"Previously on Felicity:" "Last week when I was installing her computer," "I happened to see her e-mail address and password." "Oh, God, no." "Exactly!" "You cannot, under any circumstances, read that girl's e-mail." "I know." "Trust me." "Lies ruin everything." "Elena told me about the affair." "We were only together one time." "What?" "(woman) So, any first-timers?" "Welcome." "(whispering) Hey." "(people chattering)" "Hey." "OK, I need a sentence on Jeff Koons." "The artist?" "Yeah." "Something casually profound but not glib." "What, is this for a class or something?" "Yeah." "It's this project that I'm working on." "Oh, yeah, what's-her-name?" "What?" "Sean said that there's a girl?" "Great." "Her name's Jane." "OK, um..." "Wait." "Let me write it down." "OK, he takes... mundane things and turns them into icons, making us rethink everyday objects." "You're a genius." "Yeah, I know." "Here he is!" "(gasping)" "Oh, my gosh!" "Javier!" "Oh, I love your blouse." "Is this Isaiah?" "Yes, it is." "Hello." "He's so beautiful." "Isn't he, though?" "Who's this?" "My nephew." "The first in a new generation of Quintatas." "Can I talk to you?" "Yeah, of course." "Privately?" "Yeah." "You want me to watch him?" "Oh, you're so perceptive." "Yes, please." "He likes it when you make a monkey face." "I can do that, huh?" "(cooing)" "He's beautiful." "Oh, I know, I know, I know." "The second I picked him up at the airport and saw Isaiah's tiny fingers, oh," "I got this, like, maternal flame lit up inside of me like a blowtorch." "Oh, Javier." "Since then, I keep thinking, is he gonna become president, or an astronaut, or, like, this fantastic pastry chef who would make the most incredible flan?" "What did you want to talk to me about?" "I am talking about it." "Samuel and I have been thinking about this for a long time." "Um, we want to be parents." "Javier, that's so exciting." "I know." "Oh, my gosh!" "Here's where the big question comes in." "Would you ever consider..." "having a baby with me?" "Um..." "A-Are you kidding?" "No, I'm not kidding." "You know, you have my most favorite genes, you know." "And I'm not talking Jordache, of course." "It's OK if you say no, but... would you be the mother of my child?" "♪ Can you become" "♪ Can you become" "♪ A new version of you" "♪ New wallpaper" "♪ New shoe leather" "♪ A new way home" "♪ You don't remember" "♪ New version of you" "♪ I need a new" "♪ Version of me" "♪ New version of you" "♪ I need a new" "Version of me ♪" "Well, there's this girl." "She's sort of the leader." "And, it's weird, they sit around and they talk." "They don't force you to talk." "You just do." "And are... are all of them students?" "Yeah, most of them are students." "It's crazy." "Some of them have some messed-up stuff going on." "Like what?" "Well, that's the thing." "I can't really talk about it outside the meeting 'cause it's... anonymous." "Right." "Sorry." "Of course." "Yeah." "It's OK." "I'm really glad you went." "Yeah, me, too." "So did you talk?" "Did you say anything?" "No, I didn't talk." "This was my first meeting." "I just wanted to go and... just listen to what they had to say." "So, no, I didn't talk." "Uh, how was work?" "Um..." "Well, uh..." "Javier wants me to be the mother of his baby." "Yeah, no kidding." "But really, literally, he wants me to, uh, donate an egg." "A what?" "An egg." "Um, Samuel and Javier want to have a baby." "And I guess this happens all the time where a doctor harvests an egg." "Harvests?" "What do you mean?" "He puts it in a test tube with Javier's sperm, and then they would implant it into Samuel's 49-year-old aunt." "OK, you can't use "Javier" and "sperm" in the same sentence." "I know." "The thing is, they've been looking through these catalogs of women who are willing to donate, and they feel like it's ordering furniture, which I totally respect, because how can you choose the parent of your child in a catalog?" "Yeah, I understand that, but you're not really thinking about doing this, are you?" "No." "No?" "Good." "Yeah." "Tracy." "Finally." "I've been looking all over for you." "Where've you been?" "Nowhere." "Nowhere?" "Did you get any of my messages?" "Look, I am having a complete physics meltdown." "I can't solve a circuit problem to save my life, and our test is Thursday." "So are we having a study session or what?" "I am." "What is that