"You must be astonished to receive this letter after so many years." "But don't be alarmed." "I faced a lot of difficulty trying to figure out how to compose this letter." "For years I've been waiting to communicateto you." "I'm glad that I'm finally gathered this stranger to write to you." "I've been waiting for this moment for so long." "How are you Ruth?" "I am your father." "Goodness!" "It feels so strange even to mention this but I know you don't want to see me." "It hurts alot to think that" "I am so far away from you and for so long." "During all these years that I'vespent without you," "I've been tricking myself to believing that one day" "I'll have the opportunity to meet and talk to my little girl." "Excuse me?" "Yes." "Wheredo I pick up my passport?" "." "Next table." "Excuse me." "is this wherel pick up my passport?" "Waitin the line." "Thanks." "Photos?" "That's there too." "You speak Hindi?" "Yes, a littlebit." "Marathi?" "No." "Speak English, Original Passport?" "Where do I go Sir?" "Next counter." "Next!" "So, you want to renew your visa?" "Yes, Sir." "Why?" "I really likelndia." "You also speak Hindi?" "Yes." "You know you can'twork on atourist visa, right?" "I know, Sir." "You know it." "You likelndia?" "Absolutely." "And, how about Indians?" "Hey England girl." "Come." "Whereall will you travel?" "Onlyto Pune, Sir." "You tell us when you leavethecity." "Sure." "But why you comeso lateto renew visa?" "Sorry Sir, forgot aboutit." "Don't forget again." "I won't." "So,whereelse have you visited in thepast year?" "Just Pondicherry." "Pondicherry." "Thereis that place thereno... for foreigners?" "Auroville." "What did you do there?" "Massagetraining." "Massage." "Yeah." "LikeSwedish..." "Thai... massage." "And now back to Pondicherry?" "No sir." "Takethis to your local policestation." "Getthesignature and bring it back here." "Thank you verymuch Sir." "Kalbadevi." "You're a Scorpio, no?" "I've read-up about Cancerians." "Not happening atall between us," "Linda Goodman also says thesamething." "The Sun signs woman..." "Lovesigns..." "Ruth..." "Swedish forthegentleman." "I'm telling you..." "there's no chancebetween us..." "Pleasetakeoffyour clothes and lie down." "Here is thetowel." "I ran you through F.L.A.M.E. S, you know... lf you put a doubleO in your name, it turns out to be E" " E for enemies." "And when you put a U, then it's S. Ofall things," "Dream on..." "F. lt's not fuck, it's friendship." "Idiot!" "Your nameis Ruth?" "Yes." "I am Lynn." "Hi Lynn." "Turn around please." "You want ahandshake?" "What?" "." "Handshake..." "Handjob." "Thousand rupees." "Yeah." "Can I makea small donation to the Police Force?" "I mean... towards deceased Officers' widows?" "Umm... or anything else..." "Wecould help each other out...?" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Without wisdom, how will you cross over?" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Without wisdom, how will you cross over?" "You found a stone, made an idol to worship." "lfthatgod had power, wouldn't it destroy you?" "You get coconuts to worship your god." "Two little pieces you giveas an offering, thecoconut you swallow whole!" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Withoutwisdom how will you cross over?" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "If you ask too many questions around here, peopleget suspicious." "Thesepeopleare very insecureabout how theworld perceives them." "They've goneas far as registeringtheir Lord's name." "Peoplehave even started selling Jeanswear in their Lord's name." "Letmequietlyfind out what I can do." "Let's keep in touch." "Whenever I find out something, I'll mail you." "You pray fora son, pledgealamb in return." "Your father alive, was hungry, uncared for." "Hear me, says Kabir," "Hear me, says Kabir, seek and you shall find." "Hear me, says Kabir, seek and you shall find." "In this world tangled in delusion, theself cannot beseen." "Sir." "Comeon Monday." "In this world tangled in delusion, theself cannot beseen." "theself cannot beseen." "You're Maya?" "Yeah." "I'm Diwakar." "You helped her, thank you." "She's a nicegirl." "Yourturn, singwith an 'N'..." "Enough." "You'll break them." "Your muscles are getting alongtoo." "How did ltgo in Pune?" "Nothing much." "They've goneas far as registeringtheir Lord's name." "Turn." "It will take time." "Ittook me8 months in" "Pondicherry...to know that Arjun Patel was in Goa." "Then whathappened?" "Then ittook meanother 5 months to find out he'd left Goa forthis Pune Ashram." "I haveno clue how much timeit will take here." "It was agood decision to comework here." "Surprise!" "Fuck." "I told you..." "Check