"He had a nightmare again?" "I can't sleep either" "He is so little." "It is horrible to live with them" "Can't we hide him at the neighbour's place?" "Don't be silly, mom" "Your son will go crazy" "He will pull down our house" "Let him drink more milk tomorrow morning then" "There is nothing over there" "I don't like to sleep" "Sleeping takes time off life" "And I will have nightmares like that" "So I always fake sleeping" "Then I heard adults talk about topics I shouldn't know" "Like my uncles say..." "These two generations are the most unfortunate" "After one hundred years or so" "Computers can save human memories" "Then iniect into a new born baby" "People won't die then I think that is possible" "When I think about such a major issue, I can hardly sleep" "I Grandma took me to a fortune-teller who said I will only survive for thirty years" "Not sure if enough for me to finish university, get married and have a baby" "She cries every time they talk about this" "She is a tough woman" "Single handedly raised seven kids" "They say when I was born..." "Mom, let's go to see your grandchild" "Boy or girl?" "Girl, of course" "Let me finish washing clothes first" "Mom, I am lust kidding." "It is a boy!" "What?" "!" "Why are you here?" "People may swap our baby" "My parents are so generous" "Grandma likes me, so they gave me to her" "Until my younger brother is born" "They get me back as a baby-sitter and servant" "Saying it is time to train me up" "The first grandchild of Wan family is weak" "Get all kind of disease" "Measles, asthma, whooping cough" "Makes everybody busy, especially grandma" "The earliest memory of my life is like this" "They said I am a clever kid" "But even if I am a dumb I can tell who love me the most in this world" "Grandma, when I grow up, I will carry you to see the doctor" "When you grow up, grandma can die with peace" "Why do you want to die?" "I don't want to, but everybody has to" "Will I die too?" "You are still young, have a long way to live" "Only old people die?" "Grandma, where will you go after death?" "I will go to hell" "Maybe to meet your grandpa I have never seen grandpa ls he dead?" "I am not sure." "I haven't seen him for a long time" "Grandma, if you go to see grandpa... I can't see you any more" "Grandma, why can't you live forever?" "Good boy, don't cry I don't want to leave you too" "How about this..." "grandma can teach you a way" "So that we can see each other after death, okay?" "Don't cry, be a good boy" "Grandma, I go to find granny Erhu" "You should play with her more often I am afraid of darkness, but we live at the 4th floor attic" "The stairs are dark even in daytime" "Every step is different" "But I memorize them all" "Rushing down with my eyes closed." "Then I will not be so scared I can't let the adults laugh at me" "One catty White rabbit candy" "alright" "One catty White rabbit candy" "I give you extra" "Wait, you forget the change" "Take your time" "Granny Erhu is great." "She can neither hear nor speak" "But she is here everyday, playing wonderful music" "Granny Erhu is a beggar." "Grandma tells me not to give her money" "Buy her food instead and she will be more joyful" "Then, one day... I never ask grandma again, because I already understand" "One day she will leave me too" "Amid the fear of grandma's mortality" "We, my brother and I, have grown up" "And it is time to leave grandma" "Moving to Hong Kong with parents" "I can't bear to part, but I am excited about the new life I also feel stronger" "No longer afraid to be bullied by my barbaric parents" "Can't you lust fold the quilt after you get up?" "We got to unfold it again when we go to bed, so why the trouble?" "Isn't it better to be neat and tidy?" "You can fold your quilt if you like, we don't need that I wonder how you can go to bed without taking a bath, I just can't" "Perhaps you are dirtier than us" "How can you speak to your mom this way?" "You are a bad model" "Just like the damn old rogue, always walk away when scolded" "Even the old rogue couldn't stand her" "He told me a secret when he left" "That my brother may not be his son" "Let's go to Victoria Park." "I want to swing" "He really doesn't resemble me at all" "Learn swimming first." "Is your swimming trunk on?" "No" "Anyway, what is the difference?" "I don't feel I am his son either" "Our mighty and everlasting lord" "Affiliate with the humanity of dead appear on us, your one and only son" "Bring us with his immortal new light" "Our mighty and everlasting lord" "I Make where the death occur also where the life revive" "Our mighty and everlasting lord, rescue us from eternal death" "Resurrected from the dead, bestows us eternal life" "Our mighty and everlasting lord" "We praise you all times" "Naturally" "Somehow, I have joined a mission school I have special feelings towards this topic" "To me, that is the most useful knowledge we learn in school" "The others, after examinations l don't think they are of much use in the rest of my life" "Speaking of the rest of my life, my time may be less than others" ""The spring rain had just got down;" "the summer sun is already over head"" ""the autumn breeze blows people elder;" "there is no way to remain fifteen"" "Are you fifteen?" "Sixteen, just passed the birthday" "Less than a half is left I suddenly started writing a diary" "Somebody might reconstruct my memories, someday after my death" "Then I can reborn" "Hey boy, that is enough for your whole life" "Five dollars each" "Here, sixty dollars" "Though the chance is close to zero" "Unless I have great achievements in my life" "And become a celebrity to be remembered" "Hey, you gave twenty dollars more" ""22/6/1984, Deng Xiao Ping told Sir Chung Sze-yuen that"" ""Hong Kong will implement "one country, two systems", for fifty years invariable"" ""Who cares, I won't live that long"" ""22/1 1/1986,"" ""Tyson becomes the new heavyweight world champion"" ""Today is my brother's 16th birthday too, but nobody think he can..."" ""19/10/1987, Wall Street crashes!"" ""1 1/2/1990, Tyson is knocked out!"" ""1991 , a new legislation is enacted... in Hong Kong to decriminalize homosexual acts"" "Come on Ivan, we are leaving I got to finish my work." "I will join the night snack" "You have to pay your share