"Remember." "When can I leave?" "Soon." "Very soon." "Can you tell me a story?" "Last night... in my sleep..." "I dreamed... that I was sleeping." "And dreaming in that sleep... that I had awakened..." "I fell asleep." "I think that's one-sixth." "One-sixth or one-seventh." "Have you seen these?" "Listen to some of these articles in this German paper." ""Surely the shivering homeless millions in Europe..." ""found new hope from the 25 pounds of silk brassieres, pale green slips..." ""and stout matching panties... contributed by the gallant self-sacrifice of Hollywood starlets."" " What, with the bras?" " Yeah." ""Certainly the fascist tyrants must at once capitulate..." ""when they fully comprehend this concrete evidence... of the determination of American womanhood to care for the victims of global war."" "Amazing." "Before they drop the bomb." "They get grainy." "I haven't really done too many of them that way." " Bet it's cold there." " The genuine news." " What year?" " This is in '43." "I'm old-fashioned" "I love the moonlight" "I love the old-fashioned things" "The sound of rain" "Upon a window pane" "The starry song" " That April sings" " Do you know what the underground..." "Do you know what the underground organization was called in Germany..." " This year's fancies - after the occupation?" " The Werewolf." "Werewolf..." " Are passing fancies the underground movement which the Nazi government was trying to form behind Allied lines." "But sighing sighs, holding hands" "These my heart understands" " Weird." "No, not weird..." " I'm old-fashioned" " Weird." "No, not weird..." " I'm old-fashioned" "Excuse me." "Do you mind if I sit here?" "To stay" "Old-fashioned" "With me" "I love you from London to Paris." "I love you from Paris... to Geneva." "No, I don't." "I love you from Paris..." "To Geneva." "Yeah." "I love you from Geneva to Vienna." "What's up?" "I'm old-fashioned" "What's up?" " But I don't mind it" " Up?" " Up." "You know, new." " New?" " You're asking me what's new?" " Yeah." "What's the matter with you?" "What are you doing now?" " Doing?" "You want to know what I'm doing?" " Yeah, doing." "I mean, are you... are you..." "are you busy?" "Do you want to go to a movie or something?" "I don't know." "What's your name?" " Fred." "Fred Sapier." " Okay." " Okay, what?" " What movie?" "I-I don't know what movie." "I just thought you'd like to go to a movie." "I didn't think about which one." "Do you wanna go to one?" "Hi." "How are you?" "Hi, Barbara." "You have no reason to be ashamed of your nose." "Well, I'm just not sure what it looks like after the operation." "Believe me, I will be your eyes." " Will you be my mirror?" " Yes." " Will you tell me the truth?" " I will." "If I look ugly, will you tell me?" "I can take it." "I'm strong." "I swear to you, I will tell you if you are beautiful or ugly." " You're sure?" " Yes." "Please expose your nose to me." "I can't!" "My hand is stuck to my face!" "That damn surgeon!" "Take..." "Take off your nose." "Why, without my glasses on... your nose is beautiful." " Now tell me..." " Ja?" "Tell me..." "Ja!" "Tell you what?" "Tell me anything you want." "The first time that I saw you, Professor..." "I knew that we had to complete this experiment together." "Why do you always think about the past?" "Why don't you think about tomorrow?" "Tomorrow is where the past is." "This is tomorrow." "This is the past." "Great place." "Do you want a drink?" "That's fine." "Hey, your television set is on." " I know." " Shouldn't I turn it off?" "No, leave it on." "I like to have it on all the time." "Does it ever occur to you that I am here?" "Does it ever occur to you that I am here, I'm not just in your mind?" "Have you got a newspaper or something?" "I can look up the starting time for the films." "Oh..." "I don't really feel much like a movie." "Do you?" "Sure." "I-I mean, great." "That's..." "That's fine." "I..." "How about we just stay here?" "I mean, if... if you don't mind." "I don't mind at all." "Not at all." "This is fine." "Can I turn the sound up just a little bit?" "No." "It's more interesting this way." " I don't get it." " Just look at it." "I still don't get it." "I'd like to hear what they're saying." "Please don't spoil it." "Not yet." " Don't disappoint me." " Where'd you get a name like Noah?" "Don't you like it?" "Oh, yeah, sure." "I think it's very... very interesting." "But it's, you know... it's different." "Kind of unusual." "It suits you." "How'd you get an unusual name like that?" " Could you..." "Oh, I thought it went out." " I'm sorry." " Could I have another one, please?" " You want another one for the candy cigarette?" " Yeah." " Would you like a candy match?" "You ready?" "Ready?" "Yes, you remember..." "I said I wanted you to help me with something." " Oh, yeah." " Well, that is..." "I mean, if you don't mind." "Oh, no, I don't mind." "I don't mind at all." "You don't have to help me." "Hey, really, I..." "I really don't mind, or I wouldn't be here." "Don't be silly." "You don't have to help me with anything." "Okay, I won't help you, if it makes you happy." " I'd like you to help me." " Then I'll help you." "Okay." "Okay what?" "Well, you said you wanted to help me... and if you don't wanna help me, then you don't have to help me." " I'm willing to help you." "I mean, what..." " I mean, you said you wanted to." "I'm willing to help you." "I'm here and I'm certainly willing to help." " But you just said, "Okay, for what?"" " I didn't know what you were referring to." " Now