"Be careful." "So much dust." "Is there any news from Miss Cai?" "Nope." "Miss Zhu?" "Nope." "There are not much news recently." "Give it to me." "Come on, have some noodles." "Only noodles left?" "Don't you forget today is the date for noodles?" "Damn, it's my birthday." "Thanks a lot!" "You know little about me." "My son died yesterday." "For this tiny life," "I've struggled against death for three days and nights" "I've been sitting beside him for over 40 hours." "And now," "Her pretty eyes just closed, and his two arms are crossed on his white shirt" "Now, all I have in this world is you." "But you know nothing." "Nothing about me." "I want to talk with you, and tell you everything." "I want to let you know, my whole life is always yours" "But you know nothing about my life." "If I was still alive," "I would tear this letter and keep silent." "Like what I was before." "When you get this letter, you will know, this is a dying woman, who is telling you all about her life." "Don't be afraid." "This dying woman want nothing, She don't want love from anybody else, or pity, sympathy but there is a requirement" "That is you must believe what I'll tell you." "Please believe everything I say." "And this is my only requirement." "People will never lie when her only son died." "I am sure you won't remember me any more." "Never remember the tacky widow of a primary school teacher and her little thin teenage daughter" "I lived with you in a same square building" "Before you moved in," "I fought with the person everyday, who had lived in your room." "He's not nice to the other neighbor." "Finally, this family got trouble." "That guy is a thief, and always steals rich people." "One day, he was arrested and be sent to jail." "Cops searched his house and confiscated his property" "Somebody moved into the north room!" "Really?" "What does he do?" "A writer, in a newspaper office." "Wow, so he is well educated." "Sure he is, and he has fame in Beijin." "The seal was on the door for three days And was tore out." "The house lord told mom another writer help this single gentleman rented the north room." "That's the first time I heard your name." "Oh, look what it looks like!" "Change it a little bit." "Hello, miss." "Sorry for the troubles I made." "Please forgive me." "Don't worry." "It's all right." "Hello, miss." "Get out of the way for this lady." "What do you think of it this time?" "It's OK." "God, they finally moved!" "What a good news!" "They always keep fighting and crying." "Troublesome." "I think you have too many books." "There are only about ten books which belong to me." "These cover are made by normal paper, They are cheap." "But I treasure them" "This guy have so many books." "And so many foreign books." "What's he look like?" "I guess you are a gentleman wearing glasses and have long beard." "Solemn, kind and humorous just like my geography teacher the difference is you must be kinder and gentler" "You moved in at the second day, but I didn't see you." "I heard the music and voice from your room." "So did the later three days." "Only music and laughter" "From many people you only have one voice soft music happy laughter" "I saw you!" "You don't like the image of my grandpa when I was teen age." "I was really scared." "Do you want to wear it or not!" "We are poor and we can't afford that." "Do you want me beg you, my dear" "Good morning, Miss" "Good morning" "I fell in love at the very first second" "I know women like to ask you this question, People who are doted on always say that." "But please believe me" "No woman love you so much like what I do at past, and until now." "Nothing in this world can compare with the love from a young girl, which is not aware of." "Because this love is hopeless, and humbleness." "Ingratiation and passion" "This is different from the boundless love from adult woman." "They are insatiability." "Only a lonely young girl, can hold her whole passion and love together." "I was not ready at all, but that's my destiny like falling into a abyss." "From that second." "You are the only one in my heart." "Thank you, miss" "OK, that's it, don't write any more." "You've been at home for a whole day." "Go get some fun!" "Take it to the north room" "Did you hear me?" "This kid is silly." "It's spring festival!" "I am busy now." "Do you want to go or not?" "You want to go, you go." "You are such a inconsiderate kid!" "I can't count on you." "I do it myself." "Do you know why?" "Why do I flat" "It's in holiday." "I don't wanna be angry with you." "All right, I admit I am flatting." "Let me help you." "Thank you, miss" "come on in, miss" "put it here, let me do it please sit down" "That's the first time I went into your room." "The room is so dark, and comfortable like a sort of invitation, I can smell your cigarettes" "feel a kind of happiness which makes me faint the rush few minutes is the happiest time in my childhood." "The reason I told you this is because I want you to know there is someone, you never know before, loving you." "And she is gonna die for you" "This is the happiest time, but also I wanna tell you the most terrible time" "They are so close to each other" "Do you think it will