"Previously on "Felicity"," "Previously on "Felicity"," "Previously on "Felicity"," " You don't want me to go?" "." " No, you should come." " You don't want me to go?" "." " No, you should come." " You don't want me to go?" "." " No, you should come." "I should or you want me to?" "." "Maybe taking a break is a good idea." "I should or you want me to?" "." "Maybe taking a break is a good idea." "I should or you want me to?" "." "Maybe taking a break is a good idea." "I never mentioned breaking up." "I never mentioned breaking up." "I never mentioned breaking up." "It's tricky, not using those exact words." "It's tricky, not using those exact words." "It's tricky, not using those exact words." "If I go, I can't do the Berlin internship." "If I go, I can't do the Berlin internship." "If I go, I can't do the Berlin internship." "I've realised I have to go to Berlin." "I've realised I have to go to Berlin." "I've realised I have to go to Berlin." "So you will... come with me?" "." "So you will... come with me?" "." "So you will... come with me?" "." " Do you think I should?" "." " Yeah." " Do you think I should?" "." " Yeah." " Do you think I should?" "." " Yeah." "Dear Sally, OK, so I've been thinking about it," "Dear Sally, OK, so I've been thinking about it," "Dear Sally, OK, so I've been thinking about it, that moment I had with Ben, that moment I had with Ben, that moment I had with Ben," "And I've come to the conclusion that, obviously, it was all in my mind," "And I've come to the conclusion that, obviously, it was all in my mind," "And I've come to the conclusion that, obviously, it was all in my mind," "Or, at least, mostly," "Or, at least, mostly," "Or, at least, mostly," " I'm sorry." " What?" "." " I'm sorry." " What?" "." " I'm sorry." " What?" "." "You're staring." "We're busy and you're staring." "You're staring." "We're busy and you're staring." "You're staring." "We're busy and you're staring." " You should be stacking." " Sorry." " You should be stacking." " Sorry." " You should be stacking." " Sorry." "It's just part of my job to tell you, because I am the assistant manager." "It's just part of my job to tell you, because I am the assistant manager." "It's just part of my job to tell you, because I am the assistant manager." "I know." "You're right." "I know." "You're right." "I know." "You're right." "I'm not doing a great job, am I?" "." "I'm not doing a great job, am I?" "." "I'm not doing a great job, am I?" "." "I mean, good, but not great." "I mean, good, but not great." "I mean, good, but not great." "Danny, you're doing an excellent job." "Danny, you're doing an excellent job." "Danny, you're doing an excellent job." "OK." "You are the sweetest." "OK." "You are the sweetest." "OK." "You are the sweetest." "I hope you do come back here to work next year." "I hope you do come back here to work next year." "I hope you do come back here to work next year." "Me, too." "Me, too." "Me, too." "I mean, it seemed like Ben and I had an almost-kiss moment," "I mean, it seemed like Ben and I had an almost-kiss moment," "I mean, it seemed like Ben and I had an almost-kiss moment," "like Meghan's stupid love spell had actually worked," "like Meghan's stupid love spell had actually worked," "like Meghan's stupid love spell had actually worked, but what it was, I'm sure, was just a nothing moment but what it was, I'm sure, was just a nothing moment but what it was, I'm sure, was just a nothing moment" "that I perceived as something else, that I perceived as something else, that I perceived as something else," "Anyway, whatever it was, it's had the strangest effect," "Anyway, whatever it was, it's had the strangest effect," "Anyway, whatever it was, it's had the strangest effect," "It reminded me of why I decided to come to New York in the first place," "It reminded me of why I decided to come to New York in the first place," "It reminded me of why I decided to come to New York in the first place, of what it felt like in high school, of what I used to feel for Ben, of what it felt like in high school, of what I used to feel for Ben," "of what it felt like in high school, of what I used to feel for Ben," "But it was nothing, which is a good thing," "But it was nothing, which is a good thing," "But it was nothing, which is a good thing, because if it had been an actual, genuine almost-kiss moment, because if it had been an actual, genuine almost-kiss moment, because if it had been an actual, genuine almost-kiss moment," "life would get really complicated," "life would get really complicated," "life would get really complicated," "OK, what the hell was that?" "." "OK, what the hell was that?" "." "OK, what the hell was that?" "." " What?" "." " Did you and I almost kiss?" "." " What?" "." " Did you and I almost kiss?" "." " What?" "." " Did you and I almost kiss?" "." " I don't know." "Did we?" "." " I think we did." " I don't know." "Did we?" "." " I think we did." " I don't know." "Did we?" "." " I think we did." "I'm sorry, Ben." "Laurie needs to see you in the stockroom." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry, Ben." "Laurie needs to see you in the stockroom." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry, Ben." "Laurie needs to see you in the stockroom." "I'm sorry." " That's OK." " I really like your haircut." " That's OK." " I really like your haircut." " That's OK." " I really like your haircut." " Thanks, Danny." " Yeah." " Thanks, Danny." " Yeah." " Thanks, Danny." " Yeah." " This could get really complicated." " Yeah." " This could get really complicated." " Yeah." " This could get really complicated." " Yeah." "Sally, is it just me, or did this year go by faster than ever?" "." "Sally, is it just me, or did this year go by faster than ever?" "." "Sally, is it just me, or did this year go by faster than ever?" "." "I mean, it actually seems like time is speeding up." "I mean, it actually seems like time is speeding up." "I mean, it actually seems like time is speeding up." "Lately I've been getting up earlier every day, I don't know why," "Lately I've been getting up earlier every day, I don't know why," "Lately I've been getting up earlier every day, I don't know why," "I guess it's the excitement of the end of the year or something," "I guess it's the excitement of the end of the year or something," "I guess it's the excitement of the end of the year or something," "I've only got a few days left," "I've only got a few days left," "I've