"Previously on The Secret Life of the American Teenager..." "Are you upset with me for some reason?" " You kissed Amy?" " You kissed Amy?" "There's been something going on all week between you two, so what don't I know about now?" "I think Ricky is in love with you, too, so you should just forget about Amy and who she's with or not with." "If Amy's having sex with Ricky," "I'm having sex with Ben." "It was just a kiss." "We weren't having sex." "It was like kissing my sister." "Is that what you're going to tell Adrian?" "If you like me so much, do you have to be such good friends with Grace?" "You don't really care about Grace." "You're still in love with Amy." "I was afraid, because Amy got pregnant before, that she'd get pregnant again." "Mom said she and Dad are getting married again." "I said it because I'm a little bit overwhelmed by all the responsibility right now." "If you heard that I kissed Ricky, it was just a kiss, all right?" "I don't know why Jimmy hasn't called me, but it's not because I'm a bad kisser." "Just don't do it, Adrian, okay?" "Hi, this is Adrian." "You know what to do." "[rings]" "What do you want?" "Somebody told you?" "Told me what?" "Don't play games." "Let's just get this over with." "I'm going to be late for work." "Get what over with?" "I don't know what you're talking about." "I tried to call you to tell you." "I didn'tet the message." "You didn't get my text message?" "The one where I said I love you?" "You didn't get that?" "Oh, that." "Mm-hmm." "Yeah." "So?" "You didn't text me back, the whole weekend." "I was busy." "Busy doing what?" "Busy having sex with Ben in his car, on the street." "'Cause you're right..." "Someone did tell me." "So now the score is even." "You slept with Amy, and I slept with Ben." "I hope you and Amy can live with that, the way Ben and I have had to live with that for the past year." "Yep." "I slept with Ben." "And I'm not going to apologize for it." "Ever." "I didn't sleep with Amy." "I haven't slept with Amy since band camp, and that was before I knew you." "I kissed her." "I only kissed her, and I only kissed her because she asked me to." "Ask your dad." "You look sad, little Benjamin." "Mrs. Morelli, I was feeling sad, and then you called me little Benjamin." "That makes me feel happy." "I'm glad if I could make you happy, but you don't look happy." "But if you say you are happy, you want to give me a discount on the pork chops?" "No, he doesn't." "He can't." "Only I can." "I am the queen and granter of discounts." "Me, and only me." "Bunny, where have you been, dear?" "Having some work done?" "You look thinner, younger, and you've done something with your hair." "Give them to her." "You're a mood lifter, you know that?" "I do what I can." "Thanks." "Bye." "Bye." "Ricky's never been late." "Where is he?" "He's waiting for Adrian." "He wants to apologize to her for kissing Amy." "That's why you're walking around, looking the way you're looking?" "Because Ricky kissed Amy?" "No, I'm walking around looking the way I'm looking because I have a feeling Ricky and I aren't going to be friends anymore." "Because he kissed Amy." "No, that isn't it." "Something else happened." "[door opens]" "Hi, Bunny." "Hello." "Good to see you, Mr. Nealy." "You left a message." "I couldn't hear you, so I came over." "We got that pastrami you like." "I just wanted to let you know." "Do you want a sample?" "You sad about the pastrami?" "I look sad to you, too, huh?" "You look sad." "You got good pastrami and a sad face." "What's that all about?" "[dials cell phone]" "I'm on my way." "Are you okay?" "I'm fine." "I'm sorry." "I'll be there in ten minutes." "Do me a favor." "I don't know what's going on between you and the sad sack that did show up, but things are slow here." "Busy morning, slow afternoon." "So if you need time, we'll be all right here." "Look, kid, I'm going to tell you what I would tell my own genetic treasures..." "Don't let anything come between you and a friend." "Ben is your friend." "Real friends are tough to find." "Ben had sex with Adrian." "You didn't feel anything?" "No, I didn't." "I was very happy about it." "It was very freeing." "Come on." "You kissed Ricky and felt nothing?" "No one kisses him and feels nothing." "Maybe you are a bad kisser." "Ricky doesn't think there's anything wrong with the way I kiss." "And he is the expert." "Well, you kissed him." "Did you feel anything when you kissed him?" "Thanks for rubbing in that wound." "So you still care that I kissed him?" "I had a baby with him." "I care if you kissed him." "But how can you care if he kisses someone else, when you didn't feel anything when you kissed him yourself?" "I