"[electronic music]" "[hip hop music]" "[ Ray Charle's singing "Don't Let the Sun Catch on you Crying "]" "[Ray Charles faintly heard amid hip hop music]" "Yeah." "Yeah?" "["Don't Let the Sun Catch You Crying" by Ray Charles]" "♪ don't let the sun catch you crying ♪" "♪" "♪ Crying at my front door ♪ [amid hip hop music]" "Yeah, yeah, no." "This guy doesn't know, so I just got to go over it with him." "[chatting under music]" "[hip hop music continues]" "[Ray Charles singing faintly]" "[street noises]" "(taxi driver) Hey, good morning, boss." "Hey, man." "Uh, 87th between West and Riverside." "You got it." "[exhales deeply]" "♪" "That was quick." "There you go." "Have a good one." "Thanks." "[elevator door closes]" "Fuck." "[low voices speaking]" "Sorry." "Excuse me." "(Gail) Um, I've taught a lot of di-, I mean, mostly high school." "But I have... [sigh]" "This is James, my son." "This is Karen." "(James) Hi, Karen." "(Gail) This is Jessie." "Jessie." "Nice to meet you." "I needed you to go to the pharmacy this morning." "I know." "You need to be here when you say you're going to be here." "I know." "I'm sorry." "Jessie, you look so pretty." "I love your barrette." "Where is it from'?" "(Karen) It's from a children's store in Queens." "I don't remember where." "Well, will you let me know when you remember?" "Because I think I should get one, don't you'?" "Yeah." "I'm so sorry for your loss." "He really loved you very much." "You want to say something?" "You want something to drink?" "(Jessie) I'm fine, thank you." "You sure?" "Then can I get you something?" "(Karen) I'm okay, thanks." "I'm going to grab something." "[breathes deeply]" "[Karen weeps]" " Hey." " Ben." "Hey, man." "Sorry about your dad." "Thanks." "That's tough stuff, kid." "Yeah." "(Ben) How you doing with all of this'?" "It's pretty intense." "There you go." "What part'?" "All of it." "I think I just met my dad's wife for the first time, so I just..." "Cheers." "Happy you're here." "Of course." "Can we please have lunch sometime?" "Will you come downtown?" "Come to the office." "I'll take you out." "Love it." "You working?" "Um, you mean right now'?" "Nothing really consistent." "Um, I've been staying on the couch here for a while, Yeah." "But I've got to take care of her." "Yeah, no, I understand." "Maybe we could find something for you at the magazine." "What, like a job'?" "If it fits." "I mean, that would be amazing, Ben." "Thank you." "Yeah." "You know what?" "Actually, I got to go run an errand for her." "Can you just look after her while I'm gone?" "I won't be long." "Whatever you need." "You do what you need to do." "Thank you." "I'll be here." "[humming]" "[little girl giggles] [laughs] [Giggles" "[laughs]" "(male customer) You all right'?" "(pharmacist) 464. 82." "Next." "Yo." "Gail White." "Yep." "White." "Okay- [beep]" "[sob] You okay?" "Oh." "I'm just sad, James." "It's okay to be sad." "[sniffing]" "(James) When did you get in?" "(Nick) About an hour ago." "Came straight from the airport." "Ma, is it cool if I go out with Nick?" "Yeah." "I'm not going anywhere." "Are you sure?" "It's good to see you two together again." "Need anything before I go?" "You sure I?" "Yeah." "You're not mad'?" "[kiss] Shut up." "[kiss] Go." "Go." "I shouldn't have left her." "(Nick) Let's go back up." "No, it's cool." "You sure, man?" "We're right here." "It's cool." "[elevator door opens]" "Hey, what's with all the Asians?" "It's his wife's family." "Wife, when did that happen?" "He re-married." "I just found out last week." "That's crazy." "[women chattering]" "Don't." "Well, you talk." "What've you been doing down there'?" "Mostly like entertaining kids, doing comedy." "Communications, hotel management, lying." "What'?" "What'?" "That's like four things." "Right." "(woman) You ain't never met nobody that would actually marry your ass!" "Seriously, shut up!" "(bartender) Hey, calm down." "(Nick) This is my shirt I designed." "Like it'?" "Let's verb together?" "Yes." "It's got all the verbs in the" yeah." "It's fresh." "Yeah." "I'm glad you like it." "Well, nobody cares, you cunt." "(woman) Excuse me I?" "What?" "Who the hell do you think you're talking to?" "Oh, and uh, your dude'?" "We're still together." "It's good." "That's cool, man." "What's that look?" "I mean, I'm not used to it yet." "But you're fully..." "Yeah." "Fully, full-on!" "That's cool." "Oh, no!" "(woman) Tell my ass to be quiet one more time." "[laughing]" "Word." "I'm going to smoke." "Uh-huh." "Thank you." "Open your mouth." "Open your mouth." "Open your mouth." "[yelling] Right now." "Get out of my bar right now." "Break it up, just let it be, just let it be." "Shut up, stop." "You forgot something." "I don't got a pen, man." "You're looking at me." "You're looking at me." "Don't fight, man." "We're good." "Here you go." "Just" "We're good." "What's up?" "[grunts]" "Nick, Nick, Nick!" "Come on!" "Get off." "Get off." "Get off." "(man) Get out of the bar right now!" "(Nick) Holy shit, dude!" "[laughter] [loud club music] [chatting under music]" "Yo, Nick!" "Irene." "What's your name'?" "Irene." "Irene." "Irene." "Strong." "Esta' borracho." "Dude, your