"Organic chemistry, physics 2, multivariable calculus, conversational French, introduction to the modern European novel, uh, tennis" "You took all those classes in one semester?" "Yes." "My textbooks that fall cost as much as a small car." "But I wanted to graduate in three and a half years, and I was interested in all of them." "It sounds overwhelming." "It was." "♪ I hear the train all night ♪" "♪ sound of its wind ♪" "♪ blowing through ♪" "Corinne?" "Corinne, it's your brother..." "Sam." "What-- what-- what do they have her on?" "She was deranged when she came in." "The shrink's got her loaded up." "♪ I have a job to do ♪" "Mm." "So..." "It was actually" "It's-- it's actually a physical book?" "Yeah, yeah, with every student's face in it." "Like a phone book?" "No computer?" "That's right, young man." " Yeah, it was great." " Oh." " You could..." " Mm." "Look up the cute guy in your comparative literature class and call him when you were drunk." "What cute guy?" "How cute?" "♪ Some stalks grow high ♪" "Not as cute as you." " I'm not cute." " You're cute." " I'm tough." " You're tough." "I'm a tough guy." "♪" "Sorry I called." "No, no." "I'm glad you called." "I'm s" "I'm sorry I don't have any words of wisdom." "I d" "Yeah." "Gosh, you look so sad." "You look like a little boy." "It's 20 years, Addison." "Just picked up and left." "No good-bye, no..." "She was just gone." "I know." "I mean, I don't know." "I know what you told me." "No call, no letter..." "I thought she was dead." "Yeah, but it's good news, right, that-- that she's not, that she's back now?" "Corinne." "Can I get you something?" "Thirsty." "Hi, Corinne." "Um, I'm..." "Sam's neighbor, and we work together also." "I'm Addison." "Here's your water, Corinne." "Here are your meds." "You want to take this for me?" "I'm not so sure." "Not so sure?" "That this is good news." "He won't stop screaming." "I know babies cry, but it's been, like, 14 hours." "He won't eat." "He can't sleep." "Hyperactive reflexes, increased muscle tone." "He's tachypneic." " Pulse ox is borderline." " Can't you give him something?" "We will, after we diagnose what the problem is." "Eli's pretty small for 10 days." "Was he premature?" "Mm-hmm." "How many weeks?" "Um, like, two?" " Are you asking me?" " No." "Sorry." "It's just the screaming." "I-I haven't slept." "It was two weeks." "He came two weeks early." "He looks malnourished and dehydrated." "Is he eating?" "Are you breastfeeding?" "No." "Um, uh, he likes the bottle." " Pumping or giving him formula?" " Formula." "And why is that?" "What?" "Uh, most mothers try to breastfeed at least for a little while." "Was he having trouble latching or" "Why does it matter?" "Just help him." "Denise, I gotta say, you look pretty good for someone that gave birth ten days ago." "This isn't your baby, is it?" "Okay, you need to explain what's going on right now or we're going to security." "Okay." "Wait." "Uh, his mom..." "My mom, she's a druggie." "So Eli is your brother?" "She gave birth to him, brought him home, and then left to score." "He was 2 days old, but it" " It's been over a week, and she hasn't come back." " Did you try to find her?" " No, but" "Do you know if she's okay?" "I never know if she's okay." "The first time she left me, I was 8." "I woke up one morning, went downstairs, and there was no one." "The house was empty." "I didn't know what to do, and-- and I was scared, but I didn't want to be alone, so I toasted a frozen waffle and I got dressed and I went to school." "She came back a few days later." "She said she got stuck at work, but she worked in some office, and so it didn't make any sense." "But then she acted normal, so..." "I did, too." "I just" " I didn't want it to happen again." "But it did." "Of course." "Sometimes, she would tell me that she was leaving." "Other times, she'd just be gone." "Eventually, when it got really bad, one of my teachers figured it out." "And that was the first time I was put in foster care." "After that, it..." "It was just a lot of back and forth." "Eli doesn't deserve that." "He should have someone who can take care of him..." "Always." "And that can be me." "Hey." "How you feelin'?" "Hey." "Ten minutes into my first session of chemo?" "Probably better than anyone else in here." "Well, you got the right attitude." "Do you want me to bring Mason in?" "No." "I don't want him to see me..." "Or anyone else in here." "It'll just be too much for him." "Okay." "If