"Previously on The Americans..." "Listen, Kimmy, this whole age thing... when people see us together, it's weird." "Let's just hang out in private." "Well, get in there and see what you have to work with." "What I have to work with is a hormonal 15-year-old girl." "When you were admitted to the academy, I was pregnant." "That's my son." "Our son." "_" "_" "Your birthday's coming up, and we still haven't decided what we're gonna do." "We can have some of your friends over here." "Pastor Tim and his wife?" "I kind of wanted to talk to you all about something." "What I really want this year is to get baptized." "She set this whole thing up so we couldn't say no." "If you tell her now, this will all blow up." "But at least she'll know who she is." "♪ shall we gather at the river ♪" "♪ where bright angel feet have trod?" "♪" "♪ with it's crystal tide forever ♪" "♪ flowing by the throne of God ♪" "♪ yes, we'll gather at the river ♪" "♪ the beautiful, the beautiful river ♪" "♪ gather with the saints by the river ♪" "♪ that flows by the throne of God ♪" "Welcome to the Reed Street Church baptism celebration!" "Uh, we call this a celebration and not a ceremony because this is no empty ritual." "When we immerse ourselves in these baptismal waters, we symbolically allow God's grace and forgiveness to wash over us." "It's the beginning of a new life in Christ." "Now when I look at Paige," "I am reminded of that verse in 1 John" ""Let us not love with words and speech, but with actions and truth."" "Paige gives her whole heart in every political action that we engage in at this church, whether it's drafting letters to the White House to demand that President Reagan end his support for the dehumanizing racial segregation in South Africa," "or picketing the insanity and waste of the nuclear arms race," "Paige is always on the front line, challenging, questioning, yelling." "But, Paige, this is your most defiant act of protest yet, because today, you make a public declaration that you are a child of God." "Are you ready to be renamed and reclaimed in the name of Jesus?" "Absolutely." "Paige Jennings, upon profession of your faith," "I baptize you now in the name of the Father, of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit." "Yeah!" "White Honda." "New Jersey plates." "E-U-T-9-5-2-0." "What about the blue Ford on Willard Street?" "Virginia plates." "M-N-F... 3-5..." "Close enough." "That's good." "Listen..." "I was at a student meeting." "An anti-apartheid group that I go to." "There was this one undergraduate" " Todd." "He reminded me of students I knew back in Johannesburg, hired by the government to spy on the rest of us." "I-I probably shouldn't have, but I-I followed him." "And?" "I thought I caught him looking for surveillance." "You thought?" "I-I broke off quickly in case he was, but I'm pretty sure." "Maybe the CIA threatening him with the South Africans." "Reagan would approve that." "He-- he calls the ANC terrorists while supporting Botha and his murderers." "We'll look into it, but do not follow him again unless I tell you to." " You need some help?" " Sure." "So..." "How do you feel?" "Any different?" "Uh..." "I guess." "A little." "More at peace." "Uh, up a little more." "Coming up." "Yeah, right there." "I'm really proud of you, Paige." "For what?" "For being who you are-- strong-- because we didn't make this church thing easy for you." "No, you didn't." "But you stuck to your beliefs." "Faith." "You can always do that, you know?" "Stand up for what you want." "You should never feel pressure to... to do anything that you don't feel is right for you." "I think it's crooked." "It's straight." "Did you hear what I said?" "Yes, dad, I heard what you said." "I'm not gonna drink or do drugs." " No, I know that." " So then what is this about?" "It's about always remembering to be your own person, because no one knows what's better for you than you." "Even if... they care for you or have your best interests at heart." "You should always be true to yourself." "Going to church is being true to myself, dad." "I know." "That's not what I meant." "Okay, dad." "I just want you to be happy." "That's all." "Thanks." "So, Tori, what do you do?" "I was a hospital administrator, but I'm in between jobs right now." "A lot of people are." "Yeah." "Things are picking back up." "Uh, volunteering at EST has really kept my spirits going." "What's EST?" "Erhard Seminars Training." "That's where we all met." "What kind of training is that?" "Mm, personal." "Spiritual." "Emotional." "Spiritual?" "Like church?" "No." "Well, dad said it wasn't a church." "Right, dad?" "It's definitely not church." "It's not even religious." "It's about