" Excuse me." "You know if there's a good motel around here?" " A good motel?" "No, I don't think so." " So what do people do around here?" " Nothing." "You passing through?" " Yeah." "You?" " Passing through?" "No." "Where you going?" "Watch your step." " You got a roommate?" " Shh, shh, shh, shh." " This is fine." "You got a thing?" " What?" " You know... a condom?" " No, I don't think I do." " I think I'll check." " Oh!" "Oh." " I'm okay." "I got one." " Oh, great." "I think it's still good." " You do this a lot?" " What?" " You know, this." " No." " You shouldn't." "It's not healthy." " I don't." "_ OW?" " Amy?" " Shit." " Is that your roommate?" " Shh." "Uh, what?" " I can't sleep." "Try your side." " Everything hurts." "Can I come in?" " Just go into your room, and I'll be in in a sec, okay?" " You got a kid?" " No, it's my brother." "He's been sick." " Oh." " I got to go." "You don't have to wait." " Well, how long you gonna be?" " Quick." "I'll be quick." " I'll wait." " Everything was spilling out of my head, and it was like I was some son of government experiment." "And nobody cared." "Mom was there, and she couldn't stop yelling." ""Get it out." "Take it out." "More, more." "Kill him, kill him."" " Shh, shh, shh." "Okay." "Okay." "It's just a dream, okay?" "It's just a dream." "Shh." "Sorw." " He okay?" " Yeah, he had a brain tumor and had to have it removed." "It... damaged stuff, nerves." "Anyway, it's a long stow, but he doesn't have a bone back there." " You take care of him?" "Just him and you?" " And my sister." " Where's your parents?" "They die?" "My brother died last year in a car accident." "They say it gets easier, but it doesn't." "I tn!" "not to think about it, but it's not easy." "What?" " L'djust like if you stayed." "I woke up" "Half-d reamin'" "Someone somewhere" "Speakin'" "Lean in" "Heartbeat gone" "Hold on" "Whispered one" "With you, oh" "'Fme feels less strong." "Roll on heart" "And shoulder" "Wide eyes" "Never colder" "Sold her everything" "Swear I heard her ring" "Like an old time belle" "She'd sing" " Hey, Nat." "How are ya today?" " I'm okay." " It's $8.25." "Just give me eight bucks." "It's fine." "Don't worry about the quarter." "You're not alone." " Morning." " Mornin'." " Lucy, I didn't hear you come in last night." " That's because I didn't come in last night." "I didn't come home last night." "Were you worried about me?" " Oh, yeah, Lucy, you can't be staying out all night." " Why are you in such a good mood?" " I'm not." "Do you want some coffee?" " Mm-hmm." " Lucy, come on." "It's not even 10:00." " It's Saturday." "Where's Nat?" " He's at the store." " By himself?" " We're on a plan." " A plan?" "What kind of plan?" " Check it out." "It's on the fridge." " "One, get up, have coffee." ""Two, twice a week walk to store," ""tn!" "to talk to someone." ""Three, watch TV." ""Four, walk with Amy twice around the house." ""Five, more TV." "Eat a vegetable." "Six, write in journal half hour."" "He writes in a journal?" " Hi." " Sit, Nat." "Right here, come on." " You're stoned." "" "Allghin So?" "g]" " Did you talk to anyone?" " I bought food." " You got to try." " Why are you in such a good mood?" " I just asked her that." " What?" "I'm not." "All I did was ask if you tried talking to anyone." " What's the point?" "I could be a ?" "y." "Hell, I am a ?" "y." " Could be." " You're not a fly, Nat." "Okay, stop it." " She's so selfish." "You don't have to spend even!" "day alone." "You don't have to know that no one will ever want you, that you'll never have a girlfriend, that you'll be alone, always alone." "Some mornings you wake up and you...can't even piss." " Amy's a ?" "y." " No, she isn't." " Okay, guys, enough." " I wish you could feel the pain." " I feel the pain." "Don't you feel it, Amy?" " No, she can't feel it." "She has to take care of us." " You in the service?" " Yeah." " What branch?" " Marine corps." "Na-Uh, air corps." " How's it's going?" "Hey, how are you?" "You look..." " Can I have a light