I understand what you're referring to." " What?" "I don't know!" "Don't do that again, please." "Uh..." "Okay, let's go." "I love you from..." "Budapest to Wars..." "No, I don't." "No, I don't." "I love you from Danzig to Warsaw." "I love you from Warsaw to Berlin." "I love you from Berlin... to Paris." "Okay." " Now..." " What's this?" " What's this?" " Now, this is my magic box." "You've got to be very careful with it." "Uh, what does it do?" "You put something in it... that means something very special to you... and then you make a wish... for something you really need to happen." "When you need it to happen, not when you're just fooling around, wanting something." "And then you lock it." "Then you don't open it until that something happens." " Does it work?" " Well, of course it works!" "It's my magic box." "Someone gave it to me." "Seems pretty old." "I've had it a long, long time." " And has your wish come true?" " No." "Not yet." "I haven't opened it yet." "But it's going to very soon." "Can I trust you?" "Sure." "I knew I could trust you." "Thank you." "That's okay." "Uh, listen, what is inside it?" "I can't tell you what's inside it!" "It's my magic box!" "I mean, it wouldn't work if I told you that." " Oh." " I mean, that's why..." "I mean, I have to be absolutely sure... that whoever I give this to is not gonna look insi..." " You're..." " It's locked though, isn't it?" "Yes, it's locked, but, I mean, you're not gonna open it up." "You're not gonna try and look inside it, are you?" "You." " Me?" " You promise?" " I-I promise." " Cross your heart and hope to die." " You're crazy." " Cross your heart and hope to die." " All right, I cross my heart." " And hope to die." "And ho..." "I'm old-fashioned" "But I don't mind it" "That's how I want to be" "As long as you agree" "To stay old-fashioned" "With me" "If there's somebody with us... make your presence known." "Is there somebody with us?" "What's the message?" " "S." - "S."" ""U."" ""S."" ""A."" " "N."" " Who's Susan?" "What are you saying?" "Susan." "Susan." " Was that you?" " Oh..." "W-What..." " "H." - "H."" ""E."" ""L. L."" " "O."" " What is that?" "What is that?" " "Hello."" " Oh." "Well, hello to you." "Ah!" "Hello, Susan." "Hello." "Wh-Wh-Wh-Who's the message from?" " Whoa!" " Oh!" " You are pale, Susan." " No, I'm fine." "Where are your friends?" "I lost them." "Well... you found me." "Susan." "It's going to be all right now." "Let's just all place our hands gently on it." " Shh!" "Get down." " I'm here." " Put your finger on the glass like this." " Yes." "New energy." "Shh." " What is this all about?" " Shut up." "Nothing's happening." "Some..." "They leave..." "They leave sometimes." "Am I supposed to keep my finger on this?" "No." " There's nobody downstairs." " Well, you know, it happens." "It's cool." "What were you, uh..." "What were we doing?" "We were contacting, uh, the spirit world." "Well, you know, there... there are simple mechanical reasons..." "There-There's..." "There are mechanical, physical and psychological and technical reasons... why, uh, the glass moves." " You think?" " Sure." "The varying pressures from all the different fingers, from the different angles... creates a kind of a tension, a contradictory tension upon that solitary object... that can only be resolved through..." "through movement." "Chess I play for a living... and for the children sometimes..." "I do... magic tricks." "Close your eyes. and remember something." "Remember." "Make a wish maybe." "Remember." "Now open your eyes... and open your hands." "Fly." "Fly." "Fly." " I need to see you." " Y-Y-You need to see me?" "Yes." "I will see you tomorrow at quarter past12:00... at the Museum of Natural History." " What are you talking about?" " I hear they have this incredible exhibit there." "It's of a space capsule." "You get inside the space capsule... and you strap yourself up in it... and you simulate a voyage to the moon." "Yeah, okay." "I'll call you at 11:00 or so." " Okay." " What's your number?" " Uh..." " What is it?" "642-0817." " No, no, no." "I mean the number." " 642-0817." "What do you mean, "6-4-2"?" " I mean, your number." "Your thing." " That's my..." "My "thing"?" "What do you mean, my "thing"?" "Well, your... your, um..." "What do you..." "What do..." "What's..." "Ohh!" "Your, um..." "Your prefix!" "Your prefix!" "Oh, no, look, I don't have the..." " You know, like "Trafalgar" or "Columbus."" "No, no, I haven't got a name on my number." "It's just 642-0817." "What do you mean?" "What..." " What do you mean, wh..." " What's the matter with you?" "What's the matter with me?" "Wh-Wh-Wh..." "642-0817 is my numb..." "Sixty-four, right?" "Sixty-four!" "Well, that..." "That's gotta stand for something, doesn't it?" " No." "They just gave me this number." " You mean you didn't even look?" "You don't even care what it stands for?" "You didn't..." "Look, wait." "Come here." " That's cr..." " I want you to see..." "Over here." "Look on the dial." "On the dial." "You see?" "See the letters that go with the numbers?" "You see that?" "See?" " Yeah." " Okay." "Now, your number's a 6-4." "So you could be, oh, let's say M-I." "Right?" "You could have M-I..." "Midnight-2, or whatever." "Well, there isn't any such thing as Midnight-2, and you said you didn't have a phone!" "Oh, well, if you don't like midnight, we could give you another number." " Let's see, it could be, uh, O-G." " Yeah?" "It could be "Og." Og-2." " Or it could be..." " I don't like that." " N-I." "Could be