"Previously on "Felicity"..." "When you asked me at the beginning of the semester if I knew of any summer internships I didn't..." "But I've just been asked to assist this summer." "You still interested?" "It would be a pretty amazing job." "Yeah." "Except, uh, you'd be here all summer." "I don't want to not see you for 3 months." "I have such good news I'm gonna burst." "Samuel said yes!" "Javier, that's great." "Congratulations." "Thank you." "I know!" "Martha Stewart wedding, here I come." "Oh, this is so wrong." "Dear Sally..." "Sex is a big deal." "Do you want to?" "Not yet." "In two years of college..." "that's one thing I've learned... which is why Ben and I haven't done it yet." "What?" "Good morning." " Where you going?" " Would you keep your voice down?" "Where you going?" "I am getting dressed." "Where is my bra?" "Oh." "Here." "I really had fun last night." " Do you insist on yelling?" " I'm not yelling." "I'm just saying I had fun." "Well, good." "Whatever." "Thanks." "So, you and Sean, huh?" "Damn it!" "If you tell anyone..." " I won't." " Absinio or Lulu." " I won't." " You swear." "You swear on your own life that you won't say anything." "You swear to God that if you say one word to one person, you will be struck down that people you love will die." "Yeah, I mean, I swear I won't say anything." "Ok." "Ok." "Sean's pretty amazing." "Really?" "Yeah." "Plus it's the first time I had sex on my back." "See, that kind of stuff I don't need to know." "Damn it." "I'm not gonna give Professor Morton any details." "I'm just going to politely turn down the internship." "That's the plan." "Ben flies back to California the day after Javier's wedding... and I go two days later." "This summer is gonna be amazing." "Felicity." "Come here, I want to show you something." "Um, I just wanted to start by saying thank you." "You can really thank me when you see this." "A guest curator is going to be working on the exhibit, Quincy Callhoun." "He's this American realist painter who's just..." "He's inspiring." "I saw this exhibit of his at the Whitney last December." "We're gonna work with Calhoun..." " in his own private studio." " I don't even know what to say." "That's amazing." "Hey!" "Sean, has Felicity called?" "No." "She has this meeting with this internship lady and she hasn't called back yet... so I'm just kind of worried she's getting sucked in." "To what?" "To doing it." "To staying here all summer." "She hasn't packed yet." "She hasn't done anything, so it doesn't look good." "Why don't you just stay in New York, Mr. Slick?" "Well, I got a job in California." "It's gonna pay for my tuition next year, so gotta go to California." "Hey, you know where I'm goin' this summer?" "No, where you goin'?" "Palm Beach." " Oh, yeah?" " Yeah." "Some beach... a little SPF 45... pair of sunglasses." "And a Speedo." "Ha!" "Can't wait." " Oh, that's great." " Totally." "So, what do you think I should do, just..." "We talked about this." "You looked for a job here." "You're not gonna make nearly as much money, as you will in California." "Besides." "What." "Are you gonna sacrifice college for one summer with Felicity?" "Will somebody look at this?" "Whoa." "What is that?" "Is that for the wedding?" "Are you kidding?" "No." "I'm working at the Asticou Inn all summer back in Maine, and they want me to wear this." "Somebody called for you, a Carole Anderson." "What'd she say?" "Just to call her back." "She left her number." "Thanks." "That's, um..." "That's her birth mother." "Those are from a show that Callhoun did in'96." "You know how much I want to do this" " how much I want to work with you." " Yeah." "Yeah..." "This thing..." "There's a, uh..." "But..." "I don't think I'm gonna be able to do this." "You're kidding." "No, I'm not." "I wish I were." "Well, if you can't, you can't." "I'm..." "I'm so sorry." "There you go." "Ok, I just took my heart rate and technically," "I should be having a heart attack right now." " Ok, what's wrong?" " You know that I love Samuel more than anything, right?" " Yeah." " Ok, well... there's something I haven't told him yet." "Ok, I mean, it's a stupid thing, I know... but I'm just nervous about how to tell him." "All right, just tell me what it is." "What is it?" "Ok." "Ok, it's an ecret-say." "Here comes atalie-Nay and amuel-Say." " What?" " My cousin, ok?" "She's, uh..." "Stay away from her." "Ok?" "She's." "Like." "From another planet." "Ok?" "She's seriously a big problem." "I'm not kidding." "Ok?" "Stay away from her." "Ok." "Ok." "I promise." " Look who just got in!" " Oh!" "Natalie!" "Oh!" "Oh." "You look spectacular." "Oh, thank you." "Benjamin, you know Samuel, of course... and