"Shmulik shiloh idit tzur dina doron dalia shimko maya maron roni buksbaum ruth farchi yehuda efroni yehuda fuchs dudik smadar sharon malki-shemesh uli sternberg no longer seventeen director of photography:" "Amnon solomon" "written by:" "Daniella yeshurun assistant director:" "Shabtai yitzhak line producer:" "Avi klinberger (charupe)" "Editing by:" "Tova asher produced and directed by:" "Isaac zepel yeshurun" "dear kibbutz members." "I am wordless." "On my way here, i thought about how i'd address you." "I decided to talk with you, heart to heart." "It's no secret." "The kibbutz is in dire straits." "We are 40 million in debt." "None of the economic recovery plans have worked." "There's only one option, and that's to bring in new young blood to the kibbutz." "Here we are, standing here once again, asking you once again to make a sacrifice." "But there is no altrnative." "It's the only option for saving this kibbutz, yours and ours." "We must make a painful decision, in which members over the age of 65" "will leave the kibbutz." "There are several options." "There are well established kibbutzes, some even in this area, that are willing to take in members, couples, people on their own." "The second option is the golden age retirement home." "A new and modern establishment." "The third option is for those who have family in the city." "Children or grandchildren." "We'll help the few of you that... forget them, they don't understand anything." "Shame on you!" "You're nothing but a mob!" "Servile masses arise, arise we'll change henceforth the old tradition... shame on you!" "Did you come to moralize me?" "To fight with me?" "No." "I came to say good night." "You used to like fighting with me." "All i had to say was one word, and you'd attack." "What a sharp tongue." "I liked that." "This time you kept quiet, you just watched." "What's there to say?" "No one listens to us anyway." "No one knows who we are, what we did." " That's why i sang." "Your singing was good." "Powerful." "I liked it." " Thank you." "It reminded me of the old shraga, the shraga who yelled:" ""I won't let anyone break up the kibbutz." "Over my dead body."" "The shraga that fought and didn't give in." "I only fight for you, bracha." "Where have you been?" "I went over to see brenner." " For such a long time?" "I've been sitting here waiting for you." " Let's go." "Why do you get worked up over every little thing?" "I'll be there in a minute." "Was it bracha?" "Did clara see?" " Let them keep singing." "I have to go." " Good night." "Watch out, watch out for the barbwire." "A protest tent is good, but it's not enough." "We won't eat or drink or move an inch away." "Nehemia, i'm asking you to move the tent inside." "I don't have any guards to watch over you, you're making a lot of noise, reporters are writing bad things about us." "We're not doing anything wrong." "Nehemia, the kibbutz will fall apart, there's no money." "Did you tell them to take the tv away?" "Put that back!" " Listen to me, nehemia." "The kibbutz is falling apart, the movement will look after you, you won't wind up homeless." "We'll find you other kibbutzes." "Stop it!" "This is our tent!" "I know, and we're gonna take it down." " No you won't!" "So now i'm the bad guy?" " Be quiet!" "Don't you understand that you're destroying the kibbutz?" "We're not the ones destroying it." "If you keep this up, there won't be any kibbutz." "We'll talk this evening." "Please, come out of the tent." "No pipsqueak is going to tell me what to do." "I built this kibbutz." "This pipsqueak has the banks breathing down his neck." "Why are you joining forces with the ovement's secretariat?" "Why are you doing what other people tell you?" "Because they're right." "Are you not feeling well?" " No, everything's okay." "Everything's okay." "Like eskimos, they're letting us die... nehemia, what's wrong?" "You said you're here with a pickup truck?" "Go get it." "Nehemia." " Leave me be." "I'm taking you..." "you're not feeling well?" "I'm taking you to the infirmary, then i'll bring you back here." "Shraga, do me a favor." " Is something the matter?" "Don't talk to him about the meeting, okay?" "He takes things to heart, i want him to be calm... i know." "Don't worry." " Okay, i'll be right back." "Okay, see you." "She told you not to tell me anything." "It doesn't matter." "It's all over." "Brenner, they're moving us out of here." "It's over." "At least you can go wherever you want." "My kids have a nursing home in haifa in store for me, so that it'll be easier for them to