"Failure is an inevitability." "Dr. Cristina Yang." "Thank you, Dr. Hunt." "The, uh..." "The procedure i... is so relatively untried that the associated risks are un-unusually high." "Still, that shouldn't be a reason not to try." "Every scientist was told "no,"" "over and over." " You okay?" " Yeah." "Fortunately, the patient is responding very well for now." "His vitals remain stable, and it is our hope that this will continue." "And if it does," "I am cautiously optimistic that we can call this procedure a success..." "Uh..." ""home run" is a better word." "Dr. Yang hit a home run." "Thanks to her, baby Nathan is thriving this morning." "The ones we remember." "The ones who changed our lives." "The curies, the salks... the barnards..." "We'll print another portal vein." "We'll perform tests on that, and look for material that will hold up better." "So we go back to the drawing board?" "They're the ones who wouldn't take "no" for an answer." "Yes, ma'am." "Morning." "Is that your name I see on the O.R. board this afternoon?" "Well, it's just a cholie." "Getting my feet wet." "You're gonna miss Kepner's wedding?" "Well, I scheduled my first surgery when everyone will be gone." "I-I didn't want to make a big fuss." "You got a tumor debulking." " You gonna be done in time?" " I will be done on time." "All right." "3-4-9-1." "3-4-9-1." "You're operating, too, huh?" " The medication's helping?" " Mm." "I'm proud of you, Bailey." "I don't want to make a big fuss." "I thought that went pretty well." "You're off my service." "And you've got to be over your hours." " You should go home and take a day off." " What?" "!" " What for?" " You don't know when to keep your mouth shut." "They needed to hear it was an extraordinary..." "I am not comfortable with you speaking for me, especially about this case." "Ross actually said what needed to be said." "And you were not comfortable at all." " You were tanking in there." " I'm only at 68 hours for the week." "See?" ""J.A.M.A." wants a interview." "It should be short." "Conference room "C"." "I'm worried about you." "You've been going too fast lately." " And I'm not the only one who noticed." " Who?" " It doesn't matter who." " Have I screwed up?" " Is my work not up to..." " No." "Your work is-is great." "It's just, you're becoming..." "You're going to burn yourself out." "I think I know what this is." "You just need to work off some tension." "We're not doing that anymore." "If you're worried I think it's more than it is, I don't." "It's just to relax you." "It's you who needs to relax." "I'm fine." "I'm sorry." "Don't shut me out." "I'm fine." "Ross, go home." "Okay, so first we determine the receptive field of all the sensors, right?" " Yeah." " Okay." "Derek, the guys from Kleiss Neuroscience" " will be here in 20." " Oh, I can't." "I..." "Once I'm done here, I have to get Bailey to a music class." "Um, what's this?" "They want to talk to me about a research thing." "It's not just a "thing."" "It is the presidential initiative on brain mapping." " It is the thing." " Okay." "No." "We're starting phase two." "Okay?" "He's my brain now." "Meredith can have the rest." "I get his brain." " I'll get rid of them." " No, you won't." "You will say "yes" to them." "And you're both gonna be at Kepner's wedding, yes?" " Mm-hmm." " Uh-huh." "I'm not going." "Bailey's doing surgery, finally." "And I'd rather do that than watch Arizona stand up there looking gorgeous while I'm some pathetic, shriveled, leftover, discarded thing she scraped off her shoe." " Ew!" " No, don't do that." "No!" "I know you think this is just what I do." "Oh, hey, hey!" "You're all going to the wedding, right?" " Yes." " Is it mandatory?" "This is exactly... exactly what you do." "I know what I do, and this is not that." "She was important." "We were something." "Maybe they was something." " Nah." " No." "How's your dad?" "He's told all the nurses you're his kid." "He's proud." "How is he?" "Don't know." "Don't really care." "Help!" "You gotta help my boy!" "He's been run over!" "Sir, do not move!" "Don't move him!" "No, no, no, no." "Stop!" "Stop!" "The gurney!" "Keep him still." "Backboard and C-spine!" "He was driving the tractor." "He hit a bump and fell off." "He went under the wheel and the chaser bin, too." "Has he moved at all since?" "Yeah, yeah, he was trying to get up." " Okay, let's get him straight to the lodox." " All right, let's go!" " What's his name?" " Cody." "His name's Cody." "Cody, I'm Dr. Robbins." "Can you hear me?" "You