"# I may not always love you #" "# But long as there are stars above you #" "# You never need to doubt it #" "# I'll make you so sure about it #" "# God only knows what I'd be without you #" "# If you should ever leave me #" "# Well, life would still go on, believe me #" "# The world could show nothing to me #" "# So what good would living do me?" "#" "# God only knows what I'd be without you #" "# God only knows what I'd be without you #" "# God only knows what I'd be without you #" "# God only knows what I'd be without you #" "# God only knows #" "# God only knows what I'd be without you #" "# God only knows what I'd be without you #" "# God only knows #" "# God only knows what I'd be without you #" "# God only knows what I'd be without you #" "# God only knows #" "# God only knows what I'd be without you. #" "Here are some hot ones." "Dad, I really can't eat anymore." " Raymond, how about you?" " Yes, Dad." "Attaboy." "Bill." "Bill, Nicki is staying in the big house with Alby." "Doesn't that just figure?" "Who told you that?" "I called her." "You don't solve spats without speaking." "This is more than a spat." "You basically told her not to come home, Bill." "She's unfaithful and it's my fault now?" "She betrayed us, Bill, not just you." "She's staying in her old bedroom!" "Enough's enough!" "I don't think it's the worst thing in the world that she's not here right now when we're dealing with her father's involvement in Kathy's death." "What are we going to do, Bill?" "Barb, you handle the scheduling." "If you need something fixed, you ask me or Ben." "Marge, you give Wayne and Raymond a little extra attention." "That's what we're gonna do." "And we are not gonna contact her until I'm ready." "It's after 9:00." "I brought you some clothes." "Nicki, come on down." "There's no reason to be embarrassed." "I'm scared." "I think I might have really gone and done it this time." "What is it in us, Alby, that makes us the way we are?" "An unfortunate destiny." "We were born of parents who have murder in their hearts." "Do you really believe that Papa had a hand in Kathy's death?" "Yes." "Yes, I do." "And you know it too." "I want to tell you something." "When I was in the courthouse, after the trial..." "I pushed Papa down the stairs." "What?" "You should have seen the look in his eyes." "I want to tell you everything." "You'll be so happy when you see what's in store for them." "Come down now." "I'll have Mama's Hummer brought round." " You use it while you're here." " You've taken her car?" "I've taken her everything." "Papa's too." "I'm squeezing them dry." "I've cut off their access to UEB funds, closed their escrow accounts..." " What was that?" " Our father's handiwork trying to destabilize me, get the people to turn against me." "It won't work." "Welcome home, Sister." "If you lose Nicki, how can you be sure Margie won't be the next to go?" "Before you know it, you'll be alone." "Barb, the kids..." "vanished..." " just like that." " I can't lose my family, Don." "I'm just saying it happens." "Look at me." "What should I do?" "You failed them." "You know it's not Nicki's fault." "Hey, Chief." "Hey." "I got some good news on the casino front." "Ted called and is backing down." "He says he wants to work out a compromise." "I'm meeting him tomorrow to iron things out." "Oh, that's great." "So I should hold off with the contractor?" "Do you have any apartments available?" " A two bedroom?" " Sure." "I have a tenant vacating next week in fact." " You staking another family member?" " Maybe." "I'll let you know." "Do me a favor and check with me before you rent it?" "Will do." "Bill?" "Yeah?" "You look awful." "Trouble sleeping." "These men are here to see you." "Ah..." "Bishop Devery." "This is Lowell Davis, President of the Sandy Central Stake." "How do you do?" " How can I help you?" " We'd like to talk to you for a few minutes." "Is this a bad time?" "So you haven't tithed in seven years?" "Yes." "No, I mean we're not tithing." "We're inactive." "May we ask why?" "We..." "my husband and I went through a difficult time." "Um, I was very ill." "I remember." "We tried to support you in every way we knew how with love and prayer and home teachers." "Well, it meant the world to me." "I was so grateful." "Barb, we've known each other a long time." "You were once a shining member of our church, so I'm just going to ask you outright... are you living in a polygamist relationship?" "Yes." "I am so sorry to hear that." "How did this come to pass?" "My husband had a testimony." "I see." "Did you?" "No." "Uh... no, I didn't, not at first." " But do you now?" " I