"LOVERS WITHOUT LOVE" "Sanremo!" "Sanremo!" "Sir!" "Sir!" "Your suitcase!" "Give it to me, I know him." "He's the director of the Maria Pia clinic." "Ticket, please." "Dr. Leonardi!" "I've been waiting for two days." "I would like.." "Don't stop at the house, I'm going to the clinic." "Oh, sir, there's Mr.." " Miller." "I know." "Look, Nora.." "I left my bag on the train." "Go to the station, find it, call Ventimiglia." "But I'll be late." " Come back tomorrow, sleep at your daughter's." "Let me get my shawl." " No, there's no time." "Hurry up, go." "Piero!" "Piero, no!" "Piero, listen!" "Piero!" "Piero, listen to me!" "Piero, listen!" "Piero!" "Bravo!" " Encore!" "Unfortunately, I arrived late." " Maestro, they want an encore." "Not tonight." " They insist Maestro." " Please." " Tonight, it's impossible." "Maestro, Mr. Stucchi from Milan wants to talk to you about those three concerts." "Should I let him in?" " No, take care of it." "I've told you so many times!" "Set dates, make contracts, but keep businessmen away from me!" "Maestro, they insist." " I already said no!" " Go on." "Excuse me." "I don't want to see anyone." "What only matters now is leaving." "You understand?" "Send the luggage to the station." "Take care of it all." "Buy the tickets." "I'm terribly tired and I want to be alone until we leave." "The seats are reserved for tomorrow morning." "And then we were invited to eat by the head of the casino." "We agreed." "What "agreed"?" "I can't!" "Do you think I'm a machine?" "May I?" "Maestro, it's Mr. Stucchi from Milan." "Enter." " No, look, I can't.." "I don't want to intrude.." " Talk to him." "Sorry, I can't now." "I wanted to remind you that you're dining with us tonight." "No, I can't." " But that's not possible, everything already prepared." "Sorry, I'm spent." "You don't realize what a concert like this does to me." "I need rest." "I don't want to see anyone." "I'm not eating, I'm not.." "See him?" "Look, I'm not alone." "Oh, if it's for that, we know the doctor and he can dine with us." "But no, the Maestro is tired." " You never understand anything." "Let's go dine." "Did you like the concert?" " I arrived late." "Too bad, it was a great concert." "The audience went crazy." " Yes, I know." "Music creates these hysterical states and transports people into the mind of he who wrote it or he who performed it." "You speak as a doctor." " No, as a man." "Let's go, I'm ready." " Doctor.." "Maestro.." "Sit down, Maestro." "Doctor, please." "Have a seat." "Please." "You see, classical no, but for this kind of music, I agree with you." "On the contrary." "Dance and jazz are less immoral." "Because they're less hypocritical." " If you say so.." "What can I serve?" " Anything." "You decide." "Aren't you hungry?" " Not at all." "Please, sir." " No, bring me a cognac." " Doctor, won't you eat anything?" " No." "Serve at once." " Good, sir." "You see that girl?" "All women are like that." "But she doesn't try to hide what she is, as the others do." "And the fault is ours." " How is it our fault?" "We teach them from childhood that their only purpose is to please." "And they learn it well." "It's become almost an instinct for them." "Exactly." "That's why I'm a bachelor." "Don't talk nonsense, please." " No, he's right." "How do we choose our wives?" "The same way you'd choose a woman to spend the night with." "We meet a girl, we're attracted to her body." "And if we can't have her any other way, we marry her." "And then talk of spiritual affinity." "Again, I don't agree with you." " You're wrong." "But, I repeat, the fault is not theirs." "It's we who make them so." "Excuse me, but some women have qualities superior to ours." "That may be, but that's not why we marry them." "And if they have, we neither care to understand or appreciate it." "But there are happy marriages." "Yes, of course." "For every man there's a perfect woman, but he almost never finds her." "That one, at least, has her cards on the table." "She's more fair." "The music and dance are admittedly pretexts." "Instead there are those who hide their game behind ideas, art." "It's the most degrading cowardice I know." "I'd better leave." "Bring my stuff to the hotel." "See you at the station." "Excuse me, but I have to pack." "Look, the train leaves at 4:10." "You still have three hours." "I know, but I have to take care of a few things." " Then I'll go with you." "But if there are still three hours, why don't we go to the club?" "Yes, let's go try our luck." "There's a follow up." "The follow up passes, passes, passes, passes." "Bank at 20,000." "Bank!" " A bet on the bank." "Eight on the bank." "Bank at 39,000. 39,000 bank." "Gentlemen, place your bets." "39,000 bank." "There's a follow up. 39,000 bank." "Bank." " The bank passes." "Bank." "No, I stay." " Nine." " The bank has nine. - 100,000 on the bank." "Bank of 100,000." "Gentlemen, place your bets." "Place your bets, gentlemen." "Bank." "A bet on the bank." "I'll stay with one." "The bank has one." "The bank wins baccarat. 