Nice-2." " That's nice." "Or it could be, um..." "It could be M..." "M-H." " M-haarrar!" " None of these are real." "What difference does it make..." "What difference does it make what the letters are... if you've got the numbers?" " But that's just it." " That's just it?" "Well, yeah." "I mean, we never used to have just numbers." "We always had real things, and then it meant something." "You know?" "Like if a kid and you at school had the same number, like Susquehanna... then you had something in common... and it was... it was really nice." " You know?" " Yeah." "And then, oh, sometimes somebody would really kill you... with some number like..." "Pershing." "Pershing!" "Or..." "Or Algonquin was really, really great." " Butterfield." " Wha..." "That was a good one." " Butterfield?" "No, no, no, no." " No." "Butterfield wasn't too good." "I knew a lot of kids with Butterfield, and it just didn't mean anything." " I just..." " I don't know." "I used to have a..." "Oh." "O-Olympia." "Oh, that was really, really incredible... 'cause you always got this picture of clouds in your head and mountains..." "Kiss my neck, please." "And all of these wild Greek gods..." "That's right." "Kiss it again." "More." " Plaza was really great too." " Plaza really does something to you, huh?" "I always thought of old fountains and everything and lights..." "They were pink and yellow." "And there was another one too..." "it was really great... called Gramercy." " Wow!" " Bryant." "Bryant." " Bryant." " Bryant?" "Like a man." " Bryant?" " Bryant." "Well, I mean, Bryant was good, but..." " Bryant?" "It's was..." " It was good, all right." " It just... it..." " You don't like mine." "You like yours, but..." "No, it was good." "It was good." "It reminded you of..." " What?" " It was so English, Bryant." " Oh." "Bryant." " Monocles and spats and everything like that." "Well, I always liked Butterfield." "Well, okay." "I mean, you..." "You see what I mean, at least." "At least you could..." "you could like Butterfield, but..." "How can..." "How can you like 6-4?" "You can't." " Sure, I see." "Kind of." " See?" "It-It's all on the dial." "Okay." "M-I... 6-4..." "M-I-2-0817." "What is it?" "Give me a..." "Give me a thing." "Um, Mirage." " Mirage-2-0817." " Mirage-2!" "That's beautiful!" "That's really beautiful." "What's the matter?" "What's the matter?" "They're not natural." "What?" "Supposed to be the Museum of Natural History." "Well, there's nothing natural about it." "All those space things and switches." "You know, when I was a little girl, we used to go there all the time on school trips." "It was all natural then." "I mean, they had stuffed goats and teepees and rocks and natural gunk like that." "Yeah, but wasn't that great?" "I mean, floating in space and everything." "I felt like I could fly." "I didn't weigh a thing." " I did fly." " Yeah!" "Wasn't that great?" "Not today." "When I was little, I flew." "If I could remember how, I could do it again." "What do you mean?" "When I was a child, I flew." "I know it sounds crazy, but I did." "I did fly." "I just can't remember how." "And... sometimes... sometimes it hurts... because I get this feeling that... there's something to remember." "And if... if I could just remember it, then I'd be able to fly again." "That's crazy." "Well, come on, now." "You know you couldn't have really flown." " You must have just had a dream or something." " It wasn't a dream!" "When I was a little girl, we had a backyard... and there was a pear tree in this backyard." "I used to go out and I used to fly up to the top of it... and pick a pear from the very top branch... and then I'd fly back down and I'd sit underneath my tree... and eat my pear." "I was very little." "I know..." "I know it sounds crazy." "Well, it sure does." "But I..." "I did." "Now, look, listen to me." "There are certain physiological rules that govern all..." "My brother saw me!" "Why, we would..." "He'd watch me!" "He was there!" "Oh, wow." "Well, wasn't he amazed?" "I mean, what did he do while you were flying?" "Nothing." "He'd just..." "He'd just sit and... and watch me." "Whenever I'd be playing or anything, I'd look around... and there he'd be, looking at me." "The only time I ever saw him smile, though, was when I'd fly." " What'd it feel like?" " What?" "You know." "Flying." "Do you remember?" "What'd it feel like?" "I don't know." "I just did." "Was it..." "Did it feel like inside the space capsule today?" "No." "That reminded me of it, but it wasn't all... it wasn't all closed in like that..." "It was all..." "It was all open and free." "What's the matter?" "That was fantastic!" "Eh, it's just a... trick." "You can buy it in a magic store." "Someday..." "I want to do something real..." "real magic." "I want to make something... disappear." "Disappear." "What?" "I don't know." "Something." "I'll get it." "Someday I'll..." "I'll make something... disappear." "Please disappear." "I don't care, but something I want to make disappear." "Disappear!" "It's a" "Big, wide, wonderful world" "You live in" "When you're in love" " You're a master" " Disappear..." " Of all you survey - llama." "You're a gay Santa Claus" "There's a brave, new star-spangled sky" "Above you" "When you're in love you're a hero" "A Nero, Apollo" "The Wizard of Oz" "You gonna go sailin'?" "Hey, mister, you gonna go sailin'?" " Huh?" " You gonna go sailin' in one of them things?" " Oh, no, I was just watching." " Oh." "You have a kingdom" "Power and glory" "The old, old, oldest of stories" "Is