"I am writing this for you, just for you." "It is the only thing that matters." "She always had been afraid of him." "It was precisely this fear which caused the decision." "She could not resist it." "Mikaela!" "You're insane, there isn't any time!" "Still think there isn't time?" "You are completely crazy." "I'm getting tired of it, can't you come up with something else?" "I want to see you try it." " What would be different?" "I was late to make things more exciting." "You were so late that we almost missed the exam." " Afraid you won't see your idol?" " He isn't my idol." "Well, you're a bit angry today." "You need to lighten up!" "What the hell are you doing?" "Come on!" "Stop... stop!" "What is it?" "What...?" "It's all right." " Really?" " It's fine." "You go fast all the time!" "I know." "Do we have to write on only those subjects?" " What would you write about, then?" " This." " Do you have to be so weird?" " I'm just trying to impress you." "I read it when I was your age, but didn't understand much." "Not Max." "He get's it all..." " Why don't you shut up, John?" " Now what did I say?" "The only thing I have to say is that they are not very important." "It's actually very important what's written concerns you." "That matters." ""It will be our secret," she said." ""Don't tell anyone. "" "She could feel the smell of him on her hands." "As if it infected." "As if he had infected her." "She remembered pretending to fight against it the first time." "How she pulled his necklace and felt it brake." "He had grabbed her wrists, pushed them down against the mattress" "And fastened the strap." "Mikaela!" "You looked completely absorbed while you were writing." "What topic did you choose?" " "A Summer Memory. "" " That wasn't one of the topics." " Did you write about Sartre?" " No." "I wrote an analysis of being an outsider." "Pathetic, right?" "I love to confirm the myth about myself that way." "Hey, I had hard-on for about two hours." "It's true!" "You know what?" "I had made great links between existentialism   and my night in Hammarbyhamnen last week." "But what did you write about?" "Mikaela, what you write about?" "I wrote down a dream." " Nightmare?" " Nope, just a dream." " How sad." "Hello, Jocke!" "He sounded convincing when he said love's only purpose was for pro-creation" "Then I was completely terrified." " Why?" " I'd be doomed to eternal misfortune." " Right." "I knew Jocke would agree." "Do not call me Jocke." "You'd learn to appreciate women." "But, Sandra, I do of course." "But do..." "Can you stop it?" "!" " Do you want to know the future?" " Yes, I do!" "I have to." "Jerker!" " Wait..." "Go ahead." "This is your wish." "You dream of being satisfied and in harmony with yourself." "Harmony is such a shitty, boring word." "You often feel like people do not like you." "But that's not true." "You are loved." "This is the last card." "Here's the answer to your question:" "This means change." "And that means to find a new life." "This will happen when you notice someone you haven't noticed before." " In that case, which card means "death"?" " None." "That is unknown." " Have you received an answer to your question?" " Yes." "I've got answer." "I know exactly what to do." " What Can I do for you, Max?" " What happened with that girl?" " Girl?" "It was a guy." "How are things at your home now?" "It's okay." "Daddy is away, so it's quiet." "Your mother?" " Every time he leaves, she believes..." " What?" " What you talking about?" " The girls have secrets." " Are you going?" " Bye!" "He did not even say goodbye." "Mom?" "No, no..." "Not yet!" " Christmas gift or birthday gift?" " Do you have Christmas presents now?" " It smells so good." " Yes." "I got the idea I should cook a proper dinner." "It is French beef stew, you know." "You will stay at home?" "And wine, too." " Of course I bought wine." " Has something happened?" " Oh." "Must something happen before you want to have some fun?" "No, I don't think I'm cooking as good as I used to." "I think it's good." "It turned out interesting." "But isn't the wine fantastic?" "When you buy good wine, the food doesn't need to be perfect." "And also so you can sleep." "What do you