"Hey DeVivo, in my office." "How's your mother doing?" " It's OK with her." "They were married for 52 years." "It's the first time she's ever been alone." "How are you, how's the caseload?" " Good." "Most of my cases were diverted while I was on leave." "What's this?" "I'm the assistant D.A. Can you deal with that in a hurry?" "Umm-umm, well I must have died and gone to Heaven." "Still looks like Hell to me, Sarge." "911 Logs on..." "November 23rd and 24th." "Anything else to waste my time with?" " Yeah, Shapiro's death announcement." "Thank you very much." "Who was he to you?" " I don't understand." "How did you know him?" " As a friend." "He was also a client of yours for 6 years." "Well, people come to this program to get help living with disease." "This is our holistic services unit." " Is this where you met him?" "He was an artist... a musician." "He played in my home town." "Matt was actually the first real New Yorker that I'd ever met." "This is your co-pilot speaking." "We apologise for the further delay." "We finally have our last passenger on board." "We will soon be deparing, but we've lost our position in the line up." "Delay may be 2 minutes." "Thank you for flying, and I hope you enjoy your flight." "Lady, I hope you have flight insurance 'cos this instrument is worth at least 6 times what you are." "And that's a conservative estimate." "If this plane goes down, I'll save it before I'd save you!" "Don't shake your hand at me." "Is that pot?" " Yeah." "What did you think?" "That I was gonna blow you?" "By the way, my name's Matt." "I rented a car." "I didn't have any money or a license." "Sounds charming." "It wasn't always such a ....." "I think it's time we started a new regimen of Protease inhibitors right away." "Great." "How many pills this time?" " Actually, it's a lot less." "It's only ten, taken three times a day." " Side effects are?" "The usual, nausea, skin rashes, diarrhoea... and this particular regimen can also cause dementia, hallucinations and severe headaches." "Matt, I have to be honest with you." "There are only two newer protocols left to try." "I think it might be time to speak with your family about this now." "I'm dieing." "I'm dieing." "Matt, these medicines were designed to prolong life." "And they've worked for you, but they were never meant to be a cure." "Well ..... thank you." "Out with the old, in with the new." "Brain tumors eventually killed Matt." "Mr. Knight, three other patients have died rather suddenly in the six last months." "Eddie Suarez, Terry Quinn, John Butta." "All my patients die." "The police are not investigating right now, but they reported to the District Attorney's office... that autopsies revealed similar toxicology reports..." "Dilaudid and morphine in the blood of two patients." "Well, they all take similar medications." "Such large quantities?" "These people suffer in ways we can't even imagine." "The drugs are there to ease the pain." " Excuse me." "New applications for drugs assistance." "These are Bobby Tella's ashes." "His family never came to pick them up." "You can add them to the collection." "The Board of Health is coming this week, and since we are not ready I have sent a memo to all staff." "You know, clean up your paperwork..." "files off the floor..." "You know, what is wrong with these people?" "And why can't they cut us some slack?" "We got a huge waiting list to get in here, and I got to worry about some anal retentive with a checklist?" "Sorry I have to ask you to do this for me..." " Don't worry about it, Mom." "Your father was the handyman..." "and I was the cook." "Daddy - he could burn water." "He made spaghetti only once." "Two years later I was still cleaning up the sauce." "Mom, how come the toilet blocks every time I flush?" "Know how many rolls of toilet paper she has in there, Nick?" "Hundreds." "Like she's stockpiling for a war." "Your father ruined those pipes..." "A colon like an express train." "Thank you, Nicky." "You too, Chris." "Getting old SUCKS!" "Is that her?" "..." "Mr. Metzler, you called 911." "So we just have to do a follow up." "The 911 log said that you were a woman." "I'm concerned that an NYPD officer had such bad eyesight." "Either you lied to them..." "Or you lied to me." "I'm very pissed off when I'm lied to." "Would you like some water?" "The 911 report says there was some emergency." "But then, the next day there was a dead body." "Did you call 