outtheclarity." "Yeah." "Who is the old man?" "Can you see the differenceor not?" "You wait for amonth and" "I'll install a Home Theatre here." "And blueraytoo." "Your home will become a privateCinemax." "Red Lounge." "What?" "." "Thanks." "is this how you thank me?" "Come here, sitwith me." "You smell good." "What is it?" "Nothing." "You haveworn something." "Nothing, really." "I'll haveto makesure." "Today..." "I'm not goingto spare you today." "Did you notice mytie?" "Jim Morrisson..." "Woreit especially foryou." "What's that?" "Condom" "What's with you?" "You know I can't do it." "How will you know you can't do itunless you tryit." "Trust me baby..." "wewill take itslow." "No." "Do you trust me or not?" "No..." "Don't worry, nothing's going to go wrong." "No..." "Baby,just relax." "Leave me... get offme." "I said no." "Whatthe fuck is your problem?" "What do you want me to do?" "Andthen you complain that you don't see me enough." "Sex all thetime!" "I mean...why...why does it always haveto beaboutsex?" "." "Always?" "It should beabout it for once." "No!" "No!" "Babyl am so frustrated." "What the fuck you want me to do?" "You want meto go fuck somebody else?" "No." "Whatis it that you want?" "You justwant me to sit and stare at your faceall day..." "What do I do?" "Prashant." "Whatis it?" "Take off your pants and liedown." "And?" "You don't haveto stay frustrated." "You're goingto giveme your massage." "Like your clients?" "Please." "Give mesome time." "I feel likeit too..." "But... my mind is preoccupied with my father..." "Slowly,wewill do..." "Can you not talk?" "Yeah, yes... baby..." "Phone..." "Just bequiet." "Yeah...tell me..." "What?" "." "Butit's Chittiapa's stash." "What ifwe get caught?" "No... do whatever stupid shit you guys wantto" "I'll just waitin the car." "Yeah..." "I'll be there." "Baby, I'vegotto go." "Let's go." "Minging" "Mingin'" "Mingin'" "Minging" "Minging" "Mingin'" "Bloomin'" "Bloomin'" "Wanker" "Wanker" "Wanker" "Eh, where are you going?" "Isn't Bandrathat way?" "." "No no Madam...we'll..." "uh...we'll taketheright ahead." "Don'tmake a cunt out of mebecauseI'm a foreigner." "Whatwas that?" "Saythat again." "Don'tmake a cunt out of mebecauseI'm a foreigner." "Hello Madam." "How are you?" "Have you got your visa?" "No." "No visa yet?" "You know Madam, I was wondering... a week's holiday will do megood..." "Goa, Manali, Pondicherry..." "Onlyl wish the flights werecheaper." "How much is theticket?" "Ten thousand?" "Oh...wow..." "You've kept it ready for me." "How abouta ticket to New York?" "You might as well settle there." "Nice Madam." "Thank you." "New York" "Shot glasses and all..." "those..." "I had 6 ofthose..." "So I was like cool man he's into me and all." "And we'recloseto kissing and then you know what he says?" "He says, you know, you are very bootiful... and everytimel meet amazingwomen it takes time for meto tell them..." "And am like yeah yeah yeah, likewhaa whaa whaa..." "Hesays, and he says - am gay." "Can you imagineit?" "Then I discovered he was bisexual." "And then I was like yeah, bitch, like what the fuck... after all that." "Hey Ruth, phone's been ringing for you non stop sincemorning." "Yeah." "Every one ofthem has been asking for you." "Theywant to know if Ruth Madam's free." "I want to takean hour offthis afternoon." "No way!" "You say an hourand it becomes three." "I have to meet that Embassy guy." "Did you find anything out?" "No." "Theymust know something but they'renotgiving meanyinformation." "I can'tbelieve you don'thave aphotograph." "A singlephotograph of your own father." "Mymotherhates him." "Ruth Herecomes your Wrangler boy." "Pleasecome." "You have anicesmile." "Thanks." "I like yourteeth." "Thanks." "It's sort oflike Bugs BunnymeetsJulia Roberis." "I likebugs bunny." "So,wheredo you stay?" "I really don'tsee what that's gotto do with anything." "Oh..." "Look love, you want me to find your dad, don't you?" "Yes I do." "Well, I can get your address from your papers..." "Of course you can." "Look, am sorry... I just get abit paranoid, you know... being a youngwhitegirl in Bombay." "They ask alot of dodgy questions." "Excuse me." "How's your mom?" "Fine." "Whereis she?" "Shelives in Brighton." "Oh..." "Brighton?" "Nice." "Verynice." "Any siblings?" "No." "My sister died years ago." "Oh..." "I'm sorry." "It's alright." "Years ago?" "How old was she?" "15..." "Shekilled herself." "That's when my dad left." "I don't think hecould deal with her death, he loved her so much." "And mom just went quiet on meafter that, she refused to talk abouthim... I don't think sheever forgave him for leaving her." "Shetoreoff all his memories." "Have alook at this..." "That's