didn't call an ambulance?" "I called 9-1-1." "But then he passed out, and I was so scared, I couldn't wait." "So I-I brought him here myself." "You say he was moving before?" "Yeah." "That's good, right?" "Sir, I'm gonna need you to step back." "We're going to do everything we can." "Uh, excuse me, Grey?" "Uh, the press would like some photos of the printer." " Is this a good time?" " Oh, sure." "Where do you want us?" "Oh, well, it's actually..." "It's for the Nathan Glazier case." "So.." "But it's printing my work." "Yeah, that's fine." "I mean, no one would know." "We can come back." "Okay, right by the printer." "Oh, Dr. Yang, that's perfect." "It's a burst fracture at C-6." "Page Torres." "His belly's full of blood." " He's going to the O.R. now." " He should've waited for the ambulance." "I think this guy paralyzed his own kid" " by bringing him here himself." " We don't know that yet, Alex." " I got this." "Why don't you go be with your dad?" " That's all right." "What?" "You must have questions." "Long-lost father?" "I mean, I'd have a billion." "Help me get him to the O.R., and then I'll call you if I need you, okay?" "Let's go." "Is he gonna be okay?" "He has a lot of internal bleeding," "So we need to operate right away." " Also, his neck is broken." " Oh, my god." "He can move, right?" "He was moving." " That was before he was mov..." " We'll know more in a bit." "We're doing everything that we can." "So sit tight." "Ohh!" "Uhh!" " Wow, you look..." " Nope!" "No." " Don't say I look nice." " Like a train wreck." "But I can see where it's going." "Um, what are you doing here?" "I'm hunting bridesmaids." " Now is that a farm tradition?" " Are you gonna be there?" "All right." "I totally understand if you're not." " I just..." " Do you want me to be there?" " Yes!" "Of course." " Then I'll be there." "Thank you." "All right." " Okay." "Oh, watch it." " Oh, wait." "You know what?" " The hair is..." " Yeah." "Elliot Hooks, 20, here for repeat debulking of bronchial tumors." "This will be his..." " Wait, that can't be right." " It's right." "312 surgeries." "I started treatments when I was 4." "His growths recur, build up and threaten his larynx and lungs." "We have to laser them out." " Every seven to ten days." " 312?" " That's... rough." " I'm used to it." "My folks bought a house a few blocks away." "Kinda the way you move close to the good school." "No, we're not doing this." " Sorry." " Elliot... what if I can culture your tumor cells in a lab and custom design a drug that can stop the growth, find exactly the medicine to stop them?" "And... no surgery?" "No surgeries, ever again." "Oh, my god." " Right?" " Oh, my god." "You don't think this young man's had enough surgery?" "Yes, ma'am." "I'm sorry." "Damn right, you're sorry." "Now let's go open up my lab." "No!" "I haven't had enough surgery." "I have waited and waited for you to get back in the O.R., and damn it, enough is enough." "I'm here to study surgery, and I'm being left behind." "And I deserve better than this." "So I..." "I'm just tired." " Let's go." " We need to do Elliot's procedure once more, to get the samples I need." "And you will perform it, beginning to end." " Prep the man." " Thank you." "Eh, watch yourself in there." "His breath in incredibly nasty." " It's fine." " It's not." "It's-it's rank." "I can smell what he ate last Tuesday." "That is Zenker's diverticulum." "Now these muscles here should be working together to push food down the esophagus." "But unfortunately, Dalton's are working against each other." "So the wall forms a sack, and that's where the food's getting caught." "I always feel like I have something caught in my throat." "He got pneumonia once from getting food in his lungs." " He's a mess." " I'm a mess." "Well, I'll be cutting into the lower muscle, so that'll allow the food to pass right through." "And the walls will tighten up on their own." "Anything we should worry about?" "Well, of course, with all surgeries... there are certain risks..." "Worst case being stroke or even death." "But these are all very minimal in this case." "There is a small risk of damage..." " to the vocal chord nerves, though." " What, like..." "I won't be able to talk?" " That's the worst case." " It's very unlikely." " You have a cute butt." " Dalton!" "You heard the man." "I might not speak again." "And I don't want to leave anything unsaid." "You have a sweet caboose." "Also, I never liked your brother." "What?" "!" "I also could have kept that one to myself." "But