only got a few days left," "I started to pack up my stuff," "I started to pack up my stuff," "I started to pack up my stuff," "Anyway, in my closet, I found this thing on the wall," "Anyway, in my closet, I found this thing on the wall," "Anyway, in my closet, I found this thing on the wall," "It's a list of all the people who lived in this room before me," "It's a list of all the people who lived in this room before me," "It's a list of all the people who lived in this room before me," "It went back to 1 968," "It went back to 1 968," "It went back to 1 968," "Randall Clark, Melissa Stone, Keith Bradshaw, Patty Tagliabue," "Randall Clark, Melissa Stone, Keith Bradshaw, Patty Tagliabue," "Randall Clark, Melissa Stone, Keith Bradshaw, Patty Tagliabue," "I mean, these names, these people I've never heard of," "I mean, these names, these people I've never heard of," "I mean, these names, these people I've never heard of," "And I just started wondering, you know," "And I just started wondering, you know," "And I just started wondering, you know," "I wondered where they are today, you know," "I wondered where they are today, you know," "I wondered where they are today, you know, how much they remember of their freshman year." "how much they remember of their freshman year." "how much they remember of their freshman year." "I wondered if they're all still alive." "I wondered if they're all still alive." "I wondered if they're all still alive." "Breaking up sucks." "Breaking up sucks." "Breaking up sucks." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Are you still coming to Epstein Bar on Saturday?" "." "Are you still coming to Epstein Bar on Saturday?" "." "Are you still coming to Epstein Bar on Saturday?" "." "Definitely, yeah." "Definitely, yeah." "Definitely, yeah." "Good." "Thank you." "Good." "Thank you." "Good." "Thank you." "By the way, you know, I'm thinking, maybe I shouldn't even go with Ben." "By the way, you know, I'm thinking, maybe I shouldn't even go with Ben." "By the way, you know, I'm thinking, maybe I shouldn't even go with Ben." "Why?" "." "Don't not go on account of me." "Why?" "." "Don't not go on account of me." "Why?" "." "Don't not go on account of me." "Actually, you can't not go, because I was gonna ask you a favour." "Actually, you can't not go, because I was gonna ask you a favour." "Actually, you can't not go, because I was gonna ask you a favour." "What?" "." "What?" "." "What?" "." "Guys don't say "l need to be alone" unless they have another prospect." "Guys don't say "l need to be alone" unless they have another prospect." "Guys don't say "l need to be alone" unless they have another prospect." "So, when you're on the trip with Ben," "So, when you're on the trip with Ben," "So, when you're on the trip with Ben, if he gives you any signs that there's someone else, let me know." "if he gives you any signs that there's someone else, let me know." "if he gives you any signs that there's someone else, let me know." "OK." "OK." "OK." " I found it." " Good." "Thanks." " I found it." " Good." "Thanks." " I found it." " Good." "Thanks." "I couldn't find your computer disk, though." "I looked everywhere." "I couldn't find your computer disk, though." "I looked everywhere." "I couldn't find your computer disk, though." "I looked everywhere." "I know it's here somewhere." "I know it's here somewhere." "I know it's here somewhere." "I'd stay and look for it, but it's my last ethics class." "I'd stay and look for it, but it's my last ethics class." "I'd stay and look for it, but it's my last ethics class." "Right." "You can come back whenever you want." "Right." "You can come back whenever you want." "Right." "You can come back whenever you want." "Here." "Here." "Here." "Why don't you just keep 'em?" "." "You know you're coming back." "Why don't you just keep 'em?" "." "You know you're coming back." "Why don't you just keep 'em?" "." "You know you're coming back." "OK." "OK." "OK." " So are you living here next year?" "." " Yeah." " So are you living here next year?" "." " Yeah." " So are you living here next year?" "." " Yeah." "Sean's got some new guy coming in for the summer, then I'm coming back." "Sean's got some new guy coming in for the summer, then I'm coming back." "Sean's got some new guy coming in for the summer, then I'm coming back." "So, I guess I might not see you before you go." "So, I guess I might not see you before you go." "So, I guess I might not see you before you go." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Yeah." " I'll call you, OK?" "." " OK." " I'll call you, OK?" "." " OK." " I'll call you, OK?" "." " OK." "You know what?" "." "Don't call me." "You know what?" "." "Don't call me." "You know what?" "." "Don't call me." "And I don't mean that in a bitchy way." "I just..." "And I don't mean that in a bitchy way." "I just..." "And I don't mean that in a bitchy way." "I just..." "I don't really feel like looking forward to a phone call" "I don't really feel like looking forward to a phone call" "I don't really feel like looking forward to a phone call as awkward as this." "as awkward as this." "as awkward as this." "OK." "OK." "OK." " Have a good summer." " Yeah, you too." " Have a good summer." " Yeah, you too." " Have a good summer." " Yeah, you too." "Morning." "Morning." "Morning." " Come with me." " What?" "." " Come with me." " What?" "." " Come with me." " What?" "." "I was in bed last night, alone, which is weird." "I was in bed last night, alone, which is weird." "I was in bed last night, alone, which is weird." "and I had this epiphany." "Why don't you come with me?" "." "and I had this epiphany." "Why don't you come with me?" "." "and I had this epiphany." "Why don't you come with me?" "." "To Berlin?" "." "I have that job with Dr Kessler." "To Berlin?" "." "I have that job with Dr Kessler." "To Berlin?" "." "I have that job with Dr Kessler." "Just for two weeks." "The time you're supposed to drive with Ben." "Just for two weeks." "The time you're supposed to drive with Ben." "Just for two weeks." "The time you're supposed to drive with Ben." "I already ordered you a ticket." "I already ordered you a ticket." "I already ordered you a ticket." "My God!" "Noel!" "My God!" "Noel!" "My God!" "Noel!" "It's a huge deal taking a trip like this on your own, let alone with me," "It's a huge deal taking a trip like this on your own, let alone with me," "It's a huge deal taking a trip like this on your own, let