"THE GIRL OF 15" "Prologue:" "I do is the desire of Thomas ..." "Although not ask me to do so." "He has not called my mother." "Or perhaps they do not tell me anything deliberately, out of envy." "You can not have him." "If not booked, find no place." "Do not worry." "I hate to leave, makes me uneasy." "I'm afraid to let me run." "You'll see, you may go without me." "I'll call to remind them." "You may not like your father and gets his hand dated." "No, I would have noticed." "Or maybe you like it too and that gives me more nauseous." "I'm going to see my mother." " Are you going home to your father?" "No, I will go tomorrow." "Hello, sorry to bother you, Are you Thomas?" "I do not think that coming today." "But if you think it will happen, can expect." " Sit down." " I'd rather stand." "Everyone Says that you can trust" "But he has not called my mother ..." "I have not had time." "If you want your child to you alone ..." "Ask is a mess to look after him as an old." "Just what would my mother." "Do you really want to go?" "Yes, but I will not call not knowing where to go." "We could go to an island in Britain." "No, it's very cold, we can not bathe." "'My father told me about Formentera." "It was fashionable 20 years ago." "Yes, with the hippies, but now will be fine." "Surely there is only rednecks." "I was given directions to call." "On Saturdays there is direct flight." "Glad to meet you." "And me." "Even if you are angry with you." "But I will if you believe in what my mother." "If Thomas was not me not bear it." "I do not like the words of feelings." "I can not say, "feel" "Emotions" scares me." "And I can not explain well I Thomas, but I want to go with them." "I'm going, can Thomas." "Will not you wait?" "Do not tell that I came, or that he waited, he would kill me." "Would be right." "I want to go with Thomas and agree to go with you." "And if you insist, is by Thomas." "What I do is the desire of Thomas but do not ask me to do so." "Goodbye!" "I have a comment on Friday." "Luckily I do not know what to say." " Do you stay the night?" "No." "But we can go to bed an hour." "Have your parents too stuck in your head." "We should be closer together." "If not, it is better to be alone." "Wake me if I fall asleep." "I'm calling because I have." "My mother can not refuse, and as no known it is better to pick me up." "Will not have to stay." "In addition, she would not like." "Why?" "My mother is a real woman." "And then what?" "After pick." "I will see my father." "I'll walk." "¿I do not like?" "Yes, sure, it is rather a child." "Not a man, not like it." "That has long ceased to be a girl." "Never should have been." "Enter the address, Sunday at two." "I have not eaten and I drank a little." "A glass and I spark." "Unable to get small ate, my father tried everything." "To put on a gown distract and a hat with a feather." "But just got scared, hated the costumes." "I ate nothing and leaving the cole I bought a slice of ham." "A few days eating only lean and others, only fat." "Never both together." "I am very unsociable." "When I love someone first feel disgust, much disgust." "A monumental disgust for everything." "Then I often do." "Usually to get attention." "I'm afraid to go unnoticed." "I worry about a thing." "Not likely." "Do I look like a boy or a man?" "As a boy." "I hope so!" "If you are one, it is forever." "Well, depends on people and their ideas." "You have to run." "Will you call me to see when we go?" "Maybe before." " I can say that you've seen?" "Yes, I was for my mother." " Are you sure you want to come?" "Yes, apparently not called." "He could have done it." "You promised, by his mother." "I wanted to be sure." "You are never sure of anything." "What did you want to be sure?" "Your girlfriend worries me." " Are you afraid?" "I do not know what it is there." "I ... and you two." "Do not know why you're together." "Perhaps on." "Is that's what you're insurance?" "Furthermore, it is indiscreet." "I know." "Do not expect an answer, I was asking myself, not you." "The girls of my age I get bored." "She's the same." "Those of age or older only think about sex." "In addition, she is just like a boy." "But better." "I've said too much." "I'm going to smoke, I'm nervous." "You can, but Lucky smoked without a filter." "For cómpramelos." "I'll buy Craven, the package is nice." "And keep me stupid questions." "Sorry." "Do you have homework?" "Yes, I