it felt good to say it." "You're an idiot." "How soon can you put him under?" "Ugh!" "Yeah, there you are." "Yeah, she is the magical healer of children." "But you're done now, right?" "You're done?" "Can we go?" " Can we get one more?" " Please come with me." "Why are you here?" " Are you bailing on the wedding?" " What?" "No!" "I'm not bail... why would say that?" "No, I need you." "Come with me." "Gentlemen, as you know, the president himself has issued a mandate for our community..." "To devise a full and complete map of the human brain." "Kleiss Neuroscience wants to lead" " the pack towards that goal." " Shh." "Shh." "Shh." "We've got a huge N.I.H. grant to do it with." "The first steps will be developing the technology." "The sensors you develop for your B.C.I. work" " are the most responsive we've seen." " I'm flattered." "Thank you." "Wait till you see what we're doing." "I'm afraid that Dr. Torres and my B.C.I. work is all-consuming." "I-I don't have the time." "This will be the, uh, compensation that you'll receive just for consulting long-distance." "Okay, see, I'm not even gonna turn that over." "It's not about the compensation." " Turn over the paper." " I don't want to." " Just... turn it over." " It's not about the money." " It's a lot of money." " I don't care how much money it is." " It's not about that." " Will you at least watch our movie?" "Yes." "Yes, he will." "Just listen to what they have to say." "Absolutely." "Kleiss Neuroscience..." " Mapping the way to tomorrow." " Okay, okay." "You just... you wanna watch the movie?" "Here we go." "Once more." "Up." "Ugh!" "I'm too tired." "Sorry, darlin'." "Could you, uh, give us a sec?" "I got a question." "I recognized you the first time I saw you." "How do you forget a wife and three kids?" "How-how do you do that?" "I made such a mess of everything." "The more time went by, the more drugs I did, the more I let myself forget 'cause I couldn't stand myself." "You know?" "I remember you, though." "I remember you used to laugh in your sleep." "Well, that's when I was, like, 4, right?" "You were just a happy kid." "I guess I fixed that, huh?" "Yeah, I remember you took me to the fair once." "It's, uh, one of those travelling ones where all the rides are crappy and you might die." "But, uh, we rode every ride twice." " It was a good night." " I remember that." "Your mom was having a meltdown." "She was tearing the wallpaper of the walls, saying someone was hiding in there." "That woman was such a damn mess..." "What about this other family?" "I mean, how'd you leave it with them?" "Better." "I could maybe try and go back." "Naomi's tough, but she's not your mother." "She's not bug-eyed crazy." "All right, this has got to stop now." "Mom was not the problem." "I'm not trying to bad-talk your mother, but you can't know what a strain it is being with someone like that." "Who do you think took care of her?" "Kept track of her?" "Got her committed so she wouldn't hurt herself?" "Who do you think took care of your kids?" "!" "I did the best I could." "Oh, well, if that's your best than you should just hang it up!" "Your best is worthless!" "I was the dad!" "I was a kid, but I was the dad!" "You were nothing!" "You... were gone!" "You're worthless!" "Okay!" "Okay, okay." "Walk away." "Okay, I can fuse C-5 and 6, but I have to work fast if we even want a shot at avoiding paralysis." "Oh, thank you." "You're a genius. 10 blade." "I am, actually, well, sort of a genius." "Derek and I start phase two today... tactile pressure feedback." "Awesome!" "Good for you." "Well, it's good for you, too." "The goal is a prosthetic leg, uh, as sensitive and as responsive as the one that you lost." "Get you back to where you were." "Okay, um, prep the neck." "I'm gonna scrub." "Hey, I told you I'd call you if I need you." " How's your dad?" " Where do you want me?" "Grab a clamp." "Help me find the bleeders." " Meredith!" " April, what are you doing?" "Oh, god." "Are you making a break for it?" " Don't worry." "I know what to do." " Really?" "Why does everybody think I'm running?" "I'm not running." "Come with me." " But I..." " No." "You bailed on every single one of your fittings for your bridesmaid's dress, so..." "I brought the seamstress to you." "You will look pretty for my wedding." "Hello." "No clothes, please." "You guys are supposed to be doing this stuff for me." "I saw your, uh, press conference." "What happened to you up there?" "I was supposed to tell them what I did, but I'm not totally