boy's fucking saying I'm drunk when I'm fucking not." "Esta' borracho." "All right, but I'm having fun." "That's cool, right'?" "Alright!" "We're having fun." "[snoring lightly]" "(Nick) Yo, yo." "Wake up, wake up, we got to ride out." "Your mom's been blowing up my phone, dude." "Let's roll." "What'd she say'?" "Yo, get up man, come on." "Let's ride!" "Get dressed." "[coughing]" "Damn." "Your mom is going to be pissed." "Your face looks crazy." "Just tell her that it was an abscess." "An abscess?" "Yeah." "What are you talking about?" "Just an abscess, a tooth infection." "I know what it is." "It's fine." "I don't understand why..." "Sh, sh, sh." "(Irene) Where are you going?" "We're going to get food, baby." "Want something?" "Coffee, Splenda." "Splenda'?" "Hm." "I need water so bad." "You have those smokes?" "Yeah." "[chuckles]" "(man No. 1) James." "I worked with your dad." "Oh, okay." "Nice eye." "Yeah." "We always thought you'd end up in jail." "[laughs]" "Thanks." "(wedding officiant on TV) For better, for worse." "[woman repeats]" "For richer, for poorer." "[woman repeats]" "In sickness and in health." "[woman repeats]" "To love and to cherish [woman repeats] as long as I shall live." "[woman repeats]" "Mom!" "Did you put this on?" "No." "Do you want this on?" "I don't know." "Are you okay'?" "I don't know, James." "Karen, did you put on your wedding video?" "I'm sorry." "Does anyone have the remote?" "(wedding efficient) Let it be to you and to me..." "[TV turns off]" "Did you put on the video?" "Yes." "Yeah, why'?" "Are you stupid'?" "Excuse me'?" "Let me ask you a question." "Do you know whose house you're in'?" "It's your mother's house, we know that." "Exactly right." "It's my mother's house." "Don't point your finger." "So why would you think that it is okay to set up my mother's dead ex-husband's wedding video?" "Why would you think that that is okay'?" "This is for him." "Hi, um, excuse me everybody." "I'm James." "I'm going to have to ask all of you to leave just for my mother and I to grieve in peace over my dead father." "Is that okay'?" "I'm sorry." "I know it's a bad time and everyone's sad, but I'm going to have to ask you all to go." "Please, thank you, thank you." "(male mourner) A spoiled little boy." "Nick, Nick, please help me out here, my man." "(Nick) Just go." "I'm going to hit him if he stays." "Go." "Go." "Why are we even doing this'?" "Why are we having a shiva'?" "You're not even Jewish." "Am I the only one that thinks that it's crazy?" "Okay." "Am I the only one'?" "Okay." "Okay." "No." "Nick, back me up." "That's not crazy, right?" "Ma." "You got to sit back." "And you got to breathe." "I can't." "You got to breathe." "You got to breathe in and out, okay'?" "Close your eyes." "That's stupid." "Close your eyes." "[breathes in and out]" "In through the nose, out through the mouth." "Do it with me now." "[breathes deeply]" "["Crazy He Calls Me" by Billie Holiday plays loudly]" "♪ I say I'll move the mountains ♪" "♪ And I'll move the mountains ♪" "♪ If he wants them out of the way ♪" "♪ Crazy, he calls me ♪" "♪ Sure I'm crazy ♪" "♪ Crazy in love, I'd say ♪" "[GaiL singing along] ♪ I say I'll go through fire ♪" "Nick's sleeping." "Uh-uh-uh-uh." "♪ As he wants it ♪'" "♪ So it will be ♪" "Breakfast?" "♪ Crazy he calls me ♪" "♪ Sure, I'm crazy ♪" "♪ Crazy in love... ♪ You look better without your wig." "[muted conversation]" "Dude." "She said it was cool." "As long as it's not cigarettes." "Alright." "You guys okay'?" "Why'?" "This?" "Yeah, we're fine." "He didn't do this." "How are you, Gail?" "How are you feeling?" "Today is good." "This food is good." "Thank you." "Okay, so you guys clean up, huh?" "Mm-hm." "And I'm going to have you move the couch." "I..." "I just moved the couch like four days ago." "I'm coming down to stay with you." "(Gail) We used to go on vacations all the time." "I took you to Paris." "(James) I was 10." "I want to go on a vacation as an adult." "Oh, as an adult." "An adult with no money and no job and no place to live." "What are you talking about?" "I have money." "The insurance really isn't that much." "I'm just saying I need to get out." "I need to get out of here." "Yes, you do." "You need to grow up and get off of my couch." "Get off of your couch'?" "I've been living here for four years taking care of you." "Four y...?" "Two years." "Don't delude yourself." "And you haven't been taking care of me." "You've been freeloading." "That is not right." "When you were really sick..." "And your stem cell transplants, and your steroids, and your moods." "Who fought for you'?" "Who ran your errands?" "I'm your son and that is what I'm supposed to do." "And I'm happy to be here because I love you." "But I need a break." "That's all you do, James, is take breaks." "Okay." "You have been there." "And you have been amazing at times, but you have got to get your act together." "And if you don't want to talk about Dad, make sure you write it down." "It's not about Dad, I don't give a shit." "Yeah, you do." "You know what, dude, shut up." "You don't know." "Don't tell me to shut