"Come on." "Come on." "Come on." "Damn it." "Any first-year med student knows that an increased heart raten is a sign of trouble." " All day of this." " All day stuck with stevens." "Why are we in the clinic?" "I thought we were supposed to be surgeons." "Oh, not today we're not." "Today is gonna be about flu shots and enemas." "What a colossal waste of time." "Morning." "A racing heart could indicate anything..." " From a panic disorder..." " Oh!" " Oh, God." "Oh, I'm sorry." " No, I'm sorry." "I, uh, no, I, uh, didn't even look." " I'm sorry." " No, no." "What--what are you-- no, no, no." "I-I'll leave." "I'll leave." "No." "Sleep." "You've been here all night." "Uh..." "How do you know that I've been here all night?" " Wh" " To something much..." "Uh..." "I just knew it." "Much more serious." "You should wear your hair up more." "It shows off the back of your neck." "I like the back of your neck." "A heart that flutters..." "Or one that skips a beat..." "Hey, I thought you were, uh, sleeping." "No." "Hunt was in the on-call room." "You had dirty sex with Owen Hunt?" "No." "It's-- it's not dirty and it's not sex." "It's..." "I don't know what it is." "Could be a sign of a secret affliction..." "Hey, how's it going?" "Oh, my God." "Thank you for asking." "It's great." "I mean, he's fun and he's funny." "Even with no sex allowed, I mean, we--we just laugh and we talk and" "Yeah." "I don't want to hear this." "Come on." "But you have to." "It's just..." "You're the only one who knows about us, and--and I'm terrible at keeping secrets." "Keeping secrets makes me sick." "Look, alone people don't like to hear about the together people, okay?" "Even if the alone people are alone by choice, it's--it's sort of mean." "It's sort of like bringing a six-pack to an AA meeting." " But" " Keep it to yourself." "I am." "Uh, I need a favor." "My mother's journal-- her ninth journal-- I need you to pre-read it for me." " Why?" " My mother had an affair with the chief." "Your mother had an affair with her chief resident?" " Rock on, Ellis." " No, no, no, no, no." "Not her chief." "Our chief." "Oh, yeah." "You'll go blind reading that." "Or it could indicate romance..." "Which is the biggest trouble of all." "What is that?" "What you think it is." "That's dangerous." "People who carry guns are more likely to fire 'em." "Oh, I'm ready to fire it." "That's not the problem." "She's the problem." "She spooks easy." "I have to fire at the right time, in the right way, otherwise she'll panic and bolt." " She's not ready." "Do you think she's ready?" " I don't know." "More importantly, if you don't know, you shouldn't do anything until you do know." " Dr. Sloan." " Dr. Hunt." "Oh, let's make this quick." " So we good to go?" " Yep." "Use it wisely." "Hey, I'm with you today." "So, uh, what's going on with you and Mark Sloan?" "What?" "Nothing." "Why?" "No, why, why?" "What did you think is--was?" "Well, because you've been on his service for over a week." "Yeah, you know, I'm--I'm really interested in plastics a-as a--as a specialty." "I'm fascinated." "I-I like f-faces." "Vehicular blunt trauma, right shoulder, stabilized in the field." "Somebody help us, please!" "Jen, honey, slow down, will you?" "Please, please, can you help my husband?" "I ran him over with the car." "Sweetie, sweetie..." "You have to calm down." " Okay." " I'm gonna be fine." "I'm gonna be fine." "Okay, I'm calm." "I'm ca..." " Okay." "All right." " I'm calm." "I'm calm." "Grey's Anatomy Season 5" " Episode 14" "Beat Your Heart Out" "Oh, my God, it's my brain." "It's my stupid, pregnant brain." "I left the car in drive." "Oh, God, baby." "I'm so sorry." "It's a normal neuro exam." "Okay, well, he's got an inferior shoulder dislocation and some associated fractures." "He'll definitely need surgery." "Sloan will debride the burns when he's in surgery." "Surgery?" "Oh, baby." "Her BP is 170 over 100." "Give her 5 of hydralazine." " Oh, my God." " Sweetie, just calm down." "How's the baby?" "Kicking like crazy and pressing right on my bladder." "Well, look on the bright side." "At least, uh, she's not running you over with a