"Previously on "Everwood"..." "I talked to a buddy of mine from Carbondale." "He runs the rehab up there, and he's willing to help me get something started back here." "You want to start a support group for recovering addicts here in Everwood?" "I already know she doesn't want me to do it." "So you can save you breath, 'cause I'm not changing my mind on this." "Good, I don't think you should." "I think it's a great idea." " Really?" " Yeah." "But my office isn't big enough." "Mine is." "I know what you think I am, but I'm not." "I don't have to be if I don't want to be, and I don't want to be." "There's absolutely nothing wrong with being..." " Don't..." " Gay." "I think we might be in a rut." "Hannah told you about the other night." "Unbelievable." "It's the same thing she does with you and keggers." "What?" "What are you talking about?" "She hates going to those things." "So you keep taking her, she keeps hating it, and the cercle continues." "Okay, if I knew she hated those parties, I wouldn't keep taking her." "So... now you know." "How's it going down here?" "These are all the chairs we have, but Nina's got more in her garage." "Is that the program?" "Yes." ""Symphony of destruction."" "Who is that " " Stravinsky?" "Megadeth." "Don't ask." "So what are you playing?" "The teacher always closes out the recital, right?" "I'm not." "It's about the students, not about me." "Parents want to know what they're paying for." "They're the one who sign the checks." "It's too bad for them." "That reminds me, I need a check for $2,500." "Refreshments?" "Tuition deposit for next year." "Make it out to AM." "I'm gonna grab those chairs." "Ho, ho, ho, ho." "You're transferring?" "Have we talked about this?" "Well, I can't stay at ECC another year." "I think I've actually gotten dumber." "So I put a call into the Chris Templeman guy, the one that recruited me last year -- we're gonna talk." "Plus, Amy says they have a great liberal arts department in case I want to change my major." "Is she going back next year?" "Maybe." "I don't know." "Still circling the airport, huh?" "Oh, yeah, like you're one to talk." "It's not all because of Amy, all right?" "I like it here." "I can keep my friends, my students, my apartment." "I get all the free food I want here." "I have to see your sorry face every once in a while, but I guess no plan's perfect." "If you're happy, I'm happy." "I'll go get my checkbook." "Anybody home?" "Nice knock." "The door was open." " Hi, Dr. Brown." " Hey, Kyle." "Just finished the lineup for saturday." "You're up last -- "Rhapsody in blue."" "Sorry, but I have another gig." "Yeah, right." "In New York." "You got the Juilliard audition?" "Yeah, my mom and I are flying out tomorrow." "That's terrific." "Congratulations." "That's " " I can't believe that." "It seemed like just yesterday we sent your tape away." "Why don't you have dinner with us?" "We could celebrate with some t-bones from Peter Luger's." "I've been saving them for a special occasion." "Thanks, but my mom's waiting outside." "We got to go home and pack." "Any last words, teach?" "Yeah -- don't suck." "You mean like you did?" "I didn't suck." "I, uh..." "Don't rush through the adagio." "It's not a race." "Good luck." "Thanks, Ephram." "Bye, Dr. Brown." "See ya." "That is pretty incredible, huh?" "Yeah." "I got a kid an audition at Juilliard." "I guess that means I can charge more for lessons." "I'm gonna go get those chairs." "You fall down a few times, and then a little voice inside you says, "no more."" "And as soon as you stop fighting yourself, you find your balance." "Okay." "Call sheets." "Remember, everyone in this room is a strand in a net." "If you think you're gonna fall, call." "We all have each other." "And, hey... be careful out there." "Sorry." "I've always wanted to say that." "Okay." "Thank you, all." "Thanks." " Nina." " Mary." "Hey." "How are you?" "Getting better every day." "I swear, I don't know what I'd do without that man of yours." "He's saving my life." "Yeah, mine, too." "Hold on to him." "He's a keeper." "Excuse me." "Hi." "My name is Phil." "Are you sure you don't need a pillow?" "It might feel better if you prop it up." "Hannah, really, I'm fine." "Please." "What about Ibuprofen?" "How often do you have to take it -- one every four or six hours?" "I've been taking it about every 20 minutes." "What?" "Hannah, I'm kidding." "Look, it's a broken hand, all right?" "These things happen, and it's gonna heal." "Thank you." "I still don't understand why you were trying to karate-chop a board in