think so." "I don't know." "I don't know, I don't know." "Uh, Sister Henrickson, I must tell you that... that we've come here to determine whether to call a Stake disciplinary council." "May I ask, how many wives has Bill brought into your marriage?" "Two." "There's three of us." "Come on." "I think it's gonna be a good day." "Morning." " It's a beautiful morning." " Yes indeed." "And who is this lovely young lady?" "Kim Lee." "An nyung." "Excuse me." "You are?" "Hollis Singer Greene." "There is a brutish and ungodly campaign of religious tyranny, satanic propaganda and political violence afoot in the world and I wonder if I might have a word with you about a letter that has come into your possession." "I'm sorry, we need to go." "Come on, honey, I forgot something inside." "A letter that by all rights and privileges belongs to me." "You see, I am a direct descendant of one of the four apostles." "A Lamb of God." "You would be wise to give me that letter." "The jewelry business is trickier than you think." "90% percent of women's wrists are that size or bigger, but every woman thinks she has a small-to medium-sized wrist." "What else should you know?" "And statistically, if you ask them, no woman will say she has a large wrist." "And then you really do have your large-knuckled women." " That's a whole other thing..." " No, you missed... you missed the exit." " That was the exit." " No, I didn't." "That was the exit to Costco, Margie!" "We're not going to Costco." "We're going to get Nicki." "Uh, like fun we are." " No no no no no." " This is not how we do things." " We do not separate." " Margie, this is not the time, believe me." " And I don't want to see her." " Oh, so she had a crush." "Haven't you guys ever heard of the seven-year itch?" "There's more to it than that and you know it." "Barb, anger festers." "It does." "Before you know it, it's infected." "And then it's gangrene." "And then you can't save the leg." " Turn around." " No." " Just turn around!" " No!" "I know you're furious, but with Nicki up there," " I'd feel a lot better if she was with you." " I don't want her here." "She undermined us, Bill." "She betrayed us." "Okay okay, just forget it." "I'm sorry, but apparently, I'm powerless to do anything about Roman and seeing her just rubs it in my face." "We're not powerless." "You got to have patience." "I feel like I'm hanging on by a thread, Bill." "I know, Joey." "I know." "Both our families have been shattered by this but we can't do anything stupid right now." "We've got to remain calm." "You should wear your hair up a little more." " Huh?" " Like your bangs." "Pull 'em back." "Show your face off more." "Try it." "But I've always worn it this way." "Just try it." "Just swish 'em up a little." "Here." "Like that, see?" " I'm not sure this is right." " No, it's good." "Now let it down." "It makes you look... nicer." "Look." "Wanda fixed my hair." "Joey, wait!" "Don't go." "No, it's fine." "He likes it." "Did you run over any ducks along the way?" " No." " No?" " So where's Bill?" " Um, he didn't want to come." "Oh." "So he wanted you to come and get me?" "No." "Lura and I were just saying how much we enjoy having Nicki with us." "Weren't we?" "Bill's never appreciated Nicki properly." "The truth is she belongs here." "I draw strength from her." "You haven't treated her right." "Or should I say you don't know how to treat her." "I guess not." "Fine." "Pardon me." "Um, Nicki, the fact is, clinically speaking," " I think you might be a sociopath." " Barb, enough." "Well, I don't have to list your transgressions." "You know what they are." "I'm tired of naming them." "It does no good because you're never really remorseful anyway." "You know, sometimes I think you're happy when I make mistakes" " just so you can lord it over me." " That's ridiculous." "I know what you really think of me." "I'm just compound trash to you, Barb." "That's all I've ever been." "I'm so tired of you acting like you're better than me." "Everyone calm down." "She does the same thing to you too, Margie." "Oh, no." "Don't you try to divert from the matter at hand." "I have said I'm sorry, but then you say that I don't mean it." " What do you want me to do?" " I can't turn to you." "I can't count on you or lean on you for support with any of my problems because you have become the source of my problems." "You've just driven the love right out of me." "And I'm detaching." "Look." "This is me detaching." "I don't even know what that means." "And now I'm going home." "But you have to take her." "But they have to take her." "I'm sorry." "Barb was bad, but, Nicki, you