Emily, mom, me..." "That's my dad's hand." "That's a Rolex." "What?" "." "Thewatch. lt's a Rolex." "My God..." "What... lt must be costing 30 lakhs.." "My God!" "It's a Rolex." "Hey." "Your dad's an Indian." "Yeah." "Buthehad a" "British passport which is why I called you." "He's bound to belisted in your records somewhere." "You know, therearelots of guys with British passports..." "Lots..." "A lot ofthem are affiliated to theAshram." "But love, there isn't any Arjun Patel amongst them." "Hi Lynn" "Hi" "Have you seen it in a car?" "What?" "." "Wheelie in a car?" "Likethis, from the side?" "2 wheels hanging..." "Check outthesalute..." "Awesome stuff!" "Who thehell are you lot?" "Whatare you doing in myhouse?" "Comesit down." "Sit down." "Sit sit sit..." "Fucker, which road in Bangaloreis this?" "lndranagar." "Koramangala - lndranagar." "The Ring road." "is this Jaggesh?" "...Yeah yeah, it is. ls this Jaggesh?" "No man, it's notJaggesh. lt's somebodywho looks likehim." "Who are you?" "Ah..." "Chittiappa Siddanna Gowda." "Takeit dear..." "Coffeecoffee..." "Taketake." "Verynicecoffee." "Peoplein Bombayhaveno clueabout making coffee." "Sorry, I offthe TV..." "Sorry, sorry." "That's theAC remote... I know." "I on thea/C." "It's hot, no?" "Back there." "Where?" "You wantthe A/C set to Bangaloreweather." "That's forthe DVD player." "I know dear." "I know." "DVD player." "I get up to offthe TV, I offthe TV." "Pleaseon it." "Good." "Up there, elder bro." "I know, I know." "This's theone." "Not offing only." "Hmm... puzzle." "Like Upendra picture." "Okay." "Not offing... not offing." "Beats theshit out ofus." "A labyrinth." "Aah..." "Off!" "You girlfriend?" "Yes." "Where is boyfriend?" "Heis nothere." "I know." "I know heis nothere." "I checked already." "Nothere." "Whereheis?" "I don't know." "You know." "You not telling." "I know you know." "But you not tell." "She's a dude." "Smart chicklet." "That is mymoney." "Wealreadytaken your money." "57,000." "In English please." "57,000" "Sit down... sit down, sit down." "I want itback." "That is mymoneyl want itback." "Giveit to me." "That is myhard earned money." "It's notthat drug peddler's..." "You want?" "You want?" "Hey..." "Sit down." "Give itto us." "Look, look..." "Hey, hey." "Look, look." "Very hard money..." "I know." "Hey." "Very hard." "1000 rupees shakehand." "I know." "What do you want?" "I want you to say your name..." "Please." "Pleasesay your name." "Ruth." "What?" "." "Ruth" "Nice." "I'm Chutiyapa." "Chutiyapa Gowda." "So Chuth..." "Wealreadytaken... 57,000" "Yourboyfriend givingto me..." "Oneeightyminus fifty seven... 1 lakh 23 thousand." "Means, 123 shakehands." "I'm kind, no?" "So you payin kind." "When you come?" "When do you want meto come?" "If you come today, it's too early... lfyou cometomorrow, it's too late." "You pick the time." "tick, tick, tick, tick... tick, tick, tick, tick... tick, tick, tick, tick..." "Sorry, I can't take yourcall right now." "Pleaseleave your message after thebeep." "Thank you." "Prashant, it's Ruth." "Call meback." "You've seen 'Sadma' right?" "That's our story." "SeeI'm Sridevi and you are Kamal Hasan." "I must'vebeen mad to havegone for dinnerwith you theother day..." "But now thetables have turned- you'retheonewho's running behind the train... fuckface, you'vebasicallymissed the train that I'm on..." "Excuseme." "Miss Sridevi..." "When will Ruth be here?" "Shemust beon herway..." "So..." "You don't get it, do you?" "Sorry sorry sorry..." "So terribly sorry to havekept you waiting." "Wow!" "I wish I could speak English theway you do." ""So sorry to havekept you waiting"." "You know whatl would say?" "Sorry for delay." "Sorry for delay." "No problem... I Know thetraffic with this metro-shetro, skylab, skywalk, skytrain coming up." "Firstly people in Bombay haveno clue about driving..." "They honk thehell out ofus... ln this madness they also seem to forget how to drive." "The wholecityturns into ahuge driving school." "Yes." "Andthere's so much digging too." "Don'tgetmestarted about the digging." "God works in mysterious ways and so does the Municipality." "Digging here, digging there." "Where theyhaven't dug up today, they ceriainlywill tomorrow." "God knows what Temple of Doom they'reexcavating!" "You know what I think?" "I sometimes think this must besomebig" "Government conspiracy to fool us into believingthat they aretoiling forthepeople." "So that everybodythinks..." "what progress!" "India shining." "Have you ever passed by the Lucky signal?" "It's turned into a Bermuda Triangle." "What?" "." "Lucky signal." "The Bermuda Triangle, haven't you heard ofit?" "There was abook on it." "In my days there was a film made on