200,000 on the bank." "Want to try again?" " No, I'm not a good player." "When one is lucky, he wins even if he want to lose." "Black." " Black for the gentleman." "The bets are placed, no more bets." "14!" "Red, even. "Manque."" "You do wrong to defy luck." "You could hit a losing streak." "Dr. Leonardi.." "What do you want?" " At the station you ran away as if you didn't recognize me." "I need to talk to you." "I don't have time and this is not the right place." " Just a little advice, sir." "For some days, I've felt suffocated, anxiety, chest pains." "Even just a half an hour ago." "Maybe I should stop playing." "No, play as much as you like." "You have two weeks to win or lose what you want." "Two weeks?" "Here I am." "I knew that you'd try to find me." "Let's go." "Look out!" "Have you never asked why you won?" "Like all players, when you win you attribute it to your ability, to your superiority." "You do the same with music." "You think it's your art that makes you win?" "But it's not true, everything is a pretext, and you know it." "When you came to my house the first time, I felt an immediate dislike, distrust, an instinctive antipathy." "I should've said a few words to you and dismissed you without calling my wife." "But no, something urged me not to do it." "Nora!" "Can I help you?" " Mrs. Leonardi." "Come in." "Shall I take it?" " No, thank you." "Elena!" "Please." "Good day." " Good day." "Do you know my husband?" "Enrico Miller." " A pleasure." "Come in." "Piero, it's for that concert." " What concert?" "The charity concert at the sanatorium." "I told you about it this morning." "Really?" " You're so absent minded." "And then he says I don't tell him anything." "What is it about?" "I begged your wife to accompany me on piano for a charity concert." "Thanks, I'm very flattered, but as I said, I can't, I'm out of practice." "But that's not true, you played fine yesterday." "And if your husband has nothing against it.." "For me, if Elena is happy.." " Fine." "We have a week to rehearse." "I knew nothing." "I didn't know that you were expected at my house." "I didn't know that Elena had played before you the day before." "I didn't know of plans already made for the concert." "The excessive praise you gave my wife for her abilities made me suspicious." "I had a feeling that the concert was just a pretext." "A violinist of your fame wouldn't ask, without ulterior motives to collaborate with a pianist like my wife." "However, Elena was very flattered." "She finally felt appreciated for her qualities I had always ignored." "She devoted herself to that damned concert with an enthusiasm I've never seen." "She spent many hours at the piano." "It wasn't the concert that worried her, but not looking bad in front of you." "It was a spiritual affinity she had always looked for, one that never existed between us." "Now she seemed to have found it in this community of ideals and in your collaboration." "And she exulted in it." "That enthusiasm, that willingness to delude herself would've seemed even moving, if it hadn't been me judging her." "Instead it could only exasperate my resentment." "If you only knew how much I hated your insinuating ways, your violin." "What I would've given to have been able to throw you out of the house." "But something compelled me to be friendly with you." "The more polite I was, the more I felt I hated you." "Drawing you into my home, I was unconsciously looking for an excuse.." "to free myself from an insupportable situation." "When I was away, I agonized at the thought that you were next to her." "Sometimes, I'd come home at unusual hours." "I began to know what jealousy was." "Dad!" "Dad!" "Dad, let's go play." "Mom!" "Good day, Miller." " Good day." "Excuse me for the intrusion." "It was.." "just to ask you to stay for lunch." " Thank you, with pleasure." "Let's continue from here." "Then, see you later." " See you later." "Come here." "Where are we going, Dad?" " Inside." "We're going to play, right?" "Not even my presence could distract you from a conversation where you knew I couldn't participate." "Yours was a language I didn't understand." "And from that world I was excluded, like an outsider." "Between the two of us, that house, that child, our daughter, there was no real connection that could still bind us together." "Why did you invite him to lunch?" "What is it, are you angry?" " No, you're wrong." "As if I couldn't see it." "Even if I were, what does it matter?" "Long as I'm nice to him, right?" "Up." "Nora, come and take the child." "Alright, what's wrong?" "What have you got against me?" " Nothing!" "Go in." "Isn't he waiting for you?" "I'm going!" "Not even an angel could put up with you!" " And the angel would be