that's what you want." "It's what I want." "He's my little boy." "I've been the only constant in his life." "So if this is scary for me, then for him..." "It's what I want." "Blank-o-o-blank-blank" "I-blank-blank." "Come on." "I don't know. "E"?" "I already said there's no E's." "Come on." "Look, can I please see my mom now?" "Well, maybe in a few minutes." "She's, uh, she's still resting." "I really just want to see my mom." " I know" " Hey, guys." "Hey, man." "Hey, Mason." "So..." "How is your, uh..." "Give me a minute, okay?" "I'll give you a hint." "There's a "K" in there." "So Mason doesn't know about his mother?" "No." "Erica won't..." "She doesn't want me to say anything, and, you know, I've gone along with that because he's just a kid." "He's probably not ready to deal with his mother's death." "I mean, I'm not ready to deal with it." "Yeah, well losing a parent-- I know how hard that is." "At least he has you and Charlotte." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Mason, I'll see you later." "All right." "Any ideas?" "Why is my mom resting so much?" "She's still really tired from the accident." "The last time I saw her, she didn't look tired." "She looked fine." "Yeah, but" "I know she wants to see me." "I really want to see her." "Please." "We just have to give it a little more time." "Hey." "Could I ask you a favor?" "You can ask." "I want you to take me off the surgical rotation for a couple of days." "I'm researching gliosarcomas and I have a few leads, but I-I need more time." "Erica agreed to do the chemo." "Beyond that, I don't think she's holding out any hope." "Which is realistic, but I'm not ready to give up yet." "What does that mean?" "It means, I need to keep reading and talking to more docs and..." "I don't know where you find miracles these days, but I would like to try." "Yeah." "You were right." "Baby Eli has neonatal abstinence syndrome." "We should start a methadone taper." "Unfortunately, there's more." "He's also got a congenital cystic adenomatoid malformation." "It needs to be removed immediately or his lungs are gonna be compromised." "You can't do surgery, right?" "He's too weak." "Well, waiting carries its own risks." "I mean, any little virus or a cold, he could become oxygen deprived." "Who makes this call?" "I don't know." "Is there a father in the picture?" "No, just the baby's sister" " Denise." " How old is she?" " 19." "And she also went through hell with the mother, but..." "But she's trying to do right by her brother and..." "She's a little young." "You think she's qualified to make that kind of decision?" "She doesn't have to." "This is Eli's mother-- Melissa." "Did I leave to score drugs right after Eli was born?" "Yes, I did." "But I changed my mind." "Oh, so where were you?" "Getting clean." "You went to rehab?" "No, ma'am." "I did it myself." "She locked herself in a motel room for eight days and detoxed cold turkey." "Well, that would've been great before she got her fetus addicted to opiates." " Okay, Cooper" " No, you're right." "But I got clean." "Okay, due respect, you've been clean for what, eight days?" "But you've been an addict for" "I don't need you to tell me about addiction." "Okay, I am trying for Eli." "I am doing everything that I can because I am gonna be a good mother to him." "You walked out on him." "No, I didn't." "I left him with Denise." "And I called over and over, only Denise never answered, and she never called me back." "So Denise is lying?" "She has issues..." "With me, all right?" "And I know why." "There's lot of times I wasn't any kind of mother to her." "But this is not the same thing." "It isn't." "I went to get clean." "It was miserable." "I-I-I..." "Day after day, shaking and sweating and wanting to die, but I did it for Eli, because he is my second chance, and I am not gonna screw this up." "How did you find her?" "I called her cell phone." "Okay, so what?" "She left her newborn to get high." "But she didn't get high." "She got clean." "And that means something." "You know how hard it is to detox cold turkey?" "Yeah, and it was admirable that she was able to do it, but does that mean that she's able to take care of Eli" " and all the problems he has?" " Denise is." " She's a kid, Cooper." " Coop, really?" "Does Denise have an apartment, a job, somebody to help out with Eli?" "You guys, there are plenty of single, competent teenage mothers in the world." "With a sick baby, it's just..." "Okay, guys, you know