mean, you don't still want him, right?" "Right." "I don't have feelings for Ricky." "Maybe I did." "Maybe I liked him at band camp, but I don't love him." "Which doesn't mean I wouldn't care if he was with either of my best friends." "Okay?" "And if I ever did feel anything for Ricky, I'm over it." "This guy right here is the only guy I love." "Right, John?" "I'm telling you the truth." "All right." "But are you gonna call Jimmy?" "Find out why he hasn't called you, after you read to John." "I might." "But not Ben?" "No, not Ben." "I am over him, too." "Look, Ben's a nice guy, but maybe too nice, you know?" "He's not that nice." "Yeah, he is." "No, he's not." "Ben?" "Ben." "I heard he slept with Adrian." "Adrian?" "Ricky must have told her that I kissed him, and she went after Ben." "But Ben didn't have to say yes." "But he did." "What happened, happened." "I'm going to have to get John to bed." "You two have to go home." "All right." "Or we could stay with John, if you want to go over and talk to Ben." "Or Adrian." "I wouldn't get to read with him." "I love reading to John." "It's my favorite part of the day." "We could read to him." "Yeah." "Let us read to John." "We can put him to bed." "We can do it." "I'm supposed to watch Robbie, too." "Well, right now, Ashley's watching Robbie." "Well, where are your parents?" "They're..." "Not home." "Yeah, I know that." "How old are you, again?" "15." "I just turned 15 over the holidays." "And how old was Amy when she got pregnant?" "15." "Your parents probably don't want you around any guys, I would think." "Did you ask if I can come over?" "No." "Wow." "You say that a lot." "I know." "I'm wowed a lot." "This time, by your rebellious nature." "Your parents don't know I'm here?" "Nope." "They're not home." "It's like something I would do..." "Have you over to my house and hide you in my room, like a Christmas present stolen from under the tree." "A good present." "You know, something you really wanted, and you finally got." "I love sneaking around." "I don't know if it's sneaking around." "I just didn't ask them." "I didn't want to set any precedent for asking permission to see you or anything." "Oh, yeah." "Well, that's good." "Until it actually comes up whether or not you can go out with me..." "Then, I don't know, the parents may want to have some say in it." "They may or they may not." "They may notven notice you're around." "You could fall under my cloak of invisibility." "I'm invisible much of the time here." "Well, with no baby and all..." "So if they don't know I'm here, I could..." "We could have kind of a sleepover." "Yeah, I guess." "That would be funny, huh, if I slept over." "Yeah." "Then again, what if we're not so invisible, and we get caught and they never let me see you?" "Then we get caught." "You're saying I can sleep over?" "You're willing to take the risk?" "There can't be any physical contact." "You'd have to sleep on the floor or on the couch, like Griffin does." "Griffin sleeps over?" "Yes." "What about physical contact if we're vertical?" "Don't ask me if you can kiss me, okay?" "I don't want a guy to ask me if he can kiss me, because if a guy asks me and I think about it, then the answer is going to be... [camera shutter snaps]" "When the baby wakes up, I want you to take a picture of us so I can send it to Jack." "Yeah, and then I'll hold him." "I want to send a picture to Jesse." "Why do we want our boyfriends to see us holding a baby?" "I don't know." "Maybe because we want to get married and have babies with them." "That's a scary thing to say out loud." "Don't tell me you weren't thinking it." "Oh, no, I was thinking it." "I just wouldn't want Jack to know I was thinking it." "I don't think he'd like it." "No guy in high school wants to have a baby." "Yeah, you're right." "It is way too young to start thinking about babies and stuff like that." "Yeah." "Stuff like that." "Like marriage and babies." "Yeah." "Way too soon." " But I think about it." " I do, too." "But just because I'm thinking about it, it doesn't mean I want to do it any time in the near future." "Me, either." "I also want to move to France and live by myself, but I'm not ready to do that, either." "Besides, if Jack or Jesse knew we were thinking about marriage or babies..." "They'd break up with us." "[cell phone rings]" "It's him." "Hello." "Hey, Lauren." "Hey, Jesse." "Are you still at Amy's?" "Yeah." "She stuck me and Madison with the baby so she could go out." "You know, personally, I never want to have a baby, or get married or anything." "No." "Me, neither." "Not for a long, long time." "Long time." "I'm going to call Jack and tell him the same