mean?" "Just that now you will be able to sleep tonight." "Why are you implying that?" " What?" " As if the food is just an excuse." "Not what I meant." "What did you mean, then?" "Mikaela." "Hello?" " Will you not eat?" " You eat." "I've lost my appetite." " Sorry." " It's not your fault." "Magnus rang today." "He gets home earlier." " Why?" " Because I asked him, that's why." "I can not stand him being away without knowing where and with whom." " Who called?" " I don't know." "No one was there." "Hey." "What's wrong?" "I'm so pissed at him." "I can't stand it when he's like this!" " Who?" " Max!" "He doesn't know what he is doing." "Hi." "Is that you again?" "Come, then!" "Hello, kitty..." "Alright, now I'm going to hand these out to you." "Otherwise, there's nothing else to do." "I had a few problems correcting some of the essays - since they are renovating the front of my house   and there's is not-stop noise." "We'll go through some things that many of you wrote incorrectly." "For example, the difference between the words "Extradite" and "omission. "" "Mikaela, what did you get?" "What did he give you?" "Four." "Four plus." "Johan, you can create a sense with the word "omit"?" "I felt omitted." "This is the most common error." "Almost everyone says so." "What was his comment, then?" ""..." "Extradite the author himself and his thoughts. "" "What did he wrote?" "Can I read?" " There's nothing." " "For the sake of his loved ones... "" " "... he omits some facts. "" " What do you mean, "nothing"?" " What did you write about?" " He didn't write everything." "He withholds certain things." " Max, give me that." " Take it, then." " Take it, then..." " Give it to me!" "What the hell...?" "Stop it." "Give it here, now!" " Take it!" "Take it!" " Give me the paper!" "Give it!" "Open... open... open!" "Joakim, open the door." "So, now I've read it!" "Are you still mad at me?" " For what?" " Taking the paper." " I want to apologize for it." " It did not matter." "It was stupid." " Are you doing anything special this afternoon?" " I'm going to study a bit." "It's just me." "Did you hear that sound?" "Which sound?" " It was a scream." " No, I didn't hear anything." "I have your book." "It was lying in the hallway." " I tried to take it to the library..." " I just came from there." " You study there a lot." " I have to." "Otherwise I will fall behind." " You seem to sit there every day." " Do you have a car?" "Why are you staying in the house while they renovate it?" "I refuse to move." "It's just the facade." "I didn't think that it would be so bad." " May I smoke?" " No." "Here." "I live here." "Damn!" "You should write more." "Thanks for the ride." "The cigarette between his lips." "His hands which turned the rearview mirror." "August 2nd." "What?" "Yes." "Could you please tell him to call his wife?" "No..." "No, I can't hear you!" "Yes..." "This Is Mrs. Holm." "Mrs. Holm." "Ask him to call me." "Home." "Yes..." "Holm!" "If a person With superior male chromosome XXX is called "supermale"   maybe you can figure out what XYY stands for." "Stands for Max." "He has always been "superfemale. "" "And people like you are called impotent." " And you'd know so fucking much about it." "Why do you always have to be so shitty?" "Should we stop bullying and try to learn something?" "Sandra, Mikaela..." "Be so kind and get the chromosome models." "I don't think Max is like the way most people imagine him." "I think I can understand him better than that." "So fucking typical Spielman not to mention where the stuff is." "Do you believe that people can change?" "I don't know." "Maybe." "Damn!" "It is always so damn hard to get a real answer from you." " Ouch!" " What is it?" "I cut myself." "Hold up your hand, I'll try to find a band-aid." "But that's blood!" "There is blood everywhere." "But it's not mine." "I heard him screaming." "Spielman is wondering what the hell you are..." "What's wrong, Mikaela?" "Before, I hit on boys who are kind of shy." "Yes, mysterious..." "I thought I would be able to figure out all their secrets." "Then I realised they just kept silent because of how boring they were." "I will not be able to sleep tonight." "You are so sensitive, Sandra." "I