were a vision of Holy Grace #" "#And oh you held your place #" "# Eveybody wants a soul revival # # and you handed me the language # # and a social title. #" "# You are the coco and the go-go baby # # and you shook me all overthe place #" "# Yeah, you put me in my place. # # l wanted you. # # l followed you #" "# Ended up leaving eveything I ever knew. #" "#You fell for me. #" "#You believe me. #" "# Please believe me. #" "# Please believe me. #" "# Stop, you know I need you. #" "# The moment I see that tear run down yourface, # # my disgrace is in your eyes. #" "# You know I need you. #" "# The moment I seen you that tear run down your face, # # my disgrace is in your eyes. #" "# To stop, you know I mean to #" "# They'll be no faking, no more of my charades. # # l know I'm giving up #" "# The imposter in me. # # l knowthis is possible. #" "# Oh, the imposter is me. ##" "(male) Yeah, this is a Christian stoy, and I know what you're thinking, lefsjust skip to where our hero hurdles down the aisle and falls to his knees, cries then stands up a problem-mee man, men eveyone sits in" "a circle holding hands, singing Kumbaya." "But God's more interested in our hero going through a process men _apping him with spiri_al morphine." "Why does someone wear a mask or masquerade as someone they're not?" "Because mey're hiding." "I was hiding." "I was an im_ster." "You guys say good-bye to the glasses, I say hello." "Hello, hello." "(male) Scene 6, take 4, Mark 8." "Camera Mark." "[music]" "#You can sing, you can shout, you can scream it. #" "#You can quote, you can chat, you can wear it. #" "# Lies you testi_. #" "# Polished shoes, pe_ect smile, saved for Sunday, # # but they're back in the box by Monday. #" "# Lying through the week. #" "# So go on, go on hitthe book a bit harder #" "# Go on, go on, sell the Sunday cheap seats for the show #" "# Pretty little preacher all dressed up for the show#" "# Believe me... ##" "Grand Design, the hottest band in the Christian market with the hottest video." "That was "Believe is an Act" and joining us in our studio today, our lead guitar player and main writer" "James Palmer with front man Johnny C." "Welcome guys, thanks for coming by." "Ho_s it going?" "Thank you." "Some people are saying you guys aren't really a Christian band." "We are what we are." "(female) Critics say you only mention Jesus once in your newest album." "(Johnny C) Mo, mice." "Two times, two times, right?" "(female) Twice then." "You sing about you quite a bit." "Well, when I'm talking to James, I don't say James at the beginning of evey sentence, do I?" "I mean that'd sound pretty silly." "(James) It's all right, man." "I know exactly who I am and what I'm supposed to say." "If I don't measure up to somebody's expectations or list of rules, I'm okay with that." "I plan to live up to one person's rule, and His name is Jesus." "(Johnny C) See, mree times." "Daddy, hug!" "Ho_s my sweety?" "Want to see some hip hop?" "Yeah, you got hip hop for me?" " Hi, baby." " Hi sweety." "Howare you?" "[singing] I see the light of the gloy." "I see the light of the gloy." "Do you see it too?" "Do songs always end in questions, daddy?" "Not all the time, baby." "Let me see these." "So Frank's coming in for the showtonight and he's going to ride back with you guys." "Great." "And I'm gonna take this little girl and we are going to head back this afternoon." "He really hates me, you kno_" "And you really hate him, so it's a match." "(Johnny C) I forgot, okay." "_ara) Come on, Iet's get you packed." "Bye." "[music] [music]" "Oh, babe..." "look it's..." "it's just for my knee." "It's been acting up." "It's just meds." "In a baggy?" "Johnny, you said you were done!" "Well, you were the one that started me o_ on this stuff." "Don't you dare make this about me." "Hey, Tara." "What kind offather does this?" "I'm a great father." "I'm a good father." "I can provide for our daughter, I take care ofyou, don't I?" "All right, look, you're right." "I was addicted to the oxy." "It was a rough moment for me, but that's gone." "I'm clean, I promise." "You liar." "You stand there and you lie to me!" "She's gonna hear you." "I believed you." "Believe this... I'm done." "All right, look, Tara, I'm sory." "You knowl-- l mean I've stopped this." "I mean it's been di_icult but I am done:" "Please forgive me." "Please forgive me." "Please forgive me." "I just want... I have to go." "You going to Texas before the sho_ I'll meet you guys at the church." "You can't go like this." "You can't--you can't get in the car like this." "I need to go." "Not with Elizabeth in the car." "You cannot go like this." "This is not good." "It's risky." "Get out of my way." "Please don't do this." "This isn't fair to me." "I've got ministry tonight." "[rock music playing]" "# Tossed in a boat on the open sea # # as you stare down the depths of eternity. #" "# Test the holy waters and step out. #" "# So come on in # # the water's fine. #" "# Lift up your heart, but don't leave your mind. #" "# This is your chance to become what you were meant to be. #" "# Believe me. #" "# Believe me. #" "# Believe me # # because yourtalk is not enough #" "# Believe me # # you gotta take the step yourself #" "# Believe is an act, an act of action. #" "# Believe me # # because yourtalk is not enough #" "# Believe me # # you gotta take the step yourself #" "# Believe is an act, an act of action #" "# Believe me #" "# Oh... believe me. ## [audience applauding and cheering]" "There he is, Johnny C." "Can you sign this?" "You're not gonna sell this on the internet, are you?" " No way." " Can you sign this?" " l can bro." "Mine too." "Great show tonight." "Thanks, Frank." "You all ready for us to Texas?" "Not as big as an auditorium, butwe'll be ready." "I thought everything was bigger in Texas." "That's the auditorium you married my sister in." "Sounds great, Frank." "It's never about the numbers." "No, it's always about the numbers." "Tara said she and Elizabeth made it in safely." "Yeah, I wonderwhy you didn't go with them." "Hey, do they know it's an acoustic set?" "Yup." "Go clean the bathroom, John." "We're out of here." "Clean the bathroom, Johnny boy." "Hey, it's good for you." "Frontman always cleans the bathroom." "(Johnny C) James and Johnny C, _opie mink we're bromers butwe're not,just friends from childhood." "James took me in." "He needed a project, he let me sing, so I dowhatJames says." "He's the brains, the music, the lyrics." "He writes it, I make it beauti_I." "lfl'm going to do such a diry job, I decided long ago I deserved a lime me _'me." "[music]" "(Eli_abem) Uncle Prom" "Hey, sweety." "What does that machine do?" "Well, that's what uncle Proff cleans the floorwith." "Can I drive it?" "No, no, I think you better let uncle Pro_ do that." "I got something for you though." "Can I go play?" "You can go play." "So what's wrong?" "I think Johnny might be using again." "And you finally left him?" "No." "Elizabeth needs a father." "Well, I hope she gets one." "(James) I will follow ~All of Me~ with ~Believe is an Act.