"Previously on united states of tara..." "Ithinkit mightbetime for you to see another therapist." "You'rebreakingup withme?" "Weneedher." "Why'd she do that?" "Imean, you are a handful, tara." "Whatdoesthatmean?" "There'sfourof you." "That's not a relationship." "It's an orgy." "I'msorry,ma 'am, but it's your sister." "Ofcourseit is ." "Tara." "Oh, my god." "[Shouting]" "Aah!" "Soundslikegimmecameout." "Howmanytimes do I have to tell you?" "I don't know shit about that gimme shit." "Whatthehellisthat ?" "Isawit on yourfridge, and I-I couldn't resist." "Youstoleapicture from me?" "Youknow,youmighthave  grounds for sexual harassment." "You should call h.r." "Tomotherissues." "It wasn't bad, was it?" "Wasn'tbadat all." "You'remarshall'sb.f." "I'mnotanybody'sb.f." "Marsh, man, I am-- I am so sorry." "Marshall." "That wasn't me." "I would never" "Hey." "Hello?" "!" "The shed's on fire!" "Holyshit!" "Kate, get that other hose!" "[Contemplative music]" "* *" "*Openup thesky *" "* This mess is getting high *" "* It's windy, and our family needs a ride *" "* *" "* I know we'll be just fine *" "* When we learn to love the ride *" "* *" "* I know we'll be fine *" "* When we learn to love the ride *" "* *" "* I know we'll be just fine *" "* When we learn to love *" "* The ride * *" "Wehadapriest who used to give us gum balls" "In the confessional at st." "Anne's." "We'd be in there" ""Bless me, father, I cheated on my french test."" "Or, "bless me, father, I did whippits with a hot townie."" "I mean, you couldn't phone it in," "But if you were really penitent" "And father roger could feel the sorrow in your heart," "He'd hit you with some hail marys" "And put a little gum ball in the slot." "[Scoffs]" "Tellmethatyou know that was wrong, right?" "A lot of ways to express yourself." "Dad,pleasedon'tsendme to military school." "It'sworsethanthat,pal." "You're going to regular-ass school." "Go get some clothes on." "[Scoffs] but what if I see him?" "LikeI giveafuck." "Go get dressed for school." "That'sabsurd." "What'sabsurd?" "[Sighs] nothing." "Marshall." "It'sokay that he's mad at me." "To tell you the truth," "I'm pretty mad at me right now, too." "[Sighs]" "Sheshouldbe putaway." "Shutyourgob." "Seriously, what are we doing here?" "We're just gonna treat it like a normal tuesday" "And act like nothing even happened?" "Nobody'sacting,marsh, especially not your mom." "Right, because she's insane." "I mean, we're living so far off the map," "It's like early john waters or something," "Before divine was even adorable." "He'skindof right,dad ." "Do we need a plan or something?" "I mean, maybe she should at least be back on her meds." "Iknowit 'smessedup right now, okay?" "But we're not gonna bail on her like dr." "Ocean" "And all those other useless fucking doctors we dealt with." "She made a commitment to get off her meds till she gets better," "So..." "Itdoesn'tseem to be getting any better, dad." "In the words of police chief martin brody," ""We need a bigger boat."" "Sometimesthestrongestthing you can do is ask for help." "[Chuckles]" "We need a bigger fucking boat." "[Soft music]" "* *" "[Telephone ringing]" "[Sighs]" "Your,uh,hospitalization in 1989." "Yeah,I ,uh,Idrove" "Into the back of an ice cream truck." "Well, buck did." "Mm-hmm." "Butthatwas" "Before any authenticated diagnosis, correct?" "Mm-hmm,noneof thedoctors could figure it out." "Until they did, we were just..." "Drowning." "Well,disassociationis" "Look, it's so tough." "I want to commend you for making your way here." "Yeah,I kindof hadto." "[Chuckles]" "We're just lucky my sister was able to watch the kids." "She's not gonna bring that new guy over and sleep with him" "In our bed, is she?" "Sorry." "Mmm." "Sowhatcantaraexpect from this?" "Well,it's pretty straightforward." "Look, you-- you can't get better" "Until you know what happened to you." "My