alone with me, but I've thought this through and it's a genius move." "but I've thought this through and it's a genius move." "but I've thought this through and it's a genius move." "You can't afford to buy me a ticket." "You can't afford to buy me a ticket." "You can't afford to buy me a ticket." "You so underestimate my financial acumen." "You so underestimate my financial acumen." "You so underestimate my financial acumen." "It's refundable," "It's refundable," "It's refundable, so, on the off chance that you say no, nobody gets hurt." "so, on the off chance that you say no, nobody gets hurt." "so, on the off chance that you say no, nobody gets hurt." " I can't believe you." " Don't say yes now." " I can't believe you." " Don't say yes now." " I can't believe you." " Don't say yes now." " Think about it and say yes later." " OK." " Think about it and say yes later." " OK." " Think about it and say yes later." " OK." "OK, you'll go or OK, you'll think about it?" "." "OK, you'll go or OK, you'll think about it?" "." "OK, you'll go or OK, you'll think about it?" "." " OK, I'll think about it." " OK." " OK, I'll think about it." " OK." " OK, I'll think about it." " OK." "Which I really didn't have to do." "Which I really didn't have to do." "Which I really didn't have to do." "Who would say no to a trip to Europe with a guy you love?" "." "Who would say no to a trip to Europe with a guy you love?" "." "Who would say no to a trip to Europe with a guy you love?" "." "So, I decided to confront this Ben thing head on." "So, I decided to confront this Ben thing head on." "So, I decided to confront this Ben thing head on." "I'm heading over there right now," "I'm heading over there right now," "I'm heading over there right now," "Wish me luck," "Wish me luck," "Wish me luck," " I can't go." " You can't go with me?" "." " I can't go." " You can't go with me?" "." " I can't go." " You can't go with me?" "." " No." " Why?" "." " No." " Why?" "." " No." " Why?" "." " Why?" "." " Yeah." " Why?" "." " Yeah." " Why?" "." " Yeah." "There are a million reasons why." "There are a million reasons why." "There are a million reasons why." "I can think of no less than three reasons why." "I can think of no less than three reasons why." "I can think of no less than three reasons why." "Well, I'd like to hear those reasons." "Well, I'd like to hear those reasons." "Well, I'd like to hear those reasons." "OK, first of all, there is the Noel factor." "OK, first of all, there is the Noel factor." "OK, first of all, there is the Noel factor." " What, you think he'd get jealous?" "." " No." " What, you think he'd get jealous?" "." " No." " What, you think he'd get jealous?" "." " No." "He's far too mature for that." "He invited me to Berlin." "He's far too mature for that." "He invited me to Berlin." "He's far too mature for that." "He invited me to Berlin." " Berlin?" "." "Really?" "." " Really." " Berlin?" "." "Really?" "." " Really." " Berlin?" "." "Really?" "." " Really." "Secondly, there is the Julie factor, which is sort of killing me." "Secondly, there is the Julie factor, which is sort of killing me." "Secondly, there is the Julie factor, which is sort of killing me." "I know the Julie factor." "I know the Julie factor." "I know the Julie factor." "You know how Nicole made you uncomfortable around Lynn," "You know how Nicole made you uncomfortable around Lynn," "You know how Nicole made you uncomfortable around Lynn," " cos she was like..." " I know." " cos she was like..." " I know." " cos she was like..." " I know." "You're doing the same with me and Julie." "You're doing the same with me and Julie." "You're doing the same with me and Julie." " I feel bad hanging out with her." " But Lynn and Nicole were dating." " I feel bad hanging out with her." " But Lynn and Nicole were dating." " I feel bad hanging out with her." " But Lynn and Nicole were dating." " You and Julie just broke up." " Yeah, we broke up." " You and Julie just broke up." " Yeah, we broke up." " You and Julie just broke up." " Yeah, we broke up." "What's the third?" "." "What's the third?" "." "What's the third?" "." " We... both know what the third is." " Tell me." "What's the third?" "." " We... both know what the third is." " Tell me." "What's the third?" "." " We... both know what the third is." " Tell me." "What's the third?" "." "The moment." "The almost-kiss." "Don't pretend you don't know." "The moment." "The almost-kiss." "Don't pretend you don't know." "The moment." "The almost-kiss." "Don't pretend you don't know." "OK." "How is that a reason for us not to drive cross country?" "." "OK." "How is that a reason for us not to drive cross country?" "." "OK." "How is that a reason for us not to drive cross country?" "." "Because..." "Because..." "Because..." "Because?" "." "That's your reason?" "." "Because?" "." "Because?" "." "That's your reason?" "." "Because?" "." "Because?" "." "That's your reason?" "." "Because?" "." "Look, I don't know." "The Noel thing, you know..." "Look, I don't know." "The Noel thing, you know..." "Look, I don't know." "The Noel thing, you know..." "Berlin sounds great." "Maybe you should go with him." "Berlin sounds great." "Maybe you should go with him." "Berlin sounds great." "Maybe you should go with him." "The Julie factor,..." "The Julie factor,..." "The Julie factor,... ..I don't really know what to say about that." "..I don't really know what to say about that." "..I don't really know what to say about that." "And the third thing is only an issue because we did not kiss," "And the third thing is only an issue because we did not kiss," "And the third thing is only an issue because we did not kiss, so it's like this big, unanswered question." "so it's like this big, unanswered question." "so it's like this big, unanswered question." "Yeah, I think you're exactly right." "Yeah, I think you're exactly right." "Yeah, I think you're exactly right." "I've wanted to do that for a long time." "I've wanted to do that for a long time." "I've wanted to do that for a long time." " Where are you going?" "." " I don't know." "It's a flight reflex." " Where are you going?" "." " I don't know." "It's a flight reflex." " Where are you going?" "." " I don't know." "It's a flight reflex." "Felicity." "Felicity." "Felicity." "Hi." "What are you doing?" "." "Hi." "What are you doing?" "." "Hi." "What are you doing?" "." "I was just working on the hard sell." "I was just working on the hard sell." "I