911?" " Oh, I'm so sorry, there's been a mistake." "There's no emergency." "We were fighting My friend has been drinking." "Are you gonna be okay, Ma'am?" "I am so sad." "Get up, Rory." "Come on." "Get up." "He'd lost his breath, that's all." "I never saw a dead body before." "I thought when someone dies, you call 911." "Rory, could you tell me who Mr Shapiro's next of kin is?" "Hi, I'm Nicole DeVivo, from the District Attorney's office." "I'm looking for Mrs Lila Shapiro." "Is she in?" " No." "Can I come in anyway?" " No." "What are your names?" " Amelia." "Lilian." "Hi, Amelia." "Hi, Lilian." " Hi." "Can I come in?" " Okay." "That's really good." " Thank you." "Amelia, Lilian, what have I told you?" "You don't let anyone in this house except me and Polly." "Who are you?" "I'm Nicole DeVivo, from the Distict Attorney's office." "I'm looking for Lila Shapiro." "My mother is out of town." "I'm house-sitting." "Indefinitely." "Something I can help you with?" "This concerns Matthew Shapiro's death." "Did You know him?" " I'm Mattie's sister." "Mrs...." "Ms Gabrielle Shapiro-Schnell." "Were you with Matthew when he died?" " I beg your pardon?" "There are some concerns surrounding Matthew's death." "Matthew had Aids." "Did he die from Aids?" "My brother was very sick and very depressed." "So what that he took a handfull of pills and killed himself!" "All the terrorists in New York..." "You got nothing better to do?" "You push the green button, Mom." " Oh, great." "You lied to me." "I can't believe it." "You effing lied to me." "Oh, Hi Gaby." " You said he committed suicide." "Okay, the cops have been." "I have to go now." "Don't you dare hang up on me!" "Well, this looks like a good spot." "You know, this is against Jewish law." " It's what he wanted, Mom." "You can't uncremate him now." "Say goodbye to your brother." "'Bye then, Mattie." "Go feed the fishes." "Ugh, GROSS!" " He was always a messy kid!" "The Event" "You want Sophie?" "What are you doing here?" " Having a party." "You're a little late." " Yep?" "Well you... are fucked." "It's weird being here without him." " Don't touch anything in the bedroom." "Do you think Matt's gonna haunt this place, when the next tenant moves in?" "Only if they're straight." " Brian, why did we all leave in such a hurry?" "'Cos I'd a visit yesterday from the DA's office." "They're looking into Mattie's death." "I knew it, I knew it." "Didn't I tell you, Judy?" "Didn't I?" "Well, at least Andy's not gonna say:" ""I told you so."" "Probably just a routine follow up." "They don't know that any of you were here, so let's just keep it that way." " Damned right!" "There is one problem." "Oh no." " Lorna, let me finish." "Gaby was here today." "She knows about the party." "This is everybody, right?" " You're forgetting someone." "Who?" " Can I ask a question about the Village People." "This is why I don't smoke." "Oh my God, Rory..." "What if he knows everything?" "Rory's a big mouth." " A huge mouth, especially when he drinks." "We're dead." "How did America not know they were gay?" "They were gay, right?" "Actually, not all of them." "MA!" "Oh my God." "Boy, Amelia's handwriting is really improving." "We have discovered three, er, other situations... that are very similar to Matthew's." "I only know about my son." "Mrs Shapiro, I know this is very hard for you." "So I'll try to be brief." "How long were you aware that Matt was sick?" "That stuffing was great!" "I think it was the fennel." "You know fennel?" "Your Aunt Claire introduced me to fennel." "Mom, I'm gay." "I know." "I've er, I've known for a long time." "Gaby told me years ago." " What, she outed me?" "Well, the last girl you brought back was a Prom date." "and you did her make up." "My sex life is none of Gaby's business, Mom." "Gaby has very definite ideas like your father." "Rest his soul." "I love you." "There's something else..." "What?" "What something else?" "I'm sick." "I'm sorry, Mom.." "No, no, Mattie." "No, no, no." "Excuse me." "So, was he really sick?" " Oh, okay, let's see, um..." "Yeah, I guess things pretty much went downhill from there." "I have an audition.." "Yeah?" "For what?" "172 00:22:55,960 -- 00:23:00,829 A job, a commercial for a promising new feminine hygiene product." " Is this important?" "I don't have any money to lend you." "Go ask Mom." "I told her." "What?" "That you're gay?" "No." "She cried, didn't she?" "Oh my God, I can't believe that I