half." "Because it'd have been cool, and I'd have won 20 bucks." " You don't have to yell at me." " I didn't yell." "Yes, you did." "See, you don't even know that you're yelling at me anymore." "That's how mad you still are." "I'm not mad." "Yes, you are, and you have every right to be, okay?" "I should've been honest with you about the party and everything." "I should've told you how I felt instead of talking to Amy." "That's not what it is." "Well, what is it?" "It's not that you talked to Amy about it, you know?" "Like I would care." "I don't know." "It's just I keep feeling like there's more stuff, like maybe you don't like the fact that I play video games or maybe you don't want to make me sandwiches." "I don't mind the sandwiches." "Well, there's got to be more stuff, and we just don't want to say anything about it because we don't want to upset each other." "We?" "I didn't say "we."" "I said "ye," like pirate style." "Okay, no, come on." "I want to really hear this." "Is there something you haven't been honest with me about, something that I do that you don't like or something that you want me to do that I don't do?" "No." "See, now you're making it all specific, and you're putting it on me." " You were lying in the first place." " I wasn't lying, Bright." "I" " I thought I was compromising, okay?" "You care way more about these parties than I do." "And... the only reason I pretended was because I love you." "Well, maybe that's our problem right there." "What -- that we love each other?" "No, it's just that you feel like you have to pretend for me." "You know, maybe we're more different than we thought." "But because we love each other so much, we've been trying to, you know, be more the same, and that's probably why something is missing here." "What's missing?" "I don't know." "How do you know it's missing if you don't know what it is?" "Well, I don't know it." "I just " " I feel it." "Hey, Hannah, come on." "I'm sorry." "I don't even know what I'm saying." "I don't know what you're saying, either, but all I know is that you're making me feel horrible, so goodbye." "I just had no idea how empathetic and perceptive he could be, and he's so happy helping people." "It's like he's found his calling." "I thought you weren't gonna go to the meeting." "Well, I wasn't, but then you made me realize that wouldn't be very supportive of me." "Plus I didn't want to be one of the people I was worried about." "You mean those people that throw stones at him?" "Yeah, and turns out -- no stones." "Just a lot of coffee and "Jake's the best guy ever." It was really sweet." "Well, glad it all worked out." "The whole experience just made me realize how lucky I am, you know?" "Yep." "You are two lucky people." "Does it look like a florist threw up in here to you?" "We are lucky, aren't we?" "You know, it's funny." "I never thought I'd find myself here again." "Find yourself where again?" "You know, just imagining stuff." "Future stuff." "You mean like, uh, weddings, honeymoons, babies kind of stuff?" "Babies?" "I wasn't even thinking about babies, but, yeah, babies." "I mean, we could still have babies." "Yeah, and candles." "Too many flowers and candles." "What am I waiting for, Andy?" "I mean, you're right." "We are lucky." "And we're still young, but let's face it -- we're not getting any younger." "If I want another kid, I better get started soon." "Jake and I should get married." "Well, maybe someday you will." "Why wait for someday?" "Why not do it now?" "Well, usually you have to wait for the proposal first before the engagement or the wedding." "There's an order to these things." "Why don't I propose?" "What?" "It's 2006." "Why should I wait for him to ask me?" "You're serious, aren't you?" "Must've been one hell of a speech he gave." "It wasn't just the meeting." "I-i-it's everything." "He's been working on himself really hard this past month." "He's dialing back his hours." "He spends time with Sam." "He's helping me out at the restaurant." "He's different, Andy." "He's trying to appreciate his life more." "That's great, but... don't you think it's a little soon for all of this?" "I mean, you and Jake just got back on track." "Well, not "just."" "Why don't you live with it for a while, enjoy the view?" "I'm just " " I'm so happy, Andy." "It's taken me years to get this happy." "And I know it's a leap of faith, but what marriage isn't?" "Well, I suppose that's true." "Can you think of a real reason why I shouldn't take the leap?" "I'm not helping you pick out a ring." "Bright, can you get