beer, please?" "Cheers." " Hey, fellas, somebody's droppin' depth charges." " Can I get one more?" "Lucy, wake up." "Come on." "It's time to go to school." "Wake up!" "Have a good day at school." " Yeah, right." " How did you like "The Sheltering Sky"?" " Uh, I mean... it really got to me, like, under my skin." " Here." "It's worth every page." " Thank you." " Fuck!" " Your turn." "Go!" "Wctory!" " Who's that?" "." "Hey" " Hi." " Could I come in for a minute?" " Yeah." "Yeah, I guess so." " Hey, how's it going?" "I'm Sam." "Look, this is a crazy idea, but whatever, right?" "Um, I just lost my job, and I need a cheap place to rent, and I was thinking if you had some extra space, you know," "I could help out and pay some rent." " Um..." "Well, we sure could use the money." "This could work." " Yeah." "It's great." "Better than living in my car." " I mean, what kind of shit person thinks he can live here?" "I mean, there's no room here." " It'll be fine if he's in the living room." " What--What about the TV?" " Um, we'll put the TV in the kitchen." " The kitchen?" "You can't put my TV in the kitchen." " Why not?" " Yeah?" " Um..." "I was just gonna go to the store, so I was wondering if you wanted to have dinner with us tonight." " Yeah, that'd be great." "Um, hey, you need a ride to the store?" " Oh, no, that's okay." "I can just-I can walk." " No, don't walk." "Just take my truck." "The keys are on the table, okay?" " Okay." "Thanks." "This is fantastic." "Thanks." " Yeah, she never cooks like this for us." " This is like normal family food." " That's not true." "I cook for you." " What happened to your parents?" " I drove them crazy." " I made pudding." "Shh." "Do you really think your sister would care if I used the front door?" " It's a school night." " Whose crappy suburban?" " Some guy who's renting the living room." " Cute?" " Old." "." "Hey" "Hi." " Hey." " Are you good?" "Are you comfortable?" " Yeah." "Yeah, this is great." " 'Cause, you know... my bed is a little bit more comfortable, like" " Yeah, I was thinking that maybe we shouldn't, you know, anymore, being that we're roommates now." " Oh, yeah, okay." "Totally." " You know, what do they say?" "Like, "Don't eat where you shit."" " I think it's, "Don't shit where you..."" "Okay." "Okay, um...good night." " Good night." " Sleep well." " Don't eat where you shit." "Fucking idiot." " "My house is as cold as the Atlantic Ocean." ""These people, my parents, are so blind in their motion." ""Thy can't there be some kind of magic potion that could bring them back to the land of emotion?"" " Oh, my god." "You are, like, amazing." "Thanks." "Now let's hear yours." " Come on." " Not after that." "No way." ". LUQY'" " "My mother told me 'Let's play hide and seek." ""You hide, I'll count to 10.'" ""I hid under the sink." ""I counted to seven." ""I could not remember what number came next, so she never looked for me."" " It doesn't rhyme or have any pentameter." " I know." "It sucks." " Hey, come on." "It doesn't suck." "You'll get the hang of it." " Thanks." " I better go." " No." "Why?" "Don't go." " My mom's gonna wake me up for school in a few hours." " You should sleep over sometime." "There's no way my mom would let me sleep here." "There's another one." "A suplex- AJ on top of Jerry-." "Going right back to it." " What's up?" "This shit is funny." "Hey, man, you want a beer?" " I don't drink." "" No?" " What, that bother you?" "Can't stand a guy who doesn't drink?" "Not cool, huh?" " No, I don't care." " Of course you don't." "Nobody does." "You're an outcast if you don't do that stuff, you know." "High school, I was like this--this outcast." "People like you making me an outcast." "I can't move my neck." " I hated high school." "You're a horrible bike rider." " Do you have more of these?" " That's my last one, but... my brother knows a dealer." " Are you gonna go to fifth period?" " I can't do math today." " Want to go to the mall?" "Five-finger discount." " And you try to tell how you feel