being in touch with where you're at." "You know, just being you, and taking what you get and being cool with it." "People think church is all about feeling sorry for yourself, but it's not." "Not at my church, anyway." "Paige just got baptized." "Oh." "That's cool." "Listen, whatever works." "Right?" "I mean, everybody's got their own thing." "Right?" "I just know that EST saved my life." " How?" " Henry." "No." "I don't mind." "I had a really rough childhood, and EST helped me face what happened and... forgive." "Hey, maybe we shouldn't talk about this now." "But what is it?" "Uh... it's a group of people who get together and try and help each other out with their problems." "What kind of problems?" "Grown-up problems, Henry." "Sounds weird." "You know what?" "It kinda is." "You have to eat, Nina." "Please." "Mnh-mnh." "Just eat something." "Look, you made a mistake, but... you have to stay strong." "For what?" "I have nothing." "No one." "No one?" "You said you had a husband." "I left him." "He was begging me not to." "How can you love someone who leaves you?" "Well, if you're in love..." "You still believe in love?" "After all this?" "Yes." "Of course." "What?" "What else is there?" "Men don't think like this." "Only us." "Women." "In America, I had two lovers." "One communist, one capitalist." "I was whatever they wanted me to be." "I loved them both different ways." "But at the end, they loved their countries more than they loved me." "Mmm." "Mmm." "Where are you?" "Uh, my house?" "No." "You know what I mean." " Hmm?" " Where's your head at?" "Are you with me in there?" "Yeah." " Yeah?" " Mm, yeah." "I don't think you are." "And if we're gonna do this, then I need you to be here." "All of you." "I don't know what you want." "I just want you to be honest." "Are you thinking about your ex-wife?" "She's still my wife." "20 years is a long time to be with someone." "This is our house." "I've never been with anyone but Sandra in this house." "That must be really hard." "It is." "But it's also..." "really good." "To feel it and to know it and to not push it away." "Hmm?" "Yeah." "Don't peek." "Okay, I promise I won't." "Good." "Kimmy." "Okay!" "Okay." "Okay." "Mm." "No." "I'm baked." "Lightweight." "Ready?" "What is this?" "Pink Floyd." "Just lay back, close your eyes, and take it in." "Oh, my God." "This is amazing." "I know." "I have a better idea." "Why don't we take a bath together?" "Come on." "Lie back, listen to the music." "No, I really wanna take a bath with you, James." "You take a bath." "No." "I'll wait." "You should be relaxed." "Okay." "Mom?" "Paige." "I'm..." "You know what?" "This is ridiculous." "I..." "Look." "Sometimes, I smoke, and..." "I know you smoke." "Henry knows, too." "We're not clueless, mom." "And I'm not gonna nag you about it because I know you already know it's really bad for you." "But I will say that I wish you didn't and I hope you quit." "Don't look at me like that, mom." "Like what?" "I don't know." "Like that." "I'm..." "I'm just impressed with you." "That's all." "You're just... all grown-up all of a sudden." "Can you extend my curfew then?" "That's a good one." "Had to try." "It's been really nice hanging out with you, mom." "It's been so nice for me, too." "I know the church stuff isn't always easy for you, so... thanks for supporting me." "Paige, I will support you no matter what." "I hope you know that." "So... what do you really think about church, mom?" "Well... there are probably one too many potlucks." "Well, we can all agree on that." "But, I mean... the spiritual part." "Yeah." "It's just not really my thing, Paige." "How do you know?" "I mean, have you ever tried it?" " What?" " Praying." "No." "It's-- it's scary at first." "Not scary." "It's... kind of silly, like you're talking to yourself." "But... after a while, you-- you feel something." "What?" "I don't know." "A... a presence." "It helps." "James?" " Hey." " Hi." "Where were you?" "I was just going to my car because..." "I have a surprise for you." "What is it?" "Well, go and wait in your room." "I'll go get it." "And no peeking." " How much longer?" " Five minutes." "Give me your earrings." "Now." " Where's my surprise?" " Mm." "I love them." "Thank you." "How do they look?" "Beautiful." "You're a good kisser." "What's wrong?" "I can't." "But my parents won't be home for hours, I swear." "It's not-- it's not your parents." "What are you talking about?" "I want to, but I..." "Why?" "You don't want me?" "N-no." "I-I want you, Kimmy." "Believe me, I want you." "But..." "Just say it." "Things have been hard lately." "I've had a lot of problems at work and... some other... stuff." "And a guy at work told me about a