"DOKTOR GLAS" "Doctor Glas Appointments after agreement" "I would not deny Mr Holm a sleeping pill, if it was necessary" "But remember to be careful." "Of course" "The best sleeping pill is a sound and regular life" "I have a good conscience" "What" "Yes," "Yes.Of course." "You have to have a good conscience" "But it is not enough with just a good conscience" "Do like what I am doing.Finish every day with a long walk." "It is a wonderful feeling to be really tired when you go to sleep" "Yes.Of course" "My God what a summer" "It is the dog days already in June and not a single raindrop since beginning of May" "By the way Kristin,you have very good grasp of the weather" "If I were the doctor I would close the practice a month or more" "I see.Kristin wants holiday I suppose." "Well I am well provided for but people cannot keep healthy in the heat" "No.Kristin is right.This is a really unnatural heat." "I think it would be good for the doctor to take some holiday" "No thanks" "But think of the wonderful beautiful archipelago" "I am doing just that,Kristin" "With bathes,perches and sailing boats" "And beautiful girls." "Yes, and the sunsets." "The sun sets everywhere,Kristin" "But not like it does in the archipelago." "What a landscape." "A landscape chopped like a beef stew" "Small islets,small polls of water, small rocky knolls and small scary trees" "Thank God for the city, the kerb near the river" "Speaking about beef stew, you don't need to provide me with dinner,I am eating out" "Good evening Pastor Gregorius" "Good evening Doctor Glas" "The doctor is also out refreshing himself in the African heat" "Yes.Refreshing oneself is not much to ask for.." "but you would be uplifted a bit when you see the dust cloud lift" "How are you?" "Not really good.Not really." "My heart is troubling me,pounds irregular even stopping during the nights" "Then you have to see me soon and we will see what is the matter" "Yes.Maybe." "If it was not that hot." "Yes.It is really hot." "And my wife is also not feeling well." "I hope it is nothing serious?" "No.I don't think so." "She is also welcome." "Thanks.I will tell her." "Thanks.God evening." "This is really a nice old thing which I got at an auction." "There is such a peace and tranquility with a watch without hands." "Like the face of a dead" "So that could be for me reminding me of my profession." "Yes.Why not?" ".Like the face of a dead." "Hello,Markel" "Hello" "Do I interfere?" "Thanks.I have just finished." "It is an article about the grants to the opera." "the music and its ennobling influence etc." "It is really kind of a truth about this nonsense" "But expressed in a comprehensible translation for our legislators" "What is it called in the original?" "That music incite and strengthen.." "..heighten and confirm" "..the pious in his innocence, the warrior in his menace.." "..the dissolute in his vices" "Yes.Vices." "Exactly so.As an example that" "That man is persecuting me, it is the second time this afternoon" "Think about that such persons should exist" "Remember the old problem which always come up" "When a few poor souls are sitting around a coffee table" "If you were to kill a chinese mandarin by pushing a button on the wall" "And then inherit his fortunes." "Would you do it?" "That question I have never cared to answer" "No.It doesn't bother an old quack doctor" "No.You are right" "And that problem is of no concern for you who has never.." "really hard and bitter experienced the misery of penury" "But I think if I could kill that Gregorius by pushing a button I would do it" "What has he done to you?" "Nothing,but I am thinking about an anecdote of Schopenhauer" "The grim philosopher was sitting one evening in his coffee house" "Alone as usual" "Then enters a person with an unsympathetic appearance" "Schopenhauer looks at him with both loathing and horror" "Then he jumps up and hits him on the head with his stick" "Just because of his appearances." "Well.You are not a Schopenhauer" "My friend,there are three kinds of men, thinkers,hack journalists, and sheep" "It is the thinkers duty to find the truth.." "But it is with the truth like the sun, its value for us depends upon the right distance" "If we let the thinkers loose, they would steer our planet right into the sun and turn us all into ashes" "No wonder that the sheep sometimes shout "Extinguish the sun"" ""Extinguish,damned,extinguish"" "We hack journalists have as a duty to keep the right distance to the truth" "It is our duty to