will at home mom." "Last night soe your father was dead." "That was old and died, A strange sensation!" "You should call him." "I have to tell you three things but I do not remember the order, it was logical." "Expected to think." "You have to steal the best of people, what they have in mind." "That, first." "2e: if you start something, you reach the end." "Though not sure at first." "The end must be beautiful." "It is necessary." "It may not be clear, I have it clear and I can not be clearer." "3e:" "I'm afraid your father." "I do not know how to say it, but ..." "Do not do it because "you do not know how."" "It is also ironic." "Sarcastic." " What is the difference?" "Sarcastic is against others." "Regarding sleep, I have spoken with him, seemed to be alive, would you call?" " Is that sarcastic?" "Yes." "Do not call my mother for hours." "'I saw the bills." " All three?" "Today you are heavy, right?" "I'm going." "You call me?" "I do not call but you have to call my mother." " Do you Banaras?" "Yes." " With swimsuit and that, sure?" "Yes, if no one." "Where did you buy?" "I will ask my uncle, just think about clothes." "You call me?" " Do you call me?" "Yes." "1st day: it is forbidden to look at me so." "Especially if you are." "The house is common but this is great." "It is really nice." " The sea!" "Yes." "The sea is truly magnificent." "Completely blue." "With the sun changes color continuously." "Here he lived in exile a saint." "He founded the Carmelite missionaries." "Six years later, went on missions." "From the inside out, Thomas." "Always." " Is there a great distance to swim?" "500 Meters." "I advise, currents are very strong." "And what the holy living?" "In Velra was always freshwater and rabbits." "You have to like the rabbit and I do not like." " Will any good?" "Yes." "I left the pool as requested." "Okay, I hate swimming." " Can you get on the terrace?" "Yes, inside." "Take the car keys, documentation is inside." "My room." "Yours." "And your father." "And up there on the terrace." "What did your father on the plane?" "Nothing." "He seemed happy to leave." "Are not we looking at?" "No, I looked at you." "Not in a pushy, but I looked." " Do not look at me with insistence?" "No." "Sneaking ¿?" "No, not pushy or furtively." "Then carefully." "So I looked." "Let him with his eyes, that happens." "No, no way, and not looking at you." "It's disgusting to note above look unclean." "Makes everything nasty." "Even to us, if you do nothing." "You are under your surveillance." "And what do you think, I think so." "Do not get nervous." " Are we going to swim?" "Yes." "Not bad." "With one hand." "'I'll dislodge the jaw." "Wait." "It's like if you did so ..." "See?" "See how easy it is." "It's great!" "I hurt my throat!" "I do not like dark skin, I prefer transparent." "The black goes with blond streaks, as my mother's friends." "Unfortunately, I tan quickly." "And luckily, I will soon." "Are you coming?" "Are you coming?" "We're going." "I know what you'll say, I disagree." "'I do not care what the looks." "Like not looking at you." "Yes, when I looked at had in his eyes look like a mirror." "It's like bathing." "You can do it naked if nobody looks at you." "But if someone looks at you, even in swimsuit, is uncomfortable." "It is forbidden to look at me like that." "On However, if you are, you should see it." "I have to get rid of your eyes." "Simply look at me, is very clever." "If I let myself is that I am a wimp." "Exaggerate a lot, is a pain." "You always want we say it like it is." "They say what happens." "And I try, because I admire that in you." "Stay away, period, be together." "Tomorrow we go to the island, nobody will look." "Spend the day without it." "Can you put it down?" " Do not like?" "No." "Makes you want to mourn Although there is no desire." "When will you stop looking at me?" "Not you who interests me but your age." "And I do not care your age, is pretty nasty." "I am interested in your age so it produces:" "speed of execution in the phrase, feelings and how they spend for your face." "Very fast and very visibly." "But what we often say is not predictable." "As if you were younger." "I do not know how it preserves and how you got in that state." "Do not forget your sense of joy, As there is the humor." "You are happier, so you're better." "Thomas is simpler than you" "Its aim is to make me say:" ""Ah, yes!"" "Makes it