was just working on the hard sell." "What does that mean?" "." "What does that mean?" "." "What does that mean?" "." "Just a little Berlin slide show" "Just a little Berlin slide show" "Just a little Berlin slide show to give you an idea of what you'd be missing in case you say no." "to give you an idea of what you'd be missing in case you say no." "to give you an idea of what you'd be missing in case you say no." "Yes." "Yes." "Yes." "Yes?" "." "Yes?" "." "Yes?" "." " Yeah." "Yes." " Yes." " Yeah." "Yes." " Yes." " Yeah." "Yes." " Yes." "And thank you for asking." "And thank you for asking." "And thank you for asking." "Do you realise how amazing this is going to be?" "." "Do you realise how amazing this is going to be?" "." "Do you realise how amazing this is going to be?" "." "I know." "I haven't told my parents yet, but I'm sure they'll be fine." "I know." "I haven't told my parents yet, but I'm sure they'll be fine." "I know." "I haven't told my parents yet, but I'm sure they'll be fine." "Really?" "." "Really?" "." "Really?" "." "They're gonna have a huge problem with it." "They're gonna have a huge problem with it." "They're gonna have a huge problem with it." " Yeah, OK." " That'll be their initial reaction." " Yeah, OK." " That'll be their initial reaction." " Yeah, OK." " That'll be their initial reaction." "Don't worry about my parents." "We're going." "Don't worry about my parents." "We're going." "Don't worry about my parents." "We're going." "We're going." "My God!" "We're going." "My God!" "We're going." "My God!" " This is so good." " I know." " This is so good." " I know." " This is so good." " I know." " Ben kissed you?" "." " Would you keep your voice down!" " Ben kissed you?" "." " Would you keep your voice down!" " Ben kissed you?" "." " Would you keep your voice down!" " And you wanna go with Noel?" "." " You don't think that's right?" "." " And you wanna go with Noel?" "." " You don't think that's right?" "." " And you wanna go with Noel?" "." " You don't think that's right?" "." "No." "Neither do you." "Go with Ben." "No." "Neither do you." "Go with Ben." "No." "Neither do you." "Go with Ben." "If Julie were here, I'd say the same thing." "If Julie were here, I'd say the same thing." "If Julie were here, I'd say the same thing." "Good morning." "Good morning." "Good morning." "For the last time." "For the last time." "For the last time." "Look what I've got." "Look what I've got." "Look what I've got." " Damn it." " What?" "." " Damn it." " What?" "." " Damn it." " What?" "." " I messed up on this final." " You always say that." " I messed up on this final." " You always say that." " I messed up on this final." " You always say that." " No, this time, I mean it." " Did McGrath say something?" "." " No, this time, I mean it." " Did McGrath say something?" "." " No, this time, I mean it." " Did McGrath say something?" "." "Miss Porter." "Miss Porter." "Miss Porter." " Miss Tyler." " I'm sure you did great." " Miss Tyler." " I'm sure you did great." " Miss Tyler." " I'm sure you did great." "See, you did better than I did." "See, you did better than I did." "See, you did better than I did." "Elena's obviously wrong." "I couldn't even consider going with Ben, right?" "." "Elena's obviously wrong." "I couldn't even consider going with Ben, right?" "." "Elena's obviously wrong." "I couldn't even consider going with Ben, right?" "." "So..." "So..." "So..." "This is it." "This is it." "This is it." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Have a good time... at Wicca Camp." "Have a good time... at Wicca Camp." "Have a good time... at Wicca Camp." "Thanks." "Thanks." "Thanks." "See you." "See you." "See you." "Second week of school, I wrote something down," "Second week of school, I wrote something down," "Second week of school, I wrote something down," "I put it in an envelope and sealed it shut." "I put it in an envelope and sealed it shut." "I put it in an envelope and sealed it shut." ""There's no chance in hell" ""There's no chance in hell" ""There's no chance in hell" "Felicity's going to make it through the whole year"'" "Felicity's going to make it through the whole year"'" "Felicity's going to make it through the whole year"'" "It's what I thought." "I was gonna give it to you when you left," "It's what I thought." "I was gonna give it to you when you left," "It's what I thought." "I was gonna give it to you when you left, as an "l told you so", but you made it." "as an "l told you so", but you made it." "as an "l told you so", but you made it." "Anyway, I'm impressed." "Anyway, I'm impressed." "Anyway, I'm impressed." "Thanks." "Thanks." "Thanks." "Where are you living next year?" "." "Where are you living next year?" "." "Where are you living next year?" "." "Somewhere in the dorm." "I... think I might be an RA." "Somewhere in the dorm." "I... think I might be an RA." "Somewhere in the dorm." "I... think I might be an RA." "Me, too." "Me, too." "Me, too." "See you." "See you." "See you." "Come in." "Come in." "Come in." "Hi." "Hi." "Hi." " So you've been avoiding me?" "." " Yeah." " So you've been avoiding me?" "." " Yeah." " So you've been avoiding me?" "." " Yeah." "Well, I got your message, but I gotta say I don't agree with it." "Well, I got your message, but I gotta say I don't agree with it." "Well, I got your message, but I gotta say I don't agree with it." "I really want you to come with me." "I really want you to come with me." "I really want you to come with me." " I think that's really kind, but..." " It's not kind." "It's what I want." " I think that's really kind, but..." " It's not kind." "It's what I want." " I think that's really kind, but..." " It's not kind." "It's what I want." "I understand what you're saying about Noel and Julie," "I understand what you're saying about Noel and Julie," "I understand what you're saying about Noel and Julie, but I have this feeling it's what you want, too." "but I have this feeling it's what you want, too." "but I have this feeling it's what you want, too." "I'm going with Noel." "We have this whole plan." "I'm going with Noel." "We have this whole plan." "I'm going with Noel." "We have this whole plan." "So did we until you changed your mind." "So did we until you changed your mind." "So did we until you changed your mind." "I can't go with you because that would make me the devil." "I can't go with you because that would make me the devil." "I can't go with you because that would