"doctors spend a lot of time focused on the future... planning it... working toward it." "but at some point, you start to realize, your life is happening now..." "Any changes overnight?" "No." "not after med school, not after residency, right now." "this is it. it's here." "blink and you'll miss it." "Oh, it's the Chief. somebody better make a coffee run." "You all look like hell." "i gotta be in surgery in ten minutes." "Um, Mer, will you let me know?" "Yeah." "We should go, too." "it's probably gonna be a while." "Shepherd said she'd wake up in the morning." "What did he tell you?" "was that all crap?" "What did he say?" "He said it may be a while." "She's gonna wake up." "Stevens still isn't awake." "And i'm having something of a day even aside from that." "So... don't take my face personally." "It's just my face today." "did you tell her?" "Uh, you should tell her," "And don't take her face personally." "okay, well..." "On behalf of the department of pediatric surgery," "I'd like to welcome you to the fellowship program." "You're in!" "we're gonna get you a pair of wheelie sneaks." "congratulations." "All right." "I know i didn't support you during this process." "In any event, i am behind you now." "I'm trying to be a big person here." "How about you meet me halfway?" "wake up. wake up." "Wake up. wake up." "Wake up. wake up." "I have a headache." "you're up?" "You're up and you're talking." "You talked, right?" "Talk!" "Ow. i said i have a headache. stop yelling." "Page Shepherd!" "Ow." "i'm sorry." "Captioned by closed captioning services, inc." "Hey, what's with hugging O'Malley?" "I slept, cristina." "Last night, i slept for the first time in... i slept." "And, uh, i don't know," "Hugging O'Malley because you slept?" "No, i hugged O'Malley 'cause he's got great news," "Which i'll let him tell you, but, yeah, i... i guess," "Yeah, maybe i hugged him because i slept." "And that's because of you," "Because you came with me to see my mom," "And then i slept, and i slept without nightmares." "That's not a small thing, cristina." "that... that is everything." "i can be a better man." "I can be a better man for you, and if..." "I hope, you know, if you'll let me," "I can be a better man with you." "No, don't say anything." "Just... just think about it, okay?" "okay?" "What" "Mm." "Dr. Bailey, i need to tell you something." "oh, not now, O'Malley." "I know. it'll be quick 'cause i gotta" "Get to the o.r. to scrub in with the Chief." "Now i think you're gonna be mad at first," "But i'm about to do something important," "And i'm very sure about this decision," "And i-i think eventually, you're gonna be proud." "But, you know, before that," "You're probably gonna be like..." ""what did you do?" "!"" "i'm... i don't mean to imitate you-- you call that quick?" "I joined the army to be a trauma surgeon." "I report for duty tomorrow." "You did what?" "!" "Yeah, that's where i thought we'd start." "You know, something's going on with George." "what?" "Owen hugged him." "they were happy." "Well, we don't hug when we're happy." "Are you better?" "What?" "You know, with your therapy." "uh, whatever." "You said you got well." "well, are you... better?" "Or are you just, you know, fake better?" "what do you mean?" "I'm asking you if people, you know..." "I mean, are you actually different?" "I mean, do you feel different?" "I'm getting married today." "mm-hmm. city hall." "No muss, no fuss." "just quick and dirty." "Well, uh..." "do you want me to come?" "No, no." "just letting you know." "Oh, no, wait. uh, uh..." "Okay, this is my grocery list." "It's old." "uh, this--this is new." "Um, this is my favorite pen, so i want it back. borrowed." "And all of it's blue, so you're covered." "Now see, if we were George and Owen," "We would hug right now." "Dude." "Unidentified male, dragged by a bus." "He's clamped down, so we couldn't intubate." "Didn't they stop when they hit him?" "bus driver didn't know he was there" "Until he got halfway down the block." "oh, is he gonna be okay?" "Okay, i'll take over c.p.r." "push 20 etomidate and 100 of sux." "He saved my life." "The bus was gonna hit me." "he