"Dear diary ..." "Now I am sure that my parents do not care if I die." "Last night I went to the room while watching television." "Fell dead on the floor." "And they did nothing!" "I think the TV ruins everything, up with spontaneity." "When my parents are seeing the news of the nine, turn off everything." "Sometimes even sleep!" "Dear diary ..." "Today I spoke with Walt Stilman about masturbation." "He said I had to be careful not to spill sperm in hand." "We put a little in the microscope and found some crazy moves!" "I do not believe that make us be deaf." "Well, I hope not." "Would be the worst thing in the world can not listen to Diana Ross!" "She is my favorite singer!" "I had already decided to be Diana Ross on Halloween!" "Diana suffered much prejudice in early career." "This is what will happen to me." "Dear diary ..." "I became the best friend of Pinky Farraday." "You think a guy named Pinky would be, well ..." "You know ..." "But it is not!" "He is the team intermediate of baseball!" "Being his friend is so important for me!" "It is almost like being popular!" "I think if someone appeared with a gun and threaten to kill the Pinky" "I offered to die in dee place." "He really deserves life!" "Dear diary ..." "Everyone invited to Cathy Quinn to go to motel." "But Cathy Quinn invited me!" "She said she did not mean anything." "It would be a control experiment only." "But to tell the truth ..." "I have no problem I check in!" "Not that that is not attractive." "Because I have other concerns." "Dear diary ..." "Already decided what I will be." "And I spoke to the Pinky I decided." "I said ..." " Pinky ..." "I decided that I will be actor of theater." "Cool." "Pinky is so comprehensive!" "He encourages full my decision." "Great!" "Again!" "Dear diary ..." "Last night was completely happy!" "Pinky took me home after the test." "I told the stupid of Wallt Stiltman that felt by Pinky." "He said I should be careful because he had heard of that boys were with each other ..." "It was something gross." "And I could end makes me a pervert." "Or worse!" "I decided to do the treatment sessions of shock voluntarily." "I hope that I stop to make to have erotic dreams with men." "And with Pinky." "Dear diary ..." "Today Mary and Zapatelli Fancine Antoniello" "They told me that boys were talking about me in the back!" "They said I was like a girl." "I could kill me by of it!" "Of course I denied it!" "Even said I could show that was not true!" "And when finished, turned their backs ..." "And my friends were watching me" "As if I actually had killed me!" "So I decided to no longer Diana Ross on Halloween!" "Dear diary ..." "Today rehearsed my funeral." "It was one of those days!" "The worst day of my life!" "I called home to Pinky last night." "His mother answered." "She said the Pinky could not talk." "I should not try to talk with him again." "Decided to write for a long Pinky letter telling what happened." "I know that he knew nothing." "The next day, I gave the letter for Pinky." "s for lunch, he gave me another." "He said I was a fag." "A pervert." "And perhaps I do not deserve even alive." "Ok, I have ceteza ..." "But perhaps it means I Pinky and the ..." "We are not friendly?" "For those interested to ..." "Now I am prisoner of my own life!" "My mother found my diary." "And read." "My father also read." "I am now without a future." "A concern to most!" "Pray for me!" "Bye!" "Father Jon came in visit today." "He took me for ice cream." "Should have known!" "I mean, we are not religious!" "But only after I asked for my Sunday," "Sitting in the front seat of the car him as a goofy, it was realized that everything had been combined with my parents!" "The penis begins to grow ..." "Getting tough." "And then the man falls the vagina of women, that is already naturally lubricated." "I swear it was something repulsive!" "And when I thought it was the most disgusting possible," "I would never think that making sex the rest of my life horrible," "Trevor ..." "You had hope ..." "I am talking about sexual desire ... the other kid?" "Be honest with me." "Can you help me if honest." "Already, for example ... another boy wanted to play as ..." "I am not wanting to suggest anything ..." "But, as ...." "Pinky Farraday?" "I decided to start a new life." "I will change." "First, I painted my hair and eyebrows." "After ... change of name." "My identity." "After ... change of school." "E. .." "Maybe go to Mexico," "And from today, for sure change of religion!" "Trevor." "Dear diary ..." "Today in English the teacher asked me to read my writing." "The topic I had chosen was the loss of innocence, as represented in literature." "The loss of innocence is for an experience without explanation." "The character needs experiencing the loss." "Must be involved in their experiments." "Need to react with spontaneity." "To be injured." "Need to survive ..." "The experience must be important enough to be remembered." "Must cause a change in character ..." "The teacher gave me ten by writing." "Nobody knows who copied everything from a book." "Pinky still ignores me ..." "I must be invisible ..." "Dear diary ..." "Sometimes I imagine that I live somewhere exotic in the tropics." "Sometimes ..." "I imagine that I will be famous ... and that everyone will want to take photos by my side." "Sometimes I imagine that ..." "I will die soon." "And everyone will regret." "Everyone at school is saying that I am gay." "You should be giving the man!" "But when I look not I see nothing different!" "I do not understand!" "My life is now a obvious tragedy!" "Dear Mom and Dad ..." "I do not want to think not I thought about it much ..." "I thought ..." "I tried to kill me, but not said ..." "Do not think that the fault is yours." "Happens ..." "Please give my collection of Diana Kristin Ross to Manistera ... like that of Diana as much as me." "And, please ..." "If you can ..." "Tap Endless Love at my funeral." "It is my favorite song!" "And do not cry much." "It would be much worse if I still alive." "His beloved son." "Trevor." "The hospital told me that ..." "Nobody is taking kills many aspirin." "But I guarantee that ..." "I would not have a headache by at least a year!" "I think they were kidding." "Well, I found that nurses in the hospital .." "His name is Jack." "He is super cool!" "Actually, Jack is just a volunteer." "But it is as a nurse." "Well younger!" "Jack told me that when the people try to kill ..." "They have to go back and live all over again!" "And the idea of having to live with my parents in a life outa me depressed." "Jack said I would not have to go back in the same family ..." "And I said, with the luck I have, back!" "Jack told me that from now on I should live my life day to day." "Thus, in the blink of an eye, come tomorrow." "Honey ..." " I want to go now?" " In a minute, Mom." "And when Jack thought that I invite for some heavy festivals to suicidal gay teens ..." "He showed me two tickets for a concert of Diana Ross!" "Cool!" "Okay, I do not know if out of tickets, or because of Jack." "But decided to live!" "At least until tomorrow."