"Hey..." "Maybe you have to let it hurt." " What?" " We've got to get going." " What time is it?" " I don't know." "Erik?" "Erik, come let me show you..." " Good morning." " Good morning." "Does anybody want eggs?" " ... daily average for an adult..." " Will you please finish eating?" " I'm not done reading." "Thanks a lot." " Stop it." "I want them soft boiled." "Dad, what is "on a pipe"?" "That one." " Do you have to read out loud?" " Ten teaspoons of added sugar." " For the average..." " Read quietly if you have to read." " The body needs energy..." " Thank you." " Please..." " Can you tell him?" " Eat up, so we can get going." " Has anyone seen my gloves?" " Did you check on the shelf?" " Who put them here?" " I'll answer." "Don't." "It's probably just Grandma." "Go to the car." " Hurry up." " Yeah, relax." " Do you have the present?" " What?" "No!" " Jonas!" " What would you do without me?" "Rock, scissors, paper." "Best of three." " Come on, best of five!" " Okay, best of five." "Quit stalling, boys, and get in the car!" " Rock, scissors, paper." "Loser." " Shut up." " Can't you handle some music?" " No, not right now." "Did you hear that, Dad?" "He can't handle some music." "But you can, right?" "You and me are real men, unlike Jonas." " Take it easy." " Dad, tell him to stop." "Jonas can't handle some music." " You are so juvenile." " Really?" " Anyone voting against it?" " I do." " Dad?" " What?" "When you sit up front, you control the radio, right?" " Yeah, but not all the time." " Well, I think so anyway." "NINE MONTHS LATER" "Jonas." "Hello?" "Hello?" "Dad, we need to buy groceries." "Dad." "Dad?" "Dad?" "Dad!" "Dad!" " Would you like one?" " No, I don't want any." " And how did this happen?" " Well, I..." "I really don't know." "Let me check your pupils." "I'm not actually sick." "Right." "Try to rest a bit." "I'll be back in a while." " Jonas." "Jonas?" " What?" "Are you sure you don't want your pajamas?" "No, that's okay, Grandma." " We can stop by and pick them up." " We'll pick up Jonas' things tomorrow." "You try to get some sleep now." "I read in your file that you are an eye doctor." "How long have you worked at St. Erik's?" "Since 1995." "And you prescribed Cipramil and Stesolid for yourself?" "Things kind of got to me..." "Of course you know to be careful when mixing those two medicines." "The combination can have an undesired effect." " Can I sign you out today?" " Sure." "I recommend you take it easy." "Let yourself rest." "Change your surroundings." "Take a trip, visit your summer house?" "Okay." "Take care of yourself." " Have some more gravy." " I've already taken some." "It's fine." "This was delicious." "Really delicious." "We have apple pie with vanilla sauce for dessert." "Oops." "Lasse!" "Come on in." "So, you're already up on your feet." " Is Jonas awake?" " No." "He's sleeping." " Hello." " Hi." "Pack your stuff, we're leaving." "Is that really wise?" "I mean, in your condition." "Let's have coffee and discuss this." "That's very kind of you, but we have a ferry to catch." " Ingegerd, make some coffee." " Tea's almost ready." "I appreciate your concern, Sven." "But I don't want to discuss this." "Jonas can stay with us, as long as necessary." " I'm not here to discuss." " So you can rest." " Jonas." "Get ready." " Don't be unreasonable." "Jonas, get ready." "Here's the tea." "Is that Jonas?" "I didn't recognize you." "You've grown." " Hello, Lasse!" "Welcome." " Hi, Lage." "Thanks." " You want help with the bags?" " No, we're fine." " Are you sure?" "I have a cart." " No, no." " Okay, we'll see you later." "Bye." " Bye." " What's the matter?" " What?" "Do you have everything?" "There's clean sheets downstairs." "Okay." "Okay, good." "Good." "Good." "Take the vacuum upstairs." "It's amazing how fast it gets dirty." "You should have seen the dust bunnies behind the stove." " Thanks for dinner." " What?" "You've barely tasted it!" "I wasn't really that hungry." "We'll go shopping tomorrow, right?" "What a morning." " What are you doing?" " I plan to fix the rowboat." "Do you know how to do that?" "It just needs some scraping." "And a little paint." " Wouldn't that be fun?" " Fixing the boat?" "No." "To go sailing." "Or fishing." "Wake up!" "You could have burned down the whole house!" "What time is it?" " What are you reading?" " The Phantom." " Is it any good?" " Yeah." ""The ghost who walks". "At times he travels like an ordinary man"." " Didn't he have a dog?" " Devil." "Devil is a