threw me out of the way." "Grey, get her out of here." "it was supposed to be me under the bus. he's all alone." "They don't even know who he is. please." "all right, stand over there and just don't move." "He's back." "okay, let's get a trauma series," "Trauma labs and o-neg blood in here." "Severe avulsion injury to the left forearm." "Whoa." "okay, his skull is bashed in." "Page Shepherd." "and Sloan." "Start antibiotics and start cleaning out those wounds." "uh..." "Now can you get her out of here?" "Did you get the whole thing?" "Did you get the whole tumor out?" "Just let me finish my exam." "Can you tell me your name?" "My name is isobel stevens." "it's 2009." "And i'm in the... neuro i.c.u. at seattle grace hospital." "Did you get the damn thing out?" "got the whole damn thing." "You got it?" "yeah." "Oh, god. you got the whole thing." "And i can talk and i know my name" "And i'm not a turnip." "nope." "No offense." "oh, no." "You are a great surgeon, but i really thought" "I was gonna be a turnip." "This is so unbelievably great." "Your, uh, kidneys are a little sluggish," "So we're just gonna keep an eye on your electrolytes" "For a few hours." "Your post-op crit was-- was fine." "okay, good. good." "Good." "How did the surgery go?" "Did you get the brain tumor?" "did you get it out?" "Iz, you just asked him that." "We just talked about it." "No, no, it's okay. she's gonna be foggy for a while." "The tumor's out." "There was a little bleeding during the post" "You got it?" "yeah." "All of it?" "mm-hmm." "That's amazing." "Derek Shepherd, you... are a hero." "And i know that that's Derek Shepherd." "And you're Alex." "and you should kiss me." "Alex..." "I don't have a brain tumor." "I'm tumor-free." "yes, you are." "What's wrong?" "why do you look weird?" "No, nothing. nothing." "Uh, your kidneys are a little slow." "We're just gonna watch them." "Okay. so you'll just recheck my electrolytes in an hour?" "mm-hmm." "Okay." "How did the surgery go?" "Did you get the tumor?" "We did." "The tumor's gone." "There was a little bit of bleeding," "And we took care of that." "You got it?" "mm-hmm." "Oh, my god." "And i can talk, and you didn't kill me." "What's wrong with you people?" "we should be celebrating." "we will." "She's like the woman" "Who couldn't remember her husband was dead." "We had to keep telling her every five minutes." "could be a perfectly normal post-operative haze." "Or the bleeding during the procedure" "Blitzed her short-term retention." "Did you screw up her brain?" "Karev-- i'll be back." "try and stay calm." "Freaking her out is not gonna help." "Wake up." "whoa." "Man versus bus." "the bus won." "Check out the left arm." "he's crashing again!" "What do we got?" "we got roadkill." "You mind?" "he stepped out in front of a moving bus" "So he could pull a woman out of the way. he's a hero." "can you fix the arm?" "Fingers are already blue." "if it's gonna happen," "It's gotta be in the next few hours." "pupil's blown. stop c.p.r." "Okay, give me a cranial drill, please." "Grey, want to practice your, uh, burr holes?" "stabilize his neck, please, nurse." "Okay, hand her the drill." "Okay, go in slowly." "when you feel it grab, stop, 'cause otherwise you're gonna be hitting the brain." "okay, let's go. quickly." "right there!" "pull back, pull back!" "that's it." "that's enough!" "Nice work, dr. grey." "I'm gonna go get some bacitracin for that face." "All right. let's get his head rotated. easy." "Watch--watch his neck." "welcome back, sir. you had us worried there for a minute." "You think he's gonna make it?" "I hope so." "He really has to make it." "Oh." "Dr. Sloan." "There's gonna be too much tension." "Start over and do a layered closure." "Um, c--uh, c-can i ask a question about that?" "Okay. you brought up moving in together" "And marriage, and i put it off." "And now you're embarrassed" "And you won't make eye contact with me because" "You feel that i have all the power in the relationship," "But i don't want all the power in the relationship." "I--i'm happy to share it." "can we just skip this part?" "Get some 4-0 vicryl so you can redo your patient's