church he goes to." "I hadn't been to church since I was a kid because..." "I always hated it." "But I have been going... and it is starting to make sense to me." "And the minister talks about starting over and... having a new life with God." "And..." "I think I wanna try that." "Wait." "You're-- you're breaking up with me?" "No." "No, I don't-- No, I don't want to." "I-I-I hope you don't want to." "I just need to take things slowly." "That's all." "Is that okay?" "Sure." "But... are you sure it's not me?" "If I'm doing something wrong?" "Because you can tell me." "No." "No, it's not you at all." "You're... you're perfect." "He told me to meet him in Brussels." "After you left the package he gave you?" "Yes." "I've never been to Brussels." "That's where we first met." "We both made the same mistake-- trusting the men we loved." "No, it's not like that with me, not like you." "He put you here." "No." "He would never do that." "He loves me." "He lied to you, Evi." "He never lied to me." "You do things for love." " Hey." " Hey." "Everything okay here?" "The Centre wants us to follow that 19-year-old super spy provocateur" "Hans is worried about." "Great." "Really?" "Yeah." "What?" "Paige." "She thinks I should start praying." "I would like to see that." "She's living in a fantasy world." "I don't know, because Jesus really came through for me tonight." "I told Kimberly the reason I couldn't sleep with her was... because I had to serve Jesus instead." "Oh, my." "Yeah." "Shh!" "Shh, shh, shh, shh!" "Ahh." "So you didn't sleep with her?" "No, I didn't." "But if this operation drags on and... she gets older, then... maybe." "Notice anything new?" "There's no classified files." "And they're not coming back." "Made a couple of calls." "Hey, Stan." "Can I talk to you for a second?" "Sure." "I was just talking to my buddy Dan Thompson in the Cincinnati field office." "Uh, we were at Quantico together." "Yeah, he said." "So I got some bad news." "We lost four guys in a small plane crash in Ohio." "He said you were friends with one of them." "Dave." "We worked out of the Midwest bank robbery squad together." "It hasn't been announced yet." "Just thought you'd like to know." "Sorry." "If I can do anything..." "Hi, this is Arthur." "If you have a message for me, Sandra, or Matthew, please leave your name, number, and time of your call after the beep." "No leftovers?" "Sorry." "I got the bug in." "Good." "How's Kimberly?" "I think she's nervous about a math test she has coming up." "Oh." " Do you want some coffee?" " Sure." "Having weekly updates is going to make a big difference." "The Mujahideen can barely function without a American assistance." "Weekly?" "Conditions in the field won't support that." "Has it gotten intimate yet?" "You have to forge a real bond with her if you're going to get to the recording device when you need to." "You know this." "You've known this from the beginning." "Our soldiers in Afghanistan are" "I know what's going on in Afghanistan." "Philip, I wasn't going to tell you this until things calmed down, but I think it best that you know it now." "About a month, we captured Irina in Brazil." "She's been sent home." "There will be a trial." "I know you spoke to her about two years ago." "She has a son." "His name is Misha." "He's 20 years old." "He's in the 345th Independent Paratroop Regiment in Faizabad." "She says he's yours." "Only you know if it's true, Philip." "But I've been checking on him, and he's a good soldier." "His commanders respect him a great deal." "He's loyal." "He's trustworthy." "He's like you in that respect." "I didn't want to have to tell you this way." "Have you told Elizabeth?" "Of course not." "Hans' teenage spy likes redheads and is failing biology." "What's wrong?" "Nothing." "Nothing." "I had a" " I had a hard meeting with Gabriel." "What happened?" "He... told me... that I" "He's trying to help, Philip." "With Paige." "I know it's a lot to deal with, especially with everything else going on, but after the baptism" "I have to switch the tapes at Kimberly's weekly, not monthly." "Then pop my gourmet popping corn in my buttery flavored oil." " It'll taste buttery without any butter." " Hello?" "In here." "...and fluffier than other popcorn, so each tender mor" "We saw it on the news." "I'm sorry." "Thanks." "I'm sorry." "Have you talked to Ellen?" "Not yet." "I tried to call her a couple times." "The phone was busy." "Yeah, I'll call her tomorrow." "Oh, those kids." "Yeah." "You met him once." "You remember?" "Uh, yeah." "I think so." "Dave was-- he was... he was just so funny." "Wasn't he?" "He was." "I meant to call them, you know?" "I meant to call them so many times." "I just..." "Can't