~" "(Johnny C) Uh-uh, we can't do that." "We always do "Believe" before "All of Me."" "That change will mess me up big time." "(James) Ah, we've been doing it this way the whole tour long." "We have?" "Tara and Elizabeth gonna be waiting?" "Johnny?" "Huh?" "What?" "Never seem to find the time to finish beating these rugs." "I find that hard to believe." "You doing all right?" "Not sure I can keep holding it all together." "I'm not sure you need to." "[music]" "# Is there a code that I can't crack?" "#" "# N4 life is slipping right o_ the tracks. #" "# Don't even know if I want it back # # so take it away from me. #" "#And I find your beautiful mind in eveything # # and eveything is all I need. # # l find your beautiful eyes see eveything, # # so show me something beautiful. # # l find your beautiful eyes see right through me, #" "# so show me what you want me to be. ## # so show me what you want me to be. ##" "He's doing it right now." "He's singing about the love ofJesus and he's up there mentally undressing that woman." "Why won't you say anything?" "How long do you want to keep giving him permission." "Look, we both played with the painkillers." "I was wrong." "All right." "Go ahead, give him a pass, again." "And when Elizabeth gets into drugs or bad men, go ahead give her a pass too." "That's not fair." "When you defend behavior like Johnny's, who are you really giving a pass to?" "All right, John goes out, gets himself wasted, drags himself home again, what do you get out ofthis?" "Nothing." "What do you get out of this Tara, what's the payo_?" "The payoff is a deadbeat drug-strung husband." "No." "What do you get out ofthis?" "What did your mother getout of her relationship with your father?" "She got to be the hero." "(ProM Okay, good." "What else?" "She got to be the good one, always putting him down." "And what else?" "She got to be the rescuer." "So ifyour dad had cleaned up his act, just like your mother wanted, would she be happy?" "Hey, great way to finish the tour." "What'd you think of worship before you went on?" "Oh, it was great man, you've always had a good voice." "Um, well, you know where to find me if you need a newsinger." "You seen Johnny?" "Yeah, thanks for coming out tonight." "No, problem, you were great." "Oh, thank you." "Yeah, take care you guys." "Bye-bye, nice to meet you." "Thanks." "Thank you." "Have a good night." "Hey, babe." "Just doing the autograph thing." "Who was she, Johnny?" "Oh, you know I'm just doing my lead singer duties, nothing." "You were looking at her more than anyone else during that entire concert." "(Johnny C) I can't see passed the lights, you know?" "I start looking atthe lights and I start to stare at somebody, that's just, that's what I do." "Come on, don't start on me with that, all right?" "We've got the whole world here and all you can be is unhappy?" "My voice, you knowour band, it's eveything you ever wanted and more, you kno_" "No, Johnny, it's given you eveything you've everwanted." "(Johnny C) What is that?" "Look, babe, we sing in front ofthousands and thousands of people." "Evey night, we change lives, that's what we do." "All right, Mr. Changing Lives, tell me right here right now, have you ever cheated on me?" "What, I was just thinking, I'm just thinking." "Just thinking." "Great." "Great." "Elizabeth and I are staying here." "You're staying here?" "Look, I don't know what you're strung out on." "Let me autograph this for you." "Leave me alone, man." "[music] [music]" "# There's a place in my heart that's empty # # and I have searched the world to find # # someone or something to fill it, # # but it's harder the longer it's denied. #" "# It's a hunger and I can't fill it. #" "# It's a thirst in a dy land, but my heart is starving # # for something but I'm stuck in the sinking sand. #" " Thanks forthe pizza." "Alright, no problem." "#And I've searched in evey direction # # when I knowyou're calling my name, # # but I choose not to listen # # 'cause I know I'll have to change. #" "# So this empty still remains. #" "(Johnny C) Are you coming back home?" "Please sweey, I miss you, and Eli_abeth too." "I miss you too." "You knowshe wrote another song for you." "(Johnny C) She did?" "for me?" "Yeah." "Oh, babe, it would be so great ifyou could just visit just once, please." "Okay." "# It shom its face in expectation # # and again when achievement's not enough. #" "# The more I gain, the more I see it, # # but my heart still cries it's not enough... # [phone ringing]" "Hello." "Oh, I'm sory, I thought this was my phone." "# But I choose not to listen, # # cause I knowl'll have to change. #" "# So this empty still remains. # [music]" "(male) You think we got what we need?" "Yeah, it sounds good." "Hey, Johnny." "Fo_-five minutes late, Johnny." "Man, you guys are never ready for me." "Ready this time." "[coughing]" "What's wrong?" "Man, there was a dog barking last night outside my house and it just wouldn't stop." "Johnny!" "You got anything you want to talk about?" "Ho_s Tara, Elizabeth?" "They're fine." "They're back at the house right now and they'rejust sleeping away like babies." "Sleep, sleep, beautiful sleep." "It's so beautiful." "It's like they have intestinal worms or something." "Intestinal worms, you knowthat's a great lyric." "Ifyou don't like worms, howabout seepage?" "I've always liked the word, "Seepage."" "In fact seepage rhymes with sleepage." "[singing] They, oh, they've got seepage in the sleepage." "Whatdo you think, Brian?" "What's going on with you?" "Man, you don't even want to know." "What is going on?" "You don't want me to ruin yourworld." "How much oxy are you taking?" "(Johnny C) It's prescription." "There's no pharmacy label on this and no doctor." "His name's not on there." "I never did this." "That's my stuff." "I'm sory, Brian." "(_rian) It's okay, but listen, Johnny." "The label is voicing concern." "If this gets out, the Christian market will turn on the whole band." "It's not gonna happen this time." "You knowwhat?" "Can you just go get a drink ofwater or something?" "(Johnny C) Man, you know eveybody wants mis, the money, the fame to make a difference, send a message, me, the James project." "I've been drinking for quite some time now." "Were you, on stage?" "What do you