what?" "We're not gonna solve this." "We gotta call DCFS." "Well, Melissa's better than the system." "Denise is better than Melissa." "I am calling social services." "Hey." "How do you feel about New Zealand?" "Right now, anything farther than the bathroom seems intimidating." "Why?" "There's a doctor there who's doing experimental treatments on gliosarcomas." "They're called intracranial microcapsules, which basically just means that they're" "Sorry, no." "Thank you, but, no." "I can't just get on a plane and fly halfway around the world for..." "Whatever that is." "It might be nothing, but it might be something, and the point is, we won't know until we get on the ground" " and really start" " Amelia." "I agreed to do chemo." "I'm fighting." "Other than that, I don't want to do anything that's gonna sacrifice time with Mason, especially getting on a plane to fly somewhere for someone to do a surgery on my brain, a surgery that I might not wake up from." "I'm sorry." "I can't." "Three times." "Three times?" "Oh, I hate you." "Yes, well, I would..." "Hate me, too." "Look at you." " You're all... "Violet got her groove back."" " Yeah." "Who would've thought my groove was in this 20-something paramedic with these abs carved out of marble and this back..." "Oh, my God, his back." "It's just like you ordered him." "Like you called up a catalog and asked for those exact specifications." "I want that catalog." "You know, I've never done this before." "It's-- it's just sex." "It's just pure, mind-numbing sex." "Maybe guys are right, you know?" "Maybe "no strings attached" works." "Eh." "Every time I sleep with someone, we wind up in a pit of despair..." "Together, stuck." " Stop." " I'm serious." "Oh." "All this makes me miss Sam." "Oh, you miss Sam or you miss sex?" "Both." "You know, the irony has been that the harder I tried to have a baby, the less I actually had sex." "It's been months, which is probably why I threw myself at Jake." "What?" "In Palm Springs." "I drank a bunch of Martinis and the next thing you know, I wound up in his bed." " Addison." " He turned me down, you know, which I respect and hate." "Oh, I miss Sam." "Lazy." "What?" "Lazy." "It's lazy." "It's-- It's more than lazy." " You know, it's-- it's infuriating." " Sheldon" "She's stoned, Sam." "She's not medicated." "She's not even properly diagnosed." "I mean, look, I understand the pressure the prison shrinks are under." "I do, but your sister is just stoned on a cocktail of antipsychotics and sedatives that would leave a large circus animal glassy-eyed and affectless." "Okay, look, there might be a silver lining here." "Okay, we don't know what Corinne is like under all those meds." "And once we get her off them, you might actually be able to find your sister in there somewhere." "You want to take her off her meds?" " Yeah." " 'Cause the prison guard said that when they brought her in, she was deranged." ""Deranged" is not a diagnosis." "Okay, look, I just want to get her off the meds long enough to see what's going on with her." "Okay?" "Can we do that?" "Please." "Okay." "So Sheldon took her off her meds?" "Yeah, temp-temporarily." "Well, did she..." "I-is she any different?" "Uh, not much." "Not yet." "Apparently, they had her pretty zonked out." "We're gonna have to wait for it all to wear off." "But Sheldon canceled all his patients, said he would spend the day with her, try to make a real diagnosis." "And then what?" "I don't know." "Uh..." "I just..." "I don't know." "Did you call your family, your mom?" "No." "I..." "I'm taking this thing, like, a minute at a time." "And I can't look ahead." "I just..." "I don't know." "That's not your job anymore, you know, to, uh, take care of him, to worry about him." "He's my friend." "He'll be your friend again someday, but right now, he's mostly just your ex." "I mean, you still want a baby, right?" "I know you needed a break, but has anything changed?" "No." "I still want a baby." "Then right now, Sam is your ex." "You try to pretend he's your friend, and, uh..." " And what?" " And you hurt worse." "I know he's having a tough time right now, but he has other friends, and..." "And I would hate to see you hurt worse." "I gotta go to the hospital." "I'm..." "I'm putting my foot down." "We're staying on the bed next time." "Why?" "I'm gonna die from rug burn." "That's why." "Why do we have to lie down at all?" "Oh, you're trouble." "Oh." "You kids got a hall pass?" "I'm the only one