didn't help." "I expressly said no contact with her," " didn't I?" " Well, don't look at me." "I thought we were going to Costco." "I needed ketchup." "And guess what, Bill?" "I still need it." "Even if you did forbid us from seeing her..." "I'm trying to sort through this and assess it from every angle." "I need time to do that." "That's not how we do things." "We talk through things and reach a consensus." " Margie, I tried talking to her." " Oh." "No, you didn't." "You were stubborn and mean as can be." "Mean?" "Mean?" "!" "Do you know what she has cost me?" "Do you know?" "It so happens that I'm facing being called before a church disciplinary council because of her." "I'm facing excommunication because of her entry into my marriage!" "What... what are you talking about?" "Bishop Devery and the Stake President came by and they asked some questions." " They know about us." " What?" "When?" "I'll go with you." "No, Bill, no." "You'll only draw attention to yourself." "Besides, I haven't been called for an official hearing yet." " They said they'd get back to me." " Oh, honey, I'm sorry." "No, it's all right." "I'm fine." "I was only pointing it out." "It's not like we weren't expecting it." "It's just the cost of being in this marriage, I guess." "Nicki, it's me." "This is doing neither of us any good." "I want you to come home tomorrow." "I'll leave work a little early." "We'll meet and figure out what's best for us." "End of message." "I don't understand." "Why are you being so insistent?" "I mean, why do you want to go to the temple now?" "Why are you giving me the third degree?" "I just want to go." "Yeah, but you're not worthy." "You haven't tithed." "You haven't been interviewed." "I just don't understand where this is all coming from." "Well, I'd have thought you would want this." "Well, of course I do, but the temple?" "Why don't I just take you to church instead?" "I want to take my endowments." "Well... how do you propose to get in?" "One of you is going to lend me her temple recommend." "Oh, no no no." "I can't do that." "We can't do that." "It was just a few years ago that we stopped promising to disembowel and slit throats of people who were monkeying around with temple rules and procedures." "Mother, you don't believe all that superstition." "I don't need you to go telling me what I believe or don't believe." " You'll get caught." " Cindy?" "Yes, why are you being so quiet?" "You of all people?" "I guess I'm just surprised is all." "I didn't think this mattered to you anymore." "It does." "My life is in crisis and I need to go." "What does that mean?" "What's happening?" "I just... I..." "I..." "I am begging you... as a sister and a daughter," "I'm..." "I'm..." "I am begging." " Don't beg." " Please." "Here's where you got to unscrew the drain plug." "No, here's where I take it to Quickie Lube." " Honey, they'll gouge you." " I'm kidding." "We don't have to do this tonight, you know, Dad." "Would it kill you to let your dad preoccupy himself?" "No." "I think you should forgive her." "Scott." " Oh my God." " Hey, Sarah." "Get out of here, Scott." "She doesn't want to see you." "Ben, I'll handle this." "You have any idea what you put her through?" "Do you?" " Ben!" " Ben!" "Okay, come on, inside." " You come back here, I'll do it again!" " Inside." "Go on." " Ben!" " I'm so sorry that I didn't tell you." "I can't believe you went through that alone." " I just didn't want to ruin your life." " Is it broken?" "No, I don't think so." " Sarah, get in the house." " He's bleeding." " Go!" " No!" "Sarah!" "There's nothing you can say to us, to any of us." "Stay away from my daughter." "Hey, I didn't know what happened." "I never meant to hurt her." "Okay, but I take full responsibility." "It's a little late for that." "You get in your car, you drive away and you never come back." "You understand?" "It's so pretty there when there's water in the creek." "We'll have a farewell picnic." "Don't go back." "Thanks for taking me in... but I don't belong here, Alby." "You're not still mad at me about that letter I sold, are you?" "No." "I have bigger fish to fry at the moment." "And anyway, if someone needs a letter to validate their faith, what does that say about their faith?" "Before you go, I want to share something with you." "I sold other letters... before Bill got involved." "Those pretentious greedy LDS." "They had me to the Church World Headquarters." "First, just the Office of Church Historian, but then the Church President's office." "They called me, whisked me up and down in a special private elevator." "I got them to pay me $50,000, then $70,000... for the letters I found." "They take my calls, day or night." "It felt fine." "I'm so happy for you, Alby." "It's just the beginning of what we can do together, you and me." "This gentleman with dung on his boots would like to see you." "What do you want?" "I need to talk in private." "You can meet me there when you're through." "Yes?" "Your father had the Greenes at my place and they totaled my truck." "I need that truck." "They promised they'd replace it." "My father and the Greenes were at your farm?" "Hey, Ted." " I'm sorry I'm late." " Bill." "Hello." "No problem." "I know I promised, but I couldn't wait." "I briefed Jerry on the points we discussed." "Jerry?" "Bill, why didn't you tell me you wanted to make Ted a partner?" "I have no problem with that." "If you want to fold him in for 10%, fine by me as long as it's out of your profits." "How dare you and set me up like this?" "10% of my business?" "!" " You're crazy." " Am I?" "Face it, I can make your licensing problems go away." "Because you caused them." "I am not doing this to have my way or out of some sort of misguided revenge." "Don't give me that." "I am trying to find a way to get us both off the ledge, fighting about that letter." "This gives us shared, mutual interests unless you'd like to go explain to Jerry that our spat has put your license in complete jeopardy;" "That your polygamist zealotry means more to you than his tribe's business interests, yeah?" "Then be my guest." "You know what, Ted?" "You can wrap it up in homily and heart." "You can rationalize it any way you want, but the truth of the matter is you're a prick." "Hello." "No hello?" "No "Great to see you JJ"?" "How you been?" "How's Bill?" "You can stay mute and I'll just guess." "We're fine." "Thanks." "Didn't mean to startle you." "Wanda knew I was back." "Back for good, if I have my way." "You know, I paid a big price being unsealed to the prophet's daughter." "I paid a price too." "I guess you did." "Go ahead, ask about her." "I know you want to." "How is she?" "She's fine." "Couldn't be better." "Growin' like a weed." "She's here." "Do you want to see her?" "No, I don't think so." "It's okay." "She won't recognize you." "I didn't think you'd be here." "This isn't what you think." " I'm sorry about this." " Get dressed." "Now!" "Downstairs." "And bring the sheets." "Washer, please." "Hot water." " Nicki, I am so embarrassed..." " Don't." "Don't try and talk to me like you're an adult talking to another adult because I just found you in my bed with my daughter after you impregnated and abandoned her." " But just now..." " Zip zip zip!" "I don't like you and I don't trust you." " Nicki, please don't tell." " Nicki?" " It's Mom and Dad." " It's just your Mom." " Just go hide, go on." " Thank you." "Shut up." "I thought I heard someone." "You're back?" "Yes." "Bill asked me to come home." "He's taking me to Branigan's." "Oh, well, I guess it's all blown over." "Well, you're never going to be held accountable for anything." "This degree of resentment is not attractive on you, Barb." "Now I need to go and get ready." "Yeah, me too." "I have a lot to do today before I'm excommunicated tomorrow." "Hello there." "O God, hear the words of my mouth." "O God, hear the words of my mouth." "O God, hear the words of my mouth." "What is that?" "The Second Token of the Melchizedek Priesthood." " Has it a name?" " It has." " Will you give it to me?" " I cannot." "I have not yet received it." "For this purpose I have come to converse with the Lord through the Veil." "You shall receive it through the Veil." "This is the name of the token... health in the navel, marrow in the bones, strength in the loins and in the sinews, power in the Priesthood be upon me, and upon my posterity through all generations of time," "and throughout all eternity." "What is that?" "The Second Token of the Melchizedek Priesthood... the Patriarchal Grip, the Sure Sign of the Nail." " Has it a name?" " It has." "Will you give it to me?" "I will, through the Veil... health in the navel, marrow in the bones, strength in the loins and in the sinews, power in the Priesthood be upon me and upon my posterity through all generations of time" "and throughout all eternity." "What is wanted?" "Eve, having conversed with the Lord through the Veil, desires to enter His presence." "Let her enter." "This is just a little foretaste of what eternity will look like." "This is what binds us to each other." "Oh, let's just sit for a moment and soak up this delicious feeling." "Oh, honey, what is it?" "Mother, let her have her moment." "I'm fine." "Here you