think, man?" "Tara left me and she took Elizabeth with her and they went down to Texas." "And you knowwhat?" "I think it's better for eveybody, including you because there's not gonna be as much tension." "There won't be all the crying." "I mean good riddance." "Why?" "Because she's never happy." "(James) Wm'd she leave you?" "She went home." "Why did she leave you, Johnny?" "Because I've been sleeping around, man." "is matwhatyou wanted to hear?" "Okay, there I've said it." "You're done." "What do you mean I'm done?" "Wait a second, what about all those Christian virtues you talk about all the time like forgiveness, compassion and grace?" "You knowwhat?" "You're real quick tojudge." "Actually I think I've been too slow." "You knowwhat?" "This band is gonna be nothing without me." "(_rian) John, as you all agreed when you signed me partnership, all monies go to the spouses." "You'll have to talk to her bank accounR, eveythi'ng." "I knowthis will be hard on you." "Let's pray." "Dear Lord Jesus, you say when two or more are gathered in your name that you are here with us." "We pray today that" "(Johnny C) I was still too strung out to understand, butone thing I knew was mat Chrisianese wasn'tgoing to save my soul." "...Lord Jesus Christ, Amen." "[music]" "(male radio announcer) It's T:_O, good morning, Chris and Dawn here with ya." "(Dawn) And Chris has got a big stoy to tell ya about." "We've got a huge music nem stoy coming out of Nashville this morning." "It looks like Grand Design lead singer Johnny C has leR the band to pursue a different ministy direction." "Dawn, I'm never sure exactly what that means." "I think it's short for he wants to have his own solo career." "(Chris) Yeah, maybe." "Well, so now what?" "They go out and _nd a new front man?" "Well, I mean they could but James Palmer's always been the main force behind Grand Design anyway." "He's got a great voice." "I think they should let James sing his own songs." "Oh, he doesn't have that unique Johnny C voice though." "(Dawn) Nobo6 has thatvoice." "Well, we've got the full stoy" "The question is though, does this mean the end of Grand Design orthe beginning of a newera forthe band." "Well, James can do the tourwith us now." "(Johnny C) Looking back at _self, makes me sick." "I asked hr mercy, but mercy can only come aMrjudgment." "I asked hr mercy, but mercy can only come aMrjudgment." "Dear friends, stop and imagine for a moment that there you are in heaven walking on the streets of gold, singing, shouting, "Gloy."" "But up in front of you, you see a family that was your next door neighbor on earth." "They're sobbing, cying in terror this huge angel drags them to a door marked "Hell."" "The fatherturns to you and says," ""Neighbor, why did you not witness to me?"" "Sobbing he turns to his family and walks into eternal damnation." "Then you see the Lord, nail-scarred hands outstretched and He said, "l did it all for you." "Why did you not witness to them?"" "Yes, sir, that's right." "(male preacher) Ifyou don't tell them, who will?" "The single most important thing in the Kingdom of God is to save the lost." "Amen." "Imagine, in that great throne room of God, you're standing there and the Lord says," ""So how many souls did you bring me?"" "And behind you are dozens of people standing, shouting, thanking God because you witnessed to them." "What if no one stood behind you?" "Would he say, "Well done thou good and faithful saint"?" "I think not." "No, I know not." "You want prosperity?" "Save me lost." "You want t be happy?" "Save me lost." "You want a good life?" "Save the lost." "Say this prayer in your heart wim me." "Lord, I know You want me to be pros_rous and happy and have a good life when I save the lost." "No loss anyway, devil's music." "You can start living your own life, do some real work for the Lord." "Yeah, concerning that, I want to-- well, I need some help starting a ministy." "I need money." "You know I can send out the invitations to speak and sing, and I can talk to the churches, work out some love o_erings." "You know I can still be an entertainerjust like you." "Still have that souped-up car of yours?" "Still have that Cadillac Landau?" "Well son, when you have your own nonprofit organization set up, let me know." "That's it, I need help to set it up, you know legal fees and what not." "Why'd they really let you go?" "I don't know, musical differences." "Don't lie to me, son." "I was messing around." "They fired you for doing a little hound dogging?" "Yeah, hound dogging." "A rock 'n' roll star girls love rock 'n' roll stars:" "They fired you forthat?" "Yeah, dad, could you imagine." "If I was an evangelist like you, well, maybe I could have kept my job." "Your mother knows who she married." "Does anybody else?" "Fine." "You can live with me." "You can sing a hymn before I speak." "No, I got work to do down in Tennessee." "So if I pick up the phone right now and called James, he's gonna tell me that's the reason you got kicked out?" "I might have had a drink or two and maybe something else." "I don't support no drug addict and I can see it in youreyes." "It's not like that, dad." "You're unteachable." "I taught you never to get caught." "Oh, come on, dad." "[music]" "(Johnny) The next _w monms were a blur." "I had enough money and friends who liked my money t keep me busy." "[music]" "(Johnny C) I hurt, but the medicine took it all away." "I wish me next _w months were a blur." "When me money ended, the pain really began." "Don't leave, you know I'm good for it, Mule." "When I have ever not been good for it?" "Come on, man." "So tell Bobby to take a look at it." "You want him to move them up?" "No, just do something different." "Okay, got ya." "Hey, and get Sydney a lUnnel." "[cell phone vibrating]" "Hey." "Hey, man, ho_s it going?" "Fine, man, good to hearfrom you." "Howyou doin'?" "(Johnny C) Yeah, good, good." "So you guys got a showtonight." "Yeah, setting it up now." "(Johnny C) Yeah, dude, I'm wondering ifyou could send" "SOme money my Way." "You know my money." "Look man, we had a partnership." "You and I are partners together in this thing and that's how we set it up." "Yeah, you are a partner but we signed that agreement." "The thing is I can't send you the money." "Look, man, you can't do that and you turned o_ my cell phone." "Look, I'll keep sending it to Tara, ask her." "Maybe she can get you a phone." "No, no, no." "I gotta run." "Call me when you're clean." "[phone ringing]" "Hello." "(male) Johnny C?" "Yeah." "(male) Hello, this is Jerome Grant with Crisis Studios." "I'd like to meetwithyou as quickly as _ssible." "Now it's important that we move fast on