sure." "What do you mean?" "I'm not sure why the kid is still alive." "The conduit?" "You thought it would fail?" "It did fail." "We adjusted, but I don't know what I did, Mer." "It's like slapping the side of a TV." "I fixed it, but I'm not sure how." "I feel like a complete fraud." "So you just went ahead anyway?" "I mean, you didn't mention that to anyone?" "Well... to who, Mer?" "You weren't talking to me," "Alex was against me." "I had no one." "I had no choice." "It was his best shot." "Wow." "You were right." "We are in two completely different places." " Mer, please." " No, I mean, I..." "I may overreach, and I may have something to prove, but..." "I will never be as arrogant as you are." "You know what, Meredith?" "Go to hell." "I have listened to your crap for weeks now, and I'm not gonna stand here and take it anymore." "You stand here." "And that's why at Kleiss Neuroscience tomorrow is today." " Well?" " Very impressive." "Like I said, I'm overextended." "Derek, they're just asking for a consult." " This is not a relocation, right?" " No, no, no, no, no." "Just, it'd be a couple of visits every couple of months." "Once again, I'm flattered, but I-I..." "I just don't have the time." " Just guide us in what we're doing." " No." " Not if this is what you're doing." " Wait, you think that there's something wrong" " with-with our approach." " Our method is the bleeding edge of..." "Your method couldn't map the human sphincter." " Derek." " I'm sorry, but they-they... they made me." "You're looking at a planet." "I'm saying step back... and look at the universe." "You don't kiss someone by puckering your lips." "You see someone and you remember why you desire them." "Your sympathetic nervous system quickens your pulse, your frontal lobe lowers your inhibitions, and you need to kiss them." "It happens all at once." "We're impulsive and compulsive." "That's how the brain works." "Stop looking at what we do." "Look at why we do it." "Is he saying change the sensor placement?" " No, you don't get it, Tim." " I want to." "He's saying change everything." " He is saying..." " Where are you..." " This diffuser/tensor imaging is old news." " Shh." "Shh." "Shh." "Shh." "Shh." " He's saying that cortical firing will give us..." " They're starting to get it." "Deeper cuts and faster pictures of the whole brain." "Oh, you know that dress..." " The purple one with the stripes?" " Yeah." " It does make you look fat." " What?" "!" " You said it was pretty." " I lied." "But I want my last words to be honest ones." "You are gorgeous." "But in that dress..." " Bastard." " You look like a parade float." "I wore that dress to three weddings." "♪ it had to be you ♪" " Mm." " It's our song." "Last chance, hon." "♪ it had to be you ♪" "Guys, the risk of damage to your vocal chords" " are so minimal." " Cut them." "Cut the chords, please." "Uh, this is your last stop, Karen." "Hey." "Come here." "I'll see you after." "Move it more laterally." "There." "Got it." "I owe you an apology." "I shouldn't have spoken to you that way." "Why?" "You got what you wanted." "And you were right." "Part of my job is to teach you." "I haven't been doing that." "I wasn't sure if I was being rewarded or punished." "Part of my mystique." "Oh, get that one." "Never be afraid to stand up for yourself." "Just be sure you're right when you do." "That's so true." "I have to stand up for what I deserve." "That is so incredibly true." "I know, I said it." "Eh, you missed that one." "You tell me how you can give 100% to your family and 100% to your job." "Uh, it-it's categorically impossible..." " Because you keep screwing with my research." " Oh, god, Mer." "My borrowing your printer had nothing to do with your dead sheep." "Did you ever think maybe your research is failing" " all on it's own?" " Right, because I'm a terrible doctor." " We've established that." " No, I never said that." " You said that..." " I never said that!" "But you said I was a terrible person... over and over... because I don't agree with you." "Because I'm committed to my work." "Because I don't want a baby?" "When did I become such a monster to you?" "Can I talk to you?" "Ugh." "Shane, go away." "I thought they should hear what you did, and you downplayed it." "Shane, I said get out!" "Go home!" "And I was right." " What?" " An e-mail from the Harper Avery foundation requesting a case study and patient status." " What?" " You're in consideration for this year's award." "Now you take off, and you take off." "Are you gonna