"Johan" "Wat?" "Moet ik.." "Moet ik dat echt doen?" "Kom op." "Nou, ik ben Johan van der Sterre." "Ik heb iemand vermoord." "Ik begrijp dat ik dat niet moeten doen en ik heb er spijt van." "Je mag een ander niet van het leven beroven." "Zo goed?" "Iemand vermoord?" "Ja, mijn vader" "En hoe heb je je vader vermoord?" " Ja, kom op, ik..." "Hoe, Johan?" "Met een hamer." "Eerst op zijn voorhoofd en toen op zijn achterhoofd en twee keer op zijn rechterslaap." "Toen heb ik zijn rechter knie en zijn schouderblad verbrijzeld en daarna net zo lang in zijn gezicht, tot hij stil bleef liggen." "Waarom was je zo kwaad op hem?" "Vanwege Sharon." " Je zusje?" "Kijk, dat hij aan mij zat, dat was tot daaraan toe, maar ik kon hem toch niet zomaar z'n gang laten gang met haar, of wel dan?" "Vertel eens wat meer over je zusje." "Leefde ze nog op dat moment?" "Ik heb dat al zo vaak gezegd." "Daar heb ik niks mee te maken, Dat heeft pap gedaan." "Ik heb haar niet kunnen redden." "Ik praat niet goed wat ik gedaan heb." "Ik begrijp dat ik anders had moeten reageren" "Ik doe dit nou al zes jaar." "De 23ste kom ik voor de rechter en het enige dat ik wil, is bewijzen dat ik geleerd heb van mijn fouten... en dat ik normaal kan functioneren in de maatschappij, maar hier kan dat niet, hier kan ik dat niet bewijzen." "Your lawyer has said that he is going to ask termination, but Johan, our advise to the court on but Johan, our advise to the court on that is sadly negative" "After all that time you don't see clear enough what you did" "As long as you keep on blaming your father for the death of your sister, we find the risk is too big." "So I have to lie to get out of here?" "We've tried to take the past in account, but it has to end somewhere, Johan." "The judge gave you three tries, we won't take you longer than six years." "Yeah.. so what then?" "Our advise to the court is the long-stay department." "I have to speak to my lawyer, this is..." "See, Johan, formally speaking your case is reconsidered every two years, but no one has ever come out of long-stay yet." "In fact this means life imprisonment." "It is as simple as that" "I talked to your mother, explained the situation to her, but she hasn't responded" "Well, she has to come, you have to summon her." "The court can't force her to." "Your mother did not want to come either" "And you can't see her yourself, because your request for short leave has been denied" "Do I have to read it for you?" "No." "So, Johan, and I know it is a sensible issue, but if I were you, I would start thinking about a partial confession." "No, I am not going to lie about something like this." "My mother won't let me stay in here, truly." "Hey mom, it's me, my case is on the 23rd of September at 11:30" "You only have to say what dad did to us." "It is really important, mom." "And I can see you are ashamed of what happened and I know you are upset with me" "But you really have to help me now, mom." "Well, call me if you want to, or call my lawyer." "Alright, bye." "Ready?" "No, hold on, I might receive a call." "The court decides a resumption of criminal provision and extends the measure" "The convicted will be transferred as soon as possible to a long-stay clinic." "Your lawyer will get a note of the verdict, the case is hereby closed." "There you go." "Thank you." "And one for Johan." "Did we all sleep well, guys?" "There you go, one for Henk." "Good, I want you to look..." "We're going to take a little walk." "Don't be afraid." "DON'T BE AFRAID." "I don't like that." "Hey dickhead, on your knees." "Yeah go sit on your knees." "I'm going to cut your throat if you're scared!" "You shave your vagina, right?" "I knew it!" "Open the door!" "I'm going to cut her!" "Johan, we have to go back." "It's the best thing to do, you know it, right?" "Can you help me for a moment?" "Come out of the car!" "Mom?" "Easy Johan, It'll be over soon." "Don't cry, Johan." "Don't cry, Johan." "Think of nice things!" "You're a good kid." "Daddy's good kid." "Hey ladies, do you need ride?" "We can catch the bus if we hurry." "Can I maybe sleep at your place?" "Why?" "Just, for fun." "What about your mother?" "Fuck her." "Hey, where do you need to go?" "We'll take the bus." "Police, put away the gun!" "You, slowly walk to the door." "Come on!" "Open it." "Everything will be ok." "I'm going to count to three, and we will both get in." "One, two ... three." "Put your seatbelt on." "Put your safety belt on." "Shit." "God dammed." "What is your name?" "Tessa." "What?" "Tessa." "Tessa, pretty name." "I'm Johan." "How old are you?" "13" "Listen, this all looks a lot worse