visit." "That's good, you'll have visitors." "They stick you in a room with a total stranger who farts all night, until you can't breathe... stop whining, think positive." "Think about all the pretty girls that chased after you." "You were the one who flew from flower to flower like a butterfly." "You had one girlfriend with a tall hairdo, like the eiffel tower." "Nitza." " Nitza." " She was a nurse." "Nitza..." " nitza... clara?" "What happened?" "Why are you on the floor?" "I like being on the floor, okay?" " Let me help you up." "So, you're finally here." "What's wrong, need some clean underwear?" "What is this?" " It's a brochure from a golden age home." "The retirement home?" " Shulamit lives there." "She's very happy." "Is that all you can think about?" " No, there are a few other things." "Oh yeah?" "Nothing but retirement homes and retirement homes... our future." "That's what worries me." "Don't you understand?" " No." "I'll tell you something that's very hard for me to say, but love or no love, we started off together, so we must continue." "Did you hear what i said?" " I heard, i'm not deaf." "A person can't stay alone at our age." "Like when you fall and need help." "Good thing it didn't happen in the bathroom." "What would the members have said if they found me lying on the floor?" "Is that what matters to you?" "Yes, it matters a lot to me." "Twice a week you spend the night at that archive of yours in tel aviv, and i stay here alone." "It's the movement's archive, clara." "It's not my own private archive." "I can't live in a retirement home with all those old people." "I can't." "Don't worry, clara." "I promise to take you to see a few retirement homes and i'm certain you're gonna love it." "We have our own money that reuven sent from america." "You can keep your money for other things." "I want the best place." "You'll choose the place you like the best." "You have to convince shraga." " I'll have a talk with him." "Don't make any plans for me, clara." "It won't work." "Hello?" "Grandma?" "Yes." "Listen, i need you to send me some money." "1500 dollars." "I've gotta get out of here." "Sheri sweetie, it's not that simple." "This kibbutz is falling apart, people are broke, maybe you should call your mother." " Don't tell mom." "Promise me you won't tell her." " Maybe i can ask shraga." "Reuven sends them money..." " don't ask him." "Anyone but him." "I'll try and think of something." "Never mind, i'll work it out, okay?" "If you can, please send it through american express, okay?" "To the delhi office." "I'm in delhi, not bombay." "You have to write down my passport number, my dutch passport." "7-8-7-6-4-3-1." "Thanks, grandma." "Good morning." "Mom." "How are you?" "What's wrong?" "Everything's okay." "I'm on my way to work, to the hospital." "You scared me." "I'm late." "Sheri?" "No." "She called, the line was bad, so i couldn't hear much, but she said she's okay." " Okay?" "What daughter doesn't call her mother for 3 weeks?" "I don't have her number either." " She said she tried calling you, but she couldn't get through." "I have no idea what's come over her." "Listen, noa, i'll be late for the bus, so... - bye." "I have something to tell you." "Clara is planning behind my back to put me in a retirement home." "That's because you're old." "That's the way it goes, shraga." "She wants it to be up north." "How will we meet?" "We won't meet." "Is that what you think?" "C'est la vie." "How can i live without your eyes?" "They drive me crazy." " Enough, shraga." "Look at the view." "Look how beautiful and green it is." "Yes." "The land of israel is beautiful in the winter." "Hello?" "Clara, how are you?" "What?" "Clara?" "No, i'm not in america, i'm in tokyo for a few days." "I don't know what to do with him, reuven." "What else can i do?" "If you were here, you could talk some sense into him." "No, he says a retirement home is out of the question." "He wants to stay young forever." "Who doesn't?" "I don't?" "You don't?" "As soon as i get... come for a little visit." "It's been such a long time." "Reuven... yes." "Please." "I'll do my best to come, you know i will." "Yes, soon." "You're the only one who can talk some sense into him." "We'll talk when i get there." "See you." "Bye." "I can't go to seoul." "Something urgent came up in israel." "My mother-in-law called from the kibbutz." "They're in trouble." "What's going on in the place we're talking about?" "Yes, i know it's urgent, but i have to go to israel." "I haven't been here for a week, what a mess." "The bank is