you have to worry about." "Should I..." "Uh, if I'd brought him in earlier, would he be okay?" "Oh, Denise." "It is not your fault." "I just want to protect him, you know?" "I know you do." "Why are you here?" "Denise, she just wants to be with her baby." "Mommy" " Mommy's here, Eli." "And I am never leaving again, ever." "Liar." "You're a liar." "You're gonna do to him exactly what you did to me." " And he is gonna end up exactly like I did..." " No, no." "Bouncing around, scared and alone." " I am clean now, okay?" " Okay, okay, come on." "You can't do this here." "You" "I got clean." "Oh, right, until Eli cries or you have a bad day at work or some guy dumps you." "That's all it's gonna take." "Look, I will not let you hurt him." "You are damaged and you're bad" " I have" " I have a problem, okay?" " Denise and Melissa, we're going outside." "For the first time in my life, I have a reason to fix it." "Oh, so I wasn't worth it?" "Oh, my God." "What" " What" " Get Dr. Montgomery." " What is" " What is happening?" " Eli's crashing." " His sats are dropping." "What does that mean?" " His oxygen is low." "He's having trouble breathing." " Intubate." "Don't." "Don't." "Well, he's not getting air." "We have to intubate." "No, we can't." "Intubating will increase air trapping in the damaged area of the lungs." "It'll make things worse." "We need to get him to the OR now." "No, but Dr. Freedman said that he's not strong enough for surgery." " Let them do their job." " You don't know what you're talking about." " Surgery might kill him, but not doing surgery will kill him." " This is completely your fault." " Denise!" "Enough!" " It always is!" "Move out of the way." "Now!" "I don't want to die." "But you must die." "All right, time for all monsters to get off the table." "Dinner is ready." "I'm not hungry." "I just want to see my mom." "I made you mac and cheese." "That's your favorite, right?" "Charlotte, I really just want to see my mom." "I know you do, but visiting hours are over for tonight." "But you're in charge there." "You can take me." "Well, your mom's still resting." "She's not this tired." "Everyone keeps saying that, but she's never this tired." "Tell me what you think of the mac and cheese." "This isn't right." "It's not how my mom makes it." "Well, there's macaroni and there's cheese." "I don't want this." "I want to see my mom!" "Mason," "I know you're upset, and you've been through a lot, and you're worried about your mom, but that does not mean that you can act like you..." "Mason?" "Mason." "Mason!" "Thank you." "How's Eli?" "Uh, Addison's still working on him." "She's isolated the main bronchus, but she hasn't done the lobectomy yet." "But... that kid's a fighter." "I think he'll be okay." "Hey, man, I know that, uh, we disagree about Melissa and Denise, but let's not let it become a thing, okay?" "It's not." "It's not a thing." "You sure?" "Yeah, it's just..." "My... my mind is on Eli, I'm walking down the hall, and I see Violet making out with her boyfriend." " Oh." " It's annoying." "Yeah." "Well..." "Yeah, well... what?" "Well, I mean, you guys are separated, right?" "Yeah, but that doesn't mean that I want to see her fooling around with someone that I have to work with in my workplace." "Well, I mean, you might not want to, but isn't that, like, the next step?" "I mean, you move on, she moves on." "Okay." "Let's just say that you and Charlotte split up, and she starts dating some hot male nurse." "Would you be cool with that just 'cause you had a few nights of unattached fun?" "I don't know how I would feel." "Yes, you do." "Ah, speak of the devil." "Hello." "I turned my back for one second, Coop." "One second, and he was gone." " What?" " Mason." "What?" "Where are you?" "He just ran out the front door." "Now I'm out lookin' for him." "Well, how long has he been gone?" "And how far did he get?" "I'm trying to figure that out." "Okay, I'm calling-- I'm calling the police." "Give me five minutes to look." "If I can't find him by then, I'll call." "Are you feeling better?" "Clearer?" "A-a little." "Corinne, have you ever been formally diagnosed?" "Schizophrenic..." "Manic depressive..." "Paranoid delusions..." "Every jail, every nuthouse, a different shrink had a different idea." "I'm thirsty." "You're just coming down off the haloperidol." "Here." "Have some water." "Sam, come in." "All right." "Hey, Corinne." "Corinne has given me permission to include you in her sessions and to