up." "Don't tell him to shut up." "Yes, you do." "And if you're not ready to talk about it yet, just make sure you write down your feelings." "Write it down, that's your only advice for everything." "Just write it down." "That's right." "Look, Nick is down in Mexico." "I am going to go visit him." "I am not going to drink." "I am not going to smoke." "I'm going to write and I'm going to meditate and I'm going to eat healthy and I'm going to swim and I'm going to work out and I'm going to write about all these feelings that are welled up inside of me," "and when I get back, I will get a place and a job." "I am going to call Ben today and I'm going to set up an appointment, but I need to go away." "And when I come back, I will be ready for life." "["Ain't Nobody's Business if I Do" by Billie Holiday]" "♪ There aim?" "nothing ♪" "♪ I can do ♪" "♪ Or nothing I can say ♪" "♪ That folks don't criticize me ♪" "♪ but I'm going to do ♪" "♪ Just as I want to anyway ♪" "♪ And don't care just what ♪" "♪ People say ♪" "♪" "What are you reading?" "Excuse me, hey." "Hm'?" "What are you reading?" "Wuthering Heights." "That will work." "I like that book." "It's a good story." "Where you from'?" "Um..." "New York." "Really?" "Yeah." "I'm from New York." "I grew up there." "On the Upper West." "Where did you go to school?" "Um, Stuyvesant." "That'll work." "I know people that went there." "I didn't go there." "(James) Excuse me." "Excuse me." "What was your name again?" "Jayne." "Jayne?" "James." "Hi." "Hi." "Hey look, um..." "I wasn't trying to hit on you before." "I was just being genuine and asking if you wanted to just come hang out with my friends, have a beer." "Yeah, no," "I didn't think, I mean, you were." "All right." "Are you sure you don't want to come'?" "And if you're not having fun, you can go home." "Like no pressure at all." "You want to just hang out with your parents for the night?" "Um." "We've got acid." "If you're into it." "If you're not, that's cool." "I won't do it in front of you." "Oh." "Yo!" "(James) There he is." "[Jayne and James laugh]" "(Nick) I want to kill myself." "[laughter]" "[Spanish music]" "[laughing]" "[laughter]" "Oh, yeah." "[groan]" "Go slow." "[grunting]" "Oh, shit." "[Reggae music]" "♪ Out in the street, they call it merther ♪" "♪" "So far, so good?" "Yeah, we're not going to Chichen Itza, are we'?" "No, I know, but it's on the way, right?" "Um..." "I don't know." "So what was it, growing up for you like?" "Big family, or'?" "Small, well, yeah, I mean, it's me, my mom and my dad and then extended family, but yeah, no, so it was small family." "You?" "Well, my mom raised me." "I grew up with my mom, you know?" "Well, my father wasn't around much when I was young." "He kind of dipped out pretty early." "So you guys aren't close?" "Uh, no, we're not." "We weren't close." "My father actually passed away pretty recently." "That's kind of part of the reason why I'm taking this trip." "Part, kind of." "Sorry, I'm really..." "I can't" wow." "You're more upset than I am." "That shouldn't happen." "[giggling]" "Will you, seriously?" "I know what you're asking, stop." "No, I'm not." "I'm asking you seriously." "What if I just asked you randomly, just like that'?" "What would you say'?" "I'm being serious." "Will you marry me, yes or no?" "This is dangerous territory!" "I'm not going into it." "Please say no." "I'm not ready for that kind of dedication." "Okay." "We've only just met." "Yeah." "Relax, you know?" "Yeah, no, I know." "I need to calm down." "This is my problem." "Sweating a lot." "[mobile phone rings]" "Hey, Ma." "(Gaff over phone) James, f need you to come home." "No, I can't come home yet." "I told you, I was still..." "I was going to be here for a while." "But I need you." "I need you to come home." "Why?" "I just..." "I need you here." "Why, can you please tell me why'?" "Because I'm asking you." "Okay, please?" "You have to talk to me, though." "You're crying and you have to please tell me what's going on before I do this." "Have to start treatment again." "The cancer spread." "Shit, okay, I'm going to get on the next flight." "I'm going to be fine." "I'm going to get right on the next flight." "Yes, okay, I'm sorry." "I love you." "Thank you, [love you, bye." "Bye." "[exhales loudly] [groans] Oh, shit." "Um..." "Who was that'?" "My mom is not..." "She got sick again." "And I need..." "She's..." "I got to go home." "[shakily] I got to go back home." "I'm going to the bathroom." "Okay, I'm just going to get her to bed." "I got it." "I got you." "Okay." "(Gail) Come sit." "What do you need?" "Nothing." "I just want to look at my little boy." "Okay." "What's the matter, Mom'?" "Nothing." "How many times have we been through this'?" "We've been through this, Mom." "You can't get..." "Don't be scared." "Okay." "You want me to stay'?" "No." "I'm tired." "I want to go to sleep." "You'll come back tomorrow?" "Okay." "Oh." "Oh." "Need anything before I go'?" "Just some water." "Okay." "Will you get your father for me?" "What'?" "I want to talk to your dad." "Uh, yeah, I'll get the phone." "(Jayne) Hm?" "We'll go to my place, right'?" "No, I