new, true" "You've built your Rome in just one day" "Life is mystic" "A midsummer's night you live in" "A Turkish delight You're in heaven" "That's swell when you're really in love" "See that big building next to the one with the two towers?" " Yeah." " That's where I used to live." "On the 11th floor." " Yes?" "Who is it?" " Oh." "Oh, it's you." "I love you from Paris to Madrid." "I love you from Madrid to Lisbon." "I love you from, uh, Lisbon... to..." "I love you from Lisbon to..." "I love you from Lisbon." " Have you ever tasted honeydew melon?" " Yeah, I have tasted..." " Candy." "Delicious." " Do you know how long I've been looking for you?" " I've been looking for you for..." " It's really, really great." "I know it's great." "An hour and 10 minutes I've been walking around here." "Do you want to taste it or not?" " Yeah." " No, you can't have it." " That's the last one." " That's really nice." " You took my jacket too, you know." " Here." "Thank you very much." "Where were you?" "What did I do that made you angry?" "Shh." "I was talking too much." "I'm talking too much now." " Shh!" "I shouldn't talk this much." "Well, shall we go back to the apartment now?" " No." "Would you like to go for a boat ride?" " Shh." "How are you, Noah?" "Okay." "Well, is it all right, uh... is it all right that I came at this... this time?" "Yes, it's more than all right." "Coffee." "Did you miss me?" "Uh, yes." "Yes, I have missed you." " Do you want to know why?" " Yeah." "Because you're very simpleminded." "Screw you." "You know why I love simpleminded people?" "Why's that?" "Because it's real easy to make them do whatever you want them to." " My glasses." " Oh, your glasses." " Yeah, my eyeglasses." " Yeah, they're right here." " Would you hand them to me?" " Sure." "And there's a book, also, on psychic self-defense." "Yes, I..." "I see what you mean." "And I was walking home on Sixth Avenue... and all of the sudden I realized that all these..." "About three or four or five different men were, like, following me." " That's not funny." "And anyway..." " Oh." "Okay." " So I went into the delicatessen..." " Uh-huh." "And, uh, to get... to escape." "Yeah." "And one of them followed in, and I was clutching my purse." "He was looking straight at my purse and asking me if I wanted to go have a drink... and really, like, hassling me." "All of the sudden I realized that he... he was... that he was really quite capable... of, like, murdering me or raping me or taking my purse." " So then he went out..." " Anybody feel like rolling these?" "He went out of the delicatessen, and I had a chat with the man in the delicatessen... and he told me that I shouldn't, like, walk on the streets alone in New York City... that I should take a taxi." "That you should go home with him." "He'd protect you." " No, he wasn't like that." " Yeah, and give you a free salami." "So then I get out on the street... and, uh, really dug it." "I mean, I felt..." "I felt like..." "I started walking with these old, clunky shoes I had on... and this long dress, and I felt like I was about 45 years old... and I was an old, beat-up whore just walking down the st... down some city street someplace... with no place to go and no one to love me and not caring at all that anybody would rape me." "I mean, I really got behind all these..." "all these men who were gonna do this to me... and I kept passing them on the corners and they'd stare at me, you know, like..." "They'd stare at me like this." "Look." "They'd stare at me like..." " That's enough to turn anybody..." " And I'd just look back and keep walking, like..." "Come on, roll it." "I mean, I was so into, like, feeling... um, totally d-degraded." "I loved that whole feeling." "It was really a turn-on." "It's very sexy." " It is?" " Yeah, it was." "When I looked at these men and they were... and they were coming on to me and everything..." "I felt like I was looking at them like I was a streetwalker and they were a bum... and that we had really something in common... and I didn't feel isolated any more." "It was almost as if..." "Well, like, it was almost as if all the suffering that I've... that I've... that I've experienced... was completely felt by these men on the street... and that even though they would harm me, I felt very safe..." "The safeness came because I didn't feel isolated any more." "Like, I felt so isolated at that dinner party with all those very chic people... making very chic conversation." "And then I got out on the streets and I..." "I feel relationship with the bums that are gonna kill me." " Yeah." "It's really..." " I mean, I really understood... the fact that they didn't have any money and that they didn't have anything." "And then I thought, well, if..." "if this is where one's happy..." "I don't know where one goes from there." "No." "I mean, I felt completely apart from anything that doesn't resemble... doesn't resemble being miserable." "You sure are pretty." "Disappear!" "Disappear." "Hello, Susan." "Hello." "What do you find?" "Feels like a star." " Don't take it out now." " All right." "Another time you could come here... we could find out what it is." "Hello, Susan." "Disappear." "Disappear." "Well, shall we go back to the apartment now?" " No." "Would you like to go for a boat ride?" " Shh." " What?" " Shh." ""Shh." You wanna think about it?" "You want me to think about it?" "Don't talk." " Which is heavier..." " Huh?" "Which is heavier, ice or water?" "Ice." " Water." " Uh-huh." "Hey." "Oh, give me something" "To