going to take it away anyway." "Noa was right." "The kibbutz is no place for human beings." "She was smarter than all of us." "Remember when she said that the individual is more important than the collective?" "Everything she said was right." "So?" "Does that make her any happier?" "She's all alone in a foreign land." "In a cold country." "Among strangers." "Especially since her husband, menahen passed away." "A good girl." "Smart, well liked." "Why did she run away?" "They just have to run away." "Noa to holland, sheri to india, reuven to america." "They run away." "Will we too?" "Not us." "We won't run away." "Something's worrying you." "What's wrong?" "I need $1500 for sheri." "She called from india, she wants to come home but doesn't have the money." " Really?" "Yes." "She made me swear i wouldn't call noa." "I said i'd ask you, since you get money from reuven, but she started yelling:" ""Not reuven, anyone but reuven."" "I don't know what's come over her." "I can ask reuven." "That's peanuts for him." "No." "Is that what's worrying you all the time?" "That, and life." "This is the end of us, shraga." "They're giving back this apartment, you're going to a retirement home up north," "and as for me, god knows." "It can't be." "I won't allow it." "It won't happen." "What are you looking at?" "I'm not looking." "Turn the lights off and close the blinds." "For once, why don't we..." " absolutely not." "I'm not wearing my glasses." "I can't see anything anyway." "Even the nothing you can't see isn't that great." "You're beautiful." "You don't even realize how beautiful you are." "More than all the other women you had?" " Much, much more." "You didn't brush your teeth." "Just once." " No." "No kisses." "Go brush your teeth." " Okay." "What is that money?" "It's for sheri." "What?" "1500 dollars." "Will you tell clara?" "Clara?" "No, it's just the two of us here now." "No one has to know." "Could you drop me off here?" "By the gate." "Bye." "Yechiel, how are you?" "Has it been raining a lot?" " All night." "Where's shraga?" "Didn't he come with you?" " Shraga?" "I don't know." "Why?" " I've been looking for him." "Where could he be?" " I don't know." "Clara?" "Clara?" "What's going on?" "What is this mess?" " Leave me alone." "Tell me." "Are you keeping secrets from me?" "I can't find the money." " What money?" "The money i've been keeping." "Is that why you're crying?" "You didn't look hard enough." "There are all kinds of strangers walking around here, maybe someone came in and stole it, i don't know." "No one came in and no one stole it." "Do you need the money today?" "No." "I'll look for it." "I can't remember anything anymore." "I put things in one place and find them somewhere else." "I put the... i put the money in one of the drawers, under my brown shirt... clara, stop crying." "This isn't like you." "Crying over money?" "I'll look for it and i'll find it." "Don't worry." "Clara, you hear me?" "Shraga, i hear things and don't say a word." "And i'm willing to forgive you for many things." "We have to accept our destiny." " What destiny?" "What are you talking about?" " Look at what's become of you." "You lock yourself up in that apartment in tel aviv, the archive, buried in nostalgia." " Nostalgia?" "Why do you spend the night in tel aviv?" "Why don't you come home?" "Hello, clara." "What's with her?" "I think she knows." " How does she know?" "I don't know." "She can sense it." "I hate this lie." "Let's go this way." "Minna, i'm not feeling very well." "I'm going to take a nap." "No, that's okay, come this afternoon." "Stop for a minute, stop." "Stop, stop, stop." "I want to tell you something, but i don't know how." "I love bracha." "I love bracha." "I love bracha, and that's the tragedy." "I wish i could take her somewhere faraway, isolated, where no one knows us, and start over again, like a young couple." "Explain calmly exactly what happen." "After all the commotion, i'll explain calmly." "We are striking because the young generation wants to kick us out of the kibbutz." "It's the first time they're taking the finest people who founded this kibbutz, who suffered for many years, and now they want to kick us out." "It's not fair to tell a reporter that we want to kick out the old-timers." "We feel as if the old-timers don't care." "I put my heart and soul into this kibbutz." "My grandfather can drop dead here and no one cares." "My darling, that's what you want to do, kick your grandfather out for an economic recovery plan." "Is that logical?" "Is that humane?" "You must