be successful?" "Why not?" "I think it's a good idea." "You see, this guy don't have any kids before." "No bad habit and honest all his money is spent in his house property." "He is a rich man in that county how can you find a guy like him in this years!" "Your mom did all these for you." "I don't want anything, at all." "So will we still live here?" "Listen to yourself, silly why would you still have to live here?" "You are going to have a good time in Shan Dong" "And find your mum a good sun-in-law someday" "That would be good enough for her" " What's wrong?" "I knew it!" "The kid is sure to play tricks on me" "Just like her dad They just can't give me a break" "Don't worry, Don't worry But anyway, the girl should have acted like a grown-up" "You are crying?" "I'm telling you Don't even think about that" "Not so much ability but such a bad temper" "Mum" "Mum" "This is the last night we are here We are going to Shan Dong tomorrow" "That night, I suddenly felt that..." "Without you... my life is gonna stop" "Liang" "Liang" "My son died yesterday" "If I keep on living" "I'm gonna be alone again" "There is no more horrible thing than living by yourself while surrounded by the crowd" "During the six long years in Shan Dong" "I realized that" "I've been thinking about you all the time Our hearts were bounding all the time" "It always took me all day long just sitting there thinking about each time that I saw you each time that I waited for" "That was just one year" "But I felt like it was all my childhood I remember every minute of it" "I felt like it just happened yesterday I bought all your articles and books just to see your name As long as I can see your name... that day is my holiday" "During the six years we have never been apart" "I have only one thing on my mind it's to go back to Beiping to see you" "Finally, in that year I entered a female teachers college" "Look forward, Look forward" "Watch the kids" "Please, please" "Sorry" "OK, stop" "You have pretty much time to care about politics" "It matters to us all Besides, all my classmates are going" "Oh" "My home is not far from here" "Do you wanna take a look?" "If you have time" " Yes, I do" "I... am OK" "I must have met you before" "Really?" " Don't you think?" "No, I don't think so" "Why are you walking so fast?" "You almost went the wrong way" "Are you cold?" "Let me guess" "Where are you from" "Go ahead" "You won't understand" "This moment, in your house" "I just thinking many things before" "my childhood, my dreams" "I spend my whole life on this this is a gate, a gate I wanna cross it hundred times" "now I came in in your arms, this is my dream the dream comes true, the dream never disappear" "I have to leave now, or I'll be later" "Do you have to go to WanPing?" "Yes, I have to" "I'll be back in couple days the situation there is very bad" "it's very bad if North China in danger, Peking will in danger too" "Did you noticed all government officers had gone" "The Japanese army is coming" "I'll stay at school all the time" "I went find you when I came back" "You never find me after you came back" "In that two months, I wait you at the gate every day" "I suddenly discovered" "In your mind" "I think whatever where we are" "Our distance still so far" "and I know I have your baby" "I decided to move away" "How can I tell you" "You will never believe a young girl she did and will concentrated on you only" "you will never believe you are the baby's father maybe you think I have other idea" "You'll doubt me There is shadow between us a light, doubt shadow" "But I have my pride, I don't like you doubt me, I'll take the responsibility myself and I don't like you doubt me" "I hope you feel sweet, when you miss me" "I like to be the only one, in all women you know" "But, you never think about me" "You don't remember me any more" "I came to my friend's home at ShanDong" "You know what happened then." "The war... the Japanese army came here" "I escape to inland, until I can't go any longer" "I lost all my friends then I born my baby in a small town of sichuan" "I can't keep you" "But you can pass you to me forever" "I can feel you grow in my blood vessel our lives stick together" "Because of this" "I feel so happy And I won't let you go" "Your mom is there" "Mom, uncle said will bring me to take big plane" "He just a child" "Let's go go" "Is everything all right?" "It's okay" "We should have a meal look at your mouth" "Mom, can I give my money to them?" "My son, it's too much poor people in the world was abused they are victims" "I will never let my boy" "My sweet bright boy, stay in garbage dump grow up in dirty air" "I can't let those dirty words come from his young and tender mouth" "I can't let him dress those broken clothes" "Your child should own everything everything you have" "so I stay with someone else someone who can give us such living conditions" "whatever he is young or old" "Mr. Ma?" "So nice to meet you Mr. Ma" "Nice to meet you too Mr. Zhao" "I came to the exhibition" "Hello Mr. Xu, nice to meet you" "Let me introduce each others This is Ms. Xu" "Nice to meet you Ms. Jiang" "Nice to meet you Ms. Zhang" "Nice to meet you" "You know Mr. Chen" "We