this, quick, quick, like a bunny, get to market straight away." "I'm okay with that." "So you have songs, then?" "Not really." "Okay, well, we've songwriters, we have songs." "We have stacks of tracks just ready to go." "Wejust need that little lead vocal on top, that persona to cary it out, you know?" "Yeah, okay." "But we will have to pay these songwriters." "Yeah, but you know, man, I really don't have the money." "All right, you're a sure thing, mmm?" "Think Crisis can be willing to cary most ofthe risk on this." "We'lljust need $9,OOO, $10,OOO from you to get that first Johnny C solo album out." "I don't know." "(Jerome) Johnny, Johnny, Johnny, you've got a name right now." "Yeah, you've got a following." "But ticktock, lad." "You have a _w more minutes, it's been what?" "Six months." "We're ready to go." "We've got that material that you need to stay at the top." "Yeah, but it's not all about the money." "No, no, it's not about the money." "It's also about the ministy, yeah." "Oh and wait till you see these lyrics, man." "Deep, I can't even, deep." "Yeah?" "You'll be reaching thousands forthe Gospel before you know it." ", You have the album, the tour U.K., bus, plane, boat, whatever it takes, eveyming you want." "We just need you." "The question is, do you want it?" "Yeah, all right." "(Johnny C) I need to talk to Reyes." "What about?" "Maybe I got myself a new record deal." "Record deal?" "Back in business, baby." "I just need kind of a small Ioan to cover some expenses." "What kind of small business loan are we talking about, Johnny?" "Ten Gs." "All right, come On." "(Johnny C) All right!" "Johnny C." "Hey, man." "N4 friend, my brother." "How are you, son?" "It's good to see you." "It's good to see you as always." "Good to see you too." "Nowfantastic so say it with me, guaranteed CHR hit." "Platinum on the wall baby, you knowwhat I'm talking about?" "Absolutely." "All we need to do, a little cream, a little gravy on top, your little vocals." "A little... that little rock thing you do." "You do it better than I but you knowwhat I'm talking about." "Then we start working on pipelines." "We get the spins on the Christian radio stations, which speaking ofthis vey morning, I get a phone call from who?" "A radio station in Dallas saying," ""Oh, cheerio, Johnny C single." ""On my radio, I want to hear it?" "Can you give it to me no_"" "Already people are calling about this." "Oh, it's fabulous." "We need to start this thing right away, I mean right away." "Monday's good." "Tony, Monday, Monday?" "Thumbs up by Tony, so we do this Monday then." "All right, thanks man." "Give me a ring if you need anything." "Call me, love you." "[music] I'm employed again, man." "You know I'm good hr it." "Come on, Mule." "It's rule numberfour Johnny;" "you don't mix the merchandise customers with the banking customers." "Because I borrowed a little money from you, you're gonna play it like that?" "What's up, Mule, this is you and me we're talking about?" "It's rule number four you still got 3 112 week!" "s of being a banking customer." "I don't have 3 112 more weeks!" "[music]" "What's wrong with you, Mule?" "[music]" "# What can you do, # #just hit my knees and leave it up to you. #" "# Sometimes, it hits like a train. #" "# The winds of change come like a hurricane... ## Ice man's got ya." "Come on, Moxie." "Don't wory, about it, Moxie, I'll take care of you." "He tried to radiate you, that's all." "[ice man singing]" "(lce man) Hey, somebody over there called me." "Yeah, what is a Kumbaya by the way?" "I never heard what a Kumbaya is." "Hey, hey, howyou doin'?" "Good, you almost succumb to the radiation, but Oprah cast a light over eveything." "She protected you." "You know Keyman had it right." "It's the light out there." "That's the light that's gonna get ya." "Oh, careful, you don't wanna knock yourself out." "Where am I?" "What?" "Well, that's a good question." "You don't know where you is?" "You should know by now." "But that don't matter 'cause right now, you knowwe're in the middle of a big problem." "There's a war going on and it's taking over the entire city." "All of it, except right here." "The last touch of reality right here." "Oprah keep tying to get me to leave, but I ain't ready to go yet." "Let's find out if you're ready to go 'cause I got the _.broadband, single band, scotch malt, rubber band right here." "Whatever it takes." "(Johnny C) Mo, I gotta get home." "Hold on, I gotta find out whether you can leave yet or not." "(Johnny C) I goM get home." "Where you going?" "I ain't even made your coffee yet." "Come on, where you going?" "Hey, hey, get back here." "Hey, where you going?" "Come back here." "Hey!" "Whoa, ain't no need to get your britches up in an uproar." "He ain't going with us yet." "We ain't done with him neither." "[music]" "# Sometimes it hits like a train. #" "# The winds of change come like a-- #" "(Johnny C) The narcissist is rarely lonely." "He's got all the miends he needs inside himself butfor me, mey wouldn't come out and play." "(Jerome) Where've you been, mate?" "I've been searching for you for 2 days." "I got mugged." "You got mugged?" "Yeah." "Well, let's have a look at you then." "Oh, yeah, we're definitely gonna need some make-up to coverthat up for the photo shoot." "No worries, the chicks dig the scars." "Pipes okay?" "Right, then what are we waiting for?" "Got some tracks for you to work on, yeah?" "Got some tracks for you to work on, yeah?" "[music] # l tried eveything to find you- #" "Johnny, you gotta wait for it." "You gotta wait for it." "Come on, man." "You knowjust play it." "Pick it up behre the firstchorus, all right?" "First chorus, here we go." "[music]" "(Johnny C) # l tried eveything to find you. #" "Johnny love, why don't we go and take a 5." "(Johnny C) Man, it's these lyrics, they really suck." "(Jerome) No, I understand." "Let's give you a break men." "You've been going at it for a while." "(Johnny C) This is so not cool, man." "This is so underneath what I'm used to doing, the music, the lyrics." "It's like a total notch down from what I'm used to." "I mean I've been on another level, man." "You don't even understand what I've been through." "I do understand." "Spin around and talk to me for a second." "I'm yourfriend, man." "Look at me, it's Jerome." "You know me?" "This isn't about the music, it's not about the lyrics." "It's about something completely di_erent, all right." "You're wound like a rubber band, mate." "You're about ready to snap on me, yeah?" "Come on, this is about you, okay?" "Me?" "Yeah, it's about you." "You need to relax, man." "See you back in 10, Johnny." "# Acouple more weeks and the walls come