"PANIC" "X, O, X, O, X..." "X, O, X..." "Morning!" "The session starts soon." "I am your new therapist, Berta." "I am Zsuzsi." "Hurry up!" "And bring something personal with you!" "What's up, Dick?" "Where are my papers?" "Dick, dear friend." "I'll be cleared of all charges, won't even get a fine." "The day they sacked you," "I went to the bathroom, and there was a sign on the wall:" "Dick equals Zsuzsi." "That's his real name, because he's is a fag." "That's what it said." "What the fuck has this got to do with me?" "Don't make that innocent face, Pedro!" "What's all this shit?" "Where is the evidence?" "At the district prosecutor's." "You can take a look at it in court." "You fucked me, you gay asshole!" "You know Pedro..." "Because of creeps like you..." "I always wear a cup!" "Eat shit you fucking fairy!" "Time for payback." "I'll kill you, shithead!" "Say that you're a little girl!" "I'm a girl." "Say:" "I am Zsuzsi!" "Say:" "I am Zsuzsi!" "I am Zsuzsi." "Get the fuck out of here, scumbag!" "If I ever see you again I'll put a bow in your hair, you, Zsuzsika!" "Whoops!" "There!" "– Seems old." "– That's it!" "It's an old police gun." "Without a registration number." "– Here: it's clean." "– And the bullets?" "Cartridges my friend!" "Here, this is the magazine, the firing pin, this is the trigger." "Excuse me." "Yes?" "Hallo, Kálmán!" "When are you coming?" "You said you'd come in the morning!" "– Coming, Mama, coming." "– Right now!" "Please, hurry up!" "I'm nervous!" "Do you know how this new camera works?" "I'm coming I just have some errands but coming as soon as I can..." "Ok, don't!" "Disappoint me again, I'll deal with it myself!" "Good morning!" "– Are you cold?" "– Yes." "– We should get to the car." "– Let's run!" "– No way!" "– Come on!" "Let's go!" "Good morning, everybody!" "I am Dr Berta Berger," "I will be in charge of group therapy." "My specialty is combining various methods to strengthen your spirits." "This is an ancient Western Siberian rite." "Please stand up and make a circle around the jug!" "No, no, you won't need that yet!" "Let's all make a circle and huddle up!" "And now recite the following poem:" "Evil, evil, get out, stop eating my heart!" "Evil, evil, get out, stop eating my heart!" "Good, and now I want you all to spit, symbolically drain out the evil spirits!" "I've never ever done this before!" "Trust me!" "I'll cure you." "You must've run far today." "We'll have to go soon." "I met Pedro." "– That corrupt, asshole?" "– Yeah." "I couldn't get over what he wrote on the wall." "How do you know it was him!" "I know it." "Now we're even." "Let's go, we'll be late!" "Dick!" "– I have to tell you something!" "– What?" "I want to ask the captain for an appointment," "I want to tell him that... – this thing about me." "– What thing?" "I don't get it." "Well..." "I decided to tell him that..." "that I'm gay." "What?" "I've been thinking about this for a while." "It happens in the States all the time." "– Why can't it be the same here?" "– Are you out of your mind?" "I almost killed a redneck for this." "Are you kidding?" "One, two, three, four, five, six, seven..." "The seeds'!" "I guard the dark forces that cause all your problems." "By the time they're grown, you will be cured." "So please show me your personal objects!" "Zsuzsi!" "Imagine his reaction!" "Dick, Il mean it." "Are you out of your mind?" "Don't do this!" "Somehow I was hoping that you'd be proud of me." "I don't feel good like this." "I think the captain will understand." "And you'll tell him that we're together, right?" "No Dino!" "I'm not gonna be the token fag!" "Dildos in my drawer, gay pics on my windscreen, right?" "!" "They would sack us!" "– You know them!" "– I'll only speak for myself." "I need the permission, I don't want to pretend any more." "If I want to chat to men in the office I will." "Whose business is it anyway?" "Just fucking try that!" "Help, help, help!" "Fire!" "Somebody!" "If there was a pill that made me straight," "I'd take it." "Every day like the pill!" "Love that jacket of yours, big dick!" "Should have a golden label on the back that says BIG DICK..." "BIG DICK," "– that's all that matters!" "– Don't touch me in public." "– Dino, get your hand off me!" "– Who can see us?" "Dino, move your hand!" "We're not on the German highway!" "I like my peace and quiet." "What?" "How?" "I like my peace and quiet." "That's