ittoo." "Yeah." "You know whatused to happen there?" "What?" "." "Everything - huge ships, airplanes, people - everything usedto disappear." "Nobody ever found out how." "Total chaos." "Radio transitions werelost, nobody could reach there." "Transmissions" "What?" "." "Radio transmissions." "Yeah... the same thing." "You areright." "Turn over." "Your Hindi is getting betterby the day." "Yeah." "Now even the vegetable vendors ask thepukkaprice." "Pukkaprice?" "It's 'the vegetable vendors ask theright price'." "Right price." "Thank you." "I see you haven'tbeen doing the exercises I taught you." "I liveon the 4th floor of a buildingthathas no elevator." "It's quite an exerciseclimbing up." "Tires me out." "Diwakar..." "You needto take good careofyour legs." "I'm banking on you for it." "Okay." "I feel rejuvenated." "You are too good, my dear." "What'll I do without you?" "I'll die for sure." "You're full ofdrama..." "a drama queen." "Now get going." "Thank you dear." "Bless you." "Hello..." "Girlfriend." "What dear?" "You not come only?" "Listen, going and coming back wouldtake an hour that means one client." "Can you come here instead?" "Negotiations... is it?" "Hey, you son ofa gun." "Alright dear..." "You calling I come." "Lynn." "Yes." "Do you ever smoke-up?" "No." "You know, sometimes I get this weird trips likenow..." "I feel like I have shrunk." "You know..." "LikeAlice in Wonderland." "Except, it's not me that's getting smaller." "It's theworld that's getting larger and larger." "I just can't find the one person I'm looking for." "I know." "I just can't find him." "I don't mean to be rude, but can we not talk?" "I am in a hurry today." "I'm sorry." "Forgiveme." "I am so stoned." "Whatthe fuck!" "Baby... ls that you Ruth?" "There's nobody else, no?" "What the fuck have you done?" "I'm ajackass." "I'm such ajerk." "What is this Prashant?" "Wherethehell were you?" "How many times have I been calling you..." "I'll do thecleaning." "Letmedo it." "You chill, I'll do it." "God!" "Really,what's your problem?" "Are you retarded?" "I mean really, what do you want?" "What!" "What do you want from me?" "I'm talking to you damn it!" "I know." "You know shit!" "Why are you laughing?" "What's so funny Prashant?" "Tell me." "Nothing matters to you, nothing atall." "Where the fuck were you last night?" "Who was that clown, what's his name..." "Chutiyapa?" "Baby... baby..." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry." "I fucked up." "They'relooking for me." "I know." "Your Chutiyapa brokeinto thehouse, slapped me, grabbed my money" "and he forced me to have sexwith him." "You did it?" "Notthatsex." "How much money did he take?" "Fuck off!" "What's all this?" "I don'twant to say sorry again." "Help me..." "I want to go clean." "I want to quit everything." "You're mad." "Help meplease." "I was waiting in thecar." "I'dtoldthem I would only drivethecar and notgetinvolved." "After a whilean old man showed up and said comeon." "You'rewanted." "We'd heard that Chitiappa had goneto Karnataka." "Butit turned out the buggerwas right there." "He's theonewho brought us here." "What did hetell you guys?" "Hesaid there would benobodythere..." "He saidthere would be nobody there." "Thatwewould scorea lot ofHash." "is that thecookie hegave you?" "And you losers jumped along?" "Take your shirt and pants off." "But Chitiappa took him in his gang." "Jayanagar." "How long have you been here?" "4 years." "Been 4 yrs, bro" "Small-timejobs, bro." "What do you mean small-timejobs?" "Like pussification?" "Writing too." "Son of agun." "Writer." "Awriter?" "You junkie bastard!" "Oh." "What the fuck have you written?" "Fuck that." "Sing a Dr. Rajkumar song." "Pleaselet mego, bro." "Hey, stop. look here." "What's my stash worth?" "2 lakhs." "2 lakhs." "My stash you cameto steal is worth 2 lakhs." "Meaning, you'll paymethe 2 lakhs." "What's my stash worth?" "2 lakhs." "How much does that make you owe me?" "2 Lakhs." "When will you payme?" "Where will I get the money from?" "I recovered 8 grams from your pocket." "which is worth... 20 thousand." "20 thousand." "So therest... 