down. # # l don't care if it's East orWest, # # l just need to get some rest. # # l'm home. # # l'm home. #" "#And it's the architecture of peace # # and it's the streets, the lead to release # # and it's the hallways and doorways of hope #" "#And it's the place that we call home. #" "# Sha, la, sha, la, la. #" "# Sha, la, sha, la, la. #" "# Sha, la, sha, la, Ia, la, la, la. #" "# Sha, la. #" "# _ome ##" "Beautiful." "Beautiful." "Marketing called and they are really getting behind this, huh?" "That's good." "Can I get an advance?" "Sure, yeah, sure." "I will call accounting and it will take, you know some time, of course, to push it all through." "All right, okay." "I can wait." "Well, good foryou, mate, I'm glad you can but I'm talking, you know, a fewweeks." "It's accounting, numbers, cray madness, all that sort of stuff." "But the main thing is, Johnny, you've nailed this, baby." "This little platinum thing is gonna be a big platinum thing just for you and before time people forget all about this Grand Design, span design and focus on Johnny C, my friend, which is what we want them to focus on, right?" "Right?" "Yeah?" "European, U.K. distribution my friend, jet setting." "Now I will need you to be ready for the studio on Monday morning okay, so bright and early." "Sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite." "I'm gonna need a little bit more." "And I will see you on Monday, yeah?" "What's your name?" "My name is Johnny C." "I believe you." "I believe you." "[Johnny C singing]" "He's off again today." "That's okay." "We'll just slow it down and make it a worship song." "We'll just, just get him through this one the best you can and we're done with him." "[Johnny C singing]" "#And through the tears and salt # # and fear and blood, a love song. #" "Okay, we're out." "That's it?" "Yeah." "Hey, where'd Jerome go?" "(male) Out." "Okay, did he mention anything about a check, advance?" "No." "Hey!" "(Johnny C) Hey, you can't do that, man." "Got an order to turn it off." "You knowwhat, I'm on auto pay." "They take it out of my account evey month." "Not this month." "Well, let me at least write you a check." "No, can't do that, orderto disconnect." "You're gonna have to go down to the water department substation, pay there." "No!" "[music]" "# We don't like your politicking, # # get a new life, get a new love. #" "# This is where your soul needs stitching. #" "# Get on thejob, bang on the drum. #" "# Please believe you're beautiful # # when you're not made up. #" "# Turn the switch to give you my love. #" "#A soul kiss it's all over # # yeah, yeah, yeah #" "# Turn the switch to give you my love #" "#A hard itch and it's never enough ##" "Hey, come up here, I gotta talk to you." "Come on, it's all right." "I just want to talk to you." "I'm not gonna hurt you." "I just want to talk to you, okay?" "All right, this ain't working, okay?" "I can't get a ride with you following me like this, okay, so you gotta move on further down the road." "Hey, you hearthat?" "He wants us to move on down the road." "Yeah, he think we're gonna devalue the prope_ value around here." "You knowthe Ice man done iced up the whole city and he's worried about property devaluation." "What am I supposed to respond to that with?" "Fine." "Fine." "# To giveyou my love #" "#A hard crush and it gives you the shove ## [music]" "There go the neighborhood!" "Ha-ha!" "I'm headed to Little Rock, where you going?" "Fort Worth." "Well, I can get you a little ways down the road." "(Johnny C) Hey, stp, stop, man, stop." "Stop the car!" "I don't want to be making a bunch of stops." "Stop the car." "Oprah don't stink, she use beauty fresh." "That's what she do." "You all right, man?" "Oh, no." "She's gonna get me." "Get off me." "Get off me." "What happened, what happened?" "Watch this." "You do got to help me." "Oprah's broke." "Oprah's gone, she's the only protection." "You talk like that to your ride, man." "This ain't got nothin' to do with no ride." "What you talking about ride?" "This is biggerthan that." "This is more important than that." "Oprah's our only protection here." "I think all you need is a new little light thingy there." "Yeah, yeah, that's what we need," "Oprah, that's what we need." "You a tech-no-crat." "You's a wizard, you is." "I knowyou can do something with Oprah." "You can help Oprah." "No, man." "Look, I gotta be on my way to Texas, right." "I'm on the move right now." "Yeah, looks like it." "Come on, you can help me." "You can" "Look, just beg a fewquarters, right, and go to the local hardware store and they'll put your Oprah back in business, okay?" "But I gotta get out of here." "Don't go so fast." "It'll okay, all right." "Don't go so fast." "Hold on, don't go so fast." "That's good foryou." "What do you want?" "No not here, too much radiation." "We looking at--you're talking about at least 500 centigrade." "Come on, we gotta find some darkness." "You're way out there, man." "Hey, I'm sory, all right, I'll be moving on." "I don't want to bother you." "[fly buzzing] I wish that bug zapper would work." "I do believe that you could fix Oprah up." "I believe you got talent Mr. Moxie on Oxy." "My name's Johnny, okay?" "And I'm a singer." "J You a troubadour a troubadour?" "Yeah, you do wear a lot of costumes." "You got the army man costume and you got the moxie on oxy costume." "No, I don't see no troubadour costume on ya." "No, a troubadour, you knowwhat I'm sayin'." "Well, I tell you every day." "Why don't you sing me a song?" "You know a lot ofthem too." "You know, "Swing Low."" "Oh, never mind, don't sing that one." "I'm a little, howyou say, culturally burnt out on that." "No, I don't do that, man." "Come on then fire up the troubadour." "Entertain me." "No, I don't have a band anymore." "Don't tell me that." "No, don't say that." "He got your band?" "It radiated your band?" "Band radiation, radiation band, band radiation." "All around." "They all around you." "I can feel the band of radiation." "All the planets is circling and flying right around the troubadour on you at the center." "Do you ever shut up?" "You fix Oprah, she'll protect the both of us." "Okay, I fix your bug zapper and you're gonna give me some peace and quiet, right?" "All right, Iet's ty this." "You ready?" "Let's plug her in." "Three, two, one." "Ah, Oprah's back!" "You got her, you did it!" "You did it!" "You did it!" "Mr. Moxie, you did it!" "You fixed Oprah, I knew it." "Radiation's gone." "You fixed Orpah." "You a good man." "Hey, hey where you going?" "Hey, hey, man, do you mind if a get a ride with you just a little bit further down the road?" "[music] [music]" "(Johnny C) This is the part