supposed to mean?" "It means Finn told me." "What?" "Play dumb about circuits." "Don't play dumb about sleeping with another guy." "I gotta go." "Wait, Tracy." "Let me explain." "I don't want to hear you explain, Elena." "You slept with Finn." "That's all I need to know." "Look." "Um..." "I know that was the most horrible, most disrespectful thing I ever could have done to you..." "Stop." "Ever since we started going out, you had a problem with me, with not having sex." "No, that wasn't it." "I was confused, and then I got caught up in the moment, and I thought..." "You had your sex now." "I hope it was worth it." "No, baby, it wasn't worth it." "Who are you calling your baby?" "OK, I am not your baby." "No, I do." "I like Bangharra." "No, it's OK if you didn't." "OK." "You know, to the untrained eye," "Australian dancing can look like a really, really long game of Red Light, Green Light, but I got something from that, like when that Aborigine limped away after falling from the Tree of Knowledge." "Yeah." "That was an accident." "I think the man twisted his ankle." "Oh." "You want one of these?" "Yeah." "Hey, one for the lady and one for the philistine, please." "Wait." "What?" "I didn't know philistines when to museums." "Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah." "The Met just..." "Thank you." "The Met just hung a new show of this artist I like..." "Jeff Koons?" "You know him?" "I mean, you're familiar with his work?" "I've seen the show twice." "In fact, I just e-mailed my friend yesterday about how unbelievable I think he is." "Yeah, I totally agree." "What this guy does with mundane things... and he turns them into icons... it totally makes you rethink everyday objects." "Yes." "Noel, how did this happen?" "Hmm?" "You just, like, dropping out of nowhere and us having so much in common?" "That never happens." "Maybe..." "Maybe that's not what's happening." "I mean, me dropping out of nowhere." "Do you have another explanation?" "Yeah, as a matter of fact, I do." "Um... the planets aligning." "Look, maybe, uh..." "maybe I just got lucky." "I'm sorry." "I didn't..." "No, I'm sorry." "No, it's my fault." "I feel like a fool." "No, you're not." "You are this great guy, and I really like you." "I just..." "There's somebody else." "Mm-hmm." "It's not like we're seeing each other." "He's just an old friend." "I know." "I mean, you know, I know that it's confusing..." "I mean, that situation, it's..." "I know." "Yeah, I just need to work it out." "Yeah." "I don't want to lead you on." "I don't want to mislead you." "Um, I think honesty between us is really important to me." "Yeah, I mean, it's..." "it's important to me, too." "See?" "Something else we have in common." "Yeah." "Yeah." "Walk me home?" "(woman vocalizing over sound system)" "(newscaster chattering on TV)" "I don't agree with you." "I actively don't agree with you." "Uh, I didn't..." "I didn't say anything." "Look in the back of the university newspaper." "There are a dozen adds offering over $50,000 to an egg donor." "Oh, man." "Are you really thinking about doing that?" "People donate eggs all the time for cash." "But not to people they know." "That's my point." "Why shouldn't they help a friend?" "Who deserves to be a father more than Javier?" "I'm not saying he doesn't deserve to be a father, but with a baby that's half you?" "Why not?" "I don't know." "I just..." "Have you thought this through, 'cause I haven't?" "Yes, I have." "And quick, because you do these things impulsively sometimes." "This is not one of those times." "Are you sure?" "Yeah." "Hey, what's going on?" "I told my brother that Samuel and I were looking to have a baby, and he went ballistical, saying that... the kid will always be made fun of for having two fathers." "And then I got really angry back, and then I started saying some really awful things to him, and it's just bad." "I want to do it." "The baby..." "I want to look into it and see if I can harvest." "A baby?" "A baby." "Come here." "(chuckling) (sighing)" "Do you know what you are doing?" "Oh, yeah." "You're giving us a family." "Mom, I've known Javier for almost two years now." "He's been my boss, my friend." "I was his best man." "Of course I trust him." "But, Mom..." "Can I say something?" "Hang on a second." "I'll see you later." "Where are you going?" "To a movie." "Good luck." "She