protect the thinkers from the fury of the sheep and the sheep from too much doses of the truth" "You are speaking wisely,dear Markel" "As usual,my friend,as usual." "I have a vague feeling that you don't count me among the thinkers or the hack journalists.." "..but to the third kind" "So it shall be a real pleasure to invite you for dinner" "An excellent idea." "An idea which by itself will place you amongst the thinkers." "He has such a beautiful wife that Gregorius." "Well,she is probably doing her duty." "Yes.It is called like that." "Duty, God what a lovely old screen to hide behind" "If you don't want to do what ought to be done" "Yes.You want to live,therefore we are doing our duty." "I am toiling with my balderdash in the newspaper" "And you are caring with love for the most useless the most hopeless, rotten human material" "And the tiny Mrs Gregorius is staying kindly with her cute husband instead of eloping, which undeniably would be the most decent thing to do" "You think so?" "Of course.." "..but she is probably thinking about her reputation,future,position as we all do" "A toast!" "Position,future,reputation... as we are everyday prepared to throw these packages" "..on the first ship with a cargo of actions" "Yes.A real action." "I am not ill but.." "There is something I really want to discuss with the doctor" "I have acquired such a disgust for my husband." "not as a human being,he is always kind and friendly towards me but he inspires me with such a horrible repugnance" "I do not know how to express it." "The thing I want to ask from the doctor is something peculiar.." "..perhaps it is contradicting what you think is right" "..I don't know what the doctor thinks about these matters." "..but I don't know anybody whom I can entrust.." ".nobody in the whole world can help me" "Couldn't the doctor speak with my husband?" "About what?" "Can't you say I am frail.." "..anemia.." "..so he should relinquish his privileges" "His privileges?" "Excuse me,Mrs Gregorius, how long have you been married?" "Six years" "And you have always detested him as much as now" "It has always been difficult but lately it has become unbearable" "I don't know how this will end if this continues" "But your husband is not so young, how old is he really?" "56 or 57 but he looks older" "But tell me.." "..have you never spoken with your husband about this" "Yes.But he replied with a warning.." "that we cannot know whether God want us to give us a child" "He maybe right." "You are so kind toward me." "No,you must know everything" "I want you to lie on my behalf and therefore I need to be sincere with your" "You may judge me as you like,but I am an unfaithful wife and belongs to another man." "Don't cry now" "No more tears" "I will help your" "I am promising that" "Thanks" "But it was stupid of you to tell me the last thing" "You don't need to worry that I will abuse your confidence" "Such things should be kept secret as long as possible" "..without exceptions.." "..and I still would have helped you" "But I wanted to speak about it" "I wanted that someone whom I esteem and look up to should know this" "..and yet not hold me for contempt" "Contempt?" "I will speak to your husband already today" "Let us hope that he does not see through me" "I already knew that my wife was a bit unwell.." "but I could never believe that is was that serious" "It is really rather serious or better explained could be at the least incautiousness" "I have difficulty to explain how sorry I feel for her" "We had so much longed for a child" "That is exactly the thing Mrs Gregorius cannot risk in the near future" "Different bedrooms." "I will never accept that." "I will only say beforehand" "This would be so exceptional in our circles and would only cause gossip" "Besides I am really an old man" "Naturally I would not doubt that you would prioritize your wife's health above all" "Moreover there is hope that we would see her recuperated again" "I am praying to God.But,doctor, how long would it take?" "It is difficult to say,at least for a half year ,and then we will see" "KLAS RECKE Chancery secretary" "Give a poor unemployed a coin" "Oh,always this anguish,Klas" "Childishness,little Helga" "Good morning,Miss Mertens" "I was lucky to meet you,Doctor" "Mother asked when the doctor will come and see her" "Well,any day." "Is it something special?" "No.Nothing special." "The doctor knows her." "And it is easy to imagine,poor mother sitting in her wheel-chair all the days." "But she is keeping up her spirits?" "Yes,she really doing that." "That is the main thing." "And she is well-read at her old age" "She is devouring everything available from novels,poetry and anything else" "But can you imagine, she is always coming back to her old favourite book" "After which I am baptized" "What" "Eva.