wolf." "Devil." "What a name for a dog." "Don't stay up too late reading." "Well, damn it." "I know I have one left." " I'll have to look in the back again." " Thanks." "Hey there, Doc!" " Well, hi!" " I had no idea you were here." "Yeah, we came... the other day." "I see." "Jonas is with you, too?" "Great." "Then he can play with Axel." "Well, not "play", but..." "I knew I had one left." "And remember one thing." "You need to scrape all the crap off the boat first." " He doesn't have a clue." " He does now." " Be thorough." "Make sure it's all gone." " Now he knows how to do it." " Thanks." " Hello." "Hello." "They arrived the other day." "Midsummer Eve?" "Why don't you come over and we'll do something?" "Yeah, thanks." " Are we having a barbecue?" " Yeah." "I'll go see if I can..." "But..." " They've only got pork chops." " I'll be right there." "We'll see you at Midsummer's Eve." "Do you always swim with your shirt on?" "What?" " Man, that's beautiful." "Isn't it?" " Yeah." "I thought I was the only one who knew about this spot." "God, this is nice." " How old are you?" " Seventeen." "So you're a junior this fall?" "No, sophomore." "I kind of fell behind." "My friend had to repeat a grade." "She got like meningitis or something." "Talk about bad luck." " Damn it!" "Do you have a watch?" " No." "I have to work." "Damn." " Helena." " Lena?" "Helena." "With an H." "Ah." "Jonas, with a J." "Okay, Jonas with a J." "With a J." "See you." ""Hello." "Jonas with a J." Jonas with a J..." "I'm such an idiot." " What did you do today?" " What?" "Oh, nothing special." "Oh, I ran into Simon." "Axel is here." "He'd like you to come over." "Okay." "About the other day..." "Can't we try and make the most of this summer?" "Hi!" "You like fish?" "Yeah." "Thanks." " Good, isn't it?" " Yeah." " You're staying with your dad, right?" " Yeah." "I'm renting a shack from my boss." " But it's not that bad." " Helena!" "The cash register!" " I'm on my lunch break!" " You take it later." " Helena!" " Yes, all right!" "Want to go swimming some day?" " Yeah, sure." " Cool." " I thought you quit?" " No." "Oh, hi!" "I didn't hear you arrive." " It's looking great." " Yeah." "Would you like something?" "Cold drink, coffee?" "A beer?" "No, I'm fine." " I'm not interrupting, am I?" " No." "It was really unexpected to meet you the other day." "I didn't know you were coming out." "I hope you didn't think I acted strangely." " I don't know what got into me." " No, that's okay." "Jonas has gotten so big." " How's it going?" " It was difficult at first." " But I'm getting the hang of it now." " No, I mean for you and Jonas." "Oh, that's just fine." " If you want to talk..." " Okay." "Simon is waiting." "See you at Midsummer's Eve." " Okay." "Say hi for me." " I will." "Hold your breath, and feel the tension In your hand and chest." "And breathe out, relaxing your left hand completely  and the rest of your body." "Feel the pleasant sensation of your body relaxing and getting heavy." " Hello." "Have you been waiting long?" " No, I just got here." "Come on!" "It's really cold!" "Come on!" "Yeah, I'm coming." "Last one to that cliff is a... wimp." "Stop it!" "Help!" " I let you win, you know!" " Yeah, right." " Does it hurt?" " What?" " The knee." " No." "Sometimes." "You swim like a fish anyway." "When I broke my arm I had to have a plastic bag covering the cast." "I'd swim around with this huge bag." "I looked so stupid." "Hey." "Didn't you have a brother?" " I'm sorry." "I didn't mean to pry." " It's all right." "That's so like me." "I just say stuff without thinking." "He died in a car accident." "Maybe you already knew that." "No..." "Jonas." "Jonas, wait!" "What's the matter?" "What are you doing?" " I'm packing up." " Stop it and listen to me!" "We have to be able to talk to each other, Jonas." " I want to leave." "I hate this place!" " I don't care." "Will you wait for me?" "Jonas!" " Bye." " Bye." "Are you going somewhere?" "Going somewhere?" "No." "About last time..." "I'm really sorry." "I mean..." "I apologize." " Do you want some help?" " No, it's fine." "We used to rent a cottage here when I was little." "I don't remember where  but Mom used to say that I took my first steps here." "You should have seen me then." "I was the world's chubbiest baby." "I was so fat they had to cut my underwear open to fit my thighs." " Hard to believe now, isn't it?" " Yeah." "I'll get it." "Hello, this is Jonas." "Hi!" " Playing backgammon with Dad." " Who is