make me the devil." " The devil?" "." " Yes." " The devil?" "." " Yes." " The devil?" "." " Yes." "Because it would be a direct affront to both Julie and to Noel." "Because it would be a direct affront to both Julie and to Noel." "Because it would be a direct affront to both Julie and to Noel." "You and I both know that if we were to drive across country..." "You and I both know that if we were to drive across country..." "You and I both know that if we were to drive across country..." "I mean, it would never be platonic." "I mean, it would never be platonic." "I mean, it would never be platonic." "So?" "." "So?" "." "So?" "." " Ben!" " Fine." "We'll make it platonic." " Ben!" " Fine." "We'll make it platonic." " Ben!" " Fine." "We'll make it platonic." "I don't care." "I just wanna go with you." "We'll do it as friends." "I don't care." "I just wanna go with you." "We'll do it as friends." "I don't care." "I just wanna go with you." "We'll do it as friends." "That's great." "I swear to God." "That's great." "I swear to God." "That's great." "I swear to God." "I just don't see how this could work." "I just don't see how this could work." "I just don't see how this could work." " Come here." " What?" "." " Come here." " What?" "." " Come here." " What?" "." " Just come and sit down." " Why?" "." " Just come and sit down." " Why?" "." " Just come and sit down." " Why?" "." "Come on." "I'm not gonna do anything." "Come on." "I'm not gonna do anything." "Come on." "I'm not gonna do anything." "Just come and sit down." "Just come and sit down." "Just come and sit down." "OK." "We are in the car." "OK." "We are in the car." "OK." "We are in the car." " This is stupid." " It's not stupid." " This is stupid." " It's not stupid." " This is stupid." " It's not stupid." "I'm just trying to prove a point here, OK?" "." "I'm just trying to prove a point here, OK?" "." "I'm just trying to prove a point here, OK?" "." "OK, I'm driving." "OK, I'm driving." "OK, I'm driving." "I'm sorry." "Did you wanna drive?" "." "I'm sorry." "Did you wanna drive?" "." "I'm sorry." "Did you wanna drive?" "." " No, you go ahead and drive." " OK, I'm driving." " No, you go ahead and drive." " OK, I'm driving." " No, you go ahead and drive." " OK, I'm driving." "This is a smooth ride, wouldn't you say?" "." "Yeah." "This is a smooth ride, wouldn't you say?" "." "Yeah." "This is a smooth ride, wouldn't you say?" "." "Yeah." "What happens when we go to a motel and there's only one bed?" "." "What happens when we go to a motel and there's only one bed?" "." "What happens when we go to a motel and there's only one bed?" "." " One bed?" "." " Yeah." " One bed?" "." " Yeah." " One bed?" "." " Yeah." "Lie down." "Lie down." "Lie down." " Come on." " Just try." " Come on." " Just try." " Come on." " Just try." " See?" "." " OK, this could never work." " See?" "." " OK, this could never work." " See?" "." " OK, this could never work." " What?" "." " I think you should leave." " What?" "." " I think you should leave." " What?" "." " I think you should leave." "Look, I know you wanna go, or at least you're thinking about me a bit." "Look, I know you wanna go, or at least you're thinking about me a bit." "Look, I know you wanna go, or at least you're thinking about me a bit." "How do you know that?" "." "How do you know that?" "." "How do you know that?" "." "Because you started wearing that necklace again, the one I got you." "Because you started wearing that necklace again, the one I got you." "Because you started wearing that necklace again, the one I got you." " OK." "Let's go." " Why?" "." " OK." "Let's go." " Why?" "." " OK." "Let's go." " Why?" "." "Come on." "Come on." "Come on." " You should think about it." " I've thought it through, thanks." " You should think about it." " I've thought it through, thanks." " You should think about it." " I've thought it through, thanks." " Could you hold that, please?" "." " Hi." " Could you hold that, please?" "." " Hi." " Could you hold that, please?" "." " Hi." " How's it going?" "." " Good." " How's it going?" "." " Good." " How's it going?" "." " Good." "Just dropping off my last RA report." "Just dropping off my last RA report." "Just dropping off my last RA report." " Have you got a passport yet?" "." " Not yet." " Have you got a passport yet?" "." " Not yet." " Have you got a passport yet?" "." " Not yet." " We only have a few days." " I'm gonna go tomorrow." " We only have a few days." " I'm gonna go tomorrow." " We only have a few days." " I'm gonna go tomorrow." "OK, good." "We're... going to Berlin." "OK, good." "We're... going to Berlin." "OK, good." "We're... going to Berlin." " Yeah, that's what Felicity says." " Yeah." " Yeah, that's what Felicity says." " Yeah." " Yeah, that's what Felicity says." " Yeah." " Where are you going?" " Berlin," " Where are you going?" " Berlin," " Where are you going?" " Berlin," " Berlin?" "Nice, Really nice," " Have you been there?" " Berlin?" "Nice, Really nice," " Have you been there?" " Berlin?" "Nice, Really nice," " Have you been there?" "No, but people tell me, Do you speak German?" "No, but people tell me, Do you speak German?" "No, but people tell me, Do you speak German?" " No," " No, you don't need it," " No," " No, you don't need it," " No," " No, you don't need it," "OK, look right here, where my finger is." "OK, look right here, where my finger is." "OK, look right here, where my finger is." "This finger." "It'll just be a second." "This finger." "It'll just be a second." "This finger." "It'll just be a second." " Have you driven across the country?" "." " The United States?" "." "Yeah, once." " Have you driven across the country?" "." " The United States?" "." "Yeah, once." " Have you driven across the country?" "." " The United States?" "." "Yeah, once." "How was it?" "." "How was it?" "." "How was it?" "." "It was one of the best times I've ever had." "It was one of the best times I've ever had." "It was one of the best times I've ever had." " Really?" "." " Yeah, maybe the best." "It was great." " Really?" "." " Yeah, maybe the best." "It was great." " Really?" "." " Yeah, maybe the best." "It was great." "You've gotta do that." "You don't even need a passport." "You just go." "You've gotta do that." "You don't even need a passport." "You just go." "You've gotta do that." "You don't even need a passport." "You just go." "It's such a romantic thing, driving cross country." "It's such a romantic thing, driving