-What is that for book?" "So the doctor can't guess?" "No.Please let us know." "Evangeline" "Evangeline.Who is that?" "Longfellow's Evangeline" "But has the doctor not read it?" "I really must admit..." "But the doctor must read it, such a charming book" "I will absolutely do that" "Promise me" "I promise" "Eva" "I'm coming" "Think about mother and Evangeline" "And on me" "The doctor must help me, the doctor must help me,must" "Dear Miss Holm,I can't help you." "The way you are pleading goes against my duty as a doctor" "Your duty as a doctor is for sure is to help people" "The child you are carrying beneath your heart is also a human" "Where would we end up, if we didn't have respect for human life,even the most tender" "That is an easy way of hiding behind a screen!" "Hiding behind?" "Behind an old fashioned screen to stop doing the things needing to be done" "Thanks,Doctor,thanks" "I can assure you that the law is not for mocking in cases like this" "The law" "Yes.The law." "Police,court,the Långholmen prison." "These are facts not difficult to grasp" "The doctor is inhuman.All people are inhuman.Save me,save me." "Have you no mercy!" "I don't know what to do.I will go down." "Drink" "Everything will be fine,just entrust yourself with your mother, she will speak with your dad." "It is impossible.My fiancee has nothing and is nothing" "My dad,would never forgive me." "Oh,nonsense.It will be a small storm, but it will soon abate." "And then it will be wedding and honeymoon." "Is it true that she has a fiancee?" "Yes,you may call it like that, lover is more a word for a novel." "..and seems indecent" "Poor,poor ,girl!" "Think about so much trouble for such a small delight" "And poor Mr Holm and the mother" "They who have always tried to be decent" "Let us hope it will succeed" "And now everything is destroyed for them." "I can imagine the gossip" "Yes,I hear that." "That is something horrible." "Nonsense.Such things will always settle, as long there is money available." "It is only the pride you would have trouble with" "And the pride will overcome this!" "Your acquaintances are here." "Have you seen them?" "Oh,it is not that dangerous." "But that is what makes it fun." "Who is it?" "See for yourself." "It is editor Markel but who is the other one?" "His name is Birk.Martin Birk." "He works at the custom office." "Soon you will see Doctor Glas coming." "Those two are the only one he associates with from GUL Student Union Uppsala University" "But,don't you remember that he attended that dinner with the family Rubins" "No" "I can't remember seeing him there" "Sure" "I only saw you" "But why do you call him from GUL?" "Because he is from GUL StudentUnion Uppsala Univ I knew him from there." "Here you should here what he recited the other day" "" Nothing belittle and demean a human so much." "..as the consciousness of not being loved" "The consciousness of not being loved" "Don't worry about him.He could have 10 on each finger if he wanted." "Good evening,Doctor Glas" "Good evening.Is editor Markel here?" "Yes.He its down in the garden near the loggia.-Thanks." "Then I understand a tale he told me once" ""A little prince was going on an excursion" ".and was asked,would the prince like to go with horses or by boat" "And the prince replied:" "I want to go with horses and with a boat" "Yes,as you can see, not so easy to choose." "We want to have everything." "We want to be everything." "To be able to choose is to be able to renounce" "If I could renounce everything" "Except you" "No.Aren't my old friends gone astray?" "My husband." "And my chief, baron Frobenius." "We have been to a meeting with the poor relief committee" "And then we thought we could prolong the meeting in more cosy surroundings" "I call you tomorrow." "Well.How is your heart?" "Yes.It is not good.Not really good." "But seriously shouldn't you think about your own health as well as Mrs Gregorius" "I shall come to the doctor, already tomorrow-Welcome" "Shall we say at 2 o'clock?" "2 o'clock.Thanks,Doctor." "So the chancery secretary is sitting here all alone" "Would not the chancery secretary sit down with us down there!" "Thanks" "Hello ,hack journalist" "Hello,quack