thinks I'm crazy." "You know what I think?" "I think this is a wonderful thing." "Thank you." "OK." "See ya." "Bye." "OK." "Sorry." "Yes, I will listen to your reasons one more time." "Oh, my God." "What?" "Oh, no!" "What are you doing?" "Turn that off!" "You got her password." "No, I did not." "She's a friend of mine." "That's a felony, Noel." "This is a great hook." "She's not a friend of yours." "She is a friend of mine." "You just want to date her." "Look what you're doing." "Turn that off." "Can you erase that?" "Turn it off!" "It's off, Noel." "You come into my room, I'm busy, I got..." "Relax." "Just tell me, are you..." "are you reading her e-mails?" "Between you and me, yes, I am, but..." "(gasps)" "I was only going to do it once, just to kind of..." "But now I'm competing with some guy named Tricky, and..." "Is that off?" "Tricky?" "Tricky." "He's some guy that she's known for, like, ever from summer camp, and now he's sending her flowers and taking her to Rangers games." "And all I'm..." "Oh, my God." "What?" "No, no, no." "The e-mail is gone." "So what?" "That's good." "Because the address to the old-age home is on the camera." "Give me that camera." "What old-age home?" "Can you stop and rewind it?" "What old-age home?" "The one where she volunteers, where I'm gonna volunteer." "Get it?" "Noel!" "Oh, my God, man!" "What?" "You're gonna try and win over a girl by pretending that you share her concern for the elderly?" "That's sick, man." "You got a problem." "Oh, I didn't..." "That sounds so scary." "Think about it." "No, you're right." "You're totally right." "I mean... here I am..." "I've been acting without any integrity just to..." "go out with some girl." "Right." "To date her." "I mean..." "That's..." "Sick." "Well, I'm sorry." "I didn't..." "I mean, I didn't mean to..." "Hey!" "Hey, back off!" "Noel?" "Jane." "Uh, hey, what are you doing here?" "I was about to ask you the same question." "Your move, Crane." "Here." "Come on." "Sit down." "Watch me dismantle Howie here." "Noel, look." "I know we have a lot in common, but this is strange." "I know." "You're following me." "Check." "What was that?" "(chuckling)" "All right." "I don't know anything about this game, but, um, are we winning?" "Or are we losing?" "We're losing, but I'm sensing a rally." "Hi." "Oh, I'm sorry." "Felicity?" "Uh, yeah." "The assistant told me to come in." "Are you Liz Wechter?" "Come on in." "When he's hungry, he expects food on the table." "Typical guy." "(chuckles)" "(squeaks) Sorry." "If I seem a little disorganized, it's because I'm operating on about three hours' sleep." "Oh, no, you obviously have your hands full." "Thanks to someone like you." "I needed an egg donor to have Jake." "So I know firsthand that what you're doing is wonderful." "What is it exactly that I'm doing?" "I just mean procedurally." "During the next four weeks, you'll be taking daily injections of various hormones designed to increase your production of eggs." "As a result, you may experience hot flashes, headaches and moodiness." "(Jake cries)" "Starting on the seventh day of your cycle, you'll get blood tests and vaginal ultrasounds to determine whether the eggs are mature." "When they are, a sonigraphic probe will guide a needle through your vagina into your ovaries where an egg follicle will be retrieved." "You may feel a little pinch, but you'll go home in an hour or two." "(Jake crying)" "I just met with this fertility counselor." "I had no idea how many needles are involved in this thing." "If you think it's a mistake, don't do it." "No, I'm gonna do it." "I just..." "You know, there are just so many details I didn't realize... like I have to sign this contract that..." "Well, I basically give up all rights and responsibilities for the child, including, and I quote," ""any say in the selective reduction of multiple births" ""and all financial obligations, irrespective of any physiological problems."" "(sighs)" "What's wrong?" "I'm trying to write a letter to Tracy." "I slept with Finn." "What?" "Yeah." "I would've told you sooner, but I got..." "Please, don't worry about me." "Uh, does Tracy know?" "Yeah." "Are you all right?" "I mean, what happened?" "I just got confused, you know." "I just..." "I ruined everything." "Elena." "Do you think if you had actually slept with Randy, do you think Ben would have forgiven you?" "You