truck." "Thank you." "Hey, you wanted the SUV, right?" "Pregnancy-induced hypertension?" "Yeah, I have to get her BP down before it starts affecting the baby." "Oh, nice couple." "They'll have cute kids." "Yeah, not as cute as ours..." "But cute." "What?" "Nothing." "It's been three days-- three days of vacation-- the only three days I've ever taken other than my maternity leave." " Now I know I'm behind, but" " Bailey, I get it." "Jackson Prescott was not an easy case." "I don't begrudge you that." "Okay, frankly, sir, I would rather not work on another dying kid again." "But no need to worry, okay?" " I-I will catch up and I'll" " I'm not worrying." "I'm promoting you." "I need another attending in general surgery." "I'm submitting to the board that it be you and that it starts this july, the minute you've completed your residency." "Now I know there was some talk a while back about you getting tired of appys and gall bladders..." "No, a f-full roster of appys and gall bladders..." "Sounds just perfect, sir." "All right, all right." "But not today, though." "Dixon's requested you on her service." "This is subject to board approval, Bailey, though I'm not worried." "You have less to say now, huh?" "Get outta here." "Dr. Dixon is not big on eye contact, so don't be surprised if she doesn't look at you." "Also try to avoid physical contact, uh, loud or disruptive noises" "She's okay, right?" "She's a good doctor?" "Oh, no, she's amazing." "You couldn't ask for a better surgeon." "I'm only telling you so you'll be better prepared." "Dr. Dixon, dr." "Bailey, this is, uh, Dan and Lisa Pollock." "I need to see the patient." "Where's the patient?" "Uh, right this way." "Uh, this is Stacy Pollock, age 9." "She's suffering from secondary pulmonary hypertension due to a VSD." "Her EKG also shows, um, a left ventricular hypertrophy, also evidence of right..." " Hi." "Can I help you folks?" " Not him." "What's the trouble?" " Not him, either." " Oh, uh, thank you." "We'll wait." "What about him?" "H-hello." "Yes, I'm sorry." "Could you help us, please?" "I would just-- we need to talk to a grown-up." "This is the chief of surgery." "No, just hold on, dr." "Karev." "That doesn't mean I'm not a doctor." "How can we help?" " Uh, my husband and I, we" " Our children went off to college." " One's at Stanford." "The other's at, uh, U-Dub." " Yeah?" "We tried something, a new thing and..." " Something slipped, and we lost this" " Rachel." "We were reading this thing in a magazine." "Oh, here." ""20 techniques to reignite your nights"?" "We did number nine." " Um..." "Let's get you in a gown so" " No, him." " He did number nine." " We did number nine." "Yeah, I'm not the one with it stuck inside my" "It's him." "He's the patient." "Have a seat, and we'll take care of you." "Um..." "I'll..." "I'll stand." "You're taking him now, for surgery?" "Yeah, it's a good thing." "We can get his dislocation fixed so we can prevent problems with his circulation." "Her last BP was still up." "162 over 102." "Okay, well the OB was worried about placental blood flow." "Stay with her and just try to keep her calm, okay?" " Okay." " Cheeseburgers." "Painkillers are working." "Is there anything else that I can get you?" "Um, I'm okay." "Just-- Are you really taking him now?" "Yeah." "Cheeseburgers." "Cheeseburgers." "She's, um, more relaxed when she eats." "Cheeseburgers calm her down." "Thanks for the tip." "Stacy has a VSD, which has gotten worse over time and has created pulmonary hypertension." "Does that mean she needs surgery?" " Are you okay?" " Yes." "Unfortunately..." "If that child so much as looks like she's going to die, I'm walking out of here." "I'll be performing a transcatheter closure to repair the defect in the septum." "That baby doesn't understand a word she's saying." "All open-heart procedures have certain risks, but this one looks fairly routine." "She was just saying that we're gonna fix the part of your heart that pumps the blood to your lungs." "It should be a simple patch repair." "Uh, probably something easy to fix." "But a full midline sternotomy incision may be required." "Okay, now she's