"DESIRE AND GRATITUDE" "I ordered already." "Medullary-trauma complications." "Your mother called." "I'll call her back tonight." "Spine wasn't properly stabilized." "Almost got a faceful of nerve-fibre spaghetti." "Ah, pasta!" "Good idea." "Miss!" " Yes, sir?" " Pasta, please." "The hospital." "Pay my tab, will you?" "Sure." " Medical history." " Dr. Lemieux's on her way." "Don't see anyone." "Medical history?" "T-bone accident." "Twelve-minute response time." "Transport: 9 minutes." "Patient was in shock, but conscious until arrival." "Hockey player." "We know." "Instruments, please." " BP?" " Stable at 90." "Pulse?" "100." "Okay, we'll take care of him, but I want first-row season tickets." "Ready." "Let's dive in." "Scalpel." "How do we deal with penetrating trauma?" "Endoscopy." "Plus a thorough examination of the abdominal cavity." "Look at the screwdriver's angle and point of entry." "Intestine and colon: no chance." "Tool penetrated the diaphragm below the heart." "Lungs functioning normally." "Lucky him." "Young lady knows her stuff." "Dr. Lemieux!" "Seb Johnson." " Who?" "Goaltender." "The hockey star." "I'm not a fan." "Five-year $40 million contract - he's red hot!" " He's here?" " Car accident." "You seem devastated." "I'll see Mrs. Dubois about the amputation later." "Guess who's here." " Seb Bronson." "Johnson." "He's already in the OR." "T-boned: rib fracture, intrathoracic injuries, and a tool in the abdomen..." "What do you call that again?" "For screwing." " Screwdriver?" " Right." "There was one in the car." "Impact sent everything flying." "We all have desires..." "Come on, go!" "Don't just stand there." "Question is, to what extent?" "Clamp." "Mustn't start leaking." "Everything okay, Doctor?" "No." "Compresses." "Compresses!" "Good." "Release the artery." "Clamp." "Stay focused, Sophie." "Desire turns passion into a handicap." "Desire is a newborn's eagerness for the mother's breast, a source of great satisfaction, but also of intense frustration." "They say "drooling over."" ""He was drooling over it."" "Like a drooling baby." "Saliva dribbles down his chin, waiting for the breast, which could cause  frustration, suffering lack." "The frustrations of early life can leave deep psychological scars, colour one's personality," "Best-case scenario  they make us stronger." "Worst case, they'll give us reason to hate, annihilate," "kill." "Done." "Thanks." "Whose idea was it to give a seminar on psychoanalysis to students?" " Yours." " Yeah." "I don't think they're mature or open-minded enough to understand what I'm teaching." "Let's stop." "What?" "Our doctors don't shine enough." "Can I help you?" "Prince Sarmani's daughter's at the airport." "Who?" "Fourteenth richest in the world." "Our foreign representatives are starting to get results." "She's been injured?" "Cranial cyst." "That's not a trauma case." "It comes with a million-dollar donation." "We must also restore her virginity for her wedding night." "Virginity?" "All right, I can resume." "I'm done." "I'll take the patient to recovery." "Sophie can do it." "He's my patient." "Keep drinking water." "Slight stimulation of the vagus nerve." "Happens to everyone." "If I hadn't come, what then?" "You know it's not vagal." "First you steal my patient because he's a celebrity, then take advantage of my dizzy spell to justify yourself?" "I thought better of you, Julie." "Not you." "You always side against me!" "You don't give up a stable job for pipe dreams!" "I'll make 10 times my accountant's salary as a broker!" "Twenty times!" "Lay off." "Making less than your brother doesn't make you a failure!" "Stop!" "You're green with envy when your sisters flash their fancy cars!" " Whatever!" " Right." "You're irresponsable, Marc Lemieux." " Right." " You're killing me." "At this point, it's either you or me!" "You did the right thing." "But it's like Sophie." "You're not helping her by advantaging her." "If it hadn't been for her father..." "It undermines your credibility as chief." "I'm your on-call resident today." "So if you can take Dr. Meilleur's patient, why's Sophie doing the follow-up?" "Because I said so." "What's she have that others don't, besides her father?" "Sensitivity, which you lack." "You know anatomy and procedures by heart." "You'll make a good surgeon." "But you're more ambitious than sensitive." "That answer your question?" "Yeah." "If you're looking for glory, go inform the press in the ER." "What do I say?" "That the operation was a success, the patient's still critical." "We'll know more when he wakes up." "Excuse me." "Seb Johnson's room?" " And you are?" " His brother." "I can't discuss the accident." " Will he make it?" " We're doing our best." "Is