"DIARY OF A LOVER a film by Sohrab Shahid Saless" "Monday, June 21st" "Today I woke up with a headache." "It was already late." "I had to hurry up." "I don't like it when my department chief greets me in a taunting way." "Shit." "Good morning." "Good morning." "Tell me, Mr. Bauer." "Isn't that an impertinence of the household?" "For two weeks the staircase hasn't been cleaned, the building smells." "I deliberately paid attention on Friday." "I'm sorry, I have a cold." "I don't know about it." "Excuse me, I'm in a hurry." "I'm late." "They can only give us regulations, but they don't take care of other things." "Such an impertinence." "Be quiet." "I don't like that woman." "She has to poke her nose into everything." "She nauseates me." "I thought it was Monika." "I must have been mistaken, she had to be in the office." "This evening I'm going to ask her." "Good morning." "Good morning." "I'm sorry for being late." "Again I had a stomach ache and had to buy tablets." "He didn't believe me." "I would like to rearrange his face." "He has good relations to the managing director." "He would never lose his working place." "200 gram minced meat." "Would you like anything else?" "Further I'd like one pound of this goulash, but pretty meager, please." "There you are!" "Is it all right like this?" "Yes, thank you!" "Could it be a bit more?" "Yes, that's no problem." "Here you are!" "Did you have a nice weekend?" "Yes." "What would you like?" "Two cutlets, please." "I lied." "On Saturday I had a quarrel with Monika and she went away." "I didn't want to let Christel know about it." "Is it all right like this?" "Yes, thank you." "Just look at this." "That small and already a criminal" "I would really like to know about the whereabouts of his parents." "I wonder if he even has parents." "Would you like anything else?" "Thank you." "To take away?" "To take away." "What?" "You call that meager?" "That's completely greasy." "No, no, no." "You can't foist that on me." "I beg you, that's a nice piece." "And I showed it to you before." "I'm sorry, we don't have anything else." "That's outrageous." "For that price I want something decent." "That piece is bad and that's it." "Don't get het up about it." "We don't have anything better." "You have to try at some other place." "What?" "You're also impertinent?" "Now listen..." "Calm down, please." "That's impertinent, I wanted to buy meager meat and that woman tells me I should buy it somewhere else." "It's no problem." "I will bring you a better piece." "I wanted to stand up for Christel, but I was tired and listless." "Besides, the whole situation nauseated me." "Stupid cow." "I knew that Christel got angry." "I seeked her out in order to console her." "I wanted to say something nice, but couldn't utter a word." "On my way home I took along a bottle of wine and two steaks." "For the evening I expected Monika at my home." "Hello." "I thought it would be Monika." "It wasn't her." "My mother had come." "She always drops in unexpectedly." "Just go inside." "I've been cooking." "I will extinguish the fire." "I'm coming soon." "Are you waiting for somebody?" "Yes, Monika will come." "Should I make you a coffee?" "No, thanks." "How are you?" "Good, thanks." "Each time my mother comes to visit me, she cries." "I don't know why." "She certainly worries about me." "Each time I want to console her." "But I can't think of anything to say." "You look bad." "Don't you feel well?" "You should take a holiday." "You need a repose." "Yes, ok." "And you?" "How are you?" "Have you been to the doctor?" "Yes, he prescribed me new pills." "You should have stayed for diner." "Thanks, but it's getting late for me." "Take that." "You can go by taxi." "No, thanks." "You need it yourself." "Come on, take it." "I have enough money." "Take care of yourself." "I felt sorry for my mother." "She is a good woman." "In fact I should have attended her downstairs." "Or to the taxi rank." "The food got cold." "I waited a long while for Monika." "If she is still angry because of the quarrel on Saturday?" "This evening she didn't come." "Tuesday, June 22nd" "Today I learned that I can take a holiday from tomorrow on." "That means I can sleep in as long as I want to." "I no longer have to see these faces." "You go away on a trip?" "Yes." "Where will you go?" "I haven't decided yet." "Are you being attended?" "Here you are!" "What's it for you?" "On pound of goulash." "Meager, please." "Hello." "Could I please talk to Miss Krieger?" "Hello, my name is Bauer." "Could I please talk to Miss Krieger?" "One of Monika's co-workers told me that she hadn't been to the office since yesterday." "I asked him whether she had left to visit her parents in West Germany." "He didn't know." "What are you going to do this evening?" "I've made no plans." "Why?" "I wanted to invite you for diner if you have time." "Gladly." "Is it right like this?" "Yes, that's right." "5 marks and 40 pennies." "We ate together in a restaurant." "I drank a lot of wine." "My head felt heavy." "I didn't know why I had invited Christel for diner." "Do you mind if I have a smoke?" "No." "Can I put this away?" "Yes." "Are you still going out with Monika?" "Yes." "Did you like the food?" "Yes, very much." "Do you love her?" "Yes." "I think I do." "You know, I'm going to marry her." "She's very nice." "A few of her workmates also courted