about it." "You find that, out of all the words in the world, there are only" " Who would watch this?" "Hey!" "That's fine!" "That's a very pretty speech." " Want me to get that?" " I got it." "Hello?" " Now I want to make a speech." "Gentlemen of the Academy and..." " What a loser." "Can't believe she got caught shoplifting." "Save-man?" "Pathetic." "So you're a bum, huh?" " Son of." " Well, Amy doesn't need any more bums." " Have there been a lot?" " What?" " Bums." " Can you get that?" " Can't you get it yourself?" " I get dizzy when I bend over." "Just get it, all right?" " Here, man." " Cool." " Hey, dude..." "look, they're coming." " You just--You can't shoplift, all right, Lucy?" "You got to grow up." " I know." "I just always mess up." "Why do I always mess up?" " You don't always mess up." " Yes, she does." " See?" "It's not your fault, all right?" "It's me." "It's mine." "I'm just not doing a very good job." " You do a great job, Amy." " You do a great job." "Ready to go?" ". YEP" "." "Hey" "." "Hey" " I really like your brother." "He's a cool kid, you know?" " Yeah." "Good." "I'm glad." "Is everything okay?" " Oh, yeah." "Can I ask you a question?" " It depends." " You have an orgasm?" " What?" " You know, like, did you come?" "Didn't I act like I did?" " Yeah." "I mean, I just was thinking about how you are... in this house, you know?" "It's crazy here, and you don't yell or freak out, so I was just wondering if you feel me, you know?" " Do you really think you would be here if I didn't feel anything?" " Are you using me?" " No." " 'Cause I'm not a gigolo." "I could be yours." "So talk to me." "You know, tell me something." " What about?" " Well, you ask questions about a person, you learn stuff, you know?" "Just like..." " Okay, you start." "Ask a question." "_ OW?" "Your brother, did he really drive your parents crazy?" " No." "Where are you from?" " What?" "No." "You got to answer it better than that, come on." "Did he really drive your parents crazy?" "No, they just left." " Where'd they go?" " They said they were going to Florida." "Vacation." "And then they didn't come back." "They were kind of messed up anyway, but..." "I just got a postcard... that said..." ""Sorry, can't do it anymore." "So little time." "Love, mom and dad."" " I'm from Cleveland." " What are you doin' here?" " My whole sense of things kind of got out of whack after my brother died." "I was in my car." "I was driving the car, and we were both drunk." "That doesn't go away, you know?" "Thinking about him, wondering if he knew what was happening." "Did it hufi?" "Or was he mad at me?" "He went through the windshield." " Um, Sam, um..." " What?" " I'm sorry." "I'm just not good at this kind of talk." "It just... kind of makes me nauseous." "I'm sorry." "Sorry" "I could never take" "I was never one to be took" "Someone says we'll make it" "But I never thought that I could" "Listen up, I mean it" " What are we gonna do with this thing?" " I don't know." "It's been there for about a decade." " Does it work?" " No." " I'll take it to the dump if you want." "_ OW?" "Think I wouldn't notice" "Something else is fighting my fear" "If I had one more tn!" "I could fly with her" "And hide away the years" "If I had one more life" "I could die with her" "And whisper in her ear" " There's coffee if you want." " Oh, great." " You look cleaned up." " Yeah, I may get a job." " About time." " Yeah, I'm gonna get some money together, you know, go back on the road so I can get out of your hair." " You're not in my hair." " What are you doing?" " Um, this is my job." " You should come." "A little road trip might do you some good." " Oh, no, I can't go anywhere." " Where have you been all day?" " I don't know." " Where have you been all day?" " I don't know." " You want to come over tonight?" " I can't." "I'm punished." " So?" "Sneak out." " Look, I'll call you later." " Wait, do you want a ride to Creature's party Friday?" "I got the gas station guy to drive us." " Look." "There's my