cross country." "It's such a romantic thing, driving cross country." "OK." "Ready?" "." "OK." "Ready?" "." "OK." "Ready?" "." " Have a nice trip." " Thanks." " Have a nice trip." " Thanks." " Have a nice trip." " Thanks." "Wherever you go." "Wherever you go." "Wherever you go." "I know who Ben likes." "I know who Ben likes." "I know who Ben likes." "Did he talk to you?" "." "Did he talk to you?" "." "Did he talk to you?" "." "No, Lynn did, and he told me about Nicole." "No, Lynn did, and he told me about Nicole." "No, Lynn did, and he told me about Nicole." " Nicole?" "." " It's so obvious." " Nicole?" "." " It's so obvious." " Nicole?" "." " It's so obvious." "They were swimming together, always hanging out." "Of course it was her." "They were swimming together, always hanging out." "Of course it was her." "They were swimming together, always hanging out." "Of course it was her." " So you think that Ben likes Nicole?" "." " Yeah." " So you think that Ben likes Nicole?" "." " Yeah." " So you think that Ben likes Nicole?" "." " Yeah." "I guess she was making moves on him and that's why Lynn and her broke up." "I guess she was making moves on him and that's why Lynn and her broke up." "I guess she was making moves on him and that's why Lynn and her broke up." " Can you believe that?" "." " God." " Can you believe that?" "." " God." " Can you believe that?" "." " God." "Did you know about that?" "." "About Nicole?" "." "Did you know about that?" "." "About Nicole?" "." "Did you know about that?" "." "About Nicole?" "." "You knew she was going after Ben and you didn't tell me?" "." "You knew she was going after Ben and you didn't tell me?" "." "You knew she was going after Ben and you didn't tell me?" "." "He mentioned something at work" "He mentioned something at work" "He mentioned something at work about... her paying a lot of attention to him." "about... her paying a lot of attention to him." "about... her paying a lot of attention to him." "How could you not tell me that?" "." "How could you not tell me that?" "." "How could you not tell me that?" "." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "I don't think he likes Nicole." "I don't think he likes Nicole." "I don't think he likes Nicole." "That's what Lynn said." "But if it's not her, who is it?" "." "That's what Lynn said." "But if it's not her, who is it?" "." "That's what Lynn said." "But if it's not her, who is it?" "." "I should have just come out and said, "Julie, I can't believe this," "I should have just come out and said, "Julie, I can't believe this," "I should have just come out and said, "Julie, I can't believe this, but I think the girl he likes might be me"' but I think the girl he likes might be me"'" "but I think the girl he likes might be me"'" "But if I'd said that, she would have asked me what I felt about Ben" "But if I'd said that, she would have asked me what I felt about Ben" "But if I'd said that, she would have asked me what I felt about Ben and..." "I don't know how I would have answered that question." "and..." "I don't know how I would have answered that question." "and..." "I don't know how I would have answered that question." "I started to wonder, I mean, maybe Elena was right," "I started to wonder, I mean, maybe Elena was right," "I started to wonder, I mean, maybe Elena was right," "What would be wrong with considering going with Ben?" "What would be wrong with considering going with Ben?" "What would be wrong with considering going with Ben?" "Considering doesn't hurt anyone, right?" "Considering doesn't hurt anyone, right?" "Considering doesn't hurt anyone, right?" "So, what if we did this?" "." "So, what if we did this?" "." "So, what if we did this?" "." " I shouldn't even be here." " I'm glad you're here." " I shouldn't even be here." " I'm glad you're here." " I shouldn't even be here." " I'm glad you're here." "I was in bed last night, just trying to figure it all out." "I was in bed last night, just trying to figure it all out." "I was in bed last night, just trying to figure it all out." "Like, what it would mean if we went together." "Like, what it would mean if we went together." "Like, what it would mean if we went together." "How come everything has to have so much meaning?" "." "How come everything has to have so much meaning?" "." "How come everything has to have so much meaning?" "." "I've never met someone so desperate for meaning." "I've never met someone so desperate for meaning." "I've never met someone so desperate for meaning." "Look, I'm leaving tonight." "Are you gonna come with me?" "." "Look, I'm leaving tonight." "Are you gonna come with me?" "." "Look, I'm leaving tonight." "Are you gonna come with me?" "." "I can't be having this conversation because I'm the devil." "I can't be having this conversation because I'm the devil." "I can't be having this conversation because I'm the devil." "You keep saying you're the devil." "You are not the devil." "You keep saying you're the devil." "You are not the devil." "You keep saying you're the devil." "You are not the devil." " What if I am, then what?" "." " I'd still want you to come with me." " What if I am, then what?" "." " I'd still want you to come with me." " What if I am, then what?" "." " I'd still want you to come with me." "First of all, you would not want me to go with you if I were the devil." "First of all, you would not want me to go with you if I were the devil." "First of all, you would not want me to go with you if I were the devil." "And, secondly, it's not just us." "And, secondly, it's not just us." "And, secondly, it's not just us." " There are other people involved." " But I like you." "I can't help it." " There are other people involved." " But I like you." "I can't help it." " There are other people involved." " But I like you." "I can't help it." "I mean, you're crazy and you analyse everything," "I mean, you're crazy and you analyse everything," "I mean, you're crazy and you analyse everything, and that kinda scared me at first, but, I don't know, and that kinda scared me at first, but, I don't know," "and that kinda scared me at first, but, I don't know, you're really smart about things and you've been a good friend to me." "you're really smart about things and you've been a good friend to me." "you're really smart about things and you've been a good friend to me." "And I really like you." "And I really like you." "And I really like you." "Look, we have a chance to go on this trip