then" "That's fine" "Leave him alone lf he is here, we have to turn on the light" "For him to do his homework I agree." "But we can't sing duets without him" "Hey, I am a guy too" "You are a guy." "He is a handsome guy" "Oh yes." "When he sings English songs" "He looks like Keanu Reeves" "Hey Eva, isn't Keanu Reeves your favorite idol?" "Hey Ivan, later" "Hey don't stay so late man, you are killing my image" "Take care and good-night" "The deadline is approaching." "I must work to my best" "Let my parent regret despising me... and not letting me go to university" "Let grandma be proud of me" "That kid is workaholic" "Yeah, he works on weekends too" "See he doesn't have much time for a girlfriend" "Oh maybe he is targeting Miss Universe lsn't your daughter graduating from LA sometime soon?" "Yeah I would like to match them" "But I don't want to mess with their love live" "Finally I have got my own premises" "Nobody would order me to be neat and tidy here" "I can get naked anytime anywhere I admit that I have a bit of narcissism and exhibitionism i enjoy freedom, can't stand fetter" "I am no longer afraid of loneliness and darkness I am afraid of nothing, and that feels great" "But..." "Can I be not afraid of death?" "Welcome to "Go for IT" again, I am Neng Chan" "We have got two IT x-gens here" "Would you introduce yourselves?" "I am Ivan, from Times Digital I am Josh Aviv, Magical Software, from Israel" "Oh, now we will go bilingual" "What are your specialties, guys?" "Telecommunications" "We provide compression technology" "To transfer high volume of images at high speed" "We do data mining" "Which means, their technologies... simplify our information world" "Can you tell us how long you've been in the industry?" "5 years 1 5 years" "Wow, you look younger than that" "Thank you I didn't go to university" "And started working when I was still in secondary school" "You sound like Bill Gates" "Well, except that he had a rich father to support him" "The young men get on well, and I will translate later" "Go on guys, I don't exist" "Are you gay?" "Excuse me?" "Ivan, you heard me." "Are you gay?" "I...is this relevant...relevant to our topic?" "Sure, I mean, people like us find it very hard to keep girlfriends" "Cos' they don't understand our passion with computers" "Well, maybe, yeah" "And besides, 90 percent of IT people are male" "So the chance to make a boyfriend must be greater" "Yeah" "So are you gay?" "Hey, that is my question" "Yeah, right" "Well, I don't think so" "Think?" "!" "No. I mean, no... I have never had sex with a man, okay?" "Okay" "But I do have friends who are gay" "And have no problem with them whatsoever" "Well, well, well..." "That's a standard answer from the celebrities, right?" "Two handsome guys aren't an item yet, but stay tuned" "We will be back after a brief commercial" "Sometimes I go to gym six days a week" "Boxing is my second hobby" "Since I have not been dating, people begin to think I could be gay" "So I must look more masculine I can't accept being sissy I don't understand why they have markets" "For guys who love a sissy, shall we call them gay or straight?" "I have promised to come, I told you" "I have to work, I have no choice" "Ivan" "Windson" "Hey Vincent Ivan?" "I haven't seen you before." "Are you a new member?" "Yes." "You must have exercised for long?" "Looking so fit" "You are not bad either" "Which level of tae kwon do?" "Black belt, level one only" "You are a boxer too?" "Yes. I usually play boxing and Thai boxing I plan to learn it" "We should learn from each other some day" "How about now?" "Do you have any appointment?" "I have a date tonight." "Let's do it next time." "Deal" "Nice to meet you" "We work in the same field" "Oh really?" "Software or hardware?" "Oh, you are from Times." "We can cooperate then" "Combining hard and soft, like fighting with two swords I...parked my car here." "Shall I give you a ride?" "No, thanks." "Bus stop is over there." "Bye" "You didn't ask me where we are going?" "Your choice" "Have faith in me?" "Sure." "Why not?" "At least, I have faith in the car" "Are you a car fan?" "Men love this kind of car" "We can go farther then" "When we arrive at Sai Kung, I will let you drive" "Great!" "Wow...yes" "Thank you" "So your name is Windson I didn't realize until seeing your name card" "You drive like a lunatic too I am the son ofwind" "My chinese name is also Wind" "Matching your surname Cloud" "The Storm Riders" "You are Wind" "You are Cloud" "One more thing we match each other" "Nobody around in midnight, dare to skinny-dip?" "Sure, why not?" "You'd seen my everything in sauna room anyway" "You were showing off" "You were peeping lt is my turn tonight" "Not bad" "Yours better" "How can you tell?" "By points?" "No, I mean..." "At the sauna, you already knock me out" "You are absolutely my type..." "Or I wouldn't be so aggressive..." "Actually..." "When you began to chat with me, you were so polite I thought you were a missionary" "You know, people in HK seldom communicate with others" "You are so nice I am flattered" "But I think there is misunderstanding between us" "Weren't you approached by guys before?" "Maybe..." "But I...wouldn't sense..." "You have never mentioned your girlfriend, I thought you are single" "She is in mainland China" "Hutchson 369 channel 9799, Code 9979" "Mr. Lin said, "Ivan, I am sorry I am not experienced." "I don't know how to react" "Please forgive me" "Take care." "Windson"" "Ivan, I need a partner for Latin dance lesson." "Can you help me?" "Maybe it is because of Windson" "Or curiosity, even vanity" "She is the most proud girl in the company" "And I say yes eventually" "How can I put on such clothes?" "Latin dance is like that." "Move on" "Oh no" "Oh yes" "Sir" "This is Henry." "This is Ivan" "Hi" "Hi Ivan, did you learn Latin before?" "No?" "That is perfect" "I will teach you Rumba later, very romantic" "Just a moment" "Your turn" "What?" "Me?" "Of course" "Do you want to be a man or a lady?" "Man" "Don't you know that, I don't eat uncooked food?" "You only eat cooked food, okay" "Dancing is weird" "Strangers become lovers." "Lovers become couples" "Couple becomes enemies lt depends on your objective" "Think it over before start" "Why don't you