mom." "I'm not really allowed to hang out with you anymore." "So keep your distance, or my mom will take away my computer." " Hey, Nat." "How are ya this morning?" " Why are you so..." " So?" " Nice." "I just, um" "I care." "Bullshit." "Nobody cares." " I used to think that." "People care." "Hey, you want to sit down, eat with us?" " Eat here?" " Why not?" " Have you tried the cornbread?" " I like cornbread." " Sure, we could use a man." "Nine bucks an hour, 6:00 A.M." " Nine bucks an hour?" "Nine bucks an hour." "What do you make of death?" "Kind of crazy, right?" "You know how we're just here, and then we're not here?" "You don't really think about it, that death is forever." " What the fuck is this guy talking about?" " I'm just saying how we're all gonna die one day, you know?" "You're gonna die." "You're gonna be gone from this world, man." "And what's your life gonna be about?" "Sitting in this bar, getting fucking shitfaced?" " What are you talking about?" " It doesn't matter, man, 'cause..." "I think I found out what it's all about, you know?" "There's this girl, right, and she's, like" "She's, like, kind of awesome." "She's got, like--I don't know, like, a heart, you know?" "I met her right here in this very bar." "I was passing through." "Then I stayed." "It's like fate." " What's her name?" "She live in town?" " Oh, yeah, she lives right over here." "Her name's Amy." " Amy what?" " Uh..." "Weird." "I don't even know her last name." " Where's she live?" " She lives at 80 Flat Lane." " Amy Bear?" "If it's her, Amy Bear, then..." "Yeah, she's got a heart" " What?" " Nothing." "We know her." "She used to come in here... a lot." " "A lot."" "What happened to her anyway, huh?" "She disappeared into that house, doesn't come out no more." " Mm." "That's not true." "She must have come out the other night when she met Romeo here." "Mm." "Well, seriously, a lot of... sluts are actually really nice girls." " Whoa!" " Hey!" "Asshole!" " No." "A snake." "Temptation, you idiot?" "Look, Gary says that" " Isn't Gary all born-again, or whatever?" " Listen to me, Lucy." "Sam wants Amy, but he doesn't want us." "He's trying to take Amy away." " No." " Hi." "Mr. Banks?" "Yeah, no, the envelopes are ready for UPS." " Amy belongs here." " Amy can't go anywhere." " No." "Not if we can expose the truth that Sam is really a snake." " How do we do that?" " You have to seduce him." " Are you crazy?" "If I" "If I were to take a vacation, would that, like, be okay?" " Do you want Amy to leave us?" " What do I do?" " Well, you're a girl." "Figure it out." "Wear-- Wear, uh, some kind of a bra, and then have some son of a dress." "It's not that hard." " Okay, thank you." "Bye." " What's for dinner, Ame?" " Spaghetti, I think." " Where is Sam?" " What happened?" " Well, I just received some tough information." "Got me a little upset." " What information?" "_ This guy... wanted to pay me $9 an hour for construction." "$9 an hour my ass." "That's pure and utter bullshit." " Well, 9's better than freeloading." " It's good to stand up for your rights." " I stood up." " You don't look so good." " I'll be all right." " Here." " Since you didn't get a job and you can't pay the rent, maybe you could pick me up tomorrow from detention." " Oh, no, you don't have to do that." " Oh, it's cool, you know?" "I'll do it." " Thanks." " Is your last name Bear'?" " Yeah." "Sadly now, I'm a simple man" "Hang my head on what I can" "Overdone and overwrought" "There ain't a fight that I haven't fought Go home" "From here" " I have this hope." "This dream that if we're good, if we live our lives well, that there's something after all this, you know." "Just like this, but better because... there's no fear." "No one leaves." "No one dies because we're eternal." "Forever in paradise." " Paradise." " Yo." "Hey!" "Sorry I'm late-." "How was school today?" " Not too bad." " Yeah?" "Did you go to all your classes?" " Most of 'em." " Hey, what's that?" " Adderall." "It's fun." "Creature's having a