sutures." "I'll totally pretend i didn't hear any of that." "Women do this to me." "i don't do this." ""let's get a house together." sucks being the girl, huh?" "I'm not the girl." "What do girls do?" "Well, uh, we start with the cold shoulder," "So you're right on track." "And we go to our girlfriends and we bitch," "And our girlfriends say, "you want to build a future," ""build it yourself." ""you don't need a man to give you that." ""so you want to buy a house?" "Buy a house."" "Huh." "You're good at this." "i ought to help someone get a love life." "I suck at my own." "He jumped in front of a bus..." "for me." "What did you do to O'Malley?" "excuse me?" "Uh, somebody else around here likely to convince someone" "To join the army and be a trauma surgeon in Iraq?" "what?" "!" "the army?" "!" "What?" "v-fib." "charge the paddles to 360." "Just call who you have to call and undo this." "dr." "Bailey, little busy here." "Clear." "George?" "George O'Malley?" "It wasn't my idea." "no change." "Charge again." "clear." "I did what i could to give him a decent education in trauma." "I didn't know he was gonna go and enlist." "He keeps coding." "here's why-- open-book pelvic fracture." "There's too much bleeding." "We take him to an o.r. now, he'll die on the table." "He needs to go to angio if we're gonna stop" "The pelvic arterial bleeding." "sinus tach. we have a rhythm." "It's barely there, but it's there." "let's stabilize the pelvis." "I know what goes on in this hospital." "I know you're messed up from that war," "And not in a small way." "get him out of it." "Page me if you need me." "i've got other patients." "How'd you piss off all the women?" "um, let's get our guy to angio." "Angio?" "he's barely got a pulse." "it's now or never if we want him to live. let's move." "Sir, i know it's tough," "But i'd personally be very grateful" "If you'd try and stay alive for the next few minutes." "Maybe we're bouncier in peds than in general surgery," "But i thought that there would be a "yay"" "Or some jumping around." "'cause you look pretty dour for someone" "Who's about to start a highly prized fellowship." "you are about to start a highly prized fellowship, right?" "Hey, i've got a plan to stop George. are you in?" "stop George from what?" "He joined the army." "yes, i'm in." "Bailey, i'm talking to you." "why are you trying to stop him?" "Because he joined the army." "and?" "And because he's my ex-husband," "And i know his mom and i love his mom," "And normally izzie would talk sense into him," "But she's got cancer and kind of a bad mental deficit," "So it's on me to stop him." "but why would you want to stop him?" "Because he joined the army." "Don't you think that's a problem?" "i think that's awesome." "Awesome?" "You gonna chew?" "mm." "My dragged-under-a-bus guy's in angio," "And they're gonna page me any minute." "How's izzie?" "is she retaining anything?" "no." "Okay, uh, at 6:00 p.m.," "Your idiotic colleague George O'Malley" "Will finish his surgery with the Chief." "and at 6:00 p.m.," "You will be standing beside us in the o.r. hallway," "Prepared to join in an intervention." "what polite company might call an intervention," "Though i'm not sure interventions" "Involve whooping people on the behind with a belt." "What, he's got a drinking problem now?" "he joined the army." "What?" "!" "007?" "he can't go to army." "He's the guy that gets killed." "he's that guy who gets killed cleaning his own gun." "Grey is going to coax him back as a loving friend." "You are going to use logic and reason" "To point out the idiocy of his ways." "Stevens will make sad cancer eyes." "And if all of that doesn't work, Karev, you're gonna pull out" "Your "i was raised out back with the trash cans" roots" "And just beat the crap out of him." "6:00." "6:00." "Hey there." "I know this must be scary, but if it's any consolation," "You're a hard-core hero." "You saved that woman's life." "I-is he trying to write something?" "Can you hold this?" "Oh, okay." "You'll be stronger tomorrow." "call o.r. one." "tell 'em to get ready for him." "Amanda, you can't be out here." "Would you want to be all alone at a