thing." "Wow." "Wow, back." "This is a good feeling." "Really good feeling." "Think it'll last?" "Forever." "Not possible." "Totally possible." "Slight chance that it's possible." "I'll take that." "I'm tired of making the same mistakes, and I'm tired of living with your mistakes and Amy's." "I just don't want to make another mistake." "I'm a mistake?" "The children are a mistake?" "What's a mistake?" "A mistake is making the wrong decision." "It's..." "You know what a mistake is." "Yeah, I do." "Like when you told everyone at the mother - daughter dance we're getting remarried, just because you felt pressured by a bunch of girls." "She told everyone we're getting remarried." "So you want to get remarried?" "How many times do I have to say it?" "I want to get remarried." "I want to be married to the mother of my children." "But you know what?" "I've had it." "I want a commitment, right here and now." "I came to therapy with you." "Are you going to remarry me or not?" "Thanks a lot." "You were a big help." "Mr. Famous Family Therapist." "You stink." "He amuses you?" "Yeah, he does." "And what about George amuses you?" "He's just so honest." "Honest?" "He cheated on me." "He had an affair with another woman." "That's not honest." "Yeah, but his feelings about it are honest." "George is very honest about his feelings." "Well, he just told you that you stink." "I know." "Most of the time, it takes patients months, even years, to question my authority, but George..." "George what?" "Look, we do not have the money to come here, so why don't you just cut to the chase and tell me what you want to say, oh wise ass?" "How's that for honesty?" "Not exactly what I was talking about." "That's not honesty." "That's anger." "But all right." "All right." "I don't usually say what I think, because that's not really the purpose of people coming here, to hear what I think, but that's what you want." "Fine." "But let me do it as a friend of the family." "There's no charge for this." "Great." "The issue of control keeps coming up over and over again for you." "You can't control life." "You can only live your life." "And you can live it in any way you want, in that you can choose your feelings about the people around you, and what's going on around you, so live it like that." "Give up trying to control it, and live it." "Live it to the fullest." "Life is good, whether you're happy or not." "Personally, I think the pursuit of happiness is just a waste of time, so forget about being happy." "What is happiness anyway, other than being surrounded by people who love you?" "And you can't choose how they love you." "You can only choose to feel the love." "Feel the love." "This is a wonderful time in your life, if you choose to see it that way." "And as far as all the mistakes go, is anything really a mistake?" "Or are mistakes just lessons?" "Everyone makes mistakes." "Life is a school, a learning process, and some lessons are more painful than others, but that's just how it is." "That's just how it is, Anne." "The sum total of our experiences is what makes us who we are." "All good experiences would not result in becoming the strong, interesting, beautiful woman that you are." "So give yourself a break, huh?" "As well as George and Amy." "Mistakes happen." "It was a mistake." "A stupid, stupid mistake." "It's okay, Adrian." "It's okay." "Everything's going to be fine." "I thought they slept together." "I know, but truthfully," "I think you would have been just as angry if you thought they just kissed each other." "Why did I do that?" "Why?" "To get back at them." "I know, but in getting back at them," "I screwed up everything for myself." "And me." "And Ben." "And Amy, and Ricky, and really, even Jack." "I came over here for help and comfort." "I'm sorry." "I am really, really sorry, Adrian, but you did the wrong thing." "Again." "Excuse me?" "The trouble really started when you had sex with Jack." "If you hadn't had sex with Jack," "I don't think I would have had sex with Jack." "And then your father wouldn't have died." "Are we back to that?" "No." "That was just a terrible thought I had when I was consumed with guilt because I had sex with Jack." "You know, I don't understand that." "The guilt you had about having sex with Jack." "You love Jack." "Jack loves you." "You both wanted to have sex." "You weren't cheating on each other." "So where does the guilt fit in?" "I don't understand." "I think you do understand." "I think everything you've been saying tonight indicates that you fully understand." "You're consumed with guilt, guilt that you have because you had sex." "Okay." "It wasn't wrong to have sex with Ben, in and of