"BEFORE I WAKE Translation." "Review by Angel." "I am sorry, Cody." "BEFORE I WAKE" "I have had a case come back across my desk... that could be a very good fit." "Cody." "He is eight." "His birth mother died when he was three." "In addition, we placed him with a couple that... may turned out were not fit." "The second couple we placed him with abandoned him." " My God!" " And I went for his annual follow up." "I found him living alone in the apartment." " Alone?" " For almost a month, we think." "Neighbors called once he started going door the door." "Look!" "I like this kid." "We are not supposed to have opinions like that, but I do." "He is resourceful, he is resilient." "I am not saying these things have not affected him." " He has guarded." "He has sleep issues." " Of course!" "But for all he has been through." "He has not let it turn him into a victim." "Which is what made me think of the two of you." "Now that you have been approved," "I think you will make wonderful foster parents." "My question for you is..." "Are you ready for this?" "Okay, living room." "We can leave that one." "Are you sure?" "Clean slate, you know." "Just that one." "Whatever it was like for her." "They said it was fast." "Moreover, she was not aware of what was happening." "It is not nearly as bad as I imagined in my head." "In addition, I find comfort in that." "It is very good, Jony." "Anyone else?" "We have decided to bring a child into our home tomorrow." "That is wonderful, Jessie." "Congratulations." "Thank you, Peter." "How have you been feeling these days?" "I still cannot sleep at night very well." " Are you still on Ambien?" " Yes." "Insomnia is common." "Somnia is Latin for Dreams." "Insomnia simply means No Dreams." "Moreover, what else is a child?" "However, our dreams." "Our hopes manifest." "We talked about numbness last week, where something a lot of us have felt." "Yeah, I do not know if I am doing any better with that." "I think I am, a little..." "However, the color has not returned to the world just yet." "How is Mark with this?" "We have not seen him for a while." "We always say that people processes grief differently." "Mark and I have had different experiences with this." " The feeling distant from a spouse is..." " Common." "Yes." "I just wish I knew how to fix this." "For him, for us." "In addition, I really wish he would continue coming to group with me because..." "It is the only time I feel..." "I do not know..." "Awake." " Are you ready?" " I think so." " Hey." " Let us go and say hi." "This is Mr. and Mrs. Hobsen." " Hi." " How are you doing?" "Good morning!" "Good morning!" "How are you?" "Can I take that box for you?" "No?" "Okay." "Whatever you want to do, pal." "Thank you." "I will take good care of it." "Come on." "Come on in." "Here we are." "You do not have to do that." "Shoes make floors dirty." " You have a beautiful home." " Thank you." "It is all yours, Cody." "Nothing is out limits." "Yeah, come on, I will show you my Xbox, or... or we can get a Wii, I guess." "I am not sure which one you play." "However, you play, though, right?" "I think Mark's pretty excited to have someone to play." "Did you ever play this connect?" "Sports thing?" "It has a censor on it, therefore, there is no control." "Whatever you do, the little dude does." "You can swing, you can throw, you can kick." "In addition, the little person does it." "I will show you." "Great!" "It is mean." "It does not look like much." "We want you to decorate it the way you like it." " Really?" " That is right." "We are going to replace those, I just throw whatever in a basket." "However, you can pick out anything you want." "Cody collects butterflies." " You do!" " Really?" "I love this room." "Remember, it is just the first night." "We are all in this together." "Are you okay?" "I like your eyes." "Thank you." "They are pretty." "Let us get some sleep." "Good night, Mrs. Hobsen!" "Good night, Cody." "Sleep tight." "Monarch." "All right!" "Here." "All right!" "What is your favorite kind of pizza?" "Pineapple." "Yeah?" "That is what we are going to have tonight." "To celebrate your brave day." "Let us go." "Are you ready?" "So, let us all say Welcome Cody." " Welcome Cody." " Welcome Cody." "You can take that