don't know what's gonna happen." "You guys..." "You can work this out." "(indistinct chatter)" "So a quick note before we begin." "Break will be in one hour." "And, as always, Vicki has brought in her delicious brownies for us to enjoy." "And I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say this." "I hope you hurry up and heal so I don't have to gain another ten pounds." "OK, um... who wants to get started?" "Um..." "Uh..." "I'm Ben." "(all) Hi, Ben." "Hey." "Uh..." "I..." "Um, I'm not so good at this." "That's OK." "None of us are." "You're here because someone close to you is an alcoholic." "Yeah." "Uh, yeah, my, uh... my, uh, my dad." "I, uh..." "I hate my dad." "And, um... that's all." "That's it." "That's enough." "Thank you." "Anyone else?" "As you all know, I'm Molly." "(all) Hi, Molly." "Hi." "Uh..." "Uh... the last time I spoke a few weeks ago," "I told you all about my boyfriend James." "I was determined to break it off, as you might remember." "Like some of you said, I, uh..." "I need to protect myself." "Just seemed like it'd be easier back then, you know?" "(sighs)" "'Cause James, he's going through some really bad times right now." "Uh, and so I couldn't break it with him, not yet." "And he's using all of the time... alcohol, drugs." "He's a bad influence on me, too." "I think that I'm addicted to an addict." "All right, excuse me." "Who cost us our bishop?" "You did!" "Uh-uh." "And our rook and both of our horses and a queen." "What do you want from me?" "I do not think Fishbeck has lost since, like, the Eisenhower administration." "That was fun." "I'm glad that you followed me." "I freaked out back there, didn't I?" "Yeah." "Uh, Noel, stuff like this doesn't happen, not to me." "I've got a test." "What if we didn't have that much in common?" "I mean, hypothetically." "Would it make a difference?" "Yes." "Come on." "You'd like me less if I said I didn't understand Jeff Koons?" "I never said I liked you." "Come to dinner with me." "Noel, I like you, but I was not kidding about this test." "Tomorrow then?" "I have plans." "I know, but this is important." "You know?" "I never told you I had plans." "No." "You're gorgeous and smart and funny and caring and... and, you know, of course you have plans." "I just wish they could've been with me." "Hey." "Is 7:30 OK?" "Yeah." "(footsteps)" "Hey." "Hey." "How're you doin'?" "Um, OK." "I was at this meeting last night, that meeting, and I was thinking about this egg thing." "I was just reading about it." "And you asked me what I think about it, and this is what I think about it." "I really don't want you to do it." "What do you mean, you don't want me to do it?" "Think about it." "If you do this, there's going to be a kid out there that's biologically yours, right?" "Yeah, but a kid who has two amazing parents." "But you don't know what they're going to do." "What if you disagree with how they raise the kid?" "I don't think that's going to be a problem." "What if it is a problem?" "You don't know what's gonna happen." "Like..." "Look at Julie for a second." "She was raised by two people who really loved her, but at some point she needed to know who her real parents were." "This is a totally." "different situation." "This is gonna be your kid." "You understand that?" "Your kid." "I totally hear what you're saying." "It logically makes sense..." "Then why are you doing it?" "This is so stupid." "You're always putting other people's needs in front of your own." "You're always doing that." "You can't keep doing that." "Wait a second." "Where is this coming from?" "Why are you so upset?" "I just really don't want you to do this." "Hey." "(cooing)" "What are you doing?" "What are you doing?" "What are you doing?" "What are you doing over there?" "(Isaiah cooing)" "We are low on Kenyan roast and Soho blend." "Why am I telling you?" "You're not working." "So, I think my brother's coming around to the idea because he got me a Baby Bjorn." "You know what that is?" "No." "It's this thing, and you look like a human kangaroo when you wear it." "Listen, Javier." "Um..." "I-I've been thinking a lot about this." "And... um, I actually had a long talk today with Ben, and, um... w-we actually got into a fight and..." "A-About the baby?" "Oh." "Ben... he's just not comfortable with it and..." "I guess I'm not really either." "Uh, yeah..." "No, I understand." "It