together" "Look, we have a chance to go on this trip together" "Look, we have a chance to go on this trip together and I really wanna do it." "and I really wanna do it." "and I really wanna do it." "I wanna do it, too." "I wanna do it, too." "I wanna do it, too." "I found my disk." "I found my disk." "I found my disk." "Julie, I am really sorry..." "that you heard that." "Julie, I am really sorry..." "that you heard that." "Julie, I am really sorry..." "that you heard that." "I should have come to you and told you something up front." "I should have come to you and told you something up front." "I should have come to you and told you something up front." "No, that would have been hard." "No, that would have been hard." "No, that would have been hard." "How do you tell somebody you're trying to steal their boyfriend?" "." "How do you tell somebody you're trying to steal their boyfriend?" "." "How do you tell somebody you're trying to steal their boyfriend?" "." "That's not what I was doing." "That's not what I was doing." "That's not what I was doing." "God!" "When I was asking you if you thought there was another woman," "God!" "When I was asking you if you thought there was another woman," "God!" "When I was asking you if you thought there was another woman," "I had no idea I was talking to her." "I had no idea I was talking to her." "I had no idea I was talking to her." " Julie..." " He's a good kisser, isn't he?" "." " Julie..." " He's a good kisser, isn't he?" "." " Julie..." " He's a good kisser, isn't he?" "." "I did not plan this." "I did not plan this." "I did not plan this." "Julie..." "I am so sorry." "Julie..." "I am so sorry." "Julie..." "I am so sorry." "I don't care what the hell you are." "I don't care what the hell you are." "I don't care what the hell you are." "You can be sorry or not." "It doesn't matter to me." "You can be sorry or not." "It doesn't matter to me." "You can be sorry or not." "It doesn't matter to me." "You're just a lying bitch." "You're just a lying bitch." "You're just a lying bitch." "I don't know what to say." "I don't know what to say." "I don't know what to say." "You don't have to say anything." "I want you to leave." "You don't have to say anything." "I want you to leave." "You don't have to say anything." "I want you to leave." " Julie, I'm not going with Ben." " I mean it." "Just get out of here." " Julie, I'm not going with Ben." " I mean it." "Just get out of here." " Julie, I'm not going with Ben." " I mean it." "Just get out of here." "I mean, I'm not going with Ben, I'm... going to Berlin with Noel." "I mean, I'm not going with Ben, I'm... going to Berlin with Noel." "I mean, I'm not going with Ben, I'm... going to Berlin with Noel." "I'm not really sure that you're going to Berlin with Noel." "I'm not really sure that you're going to Berlin with Noel." "I'm not really sure that you're going to Berlin with Noel." " What?" "." " I told him." " What?" "." " I told him." " What?" "." " I told him." "How could you do that?" "." "How could you do that?" "." "How could you do that?" "." "Can we just talk?" "." "Can we just talk?" "." "Can we just talk?" "." "I want that ticket back." "You know, obviously." "I want that ticket back." "You know, obviously." "I want that ticket back." "You know, obviously." "I just hope this whole year wasn't for nothing," "I just hope this whole year wasn't for nothing," "I just hope this whole year wasn't for nothing," "I hope I learned something," "I hope I learned something," "I hope I learned something," "When I came here, I didn't know anyone." "When I came here, I didn't know anyone." "When I came here, I didn't know anyone." "Even the boy I followed to New York was a stranger." "Even the boy I followed to New York was a stranger." "Even the boy I followed to New York was a stranger." "Which, it turns out, is why I followed him to New York." "Which, it turns out, is why I followed him to New York." "Which, it turns out, is why I followed him to New York." "There are people here that I'd never met..." "There are people here that I'd never met..." "There are people here that I'd never met..." "..who just became so important to me." "..who just became so important to me." "..who just became so important to me." "It's, like..." "I don't know..." "It's, like..." "I don't know..." "It's, like..." "I don't know..." "I guess they just felt like real friends." "I guess they just felt like real friends." "I guess they just felt like real friends." "I bet you get this a lot, right?" "." "I bet you get this a lot, right?" "." "I bet you get this a lot, right?" "." "Kids at the end of the year crying about the way things turned out." "Kids at the end of the year crying about the way things turned out." "Kids at the end of the year crying about the way things turned out." "Are you still thinking about becoming an RA?" "." "Are you still thinking about becoming an RA?" "." "Are you still thinking about becoming an RA?" "." "I don't think so." "I don't think so." "I don't think so." " Really?" "." " Yeah." " Really?" "." " Yeah." " Really?" "." " Yeah." "I'm kinda feeling like, who am I to be giving anyone advice?" "." "I'm kinda feeling like, who am I to be giving anyone advice?" "." "I'm kinda feeling like, who am I to be giving anyone advice?" "." "You're someone who's been through it." "You're someone who's been through it." "You're someone who's been through it." "So... see you next year?" "." "So... see you next year?" "." "So... see you next year?" "." "Hi." "Hi." "Hi." " I thought you left." " I did." " I thought you left." " I did." " I thought you left." " I did." "I left and then I came back." "I left and then I came back." "I left and then I came back." " Why?" "." " Why do you think?" "." " Why?" "." " Why do you think?" "." " Why?" "." " Why do you think?" "." "You didn't come back for me?" "." "You didn't come back for me?" "." "You didn't come back for me?" "." "Yeah, I did." "Yeah, I did." "Yeah, I did." "I was driving, trying to think of some great reason to come back," "I was driving, trying to think of some great reason to come back," "I was driving, trying to think of some great reason to come back, something else to say to try to convince you." "something else to say to try to convince you." "something else to say to try to convince you." "I know if you were me, you'd have some great reason," "I know if you were me, you'd have some great reason," "I know if you were me, you'd have some