doctor" "And how are your wife.Mrs Gregorius?" "Excellent.I have not heard anything else." "And now she has to be all alone while the vicar is going on a spree" "It is not that serious .She was going out with a friend to a concert ." "..I think she said so she has consoled herself" "I hope so." "There is Klas Recke together with head of division Lowenius,well,I say" "That is typical.Always entertaining with his superiors." "but never with his comrades" "That shows good sense." "How much more advantageous for the young to court his chiefs then being out and carousing with nice friends" "You are too timid my dear Markus" "An ambitious public officer has to take the opportunities" "Ambitious is perhaps not the best word" "Just say a boy who wants to move forward and who knows how to succeed in this world because he has a damned clever head" "At least from the point of career" "But you do not need to think about such such mundane worries" "Yes,but don't say so." "What would the gentlemen prefer?" "A lean bishop's salary or a wealthy parish" "Yes.What does the chancery secretary say to that?" "I would say like the little prince who was to go on an excursion." "and the courtiers asked:" "Do the prince wants to travel by horse or boat?" "What did he say?" "I want to go with horse and boat." "That's enough.That's enough.Clever boy." "This is the right principle if you want to advance in the world" "A pusher I suppose." "OK.But I still like Klas Recke because he has such an unusual talent to arrange for himself to be cosy and comfortable in this vale of tears" "We went to a restaurant and continued the committee" "And guess whom I met there?" "Yes.Doctor Glas he was in an excellent mood." "I have almost never seen him so jolly" "And then we met chancery secretary Recke" "You remember him perhaps from the dinner with the family Rubins" "A really nice sociable person that man Recke,I must say" "Surely a man for the future" "But I do not give much for his moral" "He is a real egoist and a conceited scoundrel" "He compared himself to a prince who wanted everything what he saw" "Horses,coaches,boats, God knows what!" "Good night" "Good night" "And then he woke me up in the night, he could not sleep,he begged and implored" "He cried.He said that his blessedness was threatened" "He did not know which severe sins he might commit unless" "I did not accept his demands" "It was my duty." "And duty before health." "God would help us, God would make me sound again" "Is he a hypocrite?" "I don't know.." "..but I don't think so,he has got used to implore God for whatever purposes that suits him" "I wanted to get dressed and walk out" "Out, out the whole night until the dawn" "Bu he kept me hard down,he was strong" "He did not let me go" "I could have killed that man" "Dear Mrs Gregorius,that is of course just an expression but you should not use it in such a way" "How did you come to marry him?" "Influence from parents or a confirmation infatuation" "Nothing of that" "I was never in love with him,not the slightest" "I will try to explain for you everything" "I was so happy in my childhood and early youth" "Everybody liked me,I liked everybody, and I thought good of everyone" "And then came the age,you know" "It made no difference,I was still happy" "Yes.Almost happier than before." "I had grown up in a very religious home." "but still I could not believe that it was a horrible sin to kiss when I was in love with a young man" "and I was always in love" "I knew that there was more than kisses and play something you should be on one's guard for that was a terrible sin" "But it stood apart as something unclear and in the distance and it did not tempt me, but when I was 20" "I became very in love with a man" "And then one day he lead me deep into the forest" "Oh,if I did not break loose from his arms and run away" "Then I might have been married to him with several children and a home" "A real home" "In that case I would never had been an unfaithful wife." "From that day I was transformed" "I fell into religious obsessions.I prayed God to liberate me from my dreams." "and my longings" "Then one day I found out from my father that vicar Gregorius had asked for my hand" "I was completely astonished." "He had never approached me in that manner." "There was something in him which repelled me in a certain way" "It was just that which made me to accept his offer" "Nobody forced me,nobody convinced me" "I saw that it was God's will with this man at my side, all my longings