feels horrible saying no." "It really does." "Forget it." "We'll..." "We got the, um, the Smith College graduate who seemed..." "(cooing)" "She seemed OK." "Javier..." "It's OK." "It's OK." "(chattering)" "I'm sorry I'm late." "With a bucket." "What bucket?" "Bucket in the question." "Oh, so just like any bucket?" "Yeah." "Um, where are we?" "Mechanics, problem 45." "Have we gotten into circuits yet?" "Lou just said we're doing mechanics." "I just want to make sure because Professor Skrumbis said there's going to be a short-answer question on circuits." "All right." "Then do circuits." "Fine." "I will." "You know what?" "I don't care." "I really don't care." "Do whatever the hell you want to do." "I really don't care." "The rest of us here are doing mechanics." "I think, actually, the rest of us need a break." "This is a study group, not group therapy." "Look." "Not that you care," "I couldn't sleep last night and... (sighs) I kept thinking about us and me." "I wrote it all down." "If you care to hear how sorry I am and how much I care about you, it's all in here." "You stole her e-mail password?" "Yes." "I know, I know." "I get it." "I'm dirt." "How can you ask me what to do?" "What else is there to do?" "I have to tell her?" "That's why you asked me." "You knew that's what I was going to say." "Yeah, I guess that's true." "You can't lie to this girl." "God, this poor girl." "You know what kills me is..." "all the books I've read and the classes I've taken, the people I've met at the senior house where she volunteers." "Well, I like them all." "So, in many ways, being sneaky has made me a better person." "Whatever." "You're so funny." "Why?" "Because you underestimate yourself." "You always have." "I have not." "I underestimate myself, you think?" "Just, if there's one guy who doesn't have to lie to get a girl's attention, it's you." "Trust me." "(door closes)" "You should lock your door." "This is Manhattan." "OK?" "What's wrong?" "Tragedy has struck." "Hi, Noel." "Hey." "Miss Smith College wants a meeting." "What's wrong with that?" "With the daddy and the mommy." "Oh, God." "Please?" "We've done this before." "And you were so good!" "No." "So, Mr. and Mrs. Quintata..." "Javier and Felicity is fine." ""Mr. and Mrs." is so... inappropriate." "(chuckling)" "OK." "Uh, Felicity and Javier..." "It's my fault." "What is?" "Our, um, problem." "You should know I-it's not for lack of love." "It's that I'm... omni-potent." "What were you..." "What were you about to say?" "Look." "I don't want you to think of this as a test or anything." "I wouldn't have asked for a meeting at all." "It's just that..." "I've been through this once before, and the couple lied." "God!" "What did they lie about?" "Well, they told me they were happily married, and then a week before I was supposed to donate, the wife filed for a divorce." "Oh!" "Well, we..." "will never do that." "We..." "We would never get a divorce." "Cannot happen." "It's just important to me for this child to be in a loving home." "Well, we have that, you know, in clubs, you know, almost from the day we met." "That is so romantic." "Tell me about it." "Um..." "Uh..." "I was applying for a job, and, um... there he was." "And you just knew?" "Yes." "No." "I mean, yes." "That was the first time we met." "Um, but, no..." "I mean, it wasn't..." "love at first sight." "No." "No, maybe, um... like, second or third..." "It was the time that I was wearing this Armani knock-off." "It was very slimming." "(laughing)" "I'm really sorr..." "What you're doing is amazing." "You deserve to know the absolute honest truth." "And I don't know how exactly to say this." "Creatively would be good." "Or, um... not at all." "Javier and I... um..." "He is the sweetest, dearest man that I know." "He is romantic and optimistic." "And the truth is he's my best friend, and I love him so much." "And I know..." "I know he would be a great father." "Oh." "This is so amazing." "It's like you knew exactly what to order." "Um... yeah." "It wasn't a good look?" "No, it worked for me." "(laughing)" "You know, you said you were, uh, confused." "You seem like the least confused woman I've ever met." "My friend Tricky..." "Mm-hmm." "He's like a brother." "Or he was like my brother until he started wanting more." "Oh." "So that's what you're confused about..." "him wanting more?" "'Cause