you?" "Is that what you call yourself?" " Bastard." "Get out!" "No, Elena!" " Get off me!" "Let me go!" "Forgive me, Elena, when I see you next to him.." "I die." "Oh, Piero, I've never seen you like this." "How can you believe that man interests me?" "Go in there and tell him I don't feel well, to excuse me." "We invited him over, you want me to look foolish?" "Look, it doesn't matter to me." "If you want, I'll never see him again." "I'm only sorry that he might think it's on account of him." "It would be too humiliating." "I thought then she was sincere." "Maybe she only wanted me not to oppose your concert." "I arrived late tormented by the idea of seeing, of being there to hear once again that music." "I stared at Elena." "I had never seen her like this." "She was different, like someone else." "Her manner, her gestures were unknown to me." "That severity of importance while playing." "You were able to bring Elena to where you wanted." "Now she was something of yours." "I couldn't take it anymore." "The farce of that concert revolted me." "It seemed impossible that people didn't notice your looks." "And the presence of so many obliging strangers exalted your excitement." "A forbidden pleasure: art!" "How hypocritical!" "I couldn't be the only one who knew that the music, the piano, Beethoven and the sonata, that damn enervating, interminable sonata, were only a pretext, a vulgar pretext." "Hello?" "No, forget it." "Come in." "Doctor, there's a patient in 18 who's complaining." "Call Dr. Agostini, I don't want to be disturbed." "Piero!" " What do you want?" "Why did you come here?" "I waited for you, you didn't come.." " Not even here will you leave me alone?" "Piero, why do you torment yourself so?" "The whole concert was a torture for you." "I understand." "But now it's over." "Miller has left." "But he can come back." " No, Piero." "Even if he came back, I swear I wouldn't see him again." "From that day on, I felt like for us began a period of peace." "Elena wanted to refurbish the house, change the furniture, tapestries and paintings." "That interest in the particulars of our external existence could be an act of faith for the future." "Only after, I thought that Elena was looking for an activity to absorb her, to distract her from the memory of the concert and the thoughts, desires, dreams that the episode had given birth to." "Lisa reached four years old." "It was the first time the little girl succeeded in drawing us closer as we had so much hoped for from the beginning." "In our life of continuous strife and quarrels, the little girl had always stayed away from us." "Now her joy, her naive affection seemed to have performed a miracle." "In that period of unusual peace, I could resume my studies." "There was a conference in Genoa and I was preparing an important report." "I wanted it to be a success, especially for Elena." "She was being very understanding with me." "She was almost affectionate in her care." "When I left for Genoa, she wanted me to take Lisa." ""To let her spend a few days with grandma", she said." "Be good, OK?" "Bye." "All aboard!" "Saying goodbye, I already had a longing to return like the first days of our marriage." "Bye!" "Bye!" "Bye!" "Morning." "Oh, dear Martelli how are you?" " Good morning." "Dr. Martelli in the classroom!" " They're calling you, it's your turn." "Ah, Leonardi, how are you?" "Still in Sanremo?" " Yes, still in Sanremo." "I was about to enter the classroom to read my report when my eyes fell on a newspaper and I saw your photograph." "That same evening you would be playing in Sanremo." "And Elena was there alone, and maybe she knew you were back." "I couldn't think of anything else." "Taxi!" "I suffered terribly." "And yet, I told myself, "You've thought this over many times."" ""If she betrayed me, I could easily get rid of her."" ""Live alone with the child."" "But even the thought of Lisa vanished in a moment." "I could think of nothing but the two of you together." "I could no longer recognize even my city." "The city that I had seen as a child, a student." "Everything I now thought was bound to the two of you." "My suffering consisted of uncertainty, of doubt." "I couldn't understand anymore if mine was love or hate." "Hey, sir, the ticket." "The train instead of calming my agitation, exasperated it." "I wanted to control myself, to think but every distracting thought was of your face." "and that violin that drove me insane." "The concert was at nine and I had to get there sooner." "To see her first, to know where she was, where she was at that moment!" "I wanted to see it with my own eyes." "In Genoa, I bought this revolver." "I was sure I'd find you in my house." "I didn't think I'd make such an impression." "For hours, you've been threatening me." "I'm not threatening you." "It's you who are afraid." "You have nothing to do with it." "My jealousy was