"Children use to create imaginary friends." "In this story I present a similar being." "His name is Leonardo Maurício Bentacour Sena, though he was born in Uruguay, he doesn't exist." "Sometimes when I'm alone I say his name out loud." "I don't want to stop calling him just because he's dead." "I don't believe in God, Leo did." "Tirelessly he tried to prove His existence." "Leo was the most spiritualized person I knew." "What brought us so close, what made us such good friends was our dedication to art and the fact that we shared the same horrific vision of human beings." "Leo would sacrifice himself for it, to seek personal elevation, maybe willing to save us." "You should know that he prayed for you, for your salvation." "I celebrated my second to last birthday in 1988." "I invited some friends over and bought some booze." "Leo played for us." "A friend kept insisting to show me her car which had had a little accident." "As we got near the car we were approached by these two individuals." "They surprised us and forced us into the car." ""Leave the girl"" "The car began to move." ""Faith was sending me a new present"" "The guy with the gun in my head started playing Russian roulette." ""suck me"" "There was a strange serenity in me." ""She Loves Me..." "She Loves Me Not"" "As if I was drowning I saw my life passing through my blindfolded eyes." "They had already made up their minds, there was only one doubt left:" ""We kill her then fuck him, or we kill him then fuck her"" "Time changed my serenity into despair." "It was then they decided:" ""Let's take them to the guys and have some fun!" "..."" "Then I remembered one of Leo's teachings." "His studies embraced many eastern religions, secret societies, the occult and also supernatural phenomena." "I didn't want to live through what was coming." "I could imagine." "Leo had once told me that when you undoubtedly wish for death, you would die." "As a suicide attempt, with all my mental force, in a supra human effort, I looked for to die." "I was dragged out of the car." "I struggled harder, I had very little time," "I had to die." "In the very instant my blindfold came out 80% of me died." "It was a surprise party." "Several pictures were taken during the episode." "This one was precisely the moment when the blindfold came out." "It's besides the point to say that I've never been the same again." "Not for the prank itself, but for my effort in dying." "During the next 2 years after the incident," "I've sunk." "I even touched the bottom." "Exactly two years after the party, this uncomfortable feeling had somatized." "My partial recovery was extremely slow and deeply painful." "At the peak of my illness I had spent three months lying on the floor at the same spot." "I would practically not eat or shower." "My nails would tear the flesh of neighboring fingers." "Leo visited me almost daily during that period." "He used to sit by my side silently watching over me." "Children believe in Santa Claus, grown-ups believe in God." "Children make up imaginary friends adults try to re-create lost ones." "Leo." "Leonardo Maurício Bentancour Sena was a virtuoso violinist, a tireless composer." "His exuberant melody would flow from flamenco and medieval music although flamenco was his challenge, his destiny." "In 1991 I met Lucimar, my reason." "Leo composed us in a song." "Leo created melodies of rare beauty and strength, intensity and subtlety, anger and gratefulness." "In 1997 Lucimar convinced me to have a birthday party which I had never celebrated again." "It was very nice to get a few good friends together." "Leo played for us." "Unfortunately in that same day Leo had received his diagnosis, or better saying, his sentence..." "Cancer." "Leo had a rough life his sense of humor filled with bilingual puns was actually an attempt to disguise his melancholy." "When his life threatened to reward his suffering, then came the disease with elevated suffering." "Leo seemed to recover fairly well ...and allegedly didn't know about the nature of his tumor ...if it was malign or not." "On July 1st I got his call." "Tato, his brother, sent me a message:" ""Leonardo Betancour is very ill"." "The next day I went to visit him." "His body had become the instrument of his pain, producing an infernal song written by a non- stop moaning and spasms of stabbing pain." "The feeling of seeing each other again..." "The whisper of his voice..." "The phony smile to spare us from that..." "The goddamned consciousness which kept with him till the last breath..." "The unacceptable resignation..." "The last time we talked" "Leo confessed that the worst moment of all was a dream he had during the morphine treatment." "In the dream Leo dropped into an abyss of fire." "He could feel his body burning in the flames, while he was falling he prayed that God purified his soul." "The dream was always the same." "In July 28th, Leonardo Maurício Betancour Sena ceased to exist." "Compared to his final suffering, merciful was the reap of death." "On that day a saying from the old "Don Ata" spoke for me" ""tomorrow at dawn thou shall hear the peasants a new call in the water, half singing, half screaming"." "Sorry if I don't present a surprise ending or engaging characters." "This is the last homage a faithless man pays a great friend." "Leo, may your God absolve you."