where l go running home and eveyone welcomes me." "The prodigal son, the wayward husband, me long lostfriend." "They welcome me back, warts and all." "[music]" "Johnny, Johnny." "Johnny, come on, Johnny." "You're coming home." "(Johnny C) The great thing about Christian love, so accep_'ng." "Whatever it takes as long as I come home." "One step forward, man, you can do it." "Keep walking." "Come on, man, just drop the bags." "mara) Drop 'em Johnny." "(frank) Don't cary 'em, you can come home." "Johnny." "mara) Please." "(frank) Man, just drop the bags." "Come on, man." "Just come on." "Johnny, come on, Johnny." "[Tara, frank, and James continue]" "Please." "Keep coming." "Just cross over." "Don't turn around." "Johnny." "No." "Johnny, come on." "Don't turn back, keep stepping forward." "Don't turn away." "[music] [music]" "[music]" "Hey, babe, it's me." "Yeah, I'm here." "I just got into town." "No, hey, hey, hey, don't hang up." "No, no, look, I just-- l just need a" "Ride." "Excuse me, are you Johnny C?" "Johnny C, right here." "I knew it." "He's from here, stupid." "Are you going back to Grand Design?" "Oh, no, I bet you're doing a solo project." "(frank) Can you give us some privacy hr a second?" "Thank you." "Sure." "Take care, Johnny C." "Take care." "Frank." "What are you doing here?" "What can I get forya?" "Uh, yeah, I think maybe a number three." "(Waitress) Okay, and you?" "No." "Okay." "(frank) Please, you _nish your sandwich and then go back to Tennessee." "You knowwhat?" "Weren't you gone be the lead singer of Grand Design after me?" "You're too short." "What in the world does that mean?" "It means your dreams of singing in front of thousands in the arena is not gonna happen, Frank." "I don't want to be the lead singer for some stupid Christian band." "What I do is more important." "That's right, you're a worship leader." "That's right." "You've always hated me, Frank." "I don't hate you." "Of course you wouldn't because then you wouldn't be" ""acting" like a Christian." "Tara fell for the voice and pe_ormance, who's really acting?" "You know maybe you got a point there." "(Waitress) Your number three." "(Johnny C) Thank you." "Looks like I chose the right number." "I love my sister." "And you love making music for the Lord." "Maybe you should ty some ofthis." "It's really good." "Leave her alone." "She's my wife, Frank, and she's got my money." "is that why you're here?" "I'm here to make things right." "Well, then make them right by leaving and never seeing her again." "Can I get you anything else?" "No, he's done here." "You better be out of town by this afternoon." "So Tresa's Kitchen, interesting name." "Actually I get that a lot." "It's pronounced Teresa, but you can call me T." "Well, T it is." "Oh, hey, babe, you weren't supposed to be here." "Tara!" "Tara!" "Tara, come on!" "You, you put Tara up to this, didn't you?" "And James, you put them both up to this?" "Some kind of professor you are, right?" "Some student." "I don't suppose you'd give me a ride and a place to stay?" "You a believer?" "What kind of question is that?" "Of course I'm a believer, you knowthe songs I sing, Proff." "I gotta run." "I don't knowwhere to go." "Get a ride." "Ah." "Oh." "I'm...so stupid." "(Johnny C) I'm tying to get a hold ofJerome." "Uh-huh, well, he told me that he'd have an advance ready for me." "No, I'm just tying to get a hold of him to talk to him." "What?" "All right..." "yeah, I understand." "(Po_ye) Oprah ain't talking t me." "You don't have any power in here, that's why." "Not even any vanilla ice man power?" "Not even any vanilla ice man power." "We gonna be okay?" "Yeah, you'll be okay." "Well, good, well don't stand at the threshold, come on in." "Welcome to Dumbarton Gardens." "Ty to use the revolving door next time." "[music] [music]" "[music] [music]" "[singing] Believing is an act of action." "[singing] Believe me, oh, believe me." "Uh-uh, uh-uh, come on, you gotta get up out of here." "Come on, Mr. you got to go:" "Huh?" "No, this here is my mattress, you gotta go." "You in the corner I'm on the mattres!" "s." "Come on, let's go." "Look, I fixed your little bug zapper." "I get a little space here, right?" "Hey, don't go disrespecting Oprah one more time." "Next time you get backed into the corner" "You don't have to say something about Oprah." "I don't like that." "Come on, get off my mattress, get, get." "Fine." "I'm sory, all right?" ""Oh, look, Popeye, I'm sory."" "You say you sory, but you ain't sory." "We knowyou ain't sorry." "Why is eveyone always so mad at me?" "Me!" "Me!" "Me!" "Me!" "Always with the me." "Take your pack, get out 'cause this is mine." "This is mine." "You knowwhat?" "I'm gonna finally get rid ofyou right now and I'm out of here." "See ya later." "Have fun in here." "(Po_ye) Pay your bill on the way out too." "[music]" "# Yeah. # [music and bar chatter] I need a gin and soda, margarita on the rocks, no salt." "All right." "She really moves my world, man, you know?" "I mean she sings like her old man, right?" "And she's smart too." "She's like reading 4th grade material in the first." "Apparently, she's-- she read a whole book and I mean I'm not talking about the pictures." "She read the words." "Apparently." "My wife used to keep me up to date on all the stuff that Elizabeth was doing." "Sounds like yourwife knom a lot about your daughter." "Yeah, I used to be up on all the stuffthat she's doing but now I'm missing all that now." "I'm missing it." "Sounds like yourwife didn't need to take your daughter away for you to be missing stuff." "Just give me another drink." "Hey, let's settle up." "Pal, you need to pay your bill and hit the road." "You're done." "You're done." "You're done, hit the road." "[singing] All the girls I've loved before." "[horn honking]" "(Johnny C) What's your problem?" "Just hanging out." "(Po_ye) Whatyou doing, Moxie?" "No, don't--don't go near the light, Moxie!" "[tires screeching]" "What'd you do, man?" "What'd you do?" "I see curtains." "There's no curtains." "I see curtains." "Yeah, you wearing them." "You and your troubadour band, you wear curtains." "You're all dressed up." "You got bands of radiation all around you." "Ain't that right, Mr. Troubadour?" "No, it's not." "Yeah, sure it is." "You the one said it." "I didn't say it, you stupid fool." "I thought you had died for me." "What's going on?" "Ask Mr. Troubadour." "He the one with all the answers." "I'm not a troubadour." "(male) Are you okay?" "No, I thought you." "I thought you" "You an imposter." "Yes, sir, Mr. Troubadour, man." "Oh, yes, sir." "Here's your bagel with cream cheese," "Mr. Troubadour Imposter." "And how about