drink?" "Cheers, for cooked food" "Yeah, cheers" " Be quick" " You two really can drink" "Dancing is weird..." "AImodovar" "One moment" "Cooked food..." " Don'tyou feel hot?" " Hot" " Take off your clothes" " Okay..." " l will do it myself" " Why are you so nervous?" "Let a girl to take the initiative, aren't you a man?" "Wait for me." "I need to use the washroom first" "Wait again?" "For what?" "Wait for me at room" " No - l will come in soon" " You drink too much as a dancer" " Can you handle this at all?" "Handle what?" "is it necessary to cry like that?" "Just because of no sex..." "What about me then?" "We didn't make it even being drunk like that" "Naturally nothing happen afterwards" "But she purposely makes people speculate... there is something between us" "Sorry Jasmine, I will get back to you on this Ivan, you know this is important I do" "What?" "You asked me to do it" "And I did." "See Ivan" "Miyoshi" "Please take a seat I will talk to you later" "Until a terrible thing happens..." ""4/26l1 994"" ""China Air Airbus A300 crashed in Nagoya Airport"" ""All 264 passengers on board died"" "This experience is too profound lt makes me recognize that life can be so vulnerable ls there anything really under our control?" "almost none" "Eva seems to get some inspiration from it too" "After we return to Hong Kong..." "Let's break up" "Have we been together?" "Sorry about that, get you to accompany me for so long" "Anyway, thanks for being my dancing partner" "That is my pleasure" "But, why did you pick me?" "Actually, I am a lesbian." "I have girlfriend" "You can understand, right?" "I don't understand" "Why do... they all have girlfriends?" "Hey, a straight guy here" "Could he be an undercover cop?" "I didn't say that I just said I had never had sex with a man" "What about you?" "Cosmo please l do have friends who are gay, but... I don't have problems with them at all" "How could you tell back then?" "Do I look gay?" "Not the gay they can recognize" "But for us, we've got gaydar" "You know what?" "It is actually my first visit to a gay bar" "Really?" "No wonder ... I've been searching for you for weeks" "Thank god!" "Ain't I lucky?" "Perhaps I am the lucky one" "I have never actually done this before, like I told you" "Okay." "Let me tell you my secret" "So you will have some faith in me" "Well, I am actually a Palestinian" "But you said you are from Israel" "Like you said you were not gay" "Oh, come on lt is lust the same place, same people actually isn't there a border or something?" "Yes, but we can still commute lt is a bit hard to explain until you see it I hope I can live to see it" "Well, you got a nice closet" "No wonder you don't want to come out" "Do I have a choice now?" "Not really." "Now you know my secret" "And you have to die unless..." "Come on then you suicide bomber" "Right!" "I am gonna bomb your Gaza Strip wide open" "Are you ready?" "Things happen without a sign" "That is life I know more about myself after this experience" "And I have got a sincere friend" "We are more that sex partners, but I can't say that is love lt is something in between, a kind of comfortable relationship" "Hello?" "Ivan, this is Windson" "How are you?" "Fine, I am...fine" "What are you doing?" "I... I am shopping with a friend" "Let's come out and have some fun" "What fun?" "Okay Ivan, I have thought about it for long l don't want to lose a good friend because of misunderstanding" "Good friend?" "We have only met twice Ivan, I am not expressive" "Okay. I will call you later" "Your dream boy, eh?" "The gym boy, the straight guy" "He is dating you out again?" "Sort of, yeah" "So, what are you waiting for?" "Me?" "Oh no." "You know I am going back to Tel Aviv next week I'll miss you always but you need someone else to hug" "I love you. I will live to see you again" "That's a deal" "Leave it to me." "Go!" "Go!" "Good luck, mate!" "Hey, let's fight on the raft" "OK." "Let's go!" "Let's take a rest" "In my childhood I lived on a roof, watching these stars every night" "Making wishes?" "Never" "Can't depend on God, I rely on myself" "What were you thinking about then?" "I thought..." "Why does the universe have no beginning, no ending and no boundary?" "I thought..." "Why are we born, and die after only decades?" "What is the cause?" "What is the meaning?" "I thought...if we have to die anyway" "How can I make the best out of a limited life?" "I am not as sophisticated as you I just do myiob, treat my family and friends well" "Then I can die with no regrets" "A young man with lofty ideals" "You mean I am naive?" "I want to be naive too" "Simple and worriless" "I wish I can just freeze this moment" "Until the end of my life" "You said you never make wishes" "Hey, that is new." "What is it?" "Can you get a towel?" "You are on screen" "He can't see anything" "This guy is hot, who is he?" "Forget it, he is my brother" "Your blood brother?" "Yes, my bloody brother, straight like a rod" "See?" "We don't look like brothers at alI" "People may think that we are a couple" "Oh my god!" "I can't date girls then" "Can't live without girls?" "Well...no..." "Hi ls this Indian your gay friend?" "What Indian?" "You don't know how to appreciate a man" "Hey, did he say I am ugly?" "No no no, you are as cute as ever" "But we have the opposite appetite in everything" "My brother is so handsome" "His friend must be good looking too" "Cut that." "Take care of your girl" "Enioy yourself" "He got drunk with his girl last night, and stay over at my place" "You really get on well with straight guys" "How's your luck bending the rod..." "your dream boy?" "Nah, he wouldn't let me touch him" "Otherwise it has been pleasant though" "We are leaving" "Bye" "Go." "Stop watching." "Bye" "There is no policeman here" "You are so good at finding such remote locations I like no man's land I enjoy doing something unique" "Have you thought about where we will be after death?" "You love to talk about death" "Well, you won't die" "Your name is Windson, pronounces like "eternal life"" "Oh, thank you" "But I don't expect a long life I just want to be free." "Even in death..." "Be free too?" "Yes" "Sea burial suits me" "all my friends can swim" "They can visit me anytime" "Somebodies coming!" "You said nobody comes to this