impossible to say, and is content." "They also say it well:" ""Oh, no!"" "With so much enthusiasm!" "Only the final fall with respect to: "Ah, yes!"" "It is very convenient." "I never told: "Oh, no!"" "Since you arrived say it your way." "Without pronouncing, but I hear very well." "Yes, really." "That's funny." "I like to read I do not like when you read." "Are you angry?" "Do you have grounds?" "Protect or feel my motives." "Let's play." "The test is to seduce the father and make him fall to get rid of it." "By day, pretend that nothing happens." "And at night, everything is dangerous." "I love you." "Neither brother nor sister, more than that." "2e day:" "Thomas and I We decided ... anything." "Do not do anything annoy you all." "Room Service." "Room Service." "This morning I am drawn for perfection in the world." "I know it will not last but I can not say otherwise." "You're quite right." "At your age, you feel good almost every morning." "You do not understand the scope my metaphysical reflection." "No, not metaphysical." "But if you think today the world is nice, I trust you." "As you do not usually like anything, I think." "'But not for long, of course." "'Of course." "I hope." " I drove to the tip?" "No, not necessary." "Good luck." "Sure you do not want to come?" "I do not think it comes, but I want to be with you." "There is hardly 500 meters." "It is too far." "I promise I will not leave you, we drown together." "Come!" "No, I'm afraid." "I can not resist." "I love you nonetheless." "What counts is not the swimmer." "If you go, up the clothes." "Forget the picnic!" "What?" "I chickened out." "Not even I expected to see him go." "I was so far away, no longer saw him." "It was just a speck in the sea." "If something happens, you can not tell." "No need to worry." "I trust him too much." "I have not done the right thing, I had to stop him." "And now I have fear." "Fear not, Thomas would not like." "Thomas I's room." "Can not sleep?" "No." " Are you better?" "'Not much." "Tell me a story about Thomas." "With 4 years asked me to take off Ruedin of the bike." "I refused, I was afraid that hurt." "His mother was so insistent that I relented." "It was mounted and, as if it had life." "Accused him of having tried with a friend, but no." "He had awakened saying "I know cycling," and it was true." "He was right." "Schlafmütze Kleine," "I Thomas, to return it to the track." "I've been sleeping." "If you sleep well, anything can happen." "Yes it is far Thomas nothing but good." "There is no danger." "There is no point staying here." "Yes, better to wait at home." "You're right, you may have arrived." "Yes." "What does it mean "Kleine schlafmüze"?" "The little sleeper." "How beautiful!" "Thomas and I have decided nothing ..." "Do not do anything annoy you all." "Then we'll see." "If this is as with others, would be terrible." "I do not think." "Although I also think I do not care." "If you do not want the boy, sure it does not affect me." "I do not like guys servile." "The guys I met 14 years were wild and independent." "At 16, they are not savages." "It's a difficult age." "Start thinking about sex and they violently tickled." "Then is the same." "As they begin thinking about sex ..." "When I met Thomas not think about it." "Thinking without thinking." "I can not explain, is much nicer." "Think you do not think about it but it does." "Yademás may be jealous." "To turn a guy jealous have to count to 100." "Come, he says." "A, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine ..." "One, two, three, four, five ..." "The island was worthless, there was not a bird." "Only beer cans and rabbits could have caught the ears as carrots." "I should bring one." "I was only an hour because I saw an old tower you only see from there and went up to her." "And it was very nice." "And now you're hungry." "Yes." "Well." "You're a pig, a savage." "I missed you." "And I love you." "Do you feel you do not like the others?" "We are not like others." "If we start, we are ready." "The idea that you can be a boy like the others ..." "It need not be difficult, if a test is absurd." "Today I want to sleep with you." "But sleep in your bed." "Get out." "This evening not jog around the house?" "No, I will not mouse." "I've bundled a fresh cigar." "Do you see anyone?" "Do you think you need to pimp?" "Here, for the road." "When we leave miss home." "You think so?" "Good night." "Good