are in same city now, after 8 years" "In same occasion" "We went to same place" "I always met you We even have same friends" "But you forget me again terrible unknown" "You always don't know who I am" "We lost our country and family after these years' war" "My emotion to you seems to be so little that I even unwilling to tell it." "I've only done one thing." "What I do is to send you a bunch of white roses on your birthday." "Like the one when we first get together." "To memorize the bygone days." "Mum's back." "How about you?" "Well." "What have you learned in school today?" "Arithmetics" "See what you are looking!" "Your face getting so dirty!" "Madam" "It's time for dinner!" "Let's go and have dinner." "But I do blame myself today." "I should show you my child" "Coz if you see him, you will love him." "How lovely he is" "And he's handsome" "Mum, how about my shooting?" "You haven't shoot on any of them" "I say not good" "Shoot later" "Do you want to drink?" "Go to play" "You should prepare for the future." "I don't want, and I can't think so far" "I live in the present time!" "Be careful." "But you're not so young" "What does this matter?" "Nothing, but I think , forget it" "Are you all right?" "All right" "What about you?" "Nothing" "How about him?" "I think every men looks like the same." "It's great to fall in love with you." "Forget his words." "Let's go." "Looking at this made me feel I've got headache." "Captain Huang, Lao Zhao" "Why are you here?" "I'm here everyday." "Then why I haven't seen you yesterday?" "I haven't seen you, too." "Let me introduce..." "This is Mr. Xu, His name is Xu Ai You." "This one you must have known from Captain Huang." "This is Miss Jiang." "Take a seat." "I've read your papers." "Just so so." "I wrote them long time ago." "I heard that you've written novels?" "I'm sorry that I haven't read about them." "You know, it takes too much time to read novels." "Not worthy." "Don't be sorry." "I don't write novels now." "Because the real man's life are more vivid than the persons in the novel." "You're right." "Captain Huang, may I have the honor to dance with Miss Jiang?" "Miss Jiang" "Ladies don't drink." "Drink later." "Come on, Let's have a dance" "Why don't you dance?" "I don't like dancing." "I just pretended to like dancing." "So why you come here?" "I feel dull to be alone." "Being here is a good way to kill time." "A" "Don't you a writer?" "No, I just write occasionally." "What are you chatting, Captain Huang?" "Come here and have a drink" "Do you need water?" "Let's stop dancing." "Please dance a bit more." "You can chat first, Xiao Fang." "How do you get to know about each other?" "It's easy to get familiar with me." "So we've been known, of course." "So nice." "It's my honor to know you." "When will I see you next time, madam?" "As you wish" "Now?" "O.K." "What is friend?" "What is dignity?" "Next time I will do the same." "You voice has a mysterious strength." "It makes me can't refuse." "After several years change, still like the same." "Even if I lay in the tomb, I would stand up and get out of it." "Follow you." "The Kuomintang and the Communist party are fighting again!" "It's not a good time." "Jiang Jieshi sent the troops." "But the Communist don't let them through." "It seems that the Double Oct. Address will soon become useless." "I have to go to Zhang Jia Kou for a week or two." "What a pity." "What you mean?" "The country or us?" "Both." "My lover often goes out, too." "That what an army should do." "Not that air force man." "They will come back sooner or later." "Yes, but they will forget everything after they get back." "Do you feel that things happened just now have already happened earlier?" "What?" "Like having breakfast." "You and me, too." "And also talked about the war." "Say that going to the outer parts." "Don's you feel strange?" "I know that someone has tried to explain this in an scientific way." "But I do hope this is a destiny." "You and me must have been lovers before we got birth." "How about you?" "Nothing, I think I have to go now." "Wait." "I'll call on you as soon as I get back." "Can you give me a flower?" "Of course." "But it's a bit wither and fall." "Let me put it on you." "Is is a flower sent by a woman?" "I don't know, maybe." "Every year this time, someone has asked the flower shop to send my these flowers." "But never know who he is." "I have to go." "All right." "Good morning, lady." "My son died yesterday." "My son!" "Now there's no one worth our love on the world" "Except you." "But who you are?" "You never know out who am I when you walk passing me." "You always keep going." "There's once I thought I could catch you." "Catch you on my son." "Watching him growing." "When he is quite, you two looks almost the same." "But in one night, he left me away." "Never back, leave me alone." "I feel lonely now than any time." "Maybe you can feel now" "Maybe you can just feel a little." "How much I love you." "But who will send you the flower every year?" "The vase will be left there vacant." "You, every year, tender breath all around." "And me will go with the wind." "I can't keep writing, my dear." "Take care." "Ripped by:" "SkyFury"