remember you by" "When you are far away" "From me" "Dear..." "Hello, Susan." "Look in my pocket." "Noah's ark." "You remember?" "You remember?" "I remember." "Though I pray for you" "I remember." "Night and day" "For you..." "What was set for a covenant between God and man... in the sky?" "A rainbow." "Some little something" "Meaning love cannot die" "No matter where" "You chance to be" "No." "Pain, pain, go away" "Come again another day" "And they said that I had taken all these sleeping pills... but I hadn't remembered doing it." "I mean, I remember taking..." "I remember taking three sleeping pills just to go to sleep... because the pain was so bad I couldn't bear it any more." "I mean, do you think that people get to a point of pain where they just can't bear it?" "Anyway, I went to a party that night and had a collapse." "I mean, well, not a real kind of..." "I mean, a kind of collapse where I just knew that I couldn't bear it any more." "So I went back to my apartment... and in the morning, when I had to go, I took three sleeping pills... to go to sleep." "They said I almost died, and you can imagine when I woke up I really wished I was dead." "I mean, I've never wished I was dead any other time except when I woke up... and they told me what had happened and I wasn't dead." "I mean, sometimes I feel really stupid... to go through these kind of changes at my age... and... and what I've got." "I mean, I feel like a complete fool." "I mean, that's part of it... feeling like a complete fool for being so unhappy." "I mean, constant..." "I constantly batter myself over the head for being so unhappy." "And then I just get more unhappy." "And I ask myself when it's going to stop." "And it never stops." "It just never stops." "I just get more isolated." "Maybe that's it." "Maybe I'm just supposed to get totally isolated from all the things around me that hurt me." "Maybe my trip in life is to be totally alone." "I don't know any more." "I mean, I really..." "I really don't know." "I don't know anything any more." "I don't know anything." "I don't even know what I'm doing right now, crying like this." "Anyway, I..." "I'm beginning to feel better." "All of a sudden, I don't feel sorry for myself." "I don't know what happened." "In one quick second..." "But I completely switched." "Anyway, I don't think I'll try to kill myself any more... 'cause I like walking down the streets with all the bums." "You were a born whore." "Fly." "Fly." "Lavender blue" "Dilly dilly" "Lavender green" "Maybe an animal in the zoo?" "I wonder if they're dreaming." "Dreaming?" "Why shouldn't they be dreaming?" " If I were king" " I wonder what they're dreaming." "Dilly dilly" " I'd need a queen" " Oceans." "They're dreaming of... oceans." "Who told me so Dilly dilly" "Who told me so" "I told myself" "Dilly dilly" "I told me so" "It's empty!" "What do you see?" "It's empty." "I see nothing." "No hand is ever empty, Susan." "There's no such thing as nothing." "Look again." "Your star." "You'll be wed in a dilly-dilly dress" "Of lavender blue" "Dilly dilly" "Lavender green" "You know what he's dreaming?" " Uh-huh." " What?" " Sand." " Ah." "You know what I'm dreaming?" "I know." "What?" "Sky." "I have a secret too." "I know." "You won't tell anyone?" "I did cry." "They'll stop it if you tell anyone." "When I was a little girl, I flew." "And they'll take it away." "I won't tell anyone, Susan." "Then I'll be king, dilly dilly" "And you'll be" "My queen" " You wanted to know who lives here." "You'll find out who lives here." " Who?" "Who?" "Yes?" "Who is it?" "Shh." " Oh, it's you." " Yeah." "They are not here." "They're in Europe." " Yeah, I know." "It's okay." " Good." " How are you, Fanny?" " I'm fine." "Thank you." "Good." "Good." "Uh..." "I love you from London to Paris." "I love you from Paris... to Geneva." "I love you from..." "Shut the door." "What are you looking at me for?" "Why are you looking at me?" "You're pretty... and sad... and weirder than hell." "You have lights in your eyes." "They have dawn in them... and green grass." "And something else." "Something else." "Some people have a light that seems to come out of the center of their eyes." "There's..." "There's something that's so alive in them." "You know, it's a quality of hopefulness, of love." "People who can love have those lights." "You've got them." "Little lights that are always on, sparkling and warm." "In some people..." "In..." "In my father, the iris... has a milkiness to it." "And they're flat." "There's no light." "They look, um..." "They look glazed over and dead." "I'm terrified that..." "I'm all dead in my eyes, like my father." "That I inherited... an... inability to love." "And I look at my eyes in the mirror sometimes... but I can't see anything behind them." "I mean, they... they just don't..." "They don't have any lights." "You know, my brother used to have eyes like my father." "You know, all dead." "But sometimes, every once in a while..." "I would see the lights come on behind his eyes... and I could see them clear across the room." "They'd be so bright." "And they'd... they'd come on... and go off, like a Christmas tree." "Because... he had life... and death... juggling around inside him like crazy." "You have eyes like that..." "lights going on and off." "He loved me." "When I was a little girl..." "I'd see the lights come on when he looked at me." "I used to tease him about it sometimes." "Those times that you love me..." "I mean, when you really love me, I can tell... because