" Alright, mate?" " What?" " Oh, I said how's it going?" " Whatcha mean?" " You like working here?" " Yeah I guess so." "No, sometimes I wonder is this really all there is?" "I know there's plenty more." "First we're building another house, you see?" "Over there." "Then yet another bridge very soon." "So there's plenty left, mate." "Don't worry, we'll have plenty work for you." "No, no, I mean in life, you know..." " In life?" " Yeah." "Is..." "Is this everything life has to offer?" "When I went to school I thought everything would get so much better when I became an apprentice." "But it didn't." "Then I thought everyting gets so much better when I got myself a regular job." "But that... didn't really make..." " ...a difference and I was just..." " What are you going on about?" "It's the same thing over and over again." "I can't seem to find a meaning with anything and I don't know what's..." "What's right, what's wrong." " Why all this..." "like..." " What the hell right or wrong?" "Who told you anything was supposed to have a meaning anyway?" "What do you mean?" "I don't understand what you're going on about." "You have to do something." " You have to earn a living, yeah?" "Well yeah!" " Yeah I know." "Where is this somewhere else you'd rather be then?" " I don't know..." " There, you see?" "You might as well work here." "And don't forget about the cheap hot dogs and soda..." "Know this 'un you see what I mean, aye?" ""Sitting on the dock of the bay Wasting time"" "Really I can't go around feeling like this..." "All the time." " Ah, you'll be alright." " How do you know?" "Have you ever..." "been depressed yourself?" "Oh yeah." "Plenty of times." "All the time." "Though I wouldn't call it you know a heavy depression, it's more like a crisis, you know?" " Crisis?" " Oh, yeah." "Like a mid-life crisis." "How old are you?" " 28." " Oh my God, you're in the middle of a bunch of crises." "First you had your teenage crisis." "Then your 25 and then your 27-year-old crisis, and soon..." " ...your 30-year-old crisis." " But... what's the difference..." " ...with all these crises?" " Nah... it's all more or less the same shit." " When?" " When what?" "When will everything be OK?" "You said..." "You said it will be OK after a while." "Naah..." "No." "It will never really be OK." "What I said was that..." "I just mean that it'll get easier." "Eventually you'll realize that this is it -- "This is normal" like." " So this... anxiety is normal?" " Yep." " Angst is normal?" " Yep." " Doubt?" " Always at it." " Not knowing what to wear in the morning?" " Normal." " Fear of losing all of one's friends?" " Yeah, perfectly normal." "Oh shit..." "So..." "What you're saying is this anxiety of mine is normal." "And it..." "is something that everyone's got." "And that if I found this meaningful and it felt alright, that would not be a normal feeling." "I would call that sick." "If you'd gone around here claiming "Ah this is the life", then I would've reckoned you ought to see a doctor." "So in other words, I'm perfectly normal." " I'd say around 78-79%." " That isn't so bad." "No that's good." ""Sitting on the dock of the bay Wasting time"" "So..." "You enjoy working here?" " No, I think it sucks." " Good!" "That's more like it." "Transcribed from English Audio by Chilekesh."