program provides a two-week protected environment" "Where patients can really dig in." "Once we start breaking down the walls" "Between you and your alters," "You'll be able to get out of survival mode" "And really start to live." "You'll have individual therapy with me, plus group therapy," "Long-term-recovery planning," "All sorts of good stuff you'll find helpful." "IknowIwill." "Soundsgood,huh?" "Andforyou,too ,max ." "Pardon?" "I'vefounda12-stepmodel of family involvement" "Is effective for trauma recovery as well." "Thatwasthemoment I decided" "That it's god's will that marty's a multi," "So I better make me some lemonade." "And if I get him a cd for his birthday," "I'm pretty sure at least one of the alters will like it." "[Applause]" "WhenI starteddisassociating after iraq," "I seriously thought that everybody woke up" "In strange hotel rooms with people they never met." "Don'tthey?" "[Laughter]" "SinceI wasachild," "I always knew there was something bizarre going on" "With my memory." "Atleastyoucan remember being a child." "I'msojealousofpeoplewho can really answer the question" ""How was your day?"" "[Laughs]" "Yeah,I usedto turnit back on him really fast." "I'd be like, "good, honey, how was yours?"" "Igotreallygood at hiding it." "My trauma happened when I was 16," "So I didn't start switching till after that," "But, uh, whenever I would come back from a transition," "I knew exactly how to cover and get by." "Yeah,we'lldo almost anything to appear normal." "Idon'trememberwhat happened at boarding school," "But, uh, I do have vivid memories" "Of a few weeks afterwards." "It was a month until summer break," "And I couldn't wait to get out." "I'm such a total summer person." "[Light laughter]" "And I remember I wore my bathing suit" "Under my clothes every day." "[Laughs]" "Andwhileeverybody was going to class" "And going on with their lives," "I just sat in my dorm window" "Waiting for summer to come." "Didit?" "Thenextthing I remember..." "Is snow..." "Everywhere." "I was at my parents'," "And six months had gone by in an instant." "And it was just..." "White." "What'dyouthink of the snow?" "Itwas..." "I mean, not what I expected." "But it was beautiful." "[Chuckles]" "Idon'tevenknow what to say." "I am so sorry." "It'snotyourfault." "I mean, my mom's a total freak show." "She's actually" "At a hospital for the criminally insane now." "Sheis?" "Wow." "I didn't even know they had hospitals" "For the criminally insane anymore." "T-there's,like,one." "It's outside of chicago." "A-anyway, my aunt's staying with us, which I'm cool with," "So..." "So do you want" "Ifeelreallybad  about what happened." "I even talked to my dad about it." "Listen, I think you're the most awesome kid in this school." "Remember me when you win your oscar, okay?" "[Bell ringing]" "[Sighs]soyoureallythink you can get him to come out?" "Somepatients have an easier time" "Using hypnosis or sodium pentothal," "But you--you've been experiencing co-consciousness," "Which indicates permeability within your system." "I'veneverexperienced co-consciousness with gimme." "Well,whataboutthe time" "When t hit on your son's friend?" "Icouldsee everything she was doing." "You know, I don't know what's worse" "Not knowing the shit you do" "Or seeing it and not being able to stop it." "Look, you can do this, tara." "Once we can access the trauma by probing your alters" "And the odds are high that at least one of them knows" "Then even if it's hard to watch," "You'll finally know." "Okay, let's hit it." "Okay." "[Camera beeps]" "[Clearsthroat]" "[Sniffs]" "Somr." "Stuart called you hot," "Said your hair was too provocative for daytime." "Right." "Didmr." "Stuartevermake  any requests for dates?" "Allthetime." "He always wanted me to go to brookstone" "To check out the massage chairs." "That'snotadate." "What?" "Itwouldn'tholdup." "Look, miss