itself." "It was just wrong that I did it to get back at Amy and Ricky, and because it isn't going to get me what I wanted." "It isn't going to get me anything at all." "No, it isn't, but that's not why it's a mistake." "It's a mistake because sex outside of marriage is a mistake, in and of itself, and I think you know that, whether you want to admit it or not." "You know, I don't know why I ever became friends with you." "Oh, no, wait." "I do." "I became friends with you because it used to make me feel good that the smart and beautiful and popular Grace Bowman would be friends with me." "But you know what?" "You're really no better than I am, and being friends with you doesn't make me feel good anymore." "I'm not responsible for your bad feelings about yourself." "You are." "Maybe if you didn't have sex with every guy you know, you'd like yourself a little better." "Adrian, she doesn't know what she's saying." "She's a crazy woman." "Even if you hate yourself, I love you." "As a friend, of course." "Thanks, Tom, but I don't want any friends right now." "Have you lost your mind?" "Were you eavesdropping again?" "Yes." "I don't want to discuss it." "I'm here to point out that you are supposed to be Christian." "You put her down and made her feel terrible." "Either you messed up big time, or you're the devil." "Are you sure?" "Well, I wasn't there, but they both told me." "I'm telling you, I'm going to..." "Talk to him?" "Why would he do something like that?" "Opportunity presented herself." "Oh, hello." "I didn't know we had company." "Oh, hi, Betty." "I was just leaving." "Please don't leave, because Leo and I have something we want to ask you." "Maybe we should ask her some other time." "Is the wedding still on?" "Of course it is." "It's just a bad thing, you know?" "A little problem at work." "Good to see you, Betty." "Hang on a second, Bunny." "I don't want to mess things up for my bride here." "Go ahead, Betty." "Ask her." "I never slept with him." "We were never romantically linked." "Well, of course not." "No, Leo's first wife was his high school sweetheart, so he wouldn't have had time to link up with you." "It's just that Bunny, I wanted to ask you in person, and I was going to come by the butcher shop, but it's just so..." "so meaty down there." "I was just wondering if you would care to be my maid of honor." "I'd be honored, Betty." "Thank you for asking." "But is Ben going to be your best man?" "'Cause tonight's conversation might make for some awkward social circumstances for a while, if you know what I mean." "No." "No, I don't know what you mean." "Is that a yes or a no?" "That's a "we'll see how things go when I talk to Ben."" "Have you ever been beaten up?" "Really pummeled to the ground?" "Yes, I have, by the guy who called Amy a slut." "Ironic." "Now you're the slut." "I'm in a state of shock." "I don't know what to say." "How could you make that kind of mistake?" "I don't know." "I really don't know." "Okay, I do know, but if I try to say how or why it happened, it just comes off as an excuse, and there's not an excuse." "Ricky has a violent past." "This could trigger something really bad." "I think the sooner you talk to him, the better." "I don't think he'd hit me." "Even if he hadn't had a violent past, I think he'd hit you." "I hope he does." "I hope he does hit me." "I'd feel better if he did." "I think we better be going." "Now?" "Yes, Hank." "I have to get home." "And so do you." "All right." "Bye." "We have to get him some help, now." "I'll take Robbie now." "Thanks for watching him." "No problem." "Oh, yeah." "Dad?" "Did you want to meet Grant?" "He's Griffin's cousin." "Oh." "Hey." "Nice to meet you." "I'm going to assume you're gay, because that would be easiest right now." "Thank you, sir." "Nice meeting you." "Good night." "What did I tell you?" "Wow." "Hi, girls." "Oh, hi, Mr. and Mrs. Juergens..." "Ms. Juergens." "Is it Juergens?" "Where's Amy?" "Is she in the house?" "She's in the house, right?" "No, she's not in the house." "That's why we're in the house." "We're babysitting." "Why isn't Ricky babysitting?" " I don't know." " I don't know." "And you don't know where Amy is?" "Or where Ricky is?" "It's okay." "I'll call her." "I'll find out where she is." "[cell phone rings]" "That's your phone." "Yes, I know." "[ringing continues]" "Is that why you didn't call me?" "You couldn't just tell me that you found the condom?" "Why would I?" "I didn't want to see you again." "Because I had a condom?" "Because you lied." "I thought you lied." "I wasn't lying." "I have no intention of having sex again, at least not in high school." "And yet." "And yet I had a condom, because