seat, right over there." "All right!" "Let us open those notebooks." "Is everyone ready?" "The first word is..." "Is everything right in there?" "I am fine." "He is fine." "I just wanted to make sure I can still hear him." "He is fine." "THE LIFE CYCLES OF BUTTERFLIES" " What is this person?" " The Blue Morph." "Sounds like some kind of superhero or something." "And what is this?" "Is this like a Cocoon?" "That is a Chrysalis." "It keeps them safe until they grown up." "I guess we better go to bed." "All right!" " I will be right there." " Okay, sweet." "Hey." "Therefore, I was straightening out for you earlier, in addition, I accidentally found some of your stimulants." "Stimulants?" "Things that keep you awake." " I do not like to sleep." " I know." "However, there is nothing for you to be scared of here." " Yes, there is." " What?" "The Canker Man." "Who is that?" "He comes when I sleep." "He eats people." "Well!" "That is not good." "He ate my Mommy." "You know, when I was little girl..." "I thought there was a witch scratching in my window." "However, it was just a tree." "The branches had grown a little too long..." "Moreover, they hit the window when the wind blew." "When I knew that, the witch never came back." "Sometimes scary things go away when we understand them a little." "Not the Canker Man." "Well!" "You are in new home now." "I am sure he cannot find you." "He is always with me, he says so." "You did what you had to do." "You cannot let him have a sugar stash... in the middle of his room, under his bed." "I know, I still feel like I was trespassing." "No." "You are parenting." "When you came in, you said something about a ghost." "There was something." "What did it look like?" "Well!" "It was wearing a black thing that went all the way to the floor." "Were not you a little frightened at the time?" "Yes." " That, Mr. Loren, is hysteria." " Jess." "Well!" "Then Doctor, how do you explain what happened to Lance?" "Was that hysteria too?" "You better get that checked in a day or two." "Thanks, Doc." "Where they come from?" "Have you ever seen this many?" "Do we have any jars?" "Did Butterflies even come out at night?" "Maybe there is a big pretty moths." "Ouch!" " What?" " It bit me." " Did Butterfly bite you?" " No." "Where are they coming from?" "I need a lid." "What?" "What did just happen?" "I saw something last night." "I think it was Sean." "I know we have all had those dreams, and felt like we have seen our kids out in the world." "However, this was different." "In addition, I could not help, but I feel that it was because..." "Go ahead." "He knows about Cody." "In addition, he is angry with me." "For replacing him!" "Yeah." "We talked about something like this at the beginning, when Mark wanted to sell the house." " But you refused, because..." " I felt like he was still there." "You said you saw him sometimes." "Yes." "Okay." "The thing you need to understand about dreams..." "You can lose dreams, and feel very real, while us having them." "This was not a dream." " I was awake." " Does not matter." "If we are suppressing negative emotions like guilt or fear, especially for sleep deprived on top of that, our subconscious will figure out a way to process those emotions." "Even if we are, awake." "We can even achieve levels of REM's sleep, while we are awake." "It is called a waking dream." "It is more common than you think." "Just felt very real." "Yeah, I am sure it did." "But, waking dream, any dreams actually, are conversation that we are having with ourselves." "Every character in your dreams are actually just you." "In addition, when we are trying to bury uncomfortable emotions, or ideas, or we feel threatened." "Sometimes the only outlet they have is our subconscious." "It is normal for us to feel haunted... by our past, by our losses, by the children, we lost." "However, Jessie, no." "Sean is not haunting your home." "The question is what are you trying to say to you?" "What unresolved emotions are strangling to get out?" "That is pretty." "It is a Monarch." "Do not they have...?" "I guess so." "Thank god, where did you find him this time?" "He is in the maintenance shed, which will be locked from now?" "No." "Not your seat." "You know where you are going." "Is this