wear your high-heel leg?" "'cause it looks amazing." "But you always get so sore after a while." "Oh, also, it's on a farm," " so it might be muddy." "You..." " I'll be fine." " Okay." " Were you able to decompress the cord?" " Is he paralyzed?" " Uh, it's too soon to tell." " You gonna tell the dad?" " Tell the dad what?" "The spinal injury was likely caused by the father transporting him." "Oh, god." "You wait for an ambulance." "Well, he didn't know." "Yeah, well, and now maybe his kid might not walk?" "I mean, he would have been better off if he had just" " kept his hands off." " Callie, stop it." "His kid was hurt, and he was trying to fix it." "Sometimes we try to make things better and we have no idea that we're actually causing more pain." "Of course we don't tell him." "No." "I cant get in there to staple." "There's too many strictures." "All right." "I'm gonna go in through his neck." " Okay." " Yeah." "There you go." "What do you think he said to her?" "No idea." "Though, I don't think there's much they wouldn't say to each other." "Right?" "How do you get to that point?" " There's nothing I wouldn't say to you." " Oh, I doubt that." "We are nowhere near that point." "You shed." "You shed hair." "You shed bras." "That is untrue and unkind." "You stay over my place for the weekend," "And there's hair all over every pillow, and a bra on every door knob." "You got a bra in my silverware drawer." " Oh, which one?" "Was it blue?" " How do you have so many bras?" "Well, you have angry face." "I have angry face?" "Yeah, when you are thinking or solving a problem or just counting change, people think you're pissed off." " Well, I'm not pissed off." " Well, I know." "It's just your face." " I'm getting pissed off." " Then you should smile more." "You have a beautiful smile." "I think he said he loved her." "Maybe." "Say it loud and go from there." "What?" "No, it's something Mark Sloan said to me once." " He's ready, doctors." " He said, uh, "if you love somebody,"" ""you tell 'em, even if you're scared"" ""it'll cause problems"" ""or burn your life to the ground."" " "Say it loud and go from there."" " That's nice." " Aah!" " Oh, my god!" " What are you doing here?" "!" " W-what are you doing here?" " I'm working." " On our wedding day?" "I have to earn enough to take time off after our wedding day." " You saw me." " Barely." "I-I didn't see your dress." "I didn't see your hair." "Do you have a really big hat on?" "This is such bad luck!" "Such bad luck!" "No, no, no, no, no." "No." "It's good." "It's good, 'cause..." "If the first time I saw you today was in the dress with the hair, looking that beautiful," "I would just be reminded of how much I don't deserve you, and I'd probably pass out." "And we'd wind up back here." "We wouldn't be married." "They'd have to cut off my suit, and I'm still paying for it." "I'm glad I saw you like this, 'cause I'm gonna see you like this a lot more than I'll see you like that for the rest of our lives." "And I love you like this." "I love you, too." "I can't wait." "Oh!" "Hey, don't forget black socks." "Matthew?" "Matthew?" "It's possible the lack of nerve response is due to, uh, trauma and swelling to the spinal cord." "It could recede with time." "And-and if it doesn't?" "We're looking at paralysis, likely quadriplegia." "We'll have to wait and see." "It's my fault, isn't it?" "He was moving when it happened." "Then I brought him here." "I did this." "I did this to him." "You were trying to help him." "Whatever happens, it's not your fault." "Look, you were just trying to do your best for your kid." "Okay?" "Well, unfortunately, I wasn't able to access the diverticulum with the scope, so we went in surgically." "But it went seamlessly..." "And he is gonna have very fresh breath." "Thank you." "He's waking up." "All right." "Hi, honey." "W-what's wrong with him?" " Page Shepherd right away." " Dalton?" "Excuse me." "Dalton?" "I can compete as a mother and as a surgeon." "You just don't think I can compete against you." "You can't, because, Mer, this is all I do." "This is all I want to do." "So don't whine to me because you made a decision you regret now." "You think I regret my family?" "!" "I think you feel left behind." "And that sucks for you, but no one forced you out of the game." "I am not out of the game!" "I just won't sabotage my friends to win it!" " Oh." "Oh, is that what I do?" " That's what sharks do." "You called it our first day." "Well, as I recall, I was talking about you." "How long have