messed up." "Dana, I've got Aids." "178 00:23:42,000 -- 00:23:45,709 No, don't you say that again, you motherfucker." "Fucker, fucking stupid!" "Are You ready?" "Can I start in a minute?" "Okay, fine." "Dana wants a minute." "And action." "When I get a yeast infection, I use Vagimar." "It melts the itch away like butter." " Cut!" "." "Margarine." "Margarine?" "What's the difference?" "It's my crotch." "What?" "Am I gonna fry eggs down there or something?" "I'm sorry, who says margarine?" "Who says that?" "Sorry, it just feels wrong.." "Okay, okay." "No, no, I see that." "I see where you're going." "It's good..." "I'm glad that you're thinking." "That you are getting inside the character there." "A girl like this would probably say butter." "But, er..." "I'm gonna ask you, this character in the world that we're creating here..." "She's only got one motivation, right?" "Got one thing on her mind..." "Spread Vagimar." "Now, let me ask you this..." "Vagimar is called Vagimar because it melts like margarine." "'Cos if it melted like butter, it would be called Vagibutt." "And Dana, how many women that you know would pay nineteen dollars..." "To spread some yellow gluck called Vagibutt up their hole?" "Are we on the same page now?" "Great." "And action." "When I get a yeast..." "When I get a yeast infection..." "When I get a yeast infection..." "That's beautiful, honey." "That's gonna sell a lot of Vagimar." "This isn't really helping me." "I'm sorry to have bothered you." "I don't know much about Aids, but I do know there's nothing more tragic... than when someone takes his own life." "What you know about Aids, could fit in my purse." "Wait..." "Quickly, like bunnies." "Nick DeVivo, District Attorney's office, New York." "Mom..." " What?" "I'm cold." "I was surprised to hear from you." " I'll bet you were." "This won't take long." "Since the game is over my ex is taking the girls to karate." "Listen, I want you to stop bothering my family." "Amelia, stop that." "You stop stepping on your sister's head." "Share!" "Listen, it's just a case to you." "He was my baby brother." "Did you know your brother was going to die?" "Where did you get these?" " Keep your paws off my goods." "So, what's it like to be a gay divorcéé?" "It was ten years of hard work." "And what have I got to show for it?" "Nothing." "No credit card, no house." "I live with my mother in New Jersey." "You have got two beautiful kids." "You know what my new therapist told me?" "That men turn gay because when they first start to masturbate... they pull on their thingy too hard." "No woman's thingy can give them the same sensation." "Oh .. she's worth every penny you pay." "Don't leave me out there." "I've missed the conversation about my lack of direction." "Now they're on to your divorce." "I'm sure we'll end up with the old family favorite:" "Where's Matt's girlfriend." "Well I am not sitting next to cousin Stevie anymore." "Dana, you do it." "He smells like Vicks vapor rub." " No, I think that's Grandma." "You mean the bearded woman?" " That's us in forty years, Dana." "Stevie smells like pot." " Oh good, I'll sit next to him then." "Come on, dinner's ready." "God, thank you for providing us with this meal and bringing the family together." "And let us not forget those that aren't here." "Your Arthur, my Ethel... and, of course, our father." "As long as you have your health, you have everything." "Mattie's gonna help Mommy clear the table." "You eat, young lady." "Good girl." "Matt was in pain." "But I thought that it was going to be a quiet, respectable suicide." "Like Jackie O had." "I don't effing believe it." "It looks like one of those parties." "I swear." "Was Matt Shapiro your boyfriend?" "Well, Brian?" "No, he was my client." "And I don't sleep with my clients." "Hi, this is Brian Knight." "It'd better be good news, or I don't want to hear it." "Brian, hi." "It's Dana Shapiro." "Look, I'm sorry to bother you, but Mattie is really sick." "He won't get out of bed and he won't see the doctor." "I'm really really worried." "One day he's OK, and then the next he's throwing up everything." "He gets these twitches." "He blames his brain tumors." "That's NOT good news." "Matt's my best friend." "Last week he was fine." "He's really weak." "The new cocktail" " I don't think it's working." "Dr Fisher said he's gonna die." "God, she's a fucking bitch, you know." "Not fair, Brian." "Nobody should have to live like