evening?" "I will do sweet." "Hey, pal." "How are you doing?" "Are you all right?" "Who is that?" "It is our son." "His name was Sean." "Where is he?" "Well!" "He is in heaven." "That is where my Mommy is." "Tell me, what was she like?" "I do not remember her." "How did Sean go to heaven?" "We wish he had not gone." "As if I am sure, you wish your Mommy had not gone." "He looks funny." "Are you in fear losing your car?" "It sounds familiar." "If you owe more than ten thousand dollars to the bank or the IRS... then, you are qualified for a debt relief program." "Call us now to speak to a debt relief coach." "Who can help you right now." "Our experts' coaches will help you reduce your monthly payment to a little less 25 %..." "Hey!" "Jess." "Look who is back." "Where are they coming from?" "Ouch!" "No." "No." "I am sorry." "He was real." "You saw him." "You touched him." "I did, I was right there." "I am sorry." "Why?" "My dream." "What do you mean, Cody?" "What happens when do you dream?" "I will not do it again." "Please, do not be mad." " Hey, pal, we are not..." " Honey, we are not mad." "I hope you have a good day, Jessie." "You too." "I wish we could have heard his voice." "All right!" "Who wants to set the table?" " Come on friend." " Pizza!" "I think you have to dive into the water." "Okay, you are..." "Okay." "Okay, That is one more round for you, friend." "Hey, Cody." "You know, yesterday you were asking about Sean." "Do you want to see him?" "Yes, please." "When was the last time you had a real Christmas?" "I do not know." "You will have this year." " Here he comes." "Here he comes." " He is coming, he is coming." " He came!" "He came!" " That is him." "Merry Christmas, baby!" "What do you think?" " I think it is a train." " Why?" "Did it whistle?" "Did Sean write a train?" "I do not remember..." "You sent to Santa about the train." "What is it?" "I cannot see it." "What do you think, buddy?" "North Pole Express." "Do you know who lives in there?" "North Pole Express." " Santa lives there." " Yes, he lives there." "North Pole Express." "My God!" "Come on, fight back, buddy." "You can escape." "He used to give me Eskimo kisses." "Do you see how he is doing?" "Where are you going, buddy?" "That is right." "You did not sleep well last night, did you?" "In this house it is okay for you relax." "You are in home." "Now get some sleep." "I am bringing another pot." "Let us call the night." "He is a tough, and he needs to sleep." "I know, baby." "So do us." "Let us go to bed." "I am going to make another pot." "Okay." "I will go to bed." "Jess?" "Jess!" "He came!" "He came!" "I think it is a train!" "Why?" "Did it whistle?" "Cody!" "I am always with you." "Let us go to bed." "What is that?" "The Canker Man." "Sometimes, if I do this, it keeps him away." " Boys are home." " Hi there." "Okay!" "Go on." " Are you hungry?" " Yeah, I am a little hunger." "Yeah?" "Okay." "Why do not you go upstairs?" "Wash your hands, in addition, come back tell me all about your day." "Okay." "Okay." "Are we going to talk about this?" "He needs to sleep." "Okay, he needs to sleep." "Yeah, Cody needs to sleep." "Jessie, what is about it?" "Alternatively, is this about Sean?" "Okay." "What are you doing?" "This feels wrong, Jess." "This..." "I felt wrong..." "When you... you putting that DVD." "Then..." "It no felt right since..." "It feels like abuse." " Abuse?" " Yeah." "Abuse?" "We promised to take care of that child." "Not use him like some home movie projector for..." "That child needs to sleep." "And if he can help us heal..." "We need to heal, Mark." " He can help us heal." " This is not healing." "I saw it in your face." "You felt it too." "Yeah!" "Of course!" "If you want to go to bed, go to bed." "Jess." "I am staying here, in addition, I am waiting for Sean." "Well!" "It is not our son, moreover, it is not Sean, in addition, it is not our son." "I am not going to let you take him away from me again." "Again?" "Hey." "I am sorry." " Again?" " I am sorry." "No!" "Not fair." "It is not fair." "Not fair." "All right!" "Are you all set?" "Okay, go ahead." "You started it, Tate." "Thirteen plus five?" " Hayden?" " Eighteen?" " Yes." " Hayden?" "Eighteen?" "Yes." "Fifteen plus four?" " Hunter?" " Nineteen." "Good!" "Seven