why I'm going to the captain." "No more lies." "If he sacks me I'll find something else." "I just want to live my life." "What's that over there?" "Stop!" "Help, fire, somebody, help!" "Open up ma'am!" "Try to open the door!" "Ma'am!" "Open up!" "Police!" "Break in the door!" "It's open!" "Where's the fire, ma'am?" "Fire?" "Nowhere." "I smelled smoke in the hall, got scared and had to ask for help." "I am so glad that you are here!" "Would you like some coffee?" "My Mum adored her job, she was a guide for 30 years." "On the go all the time, entertaining foreigners..." "She once calculated that she showed the Fisherman's Bastion to over 46,000 guests!" "But she hasn't led a group in years." "She translates cookbooks now and then." "How do you feel about her?" "She's a bit self-centered but she's cool." "We get along alright." "There is really nothing bad about my family or my work." "I am a pr director at a bank." "That's all." "And how about your brother?" "He's a very sweet, smart kid." "He's quiet and serious, but I really love him." "He never causes any trouble!" "It's me!" "Hi, Mom." "Mother, I'll save you." "Let's learn to appreciate the fact that we are human!" "This is the guiding principle of our institution, so remember it!" "Here, I brought you something." "Chocolate." "This is the best chocolate in the world." "It's so unique that each bar has a serial number." "Here, take a bite!" "Careful, the effect is really strong!" "Chocolate!" "Wow!" "Give me some." "If a woman has a bite of this you can ask her to do anything." "Wow, nice!" "Just take my daughter Kirill!" "No need to complicate things!" "If anything happens I'll call you, okay?" "Bye!" "– Make sure you give me a ring!" "– Sure, Dóri." "– Bye then but call me!" "– All right." "Come, come, let me show you something!" "Hi." "– Come, sit down!" "– All right, all right!" "Look at this!" "All right!" "Wait, I need my glasses." "The firemen came." "They broke into my place, just like that." "– What?" "– So, can you see now?" "Look, what a nice picture!" "I look good, don't I?" "You do." "Ten men rushed in and here I was in my frock." "Imagine that!" "– What did they want?" "– What do I know?" "Looking for the fire." "I gave them coffee and guess what, one of them asked me to dance!" "And imagine, I got his phone number!" "Go on!" "A tall man with lovely eyes and he introduced himself as:" "Pali from Kertész Street!" "Who gives a shit about Kertész Street?" "All men are idiots!" "So, where shall we shop?" "Hang on, don't you want some coffee?" "What, no champagne?" "Too late for coffee at 10 am!" "Ok, I'll get some." "Coming." "This is exactly how I picture myself!" "I see myself in 30 years time men bustling about, me controlling them all..." "Is this why you spent ages becoming a detective, dummy?" "To go completely nuts one day?" "Take it easy, Dick!" "Don't spoil the mood!" "Now we can scribble a two-page-report about how great it was to have coffee at a fake victim's place!" "No need to write anything, this was informal." "We always have to write reports that's the rule!" "– And I always stick to the rules!" "– Watch out!" "Is this the day?" "The day for what?" "The day you came up with in your stupid horoscope" "– for my death, remember?" "– Oh..." "Don't you remember?" "Stop saying things like that for heaven's sake!" "You are not going to die today, or tomorrow nor the day after!" "Thanks a lot." "So it was supposed to be today." "Admit it!" "Or have a look again, in case you don't remember." "I do sort of..." "but I don't believe in that anymore!" "And I have never believed in it!" "I hate it!" "Ilona!" "There are so many things that lie ahead of me!" "I know that a big love affair will come." "Or many little ones!" "Lots of sweet little flings." "I am still so peppy, am I not?" "Yes, you should have some more kids too!" "You are so stupid!" "Forget this!" "Let's go shopping!" "I want to get some stuff for my son." "I'm turning Kálmán into a real man!" "He'll have to be independent!" "From now on I'll be more self-centered." "Then take off that crappy wig!" "You are silent again." "Are you an owl?" "No I am not an owl." "Ha, you lost!" "What are you concentrating on?" "You keep losing." "On the evil." "Kálmán, you should learn how to be professionally unbalanced." "Take me!" "Day after day I cheerfully face insecurity," "I know how to be wholeheartedly