that?" "I just passed him and Reid outside." "Ephram, code red." "Your dad is coming upstairs right now." "Code red!" "Got it." "Thanks." "That's quite a system you got there." "So, to what do I owe this house call -- before my morning cereal, no less." "I thought I'd finally check out your new digs." "Is that my toaster oven?" "No." "What's up?" "Okay." "I've been thinking about Kyle and his Juilliard audition." "You need hobbies, dad." "No, bear with me for a minute." "I know you're happy for him -- and, believe me, I love that about you -- but I also know that it messed with your head a little " " I saw it." "Yeah, maybe it did a little bit." "Want to talk about it?" "No." "What's the point?" "I blew my audition." "It's not like I'm gonna get a third chance." "I think it's safe to say that ship has officially sailed." "So take another ship." "Juilliard is not the only music school in the country." "There's Yale, Peabody in Baltimore, Indiana University in Bloomington." "Yeah, but I already set things in motion with AM." "Yeah, but you haven't set them in stone, and I'd hate to see you lock into that just because of Amy." "No, it's not just because of Amy, all right?" "It might be mainly because of Amy." "I know, I know, believe me, but you don't want to base these kinds of life decisions on a girl who may or may not be there for you at the end of the day." "What if you do all this stuff and she winds up with somebody else?" "How hard would that be to still be here and have to watch that?" "Especially if she's my neighbor." "Yeah, especially." "Okay." "Let's say I did want to go to a conservatory, which I'm not saying I do." "I've already missed all my auditions for this year." "That puts me 12 months behind." "Piano time is like dog years." "Compared to Kyle, I'm already like 70." "Why don't you let me help?" "I still have a few connections left, and you've never let me use them before." "And I understand that." "You want to earn it." "I still do." "I know, but you're still the one who has to close the deal." "I'm just gonna open a couple of doors for you." "Okay." "Under one condition." "I keep the toaster." "You would sell your soul for a toaster?" "It's a kick-ass toaster." "You're checking the machine again?" "Come on, you just checked it like five minutes ago." "Hannah and I had a thing." "I left her a message last night to apologize." "She hasn't called me back." "This is the longest we've ever gone without talking to each other." "What happened?" "Ah, nothing." "We're just kind of in a bad place right now, and I can't really think of a way out of it without telling her the truth, which I can't do 'cause she'll know I've been lying to her this whole time," "which means I can't really be mad at her for lying to me, which honestly I'm not even really mad about." "It just makes me think about my lying." "We're just in a bad place." "Yep." "Sex thing, right?" "Do you have a secret decoder ring in your brain or something?" "Do I think I like going to the gym that much?" "Come on, I haven't had sex in like eight months." "I feel your pain, Bright." "Yeah, okay, but it's not like you have a girlfriend who will do other stuff, but not the stuff, constantly reminding you of the stuff you don't get to do." "It's like having an ice cream cone and never getting to finish it." "Yeah, but you never got to finish the ice cream cone." "You guys seemed great." "Why is it bumping you now?" "I'm just worried that we're both working so hard to ignore what's not working." "I was completely fine when it was just me pretending." "But now that I know that she's pretending, too, it makes me wonder if our whole relationship is false." "If we can't be who we really are, then, I mean, who are we, really?" "Ockham's Razor." "Of course." "Akmed's Razor." "No, it's a scientific law." "It says that the best solution is always the simplest one." "I'm saying just tell her, all right?" "Instead of spinning all these ideas in your head and getting yourself sick, just talk to her about it." "See what she says." "I know what she's gonna say." "She's gonna say that she doesn't believe in premarital sex." "Dude, that is not gonna change." "Neither is the fact that I really want it." "Okay, then you know what?" "Then you might be screwed and you might have to break up, but at least you broke up knowing that you both knew everything there was to know, and that you at least tried to have an honest relationship." "It obviously sucks, but if you love her, don't you owe her that much?" "I just can't believe this." "I feel