have to go and meet my friends." "Uh..." "What'?" "I have to go." "I have to go see my friends." "Really?" "Yeah, I have to go." "Do you want to come'?" "No, no, I got to go home." "Okay." "I'm really sorry." "All right." "I'll see you tomorrow?" "Yeah, yeah." "All right." "All right." "Bye." "[jazz music]" "Hey." "(woman) I have to go to work." "I'm sorry." "Don't go." "Come back to bed." "I would love nothing more, but I can't." "[kiss] Oh, no." "[laughter]" "Oh, I don't want to go." "[groan]" "Oh, God." "I'll walk you to the train." "Just lay right here with me for one second." "Oh, my God." "[laughter]" "I'm not letting you go." "You good?" "Yeah." "I'm good." "All right." "All right." "So, I, uh..." "I left you my number." "Oh, great." "Yeah." "[phone rings]" "[exhales]" "Oh, shit." "[music blaring] ♪ Say Something ♪" "Why is the music so loud'?" "[GaiL shouting] I don't know!" "♪" "Are you okay'?" "You're smoking?" "Yes, I'm fine." "You called me." "You left a message freaking out." "Did I'?" "Yeah." "I'm fine." "Really?" "Then what are you doing?" "I'm rearranging my books." "You're deciding to do that now?" "Yes, now." "Why are you acting crazy?" "Don't, James." "Don't call me crazy." "Don't do that." "I'm sorry." "You know, you need to be here when you say you're going to be here because we have a care schedule, and I am relying on you." "I am sorry." "I was with Jayne." "I was writing." "[clears throat]" "I was doing things." "Right." "I'm tired." "I'm going to bed." "When I wake up in the morning, either you're here or you're not here." "[Grunt]" "Mom!" "Your father was never satisfied either." "He was selfish, too." "[TV news in background]" "[TV continues]" "Mom?" "Mom?" "Mom?" "Mom?" "Mom, uh..." "I just wanted to know where you are." "I've been looking for you for a while." "Just wanted to make sure that you're okay." "Please call me back as soon as you get this?" "Love you." "Mom, it's me again." "Oh!" "God damn it." "Mom, what are you doing?" "You scared the shit out of me." "What?" "Do you know what time it is?" "I have stuff to do." "I'm getting it done." "Okay, Mom, can we please just go?" "No." "Mom..." "Please?" "Please, can we just go home?" "For me'?" "Don't!" "For me'?" "Stop yelling." "Don't yell." "Leave me alone." "Just go outside and that's all I'm asking you to do and then we can do whatever you want." "Will you just stop it'?" "Okay, okay." "Okay." "I don't want to go home." "We are not going home." "We are just going outside." "This is my mother, Gail White." "She's a stage four cancer patient." "She's been going through chemo." "You okay?" "Yes, I'm fine." "She's been taking steroids." "I woke up this morning and she had just left the house." "I'm Gail White." "Where do you live?" "I live at 434 West 87th Street." "Just down there." "Just standing there." "This is James." "This is my son." "I'm the one that called, man." "Okay, miss, let me ask you a couple questions." "Do you know what year it is?" "It's 2000." "Do you know who the president is?" "George cock-sucker Bush." "Please, can we just get in the ambulance?" "If you would just come with us." "Give me your hand." "No, no!" "If you just get the doors, I'll get her in." "I'll get her in if you get the doors." "Mom, please just come with me, okay?" "I'm going to come with you." "No!" "I want to go home!" "I want to go home!" "Stop." "Stop." "I want to go home!" "Mom." "Jesus Christ." "I know, I know." "They're just going to make sure you're okay." "They're just going to make sure you're okay and that's it, and then we're going to go home, all right'?" "[beeping]" "How are you feeling?" "Do you know..." "You can't." "Mom, stop." "Mom, you cannot take your tubes out." "Please stop." "I'll get help if you need, okay'?" "[sniffs]" "Can you wait right here for me?" "I'll be right back, okay?" "I'm right here." "Hi, excuse me'?" "Excuse me, hi." "Miss, that's my mom in there, Gail White." "She's a patient." "She's a stage four cancer." "She woke up, she started pulling out the tubes, and I think she shit herself." "Somebody needs to change..." "Someone will be in there in a second." "Do you have any idea about the beds and..." "We have no beds." "She's not listed in the computer yet." "When somethings available, I'll let you know." "Okay, excuse me, excuse me'?" "I just said she shit herself." "She's sitting in shit." "Can somebody change those sheets, or what do we do about that'?" "Thank you." "Uh, John?" "Joe." "Joe, hey man, can I talk to you for a second?" "I'm sorry to bother you." "Sorry." "James." "You're the bed manager, right'?" "Ye ah." "You remember my mom, Gail White?" "She's been up here a lot." "She's a school teacher, was a school teacher." "Oh yeah, Gaff, yeah I know her." "Look man, we've been down in the ER forever and nobody is helping me at all and all I'm trying to do is gather a bed." "Is there anything maybe that you can do to help expedite that process?" "She's down there." "She's sitting in her own shit." "Damn." "You know, I'm just trying to do everything I can do to help her and nobody's helping me." "I understand, but it's out of my