night." "3rd day: the pledge is to seduce your father to fall and get rid of it ..." "especially if you want." "I understand that he is dead but can not spend the day sleeping." "When I was 14 years was in love with a girl of 15." "I just wanted to be in love, never kissed her." "It would have been terrible." "I went on for years, and was to last, was made for that." "I do not think knowing." "I saw her every Sunday." "I knew until the registration his father's car." "In the winter had a red leather coat, and a green scarf." "Their number was:" "Nation 5876." "He circled the booths and sometimes entered." "Ever called for nonsense." "The excuse was mediocre, but then was so happy." "I think I'm in love with you." "I think I love him." "I understand." "But still have to prove it." "Do you fall?" "I think I'm in love with you." "I do not love him." "I think I'm in love with you." "I do not love him." "Before we said it all now with your father, everything is bundled." "What, again with the looks?" "There are looks and words." "And what it says when you're not." "We will put a garment." " What?" "Like when you play and lose." "A garment is to take another game." "And even if he made a silly, Why go?" "Also, what game?" "No need to invent a garment." "No I have to settle the score with my father." "Last night I said:" ""The pledge is to seduce to fall and get rid of him. "" "Especially if you want." "Do not you remember, of course, sleeping." "It is not something against him, but for us to be one." "When we fight, We are two people." "I do to keep us apart." "No, it's an idea sordid." "I disagree." "You asshole!" "I will not sleep with him, I just want him dizzy." "With a full circle, not average." "So we will not part." "And what matters is the end, it must be nice." "I do not think of anything else." "I disagree." "What are you doing?" "I do not know." "Perhaps to give a return to the city." "Want to tell me something?" "Of course not." "Removing all this." "I've never spoken of love." "And I've never kissed." "For me it has been with the agency." "Will try with it." "Jules!" "I'm here!" "Now you're into German?" "It's a nice language to hear." "What does "schlafen"?" "Small?" "No, "sleep"." "O "sleeper", right?" " And "mütze" is "small"?" "No, that's "kleine"." " Why?" "'No, no." "'I can see." "Not worth it." ""Hat"!" "If you are going to "sleep" means "nightcap."" "What is this the "nightcap"?" "Were you to ask one of my father?" "You gill!" "Perhaps the person who wears it." "Yes, that will be." "Intentaré get you one." "But this is not bad." "She wears a sexy red dress." "He looks." ""What do you think?" She says." ""I have a cold." He says ..." ""The nights are warm."" ""You want my jersey?"" "He speaks to us." "He says: "They are equal, without actually being so. "" ""They have the same grace, the same outside. "" "If not a freak of beauty understand nothing of what he says." "The girl manages to ..." " The woman!" "For the lead the house by the sea." "Here?" "No." "He thinks he should tell things from your childhood for her to fall." "Things a bit poetic." "These two are beginning to show a bit of disgust." "I'd rather not talk of us." "If you bring it, is that it a heart of stone." "Do you prefer in the car or naked on the beach?" "I prefer silence to hear bullshit." "I hope this is it which is naked." "Run, do not realize the ridiculous, everything moves, not a pretty sight." "Even he must laugh." "Well, what do we do?" " Do we bathe?" "Yes." "As your father is not, no top." "We're good." "Perfectly fine." "I think it's perfect." "As the landscape." "Yes." "I do not like those rocks." "If you lived here, send throw." "I live happy here all year, with you." "It's too hard, scary." "It is far from perfect!" "Only my belly button is." "Ensñamelo, with the suit is never seen." "Is only half on purpose." "Anyway, ensñamelo." "The beauty, I hide." "A belly button is not taught to anyone." "I'll show you later." "I am not either." "What is so special?" "That is beautiful!" "It looks like a tear." "It's nice, huh?" "It is transparent, almost invisible." "Sure has not gone to see to the agency." " What if no, what's he doing?" "I do not know." "You want out?" "Has he kissed?" "Who should have kissed?" "Anyway, I hate you." "You think it's a kind meet someone like you?" "Go to sleep." "And you, go to sleep?" "Not right now." "I'm not very friendly the