party later." " Creature?" " I don't think that's his real name." "You should come." "He's old, too." "I mean, not like you." "Like, really old." "And most of the people there will be older than me, so you won't have to feel, you know, like a pedophile." " What's Adderall make you feel like?" " Just really social, and focused, and on, and kind of speedy." " Can I tn!" "it?" " It'll cost you." " How much?" " 30 bucks." " Is there, like, a family discount?" " 'Cause you're fucking Amy?" " All right, I'll give you ten bucks now, and 20 when I get a job." "Cool?" " You comm' m the party'!" "?" " I don't know." "Maybe." "_ OW?" " You shouldn't do so many drugs." " I'm only 16." " So?" " I got plenty of time to straighten out." " Yeah, good point." " Sam is coming to Creature's party tonight." "' Oh, yeah?" " I don't know." "You want to go?" " Me?" "No, I'm good." "My party days are kind of over." "But you guys have fun." " Yeah." " Here's your magic pill." " Lucy, I've told you, no drugs in the house, okay?" "Except for pot." " It's Adderall." " So?" " It's not a drug." " Yes, it is." " It's legal." " Only if you need it." " Hey, if it bothers ya, I won't do it." " You can do whatever you want." " How come he can take it and I can't?" " You know what?" "Both of you can do what you want." "Just do whatever you want to do." " Did I piss you off, Ame?" " No." " 'Cause I feel like I did." " You didn't." " Give it back." " What?" " The Adderall." "Give it back." " Why?" " You didn't piss me off, okay?" " Here, I'll give it back." " Look, I don't care!" "Both of you just do what you want." "Do whatever you want to do." " See what you did?" "Nat was right." "You are a snake!" " What do you mean I'm a snake?" " I don't have to go to the party, Amy, or I could come home, like, with a curfew." " Lucy, would you please just stop being a baby for five minutes?" "Please, just stop." " I hate you!" "Oh, shit." "Lucy." "Lucy." "Shit." "Lucy." "Wait!" "Lucy, come on." "I love you." "You didn't do anything wrong." "All right?" "Come on, now stop this." "Stop." "Come on, let's go back inside." "Let's go." " Amy." " What?" " I got bruises." " What?" "_ See?" " Oh, God." "What is it?" " I don't know." "I got 'em on my legs too." " What do you mean, sweetheart?" "What are they?" " I don't know." " Are you sick?" " No." " She should see a doctor." " Lucy, why didn't you come to me, huh?" "Why didn't you tell me?" "That's what you do." "You come to me." "Why didn't you tell me?" " Hey, hey, hey, relax." "There's no point in getting upset until we know what it is, okay?" " Okay, we'll go to the doctor, okay?" "Come on." " That's my ride to the party." " Okay." "Come here." "Have fun tonight." " Ow, Ame." "You're squashing me." "_ OW?" " Be safe." "Don't worry about it." "You'll take her to the doctor." " I hate the frickin' doctor." "He's got nothing but bad news for this family." " Did I miss the drama?" " Yeah." " That's a relief." " What's up, man?" " Amy, get me a carrot." " Oh, I'll get it." "Look at us, like a family, me getting Nat a carrot." " I can get my own carrot." " Look at that, Nat." "Amy's smiling, see that?" "It's good having me here, isn't it?" " Is it?" " It's good, right?" " Is it, Amy?" " Is it?" " I'm not saying it's not good, okay?" " Let me tell ya how I really got in a fight." " What do you mean?" "I thought you had a job interview." " Well, I did, but that's not why I got in a fight." "You see, after the interview," "I was feeling kind of down and all, you know, so I went to the bar, and... you know, I was talking to this guy, and he basically said you used to be, you know, a little..." " What?" " You know." " No." "I used to be a little what?" " Well, he said you used to be a little slutty." "You see, but the point is, it doesn't matter." "You see, I thought it does, but it doesn't." "As long as you're my slut, who cares?" " I'm nobody's nothing, okay?" " Get the hell out of here, all right?" " Amy, you don't understand." "That's not what I meant." " God