beach" "Don't have to be so scared I know you don't care, but... I do" "Boys, never mind!" "You are so open-minded" "Oh." "You suffer it reluctantly" "Let me call the police lt is you I am suffering from" "They are so in love. I admire them" "Old freak!" "Crazy woman" "Hey." "You should choose fine sand" "Without the shells" "With the shells?" "Without" "Throw that away lt is all over the beach." "You do it yourself" "We must choose it anyway" "Be quick." "It is going to rain" "By the way, is it illegal to steal sand?" "I don't care" "You don't care about anything" "Even getting naked in front of an old woman" "Even an old man, I don't care" "Okay." "Fixed" "This sandbag is so heavy" "Luckily there is an extra manpower" "What a view!" "The attic is perfect." "We can practice boxing every night" "Let me take a bath first" "What is there to see, man?" "You have got everything yourself" "It is really a nice place" "Can I move in?" "As you see, I live alone I want to buy an apartment too" "So that I can spare my parents from public housing" "But the price is so high." "And my salary is just... I can help you" "Thanks." "But as you said..." "A man should rely on himself" "Now I can only afford an apartment in China" "China?" "Living with your girlfriend?" "I can spare a room for you, then we can drink and practice boxing together" "No way I said something wrong again" "Let's try the sandbag" "Good" "It is myiob to hand you towel, boss" "Damn it!" "The iniury is serious" "Did you get it from illegal boxing?" "Yes." "Broke two ribs" "You noticed it already" "You have been avoiding that part of me I also played illegal match" "You don't need to earn quick money" "People say it is dangerous, so I tried and..." "Hurt your right shoulder I am aware of it when you hit the sandbag lt cleaved" "You are the bravest man I have ever known" "Why should we be afraid of anything, when we all have to die?" "It would be great if I met you earlier" "Then you would like men instead of bitches" "Will I?" "Why not give it a try?" "Don't be silly" "It is late now." "You can stay over tonight" "Well" "But there is only one bed, we have to sleep together" "No problem" "There is one thing... I sleep naked." "You must do so too" "You are such an erotomania" "Okay, but you promise, not to touch me" "deal" "One, two, three" "Be a passenger I let you win" "We do things even some couples can't do" "But we can't do what they must do" "We don't know how far this road will lead us" "But we are happy to keep on lsn't life like that too?" "1994, Senna died racing at San Marino" "Talents always die young" "Maybe they will get bored by living too long 1995, Bill Gates becomes the richest man on earth" "This is a beach for gay, lots of people during the day I heard that" "Have you heard a straight guy can turn gay?" "I heard that too, but I don't believe it" "Actually, gay is outstanding" "Remember the theory of mutation?" "I don't read much." "Don't lie to me" "That's curriculum of secondary school." "Lazy student" "Review that for me then" "Listen" "According to the evolutionism ln any large tribe, there is a minority out of ordinary" "They will be repelled and suppressed by the mainstream" "They can survive only if they are more brilliant" "Eventually, their merit will spread out... and become mainstream" "Then a cycle of evolution is completed" "You mean..." "Gay is a merit and everybody will become gay one day?" "Exactly" "By the advancing of science" "We even have test tube babies now" "The vanishing function of heterosexual reproduction... could be a sign... I suppose you are right" "You are outstanding, but..." "You are still a minority now and should be suppressed by me I will beat you up first" "How dare you" "Are you crazy?" "Crazy" "Run?" "I'll catch you" "I am sorry" "No, I am the one who should apologize lt might be a retribution" "My desire for Windson is becoming unbearable" "And he has been accommodating" "Came?" "Shoot whatever you like." "Just don't put in on the net" "He has something in his mind recently and goes to China often" "Sometimes I think he may be avoiding me" "Ivan" "Windson is not home l know" "Are you waiting for him?" "He didn't say when he will be back" "No girl has ever waited for him like that lt would be great if Ivan were a girl" "No way" "Why not?" "I often go to China too, visiting grandma" "Her senile dementia is getting serious and may not recognize people later" "So I hurry to take someone for her to see" "Try to be natural, grandma is very smart I try my best" "You are worse than Margaret Thatcher" "Uncle Ivan" "This is Eva" "Hello" "Grandma" "Aren't you dead?" "How do you come back?" "Oh, you died so miserably" "They tortured you so bad..." "But now you have come to grandma" "Nothing to fear anymore" "Grandma owns a street in HK." "You won't be poor" "Can you leave me a house?" "Grandma, this is Eva" "An aunt?" "Which aunt?" "So young" "Aunt hasn't come. I am Ivan's girlfriend Ivan?" "(Cantonese:" "lean to tomb) Ivan is my English name" "Since when have you got such an ill-omened name?" "So this aunt is my granddaughter-in-law?" "This is the happy day I long for" "A wedding gift for you" "Thanks grandma" "You are welcome." "Treat yourself a can of black water" "Black water means Coke" "My good grandson, your choice sucks" "Why, grandma?" "She hasn't look into your eyes since she came in" "She doesn't love you" "This woman is a trollop" "You shouldn't marry her" "I give up" "Li Ao has written:" ""Love when we have the feelings, and then take a trip"" "We are given a chance to a business trip" "So nice, both mountain and seaview" "That is a lake" "There is a saying: "The savant loves the mountain, the wise loves the sea"" "So I heard" "My name contains the sea..." "And yours implies mountain" "Well?" "Just the opposite then I am not as smart as you, but nicer" "You mean you love me" "Damn it." "You got me again" "is there a way I can really get you?" "Hey, you have reaction." "You can make it" "No way I can feel that" "Maybe it is the same skin" "Kelly doesn't have big tits, the feel of touching you is similar" "Nobody is here." "Why don't we try?" "That is a different thing." "Don't force me." "I will do it if I can" "Look at the Japanese service" "As if