the lights are so bright." "I'm so scared." "Behind the mountains of darkness... beyond the realms of knowledge... is an unknown kingdom." "And in this unknown kingdom flows a river." "And this river is turbulent." "Each week, for six days a week... it rages and roars like a lion... throwing up rocks in an endless storm... stoning anyone who should try to cross over." "But on the seventh day... the waves subside... and the river rests." "But if anyone..." "If a stranger should try to take advantage... and cross over to the other side... he is instantly frozen..." "forever... in his tracks." "That is why no one has ever returned from... behind the mountains of darkness, beyond the realm of knowledge... from this... unknown kingdom... whose name... no man knows." "Disappear." " Can we..." " I don't wanna ball now." "Do you think I do?" "I haven't had a bath in a month." "That's really why I don't..." "I haven't been able to ball for months, because I'm filthy, you know?" "I wouldn't want you to ball me if you had a bath." " I'd rather you..." " If I had a what?" "I'd rather have you ball me if you didn't have a bath... but I still wouldn't want you to ball me." "It's me I'm talkin' about." "I said I couldn't ball without a bath." "I didn't care about whether you could ball without a..." "Oh, I misunderstood you." "It's me I ball when I ball." "I ain't ballin'..." " Don't you ball you?" " Of course I ball me." "So?" "How..." "How come you're so serious all the time?" "'Cause I'm frightened to death, you know?" "Are you?" "You frightened of me?" "No, I'm not frightened of you." "Like..." "People really..." "I mean, no one's ever been frightened of me." "No, I'm not frightened of you." "I'm frightened of doing the same thing over and over and over again." "That's how I'd be frightened of you, you know." "You wanna see a picture of Smash?" " Your cat?" " Yeah." "My cat." "Pull out this..." "That's the bag I used to carry him around in." "You can't really see, but his..." "Kind of, you can see his anxiety there, right?" " No, you can't see his anxiety." " You can't see his anxiety?" "Look at his little hairs sticking' out of his ears like that." "I mean, poor little thing." "Look at him." "I think you're more into, you know, the way your cat looks." " I'm more aware of his personality." " Yeah." "Yeah." "I guess I'm just getting to be an old cat lover." "I feel like one of those old women in..." "Brooklyn." "He's kinda sick now." " I really shouldn't joke about it, right?" " You don't..." "You know why I do that, you know." "'Cause I really don't want..." "I feel like I got him sick because I kept thinking and worrying about he was gonna get sick." "Well, that's..." "Why would you do that?" "Because I did a job one day for somebody that..." "And this woman kept... 'Cause I didn't give him some water, you know?" "And she accused me of not, you know, taking care of him." "And that planted the idea in my head that, you know... that I wasn't taking care of the cat, you know?" "So I start thinkin' about he gettin'..." "You know, he was gonna get sick." "And he did get sick, so now I'm trying to not worry about him dying." "Why..." " Hey." "Fred?" " What?" "Why don't you come in here?" "I think your cat will be okay." "Okay, if you say so." "But I got 20 sleeping pills in case he doesn't, you know?" "You didn't believe that before when I told you that either, right?" " I don't believe it now." " What?" "I don't believe it now." "That I would die if-if he died?" " Sure I would." " I don't think so." " It's not so hard to take 20 sleeping pills." " No, I know it's not." " Lie down and put him on my chest and just..." " I know it's not." "It's not very hard at all." "I wouldn't do it for you, but I would do it for Smash." "Who is it?" "Who's coming up?" "Huh?" "Who is it?" "A friend of mine." "Mitch." "At 4:00 in the morning?" "Yes, it would appear that way." "You're crazy." "You are crazy." " I'm very happy." " What about?" "No, I'm just happy." "I have this whole... acceptance thing, as long as it lasts." "Good." "Do you know what it's like to be there... just to accept?" " Yes." " No anticipation." " Yes." " No, you don't." "You always anticipate." "But it doesn't matter." "I'm so happy that I even accept your anticipation." "Now, is that happy?" "That's happy." "If your dilly-dilly heart feels a dilly-dilly way" "And if you'll answer yes" "In a pretty little church on a dilly-dilly day" "You'll be wed in a dilly-dilly dress" "Of lavender blue" "Dilly dilly" "Lavender green" "Well, is it all right, uh..." "Is it all right that I came at this-this time?" "Come sit down." "So?" "What you doin'?" " What am I doin'?" " Yeah." "Oh, same things that I'm usually doing when you see me." " Oh." " Yeah." "Bad?" "Yeah." "Bad." "I guess, bad." "That's a fair way to call it." "Did she throw you out?" "Did she throw me out?" "No." " Again?" " No." "No, she didn't throw me out." " Robert?" " Robert, I thought maybe you'd like..." " Oh..." " Is that..." " No, no." "That's..." "No." "It's Mitch." " What?" " It's, uh..." " Mitch." "Oh, sorry." " Mitch." " I thought I heard you say "Robert."" "Would you like something?" "It's just club soda." " It's all we've got." " We don't have any wine to celebrate?" "I don't know if there's a bottle out there or not." "You didn't br..." "No, you didn't." " This is 7UP?" " Well." "Quinine water." "It's all that I could find." "Would there be anything open now where you could get some wine?" "At 4:00 in the morning?" "I don't think I