time like this?" "We had 30 seconds of interaction" "Before he saved my life," "And... and i wasn't even nice." "I was standing on a corner when this..." "Ordinary-looking guy stands next to me and smiles," "And... and i'm so busy" "Scoping for someone hotter that..." "I don't even give him a second look." "And next thing i know, he throws me" "Out of the way of a bus i'm about to walk in front of" "And almost gets himself killed." "He literally..." "he swept me off my feet." "That is my prince in that bed." "Okay, you can stay until they take him to surgery." "Uh, not a good time." "you know what?" "you walk away from me again," "I swear i will grab you by the hair and pull hard." "I grew up with the name arizona." "I learned how to play dirty on the playground." "I stuck my neck out for you." "you were my pick. and i appreciate that, but it's a big decision." "It's not, frankly." "it's the brass ring." "It's the most exclusive, it's the most competitive," "And we're as good as it gets." "Nobody lands this thing and says no." "My husband informed me yesterday" "That if i accept the peds fellowship," "If i sign on for another two years of training" "And the hours and the workload that come with it" "When i could be a general surgery attending" "And make it home for dinner," "He will divorce me." "it's a big decision." "You're gonna have a hard time saving that arm." "I can get him back to full function" "If i can get there in time." "I'm thinking about buying a house." "good for you." "Meredith and i are gonna go to city hall this afternoon." "We're getting married." "really?" "Mm-hmm." "That's great news." "i know." "If i could just save stevens" "You're allowed to be happy." "you're allowed to get married." "You've earned that right." "Congratulations, you lucky bastard." "Come here." "give me a hug." "Oh." "Why is everyone hugging today?" "Oh, the blushing bride." "All right, here is the plan for our john doe." "Shepherd, you'll evacuate the epidural." "Grey and i will correct the internal injuries." "That'll make room for torres to place the internal fixator." "Sloan, you should still have time to work on the arm" "If the patient doesn't get too acidotic or hypothermic." "Do you think he has a shot?" "i've seen people come back from worse." "Hey, i thought you were in surgery." "I'm on my way." "have you talked to Bailey" "About this peds and Tucker thing?" "no, i talked to Bailey about the army thing and George." "Are you upset with me?" "No, i'm awesome." "Calliope-- no, do not-- do not "Calliope" me, okay?" "You said it was awesome." "George--sweet, kind George who can't even kill a fly" "Is joining the army to go to Iraq" "In the middle of a war, and you said "awesome." it is awesome." "No, it is not awesome." "god!" "who are you?" "how's the arm?" "the nerves are still intact." "Just have to reattach the vessels." "you ready for me?" "I'm almost done with the major internal crush injuries." "Pelvis will be all yours in a minute." "Give me some more laps, please." "you think you could do it?" "Step in front of a bus for a perfect stranger?" "we'd all like to think we would, but" "That's more or less what major hunt's been doing" "Every day for the last couple of years." "oh, no, the guys did." "i just came in behind 'em" "With a dustpan and a broom and swept up." "You sewed up soldiers under fire." "You didn't sweep up." "How do you think O'Malley is gonna do over there?" "You think--you think he can handle it?" "no, i don't." "I think he's gonna surprise us all." "I think he's coming back in a body bag." "I think you all should just shut up." "Just shut the hell up." "Please. shut up." ""Shepherd got your whole tumor out."" "Oh, my god." "Alex, why didn't you tell me?" "oh, my god." "Oh." "but we're working on it." "You remember what time you woke up this morning?" "Um, not exactly." "7:45." "7:45." ""O'Malley joined the army"?" "What?" "yeah, he's gonna be a trauma surgeon in Iraq." "When'd you wake up?" "7:45." "he's gonna get killed." "yeah, we're dealing with it." "Did you know about this George thing?" "Yep. canon fodder." "I'm just gonna take some more blood." "Last time we checked, your potassium was 6.3." "When'd you wake up?" "um, early." "i can't quite remember. i... 7:45. 