only a pretext." "Pretext?" "A pretext for what?" "I repeat, you are not the cause of what happened." "It was inevitable." "Whoever masks his aims with ideal reasons, will succeed." "Now our life was full of misunderstandings, irritation, quarrels." "This was for many years the stifling atmosphere in which we lived." "A fight would continue for any reason." "Anywhere, any time, we confronted ourselves with hate." "We got to the point that we couldn't remember why we had started a quarrel." "We lived in Genoa then." "We lived in a perpetual state of aggravated hostility." "We were both slaves to a bond we didn't have the strength to break." "And to forget, there was only one way." "We abandoned ourselves in each other's arms." "Like the first time we met, only the senses united us." "What was a confused sensation for me before, has now become quite clear." "Everything stemmed from our first meeting." "I met Elena as a body and it was the obsession with that body that never left me." "At the clinic, I had seen many girls." "But nobody struck me like Elena." "Doctor, don't hide anything." "I have nothing to hide, ma'am." "Your daughter is fine." "Miss, your chain." " Thank you." "There's absolutely nothing." " Really?" "You can't imagine how worried I was." "You know how us moms.." " Don't worry then, ma'am." "Anyway, tomorrow I'll check her X-ray." " Isn't it ready now?" "No." "Tomorrow or the day after, I think." "Ah, too bad, we had decided to leave." "And I can't get them earlier?" "Maybe I'll try to call in the morning." "Since then I thought about her often." "I couldn't take my eyes away." "I was amazed at what was happening to me." "I thought seeing her again would break the spell." "I phoned and with the excuse of the X-rays, I went to see her." "Doctor." "Thank you for coming." " Don't mention it." "I must apologize, but I wanted to bring the X-rays." "You're very polite, but you shouldn't have gone to the trouble." "Please, sit down." " Thank you." "Your mother was so anxious." "At least this will reassure her." "Mom has her fancies, she sees sickness everywhere." "May I see?" " Shoot!" "It's your portrait, basically." "Do we look alike?" " From my point of view, yes." "But it makes an impression." "It's like seeing oneself dead already." "It must be strange for you doctors to know people in this way." "You end up seeing people just like this." "No, it'd be like jail." "It wouldn't be much fun living among the skeletons." "It's not true we only can look at people from a professional point of view." "Good morning, doctor." "Why go to this trouble?" "Well then?" "Nothing, as I was just telling her." " Thank goodness." "It's Grimaldi, talking about lunch." "He wants to talk to you." "Tell him I'm not in, I'll call later." " You can't, I told him.." "Tell him I don't feel well." "I don't want to talk." " As you wish." "You can be so unreasonable, I don't get it." "Thanks again, doctor, and goodbye." "Who knows why sometimes we don't feel like talking." "You're engaged, aren't you?" "Almost." "Well then, I'm going." "Are you going?" " Yes." "I'll see you out." " Thank you." "Goodbye then, doctor." " Goodbye." "Two months later we were married." "We went on our honeymoon." "The season had not yet begun and the hotel was almost empty." "But solitude was what we wanted." "Will you keep still?" "Come in!" "The car'll be here in 10 minutes." " OK, thank you." "Ok, that's enough!" "No.." "If you don't go right now we'll never be able to take a step." "Go on!" "Get!" "Wait a minute, let me get my bag." " Yes, but hurry." " My gloves." "But is this walk so interesting?" " Yes, very interesting." "You are talented." "I didn't know I married a pianist." "You know so little of me and I of you." "Does it matter?" " No." "You love me, don't you?" "Only that counts." "Must we go?" " Won't the walk be very interesting?" "No, I don't think so!" "That we hardly knew each other, seemed then an insignificant thing." "If we had only known.." "Everybody considered us a happy couple and we too believed it." "We overcame any contrast, so vivid was the passion that bound us." "But the misunderstanding of our life revealed itself abruptly." "One evening, we had to go to a party with some friends." "You like it?" "Are you going to wear those flowers?" " Yes, why?" "I don't think they're very good." "The model was like so, we chose them together." "I see them now." "I wasn't paying attention earlier." "Yeah, you have your opinions and never remember what I tell you." "You always have to criticize!" " Me?" "It seems you enjoy ruining my nights." "What are you talking about?" "Wear whatever you want." " I'll wear nothing!" "In fact, I'll do more, I'll stay home!" "It seems stupid." " Of course!" "Naturally!" "Everything I say is stupid to you!" "You want to fight?" "If you don't want to go out, say so." " And stay home with you!" "Thanks