that." "I've got to get going." "Mattie..." "Visitors." "Mattie" "Oh, you wreak." "Brian..." "Shit." "There's blood in it." "Timing is everything, Mattie." "Where's mom?" " She's got the girls." "Where's the artist?" "I want a smiley face." "Hold still." " Hey, look at me." "I am in a plastic.bubble." " Think what it did for John Travolta's carreer." "Dana, we're not supposed to touch him." " Yeah, well screw it." "It's cold under there." " I'll call the nurse." "Christ, Dana..." "What do you think you're doing?" " Oh my God." "Mattie, I'm so sorry." "Get away from him." "Mattie, it's okay." "It's okay" "Look what I found in the mail." "You lied to me, Brian." "Yeah." "Guess I did, didn't I?" "Nothing personal." "It's a lot more complicated than you think" "Oh, I think it's very complicated." "Yes, there was a party." "I now confirm that you, Amy Eisner and you, Mona Rothschild have entered into a domestic partnership" "Acknowledged by the city of New York." "Congratulations!" "It's about as romantic as a bank merger." "Till death do us part." "Hello sweetie." " Good to see you." "Thank you for coming, Leo." "I know you're very busy." " I'm never too busy for you." "Uncle Leo, this is a hard one." "Mattie wants us to settle up his affairs." "Settle his affairs?" "Is he being sued?" "Getting married?" "Or both?" "No, Leo." "Matt is sick." "Sick?" "He's a young man." "My Stevie is 25, 26." "Sick..." "You take him to the doctor." "I'm the lawyer in the family." "We need something called a Living Will." " Is that what he called it, a Living Will?" "Yes, Mom." "No more hospitals." "Look, I think Mattie is over-reacting a little." "Don't you, Lila?" "He has Aids, Leo." "Uncle Leo?" "Is he a fag lover?" " Yeah, Uncle Leo." "Mattie is a fag lover." "Lila, how could you let this happen?" " It's not Mom's fault." "I know." "I'm sorry." "It's just..." "Lila, it's such a heartbreak." "How sick is he?" "You look." "You tell me." "He's here?" " What are you doing, Leo?" "Well, shouldn't he be in a hospital?" " Tell me he's kidding." "Please, tell me he's kidding." "Look, Lila, you're my sister and I love you." "But this, in our family..." "No!" "No, not in my family." "Shut the hell up, Uncle Leo." " Dana, don't raise your voice to your uncle." "You know, Leo." "Sometimes you can be a real asshole." "Lila." " Now take that schmut away from your face and sit down." "I'm gonna have this conversation just once." "And then never again." "Matt is sick and he's afraid of that." "If that's a problem, it's not mine." "When you hurt your back, who shovelled your snow?" "Who visited Dad every weekend at the nursing home?" "..." "Matt." "My son." "So, from now on... not one bad word about... my son." "Now, I need you to help me with this Living Will." "And quickly..." "Because right now..." "I can't stand the sight of you." "Do you want to play?" "Barbie." "Are we expecting someone?" " It's Mona." "She called earlier." "You told her we were here?" " I answered the phone, Brian, so yeah." "Who's Mona?" " She's Matt's therapist." "He's got a session with her." "Mona's not a therapist." "She's a death cult leader in training." "Guess I'd better get up." "I'm here for Matt's psychotherapy session." " Hi." "This is Gay Bob." "And today Gay Bob's going to go to the doctor 'cos he's feeling kinda sick." "So..." "Okay, let's go to see Dr Barbie." " But I want to be Gay Bob." "Okay." "You can be Gay Bob, I can be Dr Barbie." "Hello, Gay Bob." "How are you doing today?" " I don't feel so good, I feel sick." "I've not got the time to talk now 'cos I'm going swimming in Ken's pool." "Here's a new drug cocktail." "Here you go..." "Take a thousand of those with every meal... and call me when you're sick again." " I do not want to be Gay Bob anymore." "Look, here's a red ribbon." "Congratulations Gay Bob." " Mona is here." "Er, okay." "Come here." "Do you remember that video we used to watch of Pee-wee's Playhouse?" "Remember, when he said the magic word, he could yell and scream." "You remember that?" "Okay,today's magic word is..." ""Death"." "We've actually met before." " Did we?" "But that was when I was still in school." "I graduated with honors, got married, got divorced..." "Became a lesbian and now I run a counselling service called Forever Positive." "I'm also a Clinical Psychologist." "It's very positive having the children here." "Very positive!" "Now I remember you." "It's important to use