6.3. 7:45." ""O'Malley joined the army"?" "George?" "We're dealing with it." "What's your potassium?" "Uh, i..." "Iz, what's your potassium?" "you know what?" "Why don't we just give her the chart to read" "And try and memorize, okay?" "And i can talk to you about her hyperkalemia." "Look, she just had brain surgery" "And an incredibly aggressive course of i.l.-2." "She needs rest. she needs to exercise whatever memory she's got left" "Before it all turns to mush." "well, she's not gonna heal" "With you barking orders at her like a caveman." "Butt out, Yang." "no, she's my patient. i don't care if you're her husband." "Look, she-- you want to see how fast i can get your visiting hours" "Down to zero?" "she signed a d.n.r. she signed a friggin' d.n.r." "And made me promise she'd come outta this with a life." "Not in a hospital bed, not with no brain," "I had to promise she'd have a life." "You want to know what happens" "If she can't make any new memories?" "Forget about being a doctor." "She's gonna need round-the-clock babysitters." "We get an apartment together, and she can't ever" "Find her way to the damn toilet." "Tracker on her ankle in case, god forbid," "She wanders out the front door!" "Alex, you can handle this." "she will get better." "Maybe. maybe not." "it's on me." "Her future is on me." "Is he gonna be okay?" "We'll know more in the morning." "Go ahead." "How's she doing?" "any better?" "No." "damn." "Well, i'm going to city hall" "To go do the thing." "Seriously?" "it doesn't seem like the day for it." "look at Alex." "He's in there working so hard all day," "And she doesn't know." "And if she stays like this," "She may never know how much he loves her." "And that girl amanda..." "She's in there loving a stranger." "She thinks that's her prince charming." "mm." "I mean, he's probably gonna die today, chances are." "So yeah, i'm gonna go get married." "Because i think it's important to take the time" "To tell the people you love how much you love them" "While they can hear you." "I love you, cristina Yang." "You have changed." "Mm. maybe i have." "What?" "I'm gonna hug you." "I don't see things." "So maybe i just don't get" "What's going on with you or why you're so mad," "But i do think it's awesome." "I think that George joining the army is awesome. um, shut up." "Um, no. you asked me who i was." "I am a person who thinks that what George is doing" "Is dangerous and terrifying and brave." "He's going to serve his country." "He's going to risk his life to save the men and women" "Who make it possible for you and i" "To sleep safely in our beds." "I'm a person who thinks that that is brave." "And i am a person who stood in an airplane hanger" "And watched them unload my brother's body" "In a coffin... and all we got was a flag." "my brother died over there" "Because there weren't enough doctors, callie." "So for my money, George O'Malley is a patriot." "He's a hero," "And i am grateful that he exists." "So yeah, the word i use is "awesome."" "That's who i am." "I'm sorry." "Sorry, i-i didn't realize" "Oh, no, no, wait." "I..." "love..." "You." "Well, i-i-i love you, too." "No, just..." "I love you." "I said-- i said "i love you."" "Me." "Cristina Yang." "You traumatized me." "And you know that i am s-- i am so sorry about" "Oh, no, damn it." "not about the choking." "It's... it's like you come here and then you pull out my icicle" "And you make me love you, and i can't" "I mean, i don't want to-- i-i can't breathe..." "Without you." "You can do this." "cristina, we can do this." "All you have to do is just meet me halfway." "All you have to do is say yes." "All you have to do is say yes." "What's your crit?" "Ugh." "this is disgusting." "I can't believe we serve it to the patients." ""you keep asking for lime jell-o" "And don't like it."" "So stop giving it to me." "You get mad if i don't." "Okay, now what's your crit?" "I don't know." "i'm tired." "What's O'Malley doing tomorrow?" "Joining the army." "Yeah." "i need a break." "You don't think i need a break?" "suck