like I'm right back on that rock with Ephram." "And my decoder ring just broke." "Late for the library." "I'm not peeking." "All right." "Wait -- chair." " Chair?" " Sit in the chair." "Sitting in a chair." "Okay." "Surprise!" "It's a laptop." "It's my laptop?" "Look on the screen, boy genius." "The Vail Mountain Inn?" "I got a cancellation this weekend." "We go skiing saturday, then get massages in the room, followed by a late dinner in the lodge and an extra-special surprise after that." "Surpri-- oh, man." "That sounds amazing, baby, but I can't." "I got to go up to Carbondale this weekend." "Really?" "But I checked your book with Edna." "I know." "It happened yesterday." "I met this addictions counselor at the meeting the other night -- this guy, Phil Curtis." "But anyway, he heard about what I was doing down here, and he thinks my program is perfect for isolated, small towns in the area." "Really?" "Yeah, but it gets better." "It turns out the state counseling convention is this weekend, and Phil wants me to make a pitch for state funding to open up a few satellite groups." "And if that works out, we could go national with it." "Jake, that's amazing." "I know, I know." "I was blown away myself." "Wow." "So, how would this work?" "Would you be running it?" "Well, I don't really know yet." "So, you just try it for a few days a week, and then you see if you like it?" "Yeah." "Exactly." "Who knows, if I love it, then maybe I'd give up my practice." "This would be a lot more rewarding than botoxing foreheads every day." "I am so proud of you, babe." "That's... well, okay." "Okay, we'll, uh, cancel Vail." "We'll go another weekend." "Come with me instead." "Up to the convention." "Sam is with his dad all weekend, right?" "Yeah." "I don't know." "You're gonna pass up a romantic weekend at the Carbondale Holiday Inn?" "Vending-machine food, bad cable movies." "And if you play your cards right, you might get an in-room massage." "Okay, well, you see, you should've led with that." "They don't call me "magic fingers" for nothing." "And then afterwards, you can give me your surprise." "What do you say?" "I say let's do it." "Good." "Great." "Keep staring." "I don't think that's gonna fit in the backseat." "Tony Tiggerello." "Never forget a face." "Ada?" "Hey!" "Look at you." "Big man on campus?" "Oh, yeah." "Yep, that's me." "Do you go to ECC, too?" "Do I look like a sorority girl to you?" " No." " No." "No, I got this table off Craig's list for my new shop." "I'm out of the fake I.D. business now." "My yarn store actually sells yarn now." "Oh, yeah." "That's a bold concept." "Yep." "Stitchin' and Bitchin'." "It's the new craze." "But I'm trying to figure out how I can get this thing into my car." "Okay." "Yeah, that's a square peg." "That's a round hole." "That never works." "Did you measure it?" "Yeah, right." "No, I'm a girl." "We don't measure." "I don't know." "I just figured I could... mush it in here, but I think my trunk is too tight." "I think so." "I think you're right." "Trunk's too tight." "You can't." "But, hey, you know what?" "I got a truck." "Why don't we just throw this in the back of my truck, and I'll follow you to the new store?" "Sure." "Okay, well, this thing is really heavy, and it looks like you just have one good hand." "You have no idea what I can do with just one hand." "No." "No, no, no." "I -- not that." "But we can do it." "Right." "How about if I help you move it?" "Yeah." "Oh!" "This is heavy." " Got it?" " Yeah." "Watch out." "What did you think?" "It was great." "The guy's the greatest pianist in America." "Did you see how he played the Mazurka?" "Chopin couldn't have even played it that fast." "I'll take that as "I liked it."" "Yeah, it was awesome." "I don't see how it's gonna help me decide my future." "Why don't you ask him?" "Hey, Andre?" "You say "hey, Andre," as if you know Andre Harvey." "Well, I operated on his father five years ago." "Nasty astrocytoma." "How do you think we got house seats at the last minute?" "Hey, doc." "Glad you could make it." "This must be Ephram." "Your dad's told me a lot about you." "Yeah." "Sorry." "He does that." "I'm a big fan." "Then we're even." "I'm a big fan of your dad's." "My father says hello, by the way." "I'm gonna go get a drink and watch the crowds depart." "I'll meet you back at the car." "Your dad says you play." "Yeah." "I mean, not like you do." "I didn't always play like me, either." " Drink coffee?" " Sure." "Come on." "How about another one?" "I should probably get going, actually." "But then again, I'm