understand, my girl, you know that i love you." "But kicking out your grandfather..." " shraga." "I'll be done in a minute." "You can't kick people out who worked hard." "Some still work." "What do you want?" "Tell me what's wrong." "What happened?" "She fainted?" "There's nothing to see." "Clara." "Clara." "Open your eyes." "Yes." "No, no, open your eyes." "That's it." "Leave your eyes open." "What happened?" "How could you leave clara like this to die alone?" "What did she do?" "You don't treat her right, you won't take her to a retirement home... enough!" "Yechiel, enough!" " Let me handle it." "The whole kibbutz is talking." " Who's talking?" "What are they saying?" "How are you feeling?" "Better?" "Why did you do it?" "What for?" "You can spare me the song and dance, shraga." "What song and dance?" "You too will be happier when i'm not around, even though you won't admit it." " Don't be silly." "I was a fool." "I thought you'd love me like i loved you." "What makes you think i don't love you?" "Life lead us through all the wars and struggles." "That doesn't mean i don't have feelings for you." "Even now, we set up a protest tent." "The media came, there's a big commotion." "We're doing it to survive, to fight to stay here." "Does that mean i don't have feelings for you?" "The way we live our life, i have no desire to live." "Clara, that's enough." "I don't want to hear you talking like that." "Bracha, could you turn the machine off for a minute?" "Yes, sure." "What's wrong?" "Clara tried to commit suicide." "What?" "What?" "She took some pills." "I need to think for a minute." "Listen to me." " No." "Just once." " I want to leave..." " bracha." "You're all i have left." "Meir is dead, miraleh is dead." "You're a part of me." " Shraga, i'm calling noa tonight, i'm going to holland, she invited me more than once or twice." "I'm not staying here." "I can't." "I can't." "You want to come to holland?" "You want to live in holland?" "Mom... no, you're not bothering me, i'm on my lunch break." "No." "Why are you so upset?" "I think it's a major decision and... we have to think about it." "No." "I'm at the hospital all day, i come home very late, you don't know the language or the city, you have no one here." "Mom, i have to go now, i have patients waiting for me." "In any case, i'll be in israel in a few days and i'll see you, i'll see what's going on." "Yes, i already informed the hospital." "She doesn't want me to come live with her, shraga." "Noa." "She didn't say so, but... yechiel, you'll catch cold and will have to stay in bed." "No i won't." "Can't you see i'm covered up?" "Why don't you go home to sleep?" "I'll come home in the morning." "You think you're in a movie?" "You're some hero." "Minna, can't you see you're bothering us?" "Nehemia, am i bothering you too?" " Keep me out of it, okay?" "This is all you care about." " That's right." "Hello, minna." "Have you joined us?" "Bravo." "You left clara all alone again?" "Please." "Yechiel, are you coming?" "There's no sound." "Is there anything to drink?" "Shraga, no, no." "This isn't the right time, shraga." "Someone will see us." "Please leave." "You've been drinking." "I'm asking you to leave." "Shraga, this is no good." "No, no, no." "You're leaving." "I won't allow it... no, i won't allow it." "Get out." "Shraga, it's sheri!" "Wipe that smile off your face." "It's not at all what you think." "Grandma." "How are you?" "My darling." "I missed you so much." " Me too." "I'm so glad you're back." "I'll put the kettle on." "Wasn't that shraga who just left here?" " Yes, shraga." "It's weird, he didn't even say hello." " Maybe he didn't recognize you." "He hasn't seen you in a long time." "We'll have a hot drink and you'll tell me about your trip." "There's not much to tell." "I did a lot of thinking." " You got so skinny." "All in all, i'm happy." "Shraga's funny." "He's like a teddy bear." "I thought you hated him." "Sometimes i hate him, sometimes i love him." "He's emotional, temperamental, he even cries sometimes." "But i can always turn to him in times of trouble." "The land of israel is beautiful." "Something's wrong with me." "I don't remember things and it scares me." "Enough, calm down." " I don't want to end up on the street, shraga." "The retirement home costs more money and the kibbutz won't give it to us." "Electricity and phone bills, all those payments, i don't want my life to end like this." "You worry too much." "You're overreacting." "Want me to call reuven?" "I'll call him right now and ask him for more money, if