it up." "What--god." "Back off." "I'm sorry if this is hard for you," "But you are not the one" "With the short-term memory of a carrot." "Hey. go ahead." "get it off your chest." "It's not like i'm gonna remember in five minutes." "okay, i'm not the one with a carrot for a brain," "But i'm married to it 'cause of some crock of a wedding" "We walked into, and only because" "The two of us thought you'd be dead within a week." "You made me promise you that you wouldn't live like this." "So now what the hell am i supposed to do," "Smother you with a pillow," "Shoot you up with a-an overdose of morphine?" "Not really psyched about that. leave you?" "Not really psyched about that either." "So i guess i'm kinda screwed, right?" "I mean, not as bad as you," "But not a friggin' walk in the park, either." "I'm sorry, iz." "No." "I told you to get it off your chest. you did." "Did you forget yet?" "Nope. not yet." "Give me a minute." "Um... j" "If there's still a spot for me in general surgery," "I'd like to take you up on that." "I spent months trying to talk you off peds." "I finally get on board, and you change your mind?" "Tucker gave me an ultimatum" "The fellowship or our marriage." "You chose your marriage." "No, i'm leaving him," "Because a marriage that resorts to ultimatums," "That's not a marriage." "I mean, what kind of husband does that?" "So... i'm going to be a single mom." "it's not the time for..." "New specialties." "Damn." "I'm sorry." "It's just the first time i said it out loud," "So it just kinda took the wind out of me." "Miranda, are you sure about this?" "I mean, he might come around." "He... he's just scared." "Well, we're all scared." "I mean, if you're not scared, you're not paying attention." "O-one of my residents just signed up to go to war." "That's scary." "Another one just almost lost her life to melanoma." "Now she doesn't know what day it is." "That's scary." "What Tucker's facing isn't scary." "He's just weak." "No, a pat on the back isn't gonna help, sir." "Okay." "um, should i go?" "uh..." "Okay. okay." "Okay." "I'll just stand here with you" "If that's all right." "Yes, sir." "That would be fine." "I thought you were operating on john doe." "I already did. right now i'm looking at houses." "One has a stone fireplace, which i like." "This one has a backyard the size of montana." "Uh-huh." "you're buying a house?" "Yeah." "Right." "okay." "I'm buying a house right now." "It's a buyer's market, and i'm buying a house." "The only reason that you're even talking about a house" "Is to make me feel bad." "You're trying to prove that you're moving on without me" "So then i'll regret my decision and change my mind." "okay, is this what women are doing" "When they say they're moving on?" "yeah." "They don't usually take out a home loan to do it, but" "Pathetic. let me be clear." "i'm moving on." "I'm a better woman than you." "ready to go?" "I just got a page. our john doe needs to go back into surgery." "Yeah. his post-op c.t. showed a re-bleed." "I'm gonna have nelson take care of it." "no, really?" "Yeah. well, i'd prefer to do it myself," "But i want to check in on izzie." "Maybe we can go do that first and then go get married after?" "no, we can't" "Because we have the George intervention after that." "i'll have nelson do it." "You know what?" "tell them to prep him." "We'll run to city hall, we'll come back" "And we'll do it then." "Meredith" "No, you know, let's go." "we gotta go." "We gotta run to city hall, we'll come back," "You'll check on izzie, we'll monitor john doe," "I'll go talk George out of joining the army-- look, we could do this another day." "There is no other day." "every day is like this." "Every day there's a crisis." "there's no time." "Meredith" "I love you, and i do want to marry you today," "But there is no time." "You have a piece of paper?" "For what?" "I want to be with you forever," "And you want to be with me forever." "And in order to do that, we need to make vows," "A commitment, a contract." "Give me a piece of paper." "I don't." "I-i-i don't." "I-i have post-its." "Okay." "What do we want to promise each other?" "That you'll