are." "Oh, what?" "Tell me." "I can't." "Mommy, why don't you just let her be?" "The Stake President has called me to Love Court." "The other shoe is finally dropping." "I'm facing disciplinary hearing tomorrow." "Why didn't you tell us?" "I was embarrassed." "I was so ashamed." "No." "No." "I thought..." "I thought you were going to leave Bill." "No." "Oh... oh, I can't bear this." "I can't bear the thought of losing you." " Leave him." " Oh, Cindy." "You can stop this." "This is your chance to get away." "Just say you're sorry and be repentant." " Don't pursue the letter." " Cindy." " I didn't mean it to come to this, I didn't." " Shh!" "L..." "You didn't mean what to come to this?" "Cindy, answer my question." "I'm sorry." "Your 15 minutes are up." "I don't want to lose you." "I've thought about this a lot." "This isn't easy for me, but I love you more than you'll ever know." " Breadsticks?" " Yes, please." "What was I saying?" "You haven't said anything yet." " I need to end this marriage." " What?" "It's become clear to me through your actions... that you will only sow unrest and unhappiness for our family." "And, frankly, I think what you've done shows that you don't want to be in this marriage anyway." "Oh, no no." "Don't do that." "Don't turn this into you think I want it to be over." "If you want it to be over, just say so." " I want it to be over." " No you don't!" "I found you an apartment..." "Don's building." "It's close by." "You will not take my children away from me." "Of course I wouldn't do that." "We'll work it out so... they're part of everyone's lives." "We'll move you in on the weekend." "Bill, this is our life." "We made a sacred commitment to each other." "What about Barb and Margene?" "You haven't told them!" "You can't do this to me." "No, Bill, no way." "Barb, I know we haven't been able to come together on this." "I know you don't believe me, but you have to trust me, because Bill is about to ship me off to one of Don's cruddy apartments." "Yeah, gee, I sure wish someone would have asked me if I wanted a divorce!" "Barb, would you stop?" "What are you doing?" "I want everything of hers out of my house... everything!" "Cindy is the one who set it all in motion." " It all goes back to that darn letter." " How do you know that?" "She told me." "I went to the temple." " I went with her and my mother." " And you didn't tell me?" "Hello?" "Excuse me!" "I didn't want to seem like I was questioning you." "I didn't feel I was allowed to miss it, but I do miss it." "I miss the ritual and the sense of purpose." "Bill, we're just... we're just free-floating out here." "Barb, we really need to talk about me now." "All right, Nicki, I'm about to be cast into outer darkness." "And Bill is about to throw me out of my own home!" "Okay, I for one believe Nicki is truly sorry." "We have no structure." "We have no church." "And I'm about to be called before mine." "And, Nicki, I don't know if I want to be married to you anymore." "Okay, Barb, please." "I really need you to get back in the saddle right now, because we're about to lose everything here." "Margie is right, Bill." "You should have at least talked to us first." " But you said you wanted a separation." " Cindy." " So you want a divorce too?" " At this moment, I don't know what I want!" "Well, stop torturing me and make up your mind" "What?" "They called with a ransom demand." "It's the infamous letter." "They're your friends, the Greenes." "How... how did they find out about the letter?" "That's one of the questions the FBI may have for you." "What's your relationship to Hollis Greene?" "None whatsoever." "Well, for your benefit, I hope to heck that's true." "Ted, come here." "You know as well as I do that the church will never release that letter." "I know that now." "I called the church when I got the demand." "They made it clear that this has to be kept quiet." "It can't turn into an Elizabeth Smart thing." "Well, that's probably in their best interests, but not necessarily yours." "I should have never gotten involved with this." "I should have never gotten involved." "I brought this on us." "What should I do?" "We do whatever we have to to get your daughter back." "Thank you... for being here." "You're welcome." "From the moment that I saw Kim Lee," "I knew she belonged to me." "L..." "I really didn't think that it would matter." "I mean, the way that you carried on about that letter," "I really thought you had moved way beyond the church." "We'll never get the original letter back from the church, but I have some proof that the letter existed." "I think the Greenes will