department." "There 's nothing I really can do, James." "I know." "I know it's against protocol, whatever, but I just..." "like, that's my mom." "You know?" "Uh, hey, excuse me'?" "I got a bed for her." "It's got to be listed." "I can't do anything until..." "It's listed now." "You can check." "You got to wait for transport." "How long?" "I have no idea." "Please find out how long that's going to take'?" "It's going to take how long it takes." "No." "Well, can you hurry up the process a little bit?" "Well, then, I'm going to do it myself." "Stop." "Please." "Please, stop." "I don't want to wait for..." "(nurse) I'll expedite it." "I'll call transport right now." "These guys take forever." "I've been through this before." "I know how long it takes." "You're going to make things worse." "I'm making it better." "You want to make your mother worse?" "Let me call transport." "Well, then help me out and do that." "(nurse No. 2) Mr. White, can you pick up'?" "Yeah." "It's Dr. Fagen." "Hey, Dr. Fagen." "(doctor) James'?" "Yeah." "What's going on?" "Um, well, you know, she's delirious." "She didn't even know what year it was." "She's dehydrated with the fever." "All I'm trying to do is get her into a room." "I just need to get her into a room." "James, that's not possible." "She shouldn't be at the hospital." "Why?" "That's no!" "how hospice works." "If she needs help, you call the hospice care." "What do you mean, hospice?" "She's not in hospice." "Yes, she is, James." "Now they're your main care provider." "James, if she 's admitted to the hospital, you'll lose hospice." "They've explained this to her." "What, when?" "December." "Did she not tell you?" "No, I was away." "Nobody told me." "Isn't somebody supposed to tell me'?" "I'm really sorry." "What's important how is get her out of the hospital." "(James) Well, then if I Can't keep her here then what am I supposed to do?" "Mom?" "We have to go home." "[whispering] Hi, Mom." "Hello, James." "Mom, do you remember what year it is'?" "It's 2013." "Thank God." "You really scared me." "You remember?" "No, I don't." "I'm sorry." "It's okay." "Thank you." "Of course." "I'm just glad that you're back." "Can I borrow a pillow?" "I'm right in the next room." "You want the lights on or off?" "Off." "Okay." "(James) Hey, Genie. (Genie) Hey." "We can't have flowers in the house." "Why?" "Her immune system can't handle them." "I'll get rid of them." "Okay." "Um, is that for her'?" "Yeah." "I can take it to her." "Oh, great." "Thanks." "You got to stop talking like that." "Of course I will." "Okay'?" "Hello." "Jesus Christ." "Why is everyone so sad'?" "Mom, can you try eating a little bit of this for me?" "Sure." "Ready to go?" "(Nick) Yeah." "(Nick) Okay, my lovely Gail." "So good to see you, Nick." "So good to see you too, babe." "You're not going to let him get away with too much shit, right?" "Definitely not." "Thank you for my flowers." "No problem." "We're so lucky to have you." "I'm lucky to have you, babe." "Get some rest, okay'?" "Okay." "I'll see you later." "Bye." "Bye." "See you later." "Okay." "[inhales and exhales deeply]" "Mom, stop it, okay'?" "Okay." "Okay." "Okay." "I'm here." "I know." "I know." "But I'm going now." "Okay." "Okay'?" "All right." "So when are you moving back'?" "I don't know." "I got to take care of some stuff back there first." "But I don't need you down there." "I need you here." "I need help." "Well, I'm here now." "You want to go home?" "No." "Let's go out." "Let's go to your friends." "Let's go to your friends." "Well, you have your interview tomorrow." "You don't want me to meet your friends?" "I thought you wanted me to meet your friends." "Of course I do." "Okay, let's go." "[hip hop music]" "Yo." "Yo." "These kids are like 16." "Is Jayne in high school or something?" "Yeah, Jayne's in high school." "Yo, I'm ready to go." "Give me 10 minutes." "I'm onto something." "No, man." "Yo, 10 minutes, bro." "I'm about to sell this dude a blunt for 50 bucks." "Ten minutes." "Who'?" "The Asian boy." "Ten." "Dude, 10, we're done." "(Leland) He was going to change the game lyrically." "Astound the masses, now he's passing all the lasses." "Got his class but not his glasses." "Only wanted him to make it bump" "And lift you up off your lazy asses." "So then he wrote one just for the hell of it." "Just to prove a point, the point that it was effortless, but then it blew up, rocket up to number one." "He thought it was hilarious, just another, just for fun." "Homie warned me..." "Jayne." "Don't be a bitch, it's just for fun, this shit'll never stick." "[Leland rapping]" "'Sup?" "Tired?" "You okay?" "Yeah." "Yeah?" "Yeah, I'm good." "I'm good." "What's up, buddy?" "You look anxious." "Excuse me?" "You look anxious." "Your hands fidget." "I came out, I felt some weird, you know..." "Oh, sorry, bro, for getting that on you." "That's cool." "What's your name, my man?" "I'm Leland." "Leland." "Stop talking, Leland." "You cool'?" "Now I'm cool." "Yeah, we're cool." "Where you going?" "To get my coat." "Hey." "How long?" "Where are we going to go'?" "Home." "Let's go home." "I don't want to go." "It's cold." "I