would expire and the desire to die away." "I thought that God had ordered that way for me but he could not kill my dreams,only soil them" "Instead he killed my Faith, and I am not longing for it anymore" "A strange faith.Everything you longed for everything which filled the spirit with light was sin a man's embrace was a sin, if you longed for it" "but if you found it raw and disgusting a scourge or a torment, then it was a sin not to want it" "Tell me,Doctor Glas,isn't that peculiar" "Yes.It is peculiar." "Tell me,Doctor,do you think my love now is a sin?" "Sin?" "Yes,not just happiness but more agony but if you think it is as a sin, then everything in me is a sin" "as I cannot find something better in myself than my love" "But tell me Mrs Gregorius" "Have you never thought of a divorce?" "Oh,you do not know him, he would never accept that,never" "Whatever I did,whatever happened" "He would rather forgive seven and seventy journeys and retrieve his honor" "I see only soil to tread on" "Is it serious?" "Really serious?" "Peculiar" "Peculiar..really peculiar" "I have to listen once more so I am sure that I am not mistaken" "Yes,I shall listen carefully, because what I hear is not a special healthy heart ." "I do not think it is that bad in ordinary circumstances" "I think it has special reasons to cause trouble today" "Let us be frank with each other" "You have not forgot the conversation we had a few weeks ago" "..regarding the health of your wife" "Of course not..but" "I do not want to pose an inconsiderate question if you have kept the agreement we decided" "Agreement?" "Yes,yes.." "..but I will tell you had I known then how bad was your heart." "..then I would have insisted on even further stronger reasons for the advice I gave you" "For you wife it means her health for a longer or a shorter term but for yourself it concerns your life" "My prescription is straight forward" "..it is separate bedrooms" "Yes,I know you don't like it, but it can't be helped" "It is necessary to avoid anything which could be exciting" "But my dear Doctor Glas" "How old are you?" "57" "That is a critical age." "Yes,it is true that there are many different ways of looking at one's life" "An old rake could with some logic say" "There is no meaning in renouncing things in life which give you pleasure, only to keep your life" "But I know that you are not reasoning along those lines" "One pill three times daily after the meals." "It is also not recommendable to stay in the town during the whole hot summer" "But then you must naturally travel alone" "Well,what did the doctor think about Evangeline?" "Evangeline?" "but the doctor is not saying that he has forgotten the favourite book of my mother" "Forgotten,not for a moment,but actually I have not had time to read it" "And the doctor has also not had time to ride nowadays but come in the mornings they are more beautiful than ever" "I'll promise.-And the doctor also promise to read Evangeline" "I shall improve" "How she radiated" "She must love someone" "Thank heavens for that, she is in love with Klas anybody can see that" "Aren't you jumping to conclusions?" "You think so?" "I met her at a dinner a few weeks ago" "She did not do anything else but talking about you." "until she suddenly stopped and became red on the ear lobes" "With whom by the way?" "..." "A nice girl" "Quite charming" "You are obviously charmed yourself" "It is burning behind the waistcoat on you Markel,take her Markel" "You take her" "I will not be a dangerous rival" "Look there is Mrs Gregorius coming!" "Is her husband with her?" "No.He is in Porla spa" "Hello Markel" "Hello" "He is difficult to get hold of that Recke lately" "I am sure that the scoundrel is up with something" "What could it be?" "They are saying he is courting a girl with money" "He has to follow that direction to the end" "Having debts as a successor to the throne" "How do you know that?" "I do not know that,but I understand it" "Poor souls judge a man according to his business position" "Contrary I will judge the business position according to the man and I know Recke" "No,no,no,You can't drink more whiskey,Markel" "If one could get away" "Why not?" "Let us go away,far away to another country where nobody know us" "Your position,your future" "I think I can find a new way in another country" "Your friends." "Friends?" "Should I have friends which I could not with pleasure relinquish for for your...for our happiness" "Our happiness" "Are you striving for happiness?" "Yes,I