disclose what she's sharing." "Isn't that right, Corinne?" "Mm." "Sure." "Bathroom." "Sure, sure." "It's out the door, down the hall, on the right." "Okay?" "Easy." "Thank you." "I was wondering what you remember." "You-- you grew up with Corinne." "For purposes of diagnosis..." "What I remember." "Uh, okay." "I, uh, I remember her being..." "You know, the life of the party until... she was the death of it." "Can you explain that?" "Uh, she was wild." "She was wild." "She was, uh, she was funny, she was loud." "Always dancing on tables..." "Uh, until she would fall off the tables." "She, uh..." "She almost burned the house down." "Intentionally?" "No." "She was" " I think she said, she was making popcorn and the oil caught fire." "I remember her saying that she thought it looked cool." "So instead of trying to put the fire out, she started fanning the flames to make it bigger." "Luckily, I knew where the fire extinguisher was." "Was she drunk or high?" "I never could tell." "You know, she was just..." "She was just wild." "And then..." "A-and then what?" "And then she would turn." "You know, all of a sudden, she would think the whole world was against her." "I put out her fire, like, literally." "I-I stopped her from burning down the house," " and" " And?" "And... she cried for, like, three days straight." "She, uh, she threatened suicide." "She accused me of hating her and..." "Of wanting her dead." "She was not easy to live with." "♪ I thought it was good ♪" "♪ I thought it was right ♪" "She's my sister, and I love her." "But when you say that she's in there somewhere... ♪ When there's absence of light ♪" "I don't know how I feel about that." "Look, it's, uh, it's been a long day." "Do you mind if I just take her home and we can continue this tomorrow?" "Sure." "All right." "I appreciate it." "Yeah." "♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪" "♪ ooh ♪" "Coop." "I found him." "♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪" "♪ ooh ♪" "You know, when I was a..." "A little bit older than you are, my cousins used to go hang out at the river with their friends." "And I was just desperate to go." "But every time I asked my daddy, he said no, I wasn't old enough." "So one weekend I snuck out, hitched a ride, and went to see what all the fuss was about." "And you know what?" "My daddy was right." "It was a whole lot of..." "Well, big kid stuff..." "That I wasn't ready for." "So what I'm trying to tell you is, sometimes, when you really want to do something" "Is my mom dead?" "♪ And I'm down ♪" "Because no one's letting me see her, and when my nana went into the hospital... ♪" "She never came out." "♪" "Oh, honey." "♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪" "♪ ooh ♪" "Hey." "Oh, hey." "What's up?" "Nothing." "I, uh..." "Well..." "I saved a baby today." "Oh." "Oh, yeah?" "That's good." "Yeah." "And I was at home, I couldn't sleep, and I saw your light on." "I wanted to, uh..." "I wanted to make sure you were okay." "Mm." "Mm." "Where's Corinne?" "She's asleep." " Yeah?" " Mm-hmm." "Mm." "Mm." "I'm sorry." "How did Charlotte lose Mason?" "Mason was very upset, and he just slipped out the door when she wasn't looking." "I need to see him." "Okay, Charlotte's bringing him." "Now." "Mom." "I thought you were dead." "I'm not." "Of course I'm not." "Mwah." "Are you gonna be okay?" "Yes, baby." "Mommy's gonna be just fine." "Hey." "Hey." "You don't have to leave, you know." "Nothing's changed, Sam." "I mean..." "Nothing's changed, so..." "I do have to go." "Look, I'm sorry." "I didn't mean to" "No, no, don't be sorry." "I'm not sorry." "I just have to go." "I'm gonna check on you, too." "I'm worried about you." "I wish I could say you didn't have to be." "But honestly, I'm a little worried about me, too." "You don't like me very much." "Oh." "Well, I don't really know you." "Uh, the only thing I know about you is that the first thing you did after your baby was born was leave to get high, so..." "I was jonesing." "He was screaming." "I..." "I-I just had to get away, and drugs are how I've always done that." "And, uh..." "Now it's gonna be different?" "How do I answer that?" "I want to say... yes, that I would die before I'd hurt Eli the way I hurt Denise." "But you're gonna tell me, I'm an addict and addicts slip." "What do I say to that?" "It's true." "But this time..." "I'm gonna do everything I can for that boy." "Do you have any idea how lucky you are to even have that