neurotic!" "Okay, I wouldn't call myself happy..." "Katalin, I'm not unbalanced." "Personality as such is merely a collection of paranoid symptoms." "Let's go to Mexico!" "Let's ask your sister for money and get out of here!" "We'll start our journey into the deeper layers of your sprits." "Now, let your spirits flow!" "To be healed you need to be clear about what is going on with you." "Zsuzsi, tell us about one of your mornings, how did your day start when problems began?" "Every day would start the same way." "I woke up fine, was able to forget that this was just the usual silence before the storm." "– Hello!" "– Oh, I am so glad you're here!" "– Are you ok?" "– No, I am not." "My heart is being finicky again." "Right, show me that little engine!" "Hey you're alive!" "What is it?" "– Where have you been?" "– What do you mean where?" "– At work." "– I couldn't reach you." "Zsuzsi!" "My batteries were flat." "Come here!" "Easy!" "Oh..." "I'm so glad you are here!" "It would be so nice to feel that you are always here with me..." "But I'm here, am I not?" "Where else would I be?" "Who is Kirill?" "Is he your partner?" "That's a good question." "I want honest answers!" "Zsuzsa." "Dick!" "I don't care what kind of person you are!" "I don't care if someone drinks, some cops take drugs." "I don't care who's fucking whom." "But a cop should not be stressed, crazy, troubled." "Cops're gentlemen on whose shoulder society can rest and find peace so to say." "Nervous assholes don't calm anyone down and they're crappy colleagues, too!" "Dick!" "You are running all the time!" "Get control of yourself!" "Or you'll be demoted!" "Ok, give me a light then fuck off!" "Go to the training and make sure you get sent to Orlando to the competition." "The top brass are coming today, and it's important." "I want our SWAT team to be funded." "Captain, I would like to ask you something!" "What is it?" "I'd like to talk to you about an important, personal matter." "Why are you busting my balls, sport?" "It's personal." "Has nothing to do with Dick!" "Thank God!" "I have a million things to do." "Come to my office at 4 pm." "Be on time." "If you're late you can knock," "– but I won't let you in!" "– I'll be there." "You heard him, didn't you?" "He said he didn't care who's fucking whom!" "I knew he would understand." "Lower your voice here!" "Yes, but what he meant was it's okay to nail female officers, not each other!" "I thought you'd get scared and change your mind eventually!" "But you wanna' play cool, the ultra-modern faggot!" "Don't you get it?" "I'm not doing this against you, it's for me." "– I have a right to do this." "– You are so low!" "You can't help it, you were born like that!" "– Hi Sanyi!" "– Good morning Sir." "– Heard your son wants to box?" "– Yeah, right, he's like this!" "Send him to the gym we'll pump him up." "Okay but careful with his teeth!" "Be gentle, like a girl would!" "– Bye Sanyi." "– Dentists are expensive!" "– Let's talk this through!" "– Let me go!" "Let me go!" "You betrayed me!" "– I haven't." "– You have." "And what hurts most is that you made a decision without me." "Is that clear?" "So what're we talking about then?" "You can do as you please." "But without me." "I'm deleting your name from my phone and that's it." "I helped you get this job and now you betrayed our secret." "You're a rat!" "Get out of here!" "– Dick!" "Dick!" "– Leave me alone!" "Hey..." "Dick!" "– I care for you did you hear that?" "– Leave me alone!" "Coming!" "Daily Silent Hour!" "Zoltán, what's the hardest thing about the mornings for you?" "Well, I think its leaving the house." "After a while I felt like I couldn't go to work." "Move your hand!" "We can't understand what you're saying!" "I always have herpes outbreaks." "A colleague once said, that common anxiety activates the herpes virus in our bodies." "The next day I had an outbreak and it keeps happening." "The fight against herpes wore me out, I lost my appetite, and work became tedious." "I used to stuff myself, but soon I couldn't eat a bite." "I didn't feel like drinking, let alone chewing!" "My bunny once joked that I turned from a happy piglet into a sad sow." "I guess that's why she left." "I became weak, even a small task like getting into my car and driving, being in traffic, was beyond me!" "We'll fix this!" "It's gonna get better, day by day." "Zsuzsi wants so much