a lot." "I can go alone then." " Go, do whatever you want!" "Have fun!" " I will, don't worry!" "Hello?" "Ah, it's you." "No, sorry, I got back late." "Listen, you go." "I don't know, if at all we'll meet up later." "Yes, I'm sorry." "Goodbye." "Look, Elena.." "Don't do that.." "nothing happened." "Forgive me, we both got carried away." "I expressed myself badly, I made a random remark.." "and you took it as an insult." "Come on, be nice, you want to go out?" "We'll go out alone, just the two of us." "No, it wasn't because of this, nor for the missed evening nor the dress." "What do I care?" " So it was just a moment of nerves?" " Not even that." "Tonight we found ourselves enemies because of nonsense." "But the reason is different, deeper." "What do we have in common?" "That we live together." "But our opinions, our thoughts are never the same." "And we never care to know them." "Conversation has become a danger to us, there's always the threat of a quarrel." "Before, we liked being so different, now we can't forgive ourselves for it." "No, Elena, we love each other." "You said so yourself, the rest doesn't matter." "Yes, we love each other, but as long as we ignore what we think, say nothing." "I never feel so lonely as when I'm with you." "Elena, right now you're not fair." "You're upset and say things you don't believe." "She was right." "I had for some time felt the same discomfort." "That silence, which at first had been a precaution, had become a habit." "By now, whatever we had left to say was to cry out our anger." "I'm late." "In 10 minutes, I have to be at the hospital." "Piero, before you go, leave me a check." "I have no more money." "Did you already go through what I left you yesterday?" " Why?" " Forget it." "I was just asking." " I know what you think." "At least you have the honesty to say it." "Elena, for heaven's sake, don't start a fight right now." "I don't have time to listen." " Fear not, I'll spare you." "After all, what did you say?" "Nothing, as usual." "You throw out a few innocent words and then you're off." "It's your job, you can't be bothered." "And for me begins another serene day." " And you think I'm happy?" "I have to come home and find you upset, ready to make a scene over nothing." "I ended up hating my home." "One can't say a word here without you flying off the handle!" "If I read, it means I'm ignoring you, if I leave, I'm avoiding you!" "Doctor, they're calling from the clinic." " To hell with them!" "Let them wait!" "No, tell them I'll be right there." "At times, I felt I hated her." "I wondered what I'd do to free myself of her." "I thought this only happened to me and tried to hide it as much as possible." "Then I didn't know that almost no family can escape its fate." "# On the wings of a zephyr, my ardent sighs will reach you; #" "What is it?" "May one know what's the matter?" "What have I done?" "# In the roar of the waves, you'll hear.. #" "Excuse me." "Where are you going now?" "What do you want to do?" " Get off me!" " Elena!" "# Thinking that on tears.. #" "I'm sorry, we have to leave." "Elena isn't well." " You want us to drive you?" "No, thank you, stay." "We'll give you a call." "Excuse us." "# Shed a bitter tear. #" "What came over you, are you mad?" "Speak!" " Nothing, I'm going home." "But we can't leave this way." " Stay there with your friends!" "# From time to time for me. #" "You have to push, dear." "# From time to time for me. #" "# On the wings of a zephyr, my ardent sighs will reach you; #" "Taxi!" "Taxi!" "Taxi!" "Via Corsica, 21." "Will you now tell me what's the matter?" " Nothing." " What "nothing"?" "You make me look bad in front of my friends." "Your friends!" "You care only about them." "Go away!" "Leave me be." "No, you must tell me why." "Speak!" "What do you want me to say?" "You insult me all the time and don't even realize it." "The same old song." "When you're wrong you play the victim." "What can you reproach me with?" " Ah, forget it." "Before I met you, my life was full of aspirations, desires, hopes." "I was sure of myself then." "With you I'm always afraid of making mistakes, I'm always wrong." "You're sick with vanity." "You want someone to go into ecstasy at your drama." " Me?" "It's you who before strangers acts the genius, the wit!" "And at home never has one word to say to me!" "Now we ask only each other the time or what's new in the papers." "And why?" "Because we hate each other." " But.." " You hate everything about me!" "My way of thinking, dressing, talking, my piano, my music." "Everything!" "No, you exaggerate." "The situation is just made of misunderstandings that cause discomfort." "You call this discomfort?" "For me it is despair." "Because I do." "I do hate as well." "Forget that." "I hate myself alone, my weakness." "If you knew how much I despise myself." "Get out!" "Don't touch me." "If you weren't so