suppose so" "..as the happiness is the summary of everything which is desirable" "Well.The man is not striving for happiness but lust" "And the one lacking talent for happiness will satisfy himself with achieving a bit form and style on his unhappiness" "Glas is one of those." "If it succeeds is another question but there are escape routes" "Think about the old Demosthenes" "He always carried a jolly good portion of poison with him in his pen" "And he was damned right in this" "The wise man is prepared for everything.Your toast!" "But read it now and tell me what you think about it" "You could have the pleasure of getting me married You are happy as a Christmas pig" "Like a Christmas pig" "Why?" "To annoy that old fogey Markel" "The doctor is not more clever than that Miss Holm" "So much trouble for such a small delight" "Does Kristin know what Zarathustra said?" "No.What did she say?" "He said." "Here are many virgins, never touched by a man who are not having pleasure by sleeping alone such virgins should have good men" "Does Kristin think that I am a good man and could become Miss Mertens good man" "Absolutely" "But she does not know me." "In her light brain which only holds some few tender and kind thoughts for those close to her and besides a bit of rubbish" "In it has been formed of me a picture with some semblance of my exterior traits" "But it is not me" "But in God's name whose is it?" "And in that picture she seems to have found pleasure" "God knows why" "Because the doctor is bachelor,of course" "That would be a delicious thing to be a wife of a doctor" "I wonder if it is not a too big gap between our souls" "Souls" "To live by her side" "And never let her in the things which are really mine" "Are you allowed to do that?" "Well,I would not gossip." "Read her book now, perhaps everything is in there" "Maybe" "Your answer sigh so heavy in the forest" "Oh,poor Evangeline" "You have to have a good conscience" "Peculiar,really,peculiar" "Is it serious?" "It is not serious,but dangerous." "Shall I be operated?" "That seems to be necessary" "The heart is not robust enough and too old and we need to take it away" "By the way it is a completely safe operation" "It can be done with a simple paper-knife" "You just place a handkerchief over the face" "If you could kill a chinese mandarin by pushing a button in the wall and then inherit his fortunes would you do it?" "like the face of a dead" "He has been dead for at least 2 hours" "Doctor Glas.In capacity of acting attorney-general I declare your arrest" "Never.Never.Rather" "The world is burning,the world is burning" "The wise man is prepared for everything" "The world is burning,the world is burning" "Has your husband become better after the spa visit?" "Not from my point of view" "Tell me Mrs Gregorius may I ask you a question" "Yes.With pleasure" "The one you love,naturally I do not know who he is," "Does he know who I am" "Good" "Such things should you be quiet about,always" "Well,the man you love what does he say about this" "How does he want it in the future" "He wants us to go away" "Is he ready to do it?" "Is he a free man?" "Rich,independent of employment or profession a man who can do what he likes" "No.In that case we would have left long time ago." "He has his whole future here but he wants to stake a new way in another country" "Maybe in America" "You,yourself.Do you want that?" "No.I do not want to be a burden for him" "There he would fall down to the bottom by the same qualities which have him floating here" "And why should he travel, should it be because of me?" "Here he has his whole life, his future,his friends..everything" "Yes,dear Mrs Gregorius,what do you want me to do now,I can't see any way out anymore" "I frightened him first with the health of his wife" "That helped just for two weeks" "I frightened him with his own health with the pallid Death it lasted six weeks and to bring him to reason is useless" "You are his wife and everything give him the right." "the world,God" "His own conscience" "I will do anything in my power to help you" "I promise that" "Because I know that you will keep your promise" "He must be taken away because the disintegration has already commenced" "This is a very rare and strange case" "The disintegration process usually starts after the death but here it has occurred before death the science must see the consequences for everybody" "I don't want to,I don't want to" "Why don't you want to?" "I dare not" "You want an action, have