bogeyman." "Better." "People do not like daytime I prefer the night." "4E day:" "I have become las a girl like others." "I do not see the difference ..." "is right." "Do not eat breakfast?" "No, later." "Do we eat in the restaurant?" "Vale." "I am not ashamed what happens to you." "I never behaved worse with Thomas." "I know you do not like me a dirty way." "I mean, a nice way." "He was also well-1E." "This is a mess for Thomas." "Although against him can not do anything." "When all we want them all ..." "Do you come to swim?" "No, I'm staying." "Why not come to see me this morning?" "I thought that the garment is a good idea." "You were right with the looks and stuff." "If you find disgusting then, without mercy." "Tidal completely not half." "Although in danger can not happen at all." "No one can harm us." "Can you leave me alone?" " What's the Matter?" "The agency ..." "Well." "What I like about here is to be sitting." "At home and standing is much more practical." "So fast low not get fat." "This will also have three dishes." "It would be better to eat all the same." "I agree." "Then we see at home." "If you are honest, not to worry." "I'll be there at six o'clock." "When you want to tell me, tell me." "'Nobody can separate us." "'Tell me at six." "Do not talk about it, not like you." "You make it impossible live with it." "You are all dangerous." "No sense of beauty not worth living." "And your taste for perfection is morbid." "What time is it?" "The four." "I have become a girl like the others." "I do not see the difference." "He's right." "The four and ten." "You did well cambiándote dress, I prefer it." "I hate those who not contain their desires." "¿"To those who"?" "So I'm not alone?" "Do you also include you?" "I do not like the lexicon of feelings." "Do not put me on that." "However, you said the word "desire."" "And it can lead to feeling." "And as animal." "But no sooner pronounced, silently articulated the word "love"" "Can you say it?" "If there is a disgusting expression is:" ""Making love"." ""Fuck" OK, but "making love" and also not done." "Yesa forbidden word," "Are you entangled in the brain or are you stuck in your mouth?" "It depends for whom." "For me, for example?" "While true, I would not tell her." "So bad it yourself?" "I'm surprised." "I think one of their qualities is honesty." "Talk about feelings but you a seducer, a pig." "We are all pigs." "¿I can get a reading?" "Is not it obscene that:" ""A reading"?" "I think not." "If you plan to hold until he returns, should raise of the conversation." "Come back at six o'clock." "Do not think you are important to me." "Do not believe it." "I do not believe anything." "I was always ready for anything I wanted to." "He feared that the boys I wanted to." "I thought, "If I do that, I do not want. "" "I'm so afraid that I do not want." "I may not like, do not know ..." "Mounts fuss about that." "When I was asked to do once accepted." "But several, no." "He did it to say it was for them." "While I would like or pretend to love me ..." "It was for them but I did not care." "At first, I was so disgusted idea to fuck." "Then he accepted, but never more than once." "Thomas feared that it would as with others." "We decided that between us there would be nothing unusual." "He does not believe a guy and I do not take me for a girl." "The 1st time I did it with a guy," "I rejected my femininity." "It was not his fault." "I cut my hair, I wanted to be a boy." "It's much better to be a boy." "Now I know I can not change." "It sucks being a girl." "How are you?" "Do you?" "Super great." "Not funny." "Well, what?" "Wasting your time, nothing will happen." "Do not pass anything else?" "It will not be anything else." "I'm not used these "nothing" to you." "It has become more important what I wanted but will not last." "Because I hate you for it." "'But it's not his fault." "Get off me." "Let me go!" "Take me by car I have to tell you something." " Why drive?" "We do not want." "How can I say?" "If I say I love you "Thomas" in the same sentence." "It's terrible not to separate both." "But I can not." "I told him I had become more important than what I wanted." "'You could have told me to me." "'He knows perfectly." "I also told I hated it." "And it's true." "I would be totally with you I can not." "I do not know what unites Thomas and me maybe nothing, but I can not believe it." "Ours can not last, we