gregson, if you're claiming sexual misconduct," "It has to be crystal clear the advances were unwelcome." "Ofcoursetheywere." "[Sighs]" "The food-service industry" "Is a hotbed of sexual impropriety." "It's basically institutionalized." "That's why people work at restaurants." "It's not uncommon for young waitresses" "To develop feelings for their manager." "It's okay if you blew him." "Did you blow him?" "No." "I didn't." "[Chuckles] um, miss--miss jackson," "I got this job to get some extra money," "Because my mother is very, very sick." "I have much better things to do than" "Than spend my time being in a relationship" "With some loser guy from loser barnabeez." "No offense." "I'veheardworse." "Shit." "Shit!" "It'sreallyokay." "It'snotokay." "What is wrong with me?" "I was able to be co-conscious before I came here." "You'vebeenthroughalot." "It'sbeenfourdays." "Why isn't the hypnosis working?" "Therearesomepatients that don't respond." "HowamIsupposedtoget to the truth and get better" "If the alters won't come out and talk to you?" "Thisisaprocess." "They're not ready." "Tara, and to be fair to them, look, they just" "They just met me." "Well,I likeyou." "I trust you." "God, it's so frustrating." "Thesealters--theyuse tara's body as they please," "And then when tara's out," "She spends all her time in a state of guilty overdrive." "I'msorry." "Uh, but you keep saying, "tara this," and, "tara that."" "Aren't we supposed to keep our sharing focused on ourselves?" "That'sright." "Yeah." "Like what's really going on deep down inside of you." "Idon'tknow how that could help." "Sohowareyou doing with your group stuff?" "It'sfantastic." "I'm learning a lot about myself." "[Laughs]" "Bullshit." "Oh, it's just a lot of useless yammering." "I thought I was gonna enjoy meeting people" "In my situation, but..." "Yeah,well, if it makes you feel any better," "I'm not having much luck bringing any of my alters out." "Ithoughtthisguy  was the shit." "And at home, we can't get them to stay in." "Hey,it'sthedude from the picture" "You keep by your bed." "Isthatjenny?" "Hey." "[Whispering] jenny's integrated." "[Whispering] why are you whispering?" "Youknowhowsomepeople aren't happy for you" "When you've lost a bunch of weight?" "Oh." "That--that's amazing." "How'd you do that?" "Well..." "A lot of time and hard work," "Like what tara's doing." "Butit'sdoable,right?" "I mean, we can fix this." "Mm-hmm." "It'snotliketakingme to the dry-cleaner's, max." "Iknow." "I know it's a process." "And dr." "Holden said it's not gonna happen overnight." "I get it." "Justaslongasithappens" "Before our insurance runs out." "Morning,fakemom." ""Mornseys."" "Isfakedadstillhere ?" "No." "[Dryer buzzing]" "Guess what I did." "I didn't sleep with him." "I didn't let him sleep over" "And..." "Perhaps extended this lovely thing" "Yet another day" "By continuing to treat myself" "Like a special prize he has to win." "Oh,really?" "So was it you" "Or that special prize" "That was having a screaming orgasm" "At 1:30 in the morning?" "You'reimaginingthings." "He was long gone by then." "Oh,really?" "[Laughing] well..." "I didn't let him sleep over." "Oh,mygod!" "[Telephone ringing]" "[Humming]" "I'ma slut." "Hello?" "Hey,it'smax." "Hey,max." "Morexanax,moosh?" "What is this, anna nicole smith time?" "Sorry, but even in fagland," "This is really done." "Itjust makes everything better." "Yeah,butif youtakeapill to make everything better," "Then you never know when things are fucked up." "And if you don't know when things are fucked up," "You can't fix it yourself." "Believeme, I know what's fucked up." "Doyouevenget  what mom's alters do?" "Ruinmyfuckinglife?" "No." "They do stuff for mom." "She was protecting you." "Jason is nothing but a bi-curious church monkey" "Who's using you to find some edge." "That'snottrue." "Okay,somaybe he will fuck