everyone has condoms." "Not everyone." "I don't." "You know why?" "Because I wasn't lying when I said I wasn't having sex in high school." "I wasn't, either." "I see." "Is this because I did have sex in high school." "No, it's not." "How did that happen?" "How did I get pregnant?" "The usual way." "We were making out and..." "I don't know." "We were just more than making out." "I didn't mean to." "It was a mistake." "So the condom was just in case you made another mistake." "No." "Does anyone really know when they're about to make a mistake?" "If they knew they were going to make the mistake, then they wouldn't make the mistake." "Yeah, they would." "People know they're making mistakes all the time." "They just go ahead and make the mistake." "They can't seem to help it." "[sighs] Look, I'm sorry, Amy." "I'm really determined not to complicate my life with sex right now." "It was a decision I made ahead of time." "Why..." "Why did you drive up here tonight?" "Why?" "Why tonight?" "Because I found out that Ben had sex with Adrian." "Okay, I felt betrayed by him and by her." "You know it's been driving me crazy that you haven't called me?" "Because I really do like you." "There was, um, the short amount of time that I thought you didn't call me because I was a bad kisser or something." "Can I just..." "I mean, I forgot." "Route." "Oh, hey, Betty." "Do you know where my dad is?" "I just need to talk to him." "Oh, yeah, he's not home." "Oh." "You want to talk to me?" "Actually, no, Betty, not about this." "Can you think of a three-letter word for a guy that sleeps with his best friend's girlfriend?" "Because I have B-E-N..." "Ben." "Eh..." "Do you know where my dad is?" "I know he's not home, but where is he?" "I'm going to have to have him tell you." "Why would you sleep with Adrian?" "How did you find that out?" "What, does it matter?" "It might." "Who told you?" "I can't say." "Do you want to talk to me about it?" "Do I want to talk about a mistake I made with sex to a hooker?" "Good night." "Wait, Betty..." "Heard you need some help." "Some guy let me in." "Henry and Alice called." "They said you might be getting beat up or something." "Hit me." "No, they didn't call me to beat you up." "They said someone else was going to beat you up." "I know, I know, but just please... just hit me as hard as you can." "I don't do that." "I don't hit people, get into fights." "I don't have any desire to hit anyone." "I had sex with Adrian." "Me, too." "I had sex with Adrian, and now Ricky is going to pummel me, and I hope he pummels me because I deserve to get pummeled." "It's a little extreme, don't you think?" "[sighs] No." "[whistles] Nice place." "Thanks." "Hey, he'll get over it." "She'll get over it." "Just don't go do anything stupid, all right?" "I already did something stupid." "I just told you." "I betrayed a friend, and I used another friend for sex, and I've crossed a line that is personally demoralizing, and that..." "And that?" "And that means Amy is never, ever going to consider going back with me." "I've lost her... forever just because of one stupid mistake." "Yeah, funny how that happens, how one stupid mistake can change your life, or create life, like Ricky and Amy." "Right..." "Right." "They made the same mistake, kind of." "Do you think there's a chance that she'll ever understand..." "Amy?" "No, I doubt it." "Girls don't understand those kind of mistakes." "They don't want to understand those kind of mistakes." "Grace said she forgave me for the mistake I made with Adrian, and all the other mistakes I made, but I don't think she did." "Hey, look at it this way." "Up until now, you didn't have any understanding on how that kind of mistake could happen, did you?" "Thanks, and thanks for coming over, Jack." "It's really nice of you." "Not like I had anything else to do." "You have enough problems of your own." "You don't need to hear about my problems." "No, no, I'm more than willing to hear about your problems." "I mean, you just came over to help the guy who's seeing the girl you love." "Loved." "I loved Grace." "I wanted Grace to be the first and only girl I ever had sex with." "I wanted to marry her, have babies with her." "I loved her, but having sex with her messed up everything." "That relationship totally revolved around either having sex or not having sex." "It was the issue that brought us together and split us up." "Then I hooked up with Madison." "I tried not to like her." "I did." "I tried to keep it to sex, but I actually like her, and I think I was falling in love with her, and then she calls me tonight and tells me she's babysitting John and that she decided that she never wants to