than it is." "I am maybe even more scared than you are." "I'm gonna drop you off where I picked you up, alright?" "Do you have a cell phone?" "Can I maybe use it?" "Yeah?" "I'm going to keep it short, I don't want them to trace me." "I have a hostage, a girl." "Jesus, Johan, you have to let her go." "No, I have to talk to my mother." "Johan, listen to me, they found that therapist." "She is raped and murdered." "I didn't do that." "Then it is even more vital to turn yourself in." "Don't make it worse than it already is." "Worse than it is?" "I'm going to let her go after I talk to my mother." "Are you going to take care of that or not?" "No, I can't make that happen." "I don't know where she is." "When can I go home?" "I have to talk to someone." "After that I will let you go." "Come on, get out." "You'll have to go in here." "Yeah, sorry, but I have to make sure you're not going anywhere" "But I will suffocate." "No, not that fast, I will be right back." "Watch your head." "I will be right back, truly." "Hi grandma." "When did you get out?" "Do you have something to eat?" "Yes." "Yeah." "Where is mother?" "I don't know that. truly." "She left." "Where to?" "I don't know." "Grandma.." "Where is she?" "I can't tell you that." "Come out." "Come on." "Are you ok?" "Wait." "Breathe in the bag." "Easy." "In, out, in, out." "Easy." "Are you feeling a bit better?" "Can you read this handwriting?" "Greetings, everything ok here." "In case of emergency call with 032-4786-685649" "I am at nr 25." "Wilma." "Camping Le roche de la Fierge complain de la tour Ardenne, La Belgique." "Thanks." "Will you walk with me?" "You can have something nice." "I actually have to go to the bathroom." "Quite bad.." "I can't pee while you're standing there." "Hey, is everything alright?" "Yeah, let her." "Want to go?" "Yeah." "Hey, listen." "I know you don't want this." "Neither do I. But its how it is." "I want to make a deal with you." "Here is someone that can prove my innocence." "That's the person I have to talk to." "After that I will let you go." "Ok?" "Why did you take me?" "Why?" "Why not my friend?" "Because you have something special." "You are different." "How different?" "There are enough girls like your friend." "But you.." "You have something special." "What?" "You are a good person." "Tessa, help me please." "So from now on we will trust each other?" "Come, we're changing cars." "Here, vitamins." "Is it good?" "Yes." "It's good my mother can't see this." "She'd go crazy" "You can decide yourself what you eat, right!" "Can you maybe give me a hand?" "Here, or won't your mother allow it?" "And now we are .. here?" "here." "The best route is through Luik, here." "Where did you learn to read a map like that?" "My father taught me." "Do you have a nice father?" "He's dead." "For how long?" "Since I was 10." "I found him myself." "He was all blue." "My mother said he drank himself to death." "And now you live with your mother?" "Yes, and her new boyfriend." "Ok, and from now on follow Liége." "Liege?" "Didn't we have to go through Luik?" "Yeah, that is called Liége in French." "Who do we have to talk to in Belgium?" "My mother." "Why don't you just call her?" "Because she doesn't want to talk to me." "Why not?" "Because she blames me of everything." "Of what?" "It doesn't matter, it is all nonsense." "Really." "Yeah, and now?" "It should be somewhere around here." "Somewhere." "It's not addressed too good." "What?" "Nothing." "If you can do a better job.." "I didn't say anything!" "Take a left." "I think we'll have to ask someone." "Do you speak French?" "Un petit peut." "Ask there." "We're close." "Hand me the map." "Number 25.." "How long was it since you spoke to your mother?" "A few years or something." "And she didn't come to visit you all that time?" "No." "hey mom." "Is it ok if we come in?" "Grandma told me you were here." "Who is this?" "Tessa." "Would you like something to drink?" "No she doesn't want anything." "It is important for the court that you write down a statement." "I already did that, 14 years ago." "Yeah, but now what really happened." "I don't have to testify." "Yes, they changed it." "Why are you doing this?" "Mom." "Just write down you were too scared to help us." "Father is dead, you don't have to be scared anymore." "You are very ill, Johan." "nonsense." "Just write down what happened." "What happened?" "Yeah." "Your father caught you with your sister, then you hit his brains out." "Do you want me to write that down?" "And do you want me to write down as well that Sharon wasn't the only one?" "That there were a lot more other girls?" "What