that?" "Here comes your bistro buffet, Mr. Imposter, huh?" "I thought you had died for me." "We all your players." "You play us, we believe you." "You feed us, we fall foryou." "I fell foryou." "I believed you." "You can't con a con." "You can't play me anymore, John." "Are you a believer?" "You're a self-absorbed mess." "Sounds like you been missing out all along." "Get real, John, or you're lost." "Lost?" "[music]" "# Break my heart. #" "(Johnny C) It's quite a picture when you see the real you painted with such ugly strokes." "# Break my heart. #" "# Would break my heart 'cause I can't separate # # the things that break your heart. #" "# Break my heart. #" "[music]" "I need ajob." "Thought you lived in Nashville." "Not anymore." "Yeah, well, what can you do besides sing?" "I've cleaned toilets before." "You know I just don't want to be who I used to be." "Well who's that?" "'" "Acon, somebody that tricks people, a liar." "So nowyou're gonna play the humbled hero?" "No, I'm not playing." "Yeah, well we'll see." "Get in:" "Yeah, James, thought it would be good to have each band member get a specificjob and I ended up with the di_ work." "You believe he was right in doing that?" "No, I hated it." "What do you believe anyway?" "I believe I really want to get my life straightened out." "Oh, yeah, why?" "Why?" "Because." "'Cause you got caught, 'cause you lost control, 'cause you think it's the answer eveybody wants to hear?" "You know, John, if I was standing in a boat and I believed that I could walk on water what would my actions be?" "'" "You step out ofthe boat." "Actions." "What you believe is not what you say." "It's what you do or don't do that reveals what you believe." "# l met You like a little child, wide4yed and mystified # # that You could love even me, yeah. #" "# So I'm here to testify that it's been # # an amazing ride with You, # # and I have neverwalked alone. #" "# Wanna give You evey moment, evey minute. #" "# It takes a lifetime to knowYou, to knowYou. #" "#And the more You show me, the moreYou growme, # # the more Your gloy becomes all there is. #" "#And the more I knowyou, the more I need You, # # the more I love You, the more You become to me. #" "# Oh, oh, oh, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah. # # l want to give you evey moment, evey minute. # # l'll take a lifetime to knowYou, Lord. #" "# Keep me. #" "# Drawme closer evey moment I'm alive. #" "#And the more You show me, the moreYou growme, # # the more Your glory becomes all there is for me. #" "# Oh ah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah. ##" "# Oh ah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, nah. ##" "What are you doing here?" "I guess I didn't pay my rent." "You knowyou might want to change." "I can't go to your church." "It's not my church." "You got married there, remember?" "I can't do that." "Can't orwon't?" "Frank made it vey clearto me," "Tara doesn't want me there either, okay?" "Okay, fine." "(Johnny C) This is Chrisfl'an cliché number one, prodigal son, hearing the music usually ~Just as I am~ walks in and down the aisle, eveyone rejoices." "Good morning." "Morning." "Bless you." "[worship music playing]" "# Give me the grace that You gave through Your son. #" "# Teach me to love the unlovable ones. #" "# Show me the truth ofyour Holy Word. # # l want to become the salt ofthe earth. #" "# Because ofyour grace. # # l will love my brother, # # no matterwhat he's done because ofyour grace. ##" "Hey, ho_s Elizabeth?" "I'm going to go pick her up now." "Tara, look, I'm sory." "Tara, I know I've been a jerk... but I can't say I might not mess up again." "You don't get it." "But I've changed." "I'm not the same guy I used to be." "You might not mess up again." "Good-bye, Johnny." "Come on, John, get inside." "No." "John." "Look, I tried to make amends, all right?" "I took out the trash, worked my body to the bone." "I even apologized, you kno_" "So I'm sory, John." "I forgot to hand you your merit badge." "This is serious, man." "You knowwhat?" "I've done everything I could and she still won't take me back, okay?" "Well, why should she?" "Because I'm the father of her child and I'm her husband." "I'm willing to ty to turn my life around, okay?" "_y?" "You sound just like her." "Just drive o_, forget it." "[music] # l'm dying inside, at the end of my rope. # # l don't want to fall but I'm out of control: #" "# The chasm below is calling my name # # 'cause letting go now would murderthe pain. #" "[music]" "# If losing in life is losing it all, I'm finding myself # # all alone in this fall. #" "# With nothing to gain and nothing to lose and nothing # # but numb, I don't knowwhat to do. #" "#And I can't run and I can't hide. # # l'm out oftime. #" "#And I'm gonna chance to choose # # to followYour heart and believe. # # l'm gonna lose myself and start again on my knees. #" "#And I'm gonna chance to choose again. # # l feel like a match that's burned past the red. # # l know if I strike all my punches fall dead. # # l'm beating the air forfar too long and living in fear #" "# and I'm just too far gone. #" "#And I can't run and I can't fly. #" "# There's no more time. #" "#And I'm gonna chance to choose # # to followYour heart and believe. #" "#And I'm gonna lose myself and find the way to be free. #" "#And I'm gonna chance to choose # # to be who you want me to be. #" "#And I'm gonna lose myself and start again on my knees. #" "#And I'm gonna chance to choose. #" "# Step before me, life or death. #" "# Now or never. #" "# Push me overthe edge. #" "I guess he's seen too many Christian movies where you come to Jesus and all your problems are fixed." "Tell that to Stephen." "He came to Jesus and became the first martyr." "(James) Is he gonna be all right?" "I don't know." "The Lord doesn't despise a contrite heart." "(ProM I don't mink he's there yet." "Maybe I should come down?" "And do what?" "(James) I don't know, help him." "Well, that's selfish ofyou." "Of me?" "That's pretty harsh." "I just want to help." "Help him or help yourselffeel better?" "You know sometimes I hate the day I met you." "(ProM Yeah, get that one a lot." "Look, he's got a choice to make." "Ifwe ty to shortcut the process and make it easier for him, then it's gonna be that much harder for him to make the right choice." "# l'm gonna chance to choose to follow#" "#Your heart and believe. #" "#And I'm gonna lose myself and start again on my knees. # # l found the way to be free. # # l'm falling down on my knees, # # and I'm gonna chance to choose again. ##" "I can't get a hold ofJerome, okay?" "He said they were shipping 50,OOO units, presales were going amazing." "What do