attention!" "Making such a big deal of everything." "She checked into a private clinic a month ago." "When I was at her age acting like this my mother slapped me and it made me feel okay for a week!" "For free!" "Just cry into your pillow that's all!" "Right?" "Borbála, Katalin and Péter can try their luck with the world's largest scratch ticket!" "Each of you should pick a sun and begin scratching on my signal!" "And what about your daughter?" "Dóri is out of her mind!" "Every time she is about to visit her husband in New York she freaks out." "calls me every five minutes." "Why did she marry a diplomat if she hates to travel?" "There you go, that's the winning sign..." "So, Borbála is sure to receive a monthly wage for a year..." "Wow my little angel had such a lovely bath," "Mummy is gonna eat this kid for lunch..." "We are going to Daddy in New York on the big plane." "Are you asleep Gézuka?" "Is Kálmán still seeing that girl?" "Yes, he is madly in love!" "She is a bit strange but I don't have to introduce her to anyone... won't be a member of our family for long!" "This is what your ex-mother in law used to say..." "I don't care what weirdoes he dates as long as he's doing something!" "I don't want him to be blue like all the other men!" "I am so bored of smart blue men!" "First of all, I don't like what he looks like." "A real man should have muscles and not be so skinny!" "Black hair and blue eyes!" "Just like your husband who is bold and wears glasses!" "– How do you like this?" "– Not too elegant." "I don't want him to look like a banker!" "I want him to be peppy." "I'm going to turn him into a real go-getter!" "Hey, do you think they have a camera here?" "Maybe, but I'm sure they have turned it off now!" "Unless they are perverts." "– Damn it!" "– What is it?" "Nothing," "I just really hate that when my ass looked like a watermelon there were no mirrors in the change rooms." "And now I have to close my eyes to put things on!" "With me it's the breasts." "Remember, I used to be flat chested!" "And now if I take off my bra too quickly I fall on my nose!" "What's so funny?" "This is exactly my size!" "All Kálmán needs is a cool car!" "– Does he have a license yet?" "– No, he takes the metro." "He says he likes the metro." "Jesus, Kálmán!" "What do you need a weapon for?" "To take care of the evil today." "You must help me, because I am scared on my own!" "I have to do it." "When we're done we can go to Mexico but not until then." "– Wow it's really heavy..." "– Katalin, listen!" "I have to tell you something important." "Three years ago I realized that someone changed my Mum into an alien who looks like her." "She's been poisoning me for years." "At family meals she experiments with all kinds of poisons." "But I seem to have a strong constitution." "I know its hard to believe but I can prove it if the monster's body gets wet it changes." "I love my Mum and I miss her." "I know she's alive and being kept somewhere and the moment the monster dies we'll be together again." "Darling, have some meat!" "– Did you like the soup?" "– Yes, it was really nice." "You hardly ate." "Aren't you hungry?" "I always eat this much." "We never talk..." "I don't even know how you imagine your future." "– Aren't you interested in anything?" "– I'm interested in everything." "But in what exactly?" "Nothing, I just said it!" "– Where are you off to again?" "– I'm meeting Katalin in the park." "He is always in a rush." "You have to help me," "I will shoot it today if you help me." "We can't do this." "What if it multiplies as a defense?" "I have thought about that too, but it doesn't, I know that." "No, no Kálmán, this is stupid, Kálmán, let's go to the store, let's get something to drink, I can feel that I'm dehydrating." "You are the only person I can trust!" "Understand?" "This makes us strong!" "I am aware of my blood sugar level every day!" "That's it!" "Louder!" "And why?" "Because..." "Be contemporary?" "Have some candy?" "Wonderful!" "And now" "I would like to ask everybody to shout about their problems!" "This is a finish personality training." "Zsuzsi, go first!" "Tell us what is your problem now?" "Loudly, clearly without choosing your words!" "Lately I have felt more and more insecure," "I couldn't make any decisions, and it was clear to those around me, too." "Louder!" "Braver!" "I think my colleagues started to think, that I'm stu..." "I