really want to go out at, uh..." "Uh..." " It's..." "See, it's been..." " I-I..." "Yeah." "It's... been a little while since we've seen each other." "Yeah." "I imagine." "Been out of town or something?" "No." "I just drop in from time to time, you know." "I haven't, uh..." "You know, it's a late, up-and-around late nighttime drop-in." "Late nighttime drop-in." " Yeah." " Punch in the old clock." " Yeah." " At 4:00 in the morning." "It's real good to see you." "I'm glad that you're, uh, here." "To drop in on." "Well, I..." "Well, you're sure to find her in at 4:00 in the morning." "Yeah." "As opposed to, you know, 8:00 or 9:00." "4:00 is a little bit odd, but, uh, it's worked before." "You know?" "Do you mind, um... just leaving us alone for a while?" " You want to talk about something private?" " Yeah." "All right." "Well, I'll be back in the back room." " Okay." " Okay." " Well..." " I'll be in the back." "I've got some stuff I wanna do." "Please, make yourself at home." "Great." "Okay, thanks a lot." " I'm, you know..." " I know." "You didn't know." " Yeah." "But I mean, I..." " That's all right." " It's not gonna cause you any..." " No." "He's okay." " Yeah?" " He is." "Oh, good." "Good." "Uh, let's, uh..." "Let's just, uh, you know..." "Hey, Noah, there is some wine if you want it." "Um..." "Shall I open it?" "Do you want some wine?" " No, that's all right." " Okay." " It's, um..." " It's what?" " It's going to be difficult." " It's going to be difficult, yes." "I know." "But not impossible." "If I were king, dilly dilly" "I'd need a queen" "Who told me so, dilly dilly Who..." "Hey, listen, I found this whole bottle of Madeira." "Uh, you might as well have a little bit of it." "It's really, you know..." "It's nice wine." "Okay." "I'll just leave the bottle here." "Quinine water isn't..." "isn't all that... isn't all that great really." "You do drink?" "You don't have ulcers or anything like that, do you?" "No, I don't drink too much, but I'll, uh..." "I'll drink a little wine with you." " Uh, wait..." " La fin de la bouteille." "Dead soldier." "Right here." "Here's a little something for you." " Here you are." " I didn't really want any." "I don't really want any." "Well, here's to the end of the bottle anyway." "Ah!" "Have some Madeira, my dear." "Fred, I told you that we wanted to talk privately." "Yeah, but how private can you be in an apartment like this?" "Would you just leave?" "Okay." "I'm just trying to be a host." "All right." " Have a good sleep." " I can't do this." "I can't do this, right?" "I can't do this." "I can't have..." "I can't do this." "What?" "I feel bad about this person coming in and out like this." "You know, I mean, I just..." "I identify with the position, you know?" " How is that?" " How do I identify with it?" "Well, what..." "What happened?" " Well, I mean..." " Oh, that's what happened." "You walked in, and Rita was with somebody." " Is that what happened?" " Oh, no." "No, no." " No?" " No." "Rita's not with anybody." "Rita..." " Here, I'll take this." " Rita is not with anybody." "Well, you don't usually come to see me unless..." " I come to see you..." " Rita something or other, you know?" "I come to see you because I want to come and see you, Noah." "You know?" "It's not like this is the only place in New York or anything like that." " Is it?" " No." "I mean, everybody..." "Everybody has somebody that they, uh..." "they come and see..." "Every once in a while." "When an alternative way of life is imperative." "You know?" "Somewhere where it's always good." "So now..." "This guy, you know, it's not right." " Well, I can't..." " It's not the right time maybe." "What do you think?" "I don't know." "What does "the right time" mean?" "Well, it has to do with feelings." "No, but then, you know, if the time comes along... and you want something and you don't take it... because you say, well, so and so and so and so... and you don't wanna hurt somebody and don't wanna..." "And then it'll be all gone tomorrow." " You know?" " Yeah." "Maybe sometimes you should just take what you want when it's there." "You must remember this" "A kiss is still a kiss" "A sigh is just a sigh" "The fundamental things apply" "As time goes by" "And when two lovers woo" "They still say I love you" "On that, you can rely" "No matter what the future brings" "As time goes by" " Hey, uh..." " Moonlight and love songs" " Hey." "Hey." "This is too much." " Are never out of date" " I am getting out of here." "Do you hear me?" " Hearts full of passion" " Jealousy and hate" " I am getting out of here." "Woman needs man" "And man must have his mate" " That no one can deny" " I'm leaving." "You hear me?" "I'm leaving." " You've won." "You've won." " It's still the same old story..." "What's the matter?" "What's the matter?" "He's gone." "As time" "Goes" "By" "These feelings are like, uh... f-feelings of love." "I saw a man spill some coffee on his hand... in a hamburger store." "And nobody had any time... to even realize that it was just a simple... clumsy human thing that had happened." "And about all that they could do was be embarrassed about it." "And I found myself laughing uncontrollably about it." "And then when I'd thought about it again... it made me cry." "But if I went around crying all the time..." "I don't think I'd be very good company." "So I laugh instead and make people laugh." "Please leave me alone." "Just alone." "We'll just have silence." "It's like the confusion of love, you know?" "Does love hurt, or is it something that