just making stuff up." "The nurses have some forms for you to sign." "Okay." "Oh, I like your socks." "Thanks." "They're for soccer." "I'm the best on my team." "Mom says it's bragging." "Dad says it's not." " It's just the truth." " You can't fight who you are." "If you're the best, you're the best." "When you fix my heart, how soon will I be able to play soccer again?" "I missed half the season already." "Well..." "Um, we'll..." "Have to..." "See." "Ah, Cristina." "Did you tell her about the ring?" "Oh, I don't want to talk about your stupid ring." "Good." "Don't." "Oh, you're not gonna do a big thing, are you?" "Like some big, romantic Mcdreamy thing?" "'Cause she'd hate that." "Well, she built a house of candles." "Yeah, for you." "She built you a house of candles..." "'Cause you like that sort of thing." " She doesn't." " Okay, thanks." "How is it?" "The journal." "Is it gross?" "Were they naked?" "No, not yet." "It's kind of, um..." "Hot, actually, but, like, uh, chastely hot." "It's all stolen glances and loaded exchanges." "The thing reads like a victorian romance novel." "Oh, that's good." "Chaste is good." "I'll let you know when they do it." "She said a thing about babies-- you know, like babies were a totally ordinary idea." "She's not afraid." "She's ready." "When are you gonna do it?" " Do what?" " Shepherd's proposing." "No kidding?" " Outstanding." " Yeah, thank you." "Uh, h-how are you gonna do it?" "I don't know." "I just decided." "Morning, sir." "Shepherd's proposing." "Congratulations." "That's a big step." "Thank you very much." "You just gonna tell everybody now?" "You need advice." "Hunt, you ever propose before?" "Uh, sorry." "I'm not the guy to ask." "When are you gonna do it?" "Well, more importantly, how am I gonna do it?" "So what do you use, like a twist drill for that?" "Uh, no, not if you don't want a partial parietal hematoma." "Good luck." "Ahh..." "Just don't tell anybody else, okay?" "I thought I could trust you." "Of course you can trust me." "We got the short end of the stick with this case." "Quit laughing." "We're gonna get reamed." "Dudes, the patient can see you giggling over here like schoolgirls." " Enough wisecracks." " Cracks." " What's so funny?" " Sorry, sir." "These idiots were screwing around, and I kinda got, uh..." "Sucked into it." "Enough." "Now if you children need a lesson in professionalism, then come and see how it's done." "Mr. Kramer." "Your biplane abdominal radiographs show a foreign body." "We will perform a sigmoidoscopy and then proceed with manual extraction." "You'll get it out?" "Oh, we'll get it out." " Just hold it." " That is the third time." "What's the problem?" "She can't find a vein, and she's poking me like I'm her needlepoint." "Look, what is wrong with you people?" "Didn't you practice this on each other?" "Look..." "All right, when you have a good vein, it should feel bouncy, like this one." "Okay, now go in at an angle, not at 90 degrees." "Yeah." "Yeah, like that." "Good." "Next time, she'll do it on you." "You know what, why don't you run them both?" "Listen up, you guys." "Before you run any more procedures today, come see me first." "So..." "Clean bill of health from Hunt." "You gonna get back on the horse, then?" "Well, I wouldn't use the word "horse", but no." "That's not gonna work out." "Things have changed." "I think I'm going to have to break up with her." "You're what?" "What is wrong with you?" "Why..." "Sorry." "I had to make sure the patient's wife is stable." "She's hypertensive, and I think this surgery's more stressful on her than it is on him." "Damn it." "There's a huge tear." "His clavicle fracture is jutting into the artery." "Grey, hold this clamp." "I got this." "I'll hold pressure." "Page Hunt." "Get him in here now." "No, they can't." "The patient's unstable." "His subclavian's bleeding out." "They're paging dr." "Hunt." "It doesn't look good." "Okay, thanks." "Oh, what'd they say?" "Did they say it's going well or" " It's--it's taking a little longer than-- than expected." "Okay." "But d-don't--don't worry, because it--it's going great." "It is." "Are you sure?" "Yes, it--you know..." "It's good when they take their time." "You know, right now there is no reason to believe that--that he's not gonna be just fine." "Okay." "Oh, thank you." "Hey, your pressure is way down." "Jen?" "Jen?" "What's happening?" "She's tamponading, her BP's crashed, and she has muffled heart sounds." "Oh, damn it." "Okay, gloves." "Yang, betadine and get a local." "Stacy, sweetie, you're gonna be all right, okay?" "Don't worry. 