some guys," "And maybe you can get him to fuck you." "But he's gonna marry a girl," "And he's never gonna love you the same way that you love him." "So t came out to try and put a stop to it." "Yousleptin thetruck?" "Yeah,toomanysignificant others at the ramada bar." "They just want to talk and share and stuff." "Well,whyaren'tyou sharing and stuff?" "WhywouldIwanttodo that?" "Who wants to hear my shit?" "YouknowwhatIthink?" "I think you don't want to hear your shit," "Because you got a lot of it," "And you're afraid you might lose it," "And your voice will get all high," "And you'll sound like a woman." "[Chuckles]" "Yeah,right." "Fuck off." "How are the kids?" "They'redoingso great," "I think you guys should stay another week or something." "Yeah,right." "Goodluck." "Thanks." "[Phone beeps]" "We'rebeginningto inject the medicine into your I.v." "You'll notice you're beginning to feel a little more relaxed." "Okay, so I can tell the medicine is reaching you," "I'd like you to count backwards from 100 for me." "Now?" "Yeah,goahead." "100... 99... 98..." "[Slurring] 97... 96..." "Verygood." "I'm wondering if anybody" "Inside tara has a memory" "Of a night when something happened" "With tara and a boy named trip." "[Breathingdeeply]" "Cananyonehelpus with a memory?" "What'sinit forme?" "[Rock music]" "[Cheering]" "Don't fuck with buck!" "[Laughs]" "So,listen,buck," "I understand you don't want to have therapy in my office." "Oh,yeah, I'm done with that." "Great,well, then I'll just" "I'll just hang with you, then, okay?" "Youcanhangall you want, but nobody wants to talk to you." "That's why I'm here." "Oh-oh!" "You see that?" "Lick it and stick it." "Yeah,luckyshot." "Whatever, get out of the way." "Lucky,huh?" "Cocky sumbitch." "I could hit that shit" "Facedown munching your mama's snatch." "Ooh!" "[Laughter]" "Iapologize about my foul tongue." "I'm gonna make you my special lady." "[Clearsthroat]if everybody could just sign this card" "For tonya, that would be great." "And when she comes back," "No comments about missing eyebrows." "And yes, in case anyone is wondering," "We will continue to serve" "Our signature volcano choc-splosion drink," "Just without the "splosion" feature." "You guys got me?" "Yeah." "Uh,onemorething" "If anyone has anything to say to me..." "I ask that they say it to my face." "Have a great shift." "Thankyou." "Allright." "I'mgonnasignitnow." "Thatincludesyou." "Idon'thaveanything to say." "Youcertainlyhadsomething to say to corporate." "I have friends all over barnabeez." "That means when there's something squirrelly" "Scooting up the flagpole, I get a call." "Ithinkyouget acall" "Because you can't keep your penis" "Out of the face of every girl who works for you." ""Penis"isnotanacceptable word for the workplace." "You got this job" "Because you wanted to get out of your crazy-ass house." "You were looking for affection from me." "No,I wasnot." "AndI wastherefor you ." "And I still am." "Ew." "Can you just stop acting like whatever happened was important." "Itwas." "Kitty, we fell in love-- oh,god,lookatyou!" "You can't even stop scamming right now." "Hey,chucky!" "Is that my yoo-hoo?" "So help me, it better be room temperature." "Oh!" "Fucking shit is freezing!" "That's gonna fuck with my system." "Idiot." "How'sshedoing?" "Thiskindof regression tells me I'm on the right track." "When tara feels strong enough to face the truth," "She'll come back." "We just have to be patient." "Patientmyass." "You're fucking $6,000 a week." "I can see this shit for free in my living room." "Listen, I know it's not easy," "But you came here for a reason." "Please try to trust the program, max." "If you need something to do with yourself," "I suggest going back to your group." "Cheatingme,takingaway" "[Laughing]" "Morewine,char?" "Yes,please." "I'lltakearefill." "[Soft music]" "* *" "Isthis" "Is