or Jesus or somebody is gonna come back, and they're gonna judge who's been good and who's been bad." "And the good will go to Heaven, and the bad will go to hell." "Well, Amy, she'll go to paradise." "Do you know-- Where will you go, huh?" "She'll go to paradise, all right?" " What did he say it was supposed to be like, paradise?" " This is paradise right here." "This is it." "Yeah, this is paradise." "Halle-fucking-Iujah" "What?" " Can I just come in for one minute?" "Look, I'm sorry, okay?" "I can be stupid, and I just" " Well, you should be sorry-." "I went to college." "A year." "But I had a frickin' scholarship." "And then my parents just leave, just up and gone." "They just left." "And I had to come back and be a mom." " I'm sorry, okay?" " So I got a little stir-crazy." "What was I supposed to do?" " Look, it's just, you know, how we met." "I guess I was feeling a little uncomfortable with how you kind of picked me up in a bar." "Whatever." "It doesn't matter." " I picked you up in a bar because I'm a slut." "Duh!" "Why'd you come home with a slut if they freak you out so much?" " You have a nice butt?" " Screw you." "You're a liar." "You're probably not even from Cleveland." " I'm from Cleveland, Ohio." "My brother died, and Iwent to Mexico." " You went to Mexico?" " I drove there." "Lots of cigarettes, listened to a lot of music, and then I came through here and met you." "I like it here." " What was it like?" " What?" " Mexico." "What was Mexico like?" " Well, it wasn't like anything." " It was warm and beautiful." "And you were really far away." "See, I was reading this book... about Morocco, and there's sand." "There's warm sand under your feet." "And sometimes there's thunder, only it's not scary." "And there's this woman." "And she gets lost." "And when she gets lost, she can't get back, you know." " But you can." "See, you can get back." "That's what happened to me." "That's why I met you." "I want a safe place." " Tell me more about Mexico." " There's nothing to tell." " Tell me about the states you drove through." " Come here and kiss me, and I'll tell you." " Hey, have you seen Sam this morning?" " No." "." "Hey" "." "Hey" " The party was fun." " Good." " What are you doing?" " Can I ask you a question?" "_ OW?" " Do you think that it would, like... scare somebody off if you, like... really opened up to them, like, in bed?" " Thing is..." "I don't want to go to the doctor." " I have to go to the store." " Amy?" "Amy Bear, is that you?" "Oh, my God, I haven't seen you in forever." " Carrie." "Hi." "You look great." "Are you just in town visiting your mom?" " Yeah." "I'm actually getting my master's in early education." "So what are you up to?" "You were always creative." " Nothing." "I'm not doing anything." "I just, um--yeah." "That's great about you, though." " Nothing?" " Yeah, no, I just-- I don't know." " Yeah." "No, no." "I mean, we have so much time." " Yeah." " Yeah." "So how's your family?" " Uh... they're, um..." " Can I get your basket?" " Okay." "Thank you." "Um, it was nice to see you, Carrie." "Good luck." "Congrats on everything." " Look like you're having a rough time." " What?" "No, I'm fine." "I was just, um..." " It's $15.98." " Shit." "Shoot, I only have ten." "Um, let me just put back the bread." "I'll put back the bread, and then you can re-ring it." " It's fine." "Get me next time." " Okay, thank you." " Hey, uh... if you ever need to talk," "I talk to your brother from time to time." " What?" "No, I don't need to talk." " Hi, Amy." " Hi, Amy." " No Sam?" "Do you think he left?" " Probably." "I mean, he's not a moral person, Amy." " What do I care, right?" " Exactly." " He was just a pain in the ass." " Right." "I mean, you could do better." " I could find a rich man." " Yeah." " A rich man!" " Do you think, really?" " I don't know." " Do you want me to read you my journal, Amy?" " Why would he stick around here anyway, huh?" "I probably wouldn't like him if he stayed." "But still, he could have asked