18-guage." "What are you doing?" "Okay, Lisa, you're gonna want to, uh, turn around or leave." "You're not gonna want to watch this." " Yang, keep the ultrasound over the effusion." " Yeah, I got it." "Stacy, honey, you're gonna feel a little pinch, and then a lot of pressure..." "And then you're gonna be all better, okay?" "Here we go." "Good." "Oh, good job, Stacy." "Yeah, see?" "It's all better." "Good job." "Good job, honey." "All better." "Her pulmonary pressures are high." "You're right." "She's got cor pulmonale." "I'm moving up her surgery." "Yang's getting an OR now." "I'll see you in there, dr." "Bailey." "Let me know how it goes." "Great save, dr." "Bailey." "I think you better stay." "I'm not scrubbing in on this one." "Bailey..." "You can handle this surgery." "Yeah, I can handle the surgery." "What I can't handle is feeling another child slipping away right in front of me." "Mostly they don't slip away, even the really sick ones." "Jackson was a special case, and--and even he survived." "By the skin of his teeth." "But he survived." "Children are resilient, and in all likelihood, you're gonna open up this girl's chest and fix something simple, and then you're gonna hand her back the rest of her life." "I'm telling you, Bailey, you want to be there for that." "Come on, come on, come on." "Stabilize." "BP's going up." "Going up." "Thank you." "Yep." "Should be good to go." "Dr. Grey, Jen Harmon-- tell Jen he's stable." "She's not." "She had a seizure." " A seizure?" " We got him, Grey." "Go help her." "You're an idiot." "Excuse me?" "You're an idiot." "What is your problem?" "He is proposing to her." "That makes little her his little sister, and I can't sleep with any more of his sisters." "And she's young, and I'm her boss." "And I'm celibate." "What does that have to do with anything?" "Celibacy is lonely." "Don't spend all your time wondering what you are or--or--or who you like or whether it's right for you or wrong for you." "Just let yourself be happy, okay?" "Before you find yourself alone and celibate." "Does she really need a chest X-ray?" "She's got the flu." "Say that after you've ruled out pneumonia." "And be quick and efficient." "Keep a smile on your face, and make stupid, happy small talk to keep them distracted and..." "Not panicky." "Okay." "Should I do small talk now?" "No." "Just tell me to lie still and take a deep breath." "Okay, big breath in..." "And then don't move." "So, uh, uh, how-- how are you gonna do it?" "Are you gonna, uh, go big, a grand, romantic gesture?" "Um..." "I--I don't know yet, chief." "I'm not sure that Meredith's a grand gesture kinda girl." "Oh, you want to do the grand gesture." "It's the opening pitch of your marriage." "It can determine the entire game." "You gotta go all out." "Now your plan should include flowers, candles, exotic foods, live musicians and rowboat." "Skywriting is not out of the question." " Now you gotta go-- dr." "Shepherd." "Yes." "Uh, uh, you got him." "You got him." "Okay." "Okay." "Um..." "What's up?" "I need a neuro consult." "Okay." "Yeah, that's bet-- you know, you better go." "Thanks, chief." "Okay." "Okay, okay." "How are we doing, mr." "Kramer?" "Oh, fantastic." "Good." "They didn't cover this in the "what to expect" books." "They didn't say "expect seizures"." "I know." "That's why we're going to do an exam, okay?" "Now I need you to look down for me." "Okay." "Ooh, what is that?" "What?" "Um, dr." "Grey." "Could you, uh, set up an MRI for mrs." "Harmon, please, right now?" " But did you see" " Now, dr." "Grey." "Okay." "Oh, you--you saw something?" "No, no, no." "No, I'm sorry." "All right, can you keep a secret?" "You bet I can." "This is intended for