hysterical!" "It's that which make our lives impossible!" "All you have to do is control yourself." " Right, control myself!" "Because you're a man in control, in charge." "How I detest you!" "You and your way of life, your common sense, your order!" "But look!" "Look around you!" "Put that in order!" " Elena, don't do that!" "Elena!" "Elena!" "Go away!" "Elena!" "Elena, open up!" "Open, Elena!" "Elena!" "We doctors often speak of neurasthenia, of hysteria." "Yet my wife was neither hysterical nor I neurasthenic." "Weddings like ours, based only on the senses inevitably lead to a dead end." "In me there was only hate." "A furious hatred like I've never felt before." "I couldn't sit still, I couldn't stay in the house." "Even walking couldn't diminish my agitation." "Those streets, that I had traveled many times, now from every corner brought me a heap of memories." "And the bitterness grew." "I had been happy alone, once." "Why had she come into my life?" "I wanted to kill myself and kill her." "To get rid of her, to free myself from her forever." "Or run away, flee, hide." "I went ahead without seeing a thing." "I was exhausted." "My head was on fire, the blood pounding in my temples." "One thought came back in my mind, monotonous, obsessive, relentless:" ""Kill her!" "Kill her!"" "The next day at breakfast, I was told I was wanted on the phone." "Doctor, they're calling you on the phone." "Hello?" "Ah, is that you, Maria?" "What?" "When did she go out?" "OK, fine." "Yes, I leave it all up to you." "Hello, Mrs. Fanny?" "Yes, it's me, Piero." "Has Elena come to see you?" "No, just like before." "Yes, she left early this morning." "The maid called me." "Yes." "I'll be right over." "Doctor, it's ready." "Will you take something, ma'am?" " No." " You may go." "The day passed without Elena's return." "My nervousness grew by the hour." "As time passed, the thought that Elena had made a desperate gesture became more insistent." "And in spite of myself, I thought," ""If she didn't do it, what will our life become?"" ""How could we continue?"" "At the police headquarters, they discovered nothing." "I insisted." "Almost to convince myself that I was concerned." "I didn't want to suffer anymore the accusing glances of her mother." "I went to the hospital." "Now with the passing of time, my suspicion became a certainty." "And that frightening solution, began to seem logical, expected." "Hello?" "First Aid." "Right away at the Commercio Hotel." "OK." "The ambulance to the Commercio Hotel." "A woman committed suicide!" "Wake up, Barbieri!" "Wake up!" "Morelli!" " Come on, wake up the doctor!" "Wake up!" " Morelli!" " Never mind, I'll come." "She's upstairs, hurry!" "Here, doctor." "Here!" "She went to kill herself in that inn of the port so that no one could find her." "Only by chance the maid had found her that night." "I saved her." "When she opened her eyes, she only said:" ""I was able to get it over with, but here we are again."" "Elena had understood since then." "For us there was only one way out." "Come in." "May I?" "Excuse me, the bus is about to depart." "Ah, yes?" "Hello?" "Please, Miss, the Leonardi residence, Corso degli Inglesi." "Thank you." "But that's not possible." "Try again." "What?" "You're not mistaken?" "Leonardi." "A taxi, hurry!" "There aren't any now." "If you want one, I must call downtown." " Never mind." "What do you want to do now?" "Another day." "It seems like so much time has passed." "Last night, when I arrived, I could still hear that music in my ears." "I was full of suspicion, jealousy.." "and yet I hoped." "How many things are understood later." "When I entered, the first thing I saw was your coat." "In that moment, I felt that all was over." "I went into the living room." "I was sure I would find you there." "Everything spoke of the time you spent together, side by side." "I could imagine your talk, Elena's animation, her smiles." "I recognized your cigarette case." "I climbed running up the stairs." "In me, a new feeling was born." "Now my torment would be over." "I could punish her, be free of her!" "I was invaded by a blind rage." "Before Lisa's bed, I thought that Elena had sent her away so she could be alone." "I don't know how I got into the room." "I remember Elena's terror, and how you ran away like a coward!" "Yes, like a coward!" "And then the cry of Elena." " Piero!" "Piero, are you crazy?" "But what are you doing?" "There's nothing between us." "Nothing." "I swear!" " Don't lie." "No.." "No!" "Elena!" "This is what you wanted." "I have no guilt." "I don't want to die, save me!" "I don't want to die." "To the end, she told me that she didn't want to die." "She was full of life." "Last night I wanted to kill you like a dog." "Then tonight I realized many things." "I understood her." "I understood myself." "It was never about you." "English subtitles by sineintegral@KG."