plus thirteen?" " Clara?" " Twenty?" "Nice!" "Nine plus fourteen?" "This time is fine." "But if you are not feeling well for recess, maybe you should visit the nurses' room." "Can I just stay here?" "I have to step out, just for a minute." "Why do not you put your head down and rest?" "Cody, what is going on?" "Let us go home." "What happened?" "A kid runs away." "What?" "He had done it before." "He is a mean kid." "Can we go home, please?" "PICK-UP AND DROP-OFF ONLY NO PARKING" "Okay." "Are you okay?" "I am fine." "Well!" "We did not see you very much, even the night." "I am sorry." "I do not feel very well." "Do not you feel well?" "Let I look at you." "Are you worried about what happened at school today?" "Well!" "I think it is going to be okay, that little boy is going to turn up." " Good night!" " Good night!" "Well!" "You..." "You used to sleep too, you know!" "I will be soon." "Okay." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "I am awake, this cannot be happening." "No!" "No, no, no!" " I am awake." " I am awake." " I am awake." " I am awake." " I am awake." " I am awake." "I am awake." "No!" "No!" "No!" " No!" "I am awake!" " Cody?" " Cody!" " No!" "I am awake!" " No!" "Stop!" " Cody!" " I am awake!" "I am awake!" "I am awake!" " I got you." "I got you." "I got you." " I am awake." "I am awake." "I am awake." " I got you." "I got you." " I am awake." "I am awake." "I am awake." " It is okay, baby." "It is okay." "It is okay." "I am sick." "I do not want to go the school." "Sick!" "Yes, Sir." "That is too bad." "I guess you will not be interested in to do a little shopping today." "Pick up some stuff for your new room." "I do not think I deserve it." "If there is one thing, I know, you deserve a good day." " How long has not he slept?" " At least two days." "However, it is going on since he got at our home." "I am giving him Zolpidem." "It is a Pediatric Ambien." "Just a pill before bedtime should do the trick." "Dr. Petrom room six, one." "Dr. Petrom room six, one." "It is just to get him started." "We cannot let him stay up for days on end." "Sleep deprivation at this age can do real damage." "Thank you." " Hi." " Hi." "Can I help you people?" "I am Detective Brown, this is Officer Murray." "We like to ask your son a few questions." "About an incident that took place at school." "Cody comes here." " Okay!" "Screw." " Screw." " Phillips." " Phillips." "Just be sure that you cough or something when you get downstairs, okay?" "Hey, there he is." " You look better." " I feel a little better." " Good." " So, the police came by today." " What they want?" " Well..." "I feel a lot better." "Do you want to see my racecar bed?" " Race car bed?" " I was getting to that." "I think this little kid still has not shown back up." "So, why they came here?" "Well!" "I guess they have to rule out abduction." "I guess Cody saw the kid leave." "How did Sean die?" "What?" "I just wondered." "Hey, buddy." "Why do not you go set the table?" "Okay?" "We will be in minute." "ZOLPIDEM" "Nice." "Like Tic Tak Tok game." "I am playing it always." " Hey." " Hey." " What do you think?" " That is orange." "You were not so glad, we did not go with fuchsia." " What is this?" " Here you go." "All right!" " Thank you." " You're welcome!" "Using fork." "This is very civilized." " Today was funny." " Today was my favorite day so far." "Yeah?" "Mine, too." "Hey, listen..." "About the question that you asked me... earlier." "Sean drowned." "It was an accident." "Then, we found out we could not have more kids, so..." "I am sorry I asked you about that." "No, no." "It is..." "You have the right to know." "It is just important to you also to know that... nothing like that is going to happen to you." "Are you okay?" "I do not think I am." "You are a great Mommy." "That kid up there." "He needs a great Mommy." "We need a kid." "It is a perfect match." "We do not need anything else." "I know that you think you do." "Moreover, God knows there is a big part of me it feels the same." "However, we do not." "Come to bed." "Come to bed." "Okay." "Yes, Love." "Sean?" "Cody?" "Cody?" "Wake up!" "Wake up!" " Wake up, friend!" "Wake up!" " Mark." "He will not wake up." "He will not for a while." " What did you