great reason, some big speech with all this meaning." "some big speech with all this meaning." "some big speech with all this meaning." "But..." "I don't have that." "But..." "I don't have that." "But..." "I don't have that." "All I have is that I like you." "All I have is that I like you." "All I have is that I like you." "And that I got as far as Harrisburg but I came back," "And that I got as far as Harrisburg but I came back," "And that I got as far as Harrisburg but I came back, so maybe there's some meaning in that." "so maybe there's some meaning in that." "so maybe there's some meaning in that." " Ben." " I never wanted to hurt Julie." " Ben." " I never wanted to hurt Julie." " Ben." " I never wanted to hurt Julie." "I can't stand how screwed up this is." "I can't stand how screwed up this is." "I can't stand how screwed up this is." "But, at the same time,..." "But, at the same time,..." "But, at the same time,..." "I can't help how I feel." "I can't help how I feel." "I can't help how I feel." "So, this is the last time I'm gonna ask." "So, this is the last time I'm gonna ask." "So, this is the last time I'm gonna ask." "Will you come with me?" "." "Please." "Will you come with me?" "." "Please." "Will you come with me?" "." "Please." "Cos I already know it's a better trip if we're together." "Cos I already know it's a better trip if we're together." "Cos I already know it's a better trip if we're together." "Alright, look, I'm gonna go back to the loft." "Alright, look, I'm gonna go back to the loft." "Alright, look, I'm gonna go back to the loft." "I'm gonna wait till ten and if you're not there that's cool," "I'm gonna wait till ten and if you're not there that's cool," "I'm gonna wait till ten and if you're not there that's cool," "I'll see you in the summer, OK?" "." "I'll see you in the summer, OK?" "." "I'll see you in the summer, OK?" "." "I can't believe you came back." "I can't believe you came back." "I can't believe you came back." "Yeah, I know." "Yeah, I know." "Yeah, I know." "It turns out Noel left me this incredible letter," "It turns out Noel left me this incredible letter," "It turns out Noel left me this incredible letter," "This is what he wrote," "This is what he wrote," "This is what he wrote," ""Dear Felicity"'" ""Dear Felicity"'" ""Dear Felicity"'" ""Although it's true, it seems impossible"'" ""Although it's true, it seems impossible"'" ""Although it's true, it seems impossible"'" ""Nine months ago, I didn't even know you"'" ""Nine months ago, I didn't even know you"'" ""Nine months ago, I didn't even know you"'" ""Now I can say with absolute certainty" ""Now I can say with absolute certainty" ""Now I can say with absolute certainty that there's no one on the planet who means more to me than you"' that there's no one on the planet who means more to me than you"'" "that there's no one on the planet who means more to me than you"'" ""Whatever happened with you and Ben," ""Whatever happened with you and Ben," ""Whatever happened with you and Ben, whatever happens with you and anyone, whatever happens with you and anyone, whatever happens with you and anyone, it could never change the way I feel"' it could never change the way I feel"'" "it could never change the way I feel"'" ""So, with that, I conclude this sappy yet sincere letter" ""So, with that, I conclude this sappy yet sincere letter" ""So, with that, I conclude this sappy yet sincere letter and ask you to please seriously consider using the enclosed"' and ask you to please seriously consider using the enclosed"' and ask you to please seriously consider using the enclosed"'" ""Love, Noel"'" ""Love, Noel"'" ""Love, Noel"'" "When I was six years old, I had an ant farm." "When I was six years old, I had an ant farm." "When I was six years old, I had an ant farm." "After a few months, I opened the top, left it outside," "After a few months, I opened the top, left it outside," "After a few months, I opened the top, left it outside," "The next day, the farm was empty, All the ants were gone," "The next day, the farm was empty, All the ants were gone," "The next day, the farm was empty, All the ants were gone," "But they'd left behind these tunnels," "But they'd left behind these tunnels," "But they'd left behind these tunnels, all these empty spaces they'd been living and working in for months, all these empty spaces they'd been living and working in for months, all these empty spaces they'd been living and working in for months," "I remember staring at this empty ant farm and noticing one last ant," "I remember staring at this empty ant farm and noticing one last ant," "I remember staring at this empty ant farm and noticing one last ant, still inside, still moving little grains of sand." "still inside, still moving little grains of sand." "still inside, still moving little grains of sand." "I watched him for a while until he began making his way" "I watched him for a while until he began making his way" "I watched him for a while until he began making his way through the maze of tunnels and finally climbing out the top, through the maze of tunnels and finally climbing out the top, through the maze of tunnels and finally climbing out the top," "Anyway, once he was outside on the grass, he just stopped," "Anyway, once he was outside on the grass, he just stopped," "Anyway, once he was outside on the grass, he just stopped," "I swear to God it was like he was trying to decide which way to go," "I swear to God it was like he was trying to decide which way to go," "I swear to God it was like he was trying to decide which way to go," "But then, finally, off he went," "But then, finally, off he went," "But then, finally, off he went," "So, here's the thing, I've made a decision," "So, here's the thing, I've made a decision," "So, here's the thing, I've made a decision," "I'm not flying home by myself," "I'm not flying home by myself," "I'm not flying home by myself," "I didn't have to make a decision between Ben and Noel, but I did," "I didn't have to make a decision between Ben and Noel, but I did," "I didn't have to make a decision between Ben and Noel, but I did," "So, where to?" "." "So, where to?" "." "So, where to?" "." "I'll be home in a few weeks and I'll send you a tape when I get there," "I'll be home in a few weeks and I'll send you a tape when I get there," "I'll be home in a few weeks and I'll send you a tape when I get there," "Love, Felicity," "Love, Felicity," "Love, Felicity,"