don't want to go home." "I don't want to go home." "(Nick) Come on, man!" "See?" "You're going to bust your ass, man." "Get down." "♪ I don't want to go home ♪" "["Don't Let the Sun Catch You Crying" by Ray Charles]" "What'?" "(Jayne) No thing." "What?" "What?" "What's wrong?" "Nothing." "Nothing." "No, it's fine." "We're cool." "We're having fun, right'?" "Yeah." "No." "You want to go?" "You want to leave?" "You want to leave?" "You can go with Nick if you want 'cause he wants to leave too." "Tell me I'm wrong." "[slams door] [glass shatters] Fuck!" "(Nick Yo!" ")" "You're acting crazy, man." "Hey, listen." "Hey, just relax." "You're walking fast, man." "You walking too fast, man." "You walking too fucking fast, man!" "Relax, man." "Chill out." "Don't come at me like that, man!" "Chill out." "You know what I'm saying?" "Chill out." "Don't fucking come at me like that, man." "I'm right here." "I'm right here." "You need to relax!" "You're scaring us!" "You're scaring Jayne." "You need to relax!" "Listen, she may die any day." "She is scared to death." "Hey." "Hey, come on." "Get off." "No, I'm here man." "Come on, just relax." "I need you to relax, man." "[Jayne gasps]" "Fuck." "Are you okay'?" "Yeah." "You see'?" "You need to relax!" "No, you see what I'm saying?" "You're scaring her." "You're scaring her." "[grunting]" "(James) Would you listen to me." "Listen to me!" "Would you dispose of a dead body for me'?" "Would you dispose of a dead body?" "Yes, I would." "Would you?" "Would you, for me'?" "Dude, no question." "No question." "Would you for me'?" "[knocking] Would you?" "Go answer that." "Go get it." "No question!" "No question!" "[chatter at door]" "No need to fight me." "Dude, what am I supposed to do?" "What am I supposed to do?" "No one tells me anything!" "She doesn't tell me anything!" "What am I supposed to do'?" "What am I supposed to do'?" "Please calm down, man." "Please, bro." "(James) Damn it." "Nick." "Yo, yo." "Wake up." "Shit." "What time is it'?" "Shit." "Yo." "Can you help me, please?" "Just get in the shower, come on." "No, man, I don't have time." "You got time to shower, man." "You smell like shit." "Gel in the shower." "Can you help me clean up'?" "Can you please help me clean up the room?" "Yes, yes!" "I'm fucking late for my interview." "Yo, Nick, grab my shirt." "Here, wear mine." "What's wrong with mine?" "Yours smells like alcohol." "Drenched in it." "Dude, can you get my other stuff?" "I got to go, man." "I am late." "Nick, please hurry up, man!" "Yo, put your pants on first." "I got it." "Goddamn it." "Are you coming'?" "Uh, no, I'm going to stay and clean up." "What?" "I'm going to stay and clean up." "Alright." "I got to go." "My notebook?" "Okay." "Let's go." "(James) How bad was it?" "Pretty bad, man." "You scared us." "You should probably get your shit together." "I should get my shit together?" "Yes." "That's coming from the clown who works at a resort?" "Least I can dress myself in the morning and make it to meetings on time." "Who just paid for that room'?" "I did because your card declined." "Good fuck, fam." "(Maggie) James, hi," "I'm Maggie, Ben's assistant." "How you doing?" "I'm sorry, it's going to be a little while longer." "It's cool." "He wanted to know if you have the copy test'?" "No, but can I just maybe email it to him later?" "Yeah, absolutely." "All right." "Can you do me a favor?" "Just give this to him'?" "Unless, he doesn't have to read it all, but it's just to get him started." "Sure." "Just a couple things." "I'll let him know." "Can you do me one more favor actually?" "Can you just charge my phone?" "My phone died." "Maybe I'll just grab it when I'm leaving?" "Yeah." "That cool'?" "I can plug it in." "I really appreciate it." "I'll be out in a few." "Maggie, right'?" "Yes." "Thank you." "Yo. (Ben) Hey, there he is." "You guys need anything?" "No, we're good." "Thank you." "Thank you." "She is beautiful." "What's your shirt say'?" "It says "Let's verb together." It's a little wordplay." "What did you do to your hand?" "Oh, nothing, a stupid accident." "Got to be careful with that." "Yeah." "Um, so, I looked at your pages." "What I read I really liked." "It's, uh..." "Yeah?" "It's good." "It's sad." "Yeah." "Yeah, well, you know, that's actually something" "I just wrote really quick and I wanted you to have the full experience of reading it in my actual handwriting." "I had it." "I really like how you drew the characters." "And I think you really captured your dad's voice." "Whatever, it's just a story though." "Yeah, I remember when I lost my dad." "I was kind of a mess." "Takes a while to process that." "Yes." "You know?" "Yeah, but you know," "I mean, I feel like I'm dealing with it." "I'm actually really just so excited to start working." "So, what do you think'?" "What can I do'?" "What do you think I'd be doing here?" "I'm sorry." "Can I get you some coffee or something to drink?" "Did you..." "Some water'?" "No, I got water." "You sure I?" "Yeah." "[phone rings] One sec." "Hello." "No, tell him I'll call him back." "[hangs up]" "Um..." "You remind me a lot of me." "And your dad, you