this what normal people are like?" "Like, is this what dinner's supposed to feel like?" "[Door closes]" "Hey,sweetie." "Nick made white trash dessert." "There's pudding and marshmallows" "And bananas and, um..." "I don't know." "Yikes." "[Door opens, closes] hey,hey." "I brought jiffy pop." "Who wants to watch lost?" "Okay, I'll get started without you guys." "* *" "Youknow, they say god never gives you" "More than you can handle," "And that's just not true." "[Crying] marty's never getting better," "And I can't..." "Effing handle it." "[Crying]" "Doyouthink that nick can tell" "That I had a thing with neil?" "No." "BecauseI really don't want him to realize" "That he's dating down." "He'snotdatingdown." "Okay,well..." "I don't want him to realize that I date down," "Because that would lower my stock." "[Whispering] did he hear me?" "Mmm." "No,hedidn'thearme." "Ithinkyoustopped before he came in." "Idid,right?" "Okay." "[People speaking indistinctly on television]" "...WhenI slide my harley v-twin" "Under a peterbilt" "And pop out the other side without a scratch." "There'snohighway84." "She's quoting convoy" "And talking about stunts she saw in a burt reynolds movie." "What the fuck are we doing here?" "Askbuck." "Idon'twanttoaskbuck." "I'm done talking to buck." "Hey,doc,helpmeouthere." "I'm trying like hell to communicate." "But this guy--he's making it real fucking hard." "Youwantto know what's fucking hard, tara?" "Waking up in the middle of the night" "Not knowing where you are." "Yeah, that's hard." "Trying to piece together some kind of normal life," "But down inside you're losing all hope" "That the suffering is ever gonna end." "This is not what I had in mind for my life." "Youcallingme out, tough guy?" "No." "Nope, nope, I'm not doing anything." "I'm out of here." "This is waste of time." "[Door opens]" "Don'tyouwalk away from me." "Yeah, that's right." "Walk away, you pussy!" "Hey,buck,do me afavor." "If you see tara, you tell her I'm through." "I'm not doing this anymore." "Oh,I 'llgiveher the message..." "Asshole!" "Uh,heseemednice." "Yeah." "[Both laugh uncomfortably]" "Ithinkhe got a little freaked out" "When I told him you like doing it in the shower." "No-- char" "Charmaine, come on." "Really?" "I-I-I would never tell him about the fucking, all right?" "You--youheardme ." "Oh, my god." "Neil." "Youknow..." "Look,I 'msorry." "You--youhavebetterboobs now, all right?" "You can't be..." "Wasting your time." "And, uh, btw..." "I loved that body the way it was." "And..." "And btw, btw," "The thing between us" "It's not just fucking," "And you know it." "Good night." "[Engine turning]" "[Woman speaking indistinctly over pa]" "[Indistinct chattering]" "Tara?" "Hi." "You'reback." "I heard you were cleared for takeoff." "[Both laughing]" "Oh, god." "See if it sticks." "What?" "Oh,I 'vebeenintegrated before," "And it turns out that some of the alters" "Were just hiding, but, um..." "I think this time I'm good, though." "Ofcourseyouare ." "[Laughs]" "Oh,whoarethesecuties?" "Hmm?" "Oh." "Uh..." "Bella and wendy." "Hmm." "Theymustbe  ten and 12 now." "I haven't seen them in a while." "My ex has full custody." "Hey,chucky." "[Sighs]" "Chucky, there's a 15-minute limit." "Chucky!" "Okay,okay." "Ineedthephone!" "Hang up now, fool!" "I'm sorry." "[Cell phone ringing]" "Yeah." "Iwantto find trip johannsen." "If my alters won't tell me what happened," "Then I want to find him myself." "Can you help me?" "Yougonnacallmecowboy," "Get all mad at me?" "Nottonight." "[Laughs]" "Imissyou." "[Indie rock music]" "*You'vebeenkeeping something from me, baby *" "* By now, maybe... *" "Imissyou,too ." "*I 'vebeenwaiting for the perfect moment *" "* Just you own it *" "* Just to say that I'm okay *" "* Without a lot *" "* You and me *" "* Is all I got *" "* Dreaming *" "* Dream a little dream of me *" "* Say... * *"