this is my fantastic looking cousin Natalie." "Nice to meet you." "So." "So, bad news." "The string quartet just called." "All 4 of them?" "Why?" "The cellist has the flu." "It will be fine." "Oh, we'll talk about it, ok." "Please, um, give Natalie... anything she wants free, on the house, ok?" "Ok." "Um, do you want a coffee?" "Um, yeah." "I'll have a latte." "And, um, I'll take one of these." "All right." " But I insist on paying." " All right." "So, you're from Texas?" "Well, I'll be moving here next year." "Um, I'm starting grad school in the fall." "Oh, really?" "Wow." "Hey, you." "Hey." " So, congrats?" " On... on what?" "The internship." "I hear you've got the coolest summer plans of anyone." "Yeah." "Uh, yeah, that actually fell through." "Oh." "How come?" "Um, I just decided to go back home for the summer." "What." "To." "Uh." "Spend some time with your mom?" "Um, well, no." "Actually, my dad's been home the past few weeks." "I think they're gonna try to make it work." "You're turning down this internship to be with Ben, aren't you?" "No." "All right, you're not asking my advice, this isn't my office... but it's the end of the year, so what the hell?" "Here's my 3 cents." "I know you..." "I know Ben..." "I know what this internship is." "Take the internship." "Don't throw away an opportunity to become a more interesting person out of fear." "Fear?" "Of losing Ben." "That's not why I turned down the internship." "I just..." "I'm choosing to be with Ben." "That's just what I want to do this summer." "An opportunity like this internship does not come around very often... and if you and Ben are gonna work this out and I hope you do 'cause I love that kid... then you'll be there for each other long after this opportunity has come and gone." "That's what love is about." "No one's ever said love." "Well, in that case..." "Definitely take the internship." "I only give the really good advice in the bathroom." "Yeah." "When she left..." "I felt the same way I always feel after I see Dr. Pavone." "Certainly she's wrong and a little resentful" "And then after I have some time to think about it..." "I finally understand." "This time was no different." "What would you do?" "Um, what would..." "What would I do about what?" "If it were reversed if you had the chance to take this amazing job... but it meant being apart the whole summer." "Um, you regret not taking the internship?" "No, I'm just reviewing it." "Well, it depends upon what the job was." "I mean, you didn't decide immediately either." "You thought about it, right?" "'Cause I just..." "I just had this feeling." "It was just a thought, but..." "When I saw you talking to that girl..." "What... what girl?" "Natalie, Javier's cousin." "I was just talkin' to the girl about ribs." "You know, she's from Texas." "A lot of ribs..." "No, I know." "It's not Natalie." "It's just that I saw you talking to her and I thought, even in the same city..." "I can't baby-sit our relationship." "Well, I think..." "I think you should take the job." "I can't." "It's too late." "It's not too late." "You just gotta go see her tomorrow morning and tell her that you want it." "Is that what you would do?" "Yeah." "I would stay." "I..." "I would take the job." "I really would." "I mean, I guess it is pretty drastic... turning down an offer like this." "Yeah, it's not like..." "It's not like, you know, we're..." "No." "No, I know." "You know?" "Maybe we should... you know, slow things down a little bit." "Yeah." "That's probably smart." "I, uh, I'm gonna be a counselor at Wicca Camp this summer in Illinois." "Oh." "I thought last summer you got kicked out of Wicca Camp." "Oh, uh, no, it's under new management." "Yeah, so..." "I have a lot of memorizing to do... just potions, incantations... that sort of thing." "And, uh, I really can't have any distractions... in my life right now." "My priority is to be the best Wiccan I can be... which... no pun intended... is why last night was a mistake... and, uh, to be honest... you and I have no future whatsoever." "Um, I understand." "Yeah." "So just one more time." "Yeah." " Excuse me." " Hi." "Hi." "I was hoping after everything that it wasn't too late for me to accept that internship." "Well, it might be because I offered it to one of my grad students." "He's got a paying job at the University of Chicago and he's trying to get out of it." "I could call you, I mean, if you want... if it falls through." "Please, will you?" "That... that'll be great." "I just can't believe she chose the internship over you." "I know, like, last night out of nowhere she says..." ""I wish I hadn't turned down the internship."" "I'm shocked." "Now you