don't feel like doing this!" "Let your feelings out!" "Shout!" "I asked you to shout!" "What for?" "Will that slow down my heart?" "Alright then." "Please take a seat!" "This is a shouting therapy, which has been applied successfully all over the world for 30 years." "And I won't have any panic attacks if I shout?" "You're kidding!" "The only way to cure panic is to learn to deal with it, to fight the situation and understand that nothing's wrong." "But you need to get stronger for that so let out what's inside loudly, gradually opening your heart." "But there is nothing inside." "Apart from emptiness." "I don't believe you." "Talk about your family, your mother, your boyfriend, yourself." "You're safe here, you can tell us anything." "There is nothing wrong with my family." "Not sure about that, they hardly ever visit." "What do you hate most?" "Insecurity." "Because?" "Because growing up I always knew how I wanted to live..." "I'm not as free as my mother or my brother." "And?" "My mother wants everybody to bustle around her." "She divorced my father long ago." "And after that men showed up and left, while Mum was busy telling us that she could change her lovers but not her kids!" "I'm not like that." "Ok, so shout, tell us what you're like!" "Don't you get it?" "There's nothing to say," "I don't even know how I ended up here why am I so miserable that even daily routine wears me out!" "I don't know why I wanted to be a boss if I can't deal with it?" "I don't know what I've done wrong!" "I don't know why I'm not stronger, others can take anything!" "I can't shout, I can't breathe but I was told that my heart was fine... – Whatever, none of this matters..." "– Go on!" "What is it that matters?" "That I keep thinking of Kirill!" "I can't accept that he left me." "ln my other relationships I always felt that" "I would be much stronger alone but with him... it was so different." "Everything was so... so pleasant..." "So tell him!" "You are a winner!" "We are listening!" "So tell him!" "– Kirill, I hate you!" "– That's it!" "Louder!" "– I hate you for leaving me!" "– More!" "Go to hell wanker!" "and then again I wish everything was alright again..." "Thank you, Zsuzsa!" "Csaba?" "Dino gets sacked, transferred to the media department." "They will leave me alone." "Dino will be banned for good, prosecuted," "I'll be transferred to the media department." "I kill Dino." "I kill myself too." "Thanks." "– Bye." "– Bye." "And now?" "I know where we should go!" "But you can't be chicken-shit." "There's a very interesting place around the corner, let's go!" "Well, I'm damn sure I won't go in there!" "And what do you want to buy?" "I don't know." "Let's get a willy!" "What?" "A billy [willy]." "What billy [willy]?" "A willy." "Ilona!" "You told me I will die today!" "You owe me this." "OK, put on your sunglasses, we're going in and that's it!" "Good." "Look at that!" "– What are you supposed to do here?" "– I don't know, keep looking!" "I can't see anything in shades!" "I can't either, never mind, keep looking!" "Wow..." "Whoops!" "Wow, that's something." "Can't look at it..." "Hey, what's this for?" "I don't know, hangman's sex?" "Looks good on you." "– Better then a bikini!" "– Idiot." "Look there's somebody, okay, let's move it!" "You talk... – What shall I call it?" "– Call it a penis..." "Too formal..." "Good afternoon!" "We would like a male genital organ!" "Two!" "Good afternoon, what kind did you have in mind?" "What do you have?" "Anal wonders, Light in the dark, purple dream, Magnetic mesmerizer," "Treasure of Africa, and finally, Size matters." "And, how much is this one?" "That?" "12.000 Forints." "– What?" "– 12,000?" "You think that's a lot?" "This is high quality from Amsterdam." "But I can show you something else of a similar quality." "Follow me please!" "This is our second hand department!" "These are all high quality products, but second hand." "Here, take that!" "This one has a very soft touch." "Do you mean this has been..." "Right but they all cost forints." "Great products." "This one for example seems brand new." "I guess it was lying around in some drawer." "Here this one's a bargain!" "Even if it's second hand!" "– Take it!" "– I should take it?" " Yes." "See, your heart didn't stop!" "That's it!" "Sport, good fitness is life itself!" "Don't give up!" "Don't give up!" "Six point five!" "See your heart didn't