it?" "Nothing special." "Okay." "Okay, I will." "Bye." " Who was that?" " That was Grandma." "They're coming tomorrow on the 11:00 a. m. ferry." "Grandma said they're bringing their own bed linen." "Hello, welcome." "Happy Midsummer!" " Welcome." " Thank you, Lars." " We haven't inconvenienced you?" " Don't be silly." " We called, but you never answered." " Jonas, grab Granpa's bag." " Lasse, have you been baking?" " Yes, indeed." " Sit down." " Thanks." "Oh, no." "The coffee." " What have you two been doing?" " Nothing much." "Have you played with those boys?" "Whatever they were called?" "The ones on the cape." " Kihlbom?" "No." " I see." "I have to ask you to run down to Karlsson's store." " Do I have to?" " There's no sour cream." "What do you think Grandpa would say?" "Herring without sour cream for Midsummer's Eve?" "There's still some work to do." "I'll put a little varnish on it..." "You need to tar it." "The hull." "Plenty of tar and it will float wonderfully." " Yes." " Tar." " Thank you, thank you." " Lars?" "No, thanks." "I'm good." "You can't celebrate Midsummer's Eve without a shot." " Maybe he doesn't want any." " Of course he does, don't be silly." "It's Midsummer, everyone wants a shot." "Right, Lars?" "Of course." "Thanks." "Midsummer without a shot?" "Well, I never..." "Finally, something to wet the whistle." "I have a bad headache My eyes are stinging" "Tummy is rum-b-ling The night goes a-winging" "And down the throat it goes" "Moonshine, a drop or so" "Praises to our spirits" "Praise now our spirits" " Cheers!" " Cheers." "Damn, that's good." "That was beautiful, Grandpa." " And it's time again." " Yes, indeed." "Erik hated herring." "To him, herring and potatoes was the worst." "Mom always had to fry sausage for him." "Remember that, Dad?" "See the star in the blue?" "Take a sip and you'll see two!" " Cheers!" " Cheers." " Hi." " Hi!" " I look nice, right?" " Yeah." " Are you here on your own?" " No." ""The little frogs... "" "Hey." "Want to forget about this?" "Come on!" " There you are." " Thanks." " Cheers!" " Cheers." "Happy Midsummer." " Shall we dance?" " Absolutely!" " Have you seen Jonas?" " Yes, he left with a girl." "Cut it out!" "I'm sorry." "Nice." " Hey?" " Yeah?" "Do you believe in God?" "And going to heaven when you die?" "I don't know." "Maybe." "When I think about it, I want to believe." "But I don't know." "I believe in one God, the Father Almighty!" "Creator of Heaven and Earth!" " Are you confirmed?" " Yes." "I got a watch and a gift certificate for a hardware store." " Cool." " Well, kind of." "I am quite confirmed, too." "It shows, doesn't it?" "Come now, Lars." " Do something!" " Lars!" "Come on, Doc." "Time to go home." " Come on." " You are boring." "So boring." "Yes, I know." "I love you." "...which would be... typical." "This is where I live." "Nice, isn't it?" "Bye!" "See you." "Yeah." "Bye." "Jonas?" "Come, sit down." "Grandma and I think you should come with us tomorrow." "We feel it would be better for everyone  if you move in with us for a while." "I understand if you don't agree." "But we think it's best for you and for your father's well-being." "This can't go on." "Your father isn't well." "He needs help." "Go to bed now." "We're getting up early in the morning." " Morning!" " Good morning." "Anyone want some coffee?" "I'll make the coffee." "Not a problem." "Are you leaving already?" "I thought we were taking a walk." "Don't take this the wrong way, but we have to talk." "Am I the only one eating now?" "You need help." "Professional help, Lars." "Someone got up on the wrong side of the bed." "We feel that Jonas should come home with us." "It will give you time to rest in peace and quiet." "Is that yours, Jonas?" "Don't you see?" "You can't take care of yourself or anyone else." "If I was still practicing medicine, I'd commit you immediately." " All right." " Does anyone want some coffee?" "We've already spoken with Jonas." "He'll gladly come with us." "Is that true, Jonas?" "Jonas!" "Answer me, dammit!" " Leave him alone!" " Don't yell like that." "Listen, Sven." "You've never listened to another person your whole life." "You only see and hear exactly what you already know." " The boy needs security." " He needs his father." "He shouldn't need to worry that you'll burn down the house..." " ... or slit your wrists." " Stop it, Sven." "Or overdose in a pathetic attempt to numb your own self-pity." "And what good is it to split up this family again?" "Haven't we