plain terms when discussing difficult topics with the children." "Like dieing." "We talked about it." " Girls." " How's Auntie Dana feel about Uncle Mattie dieing?" "Pissed off." " Oh." "Very open!" "." "You are a very intelligent little girl." "But we shouldn't impose our feelings on to the children." " May I?" "I minored in child psychology" " Be my guest." "My name is Mona." "Now, I'm gonna ask you a question." "Take a second, then discuss your feelings." "How do you Amelia feel about your Uncle Matt's death?" "They're good." "Life." "Death." "Plate...." "lets." "The multi talented Princess Leila." "And now returning to the stage." "After an extended tour of outlying hospitals..." "The Queen of Green, the fellow with the cello ..." "Matt Shapiro." "That's my interpretation of death." "It's a prophecy." "Don't worry..." "It gets better." "I need a break." " Now?" "Yeah, now." "382 00:48:35,800 -- 00:48:38,997 Have you ever lost anybody close to you?" "You know, my client Daniel." "He lost almost 80 pounds before he died." "Sometimes when I held him.." "385 00:48:47,800 -- 00:48:51,076 I could, I could see my hand prints on his body." "Did Daniel die of Aids?" " You leave him out of this." "Why?" "Are you hiding something, Brian?" "Just how many of these parties have you had?" "Was there a party for John Butta?" "Eddie Suarez?" "You haven't heard a word I've said." "It's against the law to help someone kill themselves." "A Class C felony." "Second degree manslaughter." "I don't make the law, but it's the law." "There is no law when it comes to dieing that way." "That's where you're wrong." "There are a lot of laws when it comes to dieing." "Others knew that he was going to kill himself, and they did nothing." "Hey man, this is Rory's psychic hotline I see your future..." "You and a friend joining me at The Monster..." "Tonight and tomorrow for Rory's tribute." "Two shows at 8-30 and 10-30 PM." "Five dollar cover." "I'll see you there." "Mmwah!" "You sure there's nothing you want to tell me here, Nick, because I love you and..." "What are you saying?" "How do you know?" " Everybody knows that." "Rory Metzler, that's who your looking for." " What do I have to go in there for?" "Because you look like a fag." "The fat one in the middle, is that Rory Metzler?" "That was a great show." "Can I buy you a drink?" " Vodka tonic..." "Stoli." "Two, please." "I'm Chris." "Hello, Chris." "My friend Brian said you sing here." " Brian Knight?" " Yeah." "Where are you from, Chris?" " Er, Chicago." "Are you in the Navy or something?" "Married?" " I like that." "Do You have a lot of friends here?" " Just Brian and Matt." "You knew Matt?" "He died so quick." "You've got no idea." "The whole thing just spooks me." "I miss him so much." "I would have liked to have been there." "I'd have done just about anything to have been there." "Really?" "Honey, I taped the whole thing for my cable access show." "Can I get tickets?" " I'll sort that out for you." "And here he is, our guest of honor." "Any final words?" "Yeah..." "To anyone that's ever screwed me up... and there are many..." "I forgive them." "That is one classy lady." "I'm Rory." "I'm A list." "So, you've got your own show?" "Yes, every third week I'm on for a two minute segment on the drag scene." "Brian won't let me use this footage." " Why?" "You'll see." "Hey, snap out of it, Brian." "How did you find the video?" "How did I find it?" "It's none of your business how I found it." "I found it." "I ask the questions here." "One phone call, Brian..." "I say "Indict him", and your life becomes a nightmare." "Already is." "Okay, Brian." "You have two choices." "You take the easy choice, you give me all their full names." "You take the hard choice, and you're gonna make this very, very difficult." "You're such a big man, Brian." "You're just so brave." "Who do you think you're dealing with?" "Hey,do you think Judy's brave?" "Do you think that Rory's brave?" "How long do you think they'll last?" "And Mrs Shapiro's got to be pushing 70." "Hello everyone." "This is Melissa." "Welcome to Matt's party." "She's a riot!" "." "Does she work with you?" "I've seen Amy." "Whose she with?" "Call my lawyer." "I'm gonna make that phone call." "Hey, Nick." "Looks like I got a date." "Hi, handsome." " I got your page." "Do you want another drink or something?" " Yes, a double." "Can I get two more of these please." "Double with rocks." "What's