can follow you home later." "Damn, how fascinating it was." "Fascinating shit!" "It was disgusting." "It was necessary with some sense for beauty." "Good shit." "It was so damn scary, but you just talk about how it's fascinating." "It was just a cat, an animal." "Don't you have any feelings?" "Who are you, anyway?" "What do you mean, "Who am I?"" " Don't you have any feelings at all?" " I have feelings like everyone else." " Not any which are noticeable." " And how would you like it to show?" "What is it you want to know?" " Let's talk about something else?" " No." "Sandra..." "What is it you want to know?" "I think it's best I leave." "Sandra..." "Can't someone put her on something so that she can become normal?" "He let down her hair and wrapped it around his hand." "Then he pulled her head back." "He kissed her." "Mikaela..." "Sorry." "Damn, you scared me." "Are you okay?" "Yes, yes..." "I should just get this book." "Sometimes when I look at you, it seems like you're somewhere else." "Watch..." "It's that simple." "With just a few lines he manages to naturally describe the body." "It is only one sketch..." "He made thousands like this." "God, how beautiful this is!" " You birthday soon, huh?" " Lucia Day." " What do you wish?" " Nothing." "I still don't like my birthday." "I use to want a celebration, but thought only of Santa Lucia and glitter." " No one was singing just for me." " I can sing for you." " The night goes tongue-tied" " Not that!" "Yes, let her live, yes, let her live Yes, may she live for a hundred years!" "Sure, she will live Sure, she will live" "Hey." "This is Mikaela." "Birgitta, 's my name." "I have heard of you." " Yes, she is in my class." " You talk rarely about the class." "Just about Mikaela..." "and some others, I think." "We'll go upstairs for a while." "Linda is in your room, I think." "She's sleeping." "She might as well go to her room." "Are you hungry?" "I have some pie from yesterday and salami." " I'm not hungry." "Are you?" " No, I ate before." "Thanks anyway." "You know it's here." "God, how good she is!" " Are they new?" " Yes." "Wait a minute..." "I wish I could do something like this." "Mom!" "Mommy, Mommy!" "What is it now, then?" "I am so damn sick of this!" "She has broken everything." "Have you seen how it looks?" " Did you beat her?" " I kicked at her head." "Come, let me talk to you." "I don't get what's the matter with you..." " What don't you get?" " Why do you look at me like that?" "Don't you understand that I'm worried?" " I'm worried about you." " About me?" "Go back with up the girl." "We'll talk about this later." " Younger siblings..." " I didn't know you had one." "We are half-siblings." "I call her loaf." "She looks like a loaf." "Who's her father?" "His name was Frank." "He lived here for a while." "It was good." "I liked him." " What happened?" " They didn't get along anymore." "My mom is a bit difficult." "Apparently my dad was also, but I don't remember him." "He put a sheet with a hole over the head of mom   so she had to suck him through it." "It's true." "He didn't want to see her face." " Why are you telling me?" " Cause we are good friends." "Come, I'll show you something." "The lunar eclipse looked great in this." "Want to watch?" " Wait, I'll set it up." " No, I can." "So..." "Now you actually don't see anything." " Are you always like that?" " What do you mean, "like that?"" " Like you wrote in that essay?" " It was just an essay." "Hello!" "Hey beautiful, come up and have some coffee!" ""You wonder if you should send me my books. "" ""Dear you, I beg you, for God's sake spare me from them. "" ""I don't want no more be led, amused, fired. "" ""My heart roars yet sufficiently by itself. "" "Strange that people can commit suicide just because they have read about it." "What do you think about Werther's behavior?" "Was he right?" "Why not?" "The suicide of love is quite silly." " Why?" " It's overly exaggerated." " What do you think, Mikaela?" " It's beautiful." "Beautiful?" "I don't know if Werther was right or wrong." "But to love someone so much that it kills one is beautiful." " That's pretty goddamn hysterical!" " You didn't even read the book." "And?" "Aren't