you mean gone?" "Have you talked to him?" "I don't have his number, Tony!" "What do you mean the locks are changed, to the studio, to Crisis Studios?" "What about my money, Tony?" "(Po_ye) Whatyou looking at?" "Who you seeing now?" "What?" "Who you reflecting upon?" "Who looking back at you?" "You the mirror man, that's who you is." "The mirror man." "I'm not the mirror man." ""Oh, I'm not the mirror man."" "Oh, yes you is." "Fo sho you is, you're mirror man." "I seen that." "I'm not the mirror man." "I'm not the mirror man!" "I'm not Moxie, I'm not yourtroubadour and I'm not a con man!" "Yeah, but that's what you want to be, that's what you want!" "You want to be that." "And if you ain't something, you're nothing and right now all you is is ugly." "You're real ugly." "Come on, Oprah, we gotta take this." "[music]" "Hey, Pro_." "Yeah." "Why did you ask me if I was a Christian, you know, a while back?" "You mean a believer?" "Why do you think I asked you, John?" "Romans 10:9 says two things." "The first is that you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord." "But I confessed evey night all across the county in front ofthousands of people." "Yeah, but there's a second part." "You believe in your heart that He rose from the dead." "Believe." "So what does believe look like, John?" "I don't know." "Well, I guess you better find out." "[music]" "# Push me overthe edge. #" "# Push me overthe edge. #" "# Oh, oh. #" "Yeah, I don't believe you." "I knowyou don't." "I've given you plenty of reasons not to." "Please forgive me, Frank." "[Elizabeth singing in Spanish]" "(Johnny C) My daughter is so beautiful." "I think ifs the _rsttime I ga_ed at her without looking at myself first." "All right, you can go play." "I knowl've let you down and I've broken our covenant." "I've lived for me and not for us." "I completely understand ifyou couldn't forgive me." "I forgive you." "(Johnny C) But?" "But I don't know." "I don't know if I want to get back together." "I understand." "You can say the words, but I don't know if in another hour, you're gonna be back to the same games." "[Eli_abeth singing]" "And even though you're herfather, I can't even trust you to be alone with her." "Tara, what can I do to earn back that trust?" "A long track record of keeping your word." "(Johnny C) Part of me is really saddened." "I would love to have a quick fix, but she's right." "I would love to have a quick fix, but she's right." "So you expect eveyone to actually believe that you're a changed man?" "No, but I was hoping they would." "No, man, I can't." "It's all right, John, it's yours ifyou want it." "All right." "Thanks, man." "Yeah." "Do you still play?" "Who says I don't?" "I mean like recording and touring?" "Purpose." "So it's more noble to be ajanitorthan be a musician?" "is that all you see, ajanitor?" "So you think you'll ever hit the stage again?" "If there was purpose." "You knowwhat, man?" "I mean..." "They don't believe me." "I mean what happens if I can't get Tara back?" "Then Tara doesn't come back to you." "You can pull the nails out ofthe board but you still gotta deal with the hole." "So whatever happened to walking down the aisle and eveything's always all right?" "Why did you walk down the aisle, John?" "If you start to followJesus, you want to serve Him, be His disciple, just walking down the aisle to get yourselffixed?" "That's still all about you, isn't it?" "You have to seek Him first, put Him first, all this other stuff will follow." "Yeah, man." "Hey, by the way, I spoke to the senior pastor." "He said maybe we can use another janitor around here for a while." "You interested?" "You mean I'd be working with you?" "Yeah." "All right." "(Johnny C) You're really cray, aren't ya?" "I knowthat." "You got family?" "Of course, I got family." "Thank you vey kindly for asking." "That's it?" "For now." "You get back with your wife yet?" "Not yet." "I don't think she wants me back." "Oh, man, I know I know exactly what you're talking about that there." "N4, my wife's whole family didn't like me." "I can't imagine why." "I wasn't all just about good looks back then, you understand." "I had intellect." "We're gonna be in the same church so we're gonna be really uncomfortable." "Yup, comfort the oppressed, oppress the comfortable." "I bet you spend a lot oftime in soup kitchens all overthe place, right?" "Yeah, yeah, as a matter offact that's true." "I mean I knowall ofthem, the whole area." "I mean I knowall ofthem, the whole area." "The one down in Dallas." "That's kind ofthe best one." "You knowthe story about the prodigal son?" "Of course, the prodigal son, I love that stoy." "That's a really good one." "You knowthe soup panty down in Dallas?" "That's the one that told that." "He told itjust right." "That man know how to tell that stoy." "You the prodigal son now?" "(Johnny C) I'm not a Christian rock star anymore." "My wife doesn't know if she wants to get back t_ether." "My dad doesn'ttrust me and at some _int, I'm gonna have to deal with a mad loan shark missing _O grand, but now instead ofwearing the cos_mes, I'm learning to take them off." "# Masquerading as a man with a reason, # # my charade is the event ofthe season. #" "#And if I claim to be a wise man, # # it surely means that I don't know. #" "# On a stormy sea of moving emotion. #" "# Tossed about I'm like a ship on the ocean. # # l set a course forwinds offortune, # # but I hear the voices say. #" "# Cary on my wayward son. #" "# Forthere'll be peace when you are done. #" "# Lay your weay head to rest, now don't you cy no more. # [music]" "# Cary on, # # you will always remember. #" "# Cary on, #" "# Nothing equals the splendor. #" "# Nowyour life's no longer empty. #" "# Surely heaven waits foryou. #" "# Cary on my wayward son. #" "# Forthere'll be peace when you are done. #" "# Lay your weay head to rest. #" "# Now don't you cy no more. #" "[music]" "# Like a note thrills in a song When I play it again, # # it's gone 'cause it was never in the sound #" "# And it keeps me wanting that mysterious thing. #" "# Like a night is waiting for a dawn #" "# Evey prayer I say # # a little closer # # to my resting place. # # a little closer #" "# Where my final breath is the beginning to never needing #" "#And I will find my last Amen, my lastAmen #" "#And while the thrills are fading #" "# Thejoy is in the waiting #" "# Somewhere in the grand design # # it's good to be unsatisfied. #" "# It keeps the faith of hope a little more alive. #" "#A little closer a little closer. #'" "# Where my final breath is the beginning to never needing #" "#And I will find my lastAmen my lastAmen #" "# Amen, my amen. #" "# _en. #"