have children or get married." "And?" "And what's the point in being in a relationship if at some point in the future there's no chance of having babies or getting married, so I don't know if I feel the same way about her" "if just having sex is really going to be just having sex." "But maybe if she knew that, then..." "No." "I'm just going to let it go before letting it go hurts." "You know what I mean?" " Yeah." " Hey, good luck." "Let me know if there's anything I can do other than hit you." "Oh, go ahead and go out the front door." "Oh, thanks." "I wasn't sure." "Oh, jeez, Betty." "What about Betty?" "Whoa, you startled me." "You don't normally come in the front door." "Your friend was parked out in the driveway." "Ah." "I wanted to talk to you, but first I wanted to talk to Ricky because Bunny's worried about him, so I went over to the apartment, and guess what?" "He's not there." "None of his things are there." "He's gone." "She's not answering." "Oh, I just got a text from her." "She's okay." "She went out to see..." "Jimmy?" "She drove all the way to Palm Springs on a school night?" "Apparently." "Hey, did you know that Amy was driving out to see Jimmy?" "I know." "Good night." "Wait a minute." "Why do you have two ginger ales?" "Who's the other one for?" "Good eye." "She's got a visitor... gay guy, friend of Griffin's." "I met him." "Well, regardless, I'd like to know when we have visitors here or in your room." "All right, Ashley?" "Got it." "Good night." "Why would Amy go all the way up there to see this guy when he hasn't called her and won't answer her calls?" "I think that question is the answer, isn't it?" "What's the answer to the question I asked you?" "You going to marry me or not?" "What did you and your shrink decide?" "We decided that you're not funny." "No." "I know he thinks I'm funny." "You know how?" "I am funny." "[baby crying]" "Did he tell you I'm funny?" "Huh?" "You ignored him because he said I was funny, didn't he?" "[laughs]" "If you ever want this to work out, don't pressure me about sex, funny man." "All right." "And if I want to have sex," "I'll let you know." "He hasn't called." "Why hasn't he called?" "Jesse hasn't called me back either." "Maybe there's no service, or maybe there's a big power outage or something." "[baby crying] [groans] Is he crying again?" "What is wrong with him?" "You go." "Uh, it's your turn." "You go." "I went the last two times." "I changed his dirty diaper." "Well, I'm tired, and I want to go home, and..." "Oh, we have to go home." "We can't drive past 11." "Let's go." "Hey, we're very sorry, but we don't want to be late and miss curfew and get in trouble, so could you..." "Anne got him." "Oh, thank you." "Did you guys find Amy?" "Went to see Jimmy." "Ooh, that's good." "Really good." "[Madison] Yeah, she needs to move on." "Ben slept with Adrian, you know." "[knock on door] [sniffles]" "Good night." "Adrian, it's me, Tom Bowman." "I don't want to see anyone right now, Tom." "I walked over here." "I'm tired." "Hi." "Hi." "You walked all the way over here?" "I want to talk to you." "Your dad said I could." "Tom, I can't believe you walked all the way over here, but if you're just here because..." "I'm back with Tammy." "[sighs]" "I'm here because my sister is not kind to you, and I see you are hurting." "Okay, come in, but you can't stay." "I don't feel like having anyone around right now." "Not even me?" "Tom." "Just want to make you smile." "Yeah, like that." "I love Ricky." "I really love him, and I was just so angry with him that he was with Amy, that I wanted to get back at them." "I have an anger problem, too." "That's how Jack got me going this week." "Then I probably should've called you." "Next time?" "No, there isn't going to be a next time." "You don't know that." "Yeah, I'm afraid I do." "You should have called me." "You should have talked to me before you did something stupid." "And what would you have told me if I told you I was going to have sex with Ben to get back at Amy and Ricky?" "I would have told you that that's not what sex is for." "Don't feel bad." "People make mistakes." "I make mistakes all the time, and people still love me." "No one is perfect." "No one." "Hi." "Tom, Mom's in the car." "We've been looking everywhere for you." "I was here." "Yeah, we figured that out." "I really want to talk to Adrian alone, please." "Thanks for coming over, Tom." "Good night." "Sweet dreams." "I just wanted to say that I'm really sorry that I wasn't nicer to you when you came over earlier, but really as a friend" "I told you not to do what you did, and you did it anyway, so it's kind of hard to be sympathetic, but really we all