you well?" " Excuse me, I..." " What the hell are you staring at?" "Get out of here." "He let down her hair, wrapped it around his hand." "He pulled her head back and kissed her." "Mikaela, what is it?" "Are you sick?" "You are late." "Have you already started the mulled wine party?" "No, it's nothing!" "Go to bed." "He had taken a grip on her wrists " " Pushed them down against the mattress and fastened the strap." "Ouch!" "No!" "She wants it." "That is how it should be." "Oops, sorry!" "Justine, just take care of the guests towards the beginning." " Should I manage it, then?" " Yes, just be disturbingly perfect." "Very nice." " Who has been invited to your party?" " Everyone." "Even one of the teachers." "Mikaela!" "Sandra, then?" "Have you told her?" " I'll talk to Sandra." " What will you do to her?" " What do you mean, "do"?" " you have to figure out something." " Do I?" " Damn it, Max." "Well, hello?" " How was it?" " Good, thanks, fits very nice." "But..." "I'll have to come back." " Yes, it'll go fast, come back." " Thanks." "Can I help you with anything?" "Can I help?" " What is that smell?" " What smell?" "Mikaela, you have a visitor!" "Hello." "I was afraid you'd have already gone to bed." "You disappeared so fast today." " How did you know I was home?" " You don't offer him anything?" ""And darkness fell slowly in the shadow of the sun. "" ""The Silence opened the five senses " " For the stars fateful influence"  "While the liquefied twilight slowly started to rain down" " In the Sun's shadow as black snow flake and paralyzed nature. "" "But"the darkness which birds... "" ""But the darkness silence as the birds... "" ""..." "Waiting, touched only by the earth with its wing to be lost in space. "" ""And in the light everything was confusion as before. "" "That was wonderful" "I'm curious about you earlier today." "You seemed so strange." "I feel better now." "Do you feel like you know what happens?" "I felt I would see you today." "I want things to be as I want them." "Sometimes I think I can." "What is in your head?" "I know." "I'm weird." "May I...?" "Shadows brood" "Surrounding soil solar forgave" "The shadows brood" "Then in our dark house" "Rising with lit candles" "Santa Lucia" "Come on now!" "What is it you want?" "Do not look at it, Mikaela." "Do not look at it anymore." "Come!" "Oh, how disgusting!" "I can not by exercising my entire sense of humor   see the fun in this." "I just want to say that we will not tolerate   these kinds of abnormal antics in the future." "Mikaela, how are you?" "Thanks, that's all." "You can go back to class." "Mikaela!" "You should be up with the headmaster." "So you have no idea who may have done it?" "You have not been in a fight with somebody, right?" "No." " Do you have any problems with your class?" " There are no problems with them." "They are my friends." "I guess so..." "But if it happens again, I hope that you come to me." "We can't have it like this." "It's true." "He did it the same way that I wrote down." "Even the red band." "Even with that." "How long have you been doing this?" "I do not know." "For a while." "At first I just waited for him but he didn't show up at all." "But recently he started going out." "And every single time he brings someone home." "I couldn't stand that." " That was why I did it." " Did what?" "That's when I came up with the idea of him killing her." "I wanted it." "I had written it just the same." "He did everything right." "Oh, I do not believe a word of this." "You've just imagined a lot of things." "May I sleep here tonight?" " I did not know that you were drawing." " I don't." "Those are old." " Why do you tear them apart?" " I don't." "It's Loaf." "She also ruins my guitar." "You can sleep here." "I lie on the couch out there..." "Hold me." "I want you to hold me." " What did you do?" " I was in the bathroom." "I like your drawings." "How do you feel?" "Better." "It's funny how it goes." "Do you like me?" "I wish there was some way to find out." "If she is dead, where has he hid her?" " I do not believe it anymore." " Don't you think so now?" "I saw it only a few seconds." "I must have imagined." "Looking a little and filled out the rest." "As