they know when we will come out" "We are late" "But my set is a bit different from yours indeed" "And there is no drink, separate order maybe" "Hope you enioy our choices" "Please" "It is buffet" "You force others again, even to forfeit their food" "Haven't you been eating too?" "Have you ever stopped me?" "Just the two of us, like in a movie, without any extra" "Because it is raining" "Have you watched "Lonely Mountain, Holy Rain" by King Hu?" "You talk about movies more than computers now I have never liked computers" "You only like me" "Be polite!" "People here are well-behaved" "Cut a pear means separate" "Sorry" "So you are superstitious I didn't notice that I am not" "But when I was a kid, grandma said..." "Now I know she was right" "The body is still warm I will get a doctor to check it again" "She is still waiting for you" "You didn't teach me how to find you again" "You promised to tell me" "I should come back more often" "You come back every month already" "When she could still walk, and have sense" "She cried every time she saw me away I once considered maybe it is better that I don't come back" "Luckily you didn't do so" "For every of your return" "She could predict it" "What a magic power" "Now, no longer bounded by the body, her power must be even stronger" "She will protect us" "Especially you" "Though I am well prepared, I still can't let go I don't think she is gone" "She lives whenever we think about her" "I stay only two days for her funeral" "And let my relatives take care of the rest I work in daytime as if nothing happened" "But collapse at night" "is it hemp?" "You're grown up." "Don't cry" "She can't come back to life" "Restrain your grief and accommodate the change, right?" "It is sad exactly because she can't come back to life" "What kind of condolence is that?" "You know I am rustic" "Now it is your turn to comfort me" "Who can't come back to life this time?" "You are such a... I am getting married" "Married?" "You have been telling me you don't want to" "Sometimes we must do things we don't want to" "We have to break up if we don't get married" "Get married or break up, are you crazy?" "Kelly and I have been together for long" "But every time I see her, we are like criminals" "We can't even go to hotel because they don't admit unmarried couples lf the police break in, they will charge me visiting a prostitute" "How can that be a reason to marry?" "I reckoned you won't understand." "You are unrestrained" "As a man, I have to get married and raise a family someday" "As a man!" "Sorry" "Don't misunderstand me" "We are different." "I can't meet your expectation" "But I respect you as my best friend" "You..." "Can do things you don't want to for others" "Just can't do it for me" "Ivan, don't force me" "You know how I feel about you" "Besides that, I can even die for you" "So to stay with me is worse than death" "You are nonsense again." "Troublesome as a fucking bitch" "Why do you have to tell me that... at such moment?" "It is the last hurdle Ivan, you can do it" "Hey mate, you are still alive!" "Happy birthday!" "Oh...hi, how're you doing?" "Fine." "Are you okay?" "You sound drunk, must had a big celebration" "Yeah, big, big..." "How're you doing?" "Well, I have got some holidays left, shall I fly over?" "Yeah" "Good" "But I have a better idea" "Yes?" "I will go to Israel, see you" "Oh great!" "I'll wait for you here then" "Take care, and don't get yourself too drunk" "Bye" "Bye" "My 30th birthday, that I planned to celebrate with Windson in Japan" ""Take it back." "It is the past that we can't go back to"" "Hey, handsome man, we are not open yet" "Okay, now we open." "Take a seat first" "Would you like a drink?" "I'll have a beer please" "Just a moment" "Came here before?" "No" "Where do you come from?" "I' m from Hong Kong" "Enjoy" "Show time, are you ready?" "Ivan, could you do me a favor?" "Ivan, Windson is not home" "Take a seat, Ivan" "Windson went to Mainland China" "Your cough is serious, aunt" "Pneumonia, lung water, so much phlegm" "Windson asked me to take you to a doctor" "That silly boy I have seen many doctors" "There is no cure to my problem" "But it is nothing, anyway Ivan, do you know any specialist?" "Yes I have made an appointment with Dr So, a famous oncologist" "That is great I am having pneumonia, not lung cancer" "Don't be stubborn!" "Ivan has his network, he can help us Ivan is a good boy for sure I wish Windson can be half as brilliant" "So be good!" "Go and see Dr. So, alright?" "It will be expensive I am his frequent customer, he will give us discount" "By the way, Windson will blame me if you don't go" "That silly boy is always so impulsive anyway" "OK. I will go... with you anyway" "The weather is so strange nowadays" "Yes, the earth is changing" "People are changing too." "There was no such thing as cancer before I merely... ate a preserved apricot" "Then I got this endless cough lt is not because of preserved apricot, aunt" "What else then?" "I don't smoke." "Dad doesn't smoke" "And Windson doesn't smoke" "He does" "Really?" "I haven't seen him smoke at home" "You know him better than us" "Tell him don't smoke too much then" "But that may not matter at the end" "Look at me, smoking or not, dying the same lt is not that easy to die, aunt lt is Faye, our neighbour" "Who talks like thunder" "One day, she just fell, and that's game over for her I am not afraid of death" "Windson will take care of his dad anyway" "And with friend like you" "But I am reluctant to go I work hard all my life, and as soon as it is getting easier" "The end is ahead." "Anyway" "Aunt, you will recover, believe me Ivan, don't try too hard I don't want you to spend your hard earned money" "all on the elderly" "But haven't you spent all your money on us?" "That's also true, so you should appreciate your life" "Don't imitate the girl of today's headline" "Just had a quarrel with her boyfriend" "Then she lumped from a roof." "How stupid!" "I heard this cinema is going to end its business" "Old stuff won't last" "Have you watched Cantonese opera here?" "Sure." "Many years ago, the artists were so great" "New patient" "Please register" "Thank you" "The pretty girl adores you, It is not a bad idea to marry a nurse" "She can take care of you