know." "I loved your dad." "And I love your mom." "And I'm hereto help." "I want to help." "So I'm just going to come right out and say this." "Um..." "I wouldn't feel comfortable hiring you for anything right now." "Yeah." "Okay." "Yeah." "I understand." "Um..." "But I really need this right now." "Well, if that's true, then I'm really glad this meeting's with me and not somebody else." "Because if you showed up without an assignment that you were asked to prepare, and the writing sample that you presented like this, you have a gash on your hand and you smell the way that you smell at 10 AM" "they would've stopped you at the elevator." "You're a mess." "Um" I mean, I know the demons that you're wrestling with and I know how hard they are to get rid of." "Yeah, here's the thing." "Like, I'm okay." "That's not..." "I think..." "I really think we're having some kind of misunderstanding about this." "That's okay." "I think you are going to be okay." "Okay." "So here's what we're going to do." "You're going to take whatever you need, a month or two, and when you feel like you've got your head on straight, you're going to call me and well!" "Try this again, all right'?" "Except let's get lunch next time." "Yeah?" "Okay." "All right." "Here, I'll walk you out." "Okay." "Hey, Genie." "How are you'?" "(Gail) Hey!" "How's it going?" "(Gail) I would come give you a hug but my legs are hurting." "Okay." "Her energy's down, but now that you're here." "I'm coming to you." "Hey." "Come to me." "[laughs] [kiss] Aw." "Did you eat anything?" "I had some apple sauce." "I'm not really hungry." "Okay, I'm off." "I'll see you tomorrow." "Yeah." "See you." "[door opens and closes]" "So how are you, my love'?" "All right." "Yeah." "You don't look so good." "You look..." "What's wrong?" "What's wrong, you okay'?" "Hey, Ma." "[inhales and exhales deeply]" "Are you--?" "Why can't you talk'?" "Okay, all right." "All right, stop." "Relax, just relax." "Do you want to drink this'?" "You want to try and drink it'?" "Just breathe." "Okay'?" "All right." "[odd sound]" "Okay, that's okay." "That's all right." "Just relax." "You want to take a break?" "We'll take a break." "Relax, it's fine." "Just keep breathing." "Mom, please, just breathe, just breathe." "That's fine, here." "Watch some TV." "[mobile phone rings]" "Take a little break, yeah'?" "Don't worry about it." "[voices from TV]" "Okay." "All right." "Hello." "Yes." "See?" "There you go." "You okay'?" "Yeah." "You okay'?" "I'm fine." "It's just scary." "Yeah." "My brain couldn't find its way to my mouth." "Has that happened before?" "No'?" "It's fine." "Come on." "Mmm." "Okay." "Shit." "You okay'?" "Yeah." "Okay, okay ." "Okay, okay." "[groaning] [sighing]" "I love you." "I love you, too." "Mmm." "Hey, I forgot to ask." "How did it go'?" "With Ben, it went great." "I got the job." "Oh!" "Oh, that's great." "Oh, that's great." "Mm-hm." "Ben is a good guy." "Yeah." "You just keep going like that." "[James clears throat] Mmm." "(Gail) James!" "James!" "Ma'?" "Ma, you okay'?" "(James) Mom, you okay'?" "Don't turn the light on." "Is that good?" "I need something to drink." "James?" "Yeah?" "Drink." "I just got to sit you up a little bit." "Okay, here we go." "Oopsie daisy." "All right, here we go." "That's good." "A little more'?" "No?" "Okay." "Mm." "Okay." "That's okay." "That's okay." "Mmm." "Mom." "You're looking a little bit warm." "I'm just going to take some of these blankets off of you, okay?" "To cool you down a little bit." "There we go." "Can you open up a little bit'?" "Just going to take your temperature." "Open." "A little bit more." "A little bit more." "Just get it under." "There we go." "Close." "Hold it." "The patient is Gail White." "I'm her son. [woman speaking on phone]" "Yes." "[woman speaking on phone]" "Well, her temperature now is 103.1." "[woman speaking on phone]" "Wet towel and extra strength, that's it?" "Okay, and then what do you think I should do if it doesn't go down'?" "Lukewarm water on a towel and rub it on her'?" "Are you serious?" "Yes." "Okay, well then if it doesn't go down, do I call 911 or what?" "[woman speaking on phone]" "No?" "[woman speaking on phone]" "So then I can't." "Open, open, open." "Mmm." "Open, open, open." "Got it'?" "Hold it." "Hold it." "Open again, one, two." "[gags] [coughing] Okay, all right." "Okay, all right." "Did you get it down'?" "Can I just see if you got it down'?" "You got it, okay, good." "Okay, good." "It's over." "That's it." "That's it." "That's it." "You're done." "You're done." "You're done." "[sighing] You're done." "Just do the arms." "Ahh." "Okay." "Ahh." "I know." "[gags]" "What'?" "Okay, one second, one second." "You got to sit up." "You got to sit up for me please." "It's okay." "[retching]" "Okay- Okay" "Okay." "[grunt] I know." "Whoa, okay." "One second." "[loud moaning]" "No, no, no, stay right there." "Stay right there, okay." "Ma, lift your head up." "Lift your head up a little bit for me." "Lift your head up just a little bit." "Yeah, I'm not sure if she threw them up because I can't see them." "Yes." "If you don't see them, don't give her