love me..." "Even when you hate me." "To love each other even when we hate each other." "No running... ever." "Nobody walks out no matter what happens." "No running." "what else?" "That we'll take care of each other" "Even when we're old and smelly and senile," "And if i get alzheimer's and forget you..." "I will remind you who i am every day." "To take care when old, senile... and smelly." "This..." "Is forever." "Sign." "This is our wedding, a post-it?" "Mm-hmm. if you sign it." "Now what?" "Now i kiss the bride." "Married." "Married." "See that?" "Plenty of time." "Gotta do an e.k.g." "What, i don't even get any small talk?" "What's your problem?" "well, i'll tell you." "I know that i'm supposed to be grateful" "For my "new lease on life,"" "But Alex marched in here and basically told me" "That being married to me" "Was the worst thing that ever happened to him." "Yeah, and that he was trying to decide" "If smothering me with a pillow was the best way" "To put us both out of our misery." "Okay, where is it?" "Where is what?" "Where's the note that says that?" "Did you write that down?" "no." "No." "Yes." "Yes." "i've gotta go." "i've gotta find Alex." "Go, go." "Oh, i'm sorry. i was just-- i was looking for George." "Bailey, it's after 6:00." "Yes, uh, we scheduled an intervention" "So that we could give O'Malley a piece of our minds" "About this idiotic army business." "Now did he leave already?" "he never scrubbed in." "He told me he was enlisting." "i sent him home," "Told him to spend the day with his mom" "Since he was leaving so soon." "Uh, he took off this morning." "How's his i.c.p.?" "Uh. worse." "o.r. is expecting us." "I thought you were getting married." "we did." "Oh, congratulations." "You sure you want to start your honeymoon in an o.r.?" "we're sure." "You can't be in here." "I'll come and get you in the waiting room." "Hold his hand until you put him under." "It really does make him feel better." "Okay." "well, you made a good friend there." "I guess that happens when you take a bus for somebody." "Okay." "I know this is scary," "But you do have a great team up there." "You want to try to write again?" "Can you hold the pen?" "No." "Okay, "o."" ""o."" "7?" "Double 0... 7." "Oh, god!" "oh, god." "You paged me. what do you need?" "well, way to go, dipwad." "Telling your wife you're trying to figure out how to off her?" "Oh, mind your own bus" "Wait." "how did you know that?" "She told me." "You remember?" "Pillow or morphine." "i got the whole thing." "Oh, i'm so sorry." "i didn't mean that." "Of course you didn't." "You love me too much to shoot me up with morphine" "Even if i asked you to." "And my stupid corked brain is coming back." "oh, my god. i was so scared." "I mean, i would've loved you no matter what, but..." "You're back. you're back." "Iz?" "Iz?" "Izzie?" "Yang!" "it's George!" "it's George!" "It's George!" "john doe is George!" "Izzie, look at me." "open your eyes!" "Page Shepherd. page the Chief and Bailey right now." "we have you, O'Malley." "you hear me?" "we have you." "We'll fix this." "just stay with us." "O'Malley, it's Shepherd." "You're not going anywhere." "you understand me?" "B.p.'s dropping." "all right, let's put him out, now." "What happened?" "is it her brain?" "No, it's hyperkalemia." "we couldn't control the arrhythmias." "Her pressure's dropping off a cliff." "give me an intubation tray." "Alex..." "She signed a d.n.r. shut up, Yang." "She knew this might happen." "that's why she signed it." "i don't give a crap what she signed." "Alex, it's not what she wants." "get a crash cart!" "Karev, if she doesn't" "Look at her!" "get a crash cart!" "Screw the d.n.r. hand me those paddles." "Yang, take over compressions." "Karev, back up." "i got it. i got it." "one, two, three." "and down." "Okay, down." "did you say it?" "i love you..." "Clear." "i don't ever want to live without you... you changed my life... did you say it?" "make a plan... set a goal... work toward it... but every now and again, look around... drink it in." "'cause this is it." "we're losing him!" "come on." "Iz." "come on." "v-fib. clear!" "it might all be gone tomorrow."