180." "180." "180." "When will I haveit?" "lfl don't give him his 1 Lakh 80 thousand he'll kill me." "What do I do?" "Wherewill I getthatmuch money from?" "Your friends fucked you over." "I made amistake okay." "I'm sorry." "I was drunk and coked-out." "And theyweremy friends." "Theywerecokeheads." "Baby..." "Whatbaby babybaby..." "What can I do about it?" "I can't go home." "So?" "Letmestay here." "That way you can bewith me everyday." "In the meanwhileI'll arrange forthemoney." "Please." "I want aticket to Pune." "Forwhen?" "Theday after." "What is thename?" "Ruth" "R..." "U..." "R..." "U..." "T..." "H..." "G..." "H?" "T..." "H..." "You want ahappy ending?" "Happy?" "I don't understand." "Do you want ahandshake?" "A handjob?" "This... I don't understand." "Forgetit." "Hello..." "Yes I know I got your missed calls." "How did you get this number anyway?" "Was his name Peter by any chance?" "No I'm fine..." "I'm just travelling." "I neededto get out..." "To seethings." "No mom. lt's not thesameeverywhere." "Listen to me... yeah?" "You came to India when you weremy age, right?" "So..." "Right." "So why can't you understand that I neededto..." "Because Mom you would never haveletmego." "You don't let mego clubbing for fuck's sake." "Well you don't need to worry." "I saved up..." "From that summer job." "I was wonderingwhen you weregoing to mention him." "Yes I know he's not dead." "No." "Not yet." "But I will." "How?" "How can you start on yourJesus crap when you've liedto meail these years?" "No..." "No, am not listeningto this." "No..." "You don't know." "Even better, becomea Gigolo." "You'll makealot ofmoney." "Actually, forget it." "Nobody wouldwant your services anyway." "Are you nuts?" "Tell that useless boyfriend of yours to pay up." "Hedoesn't havethat kind ofmoney." "Heshouldtake responsibility, no?" "It's his screw-up." "Doesn't make much of a difference." "It's an extrahand-job a day." "I know his type." "Hewon't takemorethan 2 minutes." "When's he coming?" "11 o' clock." "You know how Chitiyapa's father died?" "No." "As akid, Chitiyapa..." "He used to livewith his father." "Theold man was an alcoholic." "Then onefineday, Chitiyapa wanted food, he was hungry." "And... wheredid he end-up?" "Thelocal bar." "As soon as heenteredthebar, a cylinder blast blew theshit out ofhim and nothing remained ofhim." "Chitiyapa kept waiting for 3 long days, he didn't havea clue." "Apparently,thestupid fuck observes a fasting theold man's memory on every New Moon." "Please hold..." "Ruth..." "Sir, Tea?" "Like this only..." "You do..." "Are you shy?" "." "You do no." "Whatis this?" "Lubricant." "What?" "." "Lubricant..." "Its soft..." "Comfortable..." "Soft..." "Okay..." "Do, you do." "No look, huh." "You only do." "Where should I look?" "Thewall..." "Do." "Hey stop." "Whathappened dear?" "Sorry." "What happened?" "My father also used to say.." "Stand hereand look at thewall." "Hewouldn't let me move." "I was madeto stareat the wall the whole day." "You no cry, huh.." "You do properly." "Nicely you do." "I usedto staywith my father." "He was a drunk." "Drinking through theday." "We ran out ofmilk one day." "So, hewent out to fetch some." "and on the way hestarted drinking." "Hewas driving and drinking." "Hewas drinking and driving." "When.." "He crashed into a Gas cylinder truck which exploded and killed him." "I justkept waiting for him." "Attimes, I feel am still expecting him to come back." "What happened?" "Why did you stop me?" "What happened?" "No no." "I'm not into bearded men." "Theylook likegoons." "Theseguys go around carrying guns onlyto throw theirweight around." "Hmm.." "Imagine,thebeard coming in-between everytimeone's eating.." "Disgusting shit!" "Areweleaving bro?" "Bro, what happened?" "Call forthelift." "Itmust bestuck upstairs." "I'll check on it, bro." "You go girl, go go pleasego.." "Sir, are you okay?" "Sir somewater.." "Hey.." "Where's it, fucker?" "Sir, can I get you something?" "Sir, comeagain." "You'rea mean one Ruth." "Downstairs." "Heyhey hey.." "What're you doing?" "Sorry.." "Sorryma'am." "It's myhouse." "I didn't know." "Listen!" "Usetheloo inside." "Thank you." "Pleasecome.." "Right ahead.." "On your left." "Hello." "Who was he?" "Who knows." "Hewantedto pee." "What, you don't even know him?" " No." "And you let him in?" "Hewas aiming forthe door." "You should've kicked him on his balls." "And what're you doing?" " I also want to take aleak." " Don't laugh!" " Sorry." "Open.." "Hang on.." "let him finish." "Baby, pleaseunlock it.." "Not likel'm going to join him." "I don't know what you'll do." "Baby please.." "That's not the key." "Baby,wherethe fuck's the key?" "." "He's on his way out." "Baby please, tell mewherethekey is." "Baby please, how am I to find it in this bag of yours?" " Thank you madam." "Don't do itin front ofthehouseagain." "Let meputthebags inside." "Wait aminute.." "I'll get abucket.." "Here.. here.." "Peeinto this." "Fuck off!" "What happened?" "My stomach's gone for a toss." "Try getting somesleep." "I need something.." "Anything." "No." "Even Cough syrup will do." "Do you want some food?" "No." "Where's the key?" "Will you have someChinese?" "Pork ribs.." "Givemethekeys." " Egg fried noodles.." "Street dog with black bean