you forgot about that" "Position,prestige,future" "All this you have to be prepared to pack into the first ship with a cargo of actions" "Have you forgot that?" "It was not true.It was just boast." "I could also think about a satanic ghost-ship" "When you see a tender woman be defiled, soiled and trampled before your eyes" "It is not my business." "and not any particular woman but the woman you love" "Quiet" "She loved another one, it is his matter and not mine" "You know that you love her, so it is your matter" "I am not created for this" "I am born to be a spectator" "I want to sit comfortably in my box and see how people murder each other on the scene" "Leave me in peace" "Rags" "Why have I to do with all these people and their dirty affairs" "I am afraid of a bad conscience" "I want to go under big green trees, think beautiful,nice and calm thoughts you are allowed to speak out loud and proudly" "Rags.You are rags." "A rag" "Good Morning,Good Morning Doctor Will you allow me to sit down with you?" "I thought I would have a glas of soda water before dinner" "That cannot be harmful for my heart" "Well,carbonated water is not good" "..but an occasional glas might not be that harmful" "Miss,a small bottle of soda water" "How are things after the spa visit?" "Yes.Very well.Very well" "..I really think that the spa visit.." "has been very good for me" "I have to especially thank the doctor for a serious advise to go away,and it was not the first time that my wife and I have spoken about such a spa sojourn" "..but one is so irresolute sometimes" "It needs a strong man like the doctor to force the matter" "My wife and I are so happy that we followed up words with deeds" "Thanks my friend.Thanks.Thanks." "And how beautiful it is in Porla spa" "Yes, it is quite beautiful in Porla" "..but less so compared to most other places" "Yes,Ronneby is of course,more beautiful but I have always thought that Porla was a cut above" "..and it would be nice to see the spa from which my mineral water originates" "And Ronneby is also much further away and the travels would have been costly" "Yes.That was the reason you did not bring your wife with you" "I did not want that?" "It was the doctor who told me so but we don't need to think about that now" "That thing has passed,Thank God, because of the advise from the doctor." "I think the doctor take medicines" "Yes,we all have a bit of bad heart and mine is not perfect and it is because of smoking too much" "But this is a rather new medicine, one takes one pill just before dinner" "It stops "foodfever",the feeling of palpitation and unrest just after dinner" "May I?" "Yes,thanks." "This soda water factory is old, one of the oldest around" "Yes." "It is old" "Heart failure" "Yes.Just what I thought." "I saw how quickly he poured in the soda water and I thought that this could not be good for such an old and fat man and in this heat" "Mysterious death in Kungsträdgården" "Elderly vicar falls down dead." "Celebrity doctor present." "No thanks.This we just take in the column Deceased" "Glas is not fond of sensations,full stop." "Thanks" "What does she write?" "Nothing" "She just wants to let me know how sorry she is for me" "The police!" "What do you want?" "I am sorry to bother the doctor" "But there is one thing we need to have clarified before we finish the protocol about vicar Gregorius" "It was about the soda water bottle which vicar Gregorius drank from" "It was a soda water bottle" "Yes." "I mean it was soda water and not another type of carbonated water" "Yes,so far as I can remember" "..but I can not really take my oath upon it" "Well,it is not that important" "He did not consume something else than this soda water?" "Consumed?" "What would he had consumed?" "I am not stating that he consumed something else" "But I have to control the report from the waitress" "What has she said?" "That she was not paid for the soda water and although this does not matter much" "but for the sake of the investigation we had to have it confirmed before we close the case" "Has he not left a message?" "No thanks,it does not matter, I will call later" "Chancery secretary Klas Recke" "You toast.Quack-doctor" "Your toast,hack journalist" "And a toast for the thinker and a further toast" "I meant Wagner.." "Don't you hear what they are playing?" "The prelude from Lohengrin" "There we had the leitmotif "Du sollst nicht befragen"" "Is it not a revelation of an ancient and secret wisdom" "Yes,indeed,you shall not ask ("Du sollst