that's what it takes to solve the problem." "Just calm down." "Reuven?" "This is shraga, calling from israel." "Shraga, how're you doing?" "Is something the matter?" "It's late here and i'm busy, yes." "They're talking about sending away all the old kibbutz members and clara wants us to go to a retirement home." "The kibbutz doesn't have the money to pay for it." "I can't hear you, it's noisy here, shraga." "Money is just money, we'll find a solution." "Yes, i spoke with clara about it." "It's okay." "I'm coming to israel soon and we'll talk." "Okay." "I can't hear you anymore." "Yes, bye, shraga." "Why aren't you eating?" "I'm finished." "You're leaving all this for me?" "I'm full." "You didn't have it easy either." "Come." "I'll make us some breakfast." "I have some things that you like." "Yogurt... have a seat." "I sat with dad at the hospital for about two months." "At his bedside." "We talked a lot." "He told me lots of things." "About him, about mom." "He loved her so much." "He didn't have to tell me, you could see it in his eyes, in every thing he did." "She's... less romantic, always busy with work and her own stuff." "He told me that... that he had a good life," "that i should take care of her, so that she won't feel alone, that we should be a family." "He told me that i'm not his daughter." "That is, i'm not his biological daughter." "Mom had an affair." "I started crying like crazy, and he said:" ""Don't cry, i love you so much, i had a good life."" "He didn't want me to feel sorry for him, or for myself, i don't know." "He was ill, sheri." "We don't know what goes on in the minds of ill people." "He loved her so much." "He loved you too." "Who told you i was here?" "That's what i heard." " I'm glad you came." "Are you alone?" "I want you to talk to clara." "I talk to clara all the time." " Shraga, don't play dumb." "I want you to tell clara about us." "That's a problem." " I know." "I'll tell her." "But not right now." "Don't you know that she did it so that you'd stay with her?" "It's not the right time." " Maybe if she hears that you love another woman she won't want to stay in this mess." "Have you thought about that?" "Why do you decide for her?" " It's impossible right now." "I don't buy that anymore." "I've had it." "The whole kibbutz knows." "Yechiel knows, doesn't he?" "Nehemia knows." " Yes." "And today sheri spoke to me about it." "Sheri knows." "If you can't decide, i'll decide." "I decide that i don't want to live like this anymore." "I don't want to be your number two anymore." "You shouldn't say such things." " Why not?" "Because it's the truth?" "Because it's not the truth." " Yes it is, shraga." "You know that i love you." " Listen, shraga, i... i love you very much." " I don't know what love is." "I'm scared." "I'm scared about what'll happen to me." "If we do it now, we'll be miserable, both of us." "We're miserable in any case." " No!" " i'm miserable." "Maybe i should take some pills too, then you'll know that i'm miserable." "Stop it." "I've made up my mind, shraga." "I'm leaving." "You're not leaving." " I'm leaving." "Come here." "You beauty." "I have to pee." "You smell so good." "I missed you so much." "So, so much." "We hardly spoke." "You were so... curt." "Yeah, i wanted to be alone." "When i was your age, i was like that too." "I wanted to be alone." "I gave grandma a lot of trouble." "Tell me about dad." "What?" "Tell me about your relationship, i want to know." "What about our relationship?" " Was it good or bad?" "Sheri, you grew up with us, you lived with us, and you want me to tell you about our relationship?" "Yes, i know you as your daughter, i don't know about your relationship." "What's there to know?" " Come on, tell me the truth." "It was an ordinary relationship." "A married couple, living together, we loved each other." "Don't pretend it was all good, there must've been bad things too." "What makes you think that?" "No, i think it was... what happened in india that... do you have a boyfriend?" " Did you tell him everything?" "Are you in love?" " Did you cheat on him?" "No." "I didn't cheat on him." "You're asking such strange questions today." "You didn't cheat on him?" " No, no, i didn't cheat on him." "Mom." "I'm going for a walk." " Wait, where are you going?" "I brought you some chocolate, sheri." " I'll eat it later." "Where is she going?" "I don't know." "Maybe she wants to leave us alone for a while." "My darling, my darling." "I missed you so much." "I feel like i haven't seen you in such a long time." "It has been