one does." " Hi." " Hi." " Have you been invited to the party?" " Yes." "Have you not?" "All have received personal invitations except me." "There must be a mistake." "Of course Max said that he would invite Sandra?" "Sure, he did." "So he must have." "My name is Eva Jörgens." "I'm substituting for the Swedish teacher today." "But that does not mean you will be idle." "So glad you came!" "I thought you would go directly to the party." "Happy birthday." "It is also from father." "I will not yell because you did not come home yesterday." " But you might as well have called." " Sorry." "I slept at Joakim's." "Are you together?" "I do not know." "You need one of those right, since you write so much?" " How do you know?" " I notice it." "All night long." "But who knows?" "Maybe you can make something out of it." "Something really great." "What is it?" "You are very pale." "Do you think it would be better to skip the party?" "Hello!" "Come in." "How fancy you are." ""Scarlett O'Hara was not beautiful but men didn't notice it when they got caught by her fascination. "" ""Like the Tarleton twins now. "" " You are beautiful." " Thank you." " Where is the party?" " Come, come, I'll show you!" "Come!" "And if somebody asks you, the house belongs to Max's family." "Here." " You must be careful with it." " I have to find it." "Shit!" "Now you just broke it." "But here is the key anyway." "So very typical, Max!" " Don't say that we are swimming in it." " Only you, John." " And you think I'll comply?" " Get on your knees." "On your knees, Johan!" "Blow to the eye." "Blow!" "This isn't fucking water." "It's wine, dammit!" "Congratulations, Michael." "Hello?" "Hello!" "Hello." "I forgot to have the honor this morning, so this is for you." "I did not know what to buy, but maybe you can use it." "Thanks!" " What do you want?" " Wine, food - everything!" " Fun, huh?" " Joakim!" "Do you know why we're having this party?" "Max is going to become engaged." " What?" "With whom?" " It is somebody who we do not know." "Max was terrified to act, but Sandra's prediction gave him courage." "He did not want her to come." "Two red wine!" "No..." "Champagne." "Two glass." "A bottle." "Hello." "Come on." "Are you sure you don't want it?" " If you remove the larva first." " Sandra, the larva is the whole point." "If you want to drink, you have to swallow the larva." "Drink now." "I know You actually want to." "If you want something in life, you must take on the fight first." "We must dare." "Sandra, you will feel so incredibly better if you drink." "See ya." "Did you see?" "So then it wasn't a dream." "That was really well done by Max." " I think it was beautiful." " But you heard well what John said." "We should stick together, you and me." "You are the only one I really know." "All others seem so strange." "They talk down everything and torment each other." "There is so much I would like to say to you." " But I do not know if you want to listen." " Of course." "You can say what you want." "We are friends." "Where are you going?" "Mikaela?" "I'll come soon." "Max!" "Max?" "What are you doing?" "You're crazy!" "Stop!" "You want it." "When did I say that?" "You have said that all evening." "You have to resist a bit, you know?" "Johan!" "Open up!" "You?" "What the hell, open the door, Johan!" "What the hell, Johan!" "Open the door!" "Johan!" "Johan!" "What the hell, open, Johan!" "Has anyone called the police?" "It looks like a necklace." "Let us finish with a minute silence for Sandra." "Can you rise?" "Max?" "Everybody is looking at me." "Everyone wants me to say something." "As if it was my fault." "Nobody thinks it was your fault." "Mikaela!" "You..." "What will you do?" "It could have been you." "You liked her." "She was your friend." "Doesn't it mean anything?" "Does it mean anything that it was him?" "I didn't see him all evening." "No, but he was there." "Mikaela!" "What will you do?" "It does feel a lot better now." "Without the bandage." "God, so good to escape the misery there!" " Is it too early?" " No." "Look!" "I can move my hand like I want." "It's over now, Mikaela." "It is fixed." "Magnus called and we talked." "He'll stay away another week, then he gets