know what it's like to be Noel." "Basically." "He couldn't care less." "Last night I asked him if the situation were reversed would he choose me or the internship?" "And he just freaked out and said we should take things slow." "And I was like. "You know what?" ""Maybe you should take the internship." ""You know, I'll miss you, but take it."" "Sounds like you and Chia-head are officially on the rocks, Mr. Slick." "Don't call her that." "Don't call her "Chia-head."" "Yeah." "Don't pat me." "And now someone else is taking the internship." "Good." "So now you can spend the summer with Ben." "I don't even know if I want to go to Palo Alto anymore." "I mean, what was I thinking?" "I thought that Ben and I might actually be in love." "Do you love Ben?" " Hi." " Hi." " Thanks for calling me back." " Of course." "Come here." "I was surprised that you called at all." "Yeah, I'm sure." "I've been doing really well... just so you know." "Sophomore year was really good." " I thought about you a lot." " Yeah, me, too." "A day didn't go by where I didn't think about calling you." "Julie... your father... is sick." "How sick?" "Are you here for the, uh..." "Wedding dinner?" "Yeah." "Me, too." "Are you waiting for someone?" "Just having a cigarette." " Do you want one?" " No, thanks." "You know, if I knew you better I'd tell you to quit." "If you knew me that well I'd tell you to screw off." "Really?" "Well, that's pleasant." "If we knew each other that well how would I react?" "You'd smile because you knew I didn't really mean it." "Do you want one?" "You should quit." "Screw off." "Really?" "Ok." "I'm Noel." "Natalie." "Hi." "All right." "You want to hear something?" "Check this out." "Fill her up now dot com." "Right?" "See, they bring the gas to you." "You wake up in the morning you got a full tank." "I miss "The Dinah Shore Show."" "I moved here from Boston when I graduated high school." "So I'm a junior, so..." " Really?" " Yeah, a little while." "You like it?" "Have you been here before?" " Did you make it sound like I was homeless?" " No, no, not at all." "I just was, like "I'm not sure what we're gonna do this summer."" " I can find a place." " I know." " You didn't tell me you were doing that." " Well, I didn't want to say anything in case it didn't happen." "It did, and it is going to change things." "Bondage?" "That's really nice." "Oh." "Really?" "That's for you guys." "That wouldn't do." "I'd stay right away from that." " Meghan, you want a little garlic bread?" " No." "Thanks." "We'll take some." "Yeah?" "Yeah." "Um, excuse me." "I think I've pretty much introduced myself to everyone... but, um, just in case..." "I'm Felicity... and I'm honored to be Javier's Best Man." "Um, I've known Javier for almost 2 years now... but it seems much longer than that." "I just mean that I feel like I know him very well." "The other day I was watching part of Sean's docuventary... and." "Uh." "There was this interview with Javier... and he was saying that he was saying that he loved me because he thinks I'm a romantic... and I just have to say, for the record... there is no bigger romantic on this planet than Javier." "That's true, that's true." "You gonna eat that?" "No." "Javier sees the best version of life... and I think that's why we all love him so much." "Very nice." "Very nice." "I really admire how open and honest..." "Javier and Samuel are with each other... and just how much they care about each other... how deep that love goes." "It's obviously very rare." "I'd like to add something to the speech if I could." "Um, I'm not done yet, but..." "When Javier lost his visa... and had to go back to Spain..." "Samuel, he risked his job in order to be transferred there, too... which is just proof of how much he cared." "Oh." "Yes." "He did." "Yes, I also remember, um, Javier telling me... that when he told Samuel that he might have to move back to Spain how Samuel was so emotional, he actually cried." "Yeah." "I think it's important to remember that Javier was being forced to return to his native land." "Well, at least Samuel cared." "Well, at least Javier didn't abandon his boyfriend." " Can I talk to you for a second?" " Yeah." "And, uh, cheers to the happy couple." "Cheers!" " What was that?" " I couldn't help myself." "Well, I mean, what, you think that I don't care that we're not gonna be together?" " I was trying to be supportive." " Supportive?" " Yes." "That wasn't support, that was indifference." "Ok, what about me?" "You're the one that's" " choosing to stay." " I hadn't chosen to stay." "We were having a conversation." "I mean, come on." "Then all of a sudden out of nowhere you're talking about slowing