are you talking about more girls?" "Get out of my life!" "Why aren't you helping me?" "You are completely insane." "Oh yeahh?" "Tell me to my face that father never touched me." "The police, please." "Say it, mom." "You should never have been born." "Johan." "Yeah, I killed my mother." "Are you happy now?" "And now?" "What should I do now?" "The girl, is she alright?" "Yeah of course she's fine." "Where are you?" "In Belgium." "You have to turn yourself in Johan, now." "No of course, not, I'm not going to jail here." "At least let the girl go and come to The Netherlands." "Try to cross the border, I'll see what I can do." "You're going to make something happen?" "Yeah, I'm going to try to get you back safe." "Go away!" "Go away!" "You have to undress." "No." "Else you'll get a cold." "Is it true?" "What?" "Did you kill your sister?" "No." "Truly." "I swear it." "And the other girls?" "Which other girls?" "Your mother was talking about other girls." "Tessa, my mother was crazy." "It was my dad." "Really." "He should have never touched my sister." "And now?" "We're going back to The Netherlands and... and I'll let you go." "Really?" "And what about you?" "I'll see." "We're going to need a new car anyway." "They've seen this one." "Pick one." "Choose." "The right one is the gas, and next to it the brakes yeahh?" "Those you have to control with your right foot." "And left is the clutch, you control it with your left foot." "And the handbrake." "There, let the clutch go real slow and hit the gas a bit." "Go sit up straight." "You are handsome, you shouldn't hide that." "I am not handsome." "I have weird large nostrils." "And I have braces, weird gums, my feet are too big, my thighs are too thick, and the rest of my body is too thin." "People think I have anorexia." "Look, Chantal is handsome, I always get all the losers." "Nah, Chantal is maybe pretty, but you are handsome." "Now go sit up straight." "You shouldn't hide your face like that." "That's a shame." "Do you really think I'm handsome?" "Yes." "Are you falling for me?" "We have to go" "When I grow up, I'll be a movie star and I'll marry a musician that is a drug-addict." "So I can save him." "Like Kate Moss and Pete Doherty, but he has to be more handsome." "Pete who?" "Leave it." "Johan?" "Yes, did you manage to figure something out?" "Before you continue, I am not alone, there is someone else on the line" "Johan, this is Maarten van Heemskerk, I am from the police in Rijnmond, can I be on a first-name-basis?" "I am listening in Johan." "Johan, firstly we are worried about Tessa." "Everything is fine with Tessa." "Yes, but I would like to speak to her myself." "Can I?" "Tessa, say something." "Hello?" "No say that everything is fine." "Everything fine." "Well, was that it?" "Johan we found your grandmother." "What happened Johan?" "Don't answer Johan." "Were you that angry?" "Johan, don't answer him." "Joris this was not the deal." "You fill her up." "Fill her up for 50." "It's not enough." "How come?" "You have to pay 78." "Why didn't you fill her up for 50?" "I said so right?" "Sorry." "Do you have some?" "I'm not going to pay your gasoline." "You'll get it back." "Maybe I can use my PIN card." "God dammed." "Are you ok?" "Shouldn't I have done it?" "Of course you did." "Jerks." "I have something for you." "A remembrance." "They are kid's earrings." "It's the gesture that counts, right?" "A grey Mercedes, BKD 723." "What does he want?" "Your license and registration." "I think its the Dutch guy with the girl." "Tessa, listen." "I'm going to be mean to you but it's all acting, alright?" "I'll count to three and we'll both get out." "Get your bag" "One, two, three." "Back!" "Tessa, on your knees." "What are keys in French?" "L[e] clefs." "LE CLEFS" "walk, get in." "Johan!" "Johan, van Heemskerk here." "It's good you're calling." "The Belgian police is on our tail, they have to go." "We are in contact with the Belgian authorities, but I'm not sure if we can..." "Hey, make it happen cause I'm going to The Netherlands." "We're like Bonnie and Clyde." "Who?" "Leave it." "He is heading to the Dutch border, he is armed keep distance and wait for assistance." "He's leaving the sector." "Stay on him, we are consulting with the Dutch authorities." "We'll take over from here." "This side is sealed." "There is too much press." "We need backup." "I want to get through, god dammed." "yes.... yes." "It's your mother." "Tessa here." "Hi mom." "Mom, there is no need to cry." "I'm coming home." "He promised." "No he won't hurt me." "He's sweet to me." "Mom, sorry, for everything." "I really want to