dr." "Grey." "It's supposed to be a surprise." "Oh, my God." "And I almost blew it." " Yeah." " When are you gonna do it, today?" " Oh, please do it today." " Do it here so I can see." "No." "I-I don't know." "No." "I was told it's supposed to be, like, a grand gesture." "Oh, well, Rob proposed to me in a supermarket aisle." "He said that was the place he saw me for the first time." "So I said yes between the cat food and the tampons." "That's romantic." "It was, actually." "We still have to do the MRI, okay?" " Just to be safe." " Okay." " Dr. Shepherd." " Yes." " Should I be scared?" " No." " Should I?" " No." "Eisenmenger's complex." " Can it be repaired?" " Is it-- is it too far gone?" "Children are resilient, Yang." " Nine times out of ten, you find something simple to" " Fix." "What is it?" "I can repair the VSD, but this heart is finished." "This is one of the most diseased hearts I've ever seen." "Ecmo might hold her over, but without a heart-lung transplant, she's going to die." "Dr. Bailey?" "Um, dr." "Bailey?" "Dr. Bailey?" "It's okay, dr." "Dixon." "I can take care of these sutures." "Her heart is too far gone." "There's far too much scar tissue to repair." "We have started her on IV medications, which she will need on a continuous basis." "For how long?" "How long does she" "Until she can receive a transplant." "But..." "Months?" " Years, possibly." " Years?" " She'll lay in a bed for years?" " I'm afraid so, yes." "Where's dr." "Bailey gone?" "You want to take narrow slices with the scan so you get a more comprehensive look." "What do you see?" "Uh, I see..." "A crazy person taking expensive tests for no reason and, oh, I see the chief finding out and expelling the crazy person, and then, uh, I see, uh, joblessness, homelessness and depression." "Yeah, it does not look good, Izzie." "It doesn't look good." "Somebody kick dr." "O'malley out of the booth." "Hey, have you seen Bailey?" "No, but I have to talk to you." "Derek is going crazy." "This morning I said something about having cute babies, and now ever since, he's been acting weird and avoiding me and dropping conversations when I walk up." "I mean, he wants babies." "He's always wanted babies." "Oh, he wants babies." "Maybe he just doesn't want my babies." "No, that--that's not it." "Yeah, because my babies will have Alzheimer's and suicidal tendencies and split ends." "Yeah, you might have something there." "No, I really don't think you do, though." "Who are you?" "I'm Jen." "How we doing?" "We all set?" "If--if you're gonna do it, do it soon." "She's really freaking out." "Thank you." "They tried number nine?" "Who does nine?" "Personally, I'm a fan of five..." "Seven, eight..." "Well, pretty much 12 through 20." "I would try 15." "Don't try 15." "Don't try 15." "I would try 16." "I've never done that before." "You'd try 16?" "I would." "I totally would." "Um, don't do 16 too fast." "It can-- you get hurt." "Badly." "I've heard." "Do you know who likes a good 12?" "Hey, you on call tonight?" "Looks like it." "You?" "And you're saying if she misses even one dose of her medicine, that would be bad?" "It would be fatal." "The drug needs to be administered at 3-minute intervals." "So she'll live in a hospital bed for years, you said." "No, no, there's another way." "There's a way she won't have to stay in the bed." " With a diagnosis of pulmonary hypertension" " The girl needs a backpack." "A backpack." "It has a portable pump, that will deliver her meds and allow her to play and go to school." "She can have a childhood until she gets her new heart." "This is something that we should have discussed privately earlier" "And she could leave the hospital?" "Yes, she can." "See, she has to wear the backpack at all times." "We will put you in a program, teach you how to administer the medications" "Do you have a prettier one?" "Oh, my God, dr." "Bailey, thank you." "Dr. Dixon, thank you so much." "Thank you so much." "Dr. Dixon..." "Oh-- thank you." "No!" "No!" "No!" "No!" "No." "Dr. Dixon, what--what can I do?" "How can I help?" "You can observe protocol, and I was getting to that option, but it was too much." "It was