take one moment for granted." "There's gonna be a memorial in a couple of weeks." "Will you come?" "I don't know." "Uh..." "It's in Chicago, isn't it?" "I'll think about it." "Um..." " I'll see tomorrow night." " Mm-hmm." "And take care of yourself." "Don't keep it all in." "Your friend Hans is on to something." "That student you followed met with Eugene Venter from South African Intelligence." "Any idea what he's doing here?" "The Centre has had intercepts about the NIS planning violent attacks in the US to discredit the anti-apartheid movement." "And they think that you may have just found the man who's going to carry them out." "What's he doing meeting with an undergraduate?" "A lot of the anti-apartheid movement is centered on college campuses." "So you think they're gonna blow up a bunch of kids?" "I think Mr. Reagan has made some very bad friends in South Africa." "The whole world watches while he cozies up to the most racist government on the planet." "And we are going to break him with it." "Philip is losing faith in me." "It's Paige." "I know." "I never want you to deceive him, but if he's holding you back on this..." "He knows I'm going ahead without him." "But you're not going ahead." "I know!" "I lost my backpack." "Were you supposed to pick me up today?" "A client rescheduled a ticket pickup." "You want a ride?" "Sure." "Nina." "I can't sleep." "Just lay down, close your eyes." "You haven't looked at me since you came back." "I'm looking at you now." "Everything is okay, yes?" "Nina?" "Nina?" "No." "What did you do?" "!" "Nina!" "No!" "No!" "No!" "What did you do?" "!" "Nina!" "Nina!" "Nina, what did you do?" "!" "What did you do?" "!" "Nina, what did you do?" "!" "Nina!" "No!" "No!" "No!" " Hey." " Hey." "How was school?" "It was all right, I guess." "I don't know." "Stupid." "Whatever." "Can-- can we go someplace and talk?" "I'm kind of busy right now." "I'm only in town for today." "I..." "I have, like, a bunch of stuff I have to do," " and" " I can't stop thinking about you." "My parents won't be home till tonight." "You wanna come over?" "Yeah." "What are we doing here?" "I wanna show you something." "Here?" "It'll be okay." "Come on, let's go." "Come on." "Come on." "Can we talk for a second?" "Okay." "I didn't tell you the whole story before, about why I went back to church." "When I was 17, I got a girl pregnant." "She raised him on her own." "She never asked for anything." "But he's grown now, and I want to see him, but I can't." "Because what could I say?" "What could I do?" "I failed him." "I never took any responsibility for... anything, and now I want to." "I have to." "I need to..." "Because I want to be a better man, the man that I couldn't be for my son." "I want" " I want you more than you know." "I want you, Kimmy, but I am... really messed up right now." "It's okay." "It's okay, James." "Could you-- This is gonna sound... crazy." "What?" "Would you pray with me right now?" "Yes." "I will." "God, thank you for bringing Kimmy into my life." "She is such a blessing." "I am so confused right now." "Please help me to do the right thing and... be a better person." "Amen." "And please, please, God, please watch over James' son, wherever he is." "And please let James see him again, because I know he'll be an amazing father." "Amen." "That was amazing." "It was." "What are we doing here, mom?" "I had a good friend who lived near here." "Who?" "His name was Gregory." "Did dad know him?" "Yeah." "We all worked together in the Civil Rights movement." "Your parents were real activists." "And Gregory, he was... he was very important to me." "Important how?" "He helped me see the world in a different way." "He..." "He helped me understand things I had only read about in books." "Were you ever arrested?" "No." "We were never caught." "Let's sit down." "We didn't just sing songs and march, you know." "We fought in other ways." "What other ways?" "Mom." "It wasn't always legal, but it was right." "It was right for the greater good." "When did you do this?" "When we were first married, before you were born." "And after, too." "Your father and I, we care about a lot of things." "It's not just about the travel agency for us." "I love all the good you're doing with the church, but sometimes doing good is harder than... going to rallies and signing petitions." "You think I don't do enough?" "No, that's..." "I just..." "I think there's something special about you, and I just think you could accomplish anything you wanted to." "So... what, you brought me all the way here to tell me it shouldn't be in the church?" "No, I brought you here because I wanted you to know that I'm more like you than you think."