when you get old" "Am I hopeless?" "And you are coming to me just for fun?" "You look fine" "Sure, I can still cook" "Just a bit hard to breathe when climbing up stairs I cough a lot too" "Let's do a check up" "OK" "Madam, would you wait outside for seconds?" "I have a few words with your son" "Oh." "Thank you" "This young man is marvelous" "To be honest, half of her lung isn't functioning" "And the other half is full of lung water lt is a miracle that she can make it this far" "She has been healthy." "Never get sick" "We don't have much choice now" "Except a new medicine from Australia lt is tablet." "No side effect." "Worth trying" "But so expensive that we are reluctant to mention I don't care about the cost." "Just use my credit card" "But don't let mom know the amount" "She is lucky to have a son like you" "Tang Mui." "You may go now" "This doctor is different, must be very expensive" "Not really." "He said you are cute and gave us 500/o off" "Really?" "And you are my bonus son I have a bonus mom too" "Don't say money can't buy a life" "The medicine makes aunt better" "As her situation is stable, it is time to keep my promise to Josh" "It's been a long time, buddy!" "Yeah, good to see you again" "Sorry to keep you waiting" "Must be the security people, right?" "Yes!" "They held me up for 2 hours asking dummy questions" "Such as?" "Such as what is your dad's name?" "I was already reluctant to answer, and your grandfather's?" "I said I hardly even know him, I don't even know where his grave is!" "I warned you so" "Yes, fortunately, othenNise I would be... even trickier and be locked up already" "Well we all know they can be real nasty" "But when every life is at stake here" "Nobody blame them for doing their job I guess I will understand that in times, but, where are we going now?" "Tel Aviv is lust like Hong Kong, I am bringing you to Jerusalem" "Great" "Magnificent" "The holy place for Christian, Islam and Jews" "Look at all those graves" "They were for the lucky ones" "What do you mean?" "There have been so many not so much loved people" "Like my ancestors" "They don't even have a half square meter to bury" "The Mount of Olives is... a very special place for the Jewish people" "Why is it different to other places in Jerusalem?" "For three thousand years, the Jewish people bury dead people here" "The book of the prophesy said, people buried here will become alive first" "When the end of the time comes interesting" "Yeah" "You know what this is?" "Yeah, the Wailing" "But I had only seen it on film" "There is no film like life" "Right" "I can't believe it" "Nobody can at the first sight of it." "What attract you the most?" "Everything is still" "Look!" "The surface is smooth like a mirror" "You know why?" "The water is so salty here that no fish can survive" "No life in the sea at all" "Dead Sea" "Yeah, wanna dive in?" "You bet" "Just do everything in slow motion, ok?" "Everything in slow motion?" "Yeah" "OK" "Well, these all salt crystal" "Yeah, sea salt what you are eating in the!" "restaurant" "Pretty sharp" "Yeah, can cut your legs" "Maybe I am going to show you, okay?" "Just laid down, open your legs and you are float" "Let me try" "Just laid down" "Yeah, just laid down" "What do you feel?" "Wonderful" "It is amazing I wonder if they need a lifeguard here" "A dead lifeguard will do for the Dead Sea" "Oh,.." "I love it." "So deadly calm, so peaceful, so...nothing" "You know what?" "It is also the lowest place on earth" "And keeps getting lower" "That fits pe_ectly" "No wonder Windson says he prefers to be buried in the sea" "Oh" "After a life that changes so much lt would be a blessing to be able to remain this way forever, permanent, eternal..." "So Ivan, aren't you going to tell me" "What happened at your birthday night, when I called you?" "Oh yeah, so you noticed" "You sound like you were about to jump from a roof" "Oh my god, I did not have a webcam on the roof, did I?" "So you were really...crazy fellow" "Did you break up with him?" "Just then, 3 days after my grandma passed away" "Josh, you might have saved a life I shouldn't have called you then" "Why?" "You have lost the love of your life." "That is sad" "But that also means you have had love" "People who love you and loved by you so much" "You think you have lost it, but you already own it forever" "Can't you see lust how lucky you are comparing to..." "And you even want to give up such a life, why should one bother?" "Sorry mate" "This is not how a host should treat his guest friend" "Now back to your affair with your dream boy" "How did it fail?" "I think it was totally my fault I have pushed him over the edge" "When he is in trouble himself" "Forced by his girl to get married I see." "So you were jealous" "How did the sex go?" "Nothing." "None." "Never." "No" "Nothing happened after sleeping together for so long?" "He is so resistant, too masculine to be a bottom" "And refuses to get on top of me" "There is lust nothing we can do" "But at least you can use your hands and mouth" "You are not telling me... I am such an idiot. I totally lost it." "I must be sick!" "Hasn't anyone told you that" "Passion is a terminal disease?" "So have you been sick before?" "Many times, well, twice, but twice too many" "So Josh, tell me" "Which refusal is worse?" "A gay who doesn't like you, or a straight man who loves you?" "So you think he loves you?" "Think?" "Oh I think... I think we can talk about it on our way to Elat" "Okay" "But I don't want to go now" "Ivan" "Resistance to the new drug has happened" "Nothing could control the cancer now" "We have been discussing..." "Prepared to give up" "No way Ivan, we appreciate what you have done for us" "Like this first class room, costing thousands per day..." " Uncle" "Cousin" "Forget it." "She is my mom too." "I won't give up I can't pay you back for a lifetime then" "Then pay me the next life" "Son, mark six!" "Oh yes, aunt, we still got time to buy the lottery" "Mom, tell us some numbers" "Three" "Seven" "Twelve" "Fifteen" "Twenty" "Twenty..." "Twenty-one or twenty-seven?" "Anyway" "Buy both of them" "We have been buying mark six for whole life" "And for the first time ever, we won the third prize last month, fifty thousand dollars" "Windson" "Yes" "Treat Ivan