just too--too much yelling, too much touching, too much..." "Okay, um..." " Then I'll leave you alone to, uh" " No, no." "I don't need alone." "I need pressure." " I..." " I need my nervous system suppressed." "I need constant, deep..." "Tight pressure across large areas of my body." "I need you to hold me." "I need you ..." "Tight." "Tight." "Tight." "Tightly." "Tighter." "You're a very tiny person." "I need a bigger per-- person than you." "Should I..." "Oh, what--what can I do?" "Uh, get over here and hug on dr." "Dixon." " I was thinking more like a shot of thorazine." " Get over here." "Good." "An aneurysm?" "A brain aneurysm?" "All of your symptoms-- forgetfulness, dizziness, chronic headaches-- can all be associated with pregnancy." "The only reason we discovered yours is because of the seizure." "So what, you said you can-- you can fix it?" "You can take it out?" "We'll do it first thing in the morning, after Rob's recovered from the complications with his surgery." "Complications?" "Wait, what?" "You said-- you said it was fine." "You said he was okay." "You lied to me?" "I'm--I'm sorry." "I just" " I didn't want to worry you until I knew, and he's fine." "And you'll be fine, too." "But it could burst, right?" "Jen, you have to stay calm." "You just told me there's a time bomb in my head." "I promise you that I'm not gonna stay calm." "Cows are squeezed tightly in a chute before they're slaughtered." "The chute applies intense pressure, resulting in decreased pulse rate, metabolic rate and muscle tone." " It calms them down." " It calms them down." "The same principles apply to people like me." "A hugging machine is used to relax the sympathetic nervous system." "It slows the heart." "This is good." "Th" "It's working." " Oh, so we can stop now?" " No." "Almost there, mr." "Kramer." "Hold on." "There." "Got it." "Oh, my God." "Oh, thank you." "Never again will I try to spice things up." "I'm not spicing anything up." "Well, you tried to step it up." "Anything above number five deserves props." "Sounds to me like you're doing pretty good." "You're together, you're both bending over backwards to find new ways to..." "Make each other happy." "You take a step back, you'll realize that you're doing just fine." ""Bending over backwards."" "You can let me go now." "You can let me go now." "Oh, sorry." "Dr. Stevens, I have the blood test results." "What is it?" "Well, you're anemic." "Um" "Anemic?" "Oh, my God." "Do you realize what you just did?" "Your face said I was going to die, not "go get a hamburger."" " Well, see, I-I" " That's part of patient care, controlling your face." " I-I just w" " Anemic." "This is fine." "This is no big deal." "It's, like, nothing." "How's mrs..." "What's her name?" "That's not good, is it?" "Yeah." "No." "Um..." "Her LDH is off the charts." "Oh, what is it?" "Is it--is it cancer?" "Consult oncology." "Start a workup." "It's okay." "We'll tell her together." "Thank you." " I don't want to keep secrets." " Sorry?" "I've been keeping secrets all day a-about surgeries and rings and--and you." "And--and that secret, the--the--the you secret, it's giving me high blood pressure." "And I-I don't want that secret." "We're having... a relationship." "And if we are, if we're in a relationship, then I need to be in it, in front of my sister and Derek Shepherd." "If we can't do that, then I can't do this." " What's going on?" " Sorry." " What happened?" " I'm sorry, I can't." " Just leave--leave me alone." " You're shaking." "I..." "Saw someone-- someone I knew." "I can't do this." "I can't." "Just..." "Please go away." "Okay, it's--it's all right." " It's okay." " No, no." "I don't want this." "I don't want this." "I don't want this." " I can't do this now." " To relax--to relax your sympathetic nervous system." "It'll decrease your metabolic rate." "You will feel more panicked at first." "You'll try to resist it." "You'll try to resist it." " I don't want this." " But eventually you will feel your pulse rate slow." " I don't want this." " You'll feel your pulse rate slow." "It's okay." "Your breath will come easier." "I'm sorry for my outburst." "I