me if I wanted to go." " You don't want me to be sick, Amy, do you?" "See, that's why I don't want to go to the doctor, 'cause then you really get sick." "Remember Nat?" "He was just having a little trouble walking before he went to the doctor." "And Grandma and Grandpa, they all die after they go to the doctor." " Tell her to--she's giving me a frickin' headache." "Tell her to shut up." "I'm gonna cook in a bit, okay?" "Okay" " I could cook." "I don't know how to make anything, but I could cook." " No, it's okay." "I just have to pee." "I just have to pee." "I just have to pee." " Hey, guys" "What's going on?" " Amy." "I" " What's she doing?" " Someone should go in there." " Probably you." " She's in the bathroom?" " Oh, my God." "What if we have to pee?" " Here." "Here, I'll do it." " No, I can do it." "You couldn't go in there, huh?" "You know this is all your fault." "You should just go." " Look, I'm gonna make things better, okay?" "Yeah, right." " How do you--how do you do this freakin' coffee" "Oh, I got it." " No Amy?" " No." " Motrin' ." " I thought" " Are you okay, Amy?" " Making breakfast." " Have you been home all night?" " Yeah, since maybe a little after dinner." "Where were you last night?" " Where was I?" "Where were you yesterday?" " Oh, I took that construction job, $9 an hour." "Built a roof." " On." "Lucy, you should make yourself that doctor's appointment, okay?" "_ OW?" " Where's your stuff?" " I cleaned up." "I put the rest of my stuff on the top shelf of your closet." "I hope that's okay." " Here, let me do that." "You're making a mess." " No." "Here, let me help you." "I got that." "Sorry, I didn't" " Um... so you were all here last night... and you didn't..." " I didn't-didn't what?" " I just need to get out here." " What are you talking about, Amy?" " I've got a doctor's appointment." " Good." "Oh, good." "Good girl." " I got a gift for ya, Amy." " Shove it up your ass, Sam!" " No, let me explain." " No, just shove it, okay?" "Just shove it." "Just shove it!" " I told you you should have gone in!" " What?" " I just want to give you this gift." " I'm not safe enough?" "Is that it, Sam?" "I'm not safe enough?" "You fucking pussy." " No, no, no, no." "Just calm down, Amy." " Fuck you!" "Is that it?" " Calm the fuck down!" "Okay?" "Now, I want to take you out somewhere special tonight, okay?" "Just you and me." "Is that okay?" "Okay" "I want to do something, you and me." " Oh?" " Yeah." " I don't know." " You don't?" " What about them?" " Well, I think this would be really good for them." " I don't know." "They might die without me." " What do you mean without you?" " I just don't know if I'd be able to stop thinking about them." " What?" "No." "You see, they'd have both of us-- you and me." "I'd be really good to them." "I want a family." "I didn't know before, but that's what I've been looking for." " Family?" "What?" " Go on." "Just reach in there." " Ha." "It's a little thing, but I'll get you a better one when I get the money." "What?" "What do you think?" "Will you marry me?" " Where's Amy?" " Oh, we're gonna meet her and Nat for dinner after the doctor." " I told you I'm not going to the doctor without Amy." " Too bad." " You're not my father." " No, I'm not your father... but she didn't say, "no." She said, "I don't know."" "So I could be your fuckin' father any day now, okay?" "And even though I'm not your fuckin' father," "I'm still taking you to the fuckin' doctor." "'Cause I'm an idiot!" "I'm a fuckin' idiot!" "Get in the car." " Jesus." "Calm down." " Why you got that?" " Sam asked me to mam!" "him." " On." " What do you think?" " It looks good." "It's pretty." " About me getting married." " You want to?" " This dress was Mom's." " What was she like?" "What did she look like?" " Pretty." "Brown hair." " What's love like?" " It's wonderful." "But it doesn't make everything wonderful." "It doesn't make the parts of you that want, that wonder go away." " I wish I could feel it." " You're in love with me, aren't