under the effect of surprise." "Do not rush anything, all will stand alone." "As soon as you stop looking at me with interest." "Life is a dream trio." "While among several is reality." "We'll see where it ends." "Let everyone take theirs." "Discard the pairs by color." "We avoid the jack of spades." "The cards have spoken." "Good night." " We swim tomorrow morning?" "'Good idea." " Are you awake?" "We'll see who wakes-who." "He does not care." "Do not believe what you say, you know." "Has decided to move." "The distinction is important it is not fair." "Well, eventually going on, that how it?" "No, pretend it did not know him." "Raisins." "If this is how you see it, must be so." "You need not stay." "I tell you to go out and salts." "You do not understand anything, do not listen." "I do not understand what you want." "If you still love me." "Do you think of me." "I wonder if you've seen Paris without me." "Yes." "So you know what I think of you." "I had not thought but before I got it." "I do not want you to stay." "What I would ask, if he wished." "But you should feel the desire." "Would be an order and obey immediately." "A desire to be an order." "And I began, was you who kissed me." "He said he knew we met in Paris." "But do not know it was you who kissed me." "Tonight I hate." "It's just a pretentious as there kicked in high school." "He does not understand what is between people." "He does not understand that he and I we are above everything." "So I do not want to go to class, not for the teachers, there is always some useless you do not support it." "But we nothing to do with them." "No, it's all those macho vicious and arrogant." "Tonight, however much they have reason, it appears and scares them." "Stop going to school, will study at a distance." "I do not want more relations with these little men." "The wars they are." "Thomas should not let go with them." "This night has a very cold look." "If you kiss, I would ice throughout the body." "I do not have kissed but I'm frozen." "It's the same." "It is cold, it's insensitivity." "Sometimes, emotions and leave you." "Just not feeling anything." "The feelings, not emotions." "Feelings cause emotions." "Yes but not a nice word." "It was not to use "feeling" right and left." "I know you do not like." "Sometimes I do not care." "Emotions often rejected people wanted." "Or maybe what it rejected were mine." "Some days I could barely stand the love of others." "Thomas has a lot of fear to feelings." "That does not mean that you have, but just the opposite." "When I lived with him and his mother," "I did not like as much as now." "He was in love with him daily." "There were things about him and moments I did not like." "Now I like all the time, whatever you do." "I want to that point and kisses me, is unconscious." "Yes, you two kissed, we are in love with it." "We will be forever." "Soon I will not kiss the girls he wants." "Soon I will have charm." "Why we like being in love of you at the same time." "When morning we bañemos together thinking of you, once without saying your name, Juliette." "He's crazy!" "Do not bathe with you" "It's going to be angry." "And he and you are not equal, are not the same thing." "Now I have less cold." "Will you come to say good night?" "Yes." "We should not." "Yes, like any girl." "Then be terminated." "I love him." "5e day: although I have been caught, does not help ..." "Thomas is stronger." "There is a story of sex, or against you." "I did not ask anything!" "I do not want to hear anything." "And much less of you." "When we went down I thought only one thing:" "break your head." "I decided to shout each time it gets close." "And also, every time I go near you" "Shouting to hear me and come away." "Thomas!" "Thomas ..." "Thomas ..." "I have a covenant of eternity with Thomas." "Although I have fallen, does not work anything, he is stronger." "It is stronger than you" "I'm going before." "Could be sweepers in Venice." "There would be okay." "We wake up on water." "That is so nice." "Closer to home there are a couple lives at the entrance of a store." "They are boy and girl." "Surely they not be separated ever." "Neither do we." "They should not be animale sex prost Tristran." " "Post", not "prost"." "Yes." "After the animal-fucking rest." "No, after fucking sad." "We'll ask when we return to Paris." "And answered:" ""What do you care?"" "Let's go." "This is sordid."