wrong?" "The word's out, it just about ravaged my guilt." "Do you still have the tape?" " Yeah, yeah I got it." "I've been er.. shunned." "Matt's friends cast me out, like yesterday's trash." "And they'd better be careful because I know things." " Hey, hey..." "Listen, you can tell me about it..." "I think you know." "Let me go." "You lied to me." "Never misuse a woman." " I'm warning you." "I'm a cop." "Yes, you're right and I'm warning you, never fuck with a drag queen." "Oh, oh!" "Easy, easy!" "." "I could charge them, you know." "I could put their asses in jail if I wanted to." "That's a great idea." "You think Sarge would give me my stripes for getting my ass kicked by a drag queen?" "A cold beer would help." "Thank you." "Smells good, Mom." "Tell me again about you letting my baby get beat up in a gay bar." "I got carried away." " Oh..." "You never give up." "You're so stubborn, just like your father." "Hey, Mom I've been meaning to talk to you about something." "Did Dad ever er..." "Consider suicide?" " Who doesn't?" "No, I mean when he was in the hospital, when he was in a lot of pain." "Did he talk about it?" "Why are you asking?" " I just want to know." "To see your husband of 52 years just wasting away like that." "May God forgive me, Nick..." "If only he'd asked." "So, you've got Matt's friends and family out there..." "For what?" "Are we all criminals?" " I don't think you're a criminal, Mrs Shapiro." "Well, you're wrong." "It is good to be out, Mamma." " I'm glad, dear." "Er..." "listen, I gotta talk to you about something." "Mom, I'm gonna do something, something big." "One of those big,..." "life changing things." "These are special cookies." "I made them with pot." "Reefer." "Weed." "Marijuana gives you the munchies, and Brian says that you need to eat..." "And it keeps the nausea away all the time." "I read it." "There's this nice lady in San Francisco." "They call her Brownie Mary." "Isn't that cute?" "Brownie Mary." "They're not bad." "My brownies always turn out so dreadful." "Where did you get pot?" " Cousin Stevie." "I think he sells it." "I bought a pound." "Very cheap." "I'm so thirsty." "I'm dieing, Momma." "I know." "I don't want to wait." "I want to do it now." "What are you saying?" "I can feel it getting closer, Momma." "Everyday is harder and harder." "What if I wake up one morning and I can't recognize you, you know..." "You remember the way it was with Grandpa, he didn't know who we were." "I don't want to end like that." "I don't want to..." "I want to do it my own way." "No, no, no, no..." "NO" "No, don't..." "You don't want..." "You don't want..." "Suicide, Mom." "These chocolates of Gordon's are outrageous." "This is a friend of Matt." "Your name?" "No comment." "You don't have to show my face..." "Punk!" "To be honest with you Mr Campbell." "Given the circumstances, a jury would question that kind of behavior, don't you think?" "I didn't even want to be there." "She made me do it." "All that we're trying to do here is establish exactly what happened that night." "I want you to tell me what part you played." "Mr Matlin, Matt said he wanted this to be special." "Immediately I thought of a buffet." " A buffet?" "You made a buffet?" "You catered a suicide." " Shut up, Judy." "Who do you think had the most to gain from Matt's death?" "I'd say Matt." "I'm talking about his estate." "He left some life insurance to his nieces?" "Did he have anything else of value?" "Friends..." "Mona..." "Greedy sons of bitches," "Welcome to my will signing." "Come on, people we got a lot of work here to do today." "My relatives are coming over at 2-00 PM." "And my Uncle Leo does not need to know that I have a big, purple bong...." " Dana." "Which will be the first item up for grabs..." " The Master Blaster." "What's it gonna do?" "Kill me?" "Actually, I've been feeling a lot better lately." "Possibly the anticipation." " Why are you doing that?" "Because I want to die while I can still wipe my own ass." "And always leave the party while you're still having a good time." "Yeah..." "Hello." "I got the TV, so don't even think about it." " I get the VCR." "Anyone?" "I got two Stevie Nicks albums and a microwave." "Mona got some ice tongs and a feather boa." "We were not into Mattie for his inheritance." " Miss Eisner..." "Mrs ..." "Eisner." "Mrs Eisner, this is a very serious matter." "A lot of Matt's friends were at that party." "He didn't act alone." "I