you been sleeping with Shane?" "He blushes at an exposed ankle." "He saw you in your underwear and didn't bat an eye." "That is none of your business!" "You don't have to justify it to me." "He's just hooking up with the best teacher to make sure he can get everything he can." "It's what you did all through med school and all through intern year." "Congratulations." "You've become the thing you worship." "And you became the thing we laughed at." "Hey." " I'm sorry." "I..." " You don't have to be sorry." "I mean, it's like you said." "You did your best, and..." "I turned out all right, so..." "Thanks." " I just want my family again." " We're not family." "All right, I turned out all right because you left." "Aaron and Amber and mom..." "they're okay now because you left." "If you'd stayed, I'd probably be selling beer or something." "Or maybe I would've followed in your footsteps and O.D.Ed by now." "But you left us, thank god." "So you can stop beating yourself up." "Maybe you can fix it with your kid in Florida." "Good luck with that." "Bye, Jimmy." "He had a massive stroke." "It could've dislodged a blood clot in the carotid during the surgery." "It's a rare outcome for any surgery, but it does happen." "We will pursue every avenue for rehabilitation," " but I'm afraid that..." " You can't fix it?" "I'm sorry." "So he's awake, but... he can't speak?" "Not at this point, no." "But we will do everything that we can for him, Karen." "I am so sorry." "Dalton." "Honey?" "Can-can he hear me?" "We're not sure." "♪ it had to be you ♪" "♪ it had to be you ♪" "♪ I wandered around ♪" "♪ and finally found ♪" "♪ a somebody who ♪" "♪ could make me be true ♪" "Was it something we did?" "No." "It was totally unforeseen." "It's..." "I..." "What?" "What's that?" "Nothing." "Mm, nothing." "Hey." "You're not going to the wedding, right?" "Can you cover my patients?" "No, I am going, because when you stand up for what you deserve, you get it." "And I deserve her." "I am not gonna be thrown aside." "I am going to that wedding, and I am going to stand up in front of everyone, and I'm gonna tell Arizona how I feel, and she's gonna be forced to deal with it." "And I sound crazy." "And this is the thing... the thing that I do!" "Yeah, it is!" "Thank you!" "Thank you for not letting me do that." "I got your patients." "Thank you." " Oh, crap!" " What?" "I just told Jo that I would cover her, and I'm already at my 80 hours for the week." "Oh, I can fix that." "Put in your password." "Just go to "menu"... and here is "manual input."" "Let's put you at... 60." "You do this?" "I can't believe you don't." "When do you sleep?" "Oh, hi." "Avery's stroke patient is in my care." "You're gonna go to the wedding, right?" "'Cause you've been yelling at people all day today." "Yeah, I'm gonna change and get Emma." " Derek..." " Yeah?" " The-the Kleiss guys?" " Mm?" "It wasn't enough just to turn them down?" "You had to tear down everything that they're doing?" "Do you think I don't want to help them?" "It's bad timing." "And you need me to keep my focus here..." "I know." "I do, but..." "To turn this place into an innovation hub." "It is a call to serve, Derek." "It is a presidential initiative." "The president asks you to serve?" "You serve." "You do what is asked of you." "Well, your service was a calling and..." "and a sacrifice." "But this is about guys just trying to score some government money and stacking the deck with my name." "I appreciate how you feel." "I do." "But this?" "This isn't that." "Ohh." "So pretty." "Ah." "Hey, um, after this is over," "I wanna have a toast to celebrate." "Oh." "There'll be plenty of toasts." "Oh, no, no, no." "For phase two." "Ah." " Your research." " Well, our research." "It's your, too." "You inspired it." "I wouldn't be doing it without you." "Okay." "Are you crying?" "Yeah." "You know... weddings." "Yeah." "Come on." "That's their engagement party." "I mean, I-I kind of knew..." "Oh!" ""Mint to be." Cute!" "What is in these?" " Oh, we're supposed to open those..." " Oh, crap." "When they kiss." "Nice." "You just ruined Kepner's wedding." " Huh?" " Come on." "So I spent all day in the lab." "It-it'll take a few weeks, but I think I can cure this kid." "Medically." "You know, once and for all." "What's going on with you, Miranda?" "You're handing surgeries over to residents." "You're back in your lab, you know, where you hid when you first got that infection." "Hey, what are you saying?" "Well, I'm-I'm worried you're quitting surgery." "I