he critical?" "Dr. Roche, is he critical?" "Yes, death's always a possibility." "Come, let's clear the ER." "Was Johnson alone, or...?" "Yes, no passengers." "Was he drunk or high?" "Has the team been notified?" "I assure you, we're doing everything possible, but that's all for now." "Sorry." "Thank you." "Sit." "Is he married?" "No, no wife." "Yes, he's divorced." "Don't you read the papers?" "Not the sports section." "You're his emergency contact?" "Yes." "His agent, too." "Our parents live in Ontario." "Are you the youngest or eldest?" " Eldest." "There's two of us." "Needless to say, hearing the news was quite a shock." " Where'd you hear it?" " On the radio." "They named the hospital?" "No, but..." "I figured it out, hmm?" " You're his agent?" " Yes." "Who's Mr. Borden?" "His contract negotiator with the team, sponsors." "And you?" "I handle the rest." "What else is there?" "Everything else." " You handle his affairs when he's away?" " Yeah." " His house" " Cars." "No other job?" "I work for him." "I have good ideas, though." "I'm a kind of... inventor." "I sell my ideas." "I studied medicine." "You're a doctor?" "I did a year, then quit." "Life, huh?" "When can I see him?" "Soon as he wakes up." "On one condition." " What?" "That he wants to see you, too." "Wait here." "You paged me?" " We keeping Mr. Johnson here?" " Put him in 326." "Staff only." "Not a word about Dr. Meilleur's dizzy spell ailment," "Trust me?" "We'll have to talk." "Okay." "What about?" "You have no life." "You don't mix with other residents." " They don't like me." " You snub them." "You'll never get anywhere that way." "You have talent, but need personal balance." "Look who's talking." "The chiefs envy you, and you're a workaholic." "When I was your age, my boss cried on my shoulder because his 14-year-old anorexic daughter was killing herself." "We saved her." "But she remains as pig-headed." "Patient's brother's in my office." "I'll deal with him for now, but I don't want him here unless the patient asks for him." "I had the family wait here, but I think they expected better." " A million for the hospital, huh?" " A million problems." "Wanted to see me?" "Million-dollar cyst." "What cyst?" "And a labiaplasty to boot." "Free." "What's the story?" "Middle-Eastern donor." "They're leaving for Japan tonight on business." "What's in it for me?" "We have to fix her " honey pot" without seeing her face." "I can't discuss it." "I'll explain later." "I have news." "Dr. Lemieux wants me to talk to the press." "Excuse me, you give me the info, and / talk to the press." "Surgery went well." "Patient's critical." "We'll know more when he wakes up." " Thank you." " Who's your plastic surgeon?" " Meilleur." "Not busy?" "You'll assist." "I'll prep the OR." "Come." "I'll take them to my office." " It'll have to wait." " How long?" "Couple of hours." "I'll wait." "Give me your phone number." "I'll call you when he wakes up." "No, I..." "I'd rather wait here." "Go to reception or the cafeteria, but you can't stay here." "No stress for the patient?" "Is that it?" "No problem." "He's family, huh?" "My best friend, too." "We're very close." "Don't know what I'd do without him." "He needs me, too." "Because... as I said, I handle his affairs." "Not the big stuff." "But still." "I'd even say he needs me more... than I need him." "Why are you crying?" "The job I wanted... went to someone else." "It's not fair!" "I need time." "I'm not a failure." "I'm a good person." "As capable as anyone." "I'll prove it to you." "I love you as you are." "Wait, you'll see." "Huh?" "Give me a chance." "I have to go." "Where?" "Not long." "Yes?" "Yes." "Johnson." "Luc Johnson." "Anyone by that name?" "There you are." "Baseball bat to the gut, knife to the back, or vagina." "Take your pick." "The vulva." "Perfect." "It's all yours." "Come." "Wait." "What's the case?" "Labiaplasty." "Labiaplasty?" " Yeah." "Aren't you a plastic-surgery fellow?" " Yes, but..." "OR 3." "You'll be a hero." "Dr. Lemieux?" "Patient's awake." "Wanted to make sure the room was ready." "Have him transferred immediately." "Sophie?" " Yes?" "What you said about me earlier - you were right." "I, too, have problems." "I'm sorry." "Why?" "Your father, anorexia..." "that was mean." "Uncalled-for, even." "I lashed out because it hit home." "But you were right, too." "I'm pig-headed." "My own father was immature and selfish." "I grew up too fast." "I'm a control freak." "It's exhausting." "If I can spare you that..." "Thanks." "Someone want to let me in on the joke?" "Shape her vulva into a crescent moon." "Very funny." "It's an Islamic symbol." "What do I do?" "If you want to go into neurology, check this out." "If you're a real