endured enough pain?" " The boy needs to rely on his Dad." " But he does!" "We only want what's best for the boy." "Let me tell you something, Sven." "I am Jonas' guardian." "I decide in this house." "No outsider is going to come here  and try to run my life or Jonas' life!" " Is that clear?" " We'll see about that." " Are you threatening me?" " We both know how the law works." "The child's welfare comes first!" "Stop it!" " Promise you'll call every day?" " I promise." "Take care of yourself." "Hello?" "Hi!" "Hi." "I knocked, but no one..." "I didn't even know there was a piano." " You want coffee?" " No, thanks." "I'm good." "Good, I didn't have any anyway." "Have you been playing long?" "No, just for a few minutes." " I didn't mean just now." " Oh." "No." "For a while." "I played a flute in third grade, or something." "All that came out of it was a lot of squeaking." "It was my Mom who taught me to play." "Was she talented?" "Yes, she was." "You miss her, don't you?" "Jonas?" " Wait, I'll check." "Have you got it?" " Yes." " Okay, let it down." " Easy." "That's a damned leaky tub, it is." " Smoke?" " No, thanks." "I was just saying that..." "When you were expecting Jonas, how happy we were for you." "And jealous, remember that?" "I never really thought anything could happen." "I know I'm a prankster." "I've always been the clown of the class." "But that's how I handle my anxiety, my demons." "You have to find your way, Lasse." "This can't go on." "It won't work." "You have to find a way to move on." "Well!" "What a crappy boat." "That's what it is." "Good luck with the rowboat!" "Hi!" "I brought lunch." "I've lost all feeling in my fingers." "The palm is completely numb." "You never think it'll happen to you." "You read it in the paper and flip past it." "But I didn't stand a chance." "I know." "When my parents divorced, I thought it was my fault." "That I had ruined it all." "I've forgotten the number to my Mom's cellphone." "I used to know it by heart, but I can't remember it any more." "What do you remember?" "I remember that Dad was driving." "We were on the way to visit Grandma and Grandpa." "It was really cold that day." "Erik and I were fighting as usual." "What did you fight about?" "Who would get to sit up front." "I said it was my turn to sit up front on the way home when we when we crashed." "If I had gotten to sit up front, everything would have been..." "Would have been what?" " Erik would have survived." " But you would have died." "I should have won." "I always won." "You haven't told this to anyone, have you?" "No." " Not even your Dad?" " We don't talk to each other." " Not at all?" " Not about this." "Why not?" "You don't know my dad, he wouldn't understand." "How can you know that if you haven't even tried?" "What do you want from me?" "Why do you ask so many questions?" "Because I care about you." "That's bullshit and you know it." "You just pity me!" " No, I don't!" " I can see how you look at me!" "How everyone looks at me." "But nobody dares to say anything." "Jonas?" "Jonas!" " You sailed from Marstrand today?" " Yes, indeed." "I set the GPS and just..." " Hi." " Hi." "Hi." "Well, hell!" "So you're upright today?" "I'm sorry." "Let me introduce you." "This is Lasse." "These are my friends Henrik and Karin." "And there's Lasse, sitting there like a buffoon." "He's about to give the wedding toast  and he's got steak, gravy and potatoes all over his tuxedo." " But cheers anyway." "My best worst man." " Cheers." "I bet Simon didn't behave any better at your wedding." "Oh, I'm so sorry." "Everyone stares at me when I'm in the store." "I smell their damned clothes every single damned day!" "Sorry." "Time doesn't heal all wounds." "That's just the way it is." "Sorry." "I'll take care of it." " You get the little one." " Thanks." "A toast." "To all the idiots." "May they rot in hell." " Cheers." " Cheers." "That's tasty." "Especially with the bits of cork." " Come!" " Where are we going?" "Come." " Your turn." " You must be joking." "Yes!" "Bravo." "That was nice, wasn't it?" "Yeah, that was damned nice." "Help!" "Help!" " Been swimming?" " No, no." " He can't swim." " Who can't?" "Gunnarson." "He can't swim." "A fisherman who can't swim." " Dad?" " I guess he never learned." "Dad, why don't we ever talk about Mom and Erik?" " What?" "We do, don't we?" " No." "We talk about them all the time." "No, we don't." "You never say Mom or Erik's name." "It's as if they never existed." "Why did you do