stop!" "Nobody gives up!" "Do it, faster!" "Go on!" "Seven point three!" "– Calm down, it's a blackout!" "– Do something about it!" "– Where's the emergency exit?" "– We'll never get out of here!" "Don't run that way, this is the way out!" "Finally!" "I was held up!" "– Hi." "– Hi." "You're not in the best mood!" "It's nice to see you." "How was work?" "Ah, forget it!" "So what's up?" "Why are you so tense?" "– I'm in a bad mood." "– Are you?" "Aren't we going to the movies like we planned?" "What do you want to see?" "I have been thinking a lot lately about us, and about me." "Mostly about me in fact." "And?" "I made a difficult decision, but I'm relieved." "I realized who I am and what I am, that's all!" "– I don't understand any of this." "– I'm getting there but it's not easy." "A friend, Alex will explain." "This is about us" "and for serious issues it's best to consult a professional." "May I?" "Sure, but I still don't get it." "Alex!" "Will you!" "Zsuzsi." "In people's lives loves come and go." "I adore you, and you are important to me, but I can't go on lying to myself for a lifetime." "I am a loner." "Is this some kind of break-up speech?" "Oh, no no, so much more then that." "I am learning to accept myself." "My greatest fear is that I will lose my freedom." "I might be stupid, but I don't want to live for 5, 10 or a hundred years with somebody." "I guess I must be the reason for your strangeness and your fits." "I can't provide you security." "Don't depend on someone who hates all forms of responsibility." "Even this." "It's here now." "Can you sense it?" "It's everywhere..." "You must help!" "Alright, I will." "Come to register fifteen, dears." "The computer system fell apart!" "The customers left everything where it was!" "She's been converted." "I know." "I think I recognize them now." "Thank you." "That's so disgusting we bought a second hand dildo!" "I will always wear gloves from now on!" "And will always put perfume under my nose..." "Always!" "Like that..." "Ilona take some..." "There you go!" "What about restaurants, you don't know who used the cutlery before you either." "I will never go to a restaurant again." "– I won't even eat." "– High time!" "Thanks." "I'm 37, I can't take so much stress!" "I'm bad at my job, making mistakes..." "I'm not gonna end up in an office as a rent-a-cop!" "Told you, I will only talk for myself!" "Right." "You really don't get this!" "You're a rich, spoilt prick who was stupid enough to become a cop!" "And now you got bored of it!" "Why don't you go be a go-go dancer in a bar?" "You should have dealt with this 20 years ago." "Twenty years ago you ended up in jail for homosexuality!" "No one was this tough then let alone a cop!" "Did you at least have gay friends?" "Not really." "I'm surprised you ever lost your virginity!" "But you told your Mom, didn't you?" "My Mom is worse then my Dad." "She would fall apart if she found out." "I'm from a fucking cop dynasty." "You're the only fag in the world who never told his Mum!" "Listen Dino, all I care about is to be a good cop." "Do you know what that means?" "You don't know shit!" "– How would you?" "– Yes, I know." "But we could still talk, couldn't we?" "– Right." "– Dick, Dino!" "Your turn!" "But maybe you have no idea about any of this." "You know why?" "Because you're not a good cop." "You shoot well that's true, but you're a crappy cop." "And that's not your main motivation!" "– What do you mean?" "– You're an undistinguished cop, this is why you need all that crap in your life." "– What a horrible thing to say!" "– Dino!" "What's going on?" "Take your shot!" "That's it!" "That was great!" "Bon appetite to you all!" "You will have to mow the lawn after lunch!" "And we'll try dealing with stress using the American note method." "Are you ready?" "Hallo." "Hallo." "Are you there Mommy?" "What is it Dori, I can hardly hear you!" "Speak up!" "I have to whisper I don't want to wake the baby." "– Okay but I can't hear anything!" "– Stop yelling!" "Tell me quickly what's so important?" "Earlier as I was bathing Gezu, he was so cute, he even smiled in his dream." "But I felt sick suddenly." "It's okay Dori, everything's fine." "I took Gezu off the table." "Didn't want to drop him if I fainted." "– Did you faint?" "– No, I didn't." "Not yet." "Take care Dori, I have to go." "– We have a busy day with Elli." "– Hallo?" "Hi Mum, it's Zsuzsi." "Hello