I knew if we got involved, it would ruin our friendship." "Mm-hmm, but you're thinking about it?" "I was." "You were?" "Meaning..." "Meaning you're not now?" "No, I'm not." "Oh." "I'm not, because of you." "Me?" "Yeah." "(man) ♪ You can be my friend" "♪ And still still be a lady" "♪ Loving had to end" "♪ Our loving had to be that way" "(music continues) (moaning)" "Oh, my God." "♪ I can be your brother" "Uh... ♪ I ain't no lover" "Um... ♪ You can be my friend Um..." "And still still be a lady ♪" "This doesn't... feel right." "I mean, it feels fantastic, but..." "Yeah?" "Yeah." "Remember when I told you about that hypothetical?" "You know, how you and I, hypothetically, might not have that much in common?" "Yeah." "You remember that?" "Yeah." "Yeah." "Well..." "Um..." "It turns out that, uh, that it's not hypothetical." "I mean, not that we don't like the same things, because we do." "Yeah." "Um, just that we do now, which is the amazing thing." "Noel, I have no idea what you're talking about." "Um..." "Well," "I stole your e-mail password when I was setting up your computer." "What?" "Yeah, and in my, uh... pathetic and lame, um, attempt to try and get to know who you are," "I would, on occasion, uh, look at your e-mail..." "What?" "every day, uh, and... you know..." "You're a stalker!" "Uh..." "Get out now!" "That's fair." "(man) ♪ Somehow, some way... (Javier) I'm so excited." "No?" "Good?" "(chuckling)" "Ooh!" "It's like a fleecy ensemble!" "Elena said that if it's not the right color or, you know, what you wanted, you can always return it." "No, it's perfect." "I love the color." "It's fantastic." "And she also wanted me to apologize, you know, for her not being here." "She had to cram for an exam." "Oh, that's OK." "♪ Can come together" "From a lover's glance ♪" "Look, I know you and Felicity had a little tiff about, you know..." "You know it wasn't about you." "I know, I know, I know." "I just never want to be the cause of any friction." "You're not." "Don't worry about it." "OK." "Thank you." "Do you want a drink or something?" "Ooh, um..." "San Pellegrino with a twist." "Hi." "Excuse me." "I was looking for a Felicity or a Javier." "Do you know where I can find them?" "(Felicity) Oh, my God!" "Hey, I know we're not supposed to talk about the meetings outside the meetings..." "Yeah, I'd rather not." "But there's something I need to know." "Um, that guy you're dating, James, you say he's a bad influence on you." "What, does that mean that, uh, you're a user, too?" "So, um, those drugs Felicity found in her closet, those were yours?" "No." "No, they weren't mine." "I don't want to talk about this outside the group, OK?" "OK." "Oh, I got to get this." "Benjamin." "What is it?" "There you are." "(laughter) If he's a boy, I want him to be a jockey, just like you." "OK, I think it's time for a toast to Samuel and Javier and their growing family." "(door buzzes)" "I'll get it." "Aw!" "Thank you very much, "wife."" "If it wasn't for you, then, you know, all of this would never have happened, and we love you." "(door closes) The rest of you are just so-so." "(laughter) (Ben) Come on, you guys." "(Javier) And to my loving husband." "Mmm!" "(chuckles)" "Husband?" "Patty, what are you doing here?" "I was just bringing some medical records." "I'm sorry, but I can't do this." "(door closes)" "Patty, wait." "Please wait." "You said I deserved the absolute truth." "What I told you is true." "Javier will make a great father." "So will Samuel." "Any child would be so lucky to grow up in that home." "All I wanted was to help a couple start a family." "And that's what you're doing." "I am from a small town in Iowa." "I go to church on Sundays." "I'm sorry, but that is not my idea of a family." "Wait a second." "Javier and Samuel are the two most wonderful, loving people you will ever meet." "I'm sorry." "I'm just..." "Good-bye." "See you later." "See you later." "Hey, you were right." "There were circuits all over that puppy." "Yeah, you were right." "Um, did you, by chance, read the letter I wrote?" "I actually did." "I know it's a lot to ask, but do you think you could forgive me?" "I can't." "I'm sorry." "You order the rib special?" "No." "You sure?" "Yeah, I'm sure." "All right." "Prepare for greatness." "Before you tell me whatever it is I had to come all the way down here for you to tell me, you should