see." "Okay." "While we're on the subject of quitting surgery, maybe it's time we talked about, uh, why the hell you up and quit surgery." "Look, I told you, I want my family." "I need to be here." "Hell, look at you." "Do you think we'd have gotten this under control if I hadn't been here?" "Did it ever occur to you that my symptoms got worse when you showed up, having quit your job?" "Okay." "So, uh, that's what we're saying, is it?" " Thing's about to start." " Mm-hmm." "Mr. Evans?" "Mr. Evans?" "He's having an M.I." "Get an E.K.G. and a crash cart." "You look so beautiful." "Aw!" "That's really sweet." "But, uh..." "You're gonna be all puffy if you keep that up." "Are you gonna get it together?" "Yeah." "No, I'm fine." "Callie's trying so hard to forgive me and to take care of me, and it's driving me crazy." " I thought you wanted..." " I do!" "I do." "I love her and I want her back." "And I-I broke us." "And I... and I wanna fix it." "But she wants to fix me." "The reason that I cheated that night... someone was attracted to me." "And she never knew me "before."" "She only knew me "after."" "And I was enough for her." "And Callie... you know, she knew me before and she loved me before." "And now sometimes I-I feel like..." "I'm not..." " I'm not..." " You're not?" "It's not fair." "It's not fair." "It's not her fault." "It's not her fault that I hate feeling this way." "And Callie's just... she's trying to..." "to fix everything." "And I'm finally feeling okay the way that I am now!" "And I'm-I'm not sure that Callie will ever make me feel that way." "I'm so sorry that you're going through all this." "Today." "I'm here." "Oh, thank god!" "Acute M.R. he might have a chordal rupture." "We won't know until we open him up." "I paged you to get Yang." "Yang is his doctor." "Yang's at the wedding." "I'm here." "Besides, I treated him." "I did a pericardial window by myself." "I know what I'm doing." "Then find Russell or page the on call doctor." "Ruth, clear an O.R. right now and prep him for a sternotomy." "Dr. Ross, I don't think so." "We should wait for an attending." "You wanna wait?" "We'll wait." "Then you can explain to the attending how this man died because you wouldn't let me help him." "Is that what you wanna do?" "Yang forgot." "I knew one of you would forget." "No." "Aah!" "Thank you!" "I knew you'd make it." "Okay, so when we get out there, Arizona's gonna take my bouquet." "So if you and Meredith can be on either side of my train," " I..." " How dare you say I haven't changed." "I don't have to justify my choices to you, not one." "How dare you say I am the same person I was when I got here, before I knew Burke and Owen and you." "Your life looks different because it's filled with houses and husbands and kids." "And my mine looks the same, but I'm not." "I've changed." "I'm doing this alone." "And that's... that's just as hard as what you're doing." "But I thought I would at least have you." "I'm so jealous of you, I wanna set things on fire." "You did what I tried to do, and I couldn't." "And you don't even know how you did it." "You have nothing but time and focus." "You're not who we were when we got here." "You are who we both set out to be." "And you've become something... we never saw coming." "You are as good a mother as you are a surgeon." "And I'm happy for you." " But we are growing apart." " I know." "And I don't wanna compete with you, but I do, because we're supposed to push each other and make each other better forever." " Since the day we met, right?" " Right." " Okay." "So then..." " God, I know." "I'm so glad because..." "Oh!" "Shut up!" "Today is not the day." "You two... super neat that you're working your crap out, but not today." "And you!" "You know what?" "Stop talking about adultery on my wedding day, because it is my wedding day!" "I should be feeling very special right now." "I should be flounced and fluffed up and checked over and handed tissues and told not to cry with joy." "So just... you know what?" "Stop thinking about you, and you make me feel special." "Here." " Would you like a tissue?" " Uh-huh." " I'm gonna..." " You looked good." " You know what?" "The veil turned out to be so pretty." " And you..." "The pericardium's open!" "I cannot believe we're doing this." "All this blood." "Where is it?" "Where is it?" "Ah." "There." "Ventricular perf." "Got it." "I got my finger on it." "Okay." "We put him on bypass, right?" "And put a patch on." "No." "The perf's widening already." "I'll throw a stitch