his belongings." "You've decided now?" "It is awful what has happened in your class." "Was her name Sandra?" "Have I seen her?" "I hope not..." "She has never been here." "Does anyone know who did it?" "People always reveal themselves." "I've been thinking so much." "I took out my old diary." "Where I had written this:" ""Yesterday I met a boy named Magnus. "" ""We talked for over three hours. "" ""And tomorrow we shall meet again. "" ""But I don't know if I can trust him. "" ""There is something about him. "" "Strange, huh?" "Some people you recognize at once." "You know what will happen." "Sometimes I become afraid of him, of his eyes." "A certain expression only I can see." "It is just for me." "He wants something from me, but I can not give it to him." "Mikaela." " Hello?" " Hey, it's me." "Your dad." " Was it you who just called?" " Yes, but it was busy." " Have you talked to mom?" " Yes, we live under one roof." " Is she sleeping now?" " I don't know." "I was thinking..." "When I get home, we may well meet, just you and me?" "Sure." "Are you all right, otherwise?" "Yes." "But okay, then..." "See you next week, right?" "Goodbye." "Mikaela?" "I hoped to find you here." "There has been an accident." "Your mother is in hospital." " Accident?" " The car." "I'll drive you to the hospital." "Where is my mother?" "She won't wake up until tomorrow morning." " Are you a relative?" " No, I am her teacher." " She was lucky." " Does anyone know how it happened?" "A cable, probably." "Apparently she drove straight off." "Another motorist saw it." " Now what to do with her daughter?" " I'll drive her home." "Whiskey?" "Ice?" "No thanks." "It's ok." "Nor do I like ice." "I do not like winter." "I will hate all winters after this." " Where is your dad?" " Away." "I do not even have his phone number." "My mother has it." "I forgot to look in her handbag." " It was okay there?" "The handbag?" " I didn't see it." "You noticed that I followed you, right?" "You followed me to that store." "You were looking for me at the café." "Yes." " I followed you every day." " I thought it was a game." "It was just a game, right?" "I want you to go now." "Go." "You know who it is." "Come on." "Come and sit down." "Why are they looking so innocent?" "The stars." "Small and innocent." "Do you remember when we were little, you and I?" "Do you remember how we used to play then?" "Remember?" "Down at the beach." "We ran in the sand and the sea would shine so strong that we had sore eyes." " Stop." " No." "No, wait." "Please wait..." "You were hiding in the sand." "But I found you, and threw you around until you screamed." "But it was not dangerous." "It was just for fun." "It was not me." "We were never small together." "I didn't even know you then." " We were happy then." " Stop it!" "It was not me." "It can never be as we have imagined now." "We will never get what we want." "Have you got what you want?" "Have you?" "But Sandra didn't her either." "There was something strange with her that night." "Right?" "How she danced and held on." "She made a fool of herself." "She thought that she could get Max!" "No, it was sad." "I felt sorry for her." "What will you do?" "I thought we were friends, you and me, that we were equal." "But something happened to me when I read what you wrote." "Your words." "I have always had a lot of strange thoughts." "I thought I could draw it away, but could not." "I..." "I'm not like you." "I'm not like her." "You think you are so damn good at everything." "You do not care about anything else." "Do not touch me!" "You don't want anything that's real." "This is real, I am real." "Do you see me?" "Do you see me?" "!" "We are equal, you and me." "We want the same." "Drink." "What is it?" "There is nothing dangerous." "I'll also drink." "That is what you want." "No!" "Now it's just you and me, Mikaela." "What are you afraid of?" "I didn't think that it would have been you." "But I knew all the time." "Sometimes I become afraid of him." "I am afraid of his eyes." "It is a certain expression only I see." "It is just for me." "He wants something from me." "But I can not give it to him." "Text:" "Nina Preinfalk" "Translation:" "Team Elan  aVariousSire"