sauce" "Fuck!" "No?" "Sushi-teriyaki-sashami" "Whatthe fuck are you doing?" "is it hurting a lot?" "Whereis thekey!" "I'll heat up some soup for you." "I don't want to eat anything." "Whereis thekey?" "." "Havesomeofthis." " I don't wantit!" "You haven't eaten a morsel since yesterday." "Show mehow terriblel am and how kind you are." "What?" "." "I'll clean up my own shit." "Who the fuck are you, huh?" "Mother Teresa?" "I onlywant to help you." "You don't understand what I am goingthrough." "I could die." "Yeah andwhose fault is that?" "Yeah yeah, you behaveas though you'reimmaculate." "To you I'm trash.." "I stink." "For you and your emotionless, perfectly controlled, rotten life." "You know nothing about my life, so shut your mouth." "Exactly, I know nothing about your feelings." "You'reabastard." "Oh yeah?" "And you know everything right?" "You'reGod's proudest creation." ""Look atme, I know itall.." "I am so helpless, but reallyI'm agood girl.." "and I endureso much suffering.." "poor me."" ""Look at my suffering.." "takea close look at it"." ""l gift-wrap it with ribbons and safeguard it under my pillow. "" ""l suffer so much"." ""lnspite ofit, I haveno qualms about bringing relief to frustrated pricks by jerking them off day-in, day-out"." "You were the onewho took me there." "Becausel know that's what you're good at, and that's what you trip on." "Fuck you!" "Fuck you fuck me.." "Fuck me." "You would be doing meahuge favor." "ifonly you wereto gather all your emotions, and fuck me..just once." "Then maybe I just might feel that I'm not one of your parlour clients." "Tell me,whatam I to you?" "Nothing." "Nothing but a distraction." "Distraction?" "Fuck!" "So enlighten me my Virgin-Mary, is there anything more in your sad life apart from a distraction such as I?" "Yes.." "There is." "You want to know?" "Please tell me.." "What am I doing here?" "Why do you think I am out here?" "Throwing awaymy dignity everyday cateringto.." "To somewrinkled, repressed pricks, in some shit-holein Bombay?" "I haveno clue." " Because I need somebody." "I've always been bloodymotherearth.." "I'vealways bent over backwards for people like you." "Look atmylife." "Mymotherwants meto bea Saint, you just want to fuck, andtherest ofthe world just wanttheir Happy Endings." "I wantsomeone in my life,who cares and has no expectations you understand?" "I need someoneto lovemeunconditionally." "This letter is all I have going for me right now." "Somebody cares about me, somebodymisses me, somebody loves me and I haveto find him." "I haveto find him because I can't takeit anymore." "I need someoneto hold me, and hug me," "Don't cry." "and love me." "I have to find him." "I want to find him." "I don't remember much, I was too little." "But.." "I always felt like Dad loved my step-sister Emily morethan me." "He'd spent hours with her." "I wished her death." "When I was fiveshe actually killed herself." "She got pregnant but didn't tell anyone." "Sheused.." "Sheusedto put my hand on herstomach and just cry." "I feel so scared." "Hi Ruth." "Hi." "This is Divya.." "Divya, Ruth." "Shall we?" "Tell her." "Okay." "Sorry." "I feel I'm disturbing you." "But I'm looking for someone." "His name's Arjun Patel.." "He's a Photographer.." "and he's my Dad." "Ben." "His nameis Benjamin Patel." "No." "My Dad's nameis Arjun Patel." "It usedto be." "Hetook thename Benjamin Patel after he cameback from England." "But then he'dwritten mealetter, and it was signed Arjun Patel." "That's because you knew him as Arjun Patel." "You knew him?" "Yes." "I knew him.." "I knew him as Ojas." "Ojas?" "Ojas?" "Hewas Ojas around here." "All ofus take an Ashram name whilewe're here" "His was Ojas." "Benjamin Patel.." "Ojas.." "Why so manynames?" "Why're you looking for him?" "Becausehe's my dad." "So?" "So I wantto know him.." "See him.." "Meethim.." "What's heilke?" "Hewas really weird, I swear." "His pass herein the Ashram got cancelled." "He hasn't been back eversince." "What do you mean his pass got cancelled?" "By cancelled I mean darling that he was asked to leave." "Why?" "I don't know." "Nobody knows.." "But you knew him well-enough.." "I was in fact with him when hewrote you thatletter." "And..?" "And.." "What..?" "Beforehelefthejust mentioned onething, that heis buying an apartment in Versovain Mumbai That's all I know." "No listen to me.." "listen to me." "I clearlyremember you saying therewas no Arjun Patel.. right?" "But you also saidthere were two photographers" "Onewas called Youssuf Patel and onewas called Benjamin Patel." "No, you did." "You did. I can go home and check." "The chatlineis there." "I mean it's got to bethere somewhere, I will email it to you." "No you did." "I