down or easing off or back off!" "I was only saying that because I thought that's what you wanted, and you agreed with me." "I only agreed because you started to freak out and you were..." "The first time Ben and I had sex... there were 40 people in the next room... and no one knew what we were doing." "Could everyone start talking, please..." "so it's not so obvious that we know?" "Ok?" "Uh, heh heh!" "How about them baseball teams now?" "You say "anything'."" " No." "I don't." " Yes, you do." "You say "anything'."" "I don't say "anything'." I say "anything."" "Yeah." "That's what I say." "If you try really hard that's what you say." "It's like when you say "Javie-ay."" "I don't say that..." "I don't say that anymore." "Ha ha ha!" "I don't." "You know what?" "I really am sorry that you lost the internship." "You are not sorry." "Well, no, not entirely..." "But, no, I am." "I mean, I know that you wanted it." "Not anymore." "I mean, it's actually worked out perfect." "You fly home tomorrow afternoon and my flight's 3 days later... and then we have the whole summer." "I don't know if I can wait 3 days." "You all right?" "Yeah, I'm fine." "So, your mom called, huh?" "Yeah." "Did you call her back?" "Yeah." "I saw her yesterday." "How did it go?" "My father's sick." "He, uh, he needs a kidney transplant." "So that's a big deal." "She wants me to test to see if I'm a match... see if I can help." "What did you say?" "I walked out." "I'm just so mad at her... obviously, for everything... for not telling my father about me... for not letting me or wanting me to meet him... until she needed me." "So I just walked out." "Your mom's..." "She's totally handled this thing all wrong." "I mean, definitely all wrong." "But your father's..." "I mean..." "He's been totally innocent in this, and... and he's the one that's sick." "Right?" "Oh, my God." "I..." "I have severe jitters all over my body." "You're gonna do great." "Turn around." "Let me see you." "Ok, on a scale from 1 to 10..." " 10 being me." " At least a 10." "You're the best friend a person can have." "Are you ready?" "As ready as I'll ever be." "Yeah." "No problem." "I forwarded the phone... from the loft to my cell phone." "It's for you." "Hello?" "Felicity." "It's Professor Morton." "Is it Samuel?" "Is he... is he leaving me at the altar?" " Because I had a dream about this!" " Wait, wait, wait, wait." "Um... hi." "What's goin' on?" "Good news." "My grad student couldn't get out of Chicago... so you're in." "I'm in?" "Where are you in?" "What's in?" "Which... wh... am I in?" "What are you in?" " Hey." " Hey." "Where have you been?" "Uh... we stayed up and walked around the city." " All night?" " You've never done anything like that before?" "If we get to know each other better..." "I'll let you in on the things I've done." "Excuse me." "Just one second." "Hey." "Come here for a second." "Come here." "Ok, I'm gonna..." "I'm gonna..." "I'm gonna talk for a second... so keep your cruelty and sarcasm to yourself." "We have spent 2 of the most fun nights of all time together, yet when you see me during the day, you look at me like I've insulted you somehow." "Ok, you're staying at my loft." "I am doing you a favor." "So given the circumstance, I deserve and demand the courtesy of some kindness." "You got that?" "Fair enough." "One more thing." "I..." "I saw this, and I thought of you." "No one's ever given me jewelry before..." " Oh, it's not a big deal." " Let me finish." "That..." "I don't wear in my... nose... tongue, or bellybutton." "There is no more precious gift than love." "There is no more sacred institution than that of marriage..." "Two lives brought together to form one." " I'm not gonna make this without crying." " That's ok." " It's ok." "Your commitment must be primary." "Know that in the days and years to come..." "You will laugh together." "Cry together..." " go through light days..." " Excuse me." "You have any tissues?" "Thank you so much." "May I have the rings?" "Javier and Samuel... have written their own vows." "Dearest Samuel... you are my light... my soul." "You are my best friend... my lover, and also my roommate." "I feel that it's almost not possible that I met you... but..." "I did." "I want to thank you for being so understanding... especially that..." "I didn't tell you until last night... that next year..." "I'm going to be a freshman at the University of New York." "And I promise I will always do everything I can do... to make you feel as blessed to be my partner... as I am to be yours." "I love you." "My sweetheart..." "Ok." "Quick, tissues." "And... ok." "I look at you, and I see love." "I look at you." "And I see my future." "No