know I'm not in a good mood." "This'll cheer you up." "You know I was Sean's hook, right?" "Virgin as co-hero?" "Did you know that?" "OK, long story short, he dumped me." "About that same time, this girl I know... this celestial being I've craved for, like, the last century..." "starts seeing this other guy." "And then, last night, she stands me up to go on a date with him, right?" "OK, it turns out this guy's a total fraud." "She's crushed." "She runs over to my place in tears, and before you can say, "Yes, there is a God," Jane and I have done the deed." "I'm sorry." "Uh, Jane?" "Noel, the eagle has landed." "The concerto has played." "The ball has left the yard, my man." "I'm no longer virgin territory." "Jane who?" "Scott." "Jane Scott." "What I wouldn't give to shake the hand of the jerk that sent her in my direction, huh?" "I mean, sure, it was a pity thing, but I needed it, you know?" "So I don't really..." "I don't care." "Oh, my God, here she is." "You're gonna die." "Hey, Tricky." "Hey." "She calls me Tricky." "Uh, this is Noel Noel, this is Jane." "Hi, Jane." "Noel's one of the greats." "You're really gonna like each other." "Nice to meet you." "The, uh..." "The pleasure was all mine." "Yeah." "So I guess what I'm trying to say is that..." "I feel safe here, which is important." "I got a chip today for being here one month." "It's not much." "It's just a chip, but... it means something, you know?" "It means that I'm trying to heal, and I am." "I just kind of know it's going to take a little bit longer than a month." "(sighs)" "And I lied to someone I care about today." "He asked me if some drugs he found were mine, and I said they weren't." "That's not the truth." "They were." "And I don't know why I said that." "I don't know why I lied, but I'm sorry that I did." "(car horns honking)" "Sorry." "Hey." "Hey." "Um, you're not going to tell Felicity about what I said in there, are you, 'cause you said you wouldn't." "You promised me." "No, I'm not going to tell her, but it's awkward." "I mean, she's my girlfriend, and when she found the drugs in your closet, it made her really uncomfortable." "And from what you said up there, it sounds like you're still bringing them in." "What I said in there is private." "Anything we say?" "Anything we say up there?" "So even if it hurts the people around you?" "That's what we do in there." "We talk about horrible details." "Um, I know, but it's just..." "I didn't hurt anybody." "I didn't say you had." "And you offered your help." "That's what being in there is all about." "It's a commitment to you helping." "And what I said in there..." "my secrets... that's me accepting your offer." "So we have an agreement now." "You can't go back on that." "(door opens)" "(door closes)" "Hey." "Hey." "How was your meeting?" "It was good." "What's going on?" "Oh, I finally got that gift in that I got for them." "It's a little duck towel for the bath." "I just keep thinking about that woman, how she didn't... how she wanted to donate an egg until she realized the baby would have two fathers." "I mean, that only makes me want to help Javier more." "(sighs) Well, listen for a second." "I, uh..." "I got really mad when you told me you were going to do this... donate an egg." "Yeah, it really upset me." "I was trying to figure out why this is bothering me so much." "And what I think it was was just the idea that you would share yourself with... somebody else in that way." "Um, it just felt weird to me." "But... that's my problem, not yours." "So if you have to do this," "I will support you in whatever you decide to do." "Thank you, but I think you were right..." "what you said before." "I mean, this would be my baby." "That's crazy." "I mean, it's one thing to help a couple have a child." "That's an amazing gift." "It really is." "But... to know the people..." "I mean, I would see that baby and... touch it and hold it and... watch it grow up." "I mean..." "I can't do that." "I can't become a mother." "I'm not ready for that." "They're going to have that baby." "You know that." "(woman) ♪ God said love was kind" "♪ Guess he didn't find" "♪ Cruelness kind" "♪ Love there is in this life" "♪ And I believed" "♪ In the angels" "♪ And I believed" "♪ In the rising stars" "♪ And I believed" "♪ I could walk" "♪ On water" "♪ I believed" "♪ Just because of who you are" "And I believed ♪"