that, Dad?" "Do what?" "Jonas, it's hard to explain." "What did you think would happen to me?" "Did you even consider that?" "Please." "Please, Jonas." "You don't understand." "You are a coward." "You only think about yourself." " How old was your brother?" " Eleven." "Almost twelve." " Did you get along well?" " Yeah, sometimes." "No, actually." "We fought all the time." "Weird how you fight over nothing." "That's exactly what people fight over." "Nothing." "I wish I'd had someone to fight with sometimes." " Does that help?" " Yes, I think it does." " Here you go." " Thank you." "I've always loved this house." "It's so still and quiet here." "And the sea." "No neighbors to pry their noses in your business." "How are you and Simon doing?" "You know Simon." "He can't talk about anything of importance." "And he's a terrible dancer." "You can't blame yourself for what happened." "It wasn't anyone's fault." "You know that." "Yeah, but Jonas thinks it is." "Stop blaming yourself." "That leads nowhere." " I think he hates me." " He doesn't hate you." " He says he hates me." " He says it, but he doesn't mean it." "He hates what happened, not you." "During the first World War, when the men lay in their bunkers  nearly all of them became Christian and begged God they survive." "Sometimes, I think that it..." "I think that maybe it would help, anyway." "I don't understand any of this, sometimes." "It's very, very empty." "That's the way it is." "Are you sad now?" "I can't help it." " What are you afraid of?" " I'm not afraid." "Come on, Jonas." "I can tell from looking at you." "You're about to fall apart." " It's not easy." " Who said it was supposed to be?" " You don't get it anyway." " No, just that you feel like shit." "And that you aren't doing anything about it." "You're a coward, Jonas." "Just like your Dad." "Go to hell!" "You don't know how I feel!" "Nobody knows how I feel!" "You don't know what it's like to watch your little brother die." "You don't know what it's like to lose your Mom." "You don't know a damn thing." "Hey." "Maybe you have to let it hurt." "Here it is!" "You want to hear a really great song?" "Yeah, sure." "Have you heard this one?" " Loverboy!" " What?" " Come on!" " I can't." " Come on." " Here?" " Yes!" " No no." "I can't even dance." "No excuses." "Up with you!" "Okay, stand here." "And move a little like this." " But I can't dance, I told you." " Just do what you want." "Go crazy!" "You're doing fine!" "Where you can play football, swim and barbecue." "We remind you that this Is a smoke-free cabin." "So If you wish a smoke, please go outside the cabin." "Please go out mid-air, that makes It difficult to get there." "First mate Jonas wants to note the emergency exits In the front  at the back, and over the wings." "Back to you." "Yes, for lunch today we'll have mashed potatoes, meatballs  and some vegetables." "Is that okay?" "We have a menu..." "Dad!" "...where you can buy some snacks." "Like sandwiches made by first mate Jonas." " Axel, come here." " What's the matter, Mom?" " What happened?" "Let me see." " I don't know." "Hi." "Ow!" "Damn it!" " Are you out of your mind?" " Shut the fuck up." " Are you all right, Lasse?" " It hurts." "I've tried to talk to you for fifteen years, Simon." "But you can't handle it, you don't know how." "You brush everything under the rug." "I needed someone who can touch me." "I need someone to talk with." "Can you understand that?" "Every time... every time a patient  asks the doctor how things are you're supposed to say "One day at at time"." ""One day at a time, Mrs. Larsson. "" "And so this is what I think:" ""Now, today will be a good day. "" ""I have to look ahead. "" "But I can't." "I can't do it, I don't know how to do that." "Explain it to me." "Please." "Please, explain it." "What's wrong?" "Jonas, listen!" "What have I done wrong?" "Tell me!" "What have I done wrong?" "What did I do wrong?" "What did I do?" "Everything is your fault!" "It's your fault Mom and Erik died!" "It's your fault Mom and Erik died!" " Calm down!" " It's your fault I'm a cripple!" " I hate you!" " No!" " Jonas can't handle some music." " You are so juvenile." "It's your fault!" " What have I done wrong?" " Rock, paper, scissors." "It wasn't my fault." "Dad!" "Dad!" "It wasn't anyone's fault." "Dad!" "Jonas." "I love you." "I love you, too." " Hi." " Hi." " You forgot this." " Right, thanks." " You take care, now." " You too." " See you." " Yeah." " Have you got everything?" " Yes."