a long time." "I brought us all kinds of goodies here." "You look great." " Yeah?" " yeah." "So do you." " Thanks." "That haircut suits you." "So does the color." "Is it new?" "What?" "Yeah." "I'll make us some tea, and we'll sit and talk." "Tell me everything that happened to you this past year." "What did i do to that girl?" "She's so strange." "She has this crazy idea in her head." "I don't know what happens to them in india." "That menahem wasn't her father." "What?" "I don't know where she came up with that, but she says that that's what menahem told her before he died." "Talk to her." "Tell her that it isn't true, tell her that maybe she misunderstood, maybe he was under the influence of medication." "Explain it to her." "Sometimes kids make up stories." "Reuven and i were the only ones who knew." "How could this be?" "When did it happen?" "Reuven followed me to boston." "He fell in love with me." "He'd meet me in cafes and try to talk me into leaving menahem." "I didn't know what to do." "I did love menahem so very much." "But things got out of hand." "Does he know that she's his daughter?" "Reuven?" "Yes." "He knows." "And his wife miraleh, did she know?" "I don't know." " Miraleh, shraga's daughter." "What a tragedy, noa." "Miraleh and reuven and shraga... and sheri and... and me." "Shraga?" " Yes?" "Noa!" "I didn't recognize you." "Let me look at you." "You changed your hairdo, but you're still beautiful, as always." "Your daughter is sitting all alone over there." "I have to go to her, shraga." "Grandma told me." "I'm so sorry you had to find it out like that." "We have to talk, sheri." "I can't talk right now, mom." "There's no point in putting it off, we have to talk." "I was very young, not much older than you and i made mistakes, people make mistakes." "You can't turn back time." "I'm sorry." " Mistakes?" "Your whole life is a lie, you call that a mistake?" "I want you to know that i love you very much." "A few words aren't going to patch things up." "Who did you really love?" "You have to let me explain, you have to listen to me." "I know you're in pain, i know it's hard, i know that i hurt you and i'm so sorry, but reality is more complicated..." " what's so complicated, mom?" "You're either with someone or you aren't." "You either loved him or you didn't." " Of course i loved him." "I loved him more than anything." "I loved him very, very much." "How can i explain it to you?" "How can i prove it to you?" "Who did you love?" " I loved your father." "Very much." "Don't even doubt that." "I loved him so much." " Which father?" " what?" "Which father?" " Your father." "I loved him very much." "Very much." "I loved menahem, your father, menahem." "Okay, mom." " Sheri, don't play games with me." "Explain to me why you cheated on him." "I didn't cheat on him, not everything is considered an affair, sometimes people have affairs, people get carried away, you're not always in control of what happens to you." "You could've at least told him that i wasn't his daughter." "What for?" "To ruin the most beautiful moment in his life?" "To take away the most precious thing he had?" "So he'd know the truth." " Is the truth worth all that?" "You meant everything to him, sheri." "You were the love of his life." "You don't understand that reuven was a passing thing." "You didn't even love him?" "You just fucked him?" "Wait a minute." "Listen..." " leave me alone!" "Come here." " Leave me alone!" "Don't worry." "Everything will be okay by this evening." "What can you do?" "Your mother is temperamental." "Were you good friends with your daughter?" "With miraleh?" "Of course." "Why do you ask?" "Menahem isn't my father." "What?" "What are you talking about?" " Menahem isn't my father." "That's nonsense." "No, shraga, i'm telling you the truth." "I'm reuven's daughter." "Reuven and mom had an affair." "I'm reuven's daughter." "I don't believe it." "What was the point in telling menahem?" "What for?" "So i didn't tell the truth." "So what?" "But i spared him the pain." "And sheri." "You've changed, noa." "You used to be willing to fight against the whole world for the truth." "Against me, against dad, against your friends." "Not against dad." " Against everyone." "But you paid a heavy price for that." "What price?" " You're alone." "You live alone in a foreign land, without any friends or family," "a lone israeli among gentiles, as they say." "Is that how you see it?" " Yes." "When you grow old, you no longer try to make the truth look nicer." "You look at reality straight in the eyes." "I