seem to do something that stops us from getting what we want." "We always keep sabotaging ourselves." "Maybe we just need to..." "[phone ringing]" "It's Ben." "Hi, Ben." "Hi, Grace." "Uh, we should talk about things." "Right now I'm with Adrian." "Oh, great." "I need to talk to her, too, but I was wondering." "Have you seen Ricky tonight?" "Has anyone seen Ricky tonight?" "You haven't seen Ricky tonight, have you?" "No, I definitely haven't." "And you, Grace, you haven't seen Ricky?" "No, is something wrong?" "Is it?" "Something wrong?" "He moved out of his apartment without telling anyone." "He didn't leave a note." "He's not returning calls or texts or emails." "I called his old house, his parents' house." "They haven't seen him, and he wasn't over at Amy's tonight." "Oh, wait." "He moved out of his apartment." "What do you mean?" "Hi, Adrian." "Hi, Ben." "How are you?" "Miserable." "Yeah, I am, too, but we're still speaking to each other?" "I hope so." "Me, too, and we should talk, but I think that for right now we should try to find Ricky." "He moved out?" "Apparently, yeah." "[sighs]" "When she does get home, I don't care what her mother says." "I'm taking the keys." "Here." "Take the keys." "Going to drive me to school tomorrow?" "Pick me up and take me to work and pick me up after work and take me by the market to get diapers or food or whatever else John needs." "You're not going to punish me by driving me." "I never get out of the house by myself for myself, so tonight I did." "Give me the keys." "Sit down." "I'm going to go tell Madison and Lauren they can go home." "They left an hour ago." "They both have to be home at 11, and so do you, young lady." "Oh, yeah, I forgot." "Did you see Ricky on your travels tonight?" "No." "Did he call you tonight?" "No." "You have any idea where he is?" "No, I don't." "What's going on?" "Ben called here looking for him." "Ben's looking for Ricky?" "Hmm." "I'm surprised Ricky's not looking for Ben." "He slept with Adrian." "What?" "Yeah, apparently to get back at Ricky for kissing me." "She thought we did something more than that." "I don't know why everyone thinks I'm having sex." "Well, you did ask Ashley for a condom." "What?" "That's the first I'm hearing about this." "It's righteous indignation, one of my favorites." "All right, Ashley told me." "I left my purse in Jimmy's car, and when he went out to get it for me, it slid off the seat and fell onto the driveway." "Everything scattered everywhere, and he saw the condom." "When he saw the condom, he thought I was lying about when I had told him that I didn't want to have sex again in high school and maybe not even until I was married, so he didn't call me and he didn't answer any of my calls" "because he didn't want anything to do with me." "Maybe like Ashley's friend, Griffin's cousin." "He's a really good-looking guy." "What's he talking about?" "Ashley's been hanging out with Griffin's cousin." "Oh, Grant?" "Guy about, like, this tall, longish hair on top, totally smitten with her?" "He's not gay." "Who told you he was gay?" "So you went out to see Jimmy because you know you're not going to see Ben again, didn't you?" "That's why you got up the nerve to go track him down." "Am I right?" "Yeah." "I'm sorry, I just decided to do it." "And?" "And I know it was a school night, and I know I should've asked first, but, Mom, I think we got everything straightened out, like, I think he likes me, and I like him," "but I know I'm 16, and I don't have time for a boyfriend, but I really do like this guy, Mom, and I hope he likes me because, oh, he's just funny." "He makes me laugh, and I han't laughed in a long, long time." "[phone buzzing] [chuckles]" "You lied to me." "I didn't lie." "You just assumed he was gay." "You let me think he was gay." "Dad, please don't be angry." "You'd really like this guy." "I don't like any guy who likes you." "I know, and I love you for that, but, Dad, I'm 15, and I'm going into 10th grade next year." "You're 14." "I just turned 15, Dad." "No." "Yeah." "Well, it's still too young to date." "Amy had a baby at 15." "Which is why you cannot date at 15." "I'm not dating." "I was just having Grant over, getting to know him." "Yeah, I'd like to get to know him." "Oh, would you?" "I could introduce you." "He's standing right in my closet." "Wow." "Hello, sir." "I'm at fault for not speaking up when you thought I was gay." "You sure you're not gay?" "Maybe you're just in the closet." "Sir, I'm in a closet, not the closet." "I'm not gay." "I'm in love with Ashley." "We haven't discussed that yet." "Yes, we have." "I told her upon meeting her that I think she's the most beautiful girl