swear we werechatting the other day Benjamin Patel, yes." "Yes." "Look, please find out." "Alright." "Okay." "Bye." "Look madam, therecords we maintain arethat of criminals." "Look madam, therecords we maintain arethat of criminals." "You know, people who'vecommitted a crime." "Has this Benjamin Patel of yours ever committed a crime?" "No." "You could do onething.." "Wheredoes he stay.." "Versova?" "You could trythe Versova Post office." "Excuse me." "I'm looking for aman in Versova." "Meaning?" "I mean I have his name, I needtheaddress." "You haveto talk to thepostmaster." "Where?" "Overthere." "Hello." "Greetings!" " Greetings!" "Can I haveaminute with you?" "Thank you." "I am Ruth Edscer." "From England." "I'm looking for aman in Versova." "I'vegothis name." "Your Hindi is pretty good." "Can you pleasehelp me?" "No." "We don't hand out addresses ofpeople." "And weare verybusy with the festivals, elections coming up too." "It's too much." "Yes.." "I.." "You seeit's like this.." "I am too busy, I can't." "You seeit's not England." "Yes." "Yes I would liketo make a donation towards your festival." "or elections." "Pleasecall mewhen you getanyinformation." "This is my number." "It'll taketime.." "His address can onlybe known ifthere's any post in his name." "Sure." "Can I have your number please?" "Yes." "Yes, yes.." "Takemymobilenumber only.. 982.." "Hello Madam." "Hello.. once again." "Wehear you're working a lot thesedays." "Letalone a valid Work Permit, you don't even havea VISA." "How can this go on madam?" "is any of your vacation plan coming up?" "Nothing I can think of." "My body's been behaving strangelytoday.Aching pain." "When shall I pay a visit?" "Aspaspa." "Fuck!" "Fuck!" "Baby.." "Wherehave you been?" "Left me stranded,tied-up to apost." "I am famished." "Where's thekey?" "." "Fucking hell!" "What's going on?" "Hello Sir." "You can take your clothes off and lie down." "Don't worry, he's usedto it." "I'll just wash my hands and be right back." "What the hell's all this?" "What could I do, Sir?" "I've been tied-up the last two days." "Had to makedo somehow." "Baby.." "What's he doing here?" "I'm stepping out fora while." "Baby, I'm juststepping out." "Madam!" "Baby, ba.." "Baby Madam!" "I'll comeback in a coupleof days." "Hello." "Yeah." "What're you doing?" "I'm waiting." "Hey, you know these guys arereally excited." "I'll tell you.." "They'relike.." "Out to havea goodtime." "And eagerto meet you." "So his name's Benjamin Patel?" "Yeah." "But hegoes by other names too." "Well, shouldn'tbe too difficult to find him." "Theseguys.." "They havetheir big diamond tradeout of Brussels." "Big lnvestors." "You makethem happy, they make me happy." "Who knows, theymight even gift you a big stoneor something." "How long do you think it'll beto find him?" "Depends on how soon they sign the Cheque." "Comeon." "Let's go." "Hey guys." "Meet my friend Ruth." "Ruth, my friends." "Sit." "Hey Ruth, tell them how old you are." "I'm twenty." "Twenty!" "Ooh.. that's really young, man!" "Shall we?" "We'll movethe party someplaceinteresting." "Hi." "Hi." "Prashant." "Hi!" "Are you off somewhere?" "Yes." "I haveto talk to you." "Notnow." "It's important." "Any problem?" "No." "Yes, yes there is." "Let go Prashant." "Listen, shedoes not want to talk to you." "Let her go man." "She is my girlfriend." "Who are you?" "Come on Peter, let's go." "Come on let's go." "Sorrylove, see you later." "Peter wait." "I'm sorrybaby you shouldn't havehit me." "Fuck off." "I don't like gold." "I don't dig itat all." "Never really complements me." "I am allergic, no?" "Also, anecklace's like aleash around theneck.." "Leaves rashes on me." "Gold on clothes okaythough - embroidery, border.." "But.." "Give it a break." "Can you not just shut-up?" "Constantly blabbering on thephone." "Will you pleaseshut-up?" "Letmegetback to you later." "Aren't you ashamed?" "Aren't you ashamed of yourself?" "." "For a merethousand rupees?" "I am talkingto you." "Listen.." "I am talkingto you." "Leaveher alone." "What?" "Leave her alone." "It's noneof your business." "It is mybusiness." "Anybodyl care about is mybusiness." "Stop screaming around here." "Don't createa scene." "Ruth's not talking to you now." "Ithappens under your supervision." "That means you'rein ittoo." "You'retheonewho's tutored her into this." "Look, whatpeopledo.." "Andwhy is it that they do.." "What's itto you.." "Don't give methis Psychology crap." "Shenever did itwith you, right?" "But our clients have their preferences." "They aren't like you." "Don'tjustify her." "Do you want your massageor not?" "No, I don't." "Then get out." "You'rewasting mytime." "Don't givemetheeye." "I'll fucking poke them out." "Hello.." "Yes.. yes tell me." "Hang on a minute." "Yes.." "Got it." "Thank you." "Thank you so much." "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Withoutwisdom, how will you cross over?" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Withoutwisdom, how will you cross over?" "You found a stone, made an idol to worship." "lfthatgod had power, wouldn't it destroy you?" "You get coconuts to worship your god." "Two littlepieces you give as an offering.." "..thecoconut you swallow whole!" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Withoutwisdom, how will you cross over?" "Tangled in it's ugly deeds, this world!" "Withoutwisdom, how will you cross over?" "Hello.." "Yes?" "is Mr. Benjamin home?" "No, he's not home." "He's out for some work." "Hehad asked me to come." "In that casehe must beon his way." "Do comein." "What would you like" " Water, Tea, Coffee?" "Tea." "Tea.." "Okay." "Aren't thereany pictures of Mr. Ben here?" "He's into clicking others' pictures, no?" "Hello girlfriend.." "Happy Diwali.." "I need a Gun." "What.." "What.." "What.." "Say again.." "Ruth.." "Ruth, where were you the whole day?" "." "I'vebeen tryingto reach you." "Prashant's been here thricealready." "Hekept repeating like akid, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry"." "What's going on?" "Can I stay over here tonight?" "You can sleep at my place." "No." "Here.." "Ruth, are you okay?" "." "Can I sleep over here?" "Yeah." "Hi." "Lynn.." "Yes?" "Why do you comehere?" "Don't you havea girlfriend?" "Why.." "Why do you ask?" "You can'thandlerelationships." "I mean.." "No, notthat.." "You're my most loyal customer." "Without fail," "you come here everyday why?" "." "I love you." "Oh.." "Fuck.." "You knew, you knew it all this time." "What?" "." "Get up." "Get up." "Get up." "Get up.." "Sit down.." "I wanna talk to you." "Why did you write me that letter?" "Why did you say you miss me." "Why did you say sorry." "Sorry forwhat?" "I love you." "Thatis not an answer." "I love you." "That's not good enough." "Answerthe fucking question." "I love you." "What do you want. ls this what you want?" "is this what you call love?" "I reallylove you." "I waited for you for so many years." "I missed you." "I missed you." "Shut up, shutup.." "Answermy questions." "is that why Emily killed herself?" "." "Emily.." "Emily.." "is that why Emily killed herself?" "." "What do you know about Emily?" "What do you know about Emily?" "I loved Emily." "You gother pregnant." "I loved her." "I usedto seeher playing in thegarden outside.." "I usedto talk for hours with her.." "Yourmother.." "Your mother fell for me becauseofmy doting on Emily.." "You fucked a 15 year old, don't you seewhat's wrongwith that?" "I loved Emily." "Don't you know how sick thatis?" "You married mymother.." "No listen to me.." "Stupid girl, I told her to go for an abortion, but your mother refused to take her to a doctor." "Now tell mewho's fault was it?" "Your mother wanted to marry me because.." "You fucked a 15 year old." "That's the fucking problem." "Because I loved her." "Don't you seewhat's wrong with marrying mymother.." "..and fucking her child?" "I married yourmother becausel wantedto bewith Emily." "I loved Emily. I wantedto bewith her." "You sick pervert." "You're so sick." "Do you hear yourself?" "." "You're so sick." "You have to die." "Ruth, talk to me Ruth." "Ruth are you okay?" "." "I should kill you." "Listen.." "listen to me." "Ruth, talk to me Ruth." "I'd gotten over Emily." "I cameto meet you here." "Why did you comehere?" "Why didn't your mother tell you everything. lt's all her fault." "And, and then you. lt was you who suggestedthehand, hand-job.." "You could'vesaid no N-O." "You could've said no." "You could've said no." "Butl love you." "I really loved you." "Get out." "Get out, get out." "Pleaseget out ofmy life." "Get out please, get out." "Can I pleasesit here for5 mins, with you?" "I wantedto forget Emily.." "..but itwas you who brought her memory back forme." "Please, don't go." "Please." "Pleasestay for 2 mins." "Ruth.. just don't go.." "Wecan start again.." "Ruth.. say something.." "Ruth.." "Ruth, please come out." "Ruth, please come out." "Ruth, pleasecomeout." "Ruth, pleasecomeout." "Ruth, open the door." "He is gone.." "You're safenow.." "Please." "What happened?" "Ruth, just come out dear." "Ruth!" "What is it?" "Baby!" "Baby, what's wrong?" "It's me." "Open up." "Baby, I am sorry." "I didn't mean to hit you theother day." "I was only trying to protect you." "Those guys were taking you for a ride." "Open up!" "What's wrong?" "Say something." "What happened?" "That man was her father." "Where'd you get that?"