nicht befragen")" "not go to the bottom of things because then you will go to bottom yourself" "Do not explore your conscience, do not seek the truth" "The sort of truth which is the one you need is the one you have already received" "Mixed up with delusions and falsehoods, but that is only for your well being" "And was the truth not that mixed, then it would burn you to death" "If we hack journalists were not around..." "Yes.Now everything is ready." "What?" "The engagement of our friend Klas Recke" "Didn't you know?" "Yes for sure." "That sly dog has fixed his business and career on the same slate" "Head of division Lovenius is a fat guy." "At least worth half a million." "You are meaning that Recke is marrying his daughter because of the money" "No.Klas Recke is a fine man." "I am absolutely convinced that he first decided that he became passionately in love with her" "Then he marries for love" "He is doing that so convincingly that the money come as a surprise for him" "Not bad.She is very good looking." "The nasal bone is a bit too sharp." "The intellect also" "That gives me a slight unease but not of the right kind" "What did you say?" "I think I have to leave now" "Yes,I suppose you will stay." "And now we are toasting for the newly engaged" "A toast!" "10 ,knave, and king,finished and the doctor is running away from such a game of patience,well he must be mad" "He might have got something more important to do." "Yes,I do not know,what he is thinking about but as I am seeing him,running around like a lost soul you really get scared when he stares at you" "And he who planned to get married and become happy like a Christmas pig" "Well,I say" "Marry?" "With whom?" "Yes, Doktor Glas office." "No,the doctor is not at home." "Oh,Miss Holm,sorry,Mrs Wällgren" "No.To night I have no idea when the doctor will return,but come to the surgery" "Well this is life." "She was here a few months ago and wanted help from the doctor" "But that did not happen, she tried to cry,but that did not help her" "She had to make the best of it, and her dad gave her a few boxes on the ear" "And then we had a rushed wedding and honey moon" "And now she is happy as a lark the scandal passed and she still has her beau and she is happy with him" "Yes.The doctor can make other people happy but not himself." "But whom wanted he to marry?" "With someone who knows him very well, and can share his thoughts" "Live side by side with someone who cares for you but never let her in into his inner soul and his own" "Can you do that" "Well,I suppose it is not worth waiting anymore for the doctor," "No.Not tonight." "Good bye then" "Good bye" "Best greetings to the doctor!" "Thanks" "About the dead nothing wrong" "You must have a more happy and joyful time in front of you?" "I hope so" "And what do you want" "I would rather die" "I really want to die" "I have got the feeling that I have received everything destined for me" "I will never be as happy as I was this summer" "I have learned to experience my body" "There is no happiness,no sorrow, no life which has not passed through it" "A body knows when to die" "Your body.May I be your friend" "Could you see me like that?" "I hope you do not mind that I am talking to you about this issue" "I really care for you" "You have done things for me which no one else could or wanted to do" "We can talk about anything with me" "Your body knows that it will die one day,that is the truth but it will not die but live" "it will not die until it is worned out and weighed down with the years consumed by passion and burned by lust" "At that time your body wants to die" "If you are thinking you want to die now because everything look difficult" "But I know,I really know, that you do not want to die" "You have nothing to fear from life" "Your conscience absolves you from what has happened" "You have nothing to regret" "You are not a criminal, you are the victim" "No goddesses of vengeance can hound you" "Your life cannot be poisoned by doubt and agony" "The doubt and the agony which the attendant of the society's punishment doles out to the one who violates the laws of life" "Let life be free, take each day as it comes" "Everything could be different even before you think so" "You yourself could be different" "You are strong and sound, you could be even stronger" "You belong to those who thrive and renew" "Yes,perhaps" "It is getting late" "I really would like to kiss your cheek" "May I?" "May I kiss your forehead?" "It is so beautiful." "END"