to a dinner, anyway" "Are you blood relatives to her?" "I am her son I am her adopted son" "Your mom is not a Catholic" "Can't be buried in the Catholic Permanent Cemetery" "So that is the meaning of Jesus gives you eternal life" "Yeah, many people join in for that piece of land lf you do mind the location, you can choose somewhere else" "But they do have time limit." "And you need to stand in the queue" "Several years later, no land will be offered for coffins anymore ls there any double room?" "Mr. Lin, take your time" "The most important things are pattern and comfortability" "You can check that one too." "Just be careful" "This one has a nice pattern" "But this is more spacious inside, we will take this one" "How about the bed quilt?" "all will be provided, don't worry Mr. Lin" "all of you please turn about" "Hey, turn about" "We are doing the ceremony Ivan" "Aunt" "Your adopted mom said that you are very nice" "And always buy her Chinese opera tickets." "Really good shows" "She said you and Windson are best friends, not even a storm can separate you" "Hello" "Brother, I need to borrow your car" "When?" "The 7th of July" "Such a long lead time, must be something major?" "Sort of..." "I am getting married" "Married again?" "Oh no, forget it..." "Haven't you been careful?" "I don't know." "She swears she had taken the pills" "But anyway" "You don't use condom, now you get the reward" "Now I envy you" "Need me as a driver?" "That will be fantastic" "One more" "One more." "Closer please." "Right" "Everybody look here." "Thank you" "Thanks all of you" "Done" "Congratulations" "There is even a baby guest" "Now you are older than me" "You are a man and I am still a boy I have been lucky to be your brother" "A boy or a girl?" "Absolutely a boy" "Can you teach him for me?" "No way" "But I don't mind naming him" "There is something I want to tell you for a long time" "Still something you haven't told me?" "Must be bad" "First, you shouldn't let that Windson to stick with you for so long" "He gets along with you... for your money and influence" "We are both straight, I know what is in..." "And the second thing?" "Eh, Okay, though you don't fancy woman, you should have a baby" "For what?" "For your genes" "You are so talented, shouldn't waste it" "Brother, don't think that your son is your belonging" "He has his own life." "It is another life" "Just like our father and us l know" "But we can somehow cheat ourselves, as if our lives can extend beyond our death" "Surely I will die earlier than you, you can be my extension then" "Brother, do you know that..." "When you told me you were gay, I felt like the sky fell down on me" "You know you are my idol" "There are so many gay idols, you just don't know lfthe sky fell down on us, take it as a quilt" "Especially true for those who live in the penthouse" "Your sister-in-law has a premature birth." "Can you pick us up?" "Which hospital?" "No wonder when you were a baby, grandma always worried about you being swapped" "Was the environment similar?" "Much worse, a mess!" "In those days of political movement..." "I was so scared" "You were my first baby and I didn't have enough breast milk" "Luckily your grandma and aunt took you to Guangzhou" "At least the facilities are better in the city" "Look!" "This gesture is lust like you" "Where have you been?" "You are even later than us l have to work" "Go and see your wife" "The son is more fun" "But where does the son come from?" "Hey, he does look like brother" "Nonsense lt is a miracle" "Wish she live well under there." "I hope to see her, even in my dream" "Ming Wah is not my home" "But in these six years' time, it brought me hope and joy" "all vanish now, no way to get them back" "2001 , Holland becomes the first country to legalize same sex marriage" "1 1l9f2001 , the whole world is watching the same scene" "My difference is, my brother and his kids are watching from New Jersey" "O1l04l2003" "Leslie Cheung flew from the roof like a bird with no legs" "We have no choice to our birth, but we can plan for our death 2005, it is a Christmas and New Year without happiness" "The Indian Ocean Tsunami killed over 200,OOO people" "People say life is like ocean, to me, ocean is more like death" "No boundary, no beginning and no ending" "Unknown and unpredictable" "We were the elfs from the ocean of death" "Accidentally flushed to the shore and start an adventure" "And that is life" "Finally we all have to go back along the same path" "The iourney will be cut short if we take a wrong step" "Even if we go straight forward, we will still reach the starting point" "The road only seems to be long lt takes less time to complete than we would think" "Hey, what the hell are you doing here?" "Got to speak in English?" "Why are you here?" "For a holiday?" "It Expo" "Still doing the same job?" "It is not easy for me to change I am not like you." "You are versatile I have watched your baseball movie" "No change, that means you are married" "You still care about that I don't like kids." "I don't know how to teach them" "Since dad was gone, I haven't gone back to Ming Wah I moved to Mainland China" "Working as a CTO in a Harbin company" "You moved north 3000 km and I went south over 7000 km" "We still can meet like this" "May be it is arranged by mom I haven't completed her order I owed you a dinner" "Anyway" "Where is your wife?" "Not coming with you?" "Did I say I have a wife?" "Come on, tell me, who is the lucky one?" "Sure, why not?" "You know my wife very well, we have split though" "Who?" "You!" "This is not a motor way I haven't seen a policeman here." "So free" "Move here then lf l can retire, lust like you" "We came all the way from there, see?" "It is so high up here, as ifwe can see the end ofthe world" "This is the tallest apartment on earth" "You always aim so high" "We live only once." "Higher and farther, less to regret" "You have such high standards..." "How can I be your target?" "You are still robust" "We can be dead, but not weak or old" "all these years, we are tie" "So I let you win for so long?" "You must be kidding" "Come on, a deciding game I don't want you to lose." "all right..." "One." "Two." "Three" "Hi, I am Windson, how are you?" "Hey, Jimmie, nice to meet you" "He is my