not one to waste good beer, so thank you." "So, Stitch and Bitch." "What does that mean exactly?" "It's a bunch of women that sit around, drink wine, knit, talk about their boyfriends." "Sounds dangerous." "It helps to get things off your chest sometimes." "Do you have anything you need to get off your chest?" "Me?" "No, not really." "I do like to karate-chop blocks of wood sometimes." "I'm just taking classes, just figuring out what I want." "What do you want to do?" "I don't know." "Well, some part of you must know." "It's all very confusing." "Sounds like there's a girl involved." "Yeah, but, you know, things are very weird between the two of us right now, so..." "Problems in the boudoir." "How did you -- w-why -- what would make you think that?" "Well, you know what they say." "If the sex is good, it's only 5% of the relationship." "But if the sex is bad... it's 95%." "What do they say if there's no sex at all?" "'Cause of the hand thing?" "No." "No, this is pre-hand." "Well, so you can -- you can still do stuff... with that big cast?" "I don't know." "I haven't tried anything." "Well... that is a shame... given you're at your sexual peak and all kind of like wasting a good beer." "The final was in the grand concert hall in Warsaw." "80 of the world's best players." "It's freezing, and no one spoke english." "But the crowd knew the music cold." "And when I nailed the third sonata, they went crazy." "I went from a nobody to a god -- a record deal, world tour." "Not bad for an accountant's kid from Brooklyn, huh?" " Spicy tuna?" " No." "No, thank you." "So, what's your story?" "Your dad said you missed out on a Juilliard audition?" "Yeah, about a year ago." "And now you're wondering if you missed your chance, right?" "You didn't." "I had a goal." "I made a plan -- school, practice, competitions." "I stayed with it." "Now I'm living the dream." "That's all it took -- a plan?" "At a certain level, it isn't about talent." "It's about who wants it the most." "I guess that's always been my problem." "I've never known exactly what I wanted." "Okay." "When you watched me play tonight, did you see yourself up on that stage?" "Yeah, of course." "Until you started the Mazurka, in which case I came crashing back down to earth." "Then you have your answer." "A performer wants to play." "You are a performer, so go for it." "Figure out your plan." "The rest is just work." "Girlfriend?" "Manager." "Are you kidding?" "I haven't had a girlfriend since high school." "It's hard to meet people, doing what I do." "What about when you travel?" "Schedule's too tight." "Your family must come to watch your shows." "So at least you get to see them." "They used to come, but I think the thrill is gone." "I don't see them that much anymore." "I try to make it every other Christmas, if I can." "They understand." "I guess it's true what they say." "Lonely at the top." "Sometimes, but the view is great." "That is my ride." "Airport's waiting." "Thank you very much for having me." "Listen, I went to the Yale school of music." "I'll call them tomorrow, set up an audition next week." "Next week?" "If you don't screw it up, which you won't, you'll start fall semester." "I'll call your dad with the details, all right?" "Good luck." "Hello?" "Yeah." "No, no, it's okay." "It's okay." "Just stay put." "I'll be there in 10." "Okay." "Who was that?" "Oh, it's nothing." "Just go back to sleep." "Are you going out?" "Mary is standing outside the sportsman's lodge." "I'm gonna go talk to her and make sure she doesn't go inside." "It's past midnight." "Just think of it like being on-call for the hospital." "Except you're going to a bar." "I know." "That's where the sick person is." "Don't worry." "I'll be okay." "Go back to sleep." "Hey, do you want some?" "Um, no." "No, thanks." "I'm good." "Got to go?" "Uh, yeah." "I-I forgot I had this thing tomorrow, so, uh... it was " " I had fun." "It was nice seeing you again." "You too." " Bye." " See ya." "Thank you, Penny." "That was fantastic." "All right, everybody, we're gonna take a brief intermission." "Please enjoy the bundt cake." "We'll be back for the second half in like 15 minutes." "That was great." "The ending sucked,didn't it?" "No, are you kidding me?" "You made me and Megadeth very proud." " Really?" " Yeah." "Cool." "What are you doing here?" "You're supposed to be in New York." "I came home a day early." "So, what happened?" "You freeze up?" "'Cause it's normal." "No, the audition went great." "I already got a callback and met with the financial aid guy." "They're