makes you feel happy?" "Well, I guess it's somewhere right in between, just kind of on a tightrope." "What would you say if I told you, uh... that I had, uh, killed Rita?" "Did you?" "Did..." "I mean, did you really?" "Yeah." "I killed the shit out of her." "Hmm." "You say "Hmm."" " That's interesting." " Yeah." "It hasn't seemed to upset you any." "I think it's rather..." "Something rather exciting about it actually." "Don't you think all ex-lovers should be dead?" "Well, they are." "I mean, being "ex," they are dead." "So it doesn't matter whether they really are or they are." "Oh, it matters." "It matters a lot." "That's why you should be really able to kill them." "'Cause it really does matter." "That's what you want to do, you know." "I mean, that's really what you want to do." "You don't want them to go on and just go on, you know... just go on and have a life." "You want them to be..." "not exist any more so that you don't..." "You want them dead." "That's right." "I don't..." "I want them eliminated, you know." "So that you don't have to just deal with that... and deal with that and deal with that." "You know?" "I mean, that's what you really want, so that's what you really should do." "You just don't want to, you know..." " I'll bet that scares you, huh?" " No." "You don't wanna be any ex-lover to no guy that's gonna eliminate you, do you?" "I" "Was only passing by" "And then you caught my eye" "What a thrill" "My heart and I stood still" "Lucky for me" "That you" "Came strolling into view" "I took one look and knew" "You were love passing by" "Darling" "I never dreamed that I'd discover" "A passerby who'd be my lover" "From now on, we'll walk" "Together" "And" "The world will seem so grand" "As we go hand in hand" "You and I" "Passing by" " They are not here." "They're in Europe." " Yeah, I know." "I love you from Paris... to Geneva..." "No, I don't." "I love you from Paris..." "To Geneva." "Yeah." "I love you from Geneva... to Vienna." "I love you from Vienna..." "to Budapest." "Everybody out!" "Everybody out!" "I love you from Budapest to Wars..." "No, I don't." "I love you from Budapest... to Danzig." "I love you from Danzig to Warsaw." "I love you from Warsaw to Berlin." "I love you from Berlin... to Paris." "I love you from Paris to Madrid." "I love you from Madrid to Lisbon." "I love you from..." "Lisbon... to..." "I love you from Lisbon to..." "I love you from Lisbon." "Vous qui passer san me voir" "Disappear." "Disappear." "I think I'm leaving." "It's just a matter of time." "There's a someone I am longing to see..." "I hope that he turns out to be..." "Someone who'll watch over me..." "I think you're gone." "I'm a little babe who's lost in the wood..." "Yes, you're gone." " I know I could..." " You're gone." " Always be good..." " You're gone." "To one who'll watch" "Over me" "I'm havin' such a good time." "Aren't you?" "Well, you can't expect it to stay the same." "I know, I know, I know." "Put your hand into my pocket." "I'm trying..." "I can't remember something I wanted to remember." "Remember." "I remember." "Close your eyes, Susan." "Close them tighter." "What do you see?" "Now open your eyes." "And open your hands." "Are you sleepy?" "Yes." "Sleep then, Susan." "Can you tell me a story?" "Somewhere in the world is a certain city... which contains all other cities in all the world." "And in that city is a street which runs through all streets in that city." "And on that street there's a house... which contains all other houses on that street." "And in that house there's a room which holds all rooms." "And there, there sits a man in whom all other men can see themselves." "And that man... is laughing." "That's all he ever does." "That's all he ever did... and all... he ever will do." "Disappear." " No." " Disappear." " No." " Disappear." "No!" "Won't you tell him, please" "To put on some speed" "Follow my lead" "Oh, how I need" "Someone to watch" "Over" "Me" "Hi." "Hi." "What's up?" "Up?" "Up." "You know, new." "I thought you'd left." "I changed my mind." "Where's..." "Huh?" "Oh." "What'd you say?" "Where-Where is..." "Oh." "Oh, he left." "He left hours ago." "I'll get some coffee." "You'd better take off your overcoat." "You'll get all overheated in here with that coat on." "Life is death, and death is life." "Did you and Mitch what's-his-name, uh..." "Yes." "No." "He's wonderful at it." "He hurts me." "You never hurt me." "I know." "I can't." "What are you doing with your overcoat still on?" "My goodness." "You're gonna catch a cold." "He loved me." "He loved me... when I was a little girl." "I could tell, when the lights came on, when he looked at me." "I'm going up to the roof." "Uh, I..." "I, uh..." "I have to go to the bathroom." "I'll be up in a few minutes." ""Eat everything that's on your plate."" ""No water." "I don't care how thirsty you get."" ""Children..." "Children in Europe are starving."" "Noah?" ""Stop fiddling in your seat."" "Hey." "Noah?" ""Have some discipline."" "Noah?" ""Promise to go to sleep when we get to 'happily ever after."'" "It's empty." "No!" "No!" "No!" "I don't believe you!" "You're lying now!" "Noah?" "Noah?" "Noah?" "And" "The world will seem so grand" "As we go hand in hand" "You and I" "Passing by..." "Time to... to go now!" "Time to go now!" "Time to go now!" "Time to go now!" "Time to go now!" "Time to go now!" "Time to... to go now!" "Time to go now!" "Time to go now!" "Time to go now!" "Time to go now!" "Time to go now!" " Time to go now!" " Stay right there!" "I remember."