in the world and that I love her." "You know how it is." "Yeah, I know how it is." "Say good night and then..." "It's late." "How old are you?" "I'm 16." "I have a provisional license with a curfew." "[sighs]" "All right, well, I trust her completely, so if you want to sleep on the couch over there, you're welcome to stay on the couch." "Thank you, sir, and I won't abuse the privilege." "Good night, Ash." "Well." "I have to go now." "Good night." "But he said you could stay." "Yeah, it was a test." "He said I could stay." "That means I can't stay." "Good man." "See you next week." "Remember when we first met and everything was fun, and I made you laugh, and you made me laugh, and we couldn't wait to be with each other?" "That was the best time of my life." "Remember how that felt?" "Yeah, I do." "Not being sure of what would happen was exciting back then, remember?" "Yeah, I remember." "Come on, Anne." "What was it they used to say?" "The flipside of fear is excitement?" "I'd be really excited to be with you again." "I really would." "Hey, go to bed." "I've got people who can find him." "We'll find him." "Did you talk to his parents?" "Yeah, his mom had a few suggestions as to where he might be." "Said he used to do this when he was a kid." "In foster care he used to run away, so he knows how to take care of himself." "He'll come around, and when he does come around, you're going to talk to him." "He was your friend, Ben." "He's probably not going to want to be your friend now, but you owe it to him to talk to him and hear what he has to say to you." "He kissed Amy." "You're not with Amy anymore." "Nor will I ever be again." "Yeah, well, you're just going to have to accept responsibility for this, and get ready to learn some of life's toughest lessons." "It's hard enough to lose someone when they pass away, like your mother, but that was out of our control." "I mean, losing a friend by doing something dishonorable, like you did, well, that's plenty painful, too, especially when you know that didn't have to happen." "You made it happen." "It was under your control." "You knew it was wrong." "You did it anyway, and those are the worst mistakes you can make." "I'd like to know what your thinking was, and don't blame it on Adrian." "I can't stand when people make mistakes and blame it on someone else." "I thought I could ignore that Amy had sex with Ricky even though she was pregnant." "I thought I could ignore that it was his baby because I really loved her, and I thought that, as time went by, she and I would love each other more and more, and the fact that she was ever with him" "would bother me less and less, and that just didn't happen." "In fact the opposite happened." "I couldn't understand how the woman I loved would ever be with him." "He was with her, so I wanted to be with her." "I mean, after all, I'm the one who loved her." "I'm the one who held her hand and supported her every day until John was born." "Amy was my girlfriend, and yet there was no way she was ever going to be with me, not in the next decade anyway, so I wanted what I didn't have with Amy." "I wanted an uncomplicated relationship that was fun, and that had some sex involved, and that was Maria." "I like Maria." "I like her a lot, and just for the record, we fooled around a little, but we never had sex, and even if we did, she's not here." "Even if she was, she's not Amy, and neither is Grace, and neither is any other girl." "I want Amy." "I want her back." "So you went and had sex with Adrian." "I didn't do anything that Amy didn't do." "I didn't plan on having sex with Adrian." "It just happened." "I went to go talk to Amy, and she didn't want anything to do with me, so I was just sitting in my car lost in my own painful thoughts when Adrian came out to the car." "And made you feel better." " For a while, yes." " And how are you feeling now?" "Like hell, Dad, like hell." "You satisfied?" "No." "No, Ben, I'm not." "You had sex for the first time..." "I mean, this was your first time... in a car with Adrian?" "I didn't mean for it to happen." "I just..." "I keep doing things and saying things without thinking." "There's more?" "What else would you do?" "Hey, Leo?" "Why don't you two boys take a break before something's said between the two of you that you wish you hadn't said." "It's late." "Smart man knows when to take advice." "Let's take Betty's advice, huh?" "Because I don't think I could hear much more of what I heard tonight without doing or saying something stupid myself." "Thanks, Dad, and... thanks, Betty." "Sure, kid." "I love you, Ben." "Good night." "Wait, Betty." "I'm sor..." "Thank you." "Good night." "Love you."