choice to make?" "Eli could've died from the drugs you were doing when you were pregnant." "His lung condition could've killed him right after he was born." "DCFS could've taken him when you were gone." "You could've had a bad reaction when you were detoxing." "I mean, frankly, it is a miracle you're both even here right now." "And most parents..." "Believe me, they don't get miracles." "I know." "I screwed up." "But I am making a choice, and this time, I am choosing Eli." "Good." "I hope so." "I mean, being a parent, a good parent, that is an all-day, every day job" "Every single day." "I am not kidding myself." "I know it's going to be a fight every day, like you said." "And I'm..." "I'm gonna fight." "And what about Denise?" "Maybe..." "I don't know." "Maybe it's too late for us." "I don't know." "I mean, I hope that it's not, but I learned on Denise." "And this time, I am gonna do it right with Eli." "I-I know that I left once." "And I'm sure there is a better way to do what I had to do, but..." "At least this time, even though I did the wrong thing, it was for the right reasons." "It really was." "Look, I believe in second chances." "I do." "But I don't know if I can trust this woman." "She's been sober for eight days." "It's not enough time." "Not by a long shot, right?" "Well, maybe Melissa doesn't have to raise Eli all by herself, you know?" "Maybe she can ask for help." "Denise cares, right?" "She does, but..." "I mean, you should see these two people together." "Well, you should see me and Pete together, you know?" "But kids are an exception." "If there's one thing that Pete and I agree on, it's-- it's Lucas." "That's it, just Lucas?" "Well, look, if you're asking me if it's over," "I don't know." "I" " Back when we were together, you know," "Pete was an ass." "And now that we're apart, he's..." "He's actually more of an ass." "You know, he" " No, he" "He refuses to let me be happy with anybody else." "Okay, but seeing you with Scott" "That has gotta be weird for him." "What are you doing?" "What do you mean?" "You're defending him." "No, I get where he's coming from." "He's coming from a place where he wants me to be miserable." "No, he is hurt." "He is the one who wanted to see other people." "I hated the idea." "I cried." "And then I thought about it logically, and I thought, you know what?" "Pete's right." "He wants to be happy, I want to be happy, and neither of us should interfere with that." "Aren't you interfering with his happiness by being in a relationship with somebody he works with?" "Oh, the thing with Scott, it's not a relationship." "It" " It's" " It's sex." "It's exactly the same thing that he's doing." "The-- the only difference is that it's someone he-- he-- he-- he sort of knows and sometimes sees." "But, Coop..." "It's not going anywhere." "Well, maybe you should tell Pete that." "How long are you gonna keep Mason in the dark?" "Well, you saw how he reacted when he thought I..." "I can't tell him." "With all due respect, last night, Mason dumped the dinner I made him on the floor, ran out the door, and scared the hell out of me because he is worried about you." "Now he's smart and he needs some answers." "And this is only gonna get worse." "If you don't tell him bef" "He's never gonna forgive you." "And he'll hate me and Cooper, the only people he'll have left." "Erica, I know why you're lying to him." "But you're lying to him." "It's too much." "I can't tell him." "Not yet." "Oh, I just can't." "I told you Eli was a fighter." "So's his mother." "What is it with you and Melissa?" "I mean, it's like, from the very get go, you've just been on her side." "Violet abandoned Lucas." "Is that really what's bothering you?" "It was a big deal, Cooper, and this has nothing to do with who Violet is sleeping with." "Look, when she walked out, it was just me and Lucas." "And he couldn't talk yet, but his eyes said it all." ""Where's mommy?" "You're not my mommy."" "When Violet came back, I was so angry at her, but she did come back, and I gave her another chance." "And whatever I think about her, she is an incredible mother." "Lucas would be much worse off without her." "Dr. Freedman." "I had to call." "I've spoken with Melissa and Denise." "I'm aware of the situation." "There is no situation." "Unless Melissa starts using again." "There's no way to know if that will happen." "But Melissa did make a choice to get clean for her child." "Dr. Freedman, we've been through this together