helped Matt." "Aids Treatment." "Can I help you?" "Oh, Hi, Jackie." "A dentist?" "Great." "Dr Faluti." "...878 Great." "Thanks." "Oh, and call me when you get the Tuinal from your your Mom's Doctor." "Great, 'bye." "Hi." "This is Amy Eisner." "I'm a friend of Jackie Dowling's." "I have this impacted tooth and my dentist is out of town." "How's it looking for prescription drugs?" "Oh, Mona has a junkie friend who might be able to get us morphine." "A junkie friend..." "Oh, that's good." "Take the refills from my doctor..." "and make sure you use different pharmacies." "Good." "Do you think I need a disguise?" "No." "So tell me, do you have a departure date planned?" "I didn't know that undertakers made house calls." "This is Chelsea." "She's in terrible pain." "What happened?" " I fell off a friend's trampoline." "This prescription is for Parégorique." "It's an opium based anti-diarrhoeal." "All that jumping gave her diarrhoea." "You are big boy..." "I'd go extra large." "Thank you." "I could lose my license over this, you know." "Look, you can have the rest of them." "But keep me out of this." "You are part of this, Mrs Schnell, whether you like it or not." "Look, I wasn't even at the stupid party." "I wasn't invited." "Have you lost your mind?" " Why?" "Have you found one?" "Who's that?" "You?" "You know it is?" " No." "Me neither." "This is big one in any case." "What you are planning to do, man..." "It doesn't make sense to me." "How do you not know..." "It doesn't make sense to me either." "Well, why don't you stop moping and do something about it." "Get a new treatment or another doctor." "What do you think I've been doing the last 7 years?" "Nothing works anymore." "Have you thought about these girls?" "They love you." "Their first date, their weddings?" "I love the girls, you know that." "They told me the last 6 weeks that I was gonna die." "And what I've gone through since then, I can't do again." "Well,I don't know what you are planning to do, Mattie." "But you do not include me or Mom." "Do you hear me?" "Mommie is talking to Uncle Matt right now, sweetheart." "You keep Mom out of this." "For once, think of her." "I only hope that my daughters will be that kind for me." "You don't have to go, Mom." "You don't." "I keep imagining his face..." "What he'll look like when it's over." "When he's dead." " Okay, Mom." "Stop it." "That's it..." "I'm calling the cops." "I should have done this a long time ago." "Gaby,it's what he wants, okay?" "Just sit down somewhere." "I think he'll look peaceful..." "like he's sleeping." "What is wrong with you?" "Act like a mother." "You lay off of her!" "Sometimes the only way to protect a defenseless child is to..." "Let him go back to God." "I'm not promising anything." "That I'll be like Shirley MacLaine at his death bed." "Remember Terms of Endearment?" "Uh-huh.." "She got the Academy Award for that." "What a perfect outfit." "This sort of brings out the Sean Connery in you." "You get out much?" " What happened the night Matthew Shapiro died?" "He had a fucking blast!" "Welcome viewers to a very special show." "We are at Matt Shapiro's "Event"." "The first time anyone's been inside one of these gatherings with a camera." "Tell me who you are." " I'm Jodi, this is Alex, my boyfriend." "and we live together." " You enjoying the party?" "What's the celebration?" "You don't know?" " No, I don't know." "Oops!" "Be selective." "Be pleasant." "Be firm." "There's no reason for things to get physical." "Okay?" "Michael Musto is definitely an A. As for the rest, decide for yourself." "Is Ru Paul on the A list or B list?" " If she's in drag then, A. If not, then, B." "I'm trusting in you." "Listen, later on I might not get the chance to say goodbye, so..." "Laurie Anderson is definitely a B now." "It's so much more ......." ".. I'm gonna be all rigt...." " Promise me you'll get some therapy." "Oh, Fuck Off!" "Why haven't I got one?" " Why, of course, you can have a VIP pass." "Good." "I was always at my best with you." "But get a vocal coach before you screw up." "I'm serious." "You don't know how much you're hurting people." "Count age by friends, and not by years." "Count your days by smiles and not by tears." "That's the last thing you're gonna say to me?" "That, and that I'm in love with you." "Ever since I've known you." "Marry me..." "HELLO..." "EXCUSE ME..." "Could I have your attention for a moment please?" "Could we have a