should've spoken to you first." "It was inappropriate, but I've come to expect it from pediatric surgeons, always breaking protocol." "But I'm not a pediatric surgeon." "I've landed a few peds surg cases recently, but I'm getting back to general surgery the first chance I get." "You touch the child whenever you speak with her, you explain conditions to the child, not just the parents, and you react to the patient as if it was your own child, and you break protocol which is inappropriate, except in the case of pediatric surgery," "where protocols are constantly evolving." "You are not a general surgeon." "You're a pediatric surgeon." "Hey, um, did you eat?" " Let me change." "I'll come with you." " No, no, no." "I can't." "I've--I have to, um..." "Work." "Okay, listen, you have been acting like a basket case ever since I dropped that stupid little comment about babies." "And I'm glad I dropped it, because if you don't want babies or you don't want babies with me and my crappy DNA, just say so." "You don't have to avoid me, and you don't have to make up lame excuses about work." "Meredith, I want your crappy babies." "You do?" " All of 'em." " Okay." " Do you want to eat?" " No." "I-I have" " I gotta-- I have to work." "Oh, my God." "Did you use a bedazzler?" "Circa 1986." "As seen on tv." "Dixon's right, you know?" "You do belong in peds surgery." "My own baby almost died last year." "The doctors in this hospital, my friends-- They all worked to save his life." "And I stood outside the room, feeling so..." "Useless, so pointless and helpless, like..." "I was losing everything in the world." "And when he didn't die, see, I knew I didn't want to be anywhere near that feeling again." "So I think that makes me pretty unsuitable for pediatric surgery." "I'd say..." "That makes you uniquely qualified." " You mind if I sit here?" " No, no." "I'm just..." "Overthinking." "You think he'll tell him?" "If he's not an idiot." "Are you okay?" "I don't..." "I'm fine." "Derek is a" "What are you doing?" "I don't know." "I just..." " Staying here." " Okay." " Good night." " Uh, he's planning to propose." "Wh-what?" "The chief." "Your mother writes he, uh, told her he would leave Adele and come backand get on one knee and propose, but..." "I don't think he ever did." "That's sad." "Is it?" "Or romantic." "It seems we have no control whatsoever..." "Over our own hearts." " Hey." " Hey." " Ortho, right?" " Yeah, right." "Hi." "I'm Arizona Robbins." "Peds surgery." "I've seen you at the hospital." " Are you okay?" " Yeah, no." " I'm..." "Fine." " People talk." "Where we work, they talk..." "A lot." "So for the sake of being honest, I-I think I should tell you that" "I know things about you, because people talk." "You mean..." "Terrific." "It is, actually..." "The talk." "People really like you over there." "They--they respect you and they're concerned and interested." "They really like you." "Some of them..." "Really like you." "You just-- you look upset." "And I-- and I thought that you should know that the talk is good." "And when you're not upset, when you're over..." "Being upset..." "There will be people lining up for you." "You want to give me some names?" "Conditions can change without warning." "I think you'll know." "Romance can make the heart pound..." "Just like panic can..." "This is stupid." " She's gonna hate this." " What, the flowers?" "Girls love this crap." "It's a cliché?" "I'm a cliché?" "Cliché?" "Became cliché?" "For a reason." "Because they worked." "It's great, isn't it, when you feel so strongly for someone, and it's..." "It's not just about the sex?" "It is..." "It's true." "You should not talk like that." "Yeah, you're right." "Well, you're all set here." "I'm gonna leave you to it." "Thanks." "Congratulations." "Thanks." "And panic..." "Addison?" "Can make it stop cold in your chest." "What happened?" "It's no wonder doctors spend so much time trying to keep the heart stable..." "To keep it slow..." "Steady..." "Regular..." "To stop the heart from pounding out of your chest..." "From the dread of something terrible..." "Or the anticipation..." "Of something else entirely."