come home." "I didn't mean it like this." "Love you too." "Johan?" "This is the Belgian police, can you understand me?" "Yeah, pretty alright." "Johan, we want you to let Tessa go." "I'm letting her go when we're in The Netherlands, alright?" "We are ordered to handle it here and now." "But Tessa has to be freed first." "We won't take any risks." "Do you understand what I mean with that?" "Either Tessa and I are going to the NL together or we die here together." "We're coming to you right now." "We're going to get her, and you will surrender." "Isn't it better to let me go?" "Johan, let her go." "Now." "Get out." "I will make sure no harm comes to you." "I'm taking her back to The Netherlands, alright?" "!" "Dickheads." "What do we do?" "Can we take the risk?" "We're still deliberating with the NL, I'm going as fast as I can." "This is your last chance, Johan." "If you don't surrender now we will intervene." "We have a clear shot." "Come sit on my lap, please." "Come on, come on, on my lap." "Too late, dammed, the girl is in the way." "Why aren't they deciding?" "What's taking so long?" "I don't want to die." "No one dies, Tess." "Truly." "They don't shoot children." "Trust me." "You take the wheel, ok?" "Attention, let them through, don't harm the girl." "Back off, let them through." "We can't just let them go, right?" "It is only 20 km to the border." "They'll be waiting for him there." "See, they don't do a thing." "Those coppers to the side as well." "Don't shoot, let them through." "If you hit the girl, there will be an international riot." "And continue.." "Bastards." "Good girl." "They won't do anything, they won't do anything." "We'll pursuit him from the sky till the border." "Let the Dutch do it themselves." "Good going, Tessa." "You don't have to be afraid." "Everything is in control." "Why are we stopping?" "I have a visual." "I cant keep the press back any longer." "You're a movie star." "I want to go away from here." "I want to go home." "You, come here." "Yeah you, piss-stain." "Who are you?" "Udo..." "Udo Clement." "Listen up, we're going back to The Netherlands in a moment, if I see any of you or any of you over there, then this dickhead dies first after that it's Tessa's turn and I will shoot myself through the head." "Now get out of the way!" "And you come with me." "God dammed." "Turn right now, right!" "I lost them!" "Get out, get out." "Ok piss-stain, your wallet." "HURRY UP" "I'm not the police." "I am really a reporter." "Look for something with his address." "Tessa, come on." "Listen, fucking reporter, I know where you live now, if I feel like it I'll pay a visit and I'll break you and your wife and kids as well." "So you're going to do exactly what I tell you, ok?" "OK?" "ok, ok.... ok." "What is it?" "I want to go home." "Then I'll just take you home." "Really?" "Yeah, really." "There they are!" "We have contact again." "Couldn't find anything better this quickly." "Hey, sleepy head." "We're here, you can go home." "What are you going to do now?" "That doesn't matter." "Now come on, get out of here." "Yeah, tell them they can come pick me up." "I am where I picked her up." "In a beige Subaru with Belgian license plate." "Tessa is safe." "Come on." "You're not going to surrender, right?" "I'm not worth it to live, Tess." "I am only evil." "What?" "you're really not only evil." "You could've hurt me so much, you didn't hurt me at all." "You have to go back to the clinic." "I'll write you, I'll visit you." "You have to go, come on." "Go." "You can't die, you don't deserve that." "You have to go home." "We'll drive back to the clinic together." "I'll write you every week, I swear." "You can't save me, Tess." "I'm not a musician with a drug-addiction." "I'm staying in the car." "I'm staying with you." "Why are we stopping here?" "I'm going back to the clinic, Tess, really." "But I want to show you something first." "I really want us to keep seeing each other." "And that you'll write me and stuff." "But..." "Then I want you to to really know who I am." "Come." "Hey, come on." "You just said it yourself, If I wanted to hurt you, I would've already done it." "Come on." "It's ok, come." "I will be right back." "This is what I wanted to show you." "My mother was right, Tess." "About my sister about those other girls." "Easy." "Hey easy, easy." "Breathe slowly." "Tessa, hey." "Breathe slowly, Tessa." "Tessa, easy, easy." "Easy." "It's over in a moment." "It's over in a moment." "I'm sorry." "I'm sorry I don't want this." "I don't want this, Tessa, honestly." "I'm sorry, I really am, you don't deserve this." "girl..." "Tessa..."