offering me a scholarship." "They are?" "That's -- that's incredible!" "What's with the face?" "I told my mom." "So?" "You mean you told " "Oh." "You mean you told her, told her?" "We were walking through Times Square, past all the moving cars and people and lights, and I just blurted it out." "How do you feel?" "Overwhelmed, but good." "She took it well, and she said she kind of knew." "She's gonna move to New York with me and find a new job there -  that's if I get in." " No -- when you get in." "We'll see." "I'm proud of you, man." "You did it." "Because of you, all of it, really." "You changed my whole life, and I don't know if I'll ever be able to thank you for that." "You don't have to." "I think I just did." "Anyway, you should probably get back in." "You want to play?" "Depends." "Do I get the finale?" "No, I'm gonna take the finale, but you can warm them up for me." "So you really can be addicted to love?" "Yeah, along with booze and drugs and sex and gambling, video games, internet pornography." "Could you do me a favor and drive so I have a chance to go through these abstracts again before the seminar?" "I thought you were just giving a presentation." "I wish." "Phil wants me to do the full-court press." "It's like one-stop shopping for the entire addiction community." "Let me ask you a question." "Think I should go with a tie or do the Tony Robbins thing?" "So, when do I get to see you?" "Uh, I don't know." "This is turning into a lot more work than I had expected." "Yeah, I can see that." "I'm sorry." "You know, I'm not an expert on this stuff, but, um... do you, uh -- do you think maybe there's a pattern here?" "Pattern?" "Like what?" "Well, I mean, you finally cut back on your hours and slowed down a little bit, but all of a sudden you're going a hundred miles an hour again." "Except this time it's all about the support group." "This is who I am." "I work hard." "I play hard." "And if I'm channeling all that energy into something that's helping other people or keeping me sober, then I don't see that there's a problem with it." "It's no problem." "It's just... it seems like it's hard for you to put a relationship first." "No." "Definitely not." "I can have it all." "I can have my work." "I can have my relationship." "I can have these meetings, and everything can come first." "Well, that might be true right now, but not with kids." "I mean, babies -- they trump everything." "I know, but we don't have babies." "We have Sammy, and he's pretty much on autopilot until he's driving." "So..." "You want to have a baby?" "Well, eventually." "Hasn't it crossed your mind?" "To be honest... no." "Not lately, it hasn't." "I've got less than two months of sobriety under my belt right now, so I've got to be taking... one day at a time, and..." "I love you but I'm just not thinking about the future that way." "I thought you understood that." "I guess I jumped the gun." "I'm sorry." "Yeah." "Me too." "Hello?" "Hey, Hannah, what's up?" "You looking for the man?" "Hold on one sec." "I'm not here." " Seriously?" " Yeah." "Hey, Hannah?" "Yeah, I think he just slipped out." "I'll tell him you called, though, okay?" "All right." "Why don't you leave that?" "Let's watch the video." "Video?" "Thought we had an agreement." "We did " " I said I wouldn't shoot any, so I gave the camera to Penny's father." "You bribed Penny's father?" "But only so we could give the Chopin piece to Andre." "He's gonna help you with the Yale audition." " I'm not going to Yale." " No?" "Too far?" "What about Indiana?" "You could be a hoosier." "I'm gonna go to Colorado AM." "I talked to Chris Templeman." "He's gonna get me in the music ed program for next fall." "Music education?" "So you want to teach?" "Yeah." "Right now I want to do that more than anything else, so thank you." "I didn't do anything." "Yeah, you did." "You got me with Andre." "That helped me figure everything else out." "I would've always wondered what that other life would be like, if I was missing out on anything." " What changed your mind?" " I did." "After mom died... even before..." "I used music to hide." "I would lock myself in my room, not deal with anything, including myself." "I'm done with that." "I don't want to be that guy anymore." "I'm sick and tired of being the genius/loner piano prodigy." "Music connects me to the world." "I love seeing Penny get better or seeing the light bulb go off as Kyle finally gets a piece." "I can help change these kids." "I can show them who they are or who they could be, just like the army." "Amazing." "You've