understand you much better than you think." "What does that mean?" "You know, shraga and i... we're friends." "More than just friends." "Yes, me and shraga." "Now clara wants to take him to a retirement home up north and this entire kibbutz is falling apart" "so i want to come to live in holland with you." "You want to come to holland to run away from shraga?" "Not to be with me." "I'm sorry if that's what you understood." "I'm not used to talking about emotions, it comes out so awkward." "Then what did you want to say?" "I meant that shraga and i... have a big love-hate relationship." "Listen, mom, i'm not sure i want to know." "I don't have anyone to talk with here." "So listen to me." "Please." "Shraga and i loved each other our entire lives." "What do you mean, your entire lives?" "What do you mean?" "We just didn't have the time, we were too busy." "Your entire lives?" "Yes." "What about dad?" "I loved your father." "I loved him very much, he was a good man." "A gentle soul." "Shraga is difficult." "He always was." "A man of principles." "Yes." "I loved your father." "Clara." "Clara." "Reuven." "Reuven." "Reuven." "I'm so glad you came." "It's so good to see you." "You look great." "It's so good to see you." "It's really great." "Reuven." "How are you?" " Great." "It's good to see you." "I missed you." "I missed you too." "Yes." "You don't have to worry now." "I'm here, i'll take care of the retirement home, i'll talk to shraga and everything will be okay." "I don't know what to say." "Why are you still worried?" "Because... you see," "it's not that simple." " Tell me." "Shraga has another woman." " At his age?" "Did he tell you?" " I know it." "Tell me about it, nice and slow." "You think that at our age, we stop living?" "That's what you think?" "Shraga." "Hi, shraga." "I'll talk to you later, leave me alone." " But shraga... please leave me alone." " It's me, reuven." "I know who you are." "I came all the way from america, have you gone nuts?" " Yes, i've gone nuts." "Completely." "Shraga, what's wrong with you?" " What did you do to miraleh?" "You ran after noa to boston to make a baby with her and you made miraleh..." " where did i go?" "You killed miraleh." " Shraga... get away from me." "Get away from me." "Shraga." "Hello." "Hello." "How are you?" "Fine." "I need to talk to you." "I was looking for you, i heard you were here to visit shraga." "I don't know how to say this, reuven." "I'm listening." "Sheri knows." "Sheri knows that you're her father, reuven." "Shraga told me." "You want to talk?" "Now you want to talk?" "You knew i wouldn't leave menahem." "I did tell you that." "I didn't mislead you." " I left miraleh for you." "What do you want?" "Do you want to cause me pain?" "Don't you talk to me about pain." "It's been 20 years, what do you want from me?" "For you to take responsibility." "For you to understand what you made happen." "Not only to me." "To all of us." "To your daughter, to yourself." "Did you see reuven?" "He was looking for you." "I saw him." " Did you talk?" " We talked." "He'll help us, shraga, he's a good boy." "You think every bastard is a good boy." "Please, shraga." "Let's live peacefully, together." "With dignity." "What is dignity to you?" "Does reuven have any dignity?" "Does noa?" "I, for one, don't." "I'm asking you, please." "Stop it, stop begging and asking." "Am i leaving?" "Do you see me leaving?" "Do i have anywhere to go?" "I'm afraid of being left alone." "I don't want to be the last fool to know." "Tell me the truth." "Do you have someone else?" "I want to hear it from you." "I'll stay and take care of you no matter where we are." "Is there someone else?" "Tell me." "I developed a certain friendship with bracha." "Do you love her?" "You want to be with her." "Are you two in love?" "Do you sleep with her... do you sleep with her in the same bed?" "Yes, i do." "You asked, so i'm answering." "But she's going to holland to live with noa, so this is all theoretical." "I think that we're better off bringing things out in the open." "Enough with these lies." "It doesn't do anyone any good." "Bracha?" "I talked to clara." "I told her the whole truth." "I don't understand, how could we fail in everything we did?" "My whole life was a dilemma between my own family and the kibbutz and how to combine the two, and i end up without either." "Noa is alone, i'm alone, you're alone, sheri is alone, everyone's alone." "And it's obvious that there won't be a kibbutz after us." ""A better worl" is just a stupid notion." "Is there a better