darling, what is it, I'm busy!" "Nothing, I just haven't seen you in a while." "What do you mean in a while?" "I was there five days ago." "I think it's started again..." "All right, I'm coming!" "Let me get off the phone..." "No don't get off, don't get off, the main thing is that we keep talking," "I don't want to faint." "Okay?" "I'm just not having a great time here." "The new therapist is experimenting on us with her stupid methods." "Use your key please, don't ring the bell." "Okay if I've got it!" "Don't you want to visit for an hour sometime?" "– I can't do that now, Zsuzsi!" "– I can't open up because" "I can't leave the baby in the middle of the room, what if a big bird flies in and takes him?" "I really can't!" "I'm gonna hang up, ask for a sleeping pill and off to bed!" "Lots of love!" "See she is always like that when she goes to New York!" "– Jesus Christ!" "– Call me when you're done!" "Okay, I'll call you in an hour." "Good!" "It's not loaded." "What should I say?" "I don't care Kálmánka, shall we fuck instead?" "Okay when it moves, I fire my gun." "Now move towards me!" "I think it will attack." "Read it!" "Perfection's a direction, not a destination." "Stop!" "Stupid kid, stop!" "I know now what your problem is." "It's QLC!" "Quarter-life Crisis." "Ever heard about it?" "No." "You've reached your goals at a young age." "Good job, nice car, a flat..." "The solution:" "New goals!" "You'll crash!" "You're being stupid!" "I'll never be able to go out in public again." "You have to get rid of negative thoughts." "The first goal is to leave this institution." "Walk to the gate, look around and come back!" "– I can't." "– Yes you can." "You'!" "I have to try." "Come Zsuzsa!" "Can I take my paper bag?" "Sure!" "The paperbag keeps you from hyperventilating!" "I told you to stop!" "– That's it!" "I'll beat you up!" "– Ok, go on, hit me, hit me!" "Fuck you..." "You're an insensitive asshole!" "– Get out of my life!" "– You know what Dino?" "It's that I don't want to lose you but you're not getting it!" "I don't want things to change!" "What's so good about not being yourself?" "– I like it this way!" "– Ok?" "You're a wreck." "Look at you!" "You're a coward, you are playing parts..." "Let go!" "Don't go to the captain!" "Let's go home or get drunk just don't go!" "I'm going!" "Get out of my way or I'll shoot you!" "Yes?" "I'll beat your fucking head in!" "You're too much of a coward to do that!" "Do it!" "Do it!" "Just go Zsuzsa!" "You will have to get to the gate!" "Take your time." "Easy." "Go on." "Just continue towards the gate!" "That's right." "– Just go!" "– I can't go out." "I don't want to be with people!" "I don't want to suffocate." "You won't suffocate." "It's gonna be fine, get yourself together!" "Just turn back and walk." "Go!" "You can use your paper bag." "Do it!" "One step, two steps." "Like that." "Slow and easy, no rush, that's it, five meters!" "Very nice, fantastic, go Zsuzsa!" "That's it you're almost there." "Wonderful!" "Look you can see the gate already, it's right there!" "Now touch the handle!" "I hate my fucking life!" "I hate you!" "I hate my mother, myself!" "All!" "– But that's gonna end now!" "– Shut up!" "Shut up!" "It's my fault too that you're an elite cop!" "Police!" "Police operation." "Please go back to the house!" "I will count to three and blow your brains out!" "– You chickenshit!" "Coward!" "– One!" "Two!" "Get your ass back in the house junkie bitch!" "Go huff at home not in the street!" "Fuck you!" "You know what it's like out there?" "You sent me out into that chaos?" "Are you out of your mind?" "A nice warm slap cures hysterics!" "Zsuzsa!" "What are you doing!" "It's against my principals but I will sedate you, unless you learn how to behave here!" "If you were me for a second, you would understand what's wrong!" "You'd understand me!" "Say:" "I'm Zsuzsi." "– Say:" "I'm Zsuzsi!" "– I'm Zsuzsi." "You can't breathe now, can you!" "Say I'm Zsuzsi!" "Enough of that!" "Enough of all the idiots, enough of Kirill." "I'm done." "Thank you for the boots Zsuzsika." "Good luck!" "Take care." "Good bye, Ferenc!" "Turn our backs on aggressiveness as it increases the level of adrenalin in our bodies." "Thank you anyway." "Hey what happened here?" "Mum, have you been partying?" "Zsuzsika!" "– How come you're at home?" "– Oh, Mum!" "It's so nice to be back, nice to be out in the