settle for it, if you can talk them into it." "Selma's your sister." "She can get Hollis to listen to you." "All right." "Let me see if I understand you." "Alby sold the letter and Hollis kidnapped some girl to get it." "I help you get the girl, you do what you can to get my probation lifted." "That's the deal?" "You may enable my return to the compound." "I'll have to find some special way to thank you." "I'm doing this for the greater good." "As if there were such a thing." ""More fun than a barrel of monkeys"!" " Moron!" " You think this is some kind of joke?" "I'd rather see you rot in jail for the rest of your life than have to come to you with this." "I scratch your back, you scratch mine, huh?" "You're exploiting a kidnapping to get your "prophet" off." "You'll understand if I'm a little hesitant to be duped by you people again and in front of the FBI." "I had nothing to do with Nicki working here." "I have an authentication report." "Roman thinks he might be able to get the Greenes to accept it." "But for the FBI to act, you've got to sign off on it first." "Three days ago you wanted to get him for an alleged murder of Kathy Marquart." " Now you want him free." " What would you do?" "A child's life is on the line." "The Greenes murder with impunity." "No one's ever been able to bring them to justice." "You could." " Why would we trust him?" " Because Roman is desperate to get back on the compound." "I will not recommend lifting his probation until after the girl is safely released." "We get her, he can go back to that stupid rock he loves so much." "Oh, there's one more thing." "You should know there's an open investigation going on upstairs on you and your wife's involvement in obstruction of justice." "This is a limited-use deal." "When we get evidence of your involvement in Kathy Marquart's death, or any other crime, you're indicted." "You better be on the level." "I know every hidey-hole they hide in." "I need to get my blue dress shirt." "Are the boys asleep?" "Soundly." "You think they'll get her back?" "I don't know." "Your father's making a deal... with Ray Henry." "Are you hungry?" "I could heat something up for you." "No, thanks." " Barb?" " I dreamt I was cast out into outer darkness." "It was black." "It was so black." "I was alone and... and I knew you couldn't find me." "You won't be cast into outer darkness." "You're a righteous woman." "You're a good woman." "I understand, Barb." "I understand what you're feeling." "You passed through the church for 15 years." "I've been in it all my life for six generations." "You can't possibly know what it's like." "I don't know why we've been called to live in a time when no one holds the keys and there's no one to lead us... when the church is as corrupt as Roman and we drift in between," "but I know there's a reason." "We won't be cast into outer darkness." "Have faith." "I'm so scared." "If you're doing what I think you're doing..." "You don't sneak up on people." "That's bad news, what you're up to, and you'd better stop it." "It's unnatural and it's ghoulish." "You're playing with a loaded gun." "It's a loaded gun, boy." "She's married to your father, for heaven's sake." "What's going on?" "Uh..." "Jodean, Brother Henrickson," "Sister Lois." "I have some information for you." "The Greenes were back and staying at the McConkie farm under the direction and care of my father." "They were there the night Kathy disappeared." "A pickup truck was totaled in an accident." "I thought you might like to know this." "I wanted to say I'm sorry before, about the hair." "I didn't mean to spook you." "It's okay, I guess." "I just..." "I don't want to... encourage Wanda to do things like that." "It can get confusing." "I understand." "I can feel her here." "Does that sound crazy?" "It used to be if she'd get a toothache, I'd get one too." "One time, I was away in Kansas for the summer and she broke her arm and... and I called our mother and I said," ""I know Kathy must have done something because my left arm won't stop throbbing."" "And wouldn't you know..." "Wait!" "Jodean!" "Wait, Jodean!" "The dead girl's in the truck!" "The dead girl's in the truck again!" "Hey!" "Come back!" "The dead girl's in the truck again." "After dinner..." "I've spoken to your father." "He's agreed to unseal us." "Barb!" "Marge!" "Help." "He wants to take me to be unsealed." " You can't!" " Bill." "Why are you looking at me like I'm the monster?" "But I don't want to lose Nicki for all time and eternity." "Barb, please." "I know you're angry right now because of what the church is doing, but that doesn't give you an excuse