anymore." "Yeah. [woman speaking on phone]" "Continue to take her temperature every hour, okay." "Thank you." "Bye." "[phone beeps] [even breathing]" "Hey, Mom." "Hi, sorry to wake you." "[beep] Just need to take your temperature again, okay?" "Open." "All right." "Good." "[glass breaks]" "Hey." "Hi." "What's going on'?" "You okay'?" "I dropped a glass." "I'm sorry." "It's okay." "I have to get to the bathroom." "You got to go now'?" "Yeah." "Okay." "Okay." "All right, I'm going to put one arm over me." "Okay." "All right." "Okay." "Almost there, I got you." "I got you." "I'll do it." "[cries out] I'll do it, all right." "All right, I'm going to stand up." "One, two." "[cries our] All right, sorry, sorry, sorry." "[saw]" "Here." "[groan]" "You just want to be carried, huh?" "Like a princess. [moaning]" "Okay." "Sorry." "Nope, no, it's okay, okay." "Oops." "Okay, you got to stand here for a second, okay'?" "Just for a second, I got you." "[groaning]" "I got you." "You good?" "Yeah." "Down." "Okay." "Okay." "Okay- Okay- [sounds of defecation]" "Okay, I'm right here." "I got you." "Mm." "Okay." "[exhales]" "Okay." "All right, you got to put your arm around me." "Mm." "Ready?" "Go." "Okay." "I got to sit." "I got to sit." "Okay, okay." "Sit right there." "Okay." "Take a break." "[both panting] Take a break." "Whoo." "Whoo." "It feels like someplace else in here." "Yeah." "That's nice." "Yeah." "I just got to sit a minute." "Close your eyes." "[inhales deeply]" "Take a deep breath in." "[inhales] [exhales] Exhale all the negative out." "Deep breath." "[inhales]" "Push it all out." "[exhales]" "Cancer's gone." "You beat it." "[both inhale and exhale deeply]" "Where do you want to be'?" "Paris." "Hear the sounds of the streets." "The cars on the street." "The wind." "Relax your mind." "My wife and I move there." "We got two beautiful boys." "You live next door in a beautiful one bedroom." "You have all your books." "I want some Billie." "Mm." "["There is No Greater" "Love" by Billie Holiday]" "You show my children all the museums on Sundays." "You teach them about everything." "We have dinner at my house every Friday as a family." "[inhales and exhales deeply]" "Smell the flowers in the flower market, see the Louvre, see Rodin in the Garden." "See me happy." "Mm." "See me as a father." "See me as a kind and loving man." "See me smile to see you so happy." "My children love their grandma." "You watch them grow up." "You tell them my secrets when they're old enough." "You meet a man you love." "He's French." "Ex-pat." "What'?" "Ex-pat." "Ex-pat." "He's an ex-pat." "He's a wonderful man who fits perfectly in our family." "He loves you." "He inspires you." "He values you." "He holds your hand through everything." "He's adventurous." "He loves you." "Hm." "You're surrounded by people you love and who love you." "You're safe." "You're responsible for all this beauty." "Thank you." "Thank you for giving me this life and helping me create this for myself." "[inhales and exhales deeply]" "You want to try getting up'?" "No." "I just want to stay here." "Okay." "[beeping]" "100-point-2." "We did it." "100.2'?" "You did it." "Yeah." "Yeah?" "[buzzer sounds]" "I'll be right back." "(Gail) Good morning." "Hey." "What year is it'?" "1983." "Mom, come on, seriously." "It's 2013, and the president is Obama." "Very good." "Very good." "[Genie's footsteps]" "Oh, Oh." "Oh." "James." "Remember how when you were a kid you had that box of 96 crayons and you would take it with you everywhere?" "Just draw, all the time'?" "[exhales deeply]" "Uh, vaguely, yeah." "Most kids just had their box of eight." "Well, I have 96, too." "And the thing about us is we feel good things way up here but we feel bad things way, way, way down there." "And we got to try and remember there's all this space in between." "We got to try and live in there, too." "Right?" "Yeah." "Hm." "We never talked about your dad." "No." "No, we haven't." "[sniff]" "Well..." "Without him I wouldn't have you." "Yeah." "You should get some more sleep." "No, I'm fine." "I'll probably just lay down for five more minutes, then I'll go home and take a shower." "Please do." "[chuckles] All right." "[sighs, moans]" "[mobile phone rings]" "Hey." "[labored breathing]" "[trembling voice] I want you to know that... [crying]" "I'm going to be okay." "I promise." "I promise that I'm going to be okay." "You can go." "I love you." "I love you." "I love you." "[slow, labored breathing]" "[strangled, heaving breath]" "[silence]" "What the fuck'?" "What the fuck'?" "[panicked breathing]" "I can't." "I'm always here." "I love you." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "[kiss]" "Okay." "Yeah, somebody's got to get her taken..." "I got it taken care of." "It's okay." "I'm going to go out." "I want to go out." "All right, let's go." "I'll go get my jacket." "No, I got to go out by myself." "I'll call you, all right?" "Okay." "Um, I don't have any money." "Thank you." "(man) Excuse me." "Are you with the family of Gaff White'?" "What,why?" "I'm the grief counselor." "I was called by- [breathes deep]" "[street noise]" "[electronic theme music]"