world!" "– Have you been released?" "– No." "I left." "I'm done with therapy." "But it's fine." "– Why, is Kirill back?" "– No." "He isn't." "– He is gone for good." "– Alright we don't care!" "– Oops, the water!" "– I'm done with him." "– Not interested any more." "– See, I told you!" "All men are selfish bastards." "– No man compares to a woman!" "– Yes but you could have helped." "What do you mean?" "I wanted to visit." "Tomorrow!" "– Where's Kálmán?" "– How would I know?" "Off somewhere with his stupid girl." "Do you really think that I'm not helping?" "Okay, I just said it." "Although it might have helped me to calm down sooner." "There was no way to help you!" "You are so stubborn!" "Alright, alright, I'm home now!" "You're here go nag me!" "Wanna clean up, don't you mind the mess?" "Just cause you think you are cured, no need to start hurting!" "Come in!" "My God, one day I'll kill my daughter!" "And you know what, now they're off to NY and I'll miss them both." "Hi Zsuzsi!" "What's up?" "A day off?" "No." "They let her out for good and she is already fighting!" "Now I'm the evil instead of Kirill..." "Mum, stop it!" "You're such a smartass all the time!" "No I'm not." "What are we fighting for?" "You're the boss anyway, you control everything." "It's all my fault again!" "I'll finish and we can go out again Ilona !" "I brought Elli some water help me get it!" "So!" "Come in!" "Spit it out, what do you want?" "Cat got your tongue?" "What do you want from me?" "Why don't you tell me what it is?" "Can you hear me?" "Kálmán!" "Are you home?" "Just what are you doing?" "Hard of hearing?" "Say what you want?" "Can you hear me?" "– I want a raise." "– Right, a fucking raise!" "Wanna become a minister too?" "Could give me millions then!" "If you need money, go, be a waiter." "You're good looking you'll get a job." "– I don't want to be a waiter." "– Then stop busting my balls!" "Won't give you money." "But I have some good news!" "You and Dick are going to the US to the SWAT competition!" "Here are tickets and everything, will tell you all." "Be tough!" "Well then..." "Thanks." "Two stupid, greedy fags!" "How could you do that?" "That's so horrible!" "Lucky Mom's out shopping!" "– Kálmán, let's go to Mexico!" "– Why would you want to go there?" "To get rid of the evil." "We just need some money." "– That's strange!" "– Will you help us?" "Tell me how you feel?" "You can be honest!" "It's inside me now!" "This is how smart it is, it knew what I wanted and to protect itself it took my body." "Where's the gun?" "– Kálmán, what is it?" "– I don't know what it wants!" "Let me go!" "It's in me." "I will kill it!" "Are you crazy?" "!" "I didn't tell." "But we are going to Orlando." "We shall continue there." "THREE DAYS LATER" "My god..." "How could I have been such a fool?" "This keeps happening to me." "– I will say goodbye to him!" "– Mother!" "You already said goodbye three times!" "Calm down!" "I've arranged everything." "There is a doctor in Mexico who is going to treat him." "I'm a bad mother, that's horrible..." "You can't be responsible for everything." "We've grown up." "I don't deserve to have kids!" "I wasn't planning to have Kálmán, it was an accident." "That's why." "It's a miracle you didn't have three more accidents!" "You wouldn't even have time to cry then." "Oh, but I would!" "Ilona, why are you crying?" "Because I wish I could travel somewhere too." "– Where to?" "– Anywhere!" "So!" "Mum we'll miss the plane, have to go, will call you from the airport, okay?" "Call me!" "Lots of love!" "Could you hold my baby for five minutes please?" "Something wrong with our insurance, have to deal with it..." "I'm so glad there are cops on the plane!" "So reassuring!" "I won't be a minute..." "No, no, no!" "Is that woman out of her mind?" "These situations disgust me." "Two men and a baby..." "What are you smiling for?" "I told you to take a pill if you're afraid of flying!" "Hi!" "Didn't know that you were in Budapest!" "Yes, I'm on my way to New York." "Are you well?" "– Yes." "And you?" "– I'm fine." "The kid is fine too... – Ok, call me sometime!" "– I will." "Bye." "You look pretty!" "– Take care of Kálmán, okay?" "– I will." "Call me as soon as you get there." "I'll visit soon." "Bye." "Thank you for everything, Zsuzsi!" "Thank you for everything!" "Bye, try to get some sleep on the plane!" "Okay." "Bye." "Everything is fine!"