in." "I've seen Yang do it." "2-0 silk." " Doctor?" " Bypass..." "I have it!" "2-0 silk!" "Oh, god." "No, no, no." "It's tearing." "It's all tearing." " Shane, wait." " I can fix this." "I can fix it!" "Call for help." " Who?" " Anyone." "Shane, his heart wall is disintegrating." "We can just hold pressure and call for help." "I got it." "I got it." "I'll do it." "Just shut up!" "Shut up!" "Shane, get back." "Get your hand out of his chest and get away from the table." "Don't touch her!" "I got her!" "I got her." "Okay, we ready?" " Yeah." " Okay." " Oh!" " You made it!" " I made it." " Oh, great!" " Come here." " Chief!" "You came!" "Of course." "The whole hospital's practically here." " Really?" " Yeah." "You're very well liked." "Okay, well, now you have to go, 'cause I'm gonna start crying." "Because if it weren't for you, none of this would be happening to me." "You deserve it, all of it." "And you look beautiful." "Thank you." "Congratulations." "Hey." "And how are the kids?" "Zola cried 'cause she couldn't come with me, but they're fine now." "Oh, she's spoiled from having you around so much now." " You look spectacular." " Thank you." " Hey?" " What?" "Um, listen, I just wanna thank you because this research is gonna take so much more time than I expected." "And I couldn't do it without the time you're giving me." "And I know you're turning down a lot of stuff, so thank you." "It's my pleasure." "Hey." "You made it." "Wow." "Hi." "We're the only family we need, right?" "And we'll be together forever, right?" "You and me." "And if we have kids, we'll be great." "I'll be a great dad, and you'll be great, and it'll be just us." "We won't need anybody else, okay?" "Yes." "Absolutely." "Dr. Webber, help!" "You have to come!" "Wow." "Go get re-scrubbed." "Ross?" "What do we got here, son?" "I did this." "Well, let's just see, okay?" "So I hear there's a tear in the right ventricle." " It's my fault." " All I know is, they need Webber here and Shepherd wants you to get him." "Apparently, he went to deal with the generator." "Well, you... you did well, son." " We're okay here." " I did this." "You didn't do anything." "This is not your fault." "This just happened." "I think we need some bypass, though." "Well, what do you think, Ross?" "You did good." "We're all done here." " Why-why don't you go get some rest?" " No!" "When I come back, she'll be dead." "It's my fault." "I sent her to the basement." "Ross, look at me." "Look at me." "I got her." "She's gonna be fine." "Go get some rest." "Failure is inevitable." "Unavoidable." "Laps!" "More laps!" "Suction." "Murphy, get in here!" "Let's get him on bypass." " And let's take someone from cardio now!" " On it." "But failure should never get the last word." "There is no greater example of God's power than the love we share between us." "April and Matthew are here today to commit that love to each other before god and before all of you." "So let's pray." "Heavenly father..." "Watch over April and Matthew as they take the first steps on a journey that will last them the rest of their lives on earth." "Yes, it's Dr. Shepherd." "Sir, we have a call for you." "It seems very urgent." " Okay." " Hold please." " I'll put it through." " Thank you." "You have to hold on to want you want." "Dr. Derek Shepherd?" "Yes." "Please hold for the president of the United States." "All obstacles." "And the humility..." "What?" "Please hold for the president of the United States." "And give them the strength to commit their love to one another." "Unshakable through any storm, unbreakable in the face of any stress." "A promise we simply refuse to break." "You have to not take "no" for an answer, and take what's coming to you." "Never give in." "Starting heart massage." "Never give up." "Come on." "And you, April and Matthew's closest friends and family, are here today to bear witness to their union." "will you promise to love and support their married in all the days to come?" "If so, please respond "we will."" "We will." " Now..." " I, uh..." " I've know the two of you..." " What?" " For quite some time..." " I'm sorry." "Stand up." "And I'm happy to be here today to be able to do this for you." "I..." "April and Matthew," "I have known the two of you for quite some time, and I'm happy to be here today..." "I love you, April." "I always have." "I-I love everything about you." "Even the things I don't like," "I love." "And I want you with me." "I love you, and I think... that you love me, too." "Do you?" "Stand up and take it."