moment of silence..." "For Matt." "Ten minutes and then, to bed." "And then The Simpsons ended." "See ya." "there was so much... love in that room." "Sometimes people die alone.." "But... this, this..." "This was beautiful." "That was it.." "I hooked up the IV and watched the liquid flow down the tube and into his veins." "You know..." "That second, when I realized he was dead..." "You feel so bad..." "'Cos then I was dead." "Is there anything else you want to add to your confession?" "They all killed themselves." "Eddie, John, Terry, Anita, Marty, Greg." "I wasn't there, but I know it..." "See, all my clients die, but half of them won't wait." "And sometimes... they have parties... to say goodbye." "And, whether you like it or not, unless you can cure them they're just gonna keep on doing it." "Stand up and put your hands on the table." "I'd like to add something to my statement." "All right." "Go ahead." "It took a few tries to get a vein." "I don't know why Matt asked me to do it." "I hate needles." "But how could I say no?" "After I got it in, it was easy to connect the IV line." "You're telling me that you assisted a man's suicide." " Yeah, that's right." "I hooked up the bag of Dilotit." " Dilaudid." "The drip was so slow that I had to squeeze the bag to empty it." "It got all over his shirt." "He breathing became labored, then sporadic..." "Then a death rattle." "Then he opened his eyes wide and he was gone." "You're really good." "Really thorough" "Your mother must be proud of him." " She is..." "Thank you." "And your father?" " He passed away." "Oh, I'm sorry." "How did he die?" " He didn't die, he was a police officer." "He died in the line of duty." "Your father was a hero." "To me, my son was a hero." "He had tumors growing on his brain." "Terrible seizures, and there was no way to help him." "Mrs Shapiro, it is unfair to lose someone you love, but there has to be laws." "When your father was laying there, suffering..." "Did any lawyer's opinion matter more than the his?" "What are you going to do to me?" "My son is gone..." "In my world, love.." "is above the law." "How many of them confessed?" "Six." "That would be sick if all of them did it.." "What do you want me to do?" "Indict all of them?" "God damn it.." "There was one night, when the pain was unbearable..." "The morphine wasn't doing enough." "So he asked me if I would give him a bunch of sleeping pills so he could end it." "He said that nobody would have to know." "Oh God, Nick." "I told him I wouldn't do it." "He was begging me, Mom." "I just don't know if I did the right thing." "So, I followed your trail." "Did it lead you to the killers?" "It scattered in the wind around Union Square." "I'm sorry about arresting you." "Now you have a record." "I went a little too far." "And I'm sorry... about your loss." "You think you know how you're gonna react, but you... we fool ourselves." "Want to know what happened?" "I love you." "I can stop this, lila." "He'll wake up tomorrow and be pissed off but er..." "He'll wake up." "Mom, he's talking to you." "Please, don't let all this be in vain." "Please..." "That's all I ask." "Oh My God!" "Oh God, we're gonna do this." "We're actually doing this." "Mattie, wake up you son of a bitch." "Wake up you son of a bitch." "Oh Fuck!" "Fuck, Fuck, Fuck!" "He's thrown up all the pills." " What does that mean?" "Maybe you should leave." " No." "I can't." "I can't." "Hi, Bri." "If you're playing this, then that means it's over..." "I wanted to thank you... and tell you not to feel bad or carry what I did around, like it's some big secret." "You can tell whoever you need to 'cos that's your job." "It's the survivor's job to tell the story." "Anyway, I wrote a little piece for you." "I hope you like it." "Take care of Mom." "I love you." "The Aids crisis is not over." "Can I give you this?" "The Aids crisis is not over." " Thank you very much." "Can I give you some information on Aids?" "Okay, that's good." "May I give you this?" "May I give you this?" "Hi this is Matt, I'm in heaven now." "Leave your message and someone else will get back to you." "Hi, Mattie." "It's your mother." "I know it's silly, but this is the only way I can still hear your voice." "I love you." "You are the light of my life." "Hope that I did the right thing." "I hope...." "I think of you every day." "Goodbye." "Goodbye, my son." "English Subtitles prepared 17 October 2009 by Stardancer {:-)"