a lot of times, and you know we like to keep a child with its mother if at all possible." "But if your instincts say that it's to Eli's detriment, then we can explore other options." "Mm-hmm." "Yeah." "I need to talk to you." "Just a minute." "No, I need to talk to you now." "Shainie, can I give you a call back?" "Yeah, thanks." "What's so important?" "I have a lead on a way to treat Erica's gliosarcoma." "It involves getting on a plane to New Zealand," "Erica already said she didn't want to do that." "This one involves getting on a plane to Seattle." "I think my brother Derek can help us." "People can do awful things, but they can also change." "You don't know my mother." "No, I don't." "But I do know that being a parent is hard." "And it is easy to make mistakes, even when you're trying to do the right thing." "Is that why you're giving her Eli, because you think it's been hard for her?" "I think it's been hard for your mom." "I think it's been hard for you." "And it's-- it's sad." "But hopefully, it can be a reminder to both of you..." "That with Eli, it has to be different." "He's gonna need a lot of care while he's recovering." "Your mom's gonna need help..." "Being a mom." "I..." "I know it must not seem fair to you, but you are a family." "And you have to look out for one another." "Hey." "Lucas wanted to know if his truck could fly, and, uh, it can't, so I got him a new one." "I thought he could leave it at your house." "No stairs." "You know it's just sex." "With Scott, it's just" "It's just sex." "It's a distraction." "I'm sorry, Violet." "I'm just..." "Not evolved enough to want to hear about your sex life." "No, I wasn't gonna give you details." "I just wanted you to know that it wasn't serious." "Okay." "I just-- I still don't like it." "Well, you're the one that walked away, so you shouldn't care." "I know I shouldn't care, but I do." "You do?" "Yeah." "Well, maybe that means" "You don't have to interpret my feelings, Violet." "I just..." "I care." "Is he really gonna be okay?" "I resected the damaged part of Eli's lung." "In time, healthy tissue will grow in its place." "Thank you." "You can do this, Melissa." "I know." "It's all about Eli now." "♪" "Maybe not all." "I-I thought that you" "Bailed?" "Yeah." "♪ Close your... ♪" "I'm..." "I-I'm s" "I know, mom." "I know." "I'm sorry." "♪ Good-bye ♪" "Then do better with Eli." "Okay?" "Do better." "♪ And let you know ♪" "Hey." "How's it going with your sister?" "Pretty much the same." "It'll take a while for the meds to wear off." "You took her off everything?" "No." "No, I kept her on a milesedative, because, uh, we don't know what to expect when..." "We just don't know anything yet." "♪ Where I go ♪" "Keep me updated, okay?" "Thanks." "You, you keep her at your house?" "No, no, she's in my office..." "Staring at the walls." "That's hard." "Yeah, it's..." "Hard." "♪ You're always close ♪" "Hey." "Hey." "♪ Oh ♪" "♪ I hope you know ♪" "Okay." "Shoulda seen that coming." "Didn't." "Should've." "Jake." "When you're, uh, when you're ready to meet more surrogates, you let me know." "♪ Close my eyes ♪" "I know it's complicated, and it's scary, and we can't promise you that this will work." "But one thing I can promise is that this gives you a little hope." "Isn't that what you said about chemo?" "What we said about chemo was that it would buy you some time." "Right." "And what you told us was that you didn't want whatever time you had left ruined by what chemo does to your body." "But this surgery, it has the potential to be more than just a treatment." "We're not talking about buying you time anymore." "We're talking about curing you." "I know you don't want to tell Mason that, at some point, this tumor will kill you." "If you're open to this, you may not have to." "♪ Oh ♪" "♪ I hope you know ♪" "♪ when I go ♪" "♪ you're always close ♪" "Hey." "♪ Oh ♪" "You hungry?" "♪ You know ♪" "♪ where I go ♪" "It reminds me." "You remember that house we used to go to in the summers?" "It was in North Carolina..." "Right on the beach." "♪ You won't be alone ♪" "Uh, yeah, I remember." "♪ I hope you know ♪" "Your house reminds me of that." "♪ When I go ♪" "♪ you're always close ♪" "♪ oh ♪" "♪ As we go ♪" "♪ you won't be alone ♪" "I pushed myself to the limit that semester." "Maybe even past the limit." "I was stressed." "Didn't sleep." "Got an incomplete in that tennis class." "Had to take it over." "And in retrospect?" "I loved every minute of it." "♪"