do?" " He is..." "Cody!" "Cody, Cody!" "Wake up!" "Come on." "Wake up." "Get out of here!" "She will not wake up." "She will not wake up." "Here." "She is awake." "She is awake." "I like to take your formal statement, Mrs. Hobsen." "Then refer you to someone in social services." " Social services?" " Why did you drug the child?" "I... gave him a sleeping pill." "His Doctor prescribed it." "Do you know the whereabouts of your husband day...?" "Before last around lunchtime." "Where are you taking him?" "We have any reason to be near of your son's school." " No, no, no, no, no." " Ma'am, I am sorry." "Ma'am, we have to remove the child from the house." " No, please." " Ma'am." "Please!" "You cannot take him away." "Natalie." "You have not returned my phone calls." "I were at the police station, all night." "Where is he?" "It is not your business anymore." "Where is your husband?" "CHILD PROTECTIVE SERVICES CODY MORGAN" "I do not know." "That is why I have to speak to Cody." "That is not going to happen." "I need to find out more about him." "About his dreams." "You heard this before." "There are several great support groups in here." "And a few therapists who specialize in domestic violence." "I want you to reach them, get some help for your situation." "In addition, I never want to see you again." "CHILD PROTECTIVE SERVICES INTAKE" "MISSING PERSON REPORT CONFIDENTIAL" "APPLICATION FOR EMERGENCY INVOLUNTARY ADMISSION OF ADULT TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL" "ST." "AIDAN'S MENTAL HOSPITAL" "Yeah!" "I am so able to take care of this." " Great!" "Thanks." " Yeah." " Hi." "Can I help you?" " I am here to see Whelan Young." "Whelan, you have a visitor." "Thank you." "What can I do for you?" "I am here to talk about Cody Morgan." "It says here that you moreover, your wife Katharina... were foster parents of Cody for 15 months... before he be given to Peter and Doris Clemens." "We did not know about them." "They disappeared a year ago." "Much like your wife." "What are we talking about here, Miss?" "We are talking about what happens when he dreams." "I have seen it, too." "Do you have now?" "I watched it take my husband." "I would not say that around here." "They fit you for slippers." "If you do not know what I am talking about..." " Then I am wasting my time." " Hey, wait." "I am sorry." "You know, I hear, you are crazy for so long... before you start to believe it." "Please." "That little boy has dreams that come true." "Real and true." "It is amazing, beautiful thing." "So his nightmares." "They are..." "Dangerous." "Deadly." "Can I get him back?" "My husband?" "I do not know." "Wherever that thing comes from, it takes them with it." "If they exist at all, it is only in Cody's mind." "How do you know that?" "Katie and I foster two kids before Cody." "His mother died, no other family." "He was sweet, independent." "An artist, I thought." "Started with the Butterflies." "That went for a few weeks." "We thought it was magical." "Then, Katie got sick." "Had a bad flu." "And it seemed really to upset Cody." "Then..." "No!" "I am sorry." "But it was not Katie." "It was just his impression of her." "That was all what was left." "He was too young. even to remember her right." "And I hated him for that." "I know I should not have, but God help me." "I hated him for that." "But I could not do it." "I could not do it." "If I had, your husband would be alive." "That another family would be alive." "Maybe you can... succeed where I failed." "No." "No." "It is the only way." "Thank you for your time." "In addition, I am sorry for your loss, as well." "Do you really want to bet your life to an eight-year-old boy... will not have another nightmare?" " It is not his fault." " It would be a mercy." "Someone has to do it." "Do you know anything about his birth mother?" "There is nothing in the file." "Only that she died." "I assume the way my wife did." "The way your husband did." "What are you hoping to find?" "214" "MORGAN, CODY MARION GENERAL HOSPITAL" "MARION GENERAL HOSPITAL" "Dr. Tennant told me not to come back without the patient file." "He try to call." "Do you have the P.I.D?" "I do not, all I have is last name and date." "Night nurse said he did not sleep last night." "That is