figured out more before your 21st birthday than I have in my 52 years on this planet." "I guess you are a prodigy." "I don't think so." "I've just spent all this year coming to terms with last year." "If anything, I'm slow." "At least I finally feel like I can put it all behind me, you know, like it's finally done." "Except for one thing." "What's that?" "Madison." "I was a real jerk to her." "I'm sure she understands." "Yeah, but still." "I wish there was some way I could make it right." "You know, go back to the coffee shop, handle it better." "That's it?" "Oh, that's simple." "Really?" "You know how to travel through time?" "Sure." "You just pick up the phone and call her." "I wish it was that easy." "Oh, I didn't say it was easy." "I said that it works." "Aren't you supposed to be in a hot tub in Vail right about now?" "Uh... yeah." "That's not happening." "Jake had a sobriety thingy in Carbondale." " So you didn't " " No." " You okay?" " Yeah." "I guess I got a little carried away, and I'm sorry I did it in front of you." "It's a little embarrassing." "Yeah, you're right. 'Cause I've never done anything stupid in front of you." "Hey, you want to play the shame game?" "You have got miles to go to catch me, girlfriend." "I just don't know what I'm doing anymore." "You're trying to stay happy, which is harder than it looks." "Sam still gone?" "Yep." "Till monday, it's just me." "So, why don't you have dinner with Delia and me?" "Got some awesome leftovers from the recital." "No, thank you." "I got a ton of paperwork to catch up on." "See, now, that is a bad instinct." "If you feel like crap, don't be alone." "Come be an honorary Brown for the night." "Okay." "Thank you." "I'll see you later, Andy." "Hey, it's Madison." "Leave me a message and I'll call you back." "Hey." "Uh, sorry." "I wasn't totally expecting this number to work." "It's me." "Well, it's not "me." It's Ephram." "You probably have another "it's me" by now." "Uh, you know, I was just thinking about you today." "Actually, I was thinking about everything a lot lately, and..." "I mean, you were a big part of my everything, so..." "Mainly I-I-I was -- well, I just wanted to, um... apologize for the way I acted at the coffee shop that day." "I realize now how incredibly painful that must've been for you." "I mean, not the me-leaving part, but the you-telling-the-truth part." "And, you know, I didn't handle it very well." "I wish I could've done better." "A year late, but..." "Anyway, I hope that you're well and that you're happy." "At least as happy as we can be, right?" "And, uh, really, this message is getting very long, and I'm gonna hang up very shortly, but..." "I just wanted to say sorry and to thank you... for everything." "Bright, are you there?" "It's me." "Look, I know you're in there." "Your truck is parked outside." " Hi." " Hey." "Okay." "The last two days, all I've been doing is thinking, like non-stop thinking, so, first of all, my head is killing me." " Hannah " " Hang on." "Let me finish." "The thing that all the thinking made me realize is that you were right." "No." "No, I wasn't." "Yeah, you were just being honest and trying to figure it out, and I wasn't." "See, I thought that my pretending to like parties or whatever was a compromise." "I had the whole thing rationalized in my brain." "You know, compromises make relationships." "Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah." "But that's not what I was doing." " It wasn't?" " No." "The truth is, I just didn't want you to think I was that same dorky girl you became friends with last year." "I thought that if you thought that, we never would've gotten this far, so I deliberately changed who I was -- a little -- to be someone who I thought you wanted until I couldn't even remember" "which was me and which was faking, which is so ironic since the only thing you've ever wanted is for me to be myself." "Hey, look, Hannah." "I made a mistake." "Me too." "And instead of dealing, I just freaked out and left." "And then when you called, I didn't call you back because I kind of wanted to punish you." "And I'm so sorry for that, Bright, because..." "Because the only thing I know for sure in my life is that I love you." "And I don't want to lose you." "I don't want that, either." "Then we can make this work." "I know we can." "We have to promise to be totally honest with each other from now on about everything, okay?" "Not talking to you was the worst two days of my life, and all I want to do is pretend it never happened." "Oh, me too." "Me too."