world?" "No." "No, no." "And this land is going to be ruined." "Shraga, it's good to see you." "Yes." "How are things on the outside?" "On the outside?" "I keep thinking about my miraleh who died under the wheels of some car." "Faraway from home, all alone." "We have to go on living, shraga." "Time flies by... one betrayal, one lie, and all our lives changed." "Forget that." "Think about the good things we did for the kibbutz, for the movement, for the members." "Everything's falling apart now." " You're in a foul mood, shraga." "Get over it." "We need all our strength for what's happening here." "We failed." " No we didn't." "We didn't fail!" "Enough." "We did our share." "We established this country's borders." "So don't let anyone tell you that we failed." "Noa, reuven." "I loved them so much." "Don't give me that." "You always hated reuven." "They killed my daughter." " Enough, shraga." "You can't go on like this." "What i'd like to do now is go out to the fields, breathe a little fresh air, and then be over with it all." "I think it may start raining soon, shraga." "Be careful here." " They said it would rain." "I don't care if it rains, as long as it doesn't jeopardize our efforts." "How do you feel?" "We're almost there." "What's going on?" "Put that down!" "We don't need you here." "We brought the wagon." "Put it down, i said!" "Go away!" "Go away!" "You too, get out of here or i'll break your bones!" "You too, get out of here!" "May i sit down?" "Sheri?" "What?" "Do you want to talk?" "I'll be glad to talk to you when you feel ready." "I want to be left alone, okay?" "I'm leaving, i came to say goodbye." "Good." "Go." "As far away as you can." "Don't come back." "It's a terrible place." "Okay." "Okay." "Bye." "There's no reason for us to stay here, brenner." "We'll get on the wagon and go." "We'll find a better place." "Are you going to live in holland?" "Why do you ask?" "That's what sharaga told me." "That's what he told you?" "That's what he said." "I haven't decided yet." "You two already made your decisions, without me." "Too bad i didn't know about it when there was still time." "The end catches us by surprise." "Completely unprepared." "It would've been much easier if you'd have taken this step long ago." "I understand more than you think, bracha." "What i didn't understand, shraga explained to me." "Not every one is fortunate enough to have a great love in life." "You were fortunate to have more than one." "What makes me so fortunate?" "I have nothing." "I have nothing." "Meir is dead, shraga is with you, noa is in holland." "What do i have?" "You have everything." "Shraga's with you, he's not with me." "You have his love." "You go to sleep with him every night and wake up with him every morning." "You count the pills in his pillbox." "That's what's so painful." "I do all those things without love." "Then why did you stay with him if there is no love between you?" "If i go to holland, will you have love?" "It doesn't matter if i go to holland or not." "You think i want to go to holland?" "Why would i want to go there?" "I'm not blaming you, because my life was my choice." "So why are you blaming me for your choices?" "I'm alone." "Do you understand that?" "Alone." "Grandpa, are you okay?" "Where are you going?" " To the hills, i don't know." "We'll find some place." "Do you feel alright?" "Look, he ran out of oxygen." " This is so irresponsible, shraga." "I'm calling dad right now, grandpa." "You hear me?" "Don't you understand that what you're doing is insane?" "Can you explain to me why you're doing this?" "What are you all doing here?" "Stop it, we're leaving." " Do you need anything?" "Grandpa." "Did you take some water with you?" "All this moving about isn't good for him." " It's okay." "Can we go?" " Shraga, i want to take him down right now." "Where are we going?" " Who cares, as long as we're going." "There are plenty of other hills." "Shraga." "I think you should all leave now." "What can you say?" "He knew how to die well." "Died on his feet." "Like in the movies." "The wild west." "A beautiful death." "No suffering, no pain." "We should've put a flag in his hand and taken his picture, as a lesson for the youngsters." "We have to write a eulogy for brenner." "Something nice." "Excuse me." "Let's go back to the kibbutz." "Yes." "Maybe we'll make it back in time for lunch." "Give me your hand." "This film was produced in association with the israeli film fund founded by the ministry of education, culture and sports produced and directed by:" "Isaac zepel yeshurun"