one who knows you can't consider himself blessed." "But..." "To be the man who gets to grow old with you..." "I am truly the most blessed man alive." "I thank God for you." "And..." "I love you." "Having proclaimed your profound love for each other in the presence of family and friends..." "I now pronounce you partners in life." "Look at that." "Look..." "look how happy they are." "I mean, they're not worried about anything." "See that?" "I..." "I said "anything."" "Professor Morton called me." "And, uh... I..." "I got the internship." "Are you gonna take it?" "Yeah." "Well, we'd better start dancin'." "Come on." "Here's the thing." "Yesterday at this time we didn't know each other." "But here I am, sitting across from you... and I feel more of a connection than I have with anyone since I can remember." "Do you think it's because you're still heartbroken over Ruby?" "And, what, I'm just I'm desperate for a connection with anybody?" "Maybe." "I don't..." "I don't care, though." "Because with all due deference to the people that we've been involved with recently..." "I now realize that I've spent the past year trying to do the right thing... and... and be the nice guy and be understanding and kind and accommodating and I am so sick of it." "Do you ever feel like doing something dangerous?" "What do you mean?" "I mean... like doing something scary." "Something impulsive and wild." "Ok." "Come on." "Let's go." "It's not that bad." "Come on." "Nobody pouts at my wedding." "* Darlin' *" "* I am captured" "* By your spell *" "* This morning *" "* Darlin' *" "I don't want you to leave tomorrow." "* I'm the one *" "* To treat you well *" "* Today *" "* And I know." "Oh *" "Blumberg Productions." " Has Noel called over there?" " No." "Why?" "Because Javier's relatives called here looking for Natalie." "Said she was supposed to fly back this morning and didn't show up." "So I looked in Noel's room and half his stuff is gone." "And he left a note saying "see you in September, maybe."" "What?" "Well, have you seen him since the wedding?" "No, but I do know that he and Natalie left early." "I don't trust that girl." "Hello?" "Hello?" "I quit." "Look, you know what?" "We don't have to go out." "We don't have to see each other." "And that... that necklace is..." "It was just a..." "Don't." "No." "No." "I quit." "Wicca Camp." "Why?" "My parents... have a villa in Tuscany." "They're not gonna be there all summer." "You wanna go?" "For a couple of months?" "Call... call me when you get there." "Yeah." "Of course I will." "Yeah." "It'll go fast." "You know, if-if you end up hating the internship, you can always just..." "You can always come home, you know?" "Yeah." "I thought of that." "We'll fi... we'll figure this out." "Of course we will." "Ok." "You know, it's like... it's only..." "it's only for a summer." "I love you." "I love you." "Have a safe flight." " You be careful, ok?" " I will." " I should go." " Yeah, go." "Yeah." "* There's a better life in between *" "* Who we are and who we seem *" "You see." "The circle is broke" "* When you go." "Feeling that chokes *" "* When you go, fever that soaks *" "* When you go." "You go away *" "* Into the unknown *" "* When you go." "It breaks a wound *" "* When you go,'cause it chokes *" "* It had choked *" "* Given all the pain inside *" "* Emptiness you cannot hide *" "Hello?" "Felicity." "It's Dr. Pavone." "Have you got 5 minutes?" "Yeah." "Sure." "* The circle is broke *" "* When you go *" "Hey." "Oh, hey, you." "Come on in." "I called because I spoke to Dr. Morton." "You took the internship." "Yeah." "Look, I didn't want you to think I was being flip before." "About what?" "You know, what I was saying about Ben." "Yeah." "He, uh, he left this afternoon." "So now you're feeling it." "So I'm feelin' it." "You know, I don't usually... um, like to talk about my stuff... my life." "I..." "I try to keep it about the students, but..." "I want to show you this." "This is Joe." "He's my husband." "We met at Syracuse." "He's 2 years older." "And that's his senior year." "He was in the Air Force... and we were apart for 4 years on and off." "You get through it." "But more than that... see, you chose yourself over a guy, over Ben." "Do you realize what that means?" "It means you're growing." "It means you're making real choices... adult choices." "I just wish growing up felt a little better." "Well... then it wouldn't be growing up, would it?" "* I hang my laundry out *" "* To dry in the sun *" "* And I take my suitcase down *" "* And fill it with stuff *" "* 'Cause after tomorrow *" "* I'm no longer for sale *" "* I'll give back sorrow *" "* Yeah." "But I'm keeping myself *"