to just chuck everything." "Your family ought to mean more to you than some church anyway." "Margie, there isn't any difference between the two." "Bill, you forgave Ana!" "Both of you did." "Why not me?" "Because your transgressions threaten this family's ability to survive." "You can't blame everything on me." "I'm not, but the damage you inflict on this family, on this marriage, is dangerous." "There is something in you, something deeply broken, and I don't know how to fix it." "Well, let's begin." "Are you taping this hearing?" "No." "Let me ask you again:" "Are you taping this hearing?" "No I am not." "Nothing in your purse, on your phone?" "Would you mind if we removed your bag from the room?" "Have you had some time to pray and reflect upon your situation since we spoke?" "I have." "Are you still upholding your temple covenants?" "Yes, but my interpretation might conflict with yours." "Well, for example, are you wearing your garments?" "Uh, President Davis, are you asking me to tell you what kind of underwear I have on?" "Okay, let's get back to the matter at hand." "Barb, there is still an opportunity for you to find your way back to the church." "Will you repent?" "You know that polygamy is a misguided abomination." "It's a shameful practice that has no place in the modern church." "Was this hearing requested directly from church headquarters?" "Did you receive instruction?" "I don't see how that's relevant to your decision to live in clear, open and deliberate opposition to the church and its leaders." "I believe this is not just about polygamy, but about a certain letter that my husband helped to purchase for the church." "I believe I am being punished for trying to bring to light the truth that letter exposed about the practice of the Principle." "Sister Henrickson, as our Elder Packer has said before, we all know that there is a temptation to tell everything, whether it's worthy or faith-promoting or not." "Some things that are true are not very useful." "You... you openly disparage my family, but you hide the truth about our history." "And that's the reason you don't want this hearing taped." "No, Barb." "We sincerely want to help you escape this life." "Don't turn against us." "Will you repent?" "No." "I love the church." "I love it more than I can say, but I believe the church and its leaders are in grave error on polygamy and on the kinds of marriages and families it creates." "I can't forsake my family." "What will it serve you to have your family now when your eternal salvation is lost?" "Think about it, Barb." "I have." "Barbara Dutton Henrickson, henceforth, your name shall be removed from the records of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints." "You will not be allowed to partake of the sacrament." "The sacred ordinances that bind you to your family, your ancestors and your progenitors" " for all eternity..." " # E'en though # ...are severed." " # It be a cross #" "# That raiseth me #" "# Still all #" "# My song shall be #" "# Nearer #" "# My God #" "# To Thee #" "# Nearer #" "# My God #" "# To Thee #" "# Nearer #" "# To Thee #" "# Though like #" "# A wanderer #" "# The sun #" "# Gone down... #" "Joey?" "You in here?" "Joey, where are you?" "Hey." "Mom told me you were here." "She's worried about you, Joey." "Why don't you come down?" "He murdered Kathy." "And this is where it happened." "This is where she was before she died." "We have to have evidence." "I have all I need." "He was working with the Greenes and they murdered her." "How do you know that?" "Alby." "Joey, I helped Roman make a deal with the prosecutor." "He's giving them information about the Greenes in exchange for a lifting of his probation." "How could you do that?" "There's a little girl, Joey." "She's been kidnapped." " So it's okay that Kathy's dead?" " Of course not, but this girl's life is at stake." "What if it had been Barb, Bill?" "What if it had been Nicki?" "His only punishment has been exile." "Roman will be punished." "He took her from me before we were married, before we were sealed." "If I had been sealed," "I could see her again." " It'd have been worth it to die." " Stop it!" "A horrible thing happened, but don't let it take your life." "Joey, you have a wife and a son and they need you." "You just go home to your three wives." "Nothing ever touches you." "You don't know anything about my life, about what I face every day!" "I can't sleep!" "Heavenly Father's throwing every trial in the book at me!" "Yeah, well maybe it's the Heavenly Father's judgment, Bill." "Maybe it's His retribution." "We're not brothers anymore." "Joey."