boyfriend, isn't he great?" "Yeah!" "If you don't mind, I'll ask you a question" "Yeah, please, please" "Are you gay?" "No!" "He is not gay" "His wife just got pregnant" "Yeah" "Okay, Jimmie, if you don't mind..." "Can you tell me how long have you known Ivan?" "Six years, I think but, may be even more" "Can you please excuse me?" "Can you hear that?" "Six years I lost you for six years" "Ivan!" "Listen!" "Me, Windson, I am forever your best friend" "Friend, that's all, got it?" "Friend, what friend do you mean?" "I don't understand I only know that since I lost you I no longer know what happiness is" "We are at different path" "You are gay. I am straight." "Nothing we can do about it" "Do you understand?" "I don't want to hurt you." "Understand?" "Then do you understand that..." "You are the love of my life?" "You are the love of my life I don't understand" "Even if I do, I won't believe it" "Let's get married then" "Let's get married!" "Hey, we can get married here, this is Australia" "Hey Jimmie" "Be our witness" "Okay" "Hey, let me get you some more beers to celebrate, yeah?" "Look at you" "Still like a kid" "Can we be together again like before?" "Believe me." "You are the love of my life lf you don't believe it, I can't close my eyes when I die" "is he happy, these years?" "I can't tell, we are not too close" "But I always sense some sort of sorrow inside him" "And I don't know why, until now" "He is my best friend." "He is perfect" "He always wins I cannot accept him to lose" "Can you promise me?" "When I am not here, you won't let him lose?" "How can I?" "When I am a loser myself at times" "A line of Lin Zhi Xuan's lyrics..." ""ln a life, while something is gifted to you, something is taken away"" "As I am getting older, I begin to accept this" "When I got the permanent residency of Australia, I thought... lt would be great if I can migrate all my relatives and friends here" "Heavenly land, angel-like people" "That is too good to be true I end up in Hong Kong again" "Director, may I have a short interview with you?" "No problem" "Any new movies?" "Lately?" "I am working on two" "One named "Amphetamine"" "The second one named Life of an Artist" "Not yet decided yet" "Some sensitive topics again?" "Different people have different opinions" "Which one will start shooting first?" ""Amphetamine", I think" "Are they art films?" "Like those before, with lots of nudity?" "Ivan, let's inspect your house" "You should iudge it by yourself then" "So we are looking fonNard to your new production" "No problem" "This room is mine" "A wealthy man's home indeed, even the closet is huge" "You can sleep in it lt is really for somebody to sleep" "My coffin, the resting place when I die" "Every room has this design" "We can live together after we die" "No need to worry about getting lost and becoming a lonely ghost" "Come and have a look" "Excellent Fung Shui" "No wonder Mr. Wan is always in good shape" "You have good sense" "Let's check out the garden" "Where did you get this mate?" "It's actually custom made" "And it was my idea" "Recommend....." "Oh you want....okay, sure I will give you some contacts I am glad you like it, let's go down to the garden and have a look" "Windson Lin 1968-2007" "2016, Debate intensifies on cloning of human beings 2020, The first black homosexual is elected as the American president" "2030, The popularity of solar energy makes Australia the biggest energy export country, surpassing Saudi Arabia" "2032, Amphetamine becomes OTC medicine in Europe 2036, all DNA codes are decoded" "Cancer is no longer a terminal disease" "The average age of human being set to exceed 10O 2038, Communist Party of China gets listed immediately acquires the largest market cap in the world" "The Shanghai Composite Index breaks through 100,OOO points 2040, Excessive productivity leads the whole world to 3 days of working week" "2044, The last plane takes off from Maldives 2046, Unprecedented crisis:" "Possibly by DNA variation caused by pollution, innumerable people suddenly become sterile" "Scientists endeavour to get male pregnant to avoid human being become extinct within this century... 13th June 2047 Ivan Wan 1966-2047" "Auntie:" "Let's play mahjong" "Uncle:" "I have to watch soccer." "You three play first" "Auntie:" "always the men's game" "Auntie:" "If mom was here, I won't care about you" "Uncle:" "Playing with mom?" "You will die losing" "Auntie:" "You died earlier than me, I suppose?" "Auntie:" "Hey, sister-in-law, isn't the time up for Ivan already?" "Mother:" "Still three more days to go, I keep the count" "Uncle:" "I will be off the hook then" "Sister-in-law:" "I will make some tea" "Name please?" "Casey Anderson" "Age?" "Around 35 I think" "Oh, he is not my husband, he is my step son" "Oh, okay." "Eh, what about..." "Let me handle this, Simon" "And get this lady a coffee please, thank you" "Okay boss" "Mrs Anderson, I am Josh Aviv, your undertaker" "Well, you didn't say you were glad to see me" "No, but it is my honour to service you" "Your place looks like a holiday resort to me" "Death can be a very long vacation" "Ok, nothing much I can tell you about Casey anyway" "He left us when he was 14, and came back a corpse" "And the whereabout?" "Serbia, not too far for you, I guess" "Not at all, we just received one from Tonga last night ls he practicing any religion?" "Not that I would know" "Ok, that will be quite straight forward madam" "You lust have to sign here, and everything else will be taken care of" "Thank you" "Madam, your coffee" "Thank you" "You welcome" "Thank you" "It's not really a sensible question... but how can your charge be so low?" "UFS is a non profit organization, and the nature is free I'd love to be here when that day come, do you take reservation?" "That won't be necessary, madam." "The Dead Sea is forever" "Thank you, goodbye" "Don't come back too soon" "Josh Aviv?" "I am" "Can you please sign here?" "Thanks" "Here it is" "Simon" "Josh, I love to loin your party there but cannot leave my relatives and friends here behind for they love me to death" "Thank you for being such an enlightment to my life" "Having a friend like you has been my biggest achievement I am dying to see you Ivan" "Put it up" "Can you give me a hand?" "Okay"