man... this is where it's at." "Cash?" "Is that a problem?" "We'll manage." "You understand the donation is contingent on a successful operation." "Yes, of course." "Success according  to my assessment." "Your daughter's in good hands." "Who's the woman operating?" "Woman?" "A man won't be restoring my daughter's virginity?" "Dr. Julie Lemieux." "Good day." "Julie?" "Diplomatic emergency." "Prince Sarmani's in Diane's office." " Who?" "A generous Middle-Eastern donor, who wants surgery performed on his daughter." "She agreed to have us remove a cranial cyst and do a labiaplasty for a million dollars." "Excuse me?" "!" "I know it's not in the same ballpark, but it was that or nothing." "Talk to Sophie." "She wants to operate solo." "Don't think she's ready." "The other residents are complaining." "The prince wants a female surgeon." "I can ask Ladouceur." "No, Diane asked for you." "I'm neither a plastic surgeon nor a neurologist." "Anybody asks, you're operating." "Right now." "Officially." "Actually, it's Mathieu and Pierre." "Excuse me?" "Talk to Sophie." "Okay?" "Yeah." "Ouch..." "No." "Don't move." "Came out of nowhere," "My light was green." "Yes." "Don't move." "Stay calm." "Impressive." "What?" "A doctor your age." "I'm almost 26." "Doesn't show." "You look older than your age." "Twenty-five." "You were very lucky." "Think so?" "Shouldn't carry tools in your car." "Leave them in the trunk." "Why?" "We removed a screwdriver from your abdomen." "Get some rest." "Not now." "I'm busy." "Want to start operating solo?" "Then find the time." "I'll be waiting." "Your brother's here." "I don't have a brother." "Mr. Johnson?" "What are you doing?" "Nothing." "Let me explain." " Now, or I call security." "Not necessary." "You must understand  it was quite a shock." "I don't look it, but I'm high-strung, a worrier." "I'm sure my blood pressure's through the roof." "Don't feel well?" "No... not really." "I really don't." "Seeing my brother would help." "But you won't let me." "Let's go to the ER." "Someone will look after you." " I know where it is." "I can go." " No, I'll come along." " Don't bother." " My pleasure." "Thanks." "He awake?" " Not yet." "This gentleman's his brother." " Really?" "So you're the one we ask for autographs?" "No problem." "David?" "Don't move." " Take your time." "He's not well." "Really?" "I'll isolate him in one of my beds." "It's best he doesn't talk to the press." "His story's at odds with his behaviour." "I'll take care of him." "Johnson's awake." "That stays under wraps, too." " During recovery?" " Yes." "Dr. Roche will take care of you." "He'll take me to Sebastian?" "I'll come get you myself when he wakes up." "If you'll follow me..." "This way." "That was a plastic surgeon's job all the way." "A resident's, you mean." "The cyst wasn't subcutaneous;" "it didn't even penetrate the skull." "Didn't the doctor's report say more?" " BS." " A million for BS." "Imagine when it's serious." "I want good news." "You're saddling us with one-day private-clinic surgeries here in trauma?" "Seriously?" " Her father wanted hospital care." "You're having a skin cyst removed by a neurosurgeon?" "The surgery won't be entered in our books." "There were more urgent cases." " Critical?" " Not necessarily..." "Enlighten him." "That's the last time I get roped in." ""Triumph without peril brings no glory."" "One last thing:" "Julie operated." "A woman operated on the lady." "It's not a suggestion, it's a prerequisite." " That I mix with others?" " Yes." "Sit." " If I refuse?" " Then you won't become a surgeon." "That's all." " You have no right." "I do." "Sociability isn't a job requirement." "I look at the surgeons around me - everyone's out for themselves." "All the more reason to pick up good habits." "I'll quit." " Your choice." "All I ask, is that you be nicer to your fellow residents." "I'm nice." "No, they don't interest me." "They're jealous." "Daddy again?" "Like that, huh?" " Not at all." "Yes, you do." "You get off on it." "You enjoy making me suffer, because I did it." "I'm following in my father's footsteps, which you never could!" "Dr. Lemieux needs me." "Twice in one day - it's a record." "Twice what?" "First, my patient, then you take credit for someone else's surgery?" "!" "Don't play dumb!" "Either you're a surgeon, or a lobbyist!" "Not my choice." "But you did nothing!" "I had other priorities." "What you and your boyfriend are doing to me's disgusting!" "Now it's a conspiracy?" "You're restricting me to routine surgery?" "Trying to humiliate me?" "I'm the best!" "And you can't take it." "You're just screwing with me!" "Dr. Lemieux, chief of surgery." "You operated on me?" "Along with Dr. Meilleur and our