her." "But she wants to marry me." "Are you upset?" "Alas!" "Waiter!" "Would you like a coffee?" "Yes, please." "Two coffee, please!" "I was drunk." "I kissed Christel." "She smelled of raw eat." "Do you need to change buses." "No, it stops right in front of my doorway." "I will walk home." "I got such a headache." "You, too?" "No, I didn't drink that much." "Are you going on a trip tomorrow?" "I don't know yet." "Either tomorrow or the day after." "Will you send me a postcard?" "Wednesday, June 23rd" "Today I woke up at 7 a.m." "I tried to fall asleep again, but it didn't work." "It annoyed me quite a bit." "Getting up early has become a habit for me." "I started to get bored." "I didn't know what to do with my first day of vacation." "Very short?" "Very short." "By the way, Mr. Bauer." "Yesterday a young lady knocked a few times at your door." "I was about to go shopping." "She asked for you." "She will come back this evening." "Thank you." "You're welcome." "It smells." "That's an impertinence." "The stairway still hasn't been cleaned." "I had no idea who this young lady should be." "Because Monika broke up with me." "For lunch I made myself a soup." "I wasn't in the mood for anthing else." "After lunch it occurred to me that I had been wanting to paint the kitchen" "White." "Monika doesn't like white." "But I will convince her." "Hello Michael." "Hello Brigitte." "Excuse me, I'm painting." "Please come in." "I can't." "I'm in a hurry." "Is Monika here?" "No, I haven't seen her since Saturday." "Why?" "I thought." "She also wasn't at the office." "Did you call her parents?" "Maybe she went to West Germany to visit them." "I hadn't thought of that." "You don't look good." "Are you sick?" "No." "I have to go now." "Bye!" "I wanted to continue painting." "But it was already dark outside." "And I was tired." "Thursday, June 24th" "I want to grow a beard." "I'm tired of standing in front of the mirror each day to shave." "I didn't want to ruin my vacation with constant shopping." "That's why I decided to buy ahead and store." "Are you sick, Mr. Bauer?" "You don't look good." "No." "I want to grow a beard." "That doesn't fit you." "85,30, please." "I knew that if Mrs. Galinski saw me, she'd warm up the old story of the caretaker." "So I had to wait until she was gone." "Today I finished painting the kitchen." "Now it looks really clean." "Will Monika like it?" "Are you alone?" "Yes." "How are you?" "Thanks, I'm fine." "Should I make you a coffee?" "No, thanks." "How is Monika?" "I think she's fine." "She hasn't been here for a couple of days." "Have you been arguing again?" "Just as usual." "You need to take of yourself." "You're in bad shape." "I have vacations since yesterday." "Wouldn't you like to visit aunt Gertrud in Lübeck for a few days?" "I will think about it." "You know, I painting the kitchen." "Do you want to see it?" "Do you like it?" "Do you have sorrows?" "Have you already eaten?" "Yes, a little bit." "Should I cook you something?" "Only if you eat with me." "My mother stayed longer." "She cooked and we ate together." "Thanks, that's enough." "I can't eat more." "I want to marry." "Aren't you happy?" "My mother didn't take it seriously." "Formerly, when Monika and I argued, she always took Monika's side." "When I was a child, my mother was alien to me." "Now while eating together with her, I realized that it wouldn't matter to me if Mrs. Galinski sat here instead of her." "After my mother left, I cleaned the dishes." "Then I went to bed and wrote in my diary." "Friday, June 25th" "Good morning." "Albrecht, criminal investigation department." "Can I come in?" "Please excuse that I woke you up." "Can I ask you a few questions?" "Has anything happened?" "You certainly know Miss Monika Krieger?" "We're engaged to be married." "When was the last time you saw her?" "Last Saturday." "We had a little argument." "She went aways and I haven't seen her since." "Why did you have an argument?" "We often had an argument." "I can't remember." "Ok." "Can I?" "Yes, please." "Oh, excuse me." "Do you smoke?" "No, thanks." "Not on an empty stomach." "What's your profession, Mr. Bauer?" "I'm a vendor in a department store." "Have you been working there for long?" "For almost eight years." "I see." "And how long do you know Miss Krieger?" "I think five years." "Ok." "That's all." "I write down my phone number for you." "If she should get in touch with you, then you can call me or her parents." "Please take." "Many thanks." "Do you think something might have happened to her?" "Well, that's what we don't know yet." "She has disappeared." "Goodbye." "For lunch I ate an orange." "I had no appetite." "My head ached." "I took two pills and drank a glass of milk." "Saturday, June 26th" "Everything is silent." "What's happening?" "They don't talk..." "I just feel sorry for the poor mother." "There always seemed to be something wrong with that guy." "Mr. Paul!" "Come on, lift it!" "Did you find anything?" "Oh boy!" "Look at that." "Ugh!" "Strangled." "I'm here since yesterday." "They brought me here." "Today my mother payed me a visit." "My mother says this is a recreation home." "I asked the doctor to give me a writing pad and a pencil." "I want to continue my diary." "Hopefully my mother finds the meat that I left in the fridge." "Otherwise it will go off." "I forgot to tell her." "DIARY OF A LOVER"