two nights in a row, then." "That we know." "The policy says that we cannot let him this long." "I would like to stay here with him tonight if that is okay." "You signed for this file, you can take it." "There is a PE number here in the intake." "How long did you keep those?" "If nobody claim them, there is a chance they are still down there." "MORGAN, ANDREA ONCOLOGY RM 214" "No!" "No!" "No!" " Cody, it is for your own good." " Honey, it is all right!" "I do not want to hurt anymore." "It will take a second." "Good job, son." "It is okay." "A case of mine was transferred, and I need the name of the facility for the report." "Natalie Friedman." "F.R.I.E.D.M.A.N." "Provider number, 11714." "Cody Morgan." "Where is he?" "Mommy?" "Cody?" "It keeps them safe." "Until they grow up." "Let them go." "Wait!" "I am taking him home." "This is for you." "It is your mother's journal." "Your mother's name was Andrea Morgan." "In addition, I can tell by reading this..." "She loved you very, very much." "When you were a baby, she noticed you are special." "It was just two of you against the world." "She writes a lot about you, and about your gift." "How much she loved watching you to grow up." "I do not think she stopped writing because she did not want." "I think it is because..." "She got sick." "Which just happen sometimes." "These are some of your mother's test results." "Do you see that word there?" "Canker." "Not quite." "PANCREATIC CANCER" "It is difficult to explain what cancer is to children." "In terms they can understand." "Your mother started to look very different, very fast." "By the time she was in the Intensive Care Unit." "They started looking a foster parents for you." "They brought you to see her one last time." "To say goodbye." "Her voice would have been hard to hear." "But I know she would have tried to say, if she could." "The one thing she would never want you to forget." "I... am always with you." "You got older, you forgot most of this." "And you tell people the Canker ate your Mommy." "Moreover, as more time went by... in your mind." "The Canker Man ate my Mommy." "In your mind, Cody." "You are amazing, special one of kind mind... made him real." "I am so sorry." "I am so sorry." "I used you, like I did for Sean." "However, I will never do that again, okay." "Never." "Here we go." "Here, close to me, here." "Remember, nothing to worry about, okay?" "I am be here with you, all night." "Will you tell me a bedtime story?" "Sure." "Once upon a time..." "There was a special little boy..." "That needed a Mommy." "Moreover, there was a sad Mommy, she needed a son." "Is this a happy story?" "I think it is." "It has a happy ending, anyway." "It feels like it cannot." "Because there was a people going away." "No one ever really goes away." "Not completely." "Because they live in our minds, and in our hearts." "In this story..." "That bully from school woke up in his bed... like nothing ever happened." "And whatever made him, so sad and mean has gone." "And that nice lady who care for the boy..." "She came back to her husband, and they lived happily ever after." "In addition, Daddy..." "Daddy got the best present of all." "Can those things happen?" "I guess that depends on you, Cody." "You have an amazing gift." "Who knows what can happen when it grows?" "Thanks for bringing me home." "Mommy!" "♪ Welcome Home♪ Radical Face" "BEFORE I WAKE Translation." "Review." "Synchronization by Angel." "♪ Welcome Home. ♪" "♪ Welcome Home. ♪" "♪ Ships are launching from my chest. ♪" "♪ Some have names but most do not. ♪" "♪ If you find one please let me know what piece I've lost. ♪" "♪ Heal the scars from off my back. ♪" "♪ I don't need them anymore. ♪" "♪ You can throw them out or keep them in your mason jars. ♪" "♪ I've come home. ♪" "♪ I've come home. ♪" "♪ I've come home. ♪" "♪ I've come home. ♪" "♪ I've come home. ♪" "♪ All my nightmares escaped my head. ♪" "♪ Bar the door, please don't let them in. ♪" "♪ You were never supposed to leave. ♪" "♪ Now my head's splitting at the seams. ♪" "♪ And I don't know if I can. ♪" "♪ Home. ♪" "♪ Home. ♪" "♪ Home. ♪" "♪ Here, beneath my lungs, ♪" "♪ I feel your thumbs. ♪" "♪ Press into my skin again. ♪" "♪ Home. ♪" "♪ Home. ♪" "♪ Home. ♪" "♪ Home. ♪" "♪ Home. ♪"