residents." "Including Sophie, who you've met." "Thank you." "Simple procedure." "You were lucky." "Yeah, she said." "Could it... hurt my career?" "Don't know much about hockey." "Ask the team's physiotherapist." "But I doubt it." "You'll need 3 months of convalescence." "But I'll miss training camp." "Three months, minimum." "Sophie mentioned my brother." "That's why we're here." "I told her." "You have no brother, but a man showed up claiming otherwise." "Never had a brother." "I'm an only child." "You can go." "I'll take it from here." "I'm not busy." "I can..." "Leave us." "What's his name?" "He said "Luc."" "One more." "It's just nerves, Mr. Gagné." "But I have a headache..." "It's anxiety." "You're healthy as a horse." "Did you give Johnson's brother Lorazepam?" "Yes, done." "He wants to talk to you." "On my way." "Not family..." "An acquaintance?" "Friend?" "No idea." "He was very upset about your accident." "There's a Luc at our training rink." " The rink?" " He floods the ice." "I need you." "Now." "Where?" "On the roof." "Legare's a total bastard." "Don't you want to know why?" "If you want to tell me, sure." "He says I'm snubbing you." "A little, no?" "You're naturally rude, then?" "Everyone here does their own thing." "I no more than anyone else." "Coming to the residents' party?" "Where?" "When?" "Tonight." "At the Paradise bar." "Dress up." "We'll have a blast." "Later." "Careful, it's dangerous." "No more than playing hockey." "It takes balance, guts." "Come here." "See down there?" "I'm the king!" "The star!" "Let's go inside and talk." "Come here." "Everything's fine." "Everything's under control." "Careful!" "Danger's my middle name." "I'm a pro." "I feel great." "I feel... fantastic." "I'm happy." "I LOVE MYSELF" "Wouldn't bet on him regaining full capacity, but at least he's alive." "Thanks to Pierre." "He's the best at Cattell-Braasch manoeuvre." "You're such an expert manipulator." "Hot and cold." "Criticism, pats on the back." "Be honest." "Even your partner doesn't realize how good you are." " Shut up." " Mathieu..." "Wait for me downstairs, please?" "I'll be right there." "I meant it." " Me, too." "Don't push me." "You don't know me." "Do you?" "You're a robot." "Unfeeling." " Get some rest." "Take a few days." " Go on, fire me." " I'd like you to find a solution." " Don't have one." "You're making me sick." "If I can help, say so." "I'd like to be in your shoes... be you." "I'd like to think like you, act like you." "Have your strengths, your weaknesses." "The same weaknesses in the right place." "Can one base a career on envy?" "I doubt it." "Yet.... we all come up, at some point, against colleagues' privileges, their talent, the credit they deserve." "One can't dedicate one's life to saving others'  without harbouring... a pressing need for recognition, a powerful need for attention." "Getting others to see us as real saviours." "I think one can't become a traumatologist without perceiving oneself as some sort of miracle worker." "Knowing this, there are two kinds of saviours." "Those conscious... of this inner need, and those unaware of it." "Why is this awareness important?" "So as not to overshadow the chiefs' glory?" ""Those who live in envy... die a thankless death."" " Hi." " Hey." "So... did you find out why Luc wanted to see me?" "A fan, no doubt." "I didn't mention it before, but he's kind of special." "Be careful." "He's always making up stories." "As if he had no life and was making one up." "Speaking of life  yours is jamming up our ER." "The press?" "Did you notify the team?" "Yes, but we released no details." "We wanted to speak to you first." "Thanks." "Problem?" "Luc attempted suicide." "His admiration for you my have gone too far." " Really think so?" " What?" "We can't do this job if we envy others?" "We can do it anyway, but not happily." "Craving recognition makes you crazy, huh?" "Because the other residents envy me." "All of them." "Every last one." "What'd they do to you?" "Nothing." "But I won't change just to toe the line." "We have to clear the press." " How?" " Call the team." "They'll deal with them." "The hockey player no longer interests them." "It's the other one, the jumper." "He's the celebrity now." " Celebrity!" " Yeah." "Who is it?" "Pierre Meilleur." "What are you doing here?" "If you hadn't come, I'd have jumped, too." "I'm not bothering anyone, I'm good here." "I can spend the day in my car." "What's the problem?" "Go home, Pierre." "No one's sick here - not me, anyway." "Mind your own business, you charlatan." " I'm responsible for the mental well-being of the trauma unit." "That's what I'm paid for." "You know we're right." "Translation and Subtitling:" "D.Gauthier, CNST, Montreal"