you?" " Well, yeah, but that's different." " Mm-mm." "No." "It's exactly the same thing." " What happened?" " The doctor says you do this to yourself?" "Why do you do that?" " Shit." "He'!" "" "Hey, it's cool." "Don't cry." "Hey, it's gonna be okay, all right?" "Hey, everything's gonna be fine, all right?" "It's okay." "You're gonna be all right." "Okay?" " Hey, Sam?" " Yeah?" " Could we just not tell Amy just yet?" "I mean, maybe you could just talk to the doctor, and he could tell you what I have to do, and you could tell me." "_ OW?" " Thanks." " Sure." " Hey." "Hi." " Hey." " What happened?" " He says everything's gonna be okay." " Sam." "Sam." "Sam." " Hmm?" " Sam." "I need to talk to you." "_ Now?" " I don't think I can do it." " What?" " Marry--get married." " Are you mad?" "Where are you going?" " I'm not gonna stick around here." " Well, I'm not saying that I want you to leave." " What are you saying, then?" " I just don't--I can't-- I don't want to say forever." "I need to be able to imagine something else for myself." " Well, then that's what you want." " That night when I cried, you heard, and you couldn't come in, right?" "You couldn't come in." "You can't take me away." "You want a family." " Look, I'm sorry about that, Amy-." "That was-- Look, I messed up, okay?" "But I can learn." "I can learn what to do if you cry." " And you'll be happy stuck in this house, day in and day out?" " Yes, I will." " Did you really go to Mexico, Sam?" " You don't know about the road, Amy." " Where are the keys to your car?" " On the dresser." " I don't know about the road?" " No." " But I could." "Why not me, huh?" "I could take these keys." "I could go." "I could go." "Why not me?" " Go ahead, take 'em!" " Fine!" "I will!" "'Cause you ever think about it, Sam, who I'd be if I didn't have all this shit, who else I'd be?" " You wouldn't be anyone." " Can I buy you a drink?" " Sure." " The thing that's hard about selling these respirators is that you have to go into hospitals, and you can get sick." " That sounds terrible." " But I'm not." "Sick, I mean." "Not now." "I mean, if we were to, you know, I wouldn't give ya a disease." " I got to go" " Oh, hey, where you headed?" " I don't--I don't know." "It was good to meet you." "Good luck with your respirators." " Oh, here, let me help you." " No, I'm good." "Thank you." " Oh, hey, come on!" "Oh, hey, hey, hey, you know, you shouldn't drive." "You're drunk." " I'm good." "Thank you." " I got a place to stay if you need someplace to go." " No, I'm gonna go." " Well, hey, I thought we were getting along." " No, we were." "I'm just really tired." " Well, then don't drive." "You having trouble with the key?" " No, I'm fine." "Thank you." " Oh, hey, what the fuck?" "Bitch!" " You look beautiful." " Wow." "You do look beautiful." " Are ya cooking'?" " Yeah." " You making a mess?" " I'll get better at it." " I'll do it." " Here." " Hey, Amy, what's it gonna be like when you guys get married?" " It'll be the same... except, um, there'll be two of us." "We'll take you for your walk." "We'll eat." "You'll watch TV." "Sam will have a beer." "Lucy will dance." "I'll read." "And we'll go to the doctor again and again if we have to." "We'll deal." "We'll go on." "We'll keep going... together... because we are a family." "We are a family." "I wanted to go there" "I wanted to see" "I wanted to open" "I wanted to be" "I wanted to listen" "I wanted to sound" "And I wanted to miss him" "I want to be found" "I wanted to be there" "I wanted to find" "I wanted to be there" "I wanted to go there by your side" "I know that you loved him" "I know that you tried" "I know that you whispered" "And I know that you cried" "And I know that you've gone now" "And I know it's all right" "But it won't be long now" "Until we're back in time" "I wanted to be there" "I wanted to find" "And I wanted to be fair" "And I wanted to go there by your side" "I wanted to be there" "I wanted to find" "I wanted to tell you" "I wanted to tell you" "Good-bye"